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Speaker 1: Decision. Hey, y'all, mi'sy.

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Speaker 1: I'm weazy and we are in la We just are

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Speaker 1: on the back. What do you say that? On the

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Speaker 1: heels of Baby and Awards, we were nominated for Best Podcast.

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Speaker 1: We didn't win it, but if you saw us, clearly

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Speaker 1: we looked like winners. Hello, and wanted y'all to know

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Speaker 1: if you live in London on May fifth, we're gonna

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Speaker 1: be there at the Earth Theater. It's our rescheduled climax

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Speaker 1: to a date that's right in CS. It's a brand

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Speaker 2: So make sure you go on over to whorehive dot

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Speaker 2: I figured we would just start with a little bit

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Speaker 2: of catch up of where we're at in our love

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Speaker 2: lives and things. If you guys are on Patreon, Weezy

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Speaker 2: came to Vegas with her little boo thing and we

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Speaker 2: all go together. I realized that not only is this

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Speaker 2: healing journey and therapy making it hard for me to

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Speaker 2: motherfucking date. You know what else, I realized my friends

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Speaker 2: being so fucking awesome is also like, so hear me out.

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Speaker 2: We were at dinner, and what I keep saying I

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Speaker 2: want is I would love a partner who's able to

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Speaker 1: We just did the ABN in Vegas.

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Speaker 2: I'm here in LA for work. I would love a

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Speaker 2: partner who could like pull up on me. I love

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Speaker 2: hotel sex. I've been saying it. Yeah, So I would

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Speaker 2: like someone to just be able to travel and be

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Speaker 2: people are like.

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Speaker 1: Well, that's a lot to ask My friends do it.

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Speaker 1: I don't think asking someone to show up for you

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Speaker 2: A lot to ask for If hear me out for

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Speaker 2: a man with a regular job, My life is not regular.

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Speaker 2: So if I meet someone who's not a celebrity or

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Speaker 2: even y'all know, I'd be dating ball players and the

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Speaker 2: guys that I fuck with. It's a lot to ask

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Speaker 2: for because people have their own lives. However, my friends

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Speaker 2: have also found a way to pull up on me

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Speaker 2: in any seat. They're actually asking me, bitch, sim of

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Speaker 2: your tour dates, which ones can I come to? And

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Speaker 2: so having like friends that are wanting to be a

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Speaker 2: make plans and create experiences, I realize this is something

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Speaker 1: I feel like I've been happy with my friends for

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Speaker 1: a long time. You have too, We've always had great friends,

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Speaker 1: travel and do shit with that shit. Do not keep

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Speaker 1: me for looking for Nichols. I don't know what it

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Speaker 1: mean I think that maybe because you've gotten to fill

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Speaker 1: And yes I did bring him last year. You brought

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Speaker 1: I actually enjoyed all of us hanging out together. And

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Speaker 1: Right, and I realized like, oh, like some niggas really

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Speaker 2: try them, but maybe you would.

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00:19:21,040 --> 00:19:23,119
Speaker 1: I just don't. I don't know, bro, Like I just

431
00:19:23,160 --> 00:19:26,320
Speaker 1: feel like if this was swaps, if one of your

432
00:19:26,320 --> 00:19:28,520
Speaker 1: homegirls was like I don't really felt was weazy like that?

433
00:19:28,560 --> 00:19:30,120
Speaker 1: But him me, when you come to Vegas. I feel

434
00:19:30,119 --> 00:19:32,879
Speaker 1: like Obi would be like, yeah, I feel like this

435
00:19:32,960 --> 00:19:34,879
Speaker 1: nigga would be like hell no. And I feel like

436
00:19:34,920 --> 00:19:36,800
Speaker 1: he would say hell no because he knows, like, I

437
00:19:36,800 --> 00:19:39,439
Speaker 1: don't want to make you look stupid. But Obay was

438
00:19:39,520 --> 00:19:43,119
Speaker 1: just so sex brained that sometimes he couldn't even sex

439
00:19:43,119 --> 00:19:47,600
Speaker 1: brain like seriously, he couldn't look at women like look

440
00:19:47,640 --> 00:19:49,600
Speaker 1: at moments like this is going to hurt this person.

441
00:19:50,240 --> 00:19:52,520
Speaker 1: What also, I think was the issue with him is

442
00:19:53,640 --> 00:19:56,000
Speaker 1: he knew how much he loved me and that he

443
00:19:56,000 --> 00:19:59,600
Speaker 1: wouldn't be in a relationship with someone else, right, so

444
00:19:59,640 --> 00:20:02,800
Speaker 1: he thought that was all that I would need. She

445
00:20:02,880 --> 00:20:04,680
Speaker 1: know I'm gonna be with her? Nigga, do you know

446
00:20:04,720 --> 00:20:06,800
Speaker 1: if I'm gonna be with you? Was a real thing.

447
00:20:07,000 --> 00:20:09,200
Speaker 1: Well no, he thought that you that you just wanted

448
00:20:09,200 --> 00:20:12,320
Speaker 1: a relationship, and so I'm just gonna fuck with our

449
00:20:12,359 --> 00:20:14,280
Speaker 1: third trip together in just two months. Right, we went

450
00:20:14,320 --> 00:20:17,000
Speaker 1: to Mexico twice, and I'm not saying I didn't feel

451
00:20:17,000 --> 00:20:18,640
Speaker 1: comfortable when I turned my back, but you know, I'm

452
00:20:18,640 --> 00:20:20,679
Speaker 1: like learning my trust. But for some reason this weekend,

453
00:20:20,680 --> 00:20:23,800
Speaker 1: maybe because it was poor and awards too, girl, I

454
00:20:23,840 --> 00:20:28,760
Speaker 1: was like, oh yeah, like now I felt good especially

455
00:20:28,800 --> 00:20:31,080
Speaker 1: the fact that, like I know, we were looking for

456
00:20:31,119 --> 00:20:35,800
Speaker 1: a bitch right because not kidding. Even in my relationship

457
00:20:35,800 --> 00:20:39,359
Speaker 1: with ol bab, looking for the threesome made me uncomfortable

458
00:20:39,400 --> 00:20:41,920
Speaker 1: sometimes dang because I wanted pussy, but I thought, oh,

459
00:20:41,920 --> 00:20:43,359
Speaker 1: if you don't want to fuck me, he'll try to

460
00:20:43,359 --> 00:20:45,760
Speaker 1: figure out a time to fuck the bitch. Whereas I

461
00:20:45,760 --> 00:20:49,760
Speaker 1: feel like I'm in my newer dating experience with this person,

462
00:20:50,320 --> 00:20:52,080
Speaker 1: I feel like they're like, I want to fuck another bitch.

463
00:20:52,080 --> 00:20:53,560
Speaker 1: I got one hundred hose that would want my Like

464
00:20:53,840 --> 00:20:55,720
Speaker 1: why am I going to fuck this up right now?

465
00:20:55,720 --> 00:20:58,880
Speaker 1: In Vegas? Like this is the goal? Like I don't know,

466
00:20:59,560 --> 00:21:03,439
Speaker 1: And yeah, I think I had so much trauma about

467
00:21:03,520 --> 00:21:05,560
Speaker 1: being turned around in what's going on behind my back.

468
00:21:06,000 --> 00:21:08,920
Speaker 1: Embarrassment and shame is something I was feeling a lot.

469
00:21:09,000 --> 00:21:10,480
Speaker 1: And I also had a lot of moments where I

470
00:21:10,520 --> 00:21:13,240
Speaker 1: was feeling triggered when you were going through shit. I

471
00:21:13,280 --> 00:21:15,520
Speaker 1: remember your Rory and Mall episode when I was like,

472
00:21:15,880 --> 00:21:18,760
Speaker 1: he did that to you, And there's these moments where

473
00:21:18,840 --> 00:21:20,480
Speaker 1: I could maybe even judge you, like why was she

474
00:21:20,520 --> 00:21:22,680
Speaker 1: taking back? But then I look at myself like why'd

475
00:21:22,720 --> 00:21:24,800
Speaker 1: I take him back? And it's like we always point

476
00:21:24,800 --> 00:21:27,439
Speaker 1: the finger at someone else, but not really ourselves. And

477
00:21:27,520 --> 00:21:30,160
Speaker 1: I should have been listening to the man that I was, Oh,

478
00:21:30,119 --> 00:21:33,119
Speaker 1: I ain't gonna hold you, see I was. I was like, ooh,

479
00:21:33,160 --> 00:21:35,879
Speaker 1: would not be joining all the women in Delulu. Bitch.

480
00:21:35,960 --> 00:21:39,679
Speaker 2: I was happily in Delulu and knew it, and just

481
00:21:39,800 --> 00:21:42,040
Speaker 2: I didn't ask what if I s either. I was

482
00:21:42,040 --> 00:21:43,800
Speaker 2: only gonna. I was gonna lead this nigga when I

483
00:21:43,840 --> 00:21:45,160
Speaker 2: was ready to leave him, which is what I say

484
00:21:45,200 --> 00:21:47,520
Speaker 2: all the time. Bitch, I'll tell my friends, girl, I

485
00:21:47,520 --> 00:21:48,880
Speaker 2: don't want to hear about this nigga no more. You don't

486
00:21:48,960 --> 00:21:50,520
Speaker 2: leave them when you're ready to leave them. And so

487
00:21:50,680 --> 00:21:53,439
Speaker 2: for me sharing it on the pod, I'm glad that

488
00:21:53,520 --> 00:21:56,040
Speaker 2: y'all got to join me in Delulu for so long.

489
00:21:56,480 --> 00:21:59,439
Speaker 2: But to me, I understood that I was doing what

490
00:21:59,480 --> 00:21:59,960
Speaker 2: most women do.

491
00:22:00,160 --> 00:22:01,960
Speaker 1: I liked him. The dick was fine.

492
00:22:02,160 --> 00:22:04,520
Speaker 2: He's so fine. I'm actually mad too. I like, I

493
00:22:04,600 --> 00:22:07,639
Speaker 2: was rating my fine niggas with my friends. That's what

494
00:22:07,720 --> 00:22:09,960
Speaker 2: I was, like, Who the finest niggas? You don't fuck?

495
00:22:10,000 --> 00:22:12,440
Speaker 2: So we talking about these things and I literally brought

496
00:22:12,480 --> 00:22:14,640
Speaker 2: my ex up. I was like, I think he's top four.

497
00:22:14,880 --> 00:22:16,800
Speaker 2: He tied with a niggas. But I was like, he

498
00:22:16,960 --> 00:22:19,560
Speaker 2: like top four of to me, the sexiest, and he's

499
00:22:19,640 --> 00:22:23,359
Speaker 2: number one with sex I can I he's not in

500
00:22:23,359 --> 00:22:24,000
Speaker 2: the four that I know.

501
00:22:24,040 --> 00:22:26,000
Speaker 1: You fucked. I'm sorry, I have to talk about this

502
00:22:26,040 --> 00:22:28,520
Speaker 1: off air. You loved him, No, no, no, no, he to

503
00:22:28,560 --> 00:22:31,359
Speaker 1: me was top four him green eyes, twenty four to seven,

504
00:22:31,480 --> 00:22:33,800
Speaker 1: they're in the top and then the other one I like,

505
00:22:33,960 --> 00:22:37,080
Speaker 1: I call him Detroit on the pot. So I mentioned

506
00:22:37,119 --> 00:22:39,080
Speaker 1: my foulk finest niggas. You're just talking about niggas. You

507
00:22:39,080 --> 00:22:42,200
Speaker 1: fuck manby You're you are doloting. Okay, all right, I

508
00:22:42,200 --> 00:22:45,159
Speaker 1: don't know get into I don't know what list you

509
00:22:45,160 --> 00:22:52,320
Speaker 1: got over there. Oh you know we mentioned him. He's five.

510
00:22:52,359 --> 00:22:54,480
Speaker 2: He's fine, but he not. He not top four or

511
00:22:54,480 --> 00:22:57,040
Speaker 2: five the first one you said. But then the first

512
00:22:57,119 --> 00:22:59,399
Speaker 2: one you said is short bitch. He was like, he

513
00:22:59,560 --> 00:23:01,080
Speaker 2: like five, he's not gonna make.

514
00:23:01,119 --> 00:23:03,560
Speaker 1: Gil y'all X had no hair, bab he was bald.

515
00:23:03,640 --> 00:23:05,800
Speaker 1: I like bitch. I like, mister clean hole. Don't do me.

516
00:23:06,160 --> 00:23:12,119
Speaker 1: I know before him, there was the first time for everything.

517
00:23:12,359 --> 00:23:20,440
Speaker 2: Well, let's get into our vanilla shit and this actually

518
00:23:20,440 --> 00:23:24,120
Speaker 2: may be me. Uh where I'm going in my dating journey.

519
00:23:25,000 --> 00:23:27,040
Speaker 2: This is from the New York Post and a woman

520
00:23:27,080 --> 00:23:29,399
Speaker 2: says that she is head over heels in love with

521
00:23:29,480 --> 00:23:32,200
Speaker 2: an oak tree, but it isn't about sex. I think

522
00:23:32,240 --> 00:23:33,480
Speaker 2: this is about to be me. I'm about to just

523
00:23:33,520 --> 00:23:36,800
Speaker 2: find some I love. If you fall for a tree

524
00:23:37,000 --> 00:23:40,400
Speaker 2: in the wood doesn't make a sound. A self proclaimed

525
00:23:40,800 --> 00:23:42,400
Speaker 2: eco sexual, bitch.

526
00:23:42,760 --> 00:23:43,760
Speaker 1: I ain't even gonna hold you.

527
00:23:43,800 --> 00:23:46,600
Speaker 2: I'm doing all these sexuals, all these goddamn titles. A

528
00:23:46,640 --> 00:23:50,280
Speaker 2: self proclaimed eco sexual took nature loving to the extreme

529
00:23:50,320 --> 00:23:54,240
Speaker 2: after becoming infatuated with an oak tree, which she sells

530
00:23:54,760 --> 00:23:58,159
Speaker 2: fills her with erotic energy. I don't know how to

531
00:23:58,160 --> 00:23:59,960
Speaker 2: tree make her pussy thunk, but that's what she said.

532
00:24:00,240 --> 00:24:02,240
Speaker 1: You get it. Dump. You see what I did there?

533
00:24:02,480 --> 00:24:06,919
Speaker 2: Anyway, there was an eroticism with something so big and

534
00:24:07,080 --> 00:24:10,800
Speaker 2: so old holding my back. She is a self proclaimed

535
00:24:10,840 --> 00:24:14,679
Speaker 2: eco sexual, defined by Here Come the eco Sexuals as

536
00:24:14,720 --> 00:24:20,680
Speaker 2: a person who finds nature romantic, sensual, and sexy, and.

537
00:24:20,800 --> 00:24:23,359
Speaker 1: Often imagines Earth is their lover. I ain't gonna hold you.

538
00:24:23,480 --> 00:24:26,280
Speaker 1: I'm tired of spiritual hos, bitch. That's what I was

539
00:24:26,280 --> 00:24:29,159
Speaker 1: about to say this for mommy. If you Crystal Rubbin

540
00:24:29,920 --> 00:24:36,960
Speaker 1: Star Jazon zodiac loving bitches. Why is it that these

541
00:24:37,359 --> 00:24:39,960
Speaker 1: you know what spiritual holds are the new vegans for me?

542
00:24:40,240 --> 00:24:42,600
Speaker 1: Not the new okay? And what way explain this? I

543
00:24:42,640 --> 00:24:44,679
Speaker 1: had a problem with the vegans and now y'all niggas

544
00:24:44,720 --> 00:24:46,720
Speaker 1: mean it off. I'm gonna tell you what I like

545
00:24:46,920 --> 00:24:48,320
Speaker 1: now because I ain't gonna hold you is they only

546
00:24:48,359 --> 00:24:50,160
Speaker 1: weed it off because they don't learn how to make

547
00:24:50,359 --> 00:24:54,920
Speaker 1: these motherfuckers that jackfruit tastes like oxtail pool pork chicken. Bitch.

548
00:24:55,040 --> 00:24:56,920
Speaker 1: I hate it because at one point, but bitch them

549
00:24:56,960 --> 00:24:59,080
Speaker 1: things kind of. I actually think vegans are starting to

550
00:24:59,160 --> 00:25:01,679
Speaker 1: understand the process. It ain't really hit yes, so now

551
00:25:01,680 --> 00:25:03,480
Speaker 1: they just making fucking jack fruit tastes like And I

552
00:25:03,480 --> 00:25:05,480
Speaker 1: have a vegan friend that was pregnant and they said,

553
00:25:05,480 --> 00:25:07,520
Speaker 1: oh no, that you need something else. So all the

554
00:25:07,600 --> 00:25:09,480
Speaker 1: vegans that are like I even saw vic mensa like

555
00:25:09,720 --> 00:25:11,600
Speaker 1: plant base ain't gonna make you gain weight. And it's

556
00:25:11,640 --> 00:25:14,439
Speaker 1: like even she was like, they had me say, and

557
00:25:14,520 --> 00:25:18,520
Speaker 1: you need a little paltry hope. Anyway, this is my

558
00:25:18,600 --> 00:25:22,120
Speaker 1: problem with spiritual I don't actually niggas too. The dudes

559
00:25:22,119 --> 00:25:24,159
Speaker 1: are doing it now too, the hotel niggas, Oh no,

560
00:25:24,240 --> 00:25:27,119
Speaker 1: they do. The spiritual people online don't seem real to

561
00:25:27,160 --> 00:25:29,879
Speaker 1: me because they're all selling it. And I don't believe

562
00:25:29,920 --> 00:25:33,920
Speaker 1: that when something is that real and precious to you,

563
00:25:33,920 --> 00:25:36,399
Speaker 1: you're gonna fucking make so much money on it. Like,

564
00:25:36,640 --> 00:25:38,960
Speaker 1: I just don't fucking believe it. Not saying I've never

565
00:25:39,000 --> 00:25:40,920
Speaker 1: contributed to the culture and paid for a psychic or

566
00:25:40,960 --> 00:25:45,760
Speaker 1: some shit, but I just believe that someone's spirituality constantly

567
00:25:45,800 --> 00:25:49,120
Speaker 1: being shared online or for profit isn't a real thing.

568
00:25:49,760 --> 00:25:53,840
Speaker 2: Which looking into this, she does have a self intimacy

569
00:25:53,880 --> 00:25:58,520
Speaker 2: guide and she specializes in erotic storytelling, which means there

570
00:25:58,520 --> 00:26:00,600
Speaker 2: may be some way in which she's fitting off of

571
00:26:00,680 --> 00:26:02,359
Speaker 2: even she bet she's in.

572
00:26:02,359 --> 00:26:05,800
Speaker 1: The New York polls sharing. Okay, well right though, but

573
00:26:05,920 --> 00:26:08,760
Speaker 1: like okay, example, one of my homegirls was like, oh,

574
00:26:08,800 --> 00:26:11,960
Speaker 1: let's go to this breathwork class. And I was like, okay,

575
00:26:11,960 --> 00:26:13,760
Speaker 1: she's a woo woo bitch, not a wool woo. And

576
00:26:13,800 --> 00:26:16,880
Speaker 1: when I got there, the girl that was leading it

577
00:26:17,000 --> 00:26:19,560
Speaker 1: gave hella like you know, oh my god, no, no,

578
00:26:19,560 --> 00:26:21,480
Speaker 1: no vibes, right, and I was kind of feeling it.

579
00:26:21,600 --> 00:26:23,240
Speaker 1: I was like, oh my god, we got me in

580
00:26:23,240 --> 00:26:25,280
Speaker 1: my bag, like my vaporation is just feeling so this

581
00:26:25,320 --> 00:26:28,119
Speaker 1: and that, and so then of course we all go

582
00:26:28,160 --> 00:26:30,280
Speaker 1: after drinks after and not saying spiritual bitches can't drinks,

583
00:26:30,280 --> 00:26:31,960
Speaker 1: fuck or do whatever they want. I'm not saying that.

584
00:26:32,960 --> 00:26:36,679
Speaker 1: But she starts to vent. You know, she knows I

585
00:26:36,760 --> 00:26:39,760
Speaker 1: work in talking about sex whatever, sexpert, what we're gonna say,

586
00:26:40,440 --> 00:26:42,960
Speaker 1: And like all of the insecurities that she was having

587
00:26:43,040 --> 00:26:45,359
Speaker 1: a relationship just started pouring out, and these things she

588
00:26:45,440 --> 00:26:47,879
Speaker 1: was confused about and how she can't manage it. And

589
00:26:47,880 --> 00:26:52,000
Speaker 1: I'm like, why don't you do some breathwork, bitch? You

590
00:26:52,040 --> 00:26:57,359
Speaker 1: could watch like how can And I'm not saying like

591
00:26:57,400 --> 00:27:00,919
Speaker 1: a therapist can't have a therapist, But there is a

592
00:27:01,000 --> 00:27:04,479
Speaker 1: lot of the preachiness in spirituality on social media that

593
00:27:04,640 --> 00:27:07,840
Speaker 1: is just not it for me. I'm curious disus Goldwin

594
00:27:07,920 --> 00:27:09,199
Speaker 1: is my spiritual person. I know.

595
00:27:09,440 --> 00:27:13,639
Speaker 2: Have you come across these spiritual type of women in dating? Like, okay,

596
00:27:13,840 --> 00:27:16,160
Speaker 2: would a spiritual woman be a red flag for you?

597
00:27:16,280 --> 00:27:18,080
Speaker 2: Like the girl who wakes up and has to burn

598
00:27:18,119 --> 00:27:19,680
Speaker 2: the stage of rubber crystals? Oh my god, I got

599
00:27:19,680 --> 00:27:21,760
Speaker 2: a charge them in the moon tonight. Oh my god,

600
00:27:21,840 --> 00:27:25,119
Speaker 2: your rising star mood? What does what does that do

601
00:27:25,240 --> 00:27:27,720
Speaker 2: for you in dating. Does it alarm you at all?

602
00:27:27,840 --> 00:27:28,480
Speaker 2: Is it a red flag?

603
00:27:28,600 --> 00:27:32,040
Speaker 1: This happened last weekend? What time were you born? Danny?

604
00:27:32,800 --> 00:27:34,359
Speaker 3: I went to the shorty's house and she had a

605
00:27:34,359 --> 00:27:38,480
Speaker 3: whole little like a like an altar. Yes, in the

606
00:27:38,520 --> 00:27:39,400
Speaker 3: back of her closet.

607
00:27:39,840 --> 00:27:40,880
Speaker 1: Wait did she show you?

608
00:27:41,000 --> 00:27:41,520
Speaker 3: Yeah?

609
00:27:41,800 --> 00:27:45,440
Speaker 1: Okay, okay, all up. Oh you haven't. No, we about

610
00:27:45,440 --> 00:27:47,880
Speaker 1: to judge you, bitch. No, I'm not no, I'm not No,

611
00:27:48,080 --> 00:27:50,159
Speaker 1: You're not going to judge people with alter litsten tell

612
00:27:50,160 --> 00:27:54,160
Speaker 1: you why my close homegirl was Dominican and then practicing

613
00:27:54,160 --> 00:27:57,560
Speaker 1: e foss since she was a child. Does that? Okay?

614
00:27:57,920 --> 00:28:00,680
Speaker 1: So I've never seen her poster altar on instaut I've

615
00:28:00,720 --> 00:28:02,879
Speaker 1: never seen her. Fucking need to tell niggas this, this

616
00:28:02,920 --> 00:28:05,960
Speaker 1: and that like. I think that you can exist in that.

617
00:28:05,960 --> 00:28:08,040
Speaker 1: That can be your religion, that can be your thing.

618
00:28:08,320 --> 00:28:11,119
Speaker 1: I didn't know Beth or well Danny you think, Danny, well,

619
00:28:11,119 --> 00:28:12,520
Speaker 1: how long we've been working with Beth? You know that?

620
00:28:12,520 --> 00:28:13,040
Speaker 1: Shu about it.

621
00:28:13,080 --> 00:28:15,920
Speaker 2: But Denny, as a man with with you being the

622
00:28:15,960 --> 00:28:19,120
Speaker 2: only one in the room. If if women have those things,

623
00:28:19,240 --> 00:28:20,239
Speaker 2: how did you receive that?

624
00:28:20,320 --> 00:28:23,720
Speaker 1: What did it turn you off? Did it? Were you inquisitive?

625
00:28:23,760 --> 00:28:25,720
Speaker 1: About it. How do you feel about that? The way

626
00:28:25,800 --> 00:28:28,840
Speaker 1: she made it, she explained it, it was she black. No,

627
00:28:29,000 --> 00:28:31,040
Speaker 1: she's a white woman. Sorry, Oh why.

628
00:28:32,880 --> 00:28:38,480
Speaker 3: Wasn't okay, I'm different anyways.

629
00:28:39,000 --> 00:28:47,560
Speaker 1: Knew me white with an altar satatic syld you like

630
00:28:48,200 --> 00:28:51,680
Speaker 1: brew her? She not if she's not as though, it's

631
00:28:51,720 --> 00:28:55,080
Speaker 1: not voodoo a white a white woman would all go ahead,

632
00:28:55,080 --> 00:28:56,840
Speaker 1: tell us about the wicked nigga you about to be

633
00:28:56,840 --> 00:28:59,360
Speaker 1: in the sucking pace one of them camels on him.

634
00:29:00,120 --> 00:29:03,080
Speaker 1: We got it. This is crazy.

635
00:29:03,360 --> 00:29:05,720
Speaker 3: But it was like non denomination. It was like Buddha.

636
00:29:05,760 --> 00:29:07,920
Speaker 3: She was talking about Buddha Jesus and not kind of stuff.

637
00:29:07,680 --> 00:29:10,160
Speaker 1: So like not Buddha, angio lost.

638
00:29:10,640 --> 00:29:13,480
Speaker 3: I was worried at first, and then the way she

639
00:29:13,560 --> 00:29:14,520
Speaker 3: explained it.

640
00:29:14,280 --> 00:29:18,400
Speaker 1: Was brought you to the second place offering. No, seriously,

641
00:29:18,760 --> 00:29:20,120
Speaker 1: that's what altars are offering.

642
00:29:20,320 --> 00:29:23,040
Speaker 3: Oh oh, I guess that was a little Yeah, it

643
00:29:23,120 --> 00:29:25,280
Speaker 3: was very spiritual. I was worried at first, but she

644
00:29:25,440 --> 00:29:28,000
Speaker 3: the way she explained it, it wasn't as scary.

645
00:29:28,080 --> 00:29:29,640
Speaker 1: You know, whether you're going a good thing you always

646
00:29:29,640 --> 00:29:32,040
Speaker 1: complained about. Oh, I guess it's not. You be talking

647
00:29:32,040 --> 00:29:33,640
Speaker 1: about how you losing your hair. If a piece of

648
00:29:33,680 --> 00:29:34,240
Speaker 1: that on the floor.

649
00:29:35,160 --> 00:29:36,760
Speaker 2: So wait, so wait, so are you going on a

650
00:29:36,800 --> 00:29:38,800
Speaker 2: second date? Like so it wasn't a red flag. You

651
00:29:38,800 --> 00:29:40,560
Speaker 2: were like on the second date. He was at her house,

652
00:29:40,560 --> 00:29:41,480
Speaker 2: so you fucked.

653
00:29:44,840 --> 00:29:58,760
Speaker 1: And snort? Yes, no, that I covering like four comedian.

654
00:29:59,080 --> 00:30:00,760
Speaker 1: You know, hopefully this you can put this part in

655
00:30:00,800 --> 00:30:02,240
Speaker 1: one of your set. I ain't gonna lie. This needs

656
00:30:02,240 --> 00:30:03,800
Speaker 1: to be a joke. We do need to. I want

657
00:30:03,800 --> 00:30:06,720
Speaker 1: to shout out Danny Sellers real quick. Danny works at

658
00:30:06,720 --> 00:30:09,080
Speaker 1: a wut of media in LA. But I've always said

659
00:30:09,160 --> 00:30:11,000
Speaker 1: when I saw his comedy specials, like, damn his nigga

660
00:30:11,080 --> 00:30:13,240
Speaker 1: quit soon. What what's the name of your comedy special?

661
00:30:13,360 --> 00:30:16,880
Speaker 1: Pound for pounds? It's shot really well and he's hilarious. Anyway,

662
00:30:17,120 --> 00:30:18,800
Speaker 1: don't fuck with this nigga because he like white hose

663
00:30:19,720 --> 00:30:23,840
Speaker 1: in the closet. I love I love black ladies, black ladies.

664
00:30:23,880 --> 00:30:27,640
Speaker 1: I like him, just not right now? Hold on, can

665
00:30:27,680 --> 00:30:31,320
Speaker 1: I ask you? Yeah, I have a friend that told

666
00:30:31,320 --> 00:30:33,080
Speaker 1: me that right now, he's only even one of the

667
00:30:33,120 --> 00:30:34,840
Speaker 1: fuck with white girls. And I said, why he goes

668
00:30:35,600 --> 00:30:37,360
Speaker 1: every time I meet a black girl, He's like, I'm

669
00:30:37,360 --> 00:30:39,600
Speaker 1: not meeting like black girls and ain't doing it in life?

670
00:30:39,680 --> 00:30:42,560
Speaker 1: Like I'm meeting black women at nice dinners or nice places.

671
00:30:42,840 --> 00:30:45,000
Speaker 1: He's like a lot of them will kind of pressure bro, Like,

672
00:30:45,280 --> 00:30:46,880
Speaker 1: I'm not trying to be in a relationship. I just

673
00:30:46,880 --> 00:30:48,960
Speaker 1: want to pussy And he's bitchest about to go for

674
00:30:49,000 --> 00:30:50,960
Speaker 1: this shit with a nigga. Have you felt like dating

675
00:30:51,000 --> 00:30:52,640
Speaker 1: white women maybe is less pressure?

676
00:30:53,000 --> 00:30:55,640
Speaker 3: I mean, I'm dating black ladies just as much. No,

677
00:30:55,720 --> 00:30:56,920
Speaker 3: I'm not one of them, he said.

678
00:30:56,720 --> 00:30:59,960
Speaker 4: I'm dating this ain't the only bitch. I'm fucking that's

679
00:31:00,080 --> 00:31:04,600
Speaker 4: what you say. I like, I like black ladies honestly,

680
00:31:04,600 --> 00:31:07,000
Speaker 4: preferably more. It's more of its culturally. Can we get

681
00:31:07,000 --> 00:31:09,280
Speaker 4: along culturally and then create? You got to be a

682
00:31:09,280 --> 00:31:11,720
Speaker 4: creator and I'm full time creator, so it can't. It's

683
00:31:11,760 --> 00:31:13,760
Speaker 4: hard to be with someone that's nine to five? Is

684
00:31:13,800 --> 00:31:14,440
Speaker 4: I don't have an.

685
00:31:14,680 --> 00:31:20,400
Speaker 1: I hear you decent all let's go. But isn't that interesting?

686
00:31:20,440 --> 00:31:23,680
Speaker 1: Like that's I mean, that's crazy though, what he just said.

687
00:31:23,840 --> 00:31:25,360
Speaker 3: But it's kind of true.

688
00:31:25,360 --> 00:31:27,840
Speaker 1: I guess, well, I think he's really just not wanting

689
00:31:27,880 --> 00:31:31,040
Speaker 1: to like date, and he's like, and it could be

690
00:31:31,120 --> 00:31:33,240
Speaker 1: this thing, and a lot of white women know it too.

691
00:31:33,320 --> 00:31:35,560
Speaker 1: I've had one or two white women tell me like, oh,

692
00:31:35,640 --> 00:31:37,720
Speaker 1: when I did black guys, they make it very clear

693
00:31:38,040 --> 00:31:40,800
Speaker 1: this is pussy. That's crazy. Though. I don't know if

694
00:31:40,840 --> 00:31:43,120
Speaker 1: I like that stigma being on. I mean, I know

695
00:31:43,200 --> 00:31:44,880
Speaker 1: it exists, but I hate that it does. The white

696
00:31:44,920 --> 00:31:46,720
Speaker 1: girl that I know that told me that, and it's

697
00:31:46,720 --> 00:31:48,800
Speaker 1: funny because I wanted to feel bad for her, but

698
00:31:48,840 --> 00:31:50,560
Speaker 1: I couldn't, and I don't feel that. I know we

699
00:31:50,640 --> 00:31:53,520
Speaker 1: got white listeners listening to this podcast, but she was

700
00:31:53,600 --> 00:31:55,600
Speaker 1: dating this dude and she was super intom I was like,

701
00:31:55,640 --> 00:32:01,640
Speaker 1: what happened? She was like, this sounds weird, but I

702
00:32:01,680 --> 00:32:03,720
Speaker 1: think that he started to really get interested in me.

703
00:32:04,000 --> 00:32:06,480
Speaker 1: And he had always talked about how his family would

704
00:32:06,480 --> 00:32:07,800
Speaker 1: be weird if you brought home white girl, and she

705
00:32:07,840 --> 00:32:08,920
Speaker 1: was like, I think he just had to cut it

706
00:32:08,920 --> 00:32:10,720
Speaker 1: because he don't want be white girl. Oh, I ain't

707
00:32:10,720 --> 00:32:14,280
Speaker 1: gonna hold you. I know, like black.

708
00:32:14,040 --> 00:32:16,920
Speaker 2: Families that would rather you bring home a same sex

709
00:32:17,080 --> 00:32:23,080
Speaker 2: person and be gay then bring home someone white. Like yeah, literally,

710
00:32:23,400 --> 00:32:25,360
Speaker 2: don't bring don't bring them crack because this way that's

711
00:32:25,360 --> 00:32:25,960
Speaker 2: what they be saying.

712
00:32:26,000 --> 00:32:29,080
Speaker 1: I've actually heard a new thing from someone African who

713
00:32:29,160 --> 00:32:32,080
Speaker 1: said his mama just said, don't bring home no American girl.

714
00:32:32,520 --> 00:32:35,680
Speaker 1: Because they don't know how to treat men, and that

715
00:32:35,840 --> 00:32:39,440
Speaker 1: other cultures apparently are better mothers over there. You agree,

716
00:32:40,480 --> 00:32:42,760
Speaker 1: you just look too like m like I'm just switching

717
00:32:42,760 --> 00:32:46,040
Speaker 1: the He's like, I'm just working, Like I'm just working.

718
00:32:46,040 --> 00:32:49,720
Speaker 1: But you know what, That's interesting though, because when I

719
00:32:49,760 --> 00:32:52,160
Speaker 1: was getting my hair rated in South Africa, which by

720
00:32:52,200 --> 00:32:55,440
Speaker 1: the way, I can't believe that she was only dif Oh,

721
00:32:55,720 --> 00:32:58,600
Speaker 1: we were talking a lot about dating. And I actually

722
00:32:58,720 --> 00:33:00,560
Speaker 1: don't know if I brought this up on page with you,

723
00:33:00,800 --> 00:33:02,680
Speaker 1: but I was curious to know if you've ever had

724
00:33:03,160 --> 00:33:06,080
Speaker 1: none of my homegirls that are African have maybe grown

725
00:33:06,160 --> 00:33:08,080
Speaker 1: up or dated in Africa, maybe they were born there

726
00:33:08,160 --> 00:33:11,680
Speaker 1: or whatever. Right, So the girls were asking me about

727
00:33:11,760 --> 00:33:13,880
Speaker 1: dating in America, and she was like, oh, do they

728
00:33:13,880 --> 00:33:15,600
Speaker 1: call you bitch? Do they say this? They always seem

729
00:33:15,680 --> 00:33:17,640
Speaker 1: so mean? Oh wow? And I was like oh. And

730
00:33:17,680 --> 00:33:19,000
Speaker 1: I was telling them how I was having a great

731
00:33:19,000 --> 00:33:22,400
Speaker 1: experience dying in Africa right now. And so I was

732
00:33:22,440 --> 00:33:24,800
Speaker 1: talking about something I cooked him and they were like, wha,

733
00:33:25,480 --> 00:33:28,680
Speaker 1: you have a job and you cook and like, and

734
00:33:28,760 --> 00:33:31,880
Speaker 1: I was like, oh, maybe this is a thing because

735
00:33:32,480 --> 00:33:35,480
Speaker 1: we are such an independent I'm independent. I got my

736
00:33:35,520 --> 00:33:38,760
Speaker 1: own shit, and but that's not the culture in many

737
00:33:38,840 --> 00:33:41,760
Speaker 1: other countries, right, yeah, so it must look like we

738
00:33:41,760 --> 00:33:44,840
Speaker 1: ain't doing shit for niggas, which I mean you up

739
00:33:44,960 --> 00:33:46,719
Speaker 1: until it took a long time of me to even

740
00:33:46,760 --> 00:33:50,600
Speaker 1: cook a meal. Bitch, you better come over bed, bitch.

741
00:33:52,120 --> 00:33:56,600
Speaker 2: Anyway, for today's episode, we have been having so many

742
00:33:56,800 --> 00:33:59,000
Speaker 2: great guests on the pod that I wanted to get

743
00:33:59,040 --> 00:34:02,480
Speaker 2: through some of these homes else because shit, we ain't

744
00:34:02,480 --> 00:34:03,560
Speaker 2: been answering y'all's mother first.

745
00:34:03,600 --> 00:34:06,000
Speaker 1: We haven't. We've and baby, we got a lot of them.

746
00:34:06,040 --> 00:34:08,320
Speaker 1: Fuck the guests, bitch, we've been having even though our solos,

747
00:34:08,360 --> 00:34:10,360
Speaker 1: we've been having too much fun, Like where were at

748
00:34:10,440 --> 00:34:10,719
Speaker 1: right now?

749
00:34:10,760 --> 00:34:10,920
Speaker 3: Dan?

750
00:34:11,040 --> 00:34:13,759
Speaker 1: And I'm like, shit, we gotta oh right good. We're

751
00:34:13,760 --> 00:34:14,920
Speaker 1: gonna get through a couple of the years.

752
00:34:15,360 --> 00:34:19,440
Speaker 2: So the first one is the threesome ultimatum, okay, which

753
00:34:19,520 --> 00:34:22,880
Speaker 2: y'all know don't ever work. Y'all, stop with the ultimatum.

754
00:34:22,920 --> 00:34:25,280
Speaker 2: There's a whole show called ultimatum, and it don't.

755
00:34:25,120 --> 00:34:26,600
Speaker 1: Ever work for none of them. Motherfuckers.

756
00:34:26,760 --> 00:34:29,160
Speaker 2: Don't give people an ultimatum. Just let them go on.

757
00:34:29,200 --> 00:34:30,879
Speaker 2: They marry way if they not give you what you want.

758
00:34:30,880 --> 00:34:33,360
Speaker 2: But anyways, that's gonna be my answer probably to this email.

759
00:34:33,600 --> 00:34:35,879
Speaker 2: Let's see what they have to say. Hey, y'all, here

760
00:34:35,920 --> 00:34:38,320
Speaker 2: we go. I'm twenty three. Here We're gonna help you out, bitch.

761
00:34:38,719 --> 00:34:41,480
Speaker 2: Hey y'all, I'm a twenty three year old industry worker

762
00:34:41,520 --> 00:34:43,520
Speaker 2: from New York and have been with my current boyfriend

763
00:34:43,560 --> 00:34:46,960
Speaker 2: for four months after being just friends for two years.

764
00:34:47,360 --> 00:34:50,640
Speaker 2: We're very sexually active and have engaged in multiple threesomes

765
00:34:50,680 --> 00:34:54,360
Speaker 2: in the past that worked too enjoyable before we actually

766
00:34:54,360 --> 00:34:57,200
Speaker 2: officially started dating. Now that him and I are dating,

767
00:34:57,520 --> 00:35:00,000
Speaker 2: I kind of want him to myself and can't write

768
00:35:00,120 --> 00:35:02,680
Speaker 2: my head around sharing him in the bedroom without giving

769
00:35:02,719 --> 00:35:05,200
Speaker 2: a whole bunch of rules that he won't enjoy following.

770
00:35:05,800 --> 00:35:08,000
Speaker 2: He thinks I just need to get more experience with

771
00:35:08,040 --> 00:35:10,600
Speaker 2: women on my own so I can be more comfortable

772
00:35:10,640 --> 00:35:12,680
Speaker 2: having a woman in the bedroom for a threesome or

773
00:35:12,719 --> 00:35:15,040
Speaker 2: a foursome. But I think I just don't want to

774
00:35:15,040 --> 00:35:18,440
Speaker 2: share him with another woman. Recently, he's told me that

775
00:35:18,520 --> 00:35:20,960
Speaker 2: he doesn't see a relationship working out if I'm not

776
00:35:21,080 --> 00:35:24,439
Speaker 2: willing to have another threesome. He doesn't even care who

777
00:35:24,480 --> 00:35:26,360
Speaker 2: the girl is. He just wants to fuck me with

778
00:35:26,400 --> 00:35:28,880
Speaker 2: another girl. I'm not sure what to do because I

779
00:35:28,960 --> 00:35:31,560
Speaker 2: love him, but I'm also not about to compromise my

780
00:35:31,560 --> 00:35:34,640
Speaker 2: boundaries and force myself to do something I don't want

781
00:35:34,680 --> 00:35:34,960
Speaker 2: to do.

782
00:35:35,440 --> 00:35:38,279
Speaker 1: Please help and be gentle, y'all be do we hat shit?

783
00:35:38,680 --> 00:35:42,000
Speaker 1: Love you guys, and can't wait to read your book. Hmm.

784
00:35:42,760 --> 00:35:46,120
Speaker 1: This is an interesting one because I know that you've had.

785
00:35:46,000 --> 00:35:50,560
Speaker 2: A lot of three so I actually shared I dealt

786
00:35:50,560 --> 00:35:53,520
Speaker 2: with this in my last relationship, that we were going

787
00:35:53,560 --> 00:35:55,560
Speaker 2: to the club so much and inviting so many people

788
00:35:55,560 --> 00:35:58,600
Speaker 2: in that I think some of our connection with each

789
00:35:58,600 --> 00:36:00,839
Speaker 2: other lost a bit, and we had so much fun

790
00:36:00,880 --> 00:36:04,000
Speaker 2: being around other people. It became a conversation that I

791
00:36:04,080 --> 00:36:05,880
Speaker 2: want to stop doing this. I want to stop bringing

792
00:36:05,920 --> 00:36:11,200
Speaker 2: other people into the bedroom. And at the moment, I

793
00:36:11,239 --> 00:36:12,400
Speaker 2: don't think he wanted to do it.

794
00:36:12,400 --> 00:36:14,040
Speaker 1: You say it became a conversation. It became a.

795
00:36:13,960 --> 00:36:16,399
Speaker 2: Conversation first because I was like, I think we need

796
00:36:16,440 --> 00:36:18,359
Speaker 2: to pause on this. Not that it would never happen again,

797
00:36:18,400 --> 00:36:20,879
Speaker 2: but we needed to take a pause. I don't feel

798
00:36:20,920 --> 00:36:23,800
Speaker 2: like it was an ultimatum, and I think that maybe

799
00:36:23,840 --> 00:36:26,799
Speaker 2: how she's looking at it, maybe right now, fresh into

800
00:36:26,840 --> 00:36:28,560
Speaker 2: this relationship, she doesn't want to.

801
00:36:28,520 --> 00:36:30,560
Speaker 1: I'm going to give her the dialogue for that, right, Okay,

802
00:36:30,560 --> 00:36:32,920
Speaker 1: I want to just snowball in this because what you're saying,

803
00:36:32,960 --> 00:36:36,000
Speaker 1: you said, I can't do it. Maybe right now, there's

804
00:36:36,080 --> 00:36:38,520
Speaker 1: moments where you open and you close your relationship. Yes,

805
00:36:39,160 --> 00:36:42,040
Speaker 1: for me, I actually talked about this this weekend when

806
00:36:42,040 --> 00:36:45,120
Speaker 1: we were at Poppy's sake. I was like, Yo, I

807
00:36:45,200 --> 00:36:46,759
Speaker 1: know this open shit. We talk about a lot, but

808
00:36:46,800 --> 00:36:49,839
Speaker 1: there are moments that I'm going to maybe possibly you know,

809
00:36:49,920 --> 00:36:53,400
Speaker 1: if we get into and to myself, right and so

810
00:36:54,560 --> 00:36:56,880
Speaker 1: and again we're talking about what we would want our

811
00:36:56,920 --> 00:36:59,920
Speaker 1: relationship to look like. Yep, right, like still kind of

812
00:37:00,000 --> 00:37:02,440
Speaker 1: figuring out if it's a thing for us, And I said,

813
00:37:02,760 --> 00:37:07,120
Speaker 1: pregnancy is one that I know for sure absolutely fucking closed. Right,

814
00:37:07,400 --> 00:37:10,000
Speaker 1: That's a sacred moment. It is. There's so many times

815
00:37:10,040 --> 00:37:12,640
Speaker 1: where I've thought about my friends and open relationships and

816
00:37:12,640 --> 00:37:14,839
Speaker 1: how they've been able to feel. And also I think

817
00:37:14,880 --> 00:37:19,040
Speaker 1: there's moments of like even holidays. Right, This sounds super simple,

818
00:37:19,480 --> 00:37:23,680
Speaker 1: but when I was with Obay, I remember holiday time

819
00:37:24,719 --> 00:37:27,160
Speaker 1: he would kind of like art buzzles around Thanksgiving. My

820
00:37:27,160 --> 00:37:29,120
Speaker 1: family used to live in Orlando. He'd kind of want

821
00:37:29,120 --> 00:37:30,719
Speaker 1: Todays moment. And I'm like, Damn, I'm just kind of

822
00:37:30,719 --> 00:37:33,520
Speaker 1: in this little cocoon right now. I don't necessarily know

823
00:37:33,560 --> 00:37:36,360
Speaker 1: if I want to feel that, like you are able

824
00:37:36,360 --> 00:37:39,120
Speaker 1: to open and close your relationship. You know why because

825
00:37:39,800 --> 00:37:42,959
Speaker 1: as the person that's in the relationship, you're the priority. Yep.

826
00:37:43,400 --> 00:37:46,200
Speaker 1: If the person you're dating can't handle an open, closed situation,

827
00:37:46,520 --> 00:37:48,359
Speaker 1: they may not be for you. That's what you need.

828
00:37:48,920 --> 00:37:53,040
Speaker 1: And we're always feeling guilty about making someone feel stifled

829
00:37:53,320 --> 00:37:55,400
Speaker 1: or making them feel like we're giving them boundaries. I

830
00:37:55,400 --> 00:37:57,960
Speaker 1: know your ex talked about that having rules, where it's like,

831
00:37:58,080 --> 00:38:00,160
Speaker 1: how could you even have rules when you've done all

832
00:38:00,200 --> 00:38:02,600
Speaker 1: these things with Mandy. However, I mean.

833
00:38:02,520 --> 00:38:05,239
Speaker 2: Rules and boundaries, though, are allowed and need to be

834
00:38:05,400 --> 00:38:09,319
Speaker 2: enforced in open relationships. And again, I think I like

835
00:38:09,360 --> 00:38:12,719
Speaker 2: that what you said open close relationships are open relationships

836
00:38:12,800 --> 00:38:16,360
Speaker 2: are non ethically non monogaous relationships. I think that people

837
00:38:16,400 --> 00:38:18,880
Speaker 2: assume as soon as you join into the lifestyle, now

838
00:38:18,920 --> 00:38:20,600
Speaker 2: you have to keep up with all this. No, it

839
00:38:20,680 --> 00:38:23,479
Speaker 2: needs to be a constant conversation with your partner. Hey,

840
00:38:23,880 --> 00:38:25,560
Speaker 2: let's take a break from this a little bit. You

841
00:38:25,600 --> 00:38:27,520
Speaker 2: were allowed to do this same the same way we

842
00:38:27,560 --> 00:38:30,560
Speaker 2: talk about dry January or like ways in which we

843
00:38:30,680 --> 00:38:35,240
Speaker 2: sometimes like recluse or take away drinking or drugs or partying.

844
00:38:35,600 --> 00:38:37,800
Speaker 2: That's the same when it comes to inviting other people

845
00:38:37,800 --> 00:38:38,480
Speaker 2: into the bedroom O.

846
00:38:38,520 --> 00:38:40,680
Speaker 1: Their energy is a lot same, a lot. And when

847
00:38:40,719 --> 00:38:42,920
Speaker 1: we were talking about a few weeks ago on the

848
00:38:42,960 --> 00:38:44,960
Speaker 1: episode of Christina where I was like other people on

849
00:38:45,040 --> 00:38:47,799
Speaker 1: days and shit like that. Bro, there's so many times

850
00:38:47,800 --> 00:38:50,200
Speaker 1: where I've been in settings recently and I'm like, I

851
00:38:50,239 --> 00:38:51,440
Speaker 1: just kinda want to be with you right now. I

852
00:38:51,480 --> 00:38:53,239
Speaker 1: just want to be with you right now, and like

853
00:38:53,360 --> 00:38:55,640
Speaker 1: I need to lead er or even maybe I need

854
00:38:55,719 --> 00:38:59,560
Speaker 1: to be alone. Yeah, you know, Like I think that

855
00:39:00,600 --> 00:39:03,840
Speaker 1: we need to focus more on ourselves while in relationships

856
00:39:03,840 --> 00:39:06,000
Speaker 1: instead of so much thinking well, we'll please my partner

857
00:39:06,480 --> 00:39:09,400
Speaker 1: as greezers, which she could. She sounds like she is

858
00:39:09,440 --> 00:39:13,799
Speaker 1: she does. It sounds like she's fighting it. She's like,

859
00:39:13,960 --> 00:39:15,600
Speaker 1: he's gonna break up with me if I don't give

860
00:39:15,680 --> 00:39:17,200
Speaker 1: him this. But I really don't want to do it.

861
00:39:17,440 --> 00:39:19,640
Speaker 2: And I think that she just needs to maybe put

862
00:39:19,640 --> 00:39:21,719
Speaker 2: a time frame on it because she could change. But

863
00:39:21,880 --> 00:39:24,200
Speaker 2: in some time, if he's still pressuring.

864
00:39:23,800 --> 00:39:26,040
Speaker 1: Her, maybe this maybe not more time for him to say, hey,

865
00:39:26,080 --> 00:39:29,160
Speaker 1: I need to feel more comfortable, okay, because I don't

866
00:39:29,160 --> 00:39:31,640
Speaker 1: want anybody I don't like to feel more comfortable, because

867
00:39:31,680 --> 00:39:33,919
Speaker 1: he's already suggested, well, maybe you just need to play

868
00:39:33,960 --> 00:39:35,440
Speaker 1: with more women to feel more comfortable.

869
00:39:35,480 --> 00:39:37,440
Speaker 2: Like he's even pressuring her to be with you know

870
00:39:37,480 --> 00:39:39,680
Speaker 2: what I mean. So she's just not in that space

871
00:39:39,760 --> 00:39:41,759
Speaker 2: right now. So the conversation needs to be like I

872
00:39:41,800 --> 00:39:44,239
Speaker 2: would love to revisit this maybe in a couple months,

873
00:39:44,239 --> 00:39:46,120
Speaker 2: but for the moment, can we really just enjoy each other?

874
00:39:46,800 --> 00:39:47,319
Speaker 1: That's it.

875
00:39:47,880 --> 00:39:50,400
Speaker 2: He's really not looking to just enjoy you by yourself.

876
00:39:50,800 --> 00:39:55,120
Speaker 2: These other people. Maybe, Yeah, what did someone say? I

877
00:39:55,120 --> 00:39:56,640
Speaker 2: don't know if I've said it on this podcast, but

878
00:39:58,640 --> 00:40:02,400
Speaker 2: I remember crying to a friend about how this guy.

879
00:40:02,239 --> 00:40:04,239
Speaker 1: Said that I was too much or like, you know,

880
00:40:04,440 --> 00:40:07,319
Speaker 1: my mora told oh, and she said, oh, yeah, you

881
00:40:07,360 --> 00:40:08,680
Speaker 1: know what you need to say to him the next

882
00:40:08,680 --> 00:40:11,200
Speaker 1: time you're doing too much, find someone that does little.

883
00:40:11,480 --> 00:40:13,880
Speaker 1: I am too much. I do a lot for you.

884
00:40:14,840 --> 00:40:17,200
Speaker 1: I bring a lot to the table. Maybe you need

885
00:40:17,239 --> 00:40:20,320
Speaker 1: to find someone that is smaller. That means women need.

886
00:40:20,200 --> 00:40:22,439
Speaker 2: To be okay with just walking away from someone who

887
00:40:22,520 --> 00:40:24,680
Speaker 2: does not fit them, but also.

888
00:40:25,239 --> 00:40:28,680
Speaker 1: The power in being able to not be scared of

889
00:40:28,719 --> 00:40:32,360
Speaker 1: when you need things like you can't tell him this

890
00:40:32,400 --> 00:40:34,000
Speaker 1: and be like, oh this here, you're gonna break up

891
00:40:34,040 --> 00:40:36,120
Speaker 1: with me. You need to have your chest tied because

892
00:40:36,239 --> 00:40:39,160
Speaker 1: women are confident and know what they want and it

893
00:40:39,239 --> 00:40:41,920
Speaker 1: better really leave And if he really wants you, he

894
00:40:42,040 --> 00:40:44,400
Speaker 1: gonna see that you're putting your foot down and he

895
00:40:44,520 --> 00:40:46,560
Speaker 1: not gonna want to lose you. He gonna sit here

896
00:40:46,560 --> 00:40:48,560
Speaker 1: and Ben, it's not gonna be the ultimated. Now, what

897
00:40:48,600 --> 00:40:52,360
Speaker 1: I would tell you is if threesomes is the only

898
00:40:52,400 --> 00:40:56,480
Speaker 1: spicy sex you're having, that is a problem. Yeah. If

899
00:40:56,520 --> 00:40:58,600
Speaker 1: sex clubs is the only spicy sex, which you were

900
00:40:58,600 --> 00:41:00,759
Speaker 1: telling out the other there toys, we did a whole

901
00:41:00,800 --> 00:41:02,920
Speaker 1: but that's my point. Yeah, if the sex club is

902
00:41:02,960 --> 00:41:05,560
Speaker 1: the only thing you do that's spicy, that's a problem.

903
00:41:06,440 --> 00:41:10,040
Speaker 1: Anybody listening, like, you cannot have one dimension with your

904
00:41:10,160 --> 00:41:13,640
Speaker 1: kink shit right. For example, this is a true story.

905
00:41:14,239 --> 00:41:18,600
Speaker 1: I have a friend of mine that's very into masaculum,

906
00:41:18,719 --> 00:41:22,600
Speaker 1: Like she wants to fucking be hit clothes, fists and stuff.

907
00:41:22,840 --> 00:41:24,279
Speaker 1: And she told me that it's been a little bit

908
00:41:24,280 --> 00:41:27,360
Speaker 1: difficult for her because she's like, girl, I've wanted to

909
00:41:27,360 --> 00:41:29,280
Speaker 1: go to work, but like she can handle pain, like truly,

910
00:41:30,320 --> 00:41:32,279
Speaker 1: and she said she kind of had a little bit

911
00:41:32,320 --> 00:41:35,440
Speaker 1: of a shift recently where it was making her feel

912
00:41:35,520 --> 00:41:36,960
Speaker 1: a little shitty. She's been with her partner in a

913
00:41:37,000 --> 00:41:39,960
Speaker 1: long time and they lived together, but she's like, bro,

914
00:41:40,320 --> 00:41:41,960
Speaker 1: that's the type of sex we have when it's wild,

915
00:41:41,960 --> 00:41:44,360
Speaker 1: and now I don't even know what the fuck to do. Yeah,

916
00:41:44,400 --> 00:41:46,680
Speaker 1: and so she's like looking for new shit, and I

917
00:41:46,719 --> 00:41:49,480
Speaker 1: think that we can't have only one lane. So I

918
00:41:49,480 --> 00:41:53,000
Speaker 1: would definitely say trying introducing something new that you've never done.

919
00:41:53,440 --> 00:41:59,719
Speaker 2: Maybe he pease them, that's simple. This next letter is

920
00:41:59,719 --> 00:42:03,080
Speaker 2: from my listener. All right, what's good. I'm a truck driver,

921
00:42:03,239 --> 00:42:04,839
Speaker 2: so I had plenty of time to listen to all

922
00:42:04,880 --> 00:42:07,080
Speaker 2: of your episodes. I can't tell y'all how much I

923
00:42:07,080 --> 00:42:09,600
Speaker 2: appreciate the work. The podcast you built is fun, it's honest,

924
00:42:09,640 --> 00:42:10,400
Speaker 2: it's educational.

925
00:42:10,400 --> 00:42:10,719
Speaker 1: Thank you.

926
00:42:11,239 --> 00:42:12,920
Speaker 2: I've learned so much from y'all, not only in the

927
00:42:12,960 --> 00:42:15,880
Speaker 2: obvious sense it's a sex pod, but documenting your growth

928
00:42:15,920 --> 00:42:18,960
Speaker 2: is business women, especially in partnership, is so valuable to

929
00:42:19,000 --> 00:42:19,919
Speaker 2: anyone trying to.

930
00:42:20,239 --> 00:42:23,640
Speaker 1: Make shit shake. One of my biggest regrets is not

931
00:42:23,680 --> 00:42:27,480
Speaker 1: getting on stage in San Francisco. Anyway. The reason I'm

932
00:42:27,600 --> 00:42:31,239
Speaker 1: writing is I'm talking to a high net worth individual.

933
00:42:31,360 --> 00:42:33,959
Speaker 1: I'm not that, right, bitch. She has an important job

934
00:42:34,560 --> 00:42:35,280
Speaker 1: that has.

935
00:42:35,080 --> 00:42:37,560
Speaker 2: Her flying to different parts of the world and a

936
00:42:37,600 --> 00:42:40,399
Speaker 2: personal business that deals in money I've never seen.

937
00:42:40,920 --> 00:42:43,200
Speaker 1: She's older and cool as hell.

938
00:42:43,120 --> 00:42:46,239
Speaker 2: In the nerdy way. She's spicy, white, Eastern European and

939
00:42:46,280 --> 00:42:49,680
Speaker 2: lives in London. I definitely have my insecurities, but she

940
00:42:49,760 --> 00:42:52,640
Speaker 2: started dropping the l box after four to five times

941
00:42:52,640 --> 00:42:55,439
Speaker 2: meeting in person in like three years. I started saying

942
00:42:55,440 --> 00:42:57,040
Speaker 2: it back. I don't know if it's real or just

943
00:42:57,080 --> 00:42:59,560
Speaker 2: something to say, but I definitely like her. This is

944
00:42:59,560 --> 00:43:02,239
Speaker 2: getting so I was good to the point. Recently she

945
00:43:02,440 --> 00:43:04,480
Speaker 2: asked if I would meet her in Africa during one

946
00:43:04,480 --> 00:43:08,399
Speaker 2: of her business trips. Wheezy, would you take your first

947
00:43:08,440 --> 00:43:11,560
Speaker 2: trip to the Motherland with a white mandy? Now that

948
00:43:11,640 --> 00:43:14,520
Speaker 2: you have money, would you pay the upfront costs for

949
00:43:15,400 --> 00:43:20,200
Speaker 2: a man to be floud for a flud oh to

950
00:43:20,280 --> 00:43:23,880
Speaker 2: be reimbursed? Y'all are fired to sign a nigga in

951
00:43:23,920 --> 00:43:25,840
Speaker 2: the scar. So he's asking if you would go to

952
00:43:25,920 --> 00:43:28,880
Speaker 2: Africa with a white person and asking me if I

953
00:43:28,920 --> 00:43:30,959
Speaker 2: would front the money to pay for him to come,

954
00:43:31,440 --> 00:43:32,919
Speaker 2: and he reimburses me later.

955
00:43:33,320 --> 00:43:36,920
Speaker 1: Okay, hold on, let me explain here. This is very interesting.

956
00:43:37,040 --> 00:43:40,759
Speaker 1: Okay oo, So Mandy's been Africa Africa a few times.

957
00:43:40,800 --> 00:43:42,800
Speaker 1: I've only been once just now, right, it's only to

958
00:43:42,840 --> 00:43:46,800
Speaker 1: South Africa. However, I thought this was a woman writing

959
00:43:46,840 --> 00:43:49,760
Speaker 1: about a lesbian relationship. Oh and you said signed a nigga.

960
00:43:50,440 --> 00:43:52,680
Speaker 1: At first, I was like, oh, you're a girl in

961
00:43:52,719 --> 00:43:54,640
Speaker 1: the car. You're a black girl going with a white

962
00:43:54,640 --> 00:43:56,279
Speaker 1: girl to Africa. Whatever you brought your friend.

963
00:43:56,520 --> 00:44:00,120
Speaker 2: This is a black man dating a white woman. Yes,

964
00:44:00,239 --> 00:44:04,800
Speaker 2: it's the temptation, the temptation.

965
00:44:08,239 --> 00:44:10,719
Speaker 1: I'll say this. I went to Africa with my friend

966
00:44:10,800 --> 00:44:14,040
Speaker 1: because he was on tour. And Mandy has talked about

967
00:44:14,040 --> 00:44:16,000
Speaker 1: going to Africa. Were her friends cause they're Lincoln And

968
00:44:16,040 --> 00:44:18,640
Speaker 1: that's the thing. He didn't say what part of Africa?

969
00:44:18,719 --> 00:44:20,480
Speaker 1: I don't think right, but I was gonna. I wanted

970
00:44:20,480 --> 00:44:22,520
Speaker 1: to just make this point. Going to Africa with an

971
00:44:22,560 --> 00:44:27,279
Speaker 1: itinerary is kind of cool because you're you're kind of like, oh,

972
00:44:27,280 --> 00:44:29,280
Speaker 1: all right, like I'm assuming she's got the hotel figured

973
00:44:29,320 --> 00:44:31,879
Speaker 1: out or whatever, like something about that. It's so far

974
00:44:31,960 --> 00:44:34,360
Speaker 1: that it was easy, Like my first time going to Tokyo,

975
00:44:34,480 --> 00:44:36,840
Speaker 1: Like I remember being like whoa, I don't even know

976
00:44:36,880 --> 00:44:38,800
Speaker 1: what the fuck I'm doing here? Like, why didn't I

977
00:44:38,840 --> 00:44:41,160
Speaker 1: make plans? I'm like googling on the plane. I do

978
00:44:41,239 --> 00:44:42,759
Speaker 1: think it's good when you're going to a big new

979
00:44:42,760 --> 00:44:44,400
Speaker 1: place to go with someone that kind of has a

980
00:44:44,400 --> 00:44:46,160
Speaker 1: bunch of shit to do that's already lined up. If

981
00:44:46,200 --> 00:44:52,120
Speaker 1: that's the case, I guess if the trip is free.

982
00:44:51,760 --> 00:44:55,240
Speaker 2: I'll be honest. We're talking about so Africa is a continent.

983
00:44:55,320 --> 00:44:57,080
Speaker 2: We know, we don't need y'all hopping in the fucking thing.

984
00:44:57,160 --> 00:45:01,000
Speaker 2: Oh also me, South Africa with a white it's easier.

985
00:45:01,080 --> 00:45:06,120
Speaker 2: It's easier than like Ghana, Nigeria, Senegal, like these are

986
00:45:06,200 --> 00:45:07,000
Speaker 2: other places I've been.

987
00:45:07,080 --> 00:45:08,839
Speaker 1: You going with a white person at these places? That's

988
00:45:08,880 --> 00:45:10,400
Speaker 1: a good point. And she not going to build a

989
00:45:10,480 --> 00:45:14,239
Speaker 1: village for these niggas or something. What is she going

990
00:45:14,280 --> 00:45:17,600
Speaker 1: there for? I what I need to know what she

991
00:45:17,719 --> 00:45:20,480
Speaker 1: going for? Are you going to help the people?

992
00:45:20,600 --> 00:45:23,040
Speaker 2: Otherwise if you just going there as a colonizer or something,

993
00:45:23,120 --> 00:45:25,200
Speaker 2: South Africa might work out. What I can't say that

994
00:45:25,840 --> 00:45:27,279
Speaker 2: what that's what they be going over there for. It

995
00:45:27,320 --> 00:45:29,880
Speaker 2: makes them feel better. I'm just saying, what is the

996
00:45:29,920 --> 00:45:33,960
Speaker 2: reason that she's going You know the white guilt, you

997
00:45:34,000 --> 00:45:34,440
Speaker 2: know what I mean.

998
00:45:34,680 --> 00:45:37,520
Speaker 1: So it depends because Ghana like just got pulled back.

999
00:45:37,560 --> 00:45:38,920
Speaker 1: Well I'm saying that too, because.

1000
00:45:38,640 --> 00:45:41,000
Speaker 2: Ghana Witch, I was the lightest person that I saw

1001
00:45:41,040 --> 00:45:44,759
Speaker 2: in Ghana, Like in Nigeria, there's a difference in I

1002
00:45:44,760 --> 00:45:47,799
Speaker 2: didn't know people you know that I've been in.

1003
00:45:47,920 --> 00:45:50,440
Speaker 1: So I was telling we were hanging out with just

1004
00:45:50,480 --> 00:45:52,360
Speaker 1: a lot of friends, right and this is like December

1005
00:45:52,400 --> 00:45:55,240
Speaker 1: and Johannes Brag so just mixing match and talking. And

1006
00:45:55,440 --> 00:45:56,960
Speaker 1: I was saying to this black girl, like, bro, I've

1007
00:45:56,960 --> 00:45:59,960
Speaker 1: be seeing so many interracial culfors here a couple excuse me,

1008
00:46:00,640 --> 00:46:02,600
Speaker 1: and like in the States, me and my homegirls be

1009
00:46:02,600 --> 00:46:04,759
Speaker 1: shading them and shit, low key when we see like

1010
00:46:04,840 --> 00:46:08,000
Speaker 1: litt niggas with a white girl and it's just sorry,

1011
00:46:08,040 --> 00:46:11,640
Speaker 1: it's kind of something we do. It isn't man. But

1012
00:46:12,000 --> 00:46:15,839
Speaker 1: she said, Andy, we're still judging you too, but white

1013
00:46:15,840 --> 00:46:17,480
Speaker 1: girls nobody do it. We do that shit. I know not,

1014
00:46:17,520 --> 00:46:20,200
Speaker 1: but yeah, she said something I found so interesting. She said,

1015
00:46:20,200 --> 00:46:24,879
Speaker 1: weazy apartheid just ended. Yeah, no, I learned about She said,

1016
00:46:24,920 --> 00:46:26,640
Speaker 1: a lot of these black men are just fucking these

1017
00:46:26,640 --> 00:46:28,960
Speaker 1: white girls because they're like you, God damn right on

1018
00:46:29,040 --> 00:46:30,919
Speaker 1: fucking this white bitch. She's like, they have a really

1019
00:46:30,920 --> 00:46:33,520
Speaker 1: big power trip. She said. In the States, it's an

1020
00:46:33,560 --> 00:46:37,399
Speaker 1: allegiance and an alliance to wealth, she said, Here they

1021
00:46:37,440 --> 00:46:40,120
Speaker 1: actually feel like they're a conquered They feel more like

1022
00:46:40,200 --> 00:46:42,880
Speaker 1: fuck you to white people when they date white people interest.

1023
00:46:42,960 --> 00:46:45,880
Speaker 1: She said, So the reasoning in the oppression with that

1024
00:46:45,920 --> 00:46:48,040
Speaker 1: black men had not saying black men, obviously we don't

1025
00:46:48,080 --> 00:46:50,520
Speaker 1: even till hello. But she's like, you know, it was

1026
00:46:50,520 --> 00:46:54,520
Speaker 1: something we saw in our lives, whereas it's a little

1027
00:46:54,560 --> 00:46:58,040
Speaker 1: older for you, and she's saying that it's a different thing.

1028
00:46:58,680 --> 00:47:00,480
Speaker 1: So I think you're right. That's a great point in

1029
00:47:00,480 --> 00:47:03,000
Speaker 1: South Africa, probably not anywhere else. I don't know. But

1030
00:47:03,600 --> 00:47:05,759
Speaker 1: if the trip is free, I would always want to.

1031
00:47:05,880 --> 00:47:08,439
Speaker 1: But no, that's what it seems like too. He brought

1032
00:47:08,480 --> 00:47:13,600
Speaker 1: out being flewed out, like uh, now that you would

1033
00:47:13,600 --> 00:47:17,919
Speaker 1: you pay the upfront costs and be reimbursed. So he's not, so, no,

1034
00:47:18,480 --> 00:47:19,400
Speaker 1: I'm not gonna hold you.

1035
00:47:19,480 --> 00:47:23,080
Speaker 2: I'm not gonna If I'm gonna fly a nigga out,

1036
00:47:23,400 --> 00:47:25,680
Speaker 2: A part of me would be more turned off to

1037
00:47:25,760 --> 00:47:27,560
Speaker 2: feel like I got he gotta set up a payment

1038
00:47:27,560 --> 00:47:28,040
Speaker 2: plan to pay me.

1039
00:47:28,280 --> 00:47:31,160
Speaker 1: I mean he already seems like he knows that. No

1040
00:47:31,280 --> 00:47:34,400
Speaker 1: to me, like the reimbursement to me will not happen.

1041
00:47:34,440 --> 00:47:36,239
Speaker 1: My homewoy told me he does that because he's like, hey,

1042
00:47:36,239 --> 00:47:37,960
Speaker 1: these bitches we having miles and ship, ain't about to

1043
00:47:38,000 --> 00:47:40,120
Speaker 1: fucking type in yours tsa pre check. I'll send you

1044
00:47:40,120 --> 00:47:43,439
Speaker 1: the money. How much is this plate? Yeah? No, no, no, no,

1045
00:47:43,520 --> 00:47:46,720
Speaker 1: I'm thinking of He's like getting there and then getting

1046
00:47:46,719 --> 00:47:48,920
Speaker 1: there Like to me, I'm not I'm not flying a

1047
00:47:48,960 --> 00:47:52,319
Speaker 1: nigga out. I though, will tell somebody this one will right.

1048
00:47:52,400 --> 00:47:55,040
Speaker 2: But so what I'm saying is that's not so. He

1049
00:47:55,080 --> 00:47:58,040
Speaker 2: asked me this question. So I'm answered, I'm not telling

1050
00:47:58,080 --> 00:48:02,000
Speaker 2: the nigga to reimburse me. That's corny. So to me,

1051
00:48:02,719 --> 00:48:05,520
Speaker 2: I always ask a guy, especially now that I do

1052
00:48:05,600 --> 00:48:08,400
Speaker 2: have money. The hotel is covered, I might pay for

1053
00:48:08,440 --> 00:48:09,880
Speaker 2: a dinner while you're out with me. I'm gonna look

1054
00:48:09,880 --> 00:48:12,120
Speaker 2: out while you me, girl, I invite green Eyes to come.

1055
00:48:12,320 --> 00:48:13,759
Speaker 2: I'm like, we'll pull up to New York. You could

1056
00:48:13,760 --> 00:48:16,120
Speaker 2: stay with me. I'll cook, I'll feed you. If we

1057
00:48:16,200 --> 00:48:18,080
Speaker 2: go out, I'll cover it. But I'm not booking. I'm

1058
00:48:18,080 --> 00:48:19,080
Speaker 2: not paying for no nigga flight.

1059
00:48:19,120 --> 00:48:21,120
Speaker 1: Well one other thing I wanted to say actually was

1060
00:48:23,080 --> 00:48:24,880
Speaker 1: I don't know. If you have the extra fund, then

1061
00:48:24,880 --> 00:48:26,239
Speaker 1: you want too. Fine, if the trip is free, I

1062
00:48:26,239 --> 00:48:27,880
Speaker 1: would definitely do it. But the other little craffe I

1063
00:48:28,000 --> 00:48:30,399
Speaker 1: I had was if you don't get that much time off,

1064
00:48:31,320 --> 00:48:34,239
Speaker 1: that's a big trip. Don't use your only big trip

1065
00:48:34,600 --> 00:48:36,920
Speaker 1: on someone that you don't know. How it doesn't seem

1066
00:48:36,960 --> 00:48:38,560
Speaker 1: like you don't even know your big first like her,

1067
00:48:38,600 --> 00:48:41,000
Speaker 1: but you don't love her. Because when I was working

1068
00:48:41,040 --> 00:48:43,279
Speaker 1: in nine to five say that PTO, I had to

1069
00:48:43,360 --> 00:48:46,200
Speaker 1: be very particular about my trips, and that was a

1070
00:48:46,200 --> 00:48:47,400
Speaker 1: lot of the shit I would say. I'd be like,

1071
00:48:47,400 --> 00:48:48,960
Speaker 1: I am about to waste three days, four days with

1072
00:48:48,960 --> 00:48:50,960
Speaker 1: this nigga when I could be with By the way,

1073
00:48:51,000 --> 00:48:54,200
Speaker 1: y'all gotta look up the trips or the trip tips

1074
00:48:54,239 --> 00:48:57,279
Speaker 1: now for PTO every year, that's the TikTok, and they'll

1075
00:48:57,320 --> 00:48:58,880
Speaker 1: let you know how to take the least amount of

1076
00:48:58,920 --> 00:49:01,600
Speaker 1: time off for the most amount of days based around

1077
00:49:01,600 --> 00:49:05,680
Speaker 1: the holidays that are happening. So like, oh, I go, yeah,

1078
00:49:05,920 --> 00:49:07,960
Speaker 1: take a half day here, or like more because it

1079
00:49:08,080 --> 00:49:08,799
Speaker 1: changes every day.

1080
00:49:08,880 --> 00:49:12,480
Speaker 2: Can yeah holidays where sometimes Fridays and Mondays are off.

1081
00:49:12,680 --> 00:49:15,480
Speaker 2: They'll say, use a Wednesday and use a Tuesday, so

1082
00:49:15,520 --> 00:49:16,919
Speaker 2: you could have this many days off.

1083
00:49:17,600 --> 00:49:18,960
Speaker 1: So look that up. It's online.

1084
00:49:19,120 --> 00:49:20,600
Speaker 2: So this is gonna be our last one for today,

1085
00:49:20,640 --> 00:49:22,120
Speaker 2: and then we'll get to them get niggas after I

1086
00:49:22,239 --> 00:49:24,440
Speaker 2: edit it and revise it and shorten it.

1087
00:49:24,400 --> 00:49:25,840
Speaker 1: Because what the fuck, y'all?

1088
00:49:25,880 --> 00:49:27,920
Speaker 2: If you send in your whole mail to Horrible Decisions

1089
00:49:27,920 --> 00:49:31,200
Speaker 2: at gmail dot com, can we limit it to three paragraphs?

1090
00:49:31,200 --> 00:49:33,839
Speaker 2: Maybe when I say paragraphs, that's three to five sentences. Okay,

1091
00:49:33,840 --> 00:49:35,560
Speaker 2: we're taking it back to language. Yes, So the one

1092
00:49:35,560 --> 00:49:37,600
Speaker 2: with the boring boyfriend, your mail was long, but we'll

1093
00:49:37,640 --> 00:49:39,080
Speaker 2: get to it. Yeah, we just got to edit it

1094
00:49:39,080 --> 00:49:41,960
Speaker 2: a little bit, all right. This one comes from there

1095
00:49:42,000 --> 00:49:47,680
Speaker 2: asking for advice. Advice for a traumatized horny virgin, Dear

1096
00:49:47,680 --> 00:49:50,000
Speaker 2: Weezy and Mandy. First off, I want to let you

1097
00:49:50,040 --> 00:49:51,960
Speaker 2: know don't be mad that I discovered you guys my

1098
00:49:52,000 --> 00:49:54,200
Speaker 2: freshman year of high school, and I want to thank

1099
00:49:54,200 --> 00:49:54,640
Speaker 2: you guys.

1100
00:49:54,640 --> 00:49:56,880
Speaker 1: Oh lord, that's okay. I come from a household that

1101
00:49:56,960 --> 00:49:58,839
Speaker 1: made sex. If ay, let us know you had sex

1102
00:49:58,880 --> 00:50:00,680
Speaker 1: before you listen to the podcast, I'll feel about she's

1103
00:50:00,680 --> 00:50:03,440
Speaker 1: a virgin still, Oh seems like I come from a

1104
00:50:03,440 --> 00:50:06,560
Speaker 1: household that made sex a very shameful thing, as there

1105
00:50:06,640 --> 00:50:10,560
Speaker 1: was a generational pattern of teen and young pregnancies and

1106
00:50:10,640 --> 00:50:13,880
Speaker 1: abusive partners, which led to an overarching idea that wanting

1107
00:50:13,880 --> 00:50:16,600
Speaker 1: a man was a bad thing. Oh, she's a smart girl.

1108
00:50:16,920 --> 00:50:18,759
Speaker 2: It got to the point where I felt guilty just

1109
00:50:18,840 --> 00:50:21,399
Speaker 2: kissing my boyfriend at the time, but your podcast became

1110
00:50:21,440 --> 00:50:23,880
Speaker 2: a safe space for me to learn about and explore

1111
00:50:23,880 --> 00:50:24,680
Speaker 2: my sexuality.

1112
00:50:25,160 --> 00:50:25,440
Speaker 1: Now.

1113
00:50:25,760 --> 00:50:28,480
Speaker 2: I recently turned eighteen and graduated high school as a junior,

1114
00:50:28,760 --> 00:50:31,920
Speaker 2: and guess what, no babies. I also still a virgin,

1115
00:50:32,360 --> 00:50:35,680
Speaker 2: but have had multiple relationships where we've done everything up

1116
00:50:35,760 --> 00:50:36,400
Speaker 2: two sets.

1117
00:50:36,400 --> 00:50:38,759
Speaker 1: So our podcast doesn't make you bitch as fun I

1118
00:50:38,800 --> 00:50:40,400
Speaker 1: love it. We need to clip that, No, you have

1119
00:50:40,480 --> 00:50:41,319
Speaker 1: the virgin that listen.

1120
00:50:41,520 --> 00:50:43,960
Speaker 2: I love this year Since high school, however, I am

1121
00:50:44,000 --> 00:50:46,160
Speaker 2: now ready to explore that chapter in my life. But

1122
00:50:46,239 --> 00:50:49,440
Speaker 2: alas the men I seem to attract our assholes in

1123
00:50:49,480 --> 00:50:52,600
Speaker 2: every relationship, I've ended up feeling used as I'm very

1124
00:50:52,680 --> 00:50:54,719
Speaker 2: much a people pleaser and giver her and don't know

1125
00:50:54,760 --> 00:50:56,800
Speaker 2: how to give up that part of myself without wondering

1126
00:50:56,840 --> 00:50:58,799
Speaker 2: if they only want me for my body. In a

1127
00:50:58,800 --> 00:51:00,799
Speaker 2: couple of episodes, you guys have talked about how some

1128
00:51:00,840 --> 00:51:03,600
Speaker 2: of the most successful relationships have started out with sex

1129
00:51:03,640 --> 00:51:06,000
Speaker 2: on the first night. But given my history with guys,

1130
00:51:06,160 --> 00:51:08,479
Speaker 2: the fact that I can't even have sex and don't

1131
00:51:08,480 --> 00:51:11,440
Speaker 2: know how to have it, and the negativity built around it,

1132
00:51:11,480 --> 00:51:13,160
Speaker 2: I don't know how to let that part of myself go,

1133
00:51:13,320 --> 00:51:16,919
Speaker 2: especially in early stages of a relationship. Any advice would

1134
00:51:16,920 --> 00:51:19,040
Speaker 2: be great. I know I'm young and have many people

1135
00:51:19,480 --> 00:51:21,680
Speaker 2: and have many people yet to meet that could change

1136
00:51:21,680 --> 00:51:24,400
Speaker 2: my mind, but that part of myself already feels closed

1137
00:51:24,400 --> 00:51:26,840
Speaker 2: off when I was just starting to feel ready to

1138
00:51:26,880 --> 00:51:29,279
Speaker 2: explore it. I don't want to feel completely shut down

1139
00:51:29,280 --> 00:51:32,399
Speaker 2: from sex already and be stuck living by curiously through

1140
00:51:32,440 --> 00:51:34,959
Speaker 2: the smut I read. Thank you for taking the time

1141
00:51:35,000 --> 00:51:37,360
Speaker 2: to read this. PSU also inspired me to start a

1142
00:51:37,400 --> 00:51:39,879
Speaker 2: podcast of my own with my best friend. So glad

1143
00:51:39,920 --> 00:51:41,439
Speaker 2: to see how far you've come and thank you, guys

1144
00:51:41,480 --> 00:51:43,200
Speaker 2: for the help you don't know you've given me already.

1145
00:51:43,200 --> 00:51:45,600
Speaker 1: She's not gonna she didn't name drop the bar she

1146
00:51:45,640 --> 00:51:50,520
Speaker 1: really want to answer. I think you have to get

1147
00:51:50,640 --> 00:51:56,240
Speaker 1: away from the idea that penetration is this crazy, big

1148
00:51:56,840 --> 00:51:59,960
Speaker 1: experience and that your virginity is tied to the sacredness.

1149
00:52:00,760 --> 00:52:03,600
Speaker 1: I'm not trying to downplay virginity, but the reason that

1150
00:52:03,640 --> 00:52:05,720
Speaker 1: I am in this particular instance is because you said

1151
00:52:06,000 --> 00:52:08,879
Speaker 1: you've done everything but with partners, and then you said

1152
00:52:08,880 --> 00:52:12,279
Speaker 1: they were all assholes. Girl doesn't know you saw some

1153
00:52:12,320 --> 00:52:15,600
Speaker 1: dick doesn't know what I would recommend to you. Well,

1154
00:52:15,760 --> 00:52:17,600
Speaker 1: oral sex is sex. So maybe she act said to dick,

1155
00:52:17,719 --> 00:52:19,960
Speaker 1: she said everything up to sex, and oral sex is sex.

1156
00:52:20,040 --> 00:52:21,640
Speaker 1: We talked about it. I mean, but if kissing has

1157
00:52:21,640 --> 00:52:23,680
Speaker 1: made her feel guilty a lot of these things, so

1158
00:52:23,719 --> 00:52:26,120
Speaker 1: you give them that part of hand. So it's like,

1159
00:52:26,360 --> 00:52:28,840
Speaker 1: maybe you are putting way too much pressure on sex itself.

1160
00:52:29,760 --> 00:52:31,640
Speaker 1: I have a celibate friend is me know Breanda, and

1161
00:52:31,680 --> 00:52:33,799
Speaker 1: she doesn't do any of that right, kissing is it.

1162
00:52:34,320 --> 00:52:36,719
Speaker 1: So that's why I can say that a lot of

1163
00:52:36,719 --> 00:52:38,840
Speaker 1: the this is like, you know, whether you're getting naked

1164
00:52:38,880 --> 00:52:40,960
Speaker 1: things like that. I know she is having trouble dating

1165
00:52:41,160 --> 00:52:43,839
Speaker 1: or finding someone or talking to someone about it because

1166
00:52:43,840 --> 00:52:46,759
Speaker 1: there's a lot of parameters on her celibacy. For you,

1167
00:52:47,600 --> 00:52:49,360
Speaker 1: I think what you need to have happened to you

1168
00:52:50,560 --> 00:52:53,800
Speaker 1: is have sex with someone that makes you feel comfortable

1169
00:52:53,840 --> 00:52:58,360
Speaker 1: and safe, even if you never see them again. I think, okay,

1170
00:52:58,640 --> 00:53:00,719
Speaker 1: letting that person know your version. I know there's some

1171
00:53:00,760 --> 00:53:03,239
Speaker 1: maybe scenarios where people just we've had people in the

1172
00:53:03,280 --> 00:53:05,480
Speaker 1: thirties or forties even right into us about their virginity.

1173
00:53:05,520 --> 00:53:07,800
Speaker 1: I'm like this, just get over it. Right with you,

1174
00:53:07,920 --> 00:53:12,040
Speaker 1: particularly being that you're younger and you've got someone it

1175
00:53:12,080 --> 00:53:14,000
Speaker 1: seems to be a little bit of religious trauma and

1176
00:53:14,040 --> 00:53:17,839
Speaker 1: shit like that. I think you need to be very

1177
00:53:17,880 --> 00:53:22,640
Speaker 1: clear that you experience your first time and that you

1178
00:53:22,680 --> 00:53:25,839
Speaker 1: want to be respected during that time. Like you don't

1179
00:53:25,840 --> 00:53:27,200
Speaker 1: want someone to maybe dash you away, you know what

1180
00:53:27,200 --> 00:53:28,759
Speaker 1: I'm saying, Like you want them to stay with you

1181
00:53:28,800 --> 00:53:31,200
Speaker 1: maybe that night, like after care and kink is going

1182
00:53:31,280 --> 00:53:33,600
Speaker 1: to be necessary, like after care, after you have set

1183
00:53:33,719 --> 00:53:36,160
Speaker 1: things that are involved with So yeah, I think once

1184
00:53:36,160 --> 00:53:37,960
Speaker 1: you find someone comfortable with, maybe a friend that you've

1185
00:53:37,960 --> 00:53:41,560
Speaker 1: flirt with, but it can't be this big old thing

1186
00:53:41,560 --> 00:53:44,120
Speaker 1: in your head because the things that you've already done

1187
00:53:45,080 --> 00:53:47,160
Speaker 1: are kind of already a big deal. I think like

1188
00:53:47,239 --> 00:53:50,919
Speaker 1: you still had some form of it. So I would

1189
00:53:50,960 --> 00:53:52,640
Speaker 1: just make sure that the person you sleep with you

1190
00:53:52,640 --> 00:53:55,279
Speaker 1: said they've been assholes. Maybe you also have to have

1191
00:53:56,000 --> 00:53:59,759
Speaker 1: less expectations. I know, Beyonder particularly wants a relationship or

1192
00:53:59,760 --> 00:54:02,840
Speaker 1: marriag right, If that's not what you're looking for, be

1193
00:54:02,920 --> 00:54:04,600
Speaker 1: clear that you just want a good person or someone

1194
00:54:04,600 --> 00:54:07,839
Speaker 1: that makes you feel comfortable and safe. So yeah, because

1195
00:54:07,880 --> 00:54:10,279
Speaker 1: if you want a relationship until you have sex, that

1196
00:54:10,400 --> 00:54:13,200
Speaker 1: motherfucker may disappoint you even then. So I think making

1197
00:54:13,239 --> 00:54:16,120
Speaker 1: sure that the experience itself is safe and comfortable is

1198
00:54:16,120 --> 00:54:18,920
Speaker 1: more important than the attachment to that person. To you,

1199
00:54:19,239 --> 00:54:22,480
Speaker 1: as someone that's been sexually assaulted and someone that's had

1200
00:54:22,520 --> 00:54:25,480
Speaker 1: men not necessarily treat them to nicis, I've always enjoyed

1201
00:54:25,480 --> 00:54:29,560
Speaker 1: the experiences where men are respectful versus I've had this

1202
00:54:29,640 --> 00:54:32,680
Speaker 1: title or this rapport. Yeah, I can meet a nigga

1203
00:54:32,680 --> 00:54:34,440
Speaker 1: in the first night. That'll do me right. You know,

1204
00:54:35,120 --> 00:54:37,920
Speaker 1: like you've got to make sure that you're getting that vibe.

1205
00:54:38,239 --> 00:54:42,040
Speaker 2: I mean, to me, this goes into something that wasn't

1206
00:54:42,760 --> 00:54:45,279
Speaker 2: I guess my mind wasn't ready for it. To me,

1207
00:54:45,680 --> 00:54:48,520
Speaker 2: you're traumatized. You need to go to therapy and work

1208
00:54:48,560 --> 00:54:51,000
Speaker 2: through that and get over it. If kissing still makes

1209
00:54:51,000 --> 00:54:53,759
Speaker 2: you uncomfortable, I don't think just fucking a guy who

1210
00:54:53,880 --> 00:54:56,160
Speaker 2: might show up is nice is gonna be.

1211
00:54:56,200 --> 00:54:58,440
Speaker 1: They think she used to feel guilty from kissing. But

1212
00:54:58,480 --> 00:55:01,080
Speaker 1: I agree her feel uncomfortable.

1213
00:55:01,160 --> 00:55:04,120
Speaker 2: Yes, that's what she just said so to me, like,

1214
00:55:04,280 --> 00:55:06,680
Speaker 2: and it didn't say that even the things that she

1215
00:55:06,800 --> 00:55:09,479
Speaker 2: went up to sex made her feel away.

1216
00:55:09,520 --> 00:55:10,560
Speaker 1: She didn't share those details.

1217
00:55:10,560 --> 00:55:12,279
Speaker 2: There's a lot of things that we could ask if

1218
00:55:12,520 --> 00:55:14,759
Speaker 2: you know, she called in like, well did those other

1219
00:55:14,840 --> 00:55:16,759
Speaker 2: things make you feel uncomfortable? To know that you felt

1220
00:55:16,800 --> 00:55:21,319
Speaker 2: uncomfortable with kissing. I think there's an exploration for you

1221
00:55:21,360 --> 00:55:27,359
Speaker 2: to have in in therapy first, but also maybe it's

1222
00:55:27,480 --> 00:55:29,360
Speaker 2: meant I would actually say, Oh my.

1223
00:55:29,360 --> 00:55:30,560
Speaker 1: God, I was just gonna say you need to be

1224
00:55:30,640 --> 00:55:33,040
Speaker 1: good friends. No, that's not what I was gonna say,

1225
00:55:33,040 --> 00:55:36,680
Speaker 1: Oh a decent man. No, my thing was gonna be

1226
00:55:37,400 --> 00:55:41,840
Speaker 1: maybe women will make you feel safe. Maybe you should

1227
00:55:41,840 --> 00:55:44,879
Speaker 1: maybe see sexually if exploring with a woman might be

1228
00:55:45,480 --> 00:55:47,800
Speaker 1: what what will make you feel comfortable? Have you kissed

1229
00:55:47,800 --> 00:55:50,279
Speaker 1: a woman before and did that make you uncomfortable? Have

1230
00:55:50,400 --> 00:55:53,359
Speaker 1: you been able to feel safe with with women? Like?

1231
00:55:53,680 --> 00:55:57,240
Speaker 2: Maybe you're trying to force yourself knowing again the traumatic experience.

1232
00:55:57,280 --> 00:55:59,880
Speaker 2: If it's a religious thing, maybe you're forcing yourself to

1233
00:55:59,880 --> 00:56:00,440
Speaker 2: be straight.

1234
00:56:00,480 --> 00:56:02,279
Speaker 1: Now you just don't Like we said, we ain't take

1235
00:56:02,320 --> 00:56:05,279
Speaker 1: a ridge. I don't know people would know if they haven't.

1236
00:56:05,360 --> 00:56:06,680
Speaker 1: Maybe she would have even brought up if she had

1237
00:56:06,680 --> 00:56:07,160
Speaker 1: a attraction.

1238
00:56:08,360 --> 00:56:11,080
Speaker 2: But she's also young and grew up in no I

1239
00:56:11,120 --> 00:56:13,040
Speaker 2: think that a lot of those things. If you grow

1240
00:56:13,120 --> 00:56:16,719
Speaker 2: up in church, you're taught that that's not something you

1241
00:56:16,719 --> 00:56:20,160
Speaker 2: should do. So maybe right now she's convincing herself losing

1242
00:56:20,160 --> 00:56:23,000
Speaker 2: my virginity to men to know that they're all assholes

1243
00:56:23,000 --> 00:56:24,879
Speaker 2: and she hasn't felt safe and no one has made

1244
00:56:24,920 --> 00:56:29,640
Speaker 2: her feel wanted or respected, and kissing a nigga made

1245
00:56:29,680 --> 00:56:30,440
Speaker 2: her uncomfortable.

1246
00:56:30,440 --> 00:56:32,879
Speaker 1: Bitch, maybe you don't like me if you if dating

1247
00:56:32,920 --> 00:56:34,800
Speaker 1: women doesn't worry. Here's my final thing. The reason I

1248
00:56:34,840 --> 00:56:37,760
Speaker 1: said good men, friends is because you're in an age.

1249
00:56:37,840 --> 00:56:40,000
Speaker 1: Mind you, Mandy and our ten years your senior. Right,

1250
00:56:41,160 --> 00:56:44,759
Speaker 1: those men in college and that age, they're really bad. Yes,

1251
00:56:44,920 --> 00:56:46,520
Speaker 1: I know that you've been listening to this podcast for

1252
00:56:46,560 --> 00:56:48,160
Speaker 1: a long time, so you know it doesn't get better,

1253
00:56:48,520 --> 00:56:52,879
Speaker 1: but it definitely gets better than that. You a better

1254
00:56:52,880 --> 00:56:55,560
Speaker 1: figure this shit out now, like being assholes. I actually

1255
00:56:55,600 --> 00:56:58,720
Speaker 1: talked about this with my boy Andrea Power recently. Andre's

1256
00:56:58,719 --> 00:57:01,120
Speaker 1: almost forty, and I was like, bro, I haven't really

1257
00:57:01,239 --> 00:57:04,279
Speaker 1: dated like a shitty, Like I've been dating guys that

1258
00:57:04,320 --> 00:57:06,680
Speaker 1: you know, they'll get my girls all bab with shitty. No, no, no,

1259
00:57:06,680 --> 00:57:10,040
Speaker 1: I'm saying, like the treatment like when you're on on

1260
00:57:10,080 --> 00:57:12,200
Speaker 1: the dates and like, I haven't really dated a guy

1261
00:57:12,239 --> 00:57:16,240
Speaker 1: who's an asshole. Yeah, And he was like, I wonder

1262
00:57:16,280 --> 00:57:19,400
Speaker 1: if it's age or maybe it's where you meet them.

1263
00:57:19,400 --> 00:57:22,560
Speaker 1: Like he's like, because yeah, he's like, you know, girls

1264
00:57:22,800 --> 00:57:24,600
Speaker 1: maybe when I was younger told me like, oh my god,

1265
00:57:24,640 --> 00:57:26,160
Speaker 1: you're so nice. He was like, but now, like they

1266
00:57:26,280 --> 00:57:29,880
Speaker 1: just expect a good nigga, right, And so I said,

1267
00:57:30,160 --> 00:57:32,760
Speaker 1: they don't because when a nigga's too nice, then they laying,

1268
00:57:32,920 --> 00:57:36,040
Speaker 1: then they corny, like so many women. Actually what Like,

1269
00:57:36,280 --> 00:57:38,960
Speaker 1: I think you need an example of some good men friends.

1270
00:57:39,000 --> 00:57:41,560
Speaker 1: I think platonic relationships could actually be a little bit

1271
00:57:41,560 --> 00:57:43,520
Speaker 1: safer for you. And I think maybe even a male

1272
00:57:43,560 --> 00:57:46,840
Speaker 1: friendship could guide you with some of this, because sometimes

1273
00:57:46,840 --> 00:57:48,960
Speaker 1: the problem with talking to other women is that they're

1274
00:57:48,960 --> 00:57:52,200
Speaker 1: a sounding board for like everything going wrong with men.

1275
00:57:52,720 --> 00:57:54,600
Speaker 1: We do that, especially when we're in a bad fucking

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Speaker 1: how many episodes that we were like, nigga, that shit,

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Speaker 1: maybe all of them, but like that this whole thing

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Speaker 1: is contradiction. I actually think you need good male friends

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Speaker 1: for real. That has really helpful in my heel have

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Speaker 1: sex because if your only relationships with men are romantic ones,

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Speaker 1: you all think they're assholes. You need to start looking

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Speaker 1: at men in a different way. Seeing nice friends. Yeah,

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Speaker 1: and I think that could help.

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Speaker 2: I did that to one of my friends, uh on

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Speaker 2: New Year's I literally hit him up and was just like,

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Speaker 2: thank you for being a friend and seeing me, and

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Speaker 2: like when I enter room, when I'm around you, and

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Speaker 2: he's megastar, like dope. When I sit at the table,

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Speaker 2: he like boasts about all the things that I do,

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Speaker 2: and I just know he like values me as a

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Speaker 2: person and in this space that I'm at now where

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Speaker 2: romantically I don't know what I'm doing, I literally just

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Speaker 2: hit him like, thank you, thank you for knowing that

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Speaker 2: I'm deserving of receiving that from a male like I

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Speaker 2: literally that's what I wrote him.

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Speaker 1: I was high on shrooms, but but yes, but I

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Speaker 1: mean the shrooms got you to like that part of

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Speaker 1: your emotionalness, right, And I think that like that shit

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Speaker 1: is valuable. I really appreciate good male platonic friendships relationships.

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Speaker 1: I think we all need one. I recently had Alex's

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Speaker 1: girl tell me that she was so grateful that he

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Speaker 1: had me in his life, because she's like, oh my god,

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Speaker 1: there's so many times where we've run in a little argument.

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Speaker 1: I thought to myself, like, oh, I know, Wes, he

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Speaker 1: ain't gonna agree with this, and he's probably gonna call

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Speaker 1: her for you know. She's like, I think it's really

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Speaker 1: good that men have a decent homegirl in their life. Yeah,

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Speaker 1: and I think there's something to that. So many says

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Speaker 1: he's a pussy I said, did I say, equs did

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Speaker 1: not hold on?

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Speaker 2: I ain't say going eat what was down and stay

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Speaker 2: kiss a woman and see if you feel uncomfortable, and

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Speaker 2: if you don't, maybe that's the direction you might need

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Speaker 2: to go. Just kiddy, I pushing that bitch into lesbianism. Now,

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Speaker 2: calm down. Well, and so we've introduced herself all right.

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Speaker 1: We totally to find us in London. But we also

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Speaker 1: have had so many new and fun changes patreons. So

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Speaker 1: on the page that'll explain our new tiers. Yeah, what

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Speaker 1: it brings, What you'll get included, and we're making them

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Speaker 1: more simple. A whole lot of shit, baby.

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Speaker 2: Anyways, y'all, this has been yet another episode of Horror Decisions.

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Speaker 1: Ye bye