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Speaker 1: The nick Laser Podcast. Nicky, Hello here, I am welcome

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Speaker 1: to the show, The Laser Podcast. Uh, it's a Nicki

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Speaker 1: Laser Murderer podcast. Now we're not doing that. Don't worry.

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Speaker 1: Don't worry. Normal show, Normal show. The people liked it. Yeah,

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Speaker 1: positive to negative, probably around U thirty five positive to

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Speaker 1: too negative? Okay, the negatives. Isn't it funny that that's

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Speaker 1: all I'm focused on? Like what becauld you have said?

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Speaker 1: Was it just like was it negative in the sense

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Speaker 1: of like it's a departure, but I prefer you just

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Speaker 1: get back to what you do? Or was it like

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Speaker 1: why would you do this to us? Probably closer to

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Speaker 1: the beginning, say not, what's the latter? What's the Oh?

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Speaker 1: I like this? Wait what you can get there? The former? Yeah?

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Speaker 1: Are the ladder? Yeah? Do you think of like a ladder?

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Speaker 1: Like L A D D E R. That's a good question.

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Speaker 1: I want you. I want to know what comes up

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Speaker 1: in your head when you think of the ladder. I

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Speaker 1: would assume it's l A T T E R. Yeah,

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Speaker 1: like ladder day Saints? Sure, I like four More Day Saints.

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Speaker 1: I like, I don't really like saints. What about those

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Speaker 1: saints in wait? When the Saints went to the Super Bowl.

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Speaker 1: Were you so excited because you have knowledge? I want

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Speaker 1: to get yourself a good bloody man, you go down

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Speaker 1: to the super Dome. When you get yourself down the

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Speaker 1: Superdome like redone and like, I still got the water

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Speaker 1: in and everything, there's no water in it. That's why

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Speaker 1: they were there. Yeah, yeah, they obviously drink the train.

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Speaker 1: Now I graduated No. Two from college, you've dodged it. Yeah,

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Speaker 1: I got out early. I heard about it coming act.

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Speaker 1: I was there my freshman year. There was a hurricane

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Speaker 1: that hit near New Orleans, and I remember them being

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Speaker 1: like I remember we were at like the dorm and

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Speaker 1: people being like, you know the levy if it broke,

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Speaker 1: the water would be up to the third floor here

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Speaker 1: in our dorm. And it was like, yeah, right, dude,

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Speaker 1: I'm doing bong rips, sucking blown into a Gatorade. Can

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Speaker 1: what part of my bone would the water get too?

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Speaker 1: Because I need to fill it that cup. Anyway, It'd

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Speaker 1: be easier to hold my kegs because then I don't

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Speaker 1: have to use my arms. I just used the water

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Speaker 1: from the levee. Just yeah, so much easier to do

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Speaker 1: a keg stand when You're like, you know, the way

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Speaker 1: you do a handstand in water, Yeah, it's much easier

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Speaker 1: to do a handstandard. That'll be sweet when flitsum. But

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Speaker 1: everyone was just like, yeah, okay, whatever, dude. And then

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Speaker 1: literally was it like September eleven for you, where you

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Speaker 1: like weren't really tuned into what was happening during that

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Speaker 1: time and you were just like WHOA woke up and

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Speaker 1: all of a sudden, everything's under what like? Or were

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Speaker 1: you like, oh my god, what's going on? I wasn't

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Speaker 1: nervous at all. I didn't think anything whatever happening. You

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Speaker 1: weren't like looking at like the places used to live

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Speaker 1: and like being like, oh my god, where you like

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Speaker 1: I remember eleventh you were like, wait, well, September eleven,

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Speaker 1: you don't even remember where you were when you found out?

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Speaker 1: You're one of those people. I remember where I was.

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Speaker 1: I was in those people three thousand Calhoun in New Orleans.

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Speaker 1: I was the house don and I had the I

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Speaker 1: had a wristband on because I was still drunk, and

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Speaker 1: like probably four or five stamps, and I woke up

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Speaker 1: and I was like, what happened? And I even really

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Speaker 1: put it together that my brother lived in New York like,

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Speaker 1: oh my god. I was like, dude, that sucks. And

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Speaker 1: then I went back to sleep and then they're like, dude,

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Speaker 1: another tower got hit. And then I was like what

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Speaker 1: And then like six months later I called my brother

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Speaker 1: when six months later, I was like, oh my god,

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Speaker 1: Dan lives there. That is so funny. When did it? When?

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Speaker 1: Did it really clicking? Like Dan Um? Later that day,

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Speaker 1: I guess yeah. I called him. I was like, dude,

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Speaker 1: can I borrow a Fournier Bucks? And dude, are you

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Speaker 1: all right? You here like screaming people in the background,

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Speaker 1: He's like choking up to us. I was like, can

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Speaker 1: you get to a Western Union? Wait? Did he ever

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Speaker 1: go to Western Unions? Why are your buddy? Did you

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Speaker 1: ever go to a Western Union? I've never been to

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Speaker 1: a Western Union, but I did daring my gambling addiction.

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Speaker 1: I got money from a lot of different people. And

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Speaker 1: how would you get it? Like you were saying that

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Speaker 1: the other day, a little bit of how you would

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Speaker 1: wait until twelve like Cinderella? Yeah, I click my biting

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Speaker 1: your time and you didn't have a smartphone in those days.

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Speaker 1: I'm like, what the funk were you doing walking around

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Speaker 1: Bourbon Street? Oh? I don't even know, without any without

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Speaker 1: a penny into in your pocket, what were you doing

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Speaker 1: with your time? Twiddling those thumbs twitter a lot. That's

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Speaker 1: what happened to them. I twitted them off. Yeah, I mean,

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Speaker 1: look these alien thumbs right here. That's freaking gambling addiction.

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Speaker 1: Don't get in the game. If you think gambling it's fun,

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Speaker 1: look at the tell me call me and try to

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Speaker 1: get money from me. And I'm the person that like,

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Speaker 1: who's the weird stepmom? Who's my stepmom? Really? Because I

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Speaker 1: didn't want my dad to know, Like hello ring ring, Hello? Hey,

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Speaker 1: wait what give me some character? Like my stepmom? She's Janie.

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Speaker 1: She lives out in Florida. She's not she's from Pennsylvania.

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Speaker 1: She's a little southern, but she doesn't sound southern. Um,

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Speaker 1: she like a chipper person. And she mean she's somewhere

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Speaker 1: in the middle. Hello, not bad. Hey Jennie, what's up?

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Speaker 1: Hey Andrew? Um, it's gonna do my mom. So what's

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Speaker 1: going on? How's everything going down there? Um? Things are good?

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Speaker 1: What do you need? No that, I was just seeing

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Speaker 1: how Jake is going. How's Jake doing? Jay's good? He

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Speaker 1: just got Jake. Yeah, said Jake's good. Yeah, and Ja Yeah,

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Speaker 1: Jay's good too, cool. Yeah, but Jake's uh yeah, Jake's here.

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Speaker 1: Do you want to talk to him? Hey, Jake? Uh no, No,

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Speaker 1: I just want to talk to you for now. Okay, Well,

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Speaker 1: how are you hunting? I've been good? How's college? College?

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Speaker 1: Is good? Studying and everything and everything? Okay, Well, I

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Speaker 1: don't want to I mean, are you guys? Are you alone?

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Speaker 1: I mean, I got Jake here, but I can go

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Speaker 1: in the other room. Are you okay? Um? So, I

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Speaker 1: don't know, this is embarrassing, but I spent like, like

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Speaker 1: and um, I don't have money to pay rent. And

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Speaker 1: I know it's I just I want to go to

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Speaker 1: my I want to go to Dad, but I just

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Speaker 1: I don't know. I just feel really uncomfortable. And I

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Speaker 1: was wondering if maybe didn't we have the same call yesterday?

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Speaker 1: Where did the money go that I gave you for

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Speaker 1: rent yesterday? Now? Is this money going to go to rent?

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Speaker 1: I can't promise you the musical. I'll buy your tickets

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Speaker 1: to it. You know, I don't like aids. I mean

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Speaker 1: that's pretty much what the call was. It was just

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Speaker 1: like me trying. You would lie and say can I

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Speaker 1: get this for rent? And then you would just go

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Speaker 1: take it to the casino. No, at that time, I

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Speaker 1: actually really didn't need rent money. But I did tell

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Speaker 1: her why I was short because I did. Yeah, yeah,

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Speaker 1: and would she would she understand the gambling? Was she

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Speaker 1: getting really cool about it? But I think part of

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Speaker 1: it was she wanted to be my good graces, So

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Speaker 1: I kind of you, I used her vulnerability of wanting

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Speaker 1: to be the cool step mom because she probably wasn't

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Speaker 1: in that position given the circumstance. And so interesting, we

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Speaker 1: we all use different people's like there's there's a bartering

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Speaker 1: to help me out because I know that you want

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Speaker 1: me to like you. Yes, interesting pretty much probably at

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Speaker 1: that time. Also, it's funny too when you have like

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Speaker 1: before you ask for something to small talk before Oh,

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Speaker 1: it's it's so funny. It's always just like, so what's

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Speaker 1: the weather man? Oh, by the way, I need a

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Speaker 1: new kidney dude in you know, my relationship, Just having

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Speaker 1: that kind of new small talk of going like when

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Speaker 1: something's up, like we need to talk about something and

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Speaker 1: it's like the small talk before are just going new friends?

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Speaker 1: What's this new friends thing? Because it's it's new friends. Yeah,

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Speaker 1: you know, like we talked about it before. If you

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Speaker 1: missed that episode, there's like this when you have something

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Speaker 1: else on your mind, either something you're asking for, something

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Speaker 1: you need to confront someone about or admit to or

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Speaker 1: whatever it is, something fraught, you have this like tone

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Speaker 1: the person is doing something weird. They're like, let's say

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Speaker 1: the person needs to confront you about something, so they're

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Speaker 1: mad at you, but they're like faking like how's it going?

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Speaker 1: Oh my god? So how is like the snowstorm tragging you?

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Speaker 1: And you're just like new friends. Let's cut through this,

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Speaker 1: Like there should be a shorthand for like instead of

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Speaker 1: what's what's going on? Because that's a little confrontational. Just

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Speaker 1: going like this feels a little new friends to me

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Speaker 1: because you talked to your new friends like that. That's

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Speaker 1: why we call it new friends. And the people you're

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Speaker 1: usually confronting with that tone, it's not someone you talked

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Speaker 1: like that if there wasn't something going on, it's like

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Speaker 1: what are we at an elevator. Now do I not

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Speaker 1: know you for seven years? Yeah? That's good. Are we

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Speaker 1: at an elevator right now? You could go, what floor going?

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Speaker 1: What's going on here? Should we hit the door close button?

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Speaker 1: Because someone we don't want to talk to you, because

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Speaker 1: we actually really like each other and we should get

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Speaker 1: through this. Yeah. God, it's so complex, people's it's got

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Speaker 1: to be tough, though, because like you do analyze everything,

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Speaker 1: you know, Yeah, you're very good analyzer. Like you can

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Speaker 1: tell really though, like within like three seconds of a tone.

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Speaker 1: I can tell in text. That's wild though, But you've

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Speaker 1: gotten it wrong sometimes with me. But I'm just saying

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Speaker 1: that it could be exhausting if I'm not trying to

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Speaker 1: be but like it's like dating you knowing how good

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Speaker 1: you are at that. I got to say, I am

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Speaker 1: so fucking good. But I should be a detective. I'm

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Speaker 1: not even getting you. Like the murder pockets the other day,

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Speaker 1: let's set that aside. Whatever, Like I like, I I

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Speaker 1: could totally solve that case if you just let me

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Speaker 1: think about for sure, Um, it's the third Mary morris

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Speaker 1: is who killed the other two. There could only be

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Speaker 1: one in the Houston area. You go to the other

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Speaker 1: Mary Morris, and you find out whose that is because

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Speaker 1: there can only be one Highlander. Um. I've never seen highlander.

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Speaker 1: I just know that that's the thing when you say,

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Speaker 1: for that former former ladder, don't go under it bad luck. Um.

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Speaker 1: Yesterday on set, though, I did see a guy going

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Speaker 1: under a ladder a bunch to get through a shot,

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Speaker 1: you know what I mean, like walk there. How do

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Speaker 1: you feel about those things? And I was like, oh

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Speaker 1: my god, I went an umbrella to go under something

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Speaker 1: like hit two bad luck things at once. He had

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Speaker 1: an umbrella on inside. No wait it was outside, so

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Speaker 1: never mind. I wouldn't have done it. Bring a black cat,

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Speaker 1: have a black lat go with you, cancel out, break

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Speaker 1: a mirror, step on a crack underneath and ladder, Yes,

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Speaker 1: let's do that. Fucking comes up with these things, But

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Speaker 1: you're right, it would be exhausting dating me. You know

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Speaker 1: what it is other than the exhausting thing. I just

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Speaker 1: thought the ladder thing is to protect kids from walking

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Speaker 1: under it, Like it's all for protection. It's the same

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Speaker 1: reason why we're like, there's nothing dangerous about walking under

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Speaker 1: a ladder compared to like just walking by a ladder

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Speaker 1: as dangerous because unlucky they won't do it rather than

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Speaker 1: wasn't talking to this person anymore because I said, Hey,

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00:23:42,560 --> 00:23:44,120
Speaker 1: I don't want to talk to you until you don't

423
00:23:44,160 --> 00:23:46,000
Speaker 1: have a girlfriend, even though I had already done the

424
00:23:46,080 --> 00:23:48,720
Speaker 1: horrible deed of like involving myself with a man with

425
00:23:48,720 --> 00:23:50,840
Speaker 1: a girlfriend. I said to him, you know, is that

426
00:23:50,920 --> 00:23:52,639
Speaker 1: a point where break up with her? Don't talk to me?

427
00:23:52,920 --> 00:23:56,080
Speaker 1: And so I'm waiting because I'm like, clearly, after this

428
00:23:56,520 --> 00:23:59,520
Speaker 1: he is going to leave her. But of course he didn't,

429
00:23:59,840 --> 00:24:04,960
Speaker 1: because if you tolerate the microaggressions all along, that person

430
00:24:05,480 --> 00:24:08,600
Speaker 1: can tolerate anything. You think that they're going to get

431
00:24:08,600 --> 00:24:11,439
Speaker 1: to a breaking point or like, oh, she'll leave him

432
00:24:11,480 --> 00:24:15,359
Speaker 1: after he hits her, or she hits him, or after

433
00:24:15,480 --> 00:24:19,480
Speaker 1: she fucking he's his car, and I think that that

434
00:24:19,680 --> 00:24:22,560
Speaker 1: will make him if he's willing to tolerate all the

435
00:24:22,600 --> 00:24:26,320
Speaker 1: stuff underneath that, if you're when when when someone knows

436
00:24:26,320 --> 00:24:28,840
Speaker 1: you're willing. That's when men hit women, is when they've

437
00:24:28,880 --> 00:24:32,840
Speaker 1: been such dicks all throughout and they know they don't

438
00:24:32,920 --> 00:24:36,960
Speaker 1: know no, but subconsciously they know this woman has put

439
00:24:37,040 --> 00:24:40,479
Speaker 1: up with so many of me just slightly hitting her

440
00:24:40,600 --> 00:24:44,040
Speaker 1: verbally that when I decided to hit her and let

441
00:24:44,080 --> 00:24:47,399
Speaker 1: myself lose control enough to fucking smack her, she's not

442
00:24:47,400 --> 00:24:49,879
Speaker 1: gonna leave because if someone's willing to put up with

443
00:24:49,920 --> 00:24:52,359
Speaker 1: that much abuse. So that's what it made me realize.

444
00:24:52,359 --> 00:24:58,320
Speaker 1: It's like, people don't you're I don't know why white

445
00:24:58,359 --> 00:25:00,560
Speaker 1: connects back to the thing, but if you're way around

446
00:25:00,560 --> 00:25:02,880
Speaker 1: for someone to change or forget, for it to get

447
00:25:02,880 --> 00:25:06,199
Speaker 1: bad enough for someone to go fuck and listen, I

448
00:25:06,240 --> 00:25:09,320
Speaker 1: believe in bottoms of like this. I can't do this anymore,

449
00:25:10,080 --> 00:25:13,320
Speaker 1: but I think that some people, like there was another

450
00:25:13,320 --> 00:25:19,560
Speaker 1: example of some guy that is like this guy that

451
00:25:19,680 --> 00:25:22,520
Speaker 1: I know she eats on his girlfriend like crazy, and

452
00:25:23,000 --> 00:25:25,520
Speaker 1: she doesn't know, but let's be honest, it's been years

453
00:25:25,520 --> 00:25:28,520
Speaker 1: and years. She's got to know. And then it comes

454
00:25:28,520 --> 00:25:31,280
Speaker 1: out like, oh my god, he has this separate family

455
00:25:31,840 --> 00:25:34,520
Speaker 1: and someone I know knows about Like this guy is

456
00:25:34,560 --> 00:25:38,960
Speaker 1: a separate family, and this and and his girlfriend doesn't

457
00:25:38,960 --> 00:25:41,840
Speaker 1: even know about the separate family. There's a part of this,

458
00:25:42,040 --> 00:25:43,159
Speaker 1: you know, my friends, Like there's a part of me

459
00:25:43,200 --> 00:25:46,119
Speaker 1: that just wants to tell him her about the separate family,

460
00:25:46,119 --> 00:25:47,680
Speaker 1: even though it's none of my business, just so she'll

461
00:25:47,720 --> 00:25:51,800
Speaker 1: know and she'll finally free herself from this guy. It

462
00:25:51,800 --> 00:25:56,160
Speaker 1: won't matter she knows if she doesn't care about all

463
00:25:56,200 --> 00:25:59,120
Speaker 1: the other stuff, the big that's not gonna matter either.

464
00:25:59,480 --> 00:26:02,520
Speaker 1: When you I'm sure there are people like in their

465
00:26:02,560 --> 00:26:06,040
Speaker 1: cars right now and listening to this going like, oh yeah,

466
00:26:06,119 --> 00:26:08,320
Speaker 1: when I thought that final thing would do it, it

467
00:26:08,359 --> 00:26:10,600
Speaker 1: doesn't do it. Or like if you're dealing with someone

468
00:26:10,600 --> 00:26:12,280
Speaker 1: who is addicted to something and they're like, oh my god,

469
00:26:12,320 --> 00:26:15,080
Speaker 1: they got it to U. I finally they'll quit. It's

470
00:26:15,080 --> 00:26:17,320
Speaker 1: going to take more than that. It is interesting too,

471
00:26:17,520 --> 00:26:22,119
Speaker 1: like until sometimes they get caught and like other people

472
00:26:22,240 --> 00:26:24,879
Speaker 1: know about it, Like if you know that they're cheating,

473
00:26:24,920 --> 00:26:27,320
Speaker 1: you'll you could kind of like lie to yourself and

474
00:26:27,359 --> 00:26:31,480
Speaker 1: be like they're not really cheating. But once like you know,

475
00:26:32,280 --> 00:26:36,280
Speaker 1: a stranger finds out, oh I saw Tom with Pamela

476
00:26:36,320 --> 00:26:41,560
Speaker 1: at the store together kissing. It's like, no, you kind

477
00:26:41,560 --> 00:26:44,760
Speaker 1: of you knew, you knew. I have a friend too.

478
00:26:44,920 --> 00:26:50,760
Speaker 1: I have another friend, same situation where their boyfriend clearly

479
00:26:50,840 --> 00:26:54,480
Speaker 1: knows that she fox other people. No, but they don't

480
00:26:54,520 --> 00:26:57,200
Speaker 1: talk about it, and there's no mention of it, and

481
00:26:57,320 --> 00:27:00,480
Speaker 1: it was going on for years. Whoa it? Like he

482
00:27:00,840 --> 00:27:04,199
Speaker 1: he knows that when she leaves, things go on, she

483
00:27:04,320 --> 00:27:07,360
Speaker 1: turns a blind He turns a blind eye because that's

484
00:27:07,400 --> 00:27:09,719
Speaker 1: just the that's their arrangement, and he honestly is with

485
00:27:09,760 --> 00:27:13,560
Speaker 1: her for other reasons that he doesn't care truly, but

486
00:27:13,760 --> 00:27:17,840
Speaker 1: when his friends found out about her doing it, that's

487
00:27:17,880 --> 00:27:21,600
Speaker 1: when it became non negotiable. Can't do this anymore? And

488
00:27:21,640 --> 00:27:24,520
Speaker 1: how interesting is that that that's what matters. And that's

489
00:27:24,520 --> 00:27:28,359
Speaker 1: why I think being open about an open relationship. If

490
00:27:28,480 --> 00:27:31,680
Speaker 1: you are okay with your husband or wife fucking someone

491
00:27:31,720 --> 00:27:34,439
Speaker 1: else being okay with it, you've gotta be okay with

492
00:27:34,440 --> 00:27:36,480
Speaker 1: it publicly because it might get out and you should

493
00:27:36,520 --> 00:27:39,160
Speaker 1: be able to be okay with Everyone is into different things,

494
00:27:39,200 --> 00:27:42,199
Speaker 1: and if that's something that you're okay with, like, I

495
00:27:42,240 --> 00:27:45,480
Speaker 1: understand whant need to keep things private and like, hey,

496
00:27:45,680 --> 00:27:48,720
Speaker 1: don't make like like justin Timberlake, people kind of accused

497
00:27:49,080 --> 00:27:52,119
Speaker 1: him of like slipping on their negotiation, like probably Jessica

498
00:27:52,119 --> 00:27:53,800
Speaker 1: Belle and him had an agreement with like yeah, go

499
00:27:53,880 --> 00:27:55,600
Speaker 1: hold hands with a scirl and company. Why you're shooting.

500
00:27:55,600 --> 00:27:59,320
Speaker 1: I don't give a funk, Like when the paparazzi caught it,

501
00:27:59,800 --> 00:28:05,800
Speaker 1: they yeah, yes, but which, you know, I just think

502
00:28:05,840 --> 00:28:07,840
Speaker 1: that's interesting that we care so much about what other

503
00:28:07,960 --> 00:28:11,560
Speaker 1: people think more than what we think. Well, going back

504
00:28:11,600 --> 00:28:15,159
Speaker 1: to the to the thing about like wanting other people

505
00:28:15,240 --> 00:28:18,199
Speaker 1: to like understand your sadness or like I have a

506
00:28:18,240 --> 00:28:22,399
Speaker 1: thing where like sometimes if I'm in a bad moon, uh,

507
00:28:22,640 --> 00:28:25,160
Speaker 1: maybe I'll want someone else to know that I'm angry

508
00:28:25,280 --> 00:28:29,840
Speaker 1: or sad, But then I also don't want the sympathy

509
00:28:30,000 --> 00:28:32,439
Speaker 1: from them either, being like I don't want them to

510
00:28:32,520 --> 00:28:35,480
Speaker 1: be like trying to help me either, but I also

511
00:28:35,560 --> 00:28:37,639
Speaker 1: want them to know at the same time. That's a

512
00:28:37,720 --> 00:28:41,640
Speaker 1: weird that's a weird thing that like I think I

513
00:28:41,680 --> 00:28:44,320
Speaker 1: want to know what because I love sympathy. I've been

514
00:28:45,240 --> 00:28:46,440
Speaker 1: did I say it on here? You know, I was

515
00:28:46,480 --> 00:28:50,040
Speaker 1: saying on some other um so I was doing I

516
00:28:50,080 --> 00:28:54,560
Speaker 1: love someone to go like that. I hate that I

517
00:28:54,600 --> 00:28:58,840
Speaker 1: don't want. Manya hates pity. You hate pity. I love it.

518
00:28:59,800 --> 00:29:03,160
Speaker 1: I love when someone's like, I really am so like you,

519
00:29:03,320 --> 00:29:05,440
Speaker 1: poor thing, like someone like rubbing my back and going

520
00:29:05,480 --> 00:29:08,040
Speaker 1: like you. It's empathy really, like it's not a pity

521
00:29:08,080 --> 00:29:10,800
Speaker 1: of like, oh, looking, how sad you are. You're a

522
00:29:10,800 --> 00:29:13,560
Speaker 1: little sad boy, aren't you? Baby boy? Wait? Wait, it's

523
00:29:13,600 --> 00:29:16,160
Speaker 1: not that. It's like, man, I am so sorry for

524
00:29:16,200 --> 00:29:19,680
Speaker 1: what Like you don't like that if it feels like

525
00:29:20,040 --> 00:29:23,680
Speaker 1: I guess, yeah, I guess that if it doesn't feel patronized,

526
00:29:23,760 --> 00:29:26,760
Speaker 1: like if it does. My thing is is like sometimes

527
00:29:26,800 --> 00:29:29,440
Speaker 1: people I feel like we'll be like, oh you're sad,

528
00:29:29,560 --> 00:29:32,160
Speaker 1: like in a way of like I'm never sad, but

529
00:29:32,280 --> 00:29:33,960
Speaker 1: I feel bad for you, you know what I mean.

530
00:29:34,000 --> 00:29:36,960
Speaker 1: Like there's like a way that's not empathy, because empathy

531
00:29:37,040 --> 00:29:39,080
Speaker 1: is saying like they don't say that, but I'm just saying.

532
00:29:39,440 --> 00:29:43,440
Speaker 1: But true empathy is saying like if I were you, man,

533
00:29:43,680 --> 00:29:46,280
Speaker 1: I would feel that sad too. Like it's like it's

534
00:29:46,320 --> 00:29:49,720
Speaker 1: saying like not coming from me, like, oh my god,

535
00:29:49,840 --> 00:29:51,560
Speaker 1: I would be sad if I were you. It's like

536
00:29:51,680 --> 00:29:55,680
Speaker 1: if given you what you're going through, man, you should

537
00:29:55,760 --> 00:29:57,520
Speaker 1: feel this way, and you're okay to feel this way,

538
00:29:57,560 --> 00:30:00,320
Speaker 1: like like when your grandma died. Like all I can

539
00:30:00,360 --> 00:30:02,840
Speaker 1: say is like, I'm so sorry that you're like that

540
00:30:02,920 --> 00:30:05,400
Speaker 1: must be really fucking hard. I'm so sorry, Like that's

541
00:30:05,440 --> 00:30:09,680
Speaker 1: not meingre No, No, you know what I mean. You

542
00:30:09,680 --> 00:30:11,440
Speaker 1: know what I like. I like when and I know

543
00:30:11,560 --> 00:30:16,040
Speaker 1: you can't like you can't tell someone how to help

544
00:30:16,080 --> 00:30:18,920
Speaker 1: you grieve or whatever, but yes you can. If you

545
00:30:18,960 --> 00:30:20,960
Speaker 1: can help, you can help people. Because I was really

546
00:30:21,000 --> 00:30:24,400
Speaker 1: bad at when people's parents would die or someone that

547
00:30:25,560 --> 00:30:27,960
Speaker 1: I remember, like if I would have like an anxiety attack,

548
00:30:28,000 --> 00:30:29,640
Speaker 1: would just stop talking to them. I think in the

549
00:30:29,720 --> 00:30:33,160
Speaker 1: past with our friendship, I would ghost them like their dad.

550
00:30:34,400 --> 00:30:37,000
Speaker 1: I really would, because that would be too nervous. Well,

551
00:30:37,040 --> 00:30:39,520
Speaker 1: I would have an anxiety attack I remember, like back

552
00:30:39,520 --> 00:30:41,280
Speaker 1: in the day, like when I left the theater or whatever.

553
00:30:41,280 --> 00:30:43,760
Speaker 1: You like, why I don't understand how you can be

554
00:30:43,880 --> 00:30:46,640
Speaker 1: anxious and then you'd be anxious about something. I'm like, yeah,

555
00:30:46,680 --> 00:30:48,479
Speaker 1: that was an empathy. That was me being like if

556
00:30:48,520 --> 00:30:50,640
Speaker 1: I were you, I wouldn't be I know, I know,

557
00:30:50,760 --> 00:30:52,600
Speaker 1: but then but what I'm saying though, is like the

558
00:30:52,640 --> 00:30:55,920
Speaker 1: way that would really have help then and not just

559
00:30:55,960 --> 00:30:58,360
Speaker 1: from you, but from like anyone is going, oh, someone

560
00:30:58,400 --> 00:31:00,760
Speaker 1: else have an anxiety attack. Why don't you think about

561
00:31:00,760 --> 00:31:03,440
Speaker 1: the time you had an anxious attack, and then you go,

562
00:31:03,800 --> 00:31:06,160
Speaker 1: this is how I felt when I went through the

563
00:31:06,240 --> 00:31:09,400
Speaker 1: same thing. Empathy of that's the best. That's what I like.

564
00:31:09,600 --> 00:31:11,720
Speaker 1: That's I mean, the way you're describing it sounds like

565
00:31:11,760 --> 00:31:13,520
Speaker 1: it's the not the empathy, because it's like when I

566
00:31:13,520 --> 00:31:15,800
Speaker 1: feel anxiety, but it is the same as empathy because

567
00:31:15,800 --> 00:31:19,360
Speaker 1: you're thinking not didn't try to make it about yourself,

568
00:31:19,400 --> 00:31:22,640
Speaker 1: but just but just saying I know anxious feeling, and

569
00:31:22,640 --> 00:31:25,320
Speaker 1: if I were him right now feeling the way that

570
00:31:25,400 --> 00:31:27,720
Speaker 1: I felt when I'm most anxious, like when I'm driving

571
00:31:27,760 --> 00:31:30,440
Speaker 1: on a two lane highway and the person is drunk

572
00:31:30,560 --> 00:31:34,080
Speaker 1: or something like, that's oh shit, Like in that circumstance now,

573
00:31:34,160 --> 00:31:36,480
Speaker 1: I would just be like, I'm so sorry that you're

574
00:31:36,480 --> 00:31:39,240
Speaker 1: feeling this way. What can we do? I've been there before. Funk,

575
00:31:39,320 --> 00:31:42,600
Speaker 1: that's the worst. I totally get it. Like I don't

576
00:31:42,640 --> 00:31:44,960
Speaker 1: get it, but I get it. You know, that's waiting.

577
00:31:45,120 --> 00:31:48,760
Speaker 1: I was just like a totally diseased, deranged person back

578
00:31:48,800 --> 00:31:51,160
Speaker 1: then who was just like, what, why are you so upset?

579
00:31:51,760 --> 00:31:52,880
Speaker 1: I mean, I don't think I said it like that,

580
00:31:52,920 --> 00:31:56,120
Speaker 1: but I was just like, I actually I made fun

581
00:31:56,160 --> 00:31:58,080
Speaker 1: of you for it. It wasn't it wasn't kind. No,

582
00:31:58,200 --> 00:31:59,920
Speaker 1: it's fine, but you know what, I like getting me

583
00:32:00,040 --> 00:32:01,760
Speaker 1: fun of for things too. But it was just like

584
00:32:01,840 --> 00:32:04,960
Speaker 1: I think, like there's times when it's just like know

585
00:32:05,040 --> 00:32:07,480
Speaker 1: when people go but I wouldn't feel this way. Why

586
00:32:07,520 --> 00:32:09,760
Speaker 1: are you feeling that way? That was my whole childhood.

587
00:32:09,840 --> 00:32:12,520
Speaker 1: My dad does not have any capability of being like

588
00:32:13,160 --> 00:32:14,880
Speaker 1: and if there's nothing, it's not bad. But Dad, if

589
00:32:14,880 --> 00:32:17,440
Speaker 1: you're listening, I still love you. But man, you do

590
00:32:17,560 --> 00:32:20,720
Speaker 1: not understand how other people could feel different than you

591
00:32:20,720 --> 00:32:23,200
Speaker 1: would in the circumstance. It's just it's not in his

592
00:32:24,000 --> 00:32:26,520
Speaker 1: it's the part of the brain that made it so

593
00:32:26,640 --> 00:32:28,960
Speaker 1: he could understand that there are other people with different

594
00:32:28,960 --> 00:32:32,800
Speaker 1: experiences that him. Yeah, it's empathy and you have to

595
00:32:32,840 --> 00:32:35,200
Speaker 1: actually learn it from your parents giving it to you.

596
00:32:35,440 --> 00:32:39,640
Speaker 1: And his dad died when he was eleven. Um, this

597
00:32:39,720 --> 00:32:42,840
Speaker 1: is all very good discussion, and we what was that.

598
00:32:44,160 --> 00:32:45,920
Speaker 1: I have to say that we've had some technical issues

599
00:32:45,960 --> 00:32:48,520
Speaker 1: and I want everyone to know that during one of

600
00:32:48,520 --> 00:32:50,800
Speaker 1: these moments that we stopped and I don't want the

601
00:32:50,920 --> 00:32:53,840
Speaker 1: team that's editing this to use this against me later,

602
00:32:54,520 --> 00:32:57,280
Speaker 1: like in a jinx way. But I I we were

603
00:32:57,280 --> 00:32:59,720
Speaker 1: sitting down the mic and it's definitely recorded, like they'll

604
00:32:59,760 --> 00:33:02,920
Speaker 1: hear it if they're using the audio from this, because

605
00:33:02,920 --> 00:33:06,280
Speaker 1: the audio kept going, I farted, which I can do

606
00:33:06,320 --> 00:33:09,479
Speaker 1: in front of Andrew. I'll hear it, and you'll hear it.

607
00:33:09,600 --> 00:33:14,640
Speaker 1: I farted and Andrew goes sorry like he like, and

608
00:33:14,720 --> 00:33:17,560
Speaker 1: I go, did you just apologize for my fart? And

609
00:33:17,600 --> 00:33:20,600
Speaker 1: he goes, no, wait what And I go, I just

610
00:33:20,640 --> 00:33:24,000
Speaker 1: farted and you said sorry? And he goes, no, I

611
00:33:24,000 --> 00:33:26,440
Speaker 1: I was apologizing because like all the technical issues, like

612
00:33:26,480 --> 00:33:28,520
Speaker 1: he's like, man, he was just empathizing, like man, sorry,

613
00:33:28,520 --> 00:33:30,880
Speaker 1: we're dealing with this, which I don't care. It's fine,

614
00:33:31,120 --> 00:33:33,640
Speaker 1: I have nowhere to go. But um, I thought he

615
00:33:33,680 --> 00:33:35,160
Speaker 1: was apologizing for my own fart. And then he go,

616
00:33:35,280 --> 00:33:39,600
Speaker 1: what did you say? You can talk about empathy. I mean,

617
00:33:39,600 --> 00:33:42,240
Speaker 1: there's nothing more empathetic than someone else farting and you

618
00:33:42,400 --> 00:33:45,240
Speaker 1: apologizing for it. One of my favorite things my mom does,

619
00:33:45,760 --> 00:33:48,880
Speaker 1: and I love it more than anything, is anytime she burps,

620
00:33:49,240 --> 00:33:52,320
Speaker 1: literally it is literally like saying God bless you after

621
00:33:52,520 --> 00:33:55,080
Speaker 1: someone sneezes like it's just automatic. It's like when someone

622
00:33:55,160 --> 00:33:58,320
Speaker 1: hits a foul ball and you got to come down

623
00:33:58,640 --> 00:34:00,800
Speaker 1: like it's like you can't help it. It's just what

624
00:34:00,840 --> 00:34:04,880
Speaker 1: you do. She'll go like, can you burp on? COMMANDITYA

625
00:34:05,160 --> 00:34:10,040
Speaker 1: do it, Nikki, So do it again? So that pretended

626
00:34:12,680 --> 00:34:17,160
Speaker 1: h she'll blame it on. It's a great defense mechanism.

627
00:34:17,920 --> 00:34:20,160
Speaker 1: And another one my mom does all the time is, uh,

628
00:34:20,400 --> 00:34:23,480
Speaker 1: tell me I have something in my teeth, Nikki, have

629
00:34:23,600 --> 00:34:27,040
Speaker 1: something in your teeth. I like it there. It's so

630
00:34:27,400 --> 00:34:30,520
Speaker 1: it just immediately makes it you feel stupid about. But

631
00:34:30,600 --> 00:34:32,239
Speaker 1: she's not doing it to do that. It's just my

632
00:34:32,280 --> 00:34:34,520
Speaker 1: mom's really funny. All right, let's get to the news.

633
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Speaker 1: What had your mom or fared in front of you? Yeah,

634
00:34:39,640 --> 00:34:42,920
Speaker 1: but we it's it's one time in front of all

635
00:34:42,960 --> 00:34:45,279
Speaker 1: of us. Oh my god, And she goes, I lived

636
00:34:45,320 --> 00:34:49,719
Speaker 1: alone too long. It's great. Your mom is hilarious. That's hilarious.

637
00:34:51,719 --> 00:34:56,359
Speaker 1: Well now I'm burping so much because I burped once, Commando, No,

638
00:34:56,440 --> 00:35:03,840
Speaker 1: I can't. Yeah, wire hand me that straw over there.

639
00:35:01,239 --> 00:35:09,319
Speaker 1: You heard it here first, folks, It's Thursday. You know

640
00:35:09,360 --> 00:35:12,000
Speaker 1: what that means. It's Thursday. We've had some technical difficulties,

641
00:35:12,000 --> 00:35:14,360
Speaker 1: but we're still having all the swells because we have

642
00:35:14,400 --> 00:35:16,680
Speaker 1: a day off today. Your boy's playing golf and nicky,

643
00:35:16,719 --> 00:35:18,640
Speaker 1: I believe it's getting a pedicure. What do you do?

644
00:35:18,800 --> 00:35:22,439
Speaker 1: What are you wearing? It's gonna be hot out there, boy,

645
00:35:22,640 --> 00:35:26,680
Speaker 1: at seventy degrees today. Okay, your boy checks all right.

646
00:35:26,840 --> 00:35:30,600
Speaker 1: A Brooklyn based engineer who created Wardle sells the brain

647
00:35:30,640 --> 00:35:33,279
Speaker 1: teaser that has taken the world by storm to New

648
00:35:33,360 --> 00:35:36,799
Speaker 1: York Times for seven figures some I'm trying to do

649
00:35:36,840 --> 00:35:40,480
Speaker 1: the thing where you blow straw into your armpit. It

650
00:35:40,480 --> 00:35:42,040
Speaker 1: makes a fart sound. I saw it on TikTok, or

651
00:35:42,080 --> 00:35:44,080
Speaker 1: I saw it on Reddit that was on TikTok, but

652
00:35:44,120 --> 00:35:48,879
Speaker 1: it didn't work. I got a cavernous Uh sorry me too.

653
00:35:48,920 --> 00:35:52,279
Speaker 1: I was gonna fart with your armpit. Sometimes it does

654
00:35:52,280 --> 00:35:56,040
Speaker 1: it like accidentally, and I'm so embarrassed. You know, Um, okay,

655
00:35:56,080 --> 00:35:59,920
Speaker 1: Wordle obsessed with word So Josh Wardle, if you created

656
00:36:00,040 --> 00:36:11,520
Speaker 1: better than that's his name? What Andrew Ladder? Andrew? Noah,

657
00:36:11,560 --> 00:36:18,239
Speaker 1: don't don't do this right? Do you think maybe he

658
00:36:18,280 --> 00:36:23,960
Speaker 1: did that because his last name is Wardle and it's

659
00:36:23,960 --> 00:36:27,680
Speaker 1: not a coincidence since he named it. That'd be like

660
00:36:27,760 --> 00:36:30,680
Speaker 1: naming a baby your dad's name and going like, isn't it?

661
00:36:31,000 --> 00:36:33,800
Speaker 1: Isn't it a coincidence that my baby has the same

662
00:36:33,920 --> 00:36:37,960
Speaker 1: name as me or my day? Like, well, let's throw

663
00:36:38,040 --> 00:36:42,000
Speaker 1: junior on because that is so random? Do you get

664
00:36:42,000 --> 00:36:45,359
Speaker 1: it now? Yes? I do? Okay, so, but it's such

665
00:36:45,400 --> 00:36:47,840
Speaker 1: a catchy name that it just happened to be his

666
00:36:47,920 --> 00:36:49,719
Speaker 1: last name, which you know, what's ironic is that he

667
00:36:49,760 --> 00:36:52,320
Speaker 1: created a word game that is so close that his

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00:36:52,480 --> 00:36:55,120
Speaker 1: name is word Okay, got it that? That? That is?

669
00:36:55,320 --> 00:36:59,840
Speaker 1: If that was your point? That makes it? Wasn't I

670
00:37:00,000 --> 00:37:02,399
Speaker 1: wish I could empathize with whatever happened in your brain.

671
00:37:02,760 --> 00:37:05,920
Speaker 1: There's not much going on in here, okay. Ward admitted

672
00:37:06,000 --> 00:37:08,680
Speaker 1: not the game him that relieves me only one game

673
00:37:08,719 --> 00:37:12,720
Speaker 1: a day was inten I love this to avoid addiction

674
00:37:12,760 --> 00:37:15,480
Speaker 1: that comes from other games. Because he's worked for tech companies,

675
00:37:15,719 --> 00:37:18,120
Speaker 1: he knows how to make things addictive. But here's the thing.

676
00:37:18,200 --> 00:37:20,120
Speaker 1: He didn't want to use his powers. He made this

677
00:37:20,239 --> 00:37:25,040
Speaker 1: extremely addictive. But it's bad. I'm not saying it's bad,

678
00:37:25,080 --> 00:37:29,120
Speaker 1: but I'm just saying you get one fix thee If

679
00:37:29,160 --> 00:37:31,880
Speaker 1: that worked, everyone Mark Zuckerberg would be doing it. Everyone

680
00:37:31,920 --> 00:37:33,960
Speaker 1: would be doing it if that if, if, if what

681
00:37:34,160 --> 00:37:36,799
Speaker 1: he did work to make it addictive. It's it's not

682
00:37:36,880 --> 00:37:39,319
Speaker 1: something that you play once a day. That's not that

683
00:37:39,560 --> 00:37:43,080
Speaker 1: does not allow addiction addictive behavior because it's only once

684
00:37:43,120 --> 00:37:46,000
Speaker 1: a day. If you could only smoke one cigarette a day,

685
00:37:46,320 --> 00:37:49,000
Speaker 1: by law, no one would be addicted. You would just

686
00:37:49,040 --> 00:37:50,919
Speaker 1: do it once a day. Yeah, you might talk about

687
00:37:50,960 --> 00:37:53,319
Speaker 1: the cigarette with other people and share experiences about like

688
00:37:53,320 --> 00:37:54,920
Speaker 1: how cool it does to smoke that cigarette to day,

689
00:37:55,120 --> 00:37:58,200
Speaker 1: but it's not making it's actually bringing people together. I'm

690
00:37:58,200 --> 00:38:00,719
Speaker 1: talking with my friends about the game, making me laugh

691
00:38:00,800 --> 00:38:03,919
Speaker 1: with my friends. It's making me and Chris have something

692
00:38:03,960 --> 00:38:06,240
Speaker 1: that we share every single day while we're long distance

693
00:38:06,320 --> 00:38:09,080
Speaker 1: that like makes us laugh and like we talked like

694
00:38:09,200 --> 00:38:12,440
Speaker 1: yesterday the words spoiler alert for World go ahead thirty

695
00:38:12,440 --> 00:38:14,640
Speaker 1: seconds on the podcast if you haven't played yesterday's puzzle,

696
00:38:14,640 --> 00:38:18,920
Speaker 1: but actually yesterday's over it was moist um and that's funny.

697
00:38:19,080 --> 00:38:22,680
Speaker 1: But my point, my point isn't that it's addictive, like

698
00:38:22,920 --> 00:38:25,280
Speaker 1: you're on it all the time. Well, that's what addictive means,

699
00:38:25,760 --> 00:38:28,000
Speaker 1: doesn't Yes, it does. You could be addicted to something

700
00:38:28,040 --> 00:38:29,799
Speaker 1: and only do it once a day. No, no, no,

701
00:38:29,880 --> 00:38:36,239
Speaker 1: you can't. You can't know. You can't addiction people if

702
00:38:36,280 --> 00:38:39,240
Speaker 1: they didn't, if they if you didn't get word all tomorrow,

703
00:38:40,120 --> 00:38:43,360
Speaker 1: you would be upset because you're addicted. Maybe it's a

704
00:38:43,360 --> 00:38:45,160
Speaker 1: smaller addiction because you're not on it all the time,

705
00:38:45,200 --> 00:38:47,480
Speaker 1: but it's an addiction. I mean, I understand, like if

706
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Speaker 1: you have obsessive thoughts about something that you would get

707
00:38:50,160 --> 00:38:52,399
Speaker 1: once a day, but no one's having obsessive thoughts about world,

708
00:38:52,440 --> 00:38:54,920
Speaker 1: and if they are, they've got other issues that are

709
00:38:54,960 --> 00:38:56,960
Speaker 1: going on. This isn't about word all, but I'm just

710
00:38:57,000 --> 00:39:00,000
Speaker 1: saying that that his I've been addicted to crossword puzzle

711
00:39:00,200 --> 00:39:02,799
Speaker 1: and those are endless, and I've during the pandemic when

712
00:39:02,880 --> 00:39:04,760
Speaker 1: things were shut down and I didn't have a podcast

713
00:39:04,840 --> 00:39:07,160
Speaker 1: or anything. I'm not kidding you. I was playing three

714
00:39:07,200 --> 00:39:09,439
Speaker 1: and a half hours a day cross for puzzles. That

715
00:39:09,640 --> 00:39:14,319
Speaker 1: was bordering on addiction. But this wordle is awesome. That

716
00:39:16,440 --> 00:39:18,640
Speaker 1: don't do that. Don't do the thing where it's like, well,

717
00:39:18,680 --> 00:39:21,600
Speaker 1: he says he's doing it for this, but actually it's

718
00:39:21,760 --> 00:39:26,840
Speaker 1: exactly I'm not saying that he's doing it for this reason.

719
00:39:27,239 --> 00:39:32,600
Speaker 1: I don't think that he intentionally got it, but intentionally

720
00:39:33,040 --> 00:39:39,160
Speaker 1: made it extremely addictive because of the supply and that

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00:39:40,880 --> 00:39:42,560
Speaker 1: it might I don't think it leads to addiction, but

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00:39:42,560 --> 00:39:46,120
Speaker 1: you're not wrong that um the you know that book

723
00:39:46,120 --> 00:39:48,360
Speaker 1: I was reading about the influence of psychology or the

724
00:39:48,400 --> 00:39:53,080
Speaker 1: psychology of influence, um where it's like scarcity people to

725
00:39:53,239 --> 00:39:57,040
Speaker 1: want to scarcity. This is not scarce that that wouldn't

726
00:39:57,040 --> 00:39:59,640
Speaker 1: be the psychology of scarcity. This might be the psychology

727
00:39:59,719 --> 00:40:03,239
Speaker 1: because scarcity means other people. It might use it all

728
00:40:03,320 --> 00:40:05,359
Speaker 1: up and you gotta get it now because the word

729
00:40:05,360 --> 00:40:07,880
Speaker 1: ale is there. It's infinite for that twenty four hours.

730
00:40:07,920 --> 00:40:09,959
Speaker 1: Everyone can have for that twenty four hours and after

731
00:40:10,000 --> 00:40:11,360
Speaker 1: that and then there will be a new one. So

732
00:40:11,400 --> 00:40:15,040
Speaker 1: it's never going to go away. Yeah, but who cares.

733
00:40:15,200 --> 00:40:19,399
Speaker 1: It's just another one. But have you played word ale? No? No,

734
00:40:19,520 --> 00:40:22,759
Speaker 1: I haven't. Will you try? Because I just want to

735
00:40:22,760 --> 00:40:26,120
Speaker 1: say that anyone who is annoyed with wordle, especially when

736
00:40:26,120 --> 00:40:29,000
Speaker 1: you're late to something like I'm late to yellow Jackets

737
00:40:29,080 --> 00:40:31,880
Speaker 1: and like I'm never gonna get on board because it's

738
00:40:31,920 --> 00:40:35,239
Speaker 1: too most suspenseful And now everyone's talking about it and

739
00:40:35,239 --> 00:40:36,640
Speaker 1: I kind of feel like I don't want to watch it.

740
00:40:36,640 --> 00:40:39,000
Speaker 1: Now just because everyone's upset, like there's a little bit

741
00:40:39,040 --> 00:40:40,920
Speaker 1: of me. If you're having that vibe with word, I

742
00:40:41,040 --> 00:40:44,920
Speaker 1: understand because it seems like, oh god, this thing, all

743
00:40:44,960 --> 00:40:47,720
Speaker 1: these people are posting about it. It takes two minutes

744
00:40:47,760 --> 00:40:50,520
Speaker 1: of your day. It's really fun. A new puzzle comes

745
00:40:50,560 --> 00:40:51,919
Speaker 1: up when you're up the late at night at twelve

746
00:40:51,920 --> 00:40:53,799
Speaker 1: o'clock and you can't sleep, or you're like, oh, at

747
00:40:53,840 --> 00:40:56,360
Speaker 1: least I can distract myself for two minutes with this

748
00:40:56,400 --> 00:40:59,200
Speaker 1: fun little word game. Is coming from someone that hates cross.

749
00:40:59,239 --> 00:41:02,640
Speaker 1: I hate cross puzzles. It's fun. I hate, Yes, I liked.

750
00:41:03,520 --> 00:41:05,840
Speaker 1: So that just shows you, like, you don't have to

751
00:41:05,920 --> 00:41:07,560
Speaker 1: be a words and you can do it and not

752
00:41:07,680 --> 00:41:09,120
Speaker 1: tell anyone about it. You don't have to be a

753
00:41:09,200 --> 00:41:12,239
Speaker 1: part of the word culture. It's but I heard he

754
00:41:12,320 --> 00:41:17,040
Speaker 1: sold it for the low millions, low seven figures, which

755
00:41:17,080 --> 00:41:20,000
Speaker 1: whenever someone says the seven figures, why don't you just

756
00:41:20,040 --> 00:41:24,520
Speaker 1: say in the low Oh, I guess you can't. There's

757
00:41:24,560 --> 00:41:27,400
Speaker 1: no like they sold it for one to five million,

758
00:41:27,960 --> 00:41:30,640
Speaker 1: or like hate the figures because then I have to

759
00:41:30,640 --> 00:41:36,200
Speaker 1: go one to three six. Okay, It's so it's onion. Actually,

760
00:41:36,400 --> 00:41:40,920
Speaker 1: now that you're saying that you thought he sold a

761
00:41:40,960 --> 00:41:43,480
Speaker 1: word O for a billion dollars, but I didn't realize

762
00:41:43,520 --> 00:41:47,239
Speaker 1: counting the figures. Yeah, because when you count figures, it's

763
00:41:47,239 --> 00:41:50,160
Speaker 1: a little I totally agree with her on that, because

764
00:41:50,560 --> 00:41:53,279
Speaker 1: that's where people say the word figures when they work

765
00:41:53,320 --> 00:41:56,319
Speaker 1: in finance, and they like it's it's a way to

766
00:41:56,360 --> 00:42:00,000
Speaker 1: sound cool about numbers and money. It really is, because

767
00:42:00,000 --> 00:42:02,400
Speaker 1: if you know what seven figures are, you're dealing with

768
00:42:02,440 --> 00:42:05,399
Speaker 1: that kind of money already. No one says, oh dude,

769
00:42:05,400 --> 00:42:10,200
Speaker 1: I saw it for two figures exactly. That is so funny.

770
00:42:10,440 --> 00:42:13,200
Speaker 1: You have to do a bit about that, you know,

771
00:42:13,239 --> 00:42:16,879
Speaker 1: when someone but you just wrote the punchline like no one,

772
00:42:17,520 --> 00:42:20,719
Speaker 1: no one does that. You're so right, I gotta pack

773
00:42:20,840 --> 00:42:24,000
Speaker 1: up so um yeah, Like I just I just I

774
00:42:24,080 --> 00:42:26,759
Speaker 1: just released an n f T was going for like

775
00:42:27,640 --> 00:42:30,560
Speaker 1: one to two figures. Oh my god, we think we

776
00:42:30,640 --> 00:42:35,600
Speaker 1: might get low three dollars. It could be I don't

777
00:42:35,760 --> 00:42:39,720
Speaker 1: I get to the math. Yeah, the figures point about

778
00:42:39,719 --> 00:42:44,160
Speaker 1: all that, because everything in this world now is trying

779
00:42:44,160 --> 00:42:46,640
Speaker 1: to get your attention for the longest amount of time

780
00:42:46,680 --> 00:42:48,640
Speaker 1: on the internet and on your phone. But let me

781
00:42:48,680 --> 00:42:51,239
Speaker 1: just say that word all there are companies that made

782
00:42:51,239 --> 00:42:54,080
Speaker 1: the same exact game, same graphics, everything about it, and

783
00:42:54,120 --> 00:42:58,480
Speaker 1: you can play it unlimited and no one's doing it.

784
00:42:58,480 --> 00:43:01,879
Speaker 1: It's called when that happened to? What do you mean? First?

785
00:43:01,920 --> 00:43:04,839
Speaker 1: The market is like when you stay true to that one?

786
00:43:05,000 --> 00:43:09,160
Speaker 1: Because well, if you want if people were addicted to

787
00:43:09,160 --> 00:43:12,319
Speaker 1: word all truly, because let's just say, when when you

788
00:43:12,360 --> 00:43:14,839
Speaker 1: become addicted to something, if it becomes that you can

789
00:43:14,880 --> 00:43:17,800
Speaker 1: do it more than once a day, If you're truly addicted,

790
00:43:17,920 --> 00:43:20,800
Speaker 1: you would do it more than once a day, like cigarettes,

791
00:43:20,800 --> 00:43:22,360
Speaker 1: if you were only lawed one a day, but you

792
00:43:22,400 --> 00:43:26,200
Speaker 1: could get sick of that addiction quicker. Not with cigarettes,

793
00:43:26,360 --> 00:43:28,520
Speaker 1: people don't get sick of it quicker. That's not the

794
00:43:28,560 --> 00:43:33,600
Speaker 1: way it works. I think that. But to your point, smoked,

795
00:43:34,280 --> 00:43:36,960
Speaker 1: you know, a pack of cigarettes every day for ten years,

796
00:43:37,000 --> 00:43:39,200
Speaker 1: I think that would be worse than smoking one cigarette

797
00:43:39,200 --> 00:43:43,239
Speaker 1: a day for your whole life. I think. I don't know,

798
00:43:43,320 --> 00:43:46,319
Speaker 1: maybe that's not true, but you know, I want to

799
00:43:46,320 --> 00:43:49,480
Speaker 1: do word O with numbers. We were talking about that

800
00:43:49,680 --> 00:43:53,080
Speaker 1: one through now, like sod so dooku s doo Cuba

801
00:43:53,160 --> 00:43:55,799
Speaker 1: for word all. Do you know there's letter have you

802
00:43:55,840 --> 00:43:58,719
Speaker 1: heard of that? It's a joke on word ale where

803
00:43:58,719 --> 00:44:00,520
Speaker 1: you just guess a letter and and it says whether

804
00:44:00,520 --> 00:44:05,160
Speaker 1: it's right or not. But there's there's also Taylor World

805
00:44:05,560 --> 00:44:11,040
Speaker 1: tailor tailor order, and it's a Taylor Swift five letter word,

806
00:44:11,239 --> 00:44:14,000
Speaker 1: so it's word all, but Taylor Swift words, which are

807
00:44:14,040 --> 00:44:17,080
Speaker 1: just you know, lyrics are like just themes. And every

808
00:44:17,160 --> 00:44:19,480
Speaker 1: day it's a new one and pep so many best.

809
00:44:19,520 --> 00:44:21,120
Speaker 1: He sent it to me, thank you so much. The

810
00:44:21,200 --> 00:44:23,319
Speaker 1: first day, I got it in one try, which if

811
00:44:23,360 --> 00:44:26,400
Speaker 1: you don't play word all, that's like just you you

812
00:44:26,480 --> 00:44:28,359
Speaker 1: got to be a mind reader, or it's just dumb

813
00:44:28,440 --> 00:44:31,480
Speaker 1: luck to guess randomly the right word. And it was

814
00:44:31,520 --> 00:44:34,000
Speaker 1: scarf the first day, because you know, Taylor Swift scarf.

815
00:44:34,080 --> 00:44:36,680
Speaker 1: And every another day it was Kanye. And yesterday I

816
00:44:36,719 --> 00:44:40,120
Speaker 1: was talking about tailor when so Andrew had not played

817
00:44:40,120 --> 00:44:42,960
Speaker 1: wordld yet that day, and I was talking about tailor

818
00:44:43,440 --> 00:44:45,719
Speaker 1: or Laurel and he overheard me and I go, yeah,

819
00:44:45,719 --> 00:44:48,000
Speaker 1: today's with Kanye, and he goes, dude, I haven't played

820
00:44:48,040 --> 00:44:50,919
Speaker 1: it yet, and I go, do you think wordal would

821
00:44:50,920 --> 00:44:56,959
Speaker 1: have Kanye? It was everywhere, you know, he he said

822
00:44:57,000 --> 00:44:59,440
Speaker 1: that Pete Davidson is gay and has aids. I mean,

823
00:44:59,560 --> 00:45:04,600
Speaker 1: it's so stupid, I mean wild, It's a strong move

824
00:45:04,719 --> 00:45:10,560
Speaker 1: by an ex boyfriend. It's just like so essentially, did

825
00:45:10,880 --> 00:45:13,239
Speaker 1: we gotta go to break? Let's get back because let's

826
00:45:13,239 --> 00:45:14,879
Speaker 1: just skip the rest of the news today and get

827
00:45:14,880 --> 00:45:17,239
Speaker 1: to fan tracks because I know we got some good ones.

828
00:45:17,680 --> 00:45:23,359
Speaker 1: All right, be right back with fan backs. Sports phone.

829
00:45:23,480 --> 00:45:27,080
Speaker 1: By the way, Tom Brady, Oh yeah, what happened with that?

830
00:45:27,480 --> 00:45:29,640
Speaker 1: He posted? Up? He posted a thing on Instagram? Okay,

831
00:45:30,160 --> 00:45:33,799
Speaker 1: he reposted thanks good news. Yeah did you see that?

832
00:45:35,120 --> 00:45:40,480
Speaker 1: He reposted? Yeah? Okay. Let's we're back and it's time

833
00:45:40,560 --> 00:45:50,680
Speaker 1: for fan tracks. Okay, let's get into it. Noah, play us,

834
00:45:50,719 --> 00:45:56,200
Speaker 1: some play us some messages from our our besties. Okay,

835
00:45:56,320 --> 00:46:02,719
Speaker 1: first one comes from Ali Hi, no One, Nikki and Andrew.

836
00:46:02,880 --> 00:46:06,600
Speaker 1: I was just listening to the podcast where um Noah

837
00:46:06,640 --> 00:46:11,239
Speaker 1: was absent and Nikki and Andrew covered the murder podcast.

838
00:46:11,960 --> 00:46:16,759
Speaker 1: I was scared just from YouTube describing the podcast. I

839
00:46:16,800 --> 00:46:20,560
Speaker 1: can't listen to that type of podcast because it will

840
00:46:20,719 --> 00:46:24,120
Speaker 1: ruin my week. Good for you, but I appreciate you

841
00:46:24,239 --> 00:46:27,160
Speaker 1: covering it and give me some insight. And then at

842
00:46:27,200 --> 00:46:30,320
Speaker 1: the end of the podcast, you talked about a story

843
00:46:30,480 --> 00:46:32,920
Speaker 1: where you got a phone call while your parents were

844
00:46:32,920 --> 00:46:35,520
Speaker 1: out of the house and it scared you so bad

845
00:46:35,560 --> 00:46:39,280
Speaker 1: that you locked yourself in a room. Similar things happened

846
00:46:39,400 --> 00:46:42,360
Speaker 1: when I was younger. Um, people would call and I

847
00:46:42,400 --> 00:46:43,920
Speaker 1: would have to say, my mom was in the shower

848
00:46:43,960 --> 00:46:46,560
Speaker 1: when they were like literally looking at her shopping in Walmart.

849
00:46:47,160 --> 00:46:50,440
Speaker 1: But anyways, one time we were playing a game where

850
00:46:51,400 --> 00:46:54,240
Speaker 1: we were pretending that a clown would come out of

851
00:46:54,440 --> 00:46:58,840
Speaker 1: the laundry room drain, and we scared ourselves so bad

852
00:46:59,040 --> 00:47:01,640
Speaker 1: with the game that we had to lock ourselves in

853
00:47:01,680 --> 00:47:05,080
Speaker 1: our parents bathroom. And when the parents got home, they

854
00:47:05,080 --> 00:47:08,719
Speaker 1: were like, what is going on here? So I can

855
00:47:08,760 --> 00:47:13,720
Speaker 1: totally relate to stories like that, just hearing yourself so badly.

856
00:47:13,960 --> 00:47:17,000
Speaker 1: And I appreciate the recap of the murder podcast because

857
00:47:17,000 --> 00:47:19,839
Speaker 1: I will never be listening to it. Um, thank you

858
00:47:20,160 --> 00:47:25,600
Speaker 1: and Jack Lantern, jack o Lantern. That's so good. Ali,

859
00:47:25,719 --> 00:47:28,839
Speaker 1: Oh my gosh, I love that you don't listen to

860
00:47:28,840 --> 00:47:31,279
Speaker 1: that stuff because you you know that it makes you

861
00:47:31,320 --> 00:47:34,520
Speaker 1: uncomfortable and like you're someone who's choosing not to bring

862
00:47:34,560 --> 00:47:36,239
Speaker 1: in things that are going to stress you out in life.

863
00:47:36,280 --> 00:47:38,279
Speaker 1: And I'm sorry that we like forced it on you,

864
00:47:38,320 --> 00:47:40,600
Speaker 1: and I'm maybe that is our thing is like we

865
00:47:40,680 --> 00:47:44,480
Speaker 1: make murder podcasts palatable for people who are scared. What

866
00:47:45,200 --> 00:47:47,719
Speaker 1: oh the ginger, Yeah, we make it well. Ginger just

867
00:47:47,800 --> 00:47:50,839
Speaker 1: like does a reset. It's not like it makes it

868
00:47:50,920 --> 00:47:54,279
Speaker 1: so the sushi taste better, you know what I mean?

869
00:47:55,120 --> 00:47:59,719
Speaker 1: Ginger Um. I want to say, it's so easy to

870
00:47:59,719 --> 00:48:02,520
Speaker 1: make your self scared of something something I do to

871
00:48:02,600 --> 00:48:04,359
Speaker 1: get out of that, because sometimes you watch a murder

872
00:48:04,400 --> 00:48:06,360
Speaker 1: show or something that just out of nowhere scares you

873
00:48:06,360 --> 00:48:10,440
Speaker 1: and you'll realize, shit, I'm alone and you're in the

874
00:48:10,600 --> 00:48:15,000
Speaker 1: camera in the mirror, bloody Mary, bloody Mary, bloody yeah,

875
00:48:15,080 --> 00:48:17,439
Speaker 1: and then like they show up, Well, that's like really

876
00:48:17,480 --> 00:48:20,480
Speaker 1: asking for it. But if you somehow unintentionally get your

877
00:48:20,760 --> 00:48:23,640
Speaker 1: work yourself into like your fucking scared at night and

878
00:48:23,680 --> 00:48:25,239
Speaker 1: you're like, oh no, what am I gonna do? Like

879
00:48:25,320 --> 00:48:28,000
Speaker 1: last night, I kind of did that. I like to

880
00:48:28,000 --> 00:48:34,080
Speaker 1: do this thing where I just imagine that, like I

881
00:48:34,160 --> 00:48:37,520
Speaker 1: just do a reset of like what what does this

882
00:48:37,640 --> 00:48:41,360
Speaker 1: room look like during the day, and like birds chirping?

883
00:48:41,480 --> 00:48:43,959
Speaker 1: How is this different? The only difference is that there's

884
00:48:44,000 --> 00:48:47,000
Speaker 1: no light in here, but like everything's the same, Like

885
00:48:47,040 --> 00:48:49,560
Speaker 1: you just have to kind of placet like what does

886
00:48:49,600 --> 00:48:51,520
Speaker 1: this room look like earlier this morning, when I or

887
00:48:51,560 --> 00:48:54,440
Speaker 1: what it's gonna look like tomorrow morning, Like, because truly,

888
00:48:54,600 --> 00:48:57,960
Speaker 1: you know that whatever is going on is just a

889
00:48:58,000 --> 00:49:00,960
Speaker 1: figment of your imagination, and that really, if you ever

890
00:49:01,000 --> 00:49:03,839
Speaker 1: get murdered in your room, it's not gonna be when

891
00:49:03,840 --> 00:49:05,880
Speaker 1: you think it's coming, you know what I mean. Like

892
00:49:06,040 --> 00:49:08,520
Speaker 1: plenty of people get murdered during the day too, sure,

893
00:49:08,640 --> 00:49:10,440
Speaker 1: but like I'm just saying, like, why don't you just

894
00:49:10,440 --> 00:49:12,799
Speaker 1: turn the light on when you're scared? Sometimes when I'm

895
00:49:12,840 --> 00:49:14,520
Speaker 1: scared of like, oh my god, what if someone came

896
00:49:14,520 --> 00:49:16,520
Speaker 1: in and raped me right now in this or whatever,

897
00:49:16,760 --> 00:49:19,320
Speaker 1: And it's like I'm waiting for it. It never happened

898
00:49:19,320 --> 00:49:24,480
Speaker 1: that no one before. You're not gonna I bet a

899
00:49:24,480 --> 00:49:27,000
Speaker 1: lot of people on planes that crash are like already scared.

900
00:49:27,040 --> 00:49:30,080
Speaker 1: And that's just let's get to the next one. Ali,

901
00:49:30,080 --> 00:49:33,719
Speaker 1: I really appreciated that, And oh my god, I I

902
00:49:33,840 --> 00:49:35,840
Speaker 1: relate so much of just making a game and then

903
00:49:35,840 --> 00:49:39,760
Speaker 1: all of a sudden, the game like yeah, in the drain,

904
00:49:40,480 --> 00:49:43,040
Speaker 1: one of the kids saw of like something with it,

905
00:49:43,160 --> 00:49:44,920
Speaker 1: and then the other kids hadn't heard of it yet,

906
00:49:44,920 --> 00:49:47,439
Speaker 1: and then it just becomes oh my god, I'm scared.

907
00:49:47,480 --> 00:49:50,520
Speaker 1: To take a shower now. Well, I've been afraid for

908
00:49:50,560 --> 00:49:56,440
Speaker 1: a while for other reasons. Hygiene in the drain, hygiene,

909
00:49:56,600 --> 00:50:01,320
Speaker 1: the clowns, Gene. I have a cousin, Jean. He writes poems.

910
00:50:02,520 --> 00:50:07,840
Speaker 1: They're terrible. Runs in the family. Didn't skip a generation.

911
00:50:07,920 --> 00:50:16,600
Speaker 1: Final bottle? Right? Okay, guys, for the next message, Yes, yes, sorry,

912
00:50:16,680 --> 00:50:21,319
Speaker 1: we were just talking quietly until it's hard shower drain.

913
00:50:21,719 --> 00:50:27,839
Speaker 1: Who's this from? Okay? This one is from Joe. Joe. Hi,

914
00:50:28,120 --> 00:50:32,360
Speaker 1: this is Joe. I currently live in Missoula, Montana, and

915
00:50:32,400 --> 00:50:35,840
Speaker 1: it's snowing outside. Anyway, I wanted to share this story

916
00:50:35,880 --> 00:50:41,200
Speaker 1: with you, guys. I was playing Banana Grahams and it's

917
00:50:41,239 --> 00:50:46,000
Speaker 1: a word game you play with tiles, and I had

918
00:50:46,040 --> 00:50:50,440
Speaker 1: an extra H and I played it incorrectly and my

919
00:50:50,520 --> 00:50:52,319
Speaker 1: friend was like, oh, you can move it over here

920
00:50:52,360 --> 00:50:55,160
Speaker 1: and put the H in front of that E. And

921
00:50:55,200 --> 00:50:57,600
Speaker 1: so I moved it and I looked at it and

922
00:50:57,640 --> 00:51:01,200
Speaker 1: I was like, hey, that's not a word. I forgot

923
00:51:02,160 --> 00:51:05,040
Speaker 1: my God. Anyway, I hope you all are well and

924
00:51:05,160 --> 00:51:10,400
Speaker 1: staying warm and everything else. Thanks by Joe. What the

925
00:51:10,440 --> 00:51:14,120
Speaker 1: fuck is you think? What's going on with your dude?

926
00:51:14,239 --> 00:51:20,000
Speaker 1: I just yoked so hard on this couch yoke. Um, Joe,

927
00:51:20,280 --> 00:51:22,360
Speaker 1: I have to were you in a closet trying to

928
00:51:22,360 --> 00:51:25,879
Speaker 1: be quiet? Were you at a spa, like in the

929
00:51:25,920 --> 00:51:29,320
Speaker 1: waiting room where before they come get you? Like why

930
00:51:29,880 --> 00:51:32,560
Speaker 1: did your voice sound so like it sounded like she

931
00:51:32,680 --> 00:51:35,920
Speaker 1: was trying to do like like it was trying to

932
00:51:36,000 --> 00:51:37,719
Speaker 1: like she was a sm R. And Joe, I'm not

933
00:51:37,800 --> 00:51:40,600
Speaker 1: kidding you. I know I say this a lot some

934
00:51:40,680 --> 00:51:43,360
Speaker 1: of our listeners, and I am not one of these listeners.

935
00:51:43,400 --> 00:51:45,000
Speaker 1: So Ali, don't feel sad that I didn't say this

936
00:51:45,000 --> 00:51:47,680
Speaker 1: about your voice. Your voice was awesome, but no one's

937
00:51:47,680 --> 00:51:50,399
Speaker 1: ever told me my voice is soothing. It's because it's

938
00:51:50,400 --> 00:51:53,720
Speaker 1: it's harsh. But Joe, you need to do a SMR.

939
00:51:53,880 --> 00:51:58,160
Speaker 1: You can make so much money. I'm not kidding you know,

940
00:51:58,160 --> 00:51:59,959
Speaker 1: because I want people to stay awake for it. Joe,

941
00:52:00,480 --> 00:52:05,479
Speaker 1: your voice is so hypnotic, it's it's amazing. Please, Joe,

942
00:52:05,520 --> 00:52:08,719
Speaker 1: if you would just I want to hear things about Montana,

943
00:52:08,840 --> 00:52:13,600
Speaker 1: If you would send us a voice memo of you,

944
00:52:13,960 --> 00:52:16,440
Speaker 1: like we're just reading something like you don't even or

945
00:52:16,480 --> 00:52:18,759
Speaker 1: just telling me about your day and like either like

946
00:52:18,840 --> 00:52:21,120
Speaker 1: try to go a little bit more soothing for like

947
00:52:21,200 --> 00:52:23,560
Speaker 1: five minutes. I would listen to it at night and

948
00:52:23,600 --> 00:52:25,680
Speaker 1: like fall asleep to it if you could somehow get

949
00:52:25,719 --> 00:52:28,359
Speaker 1: us that recording, because that was awesome. I just wanted

950
00:52:28,440 --> 00:52:32,000
Speaker 1: to tell us about like the rivers in Montana, fishing

951
00:52:32,880 --> 00:52:36,680
Speaker 1: the h Yeah, tell us about Missoula. Yeah, tell us

952
00:52:36,680 --> 00:52:39,359
Speaker 1: about Missoulo. Tells like what they're to do there are

953
00:52:39,520 --> 00:52:42,520
Speaker 1: different so beautiful. It's one of those places that during

954
00:52:42,520 --> 00:52:44,000
Speaker 1: the summer it's like awesome, and I think in the

955
00:52:44,040 --> 00:52:46,400
Speaker 1: winter it's pretty harsh. But um, I just thought she

956
00:52:46,480 --> 00:52:49,600
Speaker 1: was like and out there the snow and you know

957
00:52:49,680 --> 00:52:52,919
Speaker 1: what you can I feel like is how she says

958
00:52:52,960 --> 00:52:57,720
Speaker 1: he anyway because it's softer, but you know, it reminds

959
00:52:57,760 --> 00:53:01,080
Speaker 1: me of is that TikTok thing where she's like, um,

960
00:53:01,120 --> 00:53:05,560
Speaker 1: where you go? What's what is it? It's it's the trick.

961
00:53:05,680 --> 00:53:07,239
Speaker 1: Hold on, let me just think of it one second.

962
00:53:07,280 --> 00:53:09,279
Speaker 1: I know we don't have the lad Oh um, how

963
00:53:09,320 --> 00:53:13,960
Speaker 1: do you uh repeat? Tell me what I'm spelling? Y

964
00:53:14,040 --> 00:53:19,279
Speaker 1: e s yes, okay, yes, and they go yes yes,

965
00:53:19,680 --> 00:53:22,320
Speaker 1: and then the person is like what yes, yes, and

966
00:53:22,360 --> 00:53:25,400
Speaker 1: they're like laughing so hard and she's like e y

967
00:53:25,440 --> 00:53:28,960
Speaker 1: e yes and he's like yes, it's such a cute TikTok.

968
00:53:29,160 --> 00:53:32,120
Speaker 1: Look up the e y e es and it's eyes

969
00:53:32,160 --> 00:53:36,400
Speaker 1: the whole time. It's eyes. So funny to to to

970
00:53:36,480 --> 00:53:39,120
Speaker 1: not know what eyes is. But he I would do

971
00:53:39,200 --> 00:53:42,759
Speaker 1: the same thing of going like, because you're thinking, I

972
00:53:42,800 --> 00:53:45,120
Speaker 1: bet you anything. She was putting the h over it

973
00:53:45,480 --> 00:53:48,800
Speaker 1: like next on the other side of the at first

974
00:53:48,040 --> 00:53:52,480
Speaker 1: or something. It's not like it's so short, but it's

975
00:53:52,520 --> 00:53:55,239
Speaker 1: still so funny not to know and just to go, hey, well,

976
00:53:55,280 --> 00:53:58,319
Speaker 1: you're probably thinking like, oh, this is heathens. I really

977
00:53:58,320 --> 00:54:02,080
Speaker 1: want to start saying. He said, it is h snowy outside.

978
00:54:02,200 --> 00:54:06,800
Speaker 1: It's an I don't know what it's like. That is Joe.

979
00:54:07,280 --> 00:54:09,560
Speaker 1: That was a perfect fan trax in the sense and

980
00:54:09,800 --> 00:54:13,000
Speaker 1: Ali killed it too because she offered insight into the podcast.

981
00:54:13,520 --> 00:54:16,680
Speaker 1: She gave us a personal story and she was just

982
00:54:16,880 --> 00:54:19,360
Speaker 1: sweet and like great fan thrast Today Joe did a

983
00:54:19,360 --> 00:54:22,880
Speaker 1: great one to soothing voice. UM gave us where she

984
00:54:23,080 --> 00:54:26,640
Speaker 1: is listening to the podcast, I like like setting a scene, um,

985
00:54:26,680 --> 00:54:30,359
Speaker 1: and then the to think of us when she did

986
00:54:30,400 --> 00:54:32,719
Speaker 1: a banana grams and had that moment to go, I

987
00:54:32,800 --> 00:54:35,640
Speaker 1: gotta share this with them. I really appreciate that. It

988
00:54:35,680 --> 00:54:38,480
Speaker 1: makes me feel like, oh, I'm I have a friend

989
00:54:38,680 --> 00:54:41,880
Speaker 1: in Missoula who's like thinking of me and being like,

990
00:54:41,880 --> 00:54:44,560
Speaker 1: oh my god, my friend Nicki and Andrew would like this.

991
00:54:44,680 --> 00:54:49,520
Speaker 1: I feel like she's laid by a fire always and Banana.

992
00:54:50,480 --> 00:54:52,279
Speaker 1: I've never played it, but I've been given it as

993
00:54:52,320 --> 00:54:53,919
Speaker 1: a gift so many times. Let's get a final thought.

994
00:54:54,200 --> 00:54:59,600
Speaker 1: Teddy grahams, Okay, so this one a little long, but

995
00:55:00,200 --> 00:55:05,200
Speaker 1: from Steve from the other part of the world. I

996
00:55:05,239 --> 00:55:07,720
Speaker 1: really loved just letting you say I love Teddy Grams.

997
00:55:07,800 --> 00:55:10,000
Speaker 1: I really did. It was almost like I like Turtles.

998
00:55:11,400 --> 00:55:13,600
Speaker 1: It was this we have to steal the audio from

999
00:55:13,680 --> 00:55:19,040
Speaker 1: using I love Teddy Grams and then I like Turtles. Guy. Okay,

1000
00:55:19,520 --> 00:55:22,440
Speaker 1: all right, oh here we go. Hey, Nikki, no, and Andrew.

1001
00:55:22,520 --> 00:55:25,400
Speaker 1: It's Steve. I'm the bestie from South Africa. I think

1002
00:55:25,440 --> 00:55:27,479
Speaker 1: I might be the first bestI to phone in from

1003
00:55:27,960 --> 00:55:31,240
Speaker 1: um here. He just said, you love the part listen

1004
00:55:31,400 --> 00:55:33,640
Speaker 1: every day, although it often comes out the next day

1005
00:55:33,680 --> 00:55:36,279
Speaker 1: here and yeah, I just want to say how much

1006
00:55:36,840 --> 00:55:39,040
Speaker 1: um I really enjoy it. Nicky. I first started listening

1007
00:55:39,040 --> 00:55:42,120
Speaker 1: to you when you were on Whitney's podcast during our

1008
00:55:42,160 --> 00:55:44,840
Speaker 1: lockdown here, and you spoke a lot about doing the

1009
00:55:44,880 --> 00:55:47,000
Speaker 1: best you can and how you know you've done as

1010
00:55:47,080 --> 00:55:49,000
Speaker 1: much as you can and you couldn't do more if

1011
00:55:49,000 --> 00:55:51,080
Speaker 1: you could. Your word and a lot of what you

1012
00:55:51,120 --> 00:55:54,879
Speaker 1: said really resonated with me, and yeah, what you say

1013
00:55:54,880 --> 00:55:57,000
Speaker 1: on the pod continues to do so, So thank you

1014
00:55:57,040 --> 00:56:00,400
Speaker 1: for being so understand open with us. It helps probably

1015
00:56:00,560 --> 00:56:04,520
Speaker 1: more than you know. I've also become a major swift

1016
00:56:04,560 --> 00:56:07,719
Speaker 1: desnce listening to the part, So keep on spreading the gospel.

1017
00:56:08,120 --> 00:56:14,280
Speaker 1: Currently obsessed with the song The Lucky One Um obviously

1018
00:56:14,440 --> 00:56:17,279
Speaker 1: the Taylor's version, and yeah, I just want to do

1019
00:56:17,480 --> 00:56:19,600
Speaker 1: tax Based on last week's part of what you guys

1020
00:56:19,640 --> 00:56:22,600
Speaker 1: were talking about, sounds you can't stand. The two things

1021
00:56:22,680 --> 00:56:26,640
Speaker 1: that drive me Matt polystyrene, especially when it's like packaging

1022
00:56:27,160 --> 00:56:30,200
Speaker 1: against each other. The sound gives me goose bumps and

1023
00:56:30,239 --> 00:56:32,799
Speaker 1: makes my teeth feel we and the other is the

1024
00:56:32,800 --> 00:56:36,040
Speaker 1: sound of some biting into an iceland into what both

1025
00:56:36,120 --> 00:56:41,200
Speaker 1: drive me absolutely an ice logi, I can't ice LOGI,

1026
00:56:41,480 --> 00:56:45,040
Speaker 1: I can't make it, says can you do it? Um?

1027
00:56:45,080 --> 00:56:47,800
Speaker 1: Negative like can you do? Like? At point five? Speed?

1028
00:56:47,840 --> 00:56:50,040
Speaker 1: I see there's a little speed thing, is there? Five?

1029
00:56:50,719 --> 00:56:52,799
Speaker 1: It's only more okay, let's it's just one more time

1030
00:56:53,600 --> 00:56:56,160
Speaker 1: and the other the sound of some biting into an

1031
00:56:56,160 --> 00:57:01,320
Speaker 1: ice lug an ice love, but maybe an ice cube.

1032
00:57:01,920 --> 00:57:04,120
Speaker 1: Let's just see. I'm going to type in ice logie,

1033
00:57:04,320 --> 00:57:10,920
Speaker 1: logi logi, ice logi. Here we go. It's a logi

1034
00:57:11,040 --> 00:57:17,200
Speaker 1: a glacier and ice eight glacier. Yeah, I hate when

1035
00:57:17,240 --> 00:57:20,400
Speaker 1: people bite into glaciers. Okay, and ice? Hey? Um, what

1036
00:57:20,440 --> 00:57:24,120
Speaker 1: was his name again? Steve? Hey, Steve, if we would

1037
00:57:24,160 --> 00:57:26,919
Speaker 1: love to know what what that is exactly? I'm guessing it's, um,

1038
00:57:26,960 --> 00:57:29,800
Speaker 1: just an ice cube, disgusting And he said polystyrene, but

1039
00:57:29,800 --> 00:57:34,480
Speaker 1: that means styrofoam. And he said, which is here? But

1040
00:57:34,520 --> 00:57:39,160
Speaker 1: you can play that in bananagrams. Um. I love you again, Steve.

1041
00:57:39,400 --> 00:57:42,240
Speaker 1: Great voice, and thank you so much for listening and

1042
00:57:42,280 --> 00:57:45,480
Speaker 1: for saying all that nice. Just is it weird you

1043
00:57:45,480 --> 00:57:47,800
Speaker 1: could tell in a minute that you would be like, Okay,

1044
00:57:47,800 --> 00:57:51,120
Speaker 1: this person fucking just gets life and is self aware

1045
00:57:51,280 --> 00:57:55,920
Speaker 1: and isn't fucking egotistical and just good. And it was

1046
00:57:55,960 --> 00:57:58,200
Speaker 1: really important for me too, because I don't listen to

1047
00:57:58,320 --> 00:58:01,160
Speaker 1: my appearances on things, So for him to reiterate the

1048
00:58:01,200 --> 00:58:04,600
Speaker 1: thing that I said just helped me today because I

1049
00:58:04,640 --> 00:58:07,760
Speaker 1: was in a different place that day of like really

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Speaker 1: feeling good and like knowing stuff I wasn't happy, And

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00:58:12,040 --> 00:58:15,480
Speaker 1: some sometimes I need to be reminded of the things

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00:58:15,520 --> 00:58:18,040
Speaker 1: I've said that made people feel better, because I need

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00:58:18,040 --> 00:58:20,680
Speaker 1: to hear those back to myself because I can't always

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00:58:20,720 --> 00:58:24,800
Speaker 1: maintain them or remember the places I was so for

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00:58:24,880 --> 00:58:28,320
Speaker 1: me to hear that I remember having that outlook and

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00:58:28,360 --> 00:58:32,360
Speaker 1: how important that is of like whatever I'm struggling with today,

1057
00:58:32,360 --> 00:58:35,520
Speaker 1: which today it's I have a deadline that I have

1058
00:58:35,520 --> 00:58:38,040
Speaker 1: surpassed to the point where the person who usually is

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00:58:38,040 --> 00:58:40,400
Speaker 1: writing me about like, hey, when are you gonna have

1060
00:58:40,440 --> 00:58:42,960
Speaker 1: those notes for us? Every time I write back when

1061
00:58:43,000 --> 00:58:45,760
Speaker 1: I will, they always go great, and it's an exclamation point.

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00:58:46,320 --> 00:58:48,040
Speaker 1: And now it's at the point where they just don't.

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00:58:48,160 --> 00:58:51,720
Speaker 1: They're just thumbs upping it, like this person that's always

1064
00:58:51,720 --> 00:58:53,800
Speaker 1: so nice as like not being that night. Not not

1065
00:58:53,840 --> 00:58:56,320
Speaker 1: that they're not being nice, but they're not enthusiastic anymore

1066
00:58:56,360 --> 00:59:00,920
Speaker 1: about good meat right exactly. And so that is making

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00:59:00,960 --> 00:59:05,120
Speaker 1: me feel like a failure, like I am letting people down,

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00:59:05,600 --> 00:59:08,120
Speaker 1: like I am delaying something that everyone's mad at me,

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00:59:08,560 --> 00:59:10,560
Speaker 1: that why can't I just do this thing that is

1070
00:59:10,600 --> 00:59:12,520
Speaker 1: so fucking easy why can't I look at this thing?

1071
00:59:13,400 --> 00:59:17,240
Speaker 1: And the truth is, if I could, I would. It's

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00:59:17,240 --> 00:59:20,520
Speaker 1: obviously something that is like very hard for me to

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00:59:20,560 --> 00:59:23,280
Speaker 1: do that other people might not have an issue with.

1074
00:59:23,560 --> 00:59:25,400
Speaker 1: But this is my thing. I have all the time

1075
00:59:25,440 --> 00:59:27,600
Speaker 1: in the world. People keep saying, Nick, you're so busy.

1076
00:59:27,600 --> 00:59:30,240
Speaker 1: It makes sense, and I obviously keep presenting it that

1077
00:59:30,280 --> 00:59:32,080
Speaker 1: way to this person. I have time to do this.

1078
00:59:32,200 --> 00:59:34,560
Speaker 1: I'm choosing to pick up the guitar. I'm choosing to sleep.

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00:59:34,600 --> 00:59:38,439
Speaker 1: I'm choosing to watch Secrets of Playboy. Not because I'm

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00:59:38,440 --> 00:59:40,560
Speaker 1: a bad person and I want to make these people

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00:59:40,560 --> 00:59:44,520
Speaker 1: wait and I love making them suffer. It's because I

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00:59:44,600 --> 00:59:47,720
Speaker 1: just can't do it, and it's and it's okay. If

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00:59:47,760 --> 00:59:50,840
Speaker 1: I could, I would. It's my intentions are not I'm

1084
00:59:50,880 --> 00:59:53,960
Speaker 1: not malintented. And so whatever you're dealing with today where

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00:59:54,000 --> 00:59:57,800
Speaker 1: you feel like the people might perceive you as being

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00:59:58,120 --> 01:00:01,120
Speaker 1: negligent a bad person lays see all these things, you're

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01:00:01,160 --> 01:00:05,240
Speaker 1: not those things that they might have those opinions about you,

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01:00:05,360 --> 01:00:08,520
Speaker 1: But you know you're not doing it to hurt anyone.

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01:00:08,920 --> 01:00:10,840
Speaker 1: If you are, then why are you listening to podcast?

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Speaker 1: You're a sociopath. All of us don't want to hurt

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01:00:13,720 --> 01:00:16,160
Speaker 1: anyone and if we if we do, because sometimes I

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01:00:16,160 --> 01:00:18,120
Speaker 1: do want to hurt someone. Lately, I've been wanting to fight,

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01:00:18,200 --> 01:00:20,960
Speaker 1: like really fight someone. Set a time with someone so

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01:00:21,000 --> 01:00:24,000
Speaker 1: we meet and I just did take one self defense class,

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01:00:24,040 --> 01:00:26,040
Speaker 1: so you're ready. I'm ready. What would you do in

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01:00:26,080 --> 01:00:28,600
Speaker 1: a fight. I'd love to see you in a fight,

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01:00:28,720 --> 01:00:31,840
Speaker 1: like a fist fight. Put my fist, try to put

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01:00:31,880 --> 01:00:39,880
Speaker 1: my fist through their face. Honestly, cheekbone. I would hit

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Speaker 1: the chekbone, which would probably hurt my hand more, I don't.

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Speaker 1: I mean that. That is literally all I would do

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01:00:44,720 --> 01:00:47,680
Speaker 1: because no, no one, this is just my instinct. When

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01:00:47,720 --> 01:00:49,880
Speaker 1: you said that, I was thinking about your face, like

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01:00:49,880 --> 01:00:51,880
Speaker 1: what do I do? And I would go up like this.

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01:00:52,280 --> 01:00:55,600
Speaker 1: I would try to hit there on your cheekbone like that, Okay,

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01:00:55,920 --> 01:00:57,720
Speaker 1: why not the jaw. The jaw would not come out

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01:00:57,720 --> 01:01:00,560
Speaker 1: the cheekbone. You might We're not going to their teeth,

1107
01:01:01,480 --> 01:01:03,680
Speaker 1: but you want to break their want to hurt them,

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01:01:03,720 --> 01:01:05,919
Speaker 1: and I want to make them have a black eye

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01:01:06,040 --> 01:01:07,800
Speaker 1: so it like shows that I sucked them up. But

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01:01:07,840 --> 01:01:10,240
Speaker 1: like jaw, I think would just be like, oh, that's

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01:01:10,280 --> 01:01:13,520
Speaker 1: kind of annoying. There's a s where you like through

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01:01:13,560 --> 01:01:15,440
Speaker 1: their head or hit the back of their head. So

1113
01:01:15,480 --> 01:01:18,680
Speaker 1: then you're not aiming for here, You're aiming for back here.

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01:01:18,960 --> 01:01:22,080
Speaker 1: I would like that price is right games. So what

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01:01:22,120 --> 01:01:24,200
Speaker 1: if you punch them once? You think you're gonna punch

1116
01:01:24,280 --> 01:01:25,800
Speaker 1: them once, it's gonna be O no, no, no, no no.

1117
01:01:25,920 --> 01:01:29,160
Speaker 1: I will just keep swinging until i'm I will just

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01:01:29,560 --> 01:01:34,560
Speaker 1: and I and that's all you got. What do you

1119
01:01:34,600 --> 01:01:38,000
Speaker 1: do you think this is a girl? It's a dog

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01:01:39,280 --> 01:01:40,960
Speaker 1: and it is a girl dog. How did you know that?

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01:01:41,480 --> 01:01:43,600
Speaker 1: I know this dog was looking at you. The dog

1122
01:01:43,640 --> 01:01:46,440
Speaker 1: from the camera could read you. I could read your eyes. No,

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01:01:46,600 --> 01:01:49,400
Speaker 1: but yes, there are times I do want to hurt

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01:01:49,400 --> 01:01:51,160
Speaker 1: people and I want to say that that is, or

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01:01:51,200 --> 01:01:53,680
Speaker 1: I want to make someone feel bad that That also

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01:01:53,800 --> 01:01:55,720
Speaker 1: is not a thing where I'm like a sociopath or

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01:01:55,760 --> 01:01:57,600
Speaker 1: I'm a bad person. It's because I'm in pain and

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Speaker 1: that's the only way i have to deal with it.

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01:01:59,040 --> 01:02:01,600
Speaker 1: So for me right now, I'm dealing with some pain.

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01:02:01,760 --> 01:02:04,320
Speaker 1: That is, I have low self esteem. With regards to

1131
01:02:04,440 --> 01:02:07,040
Speaker 1: watching my stand up special, I don't want to look

1132
01:02:07,080 --> 01:02:09,720
Speaker 1: at it because it causes me pain to see myself

1133
01:02:09,720 --> 01:02:11,520
Speaker 1: and I'm scared of what I might see. And what

1134
01:02:11,680 --> 01:02:15,240
Speaker 1: might cause me to like the results of me watching

1135
01:02:15,240 --> 01:02:17,640
Speaker 1: my special and giving notes might send me into a

1136
01:02:17,680 --> 01:02:21,520
Speaker 1: depression that I'm like scared of that fallout. That's why

1137
01:02:21,520 --> 01:02:23,840
Speaker 1: I'm avoiding it. So I'm trying to avoid pain. I'm

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01:02:23,840 --> 01:02:26,200
Speaker 1: trying to avoid putting other people through pain that might

1139
01:02:26,280 --> 01:02:30,120
Speaker 1: be residual from me. So it's okay, I forgive myself.

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01:02:30,160 --> 01:02:33,160
Speaker 1: So whatever you're avoiding today or letting people down, forgive

1141
01:02:33,200 --> 01:02:35,160
Speaker 1: yourself for it because it's not like you wanted to.

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01:02:36,200 --> 01:02:38,240
Speaker 1: That's my lesson to myself today. Thank you Joe for

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01:02:38,320 --> 01:02:42,760
Speaker 1: reminding me of that. And uh, we'll be ha. Yeah, yeah,

1144
01:02:43,120 --> 01:02:44,760
Speaker 1: I'm not making one of your accent I fucking love

1145
01:02:44,800 --> 01:02:50,320
Speaker 1: it yours. I definitely make fun of Okay, guys, thank

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01:02:50,360 --> 01:02:53,040
Speaker 1: you so much for listening to the show. We will

1147
01:02:53,080 --> 01:02:56,560
Speaker 1: be here next week and um, I can't wait for it.

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01:02:57,040 --> 01:02:59,160
Speaker 1: Thank you for listening all this week and for putting

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01:02:59,240 --> 01:03:01,480
Speaker 1: up with our whack Tuesday episode. We won't be doing

1150
01:03:01,520 --> 01:03:06,280
Speaker 1: that again anytime soon, but maybe um andrew any final thoughts.

1151
01:03:08,000 --> 01:03:12,880
Speaker 1: He loves headigrams. Uh, don't be cut and jack off

1152
01:03:13,240 --> 01:03:13,920
Speaker 1: your boyfriend.