Speaker 1: Hello. Is this Ashley from Oregon?
Speaker 2: Yes, it is.
Speaker 1: Tell me everything, Ashley from Oregon.
Speaker 3: Well, hold on one, I got the stream all don't
Speaker 3: mind me.
Speaker 4: It's all right.
Speaker 1: I'm not doing it again. I got all night. This
Speaker 1: is These are my plans. My plans for the rest
Speaker 1: of my night are to be a gecko and talk
Speaker 1: to people on the phone. So this is it. This
Speaker 1: is it for me. What's going on, Ashley?
Speaker 3: Oh? Nothing, I just kind of want my break at work.
Speaker 3: It's kind of hanging out in the car.
Speaker 1: You do your do your breaks in the car.
Speaker 3: Yeah, yeah, because I like to, you know, I like
Speaker 3: have like a vape and smoking and stuff, and it's
Speaker 3: kind of raining out. So I'm like, just in the car.
Speaker 1: Is it a is it a nicotine vape? Is it
Speaker 1: a CBD vape? Is it a myth? Can you can you?
Speaker 1: I know you can smoke? Can you vape? Meth?
Speaker 3: I yeah, I used to be a drug act and
Speaker 3: we put it in like dab and interesting.
Speaker 1: Do they have like like meth carts?
Speaker 3: No, I mean they don't like sell it specifically, you know,
Speaker 3: Like I guess like tweakers can just like figure out
Speaker 3: ways around everything. So you figured out a way to
Speaker 3: do that.
Speaker 1: I've never thought about that. Can you can you vape crack?
Speaker 5: I don't.
Speaker 3: I've never done crack, but probably I feel like there's
Speaker 3: a way around everything. So you can probably do anything
Speaker 3: that you like set your mind to, like in that aspect,
Speaker 3: if you're desperate enough.
Speaker 1: Well, I don't know. I mean, like I'm talking about
Speaker 1: like the physics of it, like is it physically possible?
Speaker 1: Is it physically possible? Can do you believe that if
Speaker 1: you set your mind to it you can perform feats
Speaker 1: that are scientifically physically impossible?
Speaker 6: Well?
Speaker 3: I feel like it is physically possible because it like
Speaker 3: heats up, which like you know, does thing and then
Speaker 3: you get smoke. But I do I mean, like maybe
Speaker 3: not a scientist. If you put your mind to something
Speaker 3: that's like scientifically impossible, I don't think you can do it.
Speaker 1: What is the most non traditional substance that you have vaped?
Speaker 6: Mess?
Speaker 3: Crap?
Speaker 7: That makes sense?
Speaker 1: Yeah, because you're in your car right now, you're vaping,
Speaker 1: right What are you vaping?
Speaker 5: If you don't mind me asking, it's like a blue
Speaker 5: raspberry vape probably like got like familde hyde in it.
Speaker 1: But oh well, what is formaldehyde?
Speaker 3: I have no idea, to be honest, I just know
Speaker 3: that it's bad, and people will say that it's in
Speaker 3: d thing.
Speaker 8: You know.
Speaker 1: What people also say is that what you don't know
Speaker 1: can't hurt you.
Speaker 3: Probably exactly. So you kind of close my eyes and
Speaker 3: I'm like my blue rab berry nicotine.
Speaker 1: Okay, So what when when do you have to go
Speaker 1: back to work?
Speaker 3: About like ten minutes?
Speaker 1: Do you have any what are your plans for the
Speaker 1: next ten minutes? How like do you like when you
Speaker 1: take your break? Do you like take it day by
Speaker 1: day or do you like section it out like these
Speaker 1: five minutes I'll go on Instagram these five minutes, I'll
Speaker 1: play touch grind, these five minutes, I'll I'll vape like
Speaker 1: or do you sort of play.
Speaker 3: It by I don't really have anything like specifically. I
Speaker 3: just like either I have like like this crossword puzzle
Speaker 3: book and I'll do that. I'll just like scroll on TikTok.
Speaker 3: That's not it.
Speaker 1: Mm. And what is your job sitting?
Speaker 3: I've seen this dreamer like, hey, oh, I'm a manager
Speaker 3: at McDonald's. Yes, babysitting teenagers and adult babies.
Speaker 1: So you described this as babysitting. Why do you describe
Speaker 1: it as babysitting.
Speaker 3: Because nobody has like responsibility. It's like I'm it's like
Speaker 3: I feel like I'm in a daycare trying to tell
Speaker 3: everyone to do and then they just you know, I
Speaker 3: have people who like throw fits, like grown ass men
Speaker 3: who like throw fits over like making a m chicken,
Speaker 3: and so I have to like put them in like
Speaker 3: time out sometimes as ridiculous as a sound.
Speaker 1: Tell me to me this like situation. But the last
Speaker 1: conflict you had, uh that ended with you having to
Speaker 1: give someone a time out?
Speaker 3: Actually, yesterday this person had like an order, like the
Speaker 3: grilled man had an order for like six mc chickens,
Speaker 3: and he was like this is fucking ridiculous, and he
Speaker 3: started like punching things, and I was like, go sit down,
Speaker 3: like go do whatever, and so come back until you
Speaker 3: are like levelheaded. It I feel it's like I'm talking
Speaker 3: to a child, like go to the corner, go sit down,
Speaker 3: and come back when you then you know, it's very frustrating.
Speaker 1: And if he successfully does his time out with no fusses,
Speaker 1: does he gets a happy meal toy at the end.
Speaker 3: No, those are expensive if you like want to have
Speaker 3: someone to it's like three bucks. So no, he just
Speaker 3: gets like he just gets like a good for you.
Speaker 3: Continue to do your job, please, that's nice. I congratulate
Speaker 3: someone on, you know.
Speaker 1: Doing the bare minimum right before we go? Can I
Speaker 1: what's your name again, Ashley?
Speaker 3: Yes? That is my name?
Speaker 1: Can I ask you something about the and I don't
Speaker 1: know you know how deep in you are with corporate,
Speaker 1: But I'm trying to pitch a therapy. You know how
Speaker 1: they have the Travis Scott meal and the Sweety meal.
Speaker 1: Oh god, yes, I want next. I want the therapy
Speaker 1: got meal.
Speaker 3: Be I mean I could. I don't think there's any
Speaker 3: way I could do that. I could bring it up
Speaker 3: to my boss be like, hey, guess what I have
Speaker 3: the greatest idea, and he probably would be like okay, yeah,
Speaker 3: I'll think about it and then walk away and like
Speaker 3: never speak about it again. About it?
Speaker 1: Well, I appreciate you being honest with me about that.
Speaker 3: Yeah, I mean, like I honestly, because you know, we
Speaker 3: don't know until it's like there, like we had like
Speaker 3: what was it, like the Travis Scott meal, like the
Speaker 3: like J B J, Balvin BTS and Sweetie. I think
Speaker 3: that was it.
Speaker 1: I feel like if he has one, I can get one.
Speaker 6: Dude.
Speaker 3: I have absolutely I think he's like a Spanish singer
Speaker 3: till I've heard, but I don't know.
Speaker 1: I'm not very popular.
Speaker 3: I didn't look into it at all. Yeah, I think
Speaker 3: all it was was like like a big mac. I
Speaker 3: think I was like, it's like super unoriginal, you know,
Speaker 3: like the Travis Scott it had some originality to it.
Speaker 3: You know, it's like bacon whatever, but like the ones
Speaker 3: that we've had are just like so unoriginal. She's like
Speaker 3: a mcdouble, you know, or like something like that. Very Travis,
Speaker 3: you know, has yet to.
Speaker 1: Be talked with that Ashley, before we go, is there
Speaker 1: anything else you wished to talk about?
Speaker 3: No, because I probably need to get back to work,
Speaker 3: but I've been trying this. I appreciate this so much.
Speaker 3: I did not think I was actually like gonna get on,
Speaker 3: and I appreciate it. I haven't been watching the streams,
Speaker 3: but I have been listening to the podcast on Spotify,
Speaker 3: like I like, I'll have them on at work all
Speaker 3: the time, like kind of like background noise. It's very nice.
Speaker 3: I very appreciate it.
Speaker 1: Well, thank you very much for listening, Ashley, and good
Speaker 1: luck with the rest of your babysitting. This evening.
Speaker 3: Yeah, of course, thank you.
Speaker 8: Never goes on the line taking your phone calls every night.
Speaker 1: Never kid goes to upside. He's teaching you about your life.
Speaker 1: Everbody's expert. Andy from Rhode Island. Hi, Hello, Andy from
Speaker 1: Rhode Island. What's going on with you?
Speaker 3: Hey?
Speaker 5: Nothing, you know, I'm just chilling. I'm putting it. I
Speaker 5: just put the kids to bed. I'm drinking a glass
Speaker 5: of wine.
Speaker 1: How are the kids, That's what I want to know.
Speaker 1: How are the kids?
Speaker 4: Ah?
Speaker 5: Well, the older one's kind of an asshole, but the
Speaker 5: younger one's cool.
Speaker 1: Why is the older one an asshole?
Speaker 5: Well, yesterday she told me that I'm not the best
Speaker 5: mom ever, but I'm pretty great, So.
Speaker 1: I feel like that's reasonable.
Speaker 6: Though.
Speaker 5: Yeah, well I asked her why I wasn't the best mom,
Speaker 5: and she told me it's because I don't buy her
Speaker 5: all the dollhouses she wants. So I guess, yeah, I'm
Speaker 5: fine with being just great.
Speaker 1: Hey, you know, look that's better. Look great is above average?
Speaker 1: I feel yeah?
Speaker 5: You know it could be plus.
Speaker 1: Okay, so what about the younger one? Which one of them?
Speaker 1: First of all? Which one of them do you like more?
Speaker 4: Right? Now?
Speaker 5: I really like the younger one.
Speaker 8: A lot more.
Speaker 1: Okay, why is that?
Speaker 5: You know she doesn't talk back. I mean she's only
Speaker 5: three months old, so she's kinda a lot cooler.
Speaker 1: Mm hmm. It's true. I feel like the like the
Speaker 1: three month old is a little bit cooler because they
Speaker 1: don't need to because you know, no one who talks
Speaker 1: a lot is is all that cool because you can
Speaker 1: sense that they're trying to be cool, whereas a three
Speaker 1: year olds because they're a little bit quieter, they just
Speaker 1: sort of emanated a cooler Aura.
Speaker 5: Yeah, did she just chill? She goes with the filow,
Speaker 5: she's look at Jesse.
Speaker 1: I like that.
Speaker 4: I like that.
Speaker 1: And how how's the rest of the family.
Speaker 5: I you know, my husband's pretty cool. He's with the
Speaker 5: baby right now, so kind of got some me time.
Speaker 1: Do you mind if I read you told our call
Speaker 1: screen or something and I don't know if if it's
Speaker 1: what you told our call screener. Okay, you told the
Speaker 1: call screener. You told the call screener that you want
Speaker 1: your husband to stop coming inside of you, because wait,
Speaker 1: what is this again? Andy from Rhode Island wants to
Speaker 1: talk about how her husband thinks it's okay to keep
Speaker 1: coming inside her even though he doesn't want more kids.
Speaker 9: But she does, but I do.
Speaker 1: Yeah, you so you want him to keep coming inside
Speaker 1: of you?
Speaker 9: Yeah?
Speaker 1: Yeah.
Speaker 5: I wasn't like I would have a million babies.
Speaker 1: Yeah, absolutely, Okay, but he doesn't want kids.
Speaker 5: He doesn't want anymore, like we have two, and he
Speaker 5: thinks three's a crowd, Like he doesn't want to get
Speaker 5: a bigger car, kind of like an attention whore. So like,
Speaker 5: you know, he likes he likes to have at least
Speaker 5: some of my attention.
Speaker 10: But you know, I like kids.
Speaker 5: I love babies. They're They're great.
Speaker 1: Does he know that coming inside of you is how
Speaker 1: children are born? He is he ware of the correlation
Speaker 1: between those two things.
Speaker 5: You know, we've had this conversation before, and I think
Speaker 5: he can comprehend that. Okay, I mean we've done it twice,
Speaker 5: like we've had I mean, he comes in almost every night.
Speaker 2: But.
Speaker 5: He we've conceived twice, so it's.
Speaker 1: A good track record. That's what I'm so, you want
Speaker 1: like seventeen kids. He doesn't want any more kids? Why
Speaker 1: doesn't he want any more kids?
Speaker 5: I honestly, I think he is just like cool with
Speaker 5: having two because, like I said, three is a crowd,
Speaker 5: But I would like to have a tribe, you know,
Speaker 5: like I feel like Mama duck and have like ten
Speaker 5: ducks behind me, like little ducklings.
Speaker 1: Oh my god, that I mean that sounds exhausting. Does
Speaker 1: that not feel? Do you not feel like that would?
Speaker 1: That would get to you? Like all the responsibility of
Speaker 1: having to keep ten things alive, you.
Speaker 5: Know, it's just at this point it's literally just operation
Speaker 5: keep them alive. And it's not that hard.
Speaker 1: Really, I feel like it's got to be insanely hard.
Speaker 5: It's really not. And like we're in a good financial position,
Speaker 5: like we just bought a house, like we can potentially
Speaker 5: like have a few more kids and might be okay.
Speaker 1: Okay, realistically realistically jokes aside, realistically, how many kids you want?
Speaker 5: I don't know, like three or four?
Speaker 1: Okay, three or four more or total?
Speaker 5: I mean I want to like live my life eventually.
Speaker 5: But then you have like three or four kids, like
Speaker 5: there's a good chance that one of them is going
Speaker 5: to take care of you when you get older, you know,
Speaker 5: Like I don't want to be shoved in a nursing home.
Speaker 1: I don't know, I feel like, uh oh, I feel
Speaker 1: like if you take care of your kids, you learn caretaking,
Speaker 1: you learn the skill of caretaking, and then you can
Speaker 1: just take care of yourself. What about your husband, can't
Speaker 1: he take care of what happens?
Speaker 5: Well, he's older than me.
Speaker 1: Oh okay, so he'll be taking care of him.
Speaker 7: Yeah.
Speaker 5: Probably, I'll probably be wiping his ass. It'll be fine.
Speaker 1: That's fair. You know what you seem like you you
Speaker 1: like taking care of people.
Speaker 5: Very much, so mm hmm, very fulfilling.
Speaker 4: You know.
Speaker 1: Do you feel do you feel as though he'll come
Speaker 1: around to to the idea of having three more children?
Speaker 5: Well, honestly, he's not doing anything to stop it. Like
Speaker 5: he he'll come in me like, and then he'll blame
Speaker 5: me for coming in me.
Speaker 1: How does that work?
Speaker 5: Honestly, I don't.
Speaker 3: Like.
Speaker 5: He's usually the one putting the work in and then
Speaker 5: he'll I'll tell him to come and me because I
Speaker 5: want more kids, and it's just, you know, it's an
Speaker 5: enjoyable experience. It definitely feels better. And he'll come in
Speaker 5: me and he'll be like, oh, that was really bad,
Speaker 5: Like what if that? We got to stop doing that?
Speaker 5: But then he just does it every time, and then
Speaker 5: he says, it's my fault because I told him to
Speaker 5: do it. But sometimes I don't tell him to do
Speaker 5: it and he just does it anyway. But then it's
Speaker 5: still my fault because it feels good.
Speaker 1: Well, it sounds as though he has all the information
Speaker 1: about these risks that he needs and he is choosing to,
Speaker 1: you know, act with the with the information notwithstanding.
Speaker 5: Because yeah, I mean, like I said, it's just confusing
Speaker 5: because he tells me he doesn't want to have four kids,
Speaker 5: yet he is coming inside me every night. Yeah, literally,
Speaker 5: like every single time.
Speaker 1: Well, you know, I hope you both have a have
Speaker 1: a happy family. I expect to be invited to one
Speaker 1: of the kids birthday parties, perhaps even hired as some
Speaker 1: sort of the costume character act, you know how people
Speaker 1: will hire someone to like dress up as Spider Man
Speaker 1: or something. I want. I want to do that I
Speaker 1: want to start doing.
Speaker 5: Can you wear a tiara?
Speaker 1: I could probably, I could probably, I'd probably wear I
Speaker 1: could wear a tiera?
Speaker 5: All right, all right, August and July so alright, cool, yeah.
Speaker 9: Beautiful, all right, good deal.
Speaker 1: Would you say your name was.
Speaker 4: Andy?
Speaker 1: And the good luck with the family and they have
Speaker 1: a good rest of the night.
Speaker 5: Thank you too.
Speaker 1: River what's going on the river?
Speaker 8: Nothing much, just but not super hard stuff, but just
Speaker 8: like puts me through a mind trip.
Speaker 7: Can you hear me?
Speaker 1: Well, yeah, I can hear you. Tell me what's up?
Speaker 7: All right?
Speaker 8: Yeah, So, like I'm about to finish college and everything,
Speaker 8: and I recently found out that I got like a
Speaker 8: lot of symptoms that are like similar to autism. Like
Speaker 8: I feel like what I would have would would have
Speaker 8: been considered aspriggers, but it's no longer a diagnosis. It's
Speaker 8: considered like high high functioning autism. But I don't know,
Speaker 8: It's just put me through a weird headspace because like
Speaker 8: I feel like if this is a case for me,
Speaker 8: I should have known a lot sooner. But like it
Speaker 8: is something I would be in visualist, you know, Like
Speaker 8: when I was in high school, I got a lot
Speaker 8: of my college scholarships from volunteering with like autistic children
Speaker 8: and like tutoring them through teachers like assistant work and whatnot.
Speaker 8: And like I don't know why I never put tune
Speaker 8: too it together, but there's just like a lot of
Speaker 8: things I do that I'm like, yeah, that's not really
Speaker 8: what a normal person does. And I'm like conscious of it,
Speaker 8: but at the same time, I'm like not in control
Speaker 8: of it.
Speaker 7: It's just really weird to me. I guess.
Speaker 1: So you're in a weird headspace because you've always had
Speaker 1: this sense that you there was there was something undiagnosed
Speaker 1: going on with you and and sort of received a
Speaker 1: formal diagnosis to to sort of ground these senses into
Speaker 1: into something.
Speaker 8: I'm going I'm going through the process of receiving a
Speaker 8: formal diagnosis kind of. It's it's not an uncommon thing
Speaker 8: for abouts to be diagnosed, but it's it's not the
Speaker 8: time in someone's life when someone's traditional and donnos. So
Speaker 8: it's it's something that I have to find a specialist for.
Speaker 8: And it's not really something like they take a brain
Speaker 8: stand of and they're like, oh, you're autistic, and it's
Speaker 8: not something to take a blood testum and they're like,
Speaker 8: oh you're autistic, you know. But yeah, going through like
Speaker 8: old family pictures and seeing like me playing with certain
Speaker 8: toys and being like, oh, I'm not having like a
Speaker 8: car race, I'm organizing them by size, shape, and color,
Speaker 8: or oh that's not a convoy I'm making with the cars.
Speaker 8: I'm just like lining them up in specific orders and
Speaker 8: just like some of my earlier memories around like play
Speaker 8: things like it wasn't so much like imagination necessarily.
Speaker 7: It was more so like.
Speaker 8: If a sticker was out of place, it would cause
Speaker 8: me like an undue amount of stress. And I feel
Speaker 8: like that's I don't know.
Speaker 7: I'm sorry, I'm over explaining, and no, off tell me.
Speaker 1: I want to hear more about you said you're in
Speaker 1: a weird headspace. How are you tell me more about
Speaker 1: like the way that you're reacting to this information.
Speaker 8: I'm doing what I do a lot of the time,
Speaker 8: which is uh, gauging my response based upon like my peers,
Speaker 8: Like I find a lot of times that to make
Speaker 8: a choice for me is very hard, you know, Like
Speaker 8: I reference the idea of a sticker being out of
Speaker 8: place on a toy because like, if it's not in
Speaker 8: the right place, you know it's it's wrong. But for me,
Speaker 8: I never know where the right place is or what
Speaker 8: the right choice is. So I base a lot of
Speaker 8: what I do on the actions of other people, which
Speaker 8: can leave me into some bad situations and it has.
Speaker 8: But like having this bit of self knowledge, I'm able
Speaker 8: to guard myself against people and people from me. I
Speaker 8: guess you.
Speaker 1: Know, No, don't be sorry. So what I think there's
Speaker 1: there is one thing that and tell me, tell me
Speaker 1: if I'm making this up, tell me if this is
Speaker 1: coming out of thin air or anything, because when you
Speaker 1: say this is putting in a weird headspace what like, Okay,
Speaker 1: what I don't want is like, you know, just just
Speaker 1: because you're being like formally diagnosed with something, I don't
Speaker 1: want it to like fuck with your idea of who
Speaker 1: you are too much? If that makes any sense? Is
Speaker 1: that is it? Would you say, is is exam what
Speaker 1: words your moth? Is it fucking with your idea of
Speaker 1: who you are at all?
Speaker 6: No?
Speaker 8: It definitely does cause a sense of identity crisis.
Speaker 1: I feel as true.
Speaker 8: And I'm someone who's who's prone to those.
Speaker 7: Uh.
Speaker 8: Like when I was younger, I changed my name because
Speaker 8: I didn't have my father's last name and he had
Speaker 8: passed away, so I wanted to honor him, but like
Speaker 8: learning more about him, Like I don't know if that
Speaker 8: was the right choice to change my name to his
Speaker 8: but not his name but his last name. Anyways, I'm
Speaker 8: not often I'm sorry, man, but yeah, like the sense
Speaker 8: of of like what autism is, like I have to
Speaker 8: challenge my own self conventions of of what I viewed
Speaker 8: it in the past, because like, it is something that
Speaker 8: that I have family members who are formally diagnosed with
Speaker 8: and I understood there was a certain way to act
Speaker 8: with them when I was growing up, and then also
Speaker 8: through the school system and having tutored them when I
Speaker 8: was in high school. But then the people who are
Speaker 8: closest to me, who who asked me, like, do I
Speaker 8: think I might have this?
Speaker 4: You know?
Speaker 8: One of them is my mother, and she worked in
Speaker 8: a uh school for disabled children. I don't know the
Speaker 8: correct word they used for it, but and she she
Speaker 8: dealt with disabled children on a daily basis. And the
Speaker 8: other person who asked me is my sister, and she's
Speaker 8: a she's a registered nurse. So I trust their opinions.
Speaker 8: I just like, I don't know. It's it's it's hard
Speaker 8: for me to look at my life and.
Speaker 7: Go ahead.
Speaker 1: Oh, when you say, when you say they asked you
Speaker 1: what they were, did you say they're asking you if
Speaker 1: you think that they have something?
Speaker 8: No, if if I think that I might have something
Speaker 8: or that I might be on this vetrum is what
Speaker 8: they're questioned me, which originally led me down this rabbit.
Speaker 7: Hole to the today.
Speaker 8: Honestly, it's it's been within the last couple of weeks
Speaker 8: that I've been dealing with this and and really starting
Speaker 8: to gain an understanding of autism, I guess, and and
Speaker 8: how it manifests itself in a number of ways, and
Speaker 8: it can be a mean a number of different things
Speaker 8: to different people. But also with the fact that I
Speaker 8: have to go see a specialist, and that the traditional
Speaker 8: therapy that that I've used in the past, like I
Speaker 8: can still use that, but I also need to seek
Speaker 8: out additional resources, you know. So I'm sorry, my voice.
Speaker 1: Is the river's nothing. You have none to apologize for.
Speaker 1: So your sister and your mother, we're asking you if
Speaker 1: you think you're autistic. Yeah, okay, yeah, well because the
Speaker 1: notother thing is you know again, I don't know your
Speaker 1: relationship with your family is like but.
Speaker 8: Yeah, it's not like it's not like they're digging at
Speaker 8: me or Anything's.
Speaker 1: Okay, well, you know, I mean, you know, obviously, you know,
Speaker 1: the most important opinion is that of uh, you know,
Speaker 1: the medical professional that you're but you don't even know that.
Speaker 8: Yeah, it's I'm sorry, I interrupted you. I'm really bad.
Speaker 1: No, No, there's a lag on the system.
Speaker 8: You're You're fine, okay, yeah, and it's it is something
Speaker 8: that like I need to go and get diagnosed. And
Speaker 8: I'm not saying.
Speaker 1: So you haven't haven't been. Sorry for interrupting you, but
Speaker 1: you haven't been. You But didn't you say you were
Speaker 1: formally diagnosed with something that you I don't think. I
Speaker 1: don't know if you specified what it was. But did
Speaker 1: you say you were formally diagnosed?
Speaker 8: Oh, I've I've been diagnosed with I don't believe I
Speaker 8: said I was formally diagnosed with something. But I've been
Speaker 8: diagnosed with anxiety, and it causes obsessive compulsive behaviors. And
Speaker 8: in my mind, those obsessive compulsive behaviors are more likely
Speaker 8: to be stemmed than they are to be manifestations of
Speaker 8: anxiety because it's something that has been occurring throughout my
Speaker 8: life and I don't know. I can only walk around
Speaker 8: the table four times, and then in my mind THO,
Speaker 8: this is what a normal person does, but I'm still
Speaker 8: doing it. And it's like, I don't know, man, you know,
Speaker 8: but I do. I do value the opinion of a professional,
Speaker 8: and it is something that I'm undergoing.
Speaker 10: The process of being.
Speaker 1: Helpful you told I think you told one of the
Speaker 1: call screeners that this is changing the way that you're
Speaker 1: handling yourself and how you self regulate. Any conversation is
Speaker 1: about that.
Speaker 8: I'm sorry, Am I not self regulating?
Speaker 5: No?
Speaker 1: No, I know because I wanted to ask. I wanted
Speaker 1: to get your thoughts on that.
Speaker 8: Yeah, I mean, like when I get into something, I
Speaker 8: get really into it. And when I looked at autism
Speaker 8: through my mind before, I didn't think that, like an
Speaker 8: autistic person should have several different interests. You know, my
Speaker 8: cousin who has autism, he he's severe, not severely, He's
Speaker 8: very fittated by phones of any time. And I thought
Speaker 8: that's like something that like I would have to check
Speaker 8: the bots for. But when I get into like a hobby,
Speaker 8: like I know everything about it, like I want to
Speaker 8: learn everything about it. I want to talk to everybody
Speaker 8: who knows stuff about it. But yeah, in a conversation,
Speaker 8: like I could be talking about the Simpsons, and like
Speaker 8: my my mom, she'll humor me and listen to me
Speaker 8: talking about the Simpsons for like twenty minutes. But like,
Speaker 8: you know, nobody really wants to hear about the Simpsons.
Speaker 1: There are lots and lots of you probably are making
Speaker 1: thousands and thousands of dollars a month rambling about the
Speaker 1: Simpsons for much longer than twenty minutes. Actual, Yeah, it'll
Speaker 1: be you'll be pleased to find.
Speaker 8: But yeah, I just I use that as an example
Speaker 8: because I get fixated by a number of things like
Speaker 8: but yeah that I don't know. See, I'm having a
Speaker 8: problem self regulating because I want to jump back and
Speaker 8: forth from the conversation. Conversations can be hard for me
Speaker 8: at times because I feel like, maybe it's my memory,
Speaker 8: but I'll pick up a conversation where I left it
Speaker 8: off with a person, but it might be like a
Speaker 8: day or two later, and I'll be talking to that
Speaker 8: person as if the conversation hadn't ended, And it can
Speaker 8: be jarring to people, I suppose, But yeah, me wanting
Speaker 8: to jump back and forth in conversation, like I'm looking
Speaker 8: at my tied ie shoes and like it's stuff like that,
Speaker 8: Like everything has to conform to something so that I
Speaker 8: don't have to make a choice.
Speaker 7: I'm sorry, but informed.
Speaker 1: Something so I don't have to make a choice. What
Speaker 1: do you mean by everything has to conform to something
Speaker 1: so you don't have to make a choice.
Speaker 8: So like, because I feel at heart I don't understand
Speaker 8: social situations or really most situations. At times, if I
Speaker 8: can abide by a certain rule or something that I
Speaker 8: know to be true, then I won't make a mistake.
Speaker 8: And things like choosing out clothing for myself, like everything
Speaker 8: that I own is ti as fully as that sounds,
Speaker 8: but it takes away that anxiety of me having to
Speaker 8: make a choice where I know I love color, but
Speaker 8: I don't have to like be like I'm gonna put
Speaker 8: such and such outfit together.
Speaker 1: I suppose you know, I don't know, right, you know,
Speaker 1: instead of having to decide what color clothes you're gonna
Speaker 1: wear in the morning, you go, fuck it, I'll wear
Speaker 1: every color every day.
Speaker 7: Damn.
Speaker 1: Don't have to decide. That makes sense, that makes sense, whoever.
Speaker 8: I'm sorry, I don't know.
Speaker 1: Stamble Man River, you have been doing significant you It's
Speaker 1: I'm sorry. I think it's so funny because like you did,
Speaker 1: you were doing so much significantly less rambling than Trust
Speaker 1: trust me, you are not rambling. We've we've heard rambling before.
Speaker 1: You are not rambling, all right?
Speaker 8: But yeah, but can I can I say like one
Speaker 8: or two things really quickly about I'm.
Speaker 1: Sorry, yeah, yeah, yeah.
Speaker 8: When it comes to being like formally diagnosed. At that
Speaker 8: time in my life, when I would have been like diagnosed,
Speaker 8: like uh, there was no form of stability, like my
Speaker 8: mom was a single mother, and like my father was
Speaker 8: a drug addict and he had his demons and was
Speaker 8: in prison for a number of years. Uh, you know,
Speaker 8: like getting a diagnosis for me, like it would be
Speaker 8: a really validating thing and I wouldn't feel like like
Speaker 8: such a monster, I guess, you know, because I feel
Speaker 8: really monstrous when I when I'm engaged in a social
Speaker 8: interaction and I don't know how to interact, you know,
Speaker 8: like receiving a gift on Christmas and I don't know
Speaker 8: to smile or you know, show joy because that's the
Speaker 8: appropriate thing to do. I just I don't know, I
Speaker 8: got off traffed.
Speaker 10: You go ahead.
Speaker 1: So it would make you feel a lot better. Two
Speaker 1: more valide to like to like know what's going on,
Speaker 1: to know why you feel that way, to be formally diagnosed,
Speaker 1: so that you're not sort of fucking wondering around, like
Speaker 1: you know, what the why why am I? Why are
Speaker 1: these why am I thinking these things? Or you know,
Speaker 1: feeling these things.
Speaker 8: Yeah, A lot of my initial like work with my
Speaker 8: mental health was like I understood that I have a
Speaker 8: family history of addiction and all these other things. But
Speaker 8: I also never was able to really have my father
Speaker 8: in my life to see like what he struggled with,
Speaker 8: you know, and and being able to see like, oh, okay,
Speaker 8: that that really made sense that I'd be struggling with
Speaker 8: the same things, you know, Like I found a report
Speaker 8: card of his and like it's night and day between us,
Speaker 8: Like huge struggle in school so much because he was
Speaker 8: just lets it and all these things. But I don't know.
Speaker 8: I'm rambling now on it.
Speaker 1: Rambling. I've heard people rambling. You're not rambling. What what
Speaker 1: what do you? What do you want to do with
Speaker 1: your life? River? That's what I wanted to ask you.
Speaker 1: What was your What is your goal?
Speaker 4: You know?
Speaker 8: I I love being creative, like I love writing and
Speaker 8: I love writing poetry. But I am realistically minded. So
Speaker 8: I have a degree I'm getting in public health and
Speaker 8: eventually I'd like to do something in nutrition for it.
Speaker 8: I'm not like nutritiously minded right now. But when I
Speaker 8: was in home school, I lost like one hundred pounds
Speaker 8: doing wrestling in football, and I gained it back and
Speaker 8: I'm bout to losing weight again, but I ended up
Speaker 8: gaining a minor nutrition. So if I could do something
Speaker 8: like where I'm just helping people to like, either with
Speaker 8: their issues with addiction or their issues with or eating
Speaker 8: or just something, you know, like just in a positive
Speaker 8: space where I can help people, and I think I
Speaker 8: can do that with a public health degree. And if
Speaker 8: I can't, then I'll fuck you. I'll go join the
Speaker 8: maritorps or something.
Speaker 1: Well, River, you know, look, I don't think you're monster.
Speaker 1: You know, you seem perfectly well adjusted as a you know,
Speaker 1: regardless of you know whatever you know health issues or
Speaker 1: you know, diagnosises. You're clearly you know, have a good
Speaker 1: head on your shoulders and are a well adjusted human
Speaker 1: being you know who has uh productive intentions with his life.
Speaker 7: Uh, you know, I appreciate that.
Speaker 1: Yeah, of course. And you know, look, I'm glad to
Speaker 1: hear that you're working with specialists. Look, I mean wherever.
Speaker 1: I mean, it sounds like you got a good head
Speaker 1: on your shoulders. Keep doing your thing. You know, I
Speaker 1: hope you're not too hard on yourself any more than
Speaker 1: you need to be. And yeah, dude, look, I you know,
Speaker 1: I appreciate you calling in. I appreciate you being uh
Speaker 1: so open with us, and uh you know, I wish
Speaker 1: you the I wish you the best.
Speaker 2: I wish you're the best.
Speaker 1: Learned love, Thank you, every man. You have a good
Speaker 1: rest of the night. Nice dude, Nice dude. I know,
Speaker 1: I thought it was funny when he was saying that
Speaker 1: he was rambling, because he was. I thought he was
Speaker 1: very like he's very He actually was very succinct and
Speaker 1: on track with his explanations of his feelings. But that's
Speaker 1: the thing about the mind, is that the way that
Speaker 1: you are, the way that you think you're coming off
Speaker 1: is never it's see the mind. It's tricky, right because
Speaker 1: the way that you think you're coming off is rarely
Speaker 1: accurate to how you actually are coming off. But the
Speaker 1: problem is is that you never know which direction that's
Speaker 1: going right, because you could either think that you're coming
Speaker 1: off in a a in a way that you like
Speaker 1: but in reality or not. But then you could also
Speaker 1: think that you're coming off as a fucking cum guzzler
Speaker 1: and you're actually, you know, coming off well adjusted. So
Speaker 1: who knows. The mine's crazy. It plays all sorts of
Speaker 1: tricks on us. Shout out to some motherfucking river dude.
Speaker 7: Okay, Hello, Hello, Hi, what's up?
Speaker 1: Maria from New Mexico.
Speaker 4: Hello, mister deck.
Speaker 1: What's your favorite sound? Maria?
Speaker 4: It's the sound of That's gonna be a little a
Speaker 4: little specific, maybe a little niche.
Speaker 1: I think the more specific, the betther. To be honest,
Speaker 1: I like when you gets I like when people are specific,
Speaker 1: because you know, I feel like, uh, it gives us
Speaker 1: a a opportunity to really focus on something that's in
Speaker 1: front of us all the time, but that we never
Speaker 1: take the time to really notice and appreciate. So go
Speaker 1: for it. Get specific.
Speaker 7: Okay.
Speaker 4: So here's here's a little bit of a back for
Speaker 4: why I say this. You know, when we're young, we're kids,
Speaker 4: we do really stupid things. And for some reason, when
Speaker 4: I was around five or six, give or take a
Speaker 4: couple of years, however old I was. Where I'm from,
Speaker 4: we have like this certain gas station you get burritos from.
Speaker 4: They're awesome, right, And I remember going to this gas
Speaker 4: station and getting a burrito and a bottled sprite. And
Speaker 4: I remember going home, and you know, I was like
Speaker 4: five or six. I tore the burrito apart. And I
Speaker 4: put like chunks of it into my sprite and I
Speaker 4: would like shake it around like a snow globe, and
Speaker 4: I would just stare at it, and then I would
Speaker 4: drink it. And as I got older, I just continue
Speaker 4: to do that. I'm twenty now, so it's been about
Speaker 4: sixteen fifteen years that I've been doing with And just
Speaker 4: the sound of like the fizziness of a soda, whether
Speaker 4: it be like you you're opening the can or my
Speaker 4: favorite sound specifically the fizziness, not just any fuzziness it has,
Speaker 4: Like I'll accept it if it comes from a can, right,
Speaker 4: if you open a can of soda, and if I'll
Speaker 4: accept that, But my favorite fizziness comes from a bottled
Speaker 4: sprite specifically, like you open it up and it goes,
Speaker 4: there's a little right, and you put it up to
Speaker 4: your ear and you just listen to it. I'll also
Speaker 4: accept the fizziness from a soda fountain. Yeah, fountain, soda.
Speaker 5: My bad.
Speaker 1: You put a burrito in a sprite? Yes, what was
Speaker 1: in the burrito?
Speaker 4: It was a bean and beef burrito from a gas
Speaker 4: station and it's it's called alsops.
Speaker 1: Okay, so you put chunks of bean and beef into
Speaker 1: the sprite.
Speaker 4: And tortilla.
Speaker 1: Yeah, and how does that affect the flavor?
Speaker 4: It's like, you know, I was young, so I drank
Speaker 4: it and I was like all right, And I remember
Speaker 4: thinking that I kind of made a mistake by ruining
Speaker 4: the flavor because I remember putting the chunks of the
Speaker 4: burrito in, shaking it around and whatever. And then I
Speaker 4: remember trying to drink the soda to get the piece
Speaker 4: of the burrito out, but every time I like tilted
Speaker 4: it up to take a sip, the piece of burrito
Speaker 4: would float back to like the top and I just
Speaker 4: couldn't get it and I would have to like chug
Speaker 4: to try to get it out. And by the time
Speaker 4: I could get it out, I had already drink all
Speaker 4: the soda. So it was just a mushy piece of
Speaker 4: bean burrito.
Speaker 1: And how did the soda taste after being filtered through
Speaker 1: the burrito?
Speaker 4: You know it didn't. I don't well, this is like
Speaker 4: fifteen sixteen years ago. I don't remember it tasting bad.
Speaker 4: I just remember it kind of tasting like a soda
Speaker 4: and it had gone flat because you know, I was
Speaker 4: a kid, and I just I was shaking it up
Speaker 4: and leaving it unattended with the lid off, so it's
Speaker 4: kind of teoted like a flat soda, like a flat sprite.
Speaker 4: And I mean there was like like crumbs of beans,
Speaker 4: and I don't remember it tasting like beans, but I'm
Speaker 4: sure it had like a slight tinge of beans.
Speaker 1: Maybe they could make that a flavor bean sprite, you.
Speaker 4: Know, I don't know how that would looking back on
Speaker 4: it and reflecting as a young adult, I think that
Speaker 4: was kind of gross.
Speaker 5: Me hm.
Speaker 1: I thought you said that you have been doing this.
Speaker 4: Recently, not with bean burritos. I find that it tastes
Speaker 4: better with I don't know, I'm trying to think. Or
Speaker 4: usually when they go to the gas station and they
Speaker 4: pick up like a sprite, I always get like a
Speaker 4: bag of like dill pickle chips, and you know, sometimes
Speaker 4: I like to crush those up. I wouldn't do it
Speaker 4: again with the bean burrito. I should have been more specific,
Speaker 4: But with like dill pickle chips, I think because they're
Speaker 4: both kind of sour or even lamon chips, you know
Speaker 4: what I'm talking about, the lime flavored Laies chips. That that,
Speaker 4: to me, that tastes a little better than the bean burrito.
Speaker 4: I couldn't even think about putting the bean burrito back
Speaker 4: in there.
Speaker 1: Well, I'm glad that you found something that works for you.
Speaker 1: Thank you, Adam.
Speaker 7: What's up is this?
Speaker 10: Gak?
Speaker 1: Yes?
Speaker 7: This is Adam.
Speaker 1: What's going on?
Speaker 11: I'm having some classic girl problems?
Speaker 1: Oh dear, well, uh, what's going on?
Speaker 11: But can you hear that loud ship?
Speaker 1: I can hear you chat? Can you hear Adam? He
Speaker 1: wants he has girl problems and we need thank you
Speaker 1: for the sub k listard, and we need to be able.
Speaker 1: We need to hear Adam. Everyone can hear you, Adam,
Speaker 1: tell us everything. They are here, all right, that's it.
Speaker 1: I was gonna say, we're here to help, but I
Speaker 1: can't prom I can only promise that we're here. I
Speaker 1: can promise nothing more than just we are here.
Speaker 9: So I would see.
Speaker 7: I was listening to your episode on Autif I was
Speaker 7: whip it where it was this guy.
Speaker 11: Yeah, this girl, he's like she's gone in the off.
Speaker 11: She's always like uh, she's telling him like like one
Speaker 11: day she's like in love with him and the next
Speaker 11: she's like ghosting him. And he doesn't know really whether
Speaker 11: he should like give up or not. And so that's
Speaker 11: basically what's going on with like me and this girl.
Speaker 11: It's like she she's telling me like one day like yeah,
Speaker 11: they's like so we dated for like four months around
Speaker 11: like and we broke up two months ago, and she's
Speaker 11: basically like telling me like, yeah, maybe it might happen,
Speaker 11: Like I'm not over you yet, but like she wants
Speaker 11: like a break, but it's like the break's like impossible
Speaker 11: for me to do. Like he's trying to like cut
Speaker 11: connections because I'm still a senior in high school. So
Speaker 11: it's like I can't. I like she's in my school
Speaker 11: and I don't know how I would get over her.
Speaker 1: You're a senior in high school, you, sir?
Speaker 7: I am. I am a team though.
Speaker 1: What is Well, what were you going to do after school?
Speaker 7: Like one school I did, I'm actually going to take
Speaker 7: a gap year to Europe.
Speaker 1: Oh you take a gap year to Europe?
Speaker 7: Yeah?
Speaker 1: What's she gonna do?
Speaker 7: No? No college, no college plans.
Speaker 1: Yet, but no, what's what's she gonna do?
Speaker 7: What is she going to do? I don't know what
Speaker 7: she's gonna do. I think she's she's.
Speaker 11: Applied to a bunch of colleges already.
Speaker 7: I don't know she's definitely planning on college, though, like.
Speaker 1: Look, here's the thing. Is I actually it sounds like dude,
Speaker 1: it sounds as though there is a lot of friction here,
Speaker 1: both logistical friction and then the other friction of you know,
Speaker 1: she's like, I need some time, I need some time.
Speaker 1: This is actually kind of nice that, you know, this
Speaker 1: is happening at a transitionary stage in both of your lives,
Speaker 1: and you both have separate life plans. She's gonna go
Speaker 1: off to college and do her thing. You're gonna go
Speaker 1: to Europe and do your thing. I think that's fucking awesome.
Speaker 9: You know.
Speaker 1: I think if I were you, my friend, I mean, look,
Speaker 1: you know, stop stalking her Instagram and start stalking the
Speaker 1: you know, r slash Europe. Where are the best fucking
Speaker 1: cafes in town? How many days should I spend in uh,
Speaker 1: in Belgium or whatever? You know, That's what I would do.
Speaker 1: You know, you're going to Europe, You're taking a gap year.
Speaker 1: I love that idea. Immerse yourself in the world of travel.
Speaker 1: You're gonna you're gonna go off to Europe and you're
Speaker 1: gonna find that there are thousands and thousands and thousands
Speaker 1: and thousands of people in the world that are not
Speaker 1: her that you would have very enjoyable interactions with, perhaps romantically,
Speaker 1: but you don't. I don't even think about that. Just
Speaker 1: go out and uh are you going alone? You're going
Speaker 1: alone to Europe?
Speaker 4: Uh?
Speaker 7: Yeah, I will be alone.
Speaker 1: Oh I love that. Now you're killing it. Mannah. I
Speaker 1: don't worry about this girl.
Speaker 10: Man.
Speaker 1: Let her do her thing, give bless her, bless her.
Speaker 1: Here's I heard this from Uh, I heard this somewhere
Speaker 1: that this is something I've been using a lot. Everyone
Speaker 1: feel free to use this is uh. If there's a
Speaker 1: person who like, uh, you really like, you know, romantically,
Speaker 1: or even just I don't know, you think he's cute
Speaker 1: or whatever, and and you know, but you can't, like
Speaker 1: you know, continue your relationship with them, or logistically you
Speaker 1: can't form whatever it is. Just go ahead, think of
Speaker 1: them and go and uh and bless them. You know
Speaker 1: what's this girl's name? Give me a fake name, even
Speaker 1: if don't want to give me her real name. Isabella.
Speaker 1: Think to yourself, you know what, Isabella, bless you. I
Speaker 1: wish you the best, I want, I wish happiness for you. Isabella.
Speaker 1: You're gonna go off to You're gonna go live a
Speaker 1: great life. I'm so happy for you, Isabella. Bless you,
Speaker 1: and then be done and then move on and then
Speaker 1: go to Europe and go solo travel at eighteen and
Speaker 1: get into Wacky's any adventures. I like that for you.
Speaker 11: I guess it's the one thing. Like it's like I
Speaker 11: really don't know, like the school you really just started
Speaker 11: right there, so like eight months after school, and it's
Speaker 11: like it's gonna be hard to be Like she's like
Speaker 11: she's friends with like a lot of the people I'm
Speaker 11: friends with, and it's like almost impossible for me to
Speaker 11: just get away from her, and I just don't know how.
Speaker 11: It's like we wanted distance so bad from each other
Speaker 11: to try and figure stuff out, like right now, but
Speaker 11: it's like, no matter what we end up like like
Speaker 11: talking again or something, it's like it's hard to get
Speaker 11: away from someone who's always there.
Speaker 5: You know.
Speaker 1: Well, good news, Uh, there's a time expiration date to
Speaker 1: this anyway, so you know, no matter no matter what,
Speaker 1: what what what what is it? It's October. You got
Speaker 1: until the end of the school years in fucking May, right, Yeah,
Speaker 1: May is gonna come before you even know it. And
Speaker 1: you're gonna be in Europe and you're gonna be, uh,
Speaker 1: you know, doing Stacy in Amsterdam with two people that
Speaker 1: you met on a park bench, and you're not gonna
Speaker 1: be thinking about her. You're gonna be thinking about all
Speaker 1: the wonders of life that await you as you uh
Speaker 1: you know venture. So hold out until then? Can you
Speaker 1: do that? Hold out until then? Yep, my best, beautiful,
Speaker 1: thank you for calling?
Speaker 10: Hit me?
Speaker 1: What's the thing thing?
Speaker 7: Ma you?
Speaker 11: You obviously have this whole thing with like podcasts and
Speaker 11: like people calling and stuff.
Speaker 7: How did it all start?
Speaker 10: Like?
Speaker 11: How did you get these people to call him? And like,
Speaker 11: because this has been going on for like two years?
Speaker 1: Right, I saw a burning bush outside of my house
Speaker 1: and I went and I went over to it, and uh,
Speaker 1: and God appeared as an operation. Uh. He looked a
Speaker 1: lot like Adobe from from Harry Potter, very weak and small.
Speaker 1: And he said to me, I need you to dress
Speaker 1: up as a get go on Reddit and talk to
Speaker 1: people on the phone. And that's how it all started.
Speaker 7: But like, how did you how did you get people
Speaker 7: to actually call you? Did it all start on?
Speaker 9: Like, well, you called, that's true, but that's because.
Speaker 11: I found you on like, I guess on Spotify, and
Speaker 11: I like, I wanted.
Speaker 9: To be part of it.
Speaker 11: But how did like, did you start off doing something
Speaker 11: other than he's like calls.
Speaker 1: And stuff or No, I just got very very very
Speaker 1: very lucky, uh on our PAN, the right of public
Speaker 1: access network. Shout out to the red of Public Access
Speaker 1: to No, it's got very lucky on our PAN. If
Speaker 1: you ever want to be a streamer or do anything
Speaker 1: involving streaming, or do it on our PAN first before
Speaker 1: you do it on Twitch, because our PAN already has
Speaker 1: people watching it, and and people don't watch twitch. Twitch
Speaker 1: is very poor discoverability. But you don't need to worry
Speaker 1: about that because you're not gonna be streaming. You're gonna
Speaker 1: be speaking French. Here's you know, here's my final piece.
Speaker 1: Here's my final piece of advice for you. And then
Speaker 1: I'm and then I'm going and then I'm picking you up. Adam, Hi,
Speaker 1: hie one minute, yeah, Adam, here's my final piece of
Speaker 1: advice to you. I'm actually serious about this. Where where
Speaker 1: in Europe are you going?
Speaker 7: Most likely France.
Speaker 1: Learn a little bit of French. It's gonna make your
Speaker 1: experience a thousand times better. Go to fucking duelingo. That's
Speaker 1: what that's what you do. Fucking what's your fucking name, Adam.
Speaker 1: I'm telling you this right now. If you listen to me,
Speaker 1: you will have a great time in France instead of
Speaker 1: fucking around on Snapchat, text him whatever. Learn fucking French.
Speaker 1: It's gonna make your life. You're gonna have way more
Speaker 1: fun if you learn a little bit of French. All right,
Speaker 1: I'm kicking you off. Go learn French. Have a good time.
Speaker 1: I'll talk to you soon. Hey, Jordan's.
Speaker 10: Yeah, what's up?
Speaker 1: Geckoh? What's up?
Speaker 10: Man?
Speaker 1: Have you ever gotten you in a no like wrecked?
Speaker 1: Like you know, like in Fortnite when they're when kids
Speaker 1: are like get wrecked.
Speaker 12: Oh okay, okay, So I see what you're saying, but
Speaker 12: unfortunately I did not play Fortnite. My friend does, though
Speaker 12: I see him. I'm a I'm an old school m
Speaker 12: W two player.
Speaker 1: I never mind. It's just kind of a stupid topic anyway.
Speaker 1: What what are you? What are you up to right now? Jordan?
Speaker 1: You sound like you're outside.
Speaker 12: I am, I am, I'm not even exaggerating. I've been
Speaker 12: stuck in the middle of the desert at a gas
Speaker 12: station of flag five five hours.
Speaker 1: You've been stuck in a gas station in the middle
Speaker 1: of the desert for five hours?
Speaker 12: Yeah, all right, let me give you a backstory on that.
Speaker 12: So I worked for a moving company and I I'm
Speaker 12: driving a U haul moving someone from Kentucky to California.
Speaker 12: And I made it all the way to Arizona and I.
Speaker 10: Blew out a tire.
Speaker 1: Okay, you blew out a tire and then what are
Speaker 1: you just waiting for trickle a to come?
Speaker 12: Yeah, so you gotta like contact U haul and uh.
Speaker 12: I contacted them and.
Speaker 1: They said, if you contacted them before you called me.
Speaker 12: Oh yeah, yeah, definitely, I've been it's been too long now,
Speaker 12: but yeah. They gave me an ETA of like three hours,
Speaker 12: and it's been an hour and a half half that
Speaker 12: and it's starting to get It is dark out here,
Speaker 12: like the sun stew up a little bit on the
Speaker 12: west side.
Speaker 10: When I drove through the desert.
Speaker 12: Last night for the first time and it got.
Speaker 10: Really dark out here.
Speaker 1: What time is it where you are?
Speaker 12: Six twenty.
Speaker 1: Twenty six? Oh, I thought you were using like army time.
Speaker 10: Oh no, I do not do that.
Speaker 12: I'm not smart enough for that.
Speaker 10: To be honest with you, I mind my head.
Speaker 1: Okay, I'm glad we're on the same page.
Speaker 4: It is.
Speaker 1: It's a ton of work to.
Speaker 10: Subtracts easier to you know, it makes more sense in
Speaker 10: my mind.
Speaker 12: Just stick with that.
Speaker 1: What have you been doing for the past five hours
Speaker 1: to tie to your to pass the time?
Speaker 10: So I got very lucky.
Speaker 12: I was supposed to do this trip by myself, which
Speaker 12: was like a thirty two hour drive that's been a
Speaker 12: long time by myself, and I convinced to my company
Speaker 12: to let me bring my friend with me to help me.
Speaker 12: And I got very lucky on that end. But now
Speaker 12: we're kind of both just sitting here for.
Speaker 1: Okay, do you feel like, after after how long how
Speaker 1: where you're in Arizona, because you've been driving for do
Speaker 1: you feel like you've ran out of things to talk
Speaker 1: with your friend about?
Speaker 12: Not necessarily, So we got lucky. We have a gracious
Speaker 12: view of some desert in front of us, so we
Speaker 12: kind of just been like, not really zone now, but
Speaker 12: staring at that. I've been doing some people watching. It's
Speaker 12: a pretty big truck stop we seen, I mean seeing
Speaker 12: there's a lot of people that they coming.
Speaker 10: In and out.
Speaker 1: Anyone particularly interesting that you've watched.
Speaker 12: Not watched, but I don't know.
Speaker 7: Or not.
Speaker 12: But when I was in the bathroom utilizing the facilities,
Speaker 12: man extity utilizing facilities was moaning an awfully amount, like
Speaker 12: too much, in my opinion, I kind of got concerned
Speaker 12: for his health for a minute.
Speaker 10: I hope he goes to a doctor.
Speaker 1: Hmm. What's an appropriate amount of noise to make? Do
Speaker 1: you feel when you are on the toilet?
Speaker 12: Well, he was just urinating. If it makes a difference
Speaker 12: or not, so, I'm sure it doesn't make a difference
Speaker 12: to some people. But I'd say if you were drinking,
Speaker 12: I think it would be more understandable. But for road trips,
Speaker 12: if he isn't over the road truckor I feel like
Speaker 12: that is very unhealthy.
Speaker 1: No, I'm kind of with you with the pee thing,
Speaker 1: because I feel like, if you're taking a dump, it
Speaker 1: makes more sense that you would, like, you know, give
Speaker 1: out a moment event.
Speaker 12: You guys, you deserve the moment to yourself on that.
Speaker 1: Right, Well, okay, but how do you know he wasn't
Speaker 1: Do you know he wasn't pooping and peing at the
Speaker 1: same Maybe that's what he was doing, is he was
Speaker 1: pooping and ping at the same time, and that's why
Speaker 1: he gave off.
Speaker 12: Well, so it was that a urinal, but that doesn't still,
Speaker 12: that doesn't exclude, that doesn't exclude that he wasn't hooping.
Speaker 12: I don't know that.
Speaker 1: See there we got how much how much time have
Speaker 1: we already killed talking about this? You're gonna be fine.
Speaker 1: You're gonna be fine if.
Speaker 12: I will share one cool story. This helped me pass
Speaker 12: a good thirty minutes. So there's the Arby's at this
Speaker 12: truck stop right uh, and there's these ravens flying around
Speaker 12: the park and they.
Speaker 10: Are majestically soreing.
Speaker 12: These are big ravens and they're just floating in the sky.
Speaker 12: So that that did take up some of my time too.
Speaker 12: I was we were watching the birds, but we figured,
Speaker 12: you know, like the ravens are trying to get food.
Speaker 12: So I threw all my curly fries out to him.
Speaker 12: And this raven's just been picking up early. See how
Speaker 12: big they are.
Speaker 1: Man, I respect this guy. This man, what's your name again?
Speaker 1: Jordan's Jordan doesn't have a fucking games on his phone.
Speaker 1: You know, when Jordan needs to pass the time. I
Speaker 1: fuck with this, by the way, I fuck with this
Speaker 1: you stare at sunsets, you feed ravens, you listen to
Speaker 1: people poop you. You find you don't need crash cart
Speaker 1: on your phone to pass the time. You've You've taken
Speaker 1: what's around you. You've lived in the moment of these
Speaker 1: five hours you've been spending at the gas station. I
Speaker 1: respect that intensely.
Speaker 10: Definitely, I appreciate that.
Speaker 1: Of course, I.
Speaker 10: Uh, the tire guy did pull up.
Speaker 12: And my friend got him started on changing the tire,
Speaker 12: So that is super super big.
Speaker 1: Damn I am. I am honored to be present at
Speaker 1: the conclusion of this story, as as we all are
Speaker 1: in the stream, not only my whole life in making,
Speaker 1: but this is like five hours today gone but not gone.
Speaker 12: You know, we made the list.
Speaker 7: Out of it.
Speaker 1: You're an inspiration.
Speaker 12: Only downside, the only downside that we were about to
Speaker 12: hit dispensary.
Speaker 2: We had to put that a whole.
Speaker 12: But the sunset at least for today, you know, we
Speaker 12: got tomorrow to still drive see some desert. Make up
Speaker 12: for it.
Speaker 1: Say I travel to Jordan, thank you for calling.
Speaker 12: Thank you have a great light.
Speaker 1: Jordan honestly an inspiration. Jordan, honestly an inspiration. What did
Speaker 1: Jordan was stuck out the fucking I was on an
Speaker 1: airplane for like five hours playing Super Mario Run like
Speaker 1: an idiot. I could have sat in my seat trying
Speaker 1: to figure out how planes work for an hour, could
Speaker 1: have stared at the guy next to me doing a
Speaker 1: Sudoku puzzle. I don't know, I could just he seems
Speaker 1: like he knows how to how to? Uh, I believe
Speaker 1: in the moments. I mean, those were five exciting hours.
Speaker 1: So much happened to him because he went in search
Speaker 1: of the adventure that was available to him. What he
Speaker 1: had was enough rem Hello, what's up?
Speaker 13: You know?
Speaker 4: Uh, it's a good night. I'm good, I'm doing well.
Speaker 1: What what what tell me? Tell me? Tell me more
Speaker 1: about that run? Tell me tell me what makes the
Speaker 1: night so good?
Speaker 4: You know, I just cleaned my kitchen, so that's that's great,
Speaker 4: and uh, you know, I think that's made the day productive.
Speaker 1: What tell me about the state of your kitchen before
Speaker 1: you cleaned it? What kind of messes were around? Where
Speaker 1: there's spills, where there's stains, where there bowls where their cups?
Speaker 1: Was there shattered glass upon the floor?
Speaker 4: Sure, well, this is this is kind of not something
Speaker 4: I would admit, admit to like friends. But I had
Speaker 4: my boyfriend over a few days ago, well not a
Speaker 4: few days ago, like yesterday, and I had dirty dishes everywhere,
Speaker 4: and I put the dirty dishes in a closet so
Speaker 4: he wouldn't see them, and so I just said them
Speaker 4: just now.
Speaker 1: Mhm. Is that something that you have ever done before?
Speaker 7: Uh?
Speaker 4: Yes, I have done that one a the third time.
Speaker 1: Uh oh tell me.
Speaker 9: At the time, I I.
Speaker 4: Think I just was. I had a lot to do
Speaker 4: that day. I just finished mid terms, so I you know,
Speaker 4: I've been busy, but you know, I'm not too ashamed
Speaker 4: about it. Honestly. It just was one of those days.
Speaker 4: But sometimes you can only address problems not in a
Speaker 4: final matter.
Speaker 1: You know, you get to it eventually, out of sight,
Speaker 1: out of mind.
Speaker 4: Well uh not out of mind. Actually was giving me
Speaker 4: a lot of anxiety having dirty dishes in a closet.
Speaker 1: Oh does it give you more anxiety to have dirty
Speaker 1: dishes in a closet or to have dirty dishes in
Speaker 1: the sink?
Speaker 4: It depends on the dishes. If I have a lot
Speaker 4: of dishes, then it's definite. You know what. I'm just
Speaker 4: now realizing I've every time I go over to his place,
Speaker 4: there are a lot of dishes in the sink, so
Speaker 4: I probably don't need to I probably don't need to
Speaker 4: be hiding them in the closets.
Speaker 1: I don't think do either.
Speaker 4: Yeah, I mean yeah, I guess maybe it's more of
Speaker 4: like a like. I don't really compare myself to him.
Speaker 4: I think it's more of like a self.
Speaker 13: Like.
Speaker 4: I hold myself to a high standard, not really high
Speaker 4: enough to do dishes, you know, after I finished using them,
Speaker 4: but high enough where I don't want dirty dishes to
Speaker 4: be seen.
Speaker 1: Do you wish he would he would do? Do you
Speaker 1: wish he would put his dirty dishes in the closet
Speaker 1: for you?
Speaker 4: There's a lot of them. And also he has a
Speaker 4: roommate whereas I do not, so I feel like he
Speaker 4: could just say those dishes are his roommates.
Speaker 1: You know, why are you ashamed of having dirty dishes
Speaker 1: being seen?
Speaker 4: I think I would want him. I would prefer him
Speaker 4: to think of me as a cleanly person as opposed
Speaker 4: to a not organized or disorderly person.
Speaker 1: You know why.
Speaker 4: I think it's this is like a newer relationship. We've
Speaker 4: been together for like a month and a half, so
Speaker 4: I want to, like, you know, put my best foot forward.
Speaker 1: H You know, I feel like, you know, I understand
Speaker 1: the desire to put that best foot forward. But I mean, look,
Speaker 1: if the truth is that you're a little messy and
Speaker 1: you don't clean the dishes up, you know, right when
Speaker 1: they're dirty, there is nothing wrong with that. But it's
Speaker 1: it's just the truth, you know, And I feel like
Speaker 1: you're better off showing the truth and you are trying
Speaker 1: to cover it up. Unless if for whatever reason, this
Speaker 1: person inspires you to be different in some way that
Speaker 1: you find to be positive. What were you gonna say?
Speaker 4: I think, well, I agree, like I wouldn't like if
Speaker 4: you asked me if there's dishes in my closet, I
Speaker 4: don't think I would lie, But I I don't like.
Speaker 4: It's the same reason I wouldn't like share all my
Speaker 4: childhood trauma.
Speaker 5: Immediately, you know what I mean.
Speaker 4: It's like like, once I'm comfortable with you, I'm gonna
Speaker 4: you know, I'll like, I'll let you see my dirty
Speaker 4: dishes figuratively and literally.
Speaker 1: M How does someone get your trust to see the
Speaker 1: dirty dishes that you have in your closet.
Speaker 8: Figuratively?
Speaker 4: Oh well, I guess that's kind of know, you know,
Speaker 4: I yeah, Okay, I like to know about them. I
Speaker 4: like to h.
Speaker 3: I like to.
Speaker 7: Have that.
Speaker 4: I like to know more about them.
Speaker 1: Yeah, And are you.
Speaker 4: Want to know that they're not going to like.
Speaker 1: I'll continue.
Speaker 4: I just want to know that they're not going to
Speaker 4: like scoot off if they see dirty dishes. You know,
Speaker 4: they're not going to think, oh gosh, shouldn't be around
Speaker 4: her before they actually even you know, know, if they
Speaker 4: like my personality or not.
Speaker 1: You know, And what do you think of your boyfriend
Speaker 1: when you see his dirty dishes?
Speaker 4: I really I haven't thought about it that much. But again,
Speaker 4: he has the roommate. I feel like, you know, it's
Speaker 4: it's less revealing if but has dirty dishes and they
Speaker 4: live with somebody else versus me living by myself and
Speaker 4: having dirty dishes.
Speaker 1: Forgive me if I asked you this already, because my
Speaker 1: brain doesn't work all the time. But what do you
Speaker 1: think your boyfriend would think if he saw your dirty dishes?
Speaker 4: I don't know. I don't know if you ask that already.
Speaker 4: My brain is anyway.
Speaker 7: I don't think.
Speaker 4: I think he appreciates cleanliness. That's I think. That's why, Like,
Speaker 4: like if it were my ex and I like had dishes.
Speaker 4: That's gonna sound bad. I just mean I have less
Speaker 4: respect for my ex than I do for my current boyfriends.
Speaker 4: I have respect, So I would like to appear like
Speaker 4: I keep my space clean.
Speaker 7: You know what I mean?
Speaker 4: Does that make sense?
Speaker 1: Do you beneath wanting to appear as though you keep
Speaker 1: your space clean, have a genuine desire to keep your
Speaker 1: space clean?
Speaker 4: I absolutely do. I'm just I'm like a busy person. Yeah, I.
Speaker 1: Think in that sense. I think in that sense. You know,
Speaker 1: having someone over is a good excuse to clean up
Speaker 1: the house as some sort of you know, all tasks
Speaker 1: requires some amounts of time pressure to actually get done. Yeah.
Speaker 4: I usually, I usually am like a clean person. It's
Speaker 4: just been a like busy as school and like hanging
Speaker 4: out with friends and stuff, So I haven't you know,
Speaker 4: it has been a you know, effective use of my
Speaker 4: time to make sure the dishes are clean.
Speaker 1: Would you say your nameless Yeah?
Speaker 7: M M.
Speaker 1: Remember there anything else to talk about?
Speaker 7: Yeah?
Speaker 4: I I uh, okay. So I just started my sophomore
Speaker 4: year of college. But because of COVID last year, I
Speaker 4: didn't make any friends. So I have new friends this year,
Speaker 4: and I just met them like I met one of
Speaker 4: them a couple of weeks ago from the other one
Speaker 4: I met a month ago, and I thought they would
Speaker 4: be good together, so I set them up on a
Speaker 4: date and they had their date just happened tonight and
Speaker 4: it went well. And that made me feel good for
Speaker 4: them and for myself.
Speaker 1: Why did I make you feel good?
Speaker 4: I think, Well, except for the guy that I'm currently dating,
Speaker 4: I have not found myself dating like great people. So
Speaker 4: I am very excited to have like that people up
Speaker 4: that seem good for each other and they seem happy,
Speaker 4: like I feel like that seems like sort of redemption.
Speaker 1: Oh in some ways, though, you know, if you can't
Speaker 1: make it happen for yourself, you can make it happen
Speaker 1: for other people.
Speaker 4: Yeah, in a sense.
Speaker 1: But it sounds like you are dating someone right now
Speaker 1: that you like. You're dating someone right now, rem that
Speaker 1: you like and respect enough that when they come over
Speaker 1: you put your dishes in the closet. Yeah, that's pretty good, But.
Speaker 4: I think so I'm excited about that.
Speaker 1: Well, thank you very much for showing rem. I hope
Speaker 1: you have a go rest of the night. Hello.
Speaker 2: Hello, is this a gag?
Speaker 1: This is a gag? What's up? Man?
Speaker 9: What's up?
Speaker 10: Man?
Speaker 7: I actually think I'd make it through, but fuck it.
Speaker 1: Here we are, well, here we are.
Speaker 7: Yeah. Yeah, man, I want to tell you about like
Speaker 7: my fifty year old lover in Jamaica. Man, yeah, I'm
Speaker 7: kind of like, I gotta say the backstory. I gotta
Speaker 7: take the backstory before I tell you the problem. Tourist.
Speaker 1: Okay, you have a fifty year old lover in Jamaica.
Speaker 10: Yeah, this is correct.
Speaker 1: How old are you?
Speaker 10: Uh, twenty?
Speaker 7: It's just like, you know, it's a big age gap,
Speaker 7: but you know, love is love.
Speaker 1: All right, you have a secret lover in Jamaica.
Speaker 13: Why right?
Speaker 1: How did you meet this person?
Speaker 2: All right?
Speaker 7: So basically, somehow she got a hold of my number, right,
Speaker 7: and she sends me a voice message saying she saw
Speaker 7: on me on her phone and my things looks familiar
Speaker 7: and like when was the last time I went to Jamaica?
Speaker 7: Because she's like she messaged me or whatever, and you know,
Speaker 7: I'm telling her like, yeah, I remember you from that
Speaker 7: one time. Never seen this like woman in my life.
Speaker 7: But besides the.
Speaker 1: You, okay, how did she start messaging you again?
Speaker 7: She found my number in her phone?
Speaker 1: Somehow she found your number in her phone? Somehow she
Speaker 1: messages you saying that she remembers you, and then you
Speaker 1: don't remember her, but you play along as if you do.
Speaker 7: Yeah, I say, yeah, I remember you from that one time.
Speaker 7: And this is all through voice messages. You know, we're
Speaker 7: not texting, so you know, I get to hear what
Speaker 7: she sounds like. She has, like that thick, beautiful Jamaican accent.
Speaker 7: I can play. I can play one of the voice
Speaker 7: messages for you, so you can hear what she sounds like.
Speaker 7: This is what she sends me to listen.
Speaker 1: Let's let's just finish the story first, all right.
Speaker 7: So yeah, I know we're you know, chattering it up,
Speaker 7: getting to know each other, and eventually we take it
Speaker 7: to you know, phone calls and she's asking me when
Speaker 7: am I coming to Jamaica. So I tell her second
Speaker 7: week of this, I'm there. You know, I want to
Speaker 7: meet her. This could potentially be the love of my life.
Speaker 7: You know, I have an open mind, so I'm not limited.
Speaker 7: And basically, you know, I'm telling her, what do you
Speaker 7: want me to wear when I go to Jamaica? You know,
Speaker 7: what's your favorite color? And she's like blue, like she
Speaker 7: loves blue. So I tell her I'm going to dress up,
Speaker 7: you know, blue shoes, blue pants, blue shirt, blue everything.
Speaker 7: And she goes, no, no, no, no, you have to
Speaker 7: mix it up. You have to be blue and black,
Speaker 7: you know, black pants, blue shirt, and you know, you know,
Speaker 7: we're getting more intimate with her talk, and you know,
Speaker 7: she's texts me good night with hearts and I'm responding,
Speaker 7: and you know, the next day, I don't hear from
Speaker 7: her for a while, so send her voice and I
Speaker 7: just saying like, hey, I know you're out there doing
Speaker 7: the dirty wine with some other guy, you know, call me,
Speaker 7: like what's up? And she she replies like, no, no, no,
Speaker 7: I'm not out there doing no dirty wine with no
Speaker 7: other guy. You know, it's just you. And I'm like okay,
Speaker 7: And you know, I'm trying to get recipes from her
Speaker 7: now and she's being really hesitant to give me recipes.
Speaker 7: She wants me to buy her cookbook. So you know,
Speaker 7: like at this point, I feel like I don't know
Speaker 7: if I'm in for like some crazy scam or if
Speaker 7: I'm potentially going to meet the love of my life.
Speaker 7: But like I don't know where to like take this
Speaker 7: because I might actually have to go to Jamaica. In
Speaker 7: December to meet her, because like, what.
Speaker 1: If this is the one, let's let's hear a voice message.
Speaker 7: Do you want to hear one of the voice messages?
Speaker 1: Let one of the voice messages?
Speaker 7: All right, I got yeah, I will tell you the
Speaker 7: one of her talking about the dirty wine. That's a
Speaker 7: it's a good one. Just give me a second.
Speaker 13: All right here, what you're abage roun? I'm not doing
Speaker 13: no dirt to wine. I got your actually with me,
Speaker 13: I'm doing dirty wine. The phone dropping signal. I'm so
Speaker 13: sorry about that, but give me the time that I
Speaker 13: can't call her in the morning, it says the phone.
Speaker 1: Sign one example of hey, dirty wine is sex right
Speaker 1: with each other.
Speaker 7: So honestly, when I accused her of doing the dirty wine,
Speaker 7: I didn't really know what it was, you know, I
Speaker 7: just heard it like the mostly like thrown around, right,
Speaker 7: But then I looked it up and it's a very
Speaker 7: sexual dance that is performed by Jamaicans, Like it's a
Speaker 7: cultural dance. So I've read, and you know, apparently she
Speaker 7: took offense in me accusing her of doing that. But okay,
Speaker 7: yeah she I don't know if she was or wasn't.
Speaker 7: She wasn't answering my calls and text so I assume
Speaker 7: she's just out there cheating or something.
Speaker 1: But okay, So so when you said cheating, I mean
Speaker 1: you and this uh in this woman? Would you consider
Speaker 1: yourselves to be in a in an exclusive monoga relationship?
Speaker 7: Well, I mean the way I've been talking to her,
Speaker 7: I imply that it's exclusive because you know, I made
Speaker 7: it clear that I wouldn't be happy with her doing
Speaker 7: stuff with other people, and she, you know, got defensive
Speaker 7: about it. So maybe she understands also that it's exclusive.
Speaker 7: So you know, just based on how things have been,
Speaker 7: I'd say it's exclusive.
Speaker 1: Okay, have you have you been seeing anyone else? Or
Speaker 1: is it just just you? And what's what's her name?
Speaker 10: Opal?
Speaker 1: Opal?
Speaker 10: Has it?
Speaker 1: Has it just been you and Opaul?
Speaker 7: It's just for me and her? And honestly, I can't
Speaker 7: stop thinking about her, so like, I think she might
Speaker 7: be the one.
Speaker 1: Okay, So are you or do you have plans to do
Speaker 1: to Jamaica to see her?
Speaker 7: Yeah? Second week of December and to go, you know,
Speaker 7: stay by her, have your cooked for me, maybe meet
Speaker 7: her family, you know, any dogs she might have. I
Speaker 7: haven't asked her if she has petya, I should.
Speaker 1: Ask, Oh, you're it's serious about this? Yeah, man, let's
Speaker 1: hear another I want to hear another message from her.
Speaker 1: Play me your favorite message. I want to hear another one.
Speaker 10: I'll play you.
Speaker 7: Yeah, I'll play you the first message and sent me.
Speaker 7: It's just like nostalgic because it takes me back to
Speaker 7: the beginning of it all, you know, and it's like, I.
Speaker 13: Go, how are you doing? How are you doing that?
Speaker 13: I'll say this number and I'm checking out you see.
Speaker 2: If luke funny?
Speaker 7: Yeah, that was that was the beginning of it all. Yeah,
Speaker 7: send my face looked funny, So you know, yeah, I
Speaker 7: remember you from that one time and then the rest
Speaker 7: of the history.
Speaker 1: Man, how do you how do you think that she
Speaker 1: can that she procured your number?
Speaker 7: So there's there could be like a bunch of reasons
Speaker 7: for it. The one I'm most convinced I might have
Speaker 7: been under the influence in Jamaica and just have gotten
Speaker 7: her number a few years ago and you know, never
Speaker 7: did anything about it, but maybe you know, she just
Speaker 7: discovered it again.
Speaker 1: And wallah have you ever have you so you've been
Speaker 1: to Jamaica?
Speaker 7: Yeah, I've been to Jamaica.
Speaker 1: Okay, how many years ago were you in Jamaica?
Speaker 7: But I haven't been. I haven't been specifically for her,
Speaker 7: That's what I'm saying.
Speaker 1: Okay, So okay, you left this party, so you went
Speaker 1: to Jamaica. When did you go to Jamaica two years ago?
Speaker 7: When I was eighteen?
Speaker 1: Okay, so you went to Jamaica and you believe that
Speaker 1: you might have actually met this woman before.
Speaker 7: I mean, like, I can't imagine any other way she
Speaker 7: would have gotten my younger. I don't remember her at all,
Speaker 7: but you know it could have been just like one
Speaker 7: of those nights.
Speaker 1: Okay, m hmm. What do you What do you like
Speaker 1: about OPAULM? What do you What do you see in her?
Speaker 1: How do you your future will play will play out?
Speaker 7: First of all, I wish, I wish I wouldn't be
Speaker 7: able to show you the picture of her, But let
Speaker 7: me tell you ten out of ten, like she's beautiful man. Second,
Speaker 7: you know, I like the way she talks. She's very smooth.
Speaker 7: You know, she's very charismatic. She like like I can
Speaker 7: tell like she wouldn't even care about me. And you
Speaker 7: know she has good morning, good night every night. She
Speaker 7: does a miss with the heart. You know, it makes
Speaker 7: me feel one inside. And you know, she asked her
Speaker 7: to smoke ganja. You know, I can you make that
Speaker 7: that's what they do and she's like, of course they
Speaker 7: smoke ganja, So you know that's another plus mm hmm. Yeah, man.
Speaker 7: And and like every day I'm just learning more and
Speaker 7: more about her and getting to like him, you know
Speaker 7: even more.
Speaker 1: Well, you know, look, what's your name again?
Speaker 7: Damn me, Sammy?
Speaker 1: You know, Sammy, A lot of people, when you tell
Speaker 1: them this, they're probably going to tell you that if
Speaker 1: you go to Jamaica, you're gonna bet kidnapped and trafficked
Speaker 1: and possibly have your organs removed and sold on the
Speaker 1: black market. But let me tell you something, sir. I
Speaker 1: think those people there's never been in love before, so
Speaker 1: don't listen to them.
Speaker 7: Damn man. You know, honestly, I thought you were about
Speaker 7: to tell me not to go through with it. But
Speaker 7: it makes me so happy that you're supporting me.
Speaker 1: Man.
Speaker 7: Now, like I want to do it even more, man,
Speaker 7: knowing that I got you, you know, right behind me.
Speaker 1: Mm hmm. They'll tell you that that there, they're going
Speaker 1: to tell you that someone will probably cut off one
Speaker 1: of your thumbs. And mail it back to your parents
Speaker 1: in exchange your ransom money. But they don't get it.
Speaker 7: So they don't get it.
Speaker 10: Man.
Speaker 7: Love is love, man, and sometimes you got to sacrifice things.
Speaker 7: I love you know totally. What's the man? Eternal happiness?
Speaker 1: Sammy? You know you can let us know how it goes.
Speaker 1: Go luck to you.
Speaker 7: I will thank you, man, thank you for the for
Speaker 7: the advice.
Speaker 1: Brose love you take you play us one more message
Speaker 1: from hopel.
Speaker 7: You want to play one? When we play?
Speaker 1: One more message from something something nice, some sweet? I'm
Speaker 1: starting to fall forward to.
Speaker 7: All right, let me give me a give me a
Speaker 7: second about life. Well, dude, I'll play you a good
Speaker 7: night message.
Speaker 14: Kah in your second like exsive?
Speaker 10: What time?
Speaker 7: We kind of call it tomorrow?
Speaker 1: Beautiful? Can I Sammy? How romantic? I'm getting butterflies just
Speaker 1: thinking about it. Cynthia? Is that you?
Speaker 4: Yes?
Speaker 1: What's up? Cynthia? Oh?
Speaker 4: Sorry?
Speaker 14: Oh hi, hey, Hi.
Speaker 1: Sorry, I'm scared what what the hell? What are you
Speaker 1: scared of.
Speaker 4: Myself?
Speaker 1: You're scared of yourself?
Speaker 3: Oh talking?
Speaker 4: I get I don't know.
Speaker 1: I'm kind of hungry. What's the I need? I knowed?
Speaker 1: What's that thing? I feel like I've just seen some
Speaker 1: streamers have that thing where like someone can click a
Speaker 1: button and it sends to them a taco any one
Speaker 1: of those? Would you would you eat today? Would you
Speaker 1: eat for dinner? No, it's a real talk. Well, a
Speaker 1: taco bell taco is like a real But when you
Speaker 1: say a real taco, are you asking like an authentic
Speaker 1: like Mexican taco or are you asking like like like
Speaker 1: a not like a physical, non digital taco.
Speaker 6: Authentic?
Speaker 1: What did you eat for dinner? Kick a fuck? That
Speaker 1: sounds good? What'd you get.
Speaker 6: The regular sandwich with with cheese? I guess yes, Sorry, Cynthia.
Speaker 1: By the time I get off a stroom, it's gonna
Speaker 1: be past midnight, and then all the stores are gonna
Speaker 1: be closed. I'm gonna have to go to seven eleven
Speaker 1: and get their pizza. But it's not even gonna be
Speaker 1: it's gonna be old pizza. I'm gonna like last time
Speaker 1: I went to seven Okay, So sometimes I just go
Speaker 1: to seven eleven after the stream to get food because
Speaker 1: I'm hungry. And every time I've done it, it's been
Speaker 1: at one I am. And every time I do it,
Speaker 1: I ask for pizza. And then when I go to
Speaker 1: pay them. They're like, you can just take this, and
Speaker 1: that's never a good sign. When they give you the
Speaker 1: pizza for free, never a good sign. And what do
Speaker 1: I do, Cynthia? What do I do? What do you
Speaker 1: think I do with that pizza? Cinthia?
Speaker 6: Eat it?
Speaker 1: I eat it? Cynthia, Cynthia, how can I help you today?
Speaker 1: What's going on?
Speaker 4: I guess I'll just pause.
Speaker 6: A question, well, not a question. I don't know what
Speaker 6: you will call it.
Speaker 1: Whatever it is, we don't even have to call it anything.
Speaker 1: Let's hear it.
Speaker 7: Okay.
Speaker 6: So my boyfriend and I have been together for like
Speaker 6: three years and we I still haven't like, we still
Speaker 6: close the door when we use the bathroom, and I
Speaker 6: feel like every other relationship I know, they all just
Speaker 6: are free. And I wonder if my boyfriend doesn't trust
Speaker 6: me or love me enough to have the door open.
Speaker 1: Mmm? Have you brought this up to him every day?
Speaker 1: And what does he say?
Speaker 6: No, he doesn't want me to smell it.
Speaker 1: M I think that's rather reasonable.
Speaker 7: Why though?
Speaker 1: Okay, so you ask him why and he says he
Speaker 1: doesn't want you to smell it, And what is your
Speaker 1: response to that?
Speaker 6: Our door doesn't walk to the bathroom. So I try
Speaker 6: to open it and he yells at me.
Speaker 1: Oh, I thought you're gonna say, so you smell it anyway,
Speaker 1: don't you by the way I smell it anyway?
Speaker 6: No? No, I walk away. I respect it when I
Speaker 6: pretend to open the door, and I just like, He
Speaker 6: gets mad and I walk away and laugh.
Speaker 1: So you just try to open the door while he's chidding?
Speaker 13: Yes?
Speaker 1: And how does that make him feel?
Speaker 6: I guess vulnerable?
Speaker 1: That makes sense.
Speaker 6: Yeah, I don't know.
Speaker 3: Is that normal?
Speaker 1: Is it normal for him to feel vulnerable?
Speaker 4: Mmm?
Speaker 1: Yeah, because you.
Speaker 6: Know I feel again it is. I didn't think it
Speaker 6: would be a big deal, but I guess it's to
Speaker 6: him it is.
Speaker 8: Mm hmm.
Speaker 1: So he doesn't want you to smell the poop while
Speaker 1: he is pooping, and that's why he keeps the door closed.
Speaker 1: And have you assured him that you would love him
Speaker 1: regardless of the smell of his poop.
Speaker 6: Yeah, but I don't think he believes me. What he
Speaker 6: can't do that he doesn't let me be in there.
Speaker 1: You cry? Yeah, and what is his response to the crying?
Speaker 6: He doesn't know why I'm crying, but he doesn't understand
Speaker 6: why I am.
Speaker 1: And do you tell him that you're crying because he
Speaker 1: doesn't trust you to smell his poop.
Speaker 4: Mm hmm.
Speaker 6: I don't understand, though. I guess I don't understand because
Speaker 6: I feel like all other couples do. And I'm still
Speaker 6: here three years later, not able to.
Speaker 1: Well, Cynthia, you can't compare yourself to other couples. I'm not.
Speaker 1: I'm asked you directly. Are Yeah, you're envious of the
Speaker 1: other couples that are all smelling each other's poop. And
Speaker 1: you know, you have to accept a relationship for what
Speaker 1: it is, not what it is in relationship to, not
Speaker 1: what it is in comparison to other standard not in
Speaker 1: comparison to other so called standard relationships.
Speaker 3: So what if it never happens, then.
Speaker 1: That's your relationship and you should accept.
Speaker 10: It for it is.
Speaker 6: Oh, I guess I'll tell him I want a longer
Speaker 6: parts in the bathroom.
Speaker 1: Good, I'm glad to hear that.
Speaker 6: What were you gonna say?
Speaker 1: Glad?
Speaker 13: Hello?
Speaker 4: Oh?
Speaker 1: Is he with you? Is he in the room?
Speaker 4: Yeah?
Speaker 6: He's making fun of me.
Speaker 1: Let me talk to him.
Speaker 9: That's what you get.
Speaker 1: Hello, what's up?
Speaker 10: What's going on?
Speaker 9: I kind of just walk in the living room and
Speaker 9: I got talking to uh a gecko man about my
Speaker 9: uh pooping status?
Speaker 1: Sure, all right, so what do you think about all those.
Speaker 9: I kind of caught half of it, but.
Speaker 7: I don't know.
Speaker 1: Your girlfriend is upset that you won't leave the door
Speaker 1: open when you use the bathroom.
Speaker 9: Oh go, okay, okay, it's really for her protection. That's
Speaker 9: heard that all the time. But I guess she just
Speaker 9: doesn't understand that.
Speaker 1: What are you protecting her from from the smell? She says,
Speaker 1: she wants to smell the smell.
Speaker 9: Oh, she wants to smell it.
Speaker 10: Yes, Oh, then, uh, I don't know about that.
Speaker 1: Does that freak you out that she wants to smell it? Smell?
Speaker 1: Does that make you uncomfortable?
Speaker 9: App yeah, that make it stillble? So like she smells it,
Speaker 9: you'd probably leave me?
Speaker 1: Mm hmm, Well what if? Okay, so it makes you
Speaker 1: uncomfortable because the idea that if she smelled it she
Speaker 1: would not like it. Because I thought I would think
Speaker 1: that you would be made uncomfortable by the by the
Speaker 1: idea that she smells it and she likes it. That's
Speaker 1: what would make me uncomfortable.
Speaker 9: Oh yeah, that would probably make me even more uncomfortable.
Speaker 1: All right, So this is a lose lose situation.
Speaker 9: Yeah, all right, I think I was gonna start to
Speaker 9: your bush.
Speaker 10: Had handling my business.
Speaker 1: Keep that door closing, Yeah, I'm gonna keep that door closed.
Speaker 9: That don't like the possibility beautiful?
Speaker 1: Hey what was her name?
Speaker 4: Oh?
Speaker 10: Hector?
Speaker 1: Thank you for calling Hector. Have agrest of the night.
Speaker 9: An pitch had a get Ash?
Speaker 1: What's up?
Speaker 10: Yeah? Ash? How's you going?
Speaker 1: It's going good? Tell me everything with you, Ash?
Speaker 2: I'm just chaing man, this it's four. I am where
Speaker 2: I am right now, just just for I give you
Speaker 2: a quick shout and see what's going on?
Speaker 1: Not a whole lot, mate? Uh? What how can I
Speaker 1: get you? This evening?
Speaker 13: Good?
Speaker 2: A bit? I'm in a bit of a bit of
Speaker 2: a quandary over here.
Speaker 7: You know, I'm I.
Speaker 10: Need a bit of advice.
Speaker 1: Sure hit me.
Speaker 2: I think I figure you if you're the guy to
Speaker 2: to give me, give you that ship. So right here
Speaker 2: we go. I'm basically thirty six year old guy. I
Speaker 2: live in I live in this this pretty cool place
Speaker 2: in in London called Brixton. I don't know if you
Speaker 2: ever been to London before, but Brixton is buzzing. Brixtain
Speaker 2: is my home Brixton. I've been for ten years now.
Speaker 1: Yeah, Brixton, Go Brixton, go to the Brixton Bees. That's
Speaker 1: the mascot right at the mascot Brixton Bees. You would
Speaker 1: know you're the Brixton guy, all right, the.
Speaker 2: Brixton b That's what it is. So I've been for
Speaker 2: a long time now, I've been Yeah, we've been on
Speaker 2: a bit of a bear flex tonight already.
Speaker 7: I know that.
Speaker 9: Sorry, I'm so yeah, I've been here.
Speaker 2: I've been having a great the best time. Brixton is beautiful.
Speaker 2: It's a buzzing place. There's always some fun going off.
Speaker 2: And recently, I've been living with my best friend up
Speaker 2: until about a year ago he moved out. He ended
Speaker 2: up moving in with his girlfriend, so I had to
Speaker 2: find my own place. I found one bedsitat here in Brixton,
Speaker 2: and I love it. I've been here for a year
Speaker 2: now by myself and by myself. But my issue is,
Speaker 2: like living by yourself is expensive, especially in London.
Speaker 7: Like it's really expensive.
Speaker 2: So I'm just trying to figure out now, Like you know,
Speaker 2: having all these living costs doesn't leave me with much
Speaker 2: money to spend, like to have fun at the end
Speaker 2: of the morle, Like, after I've paid on my bills
Speaker 2: and everything. So what do I do now? Like do
Speaker 2: I just stay here living in a place where I'm
Speaker 2: really happy and content, or do I move somewhere where
Speaker 2: I don't have that connection with outskirts of London, Maybe
Speaker 2: somewhere cheaper where I'll have more money to enjoy my
Speaker 2: life and come on holidays and go out partying doing
Speaker 2: all that kind of fun stuff.
Speaker 1: That's interesting. Well, when's your lease run up?
Speaker 2: At any time? I can go whenever I want. I've
Speaker 2: been here for a year now.
Speaker 1: Oh you can go and everywhere. Well, okay, you've been
Speaker 1: living in Brickstall. You've been Bees fan for ten years now,
Speaker 1: It seems right.
Speaker 2: I've been the Bees fan for for ten years. I'll
Speaker 2: fill in love with the Bees as soon as I
Speaker 2: sit my eyes on the Bees.
Speaker 1: Well, listen, you know, if you've been there for ten years,
Speaker 1: I don't think that there is anything wrong with you, know,
Speaker 1: especially since you said you could leave any time, right,
Speaker 1: Like you have like a month to month lease or
Speaker 1: something like that. That's right, Yeah, beautiful, Well fuck it, dude,
Speaker 1: do a month? Do it? Try it? Try a month
Speaker 1: in the outskirts of town, right, see if you can
Speaker 1: make it work, and if you can't, head back over
Speaker 1: to brickstill. But you know, I mean, look, if you've
Speaker 1: been there for ten years, I mean go ahead and
Speaker 1: give it a shot of living somewhere else, you know,
Speaker 1: because sure you might be really really happy where you
Speaker 1: are right now, but you know you could be even
Speaker 1: happier somewhere else and still have that, you know, money
Speaker 1: to fuck with. And if you're not, you just fucking
Speaker 1: go back. So I think it's worth a try.
Speaker 7: That's a good point.
Speaker 2: I never thought about that.
Speaker 1: Yeah, you always come back unless if it's like unless,
Speaker 1: if there's like a you know those turnstiles that you
Speaker 1: can't go back on.
Speaker 2: Yeah, yeah, yeah, yeah, you just have to go one way.
Speaker 1: Yeah, unless if Bristol, unless if Bristol is covered in those,
Speaker 1: because I believe me, I have tried. I've like contorted
Speaker 1: my body to try to get back through one of
Speaker 1: those and it does not work. But right, but if
Speaker 1: that's if that is not the case, which I don't
Speaker 1: think it is, then you should be fine.
Speaker 2: All right, nice what I get? What goes on? Have
Speaker 2: you ever been to London before? You've ever been to
Speaker 2: the UK.
Speaker 1: I went to the UK like three years ago. I
Speaker 1: hung out. I hung out in London for like a
Speaker 1: little and it was nice. This is it was probably Yeah,
Speaker 1: it's about three years ago.
Speaker 2: Now nice like that?
Speaker 1: Come on, Yeah, I was there for like a second.
Speaker 1: You know, I was there. Let's see, I hung out. Uh,
Speaker 1: I stayed at a hostel. I hung out. I went
Speaker 1: to this Piccadilly circus whatever it's called. H there was
Speaker 1: a ferris wheel somewhere that I went on. That was it.
Speaker 1: That's about all I have from London.
Speaker 2: Travel a little bit.
Speaker 1: I mean, you know, I mean, well, you know what
Speaker 1: I don't like. Everyone's always like, you know, oh, you
Speaker 1: did the touristy thing. Of course, Yeah, I did the
Speaker 1: touristy thing. I was a tourist.
Speaker 10: Hey, you look, nothing long with that, nothing wrong with that.
Speaker 2: I still got the other day just.
Speaker 1: I was a tourist. Ash of course I'm gonna do
Speaker 1: the touristy things. I am a tourist. I'm touring London.
Speaker 2: All I'm saying is anytime you come come to London,
Speaker 2: next time, I'll show you the real side.
Speaker 1: Event all right, man, I'm I'm going to Bristol. We'll
Speaker 1: go to a B's game and get arrested for public drunkenness.
Speaker 1: I'll wear the costume.
Speaker 2: You're gonna wait, Okay, okay, I'll sew you down d C.
Speaker 2: The other day we're in a contumea Rick and you
Speaker 2: can in Brixton as well.
Speaker 1: That'd be fun. Actually, no, I'll make my I'll gack
Speaker 1: my way over to the UK at some point. Once
Speaker 1: I saw my once I once I finally sell my
Speaker 1: TV show Gack across the World to Netflix. You and
Speaker 1: I are in business, all right. I'm there for you, brother, beautiful.
Speaker 1: Thank you very much for calling Ash. Good luck to you.
Speaker 2: Have a good life, man, Take care.
Speaker 4: Never goes on the line taking your phone calls every night.
Speaker 1: Never goes to a teaching you your li