WEBVTT - GECKO FLAVORED VAPE JUICE 0:00:00.280 --> 0:00:02.960 Hello. Is this Ashley from Oregon? 0:00:05.000 --> 0:00:06.119 Yes, it is. 0:00:06.640 --> 0:00:08.600 Tell me everything, Ashley from Oregon. 0:00:11.119 --> 0:00:13.880 Well, hold on one, I got the stream all don't 0:00:13.880 --> 0:00:14.200 mind me. 0:00:14.760 --> 0:00:15.160 It's all right. 0:00:15.240 --> 0:00:19.400 I'm not doing it again. I got all night. This 0:00:19.480 --> 0:00:22.599 is These are my plans. My plans for the rest 0:00:22.640 --> 0:00:25.520 of my night are to be a gecko and talk 0:00:25.560 --> 0:00:28.680 to people on the phone. So this is it. This 0:00:28.760 --> 0:00:30.880 is it for me. What's going on, Ashley? 0:00:32.760 --> 0:00:34.960 Oh? Nothing, I just kind of want my break at work. 0:00:35.159 --> 0:00:36.560 It's kind of hanging out in the car. 0:00:37.800 --> 0:00:39.199 You do your do your breaks in the car. 0:00:41.080 --> 0:00:43.519 Yeah, yeah, because I like to, you know, I like 0:00:43.680 --> 0:00:46.800 have like a vape and smoking and stuff, and it's 0:00:46.880 --> 0:00:48.920 kind of raining out. So I'm like, just in the car. 0:00:49.840 --> 0:00:52.159 Is it a is it a nicotine vape? Is it 0:00:52.159 --> 0:00:56.320 a CBD vape? Is it a myth? Can you can you? 0:00:56.600 --> 0:00:59.200 I know you can smoke? Can you vape? Meth? 0:01:01.160 --> 0:01:05.000 I yeah, I used to be a drug act and 0:01:05.080 --> 0:01:08.440 we put it in like dab and interesting. 0:01:08.640 --> 0:01:10.680 Do they have like like meth carts? 0:01:12.720 --> 0:01:16.039 No, I mean they don't like sell it specifically, you know, 0:01:16.200 --> 0:01:19.360 Like I guess like tweakers can just like figure out 0:01:19.400 --> 0:01:21.600 ways around everything. So you figured out a way to 0:01:21.640 --> 0:01:21.959 do that. 0:01:22.959 --> 0:01:25.520 I've never thought about that. Can you can you vape crack? 0:01:27.640 --> 0:01:27.960 I don't. 0:01:28.000 --> 0:01:31.120 I've never done crack, but probably I feel like there's 0:01:31.120 --> 0:01:34.360 a way around everything. So you can probably do anything 0:01:34.400 --> 0:01:36.920 that you like set your mind to, like in that aspect, 0:01:36.959 --> 0:01:38.200 if you're desperate enough. 0:01:39.360 --> 0:01:41.119 Well, I don't know. I mean, like I'm talking about 0:01:41.120 --> 0:01:44.399 like the physics of it, like is it physically possible? 0:01:44.720 --> 0:01:47.600 Is it physically possible? Can do you believe that if 0:01:47.640 --> 0:01:50.200 you set your mind to it you can perform feats 0:01:50.200 --> 0:01:53.240 that are scientifically physically impossible? 0:01:54.920 --> 0:01:55.040 Well? 0:01:55.080 --> 0:01:57.160 I feel like it is physically possible because it like 0:01:57.200 --> 0:02:00.720 heats up, which like you know, does thing and then 0:02:00.960 --> 0:02:04.360 you get smoke. But I do I mean, like maybe 0:02:04.360 --> 0:02:05.880 not a scientist. If you put your mind to something 0:02:05.920 --> 0:02:10.200 that's like scientifically impossible, I don't think you can do it. 0:02:11.880 --> 0:02:16.400 What is the most non traditional substance that you have vaped? 0:02:19.760 --> 0:02:20.000 Mess? 0:02:22.320 --> 0:02:22.600 Crap? 0:02:23.400 --> 0:02:24.000 That makes sense? 0:02:24.680 --> 0:02:27.080 Yeah, because you're in your car right now, you're vaping, 0:02:29.120 --> 0:02:30.280 right What are you vaping? 0:02:31.040 --> 0:02:34.360 If you don't mind me asking, it's like a blue 0:02:34.480 --> 0:02:39.280 raspberry vape probably like got like familde hyde in it. 0:02:39.480 --> 0:02:42.080 But oh well, what is formaldehyde? 0:02:43.840 --> 0:02:46.640 I have no idea, to be honest, I just know 0:02:46.720 --> 0:02:48.760 that it's bad, and people will say that it's in 0:02:48.840 --> 0:02:49.320 d thing. 0:02:50.000 --> 0:02:50.160 You know. 0:02:50.160 --> 0:02:51.920 What people also say is that what you don't know 0:02:52.000 --> 0:02:55.440 can't hurt you. 0:02:54.000 --> 0:02:57.720 Probably exactly. So you kind of close my eyes and 0:02:57.800 --> 0:03:01.359 I'm like my blue rab berry nicotine. 0:03:02.480 --> 0:03:04.519 Okay, So what when when do you have to go 0:03:04.560 --> 0:03:05.080 back to work? 0:03:07.639 --> 0:03:08.680 About like ten minutes? 0:03:09.480 --> 0:03:11.040 Do you have any what are your plans for the 0:03:11.040 --> 0:03:15.720 next ten minutes? How like do you like when you 0:03:15.760 --> 0:03:17.600 take your break? Do you like take it day by 0:03:17.680 --> 0:03:19.399 day or do you like section it out like these 0:03:19.440 --> 0:03:22.360 five minutes I'll go on Instagram these five minutes, I'll 0:03:22.400 --> 0:03:26.200 play touch grind, these five minutes, I'll I'll vape like 0:03:26.480 --> 0:03:28.240 or do you sort of play. 0:03:28.040 --> 0:03:31.080 It by I don't really have anything like specifically. I 0:03:31.160 --> 0:03:34.200 just like either I have like like this crossword puzzle 0:03:34.200 --> 0:03:36.560 book and I'll do that. I'll just like scroll on TikTok. 0:03:36.680 --> 0:03:37.520 That's not it. 0:03:39.280 --> 0:03:42.160 Mm. And what is your job sitting? 0:03:42.360 --> 0:03:44.680 I've seen this dreamer like, hey, oh, I'm a manager 0:03:44.680 --> 0:03:53.760 at McDonald's. Yes, babysitting teenagers and adult babies. 0:03:56.040 --> 0:03:58.880 So you described this as babysitting. Why do you describe 0:03:58.880 --> 0:04:00.640 it as babysitting. 0:04:01.800 --> 0:04:08.200 Because nobody has like responsibility. It's like I'm it's like 0:04:08.360 --> 0:04:10.760 I feel like I'm in a daycare trying to tell 0:04:10.800 --> 0:04:13.960 everyone to do and then they just you know, I 0:04:13.960 --> 0:04:16.400 have people who like throw fits, like grown ass men 0:04:16.440 --> 0:04:19.480 who like throw fits over like making a m chicken, 0:04:20.040 --> 0:04:21.440 and so I have to like put them in like 0:04:21.560 --> 0:04:24.359 time out sometimes as ridiculous as a sound. 0:04:25.800 --> 0:04:32.040 Tell me to me this like situation. But the last 0:04:32.120 --> 0:04:36.560 conflict you had, uh that ended with you having to 0:04:36.560 --> 0:04:37.520 give someone a time out? 0:04:39.800 --> 0:04:45.000 Actually, yesterday this person had like an order, like the 0:04:45.480 --> 0:04:48.720 grilled man had an order for like six mc chickens, 0:04:49.720 --> 0:04:52.640 and he was like this is fucking ridiculous, and he 0:04:52.680 --> 0:04:56.520 started like punching things, and I was like, go sit down, 0:04:57.000 --> 0:05:01.039 like go do whatever, and so come back until you 0:05:01.440 --> 0:05:04.159 are like levelheaded. It I feel it's like I'm talking 0:05:04.160 --> 0:05:07.239 to a child, like go to the corner, go sit down, 0:05:07.360 --> 0:05:10.440 and come back when you then you know, it's very frustrating. 0:05:11.640 --> 0:05:17.599 And if he successfully does his time out with no fusses, 0:05:17.960 --> 0:05:22.360 does he gets a happy meal toy at the end. 0:05:23.880 --> 0:05:26.120 No, those are expensive if you like want to have 0:05:26.200 --> 0:05:29.000 someone to it's like three bucks. So no, he just 0:05:29.040 --> 0:05:31.280 gets like he just gets like a good for you. 0:05:31.800 --> 0:05:38.400 Continue to do your job, please, that's nice. I congratulate 0:05:38.480 --> 0:05:40.000 someone on, you know. 0:05:40.920 --> 0:05:46.919 Doing the bare minimum right before we go? Can I 0:05:47.160 --> 0:05:50.040 what's your name again, Ashley? 0:05:50.240 --> 0:05:51.200 Yes? That is my name? 0:05:51.600 --> 0:05:54.640 Can I ask you something about the and I don't 0:05:54.640 --> 0:05:57.280 know you know how deep in you are with corporate, 0:05:57.880 --> 0:06:02.360 But I'm trying to pitch a therapy. You know how 0:06:02.400 --> 0:06:05.960 they have the Travis Scott meal and the Sweety meal. 0:06:06.520 --> 0:06:10.080 Oh god, yes, I want next. I want the therapy 0:06:10.080 --> 0:06:10.720 got meal. 0:06:12.600 --> 0:06:14.680 Be I mean I could. I don't think there's any 0:06:14.680 --> 0:06:16.919 way I could do that. I could bring it up 0:06:16.960 --> 0:06:19.960 to my boss be like, hey, guess what I have 0:06:20.080 --> 0:06:23.640 the greatest idea, and he probably would be like okay, yeah, 0:06:23.800 --> 0:06:25.719 I'll think about it and then walk away and like 0:06:25.800 --> 0:06:28.200 never speak about it again. About it? 0:06:29.480 --> 0:06:31.960 Well, I appreciate you being honest with me about that. 0:06:33.720 --> 0:06:36.359 Yeah, I mean, like I honestly, because you know, we 0:06:36.440 --> 0:06:38.560 don't know until it's like there, like we had like 0:06:38.680 --> 0:06:41.880 what was it, like the Travis Scott meal, like the 0:06:42.120 --> 0:06:47.960 like J B J, Balvin BTS and Sweetie. I think 0:06:47.960 --> 0:06:49.120 that was it. 0:06:48.560 --> 0:06:52.480 I feel like if he has one, I can get one. 0:06:54.040 --> 0:06:54.320 Dude. 0:06:54.360 --> 0:06:57.839 I have absolutely I think he's like a Spanish singer 0:06:58.320 --> 0:06:59.880 till I've heard, but I don't know. 0:07:02.080 --> 0:07:02.960 I'm not very popular. 0:07:03.200 --> 0:07:06.320 I didn't look into it at all. Yeah, I think 0:07:06.360 --> 0:07:07.920 all it was was like like a big mac. I 0:07:07.960 --> 0:07:10.440 think I was like, it's like super unoriginal, you know, 0:07:10.520 --> 0:07:13.720 like the Travis Scott it had some originality to it. 0:07:13.840 --> 0:07:16.480 You know, it's like bacon whatever, but like the ones 0:07:16.520 --> 0:07:18.440 that we've had are just like so unoriginal. She's like 0:07:18.480 --> 0:07:23.520 a mcdouble, you know, or like something like that. Very Travis, 0:07:23.560 --> 0:07:24.560 you know, has yet to. 0:07:24.560 --> 0:07:30.040 Be talked with that Ashley, before we go, is there 0:07:30.080 --> 0:07:32.200 anything else you wished to talk about? 0:07:33.800 --> 0:07:35.880 No, because I probably need to get back to work, 0:07:36.680 --> 0:07:39.840 but I've been trying this. I appreciate this so much. 0:07:39.960 --> 0:07:42.200 I did not think I was actually like gonna get on, 0:07:42.960 --> 0:07:45.840 and I appreciate it. I haven't been watching the streams, 0:07:45.840 --> 0:07:49.320 but I have been listening to the podcast on Spotify, 0:07:50.120 --> 0:07:52.760 like I like, I'll have them on at work all 0:07:52.760 --> 0:07:55.880 the time, like kind of like background noise. It's very nice. 0:07:55.920 --> 0:07:56.920 I very appreciate it. 0:07:57.640 --> 0:08:01.400 Well, thank you very much for listening, Ashley, and good 0:08:01.520 --> 0:08:04.120 luck with the rest of your babysitting. This evening. 0:08:05.560 --> 0:08:06.840 Yeah, of course, thank you. 0:08:07.720 --> 0:08:11.840 Never goes on the line taking your phone calls every night. 0:08:12.200 --> 0:08:16.320 Never kid goes to upside. He's teaching you about your life. 0:08:16.400 --> 0:08:30.680 Everbody's expert. Andy from Rhode Island. Hi, Hello, Andy from 0:08:30.760 --> 0:08:32.280 Rhode Island. What's going on with you? 0:08:34.040 --> 0:08:34.280 Hey? 0:08:35.800 --> 0:08:38.760 Nothing, you know, I'm just chilling. I'm putting it. I 0:08:38.840 --> 0:08:41.000 just put the kids to bed. I'm drinking a glass 0:08:41.000 --> 0:08:42.280 of wine. 0:08:42.800 --> 0:08:44.679 How are the kids, That's what I want to know. 0:08:44.720 --> 0:08:45.520 How are the kids? 0:08:47.120 --> 0:08:47.440 Ah? 0:08:47.480 --> 0:08:49.560 Well, the older one's kind of an asshole, but the 0:08:49.600 --> 0:08:50.440 younger one's cool. 0:08:51.160 --> 0:08:52.600 Why is the older one an asshole? 0:08:55.200 --> 0:08:57.440 Well, yesterday she told me that I'm not the best 0:08:57.480 --> 0:08:59.920 mom ever, but I'm pretty great, So. 0:09:02.440 --> 0:09:03.559 I feel like that's reasonable. 0:09:03.600 --> 0:09:03.880 Though. 0:09:05.480 --> 0:09:07.960 Yeah, well I asked her why I wasn't the best mom, 0:09:08.000 --> 0:09:10.160 and she told me it's because I don't buy her 0:09:10.240 --> 0:09:13.719 all the dollhouses she wants. So I guess, yeah, I'm 0:09:13.720 --> 0:09:15.800 fine with being just great. 0:09:16.559 --> 0:09:19.600 Hey, you know, look that's better. Look great is above average? 0:09:19.920 --> 0:09:21.360 I feel yeah? 0:09:21.440 --> 0:09:25.480 You know it could be plus. 0:09:26.040 --> 0:09:28.040 Okay, so what about the younger one? Which one of them? 0:09:28.080 --> 0:09:29.720 First of all? Which one of them do you like more? 0:09:32.280 --> 0:09:32.640 Right? Now? 0:09:32.679 --> 0:09:34.079 I really like the younger one. 0:09:33.880 --> 0:09:34.400 A lot more. 0:09:34.880 --> 0:09:36.079 Okay, why is that? 0:09:36.679 --> 0:09:38.559 You know she doesn't talk back. I mean she's only 0:09:38.600 --> 0:09:42.840 three months old, so she's kinda a lot cooler. 0:09:43.760 --> 0:09:48.719 Mm hmm. It's true. I feel like the like the 0:09:49.600 --> 0:09:53.400 three month old is a little bit cooler because they 0:09:53.440 --> 0:09:58.400 don't need to because you know, no one who talks 0:09:58.440 --> 0:10:01.000 a lot is is all that cool because you can 0:10:01.080 --> 0:10:02.880 sense that they're trying to be cool, whereas a three 0:10:02.920 --> 0:10:06.000 year olds because they're a little bit quieter, they just 0:10:06.160 --> 0:10:09.960 sort of emanated a cooler Aura. 0:10:10.200 --> 0:10:12.480 Yeah, did she just chill? She goes with the filow, 0:10:12.640 --> 0:10:13.320 she's look at Jesse. 0:10:14.679 --> 0:10:15.160 I like that. 0:10:15.679 --> 0:10:16.160 I like that. 0:10:18.760 --> 0:10:20.560 And how how's the rest of the family. 0:10:22.679 --> 0:10:27.080 I you know, my husband's pretty cool. He's with the 0:10:27.120 --> 0:10:31.079 baby right now, so kind of got some me time. 0:10:32.920 --> 0:10:35.560 Do you mind if I read you told our call 0:10:35.640 --> 0:10:38.920 screen or something and I don't know if if it's 0:10:39.720 --> 0:10:43.160 what you told our call screener. Okay, you told the 0:10:43.200 --> 0:10:48.280 call screener. You told the call screener that you want 0:10:48.320 --> 0:10:54.600 your husband to stop coming inside of you, because wait, 0:10:54.679 --> 0:10:58.480 what is this again? Andy from Rhode Island wants to 0:10:58.520 --> 0:11:01.120 talk about how her husband thinks it's okay to keep 0:11:01.160 --> 0:11:04.760 coming inside her even though he doesn't want more kids. 0:11:05.320 --> 0:11:07.200 But she does, but I do. 0:11:08.000 --> 0:11:11.559 Yeah, you so you want him to keep coming inside 0:11:11.559 --> 0:11:11.760 of you? 0:11:13.320 --> 0:11:13.560 Yeah? 0:11:13.800 --> 0:11:14.160 Yeah. 0:11:14.200 --> 0:11:16.280 I wasn't like I would have a million babies. 0:11:16.440 --> 0:11:20.160 Yeah, absolutely, Okay, but he doesn't want kids. 0:11:21.920 --> 0:11:24.240 He doesn't want anymore, like we have two, and he 0:11:24.679 --> 0:11:26.880 thinks three's a crowd, Like he doesn't want to get 0:11:26.920 --> 0:11:32.240 a bigger car, kind of like an attention whore. So like, 0:11:32.840 --> 0:11:34.680 you know, he likes he likes to have at least 0:11:34.679 --> 0:11:35.560 some of my attention. 0:11:35.880 --> 0:11:39.520 But you know, I like kids. 0:11:39.559 --> 0:11:41.600 I love babies. They're They're great. 0:11:42.200 --> 0:11:45.520 Does he know that coming inside of you is how 0:11:46.800 --> 0:11:49.280 children are born? He is he ware of the correlation 0:11:49.400 --> 0:11:51.160 between those two things. 0:11:51.679 --> 0:11:54.560 You know, we've had this conversation before, and I think 0:11:54.559 --> 0:11:57.880 he can comprehend that. Okay, I mean we've done it twice, 0:11:58.240 --> 0:12:00.960 like we've had I mean, he comes in almost every night. 0:12:00.920 --> 0:12:01.079 But. 0:12:04.320 --> 0:12:08.600 He we've conceived twice, so it's. 0:12:08.480 --> 0:12:15.160 A good track record. That's what I'm so, you want 0:12:15.240 --> 0:12:17.880 like seventeen kids. He doesn't want any more kids? Why 0:12:17.880 --> 0:12:20.800 doesn't he want any more kids? 0:12:21.480 --> 0:12:24.960 I honestly, I think he is just like cool with 0:12:25.080 --> 0:12:28.280 having two because, like I said, three is a crowd, 0:12:28.800 --> 0:12:31.080 But I would like to have a tribe, you know, 0:12:31.320 --> 0:12:34.280 like I feel like Mama duck and have like ten 0:12:34.360 --> 0:12:36.120 ducks behind me, like little ducklings. 0:12:38.280 --> 0:12:43.200 Oh my god, that I mean that sounds exhausting. Does 0:12:43.240 --> 0:12:46.439 that not feel? Do you not feel like that would? 0:12:46.520 --> 0:12:49.720 That would get to you? Like all the responsibility of 0:12:49.720 --> 0:12:53.959 having to keep ten things alive, you. 0:12:53.920 --> 0:12:56.760 Know, it's just at this point it's literally just operation 0:12:56.920 --> 0:12:58.679 keep them alive. And it's not that hard. 0:12:59.640 --> 0:13:02.199 Really, I feel like it's got to be insanely hard. 0:13:03.480 --> 0:13:07.760 It's really not. And like we're in a good financial position, 0:13:07.960 --> 0:13:11.680 like we just bought a house, like we can potentially 0:13:11.800 --> 0:13:15.719 like have a few more kids and might be okay. 0:13:16.880 --> 0:13:23.000 Okay, realistically realistically jokes aside, realistically, how many kids you want? 0:13:25.360 --> 0:13:26.680 I don't know, like three or four? 0:13:27.880 --> 0:13:29.840 Okay, three or four more or total? 0:13:31.800 --> 0:13:34.719 I mean I want to like live my life eventually. 0:13:37.160 --> 0:13:39.720 But then you have like three or four kids, like 0:13:39.760 --> 0:13:41.400 there's a good chance that one of them is going 0:13:41.440 --> 0:13:43.000 to take care of you when you get older, you know, 0:13:43.200 --> 0:13:45.520 Like I don't want to be shoved in a nursing home. 0:13:47.960 --> 0:13:51.679 I don't know, I feel like, uh oh, I feel 0:13:51.679 --> 0:13:56.800 like if you take care of your kids, you learn caretaking, 0:13:56.920 --> 0:13:59.800 you learn the skill of caretaking, and then you can 0:13:59.840 --> 0:14:03.560 just take care of yourself. What about your husband, can't 0:14:03.559 --> 0:14:04.600 he take care of what happens? 0:14:06.320 --> 0:14:07.400 Well, he's older than me. 0:14:10.280 --> 0:14:14.640 Oh okay, so he'll be taking care of him. 0:14:14.720 --> 0:14:14.960 Yeah. 0:14:15.040 --> 0:14:17.720 Probably, I'll probably be wiping his ass. It'll be fine. 0:14:18.640 --> 0:14:20.840 That's fair. You know what you seem like you you 0:14:20.960 --> 0:14:22.160 like taking care of people. 0:14:24.680 --> 0:14:30.000 Very much, so mm hmm, very fulfilling. 0:14:30.040 --> 0:14:30.240 You know. 0:14:30.800 --> 0:14:32.280 Do you feel do you feel as though he'll come 0:14:32.320 --> 0:14:37.560 around to to the idea of having three more children? 0:14:39.520 --> 0:14:44.960 Well, honestly, he's not doing anything to stop it. Like 0:14:45.000 --> 0:14:48.040 he he'll come in me like, and then he'll blame 0:14:48.160 --> 0:14:49.800 me for coming in me. 0:14:56.080 --> 0:14:56.680 How does that work? 0:14:59.240 --> 0:14:59.920 Honestly, I don't. 0:15:00.320 --> 0:15:00.440 Like. 0:15:00.480 --> 0:15:03.600 He's usually the one putting the work in and then 0:15:03.640 --> 0:15:05.800 he'll I'll tell him to come and me because I 0:15:05.920 --> 0:15:09.160 want more kids, and it's just, you know, it's an 0:15:09.200 --> 0:15:14.400 enjoyable experience. It definitely feels better. And he'll come in 0:15:14.440 --> 0:15:16.560 me and he'll be like, oh, that was really bad, 0:15:16.680 --> 0:15:19.400 Like what if that? We got to stop doing that? 0:15:19.560 --> 0:15:21.320 But then he just does it every time, and then 0:15:21.760 --> 0:15:25.320 he says, it's my fault because I told him to 0:15:25.360 --> 0:15:26.840 do it. But sometimes I don't tell him to do 0:15:26.920 --> 0:15:29.120 it and he just does it anyway. But then it's 0:15:29.120 --> 0:15:30.880 still my fault because it feels good. 0:15:33.040 --> 0:15:36.119 Well, it sounds as though he has all the information 0:15:36.200 --> 0:15:40.880 about these risks that he needs and he is choosing to, 0:15:42.600 --> 0:15:53.560 you know, act with the with the information notwithstanding. 0:15:50.000 --> 0:15:54.880 Because yeah, I mean, like I said, it's just confusing 0:15:54.920 --> 0:15:57.000 because he tells me he doesn't want to have four kids, 0:15:57.120 --> 0:16:03.120 yet he is coming inside me every night. Yeah, literally, 0:16:03.720 --> 0:16:06.440 like every single time. 0:16:08.240 --> 0:16:11.160 Well, you know, I hope you both have a have 0:16:11.160 --> 0:16:17.360 a happy family. I expect to be invited to one 0:16:17.360 --> 0:16:20.920 of the kids birthday parties, perhaps even hired as some 0:16:20.960 --> 0:16:23.240 sort of the costume character act, you know how people 0:16:23.240 --> 0:16:26.040 will hire someone to like dress up as Spider Man 0:16:26.160 --> 0:16:27.520 or something. I want. I want to do that I 0:16:27.520 --> 0:16:28.080 want to start doing. 0:16:30.280 --> 0:16:31.360 Can you wear a tiara? 0:16:34.040 --> 0:16:35.880 I could probably, I could probably, I'd probably wear I 0:16:35.880 --> 0:16:37.680 could wear a tiera? 0:16:38.520 --> 0:16:42.520 All right, all right, August and July so alright, cool, yeah. 0:16:44.720 --> 0:16:46.360 Beautiful, all right, good deal. 0:16:47.040 --> 0:16:48.040 Would you say your name was. 0:16:49.880 --> 0:16:50.200 Andy? 0:16:50.920 --> 0:16:52.400 And the good luck with the family and they have 0:16:52.440 --> 0:16:53.080 a good rest of the night. 0:16:54.480 --> 0:16:55.160 Thank you too. 0:16:56.360 --> 0:16:59.800 River what's going on the river? 0:17:02.880 --> 0:17:08.080 Nothing much, just but not super hard stuff, but just 0:17:08.119 --> 0:17:10.000 like puts me through a mind trip. 0:17:10.119 --> 0:17:10.679 Can you hear me? 0:17:10.760 --> 0:17:13.200 Well, yeah, I can hear you. Tell me what's up? 0:17:14.119 --> 0:17:14.520 All right? 0:17:16.440 --> 0:17:19.560 Yeah, So, like I'm about to finish college and everything, 0:17:19.880 --> 0:17:24.600 and I recently found out that I got like a 0:17:24.640 --> 0:17:29.840 lot of symptoms that are like similar to autism. Like 0:17:30.480 --> 0:17:32.520 I feel like what I would have would would have 0:17:32.560 --> 0:17:37.320 been considered aspriggers, but it's no longer a diagnosis. It's 0:17:37.359 --> 0:17:41.800 considered like high high functioning autism. But I don't know, 0:17:41.840 --> 0:17:44.359 It's just put me through a weird headspace because like 0:17:45.240 --> 0:17:47.760 I feel like if this is a case for me, 0:17:47.800 --> 0:17:50.840 I should have known a lot sooner. But like it 0:17:50.960 --> 0:17:55.399 is something I would be in visualist, you know, Like 0:17:55.440 --> 0:17:58.040 when I was in high school, I got a lot 0:17:58.119 --> 0:18:02.320 of my college scholarships from volunteering with like autistic children 0:18:02.560 --> 0:18:07.960 and like tutoring them through teachers like assistant work and whatnot. 0:18:08.600 --> 0:18:12.720 And like I don't know why I never put tune 0:18:12.800 --> 0:18:14.840 too it together, but there's just like a lot of 0:18:14.840 --> 0:18:17.640 things I do that I'm like, yeah, that's not really 0:18:17.640 --> 0:18:20.760 what a normal person does. And I'm like conscious of it, 0:18:21.720 --> 0:18:25.120 but at the same time, I'm like not in control 0:18:25.200 --> 0:18:25.560 of it. 0:18:25.560 --> 0:18:27.560 It's just really weird to me. I guess. 0:18:29.000 --> 0:18:32.440 So you're in a weird headspace because you've always had 0:18:32.680 --> 0:18:41.280 this sense that you there was there was something undiagnosed 0:18:42.119 --> 0:18:46.480 going on with you and and sort of received a 0:18:46.560 --> 0:18:52.200 formal diagnosis to to sort of ground these senses into 0:18:53.080 --> 0:18:53.800 into something. 0:18:54.320 --> 0:18:58.119 I'm going I'm going through the process of receiving a 0:18:58.160 --> 0:19:03.880 formal diagnosis kind of. It's it's not an uncommon thing 0:19:04.040 --> 0:19:06.879 for abouts to be diagnosed, but it's it's not the 0:19:06.960 --> 0:19:11.120 time in someone's life when someone's traditional and donnos. So 0:19:11.160 --> 0:19:15.040 it's it's something that I have to find a specialist for. 0:19:15.240 --> 0:19:18.359 And it's not really something like they take a brain 0:19:18.440 --> 0:19:22.000 stand of and they're like, oh, you're autistic, and it's 0:19:22.000 --> 0:19:24.239 not something to take a blood testum and they're like, 0:19:24.359 --> 0:19:29.119 oh you're autistic, you know. But yeah, going through like 0:19:29.640 --> 0:19:33.760 old family pictures and seeing like me playing with certain 0:19:33.760 --> 0:19:37.399 toys and being like, oh, I'm not having like a 0:19:37.480 --> 0:19:40.639 car race, I'm organizing them by size, shape, and color, 0:19:40.960 --> 0:19:44.920 or oh that's not a convoy I'm making with the cars. 0:19:45.080 --> 0:19:48.639 I'm just like lining them up in specific orders and 0:19:49.480 --> 0:19:53.760 just like some of my earlier memories around like play 0:19:53.840 --> 0:19:58.280 things like it wasn't so much like imagination necessarily. 0:19:58.440 --> 0:20:00.400 It was more so like. 0:20:01.880 --> 0:20:04.320 If a sticker was out of place, it would cause 0:20:04.359 --> 0:20:07.160 me like an undue amount of stress. And I feel 0:20:07.160 --> 0:20:09.679 like that's I don't know. 0:20:09.720 --> 0:20:14.040 I'm sorry, I'm over explaining, and no, off tell me. 0:20:14.200 --> 0:20:16.280 I want to hear more about you said you're in 0:20:16.280 --> 0:20:20.680 a weird headspace. How are you tell me more about 0:20:20.680 --> 0:20:23.560 like the way that you're reacting to this information. 0:20:27.280 --> 0:20:30.160 I'm doing what I do a lot of the time, 0:20:30.400 --> 0:20:37.040 which is uh, gauging my response based upon like my peers, 0:20:37.880 --> 0:20:41.720 Like I find a lot of times that to make 0:20:41.760 --> 0:20:45.439 a choice for me is very hard, you know, Like 0:20:45.840 --> 0:20:48.679 I reference the idea of a sticker being out of 0:20:48.680 --> 0:20:51.280 place on a toy because like, if it's not in 0:20:51.320 --> 0:20:53.760 the right place, you know it's it's wrong. But for me, 0:20:53.840 --> 0:20:56.639 I never know where the right place is or what 0:20:56.800 --> 0:20:59.120 the right choice is. So I base a lot of 0:20:59.520 --> 0:21:02.680 what I do on the actions of other people, which 0:21:02.720 --> 0:21:06.679 can leave me into some bad situations and it has. 0:21:06.720 --> 0:21:11.040 But like having this bit of self knowledge, I'm able 0:21:11.040 --> 0:21:16.320 to guard myself against people and people from me. I 0:21:16.320 --> 0:21:17.920 guess you. 0:21:17.840 --> 0:21:22.360 Know, No, don't be sorry. So what I think there's 0:21:22.480 --> 0:21:25.439 there is one thing that and tell me, tell me 0:21:25.480 --> 0:21:27.119 if I'm making this up, tell me if this is 0:21:27.160 --> 0:21:30.840 coming out of thin air or anything, because when you 0:21:30.880 --> 0:21:34.639 say this is putting in a weird headspace what like, Okay, 0:21:34.680 --> 0:21:39.119 what I don't want is like, you know, just just 0:21:39.200 --> 0:21:44.960 because you're being like formally diagnosed with something, I don't 0:21:45.000 --> 0:21:50.640 want it to like fuck with your idea of who 0:21:50.680 --> 0:21:54.320 you are too much? If that makes any sense? Is 0:21:54.320 --> 0:21:57.320 that is it? Would you say, is is exam what 0:21:57.359 --> 0:22:00.080 words your moth? Is it fucking with your idea of 0:22:00.119 --> 0:22:00.880 who you are at all? 0:22:01.080 --> 0:22:01.280 No? 0:22:01.560 --> 0:22:06.920 It definitely does cause a sense of identity crisis. 0:22:07.040 --> 0:22:07.800 I feel as true. 0:22:08.720 --> 0:22:10.800 And I'm someone who's who's prone to those. 0:22:12.960 --> 0:22:13.440 Uh. 0:22:13.720 --> 0:22:17.440 Like when I was younger, I changed my name because 0:22:17.440 --> 0:22:20.000 I didn't have my father's last name and he had 0:22:20.040 --> 0:22:24.159 passed away, so I wanted to honor him, but like 0:22:24.760 --> 0:22:28.760