1 00:00:27,720 --> 00:00:31,440 Speaker 1: Take a deep breath in through your nose. 2 00:00:33,560 --> 00:00:34,240 Speaker 2: Hold it. 3 00:00:36,680 --> 00:01:01,960 Speaker 1: Now, release slowly again deep in helle hold release, repeating 4 00:01:02,160 --> 00:01:09,039 Speaker 1: internally to yourself as you connect to my voice. I 5 00:01:09,080 --> 00:01:19,360 Speaker 1: am deeply, deeply well. I I am deeply, deeply well. 6 00:01:22,080 --> 00:01:32,880 Speaker 1: I am deeply wow. I'm Debbie Brown and this is 7 00:01:32,920 --> 00:01:47,240 Speaker 1: the Deeply Well Podcast. Welcome to Deeply Well, a soft 8 00:01:47,280 --> 00:01:50,160 Speaker 1: place to land on your journey. I'm Debbie Brown and 9 00:01:50,240 --> 00:01:53,960 Speaker 1: this is a podcast for those that are curious, creative, 10 00:01:54,280 --> 00:01:58,520 Speaker 1: and ready to expand on your journey of higher consciousness 11 00:01:58,560 --> 00:02:02,200 Speaker 1: and self care. This is where we heal, this is 12 00:02:02,200 --> 00:02:07,000 Speaker 1: where we become. Welcome to the show. My intention for 13 00:02:07,080 --> 00:02:11,960 Speaker 1: this episode is to really dive into what it is 14 00:02:12,040 --> 00:02:16,040 Speaker 1: to live with self mastery. I'm a big believer that 15 00:02:16,520 --> 00:02:21,480 Speaker 1: being on this journey, there is always, always, always deeper 16 00:02:21,520 --> 00:02:25,800 Speaker 1: to go, and that tends to be where once we 17 00:02:25,960 --> 00:02:29,240 Speaker 1: surrender to it, some of the fun and the creativity 18 00:02:29,280 --> 00:02:31,320 Speaker 1: can really come to life in the way that we 19 00:02:31,400 --> 00:02:35,440 Speaker 1: choose to experience what it is being alive and experience 20 00:02:35,480 --> 00:02:41,640 Speaker 1: our spiritual curriculum. Today's shoe I have a master I 21 00:02:41,680 --> 00:02:46,960 Speaker 1: have an incredible, incredible guest joining us today. Leyla Delia 22 00:02:47,320 --> 00:02:51,320 Speaker 1: is a best selling author, an educator, and a spiritual writer. 23 00:02:51,880 --> 00:02:55,880 Speaker 1: She's a certified spiritual practitioner and the founder of Vibrate 24 00:02:56,080 --> 00:03:00,639 Speaker 1: Higher Daily School. She is leading seekers to self empowerment 25 00:03:00,800 --> 00:03:04,639 Speaker 1: and a life of more grace and high vibrations. Her 26 00:03:04,680 --> 00:03:10,600 Speaker 1: best selling book, Vibrate Higher Daily, Live Your Power, spiritual writings, teaching, speaking, 27 00:03:10,760 --> 00:03:14,160 Speaker 1: and social media presence are guiding seekers all around the 28 00:03:14,160 --> 00:03:18,200 Speaker 1: globe on a journey back home to their empowered, higher 29 00:03:18,240 --> 00:03:23,160 Speaker 1: potential whole selves. Through her lyrical and organic writing, teaching 30 00:03:23,240 --> 00:03:27,720 Speaker 1: style and experiences, Layla en Liven spiritual seekers looking to 31 00:03:27,800 --> 00:03:33,560 Speaker 1: live with more intuition, empowerment, higher purpose and vibrations, confidence, grace, 32 00:03:34,040 --> 00:03:39,720 Speaker 1: and subconscious mind repro gramming. Her work is a response 33 00:03:39,800 --> 00:03:42,320 Speaker 1: to her journey and to the current vibrational state of 34 00:03:42,360 --> 00:03:46,200 Speaker 1: the world that we live in, navigate and journey through together, 35 00:03:46,920 --> 00:03:50,360 Speaker 1: my sister, Welcome to the show, Leila. 36 00:03:50,960 --> 00:03:54,480 Speaker 2: Thank you, sweet sister Devi for having me. I am 37 00:03:54,520 --> 00:03:57,240 Speaker 2: so excited about this conversation, as I am all of ours. 38 00:03:57,280 --> 00:04:00,240 Speaker 2: But this is in front of we be talking. Are 39 00:04:00,280 --> 00:04:02,400 Speaker 2: we talking? Yes? 40 00:04:03,360 --> 00:04:07,800 Speaker 1: Oh my god, I so I so love that about us. 41 00:04:07,840 --> 00:04:11,960 Speaker 1: Like you know, some people, it's just you were kind 42 00:04:12,000 --> 00:04:13,720 Speaker 1: of like born to talk. 43 00:04:13,560 --> 00:04:17,680 Speaker 2: To each other. I love that as perfect that is. 44 00:04:18,000 --> 00:04:20,760 Speaker 2: That's it. Yeah, born to talk to each other. Yeah. 45 00:04:21,000 --> 00:04:23,479 Speaker 1: I'll look up sometimes like we'll be we'll be like 46 00:04:23,600 --> 00:04:26,520 Speaker 1: chewing on some thoughts together, and I'll look up and 47 00:04:26,520 --> 00:04:28,560 Speaker 1: I'm like, oh, it's been three hours. We've been on 48 00:04:28,600 --> 00:04:29,440 Speaker 1: the phone for three. 49 00:04:29,279 --> 00:04:32,560 Speaker 2: Out easily and just flowing the entire time. 50 00:04:33,120 --> 00:04:37,120 Speaker 1: Oh yeah, Leila, I've been I've been really looking forward 51 00:04:37,120 --> 00:04:41,239 Speaker 1: to this conversation for so many reasons, but especially because 52 00:04:41,320 --> 00:04:43,279 Speaker 1: you know, when I thought of this newest season of 53 00:04:43,279 --> 00:04:47,640 Speaker 1: the podcast, those who been rocking with this show for 54 00:04:47,760 --> 00:04:50,360 Speaker 1: the last three and a half four years that I've 55 00:04:50,400 --> 00:04:55,400 Speaker 1: been doing it, everyone has been going so deep, at 56 00:04:55,480 --> 00:04:57,599 Speaker 1: least from the responses I've been getting from those of 57 00:04:57,640 --> 00:04:59,920 Speaker 1: you that that share, which I'm so grateful for those 58 00:05:00,040 --> 00:05:05,080 Speaker 1: shares and the expansive feedback that you give for each episode. 59 00:05:05,120 --> 00:05:07,560 Speaker 1: But I think we've reached a point for those that 60 00:05:07,800 --> 00:05:12,000 Speaker 1: really connected to the journey seriously to find new ways, 61 00:05:12,160 --> 00:05:16,200 Speaker 1: new tools, new techniques to go even deeper. And one 62 00:05:16,200 --> 00:05:18,600 Speaker 1: of the things that especially you and I always talk 63 00:05:18,640 --> 00:05:23,719 Speaker 1: about is surrendering to the understanding that even the things 64 00:05:23,720 --> 00:05:27,320 Speaker 1: that you have mastered, there's deeper to go, there's new 65 00:05:27,400 --> 00:05:28,960 Speaker 1: facets to see it through. 66 00:05:29,320 --> 00:05:29,760 Speaker 2: Yeah. 67 00:05:29,800 --> 00:05:31,800 Speaker 1: So I think before we dive into all of that, 68 00:05:31,960 --> 00:05:34,520 Speaker 1: I would love to start with saying, how is your 69 00:05:34,560 --> 00:05:38,640 Speaker 1: spirit right now? What are you currently savoring in your life? 70 00:05:39,760 --> 00:05:44,960 Speaker 2: Oh? I'm savoring slowing down, slow living and just being 71 00:05:45,080 --> 00:05:47,880 Speaker 2: able to be in the process of the shift happening. 72 00:05:48,520 --> 00:05:52,760 Speaker 2: And I'm going through an intense shift and I'm so 73 00:05:53,080 --> 00:05:58,200 Speaker 2: present with it. I'm mothering myself through it. I'm my 74 00:05:58,360 --> 00:06:02,320 Speaker 2: healer through it, I'm my nurse through it, my midwife 75 00:06:02,320 --> 00:06:04,640 Speaker 2: through it, and I'm just being so hands on with 76 00:06:04,760 --> 00:06:09,120 Speaker 2: myself at this moment, through this shift, and that process 77 00:06:09,160 --> 00:06:13,200 Speaker 2: has made it such a completely such a completely different shift. 78 00:06:13,520 --> 00:06:15,839 Speaker 2: So where it feels like, oh, my team is with me. 79 00:06:15,960 --> 00:06:18,280 Speaker 2: You know when I say my team, my support team 80 00:06:18,839 --> 00:06:22,119 Speaker 2: first off is me like all hands are on deck. 81 00:06:22,200 --> 00:06:26,400 Speaker 2: And so it feels so grounding and good going through 82 00:06:26,400 --> 00:06:29,000 Speaker 2: this shift. And I have you of course, you know, 83 00:06:29,160 --> 00:06:33,480 Speaker 2: just having beautiful sisters to you know, to bounce thoughts 84 00:06:33,480 --> 00:06:36,800 Speaker 2: and experience off of. It's really beautiful. So I'm savoring 85 00:06:36,880 --> 00:06:40,919 Speaker 2: being able to slow down and journey and grace. 86 00:06:41,360 --> 00:06:46,440 Speaker 1: Yeah. Yeah, something that that you shared with your community 87 00:06:46,440 --> 00:06:49,839 Speaker 1: and you've talked about in your book is just you know, 88 00:06:50,000 --> 00:06:52,840 Speaker 1: really being on this path for quite a while. You know, 89 00:06:52,960 --> 00:06:55,840 Speaker 1: you came into your awakening, you came into your understanding 90 00:06:55,880 --> 00:06:59,480 Speaker 1: that there was more, that there were more expansive ways 91 00:06:59,680 --> 00:07:02,600 Speaker 1: of being alive, and you chose a path of service 92 00:07:02,880 --> 00:07:05,599 Speaker 1: very early on. So a lot of you know, I 93 00:07:05,640 --> 00:07:08,480 Speaker 1: think shifting is something that you probably have a lot 94 00:07:08,480 --> 00:07:09,560 Speaker 1: of muscle memory in. 95 00:07:09,880 --> 00:07:10,120 Speaker 2: Right. 96 00:07:10,200 --> 00:07:12,520 Speaker 1: It's like your a neat way of being is to 97 00:07:12,600 --> 00:07:17,640 Speaker 1: kind of surrender to the feeling of that intuition guiding 98 00:07:17,680 --> 00:07:22,240 Speaker 1: you towards something new, different, more when you are like 99 00:07:22,640 --> 00:07:27,800 Speaker 1: in a moment like this, how do you know it's 100 00:07:27,880 --> 00:07:32,640 Speaker 1: time to shift? How are you made aware that okay, 101 00:07:33,240 --> 00:07:37,000 Speaker 1: there we grow again, you know, like this, let's lean 102 00:07:37,040 --> 00:07:37,520 Speaker 1: into it. 103 00:07:37,720 --> 00:07:41,680 Speaker 2: Yeah, for me and almost I would probably say the 104 00:07:41,680 --> 00:07:47,080 Speaker 2: person watching this right now, most of us. When your 105 00:07:47,120 --> 00:07:50,200 Speaker 2: life feels the most wonky, when your life feels the 106 00:07:50,240 --> 00:07:54,080 Speaker 2: most vulnerable, and when it feels like everything is like 107 00:07:54,200 --> 00:07:58,560 Speaker 2: not working out, falling apart, that's exactly what's supposed to 108 00:07:58,600 --> 00:08:01,560 Speaker 2: be happening. Because you're expanding, and so that that shell 109 00:08:01,680 --> 00:08:04,560 Speaker 2: that you've been in, that container that has held you 110 00:08:04,960 --> 00:08:07,720 Speaker 2: purposely has to expand out. It has to dissolve, it 111 00:08:07,720 --> 00:08:10,480 Speaker 2: has to burst open. And so just going through the 112 00:08:10,480 --> 00:08:14,240 Speaker 2: gravity of that, that's when I know every time and 113 00:08:14,280 --> 00:08:17,480 Speaker 2: I'm like, oh, okay, or if it hasn't happened a while, 114 00:08:17,680 --> 00:08:20,000 Speaker 2: I can almost track it and clock it. Now, I'm like, oh, 115 00:08:20,120 --> 00:08:23,880 Speaker 2: clock like clockwork. It's about time and another feeling. If 116 00:08:23,960 --> 00:08:26,880 Speaker 2: you don't have that, it's like you have this immense 117 00:08:26,920 --> 00:08:30,880 Speaker 2: amount of what can appear to be boredom where everything 118 00:08:31,000 --> 00:08:34,439 Speaker 2: just seems to be like crickets, you know, just it's 119 00:08:34,840 --> 00:08:38,640 Speaker 2: really like, Okay, I'm here, I'm existing. What's happening is 120 00:08:38,679 --> 00:08:42,040 Speaker 2: that restlessness that kind of starts to creep in? It does, 121 00:08:42,240 --> 00:08:45,240 Speaker 2: and I'm like, oh, you know. And so that those 122 00:08:45,280 --> 00:08:48,880 Speaker 2: two ways are how I know, yeah, yeah, and what 123 00:08:48,920 --> 00:08:53,120 Speaker 2: does that process look like? And I want to get like, okay, 124 00:08:53,280 --> 00:08:56,520 Speaker 2: let me start here. I remember like years ago I 125 00:08:56,559 --> 00:08:59,200 Speaker 2: had gone probably ten years ago, I had gone to 126 00:09:00,000 --> 00:09:03,360 Speaker 2: this event and Maryann Williamson was speaking, and at the 127 00:09:03,440 --> 00:09:07,680 Speaker 2: time she said something that felt incredibly revolutionary to me. 128 00:09:07,840 --> 00:09:11,240 Speaker 2: She was talking about how she approached feelings of depression, 129 00:09:12,040 --> 00:09:16,800 Speaker 2: and she was saying that she recognized that it's just 130 00:09:16,960 --> 00:09:19,560 Speaker 2: kind of you know, the warning signal that's letting you 131 00:09:19,720 --> 00:09:22,720 Speaker 2: know that it's time to work on self, it's time 132 00:09:22,760 --> 00:09:25,240 Speaker 2: to hermit, it's time to process. It doesn't have to 133 00:09:26,240 --> 00:09:31,280 Speaker 2: always have some of the gravity to it that it's 134 00:09:31,320 --> 00:09:35,600 Speaker 2: presented with always. And I remember she said that she 135 00:09:35,640 --> 00:09:39,240 Speaker 2: would kind of like build herself a little cave almost 136 00:09:39,640 --> 00:09:42,240 Speaker 2: like when she felt those feelings creep in, she'd say, Okay, 137 00:09:42,320 --> 00:09:44,840 Speaker 2: let me stalk my fridge, let me get you know, 138 00:09:44,920 --> 00:09:48,720 Speaker 2: let me clean everything. Let me get the things you 139 00:09:48,720 --> 00:09:52,360 Speaker 2: know that bring me comfort nearby. And it just I 140 00:09:52,400 --> 00:09:57,280 Speaker 2: remember the time that I heard that. That was incredibly 141 00:09:57,400 --> 00:09:59,839 Speaker 2: powerful for me, and I began to approach every time 142 00:09:59,880 --> 00:10:02,240 Speaker 2: I have an experience like you're talking about like that, 143 00:10:02,400 --> 00:10:03,839 Speaker 2: and I say, all right, well, I'm a book, a 144 00:10:03,880 --> 00:10:06,040 Speaker 2: spa appointment, have that on calendar ready to go. 145 00:10:06,400 --> 00:10:07,760 Speaker 1: I'm going to have you know, I'm going to have 146 00:10:07,880 --> 00:10:10,000 Speaker 1: the tools that I need nearby. I'm going to have 147 00:10:10,559 --> 00:10:12,640 Speaker 1: you know, the oils, I'm going to have you know, 148 00:10:12,720 --> 00:10:16,000 Speaker 1: the tinctures, all the things that I know my nervous 149 00:10:16,000 --> 00:10:19,280 Speaker 1: system craves when it's under duress. And then I'm going 150 00:10:19,360 --> 00:10:22,160 Speaker 1: to find things to kind of pack in my creativity. 151 00:10:22,240 --> 00:10:24,880 Speaker 1: If I'm not really feeling inspired, let me leave some 152 00:10:25,000 --> 00:10:29,120 Speaker 1: paper around with some colored pencils some you know, I 153 00:10:29,240 --> 00:10:31,400 Speaker 1: like making collages. So let me like get a little 154 00:10:31,400 --> 00:10:36,040 Speaker 1: stack of mags and some scissors. So for your process, 155 00:10:36,120 --> 00:10:38,360 Speaker 1: what does that look like for you? And what are 156 00:10:38,400 --> 00:10:41,640 Speaker 1: some ways that those listening can say, Oh, that's what 157 00:10:41,640 --> 00:10:46,320 Speaker 1: that feeling is inside? Okay, how do I maximize this? Yeah? 158 00:10:46,440 --> 00:10:50,760 Speaker 2: I get very very present, and when I say present, 159 00:10:50,880 --> 00:10:53,400 Speaker 2: like all throughout the day, like I'm on, I'm and 160 00:10:53,440 --> 00:10:55,640 Speaker 2: what I'm going through it because I understand my body 161 00:10:55,679 --> 00:10:59,320 Speaker 2: is so sensitive and most of us are highly sensitive. 162 00:10:59,760 --> 00:11:01,760 Speaker 2: Some times we don't realize it because we're tuning it 163 00:11:01,880 --> 00:11:04,520 Speaker 2: out with other distractions in our life, which is another 164 00:11:04,600 --> 00:11:07,600 Speaker 2: important conversation you know, of like the things that are 165 00:11:08,800 --> 00:11:12,520 Speaker 2: taking away that sensitivity. That's so necessary, right, and so 166 00:11:13,320 --> 00:11:15,720 Speaker 2: it's okay to feel, and so I allow myself to 167 00:11:15,800 --> 00:11:18,240 Speaker 2: feel whatever is coming through, so I can know that 168 00:11:18,320 --> 00:11:20,520 Speaker 2: a shift is happening. And it's just like a navigator, 169 00:11:20,559 --> 00:11:23,640 Speaker 2: like being able to feel, you know, just the you know, 170 00:11:23,679 --> 00:11:26,280 Speaker 2: the waves you know, you know, look at them and 171 00:11:26,400 --> 00:11:29,040 Speaker 2: understand the weather that's coming in and being able to forecast. 172 00:11:29,280 --> 00:11:30,960 Speaker 2: I need to do this, do that, like you say, 173 00:11:31,240 --> 00:11:34,440 Speaker 2: So for me, I have to always turn to rest 174 00:11:34,960 --> 00:11:38,000 Speaker 2: and I have to turn to body work. Massage is 175 00:11:38,040 --> 00:11:43,760 Speaker 2: like yeah, like I just had the best chiatsu massage. 176 00:11:44,920 --> 00:11:48,280 Speaker 2: This person was like rolling my body in ways I 177 00:11:48,320 --> 00:11:50,080 Speaker 2: didn't even know it was possible, and it was like 178 00:11:50,160 --> 00:11:54,840 Speaker 2: completely different right exactly. And I was like, resurrect me 179 00:11:54,920 --> 00:11:58,880 Speaker 2: through this change I'm going through. And I because what 180 00:11:59,000 --> 00:12:02,080 Speaker 2: can happen. What can happen is that it can feel 181 00:12:02,080 --> 00:12:04,520 Speaker 2: like a midlife crisis or even a thing now called 182 00:12:04,600 --> 00:12:07,560 Speaker 2: quarter life crisis, and it could feel like that, but 183 00:12:07,600 --> 00:12:10,880 Speaker 2: then when you realize, oh, this is just another shifty 184 00:12:11,160 --> 00:12:13,600 Speaker 2: you know, this is just another awakened or ascension, like 185 00:12:13,600 --> 00:12:16,600 Speaker 2: whatever your language is for, it's it's something and we 186 00:12:16,640 --> 00:12:20,920 Speaker 2: can't deny that these things happen, almost like milestones in 187 00:12:20,960 --> 00:12:24,080 Speaker 2: our lives. And so just allowing myself to say, I 188 00:12:24,120 --> 00:12:26,600 Speaker 2: know I'm headed for this milestone. What can I do 189 00:12:26,640 --> 00:12:31,480 Speaker 2: to prepare? And another thing is having my toolbag flower essences. 190 00:12:31,600 --> 00:12:34,480 Speaker 2: I keep them in my I joke a lot now 191 00:12:34,559 --> 00:12:38,680 Speaker 2: like inner within myself because my purse looks so different 192 00:12:38,720 --> 00:12:41,800 Speaker 2: now that it used to look like back in the day, 193 00:12:42,600 --> 00:12:45,960 Speaker 2: and like now and I'm you know, I will and 194 00:12:46,000 --> 00:12:47,520 Speaker 2: you know, like I've done this with you, Like we 195 00:12:47,559 --> 00:12:49,480 Speaker 2: could be out at a function or you know, out 196 00:12:49,480 --> 00:12:51,520 Speaker 2: of town or whatever, and I'm like, oh, I have this, 197 00:12:51,600 --> 00:12:53,920 Speaker 2: and I have that. Pull out medicines and herbs and 198 00:12:54,520 --> 00:12:58,600 Speaker 2: tinctures and it's just like it. It keeps me so grounded. 199 00:12:58,640 --> 00:13:01,960 Speaker 2: So plant medicine. I stick with that. I stay with that. 200 00:13:02,080 --> 00:13:06,080 Speaker 2: I listen to music that helps my brain waves be 201 00:13:06,160 --> 00:13:11,120 Speaker 2: in a supportive space and create firm, healthy boundaries of 202 00:13:12,400 --> 00:13:15,480 Speaker 2: not just energy from people, but things of like what 203 00:13:15,600 --> 00:13:19,040 Speaker 2: can come into my eargate iGATE during this very vulnerable time, 204 00:13:19,760 --> 00:13:22,640 Speaker 2: and knowing that it's a vulnerable time. And with that, 205 00:13:23,760 --> 00:13:26,480 Speaker 2: if I'm in a vulnerable time, I really have to 206 00:13:26,880 --> 00:13:30,079 Speaker 2: mother and be mindful of how I'm authoring my thoughts 207 00:13:30,440 --> 00:13:33,960 Speaker 2: and my words and my beliefs during this time. And 208 00:13:34,040 --> 00:13:36,080 Speaker 2: so I'm just so hands on. And so now I 209 00:13:36,080 --> 00:13:39,680 Speaker 2: talk about in the book that become the chemist of 210 00:13:39,720 --> 00:13:41,920 Speaker 2: your life, so that you can understand your life as 211 00:13:41,920 --> 00:13:46,439 Speaker 2: your laboratory. And certain things together make potions, and certain 212 00:13:46,480 --> 00:13:50,240 Speaker 2: compounds together are beautiful, but other compounds together are poisons 213 00:13:50,240 --> 00:13:54,600 Speaker 2: and toxins. So just really understanding that and all this 214 00:13:54,679 --> 00:13:56,840 Speaker 2: helps to inform how you take care of your vessel, 215 00:13:57,080 --> 00:14:01,959 Speaker 2: which is carrying the gifts and this next expansion. Yeah, 216 00:14:02,040 --> 00:14:05,839 Speaker 2: I love that so so much. One of my teachers 217 00:14:06,400 --> 00:14:10,320 Speaker 2: kind of described it as like run experiments on yourself. Yeah, 218 00:14:10,440 --> 00:14:13,080 Speaker 2: you know, like be willing to experiment with yourself, like 219 00:14:13,160 --> 00:14:15,440 Speaker 2: even in those thoughts and actions, like if I made 220 00:14:15,480 --> 00:14:19,200 Speaker 2: this decision differently, let's just see what could come, you know, 221 00:14:19,440 --> 00:14:22,680 Speaker 2: and then kind of we get to adapt from there. 222 00:14:23,640 --> 00:14:27,280 Speaker 2: Adapt That word is like, that's the word. That's the 223 00:14:27,320 --> 00:14:29,480 Speaker 2: word adapt because it's gonna it's going to cause you 224 00:14:29,520 --> 00:14:30,560 Speaker 2: to adapt so much. 225 00:14:31,680 --> 00:14:34,720 Speaker 1: Something that that you were talking about, And this is 226 00:14:34,760 --> 00:14:38,400 Speaker 1: something we really live by and talk about all the time. 227 00:14:38,440 --> 00:14:40,400 Speaker 1: But I haven't talked about it too much on the 228 00:14:40,440 --> 00:14:46,400 Speaker 1: show yet. You know, there's a lot of phrases that 229 00:14:46,440 --> 00:14:50,200 Speaker 1: are getting thrown around a lot right now. A lot 230 00:14:50,240 --> 00:14:52,080 Speaker 1: of a lot of people are like I'm an impath, 231 00:14:52,120 --> 00:14:53,160 Speaker 1: I'm highly sensitive. 232 00:14:53,720 --> 00:14:56,080 Speaker 2: A lot are. But it's also there are. 233 00:14:56,120 --> 00:15:02,280 Speaker 1: Terms that I think are not always fully translated. And 234 00:15:02,680 --> 00:15:04,720 Speaker 1: I would love to talk about that with you for 235 00:15:04,760 --> 00:15:08,040 Speaker 1: a minute, because you and I are both empathic, and 236 00:15:08,080 --> 00:15:12,680 Speaker 1: we are both like very highly sensitive, like very high 237 00:15:12,840 --> 00:15:17,400 Speaker 1: Like we can't be in toxic rooms because we'll absorb 238 00:15:17,760 --> 00:15:21,520 Speaker 1: the energy that's present, so you know one thing about 239 00:15:21,520 --> 00:15:23,560 Speaker 1: you and I will pop up and we'll be in 240 00:15:23,560 --> 00:15:28,040 Speaker 1: the mix, and then you won't hear from us for months. Yes, yes, 241 00:15:29,280 --> 00:15:32,160 Speaker 1: but you know that piece. That's something. When I first 242 00:15:32,240 --> 00:15:35,640 Speaker 1: learned of that phrase early in my journey, I really 243 00:15:35,680 --> 00:15:39,480 Speaker 1: rejected that label highly sensitive because I didn't fully understand 244 00:15:39,520 --> 00:15:41,960 Speaker 1: what it meant, and as someone that had lived a 245 00:15:42,000 --> 00:15:45,200 Speaker 1: life that I felt like, I don't look like the 246 00:15:45,200 --> 00:15:48,520 Speaker 1: things that I've been through, so sometimes people assume things 247 00:15:48,560 --> 00:15:52,720 Speaker 1: are easier than they've actually been. I really rejected that 248 00:15:52,760 --> 00:15:55,440 Speaker 1: because I would say, I'm not sensitive. You don't know 249 00:15:55,520 --> 00:15:55,960 Speaker 1: my life. 250 00:15:55,960 --> 00:15:57,160 Speaker 2: Do you know what I've walked through? 251 00:15:57,240 --> 00:15:59,640 Speaker 1: I'm not sensitive, And I didn't really understand that it 252 00:15:59,720 --> 00:16:03,600 Speaker 1: meant like deep sensitivity of your physical body, like at 253 00:16:03,640 --> 00:16:06,920 Speaker 1: a cellular level, the way that your body responds to stress, 254 00:16:07,000 --> 00:16:10,880 Speaker 1: the way that your body responds to toxicity. But that 255 00:16:11,080 --> 00:16:14,000 Speaker 1: alone is such a profound healing journey. When you can 256 00:16:14,120 --> 00:16:18,320 Speaker 1: understand that you know some things that may be happening 257 00:16:18,360 --> 00:16:24,160 Speaker 1: to you physically, spiritually, mentally, emotionally, there's a whole other 258 00:16:24,320 --> 00:16:30,280 Speaker 1: category of experience you're having that could be massively different 259 00:16:30,640 --> 00:16:33,960 Speaker 1: from other people. Yes, can we speak to that can 260 00:16:34,000 --> 00:16:37,040 Speaker 1: you speak on what that journey is for you, kind 261 00:16:37,120 --> 00:16:42,560 Speaker 1: of being someone that's highly sensitive, someone that is incredibly intuitive, 262 00:16:42,760 --> 00:16:45,000 Speaker 1: and how you adapt your needs around that. 263 00:16:45,480 --> 00:16:49,400 Speaker 2: Oh, absolutely was. It was helpful for me as well 264 00:16:49,920 --> 00:16:53,760 Speaker 2: because I had language for what I was experiencing, and 265 00:16:54,120 --> 00:16:56,720 Speaker 2: like the adage goes, name it to tame it, and 266 00:16:56,840 --> 00:16:59,440 Speaker 2: so it helps to know, Okay, well, I have a 267 00:16:59,440 --> 00:17:04,119 Speaker 2: sensitivity to stimuli, into energy, into people's fields, and even 268 00:17:04,160 --> 00:17:07,119 Speaker 2: to people's thoughts, like I can. I can literally be 269 00:17:07,160 --> 00:17:09,359 Speaker 2: in a room and feel someone's thoughts. But when I 270 00:17:09,440 --> 00:17:11,480 Speaker 2: was younger, I didn't know what to do with that, 271 00:17:11,760 --> 00:17:13,760 Speaker 2: like what are you growing up in the eighties and 272 00:17:14,000 --> 00:17:18,800 Speaker 2: in night, Like yeah, there was just no context language, 273 00:17:18,920 --> 00:17:22,240 Speaker 2: no language, no community, no support for any of this. 274 00:17:22,359 --> 00:17:25,000 Speaker 2: So it kind of swept that swept under the rug. 275 00:17:25,080 --> 00:17:29,760 Speaker 2: So we're our generation is the ones who were awakening 276 00:17:29,800 --> 00:17:33,200 Speaker 2: to it in a way of like oh we're we're 277 00:17:33,240 --> 00:17:37,080 Speaker 2: We brought the support online. So now this next generation 278 00:17:37,160 --> 00:17:40,520 Speaker 2: and the generations to come, we'll have language forward and 279 00:17:40,520 --> 00:17:43,720 Speaker 2: community and support and a path already paved to say 280 00:17:43,760 --> 00:17:45,919 Speaker 2: it's okay to land here and to be like this. 281 00:17:46,520 --> 00:17:50,720 Speaker 2: But I, for the life of me, I felt so 282 00:17:51,000 --> 00:17:53,840 Speaker 2: awkward For a huge majority of my life. It was 283 00:17:53,840 --> 00:17:57,080 Speaker 2: a lot of masking. It was a lot of fitting 284 00:17:57,200 --> 00:17:59,840 Speaker 2: in because oh, no one else is feeling this, all right, 285 00:18:00,119 --> 00:18:01,959 Speaker 2: you know, I'm just keeping it to myself. But at 286 00:18:01,960 --> 00:18:05,000 Speaker 2: the same time, I'm reading the room. I know we 287 00:18:05,040 --> 00:18:08,280 Speaker 2: shouldn't be here. I know I shouldn't be here for sure, 288 00:18:09,160 --> 00:18:11,840 Speaker 2: but going along with it. So there's a lot of 289 00:18:12,920 --> 00:18:15,439 Speaker 2: killing I had to do through even that type of 290 00:18:15,440 --> 00:18:18,840 Speaker 2: thing of not being true to who I was because 291 00:18:18,840 --> 00:18:21,320 Speaker 2: no one else could understand it. So I just kind 292 00:18:21,320 --> 00:18:24,280 Speaker 2: of just buried it, right and so now, but living 293 00:18:24,320 --> 00:18:28,399 Speaker 2: in that authenticity, authenticity and in my power with it 294 00:18:28,920 --> 00:18:33,280 Speaker 2: changed the game. Like, I'm so happy that I claimed 295 00:18:33,600 --> 00:18:35,959 Speaker 2: who I am and I'm proud of it. I'm happy, 296 00:18:36,440 --> 00:18:41,840 Speaker 2: you know, I'm full of gratitude for being able to 297 00:18:42,800 --> 00:18:45,760 Speaker 2: name like what I'm going through, and you know, even 298 00:18:45,800 --> 00:18:48,320 Speaker 2: even on a deeper level of like recently finding out 299 00:18:48,320 --> 00:18:50,800 Speaker 2: other things about myself of like, Okay, you're on the 300 00:18:50,840 --> 00:18:54,159 Speaker 2: spectrum and it's okay, it's okay to be you know, 301 00:18:54,440 --> 00:18:58,119 Speaker 2: high functioning and on the spectrum. And I never understood 302 00:18:58,160 --> 00:19:05,240 Speaker 2: that before you I love you, Yeah, And so for 303 00:19:05,440 --> 00:19:08,480 Speaker 2: me understanding, well, this is why you had that gift, 304 00:19:08,640 --> 00:19:10,800 Speaker 2: This is why you had these feelings, this is why 305 00:19:10,840 --> 00:19:13,639 Speaker 2: you could perceive things. This is why people didn't always 306 00:19:13,760 --> 00:19:17,600 Speaker 2: understand you, and this is why you were misled or mislabeled. 307 00:19:18,040 --> 00:19:21,320 Speaker 2: And you know, thinking back far as like kindergarten, you know, 308 00:19:21,440 --> 00:19:23,439 Speaker 2: being put back in kindergarten because they didn't know what 309 00:19:23,480 --> 00:19:25,840 Speaker 2: was wrong with me. But now that I understand that 310 00:19:26,160 --> 00:19:29,119 Speaker 2: it wasn't anything wrong. It was just different, right, and 311 00:19:29,200 --> 00:19:32,679 Speaker 2: it was just something different. And so being able to 312 00:19:32,720 --> 00:19:34,640 Speaker 2: share that even in this space, this is my first time, 313 00:19:34,680 --> 00:19:40,760 Speaker 2: as you know, sharing this publicly. But I'm at home here, 314 00:19:41,200 --> 00:19:43,639 Speaker 2: you know, I'm at home here. My mother left the 315 00:19:43,680 --> 00:19:46,359 Speaker 2: planet not knowing because I did have a later in life, 316 00:19:46,359 --> 00:19:51,879 Speaker 2: as obviously, diagnosis of you know, of being on the spectrum. 317 00:19:51,920 --> 00:19:54,679 Speaker 2: So it's different for me. And then you know, the 318 00:19:54,720 --> 00:19:59,080 Speaker 2: way I see energy. I have a niece who also, 319 00:19:59,560 --> 00:20:02,760 Speaker 2: you know, is on the autism spectrum, and she is 320 00:20:02,800 --> 00:20:06,119 Speaker 2: such a joy to our family, and for so long 321 00:20:06,280 --> 00:20:09,359 Speaker 2: I connected with her, you know, I connected with my 322 00:20:09,440 --> 00:20:11,760 Speaker 2: niece on such a deep level. Now I was always like, 323 00:20:11,800 --> 00:20:14,000 Speaker 2: this is my baby, this is my baby. But now 324 00:20:14,040 --> 00:20:17,640 Speaker 2: I understand. Now I understand why a truly felt like that. 325 00:20:18,000 --> 00:20:22,000 Speaker 2: So it gave me this new for one, a new identity, 326 00:20:22,600 --> 00:20:25,520 Speaker 2: and I'm like, wow, cool is that? Like? I embrace it. 327 00:20:25,560 --> 00:20:27,119 Speaker 2: You know, there was grief a little bit when I 328 00:20:27,119 --> 00:20:29,560 Speaker 2: first found out to you know, because I was like, 329 00:20:29,840 --> 00:20:32,680 Speaker 2: I went through denial of like there is absolutely no way, 330 00:20:33,119 --> 00:20:35,440 Speaker 2: and then I had to understand what highly functioning meant. 331 00:20:36,880 --> 00:20:41,200 Speaker 2: But also being careful of that word because anyone who's 332 00:20:41,240 --> 00:20:45,800 Speaker 2: highly sensitive or who is on the spectrum or who 333 00:20:45,880 --> 00:20:49,480 Speaker 2: is empathic people, because you can function sometimes at a 334 00:20:49,560 --> 00:20:53,520 Speaker 2: high capacity, you're not given the grace to also have 335 00:20:53,640 --> 00:20:55,919 Speaker 2: your sensitivities. And I think, you know, that's why a 336 00:20:55,920 --> 00:20:58,840 Speaker 2: lot of people now want to remove the term highly 337 00:20:58,840 --> 00:21:03,639 Speaker 2: functioning it comes to autism, because it sometimes gives people 338 00:21:03,680 --> 00:21:06,920 Speaker 2: a false sense of you know, capacity, when sometimes it's 339 00:21:06,920 --> 00:21:12,080 Speaker 2: not there. So so yeah, so just energy, being empathic, 340 00:21:12,720 --> 00:21:16,280 Speaker 2: highly sensitives. I think that once you can realize whoever 341 00:21:16,400 --> 00:21:20,439 Speaker 2: you are and however you identify, that it's okay and 342 00:21:20,520 --> 00:21:23,000 Speaker 2: to just journey and grace and understand that this is 343 00:21:23,040 --> 00:21:26,760 Speaker 2: how your unique spirit chose to be in this type 344 00:21:26,800 --> 00:21:29,960 Speaker 2: of body this lifetime, and that body is necessary, that 345 00:21:30,040 --> 00:21:34,720 Speaker 2: sensitivity is necessary, and learning how to master it one 346 00:21:34,720 --> 00:21:37,160 Speaker 2: thing for me when I was younger, I was very 347 00:21:37,200 --> 00:21:40,199 Speaker 2: highly reactive. My feelings would get hurt so easy. I 348 00:21:40,200 --> 00:21:43,080 Speaker 2: would get triggered so easy, I would pop off so easy. 349 00:21:43,280 --> 00:21:44,720 Speaker 2: I would just be like, Okay, this is what we're 350 00:21:44,720 --> 00:21:47,120 Speaker 2: doing so easy, you know, match the energy so easy. 351 00:21:47,280 --> 00:21:51,120 Speaker 2: And that was as you know, for my types, that's 352 00:21:51,160 --> 00:21:53,920 Speaker 2: the absolute worst you could do is to match energy. 353 00:21:53,960 --> 00:21:56,840 Speaker 2: Take even more on. So, you know, being able now 354 00:21:56,880 --> 00:22:01,640 Speaker 2: to stay in the practice of mindfulness, vibration and meditation, 355 00:22:02,480 --> 00:22:05,359 Speaker 2: all these things just really helped speak you know, to 356 00:22:05,800 --> 00:22:08,239 Speaker 2: who and what that was, and you know, just the 357 00:22:08,280 --> 00:22:09,520 Speaker 2: times that we're. 358 00:22:09,359 --> 00:22:30,639 Speaker 1: In deeply well, I just really want to express, like 359 00:22:30,760 --> 00:22:37,240 Speaker 1: how much, just how much I honor the gift that 360 00:22:37,280 --> 00:22:41,320 Speaker 1: you are giving so many by choosing to share your 361 00:22:41,400 --> 00:22:47,000 Speaker 1: experience right now, because this is a piece of things 362 00:22:47,040 --> 00:22:51,680 Speaker 1: that are kind of I feel that, you know, these 363 00:22:51,720 --> 00:22:56,920 Speaker 1: conversations around mental health and spiritual development have been really intensifying, 364 00:22:57,040 --> 00:23:00,399 Speaker 1: especially since twenty twenty, but really in the life last 365 00:23:00,920 --> 00:23:05,479 Speaker 1: couple of decades. For the ability for children to have 366 00:23:05,600 --> 00:23:10,200 Speaker 1: diagnosises that are supportive to them being able to live 367 00:23:10,240 --> 00:23:15,919 Speaker 1: a life that allows them to maximize their possibilities, and 368 00:23:16,880 --> 00:23:20,320 Speaker 1: something that is happening right now is that there is 369 00:23:20,840 --> 00:23:26,440 Speaker 1: a huge wave of Generation X and Generation and millennials 370 00:23:26,440 --> 00:23:31,640 Speaker 1: that are getting very late diagnosises, and there are men 371 00:23:31,720 --> 00:23:34,600 Speaker 1: and women across the country that are awakening to finding 372 00:23:34,600 --> 00:23:38,920 Speaker 1: out that they have neurodivergence in a variety of ways, 373 00:23:39,840 --> 00:23:43,120 Speaker 1: with many being you know what is at least right now, 374 00:23:43,119 --> 00:23:45,760 Speaker 1: I think this is still the correct terminology. It's changing 375 00:23:45,840 --> 00:23:50,600 Speaker 1: pretty rapidly, but being on the spectrum of autism and 376 00:23:50,680 --> 00:23:53,760 Speaker 1: a lot of people are not getting that diagnosis, especially 377 00:23:53,920 --> 00:23:59,879 Speaker 1: women and girls until now like thirties, forties, fifties, sixties, 378 00:24:00,440 --> 00:24:08,600 Speaker 1: and it is it's so powerful to just have an 379 00:24:08,720 --> 00:24:12,879 Speaker 1: understanding of who you are and who you've been, and 380 00:24:12,960 --> 00:24:15,359 Speaker 1: to understand that so many of the things that you 381 00:24:15,480 --> 00:24:18,439 Speaker 1: may have been fighting with yourself over in Wye or 382 00:24:18,960 --> 00:24:21,600 Speaker 1: you know, reactions that you're having internally that other people 383 00:24:21,600 --> 00:24:24,440 Speaker 1: aren't seeing, ways that you're trying to understand the world 384 00:24:24,520 --> 00:24:28,640 Speaker 1: around you that other people are completely unaware of. Yeah, 385 00:24:29,320 --> 00:24:33,280 Speaker 1: and to just know that you're perfectly designed and this 386 00:24:33,400 --> 00:24:35,600 Speaker 1: whole time you just weren't giving the phrasing and you 387 00:24:35,600 --> 00:24:38,840 Speaker 1: weren't giving the support to be able to be your 388 00:24:38,880 --> 00:24:40,520 Speaker 1: full whole self, and so. 389 00:24:43,680 --> 00:24:50,000 Speaker 2: I'm just so yeah, thank you, we are just yeah, 390 00:24:50,400 --> 00:24:55,720 Speaker 2: it's your being your full whole self. Like that's if 391 00:24:55,760 --> 00:24:58,600 Speaker 2: there was anything I could look back on, if anything, 392 00:24:58,640 --> 00:25:01,080 Speaker 2: out of all the things I can regret of my past, 393 00:25:01,560 --> 00:25:06,720 Speaker 2: that's the only one because everything else I understand was purpose, 394 00:25:07,040 --> 00:25:11,160 Speaker 2: you know, it was prerequisite lessons, it was, it was 395 00:25:11,520 --> 00:25:15,560 Speaker 2: boot camp. But not being able to be my full self, 396 00:25:15,600 --> 00:25:21,119 Speaker 2: that's the one where I understand that that had the 397 00:25:21,160 --> 00:25:26,400 Speaker 2: most impact for me, honestly, even over the trauma over 398 00:25:26,480 --> 00:25:31,399 Speaker 2: domestic like like really over domestic violence, you know, over 399 00:25:31,840 --> 00:25:35,520 Speaker 2: being lost in these streets, really like being turned out 400 00:25:35,560 --> 00:25:39,240 Speaker 2: like in so many different ways, you know, through predator relationships. 401 00:25:39,800 --> 00:25:41,399 Speaker 2: But it was not being able to be in my 402 00:25:41,440 --> 00:25:45,240 Speaker 2: full self. And I know, had I had the language 403 00:25:45,240 --> 00:25:47,760 Speaker 2: and the knowledge, there's no way I would have been 404 00:25:47,920 --> 00:25:49,720 Speaker 2: you know, made a lot of the decisions that I 405 00:25:49,840 --> 00:25:52,160 Speaker 2: made or put up with a lot that I put 406 00:25:52,240 --> 00:25:57,160 Speaker 2: up with and not having like any type of guidance like, oh, 407 00:25:57,240 --> 00:25:59,199 Speaker 2: there you go, you're out there, figure it out, you know, 408 00:26:00,000 --> 00:26:03,840 Speaker 2: but we figured out. Like, thank goodness, I figured it out. 409 00:26:04,000 --> 00:26:06,840 Speaker 2: And I give thanks for that survival mechanism that my 410 00:26:06,880 --> 00:26:09,800 Speaker 2: soul came here with to just be thrown into the deep, 411 00:26:10,400 --> 00:26:14,080 Speaker 2: you know, into the deep and teaching myself how to 412 00:26:14,119 --> 00:26:14,600 Speaker 2: swim in it. 413 00:26:14,680 --> 00:26:20,800 Speaker 1: M yeah, mmm, how does that feel in this moment? 414 00:26:22,800 --> 00:26:27,240 Speaker 1: What is changing and shifting for you with just the 415 00:26:27,320 --> 00:26:31,000 Speaker 1: deep and understanding of how your body and brain works. 416 00:26:31,640 --> 00:26:34,959 Speaker 2: Yeah, A lot of it is this this new like 417 00:26:35,000 --> 00:26:39,680 Speaker 2: I was saying when we began our conversation, this embodiment 418 00:26:39,840 --> 00:26:45,639 Speaker 2: of mind dwelling Hiller has just completely like, Okay, now 419 00:26:45,720 --> 00:26:52,120 Speaker 2: you're ready, right, and mothering myself now you're ready. Now 420 00:26:52,119 --> 00:26:55,239 Speaker 2: you're ready to receive my love and my care. And 421 00:26:55,359 --> 00:26:59,400 Speaker 2: so I have been loving myself and nurturing myself because 422 00:26:59,400 --> 00:27:04,160 Speaker 2: my mother's not here, you know, she again she left 423 00:27:04,200 --> 00:27:08,280 Speaker 2: this realm before she knew and I know she would 424 00:27:08,320 --> 00:27:11,919 Speaker 2: be here holding space for me completely. And so my 425 00:27:11,960 --> 00:27:14,879 Speaker 2: grandmother Layla as well, my grandmother Diglia as well. And 426 00:27:14,960 --> 00:27:17,440 Speaker 2: so I think that for me, the number one thing 427 00:27:17,480 --> 00:27:20,040 Speaker 2: that I was clear I had to do was to 428 00:27:20,160 --> 00:27:22,800 Speaker 2: nurture and love myself and mother myself through it. So 429 00:27:22,840 --> 00:27:29,159 Speaker 2: it's feeling very nurturing, and it's feeling very I'm learning 430 00:27:29,200 --> 00:27:35,119 Speaker 2: myself through it. You know, there's probably still because it's fresh, 431 00:27:35,359 --> 00:27:39,560 Speaker 2: you know, the awareness of it it's days where I'm like, oh, okay, 432 00:27:39,600 --> 00:27:41,320 Speaker 2: this is why I'm seeing this like this, or this 433 00:27:41,400 --> 00:27:43,520 Speaker 2: is this is what's happening, or this is why I 434 00:27:43,560 --> 00:27:49,159 Speaker 2: need to do this, and I give thanks for And 435 00:27:49,200 --> 00:27:51,040 Speaker 2: I know you said this to me in a conversation 436 00:27:51,240 --> 00:27:54,359 Speaker 2: about being at a certain level to receive it. Now 437 00:27:55,240 --> 00:27:58,040 Speaker 2: you know that I had done enough work to where 438 00:27:58,320 --> 00:28:00,800 Speaker 2: this is the embodiment that I expect parents through that, 439 00:28:01,240 --> 00:28:03,200 Speaker 2: and I'm grateful that I did that. Like I laid 440 00:28:03,200 --> 00:28:08,000 Speaker 2: so much groundwork in healing and loving myself and knowing 441 00:28:08,000 --> 00:28:10,600 Speaker 2: how to journey and grace and so the things that 442 00:28:10,640 --> 00:28:12,800 Speaker 2: I wrote in this book, the things that I write, like, 443 00:28:13,000 --> 00:28:16,040 Speaker 2: I really write from such a real place that it 444 00:28:16,240 --> 00:28:19,159 Speaker 2: just it's they're like medicine words and they are words 445 00:28:19,160 --> 00:28:21,040 Speaker 2: of They're not just words like oh I just have 446 00:28:21,080 --> 00:28:24,159 Speaker 2: to write something to post online. No, this is like 447 00:28:24,520 --> 00:28:28,800 Speaker 2: channeled intuitive words that are helping me, but also that 448 00:28:28,920 --> 00:28:31,040 Speaker 2: I know that are helping other people as well. And 449 00:28:31,080 --> 00:28:34,640 Speaker 2: so it's feeling very supported and I'm just so grateful 450 00:28:34,680 --> 00:28:37,720 Speaker 2: because what I first found out, it was like WHOA 451 00:28:38,040 --> 00:28:42,600 Speaker 2: like that that divine sacred whirlwind, that tornado, you know, 452 00:28:42,720 --> 00:28:45,520 Speaker 2: like Dorothy and the Wiz like, Okay, where am I? 453 00:28:45,800 --> 00:28:45,920 Speaker 1: Like? 454 00:28:45,960 --> 00:28:50,239 Speaker 2: What is this? So? Yeah, just finding this so in 455 00:28:50,240 --> 00:28:53,880 Speaker 2: that movie The Wiz is just my ultimate favorite spiritual 456 00:28:53,880 --> 00:28:57,760 Speaker 2: teaching movie. But yeah, just coming back home to myself. Yeah, 457 00:28:57,800 --> 00:29:00,160 Speaker 2: and knowing that I was always home, but how and 458 00:29:00,200 --> 00:29:01,840 Speaker 2: the awareness that I'm home is different. 459 00:29:01,840 --> 00:29:05,840 Speaker 1: Now. What I'm hearing out what you're saying is like, 460 00:29:07,680 --> 00:29:08,800 Speaker 1: oh does it. 461 00:29:11,840 --> 00:29:17,880 Speaker 2: Nose break? I'm sorry? Okay, this like. 462 00:29:18,000 --> 00:29:20,200 Speaker 1: Visual that I feel that I'm getting in everything that 463 00:29:20,240 --> 00:29:24,080 Speaker 1: you're just saying is like also like when you come 464 00:29:24,120 --> 00:29:31,720 Speaker 1: into new information about yourself and about your life, you know, 465 00:29:31,760 --> 00:29:34,280 Speaker 1: there is a grief that flows with that, right like 466 00:29:34,520 --> 00:29:39,080 Speaker 1: who would I have been if I had had the support? 467 00:29:39,160 --> 00:29:40,880 Speaker 1: Who would I have been if I had known there 468 00:29:40,960 --> 00:29:43,720 Speaker 1: was a different choice? Or you know, for all of us, 469 00:29:43,800 --> 00:29:47,760 Speaker 1: I think there is this grief that can come in 470 00:29:47,960 --> 00:29:54,680 Speaker 1: with some massive breakthroughs and shifts that come forward and on. 471 00:29:55,360 --> 00:29:57,840 Speaker 1: You know, if we're looking at this through Yen and Yong, 472 00:29:58,120 --> 00:30:01,720 Speaker 1: Light in the dark, dark in the light, continuously, continuously, 473 00:30:01,920 --> 00:30:08,560 Speaker 1: there's always this balancing that happens cosmically where there's also 474 00:30:08,600 --> 00:30:12,880 Speaker 1: this opportunity to really jump back into your path, into 475 00:30:12,920 --> 00:30:16,880 Speaker 1: your past and heal those ages like to sit in 476 00:30:17,080 --> 00:30:21,720 Speaker 1: thought and in meditation and prayer around pivotal moments in 477 00:30:21,760 --> 00:30:24,200 Speaker 1: your life where you didn't have the information you have 478 00:30:24,400 --> 00:30:30,480 Speaker 1: now and extend that grace then as you're walking through 479 00:30:31,640 --> 00:30:34,400 Speaker 1: this part of your journey now and this new expansion. 480 00:30:34,520 --> 00:30:47,240 Speaker 1: This just really define glorious uncovering. How has the healing 481 00:30:47,360 --> 00:30:50,959 Speaker 1: felt in that for you? And is there opportunities that 482 00:30:51,000 --> 00:30:54,760 Speaker 1: have been kind of presenting to like love that little Laila, 483 00:30:55,280 --> 00:30:57,680 Speaker 1: like go back and hold that little Laila, or just 484 00:30:57,880 --> 00:31:02,160 Speaker 1: experience even the creative gift that maybe weren't noticed or 485 00:31:02,200 --> 00:31:04,960 Speaker 1: weren't appreciate it that were part of the way that 486 00:31:05,000 --> 00:31:05,720 Speaker 1: you're designed. 487 00:31:06,000 --> 00:31:09,240 Speaker 2: Yeah, oh absolutely, I would say all of the above. 488 00:31:09,480 --> 00:31:15,840 Speaker 2: It's my son allows me to play and I it's 489 00:31:15,840 --> 00:31:20,400 Speaker 2: something very interesting about our relationship because he brings out 490 00:31:20,400 --> 00:31:23,200 Speaker 2: my inner child, and my inner child just has so 491 00:31:23,320 --> 00:31:29,479 Speaker 2: much fun with him. And what started as me playing 492 00:31:29,520 --> 00:31:32,440 Speaker 2: with him when he was a toddler in a way 493 00:31:32,480 --> 00:31:35,560 Speaker 2: of showing him how to play. You know, just one 494 00:31:35,600 --> 00:31:38,040 Speaker 2: day he was being really rough with his action figures, 495 00:31:38,240 --> 00:31:40,480 Speaker 2: like me to them, and I was like, oh, I 496 00:31:40,520 --> 00:31:42,600 Speaker 2: want to teach him in this moment, like how to 497 00:31:42,600 --> 00:31:44,960 Speaker 2: be on a team, like how to work together, you know, 498 00:31:45,120 --> 00:31:48,680 Speaker 2: like let's make what if your action heroes or he 499 00:31:48,720 --> 00:31:50,840 Speaker 2: tells me not have to call them toys, their figures 500 00:31:51,040 --> 00:31:54,880 Speaker 2: action figures, okay, And so so my politically correct as 501 00:31:54,920 --> 00:32:00,160 Speaker 2: a boy mama got to be correct. So his action figures, 502 00:32:00,240 --> 00:32:01,960 Speaker 2: like what if he learns how to work on a team, 503 00:32:02,520 --> 00:32:04,840 Speaker 2: And so that was such a pivotal Yeah, I mean 504 00:32:04,960 --> 00:32:07,560 Speaker 2: five minutes in, he was like a completely different having 505 00:32:07,600 --> 00:32:10,320 Speaker 2: a completely different supportive experience with himself, right, And so 506 00:32:11,040 --> 00:32:14,200 Speaker 2: in that moment while I was teaching him, I was like, oh, 507 00:32:14,200 --> 00:32:16,360 Speaker 2: but this is fun, Like I was on the floor 508 00:32:16,360 --> 00:32:18,880 Speaker 2: with him, and ever since that moment, I was so 509 00:32:19,120 --> 00:32:24,440 Speaker 2: mindful of he needs play and I was already aware 510 00:32:24,480 --> 00:32:28,680 Speaker 2: that little Layla, you know, is feeling some things about 511 00:32:28,760 --> 00:32:31,920 Speaker 2: what she experienced when she was younger and not having 512 00:32:31,960 --> 00:32:34,560 Speaker 2: full range to just be who she was. And so 513 00:32:34,720 --> 00:32:37,000 Speaker 2: in that moment that feeling, I was like, I want 514 00:32:37,000 --> 00:32:39,480 Speaker 2: to generate this more because he enjoyed it. I enjoyed it, 515 00:32:39,680 --> 00:32:43,040 Speaker 2: And so we continue just have playtime together. And even 516 00:32:43,040 --> 00:32:45,920 Speaker 2: till now he's fourteen now and we still do the 517 00:32:45,960 --> 00:32:48,360 Speaker 2: same thing. Like our relationship is just so unique in 518 00:32:48,400 --> 00:32:52,000 Speaker 2: a way of like we play I'm mama, you know, mama, 519 00:32:52,560 --> 00:32:55,840 Speaker 2: you know number one. But we we play and that 520 00:32:56,000 --> 00:32:58,720 Speaker 2: really allows me to just be free in who I am. 521 00:32:59,160 --> 00:33:03,360 Speaker 2: So that is is having playtime my daughter as well, 522 00:33:03,440 --> 00:33:06,880 Speaker 2: like we I get to really with her. My inner 523 00:33:06,920 --> 00:33:10,640 Speaker 2: teenager is there with her and my young adult self 524 00:33:11,160 --> 00:33:13,800 Speaker 2: and it's like I already got through mama phase and 525 00:33:13,880 --> 00:33:16,320 Speaker 2: she's she's twenty five now, so it's like I can 526 00:33:16,400 --> 00:33:22,000 Speaker 2: have India, so I can have I can have different 527 00:33:22,800 --> 00:33:27,560 Speaker 2: levels of expression with her and with her. I'm aware 528 00:33:27,720 --> 00:33:32,520 Speaker 2: that being able to be my younger self and mindful, 529 00:33:32,680 --> 00:33:34,960 Speaker 2: like you're your younger self, but you're your mindful younger 530 00:33:35,000 --> 00:33:38,360 Speaker 2: self is a good friend to her, you know, is 531 00:33:38,400 --> 00:33:41,200 Speaker 2: a sister to her. And I'm so aware that at 532 00:33:41,240 --> 00:33:44,040 Speaker 2: the same time, all these different things are going on 533 00:33:44,240 --> 00:33:47,280 Speaker 2: and it's so multi dimensional and so in that way, 534 00:33:47,320 --> 00:33:51,560 Speaker 2: I feel really fool And then as mama, they really 535 00:33:51,640 --> 00:33:55,400 Speaker 2: are such supportive children, like they really are, like she 536 00:33:55,400 --> 00:33:58,280 Speaker 2: she brings me tinctures. She you know, they give a 537 00:33:58,440 --> 00:34:02,320 Speaker 2: sade like whatever isah. And this was even before the diagnosis, 538 00:34:02,720 --> 00:34:06,560 Speaker 2: but it's it's like even now it's become like, oh, 539 00:34:06,840 --> 00:34:10,520 Speaker 2: things make sense, you know. So we're feeling really together 540 00:34:10,640 --> 00:34:14,480 Speaker 2: as a unit, really supportive as a unit. And I 541 00:34:14,520 --> 00:34:19,600 Speaker 2: give thanks. I give so much thanks for the children 542 00:34:19,920 --> 00:34:23,319 Speaker 2: that I incarnated onto this planet with like because they 543 00:34:23,400 --> 00:34:29,000 Speaker 2: are they are such spiritual giants, and I'm so grateful 544 00:34:29,000 --> 00:34:31,160 Speaker 2: that we recognize each other and we said, okay, this 545 00:34:31,360 --> 00:34:33,200 Speaker 2: is how we're going to do it this lifetime. But 546 00:34:33,280 --> 00:34:38,760 Speaker 2: I'm clear that your soul is mastery. Your soul is mastery. 547 00:34:38,840 --> 00:34:41,360 Speaker 2: So even that's how I parent, like, I'm not parent 548 00:34:41,440 --> 00:34:45,200 Speaker 2: like you're you're a subservient. You know you you are 549 00:34:45,239 --> 00:34:48,239 Speaker 2: a spiritual master and you incarnated as a child, my 550 00:34:48,360 --> 00:34:51,239 Speaker 2: child this time, so I honor you. And it's just 551 00:34:51,320 --> 00:34:56,040 Speaker 2: so beautiful to express that in family dynamics, and it's 552 00:34:56,120 --> 00:34:59,560 Speaker 2: allowing me because I'm in this dynamic, in this this 553 00:34:59,640 --> 00:35:02,920 Speaker 2: type of community at home, it feels so supportive. And 554 00:35:02,960 --> 00:35:04,719 Speaker 2: it didn't always feel like that, you know, when I 555 00:35:04,800 --> 00:35:07,200 Speaker 2: was younger, it was like who trying to figure it 556 00:35:07,239 --> 00:35:12,680 Speaker 2: out and of course having spiritual spiritual spiritual giants in 557 00:35:12,719 --> 00:35:16,920 Speaker 2: my life, but without that missing piece again, it was 558 00:35:17,000 --> 00:35:19,680 Speaker 2: just like, you know, they did the best they could, 559 00:35:19,760 --> 00:35:22,239 Speaker 2: and they did a really good job. I have to say, 560 00:35:22,239 --> 00:35:26,520 Speaker 2: they did a really good job. Even you know, people 561 00:35:26,640 --> 00:35:30,760 Speaker 2: in my family who I was at odds with for 562 00:35:30,800 --> 00:35:33,319 Speaker 2: some reason of them judging me like you know, when 563 00:35:33,360 --> 00:35:35,040 Speaker 2: I went on my healing journey, or when I was 564 00:35:35,080 --> 00:35:38,360 Speaker 2: awkward and different, like they did a really good job 565 00:35:38,560 --> 00:35:41,600 Speaker 2: and making me not feel okay with myself because that 566 00:35:41,760 --> 00:35:45,480 Speaker 2: really was also in the pot of like why I'm 567 00:35:45,480 --> 00:35:49,120 Speaker 2: going on self discovery. You know, I'm not okay agreeing 568 00:35:49,160 --> 00:35:52,000 Speaker 2: with you that I'm different and awkward right now. I 569 00:35:52,040 --> 00:35:54,160 Speaker 2: know why they saw something different in me, but none 570 00:35:54,200 --> 00:35:56,719 Speaker 2: of us had the language. So I have compassion. You know, 571 00:35:56,800 --> 00:35:59,120 Speaker 2: none of us understood why, and none of us understood 572 00:35:59,120 --> 00:36:01,759 Speaker 2: why I thought the way I So I have compassion 573 00:36:01,800 --> 00:36:04,400 Speaker 2: for them. And to this day, which so interesting, is 574 00:36:04,440 --> 00:36:07,440 Speaker 2: that they're calling me for advice. They've been calling me 575 00:36:07,480 --> 00:36:10,480 Speaker 2: for advice. They've come around. You know, it's completely loving. 576 00:36:10,520 --> 00:36:13,160 Speaker 2: It was always loving, but you know, but it's like 577 00:36:13,200 --> 00:36:17,279 Speaker 2: a deeper respect for who I am. And yeah that 578 00:36:17,480 --> 00:36:20,800 Speaker 2: was before the diagnosis, you see. So it's like, yeah, 579 00:36:20,840 --> 00:36:23,880 Speaker 2: your I just know that your gift carries you in 580 00:36:24,000 --> 00:36:26,600 Speaker 2: places where you may not feel me now. You may 581 00:36:26,680 --> 00:36:28,200 Speaker 2: not get it now, but it's going to make sense 582 00:36:28,239 --> 00:36:31,640 Speaker 2: one day, right, Just give me time to get on 583 00:36:31,680 --> 00:36:35,080 Speaker 2: my journey to heal, to get past some things, to 584 00:36:35,080 --> 00:36:36,920 Speaker 2: set my life up how it needs to be, and 585 00:36:36,960 --> 00:36:39,880 Speaker 2: you'll see exactly who I am. But in the meantime, 586 00:36:39,960 --> 00:36:42,360 Speaker 2: I don't have to prove anything to you, you know. 587 00:36:42,480 --> 00:36:46,400 Speaker 2: And that's where, yeah, Oh, that was the most powerful 588 00:36:46,440 --> 00:36:48,960 Speaker 2: thing that I could have done, is like let them go, 589 00:36:49,320 --> 00:36:53,160 Speaker 2: like release anyone who made me feel like I was awkward, 590 00:36:53,320 --> 00:36:56,839 Speaker 2: I was different, I was defiant, whatever it was, and 591 00:36:56,920 --> 00:36:59,239 Speaker 2: just to keep moving on my journey. And the more 592 00:36:59,280 --> 00:37:01,279 Speaker 2: I kept moving, it was like this handfull of me 593 00:37:01,800 --> 00:37:06,640 Speaker 2: where that hand was so much more beautiful and it 594 00:37:06,719 --> 00:37:08,880 Speaker 2: was just so healing and cathartic for me that I 595 00:37:09,000 --> 00:37:11,880 Speaker 2: kept going towards that and away from this other energy, 596 00:37:12,080 --> 00:37:15,880 Speaker 2: whether it was friends, family, whoever was relationships, And that's 597 00:37:16,239 --> 00:37:18,160 Speaker 2: like I just wanted more of that in my life. 598 00:37:18,320 --> 00:37:24,400 Speaker 2: And I'm still moving towards that, this divine guidance, Like 599 00:37:24,440 --> 00:37:26,360 Speaker 2: I'm still moving towards there, and so I feel like 600 00:37:26,400 --> 00:37:28,479 Speaker 2: that's really what's informing and guiding me. 601 00:37:50,000 --> 00:38:00,680 Speaker 1: Deeply. Wow, so many things to deepen in and what 602 00:38:00,719 --> 00:38:03,759 Speaker 1: you just shared, you know, there's a couple of thoughts 603 00:38:03,760 --> 00:38:05,839 Speaker 1: that were coming to me as you were talking. I 604 00:38:05,880 --> 00:38:09,640 Speaker 1: was reading recently, I just loved the way that they 605 00:38:09,760 --> 00:38:12,879 Speaker 1: phrased this, where they said, you know, even your even 606 00:38:12,880 --> 00:38:15,799 Speaker 1: the villains in your life, have a gift for you. You know, 607 00:38:15,960 --> 00:38:19,280 Speaker 1: both both your villains and your heroes in this story 608 00:38:19,280 --> 00:38:24,160 Speaker 1: that you're living have gifts, you know. And to what 609 00:38:24,200 --> 00:38:27,400 Speaker 1: you said, it's like that shift and awareness is so powerful, 610 00:38:27,440 --> 00:38:31,640 Speaker 1: and depending on what the experience is, it doesn't always 611 00:38:31,640 --> 00:38:36,000 Speaker 1: feel possible, and it could take many, many, many steps, 612 00:38:36,040 --> 00:38:41,359 Speaker 1: surrenders and practicings to get to that point. But when 613 00:38:41,360 --> 00:38:44,880 Speaker 1: we understand that, like everything is a catalyst to become 614 00:38:45,600 --> 00:38:49,560 Speaker 1: even what we can perceive as the worst things. And 615 00:38:49,640 --> 00:38:52,000 Speaker 1: that is not to minimize from some of the things 616 00:38:52,080 --> 00:38:56,200 Speaker 1: that can be experienced, because there is a darkness on 617 00:38:56,239 --> 00:39:00,120 Speaker 1: this planet, you know, everything. There are some experience and 618 00:39:00,120 --> 00:39:04,359 Speaker 1: says that that some have that it's like that that 619 00:39:04,400 --> 00:39:08,440 Speaker 1: can never be scrubbed clean. And I, my God, like. 620 00:39:10,160 --> 00:39:10,719 Speaker 2: I get that. 621 00:39:11,160 --> 00:39:17,600 Speaker 1: Yeah, And with a lot of work and surrenderings, sometimes 622 00:39:17,640 --> 00:39:22,000 Speaker 1: there are possibilities to relate to even the most devastating 623 00:39:22,040 --> 00:39:26,759 Speaker 1: circumstances in a way that alleviates suffering for us, you know. 624 00:39:27,160 --> 00:39:31,600 Speaker 1: And another thing I was thinking it, I remember I 625 00:39:31,640 --> 00:39:33,640 Speaker 1: was doing I had. 626 00:39:33,480 --> 00:39:34,399 Speaker 2: A really. 627 00:39:35,920 --> 00:39:40,880 Speaker 1: Really painful experience with someone in my life that was 628 00:39:40,920 --> 00:39:44,719 Speaker 1: in my life for a very long time. And you know, 629 00:39:44,840 --> 00:39:48,480 Speaker 1: part of I understood immediately that I was being asked 630 00:39:48,480 --> 00:39:52,960 Speaker 1: to be brought to a new depth of compassion, but 631 00:39:53,040 --> 00:39:55,319 Speaker 1: it was still kind of like the balancing of that 632 00:39:55,520 --> 00:39:58,960 Speaker 1: sacred rage mixed with For me, it was always I 633 00:39:59,000 --> 00:40:01,480 Speaker 1: went directly to can passion and I would always kind 634 00:40:01,520 --> 00:40:05,440 Speaker 1: of bypass the anger and things and so anyho. That 635 00:40:05,600 --> 00:40:09,920 Speaker 1: was part of a long process. But I remember I 636 00:40:09,960 --> 00:40:13,759 Speaker 1: was doing this Akashic records reading a long long time ago, 637 00:40:14,160 --> 00:40:18,799 Speaker 1: and we were talking about in the spiritual world and 638 00:40:18,920 --> 00:40:23,640 Speaker 1: on a karmic level, what that dynamic was between myself 639 00:40:23,680 --> 00:40:27,640 Speaker 1: and that person. And they were like, yeah, but you 640 00:40:27,760 --> 00:40:31,680 Speaker 1: both like really signed up for this and they were 641 00:40:31,800 --> 00:40:35,560 Speaker 1: meant to teach you through pain last for that, and 642 00:40:35,880 --> 00:40:39,160 Speaker 1: they had this visual of that actually meant it kind 643 00:40:39,160 --> 00:40:43,120 Speaker 1: of really helped me on my journey to forgiveness and acceptance. 644 00:40:43,160 --> 00:40:45,440 Speaker 1: And they said, when you get back to the spirit realm, 645 00:40:45,840 --> 00:40:48,200 Speaker 1: you're going to give each other high fives, like the 646 00:40:48,239 --> 00:40:50,560 Speaker 1: second you see that, once you both cross over, it's 647 00:40:50,600 --> 00:40:53,920 Speaker 1: going to be like what we did it. And now 648 00:40:53,960 --> 00:40:58,120 Speaker 1: that I'm so far removed from the pain points of 649 00:40:58,120 --> 00:41:01,719 Speaker 1: that experience for me and the trauma of that experience. 650 00:41:03,360 --> 00:41:08,399 Speaker 1: I am so grateful for that experience in a way 651 00:41:08,440 --> 00:41:12,240 Speaker 1: that I still haven't amassed the words to convey, because 652 00:41:12,320 --> 00:41:15,319 Speaker 1: I realized that for me and whatever I signed up 653 00:41:15,360 --> 00:41:19,520 Speaker 1: for in this life, I could only learn it that way. Yeah, 654 00:41:19,560 --> 00:41:21,520 Speaker 1: And when I chose to learn it, and when I 655 00:41:21,640 --> 00:41:24,399 Speaker 1: chose not to be kind of as Roomy would say, 656 00:41:24,440 --> 00:41:26,680 Speaker 1: you know, in that field where there's no right or wrong. 657 00:41:27,560 --> 00:41:29,560 Speaker 1: When I chose to not be in that field of 658 00:41:29,640 --> 00:41:33,319 Speaker 1: judgment of assessing myself as the good person and them 659 00:41:33,360 --> 00:41:36,160 Speaker 1: as the bad person in it, regardless of what the 660 00:41:36,200 --> 00:41:38,960 Speaker 1: optics were, it freed me. It freed me to the 661 00:41:38,960 --> 00:41:43,160 Speaker 1: depths of my soul and I can never forget that freedom. 662 00:41:44,360 --> 00:41:46,479 Speaker 1: And so I look at that and I say God 663 00:41:46,520 --> 00:41:49,759 Speaker 1: that I short of choose a rough way to learn it, but. 664 00:41:51,600 --> 00:41:53,760 Speaker 2: Wow, thank you God for that learning. 665 00:41:54,239 --> 00:41:59,560 Speaker 1: Ooh who I've become with that learning that part? 666 00:42:00,440 --> 00:42:05,920 Speaker 2: Yeah, yeah, yeah, because you're becoming something through it. And 667 00:42:05,960 --> 00:42:09,839 Speaker 2: it's like when you can and now having the mindfulness 668 00:42:09,840 --> 00:42:13,279 Speaker 2: and awareness and even the language for people maybe not 669 00:42:14,120 --> 00:42:17,160 Speaker 2: now maybe going through something and they feel like what 670 00:42:17,400 --> 00:42:19,799 Speaker 2: is going on? But if you can just hold onto 671 00:42:19,800 --> 00:42:23,600 Speaker 2: who you're becoming in it, that's the medicine and that's 672 00:42:23,640 --> 00:42:25,520 Speaker 2: what's going to change the game on how you come out. 673 00:42:26,000 --> 00:42:29,160 Speaker 2: And that was that right there. Like when we're reactive, 674 00:42:29,239 --> 00:42:30,680 Speaker 2: like how I used to be. I used to just 675 00:42:30,719 --> 00:42:34,880 Speaker 2: be like okay, you know, just and when you're reactive, 676 00:42:35,640 --> 00:42:41,560 Speaker 2: everything somebody does, every wind blow, every sound is like 677 00:42:41,600 --> 00:42:43,879 Speaker 2: you're moving a different direction. That is not a way 678 00:42:43,880 --> 00:42:47,080 Speaker 2: to live. It's so exhausting. And you don't deserve that, 679 00:42:47,160 --> 00:42:50,120 Speaker 2: Like we deserve better. We deserve to be mindful in 680 00:42:50,160 --> 00:42:52,920 Speaker 2: our situation and take our time through the chaos to 681 00:42:53,080 --> 00:42:56,040 Speaker 2: understand what's going on, to understand like who this person, 682 00:42:56,440 --> 00:42:59,440 Speaker 2: like to even give ourselves grace and time to understand. Okay, 683 00:43:00,080 --> 00:43:04,000 Speaker 2: are the adversary, but I chose this. This is a lesson. 684 00:43:05,000 --> 00:43:07,359 Speaker 2: I'm in such deep cover that I'm thinking you're really 685 00:43:07,360 --> 00:43:10,239 Speaker 2: the enemy, but you're really the teacher, right, this is 686 00:43:10,280 --> 00:43:13,560 Speaker 2: really a lesson and this not everyone is ready for 687 00:43:13,600 --> 00:43:18,239 Speaker 2: this conversation though, you know, And it's a deep conversation 688 00:43:18,480 --> 00:43:21,040 Speaker 2: of learning how to be human and how does the 689 00:43:21,120 --> 00:43:25,000 Speaker 2: soul come into this human body and leave with compassion 690 00:43:25,040 --> 00:43:29,239 Speaker 2: and love and life? Right and leave better, right, and 691 00:43:29,280 --> 00:43:33,520 Speaker 2: then leave their energy signature on the earth, light and 692 00:43:33,600 --> 00:43:37,960 Speaker 2: powerful and something that can be useful, purposeful. Right. But 693 00:43:38,800 --> 00:43:42,319 Speaker 2: when we're ready for that conversation, our lives expand into 694 00:43:42,320 --> 00:43:45,440 Speaker 2: a completely different place, and then we understand, oh, I 695 00:43:45,480 --> 00:43:48,400 Speaker 2: have more power over my life than I realized. No 696 00:43:48,440 --> 00:43:51,799 Speaker 2: matter how what cards are dealt, no matter what you know, 697 00:43:51,920 --> 00:43:54,680 Speaker 2: how it looks on the onset, whatever this three D 698 00:43:54,920 --> 00:43:59,359 Speaker 2: reality labels it as, or how it shows up, I 699 00:43:59,400 --> 00:44:03,080 Speaker 2: have power. And that's what's important about it, you know. 700 00:44:03,320 --> 00:44:05,640 Speaker 2: And that goes to what we were saying. You don't 701 00:44:05,680 --> 00:44:08,160 Speaker 2: once you get to there, you don't look like what 702 00:44:08,160 --> 00:44:10,640 Speaker 2: you've been through. Yeah, it's just like you start to 703 00:44:10,680 --> 00:44:14,279 Speaker 2: embody this radiance and this light and wisdom. It's just 704 00:44:14,400 --> 00:44:16,200 Speaker 2: it has a look. It has a look and a 705 00:44:16,280 --> 00:44:18,279 Speaker 2: vibe in a film, you know, because I look at 706 00:44:18,360 --> 00:44:23,160 Speaker 2: me post and then after whoof I mean it's funny 707 00:44:23,160 --> 00:44:26,680 Speaker 2: because like what I thought was like back then and beautiful, 708 00:44:27,239 --> 00:44:28,920 Speaker 2: I was like, oh, I can see it now, you know, 709 00:44:28,960 --> 00:44:30,520 Speaker 2: I can see her stress. You know, she was doing 710 00:44:30,520 --> 00:44:32,600 Speaker 2: the best she could. I give her grace. But it's 711 00:44:32,600 --> 00:44:34,680 Speaker 2: a look, you know, it's a it's a it's a 712 00:44:34,680 --> 00:44:35,120 Speaker 2: whole thing. 713 00:44:35,600 --> 00:44:36,160 Speaker 3: Yeah. 714 00:44:36,239 --> 00:44:39,960 Speaker 1: Yeah, she she showed up under duress, she showed up well, 715 00:44:40,239 --> 00:44:44,320 Speaker 1: but in comparison to what's possible. Yeah, you really really 716 00:44:44,360 --> 00:44:46,520 Speaker 1: really see that oof. 717 00:44:47,120 --> 00:44:51,000 Speaker 2: Yeah yeah, especially when you say I'm letting it go, 718 00:44:51,760 --> 00:44:55,600 Speaker 2: like I'm I'm no longer harboring like and holding that 719 00:44:55,680 --> 00:44:57,800 Speaker 2: animosity and the energy. 720 00:44:58,320 --> 00:45:01,640 Speaker 1: I don't know, I cannot die a thousand depths. Right, 721 00:45:01,760 --> 00:45:05,440 Speaker 1: It's like you prolonged the injury. And also you know, 722 00:45:07,520 --> 00:45:10,239 Speaker 1: like it was really coming forward, like the concept of 723 00:45:10,280 --> 00:45:15,600 Speaker 1: being a divine co creator because we create even sometimes 724 00:45:15,640 --> 00:45:19,080 Speaker 1: the harm. Right, It's like, what are we actively connecting 725 00:45:19,120 --> 00:45:23,319 Speaker 1: ourselves to? What are we actively choosing to be in 726 00:45:23,360 --> 00:45:28,080 Speaker 1: communion with? And I think that goes for literally everything, 727 00:45:28,320 --> 00:45:33,640 Speaker 1: you know. I it's like you have to be so 728 00:45:34,880 --> 00:45:39,320 Speaker 1: committed to fiercely editing like yourself, your life, your process 729 00:45:39,360 --> 00:45:42,560 Speaker 1: at all times and surrendering detaching and saying okay, I'm 730 00:45:42,560 --> 00:45:45,160 Speaker 1: going to let that go. I'm going to release that. Yeah, 731 00:45:45,280 --> 00:45:49,560 Speaker 1: even sometimes holding on to the friendships, the relationships, the job, 732 00:45:49,760 --> 00:45:51,960 Speaker 1: the this, the that. When you know there is a 733 00:45:52,000 --> 00:45:55,719 Speaker 1: call to stop, you know there is a call to 734 00:45:56,040 --> 00:46:00,919 Speaker 1: let something end, but you don't. At that point, you're 735 00:46:00,960 --> 00:46:05,799 Speaker 1: creating your reality. You're co creating the pain in your life. 736 00:46:05,840 --> 00:46:09,640 Speaker 1: You're co creating the distress in your life. Yeah, and 737 00:46:09,680 --> 00:46:12,359 Speaker 1: it just it's all such a ripple effect. It has 738 00:46:12,400 --> 00:46:14,960 Speaker 1: an effect on everything. It's not as simple as as 739 00:46:15,040 --> 00:46:18,520 Speaker 1: trying to be stoic or saying all endure, all endure, 740 00:46:18,680 --> 00:46:22,759 Speaker 1: it makes me righteous. It's like you're also killing your body. 741 00:46:23,080 --> 00:46:27,799 Speaker 1: You know, women and men, especially especially women of color. Yeah, 742 00:46:28,560 --> 00:46:33,600 Speaker 1: die a lot faster of a wide spectrum of diseases 743 00:46:34,000 --> 00:46:36,880 Speaker 1: that don't typically happen to other people. And if you 744 00:46:37,040 --> 00:46:42,719 Speaker 1: look into you know, the foundation of that person. A 745 00:46:42,760 --> 00:46:48,680 Speaker 1: lot of times, it's not not creating freedom when you're 746 00:46:48,680 --> 00:46:51,880 Speaker 1: called to for yourself. Yeah. 747 00:46:52,800 --> 00:46:59,040 Speaker 2: Yes, it's stress related, yeah, and toxic related and living 748 00:46:59,080 --> 00:47:02,120 Speaker 2: a life that is not authentic to yourself. I can 749 00:47:02,160 --> 00:47:05,480 Speaker 2: relate to that in a way of I had my 750 00:47:05,600 --> 00:47:09,880 Speaker 2: body and this is this is like this may take 751 00:47:09,960 --> 00:47:12,160 Speaker 2: us in a different direction. I'm not sure, but what 752 00:47:12,320 --> 00:47:15,600 Speaker 2: I do know is that when you do not live 753 00:47:15,760 --> 00:47:22,840 Speaker 2: a life authentic to you, your body becomes successible, susceptible, 754 00:47:23,760 --> 00:47:31,040 Speaker 2: susceptible to illness, to compromise. And it's so important to 755 00:47:31,160 --> 00:47:34,520 Speaker 2: be in this vessel, in your authentic signature right. So 756 00:47:34,560 --> 00:47:36,759 Speaker 2: it's not just like, oh, I'm authentic like it's it's 757 00:47:36,800 --> 00:47:39,520 Speaker 2: a catchphrase. No, I have to be who I am. 758 00:47:39,680 --> 00:47:43,120 Speaker 2: I have to live and breathe and eat and serve 759 00:47:43,239 --> 00:47:47,120 Speaker 2: who I am. If not, I'm jeopardizing my body. It's 760 00:47:47,120 --> 00:47:50,560 Speaker 2: compromising this vessel that I'm carrying the gift in and 761 00:47:50,600 --> 00:47:52,759 Speaker 2: that I'm gonna can do it right. 762 00:47:52,600 --> 00:47:58,279 Speaker 1: And I'm jeopardizing my purpose pose. I'm jeopardizing why I 763 00:47:58,440 --> 00:48:01,319 Speaker 1: chose to come here, that I was called to do. 764 00:48:01,560 --> 00:48:02,760 Speaker 2: That's it. 765 00:48:02,760 --> 00:48:07,480 Speaker 1: It affects literally everything that that ability to moment by 766 00:48:07,560 --> 00:48:11,840 Speaker 1: moment choose the higher choice, choose the higher awareness, and 767 00:48:11,880 --> 00:48:14,280 Speaker 1: all the sikes practice. I'm not trying to overly simplify. 768 00:48:14,800 --> 00:48:19,319 Speaker 1: It is a journey me all the way. It is 769 00:48:19,360 --> 00:48:22,000 Speaker 1: a journey. It is a journey, and no one is wrong. 770 00:48:22,440 --> 00:48:24,359 Speaker 1: And journey and grace tell me how to do all 771 00:48:24,400 --> 00:48:27,360 Speaker 1: of that right away, and journey and grace, Journey and 772 00:48:27,400 --> 00:48:28,479 Speaker 1: grace all the way there. 773 00:48:28,520 --> 00:48:30,799 Speaker 2: Because when you journey and grace and love yourself through it, 774 00:48:31,120 --> 00:48:34,160 Speaker 2: like those days where you feel off, in those days 775 00:48:34,160 --> 00:48:36,399 Speaker 2: you're like I missed the mark, Like yeah, they don't 776 00:48:36,400 --> 00:48:39,600 Speaker 2: take you out. It's like journey and grace. 777 00:48:39,760 --> 00:48:43,040 Speaker 1: And you repair in real time and real you know 778 00:48:43,080 --> 00:48:45,600 Speaker 1: you're not affording things. There's not shame. It can just 779 00:48:45,680 --> 00:48:47,960 Speaker 1: be like, yeah, I could have made a different choice 780 00:48:47,960 --> 00:48:51,359 Speaker 1: and I didn't, and I accept that, and now I'll 781 00:48:51,400 --> 00:48:52,719 Speaker 1: co create something. 782 00:48:52,400 --> 00:48:56,239 Speaker 2: Else, something else, right, And that's that. Just hearing you 783 00:48:56,280 --> 00:48:59,520 Speaker 2: say that feels so much lighter than taking a week 784 00:48:59,640 --> 00:49:02,960 Speaker 2: or two to like really be heavy and just burdened 785 00:49:03,000 --> 00:49:05,279 Speaker 2: with this energy or this knowing of like I missed 786 00:49:05,280 --> 00:49:07,560 Speaker 2: the mark or it didn't happen like I thought it 787 00:49:07,600 --> 00:49:10,480 Speaker 2: should happen. Like when you can just say, okay, let 788 00:49:10,480 --> 00:49:12,600 Speaker 2: me reconfigure, let me be the can miss in the 789 00:49:12,600 --> 00:49:16,120 Speaker 2: library laboratory, let me make some other things work, And 790 00:49:16,480 --> 00:49:19,440 Speaker 2: it's like knowing how to shuffle things around and adapt 791 00:49:19,480 --> 00:49:22,360 Speaker 2: that word you said earlier, like that that it literally 792 00:49:22,440 --> 00:49:25,839 Speaker 2: is like adapting is just like the that's the word 793 00:49:25,840 --> 00:49:27,880 Speaker 2: for earth. They gave us. They put that in you somewhere, 794 00:49:27,960 --> 00:49:32,319 Speaker 2: so that unlocks something different levels unlock when you remember, oh, 795 00:49:32,360 --> 00:49:35,399 Speaker 2: I have to adapt, like adapt and adjust, you know, yeah, yeah, 796 00:49:35,440 --> 00:49:37,600 Speaker 2: they use that in the military, adapt and adjust, because 797 00:49:37,600 --> 00:49:39,360 Speaker 2: it really is a form of survival. 798 00:49:39,840 --> 00:49:43,440 Speaker 1: I feel like that is a superpower both of us have, 799 00:49:43,719 --> 00:49:46,799 Speaker 1: Like we have high levels of adaptability. Yeah, Like and 800 00:49:46,840 --> 00:49:50,160 Speaker 1: I think, you know in something that we explore this 801 00:49:50,239 --> 00:49:53,000 Speaker 1: a lot in our friendship and in conversations, and I 802 00:49:53,040 --> 00:49:55,640 Speaker 1: think it's something I explore personally a lot as well. 803 00:49:55,680 --> 00:49:59,440 Speaker 1: But the ability to also be at peace with the 804 00:49:59,480 --> 00:50:04,960 Speaker 1: fact that there are very logical circumstances that arise that, 805 00:50:05,160 --> 00:50:10,720 Speaker 1: like life doesn't have to always be righteous, happy, good 806 00:50:11,200 --> 00:50:14,840 Speaker 1: to also be worthy. And that's something that I feel 807 00:50:14,880 --> 00:50:19,120 Speaker 1: really as I age, as I grow, especially you know, 808 00:50:19,160 --> 00:50:22,960 Speaker 1: as a mother that is always looking through the facets 809 00:50:23,000 --> 00:50:26,960 Speaker 1: of how do I translate this wisdom for my child 810 00:50:27,000 --> 00:50:30,360 Speaker 1: in a way that's supportive to who he's becoming. You know, 811 00:50:30,400 --> 00:50:32,960 Speaker 1: It's like that's something I'm really grateful for, Like I 812 00:50:33,040 --> 00:50:35,799 Speaker 1: can have a really good day on a bad day. 813 00:50:38,080 --> 00:50:42,240 Speaker 1: It's like it's this understanding we are constantly oscillating between 814 00:50:42,640 --> 00:50:47,799 Speaker 1: grief and joy, between you know, challenge and freedom. It's 815 00:50:47,920 --> 00:50:50,680 Speaker 1: all meant to be at play all the time. And 816 00:50:51,000 --> 00:50:53,000 Speaker 1: when you kind of just adapt to that or at 817 00:50:53,000 --> 00:50:55,799 Speaker 1: tune to that, you get to have like a more 818 00:50:55,920 --> 00:51:00,439 Speaker 1: gentle sway as opposed to these really hard rocking back 819 00:51:00,480 --> 00:51:02,920 Speaker 1: and forth, Like it doesn't have to be you know, 820 00:51:03,000 --> 00:51:07,920 Speaker 1: the the ship in the ship in these you know, 821 00:51:10,280 --> 00:51:13,279 Speaker 1: rocking against harsh waves. Yeah, it can kind of just 822 00:51:13,320 --> 00:51:15,920 Speaker 1: how can I glide down this river because it's gonna 823 00:51:15,920 --> 00:51:18,279 Speaker 1: go anyway. You know, all of this is going to 824 00:51:18,360 --> 00:51:22,560 Speaker 1: happen anyway, So how do I alleviate my suffering? And 825 00:51:23,320 --> 00:51:25,520 Speaker 1: I think the way you express it is so divine, 826 00:51:25,600 --> 00:51:29,160 Speaker 1: which is journey and grace. Journey and grace. 827 00:51:29,360 --> 00:51:33,560 Speaker 3: Yeah, you have to, like I I if there is 828 00:51:33,680 --> 00:51:36,600 Speaker 3: just one thing I could like the last thing I 829 00:51:36,640 --> 00:51:39,759 Speaker 3: ever wrote, Okay, yeah, that's that's deep to say. 830 00:51:40,400 --> 00:51:42,000 Speaker 2: That's that's a lot to say. But it was a 831 00:51:42,120 --> 00:51:45,359 Speaker 2: journey and grace just because that that's everything. Like, it 832 00:51:45,360 --> 00:51:48,080 Speaker 2: helps you return to your lightness, It helps you return home, 833 00:51:48,520 --> 00:51:51,200 Speaker 2: it helps you let go, it helps you detach. You know, 834 00:51:51,320 --> 00:51:54,040 Speaker 2: it helps you remember who you are. That you're learning, 835 00:51:54,120 --> 00:51:57,680 Speaker 2: you're growing, you're expanding, and that's the beautiful thing about 836 00:51:57,760 --> 00:52:00,960 Speaker 2: you know, being on a level of learning, growing and 837 00:52:01,080 --> 00:52:04,880 Speaker 2: ascending and transfiguring your life is like, oh, there's going 838 00:52:04,960 --> 00:52:08,680 Speaker 2: to be different levels. I'm always going to be learning into, 839 00:52:08,920 --> 00:52:13,960 Speaker 2: leaning into, expanding, stretching, breaking into and so and sometimes 840 00:52:14,080 --> 00:52:16,880 Speaker 2: nudge sometimes thrown into you know, it can happen all 841 00:52:17,000 --> 00:52:20,840 Speaker 2: kind of ways, and so yeah, that grace is just oh, 842 00:52:21,080 --> 00:52:24,879 Speaker 2: it's medicine. It's just straight medicine. 843 00:52:24,719 --> 00:52:27,319 Speaker 1: Because this Earth School is never going to run short 844 00:52:27,360 --> 00:52:29,279 Speaker 1: on lessons everyone, that's. 845 00:52:29,360 --> 00:52:33,600 Speaker 2: For sure, and always always showing up to teach, never 846 00:52:33,600 --> 00:52:37,280 Speaker 2: a day off, never tell y'all. Yeah, Leila. 847 00:52:37,360 --> 00:52:40,200 Speaker 1: The way that I love to end each show is 848 00:52:40,239 --> 00:52:42,440 Speaker 1: by providing a little bit of soul work for the 849 00:52:42,480 --> 00:52:45,680 Speaker 1: audience that resonates with this episode, something that they can 850 00:52:45,719 --> 00:52:48,400 Speaker 1: deepen in. It could be an inquiry, it could be 851 00:52:48,400 --> 00:52:51,440 Speaker 1: a practice, it could be a thought to savor, to 852 00:52:51,560 --> 00:52:54,600 Speaker 1: chew on, and to explore until our next episode. So, 853 00:52:55,680 --> 00:53:00,120 Speaker 1: my dearest Master Teacher sister, I would love to ask, 854 00:53:01,000 --> 00:53:04,600 Speaker 1: considering the conversation that we just had, for those that 855 00:53:05,080 --> 00:53:07,360 Speaker 1: are connecting to the sound of our voice right now, 856 00:53:08,440 --> 00:53:12,720 Speaker 1: what is something What is an intention you'd like everyone 857 00:53:12,760 --> 00:53:17,800 Speaker 1: to kind of deepen into over this next week or so. 858 00:53:17,840 --> 00:53:20,640 Speaker 2: The intention that I would love for us to deepen 859 00:53:20,680 --> 00:53:27,640 Speaker 2: into is to expand and expand, encourage and grace, because 860 00:53:27,640 --> 00:53:30,919 Speaker 2: you're going to need both. There's a lot of things 861 00:53:30,960 --> 00:53:35,320 Speaker 2: shifting right now on the planet, and it can feel 862 00:53:35,360 --> 00:53:38,520 Speaker 2: like we're in a different universe and things don't feel 863 00:53:38,640 --> 00:53:41,279 Speaker 2: the same and this is supposed to happen. You know, 864 00:53:41,600 --> 00:53:45,359 Speaker 2: every big shift, this happens. And the shift is not 865 00:53:45,560 --> 00:53:50,759 Speaker 2: just in culture. The shift is internally. The shift is spiritual. 866 00:53:50,920 --> 00:53:57,000 Speaker 2: The shift is cosmic. It's planetary, but it's also there's 867 00:53:57,080 --> 00:53:59,960 Speaker 2: a lot of light coming. We're moving through a photonic 868 00:54:00,280 --> 00:54:02,560 Speaker 2: and so there's really there's a lot we're going through 869 00:54:02,600 --> 00:54:05,439 Speaker 2: as literally as a planet. We're getting more light onto 870 00:54:05,480 --> 00:54:08,280 Speaker 2: the planet now. So those of us who have allowed 871 00:54:08,280 --> 00:54:10,520 Speaker 2: ourselves to be sensitive are going to pick up on this. 872 00:54:10,880 --> 00:54:13,080 Speaker 2: So this is going to cause us now to have 873 00:54:13,120 --> 00:54:16,239 Speaker 2: to write, now, show up a little more in our 874 00:54:16,320 --> 00:54:20,759 Speaker 2: lives with courage. Now that courage may tell you you 875 00:54:20,880 --> 00:54:23,440 Speaker 2: need courage to say out like you need courage to 876 00:54:23,520 --> 00:54:26,560 Speaker 2: start to stop doing so much in your life. Right, 877 00:54:27,080 --> 00:54:30,080 Speaker 2: And the person who resonates with that knows exactly what 878 00:54:30,120 --> 00:54:32,920 Speaker 2: that is. Right, you're doing too much. Sit down and 879 00:54:33,400 --> 00:54:36,399 Speaker 2: let life. It's time for you to receive. It's time 880 00:54:36,440 --> 00:54:39,200 Speaker 2: for you to rest, it's time for you to heal. Right, 881 00:54:39,239 --> 00:54:40,720 Speaker 2: it's time for you to get out of the way. 882 00:54:41,160 --> 00:54:43,160 Speaker 2: It's time for you now to be still so things 883 00:54:43,200 --> 00:54:45,080 Speaker 2: can happen for you the way they need to only 884 00:54:45,120 --> 00:54:47,680 Speaker 2: when you're still. For others of us and I'm in 885 00:54:47,680 --> 00:54:50,920 Speaker 2: this class. It's time to expand and do more and 886 00:54:50,960 --> 00:54:53,279 Speaker 2: go and there's certain codes that are going to be 887 00:54:53,320 --> 00:54:56,480 Speaker 2: awakened and you're going to receive more emotion. You need 888 00:54:56,520 --> 00:54:58,400 Speaker 2: to be emotion more for here and you need to 889 00:54:58,480 --> 00:55:02,520 Speaker 2: expand in this that right there is calling for courage. 890 00:55:03,080 --> 00:55:07,400 Speaker 2: And courage is important because fear a lot of times 891 00:55:07,560 --> 00:55:10,120 Speaker 2: is the teacher, you know, when when where it's time 892 00:55:10,160 --> 00:55:13,080 Speaker 2: for us to show up and do more or do less, 893 00:55:13,719 --> 00:55:15,880 Speaker 2: fear is telling us, well, you're not going to be 894 00:55:15,920 --> 00:55:17,840 Speaker 2: as important if you're not speaking up and you know, 895 00:55:17,880 --> 00:55:19,400 Speaker 2: you're not going to be seen in your power if 896 00:55:19,400 --> 00:55:22,120 Speaker 2: you're not doing as much, or you're you're going to 897 00:55:22,160 --> 00:55:24,759 Speaker 2: be judged if you're doing too much. So we have 898 00:55:24,840 --> 00:55:28,520 Speaker 2: to be able to tell fear to behave and we 899 00:55:28,600 --> 00:55:30,960 Speaker 2: go forward, you know, we go forward with our gifts, 900 00:55:31,000 --> 00:55:33,440 Speaker 2: We go forward with the with the lessons and journey 901 00:55:33,440 --> 00:55:35,160 Speaker 2: and grace on the days that you don't get it, 902 00:55:35,200 --> 00:55:39,640 Speaker 2: so really make a mantra and really live into that 903 00:55:39,760 --> 00:55:42,279 Speaker 2: prayer every day of courage and grace, like what this 904 00:55:42,360 --> 00:55:45,560 Speaker 2: looks like for me in this moment, Courage to say 905 00:55:45,680 --> 00:55:48,560 Speaker 2: yes and grace when I don't say yes or grace 906 00:55:48,600 --> 00:55:51,279 Speaker 2: when I don't feel comfortable in it, knowing that you know, 907 00:55:51,360 --> 00:55:54,839 Speaker 2: as I continue to move that the flow, it's going 908 00:55:54,920 --> 00:55:57,000 Speaker 2: to sync up with me. And I'm you know where 909 00:55:57,000 --> 00:55:59,720 Speaker 2: I'm supposed to be. I'll be guided there and expanded 910 00:55:59,719 --> 00:56:03,840 Speaker 2: into that. But being obedient to spirit is just so important. 911 00:56:03,920 --> 00:56:06,600 Speaker 2: And again that word obedience, Obedience, I say that in 912 00:56:06,640 --> 00:56:12,400 Speaker 2: the most grandmotherly, loving, spiritual way possible, is just obedience 913 00:56:12,440 --> 00:56:16,080 Speaker 2: to your higher self, obedience to your creator, Obedience to 914 00:56:16,120 --> 00:56:18,640 Speaker 2: that beautiful gift that you carry, you know, into that 915 00:56:18,680 --> 00:56:21,600 Speaker 2: body that needs healing and rests all of it, and 916 00:56:21,640 --> 00:56:24,040 Speaker 2: that work in you that needs to go forth. 917 00:56:23,800 --> 00:56:26,360 Speaker 1: Now right, So obedience to all of it. 918 00:56:26,920 --> 00:56:29,719 Speaker 2: And just to say yes, I'm saying yes to courage 919 00:56:30,080 --> 00:56:31,280 Speaker 2: and I'm saying yes to Grace. 920 00:56:37,320 --> 00:56:39,880 Speaker 1: You may want to take a deep in hell in 921 00:56:39,920 --> 00:56:44,120 Speaker 1: and out there and if that was really resonating, allow 922 00:56:44,200 --> 00:56:47,200 Speaker 1: yourself to roll that over a couple times in your 923 00:56:47,200 --> 00:56:52,680 Speaker 1: own body with your own voice. I am obedient to Courage, 924 00:56:52,920 --> 00:57:02,719 Speaker 1: I am obedient to Grace. My heart is open to 925 00:57:02,840 --> 00:57:16,120 Speaker 1: receive guidance. Supernatural healing has made its way into my life. MM. 926 00:57:17,160 --> 00:57:18,120 Speaker 2: That was so beautiful. 927 00:57:19,160 --> 00:57:22,360 Speaker 1: M thank you, thank you, thank you, thank. 928 00:57:22,160 --> 00:57:24,840 Speaker 2: You, thank you, thank you, my beloved sweet sister. Thank 929 00:57:24,880 --> 00:57:28,360 Speaker 2: you so much for this conversation. Thank you so much 930 00:57:28,360 --> 00:57:35,640 Speaker 2: for having me. Thank you, I mean, m yeah, thank 931 00:57:35,680 --> 00:57:40,000 Speaker 2: you so much. Thank you for everything that you were 932 00:57:40,000 --> 00:57:43,040 Speaker 2: willing to share with us and for all the ways 933 00:57:43,080 --> 00:57:48,400 Speaker 2: that I know it's just profoundly expanding. Everyone that heard 934 00:57:48,440 --> 00:57:56,400 Speaker 2: your voice today, Wow, wow, wow m M. 935 00:57:59,200 --> 00:58:03,560 Speaker 1: I know everyone knows where to find you, but head 936 00:58:03,600 --> 00:58:08,720 Speaker 1: to Leila's instagram at Leiladelia, head to a bookstore near 937 00:58:08,840 --> 00:58:11,560 Speaker 1: you if you haven't already. But I know most more 938 00:58:11,600 --> 00:58:15,960 Speaker 1: than likely you have this beautiful bestselling book Vibrate Higher Daily, 939 00:58:16,200 --> 00:58:19,560 Speaker 1: and you also have your community, the Vibrate Higher Community. 940 00:58:20,000 --> 00:58:23,520 Speaker 1: So these things are really I mean, I know some 941 00:58:23,560 --> 00:58:26,160 Speaker 1: people listening right now are like, yep, I know where 942 00:58:26,200 --> 00:58:31,520 Speaker 1: my work is really consider you know, creating space that 943 00:58:31,560 --> 00:58:36,480 Speaker 1: feels supportive to do that, and having more conversation with 944 00:58:36,680 --> 00:58:39,840 Speaker 1: people that you resonate with. And maybe there are some 945 00:58:40,040 --> 00:58:42,560 Speaker 1: terms that you heard us say on this show that 946 00:58:43,040 --> 00:58:45,800 Speaker 1: it could be really worthy to dedicate an afternoon to 947 00:58:45,880 --> 00:58:49,400 Speaker 1: some Google searches, to doing some deep dives, to going 948 00:58:49,520 --> 00:58:53,840 Speaker 1: into different forums, to going into different instagram pages and 949 00:58:54,840 --> 00:58:58,320 Speaker 1: just expanding your world and expanding what you know is 950 00:58:58,400 --> 00:59:00,760 Speaker 1: possible for yourself. Yeah. 951 00:59:00,800 --> 00:59:04,720 Speaker 2: Absolutely, because we're guided, Like that's we're guiding each other home, 952 00:59:05,000 --> 00:59:08,440 Speaker 2: you know, so hearing, you know, overhearing a conversation, and 953 00:59:08,480 --> 00:59:11,040 Speaker 2: that's really what a podcast is. You're overhearing a conversation, 954 00:59:11,600 --> 00:59:13,600 Speaker 2: you know. And I was like, oh, those words, that 955 00:59:13,640 --> 00:59:16,360 Speaker 2: word popped out, you know, write it down, meditate on it, 956 00:59:16,800 --> 00:59:19,080 Speaker 2: and the more like that one word, like if you heard. 957 00:59:19,120 --> 00:59:20,320 Speaker 2: And this is one thing I can say as a 958 00:59:20,320 --> 00:59:24,600 Speaker 2: writer is that pay attention to the words that catch 959 00:59:24,640 --> 00:59:27,560 Speaker 2: your attention because when you go read that word, that 960 00:59:27,640 --> 00:59:30,640 Speaker 2: word is going to open up a floodgate of other 961 00:59:30,800 --> 00:59:34,360 Speaker 2: words and a conversation that can turn into some medicine 962 00:59:34,360 --> 00:59:37,560 Speaker 2: and answers. So yeah, definitely, definitely. I love that you said. 963 00:59:37,720 --> 00:59:41,600 Speaker 2: Google and research it, track it yeah yeah, track it yeah. 964 00:59:41,320 --> 00:59:44,840 Speaker 1: Track it, follow it, and set intention for things to 965 00:59:44,880 --> 00:59:45,480 Speaker 1: be revealed. 966 00:59:45,720 --> 00:59:45,959 Speaker 2: Yes. 967 00:59:46,480 --> 00:59:47,760 Speaker 1: Yeah, I love you. 968 00:59:48,040 --> 00:59:51,960 Speaker 2: I love you so much. Thank you so much for 969 00:59:52,000 --> 00:59:55,080 Speaker 2: coming on the show. My honor, my honor, Thank you. 970 00:59:56,080 --> 00:59:59,600 Speaker 1: Big love everyone, thank you for joining us. We'll be 971 00:59:59,640 --> 01:00:07,160 Speaker 1: back b next week now. Mistakes down, stas Snaps. Connect 972 01:00:07,240 --> 01:00:11,120 Speaker 1: with me on social at Debbie Brown. 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