WEBVTT - Secretary with Ashley Ray

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<v Speaker 1>Hi everyone. Before the episode starts, we just wanted to

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<v Speaker 1>do some quick content warnings. We want to be better

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<v Speaker 1>about doing those moving forward, so just to let you know.

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<v Speaker 1>In the discussion we talk about self harm as well

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<v Speaker 1>as physical and sexual assault. And now here's the episode.

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<v Speaker 1>On the Doll Cast, the questions asked if movies have

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<v Speaker 1>women and um, are all their discussions just boyfriends and

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<v Speaker 1>husbands or do they have individualism? The patriarchy? Zef invest

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<v Speaker 1>start changing it with the beck Del cast. Jamie, do

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<v Speaker 1>you want to start this one? No? I don't know

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<v Speaker 1>what to say. Okay, me either. Oh here's something okay right?

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<v Speaker 1>Oh oh Jamie, I hate the way you're you sniffle.

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<v Speaker 1>You're always sniffling. Okay, let's have sex. Wow. Welcome to

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<v Speaker 1>the bed Time and iconic intro that passed the vessels

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<v Speaker 1>it did, um well, but welcome anyways. That's literally just

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<v Speaker 1>something that happens in the movie. That was a that

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<v Speaker 1>was just that was This is a re enacting a

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<v Speaker 1>dramatic reenactment. Sniff, Um, so today's movie. Okay, wait where

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<v Speaker 1>are we? This is the backtel cast. Welcome, Um, my

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<v Speaker 1>name is Caitlin Darante. My name is Jamie Loftus and

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<v Speaker 1>this is a podcast about the representation of women in

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<v Speaker 1>movies as well as just an overall examination of film

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<v Speaker 1>through an intersectional feminist lens. We use the Backtel test

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<v Speaker 1>as a jumping off point for a discussion, that being

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<v Speaker 1>a media matric invented by queer cartoonist Allison back Dol,

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<v Speaker 1>sometimes called the back Doll Wallace test that requires that

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<v Speaker 1>to female identifying or or non male genders, characters with

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<v Speaker 1>names talk to each other about something other than a man,

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<v Speaker 1>such as just now when you heard uh, the I sniffed,

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<v Speaker 1>and then Caitlin and I mutually decided to have sex.

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<v Speaker 1>That actually is more than we did, more than with them.

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<v Speaker 1>We actually gave consent. There was Yes, there was consent

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<v Speaker 1>discussed almost instinctually, like that's just like what one would

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<v Speaker 1>do it right, not to tune our real consent heads.

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<v Speaker 1>I love consent. So today's movie is Secretary, and we

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<v Speaker 1>have a guest who we are very excited about. She

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<v Speaker 1>is amazing writer comedian Ashley Ray. I'm so happy to

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<v Speaker 1>be here. I'm so excited to talk about this movie specifically. Yeah, yeah,

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<v Speaker 1>I gosh, there's so much to talk about, so much,

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<v Speaker 1>uh This movie has meant so much to me, and

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<v Speaker 1>I haven't watched it in a long time, but watching

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<v Speaker 1>it again it just reaffirmed how much it it just

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<v Speaker 1>imprinted on me as a child. Did you see it

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<v Speaker 1>when it first came out, like what's your full hit? Yeah? Yeah,

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<v Speaker 1>it came out in two thousand, that is when I

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<v Speaker 1>was like ten years old. But I got a laptop

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<v Speaker 1>when I was like twelve. I went to this school

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<v Speaker 1>where they gave everyone a laptop in sixth grade, which

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<v Speaker 1>is a stupid thing to do. And I would just

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<v Speaker 1>like make live journal accounts and download movies, like there

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<v Speaker 1>were live journal account where people would just like share

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<v Speaker 1>indie movies and that's how I would like watch like

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<v Speaker 1>French lesbian films. And then someone put up Secretary and

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<v Speaker 1>I remember the day being like that poster it's like

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<v Speaker 1>iconic with like the stockings and her bent over, and

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<v Speaker 1>I was like, this is something I've got to see,

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<v Speaker 1>and I downloaded it on my laptop and I I

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<v Speaker 1>just remember watching it with headphones and being like I

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<v Speaker 1>cannot let my mom know this is happening. So that's like,

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<v Speaker 1>that's that age when you're like figuring out weird inks.

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<v Speaker 1>I feel like or at least like you know. Yeah,

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<v Speaker 1>and I now realized probably percent of my canks were

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<v Speaker 1>inspired by this movie, which is bad, probably horrible. The

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<v Speaker 1>point is that it happened exactly. I wonder. I mean,

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<v Speaker 1>I feel like I would be such a different person

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<v Speaker 1>if I had access to a laptop at twelve years old. Yeah.

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<v Speaker 1>I don't know why anyone thought that was a good idea.

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<v Speaker 1>My school still does it to this day. All sixth graders,

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<v Speaker 1>you get a laptop, you get to keep it until

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<v Speaker 1>you graduate. I watched so I watched like Pink, Flamingos

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<v Speaker 1>and just horrible movies at a really young age. Oh

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<v Speaker 1>my god. And this is this is probably why I

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<v Speaker 1>came out as like Queer and Polly. By the time

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<v Speaker 1>I was seventeen, I was like, been there, done it.

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<v Speaker 1>I've seen it. James Spader showed me how Uh Now,

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<v Speaker 1>it's just unlearning. It's a lot of unlearning, all the damage,

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<v Speaker 1>all the movies due to us as young people. Wow,

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<v Speaker 1>I didn't own a laptop until I was well into

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<v Speaker 1>my twenties, so I didn't get one to college. That

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<v Speaker 1>seems like a healthy age. Those seems those are healthy ages. Yeah. Yeah,

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<v Speaker 1>like by then you're just like, oh, porn is such

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<v Speaker 1>an exciting luxury. It becomes a luxury thing because you

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<v Speaker 1>don't have to watch it on a desktop anymore. But

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<v Speaker 1>then that kind of comes all the way around, and

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<v Speaker 1>then later in your life you're like, I can watch

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<v Speaker 1>you know, once you live on your own, you can

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<v Speaker 1>watch porn on a desktop again, big screen, and then

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<v Speaker 1>it's a different kind of luxury. Yeah, exactly, Jamie. What

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<v Speaker 1>about you? What's your relationship with this movie. I've never

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<v Speaker 1>seen this movie. I've known about it for a long time,

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<v Speaker 1>and I have a feeling that if I had seen

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<v Speaker 1>it when I was in like middle school, high school,

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<v Speaker 1>I would have really really loved it and it would

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<v Speaker 1>have had like a real effect on me. But I didn't.

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<v Speaker 1>I don't know, I just missed it, and I started

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<v Speaker 1>hearing more about it. I think it was like when

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<v Speaker 1>the fifty shape Its movies were coming up, this movie

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<v Speaker 1>was coming up over and over and over. It is like,

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<v Speaker 1>this is the alternative. If you think fifties shade sucks,

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<v Speaker 1>you just gotta go back and watch Secretary. So that

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<v Speaker 1>was kind of like where I would That was like

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<v Speaker 1>my point of entry because we've covered fifty shades on

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<v Speaker 1>this show, and in retrospect, I'm not I'm not totally.

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<v Speaker 1>I'm like the I see what people are saying, but like,

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<v Speaker 1>maybe they should have. Really, it's definitely a better written movie.

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<v Speaker 1>Well so every movie is a better written movie. And

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<v Speaker 1>it's definitely very a very well acted movie too. But

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<v Speaker 1>then but on the relationship level, I was like, I don't,

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<v Speaker 1>I don't quite see it. I'm excited to talk about it.

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<v Speaker 1>He's like the original Mr Gray, like they even have

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<v Speaker 1>the same name. Yeah, this was the watch where I

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<v Speaker 1>was like, oh my mind blown, wow, wow, connecting the pieces.

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<v Speaker 1>It embarrassingly took me until sevent into the movie to

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<v Speaker 1>be like, oh my gosh, a Mr. Pray for an

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<v Speaker 1>hour and a half. I've heard this before. I've seen

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<v Speaker 1>this before, but this time it's with Maggie Jellenhall, and

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<v Speaker 1>I'm like, I mean, I also like dakode to Johnson,

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<v Speaker 1>but it's just she wasn't set up for success in

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<v Speaker 1>that franchise. She was not anyways, Okay, what's your what's

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<v Speaker 1>your heads story with this movie? Um, I didn't see

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<v Speaker 1>it right away because it came out in two To write, um,

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<v Speaker 1>I probably didn't see it until I I think I

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<v Speaker 1>saw it when I was working as an assistant. I've

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<v Speaker 1>talked about this job before on the podcast because it

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<v Speaker 1>traumatized me. I was working as an assistant to a

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<v Speaker 1>literary manager in New York who was extremely verbally and

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<v Speaker 1>emotionally abusive to me and I I guess I was

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<v Speaker 1>just like watching media in which other people are verbally

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<v Speaker 1>and emotionally abused by their boss. I guess, just to

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<v Speaker 1>relate or have something to relate to. I'm not sure exactly. UM.

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<v Speaker 1>I didn't connect very much with the movie at that point,

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<v Speaker 1>and then UM rewatching it. There's a lot I struggled with. UM.

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<v Speaker 1>I tried to because I worked as a secretary every

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<v Speaker 1>summer for like four summers at the Comptroller's office, and

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<v Speaker 1>I was like the assistant comptroller secretary, and it was

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<v Speaker 1>it was I couldn't I mean, just based on my

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<v Speaker 1>own experience, I couldn't plug myself in because I was

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<v Speaker 1>like I just me and Scott. This just didn't exist

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<v Speaker 1>with us. I was a church secretary from like eighth

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<v Speaker 1>grade throughout high school. I wasn't like religious, but they

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<v Speaker 1>paid me ten dollars an hour. It was just a

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<v Speaker 1>really good gig and it was Yeah, it was hard,

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<v Speaker 1>you know, as it was hard to to see myself

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<v Speaker 1>in that role necessarily, but I did understand a lot

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<v Speaker 1>of her duties as as a secretary. I did have

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<v Speaker 1>to use a typewriter. I related to that too. Well,

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<v Speaker 1>you got the full typewriter treatment. Yeah. They it was

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<v Speaker 1>a pretty old church and they were just like, this

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<v Speaker 1>is how we do baptism certificates. Get used to it,

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<v Speaker 1>classy like. Um, So anyway, yeah, I, um, I don't

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<v Speaker 1>like this movie. I'll just come out and say it.

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<v Speaker 1>But but I yeah, I don't. I don't have any

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<v Speaker 1>of the attachment to it or any of like the

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<v Speaker 1>nostalgia or anything. So I was coming in it with

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<v Speaker 1>pretty fresh eyes. Um. But there's a lot to discuss. Yeah,

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<v Speaker 1>there is, so there's so much to talk. I mean,

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<v Speaker 1>it's I I guess like I was kind of assuming.

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<v Speaker 1>I was like, oh, this is like probably one of

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<v Speaker 1>those like cut and dry deals where it's like, well

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<v Speaker 1>it was like written by men about women, and so

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<v Speaker 1>you know, there's just gonna be uh, it's kind of

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<v Speaker 1>a nonstarter to an extent in most cases, but this

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<v Speaker 1>is not the case for this movie. It's there's so

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<v Speaker 1>many there's so many layers. It was really interesting researching

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<v Speaker 1>like the two female writers that like shaped this story

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<v Speaker 1>very differently, including the screenwriter who's like really fixated on

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<v Speaker 1>like women with mental illness and punishing them but being like,

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<v Speaker 1>but it was good for her, Like she's she's got

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<v Speaker 1>a whole it's such a hyper specific vibe. But when

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<v Speaker 1>I was looking at her list of works, I'm like, whoa,

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<v Speaker 1>that is really the theme. Yeah, it's it's this weird

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<v Speaker 1>thing where the character she is she's dealing with mental illness.

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<v Speaker 1>She's she's fresh out of an institution in a hospital,

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<v Speaker 1>but they also treat her like this newborn baby like

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<v Speaker 1>in a pool, who like knows nothing and it's so

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<v Speaker 1>naive and it's just like, oh my god, what is

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<v Speaker 1>a man? And then she's just like a perfect baby

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<v Speaker 1>for James Spader to just like imprint on. But at

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<v Speaker 1>the same time they're like, well, no, see, she's just

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<v Speaker 1>like so brilliant and complex because she has mental illness

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<v Speaker 1>and she could just like understand him, and it just

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<v Speaker 1>like wants to have it both ways. And it's like, way,

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<v Speaker 1>does she this like innocent child who knows nothing or

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<v Speaker 1>is she this like super genius like person who can

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<v Speaker 1>read his mind? Like what what is she supposed to be?

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<v Speaker 1>They pick and choose, and I feel like that actually,

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<v Speaker 1>when I was younger, that those types of characters were

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<v Speaker 1>so appealing to me because they were like parts of me,

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<v Speaker 1>Like when you're a twelve or thirteen, like you want

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<v Speaker 1>to be perceived kind of in both of those ways, like,

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<v Speaker 1>and so making an adult character that way is a

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<v Speaker 1>choice that is going to appeal to that Is she

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<v Speaker 1>an adult? Because look at her? Is she an adult?

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<v Speaker 1>Is like black Swan's like she's like stickers everywhere? Like

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<v Speaker 1>what age is she? If someone told me she was

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<v Speaker 1>like eighteen, I'd be like I could see it, Like

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<v Speaker 1>what what age is she? It's really confusing. I wasn't

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<v Speaker 1>sure if it was supposed to be like she is

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<v Speaker 1>maybe like yeah, like a really young adult and maybe

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<v Speaker 1>she just has her like kid room and she's fresh

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<v Speaker 1>out of high school, or if they were like going

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<v Speaker 1>for a Black Swan kind of thing where they're like, no,

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<v Speaker 1>she's definitely too old for this, but we're just going

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<v Speaker 1>to trap her here to send to say something. But

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<v Speaker 1>I wasn't sure what idea The closest thing to any

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<v Speaker 1>kind of indication is when she's talking to Peter, who

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<v Speaker 1>she knew in high school, who she like ends up

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<v Speaker 1>dating for a little while and then being engaged to.

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<v Speaker 1>But she's like, you're so different from how you were

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<v Speaker 1>in high school, and it seems like about how long

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<v Speaker 1>ago was that? But how long a you don't know.

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<v Speaker 1>Also she has she's in the bathtub at one point

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<v Speaker 1>and she like has this very like childlike snow globe

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<v Speaker 1>that apparently is like part of her like and then

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<v Speaker 1>she's like, no, I'm over this snow glob and then

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<v Speaker 1>she throws it away. I'm pretty sure there's like a

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<v Speaker 1>rubber ducky in there. Like just so much of that

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<v Speaker 1>made it uncomfortable. And it's like if they had just

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<v Speaker 1>firmly kind of like aged her up, like have her

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<v Speaker 1>just once referred to dropping out of college or something,

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<v Speaker 1>I feel like it would have the dynamic a little better.

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<v Speaker 1>But this whole first part of the movie, you're like, Okay,

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<v Speaker 1>so she she is a child who's jealous of her

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<v Speaker 1>sister's wedding, Like right there was like there, I feel

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<v Speaker 1>like they wanted you to look at her as a

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<v Speaker 1>baby to some But but if that's true, then it

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<v Speaker 1>kind of makes the whole thing a little more sinister.

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<v Speaker 1>There were a few of those moments that where it

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<v Speaker 1>was like, again, I was like, if I saw this

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<v Speaker 1>when I was thirteen, I would have been like, holy

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<v Speaker 1>sh it, Like just like symbolism moments when she takes

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<v Speaker 1>the snow globe and she's like the snow glow. Yeah,

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<v Speaker 1>that that one got me. That was the moment when

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<v Speaker 1>I was I was like, yeah, that girl, when she

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<v Speaker 1>threw that snow globe, I was like, I'm in, I'm in,

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<v Speaker 1>this is me, this is my lifestyle now. It's I mean,

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<v Speaker 1>and and I will say watching it now, I did

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<v Speaker 1>hate it. I saw every problem, but I also did

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<v Speaker 1>see this way where I was like thirteen or you

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<v Speaker 1>know whatever, and I was like, oh my god, of

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<v Speaker 1>course I thought this was the sexiest thing in the world,

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<v Speaker 1>like him just telling her what to eat for dinner

0:14:01.840 --> 0:14:03.960
<v Speaker 1>and how of course I'd be like, oh my god,

0:14:04.000 --> 0:14:06.440
<v Speaker 1>that's so hot that that someone would like take the

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<v Speaker 1>time and care to do that. You know. I I

0:14:09.040 --> 0:14:10.840
<v Speaker 1>was a latch key kid. I had to feed myself,

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<v Speaker 1>so that obviously super hot to me. And it's just

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<v Speaker 1>you know, the I feel like it just sexualizes things

0:14:17.840 --> 0:14:20.280
<v Speaker 1>in this kind of non sexy way where you're like, Okay,

0:14:20.320 --> 0:14:22.280
<v Speaker 1>I guess I can work with this, even though I'm

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<v Speaker 1>still really not clear on who this woman is or

0:14:25.320 --> 0:14:29.120
<v Speaker 1>what exactly she wants or why she has decided this

0:14:29.160 --> 0:14:33.040
<v Speaker 1>lifestyle speaks to her. There's a lot to latch onto

0:14:33.680 --> 0:14:36.600
<v Speaker 1>with Lee, which is like part of I don't know

0:14:36.680 --> 0:14:39.040
<v Speaker 1>it was. I was so in and out because it's like, yeah,

0:14:39.040 --> 0:14:41.520
<v Speaker 1>that not watching it now, the problems are very clear.

0:14:41.920 --> 0:14:43.960
<v Speaker 1>But it also it's like it's very like of its

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<v Speaker 1>time in a lot of ways, and I don't know

0:14:47.320 --> 0:14:53.280
<v Speaker 1>what about that yet. That masturbation scene very early two thousands.

0:14:53.440 --> 0:14:57.840
<v Speaker 1>This like this like just visually trippy, like as all

0:14:57.880 --> 0:15:00.400
<v Speaker 1>girls know, the way we masturbate as we like vision

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<v Speaker 1>of flower opening and we're sitting in the middle of it,

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<v Speaker 1>and then the boy that we have a crush on

0:15:06.560 --> 0:15:11.320
<v Speaker 1>appears and like washes our hair. Of course that's how

0:15:11.400 --> 0:15:17.600
<v Speaker 1>girls masterbace. It's very MTV two visuals, just like fireworks,

0:15:17.720 --> 0:15:21.640
<v Speaker 1>weird like green screen stuff happening. But then again I

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<v Speaker 1>was just like, okay, so she's like fourteen years old.

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<v Speaker 1>Like that was another thing where you're like, okay, she's

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<v Speaker 1>a baby. She's I think she's probably legally an adult,

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<v Speaker 1>but either way, the the age gap between her and

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<v Speaker 1>Mr Gray is pretty substantial. And that's the other. That's another.

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<v Speaker 1>This is a I hate James Spader. I hate him

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<v Speaker 1>so much that words cannot describe how much I think

0:15:45.640 --> 0:15:48.920
<v Speaker 1>he is the worst. Yeah. I don't know how he gets.

0:15:49.120 --> 0:15:51.080
<v Speaker 1>I just I hate him so much. But anyway, that's

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<v Speaker 1>neither here nor there. If it was, I've heard he

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<v Speaker 1>is a very like, not nice person. Yeah, oh, I thought,

0:15:58.120 --> 0:15:59.880
<v Speaker 1>do you just dislike him as a performer. I just

0:16:00.000 --> 0:16:03.320
<v Speaker 1>hate him because I hate him as an actor. I

0:16:03.360 --> 0:16:06.600
<v Speaker 1>think I just the roles he tends, at least of

0:16:06.640 --> 0:16:09.480
<v Speaker 1>the ones I've seen that he's in. I find him

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<v Speaker 1>loaths some like he's in that movie Crash, like the

0:16:12.440 --> 0:16:16.520
<v Speaker 1>horny car Crash movie. I found him really creepy in

0:16:16.520 --> 0:16:18.760
<v Speaker 1>that movie. I found him really creepy and sex lives

0:16:18.760 --> 0:16:21.320
<v Speaker 1>and videotape like everything he's in. And then this movie,

0:16:21.400 --> 0:16:24.040
<v Speaker 1>like everything he's in that I've seen, I just I

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<v Speaker 1>find him really I feel like this is his last

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<v Speaker 1>like hot movie. This is the last time we saw

0:16:29.400 --> 0:16:33.840
<v Speaker 1>like a hot James Spader, So maybe so maybe we

0:16:33.880 --> 0:16:39.040
<v Speaker 1>celebrate it for that sure, and only that that's so long.

0:16:40.800 --> 0:16:43.160
<v Speaker 1>He's like, I gotta go be an Avengers age of Ultron.

0:16:43.200 --> 0:16:48.600
<v Speaker 1>Now the black List. He had a show called like

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<v Speaker 1>the Blacklist, right, it ran for like ten years or

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<v Speaker 1>something like, He's been on so many things for ten

0:16:54.240 --> 0:16:58.760
<v Speaker 1>years that I didn't know existed. He well, he was

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<v Speaker 1>on the Office to right like after people Stop California.

0:17:02.960 --> 0:17:05.760
<v Speaker 1>Oh that's a good name. Yeah, he was on Boston Legal.

0:17:05.880 --> 0:17:09.679
<v Speaker 1>My mom watched the hat the My mom love Boston Legal.

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<v Speaker 1>He gets a lot of work, and I just don't

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<v Speaker 1>know why I don't. I don't get it. Not here

0:17:14.359 --> 0:17:16.480
<v Speaker 1>for James Spader. I think he's still kind of like

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<v Speaker 1>writing that like his first wave of success because he

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<v Speaker 1>was in so many like he was the sexy guy

0:17:21.680 --> 0:17:23.760
<v Speaker 1>in so many movies and now he's just kind of

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<v Speaker 1>set for life or that that's my guess, Secretary. Yeah,

0:17:28.600 --> 0:17:32.600
<v Speaker 1>it's an ode to sexiness. Yeah, Like I feel like

0:17:32.640 --> 0:17:36.960
<v Speaker 1>you're it enriches the experience if you knew, like because

0:17:37.000 --> 0:17:40.280
<v Speaker 1>if I just saw James Spader, I'm like, that's the guy. Like,

0:17:41.000 --> 0:17:43.960
<v Speaker 1>but because you know, like he has this icon like

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<v Speaker 1>sex icon status, which I don't get it just to

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<v Speaker 1>be Mr Gray, Like, at no point in the movie

0:17:51.359 --> 0:17:56.400
<v Speaker 1>is he an interesting or charismatic character. Like She's just like,

0:17:56.480 --> 0:17:59.159
<v Speaker 1>he's so complex, I can see why he's hurting. And

0:17:59.200 --> 0:18:02.880
<v Speaker 1>then James, it just looks like constipated and he's then

0:18:02.920 --> 0:18:04.919
<v Speaker 1>he's just like I gotta go just knock out some

0:18:04.960 --> 0:18:07.359
<v Speaker 1>push ups. And that's him the entire movie. It's just

0:18:07.400 --> 0:18:10.360
<v Speaker 1>like he's running on a treadmill. Yeah, I gotta take

0:18:10.400 --> 0:18:14.520
<v Speaker 1>care of my or kids. So like, where's your personality, bro? Yeah,

0:18:14.560 --> 0:18:19.719
<v Speaker 1>oh yeah, he's like vagina symbol in his office and

0:18:19.760 --> 0:18:21.720
<v Speaker 1>then you have to watch. You know, he's a good

0:18:21.760 --> 0:18:24.720
<v Speaker 1>guy because he can handle the vagina flowers and not

0:18:24.800 --> 0:18:29.800
<v Speaker 1>everybody can do that feminist icon. Yes, they like kind

0:18:29.840 --> 0:18:31.800
<v Speaker 1>of set this thing up in the beginning where like

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<v Speaker 1>it seems like he has a domp. There's like this

0:18:34.480 --> 0:18:36.840
<v Speaker 1>ex woman who comes in and like stomps all over

0:18:36.880 --> 0:18:39.000
<v Speaker 1>his stuff and I was like, oh good, I'm gonna

0:18:39.040 --> 0:18:41.720
<v Speaker 1>love it if like he gets it handed to him.

0:18:42.000 --> 0:18:44.679
<v Speaker 1>But then in the end she's like, no, he is

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<v Speaker 1>a genius and he slipped through my fingers and I

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<v Speaker 1>just wish I had been as smart as you Lee

0:18:49.760 --> 0:18:53.080
<v Speaker 1>to capture him. And it's like wait, so wait, you

0:18:53.160 --> 0:18:55.520
<v Speaker 1>were like so angry and came into his office because

0:18:55.520 --> 0:18:58.919
<v Speaker 1>this guy, who we've literally never heard say anything smart,

0:18:59.119 --> 0:19:02.960
<v Speaker 1>is just so brilliant that you, like you just had

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<v Speaker 1>to storm down there to yell at him to sign

0:19:05.200 --> 0:19:09.520
<v Speaker 1>divorce papers. What. Yeah, because it's a he's like he's

0:19:09.560 --> 0:19:13.800
<v Speaker 1>a genius at what at lawyer? He doesn't even seem

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<v Speaker 1>like a good lawyer by the way, ever, all the

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<v Speaker 1>case notes we heard, Yeah, there's like one time where

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<v Speaker 1>he's just like, I told you to send the notes

0:19:23.280 --> 0:19:26.080
<v Speaker 1>on the case house and it just sounds like something

0:19:26.440 --> 0:19:29.320
<v Speaker 1>like like a writer was like, this is how lawyers talk.

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<v Speaker 1>We'll just have him say it through the door. Just

0:19:31.000 --> 0:19:32.880
<v Speaker 1>he can add live Spader will phill it in. Don't

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<v Speaker 1>even worry. He knows he was on Boston Legal. There.

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<v Speaker 1>The thing I will say about I mean, there's a

0:19:40.600 --> 0:19:42.520
<v Speaker 1>lot of things to say about James Spader, but I

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<v Speaker 1>was stroke. Maybe it's like my TV, but I had

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<v Speaker 1>to turn up the volume and turn down the volume

0:19:49.119 --> 0:19:52.080
<v Speaker 1>so much watching this movie because he speaks like in

0:19:52.119 --> 0:19:55.760
<v Speaker 1>a whisper of the whole kept like cranking my Roku

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<v Speaker 1>to eighty and then like slamming it back down. It

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<v Speaker 1>was so hard to hear him. That was a question

0:20:01.280 --> 0:20:03.439
<v Speaker 1>I actually was going to ask, does it count as

0:20:03.480 --> 0:20:05.920
<v Speaker 1>passing the backdel test if you can't hear the man

0:20:06.800 --> 0:20:11.119
<v Speaker 1>just if you if he's just whispering, technically doesn't count.

0:20:11.240 --> 0:20:15.159
<v Speaker 1>Is Maggie John Hall just talking towards herself? Like right,

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<v Speaker 1>because he'll be like piss all the way step into

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<v Speaker 1>my office. It's so quiet. There are pivotal scenes I

0:20:22.200 --> 0:20:24.119
<v Speaker 1>had to watch like three or four times because like,

0:20:24.200 --> 0:20:26.960
<v Speaker 1>I just I can't hear him, my rocos at a hundred,

0:20:27.160 --> 0:20:29.840
<v Speaker 1>I can't hear him. There's so just I think, all

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<v Speaker 1>the scenes where he's supposed to be. And it's interesting

0:20:33.560 --> 0:20:35.520
<v Speaker 1>because you know, I think it would be better if

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<v Speaker 1>we saw Lee actually consent to a lot of this

0:20:38.480 --> 0:20:41.080
<v Speaker 1>or like approach it with any sort of like passion

0:20:41.200 --> 0:20:43.280
<v Speaker 1>or excitement, like oh you know, but we really just

0:20:43.320 --> 0:20:45.639
<v Speaker 1>see her like headphones on, like listening to one tape

0:20:45.640 --> 0:20:48.399
<v Speaker 1>about being a sub, like being a dom. But most

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<v Speaker 1>of it is just James Spader's character being like you

0:20:51.720 --> 0:20:54.000
<v Speaker 1>do this, you sniffle too much, and I think you

0:20:54.040 --> 0:20:56.639
<v Speaker 1>need to stop touching your hair. And he's just projecting

0:20:56.680 --> 0:21:01.120
<v Speaker 1>all of these things onto her and it's just so uncomfortable,

0:21:01.480 --> 0:21:03.359
<v Speaker 1>and it's like, if you would have just given some

0:21:03.560 --> 0:21:05.959
<v Speaker 1>of that agency to Lee's character, it would have been

0:21:05.960 --> 0:21:09.480
<v Speaker 1>a little better, because his character just isn't interesting enough

0:21:09.520 --> 0:21:11.600
<v Speaker 1>to carry it. And the whole time he's just like,

0:21:12.680 --> 0:21:15.639
<v Speaker 1>I think you'd be happier if you just kept your

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<v Speaker 1>shoes on under your desk, and then we're supposed to

0:21:19.520 --> 0:21:21.720
<v Speaker 1>be like, holy sh it. He totally gets this girl's

0:21:21.720 --> 0:21:25.639
<v Speaker 1>self esteem and what she needs. Yeah, she broke the

0:21:25.720 --> 0:21:29.240
<v Speaker 1>snug glow. Well, before we get too far into it,

0:21:29.320 --> 0:21:31.320
<v Speaker 1>let's do the recap and then we'll and then we'll

0:21:31.359 --> 0:21:34.639
<v Speaker 1>really just let loose. Well, we'll loosen up as she

0:21:34.840 --> 0:21:39.280
<v Speaker 1>is told she needs to do by Mr Gray. Listen up,

0:21:39.280 --> 0:21:45.840
<v Speaker 1>we'll we'll drink a hot chocolate because she's not old

0:21:45.960 --> 0:21:50.600
<v Speaker 1>enough to have an adult beverage. Okay, Um, Actually, let's

0:21:50.600 --> 0:21:52.320
<v Speaker 1>take a quick break and then we'll come right back

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<v Speaker 1>and do the recap. So the movie is we open

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<v Speaker 1>on Lee Holloway. That's Maggie Gyllenhall's character. We see her

0:22:05.560 --> 0:22:08.840
<v Speaker 1>doing you know, some office assistant type work. You know,

0:22:08.920 --> 0:22:12.720
<v Speaker 1>there's there's papers, they're stapling, she's getting coffee. But while

0:22:12.800 --> 0:22:16.080
<v Speaker 1>she's doing all this, she's wearing this kind of bondage

0:22:16.240 --> 0:22:20.119
<v Speaker 1>device that suspends and outstretches her arms to either side.

0:22:20.200 --> 0:22:23.560
<v Speaker 1>This is an iconic intro scene. I feel like it'll

0:22:23.600 --> 0:22:27.040
<v Speaker 1>be remembered throughout her career. It is really cool as

0:22:27.040 --> 0:22:31.280
<v Speaker 1>a scene visually. Yeah, Like really put looks you into

0:22:31.320 --> 0:22:33.399
<v Speaker 1>the world because it does it. I mean, it's not

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<v Speaker 1>until the midpoint of the movie, hello screenwriting degree that

0:22:37.520 --> 0:22:41.639
<v Speaker 1>they enter into any sort of like dom sub relationships,

0:22:41.680 --> 0:22:43.439
<v Speaker 1>so it takes a while to get there. But this

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<v Speaker 1>gives you a nice little, um, you know, foreshadowing of

0:22:46.880 --> 0:22:50.240
<v Speaker 1>what's to come. Yeah, and she's also like smiling while

0:22:50.280 --> 0:22:52.640
<v Speaker 1>she's doing it, so you're in on it. Like there's

0:22:52.680 --> 0:22:54.560
<v Speaker 1>these two moments in the beginning when she kind of

0:22:54.560 --> 0:22:56.439
<v Speaker 1>smirks and at the very end when she looks right

0:22:56.440 --> 0:22:58.800
<v Speaker 1>at the camera where she's like just so you know,

0:22:59.400 --> 0:23:01.960
<v Speaker 1>I'm into this, and I think that's what we're supposed

0:23:01.960 --> 0:23:05.520
<v Speaker 1>to take from it, but I wasn't exactly sure. Yeah,

0:23:05.640 --> 0:23:08.119
<v Speaker 1>I also had a discussion about that. I was like, oh, okay,

0:23:08.160 --> 0:23:10.040
<v Speaker 1>she's breaking the fourth wall to be like, hey, I

0:23:10.080 --> 0:23:16.840
<v Speaker 1>know I never said it. Don't ask me. I'm the

0:23:16.880 --> 0:23:20.240
<v Speaker 1>one who needs to approve these activities like don't look

0:23:20.280 --> 0:23:24.320
<v Speaker 1>at us like. She also stares at the camera and

0:23:24.320 --> 0:23:26.919
<v Speaker 1>breaks the fourth wall at the very end Allah Judy

0:23:27.000 --> 0:23:29.439
<v Speaker 1>Dench and cats, Like I really thought she was like

0:23:29.480 --> 0:23:33.320
<v Speaker 1>about to start singing about cats are not dogs at

0:23:33.400 --> 0:23:37.680
<v Speaker 1>the end of this movie. And uh yeah. She also

0:23:37.760 --> 0:23:40.040
<v Speaker 1>just looks kind of angry like at the end when

0:23:40.040 --> 0:23:42.440
<v Speaker 1>she stares at us, Like at the beginning, it's it's

0:23:42.480 --> 0:23:44.760
<v Speaker 1>like this kind of like funny knowing smirk, like, oh,

0:23:44.800 --> 0:23:46.600
<v Speaker 1>you're judging me, but I'm enjoying this, And at the

0:23:46.680 --> 0:23:49.800
<v Speaker 1>end it's like she's she's angry at us. I don't know.

0:23:50.240 --> 0:23:52.520
<v Speaker 1>I don't know what assumption she thinks I'm making, But

0:23:52.600 --> 0:23:54.359
<v Speaker 1>at the end, I was mostly just like, so you

0:23:54.400 --> 0:23:56.560
<v Speaker 1>went through all of that so that you could just

0:23:56.600 --> 0:23:59.960
<v Speaker 1>be like a housewife? Is that was that the goal here?

0:24:00.280 --> 0:24:04.080
<v Speaker 1>Wasn't that the not what you wanted? I'm confused. But

0:24:04.200 --> 0:24:06.960
<v Speaker 1>you're different from your sister in her marriage because you

0:24:07.000 --> 0:24:11.800
<v Speaker 1>guys are into roaches in your bed. That is so

0:24:12.200 --> 0:24:14.560
<v Speaker 1>like early two thousand movie though, I feel like it

0:24:14.640 --> 0:24:16.639
<v Speaker 1>where it's like, oh, I'm not like the other girls,

0:24:16.680 --> 0:24:19.600
<v Speaker 1>but I want all the exact things of the other girls.

0:24:20.119 --> 0:24:22.280
<v Speaker 1>But I want my wedding goes to be black, and

0:24:22.320 --> 0:24:26.359
<v Speaker 1>we're gonna have sex. We're gonna have sex against tree.

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<v Speaker 1>Would a really hit for me when I was twelve,

0:24:29.320 --> 0:24:31.800
<v Speaker 1>I was like, what honestly, I was gonna say. When

0:24:31.800 --> 0:24:34.199
<v Speaker 1>I was a kid, I watched that scene and I

0:24:34.240 --> 0:24:36.119
<v Speaker 1>was not at an age where I fully understood how

0:24:36.160 --> 0:24:39.199
<v Speaker 1>sex worked. But I just remember being like, the tree

0:24:39.280 --> 0:24:41.959
<v Speaker 1>is a big part of this, Like the trees and

0:24:42.160 --> 0:24:46.200
<v Speaker 1>sex go together. I do love having sex on camping

0:24:46.240 --> 0:24:49.560
<v Speaker 1>trips now all the time. And I didn't realize like, oh,

0:24:49.560 --> 0:24:52.280
<v Speaker 1>the tree is hurting hurting her back, like that's what

0:24:52.320 --> 0:24:54.080
<v Speaker 1>it is. But I was just like, no, I think

0:24:54.520 --> 0:24:57.880
<v Speaker 1>you need a tree involved in this sex act. That's

0:24:57.880 --> 0:25:00.760
<v Speaker 1>how it goes. Yeah, she just wanted to get her

0:25:00.800 --> 0:25:04.840
<v Speaker 1>back fucked up against some tree bark because because she

0:25:04.920 --> 0:25:07.760
<v Speaker 1>fell in love with the world's most complicated man. Oh

0:25:07.800 --> 0:25:12.280
<v Speaker 1>he's so interesting. Ah, he's not like the others. Okay,

0:25:12.320 --> 0:25:14.800
<v Speaker 1>So we see this opening scene and then we cut

0:25:14.840 --> 0:25:18.359
<v Speaker 1>to six months earlier. Lee has just been released after

0:25:18.440 --> 0:25:22.760
<v Speaker 1>having been institutionalized. Um, she's back home. Things are difficult.

0:25:23.040 --> 0:25:27.520
<v Speaker 1>Her parents are fighting, her dad is abusive towards her mother.

0:25:27.560 --> 0:25:32.240
<v Speaker 1>He's also an alcoholic, and we see her inflicting self harm,

0:25:32.320 --> 0:25:34.119
<v Speaker 1>and then we learned that she has a history of

0:25:34.160 --> 0:25:36.919
<v Speaker 1>doing this. Then one day she sees an ad in

0:25:36.960 --> 0:25:40.520
<v Speaker 1>the paper advertising for a secretary job at a lawyer's office.

0:25:40.680 --> 0:25:42.760
<v Speaker 1>So we just say how how she finds it? Though,

0:25:42.800 --> 0:25:45.440
<v Speaker 1>because I feel like it's not like she's just going

0:25:45.480 --> 0:25:48.919
<v Speaker 1>through the paper looking for a job. She's like throwing

0:25:48.960 --> 0:25:51.320
<v Speaker 1>out her kit of like cell of like tools she

0:25:51.400 --> 0:25:53.600
<v Speaker 1>used to to harm herself. She goes to the trash can,

0:25:53.680 --> 0:25:56.119
<v Speaker 1>throws it out, turns around, and then she's like, I

0:25:56.200 --> 0:25:58.159
<v Speaker 1>can't do it, and she goes to get it back out,

0:25:58.560 --> 0:26:01.119
<v Speaker 1>and then she sees this add in the trash like

0:26:01.200 --> 0:26:03.119
<v Speaker 1>this like it's supposed to be some sort of like

0:26:03.200 --> 0:26:07.320
<v Speaker 1>divine intervention, like she's meant to be this guy's like

0:26:07.520 --> 0:26:12.040
<v Speaker 1>sub slave. Because also she does eventually throw them out,

0:26:12.080 --> 0:26:15.280
<v Speaker 1>but only after, like James Spader says, it's okay, And

0:26:15.320 --> 0:26:18.440
<v Speaker 1>it's like, why couldn't that moment have come earlier for her?

0:26:18.840 --> 0:26:21.000
<v Speaker 1>Why couldn't she It's like, couldn't she have just thrown

0:26:21.000 --> 0:26:23.200
<v Speaker 1>it out then and then been like, oh, an ad

0:26:23.200 --> 0:26:26.480
<v Speaker 1>to be a secretary? Okay? Yeah, I felt that that

0:26:26.840 --> 0:26:28.720
<v Speaker 1>whole I mean once it gets to like that James

0:26:28.720 --> 0:26:32.280
<v Speaker 1>Spader scene, which I like, No, it's weird because it's like,

0:26:32.320 --> 0:26:34.639
<v Speaker 1>I know that that scene is kind of like iconic

0:26:34.720 --> 0:26:37.600
<v Speaker 1>in its own right, but it's like he's just like,

0:26:37.880 --> 0:26:41.639
<v Speaker 1>don't do that ever again, and she's like, oh, that's

0:26:41.680 --> 0:26:46.840
<v Speaker 1>why I didn't not do it. I just need to stop.

0:26:47.119 --> 0:26:48.679
<v Speaker 1>I was doing it again, and then I was like

0:26:48.960 --> 0:26:54.600
<v Speaker 1>I never thought don't don't do do it the hospital

0:26:54.640 --> 0:26:57.600
<v Speaker 1>and my family were like, maybe do it. Like it's

0:26:57.640 --> 0:27:00.679
<v Speaker 1>like it's just so my mom was like locking the

0:27:00.720 --> 0:27:03.240
<v Speaker 1>knives away, like but you know, if you want to,

0:27:03.280 --> 0:27:04.800
<v Speaker 1>just come get me and I'll and I'll get it

0:27:04.840 --> 0:27:08.919
<v Speaker 1>out for you. Like I feel so I felt. I

0:27:08.960 --> 0:27:12.440
<v Speaker 1>felt for Lee's mom. I felt like the movie really

0:27:12.520 --> 0:27:15.640
<v Speaker 1>was not very nice to her at every turn, and

0:27:15.720 --> 0:27:18.280
<v Speaker 1>like if I mean, the first time you see her,

0:27:18.440 --> 0:27:22.400
<v Speaker 1>she is being abused by her husband, and then really

0:27:22.440 --> 0:27:26.240
<v Speaker 1>every other time she crops up like she's made to

0:27:26.320 --> 0:27:30.880
<v Speaker 1>look kind of dumb and overbearing and like you never

0:27:30.960 --> 0:27:34.919
<v Speaker 1>really get any closure with her or the family. And

0:27:34.960 --> 0:27:37.199
<v Speaker 1>it's it's kind of interesting because the first half of

0:27:37.240 --> 0:27:40.360
<v Speaker 1>the film to me, felt so kind of surreal and comedic,

0:27:40.800 --> 0:27:43.240
<v Speaker 1>like all the stuff with the sister's wedding. It feels

0:27:43.320 --> 0:27:46.160
<v Speaker 1>like a joke, all the stuff, honestly, with like her

0:27:46.240 --> 0:27:50.280
<v Speaker 1>dad being an alcoholic, it feels like this caricature of

0:27:50.320 --> 0:27:54.840
<v Speaker 1>an alcoholic where he's like stumbling around downtown, wandering into

0:27:54.880 --> 0:27:58.000
<v Speaker 1>phone booths, and it's just like, Okay, is is this

0:27:58.040 --> 0:28:00.960
<v Speaker 1>supposed to be like kind of a funny any like

0:28:01.640 --> 0:28:05.119
<v Speaker 1>over the top? Yeah, like like play like we're making

0:28:05.119 --> 0:28:08.880
<v Speaker 1>fun of suburbia and like the drunk alcoholic parents who

0:28:08.960 --> 0:28:11.239
<v Speaker 1>like you know, and is is are we supposed to be? Like, Oh,

0:28:11.280 --> 0:28:12.879
<v Speaker 1>they're in on it. This is kind of like a

0:28:13.400 --> 0:28:17.040
<v Speaker 1>pro prozac nation moment. But then it makes you feel

0:28:17.119 --> 0:28:19.840
<v Speaker 1>bad for the mom because you're like, oh, no, she's

0:28:19.880 --> 0:28:22.160
<v Speaker 1>dealing with this abuse and wait, can we take these

0:28:22.200 --> 0:28:25.439
<v Speaker 1>characters seriously? But then they're like no, no, this is

0:28:25.560 --> 0:28:28.360
<v Speaker 1>James Spader is way more interesting. Like what we're we're

0:28:28.359 --> 0:28:30.760
<v Speaker 1>all here for Spader, We're not here for these for

0:28:30.800 --> 0:28:34.960
<v Speaker 1>this family. Very confused by this movie tonally, like I

0:28:35.040 --> 0:28:39.840
<v Speaker 1>don't really it's a comedy dress It's like it's marketed

0:28:39.840 --> 0:28:43.280
<v Speaker 1>as a comedy and I don't I'm not seeing that

0:28:43.400 --> 0:28:46.400
<v Speaker 1>much humor in it, or maybe it's just so subtle

0:28:46.480 --> 0:28:49.880
<v Speaker 1>that I'm not picking up on it. I don't And

0:28:49.920 --> 0:28:51.959
<v Speaker 1>then at the and then at the end, it's like

0:28:52.200 --> 0:28:56.000
<v Speaker 1>few like you're just like what is happening? Once once

0:28:56.080 --> 0:28:58.920
<v Speaker 1>the like the wedding dresses on, You're like, this movie

0:28:58.960 --> 0:29:05.160
<v Speaker 1>has switched right. It's like an S and M Julia

0:29:05.240 --> 0:29:09.160
<v Speaker 1>Roberts moment. You have, Like the press, apparently with nothing

0:29:09.200 --> 0:29:12.880
<v Speaker 1>else to report, is just like outside of his office

0:29:13.000 --> 0:29:17.680
<v Speaker 1>for days, like reporting on this woman who you would think,

0:29:17.720 --> 0:29:20.560
<v Speaker 1>like like a doctor would just come in. I don't

0:29:20.560 --> 0:29:22.280
<v Speaker 1>know why. The press was like, no, we need to

0:29:22.320 --> 0:29:27.880
<v Speaker 1>publish her and saying love letter right now like running liked.

0:29:28.160 --> 0:29:29.960
<v Speaker 1>And also that's the thing. Did he tip them off?

0:29:30.080 --> 0:29:32.840
<v Speaker 1>Because he did tip by he tips off the boyfriend.

0:29:33.400 --> 0:29:35.640
<v Speaker 1>Was he like, let's let's get Peter in here, Let's

0:29:35.640 --> 0:29:39.040
<v Speaker 1>get the family, let's get impressed in here, Like I

0:29:39.280 --> 0:29:42.640
<v Speaker 1>I honestly think he's just standing at his creepy masturbation window,

0:29:43.160 --> 0:29:46.240
<v Speaker 1>and I think he was just like, I'm just gonna

0:29:46.240 --> 0:29:48.480
<v Speaker 1>see where this goes. I'm just gonna sleep on the

0:29:48.520 --> 0:29:52.400
<v Speaker 1>floor till this all blows down, Like I guess is

0:29:52.400 --> 0:29:56.840
<v Speaker 1>how he like punishes himself, like oh no, the most

0:29:56.880 --> 0:29:59.120
<v Speaker 1>privileged punishment of all time. He's like, I'm gonna sleep

0:29:59.160 --> 0:30:02.200
<v Speaker 1>on the floor of my lawyer man while he is

0:30:02.240 --> 0:30:04.760
<v Speaker 1>like sitting in her piss for like five days in

0:30:04.800 --> 0:30:07.000
<v Speaker 1>a row because he doesn't want to use his words

0:30:07.000 --> 0:30:10.600
<v Speaker 1>and say, yeah, I like you too. Remember that's what

0:30:10.680 --> 0:30:12.720
<v Speaker 1>starts all of it, is that he cannot stay back

0:30:13.120 --> 0:30:16.640
<v Speaker 1>I like you too. Yeah. She's like a herd out

0:30:16.720 --> 0:30:20.280
<v Speaker 1>and then he's just like, stay there until I come back,

0:30:20.520 --> 0:30:22.520
<v Speaker 1>until I And then he just stands outside the window

0:30:22.560 --> 0:30:25.960
<v Speaker 1>and he's like, I like you do, missus all the way.

0:30:27.280 --> 0:30:30.360
<v Speaker 1>I have done what Maggie Gillenhall does in that like

0:30:30.480 --> 0:30:35.720
<v Speaker 1>extended scene emotionally a lot. I've sat in my piss

0:30:35.720 --> 0:30:38.360
<v Speaker 1>emotionally waiting for someone to say they like me back

0:30:38.800 --> 0:30:42.080
<v Speaker 1>for many times. Physically it would be a first. I

0:30:42.080 --> 0:30:46.720
<v Speaker 1>also think she would have pooped herself to if she's

0:30:46.760 --> 0:30:49.400
<v Speaker 1>there for like three days. It was also her wedding

0:30:49.480 --> 0:30:53.120
<v Speaker 1>day when he picks her up. We're getting so hard

0:30:53.160 --> 0:30:55.440
<v Speaker 1>of ourselves. But when he picks her up and like

0:30:55.840 --> 0:30:58.200
<v Speaker 1>sweeps her off her feet and carries her out of

0:30:58.240 --> 0:31:01.920
<v Speaker 1>the office like that wedding dress should be like brown

0:31:02.080 --> 0:31:07.280
<v Speaker 1>and yellow from all her why is he touching it.

0:31:07.280 --> 0:31:09.120
<v Speaker 1>It's like kind of a break in his character, this

0:31:09.120 --> 0:31:10.920
<v Speaker 1>guy who doesn't want to touch worms. He's all all

0:31:10.920 --> 0:31:14.080
<v Speaker 1>of a sudden, he's all over this like Pisch dressed right.

0:31:14.240 --> 0:31:16.120
<v Speaker 1>Maybe that's part of his king. I watched that with

0:31:16.160 --> 0:31:19.120
<v Speaker 1>my boyfriend and we were just like openly laughing. Once

0:31:19.160 --> 0:31:21.720
<v Speaker 1>it hit the end row, it was like, oh, that's

0:31:21.800 --> 0:31:25.000
<v Speaker 1>so and then we're just like, she's rewarded with a bath,

0:31:25.160 --> 0:31:27.680
<v Speaker 1>and then she's locked in a room and she's like

0:31:27.720 --> 0:31:33.120
<v Speaker 1>and that's when I felt so beautiful, And you're like, also,

0:31:33.360 --> 0:31:36.640
<v Speaker 1>is that that like weird grass table, which to me

0:31:36.760 --> 0:31:39.880
<v Speaker 1>seems like a place where you kill animals. I don't

0:31:39.920 --> 0:31:44.680
<v Speaker 1>know why someone would just have this like fake grassbed,

0:31:45.320 --> 0:31:48.240
<v Speaker 1>uh thing? Why does he have that? And then she's

0:31:48.280 --> 0:31:51.080
<v Speaker 1>like laying there and she's like, she's like, no, this

0:31:51.160 --> 0:31:53.200
<v Speaker 1>is the first time I ever felt whole. And I

0:31:53.280 --> 0:31:54.960
<v Speaker 1>was like, oh, I didn't know you didn't feel whole.

0:31:55.040 --> 0:31:56.920
<v Speaker 1>This is the first time. I'm like hearing this was

0:31:56.960 --> 0:32:01.320
<v Speaker 1>an issue for you throughout the film. Gosh, it's good.

0:32:01.920 --> 0:32:04.880
<v Speaker 1>Would have been nice to know how you were feeling

0:32:04.920 --> 0:32:13.719
<v Speaker 1>about anything. Unfortunately, we never learned that much about her character. Oops. No, Maggie. Okay,

0:32:13.720 --> 0:32:16.800
<v Speaker 1>So she sees the ad in the paper for the

0:32:16.880 --> 0:32:21.440
<v Speaker 1>lawyer's secretary job. She goes in to apply to the office,

0:32:21.600 --> 0:32:25.960
<v Speaker 1>and then we meet the lawyer, Mr. E Edward Gray,

0:32:26.120 --> 0:32:29.920
<v Speaker 1>that's James Spader's character. He interviews her on the spot.

0:32:30.160 --> 0:32:34.720
<v Speaker 1>It's a very inappropriate and weird interview. We can talk

0:32:34.760 --> 0:32:37.520
<v Speaker 1>about that. He immediately it is just like, let me

0:32:37.600 --> 0:32:40.840
<v Speaker 1>just make sure this girl does not know boundaries. He's

0:32:40.920 --> 0:32:43.120
<v Speaker 1>just straight off the bat, like, let me just make

0:32:43.160 --> 0:32:45.400
<v Speaker 1>sure I can manipulate this girl who does not know

0:32:45.480 --> 0:32:50.480
<v Speaker 1>what is appropriate or is inappropriate, right, yes, And he

0:32:50.840 --> 0:32:53.800
<v Speaker 1>gives her the job, so she starts working for him.

0:32:53.880 --> 0:32:57.720
<v Speaker 1>He's mostly a bastard and he makes her do inappropriate

0:32:57.800 --> 0:33:01.920
<v Speaker 1>things like go through the dumpster, he throws away donuts

0:33:01.960 --> 0:33:04.880
<v Speaker 1>that she gave him as a gift. He leers at

0:33:04.960 --> 0:33:09.960
<v Speaker 1>her body inappropriately. I was having some real like fraud

0:33:10.080 --> 0:33:14.360
<v Speaker 1>complex moments, uh during me like her early times in

0:33:14.400 --> 0:33:16.960
<v Speaker 1>that job, where it's like it is so clear to

0:33:17.040 --> 0:33:20.120
<v Speaker 1>the viewer that he is not hiring her because she's

0:33:20.160 --> 0:33:21.800
<v Speaker 1>going to be good at the job. He's kind of

0:33:21.880 --> 0:33:23.960
<v Speaker 1>hiring her because she's going to be bad at the job.

0:33:24.320 --> 0:33:26.320
<v Speaker 1>And then when she's bad at the job, which he

0:33:26.400 --> 0:33:30.160
<v Speaker 1>knew she would be. He like punishes her relentlessly, which

0:33:30.160 --> 0:33:35.600
<v Speaker 1>feels like every early job I ever had exactly. It

0:33:35.680 --> 0:33:38.640
<v Speaker 1>reminded me of just every abusive boss who's just like

0:33:38.880 --> 0:33:40.840
<v Speaker 1>this has too much sugar, not enough sugar, Like, oh

0:33:40.920 --> 0:33:42.560
<v Speaker 1>my gosh, I don't like the way that you type this.

0:33:42.640 --> 0:33:45.040
<v Speaker 1>Oh actually I wanted like this much space on the left,

0:33:45.280 --> 0:33:47.760
<v Speaker 1>and you're just like, oh, you're just a jerk. But

0:33:47.880 --> 0:33:51.320
<v Speaker 1>she's supposed to be She's supposed to be this naive child,

0:33:51.520 --> 0:33:53.719
<v Speaker 1>and that's why she falls for it. Like any I

0:33:53.760 --> 0:33:56.960
<v Speaker 1>think any adult woman would have been like, no, you

0:33:56.960 --> 0:33:59.080
<v Speaker 1>can't ask me if I'm pregnant, would have just stormed

0:33:59.080 --> 0:34:03.400
<v Speaker 1>out of there. But she's like, oh my gosh, yeah,

0:34:03.440 --> 0:34:07.840
<v Speaker 1>I guess, like this is cool and just you know,

0:34:07.960 --> 0:34:10.080
<v Speaker 1>and I think he knows that. And that's why the

0:34:10.400 --> 0:34:13.680
<v Speaker 1>entire dynamic just feels like it's set up so gross,

0:34:13.800 --> 0:34:16.160
<v Speaker 1>because she doesn't even come into the job with any

0:34:16.200 --> 0:34:19.920
<v Speaker 1>sort of like equal footing totally, which is the main

0:34:19.960 --> 0:34:23.120
<v Speaker 1>reason I have a real problem with this movie is

0:34:23.400 --> 0:34:26.879
<v Speaker 1>that we are meant to be rooting for this relationship

0:34:27.280 --> 0:34:31.760
<v Speaker 1>in which a man is exploiting this imbalance of power

0:34:32.320 --> 0:34:36.840
<v Speaker 1>that he has in this relationship with this woman. So

0:34:36.960 --> 0:34:40.600
<v Speaker 1>what follows that is one day at work, her dad

0:34:40.840 --> 0:34:44.120
<v Speaker 1>calls her and he had left Lee and her mother.

0:34:44.440 --> 0:34:47.960
<v Speaker 1>He seems to be hitting rock bottom and this upsets

0:34:48.080 --> 0:34:51.200
<v Speaker 1>Lee and she self harms again at the office and

0:34:51.320 --> 0:34:55.360
<v Speaker 1>Mr Gracie's her doing this because she does it in

0:34:55.400 --> 0:34:57.680
<v Speaker 1>the middle of the waiting room, by the way, just

0:34:57.760 --> 0:34:59.719
<v Speaker 1>like at her desk, in the middle of the waiting room,

0:34:59.719 --> 0:35:04.200
<v Speaker 1>where anyone could have walked into the office, right. Just yeah,

0:35:04.320 --> 0:35:06.719
<v Speaker 1>there was a few. I mean, I don't know, as

0:35:06.800 --> 0:35:10.719
<v Speaker 1>like a former self harmer myself. It's like we go

0:35:10.840 --> 0:35:14.640
<v Speaker 1>to the bathroom. Yeah, it's like it was, And that

0:35:14.719 --> 0:35:16.680
<v Speaker 1>was one of the tonal moments where it was weird

0:35:16.760 --> 0:35:20.080
<v Speaker 1>because we also see like the weird moments where he's

0:35:20.120 --> 0:35:23.279
<v Speaker 1>like popping around the corner and just like peeking at her.

0:35:23.440 --> 0:35:26.480
<v Speaker 1>It's like weird. But then there's this moment where she's like,

0:35:26.640 --> 0:35:29.400
<v Speaker 1>I have to self harm, and obviously she would go

0:35:29.440 --> 0:35:31.440
<v Speaker 1>to the bathroom like we saw her like do this

0:35:31.520 --> 0:35:35.440
<v Speaker 1>privately before, but we know he's going to be peeking,

0:35:35.680 --> 0:35:38.839
<v Speaker 1>and they set it up just to make it so obvious,

0:35:39.680 --> 0:35:43.120
<v Speaker 1>and it's like like it just felt kind of comical.

0:35:43.200 --> 0:35:45.400
<v Speaker 1>The way that he just immediately is just like and

0:35:45.400 --> 0:35:47.120
<v Speaker 1>then she sees and it's like, oh my gosh, I

0:35:47.120 --> 0:35:49.200
<v Speaker 1>didn't even consider that he could have been standing there.

0:35:49.280 --> 0:35:51.560
<v Speaker 1>And she seems so shocked, and it's like, yeah, girlier

0:35:51.600 --> 0:35:54.880
<v Speaker 1>in the middle of your office, like they make her

0:35:55.040 --> 0:36:00.319
<v Speaker 1>so baby. Yeah. Yeah, it's just frustrating. So after he

0:36:00.360 --> 0:36:04.879
<v Speaker 1>sees this um, he starts to really lay into her um,

0:36:04.960 --> 0:36:07.480
<v Speaker 1>yelling at her for typing errors, telling her that the

0:36:07.520 --> 0:36:11.760
<v Speaker 1>way she dresses is disgusting, like she's sniffling, she's fiddling

0:36:11.760 --> 0:36:13.920
<v Speaker 1>with her hair, she does this weird thing with her tongue,

0:36:14.440 --> 0:36:18.160
<v Speaker 1>and she seems to make an active attempt to fix

0:36:18.239 --> 0:36:21.400
<v Speaker 1>these things. And then he asks her about a recent

0:36:21.480 --> 0:36:24.000
<v Speaker 1>date that we saw her on with this guy Peter,

0:36:24.040 --> 0:36:25.919
<v Speaker 1>who she knew from high school, which is a date

0:36:25.960 --> 0:36:28.600
<v Speaker 1>that takes place out a laundromat where they're drinking wine.

0:36:28.640 --> 0:36:30.239
<v Speaker 1>I don't know if this is a thing or not,

0:36:30.360 --> 0:36:33.360
<v Speaker 1>but that's what I know. I thought that was cool.

0:36:33.560 --> 0:36:36.080
<v Speaker 1>And I mean, I don't know if this is just

0:36:36.120 --> 0:36:38.360
<v Speaker 1>a Midwest thing, but in the Midwest, all my white

0:36:38.360 --> 0:36:40.920
<v Speaker 1>friends loved going on dates to the laundromat, So I

0:36:41.000 --> 0:36:43.120
<v Speaker 1>just I was like, yeah, I was like, I guess

0:36:43.160 --> 0:36:45.200
<v Speaker 1>this is a thing I never heard. There are lots

0:36:45.200 --> 0:36:48.719
<v Speaker 1>of white people where they also have like bars too,

0:36:49.400 --> 0:36:51.080
<v Speaker 1>but I was like, I would be into this, And

0:36:51.120 --> 0:36:54.080
<v Speaker 1>also like, it's just creepy that he also uses that

0:36:54.160 --> 0:36:57.400
<v Speaker 1>laundromat because he's supposed to be this like big time lawyer,

0:36:57.400 --> 0:36:59.240
<v Speaker 1>and I'm like, you don't have like a really fancy

0:36:59.320 --> 0:37:04.319
<v Speaker 1>dry cleaner. Are also using like the dating laundromat, and

0:37:04.400 --> 0:37:07.160
<v Speaker 1>at least in a home he'd haven't. Wouldn't he have

0:37:07.320 --> 0:37:10.240
<v Speaker 1>like an in home or like pick up or something.

0:37:10.320 --> 0:37:13.560
<v Speaker 1>But no, he's also just like go into this town

0:37:14.200 --> 0:37:18.640
<v Speaker 1>laundromat and dinner night place, and then he sees them

0:37:18.680 --> 0:37:21.520
<v Speaker 1>and gets like super creepy. He's like peeking behind the

0:37:21.600 --> 0:37:28.520
<v Speaker 1>washers again. So if you don't find James Spader attractive

0:37:28.520 --> 0:37:32.759
<v Speaker 1>in this movie, which I don't, really, those shots are

0:37:32.960 --> 0:37:38.760
<v Speaker 1>so alarming. They're just like, yeah, I don't know where

0:37:40.239 --> 0:37:42.760
<v Speaker 1>what are you doing? I don't know how the Steve

0:37:42.920 --> 0:37:47.680
<v Speaker 1>the Bouschemy test applies here exactly, but it's like, to me,

0:37:47.880 --> 0:37:51.920
<v Speaker 1>I feel like he's sort of for some he's for

0:37:52.000 --> 0:37:54.719
<v Speaker 1>me for sure, on account of how much I hate

0:37:54.800 --> 0:37:59.080
<v Speaker 1>James Spader. But um, so anyway, he's like, hey, that

0:37:59.280 --> 0:38:01.359
<v Speaker 1>date that you wrong? What was that all about? Did

0:38:01.400 --> 0:38:03.560
<v Speaker 1>you have sex? You know you can? You can tell

0:38:03.600 --> 0:38:06.959
<v Speaker 1>me about your problems. Also, don't ever hurt yourself again.

0:38:07.040 --> 0:38:12.160
<v Speaker 1>Don't cut yourself again. And she says, okay, yes, I won't. Um,

0:38:12.239 --> 0:38:16.960
<v Speaker 1>and then she makes another typing error and he calls

0:38:16.960 --> 0:38:19.960
<v Speaker 1>her into his office instructs her to bend over on

0:38:20.040 --> 0:38:22.719
<v Speaker 1>his desk and read the letter. And while she does this,

0:38:23.200 --> 0:38:28.279
<v Speaker 1>he slaps her, but repeatedly, And we'll talk all about this,

0:38:28.320 --> 0:38:31.520
<v Speaker 1>but this is the This kind of initiates the beginning

0:38:31.760 --> 0:38:36.680
<v Speaker 1>of a dom sub relationship between them. Um. He starts

0:38:36.840 --> 0:38:39.600
<v Speaker 1>to tell her what to eat. He has her crawl

0:38:39.640 --> 0:38:42.400
<v Speaker 1>around the office on all fours. We see him strapping

0:38:42.440 --> 0:38:46.080
<v Speaker 1>a saddle to her. Yeah, can we do that? Where

0:38:46.120 --> 0:38:48.000
<v Speaker 1>where did that come from? Is that why he has

0:38:48.080 --> 0:38:51.960
<v Speaker 1>the fake grass bed? I needed more answers there. Oh sure,

0:38:53.320 --> 0:38:57.120
<v Speaker 1>I was like, Okay, this is kind of awesome, but also, like,

0:38:57.160 --> 0:39:00.360
<v Speaker 1>where does he keep that? It's a really small office.

0:39:02.560 --> 0:39:06.040
<v Speaker 1>It's a huge it's for like not a pony. He also,

0:39:06.120 --> 0:39:08.239
<v Speaker 1>I believe there was also Hey, like this was a

0:39:08.400 --> 0:39:11.520
<v Speaker 1>very it was a platform with Hey. Yeah, there was

0:39:11.600 --> 0:39:15.120
<v Speaker 1>hey and carrots. This was like not just your you know,

0:39:15.160 --> 0:39:17.600
<v Speaker 1>I have this saddle hanging around. This was like a

0:39:17.680 --> 0:39:21.200
<v Speaker 1>well thought out like a photo shoot almost. He's very

0:39:21.280 --> 0:39:24.759
<v Speaker 1>inconsistent with like sometimes he's like, oh, I just I

0:39:24.840 --> 0:39:27.960
<v Speaker 1>just want it right now, but then other times it's like, no,

0:39:28.040 --> 0:39:29.799
<v Speaker 1>this would have taken a lot of planning. You would

0:39:29.800 --> 0:39:31.640
<v Speaker 1>have had to decide this a couple of days ago

0:39:31.920 --> 0:39:34.440
<v Speaker 1>in advance. Yeah, And so for him to be so

0:39:34.560 --> 0:39:36.840
<v Speaker 1>wishy washy had points when it's like, no, the the

0:39:36.880 --> 0:39:41.680
<v Speaker 1>amount of probably just preparation involved in this relationship so far,

0:39:41.800 --> 0:39:43.600
<v Speaker 1>Like I'm sorry for you to now say that you

0:39:43.680 --> 0:39:45.920
<v Speaker 1>never had feelings for this girl, Like, I'm sorry, but

0:39:46.480 --> 0:39:49.720
<v Speaker 1>you're in a relationship. It made a bet of hay

0:39:49.840 --> 0:39:52.440
<v Speaker 1>for if you're making a bet of hey, you're in

0:39:52.440 --> 0:39:55.560
<v Speaker 1>a relationship, Okay, go ahead and put a term on it,

0:39:55.600 --> 0:39:59.440
<v Speaker 1>because that's your girlfriend. That's a commitment. That's a commitment.

0:40:01.600 --> 0:40:05.160
<v Speaker 1>After this, though, something kind of changes and he loses

0:40:05.640 --> 0:40:09.080
<v Speaker 1>He seems to lose interest and he stops engaging in

0:40:09.360 --> 0:40:14.279
<v Speaker 1>their B DSM relationship, much to her disappointment. Meanwhile, she

0:40:14.400 --> 0:40:17.680
<v Speaker 1>has been dating Peter. She wants him to spank her.

0:40:18.040 --> 0:40:21.200
<v Speaker 1>He doesn't get it. They have boring sex. She's very

0:40:21.200 --> 0:40:24.360
<v Speaker 1>dissatisfied for Peter. He does that thing with this hand.

0:40:24.120 --> 0:40:28.000
<v Speaker 1>Peter he has this claw hand that he does and

0:40:28.080 --> 0:40:29.840
<v Speaker 1>he has sex to there where he doesn't touch her.

0:40:29.880 --> 0:40:33.960
<v Speaker 1>He just like the like hovering or he's just like

0:40:37.400 --> 0:40:39.520
<v Speaker 1>and then he just she like she like turns around

0:40:39.560 --> 0:40:41.640
<v Speaker 1>like and does the like spank me move and he's

0:40:41.719 --> 0:40:45.879
<v Speaker 1>just like get a cond Like he's just like he's

0:40:45.920 --> 0:40:48.960
<v Speaker 1>just a character you feel so bad for. And she

0:40:49.080 --> 0:40:53.040
<v Speaker 1>does like briefly date some like other people in a montage,

0:40:53.280 --> 0:40:55.120
<v Speaker 1>which I feel like the movie would have been better

0:40:55.120 --> 0:40:58.239
<v Speaker 1>if we'd actually seen her go on these like bad

0:40:58.440 --> 0:41:00.440
<v Speaker 1>s and M dates and like scene that X varience,

0:41:00.480 --> 0:41:03.000
<v Speaker 1>but like very quickly they're just like, yeah, she tried

0:41:03.000 --> 0:41:05.200
<v Speaker 1>like throwing tomatoes at somebody and she did this in

0:41:05.239 --> 0:41:06.880
<v Speaker 1>any way that didn't work, So she must be in

0:41:06.920 --> 0:41:10.399
<v Speaker 1>love with James Bader, so let's move on, right. It's

0:41:10.440 --> 0:41:12.880
<v Speaker 1>like they look like the lamest like s and M

0:41:13.000 --> 0:41:14.520
<v Speaker 1>days you could go on, like, I think she just

0:41:14.640 --> 0:41:18.760
<v Speaker 1>probably picked the wrong people off of Craigslist. In two thousands,

0:41:19.080 --> 0:41:23.600
<v Speaker 1>the newspaper, I guess if you're putting your snm ads

0:41:23.600 --> 0:41:29.600
<v Speaker 1>in the newspaper. You're gonna get some some misses, right.

0:41:30.480 --> 0:41:34.160
<v Speaker 1>So then at work, Lee puts a worm in a

0:41:34.320 --> 0:41:38.520
<v Speaker 1>letter to Mr Gray to try to reinitiate their b

0:41:38.600 --> 0:41:44.520
<v Speaker 1>DSM relationship, and it works sort of in that there's

0:41:44.600 --> 0:41:50.000
<v Speaker 1>like another encounter. But Mr Gray feels guilty about his

0:41:50.120 --> 0:41:52.680
<v Speaker 1>behavior and he thinks there's something wrong with him and

0:41:52.719 --> 0:41:56.040
<v Speaker 1>he wants to severtise with Lee, so he fires her

0:41:56.719 --> 0:42:00.239
<v Speaker 1>and she is devastated. That's when she tries these other

0:42:00.440 --> 0:42:03.879
<v Speaker 1>dom sub relationships with other men. None of them work out.

0:42:04.400 --> 0:42:06.920
<v Speaker 1>She gets engaged to Peter because she doesn't know what

0:42:06.960 --> 0:42:10.520
<v Speaker 1>else to do, but on their wedding day, she runs

0:42:10.520 --> 0:42:16.120
<v Speaker 1>away Allah Julia Roberts in Runaway Bride to Mr Gray

0:42:16.400 --> 0:42:17.840
<v Speaker 1>and she's like, I love you, I want to be

0:42:17.920 --> 0:42:20.200
<v Speaker 1>with you, I want to make love and he's like,

0:42:20.280 --> 0:42:22.920
<v Speaker 1>put your hands on the desk, plant both feet on

0:42:22.960 --> 0:42:25.359
<v Speaker 1>the floor, and don't move until I come back. She

0:42:25.440 --> 0:42:29.719
<v Speaker 1>takes that note very serious. She does not move. She

0:42:29.800 --> 0:42:35.760
<v Speaker 1>doesn't move. He does different things to test her. I guess,

0:42:35.760 --> 0:42:38.400
<v Speaker 1>like we said what He tells Peter where she is?

0:42:39.120 --> 0:42:43.280
<v Speaker 1>She urinates in the wedding dress. He sends like everyone

0:42:43.600 --> 0:42:47.399
<v Speaker 1>he sends the entire castle a movie. Basically everyone we've

0:42:47.440 --> 0:42:49.759
<v Speaker 1>seen up until this point like comes in to have

0:42:49.880 --> 0:42:52.879
<v Speaker 1>like a little monologue with her where they all talk

0:42:52.920 --> 0:42:57.120
<v Speaker 1>about him. It's never like, hey, Lee, are you like hungry?

0:42:57.520 --> 0:43:00.200
<v Speaker 1>No one brings her a snack. Her mom brings her

0:43:00.280 --> 0:43:04.239
<v Speaker 1>four pas, but that brings her some peas, but most

0:43:04.280 --> 0:43:07.520
<v Speaker 1>of them are just like, he is brilliant, isn't he?

0:43:07.960 --> 0:43:11.200
<v Speaker 1>Oh my gosh, the worm trick was so smart? And

0:43:11.239 --> 0:43:15.440
<v Speaker 1>it's just like, is anyone like a therapist kind of

0:43:15.440 --> 0:43:17.439
<v Speaker 1>talks to her? And then the only person who really

0:43:17.480 --> 0:43:19.640
<v Speaker 1>gets through to her is her dad, who's like reading

0:43:19.680 --> 0:43:24.239
<v Speaker 1>the Bible right. I was honestly kind of confused. I

0:43:24.280 --> 0:43:27.120
<v Speaker 1>was like, is she hallucinating these because she's so hungry

0:43:27.160 --> 0:43:30.279
<v Speaker 1>and tired? But then it's like, no, these people are

0:43:31.080 --> 0:43:33.480
<v Speaker 1>really here. I think where I got confused, And like,

0:43:33.560 --> 0:43:38.640
<v Speaker 1>how did Mr Gray get his ex wife to participate

0:43:39.400 --> 0:43:44.640
<v Speaker 1>in this like she and compliment to him? And and

0:43:44.719 --> 0:43:47.359
<v Speaker 1>did he call his ex wife before he called the

0:43:47.400 --> 0:43:51.160
<v Speaker 1>press or did he call the press first? Which I

0:43:51.200 --> 0:43:53.560
<v Speaker 1>guess that least I guess their divorce has since has

0:43:53.600 --> 0:43:57.080
<v Speaker 1>been settled off screen, So you seem very upset in

0:43:57.120 --> 0:43:59.600
<v Speaker 1>the beginning, and now she's gone full circle to yes,

0:43:59.640 --> 0:44:02.280
<v Speaker 1>he's a genius, and somehow he slipped through my hands.

0:44:02.960 --> 0:44:08.319
<v Speaker 1>She's like, yeah, I was just showing too much agency, personality, etcetera.

0:44:08.600 --> 0:44:11.719
<v Speaker 1>I was just you know, an actual person a few

0:44:11.760 --> 0:44:15.879
<v Speaker 1>times and that didn't click for him. But you were

0:44:15.920 --> 0:44:20.719
<v Speaker 1>just a perfect, just blank tablet of a human for

0:44:20.800 --> 0:44:24.759
<v Speaker 1>him to imprint on. So those so those people were

0:44:24.800 --> 0:44:29.839
<v Speaker 1>actually there. She gets like five copies of codependency no more,

0:44:30.560 --> 0:44:34.279
<v Speaker 1>she reads none of them. And then and then he

0:44:34.320 --> 0:44:37.439
<v Speaker 1>finally comes back after I believe three days of her

0:44:37.680 --> 0:44:42.799
<v Speaker 1>not sleeping, not eating or drinking water, presumably pissing, and

0:44:42.800 --> 0:44:45.560
<v Speaker 1>shooting herself, and then he comes back. He sweeps her

0:44:45.600 --> 0:44:47.839
<v Speaker 1>off her feet, he takes her home, he gives her

0:44:47.840 --> 0:44:52.239
<v Speaker 1>a bath, um and then they become a couple. They

0:44:52.280 --> 0:44:55.760
<v Speaker 1>get married, They on a tree, goes off to work,

0:44:55.920 --> 0:44:59.080
<v Speaker 1>they fuck on a tree. He you know, he keeps

0:44:59.120 --> 0:45:02.839
<v Speaker 1>being a lawyer. She we're not sure what she does

0:45:02.960 --> 0:45:06.200
<v Speaker 1>with I guess she's not a secretary anymore because she's

0:45:06.200 --> 0:45:08.960
<v Speaker 1>not going to the office, right, did she just stay

0:45:09.000 --> 0:45:11.560
<v Speaker 1>at home? We don't really know. Actually, by the end

0:45:11.600 --> 0:45:13.600
<v Speaker 1>of the movie, the one thing we know about her

0:45:13.760 --> 0:45:16.920
<v Speaker 1>that she is a secretary. We don't even know that anymore, right,

0:45:17.200 --> 0:45:19.920
<v Speaker 1>We actually and the movie knowing less about her than

0:45:20.000 --> 0:45:25.160
<v Speaker 1>we started with. True, we don't even know her job.

0:45:25.320 --> 0:45:29.720
<v Speaker 1>She like like this is yeah, this is pretty disempowering

0:45:30.480 --> 0:45:36.200
<v Speaker 1>in a way, equally angless as when she began. But well, yeah,

0:45:36.200 --> 0:45:39.720
<v Speaker 1>like this was supposed to be a very happy ending. Yeah,

0:45:40.120 --> 0:45:42.279
<v Speaker 1>well that's the movie. Let's take a quick break and

0:45:42.280 --> 0:45:51.840
<v Speaker 1>then we'll come right back for more discussion. And we're back.

0:45:53.000 --> 0:45:57.440
<v Speaker 1>Um okay, so I really quickly, I think I wanted

0:45:57.520 --> 0:46:04.000
<v Speaker 1>to start with talking about the material for the book. Um, Caitlin,

0:46:04.120 --> 0:46:07.640
<v Speaker 1>you read the story. Yes, I did, bravely. I did

0:46:07.680 --> 0:46:12.359
<v Speaker 1>as well. I don't make a habit of reading. But

0:46:12.560 --> 0:46:18.360
<v Speaker 1>it was only liked read this. So I once I

0:46:18.400 --> 0:46:20.880
<v Speaker 1>saw that it was very short, I was like, alright,

0:46:21.080 --> 0:46:23.640
<v Speaker 1>I'll do I can manage this. So this movie is

0:46:23.680 --> 0:46:27.880
<v Speaker 1>adapted from a short story that is, I mean, the

0:46:28.000 --> 0:46:32.000
<v Speaker 1>framework is similar, but it plays out really really differently.

0:46:32.080 --> 0:46:36.080
<v Speaker 1>It's by Mary gate Skill, who I think I had

0:46:36.120 --> 0:46:39.200
<v Speaker 1>read stuff of hers before, maybe in high school or college.

0:46:39.280 --> 0:46:43.680
<v Speaker 1>She's like a famous mostly short story writer. Um. And

0:46:43.760 --> 0:46:47.600
<v Speaker 1>this was from a collection she wrote back in nineteen

0:46:47.680 --> 0:46:54.680
<v Speaker 1>idiot called bad behavior, and it is different. It is

0:46:56.320 --> 0:47:00.440
<v Speaker 1>so the I think most notable ways in which the

0:47:00.480 --> 0:47:04.760
<v Speaker 1>source material is different from the film is that there's

0:47:05.320 --> 0:47:08.920
<v Speaker 1>no mention of any of her self harm behavior in

0:47:08.960 --> 0:47:11.719
<v Speaker 1>the story. There's only a brief mention that her mom

0:47:11.800 --> 0:47:14.880
<v Speaker 1>had taken her to a psychiatrist one time. But aside

0:47:14.880 --> 0:47:18.480
<v Speaker 1>from that, the self harm aspect of her character seems

0:47:18.600 --> 0:47:23.440
<v Speaker 1>to be specific to the movie. In the scene in

0:47:23.600 --> 0:47:27.839
<v Speaker 1>which which the movie would have you believe is the

0:47:27.880 --> 0:47:31.800
<v Speaker 1>beginning of their dom sub relationship, we will talk about

0:47:31.840 --> 0:47:37.399
<v Speaker 1>how how it's just an assault with no prior understanding

0:47:37.520 --> 0:47:41.560
<v Speaker 1>on her part of what was going to happen, no

0:47:41.880 --> 0:47:46.239
<v Speaker 1>consent given on her part. Right during that scene in

0:47:46.680 --> 0:47:49.480
<v Speaker 1>the short story, the character whose name is not Lee,

0:47:49.560 --> 0:47:51.879
<v Speaker 1>I think her name is Debbie in the short story. Um.

0:47:51.920 --> 0:47:58.480
<v Speaker 1>But anyway, that character, that character is crying the whole time,

0:47:58.640 --> 0:48:02.080
<v Speaker 1>and she just seems much more traumatized by the events

0:48:02.120 --> 0:48:05.520
<v Speaker 1>of that in the short story. Uh. The story ends

0:48:05.640 --> 0:48:09.440
<v Speaker 1>with the lead character deciding not to show up to

0:48:09.440 --> 0:48:12.960
<v Speaker 1>work anymore, and she's the one who effectively ends their relationship.

0:48:13.040 --> 0:48:16.319
<v Speaker 1>They don't get together. At the end. He runs for

0:48:16.480 --> 0:48:21.279
<v Speaker 1>mayor of their town and she judges. She's like, this

0:48:21.320 --> 0:48:24.319
<v Speaker 1>town is so shitty. What kind of idiot would run

0:48:24.440 --> 0:48:27.319
<v Speaker 1>for mayor of such a shitty town? And then that's

0:48:27.360 --> 0:48:31.600
<v Speaker 1>pretty much how the story ends. That's very different. It's

0:48:31.680 --> 0:48:35.240
<v Speaker 1>so different. I thought it was like a good story.

0:48:35.360 --> 0:48:37.279
<v Speaker 1>I I felt like it was. I mean it was

0:48:37.360 --> 0:48:40.399
<v Speaker 1>it's very like like late eighties. But it felt like, oh,

0:48:40.440 --> 0:48:43.359
<v Speaker 1>this was like kind of this like slice of this

0:48:43.400 --> 0:48:46.480
<v Speaker 1>young woman's life. She had like a traumatic work experience,

0:48:46.880 --> 0:48:50.080
<v Speaker 1>and there wasn't really any like infrastructure for her to

0:48:50.280 --> 0:48:52.720
<v Speaker 1>like process or report it, so she just took herself

0:48:52.719 --> 0:48:55.840
<v Speaker 1>out of the situation and then looked back on it

0:48:56.520 --> 0:49:00.520
<v Speaker 1>thinking that he sucked and was a loser, which which

0:49:00.560 --> 0:49:05.919
<v Speaker 1>is like a relatable experience. I didn't dislike the story. Yeah,

0:49:05.960 --> 0:49:07.520
<v Speaker 1>I don't know Mary gets call. I mean, I guess

0:49:07.520 --> 0:49:11.960
<v Speaker 1>that there's not too much worth discussing about her here

0:49:12.080 --> 0:49:14.600
<v Speaker 1>because the movie has kind of very little to do

0:49:14.680 --> 0:49:17.920
<v Speaker 1>with what she read. I feel like the story sounds

0:49:17.960 --> 0:49:21.640
<v Speaker 1>so much better, like the whole aspect of the self

0:49:21.680 --> 0:49:25.839
<v Speaker 1>harm and the mental illness. Just the way it's used here,

0:49:26.560 --> 0:49:29.160
<v Speaker 1>it's only used to take away her agency, it's only

0:49:29.239 --> 0:49:33.239
<v Speaker 1>used to make her seem so childish, uh, And it's

0:49:33.280 --> 0:49:35.560
<v Speaker 1>it's kind of used to make it like, oh, this

0:49:35.640 --> 0:49:38.200
<v Speaker 1>is the reason that she is this way. They use

0:49:38.280 --> 0:49:40.680
<v Speaker 1>it as an excuse, like, oh, the only reason that

0:49:40.719 --> 0:49:43.759
<v Speaker 1>she would be into like subdom stuff is because she's

0:49:43.800 --> 0:49:46.759
<v Speaker 1>the kind of person whose self harms, which obviously is

0:49:46.760 --> 0:49:49.480
<v Speaker 1>a really like dangerous stereotype for the b D s

0:49:49.600 --> 0:49:53.160
<v Speaker 1>M community. But also it's just like, like, no, she

0:49:53.200 --> 0:49:55.480
<v Speaker 1>could just like I love this type of stuff and

0:49:55.480 --> 0:49:57.319
<v Speaker 1>want to be in this relationship, but instead you want

0:49:57.320 --> 0:49:59.120
<v Speaker 1>to tie it to her mental illness, and that makes

0:49:59.160 --> 0:50:03.279
<v Speaker 1>me go a looks that he's taking advantage of that, Like, like,

0:50:03.360 --> 0:50:05.720
<v Speaker 1>you guys should have just listened to Mary here, because

0:50:05.760 --> 0:50:10.760
<v Speaker 1>obviously she accounted for that way back in come on, yeah,

0:50:10.800 --> 0:50:14.400
<v Speaker 1>in the way her mental health issues are depicted. And

0:50:14.440 --> 0:50:18.560
<v Speaker 1>this isn't to say the people who have or have

0:50:18.760 --> 0:50:22.360
<v Speaker 1>had self harm tendencies can't get into b D s

0:50:22.520 --> 0:50:26.719
<v Speaker 1>M and use that as a coping strategy in a

0:50:26.719 --> 0:50:30.399
<v Speaker 1>healthy way. I read some anecdotes from people who took

0:50:30.440 --> 0:50:33.160
<v Speaker 1>that approach and it seemed to work out great for them,

0:50:33.400 --> 0:50:36.520
<v Speaker 1>So I don't have a problem with the movie showing

0:50:36.600 --> 0:50:40.600
<v Speaker 1>that as a general thing. What I do find troublesome

0:50:41.080 --> 0:50:47.280
<v Speaker 1>is this character Mr Gray, who is an abuser, seems

0:50:47.400 --> 0:50:53.680
<v Speaker 1>to somehow curely of her mental illness by simply telling

0:50:53.719 --> 0:50:57.840
<v Speaker 1>her not to have a mental illness anymore. I was

0:50:58.000 --> 0:51:00.719
<v Speaker 1>I was bummed from Mary, and I like, on reading this,

0:51:00.840 --> 0:51:03.160
<v Speaker 1>I was like kind of even more confused with some

0:51:03.200 --> 0:51:05.719
<v Speaker 1>of the choices that the movie made because I assumed

0:51:06.840 --> 0:51:09.719
<v Speaker 1>I was like, oh, well, okay, I knew going in

0:51:09.760 --> 0:51:12.200
<v Speaker 1>at the ending was very different in the movie than

0:51:12.239 --> 0:51:13.640
<v Speaker 1>it is in the book. But I'm like, maybe they

0:51:13.680 --> 0:51:18.040
<v Speaker 1>just chose, you know, a bad in for a happy ending.

0:51:18.160 --> 0:51:22.640
<v Speaker 1>Like if she I would almost be a little more like, oh,

0:51:22.680 --> 0:51:26.600
<v Speaker 1>this was done with good intent. Uh if it was like, oh,

0:51:26.640 --> 0:51:28.839
<v Speaker 1>it just didn't adapt well and then the studio made

0:51:28.880 --> 0:51:31.520
<v Speaker 1>us change the ending and so it comes off not

0:51:31.880 --> 0:51:34.960
<v Speaker 1>very well. But that's not even the case. And I

0:51:35.000 --> 0:51:37.520
<v Speaker 1>have a quote from Mary gate Skill who is like,

0:51:38.520 --> 0:51:41.680
<v Speaker 1>she's really interesting. She's got you can look up her

0:51:41.719 --> 0:51:45.720
<v Speaker 1>takes on me too. They're all over the place because

0:51:45.719 --> 0:51:51.279
<v Speaker 1>she's she's all about the gray area of sexual interactions,

0:51:51.280 --> 0:51:55.120
<v Speaker 1>which doesn't translate well to that conversation. Uh, even if

0:51:55.160 --> 0:51:57.719
<v Speaker 1>it turns out, you know, often well in her work,

0:51:57.800 --> 0:52:00.759
<v Speaker 1>But Anyways, she was asked about this movie because it's

0:52:00.760 --> 0:52:03.319
<v Speaker 1>so different, and she was like, pretty I don't know,

0:52:03.440 --> 0:52:06.640
<v Speaker 1>very chill about it. She said that the film was

0:52:06.800 --> 0:52:10.120
<v Speaker 1>quote the Pretty Woman version, very heavy on the charm

0:52:10.400 --> 0:52:12.920
<v Speaker 1>and a little too nice. But the bottom line is

0:52:12.960 --> 0:52:15.839
<v Speaker 1>that if if a film adaptation is made, you get

0:52:15.880 --> 0:52:18.080
<v Speaker 1>some money and exposure and people can make up their

0:52:18.080 --> 0:52:21.520
<v Speaker 1>minds from there. So she very much like it's kind

0:52:21.520 --> 0:52:27.200
<v Speaker 1>of like I gotta check check, and then distanced herself

0:52:27.200 --> 0:52:29.440
<v Speaker 1>from yeah, I like that. She says the movie is

0:52:29.600 --> 0:52:33.240
<v Speaker 1>charming because like, where where is that charm? I didn't

0:52:35.280 --> 0:52:39.040
<v Speaker 1>Her takes are all over the places like this is

0:52:39.080 --> 0:52:43.600
<v Speaker 1>Pretty Woman? Like where like where where is Lee coming

0:52:43.640 --> 0:52:47.480
<v Speaker 1>back to be like I own this? There's never that

0:52:47.520 --> 0:52:50.520
<v Speaker 1>moment she comes back and she's like yeah, she comes

0:52:50.560 --> 0:52:51.920
<v Speaker 1>and she's like I love you and I'm going to

0:52:52.000 --> 0:52:54.919
<v Speaker 1>sit here and do this. But it's only after she

0:52:55.440 --> 0:52:57.719
<v Speaker 1>bears her soul to the press and they like put

0:52:57.719 --> 0:53:00.160
<v Speaker 1>out her statement about how she's the only person who

0:53:00.200 --> 0:53:03.120
<v Speaker 1>understands him and he's so complicated that he like reads

0:53:03.160 --> 0:53:05.480
<v Speaker 1>it and it's like you know what, Okay, fine, I'll

0:53:05.480 --> 0:53:07.279
<v Speaker 1>go back in there and get her Like I was

0:53:07.320 --> 0:53:09.520
<v Speaker 1>gonna just like see how long she do this and

0:53:09.520 --> 0:53:12.319
<v Speaker 1>have fun with it. But now I guess I'll take

0:53:12.320 --> 0:53:17.040
<v Speaker 1>it seriously Like that that was It's not like Mr

0:53:17.120 --> 0:53:20.600
<v Speaker 1>Gray has like such a trust of the local press.

0:53:21.719 --> 0:53:29.399
<v Speaker 1>He trusted more than women. He's allegedly in love with Um.

0:53:29.440 --> 0:53:33.960
<v Speaker 1>So Mary Gaskill writes the story, it eventually gets um

0:53:34.000 --> 0:53:39.000
<v Speaker 1>picked up by this direct or, Stephen Shaneberg, I was

0:53:39.239 --> 0:53:42.279
<v Speaker 1>not aware of. I had never heard of him, and

0:53:42.400 --> 0:53:44.239
<v Speaker 1>I looked up his other stuff and I had not

0:53:44.400 --> 0:53:46.680
<v Speaker 1>heard of any of it. I don't know who this

0:53:46.840 --> 0:53:48.880
<v Speaker 1>man is. For some reason, I thought it was Steven

0:53:48.920 --> 0:53:51.279
<v Speaker 1>Soderberg who directed this, and then I was and then

0:53:51.320 --> 0:53:52.920
<v Speaker 1>I was like, oh wait, no, I read that wrong.

0:53:53.239 --> 0:53:56.920
<v Speaker 1>That doesn't say Soderberg. That said something else. It's like

0:53:58.160 --> 0:54:00.279
<v Speaker 1>it's like one of the You're like Steve Stephenburg, like

0:54:00.360 --> 0:54:04.200
<v Speaker 1>Steve Soderberg, like he had a he had another. I

0:54:04.200 --> 0:54:08.360
<v Speaker 1>think he only made one other movie after Secretary, and

0:54:08.400 --> 0:54:10.799
<v Speaker 1>it also had like pretty mixed reviews. But like some

0:54:10.840 --> 0:54:13.239
<v Speaker 1>big names attached to it, it seems like he just

0:54:14.000 --> 0:54:16.160
<v Speaker 1>he just kind of makes these like boring middle of

0:54:16.160 --> 0:54:20.000
<v Speaker 1>the lane like white like artsy movies with with couples

0:54:20.040 --> 0:54:24.319
<v Speaker 1>that fight. Yeah, it's like I couldn't quite figure out

0:54:24.360 --> 0:54:28.880
<v Speaker 1>what his deal was other than I believe he Oh no,

0:54:29.040 --> 0:54:31.560
<v Speaker 1>he wasn't nepotism. I really can't make heads or tails

0:54:31.600 --> 0:54:35.560
<v Speaker 1>of his life in that case. But the the I

0:54:35.600 --> 0:54:39.279
<v Speaker 1>think the screenwriter of this movie is pretty interesting and

0:54:39.320 --> 0:54:41.560
<v Speaker 1>she has like a lot of pretty well known work.

0:54:41.640 --> 0:54:46.880
<v Speaker 1>She was like originally a playwright named Aaron Crisita Wilson.

0:54:47.560 --> 0:54:50.399
<v Speaker 1>Other stuff she's written include the I think The Girl

0:54:50.440 --> 0:54:53.879
<v Speaker 1>on the Train is probably her most famous other adaptation.

0:54:54.400 --> 0:54:57.480
<v Speaker 1>And then there was a movie named Chloe that I

0:54:57.520 --> 0:55:03.120
<v Speaker 1>definitely saw. It is not It's not good. It's Julianne

0:55:03.120 --> 0:55:06.680
<v Speaker 1>Morriley of Neeson and Amanda sy Free. I totally forgot

0:55:06.719 --> 0:55:10.000
<v Speaker 1>about that movie. I like cut it out of my memory.

0:55:10.360 --> 0:55:13.839
<v Speaker 1>It's a mess. She is interesting to me because I

0:55:13.880 --> 0:55:17.399
<v Speaker 1>feel like I haven't rewatched Chloe in a long time.

0:55:17.440 --> 0:55:20.319
<v Speaker 1>But I feel like this particular writer is drawn to

0:55:20.400 --> 0:55:24.439
<v Speaker 1>a very particular type of female protagonist that we've talked

0:55:24.480 --> 0:55:27.480
<v Speaker 1>about before. But it's or we we're talking about earlier,

0:55:27.520 --> 0:55:33.160
<v Speaker 1>but it's like she is drawn to like upwardly mobile

0:55:33.280 --> 0:55:37.320
<v Speaker 1>white lady with mental illness, but then kind of uses

0:55:37.520 --> 0:55:43.640
<v Speaker 1>that framing device to just punish the character relentlessly throughout

0:55:43.680 --> 0:55:46.320
<v Speaker 1>the work. And I'm sure I'm oversimplifying the girl on

0:55:46.360 --> 0:55:48.759
<v Speaker 1>the train a little bit um. But I did not

0:55:49.280 --> 0:55:53.120
<v Speaker 1>like that movie. Uh wasn't a fan, and it's it's

0:55:53.200 --> 0:55:58.040
<v Speaker 1>like brutal. She's interesting, and so I was looking up.

0:55:58.080 --> 0:56:01.840
<v Speaker 1>This was her first screenplay and she's written I guess

0:56:01.840 --> 0:56:04.080
<v Speaker 1>like twenty plays. I'm not. I don't know. It's like

0:56:04.440 --> 0:56:07.560
<v Speaker 1>good for her, all power to her, but she didn't

0:56:07.600 --> 0:56:10.680
<v Speaker 1>interview when she first wrote this movie where they were

0:56:10.800 --> 0:56:13.520
<v Speaker 1>basically asking her like, oh, have you ever been as

0:56:13.520 --> 0:56:17.000
<v Speaker 1>secretary or have you ever been um in a B

0:56:17.080 --> 0:56:21.160
<v Speaker 1>D S M situation? And her answer is so weird,

0:56:21.280 --> 0:56:23.799
<v Speaker 1>it's okay, So here it is. She says, I have

0:56:23.920 --> 0:56:26.759
<v Speaker 1>had many instances of sexual harassment and jobs I've had

0:56:26.760 --> 0:56:28.680
<v Speaker 1>in the past, but I was young and didn't know

0:56:28.719 --> 0:56:31.600
<v Speaker 1>what I was being sexually harassed in these instances. I

0:56:31.640 --> 0:56:34.520
<v Speaker 1>had absolutely no sexual attraction to the harassers, so it

0:56:34.600 --> 0:56:36.879
<v Speaker 1>was confusing to me. I thought I had been hired

0:56:36.920 --> 0:56:39.960
<v Speaker 1>because these men liked my work, not my ass. You see,

0:56:40.040 --> 0:56:42.280
<v Speaker 1>I went to girls schools for much of my education,

0:56:42.400 --> 0:56:44.880
<v Speaker 1>so I came from a very sheltered and also wonderful

0:56:44.960 --> 0:56:48.080
<v Speaker 1>environment where I was seen for my personality, my intelligence,

0:56:48.120 --> 0:56:50.200
<v Speaker 1>and my talent. When it came to work, I was

0:56:50.239 --> 0:56:52.799
<v Speaker 1>not accustomed to being seen as a sexual object. It

0:56:52.800 --> 0:56:55.440
<v Speaker 1>took me years after college to finally understand that I

0:56:55.520 --> 0:56:58.919
<v Speaker 1>was being harassed. I never thought of myself as particularly hot,

0:56:58.960 --> 0:57:01.040
<v Speaker 1>so I was always ACKed when I realized that was

0:57:01.080 --> 0:57:03.719
<v Speaker 1>going on. I've worked with men I was attracted to,

0:57:03.920 --> 0:57:07.120
<v Speaker 1>and this can be very invigorating and exciting, especially if

0:57:07.160 --> 0:57:10.080
<v Speaker 1>it is never consummated. But that is a consensual and

0:57:10.160 --> 0:57:15.200
<v Speaker 1>more adult situation. This film situation borders on sexual harassment definitely,

0:57:15.600 --> 0:57:17.800
<v Speaker 1>but I think it ceases to be harassment when the

0:57:17.800 --> 0:57:20.400
<v Speaker 1>submissive starts to like it and actually ask for it.

0:57:20.880 --> 0:57:23.000
<v Speaker 1>So it's like, I'm like really with her at the

0:57:23.040 --> 0:57:27.320
<v Speaker 1>beginning of this, and that took some turns, and then

0:57:27.320 --> 0:57:31.240
<v Speaker 1>at the end you're just like, wait, why didn't know?

0:57:31.560 --> 0:57:35.760
<v Speaker 1>Why didn't attractive people can sexually harass in the workplace?

0:57:36.000 --> 0:57:39.560
<v Speaker 1>That's oh, there were so many I was like, I'm

0:57:39.640 --> 0:57:42.040
<v Speaker 1>with you, I'm with you, and then I was just

0:57:42.080 --> 0:57:45.160
<v Speaker 1>like no. And also, there is like a moment in

0:57:45.200 --> 0:57:48.160
<v Speaker 1>the movie where they like kind of joke about sexual harassment.

0:57:48.200 --> 0:57:50.560
<v Speaker 1>Her sisters when they're by the pool, Like one of

0:57:50.600 --> 0:57:52.720
<v Speaker 1>them is like, oh, I'm you should like sue your

0:57:52.720 --> 0:57:55.320
<v Speaker 1>boss for sexual harassment, and then like Lee is just like,

0:57:56.000 --> 0:57:58.600
<v Speaker 1>at least my boss is sexy. He's the best in

0:57:58.600 --> 0:58:02.760
<v Speaker 1>the world. Okay, So that I feel like that is there.

0:58:03.320 --> 0:58:06.400
<v Speaker 1>I feel like that's the movie attempting to show the

0:58:06.480 --> 0:58:11.800
<v Speaker 1>distinction between like actual abuse and b D s M,

0:58:11.840 --> 0:58:15.479
<v Speaker 1>the movie saying these are two different things. I feel

0:58:15.480 --> 0:58:19.200
<v Speaker 1>like this is also why we see Lee's father being

0:58:19.440 --> 0:58:23.480
<v Speaker 1>physically abusive to the mother. That's saying like, that's what abuses.

0:58:23.800 --> 0:58:27.560
<v Speaker 1>What we're seeing in this relationship between Lee and Mr Gray,

0:58:27.600 --> 0:58:30.920
<v Speaker 1>this is different. This is a consensual b D s

0:58:31.000 --> 0:58:34.200
<v Speaker 1>M relationship. However, this is my whole thing with this movie,

0:58:34.200 --> 0:58:37.480
<v Speaker 1>and we already hinted at it, But like, the relationship

0:58:37.520 --> 0:58:40.960
<v Speaker 1>between the two characters starts as him being verbally and

0:58:41.000 --> 0:58:45.680
<v Speaker 1>emotionally abusive towards her in the workplace. This is followed

0:58:45.720 --> 0:58:48.760
<v Speaker 1>by the scene in which he has her bend over

0:58:48.760 --> 0:58:52.840
<v Speaker 1>the desk and repeatedly spank her. Um, she did not

0:58:52.920 --> 0:58:55.080
<v Speaker 1>know this was going to happen. She did not give

0:58:55.480 --> 0:59:00.200
<v Speaker 1>consent to this. In addition, there's also a major you're

0:59:00.240 --> 0:59:03.160
<v Speaker 1>in balance of power in that he is her boss

0:59:03.320 --> 0:59:06.680
<v Speaker 1>and she is his subordinate. There's also seemingly no one

0:59:06.720 --> 0:59:10.400
<v Speaker 1>else there. Yeah. Also, let's I don't think we mentioned

0:59:10.400 --> 0:59:12.640
<v Speaker 1>that the very first time she goes in for the interview,

0:59:13.040 --> 0:59:17.000
<v Speaker 1>there's a woman, his old secretary who's leaving and crying.

0:59:17.240 --> 0:59:19.520
<v Speaker 1>They also like cut to that clip at the end,

0:59:19.880 --> 0:59:21.840
<v Speaker 1>which is a little like, yeah, yeah, we get it,

0:59:21.920 --> 0:59:24.600
<v Speaker 1>we get she got fired and she's also crying. We

0:59:24.680 --> 0:59:27.760
<v Speaker 1>know the reference, we get it. But it's like they

0:59:27.800 --> 0:59:31.240
<v Speaker 1>clearly established like he is an abusive boss, Like even

0:59:31.280 --> 0:59:36.160
<v Speaker 1>outside of b D s M, he's not a good boss. Right,

0:59:36.520 --> 0:59:39.120
<v Speaker 1>Like the thing with this movie, and Jamie you had

0:59:39.440 --> 0:59:41.240
<v Speaker 1>mentioned this at the top of the episode, but like

0:59:41.600 --> 0:59:44.560
<v Speaker 1>this movie is widely considered within the b D s

0:59:44.680 --> 0:59:49.280
<v Speaker 1>M community to be more like accurate and responsible in

0:59:49.360 --> 0:59:53.160
<v Speaker 1>its depiction of b D s M relationships, more so

0:59:53.240 --> 0:59:56.720
<v Speaker 1>than like fifty Shades of Gray at least five years ago. Right,

0:59:56.880 --> 0:59:58.760
<v Speaker 1>Because the thing with fifty Shades of Gray is that

0:59:58.840 --> 1:00:01.240
<v Speaker 1>it and we talked about this on that episode, but

1:00:01.320 --> 1:00:05.840
<v Speaker 1>it conflates very concerning behavior like a man stalking a

1:00:05.920 --> 1:00:09.440
<v Speaker 1>woman as like being part of the kink aspect of

1:00:09.480 --> 1:00:12.400
<v Speaker 1>their relationship, and it's just like, no, this is romantic.

1:00:12.440 --> 1:00:16.360
<v Speaker 1>What he's doing, him stalking her is actually very romantic.

1:00:16.680 --> 1:00:19.360
<v Speaker 1>And it's also just like poorly written, so no one

1:00:19.440 --> 1:00:23.040
<v Speaker 1>likes it. But with Secretary, I'm just like what, but

1:00:23.120 --> 1:00:25.959
<v Speaker 1>there's an assault. He assaults her because, like the whole

1:00:26.000 --> 1:00:29.280
<v Speaker 1>thing with B. D. S M, if done right and

1:00:29.320 --> 1:00:33.720
<v Speaker 1>portrayed accurately, it's all about consent, it's all about negotiation,

1:00:33.800 --> 1:00:36.800
<v Speaker 1>it's all about knowing each other's boundaries and limits. It's

1:00:36.840 --> 1:00:41.280
<v Speaker 1>all about safety, and none of that gets established in

1:00:41.320 --> 1:00:45.240
<v Speaker 1>this movie. They don't talk about the relationship he there's

1:00:45.400 --> 1:00:49.720
<v Speaker 1>no safe words established. In fact, he never uses the terms.

1:00:50.000 --> 1:00:53.040
<v Speaker 1>We don't actually even know if he is well versed

1:00:53.040 --> 1:00:55.160
<v Speaker 1>in like B D. S M. Like the woman in

1:00:55.200 --> 1:00:57.160
<v Speaker 1>the beginning comes in and she looks at Lee and

1:00:57.200 --> 1:01:00.720
<v Speaker 1>says sub which is like okay, so she knows about it.

1:01:01.000 --> 1:01:03.360
<v Speaker 1>And then we see like Lee, you know, she's at

1:01:03.360 --> 1:01:05.640
<v Speaker 1>the diner like listening to a book on tape or

1:01:05.680 --> 1:01:08.800
<v Speaker 1>whatever about subdom relationships. But all we ever hear from

1:01:08.880 --> 1:01:12.560
<v Speaker 1>him is that he's like ashamed of this inherent nature

1:01:12.640 --> 1:01:15.200
<v Speaker 1>that he has, Like is this just is he an

1:01:15.200 --> 1:01:20.040
<v Speaker 1>inherently bad guy who likes to harm people, whether they're

1:01:20.080 --> 1:01:23.400
<v Speaker 1>just his secretary or they're his partner, because he's he's

1:01:23.440 --> 1:01:28.160
<v Speaker 1>engaging in it without any consent or without at least conversation.

1:01:28.480 --> 1:01:30.760
<v Speaker 1>There's never a moment where he's like, hey, I'm into

1:01:30.840 --> 1:01:33.880
<v Speaker 1>this lifestyle or hey, you know, he just is full

1:01:33.880 --> 1:01:37.720
<v Speaker 1>of shame about it. So it's very much like I

1:01:37.840 --> 1:01:39.960
<v Speaker 1>don't even know if we can consider him someone who

1:01:40.120 --> 1:01:42.280
<v Speaker 1>is into b D s M because they never even

1:01:42.360 --> 1:01:44.520
<v Speaker 1>say that about his character, Like we don't even know

1:01:44.640 --> 1:01:48.440
<v Speaker 1>that he that he like uses those ideas of consent

1:01:48.520 --> 1:01:50.840
<v Speaker 1>that are in the b D s M community, because

1:01:50.840 --> 1:01:53.840
<v Speaker 1>he just seems like a creep who would probably be

1:01:53.880 --> 1:01:57.520
<v Speaker 1>a jerk to anyone who worked in his office. Right,

1:01:57.640 --> 1:02:01.160
<v Speaker 1>It's I felt like there there was a moment when

1:02:01.320 --> 1:02:05.160
<v Speaker 1>like he experiences the shame about like the kind of

1:02:05.200 --> 1:02:07.640
<v Speaker 1>sex he likes to have, where you're like, oh, like

1:02:08.200 --> 1:02:10.520
<v Speaker 1>maybe the movie is going to make a like an

1:02:10.520 --> 1:02:13.120
<v Speaker 1>interesting point about that, because that's something that happens, and

1:02:13.160 --> 1:02:16.280
<v Speaker 1>like you know it. There are cases of people who

1:02:16.280 --> 1:02:19.160
<v Speaker 1>are so ashamed of what they want and sex that

1:02:19.200 --> 1:02:22.280
<v Speaker 1>they won't educate themselves because they don't want to acknowledge

1:02:22.320 --> 1:02:24.880
<v Speaker 1>that part of themselves. But that but it but that

1:02:25.120 --> 1:02:27.400
<v Speaker 1>you know, that does not happen. It just kind of drops.

1:02:28.040 --> 1:02:30.040
<v Speaker 1>He doesn't learn a thing. Yeah he could. I mean,

1:02:30.080 --> 1:02:32.800
<v Speaker 1>if he has money for a horse saddle. I have

1:02:32.960 --> 1:02:35.520
<v Speaker 1>to imagine he could pick up a book on B

1:02:35.640 --> 1:02:38.520
<v Speaker 1>D s M or safe Words or just like a

1:02:38.560 --> 1:02:41.560
<v Speaker 1>book on tape on like you know, just being like, so,

1:02:41.680 --> 1:02:45.480
<v Speaker 1>can I spank you? I feel like library cards are free. Yeah,

1:02:45.560 --> 1:02:48.720
<v Speaker 1>I feel like he definitely has access to those resources.

1:02:49.280 --> 1:02:52.800
<v Speaker 1>So just they're afraid to ever like just jump into

1:02:52.840 --> 1:02:55.040
<v Speaker 1>the B D s M conversation and in the end,

1:02:55.320 --> 1:02:57.720
<v Speaker 1>that makes it so much more sinister and just so

1:02:57.800 --> 1:03:01.880
<v Speaker 1>much more confusing about what Lee is actually signing up for.

1:03:02.960 --> 1:03:06.520
<v Speaker 1>I'm curious, actually, maybe you will have some insight into

1:03:06.560 --> 1:03:09.800
<v Speaker 1>this of because it's and I've read like a number

1:03:09.880 --> 1:03:12.680
<v Speaker 1>of like pieces that are sort of like, oh, I

1:03:12.760 --> 1:03:17.520
<v Speaker 1>recognize that uh Secretary has equal, if not worse issues

1:03:17.560 --> 1:03:19.480
<v Speaker 1>and fifty shades of great. I just like it more

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<v Speaker 1>and I'm like more attached to it. And my guess

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<v Speaker 1>is because it was the only even semi mainstream movie

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<v Speaker 1>that dealt with this at the time. Okay, I think

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<v Speaker 1>that's it it's like, I mean, even watching it now,

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<v Speaker 1>I was a little like, wow, this came out so

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<v Speaker 1>long ago, like twenty years now, and I mean at

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<v Speaker 1>the time, it was like so shocking that poster is

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<v Speaker 1>so shocking. You're like, wow, I've never seen a film

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<v Speaker 1>just kind of talk about even just self harm. I

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<v Speaker 1>think for me that was such a shocking thing, like

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<v Speaker 1>mental health and that just being something that like a

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<v Speaker 1>woman can have those issues and you can talk about

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<v Speaker 1>it in a movie. Uh. You know. I feel like

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<v Speaker 1>this was that time period of like really like quirky, cute,

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<v Speaker 1>manic pixie dream girls who were all like you know,

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<v Speaker 1>plan ukuleles, and then there was this like dark girl

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<v Speaker 1>who was like hurting herself and dealing with mental health

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<v Speaker 1>issues and like issues of self esteem. And obviously that

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<v Speaker 1>resonated for someone like me who listened to Torrey Amos.

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<v Speaker 1>So I was like in a prime position to love

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<v Speaker 1>this movie. And you know, I still think it it

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<v Speaker 1>does deserve some credit for doing a lot before anyone

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<v Speaker 1>else did it, but I mean it also still does

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<v Speaker 1>so much wrong. Like it, you know, and I think

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<v Speaker 1>we can say like, yeah, it's great, and I I

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<v Speaker 1>can you know, proudly proudly say, like, yeah, I tried

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<v Speaker 1>to spank myself with a hairbrush because I saw it

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<v Speaker 1>in this movie, and you know, I'm into that, Like, okay,

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<v Speaker 1>think I I owe that to secretary. But at the

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<v Speaker 1>same time, James Spader is creepy and this movie could

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<v Speaker 1>be better written. Sure, two things can be true. Yeah, yeah,

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<v Speaker 1>I like I think that it is like definitely good

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<v Speaker 1>that people are able to like discover stuff or feel

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<v Speaker 1>even somewhat seen in a movie like this. I just

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<v Speaker 1>was really I don't know because and I also think

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<v Speaker 1>that the other thing is that it's like it is

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<v Speaker 1>just a better crafted movie the fifty Shades of Great.

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<v Speaker 1>No one wants to watch fifty Great Shades of Gray

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<v Speaker 1>because it's like a shitty movie, even though it is

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<v Speaker 1>you know, we've talked about it in another episode, and

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<v Speaker 1>there's just not the bandwidth the handle it now. But

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<v Speaker 1>there are at least some basic B D s M

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<v Speaker 1>dynamics introduced in fifty Shades of Gray. Whether they are

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<v Speaker 1>actually abided by by the couple, uh doesn't always happen.

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<v Speaker 1>But you are introduced to the just consent and uh,

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<v Speaker 1>you know, what's her name whatever, and so embarrassing and

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<v Speaker 1>as Stasia get an opportunity, and I guess opportunities like

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<v Speaker 1>an overstatement, but like she gets to say, here are

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<v Speaker 1>my boundaries, here's what I won't do, and they do

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<v Speaker 1>that little negotiation and they have some aftercare with each

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<v Speaker 1>other and they cuddle after stuff, and it's just like

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<v Speaker 1>it's very like one oh one, but at least it's

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<v Speaker 1>it's there with yeah, because with Lee there is nothing.

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<v Speaker 1>I mean, she doesn't even read, she doesn't listen to

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<v Speaker 1>that book on tape until after he has ended their relationship.

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<v Speaker 1>She she doesn't go out with other people who are

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<v Speaker 1>into this lifestyle until after the relationship. So she gets

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<v Speaker 1>into it not even knowing what it is. Apparently like

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<v Speaker 1>she's doing these things, she's like happy to crawl on

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<v Speaker 1>the floor and all this stuff, but she actually has

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<v Speaker 1>no idea what she's engaging with until later, and she's

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<v Speaker 1>just being like physically and emotionally abused by this guy.

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<v Speaker 1>Because it seems like for Mr Gray that it is

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<v Speaker 1>just as much of a twenty four seven emotional consumption

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<v Speaker 1>as it's like they're just are no lines. She's given

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<v Speaker 1>no information and because we're introduced to her as kind

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<v Speaker 1>of this childlike character. You kind of assume, well, she

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<v Speaker 1>is not going to be given the agency to figure

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<v Speaker 1>out she doesn't really have anyone else to talk to

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<v Speaker 1>in her life because her family is framed as being

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<v Speaker 1>so I think they're like a joke. Yeah, the family,

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<v Speaker 1>her sister is a character. I don't know why the

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<v Speaker 1>sister is not like a friend or someone she can

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<v Speaker 1>relate to. I don't know why she doesn't have friends

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<v Speaker 1>or just any sort of female character where she can

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<v Speaker 1>be like, I have these feelings about this situation or

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<v Speaker 1>this boy that never happens. We only relate her mom. Yeah,

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<v Speaker 1>all we really know is that Mr Gray is better

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<v Speaker 1>than this other guy who is boring. So that is

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<v Speaker 1>why Mr Gray is good, which poor poor Peter. Peter

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<v Speaker 1>is nice. He cares about you spec her. Maybe he's

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<v Speaker 1>he's really bad at sex, but at least he treats

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<v Speaker 1>her well. He could learn, and maybe you know, he

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<v Speaker 1>just wants to get married and have kids. You know,

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<v Speaker 1>you can teach someone to spank, you can, It's really

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<v Speaker 1>easy to do. Yeah, I feel like he would have

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<v Speaker 1>been game if she'd been like, hey, so I realized

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<v Speaker 1>I'm into b D s M and I want to

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<v Speaker 1>explore this and if she had used the language with him, okay,

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<v Speaker 1>but instead he was just like tape. I feel like

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<v Speaker 1>he would have been like, I'm game to try this

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<v Speaker 1>and figure it out for you. He seems so in

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<v Speaker 1>love with her, and then instead he's just like I

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<v Speaker 1>didn't actually like how they have him confront her in

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<v Speaker 1>that situation, because they tried to kind of paint him

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<v Speaker 1>as the abuser, like he's the only person who manages

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<v Speaker 1>to push her out of that chair and he's like,

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<v Speaker 1>I don't care if you want to stay here, I'm

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<v Speaker 1>going to push you and like physically violate you. And

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<v Speaker 1>that's like a clear moment when they have a man

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<v Speaker 1>like to fire her physical agency and she yells like

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<v Speaker 1>no and like runs to the chair, and I'm just like, wait, no,

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<v Speaker 1>that's so out of character for him. Yeah, Like like

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<v Speaker 1>first of all, like that's out of character. He's never

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<v Speaker 1>been this aggressive person, Like why would he all of

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<v Speaker 1>a sudden just like grab her and do this. But

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<v Speaker 1>also he's the good guy, Like come on, Like, how

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<v Speaker 1>are you going to paint him as the one who's

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<v Speaker 1>like actually now abusive and going against her wishes when

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<v Speaker 1>all he has done has just been like I will

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<v Speaker 1>only touch you with my pinky and you can keep

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<v Speaker 1>all your clothes on and whatever you would like, we

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<v Speaker 1>do this the way that you want to do it,

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<v Speaker 1>like come on. There was also like I felt like

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<v Speaker 1>a kind of subtle like dumping on Peter class wise

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<v Speaker 1>as well, Like I think that they were first of

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<v Speaker 1>all being like Peter isn't something enough for her, and

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<v Speaker 1>I think that, like, you know, sexually masculine is a

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<v Speaker 1>part of that. And then they're also like subtly dumping

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<v Speaker 1>on him for working at j C. Penny all the time.

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<v Speaker 1>They like anytime he comes up there, like and he

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<v Speaker 1>proposed to me in the basement of like they're just

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<v Speaker 1>which is a good line, but that was a good moment.

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<v Speaker 1>I love that scene when they're just sitting there and

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<v Speaker 1>she's like, yeah, I guess I'll marry you. Okay, okay.

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<v Speaker 1>But they're also kind of being like, oh, this guy

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<v Speaker 1>is like he doesn't funk hard enough and he's poor,

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<v Speaker 1>Like he's the nicest person in the movie. He just

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<v Speaker 1>is so sweet and nice. He gives a rides when

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<v Speaker 1>they like when she's like, oh, this wedding sucks, he's

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<v Speaker 1>there to be like hey, yeah, do you need anything,

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<v Speaker 1>Like he just is so sweet and the movie is like, yeah,

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<v Speaker 1>but no, Mr Gray is the is this just really

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<v Speaker 1>complex guy? And she gets him, and I just I

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<v Speaker 1>still don't know what we're supposed to like about the

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<v Speaker 1>guy truly, and contrasting that with like, I mean, like

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<v Speaker 1>I said this a little earlier too, but like how

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<v Speaker 1>her turning point as like a character is when he

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<v Speaker 1>just suggests that she should no longer self harm. So

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<v Speaker 1>it's also like, oh, if you have a crush, that

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<v Speaker 1>will cure your mental illness. Like there's just all sorts

1:11:01.479 --> 1:11:08.759
<v Speaker 1>of bizarre messages being bandied about. He has a polaroid camera,

1:11:09.080 --> 1:11:12.559
<v Speaker 1>she has. She has no more problems, okay, the polar

1:11:12.600 --> 1:11:17.280
<v Speaker 1>and camera thing. I watched this movie with a person

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<v Speaker 1>that I am dating, which was interesting because I forced

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<v Speaker 1>them to watch it, and the whole time I was

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<v Speaker 1>just like, keep in mind, this is like the most

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<v Speaker 1>informative movie to my sexual awakening in my life, so

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<v Speaker 1>just keep that in mind the whole time. And we

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<v Speaker 1>like got into a fight over the polaroid scene because

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<v Speaker 1>I swore there were pictures of multiple girls in that

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<v Speaker 1>book and he had polaroids of like his ex and

1:11:38.560 --> 1:11:41.280
<v Speaker 1>like other secretary he does, and then he burns it.

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<v Speaker 1>Yeah right, And I was like, this shows us this

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<v Speaker 1>is a history of abuse, is a pattern, Like this

1:11:46.040 --> 1:11:48.080
<v Speaker 1>has nothing to do with Lee, this is just this

1:11:48.120 --> 1:11:51.639
<v Speaker 1>guy doing this. But my partner was like, no, those

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<v Speaker 1>were all photos of Lee, so just on the record,

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<v Speaker 1>let's all tell the definitely different people. And then yeah,

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<v Speaker 1>that also is more of and again just like demonizing.

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<v Speaker 1>I mean everyone is kind of demonized in this movie,

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<v Speaker 1>but like it demonizes the b d s M community

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<v Speaker 1>by being like, yeah, they keep things like serial killers,

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<v Speaker 1>like he's has this like serial killer scrapple, like women,

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<v Speaker 1>he's upset, like it's just he keeps their their photos

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<v Speaker 1>and his beautiful orchid garden, and like like b DSM

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<v Speaker 1>people are just inherent monsters who can't control themselves except

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<v Speaker 1>through push ups and treadmills. He is so sweaty in

1:12:34.120 --> 1:12:39.520
<v Speaker 1>that treadmill scene. Oh my gosh. Like they voluntarily flashback

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<v Speaker 1>to that shot a second time. I was like, I

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<v Speaker 1>didn't want to see that again. Also, they also they

1:12:46.439 --> 1:12:48.800
<v Speaker 1>have her flashback to it, but it's not the part

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<v Speaker 1>when she was there, and I was like, how did

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<v Speaker 1>how did she know? He was running that hard? Then

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<v Speaker 1>how did she see it? That is such a heartbreaking

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<v Speaker 1>scene too, and that like when she her so her

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<v Speaker 1>father is sick, she's really upset about it. She's like

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<v Speaker 1>not able to communicate with her mother and her siblings,

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<v Speaker 1>and so she goes to him for like emotional support.

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<v Speaker 1>She kind of has no reason, being as romantically naive

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<v Speaker 1>as she is and also as like manipulous, like she

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<v Speaker 1>has no reason to believe that he won't you be

1:13:21.800 --> 1:13:24.000
<v Speaker 1>nice to her? But then he makes it clear right away,

1:13:24.040 --> 1:13:28.120
<v Speaker 1>like I don't you know that? Like I don't do emotions,

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<v Speaker 1>and it's the hot and the cold. It's that classic

1:13:31.720 --> 1:13:34.919
<v Speaker 1>just like you know. He he made her feel so special,

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<v Speaker 1>made her feel so like, oh, I'm going to fix you,

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<v Speaker 1>and I see everything that's wrong with you. And then

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<v Speaker 1>the second she's like, oh, I actually need your emotional support,

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<v Speaker 1>he's like, I'll read the files in the morning, get

1:13:46.280 --> 1:13:48.960
<v Speaker 1>out of here, right, And then he just sits on

1:13:49.040 --> 1:13:52.000
<v Speaker 1>his bed and like looks out a window, like how

1:13:52.120 --> 1:13:55.160
<v Speaker 1>dare she expect me to show the emotions that I

1:13:55.320 --> 1:13:58.600
<v Speaker 1>promised her i'd show, right, especially when he's like, you

1:13:58.640 --> 1:14:02.000
<v Speaker 1>can talk to me about out your problems. Yeah, he

1:14:02.160 --> 1:14:05.200
<v Speaker 1>like that's the whole opening of their relationships and being like, yeah,

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<v Speaker 1>we can be intimate and you can talk to me.

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<v Speaker 1>And then when she's actually like my dad, which I

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<v Speaker 1>don't I like that they never in the end like

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<v Speaker 1>give us closure on the family thing in terms of

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<v Speaker 1>the dad's like sickness. Like, for all we know, she's

1:14:16.960 --> 1:14:18.840
<v Speaker 1>like fucking on this tree and her dad is just

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<v Speaker 1>dead in a ditch somewhere. We have no idea like

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<v Speaker 1>he yeah, we don't find out if her mom ever

1:14:25.200 --> 1:14:28.120
<v Speaker 1>like gets out of that relationship. And also and then

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<v Speaker 1>it kind of like I just think that that like

1:14:31.240 --> 1:14:33.720
<v Speaker 1>shot of abuse at the beginning ends up being so

1:14:33.880 --> 1:14:38.439
<v Speaker 1>gratuitous because it is never revisited other than like her

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<v Speaker 1>like possibly I could see being like, oh, I don't

1:14:42.560 --> 1:14:44.719
<v Speaker 1>you know, like you were saying, Caitlin, like this is abuse.

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<v Speaker 1>This is an abuse. But then don't bring the dad

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<v Speaker 1>back at the end when she's pissing herself as like

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<v Speaker 1>a good like the best guy. Yeah, the one who

1:14:52.880 --> 1:14:56.400
<v Speaker 1>like understands her like this dad who's abusive is the

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<v Speaker 1>one who's like, I have the Bible Verse you need

1:14:58.680 --> 1:15:03.760
<v Speaker 1>and she's like thank you, daddy, which felt gross. That

1:15:04.280 --> 1:15:07.040
<v Speaker 1>felt like an illegal use of Daddy in that scene.

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<v Speaker 1>I think they should cut it from the film in

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<v Speaker 1>the future, strike it from the record. I also like

1:15:12.240 --> 1:15:15.759
<v Speaker 1>with with her mom, I can't help but feel because

1:15:15.760 --> 1:15:20.400
<v Speaker 1>her mom is painted as being very submissive. Also in

1:15:20.439 --> 1:15:23.280
<v Speaker 1>the fact that she seems to have nothing better to

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<v Speaker 1>do than wait outside of Lee's work for hours on end,

1:15:27.120 --> 1:15:28.720
<v Speaker 1>like we're just waiting for her to be done, to

1:15:28.720 --> 1:15:31.040
<v Speaker 1>pick her up, and I mean, we don't really know

1:15:31.120 --> 1:15:35.040
<v Speaker 1>anything about her except that again she's she just seems

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<v Speaker 1>to be depicted as this very submissive person, and I

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<v Speaker 1>feel like the movie is like wanting you to think

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<v Speaker 1>this is the way not to be submissive, because Lee

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<v Speaker 1>is doing it right. And I think there's like there's

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<v Speaker 1>like I can see a read of this movie and

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<v Speaker 1>all of the defenses of this movie that I've read

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<v Speaker 1>of because people love to write about how Secretary is

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<v Speaker 1>better than Fifty Shades of Gray. So I was reading

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<v Speaker 1>several of those pieces, and a lot of them were

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<v Speaker 1>making the argument that Lee she's given agency. She eventually

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<v Speaker 1>starts consenting and initiating some of these dom sub interactions

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<v Speaker 1>with Mr. Gray. People have written about how she as

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<v Speaker 1>she's becoming more submissive to him. She's actually becoming more

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<v Speaker 1>dominant in her own life and that she's empowered, and

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<v Speaker 1>I can see parts of that. I think her mother

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<v Speaker 1>character is like written the way she is so that

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<v Speaker 1>there's like this stark contrast of like here's the bad

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<v Speaker 1>way to be submissive and here's the good way to

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<v Speaker 1>be submissive. I don't really don't like that. I feel

1:16:47.280 --> 1:16:53.120
<v Speaker 1>about that necessarily, but I don't like it. That does

1:16:53.240 --> 1:16:55.600
<v Speaker 1>make sense to me that I mean, especially I guess that,

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<v Speaker 1>like I mean, every movie you have to take the

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<v Speaker 1>time it came out as context by like maybe especially

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<v Speaker 1>with the movie like this, where this was the option

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<v Speaker 1>for a semi mainstream BDSM movie. And then also there

1:17:09.680 --> 1:17:15.920
<v Speaker 1>are just so few movies about women being remotely sexually empowered,

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<v Speaker 1>even if if you look at the text carefully, like

1:17:19.439 --> 1:17:21.400
<v Speaker 1>are they really? But I feel like this movie was

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<v Speaker 1>very much framed and you were supposed to think that

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<v Speaker 1>she was very sexually empowered, and sometimes that is enough

1:17:28.120 --> 1:17:31.040
<v Speaker 1>if there's not you know, other options. So I mean

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<v Speaker 1>the fact that you see female masturbation, you see female orgasm,

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<v Speaker 1>female pleasure. I feel like she only reaches orgasm when

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<v Speaker 1>she is masturbating and not in anything that she's doing

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<v Speaker 1>with Mr. Gray. No, No, that's true. I mean we

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<v Speaker 1>really only see them have sex, like when they are

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<v Speaker 1>on against the tree. That's the only time. The other

1:17:56.360 --> 1:17:58.920
<v Speaker 1>time is just like him for like going over every

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<v Speaker 1>scar one by one and because she's finally found someone

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<v Speaker 1>so smart that he can understand her scars. That is

1:18:06.479 --> 1:18:10.600
<v Speaker 1>such a I remember that, like not not as sexualized,

1:18:10.600 --> 1:18:13.320
<v Speaker 1>but like I remember a very similar scene on Degrassi

1:18:13.439 --> 1:18:15.559
<v Speaker 1>which was like, oh, like in two thousand two, I

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<v Speaker 1>was very on the Degrassy train and there was there

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<v Speaker 1>was a girl like a character who self harmed, and

1:18:22.439 --> 1:18:27.400
<v Speaker 1>then it was it was Ellie Stacy Farber currently on

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<v Speaker 1>Grayce and Frankie. We love her. She's great, a star,

1:18:31.840 --> 1:18:34.800
<v Speaker 1>she's great. She was the hot topic girl too, but

1:18:34.920 --> 1:18:36.680
<v Speaker 1>she there was like you know that. I feel like

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<v Speaker 1>it is like almost a trophy moment where it's like

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<v Speaker 1>when the person who's self harming finds someone who accepts them.

1:18:43.320 --> 1:18:46.439
<v Speaker 1>They touch your scars and you're like, wow, I finally

1:18:46.600 --> 1:18:49.400
<v Speaker 1>have found love and I am beautiful. And it's corny

1:18:49.520 --> 1:18:52.559
<v Speaker 1>but it's also potent in a way. Like in this movie.

1:18:52.560 --> 1:18:54.960
<v Speaker 1>It didn't really hit for me because I don't value

1:18:55.080 --> 1:18:59.240
<v Speaker 1>like their relationship is so dark and fucked up. But

1:18:59.320 --> 1:19:02.719
<v Speaker 1>in other situations I've been like, that's nice. It worked.

1:19:02.720 --> 1:19:06.400
<v Speaker 1>It worked for me in Degrassi anyways. Yeah, Degrassi definitely

1:19:06.439 --> 1:19:09.040
<v Speaker 1>pulled it off better than this movie did. They could

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<v Speaker 1>have taken some notes, I think, because I don't in

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<v Speaker 1>this scene. I mean, even when he first notices her scars,

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<v Speaker 1>because he notices them before he even tells her the

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<v Speaker 1>whole like stop doing that or catches her trying it.

1:19:22.280 --> 1:19:25.240
<v Speaker 1>She's like setting a rat trap and he's being mean

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<v Speaker 1>about it. And then like her her like dress comes

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<v Speaker 1>up and he sees it. So to me, it's like

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<v Speaker 1>already he is. It's not something where he's like, oh,

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<v Speaker 1>I want to understand this about her. It's like he's

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<v Speaker 1>going to use it against her. It's something that he's like, oh,

1:19:38.760 --> 1:19:40.920
<v Speaker 1>this is another way where I can control her and

1:19:41.000 --> 1:19:44.599
<v Speaker 1>change her and fix her, versus like, oh, I want

1:19:44.600 --> 1:19:48.640
<v Speaker 1>to understand what causes her to do this. I mean,

1:19:48.640 --> 1:19:50.120
<v Speaker 1>I don't think he ever asked. I don't think he

1:19:50.120 --> 1:19:51.960
<v Speaker 1>ever was like, so, what's what's the whole? You know

1:19:52.160 --> 1:19:55.000
<v Speaker 1>nothing about each other. In that scene where they're finally

1:19:55.120 --> 1:19:58.800
<v Speaker 1>like having a tender like kissing moment after he has

1:19:59.000 --> 1:20:03.320
<v Speaker 1>bathed her, She's like, who are you? Where did you

1:20:03.360 --> 1:20:08.280
<v Speaker 1>grow up? Where were you bored? What are your interests?

1:20:08.680 --> 1:20:11.559
<v Speaker 1>They don't know anything about each other. Gives the most

1:20:11.640 --> 1:20:17.400
<v Speaker 1>boring answer. He's like, Moine Iowa, I mean, shout out

1:20:17.400 --> 1:20:20.720
<v Speaker 1>to des Moines and our de Moin listeners, But who

1:20:20.800 --> 1:20:23.840
<v Speaker 1>knew that demo des Moines Iowa was like making the

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<v Speaker 1>most complicated men of all time, Like somewhere in a

1:20:27.760 --> 1:20:31.800
<v Speaker 1>corn field, they're just cranking out these just complex beings

1:20:31.840 --> 1:20:35.320
<v Speaker 1>who cannot be understood with our our simple female brains.

1:20:35.920 --> 1:20:40.280
<v Speaker 1>He has no story, like it's they know I feel

1:20:40.360 --> 1:20:43.200
<v Speaker 1>I feel for for Lee, So I am very curious

1:20:43.200 --> 1:20:45.760
<v Speaker 1>of like what does this relationship look like for Lee?

1:20:46.040 --> 1:20:49.440
<v Speaker 1>Down the line a little bit like when she genuinely

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<v Speaker 1>does come into her own a little more and like

1:20:51.920 --> 1:20:55.320
<v Speaker 1>mature's more like, I don't know. I don't see this

1:20:55.640 --> 1:21:01.519
<v Speaker 1>relationship maybe lasting forever. What have ends? When Lee wants kids, like,

1:21:03.840 --> 1:21:06.160
<v Speaker 1>he's like, I've got orchids. I'm I'm good. I don't

1:21:06.160 --> 1:21:10.200
<v Speaker 1>need children. I have orchids them my creepy album, like

1:21:10.560 --> 1:21:14.360
<v Speaker 1>and maybe a horse. He might have a horse, or

1:21:14.600 --> 1:21:18.479
<v Speaker 1>at least the parts to have one. Yeah, he's got

1:21:18.520 --> 1:21:25.160
<v Speaker 1>the accessory everything but the horse. Yeah. I mean, ultimately,

1:21:25.160 --> 1:21:29.560
<v Speaker 1>like with with this character, especially like it's very romantic,

1:21:29.600 --> 1:21:32.400
<v Speaker 1>and I feel like where this movie very suddenly pivots

1:21:32.439 --> 1:21:37.000
<v Speaker 1>into like romcomp territory at the end, like you're supposed

1:21:37.080 --> 1:21:40.280
<v Speaker 1>to believe I guess that she changed him, which is

1:21:40.360 --> 1:21:44.200
<v Speaker 1>just like never an idea that serves anybody is like, yeah,

1:21:44.240 --> 1:21:47.439
<v Speaker 1>he treated every other person he's ever been in a

1:21:47.520 --> 1:21:51.200
<v Speaker 1>relationship with like absolute garbage, deeply hurt them, ruin their

1:21:51.240 --> 1:21:54.680
<v Speaker 1>lives in some cases. But he was just waiting for

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<v Speaker 1>the girl that would for a whole week at his

1:21:58.560 --> 1:22:03.160
<v Speaker 1>desk on TV for the media, and that made him

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<v Speaker 1>fall in love with her. Like it's just so many

1:22:05.840 --> 1:22:10.639
<v Speaker 1>levels of it. You're just like come on, like who God?

1:22:10.920 --> 1:22:13.760
<v Speaker 1>And I know, because I was such an impressionable like

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<v Speaker 1>twelve year old, I would have been like, wow, so

1:22:17.320 --> 1:22:20.439
<v Speaker 1>so that's what we're gonna do. Okay, Like I can't

1:22:20.479 --> 1:22:23.400
<v Speaker 1>say that, I can't say that's not how I've dated

1:22:23.439 --> 1:22:27.160
<v Speaker 1>my entire life. I can't say that this movie didn't

1:22:27.200 --> 1:22:29.760
<v Speaker 1>have that impact where I just want someone who's going

1:22:29.800 --> 1:22:33.120
<v Speaker 1>to tell me what to eat for dinner and carry

1:22:33.200 --> 1:22:37.200
<v Speaker 1>me and feed me carrots. I think that's just like

1:22:37.320 --> 1:22:40.240
<v Speaker 1>what I want, and that is because of Secretary, But

1:22:41.479 --> 1:22:43.519
<v Speaker 1>I don't know, it's just I think it's a little

1:22:43.600 --> 1:22:45.760
<v Speaker 1>dangerous now when I look back, Like, yes, it was

1:22:45.880 --> 1:22:47.559
<v Speaker 1>like one of the first movies to do that. But

1:22:47.680 --> 1:22:50.799
<v Speaker 1>for that same reason, like I as like a young queer,

1:22:50.880 --> 1:22:54.679
<v Speaker 1>I put so much into it, Like I was so like, oh,

1:22:54.720 --> 1:22:57.080
<v Speaker 1>this is this is what you know my experience should

1:22:57.080 --> 1:22:59.040
<v Speaker 1>be like, and oh I need to find So it's

1:22:59.040 --> 1:23:01.559
<v Speaker 1>gonna be tough to find someone who gets me because

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<v Speaker 1>as a woman who's into this lifestyle, I'm just hard

1:23:04.560 --> 1:23:06.679
<v Speaker 1>to understand and I have to deal with someone who's

1:23:06.720 --> 1:23:09.800
<v Speaker 1>hard to understand, and that is something that takes so

1:23:09.840 --> 1:23:12.200
<v Speaker 1>long to unlearn. Like, no, you you don't have to

1:23:12.240 --> 1:23:15.000
<v Speaker 1>deal with men like this. You don't have to deal

1:23:15.040 --> 1:23:18.120
<v Speaker 1>with anyone like this. Actually, you can find people who

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<v Speaker 1>know about consent and use their words and speak at

1:23:21.880 --> 1:23:27.280
<v Speaker 1>a reasonable valume like life can be easy. It's audibly

1:23:27.720 --> 1:23:31.800
<v Speaker 1>like office. Oh god, he says so many like pivotal

1:23:31.880 --> 1:23:35.559
<v Speaker 1>lines of the movie so quietly. That makes a lot

1:23:35.560 --> 1:23:38.120
<v Speaker 1>of sense though, like and and again, if if this

1:23:38.200 --> 1:23:40.439
<v Speaker 1>is the only movie of its kind, like where else

1:23:40.439 --> 1:23:43.760
<v Speaker 1>do you really have to turn for media to like

1:23:43.880 --> 1:23:46.000
<v Speaker 1>it was like this and the L word. That's like

1:23:46.080 --> 1:23:48.680
<v Speaker 1>I think all we had which I had to read

1:23:48.720 --> 1:23:51.759
<v Speaker 1>with the deal word. Well, I like what I find.

1:23:53.800 --> 1:23:55.960
<v Speaker 1>I think there's some pretty problematic ship in that show.

1:23:57.200 --> 1:24:00.160
<v Speaker 1>That's why I rewatched it once a year. It not

1:24:00.280 --> 1:24:04.519
<v Speaker 1>aged well, it's it's just as problematic as Secretary in

1:24:04.640 --> 1:24:06.720
<v Speaker 1>terms of just I don't know. I guess it was

1:24:06.760 --> 1:24:09.519
<v Speaker 1>like the sex sexy period of time when everyone was

1:24:09.600 --> 1:24:13.800
<v Speaker 1>just like, oh, we're hot, sex positivity. You don't need

1:24:13.840 --> 1:24:16.160
<v Speaker 1>to say yes verbally because we just see it in

1:24:16.200 --> 1:24:19.280
<v Speaker 1>your eyes. And now we're at a point where like, no, no,

1:24:19.400 --> 1:24:21.759
<v Speaker 1>you could, you should use the words, you should actually

1:24:21.760 --> 1:24:25.760
<v Speaker 1>have the character because if if I mean if like

1:24:25.880 --> 1:24:28.439
<v Speaker 1>the and this kind of we've kind of been saying

1:24:28.479 --> 1:24:32.160
<v Speaker 1>this for the whole episode, but like if you switched

1:24:32.400 --> 1:24:35.479
<v Speaker 1>the dynamic even two percent so that it's not this

1:24:35.600 --> 1:24:39.840
<v Speaker 1>perfectly calibrated, like these two people meeting each other, meeting

1:24:39.880 --> 1:24:42.720
<v Speaker 1>each other at the exact right time, and this like

1:24:43.080 --> 1:24:47.040
<v Speaker 1>it would be like like a Hollywood Reporter article about

1:24:47.120 --> 1:24:50.840
<v Speaker 1>workplace abuse, like it just I don't know. It's such

1:24:50.880 --> 1:24:53.000
<v Speaker 1>a bummer because you you do have to imagine for

1:24:53.040 --> 1:24:56.799
<v Speaker 1>every person who saw themselves in Lee in a very

1:24:56.840 --> 1:25:00.679
<v Speaker 1>like genuinely felt way, you had some fun and creepy.

1:25:00.800 --> 1:25:04.679
<v Speaker 1>Did that felt like validated by Mr Gray? Of like, yeah,

1:25:04.880 --> 1:25:08.519
<v Speaker 1>you know what, actually, probably when I treat people that way,

1:25:08.720 --> 1:25:13.800
<v Speaker 1>I'm changing their life and making their life way better. Yeah.

1:25:13.840 --> 1:25:16.880
<v Speaker 1>And also I think it shows those men kind of

1:25:16.960 --> 1:25:20.720
<v Speaker 1>who to target. I mean, I think this movie is

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<v Speaker 1>mostly about how Mr Gray selects his victims. It's like

1:25:24.800 --> 1:25:27.320
<v Speaker 1>how he puts his secretaries through this test, like very

1:25:27.400 --> 1:25:30.439
<v Speaker 1>quickly find someone who doesn't understand boundaries by asking them

1:25:30.439 --> 1:25:33.519
<v Speaker 1>inappropriate questions in an interview, look and see if they

1:25:33.600 --> 1:25:36.200
<v Speaker 1>self harm, because that's something you can use. Is there

1:25:36.240 --> 1:25:38.120
<v Speaker 1>anything else where they play with their hair or their

1:25:38.120 --> 1:25:40.439
<v Speaker 1>insecure that you can use against them? I mean, it's

1:25:40.479 --> 1:25:43.280
<v Speaker 1>it's kind of dangerous in this way where I kind

1:25:43.320 --> 1:25:46.840
<v Speaker 1>of think, mostly we know nothing about Lee, but we

1:25:46.880 --> 1:25:50.160
<v Speaker 1>know a lot about how he chooses victims and why

1:25:50.200 --> 1:25:54.960
<v Speaker 1>he chosely. Yeah, and then and then it's supposed to

1:25:55.880 --> 1:25:58.200
<v Speaker 1>by the end you're like, no, but she's changed, and

1:25:58.240 --> 1:26:01.920
<v Speaker 1>now he is changed. Change. But then but actually it's

1:26:01.920 --> 1:26:03.840
<v Speaker 1>like you were saying, we know less about them at

1:26:03.880 --> 1:26:06.679
<v Speaker 1>the end than we did at the beginning, and it's

1:26:06.800 --> 1:26:10.920
<v Speaker 1>just kind of confusing. I will say, though I love

1:26:11.560 --> 1:26:15.040
<v Speaker 1>Maggie Gillan Hall in this movie, I just generally love

1:26:15.080 --> 1:26:18.800
<v Speaker 1>her so much. She can make uh not great movie

1:26:19.479 --> 1:26:22.920
<v Speaker 1>much better. And this was kind of like a turning

1:26:22.920 --> 1:26:25.200
<v Speaker 1>point in her career in a way that I always

1:26:25.240 --> 1:26:30.320
<v Speaker 1>find kind of like interesting slash frustrating of like this

1:26:30.479 --> 1:26:32.280
<v Speaker 1>was her I don't know. I feel like there is

1:26:32.320 --> 1:26:37.040
<v Speaker 1>like this very trackable trend of mostly prior to this,

1:26:37.040 --> 1:26:38.720
<v Speaker 1>like Maggie Gillan Hall has been in a lot, but

1:26:38.760 --> 1:26:41.840
<v Speaker 1>she would mostly play like somebody's daughter or like she

1:26:42.000 --> 1:26:44.360
<v Speaker 1>was like a very side character. She was not a

1:26:44.479 --> 1:26:47.920
<v Speaker 1>leading lady. And I feel like there this happens a

1:26:47.960 --> 1:26:51.360
<v Speaker 1>lot where you have to do like the sex role,

1:26:51.880 --> 1:26:55.000
<v Speaker 1>and once you do the sex role, well you have

1:26:55.120 --> 1:26:59.080
<v Speaker 1>become a legitimized actor, like as a as a woman,

1:26:59.120 --> 1:27:01.360
<v Speaker 1>you mean, like as a Yeah, I think, I mean,

1:27:01.400 --> 1:27:03.880
<v Speaker 1>I think we've seen a million times in like Sunny

1:27:04.000 --> 1:27:10.720
<v Speaker 1>play stops, Funny, you gotta stop, sorry, Sunny Stop. I

1:27:10.760 --> 1:27:15.160
<v Speaker 1>don't I can't speak to what just happened. Sonny at

1:27:15.200 --> 1:27:19.640
<v Speaker 1>it again, bat Sonny doesn't like when women speak for

1:27:19.680 --> 1:27:25.120
<v Speaker 1>too long, but I'll have to say, like I feel like,

1:27:25.160 --> 1:27:27.320
<v Speaker 1>you know, like it's very trackable, and and and and

1:27:27.360 --> 1:27:30.280
<v Speaker 1>Maggie Jillen Hall is like twenty three four when she

1:27:30.360 --> 1:27:33.360
<v Speaker 1>films this, so it's not quite disagregious. But you know,

1:27:33.360 --> 1:27:36.960
<v Speaker 1>it's like when a Disney star or Nickelodeon star graduates

1:27:37.040 --> 1:27:40.559
<v Speaker 1>out of playing kid roles and does an adult role,

1:27:40.600 --> 1:27:44.040
<v Speaker 1>it's always like a zero to one hundred, like the

1:27:44.080 --> 1:27:48.280
<v Speaker 1>most adult role that could possibly play. And this is

1:27:48.360 --> 1:27:51.160
<v Speaker 1>kind of that moment for Maggie Jillen Hall. And she's

1:27:51.200 --> 1:27:53.760
<v Speaker 1>a great I mean, she's a she's so talented, and

1:27:53.800 --> 1:27:56.640
<v Speaker 1>it like, in spite of everything, I still think she

1:27:56.680 --> 1:28:00.439
<v Speaker 1>gives a really good performance. I just wish that didn't

1:28:00.479 --> 1:28:04.519
<v Speaker 1>necessarily have to happen to for her to be another stuff.

1:28:05.200 --> 1:28:07.760
<v Speaker 1>And at least she does sell that that look at

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<v Speaker 1>the end, that that breaking the fourth wall, like that

1:28:10.520 --> 1:28:13.160
<v Speaker 1>is entirely just Maggie being like, I did what I

1:28:13.200 --> 1:28:16.719
<v Speaker 1>could to save this movie. Don't put it on me.

1:28:17.640 --> 1:28:21.160
<v Speaker 1>And then she says a cat is not a dog.

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<v Speaker 1>I yeah, yeah, maybe that's like the best read of

1:28:26.760 --> 1:28:29.920
<v Speaker 1>that end moment is that's Maggie Jillen Hall talking to

1:28:30.040 --> 1:28:33.639
<v Speaker 1>the audience being like, listen, there's only so many ways

1:28:33.680 --> 1:28:36.600
<v Speaker 1>to get ahead, and I promised to be subversive in

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<v Speaker 1>the future. Please just give me a chance. I'll do

1:28:42.240 --> 1:28:47.080
<v Speaker 1>the deuce someday. It'll be great. Yes, she will do

1:28:47.120 --> 1:28:50.040
<v Speaker 1>the deuce, at least for me. Now, I see this

1:28:50.080 --> 1:28:52.439
<v Speaker 1>movie as like her movie. I see it as like

1:28:52.479 --> 1:28:55.320
<v Speaker 1>a thing that made her. It helped her career, and

1:28:55.360 --> 1:28:57.479
<v Speaker 1>it's great when you look at sort of what she's

1:28:57.520 --> 1:29:00.360
<v Speaker 1>done and as an actress. But if I were to

1:29:00.400 --> 1:29:05.320
<v Speaker 1>like teach a class on sexuality and good representations of

1:29:05.400 --> 1:29:09.920
<v Speaker 1>b D s M, I would not include it. No, No,

1:29:10.800 --> 1:29:15.880
<v Speaker 1>I mean I appreciate media that attempts to normalize things

1:29:15.960 --> 1:29:20.640
<v Speaker 1>that are widely misunderstood by you know, the general population,

1:29:20.760 --> 1:29:24.000
<v Speaker 1>as like b D s M still is, I think,

1:29:24.520 --> 1:29:29.599
<v Speaker 1>but like with Secretary, we weren't there with it being

1:29:29.760 --> 1:29:35.880
<v Speaker 1>represented responsibly on the grounds. Especially again that like, there

1:29:36.040 --> 1:29:39.080
<v Speaker 1>is a full on assault that happens, and it is

1:29:39.160 --> 1:29:41.880
<v Speaker 1>framed by the movie as no, this is just the

1:29:41.920 --> 1:29:45.640
<v Speaker 1>start of this dom sub relationship, and it's like, no,

1:29:45.880 --> 1:29:48.720
<v Speaker 1>that is not what happens. That's just a girl who

1:29:48.800 --> 1:29:51.720
<v Speaker 1>got spanked and did not know what a subdom relationship

1:29:51.800 --> 1:29:56.559
<v Speaker 1>even was yet right right, and did not consent to

1:29:56.640 --> 1:29:59.880
<v Speaker 1>it again, like nothing about what he was going to

1:30:00.080 --> 1:30:04.040
<v Speaker 1>do had been previously discussed or agreed upon. And the

1:30:04.120 --> 1:30:07.559
<v Speaker 1>power dynamic of like, I mean, you know, it's not

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<v Speaker 1>like a manufactured B D s M power dynamic. It

1:30:11.400 --> 1:30:14.760
<v Speaker 1>is a real power dynamic. He controls her income and

1:30:14.880 --> 1:30:19.240
<v Speaker 1>takes it away, and like there's just so much actually

1:30:19.280 --> 1:30:22.559
<v Speaker 1>fucked up stuff happening. Oh my god, I forgot about.

1:30:22.600 --> 1:30:26.720
<v Speaker 1>The most annoying part is like her mom take like

1:30:26.760 --> 1:30:29.200
<v Speaker 1>picks her up and waits outside the office for her

1:30:29.240 --> 1:30:31.360
<v Speaker 1>to get off work all the time, and then finally

1:30:31.400 --> 1:30:34.679
<v Speaker 1>one day, James Spader's character is like, you're gonna walk

1:30:34.760 --> 1:30:38.040
<v Speaker 1>home from now on by yourself, and she does it,

1:30:38.120 --> 1:30:41.080
<v Speaker 1>and she's like, I felt like I was walking for

1:30:41.120 --> 1:30:44.760
<v Speaker 1>the first time, and I was like, like, you know,

1:30:45.600 --> 1:30:47.760
<v Speaker 1>you needed a man to tell you you could go

1:30:47.800 --> 1:30:52.040
<v Speaker 1>on a walk. Yes, she needed this man to tell

1:30:52.120 --> 1:30:55.200
<v Speaker 1>her to do so many things, and it's like not that,

1:30:55.439 --> 1:30:58.400
<v Speaker 1>like I don't know, like you know, it just doesn't work.

1:30:58.520 --> 1:31:01.439
<v Speaker 1>It just doesn't work, and it never and just like

1:31:01.479 --> 1:31:05.000
<v Speaker 1>the very specific detail of she has just gotten out

1:31:05.040 --> 1:31:10.559
<v Speaker 1>of like an extended stay in the hospital for self harm,

1:31:10.760 --> 1:31:14.240
<v Speaker 1>like that is never really referenced again. It's just kind

1:31:14.240 --> 1:31:17.599
<v Speaker 1>of used as a convenient like there's a whole other

1:31:17.720 --> 1:31:19.760
<v Speaker 1>set of like you're going through a lot when you

1:31:19.800 --> 1:31:21.759
<v Speaker 1>get out of a situation like that. But she doesn't

1:31:21.800 --> 1:31:25.080
<v Speaker 1>seem to really yeah, at least on screen, doesn't seem

1:31:25.160 --> 1:31:27.120
<v Speaker 1>to process it at all. It never seems to click.

1:31:27.160 --> 1:31:29.439
<v Speaker 1>It's never like her parents are like and then her

1:31:29.479 --> 1:31:32.280
<v Speaker 1>parents seemed cool that the newspapers are there when she's

1:31:32.320 --> 1:31:35.080
<v Speaker 1>having what could be described as a mental breakdown, but

1:31:35.160 --> 1:31:38.000
<v Speaker 1>they don't call it her old therapist. They're not like

1:31:39.160 --> 1:31:43.240
<v Speaker 1>we should like call her old hospital and see if

1:31:43.280 --> 1:31:47.599
<v Speaker 1>they can get someone over here. Right. It's very confusing

1:31:47.640 --> 1:31:49.720
<v Speaker 1>because at the beginning, he's seen as saying he like

1:31:49.800 --> 1:31:53.639
<v Speaker 1>says to her like, if you ever need help with anything,

1:31:53.880 --> 1:31:56.120
<v Speaker 1>like call me, I'll do my best to help you,

1:31:56.880 --> 1:31:59.360
<v Speaker 1>Like where do you go? Yeah, and then he doesn't

1:31:59.439 --> 1:32:01.840
<v Speaker 1>and then we don't see Yeah, they just like bring

1:32:01.840 --> 1:32:03.920
<v Speaker 1>in all these people who are like maybe you should

1:32:03.960 --> 1:32:08.920
<v Speaker 1>read about feminism, dummy, which like a weird way for

1:32:08.960 --> 1:32:11.200
<v Speaker 1>the book to be, like, I that feminists have a

1:32:11.280 --> 1:32:16.160
<v Speaker 1>problem with this movie. And it's like I thought that

1:32:16.240 --> 1:32:20.200
<v Speaker 1>was a very kind of like funny two two passive aggressive, like, ah,

1:32:20.680 --> 1:32:25.280
<v Speaker 1>this woman without middle part and like is giving a

1:32:25.320 --> 1:32:29.200
<v Speaker 1>lot of books. She doesn't get it. She's just angry.

1:32:29.920 --> 1:32:33.280
<v Speaker 1>She's so mad and we don't know why. And there

1:32:33.320 --> 1:32:35.519
<v Speaker 1>I mean, and she's in it for all of two

1:32:35.560 --> 1:32:37.599
<v Speaker 1>I mean literally to see and she's in the scene

1:32:37.600 --> 1:32:40.559
<v Speaker 1>where she stomps on the jacket and then she shows

1:32:40.600 --> 1:32:42.200
<v Speaker 1>up at the end to say he was actually a

1:32:42.240 --> 1:32:46.840
<v Speaker 1>genius the whole time. Um, And what her name is, Trisha?

1:32:47.080 --> 1:32:51.360
<v Speaker 1>Is that right? Um? Sounds about right? But even she,

1:32:51.479 --> 1:32:55.280
<v Speaker 1>I mean, that is such a quickly written like shrew,

1:32:55.400 --> 1:32:59.920
<v Speaker 1>shrew shrew. Seeing that she is there to sort of

1:33:00.040 --> 1:33:02.479
<v Speaker 1>in part. Maybe she's the only person to use b

1:33:02.600 --> 1:33:07.439
<v Speaker 1>DSM like vocabulary in the entire movie. And then we're like,

1:33:07.439 --> 1:33:11.640
<v Speaker 1>but we hate her, but she also thinks he's a genius,

1:33:11.680 --> 1:33:14.679
<v Speaker 1>but who even is she? And I think it would

1:33:14.680 --> 1:33:17.080
<v Speaker 1>have been cool if she had, like if she had

1:33:17.120 --> 1:33:20.439
<v Speaker 1>been his dumb if we'd actually seen like that's like

1:33:20.560 --> 1:33:23.240
<v Speaker 1>why they got divorced or like that, like he at

1:33:23.320 --> 1:33:26.640
<v Speaker 1>least had been in a b DSM relationship before, and

1:33:26.720 --> 1:33:30.280
<v Speaker 1>maybe some of his difficulties with Lee, Yeah, with Lee

1:33:30.360 --> 1:33:32.760
<v Speaker 1>is like now that he's in the dom position, he

1:33:32.800 --> 1:33:35.519
<v Speaker 1>feels bad about torturings. Like if there was any sort

1:33:35.600 --> 1:33:38.840
<v Speaker 1>of context like that, we could have maybe felt bad

1:33:38.920 --> 1:33:42.320
<v Speaker 1>for Mr Gray or like seen where he was coming from.

1:33:42.320 --> 1:33:46.360
<v Speaker 1>But instead it's just like, why why are you so

1:33:46.439 --> 1:33:49.519
<v Speaker 1>upset with this thing that you have done before? Wait?

1:33:49.520 --> 1:33:51.760
<v Speaker 1>Why are you upset that you're into B D S M?

1:33:51.760 --> 1:33:54.080
<v Speaker 1>Like why do you have all of these Why did

1:33:54.120 --> 1:33:57.280
<v Speaker 1>you have you invested so much money? Though? Then why

1:33:57.320 --> 1:34:00.800
<v Speaker 1>are you putting their saddles cost so much money? There

1:34:00.840 --> 1:34:03.680
<v Speaker 1>are a lot of money and it looks like a

1:34:03.760 --> 1:34:06.639
<v Speaker 1>nice one and he has a whole grass bed table

1:34:06.840 --> 1:34:09.840
<v Speaker 1>that in like also that bathtub was very nice. And

1:34:09.880 --> 1:34:16.200
<v Speaker 1>I guess above his office he did home. I don't know.

1:34:16.320 --> 1:34:22.400
<v Speaker 1>He just carries her upstairs, that's truely does just pick her? Yeah,

1:34:23.200 --> 1:34:26.760
<v Speaker 1>that makes me laugh. It's I mean that dress should

1:34:26.800 --> 1:34:30.120
<v Speaker 1>be covered in poop and it should just be a

1:34:30.200 --> 1:34:33.000
<v Speaker 1>more to do. They start framing her letters with like

1:34:33.080 --> 1:34:35.519
<v Speaker 1>spelling mistakes and like put him along the wall like

1:34:35.600 --> 1:34:40.120
<v Speaker 1>a sexy bank wallers and homage. Yeah, which I was

1:34:40.200 --> 1:34:43.720
<v Speaker 1>just like, people not come into your office often that

1:34:43.800 --> 1:34:46.360
<v Speaker 1>you two can just like hang your kinks on the wall.

1:34:46.720 --> 1:34:51.840
<v Speaker 1>Does he have any clients. Um, yeah, well, I mean

1:34:52.320 --> 1:34:56.360
<v Speaker 1>I'm pulling from again our favorite scholarly journal Wikipedia here.

1:34:56.479 --> 1:35:02.040
<v Speaker 1>But the director, Steven Shaneberg, has had said that he

1:35:02.160 --> 1:35:04.360
<v Speaker 1>wanted to make this movie because he wanted to show

1:35:04.760 --> 1:35:08.479
<v Speaker 1>that b D s M relationships can be normal, and

1:35:08.520 --> 1:35:12.720
<v Speaker 1>that he was inspired by the film My Beautiful Launderette,

1:35:12.880 --> 1:35:17.519
<v Speaker 1>which he felt normalized gay relationships for audiences in the eighties.

1:35:17.600 --> 1:35:20.320
<v Speaker 1>So he made this movie with the intention of normalizing

1:35:20.920 --> 1:35:24.559
<v Speaker 1>b D s M relationships and culture. Um did he

1:35:24.760 --> 1:35:29.160
<v Speaker 1>do it? Well? Um, not necessarily failed. I at least

1:35:29.200 --> 1:35:33.000
<v Speaker 1>appreciate knowing that he that is what he wanted to do,

1:35:33.160 --> 1:35:35.519
<v Speaker 1>because there's also a read of this movie where I

1:35:36.000 --> 1:35:38.599
<v Speaker 1>could be like, maybe that's not what he wanted to do.

1:35:40.080 --> 1:35:44.040
<v Speaker 1>So I guess, of the options, I'm glad he at

1:35:44.120 --> 1:35:48.040
<v Speaker 1>least was trying, but he did fail. I mean, I

1:35:48.080 --> 1:35:50.639
<v Speaker 1>guess like that final shot where it like pans out

1:35:50.680 --> 1:35:53.880
<v Speaker 1>and it's like, look at that these b D s

1:35:54.040 --> 1:35:56.960
<v Speaker 1>M freaks could just be any couple in your neighborhood.

1:35:57.080 --> 1:36:00.519
<v Speaker 1>You wouldn't know, like they just they blend in. I

1:36:00.560 --> 1:36:04.840
<v Speaker 1>guess is like, yeah, anybody could be into this, sure,

1:36:06.040 --> 1:36:10.120
<v Speaker 1>but they wouldn't be like these people probably because they

1:36:10.520 --> 1:36:13.599
<v Speaker 1>they misrepresented the whole community. But you know that you're

1:36:13.720 --> 1:36:16.360
<v Speaker 1>probably just like a like a normal woman in your

1:36:16.360 --> 1:36:19.799
<v Speaker 1>mid twenties who likes to get spanked, and you're okay,

1:36:19.880 --> 1:36:26.519
<v Speaker 1>just claiming that for yourself, right right, right, Well doesn't

1:36:26.520 --> 1:36:29.160
<v Speaker 1>even have Is there anything else that we haven't hit

1:36:29.200 --> 1:36:31.240
<v Speaker 1>on yet? I think that's all I had. That's all

1:36:31.280 --> 1:36:34.760
<v Speaker 1>I wanted to touch on. That's all my points. We

1:36:34.840 --> 1:36:37.439
<v Speaker 1>got into all of it. I feel like, yeah, we

1:36:37.520 --> 1:36:41.240
<v Speaker 1>really once again and as an episode the length of

1:36:41.280 --> 1:36:47.280
<v Speaker 1>the movie as all of ours. Um, well, does this

1:36:47.280 --> 1:36:51.960
<v Speaker 1>movie pass the Bechdel test? Oh? I forgot to check.

1:36:53.120 --> 1:36:55.519
<v Speaker 1>I think it does. Between her and her mother, although

1:36:55.520 --> 1:36:58.360
<v Speaker 1>her mother isn't specifically given a first name, I think

1:36:58.360 --> 1:37:02.080
<v Speaker 1>her mother is a present enough character in this story

1:37:02.160 --> 1:37:06.600
<v Speaker 1>that I would count that. I wasn't sure about that

1:37:06.640 --> 1:37:09.160
<v Speaker 1>because I was like, technically, is the scene about the

1:37:09.200 --> 1:37:12.960
<v Speaker 1>abusive dad? But then I guess they don't really say

1:37:13.000 --> 1:37:15.200
<v Speaker 1>anything really. There's a couple of scenes where like they're

1:37:15.200 --> 1:37:17.320
<v Speaker 1>in the car together and her mom says something like,

1:37:17.360 --> 1:37:19.559
<v Speaker 1>I'm so proud of you for like putting yourself out

1:37:19.560 --> 1:37:21.759
<v Speaker 1>in the world and going out and getting a job

1:37:21.920 --> 1:37:24.240
<v Speaker 1>and stuff like that. So there's a there's a couple

1:37:24.240 --> 1:37:26.320
<v Speaker 1>of scenes like that. She also Lee also talks to

1:37:27.000 --> 1:37:30.559
<v Speaker 1>the paralegal woman who I believe is not named. We

1:37:30.600 --> 1:37:34.320
<v Speaker 1>never learned her name, but she says, what even is

1:37:34.320 --> 1:37:38.800
<v Speaker 1>a paralegal? And then the paralegal says and then leaves.

1:37:38.840 --> 1:37:43.479
<v Speaker 1>Also the paralegal here's her masturbating in the bathroom later. Yes, yep.

1:37:43.880 --> 1:37:47.040
<v Speaker 1>The paralegal is used to even to like disempower Lee

1:37:47.160 --> 1:37:49.479
<v Speaker 1>even more or like not the character, but the fact

1:37:49.479 --> 1:37:51.479
<v Speaker 1>that he's like, Oh, I hire someone to actually do

1:37:51.520 --> 1:37:54.240
<v Speaker 1>the work I need, and then I have like the

1:37:54.280 --> 1:37:57.800
<v Speaker 1>person that I'm emotionally abusing on my parents. Yeah, just

1:37:58.800 --> 1:38:02.080
<v Speaker 1>so he doesn't do anywhere. Also a quick shout at

1:38:02.840 --> 1:38:06.240
<v Speaker 1>Lee's mom is played by Lesliean Warren a k a.

1:38:06.320 --> 1:38:11.000
<v Speaker 1>Miss Scarlett and Clue. So, oh, she's kind of she's

1:38:11.120 --> 1:38:13.280
<v Speaker 1>she's blond in this movie, so it's hard to write.

1:38:13.280 --> 1:38:16.600
<v Speaker 1>I wouldn't have made that that connection. But you know,

1:38:16.800 --> 1:38:20.599
<v Speaker 1>she's got range. She's got range true well as far

1:38:20.680 --> 1:38:25.720
<v Speaker 1>as our nipple. Our nipple scale, in which we examine

1:38:25.840 --> 1:38:29.960
<v Speaker 1>how the movie fares looking at it through an intersectional

1:38:30.120 --> 1:38:37.479
<v Speaker 1>feminist lens. Again, the movie shows abuse and assault, but

1:38:37.680 --> 1:38:40.400
<v Speaker 1>it does not frame what happens in the movie as

1:38:40.520 --> 1:38:44.479
<v Speaker 1>abuse or assault. Instead, it conflates it with what b

1:38:44.640 --> 1:38:49.080
<v Speaker 1>D s M is, and the movie fails to acknowledge

1:38:49.520 --> 1:38:52.640
<v Speaker 1>all the important things about a healthy b D s

1:38:52.760 --> 1:39:01.120
<v Speaker 1>M relationship, like consent, communication, safety, establishing boundaries, establishing trust

1:39:01.600 --> 1:39:04.920
<v Speaker 1>after care. She would have learned this in the book

1:39:05.000 --> 1:39:08.120
<v Speaker 1>on tape, right, yeah, and then she would have looked

1:39:08.160 --> 1:39:11.160
<v Speaker 1>back and been like, oh, oh my gosh, there wasn't

1:39:11.200 --> 1:39:14.160
<v Speaker 1>any of that. I this was actually very harmful. I

1:39:14.160 --> 1:39:17.400
<v Speaker 1>should run away and not ever talk to This movie

1:39:17.439 --> 1:39:19.080
<v Speaker 1>is just like her listening to book and on tape

1:39:19.080 --> 1:39:21.000
<v Speaker 1>and being like, oh, oh my gosh, this guy has

1:39:21.040 --> 1:39:25.439
<v Speaker 1>horrible dynamics, just horrible. Wow. She meets a nice guy

1:39:25.439 --> 1:39:28.200
<v Speaker 1>on Craigslist and then they're happy. Yeah, right, and then

1:39:28.240 --> 1:39:31.240
<v Speaker 1>and then she can go and enter into a respectful

1:39:31.479 --> 1:39:35.360
<v Speaker 1>and mutually consensual b D s M relationship if that's

1:39:35.360 --> 1:39:40.000
<v Speaker 1>what she's into. But the movie really does. I think

1:39:40.000 --> 1:39:43.600
<v Speaker 1>it does a huge disservice to b D s M

1:39:43.640 --> 1:39:47.960
<v Speaker 1>and it's community. I think that even though at least

1:39:48.240 --> 1:39:52.320
<v Speaker 1>perhaps not so much any more now that we is

1:39:52.360 --> 1:39:55.559
<v Speaker 1>a just like our cultural climate of having a better

1:39:55.680 --> 1:39:58.920
<v Speaker 1>understanding of consent. Even in within the past few years

1:39:59.439 --> 1:40:01.800
<v Speaker 1>that has lifted, and I would be curious to know

1:40:01.880 --> 1:40:05.200
<v Speaker 1>how people who would originally defended this movie if they

1:40:05.240 --> 1:40:08.120
<v Speaker 1>would feel still feel the same way about it. Um.

1:40:08.160 --> 1:40:10.559
<v Speaker 1>But in any case, I think that because uh, I

1:40:10.640 --> 1:40:13.280
<v Speaker 1>just I think this movie does a huge disservice to

1:40:13.920 --> 1:40:17.559
<v Speaker 1>B D s M relationships because of the of all

1:40:17.600 --> 1:40:21.519
<v Speaker 1>the stuff it completely overlooks. There is very easily a

1:40:21.560 --> 1:40:24.400
<v Speaker 1>way in which you can show an empowered female character

1:40:24.600 --> 1:40:28.520
<v Speaker 1>with agency who is a sub in a dom sub relationship,

1:40:28.840 --> 1:40:33.120
<v Speaker 1>because if you understand anything about dom sub relationships, you

1:40:33.160 --> 1:40:35.800
<v Speaker 1>know that it's actually the sub who holds much of

1:40:35.840 --> 1:40:39.560
<v Speaker 1>the power in the relationship because it's the sub who

1:40:39.680 --> 1:40:45.720
<v Speaker 1>sets all the boundaries and parameters. It's the subs needs

1:40:45.800 --> 1:40:51.479
<v Speaker 1>and wants and curiosities that are being fulfilled by the dom.

1:40:52.000 --> 1:40:55.720
<v Speaker 1>But that doesn't get explored really at all in the

1:40:55.760 --> 1:40:59.599
<v Speaker 1>movie because we never see Mr Gray listening to what

1:41:00.120 --> 1:41:04.520
<v Speaker 1>Lee wants or needs. We don't see really any communication

1:41:04.640 --> 1:41:09.440
<v Speaker 1>between them at all except him being verbally and emotionally

1:41:09.479 --> 1:41:12.880
<v Speaker 1>abusive toward her. For sure, I think that their relationship

1:41:12.920 --> 1:41:15.200
<v Speaker 1>makes no sense, so they don't know anything about each

1:41:15.200 --> 1:41:19.360
<v Speaker 1>other it's just the whole thing is very, very ichy

1:41:19.400 --> 1:41:21.880
<v Speaker 1>to me. I'm going to give it one nipple just

1:41:22.000 --> 1:41:24.840
<v Speaker 1>for the fact that it does attempt to normalize B

1:41:24.960 --> 1:41:29.479
<v Speaker 1>D s M culture. But again again, like I don't

1:41:29.560 --> 1:41:32.800
<v Speaker 1>it doesn't even do better than then fifty Shades of Great.

1:41:32.800 --> 1:41:36.880
<v Speaker 1>At least fifty Shades of Gray talks about consent, even

1:41:36.920 --> 1:41:40.400
<v Speaker 1>if it is horribly written. This did make me want

1:41:40.479 --> 1:41:44.040
<v Speaker 1>to try to watch fifty Shades of Gray again, and

1:41:44.080 --> 1:41:47.960
<v Speaker 1>I just really wanted to. Quickly, I googled the cursed phrase,

1:41:48.080 --> 1:41:52.519
<v Speaker 1>whereas fifty Shades of Gray streaming, and I found this

1:41:52.720 --> 1:41:56.280
<v Speaker 1>incredible click bait piece that someone had really put artistry

1:41:56.280 --> 1:42:00.439
<v Speaker 1>into because it said it was basically all it needed

1:42:00.479 --> 1:42:02.839
<v Speaker 1>to say was fifty Shades of Great is not currently

1:42:02.880 --> 1:42:06.280
<v Speaker 1>streaming in the US, but it was somehow fourteen paragraphs

1:42:06.280 --> 1:42:10.439
<v Speaker 1>long because I'm sure that like I've had those jobs,

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<v Speaker 1>like you're kind of being paid by the word, and

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<v Speaker 1>so she really just like made or I don't know

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<v Speaker 1>what with the gent, but like they just made a

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<v Speaker 1>meal of it, and so they said, like yours in

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<v Speaker 1>the UK may be able to watch the first installment

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<v Speaker 1>of this titilating saga on Netflix. However, if you live

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<v Speaker 1>in the US of A, you may need to go

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<v Speaker 1>somewhere else to find your SNM. And then it said

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<v Speaker 1>in parentheses streaming and movies like that the news and

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<v Speaker 1>you know everyone's got there there and in parentheses streaming

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<v Speaker 1>in movies. I was like, Ah, Pulitzer, incredible. Yeah, I

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<v Speaker 1>just I guess I just long for the movie and

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<v Speaker 1>I'm sure it's out there. So listeners, if you have

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<v Speaker 1>any suggestions on movies that tackle b D s um

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<v Speaker 1>that are actually responsible and not centered around abuse and assault,

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<v Speaker 1>let us know. But it's it's not here with secretary.

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<v Speaker 1>So yeah, one nipple, um, and I guess I'll give

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<v Speaker 1>it to I'll give it to her mom, who I

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<v Speaker 1>feel I was robbed by the story. Um, I'll arbitrarily

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<v Speaker 1>give it one and a half. I don't really know why.

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<v Speaker 1>I appreciate that. I appreciate that in its time, this

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<v Speaker 1>movie was the only of its kind at least uh

1:43:34.840 --> 1:43:38.559
<v Speaker 1>that was semi ish mainstream indie Darling like I, I

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<v Speaker 1>do appreciate that element of its history. I am glad

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<v Speaker 1>that you know there was at least a somewhat honest attempt,

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<v Speaker 1>even though it is so messy like the thing that

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<v Speaker 1>is most frustrating to me, and also it is I mean,

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<v Speaker 1>we haven't even it's like the whitest movie of all time.

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<v Speaker 1>I don't know that we ever. Yeah, that wasn't even

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<v Speaker 1>worth bringing up to me. I was just like, this

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<v Speaker 1>is just not a movie that black people even want

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<v Speaker 1>to be involved with. I think I even I feel

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<v Speaker 1>like there may have been a background character and they

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<v Speaker 1>probably were like I'm gonna opt out. No, thank you, guys,

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<v Speaker 1>got just it's good. This is all you. This is

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<v Speaker 1>all But it's like even on top of that, I

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<v Speaker 1>feel like in Lee's life and in in her orbit,

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<v Speaker 1>there were so many opportunities for her to like speak

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<v Speaker 1>to and like advance her own story of maturity. If

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<v Speaker 1>she had just been comfortable talking to women that were

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<v Speaker 1>already around her instead of like putting all her eggs

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<v Speaker 1>in the James Spader basket where they're like, it could

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<v Speaker 1>be a totally different movie if she talks to Tricia

1:44:48.360 --> 1:44:52.120
<v Speaker 1>and like seeks out Tricia's guidance or advice, which apparently

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<v Speaker 1>she was very willing to give the whole movie, which

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<v Speaker 1>we didn't know. Um, there's this whole, there's this whole

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<v Speaker 1>like catalog of resources and people that she could track

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<v Speaker 1>down and talk to, which I think would have been

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<v Speaker 1>kind of more interesting to me. Is like if she

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<v Speaker 1>realizes at the midpoint, like, oh, this is not good,

1:45:10.479 --> 1:45:12.160
<v Speaker 1>this is not what I thought it was. How do

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<v Speaker 1>I fix this? And then she can like find other

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<v Speaker 1>people who have had this experience and figure out how

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<v Speaker 1>to get ship on track or like get some sort

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<v Speaker 1>of revenge, And then like, there's so many ways I

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<v Speaker 1>can see it going if she or if she had

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<v Speaker 1>just been you know, able to talk with her mom

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<v Speaker 1>or her sister and they hadn't been painted as like

1:45:29.000 --> 1:45:31.920
<v Speaker 1>these like don't be this person. This person is bad

1:45:32.120 --> 1:45:35.200
<v Speaker 1>and submissive in the wrong way, like you're saying, Caitlin.

1:45:35.320 --> 1:45:38.080
<v Speaker 1>So it feels like there's a lot of missed opportunities.

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<v Speaker 1>The relationship is like just generally really bad. It's not

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<v Speaker 1>fair to the b D s M community. If fifty

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<v Speaker 1>Shades of Gray is doing better, that's just really bleak.

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<v Speaker 1>But I appreciate its place in history, and I'm glad

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<v Speaker 1>that movies have continued to do better. I hope that

1:45:59.760 --> 1:46:02.639
<v Speaker 1>they I mean, I hope that you know, don't stop

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<v Speaker 1>at fifty shades please, uh, probably give it a nipple

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<v Speaker 1>and a half, which might be too much, but I'll

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<v Speaker 1>give one to Maggie Gillenhall and then I will give

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<v Speaker 1>the other half to Tricia. Okay, but in the first

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<v Speaker 1>scene we see her, and not the second when she's

1:46:17.200 --> 1:46:23.559
<v Speaker 1>trampling the coach, I found her confusing in the second scene. Yeah, actually,

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<v Speaker 1>what about you? Uh, you know what I'm gonna I'm

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<v Speaker 1>gonna give it to what nipples I am because it's

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<v Speaker 1>the reason why I like being spanked, and I like

1:46:33.479 --> 1:46:35.400
<v Speaker 1>when people tell me what to eat for dinner. So

1:46:35.520 --> 1:46:38.800
<v Speaker 1>I owe it that. That's probably the only two good

1:46:38.840 --> 1:46:42.840
<v Speaker 1>things that came out of this movie in history. Um.

1:46:42.880 --> 1:46:46.920
<v Speaker 1>But yeah, I do think it tries to get people

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<v Speaker 1>comfortable with an idea they hadn't been comfortable with. And

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<v Speaker 1>I do think that it came at this time when

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<v Speaker 1>every mainstream kind of woman in a in a movie

1:46:56.280 --> 1:47:01.919
<v Speaker 1>was so quirky and like carefree and like romantic and sweet,

1:47:02.000 --> 1:47:07.559
<v Speaker 1>and it crushed that idea, which I really appreciate. So

1:47:07.680 --> 1:47:09.680
<v Speaker 1>I'm gonna give it to and you know what, I'm

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<v Speaker 1>gonna give them both to Peter. Peter, he just deserves it.

1:47:15.520 --> 1:47:18.120
<v Speaker 1>I hope. Peter went on to like really find someone

1:47:18.240 --> 1:47:21.760
<v Speaker 1>who could give him the love he deserved. Yeah, just

1:47:21.920 --> 1:47:25.679
<v Speaker 1>in super vanilla, just like the most vanilla missionary person,

1:47:26.120 --> 1:47:28.719
<v Speaker 1>just like maybe the most boring life of all time,

1:47:28.800 --> 1:47:33.160
<v Speaker 1>and loved every second of it. Yeah. I'd rather watch

1:47:33.240 --> 1:47:37.240
<v Speaker 1>that movie than watch any like moment of like James

1:47:37.240 --> 1:47:40.960
<v Speaker 1>Spader and Lee trying to like have a life together. Yeah,

1:47:41.080 --> 1:47:43.280
<v Speaker 1>you're like, oh god, it just makes me depressed to

1:47:43.320 --> 1:47:47.679
<v Speaker 1>think about. Yeah. Oh well, Peter always asks for consent

1:47:49.080 --> 1:47:51.040
<v Speaker 1>and they're like, what a loser. You're like, no, but

1:47:51.120 --> 1:47:54.720
<v Speaker 1>Peter's ahead of his time. Oh stupid Peter. He's like

1:47:54.800 --> 1:47:57.000
<v Speaker 1>asking if it's okay to get a condom and like

1:47:57.080 --> 1:48:00.479
<v Speaker 1>spank you first, Like, oh man, Peter's only one in

1:48:00.520 --> 1:48:03.200
<v Speaker 1>the twenty one century. They don't even know it. I did.

1:48:03.280 --> 1:48:06.120
<v Speaker 1>I did laugh at the joke after Peter and Lee

1:48:06.160 --> 1:48:08.280
<v Speaker 1>have had sex and he's like I didn't hurt you,

1:48:08.280 --> 1:48:13.040
<v Speaker 1>did I? And she's like no, she's very upset, did

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<v Speaker 1>not hurt her? But you don't even Ashuley, thank you

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