WEBVTT - Hullabaloo Island 0:00:00.680 --> 0:00:04.920 Scrubbing In with Becca Tilly and Tanya rap An iHeartRadio podcast. 0:00:08.880 --> 0:00:11.760 Hello everybody, we are scrubbing in. 0:00:12.440 --> 0:00:13.600 Scrub a dub dumb. 0:00:14.200 --> 0:00:16.560 I don't know if you noticed, but we're a little 0:00:16.640 --> 0:00:19.120 late releasing a podcast this week. 0:00:19.560 --> 0:00:20.880 Yes, that was my fault. 0:00:21.079 --> 0:00:22.840 Fallen soldier, fallen soldier. 0:00:23.000 --> 0:00:27.400 I don't well what. 0:00:27.600 --> 0:00:30.159 I don't drink myself, but I often I feel like 0:00:30.200 --> 0:00:31.760 I don't get sick often. 0:00:33.159 --> 0:00:36.120 I will say, as often as Robbie gets sick, you 0:00:36.280 --> 0:00:38.240 really do have a strong immune system. 0:00:38.360 --> 0:00:40.080 Yes, thank you so much, because she's. 0:00:39.880 --> 0:00:42.840 Sick all the time and you never get it. Yeah, 0:00:42.880 --> 0:00:45.160 so it was about time that you went down. 0:00:45.320 --> 0:00:48.199 Yeah, I went down, and I went down hard on Sunday. 0:00:49.280 --> 0:00:50.879 So it just happened Sunday, Saturday. 0:00:50.880 --> 0:00:51.840 It happens Saturdayay. 0:00:51.960 --> 0:00:53.840 But I was like, you know, my mind, I'm around, 0:00:53.840 --> 0:00:57.880 I'm fine, I'm fine, I'm sleep load up. 0:00:57.760 --> 0:00:58.800 On the things. 0:00:59.520 --> 0:01:02.280 And then said they hit me hard, and your girl 0:01:02.360 --> 0:01:05.360 is down, Yeah, down down, and I'm deep. 0:01:05.200 --> 0:01:06.880 Luteal So I was down and dark. 0:01:07.920 --> 0:01:10.440 Okay, wait, so you're lutil which means I too, am 0:01:10.480 --> 0:01:11.960 lutial because we were sinked. Right. 0:01:12.280 --> 0:01:13.520 I just got my period this morning. 0:01:13.600 --> 0:01:15.600 Oh my gosh, early last month. 0:01:15.600 --> 0:01:18.920 That wasn't the twentieth twentieth. Well, I can exactly tell 0:01:18.959 --> 0:01:23.679 you last month, thank you very much. People like to know. 0:01:23.880 --> 0:01:26.080 Well, no, because she made a whole thing and took 0:01:26.080 --> 0:01:29.920 a video and being like we're finally seeing I got it. 0:01:30.160 --> 0:01:32.920 Oh okay, all right, gotcha. I'm just around the corner, 0:01:33.040 --> 0:01:39.240 just around the corner. Well, sorry to hear that yet 0:01:39.480 --> 0:01:39.960 is not great. 0:01:40.080 --> 0:01:43.560 No, but we're back and we're here. Yes on Tuesday. 0:01:43.640 --> 0:01:45.840 I like it Tuesday for this show. 0:01:46.520 --> 0:01:48.400 Yeah, it's going up. That's a great song. 0:01:48.720 --> 0:01:51.040 Thanks, Yeah, I like it. 0:01:51.160 --> 0:01:52.040 Yeah, yeah, it's good. 0:01:52.320 --> 0:01:54.440 Yeah, it's not Monday. 0:01:54.600 --> 0:01:58.840 But Monday's your favorite day, soil. But we're not changing anything. 0:01:58.960 --> 0:01:59.960 Oh okay, oh. 0:02:00.120 --> 0:02:02.320 Oh, I don't know a. 0:02:04.240 --> 0:02:06.760 Tuesday Thursday schedule four. 0:02:06.880 --> 0:02:08.560 I don't know. I like it Tuesday. 0:02:09.480 --> 0:02:12.240 I don't know why all podcasts seem to go up 0:02:12.240 --> 0:02:14.320 on Mondays. I don't know how that started. Easton. Can 0:02:14.360 --> 0:02:15.280 you shot some Moe All? 0:02:15.320 --> 0:02:16.880 I want to a lot of the podcasts I listened 0:02:16.880 --> 0:02:19.240 to you go up on Fridays thursdayday. 0:02:18.800 --> 0:02:21.799 Night, because then people have the whole weekend to listen. Yeah. 0:02:21.919 --> 0:02:23.560 I think a lot of people want to catch that 0:02:23.639 --> 0:02:27.359 Monday commute Sunday night. That's what we do here at iHeartRadio. 0:02:27.480 --> 0:02:29.800 But there's no real answer. 0:02:29.919 --> 0:02:32.560 I think it's just a preference, even if it comes 0:02:32.600 --> 0:02:34.079 out on Friday. If you're like, well, I listen to 0:02:34.160 --> 0:02:36.800 my podcast on what or Friday? What did I just 0:02:36.840 --> 0:02:40.160 say on Monday? But I want to listen on the 0:02:40.200 --> 0:02:42.680 weekend no matter what they come out there, I just 0:02:42.960 --> 0:02:43.760 wait for the weekend. 0:02:44.600 --> 0:02:47.720 Anyways, we can discuss further. Mark had a birthday so. 0:02:50.160 --> 0:02:52.240 Much. Tanya's just coming up two days away. 0:02:52.560 --> 0:02:56.480 Yeah, I got my cancers all around. How was your birthday? 0:02:56.680 --> 0:02:59.720 It was fine, thank you. I have a weird coincidence 0:02:59.800 --> 0:03:01.480 that twice in my life I've gone to see a 0:03:01.560 --> 0:03:04.480 children's production of Mary Poppins on my birthday, and neither 0:03:04.560 --> 0:03:06.639 time were my kids in the production. So I don't 0:03:06.639 --> 0:03:08.960 know how to explain that exactly, but that's what I 0:03:09.000 --> 0:03:10.920 did on Saturday as I went to Mary Poppins. 0:03:11.040 --> 0:03:13.280 How do you explain that, Well. 0:03:13.280 --> 0:03:16.480 A friend of ours there, it's a camp that my 0:03:16.600 --> 0:03:19.160 daughter was heavily involved in when she was little, Okay, 0:03:19.240 --> 0:03:21.440 and now she's a counselor at it because she's eighteen, 0:03:22.000 --> 0:03:24.079 and so she choreographed it, so we wanted to see 0:03:24.080 --> 0:03:26.840 what she choreographed. And our friend's kid is in the camp, 0:03:26.880 --> 0:03:28.680 so it was a double thing when to support them, 0:03:29.040 --> 0:03:31.800 see what you know, that sort of thing. Yeah, so 0:03:31.880 --> 0:03:35.000 that's what I did. I spent my afternoon at Mary Poppins. Yeah, 0:03:35.000 --> 0:03:35.680 it was a good show. 0:03:36.440 --> 0:03:38.600 I think next year you should maybe try and plan 0:03:38.760 --> 0:03:39.360 something that. 0:03:41.560 --> 0:03:44.160 It's the best late plans, you know, like family stuff 0:03:44.200 --> 0:03:46.040 just comes up. When it comes up. You can't really 0:03:46.280 --> 0:03:49.200 schedule around it. So but it was fine, Thank you. 0:03:49.200 --> 0:03:52.080 We wone got pizza. It's good, nice, nothing too excited. 0:03:52.120 --> 0:03:52.840 Birthday pizza. 0:03:52.880 --> 0:03:55.080 Birthday pizza is. 0:03:55.080 --> 0:03:57.280 That typically what you do as a man. 0:03:58.040 --> 0:04:02.320 An exotic pizza, like different pizza, like Detroit style, Chicago style, 0:04:02.480 --> 0:04:06.040 some sort of thick, interesting pizza. There's a place on 0:04:06.120 --> 0:04:09.280 Thousand Oaks called the Slice House that it's very interesting 0:04:09.360 --> 0:04:13.480 slices of pizza with like honey or like different stuff 0:04:13.520 --> 0:04:16.080 on it, different kinds of cheeses, and it's really fun 0:04:16.080 --> 0:04:17.680 to go there and just go nuts. 0:04:18.000 --> 0:04:19.719 Do you know what you're rising in moonar? 0:04:20.720 --> 0:04:21.320 Sure? Don't? 0:04:21.440 --> 0:04:23.360 Okay, well what are your rising in the moon? 0:04:23.480 --> 0:04:25.040 I just told you this. 0:04:25.560 --> 0:04:32.000 This seems like something that you should be able to. 0:04:31.720 --> 0:04:32.719 That would make sense. 0:04:33.080 --> 0:04:36.240 Yeah, oh my gosh, wow, I have to this up 0:04:36.520 --> 0:04:37.480 because I just did it. 0:04:37.520 --> 0:04:41.440 What's the what is it called? Co star? 0:04:41.960 --> 0:04:48.160 What's your astrology name? Tati? You're very disappointed in this, 0:04:48.440 --> 0:04:50.640 she would, It's okay, it's okay. 0:04:51.440 --> 0:04:52.880 I don't understand any of this. But it looks like 0:04:52.880 --> 0:04:55.880 a moon sign is Pisces. I'm a cancer with a 0:04:55.920 --> 0:04:59.520 Pisce's moon sign? Is that right? Am I reading that correctly? 0:04:59.680 --> 0:05:00.000 I don't? 0:05:00.360 --> 0:05:01.120 What are you looking at? 0:05:01.320 --> 0:05:03.440 Awesome website? Is Google? My my? 0:05:03.839 --> 0:05:06.679 No, you have to put in oh oh no, market 0:05:07.800 --> 0:05:08.480 like time. 0:05:09.760 --> 0:05:12.719 All that stuffy sign. 0:05:12.920 --> 0:05:17.479 Yeah, yeah, okay, So it's cancer sun and cancer moon 0:05:17.560 --> 0:05:21.359 and taurusts and Aquarius rising, which is sensitive seeks comfort 0:05:21.440 --> 0:05:26.520 for gibbs but never forgets so nice, so you yeah, yeah, 0:05:26.600 --> 0:05:27.200 what's yours? 0:05:27.600 --> 0:05:30.320 I'm which is the one that you present as? Is 0:05:30.320 --> 0:05:34.720 that your moon rising? The so my moon is Libra 0:05:35.200 --> 0:05:37.280 and my rising is cancer. 0:05:38.960 --> 0:05:39.679 We're so tight? 0:05:41.440 --> 0:05:42.040 How I remember? 0:05:42.080 --> 0:05:44.840 They say, like typically how you present which makes sense 0:05:44.880 --> 0:05:47.839 because like libras can be very indecisive, and that's I 0:05:47.960 --> 0:05:50.240 really resonate with that. That's about it, though, I don't. 0:05:50.240 --> 0:05:52.599 I don't really go in depth about astrology. It's just 0:05:52.600 --> 0:05:55.320 fun to ask. I love it, I know, but you 0:05:55.360 --> 0:05:56.800 love it. You don't love it so much that you 0:05:56.839 --> 0:05:57.839 knew your own moon. 0:05:57.720 --> 0:06:01.360 And resonate so much as a cancer that I don't 0:06:01.360 --> 0:06:02.280 care about the other sign. 0:06:02.640 --> 0:06:05.479 I mean, yeah, I spent. 0:06:06.720 --> 0:06:11.120 My whole entire week watching Love Island usay. 0:06:11.440 --> 0:06:13.680 I mean, I gotta say, Becka put in the work 0:06:13.800 --> 0:06:15.800 I should be put in the w E r K. 0:06:16.520 --> 0:06:20.640 I would just like to say that that was twenty six. 0:06:20.760 --> 0:06:22.520 I think I got I think I have a couple before. 0:06:22.560 --> 0:06:24.440 I'm like officially caught up because it work. 0:06:24.480 --> 0:06:26.080 Tonight, we're on episode thirty one. 0:06:26.160 --> 0:06:32.000 Oh my, and you guys, so it actually ends this weekend. 0:06:32.080 --> 0:06:34.040 I think the finale is the twenty first. Can you 0:06:34.120 --> 0:06:35.960 confirm that for me? I'd be happy to thank you 0:06:36.000 --> 0:06:36.360 so much. 0:06:36.839 --> 0:06:39.240 I think the finales this Sunday. 0:06:39.800 --> 0:06:43.400 Yeah, so I really put in the work to be 0:06:43.480 --> 0:06:46.120 able to have this conversation on scrubbing in. 0:06:46.040 --> 0:06:48.680 And you know we're gonna have it in depth. 0:06:49.160 --> 0:06:50.960 I can't confirm Sunday is the finale. 0:06:51.080 --> 0:06:53.960 Yeah, so you're just there, You're right there. I gotta 0:06:53.960 --> 0:06:57.520 get it tired. I'm so tired, just a couple more. 0:06:57.800 --> 0:07:01.640 If I can tell you what Iler's voice fuck air. 0:07:06.080 --> 0:07:13.040 To lose my mind. Oh my gosh. 0:07:13.320 --> 0:07:16.600 So but I really appreciate you doing that because. 0:07:16.320 --> 0:07:18.800 If you don't for you, you know me. 0:07:19.080 --> 0:07:23.040 Yes, I sent Beca this thing that said the Love 0:07:23.080 --> 0:07:25.480 Island USA finale is set to air, Oh yeah, July 0:07:25.560 --> 0:07:28.960 twenty first, as Peacock also announces that the series as 0:07:29.000 --> 0:07:33.360 the most watched streaming reality show in America. 0:07:33.680 --> 0:07:35.720 Looking at me like, you're in my face. I never 0:07:35.840 --> 0:07:38.480 said it wasn't popular. What I said was your for 0:07:38.560 --> 0:07:41.280 you page is not a great gauge of what is popular. 0:07:41.400 --> 0:07:44.240 It's just great gauge. It's popular with you. That's the thing. 0:07:44.360 --> 0:07:47.160 Also, but you also said nobody watches. 0:07:47.720 --> 0:07:50.000 I said, I have information on. 0:07:50.040 --> 0:07:53.880 Thinking about life without Love Island usay meme of Aaron 0:07:54.040 --> 0:07:56.400 being very sad. But I saw this other meme that 0:07:56.440 --> 0:07:59.880 it was like everybody on Instagram is in Europe, like 0:08:00.080 --> 0:08:03.040 flaunting around the beaches. My summer plans are watching Love 0:08:03.080 --> 0:08:05.360 Island USA. And I was like, I really resonated with that. 0:08:05.680 --> 0:08:08.320 Yeah, I still don't get it. 0:08:08.880 --> 0:08:11.840 Really, twenty six episodes, you don't get it. 0:08:12.320 --> 0:08:17.280 I don't understand how it has taken off the way 0:08:17.320 --> 0:08:18.040 it's taken off. 0:08:18.240 --> 0:08:21.480 What this season is extraordinary? 0:08:21.680 --> 0:08:25.040 So what really led led me to going on this 0:08:25.120 --> 0:08:26.360 journey alone? 0:08:26.600 --> 0:08:30.240 Might I say? Just me and Phoebe. Phoebe's probably so tired. 0:08:30.400 --> 0:08:34.560 This voice in the world is that Chicks in the office. 0:08:34.640 --> 0:08:37.200 Rhan fran Or got invited to go to Fiji for 0:08:37.280 --> 0:08:40.280 the finale to like do a podcast and stuff there. 0:08:40.320 --> 0:08:43.040 Oh yeah, And so Tanya was like this could be us, 0:08:43.040 --> 0:08:45.640 and I'm like, yeah, except I have never watched the 0:08:45.679 --> 0:08:48.600 show in my life, but I will do it for you. 0:08:48.640 --> 0:08:50.760 And so that's what you know. I was like, I'm 0:08:50.920 --> 0:08:53.320 I'm I'm a team player if anything. 0:08:53.480 --> 0:08:56.920 Yeah, So Riha and fran they are getting sent to 0:08:57.120 --> 0:09:00.440 Fiji to be there for the finale. They get to 0:09:00.480 --> 0:09:03.880 interview the winning couple and they get to interview Ariano 0:09:03.880 --> 0:09:06.880 Mattox and they're gonna be on Aftersun, which is like 0:09:08.200 --> 0:09:12.760 iconic for Love Island fans, and Peacock sent them the 0:09:13.800 --> 0:09:15.840 water bottles. They like have these water bottles with their 0:09:15.920 --> 0:09:18.800 names on them that are very like iconic, and they 0:09:18.800 --> 0:09:21.280 sent them all this kind of Love Island swag. 0:09:21.400 --> 0:09:22.880 I do feel like you should at least get a 0:09:22.880 --> 0:09:23.800 swag bag. 0:09:23.800 --> 0:09:25.000 No, thank you so much. 0:09:25.160 --> 0:09:27.760 I felt a little left out of that as well 0:09:28.280 --> 0:09:30.000 because I saw Nick bol got one as well. 0:09:30.080 --> 0:09:31.640 Oh my gosh, wow. 0:09:32.280 --> 0:09:34.280 And I don't know if Nick Miles watched as many 0:09:34.320 --> 0:09:37.040 seasons as I have. But that's neither here nor there. 0:09:37.080 --> 0:09:38.439 Are they all still on the island? 0:09:38.480 --> 0:09:41.600 Then, yes, it's all in real time so we're. 0:09:41.440 --> 0:09:46.240 Watching, yes, yes, Okay, so this is a break and 0:09:46.280 --> 0:09:47.880 come back because there's like a lot to unpack. 0:09:47.960 --> 0:09:49.640 Have we even started the podcast? 0:09:49.800 --> 0:09:53.280 We just started when okay, we're gonna put we'll put 0:09:53.280 --> 0:09:55.920 a pin in that and do that at another tuble 0:09:56.200 --> 0:09:57.760 we'll go in depth about Love Island. 0:09:57.800 --> 0:10:00.800 But we just started the podcast this Thursday. 0:10:01.000 --> 0:10:03.720 Yeah, what are you doing? Oh my gosh, Well you 0:10:03.760 --> 0:10:05.360 can't really like throw me like that. I'm like just 0:10:05.360 --> 0:10:06.719 getting into my like love, I know. 0:10:06.960 --> 0:10:10.040 But we literally just started the podcast and had like 0:10:10.080 --> 0:10:12.439 two seconds before you're trying to do a break. 0:10:12.800 --> 0:10:15.000 We just heard thirty minutes of commercials before the show 0:10:15.040 --> 0:10:16.760 start again. 0:10:16.920 --> 0:10:19.080 No, I'm never the one to like break us, And 0:10:19.120 --> 0:10:23.760 so I wanted to like bet today and I wanted. 0:10:23.480 --> 0:10:24.000 To get it in. 0:10:24.520 --> 0:10:27.760 That was brown noser behavior, pick me behavior. 0:10:30.640 --> 0:10:32.480 I'm just kidding, but no, we don't need to take 0:10:32.480 --> 0:10:35.480 a break yet, because if anything, people want longer podcast. 0:10:36.880 --> 0:10:39.240 They're like, we could listen to you. I don't. 0:10:39.320 --> 0:10:41.920 They were like the podcast used to be longer. I 0:10:41.920 --> 0:10:43.959 feel like they cut it like forty minutes, and then 0:10:44.280 --> 0:10:46.319 I think so, I think, yeah, I'm. 0:10:46.120 --> 0:10:49.880 Saying that we're having similar amount of ads to talk ratio, 0:10:49.960 --> 0:10:50.360 which is. 0:10:51.840 --> 0:10:56.480 Speak to that. I add the commercial breaks. iHeart radio 0:10:56.480 --> 0:10:58.880 has a rule on this and it hasn't changed. There's 0:10:58.880 --> 0:11:01.240 two stop sets, that's what we call them in radio, 0:11:01.480 --> 0:11:02.480 two commercial breaks. 0:11:02.480 --> 0:11:04.040 But how long are those commercial breaks? 0:11:04.080 --> 0:11:05.040 Well that I don't control. 0:11:05.120 --> 0:11:08.520 Well that that's what they're saying. The length of commercial 0:11:08.800 --> 0:11:11.000 is the same amount of time as we're spent talking, 0:11:11.200 --> 0:11:11.520 which I. 0:11:11.520 --> 0:11:13.200 Don't know about that. I just know that if it's 0:11:13.200 --> 0:11:15.280 the show is fifty minutes or less, I put in two. 0:11:15.320 --> 0:11:18.600 If it's more than fifty, I gotta put in three. Yeah, 0:11:18.880 --> 0:11:20.480 And I never put in three regular ways. So I 0:11:20.480 --> 0:11:21.600 don't think we were ever that long. 0:11:21.800 --> 0:11:24.040 I think we used to. We definitely used to go 0:11:24.040 --> 0:11:24.600 over an hour. 0:11:25.200 --> 0:11:26.960 Yeah, for sure, do your thing. 0:11:27.080 --> 0:11:29.480 But also as you put them in the you put 0:11:29.480 --> 0:11:31.880 them now, So that's content. You put commercials in the 0:11:31.880 --> 0:11:32.880 beginning of the podcast. 0:11:33.040 --> 0:11:35.160 Well, that's that's standard. I don't control that either. 0:11:35.280 --> 0:11:39.000 Well, sounds like you do. I like those to not 0:11:39.120 --> 0:11:40.960 come first if you can move those. 0:11:41.040 --> 0:11:43.560 I don't think we can move those right easty, No, 0:11:43.679 --> 0:11:45.200 we can't, but maybe soon. 0:11:45.720 --> 0:11:47.480 We got a meeting. We need to have a meeting. 0:11:47.520 --> 0:11:50.160 We roll by the way. 0:11:50.640 --> 0:11:52.360 Anyways, We see what y'all are saying. 0:11:52.360 --> 0:11:54.880 We don't have control over everything, but we hear you 0:11:54.960 --> 0:11:55.960 and what I do. 0:11:55.960 --> 0:11:59.920 Think we wish had control of everything. That'd be scary, dangerous. 0:12:01.160 --> 0:12:02.719 I don't know what they would get if that were 0:12:02.760 --> 0:12:03.160 the case. 0:12:03.240 --> 0:12:06.280 That's very true. A lot of boring love island talk. 0:12:06.160 --> 0:12:07.400 That's for sure, I know. 0:12:07.760 --> 0:12:09.480 But people are wanting the love island talk. 0:12:09.520 --> 0:12:11.560 But we will get to that in a little while 0:12:11.559 --> 0:12:14.800 because there's a lot to say. But as I was 0:12:14.840 --> 0:12:19.319 saying before you tried to insert us into break early, 0:12:20.320 --> 0:12:24.079 it's your birthday this week. I thought you're about to 0:12:24.120 --> 0:12:29.520 hit it. I just thought you were doing it, so 0:12:29.559 --> 0:12:36.200 I was giving space. What are your plans. 0:12:36.679 --> 0:12:40.560 Hanging out with you? I know that, Okay, Okay, we already. 0:12:40.559 --> 0:12:43.960 Waiting for like the Actually I booked a ticket early. 0:12:45.800 --> 0:12:50.920 No, No, when are you going to visit her next week. 0:12:51.040 --> 0:12:52.400 Oh my gosh, you have a whole. 0:12:52.200 --> 0:12:56.959 Week, a whole more week, basically two weeks, so not 0:12:57.200 --> 0:12:59.160 this week and then the next week. 0:12:59.720 --> 0:13:00.560 Oh wow. 0:13:00.840 --> 0:13:03.199 Yeah, so to be like a solid three weeks again, 0:13:04.520 --> 0:13:08.280 I know. And I'm doing great, honestly, thank you so much. 0:13:09.360 --> 0:13:10.120 I'm honest. 0:13:10.240 --> 0:13:13.720 I had a really and I think I talked about this, 0:13:13.760 --> 0:13:15.400 but not like in too much stuff. 0:13:15.480 --> 0:13:17.439 I had a really hard time last year when she 0:13:17.480 --> 0:13:18.000 went on tour. 0:13:18.160 --> 0:13:20.320 So it's funny you bring this up. Not funny because 0:13:20.400 --> 0:13:23.680 you had a really hard time. But Robbie actually brought 0:13:23.679 --> 0:13:25.560 it up to me the other day. He was like, 0:13:25.600 --> 0:13:28.600 how is Becca doing this this time with Haley gone? 0:13:28.600 --> 0:13:31.040 And I was like, I think she's been quite all 0:13:31.120 --> 0:13:34.959 right actually, and he goes, yeah, it's it probably helps 0:13:35.080 --> 0:13:37.480 that she's like in one place instead of like in 0:13:37.520 --> 0:13:39.720 a different city every night dancing the night away. 0:13:39.920 --> 0:13:42.560 Right, Yeah, yeah, yeah, there are some things that have 0:13:42.640 --> 0:13:44.600 definitely helped the situation correct. 0:13:45.640 --> 0:13:48.720 But you're handling it, like i'd say, a hundred times better. 0:13:49.040 --> 0:13:51.439 Oh my god, yeah, I feel totally different. I think 0:13:51.480 --> 0:13:53.880 I was dealing with a lot of insecurities that like 0:13:53.960 --> 0:13:56.360 I didn't even know it triggered something that brought it 0:13:56.480 --> 0:13:59.520 up for me last year, and I we appreciate. 0:13:59.000 --> 0:13:59.640 You saying that. 0:14:00.280 --> 0:14:03.320 I think you come across as somebody that doesn't have insecurities. 0:14:04.240 --> 0:14:04.560 What. 0:14:05.120 --> 0:14:06.240 Yeah, don't you think. 0:14:07.240 --> 0:14:09.960 Anyone you do come across as very confident. 0:14:09.760 --> 0:14:13.640 Yes, and very like yeah, and also like nothing really 0:14:13.760 --> 0:14:18.080 rattles you like I don't bluzz Yeah, bluse is not 0:14:18.120 --> 0:14:19.400 the right word, but very just. 0:14:19.400 --> 0:14:21.880 Like, come at me. I'm good. 0:14:23.120 --> 0:14:26.800 I think I I've always felt that way, but. 0:14:28.400 --> 0:14:31.360 In my relationship, and I think there's some vulnerability there 0:14:31.400 --> 0:14:34.520 because it's the first time it's something that feels so 0:14:35.080 --> 0:14:38.040 like I've tried. I was trying so hard to hold 0:14:38.080 --> 0:14:40.400 on tight to it because I thought like, for some reason, 0:14:40.480 --> 0:14:42.720 maybe it could be taken for me for some reason 0:14:42.800 --> 0:14:43.600 last year I felt that. 0:14:44.440 --> 0:14:46.520 And I think it being. 0:14:46.400 --> 0:14:49.960 My first serious relationship and being like my first love, 0:14:50.040 --> 0:14:52.440 there was this like heaviness to it that I felt 0:14:52.480 --> 0:14:56.400 so almost out of control about, which in any relationship, 0:14:56.400 --> 0:14:59.600 once you recognize that you don't control your partner, you 0:14:59.640 --> 0:15:00.360 don't want that. 0:15:00.560 --> 0:15:03.920 Yeah, it takes like so much weight off of you. 0:15:04.400 --> 0:15:07.760 It's tough place to gain what to be out of, 0:15:07.880 --> 0:15:09.840 not not in control yeah, yeah, no, I. 0:15:09.760 --> 0:15:11.880 Think it's natural to want control of the situation. And 0:15:12.000 --> 0:15:16.080 she is so amazing and when we would talk about 0:15:16.080 --> 0:15:19.600 it in therapy, it was never about me not trusting 0:15:19.800 --> 0:15:21.360 her what she would do, but it was like my 0:15:21.440 --> 0:15:23.840 own I was like something was feeding my own insecurities 0:15:23.840 --> 0:15:26.240 and I was in a spiral. And when I've realized 0:15:26.280 --> 0:15:29.240 when you're in a spiral, no one can say anything 0:15:29.280 --> 0:15:30.520 to get you out of a spiral. 0:15:30.600 --> 0:15:32.400 No, no, no, you just go down. 0:15:32.800 --> 0:15:34.960 You just you just go down. And then I'd come 0:15:35.000 --> 0:15:38.080 out of it and be like that was wild. Sorry 0:15:38.080 --> 0:15:43.920 about what I said and how I've paved that. Yeah, 0:15:43.960 --> 0:15:45.440 And a lot of people have been asking how have 0:15:45.480 --> 0:15:45.880 you been doing? 0:15:46.320 --> 0:15:48.240 You know, I did hint at it last year, I 0:15:48.240 --> 0:15:50.320 guess because people are like, I know, last year was hard, 0:15:50.360 --> 0:15:54.320 So how are you doing. I'm doing I'm actually doing 0:15:54.560 --> 0:15:59.200 so well, like I can say without faking it. Even 0:15:59.200 --> 0:16:01.280 Haley the other night was like make sure because I 0:16:01.320 --> 0:16:03.320 was like, I'm really missing you. I noticed, I noticed 0:16:03.360 --> 0:16:06.120 I'm missing you, and just mundane things like we went 0:16:06.160 --> 0:16:10.120 to Michael's party, Britney's husband, and like that's something we 0:16:10.200 --> 0:16:13.040 normally do together, you know, and just like having her 0:16:13.080 --> 0:16:14.240 with me for those types. 0:16:14.040 --> 0:16:15.920 Of things like watching Love Island every night. 0:16:16.080 --> 0:16:18.480 She would have no, I wouldn't have been able to 0:16:18.480 --> 0:16:20.280 do that. She would have been so over. 0:16:21.880 --> 0:16:24.480 Show ditched out this season on me too. 0:16:24.600 --> 0:16:27.360 Actually, I was like he was kind of like, he 0:16:27.480 --> 0:16:29.800 was kind of like, it's not that great. I'm good 0:16:29.800 --> 0:16:31.840 into it. Helena too, Well. 0:16:31.680 --> 0:16:32.520 That's a different story. 0:16:33.720 --> 0:16:36.280 But yeah, So I was just telling her. I was like, yeah, 0:16:36.280 --> 0:16:36.960 I'm really missing you. 0:16:37.000 --> 0:16:39.080 I really felt it today and I like cried, but 0:16:39.120 --> 0:16:40.920 I wasn't crying and like I was mad or I 0:16:40.960 --> 0:16:43.040 was just like I miss you. And she's like, you know, 0:16:43.200 --> 0:16:45.800 make sure you go out and are giving to yourself 0:16:45.800 --> 0:16:47.560 and having fun. I'm like, no, no, no, I'm having a 0:16:47.560 --> 0:16:48.080 great time. 0:16:48.160 --> 0:16:56.080 I'm totally don't pay, don't get get your nails stuck, 0:16:57.000 --> 0:16:57.560 like go. 0:16:57.640 --> 0:17:00.960 Be in nature, like you know, plans with friends. 0:17:00.960 --> 0:17:03.320 I think she's triggered from last year, so she's like 0:17:03.520 --> 0:17:05.320 keep busy, and I'm. 0:17:05.200 --> 0:17:07.040 Like, I promise you I'm good. 0:17:07.680 --> 0:17:08.639 Is so funny. 0:17:08.720 --> 0:17:10.760 I know you're sitting at home with a copy of Panorama, 0:17:10.840 --> 0:17:17.160 just a single candle, just like. 0:17:14.680 --> 0:17:16.680 Like listening to the breakup songs she wrote about me. 0:17:17.240 --> 0:17:18.639 I didn't even know we were going to break up. 0:17:18.800 --> 0:17:19.760 Oh my gosh. 0:17:20.720 --> 0:17:24.720 So, yeah, it's been great, and I'm really proud of her, 0:17:24.800 --> 0:17:27.760 and I'm proud of us for like really doing it 0:17:27.840 --> 0:17:31.400 because we we had a lot of couples therapy time 0:17:31.480 --> 0:17:34.320 leading up to it, just being like, it can't be 0:17:34.359 --> 0:17:37.000 what it was last year. How do we you know, Yeah, 0:17:37.640 --> 0:17:39.760 get through this and it'd be like a positive experience 0:17:39.760 --> 0:17:40.480 for both of us. 0:17:41.160 --> 0:17:43.520 I commend you, I really do, because I know going 0:17:43.560 --> 0:17:47.080 into it you were hesitant because of everything from the past, 0:17:47.400 --> 0:17:50.880 and you've really like you took what you learned, you 0:17:50.920 --> 0:17:54.160 grew from it, and you're implementing those things into this 0:17:54.280 --> 0:17:57.240 new time and it's proving to work. 0:17:57.440 --> 0:17:59.520 Yeah, it's been great. I'm I'm like I said, I'm 0:17:59.560 --> 0:18:01.560 proud of us, and and we did put in. 0:18:01.520 --> 0:18:04.160 The work to get here. Yeah, you know, that's that's 0:18:04.160 --> 0:18:06.800 a little bit about us. So three weeks is a 0:18:06.800 --> 0:18:07.240 long time. 0:18:07.600 --> 0:18:10.119 Three weeks is a long time. So but when you 0:18:10.119 --> 0:18:11.760 have the rest of your life, what's three weeks? 0:18:11.920 --> 0:18:15.680 Oh wow, wow, wow, nicely. 0:18:16.760 --> 0:18:17.320 She went there. 0:18:18.800 --> 0:18:21.560