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Speaker 1: Hello, Hello, is this the gag?

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Speaker 2: Yes, sir? Who is this?

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Speaker 1: This is Patrick?

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Speaker 2: Patrick? Patrick? You wait where? I heard a little beep

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Speaker 2: in the background. What was that?

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Speaker 1: Oh?

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Speaker 2: You're getting out of your car.

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Speaker 1: I just got in the car.

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Speaker 2: Okay, are you about to start driving the car somewhere?

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Speaker 1: I'm not going to be the one driving.

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Speaker 2: Okay, Well, who are you in the car with?

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Speaker 1: I'm in the car with my six months old and

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Speaker 1: her mother?

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Speaker 2: Oh what? Okay? Wait, okay, so you just all right?

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Speaker 2: You texted me and you said I'm texting you because

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Speaker 2: I want to talk to you about how I fucked

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Speaker 2: up my relationship with my daughter's mother so bad that

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Speaker 2: it genuinely made me rethink my whole life. And you

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Speaker 2: want to talk to me about this while she's driving

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Speaker 2: a car.

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Speaker 1: See you. I'm totally down for it.

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Speaker 2: Okay, all right, go ahead. What happened? How did you

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Speaker 2: fuck up this relationship?

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Speaker 1: So this relationship has been going has been going on

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Speaker 1: for seven or eight years now, but it was kind

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Speaker 1: of rocky all the way from the start from my

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Speaker 1: own doing. So, I got out of a maybe a

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Speaker 1: four year relationship that was basically my whole high school time,

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Speaker 1: and then m maybe less than a month after that,

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Speaker 1: I met step uh step me, my baby's mother, and

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Speaker 1: so we started talking.

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Speaker 3: We dated.

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Speaker 1: I wasn't over my my high school girlfriend.

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Speaker 3: Girl.

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Speaker 1: I wasn't over my high school girlfriend yet. And one

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Speaker 1: thing led to another. I hit up my old ex

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Speaker 1: and then new baby, new new girlfriend found out about it.

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Speaker 1: So that just strained the whole relationship. And then after that,

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Speaker 1: instead of us just completely breaking it off from each other,

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Speaker 1: we just kind of.

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Speaker 3: Rolled with it.

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Speaker 1: I guess you could say you kept dating. Yeah, yeah,

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Speaker 1: we kept dating.

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Speaker 2: And this was this was several years ago.

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Speaker 1: Yeah, so this that was twenty eighteen. And so then

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Speaker 1: we dated, like I guess you could say, exclusively for

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Speaker 1: about four years, and then we broke up and then

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Speaker 1: we were kind of just like on and off since then.

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Speaker 2: Okay, And then when did you have this child together?

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Speaker 1: That was about six months ago last November.

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Speaker 2: Okay, which she was born. So you were on enough

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Speaker 2: to do that.

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Speaker 1: Yeah, it was actually a weird situation, but yeah, it was.

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Speaker 1: It was one of those on one of those on times.

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Speaker 2: And are you happy with that?

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Speaker 1: Like?

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Speaker 2: Was it was? It? It was this like a choice

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Speaker 2: or did this like just happen?

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Speaker 3: Uh?

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Speaker 1: So it kind of just happened like it was. There

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Speaker 1: was definitely no plan of it, but we both kind

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Speaker 1: of decided that we didn't really want to go through

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Speaker 1: with an abortion.

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Speaker 2: Oh so okay, so it was it was an unplanned baby. Yeah, yeah, okay, okay.

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Speaker 2: So but you guys, it sounds like you're co parenting

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Speaker 2: pretty well considering she's in the car with you right now.

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Speaker 1: Yeah, we're pretty cordial when it comes to our daughter

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Speaker 1: because she really has nothing to do with our problems

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Speaker 1: that we have between each other, you know, So we

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Speaker 1: were pretty cordial for her. But if it's just us too,

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Speaker 1: it's like back and forth. Some days were good, some

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Speaker 3: Very very bad.

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Speaker 2: How and how are you today as you're talking about

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Speaker 2: this on the phone while she's in the room.

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Speaker 1: Uh, Well, like my tech said, I've been thinking about

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Speaker 1: myself and my actions and everything about me a lot lately.

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Speaker 1: So I've come to a conclusion that I'm not living

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Speaker 1: the way I want to or should be. She's got

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Speaker 1: which I don't really I wouldn't say I don't agree with,

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Speaker 1: but there's just a different way I don't want to live.

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Speaker 3: For myself.

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Speaker 2: Okay, let's talk about this. Let's talk about this. What

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Speaker 2: what way does she want you to be?

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Speaker 1: Let's seem to put it shortly, she would stay more

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Speaker 1: attentative to our relationship. Mm hmm. She says more respectful

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Speaker 1: to her, to be more respectable to her in our relationship.

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Speaker 3: Is she? Dude? Is she?

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Speaker 2: Is she feeding you these lines?

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Speaker 3: Does she?

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Speaker 1: She? She sent me that last one?

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Speaker 2: Okay, Okay, Okay. She wants you to be more respectful

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Speaker 2: to her and she wants to be more attentive to her. Okay,

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Speaker 2: to keep going? Is that it?

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Speaker 1: Honestly, porn and sex has been a bit a big

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Speaker 3: Years, Okay, so when okay, so when relationship?

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Speaker 2: Okay, all right, but we'll talk about that. But why

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Speaker 2: do you Okay, So she she wants you to be

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Speaker 2: more attentive to your relationship and more respectful to her.

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Speaker 2: Why does that not jive with how you want to live?

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Speaker 1: I know, maybe that part doesn't drive Maybe maybe that's

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Speaker 1: not the part that I'm talking about, but it's uh,

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Speaker 1: I don't know. Just as throughout the seven years, like

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Speaker 1: the stuff we've been through and whatnot, we've both lost

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Speaker 1: respect for each other. So so for me to to

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Speaker 1: wants me to, I don't. I don't think I could

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Speaker 2: This is crazy, I you know what. Okay, Okay, I've.

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Speaker 1: Been waiting to talk to you, dude.

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Speaker 2: Okay, so let's let's let's let me hear this. I

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Speaker 2: have a pretty good idea. It sounds of how she

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Speaker 2: gradually How did she in your How do you believe

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Speaker 2: that she lost respect for you over the years, just

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Speaker 2: like porn and ship?

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Speaker 3: Uh, porn ship.

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Speaker 1: During those on and off periods the people I would

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Speaker 1: talk to, but I don't think that's really her business

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Speaker 1: in the off periods but mostly.

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Speaker 2: Uh, she just said she just said something. What does

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Speaker 3: What did you say?

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Speaker 1: She says I would bring them into the relationship during

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Speaker 1: I'm guessing during on periods.

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Speaker 3: Wow.

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Speaker 2: I want to talk to her so badly, but she's dry. Well, well,

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Speaker 2: we'll get to it, we'll get through it.

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Speaker 3: Okay, do you want it now?

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Speaker 2: I want to. I still have more information I want

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Speaker 2: to get out of you first. She so, okay, So yeah,

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Speaker 2: in what way? How does she lose respect for you?

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Speaker 2: The like to put the masturbation important stuff.

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Speaker 1: Yeah, that's like the base of it, I would say,

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Speaker 1: that that is totally separate from your real sex life,

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Speaker 1: and I don't think it shapes how you feel about

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Speaker 2: Here's listen, listen, listen, listen. I agree with that as

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Speaker 2: a baseline until those things stop being true. So the

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Speaker 2: question becomes like, I don't think that porn and masturbation

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Speaker 2: like not having sex with her or appreciating her.

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Speaker 1: Or dude, we had sex all the time and it

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Speaker 1: was I thought it was great sex at least, but

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Speaker 1: I think she believes that I go to porn because

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Speaker 1: I don't like her, like I don't enjoy her. But

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Speaker 1: it's totally not true.

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Speaker 2: What did she.

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Speaker 3: What did you think?

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Speaker 1: She said? She brought up other people that were that

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Speaker 1: have been problems in our relationship during the four year

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Speaker 1: on time the beginning. Okay, like the the X basically

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Speaker 2: Okay, okay, let's look more at what you said in

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Speaker 2: this text here. You said I fucked up the relationship

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Speaker 2: with her. Okay, so you're let me talk to her? Actually?

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Speaker 2: Is that okay? Is she down?

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Speaker 3: Yep?

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Speaker 1: Do you want to talk to him? Everybody's nervous to

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Speaker 1: talk to him. Do you mind if I put it

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Speaker 1: on the speaker?

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Speaker 2: We can try. Sometimes it sounds shitty, but you know,

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Speaker 2: we can try.

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Speaker 3: All right.

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Speaker 1: Let me let's try here.

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Speaker 2: Hello, Hello, Hey, what's your name?

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Speaker 4: Stephanie?

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Speaker 2: Stephanie? How's it going to Stephanie? Wait, Stephanie, do you

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Speaker 2: know who? Do you know who I am? Or what

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Speaker 2: the context of any of this is?

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Speaker 4: Yes, we want to see a show in San Diego?

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Speaker 2: Oh you but what you both went to see my

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Speaker 1: Yah?

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Speaker 2: Dude? What dude? Why don't you guys just why the okay?

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Speaker 1: What?

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Speaker 2: Okay? All right, let me Stephanie. Why have you lost

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Speaker 2: respect for I forget? I'm gonna call him John three?

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Speaker 2: Is fucking Patrick Patrick? Why have you lost respect for Patrick?

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Speaker 4: Because? Uh, you never respect you since the beginning. It

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Speaker 4: doesn't care about his image, and oh, I just think

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Speaker 2: What do you mean by he doesn't care about his image?

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Speaker 4: Like, mmm, i'd was gonna want me to talk about

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Speaker 4: this go for like during my pregnancy, he was still,

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Speaker 4: you know, doing stuff behind me back, liking stuff. He's

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Speaker 4: not supposed to talking to girls.

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Speaker 2: He's not supposed to well, like he was cheating on

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Speaker 4: Yes, okay, maybe we.

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Speaker 1: Ship was undefined because we were never really together whenn't

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Speaker 1: the baby was conceived. But since the baby was conceived,

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Speaker 1: then we decided we weren't going to get an abortion.

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Speaker 1: I moved in with her.

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Speaker 4: We try to make it work, and he would try

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Speaker 4: to well, he would say he would try to make

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Speaker 4: it work, but then I would find out things and

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Speaker 4: it was just like a fantasy to me.

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Speaker 2: Were you were? You? Were you?

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Speaker 3: So?

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Speaker 2: Were you both seeing other people?

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Speaker 4: I wasn't. I'm not sure he was. I don't know

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Speaker 4: he did he them, but it's where I could belie.

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Speaker 2: Okay, So I mean it sounds like neither of you

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Speaker 2: particularly want to like be romantically engaged with each.

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Speaker 4: Other, not anymore, not anymore that he still tells me

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Speaker 4: that he still wants anything, wants his family to this day.

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Speaker 1: So I don't know, but she tells me the same thing. No,

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Speaker 1: I don't.

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Speaker 2: So you so wait, so Patrick, you you want to

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Speaker 2: stay together.

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Speaker 1: At this point? Now, I'm I just kind of want

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Speaker 1: to be by myself, to work on myself and do

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Speaker 1: things for myself. Like for the last fifteen years or so,

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Speaker 1: I always kind of held myself back because of the

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Speaker 1: from I think, stuff that I could have been doing

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Speaker 2: Ah, So you don't respect each other, do either? Do

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Speaker 2: Okay, respect. Actually, you know what, I'm coming around to this.

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Speaker 2: Patrick? You're so fucking lucky? Why I really feel like

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Speaker 2: I'm starting the seventy five days of working out, no porn,

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Speaker 2: Yeah, you're so fucking lucky. Run in the dude. I

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Speaker 2: Well that's good, man, that's good. Let's good. Your daughter.

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Speaker 2: You guys are like dating. What is this? It's just

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Speaker 2: Whatever, stephan I have a question.

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Speaker 2: So, like this is going to go on the internet

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Speaker 4: Yeah, I'm just gonna say, if God gives just scientists

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Speaker 4: It's gonna be it's gonna be too late to go back.

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Speaker 4: That's all I'm gonna say. Just be careful, take the

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Speaker 1: No, man, I'm just like, super excited and happy that

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Speaker 1: Deal.

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Speaker 2: Awesome, all right, you guys have a good one, you too, like, well,

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Speaker 2: I feel like they're going to get back together, but John,

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Speaker 2: think is humanly possible, but who knows. I'd love to

447
00:28:40,520 --> 00:28:45,719
Speaker 2: hear in ten years they they figured it out or

448
00:28:45,760 --> 00:28:50,280
Speaker 2: not or fucking either that or step either that or

449
00:28:50,360 --> 00:28:55,760
Speaker 2: John locks in, he does whatever. Stephanie gets a new boyfriend.

450
00:28:55,840 --> 00:28:58,360
Speaker 2: She's happy. Actually that too, that could all that. Also.

451
00:29:00,400 --> 00:29:03,000
Speaker 2: I was having a John focused theory on this, but

452
00:29:03,160 --> 00:29:06,600
Speaker 2: my Stephanie focused theory. She gets a new boyfriend. They

453
00:29:06,640 --> 00:29:12,440
Speaker 2: lock in together. John locks in, he does his thing. Yeah,

454
00:29:12,440 --> 00:29:13,760
Speaker 2: maybe they shouldn't be together.

455
00:29:15,520 --> 00:29:15,920
Speaker 3: All right?

456
00:29:17,560 --> 00:29:18,600
Speaker 4: From Lee?

457
00:29:20,200 --> 00:29:20,440
Speaker 3: Yeah?

458
00:29:21,120 --> 00:29:23,360
Speaker 2: Hello, Hello, Hey, what's up?

459
00:29:23,400 --> 00:29:23,560
Speaker 1: Man?

460
00:29:23,880 --> 00:29:26,880
Speaker 3: Oh? Wow? Hi? How you doing? Hey?

461
00:29:26,920 --> 00:29:28,680
Speaker 2: I'm doing good. What's your name is?

462
00:29:28,760 --> 00:29:28,960
Speaker 3: Lee?

463
00:29:29,880 --> 00:29:30,120
Speaker 2: Lee?

464
00:29:31,680 --> 00:29:33,480
Speaker 3: I'm blessed to speak to you today.

465
00:29:34,040 --> 00:29:40,680
Speaker 2: You share a name with the guy who assassinated John F. Kennedy.

466
00:29:41,640 --> 00:29:48,120
Speaker 3: Ooh, I also share a name with Bruce Lee.

467
00:29:49,000 --> 00:29:53,080
Speaker 2: Uh not really, I mean that's his last name. Lee's

468
00:29:53,160 --> 00:29:56,160
Speaker 2: your first name. So you you half Lee share a

469
00:29:56,240 --> 00:29:58,600
Speaker 2: name with Bruce Lee.

470
00:29:59,240 --> 00:30:00,520
Speaker 3: Okay to something.

471
00:30:01,800 --> 00:30:04,920
Speaker 2: You sound like you're in a car right now, I

472
00:30:05,040 --> 00:30:07,160
Speaker 2: might be Where are you on your way to?

473
00:30:07,280 --> 00:30:10,680
Speaker 3: In this car, I'm on my way to the gym.

474
00:30:11,200 --> 00:30:12,920
Speaker 2: What are you gonna work out today? What part of

475
00:30:12,920 --> 00:30:15,080
Speaker 2: the body we're doing?

476
00:30:15,240 --> 00:30:19,040
Speaker 3: Arms? And bye up and shoulders?

477
00:30:20,200 --> 00:30:21,840
Speaker 2: How often do you go to gym? How many days

478
00:30:21,840 --> 00:30:22,120
Speaker 2: a week?

479
00:30:23,880 --> 00:30:25,000
Speaker 3: Three days? Right now?

480
00:30:25,960 --> 00:30:27,400
Speaker 2: Okay? What about normally?

481
00:30:29,680 --> 00:30:31,360
Speaker 3: Lomally? Yeah?

482
00:30:31,400 --> 00:30:33,880
Speaker 2: You said right now? What about normally.

483
00:30:36,440 --> 00:30:41,360
Speaker 3: Two days normally, but trying to make three days the standard.

484
00:30:41,400 --> 00:30:45,960
Speaker 2: You know, is anything currently motivating you or inspiring you

485
00:30:46,000 --> 00:30:47,480
Speaker 2: to go to the gym so consistently.

486
00:30:50,040 --> 00:30:54,800
Speaker 3: Uh, I'm just tired of like my clothes being so tight, dude,

487
00:30:55,080 --> 00:30:57,080
Speaker 3: the same. I like being shirtless.

488
00:30:58,560 --> 00:30:59,480
Speaker 2: You like being shirtless?

489
00:30:59,520 --> 00:30:59,840
Speaker 1: Do you look?

490
00:30:59,840 --> 00:31:00,360
Speaker 2: How do you look?

491
00:31:00,360 --> 00:31:00,560
Speaker 3: Shirt?

492
00:31:00,560 --> 00:31:01,160
Speaker 2: It was currently?

493
00:31:03,000 --> 00:31:07,960
Speaker 3: Uh okay, I'm getting there, but I'm okay right now?

494
00:31:08,400 --> 00:31:11,720
Speaker 2: MM what made you want to call me?

495
00:31:14,440 --> 00:31:16,320
Speaker 3: You know? I I've been trying to call you for

496
00:31:16,360 --> 00:31:19,840
Speaker 3: a long time. And I used to have like a

497
00:31:19,840 --> 00:31:24,920
Speaker 3: lot of issues, but that was issues kind of resolved

498
00:31:25,120 --> 00:31:27,760
Speaker 3: and I'm going to like better say now and so

499
00:31:28,000 --> 00:31:29,880
Speaker 3: now I'm just I've just been calling to see like

500
00:31:30,920 --> 00:31:33,400
Speaker 3: if I didn't and I got in like three years later,

501
00:31:33,640 --> 00:31:37,200
Speaker 3: but you know, with those issues. So I do I

502
00:31:37,240 --> 00:31:38,440
Speaker 3: do have a question for you?

503
00:31:39,560 --> 00:31:39,760
Speaker 1: Yeah?

504
00:31:39,760 --> 00:31:42,320
Speaker 2: Please? Yeah, well I have questions for you, but go

505
00:31:42,640 --> 00:31:43,760
Speaker 2: ahead with your question for me.

506
00:31:45,040 --> 00:31:49,320
Speaker 3: Okay. So for me lately, even though I was kind

507
00:31:49,320 --> 00:31:56,479
Speaker 3: of like in a better space, I still feel very lost.

508
00:31:56,600 --> 00:32:00,600
Speaker 3: Like my life is kind of more going with the

509
00:32:00,680 --> 00:32:07,520
Speaker 3: flow then it is structured per se. So I want

510
00:32:07,560 --> 00:32:11,640
Speaker 3: to ask you, you know, do you ever feel lost?

511
00:32:11,680 --> 00:32:13,360
Speaker 3: And like, how do you go about that?

512
00:32:14,120 --> 00:32:17,320
Speaker 2: Dude? I feel lost every fucking day of my life. Yeah,

513
00:32:17,480 --> 00:32:21,080
Speaker 2: of course. Okay, Well I'll answer my question in the

514
00:32:21,120 --> 00:32:27,880
Speaker 2: context of what is what you were doing? So and

515
00:32:28,200 --> 00:32:32,320
Speaker 2: so tell me what issues you were having and then

516
00:32:32,320 --> 00:32:37,840
Speaker 2: how they got resolved. I'm very curious.

517
00:32:38,600 --> 00:32:43,760
Speaker 3: What's it called? Well, I think for starters, I used

518
00:32:43,800 --> 00:32:49,680
Speaker 3: to really compare myself to my friends a lot, so, like,

519
00:32:50,280 --> 00:32:56,080
Speaker 3: you know, right now, I'm twenty seven and all my

520
00:32:56,360 --> 00:33:00,280
Speaker 3: like close friends are married, they're having kids, you know,

521
00:33:00,320 --> 00:33:03,880
Speaker 3: they're getting their their their jobs and their respective fields,

522
00:33:03,920 --> 00:33:10,880
Speaker 3: and I'm kind of just like, no, no, no no partner,

523
00:33:11,040 --> 00:33:15,160
Speaker 3: no no child, no no career. I just got a

524
00:33:15,160 --> 00:33:17,400
Speaker 3: new job. But it's not like in what I went

525
00:33:17,440 --> 00:33:27,560
Speaker 3: to school for, so I you know, just stuff like that,

526
00:33:29,080 --> 00:33:34,080
Speaker 3: and I wouldn't say I don't even know, like I'm

527
00:33:34,120 --> 00:33:37,560
Speaker 3: just I'm just doing my best, you know, so compare

528
00:33:37,680 --> 00:33:38,520
Speaker 3: myself to others.

529
00:33:38,840 --> 00:33:40,480
Speaker 2: Yeah, so how do you feel, Like, how do you

530
00:33:40,480 --> 00:33:44,520
Speaker 2: feel like that issue resolved itself for you?

531
00:33:46,920 --> 00:33:49,160
Speaker 3: I think I've just been kind of thinking of, like,

532
00:33:50,240 --> 00:33:57,240
Speaker 3: you know, what's it called really really thinking, Like, you know,

533
00:33:57,880 --> 00:34:01,479
Speaker 3: I'm a firm believer in everything happens for a reason.

534
00:34:02,840 --> 00:34:08,120
Speaker 3: So I'm thinking I'll just remind myself, you know, like

535
00:34:09,120 --> 00:34:11,440
Speaker 3: I have these feelings now, but it's because you know,

536
00:34:11,600 --> 00:34:14,879
Speaker 3: maybe I'm not I'm not applying myself where I need

537
00:34:14,920 --> 00:34:17,440
Speaker 3: to be, and I'm not taking certain things more seriously.

538
00:34:20,120 --> 00:34:20,279
Speaker 1: You know.

539
00:34:20,680 --> 00:34:23,600
Speaker 3: My physical health was one thing, so I think that's

540
00:34:23,640 --> 00:34:26,520
Speaker 3: like been helping me, you know, going to the gym

541
00:34:26,560 --> 00:34:35,200
Speaker 3: and losing some weight. But what's it called for my

542
00:34:35,280 --> 00:34:37,239
Speaker 3: mental health? You know, I just try and take care

543
00:34:37,280 --> 00:34:42,520
Speaker 3: of it. But it's just in the one where's it.

544
00:34:42,600 --> 00:34:46,359
Speaker 3: We're just just going with emotions, I guess, m hm.

545
00:34:47,920 --> 00:34:53,160
Speaker 2: And how's your like health now?

546
00:34:53,680 --> 00:34:54,000
Speaker 3: All right?

547
00:34:54,280 --> 00:34:56,280
Speaker 2: Like in the I guess in all of the things

548
00:34:56,320 --> 00:35:00,280
Speaker 2: that you were comparing yourself to other people with, like, uh,

549
00:35:01,400 --> 00:35:04,000
Speaker 2: how are they now? Like do you feel like you're

550
00:35:04,080 --> 00:35:06,600
Speaker 2: do you feel better about your your life?

551
00:35:09,239 --> 00:35:11,759
Speaker 3: Twitter? For the most part. You know, I would love

552
00:35:11,920 --> 00:35:17,600
Speaker 3: to have a partner, that's for sure, but uh, you know,

553
00:35:17,760 --> 00:35:20,719
Speaker 3: I'm I think I'm okay with not adding one for now,

554
00:35:20,920 --> 00:35:25,400
Speaker 3: just because you know, everything's a little too expensive, so

555
00:35:25,520 --> 00:35:29,120
Speaker 3: I feel like I wouldn't be able to provide as

556
00:35:29,200 --> 00:35:34,640
Speaker 3: much as I want to. And yeah, a little bit.

557
00:35:35,160 --> 00:35:42,120
Speaker 2: So I but you're getting ripped.

558
00:35:40,200 --> 00:35:42,000
Speaker 3: Doing my best there?

559
00:35:42,560 --> 00:35:44,920
Speaker 2: How do you so? Do you feel you sound? I mean,

560
00:35:44,920 --> 00:35:46,560
Speaker 2: you go to the gym three times a week. You

561
00:35:46,760 --> 00:35:50,640
Speaker 2: sound like a physically attractive guy.

562
00:35:53,400 --> 00:35:53,799
Speaker 3: Thank you?

563
00:35:54,840 --> 00:35:58,439
Speaker 2: Do you? I would? Are you putting yourself out there?

564
00:35:58,840 --> 00:36:00,799
Speaker 2: Are you on the app? So you running around? What

565
00:36:00,840 --> 00:36:01,279
Speaker 2: are you doing?

566
00:36:03,400 --> 00:36:04,960
Speaker 3: I mean, I'm on the apps? But the apps are

567
00:36:04,960 --> 00:36:06,399
Speaker 3: pretty trash. I won't lie to you.

568
00:36:06,920 --> 00:36:08,640
Speaker 2: What's trash about them? I mean, I know I know

569
00:36:08,680 --> 00:36:12,000
Speaker 2: why they're they're they're trap. But you sound I don't know.

570
00:36:12,560 --> 00:36:15,080
Speaker 2: It depends on who you are. You sound like I'm

571
00:36:15,120 --> 00:36:18,560
Speaker 2: picturing you as the kind of guy that does well

572
00:36:18,560 --> 00:36:20,759
Speaker 2: on the apps. There's a kind of guy that does

573
00:36:20,760 --> 00:36:22,839
Speaker 2: well on the apps, and I'm picturing you as that guy.

574
00:36:22,880 --> 00:36:24,560
Speaker 2: I'm just from your voo. I don't know if you

575
00:36:24,600 --> 00:36:26,319
Speaker 2: are that guy, but just from talking to you, from

576
00:36:26,320 --> 00:36:27,839
Speaker 2: what I know about you, you sound like that guy.

577
00:36:29,640 --> 00:36:31,759
Speaker 3: I love that. Thank you, Thank you for that. But

578
00:36:32,640 --> 00:36:35,879
Speaker 3: uh no, I don't get that many swipes. I won't

579
00:36:35,880 --> 00:36:39,360
Speaker 3: lie to you. I think it's because also, like my

580
00:36:39,440 --> 00:36:42,319
Speaker 3: profile is just you know, I think I put a

581
00:36:42,400 --> 00:36:44,319
Speaker 3: decent pictures on it, but I just I don't know,

582
00:36:44,360 --> 00:36:47,399
Speaker 3: I don't I don't take those apps too seriously because

583
00:36:47,520 --> 00:36:50,200
Speaker 3: I've gone on a few dates before, but uh, like

584
00:36:50,800 --> 00:36:52,560
Speaker 3: I kind of got like trauma from one of them,

585
00:36:52,600 --> 00:36:57,120
Speaker 3: so I just take a I take a I don't

586
00:36:57,120 --> 00:36:58,160
Speaker 3: take it seriously anymore.

587
00:36:58,960 --> 00:37:00,920
Speaker 2: What kind of I mean, if you want to talk

588
00:37:00,960 --> 00:37:02,000
Speaker 2: about it? What kind of drama?

589
00:37:03,360 --> 00:37:09,640
Speaker 3: Oo? I mean, what's it called? To make? It?

590
00:37:09,719 --> 00:37:09,799
Speaker 2: Like?

591
00:37:10,280 --> 00:37:15,120
Speaker 3: Not that long of a story. I just I met

592
00:37:15,160 --> 00:37:19,000
Speaker 3: up with this girl. Whoo. At first, I was like,

593
00:37:19,280 --> 00:37:21,080
Speaker 3: you know, hey, I want a relationship. Is this kind

594
00:37:21,160 --> 00:37:23,640
Speaker 3: well we haven't talked for two weeks. I was like, hey,

595
00:37:23,640 --> 00:37:25,839
Speaker 3: I'm kind of like this is where I'm wanting to

596
00:37:25,920 --> 00:37:28,480
Speaker 3: go with this, like it you know, it's just what

597
00:37:28,640 --> 00:37:31,839
Speaker 3: you want to do. And she was like, you know, no,

598
00:37:31,920 --> 00:37:34,560
Speaker 3: not not really, but you're kind of cool, so like

599
00:37:34,600 --> 00:37:36,440
Speaker 3: can we just be friends? And I was like, okay,

600
00:37:36,680 --> 00:37:40,400
Speaker 3: you know that's fine. So she hits me up one

601
00:37:40,480 --> 00:37:42,120
Speaker 3: day to like be like, hey, you want to hang out.

602
00:37:42,160 --> 00:37:44,480
Speaker 3: I was like, yeah, sure, FuG it. So we we

603
00:37:44,600 --> 00:37:50,920
Speaker 3: go we hang out, uh and then you know, afterwards,

604
00:37:50,960 --> 00:37:52,239
Speaker 3: I was like, oh, you know, this is.

605
00:37:52,160 --> 00:37:57,040
Speaker 5: So fun, but I'm gonna go home and she was

606
00:37:57,080 --> 00:38:00,120
Speaker 5: like okay, and then she kind of like me to

607
00:38:00,280 --> 00:38:04,239
Speaker 5: move on me, and then we were gonna like have

608
00:38:04,360 --> 00:38:06,000
Speaker 5: an intercourse in the back of my car.

609
00:38:07,120 --> 00:38:10,760
Speaker 3: And then I couldn't. I couldn't, you know, I couldn't

610
00:38:10,800 --> 00:38:17,560
Speaker 3: stay up. And then uh, and then she she laughed

611
00:38:17,560 --> 00:38:18,920
Speaker 3: and said why is it so small?

612
00:38:19,480 --> 00:38:23,360
Speaker 2: She she laughed at you.

613
00:38:23,480 --> 00:38:26,360
Speaker 3: Yeah, dude, Yeah.

614
00:38:26,480 --> 00:38:30,719
Speaker 2: Oh my dude, she dude. Listen. First of all, just

615
00:38:30,760 --> 00:38:37,480
Speaker 2: so you know, I'm I'm picturing you as as uh again,

616
00:38:37,600 --> 00:38:42,440
Speaker 2: like I'm picturing you as a beautiful man on the

617
00:38:42,440 --> 00:38:45,799
Speaker 2: other end of this phone. You are a beautiful man

618
00:38:45,840 --> 00:38:48,120
Speaker 2: on the other end of this phone. I can't she

619
00:38:48,320 --> 00:38:53,320
Speaker 2: laughed at you, man, damn fuck, damn doubt.

620
00:38:53,360 --> 00:38:55,959
Speaker 3: I think it was like an awkward situational laugh.

621
00:38:56,080 --> 00:38:59,399
Speaker 2: But you know, she laughed nonetheless, and she said why

622
00:38:59,440 --> 00:39:00,440
Speaker 2: are you so small?

623
00:39:01,960 --> 00:39:05,600
Speaker 3: She's along the lines of that, guess like, why is

624
00:39:05,640 --> 00:39:06,360
Speaker 3: it so small?

625
00:39:06,760 --> 00:39:11,879
Speaker 2: Or damn, damn damn. How did you react? That must

626
00:39:11,960 --> 00:39:13,200
Speaker 2: have Yeah, that's fucked up.

627
00:39:15,080 --> 00:39:19,520
Speaker 3: I just I was just like, uh, you know, I

628
00:39:19,520 --> 00:39:23,520
Speaker 3: think I'm just gonna go home now, damn. And then

629
00:39:23,920 --> 00:39:26,160
Speaker 3: you know, I was on the drove, so it was

630
00:39:26,200 --> 00:39:27,279
Speaker 3: an awkward drive home.

631
00:39:27,440 --> 00:39:29,120
Speaker 2: Oh no, you had to drive home?

632
00:39:31,160 --> 00:39:34,560
Speaker 3: Yeah, yeah, damn.

633
00:39:34,880 --> 00:39:37,760
Speaker 2: But that's good. But you know what, it's she revealed.

634
00:39:37,800 --> 00:39:40,600
Speaker 2: It's like because you wanted a relationship with her, but

635
00:39:40,680 --> 00:39:43,600
Speaker 2: she revealed herself in that moment, you know what I mean.

636
00:39:43,800 --> 00:39:45,960
Speaker 2: So it was almost like a good thing that she

637
00:39:46,200 --> 00:39:48,439
Speaker 2: like because you could have got imagine you like got

638
00:39:48,440 --> 00:39:51,200
Speaker 2: deep into a relationship with her or like you started

639
00:39:51,239 --> 00:39:54,759
Speaker 2: really developing feelings for her in some fucking way, and

640
00:39:54,760 --> 00:39:56,239
Speaker 2: then she pulled some shit like that on you.

641
00:39:56,239 --> 00:40:00,600
Speaker 3: You know, yeah, that would have been brutal for sure.

642
00:40:01,360 --> 00:40:01,719
Speaker 3: M hm.

643
00:40:04,239 --> 00:40:04,479
Speaker 1: Hmm.

644
00:40:07,840 --> 00:40:09,680
Speaker 3: We keep it moving forward.

645
00:40:09,880 --> 00:40:12,600
Speaker 2: Okay, I listen. I don't think that I don't think

646
00:40:12,640 --> 00:40:15,960
Speaker 2: every woman on the apps is going to be like, oh,

647
00:40:16,000 --> 00:40:22,239
Speaker 2: your ship is small, you know, Oh yeah, I think

648
00:40:22,280 --> 00:40:25,200
Speaker 2: you can find you. I think that there are some

649
00:40:25,280 --> 00:40:28,759
Speaker 2: ladies out there who are like, whatever you got, right, like,

650
00:40:28,840 --> 00:40:30,319
Speaker 2: no matter who you were, I mean you know this,

651
00:40:30,440 --> 00:40:33,560
Speaker 2: right like, no matter who you are, there's someone out

652
00:40:33,600 --> 00:40:37,560
Speaker 2: there that like, what you got is what they what

653
00:40:37,600 --> 00:40:39,440
Speaker 2: they're looking for, you know what I'm saying.

654
00:40:41,080 --> 00:40:44,360
Speaker 3: Real hmm okay?

655
00:40:44,800 --> 00:40:47,920
Speaker 2: Was that part of was that was that that sounds

656
00:40:47,960 --> 00:40:49,960
Speaker 2: like something that would cause me to go to the

657
00:40:50,080 --> 00:40:51,799
Speaker 2: start going to the gym three times a week? Was

658
00:40:51,840 --> 00:40:53,239
Speaker 2: that a catalyst.

659
00:40:55,040 --> 00:40:57,359
Speaker 3: Uh, this happened like three years ago.

660
00:40:58,080 --> 00:40:58,799
Speaker 2: Three years ago.

661
00:41:00,360 --> 00:41:04,200
Speaker 3: Yeah, yeah, after that, I was just like let me,

662
00:41:04,320 --> 00:41:06,719
Speaker 3: let me I prefer like a long time, I was like,

663
00:41:06,800 --> 00:41:08,600
Speaker 3: let me not be on these apps, so let me

664
00:41:08,680 --> 00:41:12,560
Speaker 3: kind of like do my own thing. And it was

665
00:41:12,600 --> 00:41:14,319
Speaker 3: a thing where I was like, oh, I should really

666
00:41:14,360 --> 00:41:18,040
Speaker 3: like exercise after that, but I have like I have

667
00:41:18,160 --> 00:41:24,000
Speaker 3: like pretty bad ADHD and I was like very unhealthy

668
00:41:24,080 --> 00:41:27,560
Speaker 3: and like under and over stimulated like all the time.

669
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Speaker 3: So after a while, I've kind of like focused on

670
00:41:33,840 --> 00:41:38,360
Speaker 3: that and then now like I'm able to put my

671
00:41:38,520 --> 00:41:45,400
Speaker 3: attention into certain things a little better. But it was

672
00:41:45,440 --> 00:41:48,040
Speaker 3: a catalyst, but it took like fucking you know, like

673
00:41:48,080 --> 00:41:53,359
Speaker 3: two three years, two years to really get the the

674
00:41:53,360 --> 00:41:54,760
Speaker 3: ball rolling in the sense.

675
00:41:55,640 --> 00:41:57,239
Speaker 1: H m hm.

676
00:42:02,040 --> 00:42:08,640
Speaker 2: So are you excited about the future now?

677
00:42:11,160 --> 00:42:11,600
Speaker 3: I think so?

678
00:42:12,080 --> 00:42:15,879
Speaker 1: You know, Oh, what was your sorry?

679
00:42:15,920 --> 00:42:18,040
Speaker 2: Sorry? Go ahead, I'm not I should interrupt you. Go ahead.

680
00:42:18,280 --> 00:42:20,120
Speaker 3: No, No, I don't even know what I'm sorry about.

681
00:42:20,120 --> 00:42:20,920
Speaker 3: That feel free.

682
00:42:21,480 --> 00:42:22,960
Speaker 2: Well, I was gonna say, Okay, you asked me a

683
00:42:23,040 --> 00:42:26,520
Speaker 2: question earlier, and I kind of avoided it, but because

684
00:42:26,520 --> 00:42:29,000
Speaker 2: I wanted to hear what you wanted to say. But

685
00:42:29,040 --> 00:42:31,080
Speaker 2: now that I've heard what you wanted to say. What

686
00:42:31,200 --> 00:42:34,000
Speaker 2: was the question you asked me if ever felt lost?

687
00:42:34,719 --> 00:42:34,959
Speaker 3: Yeah?

688
00:42:35,960 --> 00:42:39,040
Speaker 2: Yeah, I feel lost all the time. Actually, And it's

689
00:42:39,080 --> 00:42:44,640
Speaker 2: funny because you can, dude, I don't know. I actually

690
00:42:44,640 --> 00:42:47,360
Speaker 2: feel as the older I get, the less I feel qualified.

691
00:42:47,360 --> 00:42:49,680
Speaker 2: I mean I was never qualified or or even claimed

692
00:42:49,680 --> 00:42:52,080
Speaker 2: I was qualified to like or I don't even like

693
00:42:52,120 --> 00:42:54,160
Speaker 2: whatever to do a podcast like this, Like I you know,

694
00:42:54,200 --> 00:42:56,799
Speaker 2: it's not even like it's a whatever. I've done this

695
00:42:56,840 --> 00:42:59,400
Speaker 2: disclaimer a million times, but like, yeah, I don't know

696
00:42:59,400 --> 00:43:04,800
Speaker 2: where the fuck uh my life goes. I've been I

697
00:43:04,840 --> 00:43:08,040
Speaker 2: feel like I've been lost for a while. The older

698
00:43:08,040 --> 00:43:10,040
Speaker 2: I get, the more lost I feel the more. And

699
00:43:10,320 --> 00:43:15,040
Speaker 2: it kind of makes sense because at some point you

700
00:43:15,120 --> 00:43:18,520
Speaker 2: have to declare a major. You have to make you

701
00:43:18,800 --> 00:43:22,400
Speaker 2: do have to like make decisions and like stick to

702
00:43:22,440 --> 00:43:26,080
Speaker 2: them and like learn to be comfortable with the ones

703
00:43:26,160 --> 00:43:30,680
Speaker 2: you did not choose. And that's something I struggle with

704
00:43:31,800 --> 00:43:40,959
Speaker 2: severely and do believe has caused me strife. I would

705
00:43:41,040 --> 00:43:49,080
Speaker 2: say it's part of uh feeling lost for sure. So

706
00:43:50,239 --> 00:43:52,280
Speaker 2: I mean, yeah, I feel I feel lost all the time.

707
00:43:52,560 --> 00:43:55,040
Speaker 2: But also, you know what I've been doing lately is

708
00:43:56,719 --> 00:43:58,120
Speaker 2: this is how this is kind of helping me feel

709
00:43:58,120 --> 00:44:00,759
Speaker 2: a little bit less lost. And I'm still too I

710
00:44:00,800 --> 00:44:04,680
Speaker 2: still feel like I'm too anxious to like, uh, really

711
00:44:04,719 --> 00:44:09,120
Speaker 2: take action upon these feelings. But I'm like, dude, I'm

712
00:44:09,120 --> 00:44:12,399
Speaker 2: trying to stop like faking it till I make it.

713
00:44:13,160 --> 00:44:15,120
Speaker 2: Do you know what I'm saying in terms of like

714
00:44:15,120 --> 00:44:19,360
Speaker 2: I'm trying to stop faking how I feel like I

715
00:44:19,400 --> 00:44:24,760
Speaker 2: can't predict like if I fucking hate something, I can't

716
00:44:24,800 --> 00:44:29,120
Speaker 2: pretend like I don't anymore. It's really hard. Or if

717
00:44:29,120 --> 00:44:32,720
Speaker 2: I fucking like, like my I feel in my gut

718
00:44:32,880 --> 00:44:37,680
Speaker 2: so deeply when I fucking hate something, and I feel

719
00:44:37,680 --> 00:44:41,920
Speaker 2: in my gut so deeply when I fucking love something,

720
00:44:42,719 --> 00:44:49,320
Speaker 2: and I'm just like, I'm like surrendering to those feelings. Nowadays,

721
00:44:49,520 --> 00:44:49,839
Speaker 2: I'm not.

722
00:44:50,000 --> 00:44:50,319
Speaker 3: I'm not.

723
00:44:54,880 --> 00:45:01,799
Speaker 2: I feel like I'm still too maybe cowardly to like

724
00:45:01,960 --> 00:45:05,440
Speaker 2: live my life in full alignment of those feelings because

725
00:45:05,480 --> 00:45:08,280
Speaker 2: something feels like there's I like, I get too interested,

726
00:45:08,360 --> 00:45:14,840
Speaker 2: I get too thinky about everything surrounding those feelings. But like, uh,

727
00:45:15,000 --> 00:45:16,680
Speaker 2: you know, I feel like I walk around New York

728
00:45:16,920 --> 00:45:20,280
Speaker 2: and I look around and I'm like, I fucking love

729
00:45:21,200 --> 00:45:24,560
Speaker 2: living here, Like I love this shit. I love being

730
00:45:24,760 --> 00:45:27,040
Speaker 2: like I feel like in deep alignment with that shit, right,

731
00:45:27,120 --> 00:45:28,440
Speaker 2: And then I've other things in my life trying to

732
00:45:28,440 --> 00:45:32,360
Speaker 2: think of some shit like like I'm just trying to

733
00:45:32,440 --> 00:45:36,279
Speaker 2: get some low stakes shit like uh oh, or like

734
00:45:36,320 --> 00:45:39,799
Speaker 2: I'll be at like a event or like talking to

735
00:45:39,880 --> 00:45:43,680
Speaker 2: someone or maybe you know what I'm out at, like, uh,

736
00:45:44,719 --> 00:45:47,000
Speaker 2: I don't. I don't go to the club. But let's

737
00:45:47,000 --> 00:45:48,920
Speaker 2: say I'm at the club or some shit, or I'm

738
00:45:48,960 --> 00:45:50,759
Speaker 2: at a party or something, what is something like that,

739
00:45:50,840 --> 00:45:54,440
Speaker 2: I'll be like, I fucking hate being here, I fucking

740
00:45:54,640 --> 00:45:58,880
Speaker 2: hate talking to this person right now, I fucking hate

741
00:45:59,600 --> 00:46:03,719
Speaker 2: whatever this is, and I'll just leave, like I don't.

742
00:46:03,800 --> 00:46:12,960
Speaker 2: I won't kind of fake myself into things anymore, you know,

743
00:46:13,719 --> 00:46:16,200
Speaker 2: Like I feel alignment in my gut, and I've tried

744
00:46:16,239 --> 00:46:21,960
Speaker 2: to do this thing of let me I've tried to

745
00:46:22,000 --> 00:46:28,120
Speaker 2: do this thing of like let me just pretend like

746
00:46:28,200 --> 00:46:32,799
Speaker 2: I don't and let me just try to enjoy exactly

747
00:46:32,840 --> 00:46:38,880
Speaker 2: where I am. Like it's the it's the duality of

748
00:46:39,200 --> 00:46:42,120
Speaker 2: uh wanting to like be comfortable, wanting to like enjoy

749
00:46:42,160 --> 00:46:45,319
Speaker 2: your life as it is, but also wanting to feel

750
00:46:45,320 --> 00:46:48,279
Speaker 2: aligned in it. These these are these are things that

751
00:46:48,320 --> 00:46:55,160
Speaker 2: make me feel very lost. Is this uh choice between

752
00:46:55,160 --> 00:46:57,480
Speaker 2: the two. But I'm trying to really listen when my

753
00:46:57,560 --> 00:47:00,359
Speaker 2: body in my brain are telling me when I love something,

754
00:47:00,360 --> 00:47:03,880
Speaker 2: I'm gonna hate something. But then you can you can

755
00:47:03,960 --> 00:47:07,720
Speaker 2: have logic behind, like why you should still do things

756
00:47:08,800 --> 00:47:11,719
Speaker 2: that you hate. I don't think you get I don't

757
00:47:11,760 --> 00:47:12,920
Speaker 2: know if you get out of that. I don't know

758
00:47:12,960 --> 00:47:15,000
Speaker 2: if that's possible to like have a life where you

759
00:47:15,040 --> 00:47:18,759
Speaker 2: never ever do anything that you hate and you only

760
00:47:18,800 --> 00:47:21,560
Speaker 2: do things you love, but then you see people do it,

761
00:47:22,440 --> 00:47:24,000
Speaker 2: and then you're like and then also also do I

762
00:47:24,040 --> 00:47:27,640
Speaker 2: think a lot of it is like this, dude, this

763
00:47:27,719 --> 00:47:37,880
Speaker 2: sounds everythink I'm saying. It sounds so uh like motivational speaker.

764
00:47:37,920 --> 00:47:38,040
Speaker 5: Ye.

765
00:47:38,640 --> 00:47:41,359
Speaker 2: But I'm starting to get it because I've heard people

766
00:47:41,360 --> 00:47:43,120
Speaker 2: say this shit before. You know, the shit of like

767
00:47:44,640 --> 00:47:48,560
Speaker 2: feeling like you deserve they have a life where you

768
00:47:49,200 --> 00:47:55,799
Speaker 2: that you like like or feeling like you deserve, uh,

769
00:47:56,480 --> 00:47:59,239
Speaker 2: things like you deserve, like feeling like you deserve to

770
00:47:59,320 --> 00:48:03,040
Speaker 2: have a good life. Okay, you know, have you ever

771
00:48:03,080 --> 00:48:04,399
Speaker 2: heard that people talking about that ship?

772
00:48:05,560 --> 00:48:05,799
Speaker 3: Yes?

773
00:48:05,920 --> 00:48:06,600
Speaker 1: I have heard of that.

774
00:48:07,239 --> 00:48:08,200
Speaker 2: What do you think about that?

775
00:48:10,280 --> 00:48:15,200
Speaker 3: I feel like you can't really have those thoughts unless

776
00:48:15,239 --> 00:48:17,680
Speaker 3: like you're you work towards it, you know.

777
00:48:18,239 --> 00:48:18,879
Speaker 2: Yeah, Like.

778
00:48:20,320 --> 00:48:23,440
Speaker 3: If you're going through life and you're like, man, I

779
00:48:23,480 --> 00:48:26,759
Speaker 3: should be rich by now, but you haven't done.

780
00:48:26,960 --> 00:48:31,160
Speaker 2: It's not. Okay, it's not. It's not like an entitlement

781
00:48:31,239 --> 00:48:33,520
Speaker 2: thing though. It's not like I don't look at it

782
00:48:33,560 --> 00:48:37,040
Speaker 2: like it's like a It's kind of this spiritual ish

783
00:48:37,280 --> 00:48:40,719
Speaker 2: thing of like looking at like because sometimes you can

784
00:48:40,719 --> 00:48:43,719
Speaker 2: look at yourself and be like uh, because you can

785
00:48:43,880 --> 00:48:47,680
Speaker 2: be someone that works really hard and still be like

786
00:48:47,920 --> 00:48:53,680
Speaker 2: I'm a fucking piece of shits, you know. But it's

787
00:48:53,680 --> 00:48:55,480
Speaker 2: like a spiritual thing of like do I do I

788
00:48:55,640 --> 00:49:00,320
Speaker 2: as a human being feel? That's dude, that when people

789
00:49:00,320 --> 00:49:03,359
Speaker 2: say ship like you're enough, Dude, I'm sorry, I'm going

790
00:49:03,400 --> 00:49:07,120
Speaker 2: I'm going like I drink a Celsius and I'm going

791
00:49:07,160 --> 00:49:09,640
Speaker 2: full therapy mode on you right now.

792
00:49:09,719 --> 00:49:12,480
Speaker 3: No. I love this. I'm also drinking, well, I'm drinking

793
00:49:12,520 --> 00:49:15,359
Speaker 3: the Costco variant of Celsius.

794
00:49:15,400 --> 00:49:18,040
Speaker 2: What's the Costco variant of Celsius.

795
00:49:18,560 --> 00:49:22,240
Speaker 3: It's called Kirkland Signature Sparkling Energy Drink.

796
00:49:22,880 --> 00:49:25,080
Speaker 2: WHOA how many grams of the how much caffeine is

797
00:49:25,080 --> 00:49:26,279
Speaker 2: in it?

798
00:49:26,480 --> 00:49:27,280
Speaker 3: Two hundred?

799
00:49:27,560 --> 00:49:27,600
Speaker 1: With?

800
00:49:27,840 --> 00:49:32,399
Speaker 2: Okay, all right, Okay, sounds like we're on the same

801
00:49:32,640 --> 00:49:34,719
Speaker 2: sounds like we're on the same wavelength. Here, sounds like

802
00:49:34,719 --> 00:49:36,680
Speaker 2: we're on the same I got my dude, this is

803
00:49:36,719 --> 00:49:42,279
Speaker 2: not an advertisement, but I just I'm trying the I love.

804
00:49:42,280 --> 00:49:45,200
Speaker 2: I'm a big Celsius guy. Although I might switch, I

805
00:49:45,280 --> 00:49:47,160
Speaker 2: might go by, I might start buying the Kirkland ship

806
00:49:47,200 --> 00:49:49,000
Speaker 2: because there's no it sounds like it's the same ship.

807
00:49:50,160 --> 00:49:51,400
Speaker 2: Is it good? What's the flavor?

808
00:49:53,040 --> 00:49:57,360
Speaker 3: I'm drinking tropical and it's like a pineapple, starfruit, mango

809
00:49:57,480 --> 00:50:01,520
Speaker 3: kind of thing. Nice. It does have taurine in it,

810
00:50:01,600 --> 00:50:03,279
Speaker 3: so it kind of has like a like a red

811
00:50:03,280 --> 00:50:04,359
Speaker 3: Bully taste to it.

812
00:50:04,480 --> 00:50:08,919
Speaker 2: Oh okay, yeah, that's the thing I like about. Again,

813
00:50:08,960 --> 00:50:10,879
Speaker 2: it's not a Celsius ad, but that's what I like about.

814
00:50:10,880 --> 00:50:12,799
Speaker 2: Celsius doesn't have the tar Oh wait, no, it's wait no,

815
00:50:12,840 --> 00:50:15,120
Speaker 2: it totally has tarn in it. Wait, it absolutely one

816
00:50:15,160 --> 00:50:18,040
Speaker 2: hundred percent has taurine in it. Dude, what the fuck?

817
00:50:18,400 --> 00:50:21,560
Speaker 2: What is taurine? Because yeah, I don't like the red

818
00:50:21,600 --> 00:50:23,080
Speaker 2: bull I mean, I do like the red bull taste,

819
00:50:23,080 --> 00:50:25,000
Speaker 2: but it makes it feel like I shouldn't be drinking it.

820
00:50:25,040 --> 00:50:30,880
Speaker 2: What is taurine Taurine is an abundant, naturally occurring sulfur

821
00:50:31,080 --> 00:50:41,920
Speaker 2: containing amino acid found throughout the human body. Google says

822
00:50:42,440 --> 00:50:46,680
Speaker 2: it's healthy for most adults to take taurine every day.

823
00:50:46,800 --> 00:50:55,160
Speaker 2: But that's totally not true, right, Wow, it can't be true.

824
00:50:56,320 --> 00:50:58,520
Speaker 3: I used to have a friend who told me taurine

825
00:50:58,600 --> 00:50:59,920
Speaker 3: was made out of bull spirit.

826
00:51:01,280 --> 00:51:03,600
Speaker 2: I believe that. I still I would still believe your

827
00:51:03,600 --> 00:51:04,440
Speaker 2: friend over Google.

828
00:51:07,840 --> 00:51:08,640
Speaker 3: That's very real of you.

829
00:51:09,760 --> 00:51:15,000
Speaker 2: This the thing of like, like I guess believing because

830
00:51:15,000 --> 00:51:17,759
Speaker 2: sometimes because like I look around and I'm like, as

831
00:51:17,800 --> 00:51:19,440
Speaker 2: I get older, I'm I think when I was younger,

832
00:51:19,440 --> 00:51:21,719
Speaker 2: I used to have this thing of like, uh, I

833
00:51:21,840 --> 00:51:27,040
Speaker 2: used to believe more that I deserve the good life

834
00:51:27,080 --> 00:51:31,600
Speaker 2: when I was younger, and then as I've gotten older,

835
00:51:32,480 --> 00:51:35,160
Speaker 2: I believe it. And again this is something do with

836
00:51:35,200 --> 00:51:39,400
Speaker 2: like entitlement or like work ethic. It kind of like

837
00:51:39,400 --> 00:51:41,759
Speaker 2: it's kind of like a step before that. It's like

838
00:51:42,680 --> 00:51:45,560
Speaker 2: you you get a little older, and then I'm start

839
00:51:45,600 --> 00:51:48,800
Speaker 2: having these feelings where I'm like, man, I'm not fucking special,

840
00:51:48,920 --> 00:51:52,120
Speaker 2: Like I'm just some fucking asshole, Like who am I

841
00:51:52,160 --> 00:51:56,920
Speaker 2: to want a good life? Or who am I to

842
00:51:56,960 --> 00:51:58,600
Speaker 2: like feel like I deserve a good life.

843
00:51:59,239 --> 00:51:59,440
Speaker 3: You know.

844
00:52:00,160 --> 00:52:02,719
Speaker 2: Now, I think that kind of self talk it like

845
00:52:02,800 --> 00:52:08,520
Speaker 2: I actually I believe that that is bad. I believe

846
00:52:08,560 --> 00:52:11,239
Speaker 2: it is worth. I believe it is bad. It is

847
00:52:11,320 --> 00:52:15,520
Speaker 2: self talk that I have, and I believe it is bad.

848
00:52:15,600 --> 00:52:17,719
Speaker 2: So it's not like an entitlement. So the like the

849
00:52:18,000 --> 00:52:20,080
Speaker 2: to believe you deserve a good life. I don't think

850
00:52:20,080 --> 00:52:23,680
Speaker 2: it's like a thing of like, oh I deserve to

851
00:52:23,680 --> 00:52:26,040
Speaker 2: be rich tomorrow. Oh I deserve this. I deserve that

852
00:52:26,480 --> 00:52:29,480
Speaker 2: it comes. Actually, I feel like it comes before the

853
00:52:29,600 --> 00:52:32,200
Speaker 2: work in some way where you have to go, like

854
00:52:33,320 --> 00:52:40,840
Speaker 2: you have to rewire your fucking brain to be like, yes, uh,

855
00:52:40,880 --> 00:52:44,440
Speaker 2: there's you know, the fucking kids dying in the Middle East,

856
00:52:44,560 --> 00:52:48,600
Speaker 2: and yes, there's a billion other people and you are

857
00:52:48,760 --> 00:52:53,000
Speaker 2: just some asshole, and yes, uh, you know, I'm infinite,

858
00:52:53,040 --> 00:52:59,360
Speaker 2: I'm infinitely small, and you know whatever. But spiritually I

859
00:52:59,480 --> 00:53:06,160
Speaker 2: have for whatever fucking reason, I am piloting the consciousness

860
00:53:06,239 --> 00:53:11,440
Speaker 2: of myself that is the one thing in the you,

861
00:53:11,680 --> 00:53:14,360
Speaker 2: my own fucking lives, the one thing in the fucking

862
00:53:14,520 --> 00:53:20,440
Speaker 2: universe that I like can control and like am and

863
00:53:20,480 --> 00:53:23,360
Speaker 2: I am like, yes, some asshole, but I am making

864
00:53:23,440 --> 00:53:29,920
Speaker 2: the executive decision that for some power beyond me. I

865
00:53:29,960 --> 00:53:32,640
Speaker 2: have been put into this body and this brain and

866
00:53:32,640 --> 00:53:38,680
Speaker 2: this consciousness, and it is my divine duty to like

867
00:53:39,360 --> 00:53:43,879
Speaker 2: treat myself the best as possible and strive to have

868
00:53:44,719 --> 00:53:50,280
Speaker 2: a good life. And for that reason, I will find

869
00:53:50,400 --> 00:53:54,280
Speaker 2: myself to be deserving of having a good life, because

870
00:53:54,360 --> 00:53:59,160
Speaker 2: I'm the only thing that I can be from like

871
00:53:59,200 --> 00:54:05,120
Speaker 2: a fucking like divine perspective. Does that make sense? Am

872
00:54:05,160 --> 00:54:06,359
Speaker 2: I insane? That makes sense?

873
00:54:06,440 --> 00:54:10,160
Speaker 3: Right? No? I love that. I really really, I really

874
00:54:10,200 --> 00:54:11,840
Speaker 3: resonate with what you're saying right now.

875
00:54:12,560 --> 00:54:15,600
Speaker 2: Dude, I like, listen, I feel this way because I

876
00:54:15,640 --> 00:54:18,680
Speaker 2: am on two hundred milligrams of caffeine right now. I

877
00:54:18,719 --> 00:54:21,400
Speaker 2: want to feel that way every day. I literally I

878
00:54:21,680 --> 00:54:23,040
Speaker 2: maybe this is I don't know if I'm bipolar, I

879
00:54:23,040 --> 00:54:27,680
Speaker 2: don't know what. But I literally oscillate between like really

880
00:54:27,719 --> 00:54:30,360
Speaker 2: feeling what I just said, which feels like a healthy

881
00:54:30,480 --> 00:54:35,800
Speaker 2: amount of ego to have, and then the other thing.

882
00:54:37,080 --> 00:54:38,839
Speaker 2: I feel it all that I feel like I feel

883
00:54:38,840 --> 00:54:43,560
Speaker 2: like lately I've been feeling more the other thing, which

884
00:54:43,640 --> 00:54:46,720
Speaker 2: tells me I'm just some fucking asshole and why should

885
00:54:46,760 --> 00:54:49,359
Speaker 2: I you know, but that that's like ego too, right,

886
00:54:49,480 --> 00:54:54,200
Speaker 2: isn't that more that's like an unhealthy amount of Like

887
00:54:54,200 --> 00:54:56,640
Speaker 2: that's not good. That's not good for anyone, right.

888
00:54:58,880 --> 00:55:00,799
Speaker 3: I feel like you gotta have a little though, Like

889
00:55:00,880 --> 00:55:02,080
Speaker 3: I agree.

890
00:55:02,000 --> 00:55:03,759
Speaker 2: I agree, I agree, I agree. You have to hate.

891
00:55:03,760 --> 00:55:07,319
Speaker 2: I I also do believe like you have to, you

892
00:55:07,320 --> 00:55:09,640
Speaker 2: have to be humbled in some sense because you ever

893
00:55:09,680 --> 00:55:14,239
Speaker 2: meet someone and they have no they don't hate themselves

894
00:55:14,280 --> 00:55:17,160
Speaker 2: even a little bit. I can't. I can't. I can't.

895
00:55:17,200 --> 00:55:21,320
Speaker 3: Oh yeah, it feels like they're larking at some point.

896
00:55:21,600 --> 00:55:31,359
Speaker 2: Yeah, definitely, But you know, I do want to.

897
00:55:31,600 --> 00:55:35,840
Speaker 3: You know know, uh, I very much do love your content.

898
00:55:36,400 --> 00:55:38,640
Speaker 3: And at some points I get a little I get

899
00:55:38,640 --> 00:55:41,879
Speaker 3: a little envious because of how often you travel mm hmm.

900
00:55:42,880 --> 00:55:45,480
Speaker 3: And sometimes I'm like damn, you know, because well I

901
00:55:45,480 --> 00:55:47,680
Speaker 3: don't think I told you, but like I have, like

902
00:55:47,840 --> 00:55:49,719
Speaker 3: I have a bachelor's in social work because I'm trying

903
00:55:49,719 --> 00:55:52,479
Speaker 3: to get into social work and whatnot. Yeah, so I'm like, fuck,

904
00:55:53,400 --> 00:55:56,160
Speaker 3: like he was doing he was doing some ship that

905
00:55:56,280 --> 00:56:00,279
Speaker 3: like I kind of want to do mhm. But you know,

906
00:56:01,120 --> 00:56:04,480
Speaker 3: I ain't. I ain't built like that built like what

907
00:56:06,400 --> 00:56:08,440
Speaker 3: like the whole like social media thing, Like I kind

908
00:56:08,440 --> 00:56:10,240
Speaker 3: of suck a a oh.

909
00:56:10,160 --> 00:56:18,200
Speaker 2: Yeah, yeah, yeah, I one thing that is inherent in

910
00:56:18,239 --> 00:56:21,960
Speaker 2: my wiring, like from like I kind of I get

911
00:56:22,000 --> 00:56:26,160
Speaker 2: it from my dad. Actually is like fucking yeah, like

912
00:56:26,200 --> 00:56:31,799
Speaker 2: the marketing ship you know, like do it like how

913
00:56:31,800 --> 00:56:35,000
Speaker 2: to fucking like because yeah, it is. It is kind

914
00:56:35,000 --> 00:56:37,960
Speaker 2: of a thing and like to today's day and age,

915
00:56:38,000 --> 00:56:42,319
Speaker 2: I suppose where like if you want to you do

916
00:56:42,400 --> 00:56:47,080
Speaker 2: have to like learn the the the tricks of social

917
00:56:47,160 --> 00:56:53,520
Speaker 2: media and marketing and you know, uh funnels and algorithms

918
00:56:53,560 --> 00:57:00,880
Speaker 2: and shit like that to like enable you to like

919
00:57:01,000 --> 00:57:05,160
Speaker 2: do the actual work you want to do. Like yeah,

920
00:57:05,160 --> 00:57:07,880
Speaker 2: when I was growing up, my dad, like when I

921
00:57:07,880 --> 00:57:10,000
Speaker 2: was in middle school in high school, my dad like

922
00:57:10,080 --> 00:57:12,320
Speaker 2: hired me to like help him run his like Facebook

923
00:57:12,360 --> 00:57:18,920
Speaker 2: account and his like email funnels and his like YouTube shit.

924
00:57:19,360 --> 00:57:21,080
Speaker 2: So that's how I got into being like, oh, let

925
00:57:21,120 --> 00:57:23,920
Speaker 2: me like collect people's emails so I can message them

926
00:57:23,960 --> 00:57:27,320
Speaker 2: when I have a tour, or oh I can I

927
00:57:27,360 --> 00:57:32,840
Speaker 2: can utilize the attension that I get on one platform

928
00:57:33,000 --> 00:57:40,280
Speaker 2: and funnel it into another platform. And yeah, I've I'm

929
00:57:40,360 --> 00:57:45,320
Speaker 2: lucky that like I that like brain, Like some people,

930
00:57:45,520 --> 00:57:47,360
Speaker 2: I'm lucky that I kind of grew up like wired

931
00:57:48,240 --> 00:57:51,440
Speaker 2: for that brain. A little bit, but I totally get

932
00:57:51,880 --> 00:57:56,640
Speaker 2: it's it's at the like, after a certain point, I

933
00:57:56,840 --> 00:58:05,880
Speaker 2: do like that brain that like version of thinking. It

934
00:58:06,160 --> 00:58:08,200
Speaker 2: can it can lead you to a point where you're like,

935
00:58:09,120 --> 00:58:11,120
Speaker 2: like there has to be something underneath it that you're

936
00:58:11,120 --> 00:58:13,960
Speaker 2: like actually doing, because I see people who they get

937
00:58:14,000 --> 00:58:16,160
Speaker 2: into that brain of like oh how do I like

938
00:58:16,200 --> 00:58:20,080
Speaker 2: get views or whatever? But like under like that whole

939
00:58:20,480 --> 00:58:22,360
Speaker 2: like marketing brain or whatever, it has to be like

940
00:58:23,240 --> 00:58:27,560
Speaker 2: something that props up like a real thing that you're doing,

941
00:58:28,400 --> 00:58:31,920
Speaker 2: like fucking you know, like music or if you have

942
00:58:31,960 --> 00:58:36,240
Speaker 2: like a movie that you made, or like a book

943
00:58:36,320 --> 00:58:40,040
Speaker 2: you wrote, or like I you know, I guess a

944
00:58:40,080 --> 00:58:42,200
Speaker 2: podcast or whatever, like something like it has to be

945
00:58:42,240 --> 00:58:45,640
Speaker 2: propped up by like something that you're actually doing, because

946
00:58:45,640 --> 00:58:48,320
Speaker 2: if all you have is the marketing thing, it's like

947
00:58:48,320 --> 00:58:51,040
Speaker 2: what am I even doing right now?

948
00:58:51,080 --> 00:58:53,080
Speaker 3: You know? Right?

949
00:58:54,840 --> 00:58:56,480
Speaker 2: Sorry, I feel like I keep going on rants.

950
00:58:57,680 --> 00:58:58,360
Speaker 3: No, I love that.

951
00:59:02,120 --> 00:59:04,320
Speaker 2: Wait, let's talk more about you. Sorry, I'm being a

952
00:59:04,320 --> 00:59:12,800
Speaker 2: fucking crazy person right now. Now you're cool, okay, all right,

953
00:59:13,360 --> 00:59:14,800
Speaker 2: tell me more about what you want to do. Let's

954
00:59:14,800 --> 00:59:17,400
Speaker 2: talk about you. I gotta stop, I gotta, I gotta

955
00:59:17,440 --> 00:59:23,320
Speaker 2: stop drinking energy drinks before the fucking podcast.

956
00:59:23,600 --> 00:59:28,400
Speaker 3: Now you're show I don't even know, bro, because like, well,

957
00:59:29,480 --> 00:59:31,240
Speaker 3: for social work, right now, I have to go back

958
00:59:31,240 --> 00:59:35,280
Speaker 3: to it to get my master's. Right, Well, I don't

959
00:59:35,320 --> 00:59:37,320
Speaker 3: have to do it, but it's better if I do

960
00:59:37,400 --> 00:59:43,200
Speaker 3: so because there's more opportunities. Right. But like recently, what

961
00:59:43,280 --> 00:59:46,200
Speaker 3: had happened to me is I had applied so I

962
00:59:46,240 --> 00:59:49,960
Speaker 3: live in I live in Cali, but I had applied

963
00:59:50,520 --> 00:59:57,280
Speaker 3: for a probational like job social work position in in Honolulu.

964
00:59:57,480 --> 00:59:59,560
Speaker 2: Why you know, oh cool, cool.

965
01:00:00,920 --> 01:00:04,120
Speaker 3: Right, it's sick, And so I ended up getting the job.

966
01:00:06,480 --> 01:00:09,160
Speaker 3: But the thing is like they didn't offer any like

967
01:00:09,400 --> 01:00:14,920
Speaker 3: relocation assistance, and it would have been like for me,

968
01:00:14,960 --> 01:00:16,520
Speaker 3: it would have been like eight to ten k out

969
01:00:16,520 --> 01:00:21,840
Speaker 3: of my pocket to like go out there car yeah,

970
01:00:21,360 --> 01:00:24,920
Speaker 3: to get in an apartment because like a lot of

971
01:00:24,920 --> 01:00:27,280
Speaker 3: the places I also reached out to were like, yeah,

972
01:00:27,320 --> 01:00:28,840
Speaker 3: if you if you want an apartment, you need a

973
01:00:30,000 --> 01:00:32,240
Speaker 3: you need a pacelet. And I'm like, well, I got

974
01:00:32,240 --> 01:00:35,040
Speaker 3: a job out there. I'm moving out there for a job.

975
01:00:35,080 --> 01:00:38,160
Speaker 3: Can I like, I can show you the official hiring

976
01:00:38,680 --> 01:00:40,760
Speaker 3: email and then I can get it. I can get

977
01:00:40,760 --> 01:00:43,480
Speaker 3: you a FASIP later. And they're like, uh, you know,

978
01:00:43,600 --> 01:00:45,680
Speaker 3: just just reach out to us when you get a pacelip.

979
01:00:46,000 --> 01:00:48,240
Speaker 3: So I was like, okay, well, you know, my mom

980
01:00:48,360 --> 01:00:49,760
Speaker 3: had the idea of like, oh, you know, you usould

981
01:00:49,760 --> 01:00:52,080
Speaker 3: get an hotel for like two weeks, get your pacelip

982
01:00:52,080 --> 01:00:56,920
Speaker 3: and then moved, you know into apartments. Yeah, it's it's

983
01:00:56,960 --> 01:00:58,800
Speaker 3: a good idea. It's also like kind of like a

984
01:00:58,840 --> 01:01:01,520
Speaker 3: gamble too, because you know that Hawai as fucking expensive

985
01:01:01,560 --> 01:01:05,120
Speaker 3: as shit, and if I get like my pace slip,

986
01:01:05,120 --> 01:01:07,680
Speaker 3: there's no guarantee that they're gonna like let me into

987
01:01:07,680 --> 01:01:13,160
Speaker 3: an apartment, you know. So I didn't. I didn't want

988
01:01:13,160 --> 01:01:16,960
Speaker 3: to move out there be like ten k plus in debt,

989
01:01:17,120 --> 01:01:20,440
Speaker 3: and like the job, the job is really cool, but

990
01:01:21,120 --> 01:01:23,120
Speaker 3: it was also only like twenty five an hour, you know.

991
01:01:23,880 --> 01:01:28,720
Speaker 3: So I got into my own head and I like

992
01:01:29,040 --> 01:01:33,320
Speaker 3: end up backing out for the job. And I was

993
01:01:33,360 --> 01:01:35,760
Speaker 3: just like, oh, I just I feel like shit because

994
01:01:36,120 --> 01:01:38,600
Speaker 3: I've been applying to, like I spent all of last

995
01:01:38,640 --> 01:01:43,520
Speaker 3: year applying to like different case manager positions, different different

996
01:01:43,600 --> 01:01:48,439
Speaker 3: like behavioral technician, physicians and whatnot, and like I get

997
01:01:48,480 --> 01:01:51,200
Speaker 3: like a handful of interviews, I'll go through it nothing

998
01:01:51,720 --> 01:01:54,800
Speaker 3: and then I get the one job that's across the

999
01:01:54,840 --> 01:01:57,800
Speaker 3: fucking water. And then I can't go because I don't

1000
01:01:57,800 --> 01:01:59,560
Speaker 3: have like enough money saved and I don't want to

1001
01:01:59,680 --> 01:02:02,160
Speaker 3: like myself and further dead.

1002
01:02:02,440 --> 01:02:08,720
Speaker 2: Wait question, So it's ten K to relocate, uh, because

1003
01:02:08,720 --> 01:02:10,520
Speaker 2: you have to like how much of that is shipping

1004
01:02:10,520 --> 01:02:12,400
Speaker 2: the car? Like do you need the car there?

1005
01:02:15,000 --> 01:02:17,720
Speaker 3: Ideally the well the car is like it was like

1006
01:02:18,400 --> 01:02:22,560
Speaker 3: twenty four to twenty four hundred to three k, and

1007
01:02:22,840 --> 01:02:24,560
Speaker 3: they measure it also like by weight.

1008
01:02:25,320 --> 01:02:29,320
Speaker 2: Okay, so then and this and this job, they're not

1009
01:02:29,320 --> 01:02:32,200
Speaker 2: going to give you like a relocation stipends.

1010
01:02:32,600 --> 01:02:36,520
Speaker 3: No, like no no airplane comp no, like I would.

1011
01:02:36,560 --> 01:02:38,680
Speaker 3: I'll take like section eight out there, you know, like

1012
01:02:38,920 --> 01:02:41,880
Speaker 3: throw me you throw me in like a tiny ass

1013
01:02:41,920 --> 01:02:45,440
Speaker 3: little apartment, you know, I'll take that. But you know,

1014
01:02:45,920 --> 01:02:50,840
Speaker 3: those no, no no assistance whatsoever, which I feel it's

1015
01:02:50,920 --> 01:02:53,240
Speaker 3: kind of silly for a government job on an island

1016
01:02:53,440 --> 01:02:59,640
Speaker 3: to not have relocation assistance, you know, right, But I

1017
01:02:59,640 --> 01:03:04,560
Speaker 3: think it's also just me coping with having terrible financial habits.

1018
01:03:05,640 --> 01:03:08,960
Speaker 2: What kind of uh financial habits do you have that

1019
01:03:09,000 --> 01:03:09,600
Speaker 2: are terrible?

1020
01:03:11,480 --> 01:03:16,880
Speaker 3: I'm just very impulsive and like it's like hard for

1021
01:03:16,960 --> 01:03:20,360
Speaker 3: me to say. I think this is another thing too,

1022
01:03:20,440 --> 01:03:22,280
Speaker 3: Like when when I was I used to be, I

1023
01:03:22,360 --> 01:03:24,919
Speaker 3: used to be egregiously depressed, you know, like I went

1024
01:03:24,960 --> 01:03:29,720
Speaker 3: to therapy and I my my therapists diagnosed me with

1025
01:03:29,840 --> 01:03:33,400
Speaker 3: a major depressive disordering and they put me on antidepressants

1026
01:03:33,440 --> 01:03:38,120
Speaker 3: and whatnot, and so I was just egregiously depressed. I

1027
01:03:38,160 --> 01:03:42,360
Speaker 3: had like no dopamine, you know, from my fucking brain

1028
01:03:42,480 --> 01:03:48,040
Speaker 3: being silly. I was on the antidepressant, but uh, they

1029
01:03:48,040 --> 01:03:50,240
Speaker 3: told me I shouldn't take caffeine, but I used to

1030
01:03:50,320 --> 01:03:53,640
Speaker 3: drink like soda like all the fucking time, and and

1031
01:03:53,800 --> 01:03:56,560
Speaker 3: uh and coffee and whatnot. So like the anti depressics

1032
01:03:56,600 --> 01:04:00,320
Speaker 3: didn't do their full job, you know. So like I

1033
01:04:00,360 --> 01:04:03,720
Speaker 3: would just spend money on bullshit to like give myself

1034
01:04:03,760 --> 01:04:07,280
Speaker 3: temporary satisfaction, you know, like a like I fucking micro

1035
01:04:07,440 --> 01:04:14,000
Speaker 3: transactions and Overwatch or or Magic the Gathering Cards or yeah, yeah,

1036
01:04:14,080 --> 01:04:20,160
Speaker 3: totally yeah, but yeah, so I just I just kind

1037
01:04:20,160 --> 01:04:21,720
Speaker 3: of put myself in a hole because then for the

1038
01:04:21,760 --> 01:04:24,200
Speaker 3: longest time, I had a part time job for a city,

1039
01:04:24,760 --> 01:04:28,320
Speaker 3: and like I did like maybe twenty hours of work

1040
01:04:28,360 --> 01:04:31,880
Speaker 3: a week, so I get like, you know, a little

1041
01:04:31,880 --> 01:04:36,040
Speaker 3: money I had went to bills, and then everything else

1042
01:04:36,160 --> 01:04:37,960
Speaker 3: was just shitty spending.

1043
01:04:39,520 --> 01:04:41,760
Speaker 2: Wait, sorry, this is a this is a side note.

1044
01:04:41,800 --> 01:04:44,160
Speaker 2: But your gym is very far away.

1045
01:04:45,840 --> 01:04:48,600
Speaker 3: Oh no, I'm I'm parked in my car like I'm chilling.

1046
01:04:49,040 --> 01:04:51,360
Speaker 2: Oh okay, okay, I thought I thought I thought your

1047
01:04:51,400 --> 01:04:54,760
Speaker 2: gym was thirty five minutes away from wherever you were.

1048
01:04:56,240 --> 01:04:58,000
Speaker 3: Oh no, I'm here. Does this sound better?

1049
01:04:58,360 --> 01:05:03,480
Speaker 2: Oh sure, yeah, it does, sounds way better. Okay, yeah, okay,

1050
01:05:04,320 --> 01:05:10,880
Speaker 2: So are you still doing Are you still uh like

1051
01:05:11,040 --> 01:05:15,000
Speaker 2: addicted to like dopamine loops?

1052
01:05:15,680 --> 01:05:19,040
Speaker 3: Yes, but it's I want to say, it's getting better,

1053
01:05:19,240 --> 01:05:22,080
Speaker 3: but it's still like a little prevalent, you know.

1054
01:05:22,560 --> 01:05:27,520
Speaker 2: Yeah, No, do I have the same fuck? I? I yeah,

1055
01:05:27,680 --> 01:05:32,400
Speaker 2: Like no, when you're really fucking depressed, you'll like you're

1056
01:05:32,560 --> 01:05:36,200
Speaker 2: just there's something about like, like yesterday I walked by

1057
01:05:36,240 --> 01:05:40,160
Speaker 2: like a frozen yogurt store, like I'm truly just abandoned

1058
01:05:40,160 --> 01:05:43,440
Speaker 2: frozen yogurt place that nobody ever goes into, and I

1059
01:05:43,480 --> 01:05:45,520
Speaker 2: was like stoked. I was like, oh, I get to

1060
01:05:45,520 --> 01:05:48,600
Speaker 2: be happy for like five seconds. You know That's what

1061
01:05:48,640 --> 01:05:53,920
Speaker 2: it is, right, So I'm like, yeah, brain brain chemistry

1062
01:05:54,680 --> 01:05:58,800
Speaker 2: dependent thing. But you feel like but at the beginning

1063
01:05:58,840 --> 01:06:02,040
Speaker 2: of this call, you said that you were feeling better

1064
01:06:02,320 --> 01:06:06,120
Speaker 2: about all that shit. Do you feel like do you

1065
01:06:06,160 --> 01:06:06,760
Speaker 2: feel like you are?

1066
01:06:08,800 --> 01:06:12,720
Speaker 3: I feel like overall, I'm like because part of my

1067
01:06:12,840 --> 01:06:15,160
Speaker 3: like depression back then was like I just I wanted

1068
01:06:15,200 --> 01:06:17,560
Speaker 3: to die, you know, like straight up like or I'm sorry.

1069
01:06:17,560 --> 01:06:19,720
Speaker 3: I don't know if I'm able to say that, but

1070
01:06:20,200 --> 01:06:23,520
Speaker 3: you know, like it was like the worst of the

1071
01:06:23,560 --> 01:06:25,400
Speaker 3: worst of thoughts I used to have, like it would

1072
01:06:25,680 --> 01:06:29,960
Speaker 3: fester and snowball, and like I I draw, you know,

1073
01:06:30,000 --> 01:06:32,600
Speaker 3: I drive to unsafe places and kind of just like

1074
01:06:32,920 --> 01:06:38,040
Speaker 3: watch the waters go, you know. But but uh like

1075
01:06:38,200 --> 01:06:42,400
Speaker 3: I don't do that anymore, you know. I overall, I've

1076
01:06:42,520 --> 01:06:47,720
Speaker 3: like learned to enjoy life for what it is, and

1077
01:06:48,840 --> 01:06:52,160
Speaker 3: I think, like I'm I want to say, I'm like

1078
01:06:52,280 --> 01:06:55,120
Speaker 3: seventy five percent happy with my life, and then the

1079
01:06:55,320 --> 01:06:58,000
Speaker 3: day of the rest of the percent is like right,

1080
01:06:58,160 --> 01:07:00,600
Speaker 3: it's it's it's getting better. The rest of the percentage

1081
01:07:00,600 --> 01:07:03,200
Speaker 3: is just like fuck, you know, I really need to

1082
01:07:03,280 --> 01:07:08,560
Speaker 3: like I have better money, financial skills and whatnot, and

1083
01:07:08,560 --> 01:07:13,920
Speaker 3: and like properly like I want to cut myself off

1084
01:07:13,960 --> 01:07:17,360
Speaker 3: of spending on myself, you know, but I also I

1085
01:07:17,360 --> 01:07:21,240
Speaker 3: would really like to not be dropping, you know. Hella

1086
01:07:21,360 --> 01:07:25,440
Speaker 3: money when I don't need to be mm hmmm mm

1087
01:07:25,520 --> 01:07:32,880
Speaker 3: hmm yeah.

1088
01:07:33,560 --> 01:07:37,800
Speaker 2: What uh? What was the thing you spent the most

1089
01:07:37,880 --> 01:07:40,600
Speaker 2: money on when you were trying to feel something?

1090
01:07:42,080 --> 01:07:42,240
Speaker 1: Oh?

1091
01:07:42,280 --> 01:07:44,200
Speaker 3: My god, food? I was a fat fuck?

1092
01:07:44,880 --> 01:07:51,040
Speaker 2: Oh yeah, dude, dude, listen to this shit. I went

1093
01:07:51,120 --> 01:07:59,840
Speaker 2: to Burger King yesterday. I got a whopper, a medium, fries,

1094
01:08:00,800 --> 01:08:03,920
Speaker 2: and a drink. Guess how much money that was?

1095
01:08:06,520 --> 01:08:08,240
Speaker 3: Did you use the value menu or not?

1096
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Speaker 2: No, I use that just regular whopper. Why Wopper's not

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01:08:11,640 --> 01:08:12,400
Speaker 2: on the menu.

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01:08:14,000 --> 01:08:16,760
Speaker 3: I'm gonna guess fifteen dollars?

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01:08:16,800 --> 01:08:18,360
Speaker 2: Seventeen dollars?

1100
01:08:19,040 --> 01:08:19,320
Speaker 4: Fuck?

1101
01:08:19,920 --> 01:08:25,679
Speaker 2: What happened to our country? Seventeen dollars for a whopper,

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01:08:25,960 --> 01:08:26,960
Speaker 2: fries and a drink.

1103
01:08:27,840 --> 01:08:30,800
Speaker 3: It's agreed, it's it's terrible, and I paid it.

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01:08:31,400 --> 01:08:38,040
Speaker 2: I'm part of the problem. Oh god. I remember holding

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01:08:38,040 --> 01:08:40,920
Speaker 2: it and being like and also it was like pathetic

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01:08:41,000 --> 01:08:43,360
Speaker 2: looking too, It's like it wasn't even like a It's

1107
01:08:43,360 --> 01:08:45,240
Speaker 2: not even like a five guys burger where it's like,

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01:08:45,280 --> 01:08:52,120
Speaker 2: all right, there's some premium missis to this. But what's

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01:08:52,120 --> 01:08:52,679
Speaker 2: your name again?

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01:08:52,720 --> 01:08:52,920
Speaker 1: Man?

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01:08:54,120 --> 01:08:54,439
Speaker 3: Lee?

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01:08:55,280 --> 01:09:01,280
Speaker 2: Lee? I enjoyed having this conversation with you late.

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01:09:02,720 --> 01:09:04,639
Speaker 3: I did too. You've given me a lot to think

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01:09:04,680 --> 01:09:05,960
Speaker 3: about okay.

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01:09:05,640 --> 01:09:07,320
Speaker 2: Good, good, good?

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01:09:08,000 --> 01:09:09,599
Speaker 3: What? Uh?

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01:09:10,320 --> 01:09:12,519
Speaker 2: What should what should we how should we end this?

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01:09:12,560 --> 01:09:14,519
Speaker 2: What should we say? What should we do? What do

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01:09:14,520 --> 01:09:19,479
Speaker 2: you think? Uh?

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01:09:21,520 --> 01:09:26,320
Speaker 3: Am I allowed to plug my my amateur photography account.

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01:09:26,800 --> 01:09:29,320
Speaker 2: Sure, man, sick?

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01:09:30,200 --> 01:09:33,800
Speaker 3: Uh what's it called? It's called the Daily Google Photography

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01:09:34,040 --> 01:09:38,479
Speaker 3: on Instagram, The Daily what Bugle likes you know, like

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01:09:38,560 --> 01:09:39,880
Speaker 3: Spider Man, The Daily Bugle.

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01:09:40,439 --> 01:09:44,000
Speaker 2: Uh, it's it's the Daily the Daily Bugle.

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01:09:44,640 --> 01:09:47,760
Speaker 3: Yes photography.

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01:09:48,040 --> 01:09:50,120
Speaker 2: So you stole it from Spider Man.

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01:09:51,400 --> 01:09:54,400
Speaker 3: Hey, the the tag was open on Instagram, so I

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01:09:54,439 --> 01:09:58,160
Speaker 3: took it. I hope. I don't get like copyright strike through?

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01:09:58,400 --> 01:09:59,160
Speaker 3: Can I don't even know?

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01:09:59,240 --> 01:10:00,840
Speaker 2: No, I don't. Yeah, they don't know in the.

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01:10:02,479 --> 01:10:02,760
Speaker 3: That way.

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01:10:02,800 --> 01:10:06,600
Speaker 2: It's just the Daily Bugle Photography.

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01:10:06,720 --> 01:10:06,920
Speaker 3: Yep.

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01:10:07,640 --> 01:10:14,000
Speaker 2: And there's no there's no Oh are you Spider Man?

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01:10:15,600 --> 01:10:16,519
Speaker 3: Yeah? That's me?

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01:10:16,960 --> 01:10:19,360
Speaker 2: Okay, cool, all right? So well, you got a picture

1138
01:10:19,360 --> 01:10:21,360
Speaker 2: of a cat? Wait, this is nice. Wait, this is

1139
01:10:21,400 --> 01:10:23,720
Speaker 2: a great photography page. I like this. I'm following. I

1140
01:10:23,800 --> 01:10:27,080
Speaker 2: just followed. You got a picture this, You got a

1141
01:10:27,080 --> 01:10:30,400
Speaker 2: picture of the sun. You get a picture of a flower,

1142
01:10:32,160 --> 01:10:36,960
Speaker 2: you got a picture of a fucking bird the sky. Wait,

1143
01:10:37,120 --> 01:10:41,400
Speaker 2: everyone followed this guy's photography page the Daily Bugle Photography. Wait,

1144
01:10:41,439 --> 01:10:44,000
Speaker 2: look at this one. Paradise Falls.

1145
01:10:45,760 --> 01:10:46,679
Speaker 3: Oh that's a good trail.

1146
01:10:46,840 --> 01:10:50,920
Speaker 2: Yeah, scri scroll through your whole page. This is nice.

1147
01:10:51,000 --> 01:10:55,040
Speaker 2: This is a this is like, this is this page

1148
01:10:55,160 --> 01:11:01,080
Speaker 2: kind of looks like, uh, if this should be on

1149
01:11:01,160 --> 01:11:07,200
Speaker 2: the Golden Record that we send out into outer space

1150
01:11:07,280 --> 01:11:10,080
Speaker 2: for the aliens. You know, it's just kind of it's

1151
01:11:10,080 --> 01:11:12,000
Speaker 2: pretty perfect.

1152
01:11:13,120 --> 01:11:15,759
Speaker 3: That's the that's a Heidi, my mighty, that's a mighty

1153
01:11:15,880 --> 01:11:16,639
Speaker 3: high compliment.

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01:11:17,000 --> 01:11:19,160
Speaker 2: I mean that with I really, I mean that with

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01:11:19,280 --> 01:11:21,040
Speaker 2: all of my like, I'm so serious right now, Like

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01:11:21,080 --> 01:11:24,960
Speaker 2: it's this is just this is just a guy taken

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01:11:25,080 --> 01:11:28,960
Speaker 2: photos of the Earth that he landed on. This is

1158
01:11:29,000 --> 01:11:33,080
Speaker 2: exactly this. You're this I don't know. I'm this is

1159
01:11:33,120 --> 01:11:35,559
Speaker 2: what it feels like to be alive. This is is

1160
01:11:35,920 --> 01:11:39,640
Speaker 2: looking through I'm looking through your page. I'm like, this

1161
01:11:39,800 --> 01:11:48,120
Speaker 2: is it feels like I found something. Any flower is

1162
01:11:48,120 --> 01:11:52,840
Speaker 2: a it's a sunset, a flower, a cat. This is

1163
01:11:52,960 --> 01:11:56,479
Speaker 2: very pure, you know. There's no nothing flashy, nothing crazy.

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01:11:56,960 --> 01:11:59,000
Speaker 2: And even the look at the look at the fucking

1165
01:11:59,400 --> 01:12:03,400
Speaker 2: caption to what's up y'all. This is my average photography

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01:12:03,439 --> 01:12:07,000
Speaker 2: page that I will try to post consistently on let

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01:12:07,000 --> 01:12:10,320
Speaker 2: me know what you like and don't like about my posts.

1168
01:12:10,880 --> 01:12:13,760
Speaker 2: I let your open the criticism. But you're also you

1169
01:12:13,800 --> 01:12:18,160
Speaker 2: know this is a this is a good is that

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01:12:18,240 --> 01:12:21,640
Speaker 2: you know it's a spider man in the This is

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01:12:21,640 --> 01:12:23,719
Speaker 2: a great page. I'm a huge fan. I'm gonna comment

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01:12:25,360 --> 01:12:32,240
Speaker 2: nice on this picture of the sunset. Wow, it's a

1173
01:12:32,280 --> 01:12:35,040
Speaker 2: picture of the sunset. It says summer is almost upon us.

1174
01:12:35,200 --> 01:12:37,080
Speaker 2: Hashtag summer, hashtag beach.

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01:12:39,800 --> 01:12:42,040
Speaker 3: Yeah. I had to do the hashtags to try and

1176
01:12:42,080 --> 01:12:46,360
Speaker 3: get like something some more like for spread, you know

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01:12:46,640 --> 01:12:48,280
Speaker 3: whatever media stuff.

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01:12:49,120 --> 01:12:52,640
Speaker 2: This is perfect. But everyone, thank you. Check out this

1179
01:12:52,680 --> 01:12:55,120
Speaker 2: guy's photography page. What's your name again?

1180
01:12:56,200 --> 01:12:58,639
Speaker 3: I'm Lee, Lee Lee.

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01:12:58,680 --> 01:13:00,360
Speaker 2: Is there anything you want to say to the people

1182
01:13:00,360 --> 01:13:01,400
Speaker 2: of the computer before we go?

1183
01:13:01,960 --> 01:13:05,840
Speaker 3: Uh, go to therapy? Getto live shows. I went to

1184
01:13:05,880 --> 01:13:07,120
Speaker 3: your first one in La.

1185
01:13:07,400 --> 01:13:10,800
Speaker 2: Oh shit, yeah, what year? What year?

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01:13:13,360 --> 01:13:19,000
Speaker 3: Let me I let me see if I can find

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01:13:19,000 --> 01:13:24,759
Speaker 3: the pick the selfie real quick twenty twenty two, May second,

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01:13:24,760 --> 01:13:25,599
Speaker 3: twenty twenty two.

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01:13:26,479 --> 01:13:28,280
Speaker 2: Oh shit, okay everything was my first live show. You

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01:13:28,360 --> 01:13:29,040
Speaker 2: have the lodge room?

1191
01:13:29,080 --> 01:13:29,280
Speaker 1: Fuck?

1192
01:13:29,360 --> 01:13:31,400
Speaker 2: Yeah, damn hell yeah. Nice to finally talk to you.

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01:13:33,120 --> 01:13:35,600
Speaker 3: Yes, I have a selfie with you. I was a

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01:13:35,640 --> 01:13:36,599
Speaker 3: little drunk that night.

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01:13:36,760 --> 01:13:44,160
Speaker 2: Funny enough, Lee, thank you very much for calling, and uh,

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01:13:44,479 --> 01:13:46,080
Speaker 2: good luck with the rest of your entire life. This

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01:13:46,200 --> 01:13:47,080
Speaker 2: was a nice conversation.

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01:13:48,360 --> 01:13:49,920
Speaker 1: Thank I really appreciate that.

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01:13:50,080 --> 01:13:52,320
Speaker 3: You know. I'm gonna I'm gonna do better to be

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01:13:52,400 --> 01:13:56,640
Speaker 3: more u instinctual like you liked. I liked what you

1201
01:13:56,640 --> 01:14:00,400
Speaker 3: said earlier about the whole listening to your guys and

1202
01:14:00,479 --> 01:14:02,320
Speaker 3: doing doing what you want to do and not want

1203
01:14:02,320 --> 01:14:03,160
Speaker 3: to do.

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01:14:03,240 --> 01:14:05,519
Speaker 2: Yeah, all right, I'll try to do that too, because

1205
01:14:05,520 --> 01:14:08,000
Speaker 2: everything I just told you about this, it's just it's

1206
01:14:08,040 --> 01:14:11,559
Speaker 2: just it's just it's just behavioral theory. For me, I've

1207
01:14:11,560 --> 01:14:15,639
Speaker 2: been I've been ignoring my gut a lot. But yeah,

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01:14:15,680 --> 01:14:16,920
Speaker 2: I'm gonna try to do that too. All right, we'll

1209
01:14:16,920 --> 01:14:19,560
Speaker 2: both we'll make a pact. We'll both try to be

1210
01:14:20,800 --> 01:14:27,400
Speaker 2: better about stuff. Oh, I'll glad we make that pack swag.

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01:14:27,600 --> 01:14:28,759
Speaker 2: I'll see you around the universally.

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01:14:29,280 --> 01:14:29,640
Speaker 3: Thank you.

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01:14:29,840 --> 01:14:32,760
Speaker 2: I love you, Love you too, buddy, see you late.

1214
01:14:33,000 --> 01:14:36,639
Speaker 2: Bye bye dude. Once again, please go follow the Daily

1215
01:14:36,760 --> 01:14:41,000
Speaker 2: Bugle Photography on Instagram. Look, he just took a picture

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01:14:41,040 --> 01:14:44,000
Speaker 2: of a peloton. Why am I obsessed with? I don't

1217
01:14:44,000 --> 01:14:47,040
Speaker 2: know if this is the the Celsius talking about I'm

1218
01:14:47,080 --> 01:14:49,280
Speaker 2: obsessed with this since he took a picture of a tree,

1219
01:14:51,320 --> 01:14:54,800
Speaker 2: this is a perfect Instagram page. Please go look at this.

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01:15:00,120 --> 01:15:03,160
Speaker 3: Everything get goes to and his rite's teaching you about

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01:15:03,680 --> 01:15:06,800
Speaker 3: your life, but he's not really an expert.