Speaker 1: You know, Hey, what's up?
Speaker 2: Hey?
Speaker 3: What's up? Is this the gick?
Speaker 4: Yes?
Speaker 1: Who is this?
Speaker 4: Oh? Hi?
Speaker 3: I I wouldn't like to say my name, but in
Speaker 3: this case I will.
Speaker 1: Okay, Diego Diego? Okay, you could just Diego, don't. You
Speaker 1: could have just given me a fake name. I don't.
Speaker 1: I don't need to know your real name.
Speaker 3: Well, I don't think that we'll find me either, because
Speaker 3: on social media and stuff, I'm not like my real name.
Speaker 1: So yeah, even if your real name was Diego, we weren't.
Speaker 1: They weren't going to be able to find you on
Speaker 1: social media just based off the name, unless if your
Speaker 1: Instagram handle would literally just be Diego, which is probably
Speaker 1: taken by some guys.
Speaker 3: And I only have one name. That's the weirdest part though.
Speaker 1: Wait real quick, can you take me off of speakerphone?
Speaker 3: Oh I'm sorry, Yeah, I'm I have my AirPods on,
Speaker 3: so let me see.
Speaker 1: Yeah, can you? Yeah, if you could just take me
Speaker 1: off of the air pods and just throw me right
Speaker 1: up on Yeah, where there you go? Great? So you
Speaker 1: only have one name?
Speaker 3: Yes, that's that's weird. And you know what's the weirdness part?
Speaker 3: When I found my I don't want to say, so
Speaker 3: made and be all sees you know that she only
Speaker 3: has one name too?
Speaker 1: You get out of here, like, legally you legally only
Speaker 1: have one name?
Speaker 3: Really, yes, and.
Speaker 1: Your girlfriends only has one name? But how do you
Speaker 1: legally only have one name?
Speaker 3: Oh? Well, the good part of the story that I
Speaker 3: didn't even tell you that I'm from Mexico, so it's
Speaker 3: kind of legal right here.
Speaker 1: Is that where you're calling me from right now?
Speaker 2: Oh?
Speaker 3: Yeah, yeah, I'm in Tijuana.
Speaker 1: Just to be more exact, Oh, what's so, what's going
Speaker 1: on to you want to be because sometimes I hear
Speaker 1: it's awesome and then sometimes I hear it's crazy.
Speaker 3: Yes, and I you know what, Uh, I knew that
Speaker 3: you were going to ask about that, and I didn't
Speaker 3: know how to just I mean, I'm not gonna go
Speaker 3: bias just because I live here. But I think that
Speaker 3: there is a misconception, you know, like, uh, some people
Speaker 3: it's like, yes, like we should go to the Tijuana
Speaker 3: is just drink alcohol and party and the whole of that.
Speaker 4: But there's the other.
Speaker 3: Part that there's you know, good coffee, there's the beach,
Speaker 3: there is everything that people don't see. Obviously, there's some
Speaker 3: bad neighborhoods as everywhere, but I think that there's some
Speaker 3: nice places too that you you can just go.
Speaker 1: By the way, just so you know, because you you
Speaker 1: claimed that you are bias, and maybe maybe on maybe
Speaker 1: on the technical definition of bias, you are, but I
Speaker 1: don't think you're biased, Like that's not You're the person
Speaker 1: I want to talk to about it, Like like bias
Speaker 1: would be like a lady who's never been there that
Speaker 1: read like an article or something AKA my mom. But
Speaker 1: what what uh what part of t want to do
Speaker 1: you have and do you live in a nice neighborhood
Speaker 1: or do you live in like a crazy place?
Speaker 3: Uh, well, I'm gonna be one hundred percent honest and
Speaker 3: well the true is that I don't think I was
Speaker 3: still gonna be biased because I have lived I have
Speaker 3: lived in every single part of it. Like I live
Speaker 3: in some of the toughest neighborhoods. I live in the
Speaker 3: you know, the mediums, I live in a condle, I
Speaker 3: have lived in a house, I have lived in another
Speaker 3: of that neighborhood. So yeah, dude, like it is just
Speaker 3: like where you go to. I think that that's where
Speaker 3: you're gonna get Like maybe not ROVs but they're gonna
Speaker 3: take advantage of you, but it's not very often, to
Speaker 3: be honest, Like when I came, I thought that they
Speaker 3: were gonna do that to me because I'm not originally
Speaker 3: from Tijuana and not do it. Like the experiences that
Speaker 3: I've been through, They've been very nice to me.
Speaker 1: Where where are you originally from?
Speaker 3: I'm originally from Sonora, but it's like an order another
Speaker 3: border which is called Douglas, Arizona, so I used to
Speaker 3: live there.
Speaker 1: Tecnaries, what do you do for work in Tijuana?
Speaker 3: I do work in a call center as a QA.
Speaker 1: Cool.
Speaker 3: Yeah, pretty normal right here. And I'm gonna lie like
Speaker 3: you if you were in a border, it's pretty much
Speaker 3: like nine percent of the science. If you speak English,
Speaker 3: you're gonna work as a call center. I mean it's
Speaker 3: not a musk. But me as I don't have a career,
Speaker 3: which is kind of part of the of the context
Speaker 3: that I gave you on the message, right, I don't
Speaker 3: have many studies, but I decided just to go that route.
Speaker 3: This is the one that is going to be given me.
Speaker 3: You know, medical coverage and all that.
Speaker 1: So, yeah, what kind of career did you want to pursue?
Speaker 3: And This is very tough for me because I don't
Speaker 3: I don't want to claim myself as a I don't
Speaker 3: even know the word. But like you have many towns
Speaker 3: like multi multi esthetic. Oh yeah, there you go, that's
Speaker 3: the word. I wouldn't even know that word. But uh,
Speaker 3: I used to like to do, you know, sports. I
Speaker 3: used to like to do art. Like my drawing was
Speaker 3: kind of okay. I mean I really wasn't that good,
Speaker 3: but I knew about animation. I wanted to go that route.
Speaker 3: I started dancing. I was kind of good at breaking
Speaker 3: but then.
Speaker 1: I just just for some context, is you texted me,
Speaker 1: and you texted me and you said, I am a
Speaker 1: breakdancer who barely got into parenting, and I'm having a
Speaker 1: tough decision to take in life. So let's let's back
Speaker 1: up for a second. You're a breakdancer.
Speaker 3: Yes, I am a bee boy. We're known as that,
Speaker 3: a break boy.
Speaker 1: Tell me more about how you got into that.
Speaker 3: Yes, well I used to know what it was because
Speaker 3: well I was in the border right and we used
Speaker 3: to just get people from the other side just to
Speaker 3: come here and just do their showcases and all that.
Speaker 3: I as a kid, enjoy it, but I didn't really
Speaker 3: got into it since I was just trying everything. But
Speaker 3: just to go straight to the point, I must say
Speaker 3: that I just saw it like at sixteenth when I
Speaker 3: was just practicing in Mma, and I was like, you
Speaker 3: know what did this shit is tied? Like EG used
Speaker 3: your body to just spin all way around and all
Speaker 3: of that, and I just started. However, I didn't have
Speaker 3: any like person that taught me, like in in my city.
Speaker 3: And one day I just came to Tijuana, said there's
Speaker 3: a trip, and then I saw that there was a
Speaker 3: bunch of dudes and well again I used to look
Speaker 3: at a lot of YouTube videos and all that, and
Speaker 3: I noticed that a lot of people, famous people was here.
Speaker 3: So then I just decided later when I finished my
Speaker 3: my university, well I'm not finish it. But when I
Speaker 3: started and then decided to quit, I just came here
Speaker 3: to Tijuana and I noticed that there was a lot
Speaker 3: of level like a lot of dough breakers, and I
Speaker 3: stood here, hmm.
Speaker 1: Well how long have you been breakdancing for? In total?
Speaker 3: Well, I had two sides, Like when I started dancing,
Speaker 3: I would say like seventeen seventeen sixteen, But when I
Speaker 3: got into breaking, it's when I just got here in Tijuana,
Speaker 3: like twenty eighteen. I would say, how old.
Speaker 1: Are you now?
Speaker 3: I'm thirty?
Speaker 1: Very nice, very nice. What's the scene like in Tijuana?
Speaker 1: Is it like cool? Are you meeting a lot of people?
Speaker 1: Are you going to crazy breakdance parties? Like it sounds
Speaker 1: like a sounds like kind of a crazy interesting community
Speaker 1: to be part of?
Speaker 2: It?
Speaker 3: Is it actually is? However, I did came and there
Speaker 3: were a lot of events, and since LA is just
Speaker 3: right here in the corner, people used to come and
Speaker 3: just compete and we used to have high level events.
Speaker 3: But COVID just just got I don't know, rid of
Speaker 3: all of that, meaning that both from now and then,
Speaker 3: there haven't been much events. And I actually am a
Speaker 3: part of a community that well, not not just breaking
Speaker 3: but I promote dancing because there is no promotions anymore,
Speaker 3: and I do work in that.
Speaker 1: So his breakdown was break dancing at one point like
Speaker 1: kind of like a main career choice for you.
Speaker 3: Yes, I will say that.
Speaker 1: That sounds fucking awesome though, like promoting, so you you
Speaker 1: kind of did? You were putting on these events.
Speaker 3: I'm doing like they're they're called open style, like wherever
Speaker 3: people just whichever start. I'm sorry, it just comes and
Speaker 3: just do their thing with the music. Because breaking part
Speaker 3: of the scene, like you're at least in Tijuana. It's uh,
Speaker 3: since there are there are a few of them, they
Speaker 3: just don't like to share maybe that much anymore, and
Speaker 3: they just leave us aside. So I said, like, you
Speaker 3: know what, why would I just leave everyone aside? Like
Speaker 3: kids want to learn maybe not breaking, but they want
Speaker 3: to learn another thing. I'm just gonna promote dancing, like
Speaker 3: whichever the r form it is, I'm just gonna promote it.
Speaker 3: And one friend of mine just had that ideal, you know,
Speaker 3: and I said, you know what, we should do this
Speaker 3: and he's like, fuck yeah, Like they's just do it
Speaker 3: right away.
Speaker 1: That's fucking awesome. I so, uh, you alluded to in
Speaker 1: your text having a tough decision to make what exactly
Speaker 1: And I'm sorry if I haven't gleaned it already, but
Speaker 1: what exactly would you say? Is this tough decision?
Speaker 4: Yes?
Speaker 3: Well, as I said, right too, I'm parenting right now.
Speaker 3: My child is barely just one one year old. It's
Speaker 3: been tough. But that tracked me into thinking, you know,
Speaker 3: like really go outside of the box. And I was like,
Speaker 3: you know what, maybe this whole thing, even if I'm
Speaker 3: promoting it or if I'm just breaking I don't know
Speaker 3: if if this is all I want to you know, like,
Speaker 3: and I'm not saying like, uh, just do another hobby
Speaker 3: or do anything else, but just quit them for all
Speaker 3: and just go to another thing, like like I used
Speaker 3: to say, right, I used to like an a mat
Speaker 3: and just go for that. But should I just quit
Speaker 3: or not? I was just having that decision and it
Speaker 3: doesn't let me leave, like very likely?
Speaker 1: Interesting? Why so you're deciding whether or not you want
Speaker 1: to quit breakdancing and pursue something else?
Speaker 2: Correct?
Speaker 4: Yes?
Speaker 1: Why did having a kid make you wonder if you
Speaker 1: should quit and pursue something else because you already have?
Speaker 1: Because I guess I was thinking it's like, well, if
Speaker 1: you had a kid and you're kind of like, oh
Speaker 1: should I keep? But you have a solid job for money,
Speaker 1: and this is I guess, like, why are you debating
Speaker 1: if you should drop? Why did have a kid make
Speaker 1: you debate if you should drop one hobby for another?
Speaker 2: Right?
Speaker 3: And I'm not dropping all the blame. I'm him right, definitely, No.
Speaker 1: No, no, no, I don't I don't take it as
Speaker 1: I don't take it as but I don't take it
Speaker 1: as blaming your kid for something. I just take it
Speaker 1: as a life event making you reevaluate your.
Speaker 3: Life yet definitely right. I just wanted to say that
Speaker 3: out loud, it because you know, we all have a
Speaker 3: talk like, oh shit, I had a cable, it's all over, right,
Speaker 3: but it is not. It just gave me another point
Speaker 3: of view that maybe I wasn't just looking at. And
Speaker 3: why am I asking this is because you know, like
Speaker 3: I well, breaking in all of the community gave me
Speaker 3: so much and I think I really owe him. I
Speaker 3: think it's just to be accountable, right. But in the
Speaker 3: other hand, I'm like, you know what, I just want
Speaker 3: to do this. But then if I keep breaking, like
Speaker 3: my kids wouldn't attention, you know, and I didn't. I
Speaker 3: used to didn't have a job like this stable, I
Speaker 3: would say. I used to do street shows. I used
Speaker 3: to do uh, you know, working at hotels, just dancing
Speaker 3: and do all of that. Like I didn't have a
Speaker 3: stable job until I got with my partner. So I
Speaker 3: am thinking I won't have like enough time now just
Speaker 3: to do my arm form anymore. And I don't think
Speaker 3: I'm enjoying it that much. But I don't know if
Speaker 3: it's just because of that. I'm very like kind of
Speaker 3: stressed with my mind, like why don't you just decide
Speaker 3: and go for something?
Speaker 4: You know?
Speaker 1: So why is I guess the idea that you're you
Speaker 1: don't have enough time. Is it that you don't have
Speaker 1: enough time to break dance and so you because you
Speaker 1: have spend more time with your kid and with your job.
Speaker 1: Or is that you're simply just not enjoying breakdancing.
Speaker 3: Hmm, that's a great question. I think that that is
Speaker 3: that I don't have the time. But other thing, though,
Speaker 3: is that the type of people that they always tell me, right, well,
Speaker 3: you can just organize yourself when you can have time.
Speaker 3: But at least for me, like it's like when when
Speaker 3: you're creating a song, right, like you get this motivation
Speaker 3: and you're like, oh, yeah, I'm gonna write the biggest
Speaker 3: and best song ever. I I kind of feel that
Speaker 3: we're breaking. But when it's a moment like I don't know,
Speaker 3: my kids needs attention, I need to do this, I
Speaker 3: need to do this.
Speaker 1: You don't wanna, you don't let you don't want to,
Speaker 1: you don't like the half assed things. You only want
Speaker 1: to do something you can really do it.
Speaker 3: Yeah, I feel you definitely, yes.
Speaker 1: Yeah, okay, okay, well so your kids won right, Yes?
Speaker 1: Does there exist a universe where like, I mean fun
Speaker 1: because he so you're I mean, your kid's not even
Speaker 1: like in school anymore. No, I mean not not fucking
Speaker 1: not anymore. But yet I don't know why I said anymore.
Speaker 3: Yeah, yes, yes.
Speaker 1: He's graduated already. So your kid's not even in school yet.
Speaker 1: So I mean, yeah, you're at a phase I guess
Speaker 1: of parenthood that demands all of your attention. But one
Speaker 1: could say that in the future it'll demand it'll of
Speaker 1: course demand a lot of attention for a long time,
Speaker 1: but you could say in the future that I won't
Speaker 1: demand as much attention. Are you? But it has nothing
Speaker 1: to do with not enjoying breakdancing.
Speaker 3: No, not at all. I think that when I do it,
Speaker 3: even the slightest time I have and I find that motivation,
Speaker 3: I'm like, oh the fuck, I remember now why I
Speaker 3: used to love to do this shit.
Speaker 1: Okay, I don't think there's the whole idea of like,
Speaker 1: oh I don't want to do it unless if I
Speaker 1: can full send it is like, well, it doesn't make
Speaker 1: a lot of sense if you just enjoy the process
Speaker 1: of doing it. If you enjoy the process of doing it,
Speaker 1: then fucking just do it, right, you know, put pressure
Speaker 1: on yourself for it to be the most amazing breakdance
Speaker 1: routine of all time. You don't have to do that.
Speaker 1: You can just enjoy it, you know.
Speaker 3: Fuck that's true. Another thing is that I used to
Speaker 3: say that, well, you know what if I didn't do it,
Speaker 3: but I didn't want want it to be a parent.
Speaker 3: But I also since I have all all of these things,
Speaker 3: like physical things that I can do, I was like, well,
Speaker 3: I'm well I was twenty nine, right, but well twenty
Speaker 3: eight kind of twenty nine. But I said, you know what,
Speaker 3: I don't want to be like at that at thirty five,
Speaker 3: at least myself, right, that's my opinion. I don't want
Speaker 3: to be at that at thirty five, and then my
Speaker 3: chyle it's like twenty or seventeen and want to learn
Speaker 3: to do all of this and I cannot even stand
Speaker 3: or just run anymore. I just I just want to
Speaker 3: give that to him. So maybe that's why I Yeah,
Speaker 3: I'm struggling with that, but at the very end, I
Speaker 3: I was just considered to quitting it because because of that.
Speaker 1: But yeah, well do you have another I mean, what
Speaker 1: other hobbies would you even want to do?
Speaker 3: I think main one, I've been kind of enjoying doing videos,
Speaker 3: but I don't want to say the worst that. I mean,
Speaker 3: I don't know many many English just to say a word,
Speaker 3: but just kind of like uh, cinematic kind of looking videos,
Speaker 3: but for for a dance, you know, hmhmm.
Speaker 1: That could be cool. Yeah, that could be cool. I
Speaker 1: like that idea. Yeah, man, I don't know. I don't
Speaker 1: that you you want to make videos. It's like it's
Speaker 1: like the skateboarding universe, like you're a skateboarder, but you
Speaker 1: also make skateboarding videos, or you kind of uh uh
Speaker 1: take a step back from the physical toll of the
Speaker 1: thing and get into uh, you know, supporting the community
Speaker 1: in other ways. But look, man, I think if you
Speaker 1: like doing this and you feel like you can balance
Speaker 1: doing this when you can then taking care of your
Speaker 1: kid and making making money at your regular job, I
Speaker 1: don't think that. I think that like the whole pressure
Speaker 1: of like, oh I don't want to do it unless
Speaker 1: if I can be amazing all the time, is uh.
Speaker 1: I don't know. I don't think that's a compelling reason
Speaker 1: to not do something that you like to do. By
Speaker 1: the way, also, I'm gonna, I'm I bet the chat
Speaker 1: has some questions for you. So I'm gonna, if you're down,
Speaker 1: take some.
Speaker 3: Because I'm on my phone.
Speaker 1: But here, yeah, you can you can keep you can
Speaker 1: keep twitch closed. I'm gonna I'll read the the questions
Speaker 1: if i'm.
Speaker 3: Let's just override the Raygun questions.
Speaker 1: Please Rey Gun.
Speaker 4: Oh the girl the meme?
Speaker 3: You know the the girl that is a meme that
Speaker 3: is from Australia.
Speaker 1: I have no idea what you're talking about.
Speaker 3: Thank god you don't know about it. Shot will know.
Speaker 3: Shot will know. Definitely, they will know.
Speaker 2: Uh.
Speaker 1: Someone someone wants to know what your favorite? I have
Speaker 1: no hold on I what what do you? I'm not
Speaker 1: gonna ask. Someone wants to know. Do you do you
Speaker 1: teach your kid hip hop? I assume because he's one
Speaker 1: years old the answer is no. But a breakdancing baby
Speaker 1: would look pretty funny.
Speaker 3: I mean, I I play the music definitely not very
Speaker 3: loud because well he's a kid still, but but he
Speaker 3: kind of like you know, like not his head the
Speaker 3: the kind of bounds and I'm like, fuck, he's doing
Speaker 3: or maybe I'm just like right there thinking that is
Speaker 3: it's him doing it right? It's but I think that
Speaker 3: I have I have teached him, but now I don't
Speaker 3: know if he has learned that yet.
Speaker 1: Someone wants to know what your favorite beat is. I
Speaker 1: guess I don't know how you would even answer that question,
Speaker 1: like would you would you just kind of like beat
Speaker 1: box it.
Speaker 3: To us my favorite beat, like like a song?
Speaker 1: Yeah?
Speaker 3: Mmm, I don't know. That's like kind of asking like
Speaker 3: a a person. I like movies, like what is their
Speaker 3: best of all time?
Speaker 2: Right?
Speaker 3: I don't know, bro, I think I'm gonna skip that.
Speaker 3: But but there's a ton of them, like I cannot
Speaker 3: even just name one, but there's a lot of good
Speaker 3: breakbeats right there.
Speaker 1: Oh this was Oh I like this question. If you
Speaker 1: could be any animal so that you could dance differently
Speaker 1: as that animal, what animal would you want to be
Speaker 1: the dance as.
Speaker 3: Hudos to the guy that or whoever is the person
Speaker 3: that has like, I never had thought of that, to
Speaker 3: be honest, But if I can use it to dance,
Speaker 3: m I think that that will be a turtle.
Speaker 1: That is the last animal I thought that you would say,
Speaker 1: why my back forever?
Speaker 3: Bro like that. I think that that's the biggest advantage
Speaker 3: of all.
Speaker 1: Oh well yeah, I go, oh yeah, you can just
Speaker 1: get on your back and and spin and spin and spin.
Speaker 4: Yeah.
Speaker 3: I can just go home into die and just be
Speaker 3: there all day, all night between.
Speaker 1: Yeah. But then your problem is is if you want
Speaker 1: to get back up, you're fucked.
Speaker 3: Oh my god, that's true. They die right? Oh no,
Speaker 3: I can I just take my answer.
Speaker 1: With someone said, uh, what's your signature move? If you
Speaker 1: have one?
Speaker 3: Mmm, that's that's a great question too. Well, just to
Speaker 3: have a little bit of context for you file a
Speaker 3: signature move. It's like a really good move that you own.
Speaker 3: Technically every every single move is invented by this point.
Speaker 4: But like a move.
Speaker 3: But I would say that my signature move is doing
Speaker 3: a halo, called a move called halo to loadus, like
Speaker 3: when you cross your legs. Mmm, so yeah, you don't
Speaker 3: have those legs, Yes, a halo And then I crossed
Speaker 3: my legs and hold it into a freeze like you
Speaker 3: if if.
Speaker 1: I google, if I google this, will it will it shut?
Speaker 1: Like a like? Is that a type of dance? A halo?
Speaker 3: You can put like b boy like b as and
Speaker 3: boy b as and boy all why and then and
Speaker 3: then halo. Maybe it's but.
Speaker 4: That looks do you like?
Speaker 1: Oh that looks crazy? Do you like spin on your
Speaker 1: head and ship?
Speaker 3: Yes I do? And my hands and on my bag,
Speaker 3: you know, all the package.
Speaker 1: Uh, someone wants to know. Have you ever had to
Speaker 1: dance to protect your turf from an opposing dance group
Speaker 1: like in that movie?
Speaker 3: Oh shit, yes I have?
Speaker 1: And and are you really you have?
Speaker 4: Yes?
Speaker 3: Okay, sorry no, no, no, no, it's actually I was just
Speaker 3: gonna tell you, like, yes I have, and now thinking
Speaker 3: about it, it kind of feels like a movie. But
Speaker 3: when you're there, you feel the adrenaline like you you're
Speaker 3: just gonna get the whole night getting booed because you lost.
Speaker 3: Not you lost, right, But it's like I don't know,
Speaker 3: like like trailer No no, not like Tiller, like beat
Speaker 3: it like that thing with nice they do up with dancing.
Speaker 3: So that's how it feels.
Speaker 4: Mm hmm.
Speaker 1: Wait, so is it this is where you had to
Speaker 1: protect your turf? Like what does that look like like?
Speaker 1: People like roll up on you? Like, what what does
Speaker 1: it look like to be protecting your turf in a
Speaker 1: break dance battle.
Speaker 3: Well, actually it's just like that, like they they threw
Speaker 3: some moves at you and you're you're just like, oh yeah,
Speaker 3: well shake this out. And then you keep going until
Speaker 3: someone just does a whack move and what that technically
Speaker 3: makes you win the battle? Right or just like if
Speaker 3: you hit a beat on point, well that makes you
Speaker 3: win the battle.
Speaker 4: And they're like.
Speaker 1: Whoa, but who, like who is the judge of who?
Speaker 1: Who is hitting a beat on point? Like how is this?
Speaker 1: Like that's decided?
Speaker 3: Right, that's there's two points like in a competition, in
Speaker 3: a battle, there's judges, right, But like we call it ciphers,
Speaker 3: Like there's circles, like you know in a party that
Speaker 3: when I don't know, maybe Ron DMC comes on and
Speaker 3: everybody goes on on the circle, Like that's called a cipher.
Speaker 3: So if you go one on one again someone, there's
Speaker 3: no judge, but you start to see.
Speaker 4: Like maybe if you.
Speaker 3: Don't know many moves or anything, but you can feel it,
Speaker 3: maybe you're like, oh, yeah, that dude is owning him.
Speaker 1: Okay. So it's just it's like a it's a vibe
Speaker 1: as to who won, like you exactly know whether or
Speaker 1: not you want okay, that makes sense. That makes sense.
Speaker 1: Have you ever ever lost? What does it feel like
Speaker 1: to lose that?
Speaker 3: Oh? As a b boys, as a break break boy,
Speaker 3: you need to experience losing quite a lot of times
Speaker 3: before it just winning like everything else, right, but it
Speaker 3: feels rough, not gonna lie like you sometimes think that
Speaker 3: you want and then sometimes they do a bad call
Speaker 3: and they just let win the other dude, But it happens.
Speaker 3: I just finally understood it, like maybe one year and
Speaker 3: a half ago. I cannot endure it now I'm like,
Speaker 3: oh yeah, man, it's the moment another day, next day,
Speaker 3: another person is going to be a shamp. So I
Speaker 3: used to feel it that way.
Speaker 1: Now, so this person said, and this is I'm curious
Speaker 1: about this. What's the penalty for losing the turf war dance?
Speaker 1: Do you do? You do they like take your turf? Like,
Speaker 1: what do you do? You have to move out? Are
Speaker 1: you not allowed to go there anymore? What's that look like?
Speaker 3: No, well, I'm not very familiar with with turf Like
Speaker 3: turfing is like another dance, but at least in breaking
Speaker 3: when you lose, like when you call someone out and
Speaker 3: then you lose, like well you simply lose, right, and
Speaker 3: they can just call you whack. This is you surely
Speaker 3: calling someone out and then losing. It's like when you are,
Speaker 3: I don't know, good at math and then you're like, well,
Speaker 3: I'm better than you're at math, and then someone comes
Speaker 3: in this is better than you. You're like, oh, shaid,
Speaker 3: I'm gonna just shut my mouth. So it's kind of
Speaker 3: just like that intense.
Speaker 1: Okay, so it's it's uh, it's just very embarrassing. But
Speaker 1: you're you're not like spanned from embarrassing. Okay, someone said this,
Speaker 1: this has a bit. The last question, somebody said, what's
Speaker 1: the best food going on in Tijuana?
Speaker 3: Oh okay, well, uh, I'm gonna be honest. There's only
Speaker 3: one food that can be like very that the one
Speaker 3: is very known for, which is called Bria.
Speaker 1: Oh yeah, sure that thing.
Speaker 2: Oh you know it's perfect.
Speaker 1: Well, yeah, we have like Berria taco stands and all
Speaker 1: that ship.
Speaker 3: Yes, like they do have the best ones right here,
Speaker 3: but a personal one. And I'm gonna get this, you know,
Speaker 3: just because saying this, But I think fo right here
Speaker 3: because there's there there's a lot of Vietnamese people right here,
Speaker 3: but legit Vietnamese. It's not like you know a Mexican
Speaker 3: person is just doing them. No, it's just like Vietnamese
Speaker 3: people doing them. It's pretty fucking nice.
Speaker 1: Oh that's cool.
Speaker 4: Is there ever?
Speaker 1: Did they ever do like Vietnamese Mexican fusion like a
Speaker 1: bond me taco or whatever.
Speaker 3: They I haven't tried it, but they did one with
Speaker 3: what's it called with chorriso. I don't know if you're
Speaker 3: familiar with that. It's the kind of meat.
Speaker 2: But.
Speaker 3: I haven't tried it, to be honest, even though if
Speaker 3: I'm from here, I never had my thoughts on you know,
Speaker 3: I should try that. No, I just stick with the
Speaker 3: beef and shrimp.
Speaker 1: Diego can people. I know you're trying to stay under
Speaker 1: the wraps, but like, do you want to promote your
Speaker 1: break dancing stuff at all? I'm I'm I'm certainly curious.
Speaker 1: But if you want to stay anonymous, that's cool.
Speaker 3: I just rather not, just because I don't want to
Speaker 3: be like, you know, just because of this well that
Speaker 3: went viral. I just want like the community for its
Speaker 3: own name, just to be viral and then whenever you
Speaker 3: come to Tijuana you can be like, oh it's that
Speaker 3: that community, bro.
Speaker 1: I would I would I've never been to Tijuana. I
Speaker 1: really want to go. If you're still putting on these events,
Speaker 1: fucking please let me know, or even if you want
Speaker 1: to send me a DM on Instagram so I can see,
Speaker 1: uh see what's going on, because I would. I don't.
Speaker 1: I don't have plans to go to Tijuana, but it's
Speaker 1: definitely a place I may end up at some point.
Speaker 1: I fucking love to go to one of these breakdance
Speaker 1: events that sounds awesome.
Speaker 3: Definitely, dude, as soon as I see that you are
Speaker 3: heading down here or you're having planned I definitely will.
Speaker 3: But if if anyone else from right here in the
Speaker 3: chat just wants to come, definitely. You guys can just
Speaker 3: see the whole vibe right here in Tijuana, and I'm
Speaker 3: pretty sure that you're gonna end up having a nice
Speaker 3: time right here.
Speaker 1: Fuck yeah, Well, thanks for sharing all this, Diego is
Speaker 1: uh hmmmm. Is there anything else you want to say
Speaker 1: to the people of the computer before we go?
Speaker 3: Yes, I think that I would never talk that. I'll
Speaker 3: just get in one of your calls, but just into
Speaker 3: the other side. Don't let uh if you ever come,
Speaker 3: if you ever are going to become a parent, just
Speaker 3: don't let that suck you up like it's just part
Speaker 3: of the process, and you're gonna love your kids like
Speaker 3: when you see them grown. It's it's a pretty fucking
Speaker 3: good moment to see.
Speaker 1: Hey, thanks so much, Diego. Hopefully I'll see in Tijuana on.
Speaker 2: That sure is it? Goodbye?
Speaker 4: Thank you?
Speaker 1: Good bye? Oh that was so nice. That was cool, man.
Speaker 1: Hell yeah, I got to you know, so, I just
Speaker 1: finished doing this big ass tour and I'm kind of
Speaker 1: like trying to stay put for a significant amount of time,
Speaker 1: but uh, I got I'd love to go back to
Speaker 1: making those those for those for those of you who
Speaker 1: just listened to this on podcasts, although actually I guess
Speaker 1: I've I've put audio versions of this kind of stuff
Speaker 1: out there, but I love doing the in person gecko shit.
Speaker 1: So maybe I'm a little too tired to do it
Speaker 1: for the time being, but I'm definitely I want to
Speaker 1: return to doing that kind of shit, you know, just
Speaker 1: fucking hit up this guy the egg oh and be
Speaker 1: like and do being a gecko at a t you
Speaker 1: wanna breakdance event? That sounds awesome. Shout out Diego, Shout
Speaker 1: out Life, shout out to Juanna, and uh God, bless
Speaker 1: uh God. Bless the universe? Hello, Hello, Hey, what's up?
Speaker 2: Man?
Speaker 1: What's who are you? What's your name?
Speaker 2: Yo? It's crazy.
Speaker 4: Well it's my first time calling you and you actually answered.
Speaker 1: What's up? How you doing?
Speaker 4: What's up? My name is Eddie. Nice to meet you.
Speaker 1: Nice to meet you to Eddie. What's uh? What what's
Speaker 1: you up to? How's life?
Speaker 4: Not much?
Speaker 2: Man?
Speaker 4: You know, just graduated high school. I just got into
Speaker 4: trade school. I mean trying to trying to become age,
Speaker 4: you know. Cool?
Speaker 1: I like that. Well, how was high school?
Speaker 2: Did you?
Speaker 1: Did you? Did you have a Are you gonna miss it?
Speaker 1: Or are you excited to be moving? Moving on in
Speaker 1: the universe?
Speaker 4: Well, you know, sometimes when I scroll through my phone,
Speaker 4: I uh yeah, I think about the old times. You know,
Speaker 4: it feels like it was a decade ago, but it
Speaker 4: was just like a couple couple of months ago. You know.
Speaker 1: Did you have a lot of friends?
Speaker 4: I'm admitted for sure. Yeah I had a couple of friends,
Speaker 4: but you know, you know how it is when you
Speaker 4: graduate kind of stop stalking song. But yeah, I think
Speaker 4: I only have like one actual friend that I talked
Speaker 4: to and we hang out like when I'm when I'm
Speaker 4: not busy.
Speaker 1: Do you do you like this friend? Are they someone
Speaker 1: you think you're gonna spend a lot of time with, Like,
Speaker 1: like you still do you see yourself still being friends
Speaker 1: with them a long time from now?
Speaker 2: Yeah, I hope.
Speaker 4: So, I hope so, man, because I try to. I
Speaker 4: try to hang out with the people that have kind
Speaker 4: of the same mentality as me, you know, because that's
Speaker 4: what they tell you, know, you are who you like
Speaker 4: to hang out with. That's what they told me since
Speaker 4: I was little.
Speaker 1: So what's how would you describe this mentality?
Speaker 4: Well, you know, just trying to progress and you know,
Speaker 4: keep moving in life however you can. And it's better
Speaker 4: if it's like however you like it to be.
Speaker 1: You know, what, in what ways are you trying to progress?
Speaker 4: Well? I have older brothers, like way older brothers, because
Speaker 4: my family kind of had me, Like my mom and
Speaker 4: dad had me when they were pretty like oh, like
Speaker 4: they were like thirty five when they had me, and
Speaker 4: so I grew up with a lot of role models
Speaker 4: and stuff like that. So they like made me feel sorry.
Speaker 4: They made me feel like I had a lot to
Speaker 4: prove because they all have good families and good jobs.
Speaker 4: So I'm just trying to be like them, you know,
Speaker 4: you know how it is?
Speaker 1: Sure? Yeah? What can I hear? Any Like, who's a
Speaker 1: role model that you had growing up where you're like,
Speaker 1: I like, I like that guy's life. I want his life.
Speaker 4: My brother, my brother, his name is Oscar Oscar. He
Speaker 4: has he has three kids and a wife, and he
Speaker 4: has his own house. He's got a brand new truck
Speaker 4: and every day, like I'm like, damn, I want to
Speaker 4: be like him. He's like he's always he always like
Speaker 4: he always has a goal in his head.
Speaker 2: Like he's never.
Speaker 4: He can't be still, you know, he can't be laying
Speaker 4: down watching TV. He's got to be doing something every day.
Speaker 4: That's what I like about him.
Speaker 1: Mhm, Like what's he doing? What's his uh what's his
Speaker 1: like job or a business.
Speaker 4: He's a he's a contractor and he has he's a
Speaker 4: supervisor for uh, for the district. So he's he's got
Speaker 4: like he made he maintains the schools like he's a
Speaker 4: he's a paint specialist, so he he has his own
Speaker 4: crewerning around like schools and stuff like that, painting, and
Speaker 4: he makes a key. He makes good money.
Speaker 1: That's cool. Do you have a good relationship with him?
Speaker 1: Do you get to see him pretty often? It sounds
Speaker 1: like he's like a little yeah, yeah, we live.
Speaker 2: We live.
Speaker 4: Yeah, we live close to each other. I actually had
Speaker 4: to live with them a couple like maybe two years
Speaker 4: because my mom passed away from COVID.
Speaker 1: Oh I'm sorry to hear that.
Speaker 4: Yeah, she passed away from COVID New Year of twenty
Speaker 4: nineteen when I was when I was sixteen, she passed away.
Speaker 1: How's your dad doing?
Speaker 4: My dad? He, well, he's doing fine. You know, he's
Speaker 4: in disability because because he has our tartist on his
Speaker 4: on his knee, So he pretty much just stayed at
Speaker 4: home and I lived with him to me him and
Speaker 4: my other brother. His name is Robert. He's a trucker. Yeah,
Speaker 4: he pretty mus just he's doing all right. He doesn't
Speaker 4: tell me a lot. He's a he like he likes
Speaker 4: to hide his feelings with jokes and stuff like that,
Speaker 4: so it's kind of hard to get. But I know
Speaker 4: he I know he keeps stuff deep down that he
Speaker 4: doesn't tell me. And yeah, pretty much, I'll just try
Speaker 4: to make his day, you know, when every time he's
Speaker 4: in town, because he's he's like pretty much out all weekend,
Speaker 4: comes back on the weekends, And how's.
Speaker 1: Your dad doing doing since your mom died? What's he
Speaker 1: what's he been up to? Has he been like working
Speaker 1: through all that? Like how's how's he been?
Speaker 4: Yeah, I mean he's been, he's been. I guess you
Speaker 4: could say he's been working through it, but you know
Speaker 4: it gets him sometimes. But how can I explain this?
Speaker 4: So my dad, he he like he's not a very
Speaker 4: like hmm, like a responsible person. You know, he likes
Speaker 4: to he likes for you to help him out a lot.
Speaker 4: And yet like, of course, like I have I help him.
Speaker 4: He's my dad and all that. But then again, like
Speaker 4: there's a there's a point where like you gotta you know,
Speaker 4: step it down a little bit because like if he like,
Speaker 4: there's points sometimes when I come home and he hasn't
Speaker 4: ate like he doesn't he hasn't ate no food, he
Speaker 4: hasn't nothing, Like he just lays down in bed, and
Speaker 4: I know he has the strength to do it. He's
Speaker 4: not that he's like just his mentality is just all
Speaker 4: like wrong, you know, like he doesn't try himself, like
Speaker 4: push himself, like get up from bed. Every day when
Speaker 4: I come back from school and I see him in bed,
Speaker 4: I'm like, man, you could have at least got up
Speaker 4: and stretched your legs, you know, walked around a little bit,
Speaker 4: try to move those old bones. But it's kind of
Speaker 4: hard to make him because he doesn't like to take criticism.
Speaker 4: He starts, he he got to cry, or he gets mad.
Speaker 4: But yeah, I'm just trying to pretty much like stay
Speaker 4: in my lane, like trying to progress myself well, helping
Speaker 4: my dad. And I mean, I know I'm not alone.
Speaker 4: I have a big family, but still, like I know,
Speaker 4: it mostly falls on me because if like stuff were
Speaker 4: to get worse, I think I would be the one
Speaker 4: that would happen to take care of him.
Speaker 1: You know, That's that's really noble of you. Do you have?
Speaker 1: You said you have a big family. Who else is
Speaker 1: helping you out? Is it? I?
Speaker 4: Is it?
Speaker 1: Oscar? Well show? What's the name of the other one?
Speaker 4: Robert?
Speaker 2: Oscar?
Speaker 4: Robert?
Speaker 1: Are are those two? Are those two helping you out
Speaker 1: at all? Or do you have someone out like an
Speaker 1: uncle or an aunt helping you out?
Speaker 4: Oh? It's it's mostly just me and my brother. But
Speaker 4: my sister in law, my my brother, Oscar's wife, she's
Speaker 4: like a mom to me pretty much. She called me
Speaker 4: every day and she she she makes me feel like
Speaker 4: like the still somebody that cares about me sometimes because
Speaker 4: you know, I lived with them. We got pretty close.
Speaker 4: I got pretty pretty much. I got close with all
Speaker 4: of them, are close with my nephew and my two nieces.
Speaker 4: But yeah, others than that, that's pretty much it. Man,
Speaker 4: Like I got, I got my dad, I got my family,
Speaker 4: and I got well relationship wise. I'm talking to a
Speaker 4: girl right now. You know, I like to go to
Speaker 4: Mexico a lot because I'm from Mexico, Chihuahua, Mexico, and
Speaker 4: I like to go a lot. I have a lot
Speaker 4: of family over there too. I have a big family, man,
Speaker 4: you name you name a place I might have family there,
Speaker 4: like Oklahoma, Tulsa. I have a family in Oklahoma or Pasto.
Speaker 4: Pretty much in a lot of places, man, Kansas. We
Speaker 4: we like spread out from Mexico. We say, came over
Speaker 4: here and we expanded.
Speaker 1: You go to Mexico a lot to visit your family.
Speaker 1: When's the last time you went?
Speaker 4: Yeah, uh, summer, last summer was summer.
Speaker 1: Well, and this girl that you're talking to, she liveing
Speaker 1: in Mexico.
Speaker 4: Yeah, where it's kind of like a long distance thing.
Speaker 4: But it's it's kind of that thing has been kind
Speaker 4: of driving me crazy too. Man. That was the main
Speaker 4: reason why I called you. I know you don't really
Speaker 4: like to do like relationship advice, but but like, yeah,
Speaker 4: we you know I I I I like you Atti.
Speaker 1: You gotta you got a real good vibe about you.
Speaker 1: I'm I'm happy to talk to you about whatever you
Speaker 1: want to talk about.
Speaker 4: Oh, thank you so much. Man. Yeah, you know what, bro,
Speaker 4: every time I fight with her, sometimes I can't sleep.
Speaker 4: I put you on and I go to sleep. I'm
Speaker 4: not gonna lie. So yeah, man, so.
Speaker 1: You wanted to call it to talk specifically about something
Speaker 1: that's going on with her? What's what's? What's up?
Speaker 4: It's because we tend to find a lot right now.
Speaker 4: We're not together. We used to be together. We broke up,
Speaker 4: but we always end up finding our way back to
Speaker 4: each other in a way and we end up talking again.
Speaker 4: Right now, we're talking again. But I'm like, she always
Speaker 4: makes me feel like what I have to say means nothing,
Speaker 4: because sometimes like let's say, there's been a couple of
Speaker 4: minutes or like you know, a couple hours, actually she
Speaker 4: doesn't answer. I start to text it too much because yeah,
Speaker 4: I guess you could say I might have trust issues.
Speaker 4: I don't know, but she says like I don't trust
Speaker 4: her and all. But I mean it's it's kind of
Speaker 4: hard to trust somebody, you know, when they're further away.
Speaker 4: But I mean, she might not be doing nothing. It
Speaker 4: might just be mean.
Speaker 1: Well let me let me let me ask you just
Speaker 1: some like how long have you been dating this girl for?
Speaker 1: Because you're you're what eighteen.
Speaker 4: I'm twenty twenty.
Speaker 1: How long you guys were dating for?
Speaker 2: We've been dating for?
Speaker 4: You could say, you know, I've been with her for
Speaker 4: a little more than a year, but we started dating
Speaker 4: a year a year from now, because.
Speaker 1: I know you said it's been like on and off
Speaker 1: and stuff. So like, I guess when did you get
Speaker 1: help you guys meet You could.
Speaker 4: Say maybe a year and a half ago. We met
Speaker 4: Still we met at a party.
Speaker 1: But tell me what you mean when you say that
Speaker 1: she makes you feel like what you have to say
Speaker 1: doesn't matter.
Speaker 4: Like every time I express myself she gets mad, you know,
Speaker 4: and she says it's the same thing over and over again,
Speaker 4: like everything you say is just like the same, and
Speaker 4: like pretty much every time I try to talk to her,
Speaker 4: she was just like end up making me feel like
Speaker 4: I'm the bad guy, you know, and I don't know.
Speaker 4: Maybe it might be me or it might be her.
Speaker 4: I don't know. Then again, it's hard to tell because
Speaker 4: you know it's long distance. But you know, I like
Speaker 4: the girl and if you and the crazy thing is,
Speaker 4: she's the only girl I talk to that's not like
Speaker 4: part of my family.
Speaker 1: Mhm.
Speaker 4: I haven't really like try to go out, you know,
Speaker 4: I've been really spoken in school and work.
Speaker 1: I guess that Well, maybe the reason I don't give
Speaker 1: a relationship advices because it's a kind of a I
Speaker 1: don't have my mind made up about a lot of
Speaker 1: things about that sphere sphere of life, but my gut
Speaker 1: tells me a few things, and one of them would
Speaker 1: be this girl who lives in Mexico. I mean, what's
Speaker 1: her life, like, what's she what's her universe? Because we
Speaker 1: know we know a little about yours.
Speaker 4: She's going to college right now, she's she wants to
Speaker 4: be a psychologist m hm. And she has her mom,
Speaker 4: her dad, nice family, you know, like she seems real
Speaker 4: happy like with her family. And maybe maybe the thing
Speaker 4: is that makes me feel like insecurity to say is
Speaker 4: that I know it's something to happen between us, it
Speaker 4: would be easier for her to like move on and
Speaker 4: find somebody else, you know. M hm.
Speaker 1: Why do you where's that like insecurity coming from?
Speaker 4: Mm hm hm. Maybe with I don't know, to be honest, man,
Speaker 4: maybe because I don't feel like, you know, I deserve her.
Speaker 4: You could say that maybe yeah, but no, no, I know,
Speaker 4: I know, I'm I know, I'm I know my worst
Speaker 4: you know, like I know, there's not many people out
Speaker 4: here doing it like me because because you know, there's
Speaker 4: like where I went to where I went, where I
Speaker 4: went to high school, it was a you could say
Speaker 4: it was a pretty bad high school, a public high school,
Speaker 4: oak Cliffe, Texas. And if the schools called Kimball just
Speaker 4: a f Kimball, I'm not sure if you know that school.
Speaker 4: But uh, yeah, I know a couple of my friends
Speaker 4: that passed away due to you know, choosing the wrong side,
Speaker 4: like like SPM said what he said he said, living
Speaker 4: living your life about the curse, I think something like that.
Speaker 4: But yeah, pretty much like most of them are, well
Speaker 4: not most of them, but like a couple of them,
Speaker 4: and they passed away due to doing some stuff that
Speaker 4: they weren't supposed to be doing. And sometimes I feel
Speaker 4: like that could have been me, you know. But I'm
Speaker 4: just glad I chose the right, the right like right
Speaker 4: path in life.
Speaker 2: Yeah.
Speaker 1: You should be really proud of yourself about that.
Speaker 4: Yeah, But then again, so I'm not. Another thing that
Speaker 4: bothers me is that I feel pressured.
Speaker 2: Man.
Speaker 4: So like this, this one time when I went over
Speaker 4: there to I was gonna go over there to Mexico, right,
Speaker 4: I was gonna go visit her. So where I'm from,
Speaker 4: it's it's just spark in Mexico, and then she's from Shihuahua,
Speaker 4: Chiawa City, so it's kind of it's not that close.
Speaker 4: But she went over there to to because she has
Speaker 4: family two over there, and that's how we met. And
Speaker 4: the planet was for me to go over there and
Speaker 4: visit her, but my brother. I was gonna go with
Speaker 4: my brother and at that time, I didn't have a
Speaker 4: vehicle and we crashed. We crashed his car, and I
Speaker 4: told her, I'm still gonna go. I'm just not gonna
Speaker 4: be able to go over there. So maybe you could
Speaker 4: come over here to where I'm from, since you have
Speaker 4: family and I don't have family over there, because the
Speaker 4: plan with my brother was gonna take me and see
Speaker 4: her like for like maybe two days and then come back.
Speaker 4: But that didn't work out. And I told her, I'm
Speaker 4: gonna be over here so if you can't come see me,
Speaker 4: you know, pretty much like we're both doing the like
Speaker 4: we're both putting the work to see each other, you know. Yeah,
Speaker 4: And she ended up telling me that I never go
Speaker 4: through with what I say, and she got mad. She
Speaker 4: did end up come seeing me, but then again, she
Speaker 4: always used it against me whenever I don't like follow
Speaker 4: through with something. But then again, she doesn't understand that
Speaker 4: when I'm like that, I don't have the luxury, you know,
Speaker 4: like I'm trying to work on myself to get my
Speaker 4: life right so I can have a life with you,
Speaker 4: you know, But she just doesn't see that. She just
Speaker 4: sees the now like she's like if she if there's
Speaker 4: like love and you can do anything and all that,
Speaker 4: you don't love me like she she just pretty much
Speaker 4: makes me feel like shit, you know what I'm trying
Speaker 4: to say.
Speaker 1: Yeah, so Eddie, what I will look. What I was
Speaker 1: gonna say to you is I think, especially at at twenty,
Speaker 1: is so like young. It's like, I think you should
Speaker 1: do a little bit of an audit, right, and then
Speaker 1: really think to yourself, because you you want the people
Speaker 1: who are around you to energize you and make you
Speaker 1: feel good about yourself, and you want to be excited
Speaker 1: about putting energy into them, and I really feel like
Speaker 1: you shouldn't settle for anything less than that. And so
Speaker 1: you really got to kind of ask yourself if your
Speaker 1: relationships are making your life better and adding to it,
Speaker 1: or if they're making your life more stressful or more
Speaker 1: difficult and detracting from it. Especially you know, you man,
Speaker 1: because you got a you know, one of the things
Speaker 1: I really like about your talking to you is that
Speaker 1: you clearly have a a real fire in you to
Speaker 1: make your to make a good life for yourself. Ry
Speaker 1: that's really I think that's really cool. I really I
Speaker 1: really admire that. I think that's awesome, and I I
Speaker 1: think you'll do it because you just have that thing
Speaker 1: and whatever, whatever, it wouldn't be the worst thing in
Speaker 1: the world. Two just see, like focus on that and
Speaker 1: be focused on yourself and building the life that you want. Right.
Speaker 4: Yeah, maybe I'm just like too focused on the wrong thing,
Speaker 4: you know.
Speaker 1: Or maybeeah, maybe And also and also and also and
Speaker 1: also also the whole because you said a bunch of things.
Speaker 1: You were like, this person makes me feel like shit,
Speaker 1: and uh, yeah said that You've kind of alluded to
Speaker 1: this like sense of insecurity that you're feeling, which I'm
Speaker 1: quite familiar with that insecurity and it's, uh, it'll really
Speaker 1: make your life worse. And it's especially uh it's that insecurity.
Speaker 1: You gotta really fucking take that out of your out
Speaker 1: of your fucking soul and put it on the counter
Speaker 1: and look at it and go, where the fuck is
Speaker 1: this coming from? And how do I deal with it
Speaker 1: so that I'm happier? You got to figure that out.
Speaker 1: And uh, because you and I don't. I don't have
Speaker 1: the answers and how to deal with insecurity. And I,
Speaker 1: you know, I'm still dealing with a lot of my
Speaker 1: own insecurity in my life. And uh, but you gotta,
Speaker 1: you gotta, you gotta make these audits because you can't
Speaker 1: just because if you just keep going without thinking about
Speaker 1: these things and without you know, like when you like
Speaker 1: when you text your girlfriend twice because you think that
Speaker 1: she's cheating on you or you need you need from her,
Speaker 1: you gotta, yeah, you got to understand why you're doing
Speaker 1: that because and again I'm telling you this because I've
Speaker 1: been in a lot of situations like that where where
Speaker 1: my insecurity has prompted me to I think act in
Speaker 1: ways that I'm like, I don't think that that's what
Speaker 1: a secure person would do. And so, yeah, so you
Speaker 1: really want to be very like, very fucking intentional and
Speaker 1: conscious about this so that you're moving forward more positive.
Speaker 4: You know what?
Speaker 1: Does that make sense?
Speaker 4: Yeah? Yeah, yeah, I get it.
Speaker 2: I get it.
Speaker 1: It's like why are you in It's like, it's like,
Speaker 1: why are you insecure? Well, you're like like the thing
Speaker 1: of like I don't deserve her. It's like, well, why
Speaker 1: do I think I don't deserve her? It's like, well,
Speaker 1: because I'm looking at my life and I'm like, oh,
Speaker 1: I'm actually lacking these things that I wish I had,
Speaker 1: And it's like, well, fuck man, you can have them.
Speaker 1: You can do whatever you want.
Speaker 4: Are You're right?
Speaker 1: You're Eddie right?
Speaker 2: Yep?
Speaker 1: I do whatever you want, Eddie. You can do whatever
Speaker 1: you want.
Speaker 4: Yeah I can. Yeah, I guess you're right. You're you're right.
Speaker 4: From cuse, I guess maybe where all that insecurity is
Speaker 4: coming from, is that she like, you know, how she
Speaker 4: tells me, I don't follow through, and maybe, like she
Speaker 4: tells me, I'm like, that makes me feel like I'm
Speaker 4: not like worth it, you know, And maybe the insecurity
Speaker 4: is coming from that she'll find somebody that she thinks
Speaker 4: is worth it.
Speaker 1: Then let her do that.
Speaker 4: You're right, at the end of the day, that's.
Speaker 1: What if that's what she wants to do. But your
Speaker 1: you're I don't. I don't. Yeah, I think. I think
Speaker 1: handling your own insecurity and dealing with is like a
Speaker 1: really important part of life. And for some people, bull
Speaker 1: it's a it's a longer journey than others, but it's
Speaker 1: something to check and not just it's it's something that
Speaker 1: you I don't think is good to let go unchecked.
Speaker 4: Yeah, yeah, I get you, man, But you're I I like.
Speaker 1: Really, Eddie, I think you've got a good path ahead
Speaker 1: of you. I hope you're not. Don't have fucking drive.
Speaker 1: You drive yourself insane, taking care of your your dad
Speaker 1: and and dealing with this girl in Mexico. Because you
Speaker 1: I think you deserve a little a little effort into
Speaker 1: yourself right, because you've got a good vision. You're looking
Speaker 1: at your brother you're like, oh, he's got a family,
Speaker 1: he's got a a he's he's financially self sufficient. And
Speaker 1: you you have strong goals. You want a good life
Speaker 1: for yourself, and you you seem like you're uh here
Speaker 1: to build it. And I makes I'm excited for you, Eddie.
Speaker 4: Yeah, thank you, man. Yeah, I only got three more
Speaker 4: and three more months to go and I graduate. I
Speaker 4: already have my certification. I just got to wait tonight
Speaker 4: graduate though. But every day he's looking good.
Speaker 1: Is there any Is there anything else that you wanted
Speaker 1: to talk about before we go or anything?
Speaker 4: No? No, no, man, that's it. It's really helped me. Man.
Speaker 2: I appreciate it.
Speaker 1: Okay, good, good, good. I'm really happy to hear that.
Speaker 1: Good luck, Eddie.
Speaker 4: I appreciate him. Man, you have a good one night.
Speaker 2: Stay take care, take care.
Speaker 1: I like to I like the guy a lot. He
Speaker 1: was cool. It gets it. It gets harder and harder
Speaker 1: to do this show. I think as a as a
Speaker 1: continue moving forward because I'm like, I don't, well, I do,
Speaker 1: I don't. I do feel like I know logically the
Speaker 1: correct answers to something, and that that guy was at
Speaker 1: a a an interesting stage of his life. But then
Speaker 1: sometimes I'm like, I've got him. I'm I'm crazy. This
Speaker 1: is boring. I don't, I don't, I don't. I don't
Speaker 1: like these post call thoughts. We're keeping them in, but uh,
Speaker 1: let's keep them in, and let's let's we're gonna keep
Speaker 1: these post call thoughts in. I thought, I I thought
Speaker 1: I had something vulnerable and sage to say at the
Speaker 1: end of this phone call. And I didn't. And so
Speaker 1: I'm gonna make a fart noise. No, I'm not. I'm
Speaker 1: not gonna make a fart noise. That sounded I felt weird. Okay,
Speaker 1: I'm sorry. I drank a lot of mountain I drank
Speaker 1: some mountain dew, but I feel good. I feel good.
Speaker 1: I drank some diet mountain dew. It's got I think
Speaker 1: it's got How many grams of caffeine is this Diamond
Speaker 1: Do have? This is not a sponsorship, by the way.
Speaker 1: I just I just like Diamond Do because it's got
Speaker 1: caffe you know, it's got ninety one milligrams. It's a lot.
Speaker 1: It's like a cup of think there's a cup of coffee.
Speaker 1: I'm not done with this post call thought. I'm not
Speaker 1: done with this post call thought. I feel like I
Speaker 1: still have something left to say. That was one of
Speaker 1: those phone calls. That was honestly one of those phone
Speaker 1: calls just now where I was like I was on
Speaker 1: my personal level, I as a participant in that conversation,
Speaker 1: was so much less interested in any advice I had
Speaker 1: to give to that guy, and I was more interested
Speaker 1: in just looking into the window of his life because
Speaker 1: he's got an interesting life. I hope it works out.
Speaker 1: It probably will, Yeah, he ranks. He ranks low on
Speaker 1: the list of callers where I hang up the phone
Speaker 1: and I'm like, I don't think that's things are going
Speaker 1: to work out for that person. I rarely think that though.
Speaker 1: I'm pretty optimistic because if if I can't be optimistic
Speaker 1: for other people, I can I don't think I could
Speaker 1: be opted. Like if I like if I called okay,
Speaker 1: what I'm meant to say. If I can't be optimistic
Speaker 1: for the people, I don't think I can be optimistic
Speaker 1: for myself, you know, Like if I was talking to
Speaker 1: myself on the phone and then I hung up, hopefully
Speaker 1: I'd be like, you know, I'm not worried about that guy.
Speaker 1: I think he's gonna be all right. So I gotta
Speaker 1: be optimistic for other people I talked to on the
Speaker 1: phone if I can't be optimistic for myself when I
Speaker 1: talk to myself on the phone, Does that make sense?
Speaker 1: This is good? This is good. All right, This is
Speaker 1: the end of my post call thought. Right now? Oh yeah, Hi,
Speaker 1: what's your name?
Speaker 4: Hi?
Speaker 2: My name is Clyde.
Speaker 1: Clyde. Sorry, you're you're you're you're a little nervous, a.
Speaker 2: Little nervous, little nervous guy. Right now.
Speaker 1: Well, let me tell you something. This is the This
Speaker 1: is my new thing that I say to people who
Speaker 1: are nervous talking on This is and because I really
Speaker 1: mean it, is that this is, this phone call right
Speaker 1: now is one of the least important things you will
Speaker 1: ever do in your life. You will you will do
Speaker 1: at least three hundred more important things in your life,
Speaker 1: hopefully many more than whatever this phone call is about
Speaker 1: to be. So the steaks, true, the steaks are incredibly
Speaker 1: low for this.
Speaker 2: It's not like objectively important. But it's kind of cool.
Speaker 1: It's kind of cool. It is kind of cool. It's
Speaker 1: it's cool to be it's cool that we're talking. But
Speaker 1: the stakes are low. There's no this is not you're
Speaker 1: not being graded for this. You're not this is you've
Speaker 1: already there's no there's no reason to be to be nervous.
Speaker 2: True true true. How's your day going?
Speaker 1: My day's actually going pretty good. I'm back in New
Speaker 1: York for the first time in like a month because
Speaker 1: I was away. I'm back in my actual studio office
Speaker 1: space thing, and I feel uh, I feel good. I'm
Speaker 1: very comfortable with uh where I am at in literally
Speaker 1: this specific moment talking to you. How was your day?
Speaker 2: Not bad? Not bad? My cat? My cat got sick
Speaker 2: this weekend, so that was that was a bit stressful,
Speaker 2: but uh, it took her. I took her to the
Speaker 2: vet today. She's kind of tweaking right now looking at
Speaker 2: the wall because there's something living in my walls, which
Speaker 2: is fun. But she's getting better, which is cool. But
Speaker 2: I gotta shoved stuff in her mouth.
Speaker 1: It's always fun to It's always fun to have a cat. Clyde,
Speaker 1: what's up?
Speaker 3: Man?
Speaker 1: Would want? Would you want to talk about today?
Speaker 2: Well, hmm, let's talk about Huh. I don't know, I
Speaker 2: forget I guess I kind of feel like I'm in
Speaker 2: the I'm in limbo right now. You know, I've been
Speaker 2: I got out of college about a year ago. Uh,
Speaker 2: I'm I'm in Ohio. Was born in Ohio, raised in Ohio,
Speaker 2: with the college in Ohio. Now I'm working in Ohio
Speaker 2: and I'm kind of just you know, doing enough to
Speaker 2: pay my bills and get by, but nothing really crazy
Speaker 2: has been going on.
Speaker 1: Do you desire for more crazy things to be going on?
Speaker 2: I want to travel more, like I got this. I got.
Speaker 2: I live with a roommate and he's traveling like all
Speaker 2: the time, like every month. He's like, Oh, I'm going
Speaker 2: to I'm going to a national park. I'm going to Minnesota,
Speaker 2: I'm going to Michigan, I'm going to go kayaking and Arizona.
Speaker 2: And I'm like, well, shit, I want to do that, but.
Speaker 1: I well, you know, is it a financial thing.
Speaker 2: It's such financial thing mostly.
Speaker 1: You know you so you grew up in Ohio, you
Speaker 1: went to college in Ohio, and you have a job
Speaker 1: in Ohio.
Speaker 2: Yeah? Yeah?
Speaker 4: Is it?
Speaker 1: Is it a good job?
Speaker 4: Uh?
Speaker 2: Yeah, it's pretty interesting. Actually I do. Uh, I do
Speaker 2: background investigations for the the Fed. Mister Biden, do.
Speaker 1: They pay you sufficiently?
Speaker 2: Well, the thing is it's my first year and they
Speaker 2: they like sponsored the stuff, so they're paying me low
Speaker 2: for the first year, but hopefully I will be getting
Speaker 2: paid more after this year.
Speaker 1: Are you making are you are you making enough that
Speaker 1: you can save?
Speaker 2: Uh?
Speaker 4: Kin?
Speaker 2: I am now at the point. Yes, I've recently uh
Speaker 2: did some financial magic.
Speaker 1: What is your roommate? What's your roommate do for a living?
Speaker 2: He's a server, you'd just be uh. He's sorts really
Speaker 2: good Italian food. But so it's like he got like
Speaker 2: his college all paid for okay mostly, and I did
Speaker 2: not act.
Speaker 1: So you have you have, you have debt and he's not.
Speaker 2: Yeah yeah, mm hmmm.
Speaker 1: Well where do you want to go?
Speaker 4: Oh?
Speaker 2: I want to go to I really want to go
Speaker 2: see the Grand Canyon. I really want to see the
Speaker 2: Grand Canyon. I want to go camping, and I want
Speaker 2: to kayak in the Grand Canyon. That's I want to
Speaker 2: see that great crack so bad.
Speaker 1: How much would it cost to go to the Grand Canyon?
Speaker 2: I don't know.
Speaker 1: See, that's that's my That's what that's that's where'm gonna
Speaker 1: that's where IM gonna stop you is because at least you, like,
Speaker 1: before you say that you can't do this thing, you
Speaker 1: should at least know how much you should at least
Speaker 1: look into it, you know what I mean? Yeah, Like,
Speaker 1: how are you, like, how are you gonna know whether
Speaker 1: or not you could afford to do something if you
Speaker 1: don't even know how much the thing costs to do.
Speaker 1: That's true because you because a lot of these because
Speaker 1: a lot of these things you can look into and
Speaker 1: realize that it. Sure, it's you're not gonna get there
Speaker 1: for free, and you will obviously have to save, but
Speaker 1: it's could be way less than you thought it was.
Speaker 1: Whereas to just say, oh, it's probably too expensive and
Speaker 1: I'm never gonna be able to go is can be
Speaker 1: kind of defeatist.
Speaker 2: That's true. That's yeah. I think that's just like my mindset,
Speaker 2: I guess, like growing up with my family, because they
Speaker 2: were always like like our vacations were like, let's go
Speaker 2: to Pennsylvania and see Grandpa Grandma and sure like the
Speaker 2: first time I ever got on a plane was like
Speaker 2: when I got this job and they flew me out
Speaker 2: to like go train and I was like, this is
Speaker 2: so cool. Oh my god, they give you a peanuts
Speaker 2: and water. This is crazy. But that's that's true, so true.
Speaker 1: I just here's the thing, man, is, if you're you're
Speaker 1: in Ohio, and you want to travel and you've never
Speaker 1: been out before. You know, you have a job. It's
Speaker 1: a bummer to have student debt. But like if I
Speaker 1: were you, I would just go on the internet and
Speaker 1: like figure out how much it costs to do these
Speaker 1: things and then like, like have you done the math
Speaker 1: of like how much you have to save and all that.
Speaker 2: Lately, I've been recovering my savings because my car like
Speaker 2: died this summer, right, and I've just I bought a
Speaker 2: car like out right, so my savings just like demolished,
Speaker 2: and I've been trying to build a back up. And
Speaker 2: then my cat just got sip sick this weekend and
Speaker 2: I just spent, like, man, I just I think I
Speaker 2: spent like thirteen hundred dollars in two days on her.
Speaker 2: That's okay, because I love her and she's great and
Speaker 2: she's pretty cool even though she's got any legs.
Speaker 1: Sounds like a nice cat.
Speaker 2: Nah, she's evil, but cool.
Speaker 1: Well look, man, yeah, that's that that That's That's all
Speaker 1: I would say, is just like some do some math
Speaker 1: on it. You'll get you if you do some math
Speaker 1: on it, you'll eventually get to go.
Speaker 3: Hell.
Speaker 2: Yeah, Okay, I think I'll take a look at the
Speaker 2: great crack.
Speaker 1: Is the Is there anything else you want to say
Speaker 1: to the people of the computer before we go? Cliente.
Speaker 2: Oh well, I hope everyone has a great day, and
Speaker 2: I hope everyone has a great Thanksgiving, and I hope
Speaker 2: everyone has a good further holiday venture.
Speaker 1: Good luck, Clyde. I hope, I hope you see the
Speaker 1: Grand Canyon. I hope you don't fall in. There's a
Speaker 1: lot of people who fall in.
Speaker 2: Nah, no, no, thank you, all.
Speaker 1: Right, see you, Clyde, see you get beacon goes on
Speaker 1: the line making your phone calls.
Speaker 2: Every night.
Speaker 1: Every beacon goes to what his im just teaching you,
Speaker 1: Cloud in the memory. Life's not mean.