Speaker 1: Guess what decision. We're about to make a horrible decision
Speaker 1: and we're live back again w xl R Media or
Speaker 1: or Black Effect, I Heart Radio or the actual one
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Speaker 1: actually you know, Welcome to another episode. You know, Uh,
Speaker 1: what's up y'all to see Graham Mandy b a k
Speaker 1: A full court cap ok, because I was on Live
Speaker 1: today and I was just letting them know how i'd
Speaker 1: be lying. And it's because I've been acting like I'm
Speaker 1: singing on this show, but I'm really not and I'm
Speaker 1: in love. And that's also just no full court cap
Speaker 1: back at it again, I mean, because you know, I
Speaker 1: thought it was more entertaining to come in with story.
Speaker 1: We are interstaining and there you have it. We have
Speaker 1: to press still. Um, that's why biennis here. I didn't
Speaker 1: reply back for twenty four hours, and I think, did
Speaker 1: you Oh no, this asshole texting me at five am
Speaker 1: one day and said, well, hopefully you're not dead well
Speaker 1: down because she hadn't texted me for a full twenty
Speaker 1: and she never does that. So then I looked at
Speaker 1: where her location when she was at home, so I said,
Speaker 1: hopefully you're not dead. And then the next day, when
Speaker 1: I didn't hear anything, I was like, I'm coming tomorrow.
Speaker 1: That's what's up. Yeah, hi, yo, it's me Benny. Not
Speaker 1: really depressed. But are wait are you single? Now? I'm
Speaker 1: single and very horny. Damn uh So I saw your
Speaker 1: little Field whatever whatever the other day and then I
Speaker 1: hopped on that the hetero flexible men are Yeah. I
Speaker 1: got tired of Grinder girl. Wait wait wait wait, so
Speaker 1: what's the difference in the men from Grinder because because
Speaker 1: Field has everyone but waits everyone right? Oh no, you
Speaker 1: ain't on there. Up. We're trying to get I'm trying
Speaker 1: to know. I had a three with Jeeves. Wait what
Speaker 1: I'm trying to I'm trying to do some new things.
Speaker 1: I am mad at it. I am not mad at
Speaker 1: it three And just have you ever had an MMF
Speaker 1: three song? No? I wanted to, Yes, I wanted um
Speaker 1: because you know, people think I've never said with wine before,
Speaker 1: and I have. So I don't know. I don't know
Speaker 1: if there's a lot of new things happening inside this
Speaker 1: body that I'm not really like what baby, I'm craving
Speaker 1: for pus. There's a little happening. Are you. Are you
Speaker 1: swiping in Boston? Are you swiping here? I'm swiping here too,
Speaker 1: I'm are you swiping every swiping in my current location?
Speaker 1: I don't hey, is anyone in here swiped? No? We
Speaker 1: had Who was it the dude that dropped off the peloton? Yeah?
Speaker 1: Then he said, let me jump on grinder and see.
Speaker 1: No you didn't girl. First of all, he walked with
Speaker 1: grace help pants. So where are my eyes going? I
Speaker 1: ain't gonna hold you. So y'all don't know it yet.
Speaker 1: Y'all are here the announcement We're about to do live shows,
Speaker 1: and I was thinking, if how are we're going to
Speaker 1: have some sort of interaction because normally we do lack dances,
Speaker 1: we do things where they interact with us. But I
Speaker 1: was thinking, maybe we buy three pairs of great sweatpants
Speaker 1: and get three men from the audience to change into
Speaker 1: them and dangle the Dana lings on stage. I am here,
Speaker 1: and whoever wins the Great Sweatpants competition, it gets like
Speaker 1: a free shirt or something. But I bet you they
Speaker 1: get laid at the end of the show too. They
Speaker 1: get somebody, but you don't think would do They'll hit
Speaker 1: three guys to do it. You don't. Yes, do you
Speaker 1: see I think we would see it. Maybe not l
Speaker 1: A because they a little bouge out there, but I
Speaker 1: think on the East Coast them Nigga's gonna be in
Speaker 1: they sweatpants and we're gonna do it in November. They're
Speaker 1: gonna be chili. They're gonna take free bear sweat. You
Speaker 1: know what they mean? The blue horrible decisions that or no,
Speaker 1: we we could just get Alix to make some gray
Speaker 1: ones and we had them play name motherfucking Day went
Speaker 1: on genuine Pony and have them just dude like, I'm here, yes,
Speaker 1: please right thinking? You know what. I need some enjoyment.
Speaker 1: I need a little I missed doing. Uh. I will
Speaker 1: tell you this. I've had this idea and I think
Speaker 1: I texted it to Mandy and it must have been
Speaker 1: a machame of me back. It's like a month ago.
Speaker 1: I went to Andrews show and they did a song
Speaker 1: at the end and we had some we had girls
Speaker 1: got to eat here last week and they were talking
Speaker 1: about how they did a dance. I said, we need
Speaker 1: to come out to Welcome to Jocelyn Y. Everything will
Speaker 1: be for a field, not for film. It's film. It's
Speaker 1: for feral. You can see my face for fal No.
Speaker 1: But I was doing might be and we can have
Speaker 1: to do it like baby, you gotta learn choreography. We do,
Speaker 1: gotta learn choreograph. If we could do if you're gonna
Speaker 1: be on story with us, you're gonna come do it
Speaker 1: with us. You know I will how how bad you
Speaker 1: need and then we'll have the girls come up, try
Speaker 1: to do it like this. There be day and then
Speaker 1: we would hit who win. Yeah, maybe Joscelyn will come
Speaker 1: to one of the and she's gonna call you stupid bitches,
Speaker 1: stupid bitch. I've been doing this ship for tay motherfucking decades.
Speaker 1: That produces that. Listen that second part of the reunion,
Speaker 1: that was some help. I'm not gonna lie the reunion
Speaker 1: with somebody. They was falling asleep. You didn't want the count.
Speaker 1: I watched the first part, but then the second part
Speaker 1: I was depressed and that didn't help. So I was like,
Speaker 1: oh no, I think this bitch is yelling at me.
Speaker 1: Let me stop. Let me tell you how to know
Speaker 1: the reunion is bad. Nina was sleep and Johnson of
Speaker 1: Streaming and dogs Bro, they was sleep. Anyway, let's do
Speaker 1: some ice creapers, even though many of you know Vinny, Um,
Speaker 1: he is my best friend. He's been doing our tours
Speaker 1: for the last two years. I don't know, maybe three.
Speaker 1: You probably met him stopped. Last year has been three.
Speaker 1: It's been like three years, um, And he works on
Speaker 1: our patreons. You guys shot with him there and yeah,
Speaker 1: so if y'all got your Patreon merch, is this nigga right,
Speaker 1: they'd be getting it. Y'all be getting it. You know what,
Speaker 1: y'all don't do check your fucking inboxes because I'll be
Speaker 1: right in y'all. And I get responses three months later
Speaker 1: like where the where's my ship? Where's your addressed bitch?
Speaker 1: Where's your size hole? Don't be mad at me when
Speaker 1: you haven't fulfilled the requirements? Okay, really quick celebrity crush.
Speaker 1: But a male all, Um, I said, what have been?
Speaker 1: I can't say? Sean con uh right now? It's I
Speaker 1: watch a lot of crimes. I forgot his name. Really,
Speaker 1: I've been watching all criminal I was. Really, he's not
Speaker 1: even a good actor. Girl, who's watching it? For that?
Speaker 1: You watched for criminals? Go to sleep? Yeah, well, my
Speaker 1: man is jealous of mine. He called him Jason Mimosa
Speaker 1: and I was like, now you know that's not his
Speaker 1: goddamn man. Did y'all see that video man with him?
Speaker 1: And let me say, they looked so well. Now that
Speaker 1: they look good to get, I put it on mute
Speaker 1: and just let it play. That's it for y'all, y'all
Speaker 1: to do one of motherfucking Kenya's movies so I could
Speaker 1: be like, I would love to learn a bit about
Speaker 1: video production. I just talk to say, I just want
Speaker 1: to see it listen, And he looked like it's heavy too.
Speaker 1: It's all heavy. Loan came out and watch man, was
Speaker 1: that a real penis? Well, I can't say that. Yeah,
Speaker 1: Yas came out and he's, oh, for real, it's like
Speaker 1: his real dick, I hope. So he was Mr. Wonderfuler,
Speaker 1: so I know who he was. I just watched the clip. Alright,
Speaker 1: celebrity crush female our woman. Excuse me? Uh, it's like
Speaker 1: Angela Bassett loky. Okay, you people you like Social Security, y'all, y'all,
Speaker 1: listen to an episode in January. I forgot you like
Speaker 1: niggas Like, but I'm still on. I'm will you do, like,
Speaker 1: let's get one. Have you ever shot on a dick
Speaker 1: we all have. Yeah, I haven't because you only let
Speaker 1: the head get in your bad Ambijing. I haven't. What's
Speaker 1: the whole cheft getting it might come out? I know,
Speaker 1: well lately I've been jumping into my little version. I
Speaker 1: know we'll talk about it. Have you had on your
Speaker 1: dick and to the point where it was so bad
Speaker 1: you were to tell someone? I don't care. I fucked
Speaker 1: people in the ass, like accidents happening. I just have
Speaker 1: a tower. Baby's next to bed, and I say, don't
Speaker 1: worry about it. Have you seen blood? Yes, because my
Speaker 1: dick is large. Have you seen a lot of bloods
Speaker 1: before we were scared? I haven't seen a lot of blood,
Speaker 1: but I've seen some blood. And then I was like,
Speaker 1: maybe we should just like not for a little bit
Speaker 1: and maybe a couple of days, try again. You definitely
Speaker 1: gotta let it go a couple of days and they're glad.
Speaker 1: That means something and tour you know, we didn't use
Speaker 1: enough flube or somebody was feeling like a jackhammer me. Oh,
Speaker 1: I said you before I knew how to you know?
Speaker 1: Now since we last saw you, what's been new with
Speaker 1: your penis and your love? Um? So I'm single officially
Speaker 1: stopped talking to that motherfucker. But you've been like working
Speaker 1: with some of our fans. I feel like, was that
Speaker 1: supposed to be all air? You fucking are fans? Damn
Speaker 1: y'all really are friends game banging the fans? Wow? Wow,
Speaker 1: I'm gonna talk about it. Yeah, they're listening though right now? Right, yeah,
Speaker 1: they probably are. Okay, Um, there's like two of them.
Speaker 1: You met them at the live shows? No, uh, you
Speaker 1: know who one of them is? And I can say
Speaker 1: I don't even care the one who was like, I'm whre,
Speaker 1: I'm a hard it's such a hard episode. We want
Speaker 1: your people that send this homemails. I mean I feel
Speaker 1: like that's oh, y'all men in person? We should have
Speaker 1: outsing the song outside of San friand Okay, are you
Speaker 1: definitely go? I was ready for that. Is that going
Speaker 1: to be the one where when he's like can we
Speaker 1: get I was like, can we get super rooms? I'm
Speaker 1: being a little busy, um, and I've been interviewing for
Speaker 1: real jobs in life. Um, and I've also should we
Speaker 1: have them? Should we scout them out right now? Yea?
Speaker 1: He wants to be a sky a wage frist what's
Speaker 1: the sky waitress? You want a beverage? Do you want
Speaker 1: to be safe in the Delta's hiring? You already did
Speaker 1: it through the through the turning out, but we need
Speaker 1: you to get this gal. Friends, we need to get
Speaker 1: definitely listen. I'm a platinum Scott Miles as bitch, but
Speaker 1: a bit want to be Diamond Diamond. I got that
Speaker 1: platinum quick and then I was like, we have to
Speaker 1: do the good time. It's been a quarter minute. I
Speaker 1: was about to say I'm two hundred three thousand dollars
Speaker 1: away from being Diamond. Said it's not gonna happen. It's
Speaker 1: not gonna happen. And I whenever I see them Diamond
Speaker 1: members on, I'd be like, damn they rich what I'm doing? Um?
Speaker 1: And I've been um uh, I've been getting uh fuck
Speaker 1: like me like I'm I'm like verse light verse light
Speaker 1: verse light so like I normally and recently I have
Speaker 1: like a lawyer friend. We've been talking for a couple
Speaker 1: of years and the other night man Costamka was flowing
Speaker 1: and I said, he called your ass at home. He
Speaker 1: did call my eyes at home. He actually was waiting
Speaker 1: for me outside of my house when I left the
Speaker 1: club because I went to a show and baby, it's
Speaker 1: that Ivy Pike Rodeo B And ever since, I've been
Speaker 1: really enjoying that. I really Uh, I've heard like there's
Speaker 1: like no really true tops anymore? Is that true? I
Speaker 1: mean it might be like even when I watched porn,
Speaker 1: all the ones that used to be topping the funk
Speaker 1: out of everybody be taking it now. Well for me,
Speaker 1: it's like I just kind of wanted to explore and
Speaker 1: just see if, like maybe I didn't like it when
Speaker 1: I was younger because I had like some you know,
Speaker 1: you know year and so now that we're a little
Speaker 1: older now, it's just I was like, is this a tickle?
Speaker 1: Does this feel good? Take it? Um? I almost said
Speaker 1: his name, lawyer Bay is like seven and a half.
Speaker 1: Oh that's good. But the girth is given it, it's giving.
Speaker 1: I want you all to also know this is this
Speaker 1: is his lawyer Bay, not my lawyer, Bay. Lawyer, you're
Speaker 1: a lawyer Bay. Yes, we should define it by the
Speaker 1: law kind of yours do. Um. I don't know what security,
Speaker 1: but mine is the one that also lives in d C.
Speaker 1: Got it. It's so today's vanilla ship. I really love
Speaker 1: there is a man who married his sex doll. Wow,
Speaker 1: this was quite some time ago. His name is Yuri Chico,
Speaker 1: who faint infamously married his specifically designed sex all for him,
Speaker 1: Margot last November in a wedding ceremony. There was dozens
Speaker 1: of guests, now dozens of guests people, So maybe let's
Speaker 1: say thirty. There ain't no way people came to a
Speaker 1: wedding with a doll. Now, no, no, no, oh, I
Speaker 1: with a do Niga November. It's COVID. Wouldn't you go
Speaker 1: if somebody did you you gotta see it. A train
Speaker 1: is crash and you won't want to know. You know
Speaker 1: who was there? Everyone from the crazy house, the person
Speaker 1: who administers his medication, his therapist, the person who puts
Speaker 1: him a straight jacket. That's who I just like likespend
Speaker 1: money to go see my friend get get married to
Speaker 1: a doll. Said yes, they have a new found love.
Speaker 1: Now that okay. He has fallen in love with someone
Speaker 1: else and a giant ash tray he wants to adorn
Speaker 1: with an artificial vagina. Hold on, he love in love
Speaker 1: with ashtray. He went from adult to ashtray. Now where
Speaker 1: did the pan sexual thirty six year old at the club,
Speaker 1: of course. Although the proudly bulged social media star from
Speaker 1: Kazakhstan noticed the ashtray from a while ago at the club,
Speaker 1: he claimed it was only when he arranged a photo
Speaker 1: shoot with the butt receptacle during a paid personal appearance
Speaker 1: at the venue and he discovered at the venue he
Speaker 1: had feelings for it. So, um, yeah, this is a
Speaker 1: picture of him with the giant astray. It's one of
Speaker 1: the ones who can dump a cigarette in with him.
Speaker 1: You know, it's crazy. He's kind of cute and he's
Speaker 1: in love with an ashtray. I have a special passion
Speaker 1: for objects. They've always been alive, but they've always been
Speaker 1: alive with me since childhood, he claims. They're certainly not
Speaker 1: the same of a person. They're different feelings. This is
Speaker 1: akin to how a violinist can love his violin. I
Speaker 1: liked it. I like the smell of it, the touch
Speaker 1: of metal on my skin. It's fantastic, he proudly declared.
Speaker 1: I like on my skin. It excites me. So I
Speaker 1: think you can understand what attracts me to this as
Speaker 1: straight now. Although he met his new love while he
Speaker 1: was a strange from his wife, Margot, the doll whom
Speaker 1: his marital bond was reportedly broken sometime last year. Is
Speaker 1: this the best mellow ship we've ever had? Yes? Now?
Speaker 1: He also claimed he's been dating his astraight for a
Speaker 1: couple of months now, and while his new love, um
Speaker 1: how is older a j nothing but a number Okay,
Speaker 1: he generally likes things of history. I love that this
Speaker 1: is not a new ashtray. It's had contact with a
Speaker 1: really large number of people. Y'all actually have things in common.
Speaker 1: You might come a little aged as well. Um, and
Speaker 1: also this might fall in near Oh so, y'all just
Speaker 1: gonna plame me left the right, He says, it helps
Speaker 1: him satisfy a one secret fetish for dirty stuff. What
Speaker 1: we're talking a moment? Oh, when I hugged it, I
Speaker 1: pulled out cigarette bucks, cigarette packs, all type of stuff,
Speaker 1: and I liked it when the ashes stained my bare feet,
Speaker 1: my body and beard. Damn that's him. Oh, nigga, Oh
Speaker 1: he's beautiful. He is fine. I'm might. My mind is crazy.
Speaker 1: Ain't nobody got time for that. I might put up
Speaker 1: with it. You might put up with what you don't
Speaker 1: bearing ash tray on you with an look. It could
Speaker 1: be right there. That's it. Oh, you gotta see him.
Speaker 1: You don't want to get mad. I'm you might like it. Yeah,
Speaker 1: that's gonna be just because he fell hard and fast.
Speaker 1: He's not expecting the ashtray to give up their hard
Speaker 1: earned career. He says, I want to bring this ashtray home,
Speaker 1: but it has to continue work in the smoking room,
Speaker 1: and after all, this is what I like. So he
Speaker 1: don't even say the ashtray home. He must go to
Speaker 1: this club then every day to have you know what.
Speaker 1: Just now, look, he's not ruling out taking the ashtray
Speaker 1: to the girlfriend's stage, but he maybe plans to replenish
Speaker 1: his harem of people. Okay, so he's planning to take
Speaker 1: the big plunge by gifting his ashtray with an artificial
Speaker 1: sex riface orifice, sorry, orrifice. I couldn't get out of
Speaker 1: my mouth. I think the vagina can be placed in
Speaker 1: the tube, and the tube can be placed in around
Speaker 1: whole where the cigarettes are thrown. So meanwhile, the man
Speaker 1: that's likely turned a million stomachs with his globally viral
Speaker 1: Shenanigan stress that he does engage in sexual intercourse with
Speaker 1: humans sometimes, but he just prefers objects more frequently. So
Speaker 1: what what what was this king called us? It's a
Speaker 1: It's a paraphilia, which is commonly defined as a condition
Speaker 1: characterized by abnormal desires. I'm really trying to find this
Speaker 1: paraphile gallamatophilia kink where you have action to statues, dolls, mannekins,
Speaker 1: or body shaped objects. Um. Now, the paraphilia spectrum for
Speaker 1: object sexuality widens the net to include people who developed
Speaker 1: deep emotional feelings. Um. He has an Instagram. Um. And
Speaker 1: I'll be honest. We don't do zoom guests, but I
Speaker 1: would love to meet this niggah. Let me follow him. Wow,
Speaker 1: that nigga is hot. Um Um. I cannot, I cannot,
Speaker 1: I can. Oh my god, Oh my god. He's got
Speaker 1: a picture with the ashtray. Look at him. I cannot
Speaker 1: just look at him. Okay, but he's fine, he's quite,
Speaker 1: so I don't know. Look at him with a hole.
Speaker 1: It's giving Maybe. No, I am't gonna lie. You know.
Speaker 1: I would watch, Oh, look at him with his dog.
Speaker 1: You wouldn't watch Luna. I would watch Oh wait, I
Speaker 1: thought it was Margo. He'd be cheating niggas, even cheating
Speaker 1: on object bro niggas ate ship. You can not only
Speaker 1: do y'all cheat on people. You stitt here, cheating object.
Speaker 1: You got Luna Margo in the ash tray, Like what
Speaker 1: the fun? And then he can't keep his digging his
Speaker 1: pants to save his motherfucker's Instagram look for science for
Speaker 1: research research purposes only. Um, that is ridiculous. Oh my god,
Speaker 1: let me see. He's so anyway onto the horder of
Speaker 1: which you are not gonna be happy about. But let's
Speaker 1: just dig into it a little bit. What do you
Speaker 1: tell me a day or two ago? Oh you're fucking
Speaker 1: trash wid okay at my phone down? Yeah? So god,
Speaker 1: we do you have to it's not the big um
Speaker 1: so the other yeah, so you know how I told you, Like,
Speaker 1: I've been into this verse light situation. So the other
Speaker 1: day I've been taking my like metamso my fiber and
Speaker 1: I've been you know, changing up the way I eat
Speaker 1: and so it's leading to like really healthy ship movements.
Speaker 1: The other day, I was just like pre coming the
Speaker 1: whole time. You were pre coming while you were shooting
Speaker 1: the whole time, like the entire time. So you were
Speaker 1: aroused while you were taking a ship or were you
Speaker 1: squeezing so hard. I think it's because it was hitting
Speaker 1: my prostate on the way out that I was getting aroused,
Speaker 1: because literally it was just like pre coming, just like
Speaker 1: so I found an article. I don't know if you're
Speaker 1: actually aroused by it or not. I don't come. It's
Speaker 1: actually like a thing. It's called a eure thrill discharge.
Speaker 1: So I googled it while you were watching drag Race
Speaker 1: this morning. The thing is I was trying to mind
Speaker 1: my business. I should have been a well. Medically speaking,
Speaker 1: it's called a urethrial discharge and it's um. A director
Speaker 1: at a urology um division at n y U said
Speaker 1: it's because directum sits adjacent to the prostate and constipation.
Speaker 1: It induced pressure in the rectum can cause pressure on
Speaker 1: the prostate and give you the fluid which isn't semen,
Speaker 1: also known as pre come so men. There's a guy
Speaker 1: they spoke to who said it really freaked me out.
Speaker 1: I didn't say anything to anyone about it. I did
Speaker 1: look it up online. It's did it happened to some people?
Speaker 1: But I was like, oh my god, this is like
Speaker 1: not a full bone, but bust. But it feels good.
Speaker 1: Definitely my best it's gonna be if coming is like
Speaker 1: a really good neckpop after a long day, just to relaxing,
Speaker 1: feeling a flaccid poop jizing this is this is gonna
Speaker 1: send a lot of just let me tell you all,
Speaker 1: I was just taking a dump and I just looked
Speaker 1: down and my ship was pretty coming. Okay. I didn't
Speaker 1: delve into the feelings. I didn't try to figure out
Speaker 1: what was going on. I was just like, oh, this
Speaker 1: is different, and this is so this is the first
Speaker 1: time you felt it like that, what happens here and there?
Speaker 1: Know it happens here and there. It happens here, and
Speaker 1: now I should come on shitty orgasm. Come, oh, this
Speaker 1: is very messy. It's not that bad. It's for everyone
Speaker 1: that poop play, y'all. I swear I was just taking it, don't.
Speaker 1: I mean, this is where it starts. So anyway, absolutely,
Speaker 1: look Mandy pistol on a nigger first, and now I'm
Speaker 1: never gonna shoot on nobody. I don't know what we
Speaker 1: were talking about, but I I mean, peeing is different, like, yeah,
Speaker 1: I didn't, I don't told you. You've been there, done that.
Speaker 1: Now I don't piss on somebody. And I got pete
Speaker 1: and I actually asked for it. I was drunk, goes,
Speaker 1: I'm gonna blame that too. Bit yeah it was my man.
Speaker 1: Like I was like sitting on the toilet piss and
Speaker 1: and I was like, I said, just just on the
Speaker 1: mighty day. I was like this, but it don't want
Speaker 1: be I d p O. But yeah, now I'm cool
Speaker 1: with a little piss. Now there are people that are
Speaker 1: having peagasms. Okay, that happened to me. So here's what
Speaker 1: the T is. This woman says she's never purposely held
Speaker 1: her p for the sake of pleasure, but she's had
Speaker 1: held her yarine because you know, she was about to
Speaker 1: pee somewhere in the car or whatever, and literally when
Speaker 1: it escaped, she had a pea gasm. It felt so
Speaker 1: good to pee. It wasn't an orgasm, but it was
Speaker 1: a sensation like a full body orgasm, and she experienced
Speaker 1: piste shivers, pistol shivers. I felt really good after what
Speaker 1: I held me because I was like, oh, I'm not
Speaker 1: gonna get a u T. I thank God, Like I
Speaker 1: have been so grateful to piss because I held it
Speaker 1: for so long. That's it. It's feel good to the
Speaker 1: other day during my like weekly ho escapade. The guy
Speaker 1: came over and we were like frauding, so we were
Speaker 1: like rubbing up against each other. Oh, I see naked,
Speaker 1: and like he looted up his dick and we were
Speaker 1: like rubbing back and forth, and he had a male
Speaker 1: squirt on me. What's so basically it feels like he's coming,
Speaker 1: but it's pe coming out. Had changed my whole fucking mattress.
Speaker 1: Bitch wow, because like it's just it's it's an explosion
Speaker 1: and pretty much you take your you got banana. Oh yeah,
Speaker 1: So like if you if you take like the top
Speaker 1: of your penis or whatever. Apparently if you rubbed the
Speaker 1: head like this, I've done that before. You rub it
Speaker 1: like this continually, it's a sensation that will bring on
Speaker 1: male squirting. Oh y'all need to wash these. You have
Speaker 1: not seen this? Do we should? We have a podcast? Wait?
Speaker 1: What do you talk about? The penis and you put
Speaker 1: you it's freakome or it's p. It's technically p, but
Speaker 1: it feels like you're coming. It's male squirt, but male
Speaker 1: squirtection male squirt. We ain't gonna call it squirt. And
Speaker 1: it's alright. You put your put your dick in your
Speaker 1: hand and then you rub, you rub your palm open
Speaker 1: on your head in a circular motion and you just
Speaker 1: keep going, keep going, keep going, and that will produce
Speaker 1: male squirt. Did he warn you first? Was this something
Speaker 1: that was discussed prior? It wasn't something that was discussed.
Speaker 1: So were you upset? That was a big man. You
Speaker 1: were upset? But you know why I wasn't. I was
Speaker 1: only upset because I had just like washed all my sheets.
Speaker 1: I had just washed like the mattress pad, like I
Speaker 1: had just washed everything and I had to do it
Speaker 1: all again. That was the only reason why I was
Speaker 1: like a little upset. But other than that, I was like, actually,
Speaker 1: that was a really good hord dirt that we didn't
Speaker 1: know about. Yeah, I ain't, so maybe we just do
Speaker 1: like the you just do like this. Yeah, but that
Speaker 1: is something I want. So I go to YouTube, go
Speaker 1: to you with two what's the time? Sam tells the times,
Speaker 1: samp what to YouTube, and it just these things is
Speaker 1: about to click what's the time? Stamp minutes you gonna
Speaker 1: see the most and it's like it shoots across the
Speaker 1: room like it's a lot. Now I do want to
Speaker 1: make mention to one thing before we get into the
Speaker 1: harbor decision with when it comes to like when you
Speaker 1: were saying how you thought you were getting turned on
Speaker 1: from shooting even though you did pre come you can
Speaker 1: get turned on. It says that the vegas nerves badges.
Speaker 1: Excuse me, I said vegas. I looked at v A
Speaker 1: G and I was like, oh, like vague, never mind.
Speaker 1: The Vadges nerve is one of the longest and most
Speaker 1: complex cranial nerves that transmits information from the brain to
Speaker 1: the tissues and organs throughout the body. And when the
Speaker 1: nerve is hit by a big, large herd, it causes
Speaker 1: a drop in blood flow, which leads to a lowered
Speaker 1: heart rate, blood pressure, blood flow to the brain, and
Speaker 1: it will cause a high slash sense of euphoria while peeping.
Speaker 1: If you think of the number of people who enjoy
Speaker 1: anal sex, it makes sense that if there is enjoyment
Speaker 1: with an object going into the anus, there's a chance
Speaker 1: for pleasure when it is escaping. Yeah, boom shaka, everything
Speaker 1: in Flacca. You didn't know, but I'm sorry, I'm the
Speaker 1: only blue. I have you staying here? Oh? Have you
Speaker 1: read day Beyonce? Today? Um? All right, accidental orgasms. Have
Speaker 1: you ever accidentally come? We have? I have a wet
Speaker 1: dream every once in a while. I don't think I've
Speaker 1: accidentally come. I've accidentally come kissing a lot of always
Speaker 1: women come to fast because I'm just so like the
Speaker 1: senses are like a lot. I've never had premature ejaculation either,
Speaker 1: So you never had free come, no premature ejaculation, were
Speaker 1: like and then you were done. That's not that makes sense.
Speaker 1: That's not my ministry. I don't think it is friends
Speaker 1: because you're really good at like your sex game. In
Speaker 1: your bag. Oh no, I'm in my mother bad. You
Speaker 1: watched a video of me yesterday and I felt really proud.
Speaker 1: Who you have to be impressed? I was, and I
Speaker 1: knew I was going in and I said, Oh, it's
Speaker 1: funny because when the video starts, you see me going
Speaker 1: like I said, I have to get this one more.
Speaker 1: Did it like it's his day? Okay. Here's the ways
Speaker 1: that women have had accidental orgasms. So there are many
Speaker 1: articles online devoted how hard it is for women to
Speaker 1: reach orgasms. But the funny thing is ad workouts are
Speaker 1: a way that women have been having accidents of orgasms
Speaker 1: called co orgasm basically when nuts that hurts and not
Speaker 1: the good pain of women experience orgasms from physical activity,
Speaker 1: which almost makes you want to work out. The top
Speaker 1: pleasure generator in this category called the captain's chair, which
Speaker 1: you may know if you hit up the gym, and basically,
Speaker 1: isn't that when you do this and you're like that
Speaker 1: ship doesn't feel good? But I'm trying to see if
Speaker 1: I can come. But I think it's because you're squeezing
Speaker 1: your pigs would make that won't make sense. Honestly, that's
Speaker 1: the only workout that I do or I feel really hard.
Speaker 1: But even when I do keegles, I need to do
Speaker 1: kiggles with a dickensigned me to feel something good. Like
Speaker 1: I love doing keeggles with a dick inside me. I
Speaker 1: mean that's it feels so good. I'll be like squeezing
Speaker 1: it with my squeeze. I'd be like squeezing. Come, ladies,
Speaker 1: if you have it yet when it did go inside you,
Speaker 1: just squeezing. If you don't know how to squeeze, clinch
Speaker 1: your ass, that's like the cheek coldes to doing your
Speaker 1: little keegles and bitch when a man can feel you
Speaker 1: squeezing his dick from the inside. Oh well, got them speaks.
Speaker 1: Most women that do keegles are trying to strengthen the
Speaker 1: pelvic floor, but they actually end up having orgasms while
Speaker 1: doing keegels because it's heightening everything around their vagina um.
Speaker 1: And by the way, men you can do with keegel
Speaker 1: um flex to. That's when you make your jick jump.
Speaker 1: That's also the keegeles. Horse back writing, it sounds like
Speaker 1: it's out of a Roman's novel, but apparently it's true.
Speaker 1: Women are reporting having orgasms they bounced around on a big,
Speaker 1: hulking animal and see what I mean, saking, I've almost
Speaker 1: felt it. First of I don't even biking biking, No,
Speaker 1: my ass hurts, like even when we used to do
Speaker 1: spin it makes my ass hurt. And then if I'm
Speaker 1: sitting riding a horse, I don't even like writing dick.
Speaker 1: So I'm definitely not gonna be turned off. No, not
Speaker 1: not doing that for me. Sorry, it's it's not doing
Speaker 1: anything committed relationships. This one is fucking hilarious. So there
Speaker 1: are a number of studies out there to back this up.
Speaker 1: Twenty four thou college students about women had an orgasm
Speaker 1: during their casual encounters seventy nine percent of women had
Speaker 1: an orgasm in committed relationships, and their last time they
Speaker 1: had an orgasm was in a committed relationship. So women
Speaker 1: are literally having orgasms because we're so emotional. That's exactly
Speaker 1: what I was about to say. Like a lot of
Speaker 1: a lot of women don't come as much with casual
Speaker 1: sex unless you just sucking a nigga because his dick
Speaker 1: is really good. Yea, Like when I was working seven,
Speaker 1: Like clearly the dick was just a fucking one. But
Speaker 1: now now if I look back at all that time
Speaker 1: sucking him and with the dick, I'm getting now leaps
Speaker 1: and bounds ahead of what that casual condom dick was
Speaker 1: because like you know your your your guard is down
Speaker 1: because you're trusting. Which is funny because some people have
Speaker 1: their guard down when they don't know someone because they're like,
Speaker 1: oh they won't judge me, or people don't want to
Speaker 1: know that part. Now that part biking is one. Um.
Speaker 1: There's actually several different activities that associated with exercise induced
Speaker 1: orgasms called e i O. Not just ad work bicycling,
Speaker 1: bicycling clocks and at effective if you hop on and
Speaker 1: ride motorcycles and other vibrating things, um, amusement park ride, speedboats,
Speaker 1: anything else that's bumpy. Um. That's why do says second
Speaker 1: naked dickassay e A, Oh you don't remember that in
Speaker 1: move bit. I don't think that was first. I don't
Speaker 1: think it was for that. I think it was for
Speaker 1: the e I oh like a farm. But that was fun. Yeah,
Speaker 1: I mean you tried. No, we had fun with that. Yeah,
Speaker 1: yeah you did. You did. So you trysages back to
Speaker 1: your friend literally just massage, that's it. Oh hell yeah.
Speaker 1: When I wasn't the massage you just got when I
Speaker 1: was in talent all I would suck any of them
Speaker 1: and they wasn't even my type. My massages are great,
Speaker 1: like therapetic massages. Um, but tell us about the guy
Speaker 1: that you pay and what he does when he does
Speaker 1: your chakras and you come um. So basically he um,
Speaker 1: he does like I call like trigger point, and well
Speaker 1: he does this thing where like he pretends like not pretends,
Speaker 1: but he touches you in places, so you feel like
Speaker 1: he's touching you in three different places at the same time.
Speaker 1: So what happens is it forces you to relax because
Speaker 1: you're because it's like in three different places. Your mind
Speaker 1: can't like focus, so it forces you to kind of
Speaker 1: just like sit there and just kind of relax. Um,
Speaker 1: and you know he kind of like bitch, She'll be
Speaker 1: like massage of my neck back and then like what's
Speaker 1: going for a little suck and then like keeps going
Speaker 1: masside goes in for a little suck, goes in for
Speaker 1: a little prostate simulation massage massage and like the massage
Speaker 1: is a real massage, like I'm actually getting fucking worked on,
Speaker 1: But every once in a while there's like a cential
Speaker 1: aspect that comes into it. Um And then is he
Speaker 1: trying to make you come? Not that not? Then in
Speaker 1: there it's literally throughout the whole thing, throughout the whole thing.
Speaker 1: So it's like an hour and a half and throughout
Speaker 1: the whole thing. Can you even concentrate? That's the point
Speaker 1: you're not supposed to do. He does it in a
Speaker 1: way that like you have to relax because your body can't.
Speaker 1: You almost get overwhelmed and so instead of like thinking
Speaker 1: about everything, you just kind of let go and like
Speaker 1: did you come, Like did it distract you in your
Speaker 1: massage or not? No? My my, my man actually does
Speaker 1: this and he does it so much to where one
Speaker 1: time he was massaging me and sucking me at the
Speaker 1: same time, but also like had a finger mask and
Speaker 1: out of nowhere, I felt like I had three holes
Speaker 1: down there. Like I literally was like, where is this
Speaker 1: other sensation? Like I felt like he wasn't. He wasn't
Speaker 1: like I know what you're feeling feeling, because like it was,
Speaker 1: it was crazy. I was so aroused, but I was
Speaker 1: so relaxed at the same time that at one point
Speaker 1: I was like, I know this man doesn't I know
Speaker 1: this man doesn't have like octopus tentacles, but I know
Speaker 1: that's what I was wild um. And then at the
Speaker 1: very end, like mind you, he's massaging me the whole time,
Speaker 1: is like start start start, start, like it's a machine
Speaker 1: that's happening. And I kind of literally like I passed
Speaker 1: of a good ten minutes after I just yeah, he yeah.
Speaker 1: He just walks in the room. He's like, I know
Speaker 1: you need like ten or fifteen because I arged I'll
Speaker 1: see no, I'll go from that to fucking to then that,
Speaker 1: and then there's like, oh my, literally when when when
Speaker 1: we get into that type of sex flight, especially in
Speaker 1: the morning, I'm dead for the whole day it because
Speaker 1: it drains. It does. It drains me because I'm getting
Speaker 1: that plus thick. It's draining, but it feels, oh my God,
Speaker 1: like best a life. So a sneezing fit, This one
Speaker 1: is nuts. This one I love. The very idea makes
Speaker 1: you excited for allergy season. But there is a link
Speaker 1: between orgasm and sneezing like a medical condition, likely due
Speaker 1: to a faulty connection in the automic nervous system. So
Speaker 1: basically heart rate digestion. People die lation. Be careful what
Speaker 1: you wish for, because you could go into a sneezing fit.
Speaker 1: Income I don't sneeze and farted, but I sneezed and came.
Speaker 1: I mean I will gladly experience that. Imagine that. Imagine
Speaker 1: people who like sneeze like four or five times in
Speaker 1: a row, every single time they sneeze. I don't like that.
Speaker 1: But what's crazy? Every time you sneeze, your heart stops,
Speaker 1: so you could die. My dad used to say bless
Speaker 1: you when you because he said the same thing happens.
Speaker 1: So now active imagination a k just thinking off. Some
Speaker 1: women can have intensely imagined sexual fantasies that they orgas
Speaker 1: them through for just thinking about sex. It's kind of
Speaker 1: like a wet dream, but you're wide awake and it
Speaker 1: can be learned in a guide for hand free orgasm.
Speaker 1: So yoga, fucking, sneezing, all kinds of ship now, I
Speaker 1: honest to god, I thing biking would be it for
Speaker 1: me out of these what do you think you guys
Speaker 1: could come to the massage? Probably for y'all. It ain't No,
Speaker 1: it's not. It's definitely not. I heard you make them
Speaker 1: bitches in the kitchen. Anyway, I ain't doing them. I
Speaker 1: ain't doing worked out bit I heard to ask them
Speaker 1: from the kitchen, So I don't know what y'all are
Speaker 1: doing patches, just like I'm gonna have. I'm gonna put
Speaker 1: i'na put on a nice little audible book when I
Speaker 1: get it. Like, all right, let's get to the who mail. Hey,
Speaker 1: Mandy and Wheezy. Huge fan of the show. It's one
Speaker 1: of the few things that kept me going in the pandemic. Oh,
Speaker 1: I need a Mandy and Wheezy. I have a dilemma
Speaker 1: and I could use your advice. I met a guy
Speaker 1: on him. She's super sweet, but after taking talking for
Speaker 1: some weeks and meeting up, it was clear we wanted
Speaker 1: different things. I've not long come out of a toxic
Speaker 1: relationship and I wanted to be single, so did he.
Speaker 1: For that very reason, I didn't want to sleep with
Speaker 1: him on the first date because I was not trying to. Sorry,
Speaker 1: she there's a type of because I'm not trying to
Speaker 1: get into a friends of benefit situation. While that's what
Speaker 1: he wanted. I wanted to see if it would progress
Speaker 1: into relationships. She's lying. She liked playing. I gave him
Speaker 1: an ultimate him and said it's either a one night
Speaker 1: stand or dating with a three month ruble. He said,
Speaker 1: oh god, I'm already annoyed. Like ladies by Danny was
Speaker 1: a three month rule or or one night staying girl,
Speaker 1: if you want to get the dick. I've slept with
Speaker 1: somebody on the one night and been with them for
Speaker 1: two years. That's where I'm at right now. First date
Speaker 1: it's always like that because because of the chemistry, right
Speaker 1: and you just go with it anyway. He said that
Speaker 1: because his last relationship just ended before the pandemic and
Speaker 1: he hasn't had sex an eighteen month and would rather
Speaker 1: go in a one night's stand option. We had sex
Speaker 1: and it wasn't that great. We did two rounds, each
Speaker 1: being a max of five minutes, and Dick was kind
Speaker 1: of small, so I sometimes can hardly feel it. Anyways,
Speaker 1: we decided to just be friends. Now. Fast forward to
Speaker 1: a couple of weeks. We got into a discussion about
Speaker 1: only fans and paying for sex, and he said that
Speaker 1: he enjoyed the sex we had so much that he
Speaker 1: would pay for it. And actually I thought he was joking,
Speaker 1: but as the conversation went on, I realized he was serious.
Speaker 1: And I forgot to mention that he's autistic. So because
Speaker 1: of his lack of social skills, he lacks experience, not
Speaker 1: just with dating, with sex altogether, and it's one of
Speaker 1: the reasons he wants to be single is to build
Speaker 1: up his body count and take things off his sex
Speaker 1: list before settling down. Do I take this and be
Speaker 1: a sex worker or by using this man for money?
Speaker 1: What should I do? I say, do it? Listen, I
Speaker 1: don't care if you're in a wheelchair autistic. If I
Speaker 1: ain't going to discriminate on somebody who's not on the spectrum,
Speaker 1: I'm gonna take all your money. And that's not me.
Speaker 1: You're trying to be shady. It's not like you're getting
Speaker 1: over on him. You're sucking him for money because he
Speaker 1: wants you to. It's not like you're stealing for him.
Speaker 1: She sucked him, went out getting paid. Oh, she just
Speaker 1: said you better funk that man. Girl, do it this
Speaker 1: whole email, mind you, even just from the start with
Speaker 1: the well he said he just wanted the one night
Speaker 1: stand for me since he hadn't had sex in eighteen months.
Speaker 1: Girl in, and he'll spending his cash. Girl, be an expert,
Speaker 1: and who knows, maybe you made offer service. Mandy and
Speaker 1: I did a episode years ago and we were talking about, uh,
Speaker 1: a service called angel Hands and they would like masturbate
Speaker 1: you for people that are paraplegic, Oh like people that
Speaker 1: have disabilities. And maybe you don't want to go out
Speaker 1: of me people. We almost watched Dating on the Spectrum
Speaker 1: or Love on the Spectrum, but you want to watch it?
Speaker 1: Did you ever see that on Netflix? It's people dating
Speaker 1: with autis? Oh? Yeah it was. I couldn't. I'm sorry,
Speaker 1: I just didn't. I just couldn't. I couldn't. Might be
Speaker 1: hard for somebody, but I wanted it was hard for me.
Speaker 1: And I was just like, there's also a just like, um,
Speaker 1: this gay autistic eye finding love Like it's a sitcom
Speaker 1: on Netflix and I watched it and it's great, but
Speaker 1: I think it's called scripted scripted. Script During some portions,
Speaker 1: like my whole like my whole body was just I
Speaker 1: was just like, oh I can't. It was so sweet
Speaker 1: and honestly it ends amazing. But like I just right
Speaker 1: now in this state of my mind, are you charging? Girl?
Speaker 1: I definitely think she can charge him. Yeah, cha chonga
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Speaker 1: This has been yet another episode of Horrible Decisions. What
Speaker 1: other qualities do you think should be deal breakers or
Speaker 1: non negotiables in order for it to make sense to
Speaker 1: move forward outside of the looks? If if, if they're
Speaker 1: in the position where you are, where I really want
Speaker 1: a boyfriend, I really want a man, what other qualities
Speaker 1: should they have outside of looks? If you have to
Speaker 1: still have looks? Well, I think the first thing, and
Speaker 1: I think this is the question I've asked so what's
Speaker 1: what's today Saturday? So it's almost been seven days of
Speaker 1: reflection ask starting with asking yourself what is it that
Speaker 1: you want? And being very clue and what it is
Speaker 1: that you want? Right, because I think as women sometimes
Speaker 1: we don't define what it is that we want. And
Speaker 1: once I define that, I was able to kind of
Speaker 1: I think I'm getting more clarity on what it is
Speaker 1: I need out of a man based on what I want, right,
Speaker 1: and those those things didn't involve looks, So to achieve
Speaker 1: the goal I want to achieve now I'm like, okay,
Speaker 1: so it's like reverse engineering, right, So now I'm starting
Speaker 1: to do that and I am having like even conversations
Speaker 1: with you. Last night it was like, yo, I probably
Speaker 1: gotta caught off like altern of these dudes and maybe
Speaker 1: focus on you know, and if none of them were
Speaker 1: none of them fit what I've now defined as what
Speaker 1: I want or can get me there, they gotta go.
Speaker 1: Do you listen to Kevin Samuels? So the new one
Speaker 1: has me listening to Kevin Samuels. So I only say
Speaker 1: that because your five and I think it's also clear
Speaker 1: that you still don't really know what you want. Mhmm.
Speaker 1: And a lot of the women that call in to
Speaker 1: Kevin Samuel's show, Sorry guys. He asked them so many questions,
Speaker 1: and it feels like it trips them up, and he's
Speaker 1: able to completely control the narrative on who they are
Speaker 1: and why they don't have what they want, simply off
Speaker 1: the fact that a lot of them don't know what
Speaker 1: they want. I remember one woman was like, I mean,
Speaker 1: I have kids. Is I guess if my partner wants kids,
Speaker 1: sure I'll have them or and I was engaged, but
Speaker 1: I called it off and I can't really tell you why.
Speaker 1: He just wasn't it. And there's a lot of women
Speaker 1: who date that way. They date knowing that they want
Speaker 1: a partner, but not knowing what they need fully from
Speaker 1: another half. And that's what that's that's what I just said.
Speaker 1: I had to reverse engineer this baby, right, said what
Speaker 1: do you want? And I was very clear with you,
Speaker 1: I want to be married, I want to have kids,
Speaker 1: so okay, cool, but what you're doing and how you're
Speaker 1: acting isn't aligning with that, right. So it was more
Speaker 1: of a self check with myself, like you actually got
Speaker 1: align with what you say you want because I'm very
Speaker 1: clear that I want that because the relationship I just
Speaker 1: got out of, I was also raising five kids, and
Speaker 1: you know I was, I was a step mom and
Speaker 1: I and i'm and I'm very much a maternal human
Speaker 1: of being. So I just have to walk in what
Speaker 1: I say. I want. You know what I'm saying, it's
Speaker 1: and it's I think I get distracted, you know what
Speaker 1: I'm saying, And like like you, I'm also career focused
Speaker 1: and I'm busy, So sometimes it's easy to have like
Speaker 1: whatever basic conversations because I don't have time and the
Speaker 1: mental capacity to deal with a whole lot more the
Speaker 1: longest day. You know what I'm saying, And I know
Speaker 1: you feel that that's what but like I think your
Speaker 1: person allows you a positive escape from that. You know
Speaker 1: what I'm saying, where is situations that may not be right,
Speaker 1: don't right. But also the fact, like you said that
Speaker 1: a as career draw and women, we want an escape
Speaker 1: from our partner. So that's why what I brought up
Speaker 1: earlier in the episode about all of the negative connotations
Speaker 1: of relationships then being hard, them not being easy, them
Speaker 1: being hard work. We work so hard in our day
Speaker 1: to day life. I can't I can't have a relationship
Speaker 1: it that feels like another job period. At this point,
Speaker 1: I know I can't do it, and I think that
Speaker 1: that's probably what works against a lot of career driven,
Speaker 1: very busy women, is that if you go down the
Speaker 1: gender roles of patriarchy, which a lot of people still
Speaker 1: want to kind of uphold a little bit, it takes
Speaker 1: a lot to run a business, to be an employee,
Speaker 1: to to be an entrepreneur, and then no, fuck, I
Speaker 1: had to go home and cook and clean, bolt fuck
Speaker 1: suck and and make sure that I'm everything that a
Speaker 1: wife because being a wife and being a mother, those
Speaker 1: are also jobs, and so when those are all the
Speaker 1: way at the bottom of what we want, it's hard
Speaker 1: to steal have