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Speaker 1: What's up? What's up? Is lip service? I'm Angela, Ye,

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Speaker 1: I'm g G Maguire, I'm Lario. Sorry. I was taking

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Speaker 1: a sip and we have a specially gainst Justine and

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Speaker 1: skuy is here. I was surprised that. I was like,

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Speaker 1: I can't imagine that Justine s guy is gonna say

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Speaker 1: with us on lip service? Why not talk about Dick.

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Speaker 1: I'm dead already have to like it. But yes, we

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Speaker 1: appreciate you for coming because you know what I think.

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Speaker 1: When we first we're introduced to you, you are a

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Speaker 1: lot younger, so we still are like, okay, but now

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Speaker 1: over the fact that I'm growing up for some reason.

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Speaker 1: But it's like it's it's understandable. When you meet people

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Speaker 1: them for the rest of your life, not the rest

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Speaker 1: of our lives. Now, we're not going to think look

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Speaker 1: They're like, oh my god, I can't believe where's your mom? Like,

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Speaker 1: and I'm just like, I am a whole twenty three

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Speaker 1: like I'm and I can have a drink. Okay, because

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Speaker 1: you will. Um, So let's ease into this. Let's talk

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Speaker 1: about revenge. Okay. Do you think it's ever a good

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Speaker 1: idea to get revenge on someone? Um? I just let

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Speaker 1: Karma do it for me. So you ain never did nothing?

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Speaker 1: I mean I have, But I think the approach is

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Speaker 1: a part of it. It's going to happen to them

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Speaker 1: one way or not. So in reality, what are some

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Speaker 1: things you've done to get revenge? Cheat back? Okay? Did

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Speaker 1: it make you feel better? Yeah? What do you What

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Speaker 1: do you think just seeing it's revenge ever a good idea? Um?

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Speaker 1: Some people think revenge will make them feel better, and

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Speaker 1: it may make you feel better for that split second.

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Speaker 1: It may make you feel better for that split second,

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Speaker 1: but you're like stepping out of your character to get

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Speaker 1: be if you, like Beyonce said, the best revenge of

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Speaker 1: your paper, if you just focus on yourself and let

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Speaker 1: Karma do all the work, then it's like it's easy

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Speaker 1: to say so you've never tried to get revenge on somebody.

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Speaker 1: I think we're all saying that I never tried to

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Speaker 1: do that, but you have. But I've I always like

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Speaker 1: have to ground myself again and realize that, like what's

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Speaker 1: the point, like because getting revenge on someone like it's

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Speaker 1: just a never ending cycle of karma. So it's just

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Speaker 1: like because you're gonna get your karma back done, be

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Speaker 1: G Now, when you cheat on somebody back, do you

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Speaker 1: for you in your own head to know? And did

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Speaker 1: you stay with them after you got your revenge? Yes?

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Speaker 1: And did they find out? And then what happened he

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Speaker 1: The reason why there was someone else is because I

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Speaker 1: when I'm not getting a hundred percent of you? So

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Speaker 1: if you're gonna do this, then I'm gonna do that.

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Speaker 1: Damn does it ever stop? I had I know, I

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Speaker 1: don't know what I had to stop that. I used

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Speaker 1: But each and every time I would end up like

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Speaker 1: for it. It's like the wrongest thing to do. And

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Speaker 1: And I just feel like you gotta let karma do

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Speaker 1: You on't got the opper hand no more, you didn't

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Speaker 1: have you ever been accused of cheating and you didn't? Yes? Yes, Yes,

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Speaker 1: Anytime a guy ever accused me of cheating, I'm just like, no,

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Speaker 1: Because you're guilty, you got stuff. It's no way that

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Speaker 1: and you're not doing it. No, but sometimes it's been legitimate, right,

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Speaker 1: But there was this one guy that I was dating

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Speaker 1: You're cheating on me, How did you get away with it?

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Speaker 1: Because I'm not the type like I'm not, I'm not

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Speaker 1: like that was when I was like younger, So I'm

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Speaker 1: Getting worse? Just why what is like I'm talking to

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Speaker 1: But he's up because guys a lot like I'm about

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Speaker 1: Oh my god, my ex boyfriend. So me and him

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Speaker 1: But why was you talking to her? Angela? She called me,

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Speaker 1: I can't do that. But I wasn't with him, you

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Speaker 1: That's not like something I've done before. It was was

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Speaker 1: we're here, could right, build your perfect man, Justine, Let's

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Speaker 1: What do you prefer? Because now you're building a perfect man,

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Speaker 1: me because like I don't know what about manscaping. Should

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Speaker 1: that's a whole life. It's something you just can't like

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Speaker 1: That's when even with men, that's just kind of funny

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Speaker 1: just like, I don't know, does it make you does

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00:22:13,080 --> 00:22:15,439
Speaker 1: it make you feel like they're referring to you as

424
00:22:15,440 --> 00:22:19,800
Speaker 1: a child? Yeah, like that's what that's like my dad.

425
00:22:21,040 --> 00:22:23,400
Speaker 1: I'm not gonna say. Yeah, you know, I'm always gonna

426
00:22:23,400 --> 00:22:26,359
Speaker 1: be his baby. But like if some like another woman

427
00:22:26,440 --> 00:22:32,600
Speaker 1: like calling unless you're like nineties years but like the

428
00:22:33,119 --> 00:22:36,040
Speaker 1: tone matters. So what if you came in here, we're like, hey, sweetie,

429
00:22:36,640 --> 00:22:39,680
Speaker 1: that's a different tone, right, And also you know you've

430
00:22:39,760 --> 00:22:45,159
Speaker 1: not known me right since you wear a little baby

431
00:22:47,119 --> 00:22:52,040
Speaker 1: I'm sorry? What about the tone? Okay saying it? What

432
00:22:52,119 --> 00:22:54,120
Speaker 1: are some other things that you feel like are offensive

433
00:22:54,160 --> 00:22:57,280
Speaker 1: for people to call you? Bits? You si is? Sisters?

434
00:22:57,320 --> 00:23:01,359
Speaker 1: Like kidding shady sea People said that when they're about

435
00:23:01,359 --> 00:23:04,439
Speaker 1: to say something foul d, they'd be like, alright, Sis,

436
00:23:04,520 --> 00:23:08,120
Speaker 1: well first of all, sis, you know trying to think

437
00:23:08,119 --> 00:23:11,040
Speaker 1: with us? Do I not like bitch? Well that's not

438
00:23:11,200 --> 00:23:14,959
Speaker 1: some something like that. I'm kidding. Um. I don't like

439
00:23:14,960 --> 00:23:17,760
Speaker 1: when men like I'm having a conversation. I went to

440
00:23:17,880 --> 00:23:19,879
Speaker 1: dinner with like a bunch of my guy friends and

441
00:23:19,920 --> 00:23:23,280
Speaker 1: they were like talking about they were just kept saying bitch.

442
00:23:24,760 --> 00:23:27,000
Speaker 1: I was like, ken, y'all chill, Like why does every

443
00:23:27,080 --> 00:23:29,919
Speaker 1: like female have to be a bit? He was like, man,

444
00:23:29,960 --> 00:23:32,200
Speaker 1: you ain't ever sun with a real like blah blah blah,

445
00:23:32,240 --> 00:23:33,919
Speaker 1: like you don't know, like if you don't even calling you.

446
00:23:34,000 --> 00:23:36,200
Speaker 1: But I'm like, I'm sorry. No one I've ever dated

447
00:23:36,320 --> 00:23:38,320
Speaker 1: is like, no one I've ever did it has called

448
00:23:38,359 --> 00:23:39,879
Speaker 1: me that either. But we've definitely had people up here

449
00:23:39,880 --> 00:23:42,440
Speaker 1: on lip service Day throw that word around and that's

450
00:23:42,520 --> 00:23:45,320
Speaker 1: like kind of how they and they don't even mean

451
00:23:45,359 --> 00:23:47,840
Speaker 1: it in a bad way. It just sounds crazy. I

452
00:23:47,920 --> 00:23:50,600
Speaker 1: say all the time. I do it. I say it

453
00:23:50,640 --> 00:23:54,239
Speaker 1: a lot, but like I don't like for men, like

454
00:23:54,280 --> 00:23:56,480
Speaker 1: if a girl says it to me like bit, I

455
00:23:56,520 --> 00:23:59,040
Speaker 1: don't even think twice. But when a man doesn't and

456
00:23:59,080 --> 00:24:02,320
Speaker 1: he's not gay, oh no no, no, no no, show stop

457
00:24:02,840 --> 00:24:05,800
Speaker 1: you stop everything, Like that's a problem to me. But

458
00:24:05,840 --> 00:24:08,680
Speaker 1: like if I enable, like if I'm around guys are

459
00:24:08,680 --> 00:24:10,840
Speaker 1: like that bit, shut it off. I'm so used to it,

460
00:24:10,880 --> 00:24:12,560
Speaker 1: and I think that's why I do it because I've

461
00:24:12,600 --> 00:24:15,359
Speaker 1: always been around guys like a bunch of guys that

462
00:24:15,400 --> 00:24:17,680
Speaker 1: will always just talk that bitch, this bitch, this bitch,

463
00:24:18,800 --> 00:24:22,280
Speaker 1: just like it's just disrespectful. Like I guess that's also

464
00:24:22,440 --> 00:24:24,760
Speaker 1: in the tone as well, too, right, because guys be

465
00:24:24,840 --> 00:24:30,120
Speaker 1: calling other guys but just to like in a bad way. Yeah,

466
00:24:30,200 --> 00:24:31,840
Speaker 1: because if a guy's like Chad, you know you're a

467
00:24:31,840 --> 00:24:35,520
Speaker 1: bad bitch. Uh No, I don't like that. I don't

468
00:24:35,520 --> 00:24:37,840
Speaker 1: like that either. God try to do that to get

469
00:24:37,840 --> 00:24:41,760
Speaker 1: away to see what the like? She she you meant

470
00:24:41,760 --> 00:24:43,919
Speaker 1: got a guy, right, you said a guy saying it

471
00:24:43,920 --> 00:24:47,159
Speaker 1: to another guy. Well, I meant to you. No, No,

472
00:24:47,280 --> 00:24:48,479
Speaker 1: you're not about to call me a bad but you're

473
00:24:48,520 --> 00:24:51,199
Speaker 1: gonna call me a beautiful queen. Yeah. So wait, what

474
00:24:51,280 --> 00:24:54,040
Speaker 1: if a dude does like refer to you as like

475
00:24:54,119 --> 00:24:59,800
Speaker 1: my bitch but like I'm not you know, to you

476
00:24:59,840 --> 00:25:02,280
Speaker 1: like kind of thing. No, that's not cute. What about

477
00:25:02,320 --> 00:25:07,200
Speaker 1: in the bed while you're having sex? Absolutely not that is.

478
00:25:07,480 --> 00:25:13,760
Speaker 1: I mean, I just for me, like I was on

479
00:25:13,800 --> 00:25:17,640
Speaker 1: the circumstances, like I'm still thinking like yeah, I think

480
00:25:17,640 --> 00:25:25,760
Speaker 1: I think it's okay. I don't know. Besides, you can

481
00:25:26,720 --> 00:25:28,719
Speaker 1: that's never been like the case to me. Just't call

482
00:25:28,800 --> 00:25:32,080
Speaker 1: me too late. I'm very emotional, and so whoever is

483
00:25:32,080 --> 00:25:34,879
Speaker 1: like dating me is also like equal emotional, whether they

484
00:25:35,240 --> 00:25:39,080
Speaker 1: like or not, because like we have like deep conversations

485
00:25:39,119 --> 00:25:41,520
Speaker 1: and like you so you understand and like have a

486
00:25:41,560 --> 00:25:44,040
Speaker 1: respect for me. And the things that I don't like.

487
00:25:44,600 --> 00:25:47,600
Speaker 1: What about being spanked in the bedroom, Like what if

488
00:25:47,600 --> 00:25:52,720
Speaker 1: a guy smacking your ass? You like that? Yeah? You

489
00:25:52,720 --> 00:25:55,880
Speaker 1: didn't even want to say, see, I feel like that's

490
00:25:55,920 --> 00:25:59,359
Speaker 1: a bitch moment. Yeah, you like that, you like this

491
00:25:59,520 --> 00:26:01,960
Speaker 1: bit you slap. I also don't like when people talk

492
00:26:02,000 --> 00:26:05,040
Speaker 1: to me like, don't talk. Don't you don't like talk talk.

493
00:26:06,160 --> 00:26:08,560
Speaker 1: It's like you don't talk. You can't say I love you,

494
00:26:08,640 --> 00:26:12,200
Speaker 1: I love you? Yeah, like I love you. But okay,

495
00:26:12,280 --> 00:26:15,800
Speaker 1: this isn't making love things. Yeah, making love you know

496
00:26:16,359 --> 00:26:20,080
Speaker 1: you don't you didn't get to that age yet. Making

497
00:26:20,119 --> 00:26:24,159
Speaker 1: love ship a good whack you? Yeah? I love you me,

498
00:26:25,160 --> 00:26:27,679
Speaker 1: And that's one it's going to get that. I'm just saying,

499
00:26:27,760 --> 00:26:31,520
Speaker 1: like it's still emotional though, like it's still whether whenever

500
00:26:31,600 --> 00:26:35,439
Speaker 1: it is still emotionally you cry during sex? Ever, she

501
00:26:35,640 --> 00:26:47,200
Speaker 1: does every vibe I'm kidding, no, no, I have when

502
00:26:47,240 --> 00:26:56,120
Speaker 1: you really like love, she's she crying? Now, Yeah, what's up?

503
00:26:56,520 --> 00:26:59,560
Speaker 1: Did you tell me emotional? Did an really touch you know?

504
00:27:02,359 --> 00:27:06,920
Speaker 1: She said, it's hot? So is that so you how many? Okay,

505
00:27:07,560 --> 00:27:11,359
Speaker 1: when you cried during sex? Right, she's really I probably

506
00:27:11,359 --> 00:27:16,960
Speaker 1: cried like three times. Damn we've talked about cried during

507
00:27:17,000 --> 00:27:21,640
Speaker 1: a second. I never have Loria had a tear drop, right,

508
00:27:21,760 --> 00:27:26,240
Speaker 1: you got a little Misty's never in my life cried

509
00:27:26,320 --> 00:27:28,560
Speaker 1: during sex, and people make me feel bad about that.

510
00:27:28,800 --> 00:27:36,880
Speaker 1: What I mean, I've never loved somebody. I love you.

511
00:27:36,880 --> 00:27:39,000
Speaker 1: You ever have fun sex like laugh and it's a

512
00:27:39,000 --> 00:27:44,120
Speaker 1: good time. Yeah, No, I'll just be like I'm gonna

513
00:27:44,119 --> 00:27:46,680
Speaker 1: try that. I just like, if something weird like happens,

514
00:27:46,720 --> 00:27:49,080
Speaker 1: like I'll just acknowledge it like that. That was a

515
00:27:49,119 --> 00:27:57,040
Speaker 1: little awkward, Yeah, I wouldn't hear weird embarrassed? Yeah, that

516
00:27:57,160 --> 00:28:06,000
Speaker 1: I laugh g fell off the bed said, yeah that's

517
00:28:06,000 --> 00:28:09,359
Speaker 1: pretty Did that ruin the moment? Like? Oh? We laugh?

518
00:28:09,800 --> 00:28:12,560
Speaker 1: And I got up and back over. You know, you

519
00:28:12,560 --> 00:28:15,159
Speaker 1: ever tried back? You ever try to change positions and

520
00:28:15,200 --> 00:28:17,520
Speaker 1: it just didn't work out. You try to keep it

521
00:28:17,520 --> 00:28:21,920
Speaker 1: in while you change. Then that's who that didn't work out.

522
00:28:23,119 --> 00:28:30,720
Speaker 1: Let's reset trying to be way, let me flip around

523
00:28:30,840 --> 00:28:33,359
Speaker 1: and keep it in and then or maybe you bend

524
00:28:33,359 --> 00:28:39,600
Speaker 1: his dick a little, like like if you ever ride

525
00:28:39,640 --> 00:28:41,880
Speaker 1: him and you get up and then it comes out

526
00:28:41,920 --> 00:28:43,600
Speaker 1: and you go back down, you're like, oh, ship, did

527
00:28:43,600 --> 00:28:47,720
Speaker 1: I did that? Broke it? Sprain? That didn't mean to

528
00:28:47,760 --> 00:28:50,240
Speaker 1: break your dick. One thing that always like throws me

529
00:28:50,280 --> 00:28:52,360
Speaker 1: off during sex, like even if I'm about to come,

530
00:28:52,440 --> 00:28:54,479
Speaker 1: it'll make me have to start all over is if

531
00:28:54,480 --> 00:28:56,640
Speaker 1: you stick your finger in my butt. I do not

532
00:28:56,880 --> 00:29:02,120
Speaker 1: like that. It's the initial stick. The initial stick is

533
00:29:02,160 --> 00:29:05,000
Speaker 1: always I thought, my whole mood. You got it. Once

534
00:29:05,040 --> 00:29:07,840
Speaker 1: you get into it, then it's fine, and then it's

535
00:29:07,880 --> 00:29:13,440
Speaker 1: fine the beginning. That's like what just fine? What think?

536
00:29:13,760 --> 00:29:15,840
Speaker 1: What about you? Justine it? But guys having sex and

537
00:29:15,880 --> 00:29:19,040
Speaker 1: he sticks his finger your but you like that? Um?

538
00:29:19,120 --> 00:29:23,920
Speaker 1: She does? He don't want to like it? I tell

539
00:29:23,960 --> 00:29:33,360
Speaker 1: the truth. So you like that? Um? Um, never been

540
00:29:33,400 --> 00:29:38,280
Speaker 1: a time when I've enjoyed it. Like that's why I cried,

541
00:29:44,120 --> 00:29:50,880
Speaker 1: Oh set you grown grown? Yeah, that's what you're just

542
00:29:50,960 --> 00:30:02,480
Speaker 1: that sweetie grown grown, A little sweetie. She's like quiet,

543
00:30:03,200 --> 00:30:05,920
Speaker 1: it's like weird, but like it happens sometimes and they're

544
00:30:05,960 --> 00:30:08,920
Speaker 1: just like, oh, okay, I guess this is what you're

545
00:30:08,960 --> 00:30:16,640
Speaker 1: into did you ever return to favor nor what? I'm good? Like,

546
00:30:16,760 --> 00:30:21,960
Speaker 1: I'm really good, she's really good. You ain't that grown yet.

547
00:30:21,160 --> 00:30:24,080
Speaker 1: I guess maybe three or four more years, right, we'll

548
00:30:24,080 --> 00:30:25,440
Speaker 1: give it and you come back and you'd be like,

549
00:30:25,480 --> 00:30:27,640
Speaker 1: girl that stuck. My thinking is but no, no, I

550
00:30:27,640 --> 00:30:33,400
Speaker 1: can't get it out now. I keep asking. This is

551
00:30:33,440 --> 00:30:41,360
Speaker 1: still on my finger. No, no, stand and you're ruined

552
00:30:41,400 --> 00:30:44,000
Speaker 1: it right, I don't know. That's why I'm just like,

553
00:30:44,040 --> 00:30:45,320
Speaker 1: I don't I don't want to. I don't want to

554
00:30:45,320 --> 00:30:46,920
Speaker 1: know what goes on on that What about sex thing?

555
00:30:47,000 --> 00:30:50,800
Speaker 1: Are you into sexting? Like when I was like in

556
00:30:50,920 --> 00:30:53,200
Speaker 1: high school? But they always say that's a great way

557
00:30:53,240 --> 00:30:55,240
Speaker 1: like throughout the day to get ready so that when

558
00:30:55,280 --> 00:30:59,040
Speaker 1: you guys get together finally it's like ripping each other's

559
00:30:59,040 --> 00:31:02,680
Speaker 1: clothes off, you know what That's like like very like

560
00:31:02,760 --> 00:31:05,400
Speaker 1: high school for me, I'm not saying like what I

561
00:31:05,520 --> 00:31:07,560
Speaker 1: was leading, like if that's what floats your out then,

562
00:31:08,120 --> 00:31:11,080
Speaker 1: but me, like, I'm just like I like to have

563
00:31:11,160 --> 00:31:13,560
Speaker 1: like whoever like i'm with, I like to have regular

564
00:31:13,600 --> 00:31:17,240
Speaker 1: conversations and then like when we're together, like it's just

565
00:31:17,720 --> 00:31:19,560
Speaker 1: so if a guy you like is like I can't

566
00:31:19,600 --> 00:31:22,240
Speaker 1: wait to see you later on. Stick my tongue down

567
00:31:22,280 --> 00:31:25,920
Speaker 1: your throat, I would laugh, you would, yeah, I would.

568
00:31:26,000 --> 00:31:31,040
Speaker 1: I would totally lie. Really go I think we that's

569
00:31:31,080 --> 00:31:32,400
Speaker 1: all as a matter of fact, we're all going to

570
00:31:32,480 --> 00:31:36,120
Speaker 1: have a shot with Justine because we're just going in there. Yeah, yeah,

571
00:31:36,160 --> 00:31:40,080
Speaker 1: you gotta catch up. This is all in honor of you. Now.

572
00:31:41,040 --> 00:31:43,280
Speaker 1: One thing I wanted to talk about is taking a

573
00:31:43,320 --> 00:31:46,640
Speaker 1: break sometimes in relationships with like, Okay, it's time for

574
00:31:46,720 --> 00:31:48,840
Speaker 1: us to take a break. Is that ever a good

575
00:31:48,840 --> 00:31:50,840
Speaker 1: idea or does that mean the relationship is over? Like

576
00:31:50,880 --> 00:31:52,440
Speaker 1: have you ever said let's take a break and then

577
00:31:52,480 --> 00:31:54,920
Speaker 1: really got back together and it worked. I've never told

578
00:31:54,960 --> 00:31:57,040
Speaker 1: someone I wanted to take a work you take a

579
00:31:57,040 --> 00:32:03,200
Speaker 1: break on that? Damn. I know someone that I dated

580
00:32:03,200 --> 00:32:06,640
Speaker 1: who are like really really like really really thought was

581
00:32:06,640 --> 00:32:11,160
Speaker 1: about to be the one started going bad and then

582
00:32:11,760 --> 00:32:14,520
Speaker 1: he was just like, maybe we should take like a break,

583
00:32:14,560 --> 00:32:18,160
Speaker 1: but he didn't. He just we broke up. But to him,

584
00:32:18,240 --> 00:32:21,040
Speaker 1: that was a break, and I'm just like, we're not

585
00:32:21,120 --> 00:32:24,400
Speaker 1: even together. I'm like, we're definitely not together anymore. But

586
00:32:24,440 --> 00:32:26,000
Speaker 1: then I still liked him, so like we started talking

587
00:32:26,000 --> 00:32:28,520
Speaker 1: each other again and then I realized, like, you're the same.

588
00:32:29,120 --> 00:32:30,600
Speaker 1: Oh then I found he was cheating on me for

589
00:32:30,600 --> 00:32:32,880
Speaker 1: a real guy. And not only was he cheating on me,

590
00:32:33,000 --> 00:32:40,120
Speaker 1: it was like, kylie, I know how didn't give it up.

591
00:32:41,120 --> 00:32:44,280
Speaker 1: I thought that was the moral not on he was

592
00:32:44,320 --> 00:32:46,360
Speaker 1: cheating on me, but he was like talking about like

593
00:32:46,360 --> 00:32:49,320
Speaker 1: other like girls were like talking about me, like oh

594
00:32:49,360 --> 00:32:51,480
Speaker 1: he only like he only like this type of girls

595
00:32:51,520 --> 00:32:53,160
Speaker 1: and like this non like blah blah blah, and like

596
00:32:53,160 --> 00:32:54,719
Speaker 1: I didn't even know they was really together. And I'm

597
00:32:54,760 --> 00:33:00,040
Speaker 1: just like, bro, that's crazy. But now you can't to

598
00:33:00,120 --> 00:33:04,680
Speaker 1: seese dudes. Yeah, I mean story like once like all right,

599
00:33:04,720 --> 00:33:06,920
Speaker 1: So the thing for me is like I know, like

600
00:33:06,920 --> 00:33:10,000
Speaker 1: like I'm young, we're young, Like we're gonna make mistakes.

601
00:33:10,000 --> 00:33:11,720
Speaker 1: But once you have other people out in the world

602
00:33:11,720 --> 00:33:14,080
Speaker 1: disrespected me and talking like bad about me, that's when

603
00:33:14,080 --> 00:33:16,680
Speaker 1: it's like, that's when it's really like an ex like

604
00:33:16,720 --> 00:33:21,000
Speaker 1: you like you really gotta go, like you're embarrassing met

605
00:33:21,080 --> 00:33:23,920
Speaker 1: him down, like don't even ever talk about disrespecting me,

606
00:33:24,000 --> 00:33:25,880
Speaker 1: and like you you just don't like what is the

607
00:33:25,880 --> 00:33:29,080
Speaker 1: point of this. Yeah, see, that's when the loyalty aspect

608
00:33:29,080 --> 00:33:31,560
Speaker 1: comes in with guys. I feel like he was supposed

609
00:33:31,600 --> 00:33:33,719
Speaker 1: to dub that. Like with guys, I feel like, if

610
00:33:33,720 --> 00:33:35,800
Speaker 1: you're gonna do what you're doing, do what you're doing,

611
00:33:35,880 --> 00:33:39,280
Speaker 1: but don't let nobody disrespect me in the process, Like

612
00:33:39,360 --> 00:33:42,160
Speaker 1: you're they're already disrespecting me by sucking with you, but

613
00:33:42,200 --> 00:33:44,880
Speaker 1: then they're gonna try to bring me down or you down.

614
00:33:45,280 --> 00:33:47,080
Speaker 1: That doesn't make sense to me, Like I would never

615
00:33:47,160 --> 00:33:49,840
Speaker 1: want someone that I'm with to feel uncomfortable. And that's

616
00:33:50,040 --> 00:33:52,560
Speaker 1: the main part about a relationship for me, because it's

617
00:33:52,560 --> 00:33:55,280
Speaker 1: like we all have a past, right and but like

618
00:33:55,320 --> 00:33:57,240
Speaker 1: we're with each other now. But like if I walk

619
00:33:57,280 --> 00:33:59,400
Speaker 1: into a room and I was and I'm with my

620
00:33:59,520 --> 00:34:02,200
Speaker 1: new guy, there's someone in there that I used to

621
00:34:02,200 --> 00:34:04,400
Speaker 1: be with, I'm gonna be like, hey, like I don't

622
00:34:04,400 --> 00:34:06,480
Speaker 1: want you to feel uncomfortable or like someone else in

623
00:34:06,520 --> 00:34:08,399
Speaker 1: the room knows something about me that you don't beig

624
00:34:08,719 --> 00:34:12,160
Speaker 1: facts and not. Guys don't feel like they need to

625
00:34:12,560 --> 00:34:15,120
Speaker 1: say anything. That's what I think with my boyfriend. If

626
00:34:15,160 --> 00:34:17,760
Speaker 1: I don't like somebody, he hates them, and they's supposed

627
00:34:17,760 --> 00:34:19,800
Speaker 1: to be that. If I'm like I don't like this person,

628
00:34:20,200 --> 00:34:21,719
Speaker 1: he'd be like, all right, I don't work with them either.

629
00:34:21,960 --> 00:34:24,799
Speaker 1: I feel Yeah, they're supposed to be friends too. I

630
00:34:24,800 --> 00:34:26,920
Speaker 1: felt like everything everybody is supposed to be like that.

631
00:34:27,000 --> 00:34:29,279
Speaker 1: They funk with you like that and they love you

632
00:34:29,360 --> 00:34:31,800
Speaker 1: or whatever the case. And you don't funk with somebody that,

633
00:34:31,920 --> 00:34:34,480
Speaker 1: we all don't funk with them. To me, that's how that.

634
00:34:34,680 --> 00:34:37,160
Speaker 1: Like I understood fifty when he was doing that g

635
00:34:37,320 --> 00:34:39,320
Speaker 1: Unit ship and he was going against everybody. Ah, you

636
00:34:39,440 --> 00:34:41,759
Speaker 1: doing a song with him? No, I can't funk with you.

637
00:34:42,040 --> 00:34:44,760
Speaker 1: To me, I understood that, and people thought I was crazy,

638
00:34:44,840 --> 00:34:47,600
Speaker 1: Like that's childish. How you know, we are unit? We

639
00:34:47,680 --> 00:34:52,239
Speaker 1: moved together. Speaking of that, let's move together. Yeah, that's

640
00:34:52,280 --> 00:34:54,479
Speaker 1: what I was gonna say. We are unit and were

641
00:34:54,560 --> 00:34:55,879
Speaker 1: First of all, I just want to make a tale

642
00:34:55,920 --> 00:34:58,840
Speaker 1: suggesting because I love the fact that you are a

643
00:34:58,960 --> 00:35:01,600
Speaker 1: grown woman now and that you've been living in your

644
00:35:01,640 --> 00:35:04,160
Speaker 1: truth and there's a lot of things that's been going on, ups,

645
00:35:04,160 --> 00:35:06,120
Speaker 1: downs or whatever, but you've been honest about it and

646
00:35:06,160 --> 00:35:09,600
Speaker 1: transparent and that takes a lot of bravery, you know,

647
00:35:09,719 --> 00:35:11,120
Speaker 1: and helps out a lot of people. So I just

648
00:35:11,160 --> 00:35:15,240
Speaker 1: want to toast to you every looking your eyes again

649
00:35:17,400 --> 00:35:19,160
Speaker 1: that was away and really getting you to take that

650
00:35:19,239 --> 00:35:23,560
Speaker 1: shot too. So now you have to look she put

651
00:35:23,600 --> 00:35:27,200
Speaker 1: that over there, like whoa, there's a lot that whole

652
00:35:27,280 --> 00:35:32,000
Speaker 1: damn shot. That was a mixed shot and it was like,

653
00:35:32,800 --> 00:35:36,760
Speaker 1: I don't get like it had a little squash ginger

654
00:35:36,880 --> 00:35:40,280
Speaker 1: and a little splash. It was good though. That was good,

655
00:35:40,680 --> 00:35:45,160
Speaker 1: just to ease. Have you ever have a daint Have

656
00:35:45,239 --> 00:35:48,000
Speaker 1: you ever been in a relationship where um, like it

657
00:35:48,080 --> 00:35:50,360
Speaker 1: was so open that he had your passwords and you

658
00:35:50,400 --> 00:35:54,400
Speaker 1: had his. When I was like when I was a kid, Okay,

659
00:35:55,080 --> 00:35:57,880
Speaker 1: remember remember when used to like go I don't know

660
00:35:57,880 --> 00:36:00,560
Speaker 1: if you'll remember, but like, don't us to like people's

661
00:36:00,640 --> 00:36:02,880
Speaker 1: like like I remember, like whoever is my boyfriend at

662
00:36:02,880 --> 00:36:05,080
Speaker 1: the time, Like I'll be like, yeah, what's up, y'all?

663
00:36:05,120 --> 00:36:09,320
Speaker 1: It's just I'm hacking my hands, Like yeah, I remember

664
00:36:09,360 --> 00:36:11,800
Speaker 1: one time I really got to a whole argument with

665
00:36:11,960 --> 00:36:15,759
Speaker 1: his cybit on his twitter. God you know what. And

666
00:36:15,800 --> 00:36:18,040
Speaker 1: I think about that and it really just made not

667
00:36:18,080 --> 00:36:20,960
Speaker 1: like girls named Tiffany for a really long time. I'm

668
00:36:21,000 --> 00:36:24,080
Speaker 1: like that too, anybody named Tiffany. I was just like,

669
00:36:24,200 --> 00:36:26,600
Speaker 1: you're gonna like I hold that. I would not say

670
00:36:28,360 --> 00:36:30,360
Speaker 1: I hold the grudge against girl's name Ashley. And I

671
00:36:30,400 --> 00:36:32,360
Speaker 1: had my reasons for that too, So I feel it

672
00:36:32,480 --> 00:36:34,799
Speaker 1: don't be bitch. You know a name I don't like,

673
00:36:34,880 --> 00:36:38,440
Speaker 1: it's yours. I'm not going to say I know you.

674
00:36:39,760 --> 00:36:43,480
Speaker 1: I've hated a whole ethnic group time, but I'm over

675
00:36:43,560 --> 00:36:47,360
Speaker 1: and no, no, I'm over that. But there was a

676
00:36:47,360 --> 00:36:49,040
Speaker 1: period of time that I was like, I am never

677
00:36:49,080 --> 00:36:55,040
Speaker 1: gonna eat Indian food. Damn me. I'm sorry I went,

678
00:36:55,520 --> 00:36:57,320
Speaker 1: but it was because of the girl that he was

679
00:36:57,400 --> 00:36:59,960
Speaker 1: cheating on me with, And I was like, no, much

680
00:37:00,000 --> 00:37:07,400
Speaker 1: you could take aim a salad that was for me.

681
00:37:07,520 --> 00:37:10,640
Speaker 1: The girl probably delivered it. You can't have funny day

682
00:37:10,719 --> 00:37:12,759
Speaker 1: of all things, that's what you said. I can't have no, no,

683
00:37:12,840 --> 00:37:17,160
Speaker 1: what's that delicious bread? Yeah? I d of non because

684
00:37:17,160 --> 00:37:24,040
Speaker 1: it is bitch you know samosas Like that's that's crazy.

685
00:37:22,280 --> 00:37:26,600
Speaker 1: That's that's why. But I feel like I would probably

686
00:37:26,600 --> 00:37:30,000
Speaker 1: do the same thing. Yeah, Like you don't want to

687
00:37:30,040 --> 00:37:33,640
Speaker 1: like do anything that involves anything that has to do

688
00:37:33,680 --> 00:37:35,600
Speaker 1: with that person. Like if I teaching you what a

689
00:37:35,640 --> 00:37:38,520
Speaker 1: white girl you hate all white girls facts, you'd be like, man,

690
00:37:38,960 --> 00:37:43,640
Speaker 1: the white bits more mad than normally. You'd be protesting.

691
00:37:45,080 --> 00:37:49,839
Speaker 1: Have you ever dated a white guy? Yeah? Yeah, you're

692
00:37:49,880 --> 00:37:51,520
Speaker 1: not sure. She's like, because I don't. I don't know

693
00:37:51,640 --> 00:37:55,040
Speaker 1: if I count that as like were we really dating? Yeah, yeah,

694
00:37:55,080 --> 00:37:56,960
Speaker 1: I don't. I'm not sure if I like count that,

695
00:37:57,040 --> 00:37:59,640
Speaker 1: but yeah, yeah I have either you can marry a

696
00:37:59,640 --> 00:38:11,960
Speaker 1: white guy. Answer like, that's a common conversation like amongst

697
00:38:11,960 --> 00:38:14,320
Speaker 1: my friends, because I have a diverse group of friends

698
00:38:14,880 --> 00:38:17,799
Speaker 1: and everyone like some people have a type, some people don't.

699
00:38:17,920 --> 00:38:20,960
Speaker 1: And then for me, I always like say that I

700
00:38:21,000 --> 00:38:23,960
Speaker 1: don't have a type. But I just don't know if

701
00:38:24,040 --> 00:38:26,520
Speaker 1: I I don't see myself like marrying a white guy.

702
00:38:26,840 --> 00:38:29,239
Speaker 1: But I don't know what's going to happen, right, you

703
00:38:29,280 --> 00:38:32,120
Speaker 1: never know. You just said that that's exactly what's gonna happen,

704
00:38:32,120 --> 00:38:33,799
Speaker 1: and you got married a white guy putting his finger here,

705
00:38:33,840 --> 00:38:42,400
Speaker 1: but he gonna call you sweetie all day. It's the

706
00:38:42,440 --> 00:38:47,040
Speaker 1: opposite of what I want. He's not and he got

707
00:38:47,080 --> 00:38:51,640
Speaker 1: talk the whole time. Now, I just don't, I don't know,

708
00:38:51,880 --> 00:38:53,959
Speaker 1: I don't, I don't, I don't know. I haven't met

709
00:38:54,760 --> 00:38:57,680
Speaker 1: or been involved with like a white guy that I've like,

710
00:38:58,719 --> 00:39:04,560
Speaker 1: really really, I could never marry a white guy. Never, no, never,

711
00:39:04,719 --> 00:39:07,279
Speaker 1: in life. I don't even want to date a white guy.

712
00:39:07,400 --> 00:39:09,319
Speaker 1: But if he was on Game of Thrones. Well then

713
00:39:09,360 --> 00:39:17,400
Speaker 1: that's different. But other than him, that's it. Like now,

714
00:39:17,560 --> 00:39:20,479
Speaker 1: I just first of all, I just felt like I'm

715
00:39:20,560 --> 00:39:24,520
Speaker 1: too like already in my culture. No, I'm pale stuck, yes,

716
00:39:25,080 --> 00:39:27,960
Speaker 1: but I'm too like into my culture. Like I just

717
00:39:28,040 --> 00:39:32,000
Speaker 1: like I don't know, and I know slavery occurred, and

718
00:39:32,040 --> 00:39:37,080
Speaker 1: I just can't get over it. Slavery into dating a

719
00:39:37,080 --> 00:39:40,120
Speaker 1: white guys the fact, yes, because that was his ancestors,

720
00:39:40,120 --> 00:39:42,160
Speaker 1: and I can't, like, I can't just act like that

721
00:39:42,200 --> 00:39:45,680
Speaker 1: didn't happen. He banned by association. I don't care. Yeah, lord,

722
00:39:45,920 --> 00:39:48,880
Speaker 1: I'm sorry. Like I just felt like, how can I

723
00:39:48,960 --> 00:39:52,600
Speaker 1: like teach my kids certain things and like masses living

724
00:39:52,680 --> 00:39:59,080
Speaker 1: with us? Oh my god, you're taking too far, Like

725
00:39:59,200 --> 00:40:02,520
Speaker 1: I need to know is understanding of the whole situation.

726
00:40:03,040 --> 00:40:04,879
Speaker 1: Let's back at that for a second. What if people,

727
00:40:05,000 --> 00:40:07,160
Speaker 1: what if a white guy bought to a Birkin? I

728
00:40:07,200 --> 00:40:11,560
Speaker 1: don't no, I really felt uncomfortable with like dating like

729
00:40:11,840 --> 00:40:16,640
Speaker 1: outside of like black, what about Asian? No, I never

730
00:40:16,719 --> 00:40:19,759
Speaker 1: dated nobody but a black person, And like my eye

731
00:40:20,040 --> 00:40:23,480
Speaker 1: at my ex boyfriend is have white, have black? And

732
00:40:23,520 --> 00:40:26,040
Speaker 1: we used to get into arguments over it because he's

733
00:40:26,080 --> 00:40:28,319
Speaker 1: like I think, like low key, like you have a

734
00:40:28,320 --> 00:40:32,239
Speaker 1: problem with me being white, and maybe I like it's

735
00:40:32,280 --> 00:40:35,319
Speaker 1: weird to me because like I don't feel like and

736
00:40:35,440 --> 00:40:38,200
Speaker 1: whatever people could judge me for this, but like we

737
00:40:38,640 --> 00:40:41,719
Speaker 1: like black people have never done that to a race

738
00:40:41,800 --> 00:40:44,640
Speaker 1: of people. So I just can't understand how like a

739
00:40:44,800 --> 00:40:48,080
Speaker 1: race of people, like white people could just like continuously

740
00:40:48,160 --> 00:40:50,719
Speaker 1: do it like they did it to Indian people black people.

741
00:40:50,760 --> 00:40:53,560
Speaker 1: So I do hold that against Like, yeah, you can't

742
00:40:53,600 --> 00:40:56,640
Speaker 1: hold that against people weren't even born when it happened.

743
00:40:56,680 --> 00:40:58,560
Speaker 1: I mean, it's not being born when it happened. Like

744
00:40:58,600 --> 00:41:01,080
Speaker 1: if they were, and if they were, what they was

745
00:41:01,120 --> 00:41:03,800
Speaker 1: gonna stop it? Like I just I don't know what

746
00:41:03,840 --> 00:41:06,480
Speaker 1: if they're extremely like pro black and they believe everything

747
00:41:06,520 --> 00:41:08,839
Speaker 1: and that's definite everything, see, then I might I might

748
00:41:08,840 --> 00:41:11,719
Speaker 1: look at that. I need to know that change the

749
00:41:11,840 --> 00:41:16,759
Speaker 1: race with the braids, And to me, that's a joke.

750
00:41:18,160 --> 00:41:21,279
Speaker 1: Now that's a joke. Yeah, I said Joe, Like if

751
00:41:21,320 --> 00:41:26,160
Speaker 1: he started wearing a high top face, yeah, like vanilla

752
00:41:26,239 --> 00:41:28,959
Speaker 1: ice flow, I would just think that was super Yeah,

753
00:41:29,000 --> 00:41:31,160
Speaker 1: I think he's trying to be black faced, Like this

754
00:41:31,239 --> 00:41:33,640
Speaker 1: is a joke, Like, but that's how I really look

755
00:41:33,680 --> 00:41:36,200
Speaker 1: at stuff like I got to know your views and

756
00:41:36,239 --> 00:41:38,440
Speaker 1: your opinions, and like how you feel about that is

757
00:41:38,480 --> 00:41:41,320
Speaker 1: your abews aren't in line with anything that you're against

758
00:41:41,360 --> 00:41:45,799
Speaker 1: and whatever you could Perhaps we just got to have

759
00:41:45,840 --> 00:41:48,359
Speaker 1: a long, deep discussion. Are these black guys treating you good?

760
00:41:48,360 --> 00:41:52,000
Speaker 1: Out here? Are the white guys like I don't haven't tried,

761
00:41:52,120 --> 00:41:55,640
Speaker 1: I mean that treated and the guys that ideal like

762
00:41:55,960 --> 00:42:00,560
Speaker 1: I've dealt with. I felt like white man, I I'm

763
00:42:00,600 --> 00:42:06,920
Speaker 1: not that type of like you never like that mentality

764
00:42:07,000 --> 00:42:10,160
Speaker 1: towards I would marry. I don't do it with friendship,

765
00:42:10,320 --> 00:42:13,400
Speaker 1: no friendship, Like it's not even allowing you to have

766
00:42:13,440 --> 00:42:16,120
Speaker 1: a friendship, because relationship starts for the friendship. We know

767
00:42:16,200 --> 00:42:21,279
Speaker 1: that I am. I was just answering white I did,

768
00:42:21,520 --> 00:42:25,880
Speaker 1: and I used to be where I did, used to

769
00:42:25,920 --> 00:42:28,840
Speaker 1: be white, and I would marry a white man. I would.

770
00:42:29,000 --> 00:42:31,000
Speaker 1: I couldn't see myself, let me say it like that,

771
00:42:31,080 --> 00:42:34,400
Speaker 1: because I am going to marry somebody else. But I

772
00:42:34,440 --> 00:42:39,440
Speaker 1: would see my girl, I mean part time. G was like,

773
00:42:39,480 --> 00:42:41,760
Speaker 1: I don't have to get married. I could never get married.

774
00:42:41,880 --> 00:42:44,640
Speaker 1: I don't even care about that. Yea, this wedding gonna

775
00:42:44,640 --> 00:42:46,839
Speaker 1: be lit that's all. I hope I'll get married because

776
00:42:46,840 --> 00:42:50,399
Speaker 1: I'm coming. You're gonna be yeah, and you'll be there.

777
00:42:50,480 --> 00:42:52,880
Speaker 1: You know him too. We're gonna be in his wedding. Girl,

778
00:42:52,920 --> 00:42:55,000
Speaker 1: We're gonna have so much fun. This wedding' gonna be popping.

779
00:42:55,080 --> 00:42:58,479
Speaker 1: First of all. Yes, if he makes he's gonna drink

780
00:42:58,560 --> 00:43:01,000
Speaker 1: so much to the first thing too drunk and misses.

781
00:43:01,440 --> 00:43:10,640
Speaker 1: I don't care. Yeah, but um, if I was, if

782
00:43:10,640 --> 00:43:14,200
Speaker 1: I was dating someone else and he's so happened to

783
00:43:14,239 --> 00:43:18,640
Speaker 1: be Caucasian, I would not put marriage out because that

784
00:43:19,000 --> 00:43:20,680
Speaker 1: because of the fact that he's talking, I feel because

785
00:43:20,880 --> 00:43:24,640
Speaker 1: my mom married a Chinese man, I can say, like

786
00:43:24,760 --> 00:43:27,560
Speaker 1: who you should I shouldn't be with. That's why conversations

787
00:43:27,640 --> 00:43:29,879
Speaker 1: like this are kind of like sho didn't work out,

788
00:43:29,880 --> 00:43:33,280
Speaker 1: But conversations like this are kind of like, Okay, why

789
00:43:33,360 --> 00:43:35,360
Speaker 1: can't we like marry who we went? And I have

790
00:43:35,400 --> 00:43:38,600
Speaker 1: to think about things like that. Well. Also, religion takes

791
00:43:38,640 --> 00:43:41,320
Speaker 1: like a big party. The one white guy that I

792
00:43:41,360 --> 00:43:44,120
Speaker 1: was talking to was Jewish, and his whole thing for

793
00:43:44,320 --> 00:43:46,320
Speaker 1: we wasn't even talking to each other for that long,

794
00:43:46,719 --> 00:43:48,520
Speaker 1: but his whole thing was like, I can never marry

795
00:43:48,520 --> 00:43:52,680
Speaker 1: you because you know, and I was just like, how

796
00:43:52,680 --> 00:43:55,719
Speaker 1: did we start talking about marriage? Like, but you see

797
00:43:55,719 --> 00:43:58,440
Speaker 1: how they like but you see how they do that,

798
00:43:58,520 --> 00:44:00,680
Speaker 1: and nobody think that's weird. But if I say I

799
00:44:00,719 --> 00:44:03,080
Speaker 1: only want to date a black man, everybody look at

800
00:44:03,120 --> 00:44:06,279
Speaker 1: me like I'm crazy. Who are a Muslim? And I mean,

801
00:44:06,320 --> 00:44:08,920
Speaker 1: who dated like Muslim and change their whole religion? Yeah,

802
00:44:08,920 --> 00:44:11,000
Speaker 1: they've changed their religion, but I can't change it to

803
00:44:11,040 --> 00:44:13,799
Speaker 1: a white woman and he can't change it a black man,

804
00:44:14,280 --> 00:44:16,160
Speaker 1: you know, But this is what I'm saying, why do

805
00:44:16,200 --> 00:44:18,560
Speaker 1: you have to chan relige? Like yeah, but that's they

806
00:44:18,640 --> 00:44:20,840
Speaker 1: date within their religion and I want to date with

807
00:44:20,960 --> 00:44:23,399
Speaker 1: and who I like like And I don't think because

808
00:44:23,400 --> 00:44:26,319
Speaker 1: I know because I felt like I am gonna get

809
00:44:26,440 --> 00:44:29,320
Speaker 1: like I already know how shild goes, like I already

810
00:44:29,320 --> 00:44:31,200
Speaker 1: know how she go and I don't care because that's

811
00:44:31,239 --> 00:44:33,239
Speaker 1: me and this is my life and can nobody. I

812
00:44:33,239 --> 00:44:36,719
Speaker 1: don't care. I love it, but the fact that the

813
00:44:36,760 --> 00:44:39,800
Speaker 1: matter is like somebody will bash me for that, and like,

814
00:44:40,000 --> 00:44:45,520
Speaker 1: you know, look at jew Jewish people or Islamic culture, like, Okay,

815
00:44:45,520 --> 00:44:47,480
Speaker 1: that makes sense to me, I guess because it's a

816
00:44:47,480 --> 00:44:52,000
Speaker 1: religion or whatever. But that's how that's my view. Yeah,

817
00:44:52,120 --> 00:44:53,879
Speaker 1: and that's how I feel, you know what I mean.

818
00:44:54,000 --> 00:44:55,719
Speaker 1: And I feel like i'm a little too hood Like

819
00:44:56,000 --> 00:44:58,800
Speaker 1: I'm gonna come around the family like what's father y'all good?

820
00:44:59,360 --> 00:45:01,520
Speaker 1: They're gonna be like the fund is this bit? She

821
00:45:01,800 --> 00:45:05,160
Speaker 1: I thought she looked like us. She do. Yeah, But

822
00:45:05,239 --> 00:45:09,240
Speaker 1: then once I opened my mouth like like nigga na

823
00:45:10,320 --> 00:45:14,160
Speaker 1: na about a relationship, like even like I think that

824
00:45:14,320 --> 00:45:16,840
Speaker 1: you before even get to the point of a conversation

825
00:45:16,880 --> 00:45:19,799
Speaker 1: about marriage. You guys should have a complete understanding of

826
00:45:19,840 --> 00:45:22,200
Speaker 1: each other and be completely comfortable with each other, Like

827
00:45:22,280 --> 00:45:24,000
Speaker 1: y'all should be able to take a ship around each other.

828
00:45:24,719 --> 00:45:27,040
Speaker 1: Never it is like, but I don't agree with that,

829
00:45:27,080 --> 00:45:31,080
Speaker 1: and I think i'm because that's how you know you

830
00:45:31,160 --> 00:45:33,200
Speaker 1: really with somebody, Bil, when you could take a ship

831
00:45:33,719 --> 00:45:38,000
Speaker 1: and not care that remember, I'm not even gonna remember

832
00:45:38,080 --> 00:45:40,040
Speaker 1: I always used to be like scared, and I know

833
00:45:40,160 --> 00:45:41,759
Speaker 1: some women that were like I would like they would

834
00:45:41,840 --> 00:45:45,280
Speaker 1: never see me wrap. But so like he was sleeping

835
00:45:45,360 --> 00:45:46,800
Speaker 1: and I went to the bad thing when I liked

836
00:45:46,840 --> 00:45:48,160
Speaker 1: all the tricks that opened the wind, I left the

837
00:45:48,200 --> 00:45:50,000
Speaker 1: window open and then he came out. He was like,

838
00:45:50,040 --> 00:45:51,360
Speaker 1: you think I don't know you took a ship, like

839
00:45:51,400 --> 00:45:53,520
Speaker 1: you left the window open that see, that's the problem

840
00:45:53,600 --> 00:45:55,040
Speaker 1: you told like yourself. You should have been like, I

841
00:45:55,080 --> 00:45:56,600
Speaker 1: don't know what you're talking. But then I just laughed

842
00:45:56,600 --> 00:45:58,839
Speaker 1: about it and then like it was normal, like reason,

843
00:45:59,080 --> 00:46:02,440
Speaker 1: your man, you could ship with the door open. Yeah, listen,

844
00:46:02,600 --> 00:46:05,000
Speaker 1: my boyfriend, I'd be like, hey, don't come in here

845
00:46:05,040 --> 00:46:07,120
Speaker 1: because I'm not taking ship. And I tell you and

846
00:46:07,120 --> 00:46:09,040
Speaker 1: I think that let me take you some I lived

847
00:46:09,080 --> 00:46:11,879
Speaker 1: up somebody for years and he never seen I had

848
00:46:11,880 --> 00:46:13,719
Speaker 1: a friend like that. I had a friend like that before.

849
00:46:13,880 --> 00:46:17,080
Speaker 1: She wouldn't even Yeah, she wouldn't even if he was

850
00:46:17,120 --> 00:46:19,879
Speaker 1: in the house, Like she wouldn't even going to another back. Yeah,

851
00:46:20,000 --> 00:46:25,440
Speaker 1: I would like that's nasty. I just feel like women.

852
00:46:25,560 --> 00:46:28,360
Speaker 1: But you're gonna see your fingering his but yeah, I

853
00:46:28,440 --> 00:46:30,600
Speaker 1: think he cleans it though he got to be out

854
00:46:30,640 --> 00:46:32,600
Speaker 1: the shower. You're in there looking his ass and you

855
00:46:32,680 --> 00:46:36,920
Speaker 1: can't out the shower. Listen, that's the door open. I'm

856
00:46:36,920 --> 00:46:39,200
Speaker 1: not I'm not like walking into the bathroom while he

857
00:46:39,239 --> 00:46:41,279
Speaker 1: shouldn't and be like, um, can we order some food?

858
00:46:41,480 --> 00:46:46,400
Speaker 1: Like same? See, I know he should. It's me that

859
00:46:46,600 --> 00:46:49,359
Speaker 1: why can't. I just felt like, well, women like at

860
00:46:49,400 --> 00:46:52,200
Speaker 1: certain things that we should we should not have out.

861
00:46:52,440 --> 00:46:54,759
Speaker 1: I'm not gonna put my bloody tampon on the on

862
00:46:54,800 --> 00:46:56,400
Speaker 1: the floor neath them. Yeah, you know to put your

863
00:46:56,400 --> 00:47:00,319
Speaker 1: ship on the floor either, that's crazy smelling. And know

864
00:47:00,480 --> 00:47:03,080
Speaker 1: that y'all tell him I have my period, right if

865
00:47:03,080 --> 00:47:05,879
Speaker 1: I can't be free with you, I agree with that.

866
00:47:06,400 --> 00:47:08,040
Speaker 1: And look, I don't want you to smell my ship

867
00:47:08,120 --> 00:47:11,759
Speaker 1: coming the bathroom. I'm taking a ship, like, yeah, but

868
00:47:11,800 --> 00:47:14,919
Speaker 1: why do you have to share? Because I have the time,

869
00:47:15,000 --> 00:47:16,480
Speaker 1: so he don't try to come in the bathroom like

870
00:47:16,520 --> 00:47:20,359
Speaker 1: he always does when I'm in there to be got

871
00:47:20,360 --> 00:47:22,040
Speaker 1: I always go in the bathroom, but he has like

872
00:47:22,200 --> 00:47:24,600
Speaker 1: bathroom time, Like who's sitting in the bathroom for hours

873
00:47:24,640 --> 00:47:26,520
Speaker 1: in the morning. And if I want to ask him

874
00:47:26,520 --> 00:47:28,840
Speaker 1: a question or tell him something while he's on the toilet,

875
00:47:28,840 --> 00:47:30,279
Speaker 1: I'm not even gonna knock. I'm just gonna open the

876
00:47:30,280 --> 00:47:32,759
Speaker 1: door and be like, babe, da la la. I don't

877
00:47:32,760 --> 00:47:36,080
Speaker 1: care if I smell the ship, So I don't want

878
00:47:37,160 --> 00:47:38,799
Speaker 1: to be sitting on the toilet. I don't know what

879
00:47:38,800 --> 00:47:40,480
Speaker 1: he's doing. I'm gonna open the door and talk. I'm

880
00:47:40,480 --> 00:47:43,120
Speaker 1: not gonna shot in the bathroom for mad long. You're

881
00:47:43,120 --> 00:47:45,080
Speaker 1: just like what's going on in there? Like, I know

882
00:47:45,160 --> 00:47:47,120
Speaker 1: he's taking the ship, so I'm gonna leave him alone.

883
00:47:47,600 --> 00:47:50,760
Speaker 1: I'm gonna ask him that you want to trade. Sometimes

884
00:47:50,760 --> 00:47:52,239
Speaker 1: they just be sitting on the toilet and not doing

885
00:47:52,239 --> 00:47:55,799
Speaker 1: nothing on the constipated and they gotta go. You know,

886
00:47:55,840 --> 00:47:57,840
Speaker 1: they're not eating how they're supposed to. So don't just

887
00:47:57,920 --> 00:48:01,319
Speaker 1: drop right out, you know, excuse that. You know what

888
00:48:01,360 --> 00:48:03,439
Speaker 1: I love? I love the drop right now? Shall only

889
00:48:03,480 --> 00:48:06,320
Speaker 1: take you thirty seconds to ship. My best friend would

890
00:48:06,320 --> 00:48:08,960
Speaker 1: go to the back room while her husband was taking

891
00:48:08,960 --> 00:48:10,399
Speaker 1: a ship and like sit on his lap and talk

892
00:48:10,440 --> 00:48:12,120
Speaker 1: to him while he's on They see, I'm not going

893
00:48:12,160 --> 00:48:17,160
Speaker 1: to sit on his lappy. Now, that's too far. I listen.

894
00:48:17,280 --> 00:48:19,040
Speaker 1: I might pop my head in and ask him a

895
00:48:19,120 --> 00:48:21,000
Speaker 1: question or tell him something, but that as far as

896
00:48:21,000 --> 00:48:24,040
Speaker 1: it goes, I'm not gonna sit. And remember when they

897
00:48:24,080 --> 00:48:26,000
Speaker 1: had that reality he stuck his finger in her but

898
00:48:26,280 --> 00:48:28,560
Speaker 1: and her ship was kind. She was kind, and he

899
00:48:28,640 --> 00:48:32,440
Speaker 1: stuck but her but and losing up her bowels. That's

900
00:48:32,440 --> 00:48:35,840
Speaker 1: what your man supposed to do. I don't want what's

901
00:48:35,880 --> 00:48:38,400
Speaker 1: wrong with y'all? That was brought me with me, that

902
00:48:38,520 --> 00:48:41,160
Speaker 1: was me, No y'all got me. I mean that's that

903
00:48:41,360 --> 00:48:43,879
Speaker 1: is no, that's disgusting, but that when you get old,

904
00:48:43,920 --> 00:48:46,160
Speaker 1: inky and move and I gotta change your diaper, that's

905
00:48:46,160 --> 00:48:49,000
Speaker 1: the only time I'm trying to see some kind And

906
00:48:49,080 --> 00:48:53,760
Speaker 1: I love no, you gotta love nigga for nine years.

907
00:48:53,920 --> 00:48:56,000
Speaker 1: And you know what's crazy is that Larry I would

908
00:48:56,000 --> 00:48:57,719
Speaker 1: be at my house taking the ship with the door open.

909
00:48:57,800 --> 00:49:01,040
Speaker 1: Talking to me is a liar. You alright, set your lie.

910
00:49:01,120 --> 00:49:03,680
Speaker 1: I will pee with the door open, for sure, you definitely.

911
00:49:03,880 --> 00:49:09,879
Speaker 1: I will not ship with the door open. You read

912
00:49:09,920 --> 00:49:13,960
Speaker 1: the book. I just get closter if you don't shoot

913
00:49:14,520 --> 00:49:19,440
Speaker 1: me too. Even so, everybody got it out. Listen, my bathroom,

914
00:49:19,800 --> 00:49:21,960
Speaker 1: we have a water closet. You know, when the toilet

915
00:49:22,080 --> 00:49:24,480
Speaker 1: in the shower is separated from the rest of the bathroom.

916
00:49:24,520 --> 00:49:33,800
Speaker 1: I'm not that I live in Brooklyn, especially got a day.

917
00:49:35,000 --> 00:49:37,800
Speaker 1: I got it. I'm lucky to have a second bedroom

918
00:49:38,040 --> 00:49:41,160
Speaker 1: and this mother. Okay, well, anyway, so the toilet is

919
00:49:41,200 --> 00:49:44,200
Speaker 1: behind a closed door. I won't close that door because

920
00:49:44,200 --> 00:49:47,520
Speaker 1: it's like a small space. So I leave that door room.

921
00:49:47,560 --> 00:49:49,840
Speaker 1: And then you got like this. The bathroom is separated

922
00:49:49,840 --> 00:49:51,879
Speaker 1: from the shower. Everything like that, I leave the door.

923
00:49:52,239 --> 00:49:55,440
Speaker 1: I close the door still, I just have your claustrophobic.

924
00:49:55,480 --> 00:49:56,799
Speaker 1: I don't know what's going on out in the rest

925
00:49:56,840 --> 00:49:58,440
Speaker 1: of the world. Like we don't want you to have

926
00:49:58,480 --> 00:50:01,520
Speaker 1: no attack on the toilet. No, I just need to,

927
00:50:01,560 --> 00:50:03,799
Speaker 1: like I need to be like I need to that's

928
00:50:05,040 --> 00:50:06,440
Speaker 1: you want to know what's going on in the rest

929
00:50:06,480 --> 00:50:08,000
Speaker 1: of the world. That's why nigg is be in the back.

930
00:50:08,880 --> 00:50:13,319
Speaker 1: I can think I just have claustrophobia. Alright, we're just

931
00:50:13,360 --> 00:50:15,640
Speaker 1: seeing sky listen. I know you've got a lot going on.

932
00:50:16,000 --> 00:50:22,600
Speaker 1: The holidays are coming up going. I feel like we

933
00:50:22,719 --> 00:50:26,680
Speaker 1: learned a lot about your emotional self. No, I'm so emotional,

934
00:50:27,120 --> 00:50:29,240
Speaker 1: Like it's it's it's it's a gift in a curse.

935
00:50:29,920 --> 00:50:32,120
Speaker 1: I like that. I want to be more emotional. But

936
00:50:32,160 --> 00:50:33,880
Speaker 1: I'm not like I'm not ashamed of my emotions. Like

937
00:50:33,920 --> 00:50:35,200
Speaker 1: I'm just like I know I'm saying, I like it.

938
00:50:35,239 --> 00:50:37,400
Speaker 1: I want to be more of an emotional person. I

939
00:50:37,400 --> 00:50:41,920
Speaker 1: want to cry during sex. I used to want my emotion.

940
00:50:42,000 --> 00:50:43,799
Speaker 1: I want to I really want to. Yeah, I want

941
00:50:43,840 --> 00:50:47,239
Speaker 1: them to why some times? But now I'm just like,

942
00:50:47,360 --> 00:50:51,719
Speaker 1: you know what, embrace your embracing Now. I think I

943
00:50:51,880 --> 00:50:55,360
Speaker 1: was raised in an emotionless environment. And so I can

944
00:50:55,440 --> 00:50:59,319
Speaker 1: see that because and just very like you're very like, yeah,

945
00:50:59,400 --> 00:51:01,640
Speaker 1: I'm not like, I'm not an emotional person. I cry

946
00:51:01,719 --> 00:51:04,280
Speaker 1: over everything. Everything makes me cry. I'd be like Angela

947
00:51:04,360 --> 00:51:09,759
Speaker 1: because you don't understand me. And my sister we cried

948
00:51:09,800 --> 00:51:11,440
Speaker 1: the other day because we were singing like a Christmas

949
00:51:12,640 --> 00:51:15,000
Speaker 1: I was telling my friend about a Christmas song. It

950
00:51:15,120 --> 00:51:20,440
Speaker 1: was like, it's like it's a song about like call

951
00:51:20,520 --> 00:51:22,560
Speaker 1: Christmas Shoes and it's about this little kid. He wants

952
00:51:22,600 --> 00:51:24,200
Speaker 1: to buy shoes for his mom because she's about to

953
00:51:24,200 --> 00:51:26,520
Speaker 1: die and he wants her to look pretty Jesus. So

954
00:51:28,760 --> 00:51:31,160
Speaker 1: we were saying the songs and terrible kicks about the

955
00:51:31,200 --> 00:51:35,200
Speaker 1: crying story dying. Damn, we were saying a song and

956
00:51:35,239 --> 00:51:40,000
Speaker 1: we just started crying. Why are we song? Why my

957
00:51:40,239 --> 00:51:43,520
Speaker 1: eyes tearing enough? Like? Why is she died? Remember a

958
00:51:43,560 --> 00:51:50,360
Speaker 1: little Timmy is wrong with you know Christmas songs? And listen,

959
00:51:52,480 --> 00:51:55,680
Speaker 1: I'm mad as I hate Christmas song? Christmas song? Who

960
00:51:55,719 --> 00:51:58,959
Speaker 1: does sings love Christmas? Chris? I was some country singer

961
00:51:59,760 --> 00:52:04,600
Speaker 1: that's not the sad and weird? Is this Christmas is

962
00:52:04,680 --> 00:52:08,120
Speaker 1: the best? Um Christmas? What's the sad Christmas song? Oh

963
00:52:08,200 --> 00:52:11,160
Speaker 1: my god, y'all ever listened to Okay, you might not

964
00:52:11,239 --> 00:52:15,400
Speaker 1: have a song you know wham last Christmas. Last Christmas,

965
00:52:15,840 --> 00:52:19,319
Speaker 1: I gave you my heart and the very next day

966
00:52:19,520 --> 00:52:23,800
Speaker 1: that's a save it away. That's a sad Christmas. I

967
00:52:23,840 --> 00:52:27,600
Speaker 1: actually did like a remake Get out of here? Did

968
00:52:27,680 --> 00:52:32,080
Speaker 1: you give so who? That's It's so weird though, because

969
00:52:32,160 --> 00:52:35,080
Speaker 1: like around the holidays, I never really have like a

970
00:52:35,160 --> 00:52:38,200
Speaker 1: person like I don't know what that means. Ship ain't

971
00:52:38,239 --> 00:52:40,760
Speaker 1: wanna buy no gifts? Right, they'd be like twenty seconds,

972
00:52:43,960 --> 00:52:46,839
Speaker 1: you ain't want to buy no, But I know how

973
00:52:46,880 --> 00:52:48,359
Speaker 1: it sounds like I only want to buy you a gift,

974
00:52:48,400 --> 00:52:51,560
Speaker 1: but like around my birthday, around like Valentine's Day, like

975
00:52:51,600 --> 00:52:56,560
Speaker 1: the holidays, like I'm always single, damn crazy. But they

976
00:52:56,640 --> 00:52:59,960
Speaker 1: do say that the holidays is like for relationships, that's

977
00:53:00,040 --> 00:53:04,720
Speaker 1: the hardest time. Really, your boyfriend one time during Christmas

978
00:53:04,760 --> 00:53:06,200
Speaker 1: and he was so weird, Like I brought him to

979
00:53:06,239 --> 00:53:08,360
Speaker 1: my grandma house and he was just weird. That's the

980
00:53:08,440 --> 00:53:10,719
Speaker 1: wackiest part when you gotta bring them with you and

981
00:53:10,760 --> 00:53:13,000
Speaker 1: the next year they're like, my family is Jamaican, so

982
00:53:13,040 --> 00:53:18,680
Speaker 1: everybody's just staring at man. That's awkward. Do your parents

983
00:53:18,760 --> 00:53:24,800
Speaker 1: ever like anybody you dated? My mom is very like picky.

984
00:53:25,040 --> 00:53:28,800
Speaker 1: She hates everyone, every guy that like every but she

985
00:53:29,040 --> 00:53:34,080
Speaker 1: she has she has like she's like one guy, the

986
00:53:34,239 --> 00:53:37,239
Speaker 1: two guys. She's like two guys and they turned out

987
00:53:37,239 --> 00:53:40,759
Speaker 1: to be the worst. She has no judgment. I don't

988
00:53:40,800 --> 00:53:43,120
Speaker 1: like him, him him, don't talk to him. But you

989
00:53:43,239 --> 00:53:45,680
Speaker 1: can't be like that because then, I mean, like, I

990
00:53:45,760 --> 00:53:48,800
Speaker 1: feel like the like the craziest thing about relationship. You

991
00:53:48,840 --> 00:53:52,040
Speaker 1: don't want to like have your close friends or your

992
00:53:52,080 --> 00:53:54,880
Speaker 1: parents or your family hate that person. I don't have

993
00:53:55,040 --> 00:53:56,799
Speaker 1: nobody to talk to, even though you're supposed to talk

994
00:53:56,840 --> 00:53:59,160
Speaker 1: to them, and those times like when you're going through

995
00:53:59,200 --> 00:54:02,120
Speaker 1: ship and you're just like and sometimes you don't want

996
00:54:02,160 --> 00:54:03,880
Speaker 1: to tell them what's really going on, because then if

997
00:54:03,920 --> 00:54:06,200
Speaker 1: y'all work things out, you know, to bring up the ship.

998
00:54:07,080 --> 00:54:11,040
Speaker 1: I regretted saying so many things before too, especially Angela,

999
00:54:11,800 --> 00:54:17,960
Speaker 1: mostly Angela, But that's why i'd be right, Yeah, remember

1000
00:54:20,360 --> 00:54:22,600
Speaker 1: should be like, yeah, this happened, is happening. I was like, girl,

1001
00:54:22,640 --> 00:54:24,719
Speaker 1: you cannot stay with him. She'll be like, I tell

1002
00:54:24,800 --> 00:54:27,480
Speaker 1: you you can't tell Angela ship. Yeah, I would be

1003
00:54:27,560 --> 00:54:29,480
Speaker 1: like she slapped my mom. He slapped my mom and

1004
00:54:29,600 --> 00:54:31,560
Speaker 1: then this happened, and it should be like I could

1005
00:54:31,640 --> 00:54:34,040
Speaker 1: change him, I know, I'm like, he slept old, not

1006
00:54:34,360 --> 00:54:42,040
Speaker 1: my mom. Don't don't burn anybody. But in our reality,

1007
00:54:42,320 --> 00:54:44,759
Speaker 1: you know, your friends are a good judge because they

1008
00:54:44,800 --> 00:54:48,640
Speaker 1: care about you. Yeah, but you know, but sometimes your friends,

1009
00:54:48,760 --> 00:54:50,880
Speaker 1: just like your mom, not saying your mom or like

1010
00:54:51,080 --> 00:54:54,040
Speaker 1: my mom or anybody's mom, could be a bit overprotective.

1011
00:54:54,600 --> 00:54:56,960
Speaker 1: And then okay, sometimes you gotta learn your own lessons

1012
00:54:57,040 --> 00:54:59,400
Speaker 1: for yourself, you know what. And it does make it

1013
00:54:59,560 --> 00:55:02,359
Speaker 1: hard to go and talk to them when you felt like, damn,

1014
00:55:02,480 --> 00:55:05,400
Speaker 1: like they this person, yeah, oh my god, her expect

1015
00:55:05,480 --> 00:55:06,960
Speaker 1: I wouldn't even going nowhere with them, She was like,

1016
00:55:07,000 --> 00:55:10,400
Speaker 1: you would have all the time and then just towhere

1017
00:55:10,560 --> 00:55:12,439
Speaker 1: like and I'm like, but you can't do that, because

1018
00:55:12,480 --> 00:55:15,600
Speaker 1: that's my lesson to learn. Like sometimes like and I've

1019
00:55:15,640 --> 00:55:17,560
Speaker 1: had to do that with friends. I hadn't like their

1020
00:55:17,680 --> 00:55:20,200
Speaker 1: boyfriends or whatever the case, but I had to remember, like,

1021
00:55:20,640 --> 00:55:22,799
Speaker 1: that's not me, that's not my ship. I'm not about

1022
00:55:22,800 --> 00:55:24,759
Speaker 1: to be fake, but they'll stop working with you over

1023
00:55:24,800 --> 00:55:27,400
Speaker 1: there there like that, I ain't gonna be there with

1024
00:55:27,440 --> 00:55:30,840
Speaker 1: he there. Yeah. But then they want you to be.

1025
00:55:30,920 --> 00:55:34,080
Speaker 1: It's like we're like balance of like if it's your birthday,

1026
00:55:34,360 --> 00:55:36,239
Speaker 1: it's not some serious but I ain't gonna hang out

1027
00:55:36,320 --> 00:55:37,800
Speaker 1: in my space. I'm not about to sit there and like.

1028
00:55:39,800 --> 00:55:42,400
Speaker 1: But it's like, that's that's the wackest thing. When you

1029
00:55:42,600 --> 00:55:47,200
Speaker 1: can't get your boyfriend and your closest friends to get along.

1030
00:55:47,520 --> 00:55:50,839
Speaker 1: That's why it's your fault stop being a bit Yeah,

1031
00:55:50,880 --> 00:55:53,879
Speaker 1: But it's also your fault for telling your business too,

1032
00:55:53,920 --> 00:55:55,960
Speaker 1: because if you didn't know that, you still would have

1033
00:55:56,040 --> 00:55:58,040
Speaker 1: liked yeah. But sometimes it's something that you'd be like

1034
00:55:58,120 --> 00:56:00,680
Speaker 1: that's unforgivable, Like you could certain thing you're like, Okay,

1035
00:56:01,320 --> 00:56:03,359
Speaker 1: they got into a fight whatever, whatever, But some things

1036
00:56:03,440 --> 00:56:06,520
Speaker 1: you're like, he's a fund up person. Yeah, Yeah, some

1037
00:56:06,680 --> 00:56:09,600
Speaker 1: people don't. That's why a lot of people don't bring

1038
00:56:09,800 --> 00:56:14,080
Speaker 1: their significant other around their friends. And then you get

1039
00:56:14,120 --> 00:56:15,600
Speaker 1: to the point where just like wait, like where is

1040
00:56:15,640 --> 00:56:18,279
Speaker 1: my friend? Like I'm losing my friends with this person

1041
00:56:18,360 --> 00:56:20,839
Speaker 1: all the time. Sometimes if you love the person, it's

1042
00:56:20,880 --> 00:56:22,600
Speaker 1: like how are you supposed to deal with that? Too?

1043
00:56:22,760 --> 00:56:24,640
Speaker 1: But sometimes you don't want to mix that world those

1044
00:56:24,680 --> 00:56:26,640
Speaker 1: two rings, and I don't I don't ever want to

1045
00:56:26,680 --> 00:56:29,120
Speaker 1: be in that situation where I can't bring the person

1046
00:56:29,200 --> 00:56:31,279
Speaker 1: I'm in love with around all the other people that

1047
00:56:31,320 --> 00:56:34,759
Speaker 1: I love. So when my situation it went from being

1048
00:56:34,880 --> 00:56:37,920
Speaker 1: like everything was good to like it got like physical,

1049
00:56:38,280 --> 00:56:40,600
Speaker 1: you know what I mean, And then I confide it

1050
00:56:41,120 --> 00:56:43,480
Speaker 1: and you know what I mean, and I'll let her know,

1051
00:56:43,719 --> 00:56:46,400
Speaker 1: like this is what's going on. So I mean, I

1052
00:56:46,600 --> 00:56:49,240
Speaker 1: never expected her to just be like, oh, it's physical,

1053
00:56:49,440 --> 00:56:52,000
Speaker 1: ha ha ha, come on, let's all be friends. I

1054
00:56:52,120 --> 00:56:54,000
Speaker 1: never thought that that was gonna happen, you know what

1055
00:56:54,080 --> 00:56:56,759
Speaker 1: I mean. But at the same time, it's like if

1056
00:56:56,880 --> 00:56:59,800
Speaker 1: I it's a hard, sticky situation because she's supposed to

1057
00:56:59,880 --> 00:57:02,360
Speaker 1: be my friend and be like, yo, you know what

1058
00:57:02,480 --> 00:57:05,040
Speaker 1: I mean, get away from him. But at the same time,

1059
00:57:05,200 --> 00:57:08,360
Speaker 1: if I'm not getting away from him, and I know

1060
00:57:08,600 --> 00:57:11,879
Speaker 1: that I'm like cause of the problem, to like I'm

1061
00:57:11,920 --> 00:57:14,520
Speaker 1: the one doing this ship too, like putting my hands

1062
00:57:14,600 --> 00:57:16,840
Speaker 1: on him or whatever the case. It was kind of

1063
00:57:16,960 --> 00:57:19,560
Speaker 1: hard for me in that situation to figure out like,

1064
00:57:20,160 --> 00:57:22,880
Speaker 1: all right, I don't want to lose my friend or whatever,

1065
00:57:23,000 --> 00:57:24,640
Speaker 1: but I do love this guy and I know the

1066
00:57:24,760 --> 00:57:27,720
Speaker 1: situation is fucked up. But in my mind, I would

1067
00:57:27,720 --> 00:57:30,600
Speaker 1: blame myself, like I should have never told hid that's

1068
00:57:30,600 --> 00:57:33,920
Speaker 1: how it would go down for me. Like, listen, I

1069
00:57:34,040 --> 00:57:35,480
Speaker 1: have and you know one of my other friends, I

1070
00:57:35,560 --> 00:57:39,200
Speaker 1: had to make her get a restraining order against her man.

1071
00:57:39,520 --> 00:57:41,640
Speaker 1: And you know that's hard, Like it's hard when you

1072
00:57:41,720 --> 00:57:44,560
Speaker 1: see your friend going through something and you're like, he

1073
00:57:44,600 --> 00:57:47,160
Speaker 1: ain't ship And I can't be around somebody that ain't ship.

1074
00:57:47,880 --> 00:57:52,480
Speaker 1: I just can't. I'm sorry, Like, am I wrong for that? No? No,

1075
00:57:52,640 --> 00:57:55,280
Speaker 1: you're not wrong. And I still be your friend. I mean,

1076
00:57:55,360 --> 00:57:58,760
Speaker 1: but that as as as someone's friend, you need to

1077
00:57:58,880 --> 00:58:00,760
Speaker 1: You can't sit there and make them think that that's okay.

1078
00:58:01,240 --> 00:58:03,120
Speaker 1: And if they if they want to hate you for that,

1079
00:58:03,360 --> 00:58:06,280
Speaker 1: then that's just what's gonna have to happen, because you

1080
00:58:06,400 --> 00:58:09,360
Speaker 1: love this person enough to let them know that they're

1081
00:58:09,360 --> 00:58:11,600
Speaker 1: in a dangerous situation. And I feel like, I also,

1082
00:58:11,640 --> 00:58:13,640
Speaker 1: I'm not gonna keep rubbing it in your face because

1083
00:58:13,680 --> 00:58:16,720
Speaker 1: I know, like sometimes it makes people not mode stuff, right,

1084
00:58:17,040 --> 00:58:18,720
Speaker 1: So if I if I'm like like, I'll tell you,

1085
00:58:19,440 --> 00:58:20,720
Speaker 1: I'm not going to preach to you all the time

1086
00:58:20,720 --> 00:58:22,560
Speaker 1: because you are gonna do what you're gonna do. But

1087
00:58:22,720 --> 00:58:25,000
Speaker 1: until you figure it out yourself and come around, I

1088
00:58:25,080 --> 00:58:29,320
Speaker 1: can't be around that and it's understandable now, But like,

1089
00:58:29,480 --> 00:58:31,520
Speaker 1: I know you had this situation as well. Did you

1090
00:58:31,600 --> 00:58:34,160
Speaker 1: feel like you lost certain friends when you were going

1091
00:58:34,280 --> 00:58:40,920
Speaker 1: through like anything domestic violence situation. I lost my friends,

1092
00:58:41,680 --> 00:58:45,160
Speaker 1: but I gained friends and who were just real and

1093
00:58:45,200 --> 00:58:47,240
Speaker 1: who were around all the time. But I didn't know,

1094
00:58:47,640 --> 00:58:50,160
Speaker 1: like I didn't know how real they were because I

1095
00:58:50,200 --> 00:58:52,880
Speaker 1: was so caught up in this like other world. And

1096
00:58:53,960 --> 00:58:55,720
Speaker 1: even there's some friends that I have right now, they

1097
00:58:55,760 --> 00:58:59,240
Speaker 1: are going to the same situation and I'm just being

1098
00:59:00,360 --> 00:59:02,400
Speaker 1: like I'm being that friend that's been supportive and just

1099
00:59:02,600 --> 00:59:05,920
Speaker 1: but not being not sugarcoating anything. That's what you can't do.

1100
00:59:06,040 --> 00:59:08,360
Speaker 1: You can't let them know that it's like like you're

1101
00:59:08,440 --> 00:59:10,880
Speaker 1: it's fine, like I know you love him, like guys

1102
00:59:10,880 --> 00:59:13,360
Speaker 1: will work it out, because it's not. You can't let

1103
00:59:13,440 --> 00:59:15,880
Speaker 1: them know that or make them even think for one

1104
00:59:16,000 --> 00:59:18,840
Speaker 1: second that whatever is happening it's okay, or that it's

1105
00:59:18,880 --> 00:59:20,800
Speaker 1: your fault. And if you call me and you know,

1106
00:59:21,000 --> 00:59:23,000
Speaker 1: you could come stay at my house when she gets

1107
00:59:23,040 --> 00:59:25,800
Speaker 1: too crazy, but I'm gonna still tell you, like, and

1108
00:59:25,880 --> 00:59:27,680
Speaker 1: it's hard. It's hard when you have a friend that's

1109
00:59:27,680 --> 00:59:30,200
Speaker 1: going through something and they go back and you can't

1110
00:59:30,280 --> 00:59:32,440
Speaker 1: stop it. You can't, but you can tell them. You

1111
00:59:32,480 --> 00:59:34,640
Speaker 1: can just show them the fact, right. I can't stop

1112
00:59:34,720 --> 00:59:36,320
Speaker 1: you from doing what you're gonna do, because I don't

1113
00:59:36,320 --> 00:59:38,160
Speaker 1: want you to feel like you can't tell me anything.

1114
00:59:38,560 --> 00:59:40,160
Speaker 1: But at the same time, I can't not tell you

1115
00:59:40,640 --> 00:59:43,240
Speaker 1: it's fucked up. You can't force somebody leave out of

1116
00:59:43,280 --> 00:59:45,920
Speaker 1: a situation. You can't the person have to wake up

1117
00:59:46,040 --> 00:59:48,720
Speaker 1: and be like, listen, I don't I need better than this,

1118
00:59:49,400 --> 00:59:52,480
Speaker 1: or whatever the case, or even like I have friends

1119
00:59:52,560 --> 00:59:54,840
Speaker 1: that like have literally put their hands on to do

1120
00:59:55,040 --> 00:59:59,120
Speaker 1: first and continuously like and he's might not done nothing

1121
00:59:59,200 --> 01:00:01,520
Speaker 1: to them, and they are the abusive ones. And I

1122
01:00:01,680 --> 01:00:03,440
Speaker 1: even have to talk to them like you can't do

1123
01:00:03,560 --> 01:00:06,160
Speaker 1: that because one day he's gonna snap and he's gonna

1124
01:00:06,200 --> 01:00:07,640
Speaker 1: put his hands and no one sho put their hands

1125
01:00:07,680 --> 01:00:11,200
Speaker 1: on anybody. I listen, I know a few girls that

1126
01:00:11,320 --> 01:00:13,240
Speaker 1: you're not supposed to. You're not supposed to, but I

1127
01:00:13,320 --> 01:00:15,680
Speaker 1: don't think that's okay either, you get what I'm saying.

1128
01:00:15,880 --> 01:00:19,360
Speaker 1: I got to the point where, like I was so man,

1129
01:00:19,520 --> 01:00:21,240
Speaker 1: I started doing the ship, you know what I mean,

1130
01:00:21,320 --> 01:00:23,440
Speaker 1: And then I noticed and I got out of the

1131
01:00:23,560 --> 01:00:26,600
Speaker 1: relationship and I got in a relation, not relationship, but

1132
01:00:26,680 --> 01:00:28,320
Speaker 1: kinda I was about to get in a relationship with

1133
01:00:28,400 --> 01:00:32,160
Speaker 1: somebody else, and I noticed myself doing like abuse of

1134
01:00:32,320 --> 01:00:34,800
Speaker 1: kind of stuff, like one time to do he he

1135
01:00:35,000 --> 01:00:37,320
Speaker 1: wasn't listening to side and he was eating the food.

1136
01:00:37,400 --> 01:00:40,240
Speaker 1: I smacked the food out of his hand like and

1137
01:00:40,320 --> 01:00:42,360
Speaker 1: the ship went all on the floor. And I was

1138
01:00:42,480 --> 01:00:45,440
Speaker 1: like after I did it, though, like I was like, yo,

1139
01:00:45,560 --> 01:00:47,560
Speaker 1: what the fund did I just do? You know what

1140
01:00:47,680 --> 01:00:50,320
Speaker 1: I mean? Like I was bugging out like to me,

1141
01:00:50,960 --> 01:00:53,960
Speaker 1: but at the time, this is where I had came from,

1142
01:00:54,360 --> 01:00:56,920
Speaker 1: so this because that was normal. This was normal to me.

1143
01:00:57,120 --> 01:00:59,760
Speaker 1: Like I got a candle thrown in my face, like

1144
01:01:00,360 --> 01:01:01,960
Speaker 1: all kind of ship. You get what I'm saying. So

1145
01:01:02,400 --> 01:01:04,840
Speaker 1: I looked a ship like that like oh, I smacked

1146
01:01:04,880 --> 01:01:06,280
Speaker 1: this ship out and se him like no, I'm gonna

1147
01:01:06,280 --> 01:01:08,800
Speaker 1: get his attention. But then when I woke up and

1148
01:01:08,920 --> 01:01:11,880
Speaker 1: really like, I'm like, what the fun turned into some

1149
01:01:12,080 --> 01:01:14,880
Speaker 1: other I never did nothing like that before. But I

1150
01:01:15,040 --> 01:01:17,720
Speaker 1: carry it from the old relationship and bring it to

1151
01:01:17,840 --> 01:01:20,240
Speaker 1: the next month. And then that's when I knew I

1152
01:01:20,280 --> 01:01:22,320
Speaker 1: was I gotta take a little break. We should always

1153
01:01:22,320 --> 01:01:25,000
Speaker 1: be trying to make sure we be our best selves. Yeah,

1154
01:01:25,080 --> 01:01:27,760
Speaker 1: and that's the that's the first step in doing that.

1155
01:01:27,840 --> 01:01:30,280
Speaker 1: It's acknowledging all the things that you've done wrong and

1156
01:01:30,320 --> 01:01:33,440
Speaker 1: acknowledging where it came from. And it's nothing wrong was

1157
01:01:33,520 --> 01:01:36,800
Speaker 1: saying I was wrong. Sometimes it's hard to say that.

1158
01:01:37,080 --> 01:01:39,360
Speaker 1: It's hard to be like, I was wrong, especially for men.

1159
01:01:40,600 --> 01:01:43,240
Speaker 1: That's too though. I think it's harder for women to

1160
01:01:43,280 --> 01:01:47,800
Speaker 1: say because I feel like men are used to apologizing

1161
01:01:47,920 --> 01:01:50,040
Speaker 1: and man are very used to being like I just

1162
01:01:50,080 --> 01:01:54,439
Speaker 1: wanted to smooth alright, my bad, I'm sorry. But yeah,

1163
01:01:54,520 --> 01:01:59,000
Speaker 1: but let's say it we want. It's hard for them

1164
01:01:59,040 --> 01:02:01,400
Speaker 1: to really say it. I'd rather you sit there and

1165
01:02:01,520 --> 01:02:03,680
Speaker 1: stick in whatever it is that you believe that she

1166
01:02:03,840 --> 01:02:05,600
Speaker 1: was right. Then you to come back and just like

1167
01:02:05,720 --> 01:02:08,480
Speaker 1: say sorry because somebody else made you say it, or

1168
01:02:08,680 --> 01:02:12,920
Speaker 1: because you think it will end whatever it is. Well, listen, Justine,

1169
01:02:13,320 --> 01:02:15,000
Speaker 1: next time you come here. There's a lot of homework

1170
01:02:15,040 --> 01:02:20,840
Speaker 1: you have. Okay, we need you to a sex that

1171
01:02:21,080 --> 01:02:24,760
Speaker 1: high school. So she's been there going yeah, but you know,

1172
01:02:24,800 --> 01:02:26,240
Speaker 1: I don't like that. I don't even like when if

1173
01:02:26,280 --> 01:02:31,480
Speaker 1: a guy sends me a nude I don't like what

1174
01:02:31,560 --> 01:02:37,760
Speaker 1: if I don't want to see only that when it's

1175
01:02:37,760 --> 01:02:39,080
Speaker 1: time to see it, I don't want to see it.

1176
01:02:42,640 --> 01:02:45,520
Speaker 1: I'm just like, okay, what if this dick is moisturized? No,

1177
01:02:46,000 --> 01:02:50,680
Speaker 1: that's disgusting. I remember one time this boy sent me

1178
01:02:51,840 --> 01:02:54,000
Speaker 1: she never even asked for. Wasn't even talking to him

1179
01:02:54,040 --> 01:02:59,360
Speaker 1: like that in my life. I just that's that's so terrifying.

1180
01:02:59,680 --> 01:03:03,640
Speaker 1: Oh my died from everything I started this fucking show.

1181
01:03:04,280 --> 01:03:06,480
Speaker 1: I want to throw up every time I open my

1182
01:03:06,600 --> 01:03:09,840
Speaker 1: almost deleted my snap that's how bad it was. Every message,

1183
01:03:10,080 --> 01:03:12,960
Speaker 1: back to back to back, dicks jerking off, long dick,

1184
01:03:13,080 --> 01:03:22,880
Speaker 1: short dick, small dicks, white dicks, dick, trying color, white guy,

1185
01:03:22,920 --> 01:03:28,400
Speaker 1: whatever came again Justine for when she comes up here again. Um, okay,

1186
01:03:28,480 --> 01:03:30,680
Speaker 1: we need her to learn how to talk in the

1187
01:03:30,720 --> 01:03:32,880
Speaker 1: bedroom and not be mad when your man telling you

1188
01:03:33,040 --> 01:03:37,960
Speaker 1: things mad. I just don't like it. It turns you off, okay,

1189
01:03:38,720 --> 01:03:43,920
Speaker 1: because sounds dumb. Sound dumb? Now you can't sound dumb

1190
01:03:43,960 --> 01:03:49,560
Speaker 1: when you alight. Alright, Well, Jesseine, we appreciate you so

1191
01:03:49,720 --> 01:03:53,320
Speaker 1: much for coming through you guys. She's gonna come back

1192
01:03:53,360 --> 01:03:58,360
Speaker 1: next year, never coming back here. Face. She's probably terrified.

1193
01:03:59,400 --> 01:04:02,959
Speaker 1: She's she's good, she's twenty three, She canna put some fingers.

1194
01:04:03,000 --> 01:04:09,120
Speaker 1: You got anybody, specially right now, you about I'm about

1195
01:04:09,200 --> 01:04:14,040
Speaker 1: to um it's the holidays. No, I don't, so that

1196
01:04:14,120 --> 01:04:17,200
Speaker 1: means no, she said, not around the holidays. I'm special.

1197
01:04:17,840 --> 01:04:22,120
Speaker 1: January second, okay, January second, because we're gonna see, okay,

1198
01:04:22,200 --> 01:04:25,000
Speaker 1: we see some ship on social media. After this, we're

1199
01:04:25,040 --> 01:04:28,080
Speaker 1: gonna know. I learned my lesson. If that happens, we're

1200
01:04:28,080 --> 01:04:30,480
Speaker 1: not talking to you no more. If you hide in

1201
01:04:30,600 --> 01:04:32,600
Speaker 1: somebody from us and we find out, no, no, no, no,

1202
01:04:32,680 --> 01:04:37,520
Speaker 1: it's nobody, anybody. There's nothing to hide. Crickets sliding the

1203
01:04:38,000 --> 01:04:44,880
Speaker 1: ms very like quiet. She's tall, long, long, but she

1204
01:04:45,000 --> 01:04:52,800
Speaker 1: had no type funny, hot cho and funny. No, my

1205
01:04:52,920 --> 01:04:55,440
Speaker 1: dms are so dry. Really I don't believe it. Let

1206
01:04:55,480 --> 01:05:00,439
Speaker 1: me say not. After this. She especially like the ones

1207
01:05:00,520 --> 01:05:08,120
Speaker 1: that like, like my request is literally a clothing brand,

1208
01:05:09,360 --> 01:05:15,880
Speaker 1: what team he played for? Football players? But that nobody

1209
01:05:16,240 --> 01:05:18,640
Speaker 1: definitely not try and they're definitely not try. Guys. I

1210
01:05:18,720 --> 01:05:21,320
Speaker 1: see stuff from like two minutes ago. Yeah, but they

1211
01:05:21,440 --> 01:05:23,880
Speaker 1: just said I love you. Okay, that's not that's how

1212
01:05:23,960 --> 01:05:26,680
Speaker 1: it starts. But it's like people like posting. It's like

1213
01:05:26,840 --> 01:05:29,040
Speaker 1: fans stuff yeah, it's like it's like fan stuff, which

1214
01:05:29,040 --> 01:05:31,960
Speaker 1: I appreciate. I love you better grab at one of them, um,

1215
01:05:32,520 --> 01:05:34,880
Speaker 1: but I feel like, but you know what, I feel like,

1216
01:05:35,040 --> 01:05:36,840
Speaker 1: guys don't like talking to me, even like when I'm

1217
01:05:36,880 --> 01:05:38,680
Speaker 1: out like in the club, Like they just don't like

1218
01:05:38,760 --> 01:05:41,320
Speaker 1: talking about. Yeah that a lot of people say, like

1219
01:05:41,360 --> 01:05:43,520
Speaker 1: I have like a mean face, and I'm just like,

1220
01:05:43,600 --> 01:05:45,520
Speaker 1: I'm not gonna lie. You do look like they're mean,

1221
01:05:45,640 --> 01:05:47,840
Speaker 1: but you're very soon. That's just me like keeping in

1222
01:05:48,040 --> 01:05:51,120
Speaker 1: very like neutral, okay, because you didn't make me laugh,

1223
01:05:51,200 --> 01:05:52,640
Speaker 1: you didn't make me do nothing. So what I'm supposed

1224
01:05:52,640 --> 01:05:56,040
Speaker 1: to be smiling all the time, like walking around like

1225
01:05:56,080 --> 01:05:59,240
Speaker 1: a happy bitching going on. So I'm gonna just be

1226
01:05:59,320 --> 01:06:03,360
Speaker 1: like let me you and I get that. But I

1227
01:06:03,720 --> 01:06:05,880
Speaker 1: can also see them, Sam, you look a little me.

1228
01:06:07,280 --> 01:06:11,000
Speaker 1: That's annoying. That's annoying when you're just sitting money in

1229
01:06:11,000 --> 01:06:13,720
Speaker 1: your business and the guys you smile. Why you gotta

1230
01:06:13,760 --> 01:06:16,560
Speaker 1: look so mean? G G gets it all the time.

1231
01:06:16,680 --> 01:06:20,800
Speaker 1: That's why she's saying, I'm kid. I don't know, but

1232
01:06:20,920 --> 01:06:22,760
Speaker 1: I'm saying guys like talking about they don't want like

1233
01:06:22,800 --> 01:06:25,120
Speaker 1: a friendly girl, like they don't like no, no, no, no,

1234
01:06:25,280 --> 01:06:27,440
Speaker 1: they don't want you friendly with everybody. Yeah, with everybody else.

1235
01:06:27,600 --> 01:06:30,120
Speaker 1: But it's like, if I'm friendly with you, then why

1236
01:06:30,120 --> 01:06:31,600
Speaker 1: would I be fitting with someone else. I don't even

1237
01:06:31,640 --> 01:06:33,240
Speaker 1: know you. You can't even be friendly with nobody. You know.

1238
01:06:33,280 --> 01:06:39,040
Speaker 1: Everybody think they're special, right right there, until they're not. Alright,

1239
01:06:39,200 --> 01:06:41,120
Speaker 1: Justice s gutt thank you so much. Slip service