WEBVTT - Alpha Female AF? 0:00:20.840 --> 0:00:26.280 Listen as your day unfalse challenge what the futurese Try 0:00:26.320 --> 0:00:31.760 and keep your hair up to the sky. Lovers, they 0:00:31.880 --> 0:00:35.479 may cause you tears. Go ahead, release. 0:00:35.080 --> 0:00:39.120 Your fears, stand up and be counting. Don't be shamed 0:00:39.400 --> 0:00:40.280 to cry. 0:00:40.479 --> 0:00:41.120 You gotta be. 0:00:41.760 --> 0:00:43.120 You gotta be bad, you. 0:00:43.240 --> 0:00:44.160 Gotta be born. 0:00:44.320 --> 0:00:48.680 You're gonna be wiser. You gotta be hard, you gotta 0:00:48.680 --> 0:00:52.680 be tough, You gotta be stronger, you gotta be. 0:00:52.800 --> 0:00:55.280 Cool, You gotta be You gotta. 0:00:55.000 --> 0:01:02.840 Stay together, no loves saying to day herold what your 0:01:02.880 --> 0:01:07.160 mother said, be in the books your father with, trying 0:01:07.160 --> 0:01:10.680 to solve the puzzles in your sweet time. 0:01:11.880 --> 0:01:13.760 Some may have more question than you. 0:01:14.480 --> 0:01:16.280 Others take a different you. 0:01:17.160 --> 0:01:25.040 My oh mind, You're not everything out of a brumle 0:01:25.160 --> 0:01:29.000 dring out of a wiser. You're gonna be hard. You 0:01:29.200 --> 0:01:33.920 gotta be tough. You're gotta be stronger, you gotta be cool, 0:01:34.040 --> 0:01:35.080 you gotta be come. 0:01:35.360 --> 0:01:36.200 I gotta stay. 0:01:36.080 --> 0:01:40.440 Takegether and I know all. I know what I was 0:01:40.480 --> 0:01:45.280 saying to Day to ask no questions and cons on 0:01:45.720 --> 0:01:51.040 with not living in me like I think, still a face, 0:01:52.880 --> 0:01:58.120 welcome some staying guess I give you, Try to us, 0:01:58.360 --> 0:02:11.119 not stake to stay you sometimes your say unfolds, challenge, 0:02:11.160 --> 0:02:14.880 want the future, hose trying to keep your head up 0:02:14.960 --> 0:02:21.519 to the scirm loves tham it cause your tears, Oh head, 0:02:21.680 --> 0:02:23.560 release your fears, ma. 0:02:25.320 --> 0:02:30.840 Ma it. You're not any bad and you're gonna a 0:02:31.040 --> 0:02:35.799 bone dring of any wiser. You're not a a huh da, 0:02:36.600 --> 0:02:39.680 You're not to be stronger, You're not to. 0:02:39.720 --> 0:02:42.840 Be You're not a gotta take ye. 0:02:43.040 --> 0:02:43.720 That was Desiree. 0:02:44.200 --> 0:02:48.040 Check her out on Apple iTunes, and uh, you gotta 0:02:48.080 --> 0:02:49.639 be bad, you gotta be bold, you gotta be. 0:02:49.560 --> 0:02:52.880 Wiser, you gotta stick together. All I know, all I 0:02:52.919 --> 0:02:54.880 know is level save the day. 0:02:55.240 --> 0:02:57.280 It's funny because that song she talks about everything you 0:02:57.360 --> 0:02:58.880 need to be, but then it's like, fuck it, just 0:02:59.000 --> 0:03:01.160 level save it. You know what, if you're not any 0:03:01.200 --> 0:03:03.840 of those things, just just just go with love. 0:03:04.480 --> 0:03:07.639 That's a mantra to live by. Honestly, Desiree, you knew 0:03:07.639 --> 0:03:08.720 what the fuck you're talking about? 0:03:08.880 --> 0:03:09.080 You do? 0:03:09.280 --> 0:03:12.959 You did you do? Where are you at right out there? 0:03:13.840 --> 0:03:15.840 I do want to know, Like, what's Dessie doing now? 0:03:16.720 --> 0:03:17.600 That was a fucking pte. 0:03:17.600 --> 0:03:19.560 She's still eating off of that song for sure. 0:03:20.080 --> 0:03:28.200 For sure she's coming for us. So what's going on 0:03:28.400 --> 0:03:29.280 Erica this week? 0:03:31.800 --> 0:03:35.480 Well, I just thought we had had I smoked, so 0:03:35.760 --> 0:03:38.000 that there's that, okay, which is why I can't really 0:03:38.000 --> 0:03:38.960 communicate the moment. 0:03:39.000 --> 0:03:40.760 But at least on the same page. This is gonna 0:03:40.760 --> 0:03:41.720 be a real issue in the future. 0:03:41.840 --> 0:03:44.840 I'm just going to drink water. I spoke on a 0:03:44.840 --> 0:03:48.440 panel today, which thank god I wasn't high, because God 0:03:48.560 --> 0:03:50.680 knows I would have been saying some bullshit. I was 0:03:50.720 --> 0:03:54.080 already like a little loud, aggressive like I am. 0:03:54.160 --> 0:03:56.720 But I feel like the heat is too It's too 0:03:56.760 --> 0:03:59.840 hot in La to smoke before it gets starts cooling down. No, 0:04:00.480 --> 0:04:03.480 like it even we pulled over at the park today 0:04:04.000 --> 0:04:07.040 like we were in high school to smoke a joint 0:04:07.080 --> 0:04:08.920 before we started because we didn't want to smoke in 0:04:08.920 --> 0:04:10.400 the car and we didn't want to smoke in front 0:04:10.400 --> 0:04:16.680 of the baby. Well floor floor and uh I really, floor. 0:04:16.520 --> 0:04:18.200 Is like my second mother. So like I feel like 0:04:18.200 --> 0:04:21.839 I like I still have to hide. Yeah, I still hide. 0:04:22.240 --> 0:04:25.640 I had a whole seventh grade flashback when we pulled 0:04:25.640 --> 0:04:26.159 over to smoke. 0:04:26.320 --> 0:04:28.039 I know, I was like, where should we smoke? Where 0:04:28.040 --> 0:04:30.320 should we be smoked? My house was like around the corner. 0:04:33.040 --> 0:04:38.200 Like your backyard, We geniuses, it's four hundred degrees in 0:04:38.480 --> 0:04:41.960 uh the family band eyes and we were smoking at 0:04:41.960 --> 0:04:44.280 the park. It was like teenagers. 0:04:45.600 --> 0:04:49.559 And then what else? Anyway, it was great, It was great. 0:04:49.600 --> 0:04:52.480 It was put on through Hey Okay real make sure 0:04:52.520 --> 0:04:56.280 you follow them on Instagram and uh my girl Zoila 0:04:56.360 --> 0:05:00.279 Darton of the Word Agency put the event together. And 0:05:00.279 --> 0:05:03.159 it's really cool because they I guess, hey, hey, Okay 0:05:03.160 --> 0:05:06.200 really goes around to different cities and like just does 0:05:06.240 --> 0:05:08.920 different panels with different women, Like it's not always single parenting. 0:05:09.120 --> 0:05:13.000 This panel in particular was single parenting and then like 0:05:13.080 --> 0:05:15.280 if you're not a single parent, like maybe were raised 0:05:15.279 --> 0:05:17.719 by a single parent, and then discussing how single parents 0:05:17.760 --> 0:05:19.800 come together to support each other, what are some of 0:05:19.839 --> 0:05:23.040 the things that what are the myths of single parenting? 0:05:23.120 --> 0:05:26.359 What do you find hardest? And single parenting And it 0:05:26.440 --> 0:05:28.080 was cool to be like on a panel full of 0:05:28.120 --> 0:05:30.640 like women that are going through the same thing. You know, 0:05:30.720 --> 0:05:32.880 I think I connect with someone like that all the time, 0:05:32.880 --> 0:05:35.400 which is you. But I don't have any other single 0:05:35.480 --> 0:05:38.240 parents friends. All my friends are in relationships. Then have 0:05:38.320 --> 0:05:38.960 a bababies. 0:05:39.040 --> 0:05:40.919 You know, I just realized, actually I do, I do 0:05:41.040 --> 0:05:43.160 have some, like one of my closest friends. I do 0:05:43.240 --> 0:05:48.040 have some a couple of single mom friends that are 0:05:48.120 --> 0:05:51.359 by choice actually not like local though the only one 0:05:51.360 --> 0:05:51.839 who's here. 0:05:51.960 --> 0:05:55.480 Yeah, Like, connecting with them in person was cool. 0:05:55.839 --> 0:05:57.640 I saw on the Live because I was supposed to 0:05:57.680 --> 0:05:59.640 be there, but I got caught up at court. 0:06:00.520 --> 0:06:03.039 Bitch is at court because of bitch ass neg is. 0:06:04.200 --> 0:06:08.520 That's a different story for a different day. Anyway, I 0:06:08.560 --> 0:06:10.520 saw a part of the. 0:06:12.560 --> 0:06:12.800 Live. 0:06:13.200 --> 0:06:16.320 Oh my god, yes she has worked either. Oh and 0:06:16.839 --> 0:06:19.280 the chick next to you. I think it damaged to 0:06:19.320 --> 0:06:23.479 Mela too. She was sacking about sucking because that's where 0:06:23.480 --> 0:06:29.000 it's socking. She's sucking about Oh how she thinks like 0:06:29.120 --> 0:06:31.720 she feels parents who are not single view her or 0:06:31.800 --> 0:06:34.400 like if they have a perspective at all. I was 0:06:34.400 --> 0:06:36.280 like kind of listening, but I was like, oh, that's interesting, 0:06:36.400 --> 0:06:40.120 because I'm sure we do come off differently, even to 0:06:40.240 --> 0:06:44.920 our friends who are in relationships and you know, like 0:06:45.040 --> 0:06:47.479 peers in that school and shit, yeah no. 0:06:47.560 --> 0:06:49.120 That was one of the questions when they asked, like, 0:06:49.160 --> 0:06:52.240 what are some of the myths of single parents, and like, 0:06:53.279 --> 0:06:55.240 I was like, when she started talking about that, immediately 0:06:55.240 --> 0:06:58.159 thought about like just married couples and even women just 0:06:58.200 --> 0:07:00.560 because we're all so like paired again each other all 0:07:00.600 --> 0:07:03.880 the time, and so many so much insecurity amongst women. 0:07:03.960 --> 0:07:05.919 I feel like I've felt it a little bit and 0:07:05.960 --> 0:07:09.960 I'm just starting iri school journey. But I've noticed that 0:07:10.000 --> 0:07:12.760 most of the kids at her school are come from 0:07:12.760 --> 0:07:16.960 two parent households, and I'm usually like the one dropping 0:07:17.000 --> 0:07:18.960 her all for dad picts her up sometimes. But I 0:07:19.080 --> 0:07:20.280 just see them like, some of. 0:07:20.200 --> 0:07:22.280 The moms look at me. Do you think it's you 0:07:22.320 --> 0:07:23.360 in your head? Or do you think. 0:07:26.640 --> 0:07:30.480 We can't fix it? Don't worry, We'll fix it. Okay, Okay, 0:07:30.560 --> 0:07:34.400 just put it down. It might be all in my head. 0:07:34.440 --> 0:07:36.760 But even she the fact, I thought maybe it was 0:07:36.760 --> 0:07:38.680 in my head. But when she even acknowledged it and 0:07:38.720 --> 0:07:40.560 talked about it, it made me think like, well, maybe it's 0:07:40.600 --> 0:07:42.679 not in my head, you know what I mean? Because 0:07:42.680 --> 0:07:45.120 I'd be going up to IVY school no bron, sometimes 0:07:45.160 --> 0:07:48.440 I be dropping, or sometimes i'd be going real real cute, 0:07:48.720 --> 0:07:50.360 you know what i mean, because I'm just like want 0:07:50.360 --> 0:07:52.920 to be cute that day, or I'm working on a 0:07:52.960 --> 0:07:54.800 shoot or something, I'm all done up, and they're like, 0:07:54.800 --> 0:08:00.880 oh fuck, that's b coming a hear not all that, 0:08:00.960 --> 0:08:03.600 but just I think also just the idea, like the 0:08:03.640 --> 0:08:06.800 mythst that the things we create in our own heads too, 0:08:06.920 --> 0:08:07.200 you know what. 0:08:07.200 --> 0:08:09.240 I mean, because I think that's a lot of it. 0:08:09.360 --> 0:08:11.240 Yeah, the things that we create in our own heads 0:08:11.280 --> 0:08:14.080 because of our insecurity about single parents being single parents. 0:08:13.840 --> 0:08:16.920 Because like the gillet or whatever. Because I think it 0:08:16.920 --> 0:08:19.600 could be that honestly, even in my like my friend's circles, 0:08:19.600 --> 0:08:21.920 because I do know other moms, like I've close friends 0:08:21.920 --> 0:08:29.640 to her mom's but are in relationships. And I remember, well, okay, hi, Alana, 0:08:31.280 --> 0:08:32.880 I think like like a couple months ago, she was 0:08:32.880 --> 0:08:34.319 like yeah, because she's like, you know, you go out 0:08:34.320 --> 0:08:37.680 a lot or something like something kind of to that effect. 0:08:37.720 --> 0:08:39.960 And it's like, what just because you don't go out 0:08:40.000 --> 0:08:44.400 at all? Like I got defensive, and I realized, like, Okay, 0:08:44.400 --> 0:08:45.320 first of all, bitch. 0:08:45.200 --> 0:08:47.040 Who cares if she if she thinks she go out 0:08:47.080 --> 0:08:47.360 a lot? 0:08:47.640 --> 0:08:47.760 Right? 0:08:48.040 --> 0:08:50.360 And is it me being defensive because I'm like, because 0:08:50.400 --> 0:08:50.839 you can't go. 0:08:50.840 --> 0:08:55.079 Nowhere right, not mind you you glued to this couch 0:08:56.000 --> 0:08:58.000 because you can't go don't may not go out a lot. 0:08:58.640 --> 0:09:05.120 It's medium, Okay, shut up, it's me, no, but I 0:09:05.640 --> 0:09:07.719 know I noticed it in myself or you know what 0:09:07.760 --> 0:09:10.439 I mean, and like, oh, she made to comment to 0:09:10.440 --> 0:09:12.400 me last night, and it was I was totally me 0:09:12.559 --> 0:09:14.079 and she's like, hey, you know you tend to date 0:09:14.160 --> 0:09:17.600 dumb guys. Okay, Like just because I had a couple 0:09:17.600 --> 0:09:18.320 of dumb ones. 0:09:18.440 --> 0:09:18.880 We all have. 0:09:19.040 --> 0:09:20.640 I was like that you don't remember before you got 0:09:20.760 --> 0:09:23.600 settled down this one and this s this, And I'm like, 0:09:23.600 --> 0:09:27.520 oh my god, I'm being like defensive again because I 0:09:27.800 --> 0:09:30.240 have been told I'm very defensive because I haven't told 0:09:30.280 --> 0:09:33.400 it a lot. I'm sure it's probably true. So yeah, 0:09:33.440 --> 0:09:34.040 I mean, if you. 0:09:34.080 --> 0:09:36.320 Keep hearing something, you have to take it into consideration. 0:09:36.520 --> 0:09:39.839 But still at the same time, like I'm not at 0:09:39.840 --> 0:09:41.920 the same time like it's you don't have to take 0:09:41.960 --> 0:09:44.280 into consideration. I just mean, like, you know, sometimes you 0:09:44.320 --> 0:09:46.560 take a look and be like am I no, No, 0:09:46.559 --> 0:09:49.840 I'm not, but yeah, or. 0:09:49.920 --> 0:09:51.559 Just become more aware of it, all right. 0:09:51.720 --> 0:09:53.520 I think for sure some of a lot of it 0:09:53.559 --> 0:09:57.720 is in my head because I'm just new to the 0:09:57.760 --> 0:09:59.760 single I mean, yeah, I'm still relatively new to being 0:09:59.760 --> 0:10:01.959 this same parent and adjusting and now having so many 0:10:02.040 --> 0:10:05.160 new experiences that I always imagined having with my partner, 0:10:05.360 --> 0:10:08.720 like going to school, like those are together together and 0:10:08.760 --> 0:10:12.000 stuff like I think there's an insecurity in me for sure, 0:10:12.200 --> 0:10:15.680 in it, but also, you know, I do believe there's 0:10:15.679 --> 0:10:18.079 probably truth on the other side of it too, like them. Look, 0:10:18.160 --> 0:10:19.840 a lot of people look at single women as like, 0:10:19.880 --> 0:10:22.480 what what happened? What's wrong with you? What did you do? 0:10:22.840 --> 0:10:26.079 Yeah, like what's the drama? What's the tea? Right? 0:10:26.080 --> 0:10:28.240 And sometimes anal t we just didn't work out together? 0:10:28.240 --> 0:10:28.719 What happened with you? 0:10:29.640 --> 0:10:32.600 Right? So it's like scandal, you know what. 0:10:32.600 --> 0:10:34.600 I noticed too, And this can also be my insecurity. 0:10:34.640 --> 0:10:40.280 Like scrolling through Instagram, I see a lot of I. Well, 0:10:40.320 --> 0:10:42.400 now now that we're like we do this, I see 0:10:42.400 --> 0:10:47.120 a lot more single moms like having images on the internet. 0:10:47.200 --> 0:10:49.360 But I feel like before I'm like, I tapped into 0:10:49.400 --> 0:10:52.360 this village, and I tapped into like the strong single 0:10:52.400 --> 0:10:54.800 mom and me the empowered single mom. I always saw 0:10:54.880 --> 0:10:59.600 images of like these perfect family, happy families on Instagram. Everybody, 0:10:59.679 --> 0:11:03.079 everybody works out, everybody gets along fucking great except me. 0:11:03.440 --> 0:11:03.839 Right right? 0:11:03.920 --> 0:11:05.040 Yeah, no, that's true. 0:11:05.360 --> 0:11:07.199 Yeah, So it was cool to just be on that 0:11:07.880 --> 0:11:11.800 panel and discuss all those things and connect with the 0:11:11.840 --> 0:11:14.480 women on there, and it was just interesting, like like 0:11:14.520 --> 0:11:17.120 one of the girls didn't have uh isn't a single mom, 0:11:17.240 --> 0:11:19.520 she was raised by one. And on my way there, 0:11:19.559 --> 0:11:21.360 I was just like, wow, I do have so many 0:11:21.400 --> 0:11:24.480 amazing single women in my like single single mothers in 0:11:24.520 --> 0:11:27.040 my life. Like my mom is a single mother floor 0:11:27.520 --> 0:11:29.920 who helps me with Iri And it's like invaluable and 0:11:30.040 --> 0:11:33.120 is like my is my family was a single mother, 0:11:33.320 --> 0:11:35.520 you know, like my grandmother, No. 0:11:35.840 --> 0:11:36.240 She would. 0:11:36.440 --> 0:11:38.160 I think she separated from my grandfather when my mom 0:11:38.280 --> 0:11:41.040 was seventeen, So I mean it's still she's still a 0:11:41.080 --> 0:11:46.440 mother and it's just different. But thinking about all that, 0:11:46.520 --> 0:11:49.040 I was like, wow, there's just I do. Even if 0:11:49.080 --> 0:11:51.360 I don't have a lot of single parent friends, I've 0:11:51.360 --> 0:11:52.720 been raised by single women. 0:11:53.080 --> 0:11:56.480 You know. Yeah you forget that, Like how much that's 0:11:56.720 --> 0:11:58.040 made a difference in your life. 0:11:58.160 --> 0:12:00.199 Yeah, and it's not necessarily a bad thing. I think 0:12:00.200 --> 0:12:01.640 that was what I took away from it too. Like 0:12:02.240 --> 0:12:03.960 even me, sometimes I can look at it as being 0:12:04.040 --> 0:12:07.400 single parenting as like this bad like daunting thing, like 0:12:07.760 --> 0:12:10.760 not bad, but like the alternative is better, yeah, like 0:12:11.000 --> 0:12:13.760 like negative, yeah, so much better. 0:12:14.960 --> 0:12:17.559 Yeah, single mom, I mean it's one person and said 0:12:17.600 --> 0:12:17.880 it too. 0:12:18.040 --> 0:12:23.200 Yes, babe, okay, I'm coming to try with each other. Yeah, 0:12:23.280 --> 0:12:26.200 like just the alternative must be better like this, stay 0:12:26.280 --> 0:12:27.880 if you if I if I only had a man 0:12:27.960 --> 0:12:30.959 that was making me happy and everything was great, like 0:12:31.480 --> 0:12:34.920 parenting would be better. It's just not that's not necessarily true. 0:12:35.400 --> 0:12:36.800 And I think that's what I took away from it. 0:12:36.840 --> 0:12:40.480 Like I think I know that, but like sometimes I forget. 0:12:43.840 --> 0:12:44.480 Take it off. 0:12:45.320 --> 0:12:47.520 Our kids are on Wednesday. This is their first time 0:12:47.559 --> 0:12:52.160 back together in a month or so, and they're wildent. 0:12:53.600 --> 0:12:56.520 They have a lot of requests and like Gauds are 0:12:56.520 --> 0:12:59.480 getting older, they're like being able to communicate better. 0:13:00.200 --> 0:13:02.760 My friend like stop communic a little bit like it. 0:13:03.360 --> 0:13:07.439 Luna is like super attituty like a lot of rolling eyes. 0:13:07.480 --> 0:13:09.360 I know I rolled her. I went at her dad 0:13:09.440 --> 0:13:10.240 yesterday and I was. 0:13:10.200 --> 0:13:12.320 Like, she did this to me through the glass like 0:13:12.400 --> 0:13:13.440 forty seven times. 0:13:14.120 --> 0:13:17.199 I see you, liked where did you get this? O? 0:13:17.520 --> 0:13:17.760 God? 0:13:18.600 --> 0:13:21.480 And then she doesn't forget ship like remember I remember mom. 0:13:21.320 --> 0:13:24.839 When I'm like, don't say that in friend of people. 0:13:27.320 --> 0:13:34.240 Oh but speaking of single mom community period and being 0:13:34.320 --> 0:13:38.920 raised by single woman, well okay, that'll be jumping but 0:13:39.200 --> 0:13:40.880 I was gonna say, how do you think that's affected 0:13:41.000 --> 0:13:44.800 your personality? And which kind of brings us to today's topic. 0:13:44.840 --> 0:13:47.760 But let's go back for our current events. Let's bring 0:13:47.800 --> 0:13:50.719 it back. That's ringing back back. Sorry, just going a 0:13:50.720 --> 0:13:53.000 little too fast there. I'm trying to make find a 0:13:53.000 --> 0:13:56.120 final link and it just was too soon. 0:13:57.720 --> 0:14:02.680 That's a good question. But yeah, So if you don't 0:14:02.800 --> 0:14:04.680 know who okay, really, hey, okay, real is, I highly 0:14:04.679 --> 0:14:08.040 stay to follow them, follow a word dot agency, and 0:14:08.400 --> 0:14:10.640 follow all the beautiful, amazing women that I got to 0:14:10.640 --> 0:14:12.000 speak on a panel with. You can find them on 0:14:12.000 --> 0:14:15.280 our Instagram. I tagged all of them. 0:14:15.640 --> 0:14:15.679 Go. 0:14:15.960 --> 0:14:20.160 Then other than that, just say shit, girl work doing 0:14:21.160 --> 0:14:22.640 inappropriate things on the weekends. 0:14:22.880 --> 0:14:25.240 Okay, Like that's more what I'm talking about that I 0:14:25.280 --> 0:14:28.280 have no business doing what happened? Whatally? 0:14:29.440 --> 0:14:29.640 I am? 0:14:29.840 --> 0:14:30.760 Okay, what are you doing? 0:14:32.000 --> 0:14:38.880 I had a sexual encounter with a friend who has 0:14:38.920 --> 0:14:40.440 been my friend for a really long time, and I 0:14:40.520 --> 0:14:41.800 just don't know if what. 0:14:41.760 --> 0:14:44.400 Do you look at your text message because I'm a psycho. 0:14:44.520 --> 0:14:47.120 Oh I'm used to looking at people's say. 0:14:48.560 --> 0:14:53.720 Yeah with now you're okay, I'm getting the text on 0:14:53.760 --> 0:14:55.960 my on my computer. I had actually account with a 0:14:55.960 --> 0:15:00.040 friend who I've known for a very long time, and 0:15:02.360 --> 0:15:04.200 I just don't know how to feel about it. I 0:15:04.200 --> 0:15:05.200 don't know how to feel about it. 0:15:05.200 --> 0:15:08.960 Friend sexist, can be sketchy. It's a very touchy topic. 0:15:09.080 --> 0:15:12.000 It was like a long time coming. Oh there's been 0:15:12.120 --> 0:15:15.680 energy for a year, but it's just never matched up. 0:15:15.680 --> 0:15:17.640 And we kind of came to the point where an 0:15:17.720 --> 0:15:20.440 unspoken agreement was made that we're just gonna be friends, 0:15:20.480 --> 0:15:23.160 that we're not even gonna try anymore, you know, And 0:15:23.200 --> 0:15:24.960 so we accepted it. We didn't even talk about it. 0:15:25.080 --> 0:15:26.200 Was just like something that just happened. 0:15:26.200 --> 0:15:29.800 It just I mean, tequila and then tequila. Trust me, 0:15:30.040 --> 0:15:32.320 trust me, I know I'm going Tequila happened. 0:15:32.320 --> 0:15:34.800 And now I'm like, I don't know how to feel 0:15:34.800 --> 0:15:38.080 about it. I don't know how to feel about it. 0:15:38.160 --> 0:15:41.520 But how about you? That was my That was my weekend. 0:15:44.960 --> 0:15:49.040 I oh this weekend. For the first time, I attempted 0:15:49.240 --> 0:15:53.320 slightly to disconnect from Instagram. I don't really watch TV 0:15:53.520 --> 0:15:56.320 at all in general anyway, so I don't have cable. 0:15:57.320 --> 0:15:58.720 I didn't have to pay my internet bills, so I 0:15:58.720 --> 0:16:05.360 didn't have Netflix either. I was in silence. I wasn't 0:16:05.360 --> 0:16:07.600 in sight. Well, yeah, so I was just like trying 0:16:07.600 --> 0:16:10.080 to hear my own thoughts because it dawned on me 0:16:10.160 --> 0:16:13.320 that I'm very confused. I said, I know myself, but 0:16:13.320 --> 0:16:16.240 then like I'm faced with decisions and I'm like, I'm 0:16:16.360 --> 0:16:20.200 totally a lost. So I was kind of unplugged for 0:16:20.240 --> 0:16:22.440 like two days, even though like came Sunday night, I 0:16:22.560 --> 0:16:25.000 was like, I'm gonna sawload it again. I downloaded it 0:16:25.000 --> 0:16:28.120 for like ten minutes, which one went off Instagram. 0:16:28.120 --> 0:16:33.840 Oh you did, Okay, come here, come over here, here, 0:16:33.880 --> 0:16:39.120 I got her. I'm slip stuff, I think. Damn sorry, 0:16:39.160 --> 0:16:42.840 we're taking off a Sophia dress currently because it's itchy. Yeah, 0:16:42.840 --> 0:16:45.720 Disney Nick last, all our daughters have princess dresses on 0:16:46.000 --> 0:16:48.760 because apparently they're just so. 0:16:48.960 --> 0:16:52.920 I told them that their princesses in every image possible exactly, 0:16:53.280 --> 0:16:58.640 and I'm and we're perpetuating it. So okay, you're free. Good, Okay, 0:16:58.680 --> 0:16:59.920 then go get it and go put it on. 0:17:01.000 --> 0:17:03.040 Okay by yourself though, Okay, because you're a big girl, 0:17:03.520 --> 0:17:09.800 just painted your little moons. Okay, anyway, what we're talking about. 0:17:12.840 --> 0:17:15.919 Oh I tried to Okay, I tried to. Yeah, I 0:17:15.920 --> 0:17:17.080 don't know if it counts if we go to your 0:17:17.080 --> 0:17:19.400 friend's house, because then you just well, yeah, I went 0:17:19.440 --> 0:17:21.159 to my friend's house, but I didn't know but me 0:17:21.200 --> 0:17:22.440 not being in my phone, and I was how much she 0:17:22.480 --> 0:17:27.000 was on her phone. And then come Sunday, after I 0:17:27.080 --> 0:17:29.240 hung out with Erica, I cheated a little bit to 0:17:29.280 --> 0:17:32.280 see how many likes we got on our last post. Oh, 0:17:32.320 --> 0:17:35.080 the one with us kissing. Yeah, and then I realized 0:17:35.119 --> 0:17:36.919 after ten minutes I didn't really have anything on their 0:17:36.960 --> 0:17:39.840 business on Instagram, so I Brie deleted it and then 0:17:39.920 --> 0:17:41.320 downloaded it the next morning. 0:17:41.720 --> 0:17:43.960 Oh my god, how long was your How long was 0:17:44.000 --> 0:17:44.920 your Instagram? Fast? 0:17:44.920 --> 0:17:46.120 Two days? Yeah, weekend. 0:17:46.240 --> 0:17:48.280 You have to get past the three. I mean it's 0:17:48.320 --> 0:17:50.399 hard because we both have to, like we both like 0:17:50.440 --> 0:17:52.240 want to contribute on our page and stuff. 0:17:51.960 --> 0:17:54.439 That's going on over there. But I think you need 0:17:54.480 --> 0:17:54.880 to do five. 0:17:55.320 --> 0:17:55.480 Yeah. 0:17:55.560 --> 0:17:57.000 I think I do, because that was it and I 0:17:57.200 --> 0:18:02.359 started to like it. Yeah, that's when you first started. Okay, okay, yeah, 0:18:02.480 --> 0:18:05.480 even like the pressure do not take a picture. I 0:18:05.480 --> 0:18:07.560 would even post half the pictures. I'm not a good poster. 0:18:07.720 --> 0:18:11.320 I admit I'll take four thousand selfies. Nobody will ever 0:18:11.359 --> 0:18:13.840 see them, though, now it's not pretty enough. 0:18:14.720 --> 0:18:17.120 You're sing my phone and looking at them you're gonna 0:18:17.119 --> 0:18:18.720 post and then you're like mine. 0:18:18.800 --> 0:18:20.920 I will literally go through it and my friend will 0:18:20.960 --> 0:18:23.639 be like, like, are you still fucking looking at that photo? 0:18:24.040 --> 0:18:26.040 I know, I just I don't like it anymore. 0:18:26.480 --> 0:18:27.280 It's stupid. 0:18:29.480 --> 0:18:32.679 What else happened this weekend? This week? 0:18:36.640 --> 0:18:37.159 What else? 0:18:39.040 --> 0:18:41.800 Yeah, oh, Lebron. I don't know if this is technically 0:18:41.800 --> 0:18:45.480 this week, but Lebron opened to school the promised school 0:18:45.480 --> 0:18:49.280 and Akron I promise school and Akron. 0:18:49.000 --> 0:18:56.520 Uh okay, maybe close the door, Okay, thank you, Akron, Akron, Ohio, Ohio. 0:18:57.160 --> 0:19:00.600 And it's for a third and fourth greater high risk 0:19:00.760 --> 0:19:03.440 school for the third and fourth graders. And they're guaranteed, 0:19:03.640 --> 0:19:07.359 like all these schools are guaranteed free tuition are guaranteed, 0:19:07.760 --> 0:19:10.960 a scholarship at Akron University. 0:19:10.480 --> 0:19:12.960 Or University of University of university. 0:19:12.400 --> 0:19:18.600 Or like yeah, it even like provides transportation, transportation, lunch, 0:19:18.720 --> 0:19:20.880 like filling up the pantry of your home. 0:19:20.960 --> 0:19:22.800 Oh no, and open and I thought that was cool, 0:19:23.200 --> 0:19:26.159 an open pantry for to take home for family. So 0:19:26.359 --> 0:19:28.399 like if you know people don't want you don't know 0:19:28.400 --> 0:19:30.600 what people kid, kids are going through and if they 0:19:30.760 --> 0:19:32.639 are hungry at home and not eating, like they have 0:19:32.760 --> 0:19:34.920 a place where people can just go like get stuff 0:19:34.960 --> 0:19:37.080 out of the pantry to take home, which is awesome. 0:19:37.160 --> 0:19:40.280 Yeah, and they will assist in job placement for like parents. 0:19:40.440 --> 0:19:42.760 Oh that's dope. Yeah, because it's like a it's a 0:19:42.800 --> 0:19:45.679 structural thing. It trickles down, you know, if there's a 0:19:45.760 --> 0:19:47.879 troubled kid, it primarily probably has to do with that 0:19:47.960 --> 0:19:51.280 home stuff. I read also briefly about was scrolling that 0:19:52.520 --> 0:19:56.119 Dereck Rose was doing something similar to in Chicago, because 0:19:56.119 --> 0:19:58.520 I also scrolled today, got the scrolling. It's like the 0:19:58.520 --> 0:20:03.639 fucking news, huh that seven over the weekend there was 0:20:03.720 --> 0:20:07.480 seventy two there was a there's seventy two shootings in 0:20:07.560 --> 0:20:10.639 Chicago and maybe, like I want to don't quote me, 0:20:10.760 --> 0:20:15.080 like eleven or four eleven fatalities over the weekend and 0:20:15.640 --> 0:20:18.239 Chicago's bad and people don't really talk about it, like 0:20:18.280 --> 0:20:22.040 not enough. So yeah, there's ship that needs to be done. 0:20:22.040 --> 0:20:24.480 So I'm happy if people are stepping forward and doing that. 0:20:24.840 --> 0:20:29.760 Are stupid ass president, you guys share First of all, 0:20:29.800 --> 0:20:32.240 I don't want you help playing with that. Yeah, close 0:20:32.320 --> 0:20:35.560 that now, Lona, hey, close it. Now I don't even 0:20:35.560 --> 0:20:39.040 think she knows that. No, don't play with that. Oh 0:20:39.080 --> 0:20:42.679 my Jesus, the secret in the background, fucking with this 0:20:42.720 --> 0:20:44.960 attractive I'm fellow when it's ninety thousand, looks like. 0:20:46.640 --> 0:20:48.880 Yeah, no, there's I mean in Chicago is so bad. 0:20:48.920 --> 0:20:53.080 It's just every I feel like every weekend there's like 0:20:53.320 --> 0:20:57.160 a killer weekend there. Yeah, like what's going on? It's 0:20:57.200 --> 0:20:59.919 just gangs and gangs out there are just it's just 0:21:00.160 --> 0:21:03.720 really really bad, bad problem out there, and just like 0:21:04.600 --> 0:21:08.000 just there's just a sense of hopelessness. It's just like yeah, 0:21:09.160 --> 0:21:12.560 ingrained in that, like in the community out there. 0:21:12.680 --> 0:21:15.359 When that's in the environment, you can feel that. Shit. 0:21:15.359 --> 0:21:17.680 Even in Philly low key, Like I go there for 0:21:17.680 --> 0:21:20.239 a couple of days, I'm like, a, right, let's get 0:21:20.320 --> 0:21:23.400 out of here. It's like just bad, Like it's bad. 0:21:23.400 --> 0:21:26.600 I think you even had a conversation with like my 0:21:26.760 --> 0:21:30.320 aunt's friend's daughter, who at the time was like seventeen, 0:21:30.400 --> 0:21:32.160 and we were like trying to have a regular conversation, 0:21:32.200 --> 0:21:33.480 were at lunch, like what are you gonna do after 0:21:33.640 --> 0:21:35.640 like high school? She didn't go to high school. 0:21:35.640 --> 0:21:38.000 When her ged, she dropped out filling her boyfriend. 0:21:38.000 --> 0:21:40.200 She's like I don't know. I don't know, Like I 0:21:40.400 --> 0:21:42.520 like Instagram, like I don't know. 0:21:42.720 --> 0:21:44.720 I'm like, bitch, can you have a conversation. 0:21:45.280 --> 0:21:47.960 It was like embarrassing, and I just realized, like she 0:21:48.080 --> 0:21:52.120 don't know because nobody know, Like shut up for real, 0:21:52.200 --> 0:21:54.640 I don't wanna laugh, but like, yeah, I know, you know, 0:21:54.880 --> 0:22:00.040 like I mean this, it's true. There was just no 0:22:00.200 --> 0:22:04.560 sense of like I don't know, like one week, I 0:22:04.560 --> 0:22:06.920 feel like there was nobody seeing past like this barrier 0:22:07.040 --> 0:22:10.040 of this city, like when you're like in a community 0:22:10.080 --> 0:22:12.760 and it's closed and you don't actually get the opportunity 0:22:12.800 --> 0:22:16.720 to go outside of that community. You're locked in. You 0:22:16.760 --> 0:22:17.960 don't know shit outside of it. 0:22:18.920 --> 0:22:19.560 It's true. 0:22:20.160 --> 0:22:23.360 And hence, like a summer later, she got knocked up 0:22:23.520 --> 0:22:26.240 and I think she got a gdo Okay, I mean 0:22:26.359 --> 0:22:28.000 that's that's better than not doing it. 0:22:28.359 --> 0:22:32.159 But anyhow, we support teen moms, but we encourage you 0:22:32.240 --> 0:22:32.560 to wait. 0:22:32.840 --> 0:22:34.399 Yeah, try to wait, because we're. 0:22:34.240 --> 0:22:36.359 Thirty every year fucking losing our minds. 0:22:36.600 --> 0:22:40.040 It's so crazy. My my friend that I've had since childhood, 0:22:40.080 --> 0:22:41.439 I was working with her the other day and I 0:22:41.480 --> 0:22:44.000 was asking her how her younger sister's doing, because I 0:22:44.000 --> 0:22:46.640 haven't seen her in years, and she told me that 0:22:46.760 --> 0:22:49.400 she's like, oh, she's good. She's like she's good. She's 0:22:49.480 --> 0:22:52.240 kind of fast, like she got caught. It's like dick 0:22:52.280 --> 0:22:53.439 in the bathroom in school. 0:22:53.720 --> 0:22:55.440 Oh yeah, she wants to be. 0:22:55.800 --> 0:22:58.400 Like a young mom. And I was like, she wants 0:22:58.440 --> 0:23:00.520 to be a young mom like that? I never I mean, 0:23:00.520 --> 0:23:01.960 of course I know that exists, but that's the first 0:23:01.960 --> 0:23:03.600 time I've ever heard someone tell me like I want 0:23:03.640 --> 0:23:04.440 to be a young mom. 0:23:04.480 --> 0:23:06.200 I find I heard somebody else's. 0:23:05.840 --> 0:23:08.480 And I was like, is this this Kylie Jenner like thing? 0:23:08.600 --> 0:23:09.359 Like what is going on? 0:23:09.480 --> 0:23:11.160 Is they show Teen Moms team? 0:23:11.520 --> 0:23:14.720 Is it all of it? Because really teen Moms doesn't 0:23:14.760 --> 0:23:17.400 really glorify No, if you're smart, if you're smart enough, 0:23:17.440 --> 0:23:18.000 you'll know it's that. 0:23:18.040 --> 0:23:18.840 Doesn't glorify it. 0:23:18.840 --> 0:23:22.520 But Kylie Jenner, I mean, she makes it look like 0:23:22.800 --> 0:23:24.560 she can live this fabulous because she can't. She can 0:23:24.720 --> 0:23:28.080 this fabulous life have a baby data rapper and it's 0:23:28.160 --> 0:23:30.919 cute and she takes like cute photos and shit, but 0:23:30.960 --> 0:23:34.000 that's not what everybody is at all, Like. 0:23:35.560 --> 0:23:38.000 I do I fear that because that's the age of 0:23:38.040 --> 0:23:42.080 social media and hello, we have girls. How do you 0:23:42.119 --> 0:23:46.280 like being instagram who she is in. How are we 0:23:46.320 --> 0:23:50.640 going to like prevent that from like shelter our kids 0:23:50.680 --> 0:23:52.760 from thinking they should be instagram who she's too. I 0:23:52.800 --> 0:23:53.080 don't know. 0:23:53.119 --> 0:23:55.800 I think that brings me to like talk about Beyonce's 0:23:55.840 --> 0:23:58.880 Vogue cover because she talks about that with you know, 0:23:58.960 --> 0:24:01.359 talking about her son and teaching him how to respect 0:24:01.400 --> 0:24:04.040 women and be his own have his own mind and 0:24:03.760 --> 0:24:07.159 age where like the Internet and Instagram are. 0:24:07.040 --> 0:24:12.480 So you know important. So okay, So Beyonce is on 0:24:12.560 --> 0:24:17.040 the cover of Vogue. She made I don't know made 0:24:17.040 --> 0:24:19.480 them is the right word. But she hired like the 0:24:19.520 --> 0:24:21.840 photographer of her choice, which was like this young kid 0:24:22.400 --> 0:24:23.240 we Hyler. 0:24:23.040 --> 0:24:27.760 Or something does some things. But yeah, in September, September 0:24:27.760 --> 0:24:29.879 issues like their biggest issue. I think it's Anna Wintour, 0:24:29.960 --> 0:24:33.560 Anna Wintour's last issue and it's like a huge deal 0:24:33.600 --> 0:24:34.160 for and it's. 0:24:34.080 --> 0:24:38.679 The first African American cover photographer. Yeah, which is what 0:24:38.720 --> 0:24:43.439 the fuck you guys been doing this whole time? Like 0:24:43.480 --> 0:24:45.959 who knew? But these are things we don't realize. So 0:24:46.520 --> 0:24:52.280 she did this really deep ass interview or what do 0:24:52.440 --> 0:24:52.800 I don't know? 0:24:52.960 --> 0:24:55.080 Yeah, I guess it was an interview I think someone 0:24:55.080 --> 0:24:57.240 asked her the question. They didn't post the framing of 0:24:57.280 --> 0:24:58.320 the questions. 0:24:58.280 --> 0:25:00.000 Or maybe they just throughout words and she was spoke 0:25:00.000 --> 0:25:02.840 sin Chrippert what they mean to her. So I got 0:25:02.920 --> 0:25:06.280 really deep and we were reading it before we started 0:25:06.280 --> 0:25:07.679 so we could talk about it. And I'm pretty sure 0:25:07.720 --> 0:25:08.800 we almost started crying. 0:25:09.160 --> 0:25:11.720 Yeah, I mean, it's I think what like really caught me. 0:25:14.080 --> 0:25:16.280 I guess I would say off guard is her candid, 0:25:16.680 --> 0:25:19.840 her candidness about her pregnancy because there's always been so 0:25:19.920 --> 0:25:22.440 much speculation about her pregnancy and if she had her 0:25:22.440 --> 0:25:25.520 first baby and what the deal was with that, and 0:25:25.560 --> 0:25:27.600 then her talking about she did talk about it in 0:25:27.640 --> 0:25:31.080 that in the article, and then her and now having 0:25:31.080 --> 0:25:32.720 this baby and oh my god, it's dancing just gonna 0:25:32.720 --> 0:25:34.639 snap back. If she was really big she had twins, 0:25:34.680 --> 0:25:36.600 and then like there was just all this body shaming 0:25:36.640 --> 0:25:38.679 even after she had the baby because she was bigger 0:25:38.800 --> 0:25:39.400 and gained weight. 0:25:39.520 --> 0:25:42.520 I didn't see her bigger. She was barely. I mean, 0:25:42.880 --> 0:25:44.320 she was sick, she's sick. 0:25:44.720 --> 0:25:46.600 She was again, she's still thicker than she's. 0:25:46.480 --> 0:25:47.560 Ever been, and I love it. 0:25:47.680 --> 0:25:50.040 She was bombed. She was bomb and that's what she 0:25:50.080 --> 0:25:52.080 talks about. Just like taking her time with this kid, 0:25:52.119 --> 0:25:53.879 like the first kid, Like she just felt like she 0:25:53.920 --> 0:25:57.160 had to get back, snap back real quick. And this time, 0:25:57.280 --> 0:25:59.680 you know, she had an emergency c section, which you 0:25:59.720 --> 0:26:01.520 know she did. Yeah, she said, she said she had 0:26:01.520 --> 0:26:05.639 an emergency c section. She had never rest before, that 0:26:05.720 --> 0:26:08.479 she was on bed rest for a whole month, and 0:26:08.480 --> 0:26:11.600 that their babies were in what is it called? 0:26:13.240 --> 0:26:15.360 And she even like, I like that she shed light 0:26:15.440 --> 0:26:19.879 on this the whole Sisyrian process that temporarily some of 0:26:19.880 --> 0:26:22.840 your organs are removed in most sectors and people like 0:26:22.960 --> 0:26:25.200 totally forget this part, like they literally removed ship. But 0:26:25.359 --> 0:26:27.600 I'm able to get the baby out. So that's a 0:26:27.720 --> 0:26:30.040 major recovery. Yeah, she had a major surgery. 0:26:30.480 --> 0:26:35.600 Yeah, girl, I know, shit that should hurt. Okay, you 0:26:35.640 --> 0:26:37.040 guys need to go in there and play. 0:26:37.080 --> 0:26:41.800 Okay, know me to put a movie on? Yeah? Yeah, 0:26:41.920 --> 0:26:44.280 So should I read a little snippet? Uh? 0:26:44.359 --> 0:26:46.439 Yeah? So then we So then we kept reading and 0:26:46.480 --> 0:26:50.199 she's talking about raising her daughter and her bull and 0:26:50.240 --> 0:26:51.120 her son. 0:26:51.200 --> 0:26:53.080 Yeah. Are we gonna talk about the ancestry part? 0:26:53.359 --> 0:26:54.040 Oh? Yeah sure? 0:26:54.520 --> 0:26:57.159 So she's okay, So people, we got a lot of 0:26:57.200 --> 0:27:03.960 the pregnancy posts, the poop yeah, okay, well we'll be back. 0:27:04.080 --> 0:27:26.080 Br B. Sorry, we're back. Our kids are literally they're crazy. 0:27:26.840 --> 0:27:30.960 So I repooped in case you're wondering. 0:27:31.960 --> 0:27:34.880 Reminded me of we gotta comment on sun Cloud that said, sis, 0:27:35.000 --> 0:27:37.760 y'all need to put those kids, give those kids some benadryl. 0:27:38.040 --> 0:27:38.280 Yeah. 0:27:38.359 --> 0:27:41.440 I was like, what, literally, someone told us to drug 0:27:41.480 --> 0:27:41.960 our kids. 0:27:42.119 --> 0:27:45.120 I've tried it on our New York episode. I've given 0:27:45.160 --> 0:27:46.080 a little better drill. 0:27:46.440 --> 0:27:50.360 She was sick. I've never given my give it works. 0:27:51.760 --> 0:27:58.600 Anyway. We can't do our kids. Okay, that's illegal, so Beyonce. Okay. 0:27:58.640 --> 0:28:00.800 So there's a lot of talk about what she says, 0:28:00.800 --> 0:28:04.080 specifically about her postpartum body that she was really candid about, 0:28:04.280 --> 0:28:06.840 but surprisingly we hadn't read the rest of the article. 0:28:06.880 --> 0:28:09.840 That's actually also really interesting and touches on a lot 0:28:09.880 --> 0:28:13.119 of pro like just a lot of interesting things that 0:28:13.160 --> 0:28:15.480 she usually to talk about. So one of the things 0:28:15.520 --> 0:28:18.480 that struck us, and it was very deep, was her 0:28:18.520 --> 0:28:22.639 take on ancestry, and she writes, I came from a 0:28:22.680 --> 0:28:27.160 lineage of broken male female relationships, abusive power, and mistrust. 0:28:27.560 --> 0:28:29.439 Only when I saw that clearly was I able to 0:28:29.480 --> 0:28:32.679 resolve those conflicts. In my own relationship. Connecting to the 0:28:32.720 --> 0:28:36.200 past and knowing our history makes us both bruised and beautiful. 0:28:36.560 --> 0:28:38.960 I researched my ancestry recently and learned that I came 0:28:39.000 --> 0:28:41.120 from a slave owner who fell in love with a 0:28:41.200 --> 0:28:46.040 married slave. I had to process that revelation over time. 0:28:46.120 --> 0:28:47.880 I questioned what it meant and tried to put it 0:28:47.920 --> 0:28:51.200 into perspective. I now believe it's why God blessed me 0:28:51.240 --> 0:28:54.040 with my twins. Male and female energy was able to 0:28:54.080 --> 0:28:56.720 coexist and grow in my blood for the first time. 0:28:58.240 --> 0:29:00.640 I pray that I am able to break the generational 0:29:00.680 --> 0:29:02.880 purses in my family and that my children will have 0:29:02.960 --> 0:29:04.280 less complicated lives. 0:29:05.480 --> 0:29:09.640 Like that's sad, so I mean again, And when I 0:29:09.680 --> 0:29:11.880 read that, I thought of my friend Nadalita, who was 0:29:11.920 --> 0:29:17.600 always talking about like letting go of like ancestral ancestual 0:29:18.080 --> 0:29:22.240 trauma that lives within us. And then Jamila Ben said 0:29:22.320 --> 0:29:25.800 that there's some studies done that cells have memory, and 0:29:25.840 --> 0:29:29.240 that makes total sense because we do bring like this 0:29:29.360 --> 0:29:32.480 innate things that are like innately in us that are 0:29:32.520 --> 0:29:36.560 passed on and on. Of course, like you know, society 0:29:36.680 --> 0:29:39.200 and culture play a part and just how you were 0:29:39.320 --> 0:29:42.320 raised and seeing images and listening to things, but there's 0:29:42.320 --> 0:29:46.520 also something that's like deeply rooted, deeper than that, and 0:29:47.080 --> 0:29:50.280 working on your ancestral trauma is something that people don't discuss. 0:29:50.440 --> 0:29:52.800 They don't they even think about. I never even thought 0:29:52.800 --> 0:29:54.160 about it. I didn't even know it was a thing. 0:29:55.560 --> 0:29:56.920 What does that mean? Yeah? 0:29:57.040 --> 0:30:00.440 Yeah, and you know, I think beyond say, I mean, 0:30:00.480 --> 0:30:04.040 obviously she's been educated on it and is working. 0:30:04.000 --> 0:30:05.840 On that and acknowledging it. 0:30:06.760 --> 0:30:11.040 Yeah. And yeah, that idea that both female and male 0:30:11.200 --> 0:30:14.800 live can live inside of you, that's really kind of insane, 0:30:14.840 --> 0:30:17.000 even just like having a boy in general. 0:30:16.680 --> 0:30:19.920 And as a woman, you can grow a male male 0:30:19.960 --> 0:30:20.520 inside of you. 0:30:21.160 --> 0:30:21.680 Yeah. 0:30:21.720 --> 0:30:27.640 And another thing I read that when women carry boys, 0:30:28.520 --> 0:30:31.920 didn't that DNA stays in us till we die? But 0:30:32.000 --> 0:30:34.320 I don't think it's the same for for little girls. 0:30:34.640 --> 0:30:38.280 And also if you have sex with the guy, raw, 0:30:38.560 --> 0:30:40.640 if you get a guy's semen in your vagina, this 0:30:40.720 --> 0:30:45.800 is very black and whint very I don't know the 0:30:45.840 --> 0:30:48.000 word I'm looking for you. I'm trying to say that 0:30:48.000 --> 0:30:50.360 that all that semen, like their DNA stays in you 0:30:50.440 --> 0:30:53.640 until death too. What. Yeah, So they're doing studies. 0:30:53.320 --> 0:30:55.720 On anybody, so every person's semen that's. 0:30:55.560 --> 0:30:58.200 Been within me. They were doing they were doing studies 0:30:58.200 --> 0:31:01.400 on deceased women's like sell your living like their bones, 0:31:01.520 --> 0:31:05.040 and they kept finding DNA male DNA that wasn't of 0:31:05.120 --> 0:31:09.560 their sons or their fathers, and come to find out 0:31:09.960 --> 0:31:12.640 women store male DNA all. 0:31:12.600 --> 0:31:14.520 Women Like this is just yet across the board. 0:31:14.640 --> 0:31:15.760 Yep, I mean, I mean that that. 0:31:15.800 --> 0:31:17.440 Would be different. I'm just saying you sure she was 0:31:17.560 --> 0:31:17.800 not there? 0:31:18.000 --> 0:31:20.960 Yeah, she wasn't a little kimnock. 0:31:24.480 --> 0:31:26.200 I mean, you know, I'd just be reading on the 0:31:26.200 --> 0:31:28.640 internet like everybody else. So don't like mark my words 0:31:28.640 --> 0:31:30.640 on this, but if anyone does know anything about that, 0:31:30.680 --> 0:31:34.200 and uh, you know, if I'm wrong or if I'm. 0:31:34.120 --> 0:31:36.640 Right, I mean, that's really interesting if that's true, Like, 0:31:36.720 --> 0:31:39.960 that's really interesting and also scared because I definitely got 0:31:40.000 --> 0:31:42.080 some shit I don't want. I don't. 0:31:42.080 --> 0:31:45.000 I literally was like part of I know what to 0:31:45.000 --> 0:31:47.440 tell Luna when she's a teenager. Let me tell you 0:31:47.480 --> 0:31:49.120 what will happened. Let me tell you what happened, because 0:31:49.120 --> 0:31:50.800 literally I wish someone would have told me that. I can't, 0:31:50.800 --> 0:31:54.280 like that's my biggest I can't wait to be able 0:31:54.320 --> 0:31:56.000 to like of course, she's growing, she's a older woman. 0:31:56.040 --> 0:31:58.520 But like when you can really talk to your daughters 0:31:58.600 --> 0:32:03.440 and really level up them, like yeah, you could like that, boy, 0:32:03.560 --> 0:32:05.480 but I'm gonna tell you right. 0:32:05.320 --> 0:32:09.719 Now that DNA will be all you don't want, be 0:32:09.840 --> 0:32:11.360 sure right. 0:32:12.840 --> 0:32:14.200 Or just or. 0:32:16.080 --> 0:32:17.880 That too. Yeah, And I think, you. 0:32:17.840 --> 0:32:21.000 Know, like what made me really think about ancestral DNA 0:32:21.080 --> 0:32:24.920 and like just cellular memory period, it's just as black 0:32:24.960 --> 0:32:29.520 women or women, I mean, like slavery and the trauma 0:32:29.600 --> 0:32:32.440 of that, you know, like like lots of women were 0:32:32.520 --> 0:32:35.320 raped and in any like well every I'm sure like 0:32:35.360 --> 0:32:39.440 most society have had violent times in their history, you 0:32:39.480 --> 0:32:40.080 know what I'm saying. 0:32:40.240 --> 0:32:43.480 Yeah, but you carry that sorrow in your bone right 0:32:43.840 --> 0:32:49.160 in your blood like that. That history is deep, deep 0:32:49.240 --> 0:32:53.360 and dark dark, and it doesn't just leave. It doesn't 0:32:53.360 --> 0:32:56.280 just lead to you, right, and your children when you're 0:32:56.320 --> 0:33:00.400 growing that child, or when that's that former slave was 0:33:00.560 --> 0:33:04.160 growing growing a child in her stomach, she was passing 0:33:04.200 --> 0:33:04.680 some of that on. 0:33:04.760 --> 0:33:06.400 That's why I think also it's so important. 0:33:06.400 --> 0:33:08.280 Like when I was pregnant, I remember like reading a 0:33:08.320 --> 0:33:11.240 lot of stuff about really trying to like focus and 0:33:11.320 --> 0:33:14.040 be as positive as you can when you're pregnant, because yeah, 0:33:14.120 --> 0:33:18.720 you are kind of you are mixing cells and creating 0:33:18.720 --> 0:33:22.680 a life and passing on that ancestral DNA and that. 0:33:22.800 --> 0:33:26.040 Energy and that's and and whatever your energy is in 0:33:26.080 --> 0:33:28.560 your tone and even talking to the womb and like 0:33:28.920 --> 0:33:32.280 you're preparing, like you're preparing a woman for her like 0:33:32.560 --> 0:33:35.760 her journey onwards. So someone's about to like exit you 0:33:35.880 --> 0:33:38.240 and then walk this road and grow this road. So 0:33:38.360 --> 0:33:40.440 like all the words, all the things you say, that shit, 0:33:41.160 --> 0:33:41.920 that makes a difference. 0:33:41.960 --> 0:33:43.480 But I think the beauty and all of that. And 0:33:43.640 --> 0:33:46.000 just as a reminder, like from this article reading it 0:33:46.040 --> 0:33:48.920 is that you don't have to that doesn't have to 0:33:48.960 --> 0:33:51.520 define you. You can work on releasing that. 0:33:51.920 --> 0:33:55.360 And acknowledging it and releasing it, which is most important. 0:33:55.520 --> 0:33:56.800 Yes, what's going on? 0:33:56.960 --> 0:33:59.920 I can't itch They're too itchy, you remember, don't know 0:34:00.040 --> 0:34:03.800 they're too itchy. No more, we'll figure it out. 0:34:04.000 --> 0:34:07.680 Watch Alpha Omega, watch the movie. 0:34:08.280 --> 0:34:11.960 No, okay, put it on that Iri, I'm not putting 0:34:11.960 --> 0:34:15.520 it on you, go put it on yourself, my goodness. 0:34:16.080 --> 0:34:17.920 And then second she had this other part in the 0:34:18.000 --> 0:34:23.680 article inside out. 0:34:28.000 --> 0:34:31.680 Yet again, our girls are putting on more princess outfits. 0:34:32.800 --> 0:34:36.600 This is a problem. And actually I recently talked to 0:34:36.680 --> 0:34:40.359 another mom about going to Disneyland, and she told me 0:34:40.440 --> 0:34:44.799 that there's an actual is it actual study that like 0:34:45.040 --> 0:34:47.080 taking your kids to Disney right and doing the whole 0:34:47.120 --> 0:34:51.280 princess experience is detrimental to their health? Isn't actual study 0:34:51.320 --> 0:34:53.440 or is there her personal research in mind? I don't know. 0:34:53.520 --> 0:34:55.480 I need to research it more, but she was very convincing, 0:34:55.560 --> 0:34:58.719 and that, like, the princess syndrome is like more and 0:34:58.760 --> 0:35:01.000 more in society popping up. Let me think about it. People, 0:35:01.280 --> 0:35:03.560 girls have been wanting to be princesses since the beginning 0:35:03.600 --> 0:35:06.120 of time. You know, it didn't just happen now, but. 0:35:06.080 --> 0:35:08.000 Like and then, only fucking Megan makes it with the 0:35:08.000 --> 0:35:12.920 fuck No, if any mom has ever been to Disney 0:35:12.960 --> 0:35:17.200 and then the princess experience, please like your kid will 0:35:17.239 --> 0:35:18.920 never stop talking about it. Lu did when she was 0:35:18.960 --> 0:35:21.480 fucking two. I'm pretty sure she might have been one 0:35:21.480 --> 0:35:23.560 and a half. Honest to god, I don't even know 0:35:23.560 --> 0:35:27.480 if she was too yet will not stop talking about 0:35:27.480 --> 0:35:28.439 it till this day. 0:35:28.560 --> 0:35:31.279 I'm not taking care in the princess experience it like 0:35:31.400 --> 0:35:32.920 I know my mom is gonna try. 0:35:33.120 --> 0:35:35.239 Oh for sure, and I'm sure it's like four hundred 0:35:35.239 --> 0:35:35.560 dollars a. 0:35:35.560 --> 0:35:39.920 Kid, Oh my god. But anyway, yeah, just about that. 0:35:40.040 --> 0:35:46.000 So that was one part of the the interview article 0:35:46.160 --> 0:35:48.239 that we read with Beyonce. But then there was a 0:35:48.239 --> 0:35:51.719 second part that really really struck me. And she was 0:35:51.719 --> 0:35:57.480 talking about her son, and uh, she was just saying 0:35:57.680 --> 0:36:00.520 she wants her she wants her kids to be ceoses. 0:36:00.719 --> 0:36:02.960 Know that they don't have ceilings. For daughters, know that 0:36:03.000 --> 0:36:05.160 they don't have ceilings. That they don't have to be 0:36:05.200 --> 0:36:09.360 politically correct, as long as they're authentic, respectful, compassionate, and empathetic. 0:36:09.400 --> 0:36:14.880 And I'm like, damn, she hit every single one. Authentic, respectful, compassionate, empathetic, 0:36:14.920 --> 0:36:16.640 and they don't have to be politically correct as long 0:36:16.680 --> 0:36:21.759 as you are respectful, like yeah, yes, yes, amen. 0:36:21.760 --> 0:36:24.440 Which I think is a big thing to like politically correct. 0:36:24.440 --> 0:36:26.120 We so often like, oh, you gotta be like this, 0:36:26.200 --> 0:36:28.000 you got to talk like this, you could have this 0:36:28.120 --> 0:36:30.080 tone and for people to accept your certain way. 0:36:30.120 --> 0:36:31.399 But it's like, no, you can do what the fuck 0:36:31.440 --> 0:36:32.960 you want as long as you're trueing. 0:36:32.800 --> 0:36:35.040 Or just saying cursings too much long you know what 0:36:35.080 --> 0:36:41.400 I mean, or offending people with your views yeah, beautiful. 0:36:42.880 --> 0:36:45.319 They can explore any religion, fall in love with any race, 0:36:45.360 --> 0:36:46.960 and love who they want to love. And then this 0:36:47.160 --> 0:36:48.880 was the line that really, oh shit, what did I 0:36:48.960 --> 0:36:51.480 just do with it? Got me? Me and Jamila read 0:36:51.520 --> 0:36:53.239 it and I was like, am I crying? You're not crying? 0:36:53.320 --> 0:36:56.000 I know. I was like, you're crying. No, I'm not 0:36:56.000 --> 0:36:56.560 taking away. 0:36:56.400 --> 0:36:59.400 Gass bitch, Like she says, I want the same thing 0:36:59.440 --> 0:37:01.000 for my son, and I want him to know that 0:37:01.080 --> 0:37:03.000 he can be strong and brave, but that he can 0:37:03.080 --> 0:37:05.279 also be sensitive and kind. I want my son to 0:37:05.360 --> 0:37:08.080 have a high emotional IQ where he is free to 0:37:08.160 --> 0:37:11.959 be caring, truthful, and honest. It's everything a woman wants 0:37:12.000 --> 0:37:13.600 in a man, and yet we don't teach it to 0:37:13.680 --> 0:37:14.240 our boys. 0:37:15.040 --> 0:37:19.520 I'm like, yes, I feel so passionately about that. 0:37:20.239 --> 0:37:24.840 Those few sentences, last few sentences everything a woman wants 0:37:24.880 --> 0:37:26.800 in the man, and yet we do not teach it 0:37:26.840 --> 0:37:27.440 to our boys. 0:37:28.520 --> 0:37:29.759 That is the most important thing. 0:37:29.840 --> 0:37:32.560 A men yance a men. 0:37:32.800 --> 0:37:38.520 And the church says, yes, yeah, I just like that. 0:37:38.840 --> 0:37:40.879 That line just resonated to me. I mean, I don't 0:37:40.920 --> 0:37:43.200 have a son, but like, and I'm sure you know, 0:37:43.239 --> 0:37:45.440 I'm not to discredit moms and what they do. But 0:37:45.520 --> 0:37:48.080 it's just not the focus. We're so busy teaching boys 0:37:48.160 --> 0:37:51.399 to be brave, to take risks, to like get out there, 0:37:52.680 --> 0:37:55.440 be strong, so cry, boys will be boys. 0:37:55.560 --> 0:37:58.439 Don't cry. Pick up that that that doll baby, boys 0:37:58.440 --> 0:37:59.000 don't play with that. 0:37:59.320 --> 0:38:02.799 Yeah, make the money, you know, and not be sensitive. 0:38:04.000 --> 0:38:06.239 Especially they don't cry thing like not being like why 0:38:06.280 --> 0:38:06.759 are you crying? 0:38:06.800 --> 0:38:07.400 Are you okay? 0:38:07.600 --> 0:38:08.040 What's wrong? 0:38:08.080 --> 0:38:11.640 How are you hate that? Shit? I hate it? 0:38:12.080 --> 0:38:15.560 Yeah, they don't be a baby? Yeah, yeah, it's I mean, 0:38:15.640 --> 0:38:18.279 it's something that's like ingreat I say it. That's you know, 0:38:18.360 --> 0:38:20.040 that's the thing, Like I just say it because I've 0:38:20.040 --> 0:38:22.560 heard it so many times. But yeah, you're absolutely right, 0:38:22.680 --> 0:38:25.400 like you should not say that. You know, these are 0:38:25.440 --> 0:38:29.680 little things that that are like implanted in our little 0:38:29.760 --> 0:38:32.160 human's brains and they are like, oh. 0:38:32.560 --> 0:38:35.840 Oh, don't do that, don't do that. I'm yeah, I 0:38:35.880 --> 0:38:39.840 feel I find myself being trying to be opposite that 0:38:39.960 --> 0:38:42.600 and like low key telling wounded, like to tough enough, 0:38:42.719 --> 0:38:46.200 or like oh something's not fair, my life's not fair. 0:38:47.120 --> 0:38:50.160 But I don't want to do it either way too much, 0:38:50.239 --> 0:38:51.680 you know what I mean, because it's not okay either 0:38:51.840 --> 0:38:52.279 either way. 0:38:52.440 --> 0:38:53.799 I mean, I think you have to. It's a healthy 0:38:53.840 --> 0:38:55.200 balance both, like you don't want to go too far 0:38:55.239 --> 0:38:56.960 off those like, well, life isn't fair. Figure this out 0:38:57.560 --> 0:39:00.200 because then it takes like the joy and like the 0:39:02.280 --> 0:39:04.040 I just not takes all the joy but just like 0:39:04.280 --> 0:39:10.040 the joy of exploring life and you know, enjoying the 0:39:10.200 --> 0:39:12.520 journey because you're just like, well, shit isn't fair. You know, 0:39:12.880 --> 0:39:15.160 because I do the same thing too, Like I want 0:39:15.200 --> 0:39:16.960 my daughter to know that she's not always going to 0:39:17.000 --> 0:39:18.520 get what she wants, but I also want her to 0:39:18.640 --> 0:39:20.480 know that if she works hard, she can get what 0:39:20.600 --> 0:39:23.000 she wants. You know what I mean that she she 0:39:23.080 --> 0:39:27.080 works hard, then she you know, puts out good energy 0:39:27.360 --> 0:39:31.920 and good just just everything compact, being, compassion, being empathetic, everything. 0:39:31.960 --> 0:39:33.480 She said, like if you put all that out in 0:39:33.480 --> 0:39:35.239 the universal receiver back, if that's. 0:39:35.160 --> 0:39:35.640 What you want. 0:39:37.719 --> 0:39:40.480 But yeah, so that article was like really surprising to me. 0:39:40.560 --> 0:39:42.960 Not that I think Beyonce is like dumb. Clearly she ain't. 0:39:43.080 --> 0:39:46.919 She like builds an empire and you know, of course 0:39:46.960 --> 0:39:48.960 she had help, but you know, like she's the one 0:39:49.000 --> 0:39:52.600 who's calling the shots. So you know, I think I 0:39:52.680 --> 0:39:54.919 think she's finally just and what she said, She's finally 0:39:54.960 --> 0:39:58.320 comfortable in a place like where she she doesn't have 0:39:58.440 --> 0:40:02.320 to she'll never have to worry about anything or please, 0:40:02.440 --> 0:40:04.759 doesn't have to please anybody but her damn self. 0:40:04.840 --> 0:40:06.760 Yeah, and she's like, I'm just getting to that place. 0:40:06.800 --> 0:40:09.239 And it's like, Beyonce, just realize she doesn't have to please. 0:40:09.440 --> 0:40:11.600 She says, I'm like just now growing from a child 0:40:11.640 --> 0:40:12.440 into a young woman. 0:40:13.000 --> 0:40:15.359 Yeah, you know what I mean. But it's real. If 0:40:15.400 --> 0:40:18.640 you don't, if you don't address your inner child, that 0:40:18.719 --> 0:40:21.040 ship will go to your till you die. You will 0:40:21.080 --> 0:40:23.600 be like fighting the inner child and not even realizing 0:40:23.640 --> 0:40:26.000 you're doing it, and like still being defensive, still not 0:40:26.160 --> 0:40:30.040 recognizing shit, and trying to please people. And I'm sure 0:40:30.200 --> 0:40:33.120 there's so much pressure to please everybody when you're fucking Beyonce. 0:40:33.120 --> 0:40:35.800 Yeah, taking care of people. Well you're rich, just help me. 0:40:35.880 --> 0:40:38.200 What's the big deal? Why why can't you just do that? 0:40:38.320 --> 0:40:41.479 And feeling a lot of obligated and all types of shit. 0:40:43.000 --> 0:40:46.359 Speaking of Bee, who's obviously Okay, what do you think 0:40:46.400 --> 0:40:47.799 you think Bee is the alpha woman? 0:40:48.440 --> 0:40:48.880 By who? 0:40:49.520 --> 0:40:50.040 Beyonce? 0:40:50.400 --> 0:40:52.000 Oh, I'm like my base? 0:40:52.880 --> 0:40:58.120 Who's base Bay? Which Bay? Talking about baby? 0:41:01.000 --> 0:41:01.040 No? 0:41:01.360 --> 0:41:01.960 The bed. 0:41:03.840 --> 0:41:04.400 Besis. 0:41:05.280 --> 0:41:06.000 I think. 0:41:07.320 --> 0:41:11.080 She is. I don't know her enough, right, but if 0:41:11.160 --> 0:41:13.399 I was gonna outsider looking in, I would I would 0:41:13.520 --> 0:41:15.520 think that she's an alpha woman. 0:41:15.640 --> 0:41:20.239 Yeah, a hundred. She's this article that like she's really 0:41:20.320 --> 0:41:24.000 candid in it, I mean not candid, transparent, and like 0:41:24.080 --> 0:41:27.040 I think before, Okay, everybody's gonna kill me. I'm not. 0:41:27.239 --> 0:41:29.120 It's not that I'm not a huge Beyonce fan. 0:41:29.200 --> 0:41:34.960 I think she's great. Oh my god, they're calling it 0:41:37.239 --> 0:41:42.000 the Buddhist community. I'm a Buddhist, I chance sometimes, but 0:41:42.080 --> 0:41:43.879 they just keep calling me like the damn joke. Okay, 0:41:43.920 --> 0:41:50.279 let me not something very bad, like you said, Like 0:41:50.360 --> 0:41:52.960 even her talking about candidly by like being pro black 0:41:53.200 --> 0:41:55.560 and putting black people on the map because. 0:41:55.600 --> 0:41:58.040 And supporting one another and bringing people in places that 0:41:58.160 --> 0:42:00.080 she you know, she knows she use her plot. 0:42:00.080 --> 0:42:02.759 For platform for Yeah, so she's never really been that 0:42:03.239 --> 0:42:06.239 open about it. So her being really real is like, 0:42:06.400 --> 0:42:10.719 oh wow, it's a different. Uh, it's a different perspective 0:42:10.760 --> 0:42:11.040 from her. 0:42:14.239 --> 0:42:18.400 Okay, guys, talk talk it out, talk it out, and 0:42:18.480 --> 0:42:19.040 close the door. 0:42:20.560 --> 0:42:23.120 She has another backpack close the door after where the 0:42:23.200 --> 0:42:31.560 other one is. Oh okay, so what's today's topic, so that. 0:42:31.640 --> 0:42:34.200 Leads us in today's topic. Today's topic, we wanted to 0:42:34.320 --> 0:42:42.960 talk about the alpha female, and I was asking Jamila, 0:42:42.960 --> 0:42:45.000 I said, like, do you consider yourself an alpha female 0:42:45.080 --> 0:42:47.800 or do you consider yourself an omega female? And and 0:42:47.920 --> 0:42:51.120 through my research, I realized there's actually three categories. And 0:42:51.440 --> 0:42:54.560 I was really interesting researching this because I've only ever known, like, 0:42:55.120 --> 0:42:57.560 you know, the duality of them, and never knew there 0:42:57.680 --> 0:42:59.759 was like something in between, which is beta. So it 0:42:59.880 --> 0:43:03.720 goes alpha. There's either alpha female or male, beta female 0:43:03.760 --> 0:43:05.640 or male or omega female or male. I mean all 0:43:05.680 --> 0:43:08.759 have different traits. And reading both of them, reading all 0:43:08.840 --> 0:43:11.360 three of them, it was interesting because I was like, 0:43:11.480 --> 0:43:13.680 I can kind of see myself in the not I'm 0:43:13.719 --> 0:43:16.000 not really an omega honestly, I mean I think I 0:43:16.080 --> 0:43:18.200 am empathy. Like, first of all, maybe we should break 0:43:18.239 --> 0:43:20.480 down what the definitions of each one are so that 0:43:20.640 --> 0:43:23.200 maybe even you listening, you can kind of decipher where 0:43:23.280 --> 0:43:25.680 you think you fall on the spectrum, because I think 0:43:25.719 --> 0:43:27.280 we all kind of fall somewhere in between. 0:43:27.400 --> 0:43:29.320 Yes, yes, I don't know if there's. 0:43:29.200 --> 0:43:31.520 Like there's probably women that are male, even men that 0:43:31.560 --> 0:43:32.799 are purely alpha. 0:43:32.640 --> 0:43:33.160 Oh for sure. 0:43:36.640 --> 0:43:39.440 So basically an alpha female kind of is just always 0:43:39.520 --> 0:43:42.359 finds herself like her main goal is always to win. 0:43:42.480 --> 0:43:44.880 She always is like one step ahead of the competition, 0:43:45.840 --> 0:43:48.719 usually like she's the one who leads the conversation. 0:43:49.080 --> 0:43:50.840 She never second guessing herself. 0:43:50.920 --> 0:43:56.160 Super successful usually yeah, very successful. What else is it 0:43:56.440 --> 0:43:56.960 that that? 0:43:58.280 --> 0:43:59.799 And what I read is some of them it felt 0:43:59.800 --> 0:44:01.160 like she was maybe detached. 0:44:02.680 --> 0:44:04.919 It says the attention is always on you, and that's 0:44:04.960 --> 0:44:07.879 how you like it. It doesn't mean you're necessarily want 0:44:07.920 --> 0:44:10.399 to be the center of attention. You just prefer knowing 0:44:10.440 --> 0:44:12.560 that you're not the runt of the pack, so to speak, 0:44:12.680 --> 0:44:15.799 Like you realize you think you carry your weight and. 0:44:19.080 --> 0:44:21.160 Yeah, so then there's the beta. 0:44:21.640 --> 0:44:25.920 So then beta is like Alpha's second hand man. So 0:44:26.520 --> 0:44:31.280 beta is wants considers her himself in alpha, but always 0:44:31.280 --> 0:44:34.000 feels like he or she needs to prove that to people. 0:44:34.080 --> 0:44:36.680 It doesn't she she's she or he is not secure 0:44:36.880 --> 0:44:38.280 in that alpha. 0:44:40.040 --> 0:44:40.239 Role. 0:44:42.640 --> 0:44:45.680 There's so many different like conflicting like information on this, 0:44:45.920 --> 0:44:47.800 so it's kind of hard to know for sure. Like 0:44:48.120 --> 0:44:51.360 then the beta was like, oh, like they're like the cheerleader, 0:44:51.440 --> 0:44:53.360 the supporter who Alpha goes to talk. 0:44:53.280 --> 0:44:57.000 To the mediator, mediator, the submissive person, the one who's 0:44:57.080 --> 0:44:58.200 more like submissive. 0:44:58.320 --> 0:45:00.200 They weren't really that. I mean, they had some a 0:45:00.239 --> 0:45:00.960 missive traits. 0:45:01.040 --> 0:45:05.520 I guess omega beta Yeah, oh wait, oh sorry, we're 0:45:05.560 --> 0:45:06.000 not there yet. 0:45:06.040 --> 0:45:13.319 No, yeah, I know the beta. I think a lot 0:45:13.360 --> 0:45:15.680 of women and men, I think mostly women can kind 0:45:15.680 --> 0:45:18.640 of relate to the beta. When you're a beta woman, 0:45:18.760 --> 0:45:20.440 you very much want to be the alpha, but you 0:45:20.480 --> 0:45:23.640 simply don't see it in yourself. Some people say that 0:45:23.719 --> 0:45:27.920 betas are kind of defensive. Uh, you always feel like 0:45:27.960 --> 0:45:30.239 you're kind of battling the odds to gain some sort 0:45:30.280 --> 0:45:36.600 of balanced footing with everyone else. Let me say, compensating 0:45:36.680 --> 0:45:39.719 for you. Consider it, you're still a dominant woman. 0:45:39.760 --> 0:45:39.960 Though. 0:45:40.880 --> 0:45:43.120 I think betas are still dominant women. They have those 0:45:43.160 --> 0:45:44.279 alpha traits. 0:45:45.560 --> 0:45:48.040 But very little of the confidence to keep you on 0:45:48.160 --> 0:45:48.640 that level. 0:45:49.760 --> 0:45:51.760 I guess. I guess they're kind of always fighting against 0:45:51.800 --> 0:45:54.920 the current, frustrated that that things don't come as easily 0:45:55.040 --> 0:45:58.200 to you as they do to others, And sometimes it 0:45:58.280 --> 0:45:59.000 makes you bitter. 0:46:00.280 --> 0:46:04.759 Biggers are bitter, We're all a little bitter. Why not me? 0:46:06.040 --> 0:46:11.719 And then the omega is you're just like naturally empathetic, 0:46:11.840 --> 0:46:15.120 like you feel you feel for people, and. 0:46:15.600 --> 0:46:16.680 This one's the mediator. 0:46:17.080 --> 0:46:19.920 This one's like the mediator. I think Beta Beta has 0:46:19.920 --> 0:46:21.800 a little bit of mediation too, but I think the 0:46:21.880 --> 0:46:24.640 omega is more like a healer. You have a smooth over, 0:46:24.880 --> 0:46:27.760 smooth over like you take on a lot of people's problems. 0:46:27.840 --> 0:46:31.160 You care deep people, you care deeply about. 0:46:31.000 --> 0:46:33.960 Like what's going on with other people, and that that 0:46:34.080 --> 0:46:36.399 can sometimes be very draining to you. And you can 0:46:36.680 --> 0:46:42.520 feel taken advantage of. Yeah, all of these terms, and 0:46:42.640 --> 0:46:45.480 also you're a little bit submissive. A lot of its submissive. 0:46:45.719 --> 0:46:50.920 Yeah again they should just our Internet research. And the 0:46:51.000 --> 0:46:54.960 whole terminology comes from animals like dogs, like animals that 0:46:55.080 --> 0:46:59.280 run impacts. So it's not to be taken too literally. 0:46:59.400 --> 0:47:02.719 But it is interesting because I think people's perception is 0:47:02.760 --> 0:47:03.920 like I'm an alpha female. 0:47:04.040 --> 0:47:05.520 I'm an alpha fem, you know what I mean. 0:47:05.920 --> 0:47:08.319 And in some ways I think I am, but. 0:47:08.400 --> 0:47:10.000 I see my I see him a little bit of 0:47:10.080 --> 0:47:13.120 myself and all three of them, Like, we did. 0:47:13.040 --> 0:47:15.360 A poll on my instagram, on both of our instagrams, 0:47:15.719 --> 0:47:16.960 and I asked. 0:47:20.120 --> 0:47:27.040 You, got hey, hey, now stop yelling. Be nice, I said, 0:47:27.120 --> 0:47:33.759 be nice. My god, I can't, hey, get out of 0:47:33.800 --> 0:47:39.440 her face. Okay, it's yours. 0:47:39.480 --> 0:47:39.960 It's fine. 0:47:42.760 --> 0:47:46.040 Okay, today's a rough day, guys. It's a mercury retrograde. 0:47:46.120 --> 0:47:49.239 She is fucking hard. How long is it too long? 0:47:49.320 --> 0:47:51.359 I don't know. I hope it's over soon. I think 0:47:51.400 --> 0:47:54.840 it's the end of this month. It's over anyway. So 0:47:55.239 --> 0:47:58.080 we did a pull on my Instagram and Jamila's Instagram, 0:47:58.120 --> 0:47:59.960 and what I found was that a lot of I asked. 0:48:00.239 --> 0:48:01.840 I asked men what do they prefer to date? Do 0:48:01.880 --> 0:48:06.520 they prefer to date omega alpha women or omega women. 0:48:07.320 --> 0:48:08.840 I didn't explain Beta because I was like, you know, 0:48:08.920 --> 0:48:10.719 these are the two most popular ones. Let's just see 0:48:10.760 --> 0:48:11.080 which one. 0:48:11.080 --> 0:48:13.080 I think you can explain all three. I did all three, 0:48:13.160 --> 0:48:13.840 and I asked. 0:48:13.640 --> 0:48:17.000 A woman what they think they are? Okay, so Mele 0:48:17.160 --> 0:48:20.840 said pretty much it was kind of pretty closely like 0:48:21.080 --> 0:48:24.520 fifty to fifty. For me. It was more more in 0:48:24.600 --> 0:48:29.520 the alpha actually, more men and women, because women's women. 0:48:29.719 --> 0:48:31.720 I asked them, if you date women, what do you prefer? 0:48:32.520 --> 0:48:34.919 So I had some female responses, but for the most 0:48:34.960 --> 0:48:37.480 part it was mostly alpha, and then there were there 0:48:37.520 --> 0:48:39.920 were definitely some Omega and I was really I was 0:48:39.960 --> 0:48:43.479 really shocked to see how many women prefer omega women 0:48:43.800 --> 0:48:47.080 like women that date women prefer a submissive woman. 0:48:48.560 --> 0:48:48.759 Yeah. 0:48:49.040 --> 0:48:52.800 I was like, okay, cool, interesting, Yeah, And then I 0:48:52.920 --> 0:48:55.720 asked women, what do you what do you consider yourself? 0:48:55.760 --> 0:48:59.040 And I assumed that most women would consider themselves alpha's 0:48:59.280 --> 0:49:01.960 because I think everybody wants to believe that they have 0:49:02.239 --> 0:49:05.719 this super drive and they're super like, like everybody wants 0:49:05.760 --> 0:49:08.160 to be around them and not everybody. 0:49:07.840 --> 0:49:08.560 They know what they want. 0:49:08.640 --> 0:49:10.160 I just thought, what more people would say that they 0:49:10.200 --> 0:49:21.239 were alpha? Yes, but but uh, I think mostly they 0:49:21.480 --> 0:49:23.799 did mostly say they were alpha, but there was very 0:49:23.920 --> 0:49:27.520 close tie between. Really it was like mostly beta. It 0:49:27.640 --> 0:49:30.279 was like beta and alpha, and then there were some 0:49:30.920 --> 0:49:34.279 like there were some omegas for sure, which I don't know. 0:49:34.320 --> 0:49:35.400 What do you consider yourself? 0:49:37.160 --> 0:49:39.800 I thought, I've definitely thought I was an alpha female 0:49:39.880 --> 0:49:43.319 before I ride so deeply into this. I still think 0:49:43.320 --> 0:49:46.640 I have a lot of alpha female characteristics, like I 0:49:46.680 --> 0:49:48.160 could be the life of the party. I like to 0:49:48.200 --> 0:49:51.160 talk to people. It's on, baby, Please close the door, 0:49:51.360 --> 0:49:57.279 please please please. It's a bug. Okay, close the door. 0:49:57.560 --> 0:49:59.759 Don't you don't want to be in here. 0:50:00.000 --> 0:50:01.080 It's the bug is gonna come. 0:50:01.360 --> 0:50:04.520 Bug is gonna come over there. Bye, it's it's over there. 0:50:04.640 --> 0:50:08.400 Okay, thank you, Okay, okay, we'll come healthy in a minute. 0:50:09.080 --> 0:50:09.520 Is it over? 0:50:13.360 --> 0:50:13.480 Oh? 0:50:13.520 --> 0:50:15.640 I'm aggressive. I've also been told like I'm I can 0:50:15.719 --> 0:50:21.600 be too honest and not like sugarcoat shit enough bye, 0:50:23.560 --> 0:50:27.080 And I don't know, do you like to take control? 0:50:27.080 --> 0:50:29.880 If I see someone's not taking the the control, I 0:50:30.480 --> 0:50:33.160 can do it. What about you? What do you think? 0:50:33.640 --> 0:50:37.320 But I'm also really empathetic, like, yeah, I think that 0:50:37.440 --> 0:50:41.800 there's a healthy mix. I think there's a healthy mixture 0:50:43.120 --> 0:50:46.359 for me. Though I I I I of course automatically 0:50:46.440 --> 0:50:49.080 thought I'm definitely an alpha. I know all my life 0:50:49.120 --> 0:50:49.560 I've been. 0:50:49.560 --> 0:50:50.879 Like pretty. 0:50:53.200 --> 0:50:55.600 I like I I like to learn on my own. 0:50:55.800 --> 0:50:57.719 I like, like, you know, I was stubborn. I guess 0:50:57.880 --> 0:51:00.399 stubborn said in my ways, I know what I want 0:51:00.680 --> 0:51:03.480 for the most part, in some ways some ways. I 0:51:03.600 --> 0:51:05.200 That's why it's confusing because in some parts of my 0:51:05.239 --> 0:51:06.920 life I know exactly what I want and what I 0:51:07.080 --> 0:51:09.040 what my goal is, and then in other parts I don't. 0:51:09.360 --> 0:51:10.960 So it's hard for me to say, like, yeah, I'm 0:51:11.239 --> 0:51:14.680 completely in omega like A, I mean, I'm sorry at alpha. 0:51:14.800 --> 0:51:19.000 Do I consider do I have omega traits. I think 0:51:19.040 --> 0:51:22.440 I'm empathetic to people's feelings, but maybe not as deeply 0:51:22.520 --> 0:51:25.359 as some people are. Some people feel everything on such 0:51:25.400 --> 0:51:29.000 a deep level, and I sometimes people's feelings annoy me. 0:51:29.880 --> 0:51:31.839 People feel annoy me too, But I do feel people 0:51:32.000 --> 0:51:34.040 on a deep level usually if I can understand. If 0:51:34.080 --> 0:51:35.319 I can, I can understand them. 0:51:35.360 --> 0:51:37.280 If you're mostly unless I think you're stupid. 0:51:37.800 --> 0:51:39.000 Not people's feelings annoying me. 0:51:39.160 --> 0:51:40.080 But I just. 0:51:41.640 --> 0:51:44.200 I guess I don't really know where I fall on 0:51:44.239 --> 0:51:46.360 the spectrum. I really thought I was in alpha, but 0:51:47.080 --> 0:51:49.080 I think I definitely have traits of beta. I think 0:51:49.360 --> 0:51:51.400 I think you just as you grow and you on 0:51:51.520 --> 0:51:54.480 this journey of life, like you're not married to one 0:51:54.640 --> 0:51:56.719 thing or the other. I think maybe I could grow 0:51:56.880 --> 0:52:00.960 more into my alpha position, or maybe I could grow 0:52:01.040 --> 0:52:03.359 more into my beta position, who knows, or maybe I'll 0:52:03.360 --> 0:52:05.680 tap more into my omega. It just I think that 0:52:05.760 --> 0:52:08.680 it's a constant, like it's a constant thing. Because even 0:52:08.680 --> 0:52:10.560 when I was talking to Nishe today about this, and 0:52:11.000 --> 0:52:14.160 she's like, I voted in your poll, what do you? 0:52:14.239 --> 0:52:16.600 And I asked an alpha female, I asked her. 0:52:16.520 --> 0:52:18.760 What she thought I was, and she was like, ah, alpha, 0:52:19.480 --> 0:52:21.320 and I was like really, And I was like, She's like, 0:52:21.360 --> 0:52:24.799 I voted myself beta. I felt more like beta if. 0:52:24.680 --> 0:52:27.399 I think in Nisha, I think she's an alpha woman. 0:52:28.040 --> 0:52:30.520 She gets done. I'm like, I want to be more 0:52:30.560 --> 0:52:35.400 like niche. But she feels like a beta. But in 0:52:35.520 --> 0:52:38.279 her relationship she feels like an alpha. So I think 0:52:38.360 --> 0:52:41.239 that's interesting too to even think about. Okay, where do 0:52:41.320 --> 0:52:43.200 you like? Do you fall in different places on the 0:52:43.200 --> 0:52:44.759 spectrum of reparty to who you're dealing with? 0:52:45.200 --> 0:52:48.040 Oh yeah, Because then based on what we were reading 0:52:48.080 --> 0:52:50.759 it almost though, Key's felt as if like one group 0:52:50.840 --> 0:52:53.200 of friends can't have multiple alphas. 0:52:53.360 --> 0:52:55.160 And I come from like I come from, like it's 0:52:55.200 --> 0:52:57.960 my family, what is my tribe like around? 0:52:58.080 --> 0:53:02.640 I think I intentionally on myself with like like minded, 0:53:02.800 --> 0:53:08.360 strong opinionated women because I ten kind of sometimes to 0:53:08.520 --> 0:53:10.920 like weak women or people who don't have much attention, 0:53:11.040 --> 0:53:14.160 like much opinion. I'm like, oh you're weak, so I 0:53:14.480 --> 0:53:18.560 like but like we discussed too, like like yeah, I can. 0:53:18.760 --> 0:53:20.640 I can play my role when the role is right, 0:53:20.680 --> 0:53:22.080 you know what I mean? Like I don't always have 0:53:22.200 --> 0:53:24.920 to be this raw, raw person. I could someone be 0:53:25.040 --> 0:53:27.799 like this and then that person's that. But that's why 0:53:27.840 --> 0:53:29.600 I think like the whole topic can be it's. 0:53:29.640 --> 0:53:32.200 Like a little bib Well, it seemed very biased. 0:53:32.640 --> 0:53:34.759 Yeah, it's I hear different, Like it's it. 0:53:34.920 --> 0:53:36.960 Was interesting looking it up on the internet because I 0:53:37.040 --> 0:53:38.919 had to we had to educate ourselves because we didn't 0:53:38.920 --> 0:53:41.239 really know much about it, and like, I encourage you 0:53:41.320 --> 0:53:44.000 to go look into it too, because it's actually really interesting. 0:53:44.480 --> 0:53:48.080 But like it seemed like whoever was writing that the 0:53:48.560 --> 0:53:52.120 study on alpha like probably was an alpha because then 0:53:52.160 --> 0:53:55.000 they were like, you know, you're really strong, you're successful, 0:53:55.080 --> 0:53:56.759 da da da, and then if you're like Omega, then 0:53:56.800 --> 0:53:58.480 you're weak and you're and then and then we read 0:53:58.480 --> 0:54:01.320 another article where the omega was like wonderful person and 0:54:01.440 --> 0:54:05.040 she wasn't weak, she just was like and then there 0:54:05.120 --> 0:54:07.480 was the beta like why beta women are so amazing 0:54:07.880 --> 0:54:09.720 and alpha women are like terrible people. 0:54:09.880 --> 0:54:12.640 So it's clearly depending on the author of the article. 0:54:13.520 --> 0:54:15.799 But I see, I see cons in all of them, 0:54:15.920 --> 0:54:17.160 and I see pros and all of that. 0:54:17.280 --> 0:54:17.840 What do you think, I. 0:54:20.160 --> 0:54:22.399 I think I think you're like alpha beta. 0:54:23.360 --> 0:54:26.399 Yeah, yeah, I guess it depends. And what was really 0:54:26.480 --> 0:54:28.839 interesting about most of the articles that we wrote read 0:54:30.239 --> 0:54:34.600 or Not most One, particularly that although alpha women are 0:54:34.840 --> 0:54:38.920 very alpha, they prefer to be dominated in the bedroom, 0:54:39.600 --> 0:54:42.080 which me and Erica both agree we do like a 0:54:42.160 --> 0:54:45.279 monfuga who's gonna be like, choke you and thank you 0:54:45.440 --> 0:54:48.480 and listen to me, and we're like, oh okay. Because 0:54:48.480 --> 0:54:51.400 I think in life, when you're like constantly alpha alpha alpha, 0:54:51.640 --> 0:54:53.440 or you're like calling shots like in the bedroom, you 0:54:53.560 --> 0:54:57.560 want a man that's gonna like you want to be vulnerable. Yeah. 0:54:58.320 --> 0:55:00.480 I think that's where it comes down for me too, 0:55:00.560 --> 0:55:02.120 because when I read that, I was like, oh shit, 0:55:02.200 --> 0:55:04.680 that's me. Like I love to be dominated, you know, 0:55:05.000 --> 0:55:08.040 and but sexually, sexually because like I feel like in 0:55:08.160 --> 0:55:11.040 real life, I don't. I'm like, yeah, I see, I'm 0:55:11.239 --> 0:55:12.400 telling me what to do too much. 0:55:12.480 --> 0:55:14.160 I'm like, I don't. I do not feel like you anymore. 0:55:15.400 --> 0:55:18.200 I'm like, uh, you can fall back. Yeah. 0:55:18.480 --> 0:55:23.000 Equal rights, no, literally, like even like equality even that 0:55:23.160 --> 0:55:25.080 month in New York, A couple times Anthony was like 0:55:25.160 --> 0:55:27.520 telling me stuff and I was like, don't tell me 0:55:27.560 --> 0:55:29.799 what to do. Mm hm, you know what I mean, 0:55:29.960 --> 0:55:33.440 Like I don't know, backing up, chill out, motherfucker. But 0:55:33.520 --> 0:55:35.200 I'm like, oh my god, what's wrong with me? And 0:55:35.280 --> 0:55:36.480 then at the same time, I'm like, but I want 0:55:36.480 --> 0:55:38.759 a Vian's man because sometimes but I haven't even told 0:55:38.800 --> 0:55:40.640 to sit the fuck down, bitch? Did you need to 0:55:40.640 --> 0:55:41.120 have a seat? 0:55:41.160 --> 0:55:42.640 Okay? Yeah. 0:55:44.000 --> 0:55:45.759 When I read with something some of the answers I 0:55:45.800 --> 0:55:49.239 got from men, Oh yeah, my Erica, you were really 0:55:49.440 --> 0:55:54.960 deep into definition. I was very simple. Somebody wrote this 0:55:55.120 --> 0:55:59.960 is Tim whenever he's so supportive. It's my dad's friend. 0:56:01.080 --> 0:56:02.880 It's funny because I used to date a lot of 0:56:02.960 --> 0:56:05.800 submissive but I married in alpha. I like how I 0:56:06.000 --> 0:56:08.200 like having an alpha wife because she's on top of 0:56:08.280 --> 0:56:10.640 her ship and will put me in my place when needed. 0:56:11.040 --> 0:56:12.839 When dating a submissive was good. 0:56:12.960 --> 0:56:15.719 When dating a submissive a submissive I like this was 0:56:15.840 --> 0:56:18.320 good because I wasn't looking for anything serious and she 0:56:18.320 --> 0:56:20.879 would never push the issue for marriage, which I thought 0:56:20.960 --> 0:56:24.000 was interesting. Someone else wrote one who can do both. 0:56:24.920 --> 0:56:29.440 Another guy wrote right below his dickpic that he DMed 0:56:29.480 --> 0:56:33.360 me a few weeks earlier. Can you see it in 0:56:33.440 --> 0:56:41.560 the mirror? Okay, don't ask. Submissive makes my nature rise, 0:56:41.960 --> 0:56:45.920 even if she is smarter, I don't know, but combined 0:56:45.960 --> 0:56:49.719 with a I was thinking that it was directly associated 0:56:49.760 --> 0:56:55.040 with that nature rise right, Well, what do you want 0:56:55.080 --> 0:56:55.399 to date? 0:56:56.440 --> 0:56:57.680 What would you consider Anthony? 0:56:59.360 --> 0:57:04.120 Oh wows question? Maybe there is a beta male? 0:57:04.880 --> 0:57:07.520 Yeah yeah, they were saying basically, it's like a hipster 0:57:07.840 --> 0:57:12.279 like like Anthonys were his pants pretty tight? 0:57:15.040 --> 0:57:18.560 One of them women? Anyway? Well, yeah, because I think 0:57:18.720 --> 0:57:21.320 he'll definitely put me in my place if needed, like 0:57:21.600 --> 0:57:25.080 bitch and okay, And but sometimes I feel myself like 0:57:25.080 --> 0:57:26.760 getting uncomfortable with somebody. 0:57:26.600 --> 0:57:28.440 Like you know what I mean, Like I get defensive, 0:57:28.800 --> 0:57:29.280 which I don't know. 0:57:29.360 --> 0:57:30.200 Was that the beta sign? 0:57:30.440 --> 0:57:30.480 No? 0:57:31.200 --> 0:57:37.440 Yeah, but I've also dated. It's interesting because it's like 0:57:37.480 --> 0:57:39.120 what do I label people as or what do they 0:57:39.160 --> 0:57:43.560 label themselves as? Because my baby's daddy, I felt like, what, 0:57:43.960 --> 0:57:46.240 like was it an alpha male? Like probably? I think 0:57:46.280 --> 0:57:47.960 all men want to be alpha males. 0:57:47.760 --> 0:57:49.720 Of course, because that's what society teaches them. 0:57:50.000 --> 0:57:52.320 But like in reality, he wasn't. And so like over 0:57:52.440 --> 0:57:55.480 the years, I lost respect because you weren't getting ship done, 0:57:55.600 --> 0:57:58.240 you weren't doing shit, so I constantly had to be 0:57:58.320 --> 0:58:00.640 on top of shit, like nothing would done unless I 0:58:00.840 --> 0:58:04.600 was like dictating and delegating, and that shit pissed me off. 0:58:05.080 --> 0:58:07.160 So I find myself trying to like fall back and 0:58:07.480 --> 0:58:09.200 being okay being told to do and even you know what, 0:58:09.280 --> 0:58:11.160 I also feel like I'm so used to being the 0:58:12.040 --> 0:58:15.840 the like the alpha that someone being like, you know, 0:58:15.920 --> 0:58:18.480 you can share this load whatever you like, tell me 0:58:18.560 --> 0:58:20.640 what you need me to do, and send it my way, 0:58:20.720 --> 0:58:22.880 like you can share this And I was like, oh 0:58:22.960 --> 0:58:25.400 my god, like you can take care of some shit too, 0:58:26.960 --> 0:58:28.760 how relieve it? He literally said that, like you can 0:58:29.000 --> 0:58:31.160 whatever you need you need me to do or whatever 0:58:31.200 --> 0:58:33.680 you need you keep forgetting that I'm here to share 0:58:33.720 --> 0:58:35.680 the load was exactly that. I was like, Oh my god, 0:58:35.720 --> 0:58:38.919 I've I'm obviously allly dated losers in my life. 0:58:39.240 --> 0:58:41.520 Yeah, that's what I've never heard any men say that. 0:58:41.840 --> 0:58:43.160 That's pretty fucking amazing. 0:58:44.520 --> 0:58:45.600 Are you reading a fucking book? 0:58:45.680 --> 0:58:48.439 He sounds like a beta beta alpha beta alpha. 0:58:48.560 --> 0:58:50.400 And then one time I was reading our natal charts 0:58:50.560 --> 0:58:51.560 and I was reading it to him. 0:58:51.720 --> 0:58:52.560 I think he's more beta. 0:58:52.760 --> 0:58:54.600 Yeah, I think so, because there's like a spectrum. 0:58:54.960 --> 0:58:57.080 And I was telling in the nail chart I read 0:58:57.440 --> 0:58:58.920 based on my birthday and his that. 0:59:00.680 --> 0:59:02.000 Uh he's a cancer too. 0:59:02.280 --> 0:59:04.840 Yeah that but in this book he was cancer one 0:59:04.920 --> 0:59:08.160 and I'm Gemini cancer someone because that he needs, like 0:59:08.320 --> 0:59:10.840 even though he's really really smart, that he should take 0:59:10.880 --> 0:59:13.200 my word for things sometimes basically in so many words, 0:59:13.200 --> 0:59:15.640 and he was like, I'm okay with that. I was like, 0:59:15.720 --> 0:59:17.800 I'm cool with that, and I was like you are. 0:59:18.720 --> 0:59:21.440 Thank God, you're not trying to fight me. So I 0:59:21.680 --> 0:59:26.440 like that there's a pull, a push and pull, you know, balance, 0:59:26.600 --> 0:59:28.520 because it's not one way or the other. 0:59:28.880 --> 0:59:31.400 And that doesn't necessarily have to mean that he's submissive either, 0:59:31.880 --> 0:59:33.439 because when you said that, I was like, well, maybe 0:59:33.440 --> 0:59:35.280 he's the miss And I was like, well no, because 0:59:35.680 --> 0:59:38.280 I think that just comes with like understanding and talking. 0:59:38.280 --> 0:59:41.680 It doesn't necessarily mean that and knowing what you're like. 0:59:41.800 --> 0:59:44.080 Not everything has to be a struggle. Yeah, like, oh 0:59:44.120 --> 0:59:44.640 you're good at that. 0:59:44.760 --> 0:59:46.000 This is what you think. I trust you. 0:59:46.120 --> 0:59:48.120 M hm okay, I'm gonna go with you. I'm gona 0:59:48.160 --> 0:59:50.920 ride about that out. Yeah, because you know, my my 0:59:52.560 --> 0:59:57.160 IRI's dad. When we would argue, he was constantly always 0:59:57.280 --> 0:59:59.600 telling me that. I was like, wouldn't let him be 0:59:59.720 --> 1:00:02.320 the man? Like that was one of our biggest arguments, 1:00:02.360 --> 1:00:03.720 Like you don't ever let me make the mad like, 1:00:03.840 --> 1:00:06.200 let me make the decision. I got this, like let 1:00:06.280 --> 1:00:08.480 me beat the man, like, just trust me. I'm I'm like, 1:00:08.760 --> 1:00:11.360 I'm the captain of the football team and we're all players, 1:00:11.600 --> 1:00:14.320 but let me like lead the pack and that shit. 1:00:14.480 --> 1:00:17.760 Like whenever he would say that shit to me, something 1:00:17.840 --> 1:00:21.120 in me was like, what the fuck are you talking about? 1:00:21.160 --> 1:00:23.320 But then sometimes I'd be like I remember one time 1:00:23.360 --> 1:00:25.400 I finally was I gave in because I was just like, 1:00:25.480 --> 1:00:27.400 you know what, fine, you're right, and I wasn't. I 1:00:27.440 --> 1:00:28.800 didn't really feel that way. I just didn't want to 1:00:28.840 --> 1:00:31.080 argue anymore. And part of me was like, how could 1:00:31.160 --> 1:00:33.600 you do that, Erica, what are you talking about? You're right? No, 1:00:33.720 --> 1:00:36.440 I was a fuckingly not something. Maybe that's that alpha 1:00:36.520 --> 1:00:38.960 in me though, I was like, I'm not submitting to 1:00:39.080 --> 1:00:41.560 this shit and your ideas of who is the leader 1:00:41.680 --> 1:00:44.000 in this pack. So that's why I think sometimes two 1:00:44.080 --> 1:00:47.640 alpha's can be It can be difficult because. 1:00:47.400 --> 1:00:49.640 I do think you're always supposed to have the like 1:00:50.400 --> 1:00:52.640 it's hard, it's hard for you to step down. But 1:00:54.080 --> 1:00:55.720 is it hard for you to step down because I've 1:00:55.760 --> 1:00:58.920 seen you function up? Or yeah that's what it is. Yeah, 1:00:58.920 --> 1:01:01.120 that's really what I say. You're not actually doing a 1:01:01.160 --> 1:01:04.040 good job, right, So that's when I'm interviewed. I trust 1:01:04.120 --> 1:01:08.280 your decision making. But also I found in myself hardcore 1:01:08.560 --> 1:01:11.120 like it is hard for like, okay, not hard for 1:01:11.200 --> 1:01:13.160 me for let a man be a man. But maybe 1:01:13.160 --> 1:01:15.200 because of my past relationships, I'm so used to like 1:01:15.480 --> 1:01:19.080 being this other person, like it's hard to just relax. 1:01:19.560 --> 1:01:24.480 But also I realized men really really need to be 1:01:24.600 --> 1:01:28.520 reassured and really need to be low key coddled. I'm like, oh, baby, 1:01:28.520 --> 1:01:30.120 you're the man. Like, no, I want you to just 1:01:30.280 --> 1:01:32.280 like I told you, like, please stay the night. They 1:01:32.280 --> 1:01:33.840 don't stay with me, of course I won't, like they 1:01:33.920 --> 1:01:37.840 want to hear that shit m M. And I have 1:01:37.960 --> 1:01:40.920 noticed it's not it's hard for me to be like 1:01:41.600 --> 1:01:44.120 I have to remind myself to be verbally praising of 1:01:44.280 --> 1:01:46.840 my man a lot because I forget I feel like 1:01:46.920 --> 1:01:49.200 you just know and have my friends or like whatever. 1:01:49.320 --> 1:01:52.880 But like, I think men really need that and to 1:01:53.080 --> 1:01:54.200 like feel like men. 1:01:55.120 --> 1:01:56.720 But like, what does that look like? 1:01:57.600 --> 1:01:57.760 You know? 1:01:57.840 --> 1:01:59.440 And does that mean you have to be like, oh, 1:02:00.080 --> 1:02:03.360 I'm hurt, take out the trash, you know, saying like. 1:02:03.400 --> 1:02:05.360 That necessarily what like makes you feel like a man? 1:02:05.400 --> 1:02:06.760 Because I don't want to do that either, and I 1:02:06.840 --> 1:02:09.080 don't feel like fucking having to reassured Nick all the time, 1:02:09.200 --> 1:02:12.280 like yeah, yeah, this ship you should know that no one. 1:02:13.000 --> 1:02:15.680 I feel like sometimes men are like late to like 1:02:15.920 --> 1:02:20.440 the female progression party, Like shit ain't happening like it 1:02:20.560 --> 1:02:22.880 used to. It Again, you didn't get the motherfucking memo 1:02:22.960 --> 1:02:23.120 and you. 1:02:23.160 --> 1:02:24.560 Ain't doing the part, so I ain't treating you like 1:02:24.600 --> 1:02:25.400 you right, And. 1:02:25.480 --> 1:02:29.600 I'm like, you know what year it is, right, So yeah, 1:02:29.680 --> 1:02:32.240 I don't. I don't know. I think like for me, 1:02:32.440 --> 1:02:35.480 as far as dating goes, I've always felt like I 1:02:35.480 --> 1:02:37.760 should be with an alpha because I feel like sometimes 1:02:37.800 --> 1:02:39.360 I do need someone to tell me to sit down, 1:02:39.480 --> 1:02:42.480 and I like that because that's a submissive in me 1:02:42.800 --> 1:02:44.200 that does kind of like that. 1:02:44.680 --> 1:02:48.040 And when it's when I feel it's appropriate and which 1:02:48.160 --> 1:02:52.360 is controlling somebody who can who you can accept it from, 1:02:52.800 --> 1:02:54.280 you know what I mean? Because not everybody could take 1:02:54.280 --> 1:02:55.680 you sit down and you're gonna take it the same way. 1:02:55.760 --> 1:02:58.200 But if someone really likes they just have a fucking seat. 1:02:59.080 --> 1:03:00.840 If someone's like you say, you do really respect them, 1:03:00.920 --> 1:03:01.480 That's what I'm saying. 1:03:01.520 --> 1:03:04.320 It comes from respect, Like if I respect you, if 1:03:04.440 --> 1:03:07.000 like we have a mutual respect. If I know that 1:03:07.160 --> 1:03:12.360 your alphaness and your need to couldn't like tell me 1:03:12.440 --> 1:03:15.440 to have a seat doesn't come from insecurity like you 1:03:15.640 --> 1:03:20.240 feeling like like you're inadequate, you're inadequate, then then I'm 1:03:20.280 --> 1:03:22.200 okay with it. But if I feel like it's coming 1:03:22.280 --> 1:03:24.360 from that type of place that I'm not okay with it. 1:03:24.480 --> 1:03:27.240 I'm not coddling that shit, right because either where you 1:03:27.320 --> 1:03:29.840 with it and you trust it and it's good, are you? Yeah? 1:03:30.520 --> 1:03:32.200 And I feel like a lot of times when I 1:03:32.320 --> 1:03:34.400 meet alpha males, and this is what I was saying, like, 1:03:34.520 --> 1:03:36.160 that's why this alpha thing is kind of a bit 1:03:36.200 --> 1:03:39.600 confusing to me because I think that a lot of times, 1:03:39.680 --> 1:03:42.560 not all the time, but men that consider themselves alpha 1:03:42.600 --> 1:03:45.720 men or even females, I'm sure too, this applies a 1:03:45.800 --> 1:03:47.960 lot of it. I feel like comes some of it 1:03:48.120 --> 1:03:50.680 comes from insecurity because they feel like they have to 1:03:50.880 --> 1:03:54.680 constantly assert themselves and it's not maybe they're just not 1:03:54.800 --> 1:03:57.520 true alphas. It really comes from God like a like 1:03:57.600 --> 1:04:03.320 a pretend alpha like persona right, right, And so I 1:04:03.360 --> 1:04:06.000 don't know, I think for me dating wise, like the 1:04:06.080 --> 1:04:10.760 people the men that I've dated overall have alpha qualities. 1:04:12.480 --> 1:04:14.440 I feel like the last guy that I was dating, 1:04:15.640 --> 1:04:16.640 the who I spoke about in my. 1:04:16.680 --> 1:04:21.520 Last episode, who listened, by the way, listen to our 1:04:21.600 --> 1:04:24.920 episode and had an enlightenment. I was like, what we 1:04:25.160 --> 1:04:26.880 enlighten it? We enlightened that. 1:04:31.840 --> 1:04:34.000 Yeah, he did listen to the last episode. Which is 1:04:34.080 --> 1:04:36.120 really weird about having a podcast. Guys. It's just like 1:04:36.960 --> 1:04:38.880 you want to tell your friends you've got your you 1:04:38.960 --> 1:04:40.280 got a podcast, and the then you're like, wait, but 1:04:40.320 --> 1:04:41.320 don't listen to that episode. 1:04:41.320 --> 1:04:42.440 Okay, don't tell nobody. 1:04:42.600 --> 1:04:45.520 But actually I went back and listened, and that episode 1:04:45.560 --> 1:04:47.040 was pretty good. I I had to say, like, I 1:04:47.120 --> 1:04:49.200 got everything I needed to say out there, and I'm 1:04:49.240 --> 1:04:51.440 not mad at it, and it actually worked in my favor. 1:04:51.560 --> 1:04:54.240 Like me and him are now cool and working on 1:04:54.320 --> 1:04:57.960 a friendship. Friendship because healthy, healthy thing I. 1:04:57.960 --> 1:04:58.520 Can do right now. 1:05:00.800 --> 1:05:02.960 But wait, how did I lose track? 1:05:05.160 --> 1:05:05.320 Oh? 1:05:05.480 --> 1:05:08.760 I think he has alpha qualities, but he also has 1:05:08.840 --> 1:05:13.640 beta qualities because, at least from what I've gathered from 1:05:13.920 --> 1:05:16.880 dating him so far, like he just seems like supportive, 1:05:17.000 --> 1:05:20.240 he's down to support and like he doesn't he does 1:05:20.480 --> 1:05:21.960 have his own company, so there is that. 1:05:22.160 --> 1:05:24.880 Like, why does that supportive mean? You're not an alpha bank. 1:05:24.960 --> 1:05:26.920 I don't know, but like that's I don't that's why 1:05:26.920 --> 1:05:30.440 these definitions are Oh wait, oh wait, wait wait? Did 1:05:30.480 --> 1:05:33.960 that definition of beta man? The guy who just yoga yoga? 1:05:34.120 --> 1:05:37.480 He dresses nicely like he does yoga, like he like 1:05:37.600 --> 1:05:42.600 asks you, like how you're feeling, and like, yeah, mistake 1:05:42.720 --> 1:05:45.120 is gay? Oh yeah he might. He might have feminine 1:05:45.200 --> 1:05:47.920 energy or you might mistake him as gay. Which actually 1:05:48.000 --> 1:05:51.200 I was talking to him today about the alpha male 1:05:51.320 --> 1:05:53.200 thing or he was telling he was telling me about 1:05:53.560 --> 1:05:55.840 his friend, the one that that thinks are cute and 1:05:55.960 --> 1:06:01.120 that he introduced him to some girl or something and 1:06:01.200 --> 1:06:02.920 the girl felt like he had feminine energy. 1:06:03.360 --> 1:06:04.520 Was like double dating over there. 1:06:04.760 --> 1:06:07.160 I don't know, maybe going on dates every five seconds. 1:06:07.160 --> 1:06:07.480 I don't know. 1:06:08.680 --> 1:06:12.360 It so happened in Venice. Guys, can we please go 1:06:12.400 --> 1:06:13.920 out there and hang out with It's really cool. I 1:06:14.000 --> 1:06:15.800 really want to hang out in Venice. Let's go. I'm 1:06:16.280 --> 1:06:18.800 like one time six years ago. Oh god, I just 1:06:18.880 --> 1:06:23.400 remember that. Oh god, I was a fucking car crash. 1:06:23.760 --> 1:06:26.880 Oh oh Jesus. But he was saying that and I 1:06:26.960 --> 1:06:28.640 and I said to him, I said, well, I don't 1:06:28.640 --> 1:06:31.760 really get that from him but you know, what I've 1:06:31.880 --> 1:06:33.840 found is that it probably has more to do with 1:06:33.960 --> 1:06:37.360 what she considers masculine energy more than more so than 1:06:37.920 --> 1:06:40.440 whatever he's doing. It's really her problem, not his problem. 1:06:41.000 --> 1:06:44.720 And uh and he was and he was like, wait, 1:06:44.760 --> 1:06:46.920 what did he say when I was telling him that, Like, 1:06:47.080 --> 1:06:49.560 I think I've struggled from the same thing, like how 1:06:49.640 --> 1:06:51.760 I define masculinity. 1:06:51.280 --> 1:06:53.480 Like you know how that looks back? 1:06:53.520 --> 1:06:55.680 Guy is very sweet, he's really nice. 1:06:56.000 --> 1:06:58.720 Even I saw a study that we associate like high 1:06:58.760 --> 1:07:02.320 pitched voices, like and it has nothing to do with 1:07:02.480 --> 1:07:05.280 shit even body language, you know, And it's just bullshit, 1:07:05.400 --> 1:07:07.160 it really is. So we have to get out of that, 1:07:07.840 --> 1:07:08.040 I know. 1:07:08.920 --> 1:07:10.600 But anyway, I don't know. I don't know what my 1:07:10.680 --> 1:07:12.760 paaring I know for sure, I don't know if I'm not. 1:07:12.880 --> 1:07:14.320 I mean, I don't know the future. But at this 1:07:14.440 --> 1:07:17.600 point in my life and in my relationships with men 1:07:17.680 --> 1:07:20.840 in general, up until this point, I don't think I 1:07:20.880 --> 1:07:23.600 could date an omega. I just can't. I don't really 1:07:23.680 --> 1:07:24.200 have a lot. 1:07:24.160 --> 1:07:30.120 Of respect for maybe I've the right omega met well. 1:07:30.040 --> 1:07:32.080 The by the definition just made me feel like a 1:07:32.160 --> 1:07:35.400 man that just can't make decisions, Like he's just not assertive, 1:07:35.600 --> 1:07:37.520 and I don't need him to be assertive all the time, 1:07:37.640 --> 1:07:40.080 but sometimes I need you to take the reins and 1:07:40.320 --> 1:07:41.960 like figure some shit out for me. 1:07:42.440 --> 1:07:46.320 Sometimes like passiontive passiveness really really annoys me. 1:07:46.560 --> 1:07:50.120 For instance, a mumbling asthma fucker. 1:07:50.040 --> 1:07:52.560 Like oh yeah, what the fuck did you say? 1:07:52.760 --> 1:07:52.800 What? 1:07:53.800 --> 1:07:57.840 Huh? Like if we're at a restaurant, you're like, yeah, okay, 1:07:57.960 --> 1:08:01.120 look like speak the fuck up, speak clearly, Like that 1:08:01.320 --> 1:08:03.400 makes me think that you're on omega. If I'm not 1:08:03.480 --> 1:08:07.320 with a man who's like clearly spoken, even a woman punctuating, 1:08:07.440 --> 1:08:08.880 like if I feel like I have the order for you, 1:08:09.000 --> 1:08:11.240 it's gonna irritate me. Even as a waitress, when I 1:08:11.280 --> 1:08:13.840 would see like men, this is when I didn't have 1:08:13.920 --> 1:08:15.840 respect for like beta women. If I would see like 1:08:15.960 --> 1:08:18.720 a couple come, I've been a lot of observations based 1:08:18.760 --> 1:08:19.360 on my cocktail. 1:08:19.479 --> 1:08:22.439 Dates would come to dinner and like order for the 1:08:22.520 --> 1:08:23.160 woman all the. 1:08:23.160 --> 1:08:24.560 Time, or she's like, babe, what do you think I 1:08:24.600 --> 1:08:27.720 should get? I'm like, oh my god, this bitch, thank you? 1:08:28.400 --> 1:08:32.240 Color it like I would it would It would irritate me, 1:08:32.360 --> 1:08:36.160 like this shit just has no voice at all, Like 1:08:36.280 --> 1:08:37.840 this makes me think you're like a pushover and that 1:08:37.960 --> 1:08:40.040 irritate me, or for a guy the other way around, 1:08:40.200 --> 1:08:43.280 like my ex like couldn't to. 1:08:43.360 --> 1:08:46.080 Me like effectively make phone calls, like like. 1:08:46.920 --> 1:08:49.120 What's going on over there? Why can't you call the 1:08:49.160 --> 1:08:50.880 cable company? Like what the fuck? 1:08:51.120 --> 1:08:54.120 Yeah? Yeah, I feel you. That's just everything takes forever. 1:08:54.320 --> 1:08:56.920 Everything needs to be reasoned, not some shit. 1:08:56.960 --> 1:08:58.280 It's just like, no, this is what it is. 1:08:59.120 --> 1:08:59.240 Yo. 1:08:59.280 --> 1:09:00.679 Okay, let me say this quick story. 1:09:01.080 --> 1:09:02.479 I just realized both of these stories have to do 1:09:02.520 --> 1:09:04.840 with food, which may be just like my inner psycho 1:09:04.880 --> 1:09:08.320 about food because I am a fat ass, like not 1:09:08.680 --> 1:09:12.880 literally obviously, but I need a lot. So okay twice okay, 1:09:12.920 --> 1:09:14.880 meet Anthony went to the tire restaurant. We got there 1:09:14.880 --> 1:09:16.080 at nine o five. He was pressing me in a 1:09:16.080 --> 1:09:21.479 curry ap parreyep parry up, parry up, be nice share. 1:09:24.600 --> 1:09:27.519 Irie's pushing her face against the glass and her whole 1:09:27.520 --> 1:09:28.240 face was smashed. 1:09:28.920 --> 1:09:32.280 Oh, young babe, not Anthony, young babe. And we went 1:09:32.360 --> 1:09:33.680 to Okay, so we went to tire food. He was 1:09:33.720 --> 1:09:34.960 pricing me and we need there but out there. We 1:09:35.040 --> 1:09:36.960 got there at literally nine oh six. We balked in. 1:09:37.360 --> 1:09:40.360 He's like, oh, I saw, I'm sorry, we closed fifteen minutes. 1:09:40.479 --> 1:09:43.080 So he was like he got the attitude immediately, and 1:09:43.320 --> 1:09:44.640 of course it was me who was like kind of 1:09:44.680 --> 1:09:47.040 taking my time, so he was like, we'll order to 1:09:47.080 --> 1:09:48.920 go immediately. He's like, we'll order to go. In my head, 1:09:48.960 --> 1:09:50.600 I'm like okay, He's like I don't really want to 1:09:50.640 --> 1:09:51.840 order to go tho, Let's go somewhere else. 1:09:51.920 --> 1:09:52.800 And I was like no. 1:09:53.640 --> 1:09:54.800 I was like, if you want to eat, you're gonna 1:09:54.800 --> 1:09:57.280 eat here. So I'm like, you guys, don't close in 1:09:57.360 --> 1:09:59.760 fifteen minutes. You actually closed in nine thirty. That's what 1:09:59.800 --> 1:10:02.240 we right online, and that's how he came. So we're 1:10:02.240 --> 1:10:04.599 either gonna eat here or we're gonna not eat at all. 1:10:05.479 --> 1:10:08.040 So she's like okay, Holly up owed it quickly, but 1:10:08.160 --> 1:10:10.680 I was like, you're to let the bitch pumkin like, 1:10:11.000 --> 1:10:14.160 we're not. No, we sit in, down, we eat in. 1:10:14.800 --> 1:10:17.280 And then another time, which I almost fucking exploded. 1:10:18.920 --> 1:10:21.360 Yeah, painting with that what that brush thing? 1:10:22.520 --> 1:10:25.400 So we ordered food on fucking one of those to 1:10:25.479 --> 1:10:26.880 go apps whatever delivery apps. 1:10:27.479 --> 1:10:31.240 He puts the order in, he orders it to he 1:10:31.439 --> 1:10:34.360 orders it to his house, not the house that we're at. 1:10:34.400 --> 1:10:37.280 Which is down the street. He waits for five minutes 1:10:37.360 --> 1:10:39.759 for the The only way you can change the address 1:10:39.840 --> 1:10:42.680 if if the bitch pops up contact the driver. He 1:10:42.800 --> 1:10:44.880 literally been standing in his phone for like fifteen minutes straight. 1:10:44.880 --> 1:10:46.600 I'm like, dude, whunch, you just called the restaurant and 1:10:46.640 --> 1:10:48.960 tell them to have the driver change the address when 1:10:49.000 --> 1:10:51.439 they get there. No, twenty minutes goes by. He sucks 1:10:51.520 --> 1:10:53.720 his phone. Finally it must have popped up. He calls, 1:10:53.840 --> 1:10:56.360 tells the bitch Okay, I'm gonna text you. Sorry, I say, 1:10:56.439 --> 1:10:58.280 bitch A lot for me to be so woman in powered. 1:11:00.080 --> 1:11:02.360 He text. He tells the bitch the new address. He 1:11:02.479 --> 1:11:05.880 text her like ten minutes later. I see I hear him. 1:11:05.920 --> 1:11:08.639 I'm sitting next time, he's on the phone like, oh, okay, 1:11:09.040 --> 1:11:10.240 all right, just leaves on the porch. 1:11:11.120 --> 1:11:13.760 Okay bye. I'm like, she left it on the porch. 1:11:13.840 --> 1:11:15.559 It's here right now. He's like, oh, why we leave 1:11:15.600 --> 1:11:17.719 on the porch. He's like, she went to my house. 1:11:18.000 --> 1:11:19.200 I'm gonna tell me you'll get it. I was like, 1:11:19.880 --> 1:11:23.760 I exploded. I was like, why the fuck would you 1:11:23.920 --> 1:11:26.400 like this bitch leave it at your house. 1:11:26.920 --> 1:11:27.400 We're here. 1:11:27.720 --> 1:11:30.280 You text her the address as a callarback, callar back, 1:11:30.520 --> 1:11:32.679 He's like, I just so get it. I was fucking 1:11:33.280 --> 1:11:34.800 I don't think I've ever yelled at him so hard. 1:11:35.160 --> 1:11:37.479 He was like, this shitch just a monster. I was like, 1:11:37.760 --> 1:11:39.960 I cannot believe you let this bitch drop that food 1:11:40.000 --> 1:11:41.880 off at your house. Now, why would we pay for 1:11:41.920 --> 1:11:43.080 her to deliver it? And she didn't deliver it? 1:11:43.160 --> 1:11:43.599 Here? Right? 1:11:44.439 --> 1:11:46.719 I was hot? Okay, so I am a fat ass, 1:11:47.000 --> 1:11:50.439 which is the conclusion of both these stories. Shit like 1:11:50.560 --> 1:11:51.479 that annoys the ship. 1:11:51.600 --> 1:11:53.240 Well do you think that's just man shit? 1:11:53.479 --> 1:11:53.719 Yeah? 1:11:54.120 --> 1:11:57.080 Or is that that's not that's man like? 1:11:57.400 --> 1:11:58.639 I just like I was hot. 1:11:58.960 --> 1:12:02.360 I just think certain men are not necessarily problem solvers 1:12:02.400 --> 1:12:05.000 in that way. They can problem solve some other shit 1:12:05.120 --> 1:12:07.599 really well. Sometimes a lot of times mailing a picture 1:12:07.680 --> 1:12:11.280 do well, like you know, other shit, but like when 1:12:11.320 --> 1:12:14.560 it comes to like the details and coordinating things and 1:12:14.640 --> 1:12:17.920 times and locations, not a strong point, not a strong point, 1:12:18.040 --> 1:12:21.000 not a strong point. But I don't know, I just 1:12:21.160 --> 1:12:25.960 omega omega And it's just I just I don't know. 1:12:26.040 --> 1:12:28.559 I just I think because growing up I had an 1:12:28.600 --> 1:12:31.720 omega male in my life around me so much, and 1:12:31.800 --> 1:12:35.000 I just watched an annoyance all the time. I was 1:12:35.040 --> 1:12:37.040 always just like hurry up, what are you? What are 1:12:37.080 --> 1:12:37.799 you mumbling? 1:12:38.200 --> 1:12:39.439 What what are you saying? 1:12:40.040 --> 1:12:42.800 Or like what like I just and then being raised 1:12:42.840 --> 1:12:45.439 by like such an alpha female and seeing that was 1:12:45.600 --> 1:12:48.760 just like confusing to me. But it doesn't it work 1:12:48.840 --> 1:12:51.840 in some way some way some some alpha females some 1:12:51.960 --> 1:12:54.639 relations just like an alpha male likes an omega woman. 1:12:55.280 --> 1:12:57.800 Some a lot of alpha females need an omega man. 1:12:57.880 --> 1:13:00.160 They want to be lifted up, they want some want 1:13:00.240 --> 1:13:03.400 to just listen to their problems and and support them 1:13:03.920 --> 1:13:06.320 and take on their ship and just be their little 1:13:06.360 --> 1:13:09.400 their cheerleader on the side. And that's and that's okay too. 1:13:09.640 --> 1:13:12.639 I just know for myself at this point in my life, 1:13:12.760 --> 1:13:15.360 I mean, anything could happen, but I can't see myself 1:13:15.400 --> 1:13:17.920 with someone that way. I just feel like I I 1:13:19.560 --> 1:13:21.880 like a man that takes initiative and I can we 1:13:22.000 --> 1:13:24.200 can like not that omegas don't have goals and are 1:13:24.280 --> 1:13:26.479 running on you, but just I just want to see 1:13:26.520 --> 1:13:28.840 that you are taking control and your assertive. I love 1:13:28.840 --> 1:13:31.680 a man that has his own shit. Can like if 1:13:31.720 --> 1:13:34.240 he has a company, like he's running it well, he 1:13:34.439 --> 1:13:38.000 has employees like Okay, this sounds really like shallow, but 1:13:38.200 --> 1:13:39.400 like he hasn't. 1:13:40.600 --> 1:13:43.680 If you have employees, if you the manager alone, are just. 1:13:43.720 --> 1:13:46.479 Like you're excelling in whatever field you're doing, like you 1:13:46.880 --> 1:13:49.519 at it, like watching like my like like for example, 1:13:49.600 --> 1:13:52.680 like it's gonna sound really shallow, but it's just it's 1:13:52.760 --> 1:13:56.639 not even shallow. It's just I loved watching the father 1:13:56.760 --> 1:13:59.560 of my child on stage. Of course, I just have 1:13:59.680 --> 1:14:03.760 to watch him like do what he does best and 1:14:04.120 --> 1:14:06.200 him I can see it coming off of him. I 1:14:06.240 --> 1:14:08.439 can see him radiating. I can see how people are 1:14:08.479 --> 1:14:12.760 reacting to his radiance, and you know, like his confidence, 1:14:12.840 --> 1:14:15.479 that's abstraction, like two musicians period. 1:14:15.560 --> 1:14:17.639 It's a confidence and it doesn't have to be necessarily. 1:14:17.760 --> 1:14:19.600 And when I realized it's not just that, it's like 1:14:20.000 --> 1:14:22.240 any man who's doing something in a field, in his 1:14:22.400 --> 1:14:25.439 field or just excelling have something that I'm not maybe 1:14:25.520 --> 1:14:27.280 good at in my life, I can look up to 1:14:27.360 --> 1:14:29.080 that and be like damn, well, like I don't know 1:14:29.120 --> 1:14:31.040 how to do that. That's sexy that you do though, 1:14:31.720 --> 1:14:35.160 like you know, and so I don't know this whole 1:14:35.640 --> 1:14:42.160 this whole research of these three personality traits was just 1:14:43.280 --> 1:14:46.439 was really interesting and I don't know, like, what do 1:14:46.520 --> 1:14:48.880 you guys think, do you I mean, do you think 1:14:49.040 --> 1:14:52.240 that if you're in alpha you'd be able to date 1:14:53.320 --> 1:14:55.639 and omega? Do you prefer that as a woman? I mean, 1:14:56.040 --> 1:14:58.519 we live in such different times now too, like where 1:14:58.600 --> 1:15:00.200 women are more empowered than ever. 1:15:00.400 --> 1:15:05.400 And I don't know, I think I actually I met 1:15:05.439 --> 1:15:08.639 a woman once met like a crazy trip to Miami 1:15:08.680 --> 1:15:10.639 when I say, for a month. One of the chicks 1:15:10.680 --> 1:15:12.880 I met, who was Paula Hammers, and she like exposed 1:15:12.880 --> 1:15:14.400 it to me for the first time. She was an 1:15:14.400 --> 1:15:17.000 alpha female, and throughout the trip we were like, this 1:15:17.160 --> 1:15:18.800 is a long time ago. We were going on like 1:15:19.680 --> 1:15:21.600 the man hunt and her and the other girl we 1:15:21.680 --> 1:15:24.120 were with, I don't know what kind of crazy four 1:15:24.160 --> 1:15:27.160 sum we were trying to conspire, but they were really 1:15:27.280 --> 1:15:29.680 into like man that I continue to keep in mind. 1:15:29.680 --> 1:15:32.200 I was like twenty one, I thought we're like Loki gay. 1:15:32.400 --> 1:15:33.719 I'm like, what the fuck? 1:15:35.000 --> 1:15:35.759 Why am. 1:15:37.640 --> 1:15:39.920 But come to find out there was this one guy, Tyler, 1:15:40.040 --> 1:15:43.040 the bartender at a gay club. He's super beautiful, super 1:15:43.120 --> 1:15:46.880 well chiseled, you know, Miami super like he was pretty 1:15:47.479 --> 1:15:51.559 and like soft spoken and like yeah, anyway, we took 1:15:51.600 --> 1:15:55.720 him home to our hotel. I passed out. I don't 1:15:55.760 --> 1:15:57.360 know how I passed out. They had a whole, full 1:15:57.600 --> 1:16:00.280 blown pop in threesome while I was sleep on the back. 1:16:00.680 --> 1:16:02.640 The next morning, I was like, why I missed it? 1:16:02.880 --> 1:16:06.320 Like his dick was huge? What I was like, I 1:16:06.360 --> 1:16:09.640 thought he was gay? She was like no. And then 1:16:09.760 --> 1:16:12.040 years later he damned me like I really went home 1:16:12.080 --> 1:16:13.720 with you guys cause I wanted to get to be 1:16:13.920 --> 1:16:17.120 with you. And I was like, oh okay, And he 1:16:17.240 --> 1:16:20.600 changed my perspective because like what we generally put in 1:16:20.680 --> 1:16:23.439 this box, in this category, it doesn't have to be that. 1:16:23.640 --> 1:16:24.519 So there is a balance. 1:16:24.520 --> 1:16:26.160 I think different women like different shit. 1:16:26.640 --> 1:16:29.360 Even if you are at alpha, you could you know whatever. 1:16:29.840 --> 1:16:32.400 And then I bet you even though I missed that threesome, 1:16:32.720 --> 1:16:35.280 I bet you he took control in the bedroom surprisingly 1:16:35.479 --> 1:16:38.680 and that was probably she probably was onto something. She 1:16:38.760 --> 1:16:42.400 even Beta men we beta no Omega a Mega man 1:16:42.520 --> 1:16:44.000 in the bedroom are like, they. 1:16:44.040 --> 1:16:47.000 Probably want more aggressive. That's her want to be assertive, yes, 1:16:47.520 --> 1:16:49.360 whereas Alpha was like to be dominated. 1:16:49.400 --> 1:16:52.200 So maybe it's something you should try, maybe, right, I 1:16:52.320 --> 1:16:52.760 did you know what. 1:16:52.800 --> 1:16:55.360 My ex was? I did dated Omega once and he 1:16:55.479 --> 1:16:58.360 was incredibly insecure, but then he was very but he 1:16:58.479 --> 1:16:59.560 was very caring. 1:17:00.920 --> 1:17:04.679 And this sex was eve end up being gay. 1:17:05.479 --> 1:17:08.040 No, he's definitely not kidding. Okay, although a lot of 1:17:08.080 --> 1:17:09.160 gay men are attracted to me. 1:17:09.680 --> 1:17:10.640 I know. That's why I asked you. 1:17:10.760 --> 1:17:12.800 I recently had that too, Like I'm like, oh, this 1:17:12.920 --> 1:17:14.320 is still a video, this is still a thing. 1:17:14.800 --> 1:17:18.479 The video you guys, Oh my god, Wait, he's gonna 1:17:18.520 --> 1:17:21.840 listen to this? Oh god, maybe not won't listen to 1:17:21.920 --> 1:17:26.479 star who could? Good if you're listening, turn your shit up. Okay, 1:17:26.560 --> 1:17:30.800 this is for you. Erica has been like had a 1:17:30.920 --> 1:17:34.280 DM boo that, like someone mutual introduced them via DM. 1:17:34.360 --> 1:17:37.479 They started like FaceTime and texting. So, yes, the other day, 1:17:37.520 --> 1:17:39.920 We're at the Brea at the pool and I'm taking yourselfie. 1:17:39.920 --> 1:17:41.680 First of all, I'm nosy to shoot, so like with 1:17:41.760 --> 1:17:44.240 all my friend. Oh, so I was taking yourself in 1:17:44.360 --> 1:17:46.280 Eric's phone and I'm like at the same time, she 1:17:46.320 --> 1:17:48.639 gets a text message that comes through and I'm reading 1:17:48.680 --> 1:17:51.240 it and it's like, hey, I just. 1:17:51.520 --> 1:17:53.400 I just found this, but I could see it's like 1:17:54.080 --> 1:17:55.879 a video or a still. 1:17:57.360 --> 1:18:00.360 And I'm like, yeah, some guy, who is this so 1:18:00.479 --> 1:18:02.519 and so? Because you just got a new video, so 1:18:02.680 --> 1:18:05.400 we proceed to look at it together. I can't even 1:18:05.439 --> 1:18:08.599 describe this for podcast purposes. It's too bad to even describe. 1:18:08.800 --> 1:18:11.400 I literally wish can we Oh we can't, we can't, Okay, sorry. 1:18:12.240 --> 1:18:16.160 He is taking a full blown selfie video of himself 1:18:16.760 --> 1:18:19.320 shirtless in the bathroom, like kind of like you know how, 1:18:19.560 --> 1:18:22.120 you know how bitches on Instagram like lip sync to 1:18:22.240 --> 1:18:23.720 songs for no reason. 1:18:23.520 --> 1:18:24.479 And post selfies. 1:18:24.720 --> 1:18:26.760 It's like that, but he's shirtless. He's doing like a 1:18:26.800 --> 1:18:29.479 little poudy lip and then he does the signature what 1:18:29.560 --> 1:18:32.960 I've warned you guys back in many many episodes again 1:18:33.080 --> 1:18:35.679 is my man by when you put the arm over 1:18:35.960 --> 1:18:38.400 back over the head to strike a pose. 1:18:41.080 --> 1:18:43.960 No, sit down, no more kill it no. 1:18:47.080 --> 1:18:50.080 And it's like a fully like fifteen second video basically 1:18:50.160 --> 1:18:53.400 after just him pouting doing sexy what he thinks are 1:18:53.439 --> 1:18:54.280 sexy looks. 1:18:54.080 --> 1:18:56.519 And he like grabbed his chest like his boot but 1:18:57.280 --> 1:18:58.320 brea breast. 1:18:58.520 --> 1:19:01.040 Trust Oh my god, I'll show me another one from 1:19:01.040 --> 1:19:02.800 another guy. But we're gonna look that one up second. 1:19:02.840 --> 1:19:06.200 Ohd But okay, this is just a PSA announcement for 1:19:06.280 --> 1:19:08.320 all single men. Okay, First of all, that guy is 1:19:08.360 --> 1:19:11.360 thirty eight and single. And this is why no woman, 1:19:11.680 --> 1:19:14.599 I repeat, for the ten percent of male listeners, spread 1:19:14.640 --> 1:19:17.640 the word. Tell your homies to fucking tune in. No 1:19:18.200 --> 1:19:23.600 woman wants any man sending a fucking selfie video that 1:19:23.760 --> 1:19:26.920 she did not request that you just found. And if 1:19:26.960 --> 1:19:29.720 you have some, hide them, put them deep dark in 1:19:29.800 --> 1:19:32.479 the hidden albums of your soul, because we don't want 1:19:32.520 --> 1:19:34.280 to see that. Shoot. I don't want to see a 1:19:34.360 --> 1:19:37.439 nigga looking at himself, nikan he's fucking cute and sexy 1:19:37.760 --> 1:19:40.240 looking at his abs in the fucking mirror or the 1:19:40.320 --> 1:19:43.720 selfie caml Okay, that is for the bitches, solely for 1:19:43.920 --> 1:19:44.439 the bitches. 1:19:45.040 --> 1:19:46.880 And if I send you and I don't even release 1:19:46.920 --> 1:19:49.639 some videos of that, like I've never sent a video. 1:19:49.760 --> 1:19:51.320 I've never I don't think I've ever sent a video 1:19:51.400 --> 1:19:53.960 like that, like me like looking like at the camera, 1:19:54.160 --> 1:19:57.000 like seductively, like maybe a picture. Maybe I have a 1:19:57.320 --> 1:20:00.679 full blown video if I'm showing tits and some cooch. Yeah, 1:20:00.680 --> 1:20:01.800 but it's like I'm about. 1:20:01.520 --> 1:20:03.519 To know that that. But this was not No, this 1:20:03.760 --> 1:20:06.520 was not that. I don't know what it is. But literally, 1:20:07.640 --> 1:20:08.320 do not do it. 1:20:09.240 --> 1:20:09.519 Do not. 1:20:10.520 --> 1:20:13.639 I told first one we showed Erica's friend. He thinks 1:20:13.680 --> 1:20:18.080 that equates the sociopath. I thought it equated to bisexual. 1:20:17.720 --> 1:20:19.680 Which showed my gay. Yeah, he's a gay male. And 1:20:19.760 --> 1:20:22.640 he told me he's gay, and I was like what. 1:20:23.720 --> 1:20:24.920 I said the same thing, I said, do you think 1:20:24.920 --> 1:20:31.240 he's gay? It's either very gay or it's very into 1:20:31.320 --> 1:20:32.280 yourself narcissist. 1:20:32.320 --> 1:20:34.200 I think it's more so that, and that's what turns 1:20:34.240 --> 1:20:36.480 me off because I don't I think I attract narcissists 1:20:36.600 --> 1:20:38.320 and I just can't. I don't want to do that. 1:20:38.360 --> 1:20:39.439 I can't do it again. 1:20:39.479 --> 1:20:41.360 My second question was how the fuck old is he 1:20:41.479 --> 1:20:43.320 that he thinks that this is okay? And thirty eight 1:20:43.439 --> 1:20:45.360 was not an appropriate answer. I was looking more along 1:20:45.439 --> 1:20:50.439 the ages of eighteen. It was so disturbing or like forty. 1:20:50.280 --> 1:20:52.080 Five, because you know, like they think that's hip, like 1:20:52.120 --> 1:20:54.160 they're trying to be hips oh with like the camera, 1:20:54.720 --> 1:20:56.080 but like, I. 1:20:56.040 --> 1:20:58.640 Don't know, stop being hip, yo. Honestly, even if you're 1:20:58.640 --> 1:21:01.200 taking to me selfies, don't post. No bitches want to 1:21:01.200 --> 1:21:03.519 see you taking Hella selfies. I don't even want to 1:21:03.560 --> 1:21:06.880 see other bitches taking Hellas selfies. If you go all selfies, 1:21:07.200 --> 1:21:08.519 I don't want to see it and they all look 1:21:08.560 --> 1:21:08.880 the same. 1:21:09.160 --> 1:21:11.600 Video really threw me off. He's really fine too, so 1:21:11.800 --> 1:21:13.400 like it really disappointed me. 1:21:13.720 --> 1:21:14.960 Your gaitar is fucking off? 1:21:17.640 --> 1:21:22.760 Oh god, I don't know. Yeah, but should we talk 1:21:22.800 --> 1:21:24.559 about a horri? Should we do a horry real quick? 1:21:24.560 --> 1:21:24.880 Oh yeah? 1:21:24.880 --> 1:21:26.920 I didn't share my horri from last week because I 1:21:26.960 --> 1:21:32.560 got scared Oho stories. 1:21:33.080 --> 1:21:36.320 Okay, Well, bitch, now's the time. There's no ain't no 1:21:36.640 --> 1:21:38.360 ain't no fear on the pod. I know. 1:21:39.960 --> 1:21:42.000 We I've been away for a while, so like my like, 1:21:42.080 --> 1:21:43.600 I feel like I got like I felt like a 1:21:43.680 --> 1:21:46.439 first time podcaster jitters, you know, liked our first episode, 1:21:46.439 --> 1:21:48.040 were like, should we talk ever since I in the 1:21:48.080 --> 1:21:50.599 paid sex episode? Bitch, I don't want to hear apork? Okay, 1:21:51.160 --> 1:21:54.639 I don't want to hear shit. Oh my gosh. Okay. 1:21:54.760 --> 1:21:57.840 So my horri actually happened on my first night in 1:21:57.880 --> 1:22:02.760 Barcelona and my girls went up to this like rooftop. 1:22:03.520 --> 1:22:05.719 It was like a three sixty view of the city. 1:22:05.760 --> 1:22:09.120 It was like so amazing. We're drinking up there, been 1:22:09.200 --> 1:22:10.519 up there for a few hours, and then we like 1:22:10.600 --> 1:22:13.559 see these guys when they're drinking too, and we start 1:22:13.640 --> 1:22:17.080 talking to them. And we discovered that they're from Sardinia, Italy. 1:22:17.240 --> 1:22:19.920 They barely speak any English. We're speaking Spanish, so we're 1:22:20.120 --> 1:22:22.200 like getting we're kind of like, you know, we're communicating 1:22:22.280 --> 1:22:25.879 or whatever. And we discovered that they are a bachelor 1:22:25.920 --> 1:22:31.840 party group. So the bachelor was this Italian man, very 1:22:32.160 --> 1:22:36.639 very very attractive, very attractive. His name was Gigi. 1:22:36.760 --> 1:22:38.920 You don't have to have pictures. I have pictures. 1:22:39.040 --> 1:22:48.080 Oh yeah, Giovanni wa namee Gianni, Gianni that sounds Italian. 1:22:48.720 --> 1:22:52.800 It was someone with a g okay, And so we 1:22:52.960 --> 1:22:54.280 had a great time. We like went to go eat 1:22:54.320 --> 1:22:57.240 at this restaurant drink More, had this like amazing spread 1:22:57.280 --> 1:23:01.840 of a dinner with like oysters, your face, baya and 1:23:02.160 --> 1:23:03.559 more alcohol. It was great. 1:23:03.600 --> 1:23:06.280 And then you always just really get men horny for real, girl, 1:23:06.320 --> 1:23:10.880 I was horny's girl. Yeah, I mean always horny the 1:23:10.920 --> 1:23:12.240 scorpiel bitch, I'm talking to you, okay. 1:23:12.280 --> 1:23:16.439 But also he really was really sexy and like he 1:23:16.520 --> 1:23:18.640 told me he was the bachelor, and I automatically like, oh, 1:23:18.640 --> 1:23:19.000 I can't do. 1:23:19.080 --> 1:23:20.760 Want to you didn't want to? 1:23:21.080 --> 1:23:23.040 No, I didn't want to. I mean I did, but 1:23:23.120 --> 1:23:25.000 then I felt like, oh my god, like I was 1:23:25.080 --> 1:23:27.519 going to be married and someone fucked my fiance. 1:23:27.760 --> 1:23:28.840 I don't really think i'd get mad. 1:23:28.960 --> 1:23:31.800 I started relating, making it really personal, and I was 1:23:31.880 --> 1:23:34.760 like and then I was like we all went out 1:23:35.080 --> 1:23:36.800 and then he was like come back to my room, 1:23:36.840 --> 1:23:38.200 and I was like, no, I'm gonna go hang with 1:23:38.280 --> 1:23:40.040 my friends. I was like trying to be like good. 1:23:40.560 --> 1:23:41.760 So I went to hang out with my friends and 1:23:41.800 --> 1:23:44.160 they were all like on their own like dick adventures, 1:23:44.200 --> 1:23:47.040 basically like plotting and scheming. So I was like, well, 1:23:47.040 --> 1:23:48.479 fuck this, I want to go back and meet up 1:23:48.479 --> 1:23:50.439 with Gigi. So I called Gigi. 1:23:50.680 --> 1:23:54.120 Sorry, why did be acting the phone? 1:23:55.280 --> 1:23:57.120 You know what, I did you a favor. It is 1:23:57.160 --> 1:23:59.400 the last hurrah. You know, hopefully he'll be faithful for 1:23:59.439 --> 1:24:00.439 you for the rest of your life. 1:24:01.080 --> 1:24:02.479 I gifted it to you. Probably not. 1:24:03.439 --> 1:24:06.639 So anyway, I go back to his room and when 1:24:06.680 --> 1:24:09.120 I get there, it's like a very small room, like 1:24:09.200 --> 1:24:11.360 the bathroom and the bedroom are like basically on top 1:24:11.360 --> 1:24:13.479 of each other. So I go and I'm like, I 1:24:13.680 --> 1:24:15.200 use your restroom. He's like okay. So I go in 1:24:15.200 --> 1:24:17.320 the bathroom and I'm like peen, and I'm like fuck, 1:24:17.840 --> 1:24:20.160 I kind of have to shit, like. 1:24:20.320 --> 1:24:21.280 I kind of do. 1:24:21.439 --> 1:24:23.280 But I was like, I can't shit in here. This 1:24:23.439 --> 1:24:25.640 room is so fucking small, Like I can't be in 1:24:25.720 --> 1:24:27.200 here for like twenty minutes. He's gonna be like what 1:24:27.400 --> 1:24:29.040 is she doing in there? And so I was like, 1:24:29.120 --> 1:24:31.080 fuck it, I'll just hold it. It's not that serious. 1:24:31.160 --> 1:24:34.599 I can definitely have sex and be fine. So I'm like, okay, 1:24:35.680 --> 1:24:36.120 this is good. 1:24:36.280 --> 1:24:36.760 You can't this. 1:24:36.920 --> 1:24:38.640 Yeah, this is already going. People are like, did she 1:24:38.680 --> 1:24:39.240 shit on him? 1:24:41.479 --> 1:24:42.120 Keep listening. 1:24:42.479 --> 1:24:46.200 So I get out of the bathroom, like we start 1:24:46.240 --> 1:24:49.680 hooking up, kissing. He takes his clothes off. He has 1:24:49.720 --> 1:24:52.760 on like those little like like a speedout underwear, like 1:24:52.960 --> 1:24:55.439 very European, you know, like the ones that aren't boxer briefs, 1:24:55.479 --> 1:24:58.639 like like like the bikini style underwear. And I'm like, okay, 1:24:58.720 --> 1:25:06.040 that's kind of cute. He takes He pulls his hands 1:25:06.120 --> 1:25:11.599 down uncircumcised, which not shocked but hope it was hoping. 1:25:11.840 --> 1:25:14.320 Maybe not, But you know what else I can I'm 1:25:14.320 --> 1:25:14.920 making my work. 1:25:14.960 --> 1:25:16.200 You can pull down. Yeah. 1:25:16.240 --> 1:25:18.519 I was in a relationship with someone for three years 1:25:18.560 --> 1:25:19.519 who was on circum size. 1:25:19.560 --> 1:25:19.960 I got this. 1:25:21.479 --> 1:25:27.200 It's actually not that serious. So it's small. But I'm like, 1:25:27.320 --> 1:25:31.200 I'm here, fuck it, we're doing yolo. So we start 1:25:31.240 --> 1:25:33.120 having sex and it's cool, you know, we're like and 1:25:33.240 --> 1:25:35.400 doing our thing, and then like he flips me over, 1:25:35.640 --> 1:25:37.960 we start Jesus Christ. 1:25:38.479 --> 1:25:39.880 Okay, go go go. 1:25:40.320 --> 1:25:42.320 I definitely don't need my child hearing this. Goddamn wory. 1:25:42.760 --> 1:25:43.040 Okay. 1:25:44.160 --> 1:25:47.040 So then he turns me over. We start doing it 1:25:47.160 --> 1:25:49.840 doty style, and I hear him like pull out and 1:25:50.000 --> 1:25:53.639 like spit on his dick, and I was like, okay, 1:25:53.800 --> 1:25:55.920 like that's that's the sound I've heard many times in 1:25:55.960 --> 1:25:59.040 my life. Not that you need to do that, because 1:25:59.080 --> 1:26:02.559 a girl is ready all the time. I stay ready. 1:26:03.880 --> 1:26:07.760 So he spits on the deck and immediately shoves his 1:26:07.840 --> 1:26:11.519 dick in my ass like unannounced and just like pumps 1:26:11.600 --> 1:26:12.040 really hard. 1:26:12.160 --> 1:26:12.800 Oh my god. 1:26:12.880 --> 1:26:15.479 And I was like and I'm like thinking, like wait, 1:26:15.600 --> 1:26:18.680 what the fuck is happening? Ow, oh my god, I 1:26:18.800 --> 1:26:21.200 have to shit? Like am I shitting on him? 1:26:21.439 --> 1:26:22.600 I can't even effortlessly. 1:26:22.720 --> 1:26:26.120 He just no, like no warning, just like in there 1:26:26.240 --> 1:26:29.280 like oh real quick, like like I was you gotta 1:26:29.439 --> 1:26:31.240 It was almost like he knew I was gonna say no, 1:26:31.560 --> 1:26:33.040 so he needed to get it in real quick. 1:26:33.160 --> 1:26:33.400 Okay. 1:26:33.479 --> 1:26:36.160 He's like those a madecan girl, And at first. 1:26:36.040 --> 1:26:37.160 I was in shock. 1:26:37.280 --> 1:26:39.200 So it like all happened so fast, and I was 1:26:39.280 --> 1:26:41.519 like wait, wha what huh huh wait do I like this? 1:26:41.640 --> 1:26:43.240 Oh wait after ship? Oh no? 1:26:43.720 --> 1:26:46.880 And so then like at some point I really felt 1:26:46.880 --> 1:26:48.880 like I was shooting because it was. 1:26:48.840 --> 1:26:49.519 All up been there. 1:26:51.040 --> 1:26:53.720 So then I was like whoa, whoa, like stop, and. 1:26:53.800 --> 1:26:55.240 He's like it was the wrong uh. 1:26:57.360 --> 1:26:59.120 I swear that's what he said. 1:26:59.200 --> 1:27:03.520 It was the wrongs your fucking Luigi. 1:27:04.320 --> 1:27:05.120 Like you're in the Mario. 1:27:05.720 --> 1:27:07.120 It's like, what are you doing? 1:27:07.800 --> 1:27:09.000 He's like, oh, I'm a sor. 1:27:09.320 --> 1:27:14.160 Hurts, like fuck, got hurts your accident right now. 1:27:14.360 --> 1:27:20.200 So then I'm like, okay, regroup. Then so we start 1:27:20.280 --> 1:27:23.840 kissing and then he puts the condom. He starts he 1:27:24.200 --> 1:27:27.240 puts his dick back in me like regularly, and I'm like, whoa, 1:27:27.439 --> 1:27:29.960 you gotta like, you gotta change the condom. You can't 1:27:30.040 --> 1:27:32.360 just go from dick to like, no, you can't double, 1:27:32.520 --> 1:27:34.680 you can't go from ass Okay. So then he goes 1:27:34.760 --> 1:27:36.800 and changes the condom and I'm like, oh my god, Okay. 1:27:36.960 --> 1:27:38.360 So at this point I'm just like I just want 1:27:38.400 --> 1:27:40.000 to come, Like I just want to come, like this 1:27:40.200 --> 1:27:43.160 is clearly some I failed mission, but like, at least 1:27:43.160 --> 1:27:45.120 I got to walk out of here with something sort 1:27:45.160 --> 1:27:48.360 of pleasure. So he gets on top of me again. 1:27:48.400 --> 1:27:50.960 He starts, you know, doing it. I'm I'm like into it. 1:27:51.080 --> 1:27:53.360 It's kind of like it's kind of like foggy because 1:27:53.360 --> 1:27:56.200 I was pretty drunk, but I'm pretty sure I was 1:27:56.200 --> 1:27:58.720 into it. And then out of nowhere again and we're 1:27:58.760 --> 1:27:59.600 and he's on top of me. 1:28:00.280 --> 1:28:03.400 How did he he like lifted me up? 1:28:04.400 --> 1:28:09.600 Oh my ducksh he's stuck in really little, and I 1:28:09.760 --> 1:28:13.840 was like, yo, wa no, it's like it was like, 1:28:13.960 --> 1:28:16.559 oh my god. Yeah, it wasn't like how many inches 1:28:16.600 --> 1:28:20.240 is that? Like that's like five five inches? 1:28:20.640 --> 1:28:25.240 No, that's not five girl, that's four hard. I don't know. 1:28:25.439 --> 1:28:28.000 It wasn't that big anyway, So was it skinny? 1:28:29.120 --> 1:28:30.880 It was like average okay? 1:28:31.400 --> 1:28:31.599 Yeah. 1:28:33.560 --> 1:28:39.040 So anyway, he did that again, and I again protested, well, 1:28:39.040 --> 1:28:40.880 at least you know what, honestly, I'm gonna be keep 1:28:40.880 --> 1:28:42.960 it real. This time, I was like maybe I can 1:28:43.040 --> 1:28:45.920 do this, like maybe I'll try. Let me just try, 1:28:46.160 --> 1:28:49.200 like okay, like because I'm said missive, I'm like, you 1:28:49.280 --> 1:28:51.240 know what, this is what's gonna bring him pleasure. Let 1:28:51.280 --> 1:28:51.639 me try. 1:28:52.360 --> 1:28:53.040 I couldn't do it. 1:28:53.120 --> 1:28:55.320 I literally every time he pulled out, I literally felt 1:28:55.320 --> 1:28:56.280 like poop was coming out. 1:28:56.200 --> 1:28:56.559 Of my bed. 1:28:57.560 --> 1:28:59.320 Two in your head, you're like, well, what this doesn't 1:28:59.320 --> 1:29:00.080 work out the way i've. 1:29:00.240 --> 1:29:03.080 But honestly, there was nothing on it, like because I 1:29:03.479 --> 1:29:05.840 surprisingly like he pulled out and I was like ready 1:29:05.880 --> 1:29:07.760 to see some crazy shit and there was nothing. And 1:29:07.800 --> 1:29:09.920 I was like, okay, but we didn't. You didn't finish 1:29:10.000 --> 1:29:12.519 that way. Like after like about one and a half minutes, 1:29:12.560 --> 1:29:15.360 I was like, I can't do this. Put on another condom. 1:29:15.439 --> 1:29:18.360 We finished. I was like, all right, peacegg I gotta 1:29:18.400 --> 1:29:22.600 go show. But I just was like, did this just 1:29:22.760 --> 1:29:27.080 really happen to me? Like like I felt, I honestly 1:29:27.160 --> 1:29:29.920 felt bad thinking about his wife afterwards, like this is 1:29:30.040 --> 1:29:33.320 her future only but sex, because I guess. And then 1:29:33.320 --> 1:29:35.040 I was talking to my friends like, oh, yeah, that's 1:29:35.520 --> 1:29:37.800 I guess a lot of like Italian men like anal size. 1:29:37.800 --> 1:29:40.560 I think you're yeah, and also if you have a 1:29:40.600 --> 1:29:41.640 small penis, that's a thing. 1:29:42.120 --> 1:29:44.679 There's like a whole documentary that flocks about a famous 1:29:44.720 --> 1:29:47.160 porn star I think who's Italian and he's like really 1:29:47.200 --> 1:29:47.719 into Hona. 1:29:48.360 --> 1:29:50.559 Yeah, I'm not really into ano. 1:29:51.080 --> 1:29:54.000 Okay, so I think I said this before, Well, no, 1:29:54.800 --> 1:29:56.240 small dick's like ask sex. 1:29:57.200 --> 1:29:59.519 I didn't realize that because I guess I've been very 1:29:59.560 --> 1:30:02.160 blessed with my dick selections. But I had a lot 1:30:02.200 --> 1:30:04.240 of small penises most asses. 1:30:04.320 --> 1:30:07.439 She'd only like small dick assets because I don't want 1:30:07.479 --> 1:30:10.000 a big dick in my belt, I don't want to 1:30:10.040 --> 1:30:11.920 do it. And if your big dick is too big, 1:30:12.040 --> 1:30:16.000 I know. Yeah. The only time I've ever had like 1:30:16.080 --> 1:30:17.680 anal and it kind of felt good was if the 1:30:17.760 --> 1:30:18.479 dick was smaller. 1:30:19.080 --> 1:30:22.080 I just feel like, will I ever ship the same again? 1:30:22.479 --> 1:30:24.960 Because honestly, when I went to the Bastic City, well, 1:30:25.000 --> 1:30:27.120 I mean, if you have it all the time, when 1:30:27.160 --> 1:30:29.320 I went home, I know this is TMI. When I 1:30:29.400 --> 1:30:32.240 got back to the hotel, I had so. 1:30:32.400 --> 1:30:38.240 Much gas, there was so much, so much are coming out. 1:30:38.840 --> 1:30:41.240 I was like, who does this all the time? And 1:30:41.439 --> 1:30:42.519 how well the thing is? 1:30:42.560 --> 1:30:42.800 I heard? 1:30:43.040 --> 1:30:46.479 Once you get heard from a bird, once you get 1:30:46.520 --> 1:30:49.400 past a certain point and you like work your way 1:30:49.479 --> 1:30:51.840 up slowly like then, then that's when the pleasure comes in. 1:30:51.920 --> 1:30:53.720 It's like, well here's the thing, here's the thing. I've 1:30:53.800 --> 1:30:56.240 had anal sex before, and I've actually enjoyed it before. 1:30:56.360 --> 1:30:59.240 I was more like it wasn't planned, but like it 1:30:59.400 --> 1:31:01.519 was like just discussed a little bit, not discussed, like 1:31:01.560 --> 1:31:03.479 we were having sex. And then I was like, I 1:31:03.880 --> 1:31:06.000 like we we built up to it. It wasn't just 1:31:06.080 --> 1:31:08.599 like abrasive and it's I haven't done it many times 1:31:08.600 --> 1:31:11.240 in my life. No, have I experienced pleasure from it? Yeah? 1:31:12.120 --> 1:31:14.200 I have, Yes, I have. 1:31:14.400 --> 1:31:15.040 It's possible. 1:31:15.120 --> 1:31:18.240 Yeah, it's hits. It's like a different sensation that's like 1:31:18.600 --> 1:31:22.240 if you get the right place, it can be pretty awesome. 1:31:22.360 --> 1:31:24.639 And it's like it's just freaking nasty for me. Yeah, 1:31:25.400 --> 1:31:28.679 if it can be awesome, but when it's unexpected and rape? 1:31:30.960 --> 1:31:34.599 Did to know I'm not unexpected in rape? 1:31:34.960 --> 1:31:37.240 Yeah, you gotta have you have to have warning. Even 1:31:37.280 --> 1:31:38.559 I talked to some of my gay friends. 1:31:38.600 --> 1:31:39.599 I don't know if you have a lot of gay 1:31:39.640 --> 1:31:41.080 guy friends, I don't know if you discussed this, but 1:31:41.479 --> 1:31:44.599 I discussed it. They prepare, yes, like they starve themselves 1:31:44.640 --> 1:31:46.960 for twelve hours, which I was like, Oh, they prepare. 1:31:47.160 --> 1:31:48.800 They they mentally prepared. 1:31:48.479 --> 1:31:52.120 Because I don't. I can't fuck comfortably. Yeah, I can't 1:31:52.160 --> 1:31:54.240 fuck complicate. This is the thing further to be comfortable 1:31:54.280 --> 1:31:56.760 with somebody, very comfortable because anything could happen. Let's keep 1:31:56.800 --> 1:32:00.760 that in mind. Second of all, if you like, you 1:32:00.840 --> 1:32:03.519 got to be prepared, like you know, like have gone. 1:32:04.240 --> 1:32:06.200 You know, there's a whole process to that. It's not 1:32:06.280 --> 1:32:07.439 like a surprise type of thing. 1:32:07.520 --> 1:32:08.000 I don't think. 1:32:09.240 --> 1:32:11.840 I mean, I've never prepared for it, and it's been 1:32:12.520 --> 1:32:14.559 I've never prepared for anal sex, and any time I've 1:32:14.600 --> 1:32:17.160 ever had it, I've never had anything come off, come 1:32:17.240 --> 1:32:19.400 out and expect it, which is very surprising. 1:32:19.520 --> 1:32:21.519 Like I don't know how I've never had that happen. 1:32:22.120 --> 1:32:24.360 Because also I'm a bitch with a lot of stomach issues, 1:32:24.400 --> 1:32:26.920 So I'm like I do I always have always had 1:32:26.920 --> 1:32:29.719 stomach issues, struggle with stomach issues my entire life IBS. 1:32:29.840 --> 1:32:31.720 But I think as I've gotten older, I don't really 1:32:31.760 --> 1:32:34.400 have them anymore. But like for a time, like it 1:32:34.520 --> 1:32:36.080 was like there's no way I can do anal Like 1:32:36.640 --> 1:32:39.760 there's it just seemed like I'm trying to get shit out. 1:32:39.840 --> 1:32:41.280 Why would I want to put anything else in? 1:32:41.880 --> 1:32:44.000 You know. But the one time that I with the 1:32:44.040 --> 1:32:48.679 few times that I did have anal sex with my ex, 1:32:50.640 --> 1:32:52.680 I really did enjoy it and he doesn't have a 1:32:52.800 --> 1:32:53.599 small dick. 1:32:53.920 --> 1:32:56.080 You know, really you had to really get mentally prepared 1:32:56.120 --> 1:32:56.280 for that. 1:32:56.880 --> 1:32:59.320 I mean, yeah, you gotta like lub it up and everything. 1:32:59.560 --> 1:33:01.759 Yeah, like a loop. Do you like to get your assy? 1:33:01.880 --> 1:33:06.120 And yeah, me too? Look everything, look look me everywhere? 1:33:06.400 --> 1:33:09.920 Ye why why but why you look that? You can't 1:33:09.960 --> 1:33:10.559 look that right? 1:33:10.680 --> 1:33:12.880 The like Yeah, the weirder the spot, the more of 1:33:12.960 --> 1:33:13.360 into it. 1:33:13.560 --> 1:33:14.080 Let's do it. 1:33:14.760 --> 1:33:20.000 I'm a nasty bitch, so to be completely honest, me too, 1:33:20.360 --> 1:33:20.680 me too. 1:33:21.640 --> 1:33:24.280 But yeah, that's my horry. And I have another horri 1:33:24.360 --> 1:33:26.080 I have many horries from that trip. So just keep 1:33:26.160 --> 1:33:28.240 tuning in all month and you'll hear. 1:33:28.880 --> 1:33:30.559 Eventually we'll get to the end of them. We'll get 1:33:30.560 --> 1:33:32.360 to the end of them. Maybe by Christmas. 1:33:32.520 --> 1:33:38.040 I'm just kidding reybe maybe, but yeah, shout out to 1:33:39.760 --> 1:33:41.519 congratulations getting married next month. 1:33:41.640 --> 1:33:43.519 Congratulations see you and your wife. 1:33:45.960 --> 1:33:46.160 I know. 1:33:47.479 --> 1:33:49.400 So is that conclude today's episode? 1:33:49.439 --> 1:33:54.240 I think that concludes our episode. And definitely make sure 1:33:54.280 --> 1:33:56.280 you guys are following us. Definitely make sure you guys 1:33:56.320 --> 1:34:00.640 are liking us on iTunes and Spotify. Yeah, like and like, 1:34:00.760 --> 1:34:02.679 leave a comment if you guys are failing us, please 1:34:02.720 --> 1:34:05.400 we really appreciate if you just leave a review, because 1:34:05.840 --> 1:34:07.759 you know, then we can get more people to listen. 1:34:08.040 --> 1:34:10.439 And we love connecting with people and just listening to 1:34:10.520 --> 1:34:15.400 your stories. And today I think I might have solidified 1:34:15.560 --> 1:34:18.000 a location for a meetup. Fingers crossed. 1:34:18.320 --> 1:34:21.840 Oh oh oh oh okay, keep going. No, Also for 1:34:22.000 --> 1:34:26.400 all our LA people, we are definitely doing El Toedo 1:34:26.560 --> 1:34:30.919 Brunch because has anybody fucking been there? Yo, it's popping. 1:34:31.439 --> 1:34:35.160 El Toedo Brunch is the secret gem of Los Angeles. 1:34:35.240 --> 1:34:38.280 No literally on Van Eys and fucking no. Yeah, Ventura 1:34:38.920 --> 1:34:40.880 in the guy Ukaku. I'm sure that you know. 1:34:40.920 --> 1:34:43.519 There's Altaido's everywhere, like I think we can go anywhere. 1:34:43.760 --> 1:34:46.799 Oh okay, okay, but that was specifically was popping. 1:34:46.880 --> 1:34:48.360 Well you know why. I thought it was like it 1:34:48.520 --> 1:34:52.120 was becoming like it's becoming rare because this girl was like, 1:34:52.160 --> 1:34:54.280 oh yeah, we used to have one in San Diego. 1:34:54.400 --> 1:34:56.519 We were about to drive back. I met her in 1:34:56.560 --> 1:35:00.320 the buffet line and we we saw Elterito and we 1:35:00.400 --> 1:35:02.479 pulled over so we could eat here before we went 1:35:02.560 --> 1:35:04.559 back for brunch. So it made me think they were 1:35:04.600 --> 1:35:07.920 starting to close and the wells. 1:35:07.120 --> 1:35:08.880 Yeah, I mean there's not they have clothes, a lot 1:35:08.920 --> 1:35:10.679 of El toritos. There's as many. 1:35:11.040 --> 1:35:14.000 They should open them for Sunday because they had everything. 1:35:14.880 --> 1:35:16.680 Bitch, I just want to the fact that she went 1:35:16.720 --> 1:35:18.679 before a long ash drive. I hope she wasn't driving, 1:35:18.680 --> 1:35:20.559 because there's no way I could drive to San Diego 1:35:20.640 --> 1:35:23.960 after that fucking brunch that ship was. There was everything. 1:35:24.080 --> 1:35:27.000 There was tacos, there was enchiladas. There was three different 1:35:27.040 --> 1:35:27.679 types of sevice. 1:35:27.880 --> 1:35:33.360 Therelet barlet waffles, banana foster being made live with cinnamon, 1:35:33.439 --> 1:35:38.280 butter and ice cream, like pastry, all the Mexican bread drama, 1:35:38.520 --> 1:35:40.160 churros like it. 1:35:40.240 --> 1:35:45.919 Was fruit cereal like literally, it was the most amazing 1:35:46.000 --> 1:35:49.760 twenty six dollars with the bottomless mimosa I've ever experienced. 1:35:49.800 --> 1:35:52.080 And I was only pissed that we didn't get high. 1:35:51.920 --> 1:35:55.679 First, Like what the fuck were we thinking? You knew 1:35:55.720 --> 1:35:58.040 it was good because we didn't even drink our mimosas 1:35:58.080 --> 1:35:59.960 we only had one and we didn't even drink. 1:36:00.439 --> 1:36:02.280 No, we drink like a quarter of that because we're 1:36:02.479 --> 1:36:04.479 focused on the food and got too full. 1:36:05.040 --> 1:36:07.360 It was delicious. So that's definitely going to be one 1:36:07.400 --> 1:36:09.479 of the meetups, even if it's just like y'all bitches, 1:36:09.520 --> 1:36:10.080 I'm going. 1:36:10.040 --> 1:36:12.599 Yeah, even even it's just two of you. And today 1:36:12.720 --> 1:36:15.560 I met one of our listeners, Taylor, and it is 1:36:15.600 --> 1:36:18.639 so cool to like because we've I've never actually met 1:36:18.720 --> 1:36:21.120 any of you guys, so it was really cool to 1:36:22.040 --> 1:36:24.320 see her, like see her connect with her in person 1:36:24.560 --> 1:36:26.320 in person and be like, oh my god, like we 1:36:26.400 --> 1:36:29.080 have this like secret little connection you know me? Yeah, 1:36:29.280 --> 1:36:31.240 like you know so much about me and I want 1:36:31.280 --> 1:36:33.240 to know about you because that's only fair. 1:36:33.560 --> 1:36:36.160 Yeah, and like even if you're far away, and we 1:36:36.240 --> 1:36:37.960 do we do love the love. We do like the 1:36:38.040 --> 1:36:40.439 shout outs and then like, hey, how you doing because 1:36:40.720 --> 1:36:42.960 I've been telling everybody like who DMS is my business? 1:36:43.040 --> 1:36:44.560 Like you're going through what? Oh my god, girl, me 1:36:44.640 --> 1:36:49.400 too because literally, so if you got some like questions, 1:36:49.439 --> 1:36:51.720 are going through some shit, don't hesitate because we're here. 1:36:51.840 --> 1:36:53.080 We're your village. Yeah. 1:36:54.040 --> 1:36:56.639 Anyway, well thanks for tuning in you guys. This episode 1:36:56.720 --> 1:36:57.840 is hella long, and. 1:36:58.479 --> 1:37:01.240 I don't know we said us every week we're yelling 1:37:01.280 --> 1:37:04.040 at the kids forty seven times, but somehow we still 1:37:04.080 --> 1:37:04.760 managed to keep on. 1:37:05.200 --> 1:37:08.639 This week was I'm sorry, guys, like they were really 1:37:08.720 --> 1:37:11.400 extra today. I'm like low key disappointed. 1:37:11.000 --> 1:37:12.920 Maybe it turned maybe it turned four. 1:37:13.320 --> 1:37:17.720 This will get easier, maybe to get a lock on 1:37:17.760 --> 1:37:18.040 the door. 1:37:18.040 --> 1:37:23.200 I don't know one together, but anyway, we will catch 1:37:23.320 --> 1:37:25.160 up with you guys next week. 1:37:26.000 --> 1:37:37.960 Die yeast as your day unfolds. Challenge one to keep 1:37:38.040 --> 1:37:41.320 your hose trying to keep your head up to the 1:37:41.640 --> 1:37:47.519 screwm love a steam It cause your tears. Oh ahead, 1:37:47.680 --> 1:37:49.559 release your fears, Ma. 1:37:51.320 --> 1:37:58.639 Ma Ita, And you're gonna ain't bone dringna, ain't wise. 1:38:00.080 --> 1:38:03.080 You're gonna be hard, You're gonna be tough, You're gonna 1:38:03.160 --> 1:38:07.720 be stronger, You're gonna be You gotta be com you 1:38:07.880 --> 1:38:08.799 gotta stat again. 1:38:12.800 --> 1:38:12.920 Sa