Speaker 1: I grieve me.
Speaker 2: You know what, I sure I'll do this. Yeah, we
Speaker 2: can do this. Do you want do you hold on?
Speaker 2: Do you really want to do this? How? What's their
Speaker 2: motivation behind this? I'm fine? Oh yes, oh yes, hold on,
Speaker 2: hold on, hold on. I want you to know I'll
Speaker 2: yes and this for you because that's a lot. You're
Speaker 2: doing a lot right now. That's it is a heavy
Speaker 2: commitment on your part, and I appreciate the comm hold on,
Speaker 2: I appreciate the commitment that you're putting behind this. But
Speaker 2: and so i'll match it if you're if you if
Speaker 2: you're willing to commit fully to it, I'll match the
Speaker 2: commitment level as well. But I'm just giving you this disclaimer.
Speaker 3: I'll let you have it.
Speaker 4: Baby. Now.
Speaker 1: My name is Matthilde. I'm about sixty five years old.
Speaker 2: And he beat me. He was more committed than me.
Speaker 2: I didn't want to do that at all. Hello. Hello,
Speaker 2: Buenos nochest or Buenos Grandees or whatever it is. This
Speaker 2: is Lyle. This is the Gecko man. This it's the
Speaker 2: guy in the suit, the guy talking and yes, all right.
Speaker 2: We got an episode today, oh man, today, very interesting episode.
Speaker 2: We got a classic first half, funny second half more
Speaker 2: serious ish, you know, I got into it a little
Speaker 2: bit more. I keep telling everyone all the time that
Speaker 2: this is not real therapy, and I keep breaking that rule. Well,
Speaker 2: I guess not really. I mean, I'm not giving therapy,
Speaker 2: but I am. You know again, I've said this all
Speaker 2: the time. I don't consider myself an advice person, but
Speaker 2: it just EEPs out of me for some reason, even
Speaker 2: though I don't feel remotely qualified to give it, it
Speaker 2: is there. So so we got a serious second half,
Speaker 2: but a light hearted first half. Topics include having sex
Speaker 2: in both a church and a synagogue. Someone called in
Speaker 2: to tell me about a insane person that they work
Speaker 2: with at a haunted house attraction, very terrifying call for
Speaker 2: many reasons. We did a little bit of a pillow talk,
Speaker 2: a little bit of ASMR with the caller that was
Speaker 2: very sensual, very beautiful, and then towards the end we
Speaker 2: got we had a very long discussion with this guy
Speaker 2: who told me that I was the first person he'd
Speaker 2: had a real conversation with in like a year, and
Speaker 2: we really got into it, really dug deep. He you know,
Speaker 2: he was. He gave a lot of himself, so I
Speaker 2: gave some of myself in return, and it was it
Speaker 2: was an interesting conversation. So anyway, as you all know,
Speaker 2: you can call the Gecko every Monday Wednesday Friday at
Speaker 2: ten pm Eastern Standard Time on twitch dot tv slash
Speaker 2: Lyle forever and without further ado, enough of me, let's
Speaker 2: get into the pod.
Speaker 5: All from Gabby.
Speaker 6: Heik, Gabby, Hi gi geg what's up?
Speaker 4: You know?
Speaker 2: Not a whole lot, honestly, okay, An.
Speaker 6: I think this is the night of Jews telling Sinn stories.
Speaker 2: Can you say that again?
Speaker 1: Now?
Speaker 2: Okay, can you say that again? Because I can't might freak.
Speaker 2: I hate this audio thing you said, this is a
Speaker 2: night of Jews.
Speaker 6: Telling Sinn stories. We're all Jews here, aren't we.
Speaker 2: I'm a little Jewish, yes, I'm you know, it might
Speaker 2: be jew I might be jewing it up.
Speaker 6: I got I got ancestors DNA, like you know, my
Speaker 6: DNA tested. It came back one hundred percent Ashknazi Jewish.
Speaker 2: And I was like, book, bro, Gabbie, how have you sinned?
Speaker 6: I had sex in a church and a synagogue, so
Speaker 6: I've crossed those bases.
Speaker 2: Which which was the better sex, the synagogue sex or
Speaker 2: the church sex.
Speaker 6: The dude was circumcised because he was Jewish, so I'd
Speaker 6: say that nice.
Speaker 2: So the circum the the synagogue.
Speaker 6: One, oh yeah, you know, bathroom, very romantic.
Speaker 2: How did you meet this, uh, this this Jewish man?
Speaker 6: So his name was Josh and we went to the
Speaker 6: same synagogue and the rest is history. And he got
Speaker 6: herpes from my friend afterwards, and I thought he gave
Speaker 6: it to me, but he didn't.
Speaker 2: So he had sex with you and your friend? Yeah,
Speaker 2: how how close? How closely?
Speaker 6: How close did we have sex to each other?
Speaker 2: Like how when? Well, give me, give me the give
Speaker 2: me the give me the timeline.
Speaker 6: Of this all right? Well I was sixteen and it
Speaker 6: was I was a few weeks between each other when
Speaker 6: he sucked us.
Speaker 7: Who who who?
Speaker 4: Who?
Speaker 2: Who first?
Speaker 4: Me?
Speaker 2: So she gave him going into it.
Speaker 6: No, he didn't have a tip. He was circumcised.
Speaker 2: No, I mean like tips, Like yeah.
Speaker 6: No, I didn't know it was going on. He was
Speaker 6: talking to both of us. He was kind of playing it.
Speaker 2: What's your favorite part about being Jewish?
Speaker 6: Well, my parents just owned me for getting tattoos. That's
Speaker 6: not my favorite. That just came to mind first. I'm
Speaker 6: not very religious. Actually, I like connecting with other Jews
Speaker 6: that aren't Jewish too, because I feel like that's a
Speaker 6: very good connection to make.
Speaker 2: You like connecting with other people who.
Speaker 6: Aren't Jewish, who are Jewish but they don't consider themselves Jewish.
Speaker 2: How do your parents feel about the fact that you
Speaker 2: don't to yourself Jewish?
Speaker 7: Like?
Speaker 2: How Jewish are they? Are they really Jewish?
Speaker 6: No, we grew up reformed. Last time I went to
Speaker 6: the synagogue was when I got vomitz bad. Well, actually
Speaker 6: that's not true. I guess I had sex, but that
Speaker 6: was for another bar mitzvah. Oh yeah, that's that's where
Speaker 6: it was during a bar mitzvah, a synagogue. I should
Speaker 6: have mentioned that when I was sixteen.
Speaker 2: Why were you at when you were sixteen?
Speaker 6: It was my family friends bar mitzvah, you know, during
Speaker 6: the service and it's a local word.
Speaker 2: Oh wait, you had sex with with someone in the
Speaker 2: synagogue during the third bar mitzvah service.
Speaker 6: Yeah. Sorry, I'm a little anxious. If you cann't tell,
Speaker 6: I'm nervous. But this is breaking up my monotonous life,
Speaker 6: and I appreciate you for that, you know.
Speaker 2: What, Gabby, I'm happy, but I'm happy that I could
Speaker 2: be here, you know, as a scepter for this story
Speaker 2: because it I mean I can tell that this story
Speaker 2: had to go somewhere and it made it, It made
Speaker 2: its home, you know my years.
Speaker 6: Well, I very appreciate it.
Speaker 2: Okay, how did this how did this logistically go down?
Speaker 6: The sex in the in the bar Mitzvah service?
Speaker 2: Yes, I mean, tell me every aspect of this story.
Speaker 6: Okay, all right, let's start. Okay, So Josh, I've known
Speaker 6: he went to We went to preschool together, and the
Speaker 6: SAME's than of God. So you know, it's a long
Speaker 6: time coming kind of thing, no pun intended, and you know,
Speaker 6: sixteen year olds, you gotta do what you gotta do.
Speaker 6: You know, we're friends, are texting, you know all that, Hey,
Speaker 6: are you going to? I don't really want to name
Speaker 6: the name of the barmits? Was that going to? You know,
Speaker 6: the bar Mitzvah?
Speaker 8: Yeah?
Speaker 6: Yeah, let's let's sit next to each other, but the watch,
Speaker 6: you know, together and you know, we went to the bathroom,
Speaker 6: you know, the one that was far away, not the
Speaker 6: one that was you know, close to the tema. The
Speaker 6: I don't know the terms anymore, honestly, but far away
Speaker 6: and yeah, the rest is history.
Speaker 2: Was it in the bathroom.
Speaker 6: Yeah during it actually, yeah he was because.
Speaker 4: He was.
Speaker 6: Yeah, we were in the service. You didn't take it off.
Speaker 6: I mean it wasn't. It wasn't a handicaps stall. So
Speaker 6: there there's enough room for us. Guys. Whoever think I'm
Speaker 6: not under age. I'm turning twenty one October fourth.
Speaker 2: Don't read the chat? It does it? Who cares about?
Speaker 8: You know?
Speaker 2: Who's watching this?
Speaker 8: Yeah?
Speaker 6: Well I think Jude goes to like Michigan. So all right,
Speaker 6: get what what's your favorite part about being Jewish?
Speaker 2: My favorite part about being Jewish is that I don't
Speaker 2: know what my favorite part of being Jewish is. I
Speaker 2: like the I like the soups and the salads that
Speaker 2: we get.
Speaker 6: Oh yeah, you like the dense mansile balls or the
Speaker 6: softer ones.
Speaker 2: I like the softer ones, you know, because I'm a
Speaker 2: little really wow.
Speaker 6: Yes, you need your mommy to chew it up for
Speaker 6: you too.
Speaker 2: She did my mom. Boy, what when I was younger,
Speaker 2: my mom used to, you know, eat massa balls and
Speaker 2: show them up and then spit them back into my
Speaker 2: mouth like a bird. Mm hmm. She still does that
Speaker 2: sometimes when we have dinners together for the Jewish holidays,
Speaker 2: just friends.
Speaker 6: Oh, we have her passover for when you dip your
Speaker 6: finger in the wine, she just does it with your
Speaker 6: tongue into your mouth, or her tongue into your mouth.
Speaker 6: You know what, Yes, what's your prize when you find
Speaker 6: the afie Comen.
Speaker 2: Ten dollars?
Speaker 8: That's it.
Speaker 6: Yes, you know what my mom used to do.
Speaker 1: She would me what your mom used to do. She
Speaker 1: would make each.
Speaker 6: Kid in the family an Offie Comen like cover bag,
Speaker 6: you know, the special cloth, and then she'd give us
Speaker 6: like a little square of the cloth that we were
Speaker 6: supposed to find, and she would hide one Offie Comen
Speaker 6: for each child so everyone could find it.
Speaker 2: That ruins the competitive nature of finding the afric omen
Speaker 2: and creates a world in which there are no winners
Speaker 2: and no losers, which is not realistic depiction of the
Speaker 2: world in which there are clear winners and clear losers.
Speaker 6: Oh, I thought it was sweet.
Speaker 2: Well, Gabby, you know, look, thank you for confessing your sins.
Speaker 2: Thank you for letting me know you know how terrible
Speaker 2: you are, so it makes me feel better about myself.
Speaker 2: And you know, look, I love you. I don't think
Speaker 2: that our love is powerful enough to rise us from
Speaker 2: the depths of hell. But I think it will comfort
Speaker 2: us as we burn down here, and it's for a tournament.
Speaker 6: All right, appreciate it.
Speaker 2: Man, All right, Gabby, I love you. I'll talk to
Speaker 2: you soon.
Speaker 6: I love you.
Speaker 9: Bye.
Speaker 10: Hello, Hello, Hello.
Speaker 1: How's the going?
Speaker 2: You know it's going? All right? What you ever been to?
Speaker 2: What are you? What are you doing right now?
Speaker 1: I just got home and I'm laying.
Speaker 2: On my couch where we're home from?
Speaker 11: Where home from?
Speaker 7: I got?
Speaker 1: I got home from from going to dinner with my family.
Speaker 1: I recently shaved off my hair and my eyebrows and
Speaker 1: had never seen it. And when I went there, they
Speaker 1: told me I looked like a serial killer.
Speaker 11: And I was very flattered.
Speaker 2: You were flattered? Does that is that? Was that your goal?
Speaker 2: Did you want to look like a serial killer?
Speaker 7: Yeah?
Speaker 1: I work at a haunted house, so so yeah, it's
Speaker 1: a compliment when I get told that I look on
Speaker 1: out of the ordinary.
Speaker 2: That's good. Do you see you kind of get off
Speaker 2: you kind of you kind of enjoy the idea of
Speaker 2: looking frightful. Beneficial because it's beneficial for you in your career,
Speaker 2: because your career is to frighten people.
Speaker 1: Yeah, it's great.
Speaker 4: What do you.
Speaker 2: Enjoy about frightening people. What what what gives you pleasure
Speaker 2: in doing that?
Speaker 1: I think it's cool that, like at a full time job,
Speaker 1: you always get those people, like especially like in restaurant
Speaker 1: industry or like any kind of service where you get
Speaker 1: those people are just so mean and you've got to
Speaker 1: keep a smile on your face. But when you're there,
Speaker 1: you can just like yell and scream at people, just
Speaker 1: get out all of that anger and they think it's
Speaker 1: fun and then you get your yeah good time.
Speaker 11: Yeah.
Speaker 2: I do that sometimes. I try to. I yell at people,
Speaker 2: scream good to scare people.
Speaker 7: I like that.
Speaker 1: Where do you do that just out in public or
Speaker 1: not in public?
Speaker 2: I do it on the stream as you know. Well,
Speaker 2: let me ask you something. Okay, do you have a
Speaker 2: signature like sound? Do you have a signature like growl?
Speaker 8: Oh?
Speaker 1: That's actually very funny because there's this kid that I
Speaker 1: work with and he thinks he invented the snarl, the
Speaker 1: kind of snarl, and and it's very funny to hear
Speaker 1: him talk about it because he thinks he's absolutely everything.
Speaker 1: And I just sit there and just kind of listen.
Speaker 1: It's more of a psychology project than anything, because I
Speaker 1: don't like the kid. But I hang out with him
Speaker 1: to get inside of his head and see how he's thinking.
Speaker 7: Fun.
Speaker 2: Wait, wait, hold on, you I know a lot of information,
Speaker 2: all right. So this is a coworker of yours. Yes,
Speaker 2: and you and you think and you don't like him
Speaker 2: because he thinks he's the ship and that he invented
Speaker 2: the snorrel. Yeah, we all know he did not invent
Speaker 2: the snorl.
Speaker 1: Yeah. He he acts as if he's the center of attention.
Speaker 2: But so but you give him attention and be his
Speaker 2: friend because you want in on the side. You you
Speaker 2: want to know what he's doing, You want to know
Speaker 2: what he's thinking.
Speaker 1: Exactly.
Speaker 2: What is this thirst for knowledge come from? Why do
Speaker 2: you want those?
Speaker 1: It comes from the fact that I really like just
Speaker 1: about everybody, and I try to give everybody a chance.
Speaker 1: And I tried to give him a chance. And then
Speaker 1: when I went over to his house, I kind of
Speaker 1: realized how much the pompous person this man is. And
Speaker 1: so in turn, I decided, you know what, I'm not
Speaker 1: going to mention to him that he sucks. I'm going
Speaker 1: to take all of the all of the lies and
Speaker 1: all the hateful rumors that he's spreading and instead I'm
Speaker 1: going to repeat them back to the people that he's
Speaker 1: spreading them about. And then at the end of the year,
Speaker 1: we're gonna we're going to see what happens if he
Speaker 1: makes it.
Speaker 2: What do you mean if he makes it?
Speaker 12: Because the other day.
Speaker 1: I work I work at I work in this area
Speaker 1: with chainsaws, and he bought his own chainsaw so that
Speaker 1: he can do all sorts of things like reving it
Speaker 1: really loud and all that kind of stuff, which is
Speaker 1: really bad for it.
Speaker 4: And so.
Speaker 1: The other day I caught him swinging like two feet
Speaker 1: in front of customer spaces, which is a little bit
Speaker 1: of an issue because if that drops on somebody, then
Speaker 1: it's the haunted houses issue, and so also.
Speaker 2: That person's issue. I would say, yeah, yeah.
Speaker 1: And so he's been pulled multiple times not to do that,
Speaker 1: not not only by like me, but by the other
Speaker 1: like heads of like training, and and he continues to
Speaker 1: do it, and so they're threatening to basically let him
Speaker 1: not use his chainsaw, and he said that if they
Speaker 1: take away his chainsaw, he's just gonna quit.
Speaker 2: So yeah, yeah, this is terrifying. What what? How many?
Speaker 7: This is?
Speaker 13: This?
Speaker 2: This is I might be the most warnings anyone has
Speaker 2: ever gotten to not throw a chainsaw at people at people.
Speaker 1: Yes, welcome to Hunted House season.
Speaker 11: It's a lot.
Speaker 1: Especially Yeah.
Speaker 2: Wait, so you're telling me this man is swinging on
Speaker 2: a live chainsaw two feet in front of people.
Speaker 7: Yeah, and without warned.
Speaker 2: All right, if you do that again, then you get
Speaker 2: a strike. And then if you do it, if you throw,
Speaker 2: if you shove a chainsaw in someone's face a second time,
Speaker 2: we will give you a second strike. And if you
Speaker 2: get five strikes, we're taking away your chainsaw.
Speaker 11: Basically.
Speaker 1: Yeah, so like, well, so he's had a talk with
Speaker 1: it's been two talks now with like the head of
Speaker 1: like the security training chainsaw team. He's had two talks
Speaker 1: with him about this issue. And I sat in there, like,
Speaker 1: I sat in his area and watched him do his
Speaker 1: scare him millings that I'm there, and I saw him
Speaker 1: do it like and commented on it like five other times,
Speaker 1: and he still continued to do it because.
Speaker 2: I'm sorry, you say, the chainsaw training team.
Speaker 1: Yeah, the entire team.
Speaker 2: There's entire team that just does chainsaws.
Speaker 1: There's there's one guy and then like security that kind
Speaker 1: of watches over. But it's mainly just like the one,
Speaker 1: the one guy.
Speaker 2: I'm so bad. How the fuck has he gone this
Speaker 2: long able to do this? Like that's that? I almost
Speaker 2: I don't not like him. I mean, he's a fucking
Speaker 2: crazy person. But the management, everyone and everyone involved in
Speaker 2: this haunted everyone involved in this haunted house is insane.
Speaker 2: What the hell are they doing? How are they allowing
Speaker 2: this to happen? Well, it's like you guy's gonna rich
Speaker 2: someone in half exactly.
Speaker 1: Well, we told him he could do it, and like
Speaker 1: there's no like chain on it, which is like the
Speaker 1: big part. But we told him he could do it
Speaker 1: if he's standing far enough away from people, like at
Speaker 1: least ten feet and standing like against like a building
Speaker 1: that way, like you can at least speak stable when
Speaker 1: doing it, but just change a blade. No, there's so
Speaker 1: there's like a there's like the metal part. There's no
Speaker 1: like actual saw like turning song.
Speaker 2: So if it hits, if let's say he hits someone,
Speaker 2: are they gonna fucking die? Are they gonna get cut?
Speaker 1: If he hits somebody, he could seriously hurt somebody.
Speaker 2: Jesus Christ. Yeah, all right, so you're gonna you're gonna
Speaker 2: socially sort of high school drama this man out of
Speaker 2: murdering people with a chainsaw.
Speaker 11: Yeah.
Speaker 12: And you know what's funny about this, this this man
Speaker 12: is almost in his thirties yet still talk shit like
Speaker 12: a high schooler, and most.
Speaker 2: Of the chain saw the command the thirties. Yeah, tell
Speaker 2: this Manda social distance.
Speaker 1: I will, oh, I will.
Speaker 2: Okay, So your grand plan? Can I give you a
Speaker 2: different Can I suggest a different grand plan? And look,
Speaker 2: I know you're gonna do what you're gonna.
Speaker 7: Do, but.
Speaker 2: Can I suggest alerting the highest power possible within the
Speaker 2: Haunted House chain of command about a person, you know,
Speaker 2: throwing a live chainsaw around the people that he shouldn't
Speaker 2: be doing. I think you should do that. I think
Speaker 2: that I would. I think that that would be a
Speaker 2: much more prompt and effective solution over spreading rumors about
Speaker 2: this guy.
Speaker 1: Oh yeah, no, And it's it's definitely not like me
Speaker 1: spreading rumors about him. It's him spreading rumors about other
Speaker 1: people that I just kind of sit there and listen on.
Speaker 1: But I definitely like mention it too.
Speaker 2: You are you're you're concerningly unconcerned with the change. You're
Speaker 2: concerningly unconcerned with the chainsaw aspect of of this it's.
Speaker 8: Situations very strange.
Speaker 1: It's like, I I do know that because he's been
Speaker 1: doing it for years, Like we've we've been doing this
Speaker 1: line of work for years. So like it doesn't it
Speaker 1: doesn't like scare me that he doesn't know what he's doing,
Speaker 1: because I know that he knows what he's doing and
Speaker 1: he's done it for the years prior.
Speaker 11: But it's just like he.
Speaker 1: Continues to do the wrong thing, especially now since there's
Speaker 1: all these guidelines and restrictions.
Speaker 11: And all that kind of stuff, and.
Speaker 1: And it's yeah, so it's just getting to a point
Speaker 1: where it's like now he's trying to get really testy
Speaker 1: with it. He's kind of testing the limits on how
Speaker 1: close he can get, how yeah, how scary he can
Speaker 1: try to act, how over the top he can try
Speaker 1: to be.
Speaker 2: Yeah, I you know, I don't like this guy either,
Speaker 2: I'll sign yeah, yeah.
Speaker 1: I really don't like him. And he has just been
Speaker 1: like consistently, like he told me, he told me something
Speaker 1: about like my boss, that he made my boss like
Speaker 1: somebody who I've known for like two years. He told
Speaker 1: me that he made him cry at auditions and that
Speaker 1: he's known him for years. Although he couldn't even mention
Speaker 1: to me his name because he didn't know it.
Speaker 2: What does someone have to do to make the owner
Speaker 2: of a haunted house cry?
Speaker 1: I have no idea. This man just told me he
Speaker 1: came up with some like he called me some like
Speaker 1: bullshit one liner that I've said in my like first
Speaker 1: year haunting it's nothing special. And then he told me
Speaker 1: that that made him cry, And I was like, I
Speaker 1: don't know what kind of jaded reality you live in,
Speaker 1: but that is just that is the absolute opposite of
Speaker 1: the truth.
Speaker 2: I'm loving discovering how much like high school drama clubs,
Speaker 2: haunted houses are.
Speaker 1: Oh, it's fantastic. We can get into it.
Speaker 11: Sure, I don't.
Speaker 4: I don't.
Speaker 2: I think I think that would have to be an
Speaker 2: entire week of streams to uncover all these stories.
Speaker 1: But honestly, you let me know, like a date in
Speaker 1: the time, we'll plan something. I'll like, I'll like call in.
Speaker 1: We'll make it like a podcast where we just talk
Speaker 1: about hunted house drama and what crazy things go on
Speaker 1: in the hot community.
Speaker 2: Oh, I'd love to hear that maybe on maybe on Halloween.
Speaker 1: I would love that.
Speaker 2: What'd you say your name was?
Speaker 1: I'm just gonna go with Charles. We talked before, but
Speaker 1: since I've disclosed some information, I'm gonna say my name
Speaker 1: is Charles.
Speaker 2: Well all right, spooky Charles. Thank you, thank you for
Speaker 2: calling in and sharing that with us.
Speaker 1: Thank you for having me.
Speaker 2: Absolutely take take care and stay away from live chainsaws.
Speaker 1: I will definitely try my my heart.
Speaker 2: Please do all right, man, take care of have a
Speaker 2: good name.
Speaker 7: Have a good one.
Speaker 1: Bye.
Speaker 2: The guy's a psychopath, the chainsaw man. That's the most
Speaker 2: dangerous theater kid of all time. That's how that's how
Speaker 2: bad it can get, ladies and gentlemen. And next time
Speaker 2: you see someone killing it at a high school play
Speaker 2: or a high school musical or whatever, they could one
Speaker 2: day turn into a thirty year old chainsaw wielding man
Speaker 2: and kill people.
Speaker 14: Call from Rebecca, Rebecca, I need.
Speaker 4: You to help me.
Speaker 14: Oh my god.
Speaker 4: Okay, wait, why are you?
Speaker 2: Why are you? You seem a little flustered. You seem
Speaker 2: a little flustered.
Speaker 1: A little bit.
Speaker 2: I can give you some time, you see, sure?
Speaker 14: Yeah, yeah, I talked to you before. This is like
Speaker 14: I can talk of you.
Speaker 2: What what did we talk about.
Speaker 14: Before I painted a bird bath?
Speaker 2: It was like a yes, yes, yes, yes, yes, yes
Speaker 2: I remember this. You painted a bird bath for the
Speaker 2: birds I finished. Are the birds bathing in it right now?
Speaker 14: It's still in my kitchen?
Speaker 2: What would you do if you saw birds, you know
Speaker 2: how there's like make out hill or whatever?
Speaker 14: Mm hmm.
Speaker 2: What would you do if your bird bath became a
Speaker 2: central hub for birds in your area to have forbidden sex?
Speaker 2: Would you be alright with that? Or would you?
Speaker 14: Yeah, as long as you pay admission, Yeah, I'm.
Speaker 2: Totally you're not concerned with the moral implications of it.
Speaker 14: I mean being safe about it?
Speaker 4: No, a bit.
Speaker 2: What does it mean to be safe about it?
Speaker 14: I mean as long as they're not maybe a bunch
Speaker 14: of baby birds in my house?
Speaker 2: You know what you could do? What you could provide
Speaker 2: a little dispenser or something like that. M h free
Speaker 2: free uh free bird condoms, tiny little uh for a cute, little,
Speaker 2: tiny little bird penis.
Speaker 14: The birds actually have those. Say it again, the birds
Speaker 14: actually have like tiny.
Speaker 2: Little well, they're definitely they've got to be well, they're well, okay,
Speaker 2: so birds are smaller than humans. So they're penises would
Speaker 2: I guess proportionately be smaller than that of a human
Speaker 2: Penis's true, they probably have smaller penises now what would
Speaker 2: now what would you do if.
Speaker 1: It got?
Speaker 2: All right? So, all right, so you start letting birds
Speaker 2: have sex in your backyard, but then within your backyard
Speaker 2: becomes known as a place where all sin.
Speaker 4: Is on.
Speaker 14: Mm hmmm what with the birds?
Speaker 2: So then so then okay, so then people are like, well, well, okay,
Speaker 2: why don't we go why don't we start dealing drugs here?
Speaker 2: And then this becomes kind of the spot, you know,
Speaker 2: this becomes kind of the bird bath street corner.
Speaker 14: Yeah, I mean, we'll be honest, that's not that's not
Speaker 14: too far from how am I parking lot is?
Speaker 2: Would you would you? Would you try to take a cut?
Speaker 4: Oh?
Speaker 11: Drug money?
Speaker 8: No? Yeah?
Speaker 2: What if it what if it was more of like
Speaker 2: a brothel situation?
Speaker 8: I don't need people?
Speaker 2: What you know, were male birds paid or or female
Speaker 2: birds or people paid to have sex with not well
Speaker 2: not people. That would actually be pretty bad. If people
Speaker 2: came to the bird bath and paid you money to
Speaker 2: have sex with.
Speaker 14: Your birds, that that's where we cross the line.
Speaker 2: That would be Yeah, that would be across the line.
Speaker 14: Answer your question.
Speaker 2: You can ask me anything you want.
Speaker 5: Rebecca, how are you?
Speaker 1: How have you?
Speaker 2: Then?
Speaker 14: It's been a lot since I've watched your stream.
Speaker 2: I'm okay, I'm all right.
Speaker 14: You know, I'm feeling too confident that.
Speaker 2: What is confidence? Really? Where has confidence got me? It's
Speaker 2: got confidence has gotten me here, Rebecca, It's gotten me
Speaker 2: talking to you wearing a giant green gecko costume in
Speaker 2: the middle of New York City.
Speaker 3: I like it.
Speaker 14: I mean, you have been in New York City. It's
Speaker 14: not too far off.
Speaker 2: You there, could just walk around the streets.
Speaker 3: In New York like this, Yeah, I would.
Speaker 14: Why not?
Speaker 2: Nobody's maybe that's maybe that's what's going and maybe that's
Speaker 2: that's what's next for me is to to do that.
Speaker 14: Actually, like live walking through New York City.
Speaker 3: This is true.
Speaker 1: You should. I don't think anyone's gonna care.
Speaker 14: That's probably not the strangest thing I've ever seen in
Speaker 14: New York City.
Speaker 2: Well, it's happening, Rebecca.
Speaker 3: I'm doing it, okay.
Speaker 14: I would love to see that. I'm actually painting my
Speaker 14: nails green just because you gave me the inspiration for
Speaker 14: green today.
Speaker 2: I'm I'm happy to hear that. I'm happy to hear
Speaker 2: that I was able to inspire Rebecca.
Speaker 11: Mm hmm.
Speaker 2: You seem you seem like you got a good life
Speaker 2: and and I love you too to the moon and
Speaker 2: the stars and and uh, you know, good luck with
Speaker 2: your bird bathing business. And I'll talk to you soon.
Speaker 14: Okay, good night, Rebecca, Hey, goodnight.
Speaker 4: M M.
Speaker 2: Do you like hen Ti? I used to when I
Speaker 2: was I've grown out of hen Tie, but I really
Speaker 2: liked when I like when I was like in middle
Speaker 2: school and I first kind of started getting into porn.
Speaker 2: I was into HENTI like I would Google search, like
Speaker 2: Samus Aaron from Brawl from Super Smash Brothers Naked, but
Speaker 2: I but not since.
Speaker 5: Now come from James, James, James can fire me?
Speaker 4: James? Are you there?
Speaker 10: Yes, I am here.
Speaker 4: What's up? Best? That's gone?
Speaker 10: I'm doing okay. You scare the ship out of me?
Speaker 7: Though?
Speaker 4: Why did I scare the ship out of you?
Speaker 10: Because you're very quiet and I did not expect this.
Speaker 4: Why is it more scary that I'm quiet than if
Speaker 4: I were allowed.
Speaker 10: I am here in my dark basement all alone.
Speaker 4: Why are you alone in your basement right now?
Speaker 10: That's because that's where my room is and my brother
Speaker 10: is not here at the moment.
Speaker 4: Do you like living in your basement?
Speaker 10: I mean it's pretty cool, like, but The main problem
Speaker 10: is at the temperature. In the winter, it's it's not
Speaker 10: as a fuck, But in the summer it's cold. And
Speaker 10: I'm phrasing all the time.
Speaker 4: Why why is it hot in the winter and gold
Speaker 4: in the summer?
Speaker 10: There is right next to my room.
Speaker 4: I think you need to get out of there. I
Speaker 4: think you need to move. I think you gotta go
Speaker 4: sowhere else.
Speaker 10: My way I could, but with the current way that
Speaker 10: my college is going through, I'm living with my parents.
Speaker 4: I think you should drop out of college and I
Speaker 4: think that you should move somewhere into Wait, what are
Speaker 4: you going to college for?
Speaker 7: Uh?
Speaker 10: Network is bature list?
Speaker 4: You work?
Speaker 10: What I plan on being a network is bature list?
Speaker 4: Oh, duke, are you excited to do that?
Speaker 10: I mean, yeah, I've always wanted to be able to
Speaker 10: work with the computers ever since I was little. And yeah,
Speaker 10: it's just something i'd be able to do. Only go
Speaker 10: to college for two years, just be over and done
Speaker 10: with it.
Speaker 4: That's that sounds kind of cool.
Speaker 10: Then it kind of isn't.
Speaker 4: But you know, I mean, it's cool except for the
Speaker 4: park where you have to live in in a cold,
Speaker 4: dark basement the entire time.
Speaker 10: I mean it doesn't have to be dark. I just
Speaker 10: have to driven on the light.
Speaker 4: Do you want to draw the light?
Speaker 7: Yeah?
Speaker 3: Get me, let me say.
Speaker 7: The lights on?
Speaker 2: Mm hmmm, James, what how long were you in the
Speaker 2: dark before? How long were you in the dark before that?
Speaker 7: It's but ten, probably about maybe an hour or two.
Speaker 7: I'm just here sitting on my computer.
Speaker 2: What were you doing in the dark.
Speaker 7: I'm just hearing at my computer. Why would I just
Speaker 7: trying to avoid wasting as much electricity as I need?
Speaker 7: I don't need to really see all that much.
Speaker 2: God, damn it. Do you know the big corporations out
Speaker 2: here using up all of our petroleum and shit have
Speaker 2: convinced you that you need to suffer and sit in
Speaker 2: the dark for our environment. It's really it's really, it's
Speaker 2: really just sad.
Speaker 7: I don't think it's an environment. We just fucking just
Speaker 7: try to avoid wasting money. Helps me not get yelled at.
Speaker 2: I think lights should be free, That's how God intended it.
Speaker 7: That would be awesome if they were free. I swear
Speaker 7: every time I turn on this like lamp on my desk,
Speaker 7: I feel like I'm throwing one hundred dollars down the drain.
Speaker 2: I don't think it should cost that much to turn
Speaker 2: on your lamp. But that's just me.
Speaker 7: I don't I don't think it is. I just assume
Speaker 7: it is.
Speaker 2: Hey, there's a fucking parade. Check that out. You see this?
Speaker 2: You see this parade?
Speaker 7: They're what are they parading for? Where's the band? I
Speaker 7: want to band in the parade?
Speaker 2: I want to I want to ban I want to
Speaker 2: band in the parade too.
Speaker 7: I'd be pretty epic. I mean, what are they even
Speaker 7: parading for? Is it like? It'd be pretty I think
Speaker 7: they're all pink balloons. So maybe cancer. I don't know,
Speaker 7: that's a good guess you're going. I think ship they're
Speaker 7: turning blue now, fuck, I don't know.
Speaker 2: Maybe it's I mean, but there's a there's a blue cancer.
Speaker 7: Is it? Is that like for guy cancer or something?
Speaker 2: Uh? Well, now there's green. Hey, there's it's green.
Speaker 7: Hey, it's it's for it's for gecko.
Speaker 2: Cancer, for gecko cancer.
Speaker 7: Spread aware.
Speaker 2: Yeah of that. Not many people know about it because
Speaker 2: it doesn't exist. And I think that something not existing
Speaker 2: is not a good excuse for people to not be
Speaker 2: aware of it.
Speaker 7: I imagine there's there would be some sort of like
Speaker 7: cancer and gets because like you know dogs could get cancer.
Speaker 2: You know, now I'm thinking about dogs with cancer, James.
Speaker 2: I and now and now I'm thinking about you sitting
Speaker 2: in your dark basement thinking about dogs with cancer.
Speaker 7: It's not dark anymore, but yeah.
Speaker 2: Can you turn the light back off?
Speaker 7: Yeah, give me a moment.
Speaker 4: Okay, that light the back off, James. Yes, I think
Speaker 4: that a dog having cancer is very sad.
Speaker 10: It's very sad. It's very depressing.
Speaker 4: Yeah, you know, I'm thinking about the family that loved
Speaker 4: the dog.
Speaker 3: You know, my one of my mom's is best friends.
Speaker 3: I think her dog it might have been cancer, it
Speaker 3: might have been something else. I think it was cancer
Speaker 3: because he was struggling to like drink and eat. You
Speaker 3: want to eat very much, you know. I was kind
Speaker 3: of depressing with her or that whole ordeal.
Speaker 4: I'm thinking about the dog going.
Speaker 10: Mm hmmm, what do do do dog to make that noise?
Speaker 5: Mm hmmm.
Speaker 4: Probably not. They probably make a less stupid version of
Speaker 4: that noise.
Speaker 8: What?
Speaker 7: Okay? All right?
Speaker 4: You want to talk? You wanna.
Speaker 8: What?
Speaker 4: What should we do now?
Speaker 10: I don't know what you are like.
Speaker 4: I don't know.
Speaker 10: I feel bad for everybody listening and talking about dead dogs.
Speaker 7: Want to talk at something positive.
Speaker 4: Okay, I agree, I'm sorry I triggered. Anyone wants to
Speaker 4: talk with the dog thing.
Speaker 10: I apologize, dude, yeah, and I feel bad.
Speaker 4: James. You know what, man, I appreciate you calling in,
Speaker 4: and I want to say one thing. Do you You
Speaker 4: never have to apologize to me ever?
Speaker 10: But what ado to like to do?
Speaker 4: Something mean?
Speaker 8: Like?
Speaker 7: Uh? I don't know, it's fun like your get gos
Speaker 7: either or something.
Speaker 4: I'll accept it as the events that are current unfolding
Speaker 4: in my life and I will stoically dredg forward whether
Speaker 4: or not you offer me an apology.
Speaker 10: Okay, I love you, James, I love you too. Get
Speaker 10: I hope we get me again another time.
Speaker 4: Absolutely, have a good night.
Speaker 10: You do a good night, buddy.
Speaker 2: Hey Hey, hey, it's me again. It's Lyle. It's the GEK.
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Speaker 5: Call from Live.
Speaker 2: Liz.
Speaker 3: Yes, what are you?
Speaker 2: What are you doing right now?
Speaker 15: I'm laying in bed.
Speaker 2: Do you think are you? Are you ridiculous?
Speaker 15: Probably not.
Speaker 1: Interesting, pretty conventional.
Speaker 2: What I mean, what's the least ridiculous thing about you?
Speaker 2: What do you think is the most normal thing that
Speaker 2: you do?
Speaker 14: God, what's the most normal thing?
Speaker 15: I don't.
Speaker 6: I like trash TV?
Speaker 8: Is that?
Speaker 2: What is trash TV?
Speaker 15: Like reality TV?
Speaker 4: Is that?
Speaker 2: I guess that's pretty much like.
Speaker 15: White Girls it is.
Speaker 2: That's the most normal thing that you do?
Speaker 15: Like, I guess depends what you mean by normal. Like
Speaker 15: I breathe and I eat, that's pretty normal.
Speaker 2: That is pretty normal. I would say that's more normal
Speaker 2: than watching TV. Yeah, so in a way, what is so?
Speaker 2: Maybe do you think that watching trash TV is maybe
Speaker 2: the most ridiculous thing that you do? No, what is
Speaker 2: the most ridiculous thing that you do?
Speaker 15: I don't do anything ridiculous. I don't know, you know,
Speaker 15: everything I do is pretty normal.
Speaker 4: Kah.
Speaker 2: I was thinking about this the other day. I think
Speaker 2: it might be possible that someone can be so normal,
Speaker 2: someone can be so Yeah, that's it's almost a little
Speaker 2: ridiculous how normal you are.
Speaker 15: Yeah, it's just hard because anything that I would have
Speaker 15: done that would seem like odd is just like I
Speaker 15: can't do it with COVID.
Speaker 2: All right, what's the worst what is the.
Speaker 7: What?
Speaker 2: Okay, what what ridiculous thing would you want to do
Speaker 2: if you had COVID? If you did there was no COVID.
Speaker 8: I don't know.
Speaker 15: Before COVID I was. I was taking some burlesque classes
Speaker 15: and I learned how to tassle the world.
Speaker 2: That's ridiculous.
Speaker 15: Yeah, but I mean I guess I still technically can,
Speaker 15: but I can't pursue that avenue of performance.
Speaker 2: I mean well, I mean well, I mean you don't
Speaker 2: need to. I mean, do you ever do you ever
Speaker 2: just do that, like just alone? Yeah, that's a little
Speaker 2: ridiculous to just tassle twirl in your house alone.
Speaker 15: I've only done that like one that the frequency is irrelevant.
Speaker 4: Yea.
Speaker 15: So because of that one instance, I am now ridiculous.
Speaker 2: I'm not, No, I'm just saying that that is that
Speaker 2: one instance is might is a ridiculous thing that you
Speaker 2: have done.
Speaker 8: Mm hmm.
Speaker 2: So lazy. I want you to know that if you
Speaker 2: wanted to, and it doesn't sound like you want to,
Speaker 2: but you could be ridiculous.
Speaker 1: I could be.
Speaker 2: Yes, Wow, what are you doing right now?
Speaker 9: Uh?
Speaker 15: I'm trying to figure out what I want to eat
Speaker 15: for dinners? This is this is what I wanted to talk.
Speaker 1: To you about.
Speaker 15: So I've been talking to this guy I met through tender,
Speaker 15: but he seems like really insecure about his body and
Speaker 15: is on some weird like grilled chicken hype or I
Speaker 15: guess he eats like exclusively grilled chicken and he's coming
Speaker 15: over and like bringing his fucking chicken, but I just
Speaker 15: want pizza.
Speaker 14: But he's like so.
Speaker 15: Insecure about himself that I feel like really uncomfortable eating
Speaker 15: pizza around him.
Speaker 2: Yeah, I think I don't think you should go on
Speaker 2: the date with this guy.
Speaker 15: Well, he's like, it's not really a date. We're gonna
Speaker 15: just watch a documentary. I guess it's kind of a
Speaker 15: date modern date.
Speaker 2: I don't think you should see this guy because you
Speaker 2: already because I think that because I think that if
Speaker 2: you disagree with him on something, as you know, sort
Speaker 2: of still I don't.
Speaker 15: He wants to be healthier, and like I want to
Speaker 15: support that, but at the same time, like I've also
Speaker 15: had my own body issues and I feel like him
Speaker 15: constantly talking about it and like bringing his bucking chicken
Speaker 15: over is just like making it.
Speaker 2: Listen, you're already mad at this guy you have you
Speaker 2: haven't even met this guy yet, and you're a kissed off.
Speaker 2: You already don't like him, and you why would you
Speaker 2: go on a date with this guy. You clearly don't
Speaker 2: like it.
Speaker 15: Because I'm lonely.
Speaker 2: That's not a good enough reason, though, is it. No,
Speaker 2: I think you hate this grilled chicken man. I can
Speaker 2: tell in your voice that you really do not like
Speaker 2: this guy. I think that you could find a different
Speaker 2: thing to do to help your loneliness, then to go
Speaker 2: on days so people that you don't like. Do you
Speaker 2: have any friends?
Speaker 15: I don't know how?
Speaker 12: See this is?
Speaker 15: This is, you know, the even bigger problem though.
Speaker 1: I just moved to this.
Speaker 15: New place and I literally don't have friends. I have
Speaker 15: roommates that are international and like actively ignore me.
Speaker 1: And it's COVID.
Speaker 15: What do you have any hobb Like the only people
Speaker 15: have met have been on Tinder.
Speaker 2: Do you have any hobbies?
Speaker 14: I have hobbies?
Speaker 2: Yeah, less duber less or less.
Speaker 1: Yeah.
Speaker 2: Start a b or less club in your city and
Speaker 2: do less do like socially distanced or lesque club. And
Speaker 2: then when you're the head of bur less club, you're
Speaker 2: gonna meet all these other burlesque dancers and you're gonna
Speaker 2: become friends with them. Okay, that's by the way, that's
Speaker 2: an actual suggestion. That's I feel like I have. I
Speaker 2: I actually I actually do believe that the key to
Speaker 2: making friends is to starting clubs, because you literally go
Speaker 2: to meetup dot com and you start a bar less
Speaker 2: group and you go on Facebook and ship and then
Speaker 2: that'll be your friends. I would do that with guys
Speaker 2: that you hate who have grilled chicken, so.
Speaker 14: You start your own clubs.
Speaker 2: Yes, okay, Liz yep, I wish you good luck, and
Speaker 2: I and I and I and I think that you
Speaker 2: should do that. I think, you know, look, it'll be Look,
Speaker 2: it's wait. Look, I'm gonna look. Hanging out with grilled
Speaker 2: chicken guy way easier than starting a bur lesque club
Speaker 2: hundred percent. But you're gonna hate it. You're gonna hate
Speaker 2: every second of it because you hate this guy so
Speaker 2: much and you hate him and you hate his chicken,
Speaker 2: and you want him to die. I can tell. I
Speaker 2: can tell that you are actively wishing for this man's death.
Speaker 2: And I think that instead of doing that, you should
Speaker 2: start up or less club and make new friends. Even
Speaker 2: is it genuine I know, I know which I know
Speaker 2: that this is ridiculous, This is a gecko man on
Speaker 2: the internet telling you do this, But I actually genuinely
Speaker 2: think you should do it because I think you will
Speaker 2: make new friends in this new area.
Speaker 14: All right, I'll give it a shot.
Speaker 2: Alight, I'll talk to you soon.
Speaker 14: Thank you, I.
Speaker 4: Love you too.
Speaker 2: Good Night.
Speaker 5: Home from Logan.
Speaker 8: Logan, Yo therapy.
Speaker 2: What's up, Logan?
Speaker 8: Did I get through my live on the stream?
Speaker 2: Yeah, it doesn't matter whether who's live on the stream
Speaker 2: or just you know. I mean, we can do this.
Speaker 2: We can just be a sorry.
Speaker 8: Yeah, I guess so. I mean, hey, it's probably more
Speaker 8: comfortable for me if we're just in a room. But
Speaker 8: I kind of know i'm live on the stream because
Speaker 8: I was just watching the stream before I called five
Speaker 8: minutes ago. So I'm glad to be on the street.
Speaker 8: But anyways, how's it going?
Speaker 2: Are you ridiculous? Logan?
Speaker 8: You asked that to the last guy, the captain. That's
Speaker 8: the last one I was listening to. I think there
Speaker 8: are many ways that I'm ridiculous. I'm not trying to
Speaker 8: be ridiculous right now, so I hope I'm not coming
Speaker 8: across that way.
Speaker 2: No, that's fine. Look, if you're trying, well, what do
Speaker 2: you what are you like when you are trying to
Speaker 2: be ridiculous? Let's say you wanted to actively be ridiculous.
Speaker 8: I think some of the things that I do can
Speaker 8: be considered ridiculous. Like, for example, you know, the reason
Speaker 8: I'm calling you today might be ridiculous.
Speaker 2: What's the reason you're calling me tonight?
Speaker 8: So the reason I'm calling you is I don't even know,
Speaker 8: Like is this are you? Like? Do you really give
Speaker 8: therapy and advice? Because everything I've seen was people prank
Speaker 8: calling or like you're just kind of struggling with people,
Speaker 8: but I've never really seen much of your show.
Speaker 7: Is this real?
Speaker 8: Like, are people really supposed to call for advice from
Speaker 8: the therapy get Go? Because that's what I'm doing. That
Speaker 8: is that what this is supposed to be about?
Speaker 2: You know, I feel like there's not there is no
Speaker 2: such thing as anything that there is that this is
Speaker 2: supposed to be.
Speaker 8: I can appreciate that. So what I think it should
Speaker 8: be is people who would never actually go to therapy
Speaker 8: and would rather call a guy dressed like a get
Speaker 8: go on the internet and do therapy with him. That's
Speaker 8: what I think it should be about. So that's what
Speaker 8: I wanted to be about for me. So my question
Speaker 8: to my therapist get Go, is about this relationship that
Speaker 8: I'm in right just kind of starting out with this
Speaker 8: girl who I'm really attracted to physically and somewhat emotionally.
Speaker 8: But the difficulty I'm having is that she almost seems
Speaker 8: to have no personality. But I don't believe that she
Speaker 8: doesn't have a personality. I think maybe she's just really
Speaker 8: shy and kind of nervous because we've only been talking
Speaker 8: to each other for a relatively short period of time.
Speaker 8: So how do I know if I should continue to
Speaker 8: invest my time and energy with this human being who
Speaker 8: maybe doesn't even have much of a personality at all.
Speaker 8: And I think that from our short conversation, you can
Speaker 8: tell that I'm interested in people, and interested in people
Speaker 8: who have some substance to them, So how do I
Speaker 8: know what I'm doing?
Speaker 2: So you feel like this person might have some substance
Speaker 2: to that, but that they just haven't revealed it to
Speaker 2: you yet because you're too.
Speaker 8: Shy, correct, Yeah, Yeah, And like, I mean, there's something
Speaker 8: other than the physical attraction that's really attractive here, and
Speaker 8: I don't know exactly what that is, and so I
Speaker 8: kind of want to put in the effort, but I
Speaker 8: don't know if it's worth it, because you know, I've
Speaker 8: been talking to her for like two months, let's say,
Speaker 8: on the phone. Mostly we've met like a handful of times.
Speaker 8: Because of the whole COVID thing, we like, you know,
Speaker 8: haven't really met much, but we've spent quite a bit
Speaker 8: of time on the phone. But I'm constantly carrying the
Speaker 8: conversation and that's not that's not really common for me in.
Speaker 11: The first place.
Speaker 13: But yeah, you know, honestly, yeah, I actually do think that,
Speaker 13: you know, if she's not like, how much do you value.
Speaker 2: Open this in the people that you talk to huge?
Speaker 2: If she's not displaying that, then it sounds like she's
Speaker 2: not displaying the trait that you value. And then, uh,
Speaker 2: I mean if you talked a lot, how if you've
Speaker 2: been talking for like days on the phone and you've
Speaker 2: met in person and you still feel like they haven't
Speaker 2: revealed something to you, then they might just be shy,
Speaker 2: which is fine on them. But I mean, you do
Speaker 2: seem like you're very interested in people, and it does
Speaker 2: seem like you're carrying a brunt of the conversation. I
Speaker 2: don't see why you should expect that to change, you know,
Speaker 2: I think there I think there is like a lot
Speaker 2: that you can gleam out of first impressions you know
Speaker 2: more than you could give. Then I feel like you're
Speaker 2: giving credit.
Speaker 8: To Yeah, I'm kind of worrying that that's exactly what's happening.
Speaker 2: Well, I don't think you should be worried. I mean,
Speaker 2: it's just you know, I mean, look, at the end
Speaker 2: of the day, if you're just physically attracted to this person,
Speaker 2: then you know, I mean, you don't have to date
Speaker 2: them as long as you're you're clear about your intentions
Speaker 2: and her intentions match up with yours and everyone's on
Speaker 2: the same page. You know, you could you could say
Speaker 2: that up.
Speaker 8: Yeah, but I'm not interested in that, like at all,
Speaker 8: Like I want a real relationship. But yeah, what I
Speaker 8: mean when I say that I'm worried about I'm worried
Speaker 8: that I that that that might be what I'm doing.
Speaker 8: And you kind of mentioned that, you know, there's no
Speaker 8: real reason that I would expect I should expect them
Speaker 8: to change if that's if they're kind of showing me
Speaker 8: who they are. And I feel I think I might
Speaker 8: be secretly kind of hoping that this is going to
Speaker 8: change over time, and I honestly believe that it might.
Speaker 8: But I don't know.
Speaker 4: I don't know, dude.
Speaker 2: I almost I almost feel like this is like a
Speaker 2: microcosm for even something that would happen like later in relationships,
Speaker 2: you know, where you're like, yeah, so you're like dating
Speaker 2: someone and you're like, well, once I marry them, I
Speaker 2: can change this about them, or like maybe if I wait,
Speaker 2: they'll change, you know. I mean this probably happens to
Speaker 2: people who are like, you know, deep into relationships. It's
Speaker 2: just like you're you're projecting your expectations onto this person
Speaker 2: as opposed to seeing them for who they're showing you,
Speaker 2: who they are shoving to you themselves to be.
Speaker 8: Yeah, which I think might be an accurate and accurate
Speaker 8: criticism to how I maybe approach relationships generally. I think
Speaker 8: that I think that might be accurate.
Speaker 2: Yeah, But I mean, look, keep it's good. I think
Speaker 2: it's good that you know what you want, you know
Speaker 2: what you value. That's more. That's more than a lot
Speaker 2: of a lot of people can say. You know, so
Speaker 2: like look look out for that, look out for like
Speaker 2: when you're having conversations with people, you know this is good.
Speaker 2: This allows you to filter out through people quickly who
Speaker 2: you might not be compatible with. And it's good for
Speaker 2: her too, because you know she doesn't want to waste
Speaker 2: her time. You know, you don't want to waste her time.
Speaker 2: You know, if you guys aren't compatible, you're not compatible,
Speaker 2: you don't have to keep waiting, you know. So I
Speaker 2: would just keep going on on more dates and eventually,
Speaker 2: you know, through sheer frequency, you will find someone who
Speaker 2: matches up with with what you're looking for.
Speaker 8: Yeah, hopefully. It's tricky. It's uh tricky for all the
Speaker 8: all of all of the stars to align. You know,
Speaker 8: it's really tricky because I've been with several you know,
Speaker 8: I've been single for about too maybe two years, two
Speaker 8: or two and a half years, let's say, And I've
Speaker 8: dated quite a bit, and I've tried to kind of
Speaker 8: expand my horizons with who I'm dating and you know,
Speaker 8: give a more broad fish with a bigger net, let's say.
Speaker 2: And yeah, you're trying to open up your sort of
Speaker 2: what what it is you're looking for, you know, the
Speaker 2: type of person, you.
Speaker 8: Know, more people, the opportunity to try and you know,
Speaker 8: to see what, yeah, to give like you know, because
Speaker 8: I think before in my earlier in life, I was
Speaker 8: very specific as to what I thought I wanted, and
Speaker 8: I wouldn't really date anyone outside of that kind of demographic,
Speaker 8: let's call it. So recently, I've been trying to, like,
Speaker 8: you know, give give more of a chance to everyone
Speaker 8: to see if maybe I do like things that maybe
Speaker 8: I didn't think that I would. And you know what
Speaker 8: I found was that, uh, there's been a few people
Speaker 8: that I get along with and click with and mesh
Speaker 8: with personality wise, but the physical aspect is missing a
Speaker 8: lot of the time. Sure, and it may sound superficial
Speaker 8: to say it, but like with this girl, like the
Speaker 8: physical is there like one hundred percent for both of us,
Speaker 8: Like we're both super attracted to each other, and I
Speaker 8: think it's more than just a physical like there's there's
Speaker 8: obviously more than that, because I've also been with people
Speaker 8: that were like gorgeous and like it was just physical
Speaker 8: and it didn't work, Like my heart wasn't in it
Speaker 8: and it was just not happening, like I couldn't even
Speaker 8: continue it, like even just as like friends with benefits
Speaker 8: type of thing, I'm just not interested. And that may
Speaker 8: not be common to hear from a guide, but it's
Speaker 8: the case.
Speaker 2: So you know, I also, I'll say I'll I'll say
Speaker 2: this might being on popular opinion, I don't think that
Speaker 2: there's anything wrong with valuing physical attraction. I don't think
Speaker 2: there's anything inherently wrong with valuing physical attraction, So you know,
Speaker 2: I mean, but but it also sounds like I still
Speaker 2: I wouldn't hold that for this pert. I feel like,
Speaker 2: though I do feel like, you know, physical, if all
Speaker 2: you value is physical attraction, that's not going to be
Speaker 2: conducive to a long term yeah relationship.
Speaker 8: But yeah, but I'm saying that there must be even
Speaker 8: though I don't really know what it is and kind
Speaker 8: of really put my finger on it. There is certainly
Speaker 8: more than just physical here. But I don't know exactly
Speaker 8: what that is. But and I am somewhat bothered by
Speaker 8: the one sidedness of the whole social interaction type of
Speaker 8: like the whole conversation, and you know, I'm put off
Speaker 8: by that. But yeah, I don't know, it's not it's
Speaker 8: not only physical. Like she's a really good person, you know,
Speaker 8: she's a.
Speaker 2: Could be a cool person, and you know, you can
Speaker 2: like who they are, but they're not necessarily romantically compatible
Speaker 2: with you.
Speaker 8: Yeah, all right, Well, yeah that's cool. I think you
Speaker 8: definitely confirmed a lot of stuff more than yeah.
Speaker 2: I mean, we can do we can do so anyway, Yeah,
Speaker 2: we can do that, or we can do you know,
Speaker 2: fart and voices and ship. That's I guess that's the stream.
Speaker 8: Interesting, very interesting. Do your stream stay up forever on
Speaker 8: your profile?
Speaker 4: Uh?
Speaker 2: Yeah, well I stream on Reddit and then I stream
Speaker 2: on Twitch. That's where I mainly have been doing my streams.
Speaker 8: It's an interesting dynamic, the streaming. I've done it a
Speaker 8: couple of times myself just to see what it is,
Speaker 8: and I think a lot of what it is is
Speaker 8: just people looking like I think it's a lot of
Speaker 8: what streaming is aside from the whole like people like
Speaker 8: selling their bodies and doing video games. I think a
Speaker 8: lot of it is just people looking for some kind
Speaker 8: of social outlet, like nerds and introverts looking for a
Speaker 8: social outlet.
Speaker 2: It definitely can be I mean, I mean, I guess
Speaker 2: that's the name of the subredd is distant socializing. But
Speaker 2: it can be a lot of things. It can just
Speaker 2: be like you know, media, like I don't know, I
Speaker 2: don't know streaming anymore nerds than introverts looking for a
Speaker 2: social outlet than like the Tonight Show is you know,
Speaker 2: watch a guy that you kind of feel like you know,
Speaker 2: because you've seen them on TV.
Speaker 8: Yeah, but with like, I mean, your streams are pretty
Speaker 8: popular in the comments go absolutely ballistic, so I'm sure
Speaker 8: you don't read them. But like, I've streamed a few
Speaker 8: times and have had pretty legitimate interactions with people just
Speaker 8: through the comments. And it's not it's not like just
Speaker 8: one side. It's like the Tonight.
Speaker 7: Show, will you or whatever?
Speaker 8: And you know what, It's interestingly enough, many of them
Speaker 8: have actually messaged me privately after and I've kind of
Speaker 8: developed some relationships through through streaming, which is interesting.
Speaker 2: But yeah, well, man, dude, thank you for calling in
Speaker 2: and I appreciate you you being open with us man
Speaker 2: and uh, and I wish you the best of luck
Speaker 2: in the future.
Speaker 8: Cheers. Thank you for the advice.
Speaker 2: Absolutely man. You take care. Logan, I love you very much.
Speaker 8: We'll be too, Man, I'm a good night. I'll be
Speaker 8: watching it.
Speaker 2: Thanks, Brian, take care.
Speaker 5: But oh.
Speaker 11: How often Raymond?
Speaker 7: Raymond, what's up?
Speaker 5: Uh?
Speaker 2: You know, not a whole lot?
Speaker 11: No, this is uh the get go right.
Speaker 2: Yes, and this is the one and only.
Speaker 11: And this is Raymond.
Speaker 7: M h.
Speaker 2: What are you doing right now? Raymond?
Speaker 11: I'm sitting in my room drawing.
Speaker 2: What do you what are you drawing?
Speaker 11: I like to draw like geometric art mixed with like
Speaker 11: arctic swirld. I'm not I'm not like A.
Speaker 4: Yeah, I'm sorry.
Speaker 2: What you're gonna say?
Speaker 11: Oh, I'm not like A. I do art in my
Speaker 11: free time, you know. I'm not like A. I don't
Speaker 11: I don't go to art school or nothing.
Speaker 2: I think, well, well, what do you mean by your
Speaker 2: not like A what? Well, what's the end of that sentence?
Speaker 11: Oh, I'm not a professional. I don't like. I don't like.
Speaker 11: I don't know what type of paint brush to use,
Speaker 11: you know, I just I just swing it.
Speaker 2: I'm saying, thing, though, is there a type of paint brush?
Speaker 2: Why does that matter? The type of paint brushes?
Speaker 11: Not?
Speaker 4: What doesn't?
Speaker 2: I feel like a certain point, the mediums and the
Speaker 2: brushes and the whatever don't matter. All the matters is
Speaker 2: the final thing that you put out.
Speaker 11: Yeah, but I feel like that community is just so guarded,
Speaker 11: you know, like it's like, oh, you have to go
Speaker 11: to college to be an artist, you know.
Speaker 2: So I'm not what do you want to What do
Speaker 2: you want to do in terms of art?
Speaker 11: You know, as far as like my my art, my
Speaker 11: physical art, not too much.
Speaker 7: I do.
Speaker 11: I did start a screen printing company.
Speaker 7: Which is pretty cool.
Speaker 11: But I would say I take music even more seriously.
Speaker 11: But I have a good career right now? Well, I
Speaker 11: I honestly like, I don't. I don't want to like
Speaker 11: get myself into any trouble. So I'll just say that
Speaker 11: I have a I have a good job, very professional job,
Speaker 11: one that I work very hard for. Is that okay?
Speaker 2: Sure?
Speaker 7: Okay, thank you?
Speaker 2: I can I ask you something?
Speaker 7: Sure?
Speaker 2: Are you ridiculous?
Speaker 7: Well?
Speaker 11: Maybe I don't want to be the judge of that.
Speaker 2: All right, what do you think might be ridiculous about you?
Speaker 11: I'm kind of like a halfway hermit. This is this
Speaker 11: is like the first personal conversation I've had with anybody
Speaker 11: in like a year. I keep everything very professional.
Speaker 2: Really, this is the this is the most personal conversation
Speaker 2: you've had in a year.
Speaker 11: Probably, yes, unless I'm talking to maybe like the Starbucks
Speaker 11: lady or something.
Speaker 2: You know, right, but you don't really, I mean, does
Speaker 2: that bother you? Are you trying to have more personal conversations?
Speaker 8: Uh?
Speaker 7: Somewhat?
Speaker 4: You know?
Speaker 11: I uh, like I want a girlfriend, you know, I
Speaker 11: want to I want to have like a real life
Speaker 11: and it's not that I'm not I'm afraid to talk
Speaker 11: to people because I'm pretty well adjusted. My problem is
Speaker 11: I just I really I don't. I don't want to
Speaker 11: put that time in like I don't. I don't want
Speaker 11: to deal with other people. I just want to do
Speaker 11: things exactly my way.
Speaker 2: You know what, can you describe exactly your way?
Speaker 11: Exactly my way? I mean that's pretty broad. I'm I
Speaker 11: guess what I'm saying.
Speaker 2: Sorry, what we're gonna say?
Speaker 11: Well, no, yeah, I know what you're saying. But in
Speaker 11: my mind at least it is. But I would just
Speaker 11: I I would say that I'm not a very good
Speaker 11: team worker. You know, I'm not. I'm I can be
Speaker 11: a good leader, and I can work in teams when
Speaker 11: I when I'm working on something I care about, But like,
Speaker 11: as far as life goes, I like, I don't want
Speaker 11: to I don't want to have I don't want to
Speaker 11: have influence from other people like I.
Speaker 2: You know, hm, you know I kind of have that
Speaker 2: myself in in uh sort of careery terms. But do
Speaker 2: you when you say you have that, like with career,
Speaker 2: you have that with like personal relationships. You don't want
Speaker 2: to work with other people. I mean, but you but
Speaker 2: you are. But you say that you are craving old relationships.
Speaker 2: I mean, what would like, what would your deal relationship
Speaker 2: look like?
Speaker 11: I gotta be honest, I have no idea. I haven't
Speaker 11: thought about that.
Speaker 2: So but then in that case, you want something that
Speaker 2: you don't even really know what it is.
Speaker 11: Yeah, I would, that's fair to say.
Speaker 2: So what's the sort of the origin of you wanting it?
Speaker 11: Well, there's a couple of things. So, first thing is,
Speaker 11: I'm the last male with my with my last name,
Speaker 11: with my family name, so it either keeps going with
Speaker 11: me or our family line just you know, ends, And
Speaker 11: I know like that it's not that's not exactly how
Speaker 11: it all will play out. But I'm just saying, like
Speaker 11: that name will be dead, you know. So that's one thing.
Speaker 11: The other thing is, I don't.
Speaker 2: Know, I kind of want first of all, okay, your
Speaker 2: name being dead. Yeah, how much like, be honest with yourself,
Speaker 2: how much do you really give a flock about your name?
Speaker 2: Then that's that's fine, Okay.
Speaker 7: A lot a lot.
Speaker 11: Yeah, Why, there there are a lot of sac convices
Speaker 11: that my that name went through. There's a lot of history,
Speaker 11: and there's a lot of there's a certain amount of
Speaker 11: success and toughness about that name. I'm not saying like, oh, ever,
Speaker 11: you know, you hear that name and you're like, oh,
Speaker 11: he's part of that family.
Speaker 7: Like whoa.
Speaker 11: I'm not saying that.
Speaker 7: I'm just saying, like.
Speaker 2: The history of it, Yes, do you feel pressure to
Speaker 2: live up to that?
Speaker 11: Yeah, I've fought with that all my life. I'm well,
Speaker 11: so I'm a youngest child. I mean, I'm not so
Speaker 11: young anymore. But growing up, like it was really tough
Speaker 11: for me because I was always kind of screw up.
Speaker 11: All my family, Like they went on to be doctors
Speaker 11: and lawyers and teachers and they did all this cool stuff,
Speaker 11: and then I was there and I was I dropped
Speaker 11: out of high school, and then I went to college,
Speaker 11: and then I dropped out of that too. So it
Speaker 11: was like it was always kind of hard for me
Speaker 11: to like be like I always felt like a screw up,
Speaker 11: Like you gotta do something good, you know, like you're
Speaker 11: nothing compared to your family. So yeah, I'm trying to
Speaker 11: live up to that.
Speaker 2: But regardless of your family, I mean, like regardless of
Speaker 2: your family, regardless of like comparing yourself to other people.
Speaker 2: Let's say we're talking about you and your own insular
Speaker 2: world in which you know you're a musician and you're
Speaker 2: an artist. I mean, what forgetting about I mean, if
Speaker 2: you can, I know, it's you know, it's hard because
Speaker 2: it's like so baked into you. But if you can't
Speaker 2: catch yourself for a second from those expectations from your family,
Speaker 2: I mean, what would you say would be what you
Speaker 2: would want to do?
Speaker 11: To tell you the truth, Well, I haven't been lying
Speaker 11: to you, but this is just not something I would
Speaker 11: normally say. But my dream is to like have a horse,
Speaker 11: have a dog, have some livestock, go move out to
Speaker 11: the woods, you know, and just just live out in
Speaker 11: the woods, off the grid.
Speaker 7: You know.
Speaker 11: That's like, ultimately that's what I want with my life.
Speaker 2: What do you feel like is stopping you from doing that?
Speaker 11: Well, it's just the whole I got time thing, Like
Speaker 11: I don't need to do that right now. I'm I'm
Speaker 11: also very career driven, so it's but also like I
Speaker 11: don't I don't know, like I want that like super
Speaker 11: bad right now. But I also really want to like
Speaker 11: have a family in the future. You know, It's it's
Speaker 11: it's hard to say, really, I don't know.
Speaker 2: Yeah, you don't say, I mean, you don't sound super
Speaker 2: old or anything. You know, I don't know, I'm not.
Speaker 8: I'm pretty young.
Speaker 3: Actually, yeah, I mean.
Speaker 2: You couldn't do that. Yeah, I mean, but I don't
Speaker 2: honestly why you know that's that's that's something that would
Speaker 2: be you know, an unintangible to you.
Speaker 7: No, not at all. Yeah, uh.
Speaker 11: Yeah, it's just I'm trying to figure out a way
Speaker 11: to put this, so please forgive me, but I'm going
Speaker 11: to just try to put it out there. I feel
Speaker 11: like because I really, truly, truly, truly want to have
Speaker 11: a family. I want to I want to have a wife,
Speaker 11: I want to have that life. At the same time,
Speaker 11: I really really like being alone. And it's not like,
Speaker 11: oh I like being alone, like I don't go out
Speaker 11: and party and you know, I you know whatever, Like
Speaker 11: I really like being alone. Like if I had it
Speaker 11: my way right now, like I wouldn't be you know whatever.
Speaker 11: But at the same time, I'm talking to you right now,
Speaker 11: So that's kind of weird.
Speaker 2: No, But I you know, I feel, yeah, this is
Speaker 2: all a bullshit and I'm not not what you're not
Speaker 2: what you said. But but like again, I don't consider
Speaker 2: myself knowledgeable about shit or anything. But like, I do
Speaker 2: feel like there are pressures. I mean, you've you've described
Speaker 2: pressures of your family, You've described pressures of like society,
Speaker 2: You've described all these different pressures that are kind of
Speaker 2: maybe and I don't want to put this on you,
Speaker 2: this is just sort of a hypothesis, but it's like,
Speaker 2: are these pressures maybe leaning you in the direction of
Speaker 2: not wanting to be alone even though you know truly
Speaker 2: what you want it to be alone? And also you
Speaker 2: have so much time. You have so much time, like
Speaker 2: like you might meet someone who you like being with
Speaker 2: more than you like being alone, but you just don't.
Speaker 2: You have no idea, You have no fucking idea what
Speaker 2: that feels like because you've never felt it anymore. But
Speaker 2: but you have so much time to like experiment, you know.
Speaker 11: Yeah, No, I absolutely, I like, I absolutely agree with that.
Speaker 11: It's definitely that's definitely a part of that. Like, but
Speaker 11: I I truly feel like something in me like really
Speaker 11: wants to have a partner. But I just.
Speaker 7: I don't know. It's like.
Speaker 11: It's it's it's weird because it's so conflicting.
Speaker 8: You know.
Speaker 11: That I could have those two feelings at the same time.
Speaker 11: But when it's been really tough is when when I'm like, Okay,
Speaker 11: I'm ready, I'm gonna go date somebody, like I'm gonna
Speaker 11: go try to find a girl's friend, and then like
Speaker 11: a week before I I like, I'm like, okay, I'm
Speaker 11: gonna go to you know, the bar or whatever. I'm like,
Speaker 11: oh no, no, no, and then I get pissed off
Speaker 11: at myself. I'm like, you know, why did you do that?
Speaker 16: It's just like conflicting, right, but right, but but why
Speaker 16: there's no real but like the fact that you have
Speaker 16: like the number I think the number one thing, the
Speaker 16: number one I sort of uh.
Speaker 2: I want to say. Variable in this situation is that
Speaker 2: you have time, like you like, why be pissed off
Speaker 2: of yourself? Why be pissed off for yourself? The fact
Speaker 2: that you tried to meet someone? Why be pissed off
Speaker 2: at yourself? There's no there's no loge. It's illogical, Like
Speaker 2: like you tried. You could go out and fuck and
Speaker 2: just non stop try to meet people for two years.
Speaker 2: You can fucking go ahead and stop just trying to
Speaker 2: meet you for a decade, and then when you're like fifty,
Speaker 2: be like, you know what, fuck all this shit, I'm
Speaker 2: gonna go lift to the woods and then you get
Speaker 2: to be happy for thirty years until you die. I'm
Speaker 2: just saying, like, time is super on your side for
Speaker 2: you to kind of figure this this this this stuff out,
Speaker 2: you know. I mean, you could even try to leave
Speaker 2: in the woods alone for a year and if you
Speaker 2: love it, you can stay. And if you don't go
Speaker 2: meet new people. I mean, I know that the way
Speaker 2: I'm talking about it makes it sound like, oh it's
Speaker 2: so easy, and I know it's not to just up
Speaker 2: and leave life like that, but you you have enough time, I.
Speaker 11: Think, yeah, I would. I just want to go back
Speaker 11: to like being the youngest coming up in a world
Speaker 11: like that. Uh, this is ingrained into my head. And
Speaker 11: I like whether this right or wrong that I think this,
Speaker 11: I have no idea, but nobody's really going to convince
Speaker 11: me that. I'm like maybe something, maybe I'll change my thinking,
Speaker 11: but right now, like I really believe in what I'm
Speaker 11: about to say, and that is that I need to
Speaker 11: be as successful as possi as soon as possible, and
Speaker 11: I need to be better than everybody. And it's not
Speaker 11: that I don't want to put other people down or
Speaker 11: I look down on other people. It's just like I
Speaker 11: I need to, like I really really need to be
Speaker 11: better than everybody. And like going through school like I was,
Speaker 11: I was a screw up. And then because I don't, dude,
Speaker 11: I've never actually gone into this a hard.
Speaker 2: Yeah, man, you can, you can take you can take
Speaker 2: your time, and like, you know, I mean, you know
Speaker 2: you can if if it makes you feel better to
Speaker 2: go through with this, you know, I'm I'm totally down
Speaker 2: to hear it.
Speaker 11: All right, well I'll do it. So when I was
Speaker 11: in high school, like I got, I got good grades
Speaker 11: if I wanted to, and I took hard classes and
Speaker 11: i'd care about things.
Speaker 7: But also.
Speaker 11: After a while, like I started hanging out with bad
Speaker 11: people and some stuff happened in my home life, so
Speaker 11: I was I was like fucking up.
Speaker 7: And then.
Speaker 11: I always had that eat up against my older siblings
Speaker 11: attitude about things like I had to be better than
Speaker 11: these guys. And then at that point I dropped so
Speaker 11: low that it felt like, oh, well, I can't come
Speaker 11: back from that, like might as well go deeper. And
Speaker 11: then it got to the point where it was just like, well,
Speaker 11: you know, this sucks. So I was like, Okay, well
Speaker 11: I got to find a way out of this. So
Speaker 11: what I decided to do was like I'm gonna leave
Speaker 11: high school and just go to college. And so that's
Speaker 11: what I did, and I think it was my sophomore year.
Speaker 11: And after a year of that, I just decided this
Speaker 11: wasn't quick enough, like it was taking too long, and
Speaker 11: so I left college and entered a trade school and
Speaker 11: just got it over with and joined a.
Speaker 7: Field.
Speaker 11: And now my main concern is just like moving up,
Speaker 11: like get a better job, get a better job, and
Speaker 11: I don't know, I'm kind of lost right now.
Speaker 2: I'm sorry, No, be sorry, Yeah, I understand, and like
Speaker 2: my only thing, the only thing that would concern me,
Speaker 2: and like like dude, I'm honestly I'm I'm I'm kind
Speaker 2: of like that too. Like I'm very like success driven,
Speaker 2: and I always feel like I need to be doing something,
Speaker 2: you know, in my life better when I'm doing something,
Speaker 2: I feel like it's again, people are wired very differently.
Speaker 2: I also, you know, live pretty insularly, and I also
Speaker 2: try really hard to like always be doing something you know,
Speaker 2: But and I don't think you should shame yourself for that.
Speaker 2: That said, I do feel like for your own benefit,
Speaker 2: you should be cognizant of like where those intentions are
Speaker 2: born from. If that makes.
Speaker 11: Sense, Yeah, that's why, you know, That's definitely part of
Speaker 11: the reason why I'm like unsure about this whole thing
Speaker 11: is because I know for a fact that that does
Speaker 11: not come from a good place for me. So what, Like,
Speaker 11: I it's like, okay, yeah, I'm I'm making money. It's good.
Speaker 11: Might like things look good, but like, could this actually
Speaker 11: be very unhealthy?
Speaker 2: You know, well, why do you want to be better
Speaker 2: than everyone else? Is it like because you want to
Speaker 2: prove people? I think if you want to prove people wrong,
Speaker 2: it's a shitty reason. But if you just want to,
Speaker 2: like if you enjoy the process of self actualization and
Speaker 2: moving towards that that I don't think there's anything wrong
Speaker 2: with that. But if you're doing it for like other people,
Speaker 2: then I would just I would just not not I'm
Speaker 2: not saying that you're doing this. I would just say that,
Speaker 2: like it's important to be you know, constantly keeping that
Speaker 2: in check.
Speaker 11: It's it's honestly because I want to be better than people,
Speaker 11: like I want to be better than everybody else. I
Speaker 11: guess part of it might be like I want to
Speaker 11: prove people wrong, but I don't feel like I really
Speaker 11: have anything to prove to anybody. But I do really
Speaker 11: like I want to in my mind be better than
Speaker 11: everybody else, and right now I'm not, you know so,
Speaker 11: and I don't know if I'll ever reach that point
Speaker 11: where I actually like am satisfied where with where I
Speaker 11: am and like do it Am I better than anybody?
Speaker 11: Because like, fuck, dude, I'm just like right now, like
Speaker 11: I'm like the way I see myself in the world
Speaker 11: is like you're lower than dirt, you know, Like I'm not.
Speaker 11: I'm not anywhere yet like this, like you're still a
Speaker 11: fuck up, you know. So whether or not, I'll just
Speaker 11: stay right here no matter how far I move up, Like,
Speaker 11: I don't know, but that's the goal, to be better the.
Speaker 2: Best, dude, I think again, man, I would say this
Speaker 2: this will be you know, because again I'm not. I
Speaker 2: don't want to, you know. I I've I haven't. I've enjoyed,
Speaker 2: I've enjoyed having this conversation. I don't want to posture
Speaker 2: myself too much as like a guy who actually knows
Speaker 2: ship or gives advice in any way, shape or form,
Speaker 2: but I'll say, you know, I think that could be
Speaker 2: something that that is, you know, worth working on, is
Speaker 2: trying to switch the gears on those intentions from like
Speaker 2: you know, doing things for other people and just trying
Speaker 2: to be the best because you want to be the
Speaker 2: best for yourself. You want to be the best version
Speaker 2: of yourself, you know. I mean there's a cliche of like,
Speaker 2: you know, the only person you're really in competition with
Speaker 2: is who you are yesterday, and that's true, you know,
Speaker 2: so I would focus try to try to focus more
Speaker 2: on that mindset than than the mindset of doing it.
Speaker 2: Because you want to be.
Speaker 11: Better other people, well, I want to I want to
Speaker 11: say something really quick, just because that probably made me
Speaker 11: sound like a really bad person.
Speaker 4: No, I don't know.
Speaker 11: What I'm saying right now, is this is like, this
Speaker 11: is very true. This is how I honestly feel. It's
Speaker 11: like when I say, like I want to be better
Speaker 11: than everybody else, I'm not saying like when I see
Speaker 11: other people that I'm I think they're worse than me.
Speaker 11: I don't think anybody's worse than me. Like to me,
Speaker 11: when I see most people like I put myself below
Speaker 11: them like that, like I'm not. I'm not claiming to
Speaker 11: be superior or anything.
Speaker 2: Yeah, No, I I respect everybody.
Speaker 11: And I'm not saying anybody is uncapable of being like me,
Speaker 11: like I'm not like a.
Speaker 2: No, I don't think. I don't think. I don't think
Speaker 2: you said. I don't think you sound any.
Speaker 11: I don't think I'm trying.
Speaker 2: I don't think you sound like I don't think you
Speaker 2: sound like arcis at all. I totally understand. I've had
Speaker 2: what you are talking about. I understand it. I don't
Speaker 2: think you're a narcisist at all, totally. I know what
Speaker 2: you're saying. This is a battle that you're having with yourself.
Speaker 2: I don't think you're you're you don't you don't you
Speaker 2: don't remotely sound like a narcisist. But yeah, man, I
Speaker 2: that that'll be the that that's kind of if I
Speaker 2: had to leave you with like an actual sort of thing,
Speaker 2: it would be like, I think you should try to
Speaker 2: focus on your intentions for life coming from yourself as
Speaker 2: supposed to the people.
Speaker 11: I dig it, dig it, how do.
Speaker 2: You feel, man, I know you haven't really talked to
Speaker 2: people in a long time.
Speaker 11: Well, since there's a certain anonymity to this, like it's
Speaker 11: not that big of a deal, you.
Speaker 7: Know, m hm.
Speaker 11: At the same time, like it is like strange. Normally
Speaker 11: I would have this dialogue in my head. It's definitely
Speaker 11: really strange to have this conversation out loud with somebody else.
Speaker 11: M yeah. Also the other thing is like, all right,
Speaker 11: first of all, I like what you do. This is
Speaker 11: tight as fuck do I'm about to follow you on everything.
Speaker 2: Oh, thank you man, for real.
Speaker 11: So uh but I just opened up readit, Like I
Speaker 11: never go on Reddit, so I just opened up Reddit
Speaker 11: and I saw this and I was like, oh that dude,
Speaker 11: it's kind of cool. You know, it's pretty sweet. So
Speaker 11: it's a little shocking that, like I literally just saw
Speaker 11: you like ten minutes ago, and I'm like talking to you.
Speaker 7: I know.
Speaker 2: It's strange, it's it's interesting, you know.
Speaker 8: Yeah.
Speaker 2: I started doing this in quarantine, and I've talked to
Speaker 2: way more people than I ever did when the world
Speaker 2: was not locked down, I'll say, which has been iron
Speaker 2: But but dude, again, man, thank you for calling in.
Speaker 2: And I'm you know, I hope to talk with you
Speaker 2: again and keep keep going. Man. I know thing you've
Speaker 2: said is like you know, I have like you know,
Speaker 2: I have a lot of what you said in me
Speaker 2: as well, and I totally don't think you're an artist.
Speaker 2: I totally am rooting for you, you know, as you
Speaker 2: try to switch those intentions.
Speaker 7: MM.
Speaker 11: Well yeah, this has been both a fun, entertaining and
Speaker 11: also strange experience, but overall a good one.
Speaker 2: So thank you absolutely man. I'm happy to hear that.
Speaker 2: I'll be have a good night and I'll talk to
Speaker 2: you again soon.
Speaker 11: Okay, take care, take care of him.
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