Speaker 1: Hey, what's your name?
Speaker 2: Joe?
Speaker 1: How how be it going, Joe?
Speaker 2: It's not bad. I've been trying to call you for
Speaker 2: probably like a week now, and it's probably like my
Speaker 2: six hundredth call, so I'm pretty excited.
Speaker 1: Have we ever spoken before?
Speaker 2: We have not, but I watch your streams every day
Speaker 2: when I'm at work. My buddy has YouTube Premium, so
Speaker 2: I just darkened my phone and I just listen to
Speaker 2: you while I work.
Speaker 1: Cool, cool man. Thank you for thank you for indulging
Speaker 1: in my bullshit. I I'm sincerely, sincerely honored by that.
Speaker 1: What what when you listen to the show and you think, well,
Speaker 1: if I were on the Gecko Show, this is what
Speaker 1: I would talk about? What do you think? What do
Speaker 1: you think you would talk about?
Speaker 2: Well? I have three things I wanted to talk to
Speaker 2: you about, one pertaining you, one pertaining my life, and
Speaker 2: then one just a general question.
Speaker 1: Let's I thank you for laying that all out for me.
Speaker 1: Let's can I choose the order in which we do them?
Speaker 2: For sure? Manage your show.
Speaker 1: Let's start with the general question.
Speaker 2: Okay, how do you feel about baths?
Speaker 1: B A T H or B A T S.
Speaker 2: B A T H.
Speaker 1: How do I feel about baths. I like baths. Well,
Speaker 1: I'm a big Here's the thing I don't. Baths are
Speaker 1: like a whole thing to fill them up and feels weird,
Speaker 1: kind of like I don't like the silence of baths.
Speaker 1: Like I'm a big I'm a big huge every time
Speaker 1: sit down in the shower or I love sitting down
Speaker 1: in the shower. I don't take baths, but I sit
Speaker 1: down in that shower every single time I'm in the shower,
Speaker 1: and a bath is kind of like sitting down in
Speaker 1: the shower, except it's two static of an experience, right,
Speaker 1: like the sound and the feeling of the water coming
Speaker 1: from above feels it is an important element of my relaxation.
Speaker 1: So I'm not personally a big bath guy, but you know,
Speaker 1: I get it. I get it. What about you? How
Speaker 1: do you feel about baths? I feel like there had
Speaker 1: to have been a reason why you asked this question,
Speaker 1: and I'm curious what that reason might be.
Speaker 2: Yeah, I've partaken them sometimes after a long day at work.
Speaker 2: I do housekeeping and I also am a cashier, so
Speaker 2: I have two jobs. So every now and then I
Speaker 2: like to take a nice, warm, hot bath and maybe
Speaker 2: even put some bath salts in there and just relax
Speaker 2: after a long day.
Speaker 3: You know.
Speaker 1: Cool? Cool? All right, you know what you've inspired me?
Speaker 1: Next time, I'm gonna try a bath sometime soon based
Speaker 1: on your recommendation. Hell yeah, all right, now, let's do
Speaker 1: your life and then we can go to May.
Speaker 2: Okay. So basically a couple months ago, right before I
Speaker 2: want to say, summer of this year, I got really
Speaker 2: sick at work and I felt like like fainting and
Speaker 2: stuff all the time, and I had hot sweats and
Speaker 2: I was in confusion and stuff, and I just wasn't
Speaker 2: understanding it. And it turns out I got lime disease
Speaker 2: because I mow lawns and stuff a lot and do
Speaker 2: landscaping in the summer. And I didn't even know that
Speaker 2: I had it. And me and my girlfriend are long distance.
Speaker 2: She lives in New Jersey and I live in New York,
Speaker 2: and so when I found out I had lime disease,
Speaker 2: I kind of ghosted her, but I kind of ghosted
Speaker 2: everybody just for that. I want to say, probably month
Speaker 2: months and a half period of time where I had
Speaker 2: to get antibiotics and you know, get treated for everything,
Speaker 2: and I just didn't know how to handle everything. So
Speaker 2: I kind of ghosted everybody, and she got really upset
Speaker 2: with me because I hurt her by that, you know,
Speaker 2: And I know you don't really like giving relationship advice
Speaker 2: like that, but I just wanted to turn to you
Speaker 2: because she's still heard about it and it comes up
Speaker 2: in arguments here and there. But we still want to
Speaker 2: make things work and I really care for her, So
Speaker 2: amongst you know, going to see her and putting more
Speaker 2: efforts in, is there any advice you can give me
Speaker 2: on trying to be better or do things differently?
Speaker 1: Well, first of I'm curious, why did you ghost everyone?
Speaker 1: I would think if that that seems like something you'd
Speaker 1: want like support with, So I guess I want to
Speaker 1: know why you ghosted everyone.
Speaker 2: Well, my whole life, I've kind of just been used
Speaker 2: to ghosting people when stuff happens, because I had a
Speaker 2: really traumatic childhood where a lot of people weren't there
Speaker 2: for me that should have been. And I definitely know
Speaker 2: that it's wrong, you know, and it's not something that
Speaker 2: I should have done, and that it hurts people. But
Speaker 2: I really didn't even know how to understand how I
Speaker 2: was feeling myself, especially because I was told if I
Speaker 2: would have waited very much longer. It could have been
Speaker 2: a lot worse.
Speaker 1: So well, forget well, forget about the value judgments of
Speaker 1: like you know, saying like I know it's bad, Like
Speaker 1: why do you think you'd do it?
Speaker 2: I think it all stems back to childhood, to be honest.
Speaker 1: But so that, But then I guess, even if even
Speaker 1: if that's true, what is the belief that you're like
Speaker 1: subconsciously holding on to as an adult that is influencing
Speaker 1: your decision to ghost everyone.
Speaker 2: I kind of think it just goes back to, you know,
Speaker 2: being by myself and knowing that if I could come
Speaker 2: to terms with whatever is going on by myself, then
Speaker 2: maybe I'd be more open to being around everyone more.
Speaker 2: But especially when I don't understand things or things that
Speaker 2: are very traumatic, I kind of just tend to shut
Speaker 2: down and isolate, you know, and I try to do
Speaker 2: things that make me happy, even if they're momentarily happy,
Speaker 2: things like playing video games or you know, and just
Speaker 2: not contacting anybody.
Speaker 1: So is it just you're not contacting anybody because you
Speaker 1: don't want to be I'm still I'm still trying to
Speaker 1: understands why this is just you'd just rather be.
Speaker 2: Alone maybe in a way, it's getting my mind off
Speaker 2: of things and not having to talk about whatever situation
Speaker 2: is going on, especially if I'm doing something else like
Speaker 2: playing video games or smoking weed or just doing something alone.
Speaker 2: Maybe it's just the fact that I'm getting my mind
Speaker 2: off of those things without other people and being reminded
Speaker 2: of whatever situation, especially traumatic.
Speaker 1: Are you associating other people? Just are you still saying
Speaker 1: just like, if I'm around other people, they're gonna want
Speaker 1: to know what's going on with me, and I'm gonna
Speaker 1: have to keep fucking talking about it, and I don't
Speaker 1: feel like doing that.
Speaker 2: Uh, definitely at times. Yeah, I'd probably say sixty to
Speaker 2: seventy percent of the time. Yeah, that's mostly the case.
Speaker 1: Interesting, So your girlfriend is mad at you.
Speaker 2: Not so much anymore. She's still pretty hurt about it,
Speaker 2: but you know, she's like, I'm always trying to understand
Speaker 2: why you did it, but it's kind of hard to
Speaker 2: understand because I'm not you, you know, And I'm like, just
Speaker 2: know that I didn't do it with the intentions of
Speaker 2: hurting you or hurting anyone. I just did it because
Speaker 2: I really didn't know how to deal with it myself,
Speaker 2: and it was a very hard time for me.
Speaker 1: You know, yeah, what is okay? I mean it sounds
Speaker 1: like you're articulating your feelings in an honest way and
Speaker 1: not like so I guess you. I mean that's really
Speaker 1: all you can do. I think, Yeah, well, how long
Speaker 1: ago was this?
Speaker 2: Probably right before summer? It's like mid spring of this year.
Speaker 1: Okay, I know, are you guys like cool?
Speaker 2: Like?
Speaker 1: What how are you guys doing? Now?
Speaker 2: We have arguments here and there, and especially when that
Speaker 2: comes up during the argument, you know, but I try
Speaker 2: to move past it, and I tell her that I'm
Speaker 2: going to like fix everything and make everything the way
Speaker 2: it should be. But you know, we have to let
Speaker 2: time play out with that part, because that's another important
Speaker 2: thing that's linked to all of this, is just time,
Speaker 2: especially when you're trying to grow and love somebody and
Speaker 2: you know, be connected together.
Speaker 1: How's your line disease? Are you gonna? Are you? Are
Speaker 1: you good?
Speaker 2: Yeah? I had to take antibiotics for like a month.
Speaker 2: They said it's always gonna probably like be in my
Speaker 2: system and stuff. But they're a lot better with the
Speaker 2: antibiotics to put it into remission to where it'll never
Speaker 2: like relapse or anything whatever come back up with it again.
Speaker 1: Okay, so you're not about to like like turn into
Speaker 1: a giant tick like that the Fly movie. No, okay,
Speaker 1: well that's good.
Speaker 2: I still can't believe I'm talking to you, bro. It's
Speaker 2: so crazy.
Speaker 1: How old are you? I'm just curious.
Speaker 2: I'm going to be twenty seven in March.
Speaker 1: Cool, very cool? And how long you've been with been
Speaker 1: with the Jersey Lady?
Speaker 2: November twentieth, I'm going to see her, but November eleventh,
Speaker 2: it'll be two years.
Speaker 1: Okay, that's quite a It's I have to say, it
Speaker 1: was really I didn't say anything at the time, but
Speaker 1: it was really funny when you said you were in
Speaker 1: a long distance relationship. I was like, oh, he's like
Speaker 1: there's a lady who lives in Europe or something, and
Speaker 1: you were like, I live in New York, she lives
Speaker 1: in New Jersey.
Speaker 2: Well. Another thing a lot of people tend to, uh,
Speaker 2: I guess you would say, like misunderstand is when you
Speaker 2: say New York a lot of time people just think
Speaker 2: of the city.
Speaker 1: But I know you live in like Albany or some ship,
Speaker 1: and she lives in like Jersey.
Speaker 2: Like, actually, I'm so sad.
Speaker 1: I didn't get to get to your show, bro that
Speaker 1: actually knows that actually genuinely is a long term, long,
Speaker 1: long long distance religship. Whould you meet this? Uh? Your girlfriend.
Speaker 2: A dating app was a field? Uh No, I think
Speaker 2: it was like ba do or something like that.
Speaker 3: But do.
Speaker 1: Oh yeah, I remember Bado. Okay, so she's I mean, uh, okay, Well, well,
Speaker 1: I don't want to move on. I was gonna say,
Speaker 1: I know you had a thing you wanted to ask me,
Speaker 1: but I don't know if we've talked all about the
Speaker 1: things you wanted to talk about regarding you, I don't
Speaker 1: know if there was any other angles to this you
Speaker 1: wanted to explore.
Speaker 2: I kind of just like I said, I know you
Speaker 2: hate giving relationship advice because.
Speaker 1: I just hate love myself a little. It's good. I'm
Speaker 1: happy to talk through stuff with you though.
Speaker 2: Yeah, but yeah, I mean, other than time, what else
Speaker 2: do you think I should do? Just keep putting all
Speaker 2: my efforts as much as I can in like I am,
Speaker 2: and just wait it.
Speaker 1: Out, wait what out.
Speaker 2: Just getting stronger in the relationship and hopefully moving past
Speaker 2: all of this stuff so it doesn't come up all
Speaker 2: the time, especially when we're arguing.
Speaker 1: I mean, look, you've expressed yourself on what happens with
Speaker 1: uh with with you know, when you got diagnosed with
Speaker 1: lyme disease, and you kind of expressed that you have
Speaker 1: this like defense mechanism that you're trying to understand as
Speaker 1: to why you do that. You sound like you listened
Speaker 1: to what she had to say and your actioning upon it. Yeah,
Speaker 1: what else? What else is there? I mean you care?
Speaker 1: What else? What else is there?
Speaker 2: Right? Right? That's kind of how I feel. I feel
Speaker 2: like I just kind of got to keep doing everything
Speaker 2: that I can do to be a better person and man,
Speaker 2: you know, and especially better in the relationship, and then
Speaker 2: wait for time to run its course with everything.
Speaker 1: You know. Okay, are you happy not to fucking be
Speaker 1: a fuck? Are you happy in this relationship?
Speaker 2: Yeah? She's actually a lot different from anybody I've ever
Speaker 2: been with.
Speaker 1: I know that cool and oh go ahead, gosh, but you.
Speaker 2: Know, it's just I've never been this invested in someone.
Speaker 2: I would say, you know.
Speaker 1: Does that feel Are you excited about being invested in
Speaker 1: this person? Yes, that's a great answer, that's the right answer.
Speaker 1: That's a tricky thing, though, it's a true it's such
Speaker 1: a tricky thing being invested in like that because you
Speaker 1: you you leave yourself. It's the kind of the the
Speaker 1: the contradiction of love, I guess is you leave yourself
Speaker 1: open to to hurt by being so invested in another person.
Speaker 1: But I don't know, there's probably been I want to say,
Speaker 1: at least one hundred thousand songs that are written about
Speaker 1: that subject. And so that investment and that hurt are
Speaker 1: just kind of it sounds to be natural parts of life.
Speaker 2: Yeah. Yeah, And another way I like to think about it,
Speaker 2: you know, is it it does suck leaving yourself solable, vulnerable,
Speaker 2: especially putting your all into someone. But you know, I mean,
Speaker 2: other than love on this planet and money and success,
Speaker 2: what else do we really have other than love, especially
Speaker 2: when it comes to friendships, relationships, connections with people. I mean,
Speaker 2: it all kind of just boils down to caring, you.
Speaker 1: Know, money, success, tropical mic and ikes. They're always coming
Speaker 1: up with new flavors of mic and nikes. What was
Speaker 1: the thing about me that you wanted to ask?
Speaker 2: Do you care if I put you on speaker for
Speaker 2: a second, because it was pertaining to one of the
Speaker 2: videos on your channel, And I've always been curious on
Speaker 2: what the lore behind it.
Speaker 1: Is I'm really terrified about this, but go ahead.
Speaker 2: Okay, I don't even I probably don't even have to
Speaker 2: put you on speaker and go to the channel. But
Speaker 2: there's a video on your channel. It's probably about twelve
Speaker 2: to fourteen seconds, okay, and it was taken about.
Speaker 1: Oh it's the one where it's the one. It's the
Speaker 1: one where I'm running down the side of the hideway
Speaker 1: in Utah. I'm and I'm screaming.
Speaker 2: Yes, yeah. Oh.
Speaker 1: I wish I had a cool story behind that. I
Speaker 1: just kind of thought it would be funny, really well,
Speaker 1: you want you want to hear a you want to
Speaker 1: hear a really crazy story or not. It's not a story,
Speaker 1: but it's just a thing in I used to make
Speaker 1: that used to just be a genre of video that
Speaker 1: I did. I made like the first back in like
Speaker 1: twenty this is the at This is the kind of
Speaker 1: the actual origin story of therapy Gecko is like in
Speaker 1: twenty eighteen, I this is the reason why I'm a Gecko.
Speaker 1: In like twenty eighteen, I made this video called I
Speaker 1: Am in Love with Clara or it is something like that.
Speaker 1: I don't I don't know what the name of the
Speaker 1: video is. My channel but it's restarts Clara. It's probably
Speaker 1: on there, and it's just this video where I'm like wet,
Speaker 1: I'm like drenched in, I'm like soaking wet, and I'm
Speaker 1: running down the streets of Philadelphia screaming about how I'm
Speaker 1: in love with a woman named Clara, but she's getting
Speaker 1: married to another guy in my bathroom and she's kicked
Speaker 1: me out, and all my friends are going to the
Speaker 1: wedding and they like, I'm just trying to create a
Speaker 1: nightmare situation and just I'm just running down the streets screaming.
Speaker 1: And I made like three of those other videos where
Speaker 1: I was just like had a weird, melodramatic love story
Speaker 1: that I was running down the streets soaked in water, yelling.
Speaker 1: I was making those kinds of videos, and one of
Speaker 1: them I made was me running down the streets in
Speaker 1: a lizard costume. I don't know why I came up
Speaker 1: with this idea, but the idea is that I was
Speaker 1: like escaping from a terrarium and I was running down
Speaker 1: the streets of of of the neighborhood. And that's the
Speaker 1: reason that I have. There's the reason I had the
Speaker 1: gecko costume. And then when the pandemic happens. I started streaming,
Speaker 1: and the I just had the costume, and so that's
Speaker 1: kind of where like therapy Gecko came. So yeah, the genre.
Speaker 2: Of sorry go ahead, no, you go ahead.
Speaker 1: Well, the jat basically very extreme, just in the butterfly
Speaker 1: in a very like butterfly effect way. That video, that
Speaker 1: fourteen second video of me running down the streets screaming,
Speaker 1: is part of the extended lore as to how I
Speaker 1: became the therapy Gecko in a in an indirect way.
Speaker 2: Yeah, that's so odd because the only one I had
Speaker 2: stumbled upon was the one of you running down the highway.
Speaker 2: But maybe I'll have to go back.
Speaker 1: Into your which yes, sure, if you if you go
Speaker 1: on uh you are you all? You said you wanted
Speaker 1: to put me on speaker. I assume that meant because
Speaker 1: you were just in my YouTube channel.
Speaker 2: I would go, but I didn't do it. If you
Speaker 2: want me to go look first night.
Speaker 1: You know what, don't you don't don't don't you don't
Speaker 1: have to do it. You don't have to do it
Speaker 1: right now. You don't have to do it right now.
Speaker 1: But well let me see if it's on there still. Yeah, yes,
Speaker 1: if you search, if you search Clara, it's on there.
Speaker 1: Oh yeah, whatever. I don't know why these I feel
Speaker 1: I these they're funny. I don't you know whatever, they're funny.
Speaker 1: They're funny. What were you going to say?
Speaker 2: I seen your stand up A part of your stand
Speaker 2: up skit from quite a few years ago where you
Speaker 2: were like, I hate when people take psychedelics and they
Speaker 2: say that that made me smarter and made me a
Speaker 2: different person. He's like, you're just you were like, you're
Speaker 2: just taking drugs.
Speaker 1: Yeah, I was trying to be George Carlin when I
Speaker 1: was seventeen.
Speaker 2: It was funny, though, dude.
Speaker 1: Thanks man.
Speaker 2: Yeah, I'm a I think that you never pursued therapy.
Speaker 2: Gecko eventually stand up would pop for you. You you
Speaker 2: definitely would hit it on the head.
Speaker 1: Well, thanks man. Yeah, I mean, I don't know. It's
Speaker 1: so weird because yeah, I did stand up for six
Speaker 1: years before I did the Gecko, and I quit because
Speaker 1: I didn't it was just too hard. And then and
Speaker 1: now I'm like headline and then I you know, I
Speaker 1: went to Syracuse and headlined to the fucking Syracuse Funny Bone.
Speaker 1: But I am not a stand up comedian, but I
Speaker 1: do stand up East it's I feel like I did
Speaker 1: a very weird roundabout uh, fulfillment of my of my dreams.
Speaker 2: It's so funny when you talked about you were talking
Speaker 2: with a caller. I think that you went to your
Speaker 2: Syracuse show and you're like, I don't know how you
Speaker 2: guys live out there. There's absolutely nothing to do. The
Speaker 2: funnest thing I did was smoke a bowl in the
Speaker 2: mall parking lot and a guy gave me a gecko bowl.
Speaker 1: Dude. That was a great night. That was an Albany. Yeah,
Speaker 1: that was awesome. Yeah, I smoked weed in the open.
Speaker 1: The club booked an opener and he was a really
Speaker 1: cool guy and I sat in his car and we
Speaker 1: smoked weed together. It is a really fun time. That's
Speaker 1: a good time.
Speaker 2: You spoke there's nothing here.
Speaker 1: Yeah, but you know what but you know is you Yeah,
Speaker 1: but life is creating your own adventures. So if you
Speaker 1: really want to have a crazy time in Syracuse, you
Speaker 1: can figure out a way to do it.
Speaker 2: Oh yeah, there's a lot of nature up here. I'm
Speaker 2: sure you've I mean, I don't know how much you
Speaker 2: got out when you came up, but there's definitely a
Speaker 2: lot of places to hike and natural stuff you can.
Speaker 1: I really most of the time I spent was in
Speaker 1: the radius of that mall parking lot that the comedy
Speaker 1: club is attached to, which, by the way, is a
Speaker 1: sick mall. I they've got go karts. Yeah, whatever the destiny,
Speaker 1: moll's sick, they've got go karts. Man, dude.
Speaker 2: My girlfriend knows when she came up, but she's like,
Speaker 2: I'm kind of nervous.
Speaker 1: I'm like, come on, well, what's your name again, Joe? Joe? Okay,
Speaker 1: we did your general question, we did you, and we
Speaker 1: did me. Do you feel satisfying?
Speaker 2: I do feel pretty satisfied, Lyle. It's always been kind
Speaker 2: of a dream to uh talk to you, whether I'm
Speaker 2: on the show or not, because I show about that before,
Speaker 2: whether or not this would get posted, and you know,
Speaker 2: I really don't care as long as as long as
Speaker 2: I was able to talk to you, that was kind
Speaker 2: of my only goal.
Speaker 1: Thanks Joe, I sincerely, I'm very honored that, uh, that
Speaker 1: you want to talk to me. I'm I'm going to
Speaker 1: try to uh, I'm gonna try. I'm going to try
Speaker 1: to not end this sentence by saying something self deprecating.
Speaker 1: So thank you.
Speaker 2: Joe for sure.
Speaker 1: Is there anything else you want to say to the
Speaker 1: people of the computer before we go?
Speaker 2: Yeah, I kind of got a riddle for you and
Speaker 2: everybody watch.
Speaker 1: This guy had three topics. This guy had a general question,
Speaker 1: something for me, and something with him, And little did
Speaker 1: we know that the whole fucking time, he also had
Speaker 1: a riddle in his back pocket. This crazy fucking quality.
Speaker 1: Tell me your riddle.
Speaker 2: Well, there's no real answer to the riddle. It all
Speaker 2: depends on what you feel like your answer would be.
Speaker 2: It's a personalized riddle. But if you stand for something,
Speaker 2: what would you fall for?
Speaker 1: That's this is the eminem quote, right if you stand
Speaker 1: if you don't stand for anything, If you don't stand
Speaker 1: for something, you fall for anything.
Speaker 2: No, it's not an eminem quote.
Speaker 1: You have to tell it to me right now. I'm
Speaker 1: done with guesses. I need the answer to this riddle
Speaker 1: right now.
Speaker 2: I mean, what would you fall for? Lyle?
Speaker 1: I will hang up on you if you don't tell
Speaker 1: me the answer to this riddle.
Speaker 2: I can tell you what I would fall for. Do
Speaker 2: you want to know?
Speaker 1: Do I want to know?
Speaker 2: Yeah?
Speaker 1: Okay, tell me Joe.
Speaker 2: I would fall for probably the best life that I
Speaker 2: can get with a nice family and you know, everything
Speaker 2: taken care of, no bills, everything comfortable, and just the
Speaker 2: life anybody would want to live.
Speaker 1: What the what the fuck kind of riddle was that?
Speaker 2: I told you it's personalized. It all depends on what
Speaker 2: you would stand for and what you would call for.
Speaker 1: That wasn't a riddle. That was just like, uh, I
Speaker 1: don't know what that was, Joe, What was that?
Speaker 2: Well, what defines the riddle? Words are just words. You
Speaker 2: can make them mean anything, you know.
Speaker 1: That was a very riddlely thing for of you to say,
Speaker 1: So I'm going to count that as you good. Those
Speaker 1: are very riddlely thing. Well, it's been a pleasure to
Speaker 1: talking to you, Joe, and uh, good luck with with
Speaker 1: your crazy life and your and your long dish New
Speaker 1: Jersey relationship. Yeah we can. We can fucking do bumper cars.
Speaker 1: I mean, not the bumper cars to go carts. Oh
Speaker 1: if they had bumper cars moving to Syracuse. All right,
Speaker 1: take care.
Speaker 2: Joe for that ship all the way, Take care of Lyle.
Speaker 1: That was the worst riddle I've ever heard in my
Speaker 1: entire life.
Speaker 2: What is that?
Speaker 1: Well, I gotta respond, I gotta think about it again.
Speaker 1: If you don't stand for something, you fall for anything.
Speaker 1: This is like an Andy cough is he doing? If
Speaker 1: you don't stand for something, you will If you don't
Speaker 1: stand for for anything, what would you fall for? I
Speaker 1: would fall for a good life and kids. And that
Speaker 1: was That was an acid trip of a riddle right there.
Speaker 1: You know what that actually? If the point of a
Speaker 1: riddle is to confuse and and too shock, won't know
Speaker 1: if that shocked me, I mean you know, actually no,
Speaker 1: it shocked me a little bit. If the point of
Speaker 1: a riddle is to confuse and shock, then that that
Speaker 1: was a good riddle.
Speaker 2: Hello.
Speaker 1: Hi, what's your name? Mogwai Mogwi? What's up? Mogwi? How
Speaker 1: you doing? Chilling?
Speaker 3: Chilling? It's my first time getting on the stream.
Speaker 1: Very cool, very good, very good. Where you call him from?
Speaker 3: I'm calling from Canada.
Speaker 1: Uh, I was just in Canada. I was just in Toronto.
Speaker 1: Toronto is a great town, dude. Yeah, I was just there.
Speaker 2: You know't know I was there, which is crazy because
Speaker 2: I listened to all the pods So.
Speaker 1: What you listen? It's so crazy I do people. Yeah,
Speaker 1: I just did two shows there. Man, you should have game.
Speaker 1: It was fun. They're good shows. They're fun.
Speaker 3: I'm actually kind of shaking my head that I missed that.
Speaker 3: I always say to myself, if you're ever here, I
Speaker 3: was going to pull up.
Speaker 1: That's quite how to sho that. No, I was, Yeah,
Speaker 1: I was there. Yeah, dude. Well, I mean I'm probably
Speaker 1: never coming back. That's not true. I'll come back, but
Speaker 1: it'll be at least a year.
Speaker 3: I don't say that breaking my heart ring.
Speaker 1: No, man, no, no, I'll come back, but it's going
Speaker 1: to be at least a year. But I mean, well, anyway, Look,
Speaker 1: we're on the look. Despite all that, we are on
Speaker 1: the phone with each other right now, So let's take
Speaker 1: advantage of this.
Speaker 3: Yeah, a beautiful thing.
Speaker 1: What do you want to talk about?
Speaker 3: Man, man, I have so much I want to talk
Speaker 3: to you about. But can I tell you quick story first?
Speaker 1: You've well, I guess before is how uh sure? Yeah?
Speaker 1: All right.
Speaker 3: This one's a little a little graphic, but I've been
Speaker 3: wanting to share this story with the world for a
Speaker 3: long time. So basically, to preface, it's about how one
Speaker 3: time I nutted blood and there's no I didn't really
Speaker 3: get any answers as to why it happened.
Speaker 2: It just it just happened.
Speaker 1: Fucking Christ. Okay was it? What more to the story
Speaker 1: is there than just that one simple sentence?
Speaker 3: Like the way that it happened was traumatic. Basically, I
Speaker 3: was with my ex partner and you know, we were
Speaker 3: getting into it or whatever, and like when I had
Speaker 3: pulled out and I looked down, it was like it
Speaker 3: was a different color.
Speaker 2: So I was like, well, what the fuck?
Speaker 3: And yeah, like we turned the lights on and it
Speaker 3: was blood. And then I went to my doctor and
Speaker 3: the doctor's like they did their thing and they looked
Speaker 3: and I was like, like, am I gonna die? Like
Speaker 3: do I have to get my junk cut off? And
Speaker 3: they were just like no. But we also don't know
Speaker 3: why it happened. And I don't know. I'm a little
Speaker 3: traumatized ever since then that happened, Like that happened like
Speaker 3: five years ago maybe, and like I just never got
Speaker 3: any answers and then it never happened again.
Speaker 1: Well, now you know what it's like to be a woman.
Speaker 1: You know, you have blood coming out of your out
Speaker 1: of your out of your hole. Yeah, I don't know.
Speaker 1: There's a lot of stuff going on in the human body.
Speaker 1: There's a lot of holes and a lot of pipes
Speaker 1: and tubes running around, and you know, sometimes the tubes
Speaker 1: just get tied up. You know, sometimes the blood tube
Speaker 1: makes its way into the come.
Speaker 3: Tube down the wrong pipe.
Speaker 4: Right.
Speaker 1: You said you had a whole bunch of things you
Speaker 1: wanted to talk about. What are some other ones?
Speaker 3: Well, I'm gonna be honest with you, Like my life
Speaker 3: has just been if you know those ones where your
Speaker 3: life just feels like it's like.
Speaker 1: Uh, do me, do me, do me a favorite brother?
Speaker 1: Are you outside?
Speaker 2: Yeah?
Speaker 3: I just have to run outside real quick?
Speaker 1: Could you go inside?
Speaker 3: Yeah? Is this better?
Speaker 1: Yes? Okay, what were you saying?
Speaker 3: Okay? Perfect? Yeah?
Speaker 2: Sorry?
Speaker 3: You know those ones with like my life, your life
Speaker 3: feels like it's like kind of just falling apart.
Speaker 1: Uh yeah, definitely.
Speaker 3: Yeah, Like it's like that right now, you know, like
Speaker 3: they say, like bad things happen in threees and stuff
Speaker 3: like that, and like I feel like I'm waiting for
Speaker 3: the third bad thing to happen. Like just last week,
Speaker 3: a week ago today, my car died. Like it it's
Speaker 3: just it just died. It's done. I'd to scrap it
Speaker 3: and and then what else would happen before that?
Speaker 2: Oh?
Speaker 3: And then no after that? So my car died last Friday,
Speaker 3: and then I hurt my back, like I really like
Speaker 3: messed up my back on the weekend, like last weekend
Speaker 3: on Saturday, and like I messed it up so bad
Speaker 3: that like I haven't been able to work for the
Speaker 3: whole week. And then I've just been at home laying
Speaker 3: on my back, like just dying, just kind of like
Speaker 3: reflecting on my life, like this is where I am
Speaker 3: right now, which like, okay, it's not a bad place
Speaker 3: to be, but like you know, it's just I feel
Speaker 3: like it just set me back.
Speaker 1: What have you learned anything from these reflections as you've
Speaker 1: been out of commission?
Speaker 3: But I feel like kind of but at the same time,
Speaker 3: like I don't know, I feel like maybe I've been
Speaker 3: dwelling a little bit, but it just it feels like
Speaker 3: everything that's happened right now has just kind of been
Speaker 3: out of my control. But it's ultimately just put me
Speaker 3: in like I don't know, just like a really rough spot.
Speaker 3: I guess, like I don't really know what to what
Speaker 3: to necessarily take away from that other than life can
Speaker 3: be life can be a bit sometimes, I guess, maybe
Speaker 3: just roll with the punches as best as you can.
Speaker 1: I don't know, sure that's a good analysis. I suppose
Speaker 1: let me can I I just before I I just
Speaker 1: before we continue or before we go? I uh, I
Speaker 1: want to listen. Do you sound like a nice guy?
Speaker 1: I want to make sure that this being on the
Speaker 1: phone with me today has been of any kind of
Speaker 1: positive benefit to you. And so I ask you, is
Speaker 1: there anything that you kind of I guess, wanted out
Speaker 1: of this phone call that I can do for you.
Speaker 3: I'll be honest with you, man, Honestly, like I've called
Speaker 3: in a bunch of times, and you know, I've always
Speaker 3: hit the the little voicemail thing saying the line is busy.
Speaker 3: So just kind of being able to, you know, get
Speaker 3: in on the on the stream and be able to
Speaker 3: chop it up with you a little bit, that's been
Speaker 3: really cool.
Speaker 1: Cool.
Speaker 3: Yeah, man, I don't know if that's anything away with that.
Speaker 3: It would be like I've had a good little chat
Speaker 3: with the get.
Speaker 1: If it makes you feel any better. I I actually
Speaker 1: I was scratching my asshole, uh today and there was
Speaker 1: some blood which was concerning every once every Yeah. But
Speaker 1: I will I'll say this though, and because I really
Speaker 1: think that you're an American hero, because bloody I've had
Speaker 1: a bloody asshole many times throughout my life. It's called
Speaker 1: it's there's a word for it. You guys can look
Speaker 1: this up if you have if you have nothing else
Speaker 1: to do. It's called an anal fissure. Yeah, an anal fissure.
Speaker 1: It's when you get like a little cut in your asshole.
Speaker 1: And that's why it's why you're that's why it bleeds.
Speaker 1: But uh no, the I'd much rather have a bloody
Speaker 1: asshole than a bloody dick hole. If I had a
Speaker 1: bloody dick hole, I'd probably be I'd be mortified. So
Speaker 1: I think you're an American hero for because He's why.
Speaker 1: The reason I say you're an American hero is because cosmically,
Speaker 1: I really believe that coming blood is something that had
Speaker 1: to have happened at least once to someone, right like
Speaker 1: the it was, it was multiple people's divine destiny to
Speaker 1: come blood. Uh And I think that those people were
Speaker 1: kind of selected at random by the by the universe,
Speaker 1: and you happen to be one of them. And so
Speaker 1: it's the fact that you came blood, the fact that
Speaker 1: you not that you volunteered to do it, but you
Speaker 1: know it was noble of you to take on that
Speaker 1: helm of of the person who came blood, of the
Speaker 1: inevitable person to come blood. Even if you didn't sign
Speaker 1: up to do it, I still think it was. It's
Speaker 1: a noble cross to bear, and so I commended for that.
Speaker 3: I can I share something else about that, say, same
Speaker 3: topic that I also I meant to share, but I forgot.
Speaker 3: It's just I'm releasing the trauma right now on on
Speaker 3: the on the stream.
Speaker 1: Okay, Well, yeah, after all.
Speaker 3: That happened, and I went to the doctors and like
Speaker 3: they looked at it. They sent me to like a specialist.
Speaker 3: And this is the part that's actually like all my
Speaker 3: male listeners, y'all got plucky ears for a second. They
Speaker 3: stuck a camera down my dick hole.
Speaker 1: Yeah yeah, yeah, yeah yeah. That's the thing that's real.
Speaker 3: That's the whole thing that one's messed up, man, that
Speaker 3: one had me messed up. I needed to like let
Speaker 3: it out somewhere. And I always said on the stream,
Speaker 3: I'm telling the world.
Speaker 1: It's the dick hole selfie.
Speaker 3: It literally is the dick hole selfie. But they never
Speaker 3: sent me the picture that they took.
Speaker 1: They never sent you the picture. Is it like? Is
Speaker 1: it is it?
Speaker 5: Like?
Speaker 1: Is it like Disney World where you have to pay
Speaker 1: for it and they send it to you in a frame.
Speaker 3: Well, I don't know, like our healthcare out here is.
Speaker 3: But just because it's free doesn't mean it's good.
Speaker 1: No, it's fine. Yeah. I would think in Canada they
Speaker 1: send you home with a little key chain with the
Speaker 1: picture of the inside of your dick hole on it,
Speaker 1: like or they or they put it in like a
Speaker 1: or they put it in a custom snow globe or something.
Speaker 3: Yeah, Like I'd like the little keychain that would say
Speaker 3: like I survived the dick hole selfie or something like
Speaker 3: they didn't give me any anesthetics, or like mets, they
Speaker 3: just raw dogs my door.
Speaker 1: Wait, they didn't give you anesthetics. They just shove that
Speaker 1: motherfucker in.
Speaker 3: Yeah, or they put like this, it's like freezing gel
Speaker 3: in like kind of like a freezing gel like that
Speaker 3: they use at the dentist. It didn't really do anything.
Speaker 3: And if I'm being real with you, get it kind
Speaker 3: of hurt when they.
Speaker 1: Put Jesus they like it. Fuck, I thought they put
Speaker 1: you on there or something.
Speaker 3: Well that's what I thought too, And so they told
Speaker 3: me when they like when they did the dick hole selfie.
Speaker 3: They're like, you can't tense up at all, Like you
Speaker 3: can't flex your muscles, you can't like you can't like
Speaker 3: clench your because if you do that then it'll make
Speaker 3: this like it'll make your dick hole tents up as well,
Speaker 3: and they'll have to like push through it. So like
Speaker 3: the whole time I was there, like they're trying to
Speaker 3: tell me, like, yo, imagine you're on like a tropical
Speaker 3: island and you're on a vacation, and how am I
Speaker 3: going to do that? Man like put me under Please.
Speaker 1: Well, I hope that making everyone listening to this feel
Speaker 1: worse made you feel better. I really mean that.
Speaker 3: Isn't that like the rule of the internet or one
Speaker 3: of the rules of the internet, Like if I thought
Speaker 3: you have.
Speaker 1: To see it do or something like, you know, that's fair.
Speaker 3: I'm just abiding by the law man, you know.
Speaker 1: No, that's fair. If I had to have a stick
Speaker 1: shoved in my dick hole, I would want to share
Speaker 1: that pain with other people too.
Speaker 3: Yeah, well, it was just part of releasing the trauma.
Speaker 1: Is there anything else you want to say to the
Speaker 1: people of the computer before we go?
Speaker 3: The only thing I want to say to you guys
Speaker 3: before I go is don't come blood, don't do it
Speaker 3: not recommended, have.
Speaker 2: A good night, you will buy geck.
Speaker 1: That's what I realized. I meant that it had to
Speaker 1: have been somebody. Every horrible thing that, every horrible scenario.
Speaker 1: What's there's a word for this? Ah, does anyone know
Speaker 1: what this? There's there's like if it is possible to happen,
Speaker 1: it will happen. Uh, what the fuck is the there's
Speaker 1: a phrase for like anything that can happen will happen. Oh,
Speaker 1: please please leave it in the comments if you know
Speaker 1: this phrase. But there's a phrase maybe the chat. Can
Speaker 1: you let me look at the Murphy's law. Yes, Murphy's law.
Speaker 1: It's the Murphy's law. So Murphy's law. If if it
Speaker 1: is possible for one to bleed out of one's dick hole,
Speaker 1: it will happen to somebody. So, uh, whatever horrible thing
Speaker 1: has ever happened to you in your life, just know
Speaker 1: eventually it had to happen to someone. It's unfortunate, sure
Speaker 1: that it happened to you, but take a little pride
Speaker 1: in it. You know it had to happen to even
Speaker 1: if you didn't volunteer for whatever horrible thing happens to you.
Speaker 1: It had to happen to someone had to do it.
Speaker 1: It's like it's like cleaning toilets. You know, there's even
Speaker 1: if it's not the job you wanted, it's noble. It's
Speaker 1: a noble thing to do. It has to be done.
Speaker 1: So that's why I think. That's why I think this
Speaker 1: guy's a hero for coming blood out of his dick. Hello, Hi,
Speaker 1: what is your name?
Speaker 5: Fatima?
Speaker 1: Fatima? What's up? Fatima? Uh?
Speaker 5: Nothing right? What's up with to you?
Speaker 1: That's something you would say to a kid on on
Speaker 1: the playground, if you're trying to make him, make him
Speaker 1: feel bad, you say, you say you got a Fatima,
Speaker 1: You got a fat mom. Sorry, sorry, sorry for saying that.
Speaker 1: Is there any is there anything in particular you wanted
Speaker 1: to talk about, Fatima? Uh?
Speaker 5: Yeah, Actually I wanted to talk about how I'm like
Speaker 5: forced to move in and sleep with my grandma, like
Speaker 5: starting July of next year, and I.
Speaker 2: Really do not want to.
Speaker 1: How old are you?
Speaker 5: I'm nineteen, I'm gonna be twenty like next week.
Speaker 1: You're you What do you mean You're being forced to
Speaker 1: sleep with your grandma?
Speaker 5: So basically, my grandma has dementia and I go over
Speaker 5: like every other week to go take care of her,
Speaker 5: to see how she's doing, and my mom will tell
Speaker 5: me how her adventure is gonna get worse soon, so
Speaker 5: it would be best if we move in with her,
Speaker 5: so we can just always keep an eye on her.
Speaker 5: And she doesn't have that many rooms to sleep in,
Speaker 5: so I'm forced to sleep on the same bed as
Speaker 5: my grandma until I don't know however long.
Speaker 1: Wow, so she's sleeping in your just I just I
Speaker 1: guess started trying to make it, make it all get
Speaker 1: the right photo. She's moving in with your family, or
Speaker 1: she was already there, so she.
Speaker 5: Has her own house like thirty minutes from where I live,
Speaker 5: or like my atro house. And so we were just
Speaker 5: having to move in at her house because apparently she
Speaker 5: was in to originally move into our guest room because
Speaker 5: we had it just there and it'll be easier for us.
Speaker 5: And we told my grandma about the idea, and my
Speaker 5: mom told me that she said that she'd rather die
Speaker 5: than move into the house. So I guess her only
Speaker 5: choice is to move into her house.
Speaker 1: How big is her house?
Speaker 5: It's two bedrooms one bathroom, well, I guess two bathrooms.
Speaker 5: Her room has a bathroom, and then it just has
Speaker 5: a kitchen, living room. But the thing about her ahead,
Speaker 5: go ahead, oh sorry, Oh. The thing about her house
Speaker 5: is that it's like a connected home where it's rented
Speaker 5: to different people. So one side of the house has
Speaker 5: like a whole different family, but it's it's like disconnected,
Speaker 5: we can't really go through. And then there's like a
Speaker 5: whole different building where the upstairs there's like a family
Speaker 5: live in there, and then downstairs is where my mom
Speaker 5: and my mom's husband's gonna live, and my brother's gonna
Speaker 5: live in the other room. I'm hating to sleep in
Speaker 5: my grandma room.
Speaker 1: So you were the one who got stuck sleeping in
Speaker 1: the same room with your grandma? Yeah, and you're gonna
Speaker 1: sleep in the same bed, yeah, why don't you just
Speaker 1: get an air mattress?
Speaker 5: Her room isn't that big, Like, I feel like her
Speaker 5: room is more of like just one pathway you can
Speaker 5: go forward, and then one pathway to go out of
Speaker 5: the door, and.
Speaker 1: Then who so you guys are all you guys? How
Speaker 1: long are you guys gonna be with your with your grandma?
Speaker 6: For I feel like probably to the rest of her life, honestly,
Speaker 6: And then what's happening with your house?
Speaker 5: So my mom wants to rent out the house to
Speaker 5: people so we don't have to sell it and we
Speaker 5: can just go back whenever.
Speaker 2: I think.
Speaker 5: That's the plan that she wants to do. I don't
Speaker 5: know if there's any other plant, but that's why she
Speaker 5: told me.
Speaker 1: So what's going on with you, fadie Ma? Are you in?
Speaker 1: You in school? Do you work?
Speaker 5: Oh? Yeah, I am in school. Actually my school is
Speaker 5: like pretty close to my grandma's house. But the thing
Speaker 5: about my work is that it's it's closer to my
Speaker 5: actual house. So I would just have to like move
Speaker 5: to a different work and I guess i'd be pretty
Speaker 5: much it. I was thinking of dorming at my school,
Speaker 5: but I looked at the prices for dorms and they're
Speaker 5: way way too expensive for me.
Speaker 1: Yeah, I guess this is kind of This is kind
Speaker 1: of just like a you know, a situation you got
Speaker 1: to deal with until you can get on your feet
Speaker 1: enough to cobble together enough money to move out and
Speaker 1: like be independent.
Speaker 5: Yeah, I feel like it's gonna be hard. I'm not
Speaker 5: really good at saving money either.
Speaker 1: So what do you what do you spend money on?
Speaker 5: Mainly on food, a lot of food and close and
Speaker 5: just like use this, I'm not probably.
Speaker 2: Not gon use.
Speaker 1: Do you have a good RelA? What's your like actual
Speaker 1: relationship like with your grandma?
Speaker 5: My grandma, honestly, she she loves me, to be honest,
Speaker 5: and she keeps mentioning the fact since you have mentioned
Speaker 5: she came spent the back time when A lived her house,
Speaker 5: and she keeps thinking, I don't know, I kind of
Speaker 5: like go with it. But I'm fine with my grandma.
Speaker 5: It's just the thing is that she told me a
Speaker 5: few months ago when I was taking care of her.
Speaker 4: She was like, uh, oh, by the way.
Speaker 5: Like I haven't been going out lately, and no, what
Speaker 5: it really comes over? So I haven't showered in like
Speaker 5: five days?
Speaker 3: Oh no, yeah.
Speaker 1: Girl, you gotta shower if we're gonna be fucking sleeping
Speaker 1: in the bed together.
Speaker 3: Yeah, that's what I thought.
Speaker 1: Oh Jesus Christ, Fatima, Oh man, what why don't you
Speaker 1: just like, well, why don't you sleep with in like
Speaker 1: your Is it like less weird or horrible to sleep
Speaker 1: in with you in your the same room as your brother?
Speaker 5: No, I've actually slept in the same room with my
Speaker 5: brother before. It's just the thing is that my uncle
Speaker 5: also lives with my grandma and he's sitting in that room.
Speaker 2: But it's a.
Speaker 5: Pretty big room, so it can fit like two beds.
Speaker 5: But I feel like that's it. It will only fit
Speaker 5: two beds.
Speaker 1: Hm hmm. Okay, So your your grandma pretty much tells
Speaker 1: you the news that you guys are going to be
Speaker 1: sleeping together, like multiple multiple times in a row.
Speaker 5: Yeah, I don't mind.
Speaker 1: To be honest, is she excited? Is that is it?
Speaker 2: Like?
Speaker 1: Does she seem happy about it?
Speaker 2: Honestly? I think so.
Speaker 5: Every time she tells me, she always smiles and like, oh,
Speaker 5: did your mom tell you this already? Like you're gonna
Speaker 5: be living here? He seems excited. And I feel so
Speaker 5: bad to say that I don't want to move in
Speaker 5: with her.
Speaker 1: No, you know you should. You should. That's uh, that's
Speaker 1: really nice for you, shoul. I don't think you should
Speaker 1: feel bad. I don't think that many like nineteen year
Speaker 1: olds trying to fucking like move out and be like
Speaker 1: independents are stoked to. I don't think you should feel
Speaker 1: bad about not being stoked to sleep in a bed
Speaker 1: with your grandma. I think that's a very understandable feeling
Speaker 1: not to not to beat yourself up.
Speaker 5: About Oh I'm glad about that part.
Speaker 1: Then what's your what's uh? What's the dream? What? What
Speaker 1: do you? What are you going to be? What life
Speaker 1: are you going to be fantasizing about while you're on
Speaker 1: your sigma grindset in your in your grandma's bedroom.
Speaker 4: I don't know.
Speaker 5: I've thought about a few places or like things to do.
Speaker 5: I think my first idea was to become a veterinarian cool,
Speaker 5: but that would require a lot of school and a
Speaker 5: lot of years of doing stuff. Other than that, I've
Speaker 5: also wanted to move in to Canada in Vancouver. That's
Speaker 5: another idea, But I feel like their prices are away
Speaker 5: a little bit higher than they are here, so that's
Speaker 5: another issue.
Speaker 1: What's going on in Vancouver? Was it just like a
Speaker 1: city you were like, oh, that could be cool or
Speaker 1: something specific? Oh?
Speaker 3: So I was.
Speaker 5: Let me tell you the backstory. So basically, I was
Speaker 5: working and I had these guests come up to me
Speaker 5: that are from Canada, and I work at a movie theater.
Speaker 5: So they were telling me how the sizes are like humongous,
Speaker 5: and then afterwards we were like talking for a bit
Speaker 5: and they were telling me how I should go to Vancouver,
Speaker 5: Canada because they said I would fit in. And they
Speaker 5: also said there was like a festival thing they have
Speaker 5: where they give out like free food and free concerts
Speaker 5: and it's for everyone and they have it once a year.
Speaker 5: So that was pretty cool. They probably have that here,
Speaker 5: I don't know, not that I know of, but it
Speaker 5: just seemed like, oh, like, that's that's so cool if
Speaker 5: I were to live somewhere that I had that.
Speaker 1: Yeah, yeah, no, you sound you sound like no, you
Speaker 1: sound you sound like, uh, you want to do ship?
Speaker 5: You know.
Speaker 1: Yeah, it's a natural impulse to want to do ship.
Speaker 1: I by the way, I really I think that if
Speaker 1: if you have the impulse to want to do ship,
Speaker 1: I like, I don't believe in manifestation in like a
Speaker 1: woo woo you put things out into the universe. I
Speaker 1: think the universe is pretty fucking indifferent to us. But like,
Speaker 1: for a purely like my mind connection point of view,
Speaker 1: I do think if you have it in your like
Speaker 1: gut that you want to do things that that like
Speaker 1: you eventually will even if you're not doing it, like
Speaker 1: right fucking now, even if you're in uh, your grandma's room,
Speaker 1: for a little bit. You if that, if that exists
Speaker 1: in your gut that you want to go, go out
Speaker 1: and do ship. I think that you you eventually will.
Speaker 4: Go.
Speaker 5: I'm gonna keep that mindset while I'm over there on
Speaker 5: a ground.
Speaker 3: Yeah, I remember you.
Speaker 1: That's cool. Vancouver is a good Vancouver's a good place.
Speaker 1: It's got a lot of trees. What what are you?
Speaker 1: What state are you in?
Speaker 5: I'm in California?
Speaker 1: Okay, all right, that's cool. Yeah, well, uh is is
Speaker 1: there anything else that you wanted to to talk about
Speaker 1: or say or other aspects of this?
Speaker 5: I actually do so. I was actually gonna go to
Speaker 5: your live show on November ninth that I was gonna
Speaker 5: wait until I get taked. Who I don't have any
Speaker 5: money and I was checking on the tickets and it
Speaker 5: was so out. Yeah, okay next time.
Speaker 1: Yeah, I'll be back. I'll be back in twenty twenty.
Speaker 6: Six, twenty six, my green Frog onesie.
Speaker 1: Bro, bring, bring your grandma, bring the whole Family'll bring
Speaker 1: my grandma. Is there anything else you gonna say? The
Speaker 1: people in the computer before we go smoke?
Speaker 5: Oh?
Speaker 6: I love you guys, I love you, gig, I love
Speaker 6: you BYO see it.
Speaker 5: That's it.
Speaker 1: Bye bye, Fatima.
Speaker 2: Hello, Hello, Hi.
Speaker 1: What is your name?
Speaker 6: Caitlyn?
Speaker 1: Caitlin? What's up, Kaitlyn? How you doing?
Speaker 4: I'm pretty good. How are you?
Speaker 1: I'm actually doing Okay, I'm feeling I'm actually feeling fairly
Speaker 1: locked in and I'm excited and read to talk to
Speaker 1: you about whatever it is that you wanted to talk about.
Speaker 4: Okay, Now, I'm all nervous. I didn't think of that.
Speaker 1: No, don't be nervous. This is a low pressure situation.
Speaker 1: There's no this is this is this is one of
Speaker 1: the this is one of the least important things going
Speaker 1: on in America right now, or probably also probably the world.
Speaker 1: This is probably one of the least important things going
Speaker 1: on in the entire world right now. So there's just
Speaker 1: no pressure whatsoever.
Speaker 4: Okay, all right, So I kind of wanted to talk
Speaker 4: to you about. So I'm about to graduate from school
Speaker 4: and the career field I'm trying to get into is
Speaker 4: like really competitive. So We're thinking about moving to just
Speaker 4: anywhere in America, and I'm bringing my boyfriend along with me.
Speaker 4: So I have moved across the country by myself before,
Speaker 4: he have not, and I'm scared. But he's going to
Speaker 4: like not like where we move or it's going to
Speaker 4: be harder to make friends with a significant other along
Speaker 4: with me.
Speaker 1: Hm hmm. Well, he's not moving across the country alone.
Speaker 1: He's moving across the country with you.
Speaker 4: This is true, But then we both have to like
Speaker 4: make friends independently, and I feel like it's a lot
Speaker 4: easier when you're like by yourself making friends rather than when, like,
Speaker 4: I don't know, he's trying to make you know.
Speaker 1: Your your are you? Are you?
Speaker 2: Well?
Speaker 1: Okay, first of all, where where are you moving from?
Speaker 1: And where are you going to?
Speaker 4: So right now we're in Colorado and it's looking like
Speaker 4: we're going to go to Chicago.
Speaker 2: Well that's the goal. Cool to Chicago, but we could.
Speaker 4: Go to like Kansas or somewhere random wherever I can
Speaker 4: get a.
Speaker 1: Job really cool. Well, I mean Chicago would be way
Speaker 1: better than Kansas if you're trying to interact with other
Speaker 1: human beings. Definitely definitely more expensive, But it depends on
Speaker 1: I guess what you what you can hack? Okay, So
Speaker 1: your boyfriend, how old are you? Guys? Well, you're yeah old?
Speaker 2: He guys, I'm old.
Speaker 4: I'm twenty nine and he is thirty.
Speaker 1: And you've you're an experienced mover across that you sound
Speaker 1: just I can kind of the way you're talking about
Speaker 1: this sounds like you've like confidently done things like this
Speaker 1: in your life before.
Speaker 3: Yeah.
Speaker 4: So I moved from California to here by myself and
Speaker 4: I didn't know anyone, and I was like twenty floor
Speaker 4: when I did that. So I feel like I would
Speaker 4: be okay if I was moving by myself. But it's
Speaker 4: like more scary to drag someone along with me in
Speaker 4: case he doesn't like it, or in case.
Speaker 1: He well, the good here's the good news is you're
Speaker 1: actually not dragging him along with you. He's actually making
Speaker 1: his own independent decision to come with you, knowing the
Speaker 1: pros and the cons, weighing them and choosing to go
Speaker 1: along with you because he wants to be with you,
Speaker 1: maybe because he's open to new adventures and excitement in
Speaker 1: his life. And it is it is, it is, in
Speaker 1: fact his choice. You are not Hopefully you're not tying
Speaker 1: him up and throwing him in the trunk of your
Speaker 1: car and driving it to Kansas.
Speaker 4: No, that wasn't the plan I would.
Speaker 6: So.
Speaker 1: I mean, from my perspective, I really wouldn't think of
Speaker 1: this like you look you two are how as long
Speaker 1: he has been together?
Speaker 4: Four years?
Speaker 1: Okay? So yeah, I mean, look, you two are in
Speaker 1: a partnership and trying to support each other, and you
Speaker 1: clearly give a fuck that he isn't miserable all the time.
Speaker 2: Yeah, but.
Speaker 1: I mean, is he like, why are you nervous? Is
Speaker 1: he like socially not not good?
Speaker 4: No, not at all? But like he has his family
Speaker 4: here and I don't have any like real connections to hear,
Speaker 4: but he's been here for like a lot longer than
Speaker 4: I have, and he has like all of his work
Speaker 4: friends and everything. So he'd be leaving like everyone that
Speaker 4: he's been with for like ten years to go somewhere new.
Speaker 4: And I feel like if I hadn't like entered his life,
Speaker 4: he'd probably just stay here and be happy with him.
Speaker 1: No, but you can't. Yeah, but you really, he's this
Speaker 1: guy's making You didn't coax him into it. He's making
Speaker 1: his own decision.
Speaker 4: Yeah, yeah, this is true.
Speaker 1: And you're a good uh, you're a good girlfriend to
Speaker 1: want to help him with uh, with this and like
Speaker 1: work together with him on this. And you guys are
Speaker 1: like building a life together that's really awesome. But you know,
Speaker 1: I mean at the end of the fucking day. This guy,
Speaker 1: he's got a kind of he's got to summon the uh,
Speaker 1: the the whatever, the thing it takes to be like,
Speaker 1: all right, I'm gonna put myself out there in this way.
Speaker 1: I'm gonna maybe try go and do this. I'm gonna
Speaker 1: you know, hey, you want to come with me to this?
Speaker 1: And then you know, he's got a you can't be
Speaker 1: fully responsible for, like his uh whether or not he
Speaker 1: has a good social life in this new city he's
Speaker 1: deciding to move to with you.
Speaker 4: Yeah, that's true.
Speaker 1: Yeah, I don't know if that I don't know if
Speaker 1: that resonates with you.
Speaker 4: It does. Do you have any advice on how we
Speaker 4: can meet people and feel more like we have a
Speaker 4: community in a new place together.
Speaker 1: Well, if you go to Kansas, you can wander around
Speaker 1: the Dick's Sporting Goods and see if if you make
Speaker 1: any friends. What do you guys like.
Speaker 4: Music? I like the hike and being nature and stuff.
Speaker 4: He's a graphic designer and he likes all that computer stuff.
Speaker 1: Okay, bam, okay, here here join a hiking group. Bam,
Speaker 1: one and done. Go to small, intimate live music shows
Speaker 1: and talk to people bam, join a fucking art graphic
Speaker 1: design coworking group or start one bam. Three things. Uh,
Speaker 1: probably can't do any of them in Kansas. Maybe maybe
Speaker 1: I'm sorry for shooting on Maybe they're you know, I'm
Speaker 1: sorry for shooting on Kansas. Maybe you can do that
Speaker 1: in Kansas.
Speaker 4: But no, I fear that on Casus.
Speaker 1: Yeah, but yeah, we'll just do stuff, do stuff, start
Speaker 1: your own stuff. Just did to leave your house, go
Speaker 1: on the internet. There's it's literally never ever, ever been
Speaker 1: easier to like going to a new place and starting
Speaker 1: a life. There has never been easier. If you have
Speaker 1: some like if if you have if you have the
Speaker 1: desire to fucking do it, you have to be willing
Speaker 1: to go out and put yourself out there and and
Speaker 1: uh find communities and add to them somehow.
Speaker 3: Uh.
Speaker 1: But if you do that, you're going to be fine
Speaker 1: wherever you go, especially a place like Chicago.
Speaker 4: You know that's very true.
Speaker 1: Anything else.
Speaker 4: I don't think so.
Speaker 1: All right, Well, where do you think? Where do you
Speaker 1: think we go when we die? Do you think it's
Speaker 1: somewhere horrible?
Speaker 4: No? I feel like I want to believe that we
Speaker 4: get like resurrected into our favorite.
Speaker 1: Animal what's your favorite animal?
Speaker 4: A koala?
Speaker 1: Would you want to be a koala?
Speaker 4: Yeah, it would be sick. You just symmetry.
Speaker 1: Did they look really cute? Yeah? I went to Australia
Speaker 1: and I saw some of them, and some of them
Speaker 1: will run around and it's good. It's good time to
Speaker 1: be one. But I don't know. Sometimes I wonder if
Speaker 1: it was better, if it might have been better to
Speaker 1: be other things than just a human. I'm human. Humans
Speaker 1: are both blessed and burdened with our higher consciousness. And
Speaker 1: you got I guess you have to decide for yourself
Speaker 1: if it's a burden or a blessing.
Speaker 3: But how do you know?
Speaker 4: Koalas don't have a higher consciousness just like us?
Speaker 1: But they don't. We we because you know why? I
Speaker 1: know that because some guy at one point took a
Speaker 1: koala and just took a chainsaw and sawed him in
Speaker 1: half and looked at his brain like a lot. And
Speaker 1: and then and then some other guy did the same
Speaker 1: thing with like a lot of people just took their
Speaker 1: bodies and cut sliced them up with a chainsaw and
Speaker 1: looked at their brains. And they took each other's information,
Speaker 1: and they came to a scientific conclusion the koalas are
Speaker 1: dumber than human beings.
Speaker 2: Wow.
Speaker 4: I don't know if that's right, but I'll take your
Speaker 4: word on it.
Speaker 1: Is there anything else you want to say to the
Speaker 1: people of the computer before we go?
Speaker 4: I don't think so. Thanks for talking to me.
Speaker 1: Later, dude. Kansas. By the way, just if anyone's listening
Speaker 1: to this that lives in Kansas and you want to
Speaker 1: be like, no, we actually have a great live music scene,
Speaker 1: and no, we actually have lots of great nature in Kansas.
Speaker 1: I'm open to it. I'm open to I want to
Speaker 1: I have no it benefits me in no way, shape
Speaker 1: or form. If Kansas is shitty, I've been. I've like,
Speaker 1: where the fuck have I been in Kansas? Where the hell?
Speaker 1: Where the fuck even it? Hold on, I'm going on
Speaker 1: Google Maps. I'm looking at Kansas. Where the hell is Kansas?
Speaker 1: I know I've been there. You know what's so stupid
Speaker 1: is that Kansas City isn't even in Kansas. What's the
Speaker 1: big city in Kansas? Topeka, dude. The other's Wichita. You
Speaker 1: know what? Oh look, oh look, okay, I'm looking at Wichita, Kansas.
Speaker 1: They have an urban air trampoline. An adventure Park. They
Speaker 1: have a music venue. Okay, all right, you know what, Fine,
Speaker 1: Maybe you know what, Maybe you could you know what,
Speaker 1: I bet, if y'all really wanted to, you could live
Speaker 1: a nice life in Wichita, Kansas. I really, I bet
Speaker 1: you could. I bet you could goes on the line,
Speaker 1: taking your phone calls every night. He was teaching you
Speaker 1: cud in the line, an expert