WEBVTT - “I GHOSTED MY GF”

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<v Speaker 1>Hey, what's your name?

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<v Speaker 2>Joe?

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<v Speaker 1>How how be it going, Joe?

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<v Speaker 2>It's not bad. I've been trying to call you for

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<v Speaker 2>probably like a week now, and it's probably like my

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<v Speaker 2>six hundredth call, so I'm pretty excited.

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<v Speaker 1>Have we ever spoken before?

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<v Speaker 2>We have not, but I watch your streams every day

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<v Speaker 2>when I'm at work. My buddy has YouTube Premium, so

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<v Speaker 2>I just darkened my phone and I just listen to

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<v Speaker 2>you while I work.

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<v Speaker 1>Cool, cool man. Thank you for thank you for indulging

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<v Speaker 1>in my bullshit. I I'm sincerely, sincerely honored by that.

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<v Speaker 1>What what when you listen to the show and you think, well,

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<v Speaker 1>if I were on the Gecko Show, this is what

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<v Speaker 1>I would talk about? What do you think? What do

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<v Speaker 1>you think you would talk about?

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<v Speaker 2>Well? I have three things I wanted to talk to

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<v Speaker 2>you about, one pertaining you, one pertaining my life, and

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<v Speaker 2>then one just a general question.

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<v Speaker 1>Let's I thank you for laying that all out for me.

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<v Speaker 1>Let's can I choose the order in which we do them?

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<v Speaker 2>For sure? Manage your show.

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<v Speaker 1>Let's start with the general question.

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<v Speaker 2>Okay, how do you feel about baths?

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<v Speaker 1>B A T H or B A T S.

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<v Speaker 2>B A T H.

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<v Speaker 1>How do I feel about baths. I like baths. Well,

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<v Speaker 1>I'm a big Here's the thing I don't. Baths are

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<v Speaker 1>like a whole thing to fill them up and feels weird,

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<v Speaker 1>kind of like I don't like the silence of baths.

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<v Speaker 1>Like I'm a big I'm a big huge every time

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<v Speaker 1>sit down in the shower or I love sitting down

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<v Speaker 1>in the shower. I don't take baths, but I sit

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<v Speaker 1>down in that shower every single time I'm in the shower,

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<v Speaker 1>and a bath is kind of like sitting down in

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<v Speaker 1>the shower, except it's two static of an experience, right,

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<v Speaker 1>like the sound and the feeling of the water coming

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<v Speaker 1>from above feels it is an important element of my relaxation.

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<v Speaker 1>So I'm not personally a big bath guy, but you know,

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<v Speaker 1>I get it. I get it. What about you? How

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<v Speaker 1>do you feel about baths? I feel like there had

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<v Speaker 1>to have been a reason why you asked this question,

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<v Speaker 1>and I'm curious what that reason might be.

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<v Speaker 2>Yeah, I've partaken them sometimes after a long day at work.

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<v Speaker 2>I do housekeeping and I also am a cashier, so

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<v Speaker 2>I have two jobs. So every now and then I

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<v Speaker 2>like to take a nice, warm, hot bath and maybe

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<v Speaker 2>even put some bath salts in there and just relax

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<v Speaker 2>after a long day.

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<v Speaker 3>You know.

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<v Speaker 1>Cool? Cool? All right, you know what you've inspired me?

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<v Speaker 1>Next time, I'm gonna try a bath sometime soon based

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<v Speaker 1>on your recommendation. Hell yeah, all right, now, let's do

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<v Speaker 1>your life and then we can go to May.

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<v Speaker 2>Okay. So basically a couple months ago, right before I

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<v Speaker 2>want to say, summer of this year, I got really

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<v Speaker 2>sick at work and I felt like like fainting and

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<v Speaker 2>stuff all the time, and I had hot sweats and

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<v Speaker 2>I was in confusion and stuff, and I just wasn't

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<v Speaker 2>understanding it. And it turns out I got lime disease

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<v Speaker 2>because I mow lawns and stuff a lot and do

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<v Speaker 2>landscaping in the summer. And I didn't even know that

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<v Speaker 2>I had it. And me and my girlfriend are long distance.

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<v Speaker 2>She lives in New Jersey and I live in New York,

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<v Speaker 2>and so when I found out I had lime disease,

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<v Speaker 2>I kind of ghosted her, but I kind of ghosted

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<v Speaker 2>everybody just for that. I want to say, probably month

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<v Speaker 2>months and a half period of time where I had

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<v Speaker 2>to get antibiotics and you know, get treated for everything,

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<v Speaker 2>and I just didn't know how to handle everything. So

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<v Speaker 2>I kind of ghosted everybody, and she got really upset

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<v Speaker 2>with me because I hurt her by that, you know,

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<v Speaker 2>And I know you don't really like giving relationship advice

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<v Speaker 2>like that, but I just wanted to turn to you

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<v Speaker 2>because she's still heard about it and it comes up

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<v Speaker 2>in arguments here and there. But we still want to

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<v Speaker 2>make things work and I really care for her, So

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<v Speaker 2>amongst you know, going to see her and putting more

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<v Speaker 2>efforts in, is there any advice you can give me

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<v Speaker 2>on trying to be better or do things differently?

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<v Speaker 1>Well, first of I'm curious, why did you ghost everyone?

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<v Speaker 1>I would think if that that seems like something you'd

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<v Speaker 1>want like support with, So I guess I want to

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<v Speaker 1>know why you ghosted everyone.

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<v Speaker 2>Well, my whole life, I've kind of just been used

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<v Speaker 2>to ghosting people when stuff happens, because I had a

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<v Speaker 2>really traumatic childhood where a lot of people weren't there

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<v Speaker 2>for me that should have been. And I definitely know

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<v Speaker 2>that it's wrong, you know, and it's not something that

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<v Speaker 2>I should have done, and that it hurts people. But

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<v Speaker 2>I really didn't even know how to understand how I

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<v Speaker 2>was feeling myself, especially because I was told if I

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<v Speaker 2>would have waited very much longer. It could have been

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<v Speaker 2>a lot worse.

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<v Speaker 1>So well, forget well, forget about the value judgments of

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<v Speaker 1>like you know, saying like I know it's bad, Like

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<v Speaker 1>why do you think you'd do it?

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<v Speaker 2>I think it all stems back to childhood, to be honest.

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<v Speaker 1>But so that, But then I guess, even if even

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<v Speaker 1>if that's true, what is the belief that you're like

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<v Speaker 1>subconsciously holding on to as an adult that is influencing

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<v Speaker 1>your decision to ghost everyone.

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<v Speaker 2>I kind of think it just goes back to, you know,

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<v Speaker 2>being by myself and knowing that if I could come

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<v Speaker 2>to terms with whatever is going on by myself, then

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<v Speaker 2>maybe I'd be more open to being around everyone more.

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<v Speaker 2>But especially when I don't understand things or things that

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<v Speaker 2>are very traumatic, I kind of just tend to shut

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<v Speaker 2>down and isolate, you know, and I try to do

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<v Speaker 2>things that make me happy, even if they're momentarily happy,

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<v Speaker 2>things like playing video games or you know, and just

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<v Speaker 2>not contacting anybody.

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<v Speaker 1>So is it just you're not contacting anybody because you

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<v Speaker 1>don't want to be I'm still I'm still trying to

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<v Speaker 1>understands why this is just you'd just rather be.

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<v Speaker 2>Alone maybe in a way, it's getting my mind off

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<v Speaker 2>of things and not having to talk about whatever situation

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<v Speaker 2>is going on, especially if I'm doing something else like

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<v Speaker 2>playing video games or smoking weed or just doing something alone.

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<v Speaker 2>Maybe it's just the fact that I'm getting my mind

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<v Speaker 2>off of those things without other people and being reminded

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<v Speaker 2>of whatever situation, especially traumatic.

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<v Speaker 1>Are you associating other people? Just are you still saying

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<v Speaker 1>just like, if I'm around other people, they're gonna want

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<v Speaker 1>to know what's going on with me, and I'm gonna

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<v Speaker 1>have to keep fucking talking about it, and I don't

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<v Speaker 1>feel like doing that.

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<v Speaker 2>Uh, definitely at times. Yeah, I'd probably say sixty to

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<v Speaker 2>seventy percent of the time. Yeah, that's mostly the case.

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<v Speaker 1>Interesting, So your girlfriend is mad at you.

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<v Speaker 2>Not so much anymore. She's still pretty hurt about it,

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<v Speaker 2>but you know, she's like, I'm always trying to understand

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<v Speaker 2>why you did it, but it's kind of hard to

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<v Speaker 2>understand because I'm not you, you know, And I'm like, just

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<v Speaker 2>know that I didn't do it with the intentions of

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<v Speaker 2>hurting you or hurting anyone. I just did it because

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<v Speaker 2>I really didn't know how to deal with it myself,

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<v Speaker 2>and it was a very hard time for me.

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<v Speaker 1>You know, yeah, what is okay? I mean it sounds

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<v Speaker 1>like you're articulating your feelings in an honest way and

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<v Speaker 1>not like so I guess you. I mean that's really

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<v Speaker 1>all you can do. I think, Yeah, well, how long

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<v Speaker 1>ago was this?

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<v Speaker 2>Probably right before summer? It's like mid spring of this year.

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<v Speaker 1>Okay, I know, are you guys like cool?

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<v Speaker 2>Like?

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<v Speaker 1>What how are you guys doing? Now?

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<v Speaker 2>We have arguments here and there, and especially when that

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<v Speaker 2>comes up during the argument, you know, but I try

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<v Speaker 2>to move past it, and I tell her that I'm

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<v Speaker 2>going to like fix everything and make everything the way

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<v Speaker 2>it should be. But you know, we have to let

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<v Speaker 2>time play out with that part, because that's another important

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<v Speaker 2>thing that's linked to all of this, is just time,

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<v Speaker 2>especially when you're trying to grow and love somebody and

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<v Speaker 2>you know, be connected together.

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<v Speaker 1>How's your line disease? Are you gonna? Are you? Are

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<v Speaker 1>you good?

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<v Speaker 2>Yeah? I had to take antibiotics for like a month.

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<v Speaker 2>They said it's always gonna probably like be in my

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<v Speaker 2>system and stuff. But they're a lot better with the

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<v Speaker 2>antibiotics to put it into remission to where it'll never

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<v Speaker 2>like relapse or anything whatever come back up with it again.

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<v Speaker 1>Okay, so you're not about to like like turn into

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<v Speaker 1>a giant tick like that the Fly movie. No, okay,

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<v Speaker 1>well that's good.

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<v Speaker 2>I still can't believe I'm talking to you, bro. It's

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<v Speaker 2>so crazy.

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<v Speaker 1>How old are you? I'm just curious.

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<v Speaker 2>I'm going to be twenty seven in March.

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<v Speaker 1>Cool, very cool? And how long you've been with been

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<v Speaker 1>with the Jersey Lady?

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<v Speaker 2>November twentieth, I'm going to see her, but November eleventh,

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<v Speaker 2>it'll be two years.

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<v Speaker 1>Okay, that's quite a It's I have to say, it

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<v Speaker 1>was really I didn't say anything at the time, but

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<v Speaker 1>it was really funny when you said you were in

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<v Speaker 1>a long distance relationship. I was like, oh, he's like

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<v Speaker 1>there's a lady who lives in Europe or something, and

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<v Speaker 1>you were like, I live in New York, she lives

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<v Speaker 1>in New Jersey.

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<v Speaker 2>Well. Another thing a lot of people tend to, uh,

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<v Speaker 2>I guess you would say, like misunderstand is when you

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<v Speaker 2>say New York a lot of time people just think

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<v Speaker 2>of the city.

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<v Speaker 1>But I know you live in like Albany or some ship,

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<v Speaker 1>and she lives in like Jersey.

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<v Speaker 2>Like, actually, I'm so sad.

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<v Speaker 1>I didn't get to get to your show, bro that

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<v Speaker 1>actually knows that actually genuinely is a long term, long,

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<v Speaker 1>long long distance religship. Whould you meet this? Uh? Your girlfriend.

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<v Speaker 2>A dating app was a field? Uh No, I think

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<v Speaker 2>it was like ba do or something like that.

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<v Speaker 3>But do.

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<v Speaker 1>Oh yeah, I remember Bado. Okay, so she's I mean, uh, okay, Well, well,

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<v Speaker 1>I don't want to move on. I was gonna say,

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<v Speaker 1>I know you had a thing you wanted to ask me,

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<v Speaker 1>but I don't know if we've talked all about the

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<v Speaker 1>things you wanted to talk about regarding you, I don't

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<v Speaker 1>know if there was any other angles to this you

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<v Speaker 1>wanted to explore.

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<v Speaker 2>I kind of just like I said, I know you

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<v Speaker 2>hate giving relationship advice because.

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<v Speaker 1>I just hate love myself a little. It's good. I'm

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<v Speaker 1>happy to talk through stuff with you though.

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<v Speaker 2>Yeah, but yeah, I mean, other than time, what else

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<v Speaker 2>do you think I should do? Just keep putting all

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<v Speaker 2>my efforts as much as I can in like I am,

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<v Speaker 2>and just wait it.

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<v Speaker 1>Out, wait what out.

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<v Speaker 2>Just getting stronger in the relationship and hopefully moving past

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<v Speaker 2>all of this stuff so it doesn't come up all

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<v Speaker 2>the time, especially when we're arguing.

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<v Speaker 1>I mean, look, you've expressed yourself on what happens with

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<v Speaker 1>uh with with you know, when you got diagnosed with

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<v Speaker 1>lyme disease, and you kind of expressed that you have

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<v Speaker 1>this like defense mechanism that you're trying to understand as

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<v Speaker 1>to why you do that. You sound like you listened

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<v Speaker 1>to what she had to say and your actioning upon it. Yeah,

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<v Speaker 1>what else? What else is there? I mean you care?

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<v Speaker 1>What else? What else is there?

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<v Speaker 2>Right? Right? That's kind of how I feel. I feel

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<v Speaker 2>like I just kind of got to keep doing everything

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<v Speaker 2>that I can do to be a better person and man,

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<v Speaker 2>you know, and especially better in the relationship, and then

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<v Speaker 2>wait for time to run its course with everything.

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<v Speaker 1>You know. Okay, are you happy not to fucking be

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<v Speaker 1>a fuck? Are you happy in this relationship?

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<v Speaker 2>Yeah? She's actually a lot different from anybody I've ever

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<v Speaker 2>been with.

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<v Speaker 1>I know that cool and oh go ahead, gosh, but you.

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<v Speaker 2>Know, it's just I've never been this invested in someone.

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<v Speaker 2>I would say, you know.

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<v Speaker 1>Does that feel Are you excited about being invested in

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<v Speaker 1>this person? Yes, that's a great answer, that's the right answer.

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<v Speaker 1>That's a tricky thing, though, it's a true it's such

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<v Speaker 1>a tricky thing being invested in like that because you

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<v Speaker 1>you you leave yourself. It's the kind of the the

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<v Speaker 1>the contradiction of love, I guess is you leave yourself

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<v Speaker 1>open to to hurt by being so invested in another person.

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<v Speaker 1>But I don't know, there's probably been I want to say,

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<v Speaker 1>at least one hundred thousand songs that are written about

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<v Speaker 1>that subject. And so that investment and that hurt are

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<v Speaker 1>just kind of it sounds to be natural parts of life.

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<v Speaker 2>Yeah. Yeah, And another way I like to think about it,

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<v Speaker 2>you know, is it it does suck leaving yourself solable, vulnerable,

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<v Speaker 2>especially putting your all into someone. But you know, I mean,

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<v Speaker 2>other than love on this planet and money and success,

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<v Speaker 2>what else do we really have other than love, especially

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<v Speaker 2>when it comes to friendships, relationships, connections with people. I mean,

0:14:20.000 --> 0:14:23.040
<v Speaker 2>it all kind of just boils down to caring, you.

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<v Speaker 1>Know, money, success, tropical mic and ikes. They're always coming

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<v Speaker 1>up with new flavors of mic and nikes. What was

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<v Speaker 1>the thing about me that you wanted to ask?

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<v Speaker 2>Do you care if I put you on speaker for

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<v Speaker 2>a second, because it was pertaining to one of the

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<v Speaker 2>videos on your channel, And I've always been curious on

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<v Speaker 2>what the lore behind it.

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<v Speaker 1>Is I'm really terrified about this, but go ahead.

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<v Speaker 2>Okay, I don't even I probably don't even have to

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<v Speaker 2>put you on speaker and go to the channel. But

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<v Speaker 2>there's a video on your channel. It's probably about twelve

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<v Speaker 2>to fourteen seconds, okay, and it was taken about.

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<v Speaker 1>Oh it's the one where it's the one. It's the

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<v Speaker 1>one where I'm running down the side of the hideway

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<v Speaker 1>in Utah. I'm and I'm screaming.

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<v Speaker 2>Yes, yeah. Oh.

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<v Speaker 1>I wish I had a cool story behind that. I

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<v Speaker 1>just kind of thought it would be funny, really well,

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<v Speaker 1>you want you want to hear a you want to

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<v Speaker 1>hear a really crazy story or not. It's not a story,

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<v Speaker 1>but it's just a thing in I used to make

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<v Speaker 1>that used to just be a genre of video that

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<v Speaker 1>I did. I made like the first back in like

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<v Speaker 1>twenty this is the at This is the kind of

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<v Speaker 1>the actual origin story of therapy Gecko is like in

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<v Speaker 1>twenty eighteen, I this is the reason why I'm a Gecko.

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<v Speaker 1>In like twenty eighteen, I made this video called I

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<v Speaker 1>Am in Love with Clara or it is something like that.

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<v Speaker 1>I don't I don't know what the name of the

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<v Speaker 1>video is. My channel but it's restarts Clara. It's probably

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<v Speaker 1>on there, and it's just this video where I'm like wet,

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<v Speaker 1>I'm like drenched in, I'm like soaking wet, and I'm

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<v Speaker 1>running down the streets of Philadelphia screaming about how I'm

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<v Speaker 1>in love with a woman named Clara, but she's getting

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<v Speaker 1>married to another guy in my bathroom and she's kicked

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<v Speaker 1>me out, and all my friends are going to the

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<v Speaker 1>wedding and they like, I'm just trying to create a

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<v Speaker 1>nightmare situation and just I'm just running down the streets screaming.

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<v Speaker 1>And I made like three of those other videos where

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<v Speaker 1>I was just like had a weird, melodramatic love story

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<v Speaker 1>that I was running down the streets soaked in water, yelling.

0:16:47.200 --> 0:16:49.720
<v Speaker 1>I was making those kinds of videos, and one of

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<v Speaker 1>them I made was me running down the streets in

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<v Speaker 1>a lizard costume. I don't know why I came up

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<v Speaker 1>with this idea, but the idea is that I was

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<v Speaker 1>like escaping from a terrarium and I was running down

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<v Speaker 1>the streets of of of the neighborhood. And that's the

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<v Speaker 1>reason that I have. There's the reason I had the

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<v Speaker 1>gecko costume. And then when the pandemic happens. I started streaming,

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<v Speaker 1>and the I just had the costume, and so that's

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<v Speaker 1>kind of where like therapy Gecko came. So yeah, the genre.

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<v Speaker 2>Of sorry go ahead, no, you go ahead.

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<v Speaker 1>Well, the jat basically very extreme, just in the butterfly

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<v Speaker 1>in a very like butterfly effect way. That video, that

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<v Speaker 1>fourteen second video of me running down the streets screaming,

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<v Speaker 1>is part of the extended lore as to how I

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<v Speaker 1>became the therapy Gecko in a in an indirect way.

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<v Speaker 2>Yeah, that's so odd because the only one I had

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<v Speaker 2>stumbled upon was the one of you running down the highway.

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<v Speaker 2>But maybe I'll have to go back.

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<v Speaker 1>Into your which yes, sure, if you if you go

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<v Speaker 1>on uh you are you all? You said you wanted

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<v Speaker 1>to put me on speaker. I assume that meant because

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<v Speaker 1>you were just in my YouTube channel.

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<v Speaker 2>I would go, but I didn't do it. If you

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<v Speaker 2>want me to go look first night.

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<v Speaker 1>You know what, don't you don't don't don't you don't

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<v Speaker 1>have to do it. You don't have to do it

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<v Speaker 1>right now. You don't have to do it right now.

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<v Speaker 1>But well let me see if it's on there still. Yeah, yes,

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<v Speaker 1>if you search, if you search Clara, it's on there.

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<v Speaker 1>Oh yeah, whatever. I don't know why these I feel

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<v Speaker 1>I these they're funny. I don't you know whatever, they're funny.

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<v Speaker 1>They're funny. What were you going to say?

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<v Speaker 2>I seen your stand up A part of your stand

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<v Speaker 2>up skit from quite a few years ago where you

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<v Speaker 2>were like, I hate when people take psychedelics and they

0:18:59.640 --> 0:19:01.919
<v Speaker 2>say that that made me smarter and made me a

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<v Speaker 2>different person. He's like, you're just you were like, you're

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<v Speaker 2>just taking drugs.

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<v Speaker 1>Yeah, I was trying to be George Carlin when I

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<v Speaker 1>was seventeen.

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<v Speaker 2>It was funny, though, dude.

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<v Speaker 1>Thanks man.

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<v Speaker 2>Yeah, I'm a I think that you never pursued therapy.

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<v Speaker 2>Gecko eventually stand up would pop for you. You you

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<v Speaker 2>definitely would hit it on the head.

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<v Speaker 1>Well, thanks man. Yeah, I mean, I don't know. It's

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<v Speaker 1>so weird because yeah, I did stand up for six

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<v Speaker 1>years before I did the Gecko, and I quit because

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<v Speaker 1>I didn't it was just too hard. And then and

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<v Speaker 1>now I'm like headline and then I you know, I

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<v Speaker 1>went to Syracuse and headlined to the fucking Syracuse Funny Bone.

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<v Speaker 1>But I am not a stand up comedian, but I

0:19:44.640 --> 0:19:47.160
<v Speaker 1>do stand up East it's I feel like I did

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<v Speaker 1>a very weird roundabout uh, fulfillment of my of my dreams.

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<v Speaker 2>It's so funny when you talked about you were talking

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<v Speaker 2>with a caller. I think that you went to your

0:20:00.840 --> 0:20:03.280
<v Speaker 2>Syracuse show and you're like, I don't know how you

0:20:03.280 --> 0:20:05.679
<v Speaker 2>guys live out there. There's absolutely nothing to do. The

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<v Speaker 2>funnest thing I did was smoke a bowl in the

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<v Speaker 2>mall parking lot and a guy gave me a gecko bowl.

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<v Speaker 1>Dude. That was a great night. That was an Albany. Yeah,

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<v Speaker 1>that was awesome. Yeah, I smoked weed in the open.

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<v Speaker 1>The club booked an opener and he was a really

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<v Speaker 1>cool guy and I sat in his car and we

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<v Speaker 1>smoked weed together. It is a really fun time. That's

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<v Speaker 1>a good time.

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<v Speaker 2>You spoke there's nothing here.

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<v Speaker 1>Yeah, but you know what but you know is you Yeah,

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<v Speaker 1>but life is creating your own adventures. So if you

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<v Speaker 1>really want to have a crazy time in Syracuse, you

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<v Speaker 1>can figure out a way to do it.

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<v Speaker 2>Oh yeah, there's a lot of nature up here. I'm

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<v Speaker 2>sure you've I mean, I don't know how much you

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<v Speaker 2>got out when you came up, but there's definitely a

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<v Speaker 2>lot of places to hike and natural stuff you can.

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<v Speaker 1>I really most of the time I spent was in

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<v Speaker 1>the radius of that mall parking lot that the comedy

0:21:07.920 --> 0:21:10.720
<v Speaker 1>club is attached to, which, by the way, is a

0:21:10.760 --> 0:21:16.400
<v Speaker 1>sick mall. I they've got go karts. Yeah, whatever the destiny,

0:21:16.400 --> 0:21:20.880
<v Speaker 1>moll's sick, they've got go karts. Man, dude.

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<v Speaker 2>My girlfriend knows when she came up, but she's like,

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<v Speaker 2>I'm kind of nervous.

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<v Speaker 1>I'm like, come on, well, what's your name again, Joe? Joe? Okay,

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<v Speaker 1>we did your general question, we did you, and we

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<v Speaker 1>did me. Do you feel satisfying?

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<v Speaker 2>I do feel pretty satisfied, Lyle. It's always been kind

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<v Speaker 2>of a dream to uh talk to you, whether I'm

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<v Speaker 2>on the show or not, because I show about that before,

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<v Speaker 2>whether or not this would get posted, and you know,

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<v Speaker 2>I really don't care as long as as long as

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<v Speaker 2>I was able to talk to you, that was kind

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<v Speaker 2>of my only goal.

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<v Speaker 1>Thanks Joe, I sincerely, I'm very honored that, uh, that

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<v Speaker 1>you want to talk to me. I'm I'm going to

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<v Speaker 1>try to uh, I'm gonna try. I'm going to try

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<v Speaker 1>to not end this sentence by saying something self deprecating.

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<v Speaker 1>So thank you.

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<v Speaker 2>Joe for sure.

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<v Speaker 1>Is there anything else you want to say to the

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<v Speaker 1>people of the computer before we go?

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<v Speaker 2>Yeah, I kind of got a riddle for you and

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<v Speaker 2>everybody watch.

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<v Speaker 1>This guy had three topics. This guy had a general question,

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<v Speaker 1>something for me, and something with him, And little did

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<v Speaker 1>we know that the whole fucking time, he also had

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<v Speaker 1>a riddle in his back pocket. This crazy fucking quality.

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<v Speaker 1>Tell me your riddle.

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<v Speaker 2>Well, there's no real answer to the riddle. It all

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<v Speaker 2>depends on what you feel like your answer would be.

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<v Speaker 2>It's a personalized riddle. But if you stand for something,

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<v Speaker 2>what would you fall for?

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<v Speaker 1>That's this is the eminem quote, right if you stand

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<v Speaker 1>if you don't stand for anything, If you don't stand

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<v Speaker 1>for something, you fall for anything.

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<v Speaker 2>No, it's not an eminem quote.

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<v Speaker 1>You have to tell it to me right now. I'm

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<v Speaker 1>done with guesses. I need the answer to this riddle

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<v Speaker 1>right now.

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<v Speaker 2>I mean, what would you fall for? Lyle?

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<v Speaker 1>I will hang up on you if you don't tell

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<v Speaker 1>me the answer to this riddle.

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<v Speaker 2>I can tell you what I would fall for. Do

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<v Speaker 2>you want to know?

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<v Speaker 1>Do I want to know?

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<v Speaker 2>Yeah?

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<v Speaker 1>Okay, tell me Joe.

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<v Speaker 2>I would fall for probably the best life that I

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<v Speaker 2>can get with a nice family and you know, everything

0:23:47.280 --> 0:23:50.359
<v Speaker 2>taken care of, no bills, everything comfortable, and just the

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<v Speaker 2>life anybody would want to live.

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<v Speaker 1>What the what the fuck kind of riddle was that?

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<v Speaker 2>I told you it's personalized. It all depends on what

0:24:00.520 --> 0:24:02.280
<v Speaker 2>you would stand for and what you would call for.

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<v Speaker 1>That wasn't a riddle. That was just like, uh, I

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<v Speaker 1>don't know what that was, Joe, What was that?

0:24:10.800 --> 0:24:13.359
<v Speaker 2>Well, what defines the riddle? Words are just words. You

0:24:13.359 --> 0:24:18.080
<v Speaker 2>can make them mean anything, you know.

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<v Speaker 1>That was a very riddlely thing for of you to say,

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<v Speaker 1>So I'm going to count that as you good. Those

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<v Speaker 1>are very riddlely thing. Well, it's been a pleasure to

0:24:27.320 --> 0:24:29.720
<v Speaker 1>talking to you, Joe, and uh, good luck with with

0:24:29.760 --> 0:24:33.359
<v Speaker 1>your crazy life and your and your long dish New

0:24:33.440 --> 0:24:38.320
<v Speaker 1>Jersey relationship. Yeah we can. We can fucking do bumper cars.

0:24:38.640 --> 0:24:40.800
<v Speaker 1>I mean, not the bumper cars to go carts. Oh

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<v Speaker 1>if they had bumper cars moving to Syracuse. All right,

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<v Speaker 1>take care.

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<v Speaker 2>Joe for that ship all the way, Take care of Lyle.

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<v Speaker 1>That was the worst riddle I've ever heard in my

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<v Speaker 1>entire life.

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<v Speaker 2>What is that?

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<v Speaker 1>Well, I gotta respond, I gotta think about it again.

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<v Speaker 1>If you don't stand for something, you fall for anything.

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<v Speaker 1>This is like an Andy cough is he doing? If

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<v Speaker 1>you don't stand for something, you will If you don't

0:25:08.440 --> 0:25:11.480
<v Speaker 1>stand for for anything, what would you fall for? I

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<v Speaker 1>would fall for a good life and kids. And that

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<v Speaker 1>was That was an acid trip of a riddle right there.

0:25:18.600 --> 0:25:21.080
<v Speaker 1>You know what that actually? If the point of a

0:25:21.160 --> 0:25:30.000
<v Speaker 1>riddle is to confuse and and too shock, won't know

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<v Speaker 1>if that shocked me, I mean you know, actually no,

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<v Speaker 1>it shocked me a little bit. If the point of

0:25:33.600 --> 0:25:35.560
<v Speaker 1>a riddle is to confuse and shock, then that that

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<v Speaker 1>was a good riddle.

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<v Speaker 2>Hello.

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<v Speaker 1>Hi, what's your name? Mogwai Mogwi? What's up? Mogwi? How

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<v Speaker 1>you doing? Chilling?

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<v Speaker 3>Chilling? It's my first time getting on the stream.

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<v Speaker 1>Very cool, very good, very good. Where you call him from?

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<v Speaker 3>I'm calling from Canada.

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<v Speaker 1>Uh, I was just in Canada. I was just in Toronto.

0:26:03.480 --> 0:26:06.280
<v Speaker 1>Toronto is a great town, dude. Yeah, I was just there.

0:26:06.359 --> 0:26:10.040
<v Speaker 2>You know't know I was there, which is crazy because

0:26:10.040 --> 0:26:11.520
<v Speaker 2>I listened to all the pods So.

0:26:11.880 --> 0:26:14.520
<v Speaker 1>What you listen? It's so crazy I do people. Yeah,

0:26:14.520 --> 0:26:16.440
<v Speaker 1>I just did two shows there. Man, you should have game.

0:26:16.480 --> 0:26:18.359
<v Speaker 1>It was fun. They're good shows. They're fun.

0:26:18.640 --> 0:26:21.320
<v Speaker 3>I'm actually kind of shaking my head that I missed that.

0:26:21.680 --> 0:26:23.600
<v Speaker 3>I always say to myself, if you're ever here, I

0:26:23.640 --> 0:26:24.360
<v Speaker 3>was going to pull up.

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<v Speaker 1>That's quite how to sho that. No, I was, Yeah,

0:26:27.080 --> 0:26:31.240
<v Speaker 1>I was there. Yeah, dude. Well, I mean I'm probably

0:26:31.240 --> 0:26:33.159
<v Speaker 1>never coming back. That's not true. I'll come back, but

0:26:33.320 --> 0:26:34.280
<v Speaker 1>it'll be at least a year.

0:26:35.520 --> 0:26:37.320
<v Speaker 3>I don't say that breaking my heart ring.

0:26:37.320 --> 0:26:39.439
<v Speaker 1>No, man, no, no, I'll come back, but it's going

0:26:39.480 --> 0:26:41.760
<v Speaker 1>to be at least a year. But I mean, well, anyway, Look,

0:26:41.880 --> 0:26:45.800
<v Speaker 1>we're on the look. Despite all that, we are on

0:26:45.840 --> 0:26:48.000
<v Speaker 1>the phone with each other right now, So let's take

0:26:48.040 --> 0:26:48.639
<v Speaker 1>advantage of this.

0:26:48.680 --> 0:26:49.720
<v Speaker 3>Yeah, a beautiful thing.

0:26:50.680 --> 0:26:51.600
<v Speaker 1>What do you want to talk about?

0:26:51.600 --> 0:26:55.080
<v Speaker 3>Man, man, I have so much I want to talk

0:26:55.119 --> 0:26:58.640
<v Speaker 3>to you about. But can I tell you quick story first?

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<v Speaker 1>You've well, I guess before is how uh sure? Yeah?

0:27:05.480 --> 0:27:05.920
<v Speaker 1>All right.

0:27:06.000 --> 0:27:08.840
<v Speaker 3>This one's a little a little graphic, but I've been

0:27:08.880 --> 0:27:11.359
<v Speaker 3>wanting to share this story with the world for a

0:27:11.400 --> 0:27:16.640
<v Speaker 3>long time. So basically, to preface, it's about how one

0:27:16.680 --> 0:27:21.320
<v Speaker 3>time I nutted blood and there's no I didn't really

0:27:21.320 --> 0:27:23.359
<v Speaker 3>get any answers as to why it happened.

0:27:23.400 --> 0:27:24.679
<v Speaker 2>It just it just happened.

0:27:24.840 --> 0:27:28.280
<v Speaker 1>Fucking Christ. Okay was it? What more to the story

0:27:28.359 --> 0:27:30.520
<v Speaker 1>is there than just that one simple sentence?

0:27:33.720 --> 0:27:36.840
<v Speaker 3>Like the way that it happened was traumatic. Basically, I

0:27:36.880 --> 0:27:40.560
<v Speaker 3>was with my ex partner and you know, we were

0:27:40.560 --> 0:27:44.119
<v Speaker 3>getting into it or whatever, and like when I had

0:27:44.160 --> 0:27:49.199
<v Speaker 3>pulled out and I looked down, it was like it

0:27:49.240 --> 0:27:50.040
<v Speaker 3>was a different color.

0:27:50.040 --> 0:27:51.120
<v Speaker 2>So I was like, well, what the fuck?

0:27:51.960 --> 0:27:55.800
<v Speaker 3>And yeah, like we turned the lights on and it

0:27:55.840 --> 0:27:58.680
<v Speaker 3>was blood. And then I went to my doctor and

0:27:58.800 --> 0:28:02.200
<v Speaker 3>the doctor's like they did their thing and they looked

0:28:02.400 --> 0:28:05.359
<v Speaker 3>and I was like, like, am I gonna die? Like

0:28:05.520 --> 0:28:07.680
<v Speaker 3>do I have to get my junk cut off? And

0:28:08.320 --> 0:28:11.040
<v Speaker 3>they were just like no. But we also don't know

0:28:11.080 --> 0:28:15.120
<v Speaker 3>why it happened. And I don't know. I'm a little

0:28:15.160 --> 0:28:17.719
<v Speaker 3>traumatized ever since then that happened, Like that happened like

0:28:18.240 --> 0:28:21.960
<v Speaker 3>five years ago maybe, and like I just never got

0:28:22.000 --> 0:28:23.760
<v Speaker 3>any answers and then it never happened again.

0:28:24.960 --> 0:28:27.119
<v Speaker 1>Well, now you know what it's like to be a woman.

0:28:27.160 --> 0:28:29.360
<v Speaker 1>You know, you have blood coming out of your out

0:28:29.359 --> 0:28:35.520
<v Speaker 1>of your out of your hole. Yeah, I don't know.

0:28:35.800 --> 0:28:37.879
<v Speaker 1>There's a lot of stuff going on in the human body.

0:28:37.880 --> 0:28:41.560
<v Speaker 1>There's a lot of holes and a lot of pipes

0:28:41.560 --> 0:28:44.360
<v Speaker 1>and tubes running around, and you know, sometimes the tubes

0:28:44.400 --> 0:28:47.280
<v Speaker 1>just get tied up. You know, sometimes the blood tube

0:28:47.560 --> 0:28:48.760
<v Speaker 1>makes its way into the come.

0:28:48.680 --> 0:28:52.000
<v Speaker 3>Tube down the wrong pipe.

0:28:52.040 --> 0:28:52.280
<v Speaker 4>Right.

0:28:54.200 --> 0:28:55.760
<v Speaker 1>You said you had a whole bunch of things you

0:28:55.760 --> 0:28:57.720
<v Speaker 1>wanted to talk about. What are some other ones?

0:28:59.640 --> 0:29:02.040
<v Speaker 3>Well, I'm gonna be honest with you, Like my life

0:29:02.040 --> 0:29:05.040
<v Speaker 3>has just been if you know those ones where your

0:29:05.040 --> 0:29:06.320
<v Speaker 3>life just feels like it's like.

0:29:07.160 --> 0:29:09.080
<v Speaker 1>Uh, do me, do me, do me a favorite brother?

0:29:09.120 --> 0:29:09.920
<v Speaker 1>Are you outside?

0:29:11.480 --> 0:29:11.680
<v Speaker 2>Yeah?

0:29:11.680 --> 0:29:13.040
<v Speaker 3>I just have to run outside real quick?

0:29:13.680 --> 0:29:14.600
<v Speaker 1>Could you go inside?

0:29:16.080 --> 0:29:17.760
<v Speaker 3>Yeah? Is this better?

0:29:18.680 --> 0:29:19.880
<v Speaker 1>Yes? Okay, what were you saying?

0:29:20.240 --> 0:29:21.160
<v Speaker 3>Okay? Perfect? Yeah?

0:29:21.160 --> 0:29:21.520
<v Speaker 2>Sorry?

0:29:22.120 --> 0:29:23.920
<v Speaker 3>You know those ones with like my life, your life

0:29:23.920 --> 0:29:25.720
<v Speaker 3>feels like it's like kind of just falling apart.

0:29:26.840 --> 0:29:27.960
<v Speaker 1>Uh yeah, definitely.

0:29:29.320 --> 0:29:31.200
<v Speaker 3>Yeah, Like it's like that right now, you know, like

0:29:31.640 --> 0:29:34.120
<v Speaker 3>they say, like bad things happen in threees and stuff

0:29:34.160 --> 0:29:36.520
<v Speaker 3>like that, and like I feel like I'm waiting for

0:29:36.600 --> 0:29:40.200
<v Speaker 3>the third bad thing to happen. Like just last week,

0:29:40.720 --> 0:29:44.800
<v Speaker 3>a week ago today, my car died. Like it it's

0:29:44.880 --> 0:29:48.280
<v Speaker 3>just it just died. It's done. I'd to scrap it

0:29:49.600 --> 0:29:53.520
<v Speaker 3>and and then what else would happen before that?

0:29:54.320 --> 0:29:54.520
<v Speaker 2>Oh?

0:29:54.600 --> 0:29:58.080
<v Speaker 3>And then no after that? So my car died last Friday,

0:29:58.120 --> 0:30:00.640
<v Speaker 3>and then I hurt my back, like I really like

0:30:00.720 --> 0:30:03.640
<v Speaker 3>messed up my back on the weekend, like last weekend

0:30:03.680 --> 0:30:06.760
<v Speaker 3>on Saturday, and like I messed it up so bad

0:30:06.800 --> 0:30:08.440
<v Speaker 3>that like I haven't been able to work for the

0:30:08.480 --> 0:30:12.960
<v Speaker 3>whole week. And then I've just been at home laying

0:30:12.960 --> 0:30:16.200
<v Speaker 3>on my back, like just dying, just kind of like

0:30:16.240 --> 0:30:19.080
<v Speaker 3>reflecting on my life, like this is where I am

0:30:19.160 --> 0:30:21.840
<v Speaker 3>right now, which like, okay, it's not a bad place

0:30:21.920 --> 0:30:25.040
<v Speaker 3>to be, but like you know, it's just I feel

0:30:25.040 --> 0:30:26.800
<v Speaker 3>like it just set me back.

0:30:30.880 --> 0:30:35.360
<v Speaker 1>What have you learned anything from these reflections as you've

0:30:35.360 --> 0:30:37.400
<v Speaker 1>been out of commission?

0:30:39.680 --> 0:30:43.200
<v Speaker 3>But I feel like kind of but at the same time,

0:30:43.320 --> 0:30:46.640
<v Speaker 3>like I don't know, I feel like maybe I've been

0:30:46.720 --> 0:30:50.560
<v Speaker 3>dwelling a little bit, but it just it feels like

0:30:50.600 --> 0:30:52.840
<v Speaker 3>everything that's happened right now has just kind of been

0:30:52.920 --> 0:30:57.400
<v Speaker 3>out of my control. But it's ultimately just put me

0:30:57.440 --> 0:31:01.040
<v Speaker 3>in like I don't know, just like a really rough spot.

0:31:01.160 --> 0:31:07.320
<v Speaker 3>I guess, like I don't really know what to what

0:31:07.440 --> 0:31:10.520
<v Speaker 3>to necessarily take away from that other than life can

0:31:10.560 --> 0:31:14.760
<v Speaker 3>be life can be a bit sometimes, I guess, maybe

0:31:14.800 --> 0:31:17.000
<v Speaker 3>just roll with the punches as best as you can.

0:31:17.320 --> 0:31:23.520
<v Speaker 1>I don't know, sure that's a good analysis. I suppose

0:31:23.920 --> 0:31:26.360
<v Speaker 1>let me can I I just before I I just

0:31:26.440 --> 0:31:29.560
<v Speaker 1>before we continue or before we go? I uh, I

0:31:29.600 --> 0:31:31.880
<v Speaker 1>want to listen. Do you sound like a nice guy?

0:31:31.960 --> 0:31:35.080
<v Speaker 1>I want to make sure that this being on the

0:31:35.120 --> 0:31:38.440
<v Speaker 1>phone with me today has been of any kind of

0:31:38.800 --> 0:31:41.800
<v Speaker 1>positive benefit to you. And so I ask you, is

0:31:41.840 --> 0:31:44.000
<v Speaker 1>there anything that you kind of I guess, wanted out

0:31:44.000 --> 0:31:45.800
<v Speaker 1>of this phone call that I can do for you.

0:31:48.040 --> 0:31:50.360
<v Speaker 3>I'll be honest with you, man, Honestly, like I've called

0:31:50.400 --> 0:31:54.000
<v Speaker 3>in a bunch of times, and you know, I've always

0:31:54.080 --> 0:31:58.040
<v Speaker 3>hit the the little voicemail thing saying the line is busy.

0:31:58.080 --> 0:32:01.680
<v Speaker 3>So just kind of being able to, you know, get

0:32:01.720 --> 0:32:04.000
<v Speaker 3>in on the on the stream and be able to

0:32:04.080 --> 0:32:05.640
<v Speaker 3>chop it up with you a little bit, that's been

0:32:05.680 --> 0:32:06.280
<v Speaker 3>really cool.

0:32:06.680 --> 0:32:07.000
<v Speaker 1>Cool.

0:32:07.440 --> 0:32:09.640
<v Speaker 3>Yeah, man, I don't know if that's anything away with that.

0:32:09.680 --> 0:32:12.920
<v Speaker 3>It would be like I've had a good little chat

0:32:13.160 --> 0:32:13.920
<v Speaker 3>with the get.

0:32:14.000 --> 0:32:16.280
<v Speaker 1>If it makes you feel any better. I I actually

0:32:16.360 --> 0:32:21.040
<v Speaker 1>I was scratching my asshole, uh today and there was

0:32:21.080 --> 0:32:28.320
<v Speaker 1>some blood which was concerning every once every Yeah. But

0:32:28.680 --> 0:32:30.880
<v Speaker 1>I will I'll say this though, and because I really

0:32:30.880 --> 0:32:34.520
<v Speaker 1>think that you're an American hero, because bloody I've had

0:32:34.520 --> 0:32:39.400
<v Speaker 1>a bloody asshole many times throughout my life. It's called

0:32:39.440 --> 0:32:41.080
<v Speaker 1>it's there's a word for it. You guys can look

0:32:41.080 --> 0:32:43.280
<v Speaker 1>this up if you have if you have nothing else

0:32:43.320 --> 0:32:48.640
<v Speaker 1>to do. It's called an anal fissure. Yeah, an anal fissure.

0:32:48.640 --> 0:32:50.880
<v Speaker 1>It's when you get like a little cut in your asshole.

0:32:50.920 --> 0:32:54.360
<v Speaker 1>And that's why it's why you're that's why it bleeds.

0:32:54.640 --> 0:32:58.520
<v Speaker 1>But uh no, the I'd much rather have a bloody

0:32:59.200 --> 0:33:01.200
<v Speaker 1>asshole than a bloody dick hole. If I had a

0:33:01.200 --> 0:33:05.240
<v Speaker 1>bloody dick hole, I'd probably be I'd be mortified. So

0:33:05.360 --> 0:33:08.000
<v Speaker 1>I think you're an American hero for because He's why.

0:33:08.040 --> 0:33:10.920
<v Speaker 1>The reason I say you're an American hero is because cosmically,

0:33:11.680 --> 0:33:16.560
<v Speaker 1>I really believe that coming blood is something that had

0:33:17.080 --> 0:33:21.680
<v Speaker 1>to have happened at least once to someone, right like

0:33:21.920 --> 0:33:27.600
<v Speaker 1>the it was, it was multiple people's divine destiny to

0:33:27.720 --> 0:33:30.600
<v Speaker 1>come blood. Uh And I think that those people were

0:33:30.680 --> 0:33:33.120
<v Speaker 1>kind of selected at random by the by the universe,

0:33:33.160 --> 0:33:35.120
<v Speaker 1>and you happen to be one of them. And so

0:33:35.840 --> 0:33:39.160
<v Speaker 1>it's the fact that you came blood, the fact that

0:33:39.200 --> 0:33:42.480
<v Speaker 1>you not that you volunteered to do it, but you

0:33:42.520 --> 0:33:44.960
<v Speaker 1>know it was noble of you to take on that

0:33:45.080 --> 0:33:48.000
<v Speaker 1>helm of of the person who came blood, of the

0:33:48.000 --> 0:33:51.360
<v Speaker 1>inevitable person to come blood. Even if you didn't sign

0:33:51.480 --> 0:33:54.080
<v Speaker 1>up to do it, I still think it was. It's

0:33:54.120 --> 0:33:56.520
<v Speaker 1>a noble cross to bear, and so I commended for that.

0:33:57.040 --> 0:34:00.200
<v Speaker 3>I can I share something else about that, say, same

0:34:00.320 --> 0:34:03.360
<v Speaker 3>topic that I also I meant to share, but I forgot.

0:34:03.840 --> 0:34:06.840
<v Speaker 3>It's just I'm releasing the trauma right now on on

0:34:06.920 --> 0:34:08.240
<v Speaker 3>the on the stream.

0:34:08.719 --> 0:34:11.600
<v Speaker 1>Okay, Well, yeah, after all.

0:34:11.480 --> 0:34:14.440
<v Speaker 3>That happened, and I went to the doctors and like

0:34:14.560 --> 0:34:17.520
<v Speaker 3>they looked at it. They sent me to like a specialist.

0:34:18.200 --> 0:34:19.960
<v Speaker 3>And this is the part that's actually like all my

0:34:19.960 --> 0:34:22.480
<v Speaker 3>male listeners, y'all got plucky ears for a second. They

0:34:22.520 --> 0:34:24.160
<v Speaker 3>stuck a camera down my dick hole.

0:34:24.440 --> 0:34:26.879
<v Speaker 1>Yeah yeah, yeah, yeah yeah. That's the thing that's real.

0:34:26.920 --> 0:34:30.120
<v Speaker 3>That's the whole thing that one's messed up, man, that

0:34:30.239 --> 0:34:32.160
<v Speaker 3>one had me messed up. I needed to like let

0:34:32.200 --> 0:34:35.319
<v Speaker 3>it out somewhere. And I always said on the stream,

0:34:35.640 --> 0:34:36.719
<v Speaker 3>I'm telling the world.

0:34:36.920 --> 0:34:38.160
<v Speaker 1>It's the dick hole selfie.

0:34:39.880 --> 0:34:43.160
<v Speaker 3>It literally is the dick hole selfie. But they never

0:34:43.200 --> 0:34:44.480
<v Speaker 3>sent me the picture that they took.

0:34:45.360 --> 0:34:50.600
<v Speaker 1>They never sent you the picture. Is it like? Is

0:34:50.640 --> 0:34:51.440
<v Speaker 1>it is it?

0:34:51.520 --> 0:34:51.600
<v Speaker 5>Like?

0:34:51.880 --> 0:34:53.839
<v Speaker 1>Is it like Disney World where you have to pay

0:34:53.880 --> 0:34:55.760
<v Speaker 1>for it and they send it to you in a frame.

0:34:57.360 --> 0:34:59.799
<v Speaker 3>Well, I don't know, like our healthcare out here is.

0:35:00.280 --> 0:35:03.240
<v Speaker 3>But just because it's free doesn't mean it's good.

0:35:04.080 --> 0:35:06.600
<v Speaker 1>No, it's fine. Yeah. I would think in Canada they

0:35:06.600 --> 0:35:08.400
<v Speaker 1>send you home with a little key chain with the

0:35:08.480 --> 0:35:10.440
<v Speaker 1>picture of the inside of your dick hole on it,

0:35:12.160 --> 0:35:13.800
<v Speaker 1>like or they or they put it in like a

0:35:14.239 --> 0:35:16.840
<v Speaker 1>or they put it in a custom snow globe or something.

0:35:19.160 --> 0:35:21.239
<v Speaker 3>Yeah, Like I'd like the little keychain that would say

0:35:21.280 --> 0:35:23.840
<v Speaker 3>like I survived the dick hole selfie or something like

0:35:23.840 --> 0:35:26.239
<v Speaker 3>they didn't give me any anesthetics, or like mets, they

0:35:26.320 --> 0:35:27.560
<v Speaker 3>just raw dogs my door.

0:35:27.600 --> 0:35:29.560
<v Speaker 1>Wait, they didn't give you anesthetics. They just shove that

0:35:29.600 --> 0:35:30.319
<v Speaker 1>motherfucker in.

0:35:31.480 --> 0:35:33.680
<v Speaker 3>Yeah, or they put like this, it's like freezing gel

0:35:33.760 --> 0:35:35.840
<v Speaker 3>in like kind of like a freezing gel like that

0:35:35.880 --> 0:35:39.480
<v Speaker 3>they use at the dentist. It didn't really do anything.

0:35:39.600 --> 0:35:41.759
<v Speaker 3>And if I'm being real with you, get it kind

0:35:41.760 --> 0:35:43.040
<v Speaker 3>of hurt when they.

0:35:42.960 --> 0:35:47.239
<v Speaker 1>Put Jesus they like it. Fuck, I thought they put

0:35:47.280 --> 0:35:48.240
<v Speaker 1>you on there or something.

0:35:49.880 --> 0:35:51.719
<v Speaker 3>Well that's what I thought too, And so they told

0:35:51.719 --> 0:35:54.200
<v Speaker 3>me when they like when they did the dick hole selfie.

0:35:54.200 --> 0:35:56.560
<v Speaker 3>They're like, you can't tense up at all, Like you

0:35:56.600 --> 0:35:59.279
<v Speaker 3>can't flex your muscles, you can't like you can't like

0:35:59.400 --> 0:36:02.359
<v Speaker 3>clench your because if you do that then it'll make

0:36:02.440 --> 0:36:04.719
<v Speaker 3>this like it'll make your dick hole tents up as well,

0:36:05.239 --> 0:36:07.759
<v Speaker 3>and they'll have to like push through it. So like

0:36:07.840 --> 0:36:10.319
<v Speaker 3>the whole time I was there, like they're trying to

0:36:10.320 --> 0:36:12.920
<v Speaker 3>tell me, like, yo, imagine you're on like a tropical

0:36:13.000 --> 0:36:16.400
<v Speaker 3>island and you're on a vacation, and how am I

0:36:16.440 --> 0:36:19.080
<v Speaker 3>going to do that? Man like put me under Please.

0:36:21.280 --> 0:36:25.240
<v Speaker 1>Well, I hope that making everyone listening to this feel

0:36:25.280 --> 0:36:27.359
<v Speaker 1>worse made you feel better. I really mean that.

0:36:29.040 --> 0:36:30.960
<v Speaker 3>Isn't that like the rule of the internet or one

0:36:31.000 --> 0:36:32.720
<v Speaker 3>of the rules of the internet, Like if I thought

0:36:32.760 --> 0:36:33.040
<v Speaker 3>you have.

0:36:33.080 --> 0:36:35.239
<v Speaker 1>To see it do or something like, you know, that's fair.

0:36:35.400 --> 0:36:37.279
<v Speaker 3>I'm just abiding by the law man, you know.

0:36:37.560 --> 0:36:41.600
<v Speaker 1>No, that's fair. If I had to have a stick

0:36:41.680 --> 0:36:44.120
<v Speaker 1>shoved in my dick hole, I would want to share

0:36:44.160 --> 0:36:45.560
<v Speaker 1>that pain with other people too.

0:36:47.160 --> 0:36:50.719
<v Speaker 3>Yeah, well, it was just part of releasing the trauma.

0:36:51.040 --> 0:36:52.120
<v Speaker 1>Is there anything else you want to say to the

0:36:52.160 --> 0:36:53.440
<v Speaker 1>people of the computer before we go?

0:36:55.960 --> 0:36:57.760
<v Speaker 3>The only thing I want to say to you guys

0:36:57.840 --> 0:37:03.879
<v Speaker 3>before I go is don't come blood, don't do it

0:37:04.280 --> 0:37:06.759
<v Speaker 3>not recommended, have.

0:37:06.760 --> 0:37:09.480
<v Speaker 2>A good night, you will buy geck.

0:37:11.280 --> 0:37:13.040
<v Speaker 1>That's what I realized. I meant that it had to

0:37:13.080 --> 0:37:18.960
<v Speaker 1>have been somebody. Every horrible thing that, every horrible scenario.

0:37:19.000 --> 0:37:22.040
<v Speaker 1>What's there's a word for this? Ah, does anyone know

0:37:22.120 --> 0:37:25.840
<v Speaker 1>what this? There's there's like if it is possible to happen,

0:37:25.960 --> 0:37:30.200
<v Speaker 1>it will happen. Uh, what the fuck is the there's

0:37:30.239 --> 0:37:35.560
<v Speaker 1>a phrase for like anything that can happen will happen. Oh,

0:37:35.680 --> 0:37:37.719
<v Speaker 1>please please leave it in the comments if you know

0:37:37.840 --> 0:37:40.960
<v Speaker 1>this phrase. But there's a phrase maybe the chat. Can

0:37:41.000 --> 0:37:44.080
<v Speaker 1>you let me look at the Murphy's law. Yes, Murphy's law.

0:37:44.160 --> 0:37:48.960
<v Speaker 1>It's the Murphy's law. So Murphy's law. If if it

0:37:49.040 --> 0:37:53.120
<v Speaker 1>is possible for one to bleed out of one's dick hole,

0:37:53.239 --> 0:37:57.960
<v Speaker 1>it will happen to somebody. So, uh, whatever horrible thing

0:37:58.000 --> 0:38:00.360
<v Speaker 1>has ever happened to you in your life, just know

0:38:00.440 --> 0:38:05.040
<v Speaker 1>eventually it had to happen to someone. It's unfortunate, sure

0:38:05.080 --> 0:38:09.200
<v Speaker 1>that it happened to you, but take a little pride

0:38:09.239 --> 0:38:10.759
<v Speaker 1>in it. You know it had to happen to even

0:38:10.800 --> 0:38:14.480
<v Speaker 1>if you didn't volunteer for whatever horrible thing happens to you.

0:38:15.320 --> 0:38:17.239
<v Speaker 1>It had to happen to someone had to do it.

0:38:17.239 --> 0:38:21.680
<v Speaker 1>It's like it's like cleaning toilets. You know, there's even

0:38:21.680 --> 0:38:25.839
<v Speaker 1>if it's not the job you wanted, it's noble. It's

0:38:25.880 --> 0:38:27.600
<v Speaker 1>a noble thing to do. It has to be done.

0:38:29.480 --> 0:38:31.560
<v Speaker 1>So that's why I think. That's why I think this

0:38:31.600 --> 0:38:37.759
<v Speaker 1>guy's a hero for coming blood out of his dick. Hello, Hi,

0:38:37.840 --> 0:38:38.520
<v Speaker 1>what is your name?

0:38:38.800 --> 0:38:39.320
<v Speaker 5>Fatima?

0:38:39.840 --> 0:38:43.240
<v Speaker 1>Fatima? What's up? Fatima? Uh?

0:38:43.400 --> 0:38:45.920
<v Speaker 5>Nothing right? What's up with to you?

0:38:46.800 --> 0:38:49.319
<v Speaker 1>That's something you would say to a kid on on

0:38:49.360 --> 0:38:51.839
<v Speaker 1>the playground, if you're trying to make him, make him

0:38:51.840 --> 0:38:54.040
<v Speaker 1>feel bad, you say, you say you got a Fatima,

0:38:54.760 --> 0:38:58.279
<v Speaker 1>You got a fat mom. Sorry, sorry, sorry for saying that.

0:39:01.520 --> 0:39:03.399
<v Speaker 1>Is there any is there anything in particular you wanted

0:39:03.440 --> 0:39:06.800
<v Speaker 1>to talk about, Fatima? Uh?

0:39:06.880 --> 0:39:10.960
<v Speaker 5>Yeah, Actually I wanted to talk about how I'm like

0:39:11.160 --> 0:39:14.440
<v Speaker 5>forced to move in and sleep with my grandma, like

0:39:14.680 --> 0:39:17.280
<v Speaker 5>starting July of next year, and I.

0:39:17.280 --> 0:39:18.759
<v Speaker 2>Really do not want to.

0:39:20.680 --> 0:39:21.640
<v Speaker 1>How old are you?

0:39:23.280 --> 0:39:25.319
<v Speaker 5>I'm nineteen, I'm gonna be twenty like next week.

0:39:25.640 --> 0:39:28.080
<v Speaker 1>You're you What do you mean You're being forced to

0:39:28.960 --> 0:39:30.560
<v Speaker 1>sleep with your grandma?

0:39:32.560 --> 0:39:37.479
<v Speaker 5>So basically, my grandma has dementia and I go over

0:39:37.640 --> 0:39:39.879
<v Speaker 5>like every other week to go take care of her,

0:39:39.880 --> 0:39:42.839
<v Speaker 5>to see how she's doing, and my mom will tell

0:39:42.880 --> 0:39:45.120
<v Speaker 5>me how her adventure is gonna get worse soon, so

0:39:45.200 --> 0:39:47.279
<v Speaker 5>it would be best if we move in with her,

0:39:48.239 --> 0:39:49.879
<v Speaker 5>so we can just always keep an eye on her.

0:39:51.280 --> 0:39:53.680
<v Speaker 5>And she doesn't have that many rooms to sleep in,

0:39:54.320 --> 0:39:56.799
<v Speaker 5>so I'm forced to sleep on the same bed as

0:39:56.840 --> 0:39:59.799
<v Speaker 5>my grandma until I don't know however long.

0:40:02.960 --> 0:40:09.560
<v Speaker 1>Wow, so she's sleeping in your just I just I

0:40:09.560 --> 0:40:12.399
<v Speaker 1>guess started trying to make it, make it all get

0:40:12.680 --> 0:40:16.279
<v Speaker 1>the right photo. She's moving in with your family, or

0:40:16.320 --> 0:40:19.520
<v Speaker 1>she was already there, so she.

0:40:19.560 --> 0:40:22.719
<v Speaker 5>Has her own house like thirty minutes from where I live,

0:40:22.920 --> 0:40:28.560
<v Speaker 5>or like my atro house. And so we were just

0:40:29.040 --> 0:40:34.319
<v Speaker 5>having to move in at her house because apparently she

0:40:34.480 --> 0:40:37.120
<v Speaker 5>was in to originally move into our guest room because

0:40:37.120 --> 0:40:39.520
<v Speaker 5>we had it just there and it'll be easier for us.

0:40:39.840 --> 0:40:42.320
<v Speaker 5>And we told my grandma about the idea, and my

0:40:42.400 --> 0:40:44.560
<v Speaker 5>mom told me that she said that she'd rather die

0:40:44.800 --> 0:40:48.319
<v Speaker 5>than move into the house. So I guess her only

0:40:48.440 --> 0:40:50.040
<v Speaker 5>choice is to move into her house.

0:40:52.120 --> 0:40:53.120
<v Speaker 1>How big is her house?

0:40:55.920 --> 0:40:59.800
<v Speaker 5>It's two bedrooms one bathroom, well, I guess two bathrooms.

0:40:59.840 --> 0:41:04.080
<v Speaker 5>Her room has a bathroom, and then it just has

0:41:04.080 --> 0:41:07.600
<v Speaker 5>a kitchen, living room. But the thing about her ahead,

0:41:07.640 --> 0:41:10.840
<v Speaker 5>go ahead, oh sorry, Oh. The thing about her house

0:41:11.040 --> 0:41:15.000
<v Speaker 5>is that it's like a connected home where it's rented

0:41:15.040 --> 0:41:19.080
<v Speaker 5>to different people. So one side of the house has

0:41:19.160 --> 0:41:23.080
<v Speaker 5>like a whole different family, but it's it's like disconnected,

0:41:23.120 --> 0:41:25.239
<v Speaker 5>we can't really go through. And then there's like a

0:41:25.280 --> 0:41:28.960
<v Speaker 5>whole different building where the upstairs there's like a family

0:41:28.960 --> 0:41:31.479
<v Speaker 5>live in there, and then downstairs is where my mom

0:41:31.719 --> 0:41:35.439
<v Speaker 5>and my mom's husband's gonna live, and my brother's gonna

0:41:35.480 --> 0:41:39.040
<v Speaker 5>live in the other room. I'm hating to sleep in

0:41:39.120 --> 0:41:39.799
<v Speaker 5>my grandma room.

0:41:41.320 --> 0:41:44.480
<v Speaker 1>So you were the one who got stuck sleeping in

0:41:44.520 --> 0:41:48.319
<v Speaker 1>the same room with your grandma? Yeah, and you're gonna

0:41:48.320 --> 0:41:52.279
<v Speaker 1>sleep in the same bed, yeah, why don't you just

0:41:52.400 --> 0:41:53.480
<v Speaker 1>get an air mattress?

0:41:55.600 --> 0:42:00.080
<v Speaker 5>Her room isn't that big, Like, I feel like her

0:42:00.120 --> 0:42:03.000
<v Speaker 5>room is more of like just one pathway you can

0:42:03.040 --> 0:42:05.480
<v Speaker 5>go forward, and then one pathway to go out of

0:42:05.520 --> 0:42:06.919
<v Speaker 5>the door, and.

0:42:06.840 --> 0:42:09.279
<v Speaker 1>Then who so you guys are all you guys? How

0:42:09.320 --> 0:42:12.960
<v Speaker 1>long are you guys gonna be with your with your grandma?

0:42:13.160 --> 0:42:20.400
<v Speaker 6>For I feel like probably to the rest of her life, honestly,

0:42:21.800 --> 0:42:24.080
<v Speaker 6>And then what's happening with your house?

0:42:26.440 --> 0:42:29.680
<v Speaker 5>So my mom wants to rent out the house to

0:42:29.800 --> 0:42:32.440
<v Speaker 5>people so we don't have to sell it and we

0:42:32.480 --> 0:42:34.600
<v Speaker 5>can just go back whenever.

0:42:34.719 --> 0:42:35.320
<v Speaker 2>I think.

0:42:36.680 --> 0:42:38.640
<v Speaker 5>That's the plan that she wants to do. I don't

0:42:38.640 --> 0:42:42.040
<v Speaker 5>know if there's any other plant, but that's why she

0:42:42.200 --> 0:42:42.440
<v Speaker 5>told me.

0:42:45.120 --> 0:42:49.360
<v Speaker 1>So what's going on with you, fadie Ma? Are you in?

0:42:50.400 --> 0:42:52.080
<v Speaker 1>You in school? Do you work?

0:42:53.680 --> 0:42:57.520
<v Speaker 5>Oh? Yeah, I am in school. Actually my school is

0:42:57.560 --> 0:43:00.359
<v Speaker 5>like pretty close to my grandma's house. But the thing

0:43:00.360 --> 0:43:02.680
<v Speaker 5>about my work is that it's it's closer to my

0:43:02.920 --> 0:43:08.759
<v Speaker 5>actual house. So I would just have to like move

0:43:09.440 --> 0:43:13.520
<v Speaker 5>to a different work and I guess i'd be pretty

0:43:13.560 --> 0:43:15.720
<v Speaker 5>much it. I was thinking of dorming at my school,

0:43:15.800 --> 0:43:18.080
<v Speaker 5>but I looked at the prices for dorms and they're

0:43:18.160 --> 0:43:20.480
<v Speaker 5>way way too expensive for me.

0:43:21.160 --> 0:43:27.879
<v Speaker 1>Yeah, I guess this is kind of This is kind

0:43:27.920 --> 0:43:31.759
<v Speaker 1>of just like a you know, a situation you got

0:43:31.760 --> 0:43:33.920
<v Speaker 1>to deal with until you can get on your feet

0:43:34.080 --> 0:43:38.239
<v Speaker 1>enough to cobble together enough money to move out and

0:43:38.320 --> 0:43:39.320
<v Speaker 1>like be independent.

0:43:40.840 --> 0:43:44.719
<v Speaker 5>Yeah, I feel like it's gonna be hard. I'm not

0:43:44.760 --> 0:43:46.040
<v Speaker 5>really good at saving money either.

0:43:46.239 --> 0:43:48.719
<v Speaker 1>So what do you what do you spend money on?

0:43:50.920 --> 0:43:57.840
<v Speaker 5>Mainly on food, a lot of food and close and

0:43:57.960 --> 0:44:00.040
<v Speaker 5>just like use this, I'm not probably.

0:43:59.760 --> 0:44:00.359
<v Speaker 2>Not gon use.

0:44:01.520 --> 0:44:03.240
<v Speaker 1>Do you have a good RelA? What's your like actual

0:44:03.280 --> 0:44:05.200
<v Speaker 1>relationship like with your grandma?

0:44:07.000 --> 0:44:09.320
<v Speaker 5>My grandma, honestly, she she loves me, to be honest,

0:44:09.560 --> 0:44:13.359
<v Speaker 5>and she keeps mentioning the fact since you have mentioned

0:44:13.400 --> 0:44:15.120
<v Speaker 5>she came spent the back time when A lived her house,

0:44:15.160 --> 0:44:18.759
<v Speaker 5>and she keeps thinking, I don't know, I kind of

0:44:18.800 --> 0:44:22.120
<v Speaker 5>like go with it. But I'm fine with my grandma.

0:44:22.239 --> 0:44:24.360
<v Speaker 5>It's just the thing is that she told me a

0:44:24.400 --> 0:44:26.040
<v Speaker 5>few months ago when I was taking care of her.

0:44:26.080 --> 0:44:28.240
<v Speaker 4>She was like, uh, oh, by the way.

0:44:28.600 --> 0:44:30.920
<v Speaker 5>Like I haven't been going out lately, and no, what

0:44:31.000 --> 0:44:33.000
<v Speaker 5>it really comes over? So I haven't showered in like

0:44:33.040 --> 0:44:33.840
<v Speaker 5>five days?

0:44:34.280 --> 0:44:38.560
<v Speaker 3>Oh no, yeah.

0:44:38.320 --> 0:44:41.080
<v Speaker 1>Girl, you gotta shower if we're gonna be fucking sleeping

0:44:41.160 --> 0:44:41.960
<v Speaker 1>in the bed together.

0:44:43.640 --> 0:44:44.640
<v Speaker 3>Yeah, that's what I thought.

0:44:45.480 --> 0:44:50.879
<v Speaker 1>Oh Jesus Christ, Fatima, Oh man, what why don't you

0:44:51.000 --> 0:44:53.560
<v Speaker 1>just like, well, why don't you sleep with in like

0:44:53.680 --> 0:44:57.800
<v Speaker 1>your Is it like less weird or horrible to sleep

0:44:57.840 --> 0:44:59.919
<v Speaker 1>in with you in your the same room as your brother?

0:45:02.239 --> 0:45:04.400
<v Speaker 5>No, I've actually slept in the same room with my

0:45:04.440 --> 0:45:07.000
<v Speaker 5>brother before. It's just the thing is that my uncle

0:45:07.000 --> 0:45:09.800
<v Speaker 5>also lives with my grandma and he's sitting in that room.

0:45:10.000 --> 0:45:10.480
<v Speaker 2>But it's a.

0:45:10.480 --> 0:45:13.560
<v Speaker 5>Pretty big room, so it can fit like two beds.

0:45:13.880 --> 0:45:15.799
<v Speaker 5>But I feel like that's it. It will only fit

0:45:15.840 --> 0:45:16.280
<v Speaker 5>two beds.

0:45:16.719 --> 0:45:24.440
<v Speaker 1>Hm hmm. Okay, So your your grandma pretty much tells

0:45:24.480 --> 0:45:26.200
<v Speaker 1>you the news that you guys are going to be

0:45:26.200 --> 0:45:30.040
<v Speaker 1>sleeping together, like multiple multiple times in a row.

0:45:31.680 --> 0:45:32.840
<v Speaker 5>Yeah, I don't mind.

0:45:33.440 --> 0:45:36.000
<v Speaker 1>To be honest, is she excited? Is that is it?

0:45:36.080 --> 0:45:36.160
<v Speaker 2>Like?

0:45:36.800 --> 0:45:38.960
<v Speaker 1>Does she seem happy about it?

0:45:40.800 --> 0:45:41.920
<v Speaker 2>Honestly? I think so.

0:45:42.080 --> 0:45:45.120
<v Speaker 5>Every time she tells me, she always smiles and like, oh,

0:45:45.200 --> 0:45:48.040
<v Speaker 5>did your mom tell you this already? Like you're gonna

0:45:48.040 --> 0:45:51.400
<v Speaker 5>be living here? He seems excited. And I feel so

0:45:51.560 --> 0:45:53.960
<v Speaker 5>bad to say that I don't want to move in

0:45:54.000 --> 0:45:54.319
<v Speaker 5>with her.

0:45:55.080 --> 0:45:58.439
<v Speaker 1>No, you know you should. You should. That's uh, that's

0:45:58.480 --> 0:45:59.959
<v Speaker 1>really nice for you, shoul. I don't think you should

0:46:00.080 --> 0:46:04.799
<v Speaker 1>feel bad. I don't think that many like nineteen year

0:46:04.840 --> 0:46:09.960
<v Speaker 1>olds trying to fucking like move out and be like

0:46:10.160 --> 0:46:13.560
<v Speaker 1>independents are stoked to. I don't think you should feel

0:46:13.600 --> 0:46:16.479
<v Speaker 1>bad about not being stoked to sleep in a bed

0:46:16.560 --> 0:46:21.280
<v Speaker 1>with your grandma. I think that's a very understandable feeling

0:46:21.440 --> 0:46:23.239
<v Speaker 1>not to not to beat yourself up.

0:46:23.200 --> 0:46:26.799
<v Speaker 5>About Oh I'm glad about that part.

0:46:26.880 --> 0:46:33.000
<v Speaker 1>Then what's your what's uh? What's the dream? What? What

0:46:33.080 --> 0:46:36.120
<v Speaker 1>do you? What are you going to be? What life

0:46:36.160 --> 0:46:38.440
<v Speaker 1>are you going to be fantasizing about while you're on

0:46:38.480 --> 0:46:45.600
<v Speaker 1>your sigma grindset in your in your grandma's bedroom.

0:46:46.040 --> 0:46:46.520
<v Speaker 4>I don't know.

0:46:46.800 --> 0:46:50.719
<v Speaker 5>I've thought about a few places or like things to do.

0:46:51.160 --> 0:46:54.560
<v Speaker 5>I think my first idea was to become a veterinarian cool,

0:46:54.560 --> 0:46:57.680
<v Speaker 5>but that would require a lot of school and a

0:46:57.680 --> 0:47:01.239
<v Speaker 5>lot of years of doing stuff. Other than that, I've

0:47:01.280 --> 0:47:08.160
<v Speaker 5>also wanted to move in to Canada in Vancouver. That's

0:47:08.160 --> 0:47:10.720
<v Speaker 5>another idea, But I feel like their prices are away

0:47:10.840 --> 0:47:13.279
<v Speaker 5>a little bit higher than they are here, so that's

0:47:13.280 --> 0:47:14.120
<v Speaker 5>another issue.

0:47:14.600 --> 0:47:16.400
<v Speaker 1>What's going on in Vancouver? Was it just like a

0:47:16.440 --> 0:47:18.200
<v Speaker 1>city you were like, oh, that could be cool or

0:47:18.400 --> 0:47:20.160
<v Speaker 1>something specific? Oh?

0:47:20.920 --> 0:47:22.040
<v Speaker 3>So I was.

0:47:22.160 --> 0:47:24.319
<v Speaker 5>Let me tell you the backstory. So basically, I was

0:47:24.360 --> 0:47:26.680
<v Speaker 5>working and I had these guests come up to me

0:47:26.680 --> 0:47:29.439
<v Speaker 5>that are from Canada, and I work at a movie theater.

0:47:29.560 --> 0:47:32.160
<v Speaker 5>So they were telling me how the sizes are like humongous,

0:47:32.800 --> 0:47:35.399
<v Speaker 5>and then afterwards we were like talking for a bit

0:47:35.440 --> 0:47:38.480
<v Speaker 5>and they were telling me how I should go to Vancouver,

0:47:38.640 --> 0:47:42.160
<v Speaker 5>Canada because they said I would fit in. And they

0:47:42.200 --> 0:47:45.439
<v Speaker 5>also said there was like a festival thing they have

0:47:45.520 --> 0:47:48.080
<v Speaker 5>where they give out like free food and free concerts

0:47:48.120 --> 0:47:50.799
<v Speaker 5>and it's for everyone and they have it once a year.

0:47:51.760 --> 0:47:57.120
<v Speaker 5>So that was pretty cool. They probably have that here,

0:47:57.200 --> 0:47:59.080
<v Speaker 5>I don't know, not that I know of, but it

0:47:59.160 --> 0:48:01.920
<v Speaker 5>just seemed like, oh, like, that's that's so cool if

0:48:01.920 --> 0:48:03.840
<v Speaker 5>I were to live somewhere that I had that.

0:48:04.719 --> 0:48:09.880
<v Speaker 1>Yeah, yeah, no, you sound you sound like no, you

0:48:09.960 --> 0:48:12.359
<v Speaker 1>sound you sound like, uh, you want to do ship?

0:48:12.800 --> 0:48:13.040
<v Speaker 5>You know.

0:48:14.040 --> 0:48:16.680
<v Speaker 1>Yeah, it's a natural impulse to want to do ship.

0:48:17.040 --> 0:48:19.880
<v Speaker 1>I by the way, I really I think that if

0:48:20.320 --> 0:48:22.480
<v Speaker 1>if you have the impulse to want to do ship,

0:48:22.640 --> 0:48:27.600
<v Speaker 1>I like, I don't believe in manifestation in like a

0:48:27.760 --> 0:48:31.160
<v Speaker 1>woo woo you put things out into the universe. I

0:48:31.200 --> 0:48:37.600
<v Speaker 1>think the universe is pretty fucking indifferent to us. But like,

0:48:37.680 --> 0:48:46.520
<v Speaker 1>for a purely like my mind connection point of view,

0:48:46.600 --> 0:48:49.400
<v Speaker 1>I do think if you have it in your like

0:48:49.560 --> 0:48:52.600
<v Speaker 1>gut that you want to do things that that like

0:48:52.680 --> 0:48:57.719
<v Speaker 1>you eventually will even if you're not doing it, like

0:48:58.000 --> 0:49:01.959
<v Speaker 1>right fucking now, even if you're in uh, your grandma's room,

0:49:02.520 --> 0:49:04.960
<v Speaker 1>for a little bit. You if that, if that exists

0:49:04.960 --> 0:49:07.560
<v Speaker 1>in your gut that you want to go, go out

0:49:07.600 --> 0:49:12.200
<v Speaker 1>and do ship. I think that you you eventually will.

0:49:14.200 --> 0:49:14.239
<v Speaker 4>Go.

0:49:14.960 --> 0:49:17.360
<v Speaker 5>I'm gonna keep that mindset while I'm over there on

0:49:17.480 --> 0:49:17.880
<v Speaker 5>a ground.

0:49:18.880 --> 0:49:21.080
<v Speaker 3>Yeah, I remember you.

0:49:22.040 --> 0:49:26.479
<v Speaker 1>That's cool. Vancouver is a good Vancouver's a good place.

0:49:26.520 --> 0:49:29.399
<v Speaker 1>It's got a lot of trees. What what are you?

0:49:29.480 --> 0:49:30.560
<v Speaker 1>What state are you in?

0:49:32.400 --> 0:49:33.239
<v Speaker 5>I'm in California?

0:49:33.719 --> 0:49:41.719
<v Speaker 1>Okay, all right, that's cool. Yeah, well, uh is is

0:49:41.760 --> 0:49:45.440
<v Speaker 1>there anything else that you wanted to to talk about

0:49:45.560 --> 0:49:48.959
<v Speaker 1>or say or other aspects of this?

0:49:50.760 --> 0:49:54.040
<v Speaker 5>I actually do so. I was actually gonna go to

0:49:54.160 --> 0:49:57.680
<v Speaker 5>your live show on November ninth that I was gonna

0:49:57.680 --> 0:49:59.279
<v Speaker 5>wait until I get taked. Who I don't have any

0:49:59.280 --> 0:50:02.160
<v Speaker 5>money and I was checking on the tickets and it

0:50:02.239 --> 0:50:06.720
<v Speaker 5>was so out. Yeah, okay next time.

0:50:07.400 --> 0:50:13.600
<v Speaker 1>Yeah, I'll be back. I'll be back in twenty twenty.

0:50:12.239 --> 0:50:20.520
<v Speaker 6>Six, twenty six, my green Frog onesie.

0:50:20.400 --> 0:50:24.919
<v Speaker 1>Bro, bring, bring your grandma, bring the whole Family'll bring

0:50:24.960 --> 0:50:28.440
<v Speaker 1>my grandma. Is there anything else you gonna say? The

0:50:28.440 --> 0:50:31.000
<v Speaker 1>people in the computer before we go smoke?

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<v Speaker 5>Oh?

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<v Speaker 6>I love you guys, I love you, gig, I love

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<v Speaker 6>you BYO see it.

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<v Speaker 5>That's it.

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<v Speaker 1>Bye bye, Fatima.

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<v Speaker 2>Hello, Hello, Hi.

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<v Speaker 1>What is your name?

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<v Speaker 6>Caitlyn?

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<v Speaker 1>Caitlin? What's up, Kaitlyn? How you doing?

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<v Speaker 4>I'm pretty good. How are you?

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<v Speaker 1>I'm actually doing Okay, I'm feeling I'm actually feeling fairly

0:50:56.800 --> 0:51:01.160
<v Speaker 1>locked in and I'm excited and read to talk to

0:51:01.200 --> 0:51:04.680
<v Speaker 1>you about whatever it is that you wanted to talk about.

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<v Speaker 4>Okay, Now, I'm all nervous. I didn't think of that.

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<v Speaker 1>No, don't be nervous. This is a low pressure situation.

0:51:11.800 --> 0:51:15.400
<v Speaker 1>There's no this is this is this is one of

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<v Speaker 1>the this is one of the least important things going

0:51:19.640 --> 0:51:25.200
<v Speaker 1>on in America right now, or probably also probably the world.

0:51:25.200 --> 0:51:27.880
<v Speaker 1>This is probably one of the least important things going

0:51:27.880 --> 0:51:29.920
<v Speaker 1>on in the entire world right now. So there's just

0:51:30.040 --> 0:51:32.000
<v Speaker 1>no pressure whatsoever.

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<v Speaker 4>Okay, all right, So I kind of wanted to talk

0:51:40.040 --> 0:51:42.800
<v Speaker 4>to you about. So I'm about to graduate from school

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<v Speaker 4>and the career field I'm trying to get into is

0:51:46.800 --> 0:51:51.040
<v Speaker 4>like really competitive. So We're thinking about moving to just

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<v Speaker 4>anywhere in America, and I'm bringing my boyfriend along with me.

0:51:55.760 --> 0:51:58.600
<v Speaker 4>So I have moved across the country by myself before,

0:51:59.280 --> 0:52:03.520
<v Speaker 4>he have not, and I'm scared. But he's going to

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<v Speaker 4>like not like where we move or it's going to

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<v Speaker 4>be harder to make friends with a significant other along

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<v Speaker 4>with me.

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<v Speaker 1>Hm hmm. Well, he's not moving across the country alone.

0:52:17.560 --> 0:52:19.000
<v Speaker 1>He's moving across the country with you.

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<v Speaker 4>This is true, But then we both have to like

0:52:23.320 --> 0:52:25.839
<v Speaker 4>make friends independently, and I feel like it's a lot

0:52:25.920 --> 0:52:29.560
<v Speaker 4>easier when you're like by yourself making friends rather than when, like,

0:52:30.480 --> 0:52:32.239
<v Speaker 4>I don't know, he's trying to make you know.

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<v Speaker 1>Your your are you? Are you?

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<v Speaker 2>Well?

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<v Speaker 1>Okay, first of all, where where are you moving from?

0:52:37.840 --> 0:52:38.759
<v Speaker 1>And where are you going to?

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<v Speaker 4>So right now we're in Colorado and it's looking like

0:52:43.320 --> 0:52:44.480
<v Speaker 4>we're going to go to Chicago.

0:52:44.520 --> 0:52:46.960
<v Speaker 2>Well that's the goal. Cool to Chicago, but we could.

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<v Speaker 4>Go to like Kansas or somewhere random wherever I can

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<v Speaker 4>get a.

0:52:49.680 --> 0:52:52.719
<v Speaker 1>Job really cool. Well, I mean Chicago would be way

0:52:52.719 --> 0:52:56.239
<v Speaker 1>better than Kansas if you're trying to interact with other

0:52:56.360 --> 0:53:02.640
<v Speaker 1>human beings. Definitely definitely more expensive, But it depends on

0:53:02.680 --> 0:53:05.600
<v Speaker 1>I guess what you what you can hack? Okay, So

0:53:06.160 --> 0:53:10.279
<v Speaker 1>your boyfriend, how old are you? Guys? Well, you're yeah old?

0:53:10.280 --> 0:53:12.760
<v Speaker 2>He guys, I'm old.

0:53:12.800 --> 0:53:14.800
<v Speaker 4>I'm twenty nine and he is thirty.

0:53:17.000 --> 0:53:21.040
<v Speaker 1>And you've you're an experienced mover across that you sound

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<v Speaker 1>just I can kind of the way you're talking about

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<v Speaker 1>this sounds like you've like confidently done things like this

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<v Speaker 1>in your life before.

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<v Speaker 3>Yeah.

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<v Speaker 4>So I moved from California to here by myself and

0:53:33.640 --> 0:53:37.720
<v Speaker 4>I didn't know anyone, and I was like twenty floor

0:53:37.880 --> 0:53:41.560
<v Speaker 4>when I did that. So I feel like I would

0:53:41.560 --> 0:53:43.719
<v Speaker 4>be okay if I was moving by myself. But it's

0:53:43.760 --> 0:53:47.160
<v Speaker 4>like more scary to drag someone along with me in

0:53:47.160 --> 0:53:49.120
<v Speaker 4>case he doesn't like it, or in case.

0:53:48.960 --> 0:53:52.279
<v Speaker 1>He well, the good here's the good news is you're

0:53:52.280 --> 0:53:56.080
<v Speaker 1>actually not dragging him along with you. He's actually making

0:53:56.080 --> 0:54:00.920
<v Speaker 1>his own independent decision to come with you, knowing the

0:54:00.960 --> 0:54:05.640
<v Speaker 1>pros and the cons, weighing them and choosing to go

0:54:05.719 --> 0:54:09.239
<v Speaker 1>along with you because he wants to be with you,

0:54:09.280 --> 0:54:14.600
<v Speaker 1>maybe because he's open to new adventures and excitement in

0:54:14.640 --> 0:54:18.120
<v Speaker 1>his life. And it is it is, it is, in

0:54:18.160 --> 0:54:22.960
<v Speaker 1>fact his choice. You are not Hopefully you're not tying

0:54:23.000 --> 0:54:24.600
<v Speaker 1>him up and throwing him in the trunk of your

0:54:24.640 --> 0:54:26.840
<v Speaker 1>car and driving it to Kansas.

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<v Speaker 4>No, that wasn't the plan I would.

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<v Speaker 6>So.

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<v Speaker 1>I mean, from my perspective, I really wouldn't think of

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<v Speaker 1>this like you look you two are how as long

0:54:42.560 --> 0:54:43.280
<v Speaker 1>he has been together?

0:54:45.480 --> 0:54:46.120
<v Speaker 4>Four years?

0:54:47.120 --> 0:54:48.840
<v Speaker 1>Okay? So yeah, I mean, look, you two are in

0:54:48.880 --> 0:54:51.560
<v Speaker 1>a partnership and trying to support each other, and you

0:54:51.640 --> 0:54:55.280
<v Speaker 1>clearly give a fuck that he isn't miserable all the time.

0:54:56.880 --> 0:54:57.839
<v Speaker 2>Yeah, but.

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<v Speaker 1>I mean, is he like, why are you nervous? Is

0:55:03.760 --> 0:55:06.800
<v Speaker 1>he like socially not not good?

0:55:08.200 --> 0:55:09.960
<v Speaker 4>No, not at all? But like he has his family

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<v Speaker 4>here and I don't have any like real connections to hear,

0:55:13.160 --> 0:55:14.880
<v Speaker 4>but he's been here for like a lot longer than

0:55:14.920 --> 0:55:17.560
<v Speaker 4>I have, and he has like all of his work

0:55:17.600 --> 0:55:20.759
<v Speaker 4>friends and everything. So he'd be leaving like everyone that

0:55:20.760 --> 0:55:23.480
<v Speaker 4>he's been with for like ten years to go somewhere new.

0:55:23.800 --> 0:55:25.879
<v Speaker 4>And I feel like if I hadn't like entered his life,

0:55:25.920 --> 0:55:28.000
<v Speaker 4>he'd probably just stay here and be happy with him.

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<v Speaker 1>No, but you can't. Yeah, but you really, he's this

0:55:30.840 --> 0:55:34.240
<v Speaker 1>guy's making You didn't coax him into it. He's making

0:55:34.280 --> 0:55:36.800
<v Speaker 1>his own decision.

0:55:38.600 --> 0:55:40.080
<v Speaker 4>Yeah, yeah, this is true.

0:55:41.200 --> 0:55:44.799
<v Speaker 1>And you're a good uh, you're a good girlfriend to

0:55:44.880 --> 0:55:49.160
<v Speaker 1>want to help him with uh, with this and like

0:55:49.280 --> 0:55:51.440
<v Speaker 1>work together with him on this. And you guys are

0:55:51.480 --> 0:55:56.000
<v Speaker 1>like building a life together that's really awesome. But you know,

0:55:56.080 --> 0:55:57.719
<v Speaker 1>I mean at the end of the fucking day. This guy,

0:55:57.760 --> 0:56:01.359
<v Speaker 1>he's got a kind of he's got to summon the uh,

0:56:02.760 --> 0:56:07.000
<v Speaker 1>the the whatever, the thing it takes to be like,

0:56:07.040 --> 0:56:08.960
<v Speaker 1>all right, I'm gonna put myself out there in this way.

0:56:08.960 --> 0:56:10.959
<v Speaker 1>I'm gonna maybe try go and do this. I'm gonna

0:56:11.000 --> 0:56:12.440
<v Speaker 1>you know, hey, you want to come with me to this?

0:56:12.520 --> 0:56:14.840
<v Speaker 1>And then you know, he's got a you can't be

0:56:15.640 --> 0:56:20.840
<v Speaker 1>fully responsible for, like his uh whether or not he

0:56:20.960 --> 0:56:23.040
<v Speaker 1>has a good social life in this new city he's

0:56:23.080 --> 0:56:24.239
<v Speaker 1>deciding to move to with you.

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<v Speaker 4>Yeah, that's true.

0:56:30.640 --> 0:56:32.719
<v Speaker 1>Yeah, I don't know if that I don't know if

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<v Speaker 1>that resonates with you.

0:56:35.200 --> 0:56:40.920
<v Speaker 4>It does. Do you have any advice on how we

0:56:40.960 --> 0:56:44.239
<v Speaker 4>can meet people and feel more like we have a

0:56:44.280 --> 0:56:46.520
<v Speaker 4>community in a new place together.

0:56:47.360 --> 0:56:50.800
<v Speaker 1>Well, if you go to Kansas, you can wander around

0:56:53.080 --> 0:56:56.000
<v Speaker 1>the Dick's Sporting Goods and see if if you make

0:56:56.000 --> 0:57:00.400
<v Speaker 1>any friends. What do you guys like.

0:57:03.120 --> 0:57:06.760
<v Speaker 4>Music? I like the hike and being nature and stuff.

0:57:07.719 --> 0:57:12.120
<v Speaker 4>He's a graphic designer and he likes all that computer stuff.

0:57:14.760 --> 0:57:20.520
<v Speaker 1>Okay, bam, okay, here here join a hiking group. Bam,

0:57:20.520 --> 0:57:24.760
<v Speaker 1>one and done. Go to small, intimate live music shows

0:57:24.760 --> 0:57:30.240
<v Speaker 1>and talk to people bam, join a fucking art graphic

0:57:30.280 --> 0:57:36.440
<v Speaker 1>design coworking group or start one bam. Three things. Uh,

0:57:37.240 --> 0:57:39.439
<v Speaker 1>probably can't do any of them in Kansas. Maybe maybe

0:57:39.440 --> 0:57:41.200
<v Speaker 1>I'm sorry for shooting on Maybe they're you know, I'm

0:57:41.200 --> 0:57:42.840
<v Speaker 1>sorry for shooting on Kansas. Maybe you can do that

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<v Speaker 1>in Kansas.

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<v Speaker 4>But no, I fear that on Casus.

0:57:46.720 --> 0:57:49.919
<v Speaker 1>Yeah, but yeah, we'll just do stuff, do stuff, start

0:57:49.960 --> 0:57:53.160
<v Speaker 1>your own stuff. Just did to leave your house, go

0:57:53.280 --> 0:57:56.520
<v Speaker 1>on the internet. There's it's literally never ever, ever been

0:57:56.560 --> 0:58:01.200
<v Speaker 1>easier to like going to a new place and starting

0:58:01.200 --> 0:58:04.840
<v Speaker 1>a life. There has never been easier. If you have

0:58:05.240 --> 0:58:10.040
<v Speaker 1>some like if if you have if you have the

0:58:10.120 --> 0:58:12.360
<v Speaker 1>desire to fucking do it, you have to be willing

0:58:12.400 --> 0:58:14.640
<v Speaker 1>to go out and put yourself out there and and

0:58:14.760 --> 0:58:18.480
<v Speaker 1>uh find communities and add to them somehow.

0:58:19.000 --> 0:58:19.160
<v Speaker 3>Uh.

0:58:19.160 --> 0:58:21.200
<v Speaker 1>But if you do that, you're going to be fine

0:58:21.320 --> 0:58:24.920
<v Speaker 1>wherever you go, especially a place like Chicago.

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<v Speaker 4>You know that's very true.

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<v Speaker 1>Anything else.

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<v Speaker 4>I don't think so.

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<v Speaker 1>All right, Well, where do you think? Where do you

0:58:40.080 --> 0:58:41.920
<v Speaker 1>think we go when we die? Do you think it's

0:58:41.920 --> 0:58:42.760
<v Speaker 1>somewhere horrible?

0:58:45.200 --> 0:58:47.680
<v Speaker 4>No? I feel like I want to believe that we

0:58:47.800 --> 0:58:50.160
<v Speaker 4>get like resurrected into our favorite.

0:58:49.800 --> 0:58:51.960
<v Speaker 1>Animal what's your favorite animal?

0:58:53.720 --> 0:58:55.240
<v Speaker 4>A koala?

0:58:55.920 --> 0:58:57.120
<v Speaker 1>Would you want to be a koala?

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<v Speaker 4>Yeah, it would be sick. You just symmetry.

0:59:02.200 --> 0:59:06.960
<v Speaker 1>Did they look really cute? Yeah? I went to Australia

0:59:06.960 --> 0:59:09.840
<v Speaker 1>and I saw some of them, and some of them

0:59:09.840 --> 0:59:12.240
<v Speaker 1>will run around and it's good. It's good time to

0:59:12.240 --> 0:59:14.920
<v Speaker 1>be one. But I don't know. Sometimes I wonder if

0:59:14.960 --> 0:59:16.760
<v Speaker 1>it was better, if it might have been better to

0:59:16.800 --> 0:59:21.280
<v Speaker 1>be other things than just a human. I'm human. Humans

0:59:21.320 --> 0:59:26.960
<v Speaker 1>are both blessed and burdened with our higher consciousness. And

0:59:27.160 --> 0:59:29.080
<v Speaker 1>you got I guess you have to decide for yourself

0:59:29.080 --> 0:59:30.480
<v Speaker 1>if it's a burden or a blessing.

0:59:31.720 --> 0:59:32.280
<v Speaker 3>But how do you know?

0:59:32.360 --> 0:59:35.040
<v Speaker 4>Koalas don't have a higher consciousness just like us?

0:59:35.320 --> 0:59:38.400
<v Speaker 1>But they don't. We we because you know why? I

0:59:38.480 --> 0:59:42.200
<v Speaker 1>know that because some guy at one point took a

0:59:42.280 --> 0:59:45.520
<v Speaker 1>koala and just took a chainsaw and sawed him in

0:59:45.560 --> 0:59:49.720
<v Speaker 1>half and looked at his brain like a lot. And

0:59:49.720 --> 0:59:54.360
<v Speaker 1>and then and then some other guy did the same

0:59:54.400 --> 0:59:56.240
<v Speaker 1>thing with like a lot of people just took their

0:59:56.280 --> 0:59:59.880
<v Speaker 1>bodies and cut sliced them up with a chainsaw and

1:00:00.160 --> 1:00:03.560
<v Speaker 1>looked at their brains. And they took each other's information,

1:00:03.720 --> 1:00:07.720
<v Speaker 1>and they came to a scientific conclusion the koalas are

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<v Speaker 1>dumber than human beings.

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<v Speaker 2>Wow.

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<v Speaker 4>I don't know if that's right, but I'll take your

1:00:14.520 --> 1:00:15.080
<v Speaker 4>word on it.

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<v Speaker 1>Is there anything else you want to say to the

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<v Speaker 1>people of the computer before we go?

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<v Speaker 4>I don't think so. Thanks for talking to me.

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<v Speaker 1>Later, dude. Kansas. By the way, just if anyone's listening

1:00:26.960 --> 1:00:29.520
<v Speaker 1>to this that lives in Kansas and you want to

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<v Speaker 1>be like, no, we actually have a great live music scene,

1:00:31.720 --> 1:00:35.760
<v Speaker 1>and no, we actually have lots of great nature in Kansas.

1:00:36.280 --> 1:00:38.840
<v Speaker 1>I'm open to it. I'm open to I want to

1:00:38.880 --> 1:00:43.080
<v Speaker 1>I have no it benefits me in no way, shape

1:00:43.120 --> 1:00:46.880
<v Speaker 1>or form. If Kansas is shitty, I've been. I've like,

1:00:47.160 --> 1:00:49.640
<v Speaker 1>where the fuck have I been in Kansas? Where the hell?

1:00:49.640 --> 1:00:51.400
<v Speaker 1>Where the fuck even it? Hold on, I'm going on

1:00:51.440 --> 1:00:54.640
<v Speaker 1>Google Maps. I'm looking at Kansas. Where the hell is Kansas?

1:00:55.400 --> 1:00:59.040
<v Speaker 1>I know I've been there. You know what's so stupid

1:00:59.160 --> 1:01:02.880
<v Speaker 1>is that Kansas City isn't even in Kansas. What's the

1:01:02.920 --> 1:01:08.880
<v Speaker 1>big city in Kansas? Topeka, dude. The other's Wichita. You

1:01:08.920 --> 1:01:12.240
<v Speaker 1>know what? Oh look, oh look, okay, I'm looking at Wichita, Kansas.

1:01:12.280 --> 1:01:16.480
<v Speaker 1>They have an urban air trampoline. An adventure Park. They

1:01:16.520 --> 1:01:20.360
<v Speaker 1>have a music venue. Okay, all right, you know what, Fine,

1:01:20.400 --> 1:01:23.120
<v Speaker 1>Maybe you know what, Maybe you could you know what,

1:01:23.640 --> 1:01:27.600
<v Speaker 1>I bet, if y'all really wanted to, you could live

1:01:27.640 --> 1:01:32.560
<v Speaker 1>a nice life in Wichita, Kansas. I really, I bet

1:01:32.600 --> 1:01:36.640
<v Speaker 1>you could. I bet you could goes on the line,

1:01:36.880 --> 1:01:41.760
<v Speaker 1>taking your phone calls every night. He was teaching you

1:01:41.920 --> 1:01:45.760
<v Speaker 1>cud in the line, an expert