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Speaker 1: Hey, what's your name?

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Speaker 2: Joe?

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Speaker 1: How how be it going, Joe?

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Speaker 2: It's not bad. I've been trying to call you for

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Speaker 2: probably like a week now, and it's probably like my

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Speaker 2: six hundredth call, so I'm pretty excited.

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Speaker 1: Have we ever spoken before?

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Speaker 2: We have not, but I watch your streams every day

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Speaker 2: when I'm at work. My buddy has YouTube Premium, so

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Speaker 2: I just darkened my phone and I just listen to

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Speaker 2: you while I work.

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Speaker 1: Cool, cool man. Thank you for thank you for indulging

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Speaker 1: in my bullshit. I I'm sincerely, sincerely honored by that.

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Speaker 1: What what when you listen to the show and you think, well,

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Speaker 1: if I were on the Gecko Show, this is what

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Speaker 1: I would talk about? What do you think? What do

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Speaker 1: you think you would talk about?

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Speaker 2: Well? I have three things I wanted to talk to

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Speaker 2: you about, one pertaining you, one pertaining my life, and

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Speaker 2: then one just a general question.

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Speaker 1: Let's I thank you for laying that all out for me.

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Speaker 1: Let's can I choose the order in which we do them?

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Speaker 2: For sure? Manage your show.

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Speaker 1: Let's start with the general question.

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Speaker 2: Okay, how do you feel about baths?

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Speaker 1: B A T H or B A T S.

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Speaker 2: B A T H.

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Speaker 1: How do I feel about baths. I like baths. Well,

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Speaker 1: I'm a big Here's the thing I don't. Baths are

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Speaker 1: kind of like I don't like the silence of baths.

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Speaker 1: Like I'm a big I'm a big huge every time

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Speaker 1: in the shower. I don't take baths, but I sit

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Speaker 1: and a bath is kind of like sitting down in

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Speaker 1: the shower, except it's two static of an experience, right,

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Speaker 1: like the sound and the feeling of the water coming

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Speaker 1: from above feels it is an important element of my relaxation.

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Speaker 1: So I'm not personally a big bath guy, but you know,

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Speaker 1: I get it. I get it. What about you? How

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Speaker 1: do you feel about baths? I feel like there had

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Speaker 1: to have been a reason why you asked this question,

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Speaker 1: and I'm curious what that reason might be.

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Speaker 2: Yeah, I've partaken them sometimes after a long day at work.

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Speaker 2: I do housekeeping and I also am a cashier, so

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Speaker 2: I have two jobs. So every now and then I

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Speaker 2: like to take a nice, warm, hot bath and maybe

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Speaker 2: after a long day.

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Speaker 3: You know.

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Speaker 1: Cool? Cool? All right, you know what you've inspired me?

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Speaker 1: Next time, I'm gonna try a bath sometime soon based

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Speaker 1: on your recommendation. Hell yeah, all right, now, let's do

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Speaker 1: your life and then we can go to May.

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Speaker 2: Okay. So basically a couple months ago, right before I

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Speaker 2: want to say, summer of this year, I got really

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Speaker 2: I had it. And me and my girlfriend are long distance.

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Speaker 2: She lives in New Jersey and I live in New York,

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Speaker 2: I kind of ghosted her, but I kind of ghosted

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Speaker 2: And I know you don't really like giving relationship advice

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Speaker 1: Well, first of I'm curious, why did you ghost everyone?

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Speaker 2: Well, my whole life, I've kind of just been used

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Speaker 1: So well, forget well, forget about the value judgments of

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Speaker 1: like you know, saying like I know it's bad, Like

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Speaker 1: why do you think you'd do it?

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Speaker 2: I think it all stems back to childhood, to be honest.

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Speaker 1: But so that, But then I guess, even if even

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Speaker 2: I kind of think it just goes back to, you know,

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Speaker 2: maybe I'd be more open to being around everyone more.

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Speaker 2: But especially when I don't understand things or things that

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Speaker 2: things that make me happy, even if they're momentarily happy,

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Speaker 2: things like playing video games or you know, and just

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Speaker 1: So is it just you're not contacting anybody because you

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Speaker 1: don't want to be I'm still I'm still trying to

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Speaker 2: Alone maybe in a way, it's getting my mind off

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Speaker 2: Maybe it's just the fact that I'm getting my mind

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Speaker 1: Are you associating other people? Just are you still saying

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Speaker 1: just like, if I'm around other people, they're gonna want

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Speaker 2: Uh, definitely at times. Yeah, I'd probably say sixty to

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Speaker 1: Interesting, So your girlfriend is mad at you.

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Speaker 2: Not so much anymore. She's still pretty hurt about it,

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Speaker 2: and it was a very hard time for me.

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Speaker 1: You know, yeah, what is okay? I mean it sounds

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Speaker 2: Probably right before summer? It's like mid spring of this year.

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Speaker 1: Okay, I know, are you guys like cool?

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Speaker 2: Like?

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Speaker 1: What how are you guys doing? Now?

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Speaker 2: We have arguments here and there, and especially when that

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Speaker 2: it should be. But you know, we have to let

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Speaker 2: thing that's linked to all of this, is just time,

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Speaker 2: especially when you're trying to grow and love somebody and

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Speaker 1: How's your line disease? Are you gonna? Are you? Are

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Speaker 1: you good?

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Speaker 2: Yeah? I had to take antibiotics for like a month.

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Speaker 2: They said it's always gonna probably like be in my

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Speaker 1: Okay, so you're not about to like like turn into

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Speaker 1: a giant tick like that the Fly movie. No, okay,

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Speaker 1: well that's good.

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Speaker 2: I still can't believe I'm talking to you, bro. It's

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Speaker 1: How old are you? I'm just curious.

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Speaker 2: I'm going to be twenty seven in March.

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Speaker 1: Cool, very cool? And how long you've been with been

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Speaker 2: November twentieth, I'm going to see her, but November eleventh,

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Speaker 1: Okay, that's quite a It's I have to say, it

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Speaker 1: a long distance relationship. I was like, oh, he's like

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Speaker 1: there's a lady who lives in Europe or something, and

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Speaker 2: Well. Another thing a lot of people tend to, uh,

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Speaker 1: But I know you live in like Albany or some ship,

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Speaker 2: Like, actually, I'm so sad.

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Speaker 1: I didn't get to get to your show, bro that

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Speaker 1: actually knows that actually genuinely is a long term, long,

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Speaker 1: long long distance religship. Whould you meet this? Uh? Your girlfriend.

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Speaker 2: A dating app was a field? Uh No, I think

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Speaker 2: it was like ba do or something like that.

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Speaker 3: But do.

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Speaker 1: Oh yeah, I remember Bado. Okay, so she's I mean, uh, okay, Well, well,

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Speaker 1: I don't want to move on. I was gonna say,

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Speaker 1: but I don't know if we've talked all about the

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Speaker 1: things you wanted to talk about regarding you, I don't

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Speaker 2: I kind of just like I said, I know you

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Speaker 2: hate giving relationship advice because.

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Speaker 1: I just hate love myself a little. It's good. I'm

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Speaker 1: happy to talk through stuff with you though.

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Speaker 2: Yeah, but yeah, I mean, other than time, what else

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Speaker 2: do you think I should do? Just keep putting all

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Speaker 2: my efforts as much as I can in like I am,

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Speaker 2: and just wait it.

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Speaker 1: Out, wait what out.

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Speaker 2: Just getting stronger in the relationship and hopefully moving past

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Speaker 2: all of this stuff so it doesn't come up all

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Speaker 2: the time, especially when we're arguing.

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Speaker 1: I mean, look, you've expressed yourself on what happens with

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Speaker 1: uh with with you know, when you got diagnosed with

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Speaker 1: to why you do that. You sound like you listened

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Speaker 1: to what she had to say and your actioning upon it. Yeah,

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Speaker 1: what else? What else is there? I mean you care?

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Speaker 2: Yeah, I'm a I think that you never pursued therapy.

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Speaker 1: I'm like, come on, well, what's your name again, Joe? Joe? Okay,

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Speaker 2: I do feel pretty satisfied, Lyle. It's always been kind

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Speaker 1: Thanks Joe, I sincerely, I'm very honored that, uh, that

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Speaker 2: Joe for sure.

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Speaker 1: Is there anything else you want to say to the

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Speaker 2: Yeah, I kind of got a riddle for you and

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Speaker 1: This guy had three topics. This guy had a general question,

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Speaker 1: Tell me your riddle.

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Speaker 2: Well, there's no real answer to the riddle. It all

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Speaker 2: It's a personalized riddle. But if you stand for something,

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Speaker 1: That's this is the eminem quote, right if you stand

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Speaker 1: if you don't stand for anything, If you don't stand

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Speaker 2: No, it's not an eminem quote.

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Speaker 1: You have to tell it to me right now. I'm

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Speaker 1: done with guesses. I need the answer to this riddle

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Speaker 2: I mean, what would you fall for? Lyle?

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Speaker 1: I will hang up on you if you don't tell

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Speaker 1: me the answer to this riddle.

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Speaker 2: I can tell you what I would fall for. Do

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Speaker 1: Do I want to know?

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Speaker 2: Yeah?

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Speaker 1: Okay, tell me Joe.

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Speaker 2: I would fall for probably the best life that I

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Speaker 1: What the what the fuck kind of riddle was that?

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Speaker 2: I told you it's personalized. It all depends on what

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Speaker 1: That wasn't a riddle. That was just like, uh, I

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Speaker 2: Well, what defines the riddle? Words are just words. You

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Speaker 1: That was a very riddlely thing for of you to say,

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Speaker 1: So I'm going to count that as you good. Those

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Speaker 1: Jersey relationship. Yeah we can. We can fucking do bumper cars.

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Speaker 1: if they had bumper cars moving to Syracuse. All right,

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00:24:46,720 --> 00:24:47,160
Speaker 1: take care.

441
00:24:47,119 --> 00:24:50,200
Speaker 2: Joe for that ship all the way, Take care of Lyle.

442
00:24:50,800 --> 00:24:53,119
Speaker 1: That was the worst riddle I've ever heard in my

443
00:24:53,280 --> 00:24:53,840
Speaker 1: entire life.

444
00:24:53,920 --> 00:24:54,320
Speaker 2: What is that?

445
00:24:56,280 --> 00:24:58,439
Speaker 1: Well, I gotta respond, I gotta think about it again.

446
00:24:58,880 --> 00:25:02,720
Speaker 1: If you don't stand for something, you fall for anything.

447
00:25:03,560 --> 00:25:06,359
Speaker 1: This is like an Andy cough is he doing? If

448
00:25:06,400 --> 00:25:08,440
Speaker 1: you don't stand for something, you will If you don't

449
00:25:08,440 --> 00:25:11,480
Speaker 1: stand for for anything, what would you fall for? I

450
00:25:11,520 --> 00:25:16,000
Speaker 1: would fall for a good life and kids. And that

451
00:25:16,200 --> 00:25:18,600
Speaker 1: was That was an acid trip of a riddle right there.

452
00:25:18,600 --> 00:25:21,080
Speaker 1: You know what that actually? If the point of a

453
00:25:21,160 --> 00:25:30,000
Speaker 1: riddle is to confuse and and too shock, won't know

454
00:25:30,000 --> 00:25:31,480
Speaker 1: if that shocked me, I mean you know, actually no,

455
00:25:31,560 --> 00:25:33,600
Speaker 1: it shocked me a little bit. If the point of

456
00:25:33,600 --> 00:25:35,560
Speaker 1: a riddle is to confuse and shock, then that that

457
00:25:35,640 --> 00:25:36,320
Speaker 1: was a good riddle.

458
00:25:37,520 --> 00:25:37,840
Speaker 2: Hello.

459
00:25:38,440 --> 00:25:44,200
Speaker 1: Hi, what's your name? Mogwai Mogwi? What's up? Mogwi? How

460
00:25:44,240 --> 00:25:47,000
Speaker 1: you doing? Chilling?

461
00:25:47,720 --> 00:25:50,680
Speaker 3: Chilling? It's my first time getting on the stream.

462
00:25:51,240 --> 00:25:55,119
Speaker 1: Very cool, very good, very good. Where you call him from?

463
00:25:56,600 --> 00:25:58,040
Speaker 3: I'm calling from Canada.

464
00:25:58,880 --> 00:26:02,960
Speaker 1: Uh, I was just in Canada. I was just in Toronto.

465
00:26:03,480 --> 00:26:06,280
Speaker 1: Toronto is a great town, dude. Yeah, I was just there.

466
00:26:06,359 --> 00:26:10,040
Speaker 2: You know't know I was there, which is crazy because

467
00:26:10,040 --> 00:26:11,520
Speaker 2: I listened to all the pods So.

468
00:26:11,880 --> 00:26:14,520
Speaker 1: What you listen? It's so crazy I do people. Yeah,

469
00:26:14,520 --> 00:26:16,440
Speaker 1: I just did two shows there. Man, you should have game.

470
00:26:16,480 --> 00:26:18,359
Speaker 1: It was fun. They're good shows. They're fun.

471
00:26:18,640 --> 00:26:21,320
Speaker 3: I'm actually kind of shaking my head that I missed that.

472
00:26:21,680 --> 00:26:23,600
Speaker 3: I always say to myself, if you're ever here, I

473
00:26:23,640 --> 00:26:24,360
Speaker 3: was going to pull up.

474
00:26:24,640 --> 00:26:27,080
Speaker 1: That's quite how to sho that. No, I was, Yeah,

475
00:26:27,080 --> 00:26:31,240
Speaker 1: I was there. Yeah, dude. Well, I mean I'm probably

476
00:26:31,240 --> 00:26:33,159
Speaker 1: never coming back. That's not true. I'll come back, but

477
00:26:33,320 --> 00:26:34,280
Speaker 1: it'll be at least a year.

478
00:26:35,520 --> 00:26:37,320
Speaker 3: I don't say that breaking my heart ring.

479
00:26:37,320 --> 00:26:39,439
Speaker 1: No, man, no, no, I'll come back, but it's going

480
00:26:39,480 --> 00:26:41,760
Speaker 1: to be at least a year. But I mean, well, anyway, Look,

481
00:26:41,880 --> 00:26:45,800
Speaker 1: we're on the look. Despite all that, we are on

482
00:26:45,840 --> 00:26:48,000
Speaker 1: the phone with each other right now, So let's take

483
00:26:48,040 --> 00:26:48,639
Speaker 1: advantage of this.

484
00:26:48,680 --> 00:26:49,720
Speaker 3: Yeah, a beautiful thing.

485
00:26:50,680 --> 00:26:51,600
Speaker 1: What do you want to talk about?

486
00:26:51,600 --> 00:26:55,080
Speaker 3: Man, man, I have so much I want to talk

487
00:26:55,119 --> 00:26:58,640
Speaker 3: to you about. But can I tell you quick story first?

488
00:26:59,080 --> 00:27:05,400
Speaker 1: You've well, I guess before is how uh sure? Yeah?

489
00:27:05,480 --> 00:27:05,920
Speaker 1: All right.

490
00:27:06,000 --> 00:27:08,840
Speaker 3: This one's a little a little graphic, but I've been

491
00:27:08,880 --> 00:27:11,359
Speaker 3: wanting to share this story with the world for a

492
00:27:11,400 --> 00:27:16,640
Speaker 3: long time. So basically, to preface, it's about how one

493
00:27:16,680 --> 00:27:21,320
Speaker 3: time I nutted blood and there's no I didn't really

494
00:27:21,320 --> 00:27:23,359
Speaker 3: get any answers as to why it happened.

495
00:27:23,400 --> 00:27:24,679
Speaker 2: It just it just happened.

496
00:27:24,840 --> 00:27:28,280
Speaker 1: Fucking Christ. Okay was it? What more to the story

497
00:27:28,359 --> 00:27:30,520
Speaker 1: is there than just that one simple sentence?

498
00:27:33,720 --> 00:27:36,840
Speaker 3: Like the way that it happened was traumatic. Basically, I

499
00:27:36,880 --> 00:27:40,560
Speaker 3: was with my ex partner and you know, we were

500
00:27:40,560 --> 00:27:44,119
Speaker 3: getting into it or whatever, and like when I had

501
00:27:44,160 --> 00:27:49,199
Speaker 3: pulled out and I looked down, it was like it

502
00:27:49,240 --> 00:27:50,040
Speaker 3: was a different color.

503
00:27:50,040 --> 00:27:51,120
Speaker 2: So I was like, well, what the fuck?

504
00:27:51,960 --> 00:27:55,800
Speaker 3: And yeah, like we turned the lights on and it

505
00:27:55,840 --> 00:27:58,680
Speaker 3: was blood. And then I went to my doctor and

506
00:27:58,800 --> 00:28:02,200
Speaker 3: the doctor's like they did their thing and they looked

507
00:28:02,400 --> 00:28:05,359
Speaker 3: and I was like, like, am I gonna die? Like

508
00:28:05,520 --> 00:28:07,680
Speaker 3: do I have to get my junk cut off? And

509
00:28:08,320 --> 00:28:11,040
Speaker 3: they were just like no. But we also don't know

510
00:28:11,080 --> 00:28:15,120
Speaker 3: why it happened. And I don't know. I'm a little

511
00:28:15,160 --> 00:28:17,719
Speaker 3: traumatized ever since then that happened, Like that happened like

512
00:28:18,240 --> 00:28:21,960
Speaker 3: five years ago maybe, and like I just never got

513
00:28:22,000 --> 00:28:23,760
Speaker 3: any answers and then it never happened again.

514
00:28:24,960 --> 00:28:27,119
Speaker 1: Well, now you know what it's like to be a woman.

515
00:28:27,160 --> 00:28:29,360
Speaker 1: You know, you have blood coming out of your out

516
00:28:29,359 --> 00:28:35,520
Speaker 1: of your out of your hole. Yeah, I don't know.

517
00:28:35,800 --> 00:28:37,879
Speaker 1: There's a lot of stuff going on in the human body.

518
00:28:37,880 --> 00:28:41,560
Speaker 1: There's a lot of holes and a lot of pipes

519
00:28:41,560 --> 00:28:44,360
Speaker 1: and tubes running around, and you know, sometimes the tubes

520
00:28:44,400 --> 00:28:47,280
Speaker 1: just get tied up. You know, sometimes the blood tube

521
00:28:47,560 --> 00:28:48,760
Speaker 1: makes its way into the come.

522
00:28:48,680 --> 00:28:52,000
Speaker 3: Tube down the wrong pipe.

523
00:28:52,040 --> 00:28:52,280
Speaker 4: Right.

524
00:28:54,200 --> 00:28:55,760
Speaker 1: You said you had a whole bunch of things you

525
00:28:55,760 --> 00:28:57,720
Speaker 1: wanted to talk about. What are some other ones?

526
00:28:59,640 --> 00:29:02,040
Speaker 3: Well, I'm gonna be honest with you, Like my life

527
00:29:02,040 --> 00:29:05,040
Speaker 3: has just been if you know those ones where your

528
00:29:05,040 --> 00:29:06,320
Speaker 3: life just feels like it's like.

529
00:29:07,160 --> 00:29:09,080
Speaker 1: Uh, do me, do me, do me a favorite brother?

530
00:29:09,120 --> 00:29:09,920
Speaker 1: Are you outside?

531
00:29:11,480 --> 00:29:11,680
Speaker 2: Yeah?

532
00:29:11,680 --> 00:29:13,040
Speaker 3: I just have to run outside real quick?

533
00:29:13,680 --> 00:29:14,600
Speaker 1: Could you go inside?

534
00:29:16,080 --> 00:29:17,760
Speaker 3: Yeah? Is this better?

535
00:29:18,680 --> 00:29:19,880
Speaker 1: Yes? Okay, what were you saying?

536
00:29:20,240 --> 00:29:21,160
Speaker 3: Okay? Perfect? Yeah?

537
00:29:21,160 --> 00:29:21,520
Speaker 2: Sorry?

538
00:29:22,120 --> 00:29:23,920
Speaker 3: You know those ones with like my life, your life

539
00:29:23,920 --> 00:29:25,720
Speaker 3: feels like it's like kind of just falling apart.

540
00:29:26,840 --> 00:29:27,960
Speaker 1: Uh yeah, definitely.

541
00:29:29,320 --> 00:29:31,200
Speaker 3: Yeah, Like it's like that right now, you know, like

542
00:29:31,640 --> 00:29:34,120
Speaker 3: they say, like bad things happen in threees and stuff

543
00:29:34,160 --> 00:29:36,520
Speaker 3: like that, and like I feel like I'm waiting for

544
00:29:36,600 --> 00:29:40,200
Speaker 3: the third bad thing to happen. Like just last week,

545
00:29:40,720 --> 00:29:44,800
Speaker 3: a week ago today, my car died. Like it it's

546
00:29:44,880 --> 00:29:48,280
Speaker 3: just it just died. It's done. I'd to scrap it

547
00:29:49,600 --> 00:29:53,520
Speaker 3: and and then what else would happen before that?

548
00:29:54,320 --> 00:29:54,520
Speaker 2: Oh?

549
00:29:54,600 --> 00:29:58,080
Speaker 3: And then no after that? So my car died last Friday,

550
00:29:58,120 --> 00:30:00,640
Speaker 3: and then I hurt my back, like I really like

551
00:30:00,720 --> 00:30:03,640
Speaker 3: messed up my back on the weekend, like last weekend

552
00:30:03,680 --> 00:30:06,760
Speaker 3: on Saturday, and like I messed it up so bad

553
00:30:06,800 --> 00:30:08,440
Speaker 3: that like I haven't been able to work for the

554
00:30:08,480 --> 00:30:12,960
Speaker 3: whole week. And then I've just been at home laying

555
00:30:12,960 --> 00:30:16,200
Speaker 3: on my back, like just dying, just kind of like

556
00:30:16,240 --> 00:30:19,080
Speaker 3: reflecting on my life, like this is where I am

557
00:30:19,160 --> 00:30:21,840
Speaker 3: right now, which like, okay, it's not a bad place

558
00:30:21,920 --> 00:30:25,040
Speaker 3: to be, but like you know, it's just I feel

559
00:30:25,040 --> 00:30:26,800
Speaker 3: like it just set me back.

560
00:30:30,880 --> 00:30:35,360
Speaker 1: What have you learned anything from these reflections as you've

561
00:30:35,360 --> 00:30:37,400
Speaker 1: been out of commission?

562
00:30:39,680 --> 00:30:43,200
Speaker 3: But I feel like kind of but at the same time,

563
00:30:43,320 --> 00:30:46,640
Speaker 3: like I don't know, I feel like maybe I've been

564
00:30:46,720 --> 00:30:50,560
Speaker 3: dwelling a little bit, but it just it feels like

565
00:30:50,600 --> 00:30:52,840
Speaker 3: everything that's happened right now has just kind of been

566
00:30:52,920 --> 00:30:57,400
Speaker 3: out of my control. But it's ultimately just put me

567
00:30:57,440 --> 00:31:01,040
Speaker 3: in like I don't know, just like a really rough spot.

568
00:31:01,160 --> 00:31:07,320
Speaker 3: I guess, like I don't really know what to what

569
00:31:07,440 --> 00:31:10,520
Speaker 3: to necessarily take away from that other than life can

570
00:31:10,560 --> 00:31:14,760
Speaker 3: be life can be a bit sometimes, I guess, maybe

571
00:31:14,800 --> 00:31:17,000
Speaker 3: just roll with the punches as best as you can.

572
00:31:17,320 --> 00:31:23,520
Speaker 1: I don't know, sure that's a good analysis. I suppose

573
00:31:23,920 --> 00:31:26,360
Speaker 1: let me can I I just before I I just

574
00:31:26,440 --> 00:31:29,560
Speaker 1: before we continue or before we go? I uh, I

575
00:31:29,600 --> 00:31:31,880
Speaker 1: want to listen. Do you sound like a nice guy?

576
00:31:31,960 --> 00:31:35,080
Speaker 1: I want to make sure that this being on the

577
00:31:35,120 --> 00:31:38,440
Speaker 1: phone with me today has been of any kind of

578
00:31:38,800 --> 00:31:41,800
Speaker 1: positive benefit to you. And so I ask you, is

579
00:31:41,840 --> 00:31:44,000
Speaker 1: there anything that you kind of I guess, wanted out

580
00:31:44,000 --> 00:31:45,800
Speaker 1: of this phone call that I can do for you.

581
00:31:48,040 --> 00:31:50,360
Speaker 3: I'll be honest with you, man, Honestly, like I've called

582
00:31:50,400 --> 00:31:54,000
Speaker 3: in a bunch of times, and you know, I've always

583
00:31:54,080 --> 00:31:58,040
Speaker 3: hit the the little voicemail thing saying the line is busy.

584
00:31:58,080 --> 00:32:01,680
Speaker 3: So just kind of being able to, you know, get

585
00:32:01,720 --> 00:32:04,000
Speaker 3: in on the on the stream and be able to

586
00:32:04,080 --> 00:32:05,640
Speaker 3: chop it up with you a little bit, that's been

587
00:32:05,680 --> 00:32:06,280
Speaker 3: really cool.

588
00:32:06,680 --> 00:32:07,000
Speaker 1: Cool.

589
00:32:07,440 --> 00:32:09,640
Speaker 3: Yeah, man, I don't know if that's anything away with that.

590
00:32:09,680 --> 00:32:12,920
Speaker 3: It would be like I've had a good little chat

591
00:32:13,160 --> 00:32:13,920
Speaker 3: with the get.

592
00:32:14,000 --> 00:32:16,280
Speaker 1: If it makes you feel any better. I I actually

593
00:32:16,360 --> 00:32:21,040
Speaker 1: I was scratching my asshole, uh today and there was

594
00:32:21,080 --> 00:32:28,320
Speaker 1: some blood which was concerning every once every Yeah. But

595
00:32:28,680 --> 00:32:30,880
Speaker 1: I will I'll say this though, and because I really

596
00:32:30,880 --> 00:32:34,520
Speaker 1: think that you're an American hero, because bloody I've had

597
00:32:34,520 --> 00:32:39,400
Speaker 1: a bloody asshole many times throughout my life. It's called

598
00:32:39,440 --> 00:32:41,080
Speaker 1: it's there's a word for it. You guys can look

599
00:32:41,080 --> 00:32:43,280
Speaker 1: this up if you have if you have nothing else

600
00:32:43,320 --> 00:32:48,640
Speaker 1: to do. It's called an anal fissure. Yeah, an anal fissure.

601
00:32:48,640 --> 00:32:50,880
Speaker 1: It's when you get like a little cut in your asshole.

602
00:32:50,920 --> 00:32:54,360
Speaker 1: And that's why it's why you're that's why it bleeds.

603
00:32:54,640 --> 00:32:58,520
Speaker 1: But uh no, the I'd much rather have a bloody

604
00:32:59,200 --> 00:33:01,200
Speaker 1: asshole than a bloody dick hole. If I had a

605
00:33:01,200 --> 00:33:05,240
Speaker 1: bloody dick hole, I'd probably be I'd be mortified. So

606
00:33:05,360 --> 00:33:08,000
Speaker 1: I think you're an American hero for because He's why.

607
00:33:08,040 --> 00:33:10,920
Speaker 1: The reason I say you're an American hero is because cosmically,

608
00:33:11,680 --> 00:33:16,560
Speaker 1: I really believe that coming blood is something that had

609
00:33:17,080 --> 00:33:21,680
Speaker 1: to have happened at least once to someone, right like

610
00:33:21,920 --> 00:33:27,600
Speaker 1: the it was, it was multiple people's divine destiny to

611
00:33:27,720 --> 00:33:30,600
Speaker 1: come blood. Uh And I think that those people were

612
00:33:30,680 --> 00:33:33,120
Speaker 1: kind of selected at random by the by the universe,

613
00:33:33,160 --> 00:33:35,120
Speaker 1: and you happen to be one of them. And so

614
00:33:35,840 --> 00:33:39,160
Speaker 1: it's the fact that you came blood, the fact that

615
00:33:39,200 --> 00:33:42,480
Speaker 1: you not that you volunteered to do it, but you

616
00:33:42,520 --> 00:33:44,960
Speaker 1: know it was noble of you to take on that

617
00:33:45,080 --> 00:33:48,000
Speaker 1: helm of of the person who came blood, of the

618
00:33:48,000 --> 00:33:51,360
Speaker 1: inevitable person to come blood. Even if you didn't sign

619
00:33:51,480 --> 00:33:54,080
Speaker 1: up to do it, I still think it was. It's

620
00:33:54,120 --> 00:33:56,520
Speaker 1: a noble cross to bear, and so I commended for that.

621
00:33:57,040 --> 00:34:00,200
Speaker 3: I can I share something else about that, say, same

622
00:34:00,320 --> 00:34:03,360
Speaker 3: topic that I also I meant to share, but I forgot.

623
00:34:03,840 --> 00:34:06,840
Speaker 3: It's just I'm releasing the trauma right now on on

624
00:34:06,920 --> 00:34:08,240
Speaker 3: the on the stream.

625
00:34:08,719 --> 00:34:11,600
Speaker 1: Okay, Well, yeah, after all.

626
00:34:11,480 --> 00:34:14,440
Speaker 3: That happened, and I went to the doctors and like

627
00:34:14,560 --> 00:34:17,520
Speaker 3: they looked at it. They sent me to like a specialist.

628
00:34:18,200 --> 00:34:19,960
Speaker 3: And this is the part that's actually like all my

629
00:34:19,960 --> 00:34:22,480
Speaker 3: male listeners, y'all got plucky ears for a second. They

630
00:34:22,520 --> 00:34:24,160
Speaker 3: stuck a camera down my dick hole.

631
00:34:24,440 --> 00:34:26,879
Speaker 1: Yeah yeah, yeah, yeah yeah. That's the thing that's real.

632
00:34:26,920 --> 00:34:30,120
Speaker 3: That's the whole thing that one's messed up, man, that

633
00:34:30,239 --> 00:34:32,160
Speaker 3: one had me messed up. I needed to like let

634
00:34:32,200 --> 00:34:35,319
Speaker 3: it out somewhere. And I always said on the stream,

635
00:34:35,640 --> 00:34:36,719
Speaker 3: I'm telling the world.

636
00:34:36,920 --> 00:34:38,160
Speaker 1: It's the dick hole selfie.

637
00:34:39,880 --> 00:34:43,160
Speaker 3: It literally is the dick hole selfie. But they never

638
00:34:43,200 --> 00:34:44,480
Speaker 3: sent me the picture that they took.

639
00:34:45,360 --> 00:34:50,600
Speaker 1: They never sent you the picture. Is it like? Is

640
00:34:50,640 --> 00:34:51,440
Speaker 1: it is it?

641
00:34:51,520 --> 00:34:51,600
Speaker 5: Like?

642
00:34:51,880 --> 00:34:53,839
Speaker 1: Is it like Disney World where you have to pay

643
00:34:53,880 --> 00:34:55,760
Speaker 1: for it and they send it to you in a frame.

644
00:34:57,360 --> 00:34:59,799
Speaker 3: Well, I don't know, like our healthcare out here is.

645
00:35:00,280 --> 00:35:03,240
Speaker 3: But just because it's free doesn't mean it's good.

646
00:35:04,080 --> 00:35:06,600
Speaker 1: No, it's fine. Yeah. I would think in Canada they

647
00:35:06,600 --> 00:35:08,400
Speaker 1: send you home with a little key chain with the

648
00:35:08,480 --> 00:35:10,440
Speaker 1: picture of the inside of your dick hole on it,

649
00:35:12,160 --> 00:35:13,800
Speaker 1: like or they or they put it in like a

650
00:35:14,239 --> 00:35:16,840
Speaker 1: or they put it in a custom snow globe or something.

651
00:35:19,160 --> 00:35:21,239
Speaker 3: Yeah, Like I'd like the little keychain that would say

652
00:35:21,280 --> 00:35:23,840
Speaker 3: like I survived the dick hole selfie or something like

653
00:35:23,840 --> 00:35:26,239
Speaker 3: they didn't give me any anesthetics, or like mets, they

654
00:35:26,320 --> 00:35:27,560
Speaker 3: just raw dogs my door.

655
00:35:27,600 --> 00:35:29,560
Speaker 1: Wait, they didn't give you anesthetics. They just shove that

656
00:35:29,600 --> 00:35:30,319
Speaker 1: motherfucker in.

657
00:35:31,480 --> 00:35:33,680
Speaker 3: Yeah, or they put like this, it's like freezing gel

658
00:35:33,760 --> 00:35:35,840
Speaker 3: in like kind of like a freezing gel like that

659
00:35:35,880 --> 00:35:39,480
Speaker 3: they use at the dentist. It didn't really do anything.

660
00:35:39,600 --> 00:35:41,759
Speaker 3: And if I'm being real with you, get it kind

661
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Speaker 3: of hurt when they.

662
00:35:42,960 --> 00:35:47,239
Speaker 1: Put Jesus they like it. Fuck, I thought they put

663
00:35:47,280 --> 00:35:48,240
Speaker 1: you on there or something.

664
00:35:49,880 --> 00:35:51,719
Speaker 3: Well that's what I thought too, And so they told

665
00:35:51,719 --> 00:35:54,200
Speaker 3: me when they like when they did the dick hole selfie.

666
00:35:54,200 --> 00:35:56,560
Speaker 3: They're like, you can't tense up at all, Like you

667
00:35:56,600 --> 00:35:59,279
Speaker 3: can't flex your muscles, you can't like you can't like

668
00:35:59,400 --> 00:36:02,359
Speaker 3: clench your because if you do that then it'll make

669
00:36:02,440 --> 00:36:04,719
Speaker 3: this like it'll make your dick hole tents up as well,

670
00:36:05,239 --> 00:36:07,759
Speaker 3: and they'll have to like push through it. So like

671
00:36:07,840 --> 00:36:10,319
Speaker 3: the whole time I was there, like they're trying to

672
00:36:10,320 --> 00:36:12,920
Speaker 3: tell me, like, yo, imagine you're on like a tropical

673
00:36:13,000 --> 00:36:16,400
Speaker 3: island and you're on a vacation, and how am I

674
00:36:16,440 --> 00:36:19,080
Speaker 3: going to do that? Man like put me under Please.

675
00:36:21,280 --> 00:36:25,240
Speaker 1: Well, I hope that making everyone listening to this feel

676
00:36:25,280 --> 00:36:27,359
Speaker 1: worse made you feel better. I really mean that.

677
00:36:29,040 --> 00:36:30,960
Speaker 3: Isn't that like the rule of the internet or one

678
00:36:31,000 --> 00:36:32,720
Speaker 3: of the rules of the internet, Like if I thought

679
00:36:32,760 --> 00:36:33,040
Speaker 3: you have.

680
00:36:33,080 --> 00:36:35,239
Speaker 1: To see it do or something like, you know, that's fair.

681
00:36:35,400 --> 00:36:37,279
Speaker 3: I'm just abiding by the law man, you know.

682
00:36:37,560 --> 00:36:41,600
Speaker 1: No, that's fair. If I had to have a stick

683
00:36:41,680 --> 00:36:44,120
Speaker 1: shoved in my dick hole, I would want to share

684
00:36:44,160 --> 00:36:45,560
Speaker 1: that pain with other people too.

685
00:36:47,160 --> 00:36:50,719
Speaker 3: Yeah, well, it was just part of releasing the trauma.

686
00:36:51,040 --> 00:36:52,120
Speaker 1: Is there anything else you want to say to the

687
00:36:52,160 --> 00:36:53,440
Speaker 1: people of the computer before we go?

688
00:36:55,960 --> 00:36:57,760
Speaker 3: The only thing I want to say to you guys

689
00:36:57,840 --> 00:37:03,879
Speaker 3: before I go is don't come blood, don't do it

690
00:37:04,280 --> 00:37:06,759
Speaker 3: not recommended, have.

691
00:37:06,760 --> 00:37:09,480
Speaker 2: A good night, you will buy geck.

692
00:37:11,280 --> 00:37:13,040
Speaker 1: That's what I realized. I meant that it had to

693
00:37:13,080 --> 00:37:18,960
Speaker 1: have been somebody. Every horrible thing that, every horrible scenario.

694
00:37:19,000 --> 00:37:22,040
Speaker 1: What's there's a word for this? Ah, does anyone know

695
00:37:22,120 --> 00:37:25,840
Speaker 1: what this? There's there's like if it is possible to happen,

696
00:37:25,960 --> 00:37:30,200
Speaker 1: it will happen. Uh, what the fuck is the there's

697
00:37:30,239 --> 00:37:35,560
Speaker 1: a phrase for like anything that can happen will happen. Oh,

698
00:37:35,680 --> 00:37:37,719
Speaker 1: please please leave it in the comments if you know

699
00:37:37,840 --> 00:37:40,960
Speaker 1: this phrase. But there's a phrase maybe the chat. Can

700
00:37:41,000 --> 00:37:44,080
Speaker 1: you let me look at the Murphy's law. Yes, Murphy's law.

701
00:37:44,160 --> 00:37:48,960
Speaker 1: It's the Murphy's law. So Murphy's law. If if it

702
00:37:49,040 --> 00:37:53,120
Speaker 1: is possible for one to bleed out of one's dick hole,

703
00:37:53,239 --> 00:37:57,960
Speaker 1: it will happen to somebody. So, uh, whatever horrible thing

704
00:37:58,000 --> 00:38:00,360
Speaker 1: has ever happened to you in your life, just know

705
00:38:00,440 --> 00:38:05,040
Speaker 1: eventually it had to happen to someone. It's unfortunate, sure

706
00:38:05,080 --> 00:38:09,200
Speaker 1: that it happened to you, but take a little pride

707
00:38:09,239 --> 00:38:10,759
Speaker 1: in it. You know it had to happen to even

708
00:38:10,800 --> 00:38:14,480
Speaker 1: if you didn't volunteer for whatever horrible thing happens to you.

709
00:38:15,320 --> 00:38:17,239
Speaker 1: It had to happen to someone had to do it.

710
00:38:17,239 --> 00:38:21,680
Speaker 1: It's like it's like cleaning toilets. You know, there's even

711
00:38:21,680 --> 00:38:25,839
Speaker 1: if it's not the job you wanted, it's noble. It's

712
00:38:25,880 --> 00:38:27,600
Speaker 1: a noble thing to do. It has to be done.

713
00:38:29,480 --> 00:38:31,560
Speaker 1: So that's why I think. That's why I think this

714
00:38:31,600 --> 00:38:37,759
Speaker 1: guy's a hero for coming blood out of his dick. Hello, Hi,

715
00:38:37,840 --> 00:38:38,520
Speaker 1: what is your name?

716
00:38:38,800 --> 00:38:39,320
Speaker 5: Fatima?

717
00:38:39,840 --> 00:38:43,240
Speaker 1: Fatima? What's up? Fatima? Uh?

718
00:38:43,400 --> 00:38:45,920
Speaker 5: Nothing right? What's up with to you?

719
00:38:46,800 --> 00:38:49,319
Speaker 1: That's something you would say to a kid on on

720
00:38:49,360 --> 00:38:51,839
Speaker 1: the playground, if you're trying to make him, make him

721
00:38:51,840 --> 00:38:54,040
Speaker 1: feel bad, you say, you say you got a Fatima,

722
00:38:54,760 --> 00:38:58,279
Speaker 1: You got a fat mom. Sorry, sorry, sorry for saying that.

723
00:39:01,520 --> 00:39:03,399
Speaker 1: Is there any is there anything in particular you wanted

724
00:39:03,440 --> 00:39:06,800
Speaker 1: to talk about, Fatima? Uh?

725
00:39:06,880 --> 00:39:10,960
Speaker 5: Yeah, Actually I wanted to talk about how I'm like

726
00:39:11,160 --> 00:39:14,440
Speaker 5: forced to move in and sleep with my grandma, like

727
00:39:14,680 --> 00:39:17,280
Speaker 5: starting July of next year, and I.

728
00:39:17,280 --> 00:39:18,759
Speaker 2: Really do not want to.

729
00:39:20,680 --> 00:39:21,640
Speaker 1: How old are you?

730
00:39:23,280 --> 00:39:25,319
Speaker 5: I'm nineteen, I'm gonna be twenty like next week.

731
00:39:25,640 --> 00:39:28,080
Speaker 1: You're you What do you mean You're being forced to

732
00:39:28,960 --> 00:39:30,560
Speaker 1: sleep with your grandma?

733
00:39:32,560 --> 00:39:37,479
Speaker 5: So basically, my grandma has dementia and I go over

734
00:39:37,640 --> 00:39:39,879
Speaker 5: like every other week to go take care of her,

735
00:39:39,880 --> 00:39:42,839
Speaker 5: to see how she's doing, and my mom will tell

736
00:39:42,880 --> 00:39:45,120
Speaker 5: me how her adventure is gonna get worse soon, so

737
00:39:45,200 --> 00:39:47,279
Speaker 5: it would be best if we move in with her,

738
00:39:48,239 --> 00:39:49,879
Speaker 5: so we can just always keep an eye on her.

739
00:39:51,280 --> 00:39:53,680
Speaker 5: And she doesn't have that many rooms to sleep in,

740
00:39:54,320 --> 00:39:56,799
Speaker 5: so I'm forced to sleep on the same bed as

741
00:39:56,840 --> 00:39:59,799
Speaker 5: my grandma until I don't know however long.

742
00:40:02,960 --> 00:40:09,560
Speaker 1: Wow, so she's sleeping in your just I just I

743
00:40:09,560 --> 00:40:12,399
Speaker 1: guess started trying to make it, make it all get

744
00:40:12,680 --> 00:40:16,279
Speaker 1: the right photo. She's moving in with your family, or

745
00:40:16,320 --> 00:40:19,520
Speaker 1: she was already there, so she.

746
00:40:19,560 --> 00:40:22,719
Speaker 5: Has her own house like thirty minutes from where I live,

747
00:40:22,920 --> 00:40:28,560
Speaker 5: or like my atro house. And so we were just

748
00:40:29,040 --> 00:40:34,319
Speaker 5: having to move in at her house because apparently she

749
00:40:34,480 --> 00:40:37,120
Speaker 5: was in to originally move into our guest room because

750
00:40:37,120 --> 00:40:39,520
Speaker 5: we had it just there and it'll be easier for us.

751
00:40:39,840 --> 00:40:42,320
Speaker 5: And we told my grandma about the idea, and my

752
00:40:42,400 --> 00:40:44,560
Speaker 5: mom told me that she said that she'd rather die

753
00:40:44,800 --> 00:40:48,319
Speaker 5: than move into the house. So I guess her only

754
00:40:48,440 --> 00:40:50,040
Speaker 5: choice is to move into her house.

755
00:40:52,120 --> 00:40:53,120
Speaker 1: How big is her house?

756
00:40:55,920 --> 00:40:59,800
Speaker 5: It's two bedrooms one bathroom, well, I guess two bathrooms.

757
00:40:59,840 --> 00:41:04,080
Speaker 5: Her room has a bathroom, and then it just has

758
00:41:04,080 --> 00:41:07,600
Speaker 5: a kitchen, living room. But the thing about her ahead,

759
00:41:07,640 --> 00:41:10,840
Speaker 5: go ahead, oh sorry, Oh. The thing about her house

760
00:41:11,040 --> 00:41:15,000
Speaker 5: is that it's like a connected home where it's rented

761
00:41:15,040 --> 00:41:19,080
Speaker 5: to different people. So one side of the house has

762
00:41:19,160 --> 00:41:23,080
Speaker 5: like a whole different family, but it's it's like disconnected,

763
00:41:23,120 --> 00:41:25,239
Speaker 5: we can't really go through. And then there's like a

764
00:41:25,280 --> 00:41:28,960
Speaker 5: whole different building where the upstairs there's like a family

765
00:41:28,960 --> 00:41:31,479
Speaker 5: live in there, and then downstairs is where my mom

766
00:41:31,719 --> 00:41:35,439
Speaker 5: and my mom's husband's gonna live, and my brother's gonna

767
00:41:35,480 --> 00:41:39,040
Speaker 5: live in the other room. I'm hating to sleep in

768
00:41:39,120 --> 00:41:39,799
Speaker 5: my grandma room.

769
00:41:41,320 --> 00:41:44,480
Speaker 1: So you were the one who got stuck sleeping in

770
00:41:44,520 --> 00:41:48,319
Speaker 1: the same room with your grandma? Yeah, and you're gonna

771
00:41:48,320 --> 00:41:52,279
Speaker 1: sleep in the same bed, yeah, why don't you just

772
00:41:52,400 --> 00:41:53,480
Speaker 1: get an air mattress?

773
00:41:55,600 --> 00:42:00,080
Speaker 5: Her room isn't that big, Like, I feel like her

774
00:42:00,120 --> 00:42:03,000
Speaker 5: room is more of like just one pathway you can

775
00:42:03,040 --> 00:42:05,480
Speaker 5: go forward, and then one pathway to go out of

776
00:42:05,520 --> 00:42:06,919
Speaker 5: the door, and.

777
00:42:06,840 --> 00:42:09,279
Speaker 1: Then who so you guys are all you guys? How

778
00:42:09,320 --> 00:42:12,960
Speaker 1: long are you guys gonna be with your with your grandma?

779
00:42:13,160 --> 00:42:20,400
Speaker 6: For I feel like probably to the rest of her life, honestly,

780
00:42:21,800 --> 00:42:24,080
Speaker 6: And then what's happening with your house?

781
00:42:26,440 --> 00:42:29,680
Speaker 5: So my mom wants to rent out the house to

782
00:42:29,800 --> 00:42:32,440
Speaker 5: people so we don't have to sell it and we

783
00:42:32,480 --> 00:42:34,600
Speaker 5: can just go back whenever.

784
00:42:34,719 --> 00:42:35,320
Speaker 2: I think.

785
00:42:36,680 --> 00:42:38,640
Speaker 5: That's the plan that she wants to do. I don't

786
00:42:38,640 --> 00:42:42,040
Speaker 5: know if there's any other plant, but that's why she

787
00:42:42,200 --> 00:42:42,440
Speaker 5: told me.

788
00:42:45,120 --> 00:42:49,360
Speaker 1: So what's going on with you, fadie Ma? Are you in?

789
00:42:50,400 --> 00:42:52,080
Speaker 1: You in school? Do you work?

790
00:42:53,680 --> 00:42:57,520
Speaker 5: Oh? Yeah, I am in school. Actually my school is

791
00:42:57,560 --> 00:43:00,359
Speaker 5: like pretty close to my grandma's house. But the thing

792
00:43:00,360 --> 00:43:02,680
Speaker 5: about my work is that it's it's closer to my

793
00:43:02,920 --> 00:43:08,759
Speaker 5: actual house. So I would just have to like move

794
00:43:09,440 --> 00:43:13,520
Speaker 5: to a different work and I guess i'd be pretty

795
00:43:13,560 --> 00:43:15,720
Speaker 5: much it. I was thinking of dorming at my school,

796
00:43:15,800 --> 00:43:18,080
Speaker 5: but I looked at the prices for dorms and they're

797
00:43:18,160 --> 00:43:20,480
Speaker 5: way way too expensive for me.

798
00:43:21,160 --> 00:43:27,879
Speaker 1: Yeah, I guess this is kind of This is kind

799
00:43:27,920 --> 00:43:31,759
Speaker 1: of just like a you know, a situation you got

800
00:43:31,760 --> 00:43:33,920
Speaker 1: to deal with until you can get on your feet

801
00:43:34,080 --> 00:43:38,239
Speaker 1: enough to cobble together enough money to move out and

802
00:43:38,320 --> 00:43:39,320
Speaker 1: like be independent.

803
00:43:40,840 --> 00:43:44,719
Speaker 5: Yeah, I feel like it's gonna be hard. I'm not

804
00:43:44,760 --> 00:43:46,040
Speaker 5: really good at saving money either.

805
00:43:46,239 --> 00:43:48,719
Speaker 1: So what do you what do you spend money on?

806
00:43:50,920 --> 00:43:57,840
Speaker 5: Mainly on food, a lot of food and close and

807
00:43:57,960 --> 00:44:00,040
Speaker 5: just like use this, I'm not probably.

808
00:43:59,760 --> 00:44:00,359
Speaker 2: Not gon use.

809
00:44:01,520 --> 00:44:03,240
Speaker 1: Do you have a good RelA? What's your like actual

810
00:44:03,280 --> 00:44:05,200
Speaker 1: relationship like with your grandma?

811
00:44:07,000 --> 00:44:09,320
Speaker 5: My grandma, honestly, she she loves me, to be honest,

812
00:44:09,560 --> 00:44:13,359
Speaker 5: and she keeps mentioning the fact since you have mentioned

813
00:44:13,400 --> 00:44:15,120
Speaker 5: she came spent the back time when A lived her house,

814
00:44:15,160 --> 00:44:18,759
Speaker 5: and she keeps thinking, I don't know, I kind of

815
00:44:18,800 --> 00:44:22,120
Speaker 5: like go with it. But I'm fine with my grandma.

816
00:44:22,239 --> 00:44:24,360
Speaker 5: It's just the thing is that she told me a

817
00:44:24,400 --> 00:44:26,040
Speaker 5: few months ago when I was taking care of her.

818
00:44:26,080 --> 00:44:28,240
Speaker 4: She was like, uh, oh, by the way.

819
00:44:28,600 --> 00:44:30,920
Speaker 5: Like I haven't been going out lately, and no, what

820
00:44:31,000 --> 00:44:33,000
Speaker 5: it really comes over? So I haven't showered in like

821
00:44:33,040 --> 00:44:33,840
Speaker 5: five days?

822
00:44:34,280 --> 00:44:38,560
Speaker 3: Oh no, yeah.

823
00:44:38,320 --> 00:44:41,080
Speaker 1: Girl, you gotta shower if we're gonna be fucking sleeping

824
00:44:41,160 --> 00:44:41,960
Speaker 1: in the bed together.

825
00:44:43,640 --> 00:44:44,640
Speaker 3: Yeah, that's what I thought.

826
00:44:45,480 --> 00:44:50,879
Speaker 1: Oh Jesus Christ, Fatima, Oh man, what why don't you

827
00:44:51,000 --> 00:44:53,560
Speaker 1: just like, well, why don't you sleep with in like

828
00:44:53,680 --> 00:44:57,800
Speaker 1: your Is it like less weird or horrible to sleep

829
00:44:57,840 --> 00:44:59,919
Speaker 1: in with you in your the same room as your brother?

830
00:45:02,239 --> 00:45:04,400
Speaker 5: No, I've actually slept in the same room with my

831
00:45:04,440 --> 00:45:07,000
Speaker 5: brother before. It's just the thing is that my uncle

832
00:45:07,000 --> 00:45:09,800
Speaker 5: also lives with my grandma and he's sitting in that room.

833
00:45:10,000 --> 00:45:10,480
Speaker 2: But it's a.

834
00:45:10,480 --> 00:45:13,560
Speaker 5: Pretty big room, so it can fit like two beds.

835
00:45:13,880 --> 00:45:15,799
Speaker 5: But I feel like that's it. It will only fit

836
00:45:15,840 --> 00:45:16,280
Speaker 5: two beds.

837
00:45:16,719 --> 00:45:24,440
Speaker 1: Hm hmm. Okay, So your your grandma pretty much tells

838
00:45:24,480 --> 00:45:26,200
Speaker 1: you the news that you guys are going to be

839
00:45:26,200 --> 00:45:30,040
Speaker 1: sleeping together, like multiple multiple times in a row.

840
00:45:31,680 --> 00:45:32,840
Speaker 5: Yeah, I don't mind.

841
00:45:33,440 --> 00:45:36,000
Speaker 1: To be honest, is she excited? Is that is it?

842
00:45:36,080 --> 00:45:36,160
Speaker 2: Like?

843
00:45:36,800 --> 00:45:38,960
Speaker 1: Does she seem happy about it?

844
00:45:40,800 --> 00:45:41,920
Speaker 2: Honestly? I think so.

845
00:45:42,080 --> 00:45:45,120
Speaker 5: Every time she tells me, she always smiles and like, oh,

846
00:45:45,200 --> 00:45:48,040
Speaker 5: did your mom tell you this already? Like you're gonna

847
00:45:48,040 --> 00:45:51,400
Speaker 5: be living here? He seems excited. And I feel so

848
00:45:51,560 --> 00:45:53,960
Speaker 5: bad to say that I don't want to move in

849
00:45:54,000 --> 00:45:54,319
Speaker 5: with her.

850
00:45:55,080 --> 00:45:58,439
Speaker 1: No, you know you should. You should. That's uh, that's

851
00:45:58,480 --> 00:45:59,959
Speaker 1: really nice for you, shoul. I don't think you should

852
00:46:00,080 --> 00:46:04,799
Speaker 1: feel bad. I don't think that many like nineteen year

853
00:46:04,840 --> 00:46:09,960
Speaker 1: olds trying to fucking like move out and be like

854
00:46:10,160 --> 00:46:13,560
Speaker 1: independents are stoked to. I don't think you should feel

855
00:46:13,600 --> 00:46:16,479
Speaker 1: bad about not being stoked to sleep in a bed

856
00:46:16,560 --> 00:46:21,280
Speaker 1: with your grandma. I think that's a very understandable feeling

857
00:46:21,440 --> 00:46:23,239
Speaker 1: not to not to beat yourself up.

858
00:46:23,200 --> 00:46:26,799
Speaker 5: About Oh I'm glad about that part.

859
00:46:26,880 --> 00:46:33,000
Speaker 1: Then what's your what's uh? What's the dream? What? What

860
00:46:33,080 --> 00:46:36,120
Speaker 1: do you? What are you going to be? What life

861
00:46:36,160 --> 00:46:38,440
Speaker 1: are you going to be fantasizing about while you're on

862
00:46:38,480 --> 00:46:45,600
Speaker 1: your sigma grindset in your in your grandma's bedroom.

863
00:46:46,040 --> 00:46:46,520
Speaker 4: I don't know.

864
00:46:46,800 --> 00:46:50,719
Speaker 5: I've thought about a few places or like things to do.

865
00:46:51,160 --> 00:46:54,560
Speaker 5: I think my first idea was to become a veterinarian cool,

866
00:46:54,560 --> 00:46:57,680
Speaker 5: but that would require a lot of school and a

867
00:46:57,680 --> 00:47:01,239
Speaker 5: lot of years of doing stuff. Other than that, I've

868
00:47:01,280 --> 00:47:08,160
Speaker 5: also wanted to move in to Canada in Vancouver. That's

869
00:47:08,160 --> 00:47:10,720
Speaker 5: another idea, But I feel like their prices are away

870
00:47:10,840 --> 00:47:13,279
Speaker 5: a little bit higher than they are here, so that's

871
00:47:13,280 --> 00:47:14,120
Speaker 5: another issue.

872
00:47:14,600 --> 00:47:16,400
Speaker 1: What's going on in Vancouver? Was it just like a

873
00:47:16,440 --> 00:47:18,200
Speaker 1: city you were like, oh, that could be cool or

874
00:47:18,400 --> 00:47:20,160
Speaker 1: something specific? Oh?

875
00:47:20,920 --> 00:47:22,040
Speaker 3: So I was.

876
00:47:22,160 --> 00:47:24,319
Speaker 5: Let me tell you the backstory. So basically, I was

877
00:47:24,360 --> 00:47:26,680
Speaker 5: working and I had these guests come up to me

878
00:47:26,680 --> 00:47:29,439
Speaker 5: that are from Canada, and I work at a movie theater.

879
00:47:29,560 --> 00:47:32,160
Speaker 5: So they were telling me how the sizes are like humongous,

880
00:47:32,800 --> 00:47:35,399
Speaker 5: and then afterwards we were like talking for a bit

881
00:47:35,440 --> 00:47:38,480
Speaker 5: and they were telling me how I should go to Vancouver,

882
00:47:38,640 --> 00:47:42,160
Speaker 5: Canada because they said I would fit in. And they

883
00:47:42,200 --> 00:47:45,439
Speaker 5: also said there was like a festival thing they have

884
00:47:45,520 --> 00:47:48,080
Speaker 5: where they give out like free food and free concerts

885
00:47:48,120 --> 00:47:50,799
Speaker 5: and it's for everyone and they have it once a year.

886
00:47:51,760 --> 00:47:57,120
Speaker 5: So that was pretty cool. They probably have that here,

887
00:47:57,200 --> 00:47:59,080
Speaker 5: I don't know, not that I know of, but it

888
00:47:59,160 --> 00:48:01,920
Speaker 5: just seemed like, oh, like, that's that's so cool if

889
00:48:01,920 --> 00:48:03,840
Speaker 5: I were to live somewhere that I had that.

890
00:48:04,719 --> 00:48:09,880
Speaker 1: Yeah, yeah, no, you sound you sound like no, you

891
00:48:09,960 --> 00:48:12,359
Speaker 1: sound you sound like, uh, you want to do ship?

892
00:48:12,800 --> 00:48:13,040
Speaker 5: You know.

893
00:48:14,040 --> 00:48:16,680
Speaker 1: Yeah, it's a natural impulse to want to do ship.

894
00:48:17,040 --> 00:48:19,880
Speaker 1: I by the way, I really I think that if

895
00:48:20,320 --> 00:48:22,480
Speaker 1: if you have the impulse to want to do ship,

896
00:48:22,640 --> 00:48:27,600
Speaker 1: I like, I don't believe in manifestation in like a

897
00:48:27,760 --> 00:48:31,160
Speaker 1: woo woo you put things out into the universe. I

898
00:48:31,200 --> 00:48:37,600
Speaker 1: think the universe is pretty fucking indifferent to us. But like,

899
00:48:37,680 --> 00:48:46,520
Speaker 1: for a purely like my mind connection point of view,

900
00:48:46,600 --> 00:48:49,400
Speaker 1: I do think if you have it in your like

901
00:48:49,560 --> 00:48:52,600
Speaker 1: gut that you want to do things that that like

902
00:48:52,680 --> 00:48:57,719
Speaker 1: you eventually will even if you're not doing it, like

903
00:48:58,000 --> 00:49:01,959
Speaker 1: right fucking now, even if you're in uh, your grandma's room,

904
00:49:02,520 --> 00:49:04,960
Speaker 1: for a little bit. You if that, if that exists

905
00:49:04,960 --> 00:49:07,560
Speaker 1: in your gut that you want to go, go out

906
00:49:07,600 --> 00:49:12,200
Speaker 1: and do ship. I think that you you eventually will.

907
00:49:14,200 --> 00:49:14,239
Speaker 4: Go.

908
00:49:14,960 --> 00:49:17,360
Speaker 5: I'm gonna keep that mindset while I'm over there on

909
00:49:17,480 --> 00:49:17,880
Speaker 5: a ground.

910
00:49:18,880 --> 00:49:21,080
Speaker 3: Yeah, I remember you.

911
00:49:22,040 --> 00:49:26,479
Speaker 1: That's cool. Vancouver is a good Vancouver's a good place.

912
00:49:26,520 --> 00:49:29,399
Speaker 1: It's got a lot of trees. What what are you?

913
00:49:29,480 --> 00:49:30,560
Speaker 1: What state are you in?

914
00:49:32,400 --> 00:49:33,239
Speaker 5: I'm in California?

915
00:49:33,719 --> 00:49:41,719
Speaker 1: Okay, all right, that's cool. Yeah, well, uh is is

916
00:49:41,760 --> 00:49:45,440
Speaker 1: there anything else that you wanted to to talk about

917
00:49:45,560 --> 00:49:48,959
Speaker 1: or say or other aspects of this?

918
00:49:50,760 --> 00:49:54,040
Speaker 5: I actually do so. I was actually gonna go to

919
00:49:54,160 --> 00:49:57,680
Speaker 5: your live show on November ninth that I was gonna

920
00:49:57,680 --> 00:49:59,279
Speaker 5: wait until I get taked. Who I don't have any

921
00:49:59,280 --> 00:50:02,160
Speaker 5: money and I was checking on the tickets and it

922
00:50:02,239 --> 00:50:06,720
Speaker 5: was so out. Yeah, okay next time.

923
00:50:07,400 --> 00:50:13,600
Speaker 1: Yeah, I'll be back. I'll be back in twenty twenty.

924
00:50:12,239 --> 00:50:20,520
Speaker 6: Six, twenty six, my green Frog onesie.

925
00:50:20,400 --> 00:50:24,919
Speaker 1: Bro, bring, bring your grandma, bring the whole Family'll bring

926
00:50:24,960 --> 00:50:28,440
Speaker 1: my grandma. Is there anything else you gonna say? The

927
00:50:28,440 --> 00:50:31,000
Speaker 1: people in the computer before we go smoke?

928
00:50:31,840 --> 00:50:32,520
Speaker 5: Oh?

929
00:50:33,239 --> 00:50:35,399
Speaker 6: I love you guys, I love you, gig, I love

930
00:50:35,440 --> 00:50:36,719
Speaker 6: you BYO see it.

931
00:50:38,120 --> 00:50:38,520
Speaker 5: That's it.

932
00:50:38,600 --> 00:50:40,040
Speaker 1: Bye bye, Fatima.

933
00:50:42,800 --> 00:50:44,719
Speaker 2: Hello, Hello, Hi.

934
00:50:44,840 --> 00:50:45,520
Speaker 1: What is your name?

935
00:50:45,800 --> 00:50:46,200
Speaker 6: Caitlyn?

936
00:50:46,840 --> 00:50:48,520
Speaker 1: Caitlin? What's up, Kaitlyn? How you doing?

937
00:50:48,680 --> 00:50:49,680
Speaker 4: I'm pretty good. How are you?

938
00:50:51,800 --> 00:50:56,720
Speaker 1: I'm actually doing Okay, I'm feeling I'm actually feeling fairly

939
00:50:56,800 --> 00:51:01,160
Speaker 1: locked in and I'm excited and read to talk to

940
00:51:01,200 --> 00:51:04,680
Speaker 1: you about whatever it is that you wanted to talk about.

941
00:51:06,719 --> 00:51:08,520
Speaker 4: Okay, Now, I'm all nervous. I didn't think of that.

942
00:51:08,640 --> 00:51:11,600
Speaker 1: No, don't be nervous. This is a low pressure situation.

943
00:51:11,800 --> 00:51:15,400
Speaker 1: There's no this is this is this is one of

944
00:51:15,440 --> 00:51:19,560
Speaker 1: the this is one of the least important things going

945
00:51:19,640 --> 00:51:25,200
Speaker 1: on in America right now, or probably also probably the world.

946
00:51:25,200 --> 00:51:27,880
Speaker 1: This is probably one of the least important things going

947
00:51:27,880 --> 00:51:29,920
Speaker 1: on in the entire world right now. So there's just

948
00:51:30,040 --> 00:51:32,000
Speaker 1: no pressure whatsoever.

949
00:51:33,640 --> 00:51:40,000
Speaker 4: Okay, all right, So I kind of wanted to talk

950
00:51:40,040 --> 00:51:42,800
Speaker 4: to you about. So I'm about to graduate from school

951
00:51:43,120 --> 00:51:46,759
Speaker 4: and the career field I'm trying to get into is

952
00:51:46,800 --> 00:51:51,040
Speaker 4: like really competitive. So We're thinking about moving to just

953
00:51:51,480 --> 00:51:55,000
Speaker 4: anywhere in America, and I'm bringing my boyfriend along with me.

954
00:51:55,760 --> 00:51:58,600
Speaker 4: So I have moved across the country by myself before,

955
00:51:59,280 --> 00:52:03,520
Speaker 4: he have not, and I'm scared. But he's going to

956
00:52:03,680 --> 00:52:05,560
Speaker 4: like not like where we move or it's going to

957
00:52:05,600 --> 00:52:09,280
Speaker 4: be harder to make friends with a significant other along

958
00:52:09,320 --> 00:52:09,600
Speaker 4: with me.

959
00:52:14,239 --> 00:52:17,560
Speaker 1: Hm hmm. Well, he's not moving across the country alone.

960
00:52:17,560 --> 00:52:19,000
Speaker 1: He's moving across the country with you.

961
00:52:21,160 --> 00:52:23,239
Speaker 4: This is true, But then we both have to like

962
00:52:23,320 --> 00:52:25,839
Speaker 4: make friends independently, and I feel like it's a lot

963
00:52:25,920 --> 00:52:29,560
Speaker 4: easier when you're like by yourself making friends rather than when, like,

964
00:52:30,480 --> 00:52:32,239
Speaker 4: I don't know, he's trying to make you know.

965
00:52:32,400 --> 00:52:34,680
Speaker 1: Your your are you? Are you?

966
00:52:35,239 --> 00:52:35,439
Speaker 2: Well?

967
00:52:35,480 --> 00:52:37,759
Speaker 1: Okay, first of all, where where are you moving from?

968
00:52:37,840 --> 00:52:38,759
Speaker 1: And where are you going to?

969
00:52:40,520 --> 00:52:43,239
Speaker 4: So right now we're in Colorado and it's looking like

970
00:52:43,320 --> 00:52:44,480
Speaker 4: we're going to go to Chicago.

971
00:52:44,520 --> 00:52:46,960
Speaker 2: Well that's the goal. Cool to Chicago, but we could.

972
00:52:46,760 --> 00:52:49,400
Speaker 4: Go to like Kansas or somewhere random wherever I can

973
00:52:49,400 --> 00:52:49,640
Speaker 4: get a.

974
00:52:49,680 --> 00:52:52,719
Speaker 1: Job really cool. Well, I mean Chicago would be way

975
00:52:52,719 --> 00:52:56,239
Speaker 1: better than Kansas if you're trying to interact with other

976
00:52:56,360 --> 00:53:02,640
Speaker 1: human beings. Definitely definitely more expensive, But it depends on

977
00:53:02,680 --> 00:53:05,600
Speaker 1: I guess what you what you can hack? Okay, So

978
00:53:06,160 --> 00:53:10,279
Speaker 1: your boyfriend, how old are you? Guys? Well, you're yeah old?

979
00:53:10,280 --> 00:53:12,760
Speaker 2: He guys, I'm old.

980
00:53:12,800 --> 00:53:14,800
Speaker 4: I'm twenty nine and he is thirty.

981
00:53:17,000 --> 00:53:21,040
Speaker 1: And you've you're an experienced mover across that you sound

982
00:53:21,200 --> 00:53:23,200
Speaker 1: just I can kind of the way you're talking about

983
00:53:23,239 --> 00:53:27,279
Speaker 1: this sounds like you've like confidently done things like this

984
00:53:27,400 --> 00:53:28,360
Speaker 1: in your life before.

985
00:53:30,080 --> 00:53:30,319
Speaker 3: Yeah.

986
00:53:30,360 --> 00:53:33,600
Speaker 4: So I moved from California to here by myself and

987
00:53:33,640 --> 00:53:37,720
Speaker 4: I didn't know anyone, and I was like twenty floor

988
00:53:37,880 --> 00:53:41,560
Speaker 4: when I did that. So I feel like I would

989
00:53:41,560 --> 00:53:43,719
Speaker 4: be okay if I was moving by myself. But it's

990
00:53:43,760 --> 00:53:47,160
Speaker 4: like more scary to drag someone along with me in

991
00:53:47,160 --> 00:53:49,120
Speaker 4: case he doesn't like it, or in case.

992
00:53:48,960 --> 00:53:52,279
Speaker 1: He well, the good here's the good news is you're

993
00:53:52,280 --> 00:53:56,080
Speaker 1: actually not dragging him along with you. He's actually making

994
00:53:56,080 --> 00:54:00,920
Speaker 1: his own independent decision to come with you, knowing the

995
00:54:00,960 --> 00:54:05,640
Speaker 1: pros and the cons, weighing them and choosing to go

996
00:54:05,719 --> 00:54:09,239
Speaker 1: along with you because he wants to be with you,

997
00:54:09,280 --> 00:54:14,600
Speaker 1: maybe because he's open to new adventures and excitement in

998
00:54:14,640 --> 00:54:18,120
Speaker 1: his life. And it is it is, it is, in

999
00:54:18,160 --> 00:54:22,960
Speaker 1: fact his choice. You are not Hopefully you're not tying

1000
00:54:23,000 --> 00:54:24,600
Speaker 1: him up and throwing him in the trunk of your

1001
00:54:24,640 --> 00:54:26,840
Speaker 1: car and driving it to Kansas.

1002
00:54:28,960 --> 00:54:31,960
Speaker 4: No, that wasn't the plan I would.

1003
00:54:33,200 --> 00:54:33,279
Speaker 6: So.

1004
00:54:33,760 --> 00:54:39,279
Speaker 1: I mean, from my perspective, I really wouldn't think of

1005
00:54:39,320 --> 00:54:42,560
Speaker 1: this like you look you two are how as long

1006
00:54:42,560 --> 00:54:43,280
Speaker 1: he has been together?

1007
00:54:45,480 --> 00:54:46,120
Speaker 4: Four years?

1008
00:54:47,120 --> 00:54:48,840
Speaker 1: Okay? So yeah, I mean, look, you two are in

1009
00:54:48,880 --> 00:54:51,560
Speaker 1: a partnership and trying to support each other, and you

1010
00:54:51,640 --> 00:54:55,280
Speaker 1: clearly give a fuck that he isn't miserable all the time.

1011
00:54:56,880 --> 00:54:57,839
Speaker 2: Yeah, but.

1012
00:54:59,600 --> 00:55:03,719
Speaker 1: I mean, is he like, why are you nervous? Is

1013
00:55:03,760 --> 00:55:06,800
Speaker 1: he like socially not not good?

1014
00:55:08,200 --> 00:55:09,960
Speaker 4: No, not at all? But like he has his family

1015
00:55:10,000 --> 00:55:13,080
Speaker 4: here and I don't have any like real connections to hear,

1016
00:55:13,160 --> 00:55:14,880
Speaker 4: but he's been here for like a lot longer than

1017
00:55:14,920 --> 00:55:17,560
Speaker 4: I have, and he has like all of his work

1018
00:55:17,600 --> 00:55:20,759
Speaker 4: friends and everything. So he'd be leaving like everyone that

1019
00:55:20,760 --> 00:55:23,480
Speaker 4: he's been with for like ten years to go somewhere new.

1020
00:55:23,800 --> 00:55:25,879
Speaker 4: And I feel like if I hadn't like entered his life,

1021
00:55:25,920 --> 00:55:28,000
Speaker 4: he'd probably just stay here and be happy with him.

1022
00:55:28,239 --> 00:55:30,839
Speaker 1: No, but you can't. Yeah, but you really, he's this

1023
00:55:30,840 --> 00:55:34,240
Speaker 1: guy's making You didn't coax him into it. He's making

1024
00:55:34,280 --> 00:55:36,800
Speaker 1: his own decision.

1025
00:55:38,600 --> 00:55:40,080
Speaker 4: Yeah, yeah, this is true.

1026
00:55:41,200 --> 00:55:44,799
Speaker 1: And you're a good uh, you're a good girlfriend to

1027
00:55:44,880 --> 00:55:49,160
Speaker 1: want to help him with uh, with this and like

1028
00:55:49,280 --> 00:55:51,440
Speaker 1: work together with him on this. And you guys are

1029
00:55:51,480 --> 00:55:56,000
Speaker 1: like building a life together that's really awesome. But you know,

1030
00:55:56,080 --> 00:55:57,719
Speaker 1: I mean at the end of the fucking day. This guy,

1031
00:55:57,760 --> 00:56:01,359
Speaker 1: he's got a kind of he's got to summon the uh,

1032
00:56:02,760 --> 00:56:07,000
Speaker 1: the the whatever, the thing it takes to be like,

1033
00:56:07,040 --> 00:56:08,960
Speaker 1: all right, I'm gonna put myself out there in this way.

1034
00:56:08,960 --> 00:56:10,959
Speaker 1: I'm gonna maybe try go and do this. I'm gonna

1035
00:56:11,000 --> 00:56:12,440
Speaker 1: you know, hey, you want to come with me to this?

1036
00:56:12,520 --> 00:56:14,840
Speaker 1: And then you know, he's got a you can't be

1037
00:56:15,640 --> 00:56:20,840
Speaker 1: fully responsible for, like his uh whether or not he

1038
00:56:20,960 --> 00:56:23,040
Speaker 1: has a good social life in this new city he's

1039
00:56:23,080 --> 00:56:24,239
Speaker 1: deciding to move to with you.

1040
00:56:25,800 --> 00:56:28,440
Speaker 4: Yeah, that's true.

1041
00:56:30,640 --> 00:56:32,719
Speaker 1: Yeah, I don't know if that I don't know if

1042
00:56:32,719 --> 00:56:33,719
Speaker 1: that resonates with you.

1043
00:56:35,200 --> 00:56:40,920
Speaker 4: It does. Do you have any advice on how we

1044
00:56:40,960 --> 00:56:44,239
Speaker 4: can meet people and feel more like we have a

1045
00:56:44,280 --> 00:56:46,520
Speaker 4: community in a new place together.

1046
00:56:47,360 --> 00:56:50,800
Speaker 1: Well, if you go to Kansas, you can wander around

1047
00:56:53,080 --> 00:56:56,000
Speaker 1: the Dick's Sporting Goods and see if if you make

1048
00:56:56,000 --> 00:57:00,400
Speaker 1: any friends. What do you guys like.

1049
00:57:03,120 --> 00:57:06,760
Speaker 4: Music? I like the hike and being nature and stuff.

1050
00:57:07,719 --> 00:57:12,120
Speaker 4: He's a graphic designer and he likes all that computer stuff.

1051
00:57:14,760 --> 00:57:20,520
Speaker 1: Okay, bam, okay, here here join a hiking group. Bam,

1052
00:57:20,520 --> 00:57:24,760
Speaker 1: one and done. Go to small, intimate live music shows

1053
00:57:24,760 --> 00:57:30,240
Speaker 1: and talk to people bam, join a fucking art graphic

1054
00:57:30,280 --> 00:57:36,440
Speaker 1: design coworking group or start one bam. Three things. Uh,

1055
00:57:37,240 --> 00:57:39,439
Speaker 1: probably can't do any of them in Kansas. Maybe maybe

1056
00:57:39,440 --> 00:57:41,200
Speaker 1: I'm sorry for shooting on Maybe they're you know, I'm

1057
00:57:41,200 --> 00:57:42,840
Speaker 1: sorry for shooting on Kansas. Maybe you can do that

1058
00:57:42,880 --> 00:57:43,400
Speaker 1: in Kansas.

1059
00:57:43,440 --> 00:57:46,200
Speaker 4: But no, I fear that on Casus.

1060
00:57:46,720 --> 00:57:49,919
Speaker 1: Yeah, but yeah, we'll just do stuff, do stuff, start

1061
00:57:49,960 --> 00:57:53,160
Speaker 1: your own stuff. Just did to leave your house, go

1062
00:57:53,280 --> 00:57:56,520
Speaker 1: on the internet. There's it's literally never ever, ever been

1063
00:57:56,560 --> 00:58:01,200
Speaker 1: easier to like going to a new place and starting

1064
00:58:01,200 --> 00:58:04,840
Speaker 1: a life. There has never been easier. If you have

1065
00:58:05,240 --> 00:58:10,040
Speaker 1: some like if if you have if you have the

1066
00:58:10,120 --> 00:58:12,360
Speaker 1: desire to fucking do it, you have to be willing

1067
00:58:12,400 --> 00:58:14,640
Speaker 1: to go out and put yourself out there and and

1068
00:58:14,760 --> 00:58:18,480
Speaker 1: uh find communities and add to them somehow.

1069
00:58:19,000 --> 00:58:19,160
Speaker 3: Uh.

1070
00:58:19,160 --> 00:58:21,200
Speaker 1: But if you do that, you're going to be fine

1071
00:58:21,320 --> 00:58:24,920
Speaker 1: wherever you go, especially a place like Chicago.

1072
00:58:26,000 --> 00:58:27,800
Speaker 4: You know that's very true.

1073
00:58:30,440 --> 00:58:31,280
Speaker 1: Anything else.

1074
00:58:32,840 --> 00:58:33,440
Speaker 4: I don't think so.

1075
00:58:35,520 --> 00:58:40,080
Speaker 1: All right, Well, where do you think? Where do you

1076
00:58:40,080 --> 00:58:41,920
Speaker 1: think we go when we die? Do you think it's

1077
00:58:41,920 --> 00:58:42,760
Speaker 1: somewhere horrible?

1078
00:58:45,200 --> 00:58:47,680
Speaker 4: No? I feel like I want to believe that we

1079
00:58:47,800 --> 00:58:50,160
Speaker 4: get like resurrected into our favorite.

1080
00:58:49,800 --> 00:58:51,960
Speaker 1: Animal what's your favorite animal?

1081
00:58:53,720 --> 00:58:55,240
Speaker 4: A koala?

1082
00:58:55,920 --> 00:58:57,120
Speaker 1: Would you want to be a koala?

1083
00:58:58,560 --> 00:59:00,560
Speaker 4: Yeah, it would be sick. You just symmetry.

1084
00:59:02,200 --> 00:59:06,960
Speaker 1: Did they look really cute? Yeah? I went to Australia

1085
00:59:06,960 --> 00:59:09,840
Speaker 1: and I saw some of them, and some of them

1086
00:59:09,840 --> 00:59:12,240
Speaker 1: will run around and it's good. It's good time to

1087
00:59:12,240 --> 00:59:14,920
Speaker 1: be one. But I don't know. Sometimes I wonder if

1088
00:59:14,960 --> 00:59:16,760
Speaker 1: it was better, if it might have been better to

1089
00:59:16,800 --> 00:59:21,280
Speaker 1: be other things than just a human. I'm human. Humans

1090
00:59:21,320 --> 00:59:26,960
Speaker 1: are both blessed and burdened with our higher consciousness. And

1091
00:59:27,160 --> 00:59:29,080
Speaker 1: you got I guess you have to decide for yourself

1092
00:59:29,080 --> 00:59:30,480
Speaker 1: if it's a burden or a blessing.

1093
00:59:31,720 --> 00:59:32,280
Speaker 3: But how do you know?

1094
00:59:32,360 --> 00:59:35,040
Speaker 4: Koalas don't have a higher consciousness just like us?

1095
00:59:35,320 --> 00:59:38,400
Speaker 1: But they don't. We we because you know why? I

1096
00:59:38,480 --> 00:59:42,200
Speaker 1: know that because some guy at one point took a

1097
00:59:42,280 --> 00:59:45,520
Speaker 1: koala and just took a chainsaw and sawed him in

1098
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Speaker 1: half and looked at his brain like a lot. And

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Speaker 1: and then and then some other guy did the same

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Speaker 1: thing with like a lot of people just took their

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Speaker 1: bodies and cut sliced them up with a chainsaw and

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Speaker 1: looked at their brains. And they took each other's information,

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Speaker 1: and they came to a scientific conclusion the koalas are

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Speaker 1: dumber than human beings.

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Speaker 2: Wow.

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Speaker 4: I don't know if that's right, but I'll take your

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Speaker 4: word on it.

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Speaker 1: Is there anything else you want to say to the

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Speaker 1: people of the computer before we go?

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Speaker 4: I don't think so. Thanks for talking to me.

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Speaker 1: Later, dude. Kansas. By the way, just if anyone's listening

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Speaker 1: to this that lives in Kansas and you want to

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Speaker 1: be like, no, we actually have a great live music scene,

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Speaker 1: and no, we actually have lots of great nature in Kansas.

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Speaker 1: I'm open to it. I'm open to I want to

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Speaker 1: I have no it benefits me in no way, shape

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Speaker 1: or form. If Kansas is shitty, I've been. I've like,

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Speaker 1: where the fuck have I been in Kansas? Where the hell?

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Speaker 1: Where the fuck even it? Hold on, I'm going on

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Speaker 1: Google Maps. I'm looking at Kansas. Where the hell is Kansas?

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Speaker 1: I know I've been there. You know what's so stupid

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Speaker 1: is that Kansas City isn't even in Kansas. What's the

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Speaker 1: big city in Kansas? Topeka, dude. The other's Wichita. You

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Speaker 1: know what? Oh look, oh look, okay, I'm looking at Wichita, Kansas.

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Speaker 1: They have an urban air trampoline. An adventure Park. They

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Speaker 1: have a music venue. Okay, all right, you know what, Fine,

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Speaker 1: Maybe you know what, Maybe you could you know what,

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Speaker 1: I bet, if y'all really wanted to, you could live

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Speaker 1: a nice life in Wichita, Kansas. I really, I bet

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Speaker 1: you could. I bet you could goes on the line,

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Speaker 1: taking your phone calls every night. He was teaching you

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Speaker 1: cud in the line, an expert