WEBVTT - Johnny Moves Out 0:00:10.200 --> 0:00:14.280 Hello everyone, and welcome to another episode of Cheeky's and Chill, 0:00:14.760 --> 0:00:18.160 your favorite podcast and talking about favorites. I have one 0:00:18.239 --> 0:00:20.240 of my favorite people in the whole wide world here 0:00:20.239 --> 0:00:23.000 with me today, and I think you guys might know him. 0:00:23.000 --> 0:00:25.520 If you don't, you're gonna get to know him today. 0:00:25.760 --> 0:00:33.040 His name is Johnny angel El Sinko. Thank you for coming, Papa, 0:00:33.120 --> 0:00:34.559 Thank you for having me. I love you. 0:00:34.840 --> 0:00:36.519 This is my third podcast. 0:00:36.600 --> 0:00:37.239 Yes, this is the. 0:00:37.159 --> 0:00:39.400 First time we do it like in person, and it's 0:00:39.440 --> 0:00:40.160 really really different. 0:00:40.280 --> 0:00:42.920 It's different. Hah I, it's different. I love it. People 0:00:43.400 --> 0:00:45.479 like to watch the podcast and then I'm I like 0:00:45.560 --> 0:00:47.839 to listen. I'm more of a listener because I like 0:00:47.880 --> 0:00:49.160 to do it like while I'm working out and stuff 0:00:49.159 --> 0:00:50.240 like that. But there are a lot of people that 0:00:50.280 --> 0:00:52.200 are enjoying the video. So thank you so much. Because 0:00:52.240 --> 0:00:54.000 I was like, okay, everyone that I had all the 0:00:54.040 --> 0:00:58.080 first three seasons that a long time. You were telling 0:00:58.120 --> 0:00:59.840 me for a while, like Okay, you need to do visual, 0:00:59.880 --> 0:01:02.120 but I wanted to just get like acclimated and like 0:01:02.280 --> 0:01:04.000 just used to it. And now we did the first 0:01:04.040 --> 0:01:06.920 two seasons and it was awesome, and I'm so grateful, 0:01:07.160 --> 0:01:08.959 so that's why I'm like, Okay, people that were on 0:01:09.120 --> 0:01:10.760 the first two seasons, I want to bring them back 0:01:10.760 --> 0:01:13.520 and here on the sets. So yeah, it's awesome. So 0:01:13.520 --> 0:01:16.720 thank you, john And well we have big news. Johnny's 0:01:16.720 --> 0:01:21.760 pregnant and I'm just kidding. H Well, guys, I'm pretty 0:01:21.760 --> 0:01:24.560 sure a lot of people have already noticed, right a 0:01:24.600 --> 0:01:27.800 little bit maybe on social media, but we're officially going 0:01:27.880 --> 0:01:32.520 to talk about Johnny moving out. Yeah, oh my god, 0:01:33.160 --> 0:01:34.520 oh my god, you guys, I don't even know where 0:01:34.560 --> 0:01:36.800 to start with this. I might get emotional, so please 0:01:37.000 --> 0:01:41.360 just be aware. Disclaimer. So, Johnny moved out more than 0:01:41.360 --> 0:01:44.520 a month ago now, and he has his own apartment 0:01:44.880 --> 0:01:48.320 and he lives fifteen minutes away from the house yeah 0:01:49.480 --> 0:01:53.040 and ten yeah, ten with no traffic. And I love 0:01:53.080 --> 0:01:55.240 where he lives. I actually was looking at that place 0:01:56.120 --> 0:01:59.080 where he lives right now. But anyways, he moved out 0:01:59.120 --> 0:02:01.000 and it was very difficult. So how do you feel, actually, 0:02:01.000 --> 0:02:02.560 before we move on to the details, how do you 0:02:02.560 --> 0:02:03.200 feel right now? 0:02:03.640 --> 0:02:05.120 I think I'm like going through like one of the 0:02:05.160 --> 0:02:08.280 biggest shifts in my life. Honestly. Yeah, I'm like just 0:02:08.320 --> 0:02:11.280 as a person, as like as a human being, like my. 0:02:11.240 --> 0:02:13.040 Own You did tell me that the other day on 0:02:13.120 --> 0:02:13.560 my own. 0:02:13.480 --> 0:02:16.960 Journey and everything. I just, for the first time in 0:02:17.000 --> 0:02:19.760 my life, I feel like I'm really truly just trying 0:02:19.760 --> 0:02:23.600 to I don't I don't want this to sound wrong 0:02:23.639 --> 0:02:25.079 in any way, but I feel like I'm just trying 0:02:25.120 --> 0:02:27.960 to like figure out who I am without my siblings 0:02:28.200 --> 0:02:31.320 for the first time. And it's very very strange. Like 0:02:31.360 --> 0:02:38.880 I'm realizing just how like I have a very very 0:02:38.880 --> 0:02:40.440 few things in my life, and I realize, like how 0:02:40.480 --> 0:02:43.960 I'm actually pretty simple. I realized that I like cooking. 0:02:44.200 --> 0:02:46.400 I like cooking and cleaning a lot. And I was 0:02:46.760 --> 0:02:48.520 gonna say, I owe you an apology because now I 0:02:48.560 --> 0:02:51.120 understand like what you were always trying to do with me, 0:02:51.200 --> 0:02:54.160 especially the battle with the trash all the time. Yes, 0:02:54.440 --> 0:02:58.200 but in my defense, though one thing could be wrong 0:02:58.280 --> 0:02:59.600 and ruin your whole fucking day. 0:02:59.639 --> 0:03:02.240 Sometimes, yeah, sometimes you know what it's because for me, 0:03:02.400 --> 0:03:05.400 and I'll tell you guys, I don't like repeating myself. 0:03:05.520 --> 0:03:08.880 I need to work on that, and he always talking 0:03:08.919 --> 0:03:10.600 me that. It's like I'm like, dude, I've said it 0:03:10.600 --> 0:03:12.480 so many times, I just do it, you know, And 0:03:12.480 --> 0:03:14.720 then I would just get in a bad mood. But 0:03:14.720 --> 0:03:16.400 but yeah, to me, I'm like, Johnny, just take out 0:03:16.400 --> 0:03:19.520 the damn trash, Please bring it into trash cans, because. 0:03:19.240 --> 0:03:23.799 We're honestly, for like the last four or five years though, 0:03:23.800 --> 0:03:25.880 it wasn't because I didn't want to or anything. It 0:03:25.919 --> 0:03:27.959 was just like I genuinely would have it would just slip, 0:03:28.040 --> 0:03:28.960 it would slip my mind. 0:03:29.040 --> 0:03:29.720 Yeah. 0:03:29.240 --> 0:03:32.080 But now now that I'm in my own place and honestly, 0:03:32.120 --> 0:03:36.440 I I'm like you, I like everything cleaning, dude. I 0:03:35.760 --> 0:03:39.680 guess I realized how much I like I am your kid, like, 0:03:40.320 --> 0:03:42.760 because things that you like about your house is the 0:03:42.760 --> 0:03:43.440 way I like them. 0:03:43.560 --> 0:03:45.800 Like, I'm realizing that when I went to visit you. 0:03:45.880 --> 0:03:49.000 I've been to his apartment one time, and when I went, 0:03:49.280 --> 0:03:50.840 I was like, oh my god. I was looking the fridge. 0:03:50.880 --> 0:03:52.480 I looked at it, you know, I'm just like scoping 0:03:52.520 --> 0:03:55.280 things out. I'm a big sister. I'm noticing. And I 0:03:55.320 --> 0:03:57.320 was like, oh my god, I'm so proud of him him, 0:03:57.480 --> 0:03:59.560 and like I was just like, dude, everything is just 0:03:59.600 --> 0:04:02.720 in its place. It was nice and clean, it smelled good, 0:04:02.800 --> 0:04:05.600 like it felt airy. I'm like, oh my god, Like 0:04:05.680 --> 0:04:07.920 I'm so happy for you. I'm so happy for you, 0:04:08.000 --> 0:04:12.520 because it wasn't an easy decision. You know, I definitely 0:04:12.520 --> 0:04:14.800 struggled with it. I thought I was ready. I was like, Okay, 0:04:14.840 --> 0:04:16.599 I think Johnny's ready, And I didn't know how to 0:04:16.600 --> 0:04:18.840 bring it up to you for so long because it 0:04:18.880 --> 0:04:20.200 was something that was in my heart. But then I 0:04:20.200 --> 0:04:21.400 was like, but I don't want him to leave, like 0:04:21.440 --> 0:04:22.320 I'm not ready for it. 0:04:22.560 --> 0:04:24.760 I was, honestly, I was thinking about it, like while 0:04:24.720 --> 0:04:27.000 I was working out today. I think more than anything, 0:04:27.040 --> 0:04:30.679 what I was really waiting for was to feel safe 0:04:31.000 --> 0:04:33.400 leaving you, because there's a lot of things that I 0:04:33.440 --> 0:04:36.320 feel like only I would see sometimes because. 0:04:36.080 --> 0:04:37.720 We lived together for like our whole lives. 0:04:37.720 --> 0:04:40.080 I felt like your second pair of eyes, yeah, for sure, 0:04:40.200 --> 0:04:43.200 and just a lot of changes you made, Like I've 0:04:43.200 --> 0:04:47.000 never felt safer, like just being in a different place. Yeah, 0:04:47.040 --> 0:04:49.960 you know what I mean, Like I feel completely safe, 0:04:50.040 --> 0:04:53.400 like leaving you with the media, yeah, like, and I 0:04:53.400 --> 0:04:55.680 don't think I've ever really been able to say that before. 0:04:55.760 --> 0:04:58.080 No, I know, you know that I'm in good hands. 0:04:58.320 --> 0:05:00.599 Yeah. And then even then, like you know, with miss 0:05:00.680 --> 0:05:02.360 Kimberly over here, like it's just. 0:05:02.320 --> 0:05:04.080 Everything, Mberly's my new assistant out here. 0:05:04.600 --> 0:05:07.160 Everything just feels like right, it feels peaceful. 0:05:07.360 --> 0:05:10.880 Yeah, I feel and it definitely does. It definitely does. 0:05:11.400 --> 0:05:14.960 It feels different in the house. I walk like, okay, guys, 0:05:15.000 --> 0:05:17.480 let me just tell you. When we kind of like 0:05:17.560 --> 0:05:19.480 we're talking about the idea for like a couple months 0:05:19.520 --> 0:05:21.080 and we're like, Okay, I know it's going to happen. 0:05:21.120 --> 0:05:22.159 I was like, well, when is it going to happen? 0:05:22.200 --> 0:05:25.839 I need to mentally prepare. And I knew three months 0:05:25.839 --> 0:05:28.120 before it was you know, his official. I was like, hey, 0:05:28.160 --> 0:05:30.960 let's do until this month, and he was ready. He 0:05:31.000 --> 0:05:32.599 did everything on his own. I thought I was going 0:05:32.680 --> 0:05:34.760 to go like with him to go see apartments and everything, 0:05:34.800 --> 0:05:36.160 like you did it all by yourself. 0:05:36.400 --> 0:05:37.880 It's so proud of you, to be honest. There was 0:05:37.920 --> 0:05:40.560 only like apartments I looked at like online, but I 0:05:40.600 --> 0:05:42.719 only saw one in person. I just I loved it 0:05:42.760 --> 0:05:43.320 right away. 0:05:43.720 --> 0:05:46.400 The same way I think you felt it. You felt 0:05:46.440 --> 0:05:47.920 it and I know, yeah, I know you're safe there. 0:05:48.120 --> 0:05:49.880 They have high security, which was like to me, it's 0:05:49.880 --> 0:05:52.919 super important. He's good, but it was very hard. I 0:05:53.000 --> 0:05:55.240 cried so freaking much, you guys, and I realized, I'm like, 0:05:55.240 --> 0:05:57.400 why am I crying? Was like I know this was 0:05:57.680 --> 0:05:59.960 this is what needs to happen, but it's still difficult, 0:06:00.040 --> 0:06:02.360 you know what I mean, Like there's still my freaking kid, 0:06:02.640 --> 0:06:04.040 Like it's just I don't know. 0:06:03.920 --> 0:06:05.320 There was there was so many things, like I was 0:06:05.320 --> 0:06:08.520 getting deja vu with too, Like I there's an audio 0:06:08.560 --> 0:06:14.200 out there somewhere of mom talking about about when Jackie 0:06:14.200 --> 0:06:18.640 moved out she got married, and she she heard Jayles's 0:06:18.680 --> 0:06:20.560 footsteps and she realized that she wasn't going to hear 0:06:20.600 --> 0:06:22.760 Jayles's footsteps down the hall anymore. And then you said 0:06:22.760 --> 0:06:24.000 the same thing to me. I don't think you. 0:06:23.960 --> 0:06:24.880 Even I didn't realize. 0:06:24.880 --> 0:06:26.159 I don't think you even realized that. 0:06:26.360 --> 0:06:28.039 I know. I text him one night and. 0:06:29.040 --> 0:06:30.800 Like I was just getting so much deja vu, and 0:06:30.800 --> 0:06:33.080 I'm like, oh my gosh, this is crazy. And then yeah, 0:06:33.520 --> 0:06:36.680 and then I remember the first time it really hit me. 0:06:36.720 --> 0:06:39.200 I think it was like two days after I got 0:06:39.240 --> 0:06:41.280 approved for the application. I was like at a birthday 0:06:41.279 --> 0:06:43.039 party and it just hit me at an ore and 0:06:43.040 --> 0:06:45.240 I was I had to go outside because I started crying. 0:06:45.240 --> 0:06:48.000 I started, like really really crying, and I opened my 0:06:48.000 --> 0:06:51.240 phone and somebody had posted the scene from Cheeky's in 0:06:51.240 --> 0:06:54.160 Control where mom was asking you to move out. Yeah, 0:06:54.200 --> 0:06:55.560 and I'm like, oh my gosh. 0:06:55.240 --> 0:06:56.799 Like what is like, what's happening? 0:06:57.080 --> 0:06:58.880 Like what was God trying to tell me right now? 0:06:58.960 --> 0:06:59.159 You know? 0:06:59.240 --> 0:07:02.880 And I just I know it was definitely like the 0:07:02.960 --> 0:07:06.560 right decision and more than anything, I really feel like 0:07:07.279 --> 0:07:10.120 I'm in a good place. But also I think you 0:07:10.160 --> 0:07:13.720 know how I told you before that I feel like 0:07:13.760 --> 0:07:15.440 you haven't had a kid because you kind of like 0:07:16.160 --> 0:07:17.720 have like mentally rejected it. 0:07:18.840 --> 0:07:20.600 Yeah, we've talked about it here on the podcast. Yeah 0:07:20.600 --> 0:07:22.680 for sure, where I was like, oh no, like I 0:07:22.760 --> 0:07:25.880 have this like it's crazy because we're going to talk 0:07:25.880 --> 0:07:28.840 about that because that's exactly what happened. It made me 0:07:28.960 --> 0:07:33.640 step into a different part of my life where now 0:07:33.680 --> 0:07:36.880 I'm like, Okay, my work here is not done because 0:07:36.880 --> 0:07:38.680 I'm always I worry about all of you guys, and 0:07:38.720 --> 0:07:40.280 I'm always going to be here to guide you. But 0:07:40.320 --> 0:07:43.200 I feel like, Okay, he's off and he's flying and 0:07:43.240 --> 0:07:46.320 he's good, and I see you, Yes, you're self sustaining, 0:07:46.360 --> 0:07:49.920 you're flying with your own wings, and I see it, 0:07:49.960 --> 0:07:52.040 like I feel at peace. I'm like, I know he's good, 0:07:52.080 --> 0:07:54.280 You're in a very good place and I'm so happy. 0:07:54.400 --> 0:07:56.360 It was very hard because it was kind of like 0:07:56.400 --> 0:07:59.480 a huge part of my identity having you at the 0:07:59.520 --> 0:08:02.680 house and caring for you and being your mom. It 0:08:02.800 --> 0:08:05.360 was a part of my survival mode. It was like 0:08:05.480 --> 0:08:06.880 it was part of my survival you guys. 0:08:06.960 --> 0:08:10.480 Literally it still is. It's just not on a daily basis, right, Yeah. 0:08:10.520 --> 0:08:13.640 I mean it's like a little bit more detached, which 0:08:13.680 --> 0:08:15.840 isn't a bad thing, you know, It's just I think 0:08:15.880 --> 0:08:17.760 we're learning to live in a different way and like 0:08:18.280 --> 0:08:20.760 as scary as scary as it was for both of us, 0:08:20.800 --> 0:08:22.800 Like I'm really I'm really proud of us. 0:08:22.680 --> 0:08:24.800 You know, Yeah, I am. I'm very proud of us. 0:08:24.880 --> 0:08:28.720 I think that everything right now, certain things are happening, 0:08:28.760 --> 0:08:31.480 but I feel like the dust is settling. Yeah, you 0:08:31.520 --> 0:08:33.120 know what I mean. I feel like things are falling 0:08:33.160 --> 0:08:35.520 into place. I don't know, it feels it feels good. 0:08:35.640 --> 0:08:37.120 And I don't know if you've talked about that yet, 0:08:37.160 --> 0:08:39.560 but like that news you shared with me is really 0:08:39.600 --> 0:08:43.240 really dope about What about your little idea? 0:08:43.520 --> 0:08:46.240 Yeah, oh yes I did. We talked about it. Yeah, 0:08:46.280 --> 0:08:48.520 we talked about it, and it's it's a really nice episode. 0:08:48.559 --> 0:08:50.320 I told people because you know they've been following me 0:08:50.679 --> 0:08:52.920 on this journey, but yes I did, and it's just 0:08:53.000 --> 0:08:54.800 all happening just like. 0:08:54.760 --> 0:08:55.400 A week later. 0:08:55.480 --> 0:08:57.440 It happened like a week later. I told you I 0:08:57.440 --> 0:09:00.440 got the news. But but yeah, I mean, and you 0:09:00.440 --> 0:09:02.680 know what, and going back to you moving out because 0:09:02.760 --> 0:09:04.959 I don't want to forget. I saw a comment. I 0:09:05.000 --> 0:09:06.360 don't know if I saw the comment or you told 0:09:06.360 --> 0:09:07.920 me about the comment, but anyways, there was a comment 0:09:07.920 --> 0:09:10.240 out there that said why did it take you so 0:09:10.360 --> 0:09:12.480 long to move out? Johnny? Like why didn't you do 0:09:12.559 --> 0:09:16.560 it before? And I think the main thing is because 0:09:16.559 --> 0:09:19.760 you felt safe, You felt like I'm ready as a person, 0:09:20.559 --> 0:09:23.440 and it was both of us. It was both. Yeah, 0:09:23.440 --> 0:09:24.600 it was a mutual decision. 0:09:24.640 --> 0:09:27.640 I think. I think we both feel really responsible for 0:09:27.679 --> 0:09:28.120 one another. 0:09:28.280 --> 0:09:31.559 Yes, absolutely, and yeah because there I mean also people 0:09:31.600 --> 0:09:33.160 want to know, like if it was there an issue, 0:09:33.160 --> 0:09:35.880 did we fight and we didn't. Yeah, there's no, like 0:09:36.360 --> 0:09:39.000 nothing bad happened. It was just we were both ready. 0:09:39.000 --> 0:09:40.840 It's something I had been praying about and I felt 0:09:40.880 --> 0:09:43.000 like God and my mom were putting in my heart 0:09:43.040 --> 0:09:46.360 like he needs to learn responsibility, like having his own 0:09:46.400 --> 0:09:49.240 place and it's going to help your relationship, and I 0:09:49.320 --> 0:09:51.400 just didn't want to. I was like, how like I 0:09:51.480 --> 0:09:54.400 was fighting it and then God put it in your. 0:09:54.240 --> 0:09:56.560 Heart and I know also just like I needed to. 0:09:56.960 --> 0:09:59.480 I think I've they well, thank god, I've never really 0:09:59.559 --> 0:10:01.800 I never missed the payment on my car, my credit 0:10:01.800 --> 0:10:05.600 card or anything. But also it's just made me. It's 0:10:05.640 --> 0:10:07.920 just made me way better at saving money. If I'm 0:10:07.920 --> 0:10:10.200 being completely honest, Like it's not like I don't know 0:10:10.240 --> 0:10:12.320 something about like just having your own space. It really 0:10:12.400 --> 0:10:16.040 just it does something to you. It does something to you, 0:10:16.120 --> 0:10:18.600 and I just I've been doing my best to be 0:10:18.720 --> 0:10:23.400 more responsible in the last three four years with my money, 0:10:23.400 --> 0:10:26.640 but like now it's just it's different. I'm better than 0:10:26.679 --> 0:10:27.840 I've ever been this last month. 0:10:27.920 --> 0:10:37.680 I'm so fucking proud of you now that you're living 0:10:37.720 --> 0:10:39.280 on your own. Because Jackie and I we had this 0:10:39.280 --> 0:10:42.120 conversation Jackie and my sister about him moving out, and 0:10:42.160 --> 0:10:44.880 we went back and forth. We're like, okay, like should 0:10:44.880 --> 0:10:45.800 he get a townhouse? 0:10:45.800 --> 0:10:46.079 Should he? 0:10:46.240 --> 0:10:48.600 Should he get a condo? But I was like, I 0:10:48.679 --> 0:10:50.680 he's never lived on his own. I want him to 0:10:50.720 --> 0:10:53.520 know what it is to like buy his groceries and 0:10:53.559 --> 0:10:55.800 pay the bills and the whole thing. And I never 0:10:56.080 --> 0:10:58.560 I've never really worried about you. I really haven't. Like 0:10:58.960 --> 0:11:01.160 I've always known he's going to be okay, He's I've 0:11:01.160 --> 0:11:03.000 been so confident in the way that I raised you 0:11:03.040 --> 0:11:04.720 that now to see I'm like, see you guys, there 0:11:04.760 --> 0:11:07.400 was really nothing to worry about. But I did want 0:11:07.400 --> 0:11:08.920 and I told Jackie, I said, I think we need 0:11:08.960 --> 0:11:10.719 to let him live in an apartment for at least 0:11:10.760 --> 0:11:11.400 six months. 0:11:11.760 --> 0:11:13.600 So here I almost got a house. 0:11:13.559 --> 0:11:16.319 Yeah, because it's like that a house is a huge responsibility, 0:11:16.320 --> 0:11:18.200 property taxes, and if you get a townhouse, you have 0:11:18.360 --> 0:11:21.120 hoa and it's just like a lot more. But how 0:11:21.120 --> 0:11:22.760 do you feel now now that you have your space? 0:11:22.800 --> 0:11:24.080 Do you feel like you're going to stay in your 0:11:24.080 --> 0:11:26.120 space for a while or do you want something bigger? 0:11:26.240 --> 0:11:29.160 I think so honestly, like I was realizing, I was realizing. 0:11:29.559 --> 0:11:33.680 That's another point is I'm also realizing just how I'm 0:11:33.720 --> 0:11:37.320 actually pretty minimal. Yeah, I mean, and I like being 0:11:37.480 --> 0:11:40.040 like that, Like my space is. I think it's pretty 0:11:40.040 --> 0:11:41.800 good size, but it's not the biggest thing in the world, 0:11:41.840 --> 0:11:42.200 you know what I mean. 0:11:42.400 --> 0:11:43.280 It feels like it hugs you. 0:11:43.360 --> 0:11:43.880 Yeah, I love it. 0:11:43.920 --> 0:11:44.839 And the energy is so nice. 0:11:44.840 --> 0:11:46.360 I feel I feel like a lot of people would 0:11:46.400 --> 0:11:48.959 probably expect me to be like in a very luxurious, 0:11:49.080 --> 0:11:51.240 like big, big space or something like that. But I 0:11:51.240 --> 0:11:52.800 think it's pretty it's pretty simple. 0:11:52.960 --> 0:11:53.720 I think it's great. 0:11:53.920 --> 0:11:56.120 And I feel like you don't want to eventually get 0:11:56.120 --> 0:11:58.839 a house in the future, whether it be like three 0:11:59.000 --> 0:12:03.079 or four or however long four years, I think it's 0:12:03.120 --> 0:12:05.319 actually going to be like a pretty minimal space, you know. 0:12:05.360 --> 0:12:07.679 I mean, I really, I'm realizing I don't need a lot, yeah, 0:12:07.760 --> 0:12:09.840 you know, And I mean, just I'm going through this. 0:12:09.960 --> 0:12:11.480 I was going through the same thing as you, cleaning 0:12:11.559 --> 0:12:14.240 up my freaking closet. I'm like, how did I have? 0:12:14.280 --> 0:12:16.400 How do I have so much ship? Like for what? 0:12:16.679 --> 0:12:17.480 For no reason? I know? 0:12:17.600 --> 0:12:19.200 And I wear the same ship all the time. 0:12:19.480 --> 0:12:22.319 Yeah, same same, same. 0:12:22.320 --> 0:12:24.320 Same shoes. I had so much shoes that I don't wear, 0:12:24.720 --> 0:12:27.359 but I like to hold on to in case of anything. 0:12:27.080 --> 0:12:30.160 In case or because of a sentimental like, yeah it 0:12:30.160 --> 0:12:32.600 has sentimental value. I have this, but it feels good 0:12:32.600 --> 0:12:33.160 to declutter. 0:12:33.320 --> 0:12:36.000 I have this shirt that I still didn't let go of. There, 0:12:36.000 --> 0:12:38.560 I leg some stuff, but there's this shirt that from 0:12:38.600 --> 0:12:41.840 like the week mom passed where they put her picture 0:12:43.360 --> 0:12:45.679 like it had like a blue like a blue thing. 0:12:45.679 --> 0:12:48.520 It was like, oh, I know, I wore it a lot. 0:12:48.640 --> 0:12:50.679 You still have that, yeah, and it has like a tearing, 0:12:51.200 --> 0:12:52.440 Yes you do. 0:12:52.559 --> 0:12:52.760 Yeah. 0:12:52.800 --> 0:12:54.480 So I just can't like go of. 0:12:54.440 --> 0:12:56.040 That because it just if you wear it, you're fine. 0:12:56.080 --> 0:12:58.160 If you're just keeping just keep wearing it. As long 0:12:58.160 --> 0:13:00.079 as you're wearing it, you're you're totally fine. I'm I 0:13:00.120 --> 0:13:00.680 told my son my. 0:13:00.720 --> 0:13:03.200 Dad shirts that we've had for fucking fifteen years. Yeah, 0:13:03.200 --> 0:13:05.840 the ones from his memory, the white one with his. 0:13:05.559 --> 0:13:08.360 Image, Yes you have, I know, those which you were 0:13:08.480 --> 0:13:09.760 kind of like kind of looks like okay, I thought 0:13:09.800 --> 0:13:13.720 it was okay. Yeah, yeah, well no, see that's the thing, 0:13:13.840 --> 0:13:16.400 like that's it's also very good for you to like 0:13:16.679 --> 0:13:18.080 you don't even have to just throw it out, like 0:13:18.120 --> 0:13:20.440 you can donate it. That makes you feel good as well. 0:13:20.840 --> 0:13:23.240 But I do like the fact that like where you live, 0:13:23.360 --> 0:13:25.720 like we said, it's central, and like you've always been 0:13:25.920 --> 0:13:29.400 very like you grew up a little secluded, you know, 0:13:29.880 --> 0:13:32.720 because you were like already mom was already Jenny Rivera 0:13:32.800 --> 0:13:34.800 like when she was coming up and you know, the 0:13:34.840 --> 0:13:37.800 peak of her career and so you've always like lived 0:13:37.840 --> 0:13:39.640 like an Orco. When we had our house in Orcle, 0:13:39.679 --> 0:13:41.360 like it was just there was I mean, we didn't 0:13:41.360 --> 0:13:43.960 really go out, and then we lived to Enancino. It's 0:13:43.960 --> 0:13:46.440 always been like very secluded. So I always wanted this 0:13:46.480 --> 0:13:49.240 for you, where you were just a young man what 0:13:49.720 --> 0:13:52.120 I and you're able to walk around on the streets. 0:13:52.120 --> 0:13:54.839 I started realizing that about myself when we started living in. 0:13:54.800 --> 0:13:57.000 So and So that's when you were your runs. 0:13:57.240 --> 0:14:00.160 I loved how just close everything felt like something just 0:14:00.200 --> 0:14:02.679 down the street, quick drive, you know, I mean opening 0:14:02.679 --> 0:14:06.280 the gate, that's fun. But now I love walking everywhere. 0:14:06.400 --> 0:14:08.640 I'm like, it's it's helping me get my walking in 0:14:08.720 --> 0:14:11.480 and I just it's so soaking me in. I realized 0:14:11.520 --> 0:14:15.040 that I was definitely like that kind of person when 0:14:15.080 --> 0:14:17.440 I went to New York. Yeah, I WASNA in twenty 0:14:17.440 --> 0:14:20.440 twenty one, and I realized, like, I like, how like 0:14:20.480 --> 0:14:23.120 everything is just so close, like it feels like it's cool. 0:14:23.400 --> 0:14:26.720 That's what I I when I experienced that at Emilio's 0:14:26.760 --> 0:14:29.400 place in downtown LA. That's why I didn't want us 0:14:29.440 --> 0:14:32.080 to like let go of that place because he's been 0:14:32.160 --> 0:14:34.240 living with us for so long or with me now 0:14:34.320 --> 0:14:35.880 now with us because you don't live there anymore, but 0:14:36.680 --> 0:14:39.120 living with with me at that at the house for 0:14:39.160 --> 0:14:41.320 so long, like I but I used to love going 0:14:41.320 --> 0:14:43.480 there because it's like we would walk to get our 0:14:43.560 --> 0:14:45.920 little smoothie and like have a souad, and it just 0:14:45.960 --> 0:14:48.440 felt it was a different type of like feeling. Yeah, 0:14:48.480 --> 0:14:51.000 and I love that, like walking the dogs going to 0:14:51.000 --> 0:14:53.120 the dog park and it's like I'm like, oh my god, 0:14:53.160 --> 0:14:55.960 it just makes you feel what's the word that I'm 0:14:56.000 --> 0:14:59.400 looking for, like grounded, grounded. I guess that's what it is. Grounded. 0:15:00.320 --> 0:15:02.800 So I'm happy that you're experiencing that. That's what immedia 0:15:02.840 --> 0:15:04.160 wanted for you so bad. He's like he needs to 0:15:04.160 --> 0:15:07.120 be a kid. Like I'm like, okay, I know that. 0:15:07.720 --> 0:15:10.600 Being said though, like the older I'm getting, I realized 0:15:10.640 --> 0:15:14.680 like why like people move out to like Temecula or Corona, 0:15:14.800 --> 0:15:18.200 like yeah, more like secluded places. And I do think 0:15:18.240 --> 0:15:19.480 eventually I'm probably gonna have. 0:15:19.480 --> 0:15:22.040 Something like that, yeah, because I'm not a city girl, 0:15:22.200 --> 0:15:23.840 like I'm just I'm more of like I like to 0:15:23.960 --> 0:15:26.720 just be like chill, more of like a southern or 0:15:26.720 --> 0:15:29.400 what's the word some suburbs suburb Yeah, type of chick. 0:15:30.640 --> 0:15:32.680 But I like the city once in a while, but 0:15:32.720 --> 0:15:35.000 I wanted you to experience that, like for you to 0:15:35.000 --> 0:15:36.520 be out there. And I love the fact they're like, oh, 0:15:36.760 --> 0:15:38.800 you know, everything's across the street and boom boo boom. 0:15:38.800 --> 0:15:40.400 You know, I save so much on gas. 0:15:40.240 --> 0:15:42.040 And are people coming over like your friends and stuff. 0:15:42.120 --> 0:15:46.520 Yeah, yeah, it's really cool. It's it's cool to be 0:15:46.560 --> 0:15:49.720 able to I mean, like I always would't. I would 0:15:49.720 --> 0:15:51.800 ask you for permission, But now I can tell people 0:15:51.840 --> 0:15:53.960 like like, oh, if you ever need a place to crash, 0:15:54.040 --> 0:15:56.080 like you have like my couch, you know what I mean, 0:15:56.200 --> 0:15:59.200 Like I I make sure like I so, especially like 0:15:59.240 --> 0:16:00.520 my friends who come from out of town. 0:16:00.760 --> 0:16:02.640 Yeah, that couch is company. I got him a couch. 0:16:02.640 --> 0:16:04.640 That's what that was my home warming gift to him. 0:16:04.720 --> 0:16:06.400 A couch. It's really nice. 0:16:06.600 --> 0:16:08.080 I fleep on that couch. 0:16:08.200 --> 0:16:11.040 Yeah, it's comfy. It's a comfy one. Because dude, imagine, 0:16:11.480 --> 0:16:12.880 I was thinking about this the other day because I 0:16:12.920 --> 0:16:14.960 got a white couch. Now that you're not there, I 0:16:14.960 --> 0:16:16.920 got a white couch. Okay, you haven't seen it, So 0:16:16.960 --> 0:16:18.640 I got a white I would have been I'm like, 0:16:18.680 --> 0:16:21.360 because I'm anal you guys like I realized I'm kind 0:16:21.360 --> 0:16:23.360 of anal so I was like, oh my god, Bot Johnny, 0:16:23.360 --> 0:16:24.400 he would have been like, oh my god, can I 0:16:24.440 --> 0:16:27.720 even sit here? But now you have your own fucking 0:16:27.760 --> 0:16:29.200 couch and do whatever you want, have sex on it 0:16:29.280 --> 0:16:32.160 or whatever you want to do. Anyways, Okay, so when 0:16:32.280 --> 0:16:34.640 you were looking for apartments, is there a reason why 0:16:34.680 --> 0:16:37.360 you chose like not to leave like far because I 0:16:37.360 --> 0:16:38.480 was a little worried. I was like, oh my god, 0:16:38.520 --> 0:16:39.960 he's gonna leave the valley and I'm gonna be sad. 0:16:39.960 --> 0:16:41.160