1 00:00:10,200 --> 00:00:14,280 Speaker 1: Hello everyone, and welcome to another episode of Cheeky's and Chill, 2 00:00:14,760 --> 00:00:18,160 Speaker 1: your favorite podcast and talking about favorites. I have one 3 00:00:18,239 --> 00:00:20,240 Speaker 1: of my favorite people in the whole wide world here 4 00:00:20,239 --> 00:00:23,000 Speaker 1: with me today, and I think you guys might know him. 5 00:00:23,000 --> 00:00:25,520 Speaker 2: If you don't, you're gonna get to know him today. 6 00:00:25,760 --> 00:00:29,560 Speaker 2: His name is Johnny angel El Sinko. 7 00:00:32,120 --> 00:00:33,919 Speaker 3: Thank you for coming, Papa, Thank you for having me. 8 00:00:34,040 --> 00:00:34,559 Speaker 2: I love you. 9 00:00:34,840 --> 00:00:37,360 Speaker 3: This is my third podcast. Yes, this is the first 10 00:00:37,360 --> 00:00:39,640 Speaker 3: time we do it like in person, and it's really 11 00:00:39,640 --> 00:00:40,160 Speaker 3: really different. 12 00:00:40,280 --> 00:00:42,400 Speaker 2: It's different. Hah I, it's different. I love it. 13 00:00:42,600 --> 00:00:45,239 Speaker 1: People like to watch the podcast and then I'm I 14 00:00:45,400 --> 00:00:47,760 Speaker 1: like to listen. I'm more of a listener because I 15 00:00:47,760 --> 00:00:48,880 Speaker 1: like to do it like while I'm working out and 16 00:00:48,880 --> 00:00:50,200 Speaker 1: stuff like that. But there are a lot of people 17 00:00:50,200 --> 00:00:51,960 Speaker 1: that are enjoying the video. So thank you so much. 18 00:00:51,960 --> 00:00:53,800 Speaker 1: Because I was like, okay, everyone that I had on 19 00:00:53,920 --> 00:00:57,840 Speaker 1: the first three seasons that a long time, you were 20 00:00:57,880 --> 00:00:59,480 Speaker 1: telling me for a while, like Okay, you need to 21 00:00:59,480 --> 00:01:01,720 Speaker 1: do visual, but I wanted to just get like acclimated 22 00:01:01,800 --> 00:01:03,720 Speaker 1: and like just used to it. And now we did 23 00:01:03,720 --> 00:01:06,280 Speaker 1: the first two seasons and it was awesome and I'm 24 00:01:06,280 --> 00:01:08,600 Speaker 1: so grateful, so that's why I'm like, Okay, people that 25 00:01:08,640 --> 00:01:10,319 Speaker 1: were on the first two seasons, I want to bring 26 00:01:10,400 --> 00:01:13,399 Speaker 1: them back and here on the sets. So yeah, it's awesome. 27 00:01:13,400 --> 00:01:15,720 Speaker 1: So thank you, John And well we have big news. 28 00:01:16,280 --> 00:01:21,440 Speaker 1: Johnny's pregnant and I'm just kidding it. Well, guys, I'm 29 00:01:21,480 --> 00:01:24,479 Speaker 1: pretty sure a lot of people have already noticed, right 30 00:01:24,520 --> 00:01:27,680 Speaker 1: a little bit maybe on social media, but we're officially 31 00:01:27,720 --> 00:01:32,520 Speaker 1: going to talk about Johnny moving out. Yeah, oh my god, 32 00:01:33,160 --> 00:01:34,520 Speaker 1: oh my god, you guys, I don't even know where 33 00:01:34,560 --> 00:01:36,839 Speaker 1: to start with this. I might get emotional, so please 34 00:01:37,000 --> 00:01:41,360 Speaker 1: just be aware. Disclaimer. So, Johnny moved out more than 35 00:01:41,360 --> 00:01:44,520 Speaker 1: a month ago now, and he has his own apartment 36 00:01:44,880 --> 00:01:48,320 Speaker 1: and he lives fifteen minutes away from the house yeah 37 00:01:49,480 --> 00:01:53,040 Speaker 1: and ten yeah, ten with no traffic, and I love 38 00:01:53,080 --> 00:01:55,240 Speaker 1: where he lives. I actually was looking at that place 39 00:01:56,120 --> 00:01:57,040 Speaker 1: where he lives right now. 40 00:01:57,040 --> 00:02:00,000 Speaker 2: But anyways, he moved out and it was very difficult. 41 00:02:00,000 --> 00:02:01,640 Speaker 1: So how do you feel, actually, before we move on 42 00:02:01,680 --> 00:02:03,200 Speaker 1: to the details, how do you feel right now? 43 00:02:03,640 --> 00:02:05,120 Speaker 3: I think I'm like going through like one of the 44 00:02:05,160 --> 00:02:08,280 Speaker 3: biggest shifts in my life. Honestly. Yeah, I'm like just 45 00:02:08,320 --> 00:02:11,160 Speaker 3: as a person, like as a human being, like. 46 00:02:11,120 --> 00:02:12,960 Speaker 2: My own you did tell me that the other day 47 00:02:12,960 --> 00:02:13,560 Speaker 2: on my own. 48 00:02:13,480 --> 00:02:16,960 Speaker 3: Journey and everything. I just, for the first time in 49 00:02:17,000 --> 00:02:19,760 Speaker 3: my life, I feel like I'm really truly just trying 50 00:02:19,760 --> 00:02:23,600 Speaker 3: to I don't I don't want this to sound wrong 51 00:02:23,639 --> 00:02:25,079 Speaker 3: in any way, but I feel like I'm just trying 52 00:02:25,120 --> 00:02:27,960 Speaker 3: to like figure out who I am without my siblings 53 00:02:28,200 --> 00:02:31,320 Speaker 3: for the first time. And it's very very strange. Like 54 00:02:31,360 --> 00:02:38,880 Speaker 3: I'm realizing just how like I have a very very 55 00:02:38,880 --> 00:02:40,440 Speaker 3: few things in my life, and I realize, like how 56 00:02:40,480 --> 00:02:43,960 Speaker 3: I'm actually pretty simple. I realized that I like cooking. 57 00:02:44,200 --> 00:02:46,400 Speaker 3: I like cooking and cleaning a lot. And I was 58 00:02:46,760 --> 00:02:48,520 Speaker 3: gonna say, I owe you an apology because now I 59 00:02:48,560 --> 00:02:51,120 Speaker 3: understand like what you were always trying to do with me, 60 00:02:51,200 --> 00:02:54,160 Speaker 3: especially the battle with the trash all the time. Yes, 61 00:02:54,440 --> 00:02:58,200 Speaker 3: but in my defense, though one thing could be wrong 62 00:02:58,280 --> 00:02:59,600 Speaker 3: and ruin your whole fucking day. 63 00:02:59,639 --> 00:03:02,240 Speaker 1: Sometimes, yeah, sometimes you know what it's because for me, 64 00:03:02,400 --> 00:03:05,400 Speaker 1: and I'll tell you guys, I don't like repeating myself. 65 00:03:05,520 --> 00:03:08,880 Speaker 2: I need to work on that, and he always talking 66 00:03:08,919 --> 00:03:09,120 Speaker 2: me that. 67 00:03:09,200 --> 00:03:11,320 Speaker 1: It's like I'm like, dude, I've said it so many times, 68 00:03:11,320 --> 00:03:12,799 Speaker 1: I just do it, you know, And then I would 69 00:03:12,840 --> 00:03:15,400 Speaker 1: just get in a bad mood. But but yeah, to me, 70 00:03:15,440 --> 00:03:17,480 Speaker 1: I'm like, Johnny, just take out the damn trash. Please 71 00:03:17,520 --> 00:03:19,520 Speaker 1: bring it into trash cans, because. 72 00:03:19,240 --> 00:03:23,799 Speaker 3: We're honestly, for like the last four or five years though, 73 00:03:23,800 --> 00:03:25,880 Speaker 3: it wasn't because I didn't want to or anything. It 74 00:03:25,919 --> 00:03:27,959 Speaker 3: was just like I genuinely would have it would just slip, 75 00:03:28,040 --> 00:03:28,960 Speaker 3: it would slip my mind. 76 00:03:29,040 --> 00:03:29,720 Speaker 2: Yeah. 77 00:03:29,280 --> 00:03:32,080 Speaker 3: But now now that I'm in my own place and honestly, 78 00:03:32,120 --> 00:03:35,680 Speaker 3: I I'm like you, I like everything cleaning. Dude, I 79 00:03:36,560 --> 00:03:39,680 Speaker 3: realized how much I like I am your kid, like, 80 00:03:40,320 --> 00:03:42,760 Speaker 3: because things that you like about your house is the 81 00:03:42,760 --> 00:03:43,440 Speaker 3: way I like them. 82 00:03:43,560 --> 00:03:45,800 Speaker 1: Like, I'm realizing that when I went to visit you. 83 00:03:45,880 --> 00:03:49,520 Speaker 1: I've been to his apartment one time, and when I went, I. 84 00:03:49,440 --> 00:03:50,840 Speaker 2: Was like, oh my god. I was looking the fridge. 85 00:03:50,880 --> 00:03:52,480 Speaker 2: I looked at it. You know, I'm just like scoping 86 00:03:52,520 --> 00:03:54,160 Speaker 2: things out. I'm a big sister. I'm noticing. 87 00:03:54,920 --> 00:03:56,440 Speaker 1: And I was like, oh my god, I'm so proud 88 00:03:56,440 --> 00:03:58,720 Speaker 1: of him him, and like I was just like, dude, 89 00:03:58,800 --> 00:04:01,840 Speaker 1: everything is just in its place. It was nice and clean, 90 00:04:01,920 --> 00:04:04,920 Speaker 1: it smelled good, like it felt airy. I'm like, oh 91 00:04:04,920 --> 00:04:07,280 Speaker 1: my god, Like, I'm so happy for you. I'm so 92 00:04:07,360 --> 00:04:10,960 Speaker 1: happy for you because It wasn't an easy decision, you know. 93 00:04:11,320 --> 00:04:14,240 Speaker 1: I definitely struggled with it. I thought I was ready. 94 00:04:14,240 --> 00:04:16,040 Speaker 1: I was like, Okay, I think Johnny's ready, And I 95 00:04:16,080 --> 00:04:17,360 Speaker 1: didn't know how to bring it up to you for 96 00:04:17,400 --> 00:04:19,880 Speaker 1: so long because it was something that was in my heart. 97 00:04:19,920 --> 00:04:20,960 Speaker 1: But then I was like, but I don't want him 98 00:04:20,960 --> 00:04:22,320 Speaker 1: to leave, like I'm not ready for it. 99 00:04:22,560 --> 00:04:24,760 Speaker 3: I was, honestly, I was thinking about it, like while 100 00:04:24,720 --> 00:04:27,000 Speaker 3: I was working out today. I think more than anything, 101 00:04:27,040 --> 00:04:30,679 Speaker 3: what I was really waiting for was to feel safe 102 00:04:31,000 --> 00:04:33,400 Speaker 3: leaving you, because there's a lot of things that I 103 00:04:33,440 --> 00:04:36,320 Speaker 3: feel like only I would see sometimes because. 104 00:04:36,080 --> 00:04:37,680 Speaker 2: We lived together for like our whole life. 105 00:04:37,720 --> 00:04:40,080 Speaker 3: I felt like your second pair of eyes, yeah, for sure, 106 00:04:40,200 --> 00:04:43,200 Speaker 3: and just a lot of changes you made, Like I've 107 00:04:43,200 --> 00:04:46,400 Speaker 3: never felt safer, like just being in a different place. 108 00:04:46,800 --> 00:04:49,960 Speaker 3: Yeah you know what I mean, Like I feel completely safe, 109 00:04:50,040 --> 00:04:53,400 Speaker 3: like leaving you with the media, yeah, like, and I 110 00:04:53,400 --> 00:04:55,680 Speaker 3: don't think I've ever really been able to say that before. 111 00:04:55,760 --> 00:04:58,080 Speaker 2: No, I know, you know that I'm in good hands. 112 00:04:58,320 --> 00:05:00,599 Speaker 3: Yeah. And then even then, like you know, with miss 113 00:05:00,680 --> 00:05:02,360 Speaker 3: Kimberly over here, like it's just. 114 00:05:02,320 --> 00:05:04,080 Speaker 2: Everything Mberly's my new assistant over here. 115 00:05:04,600 --> 00:05:07,160 Speaker 3: Everything just feels like right, it feels peaceful. 116 00:05:07,360 --> 00:05:10,880 Speaker 1: Yeah, I feel and it definitely does. It definitely does. 117 00:05:11,400 --> 00:05:14,960 Speaker 1: It feels different in the house. I walk like, okay, guys, 118 00:05:15,000 --> 00:05:17,480 Speaker 1: let me just tell you. When we kind of like 119 00:05:17,560 --> 00:05:19,480 Speaker 1: we're talking about the idea for like a couple months 120 00:05:19,520 --> 00:05:21,080 Speaker 1: and we're like, Okay, I know it's going to happen, 121 00:05:21,120 --> 00:05:22,159 Speaker 1: I was like, well, when is it going to happen? 122 00:05:22,200 --> 00:05:25,839 Speaker 1: I need to mentally prepare. And I knew three months 123 00:05:25,839 --> 00:05:28,120 Speaker 1: before it was you know, his official. I was like, hey, 124 00:05:28,160 --> 00:05:30,960 Speaker 1: let's do until this month, and he was ready. He 125 00:05:31,000 --> 00:05:32,599 Speaker 1: did everything on his own. I thought I was going 126 00:05:32,680 --> 00:05:34,760 Speaker 1: to go like with him to go see apartments and everything, 127 00:05:34,800 --> 00:05:36,160 Speaker 1: like you did it all by yourself. 128 00:05:36,400 --> 00:05:37,880 Speaker 3: It's so proud of you, to be honest. There was 129 00:05:37,920 --> 00:05:40,560 Speaker 3: only like apartments I looked at like online, but I 130 00:05:40,600 --> 00:05:42,719 Speaker 3: only saw one in person. I just I loved it 131 00:05:42,760 --> 00:05:43,320 Speaker 3: right away. 132 00:05:43,720 --> 00:05:46,400 Speaker 1: The same way I think you felt it. You felt 133 00:05:46,440 --> 00:05:47,920 Speaker 1: it and I know, yeah, I know you're safe there. 134 00:05:48,120 --> 00:05:49,880 Speaker 1: They have high security, which was like to me, it's 135 00:05:49,880 --> 00:05:52,919 Speaker 1: super important. He's good, but it was very hard. I 136 00:05:53,000 --> 00:05:55,240 Speaker 1: cried so freaking much, you guys, and I realized I'm like, 137 00:05:55,240 --> 00:05:57,400 Speaker 1: why am I crying? Was like, I know this was 138 00:05:57,680 --> 00:05:59,960 Speaker 1: this is what needs to happen, but it's still difficult, 139 00:06:00,040 --> 00:06:02,360 Speaker 1: you know what I mean, Like there's still my freaking kid, 140 00:06:02,640 --> 00:06:04,040 Speaker 1: Like it's just I don't know. 141 00:06:03,920 --> 00:06:05,320 Speaker 3: There was there was so many things, like I was 142 00:06:05,320 --> 00:06:08,520 Speaker 3: getting deja vu with too, Like I there's an audio 143 00:06:08,560 --> 00:06:14,200 Speaker 3: out there somewhere of Mom talking about about when Jackie 144 00:06:14,200 --> 00:06:18,640 Speaker 3: moved out she got married, and she she heard Jayles's 145 00:06:18,680 --> 00:06:20,920 Speaker 3: footsteps and she realized that she wasn't gonna hear Jayles's 146 00:06:20,920 --> 00:06:22,800 Speaker 3: footsteps down the hall anymore. And then you said the 147 00:06:22,839 --> 00:06:24,000 Speaker 3: same thing to me. I don't think you. 148 00:06:23,960 --> 00:06:24,880 Speaker 2: Even I didn't realize. 149 00:06:24,880 --> 00:06:26,159 Speaker 3: I don't think you even realized that. 150 00:06:26,360 --> 00:06:28,039 Speaker 1: I know. I text him one night and. 151 00:06:29,040 --> 00:06:30,800 Speaker 3: Like I was just getting so much deja vu, and 152 00:06:30,800 --> 00:06:33,080 Speaker 3: I'm like, oh my gosh, this is crazy. And then yeah, 153 00:06:33,520 --> 00:06:36,680 Speaker 3: and then I remember the first time it really hit me. 154 00:06:36,720 --> 00:06:39,200 Speaker 3: I think it was like two days after I got 155 00:06:39,240 --> 00:06:41,280 Speaker 3: approved for the application. I was like at a birthday 156 00:06:41,279 --> 00:06:43,039 Speaker 3: party and it just hit me at an ore and 157 00:06:43,320 --> 00:06:45,240 Speaker 3: I was I had to go outside because I started crying. 158 00:06:45,240 --> 00:06:48,000 Speaker 3: I started, like really really crying, and I opened my 159 00:06:48,000 --> 00:06:51,240 Speaker 3: phone and somebody had posted the scene from Cheeky's in 160 00:06:51,240 --> 00:06:54,160 Speaker 3: Control where Mom was asking you to move out. Yeah, 161 00:06:54,200 --> 00:06:55,560 Speaker 3: and I'm like, oh my gosh. 162 00:06:55,240 --> 00:06:56,799 Speaker 2: Like what is like, what's happening? 163 00:06:57,080 --> 00:06:58,880 Speaker 3: Like what was God trying to tell me right now? 164 00:06:58,960 --> 00:07:02,279 Speaker 3: You know? And I just I know it was definitely 165 00:07:02,400 --> 00:07:06,080 Speaker 3: like the right decision and more than anything, I really 166 00:07:06,080 --> 00:07:09,080 Speaker 3: feel like I'm in a good place. But also I 167 00:07:09,120 --> 00:07:13,360 Speaker 3: think you know how I told you before that I 168 00:07:13,360 --> 00:07:15,160 Speaker 3: feel like you haven't had a kid because you kind 169 00:07:15,160 --> 00:07:17,720 Speaker 3: of like have like mentally rejected it. 170 00:07:18,840 --> 00:07:20,320 Speaker 2: Yeah, we've talked about it here on the podcast. 171 00:07:20,400 --> 00:07:22,520 Speaker 1: Yeah for sure, where I was like, oh no, like 172 00:07:22,600 --> 00:07:25,760 Speaker 1: I have this like it's crazy because we're going to 173 00:07:25,760 --> 00:07:28,720 Speaker 1: talk about that because that's exactly what happened. It made 174 00:07:28,760 --> 00:07:33,520 Speaker 1: me step into a different part of my life where 175 00:07:33,520 --> 00:07:36,560 Speaker 1: now I'm like, Okay, my work here is not done 176 00:07:36,640 --> 00:07:38,600 Speaker 1: because I'm always I worry about all of you guys, 177 00:07:38,640 --> 00:07:39,960 Speaker 1: and I'm always going to be here to guide you. 178 00:07:40,200 --> 00:07:42,840 Speaker 1: But I feel like, Okay, he's off and he's flying 179 00:07:43,040 --> 00:07:46,320 Speaker 1: and he's good, and I see you, Yes, you're self sustaining, 180 00:07:46,360 --> 00:07:49,920 Speaker 1: you're flying with your own wings, and I see it, 181 00:07:49,960 --> 00:07:52,040 Speaker 1: like I feel at peace. I'm like, I know he's good, 182 00:07:52,080 --> 00:07:54,280 Speaker 1: You're in a very good place, and I'm so happy 183 00:07:54,400 --> 00:07:56,360 Speaker 1: it was very hard because it was kind of like 184 00:07:56,400 --> 00:07:59,480 Speaker 1: a huge part of my identity having you at the 185 00:07:59,520 --> 00:08:02,680 Speaker 1: house and caring for you and being your mom. It 186 00:08:02,800 --> 00:08:05,360 Speaker 1: was a part of my survival mode. It was like 187 00:08:05,480 --> 00:08:06,880 Speaker 1: it was part of my survival you guys. 188 00:08:06,960 --> 00:08:10,480 Speaker 3: Literally it still is. It's just not on a daily basis, right, Yeah. 189 00:08:10,520 --> 00:08:13,640 Speaker 3: I mean it's like a little bit more detached, which 190 00:08:13,680 --> 00:08:15,880 Speaker 3: isn't a bad thing, you know, It's just I think 191 00:08:15,880 --> 00:08:17,760 Speaker 3: we're learning to live in a different way and like 192 00:08:18,280 --> 00:08:20,760 Speaker 3: as scary as scary as it was for both of us, 193 00:08:20,800 --> 00:08:22,880 Speaker 3: Like I'm really I'm really proud of us, you know. 194 00:08:22,960 --> 00:08:24,800 Speaker 2: Yeah, I am. I'm very proud of us. 195 00:08:24,880 --> 00:08:28,720 Speaker 1: I think that everything right now, certain things are happening, 196 00:08:28,760 --> 00:08:30,880 Speaker 1: but I feel like the dust is settling. 197 00:08:31,160 --> 00:08:32,000 Speaker 2: Yeah, you know what I mean. 198 00:08:32,080 --> 00:08:34,320 Speaker 1: I feel like things are falling into place. I don't know, 199 00:08:34,400 --> 00:08:35,520 Speaker 1: it feels it feels good. 200 00:08:35,640 --> 00:08:37,120 Speaker 3: And I don't know if you've talked about that yet, 201 00:08:37,160 --> 00:08:39,560 Speaker 3: but like that news you shared with me is really 202 00:08:39,600 --> 00:08:43,240 Speaker 3: really dope about What about your little idea? 203 00:08:43,520 --> 00:08:45,600 Speaker 2: Yeah, oh yes, I did. We talked about it. 204 00:08:46,000 --> 00:08:47,839 Speaker 1: Yeah, we talked about it, and it's it's a really 205 00:08:47,960 --> 00:08:49,840 Speaker 1: nice episode. I told people, because you know, they've been 206 00:08:49,880 --> 00:08:52,600 Speaker 1: following me on this journey. But yes, I did, and 207 00:08:52,640 --> 00:08:55,400 Speaker 1: it's just all happening just like a week later. 208 00:08:55,480 --> 00:08:57,440 Speaker 2: It happened like a week later. I told you I 209 00:08:57,440 --> 00:08:58,040 Speaker 2: got the news. 210 00:08:58,679 --> 00:09:00,880 Speaker 1: But but yeah, I mean, and you know what, and 211 00:09:00,920 --> 00:09:03,199 Speaker 1: going back to you moving out because I don't want 212 00:09:03,200 --> 00:09:03,600 Speaker 1: to forget. 213 00:09:04,040 --> 00:09:04,920 Speaker 2: I saw a comment. 214 00:09:04,920 --> 00:09:06,160 Speaker 1: I don't know if I saw the comment or you 215 00:09:06,200 --> 00:09:07,640 Speaker 1: told me about the comment, but anyways, there was a 216 00:09:07,640 --> 00:09:10,120 Speaker 1: comment out there that said why did it take you 217 00:09:10,160 --> 00:09:11,000 Speaker 1: so long to move out? 218 00:09:11,040 --> 00:09:11,439 Speaker 2: Johnny? 219 00:09:11,520 --> 00:09:14,600 Speaker 1: Like why didn't you do it before? And I think 220 00:09:14,720 --> 00:09:17,880 Speaker 1: the main thing is because you felt safe. You felt 221 00:09:17,920 --> 00:09:19,240 Speaker 1: like I'm ready. 222 00:09:19,120 --> 00:09:22,680 Speaker 2: As a person, and it was both of us. It 223 00:09:22,720 --> 00:09:24,600 Speaker 2: was both. Yeah, it was a mutual decision. 224 00:09:24,640 --> 00:09:27,640 Speaker 3: I think. I think we both feel really responsible for 225 00:09:27,679 --> 00:09:28,120 Speaker 3: one another. 226 00:09:28,320 --> 00:09:31,559 Speaker 1: Yes, absolutely, and yeah because there I mean also people 227 00:09:31,600 --> 00:09:33,160 Speaker 1: want to know, like if it was there an issue, 228 00:09:33,160 --> 00:09:35,880 Speaker 1: did we fight and we didn't. Yeah, there's no, like 229 00:09:36,360 --> 00:09:39,000 Speaker 1: nothing bad happened. It was just we were both ready. 230 00:09:39,000 --> 00:09:40,840 Speaker 1: It's something I had been praying about and I felt 231 00:09:40,880 --> 00:09:43,000 Speaker 1: like God and my mom were putting in my heart 232 00:09:43,040 --> 00:09:46,360 Speaker 1: like he needs to learn responsibility, like having his own 233 00:09:46,400 --> 00:09:49,240 Speaker 1: place and it's going to help your relationship. And I 234 00:09:49,320 --> 00:09:51,400 Speaker 1: just didn't want to. I was like, how like I 235 00:09:51,480 --> 00:09:54,400 Speaker 1: was fighting it and then God put it in your. 236 00:09:54,240 --> 00:09:56,560 Speaker 3: Heart and I know also just like I needed to. 237 00:09:56,960 --> 00:09:59,480 Speaker 3: I think I've they well, thank god, I've never really 238 00:09:59,559 --> 00:10:01,800 Speaker 3: I never missed the payment on my car, my credit 239 00:10:01,800 --> 00:10:05,600 Speaker 3: card or anything. But also it's just made me. It's 240 00:10:05,640 --> 00:10:07,920 Speaker 3: just made me way better at saving money. If I'm 241 00:10:07,920 --> 00:10:10,200 Speaker 3: being completely honest, Like it's not like I don't know 242 00:10:10,240 --> 00:10:12,320 Speaker 3: something about like just having your own space. It really 243 00:10:12,400 --> 00:10:16,040 Speaker 3: just it does something to you. It does something to you, 244 00:10:16,120 --> 00:10:18,600 Speaker 3: and I just I've been doing my best to be 245 00:10:18,720 --> 00:10:23,400 Speaker 3: more responsible in the last three four years with my money, 246 00:10:23,400 --> 00:10:26,640 Speaker 3: but like now it's just it's different. I'm better than 247 00:10:26,679 --> 00:10:27,840 Speaker 3: I've ever been this last month. 248 00:10:27,920 --> 00:10:37,680 Speaker 2: I'm so fucking proud of you now that you're living 249 00:10:37,720 --> 00:10:38,079 Speaker 2: on your own. 250 00:10:38,120 --> 00:10:40,079 Speaker 1: Because Jackie and I we had this conversation Jackie and 251 00:10:40,080 --> 00:10:42,640 Speaker 1: my sister about him moving out, and we went back 252 00:10:42,679 --> 00:10:45,800 Speaker 1: and forth. We're like, okay, like should he get a townhouse? 253 00:10:45,800 --> 00:10:46,079 Speaker 3: Should he? 254 00:10:46,240 --> 00:10:48,600 Speaker 1: Should he get a condo? But I was like, I 255 00:10:48,679 --> 00:10:50,680 Speaker 1: he's never lived on his own. I want him to 256 00:10:50,720 --> 00:10:53,520 Speaker 1: know what it is to like buy his groceries and 257 00:10:53,559 --> 00:10:55,800 Speaker 1: pay the bills and the whole thing, and I never 258 00:10:56,080 --> 00:10:58,560 Speaker 1: I've never really worried about you. I really haven't. Like 259 00:10:58,960 --> 00:11:01,160 Speaker 1: I've always known he's going to be okay, he's I've 260 00:11:01,160 --> 00:11:03,000 Speaker 1: been so confident in the way that I raised you 261 00:11:03,040 --> 00:11:04,720 Speaker 1: that now to see I'm like, see you guys, there 262 00:11:04,760 --> 00:11:07,400 Speaker 1: was really nothing to worry about. But I did want 263 00:11:07,400 --> 00:11:08,920 Speaker 1: and I told Jackie, I said, I think we need 264 00:11:08,960 --> 00:11:10,719 Speaker 1: to let him live in an apartment for at least 265 00:11:10,760 --> 00:11:11,400 Speaker 1: six months. 266 00:11:11,760 --> 00:11:13,600 Speaker 3: So here I almost got a house. 267 00:11:13,559 --> 00:11:16,319 Speaker 1: Yeah, because it's like that, a house is a huge responsibility, 268 00:11:16,320 --> 00:11:18,200 Speaker 1: property taxes, and if you get a townhouse, you have 269 00:11:18,360 --> 00:11:21,120 Speaker 1: hoa and it's just like a lot more. But how 270 00:11:21,120 --> 00:11:22,760 Speaker 1: do you feel now now that you have your space? 271 00:11:22,800 --> 00:11:24,080 Speaker 1: Do you feel like you're going to stay in your 272 00:11:24,080 --> 00:11:26,120 Speaker 1: space for a while or do you want something bigger? 273 00:11:26,240 --> 00:11:29,160 Speaker 3: I think so honestly, Like I was realizing, I was realizing. 274 00:11:29,559 --> 00:11:33,680 Speaker 3: That's another point is I'm also realizing just how I'm 275 00:11:33,720 --> 00:11:37,320 Speaker 3: actually pretty minimal. Yeah, I mean, and I like being 276 00:11:37,480 --> 00:11:40,040 Speaker 3: like that, Like my space is. I think it's pretty 277 00:11:40,040 --> 00:11:41,800 Speaker 3: good size, but it's not the biggest thing in the world, 278 00:11:41,840 --> 00:11:42,200 Speaker 3: you know what I mean. 279 00:11:42,400 --> 00:11:43,880 Speaker 2: It feels like it hugs you. Yeah, I love it, 280 00:11:43,920 --> 00:11:44,840 Speaker 2: and the energy is so nice. 281 00:11:44,840 --> 00:11:46,360 Speaker 3: I feel I feel like a lot of people would 282 00:11:46,400 --> 00:11:48,959 Speaker 3: probably expect me to be like in a very luxurious, 283 00:11:49,080 --> 00:11:51,240 Speaker 3: like big, big space or something like that. But I 284 00:11:51,240 --> 00:11:52,800 Speaker 3: think it's pretty it's pretty simple. 285 00:11:52,960 --> 00:11:53,720 Speaker 2: I think it's great. 286 00:11:53,920 --> 00:11:56,120 Speaker 3: And I feel like you don't want to eventually get 287 00:11:56,120 --> 00:11:58,839 Speaker 3: a house in the future, whether it be like three 288 00:11:59,000 --> 00:12:03,079 Speaker 3: or four or however long four years, I think it's 289 00:12:03,120 --> 00:12:05,319 Speaker 3: actually going to be like a pretty minimal space, you know. 290 00:12:05,360 --> 00:12:07,720 Speaker 3: I mean, I really I'm realizing I don't need a lot, yeah, 291 00:12:07,760 --> 00:12:09,840 Speaker 3: you know, And I mean just I'm going through this. 292 00:12:09,960 --> 00:12:11,480 Speaker 3: I was going through the same thing as you, cleaning 293 00:12:11,559 --> 00:12:14,240 Speaker 3: up my freaking closet. I'm like, how did I have? 294 00:12:14,280 --> 00:12:16,400 Speaker 3: How do I have so much ship? Like for what? 295 00:12:16,679 --> 00:12:17,240 Speaker 2: For no reason? 296 00:12:17,280 --> 00:12:17,480 Speaker 1: I know? 297 00:12:17,600 --> 00:12:19,200 Speaker 3: And I wear the same ship all the time. 298 00:12:19,480 --> 00:12:22,319 Speaker 2: Yeah, same same, same. 299 00:12:22,320 --> 00:12:24,320 Speaker 3: Same shoes. I had so much shoes that I don't wear, 300 00:12:24,720 --> 00:12:27,359 Speaker 3: but I like to hold on to in case of anything. 301 00:12:27,080 --> 00:12:30,160 Speaker 1: In case or because of a sentimental like, yeah it 302 00:12:30,160 --> 00:12:31,200 Speaker 1: has sentimental value. 303 00:12:31,240 --> 00:12:33,160 Speaker 2: I have this, but it feels good to declutter. 304 00:12:33,320 --> 00:12:35,719 Speaker 3: I have this shirt that I still didn't let go of. 305 00:12:35,840 --> 00:12:37,960 Speaker 3: There I lego some stuff, but there's this shirt that 306 00:12:38,280 --> 00:12:41,840 Speaker 3: from like the week Mom passed, where they put her picture, 307 00:12:43,360 --> 00:12:45,679 Speaker 3: like it had like a blue like a blue thing. 308 00:12:45,679 --> 00:12:48,520 Speaker 3: It was like, oh, I know, I wore it a lot. 309 00:12:48,640 --> 00:12:50,679 Speaker 3: You still have that, yeah, and it has like a tearing, 310 00:12:51,200 --> 00:12:52,440 Speaker 3: yes you do. 311 00:12:52,559 --> 00:12:52,760 Speaker 1: Yeah. 312 00:12:52,800 --> 00:12:54,480 Speaker 3: So I just can't like go of. 313 00:12:54,440 --> 00:12:56,040 Speaker 1: That because it just if you wear it, you're fine. 314 00:12:56,080 --> 00:12:58,160 Speaker 1: If you're just keeping just keep wearing it. As long 315 00:12:58,160 --> 00:12:59,640 Speaker 1: as you're wearing it, you're you're totally fine. 316 00:12:59,840 --> 00:13:00,680 Speaker 2: I'm I told my son my. 317 00:13:00,720 --> 00:13:03,200 Speaker 3: Dad shirts that we've had for fucking fifteen years. Yeah, 318 00:13:03,240 --> 00:13:05,959 Speaker 3: the ones from his memory, the white one with his image. 319 00:13:06,240 --> 00:13:08,600 Speaker 1: Yes you have, I know, those which you were kind 320 00:13:08,600 --> 00:13:12,520 Speaker 1: of like kind of looks like okay, I thought it was okay. Yeah, yeah, 321 00:13:12,559 --> 00:13:14,800 Speaker 1: well no, see that's the thing, like that's it's also 322 00:13:15,000 --> 00:13:17,160 Speaker 1: very good for you to like you don't even have 323 00:13:17,240 --> 00:13:18,880 Speaker 1: to just throw it out, like you can donate it. 324 00:13:18,920 --> 00:13:20,440 Speaker 2: That makes you feel good as well. 325 00:13:20,840 --> 00:13:23,240 Speaker 1: But I do like the fact that like where you live, 326 00:13:23,360 --> 00:13:25,720 Speaker 1: like we said, it's central, and like you've always been 327 00:13:25,920 --> 00:13:29,400 Speaker 1: very like you grew up a little secluded, you know, 328 00:13:29,880 --> 00:13:32,720 Speaker 1: because you were like already mom was already Jenny Rivera 329 00:13:32,800 --> 00:13:34,800 Speaker 1: like when she was coming up and you know, the 330 00:13:34,840 --> 00:13:37,800 Speaker 1: peak of her career, and so you've always like lived 331 00:13:37,840 --> 00:13:39,760 Speaker 1: like Innorco. When we had our house in Orcle, like 332 00:13:39,800 --> 00:13:41,640 Speaker 1: it was just there was I mean, we didn't really 333 00:13:41,920 --> 00:13:44,280 Speaker 1: go out. And then we lived to Enancino. It's always 334 00:13:44,280 --> 00:13:46,720 Speaker 1: been like very secluded. So I always wanted this for you, 335 00:13:46,800 --> 00:13:50,240 Speaker 1: where you were just a young man what I and 336 00:13:50,280 --> 00:13:52,120 Speaker 1: you're able to walk around on the streets. 337 00:13:52,120 --> 00:13:54,839 Speaker 3: I started realizing that about myself when we started living in. 338 00:13:54,800 --> 00:13:55,319 Speaker 1: So and So. 339 00:13:55,840 --> 00:13:57,000 Speaker 2: That's when you were your runs. 340 00:13:57,240 --> 00:14:00,160 Speaker 3: I loved how just close everything felt like something just 341 00:14:00,200 --> 00:14:02,679 Speaker 3: down the street, quick drive, you know, I mean opening 342 00:14:02,679 --> 00:14:06,280 Speaker 3: the gate, that's fun. But now I love walking everywhere. 343 00:14:06,400 --> 00:14:08,640 Speaker 3: I'm like, it's it's helping me get my walking in 344 00:14:08,720 --> 00:14:11,480 Speaker 3: and I just it's so soaking me in. I realized 345 00:14:11,520 --> 00:14:15,040 Speaker 3: that I was definitely like that kind of person when 346 00:14:15,080 --> 00:14:17,440 Speaker 3: I went to New York. Yeah, I WASNA in twenty 347 00:14:17,440 --> 00:14:20,440 Speaker 3: twenty one, and I realized, like, I like, how like 348 00:14:20,480 --> 00:14:23,120 Speaker 3: everything is just so close, like it feels like it's cool. 349 00:14:23,400 --> 00:14:26,720 Speaker 1: That's what I I when I experienced that at Emilio's 350 00:14:26,760 --> 00:14:29,400 Speaker 1: place in downtown LA. That's why I didn't want us 351 00:14:29,440 --> 00:14:32,080 Speaker 1: to like let go of that place because he's been 352 00:14:32,160 --> 00:14:34,240 Speaker 1: living with us for so long or with me now 353 00:14:34,320 --> 00:14:35,880 Speaker 1: now with us because you don't live there anymore, but 354 00:14:36,680 --> 00:14:39,120 Speaker 1: living with with me at that at the house for 355 00:14:39,160 --> 00:14:41,320 Speaker 1: so long, Like I but I used to love going 356 00:14:41,320 --> 00:14:43,480 Speaker 1: there because it's like we would walk to get our 357 00:14:43,560 --> 00:14:45,920 Speaker 1: little smoothie and like have a souad, and it just 358 00:14:45,960 --> 00:14:48,440 Speaker 1: felt it was a different type of like feeling. Yeah, 359 00:14:48,480 --> 00:14:51,000 Speaker 1: and I love that, like walking the dogs going to 360 00:14:51,000 --> 00:14:53,120 Speaker 1: the dog park and it's like I'm like, oh my god, 361 00:14:53,160 --> 00:14:55,520 Speaker 1: it just makes you feel what's. 362 00:14:55,360 --> 00:14:57,920 Speaker 2: The word that I'm looking for, like grounded, grounded. I 363 00:14:57,920 --> 00:14:59,400 Speaker 2: guess that's what it is. Grounded. 364 00:15:00,320 --> 00:15:02,800 Speaker 1: So I'm happy that you're experiencing that. That's what immedia 365 00:15:02,840 --> 00:15:04,160 Speaker 1: wanted for you so bad. He's like he needs to 366 00:15:04,160 --> 00:15:04,560 Speaker 1: be a kid. 367 00:15:05,000 --> 00:15:07,080 Speaker 2: Like I'm like, okay, I know that. 368 00:15:07,720 --> 00:15:10,600 Speaker 3: Being said, though, like the older I'm getting, I realized 369 00:15:10,640 --> 00:15:14,680 Speaker 3: like why like people move out to like Temecula or Corona, 370 00:15:14,800 --> 00:15:18,200 Speaker 3: like yeah, more like secluded places. And I do think 371 00:15:18,240 --> 00:15:19,480 Speaker 3: eventually I'm probably gonna have. 372 00:15:19,480 --> 00:15:22,040 Speaker 1: Something like that, yeah, because I'm not a city girl, 373 00:15:22,200 --> 00:15:23,840 Speaker 1: like I'm just I'm more of like I like to 374 00:15:23,960 --> 00:15:26,720 Speaker 1: just be like chill, more of like a southern or 375 00:15:26,720 --> 00:15:29,400 Speaker 1: what's the word some suburbs suburb, Yeah, type of chick. 376 00:15:30,640 --> 00:15:32,680 Speaker 1: But I like the city once in a while, but 377 00:15:32,720 --> 00:15:35,000 Speaker 1: I wanted you to experience that, like for you to 378 00:15:35,000 --> 00:15:36,520 Speaker 1: be out there. And I love the fact they're like, oh, 379 00:15:36,760 --> 00:15:38,080 Speaker 1: you know, everything's across the street and. 380 00:15:38,080 --> 00:15:38,800 Speaker 2: Boom boo boom. 381 00:15:38,800 --> 00:15:40,400 Speaker 3: You know, I save so much on gas. 382 00:15:40,240 --> 00:15:42,040 Speaker 2: And are people coming over like your friends and stuff. 383 00:15:42,120 --> 00:15:46,520 Speaker 3: Yeah, yeah, it's really cool. It's it's cool to be 384 00:15:46,560 --> 00:15:49,720 Speaker 3: able to I mean, like I always would't. I would 385 00:15:49,720 --> 00:15:51,800 Speaker 3: ask you for permission, But now I can tell people 386 00:15:51,840 --> 00:15:53,960 Speaker 3: like like, oh, if you ever need a place to crash, 387 00:15:54,040 --> 00:15:56,080 Speaker 3: like you have like my couch, you know what I mean, 388 00:15:56,200 --> 00:15:59,200 Speaker 3: Like I I make sure like I so, especially like 389 00:15:59,240 --> 00:16:00,520 Speaker 3: my friends who come from out of town. 390 00:16:00,760 --> 00:16:02,640 Speaker 1: Yeah, that couch is company. I got him a couch. 391 00:16:02,640 --> 00:16:04,640 Speaker 1: That's what That was my home warming gift to him, 392 00:16:04,720 --> 00:16:05,160 Speaker 1: a couch. 393 00:16:05,760 --> 00:16:06,400 Speaker 2: It's really nice. 394 00:16:06,440 --> 00:16:08,080 Speaker 3: I fleep on that couch. 395 00:16:08,200 --> 00:16:09,840 Speaker 2: Yeah, it's comfy. It's a comfy one. 396 00:16:09,960 --> 00:16:12,400 Speaker 1: Because dude, imagine, I was thinking about this the other 397 00:16:12,480 --> 00:16:14,000 Speaker 1: day because I got a white couch. Now that you're 398 00:16:14,040 --> 00:16:16,480 Speaker 1: not there, I got a white couch. Okay, you haven't 399 00:16:16,480 --> 00:16:18,200 Speaker 1: seen it. So I got a white I would have 400 00:16:18,240 --> 00:16:18,680 Speaker 1: been I'm like. 401 00:16:18,680 --> 00:16:19,520 Speaker 2: Because I'm anal. 402 00:16:19,600 --> 00:16:21,920 Speaker 1: You guys like I realized I'm kind of anal so 403 00:16:21,960 --> 00:16:23,600 Speaker 1: I was like, oh my god, Bot Johnny, he would 404 00:16:23,600 --> 00:16:25,080 Speaker 1: have been like, oh my god, can I even sit here? 405 00:16:26,720 --> 00:16:28,120 Speaker 1: But now you have your own fucking couch and do 406 00:16:28,160 --> 00:16:29,640 Speaker 1: whatever you want, have sex on it or whatever you 407 00:16:29,640 --> 00:16:32,800 Speaker 1: want to do. Anyways, Okay, So when you were looking 408 00:16:32,800 --> 00:16:35,520 Speaker 1: for apartments, is there a reason why you chose like 409 00:16:35,840 --> 00:16:37,960 Speaker 1: not to leave like far because I was a little worried. 410 00:16:38,000 --> 00:16:39,080 Speaker 1: I was like, oh my god, he's gonna leave the 411 00:16:39,120 --> 00:16:40,400 Speaker 1: valley and I'm gonna be sad. But I didn't want 412 00:16:40,400 --> 00:16:41,160 Speaker 1: to put that pressure on you. 413 00:16:41,200 --> 00:16:45,040 Speaker 3: But is there a reason why, Well, definitely, I definitely 414 00:16:45,120 --> 00:16:46,640 Speaker 3: needed to make sure like I was going to stay 415 00:16:46,680 --> 00:16:48,480 Speaker 3: close to you, you know what I mean. It's just 416 00:16:48,560 --> 00:16:50,760 Speaker 3: it's it's comfortable you're down the. 417 00:16:50,760 --> 00:16:52,040 Speaker 2: Street, and I was scared. 418 00:16:52,080 --> 00:16:54,120 Speaker 1: I was scared that you were going to like move 419 00:16:54,240 --> 00:16:57,640 Speaker 1: like towards down Jackie a little bit, or the office 420 00:16:57,680 --> 00:16:59,480 Speaker 1: and stuff. But when you said, oh, I'm looking in 421 00:16:59,520 --> 00:17:01,080 Speaker 1: the valley, like, oh my god, and now like you're 422 00:17:01,080 --> 00:17:02,680 Speaker 1: in the same city basically. 423 00:17:02,520 --> 00:17:06,560 Speaker 3: Yeah, And I just I mean, that's my dream. I've 424 00:17:06,640 --> 00:17:08,600 Speaker 3: I've had this dream for like two three years, like 425 00:17:08,640 --> 00:17:10,520 Speaker 3: where we're going to own like houses across the street 426 00:17:10,560 --> 00:17:12,679 Speaker 3: or right next to each other. Yeah, I mean, and 427 00:17:13,000 --> 00:17:14,600 Speaker 3: our kids are going to be able to play together. 428 00:17:16,040 --> 00:17:17,959 Speaker 2: I don't know if we've ever talked about this. 429 00:17:18,280 --> 00:17:20,840 Speaker 3: You know it's gonna really I'm realizing it's going to 430 00:17:20,880 --> 00:17:22,399 Speaker 3: be crazy what I feel because I feel like I'm 431 00:17:22,400 --> 00:17:25,200 Speaker 3: gonna have kids like within three four years. Damn, Okay, 432 00:17:25,400 --> 00:17:28,080 Speaker 3: maybe I'm not sure I am. It's because also I 433 00:17:28,160 --> 00:17:29,240 Speaker 3: want to be a young dad too. 434 00:17:29,359 --> 00:17:30,679 Speaker 2: Yeah, yeah, I see that for you. 435 00:17:30,760 --> 00:17:32,560 Speaker 3: I've always had that. So I'm thinking maybe twenty six, 436 00:17:32,640 --> 00:17:35,879 Speaker 3: twenty seven, depending on like where I'm at in my life. Yeah, 437 00:17:36,000 --> 00:17:39,080 Speaker 3: but I'm realizing our kids are going to be pretty 438 00:17:39,080 --> 00:17:42,600 Speaker 3: close in age like our first borns. Oh my god. 439 00:17:42,680 --> 00:17:45,280 Speaker 2: Yes, Like if I have a child. 440 00:17:45,320 --> 00:17:46,960 Speaker 3: Like that's like crazy, that's so unusual. 441 00:17:47,320 --> 00:17:50,159 Speaker 1: Yeah, that's kind of cool though. See that's something I 442 00:17:50,160 --> 00:17:51,920 Speaker 1: worry about. It was like because Jackie says she's done 443 00:17:51,920 --> 00:17:55,280 Speaker 1: having kids, Jennica doesn't know if she wants any. Mikey 444 00:17:55,320 --> 00:17:56,840 Speaker 1: has his two daughters. But it's like if I have 445 00:17:56,880 --> 00:17:58,639 Speaker 1: a baby, like I want my baby to grow up 446 00:17:58,680 --> 00:18:00,879 Speaker 1: with like you know, have like because I think I'm 447 00:18:00,880 --> 00:18:01,480 Speaker 1: just gonna have one. 448 00:18:01,720 --> 00:18:03,680 Speaker 3: Yeah, I gotta I really do feel that I gotta 449 00:18:04,000 --> 00:18:07,800 Speaker 3: I gotta start having kids because my friends are having kids, 450 00:18:07,800 --> 00:18:08,919 Speaker 3: and like my kids are not gonna have. 451 00:18:08,880 --> 00:18:11,560 Speaker 2: Any friends don't have kids for that reason. 452 00:18:11,600 --> 00:18:14,320 Speaker 3: Though I know, I know, I know, I know, I know. 453 00:18:14,440 --> 00:18:15,360 Speaker 2: Yeah, okay. 454 00:18:15,760 --> 00:18:17,880 Speaker 3: I also I also just know that when I become 455 00:18:17,920 --> 00:18:19,720 Speaker 3: a father one day, I'm gonna I'm gonna heal a 456 00:18:19,800 --> 00:18:20,680 Speaker 3: lot within myself. 457 00:18:21,080 --> 00:18:24,159 Speaker 1: Yeah, I know, stuff like you mean, like childhood stuff. 458 00:18:24,400 --> 00:18:25,320 Speaker 2: I'd same the same. 459 00:18:26,040 --> 00:18:29,359 Speaker 3: It's just you know, I just know I'm gonna feel 460 00:18:30,480 --> 00:18:34,640 Speaker 3: of a void within myself as like yeah, a father's son. 461 00:18:35,040 --> 00:18:37,840 Speaker 1: Oh mm hmm, our little daddy issues and stuff that, 462 00:18:38,080 --> 00:18:42,000 Speaker 1: yeah I have. Yeah, for sure for me it's mommy issues, 463 00:18:42,080 --> 00:18:44,320 Speaker 1: you know how mom And I like, I feel like 464 00:18:44,440 --> 00:18:46,320 Speaker 1: it's my chance and my opportunity to mend. 465 00:18:47,000 --> 00:18:48,280 Speaker 2: So I feel like I'm gonna have a little girl. 466 00:18:48,320 --> 00:18:49,879 Speaker 2: I don't know, but whatever God wants. 467 00:18:49,920 --> 00:18:50,720 Speaker 3: I feel like surprised. 468 00:18:50,800 --> 00:18:51,000 Speaker 1: You know. 469 00:18:51,040 --> 00:18:56,199 Speaker 3: It's like it's always directly with like you like like 470 00:18:56,240 --> 00:19:01,720 Speaker 3: I said, like like with uh, like let's say, like 471 00:19:01,760 --> 00:19:04,359 Speaker 3: with my son, I would be addressing like probably like daddy. 472 00:19:04,440 --> 00:19:06,119 Speaker 3: She's like yeah, but I have a feeling I'm actually 473 00:19:06,119 --> 00:19:09,119 Speaker 3: going to like I'm gonna heal a lot with that. 474 00:19:09,200 --> 00:19:11,840 Speaker 3: I might not even realize with Mom too, Yeah for sure, 475 00:19:11,920 --> 00:19:15,760 Speaker 3: because I because just they passed three years apart. But 476 00:19:15,880 --> 00:19:19,280 Speaker 3: those three years that Mom was still here mm hmm, 477 00:19:19,720 --> 00:19:22,159 Speaker 3: Like I don't know if something shifted within her, you 478 00:19:22,200 --> 00:19:24,679 Speaker 3: know what I mean? Yeah, as a parent, and especially 479 00:19:24,720 --> 00:19:26,360 Speaker 3: the last year when you when you when she. 480 00:19:26,359 --> 00:19:28,720 Speaker 2: Wanted to step in and like, yeah, she was. 481 00:19:29,920 --> 00:19:32,960 Speaker 3: She was very intentionally being a parent in her last year. 482 00:19:33,040 --> 00:19:35,919 Speaker 3: Like before, it was very much about letting me just 483 00:19:36,080 --> 00:19:37,760 Speaker 3: do what I wanted. But now she was trying to 484 00:19:37,760 --> 00:19:38,720 Speaker 3: give me like structure. 485 00:19:39,200 --> 00:19:40,919 Speaker 1: And that's one thing that when Mom asked me to 486 00:19:40,960 --> 00:19:43,960 Speaker 1: move out that march before she passed, that was one 487 00:19:43,960 --> 00:19:45,520 Speaker 1: of the things that she said. She said, you know, 488 00:19:45,600 --> 00:19:47,439 Speaker 1: I want you to fly with your own wings. I 489 00:19:47,480 --> 00:19:50,199 Speaker 1: want you to go and experience the world. But I 490 00:19:50,240 --> 00:19:52,720 Speaker 1: also want to step in and be a mom. And 491 00:19:52,840 --> 00:19:54,920 Speaker 1: I want this home to feel like my home because 492 00:19:54,920 --> 00:19:57,360 Speaker 1: for so long it's been yours and the kids, if 493 00:19:57,359 --> 00:19:59,639 Speaker 1: you're still here, are always going to go to you 494 00:19:59,760 --> 00:20:02,240 Speaker 1: for things because they see you and they've been here 495 00:20:02,280 --> 00:20:04,520 Speaker 1: and you've been here. But in order for me to 496 00:20:04,560 --> 00:20:07,160 Speaker 1: be the mom that I want to be, to these kids, 497 00:20:07,880 --> 00:20:09,560 Speaker 1: I need you not to be here. And that was 498 00:20:09,640 --> 00:20:13,199 Speaker 1: so like hard to hear, but I understood it, and 499 00:20:13,240 --> 00:20:15,240 Speaker 1: I was like shit, which brings me. 500 00:20:15,200 --> 00:20:17,840 Speaker 3: Back to the But she's right though. But she's right 501 00:20:18,440 --> 00:20:20,760 Speaker 3: because because I can, I can say that, like, you know, 502 00:20:21,320 --> 00:20:23,159 Speaker 3: as the kid in question, you know, I would do 503 00:20:23,200 --> 00:20:27,439 Speaker 3: that like yeah, like I know Mom would like spoil 504 00:20:27,520 --> 00:20:29,280 Speaker 3: me or anything, but like I would be more inclined 505 00:20:29,320 --> 00:20:31,560 Speaker 3: to go to you sometimes or vice versa. 506 00:20:31,640 --> 00:20:33,080 Speaker 1: Yeah, and I would be like, Johnny, you can't have 507 00:20:33,119 --> 00:20:34,399 Speaker 1: this and be like, oh, I know, Mom will give 508 00:20:34,440 --> 00:20:34,720 Speaker 1: it to me. 509 00:20:34,960 --> 00:20:35,600 Speaker 2: It was hard. 510 00:20:35,960 --> 00:20:38,639 Speaker 1: It was hard for her and I and I understand 511 00:20:38,680 --> 00:20:41,760 Speaker 1: it so much, you know. And and that's why I'm like, okay, 512 00:20:41,840 --> 00:20:44,000 Speaker 1: because I I didn't ask you to move out, like 513 00:20:44,480 --> 00:20:45,920 Speaker 1: it was something like I said, I had been praying 514 00:20:45,920 --> 00:20:46,520 Speaker 1: about for a while. 515 00:20:46,640 --> 00:20:50,840 Speaker 2: But when you came to me like because you said something. 516 00:20:50,760 --> 00:20:53,280 Speaker 1: That, I was like, oh, I hadn't really thought about that, 517 00:20:53,320 --> 00:20:54,520 Speaker 1: and be like, I just don't want you to feel 518 00:20:54,520 --> 00:20:55,600 Speaker 1: like I'm being ungrateful. 519 00:20:55,640 --> 00:20:56,520 Speaker 2: What did you mean by that? 520 00:20:57,280 --> 00:21:05,600 Speaker 3: Like, I just I feel like, how can I put it? 521 00:21:05,600 --> 00:21:10,920 Speaker 3: It's like I feel like we both kind of have 522 00:21:11,119 --> 00:21:14,280 Speaker 3: like the sense of guilt a little bit for like 523 00:21:14,359 --> 00:21:19,720 Speaker 3: adapting to the to this particular change, if that makes sense. 524 00:21:19,760 --> 00:21:23,840 Speaker 3: Like I sometimes feel like a little guilty because I'm 525 00:21:23,880 --> 00:21:26,520 Speaker 3: enjoying myself so much. But I meant, but I told 526 00:21:27,480 --> 00:21:29,240 Speaker 3: but I miss you so much at the same time, 527 00:21:29,320 --> 00:21:29,920 Speaker 3: you know what I mean. 528 00:21:30,000 --> 00:21:32,000 Speaker 1: Like I feel like at first you were kind of 529 00:21:32,040 --> 00:21:34,920 Speaker 1: scared to tell me how happy you were, how how 530 00:21:35,040 --> 00:21:37,200 Speaker 1: like because I and I just was it's so funny 531 00:21:37,240 --> 00:21:38,720 Speaker 1: that you say that, because I was expressing it to 532 00:21:38,760 --> 00:21:40,320 Speaker 1: someone the other day. They were asking, oh, how does 533 00:21:40,320 --> 00:21:42,320 Speaker 1: it feel without Johnny, And I'm like, and I was 534 00:21:42,359 --> 00:21:44,080 Speaker 1: explaining it to them, and then I mentioned that I 535 00:21:44,119 --> 00:21:46,000 Speaker 1: was like, I feel like he's really enjoying it, but 536 00:21:46,080 --> 00:21:48,680 Speaker 1: he's barely starting to tell me, Like I feel good. 537 00:21:48,760 --> 00:21:51,440 Speaker 1: I guess you didn't want to hurt my feelings. 538 00:21:51,560 --> 00:21:52,080 Speaker 2: Is that right? 539 00:21:52,200 --> 00:21:52,240 Speaker 1: No? 540 00:21:52,480 --> 00:21:56,680 Speaker 3: But it's also like just I think we're just protective 541 00:21:56,720 --> 00:21:58,120 Speaker 3: of each other, you know what I mean, Like like 542 00:21:58,240 --> 00:22:00,760 Speaker 3: you said like you said, like you you told us 543 00:22:00,760 --> 00:22:03,720 Speaker 3: on Christmas, like or I think it was Thanksgiving that 544 00:22:03,760 --> 00:22:07,879 Speaker 3: you were you were like kind of like jealous for us, 545 00:22:08,080 --> 00:22:09,680 Speaker 3: like if you were going to have kids. 546 00:22:09,680 --> 00:22:12,199 Speaker 1: It's like that, I see what I mean because I 547 00:22:12,240 --> 00:22:14,280 Speaker 1: said that, because I was like, you guys, like, you 548 00:22:14,280 --> 00:22:16,280 Speaker 1: guys better take advantage of me this year because I'm 549 00:22:16,280 --> 00:22:18,600 Speaker 1: really thinking of having kids, you know, at the end 550 00:22:18,640 --> 00:22:21,600 Speaker 1: of like this year, and I want you guys to 551 00:22:21,680 --> 00:22:24,040 Speaker 1: just take advantage because then once I have a baby, 552 00:22:24,359 --> 00:22:25,639 Speaker 1: you guys are going to be with the center of 553 00:22:25,680 --> 00:22:27,560 Speaker 1: my world anymore. So I was just being all emotional, 554 00:22:27,640 --> 00:22:30,240 Speaker 1: was probably drinking, and yeah, because I'm like I feel 555 00:22:30,280 --> 00:22:32,120 Speaker 1: sometimes for so long I didn't want to have kids 556 00:22:32,119 --> 00:22:34,520 Speaker 1: because I was jealous of like I'm going to give 557 00:22:34,640 --> 00:22:37,159 Speaker 1: just baby for you guys. I was jealous for you 558 00:22:37,160 --> 00:22:38,680 Speaker 1: guys of like, oh my god, I'm going to give 559 00:22:38,680 --> 00:22:40,679 Speaker 1: all my attention to my child and then like what 560 00:22:40,760 --> 00:22:42,600 Speaker 1: if I forget about them? But I'm like, no, now 561 00:22:42,680 --> 00:22:44,640 Speaker 1: I've healed that, and I'm like, no, I can love 562 00:22:44,760 --> 00:22:46,919 Speaker 1: all everyone. My heart is big enough to love all, 563 00:22:47,119 --> 00:22:49,040 Speaker 1: like to love my own children and still love you guys. 564 00:22:49,119 --> 00:22:51,080 Speaker 1: And but I was like, I felt it was weird. 565 00:22:51,119 --> 00:22:53,560 Speaker 1: I felt jealous for you guys. It's weirdest things I think. 566 00:22:53,600 --> 00:22:56,040 Speaker 3: I think. Also, it was just some well I've always 567 00:22:56,480 --> 00:22:59,119 Speaker 3: told you, like I really need you to leave a 568 00:22:59,160 --> 00:23:01,560 Speaker 3: party yourself here. Yeah, I mean I think, you know, 569 00:23:01,600 --> 00:23:05,600 Speaker 3: there just needs to be some extension of you specifically, 570 00:23:06,000 --> 00:23:10,120 Speaker 3: you know what I mean. So I just, yeah, I know, 571 00:23:10,400 --> 00:23:13,399 Speaker 3: I know, just like I I try to love all 572 00:23:13,440 --> 00:23:14,879 Speaker 3: the kids as much as I can and be a 573 00:23:14,920 --> 00:23:19,159 Speaker 3: really good uncle and you know, but I know, I know, 574 00:23:19,320 --> 00:23:21,320 Speaker 3: I know your kid is just going to be something 575 00:23:21,520 --> 00:23:23,840 Speaker 3: so special to our family. Each of the kids have 576 00:23:23,880 --> 00:23:25,760 Speaker 3: brought their own light, have you for sure? They just 577 00:23:25,840 --> 00:23:28,360 Speaker 3: all they all shine in their own. 578 00:23:28,720 --> 00:23:31,080 Speaker 2: I love our little family, yeah, I love it so much. 579 00:23:31,160 --> 00:23:34,160 Speaker 3: Like Jayla is is the ring leader of all those kids. 580 00:23:34,320 --> 00:23:38,000 Speaker 1: Yeah, she's She's a good big sister and a good 581 00:23:38,040 --> 00:23:38,600 Speaker 1: big cousin. 582 00:23:38,720 --> 00:23:39,359 Speaker 2: She really is. 583 00:23:39,600 --> 00:23:42,240 Speaker 1: Yeah, she's like she's Honestly, I'm very proud I see 584 00:23:42,280 --> 00:23:44,560 Speaker 1: all of them. I see you guys. 585 00:23:44,600 --> 00:23:46,520 Speaker 3: She's your goddaughter for sure. 586 00:23:46,520 --> 00:23:49,199 Speaker 2: For sure, that's my godda for sure. I see her. 587 00:23:49,200 --> 00:23:57,920 Speaker 1: I'm like, oh my god, freaking little Jayla. I want 588 00:23:57,960 --> 00:24:00,000 Speaker 1: you to know about that. I'm so freaking proud of you. 589 00:24:00,320 --> 00:24:02,879 Speaker 1: Like I'm listening to you speak and I'm just like, 590 00:24:03,040 --> 00:24:06,520 Speaker 1: you're so mature, You're in such a good place. And 591 00:24:06,560 --> 00:24:09,160 Speaker 1: I prayed so much for this because for so long 592 00:24:09,200 --> 00:24:12,639 Speaker 1: I was worried. I was worried that you were so 593 00:24:12,880 --> 00:24:14,760 Speaker 1: like spending so much time in your room, and I 594 00:24:14,760 --> 00:24:18,400 Speaker 1: could just imagine, like, if you feel better, it's because 595 00:24:18,600 --> 00:24:20,560 Speaker 1: for so I think your spirit was telling you for 596 00:24:20,600 --> 00:24:22,840 Speaker 1: so long, like I need to grow out of this room. 597 00:24:23,359 --> 00:24:25,320 Speaker 1: And now you have your own space, and I want 598 00:24:25,320 --> 00:24:27,680 Speaker 1: you not to feel guilty or to feel like you're 599 00:24:27,680 --> 00:24:29,760 Speaker 1: going to hurt my feelings. I want to hear about 600 00:24:30,080 --> 00:24:32,280 Speaker 1: everything that you're doing, and I love to see on 601 00:24:32,320 --> 00:24:34,800 Speaker 1: your close friends like that you're cooking and that you're 602 00:24:34,880 --> 00:24:37,520 Speaker 1: enjoying your space because you deserve that. And it's not 603 00:24:37,560 --> 00:24:39,320 Speaker 1: that I was doing anything wrong or that you were 604 00:24:39,320 --> 00:24:41,879 Speaker 1: doing anything wrong, because the house feels different, and not 605 00:24:41,920 --> 00:24:44,080 Speaker 1: necessarily because you were bad energy, because that's not what 606 00:24:44,119 --> 00:24:47,320 Speaker 1: it is. It's just it feels different. It feels just different. 607 00:24:47,320 --> 00:24:49,600 Speaker 1: And I don't even know how to explain it. But 608 00:24:49,680 --> 00:24:51,400 Speaker 1: I know that you're feeling what I'm feeling, and that 609 00:24:51,440 --> 00:24:52,800 Speaker 1: means that it's the right. 610 00:24:52,640 --> 00:24:54,720 Speaker 3: Thing where we have work reflecting one another. 611 00:24:55,040 --> 00:24:58,679 Speaker 1: Yeah, absolutely the n And I'm not worried about you, 612 00:24:58,720 --> 00:25:00,600 Speaker 1: and I'm so proud of you. And I never when 613 00:25:00,640 --> 00:25:02,280 Speaker 1: people would be like, oh my god, chiks like you 614 00:25:02,320 --> 00:25:05,400 Speaker 1: shelter him like you you like you protect him too much, 615 00:25:05,480 --> 00:25:07,440 Speaker 1: like you're so lenient, and I'm like, I know how 616 00:25:07,480 --> 00:25:10,640 Speaker 1: to deal with with your personality. I know the type 617 00:25:10,680 --> 00:25:12,679 Speaker 1: of child you were, the type of man that you 618 00:25:12,720 --> 00:25:15,600 Speaker 1: are now that I'm like, I know that you're going 619 00:25:15,680 --> 00:25:18,000 Speaker 1: to do great things. And this is this is as 620 00:25:18,359 --> 00:25:20,600 Speaker 1: lost as you may feel, because you're like, where do 621 00:25:20,640 --> 00:25:21,400 Speaker 1: I go from here? 622 00:25:21,880 --> 00:25:23,800 Speaker 2: This is all a part. This is a huge milestone 623 00:25:23,800 --> 00:25:24,840 Speaker 2: for you, for you to thrive. 624 00:25:25,480 --> 00:25:27,720 Speaker 3: I think it's just like I feel like for the 625 00:25:27,760 --> 00:25:32,119 Speaker 3: first time, I'm I'm adding my own things into my life. 626 00:25:32,400 --> 00:25:34,000 Speaker 2: Yeah, if it's if it. 627 00:25:33,960 --> 00:25:36,359 Speaker 3: Makes sense, like I'm realizing like like I have you 628 00:25:36,400 --> 00:25:40,640 Speaker 3: guys always, but like apart from you guys, like I 629 00:25:40,680 --> 00:25:42,359 Speaker 3: have like two best friends that I talk to on 630 00:25:42,400 --> 00:25:44,040 Speaker 3: a regular brasis and I have more friends, but like 631 00:25:44,080 --> 00:25:46,399 Speaker 3: you know, like those yeah, close close friends that like 632 00:25:46,640 --> 00:25:48,480 Speaker 3: you have those deep conversations because. 633 00:25:48,240 --> 00:25:50,080 Speaker 2: We were your whole world for so long exactly. 634 00:25:50,119 --> 00:25:53,760 Speaker 3: So like now I'm realizing, like you know, like my circles, 635 00:25:53,920 --> 00:25:56,040 Speaker 3: my circle is small, like I want to make I 636 00:25:56,080 --> 00:25:59,280 Speaker 3: want to make new friends and just like wow, just 637 00:25:59,280 --> 00:26:02,960 Speaker 3: just expand my word little bit, and yeah, you know, 638 00:26:03,000 --> 00:26:05,399 Speaker 3: for the first time, I just I just feel like 639 00:26:05,400 --> 00:26:07,680 Speaker 3: I'm adding things into my life. It's so weird. 640 00:26:07,840 --> 00:26:11,919 Speaker 1: I think you're finally living. For so long, you went 641 00:26:11,960 --> 00:26:14,360 Speaker 1: through so much John, since you were little. You lost 642 00:26:14,359 --> 00:26:16,359 Speaker 1: your dad at nine, you lost your mom on eleven 643 00:26:16,840 --> 00:26:19,400 Speaker 1: at eight, So by the time you were eleven years old, 644 00:26:19,880 --> 00:26:24,159 Speaker 1: you've been through so much. And you, yeah, it's crazy 645 00:26:24,160 --> 00:26:26,560 Speaker 1: to think like you were so Yeah, you were so 646 00:26:26,560 --> 00:26:29,359 Speaker 1: so young, and you had to go through so much, 647 00:26:30,000 --> 00:26:33,000 Speaker 1: and then all of the aftermath that happened after mom 648 00:26:33,080 --> 00:26:36,359 Speaker 1: passed and things that we're still dealing with. You had 649 00:26:36,359 --> 00:26:38,439 Speaker 1: to grow up so fast. And not only that, you 650 00:26:38,440 --> 00:26:42,000 Speaker 1: were Jenny River's son, and you've always had to be 651 00:26:42,040 --> 00:26:44,159 Speaker 1: like okay, like you you went to school in a 652 00:26:44,160 --> 00:26:47,280 Speaker 1: different way than other kids. So to me to see you, 653 00:26:47,320 --> 00:26:48,880 Speaker 1: like tell me this, I want to make new friends 654 00:26:48,920 --> 00:26:52,439 Speaker 1: because you were very antisocial for so long now and 655 00:26:52,520 --> 00:26:55,159 Speaker 1: to see you, I'm out like, hey, I think I'm 656 00:26:55,160 --> 00:26:57,080 Speaker 1: going to go here tonight, and I'm like, hell, yeah, 657 00:26:57,160 --> 00:26:58,640 Speaker 1: go have fun. Don't drink a drive. 658 00:26:58,920 --> 00:27:01,000 Speaker 2: Always like, don't drink a drive, call me, but on 659 00:27:01,040 --> 00:27:02,840 Speaker 2: your seat belt, take an uber. I'm all about that. 660 00:27:03,119 --> 00:27:05,560 Speaker 1: But I'm like, go live your fucking life, dude, Like 661 00:27:05,600 --> 00:27:07,840 Speaker 1: go have fun. This is the time to have fun, 662 00:27:08,280 --> 00:27:10,399 Speaker 1: to enjoy yourself. And I love that you're doing it, 663 00:27:10,440 --> 00:27:12,320 Speaker 1: because for so long I would worry. 664 00:27:12,640 --> 00:27:14,200 Speaker 2: And that was one thing that Amilia would tell me. 665 00:27:14,240 --> 00:27:15,639 Speaker 2: He's like, I want him to be a kid. I 666 00:27:15,680 --> 00:27:17,000 Speaker 2: moved out at twenty three, and it's like I. 667 00:27:16,920 --> 00:27:20,480 Speaker 1: Did so much stuff, I did so many things, and 668 00:27:20,520 --> 00:27:22,800 Speaker 1: it's like, this is the time, this is the time 669 00:27:22,800 --> 00:27:24,280 Speaker 1: to do it, and you're doing it the right way, 670 00:27:24,520 --> 00:27:26,800 Speaker 1: and I'm just like, I'm like, I couldn't be more 671 00:27:26,840 --> 00:27:29,160 Speaker 1: proud to be quite honest with you, Like you're fucking 672 00:27:29,240 --> 00:27:32,480 Speaker 1: wise beyond your your I've known that forever. You're so 673 00:27:32,640 --> 00:27:35,480 Speaker 1: wise beyond your years, and you're gonna be and I 674 00:27:35,480 --> 00:27:37,600 Speaker 1: don't know you're you're gonna be. You're gonna be just fine. 675 00:27:38,200 --> 00:27:40,560 Speaker 1: And if you feel a little bit like I'm not 676 00:27:40,560 --> 00:27:42,120 Speaker 1: sure what do I do for me, Like you're gonna 677 00:27:42,160 --> 00:27:44,480 Speaker 1: find out. That's how I felt when Mom asked me, 678 00:27:44,520 --> 00:27:46,439 Speaker 1: I was like, now what now, what do I do 679 00:27:46,520 --> 00:27:48,000 Speaker 1: with all this time on my hands? 680 00:27:48,040 --> 00:27:50,040 Speaker 2: And like it's gonna all fall into place. 681 00:27:50,040 --> 00:27:52,119 Speaker 3: That's how I feel. That's how I feel, because like 682 00:27:52,160 --> 00:27:57,440 Speaker 3: I just it's so strange. It's just the weirdest phenomenon, 683 00:27:57,520 --> 00:28:00,560 Speaker 3: but I mean, I don't. 684 00:28:00,359 --> 00:28:02,880 Speaker 2: Know you're doing it at the right time, though, Yeah. 685 00:28:02,680 --> 00:28:05,040 Speaker 3: And I'm just I want to say, like, I'm really 686 00:28:05,080 --> 00:28:07,760 Speaker 3: proud of you, and I'm really proud of you because 687 00:28:07,760 --> 00:28:11,240 Speaker 3: it's you know, it hasn't been easy for any of us, 688 00:28:15,440 --> 00:28:20,200 Speaker 3: but like you took that role really really gracefully despite 689 00:28:20,200 --> 00:28:24,680 Speaker 3: everything that happened, and I commend you for that because 690 00:28:24,680 --> 00:28:26,800 Speaker 3: it's not easy to be that selfless. I think a 691 00:28:26,800 --> 00:28:31,560 Speaker 3: lot of times, especially you know, it was difficult. There's 692 00:28:31,560 --> 00:28:33,200 Speaker 3: a lot of times you could have said these kids, 693 00:28:33,240 --> 00:28:34,800 Speaker 3: I'm gonna make I'm going to live my own life 694 00:28:34,880 --> 00:28:41,000 Speaker 3: or something, but you never did that. And I love you. 695 00:28:41,080 --> 00:28:41,280 Speaker 1: Man. 696 00:28:47,800 --> 00:28:49,880 Speaker 3: People can say whatever they want about me, but like 697 00:28:49,920 --> 00:28:53,160 Speaker 3: when it comes to when it comes to you, I've 698 00:28:53,240 --> 00:29:01,720 Speaker 3: just I've never been able to have peace with how 699 00:29:01,200 --> 00:29:05,920 Speaker 3: how negatively people can view you sometimes because they don't 700 00:29:05,960 --> 00:29:09,440 Speaker 3: realize that you've always been there. And I know, I 701 00:29:09,520 --> 00:29:15,800 Speaker 3: know my mom and my dad they're so grateful for you. 702 00:29:17,280 --> 00:29:23,600 Speaker 3: I know they her especially, she's just she's like, I'm 703 00:29:23,640 --> 00:29:27,600 Speaker 3: so happy he's okay, you know, because I know she 704 00:29:27,720 --> 00:29:29,560 Speaker 3: worried about me a lot. 705 00:29:29,920 --> 00:29:35,200 Speaker 1: I know she did, but like I told you, John, 706 00:29:35,280 --> 00:29:39,360 Speaker 1: like I would. I would go through it all over 707 00:29:39,400 --> 00:29:42,920 Speaker 1: again if it meant that I would have you, because 708 00:29:42,960 --> 00:29:46,080 Speaker 1: you saved my life, you and Jenica, all of. 709 00:29:46,040 --> 00:29:47,040 Speaker 2: You, really, and. 710 00:29:48,440 --> 00:29:50,480 Speaker 1: Everything happened the way it was supposed to happen, and 711 00:29:50,520 --> 00:29:54,600 Speaker 1: it was fucking hard, and I don't regret any of it. 712 00:29:55,080 --> 00:29:57,239 Speaker 1: I would go through it all over again if it 713 00:29:57,280 --> 00:29:59,440 Speaker 1: meant that I was going to see you how I 714 00:29:59,480 --> 00:30:04,480 Speaker 1: see you today and now I feel like, Okay, he's good. 715 00:30:04,960 --> 00:30:06,920 Speaker 1: Now I go focus on having my own kids. 716 00:30:07,560 --> 00:30:09,480 Speaker 3: And I'm really excited for real. 717 00:30:10,240 --> 00:30:15,520 Speaker 1: And I love you so much and I learned from 718 00:30:15,520 --> 00:30:18,240 Speaker 1: you every day. You're such a smart boy. 719 00:30:19,000 --> 00:30:19,440 Speaker 3: I love you. 720 00:30:20,280 --> 00:30:25,000 Speaker 2: I love you more and You're welcome and thank you, 721 00:30:25,600 --> 00:30:26,400 Speaker 2: thank you for coming. 722 00:30:26,640 --> 00:30:31,280 Speaker 1: And yeah, guys, this is this is our life on 723 00:30:31,360 --> 00:30:32,160 Speaker 1: a podcast. 724 00:30:34,440 --> 00:30:36,880 Speaker 3: My whole life has really been like on television. My 725 00:30:36,880 --> 00:30:39,720 Speaker 3: whole life like and from the moment I was born. 726 00:30:39,760 --> 00:30:41,920 Speaker 1: I know it's crazy, from the moment you were born, 727 00:30:41,960 --> 00:30:45,520 Speaker 1: and you've you've handled it very well because people can 728 00:30:45,560 --> 00:30:49,440 Speaker 1: be very mean and and I think that you're doing 729 00:30:49,480 --> 00:30:53,600 Speaker 1: a great job. And I do miss your footsteps. There 730 00:30:53,600 --> 00:30:55,720 Speaker 1: are times when I'm like, should I miss him? Just 731 00:30:55,760 --> 00:30:57,200 Speaker 1: when you would come into the room and lay on 732 00:30:57,240 --> 00:31:01,840 Speaker 1: the bed. And it hasn't been as easy as you think. 733 00:31:01,920 --> 00:31:04,200 Speaker 1: But I feel like this is We're in the right 734 00:31:04,200 --> 00:31:06,440 Speaker 1: place and it's the right thing happening. So I don't 735 00:31:06,440 --> 00:31:08,720 Speaker 1: want you to worry about me. I don't want you 736 00:31:08,760 --> 00:31:14,239 Speaker 1: to worry. Okay, good, and I love you more. And 737 00:31:14,280 --> 00:31:17,880 Speaker 1: you guys, thank you for listening to this episode and 738 00:31:17,960 --> 00:31:22,760 Speaker 1: watching this episode of of Chigis and Chill. Johnny, thank 739 00:31:22,760 --> 00:31:24,280 Speaker 1: you so much. You want to share your social media 740 00:31:24,320 --> 00:31:26,080 Speaker 1: for people that may not follow you already. 741 00:31:26,640 --> 00:31:30,400 Speaker 3: I'm on Twitter, Instagram and TikTok as the great. 742 00:31:30,200 --> 00:31:36,560 Speaker 2: Sinkle Yeah, the Great Sinco. It's just a yeah. So 743 00:31:36,600 --> 00:31:37,640 Speaker 2: you guys, thank you so much. 744 00:31:38,720 --> 00:31:42,640 Speaker 1: I will see you and I will catch you hopefully 745 00:31:42,680 --> 00:31:43,520 Speaker 1: on the next episode. 746 00:31:43,560 --> 00:31:45,520 Speaker 2: You guys. Yes an. 747 00:31:51,880 --> 00:31:55,920 Speaker 1: This is a production of iHeartRadio and Mike podcast Network. 748 00:31:56,040 --> 00:32:00,960 Speaker 1: Follow us on Instagram at Mike Podcasts and follow Cheeky's 749 00:32:01,000 --> 00:32:04,320 Speaker 1: That's c h I q U i s. 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