1 00:00:10,200 --> 00:00:14,280 Speaker 1: Hello everyone, and welcome to another episode of Cheeky's and Chill, 2 00:00:14,760 --> 00:00:18,160 Speaker 1: your favorite podcast and talking about favorites. I have one 3 00:00:18,239 --> 00:00:20,240 Speaker 1: of my favorite people in the whole wide world here 4 00:00:20,239 --> 00:00:23,000 Speaker 1: with me today, and I think you guys might know him. 5 00:00:23,000 --> 00:00:25,520 Speaker 1: If you don't, you're gonna get to know him today. 6 00:00:25,760 --> 00:00:33,040 Speaker 1: His name is Johnny angel El Sinko. Thank you for coming, Papa, 7 00:00:33,120 --> 00:00:34,559 Speaker 1: Thank you for having me. I love you. 8 00:00:34,840 --> 00:00:36,519 Speaker 2: This is my third podcast. 9 00:00:36,600 --> 00:00:37,239 Speaker 1: Yes, this is the. 10 00:00:37,159 --> 00:00:39,400 Speaker 2: First time we do it like in person, and it's 11 00:00:39,440 --> 00:00:40,160 Speaker 2: really really different. 12 00:00:40,280 --> 00:00:42,920 Speaker 1: It's different. Hah I, it's different. I love it. People 13 00:00:43,400 --> 00:00:45,479 Speaker 1: like to watch the podcast and then I'm I like 14 00:00:45,560 --> 00:00:47,839 Speaker 1: to listen. I'm more of a listener because I like 15 00:00:47,880 --> 00:00:49,160 Speaker 1: to do it like while I'm working out and stuff 16 00:00:49,159 --> 00:00:50,240 Speaker 1: like that. But there are a lot of people that 17 00:00:50,280 --> 00:00:52,200 Speaker 1: are enjoying the video. So thank you so much. Because 18 00:00:52,240 --> 00:00:54,000 Speaker 1: I was like, okay, everyone that I had all the 19 00:00:54,040 --> 00:00:58,080 Speaker 1: first three seasons that a long time. You were telling 20 00:00:58,120 --> 00:00:59,840 Speaker 1: me for a while, like Okay, you need to do visual, 21 00:00:59,880 --> 00:01:02,120 Speaker 1: but I wanted to just get like acclimated and like 22 00:01:02,280 --> 00:01:04,000 Speaker 1: just used to it. And now we did the first 23 00:01:04,040 --> 00:01:06,920 Speaker 1: two seasons and it was awesome, and I'm so grateful, 24 00:01:07,160 --> 00:01:08,959 Speaker 1: so that's why I'm like, Okay, people that were on 25 00:01:09,120 --> 00:01:10,760 Speaker 1: the first two seasons, I want to bring them back 26 00:01:10,760 --> 00:01:13,520 Speaker 1: and here on the sets. So yeah, it's awesome. So 27 00:01:13,520 --> 00:01:16,720 Speaker 1: thank you, john And well we have big news. Johnny's 28 00:01:16,720 --> 00:01:21,760 Speaker 1: pregnant and I'm just kidding. H Well, guys, I'm pretty 29 00:01:21,760 --> 00:01:24,560 Speaker 1: sure a lot of people have already noticed, right a 30 00:01:24,600 --> 00:01:27,800 Speaker 1: little bit maybe on social media, but we're officially going 31 00:01:27,880 --> 00:01:32,520 Speaker 1: to talk about Johnny moving out. Yeah, oh my god, 32 00:01:33,160 --> 00:01:34,520 Speaker 1: oh my god, you guys, I don't even know where 33 00:01:34,560 --> 00:01:36,800 Speaker 1: to start with this. I might get emotional, so please 34 00:01:37,000 --> 00:01:41,360 Speaker 1: just be aware. Disclaimer. So, Johnny moved out more than 35 00:01:41,360 --> 00:01:44,520 Speaker 1: a month ago now, and he has his own apartment 36 00:01:44,880 --> 00:01:48,320 Speaker 1: and he lives fifteen minutes away from the house yeah 37 00:01:49,480 --> 00:01:53,040 Speaker 1: and ten yeah, ten with no traffic. And I love 38 00:01:53,080 --> 00:01:55,240 Speaker 1: where he lives. I actually was looking at that place 39 00:01:56,120 --> 00:01:59,080 Speaker 1: where he lives right now. But anyways, he moved out 40 00:01:59,120 --> 00:02:01,000 Speaker 1: and it was very difficult. So how do you feel, actually, 41 00:02:01,000 --> 00:02:02,560 Speaker 1: before we move on to the details, how do you 42 00:02:02,560 --> 00:02:03,200 Speaker 1: feel right now? 43 00:02:03,640 --> 00:02:05,120 Speaker 2: I think I'm like going through like one of the 44 00:02:05,160 --> 00:02:08,280 Speaker 2: biggest shifts in my life. Honestly. Yeah, I'm like just 45 00:02:08,320 --> 00:02:11,280 Speaker 2: as a person, as like as a human being, like my. 46 00:02:11,240 --> 00:02:13,040 Speaker 1: Own You did tell me that the other day on 47 00:02:13,120 --> 00:02:13,560 Speaker 1: my own. 48 00:02:13,480 --> 00:02:16,960 Speaker 2: Journey and everything. I just, for the first time in 49 00:02:17,000 --> 00:02:19,760 Speaker 2: my life, I feel like I'm really truly just trying 50 00:02:19,760 --> 00:02:23,600 Speaker 2: to I don't I don't want this to sound wrong 51 00:02:23,639 --> 00:02:25,079 Speaker 2: in any way, but I feel like I'm just trying 52 00:02:25,120 --> 00:02:27,960 Speaker 2: to like figure out who I am without my siblings 53 00:02:28,200 --> 00:02:31,320 Speaker 2: for the first time. And it's very very strange. Like 54 00:02:31,360 --> 00:02:38,880 Speaker 2: I'm realizing just how like I have a very very 55 00:02:38,880 --> 00:02:40,440 Speaker 2: few things in my life, and I realize, like how 56 00:02:40,480 --> 00:02:43,960 Speaker 2: I'm actually pretty simple. I realized that I like cooking. 57 00:02:44,200 --> 00:02:46,400 Speaker 2: I like cooking and cleaning a lot. And I was 58 00:02:46,760 --> 00:02:48,520 Speaker 2: gonna say, I owe you an apology because now I 59 00:02:48,560 --> 00:02:51,120 Speaker 2: understand like what you were always trying to do with me, 60 00:02:51,200 --> 00:02:54,160 Speaker 2: especially the battle with the trash all the time. Yes, 61 00:02:54,440 --> 00:02:58,200 Speaker 2: but in my defense, though one thing could be wrong 62 00:02:58,280 --> 00:02:59,600 Speaker 2: and ruin your whole fucking day. 63 00:02:59,639 --> 00:03:02,240 Speaker 1: Sometimes, yeah, sometimes you know what it's because for me, 64 00:03:02,400 --> 00:03:05,400 Speaker 1: and I'll tell you guys, I don't like repeating myself. 65 00:03:05,520 --> 00:03:08,880 Speaker 1: I need to work on that, and he always talking 66 00:03:08,919 --> 00:03:10,600 Speaker 1: me that. It's like I'm like, dude, I've said it 67 00:03:10,600 --> 00:03:12,480 Speaker 1: so many times, I just do it, you know, And 68 00:03:12,480 --> 00:03:14,720 Speaker 1: then I would just get in a bad mood. But 69 00:03:14,720 --> 00:03:16,400 Speaker 1: but yeah, to me, I'm like, Johnny, just take out 70 00:03:16,400 --> 00:03:19,520 Speaker 1: the damn trash, Please bring it into trash cans, because. 71 00:03:19,240 --> 00:03:23,799 Speaker 2: We're honestly, for like the last four or five years though, 72 00:03:23,800 --> 00:03:25,880 Speaker 2: it wasn't because I didn't want to or anything. It 73 00:03:25,919 --> 00:03:27,959 Speaker 2: was just like I genuinely would have it would just slip, 74 00:03:28,040 --> 00:03:28,960 Speaker 2: it would slip my mind. 75 00:03:29,040 --> 00:03:29,720 Speaker 1: Yeah. 76 00:03:29,240 --> 00:03:32,080 Speaker 2: But now now that I'm in my own place and honestly, 77 00:03:32,120 --> 00:03:36,440 Speaker 2: I I'm like you, I like everything cleaning, dude. I 78 00:03:35,760 --> 00:03:39,680 Speaker 2: guess I realized how much I like I am your kid, like, 79 00:03:40,320 --> 00:03:42,760 Speaker 2: because things that you like about your house is the 80 00:03:42,760 --> 00:03:43,440 Speaker 2: way I like them. 81 00:03:43,560 --> 00:03:45,800 Speaker 1: Like, I'm realizing that when I went to visit you. 82 00:03:45,880 --> 00:03:49,000 Speaker 1: I've been to his apartment one time, and when I went, 83 00:03:49,280 --> 00:03:50,840 Speaker 1: I was like, oh my god. I was looking the fridge. 84 00:03:50,880 --> 00:03:52,480 Speaker 1: I looked at it, you know, I'm just like scoping 85 00:03:52,520 --> 00:03:55,280 Speaker 1: things out. I'm a big sister. I'm noticing. And I 86 00:03:55,320 --> 00:03:57,320 Speaker 1: was like, oh my god, I'm so proud of him him, 87 00:03:57,480 --> 00:03:59,560 Speaker 1: and like I was just like, dude, everything is just 88 00:03:59,600 --> 00:04:02,720 Speaker 1: in its place. It was nice and clean, it smelled good, 89 00:04:02,800 --> 00:04:05,600 Speaker 1: like it felt airy. I'm like, oh my god, Like 90 00:04:05,680 --> 00:04:07,920 Speaker 1: I'm so happy for you. I'm so happy for you, 91 00:04:08,000 --> 00:04:12,520 Speaker 1: because it wasn't an easy decision. You know, I definitely 92 00:04:12,520 --> 00:04:14,800 Speaker 1: struggled with it. I thought I was ready. I was like, Okay, 93 00:04:14,840 --> 00:04:16,599 Speaker 1: I think Johnny's ready, And I didn't know how to 94 00:04:16,600 --> 00:04:18,840 Speaker 1: bring it up to you for so long because it 95 00:04:18,880 --> 00:04:20,200 Speaker 1: was something that was in my heart. But then I 96 00:04:20,200 --> 00:04:21,400 Speaker 1: was like, but I don't want him to leave, like 97 00:04:21,440 --> 00:04:22,320 Speaker 1: I'm not ready for it. 98 00:04:22,560 --> 00:04:24,760 Speaker 2: I was, honestly, I was thinking about it, like while 99 00:04:24,720 --> 00:04:27,000 Speaker 2: I was working out today. I think more than anything, 100 00:04:27,040 --> 00:04:30,679 Speaker 2: what I was really waiting for was to feel safe 101 00:04:31,000 --> 00:04:33,400 Speaker 2: leaving you, because there's a lot of things that I 102 00:04:33,440 --> 00:04:36,320 Speaker 2: feel like only I would see sometimes because. 103 00:04:36,080 --> 00:04:37,720 Speaker 1: We lived together for like our whole lives. 104 00:04:37,720 --> 00:04:40,080 Speaker 2: I felt like your second pair of eyes, yeah, for sure, 105 00:04:40,200 --> 00:04:43,200 Speaker 2: and just a lot of changes you made, Like I've 106 00:04:43,200 --> 00:04:47,000 Speaker 2: never felt safer, like just being in a different place. Yeah, 107 00:04:47,040 --> 00:04:49,960 Speaker 2: you know what I mean, Like I feel completely safe, 108 00:04:50,040 --> 00:04:53,400 Speaker 2: like leaving you with the media, yeah, like, and I 109 00:04:53,400 --> 00:04:55,680 Speaker 2: don't think I've ever really been able to say that before. 110 00:04:55,760 --> 00:04:58,080 Speaker 1: No, I know, you know that I'm in good hands. 111 00:04:58,320 --> 00:05:00,599 Speaker 2: Yeah. And then even then, like you know, with miss 112 00:05:00,680 --> 00:05:02,360 Speaker 2: Kimberly over here, like it's just. 113 00:05:02,320 --> 00:05:04,080 Speaker 1: Everything, Mberly's my new assistant out here. 114 00:05:04,600 --> 00:05:07,160 Speaker 2: Everything just feels like right, it feels peaceful. 115 00:05:07,360 --> 00:05:10,880 Speaker 1: Yeah, I feel and it definitely does. It definitely does. 116 00:05:11,400 --> 00:05:14,960 Speaker 1: It feels different in the house. I walk like, okay, guys, 117 00:05:15,000 --> 00:05:17,480 Speaker 1: let me just tell you. When we kind of like 118 00:05:17,560 --> 00:05:19,480 Speaker 1: we're talking about the idea for like a couple months 119 00:05:19,520 --> 00:05:21,080 Speaker 1: and we're like, Okay, I know it's going to happen. 120 00:05:21,120 --> 00:05:22,159 Speaker 1: I was like, well, when is it going to happen? 121 00:05:22,200 --> 00:05:25,839 Speaker 1: I need to mentally prepare. And I knew three months 122 00:05:25,839 --> 00:05:28,120 Speaker 1: before it was you know, his official. I was like, hey, 123 00:05:28,160 --> 00:05:30,960 Speaker 1: let's do until this month, and he was ready. He 124 00:05:31,000 --> 00:05:32,599 Speaker 1: did everything on his own. I thought I was going 125 00:05:32,680 --> 00:05:34,760 Speaker 1: to go like with him to go see apartments and everything, 126 00:05:34,800 --> 00:05:36,160 Speaker 1: like you did it all by yourself. 127 00:05:36,400 --> 00:05:37,880 Speaker 2: It's so proud of you, to be honest. There was 128 00:05:37,920 --> 00:05:40,560 Speaker 2: only like apartments I looked at like online, but I 129 00:05:40,600 --> 00:05:42,719 Speaker 2: only saw one in person. I just I loved it 130 00:05:42,760 --> 00:05:43,320 Speaker 2: right away. 131 00:05:43,720 --> 00:05:46,400 Speaker 1: The same way I think you felt it. You felt 132 00:05:46,440 --> 00:05:47,920 Speaker 1: it and I know, yeah, I know you're safe there. 133 00:05:48,120 --> 00:05:49,880 Speaker 1: They have high security, which was like to me, it's 134 00:05:49,880 --> 00:05:52,919 Speaker 1: super important. He's good, but it was very hard. I 135 00:05:53,000 --> 00:05:55,240 Speaker 1: cried so freaking much, you guys, and I realized, I'm like, 136 00:05:55,240 --> 00:05:57,400 Speaker 1: why am I crying? Was like I know this was 137 00:05:57,680 --> 00:05:59,960 Speaker 1: this is what needs to happen, but it's still difficult, 138 00:06:00,040 --> 00:06:02,360 Speaker 1: you know what I mean, Like there's still my freaking kid, 139 00:06:02,640 --> 00:06:04,040 Speaker 1: Like it's just I don't know. 140 00:06:03,920 --> 00:06:05,320 Speaker 2: There was there was so many things, like I was 141 00:06:05,320 --> 00:06:08,520 Speaker 2: getting deja vu with too, Like I there's an audio 142 00:06:08,560 --> 00:06:14,200 Speaker 2: out there somewhere of mom talking about about when Jackie 143 00:06:14,200 --> 00:06:18,640 Speaker 2: moved out she got married, and she she heard Jayles's 144 00:06:18,680 --> 00:06:20,560 Speaker 2: footsteps and she realized that she wasn't going to hear 145 00:06:20,600 --> 00:06:22,760 Speaker 2: Jayles's footsteps down the hall anymore. And then you said 146 00:06:22,760 --> 00:06:24,000 Speaker 2: the same thing to me. I don't think you. 147 00:06:23,960 --> 00:06:24,880 Speaker 1: Even I didn't realize. 148 00:06:24,880 --> 00:06:26,159 Speaker 2: I don't think you even realized that. 149 00:06:26,360 --> 00:06:28,039 Speaker 1: I know. I text him one night and. 150 00:06:29,040 --> 00:06:30,800 Speaker 2: Like I was just getting so much deja vu, and 151 00:06:30,800 --> 00:06:33,080 Speaker 2: I'm like, oh my gosh, this is crazy. And then yeah, 152 00:06:33,520 --> 00:06:36,680 Speaker 2: and then I remember the first time it really hit me. 153 00:06:36,720 --> 00:06:39,200 Speaker 2: I think it was like two days after I got 154 00:06:39,240 --> 00:06:41,280 Speaker 2: approved for the application. I was like at a birthday 155 00:06:41,279 --> 00:06:43,039 Speaker 2: party and it just hit me at an ore and 156 00:06:43,040 --> 00:06:45,240 Speaker 2: I was I had to go outside because I started crying. 157 00:06:45,240 --> 00:06:48,000 Speaker 2: I started, like really really crying, and I opened my 158 00:06:48,000 --> 00:06:51,240 Speaker 2: phone and somebody had posted the scene from Cheeky's in 159 00:06:51,240 --> 00:06:54,160 Speaker 2: Control where mom was asking you to move out. Yeah, 160 00:06:54,200 --> 00:06:55,560 Speaker 2: and I'm like, oh my gosh. 161 00:06:55,240 --> 00:06:56,799 Speaker 1: Like what is like, what's happening? 162 00:06:57,080 --> 00:06:58,880 Speaker 2: Like what was God trying to tell me right now? 163 00:06:58,960 --> 00:06:59,159 Speaker 1: You know? 164 00:06:59,240 --> 00:07:02,880 Speaker 2: And I just I know it was definitely like the 165 00:07:02,960 --> 00:07:06,560 Speaker 2: right decision and more than anything, I really feel like 166 00:07:07,279 --> 00:07:10,120 Speaker 2: I'm in a good place. But also I think you 167 00:07:10,160 --> 00:07:13,720 Speaker 2: know how I told you before that I feel like 168 00:07:13,760 --> 00:07:15,440 Speaker 2: you haven't had a kid because you kind of like 169 00:07:16,160 --> 00:07:17,720 Speaker 2: have like mentally rejected it. 170 00:07:18,840 --> 00:07:20,600 Speaker 1: Yeah, we've talked about it here on the podcast. Yeah 171 00:07:20,600 --> 00:07:22,680 Speaker 1: for sure, where I was like, oh no, like I 172 00:07:22,760 --> 00:07:25,880 Speaker 1: have this like it's crazy because we're going to talk 173 00:07:25,880 --> 00:07:28,840 Speaker 1: about that because that's exactly what happened. It made me 174 00:07:28,960 --> 00:07:33,640 Speaker 1: step into a different part of my life where now 175 00:07:33,680 --> 00:07:36,880 Speaker 1: I'm like, Okay, my work here is not done because 176 00:07:36,880 --> 00:07:38,680 Speaker 1: I'm always I worry about all of you guys, and 177 00:07:38,720 --> 00:07:40,280 Speaker 1: I'm always going to be here to guide you. But 178 00:07:40,320 --> 00:07:43,200 Speaker 1: I feel like, Okay, he's off and he's flying and 179 00:07:43,240 --> 00:07:46,320 Speaker 1: he's good, and I see you, Yes, you're self sustaining, 180 00:07:46,360 --> 00:07:49,920 Speaker 1: you're flying with your own wings, and I see it, 181 00:07:49,960 --> 00:07:52,040 Speaker 1: like I feel at peace. I'm like, I know he's good, 182 00:07:52,080 --> 00:07:54,280 Speaker 1: You're in a very good place and I'm so happy. 183 00:07:54,400 --> 00:07:56,360 Speaker 1: It was very hard because it was kind of like 184 00:07:56,400 --> 00:07:59,480 Speaker 1: a huge part of my identity having you at the 185 00:07:59,520 --> 00:08:02,680 Speaker 1: house and caring for you and being your mom. It 186 00:08:02,800 --> 00:08:05,360 Speaker 1: was a part of my survival mode. It was like 187 00:08:05,480 --> 00:08:06,880 Speaker 1: it was part of my survival you guys. 188 00:08:06,960 --> 00:08:10,480 Speaker 2: Literally it still is. It's just not on a daily basis, right, Yeah. 189 00:08:10,520 --> 00:08:13,640 Speaker 2: I mean it's like a little bit more detached, which 190 00:08:13,680 --> 00:08:15,840 Speaker 2: isn't a bad thing, you know, It's just I think 191 00:08:15,880 --> 00:08:17,760 Speaker 2: we're learning to live in a different way and like 192 00:08:18,280 --> 00:08:20,760 Speaker 2: as scary as scary as it was for both of us, 193 00:08:20,800 --> 00:08:22,800 Speaker 2: Like I'm really I'm really proud of us. 194 00:08:22,680 --> 00:08:24,800 Speaker 1: You know, Yeah, I am. I'm very proud of us. 195 00:08:24,880 --> 00:08:28,720 Speaker 1: I think that everything right now, certain things are happening, 196 00:08:28,760 --> 00:08:31,480 Speaker 1: but I feel like the dust is settling. Yeah, you 197 00:08:31,520 --> 00:08:33,120 Speaker 1: know what I mean. I feel like things are falling 198 00:08:33,160 --> 00:08:35,520 Speaker 1: into place. I don't know, it feels it feels good. 199 00:08:35,640 --> 00:08:37,120 Speaker 2: And I don't know if you've talked about that yet, 200 00:08:37,160 --> 00:08:39,560 Speaker 2: but like that news you shared with me is really 201 00:08:39,600 --> 00:08:43,240 Speaker 2: really dope about What about your little idea? 202 00:08:43,520 --> 00:08:46,240 Speaker 1: Yeah, oh yes I did. We talked about it. Yeah, 203 00:08:46,280 --> 00:08:48,520 Speaker 1: we talked about it, and it's it's a really nice episode. 204 00:08:48,559 --> 00:08:50,320 Speaker 1: I told people because you know they've been following me 205 00:08:50,679 --> 00:08:52,920 Speaker 1: on this journey, but yes I did, and it's just 206 00:08:53,000 --> 00:08:54,800 Speaker 1: all happening just like. 207 00:08:54,760 --> 00:08:55,400 Speaker 2: A week later. 208 00:08:55,480 --> 00:08:57,440 Speaker 1: It happened like a week later. I told you I 209 00:08:57,440 --> 00:09:00,440 Speaker 1: got the news. But but yeah, I mean, and you 210 00:09:00,440 --> 00:09:02,680 Speaker 1: know what, and going back to you moving out because 211 00:09:02,760 --> 00:09:04,959 Speaker 1: I don't want to forget. I saw a comment. I 212 00:09:05,000 --> 00:09:06,360 Speaker 1: don't know if I saw the comment or you told 213 00:09:06,360 --> 00:09:07,920 Speaker 1: me about the comment, but anyways, there was a comment 214 00:09:07,920 --> 00:09:10,240 Speaker 1: out there that said why did it take you so 215 00:09:10,360 --> 00:09:12,480 Speaker 1: long to move out? Johnny? Like why didn't you do 216 00:09:12,559 --> 00:09:16,560 Speaker 1: it before? And I think the main thing is because 217 00:09:16,559 --> 00:09:19,760 Speaker 1: you felt safe, You felt like I'm ready as a person, 218 00:09:20,559 --> 00:09:23,440 Speaker 1: and it was both of us. It was both. Yeah, 219 00:09:23,440 --> 00:09:24,600 Speaker 1: it was a mutual decision. 220 00:09:24,640 --> 00:09:27,640 Speaker 2: I think. I think we both feel really responsible for 221 00:09:27,679 --> 00:09:28,120 Speaker 2: one another. 222 00:09:28,280 --> 00:09:31,559 Speaker 1: Yes, absolutely, and yeah because there I mean also people 223 00:09:31,600 --> 00:09:33,160 Speaker 1: want to know, like if it was there an issue, 224 00:09:33,160 --> 00:09:35,880 Speaker 1: did we fight and we didn't. Yeah, there's no, like 225 00:09:36,360 --> 00:09:39,000 Speaker 1: nothing bad happened. It was just we were both ready. 226 00:09:39,000 --> 00:09:40,840 Speaker 1: It's something I had been praying about and I felt 227 00:09:40,880 --> 00:09:43,000 Speaker 1: like God and my mom were putting in my heart 228 00:09:43,040 --> 00:09:46,360 Speaker 1: like he needs to learn responsibility, like having his own 229 00:09:46,400 --> 00:09:49,240 Speaker 1: place and it's going to help your relationship, and I 230 00:09:49,320 --> 00:09:51,400 Speaker 1: just didn't want to. I was like, how like I 231 00:09:51,480 --> 00:09:54,400 Speaker 1: was fighting it and then God put it in your. 232 00:09:54,240 --> 00:09:56,560 Speaker 2: Heart and I know also just like I needed to. 233 00:09:56,960 --> 00:09:59,480 Speaker 2: I think I've they well, thank god, I've never really 234 00:09:59,559 --> 00:10:01,800 Speaker 2: I never missed the payment on my car, my credit 235 00:10:01,800 --> 00:10:05,600 Speaker 2: card or anything. But also it's just made me. It's 236 00:10:05,640 --> 00:10:07,920 Speaker 2: just made me way better at saving money. If I'm 237 00:10:07,920 --> 00:10:10,200 Speaker 2: being completely honest, Like it's not like I don't know 238 00:10:10,240 --> 00:10:12,320 Speaker 2: something about like just having your own space. It really 239 00:10:12,400 --> 00:10:16,040 Speaker 2: just it does something to you. It does something to you, 240 00:10:16,120 --> 00:10:18,600 Speaker 2: and I just I've been doing my best to be 241 00:10:18,720 --> 00:10:23,400 Speaker 2: more responsible in the last three four years with my money, 242 00:10:23,400 --> 00:10:26,640 Speaker 2: but like now it's just it's different. I'm better than 243 00:10:26,679 --> 00:10:27,840 Speaker 2: I've ever been this last month. 244 00:10:27,920 --> 00:10:37,680 Speaker 1: I'm so fucking proud of you now that you're living 245 00:10:37,720 --> 00:10:39,280 Speaker 1: on your own. Because Jackie and I we had this 246 00:10:39,280 --> 00:10:42,120 Speaker 1: conversation Jackie and my sister about him moving out, and 247 00:10:42,160 --> 00:10:44,880 Speaker 1: we went back and forth. We're like, okay, like should 248 00:10:44,880 --> 00:10:45,800 Speaker 1: he get a townhouse? 249 00:10:45,800 --> 00:10:46,079 Speaker 2: Should he? 250 00:10:46,240 --> 00:10:48,600 Speaker 1: Should he get a condo? But I was like, I 251 00:10:48,679 --> 00:10:50,680 Speaker 1: he's never lived on his own. I want him to 252 00:10:50,720 --> 00:10:53,520 Speaker 1: know what it is to like buy his groceries and 253 00:10:53,559 --> 00:10:55,800 Speaker 1: pay the bills and the whole thing. And I never 254 00:10:56,080 --> 00:10:58,560 Speaker 1: I've never really worried about you. I really haven't. Like 255 00:10:58,960 --> 00:11:01,160 Speaker 1: I've always known he's going to be okay, He's I've 256 00:11:01,160 --> 00:11:03,000 Speaker 1: been so confident in the way that I raised you 257 00:11:03,040 --> 00:11:04,720 Speaker 1: that now to see I'm like, see you guys, there 258 00:11:04,760 --> 00:11:07,400 Speaker 1: was really nothing to worry about. But I did want 259 00:11:07,400 --> 00:11:08,920 Speaker 1: and I told Jackie, I said, I think we need 260 00:11:08,960 --> 00:11:10,719 Speaker 1: to let him live in an apartment for at least 261 00:11:10,760 --> 00:11:11,400 Speaker 1: six months. 262 00:11:11,760 --> 00:11:13,600 Speaker 2: So here I almost got a house. 263 00:11:13,559 --> 00:11:16,319 Speaker 1: Yeah, because it's like that a house is a huge responsibility, 264 00:11:16,320 --> 00:11:18,200 Speaker 1: property taxes, and if you get a townhouse, you have 265 00:11:18,360 --> 00:11:21,120 Speaker 1: hoa and it's just like a lot more. But how 266 00:11:21,120 --> 00:11:22,760 Speaker 1: do you feel now now that you have your space? 267 00:11:22,800 --> 00:11:24,080 Speaker 1: Do you feel like you're going to stay in your 268 00:11:24,080 --> 00:11:26,120 Speaker 1: space for a while or do you want something bigger? 269 00:11:26,240 --> 00:11:29,160 Speaker 2: I think so honestly, like I was realizing, I was realizing. 270 00:11:29,559 --> 00:11:33,680 Speaker 2: That's another point is I'm also realizing just how I'm 271 00:11:33,720 --> 00:11:37,320 Speaker 2: actually pretty minimal. Yeah, I mean, and I like being 272 00:11:37,480 --> 00:11:40,040 Speaker 2: like that, Like my space is. I think it's pretty 273 00:11:40,040 --> 00:11:41,800 Speaker 2: good size, but it's not the biggest thing in the world, 274 00:11:41,840 --> 00:11:42,200 Speaker 2: you know what I mean. 275 00:11:42,400 --> 00:11:43,280 Speaker 1: It feels like it hugs you. 276 00:11:43,360 --> 00:11:43,880 Speaker 2: Yeah, I love it. 277 00:11:43,920 --> 00:11:44,839 Speaker 1: And the energy is so nice. 278 00:11:44,840 --> 00:11:46,360 Speaker 2: I feel I feel like a lot of people would 279 00:11:46,400 --> 00:11:48,959 Speaker 2: probably expect me to be like in a very luxurious, 280 00:11:49,080 --> 00:11:51,240 Speaker 2: like big, big space or something like that. But I 281 00:11:51,240 --> 00:11:52,800 Speaker 2: think it's pretty it's pretty simple. 282 00:11:52,960 --> 00:11:53,720 Speaker 1: I think it's great. 283 00:11:53,920 --> 00:11:56,120 Speaker 2: And I feel like you don't want to eventually get 284 00:11:56,120 --> 00:11:58,839 Speaker 2: a house in the future, whether it be like three 285 00:11:59,000 --> 00:12:03,079 Speaker 2: or four or however long four years, I think it's 286 00:12:03,120 --> 00:12:05,319 Speaker 2: actually going to be like a pretty minimal space, you know. 287 00:12:05,360 --> 00:12:07,679 Speaker 2: I mean, I really, I'm realizing I don't need a lot, yeah, 288 00:12:07,760 --> 00:12:09,840 Speaker 2: you know, And I mean, just I'm going through this. 289 00:12:09,960 --> 00:12:11,480 Speaker 2: I was going through the same thing as you, cleaning 290 00:12:11,559 --> 00:12:14,240 Speaker 2: up my freaking closet. I'm like, how did I have? 291 00:12:14,280 --> 00:12:16,400 Speaker 2: How do I have so much ship? Like for what? 292 00:12:16,679 --> 00:12:17,480 Speaker 1: For no reason? I know? 293 00:12:17,600 --> 00:12:19,200 Speaker 2: And I wear the same ship all the time. 294 00:12:19,480 --> 00:12:22,319 Speaker 1: Yeah, same same, same. 295 00:12:22,320 --> 00:12:24,320 Speaker 2: Same shoes. I had so much shoes that I don't wear, 296 00:12:24,720 --> 00:12:27,359 Speaker 2: but I like to hold on to in case of anything. 297 00:12:27,080 --> 00:12:30,160 Speaker 1: In case or because of a sentimental like, yeah it 298 00:12:30,160 --> 00:12:32,600 Speaker 1: has sentimental value. I have this, but it feels good 299 00:12:32,600 --> 00:12:33,160 Speaker 1: to declutter. 300 00:12:33,320 --> 00:12:36,000 Speaker 2: I have this shirt that I still didn't let go of. There, 301 00:12:36,000 --> 00:12:38,560 Speaker 2: I leg some stuff, but there's this shirt that from 302 00:12:38,600 --> 00:12:41,840 Speaker 2: like the week mom passed where they put her picture 303 00:12:43,360 --> 00:12:45,679 Speaker 2: like it had like a blue like a blue thing. 304 00:12:45,679 --> 00:12:48,520 Speaker 2: It was like, oh, I know, I wore it a lot. 305 00:12:48,640 --> 00:12:50,679 Speaker 2: You still have that, yeah, and it has like a tearing, 306 00:12:51,200 --> 00:12:52,440 Speaker 2: Yes you do. 307 00:12:52,559 --> 00:12:52,760 Speaker 1: Yeah. 308 00:12:52,800 --> 00:12:54,480 Speaker 2: So I just can't like go of. 309 00:12:54,440 --> 00:12:56,040 Speaker 1: That because it just if you wear it, you're fine. 310 00:12:56,080 --> 00:12:58,160 Speaker 1: If you're just keeping just keep wearing it. As long 311 00:12:58,160 --> 00:13:00,079 Speaker 1: as you're wearing it, you're you're totally fine. I'm I 312 00:13:00,120 --> 00:13:00,680 Speaker 1: told my son my. 313 00:13:00,720 --> 00:13:03,200 Speaker 2: Dad shirts that we've had for fucking fifteen years. Yeah, 314 00:13:03,200 --> 00:13:05,840 Speaker 2: the ones from his memory, the white one with his. 315 00:13:05,559 --> 00:13:08,360 Speaker 1: Image, Yes you have, I know, those which you were 316 00:13:08,480 --> 00:13:09,760 Speaker 1: kind of like kind of looks like okay, I thought 317 00:13:09,800 --> 00:13:13,720 Speaker 1: it was okay. Yeah, yeah, well no, see that's the thing, 318 00:13:13,840 --> 00:13:16,400 Speaker 1: like that's it's also very good for you to like 319 00:13:16,679 --> 00:13:18,080 Speaker 1: you don't even have to just throw it out, like 320 00:13:18,120 --> 00:13:20,440 Speaker 1: you can donate it. That makes you feel good as well. 321 00:13:20,840 --> 00:13:23,240 Speaker 1: But I do like the fact that like where you live, 322 00:13:23,360 --> 00:13:25,720 Speaker 1: like we said, it's central, and like you've always been 323 00:13:25,920 --> 00:13:29,400 Speaker 1: very like you grew up a little secluded, you know, 324 00:13:29,880 --> 00:13:32,720 Speaker 1: because you were like already mom was already Jenny Rivera 325 00:13:32,800 --> 00:13:34,800 Speaker 1: like when she was coming up and you know, the 326 00:13:34,840 --> 00:13:37,800 Speaker 1: peak of her career and so you've always like lived 327 00:13:37,840 --> 00:13:39,640 Speaker 1: like an Orco. When we had our house in Orcle, 328 00:13:39,679 --> 00:13:41,360 Speaker 1: like it was just there was I mean, we didn't 329 00:13:41,360 --> 00:13:43,960 Speaker 1: really go out, and then we lived to Enancino. It's 330 00:13:43,960 --> 00:13:46,440 Speaker 1: always been like very secluded. So I always wanted this 331 00:13:46,480 --> 00:13:49,240 Speaker 1: for you, where you were just a young man what 332 00:13:49,720 --> 00:13:52,120 Speaker 1: I and you're able to walk around on the streets. 333 00:13:52,120 --> 00:13:54,839 Speaker 2: I started realizing that about myself when we started living in. 334 00:13:54,800 --> 00:13:57,000 Speaker 1: So and So that's when you were your runs. 335 00:13:57,240 --> 00:14:00,160 Speaker 2: I loved how just close everything felt like something just 336 00:14:00,200 --> 00:14:02,679 Speaker 2: down the street, quick drive, you know, I mean opening 337 00:14:02,679 --> 00:14:06,280 Speaker 2: the gate, that's fun. But now I love walking everywhere. 338 00:14:06,400 --> 00:14:08,640 Speaker 2: I'm like, it's it's helping me get my walking in 339 00:14:08,720 --> 00:14:11,480 Speaker 2: and I just it's so soaking me in. I realized 340 00:14:11,520 --> 00:14:15,040 Speaker 2: that I was definitely like that kind of person when 341 00:14:15,080 --> 00:14:17,440 Speaker 2: I went to New York. Yeah, I WASNA in twenty 342 00:14:17,440 --> 00:14:20,440 Speaker 2: twenty one, and I realized, like, I like, how like 343 00:14:20,480 --> 00:14:23,120 Speaker 2: everything is just so close, like it feels like it's cool. 344 00:14:23,400 --> 00:14:26,720 Speaker 1: That's what I I when I experienced that at Emilio's 345 00:14:26,760 --> 00:14:29,400 Speaker 1: place in downtown LA. That's why I didn't want us 346 00:14:29,440 --> 00:14:32,080 Speaker 1: to like let go of that place because he's been 347 00:14:32,160 --> 00:14:34,240 Speaker 1: living with us for so long or with me now 348 00:14:34,320 --> 00:14:35,880 Speaker 1: now with us because you don't live there anymore, but 349 00:14:36,680 --> 00:14:39,120 Speaker 1: living with with me at that at the house for 350 00:14:39,160 --> 00:14:41,320 Speaker 1: so long, like I but I used to love going 351 00:14:41,320 --> 00:14:43,480 Speaker 1: there because it's like we would walk to get our 352 00:14:43,560 --> 00:14:45,920 Speaker 1: little smoothie and like have a souad, and it just 353 00:14:45,960 --> 00:14:48,440 Speaker 1: felt it was a different type of like feeling. Yeah, 354 00:14:48,480 --> 00:14:51,000 Speaker 1: and I love that, like walking the dogs going to 355 00:14:51,000 --> 00:14:53,120 Speaker 1: the dog park and it's like I'm like, oh my god, 356 00:14:53,160 --> 00:14:55,960 Speaker 1: it just makes you feel what's the word that I'm 357 00:14:56,000 --> 00:14:59,400 Speaker 1: looking for, like grounded, grounded. I guess that's what it is. Grounded. 358 00:15:00,320 --> 00:15:02,800 Speaker 1: So I'm happy that you're experiencing that. That's what immedia 359 00:15:02,840 --> 00:15:04,160 Speaker 1: wanted for you so bad. He's like he needs to 360 00:15:04,160 --> 00:15:07,120 Speaker 1: be a kid. Like I'm like, okay, I know that. 361 00:15:07,720 --> 00:15:10,600 Speaker 2: Being said though, like the older I'm getting, I realized 362 00:15:10,640 --> 00:15:14,680 Speaker 2: like why like people move out to like Temecula or Corona, 363 00:15:14,800 --> 00:15:18,200 Speaker 2: like yeah, more like secluded places. And I do think 364 00:15:18,240 --> 00:15:19,480 Speaker 2: eventually I'm probably gonna have. 365 00:15:19,480 --> 00:15:22,040 Speaker 1: Something like that, yeah, because I'm not a city girl, 366 00:15:22,200 --> 00:15:23,840 Speaker 1: like I'm just I'm more of like I like to 367 00:15:23,960 --> 00:15:26,720 Speaker 1: just be like chill, more of like a southern or 368 00:15:26,720 --> 00:15:29,400 Speaker 1: what's the word some suburbs suburb Yeah, type of chick. 369 00:15:30,640 --> 00:15:32,680 Speaker 1: But I like the city once in a while, but 370 00:15:32,720 --> 00:15:35,000 Speaker 1: I wanted you to experience that, like for you to 371 00:15:35,000 --> 00:15:36,520 Speaker 1: be out there. And I love the fact they're like, oh, 372 00:15:36,760 --> 00:15:38,800 Speaker 1: you know, everything's across the street and boom boo boom. 373 00:15:38,800 --> 00:15:40,400 Speaker 2: You know, I save so much on gas. 374 00:15:40,240 --> 00:15:42,040 Speaker 1: And are people coming over like your friends and stuff. 375 00:15:42,120 --> 00:15:46,520 Speaker 2: Yeah, yeah, it's really cool. It's it's cool to be 376 00:15:46,560 --> 00:15:49,720 Speaker 2: able to I mean, like I always would't. I would 377 00:15:49,720 --> 00:15:51,800 Speaker 2: ask you for permission, But now I can tell people 378 00:15:51,840 --> 00:15:53,960 Speaker 2: like like, oh, if you ever need a place to crash, 379 00:15:54,040 --> 00:15:56,080 Speaker 2: like you have like my couch, you know what I mean, 380 00:15:56,200 --> 00:15:59,200 Speaker 2: Like I I make sure like I so, especially like 381 00:15:59,240 --> 00:16:00,520 Speaker 2: my friends who come from out of town. 382 00:16:00,760 --> 00:16:02,640 Speaker 1: Yeah, that couch is company. I got him a couch. 383 00:16:02,640 --> 00:16:04,640 Speaker 1: That's what that was my home warming gift to him. 384 00:16:04,720 --> 00:16:06,400 Speaker 1: A couch. It's really nice. 385 00:16:06,600 --> 00:16:08,080 Speaker 2: I fleep on that couch. 386 00:16:08,200 --> 00:16:11,040 Speaker 1: Yeah, it's comfy. It's a comfy one. Because dude, imagine, 387 00:16:11,480 --> 00:16:12,880 Speaker 1: I was thinking about this the other day because I 388 00:16:12,920 --> 00:16:14,960 Speaker 1: got a white couch. Now that you're not there, I 389 00:16:14,960 --> 00:16:16,920 Speaker 1: got a white couch. Okay, you haven't seen it, So 390 00:16:16,960 --> 00:16:18,640 Speaker 1: I got a white I would have been I'm like, 391 00:16:18,680 --> 00:16:21,360 Speaker 1: because I'm anal you guys like I realized I'm kind 392 00:16:21,360 --> 00:16:23,360 Speaker 1: of anal so I was like, oh my god, Bot Johnny, 393 00:16:23,360 --> 00:16:24,400 Speaker 1: he would have been like, oh my god, can I 394 00:16:24,440 --> 00:16:27,720 Speaker 1: even sit here? But now you have your own fucking 395 00:16:27,760 --> 00:16:29,200 Speaker 1: couch and do whatever you want, have sex on it 396 00:16:29,280 --> 00:16:32,160 Speaker 1: or whatever you want to do. Anyways, Okay, so when 397 00:16:32,280 --> 00:16:34,640 Speaker 1: you were looking for apartments, is there a reason why 398 00:16:34,680 --> 00:16:37,360 Speaker 1: you chose like not to leave like far because I 399 00:16:37,360 --> 00:16:38,480 Speaker 1: was a little worried. I was like, oh my god, 400 00:16:38,520 --> 00:16:39,960 Speaker 1: he's gonna leave the valley and I'm gonna be sad. 401 00:16:39,960 --> 00:16:41,160 Speaker 1: But I didn't want to put that pressure on you. 402 00:16:41,200 --> 00:16:42,160 Speaker 1: But is there a reason why? 403 00:16:42,400 --> 00:16:46,120 Speaker 2: Well, definitely, I definitely needed to make sure like I 404 00:16:46,120 --> 00:16:47,680 Speaker 2: was going to stay close to you, you know what 405 00:16:47,720 --> 00:16:50,760 Speaker 2: I mean. It's just it's it's comfortable you're down the. 406 00:16:50,760 --> 00:16:52,760 Speaker 1: Street, and I was scared. I was scared that you 407 00:16:52,800 --> 00:16:56,320 Speaker 1: were going to like move like towards down Jackie a 408 00:16:56,320 --> 00:16:58,920 Speaker 1: little bit, or the office and stuff. But when you said, oh, 409 00:16:59,000 --> 00:17:00,520 Speaker 1: I'm looking in the valley, like, oh my god, and 410 00:17:00,560 --> 00:17:02,680 Speaker 1: now like you're in the same city basically. 411 00:17:02,520 --> 00:17:06,560 Speaker 2: Yeah, And I just I mean, that's my dream. I've 412 00:17:06,640 --> 00:17:08,639 Speaker 2: I've had this dream for like two three years, like 413 00:17:08,640 --> 00:17:10,520 Speaker 2: where we're going to own like houses across the street 414 00:17:10,560 --> 00:17:12,679 Speaker 2: or right next to each other. Yeah, I mean, and 415 00:17:13,000 --> 00:17:14,600 Speaker 2: our kids are going to be able to play together. 416 00:17:16,040 --> 00:17:18,000 Speaker 1: I don't know if we've ever talked about this. 417 00:17:18,280 --> 00:17:20,840 Speaker 2: You know it's gonna really I'm realizing it's going to 418 00:17:20,880 --> 00:17:22,399 Speaker 2: be crazy what I feel because I feel like I'm 419 00:17:22,400 --> 00:17:25,200 Speaker 2: gonna have kids like within three four years. Damn, Okay, 420 00:17:25,400 --> 00:17:28,080 Speaker 2: maybe I'm not sure I am. It's because also I 421 00:17:28,160 --> 00:17:29,240 Speaker 2: want to be a young dad too. 422 00:17:29,359 --> 00:17:30,679 Speaker 1: Yeah, yeah, I see that for you. 423 00:17:30,760 --> 00:17:32,560 Speaker 2: I've always had that. So I'm thinking maybe twenty six, 424 00:17:32,640 --> 00:17:35,879 Speaker 2: twenty seven, depending on like where I'm at in my life. Yeah, 425 00:17:36,000 --> 00:17:39,080 Speaker 2: but I'm realizing our kids are going to be pretty 426 00:17:39,080 --> 00:17:42,600 Speaker 2: close in age like our first borns Oh my god. 427 00:17:42,680 --> 00:17:45,280 Speaker 1: Yes, Like if I have a child. 428 00:17:45,320 --> 00:17:46,960 Speaker 2: Like that's like crazy, that's so unusual. 429 00:17:47,320 --> 00:17:50,119 Speaker 1: Yeah, that's kind of cool though. See that's something I 430 00:17:50,160 --> 00:17:51,920 Speaker 1: worry about. It was like because Jackie says she's done 431 00:17:51,920 --> 00:17:55,280 Speaker 1: having kids. Jennica doesn't know if she wants any. Mikey 432 00:17:55,320 --> 00:17:56,840 Speaker 1: has his two daughters. But it's like if I have 433 00:17:56,880 --> 00:17:58,639 Speaker 1: a baby, like I want my baby to grow up 434 00:17:58,680 --> 00:18:00,879 Speaker 1: with like you know, have like because I think I'm 435 00:18:00,880 --> 00:18:01,480 Speaker 1: just gonna have one. 436 00:18:01,720 --> 00:18:02,280 Speaker 2: Yeah, I gotta. 437 00:18:02,400 --> 00:18:03,680 Speaker 1: I really do feel that I gotta. 438 00:18:04,000 --> 00:18:07,480 Speaker 2: I gotta start having kids because my friends are having 439 00:18:07,560 --> 00:18:08,919 Speaker 2: kids and like my kids are not gonna have. 440 00:18:08,880 --> 00:18:11,560 Speaker 1: Any friends don't have kids for that reason. 441 00:18:11,600 --> 00:18:14,320 Speaker 2: Though I know, I know, I know, I know, I know. 442 00:18:14,440 --> 00:18:15,360 Speaker 1: Yeah, okay. 443 00:18:15,760 --> 00:18:17,880 Speaker 2: I also I also just know that when I become 444 00:18:17,920 --> 00:18:19,720 Speaker 2: a father one day, I'm gonna I'm gonna heal a 445 00:18:19,800 --> 00:18:20,680 Speaker 2: lot within myself. 446 00:18:21,080 --> 00:18:24,159 Speaker 1: Yeah, I know, stuff like you mean, like childhood stuff. 447 00:18:24,400 --> 00:18:25,320 Speaker 1: I'd same the same. 448 00:18:26,040 --> 00:18:29,359 Speaker 2: It's just you know, I just know I'm gonna feel 449 00:18:30,480 --> 00:18:34,640 Speaker 2: of a void within myself as like yeah, a father's son. 450 00:18:35,040 --> 00:18:37,840 Speaker 1: Oh mm hmm our little daddy issues and stuff that, 451 00:18:38,080 --> 00:18:42,000 Speaker 1: yeah I have. Yeah, for sure for me it's mommy issues, 452 00:18:42,080 --> 00:18:44,320 Speaker 1: you know how mom And I like, I feel like 453 00:18:44,440 --> 00:18:47,080 Speaker 1: it's my chance and my opportunity to mend. So I 454 00:18:47,119 --> 00:18:48,760 Speaker 1: feel like I'm gonna have a little girl. I don't know, 455 00:18:48,840 --> 00:18:49,879 Speaker 1: but whatever God wants. 456 00:18:49,920 --> 00:18:50,720 Speaker 2: I feel like surprised. 457 00:18:50,800 --> 00:18:51,000 Speaker 1: You know. 458 00:18:51,040 --> 00:18:56,199 Speaker 2: It's like it's always directly with like you like like 459 00:18:56,240 --> 00:19:01,720 Speaker 2: I said, like like with uh, like let's say, like 460 00:19:01,760 --> 00:19:04,359 Speaker 2: with my son, I would be addressing like probably like daddy. 461 00:19:04,440 --> 00:19:06,119 Speaker 2: She's like yeah, but I have a feeling I'm actually 462 00:19:06,119 --> 00:19:09,119 Speaker 2: going to like I'm gonna heal a lot with that. 463 00:19:09,200 --> 00:19:11,840 Speaker 2: I might not even realize with Mom too, Yeah for sure, 464 00:19:11,920 --> 00:19:15,760 Speaker 2: because I because just they passed three years apart. But 465 00:19:15,880 --> 00:19:19,280 Speaker 2: those three years that Mom was still here mm hmm, 466 00:19:19,720 --> 00:19:22,159 Speaker 2: Like I don't know if something shifted within her, you 467 00:19:22,200 --> 00:19:24,679 Speaker 2: know what I mean? Yeah, as a parent, and especially 468 00:19:24,720 --> 00:19:26,360 Speaker 2: the last year when you when you when. 469 00:19:26,200 --> 00:19:28,720 Speaker 1: She wanted to step in and like, yeah, she was. 470 00:19:29,920 --> 00:19:32,960 Speaker 2: She was very intentionally being a parent in her last year. 471 00:19:33,040 --> 00:19:35,919 Speaker 2: Like before it was very much about letting me just 472 00:19:36,080 --> 00:19:37,760 Speaker 2: do what I wanted, but now she was trying to 473 00:19:37,760 --> 00:19:38,720 Speaker 2: give me like structure. 474 00:19:39,200 --> 00:19:40,919 Speaker 1: And that's one thing that when Mom asked me to 475 00:19:40,960 --> 00:19:43,960 Speaker 1: move out that march before she passed, that was one 476 00:19:43,960 --> 00:19:45,520 Speaker 1: of the things that she said. She said, you know, 477 00:19:45,600 --> 00:19:47,439 Speaker 1: I want you to fly with your own wings. I 478 00:19:47,480 --> 00:19:50,199 Speaker 1: want you to go and experience the world. But I 479 00:19:50,240 --> 00:19:52,720 Speaker 1: also want to step in and be a mom. And 480 00:19:52,840 --> 00:19:54,920 Speaker 1: I want this home to feel like my home because 481 00:19:54,920 --> 00:19:57,360 Speaker 1: for so long it's been yours and the kids, if 482 00:19:57,359 --> 00:19:59,639 Speaker 1: you're still here, are always going to go to you 483 00:19:59,760 --> 00:20:02,240 Speaker 1: for things because they see you and they've been here 484 00:20:02,280 --> 00:20:04,520 Speaker 1: and you've been here. But in order for me to 485 00:20:04,560 --> 00:20:07,160 Speaker 1: be the mom that I want to be to these kids. 486 00:20:07,880 --> 00:20:09,560 Speaker 1: I need you not to be here. And that was 487 00:20:09,640 --> 00:20:13,199 Speaker 1: so like hard to hear, but I understood it, and 488 00:20:13,240 --> 00:20:15,240 Speaker 1: I was like shit, which brings me. 489 00:20:15,200 --> 00:20:17,840 Speaker 2: Back to the But she's right though, But she's right 490 00:20:18,440 --> 00:20:20,760 Speaker 2: because because I can, I can say that, like, you know, 491 00:20:21,320 --> 00:20:23,159 Speaker 2: as the kid in question, you know, I would do 492 00:20:23,200 --> 00:20:27,439 Speaker 2: that like yeah, like I know Mom would like spoil 493 00:20:27,520 --> 00:20:29,280 Speaker 2: me or anything, but like I would be more inclined 494 00:20:29,320 --> 00:20:31,560 Speaker 2: to go to you sometimes or vice versa. 495 00:20:31,640 --> 00:20:33,080 Speaker 1: Yeah, and I would be like, Johnny, you can't have 496 00:20:33,119 --> 00:20:34,399 Speaker 1: this and be like, oh, I know Mom will give 497 00:20:34,440 --> 00:20:36,960 Speaker 1: it to me. It was hard. It was hard for her, 498 00:20:37,160 --> 00:20:40,800 Speaker 1: and and I understand it so much, you know. And 499 00:20:40,800 --> 00:20:42,800 Speaker 1: and that's why I'm like, okay, because I I didn't 500 00:20:42,840 --> 00:20:45,080 Speaker 1: ask you to move out, like it was something like 501 00:20:45,080 --> 00:20:46,520 Speaker 1: I said, I had been praying about for a while. 502 00:20:46,640 --> 00:20:50,119 Speaker 1: But when you came to me like because you said 503 00:20:50,119 --> 00:20:53,000 Speaker 1: something that, I was like, oh, I hadn't really thought 504 00:20:53,000 --> 00:20:54,199 Speaker 1: about that, and be like, I just don't want you 505 00:20:54,240 --> 00:20:56,200 Speaker 1: to feel like I'm being ungrateful. What did you mean 506 00:20:56,240 --> 00:20:56,520 Speaker 1: by that? 507 00:20:57,280 --> 00:21:05,600 Speaker 2: Like I just I feel like, how can I put it? 508 00:21:05,600 --> 00:21:10,920 Speaker 2: It's like I feel like we both kind of have 509 00:21:11,119 --> 00:21:14,280 Speaker 2: like the sense of guilt a little bit for like 510 00:21:14,359 --> 00:21:19,720 Speaker 2: adapting to the to this particular change, if that makes sense. 511 00:21:19,760 --> 00:21:23,840 Speaker 2: Like I sometimes feel like a little guilty because I'm 512 00:21:23,880 --> 00:21:26,480 Speaker 2: enjoying myself so much. But I meant, but I told 513 00:21:27,480 --> 00:21:29,240 Speaker 2: but I miss you so much at the same time, 514 00:21:29,320 --> 00:21:29,920 Speaker 2: you know what I mean? 515 00:21:30,000 --> 00:21:32,000 Speaker 1: Like I feel like at first you were kind of 516 00:21:32,040 --> 00:21:34,920 Speaker 1: scared to tell me how happy you were, how how 517 00:21:35,040 --> 00:21:37,200 Speaker 1: like because I and I just was it's so funny 518 00:21:37,240 --> 00:21:38,520 Speaker 1: that you say that, because I was expressing it to 519 00:21:38,760 --> 00:21:40,320 Speaker 1: someone the other day. They were asking, oh, how does 520 00:21:40,320 --> 00:21:42,320 Speaker 1: it feel without Johnny, and I'm like, and I was 521 00:21:42,359 --> 00:21:44,080 Speaker 1: explaining it to them, and then I mentioned that I 522 00:21:44,119 --> 00:21:46,000 Speaker 1: was like, I feel like he's really enjoying it, but 523 00:21:46,080 --> 00:21:48,680 Speaker 1: he's barely starting to tell me, Like I feel good. 524 00:21:48,760 --> 00:21:51,639 Speaker 1: I guess you didn't want to hurt my feelings. Is 525 00:21:51,680 --> 00:21:52,240 Speaker 1: that right? No? 526 00:21:52,480 --> 00:21:56,680 Speaker 2: But it's also like just I think we're just protective 527 00:21:56,720 --> 00:21:58,120 Speaker 2: of each other, you know what I mean, Like like 528 00:21:58,240 --> 00:22:00,760 Speaker 2: you said like you said, like you you told us 529 00:22:00,760 --> 00:22:03,720 Speaker 2: on Christmas, like or I think it was Thanksgiving that 530 00:22:03,760 --> 00:22:07,879 Speaker 2: you were you were like kind of like jealous for us, 531 00:22:08,080 --> 00:22:09,680 Speaker 2: like if you were going to have kids. 532 00:22:09,680 --> 00:22:12,199 Speaker 1: It's like that I see what I mean because I 533 00:22:12,240 --> 00:22:14,280 Speaker 1: said that, because I was like, you guys, like, you 534 00:22:14,280 --> 00:22:16,280 Speaker 1: guys better take advantage of me this year because I'm 535 00:22:16,280 --> 00:22:18,600 Speaker 1: really thinking of having kids, you know, at the end 536 00:22:18,640 --> 00:22:21,600 Speaker 1: of like this year, and I want you guys to 537 00:22:21,680 --> 00:22:24,040 Speaker 1: just take advantage because then once I have a baby, 538 00:22:24,359 --> 00:22:25,639 Speaker 1: you guys are going to be with the center of 539 00:22:25,680 --> 00:22:27,560 Speaker 1: my world anymore. So I was just being all emotional. 540 00:22:27,640 --> 00:22:30,240 Speaker 1: Was probably drinking, and yeah, because I'm like I feel 541 00:22:30,280 --> 00:22:32,120 Speaker 1: sometimes for so long I didn't want to have kids 542 00:22:32,119 --> 00:22:34,520 Speaker 1: because I was jealous of like I'm going to give 543 00:22:34,640 --> 00:22:37,159 Speaker 1: just baby for you guys. I was jealous for you 544 00:22:37,160 --> 00:22:38,680 Speaker 1: guys of like, oh my god, I'm going to give 545 00:22:38,680 --> 00:22:40,679 Speaker 1: all my attention to my child and then like what 546 00:22:40,760 --> 00:22:42,600 Speaker 1: if I forget about them? But I'm like, no, now 547 00:22:42,680 --> 00:22:44,640 Speaker 1: I've healed that, and I'm like, no, I can love 548 00:22:44,760 --> 00:22:46,919 Speaker 1: all everyone. My heart is big enough to love all, 549 00:22:47,119 --> 00:22:49,119 Speaker 1: like to love my own children and still love you guys. 550 00:22:49,119 --> 00:22:51,080 Speaker 1: And but I was like, I felt it was weird. 551 00:22:51,119 --> 00:22:53,560 Speaker 1: I felt jealous for you guys. It's weirdest things I think. 552 00:22:53,600 --> 00:22:56,040 Speaker 2: I think. Also, it was just some well I've always 553 00:22:56,480 --> 00:22:59,119 Speaker 2: told you, like I really need you to leave a 554 00:22:59,160 --> 00:23:01,560 Speaker 2: party yourself here. Yeah, I mean, I think, you know, 555 00:23:01,600 --> 00:23:05,600 Speaker 2: there just needs to be some extension of you specifically, 556 00:23:06,000 --> 00:23:10,120 Speaker 2: you know what I mean. So I just, yeah, I know, 557 00:23:10,400 --> 00:23:13,399 Speaker 2: I know, just like I I try to love all 558 00:23:13,440 --> 00:23:14,879 Speaker 2: the kids as much as I can and be a 559 00:23:14,920 --> 00:23:19,159 Speaker 2: really good uncle and you know, but I know, I know, 560 00:23:19,320 --> 00:23:21,320 Speaker 2: I know your kid is just going to be something 561 00:23:21,520 --> 00:23:23,840 Speaker 2: so special to our family. Each of the kids have 562 00:23:23,880 --> 00:23:24,720 Speaker 2: brought their own light. 563 00:23:24,680 --> 00:23:25,360 Speaker 1: Have you for sure? 564 00:23:25,480 --> 00:23:28,360 Speaker 2: They just all they all shine in their own. 565 00:23:28,720 --> 00:23:31,080 Speaker 1: I love our little family, yeah, I love it so much. 566 00:23:31,160 --> 00:23:34,160 Speaker 2: Like Jayla is is the ring leader of all those kids. 567 00:23:34,320 --> 00:23:38,000 Speaker 1: Yeah, she's She's a good big sister and a good 568 00:23:38,040 --> 00:23:41,359 Speaker 1: big cousin. She really is. Yeah, she's like she's Honestly, 569 00:23:41,359 --> 00:23:43,120 Speaker 1: I'm very proud I see all of them. I see 570 00:23:43,640 --> 00:23:44,560 Speaker 1: you guys. 571 00:23:44,600 --> 00:23:46,520 Speaker 2: She's your goddaughter for sure. 572 00:23:46,520 --> 00:23:49,199 Speaker 1: For sure, that's my godda for sure. I see her. 573 00:23:49,200 --> 00:23:57,920 Speaker 1: I'm like, oh my god, freaking little Jayla. I want 574 00:23:57,960 --> 00:24:00,000 Speaker 1: you to know about that. I'm so freaking proud of you. 575 00:24:00,320 --> 00:24:02,879 Speaker 1: Like I'm listening to you speak and I'm just like, 576 00:24:03,040 --> 00:24:06,520 Speaker 1: you're so mature, You're in such a good place. And 577 00:24:06,560 --> 00:24:09,160 Speaker 1: I prayed so much for this because for so long 578 00:24:09,200 --> 00:24:12,639 Speaker 1: I was worried I was worried that you were so 579 00:24:12,880 --> 00:24:14,760 Speaker 1: like spending so much time in your room, and I 580 00:24:14,760 --> 00:24:18,400 Speaker 1: could just imagine, like, if you feel better, it's because 581 00:24:18,600 --> 00:24:20,560 Speaker 1: for so I think your spirit was telling you for 582 00:24:20,600 --> 00:24:22,840 Speaker 1: so long, like I need to grow out of this room. 583 00:24:23,359 --> 00:24:25,320 Speaker 1: And now you have your own space, and I want 584 00:24:25,320 --> 00:24:27,680 Speaker 1: you not to feel guilty or to feel like you're 585 00:24:27,680 --> 00:24:29,760 Speaker 1: going to hurt my feelings. I want to hear about 586 00:24:30,080 --> 00:24:32,280 Speaker 1: everything that you're doing, and I love to see on 587 00:24:32,320 --> 00:24:34,800 Speaker 1: your close friends like that you're cooking and that you're 588 00:24:34,880 --> 00:24:37,520 Speaker 1: enjoying your space because you deserve that. And it's not 589 00:24:37,560 --> 00:24:39,320 Speaker 1: that I was doing anything wrong or that you were 590 00:24:39,320 --> 00:24:41,879 Speaker 1: doing anything wrong, because the house feels different, and not 591 00:24:41,920 --> 00:24:44,080 Speaker 1: necessarily because you were bad energy, because that's not what 592 00:24:44,119 --> 00:24:47,320 Speaker 1: it is. It's just it feels different. It feels just different. 593 00:24:47,320 --> 00:24:49,600 Speaker 1: And I don't even know how to explain it. But 594 00:24:49,680 --> 00:24:51,400 Speaker 1: I know that you're feeling what I'm feeling, and that 595 00:24:51,440 --> 00:24:52,800 Speaker 1: means that it's the right. 596 00:24:52,640 --> 00:24:54,720 Speaker 2: Thing where we have work reflecting one another. 597 00:24:55,040 --> 00:24:58,679 Speaker 1: Yeah, absolutely in the last and I'm not worried about you, 598 00:24:58,720 --> 00:25:00,600 Speaker 1: and I'm so proud of you. And I never when 599 00:25:00,640 --> 00:25:02,280 Speaker 1: people would be like, oh my god, cheks like you 600 00:25:02,320 --> 00:25:05,400 Speaker 1: shelter him like you you like you protect him too much, 601 00:25:05,480 --> 00:25:07,440 Speaker 1: like you're so lenient, and I'm like, I know how 602 00:25:07,480 --> 00:25:10,640 Speaker 1: to deal with with your personality. I know the type 603 00:25:10,680 --> 00:25:12,679 Speaker 1: of child you were, the type of man that you 604 00:25:12,720 --> 00:25:15,600 Speaker 1: are now that I'm like, I know that you're going 605 00:25:15,680 --> 00:25:18,000 Speaker 1: to do great things. And this is this is as 606 00:25:18,359 --> 00:25:20,600 Speaker 1: lost as you may feel because you're like, where do 607 00:25:20,640 --> 00:25:22,840 Speaker 1: I go from here? This is all a part. This 608 00:25:22,920 --> 00:25:24,840 Speaker 1: is a huge milestone for you, for you to thrive. 609 00:25:25,480 --> 00:25:27,720 Speaker 2: I think it's just like I feel like for the 610 00:25:27,760 --> 00:25:32,119 Speaker 2: first time, I'm I'm adding my own things into my life. 611 00:25:32,400 --> 00:25:34,000 Speaker 1: Yeah, if it's if it. 612 00:25:33,960 --> 00:25:36,359 Speaker 2: Makes sense, Like I'm realizing like like I have you 613 00:25:36,400 --> 00:25:40,640 Speaker 2: guys always, but like apart from you guys, like I 614 00:25:40,680 --> 00:25:42,359 Speaker 2: have like two best friends that I talk to on 615 00:25:42,400 --> 00:25:44,040 Speaker 2: a regular brasis and I have more friends, but like 616 00:25:44,080 --> 00:25:46,399 Speaker 2: you know, like those yeah, close close friends that like 617 00:25:46,640 --> 00:25:48,480 Speaker 2: you have those deep conversations because. 618 00:25:48,240 --> 00:25:50,080 Speaker 1: We were your whole world for so long exactly. 619 00:25:50,119 --> 00:25:53,760 Speaker 2: So like now I'm realizing, like you know, like my circles, 620 00:25:53,920 --> 00:25:56,040 Speaker 2: my circle is small, like I want to make I 621 00:25:56,080 --> 00:25:59,280 Speaker 2: want to make new friends and just like wow, just 622 00:25:59,280 --> 00:26:02,960 Speaker 2: just expand my word little bit, and yeah, you know, 623 00:26:03,000 --> 00:26:05,399 Speaker 2: for the first time. I just I just feel like 624 00:26:05,400 --> 00:26:07,680 Speaker 2: I'm adding things into my life. It's so weird. 625 00:26:07,840 --> 00:26:11,919 Speaker 1: I think you're finally living. For so long, you went 626 00:26:11,960 --> 00:26:14,360 Speaker 1: through so much, John, since you were little. You lost 627 00:26:14,359 --> 00:26:16,359 Speaker 1: your dad at nine, you lost your mom on eleven 628 00:26:16,840 --> 00:26:19,400 Speaker 1: at eight, So by the time you were eleven years old, 629 00:26:19,880 --> 00:26:24,159 Speaker 1: you've been through so much. And you, yeah, it's crazy 630 00:26:24,160 --> 00:26:26,560 Speaker 1: to think like you were so Yeah, you were so 631 00:26:26,560 --> 00:26:29,359 Speaker 1: so young, and you had to go through so much, 632 00:26:30,000 --> 00:26:33,000 Speaker 1: and then all of the aftermath that happened after mom 633 00:26:33,080 --> 00:26:36,359 Speaker 1: passed and things that we're still dealing with. You had 634 00:26:36,359 --> 00:26:38,439 Speaker 1: to grow up so fast. And not only that, you 635 00:26:38,440 --> 00:26:42,000 Speaker 1: were Jenny River's son, and you've always had to be 636 00:26:42,040 --> 00:26:44,159 Speaker 1: like okay, like you you went to school in a 637 00:26:44,160 --> 00:26:47,280 Speaker 1: different way than other kids. So to me to see you, 638 00:26:47,320 --> 00:26:48,880 Speaker 1: like tell me this, I want to make new friends 639 00:26:48,920 --> 00:26:52,439 Speaker 1: because you were very antisocial for so long. Now and 640 00:26:52,520 --> 00:26:55,159 Speaker 1: to see you, I'm out like, hey, I think I'm 641 00:26:55,160 --> 00:26:57,080 Speaker 1: going to go here tonight, and I'm like, hell, yeah, 642 00:26:57,160 --> 00:26:59,440 Speaker 1: go have fun. Don't drink a drive. Always like, don't 643 00:26:59,520 --> 00:27:01,560 Speaker 1: drink a drive, call me PU on your seat belt, 644 00:27:01,600 --> 00:27:03,560 Speaker 1: take an uber. I'm all about that. But I'm like, 645 00:27:03,760 --> 00:27:06,320 Speaker 1: go live your fucking life, dude, Like, go have fun. 646 00:27:06,400 --> 00:27:09,280 Speaker 1: This is the time to have fun, to enjoy yourself. 647 00:27:09,320 --> 00:27:10,960 Speaker 1: And I love that you're doing it because for so 648 00:27:11,080 --> 00:27:13,480 Speaker 1: long I would worry. And that was one thing that 649 00:27:13,520 --> 00:27:15,199 Speaker 1: Amilia would tell me. He's like, I want him to 650 00:27:15,200 --> 00:27:16,600 Speaker 1: be a kid. I moved out at twenty three, and 651 00:27:16,600 --> 00:27:19,240 Speaker 1: it's like I did so much stuff. I did so 652 00:27:19,320 --> 00:27:22,360 Speaker 1: many things, and it's like, this is the time, this 653 00:27:22,400 --> 00:27:23,679 Speaker 1: is the time to do it, and you're doing it 654 00:27:23,720 --> 00:27:26,240 Speaker 1: the right way, and I'm just like, I'm like, I 655 00:27:26,280 --> 00:27:28,080 Speaker 1: couldn't be more proud to be quite honest with you, 656 00:27:28,160 --> 00:27:31,920 Speaker 1: Like you're fucking wise beyond your your I've known that forever. 657 00:27:32,119 --> 00:27:35,200 Speaker 1: You're so wise beyond your years, and you're gonna be 658 00:27:35,280 --> 00:27:37,040 Speaker 1: and I don't know you're you're gonna be. You're gonna 659 00:27:37,080 --> 00:27:39,840 Speaker 1: be just fine. And if you feel a little bit 660 00:27:39,960 --> 00:27:41,480 Speaker 1: like I'm not sure what do I do for me, 661 00:27:41,640 --> 00:27:44,000 Speaker 1: like you're gonna find out. That's how I felt when 662 00:27:44,000 --> 00:27:46,080 Speaker 1: Mom asked me, I was like, now what now, what 663 00:27:46,080 --> 00:27:48,000 Speaker 1: do I do with all this time on my hands? 664 00:27:48,040 --> 00:27:50,040 Speaker 1: And like it's gonna all fall into place. 665 00:27:50,040 --> 00:27:52,119 Speaker 2: That's how I feel. That's how I feel, because like 666 00:27:52,160 --> 00:27:57,440 Speaker 2: I just it's so strange. It's just the weirdest phenomenon. 667 00:27:57,520 --> 00:28:00,560 Speaker 2: But I mean, I don't. 668 00:28:00,359 --> 00:28:02,880 Speaker 1: Know you're doing it at the right time though, Yeah. 669 00:28:02,680 --> 00:28:05,040 Speaker 2: And I'm just I want to say, like, I'm really 670 00:28:05,080 --> 00:28:07,760 Speaker 2: proud of you, and I'm really proud of you because 671 00:28:07,760 --> 00:28:11,240 Speaker 2: it's you know, it hasn't been easy for any of us, 672 00:28:15,440 --> 00:28:20,200 Speaker 2: but like you took that role really really gracefully despite 673 00:28:20,200 --> 00:28:24,680 Speaker 2: everything that happened, and I commend you for that because 674 00:28:24,680 --> 00:28:26,800 Speaker 2: it's not easy to be that selfless. I think a 675 00:28:26,800 --> 00:28:31,560 Speaker 2: lot of times, especially you know, it was difficult. There's 676 00:28:31,560 --> 00:28:33,200 Speaker 2: a lot of times you could have said these kids, 677 00:28:33,240 --> 00:28:34,800 Speaker 2: I'm gonna make I'm going to live my own life 678 00:28:34,880 --> 00:28:36,600 Speaker 2: or something, but you never did that. 679 00:28:37,440 --> 00:28:41,280 Speaker 1: And I love you. Man. 680 00:28:47,800 --> 00:28:49,880 Speaker 2: People can say whatever they want about me, but like 681 00:28:49,920 --> 00:28:53,160 Speaker 2: when it comes to when it comes to you, I've 682 00:28:53,240 --> 00:29:01,720 Speaker 2: just I've never been able to have peace with how 683 00:29:01,200 --> 00:29:05,920 Speaker 2: how negatively people can view you sometimes because they don't 684 00:29:05,960 --> 00:29:09,440 Speaker 2: realize that you've always been there. And I know, I 685 00:29:09,520 --> 00:29:15,800 Speaker 2: know my mom and my dad they're so grateful for you. 686 00:29:17,280 --> 00:29:23,600 Speaker 2: I know they her especially, she's just she's like, I'm 687 00:29:23,640 --> 00:29:27,600 Speaker 2: so happy he's okay, you know, because I know she 688 00:29:27,720 --> 00:29:28,480 Speaker 2: worried about me. 689 00:29:28,440 --> 00:29:35,200 Speaker 1: A lot I know she did. But like I told you, John, 690 00:29:35,280 --> 00:29:39,360 Speaker 1: like I would, I would go through it all over 691 00:29:39,400 --> 00:29:42,920 Speaker 1: again if it meant that I would have you, because 692 00:29:42,960 --> 00:29:46,480 Speaker 1: you saved my life, You and Jenica, all of you, really, 693 00:29:46,640 --> 00:29:50,400 Speaker 1: and everything happened the way it was supposed to happen, 694 00:29:50,400 --> 00:29:54,360 Speaker 1: and it was fucking hard, and I don't regret any 695 00:29:54,400 --> 00:29:56,720 Speaker 1: of it. I would go through it all over again 696 00:29:56,920 --> 00:29:58,840 Speaker 1: if it meant that I was going to see you 697 00:29:59,200 --> 00:30:02,520 Speaker 1: how I see you today and now I feel like, Okay, 698 00:30:03,920 --> 00:30:06,920 Speaker 1: he's good. Now I go focus on having my own kids. 699 00:30:07,560 --> 00:30:09,760 Speaker 2: And I'm really excited for really. 700 00:30:10,240 --> 00:30:15,520 Speaker 1: And I love you so much and I learned from 701 00:30:15,520 --> 00:30:18,240 Speaker 1: you every day. You're such a smart boy. 702 00:30:19,000 --> 00:30:19,440 Speaker 2: I love you. 703 00:30:20,280 --> 00:30:25,000 Speaker 1: I love you more. And You're welcome and thank you, 704 00:30:25,600 --> 00:30:29,720 Speaker 1: thank you for coming. And yeah, guys, this is this 705 00:30:29,800 --> 00:30:32,160 Speaker 1: is our life on a podcast. 706 00:30:34,440 --> 00:30:36,880 Speaker 2: My whole life has really been like on television, my 707 00:30:36,880 --> 00:30:39,440 Speaker 2: whole life like and from the moment I was born. 708 00:30:39,760 --> 00:30:41,920 Speaker 1: I know it's crazy, from the moment you were born, 709 00:30:41,960 --> 00:30:45,520 Speaker 1: and you've you've handled it very well because people can 710 00:30:45,560 --> 00:30:49,440 Speaker 1: be very mean and and I think that you're doing 711 00:30:49,480 --> 00:30:53,600 Speaker 1: a great job. And I do miss your footsteps. There 712 00:30:53,600 --> 00:30:55,720 Speaker 1: are times when I'm like, should I miss him, just 713 00:30:55,760 --> 00:30:57,200 Speaker 1: when you would come into the room and lay on 714 00:30:57,240 --> 00:31:01,840 Speaker 1: the bed. And it hasn't been as easy as you think. 715 00:31:01,920 --> 00:31:04,200 Speaker 1: But I feel like this is We're in the right 716 00:31:04,200 --> 00:31:06,440 Speaker 1: place and it's the right thing happening. So I don't 717 00:31:06,440 --> 00:31:08,720 Speaker 1: want you to worry about me. I don't want you 718 00:31:08,760 --> 00:31:14,239 Speaker 1: to worry. Okay, good, and I love you more. And 719 00:31:14,280 --> 00:31:17,880 Speaker 1: you guys, thank you for listening to this episode and 720 00:31:17,960 --> 00:31:22,760 Speaker 1: watching this episode of of Chigis and Chill. Johnny, thank 721 00:31:22,760 --> 00:31:24,280 Speaker 1: you so much. You want to share your social media 722 00:31:24,320 --> 00:31:26,080 Speaker 1: for people that may not follow you already. 723 00:31:26,640 --> 00:31:30,400 Speaker 2: I'm on Twitter, Instagram and TikTok as the great. 724 00:31:30,200 --> 00:31:36,560 Speaker 1: Sinkle Yeah, the Great Sinco. It's just a yeah. So 725 00:31:36,600 --> 00:31:39,680 Speaker 1: you guys, thank you so much. I will see you 726 00:31:39,960 --> 00:31:43,520 Speaker 1: and I will catch you hopefully on the next episode. 727 00:31:43,560 --> 00:31:53,880 Speaker 1: You guys. Yes an. This is a production of iHeartRadio 728 00:31:54,000 --> 00:31:58,040 Speaker 1: and Mike podcast Network. Follow us on Instagram at Mike 729 00:31:58,600 --> 00:32:02,880 Speaker 1: Podcasts and follow Cheeky's That's c h I q U 730 00:32:02,960 --> 00:32:07,320 Speaker 1: I s. For more podcasts from iHeart, visit the iHeartRadio app, 731 00:32:07,360 --> 00:32:10,280 Speaker 1: Apple Podcasts, or wherever you get your favorite shows.