Speaker 1: Welcome to Can't Flee Reckless, the production of iHeart Radio
Speaker 1: and The Black Effects.
Speaker 2: Andy.
Speaker 1: Just like that, we're back on the air. Welcome back,
Speaker 1: Welcome back, y'all. Y'all haven't heard my voice in a while,
Speaker 1: and I haven't done a podcast in a while, y'all.
Speaker 1: Of course, I had a baby. Her name is Marley
Speaker 1: sky Moore Tolliver. Yes, I hyphenated her name. She has
Speaker 1: me and her dad's last name. And she was born
Speaker 1: August twentieth to forty seven in the morning. My baby
Speaker 1: is a Leo Lord and she is. She was seven
Speaker 1: pounds and three ounces nineteen inches. My baby was a
Speaker 1: long baby. My father is like six two sixty three
Speaker 1: something like that. So I'm gonna have me as taller.
Speaker 1: She's gonna be dunking on bitches. She backed up be
Speaker 1: dunking on these bitches, okay, but real, she gonna be
Speaker 1: a trained Olympian or something. We're gonna get at something
Speaker 1: where her height is gonna matter. All right, But motherhood
Speaker 1: has been great to me. It's been very challenging, y'all. Know.
Speaker 2: I do have a twelve year old Ashton. He has
Speaker 2: been amazing.
Speaker 1: He is like a part of the village that is
Speaker 1: helping us take care of Marley. He's happy to be
Speaker 1: a big brother again. We know the first baby daddy,
Speaker 1: little baby father. He got five kids. I think Ronan
Speaker 1: is got fire up five.
Speaker 2: Kids, and so he is.
Speaker 1: Ashton is used to being a big brother, but not
Speaker 1: used to mommy having a new baby. And I just
Speaker 1: think he's just ecstatic that he can grow up in
Speaker 1: the house with the baby this time, you know, because
Speaker 1: all of his siblings live with their moms and so
Speaker 1: he don't get to see them every day, don't get
Speaker 1: to talk to them. But he is around Marley every
Speaker 1: day all day. He loves her like she loves him.
Speaker 1: She'd be looking for him. And my baby is now
Speaker 1: almost three months. She's not three months yet, but she
Speaker 1: is a breastfed baby, so y'all, she's big and she
Speaker 1: looks like she's about four months going on five months. Man,
Speaker 1: I'm trying to figure out when the fuck I can
Speaker 1: feed her some actual food because she don't look her age.
Speaker 1: This is crazy, but the journey has been up and down.
Speaker 2: I'm not gonna lie. I thought I would be like
Speaker 2: right back to work.
Speaker 1: I thought after like six weeks I was gonna be
Speaker 1: like pumping and listen, these are my pumps that y'all hear.
Speaker 2: I know, y'all, like, what the hell is that noise?
Speaker 2: If you're driving in.
Speaker 1: Your car, or you in a gym, or you're doing
Speaker 1: something sitting at your job working, you're probably trying to
Speaker 1: find a sound I'm pumping. I am a breast pumping
Speaker 1: breastfeeding mom. Okay, so duty calls, and whenever it calls,
Speaker 1: I got to be on the duty. So this is
Speaker 1: what you get. And it's very challenging. I'm not gonna
Speaker 1: lie like I said. I thought I would be back
Speaker 1: at work a month and a half in No I
Speaker 1: felt crazy six weeks.
Speaker 2: I know, I felt crazy.
Speaker 1: Yeah, but you know why because I didn't anticipate breastfeeding
Speaker 1: being a whole nother full time job. Imagine being somebody's food, yo,
Speaker 1: Like you can't like I had to alter my diet.
Speaker 2: I have to, you know, I can't do certain things.
Speaker 1: I can't be away from her long, like even like
Speaker 1: right now sitting at iHeart doing my podcast like she
Speaker 1: on her last bag of milk. I got to run
Speaker 1: out of here as soon as I finished wrapping up
Speaker 1: this episode. And that's why I'm pumping, so I can
Speaker 1: like be there with her next bag of milk whenever
Speaker 1: she's hungry.
Speaker 2: You know what I'm saying.
Speaker 1: And I have a village, you know, I always say this. Now,
Speaker 1: I take my hat off, and I worship the ground
Speaker 1: that the single moms walk on, you know, because I
Speaker 1: have help. And it's still a big challenge every day.
Speaker 1: Me and Chris. We have his mom. She's the nanny,
Speaker 1: so we call her the grand nanny. And she moved
Speaker 1: all the way from Kuwait to come here and be
Speaker 1: a nanny for meet and her son. And this is
Speaker 1: our first grandchild, and that this is big for her,
Speaker 1: and this is also big for Chris because this is
Speaker 1: his first baby.
Speaker 2: And we are excited.
Speaker 1: We're definitely excited to be parents to her. It's definitely
Speaker 1: a challenge though she's so attached to me. But having
Speaker 1: to that transition from like taking her off the nipple
Speaker 1: putting her on a bottle, that was a little challenging
Speaker 1: because she got so used to being on my nipple.
Speaker 1: Whenever she cries, they go pop it right in boom.
Speaker 1: She latched perfectly. She latched well, and she is healthy.
Speaker 1: She ain't missing no meals. But sometimes I will say,
Speaker 1: being a breastfeeding mom, it definitely gets tiresome. I haven't
Speaker 1: had a full eight hour sleep yet I have to
Speaker 1: get up every two to three hours and pump. So
Speaker 1: this is this is like kind of like this is
Speaker 1: more uncomfortable than the pregnancy. The last trimester. I wasn't
Speaker 1: getting sleep, but I really can't even get even once
Speaker 1: I get like where I'm dreaming and getting that good
Speaker 1: rim cycle of sleeping, I gotta wake up in pump
Speaker 1: like it's crazy. So tailor here, Taylor here, y'all, tailor here,
Speaker 1: So how much do you pump? Though? Then? All right,
Speaker 1: so each session it varies, it's different, y'all, like, because
Speaker 1: some weeks are great and then some weeks it's like, damn,
Speaker 1: I feel like I'm doing something wrong because I'm not
Speaker 1: pumping hardly like anything.
Speaker 2: And I tell you, like what to eat.
Speaker 1: Yeah, so I have lactation cookies. I had to change
Speaker 1: my diet like I was.
Speaker 2: I had.
Speaker 1: I think I was eating too much dairy because my
Speaker 1: baby's gas. She was smelling like a grown ass woman,
Speaker 1: and there's no way a baby's supposed to smell like
Speaker 1: my baby was smelling.
Speaker 2: At uh, four and five weeks.
Speaker 1: I'm like, oh, hell no, So I like instantly changed
Speaker 1: my diet. I stopped eating dairy, and then I started
Speaker 1: eating more protein, more vegetables, more fruits, fresh fruits, and
Speaker 1: then like flax eats, she is seeds, elderberry, chema meal tees,
Speaker 1: and just like trying to find different things to increase
Speaker 1: the milk flow.
Speaker 2: I have lactation cookies.
Speaker 1: I have a lactation specialist who I consult with every
Speaker 1: now and then. She's really really, really good. But you
Speaker 1: just learn in doing this, like you can't take advice
Speaker 1: from very well. You can take advice, but every woman
Speaker 1: is different. It depends on your body. And then I
Speaker 1: also got my boobs done at at a younger age
Speaker 1: as well, So I don't know. They keep saying dad
Speaker 1: on hand on had nothing to do with it, but
Speaker 1: I do believe it does. Because my right boob does
Speaker 1: not pump as much as my left boob, and one
Speaker 1: boob also hurts more when I'm pumping than the other,
Speaker 1: you know what I'm saying. And I don't know, it's
Speaker 1: more comfortable to breastfeed her than pump. Pumping hurts, like
Speaker 1: it hurts. It's a different type of pool. Yeah, definitely
Speaker 1: and it's a machine, you know what I mean, especially
Speaker 1: and when the pumps are fully charged. It's definitely some
Speaker 1: power behind that pump, you know. And I appreciate that
Speaker 1: I can actually make milk for her, because some moms
Speaker 1: can't pump milk at all.
Speaker 2: And that was me with my first son. He and
Speaker 2: my first child.
Speaker 1: My son did not latch, so I was just gonna pump,
Speaker 1: but then it hurts so bad I couldn't.
Speaker 2: Then I wasn't, you know, producing.
Speaker 1: I didn't really understand the benefits of breastfeeding back then though,
Speaker 1: So I I was young. I was pregnant when I
Speaker 1: was nineteen. I had him when I was twenty. Girl,
Speaker 1: I was back at working like four weeks, you know
Speaker 1: what I'm saying. And I it was it was good
Speaker 1: for me. And guess who I worked at. I worked
Speaker 1: at McDonald's. And look at my otfit today. Oh my god, y'all.
Speaker 1: So listen, I'm sitting up here right. I got dressed
Speaker 1: for work this morning, this acide. Now I'm gonna get
Speaker 1: back to all the shit I get ready for work
Speaker 1: this morning, right, And I had I got a white
Speaker 1: button up on him with red and yellow sweater.
Speaker 2: All right.
Speaker 1: The sweater goes over top of the white button up
Speaker 1: and I got the collar coming out of you know,
Speaker 1: I get real preppy or whatever, right, And I got
Speaker 1: on these black slacks and I got some black leather
Speaker 1: platform chunky hills, right, So that outfits sound cute, sound
Speaker 1: like it's geffing.
Speaker 2: And so I just thought I was killing them when
Speaker 2: I walked up in here today.
Speaker 1: So I first person I see is one of the
Speaker 1: producers here is Samantha, and she said, oh, you look cute,
Speaker 1: but it was the way she said it, and I
Speaker 1: was like, hold up doing So I went over to
Speaker 1: the mirror and it was quiet for like two minutes,
Speaker 1: and I came back like I did think I look cute,
Speaker 1: but now it looked like somebody managing at McDonald's.
Speaker 2: I looked like the bitch to.
Speaker 1: Walk out whatever, Like can I speak to a manager?
Speaker 1: And I kind of out like, hey, what's that like?
Speaker 2: Fuck?
Speaker 1: I look like I work at I can't unseeing yeah,
Speaker 1: because like I don't know. And I really thought I
Speaker 1: was killing them when I was strutting in his visch
Speaker 1: today and and then that just that was a trigger
Speaker 1: for me just talking about my first pregnancy, at my
Speaker 1: first birth because I worked at McDonald's and I love the.
Speaker 2: Fucking manager girl looking dambis shit.
Speaker 1: Okay, so hold up, hold up, I know the ship
Speaker 1: getting good. But listen to just a couple seconds of
Speaker 1: a commercial. If you love me, you'll listen.
Speaker 2: Let's get back to it. Is this about all right?
Speaker 1: So what's the what's the What we think is the
Speaker 1: biggest difference being pregnant at this age versus when you
Speaker 1: first were pregnant.
Speaker 2: I worry more like I worry about everything. Sometimes I
Speaker 2: feel like I'm doing things wrong all the time.
Speaker 1: And sometimes I wake up and I feel like, Yo,
Speaker 1: what the fuck am I even doing?
Speaker 2: Like you know what I'm saying a boy versus a
Speaker 2: girl too. You said, it's a different like that I
Speaker 2: have a girl.
Speaker 1: No, But I honestly just felt like I was in
Speaker 1: a different I was in a different time in my life.
Speaker 1: I was in a different state of mind, and I
Speaker 1: just now I'm fully aware I'm a grown woman, and
Speaker 1: it's just like, but now I wish I had that
Speaker 1: not a care in the world mindset that I had
Speaker 1: when I was younger. It's like now I feel like
Speaker 1: I care about too much and I overthink things and
Speaker 1: That's why I was saying, I don't know if I
Speaker 1: do have postpartum depression. Some days, well actually a lot
Speaker 1: of days, I don't feel pretty. I don't feel like
Speaker 1: I can accomplish certain things that I knew I could
Speaker 1: accomplish before. I felt like I got to get back
Speaker 1: to work. I gotta get back to work. People are
Speaker 1: not gonna miss me, people are not gonna want me
Speaker 1: around anymore. And then I gotta get back on tour.
Speaker 1: My fans are gonna forget about me. I gotta write
Speaker 1: more comedy. I feel like I don't want to tell
Speaker 1: the same jokes and when I overthink a lot. But
Speaker 1: do you all think that's just your ambitious Like say
Speaker 1: you weren't pregnant, Maybe you just like broke a leg
Speaker 1: or something you just can't come in. Yeah, I don't
Speaker 1: feel like we'll be same it. It definitely would probably
Speaker 1: be the same. But the only thing that makes me
Speaker 1: feel like it is postpartum depression, and again I haven't
Speaker 1: been diagnosed, guys, is that I cry so much, like
Speaker 1: I feel like I can't do anything right, like crazy.
Speaker 1: And then and then I also feel like so many people,
Speaker 1: like every everything plays on your mind when you have
Speaker 1: postpartum depression, and I'm just gonna say, yeah, every little
Speaker 1: thing bothers me. Like even if I change my daughter
Speaker 1: and she starts like to cry, I feel like, oh
Speaker 1: my god, I hurt her or I'm not I'm not
Speaker 1: gonna pump enough. I always often think, like in the future,
Speaker 1: like you know what, one day I won't have milk
Speaker 1: for her, then what the fuck do I do? Because
Speaker 1: I don't want to give her a formula and now
Speaker 1: I'm standing on it. I don't, like, I really don't,
Speaker 1: and to reach his own I give my hat to
Speaker 1: a woman who has try breastfeeding and can't do it
Speaker 1: because everybody just can't do it, you know what I mean.
Speaker 1: I've been in that predicament before as well, But I
Speaker 1: always think about that because I don't pump enough to store.
Speaker 1: You know, you got women who can pump, like to
Speaker 1: share breast milk and still have milk for their kids.
Speaker 1: You got women that got too much damn milk. You
Speaker 1: know what I'm saying, Like that their breast leak. My
Speaker 1: breast has not leaked yet, you know what I mean, No,
Speaker 1: I haven't. I don't have that, and I feel like
Speaker 1: that would be a great problem. I hear women complain
Speaker 1: about it, but that's what I want. I want to
Speaker 1: be able to make massive amount of milk so I
Speaker 1: don't have to take my daughter on these fucking airplanes
Speaker 1: and shit and risk getting her sick at such a
Speaker 1: young age and shit. But those are all sort the
Speaker 1: benefits of breast milk. Your kids don't get sick easily.
Speaker 1: You know, they're getting all the nutrients and vitamins and
Speaker 1: protein and everything that they need because it's right there
Speaker 1: in the milk, and like all the good things that
Speaker 1: you have in you, it's just going right back into it.
Speaker 2: Baby. You know I did.
Speaker 1: I capitalize my placenta, so'm I'm still taking my prenatal
Speaker 1: vitamins to try to increase milk flow. Like I said
Speaker 1: the lactation cookies, I'm taking lactation capsules, like I'm staying hydrated.
Speaker 2: I only drink coconut.
Speaker 1: Water body armor because it's made with coconut water and.
Speaker 2: Water regular water. Like I don't drink cooly, I don't
Speaker 2: drink sota.
Speaker 1: I don't drink all the shit that I I always
Speaker 1: wanted to huh No, I mean everything that I that
Speaker 1: I want to drink. I can't orange juice, yes, but
Speaker 1: if I do drink juice, it got to be like
Speaker 1: one hundred percent juices. So I will drink grape juice
Speaker 1: or cranberry juice and not even a cocktail. I mean,
Speaker 1: like the real cranberry juice, orange juice, pineapple like all
Speaker 1: of that.
Speaker 2: So I'm trying to be as healthy as I can.
Speaker 1: But it's like only but so much you can do,
Speaker 1: like it's up to your body, like it's what your
Speaker 1: body produces. And I just get scared that I'm not
Speaker 1: gonna be able to feed her and I may have
Speaker 1: to put her on formula, and I just don't want
Speaker 1: to do it. And how long did you want to
Speaker 1: pump for until she's about eight nine months?
Speaker 2: I honestly wanted to, you know.
Speaker 1: And even when she starts eating like solids, like you know,
Speaker 1: real food, I actually still want to mix up my
Speaker 1: breast milk with it, Like I want to like puree
Speaker 1: carrots and carrots and celery and fucking broccoli and vegetables,
Speaker 1: cucumbers and shit like that, you know, things like fresh
Speaker 1: fruits and vegetables, and then mix it with my breast milk.
Speaker 1: I was watching this lady on TikTok and she does
Speaker 1: that and it's so healthy. Her kid be fucking that
Speaker 1: food up, and I'd be like, shit, that's I can't
Speaker 1: wait to do that. But like I don't want to
Speaker 1: have to put my baby on formula before then because
Speaker 1: I feel like I don't make enough.
Speaker 2: Milk for her. I just I really don't.
Speaker 1: And then also like on ano another point, like coming
Speaker 1: back to work was hard.
Speaker 2: It was hard as shit because everybody just so it.
Speaker 1: Everybody just flip flops. Like the interner is a strange
Speaker 1: place now.
Speaker 2: Listen.
Speaker 1: I've never been the type to care and to cater
Speaker 1: to people's opinions about me and shit like that.
Speaker 2: But when you feel the way.
Speaker 1: You feel after having a baby and shit and like
Speaker 1: your hormones up and down, it's like it's a like
Speaker 1: your mind does not allow you to think positively about shit.
Speaker 1: And I feel like people went from loving me and
Speaker 1: there's a few haters scattered around and there I mean,
Speaker 1: but I always had haters. I always confind for myself
Speaker 1: and let share roll off my back. People been talk
Speaker 1: about me my whole career. I don't care about that,
Speaker 1: but it's just something about it now, like it just
Speaker 1: seems like I've gotten so much more hate. Like yeah,
Speaker 1: like I don't know if my mind is set up
Speaker 1: to only go there with it, you know what I'm saying.
Speaker 2: Yes, So I feel like you always said that.
Speaker 1: It might be like you said, push permit, you say
Speaker 1: like you don't feel as pretty and everything else too,
Speaker 1: So that might be also a mindset to you haven't
Speaker 1: been here for a long time. Yeah, not a long time,
Speaker 1: but you know a few months, so the absence filled
Speaker 1: with all the other stuff you got going on and
Speaker 1: away with you.
Speaker 2: But I don't think definitely, But I always think that
Speaker 2: people are on the internet. Yeah, in real life.
Speaker 1: I know there's so many people on the internet that
Speaker 1: probably talking and then they've met me, like, oh they'll
Speaker 1: say nothing. Yeah, Like it's just I don't think you
Speaker 1: should pay that much mind to.
Speaker 2: It, I know, And that's the thing I try not to.
Speaker 2: And then I have like Chris.
Speaker 1: Chris always helps me with that, like he'll snatch my
Speaker 1: phone out my hand, like yo, what the fuck are
Speaker 1: you doing?
Speaker 2: Like why are you looking for validation for your position?
Speaker 2: What it is? Yeah?
Speaker 1: Or just bored nothing against y'all. We appreciate the listenership.
Speaker 1: I'm just saying a lot of times are just at
Speaker 1: their boring job. Yeah, and they know they can't be seen,
Speaker 1: so they're like, all right, cool, Like I'm basically a bot.
Speaker 1: I'm gonna troub her, and but to try to break
Speaker 1: somebody it's crazy. And it's like, I never really thought
Speaker 1: that I would be the person that struggled with this,
Speaker 1: because girl, you know, I don't get a fuck when
Speaker 1: nobody saying like usually like about me.
Speaker 2: But I oh, oh my gosh.
Speaker 1: That frenchy gas is a difference. It's a whole different gas,
Speaker 1: hain't it. I know, listen my dog be smelling like
Speaker 1: a whole fucking crack alley.
Speaker 2: I'd be like, wait a minute, where the fuck did
Speaker 2: you go? What did you eat? What did you digest? Honey? Yeah,
Speaker 2: I know her dog is in here and he stank. Child.
Speaker 1: If I was pregnant, how to throw it? You already
Speaker 1: know I couldn't handle no fucking smells. I could listen when.
Speaker 2: I was pregnant. Yo, I could smell when somebody was
Speaker 2: coming on their period.
Speaker 1: Yeah, Like my nose was like yeah crazy, uh huh,
Speaker 1: Like yeah, I had the cyclops of nose. Why because
Speaker 1: what sense are you losing then you say anything like
Speaker 1: you're saying, all your senses are heightened, like yeah, you
Speaker 1: got another baby growing like a human being growing.
Speaker 2: Inside of you.
Speaker 1: Absolutely, so I'm like, yes, man, like I could smell
Speaker 1: bullshit from miles the way too with these uh with
Speaker 1: a whole bunch of shit going on. That's why I
Speaker 1: was fixing a mess because I'm like, oh, yeah, these
Speaker 1: niggas are cheating on these bitches out here a little bit.
Speaker 1: If you love me, you'll listen to this commercial and
Speaker 1: then we'll be right back. You made me consider or
Speaker 1: made me realize, like when I was younger, or not
Speaker 1: even younger, but I used to be like, man, I
Speaker 1: want guys to be able to get pregnant too, so
Speaker 1: they could.
Speaker 2: Feel how we feel. Yeah, but I don't what's that?
Speaker 2: No word?
Speaker 1: Just because it is a superpower that women have. Yeah,
Speaker 1: and even seeing the challenges after pregnancy is I don't
Speaker 1: even Yeah, hell yeah, I appreciate that. No, for sure,
Speaker 1: it's a it's a thing. It is really a thing.
Speaker 1: And then honestly, I don't even think a man could
Speaker 1: handle this reckless Yeah, it is is different because I
Speaker 1: even think, like when you were saying, thinking about how
Speaker 1: you're eating, and it like yeah, because I'm thinking, like,
Speaker 1: what's the pregnancy it's going. I mean, people breastfeedp but
Speaker 1: I wasn't really taking consideration, like.
Speaker 2: Saying me too.
Speaker 1: I didn't know that it would be like this, this
Speaker 1: this much of a challenge, especially if you've never done
Speaker 1: it before.
Speaker 2: Like I said, I just tried.
Speaker 1: I wasn't able to go through with it at a
Speaker 1: younger age, but yeah, like it. It definitely is a
Speaker 1: whole different lifestyle, you know, And I thank God every
Speaker 1: day that I can pump. It's just sometimes I get
Speaker 1: so discouraged. So just for the moms out there, I
Speaker 1: know that you guys can sympathize with me, and just
Speaker 1: to have a level of level of empathy.
Speaker 2: I know that you don't always feel.
Speaker 1: Like you're doing your best, you don't look your best,
Speaker 1: you know you're behind or you know, because that's how
Speaker 1: I feel, you know. I still have my moments where
Speaker 1: I'm not as confident, and I am one of the
Speaker 1: most confident other fucking people ever. So I'm trying to
Speaker 1: get out of a funk and shake get Sometimes I
Speaker 1: wake up and I.
Speaker 2: Don't feel it at all.
Speaker 1: And then twelve newon a hit and I'd be like,
Speaker 1: oh gosh, and then Chris sees it and he's like,
Speaker 1: all right, come on, let's go take a walk, let's
Speaker 1: go meditate, let's go. And he really tries, he really
Speaker 1: really tries. But like, no matter what, you gotta feel it,
Speaker 1: you know what I'm saying. And so I'm wondering if
Speaker 1: therapy definitely will will help that. I mean, I don't know,
Speaker 1: because I definitely ain't trying to be on no meds
Speaker 1: for it.
Speaker 2: You don't feel like you had push part of him
Speaker 2: when you had your first child. I was so young.
Speaker 2: I wasn't even worse.
Speaker 1: I didn't even really consider what having a baby was like.
Speaker 1: Me and Rome didn't plan ash. We was just young,
Speaker 1: fucking trying to.
Speaker 2: Like make the family.
Speaker 1: Yeah we did, Yeah, but we were so young. I
Speaker 1: was twenty, he was twenty, and Rome was cheating on
Speaker 1: me real crazy. I lived with him, like I like,
Speaker 1: we did a lot of playhouse shit before we were
Speaker 1: even out of the house with our parents and shit.
Speaker 1: So it was a lot of things that me and
Speaker 1: a lot of growing up me and Rome had to do.
Speaker 1: I wouldn't change my history for the world, you know,
Speaker 1: because that's how I got my firstborn, my beautiful baby boy,
Speaker 1: and that's how I got my family. Room is my nigga,
Speaker 1: like my family for real. But no, this has been
Speaker 1: a fucking challenge and it's still challenging. I'm just happy
Speaker 1: that I have my own platform where I can talk
Speaker 1: about it on my own time and I'm actually sitting
Speaker 1: down with somebody that I trust, who's Taylor, and I
Speaker 1: can be heard and not be judged because this is
Speaker 1: a real thing and women go through this shit.
Speaker 2: And now I know how Halle felt. Now I know
Speaker 2: you know what I'm saying.
Speaker 1: I know how fragile a woman can be after giving birth.
Speaker 1: And then I had this little girl, no epidor I
Speaker 1: pushed her out naturally and listen.
Speaker 2: Girl, I ain't even I ain't want to.
Speaker 1: I was like, give me the drugs and Chris was
Speaker 1: like no, her head right there and they was like yes.
Speaker 1: I said what yes, girl, And I was bluffing the
Speaker 1: whole pregnancy because.
Speaker 2: Chris is a holistic person, so the.
Speaker 1: Whole time I was like we were doing it natural.
Speaker 1: Like I was on the radio line and ship to
Speaker 1: myself like yeah, it's just.
Speaker 2: To sound good. I was like, yup, yup.
Speaker 1: He had got the Duela force and everything. And I'm
Speaker 1: sitting there in my mind like, bitch, I'm gonna get
Speaker 1: this needle and sins since the fucking water break, I'm
Speaker 1: getting this needle whole out the whole time we get
Speaker 1: to the fucking I didn't know that I was dilated
Speaker 1: so far apart. I didn't know that I was. I
Speaker 1: didn't know that I was too late, you know. But
Speaker 1: my nurse did hear me say I want to try
Speaker 1: to do the sweat out epidoro, and so she purposely
Speaker 1: waited for it to be too late to give it
Speaker 1: to me.
Speaker 2: And I do thank her for that.
Speaker 1: I ain't gonna lie I do, because I think I
Speaker 1: was just so scared, you know. But it's amazing that
Speaker 1: that showed me what women can do.
Speaker 2: Yo.
Speaker 1: Women are as I said, Yo, we are so powerful
Speaker 1: like God made us. He was like, listen, no weapon,
Speaker 1: no weapon formed, you know, because we can do some
Speaker 1: amazing things. And before we get out of here, I
Speaker 1: just want to let y'all know Marley's dad delivered her
Speaker 1: like he did. He asked our doctor on the last
Speaker 1: visit before we actually went into labor.
Speaker 2: He was like, can I deliver my daughter. The doctor
Speaker 2: looked at him like, yes you can.
Speaker 1: And I was like, well, is he gonna get paid,
Speaker 1: because you can get over fucking money, that fuck girl.
Speaker 2: But the doctor said, shit, I'm gonna get paid anyway.
Speaker 2: Go ahead, Let mer own baby.
Speaker 1: Fuck girl, mean, like he sold, why are you pushing?
Speaker 1: She was just coaching me through it? And he he
Speaker 1: took her place. He got right there and then he
Speaker 1: she gave him some substance on his fingers or something
Speaker 1: like that. It was like a gel and it was warm.
Speaker 1: And because I didn't split, thank god. That was a
Speaker 1: big baby, yeah, split from and I didn't split. And
Speaker 1: by the grace of God, I didn't not split, y'all,
Speaker 1: because I just knew I was you know what I mean.
Speaker 2: Chris was a big ass baby. I was a big baby.
Speaker 2: So I'm like, oh my god, I have a big
Speaker 2: ass child. But I didn't split. And that's that's because
Speaker 2: like he was.
Speaker 1: Going around like the realm of my vagina, like he
Speaker 1: was really really helping me, oh like for real, and
Speaker 1: he caught her, like he helped like guide her out.
Speaker 2: Of my wound.
Speaker 1: Yeah, and it was amazing. The doctor trusted him. I
Speaker 1: trusted him and I just was I was like, I
Speaker 1: just need to get her out. Put that ring of fire.
Speaker 1: If you know, you know that ship is real. When
Speaker 1: you feel the baby's head come out, Oh my god.
Speaker 1: Then the rest after that you can get. If you
Speaker 1: can get through that pain, you can get through anything
Speaker 1: in life. I'm talking.
Speaker 2: You could probably be shot and be like, oh, thank you.
Speaker 2: You know what I'm saying.
Speaker 1: I probably feel better getting shot than the delivery delivering
Speaker 1: another fucking big head. That's so I always tell me
Speaker 1: my vestriend. I was like, you're gonna carry my child
Speaker 1: because that's always that's.
Speaker 2: Dope, y'all. That's so funny. And look, I told she
Speaker 2: because I always wanted more kids.
Speaker 1: I told she, I said, look, if i'll meet the
Speaker 1: love of my life, because I didn't just want to
Speaker 1: have a baby with anybody, but I always wanted more kids.
Speaker 1: If I don't meet to love my life by thirty five,
Speaker 1: me and you're gonna have a baby.
Speaker 2: I said that.
Speaker 1: And everybody know she is the ship and that's my
Speaker 1: best friend of ship.
Speaker 2: Yes she is, gee whatever.
Speaker 1: But I said, because she want kids too, you know,
Speaker 1: I was like, we're just gonna have a baby together.
Speaker 2: And we ain't gonna be together a bitch you have
Speaker 2: a baby.
Speaker 1: But then I was thinking, like, that's gonna be selfish
Speaker 1: because the baby, you know, it's gonna be like I'm
Speaker 1: y'all not even a gather, y'all best friends and y'all
Speaker 1: both my mothers.
Speaker 2: It's the fucking going on. It's about the little But
Speaker 2: I don't love sing like that, like the fuck.
Speaker 1: That's my bitch, oh not my not my bitch, like
Speaker 1: you know, but that's my girl. My friend she already
Speaker 1: had tier has three now, but like her second baby.
Speaker 1: I was like, yeah, so you're going to have my
Speaker 1: child too because I'm just because but you were just
Speaker 1: talking about that part is what I know.
Speaker 2: I can't even it's how even Christmas even.
Speaker 1: It was like deliver her, yeah and look at that
Speaker 1: and look at her come out and just yeah, he
Speaker 1: was down there chat No I know.
Speaker 2: So how to feel after her?
Speaker 1: Do you feel like a relief, like what's the Yeah,
Speaker 1: so after her whole body came out, he got her
Speaker 1: and everything, then you have to deliver the placenta. The
Speaker 1: placenta is like that bag of like everything that you
Speaker 1: know that.
Speaker 2: Like do you feel the cord?
Speaker 1: Like yes, I did, and I was like, everybody wanted
Speaker 1: me to be relieved. Everybody else was relieved too, Like,
Speaker 1: I'm like, no, it's still something in here. Come on,
Speaker 1: hurry up, y'all celebrating the ship. And then after that,
Speaker 1: my little sister over there, she gonna turn on. They
Speaker 1: not like us.
Speaker 2: I'm much.
Speaker 1: I don't want to handle motherfucking Kendrick right now, but
Speaker 1: I'm fucking pussy all wide hanging out sit. You can
Speaker 1: probably see up my ship everything, And I look over
Speaker 1: the nurse got the baby talking about Yep, they not
Speaker 1: like us.
Speaker 2: Girl, Yes, very much.
Speaker 1: Get out of Harber Hospital with Cherry Hill Baltimore sick.
Speaker 1: I said, hold the fuck up, put my fucking daughter
Speaker 1: down the ship. They all singing towards her, busting.
Speaker 2: On a beat.
Speaker 1: Hokey girl, everybody Chris got the gloves happy as ship, like, hey,
Speaker 1: they not like us. I'm I was done a part
Speaker 1: of your birth, Kendrick. Lama was definitely there in spirit
Speaker 1: in the goddamn room.
Speaker 2: Yo.
Speaker 1: But yeah, se y'all, we come to the end of
Speaker 1: another episode of Carefully Reckless with your girl just hilarious.
Speaker 1: I'm about to go run and get my baby. This
Speaker 1: milk and that's thank Tailor for just letting me vent
Speaker 1: to her and be vulnerable enough to share what I'm
Speaker 1: going through. And you know right now because she didn't
Speaker 1: have to listen.
Speaker 2: But she did.
Speaker 1: Y'all. We could have just did a regular just fix
Speaker 1: my Mess today, but I wanted y'all to I wanted
Speaker 1: to be as transparent as possible, and I wanted y'all
Speaker 1: to like come into my world for a second, because
Speaker 1: I go through shit too. Everybody goes through things. Just
Speaker 1: hilarious herself. Yes, everybody goes through things. And I didn't
Speaker 1: anticipate this, but it happened, and I'm getting.
Speaker 2: Better every fucking day.
Speaker 1: I'm still that bitch, yea, and listen to me every
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