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Speaker 1: Welcome to Can't Flee Reckless, the production of iHeart Radio

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Speaker 1: and The Black Effects.

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Speaker 2: Andy.

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Speaker 1: Just like that, we're back on the air. Welcome back,

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Speaker 1: Welcome back, y'all. Y'all haven't heard my voice in a while,

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Speaker 1: and I haven't done a podcast in a while, y'all.

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Speaker 1: Of course, I had a baby. Her name is Marley

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Speaker 1: sky Moore Tolliver. Yes, I hyphenated her name. She has

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Speaker 1: me and her dad's last name. And she was born

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Speaker 1: August twentieth to forty seven in the morning. My baby

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Speaker 1: is a Leo Lord and she is. She was seven

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Speaker 1: pounds and three ounces nineteen inches. My baby was a

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Speaker 1: long baby. My father is like six two sixty three

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Speaker 1: something like that. So I'm gonna have me as taller.

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Speaker 1: She's gonna be dunking on bitches. She backed up be

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Speaker 1: dunking on these bitches, okay, but real, she gonna be

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Speaker 1: a trained Olympian or something. We're gonna get at something

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Speaker 1: where her height is gonna matter. All right, But motherhood

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Speaker 1: has been great to me. It's been very challenging, y'all. Know.

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Speaker 2: I do have a twelve year old Ashton. He has

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Speaker 2: been amazing.

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Speaker 1: He is like a part of the village that is

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Speaker 1: helping us take care of Marley. He's happy to be

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Speaker 1: a big brother again. We know the first baby daddy,

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Speaker 1: little baby father. He got five kids. I think Ronan

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Speaker 1: is got fire up five.

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Speaker 2: Kids, and so he is.

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Speaker 1: Ashton is used to being a big brother, but not

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Speaker 1: used to mommy having a new baby. And I just

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Speaker 1: think he's just ecstatic that he can grow up in

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Speaker 1: the house with the baby this time, you know, because

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Speaker 1: all of his siblings live with their moms and so

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Speaker 1: he don't get to see them every day, don't get

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Speaker 1: to talk to them. But he is around Marley every

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Speaker 1: day all day. He loves her like she loves him.

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Speaker 1: She'd be looking for him. And my baby is now

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Speaker 1: almost three months. She's not three months yet, but she

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Speaker 1: is a breastfed baby, so y'all, she's big and she

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Speaker 1: looks like she's about four months going on five months. Man,

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Speaker 1: I'm trying to figure out when the fuck I can

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Speaker 1: feed her some actual food because she don't look her age.

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Speaker 1: This is crazy, but the journey has been up and down.

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Speaker 2: I'm not gonna lie. I thought I would be like

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Speaker 2: right back to work.

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Speaker 1: I thought after like six weeks I was gonna be

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Speaker 1: like pumping and listen, these are my pumps that y'all hear.

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Speaker 2: I know, y'all, like, what the hell is that noise?

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Speaker 2: If you're driving in.

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Speaker 1: Your car, or you in a gym, or you're doing

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Speaker 1: something sitting at your job working, you're probably trying to

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Speaker 1: find a sound I'm pumping. I am a breast pumping

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Speaker 1: breastfeeding mom. Okay, so duty calls, and whenever it calls,

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Speaker 1: I got to be on the duty. So this is

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Speaker 1: what you get. And it's very challenging. I'm not gonna

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Speaker 1: lie like I said. I thought I would be back

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Speaker 1: at work a month and a half in No I

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Speaker 1: felt crazy six weeks.

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Speaker 2: I know, I felt crazy.

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Speaker 1: Yeah, but you know why because I didn't anticipate breastfeeding

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Speaker 1: being a whole nother full time job. Imagine being somebody's food, yo,

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Speaker 1: Like you can't like I had to alter my diet.

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Speaker 2: I have to, you know, I can't do certain things.

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Speaker 1: I can't be away from her long, like even like

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Speaker 1: right now sitting at iHeart doing my podcast like she

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Speaker 1: on her last bag of milk. I got to run

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Speaker 1: this episode. And that's why I'm pumping, so I can

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Speaker 2: You know what I'm saying.

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Speaker 1: And I have a village, you know, I always say this. Now,

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Speaker 1: I take my hat off, and I worship the ground

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Speaker 1: that the single moms walk on, you know, because I

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Speaker 1: have help. And it's still a big challenge every day.

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Speaker 1: Me and Chris. We have his mom. She's the nanny,

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Speaker 1: so we call her the grand nanny. And she moved

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Speaker 1: We're definitely excited to be parents to her. It's definitely

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Speaker 1: She latched perfectly. She latched well, and she is healthy.

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Speaker 1: She ain't missing no meals. But sometimes I will say,

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Speaker 1: like it's crazy. So tailor here, Taylor here, y'all, tailor here,

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Speaker 1: So how much do you pump? Though? Then? All right,

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Speaker 1: so each session it varies, it's different, y'all, like, because

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Speaker 2: And I tell you, like what to eat.

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Speaker 1: Yeah, so I have lactation cookies. I had to change

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Speaker 1: I think I was eating too much dairy because my

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Speaker 1: baby's gas. She was smelling like a grown ass woman,

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Speaker 2: At uh, four and five weeks.

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Speaker 1: I'm like, oh, hell no, So I like instantly changed

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Speaker 2: I have lactation cookies.

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Speaker 1: I have a lactation specialist who I consult with every

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Speaker 1: just learn in doing this, like you can't take advice

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Speaker 2: And that was me with my first son. He and

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Speaker 1: My son did not latch, so I was just gonna pump,

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Speaker 1: I didn't really understand the benefits of breastfeeding back then though,

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Speaker 1: So I I was young. I was pregnant when I

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Speaker 1: what I'm saying. And I it was it was good

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Speaker 1: at McDonald's. And look at my otfit today. Oh my god, y'all.

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Speaker 1: So listen, I'm sitting up here right. I got dressed

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Speaker 1: this morning, right, And I had I got a white

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Speaker 1: Okay, so hold up, hold up, I know the ship

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Speaker 2: Let's get back to it. Is this about all right?

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Speaker 1: So what's the what's the What we think is the

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Speaker 1: the same jokes and when I overthink a lot. But

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Speaker 1: that I have my own platform where I can talk

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Speaker 1: about it on my own time and I'm actually sitting

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Speaker 1: down with somebody that I trust, who's Taylor, and I

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Speaker 1: can be heard and not be judged because this is

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Speaker 1: a real thing and women go through this shit.

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Speaker 2: And now I know how Halle felt. Now I know

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Speaker 2: you know what I'm saying.

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Speaker 1: I know how fragile a woman can be after giving birth.

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Speaker 1: And then I had this little girl, no epidor I

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Speaker 1: pushed her out naturally and listen.

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Speaker 2: Girl, I ain't even I ain't want to.

447
00:20:55,680 --> 00:20:57,480
Speaker 1: I was like, give me the drugs and Chris was

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Speaker 1: like no, her head right there and they was like yes.

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Speaker 1: I said what yes, girl, And I was bluffing the

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Speaker 1: whole pregnancy because.

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Speaker 2: Chris is a holistic person, so the.

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Speaker 1: Whole time I was like we were doing it natural.

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Speaker 1: Like I was on the radio line and ship to

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Speaker 1: myself like yeah, it's just.

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Speaker 2: To sound good. I was like, yup, yup.

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Speaker 1: He had got the Duela force and everything. And I'm

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Speaker 1: sitting there in my mind like, bitch, I'm gonna get

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Speaker 1: this needle and sins since the fucking water break, I'm

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Speaker 1: getting this needle whole out the whole time we get

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Speaker 1: to the fucking I didn't know that I was dilated

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Speaker 1: so far apart. I didn't know that I was. I

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Speaker 1: didn't know that I was too late, you know. But

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Speaker 1: my nurse did hear me say I want to try

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Speaker 1: to do the sweat out epidoro, and so she purposely

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Speaker 1: waited for it to be too late to give it

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Speaker 1: to me.

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Speaker 2: And I do thank her for that.

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Speaker 1: I ain't gonna lie I do, because I think I

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Speaker 1: was just so scared, you know. But it's amazing that

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Speaker 1: that showed me what women can do.

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Speaker 2: Yo.

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Speaker 1: Women are as I said, Yo, we are so powerful

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Speaker 1: like God made us. He was like, listen, no weapon,

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Speaker 1: no weapon formed, you know, because we can do some

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Speaker 1: amazing things. And before we get out of here, I

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Speaker 1: just want to let y'all know Marley's dad delivered her

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Speaker 1: like he did. He asked our doctor on the last

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Speaker 1: visit before we actually went into labor.

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Speaker 2: He was like, can I deliver my daughter. The doctor

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Speaker 2: looked at him like, yes you can.

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Speaker 1: And I was like, well, is he gonna get paid,

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Speaker 1: because you can get over fucking money, that fuck girl.

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Speaker 2: But the doctor said, shit, I'm gonna get paid anyway.

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Speaker 2: Go ahead, Let mer own baby.

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Speaker 1: Fuck girl, mean, like he sold, why are you pushing?

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Speaker 1: She was just coaching me through it? And he he

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Speaker 1: took her place. He got right there and then he

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Speaker 1: she gave him some substance on his fingers or something

489
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Speaker 1: like that. It was like a gel and it was warm.

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Speaker 1: And because I didn't split, thank god. That was a

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Speaker 1: big baby, yeah, split from and I didn't split. And

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Speaker 1: by the grace of God, I didn't not split, y'all,

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Speaker 1: because I just knew I was you know what I mean.

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Speaker 2: Chris was a big ass baby. I was a big baby.

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Speaker 2: So I'm like, oh my god, I have a big

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Speaker 2: ass child. But I didn't split. And that's that's because

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Speaker 2: like he was.

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Speaker 1: Going around like the realm of my vagina, like he

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Speaker 1: was really really helping me, oh like for real, and

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Speaker 1: he caught her, like he helped like guide her out.

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Speaker 2: Of my wound.

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Speaker 1: Yeah, and it was amazing. The doctor trusted him. I

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Speaker 1: trusted him and I just was I was like, I

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00:23:23,640 --> 00:23:26,480
Speaker 1: just need to get her out. Put that ring of fire.

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Speaker 1: If you know, you know that ship is real. When

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Speaker 1: you feel the baby's head come out, Oh my god.

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Speaker 1: Then the rest after that you can get. If you

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Speaker 1: can get through that pain, you can get through anything

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Speaker 1: in life. I'm talking.

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Speaker 2: You could probably be shot and be like, oh, thank you.

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Speaker 2: You know what I'm saying.

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Speaker 1: I probably feel better getting shot than the delivery delivering

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Speaker 1: another fucking big head. That's so I always tell me

514
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Speaker 1: my vestriend. I was like, you're gonna carry my child

515
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Speaker 1: because that's always that's.

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Speaker 2: Dope, y'all. That's so funny. And look, I told she

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Speaker 2: because I always wanted more kids.

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Speaker 1: I told she, I said, look, if i'll meet the

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Speaker 1: love of my life, because I didn't just want to

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Speaker 1: have a baby with anybody, but I always wanted more kids.

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Speaker 1: If I don't meet to love my life by thirty five,

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Speaker 1: me and you're gonna have a baby.

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Speaker 2: I said that.

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Speaker 1: And everybody know she is the ship and that's my

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Speaker 1: best friend of ship.

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Speaker 2: Yes she is, gee whatever.

527
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Speaker 1: But I said, because she want kids too, you know,

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Speaker 1: I was like, we're just gonna have a baby together.

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Speaker 2: And we ain't gonna be together a bitch you have

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Speaker 2: a baby.

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Speaker 1: But then I was thinking, like, that's gonna be selfish

532
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Speaker 1: because the baby, you know, it's gonna be like I'm

533
00:24:31,160 --> 00:24:33,440
Speaker 1: y'all not even a gather, y'all best friends and y'all

534
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Speaker 1: both my mothers.

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Speaker 2: It's the fucking going on. It's about the little But

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Speaker 2: I don't love sing like that, like the fuck.

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Speaker 1: That's my bitch, oh not my not my bitch, like

538
00:24:43,520 --> 00:24:46,080
Speaker 1: you know, but that's my girl. My friend she already

539
00:24:46,119 --> 00:24:51,800
Speaker 1: had tier has three now, but like her second baby.

540
00:24:51,800 --> 00:24:53,080
Speaker 1: I was like, yeah, so you're going to have my

541
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Speaker 1: child too because I'm just because but you were just

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Speaker 1: talking about that part is what I know.

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Speaker 2: I can't even it's how even Christmas even.

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Speaker 1: It was like deliver her, yeah and look at that

545
00:25:05,359 --> 00:25:07,800
Speaker 1: and look at her come out and just yeah, he

546
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Speaker 1: was down there chat No I know.

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00:25:12,960 --> 00:25:13,959
Speaker 2: So how to feel after her?

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Speaker 1: Do you feel like a relief, like what's the Yeah,

549
00:25:16,760 --> 00:25:19,639
Speaker 1: so after her whole body came out, he got her

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00:25:19,720 --> 00:25:23,239
Speaker 1: and everything, then you have to deliver the placenta. The

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Speaker 1: placenta is like that bag of like everything that you

552
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Speaker 1: know that.

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Speaker 2: Like do you feel the cord?

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Speaker 1: Like yes, I did, and I was like, everybody wanted

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Speaker 1: me to be relieved. Everybody else was relieved too, Like,

556
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Speaker 1: I'm like, no, it's still something in here. Come on,

557
00:25:39,640 --> 00:25:41,959
Speaker 1: hurry up, y'all celebrating the ship. And then after that,

558
00:25:42,000 --> 00:25:44,119
Speaker 1: my little sister over there, she gonna turn on. They

559
00:25:44,240 --> 00:25:44,800
Speaker 1: not like us.

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Speaker 2: I'm much.

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Speaker 1: I don't want to handle motherfucking Kendrick right now, but

562
00:25:49,080 --> 00:25:51,679
Speaker 1: I'm fucking pussy all wide hanging out sit. You can

563
00:25:51,680 --> 00:25:55,040
Speaker 1: probably see up my ship everything, And I look over

564
00:25:55,080 --> 00:25:57,159
Speaker 1: the nurse got the baby talking about Yep, they not

565
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Speaker 1: like us.

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Speaker 2: Girl, Yes, very much.

567
00:26:01,040 --> 00:26:03,800
Speaker 1: Get out of Harber Hospital with Cherry Hill Baltimore sick.

568
00:26:05,080 --> 00:26:07,920
Speaker 1: I said, hold the fuck up, put my fucking daughter

569
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Speaker 1: down the ship. They all singing towards her, busting.

570
00:26:09,960 --> 00:26:10,360
Speaker 2: On a beat.

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Speaker 1: Hokey girl, everybody Chris got the gloves happy as ship, like, hey,

572
00:26:17,160 --> 00:26:21,160
Speaker 1: they not like us. I'm I was done a part

573
00:26:21,160 --> 00:26:24,919
Speaker 1: of your birth, Kendrick. Lama was definitely there in spirit

574
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Speaker 1: in the goddamn room.

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Speaker 2: Yo.

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Speaker 1: But yeah, se y'all, we come to the end of

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Speaker 1: another episode of Carefully Reckless with your girl just hilarious.

578
00:26:31,600 --> 00:26:32,879
Speaker 1: I'm about to go run and get my baby. This

579
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Speaker 1: milk and that's thank Tailor for just letting me vent

580
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Speaker 1: to her and be vulnerable enough to share what I'm

581
00:26:39,560 --> 00:26:42,720
Speaker 1: going through. And you know right now because she didn't

582
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Speaker 1: have to listen.

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Speaker 2: But she did.

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Speaker 1: Y'all. We could have just did a regular just fix

585
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Speaker 1: my Mess today, but I wanted y'all to I wanted

586
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Speaker 1: to be as transparent as possible, and I wanted y'all

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Speaker 1: to like come into my world for a second, because

588
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Speaker 1: I go through shit too. Everybody goes through things. Just

589
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Speaker 1: hilarious herself. Yes, everybody goes through things. And I didn't

590
00:27:01,880 --> 00:27:05,480
Speaker 1: anticipate this, but it happened, and I'm getting.

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Speaker 2: Better every fucking day.

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Speaker 1: I'm still that bitch, yea, and listen to me every

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Speaker 1: day on the Breakfast Club. Also catch me fix a

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Speaker 1: Mess on Thursdays on a Breakfast Club and wherever you

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