1 00:00:00,600 --> 00:00:03,520 Speaker 1: Scrubbing in with Becca Tilly and Tanya rad and I 2 00:00:03,640 --> 00:00:07,640 Speaker 1: Heart Radio and two time People's Choice Award winning podcast. 3 00:00:10,600 --> 00:00:19,040 Speaker 1: Hello everybody, We're scrubbing scrub dubbed dub rub tub tub. 4 00:00:19,520 --> 00:00:22,880 Speaker 1: That's right, that's right. You feel like you had a 5 00:00:23,000 --> 00:00:26,720 Speaker 1: very busy weekend. Okay, you guys, we have to talk 6 00:00:26,760 --> 00:00:30,080 Speaker 1: about the I said pre before, but I'm realizing it's 7 00:00:30,200 --> 00:00:34,800 Speaker 1: post post pandy partying. Tell me more like you're talking 8 00:00:34,800 --> 00:00:38,519 Speaker 1: about get togethers. Yeah, Like, so for a year and 9 00:00:38,560 --> 00:00:41,080 Speaker 1: a half, we've been doing nothing and I had just 10 00:00:41,159 --> 00:00:45,519 Speaker 1: a year. But it's a little aggressive. You know. It's 11 00:00:45,520 --> 00:00:48,120 Speaker 1: been like a week since the one year anniversary, so 12 00:00:48,320 --> 00:00:52,279 Speaker 1: like basically two years now we have been quarantined and 13 00:00:52,360 --> 00:00:54,840 Speaker 1: so we do get togethers and we've seen each other, 14 00:00:54,880 --> 00:00:56,680 Speaker 1: but like we do things in our homes and it's 15 00:00:56,800 --> 00:00:59,360 Speaker 1: very chill and we like, you know, make dinner and 16 00:00:59,440 --> 00:01:07,120 Speaker 1: you know, it's not like invigorating. You know. Well, post Pandy, 17 00:01:07,240 --> 00:01:10,920 Speaker 1: we're gonna get back to like everything's feeling hopeful, like 18 00:01:11,040 --> 00:01:15,720 Speaker 1: things are opening up, restaurants, Um, you can go indoors 19 00:01:15,760 --> 00:01:18,720 Speaker 1: now like or something. And I'm going back to the gym. 20 00:01:18,840 --> 00:01:21,720 Speaker 1: I'm being stimulated by people like at my workout classes, 21 00:01:22,480 --> 00:01:25,440 Speaker 1: and I had a weekend. One of my friends, like 22 00:01:25,720 --> 00:01:28,920 Speaker 1: um Sophia dropped a new song, and so we had 23 00:01:28,959 --> 00:01:33,920 Speaker 1: just some festivities that we part took in over the weekend, 24 00:01:34,560 --> 00:01:40,720 Speaker 1: and I am exhausted, like and I only had two things. 25 00:01:40,800 --> 00:01:44,320 Speaker 1: I did two things. I went out two nights, and 26 00:01:44,440 --> 00:01:47,600 Speaker 1: I am so tired. And I think it's because I'm 27 00:01:47,640 --> 00:01:52,920 Speaker 1: not used to eventful festivities. No more. Did you drink 28 00:01:52,960 --> 00:01:56,040 Speaker 1: a lot? Okay, I think that has something more to 29 00:01:56,080 --> 00:01:58,400 Speaker 1: do than the socializing. Think So, I don't think so 30 00:01:58,480 --> 00:02:00,960 Speaker 1: because I drink a lot in the pandemic, Like I 31 00:02:01,040 --> 00:02:03,520 Speaker 1: drink a lot this past year. But when you're drinking 32 00:02:03,640 --> 00:02:06,680 Speaker 1: and you're socializing, When you're drinking, like you can just 33 00:02:06,720 --> 00:02:08,960 Speaker 1: go to bed, that's one thing, But when you're drinking 34 00:02:09,000 --> 00:02:14,799 Speaker 1: and you're socializing, that's another level of energy that you're 35 00:02:15,800 --> 00:02:18,160 Speaker 1: Everything is so awkward. I like went to this restaurant 36 00:02:18,240 --> 00:02:22,000 Speaker 1: and I saw these um, these two guys that I 37 00:02:22,000 --> 00:02:24,519 Speaker 1: haven't seen in in like a year, right or a 38 00:02:24,600 --> 00:02:28,240 Speaker 1: year and a half, and they were at a table 39 00:02:28,360 --> 00:02:30,760 Speaker 1: that was like maybe three tables away from mine, and 40 00:02:30,840 --> 00:02:33,239 Speaker 1: so I waved with my hands and then I was 41 00:02:33,280 --> 00:02:35,640 Speaker 1: like I would normally, in a normal circumstances, get up 42 00:02:35,680 --> 00:02:38,120 Speaker 1: and go and say hi. But in this post pandemic 43 00:02:38,200 --> 00:02:40,880 Speaker 1: pandy party world, I was like, I feel like I 44 00:02:40,880 --> 00:02:43,880 Speaker 1: should stay here in my quarantine bubble and there and 45 00:02:43,919 --> 00:02:45,680 Speaker 1: there's and I'll just wave and but it was so 46 00:02:45,720 --> 00:02:48,280 Speaker 1: awkward because it's like so anti like how I normally 47 00:02:48,320 --> 00:02:50,519 Speaker 1: would act. You know, was it Harry Styles it was 48 00:02:52,440 --> 00:02:54,880 Speaker 1: I'm just gonna ask anytime she sees someone else, a 49 00:02:54,919 --> 00:02:58,360 Speaker 1: guy that she knows, I'm just gonnas Harry. It's just 50 00:02:58,440 --> 00:03:02,400 Speaker 1: so it's so funny and I'm just so like it's Monday, 51 00:03:02,560 --> 00:03:06,760 Speaker 1: and I'm I'm tired, I guess. I mean because in 52 00:03:06,800 --> 00:03:10,040 Speaker 1: my quarantine bubble, my sisters have been there and they're young, 53 00:03:10,240 --> 00:03:13,440 Speaker 1: so when I hang out with keep me young and fresh. 54 00:03:13,480 --> 00:03:16,800 Speaker 1: So I feel like, may I think where I'm really 55 00:03:16,800 --> 00:03:18,840 Speaker 1: going to feel it is going to like an event 56 00:03:19,200 --> 00:03:21,600 Speaker 1: where I'm like almost having to do small talk with 57 00:03:21,639 --> 00:03:25,639 Speaker 1: people because I'm fine with people that are close to me, 58 00:03:25,880 --> 00:03:28,399 Speaker 1: Like I'm fine doing all that, And like, I think 59 00:03:28,440 --> 00:03:31,880 Speaker 1: that's where it was because this was one of my girlfriends, Raquelle, 60 00:03:32,000 --> 00:03:33,600 Speaker 1: was her birthday, and it was a small I mean, 61 00:03:33,600 --> 00:03:35,360 Speaker 1: not people that have been exposed to already, you know 62 00:03:35,360 --> 00:03:37,040 Speaker 1: what I mean, So like my very close friends. But 63 00:03:37,360 --> 00:03:41,520 Speaker 1: we karaokeed and like it was almost like a something 64 00:03:41,560 --> 00:03:44,720 Speaker 1: that I haven't done in a really long time, you 65 00:03:44,760 --> 00:03:47,160 Speaker 1: know what I mean. So like my feet her like 66 00:03:47,320 --> 00:03:50,680 Speaker 1: my my My voice was gone. I'm like, what is 67 00:03:50,840 --> 00:03:53,520 Speaker 1: happening to me? Is this thirties? I was gonna say, 68 00:03:53,640 --> 00:03:56,120 Speaker 1: you might be blaming it on the wrong thing, Tanya, 69 00:03:56,960 --> 00:04:00,960 Speaker 1: blaming it on the pandy when it's just really getting older. 70 00:04:02,080 --> 00:04:04,480 Speaker 1: Is that what you start to her? Yeah, the feet 71 00:04:04,520 --> 00:04:08,280 Speaker 1: were hurting, the back was hurting, the voice was gone. 72 00:04:08,640 --> 00:04:11,720 Speaker 1: I feel like I've been hit by a train. Isn't 73 00:04:11,720 --> 00:04:13,760 Speaker 1: it fun? Though? Like, isn't it kind of fun to 74 00:04:13,760 --> 00:04:17,119 Speaker 1: I'm not feeling again? No, no, no, no, the part 75 00:04:17,160 --> 00:04:19,960 Speaker 1: of the fun part is fun and I don't regret 76 00:04:20,000 --> 00:04:23,040 Speaker 1: it aft after effects, I don't know. I'm getting to 77 00:04:23,080 --> 00:04:26,640 Speaker 1: the point where I'm like, there's one out weigh the other. 78 00:04:26,760 --> 00:04:33,320 Speaker 1: I'm unsure. Interesting too? What did you karaoke? Say? My 79 00:04:33,400 --> 00:04:37,360 Speaker 1: name same dame? No one is around? You say baby, 80 00:04:37,440 --> 00:04:42,000 Speaker 1: I love you? If you rounning game? I It took 81 00:04:42,040 --> 00:04:44,120 Speaker 1: me a few seconds into the song to know what 82 00:04:44,200 --> 00:04:53,080 Speaker 1: song it was, because it was we have someone coming 83 00:04:53,120 --> 00:04:55,760 Speaker 1: on today that I think it's going to be really fun, 84 00:04:55,760 --> 00:04:57,880 Speaker 1: and I think we're going to talk to her for 85 00:04:57,920 --> 00:05:01,800 Speaker 1: a while. Came back at you can say we interviewed 86 00:05:01,800 --> 00:05:05,800 Speaker 1: her last week. Mecca is trying to pay live much. 87 00:05:05,880 --> 00:05:10,000 Speaker 1: I appreciate doing sometimes we don't, but we never before. 88 00:05:10,040 --> 00:05:12,120 Speaker 1: So I just I just was trying to make it 89 00:05:12,160 --> 00:05:14,880 Speaker 1: seem like it was happy. I feel as though we're 90 00:05:14,880 --> 00:05:18,800 Speaker 1: going to have a really long conversation, a long conversation, 91 00:05:19,040 --> 00:05:21,400 Speaker 1: so I think we should get into it. So we 92 00:05:21,440 --> 00:05:23,560 Speaker 1: spoke to her last week and it's it is a 93 00:05:23,600 --> 00:05:27,880 Speaker 1: long conversation, but it's it's very great conversation. And because 94 00:05:27,960 --> 00:05:30,480 Speaker 1: it felt like sometimes people just come on and we 95 00:05:30,560 --> 00:05:33,480 Speaker 1: just feel like we're having girl chat with that person. 96 00:05:33,520 --> 00:05:36,480 Speaker 1: It's not even interview. Be honest, I don't even remember 97 00:05:36,480 --> 00:05:39,120 Speaker 1: what she was promoting. Like normally, like if we have 98 00:05:39,160 --> 00:05:40,719 Speaker 1: a guest on, it's like, you know, they come on 99 00:05:40,760 --> 00:05:42,520 Speaker 1: to promote something, and you know, they promote their thing 100 00:05:42,560 --> 00:05:44,679 Speaker 1: and then we're like, okay, bye. I don't even remember 101 00:05:44,680 --> 00:05:47,240 Speaker 1: what she was promoting. I do, but we just had 102 00:05:47,279 --> 00:05:50,240 Speaker 1: a great conversation. Yeah, she is really really great, So 103 00:05:50,279 --> 00:05:52,479 Speaker 1: it's super fun. We talked for a long time, to 104 00:05:52,520 --> 00:05:54,960 Speaker 1: the point where finally I think her child needed her, 105 00:05:55,600 --> 00:05:57,920 Speaker 1: so we were like, we'll have to let you go. Um. 106 00:05:58,120 --> 00:06:02,000 Speaker 1: So we did this last week and here it is 107 00:06:02,120 --> 00:06:20,279 Speaker 1: for you to listen to today. All right, everybody, So 108 00:06:20,520 --> 00:06:22,880 Speaker 1: we have a very fun guest today. We have Whitney 109 00:06:22,920 --> 00:06:29,320 Speaker 1: pork scrubbing in o R. So welcome her. We We're 110 00:06:29,400 --> 00:06:32,760 Speaker 1: so excited to chat with you. I feel like, I mean, 111 00:06:33,000 --> 00:06:37,640 Speaker 1: there's been this feeling that you've been our TV best 112 00:06:37,680 --> 00:06:41,960 Speaker 1: friend for however many years it's been that The Hills 113 00:06:42,120 --> 00:06:47,159 Speaker 1: originally aired. I mean I started doing The Hills in 114 00:06:48,360 --> 00:06:52,640 Speaker 1: when I was a junior in college, so I was 115 00:06:53,040 --> 00:06:59,200 Speaker 1: like twenty years old and now thirty six sold. Isn't 116 00:06:59,240 --> 00:07:03,720 Speaker 1: that so crazy? It's so weird. I was. Yeah, I 117 00:07:03,760 --> 00:07:08,279 Speaker 1: was just like a regular student at USC and I 118 00:07:08,320 --> 00:07:10,920 Speaker 1: got this internship at teen Vogue, and then all of 119 00:07:10,960 --> 00:07:14,400 Speaker 1: a sudden they were filming a TV show there. I mean, 120 00:07:14,600 --> 00:07:17,960 Speaker 1: it's funny because every time we reference college age, Tan, 121 00:07:18,040 --> 00:07:20,440 Speaker 1: you will be like, yeah, I mean, I was throwing 122 00:07:20,480 --> 00:07:23,040 Speaker 1: up talcob eleman eating it the next day for breakfast, 123 00:07:23,120 --> 00:07:25,840 Speaker 1: and when I think about you, like watching you on 124 00:07:25,880 --> 00:07:28,960 Speaker 1: the Hills, I was like thinking about you being in 125 00:07:29,120 --> 00:07:31,880 Speaker 1: college and twenty years old, doesn't even seem like it 126 00:07:31,920 --> 00:07:35,840 Speaker 1: was possible because you were so sure, Yeah I'm put together. 127 00:07:36,960 --> 00:07:41,440 Speaker 1: I don't. I'm honestly surprised because I was not put 128 00:07:41,480 --> 00:07:44,600 Speaker 1: together and in my real life, like, nor do I 129 00:07:44,600 --> 00:07:46,680 Speaker 1: feel like I am now, Like I feel like I 130 00:07:46,760 --> 00:07:50,200 Speaker 1: do a really good job of putting myself together, but 131 00:07:50,280 --> 00:07:53,240 Speaker 1: I'm not always like I'm in here and makeup right 132 00:07:53,240 --> 00:07:54,880 Speaker 1: now and in a jacket because I've been doing a 133 00:07:54,960 --> 00:07:58,400 Speaker 1: day of press. But like on a normal day, if 134 00:07:58,440 --> 00:08:01,360 Speaker 1: you guys were to ever google me, like look up whatever, 135 00:08:01,600 --> 00:08:05,880 Speaker 1: like out and about I am never put together ever, 136 00:08:06,320 --> 00:08:09,920 Speaker 1: like I would actually be. So I would be so 137 00:08:09,960 --> 00:08:13,120 Speaker 1: scared if there was footage of me at twenty one 138 00:08:13,400 --> 00:08:16,280 Speaker 1: in college, like when Becca says I would literally order 139 00:08:16,640 --> 00:08:18,320 Speaker 1: I'd like get home from the bars and I would 140 00:08:18,320 --> 00:08:20,760 Speaker 1: get taco bell and eat it and I leave it 141 00:08:20,840 --> 00:08:22,679 Speaker 1: all on the counter and then I go to sleep, 142 00:08:22,720 --> 00:08:24,040 Speaker 1: and then I wake up the next morning like seven, 143 00:08:24,160 --> 00:08:26,280 Speaker 1: I haven't eat the leftovers, even if I like threw 144 00:08:26,320 --> 00:08:28,400 Speaker 1: some in the trash, like I pull it out the trash, 145 00:08:29,120 --> 00:08:31,200 Speaker 1: I thought she more meant like you would eat a 146 00:08:31,240 --> 00:08:34,240 Speaker 1: taco bell for like late night and then you would 147 00:08:34,360 --> 00:08:35,920 Speaker 1: order it again the next day. I don't know you 148 00:08:35,920 --> 00:08:40,120 Speaker 1: were eating your leftover is that potentially were thrown in 149 00:08:40,160 --> 00:08:42,320 Speaker 1: the garbage. And then I was like, oh, I didn't 150 00:08:42,520 --> 00:08:45,280 Speaker 1: so desperate, But you know that feeling when you're so 151 00:08:45,360 --> 00:08:48,839 Speaker 1: hungover you literally need to put any like you just 152 00:08:49,000 --> 00:08:52,120 Speaker 1: need something in your body, doesn't matter what it is. 153 00:08:52,320 --> 00:08:55,920 Speaker 1: You feel like a girl broke. Yeah, hungover, b like 154 00:08:55,960 --> 00:08:59,880 Speaker 1: I throw away that whole burrito last night. I look 155 00:09:00,040 --> 00:09:03,319 Speaker 1: with me, I until just now her telling that story. 156 00:09:03,360 --> 00:09:05,120 Speaker 1: I actually was on the same page as you. I 157 00:09:05,160 --> 00:09:08,320 Speaker 1: thought she ordered it for dinner and then was like, 158 00:09:08,480 --> 00:09:10,720 Speaker 1: I could have got again today in ordered. I didn't 159 00:09:10,760 --> 00:09:13,079 Speaker 1: know you were digging out the trash. Yeah no, I 160 00:09:13,120 --> 00:09:15,880 Speaker 1: didn't know. She I didn't know. You didn't know she 161 00:09:15,960 --> 00:09:21,560 Speaker 1: was doing Taco Bell leftovers. Like that's so cross. I 162 00:09:21,600 --> 00:09:24,200 Speaker 1: don't even like. I mean, I've never my sisters of 163 00:09:24,480 --> 00:09:28,000 Speaker 1: like loves loves Taco Bell, loves off past foods. I'm 164 00:09:28,040 --> 00:09:30,120 Speaker 1: more I like in and out. But I was never. 165 00:09:30,840 --> 00:09:37,120 Speaker 1: I was never really I drank a lot in college. 166 00:09:38,080 --> 00:09:41,640 Speaker 1: I wasn't. I started. So I went to University of 167 00:09:41,720 --> 00:09:45,160 Speaker 1: Colorado in Boulder for my first year and a half 168 00:09:45,320 --> 00:09:47,480 Speaker 1: and I was in a sorority there, and then I 169 00:09:47,520 --> 00:09:51,240 Speaker 1: transferred to USC, and I like tried the sorority thing 170 00:09:51,240 --> 00:09:54,240 Speaker 1: at USC, and it was so intense and I was 171 00:09:54,280 --> 00:09:56,680 Speaker 1: like I cannot do which one. I was like, which 172 00:09:56,720 --> 00:10:00,280 Speaker 1: one was it? It was sad that I thought, I'm 173 00:10:00,320 --> 00:10:05,480 Speaker 1: a theata, but this is like her moment she might 174 00:10:05,520 --> 00:10:07,160 Speaker 1: sing the song to you. I don't know what she's 175 00:10:07,160 --> 00:10:09,640 Speaker 1: gonna do. I don't even know it, but if you did, 176 00:10:09,880 --> 00:10:11,920 Speaker 1: I would actually I really want to hear it. So 177 00:10:12,000 --> 00:10:15,240 Speaker 1: I so the USC theatas were just like the u 178 00:10:15,360 --> 00:10:18,319 Speaker 1: of a. Theata is like superintend the door songs, jumping 179 00:10:18,400 --> 00:10:24,080 Speaker 1: up and down the pyramid, yes, yes, die god, that 180 00:10:24,160 --> 00:10:28,160 Speaker 1: was doing. That was my thriving time. Like I love 181 00:10:28,240 --> 00:10:30,840 Speaker 1: the pyramid. I would just beg to be like anywhere 182 00:10:30,840 --> 00:10:35,680 Speaker 1: in the middle and the pyramids. I was the base. 183 00:10:36,240 --> 00:10:38,840 Speaker 1: I think I was on the base because I was tall. 184 00:10:39,520 --> 00:10:42,800 Speaker 1: So I'd come home from like practicing for rush like 185 00:10:42,960 --> 00:10:46,480 Speaker 1: so sore, and like after three weeks of doing that, 186 00:10:46,800 --> 00:10:49,360 Speaker 1: I was like, what am I doing? I'm not this 187 00:10:49,440 --> 00:10:53,640 Speaker 1: is not happening for me because I like that. I 188 00:10:53,679 --> 00:10:57,360 Speaker 1: love recruitment. I loved everything about recruitment. Oh and the USC, 189 00:10:57,480 --> 00:10:59,280 Speaker 1: THEATA is. We got like a lot of our inspiration 190 00:10:59,320 --> 00:11:02,320 Speaker 1: from them. Really, like I remembered that, yeah, that you 191 00:11:02,360 --> 00:11:03,760 Speaker 1: were because I'm just a little bit younger than you. 192 00:11:03,800 --> 00:11:05,080 Speaker 1: I think I'm like a year younger than you, but 193 00:11:05,120 --> 00:11:06,679 Speaker 1: I think I remember them saying that you were a 194 00:11:06,800 --> 00:11:08,560 Speaker 1: data at USC. And then it just all clicked and 195 00:11:08,600 --> 00:11:12,040 Speaker 1: I just got really excited. Yeah, sometimes people reach out 196 00:11:12,040 --> 00:11:15,640 Speaker 1: to me and be like we like, you're um, Like 197 00:11:18,080 --> 00:11:20,280 Speaker 1: I just want to connect on that level, and it's 198 00:11:20,320 --> 00:11:23,800 Speaker 1: so hard for me. But I had the same experience. 199 00:11:23,840 --> 00:11:28,000 Speaker 1: I was an astority for one year and I ended 200 00:11:28,080 --> 00:11:31,839 Speaker 1: up what is it called, like, I didn't drive, I 201 00:11:32,240 --> 00:11:34,679 Speaker 1: did I went a lum or whatever. Instead of writing 202 00:11:34,679 --> 00:11:36,439 Speaker 1: a letter to drop. I was like, oh, it's fine, 203 00:11:36,480 --> 00:11:38,960 Speaker 1: I'll just go on. But I don't remember any of 204 00:11:39,000 --> 00:11:41,040 Speaker 1: like the secrets or anything. And so when people tell 205 00:11:41,080 --> 00:11:43,480 Speaker 1: me that we're sisters and like I want to do 206 00:11:43,559 --> 00:11:45,719 Speaker 1: like a handshake or something, I have no idea. I'm 207 00:11:45,760 --> 00:11:48,000 Speaker 1: just like, yeah, one heart, one way, that's all I have. 208 00:11:51,640 --> 00:11:58,560 Speaker 1: Whitney is a guy. I mean we got your like, 209 00:11:58,600 --> 00:12:00,800 Speaker 1: we got an email with everything that's going on in 210 00:12:00,800 --> 00:12:02,240 Speaker 1: your life and what you've been up to, and it 211 00:12:02,320 --> 00:12:06,679 Speaker 1: is filled with things happening in your life, So like, yeah, 212 00:12:06,720 --> 00:12:08,920 Speaker 1: what are your like focuses right now? What are you 213 00:12:08,920 --> 00:12:11,360 Speaker 1: working on? What are you excited about? So I'm actually 214 00:12:11,360 --> 00:12:13,480 Speaker 1: this is my second year in a row working with 215 00:12:13,559 --> 00:12:16,800 Speaker 1: Chloe Wine and Dress for Success, and basically we're working 216 00:12:16,800 --> 00:12:20,200 Speaker 1: on this campaign called Your Our Her Power, where I'm 217 00:12:20,240 --> 00:12:24,640 Speaker 1: helping give like virtual styling sessions and tips and tricks 218 00:12:24,679 --> 00:12:27,160 Speaker 1: for women that are going out into the workplace, whether 219 00:12:27,200 --> 00:12:29,800 Speaker 1: it's the first time or first time back into the 220 00:12:29,800 --> 00:12:32,800 Speaker 1: workplace in a long time. Because there are obviously so 221 00:12:32,840 --> 00:12:35,959 Speaker 1: many women out there who have interviews but don't necessarily 222 00:12:36,000 --> 00:12:38,679 Speaker 1: feel prepared, whether it's in what they wear or what 223 00:12:38,720 --> 00:12:42,200 Speaker 1: they need to say. So I'm helping them with that 224 00:12:42,280 --> 00:12:47,280 Speaker 1: whole program. And then everything else, like I'm launching a 225 00:12:47,320 --> 00:12:50,200 Speaker 1: loungeware collection at the end of April called Cozy Code, 226 00:12:50,200 --> 00:12:53,720 Speaker 1: which you guys will have to wear and represent for me. 227 00:12:54,200 --> 00:12:57,280 Speaker 1: You guys will love it. It's all like really buttery 228 00:12:57,400 --> 00:13:02,640 Speaker 1: soft like sets and cute graphic teas and all organic. Um. 229 00:13:02,880 --> 00:13:05,520 Speaker 1: And then I have my podcast to which again you 230 00:13:05,559 --> 00:13:09,040 Speaker 1: guys will have to come on my podcast. UM. This 231 00:13:09,080 --> 00:13:14,480 Speaker 1: week I did an episode actually talking about how being 232 00:13:14,600 --> 00:13:18,600 Speaker 1: in my early twenties being on TV how everything kind 233 00:13:18,600 --> 00:13:21,760 Speaker 1: of was happening for me and to me and being 234 00:13:21,800 --> 00:13:24,760 Speaker 1: produced by a team of people, and so it didn't 235 00:13:24,840 --> 00:13:27,960 Speaker 1: really I didn't really feel like I had a normal 236 00:13:28,480 --> 00:13:32,480 Speaker 1: twenty to thirty year old experience where I was like 237 00:13:32,480 --> 00:13:35,200 Speaker 1: like hustling and working so hard to get to a 238 00:13:35,200 --> 00:13:37,640 Speaker 1: certain place because I was in college still when I 239 00:13:37,720 --> 00:13:40,360 Speaker 1: started being on the show. So I feel like now 240 00:13:40,400 --> 00:13:42,720 Speaker 1: I'm in my thirties, and I'm at the place where 241 00:13:42,720 --> 00:13:47,000 Speaker 1: people are are at after their twenties, you know, I mean, sorry, 242 00:13:47,040 --> 00:13:49,520 Speaker 1: not after the twenties, after college, where you're like trying 243 00:13:49,559 --> 00:13:53,360 Speaker 1: to figure out what you're meant to be doing. So 244 00:13:53,720 --> 00:13:57,119 Speaker 1: um so yeah, my podcast is like some personal episodes 245 00:13:57,200 --> 00:14:01,400 Speaker 1: like just me spiraling and ranting and talking nonsense, and 246 00:14:01,440 --> 00:14:03,720 Speaker 1: then some is just like talking to people like you 247 00:14:03,800 --> 00:14:09,040 Speaker 1: and sharing their experiences and knowledge. Um and then what 248 00:14:09,160 --> 00:14:11,400 Speaker 1: else to me? And I have been reacting to Old 249 00:14:11,440 --> 00:14:15,120 Speaker 1: the City and Hills videos on our YouTube, which has 250 00:14:15,160 --> 00:14:20,120 Speaker 1: been super fun. And how many you married? For five years? Yeah? 251 00:14:20,200 --> 00:14:24,080 Speaker 1: We were yeah five years in November together for how 252 00:14:24,120 --> 00:14:29,720 Speaker 1: long together for? It's been nine years. So we were 253 00:14:29,880 --> 00:14:33,680 Speaker 1: dating for two years and then we got engaged and 254 00:14:33,720 --> 00:14:36,400 Speaker 1: then it took me two years to figure out what 255 00:14:36,480 --> 00:14:40,720 Speaker 1: kind of wedding I wanted and then yeah, we got 256 00:14:40,720 --> 00:14:44,680 Speaker 1: married two years after our engagement. Wait, so nine years? 257 00:14:44,800 --> 00:14:49,120 Speaker 1: So was that how soon after The Hills and all 258 00:14:49,160 --> 00:14:53,280 Speaker 1: of that part of your life? Yeah? So I I 259 00:14:53,360 --> 00:14:55,560 Speaker 1: did that. I know, it's all sort of confusing. Like 260 00:14:55,640 --> 00:15:00,200 Speaker 1: I did The Hills from like twenty to twenty year 261 00:15:00,240 --> 00:15:02,880 Speaker 1: twenty four, like three or four years, and then I 262 00:15:02,920 --> 00:15:07,000 Speaker 1: did like two to three years in New York, um 263 00:15:07,040 --> 00:15:09,040 Speaker 1: where we did the spin off show The City, and 264 00:15:09,120 --> 00:15:12,280 Speaker 1: that's where I met Timmy. Yeah, oh, when you were 265 00:15:12,320 --> 00:15:16,280 Speaker 1: filming The City. Yeah, yeah, so he I originally met 266 00:15:16,400 --> 00:15:20,240 Speaker 1: him through um Ben Mayan. So I was like sort 267 00:15:20,280 --> 00:15:22,360 Speaker 1: of dating, like sort of interested in. I don't know 268 00:15:22,360 --> 00:15:26,240 Speaker 1: if you guys have ever been him? Yeah, yeah, used 269 00:15:27,040 --> 00:15:30,000 Speaker 1: he used to be a host. Yeah so why name? 270 00:15:30,520 --> 00:15:33,080 Speaker 1: Yeah so he used to be a host on the 271 00:15:33,160 --> 00:15:37,280 Speaker 1: Daily Tent that like show. Yeah. So I thought he 272 00:15:37,320 --> 00:15:39,640 Speaker 1: was so cute and like I dated him for a 273 00:15:39,640 --> 00:15:43,160 Speaker 1: little and I was in New York for his birthday 274 00:15:43,360 --> 00:15:47,280 Speaker 1: and uh, Timmy came to dinner because they're best friends 275 00:15:47,280 --> 00:15:49,560 Speaker 1: and they grew up together, and I was like, who 276 00:15:49,680 --> 00:15:52,520 Speaker 1: is that guy, Like I like this guy, don't want 277 00:15:52,560 --> 00:15:55,760 Speaker 1: to be with that guy. And then Timmy ended up 278 00:15:55,840 --> 00:16:00,200 Speaker 1: like through Ben getting uh like through this connection think 279 00:16:00,440 --> 00:16:02,280 Speaker 1: a job. I know, it's sort of confusing getting a 280 00:16:02,360 --> 00:16:04,920 Speaker 1: job on the show as the location scouts, so he 281 00:16:04,960 --> 00:16:08,520 Speaker 1: would basically find all of the restaurants and clubs and 282 00:16:08,560 --> 00:16:11,440 Speaker 1: places that we would film that in New York. Um, 283 00:16:11,760 --> 00:16:14,560 Speaker 1: and then we didn't start dating until after the show, 284 00:16:14,680 --> 00:16:17,320 Speaker 1: but we like were totally in lovel I was filming 285 00:16:17,400 --> 00:16:22,240 Speaker 1: the show so cute and he's like he's just like 286 00:16:22,440 --> 00:16:26,240 Speaker 1: a normal dude, right, like normal dude, normal job. Yeah, 287 00:16:26,280 --> 00:16:29,040 Speaker 1: Like he he grew up in New York, went to 288 00:16:29,120 --> 00:16:33,640 Speaker 1: like an all boys private school in New York, moved here, um, 289 00:16:33,800 --> 00:16:36,760 Speaker 1: just basically to be with me, and is in like development, 290 00:16:36,920 --> 00:16:39,680 Speaker 1: like not, I mean he's he's now he's like a 291 00:16:39,720 --> 00:16:42,640 Speaker 1: personality on YouTube because we do this YouTube show together. 292 00:16:42,720 --> 00:16:44,480 Speaker 1: But other than that, like he doesn't want to do 293 00:16:44,600 --> 00:16:47,000 Speaker 1: really anything else. Was it hard for him to kind 294 00:16:47,000 --> 00:16:49,120 Speaker 1: of come to turn like not come to terms, but 295 00:16:49,400 --> 00:16:52,840 Speaker 1: kind of um, adapt to you being a public figure. 296 00:16:55,200 --> 00:16:58,520 Speaker 1: It wasn't just because he met me as one, Like 297 00:16:58,640 --> 00:17:02,920 Speaker 1: he really understood the behind the scenes of what it's 298 00:17:03,000 --> 00:17:05,520 Speaker 1: like what it was like to be me because he 299 00:17:05,640 --> 00:17:08,440 Speaker 1: was on the crew. You know, it's like you back, 300 00:17:08,480 --> 00:17:11,159 Speaker 1: I'm sure like producers on the show really understood what 301 00:17:11,200 --> 00:17:13,080 Speaker 1: you were going through and you could get really close 302 00:17:13,119 --> 00:17:17,560 Speaker 1: with them because they really knew all not only just 303 00:17:17,640 --> 00:17:19,560 Speaker 1: was what was happening on the show, but all of 304 00:17:19,600 --> 00:17:21,960 Speaker 1: your thoughts and your whole life off the show. So 305 00:17:22,480 --> 00:17:27,480 Speaker 1: he adapted to it and never was always like cool 306 00:17:27,480 --> 00:17:29,320 Speaker 1: with it. And I'm like, not that I'm not like 307 00:17:29,359 --> 00:17:32,160 Speaker 1: a big celebrity enough for him to really like view 308 00:17:32,240 --> 00:17:34,359 Speaker 1: me differently, you know, like I was just on a 309 00:17:34,400 --> 00:17:38,680 Speaker 1: reality show. Yeah. I have like really appreciated following you 310 00:17:38,760 --> 00:17:43,760 Speaker 1: on Instagram because you're so open and vulnerable about things 311 00:17:43,760 --> 00:17:47,120 Speaker 1: that a lot of people aren't, you know, like are 312 00:17:47,200 --> 00:17:49,040 Speaker 1: scared to be. And I think a lot of people 313 00:17:49,720 --> 00:17:53,640 Speaker 1: find um not only relatability in that, but also comfort 314 00:17:53,680 --> 00:17:56,639 Speaker 1: and knowing that other people are going through it, and 315 00:17:56,760 --> 00:17:59,080 Speaker 1: especially having someone who maybe they've looked up to a 316 00:17:59,200 --> 00:18:02,040 Speaker 1: respect from the show and what you've what they've seen 317 00:18:02,040 --> 00:18:03,920 Speaker 1: on TV. But then to have you come on this 318 00:18:04,320 --> 00:18:07,760 Speaker 1: platform that can get so intimate with the people who 319 00:18:07,800 --> 00:18:10,199 Speaker 1: follow you, and you've opened up about a lot of 320 00:18:10,240 --> 00:18:12,760 Speaker 1: things that you've been through like for a while. Now, 321 00:18:13,119 --> 00:18:16,840 Speaker 1: do you have any moments where like maybe the first 322 00:18:16,920 --> 00:18:20,080 Speaker 1: thing that was really personal and vulnerable that you opened 323 00:18:20,160 --> 00:18:23,400 Speaker 1: up about. Was it that feeling of like anxiety after 324 00:18:23,440 --> 00:18:27,000 Speaker 1: you hit pos, Like, oh my god, yes, yes, I 325 00:18:27,040 --> 00:18:30,359 Speaker 1: mean so it's weird because when I was on TV, 326 00:18:30,680 --> 00:18:32,400 Speaker 1: like when I was on the Hills, they didn't really 327 00:18:32,400 --> 00:18:35,280 Speaker 1: show much of my personal life. And then when I 328 00:18:35,320 --> 00:18:38,040 Speaker 1: was on the City, it was the first season I 329 00:18:38,080 --> 00:18:40,440 Speaker 1: was really dating this guy. They showed my personal life, 330 00:18:40,440 --> 00:18:43,000 Speaker 1: but it wasn't really like my real personal life. So 331 00:18:43,560 --> 00:18:47,080 Speaker 1: then when I had to figure when social media came about, 332 00:18:47,240 --> 00:18:50,679 Speaker 1: I was like, like, what's my voice going to be? Like? 333 00:18:50,720 --> 00:18:53,719 Speaker 1: Who am I? And TV is really who helped me 334 00:18:53,960 --> 00:18:57,560 Speaker 1: figure it out because he is in development and a producer. 335 00:18:57,680 --> 00:19:01,240 Speaker 1: So I basically when I got pregnant and I I 336 00:19:01,440 --> 00:19:04,040 Speaker 1: was just not happy about it, Like I was not 337 00:19:04,040 --> 00:19:05,800 Speaker 1: not that I was. I was. I was ready to 338 00:19:05,800 --> 00:19:07,800 Speaker 1: get pregnant, like we were trying to get pregnant, but 339 00:19:07,840 --> 00:19:10,120 Speaker 1: I just I wasn't like as excited as I thought 340 00:19:10,160 --> 00:19:12,639 Speaker 1: I was going to be. I was very scared. I 341 00:19:12,680 --> 00:19:15,240 Speaker 1: didn't want my body to change. I was super nauseous. 342 00:19:15,320 --> 00:19:18,480 Speaker 1: I was just like a mess. And Timmy was like, 343 00:19:18,720 --> 00:19:21,080 Speaker 1: you should if you're feeling like this, like you should 344 00:19:21,080 --> 00:19:23,159 Speaker 1: talk about this because I feel like there are probably 345 00:19:23,200 --> 00:19:25,800 Speaker 1: so many other pregnant women that feel the same way 346 00:19:25,840 --> 00:19:28,479 Speaker 1: but maybe too afraid to talk about it. And I 347 00:19:28,560 --> 00:19:30,720 Speaker 1: was like, oh, I'm gonna look like such a monster, 348 00:19:30,960 --> 00:19:33,600 Speaker 1: like so many women can't even get pregnant. Here I 349 00:19:33,600 --> 00:19:37,639 Speaker 1: am pregnant with a healthy pregnancy, complaining about being pregnant. 350 00:19:38,280 --> 00:19:41,359 Speaker 1: And he was like, let's just try it, Like let's so, 351 00:19:41,359 --> 00:19:43,720 Speaker 1: so he set up the camera at like the foot 352 00:19:43,720 --> 00:19:47,280 Speaker 1: of our bed and just filmed me talking about all 353 00:19:47,320 --> 00:19:51,520 Speaker 1: my true feelings about pregnancy, and we we. I was 354 00:19:51,640 --> 00:19:53,720 Speaker 1: so scared to put it up. I was like, this 355 00:19:53,800 --> 00:19:56,280 Speaker 1: is like people are going to judge me so hard. 356 00:19:56,320 --> 00:20:00,840 Speaker 1: And actually, as you guys probably have realized, like the 357 00:20:00,920 --> 00:20:04,200 Speaker 1: more vulnerable and real you are, I think the more 358 00:20:04,240 --> 00:20:08,840 Speaker 1: people actually do find themselves in you, because like we're human, 359 00:20:09,600 --> 00:20:14,320 Speaker 1: and um, people are afraid sometimes to admit that we're human. 360 00:20:14,960 --> 00:20:19,840 Speaker 1: So that was scary and then so that helped me 361 00:20:19,920 --> 00:20:22,080 Speaker 1: continue to do it. And I started this whole series 362 00:20:22,119 --> 00:20:24,640 Speaker 1: called I Love my Baby, but I Hate my Pregnancy, 363 00:20:24,680 --> 00:20:27,000 Speaker 1: which my mom like really hated that title, but I 364 00:20:27,040 --> 00:20:31,440 Speaker 1: was like, that's really how I felt about it. And then, um, 365 00:20:31,480 --> 00:20:34,720 Speaker 1: another time was like when I miscarried, I miscarried for 366 00:20:34,760 --> 00:20:38,720 Speaker 1: the first time. I've had two miscarriages, and when I 367 00:20:38,760 --> 00:20:43,720 Speaker 1: miscarried for the first time, I was like relieved that 368 00:20:43,800 --> 00:20:47,320 Speaker 1: I miscarried. Like I was, like, I think I had 369 00:20:47,320 --> 00:20:50,879 Speaker 1: had post traumatic stress from being pregnant the first time, 370 00:20:51,000 --> 00:20:53,359 Speaker 1: and so then when I found out after I think 371 00:20:53,400 --> 00:20:56,320 Speaker 1: it was twelve weeks that it wasn't a healthy pregnancy, 372 00:20:56,320 --> 00:21:00,000 Speaker 1: I was kind of like, like, had this weight lived 373 00:21:00,040 --> 00:21:04,280 Speaker 1: it off my shoulders And I talked about that on 374 00:21:04,440 --> 00:21:07,840 Speaker 1: the podcast, and I was so scared to put that 375 00:21:07,920 --> 00:21:13,359 Speaker 1: out because that is like I felt like, really that 376 00:21:13,680 --> 00:21:17,359 Speaker 1: like a monster for thinking that, Like feeling relief for 377 00:21:17,440 --> 00:21:22,639 Speaker 1: a miscarriage felt like of horrible. So but that's how 378 00:21:22,680 --> 00:21:25,960 Speaker 1: I really felt. And I've just continued to try to 379 00:21:26,040 --> 00:21:29,920 Speaker 1: just go with that and share exactly how I'm feeling, 380 00:21:30,720 --> 00:21:38,080 Speaker 1: and um, it's luckily served me well so far. I mean, 381 00:21:38,400 --> 00:21:41,800 Speaker 1: I'm sure there are people out there that like resent 382 00:21:41,840 --> 00:21:44,600 Speaker 1: me or like you're always going to have that, but 383 00:21:45,359 --> 00:21:48,320 Speaker 1: not enough for me to stop doing it. Yeah, I 384 00:21:48,400 --> 00:21:52,960 Speaker 1: appreciate the honestly, because I am Son's children have never 385 00:21:53,000 --> 00:21:55,399 Speaker 1: been pregnant. But I feel like people lie about it 386 00:21:55,560 --> 00:21:58,080 Speaker 1: so much because the more that I'm hearing, like with 387 00:21:58,119 --> 00:22:00,200 Speaker 1: my friends and stuff about like their fingers not going 388 00:22:00,240 --> 00:22:02,600 Speaker 1: back to normal size, and just like all these different 389 00:22:02,600 --> 00:22:07,080 Speaker 1: things about like they're abdomen not closing fully again, all 390 00:22:07,080 --> 00:22:09,280 Speaker 1: these things, I'm like, why does that anybody talk about 391 00:22:09,280 --> 00:22:12,359 Speaker 1: this stuff? You know, all the things that you'll never 392 00:22:12,960 --> 00:22:16,600 Speaker 1: like your nipples will always be disgusting, like for the 393 00:22:16,640 --> 00:22:19,280 Speaker 1: rest of your life, Like well if you breast feed, 394 00:22:19,600 --> 00:22:22,520 Speaker 1: If you breast feed, they won't be disgusting, but they're 395 00:22:22,600 --> 00:22:25,959 Speaker 1: not ever gonna be. Like how good your nipples are, right, 396 00:22:26,119 --> 00:22:29,480 Speaker 1: I know my nipples are so good right now, my nipples. 397 00:22:31,000 --> 00:22:34,520 Speaker 1: Enjoy them while they're here. I love my nipples. And 398 00:22:34,640 --> 00:22:36,880 Speaker 1: like you're always going to have extra skin on your 399 00:22:36,880 --> 00:22:38,720 Speaker 1: belly that you're just never going to get rid of. 400 00:22:39,080 --> 00:22:41,320 Speaker 1: And like your vagina is going to feel a little 401 00:22:41,320 --> 00:22:44,080 Speaker 1: bit different if you have a vaginal bird, Like, there's 402 00:22:44,240 --> 00:22:47,520 Speaker 1: just these things are gonna happen. Your vagina feels different 403 00:22:47,560 --> 00:22:52,120 Speaker 1: all the time or just when you're having sex. Um well, 404 00:22:52,640 --> 00:22:56,159 Speaker 1: Sola like I don't really, She's like, well, when the 405 00:22:56,160 --> 00:23:03,800 Speaker 1: penetration happens, like are we starting to get into masturbation 406 00:23:04,160 --> 00:23:11,560 Speaker 1: because like taking a whole different you know what you're 407 00:23:11,600 --> 00:23:14,880 Speaker 1: getting yourself into it. It feels, yes, it feels different 408 00:23:14,920 --> 00:23:24,920 Speaker 1: in all realms different good like no, like looser. It's 409 00:23:24,960 --> 00:23:31,919 Speaker 1: just it's been through something. Shoulders pelvic floor physical therapy. 410 00:23:31,960 --> 00:23:33,800 Speaker 1: I don't know if you've ever heard of it, but 411 00:23:33,960 --> 00:23:35,680 Speaker 1: I've been doing it because I get chronic u T 412 00:23:35,840 --> 00:23:37,919 Speaker 1: eyes and I've heard that it's really good for women 413 00:23:38,200 --> 00:23:41,560 Speaker 1: um to tighten things back up again. So oh, that's 414 00:23:41,560 --> 00:23:45,280 Speaker 1: good to know. Another time it is also like when 415 00:23:45,320 --> 00:23:49,040 Speaker 1: I had when I had Sonny, I was pushing and pushing. 416 00:23:49,119 --> 00:23:51,800 Speaker 1: It was so hard, and the doctor was like, we 417 00:23:51,840 --> 00:23:55,120 Speaker 1: could cut a little and the baby will come out, 418 00:23:55,920 --> 00:23:57,960 Speaker 1: Like it will, You'll just do one more push and 419 00:23:57,960 --> 00:24:00,720 Speaker 1: the baby will come out. And so I was like, okay, fine, 420 00:24:00,760 --> 00:24:02,600 Speaker 1: just go for it. Because I was so exhosted. I 421 00:24:02,680 --> 00:24:04,359 Speaker 1: was ready to give up, and she was like, you 422 00:24:04,400 --> 00:24:07,200 Speaker 1: can't give up. That's not an option. And so then 423 00:24:07,240 --> 00:24:09,760 Speaker 1: she did it. And then at the end she was 424 00:24:09,840 --> 00:24:12,240 Speaker 1: like when she was stitching me back up, she was like, 425 00:24:12,280 --> 00:24:15,479 Speaker 1: I'm going to give you that extra like husband stitch, 426 00:24:15,680 --> 00:24:19,720 Speaker 1: so you have to like specifically talk to your doctor 427 00:24:19,760 --> 00:24:22,400 Speaker 1: if they need to sew you up afterwards, just like 428 00:24:22,600 --> 00:24:27,600 Speaker 1: make it extra tight. Interesting the husband's stitch, And that's 429 00:24:27,640 --> 00:24:29,919 Speaker 1: a great tip. Like what if nobody ever told me that, 430 00:24:29,960 --> 00:24:31,720 Speaker 1: and then I'm getting cut and then I don't say 431 00:24:31,720 --> 00:24:35,359 Speaker 1: I need the husband stitch and then Lucy Goosey down there. Yeah, 432 00:24:35,600 --> 00:24:39,480 Speaker 1: you're like really, But these are the things that people 433 00:24:39,640 --> 00:24:42,880 Speaker 1: don't talk like. This is these are the conversations where 434 00:24:42,880 --> 00:24:46,840 Speaker 1: people because I think there is a way, because everyone 435 00:24:46,880 --> 00:24:50,080 Speaker 1: has their own experience and feelings about their life and 436 00:24:50,080 --> 00:24:52,960 Speaker 1: what's going on in their body and their brain and everything, 437 00:24:53,000 --> 00:24:57,040 Speaker 1: and they're all valid. And I think acknowledging that how 438 00:24:57,119 --> 00:25:00,439 Speaker 1: you felt was like that you felt like a monster 439 00:25:00,560 --> 00:25:03,080 Speaker 1: because you were feeling the relief or whatever it was, 440 00:25:03,160 --> 00:25:06,200 Speaker 1: it's still your feelings. And it doesn't mean that if 441 00:25:06,240 --> 00:25:09,080 Speaker 1: the baby had come that you wouldn't have obviously been 442 00:25:09,400 --> 00:25:13,320 Speaker 1: loved it and raised it and nurtured it like obviously 443 00:25:13,400 --> 00:25:15,480 Speaker 1: would have. No, you're so right, And that's what I 444 00:25:15,520 --> 00:25:18,560 Speaker 1: have to That's what I have to keep telling myself 445 00:25:18,760 --> 00:25:22,160 Speaker 1: is that even though I have these feelings that scare me, 446 00:25:22,960 --> 00:25:27,760 Speaker 1: I can't judge myself for them. Because that's they're my 447 00:25:28,000 --> 00:25:33,800 Speaker 1: natural feelings, and I'm sure everyone has has those, are y'all? 448 00:25:33,840 --> 00:25:38,280 Speaker 1: Are y'all wanting more children? Are you like? Where's your head? 449 00:25:38,560 --> 00:25:42,000 Speaker 1: Where's your head? Right now? With that process? I want 450 00:25:42,040 --> 00:25:44,600 Speaker 1: one more, Like i'd love a little girl, but obviously 451 00:25:44,640 --> 00:25:48,200 Speaker 1: I'll be happy with whatever whatever I get. I would 452 00:25:48,359 --> 00:25:51,040 Speaker 1: I don't really want to be pregnant again and go 453 00:25:51,160 --> 00:25:55,639 Speaker 1: through that whole pregnancy and first your phase, but I 454 00:25:55,720 --> 00:26:01,159 Speaker 1: know how fast it goes, and like how much I 455 00:26:01,200 --> 00:26:03,719 Speaker 1: want Sonny to have a sibling that it is worthwhile 456 00:26:03,800 --> 00:26:05,919 Speaker 1: to make sort of what I always say with Timmy 457 00:26:05,920 --> 00:26:08,639 Speaker 1: makes fun of just like a short term sacrifice for 458 00:26:08,680 --> 00:26:10,400 Speaker 1: a long term game, you know, Like I don't want 459 00:26:10,400 --> 00:26:12,880 Speaker 1: to look back in twenty years and be like, oh 460 00:26:12,960 --> 00:26:16,400 Speaker 1: I should have just I should have just gotten pregnant 461 00:26:16,400 --> 00:26:17,960 Speaker 1: for a year in my life, you know what I mean, 462 00:26:18,000 --> 00:26:20,800 Speaker 1: and then Sonny could have had a sibling and that 463 00:26:21,000 --> 00:26:25,440 Speaker 1: life could have been more full for me. So I'm 464 00:26:25,480 --> 00:26:29,560 Speaker 1: I we want to and we're we're it's like in 465 00:26:29,600 --> 00:26:33,240 Speaker 1: the motion, but I've also had two miscarriages, so I'm 466 00:26:33,280 --> 00:26:36,280 Speaker 1: I'm not as I don't know, I'm like not as 467 00:26:36,280 --> 00:26:39,840 Speaker 1: proactive as maybe I should be just because I'm like 468 00:26:39,840 --> 00:26:43,520 Speaker 1: a little scared. Yeah, I think that's very fair. I 469 00:26:43,560 --> 00:26:47,000 Speaker 1: also think like I have a friend who had the 470 00:26:47,040 --> 00:26:49,560 Speaker 1: worst pregnancy of anyone ever knew, and she was like, 471 00:26:49,720 --> 00:26:52,159 Speaker 1: I swear I will this is I'm having one baby, 472 00:26:52,200 --> 00:26:54,680 Speaker 1: and maybe if I if I want another baby, maybe 473 00:26:54,720 --> 00:26:56,840 Speaker 1: I'll consider adoption. You know. She was like, I just 474 00:26:56,920 --> 00:26:59,159 Speaker 1: don't think my body can do this again. And then 475 00:26:59,200 --> 00:27:03,000 Speaker 1: I have friends who are like I've just never felt better. 476 00:27:03,280 --> 00:27:06,560 Speaker 1: My everything was glowing, I felt great, and it's like 477 00:27:06,680 --> 00:27:10,800 Speaker 1: we're all our bodies are so complex, like totally you 478 00:27:10,880 --> 00:27:13,520 Speaker 1: just never know. And also you don't know from one 479 00:27:13,560 --> 00:27:16,879 Speaker 1: pregnancy to the next, like Sonny, my pregnancy was Sonny, 480 00:27:17,040 --> 00:27:20,960 Speaker 1: I did not enjoy, but who knows, maybe my next pregnancy. 481 00:27:21,160 --> 00:27:23,520 Speaker 1: Like I have no nausea and I have a glow 482 00:27:23,800 --> 00:27:27,000 Speaker 1: and I don't put on as much weight, Like like, 483 00:27:27,440 --> 00:27:29,320 Speaker 1: what are those corn things that you eat that I 484 00:27:29,320 --> 00:27:32,640 Speaker 1: always cornnuts? Because the cornuts. It was like, really, yeah, 485 00:27:32,920 --> 00:27:35,080 Speaker 1: I get like so bloated and puppy when I eat 486 00:27:35,119 --> 00:27:37,080 Speaker 1: like a handful of corn nuts, Like I don't even 487 00:27:37,119 --> 00:27:40,399 Speaker 1: want to start so salty. I kind of kind not 488 00:27:40,520 --> 00:27:44,320 Speaker 1: know where she was like connecting this conversation. I was like, 489 00:27:45,040 --> 00:27:47,320 Speaker 1: there was a connection point and it was bloating. I'm like, 490 00:27:47,359 --> 00:27:50,240 Speaker 1: I can't imagine pregnancy for me is going to be 491 00:27:50,320 --> 00:27:54,399 Speaker 1: Like so my sister thought the same thing as my sister. 492 00:27:54,800 --> 00:27:59,880 Speaker 1: It gets nauseous after ever. Ever, she's always nauseous, always nauseous. 493 00:28:00,119 --> 00:28:03,840 Speaker 1: So when she when we talked about her getting pregnant, 494 00:28:03,840 --> 00:28:05,800 Speaker 1: she's like, I'm gonna have the worst pregnancy, Like I 495 00:28:05,840 --> 00:28:08,240 Speaker 1: just know it's gonna be horrible. And then she got 496 00:28:08,280 --> 00:28:11,359 Speaker 1: pregnant and she's in she's like halfway through now and 497 00:28:11,400 --> 00:28:16,480 Speaker 1: she hasn't had one day of nausea. But that bloating part, 498 00:28:16,640 --> 00:28:21,320 Speaker 1: like the first phase is you just feel perpetually bloated 499 00:28:21,640 --> 00:28:25,720 Speaker 1: until until you start to get like the actual bump, 500 00:28:25,760 --> 00:28:28,640 Speaker 1: and then that's when it starts to get a lot cuter. Okay, 501 00:28:28,680 --> 00:28:32,960 Speaker 1: I have a personal question. Well obviously this personal I 502 00:28:32,960 --> 00:28:35,200 Speaker 1: don't know if you share this. So you you and 503 00:28:35,240 --> 00:28:38,400 Speaker 1: to we've been together for nine years. That's like fantastic. 504 00:28:38,520 --> 00:28:42,000 Speaker 1: So this is a two pronged question. The first wrong 505 00:28:42,160 --> 00:28:44,080 Speaker 1: is did you guys ever any point break up and 506 00:28:44,080 --> 00:28:48,840 Speaker 1: get back together? So we never were once we were 507 00:28:48,920 --> 00:28:52,240 Speaker 1: official official, we never broke up and got back together, 508 00:28:52,440 --> 00:28:55,880 Speaker 1: but before we were official, there were periods of like 509 00:28:56,600 --> 00:29:00,360 Speaker 1: hooking up and not hooking up. But finally based he 510 00:29:00,440 --> 00:29:05,280 Speaker 1: went through I had had this other boyfriend and and 511 00:29:05,360 --> 00:29:08,600 Speaker 1: I broke up with he broke up with me actually um, 512 00:29:08,840 --> 00:29:13,040 Speaker 1: and then I lose totally even though he's not but like, 513 00:29:13,080 --> 00:29:15,960 Speaker 1: I don't want to say that, but I went through 514 00:29:16,000 --> 00:29:18,840 Speaker 1: a summer of just wanting to be single and having fun. 515 00:29:19,120 --> 00:29:21,280 Speaker 1: And then I remember I went back to New York 516 00:29:21,280 --> 00:29:23,600 Speaker 1: in September for some work and to me was like, 517 00:29:23,640 --> 00:29:25,200 Speaker 1: we need let's go to dinner. And so he went 518 00:29:25,200 --> 00:29:27,080 Speaker 1: to dinner and he was like listening with I can't 519 00:29:27,120 --> 00:29:31,600 Speaker 1: wait any longer, like es either were official now or 520 00:29:32,440 --> 00:29:34,920 Speaker 1: that's it. And I was not in the at the time. 521 00:29:34,960 --> 00:29:38,000 Speaker 1: I was not really ready to like because I knew. 522 00:29:38,000 --> 00:29:39,920 Speaker 1: I was like, I knew as soon as I say 523 00:29:40,000 --> 00:29:41,440 Speaker 1: that I want to be with this person that I'm 524 00:29:41,440 --> 00:29:43,640 Speaker 1: going to marry him. But I just went for it 525 00:29:43,680 --> 00:29:47,560 Speaker 1: and then we went together ever since. Okay, I love that. 526 00:29:47,640 --> 00:29:49,560 Speaker 1: And then the second part of it is like, what's 527 00:29:49,600 --> 00:29:53,560 Speaker 1: the key because obviously every relationship has peaks and valleys, 528 00:29:53,600 --> 00:29:57,080 Speaker 1: ebbs and flows and lows. Um, what gets you guys? 529 00:29:57,080 --> 00:30:02,240 Speaker 1: Through the lows, like how do you stay so solid? Well, 530 00:30:02,840 --> 00:30:06,920 Speaker 1: the quarantine was a really trying year I think probably 531 00:30:06,920 --> 00:30:09,240 Speaker 1: for a lot of couples that you talked to because 532 00:30:09,280 --> 00:30:12,400 Speaker 1: you're like you're just so on top of each other. 533 00:30:12,960 --> 00:30:17,040 Speaker 1: So we've had to implement, We've had to implement like 534 00:30:17,240 --> 00:30:23,360 Speaker 1: new things, like we've we try. I mean, I try 535 00:30:23,400 --> 00:30:26,680 Speaker 1: not to take everything so personally because that's just I 536 00:30:26,720 --> 00:30:29,920 Speaker 1: have to notice that that's something that I do. Um, 537 00:30:30,240 --> 00:30:34,520 Speaker 1: you can't be I'm a pisces. Oh yeah, okay, emotional 538 00:30:34,640 --> 00:30:37,680 Speaker 1: get it? Yeah, Like so emotional and sensitive and like 539 00:30:37,800 --> 00:30:40,160 Speaker 1: everything is about me, you know, and like if if 540 00:30:40,200 --> 00:30:43,000 Speaker 1: he's in a bad mood, it's because I annoyed him. 541 00:30:43,120 --> 00:30:46,080 Speaker 1: So I'm always it's a lot of like testing him 542 00:30:46,080 --> 00:30:49,320 Speaker 1: and stuff, and so it's just it's the thing I 543 00:30:49,360 --> 00:30:53,640 Speaker 1: think that helps the most is the individuals doing the 544 00:30:53,680 --> 00:30:58,360 Speaker 1: work on themselves. It's more about like me facing my 545 00:30:59,040 --> 00:31:02,480 Speaker 1: issues and deemon and him facing his issues and demons 546 00:31:02,800 --> 00:31:06,080 Speaker 1: and then us coming together as better people. It's not 547 00:31:06,480 --> 00:31:09,240 Speaker 1: it's like our issues, like and what we're fighting about 548 00:31:09,360 --> 00:31:12,520 Speaker 1: weren't It wasn't about our relationship. It was more just 549 00:31:12,560 --> 00:31:16,720 Speaker 1: like projections. And so I started like going to regular 550 00:31:16,800 --> 00:31:21,600 Speaker 1: therapy and like started meditating and even have been open 551 00:31:21,640 --> 00:31:24,800 Speaker 1: about going on antidepressants, like certain things that I have. 552 00:31:25,880 --> 00:31:28,280 Speaker 1: Even if if it weren't for quarantine, I may not 553 00:31:28,400 --> 00:31:31,160 Speaker 1: have taken the time or had the time to think 554 00:31:31,240 --> 00:31:35,120 Speaker 1: about all that stuff. And I finally am so I 555 00:31:35,160 --> 00:31:38,080 Speaker 1: think it's what's helped us is like, just like I said, 556 00:31:38,120 --> 00:31:42,920 Speaker 1: working on ourselves as individuals. Yeah, I I we've both 557 00:31:42,960 --> 00:31:46,360 Speaker 1: talked about how just communication and like learning how to 558 00:31:46,400 --> 00:31:50,360 Speaker 1: communicate when we're feeling sensitive about something and and it 559 00:31:50,520 --> 00:31:53,480 Speaker 1: literally might have nothing to do with the other person. 560 00:31:53,560 --> 00:31:58,000 Speaker 1: It's something that's internalized. Especially for me, I'm like learning 561 00:31:58,040 --> 00:32:00,280 Speaker 1: for the first time how to communicate my feel links 562 00:32:00,320 --> 00:32:03,760 Speaker 1: instead of just internalizing them thinking that I'm keeping the 563 00:32:03,760 --> 00:32:07,280 Speaker 1: piece because eventually it blows up and it's right, or 564 00:32:07,360 --> 00:32:10,800 Speaker 1: thinking right, or thinking that he's thinking something that he's 565 00:32:10,880 --> 00:32:14,200 Speaker 1: actually not. You know, like you're just in your head, 566 00:32:14,240 --> 00:32:17,560 Speaker 1: You're going to your worst case scenario or what your 567 00:32:17,640 --> 00:32:22,640 Speaker 1: fear maybe or what like you're insecurity, what you're insecure 568 00:32:22,680 --> 00:32:27,320 Speaker 1: about your thinking he's thinking about you when like he's not. 569 00:32:27,480 --> 00:32:29,560 Speaker 1: It's just you think that So that's how you think 570 00:32:29,600 --> 00:32:33,920 Speaker 1: everyone else views you. You know, have you, um have 571 00:32:34,280 --> 00:32:38,800 Speaker 1: like filming the Hills and everyone kind of reconnecting. Has 572 00:32:38,840 --> 00:32:41,280 Speaker 1: there is there anyone that you're still super close with 573 00:32:41,360 --> 00:32:44,640 Speaker 1: from the the original season? And then have you grown 574 00:32:44,760 --> 00:32:50,080 Speaker 1: close with anyone different from like the new seasons because 575 00:32:50,400 --> 00:32:54,640 Speaker 1: that you know, growing up and maturing and all that. Yeah, yeah, 576 00:32:54,720 --> 00:32:59,080 Speaker 1: so I'm I'm really not super close with anybody um 577 00:32:59,160 --> 00:33:04,640 Speaker 1: from the oh. I. Lauren and I recently did a 578 00:33:04,680 --> 00:33:07,640 Speaker 1: podcast together, which was really nice because we hadn't really 579 00:33:07,680 --> 00:33:10,240 Speaker 1: spoken in so long, and I always thought that I 580 00:33:10,320 --> 00:33:12,840 Speaker 1: maybe did something wrong to upset her, but I think 581 00:33:13,080 --> 00:33:16,320 Speaker 1: it was more just her separating from the show because 582 00:33:16,360 --> 00:33:19,760 Speaker 1: it was obviously so personal for her, and so that 583 00:33:19,880 --> 00:33:22,120 Speaker 1: it was good for us to reconnect to be like 584 00:33:22,360 --> 00:33:24,480 Speaker 1: for me to know that it wasn't anything that I 585 00:33:24,480 --> 00:33:27,760 Speaker 1: ever did wrong. It was just her taking space, um 586 00:33:27,840 --> 00:33:30,200 Speaker 1: and so we will chat like here and there now 587 00:33:30,520 --> 00:33:34,200 Speaker 1: and then this season, I've only filmed a little bit. 588 00:33:34,560 --> 00:33:39,080 Speaker 1: I and I've actually had some really good conversations with 589 00:33:39,200 --> 00:33:43,080 Speaker 1: Heidi where we were not close before. And I think 590 00:33:43,120 --> 00:33:46,560 Speaker 1: I always had preconceived notions of her because I didn't 591 00:33:46,560 --> 00:33:49,120 Speaker 1: really know her personally. I was just getting reports back 592 00:33:49,160 --> 00:33:53,840 Speaker 1: in the closet from Lauren Um and so Heidi, I'm like, 593 00:33:54,280 --> 00:33:57,360 Speaker 1: I have a new found appreciation for her because I 594 00:33:57,400 --> 00:34:00,960 Speaker 1: feel like she just owns she com completely owns who 595 00:34:01,000 --> 00:34:03,040 Speaker 1: she is, and whether or not is how I would 596 00:34:03,080 --> 00:34:05,320 Speaker 1: live my life, it doesn't even matter. I just feel 597 00:34:05,320 --> 00:34:14,080 Speaker 1: like she's so unapologized, unapologetically herself that I like respect that. UM. 598 00:34:14,160 --> 00:34:17,840 Speaker 1: And then Caitlin who wasn't on the Hills before UM, 599 00:34:17,920 --> 00:34:23,279 Speaker 1: Caitlyn Carter who was Brodie's wife. I yeah, we were 600 00:34:23,400 --> 00:34:27,480 Speaker 1: mutual friends. Yea, yeah, I love her, Like I think 601 00:34:27,520 --> 00:34:30,799 Speaker 1: it's such she's such a real good person that I 602 00:34:30,800 --> 00:34:33,479 Speaker 1: could actually trust, Like we could talk off the show 603 00:34:33,480 --> 00:34:35,680 Speaker 1: about people on the show, and like I know that 604 00:34:35,719 --> 00:34:39,520 Speaker 1: she wouldn't like blow up my spot, Like she's a 605 00:34:39,520 --> 00:34:43,279 Speaker 1: good person the interview room, being like I have some 606 00:34:43,360 --> 00:34:47,919 Speaker 1: news for y'all. No, she's not trying to become that 607 00:34:48,040 --> 00:34:51,440 Speaker 1: type of personality, and I respect that about her. I'm 608 00:34:51,480 --> 00:34:55,120 Speaker 1: actually really impressed with Spencer and hiding myself because I 609 00:34:55,160 --> 00:34:57,400 Speaker 1: remember like not being their biggest fan when I was 610 00:34:57,440 --> 00:34:59,920 Speaker 1: watching the show, and then I recently went on their podcast, 611 00:35:00,680 --> 00:35:05,480 Speaker 1: You did, Yeah I did? Was it fun? It was 612 00:35:05,600 --> 00:35:09,520 Speaker 1: so fun? And I was like I was like surprised 613 00:35:09,600 --> 00:35:12,759 Speaker 1: because I kind of like wasn't like, I was like, 614 00:35:12,880 --> 00:35:14,759 Speaker 1: Heidi and Spencer is so random, and I was like, 615 00:35:14,800 --> 00:35:17,800 Speaker 1: and also, congrats that they're like still standing strong, standing 616 00:35:17,880 --> 00:35:20,560 Speaker 1: tests of time. And I went to the badcast an 617 00:35:20,560 --> 00:35:23,160 Speaker 1: amazing part and I was just like, whoa, I really 618 00:35:23,360 --> 00:35:26,719 Speaker 1: like you too, like a lot, like way more than 619 00:35:26,800 --> 00:35:29,719 Speaker 1: I had expected. Honestly. I think I told them that 620 00:35:30,239 --> 00:35:34,520 Speaker 1: I think I think that they they did some things 621 00:35:34,520 --> 00:35:38,480 Speaker 1: that they probably regret um and that they've grown up 622 00:35:38,520 --> 00:35:41,600 Speaker 1: a lot, but that they actually, from what I can tell, 623 00:35:41,680 --> 00:35:44,480 Speaker 1: like really love each other. And I've always gotten such 624 00:35:44,520 --> 00:35:46,440 Speaker 1: a kick out of Spencer, Like Spencer and I went 625 00:35:46,440 --> 00:35:49,920 Speaker 1: to the same high school, and I've i knew him 626 00:35:49,920 --> 00:35:54,080 Speaker 1: before the show, and they they were like, I don't know, 627 00:35:54,120 --> 00:35:55,880 Speaker 1: in my eyes, they were like trying to make a 628 00:35:55,880 --> 00:36:00,440 Speaker 1: good TV show, you know, and like playing it up exactly, 629 00:36:00,920 --> 00:36:05,000 Speaker 1: And I think that that was relatively new at that time, 630 00:36:05,239 --> 00:36:11,000 Speaker 1: whereas now everywhere, yeah, everyone's trying to play it up. Yeah, yeah, 631 00:36:11,680 --> 00:36:16,040 Speaker 1: so funny. Wait did you grow up here? Yeah? I did? 632 00:36:16,200 --> 00:36:18,360 Speaker 1: Did you know, like, did you go to high school 633 00:36:18,360 --> 00:36:21,719 Speaker 1: where it was there was anyone who ended up outside 634 00:36:21,719 --> 00:36:24,360 Speaker 1: of y'all's group? That you knew that did the Hills. 635 00:36:24,440 --> 00:36:32,400 Speaker 1: Was there any other well Stephanie Pratt spencer sister, and 636 00:36:32,440 --> 00:36:34,760 Speaker 1: then that was it. But I remember at the time 637 00:36:34,840 --> 00:36:36,440 Speaker 1: like a lot of his I think he lost a 638 00:36:36,440 --> 00:36:39,600 Speaker 1: lot of his friends from high school or maybe not lost, 639 00:36:39,600 --> 00:36:41,319 Speaker 1: but like I don't I don't even want to say, 640 00:36:41,320 --> 00:36:45,359 Speaker 1: but I know that they regained friendships. Um, I think 641 00:36:45,880 --> 00:36:51,319 Speaker 1: did George Clooney, Like, come, I did other people go 642 00:36:51,400 --> 00:36:55,200 Speaker 1: to our people go to Yeah? Because I feel like 643 00:36:55,400 --> 00:36:59,080 Speaker 1: l A high schools. Everyone has the yearbook photos of 644 00:36:59,200 --> 00:37:03,480 Speaker 1: like people. You're like, what, yeah, yeah, so Kate Hudson 645 00:37:03,640 --> 00:37:09,319 Speaker 1: went there. Um uh, Baron Davis a basketball player. I'm 646 00:37:09,320 --> 00:37:14,000 Speaker 1: not sure if you now Jack Black, Oh yeah, Jack Black. 647 00:37:14,120 --> 00:37:20,560 Speaker 1: These are big names. Um Jonah Hill, Jonah Well, as 648 00:37:20,600 --> 00:37:25,480 Speaker 1: I know felt Sine, but Jonah Hill, Yeah, yeah, he 649 00:37:25,640 --> 00:37:31,759 Speaker 1: was the year above me. She says, cute. I love him. 650 00:37:31,760 --> 00:37:35,440 Speaker 1: He's pretty great. Yeah. Um yeah. I always just when 651 00:37:35,520 --> 00:37:40,439 Speaker 1: I see um like TikTok's of like people being who 652 00:37:40,480 --> 00:37:44,839 Speaker 1: went to your high school? This ye speaking of TikTok's, 653 00:37:44,840 --> 00:37:48,279 Speaker 1: I was dying laughing because there's this TikTok and it's 654 00:37:48,320 --> 00:37:51,440 Speaker 1: you and Lauren talking to I guess the editor in 655 00:37:51,640 --> 00:37:55,200 Speaker 1: chief and she's like, yeah, we're putting on this show, 656 00:37:55,280 --> 00:37:57,360 Speaker 1: and like there's this up and coming artist, like her 657 00:37:57,440 --> 00:38:04,279 Speaker 1: name is Lady Gaga, and yeah, so so I'm I'm 658 00:38:04,400 --> 00:38:08,800 Speaker 1: not on TikTok, which I like, part of me is 659 00:38:08,840 --> 00:38:10,920 Speaker 1: really relieved to not be on TikTok, but the other 660 00:38:10,920 --> 00:38:13,759 Speaker 1: part of me feels like I'm just a dinosaur and 661 00:38:13,880 --> 00:38:16,480 Speaker 1: that probably my agents and everybody want to kill me 662 00:38:16,560 --> 00:38:22,000 Speaker 1: for not being on TikTok. You're here, okay, good, that 663 00:38:22,040 --> 00:38:28,680 Speaker 1: makes me feel better. But um, I remember I remember 664 00:38:28,800 --> 00:38:32,040 Speaker 1: her like coming with all her own wardrobe. We were 665 00:38:32,080 --> 00:38:34,439 Speaker 1: doing like her first like one of her first big 666 00:38:34,440 --> 00:38:36,520 Speaker 1: performances at a club, not even big. It was that 667 00:38:36,640 --> 00:38:40,920 Speaker 1: like Area nightclub in Hollywood or something, and she came 668 00:38:40,960 --> 00:38:43,400 Speaker 1: with like a bunch of body suits and like a 669 00:38:43,440 --> 00:38:49,719 Speaker 1: little suitcase filled with sunglasses. And I remember watching her 670 00:38:49,880 --> 00:38:53,640 Speaker 1: and I have such a bead like I remember I 671 00:38:53,760 --> 00:38:56,720 Speaker 1: was part of the marketing research group who watched American Idol, 672 00:38:56,880 --> 00:38:58,840 Speaker 1: and I thought American Idol was like the show is 673 00:38:58,920 --> 00:39:01,040 Speaker 1: never going to be success fall and then it turned 674 00:39:01,040 --> 00:39:03,560 Speaker 1: out to be American Idolso I remember watching Lady Gaga 675 00:39:03,600 --> 00:39:07,640 Speaker 1: and being like I'm not sure about this. She turned 676 00:39:07,680 --> 00:39:10,520 Speaker 1: out to be Lady Gaga. WIT's really got her finger 677 00:39:10,600 --> 00:39:13,960 Speaker 1: on the gentleman, do not have my finger on the 678 00:39:13,960 --> 00:39:16,960 Speaker 1: full so so do not trust me when it comes 679 00:39:17,080 --> 00:39:24,360 Speaker 1: to TV shows or aspiring talent. Yeah, but she she definitely. 680 00:39:24,880 --> 00:39:27,759 Speaker 1: What I do remember about her is that like she 681 00:39:28,000 --> 00:39:32,239 Speaker 1: had a specific sense of style, that she she had 682 00:39:32,280 --> 00:39:34,520 Speaker 1: a vision for herself and we were just trying to 683 00:39:34,600 --> 00:39:37,759 Speaker 1: make it happen and like zip up that catsuit on 684 00:39:37,800 --> 00:39:42,160 Speaker 1: her that wouldn't zip. Yeah, my gosh, nothing more pan Like, 685 00:39:42,440 --> 00:39:45,279 Speaker 1: nothing worse than trying to zip up the outfit that 686 00:39:45,320 --> 00:39:48,320 Speaker 1: you have in mind and you can't get it. I know, 687 00:39:48,520 --> 00:39:51,759 Speaker 1: you're just like black Vinyl, I know, and we're like 688 00:39:51,960 --> 00:39:55,440 Speaker 1: stranger some sweaty hands, like trying to get her in 689 00:39:55,560 --> 00:39:59,879 Speaker 1: it with like the hills, like everyone's filming you. You're like, right, 690 00:40:00,480 --> 00:40:03,480 Speaker 1: what are we doing? Um wait? I kind of want 691 00:40:03,480 --> 00:40:05,920 Speaker 1: to just Um, just because you have had such like 692 00:40:05,960 --> 00:40:08,319 Speaker 1: a longer and your you kind of have your hands 693 00:40:08,320 --> 00:40:12,000 Speaker 1: in so many different things. Um, what's something just because 694 00:40:12,040 --> 00:40:15,200 Speaker 1: it is Women's History Month, what's something that you learned 695 00:40:15,200 --> 00:40:17,680 Speaker 1: along the way? Um, just being a woman in the 696 00:40:17,719 --> 00:40:19,960 Speaker 1: industry that you kind of wish you could have told 697 00:40:19,960 --> 00:40:28,360 Speaker 1: yourself ten years ago. Good question. Um, I think it 698 00:40:28,400 --> 00:40:36,160 Speaker 1: would have been gosh, if you think about that, I 699 00:40:36,200 --> 00:40:43,800 Speaker 1: think it would have been to be more thoughtful about 700 00:40:43,840 --> 00:40:47,279 Speaker 1: things and be more present in moments. I feel like 701 00:40:48,520 --> 00:40:52,279 Speaker 1: in life right now, things happened so fast and we're 702 00:40:52,320 --> 00:40:57,120 Speaker 1: not even really like taking in all the greatness and 703 00:40:57,160 --> 00:41:00,600 Speaker 1: goodness that's happening on a daily basis. And so I 704 00:41:00,719 --> 00:41:04,799 Speaker 1: wish that I had actually, like just I wish that 705 00:41:04,840 --> 00:41:06,840 Speaker 1: I simply put, like I wish I had kept a 706 00:41:06,920 --> 00:41:09,440 Speaker 1: journal of all my feelings and thoughts and emotions of 707 00:41:09,520 --> 00:41:12,280 Speaker 1: what was what my brain was actually going through during 708 00:41:12,280 --> 00:41:15,480 Speaker 1: this crazy life, but also that I just would have 709 00:41:15,680 --> 00:41:22,720 Speaker 1: like been more present and been more proactive about opportunity 710 00:41:22,840 --> 00:41:25,879 Speaker 1: as opposed to just like letting things happen to me 711 00:41:26,000 --> 00:41:30,320 Speaker 1: or letting things come to me. And um, because there's 712 00:41:30,360 --> 00:41:33,880 Speaker 1: just so much power and like you putting the energy 713 00:41:34,040 --> 00:41:39,479 Speaker 1: and manifesting things. Um, So I don't know that wasn't 714 00:41:39,480 --> 00:41:43,920 Speaker 1: really that good of advice. Proactive And I think I 715 00:41:43,920 --> 00:41:47,080 Speaker 1: mean I literally wanted almost the exact same thing you're 716 00:41:47,120 --> 00:41:50,919 Speaker 1: talking about of like I've been so comfortable with things 717 00:41:50,960 --> 00:41:54,280 Speaker 1: just coming to me instead of like seeking out opportunities 718 00:41:54,280 --> 00:41:59,640 Speaker 1: and self motivating. Now I'm in that place of like 719 00:42:00,080 --> 00:42:03,000 Speaker 1: wanting to do like be proactive, but it's like, how 720 00:42:03,120 --> 00:42:05,359 Speaker 1: what are the tools I need to do that? You know? 721 00:42:06,320 --> 00:42:09,640 Speaker 1: I know? I mean, it's like there's really not at 722 00:42:09,719 --> 00:42:12,000 Speaker 1: least from my point of view, there's not like a 723 00:42:12,040 --> 00:42:14,439 Speaker 1: set of tools that I can just give you. It's 724 00:42:14,480 --> 00:42:17,680 Speaker 1: more just about like what are you know, what you're 725 00:42:17,719 --> 00:42:20,560 Speaker 1: passionate about? You know what makes you happy when you're 726 00:42:20,600 --> 00:42:26,680 Speaker 1: doing it, and so just like put your energy into that. Um, 727 00:42:26,719 --> 00:42:29,400 Speaker 1: I think it's no longer are the days where you 728 00:42:29,480 --> 00:42:33,000 Speaker 1: have to where there's like a formula for anything either, Right, 729 00:42:33,040 --> 00:42:36,839 Speaker 1: Like everyone can be an entrepreneur. Everyone has the capability 730 00:42:36,880 --> 00:42:41,480 Speaker 1: to be their own spokesperson, and like, I think that 731 00:42:41,880 --> 00:42:46,040 Speaker 1: the big thing is to just really be uniquely you, 732 00:42:46,880 --> 00:42:54,320 Speaker 1: because if you're trying to do something like I always 733 00:42:54,360 --> 00:42:58,000 Speaker 1: find it hard. I'm like, I'll want to follow people 734 00:42:58,000 --> 00:43:01,200 Speaker 1: on Instagram because I want to know what everybody else 735 00:43:01,280 --> 00:43:03,839 Speaker 1: is doing so I can know kind of what not 736 00:43:03,920 --> 00:43:05,839 Speaker 1: to do or what's in style or whatever. But then 737 00:43:05,880 --> 00:43:08,200 Speaker 1: I also don't want to know what anybody is doing 738 00:43:08,280 --> 00:43:11,239 Speaker 1: so that whatever I put out there can be completely original. 739 00:43:11,920 --> 00:43:16,479 Speaker 1: So I think it's I guess it's really about just 740 00:43:17,120 --> 00:43:21,240 Speaker 1: being the most you that you can be and there 741 00:43:21,400 --> 00:43:23,840 Speaker 1: will be. That's that's what's going to make you the happiest, 742 00:43:23,880 --> 00:43:26,920 Speaker 1: That's what's going to bring you the most success because 743 00:43:26,960 --> 00:43:30,200 Speaker 1: like everybody else has already taken you know. Yeah, And 744 00:43:30,239 --> 00:43:32,600 Speaker 1: I think that's the all I mean, because there is 745 00:43:32,719 --> 00:43:35,359 Speaker 1: so much, like every single thing that you could come 746 00:43:35,760 --> 00:43:37,960 Speaker 1: up with to launch. I had a conversation with someone 747 00:43:37,960 --> 00:43:40,600 Speaker 1: about this, Someone's already done it, so like the thing 748 00:43:40,680 --> 00:43:44,360 Speaker 1: that makes it original is that it's yours. Yeah, Like 749 00:43:44,520 --> 00:43:47,080 Speaker 1: that's what I thought about My launde were line. Like 750 00:43:47,719 --> 00:43:50,560 Speaker 1: I was like, everyone's doing lounge where now, you know, 751 00:43:50,680 --> 00:43:54,040 Speaker 1: like especially with quarantine and our lifestyle, like everybody wants 752 00:43:54,080 --> 00:43:56,239 Speaker 1: to get into this business and I was, And so 753 00:43:56,320 --> 00:43:58,000 Speaker 1: I had a hard time with it at first because 754 00:43:58,040 --> 00:44:00,799 Speaker 1: I was like and I just doing this just to 755 00:44:00,880 --> 00:44:03,200 Speaker 1: do it. And then I started designing it and like 756 00:44:04,000 --> 00:44:07,120 Speaker 1: the color palette was just like so me, and the 757 00:44:07,280 --> 00:44:10,360 Speaker 1: sweatshirt like how the sweatshirt draped was like so me, 758 00:44:10,480 --> 00:44:13,560 Speaker 1: and it reminded me of my dad, and like just 759 00:44:13,680 --> 00:44:18,359 Speaker 1: the length, like the waist space, like there's always there's 760 00:44:18,400 --> 00:44:21,680 Speaker 1: a way to make anything unique. There's a way to 761 00:44:21,719 --> 00:44:25,799 Speaker 1: make anything individual to you. Yeah. And I also think 762 00:44:25,840 --> 00:44:27,400 Speaker 1: too A big thing I think for me that I 763 00:44:27,400 --> 00:44:29,360 Speaker 1: struggle and I think a lot of people struggle with it, 764 00:44:29,400 --> 00:44:33,000 Speaker 1: is like you feel like you're like, um, what's the 765 00:44:33,000 --> 00:44:37,080 Speaker 1: word behind? You're always behind in some aspect of something. 766 00:44:37,080 --> 00:44:40,320 Speaker 1: Because I was talking to this girl who launched period 767 00:44:40,440 --> 00:44:44,240 Speaker 1: dot ink. She's twenty two years old and she launched 768 00:44:44,280 --> 00:44:47,439 Speaker 1: this you know site nonprofit and she's written a book 769 00:44:47,520 --> 00:44:49,200 Speaker 1: and all these things. She's twenty two years old, and 770 00:44:49,239 --> 00:44:50,600 Speaker 1: I was like speaking to her and I was just 771 00:44:50,640 --> 00:44:56,560 Speaker 1: like I at twenty two was eating left talk about yeah, 772 00:44:56,680 --> 00:44:58,480 Speaker 1: like fishing it out of the garbage the next morning, 773 00:44:58,480 --> 00:45:01,600 Speaker 1: and you're you're writing books and starting business in a nonprofit. 774 00:45:01,680 --> 00:45:04,799 Speaker 1: And I think that, you know, everybody, it's really easy 775 00:45:04,840 --> 00:45:07,719 Speaker 1: to kind of compare your story to somebody else, and 776 00:45:07,800 --> 00:45:11,120 Speaker 1: everybody feels behind in some aspect of life, and it's 777 00:45:11,160 --> 00:45:13,399 Speaker 1: just kind of remembering that you're just right where you're 778 00:45:13,400 --> 00:45:16,560 Speaker 1: supposed to be and you know, and maybe you weren't 779 00:45:16,560 --> 00:45:19,120 Speaker 1: doing that because you were having so much fun doing 780 00:45:19,120 --> 00:45:22,320 Speaker 1: other things and that's fine, fine too. Like I always 781 00:45:22,320 --> 00:45:25,319 Speaker 1: feel like there's a certain level of success that I 782 00:45:25,360 --> 00:45:28,720 Speaker 1: could maybe be at if I didn't if I didn't 783 00:45:29,040 --> 00:45:31,680 Speaker 1: enjoy my free time as much. Like I love my 784 00:45:31,760 --> 00:45:35,080 Speaker 1: free time, you know, and like I am realizing that 785 00:45:35,160 --> 00:45:38,640 Speaker 1: I need it and I want it and and I 786 00:45:38,680 --> 00:45:42,320 Speaker 1: could probably be more successful if I spent more time 787 00:45:42,400 --> 00:45:46,040 Speaker 1: like at my computer or networking or whatever. But is 788 00:45:46,080 --> 00:45:50,719 Speaker 1: that really going to make me happy? No, so you can't. Also, 789 00:45:51,520 --> 00:45:54,359 Speaker 1: teenagers and twenty some things are so different than we 790 00:45:54,360 --> 00:45:56,880 Speaker 1: were now, Like they have so much more access to 791 00:45:56,960 --> 00:46:02,279 Speaker 1: stuff and we there's like there's no reason, I feel like, 792 00:46:02,280 --> 00:46:05,279 Speaker 1: to ever compare yourself to anyone. And it's so much 793 00:46:05,320 --> 00:46:08,319 Speaker 1: easier said than done. It sounds so pre cheap, but 794 00:46:08,400 --> 00:46:11,279 Speaker 1: it's just like you should never ever do it, like 795 00:46:11,400 --> 00:46:13,400 Speaker 1: just be mindful of it. If you do it, at 796 00:46:13,480 --> 00:46:16,719 Speaker 1: least just be aware that you're doing it. Yeah, I 797 00:46:16,719 --> 00:46:19,160 Speaker 1: think it's a It's a something we hear all the time, 798 00:46:19,200 --> 00:46:21,360 Speaker 1: but we can never hear it enough because we continue 799 00:46:21,400 --> 00:46:24,880 Speaker 1: to compare ourselves and so the more times we're reminded, like, 800 00:46:24,920 --> 00:46:30,760 Speaker 1: stop doing that, it's only helpful because it's it's human nature. Unfortunately. 801 00:46:30,840 --> 00:46:33,080 Speaker 1: But I feel like the biggest thing people to ask 802 00:46:33,120 --> 00:46:36,800 Speaker 1: me is like, how are you so like comfortable being single, 803 00:46:37,000 --> 00:46:39,160 Speaker 1: and like how how are you so happy being single? 804 00:46:39,280 --> 00:46:43,600 Speaker 1: And I'm just like, look at the flip side, you 805 00:46:43,640 --> 00:46:45,560 Speaker 1: know what I mean? Like I can sleep in however 806 00:46:45,640 --> 00:46:47,640 Speaker 1: late I want on the weekends and do whatever I 807 00:46:47,640 --> 00:46:49,880 Speaker 1: want on my own time, and I can devote however 808 00:46:49,960 --> 00:46:52,359 Speaker 1: much time I want to whatever I want. And when 809 00:46:52,440 --> 00:46:55,040 Speaker 1: all that changes, it changes like that, and then I 810 00:46:55,120 --> 00:47:04,040 Speaker 1: have a loose vagina and ugly nipples exactly Like It's 811 00:47:04,080 --> 00:47:07,640 Speaker 1: so true. It's like the grass is always greener and 812 00:47:07,680 --> 00:47:11,840 Speaker 1: everybody thinks that if you have time. I wanted to ask, um, 813 00:47:11,880 --> 00:47:15,720 Speaker 1: because I think what you talk about with your miscarriages 814 00:47:15,840 --> 00:47:20,080 Speaker 1: and the you not even enjoying your pregnancy On the 815 00:47:20,080 --> 00:47:24,560 Speaker 1: flip side, having been someone who experienced to miscarriages, like 816 00:47:24,640 --> 00:47:26,799 Speaker 1: what's advice that you would give to someone if their 817 00:47:26,880 --> 00:47:30,760 Speaker 1: friends going through it? Or how to approach that subject 818 00:47:30,840 --> 00:47:33,600 Speaker 1: with being sensitive and being a good friend, um, but 819 00:47:33,760 --> 00:47:38,880 Speaker 1: not you know, triggering someone. Yeah, I think it's just 820 00:47:38,960 --> 00:47:41,120 Speaker 1: the same way that you would approach being there for 821 00:47:41,160 --> 00:47:45,960 Speaker 1: someone no matter what the situation is. It's like you, 822 00:47:46,400 --> 00:47:49,040 Speaker 1: I wouldn't constantly check in and be like how are 823 00:47:49,040 --> 00:47:51,080 Speaker 1: you today? How are you today? How are you today, 824 00:47:51,080 --> 00:47:53,680 Speaker 1: because like if the person wants to talk to you 825 00:47:53,719 --> 00:47:55,480 Speaker 1: about it, they're going to reach out to you. Like 826 00:47:55,560 --> 00:47:59,440 Speaker 1: that's what I found. I just wanted I wanted space 827 00:47:59,520 --> 00:48:02,520 Speaker 1: to just be on my own feelings. And it's always 828 00:48:02,640 --> 00:48:06,080 Speaker 1: nice when people check in, but I don't want the 829 00:48:06,160 --> 00:48:08,680 Speaker 1: checkens just for the sake of checking in, you know, 830 00:48:08,840 --> 00:48:11,600 Speaker 1: Like I don't want like that box just to be checked. 831 00:48:11,640 --> 00:48:15,279 Speaker 1: So I would say to just let the friend know 832 00:48:15,440 --> 00:48:17,880 Speaker 1: in your own way that you're there for them to 833 00:48:17,960 --> 00:48:20,520 Speaker 1: talk about any of it, and that also that there 834 00:48:20,640 --> 00:48:24,759 Speaker 1: was nothing that they could have done differently, Like I mean, 835 00:48:25,640 --> 00:48:30,799 Speaker 1: obviously every situation is different, but likely like there's this 836 00:48:30,880 --> 00:48:34,040 Speaker 1: is something that we have no control over and it's 837 00:48:34,120 --> 00:48:37,600 Speaker 1: just part of human nature and it's our body's way 838 00:48:37,960 --> 00:48:43,000 Speaker 1: of of basically not I don't want to say getting 839 00:48:43,120 --> 00:48:46,680 Speaker 1: rid of, but like eliminating your body from something that 840 00:48:46,719 --> 00:48:50,120 Speaker 1: maybe wasn't going to be healthy. And it's like your 841 00:48:50,120 --> 00:48:53,960 Speaker 1: body does that with poop, you know, Like it's it's 842 00:48:53,960 --> 00:48:57,560 Speaker 1: such a natural thing that that actually happens to so 843 00:48:57,600 --> 00:49:00,560 Speaker 1: many more people than you actually know. Like you guys 844 00:49:00,560 --> 00:49:04,040 Speaker 1: start having babies or being friends with people, like getting 845 00:49:04,080 --> 00:49:07,600 Speaker 1: a little bit older, you'll you'll or if you even 846 00:49:07,640 --> 00:49:10,360 Speaker 1: if you ever go through one, all of a sudden 847 00:49:10,400 --> 00:49:13,560 Speaker 1: people are like, oh my god, I had one too, 848 00:49:13,640 --> 00:49:17,200 Speaker 1: and then it's like this this like little quiet sisterhood. 849 00:49:17,239 --> 00:49:20,920 Speaker 1: But there's nothing really specific more than just like being 850 00:49:20,920 --> 00:49:23,879 Speaker 1: there if they need you, you know what I mean. 851 00:49:24,040 --> 00:49:28,160 Speaker 1: It's really an individual it's really something that's like an 852 00:49:28,200 --> 00:49:32,000 Speaker 1: individual journey that you have to go through. Yeah, I 853 00:49:32,040 --> 00:49:35,400 Speaker 1: think just in so many situations, just being being someone 854 00:49:35,440 --> 00:49:38,120 Speaker 1: who can listen, because sometimes you don't even need to 855 00:49:38,160 --> 00:49:42,040 Speaker 1: say anything. It's more so just hearing and listening exactly 856 00:49:42,280 --> 00:49:45,399 Speaker 1: or giving them the space that they need to. Like 857 00:49:46,320 --> 00:49:51,160 Speaker 1: I remember for a little while, um, like I kind 858 00:49:51,160 --> 00:49:52,680 Speaker 1: of went m I A with a lot of my 859 00:49:52,760 --> 00:49:55,280 Speaker 1: friends and even one of my sisters for a couple 860 00:49:55,280 --> 00:50:00,040 Speaker 1: of months, and I didn't I don't even think I 861 00:50:00,160 --> 00:50:02,520 Speaker 1: was conscious that I was doing it, but it was 862 00:50:02,600 --> 00:50:08,719 Speaker 1: just maybe my survival mode. And um my sister recently 863 00:50:08,760 --> 00:50:11,400 Speaker 1: told me she was going to say something like you know, 864 00:50:11,600 --> 00:50:13,880 Speaker 1: where have you been? Or I was upset that you 865 00:50:13,880 --> 00:50:15,920 Speaker 1: you weren't asking me how I was doing or whatever, 866 00:50:16,080 --> 00:50:19,000 Speaker 1: and she's like, and then I realized that you were 867 00:50:19,080 --> 00:50:23,360 Speaker 1: just in your own like motive healing, and it was. 868 00:50:23,480 --> 00:50:25,400 Speaker 1: It wasn't anything to do with me. It was just 869 00:50:25,440 --> 00:50:27,719 Speaker 1: how you were handling it. So it's it's just more 870 00:50:27,719 --> 00:50:31,399 Speaker 1: about not again, like not making things personal, like not 871 00:50:31,480 --> 00:50:38,120 Speaker 1: everything is personal. Right, Well, I really appreciate you and 872 00:50:38,360 --> 00:50:41,759 Speaker 1: your honesty and vulnerability and saying things that a lot 873 00:50:41,840 --> 00:50:46,640 Speaker 1: of people don't feel comfortable to say, like from something 874 00:50:46,680 --> 00:50:50,040 Speaker 1: so personal as experiencing a miscarriage. And yeah, I know 875 00:50:50,120 --> 00:50:52,399 Speaker 1: people that have had miscarriages that don't even tell like 876 00:50:52,520 --> 00:50:55,880 Speaker 1: their close family. That's what I'm saying. Yeah, it's so 877 00:50:56,040 --> 00:51:01,040 Speaker 1: it's so crazy because that I never I never felt 878 00:51:01,080 --> 00:51:03,440 Speaker 1: like shameful about it, Like I never felt like I 879 00:51:03,480 --> 00:51:06,279 Speaker 1: did anything wrong or I was responsible about it. But 880 00:51:06,440 --> 00:51:09,960 Speaker 1: that I guess that's the feeling that like if if 881 00:51:10,000 --> 00:51:12,440 Speaker 1: a friend is feeling that way, that you have to 882 00:51:12,480 --> 00:51:16,360 Speaker 1: be like, there is nothing that you could have done, 883 00:51:16,640 --> 00:51:21,600 Speaker 1: you know, like this is so not about something that 884 00:51:21,640 --> 00:51:24,480 Speaker 1: you did wrong, Like there's no right or wrong when 885 00:51:24,520 --> 00:51:27,759 Speaker 1: it comes to this scenario. And not to compare miscarriages 886 00:51:27,760 --> 00:51:32,440 Speaker 1: to STDs, but I remember, but I remember when I 887 00:51:32,719 --> 00:51:35,320 Speaker 1: when I found out I've I've only ever had one STD, 888 00:51:35,800 --> 00:51:37,600 Speaker 1: and I got it with the first person I had 889 00:51:37,600 --> 00:51:40,480 Speaker 1: ever slept with. And so for me, that phone call 890 00:51:40,760 --> 00:51:44,600 Speaker 1: was traumatic because I was like, I have HPV, Like 891 00:51:44,640 --> 00:51:47,440 Speaker 1: what's wrong with me? Like I went through all these things, 892 00:51:47,480 --> 00:51:50,440 Speaker 1: I went down dark, dark paths, and then I graduated 893 00:51:50,440 --> 00:51:54,520 Speaker 1: from college of my sorority house had had it, and 894 00:51:54,560 --> 00:51:56,959 Speaker 1: like it was this this thing that nobody opened up about, 895 00:51:56,960 --> 00:51:59,120 Speaker 1: nobody talked about, but it was so common, and I 896 00:51:59,160 --> 00:52:03,520 Speaker 1: was just like, it's just like the silence is what 897 00:52:03,680 --> 00:52:08,239 Speaker 1: makes it shameful. Like it's the more that you talk 898 00:52:08,320 --> 00:52:11,080 Speaker 1: about it, if you feel comfortable talking about it, the 899 00:52:11,200 --> 00:52:14,960 Speaker 1: less shameful it is. Because the more you realize that, 900 00:52:15,040 --> 00:52:19,959 Speaker 1: like so many people are dealing with the exact same thing. 901 00:52:20,560 --> 00:52:22,839 Speaker 1: And if you think that without even like if you're 902 00:52:22,880 --> 00:52:24,360 Speaker 1: not the kind of person that needs to put it 903 00:52:24,400 --> 00:52:27,120 Speaker 1: out there, wants to share it, that you just kind 904 00:52:27,120 --> 00:52:30,240 Speaker 1: of believe in that. I think that will help you. 905 00:52:30,239 --> 00:52:34,160 Speaker 1: You know, just know that whatever you're thinking, however crazy 906 00:52:34,200 --> 00:52:36,400 Speaker 1: it may be, that you're not the first person to 907 00:52:36,480 --> 00:52:39,879 Speaker 1: think about that. Well, I've always had a lot of 908 00:52:40,160 --> 00:52:43,759 Speaker 1: feelings about pregnancy and just the things that I've heard 909 00:52:43,800 --> 00:52:46,359 Speaker 1: about it, And you've unlocked a new thing with the 910 00:52:46,480 --> 00:52:51,560 Speaker 1: nipple information and the lucifaginant information, so The thing is 911 00:52:51,560 --> 00:52:55,160 Speaker 1: is that it's all worth it, like haven in here, 912 00:52:55,880 --> 00:52:59,000 Speaker 1: like you whatever. If I want to go get my 913 00:52:59,160 --> 00:53:02,279 Speaker 1: nipples read shaped or like wait, let me tell you, you 914 00:53:02,080 --> 00:53:04,200 Speaker 1: you can order them on Amazon. I just got some 915 00:53:04,320 --> 00:53:09,040 Speaker 1: really cute Yeah. Yeah, they stick on top of your 916 00:53:09,160 --> 00:53:12,000 Speaker 1: normal ones and they're like bigger because I wanted to 917 00:53:12,040 --> 00:53:14,600 Speaker 1: wear them with like a cute like silky blouse so 918 00:53:14,640 --> 00:53:19,600 Speaker 1: that they kind of pecked through. Yeah, after you breastfeed, 919 00:53:19,600 --> 00:53:22,080 Speaker 1: your nipples will just always be hard, so you won't 920 00:53:22,080 --> 00:53:27,440 Speaker 1: even have to ever have that. Right, there's a chance 921 00:53:27,560 --> 00:53:30,120 Speaker 1: to wear my new nipples because I got them during quarantine, 922 00:53:30,160 --> 00:53:35,000 Speaker 1: and that hasn't really been heard or seeing these, I 923 00:53:35,040 --> 00:53:39,879 Speaker 1: can't wait. Yeah they're so good, Like they're so good, 924 00:53:39,880 --> 00:53:43,279 Speaker 1: I'll show them to you in my vanity. But yeah, 925 00:53:44,040 --> 00:53:48,520 Speaker 1: food for thought, all this stuff. When it comes down 926 00:53:48,560 --> 00:53:51,880 Speaker 1: to it, it's all just like vanity stuff that doesn't 927 00:53:51,920 --> 00:53:54,880 Speaker 1: really matter. Like you think about it for a second 928 00:53:54,920 --> 00:53:57,239 Speaker 1: and you're like, oh, I wish I had my old 929 00:53:57,239 --> 00:53:59,960 Speaker 1: twenty year old nipples, But like that's going to happen 930 00:54:00,040 --> 00:54:02,080 Speaker 1: that you have a baby or not. Like you're gonna 931 00:54:02,080 --> 00:54:03,759 Speaker 1: be even if you don't have a baby, you're going 932 00:54:03,800 --> 00:54:05,640 Speaker 1: to be forty five and your nipples are going to 933 00:54:05,719 --> 00:54:08,799 Speaker 1: start to look weird, you know, like, yeah, just part 934 00:54:08,840 --> 00:54:12,080 Speaker 1: of getting older that you just you just deal with. Yeah, 935 00:54:12,360 --> 00:54:14,279 Speaker 1: I'm all about I mean, it's I'm glad that we're 936 00:54:14,280 --> 00:54:16,440 Speaker 1: moving in a direction where we're talking about our bodies 937 00:54:16,480 --> 00:54:20,200 Speaker 1: and the changes and learning to love our bodies throughout 938 00:54:20,200 --> 00:54:22,279 Speaker 1: the changes. Like of course we're gonna look back at 939 00:54:22,280 --> 00:54:24,200 Speaker 1: old photos and be like, wow, I wish I had 940 00:54:24,239 --> 00:54:27,399 Speaker 1: appreciated that more. But I think like you were talking 941 00:54:27,400 --> 00:54:29,400 Speaker 1: about earlier, like being able to live in the present 942 00:54:29,440 --> 00:54:32,120 Speaker 1: and see what's happening around us instead of focusing on 943 00:54:32,160 --> 00:54:37,239 Speaker 1: these things that it's just hard when you're like you 944 00:54:37,440 --> 00:54:41,359 Speaker 1: or me who are on not hard, I don't want 945 00:54:41,400 --> 00:54:44,320 Speaker 1: to say hard, but when you're when you're on TV 946 00:54:44,600 --> 00:54:47,600 Speaker 1: or when you're putting yourself out there, it's hard not 947 00:54:47,680 --> 00:54:51,200 Speaker 1: to take those things seriously or care about how you look. 948 00:54:51,280 --> 00:54:53,520 Speaker 1: Like I wonder if I wasn't on a TV show 949 00:54:54,520 --> 00:54:56,960 Speaker 1: and I didn't have a social media presence, if I 950 00:54:56,960 --> 00:54:59,600 Speaker 1: would care as much, And like part of me thinks 951 00:54:59,640 --> 00:55:01,799 Speaker 1: I would because I always cared when I was in 952 00:55:01,880 --> 00:55:05,520 Speaker 1: high school, Like I always like wanted to have a 953 00:55:05,560 --> 00:55:08,480 Speaker 1: cute look for my for school and for my dances 954 00:55:08,560 --> 00:55:10,520 Speaker 1: and whatever. And I also grew up in l A, 955 00:55:10,719 --> 00:55:14,680 Speaker 1: so it was it was just around the culture. But 956 00:55:15,120 --> 00:55:17,439 Speaker 1: I do think at least for me, like I think 957 00:55:17,440 --> 00:55:21,879 Speaker 1: it's highlighted a little bit more because I'm judging myself 958 00:55:22,000 --> 00:55:27,239 Speaker 1: on a camera. You know, It's true. I mean, and 959 00:55:27,280 --> 00:55:29,879 Speaker 1: we're all out there in some way, like everybody's on 960 00:55:30,160 --> 00:55:33,480 Speaker 1: social media now, so whether you have like twenty followers 961 00:55:33,640 --> 00:55:36,360 Speaker 1: or a million followers, like you're going to judge yourself. 962 00:55:36,480 --> 00:55:38,839 Speaker 1: And I've been trying to go without filter, Like I've 963 00:55:38,840 --> 00:55:41,520 Speaker 1: been trying to use no filters on my Instagram more 964 00:55:41,560 --> 00:55:43,239 Speaker 1: just because I'm like, this is what I really look like. 965 00:55:43,640 --> 00:55:46,760 Speaker 1: But let me tell you, sometimes I need that filter, 966 00:55:47,440 --> 00:55:50,160 Speaker 1: Like I know, I like sometimes it's just too raw, 967 00:55:50,280 --> 00:55:53,359 Speaker 1: like it's too raw, and I'm just like it's too 968 00:55:53,360 --> 00:55:57,480 Speaker 1: exposed like it, I know, and that's fine, Like I will, 969 00:55:57,800 --> 00:56:01,880 Speaker 1: I think that's okay. That's also human and are mixture. 970 00:56:01,880 --> 00:56:03,880 Speaker 1: You know, it's gonna you're gonna get some no filter 971 00:56:03,880 --> 00:56:05,520 Speaker 1: and you're gonna get some filter. It just depends on 972 00:56:05,560 --> 00:56:07,880 Speaker 1: the day of the month, you know exactly, because like 973 00:56:07,920 --> 00:56:11,200 Speaker 1: sometimes you look better than other times, you know, and 974 00:56:11,280 --> 00:56:15,880 Speaker 1: that's just part of nature. Um, but yeah, I definitely 975 00:56:16,000 --> 00:56:20,120 Speaker 1: like I'll put that Paris filter on a lot like that. 976 00:56:20,239 --> 00:56:26,120 Speaker 1: Second one's second for me. Um, those things can get 977 00:56:26,160 --> 00:56:28,759 Speaker 1: so dark. I found one that I like, I don't 978 00:56:28,760 --> 00:56:30,520 Speaker 1: know what it did to my face, and so I 979 00:56:30,560 --> 00:56:33,040 Speaker 1: took a picture of my face with the filter, and 980 00:56:33,040 --> 00:56:34,880 Speaker 1: then I took a picture in my face without the filter, 981 00:56:34,960 --> 00:56:36,839 Speaker 1: and I compared to see, like what did this do. 982 00:56:37,440 --> 00:56:40,520 Speaker 1: What it did is it shaved down like my nose 983 00:56:40,520 --> 00:56:42,920 Speaker 1: and made my nose skinnier. And I was like, oh 984 00:56:42,960 --> 00:56:44,920 Speaker 1: my god, I need a nose job. Then all this 985 00:56:44,960 --> 00:56:48,000 Speaker 1: is perfect, And then I was like, who am I? 986 00:56:49,840 --> 00:56:54,080 Speaker 1: That's that's yeah. You look at it and you're like, oh, 987 00:56:54,120 --> 00:56:56,839 Speaker 1: this looks like I look beautiful. But then you're like, 988 00:56:57,440 --> 00:57:01,400 Speaker 1: but beautiful in what way? Like beautiful in a social 989 00:57:01,520 --> 00:57:05,680 Speaker 1: media type of way, but it's not a big extraordinary 990 00:57:05,680 --> 00:57:08,360 Speaker 1: in this builter you showed it. She would show it 991 00:57:08,400 --> 00:57:09,520 Speaker 1: to me and be like, I need to get my 992 00:57:09,560 --> 00:57:11,560 Speaker 1: lips in my nose, And I'm like, I don't even 993 00:57:11,640 --> 00:57:15,360 Speaker 1: like how you look with you like in this. It's freaky. Yeah, 994 00:57:15,520 --> 00:57:18,480 Speaker 1: but that's also because we're trained to think that that 995 00:57:18,640 --> 00:57:21,840 Speaker 1: kind of look is like pretty now too, just so 996 00:57:21,920 --> 00:57:24,600 Speaker 1: fixated on figuring out like what it did, what changes 997 00:57:24,640 --> 00:57:26,480 Speaker 1: it made to my face. And then when I figured 998 00:57:26,480 --> 00:57:28,720 Speaker 1: it out, I was like, Eureka, that's it. And then 999 00:57:28,760 --> 00:57:31,600 Speaker 1: like when I found myself saying it out loud, I 1000 00:57:31,680 --> 00:57:35,640 Speaker 1: was like, Okay, now the potential go the other way 1001 00:57:36,240 --> 00:57:39,840 Speaker 1: filter free. Yeah, like at least you noticed that. And 1002 00:57:39,920 --> 00:57:43,440 Speaker 1: I'm all about doing subtle things to like enhance how 1003 00:57:43,480 --> 00:57:46,920 Speaker 1: you look or anti aging and stuff like whatever. I 1004 00:57:47,320 --> 00:57:50,400 Speaker 1: it's I'm open to that and do that. But and 1005 00:57:50,440 --> 00:57:52,920 Speaker 1: I think, like, if that helps you with your confidence 1006 00:57:52,960 --> 00:57:55,760 Speaker 1: and they're subtle changes like that, and actually, even if 1007 00:57:55,760 --> 00:57:59,720 Speaker 1: they're not subtle, if it makes you feel better, even 1008 00:57:59,760 --> 00:58:03,040 Speaker 1: if want triple f boobs, like, if that's what's going 1009 00:58:03,080 --> 00:58:05,840 Speaker 1: to make you feel good about yourself, then like go 1010 00:58:06,040 --> 00:58:10,160 Speaker 1: do it, you know what I mean. Like the nose 1011 00:58:10,240 --> 00:58:12,600 Speaker 1: job was a whole another level because I'm not like you. 1012 00:58:13,280 --> 00:58:15,040 Speaker 1: I don't like I love my nose. It's cute, like 1013 00:58:15,080 --> 00:58:17,360 Speaker 1: I've never had an issue. And then oh my god, 1014 00:58:17,440 --> 00:58:20,480 Speaker 1: you got weird. I know. I know those filters though, 1015 00:58:20,520 --> 00:58:23,600 Speaker 1: they like make you like that, and then and then 1016 00:58:23,640 --> 00:58:26,200 Speaker 1: they turn up your nose and then they like put 1017 00:58:26,240 --> 00:58:30,360 Speaker 1: all this. I don't like those free I'm like, I 1018 00:58:30,480 --> 00:58:34,200 Speaker 1: like a good smooth or like tan or something like that. Don't. 1019 00:58:34,440 --> 00:58:37,040 Speaker 1: I don't need all my features to change, because then 1020 00:58:37,080 --> 00:58:40,000 Speaker 1: I'm going to be upset the same. Unless it's like 1021 00:58:40,040 --> 00:58:42,840 Speaker 1: a joke, which it's not even funny, I'm not going 1022 00:58:42,920 --> 00:58:45,480 Speaker 1: to do it. Yeah, a dark time for me. I 1023 00:58:45,480 --> 00:58:51,920 Speaker 1: was going through a breakup and just is like, now 1024 00:58:51,920 --> 00:58:53,800 Speaker 1: I want to set you up with someone, except where 1025 00:58:53,800 --> 00:58:55,440 Speaker 1: I have no one good to set you up with. 1026 00:58:56,240 --> 00:58:59,520 Speaker 1: That's okay, because I really just I need extraordinary, so 1027 00:59:00,600 --> 00:59:06,880 Speaker 1: you need extraordinary. We don't want to hear I have 1028 00:59:07,000 --> 00:59:11,600 Speaker 1: someone who is extraordinary, but he's just not ready for 1029 00:59:11,760 --> 00:59:22,479 Speaker 1: someone like you, is it? Ben Lyons? I love this guy, 1030 00:59:22,600 --> 00:59:27,320 Speaker 1: he's just like he's just non committal. So I would 1031 00:59:27,360 --> 00:59:29,720 Speaker 1: feel bad like you would need him and be like, 1032 00:59:29,880 --> 00:59:32,520 Speaker 1: oh my god, I love him, but he just can't commit. 1033 00:59:32,560 --> 00:59:35,040 Speaker 1: So I wouldn't ever do that to you. He wouldn't 1034 00:59:35,080 --> 00:59:42,160 Speaker 1: ever commit enter Tanya or just I don't know. It's 1035 00:59:42,200 --> 00:59:46,440 Speaker 1: seeming like it's a hym thing, not like like it 1036 00:59:46,480 --> 00:59:49,080 Speaker 1: could be as amazing. You could be as amazing as 1037 00:59:49,120 --> 00:59:51,919 Speaker 1: you are and it would be a hymn thing. Yeah, see, 1038 00:59:52,040 --> 00:59:54,440 Speaker 1: but I'm going to keep thinking commitment is is a 1039 00:59:54,440 --> 00:59:57,480 Speaker 1: big one for me. Yeah, I am like loyal as 1040 00:59:57,480 --> 01:00:03,480 Speaker 1: a lion, Like I am, yeah, loyal alliance sure, yeah, 1041 01:00:03,840 --> 01:00:06,480 Speaker 1: I don't know if it works spanetically. Yeah. And I'm 1042 01:00:06,520 --> 01:00:09,720 Speaker 1: like I'm the opposite of commitment fobe like I am 1043 01:00:09,800 --> 01:00:15,360 Speaker 1: commitment committed, yeah, commitment pro, commitment pro yeah. Like I 1044 01:00:15,360 --> 01:00:19,560 Speaker 1: feel like every relationship in my life and like work wise, 1045 01:00:19,600 --> 01:00:21,640 Speaker 1: I feel like all my things I've committed to, I've 1046 01:00:21,680 --> 01:00:23,960 Speaker 1: committed to for long periods of time. So that's a 1047 01:00:24,040 --> 01:00:27,000 Speaker 1: really really good quality. I don't really have that. I'm 1048 01:00:27,040 --> 01:00:30,320 Speaker 1: a little bit more ambivalent. I'm like committed to Timmy, 1049 01:00:30,720 --> 01:00:34,160 Speaker 1: but I'm not. I wouldn't describe myself as like a 1050 01:00:34,200 --> 01:00:39,120 Speaker 1: committed person. It's interesting to think about. I'm like scared 1051 01:00:39,160 --> 01:00:42,320 Speaker 1: of commitment, So I'm very I'm working on that. Whitney 1052 01:00:42,320 --> 01:00:45,920 Speaker 1: and Whitneys Rebecca, for sure, you yourself as a hundred 1053 01:00:45,960 --> 01:00:49,560 Speaker 1: percent Becca. I know, I honestly would have guess that 1054 01:00:49,600 --> 01:00:52,880 Speaker 1: you're Scorpio based on some of your tendencies, but I 1055 01:00:52,920 --> 01:00:55,120 Speaker 1: guess really yeah, And I'm like kind of sad about 1056 01:00:55,160 --> 01:00:57,600 Speaker 1: it because we are Theta sisters, and so I thought 1057 01:00:57,600 --> 01:00:59,640 Speaker 1: you were gonna be more of Batania, but it's really 1058 01:00:59,720 --> 01:01:09,320 Speaker 1: lean the other way for me. Sorry, I'm sure I Alpatha. 1059 01:01:10,160 --> 01:01:16,240 Speaker 1: I want that kinde in the sky I loved. So 1060 01:01:16,360 --> 01:01:18,840 Speaker 1: don't be asking me why I want to be a 1061 01:01:19,000 --> 01:01:28,400 Speaker 1: data kappa Alpathata. She doesn't. She just remembers being that one. No, 1062 01:01:28,600 --> 01:01:31,440 Speaker 1: I really don't know it. I also have the worst 1063 01:01:31,560 --> 01:01:35,520 Speaker 1: memory of all time. Oh my god, I unfortunately think 1064 01:01:35,520 --> 01:01:39,040 Speaker 1: I'll remember that just from that performance when we finished 1065 01:01:39,080 --> 01:01:40,880 Speaker 1: the zoom, I will show you the real thing in 1066 01:01:40,920 --> 01:01:43,800 Speaker 1: real life because it evolves. It involves jumping and clapping 1067 01:01:43,840 --> 01:01:47,280 Speaker 1: and hair flipping. You have to show her. We'll maybe 1068 01:01:47,280 --> 01:01:49,600 Speaker 1: you already know what like the door looks like with 1069 01:01:49,680 --> 01:01:52,600 Speaker 1: like all the faces in the door. I think you 1070 01:01:52,680 --> 01:01:55,600 Speaker 1: have to show her that I where I went to school. 1071 01:01:55,640 --> 01:01:57,600 Speaker 1: They did that, and they're all like going like this 1072 01:01:57,640 --> 01:02:01,280 Speaker 1: as you leave, this bunch of heads in the doorway. 1073 01:02:01,360 --> 01:02:06,800 Speaker 1: It's so creepy. It's so tony. Well, maybe you guys 1074 01:02:06,800 --> 01:02:09,720 Speaker 1: can come on my podcast next Yeah, we'll be there. 1075 01:02:09,800 --> 01:02:13,120 Speaker 1: You tell us when we'll be there, be Okay, where 1076 01:02:13,160 --> 01:02:18,240 Speaker 1: can people find you on Instagram at Whitney Eve Court 1077 01:02:18,960 --> 01:02:22,040 Speaker 1: And if you're interested about hearing about anything we're working 1078 01:02:22,080 --> 01:02:24,360 Speaker 1: on with Dress for Success in Chloe Wine. You can 1079 01:02:24,400 --> 01:02:26,600 Speaker 1: go to Dress for Success dot com or check out 1080 01:02:26,640 --> 01:02:29,560 Speaker 1: their instagram. Okay, and then you also have YouTube is 1081 01:02:29,560 --> 01:02:32,680 Speaker 1: it just is it Whitney Poor YouTube? Yes? YouTube is 1082 01:02:32,720 --> 01:02:36,360 Speaker 1: just my name. My podcast is with with my clothing 1083 01:02:36,440 --> 01:02:42,160 Speaker 1: line launching in April is called Cozy Co and that 1084 01:02:42,560 --> 01:02:48,800 Speaker 1: and no TikTok and no TikTok, No TikTok. Well, thank 1085 01:02:48,840 --> 01:02:52,640 Speaker 1: you so much for hanging out and everything. We had 1086 01:02:52,640 --> 01:02:55,520 Speaker 1: so much my pleasure. Thank you guys. That was so fun. 1087 01:02:57,720 --> 01:03:18,400 Speaker 1: I said, all right, wasn't that a great conversation. It's 1088 01:03:18,440 --> 01:03:21,960 Speaker 1: like we just had it, Like it really feels like 1089 01:03:22,000 --> 01:03:26,640 Speaker 1: it was just ten seconds ago. Yeah, but just so 1090 01:03:26,960 --> 01:03:28,959 Speaker 1: we have We did have this interview with her last 1091 01:03:28,960 --> 01:03:33,400 Speaker 1: week and I immediately after our interview, guess what I 1092 01:03:33,440 --> 01:03:37,720 Speaker 1: shipped over to Whitney Eveport The nipple thing. The nipple 1093 01:03:38,400 --> 01:03:40,280 Speaker 1: I need to can you know, grab those so I 1094 01:03:40,280 --> 01:03:42,560 Speaker 1: can see them? Yeah. So I actually when we finished 1095 01:03:42,560 --> 01:03:44,520 Speaker 1: with her, I went to try and find mine because 1096 01:03:44,560 --> 01:03:46,280 Speaker 1: I wanted to show them to you, and then I 1097 01:03:46,360 --> 01:03:50,200 Speaker 1: realized I threw them away because I had used them, 1098 01:03:50,240 --> 01:03:53,640 Speaker 1: and I, um, I don't even know why I washed them, 1099 01:03:53,800 --> 01:03:55,880 Speaker 1: but like you know, like we have those little pasties 1100 01:03:55,920 --> 01:04:00,360 Speaker 1: that we wear, like yeah, and they were really really sticky, 1101 01:04:00,400 --> 01:04:02,000 Speaker 1: so I washed them because I didn't want them to 1102 01:04:02,040 --> 01:04:04,120 Speaker 1: be as sticky. So I think I washed off all 1103 01:04:04,160 --> 01:04:06,400 Speaker 1: the adhesive. So I need new ones, is essentially what 1104 01:04:06,440 --> 01:04:11,520 Speaker 1: I'm saying. The whole to be sticky, the whole goal. 1105 01:04:11,600 --> 01:04:15,160 Speaker 1: I'm so confused. They were too sticky, like it was 1106 01:04:15,200 --> 01:04:19,960 Speaker 1: almost like um, not like those silicone things, like That's 1107 01:04:19,960 --> 01:04:22,440 Speaker 1: what I'm used to on my nipples, and this was 1108 01:04:22,600 --> 01:04:25,439 Speaker 1: a different consistency. So I was trying to like get 1109 01:04:25,440 --> 01:04:27,680 Speaker 1: a little bit of the goop off ended up throwing 1110 01:04:27,720 --> 01:04:30,240 Speaker 1: them away. However, I need to reorder a new pair. 1111 01:04:31,080 --> 01:04:33,200 Speaker 1: It feels like all it feels like just it was 1112 01:04:33,240 --> 01:04:36,600 Speaker 1: all lies. She never had them. Oh, we have no proof. 1113 01:04:37,680 --> 01:04:40,840 Speaker 1: I sat to picture in some group chat. I don't 1114 01:04:40,880 --> 01:04:46,160 Speaker 1: think I was on that one. I thought that it 1115 01:04:46,240 --> 01:04:49,520 Speaker 1: was the Morning Show group chat. Yeah, when I got 1116 01:04:49,560 --> 01:04:52,760 Speaker 1: them in the mail. Well, it's funny because every time 1117 01:04:53,040 --> 01:04:55,640 Speaker 1: and any time I've ever watched Friends and well, Jennifer 1118 01:04:55,680 --> 01:04:59,160 Speaker 1: Anderson in general, always her nipples always look perfect, and 1119 01:04:59,160 --> 01:05:01,600 Speaker 1: I'm always like, how does she all? Do you think 1120 01:05:01,600 --> 01:05:03,200 Speaker 1: she has those or do you think she just has 1121 01:05:03,280 --> 01:05:09,280 Speaker 1: like great first sure has those. Yes, I'm sorry, I 1122 01:05:09,360 --> 01:05:12,240 Speaker 1: have great nipples and mine don't even do that. But 1123 01:05:12,360 --> 01:05:15,720 Speaker 1: I remember also, I remember Jennifer Lopez getting ready making 1124 01:05:16,160 --> 01:05:18,000 Speaker 1: of the music video that they used to do, and like, 1125 01:05:18,120 --> 01:05:20,760 Speaker 1: what was that v H one they did? That was 1126 01:05:20,920 --> 01:05:24,960 Speaker 1: MTV whatever? Um, And she had someone who was literally 1127 01:05:25,040 --> 01:05:28,680 Speaker 1: specifically hired to twist her nipples before the shot so 1128 01:05:28,760 --> 01:05:32,120 Speaker 1: that they were ready to go work. If you can 1129 01:05:32,160 --> 01:05:36,600 Speaker 1: get it, yeah, but why why have a person doing 1130 01:05:36,640 --> 01:05:38,800 Speaker 1: it when you can just PLoP on. All I'm saying, 1131 01:05:38,840 --> 01:05:40,600 Speaker 1: it's not going to show you what she got because 1132 01:05:40,600 --> 01:05:44,320 Speaker 1: I'll send you some Tobacca. All I'm saying is that, honestly, Yeah, 1133 01:05:44,560 --> 01:05:48,360 Speaker 1: all I'm saying is that I don't think that Amazon 1134 01:05:48,600 --> 01:05:52,600 Speaker 1: had the pasty nipples when Friends was on air. That's 1135 01:05:52,600 --> 01:05:56,160 Speaker 1: all I'm trying to say. Delivered today looked outside residents 1136 01:05:56,200 --> 01:06:02,600 Speaker 1: nailbox Whinney. I didn't know what skin tone she was. 1137 01:06:02,680 --> 01:06:08,760 Speaker 1: I just got her stunning show the guys. Oh sure, yeah, 1138 01:06:08,800 --> 01:06:12,320 Speaker 1: those those look like yeah, yeah, I mean the right 1139 01:06:13,120 --> 01:06:15,720 Speaker 1: very I just do they have a photo of them 1140 01:06:15,760 --> 01:06:22,520 Speaker 1: under a shirt? Uh, let's see. No, just just just 1141 01:06:22,600 --> 01:06:27,840 Speaker 1: songs it all they're boomed and all, wow, look at that. 1142 01:06:28,040 --> 01:06:30,800 Speaker 1: Well she I can't wait to see or hear what 1143 01:06:30,840 --> 01:06:32,760 Speaker 1: she says. If she didn't say anything, I'm gonna feel 1144 01:06:32,800 --> 01:06:37,360 Speaker 1: really uncomfortable for all of us, honestly, um such in 1145 01:06:37,400 --> 01:06:41,520 Speaker 1: Gears because we we can't in this episode without talking 1146 01:06:41,560 --> 01:06:46,600 Speaker 1: about the lackluster episode of Grey's Anatomy last week. You 1147 01:06:46,640 --> 01:06:50,680 Speaker 1: know what Grey's lacked this week, my social life picked 1148 01:06:50,760 --> 01:06:54,560 Speaker 1: up the slack. So you're yeah, we should say we 1149 01:06:54,600 --> 01:06:57,560 Speaker 1: love Kim ray Verst. She's fantastic. She was a great 1150 01:06:57,600 --> 01:07:00,760 Speaker 1: gift on our show, and Grazing to me is better 1151 01:07:00,760 --> 01:07:04,320 Speaker 1: when Teddy Altman is on it. That's so funny you 1152 01:07:04,320 --> 01:07:07,280 Speaker 1: say that, because as I was getting ready for this podcast, 1153 01:07:07,360 --> 01:07:10,920 Speaker 1: I was thinking, I need to reiterate how much I 1154 01:07:10,960 --> 01:07:13,600 Speaker 1: love Kim Raber, how much I loved Teddy, and I'm 1155 01:07:13,680 --> 01:07:15,800 Speaker 1: rooting for her. I just didn't like the way that 1156 01:07:15,840 --> 01:07:18,919 Speaker 1: it was shot, like it was dreams and the flashbacks, 1157 01:07:18,920 --> 01:07:21,920 Speaker 1: which you know, to each his own how they express 1158 01:07:22,000 --> 01:07:25,320 Speaker 1: their art or decided to go. But I love Kim Raber. 1159 01:07:25,600 --> 01:07:27,680 Speaker 1: I want her back on the podcast. I would like 1160 01:07:27,720 --> 01:07:29,400 Speaker 1: to talk about this episode of her and see how 1161 01:07:29,440 --> 01:07:33,720 Speaker 1: she felt about it personally. Um, but the real highlight 1162 01:07:33,800 --> 01:07:38,720 Speaker 1: for me was at the end when they showed the 1163 01:07:38,760 --> 01:07:44,280 Speaker 1: trailer for this coming Thursday. Okay, question to the room, 1164 01:07:44,560 --> 01:07:50,880 Speaker 1: zoom room, thank you? Uh do we think? Okay? I 1165 01:07:50,920 --> 01:07:54,040 Speaker 1: know Lexi died spoiler alert if you're in season four 1166 01:07:54,120 --> 01:07:58,040 Speaker 1: or whatever. And then she died and like she's been 1167 01:07:58,120 --> 01:08:02,160 Speaker 1: dead for seasons. Is they're a world in Grey's Anatomy 1168 01:08:02,440 --> 01:08:10,080 Speaker 1: where Meredith leaves us and Lexi comes back as a 1169 01:08:10,160 --> 01:08:14,960 Speaker 1: ghost and she is Gray's Anatomy. I hope not. You know, 1170 01:08:15,080 --> 01:08:18,320 Speaker 1: That's what I hope is that. No, that's not a world. 1171 01:08:19,040 --> 01:08:21,000 Speaker 1: I always thought that's why she was there in the 1172 01:08:21,040 --> 01:08:24,599 Speaker 1: first place. Allen can move on. We have a new 1173 01:08:24,600 --> 01:08:26,760 Speaker 1: grade for grazing now. Even then they killed her, I 1174 01:08:27,080 --> 01:08:30,120 Speaker 1: don't see that as a realistic possibility. You know what 1175 01:08:30,200 --> 01:08:34,439 Speaker 1: I see as a realistic possibility, though, is that Derek 1176 01:08:35,320 --> 01:08:41,040 Speaker 1: has been in a coma all this time. No, No, 1177 01:08:41,200 --> 01:08:44,400 Speaker 1: he died spoiler alert, We don't. We didn't. Did we 1178 01:08:44,400 --> 01:08:47,720 Speaker 1: see a funeral, No, but we didn't see funerals for 1179 01:08:47,800 --> 01:08:58,200 Speaker 1: Denny either. Okay, Well, that that one. I wouldn't be 1180 01:08:58,240 --> 01:09:00,519 Speaker 1: mad if they spun that to be out way there 1181 01:09:00,560 --> 01:09:03,720 Speaker 1: was this theory because I guess everyone has been in 1182 01:09:03,760 --> 01:09:07,000 Speaker 1: white that she's seen except for Derek's in a blue 1183 01:09:07,040 --> 01:09:13,240 Speaker 1: shirt shirt. No he's not, He's not in a white shirt. 1184 01:09:13,600 --> 01:09:17,000 Speaker 1: This is some weird going on a weird road. Okay, okay, 1185 01:09:17,040 --> 01:09:21,200 Speaker 1: but anyway, so spoiler alert if you haven't watched for 1186 01:09:21,240 --> 01:09:25,759 Speaker 1: a long time now. Um, So Meredith is on the beach, 1187 01:09:25,880 --> 01:09:27,760 Speaker 1: as we know, we don't know what's happening with her, 1188 01:09:28,080 --> 01:09:32,920 Speaker 1: and she turns around and it's Lexi and I miss 1189 01:09:33,040 --> 01:09:35,800 Speaker 1: lex Lexi and Mark are two of the ones I miss, 1190 01:09:36,920 --> 01:09:40,599 Speaker 1: I know and hopefully maybe we'll meet them both before 1191 01:09:40,640 --> 01:09:42,559 Speaker 1: the sea was over, right, Because didn't somebody I think 1192 01:09:42,560 --> 01:09:44,880 Speaker 1: it was our friend Joe said that a lot of 1193 01:09:44,960 --> 01:09:48,880 Speaker 1: people are coming back. What if Mark? What if Mark 1194 01:09:49,000 --> 01:09:54,280 Speaker 1: walks up behind her, behind Lexi and proposes, Well, they're 1195 01:09:54,320 --> 01:09:58,400 Speaker 1: like together and they're like afterlife right now. So I 1196 01:09:58,439 --> 01:10:00,400 Speaker 1: don't know if proposed mind the propo as well that 1197 01:10:00,439 --> 01:10:04,320 Speaker 1: we never got. Yeah, I'd like to hear those words. 1198 01:10:05,479 --> 01:10:08,160 Speaker 1: I just got so diffranted thinking about Mark showing up too. 1199 01:10:09,760 --> 01:10:11,479 Speaker 1: But who else, Like Joe said, there is a lot 1200 01:10:11,560 --> 01:10:13,760 Speaker 1: of crazy people coming back. Who else could come back? 1201 01:10:13,760 --> 01:10:17,200 Speaker 1: Who has died? On that show. Well, his parents Sarah 1202 01:10:17,320 --> 01:10:20,960 Speaker 1: Drew Sergrew's coming back. She didn't die. I would love 1203 01:10:21,000 --> 01:10:24,360 Speaker 1: to see a Christina appearance. Her come to see Meredith 1204 01:10:24,400 --> 01:10:26,760 Speaker 1: in the hospital. But she didn't die, and that's how 1205 01:10:26,840 --> 01:10:29,120 Speaker 1: she comes back. Point. That would be a really good 1206 01:10:29,120 --> 01:10:30,960 Speaker 1: way to bring her back. Wait, what if she came back? 1207 01:10:31,000 --> 01:10:33,760 Speaker 1: You remember how when she'd almost drowned and Christina is 1208 01:10:33,800 --> 01:10:37,000 Speaker 1: holding her feet and that's when she came back. Oh 1209 01:10:37,080 --> 01:10:41,639 Speaker 1: that's good. You know, I didn't think Christina Yang would 1210 01:10:41,640 --> 01:10:46,160 Speaker 1: ever come back, but I never never thought Patrick Dempsey 1211 01:10:46,160 --> 01:10:51,599 Speaker 1: would either, So you know, weird things are happening. Well, 1212 01:10:51,640 --> 01:10:54,960 Speaker 1: I think you'd be great. Um, Tania, how did Arizona 1213 01:10:55,000 --> 01:10:58,120 Speaker 1: do in the women's tournament? Glad you asked, Mark, because 1214 01:10:58,200 --> 01:11:01,920 Speaker 1: my girls made it to the Elite eight. I don't 1215 01:11:01,960 --> 01:11:04,000 Speaker 1: know what all of this means, but I know that 1216 01:11:04,040 --> 01:11:06,439 Speaker 1: they've never been there before, so it's a big deal. 1217 01:11:07,600 --> 01:11:11,400 Speaker 1: Yeah that is great. And they play Indiana today. Yeah, 1218 01:11:11,520 --> 01:11:17,160 Speaker 1: six o'clock, so good, alright, go Wildcats, bear down, Bear down, Arizona. 1219 01:11:17,439 --> 01:11:19,240 Speaker 1: I got my gear, I got my shirt, I got 1220 01:11:19,280 --> 01:11:21,760 Speaker 1: my hat. Are you wearing it all tonight to watch 1221 01:11:21,800 --> 01:11:24,639 Speaker 1: the game? Sure? Am? I don't really watch the game. 1222 01:11:24,720 --> 01:11:27,200 Speaker 1: I just have it on, but it's just like one 1223 01:11:27,280 --> 01:11:32,720 Speaker 1: step closer to um to like eventually I think I'll 1224 01:11:32,720 --> 01:11:36,160 Speaker 1: watch well, I think I think the important part is 1225 01:11:36,200 --> 01:11:40,680 Speaker 1: that some computer system tracks that your TV is on 1226 01:11:40,760 --> 01:11:44,040 Speaker 1: it and coun to you as a view exactly. That's 1227 01:11:44,080 --> 01:11:46,240 Speaker 1: the point that is the And I just have to say, 1228 01:11:46,439 --> 01:11:48,640 Speaker 1: I love how loyal you are to your word with 1229 01:11:48,680 --> 01:11:51,360 Speaker 1: these things, because you really fully, like you talk about 1230 01:11:51,400 --> 01:11:54,720 Speaker 1: it a big game, and then you actually act to 1231 01:11:54,880 --> 01:11:58,599 Speaker 1: the capacity that you talk. So I gotta support my girls. 1232 01:11:58,680 --> 01:12:01,120 Speaker 1: I just I'm I really I'm embarrassed that I didn't 1233 01:12:01,120 --> 01:12:06,280 Speaker 1: go to one female sporting event my entire college career 1234 01:12:06,560 --> 01:12:10,920 Speaker 1: what you call it college career college trot, And now 1235 01:12:11,000 --> 01:12:14,240 Speaker 1: you're you're redeeming yourself. Yeah, I'm like, did I ever 1236 01:12:14,600 --> 01:12:20,600 Speaker 1: Arizona football? I bought Arizona men's basketball, never Arizona women's basketball. 1237 01:12:20,920 --> 01:12:22,800 Speaker 1: And you know what also like irk my pickle a 1238 01:12:22,880 --> 01:12:25,240 Speaker 1: little bit is that it's just Arizona basketball for the 1239 01:12:25,240 --> 01:12:28,840 Speaker 1: men's team, but it's Arizona women's basketball for women. It's like, 1240 01:12:29,240 --> 01:12:31,840 Speaker 1: what the f is that messed up? Ish? Oh you're 1241 01:12:31,880 --> 01:12:37,400 Speaker 1: saying it should be Arizona men's basketball. Basketball one step 1242 01:12:37,400 --> 01:12:40,320 Speaker 1: at a time, and you're doing you're taking the proper steps. 1243 01:12:40,320 --> 01:12:43,559 Speaker 1: You have merch and you've put it on. Yeah, and 1244 01:12:43,560 --> 01:12:46,439 Speaker 1: I've watched it. It's all washed, ready to go washed. 1245 01:12:46,479 --> 01:12:48,080 Speaker 1: I thought you said watch I'm like, I thought you 1246 01:12:48,160 --> 01:12:49,840 Speaker 1: just said you didn't watch it, But I have it on, 1247 01:12:49,920 --> 01:12:53,080 Speaker 1: just not not like actively engaging in it, right, not 1248 01:12:53,320 --> 01:13:03,400 Speaker 1: screaming at the two. Yeah? Well, um, PA's that dribble? Dribble? Sorry? Yeah, 1249 01:13:04,360 --> 01:13:11,519 Speaker 1: that that basket? Okay, let's do pop quiz. How many? Uh? 1250 01:13:11,920 --> 01:13:15,559 Speaker 1: How how much is one basket? War? Two points? And 1251 01:13:15,680 --> 01:13:20,800 Speaker 1: a free throw? One? And what is a travel when 1252 01:13:20,840 --> 01:13:23,400 Speaker 1: they walk with the ball? And what is a double 1253 01:13:23,479 --> 01:13:28,559 Speaker 1: dribble when they dribble walk dribble? How about how many 1254 01:13:28,560 --> 01:13:34,559 Speaker 1: players on each side of the court? Thank you? See 1255 01:13:34,600 --> 01:13:36,439 Speaker 1: what can happen in a week, every ladies and gentlemen, 1256 01:13:36,960 --> 01:13:39,920 Speaker 1: I'm proud. A lot of a lot of learning can 1257 01:13:39,960 --> 01:13:42,120 Speaker 1: happen in a week. Next week we'll talk about what 1258 01:13:42,160 --> 01:13:46,839 Speaker 1: it means to take a charge, like charge the basket, 1259 01:13:47,920 --> 01:13:52,800 Speaker 1: like when someone we'll talk about play don't even okay, 1260 01:13:52,920 --> 01:13:57,840 Speaker 1: um well I that's the that's it. Today has come 1261 01:13:57,880 --> 01:14:00,400 Speaker 1: to an end. Oh gosh, feels like a lick at split. 1262 01:14:00,760 --> 01:14:04,280 Speaker 1: It technically was, even though you all ruined my plan. 1263 01:14:04,520 --> 01:14:09,160 Speaker 1: To me, that was my favorite thing ever. Rebecca so 1264 01:14:09,680 --> 01:14:12,280 Speaker 1: be a really great guest, and I think I just 1265 01:14:12,320 --> 01:14:14,800 Speaker 1: have a hunch we're going to talk to her for 1266 01:14:14,840 --> 01:14:18,240 Speaker 1: a while. Y'all are such bullies because y'all all give 1267 01:14:18,360 --> 01:14:20,240 Speaker 1: up on me. We do this all the time where 1268 01:14:20,280 --> 01:14:23,960 Speaker 1: sometimes we say we prerecorded, and sometimes we we try 1269 01:14:24,000 --> 01:14:25,439 Speaker 1: to make it seem like it's in the same day. 1270 01:14:25,520 --> 01:14:29,639 Speaker 1: So for y'all and you're bullying, it's not so fun 1271 01:14:29,680 --> 01:14:36,400 Speaker 1: what happens to you, is it? It's usually we only 1272 01:14:36,520 --> 01:14:41,720 Speaker 1: sometimes correct your weird like analogies or whatever. That's what 1273 01:14:41,800 --> 01:14:45,640 Speaker 1: we're doing. We're correcting your weird intro okay for the 1274 01:14:45,760 --> 01:14:52,120 Speaker 1: first time. Anyways, it's rude. Um, I hope everyone else 1275 01:14:52,200 --> 01:14:57,400 Speaker 1: has a wonderful week, and I hope y'all three Well. 1276 01:14:58,200 --> 01:15:00,080 Speaker 1: I mean, he didn't laugh at the jokes, but he 1277 01:15:00,080 --> 01:15:05,879 Speaker 1: didn't say anything, so he's technically on my good side. Yeah, innocent, 1278 01:15:06,040 --> 01:15:13,759 Speaker 1: my ass Are we allowed to say that? Okay? Okay, 1279 01:15:13,800 --> 01:15:17,280 Speaker 1: I don't know. Sometimes yeah, where it's dicey. This episode 1280 01:15:17,280 --> 01:15:20,759 Speaker 1: should be rated R because we say nipple a lot too. 1281 01:15:24,240 --> 01:15:29,880 Speaker 1: Rated end. Is that what the rules are? You're not nipples? Well, 1282 01:15:29,920 --> 01:15:31,760 Speaker 1: normally when there's nipples and something, I would think it 1283 01:15:31,760 --> 01:15:36,720 Speaker 1: would be rated are Yeah, it's visually not. Yeah, really 1284 01:15:38,520 --> 01:15:40,920 Speaker 1: news to me if so. And I think we talked 1285 01:15:40,920 --> 01:15:45,160 Speaker 1: about enough other things that we would be our rated 1286 01:15:45,240 --> 01:15:49,120 Speaker 1: podcast if that were the case. Talked about eggplants going 1287 01:15:49,240 --> 01:15:56,240 Speaker 1: up here, not literal egg plants. Um correct, but your 1288 01:15:56,280 --> 01:16:00,240 Speaker 1: mom did think that. All right, on that note, we 1289 01:16:00,280 --> 01:16:03,840 Speaker 1: are out of here, have a great week, and we'll 1290 01:16:03,880 --> 01:16:07,400 Speaker 1: be back next Monday, and it will be a fully 1291 01:16:07,560 --> 01:16:12,160 Speaker 1: live episode unless oh, actually no, I'm not going to 1292 01:16:12,280 --> 01:16:14,720 Speaker 1: be here, so unless we prerecorded. Yeah, so it'll either 1293 01:16:14,760 --> 01:16:18,240 Speaker 1: be prerecorded with Becca or it'll be live with the 1294 01:16:18,400 --> 01:16:22,599 Speaker 1: guest host. Yes. So now it's like a box of chocolate. 1295 01:16:22,600 --> 01:16:27,000 Speaker 1: You never know what you're gonna get your unscrewing in. Alright, 1296 01:16:27,120 --> 01:16:30,519 Speaker 1: by everybody, love you,