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Speaker 1: Yeah, I am the fairy man.

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Speaker 2: The human spirit is my business. Their madness, their passion,

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Speaker 2: the wonderful and monstrous ways they burn out their brief candle.

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Speaker 3: I regret to tell you that very many American lives

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Speaker 3: in love.

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Speaker 4: What herd to shouts from the car, he's dead. Whether

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Speaker 4: he rebird to president or four hours, people must get

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Speaker 4: up and identifica.

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Speaker 5: I am here in the in between, to collect their

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Speaker 5: spirits and carry them to what comes next.

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Speaker 2: This road is not on any map.

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Speaker 5: It spans the thresholds between their most forbidden desires and.

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Speaker 2: Their greatest fear.

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Speaker 5: All I ask for in payment is a tale and

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Speaker 5: accounting of their lives and the great temporary that is

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Speaker 5: the land we're living.

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Speaker 2: These are their stories. This is.

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Speaker 6: The passage.

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Speaker 5: Hollywood, California, nineteen thirty two. Millions flood west from the

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Speaker 5: Great Plains, drought and dry blizzards, massive churning black clouds

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Speaker 5: of dust that can blast the hides off of cattle.

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Speaker 5: They flee with nothing but dead earth caked in their

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Speaker 5: ears and creases of their eyes, nothing but dust lining

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Speaker 5: their pockets, still spitting dirt from their teeth. Those unmoored

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Speaker 5: by environmental calamities search for opportunity. Here in the Golden State,

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Speaker 5: they come for greener grass. They pursue their dreams, while

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Speaker 5: the rest of the country sinks deeper and deeper into

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Speaker 5: what will become known as the Great Depression, making tramps

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Speaker 5: and cheats out of honest folks while putting the rest

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Speaker 5: over the ledge. The denizens of this place will they thrive?

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Speaker 5: And while factories across the land shudder and their promise

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Speaker 5: turns to rust, this place still sparkles, a hopeful beacon.

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Speaker 2: Shining out across the barren land.

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Speaker 5: Why because this place mass produces and essential good dreams.

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Speaker 5: This decade will cement Hollywood's medium as the primary way

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Speaker 5: America will understand its own story, quixotic, shiny, flawless. While

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Speaker 5: the rest of the world starves, Hollywood is made richer

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Speaker 5: by peddling their stories of hope, intrigue, adventure, mesmerizing its

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Speaker 5: patrons to become something other than themselves for the price

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Speaker 5: of a ticket. Hollywood will take all of the intricate

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Speaker 5: ugliness of the American reality, and.

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Speaker 2: We'll refine it and shine it and sell it back

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Speaker 2: to the people as a new narrative.

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Speaker 5: Americans will forevermore be suckers for spectacle at twenty four

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Speaker 5: frames per second. They will not only buy it, they

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Speaker 5: will believe it as though these were their own inventors.

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Speaker 5: And soon they will not know the difference between themselves

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Speaker 5: and their silver screen heroes. But the great Hollywood machine

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Speaker 5: eats as many dreams as it regurgitates. Countless penniless actors

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Speaker 5: will be lord in by the spectacle, and the dream

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Speaker 5: nameless starlets will get lost in this house of mirrorsgies.

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Speaker 5: Some will eventually catch their own distorted reflection him I'm

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Speaker 5: ready for my close up, Yet it will.

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Speaker 2: Be too late.

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Speaker 5: They will not recognize the eyes staring back from the

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Speaker 5: other side of the glass, and in their confusion and

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Speaker 5: their undying desire to be something, to be someone special,

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Speaker 5: to matter to the world and become greater than life itself,

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Speaker 5: they will be chewed up and spit out by men

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Speaker 5: of means and dubious intention, Real talents who will be wasted,

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Speaker 5: real lives destroyed by the gears of this industry. One

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Speaker 5: such tale belongs to the soul I meet today, Though

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Speaker 5: her story is more than a two dimensional tale projected

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Speaker 5: onto a silver lenticular screen. Like so many others who

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Speaker 5: came before her, like so many others who will follow,

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Speaker 5: she had her own intricate tale as one of its

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Speaker 5: finest artists will one day tell me on their own passage.

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Speaker 5: If you want a happy ending, that depends, of course,

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Speaker 5: on where you stop your story.

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Speaker 7: H h, hello there, it's so bizarre.

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Speaker 3: I feel stone. I stood with all the world beneath

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Speaker 3: my feet, top of top, billing on the air, between

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Speaker 3: me and the stars. Most people get churned up and

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Speaker 3: spit out by the industry, but I sort above it all,

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Speaker 3: and that is how you make a name for yourself.

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Speaker 3: I wish there was an easier way, but it's all

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Speaker 3: the same in the end. If you want to be

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Speaker 3: a star, the only way anybody makes it there is

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Speaker 3: to give away your body and your spirit and everything

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Speaker 3: alive inside of you. You cannot have both life and immortality.

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Speaker 3: It must always choose. I was a real actress, a

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Speaker 3: serious actress, just all I ever wanted to be, except

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Speaker 3: to have any sort of hold in this world.

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Speaker 8: To be great.

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Speaker 3: It's not enough being great for someone else is someone

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Speaker 3: else's game. Have you heard of me? Do you even

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Speaker 3: know who I am?

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Speaker 2: Yeah? I do?

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Speaker 3: And who am I? Now? Am I me? Or am

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Speaker 3: I playing a part.

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Speaker 9: Hard to know, isn't it.

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Speaker 3: I get confused sometimes myself. Do you recognize me?

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Speaker 10: Though I can.

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Speaker 3: Tell from the way you approach familiar, although I'm sure

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Speaker 3: I've never seen you before.

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Speaker 2: I'm here to offer you passage.

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Speaker 3: Tell me do you know my name?

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Speaker 6: I you do?

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Speaker 3: Which one.

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Speaker 2: Peck had?

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Speaker 3: Vic Hazel? Certainly not the name my mother and father

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Speaker 3: gave me.

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Speaker 7: No one here knows that.

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Speaker 3: Hmm. Yes, there were so many roles I accepted gladly,

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Speaker 3: but the ones thrust upon me by the act of

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Speaker 3: my birth were an agony in boor from beginning to end.

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Speaker 3: I hope those are not the ones for which I

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Speaker 3: have remembered.

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Speaker 2: It is time come with me.

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Speaker 3: Oh, thank you, kind stranger for offering your hand. I

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Speaker 3: can hardly see a thing in this big, blurry darkness.

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Speaker 3: Grip is so reassuring.

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Speaker 2: It's just up here.

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Speaker 3: I am glad I do not have to walk this

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Speaker 3: path alone decide where to go. I'm good about hitting

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Speaker 3: my marks. I'm best going exactly when I'm told and

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Speaker 3: saying exactly and I'm told to say. I only need

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Speaker 3: to mess things off when left without direction, there is

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Speaker 3: a great freedom and knowing where to stand and what

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Speaker 3: to say, knowing the what and the whay, lets one

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Speaker 3: live in the far more interesting why and how?

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Speaker 9: So much?

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Speaker 3: When is it cold?

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Speaker 6: Where we're going?

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Speaker 7: Are you strange?

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Speaker 3: Sounds? Faintly out there in the story emptyness, I see

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Speaker 3: images of my life. It's living through space. I can't

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Speaker 3: see the horizon, but I must confess I'm not afraid.

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Speaker 3: Am I a fool for that? You don't talk much?

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Speaker 3: Everyone where I come from is talking all of the time,

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Speaker 3: and nobody ever.

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Speaker 7: Wants to listen.

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Speaker 3: And anyways, I have so many thoughts inside my head

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Speaker 3: I wish I never thought at all, never mind saying

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Speaker 3: them out loud.

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Speaker 2: It is time for you to speak your own lines.

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Speaker 2: That is my price.

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Speaker 3: This is your memo.

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Speaker 2: It's yours.

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Speaker 9: Actually, I don't know what.

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Speaker 3: To tell you. Somehow in this place I can't remember

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Speaker 3: my lines.

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Speaker 2: Why don't you begin by telling me the story of

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Speaker 2: your name?

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Speaker 3: Oh easy, I named myself peg Have to peg O

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Speaker 3: My Heart, a very romantic play about a young woman

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Speaker 3: from Ireland who finds herself in England and falls in

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Speaker 3: love with the man who lies her. At least I

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Speaker 3: never found myself in England. That joke I played perhaps

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Speaker 3: my greatest role at just seventeen and Ibsen's The Wild Duck.

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Speaker 3: Do you know that story?

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Speaker 7: I played Headwig.

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Speaker 3: She shoots herself in the chest. The reviews were tremendous.

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Speaker 10: The story was about this family and the way they

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Speaker 10: survived dysfunction, with each member clinging to their own lives

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Speaker 10: that made life VERI The family had this bird.

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Speaker 3: This wild duck, injured and living in their attic.

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Speaker 7: Headwig the daughter.

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Speaker 3: She adored that duck and it made her happy. And

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Speaker 3: though the duck was too injured to live the way

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Speaker 7: Hadvik could believe her bird.

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Speaker 3: Was happy in her home, and that made her able

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Speaker 3: to believe that she was happy there too. When an

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Speaker 3: and his daughter, people claimed to Hedwig that he hated

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Speaker 3: the duck, and she decided to sacrifice it to win

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Speaker 3: her father's love back. When that did not work, she

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Speaker 3: sacrificed herself.

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Speaker 10: Two shots, two lives, and two illusions ended in an instant.

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Speaker 3: Ibsen wrote, deprive the average human being of his life,

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Speaker 3: lie and you rob him of his happiness? Do you

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Speaker 3: come for everyone? My father or my stepmother.

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Speaker 6: Have you met my mother?

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Speaker 3: How did she outlive me?

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Speaker 2: I don't speak of my other passengers.

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Speaker 3: I see, but I assume you've seen them all. I

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Speaker 3: was five years old when I took the boat from

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Speaker 11: America with my father.

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Speaker 3: He told me we were running towards a brighter future.

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Speaker 3: But I think that he was running for my mother

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Speaker 3: on her illness. But of course, these things always catch

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Speaker 7: My father always told me.

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Speaker 3: She died, but I knew it wasn't true. He believed

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Speaker 3: me too young to remember, but I could see the

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Speaker 3: a cloudy glass. My father brought me to New York City,

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Speaker 3: to Broadway, where he dressed in black and stood in

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Speaker 3: I knew from the first time I set foot on

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Speaker 3: for me. But there he married again, and she was

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Speaker 3: beautiful and kind. I performed in my very first play,

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Speaker 3: the school production of Peter Pan, where I played the

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Speaker 3: and then only a year later, my father was killed

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Speaker 3: loved my father, and I loved my stepmother. And by

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Speaker 3: and I was in Ohio, and I could not help

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Speaker 3: but envy them. I lived there with my uncle, who

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Speaker 3: loved me but could not understand me.

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Speaker 9: And when he moved to California to.

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Speaker 3: Work in the movies, I moved to Boston for a role,

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Speaker 3: and then back to New York City. I was in Hamlet,

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Speaker 3: you know, on Broadway. I did not speak, but I

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Speaker 3: poisoned the King. I studied the script so much that

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Speaker 3: seriousness to the Walk On roll, because after that came

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Speaker 3: more rolls and Ibsen and head fig in the Duck.

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Speaker 3: After Ibsen felt like I was always working for a time.

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Speaker 3: I originated roles in a string of premieres that mostly

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Speaker 3: did not last. And then what that did the comedy

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Speaker 3: none of the work of the richness of Ibsen, and

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Speaker 3: I ached for the satisfaction of depths and meaning of

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Speaker 3: Then from the wings entered Robert. He was ten years

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Speaker 3: my senior, with half my acting credit, which I felt

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Speaker 3: He was violent. I screamed and I wept, and I

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Speaker 9: Then came the thirties.

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Speaker 3: And out went the lights on Broadway. Almost everyone making

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Speaker 11: Unchanged.

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Speaker 12: Though standing here now seeing it all, I begin to

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Speaker 3: My father and stepmother were dead, my real mother was

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Speaker 3: twice over. The move to California felt like an irreversible settling.

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Speaker 3: My uncle was happy to take me in again, which

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Speaker 3: in felt so impossible to me that any small seeds,

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Speaker 3: I hope I am remembered for the parts I played

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Speaker 3: in more beautiful stories. I am terribly afraid my poor

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Speaker 3: most famous and my final act worth discussing. Hazel Clay

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Speaker 9: That was the film my only film.

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Speaker 13: Hazel was a lesbian, and she killed her husband, and

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Speaker 3: She starved herself to death in her hospital bed. Except

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Speaker 3: For months, I was Hazel more than I was Peg.

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Speaker 7: To prepare for my performance.

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Speaker 10: I prepared for my own death.

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Speaker 3: To truly authentically betray a woman convinced to take action

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Speaker 3: And instead of honoring the life we had created, the

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Speaker 3: on after my own death in a world where it

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Speaker 3: a prop perfectly placed for my final act. Please, wherever

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Speaker 3: we're going now, do not bring me to judgment?

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Speaker 7: Is pig. I am Hazel, heart.

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Speaker 3: Broken and wasting into nothing.

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Speaker 14: On purpose Henry Maddic pressing a shotgun in her own chest.

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Speaker 14: Peter Pan, leaving everyone and everything behind to live in

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Speaker 6: I am the wild.

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Speaker 3: Bird with the broken wings, a great sacrifice to nothing.

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Speaker 7: I laid there a long time at.

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Speaker 3: The foot of the Hollywood Sign, staring down at the

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Speaker 7: While who were standing here still?

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Speaker 6: Please?

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Speaker 7: I don't know where to go.

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Speaker 2: It's time for the truth.

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Speaker 8: I don't you the truth.

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Speaker 2: It's time for you to tell yourself.

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Speaker 7: I wish sad and jumped. That's the whole awful truth

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Speaker 7: of it, HM.

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Speaker 15: Relies.

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Speaker 8: As soon as my feet left the threshold and my

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Speaker 15: Oh my whole body screamed and agon eve when it

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Speaker 15: cinematic power of an editor's scissors to unwrite my depth

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Speaker 15: for the second time.

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Speaker 7: Even now, I.

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Speaker 3: Wish I could undo my undoer.

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Speaker 16: I always make the wrong decision with love without direction

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Speaker 16: my life, I've always been speaking someone else wrote for me,

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Speaker 7: For my own.

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Speaker 15: I wish I had given the character a Peg a

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Speaker 15: better chance.

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Speaker 3: Truthfully, how do you not want to be remembered as Peg?

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Speaker 3: Only a Peg whose death was simply a footnote the

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Speaker 6: The other way around.

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Speaker 3: Maybe I could have had my own go at remembering

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Speaker 3: not remembering, instead of worrying so much about the memories

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Speaker 3: of others. Oh, it's beautiful now, I see the road ahead,

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Speaker 3: It's amazing, there's an end to all this inky, starry darkness.

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Speaker 9: I was sure we could walk forever inside of it.

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Speaker 3: I can hear the sound of applause, firing of cameras,

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Speaker 3: It is a more beautiful end than I could have

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Speaker 3: hoped for, and I'm glad to see where we are at.

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Speaker 3: Thank you friend.

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Speaker 11: Then that sky out here, at the end of nothingness

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Speaker 11: is something spectacular.

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Speaker 6: Oh, the breeze.

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Speaker 11: Smells fresh and strange, and I can hardly remember the

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Speaker 11: last time I had the company of someone so warm familiar.

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Speaker 3: Maybe we could sit here a while before we go.

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Speaker 3: I have always thought there was a magic and sitting

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Speaker 3: it's time.

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Speaker 7: Ah, a red carpet. Haven't you thought of everything?

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Speaker 2: The double doors at the end of the carpet, beyond

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Speaker 3: Well, mustn't keep my audience waiting.

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Speaker 5: Hey, yeah, break a leg peg. She was in love

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Speaker 5: with stories, made her own way across the ocean and

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Speaker 5: then across the continent in search of them. She imbued

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Speaker 5: each character she played with depth and purpose Bravo, but

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Speaker 5: instead allowing herself to chase after meaning.

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Speaker 2: In the words of others.

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Speaker 5: Perhaps she will move forward with her heart and invest

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Speaker 5: it in her own existence. Perhaps she will find motivation

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Speaker 17: The Passage stars Dan Fogler as the Fairyman. This episode

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Speaker 17: features Shane Darcy as Peg and Whistle. Written by Kit Fay,

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Speaker 17: with additional writing by Dan Bush and Nicholas Dakowski. Our

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Speaker 17: executive producers are Nicholas Dakowski, Matthew Frederick, and Alexander Williams.

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Speaker 17: First assistant director, script's supervisor and production coordinator Sarah Klein.

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Speaker 17: Music by Ben Lovitt, additional music by Alexander Rodriguez. Casting

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Speaker 17: by Sunday Bowling Kennedy and Meg Mormon. Editing and sound

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Speaker 17: design by Dan Bush, Dialogue editing and sound mixing by

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Speaker 17: Jan Campos, Additional sound editing by Racket Sound. Our supervising

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Speaker 17: producer is Josh Than. Created by Dan Bush and Nicholas Dakowski,

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Speaker 17: Produced by Dan Bush. The Passage is of production of

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Speaker 17: iHeartRadio and Cycopia Pictures.