Speaker 1: It's a universal law that even my desire for it
Speaker 1: is the conjuring of it. I can feel it so deeply,
Speaker 1: giving it no other opportunity than to perfect itself and
Speaker 1: to manifest itself materially, so that may be somebody else
Speaker 1: experience some whole shit because they getting ready for me.
Speaker 1: Gonna get that whole shit out the system. When you've
Speaker 1: come over here, you'll be ready practice on them.
Speaker 2: Nigglas, what hurts you the most right now?
Speaker 3: In my life?
Speaker 1: Like right now, where does my pain come from? Disappointment
Speaker 1: in myself. I'm at the stage in my journey where
Speaker 1: I have to just apply what I learned without being
Speaker 1: resentful about how.
Speaker 3: I learned it.
Speaker 2: That's so important.
Speaker 1: And so when I see myself getting in my own way,
Speaker 1: it pains me because I know I'm holding up somebody
Speaker 1: else's blessing because I'm a walking, fucking asset.
Speaker 3: And I am the answer to prayer. How do I know?
Speaker 1: So many people say I thank God for you. I
Speaker 1: am the answer to prayer. What you and your feelings?
Speaker 1: You know what I'm saying in your bag today? He
Speaker 1: bit me today, like dealing with successful me, and they'll
Speaker 1: bite you. And that's and it's not intentional, but they'll
Speaker 1: bite you. He might have a ten thousand things on
Speaker 1: his mind. He say some shit to you.
Speaker 3: Today, like it and it just bite like he's just
Speaker 3: bite you. But you know, like he said.
Speaker 2: That, he ain't I'm wanting them.
Speaker 3: He not.
Speaker 1: He ain't intending to you know, he ain't trying to
Speaker 1: hurt me. He ain't trying to hurt me. That shit
Speaker 1: hurt wow, But he ain't trying to hurt me. I'm
Speaker 1: a whole space with my baby today. We're gonna talk
Speaker 1: about that later. I want to have a conversation with
Speaker 1: you about the way you say things to me.
Speaker 2: Now.
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Speaker 4: Let's get back to the show. Nothing, that's it. So
Speaker 4: I get that. But when I step in this business,
Speaker 4: the logical business man, it says to me, loan, because
Speaker 4: I've never clout chased ever, I've never been there.
Speaker 2: Do you know?
Speaker 1: How do you know the target that you got on
Speaker 1: your back because you not like them niggas?
Speaker 3: Do you know?
Speaker 1: Because if you think you got it in that in
Speaker 1: the real realm where shit goes down, when motherfuckers though,
Speaker 1: you would be in a trunk, stinking bitch and they'll
Speaker 1: find you four weeks later, if they ever find you.
Speaker 1: It's shit that go down in that room when motherfuckers, no,
Speaker 1: they can't get touched. What do you think these whole
Speaker 1: ass niggas out here saying do when they feel like
Speaker 1: they're untouchable.
Speaker 3: I stay over here.
Speaker 4: Check the businessman in me says, loon. You sit in
Speaker 4: the dog room, not dog room. You sit in the room, okay,
Speaker 4: with your ideas and your plans. Because I still look
Speaker 4: at millions of dollars of TI tied to content in podcasting,
Speaker 4: and I look at the boy. You can't do it, No,
Speaker 4: suck away. The money ain't worth going out like a squall.
Speaker 4: No matter what they give you. You don't trade your You gotta.
Speaker 1: Target on your back, baby, you do, and on a
Speaker 1: different type of time, in a different type of way.
Speaker 1: Because the game that you win, the game that you
Speaker 1: just took over. You just took over the motherfucking board.
Speaker 3: You just house the house.
Speaker 1: They want you out of here because you make a
Speaker 1: pussy nigga see itself. And they like to hide, they
Speaker 1: like to and you don't give them nowhere to hide.
Speaker 3: The culture needs you. Welcome, baby, waiting on you.
Speaker 2: Thank you, We welcome you, thank you.
Speaker 3: Oh yes, you're the heroes. Welcome, we welcome you.
Speaker 2: You know.
Speaker 4: But but you know, man, that's man. It's rough out
Speaker 4: here though. Yeah, but I think that that you're and
Speaker 4: it only the problem is with this conversation.
Speaker 2: It can't only come from me.
Speaker 4: That's what's dope about this, because nobody else could sit
Speaker 4: you here in content where and say, I've never cloud chased,
Speaker 4: I never had to get next to the trending topics.
Speaker 4: Whatever I speak on, I'm putting game next to it.
Speaker 2: No matter how you look at it.
Speaker 4: You see what I'm saying, There ain't never been no
Speaker 4: none of that. So I'm like the only person that
Speaker 4: can tell you, baby can be done. You can provide
Speaker 4: perspective to Sisa into city girls, into all of these
Speaker 4: young women that's traveling this entertainment industry.
Speaker 2: What the stakes are high, but.
Speaker 3: That comes with them as safety. Because here's the thing.
Speaker 1: You ain't gonna send me out on the dummy mission
Speaker 1: because you know I dance who came to the.
Speaker 2: Party with right, and we're gonna make sure that's done.
Speaker 1: So you see what I'm saying. So when it happens
Speaker 1: that way, you move differently. So a lot of women
Speaker 1: who are traumatized by moving that way for a whole ass.
Speaker 3: Nigga just hide.
Speaker 2: That's fucked up.
Speaker 1: And it's a lot of holeass niggas out here. The
Speaker 1: dichotomy of that is this a single mother can be
Speaker 1: a fuck boy factory. So we have to see ourselves
Speaker 1: and get these boys around some men for real, because
Speaker 1: you put it in him and you won't even know
Speaker 1: where you put it in him. An you just slide
Speaker 1: it in the cracks and he cracked up because you're
Speaker 1: the foundation trying to build destructure.
Speaker 4: Do you think that women have? And I only speak
Speaker 4: about women because that's who I deal with, right, Okay,
Speaker 4: hetero sex. So I want to be clear with that
Speaker 4: because it's a lot going on nowadays that's unclear.
Speaker 2: Sometimes it's like me and afraid to say I like women.
Speaker 1: Well, I got to be the only one sucking dick
Speaker 1: in my relationship, So that's how I feel about it.
Speaker 1: Be offended taking home with you if you'll bring you
Speaker 1: to offense. If I ever bring you to a fence,
Speaker 1: just jump over it so we can keep going.
Speaker 2: I love that, because I don't.
Speaker 1: I don't.
Speaker 3: I'm not here to offend you. I'm not. But if
Speaker 3: I ever bring you to a fence, just jump over.
Speaker 2: A lot of this you got. I love it like
Speaker 2: I love it. But but.
Speaker 3: What the fuck was I saying?
Speaker 2: I do that? Sometimes I do too, I do.
Speaker 3: It all the time. Just say something else.
Speaker 2: I was what I wanted to know because it was good.
Speaker 2: What was that? What was I headed with that?
Speaker 1: I was talking about women who end up in situations
Speaker 1: with whole ass niggas And I don't remember, I'm drawing.
Speaker 2: A blank me too.
Speaker 4: Ain't that crazy broadcasting it? But that's that's how poadcasting is,
Speaker 4: you know. Oh that's what I was gonna say. Do
Speaker 4: you believe that women have compromised their happiness for financial gain?
Speaker 3: Yeah? I have before?
Speaker 2: Yeah you have?
Speaker 1: How because I've been willing to tolerate a man that
Speaker 1: I that I didn't respect because it was financially convenient
Speaker 1: until it wasn't anymore.
Speaker 2: When it wasn't, did you run out of money or
Speaker 2: you ran out of.
Speaker 3: I ran out of respect?
Speaker 2: What made you do that? What made you do it
Speaker 2: to begin with?
Speaker 3: Because I thought it was safe. I thought it was
Speaker 3: a safe space.
Speaker 1: So it wasn't for financial compensation, even though I felt like, Okay,
Speaker 1: I can just breathe here, I can breathe. Get your
Speaker 1: shit together, like you're in a safe space now. Ex hell, girl,
Speaker 1: get your shit together, get your shit together so that
Speaker 1: you can be a real asset to your environment. Like
Speaker 1: he will never regret providing this safe space for you.
Speaker 1: So get your shit together and show him, show him
Speaker 1: how grateful you are. If the rest of your experience
Speaker 1: with this man and sheer gratitude, whatever he needs you,
Speaker 1: just do it.
Speaker 3: Get your shit together. And I wasn't safe enough to
Speaker 3: do it the way that it needed to be done.
Speaker 2: That's what I wonder.
Speaker 4: How can you continue to get up, get the bat
Speaker 4: and go to the plate with that same thought that
Speaker 4: I'm gonna hit a.
Speaker 1: Home because I love men and I love black I
Speaker 1: believe in him. Sh this shit like the lottery. You
Speaker 1: gotta play the win. Baby, I'm gonna scratch a winner.
Speaker 1: I'm gonna scratch a motherfucking winner, and every everything hell yeah,
Speaker 1: because everything just is. I can I feel the preparation.
Speaker 1: I feel the preparation. I'm a gift, and the creator
Speaker 1: will lay me at a real one's feet. He gonna
Speaker 1: know exactly what to do with me. He's gonna say,
Speaker 1: I've been waiting under you my whole motherfucking life.
Speaker 3: Come on over here. You're safe now. Until then, I
Speaker 3: just keep on preparing, just get ready.
Speaker 4: Those words have never the words that you're safe have
Speaker 4: never came out of certain people's mouths, that men have
Speaker 4: been protecting their entire existence. Right, so a man can
Speaker 4: be with a woman and protected her for the last
Speaker 4: fifteen years, provided worked his ass off, because men have
Speaker 4: been taught to be okay with.
Speaker 2: Just saying I took care of the family.
Speaker 4: If that's all I'm left with at the end of
Speaker 4: my life, I know men have died couldn't even get
Speaker 4: a tombstone while he was living. He took care of
Speaker 4: the family had and that was enough for him. But
Speaker 4: the expectations of what men are able to leave with,
Speaker 4: what men are able to obtain and keep for themselves,
Speaker 4: it is very low.
Speaker 2: It's like we don't get nothing.
Speaker 3: Well.
Speaker 1: I believe that it's also a certain type of woman
Speaker 1: that is that's very familiar and very quick to catch
Speaker 1: for man. And those are usually the woman that don't
Speaker 1: know how to unlock you, but know how to polish
Speaker 1: your lock. And then there are those of us that
Speaker 1: practiced our whole lives on unlocking men, so that when
Speaker 1: a motherfucker is worthy to be unlocked.
Speaker 2: We're gonna set him free when you say unlocked.
Speaker 1: Because their hearts be locked up, and when you unlock, your.
Speaker 2: Heart locked up. Maximum security? Is that?
Speaker 3: All right? God?
Speaker 1: Set you right next to a motherfucker skill and the key,
Speaker 1: the creator player, the Creator.
Speaker 2: Sit you next skeleton.
Speaker 1: You did that, but yeah, put it in the car,
Speaker 1: made it drive to you.
Speaker 4: Damn Lord, have mercy. But I'm serious, like, how do
Speaker 4: you unlock? Just being the same that word, Those words
Speaker 4: are so powerful.
Speaker 3: For me, Yeah, because they come with unlocked.
Speaker 2: Yes.
Speaker 4: And so when a man here is you know, you
Speaker 4: safe over here, and he believes it, but it's hard
Speaker 4: to believe into his test it. So I damnly gotta
Speaker 4: damage you to prove to me that that I'm safe here.
Speaker 1: And that's the thing that that is, that is your
Speaker 1: insecurity in the safety because life is going to present
Speaker 1: opportunity for you to see it without you initiating it anyway.
Speaker 1: You don't have to do anything. You don't got to
Speaker 1: rush the process because the Creator is kind to us.
Speaker 1: The Creator will show you. So just don't rush the
Speaker 1: process and be be so aware that you see what
Speaker 1: you see when it's being shown to you. And the
Speaker 1: Creator is kind. The Creator is a plurb. The creators
Speaker 1: show it to us multiple times. You don't got to
Speaker 1: initiate something. But if you don't see it in the
Speaker 1: area that you're initiating. You will, you will totally dismiss
Speaker 1: that the Creator has been showing it to you exactly
Speaker 1: where you need to see it, right here. But because
Speaker 1: your perspective is different, because you won't change so that
Speaker 1: you can see it differently to shift yourself so that
Speaker 1: you can have an alternate perspective, you will miss it
Speaker 1: and you'll keep trying to make it happen for yourself.
Speaker 1: Sometimes all the Creator needs you to do is just
Speaker 1: show up, because God show up when you show up
Speaker 1: inside of you. To just show up. And a lot
Speaker 1: of times we don't show up. We always on the way.
Speaker 2: Yeah, we always on the way.
Speaker 4: But I think it's so important that that that we
Speaker 4: talk about this men feeling or hearing.
Speaker 3: You can't tell a man that he's safe.
Speaker 4: You can't even tell them that you love him, tell
Speaker 4: them that turn endearment term.
Speaker 1: This is what I've learned about men, and I've a
Speaker 1: few men as practice.
Speaker 3: On a lot of levels, because.
Speaker 1: When you made for a real one, any man that
Speaker 1: you encounter is practiced until he proved that that's where
Speaker 1: you're supposed to be. So I've encountered I've encountered men
Speaker 1: that said I deserve you, and I just tell him,
Speaker 1: we'll see and if it comes out that you don't
Speaker 1: deserve me, I'm not resentful because you helped me practice,
Speaker 1: because I took a skill away from this life.
Speaker 3: Because you're gonna live life anyway. She life is time.
Speaker 4: Yeah, but the herdbreak attached to the practice you had,
Speaker 4: like you ain't losing nothing with this listen.
Speaker 1: Yes, but I'm not losing anything. I'm investing. I'm investing
Speaker 1: because I'm made for a real one, and he gonna
Speaker 1: know exactly what the fuck.
Speaker 3: To do with me.
Speaker 2: Do you have any daughters? Yes?
Speaker 3: I have a daughter.
Speaker 2: How does she receive you?
Speaker 1: I placed my daughter up for adoption. She's seventeen years old.
Speaker 1: I was twenty five. I felt she deserved better than me.
Speaker 1: I didn't know what I didn't.
Speaker 4: Now do you ket to get into any of that
Speaker 4: background in yours?
Speaker 3: Not right now, but we definitely can.
Speaker 4: Okay, So do you ket to get into so you
Speaker 4: just said she deserved better than you?
Speaker 1: At that time, I was so sad and so depressed.
Speaker 1: I just I wasn't a happy person, and my life
Speaker 1: was different, you know, thinking hustlers and stuff, you know,
Speaker 1: her dad was fresh out of prison, and I didn't
Speaker 1: want I didn't want to be his baby mama, and
Speaker 1: he was still living a different type of life and
Speaker 1: I wanted a different type of life for myself. And
Speaker 1: I didn't see the future. That's what he told me.
Speaker 1: Like I think we share space, you know, here and there,
Speaker 1: he and I we communicate, and I'm proud of the
Speaker 1: man that he became.
Speaker 3: And he told me, you didn't see you didn't see me.
Speaker 3: I saw you.
Speaker 1: I always knew that you were amazing, but you didn't
Speaker 1: see me past who you met me as that's.
Speaker 4: A problem some women have, though, Yeah, I think they
Speaker 4: take snapshots of I agree.
Speaker 1: Yeah, And at that space in my life, we were
Speaker 1: just That was some of the best fucking of my life.
Speaker 1: Like we were just. We were just young and the
Speaker 1: sex was great. And when I ended up pregnant, I
Speaker 1: didn't want the life that he provided for me at
Speaker 1: that time. And I didn't know what I knew now
Speaker 1: in my early early twenties about how to be that
Speaker 1: level of support. I just knew how to be loyal.
Speaker 1: I didn't know how to be supportive and loyal because
Speaker 1: support comes from identifying where the support is needed, because
Speaker 1: if you try to support somebody where reinforcement already is,
Speaker 1: they don't need you there. No matter how much you
Speaker 1: try to continue to support them, You're not needed there.
Speaker 1: You got to identify where you're needed and go where
Speaker 1: you're needed. And I didn't know exactly how to identify
Speaker 1: where I was needed at that stage in my journey,
Speaker 1: but it taught me how to cultivate the skill.
Speaker 2: With you being a healer now or help wait, a.
Speaker 3: Healer, you'll be saying that. I don't never say I
Speaker 3: don't know. I just I just have.
Speaker 2: That's what I'm saying. And I don't.
Speaker 4: I hate that too because dudes come up to me
Speaker 4: as mean, you saved my life, and I'm like, I
Speaker 4: get that a.
Speaker 1: Lot with tears their eyes. I'm just here to help.
Speaker 1: I just helped you help yourself. And that's why that's
Speaker 1: part of the healing place. That's part of our mission.
Speaker 1: Like we heal the world by healing ourselves. You want
Speaker 1: to know what I do over here with this community,
Speaker 1: we heal the world by healing ourselves people.
Speaker 4: Yes, so how does your daughter take you now? Like
Speaker 4: being like this help her this?
Speaker 2: I don't know, patient individual.
Speaker 1: I don't know because I haven't had communication with her
Speaker 1: in quite some time. But her dad and I we
Speaker 1: talk about things. I won't share with the things in detail.
Speaker 1: I wouldn't breach our confidence. But I'm right here. Whenever
Speaker 1: she ready, I'm ready and I done heal so much
Speaker 1: since you've been gone, girl, I got some things I
Speaker 1: can teach you, I got some love to give you.
Speaker 1: I got love on reserve for you. So whenever you're ready,
Speaker 1: I'm ready.
Speaker 4: It's so beautiful and it's rough. Though it's rough, it
Speaker 4: ain't as easy.
Speaker 1: It is because I gave her to people that I
Speaker 1: thought were better than me to find out the hard
Speaker 1: way that they not only are they not better than me,
Speaker 1: they're not good people. And so you know, life, life,
Speaker 1: I learn you and to do a number, it will,
Speaker 1: it'll you up like for fuck you up. Well, welcome
Speaker 1: to the healing place, because over here we unfuck ourselves.
Speaker 4: And I think about having a daughter. But this new age,
Speaker 4: this new era, is really rough on me.
Speaker 1: So what would I go back to the conversation because
Speaker 1: we can still talk, because the information wouldn't change even
Speaker 1: if I don't necessarily relate at this time, the information
Speaker 1: is still solid.
Speaker 3: So what was your question?
Speaker 1: King?
Speaker 4: I just want I mean, I just I want to
Speaker 4: know how she receives you. I mean to see someone.
Speaker 3: Like I can tell you about my nieces.
Speaker 2: Okay, because you know, let me let me put this down,
Speaker 2: to put perspective around it.
Speaker 4: It's like to see to know I wasn't patient with you,
Speaker 4: and you see me so patient.
Speaker 1: Now, well that you know, what's a good relationship with that?
Speaker 1: My eldest son. Men be over here, like I know
Speaker 1: you see me as a woman, and I relate to
Speaker 1: women differently.
Speaker 3: But it be men that I be.
Speaker 2: I'm here.
Speaker 3: It be men and men begetting this work. I said,
Speaker 3: I said, your present showed up. I like it when
Speaker 3: you show up time.
Speaker 2: I like that.
Speaker 1: And on nothing I like it. But it ain't nothing free,
Speaker 1: but I like it. But here's the thing like a
Speaker 1: good relationship with that would be my eldest son. I
Speaker 1: have a son that's in his twenties, and I have
Speaker 1: a son that turned thirteen. They're eight years apart. My
Speaker 1: twenty year old son and I we grew up together,
Speaker 1: so he got a different mother. He got me rough
Speaker 1: around the edges. I was a very violent, angry person.
Speaker 1: I put my hands in my teeth and my feet
Speaker 1: on people. So my thirteen year old he has an
Speaker 1: entirely different mother at the expense of his eldest brother
Speaker 1: because I practiced on him, I practiced being a mommy
Speaker 1: on him. Now I'm a better mother, much much better
Speaker 1: mother with his brother. But me and him, we got
Speaker 1: some healing to do. So what I do is I
Speaker 1: make myself available when he tells me how I injured
Speaker 1: him at certain stages of his journey, even though I
Speaker 1: didn't mean it. Because you can fuck some shit up
Speaker 1: unintentionally unintentional consequence. Yes, I suffer the consequences. And instead
Speaker 1: of making excuses for my decisions that hurt him no
Speaker 1: matter what they were, I asked him, how can I
Speaker 1: support you right now on your journey?
Speaker 4: But is there some disappointment from them seeing you so patient?
Speaker 2: Now? Yeah, when they may have felt that I needed
Speaker 2: you patient.
Speaker 3: Then absolutely, And we talk about it.
Speaker 2: That's good.
Speaker 3: We have.
Speaker 1: We have conversation and discussion about it. Matter of fact,
Speaker 1: I just had a conversation and discussion with my eldest
Speaker 1: son last night about this very topic and he helped
Speaker 1: me and he said, Mama, get it, and I forgive
Speaker 1: you and I needed that because in this life, you're
Speaker 1: gonna need some forgiveness. That's why you can't afford to
Speaker 1: be resentful. That's why you can't afford to holp revenge
Speaker 1: and vengeance in your heart, because you gonna need some
Speaker 1: forgiveness and you own only get what you give.
Speaker 3: Fact and the.
Speaker 1: Motherfuckers that you're gonna have to give a pass to,
Speaker 1: they not gonna deserve it from you, just like you're
Speaker 1: not gonna deserve it from the motherfucker that you need
Speaker 1: a pass from, who very well may be your partner,
Speaker 1: your husband, your wife, your mother, your child.
Speaker 4: I think that's the one though, the mother and the child,
Speaker 4: or the father and the child, or the that shit,
Speaker 4: that's the one.
Speaker 1: Yeah, but which goes all the way back to when
Speaker 1: we initiated the conversation. It all stems from parental relationship experience, right,
Speaker 1: all of your decision making.
Speaker 3: That's true, rooted in your childhood.
Speaker 2: That's true.
Speaker 4: See, because when I think about having a daughter, it's
Speaker 4: like they've tricked or it seems to be an atmosphere
Speaker 4: out there where women believe that money is more important
Speaker 4: than the family of fairs, than the find foundation of
Speaker 4: the face.
Speaker 1: Because women believe that money is protection. That is a
Speaker 1: good game and money and can't protect you, but you
Speaker 1: can get a real one gonna protect you. And here's
Speaker 1: the thing, this is how you know money can't protect you.
Speaker 1: These motherfuckers getting fucked in the ass for dollars, whole
Speaker 1: ass niggas and we'll get will sell you to the
Speaker 1: nigga that they fucked.
Speaker 2: Facts different kind of sucking.
Speaker 1: They different, but a real one wish you would. He'll
Speaker 1: drag that motherfucker down the hallway and cut his head.
Speaker 3: Off in a tub. About you.
Speaker 1: Oh God, you understand me that you can't buy that.
Speaker 1: So when you encounter that kind of energy, you better
Speaker 1: figure out where you fit in supporting be an asset
Speaker 1: to him. Just see where you fit, Just see where
Speaker 1: you fit, see what he needs?
Speaker 2: Does they come off his pick me?
Speaker 3: I don't give everybody. If you dating, you wanna be chose?
Speaker 2: You know how.
Speaker 1: I've been proposed to five times in my life for
Speaker 1: the men have rings in hand. I accepted one proposal
Speaker 1: under and I will say under duress, because I wasn't
Speaker 1: secure in myself. I wasn't dating from a healthy space,
Speaker 1: So the decision making was under duress, right, just decide, like,
Speaker 1: if this is my safe space, I'm gonna get my
Speaker 1: ass somewhere and sit down and get myself together. I
Speaker 1: don't give a fuck about this, this and this mother,
Speaker 1: do you love me or you're gonna keep me safe?
Speaker 1: The rest of that shit, I'll work through it. But
Speaker 1: you can't make that kind of deal with somebody who
Speaker 1: ain't solid to the.
Speaker 4: Core, especially with all you got to give as a woman,
Speaker 4: with all the equipment.
Speaker 3: When he told me.
Speaker 1: For example, with my with a specific situation that I
Speaker 1: navigated through. I built this platform, I've done all of
Speaker 1: these things to reduce it to some internet shit. That's
Speaker 1: how you you my dinner late because you on the internet.
Speaker 3: Shit.
Speaker 1: When I cook you dinner every night, you ain't got
Speaker 1: to worry about You're gonna eat because I'm a feeder.
Speaker 2: See it's unreasonable man.
Speaker 1: So so those are the kind of like when that's
Speaker 1: when I'm saying, like that whole shit when I smell
Speaker 1: your pussy, because if you can't see this, you can't
Speaker 1: see it. Because these these are top tier premium ingredients.
Speaker 1: A motherfucker don't know exactly what to do with that.
Speaker 1: You you don't recognize them ingredients because you ain't got
Speaker 1: the recipe, and I ain't got no minutes over here
Speaker 1: where motherfucker don't know what to do with me.
Speaker 2: And that's the key.
Speaker 4: And so we'll look at people who mishandle us and
Speaker 4: think to ourselves that, damn man, you ain't know what.
Speaker 2: To do with that.
Speaker 3: You just didn't know what to do.
Speaker 2: You ain't have a clue, man.
Speaker 1: And just because somebody will feel like they are deserving
Speaker 1: of you, because they identify your initial value. You can
Speaker 1: know something as valuable and have no clue the value
Speaker 1: of it, or know what to.
Speaker 3: Do with or know what to do with it.
Speaker 4: I've seen people come through the hood with telescopes worth
Speaker 4: ten grand and sell it for five dollars.
Speaker 3: You don't know what you're doing with that.
Speaker 1: Give me that, and so everything else until you get
Speaker 1: to that space is just practice for that. Because that exists.
Speaker 1: How do you know that it exists? It's a universal law. Facts,
Speaker 1: it's a universal law that even my desire for it
Speaker 1: is the conjuring of it. I can feel it so deeply,
Speaker 1: giving it no other opportunity than to perfect itself and
Speaker 1: to manifest itself materially, so that may be somebody else
Speaker 1: experience some whole shit because they getting ready for me,
Speaker 1: gonna get that whole shit out of the system. When
Speaker 1: you come over here, you be ready practice on them
Speaker 1: niggas when you get here. I'll know how to suck
Speaker 1: a good nick. When you get here, practice on them.
Speaker 1: I already know how to shut the fuck up when
Speaker 1: you get here. So that means you're gonna talk too
Speaker 1: much to that nigga over.
Speaker 2: There and learn.
Speaker 1: You learn your lesson and shut up, because when you
Speaker 1: come over here, you gotta know when to be quiet.
Speaker 1: You gotta know the difference between being controlled and being
Speaker 1: abused because you're being kept safe. Listen, when a motherfucker
Speaker 1: really kept you safe, if you ever experienced real safety,
Speaker 1: it is your honor to do what the fuck he's saying.
Speaker 3: Because you know that obeying means.
Speaker 1: You reap the benefits of the obedience, and disobedience brings
Speaker 1: pain if you tie a hurt and do what that
Speaker 1: nigga say.
Speaker 2: Please.
Speaker 1: So it's just it's just a process. So yes, do
Speaker 1: I believe? Hell yeah, how do I know? Because I've
Speaker 1: been prepared, and I there's some shit that's just in
Speaker 1: me that the experience taught me, and observation taught me,
Speaker 1: and motherfuckers ain't go through it like this and still
Speaker 1: come out like this. That's why I look like when
Speaker 1: people compliment the physicality of me, I always tell them
Speaker 1: that it's God, because it's a It's nothing but God,
Speaker 1: It's nothing but a creator. This is why I'm a
Speaker 1: real believer. It is nothing but the Creator itself that
Speaker 1: will preserve me and allow me to experience the things
Speaker 1: that I've experienced. That's because I'm made for somebody. That's it.
Speaker 1: That's because I'm somebody prayer. Other than that, I wouldn't
Speaker 1: been preserved because motherfuckers don't make it out the places
Speaker 1: I've been.
Speaker 3: And lived to tell about it.
Speaker 2: And yeah, and live to.
Speaker 1: Tell the peace and my pieces, I got some pieces
Speaker 1: over here. I'm all right, God on thissue everywhere, Like
Speaker 1: I'm all right, and I like that and I appreciate that,
Speaker 1: and I don't take.
Speaker 3: It for granted.
Speaker 2: What hurts you the most right now.
Speaker 3: In my life?
Speaker 1: Like right now, where does my pain come from? Disappointment
Speaker 1: in myself. I'm at the stage in my journey where
Speaker 1: I have to just apply what I learned without being
Speaker 1: resentful about how.
Speaker 3: I learned it.
Speaker 2: That's so important.
Speaker 1: And so when I see myself getting in my own way,
Speaker 1: it pains me because I know I'm holding up somebody
Speaker 1: else's blessing because I'm a walking fucking asset and I
Speaker 1: am the answer to prayer. How do I know? So
Speaker 1: many people say I thank God for you. I am
Speaker 1: the answer to prayer. So when I'm in the way,
Speaker 1: it pains me because I don't want to be in
Speaker 1: a way, but I'm in the way. I'm stuck right now.
Speaker 1: So that those are the kind of things that break
Speaker 1: my heart about myself, like change girl, grow through that
Speaker 1: shit and I plain it like always, all of them.
Speaker 1: I'm going everywhere like wold, like like wild flowers, shit, baby,
Speaker 1: like wild fire.
Speaker 2: Do you see yourself? Do you share your passion? Or
Speaker 2: is it just love that gets that kind of frequency
Speaker 2: from you? Like does your work get that? Does your
Speaker 2: family get that?
Speaker 3: Does your Well there's the thing.
Speaker 1: It's just me and and I'm mee everywhere I go.
Speaker 1: I don't have to know you to love you, but
Speaker 1: I have to know you to hate you.
Speaker 2: Though, See, love is not something I can throw around
Speaker 2: in that one.
Speaker 1: But here's the thing, and this is the reason why
Speaker 1: I say I don't have to know you to love you.
Speaker 1: I can show an act of love to somebody on
Speaker 1: the street that I don't.
Speaker 2: It's not.
Speaker 3: It is because.
Speaker 1: Even though even though I'm not in an intimate space
Speaker 1: with you where I'm welcoming you into my intimate life,
Speaker 1: I showed up as an answer to your prayer when
Speaker 1: you needed it the moment, and what you were probably
Speaker 1: praying for when I showed up is for somebody to
Speaker 1: show you some love.
Speaker 2: Yeah.
Speaker 3: Well, so I'm here in the name of love. I
Speaker 3: love you.
Speaker 2: But good people do bad things and bad people do
Speaker 2: good things.
Speaker 3: Yeah, people never everybody's the experience.
Speaker 4: Right, So I can't if you just by you giving,
Speaker 4: by you giving, okay, by me receiving something from your presence,
Speaker 4: doesn't indicate all the time that that's love that's doing that.
Speaker 3: It depends on the intentions.
Speaker 2: That's what I'm saying, or yeah, that's what I mean.
Speaker 3: So here's a thing like your blessing can be right.
Speaker 2: But still, but love is more than intentions.
Speaker 3: I don't think so I think love is.
Speaker 1: Intention purely intention Yeah, I don't know, because here's some things.
Speaker 2: I believe love to be safety too.
Speaker 1: But okay, and you have to intend to keep someone safe.
Speaker 1: But this is why I say that love is intentions,
Speaker 1: because you can love somebody and do something fucked up
Speaker 1: and it not be what you meant to do, And
Speaker 1: because they know that you love them and you didn't
Speaker 1: intend to do it, they will still hold space for
Speaker 1: you and grace because they know that you didn't intend
Speaker 1: to do it. That's why I love is intentions.
Speaker 4: But they don't know that you didn't intend to do it.
Speaker 4: But here's they assume.
Speaker 2: You and like knowing his participation.
Speaker 4: So when you made that decision, the only way I
Speaker 4: can know if I was in your head, Like, I
Speaker 4: can't know that you made that decision without any ill
Speaker 4: intentions unless I'm literally in your head. Now, because I
Speaker 4: love you, I can frame that like I believe you
Speaker 4: wouldn't do that to me.
Speaker 1: But here's the thing, you will feel it. And that's
Speaker 1: when we go back to the frequency conversation or the
Speaker 1: energy conversation.
Speaker 4: And I think we are privileged in that realm, though
Speaker 4: I believe there's so many people in that field that
Speaker 4: in that feels and in relationships and dealing with individuals
Speaker 4: that they don't recognize frequency.
Speaker 2: They don't know Sometimes they in.
Speaker 3: The hell because the mother fucking do some shit to
Speaker 3: hurt you.
Speaker 1: You know what I'm saying, And it'd be like, you
Speaker 1: know what, you ain't your feelings, you know what I'm saying.
Speaker 1: You ain't get bad today. He bit me today, like
Speaker 1: dealing with successful me. And they'll bite you. And that's
Speaker 1: and it's not intentional, but they'll bite you. He might
Speaker 1: have ten thousand things.
Speaker 2: On his mind.
Speaker 1: He say some shit to you today, like and it
Speaker 1: just bite like it's just bite you. But you know,
Speaker 1: like he said that, he ain't I'm wanting them. He
Speaker 1: ain't intending to you know, he ain't trying to hurt me.
Speaker 1: He ain't trying to hurt me. That shit hurt wow,
Speaker 1: But he ain't trying to hurt me. I'm a whole
Speaker 1: space for my baby today. We do gonna talk about
Speaker 1: that later. I want to have a conversation with you
Speaker 1: about the way you say things to me, because sometimes
Speaker 1: you bite and you ain't gotta bite me back.
Speaker 4: See, but that conversation is important or it's just like
Speaker 4: sometimes they ignore the fact of what's on your plate.
Speaker 2: So I I remember.
Speaker 4: Being transitioning from the streets coming into this and again
Speaker 4: people tend to dump. I'm a fixer. Like I'm a fixer.
Speaker 4: There ain't nobody in countering me. Now, okay, yeah, one
Speaker 4: of them.
Speaker 3: I like one of them.
Speaker 2: I'm taking care whatever. Hello, Hello. So what happens is
Speaker 2: I deal with people and they know.
Speaker 4: That about me, and sometimes I think it's unintentional that
Speaker 4: they dump on me.
Speaker 1: Well, that's because they feel. That's what happens when you're safety.
Speaker 1: What happens when you say, which is goes back to
Speaker 1: the conversations that I have with people when I tell you, like,
Speaker 1: I got everything, I've gotten real life murder confessions.
Speaker 3: Though I don't judge. I you know, I don't judge.
Speaker 3: I just love.
Speaker 2: I just love and you cut like that.
Speaker 1: I just love baby because it I mean shit, fuck it,
Speaker 1: because God put breath in your lungs today.
Speaker 3: You know what I'm saying.
Speaker 2: You ain't never did no pimp shit it.
Speaker 3: I get often asked to be to manage.
Speaker 2: I am often asked.
Speaker 1: Yeah, to be a madam. And you know a lot
Speaker 1: of people ask me to do some real like some
Speaker 1: bdsms I get. I could get a bag from that ship.
Speaker 1: They want me to do that.
Speaker 3: They want me to clock them dollars.
Speaker 4: The conversation like that and their passion. Oh my goodness,
Speaker 4: they'll pay you good. You ain't interested in that.
Speaker 1: I've been, I've been given some offers. I just be
Speaker 1: doing my best to just to remove myself from having
Speaker 1: to answer spiritually to anything that goes against the grain,
Speaker 1: because this is what I do know. When men be
Speaker 1: asking me to do wild ship, it's rooted in something else.
Speaker 1: So like you want me to talk to you like that?
Speaker 1: Like you want me to talk to you like that?
Speaker 1: Why you want me to talk to you like that?
Speaker 1: What's going on? Why you want me to say that
Speaker 1: to you? Why they why they make you dick card?
Speaker 1: Why they get you off?
Speaker 2: Because at least this is what they say and will
Speaker 2: roll play this, But they say because all these niggas
Speaker 2: respected me all day and day.
Speaker 4: And I get that these niggas is clowns. They laughing
Speaker 4: at my jokes when they ain't funny. Yeah, it's just so,
Speaker 4: And I don't agree with that behavior of being treated
Speaker 4: that way. But I'm saying a lot oftentimes it's CEOs
Speaker 4: of companies and things that want to be treated in
Speaker 4: a very demeaning way.
Speaker 2: In that person, I.
Speaker 1: Had some very lucrative, interesting offers, right, and it's rooted
Speaker 1: in something else.
Speaker 2: Yeah, definitely rooting in something.
Speaker 4: So I just I just, you know, what do you
Speaker 4: think about the fects of only Fans?
Speaker 3: I think, you know, I get asked.
Speaker 1: I created the only Fans three years ago because for
Speaker 1: my feet, because I got a lot of feet freaks.
Speaker 3: I got like people that like feed, right, that's why,
Speaker 3: like a lot of y'all recognize me. Y'all know where
Speaker 3: y'all know. But I never got into it.
Speaker 1: I never like posted anything over there or started the page,
Speaker 1: even though I used to do foot content. And it's
Speaker 1: very It's because like them men, they be some wild
Speaker 1: men over like they be going through some things and
Speaker 1: they be so overbearing. So Only Fans is a different
Speaker 1: version of catering to the fetish community, and the fetish
Speaker 1: community is usually rooted in some trauma. So that's what
Speaker 1: I think about it.
Speaker 4: But I think some of those are fixed, because that
Speaker 4: is effectively changed the way women interface with relationships. A
Speaker 4: lot the internet, social media has the illusion of options.
Speaker 1: Yes, has done extreme damage. Yes, and just because and
Speaker 1: then a lot of women don't realize this too. Just
Speaker 1: because a man will fuck you, they don't mean that
Speaker 1: he want to be with you. And men say anything
Speaker 1: to fuck you. Yes, they'll say anything to get in there.
Speaker 1: They want in there.
Speaker 2: He want to fuck you, not fuck with you.
Speaker 3: Yeah.
Speaker 1: Yeah, And so you got to be able to learn
Speaker 1: the difference between your dimes and your dollars and if
Speaker 1: you ain't got a real one, they don't run that
Speaker 1: game on you.
Speaker 2: And then now you're putting bodies under your belt.
Speaker 4: Now, how do you maintain self worth with with with
Speaker 4: making those decisions?
Speaker 3: Only you know what?
Speaker 1: And it's I think it's the dicholomy because I don't
Speaker 1: got a whole lot of bodies, but I don't fuck.
Speaker 3: The wrong niggas in my life. So I think it
Speaker 3: works both ways. Like you just got to take it
Speaker 3: to the Lord and prayer.
Speaker 4: I think a nigga accept you fucking the wrong niggas
Speaker 4: versus a whole bunch of bodies, which these niggas said
Speaker 4: me anything nowadays, but they will. But I think if
Speaker 4: we look at it for what it's worth, some guys
Speaker 4: that say, yo, I accept you fucking the wrong nigga
Speaker 4: four five time, but you got twenty thirty bodies because
Speaker 4: you were chasing money in your twenties on.
Speaker 3: Well, it don't be twenty thirty. You'll be like I
Speaker 3: have clients that are sex workers, and it be.
Speaker 4: And guess what I think with sex workers, I don't
Speaker 4: have nothing to givest them.
Speaker 1: I mean your hustle is your hustling too, until you
Speaker 1: come into and when she's ready, she'll.
Speaker 3: Come, you know.
Speaker 2: And so that's what I mean.
Speaker 3: When you hear me, when you're ready, you'll come to
Speaker 3: the healing place. I understand.
Speaker 1: Get your money, baby, get your motherfucking bread baby, because
Speaker 1: they keep printing to get you some. But when you're ready,
Speaker 1: when it gets too heavy, come on over here to
Speaker 1: the other place.
Speaker 4: I got some fun because I believe sex work to
Speaker 4: be very emotionally heavy.
Speaker 2: It is right because.
Speaker 1: Because women take things in and on and he released
Speaker 1: on you. When I tell you, he released on you,
Speaker 1: He leave that shit on you. He leave it all
Speaker 1: on you, and.
Speaker 2: He leave it.
Speaker 4: And the thing is is it's something to be said
Speaker 4: about compromising your moral You're having more flexibility in that way,
Speaker 4: like you wouldn't do that for them niggas you loved.
Speaker 4: You had a couple of niggas you were fucking you loved,
Speaker 4: and they couldn't get you to do that flip or
Speaker 4: whatever you're willing.
Speaker 2: To do for that money. That someone is with your goals.
Speaker 3: Back to the original thought, King, women think that money
Speaker 3: is protection.
Speaker 4: That is so deep because usually the nigga flashes the
Speaker 4: money and act like he protecting you.
Speaker 2: See, so I'm I got money, baby, I can protect you.
Speaker 1: I'm I've been in situations in my life when you
Speaker 1: find out the hard way that you need detection from
Speaker 1: what promise to protect you?
Speaker 3: What promise to protect you left you for dead? Swore
Speaker 3: it was gonna keep you safe.
Speaker 4: And you know, but see, women have a duty as well, right,
Speaker 4: The men have a dutity to be there for that.
Speaker 4: But I do think the women gotta breathe life into
Speaker 4: these dudes.
Speaker 1: Yeah, and here's this about that you got to pick
Speaker 1: and choose. We don't choose correctly. We don't make the
Speaker 1: proper choices. And a lot of things affect our capacity
Speaker 1: to choose with integrity for our lives because of our perspectives.
Speaker 1: And if you don't change, you won't see what you
Speaker 1: need to see from a certain angle. You gotta change.
Speaker 1: You gotta pivot. In order for you to pivot, you
Speaker 1: gotta change your position. In order for you to change
Speaker 1: your position, you gotta change yourself. And it goes all
Speaker 1: the way back to the foundation that you being willing
Speaker 1: to see yourself to change yourself, because if you don't
Speaker 1: see you clearly, you won't know what to change. And
Speaker 1: you gotta get honest for you to do that. And
Speaker 1: if you say, well, I told the truth and your
Speaker 1: truth is based off your feelings and not the facts,
Speaker 1: you're gonna keep on changing for the.
Speaker 3: Worst from your truth in your feelings.
Speaker 4: So facts, anything you want to leave the world with,
Speaker 4: leave the viewers with, anything you want to speak to
Speaker 4: me about any questions you got.
Speaker 1: I just want to remind people that you can come
Speaker 1: back from anything. You just gotta be willing to see
Speaker 1: yourself and make some serious adjustments. Like when you change yourself,
Speaker 1: your life changes, period. And you gotta be willing to
Speaker 1: change yourself. And it's a whole lot of you weak
Speaker 1: ass bitches out there that don't realize you need to
Speaker 1: be changed. And it's a whole lot of you whole
Speaker 1: ass niggas that don't realize you need to be changed.
Speaker 1: But if you need some love and if you need
Speaker 1: to see yourself in a safe space so that you
Speaker 1: can change in a safe space, because it's hard to
Speaker 1: heal on the battlefield. It's hard to assess where you're
Speaker 1: hurt at. So you can get your shit together when
Speaker 1: you're on the battlefield of life. And that's what the
Speaker 1: Healing Place dynasty is. It's a safe space, it's an infirmary.
Speaker 1: It's off the battlefield. So you can come over here
Speaker 1: and get you some help. But don't play with me though,
Speaker 1: because I'm a real good time baby, but I don't
Speaker 1: play much. So you come over here playing, youre gonna
Speaker 1: get your feelings real hurt. But if you know, just
Speaker 1: take me seriously, baby, come and get your healing.
Speaker 3: Baby. Welcome to the Healing Place. And I love you.
Speaker 3: I like you, I like you.
Speaker 4: I appreciate you, man, I appreciate you. Definitely appreciate you.
Speaker 4: I think we conversation needed, will do it again, of course,
Speaker 4: absolute speak about something.
Speaker 3: Yeah, you got a real good conversation. I like that.
Speaker 2: I appreciate that.
Speaker 4: And I'm gonna start doing these panels with bringing other
Speaker 4: guys and me in and it ain't gonna be the
Speaker 4: low level shit you're seeing. It's gonna be like prominent
Speaker 4: men from like like I might want to bring doctor
Speaker 4: Umar you in, and I may want to bring the
Speaker 4: nineteen Keys, and then I may want to help you know, just.
Speaker 2: A couple of different women in just way. Really, we
Speaker 2: really can build on.
Speaker 4: Some things, you know what I'm saying, But that's something
Speaker 4: behind the scenes. But I definitely appreciate you for coming. Man,
Speaker 4: great conversation, and you keep doing what you're doing.
Speaker 3: Queen him, I ain't got no choice. I do this
Speaker 3: because God told me too. Period.
Speaker 2: You've been called.
Speaker 3: I've been chosen.
Speaker 2: You've been chosen.
Speaker 3: Many are called, maybe few are chosen.
Speaker 2: You've been chosen.
Speaker 3: You've been chosen too. I appreciate that I recognize a
Speaker 3: chosen one.
Speaker 2: Yes, ma'am, we're walking in our purpose.
Speaker 3: Man, we just visiting baby.
Speaker 2: Yes, Lord, it's up that podcast. I'll take that game,
Speaker 2: do something with it. Let's get it.