1 00:00:00,600 --> 00:00:03,120 Speaker 1: It's a universal law that even my desire for it 2 00:00:03,160 --> 00:00:05,440 Speaker 1: is the conjuring of it. I can feel it so deeply, 3 00:00:05,480 --> 00:00:10,080 Speaker 1: giving it no other opportunity than to perfect itself and 4 00:00:10,119 --> 00:00:13,440 Speaker 1: to manifest itself materially, so that may be somebody else 5 00:00:13,760 --> 00:00:16,000 Speaker 1: experience some whole shit because they getting ready for me. 6 00:00:16,040 --> 00:00:17,760 Speaker 1: Gonna get that whole shit out the system. When you've 7 00:00:17,800 --> 00:00:19,840 Speaker 1: come over here, you'll be ready practice on them. 8 00:00:19,920 --> 00:00:22,800 Speaker 2: Nigglas, what hurts you the most right now? 9 00:00:23,040 --> 00:00:23,680 Speaker 3: In my life? 10 00:00:24,079 --> 00:00:28,040 Speaker 1: Like right now, where does my pain come from? Disappointment 11 00:00:28,160 --> 00:00:31,520 Speaker 1: in myself. I'm at the stage in my journey where 12 00:00:31,560 --> 00:00:34,920 Speaker 1: I have to just apply what I learned without being 13 00:00:34,960 --> 00:00:36,280 Speaker 1: resentful about how. 14 00:00:36,120 --> 00:00:36,680 Speaker 3: I learned it. 15 00:00:38,520 --> 00:00:39,480 Speaker 2: That's so important. 16 00:00:40,520 --> 00:00:42,920 Speaker 1: And so when I see myself getting in my own way, 17 00:00:43,159 --> 00:00:47,160 Speaker 1: it pains me because I know I'm holding up somebody 18 00:00:47,200 --> 00:00:50,400 Speaker 1: else's blessing because I'm a walking, fucking asset. 19 00:00:51,479 --> 00:00:54,120 Speaker 3: And I am the answer to prayer. How do I know? 20 00:00:54,400 --> 00:00:56,920 Speaker 1: So many people say I thank God for you. I 21 00:00:56,960 --> 00:01:02,120 Speaker 1: am the answer to prayer. What you and your feelings? 22 00:01:02,120 --> 00:01:04,160 Speaker 1: You know what I'm saying in your bag today? He 23 00:01:04,240 --> 00:01:06,920 Speaker 1: bit me today, like dealing with successful me, and they'll 24 00:01:06,920 --> 00:01:10,320 Speaker 1: bite you. And that's and it's not intentional, but they'll 25 00:01:10,319 --> 00:01:12,319 Speaker 1: bite you. He might have a ten thousand things on 26 00:01:12,400 --> 00:01:14,200 Speaker 1: his mind. He say some shit to you. 27 00:01:14,160 --> 00:01:17,360 Speaker 3: Today, like it and it just bite like he's just 28 00:01:17,400 --> 00:01:19,880 Speaker 3: bite you. But you know, like he said. 29 00:01:19,640 --> 00:01:21,320 Speaker 2: That, he ain't I'm wanting them. 30 00:01:21,360 --> 00:01:21,600 Speaker 3: He not. 31 00:01:21,920 --> 00:01:24,640 Speaker 1: He ain't intending to you know, he ain't trying to 32 00:01:24,720 --> 00:01:27,520 Speaker 1: hurt me. He ain't trying to hurt me. That shit 33 00:01:27,640 --> 00:01:30,440 Speaker 1: hurt wow, But he ain't trying to hurt me. I'm 34 00:01:30,480 --> 00:01:32,600 Speaker 1: a whole space with my baby today. We're gonna talk 35 00:01:32,600 --> 00:01:34,440 Speaker 1: about that later. I want to have a conversation with 36 00:01:34,520 --> 00:01:36,360 Speaker 1: you about the way you say things to me. 37 00:01:36,640 --> 00:01:36,800 Speaker 2: Now. 38 00:01:36,840 --> 00:01:40,560 Speaker 4: Niggas want to allure me to death exactly, my man, 39 00:01:40,640 --> 00:01:43,640 Speaker 4: Lord that my man looms old loon, new loom. 40 00:01:44,520 --> 00:01:48,320 Speaker 2: Okay, okay, okay, all option money you know is up 41 00:01:48,320 --> 00:01:50,840 Speaker 2: there and stuck that nigga when it's up there, man, 42 00:01:50,880 --> 00:01:52,080 Speaker 2: it's stuck there. 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But when I step in this business, 57 00:02:46,560 --> 00:02:49,520 Speaker 4: the logical business man, it says to me, loan, because 58 00:02:49,560 --> 00:02:52,440 Speaker 4: I've never clout chased ever, I've never been there. 59 00:02:52,560 --> 00:02:53,000 Speaker 2: Do you know? 60 00:02:53,040 --> 00:02:55,200 Speaker 1: How do you know the target that you got on 61 00:02:55,240 --> 00:02:58,200 Speaker 1: your back because you not like them niggas? 62 00:02:59,240 --> 00:02:59,760 Speaker 3: Do you know? 63 00:03:00,360 --> 00:03:02,440 Speaker 1: Because if you think you got it in that in 64 00:03:02,520 --> 00:03:05,919 Speaker 1: the real realm where shit goes down, when motherfuckers though, 65 00:03:05,919 --> 00:03:08,200 Speaker 1: you would be in a trunk, stinking bitch and they'll 66 00:03:08,240 --> 00:03:10,720 Speaker 1: find you four weeks later, if they ever find you. 67 00:03:11,240 --> 00:03:13,440 Speaker 1: It's shit that go down in that room when motherfuckers, no, 68 00:03:13,480 --> 00:03:15,920 Speaker 1: they can't get touched. What do you think these whole 69 00:03:15,960 --> 00:03:18,280 Speaker 1: ass niggas out here saying do when they feel like 70 00:03:18,280 --> 00:03:19,200 Speaker 1: they're untouchable. 71 00:03:19,600 --> 00:03:20,600 Speaker 3: I stay over here. 72 00:03:21,080 --> 00:03:27,040 Speaker 4: Check the businessman in me says, loon. You sit in 73 00:03:27,080 --> 00:03:30,919 Speaker 4: the dog room, not dog room. You sit in the room, okay, 74 00:03:30,960 --> 00:03:33,960 Speaker 4: with your ideas and your plans. Because I still look 75 00:03:34,000 --> 00:03:38,400 Speaker 4: at millions of dollars of TI tied to content in podcasting, 76 00:03:38,800 --> 00:03:41,280 Speaker 4: and I look at the boy. You can't do it, No, 77 00:03:41,480 --> 00:03:44,000 Speaker 4: suck away. The money ain't worth going out like a squall. 78 00:03:44,960 --> 00:03:47,840 Speaker 4: No matter what they give you. You don't trade your You gotta. 79 00:03:47,760 --> 00:03:51,200 Speaker 1: Target on your back, baby, you do, and on a 80 00:03:51,200 --> 00:03:53,119 Speaker 1: different type of time, in a different type of way. 81 00:03:53,360 --> 00:03:56,080 Speaker 1: Because the game that you win, the game that you 82 00:03:56,280 --> 00:03:59,040 Speaker 1: just took over. You just took over the motherfucking board. 83 00:03:59,080 --> 00:04:00,640 Speaker 3: You just house the house. 84 00:04:02,440 --> 00:04:04,600 Speaker 1: They want you out of here because you make a 85 00:04:04,640 --> 00:04:08,280 Speaker 1: pussy nigga see itself. And they like to hide, they 86 00:04:08,400 --> 00:04:10,240 Speaker 1: like to and you don't give them nowhere to hide. 87 00:04:11,440 --> 00:04:14,520 Speaker 3: The culture needs you. Welcome, baby, waiting on you. 88 00:04:14,640 --> 00:04:17,040 Speaker 2: Thank you, We welcome you, thank you. 89 00:04:17,160 --> 00:04:19,880 Speaker 3: Oh yes, you're the heroes. Welcome, we welcome you. 90 00:04:19,880 --> 00:04:20,120 Speaker 2: You know. 91 00:04:20,720 --> 00:04:25,800 Speaker 4: But but you know, man, that's man. It's rough out 92 00:04:25,800 --> 00:04:29,360 Speaker 4: here though. Yeah, but I think that that you're and 93 00:04:29,360 --> 00:04:31,839 Speaker 4: it only the problem is with this conversation. 94 00:04:32,320 --> 00:04:33,800 Speaker 2: It can't only come from me. 95 00:04:34,480 --> 00:04:37,760 Speaker 4: That's what's dope about this, because nobody else could sit 96 00:04:37,839 --> 00:04:40,760 Speaker 4: you here in content where and say, I've never cloud chased, 97 00:04:41,080 --> 00:04:44,320 Speaker 4: I never had to get next to the trending topics. 98 00:04:44,360 --> 00:04:47,240 Speaker 4: Whatever I speak on, I'm putting game next to it. 99 00:04:47,320 --> 00:04:48,800 Speaker 2: No matter how you look at it. 100 00:04:49,040 --> 00:04:51,800 Speaker 4: You see what I'm saying, There ain't never been no 101 00:04:51,800 --> 00:04:54,960 Speaker 4: none of that. So I'm like the only person that 102 00:04:55,040 --> 00:04:57,360 Speaker 4: can tell you, baby can be done. You can provide 103 00:04:57,440 --> 00:05:02,359 Speaker 4: perspective to Sisa into city girls, into all of these 104 00:05:02,400 --> 00:05:05,880 Speaker 4: young women that's traveling this entertainment industry. 105 00:05:05,960 --> 00:05:08,320 Speaker 2: What the stakes are high, but. 106 00:05:08,240 --> 00:05:11,360 Speaker 3: That comes with them as safety. Because here's the thing. 107 00:05:11,400 --> 00:05:12,880 Speaker 1: You ain't gonna send me out on the dummy mission 108 00:05:12,880 --> 00:05:14,400 Speaker 1: because you know I dance who came to the. 109 00:05:14,320 --> 00:05:17,719 Speaker 2: Party with right, and we're gonna make sure that's done. 110 00:05:17,800 --> 00:05:20,040 Speaker 1: So you see what I'm saying. So when it happens 111 00:05:20,080 --> 00:05:22,760 Speaker 1: that way, you move differently. So a lot of women 112 00:05:22,800 --> 00:05:25,760 Speaker 1: who are traumatized by moving that way for a whole ass. 113 00:05:25,600 --> 00:05:26,560 Speaker 3: Nigga just hide. 114 00:05:27,560 --> 00:05:28,360 Speaker 2: That's fucked up. 115 00:05:28,680 --> 00:05:30,800 Speaker 1: And it's a lot of holeass niggas out here. The 116 00:05:30,920 --> 00:05:35,520 Speaker 1: dichotomy of that is this a single mother can be 117 00:05:35,560 --> 00:05:39,080 Speaker 1: a fuck boy factory. So we have to see ourselves 118 00:05:39,120 --> 00:05:42,279 Speaker 1: and get these boys around some men for real, because 119 00:05:42,279 --> 00:05:43,560 Speaker 1: you put it in him and you won't even know 120 00:05:43,560 --> 00:05:45,039 Speaker 1: where you put it in him. An you just slide 121 00:05:45,080 --> 00:05:47,160 Speaker 1: it in the cracks and he cracked up because you're 122 00:05:47,200 --> 00:05:49,040 Speaker 1: the foundation trying to build destructure. 123 00:05:49,320 --> 00:05:55,359 Speaker 4: Do you think that women have? And I only speak 124 00:05:55,400 --> 00:05:59,159 Speaker 4: about women because that's who I deal with, right, Okay, 125 00:05:59,279 --> 00:06:02,400 Speaker 4: hetero sex. So I want to be clear with that 126 00:06:02,480 --> 00:06:05,359 Speaker 4: because it's a lot going on nowadays that's unclear. 127 00:06:05,839 --> 00:06:09,400 Speaker 2: Sometimes it's like me and afraid to say I like women. 128 00:06:09,440 --> 00:06:10,880 Speaker 1: Well, I got to be the only one sucking dick 129 00:06:10,920 --> 00:06:12,839 Speaker 1: in my relationship, So that's how I feel about it. 130 00:06:12,920 --> 00:06:14,880 Speaker 1: Be offended taking home with you if you'll bring you 131 00:06:14,920 --> 00:06:16,680 Speaker 1: to offense. If I ever bring you to a fence, 132 00:06:17,160 --> 00:06:18,720 Speaker 1: just jump over it so we can keep going. 133 00:06:19,520 --> 00:06:22,000 Speaker 2: I love that, because I don't. 134 00:06:22,000 --> 00:06:22,279 Speaker 1: I don't. 135 00:06:22,320 --> 00:06:25,000 Speaker 3: I'm not here to offend you. I'm not. But if 136 00:06:25,000 --> 00:06:27,200 Speaker 3: I ever bring you to a fence, just jump over. 137 00:06:29,200 --> 00:06:32,000 Speaker 2: A lot of this you got. I love it like 138 00:06:32,120 --> 00:06:35,320 Speaker 2: I love it. But but. 139 00:06:37,440 --> 00:06:39,039 Speaker 3: What the fuck was I saying? 140 00:06:39,040 --> 00:06:41,520 Speaker 2: I do that? Sometimes I do too, I do. 141 00:06:41,480 --> 00:06:43,440 Speaker 3: It all the time. Just say something else. 142 00:06:44,880 --> 00:06:48,320 Speaker 2: I was what I wanted to know because it was good. 143 00:06:48,360 --> 00:06:50,040 Speaker 2: What was that? What was I headed with that? 144 00:06:50,960 --> 00:06:53,360 Speaker 1: I was talking about women who end up in situations 145 00:06:53,360 --> 00:06:57,400 Speaker 1: with whole ass niggas And I don't remember, I'm drawing. 146 00:06:57,120 --> 00:06:57,840 Speaker 2: A blank me too. 147 00:06:57,880 --> 00:07:02,120 Speaker 4: Ain't that crazy broadcasting it? But that's that's how poadcasting is, 148 00:07:02,440 --> 00:07:07,920 Speaker 4: you know. Oh that's what I was gonna say. Do 149 00:07:07,960 --> 00:07:17,160 Speaker 4: you believe that women have compromised their happiness for financial gain? 150 00:07:17,280 --> 00:07:18,160 Speaker 3: Yeah? I have before? 151 00:07:19,720 --> 00:07:20,680 Speaker 2: Yeah you have? 152 00:07:21,360 --> 00:07:27,320 Speaker 1: How because I've been willing to tolerate a man that 153 00:07:27,400 --> 00:07:33,400 Speaker 1: I that I didn't respect because it was financially convenient 154 00:07:33,960 --> 00:07:35,000 Speaker 1: until it wasn't anymore. 155 00:07:36,200 --> 00:07:37,880 Speaker 2: When it wasn't, did you run out of money or 156 00:07:37,920 --> 00:07:38,520 Speaker 2: you ran out of. 157 00:07:38,680 --> 00:07:39,600 Speaker 3: I ran out of respect? 158 00:07:42,240 --> 00:07:44,320 Speaker 2: What made you do that? What made you do it 159 00:07:44,320 --> 00:07:44,920 Speaker 2: to begin with? 160 00:07:45,000 --> 00:07:46,680 Speaker 3: Because I thought it was safe. I thought it was 161 00:07:46,680 --> 00:07:47,320 Speaker 3: a safe space. 162 00:07:48,560 --> 00:07:52,040 Speaker 1: So it wasn't for financial compensation, even though I felt like, Okay, 163 00:07:52,040 --> 00:07:54,920 Speaker 1: I can just breathe here, I can breathe. Get your 164 00:07:54,920 --> 00:07:57,440 Speaker 1: shit together, like you're in a safe space now. Ex hell, girl, 165 00:07:57,440 --> 00:07:59,840 Speaker 1: get your shit together, get your shit together so that 166 00:07:59,880 --> 00:08:02,440 Speaker 1: you can be a real asset to your environment. Like 167 00:08:02,520 --> 00:08:05,160 Speaker 1: he will never regret providing this safe space for you. 168 00:08:05,240 --> 00:08:08,160 Speaker 1: So get your shit together and show him, show him 169 00:08:08,160 --> 00:08:10,800 Speaker 1: how grateful you are. If the rest of your experience 170 00:08:10,840 --> 00:08:12,960 Speaker 1: with this man and sheer gratitude, whatever he needs you, 171 00:08:13,120 --> 00:08:13,640 Speaker 1: just do it. 172 00:08:13,880 --> 00:08:17,120 Speaker 3: Get your shit together. And I wasn't safe enough to 173 00:08:17,200 --> 00:08:19,160 Speaker 3: do it the way that it needed to be done. 174 00:08:19,440 --> 00:08:20,400 Speaker 2: That's what I wonder. 175 00:08:20,480 --> 00:08:23,920 Speaker 4: How can you continue to get up, get the bat 176 00:08:24,040 --> 00:08:27,200 Speaker 4: and go to the plate with that same thought that 177 00:08:27,200 --> 00:08:27,840 Speaker 4: I'm gonna hit a. 178 00:08:27,840 --> 00:08:30,480 Speaker 1: Home because I love men and I love black I 179 00:08:31,240 --> 00:08:34,120 Speaker 1: believe in him. Sh this shit like the lottery. You 180 00:08:34,160 --> 00:08:36,160 Speaker 1: gotta play the win. Baby, I'm gonna scratch a winner. 181 00:08:36,760 --> 00:08:42,080 Speaker 1: I'm gonna scratch a motherfucking winner, and every everything hell yeah, 182 00:08:42,080 --> 00:08:44,640 Speaker 1: because everything just is. I can I feel the preparation. 183 00:08:46,400 --> 00:08:49,520 Speaker 1: I feel the preparation. I'm a gift, and the creator 184 00:08:49,520 --> 00:08:52,000 Speaker 1: will lay me at a real one's feet. He gonna 185 00:08:52,000 --> 00:08:54,920 Speaker 1: know exactly what to do with me. He's gonna say, 186 00:08:54,920 --> 00:08:56,959 Speaker 1: I've been waiting under you my whole motherfucking life. 187 00:08:57,000 --> 00:09:01,080 Speaker 3: Come on over here. You're safe now. Until then, I 188 00:09:01,160 --> 00:09:02,559 Speaker 3: just keep on preparing, just get ready. 189 00:09:03,080 --> 00:09:07,760 Speaker 4: Those words have never the words that you're safe have 190 00:09:07,960 --> 00:09:11,000 Speaker 4: never came out of certain people's mouths, that men have 191 00:09:11,080 --> 00:09:15,040 Speaker 4: been protecting their entire existence. Right, so a man can 192 00:09:15,080 --> 00:09:17,200 Speaker 4: be with a woman and protected her for the last 193 00:09:17,280 --> 00:09:21,480 Speaker 4: fifteen years, provided worked his ass off, because men have 194 00:09:21,640 --> 00:09:23,120 Speaker 4: been taught to be okay with. 195 00:09:24,600 --> 00:09:26,040 Speaker 2: Just saying I took care of the family. 196 00:09:26,080 --> 00:09:27,840 Speaker 4: If that's all I'm left with at the end of 197 00:09:27,880 --> 00:09:30,160 Speaker 4: my life, I know men have died couldn't even get 198 00:09:30,160 --> 00:09:33,280 Speaker 4: a tombstone while he was living. He took care of 199 00:09:33,280 --> 00:09:37,120 Speaker 4: the family had and that was enough for him. But 200 00:09:37,160 --> 00:09:40,480 Speaker 4: the expectations of what men are able to leave with, 201 00:09:41,720 --> 00:09:45,880 Speaker 4: what men are able to obtain and keep for themselves, 202 00:09:46,960 --> 00:09:47,800 Speaker 4: it is very low. 203 00:09:48,000 --> 00:09:49,360 Speaker 2: It's like we don't get nothing. 204 00:09:49,800 --> 00:09:50,079 Speaker 3: Well. 205 00:09:50,559 --> 00:09:53,320 Speaker 1: I believe that it's also a certain type of woman 206 00:09:53,559 --> 00:09:57,120 Speaker 1: that is that's very familiar and very quick to catch 207 00:09:57,360 --> 00:10:00,360 Speaker 1: for man. And those are usually the woman that don't 208 00:10:00,400 --> 00:10:04,000 Speaker 1: know how to unlock you, but know how to polish 209 00:10:04,080 --> 00:10:07,840 Speaker 1: your lock. And then there are those of us that 210 00:10:08,000 --> 00:10:12,719 Speaker 1: practiced our whole lives on unlocking men, so that when 211 00:10:12,720 --> 00:10:15,200 Speaker 1: a motherfucker is worthy to be unlocked. 212 00:10:14,840 --> 00:10:17,800 Speaker 2: We're gonna set him free when you say unlocked. 213 00:10:17,640 --> 00:10:23,880 Speaker 1: Because their hearts be locked up, and when you unlock, your. 214 00:10:23,760 --> 00:10:27,560 Speaker 2: Heart locked up. Maximum security? Is that? 215 00:10:27,600 --> 00:10:30,400 Speaker 3: All right? God? 216 00:10:30,440 --> 00:10:32,760 Speaker 1: Set you right next to a motherfucker skill and the key, 217 00:10:32,960 --> 00:10:37,439 Speaker 1: the creator player, the Creator. 218 00:10:37,640 --> 00:10:39,320 Speaker 2: Sit you next skeleton. 219 00:10:41,000 --> 00:10:44,760 Speaker 1: You did that, but yeah, put it in the car, 220 00:10:44,840 --> 00:10:46,720 Speaker 1: made it drive to you. 221 00:10:46,840 --> 00:10:52,600 Speaker 4: Damn Lord, have mercy. But I'm serious, like, how do 222 00:10:52,679 --> 00:10:57,000 Speaker 4: you unlock? Just being the same that word, Those words 223 00:10:57,080 --> 00:10:58,480 Speaker 4: are so powerful. 224 00:10:58,040 --> 00:10:59,760 Speaker 3: For me, Yeah, because they come with unlocked. 225 00:11:00,440 --> 00:11:00,760 Speaker 2: Yes. 226 00:11:01,440 --> 00:11:03,160 Speaker 4: And so when a man here is you know, you 227 00:11:03,360 --> 00:11:07,679 Speaker 4: safe over here, and he believes it, but it's hard 228 00:11:07,679 --> 00:11:10,079 Speaker 4: to believe into his test it. So I damnly gotta 229 00:11:10,160 --> 00:11:13,079 Speaker 4: damage you to prove to me that that I'm safe here. 230 00:11:13,200 --> 00:11:16,199 Speaker 1: And that's the thing that that is, that is your 231 00:11:16,480 --> 00:11:20,120 Speaker 1: insecurity in the safety because life is going to present 232 00:11:20,200 --> 00:11:23,600 Speaker 1: opportunity for you to see it without you initiating it anyway. 233 00:11:24,640 --> 00:11:26,719 Speaker 1: You don't have to do anything. You don't got to 234 00:11:26,800 --> 00:11:29,400 Speaker 1: rush the process because the Creator is kind to us. 235 00:11:29,480 --> 00:11:32,040 Speaker 1: The Creator will show you. So just don't rush the 236 00:11:32,080 --> 00:11:37,480 Speaker 1: process and be be so aware that you see what 237 00:11:37,520 --> 00:11:40,240 Speaker 1: you see when it's being shown to you. And the 238 00:11:40,280 --> 00:11:42,439 Speaker 1: Creator is kind. The Creator is a plurb. The creators 239 00:11:42,440 --> 00:11:45,160 Speaker 1: show it to us multiple times. You don't got to 240 00:11:45,200 --> 00:11:47,400 Speaker 1: initiate something. But if you don't see it in the 241 00:11:47,480 --> 00:11:50,760 Speaker 1: area that you're initiating. You will, you will totally dismiss 242 00:11:50,800 --> 00:11:52,600 Speaker 1: that the Creator has been showing it to you exactly 243 00:11:52,600 --> 00:11:55,000 Speaker 1: where you need to see it, right here. But because 244 00:11:55,040 --> 00:11:59,200 Speaker 1: your perspective is different, because you won't change so that 245 00:11:59,240 --> 00:12:01,760 Speaker 1: you can see it differently to shift yourself so that 246 00:12:01,800 --> 00:12:04,320 Speaker 1: you can have an alternate perspective, you will miss it 247 00:12:04,640 --> 00:12:06,480 Speaker 1: and you'll keep trying to make it happen for yourself. 248 00:12:06,520 --> 00:12:08,680 Speaker 1: Sometimes all the Creator needs you to do is just 249 00:12:08,720 --> 00:12:11,640 Speaker 1: show up, because God show up when you show up 250 00:12:11,760 --> 00:12:15,640 Speaker 1: inside of you. To just show up. And a lot 251 00:12:15,640 --> 00:12:19,040 Speaker 1: of times we don't show up. We always on the way. 252 00:12:19,480 --> 00:12:20,840 Speaker 2: Yeah, we always on the way. 253 00:12:21,559 --> 00:12:25,240 Speaker 4: But I think it's so important that that that we 254 00:12:25,280 --> 00:12:29,160 Speaker 4: talk about this men feeling or hearing. 255 00:12:30,720 --> 00:12:32,439 Speaker 3: You can't tell a man that he's safe. 256 00:12:32,679 --> 00:12:35,160 Speaker 4: You can't even tell them that you love him, tell 257 00:12:35,200 --> 00:12:37,400 Speaker 4: them that turn endearment term. 258 00:12:38,760 --> 00:12:43,040 Speaker 1: This is what I've learned about men, and I've a 259 00:12:43,120 --> 00:12:46,040 Speaker 1: few men as practice. 260 00:12:45,240 --> 00:12:47,840 Speaker 3: On a lot of levels, because. 261 00:12:48,080 --> 00:12:51,040 Speaker 1: When you made for a real one, any man that 262 00:12:51,080 --> 00:12:55,600 Speaker 1: you encounter is practiced until he proved that that's where 263 00:12:55,600 --> 00:12:58,679 Speaker 1: you're supposed to be. So I've encountered I've encountered men 264 00:12:58,720 --> 00:13:00,800 Speaker 1: that said I deserve you, and I just tell him, 265 00:13:00,840 --> 00:13:04,000 Speaker 1: we'll see and if it comes out that you don't 266 00:13:04,040 --> 00:13:06,960 Speaker 1: deserve me, I'm not resentful because you helped me practice, 267 00:13:07,400 --> 00:13:10,319 Speaker 1: because I took a skill away from this life. 268 00:13:10,480 --> 00:13:12,800 Speaker 3: Because you're gonna live life anyway. She life is time. 269 00:13:12,920 --> 00:13:16,040 Speaker 4: Yeah, but the herdbreak attached to the practice you had, 270 00:13:16,080 --> 00:13:18,439 Speaker 4: like you ain't losing nothing with this listen. 271 00:13:19,040 --> 00:13:24,000 Speaker 1: Yes, but I'm not losing anything. I'm investing. I'm investing 272 00:13:25,440 --> 00:13:27,400 Speaker 1: because I'm made for a real one, and he gonna 273 00:13:27,440 --> 00:13:29,239 Speaker 1: know exactly what the fuck. 274 00:13:29,040 --> 00:13:29,760 Speaker 3: To do with me. 275 00:13:31,559 --> 00:13:33,800 Speaker 2: Do you have any daughters? Yes? 276 00:13:33,840 --> 00:13:34,360 Speaker 3: I have a daughter. 277 00:13:35,000 --> 00:13:36,000 Speaker 2: How does she receive you? 278 00:13:36,480 --> 00:13:40,240 Speaker 1: I placed my daughter up for adoption. She's seventeen years old. 279 00:13:40,240 --> 00:13:43,720 Speaker 1: I was twenty five. I felt she deserved better than me. 280 00:13:44,400 --> 00:13:45,400 Speaker 1: I didn't know what I didn't. 281 00:13:45,400 --> 00:13:47,439 Speaker 4: Now do you ket to get into any of that 282 00:13:47,679 --> 00:13:48,840 Speaker 4: background in yours? 283 00:13:48,880 --> 00:13:50,720 Speaker 3: Not right now, but we definitely can. 284 00:13:50,920 --> 00:13:54,679 Speaker 4: Okay, So do you ket to get into so you 285 00:13:54,760 --> 00:13:56,120 Speaker 4: just said she deserved better than you? 286 00:13:56,160 --> 00:13:59,439 Speaker 1: At that time, I was so sad and so depressed. 287 00:14:00,800 --> 00:14:03,520 Speaker 1: I just I wasn't a happy person, and my life 288 00:14:03,559 --> 00:14:07,360 Speaker 1: was different, you know, thinking hustlers and stuff, you know, 289 00:14:07,880 --> 00:14:11,319 Speaker 1: her dad was fresh out of prison, and I didn't 290 00:14:11,360 --> 00:14:14,400 Speaker 1: want I didn't want to be his baby mama, and 291 00:14:15,360 --> 00:14:17,640 Speaker 1: he was still living a different type of life and 292 00:14:17,679 --> 00:14:19,920 Speaker 1: I wanted a different type of life for myself. And 293 00:14:19,960 --> 00:14:21,800 Speaker 1: I didn't see the future. That's what he told me. 294 00:14:22,720 --> 00:14:26,120 Speaker 1: Like I think we share space, you know, here and there, 295 00:14:26,200 --> 00:14:30,120 Speaker 1: he and I we communicate, and I'm proud of the 296 00:14:30,120 --> 00:14:30,920 Speaker 1: man that he became. 297 00:14:31,040 --> 00:14:33,320 Speaker 3: And he told me, you didn't see you didn't see me. 298 00:14:34,160 --> 00:14:34,760 Speaker 3: I saw you. 299 00:14:34,840 --> 00:14:36,800 Speaker 1: I always knew that you were amazing, but you didn't 300 00:14:36,840 --> 00:14:40,360 Speaker 1: see me past who you met me as that's. 301 00:14:40,200 --> 00:14:44,160 Speaker 4: A problem some women have, though, Yeah, I think they 302 00:14:44,280 --> 00:14:46,400 Speaker 4: take snapshots of I agree. 303 00:14:46,520 --> 00:14:48,760 Speaker 1: Yeah, And at that space in my life, we were 304 00:14:48,800 --> 00:14:50,760 Speaker 1: just That was some of the best fucking of my life. 305 00:14:50,840 --> 00:14:52,960 Speaker 1: Like we were just. We were just young and the 306 00:14:53,000 --> 00:14:55,640 Speaker 1: sex was great. And when I ended up pregnant, I 307 00:14:55,680 --> 00:14:57,520 Speaker 1: didn't want the life that he provided for me at 308 00:14:57,520 --> 00:15:00,600 Speaker 1: that time. And I didn't know what I knew now 309 00:15:00,920 --> 00:15:04,600 Speaker 1: in my early early twenties about how to be that 310 00:15:04,720 --> 00:15:06,880 Speaker 1: level of support. I just knew how to be loyal. 311 00:15:07,360 --> 00:15:10,400 Speaker 1: I didn't know how to be supportive and loyal because 312 00:15:10,400 --> 00:15:14,240 Speaker 1: support comes from identifying where the support is needed, because 313 00:15:14,280 --> 00:15:18,480 Speaker 1: if you try to support somebody where reinforcement already is, 314 00:15:18,960 --> 00:15:20,880 Speaker 1: they don't need you there. No matter how much you 315 00:15:20,920 --> 00:15:23,320 Speaker 1: try to continue to support them, You're not needed there. 316 00:15:23,800 --> 00:15:27,280 Speaker 1: You got to identify where you're needed and go where 317 00:15:27,280 --> 00:15:30,640 Speaker 1: you're needed. And I didn't know exactly how to identify 318 00:15:30,680 --> 00:15:33,600 Speaker 1: where I was needed at that stage in my journey, 319 00:15:33,680 --> 00:15:35,600 Speaker 1: but it taught me how to cultivate the skill. 320 00:15:36,080 --> 00:15:39,120 Speaker 2: With you being a healer now or help wait, a. 321 00:15:39,120 --> 00:15:42,800 Speaker 3: Healer, you'll be saying that. I don't never say I 322 00:15:42,840 --> 00:15:45,360 Speaker 3: don't know. I just I just have. 323 00:15:45,560 --> 00:15:47,080 Speaker 2: That's what I'm saying. And I don't. 324 00:15:47,160 --> 00:15:49,080 Speaker 4: I hate that too because dudes come up to me 325 00:15:49,120 --> 00:15:50,920 Speaker 4: as mean, you saved my life, and I'm like, I 326 00:15:50,960 --> 00:15:51,440 Speaker 4: get that a. 327 00:15:51,360 --> 00:15:54,520 Speaker 1: Lot with tears their eyes. I'm just here to help. 328 00:15:54,520 --> 00:15:56,680 Speaker 1: I just helped you help yourself. And that's why that's 329 00:15:56,720 --> 00:15:58,600 Speaker 1: part of the healing place. That's part of our mission. 330 00:15:59,160 --> 00:16:00,960 Speaker 1: Like we heal the world by healing ourselves. You want 331 00:16:00,960 --> 00:16:02,480 Speaker 1: to know what I do over here with this community, 332 00:16:02,520 --> 00:16:05,400 Speaker 1: we heal the world by healing ourselves people. 333 00:16:06,280 --> 00:16:10,520 Speaker 4: Yes, so how does your daughter take you now? Like 334 00:16:10,760 --> 00:16:14,360 Speaker 4: being like this help her this? 335 00:16:14,680 --> 00:16:17,360 Speaker 2: I don't know, patient individual. 336 00:16:16,840 --> 00:16:19,000 Speaker 1: I don't know because I haven't had communication with her 337 00:16:19,000 --> 00:16:21,400 Speaker 1: in quite some time. But her dad and I we 338 00:16:21,440 --> 00:16:25,000 Speaker 1: talk about things. I won't share with the things in detail. 339 00:16:25,120 --> 00:16:28,080 Speaker 1: I wouldn't breach our confidence. But I'm right here. Whenever 340 00:16:28,120 --> 00:16:30,920 Speaker 1: she ready, I'm ready and I done heal so much 341 00:16:30,920 --> 00:16:33,720 Speaker 1: since you've been gone, girl, I got some things I 342 00:16:33,720 --> 00:16:36,040 Speaker 1: can teach you, I got some love to give you. 343 00:16:36,440 --> 00:16:39,640 Speaker 1: I got love on reserve for you. So whenever you're ready, 344 00:16:39,680 --> 00:16:40,240 Speaker 1: I'm ready. 345 00:16:40,600 --> 00:16:45,040 Speaker 4: It's so beautiful and it's rough. Though it's rough, it 346 00:16:45,040 --> 00:16:45,760 Speaker 4: ain't as easy. 347 00:16:45,840 --> 00:16:47,280 Speaker 1: It is because I gave her to people that I 348 00:16:47,280 --> 00:16:49,440 Speaker 1: thought were better than me to find out the hard 349 00:16:49,440 --> 00:16:52,680 Speaker 1: way that they not only are they not better than me, 350 00:16:52,720 --> 00:16:56,280 Speaker 1: they're not good people. And so you know, life, life, 351 00:16:56,320 --> 00:16:59,440 Speaker 1: I learn you and to do a number, it will, 352 00:16:59,600 --> 00:17:03,560 Speaker 1: it'll you up like for fuck you up. Well, welcome 353 00:17:03,560 --> 00:17:06,680 Speaker 1: to the healing place, because over here we unfuck ourselves. 354 00:17:08,040 --> 00:17:11,400 Speaker 4: And I think about having a daughter. But this new age, 355 00:17:11,560 --> 00:17:13,439 Speaker 4: this new era, is really rough on me. 356 00:17:13,560 --> 00:17:15,960 Speaker 1: So what would I go back to the conversation because 357 00:17:15,960 --> 00:17:19,440 Speaker 1: we can still talk, because the information wouldn't change even 358 00:17:19,480 --> 00:17:22,880 Speaker 1: if I don't necessarily relate at this time, the information 359 00:17:22,960 --> 00:17:23,639 Speaker 1: is still solid. 360 00:17:24,080 --> 00:17:25,200 Speaker 3: So what was your question? 361 00:17:25,280 --> 00:17:25,480 Speaker 1: King? 362 00:17:25,920 --> 00:17:28,080 Speaker 4: I just want I mean, I just I want to 363 00:17:28,119 --> 00:17:31,880 Speaker 4: know how she receives you. I mean to see someone. 364 00:17:31,640 --> 00:17:33,680 Speaker 3: Like I can tell you about my nieces. 365 00:17:33,880 --> 00:17:36,920 Speaker 2: Okay, because you know, let me let me put this down, 366 00:17:36,960 --> 00:17:38,439 Speaker 2: to put perspective around it. 367 00:17:38,440 --> 00:17:41,119 Speaker 4: It's like to see to know I wasn't patient with you, 368 00:17:41,200 --> 00:17:43,040 Speaker 4: and you see me so patient. 369 00:17:42,640 --> 00:17:46,120 Speaker 1: Now, well that you know, what's a good relationship with that? 370 00:17:46,359 --> 00:17:50,560 Speaker 1: My eldest son. Men be over here, like I know 371 00:17:50,600 --> 00:17:52,240 Speaker 1: you see me as a woman, and I relate to 372 00:17:52,280 --> 00:17:53,160 Speaker 1: women differently. 373 00:17:53,520 --> 00:17:54,600 Speaker 3: But it be men that I be. 374 00:17:54,880 --> 00:17:55,359 Speaker 2: I'm here. 375 00:17:55,400 --> 00:17:57,800 Speaker 3: It be men and men begetting this work. I said, 376 00:17:58,200 --> 00:18:00,920 Speaker 3: I said, your present showed up. I like it when 377 00:18:00,960 --> 00:18:02,480 Speaker 3: you show up time. 378 00:18:02,480 --> 00:18:03,080 Speaker 2: I like that. 379 00:18:03,440 --> 00:18:06,600 Speaker 1: And on nothing I like it. But it ain't nothing free, 380 00:18:06,680 --> 00:18:10,479 Speaker 1: but I like it. But here's the thing like a 381 00:18:10,480 --> 00:18:12,879 Speaker 1: good relationship with that would be my eldest son. I 382 00:18:12,960 --> 00:18:14,800 Speaker 1: have a son that's in his twenties, and I have 383 00:18:14,840 --> 00:18:18,199 Speaker 1: a son that turned thirteen. They're eight years apart. My 384 00:18:18,280 --> 00:18:20,679 Speaker 1: twenty year old son and I we grew up together, 385 00:18:22,600 --> 00:18:24,320 Speaker 1: so he got a different mother. He got me rough 386 00:18:24,320 --> 00:18:27,679 Speaker 1: around the edges. I was a very violent, angry person. 387 00:18:28,280 --> 00:18:29,840 Speaker 1: I put my hands in my teeth and my feet 388 00:18:29,880 --> 00:18:33,240 Speaker 1: on people. So my thirteen year old he has an 389 00:18:33,440 --> 00:18:37,080 Speaker 1: entirely different mother at the expense of his eldest brother 390 00:18:37,960 --> 00:18:42,399 Speaker 1: because I practiced on him, I practiced being a mommy 391 00:18:42,520 --> 00:18:46,639 Speaker 1: on him. Now I'm a better mother, much much better 392 00:18:46,680 --> 00:18:49,640 Speaker 1: mother with his brother. But me and him, we got 393 00:18:49,640 --> 00:18:52,240 Speaker 1: some healing to do. So what I do is I 394 00:18:52,280 --> 00:18:56,920 Speaker 1: make myself available when he tells me how I injured 395 00:18:57,040 --> 00:19:00,719 Speaker 1: him at certain stages of his journey, even though I 396 00:19:00,800 --> 00:19:03,960 Speaker 1: didn't mean it. Because you can fuck some shit up 397 00:19:04,119 --> 00:19:10,760 Speaker 1: unintentionally unintentional consequence. Yes, I suffer the consequences. And instead 398 00:19:10,760 --> 00:19:15,280 Speaker 1: of making excuses for my decisions that hurt him no 399 00:19:15,320 --> 00:19:18,480 Speaker 1: matter what they were, I asked him, how can I 400 00:19:18,520 --> 00:19:20,399 Speaker 1: support you right now on your journey? 401 00:19:22,160 --> 00:19:26,360 Speaker 4: But is there some disappointment from them seeing you so patient? 402 00:19:26,440 --> 00:19:29,040 Speaker 2: Now? Yeah, when they may have felt that I needed 403 00:19:29,040 --> 00:19:30,040 Speaker 2: you patient. 404 00:19:29,840 --> 00:19:31,680 Speaker 3: Then absolutely, And we talk about it. 405 00:19:32,400 --> 00:19:32,920 Speaker 2: That's good. 406 00:19:33,040 --> 00:19:33,280 Speaker 3: We have. 407 00:19:33,440 --> 00:19:35,640 Speaker 1: We have conversation and discussion about it. Matter of fact, 408 00:19:35,680 --> 00:19:37,560 Speaker 1: I just had a conversation and discussion with my eldest 409 00:19:37,560 --> 00:19:41,959 Speaker 1: son last night about this very topic and he helped 410 00:19:41,960 --> 00:19:44,720 Speaker 1: me and he said, Mama, get it, and I forgive 411 00:19:44,800 --> 00:19:48,840 Speaker 1: you and I needed that because in this life, you're 412 00:19:48,840 --> 00:19:52,040 Speaker 1: gonna need some forgiveness. That's why you can't afford to 413 00:19:52,040 --> 00:19:55,080 Speaker 1: be resentful. That's why you can't afford to holp revenge 414 00:19:55,119 --> 00:19:57,479 Speaker 1: and vengeance in your heart, because you gonna need some 415 00:19:57,600 --> 00:20:01,240 Speaker 1: forgiveness and you own only get what you give. 416 00:20:01,880 --> 00:20:03,080 Speaker 3: Fact and the. 417 00:20:02,960 --> 00:20:05,639 Speaker 1: Motherfuckers that you're gonna have to give a pass to, 418 00:20:06,400 --> 00:20:09,080 Speaker 1: they not gonna deserve it from you, just like you're 419 00:20:09,080 --> 00:20:11,560 Speaker 1: not gonna deserve it from the motherfucker that you need 420 00:20:11,560 --> 00:20:14,960 Speaker 1: a pass from, who very well may be your partner, 421 00:20:15,320 --> 00:20:19,320 Speaker 1: your husband, your wife, your mother, your child. 422 00:20:20,160 --> 00:20:22,800 Speaker 4: I think that's the one though, the mother and the child, 423 00:20:22,880 --> 00:20:25,480 Speaker 4: or the father and the child, or the that shit, 424 00:20:25,640 --> 00:20:26,679 Speaker 4: that's the one. 425 00:20:26,600 --> 00:20:29,080 Speaker 1: Yeah, but which goes all the way back to when 426 00:20:29,119 --> 00:20:35,359 Speaker 1: we initiated the conversation. It all stems from parental relationship experience, right, 427 00:20:36,640 --> 00:20:38,000 Speaker 1: all of your decision making. 428 00:20:37,960 --> 00:20:40,080 Speaker 3: That's true, rooted in your childhood. 429 00:20:40,320 --> 00:20:41,399 Speaker 2: That's true. 430 00:20:41,800 --> 00:20:44,040 Speaker 4: See, because when I think about having a daughter, it's 431 00:20:44,080 --> 00:20:48,080 Speaker 4: like they've tricked or it seems to be an atmosphere 432 00:20:48,119 --> 00:20:50,800 Speaker 4: out there where women believe that money is more important 433 00:20:50,840 --> 00:20:54,080 Speaker 4: than the family of fairs, than the find foundation of 434 00:20:54,119 --> 00:20:54,400 Speaker 4: the face. 435 00:20:54,440 --> 00:20:58,320 Speaker 1: Because women believe that money is protection. That is a 436 00:20:58,359 --> 00:21:02,080 Speaker 1: good game and money and can't protect you, but you 437 00:21:02,080 --> 00:21:04,400 Speaker 1: can get a real one gonna protect you. And here's 438 00:21:04,440 --> 00:21:06,240 Speaker 1: the thing, this is how you know money can't protect you. 439 00:21:06,480 --> 00:21:09,200 Speaker 1: These motherfuckers getting fucked in the ass for dollars, whole 440 00:21:09,280 --> 00:21:11,840 Speaker 1: ass niggas and we'll get will sell you to the 441 00:21:11,880 --> 00:21:13,040 Speaker 1: nigga that they fucked. 442 00:21:13,200 --> 00:21:15,639 Speaker 2: Facts different kind of sucking. 443 00:21:15,680 --> 00:21:19,000 Speaker 1: They different, but a real one wish you would. He'll 444 00:21:19,080 --> 00:21:21,040 Speaker 1: drag that motherfucker down the hallway and cut his head. 445 00:21:20,880 --> 00:21:22,120 Speaker 3: Off in a tub. About you. 446 00:21:22,359 --> 00:21:25,800 Speaker 1: Oh God, you understand me that you can't buy that. 447 00:21:26,359 --> 00:21:28,280 Speaker 1: So when you encounter that kind of energy, you better 448 00:21:28,280 --> 00:21:31,080 Speaker 1: figure out where you fit in supporting be an asset 449 00:21:31,160 --> 00:21:34,280 Speaker 1: to him. Just see where you fit, Just see where 450 00:21:34,280 --> 00:21:35,440 Speaker 1: you fit, see what he needs? 451 00:21:35,480 --> 00:21:36,959 Speaker 2: Does they come off his pick me? 452 00:21:37,520 --> 00:21:40,320 Speaker 3: I don't give everybody. If you dating, you wanna be chose? 453 00:21:40,440 --> 00:21:40,760 Speaker 2: You know how. 454 00:21:40,800 --> 00:21:43,600 Speaker 1: I've been proposed to five times in my life for 455 00:21:43,800 --> 00:21:46,440 Speaker 1: the men have rings in hand. I accepted one proposal 456 00:21:46,520 --> 00:21:50,800 Speaker 1: under and I will say under duress, because I wasn't 457 00:21:50,920 --> 00:21:53,959 Speaker 1: secure in myself. I wasn't dating from a healthy space, 458 00:21:54,440 --> 00:21:58,000 Speaker 1: So the decision making was under duress, right, just decide, like, 459 00:21:58,000 --> 00:21:59,760 Speaker 1: if this is my safe space, I'm gonna get my 460 00:21:59,800 --> 00:22:02,399 Speaker 1: ass somewhere and sit down and get myself together. I 461 00:22:02,400 --> 00:22:04,280 Speaker 1: don't give a fuck about this, this and this mother, 462 00:22:04,480 --> 00:22:06,000 Speaker 1: do you love me or you're gonna keep me safe? 463 00:22:06,200 --> 00:22:09,440 Speaker 1: The rest of that shit, I'll work through it. But 464 00:22:09,480 --> 00:22:11,560 Speaker 1: you can't make that kind of deal with somebody who 465 00:22:11,560 --> 00:22:12,800 Speaker 1: ain't solid to the. 466 00:22:12,640 --> 00:22:17,199 Speaker 4: Core, especially with all you got to give as a woman, 467 00:22:17,680 --> 00:22:18,800 Speaker 4: with all the equipment. 468 00:22:19,080 --> 00:22:20,000 Speaker 3: When he told me. 469 00:22:20,560 --> 00:22:23,720 Speaker 1: For example, with my with a specific situation that I 470 00:22:23,800 --> 00:22:27,600 Speaker 1: navigated through. I built this platform, I've done all of 471 00:22:27,640 --> 00:22:31,920 Speaker 1: these things to reduce it to some internet shit. That's 472 00:22:31,960 --> 00:22:35,320 Speaker 1: how you you my dinner late because you on the internet. 473 00:22:35,359 --> 00:22:35,600 Speaker 3: Shit. 474 00:22:36,600 --> 00:22:38,280 Speaker 1: When I cook you dinner every night, you ain't got 475 00:22:38,359 --> 00:22:39,879 Speaker 1: to worry about You're gonna eat because I'm a feeder. 476 00:22:40,240 --> 00:22:41,920 Speaker 2: See it's unreasonable man. 477 00:22:42,200 --> 00:22:44,400 Speaker 1: So so those are the kind of like when that's 478 00:22:44,400 --> 00:22:46,880 Speaker 1: when I'm saying, like that whole shit when I smell 479 00:22:46,920 --> 00:22:49,160 Speaker 1: your pussy, because if you can't see this, you can't 480 00:22:49,200 --> 00:22:52,919 Speaker 1: see it. Because these these are top tier premium ingredients. 481 00:22:53,000 --> 00:22:55,359 Speaker 1: A motherfucker don't know exactly what to do with that. 482 00:22:56,880 --> 00:22:59,720 Speaker 1: You you don't recognize them ingredients because you ain't got 483 00:22:59,760 --> 00:23:02,959 Speaker 1: the recipe, and I ain't got no minutes over here 484 00:23:02,960 --> 00:23:04,639 Speaker 1: where motherfucker don't know what to do with me. 485 00:23:05,040 --> 00:23:05,800 Speaker 2: And that's the key. 486 00:23:05,880 --> 00:23:09,960 Speaker 4: And so we'll look at people who mishandle us and 487 00:23:10,320 --> 00:23:13,640 Speaker 4: think to ourselves that, damn man, you ain't know what. 488 00:23:13,560 --> 00:23:14,000 Speaker 2: To do with that. 489 00:23:14,160 --> 00:23:15,160 Speaker 3: You just didn't know what to do. 490 00:23:15,400 --> 00:23:16,800 Speaker 2: You ain't have a clue, man. 491 00:23:17,880 --> 00:23:22,280 Speaker 1: And just because somebody will feel like they are deserving 492 00:23:22,359 --> 00:23:29,199 Speaker 1: of you, because they identify your initial value. You can 493 00:23:29,280 --> 00:23:32,320 Speaker 1: know something as valuable and have no clue the value 494 00:23:32,440 --> 00:23:33,640 Speaker 1: of it, or know what to. 495 00:23:33,600 --> 00:23:35,440 Speaker 3: Do with or know what to do with it. 496 00:23:36,200 --> 00:23:38,880 Speaker 4: I've seen people come through the hood with telescopes worth 497 00:23:38,880 --> 00:23:40,800 Speaker 4: ten grand and sell it for five dollars. 498 00:23:40,880 --> 00:23:42,119 Speaker 3: You don't know what you're doing with that. 499 00:23:42,200 --> 00:23:46,000 Speaker 1: Give me that, and so everything else until you get 500 00:23:46,040 --> 00:23:49,040 Speaker 1: to that space is just practice for that. Because that exists. 501 00:23:49,040 --> 00:23:51,879 Speaker 1: How do you know that it exists? It's a universal law. Facts, 502 00:23:52,240 --> 00:23:54,720 Speaker 1: it's a universal law that even my desire for it 503 00:23:54,760 --> 00:23:57,040 Speaker 1: is the conjuring of it. I can feel it so deeply, 504 00:23:57,040 --> 00:24:01,679 Speaker 1: giving it no other opportunity than to perfect itself and 505 00:24:01,720 --> 00:24:05,080 Speaker 1: to manifest itself materially, so that may be somebody else 506 00:24:05,359 --> 00:24:07,600 Speaker 1: experience some whole shit because they getting ready for me, 507 00:24:07,600 --> 00:24:09,199 Speaker 1: gonna get that whole shit out of the system. When 508 00:24:09,240 --> 00:24:11,439 Speaker 1: you come over here, you be ready practice on them 509 00:24:11,520 --> 00:24:14,080 Speaker 1: niggas when you get here. I'll know how to suck 510 00:24:14,080 --> 00:24:16,280 Speaker 1: a good nick. When you get here, practice on them. 511 00:24:17,960 --> 00:24:20,040 Speaker 1: I already know how to shut the fuck up when 512 00:24:20,080 --> 00:24:22,159 Speaker 1: you get here. So that means you're gonna talk too 513 00:24:22,200 --> 00:24:23,359 Speaker 1: much to that nigga over. 514 00:24:23,200 --> 00:24:23,560 Speaker 2: There and learn. 515 00:24:23,600 --> 00:24:25,320 Speaker 1: You learn your lesson and shut up, because when you 516 00:24:25,320 --> 00:24:26,920 Speaker 1: come over here, you gotta know when to be quiet. 517 00:24:27,720 --> 00:24:31,600 Speaker 1: You gotta know the difference between being controlled and being 518 00:24:31,640 --> 00:24:34,960 Speaker 1: abused because you're being kept safe. Listen, when a motherfucker 519 00:24:35,040 --> 00:24:38,600 Speaker 1: really kept you safe, if you ever experienced real safety, 520 00:24:39,119 --> 00:24:41,560 Speaker 1: it is your honor to do what the fuck he's saying. 521 00:24:41,640 --> 00:24:45,920 Speaker 3: Because you know that obeying means. 522 00:24:45,680 --> 00:24:49,800 Speaker 1: You reap the benefits of the obedience, and disobedience brings 523 00:24:49,880 --> 00:24:52,199 Speaker 1: pain if you tie a hurt and do what that 524 00:24:52,280 --> 00:24:53,360 Speaker 1: nigga say. 525 00:24:53,400 --> 00:24:53,840 Speaker 2: Please. 526 00:24:56,359 --> 00:24:59,439 Speaker 1: So it's just it's just a process. So yes, do 527 00:24:59,560 --> 00:25:02,199 Speaker 1: I believe? Hell yeah, how do I know? Because I've 528 00:25:02,240 --> 00:25:05,480 Speaker 1: been prepared, and I there's some shit that's just in 529 00:25:05,600 --> 00:25:09,159 Speaker 1: me that the experience taught me, and observation taught me, 530 00:25:10,040 --> 00:25:12,520 Speaker 1: and motherfuckers ain't go through it like this and still 531 00:25:12,560 --> 00:25:14,399 Speaker 1: come out like this. That's why I look like when 532 00:25:14,400 --> 00:25:18,360 Speaker 1: people compliment the physicality of me, I always tell them 533 00:25:18,359 --> 00:25:21,399 Speaker 1: that it's God, because it's a It's nothing but God, 534 00:25:22,320 --> 00:25:24,119 Speaker 1: It's nothing but a creator. This is why I'm a 535 00:25:24,160 --> 00:25:27,879 Speaker 1: real believer. It is nothing but the Creator itself that 536 00:25:27,920 --> 00:25:30,640 Speaker 1: will preserve me and allow me to experience the things 537 00:25:30,720 --> 00:25:34,479 Speaker 1: that I've experienced. That's because I'm made for somebody. That's it. 538 00:25:34,520 --> 00:25:37,400 Speaker 1: That's because I'm somebody prayer. Other than that, I wouldn't 539 00:25:37,400 --> 00:25:42,600 Speaker 1: been preserved because motherfuckers don't make it out the places 540 00:25:42,640 --> 00:25:43,320 Speaker 1: I've been. 541 00:25:43,520 --> 00:25:45,240 Speaker 3: And lived to tell about it. 542 00:25:45,760 --> 00:25:47,639 Speaker 2: And yeah, and live to. 543 00:25:47,640 --> 00:25:52,320 Speaker 1: Tell the peace and my pieces, I got some pieces 544 00:25:52,320 --> 00:25:55,320 Speaker 1: over here. I'm all right, God on thissue everywhere, Like 545 00:25:55,359 --> 00:25:58,399 Speaker 1: I'm all right, and I like that and I appreciate that, 546 00:25:58,440 --> 00:25:59,200 Speaker 1: and I don't take. 547 00:25:59,040 --> 00:25:59,680 Speaker 3: It for granted. 548 00:26:01,760 --> 00:26:03,760 Speaker 2: What hurts you the most right now. 549 00:26:03,520 --> 00:26:04,200 Speaker 3: In my life? 550 00:26:04,600 --> 00:26:08,560 Speaker 1: Like right now, where does my pain come from? Disappointment 551 00:26:08,680 --> 00:26:12,000 Speaker 1: in myself. I'm at the stage in my journey where 552 00:26:12,040 --> 00:26:15,400 Speaker 1: I have to just apply what I learned without being 553 00:26:15,440 --> 00:26:16,800 Speaker 1: resentful about how. 554 00:26:16,640 --> 00:26:17,240 Speaker 3: I learned it. 555 00:26:19,000 --> 00:26:20,200 Speaker 2: That's so important. 556 00:26:21,000 --> 00:26:23,520 Speaker 1: And so when I see myself getting in my own way, 557 00:26:23,680 --> 00:26:27,719 Speaker 1: it pains me because I know I'm holding up somebody 558 00:26:27,720 --> 00:26:32,479 Speaker 1: else's blessing because I'm a walking fucking asset and I 559 00:26:32,520 --> 00:26:35,000 Speaker 1: am the answer to prayer. How do I know? So 560 00:26:35,160 --> 00:26:37,600 Speaker 1: many people say I thank God for you. I am 561 00:26:37,640 --> 00:26:40,040 Speaker 1: the answer to prayer. So when I'm in the way, 562 00:26:40,080 --> 00:26:42,159 Speaker 1: it pains me because I don't want to be in 563 00:26:42,200 --> 00:26:46,160 Speaker 1: a way, but I'm in the way. I'm stuck right now. 564 00:26:47,440 --> 00:26:49,480 Speaker 1: So that those are the kind of things that break 565 00:26:49,520 --> 00:26:53,720 Speaker 1: my heart about myself, like change girl, grow through that 566 00:26:53,800 --> 00:26:58,400 Speaker 1: shit and I plain it like always, all of them. 567 00:26:59,480 --> 00:27:06,080 Speaker 1: I'm going everywhere like wold, like like wild flowers, shit, baby, 568 00:27:06,119 --> 00:27:07,119 Speaker 1: like wild fire. 569 00:27:08,560 --> 00:27:15,080 Speaker 2: Do you see yourself? Do you share your passion? Or 570 00:27:15,200 --> 00:27:18,280 Speaker 2: is it just love that gets that kind of frequency 571 00:27:18,359 --> 00:27:21,640 Speaker 2: from you? Like does your work get that? Does your 572 00:27:21,640 --> 00:27:22,560 Speaker 2: family get that? 573 00:27:22,600 --> 00:27:23,800 Speaker 3: Does your Well there's the thing. 574 00:27:24,240 --> 00:27:27,440 Speaker 1: It's just me and and I'm mee everywhere I go. 575 00:27:28,280 --> 00:27:30,240 Speaker 1: I don't have to know you to love you, but 576 00:27:30,280 --> 00:27:31,240 Speaker 1: I have to know you to hate you. 577 00:27:31,280 --> 00:27:36,000 Speaker 2: Though, See, love is not something I can throw around 578 00:27:36,000 --> 00:27:36,440 Speaker 2: in that one. 579 00:27:36,480 --> 00:27:38,240 Speaker 1: But here's the thing, and this is the reason why 580 00:27:38,280 --> 00:27:39,920 Speaker 1: I say I don't have to know you to love you. 581 00:27:40,480 --> 00:27:43,399 Speaker 1: I can show an act of love to somebody on 582 00:27:43,440 --> 00:27:44,600 Speaker 1: the street that I don't. 583 00:27:44,720 --> 00:27:44,920 Speaker 2: It's not. 584 00:27:46,920 --> 00:27:48,200 Speaker 3: It is because. 585 00:27:49,320 --> 00:27:52,440 Speaker 1: Even though even though I'm not in an intimate space 586 00:27:52,480 --> 00:27:55,800 Speaker 1: with you where I'm welcoming you into my intimate life, 587 00:27:56,720 --> 00:27:59,160 Speaker 1: I showed up as an answer to your prayer when 588 00:27:59,200 --> 00:28:01,639 Speaker 1: you needed it the moment, and what you were probably 589 00:28:01,680 --> 00:28:04,240 Speaker 1: praying for when I showed up is for somebody to 590 00:28:04,280 --> 00:28:05,119 Speaker 1: show you some love. 591 00:28:06,440 --> 00:28:06,640 Speaker 2: Yeah. 592 00:28:07,000 --> 00:28:09,080 Speaker 3: Well, so I'm here in the name of love. I 593 00:28:09,119 --> 00:28:09,600 Speaker 3: love you. 594 00:28:09,640 --> 00:28:12,199 Speaker 2: But good people do bad things and bad people do 595 00:28:12,320 --> 00:28:12,840 Speaker 2: good things. 596 00:28:12,920 --> 00:28:16,159 Speaker 3: Yeah, people never everybody's the experience. 597 00:28:16,119 --> 00:28:20,719 Speaker 4: Right, So I can't if you just by you giving, 598 00:28:20,960 --> 00:28:26,160 Speaker 4: by you giving, okay, by me receiving something from your presence, 599 00:28:26,280 --> 00:28:30,919 Speaker 4: doesn't indicate all the time that that's love that's doing that. 600 00:28:31,359 --> 00:28:32,760 Speaker 3: It depends on the intentions. 601 00:28:33,200 --> 00:28:36,360 Speaker 2: That's what I'm saying, or yeah, that's what I mean. 602 00:28:36,760 --> 00:28:38,840 Speaker 3: So here's a thing like your blessing can be right. 603 00:28:39,000 --> 00:28:41,360 Speaker 2: But still, but love is more than intentions. 604 00:28:41,560 --> 00:28:45,160 Speaker 3: I don't think so I think love is. 605 00:28:45,160 --> 00:28:51,600 Speaker 1: Intention purely intention Yeah, I don't know, because here's some things. 606 00:28:51,400 --> 00:28:53,120 Speaker 2: I believe love to be safety too. 607 00:28:53,400 --> 00:28:56,400 Speaker 1: But okay, and you have to intend to keep someone safe. 608 00:28:56,400 --> 00:28:58,640 Speaker 1: But this is why I say that love is intentions, 609 00:28:59,200 --> 00:29:03,400 Speaker 1: because you can love somebody and do something fucked up 610 00:29:04,880 --> 00:29:07,240 Speaker 1: and it not be what you meant to do, And 611 00:29:07,320 --> 00:29:09,600 Speaker 1: because they know that you love them and you didn't 612 00:29:09,600 --> 00:29:12,880 Speaker 1: intend to do it, they will still hold space for 613 00:29:13,040 --> 00:29:16,640 Speaker 1: you and grace because they know that you didn't intend 614 00:29:16,720 --> 00:29:19,959 Speaker 1: to do it. That's why I love is intentions. 615 00:29:21,120 --> 00:29:24,400 Speaker 4: But they don't know that you didn't intend to do it. 616 00:29:24,520 --> 00:29:26,040 Speaker 4: But here's they assume. 617 00:29:25,680 --> 00:29:28,600 Speaker 2: You and like knowing his participation. 618 00:29:28,840 --> 00:29:32,320 Speaker 4: So when you made that decision, the only way I 619 00:29:32,360 --> 00:29:35,320 Speaker 4: can know if I was in your head, Like, I 620 00:29:35,360 --> 00:29:38,800 Speaker 4: can't know that you made that decision without any ill 621 00:29:38,920 --> 00:29:42,080 Speaker 4: intentions unless I'm literally in your head. Now, because I 622 00:29:42,120 --> 00:29:45,920 Speaker 4: love you, I can frame that like I believe you 623 00:29:45,960 --> 00:29:47,080 Speaker 4: wouldn't do that to me. 624 00:29:47,360 --> 00:29:49,800 Speaker 1: But here's the thing, you will feel it. And that's 625 00:29:49,800 --> 00:29:51,600 Speaker 1: when we go back to the frequency conversation or the 626 00:29:51,720 --> 00:29:52,480 Speaker 1: energy conversation. 627 00:29:53,040 --> 00:29:56,240 Speaker 4: And I think we are privileged in that realm, though 628 00:29:56,400 --> 00:29:59,560 Speaker 4: I believe there's so many people in that field that 629 00:29:59,680 --> 00:30:02,920 Speaker 4: in that feels and in relationships and dealing with individuals 630 00:30:02,960 --> 00:30:04,880 Speaker 4: that they don't recognize frequency. 631 00:30:04,880 --> 00:30:06,280 Speaker 2: They don't know Sometimes they in. 632 00:30:06,160 --> 00:30:08,160 Speaker 3: The hell because the mother fucking do some shit to 633 00:30:08,240 --> 00:30:08,560 Speaker 3: hurt you. 634 00:30:08,560 --> 00:30:11,400 Speaker 1: You know what I'm saying, And it'd be like, you 635 00:30:11,440 --> 00:30:14,080 Speaker 1: know what, you ain't your feelings, you know what I'm saying. 636 00:30:14,120 --> 00:30:16,560 Speaker 1: You ain't get bad today. He bit me today, like 637 00:30:16,880 --> 00:30:19,400 Speaker 1: dealing with successful me. And they'll bite you. And that's 638 00:30:19,560 --> 00:30:22,400 Speaker 1: and it's not intentional, but they'll bite you. He might 639 00:30:22,440 --> 00:30:23,880 Speaker 1: have ten thousand things. 640 00:30:23,680 --> 00:30:24,280 Speaker 2: On his mind. 641 00:30:24,560 --> 00:30:27,360 Speaker 1: He say some shit to you today, like and it 642 00:30:27,560 --> 00:30:29,880 Speaker 1: just bite like it's just bite you. But you know, 643 00:30:30,040 --> 00:30:32,840 Speaker 1: like he said that, he ain't I'm wanting them. He 644 00:30:33,440 --> 00:30:36,520 Speaker 1: ain't intending to you know, he ain't trying to hurt me. 645 00:30:37,320 --> 00:30:40,400 Speaker 1: He ain't trying to hurt me. That shit hurt wow, 646 00:30:40,680 --> 00:30:42,200 Speaker 1: But he ain't trying to hurt me. I'm a whole 647 00:30:42,200 --> 00:30:44,240 Speaker 1: space for my baby today. We do gonna talk about 648 00:30:44,240 --> 00:30:46,000 Speaker 1: that later. I want to have a conversation with you 649 00:30:46,240 --> 00:30:50,000 Speaker 1: about the way you say things to me, because sometimes 650 00:30:50,000 --> 00:30:51,680 Speaker 1: you bite and you ain't gotta bite me back. 651 00:30:52,760 --> 00:30:56,080 Speaker 4: See, but that conversation is important or it's just like 652 00:30:56,200 --> 00:30:58,840 Speaker 4: sometimes they ignore the fact of what's on your plate. 653 00:30:59,400 --> 00:31:00,920 Speaker 2: So I I remember. 654 00:31:00,640 --> 00:31:05,840 Speaker 4: Being transitioning from the streets coming into this and again 655 00:31:05,920 --> 00:31:09,880 Speaker 4: people tend to dump. I'm a fixer. Like I'm a fixer. 656 00:31:09,960 --> 00:31:14,240 Speaker 4: There ain't nobody in countering me. Now, okay, yeah, one 657 00:31:14,240 --> 00:31:14,560 Speaker 4: of them. 658 00:31:14,680 --> 00:31:15,480 Speaker 3: I like one of them. 659 00:31:15,560 --> 00:31:20,920 Speaker 2: I'm taking care whatever. Hello, Hello. So what happens is 660 00:31:21,320 --> 00:31:23,000 Speaker 2: I deal with people and they know. 661 00:31:23,040 --> 00:31:26,959 Speaker 4: That about me, and sometimes I think it's unintentional that 662 00:31:27,040 --> 00:31:28,000 Speaker 4: they dump on me. 663 00:31:28,480 --> 00:31:31,600 Speaker 1: Well, that's because they feel. That's what happens when you're safety. 664 00:31:31,920 --> 00:31:34,200 Speaker 1: What happens when you say, which is goes back to 665 00:31:34,240 --> 00:31:36,360 Speaker 1: the conversations that I have with people when I tell you, like, 666 00:31:36,400 --> 00:31:41,160 Speaker 1: I got everything, I've gotten real life murder confessions. 667 00:31:42,280 --> 00:31:46,400 Speaker 3: Though I don't judge. I you know, I don't judge. 668 00:31:46,440 --> 00:31:47,000 Speaker 3: I just love. 669 00:31:48,440 --> 00:31:50,360 Speaker 2: I just love and you cut like that. 670 00:31:50,760 --> 00:31:54,080 Speaker 1: I just love baby because it I mean shit, fuck it, 671 00:31:54,600 --> 00:31:56,440 Speaker 1: because God put breath in your lungs today. 672 00:31:56,800 --> 00:31:57,600 Speaker 3: You know what I'm saying. 673 00:31:58,560 --> 00:32:00,200 Speaker 2: You ain't never did no pimp shit it. 674 00:32:01,280 --> 00:32:04,240 Speaker 3: I get often asked to be to manage. 675 00:32:04,480 --> 00:32:07,600 Speaker 2: I am often asked. 676 00:32:07,040 --> 00:32:09,320 Speaker 1: Yeah, to be a madam. And you know a lot 677 00:32:09,320 --> 00:32:10,880 Speaker 1: of people ask me to do some real like some 678 00:32:10,920 --> 00:32:13,520 Speaker 1: bdsms I get. I could get a bag from that ship. 679 00:32:13,560 --> 00:32:14,200 Speaker 1: They want me to do that. 680 00:32:16,840 --> 00:32:18,520 Speaker 3: They want me to clock them dollars. 681 00:32:19,120 --> 00:32:22,400 Speaker 4: The conversation like that and their passion. Oh my goodness, 682 00:32:22,480 --> 00:32:24,440 Speaker 4: they'll pay you good. You ain't interested in that. 683 00:32:27,080 --> 00:32:29,120 Speaker 1: I've been, I've been given some offers. I just be 684 00:32:29,240 --> 00:32:32,720 Speaker 1: doing my best to just to remove myself from having 685 00:32:32,760 --> 00:32:36,600 Speaker 1: to answer spiritually to anything that goes against the grain, 686 00:32:37,040 --> 00:32:38,640 Speaker 1: because this is what I do know. When men be 687 00:32:38,720 --> 00:32:42,280 Speaker 1: asking me to do wild ship, it's rooted in something else. 688 00:32:43,040 --> 00:32:44,680 Speaker 1: So like you want me to talk to you like that? 689 00:32:44,840 --> 00:32:46,360 Speaker 1: Like you want me to talk to you like that? 690 00:32:47,760 --> 00:32:49,160 Speaker 1: Why you want me to talk to you like that? 691 00:32:51,240 --> 00:32:53,680 Speaker 1: What's going on? Why you want me to say that 692 00:32:53,720 --> 00:32:56,000 Speaker 1: to you? Why they why they make you dick card? 693 00:32:56,000 --> 00:32:56,960 Speaker 1: Why they get you off? 694 00:32:57,880 --> 00:33:00,400 Speaker 2: Because at least this is what they say and will 695 00:33:00,520 --> 00:33:04,760 Speaker 2: roll play this, But they say because all these niggas 696 00:33:04,840 --> 00:33:06,640 Speaker 2: respected me all day and day. 697 00:33:06,720 --> 00:33:10,000 Speaker 4: And I get that these niggas is clowns. They laughing 698 00:33:10,040 --> 00:33:13,000 Speaker 4: at my jokes when they ain't funny. Yeah, it's just so, 699 00:33:13,160 --> 00:33:16,760 Speaker 4: And I don't agree with that behavior of being treated 700 00:33:16,800 --> 00:33:20,200 Speaker 4: that way. But I'm saying a lot oftentimes it's CEOs 701 00:33:20,240 --> 00:33:22,520 Speaker 4: of companies and things that want to be treated in 702 00:33:22,560 --> 00:33:24,080 Speaker 4: a very demeaning way. 703 00:33:24,440 --> 00:33:25,320 Speaker 2: In that person, I. 704 00:33:25,840 --> 00:33:30,320 Speaker 1: Had some very lucrative, interesting offers, right, and it's rooted 705 00:33:30,360 --> 00:33:31,120 Speaker 1: in something else. 706 00:33:31,320 --> 00:33:33,200 Speaker 2: Yeah, definitely rooting in something. 707 00:33:33,320 --> 00:33:35,240 Speaker 4: So I just I just, you know, what do you 708 00:33:35,280 --> 00:33:37,400 Speaker 4: think about the fects of only Fans? 709 00:33:38,960 --> 00:33:40,680 Speaker 3: I think, you know, I get asked. 710 00:33:40,880 --> 00:33:42,920 Speaker 1: I created the only Fans three years ago because for 711 00:33:43,000 --> 00:33:44,520 Speaker 1: my feet, because I got a lot of feet freaks. 712 00:33:44,520 --> 00:33:47,520 Speaker 3: I got like people that like feed, right, that's why, 713 00:33:47,720 --> 00:33:50,160 Speaker 3: like a lot of y'all recognize me. Y'all know where 714 00:33:50,200 --> 00:33:54,000 Speaker 3: y'all know. But I never got into it. 715 00:33:54,040 --> 00:33:57,600 Speaker 1: I never like posted anything over there or started the page, 716 00:33:57,720 --> 00:33:59,600 Speaker 1: even though I used to do foot content. And it's 717 00:33:59,680 --> 00:34:03,160 Speaker 1: very It's because like them men, they be some wild 718 00:34:03,320 --> 00:34:05,320 Speaker 1: men over like they be going through some things and 719 00:34:05,360 --> 00:34:10,200 Speaker 1: they be so overbearing. So Only Fans is a different 720 00:34:10,320 --> 00:34:14,360 Speaker 1: version of catering to the fetish community, and the fetish 721 00:34:14,400 --> 00:34:19,239 Speaker 1: community is usually rooted in some trauma. So that's what 722 00:34:19,280 --> 00:34:20,080 Speaker 1: I think about it. 723 00:34:20,719 --> 00:34:23,680 Speaker 4: But I think some of those are fixed, because that 724 00:34:23,840 --> 00:34:28,560 Speaker 4: is effectively changed the way women interface with relationships. A 725 00:34:28,600 --> 00:34:33,920 Speaker 4: lot the internet, social media has the illusion of options. 726 00:34:34,000 --> 00:34:38,960 Speaker 1: Yes, has done extreme damage. Yes, and just because and 727 00:34:38,960 --> 00:34:41,279 Speaker 1: then a lot of women don't realize this too. Just 728 00:34:41,280 --> 00:34:42,759 Speaker 1: because a man will fuck you, they don't mean that 729 00:34:42,800 --> 00:34:45,000 Speaker 1: he want to be with you. And men say anything 730 00:34:45,000 --> 00:34:47,759 Speaker 1: to fuck you. Yes, they'll say anything to get in there. 731 00:34:47,880 --> 00:34:48,520 Speaker 1: They want in there. 732 00:34:48,600 --> 00:34:50,160 Speaker 2: He want to fuck you, not fuck with you. 733 00:34:50,360 --> 00:34:50,560 Speaker 3: Yeah. 734 00:34:51,040 --> 00:34:52,960 Speaker 1: Yeah, And so you got to be able to learn 735 00:34:52,960 --> 00:34:54,920 Speaker 1: the difference between your dimes and your dollars and if 736 00:34:54,960 --> 00:34:56,520 Speaker 1: you ain't got a real one, they don't run that 737 00:34:56,560 --> 00:34:57,160 Speaker 1: game on you. 738 00:34:57,719 --> 00:34:59,719 Speaker 2: And then now you're putting bodies under your belt. 739 00:35:00,040 --> 00:35:03,040 Speaker 4: Now, how do you maintain self worth with with with 740 00:35:03,160 --> 00:35:04,400 Speaker 4: making those decisions? 741 00:35:04,400 --> 00:35:05,040 Speaker 3: Only you know what? 742 00:35:05,080 --> 00:35:06,920 Speaker 1: And it's I think it's the dicholomy because I don't 743 00:35:06,920 --> 00:35:09,120 Speaker 1: got a whole lot of bodies, but I don't fuck. 744 00:35:08,920 --> 00:35:11,480 Speaker 3: The wrong niggas in my life. So I think it 745 00:35:11,560 --> 00:35:13,320 Speaker 3: works both ways. Like you just got to take it 746 00:35:13,400 --> 00:35:14,160 Speaker 3: to the Lord and prayer. 747 00:35:14,800 --> 00:35:17,320 Speaker 4: I think a nigga accept you fucking the wrong niggas 748 00:35:17,400 --> 00:35:19,839 Speaker 4: versus a whole bunch of bodies, which these niggas said 749 00:35:19,880 --> 00:35:23,200 Speaker 4: me anything nowadays, but they will. But I think if 750 00:35:23,200 --> 00:35:25,080 Speaker 4: we look at it for what it's worth, some guys 751 00:35:25,080 --> 00:35:28,120 Speaker 4: that say, yo, I accept you fucking the wrong nigga 752 00:35:28,160 --> 00:35:31,520 Speaker 4: four five time, but you got twenty thirty bodies because 753 00:35:31,520 --> 00:35:33,880 Speaker 4: you were chasing money in your twenties on. 754 00:35:33,920 --> 00:35:35,719 Speaker 3: Well, it don't be twenty thirty. You'll be like I 755 00:35:36,320 --> 00:35:38,719 Speaker 3: have clients that are sex workers, and it be. 756 00:35:39,239 --> 00:35:41,520 Speaker 4: And guess what I think with sex workers, I don't 757 00:35:41,560 --> 00:35:42,600 Speaker 4: have nothing to givest them. 758 00:35:42,960 --> 00:35:44,880 Speaker 1: I mean your hustle is your hustling too, until you 759 00:35:44,960 --> 00:35:46,960 Speaker 1: come into and when she's ready, she'll. 760 00:35:46,719 --> 00:35:47,239 Speaker 3: Come, you know. 761 00:35:47,719 --> 00:35:48,640 Speaker 2: And so that's what I mean. 762 00:35:48,920 --> 00:35:50,840 Speaker 3: When you hear me, when you're ready, you'll come to 763 00:35:50,840 --> 00:35:51,960 Speaker 3: the healing place. I understand. 764 00:35:52,040 --> 00:35:54,959 Speaker 1: Get your money, baby, get your motherfucking bread baby, because 765 00:35:55,000 --> 00:35:57,640 Speaker 1: they keep printing to get you some. But when you're ready, 766 00:35:58,640 --> 00:36:01,239 Speaker 1: when it gets too heavy, come on over here to 767 00:36:01,280 --> 00:36:01,839 Speaker 1: the other place. 768 00:36:01,880 --> 00:36:04,040 Speaker 4: I got some fun because I believe sex work to 769 00:36:04,120 --> 00:36:06,480 Speaker 4: be very emotionally heavy. 770 00:36:06,640 --> 00:36:08,359 Speaker 2: It is right because. 771 00:36:08,080 --> 00:36:12,440 Speaker 1: Because women take things in and on and he released 772 00:36:12,480 --> 00:36:14,000 Speaker 1: on you. When I tell you, he released on you, 773 00:36:14,080 --> 00:36:16,399 Speaker 1: He leave that shit on you. He leave it all 774 00:36:16,480 --> 00:36:18,080 Speaker 1: on you, and. 775 00:36:17,960 --> 00:36:18,520 Speaker 2: He leave it. 776 00:36:18,600 --> 00:36:22,520 Speaker 4: And the thing is is it's something to be said 777 00:36:22,520 --> 00:36:27,440 Speaker 4: about compromising your moral You're having more flexibility in that way, 778 00:36:27,600 --> 00:36:29,760 Speaker 4: like you wouldn't do that for them niggas you loved. 779 00:36:30,400 --> 00:36:32,960 Speaker 4: You had a couple of niggas you were fucking you loved, 780 00:36:33,000 --> 00:36:35,880 Speaker 4: and they couldn't get you to do that flip or 781 00:36:35,920 --> 00:36:37,040 Speaker 4: whatever you're willing. 782 00:36:36,840 --> 00:36:39,880 Speaker 2: To do for that money. That someone is with your goals. 783 00:36:39,920 --> 00:36:42,960 Speaker 3: Back to the original thought, King, women think that money 784 00:36:43,160 --> 00:36:43,840 Speaker 3: is protection. 785 00:36:44,120 --> 00:36:48,200 Speaker 4: That is so deep because usually the nigga flashes the 786 00:36:48,280 --> 00:36:50,960 Speaker 4: money and act like he protecting you. 787 00:36:51,000 --> 00:36:53,840 Speaker 2: See, so I'm I got money, baby, I can protect you. 788 00:36:53,880 --> 00:36:57,880 Speaker 1: I'm I've been in situations in my life when you 789 00:36:57,920 --> 00:37:00,719 Speaker 1: find out the hard way that you need detection from 790 00:37:00,760 --> 00:37:02,239 Speaker 1: what promise to protect you? 791 00:37:04,920 --> 00:37:08,440 Speaker 3: What promise to protect you left you for dead? Swore 792 00:37:08,920 --> 00:37:10,360 Speaker 3: it was gonna keep you safe. 793 00:37:12,160 --> 00:37:16,520 Speaker 4: And you know, but see, women have a duty as well, right, 794 00:37:16,600 --> 00:37:19,439 Speaker 4: The men have a dutity to be there for that. 795 00:37:21,160 --> 00:37:23,840 Speaker 4: But I do think the women gotta breathe life into 796 00:37:23,880 --> 00:37:24,640 Speaker 4: these dudes. 797 00:37:24,920 --> 00:37:29,080 Speaker 1: Yeah, and here's this about that you got to pick 798 00:37:29,080 --> 00:37:31,480 Speaker 1: and choose. We don't choose correctly. We don't make the 799 00:37:31,520 --> 00:37:34,920 Speaker 1: proper choices. And a lot of things affect our capacity 800 00:37:34,960 --> 00:37:38,720 Speaker 1: to choose with integrity for our lives because of our perspectives. 801 00:37:38,960 --> 00:37:40,920 Speaker 1: And if you don't change, you won't see what you 802 00:37:40,960 --> 00:37:43,319 Speaker 1: need to see from a certain angle. You gotta change. 803 00:37:43,320 --> 00:37:45,319 Speaker 1: You gotta pivot. In order for you to pivot, you 804 00:37:45,320 --> 00:37:47,279 Speaker 1: gotta change your position. In order for you to change 805 00:37:47,280 --> 00:37:50,799 Speaker 1: your position, you gotta change yourself. And it goes all 806 00:37:50,800 --> 00:37:52,600 Speaker 1: the way back to the foundation that you being willing 807 00:37:52,640 --> 00:37:55,440 Speaker 1: to see yourself to change yourself, because if you don't 808 00:37:55,440 --> 00:37:57,799 Speaker 1: see you clearly, you won't know what to change. And 809 00:37:57,840 --> 00:38:00,040 Speaker 1: you gotta get honest for you to do that. And 810 00:38:00,080 --> 00:38:01,600 Speaker 1: if you say, well, I told the truth and your 811 00:38:01,600 --> 00:38:04,320 Speaker 1: truth is based off your feelings and not the facts, 812 00:38:04,840 --> 00:38:06,399 Speaker 1: you're gonna keep on changing for the. 813 00:38:06,400 --> 00:38:12,040 Speaker 3: Worst from your truth in your feelings. 814 00:38:12,760 --> 00:38:15,360 Speaker 4: So facts, anything you want to leave the world with, 815 00:38:15,640 --> 00:38:17,920 Speaker 4: leave the viewers with, anything you want to speak to 816 00:38:17,960 --> 00:38:19,960 Speaker 4: me about any questions you got. 817 00:38:20,680 --> 00:38:22,719 Speaker 1: I just want to remind people that you can come 818 00:38:22,760 --> 00:38:26,239 Speaker 1: back from anything. You just gotta be willing to see 819 00:38:26,280 --> 00:38:31,160 Speaker 1: yourself and make some serious adjustments. Like when you change yourself, 820 00:38:31,280 --> 00:38:35,040 Speaker 1: your life changes, period. And you gotta be willing to 821 00:38:35,120 --> 00:38:37,200 Speaker 1: change yourself. And it's a whole lot of you weak 822 00:38:37,239 --> 00:38:39,200 Speaker 1: ass bitches out there that don't realize you need to 823 00:38:39,200 --> 00:38:41,120 Speaker 1: be changed. And it's a whole lot of you whole 824 00:38:41,160 --> 00:38:43,680 Speaker 1: ass niggas that don't realize you need to be changed. 825 00:38:44,880 --> 00:38:46,480 Speaker 1: But if you need some love and if you need 826 00:38:46,520 --> 00:38:48,759 Speaker 1: to see yourself in a safe space so that you 827 00:38:48,800 --> 00:38:51,000 Speaker 1: can change in a safe space, because it's hard to 828 00:38:51,040 --> 00:38:54,480 Speaker 1: heal on the battlefield. It's hard to assess where you're 829 00:38:54,560 --> 00:38:57,120 Speaker 1: hurt at. So you can get your shit together when 830 00:38:57,120 --> 00:38:59,680 Speaker 1: you're on the battlefield of life. And that's what the 831 00:38:59,680 --> 00:39:03,080 Speaker 1: Healing Place dynasty is. It's a safe space, it's an infirmary. 832 00:39:03,120 --> 00:39:05,880 Speaker 1: It's off the battlefield. So you can come over here 833 00:39:05,880 --> 00:39:08,080 Speaker 1: and get you some help. But don't play with me though, 834 00:39:08,640 --> 00:39:10,479 Speaker 1: because I'm a real good time baby, but I don't 835 00:39:10,480 --> 00:39:12,439 Speaker 1: play much. So you come over here playing, youre gonna 836 00:39:12,440 --> 00:39:14,880 Speaker 1: get your feelings real hurt. But if you know, just 837 00:39:14,920 --> 00:39:16,720 Speaker 1: take me seriously, baby, come and get your healing. 838 00:39:16,760 --> 00:39:19,480 Speaker 3: Baby. Welcome to the Healing Place. And I love you. 839 00:39:19,640 --> 00:39:20,880 Speaker 3: I like you, I like you. 840 00:39:21,920 --> 00:39:25,319 Speaker 4: I appreciate you, man, I appreciate you. Definitely appreciate you. 841 00:39:25,440 --> 00:39:30,200 Speaker 4: I think we conversation needed, will do it again, of course, 842 00:39:30,480 --> 00:39:32,400 Speaker 4: absolute speak about something. 843 00:39:32,480 --> 00:39:35,160 Speaker 3: Yeah, you got a real good conversation. I like that. 844 00:39:35,800 --> 00:39:36,719 Speaker 2: I appreciate that. 845 00:39:37,000 --> 00:39:39,600 Speaker 4: And I'm gonna start doing these panels with bringing other 846 00:39:39,719 --> 00:39:42,239 Speaker 4: guys and me in and it ain't gonna be the 847 00:39:42,280 --> 00:39:44,960 Speaker 4: low level shit you're seeing. It's gonna be like prominent 848 00:39:45,040 --> 00:39:48,960 Speaker 4: men from like like I might want to bring doctor 849 00:39:49,080 --> 00:39:51,400 Speaker 4: Umar you in, and I may want to bring the 850 00:39:51,560 --> 00:39:54,719 Speaker 4: nineteen Keys, and then I may want to help you know, just. 851 00:39:56,200 --> 00:39:58,600 Speaker 2: A couple of different women in just way. Really, we 852 00:39:58,719 --> 00:39:59,879 Speaker 2: really can build on. 853 00:39:59,840 --> 00:40:01,959 Speaker 4: Some things, you know what I'm saying, But that's something 854 00:40:01,960 --> 00:40:05,279 Speaker 4: behind the scenes. But I definitely appreciate you for coming. Man, 855 00:40:05,360 --> 00:40:08,919 Speaker 4: great conversation, and you keep doing what you're doing. 856 00:40:09,000 --> 00:40:10,680 Speaker 3: Queen him, I ain't got no choice. I do this 857 00:40:10,680 --> 00:40:13,720 Speaker 3: because God told me too. Period. 858 00:40:13,840 --> 00:40:14,720 Speaker 2: You've been called. 859 00:40:15,719 --> 00:40:16,600 Speaker 3: I've been chosen. 860 00:40:17,160 --> 00:40:18,120 Speaker 2: You've been chosen. 861 00:40:18,160 --> 00:40:20,600 Speaker 3: Many are called, maybe few are chosen. 862 00:40:20,640 --> 00:40:21,520 Speaker 2: You've been chosen. 863 00:40:21,680 --> 00:40:25,200 Speaker 3: You've been chosen too. I appreciate that I recognize a 864 00:40:25,280 --> 00:40:25,879 Speaker 3: chosen one. 865 00:40:26,000 --> 00:40:27,760 Speaker 2: Yes, ma'am, we're walking in our purpose. 866 00:40:27,880 --> 00:40:29,040 Speaker 3: Man, we just visiting baby. 867 00:40:29,160 --> 00:40:31,879 Speaker 2: Yes, Lord, it's up that podcast. I'll take that game, 868 00:40:31,960 --> 00:40:33,359 Speaker 2: do something with it. Let's get it.