WEBVTT - Anchoring Integrity: Self-Care, Healing, and Personal Power 0:00:27.880 --> 0:00:37.360 Take a deep breath in through your nose. Hold it now, 0:00:37.400 --> 0:01:02.960 release slowly again, deep in helle hold release, repeating internally 0:01:03.080 --> 0:01:09.960 to yourself as you connect to my voice. I am deeply, 0:01:10.280 --> 0:01:27.240 deeply well. I am deeply well. I am deeply wow. 0:01:30.560 --> 0:01:35.240 I'm Debbie Brown and this is the Deeply Well Podcast. 0:01:47.800 --> 0:01:51.320 Welcome to Deeply Well, a soft place to land in 0:01:51.360 --> 0:01:56.080 your journey. A podcast for those that are curious, creative, 0:01:56.320 --> 0:02:01.600 and ready to expand in higher consciousness and healthcare. I'm 0:02:01.640 --> 0:02:04.720 Debbie Brown. This is where we heal, this is where 0:02:05.040 --> 0:02:11.880 we transcend. Welcome to today's episode, our final installment of 0:02:11.919 --> 0:02:16.760 our integrity teaching series this month on the Deeply Well Podcast. 0:02:17.320 --> 0:02:20.840 So we've really been exploring in this new season a 0:02:20.840 --> 0:02:22.760 little bit of a new format on how we're going 0:02:22.840 --> 0:02:26.480 to go through some themes, some understandings, and some of 0:02:26.480 --> 0:02:29.480 the deeper conversations that we get a chance to sync 0:02:29.520 --> 0:02:34.360 our teeth into here on this show. So today's episode 0:02:34.440 --> 0:02:37.200 is really going to be rooted in some practice. We're 0:02:37.240 --> 0:02:39.600 going to get into some self inquiry. We're going to 0:02:39.639 --> 0:02:42.160 go a little bit deeper into some of the ways 0:02:42.160 --> 0:02:45.560 we've been categorizing how integrity shows up in our lives 0:02:46.120 --> 0:02:49.160 and we're going to have a felt practice. So if 0:02:49.160 --> 0:02:52.960 you are not driving, highly recommend grabbing a journal, having 0:02:53.000 --> 0:02:56.600 it nearby if that feels good, getting comfy, maybe getting 0:02:56.600 --> 0:02:59.120 something a little savory near you, a little sweet treat, 0:03:00.919 --> 0:03:02.800 and if you're driving, of course you know how it goes. 0:03:02.840 --> 0:03:05.320 You can pop back in anytime you wish to join 0:03:05.400 --> 0:03:08.480 in on the soul work. Also a quick reminder if 0:03:08.480 --> 0:03:11.640 you didn't know, every single month we're going to have 0:03:12.120 --> 0:03:15.320 a little bit of a practice worksheet that goes along 0:03:15.400 --> 0:03:19.120 with the episodes we're exploring. So on my website Debbie 0:03:19.120 --> 0:03:21.520 Brown dot com and also through our newsletter, which you 0:03:21.520 --> 0:03:23.880 can sign up for on the website, you'll get a 0:03:23.919 --> 0:03:26.680 link to our little PDF packet which will be the 0:03:26.840 --> 0:03:32.800 soul work that goes along with each month's drop of episodes. 0:03:33.400 --> 0:03:36.320 So if you get a chance, it might feel really 0:03:36.360 --> 0:03:39.600 supportive to utilize that as part of your practice. So 0:03:39.760 --> 0:03:41.760 let's still catch up. First, I want to fill you 0:03:41.800 --> 0:03:44.560 guys in on what's been up since we've last talked. 0:03:44.600 --> 0:03:49.720 I've had some really special teaching experiences, so a lot 0:03:49.880 --> 0:03:51.640 a lot of those that listen to the show may know, 0:03:51.880 --> 0:03:54.840 but I am on the board of the Omega Institute 0:03:54.880 --> 0:03:58.480 for Holistic Studies, and it is a campus. It is 0:03:58.520 --> 0:04:01.560 an institute that is in i' readibly close to my heart. 0:04:01.840 --> 0:04:05.720 It's been in existence teaching and raising consciousness for over 0:04:05.800 --> 0:04:09.480 forty eight years, and it's located in ryan Beeck, New York, 0:04:09.520 --> 0:04:13.400 which is upstate New York, and I typically go a 0:04:13.440 --> 0:04:15.760 couple times a year, but this is one of the 0:04:15.800 --> 0:04:19.160 first years in a little while that I didn't do 0:04:19.400 --> 0:04:22.520 a retreat, and so I didn't get a chance to 0:04:22.560 --> 0:04:24.520 go up usually in some of the months that I 0:04:24.560 --> 0:04:28.279 do while the campus is open. But they just created 0:04:28.320 --> 0:04:31.599 this incredible program there that we got funding for that 0:04:31.760 --> 0:04:36.480 is so amazing. It is the Women's Wellness Collective, and 0:04:36.960 --> 0:04:42.640 we are working with a cohort of twenty women nationally 0:04:42.720 --> 0:04:44.919 and globally. We have a few out of the country 0:04:44.920 --> 0:04:48.520 doing incredible work who are going to be deepening their 0:04:48.640 --> 0:04:52.800 understanding of self care practices and nervous system regulation and 0:04:53.560 --> 0:04:57.920 supportive bindfulness in a cohort throughout this next year. So 0:04:58.000 --> 0:05:03.800 this incredible cohort kick off with a week long rest 0:05:04.000 --> 0:05:07.640 intensive retreat that took place at the Omega Institute, and 0:05:07.720 --> 0:05:10.640 so it was really excited about this. It means so 0:05:10.839 --> 0:05:13.800 much to me, and the chance, I think for these 0:05:13.839 --> 0:05:17.000 women to deepen in practices over the next year especially 0:05:17.160 --> 0:05:19.719 is so exciting for me because something I always share is, 0:05:19.760 --> 0:05:22.200 you know, none of this work it's done in a weekend. 0:05:22.600 --> 0:05:28.760 We can get our burst of profound inspiration and motivation 0:05:29.080 --> 0:05:31.839 for our path and for our calling in a weekend. 0:05:31.960 --> 0:05:35.400 Absolutely we can have the breakthrough thoughts that change our 0:05:35.440 --> 0:05:39.520 lives instantaneously, but then we get a chance to deepen 0:05:39.600 --> 0:05:43.920 our path of mastery by connecting to practice, and practice 0:05:44.040 --> 0:05:49.280 takes really beautiful slow time to unfold in our lives, 0:05:49.320 --> 0:05:54.200 to take us past the point of intellectualization into a 0:05:54.320 --> 0:05:57.920 life experience of embodiment where you are living and breathing 0:05:58.320 --> 0:06:00.760 who and what you say you are with a lot 0:06:00.800 --> 0:06:02.760 of ease, a lot of grace, a lot of joy, 0:06:03.600 --> 0:06:09.640 and so being able to really support this beautiful group 0:06:10.200 --> 0:06:13.000 as they are on their pathway of embodiment, which is 0:06:13.080 --> 0:06:16.400 all in support to their higher purpose and to the 0:06:16.440 --> 0:06:19.440 community service they do in the world is really special. 0:06:19.880 --> 0:06:21.400 So I didn't want to miss it. But the way 0:06:21.920 --> 0:06:24.240 life is set up and scheduling is set up, I 0:06:24.279 --> 0:06:28.040 couldn't get away to really do a deeper teaching there 0:06:28.160 --> 0:06:30.800 for the whole week. So I did a very fast 0:06:30.839 --> 0:06:33.600 New York turnaround trip, so caught the flight from LA 0:06:33.680 --> 0:06:36.719 to New York and then took a really gorgeous three 0:06:36.760 --> 0:06:40.919 hour drive through the leaves changing and falling and the 0:06:40.960 --> 0:06:45.120 season changing from JFK to Upstate and did that travel 0:06:45.160 --> 0:06:46.800 back and I was able to stay on campus for 0:06:46.800 --> 0:06:50.400 about twenty four hours, taught for a few hours of 0:06:50.400 --> 0:06:56.280 workshop on trauma informed meditation, and it was just I 0:06:56.520 --> 0:07:01.560 love getting into the fibers of doing deep teach on meditation. 0:07:01.960 --> 0:07:09.200 It's just such an extraordinarily powerful subject matter, not just 0:07:09.360 --> 0:07:14.640 for expansion of consciousness, but for truly truly deep, deep 0:07:14.840 --> 0:07:18.960 deep healing on a mental, emotional, physical, and spiritual level. 0:07:19.160 --> 0:07:22.000 So that's my jam. So that's what I was doing 0:07:22.000 --> 0:07:24.840 for the last week or so since we've been together. 0:07:25.680 --> 0:07:28.280 And one of the things that I loved that I 0:07:28.280 --> 0:07:32.440 think really ties into this episode especially is I've been 0:07:32.440 --> 0:07:35.480 trying to find ways in this season. This is a 0:07:35.560 --> 0:07:37.480 it's a pretty full season for me in a lot 0:07:37.840 --> 0:07:40.360 a lot of ways. It's a full season career wise, 0:07:40.440 --> 0:07:43.240 it's a full season in my motherhood and in the 0:07:43.360 --> 0:07:46.120 spaces that my son is now moving into and his 0:07:46.240 --> 0:07:50.160 development and full season with friendships and with family, and 0:07:50.280 --> 0:07:54.960 so being able to find more time to reset my 0:07:55.040 --> 0:07:58.560 own nervous system. I've had to get really creative with that. 0:07:58.960 --> 0:08:01.760 And so when I went to Upstate New York, something 0:08:01.800 --> 0:08:04.200 that I knew I only had twenty four hours and 0:08:04.240 --> 0:08:06.320 I would be working for some of that time. But 0:08:07.680 --> 0:08:10.520 I also knew that, like listen, there's no service up here, 0:08:10.640 --> 0:08:15.600 so let me not even try to do anything that 0:08:15.680 --> 0:08:17.880 has to do with the internet with my phone, and 0:08:18.120 --> 0:08:22.119 really soak up every free hour you get here before 0:08:22.160 --> 0:08:27.360 you get on this nine hour journey home and feel good. 0:08:27.400 --> 0:08:29.720 And so I was able to get really full nights 0:08:29.760 --> 0:08:32.320 of sleep, and my little cabin slept the whole night 0:08:32.440 --> 0:08:36.400 through which my dear God, did my brain and soul 0:08:36.520 --> 0:08:39.480 need that. And then after I taught, I just took 0:08:39.480 --> 0:08:43.679 a walk. I just walked and walked and walked, and 0:08:43.800 --> 0:08:49.520 I had some somatic and kind of sensory practices going 0:08:49.640 --> 0:08:54.079 where because all the leaves were falling, I would slowly 0:08:54.240 --> 0:08:57.640 walk in piles of leaves to hear the crunch underneath 0:08:57.640 --> 0:09:00.640 my feet, and I just kind of walked myself circle 0:09:00.800 --> 0:09:04.160 over and over for like twenty minutes listening to that 0:09:04.320 --> 0:09:07.480 slow crunch and you know, like that forest medicine. Oh 0:09:07.520 --> 0:09:11.400 my god, delicious and pink noise, which is one of 0:09:11.400 --> 0:09:14.480 my favorite sounds to work with, especially when I need 0:09:14.480 --> 0:09:19.079 some extra rest, is really rooted in. One of the 0:09:19.160 --> 0:09:23.240 layers of sound is the sound of leaves crunching. So 0:09:23.960 --> 0:09:27.160 that was really yummy. Another thing that I love to 0:09:27.160 --> 0:09:29.160 do while I'm out there. So this campus is about 0:09:29.200 --> 0:09:31.600 two hundred and fifty acres. It's like in the forest, 0:09:31.760 --> 0:09:34.840 you got cabins, it's the trees, all the things. But 0:09:34.880 --> 0:09:38.000 because I live in la I don't really get the 0:09:38.080 --> 0:09:42.240 chance to go take long walks in the dark. Right 0:09:42.280 --> 0:09:44.840 It wouldn't necessarily be the wise thing for me to 0:09:44.880 --> 0:09:47.680 do in my neighborhood late at night is to walk 0:09:47.720 --> 0:09:50.760 around alone in the dark. So it's not something I 0:09:50.800 --> 0:09:53.160 really get to do, but it's something that I love. 0:09:53.480 --> 0:09:55.360 So when I'm a place that I can do that. 0:09:56.160 --> 0:10:01.760 A personal practice I have with myself is noticing how 0:10:01.840 --> 0:10:05.000 I feel within my body and within my sense of 0:10:05.040 --> 0:10:09.520 protection over time by monitoring kind of taking these slow 0:10:09.640 --> 0:10:13.360 dark walks by myself whenever I get the chance. So 0:10:14.600 --> 0:10:17.360 that was something that I loved doing on the campus. 0:10:17.440 --> 0:10:22.040 So before I went to bed, walked outside, laid on 0:10:22.080 --> 0:10:27.760 the grass, stargazed, paryed, meditated, listened to the crickets and 0:10:27.840 --> 0:10:32.080 the ambient noise, took really really really deep, beautiful breaths, 0:10:32.880 --> 0:10:35.560 and then walked around and kind of the pitch black 0:10:35.640 --> 0:10:39.120 on a trail and noticed how safe I felt, and 0:10:40.000 --> 0:10:46.080 it was really special, and instantaneously I felt my shift 0:10:46.160 --> 0:10:49.840 back into peace, and I felt just so many weeks 0:10:49.880 --> 0:10:53.000 and weeks of a lot of high intensity and day 0:10:53.040 --> 0:10:56.160 to day life stress just really roll off of my 0:10:56.240 --> 0:11:01.400 shoulders and it's carried me through and it just reminded 0:11:01.440 --> 0:11:05.360 me of the power of even when you have limited 0:11:05.400 --> 0:11:08.800 time to take care of yourself, if you choose to 0:11:08.840 --> 0:11:12.840 have deep presence with yourself as you're caring for yourself, 0:11:13.800 --> 0:11:17.360 even those little moments can really ring throughout your life 0:11:17.920 --> 0:11:21.880 for days, for weeks. And you know, I'm like a 0:11:21.880 --> 0:11:24.840 week removed from that experience and I'm still feeling like 0:11:25.000 --> 0:11:27.760 really high energy. I have a lot of vitality, My 0:11:27.880 --> 0:11:31.520 brain feels super clear, my heart feels really open. So 0:11:31.880 --> 0:11:34.480 if anyone needed that, just a reminder, even if you 0:11:34.520 --> 0:11:38.160 only have thirty minutes every two weeks, do it, do it? 0:11:38.600 --> 0:11:41.680 Do it, you'll have a response, but it's important that 0:11:41.720 --> 0:11:45.240 you stay deeply present in it. So don't get distracted, 0:11:45.840 --> 0:11:48.800 don't let yourself pour into other thoughts that you could 0:11:48.800 --> 0:11:51.920 think at any other time. Just stay with it, stay 0:11:51.960 --> 0:11:54.719 with it, and let it really serve you. So one 0:11:54.720 --> 0:11:59.080 of the things that I noticed after we release some 0:11:59.120 --> 0:12:02.160 of the clips of this EPP, we have been getting 0:12:02.440 --> 0:12:06.560 such amazing feedback and it's been really dope because a 0:12:06.600 --> 0:12:10.160 lot of you that have been connecting to these episodes 0:12:10.679 --> 0:12:14.079 are giving a lot of detail on how you're experiencing it, 0:12:14.160 --> 0:12:16.040 which for me as a teacher is so helpful. I'm 0:12:16.080 --> 0:12:18.880 always like, oh, wow, yeah, so that's where it took 0:12:18.920 --> 0:12:21.040 you where, that's you know, where you were able to 0:12:21.040 --> 0:12:23.800 take yourself. And so one of the comments that I 0:12:23.880 --> 0:12:25.880 was reading on one of the clips that we posted, 0:12:26.600 --> 0:12:30.040 I just loved because I would have never even thought 0:12:30.080 --> 0:12:33.600 of it this way. But someone shared that from listening 0:12:33.640 --> 0:12:36.440 to the series so far, they had this kind of click, 0:12:36.559 --> 0:12:41.920 this aha moment around they had previously always looked as 0:12:41.920 --> 0:12:46.360 it at integrity as who you are towards other people. 0:12:46.920 --> 0:12:49.400 So maybe a little bit of that kind of martyrdom 0:12:49.440 --> 0:12:52.720 program that we see all things or that bigger person programming. 0:12:52.760 --> 0:12:56.240 It's how you were showing up for others powerfully and 0:12:56.320 --> 0:13:01.120 you know, with dignity, with your integrity, And they shared 0:13:01.320 --> 0:13:05.920 that from listening to the episodes, they're understanding they're making 0:13:05.920 --> 0:13:12.000 that bridge of connection. That choosing to work on yourself, right, 0:13:12.120 --> 0:13:15.960 choosing to regulate your emotions, choosing to break your patterns 0:13:16.000 --> 0:13:20.680 and your systems, choosing to heal, choosing to really dedicate 0:13:20.679 --> 0:13:24.040 yourself to a daily practice like meditation or self care, 0:13:24.960 --> 0:13:30.400 that is what is having integrity for your self. And 0:13:30.480 --> 0:13:33.040 so the loop of integrity is not complete if we're 0:13:33.040 --> 0:13:35.679 only showing up with it for others and we're not 0:13:35.720 --> 0:13:40.199 showing up with it for self, that in fact is avoidance. 0:13:40.840 --> 0:13:43.520 That's the way that we continue to feed this loop 0:13:43.600 --> 0:13:47.760 and this false belief that there is somehow, this righteousness 0:13:47.880 --> 0:13:51.560 or this reward that is coming for always exasperating yourself 0:13:51.600 --> 0:13:54.959 for others but not looking to meet your own needs 0:13:54.960 --> 0:13:58.079 in the same way. And it's it's a very sophisticated 0:13:58.160 --> 0:14:02.600 way that especially the best healers can avoid themselves. Right. 0:14:02.720 --> 0:14:05.800 It's this idea that no, it's because I do for others, 0:14:06.679 --> 0:14:08.880 but it's really because it might be triggering that you 0:14:09.040 --> 0:14:11.640 haven't learned how to be slow and patient with yourself, 0:14:12.160 --> 0:14:15.280 or it's triggering to realize that maybe no one has 0:14:15.320 --> 0:14:17.840 met your needs yet and so you're still having to 0:14:17.920 --> 0:14:23.040 meet your own And that's so understandable. It's just so understandable, 0:14:23.680 --> 0:14:27.320 but it's not the path to full wholeness and healing, 0:14:27.440 --> 0:14:29.760 and I think each of us deserve that, and so 0:14:30.480 --> 0:14:33.880 just reading that, reading that connection and reading that feedback 0:14:34.680 --> 0:14:38.200 was really special. So I think the beautiful soul that 0:14:38.240 --> 0:14:40.800 shared it and everyone else that's been sharing feedback, and 0:14:41.600 --> 0:14:44.560 especially from a community standpoint, it's so helpful as a 0:14:44.600 --> 0:14:47.840 group for us all to be able to hear a 0:14:47.960 --> 0:14:53.280 multitude of experiences and a multitude of breakthrough thoughts. It 0:14:53.320 --> 0:14:56.240 also led me to realizing an area where I had 0:14:56.280 --> 0:14:59.160 to tighten up in my own integrity, my own personal 0:14:59.280 --> 0:15:01.560 integrity and so care in the last couple of weeks, 0:15:01.680 --> 0:15:04.880 and that has been around. So I'm someone that for 0:15:05.080 --> 0:15:08.120 the vast majority of my life has lived with chronic 0:15:08.160 --> 0:15:12.200 illness and chronic pain, and to varying degrees, I've been 0:15:12.240 --> 0:15:14.680 in a season in the last several years where it 0:15:14.720 --> 0:15:17.200 has been the lightest load I've ever had, and I 0:15:17.240 --> 0:15:23.720 am extraordinarily grateful for the way my relationship to a 0:15:23.840 --> 0:15:28.400 very high pain tolerance has changed. And I also think, 0:15:28.400 --> 0:15:30.640 as someone who's just always been a leader in my 0:15:30.720 --> 0:15:35.360 own life and incredibly independent, I have a very high 0:15:35.440 --> 0:15:39.240 tolerance for emotional and physical pain, and so I have 0:15:39.360 --> 0:15:42.600 to really stay on myself to take good care of 0:15:42.680 --> 0:15:46.040 myself or I just won't notice when I let myself 0:15:46.520 --> 0:15:50.000 slowly fall apart. And so something I've been working through 0:15:50.080 --> 0:15:52.200 is that in the last few months, I've been having 0:15:52.200 --> 0:15:54.880 a little bit of flare ups and I've been moving 0:15:54.880 --> 0:15:57.880 through them, but I've also just been really busy, and 0:15:57.960 --> 0:16:02.200 everything else in life has been really good. And I 0:16:02.320 --> 0:16:04.680 got in this last couple of weeks I found out 0:16:04.680 --> 0:16:07.400 that I have tendonitis in one of my shoulders. And 0:16:07.760 --> 0:16:10.040 I have never had tendonitis before. I don't know if 0:16:10.080 --> 0:16:13.240 anyone else has ever had it. I don't like it 0:16:13.280 --> 0:16:17.640 at all, Like I am not efin with tendinitis. I 0:16:17.680 --> 0:16:24.160 am offended by tendonitis, Like it is so painful, and 0:16:24.320 --> 0:16:27.680 not having use of that limb for myself has been 0:16:27.840 --> 0:16:32.080 IOPA nine and incredibly challenging, and so I'm just kind 0:16:32.080 --> 0:16:34.960 of walking around and my arm is in like true 0:16:35.120 --> 0:16:37.760 chicken wing fashion, Like I've just been able to kind 0:16:37.800 --> 0:16:40.360 of hold it pin to my side and kind of 0:16:40.400 --> 0:16:45.000 like hold my solar plexus. But it's it's interesting, you know, 0:16:45.120 --> 0:16:46.920 trying to do all the things that you need to do. 0:16:47.120 --> 0:16:50.480 And so I found myself, you know, a little bit 0:16:50.560 --> 0:16:53.360 frustrated with that and just kind of frustrated at having 0:16:53.400 --> 0:16:55.840 to plow through the day being in so much pain 0:16:55.960 --> 0:17:00.320 because I was taking you know, the the ibuprofens and 0:17:00.720 --> 0:17:05.479 all the things, and I wasn't having a change. So 0:17:05.520 --> 0:17:08.359 I was just feeling frustrated. And I got back home 0:17:09.480 --> 0:17:11.560 and I looked around my house and I looked at 0:17:11.560 --> 0:17:14.120 the life that I created for myself, a life that 0:17:14.920 --> 0:17:18.439 really supports my nervous system and supports my health. I 0:17:18.440 --> 0:17:22.280 have a lot of biohacking stuff everywhere. I do constant 0:17:22.320 --> 0:17:26.359 self care. I cold plunge SANA, I use PMF, I 0:17:26.440 --> 0:17:31.800 use infrared lights, I have frequency sounds. And I kind 0:17:31.800 --> 0:17:35.960 of had to just take a deep breath and laugh 0:17:36.000 --> 0:17:39.840 at myself because I realized that I have all of 0:17:39.880 --> 0:17:43.360 this at my disposal and I hadn't yet used any 0:17:43.440 --> 0:17:47.119 of it to care for this injury. And so it 0:17:47.160 --> 0:17:50.119 was just a reminder of how even when we have 0:17:50.920 --> 0:17:54.480 gotten to places where we are so diligent with ourselves 0:17:54.560 --> 0:17:57.919 and maybe so much in our personal integrity or in 0:17:58.000 --> 0:17:59.960 deep alignment with our bodies and the way that we 0:18:00.119 --> 0:18:03.720 care for ourselves, sometimes we can get distracted and blink 0:18:03.840 --> 0:18:08.280 and forget. And so I hope this episode also serves 0:18:08.400 --> 0:18:11.840 as a reminder to reconnect to a practice that maybe 0:18:11.840 --> 0:18:14.280 you just haven't had time for lately and consider if 0:18:14.280 --> 0:18:16.439 it would serve you or not. So I spent an 0:18:16.440 --> 0:18:18.639 evening after I put my son to bed a couple 0:18:18.720 --> 0:18:22.680 hours where I did my sauna. I did epsom salt bath, 0:18:22.760 --> 0:18:26.880 of course, did infrared light directly on my shoulder, did 0:18:26.880 --> 0:18:30.040 a little bit of cupping, and the pain like went 0:18:30.080 --> 0:18:34.800 away by fifty percent immediately. So yeah, that was my 0:18:34.840 --> 0:18:38.760 beautiful reminder of making sure and evaluating and bringing up 0:18:38.800 --> 0:18:41.840 for a review that I stay in integrity with myself 0:18:41.960 --> 0:18:45.560 and with my own body as I share practices for 0:18:45.640 --> 0:18:54.040 you to do the same deeply. Well, well, all right, 0:18:54.119 --> 0:18:57.600 let's dive into today's episode. This is our final episode 0:18:57.640 --> 0:19:01.680 deepening in our understandings of intego. We are gearing up 0:19:02.000 --> 0:19:07.200 for a moment in American history, global history where we're 0:19:07.200 --> 0:19:09.240 going to notice that more and more in the world. 0:19:09.720 --> 0:19:12.320 We're just a couple weeks out from election. I really 0:19:12.359 --> 0:19:16.919 want to encourage anyone who isn't to please register to vote. 0:19:17.200 --> 0:19:22.040 Please please please register to vote. Please vote, Please vote, 0:19:22.080 --> 0:19:30.480 please vote. Please consider integrity as you vote. I'm very, very, 0:19:31.320 --> 0:19:37.480 very excited to cast my ballot for Kamala Harris. That 0:19:37.680 --> 0:19:42.080 is my personal decision. That is what feels most closely 0:19:42.160 --> 0:19:47.440 aligned to my beliefs and to what I think can 0:19:47.520 --> 0:19:50.120 bring about what is necessary in the world right now. 0:19:50.119 --> 0:19:53.080 And I'm so excited to do it, so grateful to 0:19:53.080 --> 0:19:56.160 be alive in this time. And I think, no matter 0:19:56.200 --> 0:19:58.399 what happens in the world, no matter what happens with 0:19:58.440 --> 0:20:01.600 any of this, no matter what no matter what happens 0:20:01.640 --> 0:20:03.760 in the greater government or the things that we watch 0:20:03.760 --> 0:20:08.199 on TV, it's still about who we are individually and 0:20:08.280 --> 0:20:12.240 as a community, in smaller action, in smaller detail, in 0:20:12.400 --> 0:20:14.919 every day of life. And I think integrity is a 0:20:14.960 --> 0:20:19.360 profound guiding point for that. So let's talk about, you know, 0:20:19.480 --> 0:20:22.800 some of the ways that integrity is actually an agent 0:20:22.960 --> 0:20:27.080 for deep healing and for change. We've already explored kind 0:20:27.080 --> 0:20:30.600 of definably what it can be in the various facets 0:20:30.600 --> 0:20:33.120 of who we are and in our lives. But let's 0:20:33.119 --> 0:20:36.560 talk about integrity as a way to actually reclaim your 0:20:36.920 --> 0:20:39.960 power when you're on a healing journey. I love this. 0:20:40.720 --> 0:20:44.880 When we find ourselves in challenging situations, when we're triggered, 0:20:44.960 --> 0:20:47.679 especially when we're on a healing journey and we're redeveloping 0:20:47.760 --> 0:20:52.880 our relationship to self and others, it can be really 0:20:53.000 --> 0:20:56.960 easy to feel sometimes like our sovereignty or our autonomy 0:20:57.040 --> 0:21:00.440 is being challenged. As we grow that self confidence, as 0:21:00.440 --> 0:21:03.719 we grow that personal autonomy and the sovereignty which is 0:21:04.400 --> 0:21:08.080 you being the leader of your life and of your soul, 0:21:08.960 --> 0:21:13.240 the triggering aspect of kind of recalibrating our life and 0:21:13.280 --> 0:21:16.840 inviting in new relationships and new people and shedding other 0:21:16.880 --> 0:21:21.160 ones can sometimes really affect the way we come into 0:21:21.200 --> 0:21:25.480 personal choice. And so with integrity as the guiding post 0:21:25.680 --> 0:21:30.000 our personal values, it becomes a really powerful way to 0:21:30.240 --> 0:21:35.280 actually grow our aora, grow our personal power, grow our magnetism, 0:21:35.920 --> 0:21:39.000 grow our healing, and also grow our boundaries and our 0:21:39.040 --> 0:21:42.560 protective forces of the bs that we get to keep 0:21:42.720 --> 0:21:46.719 out of our lives. Because we have this force field 0:21:47.040 --> 0:21:50.959 of personal integrity around us, So staying true to our 0:21:51.040 --> 0:21:53.040 values is what really helps with that. It's one of 0:21:53.080 --> 0:21:55.760 the most powerful ways to reclaim a sense of control 0:21:55.800 --> 0:21:59.920 in our lives and to rebalance and harmonize the way 0:22:00.080 --> 0:22:03.760 we're experiencing other people and the way we're experiencing our work. 0:22:04.280 --> 0:22:06.639 So when we're in integrity, we reclaim the power to 0:22:06.760 --> 0:22:11.920 navigate life on our terms, even in situations that can 0:22:12.040 --> 0:22:16.639 feel disempowering, right, because in life that's not necessarily going 0:22:16.720 --> 0:22:19.199 to cease. We're on a planet with nine billion people. 0:22:19.920 --> 0:22:22.960 We get to do as much to stay on our 0:22:23.000 --> 0:22:26.040 path as we can and keep our connection to God 0:22:26.080 --> 0:22:30.440 really strong and pure. But we're also interacting with nine 0:22:30.560 --> 0:22:34.080 billion other incarnated souls who have all of their own 0:22:34.080 --> 0:22:37.560 spiritual curriculum, and I don't necessarily know that any of 0:22:37.560 --> 0:22:43.720 that will ever get less challenging, less irritating, less confusing. 0:22:45.119 --> 0:22:47.719 But we are in command of self, and so that 0:22:47.920 --> 0:22:52.439 is always a great equalizer for our experience. And so 0:22:53.400 --> 0:22:57.800 when we're in integrity, we can really reclaim the power 0:22:57.840 --> 0:23:01.280 again to navigate life on our terms, even in situations 0:23:01.280 --> 0:23:04.880 that feel hard, that feel disempowering. We can stand firm 0:23:04.920 --> 0:23:07.919 in our personal truth and we can stand firm in 0:23:08.440 --> 0:23:12.840 our authenticity. So a way to kind of ask invite 0:23:13.280 --> 0:23:19.600 that into this lens of what we're discussing is consider 0:23:19.680 --> 0:23:22.960 asking yourself, where in my life do I need to 0:23:23.000 --> 0:23:28.000 reclaim my power? And when we're using the word power, 0:23:28.600 --> 0:23:31.920 it's important to see how you even view and define 0:23:31.960 --> 0:23:37.119 that because it doesn't necessarily mean aggrandizing power or dominating power. 0:23:37.960 --> 0:23:43.560 It means dignified power, It means honest power, integral power. 0:23:44.160 --> 0:23:47.560 So where do you need to reclaim your power, your 0:23:47.680 --> 0:23:52.439 true authenticity and sense of self and self respect in 0:23:52.480 --> 0:23:55.399 your life? And how can you do so in a 0:23:55.440 --> 0:24:00.280 way that's an alignment with what your deepest value, use 0:24:01.119 --> 0:24:07.239 and desires are. So I hope we're kind of like 0:24:07.359 --> 0:24:13.960 really tracking this thought process right. So we have our 0:24:14.800 --> 0:24:18.600 deep values, our core sense of belief, our desires to belong. 0:24:19.480 --> 0:24:22.679 Then we have our desires for what we want in 0:24:22.720 --> 0:24:26.280 this life and who we want to be, and then 0:24:26.320 --> 0:24:29.720 we bring that thread over to the way we live 0:24:29.880 --> 0:24:33.560 in integrity and utilize our wisdom, and all of those 0:24:33.600 --> 0:24:38.520 things happening at one time is what brings us into 0:24:38.840 --> 0:24:42.800 a state of personal mastery, a state of wholeness, a 0:24:42.880 --> 0:24:47.280 state of transcendence. Of our life's circumstances and our wounds 0:24:47.359 --> 0:24:50.280 and our traumas. But it's kind of all of that 0:24:50.680 --> 0:24:56.359 in a multifaceted way moving through you to have the 0:24:56.440 --> 0:25:02.080 intended results and the intended experience and purpose. So thinking 0:25:02.080 --> 0:25:06.600 about integrity from the standpoint of our healing process. Healing 0:25:06.600 --> 0:25:10.840 can be a really fragile and tender thing. It is 0:25:10.920 --> 0:25:16.840 not at all uncommon to feel bitterness or disappointment along 0:25:17.320 --> 0:25:23.360 that path. In fact, I encourage it. Sometimes give yourself 0:25:23.400 --> 0:25:27.679 a chance to feel angry when it naturally arises. Do 0:25:27.760 --> 0:25:29.639 it in a way that keeps you safe and keeps 0:25:29.680 --> 0:25:31.679 other people safe, but do it in a way that 0:25:31.800 --> 0:25:35.119 it can be felt and expressed, especially if that is 0:25:35.160 --> 0:25:40.560 something you historically have not been allowed to express or 0:25:40.600 --> 0:25:44.119 have not allowed yourself to express. Now. If you're on 0:25:44.119 --> 0:25:45.840 the other end of this spectrum and that is an 0:25:45.840 --> 0:25:48.359 area where you may have been leaning into a lot 0:25:48.480 --> 0:25:52.439 more and getting angry a lot more, that may not 0:25:52.600 --> 0:25:55.240 be what you need to do now, but if you haven't, 0:25:55.840 --> 0:25:59.119 you might want to consider that. And integrity personally is 0:25:59.160 --> 0:26:02.600 about allowing ourselves to feel those emotions without letting them 0:26:02.640 --> 0:26:06.280 dictate our actions, harden our hearts. It helps us build 0:26:06.320 --> 0:26:10.040 emotional and spiritual bandwidth in our lives. So rather than 0:26:10.119 --> 0:26:14.359 striving for perfection, it's really important, it's impossible, don't attempt it. 0:26:14.920 --> 0:26:18.040 Remember that healing is a journey, of course, it's not 0:26:18.119 --> 0:26:20.600 a destination. And the more that we can hold space 0:26:20.640 --> 0:26:23.720 for our own humanity, the more that we can stay 0:26:23.760 --> 0:26:26.880 in alignment with what our truth is, stay on mission, 0:26:27.080 --> 0:26:30.280 stay on assignment, and as we heal, we strengthen our 0:26:30.320 --> 0:26:34.280 capacity to live even more deeply in integrity and get 0:26:34.840 --> 0:26:39.359 have even more depth of intimacy with the people that 0:26:39.400 --> 0:26:43.199 are in our lives. Little soul work for today on 0:26:43.240 --> 0:26:45.680