WEBVTT - Chapter 2 – Pressure

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<v Speaker 1>Buzz an audio drama for iHeart Podcasts starring John Lithgow

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<v Speaker 1>and Jeffrey Arrand as buzz Aldren. This series is based

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<v Speaker 1>on real events, However, certain characters, names, incidents, locations, and

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<v Speaker 1>dialogue have been fictionalized for dramatic purposes. Chapter two.

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<v Speaker 2>If you were at NASA during the sixties, you saw

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<v Speaker 2>the world through a haze of cigarettes. For ten years,

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<v Speaker 2>I thought I had cataracts. Rachel Ludwig was our flight surgeon,

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<v Speaker 2>an MD who smoked three packs a day. She was

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<v Speaker 2>also a psychiatrist. Truth is, she didn't really exist. She's

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<v Speaker 2>a combination of characters. Doctor Ludwig is an invention. What

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<v Speaker 2>she did wasn't Doctor Ludwig.

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<v Speaker 3>You're aware of the simulated crash during our DPS exercise, I.

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<v Speaker 2>Am, sir, in a meeting with flight director Gene Kranz

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<v Speaker 2>and Director of Crew Operations Deeke Slayton. Doctor Ludwig's campaign

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<v Speaker 2>against me began with just enough grains of truth to

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<v Speaker 2>spice up the inquisition.

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<v Speaker 4>I am also aware of the confrontation between Neil and

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<v Speaker 4>Buzz's following the simulation their.

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<v Speaker 5>Former fighter pilots, doctor competitive Guys.

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<v Speaker 2>Deeke was one of the original Mercury astronauts in the

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<v Speaker 2>early sixties, but he was grounded by an irregular heartbeat.

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<v Speaker 6>If they weren't, they'd have been shot out of the

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<v Speaker 6>sky a long time ago.

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<v Speaker 4>I understand, but there are other factors that enter into

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<v Speaker 4>making sure they're psychologically up to the stresses of a

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<v Speaker 4>mission as taxing as Apollo.

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<v Speaker 3>Eleven, Ah, Chris join us.

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<v Speaker 4>The crew of Apollo eleven hasn't been psychologically evaluated since

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<v Speaker 4>they joined NASA during the Gemini program, when it was determined.

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<v Speaker 5>They were perfectly sund.

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<v Speaker 2>I loved Chris, but he knew those two yests were

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<v Speaker 2>no more indicative of psychological fitness than they were of cholesterol.

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<v Speaker 4>Well, I haven't seen the original studies, and regardless they're

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<v Speaker 4>seven years old. Since then, these men have experienced the

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<v Speaker 4>pressures of intense training, of family disruptions.

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<v Speaker 5>And flight surgeon, you're responsible for seeing that they're free

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<v Speaker 5>of whooping cough, hamorrhoids or venereal disease.

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<v Speaker 4>Missercraft, I'm sure you don't admit to that last possibility. Look,

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<v Speaker 4>as flight director, mister Kranz, will you allow me to

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<v Speaker 4>at least look at the original studies.

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<v Speaker 3>Deeke what's your view.

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<v Speaker 5>I think the crew is physically and psychologically prepared to

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<v Speaker 5>handle the demands of the mission.

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<v Speaker 4>I disagree, and I think you're making a serious mistake

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<v Speaker 4>that could result in long term damage to one.

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<v Speaker 3>Of them, the one being Colonel Aldron.

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<v Speaker 5>Buzz is the best physicist among the astronauts. His doctoral

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<v Speaker 5>thesis on orbital rendezvous procedures made this mission possible.

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<v Speaker 4>His reputation as the least liked man at NASA is

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<v Speaker 4>common knowledge. He turns competition into confrontation at almost every opportunity.

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<v Speaker 4>He lost his academic accomplishments over everyone.

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<v Speaker 2>Sure if she wanted to be nitpicky, thank you, doctor Levi.

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<v Speaker 2>Chris Kraft invited her to leave, and Gene Krantz didn't

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<v Speaker 2>countermand Craft's invitation.

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<v Speaker 4>I can show myself, sorry, Jeane.

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<v Speaker 5>I didn't mean to overstead.

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<v Speaker 3>I wanted to know what you think.

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<v Speaker 5>I think that girl should be marginalized, as in fired,

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<v Speaker 5>for the good of the mission. But that decision's up

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<v Speaker 5>to you.

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<v Speaker 2>I'm Buzz Aldron, and this is the story you think

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<v Speaker 2>you know, but you don't.

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<v Speaker 7>Five with a quality dare the angle land All Clamp

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<v Speaker 7>for ramp. Pardon Diamp?

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<v Speaker 2>You're listening to Buzz. This is the story of my

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<v Speaker 2>greatest achievement. Chapter two.

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<v Speaker 8>Manuel cocking of ring latches is complete. We've got internal

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<v Speaker 8>pressure from the tunnel, transmitted from the probe and rogue

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<v Speaker 8>ready for lunar module separation.

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<v Speaker 2>Roger Eagle, I'd be lying if I said it was

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<v Speaker 2>easy for Kneeling me to work together. After the landing simulation,

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<v Speaker 2>we talked when we had to, Which does bode well

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<v Speaker 2>when you're looking at being in close quarters for a

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<v Speaker 2>round trip of half a million miles. We were on

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<v Speaker 2>module simulation number shit. I lost count. We were still

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<v Speaker 2>testing and things were still going wrong.

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<v Speaker 3>Why team, what's the pressure?

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<v Speaker 2>Reading one seven five point eight.

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<v Speaker 3>Buzz began rotating the motor torque.

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<v Speaker 5>Her rotations complete blocking spools.

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<v Speaker 8>Disengaged ring latches are negative function flight.

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<v Speaker 5>We've got a pressure leak inside the tunnel.

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<v Speaker 4>Complete destabilization.

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<v Speaker 3>Stop everything, shut it all down. When something that'll work around.

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<v Speaker 2>Rumors that the Russians were about to launch a lunar

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<v Speaker 2>mission meant nothing could slow our timetable. When Krantz went

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<v Speaker 2>to Ludwig's office, she was packing up her personal effects.

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<v Speaker 3>Then what are you doing? Doctor?

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<v Speaker 4>You'll have my letter of resignation by the end of

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<v Speaker 4>the day. Why I don't believe in cashing checks if

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<v Speaker 4>I'm not doing the job. It's a quirk.

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<v Speaker 3>I need you to look at those psych studies from

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<v Speaker 3>when Buzz and the others were first recruited.

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<v Speaker 4>I don't know where they are.

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<v Speaker 3>Find them.

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<v Speaker 4>Mister Craft made it clear that he.

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<v Speaker 3>Mister Craft, isn't flight director.

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<v Speaker 7>I am.

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<v Speaker 4>The tests were administered by doctor Paul mccoone.

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<v Speaker 3>I know Paul, but they're only.

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<v Speaker 4>Useful as a baseline without contemporary studies to compare them with.

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<v Speaker 3>It's it's first things first, doctor, find the originals. You

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<v Speaker 3>don't have much times the anomalous.

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<v Speaker 9>That I need. It.

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<v Speaker 3>Got a second, Chris, what's up? I asked Ludwig to

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<v Speaker 3>review those psychological tests.

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<v Speaker 5>I thought we decided not you.

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<v Speaker 3>Decided, Chris. Look, there are a million parts in the

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<v Speaker 3>CSM alone, and we can't predict with absolute certainty how

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<v Speaker 3>any of them will perform, least of all the crew.

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<v Speaker 3>I believe Buzz is sound enough to fly. I just

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<v Speaker 3>want to remove any shadow of a doubt.

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<v Speaker 5>What if Ludwig turns up something you wish she had.

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<v Speaker 3>While you were there when those initial tests were done. Well,

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<v Speaker 3>she will, she Chris.

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<v Speaker 2>It's bad when you're left twisting in the wind by

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<v Speaker 2>people you've come to trust. It's worse when you're twisting

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<v Speaker 2>and you don't even know it.

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<v Speaker 4>Doctor Paul mccoone. My name is Rachel Ludwig. I'm Apallo

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<v Speaker 4>eleven slight surgeon. Seriously, why the surprise you're a female. Well,

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<v Speaker 4>my husband's accused me of worse.

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<v Speaker 9>I never thought Chris Kraft would appoint one.

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<v Speaker 4>I doubt he will again. I'm sure he wouldn't have

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<v Speaker 4>if you knew I was also a psychiatrist. Doctor, you

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<v Speaker 4>administered MMPI test to the flight crew when they first

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<v Speaker 4>came to NASA.

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<v Speaker 9>I wanted the test to continue to ensure the long

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<v Speaker 9>term well being of the cruise craft. Fired me.

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<v Speaker 4>Yes, I know. The original tests are nowhere to be

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<v Speaker 4>found at mission control. I need them as a baseline.

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<v Speaker 4>Do you do you have copies?

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<v Speaker 9>Well, for a former employee to have position of classified

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<v Speaker 9>documents would be a violation of agency regulations.

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<v Speaker 4>I'm aware of the regulations, doctor.

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<v Speaker 9>Files are in my garage.

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<v Speaker 2>A space capsule is the ultimate multi purpose vehicle. It's

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<v Speaker 2>your home in a weightless, airless environment and when you land,

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<v Speaker 2>it's got to be water tight or you'll sink to

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<v Speaker 2>the bottom of the ocean. With only a few weeks

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<v Speaker 2>to go before launch, we were still practicing recovery procedures

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<v Speaker 2>in a water tank at mission controls.

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<v Speaker 9>See him as in the water copy that Mike deploy CRL.

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<v Speaker 10>Explosive bolts fired, but the CRL's.

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<v Speaker 5>Not fully engaged.

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<v Speaker 9>Fire redundant bolt.

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<v Speaker 6>CRL is still not engaged.

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<v Speaker 8>Columbia is taking on water.

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<v Speaker 7>Still negative on the CRL. Water's pouring in.

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<v Speaker 5>Too much additional weight. We're sinking.

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<v Speaker 3>Retrieve the module and get divers.

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<v Speaker 9>Into the tank.

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<v Speaker 8>Hit me, the flight manual does what the flight manual aired?

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<v Speaker 4>Water slowing to a trickle. Nil's using the flight manual

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<v Speaker 4>to plug the leak.

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<v Speaker 2>A twenty million dollar command module saved from sinking by

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<v Speaker 2>a loose leaf binder that costs less than a buck.

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<v Speaker 2>Reminded me that every component in the spacecraft was provided

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<v Speaker 2>by the guy who submitted the cheapest bid.

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<v Speaker 5>Damn, damn it. Now Nil's a fucking hero.

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<v Speaker 3>Look on the bright side, we.

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<v Speaker 1>Didn't drown another round.

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<v Speaker 5>Buzz to keep them coming. Honey, I'm good. You and me, Mike,

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<v Speaker 5>We're still active duty and Nils a civilian. I mean

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<v Speaker 5>the commanders should be active. Nixon doesn't want it to

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<v Speaker 5>look like a military operation. Why not. We're getting our

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<v Speaker 5>asses handed to us and them. It's time the military

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<v Speaker 5>got us a win. You mean you got us a win.

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<v Speaker 5>This isn't about Neil, and it's not about Vietnam.

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<v Speaker 10>Buzz.

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<v Speaker 5>Thanks, Sonny. You're a great pilot, buzz as far as

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<v Speaker 5>I'm concerned, the best I've seen. But you're not commander

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<v Speaker 5>of Apollo eleven because you're an unlovable, ego maniacal.

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<v Speaker 3>Pain in the ass.

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<v Speaker 5>Ah, I'm not unlovable. My kids adore me, and my

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<v Speaker 5>monkey thinks I'm a prince. And if I'm an ego maniac,

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<v Speaker 5>it's only because I'm vastly superior. You know what your

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<v Speaker 5>problem is?

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<v Speaker 10>What you're more pissed that you'll be second on the

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<v Speaker 10>moon than you are excited about being there at all?

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<v Speaker 3>Whatever it is that's missing?

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<v Speaker 7>Meaning what?

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<v Speaker 5>Well, what's missing? I don't know at home? Your life,

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<v Speaker 5>if you haven't found it by now, whether you're first

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<v Speaker 5>out the door or second will make a damn bit

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<v Speaker 5>of difference.

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<v Speaker 10>Another over here, did you know Jane June fifty three.

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<v Speaker 5>I was on the cover of Life magazine for knocking

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<v Speaker 5>down two Russian MiGs over Korea. You see that.

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<v Speaker 3>No, No, I didn't ah against me.

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<v Speaker 5>The Russians wouldn't stand a chance in hell a buzz.

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<v Speaker 3>Ludwig recommended that you be replaced.

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<v Speaker 5>You can't be serious.

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<v Speaker 3>She's raised issues that could hinder your ability to be

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<v Speaker 3>collaborative with the crew and which might lead to a

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<v Speaker 3>less than positive life experience in the year's post Apollo eleven.

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<v Speaker 3>But these issues are based on a review of your

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<v Speaker 3>psychological evaluation when you joined the program and on your

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<v Speaker 3>family's history.

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<v Speaker 5>Did you accept her recommendation?

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<v Speaker 3>I'm considering it.

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<v Speaker 5>It's Neil. He's behind this. He never wanted me on

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<v Speaker 5>the crew, not since day one.

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<v Speaker 3>No, I have to put together the best crew possible.

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<v Speaker 3>I have to weigh every scenario.

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<v Speaker 5>Twenty years in the military, Gene, everything I've accomplished in

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<v Speaker 5>my life has been preparation for this one thing. If

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<v Speaker 5>it costs me years off my life or if I

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<v Speaker 5>die up there, that's a price I'll pay. You can't

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<v Speaker 5>leave me on the ground, Jeane, Please, is there any

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<v Speaker 5>way I can get past this?

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<v Speaker 3>Talk to Ludwig, get her to withdraw her recommendation. If

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<v Speaker 3>she does, you'll stay on as lunar module pilot.

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<v Speaker 5>Fuck you and her? You want me gone? Say so.

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<v Speaker 5>I'm not throwing myself at her mercy just to let

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<v Speaker 5>you off the hook.

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<v Speaker 2>That night, Joan was at a rehearsal of her theater group.

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<v Speaker 2>The kids were at their friends, and I was in

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<v Speaker 2>our yard looking up at that silver disc in the sky.

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<v Speaker 2>It seemed close enough to touch, but suddenly beyond my reach.

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<v Speaker 6>I thought i'd find you here.

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<v Speaker 7>Drink.

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<v Speaker 6>Were you gonna tell me.

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<v Speaker 9>What that?

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<v Speaker 3>You might be grounded?

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<v Speaker 9>Nah?

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<v Speaker 5>Word gets around, Jean says, the only chance I have

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<v Speaker 5>is to get this shrink to change her mind.

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<v Speaker 6>Well, then do it?

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<v Speaker 5>You mean beg her?

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<v Speaker 4>If it's your only chance.

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<v Speaker 3>I love you, buzz.

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<v Speaker 2>I hadn't heard that in a while from her. It

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<v Speaker 2>meant more than I thought it would, and more than

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<v Speaker 2>I deserved.

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<v Speaker 5>Mike said, I'm unlovable.

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<v Speaker 6>Yeah, well, he has his opinion and I have mine.

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<v Speaker 6>I want us to stay together. I don't know what

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<v Speaker 6>you'll be like twenty years from now if you fly,

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<v Speaker 6>but well I know what you'll be like tomorrow if

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<v Speaker 6>you don't. Don't stay up too late.

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<v Speaker 4>I was surprised to get your call based on your

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<v Speaker 4>obvious disdain for the discipline of psychiatry.

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<v Speaker 5>As a discipline. I admire it.

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<v Speaker 4>It's only this specific application you have a problem with.

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<v Speaker 4>I recommended that you be grounded because your history of

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<v Speaker 4>erratic behavior is too obvious and potentially dangerous for me

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<v Speaker 4>to ignore. I believe it's not only in your best interest,

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<v Speaker 4>but forgive me in the best interest of the mission.

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<v Speaker 5>I believe your recommendation is forgive me based on a

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<v Speaker 5>thoroughly fallacious assessment of my record. You said, my quote

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<v Speaker 5>combative personality has led to quoteunctional working relationships end quote.

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<v Speaker 5>But you haven't provided a single example for my military.

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<v Speaker 4>Career, the majority of which was spent flying alone in

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<v Speaker 4>a fighter jet.

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<v Speaker 5>And with sixty six missions. My quote combative personality is

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<v Speaker 5>the main reason I'm alive quote rigidity and unwillingness to

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<v Speaker 5>seek alternatives to prescribe programs or modes of behavior end quote.

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<v Speaker 5>The objective of Gemini nine was to rendezvous with a

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<v Speaker 5>target vehicle. Due to a technical malfunction, I was forced

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<v Speaker 5>to seek an alternative to the prescribed program and improvised

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<v Speaker 5>with a coordinate in space, turning a failed mission into

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<v Speaker 5>a success.

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<v Speaker 4>I didn't know that, but you do have a genetic

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<v Speaker 4>predisposition to alcoholism and suicide.

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<v Speaker 5>Where's your crystal ball, your sense of divine clairvoyance? Where

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<v Speaker 5>is it? You must have something since you can see

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<v Speaker 5>suicide in store for a guy who spent his entire

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<v Speaker 5>adult life spitting in the face of death.

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<v Speaker 4>If I had my way, you wouldn't be able to

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<v Speaker 4>get into a car, let alone a spacecraft.

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<v Speaker 5>Let's get down a tax doc. What do you want

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<v Speaker 5>to protect?

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<v Speaker 4>You to try to ensure that you and your family

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<v Speaker 4>have a future of quality?

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<v Speaker 5>And what about you?

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<v Speaker 3>What about me?

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<v Speaker 5>Everything turned out the way you predicted for yourself? If so,

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<v Speaker 5>how come you're not married?

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<v Speaker 4>My personal life is none of your business.

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<v Speaker 5>How come no kids? You're holding my future hostage. I

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<v Speaker 5>want to make damn sure you're qualified. If you've been

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<v Speaker 5>correct about every diagnosis, every career or personal choice, if

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<v Speaker 5>you've achieved complete infallibility. I'll do it myself right now.

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<v Speaker 2>I had a shrink who thought it'd be bad if

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<v Speaker 2>I flew, and a wife saying it'd be worse if

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<v Speaker 2>I didn't. But I'm buzz aldron. I proved both of

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<v Speaker 2>them wrong. Didn't.

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<v Speaker 1>I Buzz, starring John Lithgow and Jeffrey Errand, is created

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<v Speaker 1>by Stephen Cronish and directed by John Scott Dryden. Chapter

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<v Speaker 1>two is written by Stephen Cronish and Matt Graham. Original

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<v Speaker 1>music is by Sasha Putnam. Sound designed by Elouise Widmore.

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<v Speaker 1>The producer is Emma Hearn. The executive producers are Jeremy Fox,

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<v Speaker 1>John Scott Dryden, Stephen Cronish, Howard Stringer and Jason English.

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<v Speaker 1>Buzz is a production of Thoroughbred Studios, gold Hawk Productions

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