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Speaker 1: All from Lizard.

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Speaker 2: Hello, Hello, how's it going good?

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Speaker 3: You know?

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Speaker 1: I mean, you know, I mean, it's it's all right.

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Speaker 2: What did you say your name was? If you said

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Speaker 2: a name.

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Speaker 1: You can just call me Lizard.

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Speaker 2: Lizard brings you what brings you on the phone lines today?

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Speaker 1: Lizard, I've got like two things, so like it kind

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Speaker 1: of depends for sure, like I'm trying to figure out

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Speaker 1: the vibe, but also what I really want to talk about, So.

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Speaker 2: Just get honestly, I'd rather use tell me what you

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Speaker 2: really want to talk about?

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Speaker 1: Okay, Okay, cool. So I have a boyfriend and it

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Speaker 1: is it is, It's I've been with him a while now.

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Speaker 1: I've been with him a while now, and I don't

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Speaker 1: there's you know, there's certain things within a relationship that

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Speaker 1: I feel like, you know, loses its luster over time,

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Speaker 1: and it's just it's hard to discuss that, I guess,

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Speaker 1: you know. And yeah, yeah, mmm.

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Speaker 2: Can you tell me more?

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Speaker 1: Just like I think I'm his first real girlfriend. So

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Speaker 1: he is, you know, learning of course, but there are

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Speaker 1: some things that you can't really like learn by telling.

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Speaker 1: And I feel like I don't know how to help

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Speaker 1: to help him.

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Speaker 2: Okay, Like.

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Speaker 1: You're you're so close, dude, you're so close. You almost

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Speaker 1: got it, but it just it doesn't right.

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Speaker 2: Yes, yes, yes, yes, yes. How how old are you, guys?

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Speaker 1: I'm twenty five, he's twenty six.

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Speaker 2: Okay, and you're his first real girlfriend. And how long

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Speaker 2: are you?

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Speaker 1: Has been together for like eight years now.

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Speaker 2: You've been eight years? Holy shit? Okay, so he's well,

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Speaker 2: of course you're his first real girlfriend. You guys have

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Speaker 2: been together for eight years for sure?

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Speaker 4: For sure?

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Speaker 2: Okay, And you're saying that things have lost their luster

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Speaker 2: over eight years and you want him to do things

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Speaker 2: but you don't want to have to tell him to

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Speaker 2: do that.

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Speaker 1: Well, it's not that I don't. I feel like I

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Speaker 1: do tell him, but like he I don't know, man

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Speaker 1: needs to like watch something or like may I don't know.

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Speaker 1: I'm like at this point, like maybe you need to

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Speaker 1: like hook up with another girl and like, I don't know,

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Speaker 1: try things out.

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Speaker 2: Okay? Are all of these are all of the are

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Speaker 2: all of or most of these issues sexual? Or are

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Speaker 2: they other types of things?

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Speaker 3: No?

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Speaker 1: I think it's I think it's just that because he's

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Speaker 1: a great He's no o, we're all great. Guy, Like,

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Speaker 1: I just don't know how to like I don't know

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Speaker 1: how to help him out, you know, like I'm trying

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Speaker 1: to give him but it's just like it's it's been

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Speaker 1: hard for me. I guess in a way, I'm like, like, dang,

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Speaker 1: because I've you know, I've had I've had a couple

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Speaker 1: of boyfriends, so like I know my way around.

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Speaker 2: But uh, well, I mean I don't know, man, you

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Speaker 2: haven't had a couple of boyfriends, and hopefully you haven't

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Speaker 2: had a couple of boyfriends in eight years.

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Speaker 1: No, no, no, no no. But I'm just saying like I've

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Speaker 1: you know, had relationships before and feel like I've learned

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Speaker 1: my way and he hasn't had that type of experience.

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Speaker 1: So I'm like, how do I help you help me?

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Speaker 1: You know?

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Speaker 2: Sure? But you were I mean listen, here's like you

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Speaker 2: were what seventeen when you had these other boyfriends, and

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Speaker 2: I assume these other boyfriends were also in high school.

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Speaker 2: So I don't know if you've I don't I don't

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Speaker 2: know if you've exactly run the gamut of you know,

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Speaker 2: sexual experience at that time. But that's not but that's

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Speaker 2: that's that's not important. Actually to go back to the present,

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Speaker 2: you want him, Okay, So this is all mainly sexual.

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Speaker 2: This isn't like I need him to hold the door

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Speaker 2: open for me and he's not doing it.

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Speaker 1: Yeah, you've got that on lockdown. I'm just trying to

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Speaker 2: Okay, well, well, well way that he feels like.

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Speaker 1: Oh man, I'm not doing enough or like I'm not

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Speaker 1: helping out enough, and I'm like, bro, you're great, yeah.

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Speaker 2: But he's he's not doing enough. What do you want?

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Speaker 1: I just want him to like I don't know, I

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Speaker 1: guess do not research, but like you know, like be like, oh, okay,

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Speaker 1: she likes these things, you know, like let me like

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Speaker 3: What is?

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Speaker 1: What do you do when you're in this situation? Your

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Speaker 1: girl likes this, like you know, like how do I

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Speaker 1: work with her on this? But he's just like, ah,

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Speaker 1: I don't know, you know?

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Speaker 2: Oh yeah, but okay, So there's both of you guys

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Speaker 2: are being like vague, you know, because if because you're

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Speaker 2: over here and you're like, I don't want to have

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Speaker 2: to tell him this thing. But I don't even think.

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Speaker 2: I don't even know if you know what you don't

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Speaker 2: know that you want to tell him.

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Speaker 4: No, it's not that I do.

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Speaker 1: I just don't know how to like tell him in

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Speaker 1: a way or like show him in a way that

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Speaker 1: he's like, oh, like, this isn't like her giving me criticism.

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Speaker 4: This is her like.

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Speaker 1: Showing me, Oh she likes this, this is the way she.

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Speaker 2: Likes You know, what did you say? You're lizard? Lizard,

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Speaker 2: you guys have been together for eight years. You can

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Speaker 2: say to him, hey, I want you to do this.

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Speaker 2: I want you to you know whatever the fucking thing is.

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Speaker 2: You could just say to him that you want him

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Speaker 2: to do it. You know, he has been together for

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Speaker 2: eight fucking years. I mean, what is what you know?

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Speaker 2: If this was a guy, if this was a guy

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Speaker 2: that you were just getting to know and you didn't

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Speaker 2: want to make him think that you didn't like him

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Speaker 2: or whatever. Honestly, even if it was a guy you

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Speaker 2: were just getting to know, it's like, do you gotta

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Speaker 2: fucking tell the guy you know?

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Speaker 3: Yeah?

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Speaker 1: No, I mean I have him. He just doesn't know

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Speaker 1: how to. I don't know if that makes sense, Like, uh,

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Speaker 1: like I don't know, do I I don't know. I

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Speaker 1: just I don't want to like be like, hey, I've

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Speaker 1: told you this and you're it's not really like matching

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Speaker 1: up like to what.

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Speaker 2: Okay, let's get if if you're okay with it, if

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Speaker 2: we can get a little bit more specific, what are

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Speaker 2: you trying to get? Are you trying to get hit?

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Speaker 3: Like?

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Speaker 2: Does he just not have the equipment to do or

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Speaker 2: the stamina to do what you want him to do?

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Speaker 2: Is this less about knowledge and more about uh hardware?

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Speaker 1: No, no, it's not hardware at all. That's the crazy part.

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Speaker 2: Okay, what is it? What is it about?

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Speaker 1: It's just like I think, like, I don't know, like

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Speaker 1: how do I explain this? I tell him what I like,

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Speaker 1: maybe like being a little less gentle of course, and

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Speaker 1: then and then it becomes like like a maybe like

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Speaker 1: a performance a little bit, and I'm like, whoa slow

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Speaker 1: down this is that's a little that's a lot.

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Speaker 2: That's all right. So for example, so for example, you

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Speaker 2: want like, for example, right you I assume you wanted

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Speaker 2: to take control of the situation.

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Speaker 5: Yeah.

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Speaker 2: Yeah, But then when he does it, it's almost like

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Speaker 2: you can tell that he's doing it in such a

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Speaker 2: way that he wants his performance to be positively reviewed,

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Speaker 2: and then it feels fake exactly. Yeah, Okay, yes, okay,

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Speaker 2: that's what I find, Like how.

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Speaker 1: Do I find a nice way to be like, hey, uh,

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Speaker 1: I can tell.

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Speaker 2: Just tell him just be, yeah, just tell him, just

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Speaker 2: be like, listen, listen, here's the thing this is about.

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Speaker 2: This is like an acting exercise almost. What you're trying

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Speaker 2: to get this guy to do. You're like being You're

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Speaker 2: like a director in this sense. It's like you're putting on.

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Speaker 1: A plate gun right now, James gun is he's directing.

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Speaker 1: I got it.

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Speaker 2: Okay, Yeah, So here's your here's the thing, and what

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Speaker 2: this guy is doing is, uh, he's putting on a

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Speaker 2: thing instead of he's got to look within himself and

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Speaker 2: find like his his like dominant sexual energy, and then

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Speaker 2: you give him permission to do that and bring it out.

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Speaker 2: And I don't know if he feels like you've given

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Speaker 2: him the permission to go within himself and find that

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Speaker 2: and like authentically bring it out. And so instead, what

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Speaker 2: you think he wants when you want him to just

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Speaker 2: like fucking you know want it, you know, so you

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Speaker 2: gotta tell so just so you gotta tell him. You

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Speaker 2: gotta be like, listen, listen, you're a fucking guy. You

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Speaker 2: find me attractive, You have some form of dominant sexual

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Speaker 2: energy within you. To go fucking find that ship and

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Speaker 2: bring it to me. Don't uh pretend to be a

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Speaker 2: think I want. I want you to look with it.

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Speaker 2: I want you to authentically desire this and find it

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Speaker 2: in yourself. You know, So you gotta you gotta kind

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Speaker 2: of kind of tell him.

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Speaker 3: This is, this is why.

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Speaker 1: It's literally like the simplest thing. But hey, I appreciate it, Yeah.

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Speaker 2: For sure, you see if you did, if you, please

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Speaker 2: bring him on the phone sometime. I want to hear

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Speaker 2: actually I'm curious about it because I don't like, maybe

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Speaker 2: like an authentic thing within him that he's gonna find

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Speaker 2: and bring out, Like have you when you first brought

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Speaker 2: this up to him? How did it make him feel?

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Speaker 2: Because maybe it is possible that he's putting on this

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Speaker 2: that wants to be more dominant, which is okay, but

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Speaker 2: that could just be the nature of who he is.

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Speaker 2: I don't know because I don't know this guy, Like

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Speaker 2: how did he how did he respond to this?

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Speaker 1: A little bit defensively? He just was upset that, like,

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Speaker 1: you know, he's like, dang, like I wanted, you know,

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Speaker 1: I wanted to like make it great, and I'm like, no,

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Speaker 1: it's it is, but it's just there's like, you know,

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Speaker 1: like something that could be fine tuned. He just he

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Speaker 1: gets he beats himself up about it.

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Speaker 3: Mm hmmm mm hmm.

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Speaker 2: Yeah, he's got to not do that. I mean that's

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Speaker 2: his problem, right, but uh, you know, coach him, the

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Speaker 2: coach him the best you can. Yeah, he's got to

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Speaker 2: find it within himself.

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Speaker 1: He got it. I'm hanging in there. I got a coach.

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Speaker 2: Uh, is there anything else you want to say to

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Speaker 2: the people of the computer before we go?

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Speaker 3: Just have a great day or night.

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Speaker 4: That's YouTube geck my.

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Speaker 2: Lizard that that's this is my Uh, this is that's what.

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Speaker 2: This is my first entry into doing like a couple's

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Speaker 2: sex therapy with a guy in a gecko costume. I

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Speaker 2: do believe that though, yeah, like if there's like if

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Speaker 2: if no, if like an authentic desire from his side

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Speaker 2: isn't there, she'll be able to tell. People can always

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Speaker 3: Oh my god, dude, am I really on the phone

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Speaker 2: Oh yeah? What's your name? Brother?

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Speaker 3: Oh dude, my name is Julian Bro.

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Speaker 2: Nice to meet you, man, Nice to meet you too, Jeweli,

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Speaker 2: and you got a good vibe to you.

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Speaker 3: Oh dude, man, almost I did. Fuck, I'm nervous.

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Speaker 2: Hold on, nah, don't be, this will be. This is

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Speaker 3: I've been listening to your show for three years now.

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Speaker 2: Man.

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Speaker 3: I watch it every day while I'm out worth Dude,

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Speaker 3: I wait every every week for you to drop a

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Speaker 5: Man.

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Speaker 2: Fuck yeah, fuck yeah, thank you man, I appreciate that.

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Speaker 3: Oh yeah, hell yeah, dude.

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Speaker 2: Well listen, listen, Julian, let's get into you.

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Speaker 5: Let's go.

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Speaker 2: Let's let's hear what's going on in your life?

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Speaker 3: Uh? Nothing much, man. Well my parents just split out too,

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Speaker 2: How long were they together for?

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Speaker 3: Oh man, they've been together for like twenty seven years.

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Speaker 2: I believe whoa interesting Yeah, and what was it that

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Speaker 3: Oh my mom cheated on my dad, so that was

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Speaker 2: No, do don't don't be man, We're just we're just chatting.

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Speaker 2: You've nothing to be sorry for it all. How how

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Speaker 3: They just did it in uh February.

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Speaker 2: So it's like, I feel like my parents got divorced

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Speaker 3: No, sir, I haven't. She's been Uh, she's been m

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Speaker 2: What was your relationship like with her before this?

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Speaker 2: Yeah, so this is the main thing that kind of

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Speaker 3: No, it wasn't. That was kind of what broke the

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Speaker 2: What's your relationship like with your dad?

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Speaker 3: Oh? Man, I talked to that guy every day, dude,

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Speaker 2: How's he doing?

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Speaker 3: He's doing pretty good man. He's uh, still has problems

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Speaker 2: And how old is he?

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Speaker 3: He is forty six?

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Speaker 2: Forty six. Yeah, both of you guys had kids fairly young,

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Speaker 2: Man, WHOA Okay, yeah, pretty young. Huh yeah. I got

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Speaker 2: that's cool that you're so close with your dad. So

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Speaker 2: is he like dating?

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Speaker 3: Now?

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Speaker 2: What's he doing?

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Speaker 1: Yeah?

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Speaker 3: Man, he is dating, So check it out, dude. He recently,

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Speaker 2: Oh, to start having like step siblings.

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Speaker 3: Uh? Just partying, dude, just partying man party. Yeah, kind

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Speaker 3: Julian did you tell me whatever you want?

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Speaker 2: So he's partying. So actually, you know, I on a

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Speaker 2: I get a little worried because I'm like, well, I'm

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Speaker 2: I want to do this and that and the other thing.

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Speaker 2: But your dad is forty six, he's gotta getah, I mean,

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Speaker 2: I guess, I guess. Divorced and already raised a sun

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Speaker 2: to the age of twenty two is pretty good. What

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Speaker 2: is hi? What does him partying look like? Where does

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Speaker 3: Oh? So I'm from California, man, so there's a bunch

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Speaker 2: What does he do for work?

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Speaker 3: He works in the fields right now?

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Speaker 2: The fields?

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Speaker 3: Yeah, the great, he thinks. Great.

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Speaker 2: But your dad picks grapes during the day and then

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Speaker 3: Yes, there, that's how my old man is.

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Speaker 2: Dude. That sounds awesome.

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Speaker 3: Oh man, he's cool. Man, I love him.

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Speaker 2: That's so cool. Oh man, So what's he like? He

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Speaker 2: just go out by himself? Like to can I ask, what, like,

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Speaker 2: what city in California? You guys in.

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Speaker 3: Quorterville. Man, Quorterville?

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Speaker 2: Is that what the atre.

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Speaker 2: Oh, Poulderville Order Order, Porterville? Okay, I'm way off.

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Speaker 3: Yes, yeah, it's a It's an hour away from Bakersfield

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Speaker 2: What are the nightclubs like in Porterville?

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Speaker 3: It's just all the old people, man, That's why you

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Speaker 2: It cool, bro, Yeah, I don't know if anyone listen,

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Speaker 2: I mean, I don't know what. I don't know what

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Speaker 6: Yeah.

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Speaker 3: Man, I encouraged it to you. Man. Once I found

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Speaker 2: He doesn't even need me no shit. So you got

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Speaker 3: Yeah. Well, me and my wife, dude, we uh, we

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Speaker 2: So cool and what was his life like like? Like,

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Speaker 3: Man, he just come home, played with me and my brothers.

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Speaker 3: You know, that was about it. Every once in a while,

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Speaker 3: it man. That was his day to day life, just

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Speaker 2: M How many brothers do you got?

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Speaker 3: I got to you.

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Speaker 2: Are you close with them?

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Speaker 6: Uh? The little one, yeah, I'm not so much the

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Speaker 2: Is there a reason why?

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Speaker 3: Uh? He just kind of went down the wrong path, man,

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Speaker 3: Try to strain him out, couldn't do it, you know,

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Speaker 3: I let him, Let him find out his own choices

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Speaker 2: Hm hmm. I won't pry if it's too much, but like,

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Speaker 2: what what what were the choices?

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Speaker 3: Well, me and him, we grew up playing a guitar

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Speaker 2: Man, you know those hold up, hold on, brother, I

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Speaker 5: Was a not gang bang or nothing.

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00:24:42,760 --> 00:24:45,359
Speaker 3: You know. He Uh he hangs out with the with

439
00:24:45,400 --> 00:24:48,120
Speaker 3: the artists here in uh in our town, and uh,

440
00:24:48,880 --> 00:24:51,840
Speaker 3: you know, kind of the big party lifestyle leads down

441
00:24:51,880 --> 00:24:54,480
Speaker 3: the wrong path and you know what I mean.

442
00:24:55,600 --> 00:24:58,280
Speaker 2: I kind of don't to be honest with you, like

443
00:24:58,280 --> 00:25:00,399
Speaker 2: because he doing like he's doing like hard drum and

444
00:25:00,400 --> 00:25:00,879
Speaker 2: ship like that.

445
00:25:02,560 --> 00:25:05,640
Speaker 3: H soma. Yeah yeah, but like.

446
00:25:06,880 --> 00:25:08,440
Speaker 2: No, I still kind of don't know what you mean,

447
00:25:08,480 --> 00:25:10,879
Speaker 2: Like it sounds like he's got like he plays the

448
00:25:10,920 --> 00:25:16,719
Speaker 2: Accordon accordion. He's hanging out with like musician artist people.

449
00:25:17,880 --> 00:25:20,560
Speaker 2: You know, maybe he doesn't you know, like what's like? Yeah,

450
00:25:20,560 --> 00:25:22,320
Speaker 2: I guess, I'm I am. I'm a little curious.

451
00:25:24,000 --> 00:25:28,240
Speaker 3: Oh, he just kind of does a coke I guess

452
00:25:28,400 --> 00:25:33,280
Speaker 3: here and there. And I personally don't don't uh in

453
00:25:33,440 --> 00:25:35,520
Speaker 3: uh what do you call it? Involve myself with those

454
00:25:35,600 --> 00:25:38,719
Speaker 3: kind of people, especially with my daughter being around. I

455
00:25:38,760 --> 00:25:42,159
Speaker 3: try to set a good example for my daughter, you know.

456
00:25:43,200 --> 00:25:43,680
Speaker 7: Mm hmmm.

457
00:25:43,840 --> 00:25:46,000
Speaker 3: So that's how.

458
00:25:45,840 --> 00:25:51,600
Speaker 2: It is, man, Okay, And what about the youngest one.

459
00:25:53,320 --> 00:25:55,240
Speaker 3: Oh man, that guy's a little gamer.

460
00:25:55,320 --> 00:25:55,560
Speaker 6: Dude.

461
00:25:55,720 --> 00:25:57,119
Speaker 3: All he does is just game.

462
00:25:58,400 --> 00:25:59,080
Speaker 2: What's he playing?

463
00:26:01,160 --> 00:26:07,399
Speaker 3: He loves Call of Duty, dude. He loves that hold

464
00:26:08,200 --> 00:26:10,280
Speaker 3: call it duty at Fortnite, you know, you know the

465
00:26:10,720 --> 00:26:12,840
Speaker 3: young kids play that. Yeah.

466
00:26:12,880 --> 00:26:15,760
Speaker 2: I've never laid my hands on Fortnite ever in my life.

467
00:26:15,800 --> 00:26:16,760
Speaker 2: I don't know anything about it.

468
00:26:18,119 --> 00:26:24,640
Speaker 3: Really, man, it's pretty fun, man, it's pretty fun.

469
00:26:26,160 --> 00:26:33,160
Speaker 2: How old is the accordion guy he is when he won?

470
00:26:34,200 --> 00:26:36,320
Speaker 2: And you said you tried to straighten him out? What

471
00:26:36,440 --> 00:26:36,960
Speaker 2: does that mean?

472
00:26:39,000 --> 00:26:41,560
Speaker 3: Just try to give him, you know, advise, hey man,

473
00:26:41,640 --> 00:26:43,399
Speaker 3: you know it's probably better not say, hang out with

474
00:26:43,440 --> 00:26:46,119
Speaker 3: these kind of people, get involved with these kind of

475
00:26:46,160 --> 00:26:49,520
Speaker 3: people that do this this drug, you know it. Maybe

476
00:26:50,119 --> 00:26:52,960
Speaker 3: put yourself in the in the with the right group

477
00:26:53,640 --> 00:26:58,080
Speaker 3: and then kind of progress from there. Make sure you

478
00:26:58,320 --> 00:27:00,480
Speaker 3: cause he does a gigs here in you know, on

479
00:27:00,480 --> 00:27:05,439
Speaker 3: the weekend. But the group that he's with isn't the

480
00:27:05,480 --> 00:27:08,000
Speaker 3: best influence on him. Mm hmm.

481
00:27:08,800 --> 00:27:12,480
Speaker 2: Okay. But but he's making the So it's mainly the

482
00:27:12,600 --> 00:27:14,120
Speaker 2: drugs that's the problem.

483
00:27:15,840 --> 00:27:17,280
Speaker 3: Yeah, yeah, I would say, so.

484
00:27:18,000 --> 00:27:24,000
Speaker 2: Okay, And you don't think like it's better of the drugs.

485
00:27:24,119 --> 00:27:25,760
Speaker 2: I guess he's on coca all like all the time,

486
00:27:25,840 --> 00:27:27,320
Speaker 2: or he just like does it every now and then.

487
00:27:28,800 --> 00:27:32,280
Speaker 3: Uh like every weekend he plays I guess.

488
00:27:32,080 --> 00:27:38,600
Speaker 2: All right, yeah, and what do they all think of? Like,

489
00:27:38,680 --> 00:27:42,520
Speaker 2: what's there all? What's all their uh? How are they

490
00:27:42,560 --> 00:27:43,440
Speaker 2: all taking the divorce?

491
00:27:47,359 --> 00:27:49,560
Speaker 3: Well, him, he doesn't really care. You know, he's got

492
00:27:49,560 --> 00:27:51,920
Speaker 3: his own thing going. But me and my little brother

493
00:27:52,160 --> 00:27:55,399
Speaker 3: just kind of Ah. You know, we're not used to

494
00:27:55,440 --> 00:27:59,879
Speaker 3: the whole situation of our parents not being together because

495
00:28:00,320 --> 00:28:02,520
Speaker 3: you know, we grew up with them being together. All

496
00:28:02,560 --> 00:28:07,000
Speaker 3: we knew was them being together. So it's not the best,

497
00:28:07,160 --> 00:28:09,120
Speaker 3: but we're kind of working through it.

498
00:28:18,680 --> 00:28:20,600
Speaker 2: Did they have as close of a relationship to your

499
00:28:20,720 --> 00:28:21,399
Speaker 2: dad as you do?

500
00:28:23,520 --> 00:28:23,840
Speaker 5: Uh?

501
00:28:23,920 --> 00:28:28,280
Speaker 6: Yeah, the little one, the little brother, but the middle

502
00:28:28,320 --> 00:28:33,200
Speaker 6: one he doesn't really have a relationship with my dad

503
00:28:33,520 --> 00:28:34,600
Speaker 6: for that same reason.

504
00:28:38,240 --> 00:28:43,880
Speaker 2: M And nobody has heard from your mom. Your mom

505
00:28:43,960 --> 00:28:45,000
Speaker 2: is completely m I.

506
00:28:45,080 --> 00:28:49,640
Speaker 3: A completely Mia man. All last time I heard she

507
00:28:49,760 --> 00:28:53,560
Speaker 3: has a boyfriend, but never met the guy or anything.

508
00:28:54,480 --> 00:28:56,719
Speaker 2: Do you want your mom in your life or do

509
00:28:56,760 --> 00:28:57,360
Speaker 2: you not care?

510
00:28:59,600 --> 00:29:01,920
Speaker 3: Well, I'm I mean I kind of do want her

511
00:29:01,960 --> 00:29:05,760
Speaker 3: in my life for the same reason that I wanted

512
00:29:05,840 --> 00:29:11,000
Speaker 3: to see my baby, her grandchild. But she hasn't owned

513
00:29:11,120 --> 00:29:15,440
Speaker 3: up to what she had done. You know, she still

514
00:29:15,880 --> 00:29:19,120
Speaker 3: till this day, says that he didn't cheat on my dad,

515
00:29:19,240 --> 00:29:22,640
Speaker 3: that there was a whooking going on that we didn't

516
00:29:22,640 --> 00:29:26,360
Speaker 3: know about. But it all comes down to it. My

517
00:29:26,440 --> 00:29:29,840
Speaker 3: dad has her on video with another guy at the

518
00:29:29,840 --> 00:29:34,880
Speaker 3: cemetery late at night, so it's like, well, here's the evidence. Well,

519
00:29:34,920 --> 00:29:43,200
Speaker 3: what do you want me to do? Mhmm, yeah, what do.

520
00:29:43,240 --> 00:29:44,960
Speaker 2: You do for What do you do for work? Julian?

521
00:29:45,040 --> 00:29:45,920
Speaker 2: Did you tell me already?

522
00:29:47,360 --> 00:29:50,000
Speaker 3: No? I haven't, man. I think construction, bro, that's what

523
00:29:50,040 --> 00:29:50,280
Speaker 3: I do.

524
00:29:52,080 --> 00:29:53,200
Speaker 2: How long you been with your wife?

525
00:29:54,920 --> 00:30:01,760
Speaker 3: I've been with her? Or since I was seventeen, man, seventeen, eighteen,

526
00:30:01,840 --> 00:30:04,440
Speaker 3: nineteen twenty or two long two six years.

527
00:30:05,720 --> 00:30:07,320
Speaker 2: I like your life, Julian. That's why I have so

528
00:30:07,360 --> 00:30:10,400
Speaker 2: many questions you. You strike me as a I don't know,

529
00:30:10,440 --> 00:30:13,120
Speaker 2: you're You're a real man. You know, you you're like

530
00:30:13,200 --> 00:30:16,400
Speaker 2: the eldest of the two. Like it seems like you're

531
00:30:16,440 --> 00:30:18,960
Speaker 2: like you're like the guy of the family. It feels

532
00:30:19,000 --> 00:30:21,440
Speaker 2: like you're like the and you're what twenty.

533
00:30:21,160 --> 00:30:25,800
Speaker 3: Three twenty three.

534
00:30:24,120 --> 00:30:27,040
Speaker 2: And it seems like you're like the point person of

535
00:30:27,120 --> 00:30:30,880
Speaker 2: the of the fucking family, you know. Like I mean,

536
00:30:30,880 --> 00:30:33,840
Speaker 2: you're you're taking care of your you know, trying to

537
00:30:33,880 --> 00:30:37,480
Speaker 2: get your brother off of drugs. You're getting your dad

538
00:30:38,400 --> 00:30:40,840
Speaker 2: out at the club, being less depressed, You're taking care

539
00:30:40,840 --> 00:30:43,920
Speaker 2: of a fucking kid. You're working at construction like you're.

540
00:30:43,920 --> 00:30:46,360
Speaker 2: I got I got a lot of respect for you, man.

541
00:30:47,440 --> 00:30:48,000
Speaker 6: Thank you, man.

542
00:30:48,040 --> 00:30:50,960
Speaker 3: I appreciate it. Man. It is kind of hard, you know, mentally,

543
00:30:51,080 --> 00:30:52,680
Speaker 3: but I'm sure I'm looking through it.

544
00:30:54,800 --> 00:30:55,920
Speaker 2: That's really fucking cool.

545
00:30:56,000 --> 00:30:58,120
Speaker 3: To try to be happy around my kid, you know,

546
00:30:58,320 --> 00:31:02,000
Speaker 3: not not let those things affect me. But there's only

547
00:31:02,040 --> 00:31:02,800
Speaker 3: so much you can do.

548
00:31:03,520 --> 00:31:07,000
Speaker 2: Yeah, of course. So you got with your wife when

549
00:31:07,000 --> 00:31:11,160
Speaker 2: you were seventeen and then like, yeah, how soon after?

550
00:31:11,400 --> 00:31:12,760
Speaker 2: Like was it just like was it like a one

551
00:31:12,840 --> 00:31:15,120
Speaker 2: night stand to turn into a pregnancy that you decided

552
00:31:15,160 --> 00:31:15,480
Speaker 2: to keep?

553
00:31:18,080 --> 00:31:21,480
Speaker 3: No, we had been going out for I want to say,

554
00:31:21,600 --> 00:31:26,080
Speaker 3: like two months and then COVID hit, and then once

555
00:31:26,120 --> 00:31:29,360
Speaker 3: COVID hit, we both got it. So we were kind

556
00:31:29,360 --> 00:31:33,280
Speaker 3: of sleeping in the same room and you know, you're bored,

557
00:31:34,000 --> 00:31:34,880
Speaker 3: don't have nothing.

558
00:31:34,680 --> 00:31:35,400
Speaker 4: To do all day.

559
00:31:37,760 --> 00:31:38,560
Speaker 2: So you have a kid.

560
00:31:40,040 --> 00:31:42,880
Speaker 3: Yeah, so you have a kid, you know, get the

561
00:31:42,920 --> 00:31:43,560
Speaker 3: time rolling.

562
00:31:44,240 --> 00:31:47,160
Speaker 2: Yeah.

563
00:31:47,600 --> 00:31:50,440
Speaker 3: Yeah, that's pretty much my life right there. Man.

564
00:31:52,720 --> 00:31:55,360
Speaker 2: It's interesting though, because like, yeah, kind of like your dad.

565
00:31:55,400 --> 00:31:59,959
Speaker 2: It's like you, you know, I think there's yeah, obviously,

566
00:32:00,160 --> 00:32:02,680
Speaker 2: I think having a kid at seventeen has a lot

567
00:32:02,720 --> 00:32:06,160
Speaker 2: of fucking downsides. But if you had to find an upside,

568
00:32:06,200 --> 00:32:10,760
Speaker 2: it's like, well, you'll be done sooner like your dad,

569
00:32:10,800 --> 00:32:11,000
Speaker 2: you know.

570
00:32:12,640 --> 00:32:15,440
Speaker 3: Oh hell yeah, man, my dad. I think he had

571
00:32:15,520 --> 00:32:20,840
Speaker 3: me at like twenty and right now all his kids

572
00:32:20,880 --> 00:32:24,800
Speaker 3: are grown up, you know. The youngest is eighteen. Yeah,

573
00:32:24,840 --> 00:32:27,880
Speaker 3: and that guy's enjoying life right now, going to the club,

574
00:32:28,680 --> 00:32:33,360
Speaker 3: loving life now. And I'm probably I'm happy for me, know,

575
00:32:33,680 --> 00:32:36,200
Speaker 3: I want him to be happy. I want to help

576
00:32:36,280 --> 00:32:41,440
Speaker 3: him find someone, and it seems like he did already.

577
00:32:41,640 --> 00:32:45,800
Speaker 2: My dad is sixty something, and he he said to

578
00:32:45,840 --> 00:32:48,480
Speaker 2: me once, he was like, you know, the nice thing

579
00:32:48,480 --> 00:32:54,080
Speaker 2: about having kids is that the only really take up

580
00:32:54,720 --> 00:32:59,920
Speaker 2: a lot of time from your life for like sixteen years.

581
00:33:00,920 --> 00:33:03,360
Speaker 3: And then pretty much they're on their own.

582
00:33:03,520 --> 00:33:05,360
Speaker 2: And then they're on their own. And it's funny the

583
00:33:05,400 --> 00:33:07,960
Speaker 2: way he said it, the way I took it. I

584
00:33:08,000 --> 00:33:11,080
Speaker 2: was like, sixteen years, it's a long time. But then

585
00:33:11,120 --> 00:33:14,000
Speaker 2: to see my dad being like, you know, he's older

586
00:33:14,040 --> 00:33:17,840
Speaker 2: and he's enjoying his life still, it is cool. You know,

587
00:33:17,960 --> 00:33:19,880
Speaker 2: it's like, oh, I guess maybe that is like.

588
00:33:21,360 --> 00:33:26,120
Speaker 3: Not that long, oh man. Like my daughter right now,

589
00:33:26,280 --> 00:33:33,720
Speaker 3: she's four. Yeah, she's learning. Man. She has full sentences

590
00:33:33,760 --> 00:33:36,800
Speaker 3: with you. She'll ask you, she'll I'll come home from work,

591
00:33:36,880 --> 00:33:39,440
Speaker 3: she'll ask me how's your day, dad? Oh man? Cool,

592
00:33:40,840 --> 00:33:44,040
Speaker 3: And it's crazy. Man. She blows my mind sometimes on

593
00:33:44,120 --> 00:33:45,560
Speaker 3: the questions that she asked me.

594
00:33:48,480 --> 00:33:49,240
Speaker 2: That's so cool.

595
00:33:49,560 --> 00:33:53,400
Speaker 3: But yeah, man, oh yeah, it's my bad, dude. I'm

596
00:33:53,400 --> 00:33:57,080
Speaker 3: just kind of nervous. Man. I've been doing for so

597
00:33:57,200 --> 00:33:58,160
Speaker 3: I don't know how long.

598
00:33:58,320 --> 00:34:01,040
Speaker 2: Dude, You got nothing to nervous about it at all?

599
00:34:03,280 --> 00:34:04,160
Speaker 2: Does your wife work?

600
00:34:07,200 --> 00:34:09,920
Speaker 3: She just finished school, man, she's trying to get a

601
00:34:10,000 --> 00:34:10,800
Speaker 3: job right now.

602
00:34:13,160 --> 00:34:14,040
Speaker 2: What's she trying to do?

603
00:34:16,160 --> 00:34:16,759
Speaker 3: Phlebottom?

604
00:34:18,440 --> 00:34:20,239
Speaker 2: Oh like drawing people's blood and ship?

605
00:34:21,640 --> 00:34:24,160
Speaker 3: Yeah, yeah, that's what That's what she went to school for.

606
00:34:25,000 --> 00:34:28,960
Speaker 3: And the job Mark did for that is kind of low,

607
00:34:29,280 --> 00:34:32,919
Speaker 3: so there's a she can't release a new job right now.

608
00:34:35,000 --> 00:34:40,239
Speaker 3: But like I told her, man, hey, my incomes to

609
00:34:40,280 --> 00:34:40,960
Speaker 3: worry about that.

610
00:34:41,080 --> 00:34:44,080
Speaker 2: Oh ship, Yeah, Julian, your phone is sucking up real quick,

611
00:34:44,120 --> 00:34:45,040
Speaker 2: your phone is sucking up.

612
00:34:46,040 --> 00:34:48,200
Speaker 3: Oh my bad, man, my bad.

613
00:34:48,040 --> 00:34:51,239
Speaker 2: No worries. What were you saying? I?

614
00:34:51,320 --> 00:34:54,960
Speaker 3: Like I told her, man, my incomes supports both of us,

615
00:34:55,000 --> 00:34:58,440
Speaker 3: so she doesn't really have to worry about finding a

616
00:34:58,560 --> 00:34:59,280
Speaker 3: job right now.

617
00:35:03,320 --> 00:35:05,000
Speaker 2: Are you getting in a car?

618
00:35:05,640 --> 00:35:07,239
Speaker 3: Yeah? Man, I'm beating work right now.

619
00:35:07,719 --> 00:35:14,600
Speaker 2: Oh what are you gonna do when you get home? Uh?

620
00:35:14,920 --> 00:35:19,080
Speaker 3: Just hang out man, pretty much that's about it. Hang out,

621
00:35:19,440 --> 00:35:22,280
Speaker 3: play with my daughter for a little bit. That's pretty

622
00:35:22,320 --> 00:35:23,879
Speaker 3: much my day.

623
00:35:26,280 --> 00:35:29,719
Speaker 2: When you're forty six years old, do you do you

624
00:35:29,800 --> 00:35:31,200
Speaker 2: plan on going to the club?

625
00:35:33,680 --> 00:35:36,000
Speaker 3: Well, if I'm seeingle, yeah, but if not, I'll plan

626
00:35:36,080 --> 00:35:37,640
Speaker 3: on goal with my wife.

627
00:35:38,120 --> 00:35:40,160
Speaker 2: That's cool. What do you guys like to do outside

628
00:35:40,200 --> 00:35:41,960
Speaker 2: of just your regular life?

629
00:35:45,440 --> 00:35:48,080
Speaker 3: Pretty much nothing. Now we keep it simple. We just

630
00:35:49,400 --> 00:35:52,759
Speaker 3: like hanging out with each other. It's pretty much it.

631
00:35:55,880 --> 00:36:06,960
Speaker 3: Anywhere I go, she goes, anywhere she goes, I go. Yeah.

632
00:36:07,080 --> 00:36:09,160
Speaker 3: What about you, man, how are you doing.

633
00:36:11,800 --> 00:36:14,799
Speaker 2: I'm doing I'm doing pretty good. Uh yeah, I'm doing

634
00:36:14,840 --> 00:36:18,480
Speaker 2: pretty good. I'm learning to enjoy my life bit by bit.

635
00:36:18,760 --> 00:36:22,279
Speaker 3: Oh yeah, man, you need life right there.

636
00:36:22,840 --> 00:36:26,160
Speaker 2: Yeah yeah. I haven't spending too much time trying to

637
00:36:26,160 --> 00:36:30,319
Speaker 2: be anywhere else except where I am. Causes a lot

638
00:36:30,360 --> 00:36:37,000
Speaker 2: of dissonance. What else was I going to say to you?

639
00:36:37,760 --> 00:36:37,920
Speaker 3: Oh?

640
00:36:38,000 --> 00:36:40,800
Speaker 2: Yeah, you said it's hard. You said your life is hard.

641
00:36:40,880 --> 00:36:42,799
Speaker 2: Sometimes you have a heart, you seem like you have

642
00:36:42,840 --> 00:36:44,400
Speaker 2: a difficult thing. I mean, you have a lot of

643
00:36:44,440 --> 00:36:46,839
Speaker 2: people who you're looking out for.

644
00:36:48,440 --> 00:36:51,120
Speaker 3: I just kind of gets to me a little bit

645
00:36:51,200 --> 00:36:54,760
Speaker 3: because at the same time I'm happy for my dad.

646
00:36:54,800 --> 00:36:58,279
Speaker 3: That he's going out, you know. But I'm not mad.

647
00:36:59,160 --> 00:37:01,840
Speaker 3: It just bothers me a little bit because, like I said,

648
00:37:01,960 --> 00:37:07,560
Speaker 3: all I knew was my parents being together. So I

649
00:37:07,680 --> 00:37:09,319
Speaker 3: just kind I just kind of get got to get

650
00:37:09,400 --> 00:37:10,440
Speaker 3: used to the experience.

651
00:37:11,080 --> 00:37:15,840
Speaker 2: I guess, why did you say that all you needed

652
00:37:16,000 --> 00:37:17,360
Speaker 2: was your parents together?

653
00:37:18,920 --> 00:37:19,839
Speaker 5: Well, no, I didn't.

654
00:37:19,840 --> 00:37:22,200
Speaker 3: I didn't need them together. It's just like all I

655
00:37:22,280 --> 00:37:23,760
Speaker 3: knew was them being together.

656
00:37:24,000 --> 00:37:30,560
Speaker 2: Oh sorry, I had misheard you. Oh yeah, what do

657
00:37:30,600 --> 00:37:35,200
Speaker 2: you think about your So you haven't met your dad's girlfriend?

658
00:37:36,520 --> 00:37:39,600
Speaker 3: No, I haven't, man, haven't. Well, I've met her once

659
00:37:40,560 --> 00:37:43,040
Speaker 3: and it just so happened that there was a checkpoint

660
00:37:43,160 --> 00:37:48,240
Speaker 3: when they're getting home from the club and his girlfriend

661
00:37:48,239 --> 00:37:50,640
Speaker 3: didn't have a driver's license. This was I got two

662
00:37:50,719 --> 00:37:54,160
Speaker 3: in the morning. Man, So I guess my dad didn't

663
00:37:54,200 --> 00:37:56,719
Speaker 3: want to call me because he didn't want me to

664
00:37:56,719 --> 00:37:59,399
Speaker 3: meet her yet. But I guess they had no one

665
00:37:59,440 --> 00:38:02,600
Speaker 3: else that's the driver's license. So that was the only

666
00:38:02,640 --> 00:38:09,600
Speaker 3: time I've ever met her. M Yeah, but I guess

667
00:38:09,640 --> 00:38:12,319
Speaker 3: he's met her kids and everything, and now her kids

668
00:38:12,320 --> 00:38:14,719
Speaker 3: are trying to meet us, and I don't know how

669
00:38:14,719 --> 00:38:15,360
Speaker 3: to go about that.

670
00:38:16,320 --> 00:38:18,520
Speaker 2: Are you would you? That sounds like nice though, right,

671
00:38:18,560 --> 00:38:21,040
Speaker 2: don't you want to meet them?

672
00:38:21,160 --> 00:38:21,719
Speaker 6: Yeah?

673
00:38:21,840 --> 00:38:24,799
Speaker 3: It sounds nice, But just like I said, man, it's

674
00:38:24,840 --> 00:38:27,239
Speaker 3: just like a new experience for me that I'm not

675
00:38:27,400 --> 00:38:34,359
Speaker 3: used to. Mm hmmmm yeah, Like like when you meet

676
00:38:34,400 --> 00:38:37,120
Speaker 3: your step sisters. How how did that?

677
00:38:37,200 --> 00:38:37,680
Speaker 5: How was that?

678
00:38:38,680 --> 00:38:38,879
Speaker 4: God?

679
00:38:38,920 --> 00:38:41,240
Speaker 2: I don't even remember it because I've known my stepsisters

680
00:38:41,360 --> 00:38:47,880
Speaker 2: for so long, although I remember I was really young

681
00:38:48,120 --> 00:38:53,080
Speaker 2: when I met them, so I think I felt a

682
00:38:53,120 --> 00:38:57,399
Speaker 2: little bit of like resistance, like I think that they

683
00:38:57,560 --> 00:39:03,440
Speaker 2: felt when I was younger and my parents were divorced,

684
00:39:03,480 --> 00:39:07,600
Speaker 2: and my dad would like bring home someone new and

685
00:39:07,640 --> 00:39:11,920
Speaker 2: I would meet them, and uh, you know, even my

686
00:39:12,000 --> 00:39:15,520
Speaker 2: step mom for a long time. I think for a

687
00:39:15,520 --> 00:39:18,400
Speaker 2: long time, my step mom felt very foreign to me.

688
00:39:19,280 --> 00:39:23,920
Speaker 2: I remember I was, I like, was at a diner

689
00:39:24,080 --> 00:39:30,000
Speaker 2: once with my dad and my now stepmom, I don't

690
00:39:30,000 --> 00:39:34,080
Speaker 2: know if they were married yet, and I had like

691
00:39:34,160 --> 00:39:36,840
Speaker 2: a ice cream Sunday or whatever, and I offered my

692
00:39:36,960 --> 00:39:41,160
Speaker 2: dad a bite of it with the spoon, and that

693
00:39:41,800 --> 00:39:44,200
Speaker 2: he offered my stepmom a bite of it with the

694
00:39:44,200 --> 00:39:48,719
Speaker 2: same spoon, and then I said, uh, I'm gonna go

695
00:39:48,760 --> 00:39:53,640
Speaker 2: get a new spoon. Okay, I felt, and you know,

696
00:39:53,840 --> 00:39:57,719
Speaker 2: I remember that, and I and I'll say, honestly, even

697
00:39:57,800 --> 00:40:01,520
Speaker 2: remembering that, I feel really bad about that because it

698
00:40:01,560 --> 00:40:03,920
Speaker 2: made sense to me when I was a kid to

699
00:40:04,120 --> 00:40:11,799
Speaker 2: like just reject this foreign presence like everything. Yeah, it

700
00:40:11,880 --> 00:40:15,040
Speaker 2: just made it made sense to me to reject that

701
00:40:15,200 --> 00:40:20,080
Speaker 2: and to like be upset about that for no real reason.

702
00:40:21,520 --> 00:40:28,719
Speaker 2: And now that I'm older, I understand that, Uh, like,

703
00:40:29,719 --> 00:40:33,600
Speaker 2: well I lucked out. I really lucked out because my

704
00:40:33,600 --> 00:40:36,520
Speaker 2: my stepdad is amazing and my step mom is amazing,

705
00:40:36,560 --> 00:40:42,120
Speaker 2: and like those are two really great people, and you know,

706
00:40:42,160 --> 00:40:45,400
Speaker 2: I'm glad that my both of my parents found people

707
00:40:45,480 --> 00:40:49,880
Speaker 2: for them and I got I used to for a

708
00:40:49,920 --> 00:40:53,719
Speaker 2: long time. Yeah, like I wouldn't. It took me. How

709
00:40:53,760 --> 00:40:57,080
Speaker 2: old am I? It took me like ten years to

710
00:40:57,200 --> 00:40:59,920
Speaker 2: like say I love you to my stepmom and like

711
00:41:00,160 --> 00:41:03,080
Speaker 2: take and like understand that she was like trying to

712
00:41:03,120 --> 00:41:04,600
Speaker 2: like be a part of my life and she was

713
00:41:04,600 --> 00:41:06,960
Speaker 2: trying to be helpful and she was trying to be

714
00:41:07,000 --> 00:41:10,440
Speaker 2: good to me. Yeah, and that like I was, you know,

715
00:41:10,480 --> 00:41:16,160
Speaker 2: I mattered to her, and to like take that. My

716
00:41:16,280 --> 00:41:19,160
Speaker 2: step my step sisters, I don't I haven't really uh

717
00:41:19,560 --> 00:41:22,000
Speaker 2: you know, I see them, but I they kind of

718
00:41:23,480 --> 00:41:25,919
Speaker 2: you know, they they live in different places and they

719
00:41:26,200 --> 00:41:27,800
Speaker 2: have their own lives.

720
00:41:28,320 --> 00:41:31,000
Speaker 3: But yeah, you don't really get to see them in much.

721
00:41:32,400 --> 00:41:35,960
Speaker 2: No, not really, but yeah, when I, yeah, growing up,

722
00:41:35,960 --> 00:41:37,960
Speaker 2: they felt like kind of strangers to me. And as

723
00:41:38,000 --> 00:41:40,799
Speaker 2: I get older and I become and it's it's a

724
00:41:40,880 --> 00:41:43,440
Speaker 2: it's a straight up just like maturity thing of like,

725
00:41:43,520 --> 00:41:47,480
Speaker 2: as I get more mature, I try to be like, oh,

726
00:41:47,520 --> 00:41:52,319
Speaker 2: these these are people. These are people that people I

727
00:41:52,440 --> 00:41:57,440
Speaker 2: care about, care about, and I should be I should like,

728
00:41:57,480 --> 00:42:01,680
Speaker 2: I should like really accept the the family, and you know,

729
00:42:01,719 --> 00:42:03,960
Speaker 2: I should you know, have a long term view, like

730
00:42:04,000 --> 00:42:06,520
Speaker 2: these people are gonna be in my life. These people

731
00:42:06,520 --> 00:42:09,640
Speaker 2: are my family. I should take that in with me

732
00:42:09,680 --> 00:42:14,520
Speaker 2: and I should really, like, uh, put in active effort

733
00:42:14,840 --> 00:42:16,880
Speaker 2: to make it so that these people are family. And

734
00:42:16,920 --> 00:42:19,480
Speaker 2: even the idea, the idea that somebody who's not blood

735
00:42:19,560 --> 00:42:23,400
Speaker 2: related to you can be family was foreign to me

736
00:42:23,640 --> 00:42:28,120
Speaker 2: for my entire like childhood and adolescents. And that's I

737
00:42:28,160 --> 00:42:32,080
Speaker 2: think that's even like a thing. I think that's a

738
00:42:32,080 --> 00:42:36,320
Speaker 2: difficult thing for like a adolescent to understand.

739
00:42:37,719 --> 00:42:37,759
Speaker 3: You.

740
00:42:37,840 --> 00:42:43,080
Speaker 2: No, I don't know if that was just that, but yeah.

741
00:42:41,440 --> 00:42:43,880
Speaker 3: I'm willing to meet them, you know, I don't I

742
00:42:43,880 --> 00:42:46,799
Speaker 3: don't have nothing against her or her family, you know,

743
00:42:47,880 --> 00:42:50,920
Speaker 3: like they said, if it's something serious between them two,

744
00:42:52,239 --> 00:42:54,319
Speaker 3: well when are we gonna meet your kids? And same

745
00:42:54,360 --> 00:42:56,480
Speaker 3: thing I told my dad, you know, well, if it's

746
00:42:56,480 --> 00:42:59,200
Speaker 3: serious between you and her, when are we going to

747
00:42:59,239 --> 00:43:04,120
Speaker 3: meet her and kids? But he still hasn't gotten back

748
00:43:04,160 --> 00:43:07,560
Speaker 3: to me on that because he's, uh, he's out working

749
00:43:07,600 --> 00:43:08,320
Speaker 3: and partying.

750
00:43:08,400 --> 00:43:21,960
Speaker 2: So yeah, I mean I think if you're I think

751
00:43:22,000 --> 00:43:25,080
Speaker 2: if your dad really likes this lady, you should totally

752
00:43:25,239 --> 00:43:26,200
Speaker 2: you should totally meet her.

753
00:43:28,000 --> 00:43:31,080
Speaker 3: Well, yeah that's what I'm well, I mean, I do

754
00:43:31,200 --> 00:43:33,319
Speaker 3: want to, but at the same time, I just kind

755
00:43:33,320 --> 00:43:37,879
Speaker 3: of don't. So I'm just stuck in between those two

756
00:43:37,960 --> 00:43:38,359
Speaker 3: right now.

757
00:43:38,719 --> 00:43:39,879
Speaker 2: Yeah, fair enough, but.

758
00:43:41,160 --> 00:43:42,280
Speaker 3: You know, you know how it goes.

759
00:43:42,320 --> 00:43:42,520
Speaker 6: Man.

760
00:43:43,120 --> 00:43:46,960
Speaker 3: But yeah, like I said, I if it's really something

761
00:43:47,000 --> 00:43:49,719
Speaker 3: serious between then two, I'm I'm willing to meet them.

762
00:43:50,120 --> 00:43:53,080
Speaker 3: I have nothing against them, you know, if they love

763
00:43:53,160 --> 00:43:56,720
Speaker 3: my dad and I love them too. I guess.

764
00:44:00,280 --> 00:44:02,040
Speaker 2: It was nice talking to you. You're a cool guy.

765
00:44:02,360 --> 00:44:05,520
Speaker 3: Nice. Thank you, man. I thought I've been waiting so

766
00:44:05,600 --> 00:44:06,719
Speaker 3: long to talk to you. Man.

767
00:44:08,560 --> 00:44:09,320
Speaker 2: Yeah, this is sorry.

768
00:44:09,400 --> 00:44:10,799
Speaker 3: That was the only thing I bought up.

769
00:44:11,400 --> 00:44:14,360
Speaker 2: But I have Julian, you have nothing to be sorry

770
00:44:14,400 --> 00:44:16,040
Speaker 2: for this was a really nice It was really nice

771
00:44:16,080 --> 00:44:20,640
Speaker 2: talking to you. Uh yeah, thanks for giving us this

772
00:44:20,640 --> 00:44:23,399
Speaker 2: little peek into your life. This is These are the

773
00:44:23,440 --> 00:44:25,359
Speaker 2: things I like about doing this show.

774
00:44:27,040 --> 00:44:30,200
Speaker 3: Man, and I love watching your show. D I'll up

775
00:44:30,200 --> 00:44:33,160
Speaker 3: in my earphones and I'll listen to your podcast.

776
00:44:32,719 --> 00:44:36,400
Speaker 2: All day and man, thank you brother. Is there anything

777
00:44:36,400 --> 00:44:37,680
Speaker 2: else you want to say to the people of the

778
00:44:37,719 --> 00:44:38,719
Speaker 2: computer before we go?

779
00:44:42,080 --> 00:44:45,120
Speaker 3: No, I get no. I just kind of keep on going. Man,

780
00:44:45,160 --> 00:44:45,920
Speaker 3: that's what you can do.

781
00:44:45,920 --> 00:44:52,680
Speaker 2: You beautiful, Good luck with everything. Julian, take take care.

782
00:44:52,800 --> 00:44:56,320
Speaker 2: Tell your dad. I tell your dad. The Internet gecko

783
00:44:56,360 --> 00:44:59,960
Speaker 2: guy that you listen to says hello.

784
00:45:01,120 --> 00:45:03,360
Speaker 3: Hell yeah, man, thank you, Lyle. I appreciate it.

785
00:45:03,400 --> 00:45:05,440
Speaker 2: Bro, Thank you, Julian. You have the rest of the night.

786
00:45:05,520 --> 00:45:11,879
Speaker 2: Man you do. That was Julian. I liked that guy

787
00:45:11,920 --> 00:45:19,040
Speaker 2: a lot that I was cool. Uh shit, what else? Yeah,

788
00:45:19,040 --> 00:45:21,799
Speaker 2: I was cool, he had a cool life. I like

789
00:45:21,840 --> 00:45:27,640
Speaker 2: hearing about his dad. Really just a man, I feel

790
00:45:27,719 --> 00:45:30,040
Speaker 2: I've talked about this on the show so many times.

791
00:45:30,080 --> 00:45:32,800
Speaker 2: I don't know if anyone who listens to it relates,

792
00:45:32,880 --> 00:45:36,280
Speaker 2: But there's so many people that I meet on doing

793
00:45:36,320 --> 00:45:39,880
Speaker 2: this show or like talk to on the phone that

794
00:45:39,960 --> 00:45:42,879
Speaker 2: are like younger than me, or that I'm like, this

795
00:45:42,920 --> 00:45:45,359
Speaker 2: person is so much more of like a man than

796
00:45:45,400 --> 00:45:48,839
Speaker 2: I am, like so much more of an adult. That's

797
00:45:48,880 --> 00:45:51,160
Speaker 2: really what it is. I think that that's really what

798
00:45:51,400 --> 00:45:53,960
Speaker 2: like fucking being an adult is. Is like if you're

799
00:45:54,040 --> 00:45:56,799
Speaker 2: the cause, Like I'm sitting in a chair right now,

800
00:45:59,280 --> 00:46:03,000
Speaker 2: I could sit in this chair until I died of starvation,

801
00:46:04,520 --> 00:46:10,040
Speaker 2: and it would like nobody else would die if I

802
00:46:10,080 --> 00:46:12,720
Speaker 2: did that, Like everything every I mean, people would be upset.

803
00:46:12,880 --> 00:46:14,439
Speaker 2: I have people in my life who would be upset

804
00:46:14,480 --> 00:46:19,560
Speaker 2: if I died, of course, but they wouldn't like other

805
00:46:19,640 --> 00:46:23,040
Speaker 2: than mentally there, they would be able to continue their lives.

806
00:46:23,640 --> 00:46:26,080
Speaker 2: I think it's one. I think it's once you have

807
00:46:26,280 --> 00:46:33,359
Speaker 2: other things that require you to not die, like I think, Yeah,

808
00:46:33,360 --> 00:46:35,839
Speaker 2: I think that's the difference between like uh, I think

809
00:46:35,960 --> 00:46:38,680
Speaker 2: that's what makes an adult is like some massive amount

810
00:46:38,719 --> 00:46:46,839
Speaker 2: of responsibility. Uh and yeah, and yeah it's cool man

811
00:46:47,000 --> 00:46:49,160
Speaker 2: like the way Julian like, you know, his fucking kid,

812
00:46:49,239 --> 00:46:50,839
Speaker 2: he's trying to help his brothers, he's trying to help

813
00:46:50,880 --> 00:46:52,920
Speaker 2: his dad. Like he's he's a good guy. I like

814
00:46:53,000 --> 00:46:56,799
Speaker 2: that guy a lot. Hello, what's up?

815
00:46:58,360 --> 00:46:58,960
Speaker 3: You're joking?

816
00:46:59,640 --> 00:47:01,440
Speaker 2: I'm not. It's me. What's going on?

817
00:47:01,560 --> 00:47:05,160
Speaker 4: Oh no, this is simultaneously a great time and also

818
00:47:05,200 --> 00:47:05,880
Speaker 4: a bad time.

819
00:47:06,560 --> 00:47:08,200
Speaker 2: Oh okay, why is it a bad time?

820
00:47:09,320 --> 00:47:11,720
Speaker 4: I'm at my dad's house for dinner and it's his birthday.

821
00:47:11,840 --> 00:47:13,640
Speaker 4: He's putting clothes in the laundry right now.

822
00:47:14,000 --> 00:47:14,719
Speaker 2: Oh, do you have time?

823
00:47:14,840 --> 00:47:14,960
Speaker 3: Well?

824
00:47:15,200 --> 00:47:16,200
Speaker 2: So, why is it a great time?

825
00:47:17,560 --> 00:47:20,359
Speaker 4: Because I can't believe this just happened. My little brother

826
00:47:20,400 --> 00:47:22,200
Speaker 4: told me to call it, and so I did.

827
00:47:22,560 --> 00:47:24,399
Speaker 2: Do you have time to talk for like a little bit?

828
00:47:25,480 --> 00:47:26,320
Speaker 4: Yeah, yeah, I'll give it.

829
00:47:26,360 --> 00:47:27,280
Speaker 3: I'll give it a good few.

830
00:47:27,160 --> 00:47:28,080
Speaker 5: Minutes, all right.

831
00:47:28,080 --> 00:47:28,360
Speaker 2: Cool?

832
00:47:28,600 --> 00:47:31,040
Speaker 4: My brother to go between and let my dad know

833
00:47:31,120 --> 00:47:31,680
Speaker 4: what's going on.

834
00:47:32,120 --> 00:47:34,680
Speaker 2: Okay, cool? How old is your dad turning?

835
00:47:37,600 --> 00:47:42,040
Speaker 4: He was born in nineteen seventy four. He's fifty one.

836
00:47:42,719 --> 00:47:43,480
Speaker 5: He's fifty one.

837
00:47:44,080 --> 00:47:44,719
Speaker 2: How's he doing?

838
00:47:46,560 --> 00:47:47,399
Speaker 3: He's doing pretty good.

839
00:47:47,680 --> 00:47:48,640
Speaker 4: Go tell him what's going on?

840
00:47:49,160 --> 00:47:49,520
Speaker 5: All right?

841
00:47:50,440 --> 00:47:51,560
Speaker 4: He just came back.

842
00:47:51,760 --> 00:47:53,960
Speaker 2: Go inform your dad of the situation.

843
00:47:55,239 --> 00:47:58,319
Speaker 4: Yeah no, I can't believe this is happening. Uh So

844
00:47:58,920 --> 00:48:01,120
Speaker 4: I actually sent you an e and you read it

845
00:48:01,239 --> 00:48:01,840
Speaker 4: very recently.

846
00:48:02,280 --> 00:48:05,080
Speaker 2: Oh really, okay, tell me what the was? What the

847
00:48:05,120 --> 00:48:05,480
Speaker 2: email was?

848
00:48:06,400 --> 00:48:08,360
Speaker 4: I went to the concert. I was going to go

849
00:48:08,400 --> 00:48:10,640
Speaker 4: by myself and then I won free tickets and I

850
00:48:10,680 --> 00:48:11,440
Speaker 4: took my family.

851
00:48:12,320 --> 00:48:15,359
Speaker 2: Yeah, I remember that. Yeah, you said nothing good ever happens.

852
00:48:15,120 --> 00:48:20,520
Speaker 4: To you, not particularly this that would qualify as something good.

853
00:48:21,760 --> 00:48:23,279
Speaker 2: Do you what? I Yeah? What else did you say

854
00:48:23,280 --> 00:48:25,040
Speaker 2: in that email? Was that it?

855
00:48:26,360 --> 00:48:30,160
Speaker 4: I mean, I wrote you before a while ago because

856
00:48:30,200 --> 00:48:34,400
Speaker 4: I I I talked about burning my journals.

857
00:48:35,360 --> 00:48:35,600
Speaker 3: I have.

858
00:48:36,080 --> 00:48:40,600
Speaker 4: I moved back home like seven months ago. Now I'm

859
00:48:40,600 --> 00:48:46,399
Speaker 4: shaking a little bit, but we're doing it. Uh. Yeah,

860
00:48:46,480 --> 00:48:49,000
Speaker 4: I moved back home. I was with my partner that

861
00:48:49,000 --> 00:48:52,439
Speaker 4: I had been with for almost eight years and went

862
00:48:52,480 --> 00:48:56,279
Speaker 4: through some mental stuff being on my own that it

863
00:48:56,440 --> 00:48:58,840
Speaker 4: just didn't quite work out, and I was bringing us

864
00:48:58,880 --> 00:49:01,080
Speaker 4: both down a little bit. Oh, I came back home.

865
00:49:02,520 --> 00:49:06,040
Speaker 2: Hmm, I have been How have things been since you've

866
00:49:06,080 --> 00:49:06,600
Speaker 2: been back home?

867
00:49:09,719 --> 00:49:10,000
Speaker 3: Good?

868
00:49:10,440 --> 00:49:13,880
Speaker 4: Good for the most part. Like I mean, I'm healthy.

869
00:49:14,719 --> 00:49:20,040
Speaker 4: I'm healthy and I'm here. I only smoke weed as

870
00:49:20,080 --> 00:49:25,719
Speaker 4: I whisper, and I don't do anything crazy. But at

871
00:49:25,719 --> 00:49:29,840
Speaker 4: the same time, oh my, I get my social interaction.

872
00:49:29,480 --> 00:49:30,080
Speaker 3: From your show.

873
00:49:31,480 --> 00:49:34,120
Speaker 2: You get all of your social interaction from my show.

874
00:49:35,520 --> 00:49:37,040
Speaker 4: I would say ninety percent of it.

875
00:49:39,080 --> 00:49:41,000
Speaker 2: By Like are you do you talk in the twitch

876
00:49:41,080 --> 00:49:43,680
Speaker 2: chat or you just mean by like by like listening, no,

877
00:49:44,000 --> 00:49:51,399
Speaker 2: by proxy podcast like by listening to the podcast. Yes, okay,

878
00:49:51,400 --> 00:49:53,440
Speaker 2: I have multiple things to say to you.

879
00:49:54,160 --> 00:49:54,560
Speaker 3: Mm hmm.

880
00:49:55,480 --> 00:49:56,320
Speaker 2: What did you say your name was?

881
00:49:56,400 --> 00:49:59,800
Speaker 4: It might be ready, It's Alexis Alexis.

882
00:50:00,960 --> 00:50:03,080
Speaker 2: Well, first of all, thank you for listening to the show.

883
00:50:06,840 --> 00:50:10,560
Speaker 2: I appreciate it. But I do need to inform you

884
00:50:10,640 --> 00:50:16,200
Speaker 2: that this doesn't it doesn't really count as social interaction.

885
00:50:17,960 --> 00:50:21,200
Speaker 4: I'm very much aware I had a feeling.

886
00:50:20,920 --> 00:50:24,080
Speaker 2: You were aware of that. Okay, where's the.

887
00:50:27,120 --> 00:50:28,799
Speaker 4: I'm like fifty of the way there.

888
00:50:29,920 --> 00:50:34,160
Speaker 2: This this vaguely counts as social interaction. Yeah, this vaguely

889
00:50:34,239 --> 00:50:37,680
Speaker 2: counts as social interaction. This counts as much as social

890
00:50:37,680 --> 00:50:45,359
Speaker 2: interaction for both of us. I would say, yeah, uh, okay,

891
00:50:45,400 --> 00:50:49,720
Speaker 2: where's the other ten percent come from?

892
00:50:50,120 --> 00:50:52,040
Speaker 4: I live with my I mean, I live with my family,

893
00:50:52,120 --> 00:50:55,319
Speaker 4: so I think pretty much that's my day to day.

894
00:50:55,719 --> 00:51:00,160
Speaker 4: There's four people in my house, so it's like relatively busy.

895
00:51:00,200 --> 00:51:02,960
Speaker 4: But at the same time, I just I don't go out.

896
00:51:03,000 --> 00:51:04,839
Speaker 4: I go out for appointments, I go out for work,

897
00:51:06,360 --> 00:51:08,400
Speaker 4: and that's pretty much it. I mean I had friends

898
00:51:08,520 --> 00:51:11,319
Speaker 4: when I moved, you know, a year ago from my

899
00:51:11,360 --> 00:51:15,719
Speaker 4: old job. But once I came back, I was kind

900
00:51:15,760 --> 00:51:17,600
Speaker 4: of like, well, I disappeared off the face of the earth.

901
00:51:17,640 --> 00:51:20,560
Speaker 4: It'd be really weird to just kind of sert myself

902
00:51:20,600 --> 00:51:22,919
Speaker 4: back into their lives.

903
00:51:26,280 --> 00:51:28,239
Speaker 2: Do you like your well, I have multiple questions. Do

904
00:51:28,239 --> 00:51:30,760
Speaker 2: you like your family? Do you like hanging out with them?

905
00:51:31,480 --> 00:51:31,759
Speaker 3: I do?

906
00:51:32,760 --> 00:51:35,960
Speaker 4: I have, I mean, one younger brother that keeps me

907
00:51:36,000 --> 00:51:37,840
Speaker 4: on my toes, and then my older brother that I

908
00:51:37,840 --> 00:51:42,759
Speaker 4: can just like, you know, be myself with. And I'm ah,

909
00:51:42,840 --> 00:51:46,240
Speaker 4: that's just I mean, she's she's she's great, she's over

910
00:51:46,280 --> 00:51:47,440
Speaker 4: protected that type.

911
00:51:47,600 --> 00:51:52,480
Speaker 2: But yeah, how does your little brother keep you on

912
00:51:52,520 --> 00:51:52,960
Speaker 2: your toes?

913
00:51:54,960 --> 00:51:57,760
Speaker 4: He's just a goof. He's very connected to the internet,

914
00:51:57,840 --> 00:51:59,839
Speaker 4: so he keeps me a price on whatever the hell

915
00:51:59,920 --> 00:52:02,960
Speaker 4: is going on on the internet, even though I don't

916
00:52:02,960 --> 00:52:06,840
Speaker 4: want to know about it. He does a lot of editing.

917
00:52:06,880 --> 00:52:08,920
Speaker 4: He does a lot of editing. He does soccer videos.

918
00:52:08,960 --> 00:52:11,400
Speaker 4: Boys got twenty one thousand followers.

919
00:52:11,920 --> 00:52:13,719
Speaker 2: Cool on TikTok.

920
00:52:13,880 --> 00:52:14,680
Speaker 5: Yeah, it's crazy.

921
00:52:16,280 --> 00:52:17,480
Speaker 4: He's going to be fourteen soon.

922
00:52:18,080 --> 00:52:19,400
Speaker 2: Cool. That's awesome.

923
00:52:20,360 --> 00:52:25,680
Speaker 4: Yeah, yeah, I know, yeah, doting moreshit with his life

924
00:52:25,680 --> 00:52:26,479
Speaker 4: than I am right now.

925
00:52:26,800 --> 00:52:28,960
Speaker 2: I used to edit videos when I was like, yeah,

926
00:52:28,960 --> 00:52:31,160
Speaker 2: when not. Yeah, yeah, I started, I started making movies.

927
00:52:31,200 --> 00:52:33,080
Speaker 2: I started, I mean I was editing videos. Yeah, when

928
00:52:33,080 --> 00:52:36,200
Speaker 2: I was like fucking ten or some shit. I feel

929
00:52:36,200 --> 00:52:41,320
Speaker 2: like the the Internet. Yeah, well I have multiple thoughts

930
00:52:41,320 --> 00:52:45,600
Speaker 2: because I'm like, what on some level I get scared of,

931
00:52:45,800 --> 00:52:49,120
Speaker 2: like the version of the Internet that the youth are

932
00:52:50,360 --> 00:52:53,080
Speaker 2: in now. Yes, but then I'm like, how old are you?

933
00:52:54,560 --> 00:52:55,400
Speaker 4: I'm twenty seven?

934
00:52:55,960 --> 00:52:58,759
Speaker 2: Okay, Yeah. Our our version of the Internet when we

935
00:52:58,760 --> 00:53:04,600
Speaker 2: were fourteen, it wasn't it. It wasn't that fucking different.

936
00:53:04,760 --> 00:53:06,600
Speaker 4: Like I don't I don't even know what I used

937
00:53:06,600 --> 00:53:08,240
Speaker 4: the Internet for. I use it for email.

938
00:53:08,960 --> 00:53:10,520
Speaker 2: Yeah, but like I don't know, like we had like

939
00:53:10,560 --> 00:53:12,879
Speaker 2: fucking you know, Tumbler, and we had like our own

940
00:53:13,520 --> 00:53:17,319
Speaker 2: weird yeas and ship. Like it's not like our our

941
00:53:17,400 --> 00:53:20,120
Speaker 2: brain rot wasn't as like maybe it's the like the

942
00:53:20,320 --> 00:53:23,560
Speaker 2: like the short form video endless scrolls. Ship is a

943
00:53:23,600 --> 00:53:28,400
Speaker 2: little yeah different now, but anyway, that's a a's a

944
00:53:28,480 --> 00:53:31,960
Speaker 2: tangent from the other. You're good as a tangent.

945
00:53:32,280 --> 00:53:35,719
Speaker 4: It's just everything on the Internet now was like it's

946
00:53:35,800 --> 00:53:36,920
Speaker 4: just over stimulating.

947
00:53:37,800 --> 00:53:41,440
Speaker 2: Yeah, their Internet is definitely a little bit more stimulating. Man,

948
00:53:41,440 --> 00:53:43,680
Speaker 2: I'm unked out. I don't remember. There's some there's a

949
00:53:43,719 --> 00:53:45,279
Speaker 2: lot of things I was gonna ask you before I

950
00:53:45,320 --> 00:53:46,839
Speaker 2: went on that you're good.

951
00:53:47,760 --> 00:53:50,960
Speaker 4: I'm just like I I wasn't even like allowed, Like

952
00:53:51,040 --> 00:53:53,719
Speaker 4: I wasn't allowed to have even an email until I

953
00:53:53,760 --> 00:53:56,360
Speaker 4: was in like fourth grades, so I was just not

954
00:53:56,440 --> 00:54:03,279
Speaker 4: even on the internet. Like. That's good though, Yes and no,

955
00:54:05,560 --> 00:54:07,880
Speaker 4: I'm definitely an introvert.

956
00:54:08,239 --> 00:54:12,759
Speaker 2: So do you want more social interaction in your life?

957
00:54:13,080 --> 00:54:13,800
Speaker 4: I do?

958
00:54:14,719 --> 00:54:14,919
Speaker 3: Yes.

959
00:54:16,239 --> 00:54:17,839
Speaker 4: I feel like I mean, people call and they say

960
00:54:17,880 --> 00:54:19,680
Speaker 4: the same thing all the time. It's so hard to

961
00:54:19,719 --> 00:54:24,360
Speaker 4: make friends like organically, and all the people that I

962
00:54:24,400 --> 00:54:26,080
Speaker 4: work with right now, I'm just working at a like

963
00:54:26,120 --> 00:54:28,960
Speaker 4: a fast food place basically, and they're all like twenty

964
00:54:29,080 --> 00:54:32,719
Speaker 4: years old. M the kid managers.

965
00:54:35,200 --> 00:54:36,960
Speaker 2: Uh So, where did you move from? And then where'd

966
00:54:36,960 --> 00:54:37,360
Speaker 2: you move to?

967
00:54:39,560 --> 00:54:42,640
Speaker 4: I was so I grew up in Chicago and I

968
00:54:42,680 --> 00:54:47,839
Speaker 4: moved to Ohio for like I was there for maybe

969
00:54:47,840 --> 00:54:55,479
Speaker 4: like eight months. I almost made it a year. Yeah,

970
00:54:55,560 --> 00:54:56,560
Speaker 4: now I'm back to Chicago.

971
00:54:57,040 --> 00:55:00,480
Speaker 2: Are you like, like, are you like deep suburbs Chicago

972
00:55:00,600 --> 00:55:02,240
Speaker 2: or like how close are you to the city?

973
00:55:03,080 --> 00:55:06,720
Speaker 4: No, like right now I'm in the middle of the city.

974
00:55:06,840 --> 00:55:10,680
Speaker 4: Like my dad, Uh lives in like the Mexican neighborhood,

975
00:55:10,760 --> 00:55:13,600
Speaker 4: so it's it's been popping here a little bit. The

976
00:55:13,640 --> 00:55:16,239
Speaker 4: school that my brother goes to sometimes they won't let

977
00:55:16,239 --> 00:55:18,799
Speaker 4: the kids out because of like ice in the neighborhood,

978
00:55:18,800 --> 00:55:22,359
Speaker 4: and like there's phone trees for people to you know,

979
00:55:22,440 --> 00:55:24,520
Speaker 4: drop their kids off that you know, for like one

980
00:55:24,600 --> 00:55:26,319
Speaker 4: person who's going to pick up ten kids and bring

981
00:55:26,360 --> 00:55:27,960
Speaker 4: them all home. Like it's kind of.

982
00:55:28,000 --> 00:55:32,319
Speaker 2: Nuts over here, Oh because of ice. Yeah, that's fucked up.

983
00:55:32,600 --> 00:55:33,240
Speaker 2: That's crazy.

984
00:55:33,360 --> 00:55:35,680
Speaker 4: Yeah, this is the first time I've been over here

985
00:55:35,719 --> 00:55:39,080
Speaker 4: like in a while, but my mom's house, where I'm

986
00:55:39,080 --> 00:55:41,280
Speaker 4: normally at is like just outside of the city.

987
00:55:41,880 --> 00:55:44,200
Speaker 2: Yeah, didn't they just do like a whole like insane

988
00:55:44,239 --> 00:55:46,359
Speaker 2: fucking raid.

989
00:55:47,080 --> 00:55:50,120
Speaker 4: I'm pretty sure I know that they were fucking like

990
00:55:50,160 --> 00:55:54,759
Speaker 4: tear guys and the cops themselves, Like I don't know,

991
00:55:54,880 --> 00:55:58,279
Speaker 4: I don't. Yeah, I'm like I really like as much

992
00:55:58,280 --> 00:56:01,160
Speaker 4: as I stay off I stay off the internet for

993
00:56:01,239 --> 00:56:03,719
Speaker 4: like everything I'm on Reddit, that's pretty much it.

994
00:56:04,239 --> 00:56:06,560
Speaker 2: Well, I well, actually, you know, because you stay here,

995
00:56:06,640 --> 00:56:09,400
Speaker 2: let me say it, Because you stay off the internet,

996
00:56:09,960 --> 00:56:13,399
Speaker 2: you're the best person to ask because it's like, if

997
00:56:13,400 --> 00:56:17,120
Speaker 2: something's happening and you know about it, even not being

998
00:56:17,200 --> 00:56:19,920
Speaker 2: on the internet. That means it's like fucking real, you

999
00:56:20,000 --> 00:56:20,480
Speaker 2: know what I mean?

1000
00:56:22,280 --> 00:56:26,280
Speaker 4: Yeah, yes and no, yes and no I hear something,

1001
00:56:26,400 --> 00:56:28,759
Speaker 4: it's just like like all that can't I don't know

1002
00:56:28,760 --> 00:56:31,279
Speaker 4: if that's real or I hears something that is real

1003
00:56:31,320 --> 00:56:32,960
Speaker 4: and I'm like, but it's fake though, I'm like they

1004
00:56:33,000 --> 00:56:33,480
Speaker 4: made it up.

1005
00:56:34,600 --> 00:56:36,080
Speaker 2: Well. I just mean to say, like, if like, if

1006
00:56:36,120 --> 00:56:38,080
Speaker 2: you're like, if you're like on Twitter, like you'll find

1007
00:56:38,080 --> 00:56:40,799
Speaker 2: a new thing to be outraged and pissed off about

1008
00:56:40,840 --> 00:56:43,520
Speaker 2: every day. But if you're like, oh yeah, and if

1009
00:56:43,560 --> 00:56:46,160
Speaker 2: you're like walking around the street and living your life

1010
00:56:46,200 --> 00:56:49,680
Speaker 2: and witnessing things to be upset about, that that's you know,

1011
00:56:50,560 --> 00:56:51,279
Speaker 2: that's like uh.

1012
00:56:53,320 --> 00:56:57,479
Speaker 4: You know, yeah, just different level of impactful. I guess, right.

1013
00:57:00,280 --> 00:57:03,920
Speaker 2: Okay, so you live in a big, major city, so

1014
00:57:04,080 --> 00:57:05,160
Speaker 2: I don't know. I don't I'm not going to go

1015
00:57:05,160 --> 00:57:07,560
Speaker 2: on the whole rant that I always go on, but uh,

1016
00:57:08,400 --> 00:57:13,160
Speaker 2: you you can have social reaction outside of my podcast

1017
00:57:13,239 --> 00:57:13,839
Speaker 2: if if.

1018
00:57:13,760 --> 00:57:18,520
Speaker 4: You desire, Yeah, I think I think I'll get there

1019
00:57:18,800 --> 00:57:22,200
Speaker 4: soon enough. I mean, I'm gonna be tired of being

1020
00:57:22,200 --> 00:57:25,680
Speaker 4: cramped up in my house. But now it's winter, nobody

1021
00:57:25,720 --> 00:57:26,680
Speaker 4: wants to go outside.

1022
00:57:27,200 --> 00:57:28,720
Speaker 2: Oh yeah, Chico sucks in the winter.

1023
00:57:29,720 --> 00:57:32,800
Speaker 4: It's already less than fifty degrees and it was like

1024
00:57:32,880 --> 00:57:33,920
Speaker 4: seventy last week.

1025
00:57:34,600 --> 00:57:40,120
Speaker 2: Yeah, okay, why do you say that nothing good happens

1026
00:57:40,160 --> 00:57:43,800
Speaker 2: in your You seem like you seem like dissatisfied with

1027
00:57:43,880 --> 00:57:45,880
Speaker 2: your life. I don't know if I'll be able to

1028
00:57:45,960 --> 00:57:48,160
Speaker 2: change that on this phone call, but i'm I we

1029
00:57:48,200 --> 00:57:49,560
Speaker 2: can talk about it if you want to.

1030
00:57:50,960 --> 00:57:53,080
Speaker 4: Just like the quick of it. I mean, I've I've

1031
00:57:53,120 --> 00:57:56,280
Speaker 4: been in that out of school for ten years now,

1032
00:57:56,600 --> 00:58:02,040
Speaker 4: you know, college, uh, and it's just I'm I thought

1033
00:58:02,080 --> 00:58:03,520
Speaker 4: I wanted to be a doctor who was just one

1034
00:58:03,520 --> 00:58:06,920
Speaker 4: of those things, and I was like, wow, this sucks.

1035
00:58:07,880 --> 00:58:09,840
Speaker 4: And now I'm trying to go to nursing school. But

1036
00:58:09,880 --> 00:58:11,840
Speaker 4: I've been trying to go to nursing school for probably

1037
00:58:11,880 --> 00:58:15,439
Speaker 4: like five years, just you know, health and mental health

1038
00:58:15,600 --> 00:58:17,800
Speaker 4: things have just kept me kind of in this loop.

1039
00:58:19,400 --> 00:58:22,000
Speaker 4: But I think when I, uh, I moved so, I

1040
00:58:22,040 --> 00:58:24,440
Speaker 4: mean when I moved away, a lot of the like

1041
00:58:24,680 --> 00:58:27,680
Speaker 4: the guts and the inspiration honestly came from listening to

1042
00:58:27,720 --> 00:58:30,439
Speaker 4: your podcast of like you just have to try some shit,

1043
00:58:32,400 --> 00:58:34,120
Speaker 4: and I was like, I, you know, I need to try.

1044
00:58:34,200 --> 00:58:35,760
Speaker 4: I need to try living on my own, and like

1045
00:58:35,840 --> 00:58:38,800
Speaker 4: I was going to school out there too, and I

1046
00:58:38,880 --> 00:58:41,360
Speaker 4: kind of had like this my plan was set at

1047
00:58:41,360 --> 00:58:44,280
Speaker 4: that point, but it was set you know, with my partner,

1048
00:58:45,040 --> 00:58:47,800
Speaker 4: and so when that kind of changed, all that went away.

1049
00:58:47,840 --> 00:58:49,680
Speaker 4: It was like all that motivation was kind of gone.

1050
00:58:49,760 --> 00:58:52,800
Speaker 4: It was like, you know, now my future looks different

1051
00:58:53,160 --> 00:58:57,640
Speaker 4: and now it's really up to me to figure that out.

1052
00:58:59,160 --> 00:59:01,520
Speaker 2: When did you break up with your partner.

1053
00:59:03,360 --> 00:59:06,200
Speaker 4: In February?

1054
00:59:06,880 --> 00:59:08,840
Speaker 2: So it's up to you to figure out your future.

1055
00:59:11,120 --> 00:59:11,760
Speaker 4: It's heavy shit.

1056
00:59:11,880 --> 00:59:13,520
Speaker 2: Kick it is heavy shit.

1057
00:59:13,600 --> 00:59:15,600
Speaker 4: Okay, though I'm gonna drop the but how are you doing?

1058
00:59:16,040 --> 00:59:19,520
Speaker 2: No, it's no, it's heavy, it's heavy shit. It's uh yeah.

1059
00:59:19,520 --> 00:59:22,280
Speaker 2: That's one of the scarier that That's when I had

1060
00:59:22,320 --> 00:59:29,360
Speaker 2: my existential crisis is when when life got Yeah, because

1061
00:59:29,400 --> 00:59:32,840
Speaker 2: when you uh, well, at least from like one to eighteen,

1062
00:59:33,640 --> 00:59:39,640
Speaker 2: life is pretty on the rails, right, and then it

1063
00:59:39,680 --> 00:59:41,480
Speaker 2: gets a little and then like when you go to

1064
00:59:41,560 --> 00:59:47,240
Speaker 2: college maybe and it's it's still on the rail, and

1065
00:59:47,240 --> 00:59:51,600
Speaker 2: then you're twenty two and then something like I felt

1066
00:59:51,600 --> 00:59:53,360
Speaker 2: like I had my eccential crisis because I felt like

1067
00:59:53,440 --> 00:59:55,160
Speaker 2: my life was like on the rail like things were

1068
00:59:55,240 --> 00:59:59,680
Speaker 2: figured out in some sense for a while, and then

1069
00:59:59,720 --> 01:00:02,400
Speaker 2: they and then they and then I realized the future

1070
01:00:02,520 --> 01:00:09,080
Speaker 2: was up to me and that was really spooky heavy ship.

1071
01:00:10,400 --> 01:00:15,120
Speaker 2: Ah yeah, And then where do you go from there?

1072
01:00:16,160 --> 01:00:18,720
Speaker 2: I don't know. That's like, it's like trying to It's

1073
01:00:18,760 --> 01:00:20,080
Speaker 2: a very open problem.

1074
01:00:21,360 --> 01:00:21,600
Speaker 3: Yeah.

1075
01:00:22,560 --> 01:00:25,760
Speaker 2: Uh. But you can't fester in it or else you

1076
01:00:25,800 --> 01:00:29,160
Speaker 2: will you will die.

1077
01:00:30,000 --> 01:00:34,880
Speaker 4: Bro, I've a beenfest No, You're good, I've been festering.

1078
01:00:34,960 --> 01:00:38,120
Speaker 4: But I'm like, have that I haven't. I'm moving very slowly.

1079
01:00:38,440 --> 01:00:41,040
Speaker 4: I think, I'm I do see. I see a couple

1080
01:00:41,040 --> 01:00:45,360
Speaker 4: of therapists and they're telling me that I might be

1081
01:00:45,400 --> 01:00:47,880
Speaker 4: graduating on to a new therapist. So I feel like

1082
01:00:47,880 --> 01:00:49,800
Speaker 4: that's progress.

1083
01:00:50,440 --> 01:00:53,320
Speaker 2: What does that mean? You graduate onto a new therapist?

1084
01:00:54,360 --> 01:01:00,080
Speaker 4: I Uh. The issue that I have is I have, like,

1085
01:01:00,360 --> 01:01:03,480
Speaker 4: all right, I have a history of like eating issues,

1086
01:01:04,400 --> 01:01:08,080
Speaker 4: not eating enough, that kind of stuff, and because of that,

1087
01:01:08,960 --> 01:01:13,280
Speaker 4: I have like sick, like vomiting episodes. It's pretty wild.

1088
01:01:14,360 --> 01:01:17,560
Speaker 4: So I've been to the er for that kind of stuff.

1089
01:01:17,600 --> 01:01:20,400
Speaker 4: And when I was in Ohio, it got really bad

1090
01:01:20,680 --> 01:01:22,280
Speaker 4: and I so I needed to come home because I

1091
01:01:22,280 --> 01:01:26,360
Speaker 4: needed like medical help and mental help. So that's Yeah,

1092
01:01:26,480 --> 01:01:29,800
Speaker 4: that's the quick of it. So I was seeing a

1093
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Speaker 4: gi psychologist like gastro psychologists, which I didn't know they existed.

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01:01:38,720 --> 01:01:41,480
Speaker 4: Could be a ploy for more money, but they sent

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Speaker 4: me there and it helped, So I might be moving

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Speaker 4: on to someone else now. Stuff works. It is one

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01:01:49,480 --> 01:01:52,040
Speaker 4: of those things. But it's like it's a marathon.

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Speaker 2: What kinds of stuff do you eat?

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01:01:54,200 --> 01:01:54,360
Speaker 3: Now?

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01:01:56,080 --> 01:01:58,120
Speaker 4: Oh my god? I mean I eat like a child.

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01:01:58,200 --> 01:01:58,640
Speaker 3: I Uh.

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01:02:00,920 --> 01:02:02,680
Speaker 4: The best thing that I eat is probably like black

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01:02:02,720 --> 01:02:06,400
Speaker 4: bean burgers. I just had minnestroni minnestroni soup for dinner.

1104
01:02:09,400 --> 01:02:09,520
Speaker 3: Is it?

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01:02:09,640 --> 01:02:14,120
Speaker 4: What is ministrone soup? Yeah, it's a vegetable soup. It's like,

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01:02:14,680 --> 01:02:21,200
Speaker 4: uh Italian. It's really just like noodles, tomato based potatoes,

1107
01:02:21,200 --> 01:02:23,680
Speaker 4: carried zucchini, whatever the hell you want to put in there.

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01:02:24,080 --> 01:02:27,320
Speaker 3: That sounds normal, Yeah, delicious.

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01:02:28,080 --> 01:02:31,440
Speaker 4: I eat a lot of pizza same and a lot

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01:02:31,440 --> 01:02:37,160
Speaker 4: of a lot of pasta, a lot of bread.

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Speaker 1: I have.

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Speaker 4: I've had the same thing for breakfast every day since

1113
01:02:41,040 --> 01:02:45,800
Speaker 4: March of banana peanut butter and banana smoothie.

1114
01:02:46,280 --> 01:02:47,960
Speaker 2: Wait, that's what I have every day for breakfast?

1115
01:02:48,680 --> 01:02:49,840
Speaker 4: Are you shitting me? Right now?

1116
01:02:50,280 --> 01:02:54,680
Speaker 2: Every day for breakfast I have a smoothie with peanut butter,

1117
01:02:55,480 --> 01:03:00,640
Speaker 2: almond milk, banana, and a dash of protein powder. O.

1118
01:03:01,800 --> 01:03:02,920
Speaker 4: It's delicious.

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01:03:03,400 --> 01:03:07,080
Speaker 2: It's delicious, and it keeps me pretty full. I think

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Speaker 2: it's healthy. Let me know, okay, if anyone in I okay,

1121
01:03:11,360 --> 01:03:16,640
Speaker 2: because I've been eating this. The first time I discovered

1122
01:03:17,400 --> 01:03:20,560
Speaker 2: a peanut butter banana smoothie with almond milk, peanut butter, banana,

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01:03:22,040 --> 01:03:26,240
Speaker 2: and protein powder, I was like, wait, this tastes really good.

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01:03:28,160 --> 01:03:30,240
Speaker 2: There might I don't and I don't know a lot

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01:03:30,240 --> 01:03:34,440
Speaker 2: about I'm not a nutrition guy. Uh, let me know

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01:03:34,480 --> 01:03:37,680
Speaker 2: in the comments, folks, is that healthy? Is there anything

1127
01:03:37,720 --> 01:03:42,880
Speaker 2: like it seems anything that like tastes really good. I'm like,

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01:03:42,880 --> 01:03:46,439
Speaker 2: there's gotta be something bad about eating this every day.

1129
01:03:46,640 --> 01:03:48,520
Speaker 2: But it's see, I mean like peanut butter is a

1130
01:03:48,560 --> 01:03:53,280
Speaker 2: normal food, Bananas are a normal food. Protein powder is

1131
01:03:53,320 --> 01:03:57,120
Speaker 2: I guess normal? Like it seems like you know, you

1132
01:03:57,160 --> 01:03:58,560
Speaker 2: know what I mean. It's not like a milkshake, but

1133
01:03:58,600 --> 01:04:03,400
Speaker 2: it feels milkshaking exactly exactly. So there's always a catch.

1134
01:04:03,400 --> 01:04:05,360
Speaker 2: There's always a fucking catch, And I want to know

1135
01:04:05,360 --> 01:04:06,120
Speaker 2: if there's a catch.

1136
01:04:08,280 --> 01:04:11,760
Speaker 4: As far as I know, there there isn't one, and

1137
01:04:11,800 --> 01:04:13,000
Speaker 4: I would not like to know about it.

1138
01:04:13,040 --> 01:04:14,760
Speaker 2: If there is, I want to know about it.

1139
01:04:14,800 --> 01:04:19,000
Speaker 4: If there is no, it would destroy my routine.

1140
01:04:20,720 --> 01:04:24,280
Speaker 2: Yeah, yeah, they yeah, No, food's been Actually, food's been

1141
01:04:24,280 --> 01:04:27,080
Speaker 2: pretty good lately because I'll yeah, I'll have the smoothie

1142
01:04:27,480 --> 01:04:30,040
Speaker 2: and then the protein ship. It like kind of keeps

1143
01:04:30,080 --> 01:04:33,360
Speaker 2: me satiated for a while till it's till it's time

1144
01:04:33,480 --> 01:04:36,760
Speaker 2: for you know, lunch.

1145
01:04:38,000 --> 01:04:40,560
Speaker 4: Yeah, which we must we must have.

1146
01:04:40,640 --> 01:04:44,440
Speaker 2: I guess, Yeah, why have you been skipping meals?

1147
01:04:45,120 --> 01:04:45,680
Speaker 3: Oh my god?

1148
01:04:45,840 --> 01:04:48,440
Speaker 4: Yeah, I'm a I'm a smoothie person. And then I'll

1149
01:04:48,480 --> 01:04:50,280
Speaker 4: like snack and then at dinner time.

1150
01:04:52,240 --> 01:04:54,600
Speaker 2: As yes, press about what I'm doing lately, But that's

1151
01:04:54,640 --> 01:04:56,400
Speaker 2: good for like losing weight. I don't know if that's

1152
01:04:56,400 --> 01:04:57,600
Speaker 2: your what's what you're on.

1153
01:04:58,360 --> 01:05:01,240
Speaker 4: No, it's not what I'm trying to do. And the honestly,

1154
01:05:01,280 --> 01:05:03,240
Speaker 4: I put so much peanut butter in the shape it's

1155
01:05:03,280 --> 01:05:07,080
Speaker 4: like it's it's like a maintenance thing. It's like as

1156
01:05:07,280 --> 01:05:09,040
Speaker 4: as many calories as I can get in there.

1157
01:05:12,520 --> 01:05:12,760
Speaker 3: Mmm.

1158
01:05:12,920 --> 01:05:14,920
Speaker 2: Fuck, I feel like an idiot asking your name again.

1159
01:05:15,040 --> 01:05:18,720
Speaker 4: But it's okay.

1160
01:05:18,840 --> 01:05:21,000
Speaker 2: I could have remembered. I could recall pretty much everything

1161
01:05:21,040 --> 01:05:23,480
Speaker 2: you told me in this phone call, except for your name.

1162
01:05:24,640 --> 01:05:26,120
Speaker 4: It's okay. I trust you.

1163
01:05:26,320 --> 01:05:28,800
Speaker 2: Quiz me. Ask me anything about your life. I'll remember it.

1164
01:05:29,800 --> 01:05:32,040
Speaker 4: Where did I move from Ohio?

1165
01:05:32,920 --> 01:05:33,160
Speaker 2: Wait?

1166
01:05:33,360 --> 01:05:33,560
Speaker 5: Yeah?

1167
01:05:34,000 --> 01:05:36,600
Speaker 2: No, no, wait? Do you move from Chicago to Ohio? Ask

1168
01:05:36,680 --> 01:05:38,040
Speaker 2: me another thing? Keep asking me question.

1169
01:05:38,080 --> 01:05:39,520
Speaker 4: Yeah, I guess that was a bad question.

1170
01:05:39,720 --> 01:05:40,600
Speaker 3: That was a bad question.

1171
01:05:40,760 --> 01:05:43,000
Speaker 2: No, no, that wasn't That was a good question. Keep going.

1172
01:05:43,640 --> 01:05:44,840
Speaker 4: How many therapists do I have?

1173
01:05:46,000 --> 01:05:46,120
Speaker 3: Mm?

1174
01:05:46,640 --> 01:05:46,880
Speaker 2: Three?

1175
01:05:48,920 --> 01:05:49,800
Speaker 4: Almost it's two?

1176
01:05:50,360 --> 01:05:52,280
Speaker 3: Okay, my brother says.

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01:05:52,120 --> 01:05:52,720
Speaker 4: Six or seven?

1178
01:05:57,920 --> 01:06:00,360
Speaker 2: Ask me? Ask me three more questions about your life.

1179
01:06:00,520 --> 01:06:02,520
Speaker 4: I feel like you're cuising me on myself right now.

1180
01:06:04,040 --> 01:06:06,520
Speaker 2: No, I'm trying to quiz myself on you because.

1181
01:06:06,440 --> 01:06:07,960
Speaker 4: Because how many brothers do I have?

1182
01:06:08,680 --> 01:06:09,800
Speaker 2: Two? But you just said that.

1183
01:06:10,200 --> 01:06:11,280
Speaker 3: Yeah.

1184
01:06:11,320 --> 01:06:13,640
Speaker 2: But also sometimes you'll just say your name and I'll

1185
01:06:13,640 --> 01:06:15,760
Speaker 2: forget that. So good?

1186
01:06:16,800 --> 01:06:18,400
Speaker 4: Can you tell me my name? Does that count?

1187
01:06:18,640 --> 01:06:19,880
Speaker 2: Alexis? That doesn't count?

1188
01:06:20,000 --> 01:06:22,200
Speaker 3: You have to all right?

1189
01:06:23,920 --> 01:06:32,360
Speaker 4: Oh? When did I say I broke up with my partner?

1190
01:06:32,720 --> 01:06:34,439
Speaker 2: February?

1191
01:06:34,680 --> 01:06:35,120
Speaker 5: Nice?

1192
01:06:35,360 --> 01:06:42,120
Speaker 4: That's impressive. How many followers does my How many followers

1193
01:06:42,120 --> 01:06:43,160
Speaker 4: does my little brother have on.

1194
01:06:43,120 --> 01:06:45,160
Speaker 2: TikTok twenty one?

1195
01:06:45,640 --> 01:06:47,480
Speaker 4: That's awesome? Yeah, he does.

1196
01:06:48,520 --> 01:06:53,280
Speaker 2: See, it's just not my name, I already forgot. No,

1197
01:06:53,360 --> 01:06:54,160
Speaker 2: it's Alexis.

1198
01:06:54,240 --> 01:06:55,320
Speaker 3: But it's okay.

1199
01:06:55,560 --> 01:06:58,080
Speaker 2: Yeah, this is because I and I've gone on this

1200
01:06:58,200 --> 01:07:03,880
Speaker 2: rant so many times. But like, uh, I remember certain things.

1201
01:07:03,880 --> 01:07:04,160
Speaker 3: I don't know.

1202
01:07:04,160 --> 01:07:05,680
Speaker 2: Sometimes I feel like my memory Sometimes I feel like

1203
01:07:05,720 --> 01:07:10,160
Speaker 2: I'm I have dementia. Dude, I don't know. I can't

1204
01:07:10,200 --> 01:07:13,920
Speaker 2: tell if I can't tell if doing this makes my

1205
01:07:15,280 --> 01:07:18,400
Speaker 2: you know, how like people retire and then their dementia

1206
01:07:18,520 --> 01:07:21,080
Speaker 2: gets worse. Like working like is good for your brain

1207
01:07:21,160 --> 01:07:23,760
Speaker 2: in some way, you know what I mean. I can't

1208
01:07:23,760 --> 01:07:29,400
Speaker 2: tell if doing this makes me dumber or smarter. I

1209
01:07:29,440 --> 01:07:34,440
Speaker 2: think it's theoretically it should make my brain better.

1210
01:07:36,200 --> 01:07:38,000
Speaker 4: I think it does. I think it does. But there

1211
01:07:38,160 --> 01:07:41,680
Speaker 4: definitely is a memory component. You talk to so many people,

1212
01:07:41,680 --> 01:07:51,080
Speaker 4: that's a whole lot of information. M it's a combo.

1213
01:07:51,120 --> 01:07:53,280
Speaker 4: But you said your journal and that's I think that's

1214
01:07:53,280 --> 01:07:54,240
Speaker 4: good for your brain too.

1215
01:07:54,560 --> 01:07:56,840
Speaker 2: Yeah, I have done that in a while. You know,

1216
01:07:57,000 --> 01:07:58,640
Speaker 2: go long periods of time without journaling.

1217
01:07:59,680 --> 01:08:03,080
Speaker 4: Same, I'm I'm at five years of not journaling right now.

1218
01:08:04,880 --> 01:08:06,840
Speaker 2: Yeah, probably how come you haven't how come you haven't

1219
01:08:06,880 --> 01:08:08,520
Speaker 2: journaled in five years?

1220
01:08:08,800 --> 01:08:09,040
Speaker 5: Oh?

1221
01:08:09,080 --> 01:08:09,320
Speaker 3: God?

1222
01:08:09,520 --> 01:08:11,280
Speaker 4: That I definitely I think I may have wrote you

1223
01:08:11,320 --> 01:08:12,120
Speaker 4: an email about that.

1224
01:08:12,800 --> 01:08:15,280
Speaker 2: Oh yeah, yeah, yeah, yeah, right, okay, remember you said

1225
01:08:15,280 --> 01:08:15,880
Speaker 2: you burned.

1226
01:08:15,680 --> 01:08:18,400
Speaker 4: Your I did say that journals I wanted to, I

1227
01:08:18,439 --> 01:08:21,280
Speaker 4: wanted to I have, I have a lot. I have

1228
01:08:21,439 --> 01:08:24,760
Speaker 4: a lot of I have years worth probably maybe like

1229
01:08:24,800 --> 01:08:28,960
Speaker 4: a good six year span worth of journals that sometimes

1230
01:08:29,000 --> 01:08:31,479
Speaker 4: I'll read through them and be like, it's cool, I'm

1231
01:08:31,479 --> 01:08:34,760
Speaker 4: not in that place anymore. And then I kind of

1232
01:08:34,760 --> 01:08:36,880
Speaker 4: wanted to do that when I came home to read

1233
01:08:36,880 --> 01:08:40,200
Speaker 4: them again because I felt like such shit, but I

1234
01:08:40,280 --> 01:08:43,639
Speaker 4: kind of decided not to, and I still have them.

1235
01:08:43,840 --> 01:08:45,719
Speaker 4: But I feel like if I write, I'm just gonna

1236
01:08:45,760 --> 01:08:46,519
Speaker 4: I'm just gonna.

1237
01:08:46,320 --> 01:08:51,600
Speaker 2: Talk shit the whole time, talk about your life.

1238
01:08:51,840 --> 01:08:56,400
Speaker 4: Yeah, I think so, I don't know, it might come

1239
01:08:56,439 --> 01:08:59,120
Speaker 4: out kind of angry, but I guess that's the point.

1240
01:09:00,560 --> 01:09:04,160
Speaker 2: Yeah. Yeah, Sometimes I wonder if, like that's that's been

1241
01:09:04,160 --> 01:09:05,920
Speaker 2: my whole thing with journaling, because sometimes I wonder like

1242
01:09:05,960 --> 01:09:08,880
Speaker 2: if all of because I have so many journals that

1243
01:09:08,920 --> 01:09:13,400
Speaker 2: are just like depressing journals, yea, and you look back

1244
01:09:13,400 --> 01:09:14,720
Speaker 2: at them and you're like, I don't want I don't

1245
01:09:14,720 --> 01:09:16,559
Speaker 2: want I don't want to keep a record of this.

1246
01:09:16,600 --> 01:09:21,519
Speaker 2: I'd like to forget about this. Yeah, I have angry ones.

1247
01:09:24,000 --> 01:09:26,880
Speaker 4: Yeah, No, some definitely some questionable things in there.

1248
01:09:27,520 --> 01:09:30,120
Speaker 2: Yeah. Man, I was reading a journal from like seven

1249
01:09:30,200 --> 01:09:32,800
Speaker 2: years ago where I was I was saying some insane

1250
01:09:33,840 --> 01:09:37,360
Speaker 2: things and.

1251
01:09:38,439 --> 01:09:40,519
Speaker 4: It's kind of fun though, like maybe now that I'm

1252
01:09:40,520 --> 01:09:42,519
Speaker 4: in a better place, I can go back and read it.

1253
01:09:43,040 --> 01:09:46,680
Speaker 2: M hmm. Yeah, I was saying some insane things and

1254
01:09:46,760 --> 01:09:50,760
Speaker 2: I was like, uh, I think it's it's good that

1255
01:09:50,840 --> 01:09:53,960
Speaker 2: I wrote that. Now it's now honestly like, yeah, now

1256
01:09:54,000 --> 01:09:56,600
Speaker 2: that I'm now that, I'm noticing that my life is

1257
01:09:56,680 --> 01:10:03,599
Speaker 2: a recurring series of me. I'm looking back at journals

1258
01:10:03,600 --> 01:10:05,920
Speaker 2: from seven years ago and I'm like, oh, my life

1259
01:10:05,960 --> 01:10:12,080
Speaker 2: is a recurring series of me. You know, there's been evolutions,

1260
01:10:13,000 --> 01:10:19,000
Speaker 2: there's been yeah blohledy blah. But I'm reading some I'm

1261
01:10:19,000 --> 01:10:24,080
Speaker 2: reading journals like seven, eight years ago whatever, and I'm like, Okay,

1262
01:10:24,120 --> 01:10:29,880
Speaker 2: there's evolutions here, but there's little tiny core maybe angers

1263
01:10:30,040 --> 01:10:37,559
Speaker 2: or sadnesses or even joys or annoyances or whatnot that

1264
01:10:38,080 --> 01:10:42,720
Speaker 2: are still like the core of them still exists with

1265
01:10:42,840 --> 01:10:46,360
Speaker 2: me eight years later. This feels fucking weird.

1266
01:10:47,800 --> 01:10:51,240
Speaker 4: M No, it's a weird feeling to be like, oh,

1267
01:10:51,240 --> 01:10:53,679
Speaker 4: I'm still the same person that I was ten years ago,

1268
01:10:53,720 --> 01:10:54,080
Speaker 4: but I'm not.

1269
01:10:54,120 --> 01:10:57,320
Speaker 2: I don't not this year. Right, You're not exactly the same,

1270
01:10:57,360 --> 01:11:00,200
Speaker 2: but you're also kind of totally the same.

1271
01:11:00,360 --> 01:11:05,519
Speaker 4: Yeah, I uh, I feel it. As much as I

1272
01:11:05,520 --> 01:11:08,240
Speaker 4: hate to say this, I I feel like to wrap

1273
01:11:08,280 --> 01:11:12,799
Speaker 4: it up a little bit. You sho, I do wanna.

1274
01:11:13,120 --> 01:11:13,519
Speaker 1: Uh.

1275
01:11:14,439 --> 01:11:16,960
Speaker 4: What you said made me think of something that, uh

1276
01:11:17,040 --> 01:11:21,479
Speaker 4: from my previous like group therapy experience. There was a

1277
01:11:22,320 --> 01:11:24,639
Speaker 4: girl who one time we had to draw something, right

1278
01:11:24,680 --> 01:11:26,000
Speaker 4: that like reflected something.

1279
01:11:26,040 --> 01:11:26,400
Speaker 3: I don't know.

1280
01:11:26,640 --> 01:11:28,439
Speaker 4: I'll try to remember it as best as I can,

1281
01:11:28,520 --> 01:11:33,080
Speaker 4: but her drawing was just of a big spiral, right,

1282
01:11:33,160 --> 01:11:36,599
Speaker 4: It was just a spiral. And she's like, basically, life

1283
01:11:36,720 --> 01:11:39,160
Speaker 4: is like this, right. You're you start in the middle,

1284
01:11:39,800 --> 01:11:42,720
Speaker 4: and every time you go around the circle, you might

1285
01:11:42,840 --> 01:11:44,559
Speaker 4: end up back in the same place, but you're looking

1286
01:11:44,600 --> 01:11:47,519
Speaker 4: at it from a different perspective, and you're still you

1287
01:11:47,680 --> 01:11:49,920
Speaker 4: just kind of you know, going around and around. But

1288
01:11:49,960 --> 01:11:53,280
Speaker 4: every every time you have more you know, you're looking

1289
01:11:53,320 --> 01:11:54,960
Speaker 4: at it from a different place, so you have more

1290
01:11:55,000 --> 01:11:56,200
Speaker 4: knowledge or this or that.

1291
01:11:57,960 --> 01:12:02,479
Speaker 2: Oh my god, I hate that. I'm gonna think about

1292
01:12:02,520 --> 01:12:04,360
Speaker 2: that every day for the rest of my life.

1293
01:12:05,760 --> 01:12:08,719
Speaker 4: You're not the only one that was probably like seven

1294
01:12:08,800 --> 01:12:10,519
Speaker 4: or eight years ago, and I still think about it

1295
01:12:10,520 --> 01:12:11,120
Speaker 4: all the time.

1296
01:12:12,040 --> 01:12:13,960
Speaker 2: I'm definitely going to be thinking about that.

1297
01:12:15,520 --> 01:12:17,439
Speaker 4: It just helps me not feel as bad.

1298
01:12:18,400 --> 01:12:21,360
Speaker 2: Yeah, okay, yeah, life is a spiral. You start from

1299
01:12:21,360 --> 01:12:30,360
Speaker 2: the bit that makes that makes such perfect sense. But

1300
01:12:30,360 --> 01:12:34,720
Speaker 2: it's good, you know, No, no, I no, no, I know,

1301
01:12:34,840 --> 01:12:37,000
Speaker 2: I know. I know exactly what the visual metaphor. I

1302
01:12:37,080 --> 01:12:42,120
Speaker 2: understand the visual metaphor perfectly, I think. But you're expanding

1303
01:12:42,160 --> 01:12:47,400
Speaker 2: outwards and you're growing, so that's good. You're not you know,

1304
01:12:48,920 --> 01:12:52,360
Speaker 2: you're not it's bad. Yeah, You're not in a circle.

1305
01:12:52,400 --> 01:13:00,799
Speaker 2: You're in a spiral. A spiral has forward momentum outward exactly,

1306
01:13:01,240 --> 01:13:04,519
Speaker 2: but you keep going in cycles to get to that

1307
01:13:04,640 --> 01:13:09,320
Speaker 2: forward momentum. So it is it is an optimistic shape

1308
01:13:09,920 --> 01:13:14,600
Speaker 2: to live life. Yeah, yes, all right, I'll let you

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Speaker 2: get back to your dad's birthday party. But thanks for

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Speaker 2: talking to me.

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Speaker 4: No, I really appreciate it.

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Speaker 2: You want to say to the people at the computer

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01:13:23,080 --> 01:13:23,559
Speaker 2: before we go.

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Speaker 4: I think I said it. I think that was my thing.

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Speaker 4: Just just keep on going. You'll figure something else out soon.

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Speaker 2: Alexis okay, I remember, Okay, I have a good night. Alexis,

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Speaker 2: thank you for calling.

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Speaker 3: Thank you, Lyle.

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Speaker 4: You have a good night too bye.

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Speaker 2: That was Alexis. Well hello, hello, Oh it's the gecko guy.

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Speaker 5: Oh what's up?

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01:13:59,720 --> 01:14:00,320
Speaker 2: What's up with you?

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01:14:00,360 --> 01:14:05,080
Speaker 5: Man? I'm trying to catch these mice?

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Speaker 2: Man, Well, you're with me, you're trying to catch mice? Yeah, okay.

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Speaker 5: For a couple of days.

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Speaker 2: Uh. Can I have some context for this?

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01:14:25,200 --> 01:14:31,080
Speaker 5: Well, we my partner and I moved into a new spot,

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01:14:31,479 --> 01:14:38,439
Speaker 5: new house like two months ago, and uh, yeah the

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01:14:38,520 --> 01:14:46,920
Speaker 5: house was mice. They're running around. Uh. We set out traps.

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Speaker 5: They're not they're not they're not biting at the traps,

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01:14:53,080 --> 01:14:56,080
Speaker 5: and uh we see them like two to three times

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01:14:56,120 --> 01:15:00,240
Speaker 5: a day. It's almost like they're used to us. H.

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Speaker 2: Well, I I have a question, why not just live

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01:15:04,080 --> 01:15:06,559
Speaker 2: with the mice as if they are like your pets

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01:15:06,680 --> 01:15:10,520
Speaker 2: or like, why do you need them gone?

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01:15:11,360 --> 01:15:18,000
Speaker 5: It's a good question. I feel like they're giving me

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01:15:19,000 --> 01:15:28,800
Speaker 5: constant jump scares and that is uncomfortable as I'm just

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01:15:28,880 --> 01:15:31,360
Speaker 5: trying to live my life.

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01:15:32,160 --> 01:15:33,519
Speaker 2: What do you look like when you're just trying to

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01:15:33,520 --> 01:15:35,240
Speaker 2: live your life.

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01:15:35,600 --> 01:15:38,040
Speaker 5: Oh that's a good question.

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Speaker 3: Uh.

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Speaker 5: I cook a lot of food, Uh, which the mice

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01:15:47,760 --> 01:15:52,880
Speaker 5: seems to like. Uh, I'd say that's like one of

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01:15:52,880 --> 01:16:00,400
Speaker 5: my main hobbies. I go out and go on a run.

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01:16:01,800 --> 01:16:10,439
Speaker 5: That's something I've picked up recently, kind of a a

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01:16:10,479 --> 01:16:16,960
Speaker 5: new thing for me. Uh. And then at other times

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01:16:17,160 --> 01:16:20,200
Speaker 5: I go to work. And I guess Thence probably liked

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01:16:20,240 --> 01:16:24,320
Speaker 5: that the best because they get to they get to

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01:16:24,400 --> 01:16:28,880
Speaker 5: run them out without any of destructions.

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Speaker 2: Mm hmm. Okay, well, I mean, is having mice in

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01:16:37,720 --> 01:16:40,439
Speaker 2: your life. It doesn't sound like mice would really interrupt

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01:16:40,439 --> 01:16:42,000
Speaker 2: your life all that much. It sounds like they're just

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01:16:42,040 --> 01:16:42,519
Speaker 2: kind of there.

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01:16:44,080 --> 01:16:50,360
Speaker 5: Yeah, I mean there, it's it's uncomfortable having them around. Sure,

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01:16:51,160 --> 01:16:53,720
Speaker 5: we just had to we had to move all the

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01:16:53,760 --> 01:16:56,920
Speaker 5: food that we had in our sort of like common

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01:16:56,960 --> 01:17:04,679
Speaker 5: space pantry into uh yeah, into our spaces. They leave

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01:17:04,800 --> 01:17:07,840
Speaker 5: the mouse poop everywhere.

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Speaker 2: Okay, And like, why does I don't why does life

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01:17:11,920 --> 01:17:13,719
Speaker 2: have to be so perfect?

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Speaker 3: You know?

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01:17:14,000 --> 01:17:14,680
Speaker 2: Why don't you just.

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01:17:15,560 --> 01:17:16,320
Speaker 5: Know it's real?

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01:17:16,800 --> 01:17:17,240
Speaker 2: Yeah?

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Speaker 5: And I and you know, I think I other places

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Speaker 5: in my life I feel like I'm more accepting of

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01:17:29,240 --> 01:17:35,760
Speaker 5: that imperfection of life. Yeah, But I feel like my

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01:17:36,000 --> 01:17:40,840
Speaker 5: uh my home space, that's like the the one thing

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Speaker 5: that I kind of want to be closer to perfect

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Speaker 5: if possible.

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Speaker 3: I don't know.

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Speaker 2: Yeah, I mean that's life, right, is we We would

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01:17:52,600 --> 01:17:57,360
Speaker 2: like for there to not be mousepoop in our house,

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01:17:59,720 --> 01:18:03,800
Speaker 2: you know, sometimes they're sometimes they're just as mouse poop, Yeah,

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01:18:03,840 --> 01:18:06,679
Speaker 2: our house, so you can't get rid of it, and

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01:18:08,360 --> 01:18:13,240
Speaker 2: sometimes it's sometimes life is about learning to deal with

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01:18:13,360 --> 01:18:15,160
Speaker 2: the mouse poop in your house.

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Speaker 5: Absolutely, no, I uh, I'm with you on that.

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Speaker 3: Uh.

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Speaker 5: Do you have any advice for having mice besides uh?

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01:18:33,479 --> 01:18:40,240
Speaker 5: Besides uh, I don't know the wider general outlooks of

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01:18:40,320 --> 01:18:42,040
Speaker 5: advice that you just gave me. I don't know.

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01:18:41,880 --> 01:18:44,960
Speaker 2: No, if you're looking for like logistical advice on how

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Speaker 2: to get rid of mice from your house, I am

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01:18:47,840 --> 01:18:52,000
Speaker 2: absolutely one of the worst people to ask about that.

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Speaker 3: That's fair.

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01:18:52,800 --> 01:18:53,360
Speaker 5: That's fair.

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01:18:54,120 --> 01:18:55,360
Speaker 2: Is there anything else I want to say to the

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Speaker 2: people of the computer before we go.

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Speaker 5: Oh, nah, I'm gonna I'm gonna leave this one open ended. Okay, Yeah,

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01:19:10,520 --> 01:19:14,240
Speaker 5: thanks Lyle. I appreciate uh, appreciate you calling.

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Speaker 2: For sure you have a good rest of the day.

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01:19:16,320 --> 01:19:17,519
Speaker 5: Thank you you too.

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01:19:17,720 --> 01:19:17,880
Speaker 3: Well.

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Speaker 2: I wouldn't want mice in my house either. I wouldn't.

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01:19:23,920 --> 01:19:27,360
Speaker 2: But if I don't know, yeah, that's life. Sometimes sometimes

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01:19:27,360 --> 01:19:28,760
Speaker 2: you get mice in your house and you can't get

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01:19:28,840 --> 01:19:32,720
Speaker 2: rid of them, and you you can move, you can

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01:19:32,800 --> 01:19:35,400
Speaker 2: call someone who knows how to get rid of mice.

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01:19:35,560 --> 01:19:37,960
Speaker 2: That's what I would do if I were this guy.

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01:19:38,280 --> 01:19:40,960
Speaker 2: I would not have called me for this at all.

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01:19:42,840 --> 01:19:46,000
Speaker 2: But yeah, or you could just be like, all right,

1404
01:19:46,040 --> 01:19:48,840
Speaker 2: that's what's happening to me. I guess you could take it.

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01:19:50,200 --> 01:19:54,000
Speaker 2: Sometimes that's a good strategy. It's a good strategy only

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01:19:54,040 --> 01:19:58,839
Speaker 2: if there's no other practical way to deal with the situation.

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Speaker 2: It's that Napoleon meme. Do you guys know what I'm

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01:20:01,960 --> 01:20:06,120
Speaker 2: talking about. There's like a Napoleon meme that's like, there's

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01:20:06,120 --> 01:20:13,719
Speaker 2: nothing we can do, there's nothing. Hold on, fuck sh

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01:20:14,080 --> 01:20:23,400
Speaker 2: there's something we can do, Napoleon. Yeah. Yeah, I encourage

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01:20:23,400 --> 01:20:25,120
Speaker 2: everyone to look this up. There's nothing we can do.

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01:20:25,240 --> 01:20:29,839
Speaker 2: And I don't know what's the history of this. Okay.

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01:20:30,479 --> 01:20:34,479
Speaker 2: The phrasing bodies hopelessness based on Napoleon's exile to the

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01:20:34,520 --> 01:20:41,639
Speaker 2: island of Saint Helena, where he died. Yeah, sometimes you're

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01:20:41,680 --> 01:20:45,479
Speaker 2: just exiled into having mice in your house and there's

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01:20:45,479 --> 01:20:51,360
Speaker 2: something you can do. There's a Japanese expression for this Shogun,

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01:20:51,400 --> 01:20:57,720
Speaker 2: I Shogun. I hello, folks, it's Lyle here. That's the

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Speaker 7: I found this girl who lives in Pittsburgh, but we

1429
01:21:39,920 --> 01:21:43,559
Speaker 7: go to the same college together in Houston, and they

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01:21:43,560 --> 01:21:45,280
Speaker 7: had a lot of money, and I just went on

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01:21:45,320 --> 01:21:47,880
Speaker 7: this vacation with them. I don't know how to feel,

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01:21:47,920 --> 01:21:51,120
Speaker 7: man like. I've just seen some shit with money, like

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01:21:51,160 --> 01:21:55,360
Speaker 7: they just throw it around, man like. I couldn't comprehend that,

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01:21:55,680 --> 01:21:59,719
Speaker 7: and I guess I get jealous, which turns into anger.

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01:22:00,000 --> 01:22:01,479
Speaker 7: But I want to stay with her because she has money.

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Speaker 2: First of all, Yeah, you're really going to stay with

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01:22:04,600 --> 01:22:05,960
Speaker 2: this girls just because she has money.

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Speaker 3: I love her well, I didn't mean to say it

1439
01:22:10,280 --> 01:22:10,479
Speaker 3: like that.

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Speaker 2: All right, I have nothing else to say.

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Speaker 8: Again, goes on the line, taking your phone calls every nine.

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01:22:33,360 --> 01:22:36,519
Speaker 8: Deacon goes to his I. He's teaching you cloud in

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01:22:36,600 --> 01:22:40,040
Speaker 8: the mean of your life. Money's not really an expert.