WEBVTT - C. J. Sapong Part 2

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<v Speaker 1>This is cut to It with Steve Smith Senior at

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<v Speaker 1>production of The Black Effect and I Heart Radio. I'm

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<v Speaker 1>Steve Smith Senior and I'm a little John and this

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<v Speaker 1>is cut to It. Good do it, Good do it.

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<v Speaker 1>Let's getting down to do it. Good do it. We

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<v Speaker 1>asked the questions you always want to know, but no

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<v Speaker 1>one ever asked, let's cut to it. You ain't heard

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<v Speaker 1>am about it, then we're about to let you know

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<v Speaker 1>it's all coming up. On the cut to It podcast,

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<v Speaker 1>we've got professional soccer player c J. S Pong, the

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<v Speaker 1>MLS Rookie of the Year in eleven. He won an

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<v Speaker 1>MLS Cup in and he's the co founder of the

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<v Speaker 1>Black Players Coalition for MLS. C J Pong on the

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<v Speaker 1>Cut to It podcast. This is Part two with c J.

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<v Speaker 1>Say Pong on why the how soccer just about him

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<v Speaker 1>and what he believes in and in and what he's

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<v Speaker 1>experiencing in soccer. Part one was a lot about his

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<v Speaker 1>h his past and what he experienced and what he

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<v Speaker 1>learned about his his family, his community uh in Ghana.

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<v Speaker 1>But then also now we're talking about his soccer career

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<v Speaker 1>MLS and also too you're here, um what he desired,

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<v Speaker 1>what he likes about soccer and how he wants to

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<v Speaker 1>impact the soccer world. When everything you're going back and forth,

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<v Speaker 1>you have so much heritage oozing out of your family,

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<v Speaker 1>how does that impact you, like as a as a

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<v Speaker 1>high schooler going to college, just really starting to form.

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<v Speaker 1>You're in Virginia, you're kind of dealing with that. You're

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<v Speaker 1>going back and forth every couple of summers, going to Ghana,

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<v Speaker 1>dealing with that, you know, getting embraced and your friends

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<v Speaker 1>and your family tribe, and then you go to Virginia

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<v Speaker 1>and you're playing soccer and all that stuff. It had

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<v Speaker 1>to be, you know, very confusing to switch like that

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<v Speaker 1>so much and experience it's literally like hands and Tales

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<v Speaker 1>of of life for a young man. Yep, yep, you're

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<v Speaker 1>wearing different masks. You know, you're turning up the black situation. Yeah,

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<v Speaker 1>you're turning down the black here, you're turning it up there.

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<v Speaker 1>You're wondering who you are, bro. I didn't really find

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<v Speaker 1>my true nature until probably my third year as a

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<v Speaker 1>professional soccer player. When you say true nature, what are

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<v Speaker 1>you pertaining to? True nature? True nature is my own

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<v Speaker 1>understanding and awareness of my frequency, right like who I

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<v Speaker 1>am and again not consistently robbing myself of who I

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<v Speaker 1>am to make this person comfortable or to sound cool

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<v Speaker 1>on this interview, or you know, like just I found

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<v Speaker 1>myself from an early age, you know, from the first

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<v Speaker 1>time I went to school and somebody made a comment

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<v Speaker 1>about how dark I am compared to everybody else, you know,

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<v Speaker 1>and and I remember my parents telling me I would

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<v Speaker 1>always have to work twice as hard as simply because

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<v Speaker 1>of that, you know, and that led to I mean,

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<v Speaker 1>I I think I was fortunate that I didn't you know,

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<v Speaker 1>I didn't want for nothing, Like most of the things

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<v Speaker 1>that I asked for, I did get, um, but it

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<v Speaker 1>was tough having that childhood uh mental construct just follow

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<v Speaker 1>me up until you know, three years into the league,

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<v Speaker 1>where again I had to go to a dark place

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<v Speaker 1>where you know, we won a championship in my third

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<v Speaker 1>year in the league, and that was like my dream.

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<v Speaker 1>That was my goal, was to win a championship at

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<v Speaker 1>the professional level. And I did it. And then the

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<v Speaker 1>next month you right back at work and it's like, oh,

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<v Speaker 1>we're gonna do it again, and I'm like, damn, I

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<v Speaker 1>didn't even really get to like let that ship marinate,

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<v Speaker 1>Like we gotta do it again. All right, cool, let's

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<v Speaker 1>do it. But then that season didn't go like everybody wanted.

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<v Speaker 1>You know, I wasn't playing as much anymore. I got

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<v Speaker 1>sent to our like minor league team, and and again

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<v Speaker 1>it had me questioning the question that popped up at

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<v Speaker 1>many moments in my life. But I always found something

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<v Speaker 1>to hide it, found something to stifle it. It's like,

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<v Speaker 1>who are you? What are you doing? You know? And

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<v Speaker 1>this is even and this is still after being able

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<v Speaker 1>to go to Africa. You know, I had that moment

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<v Speaker 1>it was true and and ripe for a good you know,

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<v Speaker 1>six months to a year. But then shoot you and

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<v Speaker 1>a America. American life just takes over and it's keeping

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<v Speaker 1>up with the jones is. It's looking cool, it's staying fresh,

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<v Speaker 1>having new kicks. You know. It's like chasing, continuously chasing

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<v Speaker 1>without Like you said, Hope, I don't even know what

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<v Speaker 1>we're chasing for it sometimes, you know, whereas now when

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<v Speaker 1>I say true nature, it's a complete understanding, not even

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<v Speaker 1>just image wise of what I'm trying to create for myself,

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<v Speaker 1>my family and this world, but innate feeling of what

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<v Speaker 1>it's going to bring me. You know. That's what takes

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<v Speaker 1>that to the next level is knowing that, you know,

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<v Speaker 1>right now at the feeling that whether it's fifty sixty

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<v Speaker 1>on a rocking chair, not because I ain't doing ship,

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<v Speaker 1>but just because I'm taking a moment and and understanding

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<v Speaker 1>that in that moment, I have so much to still

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<v Speaker 1>live for, you know, And and that's a very empowering feeling,

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<v Speaker 1>and it it empowers me every day. And I literally

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<v Speaker 1>I got lots of hope, you know, like I got

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<v Speaker 1>the the budget, the plans, the financial goals, all that's

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<v Speaker 1>just you know, written up in documents. So that's that's

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<v Speaker 1>helped me, you know, more centralized, the focus more in

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<v Speaker 1>and now when I leave wherever my my place of

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<v Speaker 1>dwelling is, at that moment, I walk into the day,

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<v Speaker 1>and I walked into the world with my chest high

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<v Speaker 1>and an excitement. Honestly, you go to James Madison University

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<v Speaker 1>and you I read some stuff that that said that

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<v Speaker 1>your decision to go to college was based on education,

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<v Speaker 1>and I'm I kind of chuckled at that because then

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<v Speaker 1>I look at some of the offers that you had

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<v Speaker 1>University of Virginia that that ain't a school for dummies,

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<v Speaker 1>you know, So to take us through that recruiting process

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<v Speaker 1>of how how you came to that decision just to

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<v Speaker 1>choose college, especially after you know what, all this stuff

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<v Speaker 1>that you've experienced so far as a I don't want

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<v Speaker 1>to say African American, African that happened to live in America. Yeah. Yeah,

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<v Speaker 1>the education was a plus, but mostly well one my

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<v Speaker 1>college soccer coach, Uh, may he rest in peace, Tom

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<v Speaker 1>Martin just past. But I owe a lot to this

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<v Speaker 1>man because he told me from the job. Look, I'm

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<v Speaker 1>not gonna tell you you're gonna start. I'm not gonna

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<v Speaker 1>tell you you're sitting on the bench. What I will

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<v Speaker 1>tell you is you have an opportunity to compete. That's

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<v Speaker 1>all I wanted to hear. Virginia they said, yeah, yeah, Virginia.

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<v Speaker 1>They said, oh, we're thinking by your junior year you'll start.

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<v Speaker 1>Other schools were telling me, yeah, we're you know, I

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<v Speaker 1>was a forward. I want to score goals. Other schools

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<v Speaker 1>is telling me, now, you're gonna be a defender here, like, nah,

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<v Speaker 1>don't tell me what you know, don't place parameters on me.

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<v Speaker 1>Allow me to again find myself. And Massive university at

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<v Speaker 1>the time was known for uh yes, they're still known

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<v Speaker 1>for parties, so I know at the time, I'm like,

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<v Speaker 1>they still don't know for parties. I went to community

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<v Speaker 1>college and I had a partner go uh to James

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<v Speaker 1>Madison for linement um there and he talked about it

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<v Speaker 1>so much like bro like because he's from Cali, so

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<v Speaker 1>it was a you know, it's a big step and

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<v Speaker 1>he went out there. He said, oh, I ain't know

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<v Speaker 1>it went down like that. Down it because here's why

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<v Speaker 1>you got the rejects that can't go to Virginia and

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<v Speaker 1>then you have Blacksburg. You got Virginia Tech, and then

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<v Speaker 1>James Madison's like it's right in the middle. It's it's

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<v Speaker 1>like second base. You got first base and then's second

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<v Speaker 1>basis James Madison, I ain't gonna appreciate your calling them

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<v Speaker 1>rejects though, Bro, I'm just calling it. Bro. You noticed

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<v Speaker 1>another reject school, South Carolina because they say the USC

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<v Speaker 1>you ain't us, You're the University of South Carolina. Now

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<v Speaker 1>you're really about It's true though I didn't go to

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<v Speaker 1>either one. But I'm just telling you, yeah, no, not

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<v Speaker 1>that that was a big thing for me is the

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<v Speaker 1>I knew I was gonna again. The other schools was like, yeah, here,

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<v Speaker 1>we do a dry season, no alcohol during the season.

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<v Speaker 1>You know, different guys like that were hit. Yeah, you

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<v Speaker 1>gotta be wet to dry out. Yeah eleven, you were

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<v Speaker 1>drafted tenth overall, so you're in the top ten pick.

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<v Speaker 1>Take us through because football being a top ten pick, man,

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<v Speaker 1>it is a circus. It is a circus. So you know,

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<v Speaker 1>obviously MLS does not have that much eyes as the NFL.

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<v Speaker 1>But y'all, but you got a little bit. Take us

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<v Speaker 1>through that. What the what the soccer circus was for

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<v Speaker 1>you being a top ten pick? You know, it's interesting.

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<v Speaker 1>I had a very different experience than most guys that

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<v Speaker 1>go top ten. I went to a team. Uh the coach,

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<v Speaker 1>he didn't he didn't care what the number you ain't.

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<v Speaker 1>I still had to try out. You know, every other

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<v Speaker 1>player in the top ten had a had a contract

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<v Speaker 1>before they even stepped on the field. I had to

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<v Speaker 1>go through a month and a half the preseason before

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<v Speaker 1>I even saw it. Why why do you not get

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<v Speaker 1>a guarantee being number ten? Well one, I didn't have

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<v Speaker 1>a good agent. Uh yeah that was that was because

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<v Speaker 1>I was a what you call, I guess somewhat of

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<v Speaker 1>a sleeper coming up So it wasn't until I was

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<v Speaker 1>at the combine that I realized I had a strong

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<v Speaker 1>opportunity of getting picked in a whole bunch of agents

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<v Speaker 1>where like in my face. And I ended up going

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<v Speaker 1>with a guy that was like from where I lived,

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<v Speaker 1>and he made it seem like he he really knew

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<v Speaker 1>what he was doing, but he really didn't. And so

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<v Speaker 1>they actually try to get me on like a on

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<v Speaker 1>a reserve contract, which basically means it's like a practice

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<v Speaker 1>squad contract. They try to finesse me hard. But you know,

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<v Speaker 1>I I actually have always excelled in those positions, whether

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<v Speaker 1>it's being an underdog or continuously having to to grind

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<v Speaker 1>and work towards something. Um, because I could safely say

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<v Speaker 1>I earned my contract my first contract in this league.

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<v Speaker 1>There's guys that have gone number one, number two, never

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<v Speaker 1>even played a professional game, you know, out of the league.

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<v Speaker 1>And two to three years you said the combine. Should

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<v Speaker 1>they have a combine for for these players or what

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<v Speaker 1>is that entail? Yeah? Man, I think it's different structure now.

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<v Speaker 1>But for me, if you call it a combine, I mean, bro,

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<v Speaker 1>we played three scrimmages, right, We did a forty yard dash,

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<v Speaker 1>we did a vertical test and I think like a

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<v Speaker 1>shuttle runner. And that was a combine. You know. So

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<v Speaker 1>the teams did they interview you? Yeah? Every Yeah, the

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<v Speaker 1>teams interview you. You know, you're at the little resort

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<v Speaker 1>and every every day you gotta you know, a list

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<v Speaker 1>of appointments if you will. And that was a wild, wild,

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<v Speaker 1>wild experience for me. Um, But I do think I

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<v Speaker 1>what I was. I definitely gained points with how I spoke.

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<v Speaker 1>You know, I had the feeling that I wasn't that

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<v Speaker 1>typical black man that that a lot of these guys

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<v Speaker 1>were expecting. I don't want to say it's sad to say,

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<v Speaker 1>but you guys know how it is. You can feel

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<v Speaker 1>I want to I want I don't know what you mean,

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<v Speaker 1>but yo yo yo, talk about talk about it, don't. Yeah.

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<v Speaker 1>So it's like you, you know, you're sitting down and um,

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<v Speaker 1>once you start having the conversation and you, I guess,

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<v Speaker 1>articulate what's on your mind, or you use a uh

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<v Speaker 1>quote unquote big word or fancy word here and there,

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<v Speaker 1>and then you get the the little raised either or

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<v Speaker 1>the wow you speaks to speak so well, Yes, exactly,

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<v Speaker 1>exactly exactly. That's how they do and then it's interesting

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<v Speaker 1>for me because I think my first year that's what

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<v Speaker 1>made me very marketable as well, because oh it snap

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<v Speaker 1>number ten pick right. I wasn't giving a hype as

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<v Speaker 1>you know, right off the bat, but when you know,

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<v Speaker 1>my first game, I scored two minutes into the game,

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<v Speaker 1>so then like yeah, hell yeah. So they're like okay

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<v Speaker 1>a little bit and then they interview it. Yeah, you

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<v Speaker 1>know the interview, I not only showed personality, but I

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<v Speaker 1>was able to articulate, you know, how I was feeling,

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<v Speaker 1>how the plays, uh that led up to me scoring,

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<v Speaker 1>you know, stuff like that, and that's when they're like okay,

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<v Speaker 1>and then they asked me to do the interviews here

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<v Speaker 1>they're everywhere, you know, and like again that I've heard

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<v Speaker 1>the damn he speaks so well. Well, so it's such

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<v Speaker 1>a well spoken kid. You know, you were such an exactly,

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<v Speaker 1>and like that's a little aspect where people don't realize, like,

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<v Speaker 1>damn sure you in that result of being a well

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<v Speaker 1>spoken having that charisma, being able to have the game

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<v Speaker 1>to back it up, you became rookie of the year. Yes, yes, sir,

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<v Speaker 1>yes sir, you become rookie of the Year. Let me

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<v Speaker 1>pause for a little bit, though, because I've had this UM.

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<v Speaker 1>I had this enlightenment when you really think of about it.

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<v Speaker 1>Um of sometimes sports really mimics because right next to

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<v Speaker 1>my question, I have Kate Coast and it enlights me

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<v Speaker 1>to understanding like sports, A lot of the sports, a

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<v Speaker 1>lot of athletes are people of color. And the combine

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<v Speaker 1>is almost like the slave trade. And let's go down

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<v Speaker 1>memory lane, because you bring all of these individuals, you

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<v Speaker 1>put them on the airplane, and you heard them into

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<v Speaker 1>one centralized location. And then you have all other people

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<v Speaker 1>that are coming in and they examine you. They they

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<v Speaker 1>prod you. They see, let me see how strong this

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<v Speaker 1>boy is. Let's see how strong you are. Can you

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<v Speaker 1>carry the work loan? Do you have the mental capacity?

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<v Speaker 1>What is his his deficiencies? And what is his attributes?

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<v Speaker 1>And then they all they have a draft, and was

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<v Speaker 1>the draft? If someone likes you, what did they do?

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<v Speaker 1>They barter with someone else to move up to get

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<v Speaker 1>their special workload, and they examine you and they look

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<v Speaker 1>at you, and then they decide what's your value, and

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<v Speaker 1>then they get you and they take you off. And

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<v Speaker 1>I had that. I was I was kind of nearing

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<v Speaker 1>my end of my career. And I was at the

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<v Speaker 1>combine and I bumped into a kid and he was hurt.

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<v Speaker 1>He was being herded in at the combine. I'm like, bro,

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<v Speaker 1>this is mom to day slavery. And I didn't really

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<v Speaker 1>see it that way. Now, somebody listening and say, really, Steve,

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<v Speaker 1>mother and day slavery, right, you you really saying? All

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<v Speaker 1>I'm saying is it just really has something very familiar

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<v Speaker 1>with people coming into a place and bidding on God

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<v Speaker 1>and and and the differences that we are free and

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<v Speaker 1>we have the opportunity to choose to participate in that.

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<v Speaker 1>But one of the unique things not everybody does. Right. So,

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<v Speaker 1>as I side tracked on that, I go back to

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<v Speaker 1>Rookie of the Year. What did that success due to

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<v Speaker 1>your mind? So early on, six seven months after getting drafted. Um, Honestly,

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<v Speaker 1>it was very humbling because it was, like I said,

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<v Speaker 1>it wasn't easy for me. Um, it didn't necessarily come naturally.

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<v Speaker 1>It came from a lot of sacrifice, a lot of effort. Um.

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<v Speaker 1>So I couldn't help but just really feel grounded in

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<v Speaker 1>and knowing that all the work that I have put

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<v Speaker 1>into the game, all the you know, nightouts with the

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<v Speaker 1>homies that I missed to go because I knew how

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<v Speaker 1>a soccer game the next day. It made me really

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<v Speaker 1>feel Uh but was that a sacrifice or was that

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<v Speaker 1>you try you changing and becoming a professional in your

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<v Speaker 1>own dedication. Because some people say sacrifice, You're like, well,

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<v Speaker 1>how you can you sacrifice this your job? So was

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<v Speaker 1>it a really the sacrifice or was it just you

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<v Speaker 1>locking in saying if I really because you weren't given

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<v Speaker 1>the success, You weren't giving that big contract you have

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<v Speaker 1>to earn your contract. They like you said, they made

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<v Speaker 1>you try out as the tenth overall pick. Oh hey, bro,

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<v Speaker 1>I was saying it was sacrifice when I was younger,

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<v Speaker 1>when I was a pro, like my first year, I

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<v Speaker 1>obviously I was learning to be a good pro, but

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<v Speaker 1>I also have me a good time. I actually think

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<v Speaker 1>that had a good Uh. That had a strong bearing

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<v Speaker 1>all my success too, because it while I wanted to,

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<v Speaker 1>you know, perform for my team, I also so consciously

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<v Speaker 1>understood the importance of being loose and being happy and

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<v Speaker 1>you know, not confining myself or boxing myself in into

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<v Speaker 1>again a mental construct of what I have to do

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<v Speaker 1>to be good. Right people, will you see players, they're

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<v Speaker 1>real strict with the diet. You know, Um, they don't

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<v Speaker 1>leave a house. They're playing the Xbox and Whatnotum, just

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<v Speaker 1>to stay in a crib. Whereas me, like I was

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<v Speaker 1>stepping out, I was, you know, seeing stuff in the city. Uh,

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<v Speaker 1>this was Kansas City, and that is I believe that

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<v Speaker 1>that's dope though, because you don't you don't really don't

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<v Speaker 1>hear a lot of athletes saying I enjoy I had

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<v Speaker 1>I had fun that I never really heard that before.

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<v Speaker 1>I'm eating, breathing shocker. Yeah. Yeah. And I mean I

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<v Speaker 1>had good guys around me too. I had a lot

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<v Speaker 1>of brothers, I had a lot of Uh. I had

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<v Speaker 1>one of my best friends still to this day, Kakumara,

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<v Speaker 1>he from Sierra Leone. So he understood. You know that

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<v Speaker 1>that culture aspect um that I've been talking with you

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<v Speaker 1>guys about, you know, was able to kind of keep

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<v Speaker 1>me honed in on one. Yes, like we are professionals

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<v Speaker 1>and we we gotta perform, but at the same time,

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<v Speaker 1>our families and what we've come from and the things

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<v Speaker 1>that we've gone through to be here right now in America,

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<v Speaker 1>we came here to enjoy too. You know it it's

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<v Speaker 1>not so well It shouldn't solely just be a job,

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<v Speaker 1>right you You do hear of countries where families and

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<v Speaker 1>members have to come to America to find a better

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<v Speaker 1>life and and they and they slave away at the

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<v Speaker 1>end of it. But they need to be able to

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<v Speaker 1>find a time to enjoy. Um, you know what they're

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<v Speaker 1>what they're living in, and what they're doing. Otherwise, what

0:21:05.359 --> 0:21:08.040
<v Speaker 1>is the point of this all? We have to take

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<v Speaker 1>Podcast dot Com. Let's talk ball and for you, ball's

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<v Speaker 1>soccer and some kids out there listening, how do they

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<v Speaker 1>become a professional soccer player? How to become a professional

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<v Speaker 1>soccer player? Well, I think it starts with you know

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<v Speaker 1>how bad you want it? Man? And I think you

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<v Speaker 1>hear that a lot. But the next step is what

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<v Speaker 1>is a kid willing to do to become a professional

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<v Speaker 1>soccer player? Do they? Are they training an extra thirty

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<v Speaker 1>minutes after practice? Are they you know, ensuring that the

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<v Speaker 1>food that they're putting in their body is gonna maximize

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<v Speaker 1>their their performance the next day? Are they visualizing and

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<v Speaker 1>envisioning you know those moments? Uh, it's it's it's not

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<v Speaker 1>cookie there's no cookie cutter way too to it, you know,

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<v Speaker 1>Like I think it's it's all within your heart and

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<v Speaker 1>your passion and believing that you are not necessarily it's

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<v Speaker 1>not like, oh, believe it and you will achieve. You

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<v Speaker 1>need a form of belief, but you need a form

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<v Speaker 1>of action because that that cliche, you know, it's and

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<v Speaker 1>it sounds good, right like guys believe and you will achieve.

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<v Speaker 1>It's like, okay, that's one part of it. You can

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<v Speaker 1>believe it exactly. And that's that's where I think if

0:23:20.840 --> 0:23:23.359
<v Speaker 1>we as you know, us as adults, can kind of

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<v Speaker 1>instill that if the kids will start to see, you know,

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<v Speaker 1>especially within our community, you'll start to see a lot

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<v Speaker 1>more athletes, not justin basketball or football, but like soccer,

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<v Speaker 1>uh lacrosse, baseball. You know, understanding that there are other

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<v Speaker 1>sports and other avenues in which we as people can

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<v Speaker 1>utilize our strengths. So my my son gave me this.

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<v Speaker 1>My son used to play soccer, blew out his knee,

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<v Speaker 1>and I asked him, give me something I can ask

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<v Speaker 1>c J. He said, you know, Dad, because he was

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<v Speaker 1>a forward, but because he uh, he played on the

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<v Speaker 1>soccer team that um, they couldn't really feed him the

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<v Speaker 1>way he need to be fed. But he was a

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<v Speaker 1>great distributor. But then when he got to college, he

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<v Speaker 1>struggled because he played so much as a center mid.

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<v Speaker 1>He struggled to play the right back or the forward.

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<v Speaker 1>He could he because he mentally and physically his muscle

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<v Speaker 1>memory was giving other people opportunities to create for them

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<v Speaker 1>that he could not have the ability. He didn't know

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<v Speaker 1>how to switch it over to conversion. Yeah, he couldn't

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<v Speaker 1>create his own shop. So he he asked me to

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<v Speaker 1>ask you, which was really cool, especially for him because

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<v Speaker 1>he doesn't he's still in that stage where he's he's

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<v Speaker 1>being vulnerable with his dad, but he doesn't want the

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<v Speaker 1>I told you so to come out of my mouth.

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<v Speaker 1>And I tried very hard not to give him that,

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<v Speaker 1>but it was really transparent on his He says, what

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<v Speaker 1>do you do when him teammates or coaches seem to

0:25:04.000 --> 0:25:09.080
<v Speaker 1>lose confidence in you? How do you stake self confidence?

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<v Speaker 1>I think for that one, that's where as a as

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<v Speaker 1>an individual, you gotta get really creative, man, because look,

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<v Speaker 1>the tricky part of that is if you're looking for

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<v Speaker 1>that confidence from that confidence you get from your teammates

0:25:26.000 --> 0:25:28.880
<v Speaker 1>and your coach should just be the sprinkles. You need

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<v Speaker 1>to have it within your own self. And I I

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<v Speaker 1>personally know because of a lot of times in my

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<v Speaker 1>career I was looking for that and when I didn't

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<v Speaker 1>get it, it affected my performance. That's when I went

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<v Speaker 1>back to the lab and I just it's repetition. We

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<v Speaker 1>as athletes. If again, if he was playing college soccer,

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<v Speaker 1>he's smart enough in the game to know what his

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<v Speaker 1>strengths and what his weaknesses are, that's where you have

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<v Speaker 1>to say, you know what, all right, that I'm gonna

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<v Speaker 1>go back to my personal lab and I'm gonna find

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<v Speaker 1>all the things that I don't do right, I'm gonna

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<v Speaker 1>do each fifty times. I'm gonna do each a hundred times.

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<v Speaker 1>You know. That's like you said, muscle memory. The thing is,

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<v Speaker 1>when you get to college and professional you are now

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<v Speaker 1>the block that they're trying to fit into the into

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<v Speaker 1>the whole. You could be a square block. They try

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<v Speaker 1>to put you in a circle like they are doing

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<v Speaker 1>what they are doing to ensure that the team wins,

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<v Speaker 1>and that they win. They're not about that mortgage day

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<v Speaker 1>and out there coaching individuals to make them better, you know.

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<v Speaker 1>So at the end of the day, if we are

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<v Speaker 1>looking to them for validation, we're ultimately going to be

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<v Speaker 1>in a Yes, it might work out for a little bit,

0:26:41.960 --> 0:26:45.200
<v Speaker 1>but I've seen with guys that are not playing now

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<v Speaker 1>are even looking for that in their workspaces, you know.

0:26:48.440 --> 0:26:51.840
<v Speaker 1>And it's just a dangerous circle or cycle to get

0:26:51.920 --> 0:26:55.960
<v Speaker 1>lost in when you're continuously looking for confidence from other people.

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<v Speaker 1>So that's that's the best I can give, because I

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<v Speaker 1>also know in doing that and relying on yourself, you

0:27:06.000 --> 0:27:08.280
<v Speaker 1>will be able to take that into other things in

0:27:08.320 --> 0:27:11.080
<v Speaker 1>your life will be successful. I guess when I say

0:27:11.119 --> 0:27:15.399
<v Speaker 1>teammates because I have seen it right. You could be

0:27:15.440 --> 0:27:20.480
<v Speaker 1>on the pitch and you know in basketball, shoot or shoot,

0:27:20.800 --> 0:27:23.040
<v Speaker 1>whether you how to code, it's the only way to

0:27:23.040 --> 0:27:25.040
<v Speaker 1>come out of it where you how to cold. If

0:27:25.080 --> 0:27:28.239
<v Speaker 1>you're a shooter, the center is not gonna take that

0:27:28.359 --> 0:27:31.160
<v Speaker 1>three if if, if the shooter is at the three

0:27:31.160 --> 0:27:33.679
<v Speaker 1>point in the baseline wide open, he's not he's not

0:27:33.680 --> 0:27:36.280
<v Speaker 1>even gonna dunk it because that's three two and three.

0:27:36.600 --> 0:27:40.320
<v Speaker 1>Don't don't add we're gonna get that three point. But

0:27:40.440 --> 0:27:46.000
<v Speaker 1>when you're a forward, you know you're judged on on shots. Right.

0:27:47.280 --> 0:27:49.520
<v Speaker 1>It's always funny as you know, I know, learn this

0:27:49.720 --> 0:27:59.919
<v Speaker 1>soccer lingo. Oh that's unlucky, brom. I'm the one who's

0:28:00.040 --> 0:28:02.520
<v Speaker 1>soccer games for so long. They'd be like, that's unlucky.

0:28:02.520 --> 0:28:05.639
<v Speaker 1>And I'm a football guy, right, I'm a realist too.

0:28:05.720 --> 0:28:08.000
<v Speaker 1>I'm like, now they ain't lucky. That boy just got

0:28:09.680 --> 0:28:15.400
<v Speaker 1>got bullied off the ball missed. I'm like the goal

0:28:15.480 --> 0:28:24.879
<v Speaker 1>had been in the same spot. Oh day, unlucky, unlucky.

0:28:25.119 --> 0:28:29.119
<v Speaker 1>You're right, you're right, bro, Like he missed that damn

0:28:29.160 --> 0:28:36.160
<v Speaker 1>go by. What are you talking about? Yeah, m lucky,

0:28:37.080 --> 0:28:43.280
<v Speaker 1>Johnny's awful. That's the thing with soccer in this country

0:28:43.280 --> 0:28:47.160
<v Speaker 1>because you know, it's such a and I'm not arguing

0:28:47.600 --> 0:28:50.920
<v Speaker 1>either way here, but that's where it is different than

0:28:50.960 --> 0:28:54.320
<v Speaker 1>like a football and basketball, because soccer is more of that,

0:28:54.400 --> 0:28:58.280
<v Speaker 1>you know, participatory sport and it's about working in the

0:28:58.440 --> 0:29:02.080
<v Speaker 1>group and everybody, everybody gets to play, you know. So

0:29:02.280 --> 0:29:07.640
<v Speaker 1>because that's the foundation, you see it in later stages

0:29:07.720 --> 0:29:14.120
<v Speaker 1>to yeah, yeah, how do you handle because you're saying,

0:29:14.120 --> 0:29:17.200
<v Speaker 1>get back to the lab, you know, maintain your own

0:29:17.200 --> 0:29:20.680
<v Speaker 1>self confidence, you know, working out it get you know,

0:29:20.960 --> 0:29:24.240
<v Speaker 1>you gotta get tricky, you know, with your own self.

0:29:24.280 --> 0:29:26.960
<v Speaker 1>You gotta do that drill fifty to a hundred times

0:29:27.000 --> 0:29:31.800
<v Speaker 1>a day. But what happens when your actual teammates start

0:29:31.880 --> 0:29:36.640
<v Speaker 1>to see that brother ain't unlucky day, that brother just

0:29:36.840 --> 0:29:42.840
<v Speaker 1>off and then they start to pass around you. You're

0:29:43.240 --> 0:29:46.440
<v Speaker 1>you're you're a forward. The ball must go to you,

0:29:47.440 --> 0:29:49.800
<v Speaker 1>and that it's not going to you. How do you

0:29:49.880 --> 0:29:53.280
<v Speaker 1>handle when your teammates have lost confidence in you they're

0:29:53.280 --> 0:29:57.280
<v Speaker 1>passing around you? There the coaches, you know, ball still

0:29:57.320 --> 0:29:59.680
<v Speaker 1>in playing you can see your backup and starting to

0:29:59.720 --> 0:30:02.960
<v Speaker 1>warm them up, right, you know, y'all doing that little

0:30:03.000 --> 0:30:06.719
<v Speaker 1>patent kick butt kickers on the side here, you know,

0:30:07.320 --> 0:30:10.200
<v Speaker 1>how do you not peek over? You know, in a

0:30:10.240 --> 0:30:12.120
<v Speaker 1>corner of your eye you see that you're about to

0:30:12.120 --> 0:30:16.840
<v Speaker 1>be replaced. Ye, you can't, You don't, bro I've even

0:30:16.880 --> 0:30:21.160
<v Speaker 1>gone through that as a pro my last year in

0:30:21.240 --> 0:30:24.520
<v Speaker 1>Chicago and ended up coming out that this guy and

0:30:24.640 --> 0:30:28.320
<v Speaker 1>his wife were racist. So I got some closure and

0:30:28.480 --> 0:30:31.560
<v Speaker 1>understanding why. But there's this guy on the field. Man,

0:30:31.600 --> 0:30:35.160
<v Speaker 1>I'm making the best possible runs I can make. I'm

0:30:35.160 --> 0:30:38.280
<v Speaker 1>sitting in positions to score open goals, and this dude

0:30:38.320 --> 0:30:42.200
<v Speaker 1>just wouldn't pass me, wouldn't pass, wouldn't passed? Whenn't passing?

0:30:42.280 --> 0:30:44.719
<v Speaker 1>Like I'm in my head like damn, Like what am

0:30:44.760 --> 0:30:48.840
<v Speaker 1>I doing wrong? Right? And I'm coiling up clips and

0:30:48.880 --> 0:30:51.880
<v Speaker 1>showing it to the coaches asking them, Hey, what can

0:30:51.920 --> 0:30:55.520
<v Speaker 1>I do better here? And you know they're giving Honestly,

0:30:55.520 --> 0:30:58.120
<v Speaker 1>they were giving me fu answers because they knew what

0:30:58.200 --> 0:30:59.880
<v Speaker 1>the deal was. At the end of the day, I

0:31:00.160 --> 0:31:05.200
<v Speaker 1>missed them, and I've been I've been pretty alert. What

0:31:05.200 --> 0:31:09.840
<v Speaker 1>what did I miss? What did they know? They knew?

0:31:09.920 --> 0:31:13.200
<v Speaker 1>Man's with racist? But this this, that's a whole another story. Well,

0:31:13.960 --> 0:31:20.840
<v Speaker 1>there's my pocket, don't you dropped there? Let's let'sten handle

0:31:20.960 --> 0:31:25.000
<v Speaker 1>and I've bo I ain't picking up them bread chrome

0:31:26.160 --> 0:31:30.000
<v Speaker 1>all the way back to doctors Wilderness. What what what

0:31:30.160 --> 0:31:33.640
<v Speaker 1>you're talking about? You said, Yeah, keep over, we just

0:31:33.720 --> 0:31:37.480
<v Speaker 1>skip over. But I'm I'm in here no, because it all,

0:31:37.600 --> 0:31:40.400
<v Speaker 1>it all does what it does, circle back to and

0:31:41.480 --> 0:31:44.400
<v Speaker 1>essentially what can be done in those moments. Right. So

0:31:44.440 --> 0:31:47.080
<v Speaker 1>I got traded to Chicago Fire at the beginning of

0:31:47.120 --> 0:31:50.280
<v Speaker 1>two thousand nineteen. I came to a team that had

0:31:50.480 --> 0:31:54.160
<v Speaker 1>a striker who scored I want to say, like eighteen

0:31:54.160 --> 0:32:01.480
<v Speaker 1>goals the season before. Um, they had another guy, you came, Yeah,

0:32:01.680 --> 0:32:06.320
<v Speaker 1>so I came, that's called competition. Yeah, exactly, it's healthy.

0:32:06.920 --> 0:32:13.240
<v Speaker 1>Um yeah. So I was fortunate because the first game

0:32:13.240 --> 0:32:17.040
<v Speaker 1>of the season, that striker, uh, congrats and him had

0:32:17.080 --> 0:32:20.560
<v Speaker 1>a child and so he missed the first game, and

0:32:20.640 --> 0:32:23.440
<v Speaker 1>so I stepped in. I end up scoring in our

0:32:23.520 --> 0:32:27.480
<v Speaker 1>in my first game with the team. So I just built.

0:32:27.680 --> 0:32:30.160
<v Speaker 1>I just went off of that momentum, and you know,

0:32:30.240 --> 0:32:32.880
<v Speaker 1>I scored within I think the next like eight or

0:32:32.960 --> 0:32:35.360
<v Speaker 1>nine games, I probably had like four or five goals.

0:32:36.440 --> 0:32:41.520
<v Speaker 1>And so like, it's weird because I want I felt

0:32:41.520 --> 0:32:44.160
<v Speaker 1>I want to say I felt it. And when I

0:32:44.200 --> 0:32:46.960
<v Speaker 1>say I felt it, it was the discomfort with me,

0:32:47.520 --> 0:32:50.800
<v Speaker 1>just me as a person in this locker room. Um,

0:32:50.840 --> 0:32:54.280
<v Speaker 1>my team in Philadelphia, which was my previous team, had brothers,

0:32:54.360 --> 0:32:58.920
<v Speaker 1>go Lore, we had Islanders, we had um some dudes

0:32:58.920 --> 0:33:02.400
<v Speaker 1>from the Caribbean, we had Africans, lots of brothers. It

0:33:02.560 --> 0:33:05.680
<v Speaker 1>was five we dancing in the locker room. And then

0:33:06.240 --> 0:33:09.080
<v Speaker 1>with in Chicago, I was one of two in the

0:33:09.360 --> 0:33:13.040
<v Speaker 1>locker room. How many owners squad like reserve? Oh yeah,

0:33:16.000 --> 0:33:22.880
<v Speaker 1>let and so there's twenty people that are not of

0:33:23.000 --> 0:33:29.280
<v Speaker 1>different descent historically they all look the same. Well, there's

0:33:29.320 --> 0:33:34.720
<v Speaker 1>some Hispanics in there, you know, but there's mostly uh

0:33:34.880 --> 0:33:39.360
<v Speaker 1>like white boys, Eastern on this particular team, it was

0:33:39.440 --> 0:33:47.800
<v Speaker 1>Eastern European like pol In, uh, Serbia, h you know, German. Yeah, yeah, exactly.

0:33:47.880 --> 0:33:50.880
<v Speaker 1>C J. Did that experience help shape and lead you

0:33:51.000 --> 0:33:55.680
<v Speaker 1>to form the Black Players Coalition for the MLS? Oh yeah,

0:33:55.760 --> 0:33:58.080
<v Speaker 1>oh yeah, that was one of the That was one

0:33:58.080 --> 0:34:00.680
<v Speaker 1>of the stories because we're not we had because I'm

0:34:00.720 --> 0:34:03.120
<v Speaker 1>on the board, right, So we had a call with

0:34:03.160 --> 0:34:08.319
<v Speaker 1>our commissioner and all the coaches in the league, and

0:34:08.360 --> 0:34:10.680
<v Speaker 1>you know, to be fair, like they don't know what

0:34:10.760 --> 0:34:13.520
<v Speaker 1>they don't know, they've just been a lot of people

0:34:13.520 --> 0:34:16.799
<v Speaker 1>who have just been blind to it. You know, they

0:34:16.840 --> 0:34:19.960
<v Speaker 1>they made the mistake of asking us like where we

0:34:20.040 --> 0:34:24.920
<v Speaker 1>actually experienced racism or systemic injustice, And I mean we

0:34:25.040 --> 0:34:28.200
<v Speaker 1>all went down the line and we gave them, you know,

0:34:28.280 --> 0:34:31.239
<v Speaker 1>they they experiences and the examples. And for me that

0:34:31.320 --> 0:34:34.440
<v Speaker 1>was a big one because I'm on a team, I'm

0:34:34.440 --> 0:34:38.000
<v Speaker 1>trying to win and my man's was literally refusing to

0:34:38.320 --> 0:34:40.600
<v Speaker 1>pass me the ball when it put us in positions

0:34:40.600 --> 0:34:44.480
<v Speaker 1>to win. And regardless of color, if you're a coach

0:34:44.920 --> 0:34:48.520
<v Speaker 1>or a fan or whatnot, when you if you see that,

0:34:49.760 --> 0:34:52.319
<v Speaker 1>I believe it should be called out, not if not

0:34:52.520 --> 0:34:55.440
<v Speaker 1>for the racism, for the sheer fact that we have

0:34:55.560 --> 0:34:58.359
<v Speaker 1>all put on this jersey with this crest to win

0:34:58.800 --> 0:35:01.239
<v Speaker 1>and because of you and a bullshit or whatever is

0:35:01.280 --> 0:35:05.800
<v Speaker 1>in your your head, you are now restricting the team

0:35:06.239 --> 0:35:11.480
<v Speaker 1>or being uh hindrance upon our success. Yeah, And it

0:35:11.600 --> 0:35:13.680
<v Speaker 1>was just outrageous to me that it went on for

0:35:13.760 --> 0:35:17.120
<v Speaker 1>as long as it did. How was that meeting with

0:35:17.160 --> 0:35:20.040
<v Speaker 1>all the other players with the coaches to bring them together,

0:35:20.080 --> 0:35:23.400
<v Speaker 1>to bring you all together? Did did you feel like

0:35:23.440 --> 0:35:26.080
<v Speaker 1>the coaches were listening or did you feel like y'all

0:35:26.080 --> 0:35:30.880
<v Speaker 1>were just like it was a bit session right here. Yeah, man,

0:35:31.080 --> 0:35:33.719
<v Speaker 1>it felt it felt real in the moment, but then

0:35:33.760 --> 0:35:37.200
<v Speaker 1>as things you know, have transpired, I feel like it

0:35:37.320 --> 0:35:40.080
<v Speaker 1>was just it was just a little session. And you know,

0:35:40.200 --> 0:35:44.040
<v Speaker 1>people get on. Yeah they said, oh well we listened

0:35:44.120 --> 0:35:47.960
<v Speaker 1>to you guys, we hear you, okay, and we're gonna

0:35:48.000 --> 0:35:52.120
<v Speaker 1>do better. But then, you know, everything is the old

0:35:52.160 --> 0:35:56.239
<v Speaker 1>status quo. You know, like we shoot for instance us

0:35:56.320 --> 0:35:59.760
<v Speaker 1>we we may whole black lives matters, Black lives matters,

0:35:59.880 --> 0:36:03.359
<v Speaker 1>or for our little bubble tournament. And now you know

0:36:03.520 --> 0:36:08.120
<v Speaker 1>already people you know within the league there, Oh, we

0:36:08.120 --> 0:36:10.560
<v Speaker 1>don't need those shirts anymore. We gotta let our sponsor,

0:36:10.600 --> 0:36:13.359
<v Speaker 1>Our sponsors have to be seen. Guys, come on, like,

0:36:13.840 --> 0:36:15.560
<v Speaker 1>you know, we've got to keep on. We gotta go

0:36:15.640 --> 0:36:19.560
<v Speaker 1>with regularly scheduled program like damn, like y'all gave us

0:36:19.600 --> 0:36:22.200
<v Speaker 1>to three weeks and thought that was there, Hunt, you

0:36:23.280 --> 0:36:27.160
<v Speaker 1>got your black history in June and July. Yeah, you know,

0:36:27.239 --> 0:36:31.319
<v Speaker 1>February come around the corner, now, run along, man. Oh man,

0:36:31.400 --> 0:36:33.840
<v Speaker 1>It's it's sad and and and it shows how deep

0:36:34.400 --> 0:36:38.000
<v Speaker 1>the injustice is. It's it's really really deep, man. And

0:36:38.600 --> 0:36:41.399
<v Speaker 1>you know, whether it's that situation or a situation where

0:36:41.440 --> 0:36:45.360
<v Speaker 1>players literally willing to put his team in a position

0:36:46.120 --> 0:36:49.839
<v Speaker 1>to lose. It's something that I think is gonna take

0:36:49.880 --> 0:36:54.360
<v Speaker 1>a long time. But you know, us having these conversations

0:36:54.960 --> 0:36:56.960
<v Speaker 1>is the is the is the way to start it.

0:36:56.960 --> 0:36:59.640
<v Speaker 1>It's gonna take a minute. But if we can't have

0:36:59.760 --> 0:37:03.640
<v Speaker 1>these conversations, and like you said, invoked some cringe and

0:37:03.760 --> 0:37:08.040
<v Speaker 1>some visceral reactions and it definitely is not going to change.

0:37:08.440 --> 0:37:11.520
<v Speaker 1>So what has happened to the individual that you're speaking about?

0:37:11.600 --> 0:37:14.200
<v Speaker 1>You know, you I cut you off, but I wanted

0:37:14.200 --> 0:37:19.359
<v Speaker 1>to say I didn't want to for the store. Now

0:37:19.480 --> 0:37:24.239
<v Speaker 1>moving forward, you know you saw you just weren't the

0:37:24.280 --> 0:37:28.799
<v Speaker 1>person complaining. He moved on to another team and then

0:37:28.840 --> 0:37:34.400
<v Speaker 1>what happened? Yeah, so he went on to another team

0:37:34.719 --> 0:37:39.400
<v Speaker 1>hit when the uh situation with George Floyd happened, and

0:37:39.719 --> 0:37:43.480
<v Speaker 1>you know, there are protests all around the country. His

0:37:43.640 --> 0:37:50.960
<v Speaker 1>wife actually posted something on Instagram was a picture because

0:37:50.960 --> 0:37:53.239
<v Speaker 1>you know there's a lot of looting. She found a

0:37:53.280 --> 0:37:56.400
<v Speaker 1>picture of some black people in front of the store,

0:37:56.560 --> 0:38:00.080
<v Speaker 1>some had some shoes in their hands running and you

0:38:01.120 --> 0:38:07.000
<v Speaker 1>posted in serbian, oh black lives or black Nikes matter guys,

0:38:08.040 --> 0:38:14.400
<v Speaker 1>and UH followed that post up with another picture of

0:38:14.640 --> 0:38:17.399
<v Speaker 1>some looting and some black folks and and Serbian again

0:38:17.520 --> 0:38:23.839
<v Speaker 1>said kill them allow, yes, heal them all, kill them all.

0:38:25.480 --> 0:38:29.759
<v Speaker 1>I don't know she thought that. Um, you know, technology

0:38:29.800 --> 0:38:36.040
<v Speaker 1>can trash like she was doing it on the love

0:38:37.440 --> 0:38:42.600
<v Speaker 1>she was just let me hit him in So they

0:38:43.000 --> 0:38:45.880
<v Speaker 1>all them other ones ain't gonna know what this means.

0:38:46.440 --> 0:38:50.680
<v Speaker 1>Oh my gosh, your husband plays for a professional soccer

0:38:50.719 --> 0:38:57.440
<v Speaker 1>team in l A. Though like she knew, Yeah she didn't,

0:38:57.040 --> 0:39:02.560
<v Speaker 1>so he got so what happened? So from that, well,

0:39:02.600 --> 0:39:07.440
<v Speaker 1>so this is what happened. So that yeah, right, so

0:39:07.600 --> 0:39:11.080
<v Speaker 1>that happened, And obviously there was just uproar from a

0:39:11.080 --> 0:39:14.799
<v Speaker 1>lot of people fans of the team, like yo, this

0:39:14.880 --> 0:39:18.560
<v Speaker 1>is unacceptable this that and the other and the Galaxy

0:39:18.880 --> 0:39:22.600
<v Speaker 1>l A team. They actually, you know, they invited him

0:39:22.640 --> 0:39:26.480
<v Speaker 1>and the player, they invited him to have a meeting too,

0:39:26.840 --> 0:39:31.120
<v Speaker 1>I guess, discuss the situation. And I don't. That's mighty

0:39:31.200 --> 0:39:35.040
<v Speaker 1>nice of them, right, must be, must be, uh that

0:39:35.080 --> 0:39:39.880
<v Speaker 1>we can let's let's talk about this, okay, imagine, But um,

0:39:39.960 --> 0:39:42.720
<v Speaker 1>I don't know what was said in that in that meeting.

0:39:43.280 --> 0:39:49.520
<v Speaker 1>I heard that essentially, they want they asked him to

0:39:49.560 --> 0:39:53.680
<v Speaker 1>basically put out a statement apologizing and he refused, and

0:39:53.719 --> 0:39:57.200
<v Speaker 1>so they're like, all right that you're gone. Wow, So

0:39:57.360 --> 0:40:00.360
<v Speaker 1>do you think that that's this individual that we're not naming?

0:40:00.560 --> 0:40:05.239
<v Speaker 1>You can always look it up. Do you believe this

0:40:05.320 --> 0:40:09.120
<v Speaker 1>individual will get picked back up? You already did. He

0:40:09.160 --> 0:40:11.840
<v Speaker 1>went back to his home country and he's on. He's on,

0:40:12.400 --> 0:40:14.040
<v Speaker 1>I think one of one of the best teams out

0:40:14.040 --> 0:40:26.080
<v Speaker 1>there in Serbia. So yep, just like that. What moving along, Jill?

0:40:26.239 --> 0:40:34.239
<v Speaker 1>That vibe at Kendrick. This it just shows you, man, Like,

0:40:34.560 --> 0:40:38.120
<v Speaker 1>that's how deep I think it's about that time. Just

0:40:38.120 --> 0:40:41.640
<v Speaker 1>so I take a little breather. Good do it, good

0:40:41.760 --> 0:40:46.960
<v Speaker 1>do it. Let's getting down to do it. Hey, Gerard,

0:40:47.080 --> 0:40:49.000
<v Speaker 1>why did you get that T shirt? You mean this thing?

0:40:49.280 --> 0:40:51.760
<v Speaker 1>Oh yes, I got it from cut to a podcast

0:40:51.800 --> 0:40:55.000
<v Speaker 1>dot com where we have exclusive merchandise shout out to

0:40:55.000 --> 0:40:56.680
<v Speaker 1>our guys at seven or four shot. But yeah, you

0:40:56.680 --> 0:40:59.160
<v Speaker 1>can go on, buy you a T shirt, subscribe to

0:40:59.239 --> 0:41:03.680
<v Speaker 1>us wherever you in the podcast. What does playing in

0:41:03.719 --> 0:41:08.799
<v Speaker 1>the email last me to you? Today? Man? Today, it's

0:41:08.840 --> 0:41:15.880
<v Speaker 1>a it's now. It's the platform, man, it's um uh

0:41:16.080 --> 0:41:21.000
<v Speaker 1>opportunity to continue to play the sport. I love, continue

0:41:21.040 --> 0:41:26.360
<v Speaker 1>to try and master my craft, but also bring emphasis

0:41:26.640 --> 0:41:32.400
<v Speaker 1>and attention two things within our society that I believe

0:41:32.440 --> 0:41:38.520
<v Speaker 1>are very important and um necessary to be brought to

0:41:38.600 --> 0:41:42.440
<v Speaker 1>attention if we're gonna move in a way that's conducive

0:41:42.520 --> 0:41:45.920
<v Speaker 1>for all of us as people. Man. Um, I've really

0:41:45.960 --> 0:41:50.560
<v Speaker 1>found in a new sense of motivation. Um, I've really

0:41:50.600 --> 0:41:54.560
<v Speaker 1>found a centralized focus on what I want to accomplish

0:41:54.600 --> 0:41:58.319
<v Speaker 1>for myself and my family. And I'm excited now. I

0:41:58.320 --> 0:42:00.600
<v Speaker 1>mean I've always been excited every time have to feel,

0:42:00.640 --> 0:42:03.760
<v Speaker 1>but it really hits different these days, man, because I

0:42:03.760 --> 0:42:06.960
<v Speaker 1>I really understand the position that I've didn't put in

0:42:07.480 --> 0:42:10.719
<v Speaker 1>and with my history and my family and and all

0:42:10.760 --> 0:42:12.880
<v Speaker 1>the things that I've made me who I am. Uh

0:42:13.000 --> 0:42:17.880
<v Speaker 1>today two really feel like this is what you were

0:42:17.960 --> 0:42:22.560
<v Speaker 1>meant for. Um. You know, It's an amazing feeling, and

0:42:22.719 --> 0:42:24.719
<v Speaker 1>I'm looking forward to doing it as long as I can,

0:42:25.320 --> 0:42:32.279
<v Speaker 1>and then continuing to push the views and the the

0:42:32.360 --> 0:42:34.319
<v Speaker 1>life in the world that I would I would like

0:42:34.360 --> 0:42:39.360
<v Speaker 1>to see. Afterwards, I want to shift to something. Because

0:42:43.120 --> 0:42:48.440
<v Speaker 1>you are arrested with the dun and and and reckless driving.

0:42:49.200 --> 0:42:53.920
<v Speaker 1>He was found not guilty, However, you were required to

0:42:54.080 --> 0:42:58.360
<v Speaker 1>go into a treatment facility and mallible and according to

0:42:58.360 --> 0:43:04.480
<v Speaker 1>your worship, change your life. Shure. Then how how did that?

0:43:04.920 --> 0:43:09.840
<v Speaker 1>How did that? Man? So this is a great I

0:43:09.960 --> 0:43:14.920
<v Speaker 1>love this topic because, um, it's probably the onset of

0:43:14.960 --> 0:43:22.040
<v Speaker 1>my transformation, getting arrested and being I mean, if I

0:43:22.080 --> 0:43:25.680
<v Speaker 1>can kind of exploite that that story. So I got

0:43:25.680 --> 0:43:30.040
<v Speaker 1>stopped at Philly late night. I went out. I was

0:43:30.080 --> 0:43:33.759
<v Speaker 1>not drunk, but you know, I was out late and

0:43:33.880 --> 0:43:37.759
<v Speaker 1>I didn't know my way around the city. And all right,

0:43:38.480 --> 0:43:41.640
<v Speaker 1>I'm sure this has happened too many people. But you know,

0:43:41.680 --> 0:43:44.400
<v Speaker 1>when you're kind of you're taking the exit and maybe

0:43:44.400 --> 0:43:47.359
<v Speaker 1>you accelerated a little too hard and maybe not enough.

0:43:47.920 --> 0:43:50.440
<v Speaker 1>You know, you kind of do that wide super wide

0:43:50.440 --> 0:43:53.560
<v Speaker 1>turned on the exit. That's what That's what happened with me.

0:43:54.360 --> 0:43:57.640
<v Speaker 1>But it was two am in the morning. There happened

0:43:57.640 --> 0:44:01.480
<v Speaker 1>to be a cop sitting you actually found you sound

0:44:01.560 --> 0:44:05.719
<v Speaker 1>like you were over there by getting off on that

0:44:05.800 --> 0:44:10.520
<v Speaker 1>extra It was around there. It wasn't around there. Those

0:44:10.680 --> 0:44:13.520
<v Speaker 1>those terms are very wide excellent. It wasn't around there,

0:44:13.600 --> 0:44:17.239
<v Speaker 1>it was and there was also construction going on and

0:44:18.760 --> 0:44:23.279
<v Speaker 1>right right and uh, it was the night of a

0:44:23.520 --> 0:44:26.759
<v Speaker 1>demonstration for Freddy Gray. I don't know if you guys

0:44:26.800 --> 0:44:33.600
<v Speaker 1>remember very gray in Maryland? Yeah, okay, yeah, so um

0:44:34.520 --> 0:44:37.360
<v Speaker 1>So the reason why that stuff is important is because

0:44:37.440 --> 0:44:39.680
<v Speaker 1>I didn't find out until a year later that the

0:44:39.719 --> 0:44:43.120
<v Speaker 1>cop who stopped me didn't even see me. He didn't

0:44:43.120 --> 0:44:46.319
<v Speaker 1>see anything that he was telling or that he wrote

0:44:46.320 --> 0:44:49.120
<v Speaker 1>in his report that he saw. It was actually another

0:44:49.160 --> 0:44:52.319
<v Speaker 1>cop who was behind me. Who in mind you? I had,

0:44:52.440 --> 0:44:57.720
<v Speaker 1>you know, a nice white C three hunted, blacked out tent, vinyl,

0:44:58.360 --> 0:45:05.239
<v Speaker 1>black vinyl top, black rim flex flex sex so you know, yeah,

0:45:05.280 --> 0:45:09.320
<v Speaker 1>exactly so he um the cop a cop behind me,

0:45:09.440 --> 0:45:12.120
<v Speaker 1>saw me take the exit radio to the cop in front,

0:45:12.160 --> 0:45:14.680
<v Speaker 1>said hey, man, I don't know what he said, right,

0:45:14.760 --> 0:45:18.279
<v Speaker 1>because they told they in their report they said, oh

0:45:18.360 --> 0:45:23.880
<v Speaker 1>this guy, uh is reckless. He almost hit a traffic cone,

0:45:24.719 --> 0:45:28.799
<v Speaker 1>which there was cones everywhere, but either way, I get

0:45:29.120 --> 0:45:36.680
<v Speaker 1>they stopped me too. Yeah, so you know, I get stopped.

0:45:37.160 --> 0:45:39.560
<v Speaker 1>Two of them approached my car. First thing, he said,

0:45:39.560 --> 0:45:41.440
<v Speaker 1>how much have you had to drink? I said, bro,

0:45:41.520 --> 0:45:44.920
<v Speaker 1>I haven't had nothing. It was like, no, you drink,

0:45:44.960 --> 0:45:46.719
<v Speaker 1>I can smell it. Like, how much have you had

0:45:46.760 --> 0:45:50.000
<v Speaker 1>to drink? Said? I haven't drink anything? All right? Give

0:45:50.040 --> 0:45:52.600
<v Speaker 1>me a license, all right, So I'm looking at give

0:45:52.640 --> 0:45:57.680
<v Speaker 1>him my license and asked for their registration. And to

0:45:57.760 --> 0:45:59.640
<v Speaker 1>be fair, like my glove box had a lot of

0:45:59.680 --> 0:46:02.239
<v Speaker 1>stuff in there, and I knew I didn't do anything wrong,

0:46:02.280 --> 0:46:06.520
<v Speaker 1>So I took my time right and I could I

0:46:06.560 --> 0:46:10.880
<v Speaker 1>could feel my man's getting so like heated. It's like, yo,

0:46:10.960 --> 0:46:13.320
<v Speaker 1>I don't have all fucking day. Give me your I'm like, oh,

0:46:13.360 --> 0:46:15.400
<v Speaker 1>I'm looking for it right now. He said, no, what

0:46:16.320 --> 0:46:20.080
<v Speaker 1>effic get out the car. I'm like, why do I

0:46:20.120 --> 0:46:22.959
<v Speaker 1>need together get out the car now? So, like I said,

0:46:23.000 --> 0:46:25.200
<v Speaker 1>it was a whole day of Freddy Gray joints. So

0:46:25.239 --> 0:46:30.479
<v Speaker 1>I'm not trying to, you know, uh, antagonize this guy

0:46:31.120 --> 0:46:33.080
<v Speaker 1>and makes the situation worse than it needs to be,

0:46:33.960 --> 0:46:38.480
<v Speaker 1>takes me out, runs me through, you know, sobriety tests,

0:46:38.520 --> 0:46:44.320
<v Speaker 1>which the judge literally a year later saw the video

0:46:44.640 --> 0:46:47.480
<v Speaker 1>and said he's now going to use that dash Camp

0:46:47.560 --> 0:46:51.600
<v Speaker 1>footage as a basis for the rest of his cases

0:46:51.719 --> 0:46:55.919
<v Speaker 1>because that's the best one he's ever seen. But these

0:46:56.000 --> 0:47:00.080
<v Speaker 1>dudes would look like, I mean, do this, do that,

0:47:00.400 --> 0:47:04.040
<v Speaker 1>do this, do that in in aggressive ways. You know,

0:47:04.239 --> 0:47:07.640
<v Speaker 1>I'm before I actually do it. I just asked them,

0:47:07.760 --> 0:47:11.160
<v Speaker 1>you know, like, can you explain that slower please, because

0:47:11.160 --> 0:47:13.680
<v Speaker 1>you're talking fast. I just want to make sure I

0:47:13.719 --> 0:47:17.520
<v Speaker 1>do this right. I did it. I did everything he said.

0:47:17.520 --> 0:47:19.680
<v Speaker 1>You know what, You're still getting arrested. Not only did

0:47:19.680 --> 0:47:22.440
<v Speaker 1>you almost hit that cone, you almost hit me. And

0:47:22.520 --> 0:47:25.160
<v Speaker 1>I'm like, all right, now you're BS and I didn't

0:47:25.280 --> 0:47:27.759
<v Speaker 1>hit you, Like look I'm not. I'm just trying to

0:47:27.760 --> 0:47:30.279
<v Speaker 1>get home. I'm new to the city. I don't want

0:47:30.320 --> 0:47:32.799
<v Speaker 1>no problems. It's like, no, you're going to jail night.

0:47:34.280 --> 0:47:37.040
<v Speaker 1>So they took me, man, they took me in. They

0:47:37.239 --> 0:47:41.399
<v Speaker 1>they the tactics they use. Bro, there's five or six

0:47:41.480 --> 0:47:45.680
<v Speaker 1>other people getting literally getting booked for d wise. I

0:47:45.680 --> 0:47:51.200
<v Speaker 1>mean there's dudes passed out, bro, like stumbling and like

0:47:51.400 --> 0:47:54.799
<v Speaker 1>drunk drunk, and I'm in here. They got like four

0:47:54.880 --> 0:47:57.600
<v Speaker 1>officers in there, and three of them are in my

0:47:57.760 --> 0:48:02.880
<v Speaker 1>ear yelling take your shoes, take your places on, hurry up.

0:48:03.160 --> 0:48:06.160
<v Speaker 1>We don't have all of the clearly trying to intimidate,

0:48:07.200 --> 0:48:10.560
<v Speaker 1>and um, I get through and they sent me down.

0:48:11.000 --> 0:48:13.279
<v Speaker 1>One cop is behind me, when is next to me,

0:48:13.400 --> 0:48:16.040
<v Speaker 1>one's across from me. They just start putting papers in

0:48:16.040 --> 0:48:19.360
<v Speaker 1>front of me. All right, signs this this says that

0:48:19.480 --> 0:48:22.080
<v Speaker 1>da da da da da da da. I'm like, whoa, whoa, whoa,

0:48:22.080 --> 0:48:27.080
<v Speaker 1>whoa whoa? Slow down, bro, what am I signing? Like?

0:48:27.719 --> 0:48:30.400
<v Speaker 1>Come on? It's like, I just told you what you're signing,

0:48:30.880 --> 0:48:32.680
<v Speaker 1>and I said okay. So he gave it to me

0:48:32.840 --> 0:48:35.400
<v Speaker 1>and I sat there and I started to read the paper.

0:48:36.400 --> 0:48:39.319
<v Speaker 1>Would you believe these cats ripped the paper from in

0:48:39.320 --> 0:48:40.920
<v Speaker 1>front of me and said, yo, what are you doing.

0:48:42.480 --> 0:48:47.080
<v Speaker 1>I said, I'm reading the paper, said They said, no,

0:48:47.400 --> 0:48:49.520
<v Speaker 1>don't read the paper. I told you what's on it.

0:48:50.200 --> 0:48:53.120
<v Speaker 1>I said, look, I understand that you guys are a

0:48:53.160 --> 0:48:56.320
<v Speaker 1>little a little fussed right now. Whatever, I'm not doing

0:48:56.360 --> 0:48:59.400
<v Speaker 1>anything until I'm not doing anything. I'm not signing anything

0:48:59.480 --> 0:49:02.719
<v Speaker 1>until I eat that paper. And then that's when one

0:49:02.760 --> 0:49:06.399
<v Speaker 1>of them said, oh, that's a refusal. He refused, Lock

0:49:06.520 --> 0:49:11.480
<v Speaker 1>him up. And in Pennsylvania, a refusal is a tier

0:49:11.560 --> 0:49:16.160
<v Speaker 1>three d U. I wow, so that's how that's how

0:49:16.360 --> 0:49:18.680
<v Speaker 1>you were booked on that. That's how I was booked

0:49:18.680 --> 0:49:21.480
<v Speaker 1>on that, bro. And then they proceeded to keep me

0:49:21.520 --> 0:49:23.440
<v Speaker 1>and they kept me in the tank for twenty plus

0:49:23.560 --> 0:49:28.480
<v Speaker 1>hours before even allowing a phone call. And it's funny

0:49:28.480 --> 0:49:31.240
<v Speaker 1>because I was literally in there and meditating these caps

0:49:31.320 --> 0:49:34.520
<v Speaker 1>was like, who is this? Mother? Like who is this dude?

0:49:34.600 --> 0:49:39.279
<v Speaker 1>So we haven't you know, we had a conversation. I

0:49:39.320 --> 0:49:42.440
<v Speaker 1>had a conversation with my producer. She said he CJ

0:49:42.640 --> 0:49:46.719
<v Speaker 1>was meditating for twenty hours. I said yeah, because in

0:49:46.800 --> 0:49:52.400
<v Speaker 1>the first four this can't be real. And then he

0:49:52.480 --> 0:49:54.359
<v Speaker 1>was like, you know what, I gotta get through this

0:49:56.320 --> 0:49:58.000
<v Speaker 1>if I can get to get out of here. You're

0:49:58.040 --> 0:50:00.239
<v Speaker 1>like the first he was like, two hours. How they

0:50:00.320 --> 0:50:03.120
<v Speaker 1>gotta be joking. Three hours, man, they are not playing

0:50:03.120 --> 0:50:07.840
<v Speaker 1>with me. Yeah, speaking too, huh yep, bro oh, And

0:50:07.880 --> 0:50:12.479
<v Speaker 1>I mean people are in there just screaming, yelling. Man,

0:50:12.600 --> 0:50:15.560
<v Speaker 1>it's going wild, and they're like they tossing the little

0:50:16.719 --> 0:50:19.279
<v Speaker 1>cheese sandwich on the floor. I didn't even touch it, bro,

0:50:19.360 --> 0:50:22.640
<v Speaker 1>I didn't touch nothing. I'm like, look, I'm in here whatever,

0:50:22.719 --> 0:50:26.120
<v Speaker 1>Like it was a shitty situation. But twenty hours later,

0:50:26.880 --> 0:50:29.719
<v Speaker 1>come out my my sporting my technical director for the

0:50:29.760 --> 0:50:33.359
<v Speaker 1>team got me out. My mom had come up, you know,

0:50:33.360 --> 0:50:36.520
<v Speaker 1>and everybody's like just just the disappointment, and I'm sitting

0:50:36.520 --> 0:50:40.960
<v Speaker 1>there like, yo, look it ain't what y'all saying. Before

0:50:40.960 --> 0:50:46.200
<v Speaker 1>I could even explain myself, the league releases. Uh statement up,

0:50:46.320 --> 0:50:49.799
<v Speaker 1>see this part is arrested on d uy charges, this,

0:50:49.960 --> 0:50:56.000
<v Speaker 1>that and the other. My the substance behavior and Abuse program.

0:50:56.400 --> 0:50:59.840
<v Speaker 1>They hit me up saying, hey, look like, because you refuse,

0:51:00.080 --> 0:51:02.640
<v Speaker 1>you're looking at jail time. So you have to go

0:51:02.719 --> 0:51:06.800
<v Speaker 1>to the rehab basically because then we're gonna try and say, okay,

0:51:06.840 --> 0:51:09.440
<v Speaker 1>those days that you had in rehab should be taken

0:51:09.480 --> 0:51:12.440
<v Speaker 1>off your sentence. They're trying to work the system just

0:51:12.520 --> 0:51:15.120
<v Speaker 1>to help you out because they also know how the

0:51:15.200 --> 0:51:20.000
<v Speaker 1>system in exactly exactly. Um, and I'm over here like

0:51:20.040 --> 0:51:22.880
<v Speaker 1>wait what Obviously this is the means I'm missing games.

0:51:23.640 --> 0:51:29.239
<v Speaker 1>Obviously everybody's over here thinking I'm some alcoholic, Which that

0:51:29.280 --> 0:51:31.279
<v Speaker 1>wasn't even the worst part about it for me. It

0:51:31.360 --> 0:51:34.359
<v Speaker 1>was just the fact that like I had, I had

0:51:34.440 --> 0:51:37.520
<v Speaker 1>just I had had just came back from an injury

0:51:37.600 --> 0:51:40.800
<v Speaker 1>before that, I had a concussion for like the first

0:51:40.840 --> 0:51:44.400
<v Speaker 1>month of the season, and um, it was tough, man, Like,

0:51:44.640 --> 0:51:48.360
<v Speaker 1>it was very bad concussion. It was hard to uh,

0:51:48.400 --> 0:51:51.000
<v Speaker 1>you know, get myself up certain days. And I was

0:51:51.120 --> 0:51:54.040
<v Speaker 1>just getting back scored in my first game back and

0:51:54.080 --> 0:51:58.879
<v Speaker 1>then boom, gotta go do this. Um, but man, they

0:51:58.960 --> 0:52:02.440
<v Speaker 1>you know I'm in ma A Bou, like they said rehab,

0:52:02.520 --> 0:52:06.480
<v Speaker 1>but that the treatment facility was just a different level.

0:52:06.560 --> 0:52:10.520
<v Speaker 1>You know, had had our own chef, like everything gluten free,

0:52:10.640 --> 0:52:16.359
<v Speaker 1>like organic, we were doing tai chi equine therapy. Uh

0:52:16.560 --> 0:52:20.399
<v Speaker 1>you get massages. They were letting me off the off

0:52:20.480 --> 0:52:23.440
<v Speaker 1>the site to work out and stuff. You know. So

0:52:23.480 --> 0:52:28.239
<v Speaker 1>it was like a crazy little unplugging, uh disconnect that

0:52:28.280 --> 0:52:31.760
<v Speaker 1>I got, like you can't be on your phone and

0:52:32.120 --> 0:52:35.520
<v Speaker 1>you know, through the normal, the normal procedure of a

0:52:35.640 --> 0:52:39.600
<v Speaker 1>rehab facility, I was able to understand that while I

0:52:39.719 --> 0:52:43.600
<v Speaker 1>might have not had an addiction to alcohol, there was

0:52:43.680 --> 0:52:48.560
<v Speaker 1>many other addictive qualities of my life, and like understanding

0:52:48.640 --> 0:52:52.480
<v Speaker 1>the different methods and practices that are out there to

0:52:52.600 --> 0:52:56.799
<v Speaker 1>bring more self awareness into your experience. It changed. It

0:52:56.960 --> 0:53:01.160
<v Speaker 1>just really changed my perspective of everything, and I began

0:53:01.239 --> 0:53:04.759
<v Speaker 1>to find again my true nature. Right. I began to

0:53:04.880 --> 0:53:08.799
<v Speaker 1>understand Wow, like I even just how I was being

0:53:08.840 --> 0:53:11.239
<v Speaker 1>an asshole to the I mean, I wouldn't say I

0:53:11.280 --> 0:53:22.920
<v Speaker 1>was being an asshole, we will, oh, you know, I

0:53:22.960 --> 0:53:26.759
<v Speaker 1>mean I was page just like I'm going to read

0:53:27.080 --> 0:53:33.359
<v Speaker 1>every line, you know. But and it kind of goes

0:53:33.400 --> 0:53:35.440
<v Speaker 1>back to what you said, you know, in that bitter place.

0:53:35.520 --> 0:53:39.640
<v Speaker 1>You know, it's a night where people are literally, uh

0:53:39.800 --> 0:53:43.080
<v Speaker 1>marching in the streets because a guy like got killed

0:53:43.120 --> 0:53:45.359
<v Speaker 1>by the cops, you know, and I'm like, oh yeah,

0:53:45.400 --> 0:53:48.120
<v Speaker 1>I bet y'all profile me, and I felt bitter. And

0:53:49.480 --> 0:53:52.800
<v Speaker 1>that's where I realized, like, rather than channel that energy

0:53:52.800 --> 0:53:57.360
<v Speaker 1>into basically just gaslighting a situation, how do I channel

0:53:57.400 --> 0:54:01.040
<v Speaker 1>that into either making myself a better person or using

0:54:01.080 --> 0:54:05.520
<v Speaker 1>that to make my surroundings better. And that's that's where

0:54:05.560 --> 0:54:08.200
<v Speaker 1>it really all started from me. Man, Like, that's that's

0:54:08.200 --> 0:54:12.040
<v Speaker 1>what led to the ideation of my nonprofit. I'm Philly.

0:54:12.280 --> 0:54:14.920
<v Speaker 1>Um that's what's led to you know, right now. I

0:54:14.920 --> 0:54:18.879
<v Speaker 1>got to working on to two businesses right now kind

0:54:18.880 --> 0:54:24.000
<v Speaker 1>of based on sustainability and um one is based on

0:54:24.040 --> 0:54:27.120
<v Speaker 1>sustainability that have plant and then another is based on,

0:54:27.760 --> 0:54:33.800
<v Speaker 1>uh bringing lifestyle skills and lifestyle management into athlete representation

0:54:34.480 --> 0:54:37.480
<v Speaker 1>to kind of you know, provide athletes all these different

0:54:37.480 --> 0:54:41.719
<v Speaker 1>mechanisms that I had through you know, a wild journey,

0:54:41.840 --> 0:54:45.279
<v Speaker 1>so that there's an ability to again find value and

0:54:45.320 --> 0:54:48.200
<v Speaker 1>worth in your own self and continue to take that

0:54:48.280 --> 0:54:54.200
<v Speaker 1>into your career. And obviously after um so yeah, and

0:54:54.280 --> 0:54:57.080
<v Speaker 1>it was Malibu California. Bro, Like I was waking up

0:54:57.080 --> 0:55:00.759
<v Speaker 1>to sun rises like right on the water. Uh you

0:55:00.800 --> 0:55:04.320
<v Speaker 1>know it was it was I got to the dude

0:55:04.960 --> 0:55:07.920
<v Speaker 1>that owns the house had another house right down the

0:55:07.960 --> 0:55:10.720
<v Speaker 1>street that had a soccer field. So like I'm getting

0:55:10.719 --> 0:55:15.719
<v Speaker 1>a train, you know, like by myself. Again it's callie

0:55:15.800 --> 0:55:22.399
<v Speaker 1>like and ironic. I ended up meeting my fiance and

0:55:22.719 --> 0:55:26.239
<v Speaker 1>mother of my child that I just had it all

0:55:26.320 --> 0:55:28.560
<v Speaker 1>ended up. It has a funny way of coming full circle.

0:55:29.000 --> 0:55:31.360
<v Speaker 1>It really does. This This segment we got coming up,

0:55:31.440 --> 0:55:33.600
<v Speaker 1>last segment will wrap up. It's called the Deep Three,

0:55:33.920 --> 0:55:37.440
<v Speaker 1>and it is three questions that really enable us to

0:55:37.440 --> 0:55:40.360
<v Speaker 1>go take a deeper dive, you beyond the soccer field.

0:55:40.360 --> 0:55:42.719
<v Speaker 1>So Soothy, go ahead and ask me first, what luggage

0:55:42.840 --> 0:55:48.960
<v Speaker 1>have you carried around that has slowed your journey? Oh,

0:55:49.560 --> 0:55:54.640
<v Speaker 1>I would say childhood trauma of continuing to find validation.

0:55:55.120 --> 0:55:57.680
<v Speaker 1>Literally a lot of the topics that came up today.

0:55:58.520 --> 0:56:00.879
<v Speaker 1>You know, it's easy for me to not easy, but

0:56:01.040 --> 0:56:03.759
<v Speaker 1>I can say I can see what I need to

0:56:03.800 --> 0:56:05.759
<v Speaker 1>do to get out of that. But it doesn't mean

0:56:05.800 --> 0:56:08.279
<v Speaker 1>that it's completely gone. You know, there was times when

0:56:08.280 --> 0:56:12.800
<v Speaker 1>I was younger that moving through my days, I searched

0:56:13.040 --> 0:56:18.200
<v Speaker 1>for validation from parents and teachers. You know so much

0:56:18.280 --> 0:56:21.360
<v Speaker 1>that like if I didn't consistently get that, it just

0:56:21.440 --> 0:56:24.640
<v Speaker 1>weighed down on me. And even today, you know, in

0:56:24.760 --> 0:56:30.360
<v Speaker 1>little moments, I can find myself, um, just thinking the

0:56:30.440 --> 0:56:35.160
<v Speaker 1>worst based off of maybe just miscommunication right, or like

0:56:35.200 --> 0:56:39.319
<v Speaker 1>a facial expression that I read wrong. What would you

0:56:39.360 --> 0:56:45.440
<v Speaker 1>want Tom Morton music? You have to come to day?

0:56:45.840 --> 0:56:51.759
<v Speaker 1>Who oh man, that's a good one. I would want

0:56:51.800 --> 0:56:54.520
<v Speaker 1>old Doc to say that I am a man that

0:56:55.160 --> 0:57:01.319
<v Speaker 1>understands the value in being a man in trying to

0:57:01.360 --> 0:57:12.239
<v Speaker 1>find whatever that definition is for me. So, Steve, we

0:57:12.320 --> 0:57:14.360
<v Speaker 1>heard about what happens when teammates don't see how to

0:57:14.440 --> 0:57:22.200
<v Speaker 1>eye in soccer? What about in football? Oh yeah, teammates

0:57:22.240 --> 0:57:26.760
<v Speaker 1>don't see how toy just because you you have com

0:57:26.800 --> 0:57:31.160
<v Speaker 1>the competitiveness. I don't believe, you know, I really don't

0:57:31.160 --> 0:57:35.200
<v Speaker 1>know about why guys may not or you know, pass

0:57:35.240 --> 0:57:37.320
<v Speaker 1>the ball or something. But I think a lot of

0:57:37.320 --> 0:57:40.640
<v Speaker 1>it has to do with ego. Um. You know, a

0:57:40.720 --> 0:57:44.840
<v Speaker 1>lot of times, whether it's a young player or older player,

0:57:44.960 --> 0:57:49.240
<v Speaker 1>those players are are pretty significant for from wherever they're from.

0:57:49.280 --> 0:57:53.200
<v Speaker 1>They've impacted so much that teams have said I want

0:57:53.200 --> 0:57:55.200
<v Speaker 1>to draft this kid. I want to draft this guy.

0:57:55.240 --> 0:57:58.040
<v Speaker 1>I want to bring this man from this other team

0:57:58.120 --> 0:58:00.640
<v Speaker 1>that he's been successful and bring him into our locker room.

0:58:00.680 --> 0:58:04.240
<v Speaker 1>That so his into our culture. So it can in

0:58:05.200 --> 0:58:08.680
<v Speaker 1>fact our our team too. Maybe it could rub off

0:58:08.720 --> 0:58:12.000
<v Speaker 1>on some guys to be a lot more physical or

0:58:12.880 --> 0:58:16.320
<v Speaker 1>attack the game with a lot more passion. So whatever

0:58:16.360 --> 0:58:19.480
<v Speaker 1>that category is that that team is looking for, um,

0:58:19.560 --> 0:58:22.400
<v Speaker 1>it happens. But then you also have people from a

0:58:22.400 --> 0:58:26.360
<v Speaker 1>lot of different places, right, and I say the dumb

0:58:26.400 --> 0:58:32.120
<v Speaker 1>meters because common sense is different for various folks, and

0:58:32.160 --> 0:58:37.280
<v Speaker 1>how you were raised determines how you dissect and and

0:58:37.280 --> 0:58:40.560
<v Speaker 1>and look at things. So when you put a whole

0:58:40.560 --> 0:58:44.840
<v Speaker 1>bunch of people, eighty guys from eighty different families and

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<v Speaker 1>eighty different walks of life, you get a lot. You

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<v Speaker 1>get eighty different conversations that don't always go peaches and

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<v Speaker 1>cream and and so you just kind of gotta you

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<v Speaker 1>have to work through it. And then you add the

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<v Speaker 1>element of competition, compensation, um, the ability to be released

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<v Speaker 1>or let go. That just heightens everything, and so um,

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<v Speaker 1>you know, sometimes it lines get blurred, sometimes it gets

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<v Speaker 1>it gets pretty fickled. And then just people just get

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<v Speaker 1>piste off because sometimes people just lose their jobs because

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<v Speaker 1>the guy in front of them is better, or sometimes

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<v Speaker 1>people believe that the guy in front of him is

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<v Speaker 1>better because the coach believes he's better, but the player

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<v Speaker 1>doesn't but doesn't buy in buy into that. So that

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<v Speaker 1>that that's I think that's a lot of things at

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<v Speaker 1>times that happened. In perspective, what is that perspective of

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<v Speaker 1>that person? What is that point of view of that individual,

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<v Speaker 1>whether it's the guy that's beating the guy out or

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<v Speaker 1>the guy that is getting beat out, how does he

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<v Speaker 1>handle that? Doesn't always go well? Uh, I can imagine. Yeah,

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<v Speaker 1>I mean losing your job to a guy that you

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<v Speaker 1>believe is not better than you. But the fact of

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<v Speaker 1>the matter is he maybe, but you haven't. You don't

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<v Speaker 1>want to own that that that doesn't go well. You

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<v Speaker 1>are a unique person. You are well worth it, you

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<v Speaker 1>are competent and most of all, your lovable. I'm Steve

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