WEBVTT - Laughing Through My Pain (w/ Kier "Junior" Spates) 0:00:01.160 --> 0:00:04.760 Good morning, good afternoon, good evening. Wherever you are, you 0:00:04.840 --> 0:00:07.680 are tuned and the Vitamin D Podcast what's your host 0:00:07.840 --> 0:00:10.160 Dawn Day, and we're here to get you excited about 0:00:10.160 --> 0:00:13.080 your life. We want you to feel good, live life 0:00:13.119 --> 0:00:15.840 on purpose and for a purpose. But as life goes, 0:00:15.920 --> 0:00:18.680 there are ups and downs. So what happens when life 0:00:18.760 --> 0:00:21.480 hits you hard? You know, sometimes it's like that continuous 0:00:21.480 --> 0:00:23.560 flow and then you get that one hit that just 0:00:23.600 --> 0:00:26.239 feels like it just knocks the wind out of you. Now, 0:00:26.400 --> 0:00:29.080 I'm not talking about losing your keys, your phone, you 0:00:29.120 --> 0:00:32.159 can't find your parking spot. I'm talking about those big 0:00:32.200 --> 0:00:35.280 losses like a loss of a loved one, a friend, 0:00:35.600 --> 0:00:39.600 a career, a bad health diagnosis, whatever the case may be. 0:00:39.920 --> 0:00:41.760 And it seems as though we've talked a lot about 0:00:41.800 --> 0:00:44.400 loss on the Vitamin D Podcast the past few weeks, 0:00:44.440 --> 0:00:46.560 But I think it's because we're living in a series 0:00:46.600 --> 0:00:49.320 of a crisis worldwide. It's causing us to open our 0:00:49.360 --> 0:00:52.000 eyes and to see what's going on around us. So 0:00:52.040 --> 0:00:54.040 today I want to focus on the positive that can 0:00:54.080 --> 0:00:56.640 come out of pain, because of all, pain is inevitable, 0:00:56.720 --> 0:00:59.720 suffering isn't. While we will be hurt by major losses 0:00:59.760 --> 0:01:02.040 in our lives. It doesn't have to rule us out. 0:01:02.760 --> 0:01:04.760 While we may be hurt by the major losses in 0:01:04.800 --> 0:01:07.560 our lives, we don't have to be ruled by them. 0:01:07.600 --> 0:01:09.720 You know, I came across this broat and it goes. 0:01:09.800 --> 0:01:13.000 If you feel like you're losing everything, remember that trees 0:01:13.080 --> 0:01:15.560 lose their leaves every year, and yet they stand tall 0:01:15.600 --> 0:01:17.920 and wait for better days to come. Let me say 0:01:17.959 --> 0:01:21.640 that again. If you feel like you're losing everything, remember 0:01:21.680 --> 0:01:24.480 that trees lose their leaves every year, and yet they 0:01:24.560 --> 0:01:27.920 stand tall and wait for better days to come. You 0:01:27.959 --> 0:01:30.559 are going to have to stand tall for better days 0:01:30.600 --> 0:01:33.800 to come. To that end. I'm talking to a friend, 0:01:34.120 --> 0:01:38.039 a mentor, a colleague, and too many known as your 0:01:38.080 --> 0:01:40.920 favorite play cousin from the Steve Harvey Morning Show and 0:01:41.040 --> 0:01:44.320 Mr Kid Junior Space. We don't know. I've almost died 0:01:44.360 --> 0:01:47.440 seven times. I'm almost We're gonna talk a little bit 0:01:47.480 --> 0:01:49.800 about his life. Kier has been in the comedy world 0:01:49.840 --> 0:01:52.280 for over twenty years. He's traveled with the likes that 0:01:52.320 --> 0:01:55.560 will read the Franklin Key Sweat and even Steve Harvey. 0:01:55.600 --> 0:01:58.120 I mean, the list truly goes on and on. But 0:01:58.160 --> 0:02:00.000 what you may not know from Kiras that in twenty 0:02:00.080 --> 0:02:05.480 eighteen he found his best friend dead in an hotel room. 0:02:05.640 --> 0:02:08.560 Kid talks about how he overcame that. He also talks 0:02:08.600 --> 0:02:12.239 about how Steve Harvey invested in his acorn. I'm telling 0:02:12.240 --> 0:02:15.040 you this conversation is riveting. There's gonna be a lot 0:02:15.040 --> 0:02:17.400 of inside six on pull at your heart strings, but 0:02:17.440 --> 0:02:20.960 guess what you are going to walk out feeling excited 0:02:20.960 --> 0:02:24.480 about your life. So, without further ado, it's time for 0:02:24.520 --> 0:02:30.720 your dogs vitamin dam right with me and get excited 0:02:31.000 --> 0:02:42.400 about what's happening. How you doing? Come? I heard my 0:02:42.440 --> 0:02:44.639 best life. I can tell you your future so bright. 0:02:44.680 --> 0:02:47.560 They're starn as shames on boys. Stall not just walking 0:02:47.560 --> 0:02:49.240 in the house. I've just got I've been at all 0:02:49.320 --> 0:02:52.480 day like I've been been in the ive. Just walked 0:02:52.480 --> 0:02:55.520 in the house, got all my laptop, look done, date 0:02:55.880 --> 0:03:00.280 doing Thank god? I know, girl, how many studios day 0:03:00.360 --> 0:03:05.000 are seeing you in all kinds of shapes and forms. 0:03:05.040 --> 0:03:07.639 You've seen it from a yet into right. The first 0:03:07.720 --> 0:03:10.560 person I saw with it what contra tattoo in your mouth? 0:03:10.720 --> 0:03:14.840 I was like, get out of here now, black panther go, 0:03:15.200 --> 0:03:19.280 Oh my god, can't you believe that about to do. 0:03:19.320 --> 0:03:23.919 It is in there, and you know what it says 0:03:23.960 --> 0:03:26.280 life because I speak life. You know what I'm saying, 0:03:26.560 --> 0:03:29.239 speaking life forever? What kind of baby? Yeah, what kind 0:03:29.280 --> 0:03:31.919 of ever? We just you know, this goes right in 0:03:32.040 --> 0:03:35.080 topic because talking about Chadwick Boseman and rest in peace 0:03:35.120 --> 0:03:38.160 to him. But this going signs with that of why 0:03:38.240 --> 0:03:40.560 you gotta live your best life. So let me tell you. 0:03:41.000 --> 0:03:43.840 Vitamin D is a pun off my name. You get 0:03:43.920 --> 0:03:46.280 vitamin D from the sun. So I shed light into 0:03:46.320 --> 0:03:49.920 your Life podcast. Uh huh huh. So what we're gonna 0:03:49.920 --> 0:03:52.440 talk about today is just everyday life of what you've 0:03:52.440 --> 0:03:55.200 been through. And I want people that here, you on 0:03:55.280 --> 0:03:58.520 the radio, watch you on TV, go to your comedy specials, 0:03:58.840 --> 0:04:00.440 to know a little bit about your of like oh 0:04:00.560 --> 0:04:04.480 kill did it? So can? I absolutely absolutely all of 0:04:04.520 --> 0:04:08.320 that is feasible for people. Um, I mean look at that, 0:04:08.440 --> 0:04:10.000 Look at that. I mean, look at that leader, look 0:04:10.040 --> 0:04:13.360 at that mentor you know the confortence of me and 0:04:13.560 --> 0:04:19.480 Mrs Harvey had or the reason why you think about 0:04:19.480 --> 0:04:22.919 your entire existence not just your life, Beturen, types isn't 0:04:23.680 --> 0:04:26.359 because to me one person who can project you to 0:04:26.480 --> 0:04:31.159 another disition. What I mean, my whole life that I 0:04:31.160 --> 0:04:33.400 have been living before him was just to meet this 0:04:33.480 --> 0:04:38.520 one person. We could change the projection of my entire existence. 0:04:39.960 --> 0:04:43.960 That's what Harvey is. That's what you have to acknowledge, 0:04:44.640 --> 0:04:47.320 because not only did he jam my lifetime, but but 0:04:47.400 --> 0:04:51.120 whatever situations I've been going through, and we talk about 0:04:51.160 --> 0:04:54.320 these things, this is a public part. This is this 0:04:55.000 --> 0:04:56.640 is about this is the private part. This is things 0:04:56.640 --> 0:05:00.120 we talk about that I know I've said to him, 0:05:00.160 --> 0:05:05.200 and trying to move through so many different things in life. 0:05:05.800 --> 0:05:09.479 And see, I didn't have a father like that, I 0:05:09.480 --> 0:05:13.159 didn't have a friend like that. You know, you know 0:05:13.279 --> 0:05:16.240 you was there when when my my friend died, the 0:05:16.279 --> 0:05:23.799 one I had, Brian died and then I had Harvey, 0:05:23.880 --> 0:05:26.640 and Harvey what people know. When I was at the 0:05:26.720 --> 0:05:29.560 lowest at that point in time, Mr Harvey called me 0:05:29.640 --> 0:05:33.200 every day and he just kept saying words of encouragement, like, man, 0:05:33.279 --> 0:05:35.680 we need you. Then it's showing the same without you 0:05:35.760 --> 0:05:40.080 on it. Man, I'm trying to move past the situation 0:05:41.040 --> 0:05:45.479 that I was not prepared for. Nobody's prepared to lose 0:05:45.520 --> 0:05:48.280 their best friend. You ain't prepared for that part. And 0:05:48.279 --> 0:05:49.960 and as much as you try to think about it, 0:05:49.960 --> 0:05:51.560 what it could have felt like. It knocked the win 0:05:51.680 --> 0:05:54.680 out of you. You know it's gonna it's gonna take everything, man, 0:05:54.680 --> 0:05:56.560 because I had never been to a situation like that. 0:05:56.600 --> 0:06:00.040 You're not prepared for. But Brian had gave me. And 0:06:00.080 --> 0:06:03.600 I was talking to somebody earlier about Brian today actually, 0:06:03.600 --> 0:06:06.320 but when he when he had gave me was a 0:06:06.360 --> 0:06:10.560 sense of you belong where you don't get that all 0:06:10.560 --> 0:06:14.640 the time. And just because when I first started telling 0:06:14.720 --> 0:06:17.240 Joe's Brian was to do that over there since day one, 0:06:17.600 --> 0:06:20.560 and then God snatched him. Are you trying to figure 0:06:20.560 --> 0:06:23.480 out how do you make it pass right like this? 0:06:24.600 --> 0:06:27.520 With everything else you got going on? I just wish 0:06:27.600 --> 0:06:30.279 I had him back, man, because he was a sense 0:06:30.480 --> 0:06:33.320 of base. He gave me a base. He gave me 0:06:33.360 --> 0:06:36.000 a base about everything. We talked, talked about some different 0:06:36.000 --> 0:06:39.640 things about how I handled this whole startom how do 0:06:39.680 --> 0:06:42.920 you handle this and that? And he say, man, you 0:06:43.000 --> 0:06:44.640 just gotta continue to be in you. But the way 0:06:44.680 --> 0:06:46.920 he was saying it different days, and we would laugh 0:06:46.960 --> 0:06:50.000 at all these different things, and then that's gone. And 0:06:50.040 --> 0:06:52.520 you're not gonna attest to that because because you met 0:06:52.560 --> 0:06:54.760 him ntil you know, it was around when I first started. 0:06:54.760 --> 0:06:57.120 He always talked so highly of you, and he said, 0:06:57.160 --> 0:06:59.640 how y'all went way back and started in the business, 0:06:59.800 --> 0:07:02.400 and how he said he was like, that's my boy. 0:07:02.480 --> 0:07:04.240 He was like, I believe in my boy. I'm a 0:07:04.360 --> 0:07:07.599 stand by my boy no matter what. The first fan 0:07:07.800 --> 0:07:10.680 I ever had. So when your first fan you ever 0:07:10.760 --> 0:07:15.320 had get slashed away from you, it's very difficult. Because 0:07:15.560 --> 0:07:19.640 when I couldn't see he had the vision, I couldn't 0:07:19.640 --> 0:07:22.600 see that far because I was like, yo, dude, I'm 0:07:22.600 --> 0:07:27.240 tired of this. He's like, hey, man, you can be tired. 0:07:28.160 --> 0:07:31.800 You can't stop you, but you can't unt stop. But 0:07:31.920 --> 0:07:34.120 he would saying, you can be tired talking. I'm here 0:07:34.160 --> 0:07:37.960 for I'm here to hold you up. And he would 0:07:38.040 --> 0:07:40.240 do that, and we and and in the places we 0:07:40.320 --> 0:07:44.120 had been, and the and the the the when we 0:07:44.120 --> 0:07:46.600 were doing the things we were doing and I was 0:07:47.240 --> 0:07:50.240 trying to make a name for myself. He was there 0:07:50.320 --> 0:07:53.560 at every stage, at every point, Like when I would 0:07:53.640 --> 0:07:56.800 come off from open up from Frankie Beverly and Maids. 0:07:57.240 --> 0:08:00.880 He he was right there when I opened up for 0:08:01.000 --> 0:08:03.920 Keith Sweat, he was right there on the side when 0:08:03.920 --> 0:08:05.960 I came off for BB King. He was on the 0:08:06.000 --> 0:08:08.640 side when I opened for Bretha Franklin, he was on 0:08:08.680 --> 0:08:11.120 the side Anita Baker. He was right on the side 0:08:11.680 --> 0:08:14.560 that was the dude that would turn to. But he 0:08:14.640 --> 0:08:18.880 taught me so much about encouragement, which led me to 0:08:20.280 --> 0:08:23.200 keep going on the mission. And then when we got 0:08:23.280 --> 0:08:26.680 to the morning show, when I got the news that 0:08:27.240 --> 0:08:30.200 Steve was gonna hiring me, He's the first person I 0:08:30.400 --> 0:08:33.760 called and he was the happiest. He was like, what 0:08:33.840 --> 0:08:37.480 did I tell you? You had a real chill nas 0:08:37.520 --> 0:08:40.760 somebody that was down for you. But he was like, 0:08:40.880 --> 0:08:45.280 what did I tell you? And then I appreciated more 0:08:45.559 --> 0:08:49.679 on that day because there was the day we were 0:08:49.679 --> 0:08:52.400 talking about. See how I'm saying. We drove everywhere we 0:08:52.480 --> 0:08:57.400 were flying. He was driving across to from from Houston, 0:08:57.440 --> 0:09:04.360 from Texas to Birmingham, to Virginia to uh North Dakota, 0:09:04.720 --> 0:09:10.800 too Arizona to New Mexico. We was driving all of 0:09:10.880 --> 0:09:14.680 these places. So he used you mentioned. So just for 0:09:14.720 --> 0:09:18.040 those who are unaware what happened with Brian, how did 0:09:18.120 --> 0:09:24.760 Brian pass in Atlanta? UM? We had went to uh 0:09:24.960 --> 0:09:29.160 Segar City Club six one seven that night, I went 0:09:29.200 --> 0:09:31.880 to dinner you know, just you know, because we was 0:09:31.880 --> 0:09:34.520 living in California and just just places and I was 0:09:34.559 --> 0:09:37.559 living here before. We just free with these spots. We 0:09:37.600 --> 0:09:40.080 go there. We had a couple of cigars. You know, 0:09:40.240 --> 0:09:43.680 Brian never drank, but we just from the cigar. He 0:09:43.760 --> 0:09:46.640 just enjoyed cigars. Ain't we're gonna go here, we gonna 0:09:46.640 --> 0:09:49.920 smoke here. They were dreaming in at that. So we're 0:09:49.920 --> 0:09:56.319 at six one seven. He was about eleven o'clock and 0:09:56.360 --> 0:09:59.200 I was asking was he good? I said, man, you're good. 0:10:00.320 --> 0:10:02.840 And for some reason, Brian was moving to slow motion. 0:10:03.080 --> 0:10:06.920 Like everything else was at regular speed, but his head 0:10:06.960 --> 0:10:11.880 and on was so slow. He was like. I was like, 0:10:13.600 --> 0:10:15.800 this ain't normally what's going on because I'm looking at 0:10:15.800 --> 0:10:17.480 everything else. But I was like, why is this? People 0:10:17.520 --> 0:10:20.920 moving in slow motion? This dude is what is he doing? 0:10:22.840 --> 0:10:26.080 And so we get back to hotel about twelve something, 0:10:26.840 --> 0:10:29.680 about twelve fifteen. He on the sixth floor. I'm on 0:10:29.720 --> 0:10:33.240 the third floor of the w here in Atlanta, and 0:10:33.840 --> 0:10:37.800 I was like, hey, man, see the morning. His last 0:10:37.800 --> 0:10:40.839 words was, hey man, don't be late. Twelve o'clock. Car 0:10:40.920 --> 0:10:42.760 be here to pick us up. Go back to the airport. 0:10:42.800 --> 0:10:44.800 I was like, dog, what am I ever late? You know? 0:10:44.960 --> 0:10:47.520 Just being me? Well, I'm ever late, don't I ain't 0:10:47.559 --> 0:10:50.439 knowing late? Damn well, and be downstairs the twelve o'clock. 0:10:50.720 --> 0:10:54.480 He was like, hey man, I'm just telling you twelve o'clock. 0:10:55.600 --> 0:10:57.679 He said, I love you man. I was like, hey man, 0:10:57.800 --> 0:11:00.199 love you too. I didn't even know that want me 0:11:00.240 --> 0:11:02.800 the last time we spoke. And then I woke up 0:11:02.800 --> 0:11:05.560 that day's morning and I was downstairs and eating breakfast 0:11:05.559 --> 0:11:07.800 with a friend of mine about the business preposition. We're 0:11:07.840 --> 0:11:10.480 talking about this, and I just called him. I said, hey, 0:11:10.800 --> 0:11:13.720 you know, come down breakfast. Let's to eat breakfast because 0:11:13.760 --> 0:11:18.200 we gotta leave. And he never showed up. And then 0:11:18.200 --> 0:11:21.319 about twelve something two months later, when they came to 0:11:21.400 --> 0:11:23.319 me and said, hey, you might want to come see this. 0:11:24.480 --> 0:11:26.440 I never ran so fast in my life. And I 0:11:26.520 --> 0:11:30.160 knew that I knew it was. I knew that he 0:11:30.280 --> 0:11:32.840 was having I knew he had problems with seizures and stuff. 0:11:33.280 --> 0:11:37.040 I knew because it was the one that so I 0:11:37.120 --> 0:11:40.920 ran to the womb. I rolled him over and it 0:11:41.040 --> 0:11:43.439 just was what it was, and it was like I 0:11:43.480 --> 0:11:46.600 was asking him to get up. I asked him coll Man, 0:11:46.640 --> 0:11:48.800 we gotta go. We gotta fight the catch, we gotta go. 0:11:48.880 --> 0:11:50.680 And it was like, when need you leave the room? 0:11:50.880 --> 0:11:52.400 I was like, I'm not leaving room. I was my 0:11:52.559 --> 0:11:57.440 bed friend. Did y'all leave? I'm not leaving him. And 0:11:57.480 --> 0:12:02.080 that's when I realized that my first cheerleader, what's gone. 0:12:02.679 --> 0:12:05.360 Realized he was just he was just gone. You know, 0:12:05.440 --> 0:12:08.000 it was just one thing we realized, like, hey, for 0:12:08.080 --> 0:12:10.280 the first time in my life, I never felt so long. 0:12:10.400 --> 0:12:15.760 And then you know tim z videos and yeah, I 0:12:15.920 --> 0:12:20.160 was like I hated. I hated that part about my life. 0:12:20.200 --> 0:12:23.800 I hated because the hardest thing was to call his 0:12:23.880 --> 0:12:27.400 parents and say, hey, your son's gone. At the same time, 0:12:27.440 --> 0:12:30.040 I never gave them any details about what I saw 0:12:30.160 --> 0:12:33.040 in the room, and I knew somebody, you know, Joe, 0:12:33.080 --> 0:12:36.600 had sold the story, and I just couldn't believe people 0:12:36.600 --> 0:12:40.679 could be like that in a very private moment, extremely 0:12:40.720 --> 0:12:43.240 private moment. How much? How long did you stay in 0:12:43.280 --> 0:12:46.959 there with him? Oh? Man, there was the longest day 0:12:46.960 --> 0:12:51.320 of my life. Um, I'm probably only in the room 0:12:51.360 --> 0:12:56.600 about fifteen minutes because they they had to the four 0:12:56.720 --> 0:13:00.520 pace the room, and then I just remembered outside his 0:13:00.600 --> 0:13:06.119 room was on my knees, just bawling. But the process 0:13:06.280 --> 0:13:09.040 for that day, for the corner to come, all the 0:13:09.080 --> 0:13:11.840 types of it was a it was a whole day process. 0:13:11.880 --> 0:13:14.360 It was one of those things like you really are 0:13:14.400 --> 0:13:18.240 getting the fact that he was going. So Mr Harvey 0:13:18.520 --> 0:13:20.480 was in Atlanta to at that time. He didn't come 0:13:20.600 --> 0:13:22.360 to the hotel because it has been a new story. 0:13:22.400 --> 0:13:25.680 But we talked about it. He's like, man, I can't come, 0:13:25.720 --> 0:13:28.240 I said, Hard, I don't want you to come, he said, 0:13:28.280 --> 0:13:31.960 but I'll sit in Blue and Blue came on Harvey's 0:13:32.240 --> 0:13:35.880 want his friend. He came. Blue came and helped me 0:13:35.920 --> 0:13:38.839 through the whole situation because you don't know how to 0:13:38.880 --> 0:13:43.360 deal with somebody dying, Like I don't know how to 0:13:43.440 --> 0:13:47.720 find the body. I don't know, I know corner nothing 0:13:47.760 --> 0:13:51.080 about that. And Blue helped me and assisted me for 0:13:51.160 --> 0:13:54.120 that whole day because I had to worry about all 0:13:54.160 --> 0:13:57.920 those different things. You know, I just knew that I 0:13:58.000 --> 0:14:00.000 didn't even getting I didn't even I don't know how 0:14:00.000 --> 0:14:01.280 they got the better of that. I didn't have to 0:14:01.320 --> 0:14:03.640 see it. This just different thing was just you didn't 0:14:03.640 --> 0:14:06.480 want to see it because I alone, you don't even 0:14:06.520 --> 0:14:08.319 know if you're really there and seeing what you're saying. 0:14:08.400 --> 0:14:11.640 What are you hearing? What is everybody talking about? Yeah, 0:14:11.720 --> 0:14:16.760 everybody was talking all these different things, you know, and 0:14:17.000 --> 0:14:19.160 they were saying all these different things and you can 0:14:19.240 --> 0:14:23.400 hear the conversations. I just was in a corner. There's 0:14:23.440 --> 0:14:26.000 one Atlanta police officers set with me for the whole 0:14:26.120 --> 0:14:30.440 day and I can't remember his name, but this officer 0:14:30.600 --> 0:14:33.360 sat with me for the entire that he came at twelve. 0:14:33.840 --> 0:14:37.160 He lead to ten something because they took about ten 0:14:37.160 --> 0:14:40.560 hours from all to be over. Um, you know, I 0:14:40.560 --> 0:14:44.640 had to get Brian's parents. His dad came down and 0:14:44.680 --> 0:14:46.680 his sister came down because you didn't want her dad 0:14:46.760 --> 0:14:50.320 to be alarmed. So the way everybody got there, I 0:14:50.360 --> 0:14:53.160 make sure everybody had a hotel room. It's one of 0:14:53.160 --> 0:14:57.240 the day. It was just a long, long day. It's 0:14:57.280 --> 0:14:59.640 one of the hardest things. But I learned so much 0:14:59.760 --> 0:15:05.760 doing and that day about what your tolerance is. Sometimes 0:15:05.760 --> 0:15:08.120 you have to look at what's the stress level, Like 0:15:08.160 --> 0:15:11.920 everybody has a stress level. You've got one level you're at, 0:15:12.880 --> 0:15:16.360 and so you look at what Brian Sting was, like, 0:15:16.480 --> 0:15:20.480 what's the breaking point? You know, what is your breaking point? 0:15:21.360 --> 0:15:23.680 A lot of people don't know where the breaking point 0:15:23.720 --> 0:15:26.280 is because they have not put it that level. Well, 0:15:26.320 --> 0:15:29.560 that day, I learned that my my stress level is 0:15:29.600 --> 0:15:33.920 this far. My breaking point is this high on way 0:15:33.920 --> 0:15:36.920 above my stress level, because I had to experience something 0:15:37.840 --> 0:15:40.520 that showed me that how much you really can tolerate, 0:15:40.960 --> 0:15:43.600 even as other as it is, you know, as other 0:15:43.680 --> 0:15:48.160 as it is. You know, you know, I'm side day 0:15:48.160 --> 0:15:49.920 you go about it. I don't think about the first 0:15:49.960 --> 0:15:53.040 person that I had as a fan and a friend, 0:15:53.800 --> 0:15:56.480 you know, you know, spared from friends, you with sixteen, 0:15:56.480 --> 0:15:58.360 you're the end of that. So well, he said, that's 0:15:58.440 --> 0:16:01.680 my boy. He oh, he said, that's what he said. 0:16:01.680 --> 0:16:04.280 I always got his bad a lot of times when 0:16:04.280 --> 0:16:06.280 I was on stage, guys point, I was just performing 0:16:06.360 --> 0:16:08.920 for him because we was We would be riding in 0:16:08.960 --> 0:16:11.640 the car right and need jokes and like Dog Washington 0:16:11.760 --> 0:16:14.480 do this tonight, watch say it. I'm gonna say. We 0:16:14.560 --> 0:16:17.200 talked about on this little five hour ride of going 0:16:17.240 --> 0:16:20.280 to say it, and he like, say it, say it, 0:16:22.240 --> 0:16:26.520 and it would go just like we're playing, you know, 0:16:26.600 --> 0:16:30.280 it would go just like we're playing. And then I 0:16:30.360 --> 0:16:36.440 just learned so much from that one loss about who 0:16:36.480 --> 0:16:38.520 I was as a person. It's funny that you can 0:16:38.640 --> 0:16:41.800 lose something and discover something about yourself. What you say, 0:16:41.880 --> 0:16:46.840 say that again, I lost something that was important. But 0:16:46.920 --> 0:16:50.400 what I learned was in the process was how big 0:16:50.400 --> 0:16:55.080 of a person I was through the loss going wrong. 0:16:55.360 --> 0:16:59.640 The hurt is there still there. It's a daily hurt. 0:17:00.320 --> 0:17:04.439 What I found out was I can absolutely respect the 0:17:04.480 --> 0:17:09.040 fact that he meant that much. And he showed me 0:17:09.200 --> 0:17:15.320 exactly who I was by the loss, not by while 0:17:15.320 --> 0:17:17.919 he was here be c he was just my dude. 0:17:18.119 --> 0:17:21.399 We was running together. I went to other he was gone, 0:17:22.200 --> 0:17:25.080 that I realized how much he taught me and by 0:17:25.119 --> 0:17:28.840 how much I was of a person. If I never 0:17:28.840 --> 0:17:32.040 would have lost him, I never wouldn't realize with all. 0:17:32.320 --> 0:17:35.360 And so God has a way of giving you something 0:17:35.440 --> 0:17:37.840 to build up to and then you lose it, and 0:17:37.880 --> 0:17:41.280 even realizing that in that loss, oh my gosh, I'm 0:17:41.320 --> 0:17:45.280 way much stronger than I am. Come on, but one person, 0:17:47.240 --> 0:17:49.320 it was the it was the one person that gave 0:17:49.359 --> 0:17:54.800 me the most. And then you lose that part. Well, well, 0:17:54.800 --> 0:17:56.680 well I want to have those experiences. That's just what 0:17:56.880 --> 0:17:59.879 life is. A blessed enough to have a relationship like yours. 0:18:00.119 --> 0:18:02.880 Whoever you love the most. Think about the day they're 0:18:02.880 --> 0:18:06.280 gonna be gone. It's not it's not they're gone. Can 0:18:06.560 --> 0:18:08.520 you be thinking about, like what, this is what I 0:18:08.600 --> 0:18:12.480 loved about this person, This is what I appreciated about 0:18:12.520 --> 0:18:15.680 this person. This is what this person actually showed me. 0:18:16.359 --> 0:18:19.399 And then I take everything I did from Brian. I 0:18:19.520 --> 0:18:21.399 take it and I get to invest it in a 0:18:21.480 --> 0:18:27.479 new person. See, now I found somebody else. The lessons 0:18:27.480 --> 0:18:30.960 that Brian taught me, I get to invest because I 0:18:31.000 --> 0:18:33.879 didn't look at everything the way Brian looked at everything 0:18:34.640 --> 0:18:38.000 some stuff, you know, just for just for I just 0:18:38.119 --> 0:18:42.680 I was just selfish by some things. For Brian, part 0:18:42.760 --> 0:18:47.040 was quit being self That was his response, quip, being selfish, 0:18:47.080 --> 0:18:49.200 don't this is what you do? This is it? This 0:18:49.240 --> 0:18:52.280 is it? Hey man, look at this. I was like, 0:18:52.520 --> 0:18:55.640 hey man, you're right, because when you start this journey out, 0:18:56.520 --> 0:19:01.000 you're selfish because you only had you and you started 0:19:01.000 --> 0:19:03.359 this journey over twenty years ago. Yeah, I started this 0:19:03.480 --> 0:19:07.280 journey out. We're just looking for how I can be 0:19:07.720 --> 0:19:13.000 one thing that don't go no different for for for actors, 0:19:13.600 --> 0:19:16.439 you don't little different for for for comedians, don't go 0:19:16.480 --> 0:19:21.280 to musicians. All of us started out as a selfish journey. 0:19:22.680 --> 0:19:25.600 That's how the journey starts. There ain't nobody to say, 0:19:25.720 --> 0:19:28.720 hey man, no matter what my family going through, I 0:19:29.000 --> 0:19:34.080 must do X, Y and Z. But then you got 0:19:34.119 --> 0:19:36.240 somebody on the journey with you and they show you that, 0:19:36.359 --> 0:19:38.879 hey dog, you have mission now that it ain't about 0:19:38.920 --> 0:19:43.440 you no more. Now it's about X, Y and Z. 0:19:43.840 --> 0:19:45.880 And this is how you want to help other people. 0:19:46.040 --> 0:19:47.840 This is why you're gonna do this thing. This is 0:19:47.880 --> 0:19:49.760 why you're gonna do this. This is why you're gonna 0:19:49.760 --> 0:19:52.320 do that. And that was the constant thing, found a 0:19:52.359 --> 0:19:57.520 purpose why I became a better person because I lost 0:19:57.560 --> 0:20:01.760 something that told me that it ain't about you more. 0:20:02.800 --> 0:20:05.000 The first five years about me. I didn't get that 0:20:05.040 --> 0:20:10.800 how you feel. I'm like, get somewhere. I'm trying to 0:20:10.880 --> 0:20:15.480 get out of poverty. That's that's gonna see. When Priorty 0:20:15.560 --> 0:20:17.520 being on your ways, I don't get damn what you're 0:20:17.520 --> 0:20:23.640 going through all out. I want out give me out now, 0:20:24.160 --> 0:20:25.760 he man, you need to do you need you need 0:20:25.760 --> 0:20:28.520 to do this that Hey hey hey, I want out. 0:20:29.160 --> 0:20:32.480 I don't have no time for nothing. Now I'm sick 0:20:32.520 --> 0:20:34.960 of it. Is I was sick of it I'm sick 0:20:35.000 --> 0:20:37.720 of sleeping at rest stops. I'm sitting driving four hundred 0:20:37.760 --> 0:20:41.840 miles for two hundred dollars. Then all this that, But 0:20:41.960 --> 0:20:45.919 what got you started and doing it? The dream? The vision? 0:20:46.920 --> 0:20:48.919 You just you already knew. If I'm a little kid, 0:20:49.000 --> 0:20:50.560 you said, I want to be a comedian, I want 0:20:50.560 --> 0:20:52.840 to be funny. Like, how did that happen? I probably 0:20:52.880 --> 0:20:55.560 have about fourteen, about fourteen years old, but I knew 0:20:55.720 --> 0:20:57.879 this is just what I was gonna be doing. But 0:20:57.880 --> 0:20:59.000 it's one thing to say, you know what you've ben 0:20:59.080 --> 0:21:00.840 be doing. We are you gonna do what it take 0:21:00.920 --> 0:21:04.639 to get there? It's a whole letther what you say. 0:21:04.880 --> 0:21:08.080 I was just talking to j about that. Okay, had 0:21:08.119 --> 0:21:10.640 a dream done? You can have the dream? Come on, 0:21:11.600 --> 0:21:14.520 you can have it. So can they have a dream. 0:21:14.840 --> 0:21:18.399 I'm telling you, I'm like nobody different. It's okay for 0:21:18.480 --> 0:21:21.240 God to tap you and show you exactly what you're 0:21:21.240 --> 0:21:23.840 gonna be doing. God tap me in fourteen just like this, 0:21:24.200 --> 0:21:28.240 Hey you, Oh God, that's what I'm doing because I 0:21:28.280 --> 0:21:30.560 love doing that. I love watching this. I'm watching depth 0:21:30.600 --> 0:21:32.800 coming jam. We're not gonna TV. He's like, you going 0:21:32.840 --> 0:21:35.439 to be doing I was like Oh god, that's great 0:21:36.560 --> 0:21:38.879 what it took to get there? Hey, goud, are you 0:21:38.880 --> 0:21:43.400 sure this mate? I don't you know? Um, can we backtrack? 0:21:43.480 --> 0:21:47.240 Because I think that being uh this person would be 0:21:47.280 --> 0:21:50.960 great for me. I think that would be uh. I go. 0:21:52.119 --> 0:21:55.159 You gotta continue, get continue to path, you gettat. You 0:21:55.240 --> 0:21:57.199 got to be on it. You gotta be on it. 0:21:57.520 --> 0:22:00.679 Why why I got to be on it? Because because 0:22:00.720 --> 0:22:03.040 you know what this ain't. I'm tired to sleep at 0:22:03.080 --> 0:22:07.040 risk stop. I'm tired of uh but I'm I'm wait 0:22:07.080 --> 0:22:09.639 a minute, I'm sick of all this stuff because this 0:22:09.680 --> 0:22:11.320 ain't what I had playing for my life. Lord, I'm 0:22:11.320 --> 0:22:14.280 only twenty six. I'm trying to Hey, hey, trust me, 0:22:14.640 --> 0:22:17.280 it's gonna pay out in the end. You gotta keep going, well, God, 0:22:17.320 --> 0:22:19.560 to keep going parties. But you keep going with I 0:22:19.560 --> 0:22:23.280 don't really carefully that you're going and keep going. It's 0:22:23.440 --> 0:22:26.080 tough because I don't have anything to show for it. 0:22:27.080 --> 0:22:28.919 All you got is that feeling in the vision to 0:22:28.960 --> 0:22:33.159