Speaker 1: Welcome back to Good Mom's Bad Choices. I'm Mela and
Speaker 1: I'm Erica and we're hiking.
Speaker 2: Baby, we're on a high in the wild. Oh sorry,
Speaker 2: I'm a fast walk we know we got he's into
Speaker 2: this side. Sorry he's slow. You know I'm a fast walker.
Speaker 3: I know.
Speaker 1: There's a little sh tiny little legs you got. I
Speaker 1: have long legs for a short person.
Speaker 2: You do. I keep telling you this.
Speaker 1: That's why whenever, whenever anyone meets Mela, and they always
Speaker 1: think she's so tiny, cause I think you're so much taller.
Speaker 2: I know I look tall at my photographs, I look
Speaker 2: tall and real life long.
Speaker 1: Gate, you're bought tea.
Speaker 2: Anyway, we're here in our hood. Uh, hiking in Pryman.
Speaker 2: It's a beautiful place. This is a very valley girl staple.
Speaker 1: This is nostalgic. I've been hiking Fryman Canyon since I think.
Speaker 3: I could walk.
Speaker 1: My mom started bringing me up this hill. This was
Speaker 1: my first type I ever went to. If you're from
Speaker 1: the valley, then you come to Fryman. You don't go
Speaker 1: to Runnian Canyon. You come here.
Speaker 2: That's a fact.
Speaker 1: And you know what, I would even say that like
Speaker 1: the vibes of Frymen are different than Runyan, Like.
Speaker 3: Yeah, so the people are different. There's more makeup on Runian.
Speaker 2: I was literally about to say that you have to
Speaker 2: be fully glam blam. I've gone to Runyan, like just gone.
Speaker 2: I can't and I felt severely underdressed.
Speaker 3: Wait.
Speaker 1: I bought these pants and they're supposed to like be
Speaker 1: in your butt pants, but I think nobody but.
Speaker 3: What they're called.
Speaker 1: Ala like ariola there in my butt a little?
Speaker 2: They're not. These are not the good kind. That's this
Speaker 2: gunch right here? Are they doing it? Not? Really?
Speaker 3: Okay?
Speaker 1: Well you tried. I was really hoping this is me
Speaker 1: dressing up on Fryman.
Speaker 2: I wasn't dressing up. I was dressing warm because also
Speaker 2: I'm not used to this forty degree weather in La.
Speaker 2: I'm pissed.
Speaker 3: You have one.
Speaker 1: Jacket in your whole closet. This is the most you'll
Speaker 1: ever see fully dressed. I had to go pick up
Speaker 1: a jacket.
Speaker 3: This is your ski jacket. This is the jacket you
Speaker 3: go skiing.
Speaker 2: I know I do not like the cold.
Speaker 3: Did I get iris Stanley Cup?
Speaker 1: No? I didn't realize that Stanley was like so important.
Speaker 2: They're people they've been planning the seats and are fucking
Speaker 2: kids that Stanley's a cult. The kids have gone mad.
Speaker 1: I went to Target yesterday and I went to go
Speaker 1: buy Iri some water bottles and why is every water
Speaker 1: bottle thirty dollars in up? Because I'm like, my child
Speaker 1: loses these bottles over and oh.
Speaker 2: My god, I just reminded me she didn't put a
Speaker 2: fucking name on hers. She better not lose that shit.
Speaker 2: I forgot Nisha got it, but still, yeah, you've got
Speaker 2: my name. She took it to school today. I had
Speaker 2: like a straw and like, what the fucking drinking coffee?
Speaker 2: Drinking coffee?
Speaker 1: Your daughter loves coffee.
Speaker 2: She does not love coffee. She told me she loves coffee, coffee,
Speaker 2: ice cream.
Speaker 3: She said, she likes coffee.
Speaker 2: You know what I was thinking?
Speaker 1: I was thinking about turtles because like one of the
Speaker 1: long like the oldest living like animals on the planet
Speaker 1: is this turtle and that's like five hundred years old.
Speaker 1: Whoa yeah, bitch really thinking, how is what does that
Speaker 1: heart look like?
Speaker 2: What is a five hundred year old? Today's years old?
Speaker 1: I was today years old Today's segment of Today years old.
Speaker 1: Fun fact, The oldest animal on Earth is a fucking turtle.
Speaker 3: I can't remember her name or his name, but.
Speaker 2: Is five hundred years old. Why does the turtle have
Speaker 2: to be a day here?
Speaker 1: She is five hundred years old, and I'm mind blown
Speaker 1: because I'm whoa, it's a dinosaur.
Speaker 2: Dinosaurs alligators too.
Speaker 1: I want to know what the inside of that body
Speaker 1: looks like, Like, what does your blood look like?
Speaker 2: What is five hundred year old blood just recirculating blood?
Speaker 2: It probably just looks like blood. I just mean your
Speaker 2: heart's still pumping. I wonder is the fountain of us
Speaker 2: in the turtle? We can drink the turtles blood. I've
Speaker 2: heard about people drinking turtle blood like turtle soup. It's
Speaker 2: like maybe that was snake blood. Anyway, you know, blood's
Speaker 2: good for you for real.
Speaker 1: Speaking of blood, I recently so I was talking to
Speaker 1: one of our former guests, Mikayla Mama, mush womb Mama,
Speaker 1: because I have been every every cycle. During my cycle,
Speaker 1: I've been capturing my blood. And for those listening, if
Speaker 1: you're freaked out, you should be. I've been capturing my
Speaker 1: blood and.
Speaker 2: Been using a sea sponge.
Speaker 1: Well this yesterday was the first time I used the
Speaker 1: sea sponge.
Speaker 2: How'd you like it?
Speaker 1: So I didn't know how to use it because so
Speaker 1: I had to call her because I pulled it out
Speaker 1: and there was no instructions because they can't actually say
Speaker 1: that it's for vaginal menstruation really, because there's so much
Speaker 1: negativity around it because of not being able to like
Speaker 1: fully fully made make sure it's like sanitized because it's
Speaker 1: from the ocean, and that there might be sand particles
Speaker 1: in it.
Speaker 2: Well, it tells you to soak it and technically is
Speaker 2: it a living organism? Still no, but.
Speaker 1: I don't know anyway, So I pulled it out and
Speaker 1: it was so hard, yeah, in the wood, and I
Speaker 1: was like, how am I going to use this?
Speaker 3: And so she sent me this video.
Speaker 2: Did I do it right?
Speaker 3: You did it?
Speaker 2: Yeah? I used it?
Speaker 3: Did you do it hard? Hard?
Speaker 2: Oh? I was like, you pussy open minded directions? Oh
Speaker 2: we had we've got it together.
Speaker 3: I don't know mine. Did mine set directions for cleaning it?
Speaker 2: Yeah?
Speaker 3: And not for putting it in?
Speaker 2: No, I figure stuffing it in there? Just stuffed the
Speaker 2: sponge now?
Speaker 3: Yeah? Yeah, pretty much?
Speaker 2: Ok?
Speaker 1: It Well, at first I washed it and I cleaned
Speaker 1: it just I put a little vinegar on there and
Speaker 1: I cleaned it first, and then you fold it up
Speaker 1: like a little taco, yeah, and then you insert it.
Speaker 2: I don't know if the taco. I just stuffed it.
Speaker 1: And may recommend that you still wear like either panty
Speaker 1: liner yeah, like period panties or whatever on your heavy days,
Speaker 1: and that you clean it after every use. And then
Speaker 1: she was getting really talking about just making sure you
Speaker 1: find a bathroom that has it has running water, and
Speaker 1: like having a bidet, which now I think I need
Speaker 1: a be day.
Speaker 2: I want to a day too. Yeah, you can just
Speaker 2: attach it.
Speaker 1: To I don't know why I felt like, and this
Speaker 1: is stupid, but I always felt like the days were
Speaker 1: insanitary because I was like, we're like I don't know,
Speaker 1: I don't know why. I thought it was like just
Speaker 1: it is the water from the toilet, but like it's also.
Speaker 3: I don't know why.
Speaker 1: My mind was like not processing it's the same ship.
Speaker 1: But in the video she also says like worst case
Speaker 1: scenario if you don't have water, flush the toilet a
Speaker 1: few times and just throw the sponge in there and
Speaker 1: use the toilet water to get it wet.
Speaker 2: And I was like wait, wait, wait, wait wait wait wait, hold.
Speaker 3: Up apparently the same water.
Speaker 2: Bitch now really has the same water bit in the toilet, but.
Speaker 3: The particles scenario. No, I didn't do it. I'm doing
Speaker 3: it at home.
Speaker 2: But I was just saying it. Worst case scenario, you
Speaker 2: flush the.
Speaker 1: Toilet and times and you use the water in the
Speaker 1: public bathroom toil it. I don't have to talk to
Speaker 1: her about this anyway. I'm going to have to talk
Speaker 1: to her about this asap. She's very well educated.
Speaker 2: I know she's a genius.
Speaker 1: Her pussy probably smells like fucking jazz.
Speaker 2: I'm not saying it's not. I'm telling her she shouldn't
Speaker 2: do that either. Okay, Well, under no circumstance, I'm gonna
Speaker 2: take that bitch to the sink with the common area.
Speaker 3: Have a water bottle on me at all times, like
Speaker 3: how I do my beauty wonder.
Speaker 1: Yeah, anyway, And I squeezed it in my plant, so yeah,
Speaker 1: so I used it, and so I used my blood
Speaker 1: for my altar, and I also use it for my plants.
Speaker 1: And now that I live in this new house, I
Speaker 1: have no fucking grass anywhere. Oh it's fucking terf Yeah,
Speaker 1: so I have to be creative.
Speaker 3: But I put the sponge in I had it in.
Speaker 2: For like, wouldn't mean if you created you were burying
Speaker 2: it before.
Speaker 3: I was burying it, yeah, before, But now I have
Speaker 3: I haven't.
Speaker 2: Maybe you can bury it in.
Speaker 3: I have some tr I did.
Speaker 2: I did, but I feel like that.
Speaker 1: I feel like that soil is so old, Like I
Speaker 1: need to resoil my plants and get some fresh soil.
Speaker 2: Yeah, I need.
Speaker 1: Yeah, but I pulled I had it in for like
Speaker 1: maybe four hours, and when I pulled it out, I
Speaker 1: just I anticipated it being like totally soaked and bloody,
Speaker 1: and it wasn't.
Speaker 3: And then you just run a little water over it
Speaker 3: and you squeeze it in the cup.
Speaker 2: Yeah, you have all this diluted blood. Yeah, and the
Speaker 2: magic for those watching are scared.
Speaker 1: So the men that are recording that are like, what
Speaker 1: in the fuck are these bitches talking about?
Speaker 3: Like what?
Speaker 2: Then we captured up blood and then you put it
Speaker 2: in a pants and I take it home.
Speaker 3: And then I kept it on my altar.
Speaker 1: And my.
Speaker 2: But really.
Speaker 1: No, I feel like I'm just trying to get really
Speaker 1: used to not being so f grossed out by my
Speaker 1: own bodily functions.
Speaker 3: So this is my this is my year.
Speaker 1: I don't know if I'm gonna be doing a period painting.
Speaker 2: Okay, or I'm not open to that, but you know,
Speaker 2: I don't know what day. I would just stand over
Speaker 2: the canvas.
Speaker 1: No, No period painting is you take that water, diluted water,
Speaker 1: you put a paint, brushing paint.
Speaker 2: No, I said, I could just stand over the canvas
Speaker 2: and just do a couple of drip and then use
Speaker 2: my fingers, you know, finger painting with it. I don't
Speaker 2: see myself doing that or spreading it on my face.
Speaker 2: But you can also like enchant your manifestations or have
Speaker 2: your prayers and you can write them out and then
Speaker 2: with semen or with blood with semen. Yeah, it's also
Speaker 2: like love. It's also life force energy. It's also like
Speaker 2: very ponent. It's of the body. So those things you
Speaker 2: can enchant your manifestations with, plant those keep them.
Speaker 3: Hm, you have to capture some semen this weekend.
Speaker 2: Yeah, hey, excuse me. Can I just get a little
Speaker 2: bit of that? I just wrote this one time. I
Speaker 2: had like under my pillow and I was like, listen,
Speaker 2: when you're done, just pull this out.
Speaker 1: The part our bills, our bills, so.
Speaker 2: Right, didn't have your feet.
Speaker 3: All right? Perfect?
Speaker 2: Oh my god, wait, I was trying to do some
Speaker 2: research speaking of periods, well about when you if you
Speaker 2: bleed on the new moon or the full moon. Did
Speaker 2: Sylvia talk to you about any of that because we're
Speaker 2: bleeding on the new moon. Yeah, of course we of
Speaker 2: course we are on the same cycle because we were
Speaker 2: together every.
Speaker 1: Moment, and of course we're wearing the same motherfucking outfit
Speaker 1: because this is not planned.
Speaker 3: Guys, swear to god.
Speaker 1: I also had the beanie, but then I said, bitch, this.
Speaker 3: Is too much, this is too much.
Speaker 2: We're wives. I'm like, do we own any other fucking clothes?
Speaker 1: No? No, Sylvia told me that. Shout out to Sylvia
Speaker 1: and Sestral. She's amazing. Make sure you go follow her
Speaker 1: on Instagram. She's our Costa Rican spiritual witch mama. She
Speaker 1: told me that during the full moon, if you're bleeding,
Speaker 1: you capture your blood and it's important to cover your
Speaker 1: head when you go out and you bear. You find
Speaker 1: a place, dig a hole, pour the blood in, ask
Speaker 1: like put your intentions into, like what you are trying
Speaker 1: to remove from your life, bury it and then that's it.
Speaker 2: And then for the new moon.
Speaker 3: I don't know about new moon.
Speaker 1: I got it. I gotta whatsapperrst time this episode comes out,
Speaker 1: I'll put an episode description or maybe I'll put it
Speaker 1: on Patreon. On Patreon, you can find out what we
Speaker 1: need me to do with your period.
Speaker 3: But blood on the new moon. But this new mood
Speaker 3: is in Capricorn, and.
Speaker 1: I know this new mood is inviting us to really
Speaker 1: think about our creative ideas, to feel inspired and like
Speaker 1: moving into whatever it is that really drives us. Are
Speaker 1: p really reflecting on our purpose not necessarily acting on it,
Speaker 1: because that feels really intense, especially in January, and we're
Speaker 1: trying to ease into January but really kind of planting
Speaker 1: the seeds and reflecting on the things that really get
Speaker 1: you excited about your creative process.
Speaker 2: And yeah, yeah, it was interesting this that last the
Speaker 2: last full moon was in Cancer and then the new
Speaker 2: moon was in Capricorn, which are like sot opposite. So
Speaker 2: it's like you probably did a heavy release emotional and
Speaker 2: then went into Capricorn mode.
Speaker 1: Mm.
Speaker 2: You know, so there's like a lot of balance in
Speaker 2: that too.
Speaker 3: Yeah.
Speaker 2: Yeah, but I've been feeling that too, Like we do
Speaker 2: so much work and I'm like I forget that, like
Speaker 2: this is what we get signed up is what we
Speaker 2: asked for. And like even we had that shoot recently
Speaker 2: and I was like getting anxiety about it. I was like,
Speaker 2: so much shit to do, and then like we did
Speaker 2: it and I was like, oh, yeah, this is fun.
Speaker 2: I love my job. I love hanging out with my
Speaker 2: friend and taking pictures. But you know, just like finding
Speaker 2: the optimism in daily life and just like the things
Speaker 2: that we actually do love and not like making the
Speaker 2: work of it work, you know, making everything play.
Speaker 3: Yeah, well, I think it's important too.
Speaker 1: It like come to these spaces, get outside, get into nature,
Speaker 1: especially like when it's cold, it feels I think that's
Speaker 1: why people get seasonal depression too, because it gets so
Speaker 1: cold and you are like I'm not going outside.
Speaker 2: Fuck that mm.
Speaker 3: But it's important.
Speaker 2: Yeah, cause I ha, I haven't been as motivated to
Speaker 2: come outside and hike, but now that I'm out here,
Speaker 2: it feels really good.
Speaker 3: Girl.
Speaker 1: Put them layers on, put that jacket on, right, and
Speaker 1: two layers of socks on, three pairs of pants, and
Speaker 1: get your ass outside.
Speaker 2: And really we're bullshitting because there's people who are definitely
Speaker 2: in much much colder spaces, right, We're actually very lucky.
Speaker 2: This is actually some bitch ass coldness. Actually some bitch
Speaker 2: ass it's actually some very very mild cold.
Speaker 1: I know, every time it gets cold in California, everyone
Speaker 1: freaks out, and I I'm literally always reminding people like, bitch,
Speaker 1: it gets cold here, right, it does. I mean not
Speaker 1: cold like Minnesota. You guys, it's like forty one degrees.
Speaker 1: But everyone in life freaks out. But you know why
Speaker 1: everyone's cold cause everyone's ill prepared. Everyone refuses to get
Speaker 1: with the program and actually put a fucking real jacket
Speaker 1: on like this, like l like, literally we resist this.
Speaker 2: This isn't light jazz.
Speaker 1: We resist this jacket in the winter in LA and
Speaker 1: then we're like, it's so fucking cold. Well.
Speaker 2: I remember when I went to college. I went to Atlanta,
Speaker 2: and I'm like, I don't know what the fuck I
Speaker 2: thought the climate was, but that winter hit and literally
Speaker 2: everything I own was like my tits were out, my
Speaker 2: crop top. I was just like, I was like what
Speaker 2: do I do? And I was like, I'm not I
Speaker 2: gonna created from cold climates and my wardrobe like I
Speaker 2: couldn't believe it. But it was like a reality check.
Speaker 2: I like this has begun to got cold, you know
Speaker 2: a little bit chilly. Should we do some deep rats together, Yeah,
Speaker 2: we should, some Mela moons, some deep breaths.
Speaker 1: Wherever you are, just take a second. If you're driving,
Speaker 1: don't close your eyes. If you aren't, closure.
Speaker 2: Eyes or not, we have a really beautiful view. We're
Speaker 2: looking at something very beautiful. I think sometimes when we
Speaker 2: meditate we wanna close our eyes. But like outside is
Speaker 2: so beautiful. Wherever your at is beautiful. I like to
Speaker 2: manifest for my my Hollywood Hills house. Oh absolutely, because
Speaker 2: now I can just pick the ones I like and
Speaker 2: like which one's like gonna be mine? What designs I like?
Speaker 2: M Imagine waking up to my Hollywood Hills infinite pool,
Speaker 2: infinity pool, looking out to the beautiful ab Speaking of manifestations,
Speaker 2: this morning, I had like a very intense fantasy manifestation
Speaker 2: session with someone that I'm hanging out with, and.
Speaker 1: It was like s one that I do a lot
Speaker 1: by myself, and it is like it it involves like
Speaker 1: a view. It involves like me being bent over a
Speaker 1: balcony looking at my view and my man telling me
Speaker 1: like how proud he is that I've created all of
Speaker 1: this and that like I bought this house and that
Speaker 1: all the work that I've put in and how powerful
Speaker 1: I am and how amazing I am that I've been
Speaker 1: able to create this space for it.
Speaker 3: And we were doing that, and he.
Speaker 1: Was doing it, and I was like, I I I
Speaker 1: manifested this moment. I kind of like teld him what
Speaker 1: I need him to say.
Speaker 2: Here's the script. I'm on leave that f b ready
Speaker 2: by Friday.
Speaker 3: And I was like, wow, this is so much nice.
Speaker 3: It's really great by myself.
Speaker 1: But I was like, oh my god, is this like
Speaker 1: we weren't outside we were actually doing We could have
Speaker 1: went outside. It was called we were my bed, but
Speaker 1: you're looking at we were we were were we were
Speaker 1: imagining cause I was asking what when what his fantasy was,
Speaker 1: and he said that his fantasy was taking me outside
Speaker 1: to my balcony and bending me over.
Speaker 2: And I was like, funny, you should say that because
Speaker 2: I have a fantasy.
Speaker 1: Similarly, I have a similar fantasy that involves you telling
Speaker 1: me that I'm a boss ass bitch.
Speaker 2: So I didn't do that in your own words? Ready go?
Speaker 2: Was that I did all this myself, just me, nobody,
Speaker 2: nobody for it, right, I imagine? Tell me that I
Speaker 2: did it all about myself? I think a lot of
Speaker 2: women need to hear that from men, you know what,
Speaker 2: It's so true and honestly, I I've had many moments
Speaker 2: like that with Orlando, and I don't take them for
Speaker 2: granted at all, Like they're all really beautiful. But I
Speaker 2: didn't realize how much I needed it until I found
Speaker 2: someone to do it. T sound, someone to like who
Speaker 2: just naturally does that, Like and I'm just thinking about
Speaker 2: you manifesting this moment and it happening, and like just
Speaker 2: overall realizing the amount of things we've manifested, like C
Speaker 2: like it's crazy, like I C Like, I know we
Speaker 2: talk about this a lot. I know everyone's like I
Speaker 2: got the manifest and manifests, but like, honestly and truly,
Speaker 2: the amount of things that we have manifested in our
Speaker 2: lives since we started to tap into our power are
Speaker 2: so clear. It's like you can literally not deny that
Speaker 2: we have power. And and we have worked really hard
Speaker 2: and like even in love, you know, and just like, yes,
Speaker 2: it's been an obstacle, and yes we've gone through some
Speaker 2: things and and it's not always been easy, and it's
Speaker 2: been hard, and it's been it's hurt.
Speaker 3: What has it hurt.
Speaker 2: It's hurt, but just arriving where you're supposed to arrive
Speaker 2: is so beautiful. And then like being able to like,
Speaker 2: because we're such a witchy bitches, go back to all
Speaker 2: of our four thousand readings. I knew she was right.
Speaker 1: I know that. I came into Jamila's house the other
Speaker 1: day and I was like, bitch, I went back and
Speaker 1: I did my research and I was listening.
Speaker 3: You should have seen me in the car. It was
Speaker 3: very dangerous.
Speaker 2: Wait were you in front of my house? I was
Speaker 2: that's how you parked out there.
Speaker 3: For a minute, I was like, is she coming in?
Speaker 1: Well? I was because I was having this moment because
Speaker 1: like all these things started to just click in my
Speaker 1: head around just like the readings that I've had and
Speaker 1: where my life is moving right now now that I've
Speaker 1: released certain things and certain people from my life, and
Speaker 1: I was like, I need to go back and check
Speaker 1: real quick, and so literally, bitch, don't I do not
Speaker 1: condone this, Okay, don't do what I do. I was
Speaker 1: literally driving and I was like, where the fuck is
Speaker 1: the reading? And I couldn't find it on my phone
Speaker 1: and I was like, I know it's on my computer.
Speaker 1: So I opened up my laptop and I was like typing,
Speaker 1: trying to type shit in while.
Speaker 2: I was not if you not die, but were manifesting
Speaker 2: like I need you, like mut's know, with the bitch
Speaker 2: said right now.
Speaker 1: And then I found the recording and I was listening
Speaker 1: to her talk and then I found the notes that
Speaker 1: the other woman wrote, and I was like, damn, it's
Speaker 1: so crazy because a lot of times people are looking
Speaker 1: for exact dates and they the granted it didn't happen
Speaker 1: exactly that next year, it happened the following year, but
Speaker 1: in the same month that she said it was going
Speaker 1: to happen, in a few days that she said it
Speaker 1: was going to happen, and I forgot about it. And
Speaker 1: that's the power of it. You kind of have to
Speaker 1: like hear it, know it, and then release it and
Speaker 1: then not think about it and then come back to it,
Speaker 1: and you'd be surprised. And I know there's so many
Speaker 1: like idiosyncrasies in my life that like I'm not even
Speaker 1: connecting that I've been told that have already happened, that
Speaker 1: I I've already forgotten that actually like have already aligned
Speaker 1: for me, right, And that's okay, And that's the beauty
Speaker 1: of it is kind of just like allowing the things
Speaker 1: to happen and forgetting.
Speaker 2: Yeah, but were really truly are some manifesting us, which
Speaker 2: is m M. You know, it's like it's so clear too,
Speaker 2: like you saying you're gonna move before the end of
Speaker 2: the year. Just so many things that have have come
Speaker 2: out the way we've asked them to. Yeah, it's pretty cool.
Speaker 2: It is. Women are fucking powerful.
Speaker 3: You are powerful.
Speaker 2: I'm I'm like, I'm super. Uh, I don't know, like
Speaker 2: I don't know, like Tantra or just like I think
Speaker 2: this this chapter in our lives in general, I think
Speaker 2: this journey has sent us on a deep dive into
Speaker 2: ourselves and into our healing. I think that's what we discovered,
Speaker 2: you know, Like I think we started this not really
Speaker 2: knowing where what we were, what direction we were going in,
Speaker 2: But what we disc is like we wanted to be
Speaker 2: the best versions of ourselves. And I think, like, as
Speaker 2: in this chapter, I'm really clear about how much my
Speaker 2: healing directly affects Luna and like her kids and her kids,
Speaker 2: And it's just interesting, like all of the modalities that
Speaker 2: you can use to heal if you're open to them,
Speaker 2: and like like even things that you don't like, you
Speaker 2: don't necessarily remember or like, and even thinking like we
Speaker 2: were in our grandmother's when nym s wombs when they
Speaker 2: birthed our moms.
Speaker 4: Mmmm, So whatever trespasses, whatever experiences that they've experienced on
Speaker 4: a cellular level, d genetically and energetically, we've also experienced.
Speaker 2: Those are those things. And then you think about the
Speaker 2: time in which they existed m and the things that
Speaker 2: were like going on, and not only do we exist
Speaker 2: in them, but we existed like specifically in their wombs
Speaker 2: right and like carrying that you know, carrying that those
Speaker 2: things and like how if y how do you hear
Speaker 2: those things once you discover them, because I think a
Speaker 2: lot of people suppress those things because they had like
Speaker 2: what the fuck am I gonna do with it? And
Speaker 2: it's so funny Like last night, I was uh on
Speaker 2: the call with my Tantra my Tantra sisters or whatever,
Speaker 2: and I got a call from a cousin of mine
Speaker 2: I'm really close to, but I haven't talked to her
Speaker 2: for a really long time because she was like struggling
Speaker 2: through some things, like she she's just struggling with like
Speaker 2: like some like uh, just uh, dependency and shit. But
Speaker 2: like I because she's had like she had she remembered
Speaker 2: a very traumatic experience from childhood that kind of like
Speaker 2: w I was around her for and she kind I
Speaker 2: had been thinking about her in the process while I
Speaker 2: was in school about like using the tantra to help her.
Speaker 2: And she called me and I hadn't talked to her,
Speaker 2: and I was like, that's interesting, so I answered or whatever,
Speaker 2: and she was just like she's getting emotional and she
Speaker 2: started talking to me, and like I was like, she
Speaker 2: just come to my house on Friday. She lives, yeah,
Speaker 2: And I was like, I, I've been meaning to reach
Speaker 2: out to you. I didn't think it was time, but
Speaker 2: you literally this is why you're calling you cause you're ready.
Speaker 2: So I was like, it's just no, like there's really
Speaker 2: no better timing than now. So like I think that
Speaker 2: you need to you need to show up on Friday.
Speaker 2: And she's like, Okay, I'll come. But she had experienced
Speaker 2: something traumatic, s like some sexual abuse traumatically as a
Speaker 2: very young child. She didn't remember, and then as a result,
Speaker 2: I think like carried it out and her you know, yeah,
Speaker 2: and even where I had places where I was like
Speaker 2: affected by it, but I obviously we're kids, and I
Speaker 2: didn't feel like it was traumatic. But in her apologizing
Speaker 2: to me, it made me realize, like these are these
Speaker 2: are things that I do embody in ways and that
Speaker 2: I have to heal them. But now that I have
Speaker 2: the opportunity with this, with this pract do it's this
Speaker 2: tantic practice to h like, you know, ah, maybe help
Speaker 2: her heal these things cause I have these tools. Now
Speaker 2: I'm just excited, Like what will that do for How
Speaker 2: can that change her life? And what will that do
Speaker 2: for her and like for her children, you know what
Speaker 2: I mean? And like even me doing my work and
Speaker 2: like how healing her is gonna probably heal those things
Speaker 2: in me too, and like how that's gonna heal Luna.
Speaker 2: And like I just feel I feel super grateful for
Speaker 2: this journey here because we kind of have had the
Speaker 2: opportunity to I don't know, like just like deep dive
Speaker 2: into the things we need to handle in ourselves and
Speaker 2: how can we be the best version of ourselves? And
Speaker 2: I know I'm proud of us. Yeah, I was yesterday.
Speaker 1: I was researching soul loss cause when we were in Mexico,
Speaker 1: we had this a k A cash a greeting, which
Speaker 1: is basically like a Google search of your soul, Like
Speaker 1: it's going through through all the versions of yourself and
Speaker 1: like pinpointing certain traumas, pinpointing certain moments in your l
Speaker 1: in your in your soul's evolution, not necessarily in this body, right,
Speaker 1: but like otherwives, right, And so La Jayla did this
Speaker 1: soul retrieval with both of us, and I was researching
Speaker 1: soul loss, and like, basically it's like usually it's initiated
Speaker 1: by some sort of traumatic event. It can also be
Speaker 1: initiated by like maybe you've like steered off the path
Speaker 1: of your purpose, but typically it's trauma, because let's be honest,
Speaker 1: nobody escapes trauma, right, And if you think you do,
Speaker 1: check again, Cause I had that conversation with someone last year.
Speaker 1: I was like, he doesn't have no traumas, he has
Speaker 1: no traumas. But it when you experience this traumatic event,
Speaker 1: it basically fragments your soul, and and within that fragmentation,
Speaker 1: it might manifest as disassociation from yourself from that event,
Speaker 1: from your being grounded in your body. It may look
Speaker 1: like codependency. It may look like not being able to
Speaker 1: adjust well in environments. It may look like addiction, sex, addiction, drug, addiction, anxiety,
Speaker 1: like all these different things, and the sole retrieval process
Speaker 1: is usually led by like a shaman like Lejela, or
Speaker 1: you can kind of begin to do it by yourself
Speaker 1: and the ways that you do it by yourself, cause
Speaker 1: I was thinking, like, wow, I probably need to do
Speaker 1: You can't just do one.
Speaker 2: Multiply YEA, let me keep going back and like asking
Speaker 2: for it to come back.
Speaker 1: But you have to get into this like almost like
Speaker 1: trans like state really like a deep meditation. And so
Speaker 1: for those that like have never meditated it, it requires
Speaker 1: you to get into that practice of meditating so that
Speaker 1: you can get into that state of going be able
Speaker 1: to kind of clear your mind, get really rooted, and
Speaker 1: then go back to the different versions of yourself as
Speaker 1: a child and really pinpoint the root of whatever it
Speaker 1: is that is affecting you. That the reason why maybe
Speaker 1: you're codependent, the reason why you are leaning into addiction,
Speaker 1: the reason why like you can't you're always tired, you
Speaker 1: can't complete the project. Like every time you wake up
Speaker 1: and you're like today's gonna be the day that I'm
Speaker 1: gonna finish that shit, And then you're like em you
Speaker 1: know you've been doing.
Speaker 3: That for years.
Speaker 1: You know, it's usually linked to some sort of traumatic
Speaker 1: event that has occurred. And within this like soul retrieval,
Speaker 1: the shaman or yourself negotiates with that version of your
Speaker 1: soul to come back. And a lot of times you
Speaker 1: that your soul doesn't even realize that it's been separated
Speaker 1: from itself, and sometimes the soul doesn't want to come back,
Speaker 1: right and there they're li there literally needs to be
Speaker 1: a negotiation because they've been so comfortable living in this
Speaker 1: space of limbo that they don't even realize or want
Speaker 1: or like they like it here.
Speaker 2: Right, Well, it's comfortable, comforting. Yeah, we're gonna keep going.
Speaker 3: No, I was just saying.
Speaker 1: And then like when you come, when you are able
Speaker 1: to kind of capture this this this soul, this version
Speaker 1: of yourself and bring it back, it's not always pretty.
Speaker 1: You don't just capture the soul and it comes back
Speaker 1: and then.
Speaker 2: Like oh you're heeled or you have to integrate that
Speaker 2: part that's been missing, and then you have to continuously
Speaker 2: reassure that part of you that it's safe here. And
Speaker 2: then it's okay, because especially if it's like a child
Speaker 2: piece of you. It's scared and like a lot of
Speaker 2: people don't think about they don't think, they think about
Speaker 2: our like our souls as like linear I think, and it's.
Speaker 1: Like this, it's there's pieces of that so expansive, and
Speaker 1: there's so many different versions like.
Speaker 2: That movie I everywhere and everywhere at once, everywhere anywhere,
Speaker 2: all at once. It's so crazy. I've talked about this before.
Speaker 1: But wait, you don't want to watch Last Night, which
Speaker 1: also kind of touched on this, which is totally ridiculous.
Speaker 1: And I've never seen this movie, and I was cracking
Speaker 1: the fuck up hot tub time Machine.
Speaker 2: Never seen no good.
Speaker 3: Robinson.
Speaker 2: It's ridiculous. It's a ridiculous movie. We watched it recently,
Speaker 2: you know what. We watched it before we went to
Speaker 2: Joshua Tree and we were in the fucking dracuzzie all weekend.
Speaker 2: I was like, I was like, it's a really good movie.
Speaker 3: But Hi, Hi, Hi baby, Hi Wind.
Speaker 1: You could almost think I like dogs. That's pretty think
Speaker 1: I'm softening to animals. I like, I like dogs that
Speaker 1: don't live with me. I don't have to pick up
Speaker 1: their ship just like babies.
Speaker 2: Am I getting hot? I was just I was thinking
Speaker 2: about a time where I was in a relationship with something.
Speaker 2: Damn that dog is brave even went down. I was
Speaker 2: in relationship with someone who was like trying to leave
Speaker 2: me or like like doing something that was manipulative, and
Speaker 2: K kept pulling me in and out. And I went
Speaker 2: into this like something tr it triggered me into this place,
Speaker 2: and it made me think about myself as a child.
Speaker 2: And I don't know what made me do this, but
Speaker 2: I imagine my childhood home and I like went through
Speaker 2: the home until I found myself m and I I
Speaker 2: was a child, and I was like, you know, basically
Speaker 2: I comforted myself and it was like a visualization. But
Speaker 2: I was like surprised at whatever called me to do that,
Speaker 2: cause I had never been I'd never thought about anything
Speaker 2: like that.
Speaker 1: But I mean that's like very something very s no,
Speaker 1: I don't wanna say standard, but that's something that people
Speaker 1: do a lot. I mean I remember that my first
Speaker 1: therapy session ever, this woman had me do that, like
Speaker 1: go back into a a moment and my childhood and
Speaker 1: go back and like and like revisit it and changed
Speaker 1: the scenario right right.
Speaker 3: But I I I I had what did you need
Speaker 3: in that moment? For you to feel comforted.
Speaker 2: And I never heard of anything like that, So I
Speaker 2: don't know what what made me even identified that moment
Speaker 2: with that time in my life. But it's because we
Speaker 2: don't give it a lot of thought and a lot
Speaker 2: of energy because we haven't disassociated and a lot of time,
Speaker 2: like like you said, like loss of memory, cause a
Speaker 2: disassociation really does r call you to not remember shit.
Speaker 2: So it's it's it's it's like you have to really
Speaker 2: put effort into doing that type of work, but it
Speaker 2: is necessary and like it's all connected and you cannot
Speaker 2: be healed in total. I mean, you know, we're not
Speaker 2: all healing in totality until you address the things from
Speaker 2: every stage of your life and call those parts of
Speaker 2: your SOULBA because yeah, it's fragmented. You're like a little
Speaker 2: piece of you dies, a little piece of you is
Speaker 2: left some a little piece of you is taken. So
Speaker 2: it says something to you. It hurts. You're like, fuck
Speaker 2: a little piece of you, It's like, and it's it's
Speaker 2: taken and also embeds in you because you you you
Speaker 2: work with that insecurity and you feel that y you
Speaker 2: embody and you've taken that in and so you're carrying
Speaker 2: that in life? Is it if it's av as, If
Speaker 2: it's that, that's your existence, and it's not right, And
Speaker 2: so it does. It does cause you to slowly be fragmented.
Speaker 2: And then you look at full children who are robust
Speaker 2: and happy and playful and then don't give a fuck,
Speaker 2: and you're like, why do I give a fuck so much?
Speaker 2: It is because little parts of you have been taken
Speaker 2: by people, say ancient shame judgment, you know, And so yeah, okay, so.
Speaker 1: I'm really excited to do this because I remember we
Speaker 1: did this on our retreat, but I didn't.
Speaker 3: I wasn't there. You guys did this behind my back.
Speaker 1: But then I saw like all these beautiful pictures that
Speaker 1: all the women had draw like painted of each other
Speaker 1: and their interpretations of each other, and there were such
Speaker 1: beautiful interpretations of each other's beauty and how we perceived
Speaker 1: one another, and it's so interesting to see how how
Speaker 1: one perceives someone else. Even I think we had a
Speaker 1: shoot the other day and you were talking to the
Speaker 1: makeup artist and you're like, it's so interesting how like
Speaker 1: you perceived my face and like, what what what? What
Speaker 1: accents of my beauty? You want to accentuate. So we've
Speaker 1: been friends for eight years now, nine nine years now,
Speaker 1: and we've never painted one another.
Speaker 2: It's time.
Speaker 3: So it's time.
Speaker 1: And so if you're at home and you have water colors,
Speaker 1: this is a fun activity to do with your kids. Yeah,
Speaker 1: let me do it as a family.
Speaker 2: And it's fun too, and like we do it every
Speaker 2: so often cause it's like get different versions and reframe
Speaker 2: them and it's it's fun. And you know what I
Speaker 2: like about it. I'm gonna put the time around seven
Speaker 2: minutes because it also gives you. It helps you detach
Speaker 2: from the the uh, the result. You know, it's just
Speaker 2: like a fun game and you don't it doesn't have
Speaker 2: to be perfect. And so because like Luna was getting
Speaker 2: so mad and I'm like, who cares, Like, just keep going.
Speaker 2: It's just like a fun little So I'm gonna put this.
Speaker 2: Remember remember seven minutes in Heaven?
Speaker 3: Oh my god? Did I I never played it?
Speaker 1: I always wanted to because you're a little hoe Okay,
Speaker 1: I'm putting a little hoe ass.
Speaker 2: I'm putting we're gonna use the water. I put some
Speaker 2: water in here too. When he use that, I'm just
Speaker 2: gonna I was just for drinking. I was gonna save
Speaker 2: it for drinking, all right, unless let me have on
Speaker 2: my sip. This is not good water.
Speaker 1: I went to a Chinese doctor one day one time,
Speaker 1: and I remember he told me, I drinking dasani water.
Speaker 3: My body is designed to drink.
Speaker 1: When you told me that, he was trying to play you.
Speaker 1: He said, certain people need to eat candy and drink
Speaker 1: a SIGNI let's see, yeah, cause I think I wasn't
Speaker 1: the candy person, but you were the decidad. I shouldn't
Speaker 1: eat any root vegetables, including garlic onions. I said, I'm Mexican.
Speaker 1: How the fuck is that gonna happen? Oh my god,
Speaker 1: he try to onion, and my shit, I'm gonna I'm.
Speaker 2: Gonna disabitch like that, like you fucking designing drinking ass bits.
Speaker 2: You don't go to whole foods.
Speaker 1: How you have a strange alliance to losers.
Speaker 2: It's an alkaline pussy bit.
Speaker 1: Literally, Cat Williams, when he said that line, it spoke
Speaker 1: to my soul and I will never forget that lime Now.
Speaker 2: I were calling me the other day like, what was
Speaker 2: that line again? What was that quote again?
Speaker 1: I was like, girl, your strange allegiance to losers unnatural.
Speaker 2: You have an unnatural allegiance to losers, you know, Nelly
Speaker 2: said the Cat Williams and podcasts, and I said, I
Speaker 2: resonate with that. I I'll take that real nigga shit
Speaker 2: over here.
Speaker 1: Okay, shit, do you have an unnatural allegiance to losers?
Speaker 1: We're letting those losers go in twenty twenty four?
Speaker 3: Do you hear me?
Speaker 2: And if you don't, if you have a leave more
Speaker 2: to them, we can't fuck with you either.
Speaker 3: We can't. We're burning bridges.
Speaker 2: Light of that, bitch.
Speaker 1: Okay, some burning bridges and we're only keeping love. We're
Speaker 1: burning bridges and we're only keeping love. All those unnatural
Speaker 1: allegiances to losers out.
Speaker 2: Of here, don't fell the bunch.
Speaker 3: Okay.
Speaker 2: So I'm putting seven minutes on the clock.
Speaker 3: Okay, and go.
Speaker 2: We can still talk.
Speaker 3: Okay, we have to talk because we can't stop.
Speaker 2: Ever, that's a fact. Okay, what are we gonna start with?
Speaker 3: Feel free to make me more tan.
Speaker 2: It's not okay, I'll do my best, okay. So Also
Speaker 2: a fun fact, me and Erica are oddly competitive. So
Speaker 2: I just want you to know my artistry is about
Speaker 2: to come through right now. I can't wait, not oddly competitive.
Speaker 3: I don't think you've ever seen my artistry.
Speaker 2: I don't think I have either. What if a Picassa
Speaker 2: over there?
Speaker 3: I mean me and Piicasso do have the same birthday?
Speaker 2: You do?
Speaker 3: Yeah?
Speaker 2: Bitch? Oh? Now fifth really legend was born Picassa, the
Speaker 2: legend Picassa.
Speaker 1: The legend of Picassa. What's your favorite thing to paint?
Speaker 2: Normally? I like a lot of abstract stuff. I like
Speaker 2: a lot of textures and shapes. I I had a
Speaker 2: period of I was only painting Yoni's.
Speaker 1: Oh my god, did you see you know who Jillian
Speaker 1: barb Uh what their hell's named?
Speaker 3: From X Files? Yeah, she wore a Yoni dress to
Speaker 3: the to the.
Speaker 2: No, I didn't see it. Oh my god, did you
Speaker 2: see Regina King and Angel Basic kiss and everybody's acting
Speaker 2: like a fucking asshole?
Speaker 3: What were they saying?
Speaker 2: It is like they're lesbians. All the black people are
Speaker 2: going crazy. Well maybe I was on the shade room,
Speaker 2: so I it's all the black people. But I was like,
Speaker 2: are people in this uncomfortable with friends kissing on the mouth?
Speaker 2: They're like, do you kiss your friends in the mouth?
Speaker 3: I was like, didn't.
Speaker 2: Today, It's like why what is with the community that
Speaker 2: like everything's fucking gay.
Speaker 1: They're like, what if two guys did it. I'm like,
Speaker 1: I don't give a fuck. Girls kiss each other. Everybody knows,
Speaker 1: it's a fact. Yeah, Like I was, I didn't know
Speaker 1: like people were this anti of love. Yesterday I went
Speaker 1: on live and I, uh, I my one of my
Speaker 1: that sub that we had come to La meaning the
Speaker 1: submissive man that I walked like a dog on a
Speaker 1: leash autter La show, mm hmm. He kept coming into
Speaker 1: the live and it kept keeping kicking him out because
Speaker 1: he kept talking about he was gonna send me money.
Speaker 3: Soon, and I was like, I'm not gonna send you money,
Speaker 3: I know.
Speaker 1: And I was like, if you don't, get the fuck
Speaker 1: out of my live and stop telling me you're gonna
Speaker 1: send me money and not send me money. And then
Speaker 1: everyone was like cause I was having such a peaceful conversation,
Speaker 1: and then I was like cursing him outside on the side,
Speaker 1: and they were like whoa. And I was like, I
Speaker 1: know it's a duality. I'm sorry, I'm cursed sing this
Speaker 1: man out, but this is what he likes. And also,
Speaker 1: get the fuck out of my lives.
Speaker 2: He wasn't what he likes this is what he asked for.
Speaker 2: Trust me, he loves it. He would want to be
Speaker 2: nice to him, No.
Speaker 3: He doesn't want me to be nice anyway. Finally he
Speaker 3: made like he has like three different accounts.
Speaker 1: I kept kicking him out, and he kept joining with
Speaker 1: from different instagrams, and so finally he was like, he
Speaker 1: kept requesting to join the live, so I let him
Speaker 1: join the live. And when when he was in Live, well,
Speaker 1: while I was on live, party Fontaine came.
Speaker 2: Into my life.
Speaker 1: I forgot that We've been trying to have a party
Speaker 1: on our show for a while. Shout out to party.
Speaker 2: He's so cute. He is really cute.
Speaker 1: And he came on the live and he was like, Hi,
Speaker 1: I'm Eric a sub and I worshiped the ground.
Speaker 2: She walks on, why did you accept him?
Speaker 3: I am that man.
Speaker 1: I was walking on a leash. I'm the man who
Speaker 1: sucked the cucumber online. It was me I love Jill
Speaker 1: Joe's I love And he pulled out, oh my how
Speaker 1: all at.
Speaker 3: Ten am on a Tuesday?
Speaker 2: How did you miss telling me this?
Speaker 3: Wait? So how many my minutes?
Speaker 2: I have left?
Speaker 1: Three minutes and fifteen up? So anyway, he let me
Speaker 1: see your nose. Okay, are you even looking at me?
Speaker 1: You're just going freestyle.
Speaker 2: You just know what I look like.
Speaker 1: I think, listen, why about your own ship? Okay'm sorry,
Speaker 1: I'm trying to make an eyebrows beautiful. So anyway, he
Speaker 1: pulled out the dick and started sucking it on live.
Speaker 2: Oh my god? How did I miss that?
Speaker 1: I mean I kind of told him to do it.
Speaker 1: I mean, he just did the dick in his hand.
Speaker 1: He's like, you want me to suck it? I was
Speaker 1: like yeah, and then he started saying and I was like,
Speaker 1: get out, and then he got out. He got out
Speaker 1: the live and then Party was like, I'm out, What
Speaker 1: the fuck?
Speaker 3: And then we started having this conversation. He was like
Speaker 3: he's gay and I was like, no, he's not. Party
Speaker 3: got on.
Speaker 2: Then then Party got it there.
Speaker 1: We started texting and then he was like he's that
Speaker 1: guy is gay and I was like, I don't think
Speaker 1: he's gay, and he was like, how would he know
Speaker 1: that he likes pleasure in his asshole if he wasn't gay.
Speaker 2: I was like, did you say anything but his asshole?
Speaker 2: Are just sucking the cucumber?
Speaker 1: No? I mean I think I told that on Live
Speaker 1: that like he wants to get fucked by like twelve
Speaker 1: girls with twelve and strap in strap on, because that's
Speaker 1: what he told me.
Speaker 3: And I was like, well, he he knows because he
Speaker 3: has dil.
Speaker 1: Do's and he has fingers, and I just think, I'm
Speaker 1: just you know, I was I was going to sit
Speaker 1: there and debate with Party about gay and gay man
Speaker 1: and men experiencing.
Speaker 3: Pleasure in a buttthole, and I was like, I don't
Speaker 3: have time for this is right now.
Speaker 2: You know, it really serves me off. And I probably
Speaker 2: shouldn't say this because then everyone you're never gonna be
Speaker 2: unsee it, but you know it. It kind of I
Speaker 2: think parties keep, but I also think for and I'm like,
Speaker 2: you into it and I.
Speaker 3: Know they look the same, and it's oh wait.
Speaker 1: But then I told Party, I said, well, you were
Speaker 1: on my friend's show, Mandy and she's pegg the Stallion,
Speaker 1: and I was like, what.
Speaker 3: Was he on it? He was on see the thing is?
Speaker 2: So why is that how he is?
Speaker 3: Because I was like, I thought you would have known
Speaker 3: like this.
Speaker 1: I thought you'd done the research already, you already You're
Speaker 1: on my friend Mandy's show and she's pegged the stallion.
Speaker 3: Everybody knows that. Now you're using Mandy.
Speaker 1: And then I was like kind of scared that I
Speaker 1: said Megan's name to him.
Speaker 2: It was like, is he triggered, Oh, he's never ready,
Speaker 2: come on the show. Now, I'm great.
Speaker 1: No, he's ready, he's ready. Okay, yeah, he's ready. But
Speaker 1: I was just like, damn, people are so the closed minded.
Speaker 1: Is cause I was also telling you might wanna have
Speaker 1: ritualistic sex, and he's like, what the fuck is that?
Speaker 1: You just wanna sit in a circle and light some
Speaker 1: stage and get fucked with good music?
Speaker 2: And I saw that. Oh my god, it's like no,
Speaker 2: I mean yeah, but no, it's more than that.
Speaker 3: Oh my god. I fifty one seconds.
Speaker 2: Wait, I haven't done your hair. You're gonna keep me bald? Yeah,
Speaker 2: Oh gosh, this is so hard when it's so f
Speaker 2: you know, maybe Lena was raised on enough time. I
Speaker 2: think I fucked it up.
Speaker 3: I gotta paint your face.
Speaker 2: Oh god, now it's black. Maybe we need ten minutes,
Speaker 2: you need an extension. Oh no, oh no, I matter,
Speaker 2: fuck this up, this right now, don't rush nineteen seconds.
Speaker 1: But anyway, shout out to the men who explore their
Speaker 1: pleasure in their butthole, judgment in their butthole. This is
Speaker 1: why you're a man who wants to experience in pleasure.
Speaker 1: I salute you in your butthole. You salute them in
Speaker 1: their buttle. I mean, not in your butthole.
Speaker 3: But you now go, you go, you go, you go,
Speaker 3: you have you know.
Speaker 2: Who you are. It's just more about being open minded
Speaker 2: and doing your own thing. You know, don't let the
Speaker 2: society make the rules for you. You make the rules
Speaker 2: for you and your butthole because it's yours.
Speaker 3: You have autonomy over your butthole.
Speaker 2: There's sorry, Oh are we done? Is it?
Speaker 3: The alarm went off?
Speaker 2: Oh no, I think I just ruined it the very
Speaker 2: last second. Okay, okay, ready for the reveal. I don't
Speaker 2: know if you're gonna like it.
Speaker 3: I don't if you're gonna let.
Speaker 2: Your this is our best friend.
Speaker 1: I got distracted talking about but hooles.
Speaker 2: Okay, ready, here's a big reveal.
Speaker 3: Alright ready?
Speaker 2: One? Two, three?
Speaker 3: Why is my nose so big? Because I mess up?
Speaker 2: This is Erica right now today, Live by me, and
Speaker 2: that's me. You know I look pretty? That's good.
Speaker 3: I was like a with that.
Speaker 2: I'm leftline.
Speaker 1: Well, you sometimes, you know, you put the dark lipud.
Speaker 1: I was going for the dark lip that you tell
Speaker 1: and then a little pink in the sidekay, and then
Speaker 1: your little individual eyelashes you like to put on.
Speaker 2: Yeah, I was just going for your nice hair with
Speaker 2: your side part. I was like, why is it red?
Speaker 3: And then I forgot I'm read, I'm read.
Speaker 2: That now why this is what you look like? This
Speaker 2: is you right now?
Speaker 1: This is why I can't even paint bag don't know
Speaker 1: what they look like. It's beautiful, Thank you for I
Speaker 1: had to put this in the office I was putting.
Speaker 1: I tried to make your eyebrows delicate, cause you're a beautiful, delicate, delicate. Yeah,
Speaker 1: but your your face is a little strong, kind of
Speaker 1: a strong jaw here in real life, okay, yeah, the
Speaker 1: nose it got a little mess up with the last
Speaker 1: minut I tried to do some shadowing.
Speaker 2: I didn't have enough time for that. I was trying
Speaker 2: to get really deep and seven minutes is not that long.
Speaker 2: You're right, but I really didn't. I really didn't actent
Speaker 2: your curls. It's beautiful. I love that you like that.
Speaker 2: I was trying to give you a good like eyebrows.
Speaker 2: Just see the fro throwing. I like that. Thank you
Speaker 2: gave me more in the front than I actually have.
Speaker 3: I appreciate that.
Speaker 2: That's what they look like. You're in it perfect cause
Speaker 2: I'm so try to set home with your make the
Speaker 2: kids do it, you do it with the kids. This
Speaker 2: is like, these are the act fun activities I like
Speaker 2: to do. I'm not like a kid person, like a
Speaker 2: kid game person, So I have to make activities that
Speaker 2: we both like and this is one of them.
Speaker 3: This is great.
Speaker 2: Ready for Tarot time.
Speaker 3: It's Tarot time.
Speaker 2: Okay, y'all come on in.
Speaker 3: It is now Terot time.
Speaker 2: I ain't nothing better to do Tarot time than on
Speaker 2: the top of the mountain a nice, warm, kind of
Speaker 2: warm day.
Speaker 3: What do the cards have to say to us today, baybe?
Speaker 2: The cards have to say? Who to my cuchac? Do
Speaker 2: you guys have sex? No?
Speaker 3: Just terror like terror penetration.
Speaker 2: It's called devil terror penetration. We don't know quite possibly,
Speaker 2: there's no hell, darling, we're here, you're right.
Speaker 1: Ah.
Speaker 2: What nothing?
Speaker 3: I'm just kidding.
Speaker 2: My sorry, that was O. Got it? Not what you
Speaker 2: sound like? Did you say it's not? I sound like
Speaker 2: you don't know that?
Speaker 3: And yes I do know what she sounds like.
Speaker 2: No, I have not given her one yet.
Speaker 3: Okay, all of that you wanted to add, No, I
Speaker 3: picked one in the middle. Okay, let's see what you got.
Speaker 3: Oh is it too?
Speaker 1: It kind of looks like in the position that we're in,
Speaker 1: Oh my god, we got we pulled the two of cups.
Speaker 3: Shout out to mahogany Taro.
Speaker 2: We always pulled the two of cups because we're lovers.
Speaker 2: I'm so the two of cups? Should we?
Speaker 3: Says hm?
Speaker 2: This is ird?
Speaker 3: This is reenacting.
Speaker 2: Yeah, this says reenacting to a cups. If you're just listening,
Speaker 2: you have to go to view two if you.
Speaker 1: Haven't already one to YouTube from this whole episode of Now.
Speaker 2: I'm gonna reenacting the two calendar three did a whole
Speaker 2: deck where we reenact all seventy two cars.
Speaker 3: Maybe it's a calendar.
Speaker 2: Ooh did you calend? I want to do a calendar.
Speaker 2: But no one has those any markets on the phone. Okay,
Speaker 2: Two of cups unified love, m partners, mutual attraction. Both fine,
Speaker 2: let's see what it says. And if the ace of
Speaker 2: cups represents flow of love from within the two of cups,
Speaker 2: is the flow of love between two people. With this card,
Speaker 2: you are creating deep connections partnerships based on shared values, compassion,
Speaker 2: and unconditional love. While these relationships are still in the
Speaker 2: early stages, they have potential to grow and develop into
Speaker 2: something deeply fulfilling and rewarding. In the long term. You
Speaker 2: have mutual respect and appreciation for one another, and together
Speaker 2: you can reach higher planes of consciousness and understanding. When
Speaker 2: the two of cups card appears in a Tari rating,
Speaker 2: you may enter a new partnership, perhaps with a lover
Speaker 2: of friend or business partner. You're both focused on creating
Speaker 2: a relationship that is mutually beneficial, one that will create
Speaker 2: a win win situation for both parties. You see eye
Speaker 2: to eye and appreciate which which each other can bring
Speaker 2: to the table.
Speaker 3: Okay, I receive that. I receive that.
Speaker 2: I resonate with that. I think like I was just
Speaker 2: like thinking recently about long term relationships, and like what
Speaker 2: happens in long term relationships that like people start to
Speaker 2: turn even like in love or in friendship or in
Speaker 2: business partnership, And I think that people underestimate that like
Speaker 2: the unresolved things, or like even like taking things personally
Speaker 2: and then like it being for a longer period of time, right,
Speaker 2: because it's so much easier to get annoyed with the
Speaker 2: people we know, Like I live with Orlando, and I
Speaker 2: know all the things that get on my nerves, so
Speaker 2: I can hone in on that and I could really
Speaker 2: get like detached, but I have to always come back
Speaker 2: to this place of compassion and like, this is the
Speaker 2: person I love and even with you, like we're together
Speaker 2: all the time, and I'm sure there's things we get
Speaker 2: on each other's nerves all the time. And then I'm
Speaker 2: like find myself like fe like holding onto it, and
Speaker 2: I'm like, there's this serves no one. But I'm also
Speaker 2: realizing that in partnership, like this level of like this
Speaker 2: level that we're we're existing in right now requires that
Speaker 2: we'd be so self reflective that you don't go into
Speaker 2: old patterns of being like holding onto things, taking things
Speaker 2: personally and not carrying it on in a relationship because
Speaker 2: they will literally ch alter the the framework of the
Speaker 2: relationship if you allow the things. And that's why it's
Speaker 2: easier to get annoyed with someone you've known longer, because
Speaker 2: you've had longer opportunities for them to get on your
Speaker 2: fucking nerves right, and you know the most m and
Speaker 2: you know that the things that annoy you most about them,
Speaker 2: and then you have a choice to like focus in
Speaker 2: on that or focus in on the things that I
Speaker 2: actually love about you, because this is what it is.
Speaker 2: But it's r it also requires active loving, you know,
Speaker 2: and like I s I receive that because I think,
Speaker 2: like this has been the ultimate n test and lesson of.
Speaker 3: Act.
Speaker 2: Like I think even when we started, our biggest fear
Speaker 2: was like what if we don't like each other or
Speaker 2: we get into a fight, But it's like as as
Speaker 2: friends and business partners and who are going through life
Speaker 2: as individuals, like it's so important to constantly remember, like
Speaker 2: I'm not gonna fucking take this s old shit and
Speaker 2: bring it here because that's done, and like it taking,
Speaker 2: you know, being conscious of myself, Like, bitch, are you
Speaker 2: being compassionate? Are you assuming things? Are you assuming the worst?
Speaker 2: Like why are you thinking negatively or thinking that she's
Speaker 2: thinking negatively or whatever, like just you know, talking about
Speaker 2: things that I think sometimes people underestimate the power of
Speaker 2: being honest with your fucking self And if you're being
Speaker 2: a bitch or if you're taking things too personally and
Speaker 2: like applying that those things.
Speaker 1: Mm.
Speaker 2: Amen, so two cups, two of cuts. I wanna do
Speaker 2: a little meditation while we're out here in in our
Speaker 2: twin outfits. Yes, little hang my jacket up on a brand.
Speaker 3: Well, did you have an affirmation?
Speaker 2: Oh? Hm, thank you? What is the affirmation?
Speaker 1: Mm?
Speaker 2: This is cheesy. Let love lead you, n Let love
Speaker 2: lead you. Let love lead you, Let love lead you.
Speaker 2: I love that you're like that. I do. Let love
Speaker 2: lead you. Don't let the bullshit lead you, because there's
Speaker 2: a lot of bullshit, y'all. There's a lot of bullshit
Speaker 2: in this world. There's a lot of hate, there's a
Speaker 2: lot of crime, there's a lot of violent shit, but mostly,
Speaker 2: if we really pay attention, there's mostly love. And so
Speaker 2: let that lead you, not all the bullshit, cause America
Speaker 2: is gotta very very good. O.
Speaker 3: Yes, let love lead you.
Speaker 2: And you are love, and you are made of love.
Speaker 2: And remember that you're like water. You're eighty percent love.
Speaker 1: And anyone that is not expressing and giving you the
Speaker 1: love that you need, kick 'em off the mountaintop.
Speaker 3: Baby.
Speaker 2: It's time to let that make it go. It's time
Speaker 2: to let that bitch go. It's time to let that
Speaker 2: family member go.
Speaker 1: It's okay because in twenty twenty four, we are leveling
Speaker 1: up and leading with love.
Speaker 4: We are.
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