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Speaker 1: All from Jade.

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Speaker 2: Hello, Yo, my god, is it wild?

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Speaker 3: Yeah? Who's this?

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Speaker 1: Oh my god? This is Jade. I've been like trying

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Speaker 1: to call for like two years. What the buck, Jade?

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Speaker 3: What's going on? How's life?

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Speaker 1: Not a car? Life is terrible? I've it's been rough.

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Speaker 4: Man.

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Speaker 3: Why I so?

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Speaker 1: I just lost my job, that's cool. The place I've

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Speaker 1: been working at was like, hey, we gotta do budget cuts,

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Speaker 1: you gotta fire someone. That one someone neut. I was like, man,

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Speaker 1: that sucks, and I cried about it. And then I've

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Speaker 1: been applying to a lot of jobs and no one

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Speaker 1: is hiring.

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Speaker 3: Yeah, you know what I just it just really is

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Speaker 3: so crazy that we need money to live. This is

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Speaker 3: where this is. I'm going to get into, Like I

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Speaker 3: don't know anything about economics or life or politics or whatever,

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Speaker 3: but it's like it's just shouldn't we have there's enough

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Speaker 3: food and stuff, and like, you know, we're gonna shouldn't

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Speaker 3: we get robots to just do everything for us and

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Speaker 3: then we can each hall of enough to just like

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Speaker 3: hang out. You know, it's just crazy that we need

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Speaker 3: to we need to work to live. Or maybe it's

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Speaker 3: not crazy, maybe it makes sense. And I'm dumb. I

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Speaker 3: don't know, I'm I'm not. I mean whatever.

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Speaker 1: For me personally, I like working, having just a thing

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Speaker 1: to do that important for me. Yeah, it's an important thing,

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Speaker 1: you know. Uh. But on the other hand, it's like

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Speaker 1: this fucking sucks at all times that I'm at work.

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Speaker 1: I want to fucking kill myself. Can I say that? Anyways?

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Speaker 1: Do whatever you want to make It's yeah, it's rough, dude.

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Speaker 1: And I mean, like, I'm taking care of my girlfriend.

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Speaker 1: She's like super disabled. I mean, I she's also pregnant

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Speaker 1: right now, which is a little crazy crazy. Yeah, I know,

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Speaker 1: I'm really scared about that.

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Speaker 3: Yeah.

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Speaker 1: Uh. She has metal rods in her legs, so there's

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Speaker 1: like a chance and like a plate in her hip,

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Speaker 1: there's a chance like when she gives birth, like legs

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Speaker 1: could just like explode, you know, which would not be

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Speaker 1: very epic. I don't think.

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Speaker 3: I mean, it'd be a little epic.

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Speaker 1: Yeah, it'd be kind of cool, Like if.

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Speaker 3: You're gonna if you're I'm I don't think it'd be good.

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Speaker 3: But if you're using the word epic, I think it

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Speaker 3: would be a little epic.

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Speaker 1: Yeah, little bit.

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Speaker 3: What job were you fired from?

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Speaker 1: It was a it was basically a lion cook position

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Speaker 1: out like a pizza place. All I did every day

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Speaker 1: was I was the dough person. I would make dough

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Speaker 1: and fucking cut it into the circles so they can

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Speaker 1: make the pizzas.

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Speaker 3: But uh, yeah, you're Italian.

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Speaker 1: I mean actually my family is very Italian unfortunately through

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Speaker 1: in breeding. But thinks like my great grandparents or first cousins.

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Speaker 3: Hm, but are you are? You were your your parents

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Speaker 3: weren't cousins? Were they?

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Speaker 1: No? Thank god that I feel like I'd be like

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Speaker 1: twice as fucked up as my parents were. Like related, Uh,

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Speaker 1: I'm not already. I mean like I'm autistic as shit,

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Speaker 1: I'm just gizophrenic. It's not not a good combination there.

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Speaker 3: Well, you seem cool to me.

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Speaker 1: Well, unfortunately jobs do not think so.

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Speaker 3: I mean, why why do you think jobs don't think

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Speaker 3: that you're cool?

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Speaker 1: When I mean I've noticed in a lot of interviews

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Speaker 1: when jobs realize that you are not I don't want

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Speaker 1: to say normal, but like if you're a little bit

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Speaker 3: Gonna be like, well, here's the thing, Jade, I don't know.

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Speaker 3: I mean, we've been talking for about four minutes now,

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Speaker 3: and I don't know who you are, so, I mean

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Speaker 3: I just from from the other end of the table,

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Speaker 3: you are somebody. If if you hadn't have told me

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Speaker 3: that there was anything going on, uh, my first impression

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Speaker 1: Well, that is very kind to hear.

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Speaker 3: Unfortunately, I do not have any Pazza places that I

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Speaker 3: own that you can work at. But if I did, yeah,

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Speaker 3: i'd hire you.

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Speaker 1: Fortunately, you know that's I don't know. It's like I'm

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Speaker 1: not even getting interviews, which is the fucked un part.

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Speaker 1: It's like, I have a good resume, I have like

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Speaker 1: five six years of restaurant experience. Like what am I

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Speaker 3: You know, it's so hard. It's so hard. It's like funny,

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Speaker 3: it's it. You know, it's hard to get any kind

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Speaker 3: have you got to know somebody. It's so hard. But

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Speaker 3: it's hard to get a fucking job at a pizza place. Dude.

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Speaker 3: It's hard. To get a job anywhere. You know, it's

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Speaker 3: hard to It's fucking hard, man.

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Speaker 1: I feel you like a walk into a place like

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Speaker 1: I walked into this, this fucking restaurant of like a

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Speaker 1: week ago. I'm like, here are you guys hiring? And

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Speaker 1: they're like, yes, we are supergently hiring. We need to

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Speaker 1: come on in the kitchen. I'm like, well, here's my resume.

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Speaker 1: I have five years of experience. And then they didn't

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Speaker 3: What like, I don't know, I don't Yeah, what does

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Speaker 3: your girlfriend do?

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Speaker 1: She so she works part time at a like a

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Speaker 1: fish store. I guess you could call it like an

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Speaker 1: exotic fish store. It's got like salt water on one side,

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Speaker 1: freshwater on the other. Uh. Same with my roommate, who's

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Speaker 1: also technically gonna be a second, well third parent to

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Speaker 1: the kid because he can have kids like he's and

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Speaker 1: he's always wanting a kid. So we're like, you know,

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Speaker 1: you can help raise our kid.

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Speaker 3: Wait, so the third who's who's vagina? Is the baby

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Speaker 3: coming out of.

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Speaker 1: My girlfriends?

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Speaker 3: Okay? So okay, well you said third parent. I was like,

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Speaker 3: is there a double penetration thing going on where it's

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Speaker 3: like so let's just cut it down the middle.

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Speaker 1: Yeah, fucking now, he just uh he always want to

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Speaker 3: And wait, for real, you're just the room. The roommate

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Speaker 3: is just like, hey, you guys are having a kid.

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Speaker 3: That looks pretty cool. Can I have Can I have

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Speaker 3: a little piece of your kid? Like he's asking like

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Speaker 3: he's asking for a bite of your food, but with

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Speaker 1: Yeah, it's pretty much as casual as that. You're like,

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Speaker 1: you know what, we we could use the help around.

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Speaker 3: You know, how do you know this roommate? This isn't

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Speaker 3: just like a Craigslist roommate.

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Speaker 2: Is it? No?

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Speaker 1: Fuck no? He so he went to my high school

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Speaker 1: and then I like didn't see him for a while.

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Speaker 1: And then it turns out he started working with my

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Speaker 1: place to be a roommate. I'm like, I already know him,

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Speaker 1: you already know him, might as well. And then it

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Speaker 3: So I guess I don't understand, like this, how this

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Speaker 3: man has purchased shares of your child, Like he's just

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Speaker 3: he's just a dad. What's the arrangement here.

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Speaker 1: Yea, it's like, oh my god, what there's a there's

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Speaker 1: a show where there's multiple dads to like multiple kids.

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Speaker 1: I can't even remember what it is. It's some sitcom,

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Speaker 1: but anyways, it's just like the kid's gonna call him dad.

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Speaker 1: The kid's gonna call my girlfri and mom called me mom.

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Speaker 1: I mean, no, that's not that crazy.

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Speaker 3: Okay, So the kid will have two moms and one dad.

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Speaker 3: Two moms, one dad yet and the dad he's.

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Speaker 1: A parent teacher conference. Is a little awkward, but.

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Speaker 3: So your friend from high school is just down to

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Speaker 3: be your kid's dad. He's not you guys aren't in

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Speaker 3: like a whole poly crazy thing, are you?

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Speaker 4: No?

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Speaker 1: No, no, no, Like that was specifically something he requested,

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Speaker 1: was like I do not want to be in a

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Speaker 1: relationship with either of you. No offense, but we're like

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Speaker 1: gonna he has like day people, so.

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Speaker 3: He can kind of he can he can sort of

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Speaker 3: dip out at any time he wants. You know, he's

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Speaker 3: not even like a real dad.

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Speaker 1: Technically he could, but I don't think he will. I mean,

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Speaker 1: he's like super excited about the whole thing. He's wanted

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Speaker 1: that's a weird little situation we got, but okay, it

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Speaker 3: That's crazy that like, in whatever state you live in,

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Speaker 3: it's easier to like become some kid's dad without doing

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Speaker 3: anything than it is to get a job at a

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Speaker 1: That's what I'm saying, dude.

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Speaker 3: I mean, is he gonna pay for the kid? Is

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Speaker 3: he helping pay for the kid? Is he like financially

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Speaker 1: Yeah, he is financially supporting. I mean he's already like

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Speaker 1: bought stuff for the kid preemptively, like baby crib, I

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Speaker 1: forget the fuck off the counter, sorry my cat baby. Yeah,

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Speaker 1: he's just on the fucking counter. They're actually both at

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Speaker 1: work right now. But yeah, basically he wants to financially support,

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Speaker 1: you know. And I think it's good because like, having

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Speaker 1: three parents is better than.

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Speaker 3: Two, I suppose. So I suppose it takes it takes uh,

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Speaker 3: it takes a roommate, true.

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Speaker 1: I mean unless we make the kids like three times

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Speaker 1: as fucked up, then that I don't think that's good.

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Speaker 3: Okay, Well, what was the kid an accident or did

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Speaker 3: you plan the kid.

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Speaker 1: So we did plan the kids what's called uh, but

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Speaker 1: we've been telling everyone we didn't plan the kid because well,

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Speaker 1: it was mostly my girlfriend. He said that because she

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Speaker 1: was very scared that people would judge us because we

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Speaker 1: aren't the most financially well off. I mean even now

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Speaker 3: And so, okay, so it was planned, but you're telling

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Speaker 3: people it wasn't. Yes, basically okay because you're afraid that

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Speaker 3: they will judge you for having a kid without being

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Speaker 3: like financially stable.

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Speaker 1: Yeah, yeah, for sure.

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Speaker 3: Okay, how long have you been planning on having a

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Speaker 3: kid for?

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Speaker 1: I mean, I wouldn't say ever since we've started dating,

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Speaker 1: but like the ideas is fluted around, but I guess,

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Speaker 1: like this just this year, we've been really set on

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Speaker 3: Mm hmm. And well, I mean I get look, I

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Speaker 3: mean I guess you have three incomes. Does the does

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Speaker 3: the truth does the guy is the guy have a

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Speaker 3: job the roommate.

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Speaker 1: Yes, he works at the same place my girlfriend.

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Speaker 3: Does Okay, so that's.

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Speaker 1: Also convenient with like rides and everything, and yeah, I

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Speaker 3: You know. Well, Jada, I can tell you is good luck.

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Speaker 3: I hope that you if there's a pizza what state

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Speaker 3: the Lizard Show. Come make pizzas for me. God, Jade,

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Speaker 3: is there anything else you want to say to the

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Speaker 1: Uh? Someone in chack in Chat asked, is the girlfriend

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Speaker 1: the hot?

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Speaker 1: I don't know. Uh. What I have to say I

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Speaker 3: Well you got that going for you?

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Speaker 3: You don't know if your girlfriend's hot? That's this there's

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Speaker 1: You, take care. I love you, Yle.

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Speaker 3: You're an awesome Thank you, thank you, good good, good

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Speaker 3: luck with everything. I'm rooting for you. I'm MoMA, I'm

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Speaker 3: I'm I will, I will. I don't know what a

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Speaker 3: I don't know. I don't know. I mean, I just

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Speaker 2: All that.

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Speaker 3: But at the end of the day, look, man, I

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Speaker 2: Hello, Hey, yeah, I just had a question. I've been

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Speaker 3: Yeah, What's what's going on? Man?

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Speaker 2: So my girlfriend, like she's a real pothead and I've

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Speaker 3: So your girlfriend wants you to take a bong rip

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Speaker 2: Well, I always heard about like paranoia, and like, I

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Speaker 3: Hm hmm, what do you paranoid could happen?

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Speaker 2: Well, just feeling it's kind of like a like you

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Speaker 3: You know, you know, everyone has their own experience with drugs,

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Speaker 2: Okay, Yeah, I might just have to try that. Should

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Speaker 3: Is there a baby? You guys have a baby? Don't

438
00:26:06,880 --> 00:26:16,600
Speaker 3: tell me you too have a baby together? Uh? Dude. Next,

439
00:26:16,640 --> 00:26:19,800
Speaker 3: here's the thing. For here's the thing. It starts with

440
00:26:19,840 --> 00:26:21,920
Speaker 3: your girlfriend trying to get you to take a bong

441
00:26:22,000 --> 00:26:23,840
Speaker 3: rip out of her vagina, and then all of a sudden,

442
00:26:23,880 --> 00:26:28,639
Speaker 3: she's gonna be like, yo, let's pack the baby.

443
00:26:30,960 --> 00:26:33,719
Speaker 2: No, I don't think it's gonna go that Varna.

444
00:26:34,800 --> 00:26:36,680
Speaker 3: No, Like I feel like the top like you could

445
00:26:36,680 --> 00:26:39,040
Speaker 3: like kind of push on the top of a baby's

446
00:26:39,080 --> 00:26:42,920
Speaker 3: head to make a little dent, right, and then pack

447
00:26:43,760 --> 00:26:46,879
Speaker 3: into that. Yeah, and then pack some wead into that

448
00:26:46,960 --> 00:26:49,080
Speaker 3: and then you smoke it out of the baby's mouth.

449
00:26:53,160 --> 00:26:55,199
Speaker 2: I mean, I don't think I'd ever try that, but

450
00:26:55,280 --> 00:26:58,560
Speaker 2: that's definitely interesting thought. I might just stick with a

451
00:26:58,560 --> 00:26:59,120
Speaker 2: beaver bong.

452
00:27:00,000 --> 00:27:03,679
Speaker 3: It's your name again, Ryan, Ryan. You're a man of

453
00:27:03,680 --> 00:27:07,000
Speaker 3: integrity and I respect you well.

454
00:27:07,080 --> 00:27:07,480
Speaker 1: Beg you.

455
00:27:08,200 --> 00:27:09,320
Speaker 3: Is there anything else you want to say to the

456
00:27:09,359 --> 00:27:10,639
Speaker 3: people of the computer before we go?

457
00:27:12,240 --> 00:27:15,679
Speaker 2: Uh? I hope that the chats are entertaining after this.

458
00:27:16,880 --> 00:27:23,320
Speaker 3: Take care man. Yeah, that's going to be my new

459
00:27:23,359 --> 00:27:31,200
Speaker 3: Tinder bio looking for someone to do a beaver bong with. Hey,

460
00:27:31,240 --> 00:27:33,800
Speaker 3: this is a message to all New York City or

461
00:27:33,840 --> 00:27:38,600
Speaker 3: Seattle based therapy gecko listeners. I am very excited to

462
00:27:38,680 --> 00:27:42,640
Speaker 3: announce that this New Year's Eve, I will be hosting

463
00:27:43,119 --> 00:27:48,560
Speaker 3: my very first reptile rave in the Lower East Side

464
00:27:48,840 --> 00:27:52,960
Speaker 3: of Manhattan. Yes, that's right, I am hosting a rave.

465
00:27:53,400 --> 00:27:56,800
Speaker 3: I've hired a DJ, I've instructed him to play forest

466
00:27:56,960 --> 00:27:59,720
Speaker 3: disco music, whatever the hell that means, and I'm going

467
00:27:59,800 --> 00:28:04,200
Speaker 3: to be there dancing around and shaking my lizard tail.

468
00:28:04,640 --> 00:28:07,640
Speaker 3: I have never done something like this before. I'm very

469
00:28:07,640 --> 00:28:09,719
Speaker 3: excited to see how it goes, and if you live

470
00:28:09,760 --> 00:28:13,080
Speaker 3: in New York City, I hope to see you there.

471
00:28:13,240 --> 00:28:17,560
Speaker 3: Please check the episode description of this podcast for more details. Also,

472
00:28:17,880 --> 00:28:22,000
Speaker 3: I'll be putting on another reptile rave in Seattle on

473
00:28:22,119 --> 00:28:25,119
Speaker 3: January sixth, and you can find the info for that

474
00:28:25,480 --> 00:28:29,040
Speaker 3: in the episode description as well. It's Gecko Party time

475
00:28:29,080 --> 00:28:42,440
Speaker 3: baby all from Tray. Hello, Hello, what's up? No fucking way, dude,

476
00:28:42,800 --> 00:28:44,680
Speaker 3: how's it going is?

477
00:28:44,720 --> 00:28:44,960
Speaker 1: Gek?

478
00:28:45,440 --> 00:28:46,000
Speaker 3: Yeah? Who's this?

479
00:28:47,520 --> 00:28:50,200
Speaker 5: There's a tray man, Trey.

480
00:28:50,240 --> 00:28:51,040
Speaker 3: What's going on? Dude?

481
00:28:52,600 --> 00:28:52,959
Speaker 2: Uh?

482
00:28:53,000 --> 00:28:54,840
Speaker 5: Not a whole lot.

483
00:28:55,280 --> 00:28:56,400
Speaker 3: It's a cool name, Trey.

484
00:28:58,240 --> 00:28:58,440
Speaker 1: Yeah.

485
00:28:58,440 --> 00:28:59,880
Speaker 5: It was an ae too.

486
00:29:00,720 --> 00:29:07,880
Speaker 3: Tray with it a e oh tr ae Yeah hmm, Well,

487
00:29:07,960 --> 00:29:09,880
Speaker 3: what's up, Tray? Would you want to talk about today?

488
00:29:09,920 --> 00:29:10,520
Speaker 3: If anything?

489
00:29:12,840 --> 00:29:14,920
Speaker 5: Well, there's some heavy shit on my plate. But for

490
00:29:15,000 --> 00:29:19,880
Speaker 5: starters like I'm a garbage man, it's a pretty fun job.

491
00:29:22,640 --> 00:29:25,520
Speaker 3: Any cool pieces of garbage to report to us that

492
00:29:25,560 --> 00:29:27,960
Speaker 3: you found lately? Uh?

493
00:29:28,160 --> 00:29:31,160
Speaker 5: Not really? I find random money sometimes. I think I

494
00:29:31,440 --> 00:29:32,880
Speaker 5: got like fifty bucks in total.

495
00:29:35,160 --> 00:29:37,080
Speaker 3: Why do you think somebody threw away fifty bucks?

496
00:29:38,640 --> 00:29:43,280
Speaker 5: Uh? I find like fucking cleaned out wallets with just

497
00:29:43,320 --> 00:29:48,880
Speaker 5: like random money left in them.

498
00:29:47,680 --> 00:29:47,800
Speaker 1: Hm.

499
00:29:48,880 --> 00:29:51,400
Speaker 5: One time I saw a pocket pussy that was kind

500
00:29:51,400 --> 00:29:52,120
Speaker 5: of weird.

501
00:29:52,480 --> 00:29:53,160
Speaker 3: What did you do with it?

502
00:29:54,760 --> 00:29:54,960
Speaker 1: Oh?

503
00:29:55,200 --> 00:29:57,760
Speaker 5: I just took a picture and posted on my story, right, why.

504
00:29:57,680 --> 00:29:59,240
Speaker 3: Would you do anything else? You wouldn't take it home

505
00:29:59,240 --> 00:30:01,840
Speaker 3: and fuck it? Why did that even? Why did they

506
00:30:01,880 --> 00:30:03,960
Speaker 3: even come into my brain that you would do that? Tray,

507
00:30:04,040 --> 00:30:06,400
Speaker 3: That's yeah, that's on me. I'm going to take responsibility

508
00:30:06,440 --> 00:30:07,000
Speaker 3: for my thought.

509
00:30:09,440 --> 00:30:11,720
Speaker 5: But uh, yeah, dude, I do have some kind of

510
00:30:11,720 --> 00:30:17,200
Speaker 5: deep shit. So growing up I kind of had to

511
00:30:17,320 --> 00:30:23,960
Speaker 5: like take on adult responsibilities really early, and uh kind

512
00:30:23,960 --> 00:30:27,320
Speaker 5: of like help keep the family together and stuff. And

513
00:30:28,440 --> 00:30:32,640
Speaker 5: now fast forward to like present day, it's just like

514
00:30:34,240 --> 00:30:37,520
Speaker 5: I'm taking care of my mom's house, paying the loone

515
00:30:37,560 --> 00:30:40,840
Speaker 5: on it, and she's out fucking around like on meth

516
00:30:40,920 --> 00:30:45,240
Speaker 5: and ship and it's just a lot to take in

517
00:30:45,840 --> 00:30:52,320
Speaker 5: and Stepdad's like not very stable either, so I have

518
00:30:52,400 --> 00:30:55,040
Speaker 5: to like take care of him and shit too, and

519
00:30:55,080 --> 00:30:57,760
Speaker 5: everything just feels weird, Like I want to start in

520
00:30:57,800 --> 00:30:59,440
Speaker 5: my life, So.

521
00:30:59,480 --> 00:31:02,560
Speaker 3: What would starting your own life look like?

522
00:31:05,160 --> 00:31:08,920
Speaker 5: Kind of just like finally starting to not care so

523
00:31:09,080 --> 00:31:12,400
Speaker 5: much and like care more about myself, just kind of

524
00:31:12,400 --> 00:31:15,800
Speaker 5: give up on trying to help people I've endlessly tried

525
00:31:15,800 --> 00:31:16,680
Speaker 5: to help for so long.

526
00:31:17,560 --> 00:31:21,240
Speaker 3: How old are you? I'm twenty two, twenty two, and

527
00:31:21,280 --> 00:31:25,000
Speaker 3: you've spent a large majority of your life having to

528
00:31:25,080 --> 00:31:33,760
Speaker 3: pick up the pieces of other people's shit. Yeah mm hmm, okay,

529
00:31:33,760 --> 00:31:36,040
Speaker 3: what's between you and and not caring?

530
00:31:40,120 --> 00:31:43,080
Speaker 5: I don't know. There's just like this huge, like moral

531
00:31:43,280 --> 00:31:47,120
Speaker 5: feeling that I have to like always just try to

532
00:31:47,160 --> 00:31:50,680
Speaker 5: help and be like the most good that I can be,

533
00:31:51,720 --> 00:31:53,160
Speaker 5: And I don't even know how to set that off

534
00:31:53,160 --> 00:31:55,880
Speaker 5: and just like kind of direct that towards myself.

535
00:32:00,080 --> 00:32:00,280
Speaker 1: Yeah.

536
00:32:00,320 --> 00:32:02,680
Speaker 3: Man, this is a tough one because, like, and you know,

537
00:32:02,840 --> 00:32:05,600
Speaker 3: this has been kind of a recurring theme on the

538
00:32:05,640 --> 00:32:08,240
Speaker 3: show throughout a couple phone calls. We had a guy

539
00:32:08,320 --> 00:32:11,360
Speaker 3: a few weeks ago who was like taking care of

540
00:32:11,400 --> 00:32:16,600
Speaker 3: his aunt, you know, stuff like that, and I always

541
00:32:16,640 --> 00:32:23,720
Speaker 3: feel like, you know, this is like this this is

542
00:32:23,760 --> 00:32:26,640
Speaker 3: really dependent upon your own personal philosophy in a way.

543
00:32:26,720 --> 00:32:29,160
Speaker 3: So I can't tell you what to do with your

544
00:32:29,200 --> 00:32:32,960
Speaker 3: life in this sense, but my personal philosophy with these

545
00:32:33,040 --> 00:32:35,760
Speaker 3: kinds of things is like, you know, look, I think

546
00:32:35,800 --> 00:32:39,680
Speaker 3: I think it's very noble of you to help out

547
00:32:39,680 --> 00:32:45,560
Speaker 3: your family, but you're very very young and how old

548
00:32:45,600 --> 00:32:47,600
Speaker 3: I mean, you're helping out what your mom? And tell

549
00:32:47,880 --> 00:32:49,960
Speaker 3: who are all the people you're helping out? Sorry if

550
00:32:50,000 --> 00:32:52,640
Speaker 3: you told me already, Yeah.

551
00:32:52,480 --> 00:32:55,360
Speaker 5: Mostly my mom because it's the house that I'm paying

552
00:32:55,400 --> 00:33:00,160
Speaker 5: for is under her name and alone and fucking to

553
00:33:00,240 --> 00:33:03,240
Speaker 5: like a backup plan for my stepdad. Basically he's trying

554
00:33:03,280 --> 00:33:05,680
Speaker 5: to fix sh it over at another house, and then

555
00:33:07,400 --> 00:33:10,440
Speaker 5: just a whole lot of shit I'm tired of dealing with.

556
00:33:11,200 --> 00:33:16,400
Speaker 3: Look, here's the thing. Life I think is like a

557
00:33:16,480 --> 00:33:19,960
Speaker 3: pretty easy and straightforward until you have children. I don't

558
00:33:20,000 --> 00:33:23,360
Speaker 3: have children, but I assume because it's like you can

559
00:33:23,520 --> 00:33:28,440
Speaker 3: if you want to just fuck off and fuck around

560
00:33:28,640 --> 00:33:31,480
Speaker 3: and not give a shit about anyone other than yourself

561
00:33:32,040 --> 00:33:37,000
Speaker 3: and go crazy and move to China and do Heroin

562
00:33:37,600 --> 00:33:40,680
Speaker 3: and just what and you and you're and you don't

563
00:33:40,720 --> 00:33:44,280
Speaker 3: have kids, you can go go go crazy, divorce your wife,

564
00:33:44,880 --> 00:33:49,280
Speaker 3: leave your boyfriend, block all your friends on Instagram, who cares,

565
00:33:49,400 --> 00:33:53,080
Speaker 3: go literally do whatever you want. But when you have kids.

566
00:33:53,080 --> 00:33:55,360
Speaker 3: But this is different when you have kids, and I think,

567
00:33:55,440 --> 00:34:01,280
Speaker 3: like to have a kid and then like especially when

568
00:34:01,280 --> 00:34:07,360
Speaker 3: they're a child, but you know, now like into adulthood,

569
00:34:08,000 --> 00:34:12,359
Speaker 3: to have a kid and like can deprive them of

570
00:34:12,440 --> 00:34:20,920
Speaker 3: their life because you just couldn't get it together for

571
00:34:20,920 --> 00:34:25,279
Speaker 3: whatever reason. And I don't know, bro, I'm not an

572
00:34:25,440 --> 00:34:28,400
Speaker 3: arbiter of morality, and I don't want to be, but

573
00:34:28,600 --> 00:34:36,239
Speaker 3: like it just feels wrong. And so, you know, you're

574
00:34:36,280 --> 00:34:38,279
Speaker 3: a young dude, you're twenty two. It sounds like you've

575
00:34:38,280 --> 00:34:41,640
Speaker 3: been like dealing with this stuff forever. So I mean,

576
00:34:41,719 --> 00:34:47,440
Speaker 3: i'd like to see you claim your own life. You know,

577
00:34:47,480 --> 00:34:49,080
Speaker 3: that's what you're telling me. You're telling me you're twenty

578
00:34:49,080 --> 00:34:51,240
Speaker 3: two and you don't feel like you have your own life.

579
00:34:51,280 --> 00:34:55,440
Speaker 3: And I think you know you're endowed as a citizen

580
00:34:55,480 --> 00:35:00,200
Speaker 3: of the universe to claim your own life. And if

581
00:35:00,200 --> 00:35:07,120
Speaker 3: you have the opportunity to do so, I wouldn't you know,

582
00:35:07,520 --> 00:35:10,840
Speaker 3: I'd consider doing it right. And again, I'm not going

583
00:35:10,920 --> 00:35:13,399
Speaker 3: to tell you what what what that means in terms

584
00:35:13,360 --> 00:35:19,200
Speaker 3: of reactions moving forward, because you know, I know one

585
00:35:19,320 --> 00:35:21,960
Speaker 3: philosophy about this stuff is right. But I think if

586
00:35:21,960 --> 00:35:25,040
Speaker 3: you were to take actions in the direction of claiming

587
00:35:25,080 --> 00:35:27,080
Speaker 3: your own life, I don't think that would be selfish

588
00:35:27,080 --> 00:35:31,120
Speaker 3: of you, and I don't think that you'd be wrong

589
00:35:31,200 --> 00:35:31,719
Speaker 3: to do so.

590
00:35:33,760 --> 00:35:35,960
Speaker 5: No, yeah, I definitely deserve it. I just need to

591
00:35:35,960 --> 00:35:39,399
Speaker 5: stop being such a tool. I mean, not so much

592
00:35:39,400 --> 00:35:42,520
Speaker 5: that I view myself as a tool. It's just overall

593
00:35:42,520 --> 00:35:46,000
Speaker 5: it's not really benefiting me. It's negatively affecting me more

594
00:35:46,040 --> 00:35:46,600
Speaker 5: than anything.

595
00:35:46,760 --> 00:35:47,400
Speaker 1: So, m.

596
00:35:50,520 --> 00:35:52,240
Speaker 3: I mean, I wish you the courage to do whatever

597
00:35:52,280 --> 00:35:55,319
Speaker 3: you think is the best thing to do. That's the thing, man,

598
00:35:55,400 --> 00:35:58,640
Speaker 3: you can really like, you could really fuck it. You

599
00:35:58,680 --> 00:36:01,560
Speaker 3: can be like a self fish asshole to your friends

600
00:36:01,760 --> 00:36:05,880
Speaker 3: and you're just everyone around it doesn't it's fine until

601
00:36:05,960 --> 00:36:09,040
Speaker 3: you have a kid. You know you have a kid. Well,

602
00:36:09,040 --> 00:36:11,200
Speaker 3: because when you have a kid and then you make

603
00:36:11,239 --> 00:36:15,000
Speaker 3: their lives shitty, that's just a sinister thing to do. So,

604
00:36:15,400 --> 00:36:17,960
Speaker 3: you know, and I don't know. I don't know your mom.

605
00:36:17,960 --> 00:36:20,040
Speaker 3: I don't I'm not saying your mom is a sinister person.

606
00:36:20,080 --> 00:36:22,960
Speaker 3: I'm just I don't know your particular situation. I'm just

607
00:36:23,040 --> 00:36:24,439
Speaker 3: talking about a general shit.

608
00:36:25,680 --> 00:36:27,160
Speaker 5: I think it's menopause's fault.

609
00:36:30,160 --> 00:36:33,520
Speaker 3: Well, I mean, is there any other stuff you wanted

610
00:36:33,520 --> 00:36:36,040
Speaker 3: to talk about or anything further in this situation or

611
00:36:37,040 --> 00:36:38,200
Speaker 3: what's up? The floor's yours?

612
00:36:40,120 --> 00:36:43,280
Speaker 5: Man? I mean, it's really just an honor to actually

613
00:36:43,320 --> 00:36:46,439
Speaker 5: be talking to you every morning before I go to work,

614
00:36:46,480 --> 00:36:48,080
Speaker 5: Like I go to work like half an hour early.

615
00:36:48,239 --> 00:36:51,200
Speaker 5: I just throw on your podcasts and they really just

616
00:36:51,239 --> 00:36:55,480
Speaker 5: start my day. I never even listen to music anymore.

617
00:36:55,680 --> 00:36:58,439
Speaker 5: Like my whole thing has just been listening to you,

618
00:36:58,880 --> 00:37:01,600
Speaker 5: and yeah, I love the whole community that you've started.

619
00:37:01,640 --> 00:37:02,439
Speaker 3: And thanks man.

620
00:37:03,400 --> 00:37:05,920
Speaker 5: It's crazy to be talking to you, Trey.

621
00:37:06,040 --> 00:37:10,799
Speaker 3: I I say this genuinely, it is crazy to be

622
00:37:10,840 --> 00:37:15,440
Speaker 3: talking to you too. Man. Is there anything else you

623
00:37:15,480 --> 00:37:18,399
Speaker 3: want to say to the people the computer before we go? God?

624
00:37:18,520 --> 00:37:22,480
Speaker 5: Yeah, absolutely, Shout out Devin, Shout out Luke, shout out Weston,

625
00:37:22,560 --> 00:37:28,000
Speaker 5: shout out Andrew. My handle on install is Trey Tricky way.

626
00:37:28,640 --> 00:37:31,600
Speaker 5: It is Trey with an AE. And thanks for having

627
00:37:31,640 --> 00:37:32,000
Speaker 5: me dog.

628
00:37:32,840 --> 00:37:36,759
Speaker 3: Thanks man, Go go do a kickflip tray all right,

629
00:37:37,320 --> 00:37:39,920
Speaker 3: you sound like you do a lot of kickflips. Have

630
00:37:39,960 --> 00:37:42,239
Speaker 3: a good night, do you too?

631
00:37:42,280 --> 00:37:48,279
Speaker 1: Doug All From Sophie. Hello, Hello, can you hear me?

632
00:37:49,080 --> 00:37:49,279
Speaker 2: Hi?

633
00:37:50,000 --> 00:37:50,560
Speaker 1: How are you?

634
00:37:51,400 --> 00:37:55,600
Speaker 3: I'm good? What's your name again, Sophie, Sophie? What's cracking?

635
00:37:55,719 --> 00:37:56,720
Speaker 3: How's how's life?

636
00:37:57,280 --> 00:37:59,160
Speaker 6: I'm in the middle of finals week and I don't

637
00:37:59,200 --> 00:38:00,839
Speaker 6: want to study, so I'm calling you.

638
00:38:01,320 --> 00:38:11,000
Speaker 3: Oh my god. I mean, I you know, I it's

639
00:38:11,120 --> 00:38:16,959
Speaker 3: hard making this podcast and stuff, and I get frustrated

640
00:38:17,200 --> 00:38:21,920
Speaker 3: in my day to day life pretty often, not not

641
00:38:22,000 --> 00:38:24,120
Speaker 3: even just like with with work and stuff, but also

642
00:38:24,280 --> 00:38:28,080
Speaker 3: with like you know, life and and and people, and

643
00:38:28,120 --> 00:38:29,600
Speaker 3: this and then the other thing. Just you know, there's

644
00:38:29,640 --> 00:38:33,080
Speaker 3: all these there's all these things, and I think like

645
00:38:33,840 --> 00:38:37,560
Speaker 3: I am too out of I'm I like, I need

646
00:38:37,600 --> 00:38:42,800
Speaker 3: to regain some perspective because still in my adult life,

647
00:38:43,800 --> 00:38:49,680
Speaker 3: even though it has its own stuff, I'm just so glad,

648
00:38:50,760 --> 00:38:53,239
Speaker 3: so happy. I'm honestly, I'm feeling it right now I'm

649
00:38:53,320 --> 00:38:58,040
Speaker 3: talking to you. I'm so happy that I never ever,

650
00:38:58,480 --> 00:39:00,160
Speaker 3: ever in my life have to go to school, will

651
00:39:00,200 --> 00:39:06,040
Speaker 3: ever again. The worst thing ever, It's horrible, it's so bad.

652
00:39:06,239 --> 00:39:08,400
Speaker 3: What do you do? What are you in? You're in college?

653
00:39:08,480 --> 00:39:11,760
Speaker 6: Right, yeah, I'm in college. I'm studying biomedical engineering.

654
00:39:11,920 --> 00:39:17,080
Speaker 3: Oh my god, that sounds awful. I'm so happy, you

655
00:39:17,120 --> 00:39:19,120
Speaker 3: know what, I don't you know, I don't even care

656
00:39:19,200 --> 00:39:22,319
Speaker 3: that this sounds mean. I'm I'm really happy that I'm

657
00:39:22,360 --> 00:39:23,040
Speaker 3: not you doing.

658
00:39:23,040 --> 00:39:24,160
Speaker 6: No you No, you should be.

659
00:39:24,719 --> 00:39:25,239
Speaker 1: You should be.

660
00:39:26,080 --> 00:39:28,240
Speaker 6: I should have done music education instead.

661
00:39:28,760 --> 00:39:32,000
Speaker 3: I mean whatever, I'll be homeless when I'm forty, and

662
00:39:32,040 --> 00:39:35,239
Speaker 3: you'll have like a real place to live. But you know,

663
00:39:35,360 --> 00:39:40,400
Speaker 3: for now, I'm chilling. Why do What's what made you

664
00:39:40,440 --> 00:39:41,200
Speaker 3: want to do all that?

665
00:39:43,239 --> 00:39:43,680
Speaker 1: I don't know.

666
00:39:43,719 --> 00:39:45,319
Speaker 6: I just like really want to make a difference in

667
00:39:45,320 --> 00:39:47,760
Speaker 6: the world. And I don't think I could ever handle

668
00:39:47,800 --> 00:39:49,640
Speaker 6: being like a doctor, Like that's just crazy.

669
00:39:52,600 --> 00:39:54,600
Speaker 3: So you said you should you should have done education?

670
00:39:55,960 --> 00:39:57,080
Speaker 6: Yeah, music education.

671
00:39:57,440 --> 00:39:58,399
Speaker 3: Why don't you go do that?

672
00:40:00,360 --> 00:40:03,360
Speaker 1: I could? It's really time day. I'm not gonna lie.

673
00:40:03,719 --> 00:40:05,360
Speaker 3: Okay, why what's stopping you?

674
00:40:08,960 --> 00:40:11,920
Speaker 6: That's a good question. Probably like the fear of my

675
00:40:12,040 --> 00:40:13,040
Speaker 6: dad hating me for.

676
00:40:13,080 --> 00:40:13,840
Speaker 1: Being a failure.

677
00:40:14,239 --> 00:40:15,200
Speaker 3: That's a stupid reason.

678
00:40:17,400 --> 00:40:21,440
Speaker 6: Yeah, probably, But he does fund my education.

679
00:40:23,320 --> 00:40:28,719
Speaker 3: How am I? I'm funny, it's funny. I respect the

680
00:40:28,719 --> 00:40:31,560
Speaker 3: fact that he funds your education, and and that is

681
00:40:31,640 --> 00:40:36,120
Speaker 3: a that look, I think and the reason I snap

682
00:40:36,200 --> 00:40:38,239
Speaker 3: judgment said that that's a stupid reason is and I

683
00:40:38,280 --> 00:40:42,320
Speaker 3: don't take that back is because basing your entire life

684
00:40:43,120 --> 00:40:47,520
Speaker 3: and future and day to day on like what your

685
00:40:47,560 --> 00:40:51,160
Speaker 3: parents will think about it is just like a way

686
00:40:51,320 --> 00:40:56,920
Speaker 3: to be forever unhappy. I respect the fact that you

687
00:40:56,960 --> 00:40:59,600
Speaker 3: care about your dad's opinion because he's funding your education,

688
00:41:00,440 --> 00:41:05,120
Speaker 3: and you know, his money, his prerogative to you know whatever,

689
00:41:05,680 --> 00:41:09,440
Speaker 3: say hey, I'll only fund your education if you you know,

690
00:41:09,560 --> 00:41:11,200
Speaker 3: do this, that and the other thing. You know, that's

691
00:41:11,200 --> 00:41:14,640
Speaker 3: his whatever leverage, have a right or wrong you think

692
00:41:14,640 --> 00:41:17,839
Speaker 3: that might be. That's just whatever it is. But all

693
00:41:17,880 --> 00:41:21,680
Speaker 3: of that aside. You know, you're your own independent human

694
00:41:21,680 --> 00:41:23,799
Speaker 3: being with your own life, and you know you you

695
00:41:23,840 --> 00:41:25,279
Speaker 3: were at the end of the day. Nobody has to

696
00:41:25,320 --> 00:41:29,480
Speaker 3: fucking live your life and do all the horrible school things,

697
00:41:30,280 --> 00:41:33,520
Speaker 3: but you so you know, I kind of don't give

698
00:41:33,520 --> 00:41:35,400
Speaker 3: you a fuck what your dad thinks.

699
00:41:36,960 --> 00:41:37,960
Speaker 1: Now, you're so right.

700
00:41:38,200 --> 00:41:40,120
Speaker 6: I think that's like something I struggle with is I

701
00:41:40,200 --> 00:41:42,120
Speaker 6: give too much of a fuck about what other people think.

702
00:41:43,760 --> 00:41:46,719
Speaker 3: So you want to By the way, I don't want

703
00:41:46,719 --> 00:41:49,120
Speaker 3: to discount it. I know it's like having these kinds

704
00:41:49,160 --> 00:41:51,960
Speaker 3: of conversations, especially if you haven't had them. If another hard,

705
00:41:52,080 --> 00:41:53,839
Speaker 3: I don't want to discount that. It's hard, and that's

706
00:41:54,000 --> 00:41:56,560
Speaker 3: one of the reasons you might be not doing it.

707
00:41:56,600 --> 00:41:59,160
Speaker 3: But like, I mean, it'd be one thing if you

708
00:41:59,160 --> 00:42:00,960
Speaker 3: told me that you were doing all this ship because

709
00:42:00,960 --> 00:42:06,560
Speaker 3: you want to you genuinely want to be a bio

710
00:42:06,840 --> 00:42:10,920
Speaker 3: medical willy Wanka person or you know, or you genuinely

711
00:42:10,920 --> 00:42:12,000
Speaker 3: want to make a lot of money and you think

712
00:42:12,000 --> 00:42:13,799
Speaker 3: that's how you do it, that's whatever. But if you're

713
00:42:13,800 --> 00:42:15,560
Speaker 3: just doing it to make your dad happy, I mean,

714
00:42:15,560 --> 00:42:16,640
Speaker 3: what the fuck are we doing here?

715
00:42:17,680 --> 00:42:17,759
Speaker 2: No?

716
00:42:17,960 --> 00:42:19,839
Speaker 6: I am doing it because I like it. It's just

717
00:42:19,960 --> 00:42:23,080
Speaker 6: like it's it's just so much like I'm drowning in

718
00:42:23,160 --> 00:42:23,799
Speaker 6: work right now?

719
00:42:25,880 --> 00:42:28,160
Speaker 3: What's it? You wanted to be an art education person?

720
00:42:29,600 --> 00:42:29,960
Speaker 1: Music?

721
00:42:30,760 --> 00:42:31,200
Speaker 3: Okay?

722
00:42:32,200 --> 00:42:33,399
Speaker 1: I want to band?

723
00:42:34,400 --> 00:42:35,600
Speaker 3: What's what's stopping you?

724
00:42:37,760 --> 00:42:39,279
Speaker 1: Nothing? You're so right.

725
00:42:47,680 --> 00:42:50,080
Speaker 6: Maybe maybe i'll double major. Maybe i'll or I could

726
00:42:50,120 --> 00:42:51,840
Speaker 6: just drop out and become a music teacher.

727
00:42:53,080 --> 00:43:00,000
Speaker 1: You could, all right, that's all?

728
00:43:02,200 --> 00:43:06,719
Speaker 3: Hey, I got a question. Mm hmm? What note is this?

729
00:43:11,560 --> 00:43:11,920
Speaker 3: You know what?

730
00:43:12,040 --> 00:43:12,960
Speaker 6: I couldn't even tell you?

731
00:43:16,280 --> 00:43:20,919
Speaker 3: Sounds like a lot of work to do. Yeah, what's

732
00:43:20,960 --> 00:43:22,239
Speaker 3: your name again? Is there anything else you want to

733
00:43:22,239 --> 00:43:23,520
Speaker 3: say to the people of the computer before we go?

734
00:43:26,520 --> 00:43:29,200
Speaker 6: My name Sophie? Uh, thank you everybody for listening to

735
00:43:29,360 --> 00:43:30,759
Speaker 6: my existential.

736
00:43:30,239 --> 00:43:33,279
Speaker 3: Crisis by Sophie. I hope that you figure it out,

737
00:43:33,320 --> 00:43:36,560
Speaker 3: and I hope that this conversation was at least, like

738
00:43:37,200 --> 00:43:38,840
Speaker 3: at least three out of ten helpful.

739
00:43:40,400 --> 00:43:42,520
Speaker 6: It was thank you Lyle rock and Roll.

740
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Speaker 3: Sea by, By the way, I already knew the answer.

741
00:43:48,640 --> 00:43:49,279
Speaker 3: It was a g.

742
00:43:51,800 --> 00:43:53,000
Speaker 1: All from Edwin.

743
00:43:55,280 --> 00:44:03,440
Speaker 3: Hello, hello much so long. I don't know what you

744
00:44:03,520 --> 00:44:04,799
Speaker 3: mean by are you still on?

745
00:44:06,320 --> 00:44:06,640
Speaker 1: Well?

746
00:44:06,800 --> 00:44:08,560
Speaker 4: It made it seem like it was going to hang up.

747
00:44:08,520 --> 00:44:11,520
Speaker 3: On me, I don't know what you mean when you're

748
00:44:11,520 --> 00:44:14,200
Speaker 3: referring to an it. Let's live in the present. What's

749
00:44:14,239 --> 00:44:18,000
Speaker 3: your name, sir Edwin? Eddie? Going on, Eddie, how can

750
00:44:18,040 --> 00:44:19,720
Speaker 3: I get you today? What do you want to talk about?

751
00:44:20,520 --> 00:44:20,840
Speaker 1: Oh?

752
00:44:20,920 --> 00:44:30,640
Speaker 4: Man, what what can you get me today? Well, I'm

753
00:44:30,680 --> 00:44:32,680
Speaker 4: twenty two and I'm already getting divorced.

754
00:44:34,280 --> 00:44:37,200
Speaker 3: Dude, What the fuck? Why is everyone like? Everyone is like,

755
00:44:38,280 --> 00:44:40,239
Speaker 3: it's very funny because I don't know, I don't know

756
00:44:40,280 --> 00:44:42,920
Speaker 3: the exact demographics of this podcast or whatever, but I

757
00:44:42,920 --> 00:44:44,279
Speaker 3: do know that you know, a lot of people they

758
00:44:44,280 --> 00:44:47,040
Speaker 3: found out about from TikTok or whatever the fuck, and

759
00:44:47,080 --> 00:44:48,560
Speaker 3: so there are a lot of like people in the

760
00:44:48,719 --> 00:44:52,920
Speaker 3: eighteen to you know, twenty four year old range. But

761
00:44:53,000 --> 00:44:56,279
Speaker 3: all you guys are acting like you're, you know, in

762
00:44:56,320 --> 00:45:00,000
Speaker 3: your fucking forties. Man. Everyone's having kids, everyone's getting divorced.

763
00:45:00,320 --> 00:45:04,359
Speaker 3: Everyone's like, I mean, it's just it's it's wild, man,

764
00:45:05,200 --> 00:45:06,000
Speaker 3: what's going on?

765
00:45:06,280 --> 00:45:13,160
Speaker 4: Just our generation, Like we just all had such a

766
00:45:13,200 --> 00:45:16,200
Speaker 4: weird connection with the Internet. So we're all like on

767
00:45:16,320 --> 00:45:21,080
Speaker 4: another level of intelligence and like wisdom on stuff. So

768
00:45:21,120 --> 00:45:24,120
Speaker 4: it's it's like like a crazy level of attachment with

769
00:45:24,200 --> 00:45:24,760
Speaker 4: other people.

770
00:45:27,320 --> 00:45:30,520
Speaker 3: I guess how long were you married?

771
00:45:31,960 --> 00:45:32,520
Speaker 1: Two years?

772
00:45:32,560 --> 00:45:36,320
Speaker 4: But we were Uh we met when we were thirteen,

773
00:45:37,160 --> 00:45:40,440
Speaker 4: so we've been together for nine years in total, but

774
00:45:40,600 --> 00:45:44,000
Speaker 4: uh yeah, two years for the like actual marriage.

775
00:45:44,480 --> 00:45:45,160
Speaker 3: Well good.

776
00:45:45,560 --> 00:45:45,759
Speaker 2: You know.

777
00:45:46,120 --> 00:45:48,520
Speaker 3: I hold my tongue out so much. I really do,

778
00:45:49,440 --> 00:45:53,480
Speaker 3: because not because I'm like afraid of what people will

779
00:45:53,480 --> 00:45:56,880
Speaker 3: think of my judgments, but because, like, you know, like

780
00:45:57,080 --> 00:46:00,239
Speaker 3: my gut emotional reaction to when people say things like

781
00:46:00,280 --> 00:46:04,279
Speaker 3: this is like my true gut emotional reaction is like

782
00:46:05,440 --> 00:46:09,520
Speaker 3: I just think it's a terrible idea to get married

783
00:46:09,560 --> 00:46:12,080
Speaker 3: at a young age and have kids at a crazy

784
00:46:12,120 --> 00:46:17,719
Speaker 3: young age. But beneath the emotion, I logically understand and

785
00:46:17,840 --> 00:46:22,480
Speaker 3: believe that different things make different people happy, and so

786
00:46:22,760 --> 00:46:27,160
Speaker 3: I'm not in a position to make those calls. But

787
00:46:28,520 --> 00:46:29,000
Speaker 3: I don't know.

788
00:46:30,120 --> 00:46:32,800
Speaker 4: I mean, it's really hard to say. I put I

789
00:46:32,920 --> 00:46:35,560
Speaker 4: put a lot of effort and time into thinking if

790
00:46:35,840 --> 00:46:40,400
Speaker 4: because we're engaged for probably two years before I actually

791
00:46:40,440 --> 00:46:43,759
Speaker 4: committed to signing anything and stuff, not in like hesitation

792
00:46:43,920 --> 00:46:47,120
Speaker 4: of like, oh, I don't believe our relationship is going

793
00:46:47,160 --> 00:46:51,480
Speaker 4: to blast that long. I fully believe we would last,

794
00:46:53,320 --> 00:46:56,919
Speaker 4: but like, I don't know, I actually took the time

795
00:46:56,960 --> 00:46:59,400
Speaker 4: to think about what I wanted for the rest of

796
00:46:59,400 --> 00:47:05,040
Speaker 4: my life. Was like, odang, maybe this isn't the solution.

797
00:47:05,400 --> 00:47:08,560
Speaker 4: And I went through with it because I was genuinely

798
00:47:08,600 --> 00:47:12,799
Speaker 4: happy with her and kind of sucks that it went

799
00:47:13,160 --> 00:47:15,600
Speaker 4: in the worst way possible. And it's not I mean,

800
00:47:15,640 --> 00:47:18,279
Speaker 4: it's a mutual thing now, but it was a mess

801
00:47:18,320 --> 00:47:20,480
Speaker 4: for the past couple of months. This whole year entirely

802
00:47:20,520 --> 00:47:22,080
Speaker 4: actually was awful.

803
00:47:25,280 --> 00:47:26,560
Speaker 3: So what are you doing now?

804
00:47:29,360 --> 00:47:31,440
Speaker 4: Kind of just sitting around spending money?

805
00:47:31,440 --> 00:47:32,080
Speaker 1: I don't have.

806
00:47:33,880 --> 00:47:34,279
Speaker 3: What on?

807
00:47:35,840 --> 00:47:38,360
Speaker 4: I just bought a new PC and I just got

808
00:47:38,360 --> 00:47:41,240
Speaker 4: the desk today and then I'm still waiting for some parts,

809
00:47:41,239 --> 00:47:43,640
Speaker 4: so I'm going to be building that. But you know,

810
00:47:43,960 --> 00:47:48,160
Speaker 4: using a firm to pay for stuff when I don't

811
00:47:48,160 --> 00:47:51,239
Speaker 4: have any money, I'm working all the time, so you

812
00:47:51,239 --> 00:47:52,320
Speaker 4: know that's fun.

813
00:47:53,320 --> 00:47:57,359
Speaker 3: Yeah, hey man, Some people would argue having a having

814
00:47:57,400 --> 00:47:59,919
Speaker 3: a nice PC it's better than having a wife.

815
00:48:00,080 --> 00:48:02,480
Speaker 1: Huh oof.

816
00:48:04,320 --> 00:48:07,040
Speaker 4: That's a that's a loaded assumption.

817
00:48:10,960 --> 00:48:15,440
Speaker 3: I think, well, whatever, okay, what are you gonna do

818
00:48:15,600 --> 00:48:16,480
Speaker 3: on your PC.

819
00:48:19,440 --> 00:48:20,440
Speaker 1: Game? Mostly?

820
00:48:20,960 --> 00:48:24,880
Speaker 4: I mean, I have kind of an I T background

821
00:48:24,880 --> 00:48:26,360
Speaker 4: and I kind of want to get back into it.

822
00:48:26,400 --> 00:48:28,319
Speaker 4: I don't know how much having a PC is going

823
00:48:28,400 --> 00:48:31,160
Speaker 4: to help me with that, but it would be nice

824
00:48:31,200 --> 00:48:36,400
Speaker 4: to get back into I t mm hmm, especially money wise.

825
00:48:37,480 --> 00:48:38,399
Speaker 3: Do you have a job now?

826
00:48:39,440 --> 00:48:41,320
Speaker 4: Oh yeah, I work at a warehouse currently.

827
00:48:42,120 --> 00:48:45,319
Speaker 3: Okay, Well what staate of you guys? Did?

828
00:48:46,040 --> 00:48:47,240
Speaker 1: I am in Maryland?

829
00:48:48,040 --> 00:48:49,839
Speaker 3: Oh it's my home state.

830
00:48:51,200 --> 00:48:51,399
Speaker 1: Yeah?

831
00:48:54,239 --> 00:48:57,279
Speaker 3: You sound you sound distraught?

832
00:48:57,360 --> 00:48:57,560
Speaker 1: Man?

833
00:48:57,640 --> 00:48:58,960
Speaker 3: Is there anything I can do to help you?

834
00:49:00,920 --> 00:49:01,400
Speaker 1: I don't know.

835
00:49:01,719 --> 00:49:04,560
Speaker 4: I have an awesome support team that's been helping me

836
00:49:04,920 --> 00:49:06,759
Speaker 4: or a lot of people that have been talking through

837
00:49:06,800 --> 00:49:11,440
Speaker 4: everything with me. And I go to a counselor and

838
00:49:11,440 --> 00:49:14,279
Speaker 4: I go to therapy and a new therapist because the

839
00:49:14,280 --> 00:49:17,680
Speaker 4: one I've been going to wasn't the greatest. The advice

840
00:49:17,840 --> 00:49:19,320
Speaker 4: she gave me was not amazing.

841
00:49:20,480 --> 00:49:22,480
Speaker 3: Well what was the advice she gave you? I'm curious.

842
00:49:22,760 --> 00:49:26,759
Speaker 4: Well, I mean, because I was in denial about our

843
00:49:26,800 --> 00:49:33,080
Speaker 4: relationship being over, and like I was fighting and fighting

844
00:49:33,160 --> 00:49:37,239
Speaker 4: to try and keep stuff together, and she just suggested

845
00:49:37,280 --> 00:49:40,279
Speaker 4: that I give it space and she'll she'll come back,

846
00:49:40,280 --> 00:49:43,760
Speaker 4: which I guess is sound advice, But in reality.

847
00:49:43,320 --> 00:49:45,200
Speaker 3: What's wrong with that advice.

848
00:49:46,840 --> 00:49:49,520
Speaker 1: At least in this Like for how much information my

849
00:49:49,600 --> 00:49:53,200
Speaker 1: therapist had about the situation, and like, here's another thing

850
00:49:53,520 --> 00:49:56,120
Speaker 1: we were both going to the same therapist, but for

851
00:49:56,160 --> 00:49:58,680
Speaker 1: solo sessions, it wasn't a g It wasn't like a

852
00:49:58,680 --> 00:50:01,360
Speaker 1: couple of therapy. It was I went to her and

853
00:50:01,400 --> 00:50:04,040
Speaker 1: then she was also going to her at the same time.

854
00:50:04,719 --> 00:50:05,760
Speaker 3: Oh, that's no fun.

855
00:50:06,680 --> 00:50:09,640
Speaker 1: But so that would give her more context on like

856
00:50:09,760 --> 00:50:13,480
Speaker 1: what I was going through. I guess yeah, And I

857
00:50:13,520 --> 00:50:17,719
Speaker 1: think with the information she had about our relationship, the

858
00:50:19,680 --> 00:50:23,359
Speaker 1: suggestion of giving it more space was probably the worst,

859
00:50:23,480 --> 00:50:24,600
Speaker 1: at least at the time.

860
00:50:25,320 --> 00:50:27,560
Speaker 3: Well, but again, why do you feel like that was bad?

861
00:50:28,800 --> 00:50:38,200
Speaker 4: Well, just because there was she moved out to live

862
00:50:38,280 --> 00:50:41,080
Speaker 4: with the guy that she cheated on me with. Oh,

863
00:50:41,280 --> 00:50:45,160
Speaker 4: and I feel like the me spending more time away

864
00:50:45,320 --> 00:50:48,879
Speaker 4: was solidifying their relationship when I wanted things to work out.

865
00:50:48,960 --> 00:50:52,880
Speaker 3: Still, you you're I'm all right, I'm gonna tell you something.

866
00:50:54,480 --> 00:50:57,280
Speaker 3: Your therapist gave you great advice.

867
00:50:58,040 --> 00:50:58,640
Speaker 1: That's fair.

868
00:50:59,239 --> 00:51:03,960
Speaker 3: Againist, I gave you great advice, man, Come on.

869
00:51:04,880 --> 00:51:07,880
Speaker 4: Yeah, hindsight, hindsight. I'm like, yeah, that was probably the

870
00:51:07,920 --> 00:51:08,399
Speaker 4: best thing.

871
00:51:08,600 --> 00:51:12,360
Speaker 1: I'm sorry.

872
00:51:12,400 --> 00:51:14,719
Speaker 3: I know you're distrawing, and I I hope I don't

873
00:51:14,760 --> 00:51:16,759
Speaker 3: sound like I'm laughing at you. I really, I really

874
00:51:16,760 --> 00:51:20,160
Speaker 3: am not. It's just my friend. Your therapist gave you

875
00:51:20,239 --> 00:51:23,200
Speaker 3: fantastic advice. I just need you to know that because

876
00:51:24,120 --> 00:51:27,440
Speaker 3: you know, I know that you started out this phone

877
00:51:27,440 --> 00:51:30,759
Speaker 3: call with the speech about how smart you are, and

878
00:51:30,840 --> 00:51:32,239
Speaker 3: I just need you, I need you to know that

879
00:51:32,239 --> 00:51:37,360
Speaker 3: your therapist gave you great advice. If your girlfriend left

880
00:51:37,400 --> 00:51:39,840
Speaker 3: you to go be with the guy that she cheated

881
00:51:39,840 --> 00:51:43,800
Speaker 3: on you for, I'm gonna tell you what and and

882
00:51:44,480 --> 00:51:48,600
Speaker 3: absolutely that's not. Of course, here's the thing your therapist

883
00:51:48,680 --> 00:51:50,480
Speaker 3: gave you. It's that it's not what you wanted, though

884
00:51:50,600 --> 00:51:53,960
Speaker 3: your therapist didn't give you what you wanted, because what

885
00:51:54,000 --> 00:52:02,279
Speaker 3: you wanted was this gut emotional thing of you're your

886
00:52:02,320 --> 00:52:06,160
Speaker 3: girlfriend coming back to you, realizing that this guy's not

887
00:52:06,239 --> 00:52:09,839
Speaker 3: the guy and you're the guy. You know, but that's

888
00:52:09,960 --> 00:52:14,000
Speaker 3: not you know, that's what you wanted. But it's not

889
00:52:14,640 --> 00:52:19,200
Speaker 3: you know, what you needed. You could say, right because

890
00:52:19,400 --> 00:52:21,640
Speaker 3: at the end of the day, it's like if if

891
00:52:21,719 --> 00:52:27,960
Speaker 3: another But you deserve a person who wants to fucking be,

892
00:52:28,120 --> 00:52:31,520
Speaker 3: who makes the decision to be with you and to

893
00:52:31,560 --> 00:52:34,080
Speaker 3: stay with you and not to you know, run off

894
00:52:34,120 --> 00:52:39,320
Speaker 3: with this other this other guy, and at a certain point,

895
00:52:39,360 --> 00:52:42,040
Speaker 3: and it's hard to brow it's fucking hard. It's hard

896
00:52:42,760 --> 00:52:46,960
Speaker 3: emotionally to stand up for yourself. It's really hard. Whether

897
00:52:47,000 --> 00:52:50,400
Speaker 3: you're a guy or a girl. It's hard to set

898
00:52:50,480 --> 00:52:53,439
Speaker 3: the boundaries of like I don't deserve this bullshit. I'm

899
00:52:54,200 --> 00:52:58,520
Speaker 3: I'm out. It's hard, you know, And so that's that's

900
00:52:58,560 --> 00:53:00,640
Speaker 3: why it felt like not good at advice. It was

901
00:53:00,640 --> 00:53:05,839
Speaker 3: because it was the harder decision. But it's totally the move,

902
00:53:06,520 --> 00:53:06,759
Speaker 3: you know.

903
00:53:07,080 --> 00:53:11,799
Speaker 4: Yeah, yeah, actually going through the time away and like,

904
00:53:12,480 --> 00:53:14,319
Speaker 4: I don't know, it was just this week that it

905
00:53:14,400 --> 00:53:16,719
Speaker 4: clicked with me that I was fighting a battle that

906
00:53:16,800 --> 00:53:19,600
Speaker 4: I wasn't gonna win. So looking back on it now,

907
00:53:19,640 --> 00:53:21,919
Speaker 4: it was great advice and I appreciated it and wish

908
00:53:21,960 --> 00:53:24,960
Speaker 4: I would have taken more heart to actually listening to it.

909
00:53:25,120 --> 00:53:27,040
Speaker 1: But I don't know.

910
00:53:27,800 --> 00:53:30,640
Speaker 4: Again, with her being a therapist for both of us,

911
00:53:30,640 --> 00:53:32,440
Speaker 4: I feel like I kind of just had a grudge

912
00:53:32,480 --> 00:53:35,160
Speaker 4: where it was like, hey, I don't know how much

913
00:53:35,160 --> 00:53:37,719
Speaker 4: you're playing into me, or how much you have her

914
00:53:37,800 --> 00:53:41,480
Speaker 4: in mind or what, but I don't know, therapist.

915
00:53:42,520 --> 00:53:45,000
Speaker 3: Well, look here's the thing I mean that does I

916
00:53:45,000 --> 00:53:48,640
Speaker 3: don't think. I don't think that she was. I mean,

917
00:53:48,680 --> 00:53:50,319
Speaker 3: that's it's weird that she was seeing both of you

918
00:53:50,400 --> 00:53:52,759
Speaker 3: guys individuals.

919
00:53:52,360 --> 00:53:55,200
Speaker 1: Like Maryland right there.

920
00:53:56,480 --> 00:53:59,719
Speaker 3: That's a conflict of interest right there. But again, I

921
00:53:59,719 --> 00:54:02,880
Speaker 3: don't like she was whatever she told you was in

922
00:54:02,960 --> 00:54:09,120
Speaker 3: the best interest of both of you, definitely, And my god, man,

923
00:54:09,160 --> 00:54:13,200
Speaker 3: I mean, I mean, what's your name again, Edwin? Edwin?

924
00:54:14,440 --> 00:54:17,680
Speaker 3: I mean, god, damn it, Edwin. You're only twenty two,

925
00:54:17,760 --> 00:54:21,040
Speaker 3: and you seem you're This divorce sounds like it has

926
00:54:21,120 --> 00:54:23,520
Speaker 3: truly aged you, like twenty years.

927
00:54:24,640 --> 00:54:26,960
Speaker 4: I mean, I already get told that I look way

928
00:54:27,000 --> 00:54:29,640
Speaker 4: older than I am. I've had people tell me I

929
00:54:29,680 --> 00:54:32,719
Speaker 4: look like twenty eight and yeah, I don't know facial hair,

930
00:54:32,800 --> 00:54:36,760
Speaker 4: and I'm six three and built like a stick.

931
00:54:36,840 --> 00:54:40,520
Speaker 3: So you know, Okay, So what I'm hearing is that

932
00:54:40,960 --> 00:54:44,680
Speaker 3: you can have sex with anyone you want.

933
00:54:45,080 --> 00:54:49,319
Speaker 1: I wouldn't know. I've been with one person my entire life.

934
00:54:50,280 --> 00:54:53,680
Speaker 3: I mean you sound I mean, I don't know, man,

935
00:54:54,120 --> 00:54:56,160
Speaker 3: I don't know. Look, I get it, I understand. But

936
00:54:56,200 --> 00:55:05,080
Speaker 3: you're a tall, young, skinny guy. You know you're you're

937
00:55:05,080 --> 00:55:09,760
Speaker 3: a little nerdy. That's in right now. Yeah, you're gonna

938
00:55:09,760 --> 00:55:11,640
Speaker 3: be You're gonna do great, Edwin.

939
00:55:12,520 --> 00:55:15,200
Speaker 4: I'm excited for the opportunities to have in front of me.

940
00:55:15,320 --> 00:55:17,839
Speaker 3: Yes, You're gonna do great.

941
00:55:19,400 --> 00:55:22,279
Speaker 4: Do you want more context on the whole relationship this

942
00:55:22,320 --> 00:55:22,879
Speaker 4: past year?

943
00:55:23,600 --> 00:55:27,160
Speaker 3: Do you do I want more context on the relationship?

944
00:55:27,880 --> 00:55:33,680
Speaker 3: Not really truthfully, not really, because well, I'm gonna say

945
00:55:33,680 --> 00:55:35,120
Speaker 3: what I'm gonna say first and then i'll ask you this.

946
00:55:35,440 --> 00:55:37,680
Speaker 3: Not really, because I'm more interested in the present now.

947
00:55:38,200 --> 00:55:43,360
Speaker 3: I'm far more interested truthfully in your present and future

948
00:55:43,400 --> 00:55:48,200
Speaker 3: life than I am in in, you know, mourning your relationship.

949
00:55:48,239 --> 00:55:50,399
Speaker 3: Although again, if if this is you know, I want,

950
00:55:50,560 --> 00:55:52,239
Speaker 3: I want to talk about whatever you want to talk about.

951
00:55:52,280 --> 00:55:54,359
Speaker 3: So if that's if the context is what you want,

952
00:55:54,560 --> 00:55:56,520
Speaker 3: then go ahead. Why do you think I should be

953
00:55:57,200 --> 00:55:58,480
Speaker 3: enthralled in this context?

954
00:55:59,320 --> 00:56:02,400
Speaker 1: Maybe you're right? I don't know. I feel like I

955
00:56:02,400 --> 00:56:04,799
Speaker 1: have a I have a habit of sharing this right

956
00:56:04,840 --> 00:56:05,920
Speaker 1: now just because it's.

957
00:56:05,760 --> 00:56:07,879
Speaker 3: Like, please go for it if that's what.

958
00:56:07,800 --> 00:56:09,799
Speaker 4: You want to do in my life for a year.

959
00:56:10,040 --> 00:56:16,160
Speaker 1: So, like, I don't know. So, So we were we

960
00:56:16,200 --> 00:56:19,040
Speaker 1: worked together, kind of she's not really showing up to work.

961
00:56:19,120 --> 00:56:22,239
Speaker 1: She has extended leave and stuff like that, so she's

962
00:56:22,239 --> 00:56:27,080
Speaker 1: not there. But we worked together, and we were in

963
00:56:27,120 --> 00:56:32,279
Speaker 1: a band, and I was friends with everybody in the band.

964
00:56:32,280 --> 00:56:36,000
Speaker 1: We were both friends with everybody in the band, So

965
00:56:36,040 --> 00:56:41,359
Speaker 1: she cheated with me with the drummer of our band. Uh,

966
00:56:41,400 --> 00:56:44,920
Speaker 1: And I found out a while ago, a couple of

967
00:56:44,960 --> 00:56:50,919
Speaker 1: months ago, probably like around April ish, And uh, yeah,

968
00:56:50,920 --> 00:56:54,120
Speaker 1: I've just been fighting, trying to get things to work out,

969
00:56:54,239 --> 00:56:56,319
Speaker 1: go back to how they were, or well not back

970
00:56:56,360 --> 00:56:58,760
Speaker 1: to how they were, and things would be different now.

971
00:56:58,800 --> 00:57:01,640
Speaker 1: But I was willing to look past it and try

972
00:57:01,680 --> 00:57:05,920
Speaker 1: to save the marriage. But uh, clearly wasn't the solution.

973
00:57:06,040 --> 00:57:08,840
Speaker 1: But yeah, yeah, one of one of our friends, someone

974
00:57:08,920 --> 00:57:11,040
Speaker 1: close to me, someone that I was in a band

975
00:57:11,080 --> 00:57:16,080
Speaker 1: with that we went to shows and stuff with, stabbed

976
00:57:16,160 --> 00:57:20,600
Speaker 1: me in the back as well as in the front. Brutal.

977
00:57:22,400 --> 00:57:24,600
Speaker 3: Oh my god. You know what, I'm glad that you

978
00:57:24,680 --> 00:57:28,680
Speaker 3: gave me this context because now I'm like, I didn't

979
00:57:28,720 --> 00:57:33,360
Speaker 3: realize you were also a musician, because I don't know Edwin.

980
00:57:34,320 --> 00:57:36,520
Speaker 3: I don't know if you know this, and maybe I

981
00:57:36,520 --> 00:57:38,320
Speaker 3: don't know if anything I'm saying is helpful to you.

982
00:57:38,360 --> 00:57:41,160
Speaker 3: This is just what i'm thinking about. You might be

983
00:57:41,240 --> 00:57:46,840
Speaker 3: the most in demand version of a guy right now.

984
00:57:48,360 --> 00:57:52,480
Speaker 4: Do you know that I'm not the best I play bass,

985
00:57:52,560 --> 00:57:53,520
Speaker 4: primarily I.

986
00:57:53,440 --> 00:57:59,880
Speaker 3: Have you You're you're a You're a six three skinny kind,

987
00:58:00,200 --> 00:58:08,600
Speaker 3: nerdy musician guy you've been to, You've already had a

988
00:58:08,720 --> 00:58:12,600
Speaker 3: you've had a wife before. That's something you're like kind

989
00:58:12,600 --> 00:58:16,440
Speaker 3: of the most in demand version of a guy right now.

990
00:58:16,960 --> 00:58:17,800
Speaker 3: I don't know if you know that.

991
00:58:19,400 --> 00:58:23,080
Speaker 4: No, I guess not. Again, we're not even I haven't

992
00:58:23,120 --> 00:58:25,560
Speaker 4: gotten divorce papers or anything yet. This is like super

993
00:58:25,560 --> 00:58:28,840
Speaker 4: recent that I've accepted the fact that it's over, so

994
00:58:29,000 --> 00:58:30,160
Speaker 4: I really have.

995
00:58:30,800 --> 00:58:33,920
Speaker 3: But I'm I'm a full year ahead of it. I

996
00:58:33,960 --> 00:58:35,479
Speaker 3: don't even know if it's a year, but I'm I'm

997
00:58:35,520 --> 00:58:37,720
Speaker 3: I'm ahead of you right now in my thinking about this,

998
00:58:37,800 --> 00:58:39,520
Speaker 3: I understand you're still mourning the present.

999
00:58:40,720 --> 00:58:43,919
Speaker 1: Yeah yeah, but like again, I've been with her since

1000
00:58:43,960 --> 00:58:47,280
Speaker 1: I was thirteen. She's choosing my world, choose everything to me.

1001
00:58:47,400 --> 00:58:50,840
Speaker 1: So like, I'm gonna be taking my time to find

1002
00:58:50,880 --> 00:58:52,000
Speaker 1: myself out and stuff.

1003
00:58:52,200 --> 00:58:52,880
Speaker 3: But you should.

1004
00:58:53,320 --> 00:58:55,880
Speaker 4: I have no idea what the hell dating is going

1005
00:58:55,960 --> 00:58:57,160
Speaker 4: to be like for me, because.

1006
00:58:57,000 --> 00:58:59,240
Speaker 3: Like, I know what, dude, I know what dats is

1007
00:58:59,240 --> 00:59:00,800
Speaker 3: could be like for this sick.

1008
00:59:01,720 --> 00:59:03,400
Speaker 4: I hope, So I hope.

1009
00:59:03,480 --> 00:59:09,400
Speaker 3: So what else? Man? I hope. By the way, I

1010
00:59:09,440 --> 00:59:12,000
Speaker 3: hope any of this is helpful because I know I

1011
00:59:12,000 --> 00:59:13,880
Speaker 3: don't know You've probably had a thousand people tell you

1012
00:59:13,920 --> 00:59:16,360
Speaker 3: that you just need to move on, and I'm gonna, yeah,

1013
00:59:16,920 --> 00:59:18,560
Speaker 3: that's one.

1014
00:59:19,600 --> 00:59:22,880
Speaker 4: Again, having like so much connection with so many people

1015
00:59:22,880 --> 00:59:25,120
Speaker 4: to tell me what I should be doing and stuff

1016
00:59:25,400 --> 00:59:27,120
Speaker 4: in my head it was biased and I was like, oh,

1017
00:59:27,200 --> 00:59:29,160
Speaker 4: this is they're just saying that because they want to

1018
00:59:29,160 --> 00:59:33,280
Speaker 4: protect me and not our relationship or whatever. But in reality,

1019
00:59:33,560 --> 00:59:36,760
Speaker 4: I knew it was it was in my best interest

1020
00:59:36,880 --> 00:59:41,439
Speaker 4: to let this go. So I'm trying to. I'm trying

1021
00:59:41,440 --> 00:59:47,000
Speaker 4: to get past it. But every everything that anyone's told

1022
00:59:47,040 --> 00:59:50,960
Speaker 4: me has been super helpful. I'm just glad to talk

1023
00:59:51,000 --> 00:59:52,880
Speaker 4: about it. I'm glad to vent it out and like

1024
00:59:53,120 --> 00:59:54,120
Speaker 4: not let it faster.

1025
00:59:55,960 --> 01:00:02,720
Speaker 3: Yeah, man, I mean I don't know. I don't know.

1026
01:00:02,760 --> 01:00:07,760
Speaker 3: I mean this sounds like, uh, time, time will heal

1027
01:00:07,800 --> 01:00:10,439
Speaker 3: the wound. And then afterwards, I mean, God, you're gonna

1028
01:00:10,440 --> 01:00:12,720
Speaker 3: be You're like a gold mine. You're gonna you're You're

1029
01:00:13,440 --> 01:00:15,440
Speaker 3: I don't do you understand this about yourself?

1030
01:00:16,280 --> 01:00:16,440
Speaker 2: You know?

1031
01:00:17,120 --> 01:00:19,840
Speaker 3: Because here's the thing. Yeah, I don't think you do either,

1032
01:00:19,840 --> 01:00:22,800
Speaker 3: because you just you went on a whole rant about

1033
01:00:22,840 --> 01:00:28,120
Speaker 3: how smart you are, and then you aren't being aware

1034
01:00:28,800 --> 01:00:31,360
Speaker 3: of how much of a stud you are. You know

1035
01:00:31,440 --> 01:00:34,080
Speaker 3: what I'm saying, Like you got to redirect your self

1036
01:00:34,120 --> 01:00:35,720
Speaker 3: awareness to the right spots.

1037
01:00:38,960 --> 01:00:45,280
Speaker 4: Yeah, yeah, I like. I I'm just in the process.

1038
01:00:45,320 --> 01:00:48,320
Speaker 4: Since this is my first week of getting out of denial,

1039
01:00:49,000 --> 01:00:55,200
Speaker 4: I'm just really getting ready for it all, prepping myself.

1040
01:00:55,240 --> 01:00:56,640
Speaker 4: But what the future holds.

1041
01:00:57,720 --> 01:01:00,680
Speaker 3: It's gonna be sick. You're prepping yourself for the future holds.

1042
01:01:00,680 --> 01:01:03,680
Speaker 3: Fucking drink a lot of water.

1043
01:01:04,920 --> 01:01:07,360
Speaker 4: I already do. I'm a healthy little boy.

1044
01:01:07,720 --> 01:01:08,919
Speaker 3: Yeah, I know you are.

1045
01:01:09,440 --> 01:01:13,400
Speaker 1: I know you are. It's unintentionable. Well, I say I'm healthy,

1046
01:01:13,440 --> 01:01:17,240
Speaker 1: but my diet is awful. It's just water and a

1047
01:01:17,240 --> 01:01:19,520
Speaker 1: ham sandwich every day.

1048
01:01:20,960 --> 01:01:21,160
Speaker 2: Yeah.

1049
01:01:21,200 --> 01:01:22,479
Speaker 3: Let me know if you ever want to hear about

1050
01:01:22,480 --> 01:01:30,520
Speaker 3: an awful diet, and I will tell you one. Yeah, Edwin, Edwin,

1051
01:01:30,600 --> 01:01:32,120
Speaker 3: is there anything else I can do for you? I

1052
01:01:32,560 --> 01:01:35,000
Speaker 3: I I'm not worried about you. I think you're going

1053
01:01:35,040 --> 01:01:36,560
Speaker 3: to be great.

1054
01:01:36,920 --> 01:01:40,240
Speaker 4: That's great to hear. I don't know, I don't know.

1055
01:01:40,320 --> 01:01:40,600
Speaker 1: I like.

1056
01:01:40,840 --> 01:01:43,440
Speaker 4: I like listening to your podcast at work. It's very nice.

1057
01:01:44,520 --> 01:01:47,680
Speaker 4: It's very nice to uh just hear what everyone else

1058
01:01:47,760 --> 01:01:51,240
Speaker 4: is going through to get like perspective on existence for everything.

1059
01:01:52,080 --> 01:01:55,400
Speaker 4: So I enjoy what you do and I appreciate it.

1060
01:01:56,320 --> 01:01:56,640
Speaker 3: Thanks.

1061
01:01:56,680 --> 01:01:56,840
Speaker 1: Man.

1062
01:01:57,000 --> 01:01:59,960
Speaker 3: Enjoy being a hot cool guitar game.

1063
01:02:01,520 --> 01:02:03,880
Speaker 4: Say say hi to Flesh is yummy in the chat

1064
01:02:04,960 --> 01:02:09,040
Speaker 4: I'm reading all these that is me. I am Flesh.

1065
01:02:09,120 --> 01:02:14,480
Speaker 3: Hey, take care man, you too. Yeah, there's a six

1066
01:02:14,560 --> 01:02:18,400
Speaker 3: to three man with a cool mustache who thinks that

1067
01:02:19,640 --> 01:02:22,280
Speaker 3: a bottle of water and a ham sandwich is a

1068
01:02:22,360 --> 01:02:27,200
Speaker 3: cheat meal. He's gonna be fine. Goes on the line

1069
01:02:27,480 --> 01:02:30,920
Speaker 3: taking your phone calls every night. Never Beacon goes to

1070
01:02:31,200 --> 01:02:31,640
Speaker 3: his hide.

1071
01:02:31,720 --> 01:02:33,840
Speaker 1: He's teaching you how in the Men of your life,

1072
01:02:34,280 --> 01:02:36,440
Speaker 1: but he's not ready an expert