1 00:00:03,520 --> 00:00:07,320 Speaker 1: Welcome to Jay dot m a production of I Heart Radio. 2 00:00:10,520 --> 00:00:13,640 Speaker 1: What's Up, Good People? I got my arms up, I 3 00:00:13,680 --> 00:00:16,680 Speaker 1: got my hands up in the air. I I need 4 00:00:16,720 --> 00:00:19,759 Speaker 1: some scrump. Okay, I need some scrump on this one. 5 00:00:20,239 --> 00:00:23,880 Speaker 1: Welcome to Jay dot Illo Podcast. I'm here, I'm I'm 6 00:00:23,880 --> 00:00:27,800 Speaker 1: see I see what I'm saying. I mean, I'm here. 7 00:00:28,360 --> 00:00:32,640 Speaker 1: I'm here with my sister friends, Aga Graden, Dancer and 8 00:00:32,760 --> 00:00:38,120 Speaker 1: Lion st Clair. And it's one of them days. You know, 9 00:00:38,440 --> 00:00:45,560 Speaker 1: like I I don't. I don't feel like it. I 10 00:00:45,640 --> 00:00:49,320 Speaker 1: don't feel like none of it. I don't. What does 11 00:00:49,360 --> 00:00:55,680 Speaker 1: that mean? Man? You know, because we're in this place 12 00:00:55,760 --> 00:00:57,960 Speaker 1: and it's like, oh, you gotta you gotta get your 13 00:00:58,040 --> 00:01:00,560 Speaker 1: grind on. You gotta do the work. You gotta you know, 14 00:01:00,800 --> 00:01:06,400 Speaker 1: you gotta work to you achieve. You gotta people counting on, 15 00:01:07,760 --> 00:01:11,240 Speaker 1: people counting on you. That's the one. When you got 16 00:01:11,360 --> 00:01:16,479 Speaker 1: a bunch of people, implormate family counting on you, it's 17 00:01:16,600 --> 00:01:20,920 Speaker 1: it's and there's no way to actually check out. I 18 00:01:21,040 --> 00:01:23,199 Speaker 1: have to do things today. I don't have a job 19 00:01:23,480 --> 00:01:26,360 Speaker 1: per se. Today. I'm happy to talk to y'all motherfucker's. 20 00:01:26,400 --> 00:01:32,680 Speaker 1: But other than that responsibility, I have the responsibilities, the 21 00:01:32,880 --> 00:01:37,240 Speaker 1: responsibilities that are primarily family. You know, I gotta do 22 00:01:37,400 --> 00:01:43,240 Speaker 1: some things that I really like I dream doing I 23 00:01:43,360 --> 00:01:45,360 Speaker 1: just said, and not feel guilty about it. And not 24 00:01:45,520 --> 00:01:47,640 Speaker 1: feel guilty I mean, because it's it's the guilt that 25 00:01:47,680 --> 00:01:50,840 Speaker 1: will get you every time. And you'll be sitting down 26 00:01:51,000 --> 00:01:54,240 Speaker 1: and even say to yourself, I'm not doing this, but 27 00:01:54,360 --> 00:01:57,400 Speaker 1: then spend the whole time not doing it, having a 28 00:01:57,480 --> 00:02:01,120 Speaker 1: conversation with yourself in your head saying when then you 29 00:02:01,200 --> 00:02:04,760 Speaker 1: knew you were supposed to do that? And sometimes you 30 00:02:04,800 --> 00:02:07,520 Speaker 1: don't do that enough times and then eventually you just 31 00:02:07,680 --> 00:02:10,600 Speaker 1: bust off. Let's just talk about that. When you don't 32 00:02:10,680 --> 00:02:14,640 Speaker 1: listen to your that inner in your mind that says 33 00:02:14,880 --> 00:02:16,799 Speaker 1: I don't feel like it, I'm not doing this, I'm 34 00:02:16,840 --> 00:02:19,720 Speaker 1: not going and you let it go multiple times, then 35 00:02:19,800 --> 00:02:22,480 Speaker 1: eventually it builds up on the inside. I don't know, 36 00:02:22,600 --> 00:02:26,720 Speaker 1: Maybe it's just me. I'll go with the crickets if 37 00:02:26,800 --> 00:02:32,160 Speaker 1: if I don't attend to the situation, eventually it's gonna 38 00:02:32,240 --> 00:02:35,239 Speaker 1: be fire burn. They're gonna be like, oh lord, she 39 00:02:35,400 --> 00:02:38,400 Speaker 1: have flipped out, and what is going on with with agent? 40 00:02:38,680 --> 00:02:43,359 Speaker 1: But I'm good fire. I love what you say. Like 41 00:02:43,680 --> 00:02:48,079 Speaker 1: we know that this that don the fan. I have 42 00:02:48,160 --> 00:02:51,120 Speaker 1: to give props to my best friend of my entire life, 43 00:02:51,720 --> 00:02:53,720 Speaker 1: Aliyah clued up and she's going to be so happy 44 00:02:53,760 --> 00:02:57,800 Speaker 1: that I named her by name that's fireburn come from her. 45 00:02:58,560 --> 00:03:01,040 Speaker 1: I gotta I gotta give her her credit and credit 46 00:03:02,360 --> 00:03:10,799 Speaker 1: I feel today. I don't feel like you know, the 47 00:03:10,919 --> 00:03:14,720 Speaker 1: boy asked me for something today and it was sitting 48 00:03:14,720 --> 00:03:18,120 Speaker 1: in front of his face, and I think I blacked 49 00:03:18,160 --> 00:03:21,440 Speaker 1: out for a second and came back. I was so 50 00:03:22,200 --> 00:03:27,160 Speaker 1: agitated because all he had the glue was look when 51 00:03:27,240 --> 00:03:29,919 Speaker 1: he's nine bones, that's all he had to do. It 52 00:03:30,080 --> 00:03:33,480 Speaker 1: wasn't even it was right there, Jill, in this moment, 53 00:03:33,560 --> 00:03:36,960 Speaker 1: did you forget all them times? You'll be like where 54 00:03:37,120 --> 00:03:43,440 Speaker 1: is my phone? And where my glasses? Because it's today. 55 00:03:43,800 --> 00:03:48,600 Speaker 1: You ain't got no patience And that's really that's really 56 00:03:48,760 --> 00:03:51,760 Speaker 1: what it is. I just I don't really have a 57 00:03:51,840 --> 00:03:55,119 Speaker 1: lot of patience today for anything or anyone. I don't 58 00:03:55,200 --> 00:03:57,600 Speaker 1: feel like it. If I could spend this whole day 59 00:03:58,400 --> 00:04:00,800 Speaker 1: just taking a bath, I could do I would do it. 60 00:04:01,200 --> 00:04:04,120 Speaker 1: I would take a bath and I would watch something 61 00:04:05,800 --> 00:04:10,120 Speaker 1: Eyes on the Prizes out or whatever y'all know me, 62 00:04:10,240 --> 00:04:12,960 Speaker 1: I'll sit down and watch nineteen documentaries in a row. 63 00:04:13,120 --> 00:04:15,160 Speaker 1: Leave me alone here and see what I think. A 64 00:04:15,240 --> 00:04:18,280 Speaker 1: new episode in praising Grayson Frankie is up. You know 65 00:04:18,320 --> 00:04:20,760 Speaker 1: what I'm saying. I'm not playing games for these people today. 66 00:04:20,839 --> 00:04:24,679 Speaker 1: I'm tired. The mind is tired, the body is tired, 67 00:04:24,800 --> 00:04:29,080 Speaker 1: the voice is tired. And I'm like, yeah, I got 68 00:04:29,160 --> 00:04:31,520 Speaker 1: on the car. Y'alls like, Asia, what's wrong? Ain't nothing wrong? 69 00:04:31,960 --> 00:04:34,760 Speaker 1: A bitch is drained, That's all it is, so, y'all, 70 00:04:34,760 --> 00:04:37,280 Speaker 1: don't get your life sitting and like, never have VEG 71 00:04:37,480 --> 00:04:40,760 Speaker 1: moments where you could just well, of course, well, of course, 72 00:04:41,080 --> 00:04:44,200 Speaker 1: here's the funny part about a VEG moment. It typically 73 00:04:44,320 --> 00:04:46,960 Speaker 1: doesn't happen at that very moment where you need it. 74 00:04:49,240 --> 00:04:53,680 Speaker 1: Moment right, let me see, Let let me sit from 75 00:04:53,720 --> 00:04:58,040 Speaker 1: my my, my baby, Yoda cup, good good leg moments 76 00:04:58,120 --> 00:05:04,479 Speaker 1: are not planned, you know they used, but they are deciding. Yeah, 77 00:05:04,520 --> 00:05:07,200 Speaker 1: but I want one today. I wanna. I wanna do 78 00:05:07,320 --> 00:05:10,320 Speaker 1: it today. I don't want to think about what this 79 00:05:10,520 --> 00:05:13,000 Speaker 1: person or that person in this house is going to eat. 80 00:05:13,839 --> 00:05:16,560 Speaker 1: God bless him. As food in the refrigerator is it's 81 00:05:16,640 --> 00:05:19,920 Speaker 1: ways to cook it? Leave me alone. I don't I 82 00:05:20,040 --> 00:05:22,080 Speaker 1: don't want to go to my mother's house today and 83 00:05:22,200 --> 00:05:24,360 Speaker 1: deal with her stuff. I don't want to do it. 84 00:05:25,360 --> 00:05:28,320 Speaker 1: I just don't want to listen. Listen, I'm gonna tell y'all. 85 00:05:28,400 --> 00:05:30,640 Speaker 1: But if I don't, let's let we can. We can, 86 00:05:31,240 --> 00:05:34,080 Speaker 1: we can continue. Look these things that were over, let's 87 00:05:34,160 --> 00:05:35,960 Speaker 1: I'm gonna take my cue from you, Jill, and I'm 88 00:05:35,960 --> 00:05:40,880 Speaker 1: gonna name it. Okay, I'm gonna claim it. Whold, y'all. 89 00:05:41,600 --> 00:05:44,200 Speaker 1: I am over, and y'all gonna be surprised at this. 90 00:05:44,600 --> 00:05:50,880 Speaker 1: I'm over the internet, honey, I'm so over. Listen. I'm 91 00:05:50,960 --> 00:05:55,719 Speaker 1: so old people and they damn opinions and their arguments, 92 00:05:55,800 --> 00:05:59,320 Speaker 1: and I'm tired of people being stupid and not reading 93 00:06:00,000 --> 00:06:04,080 Speaker 1: and posting articles from bs and just saying anything out 94 00:06:04,160 --> 00:06:10,080 Speaker 1: their mouth with a chest. People that are understanding basic basic, 95 00:06:10,640 --> 00:06:14,920 Speaker 1: You understand me basic ship See that's gon see you 96 00:06:15,120 --> 00:06:16,800 Speaker 1: you are you are level one to engage or on 97 00:06:16,920 --> 00:06:19,160 Speaker 1: social media. You hare's a lot of different levels to 98 00:06:19,360 --> 00:06:22,119 Speaker 1: engage in on social media. Some of us just troll. 99 00:06:22,320 --> 00:06:25,840 Speaker 1: Not us, because I don't troll some of us. I'm 100 00:06:25,880 --> 00:06:29,720 Speaker 1: just saying here, she does doesn't she gets it in, 101 00:06:30,000 --> 00:06:32,479 Speaker 1: She gets it in, and then she internal They were 102 00:06:32,480 --> 00:06:34,520 Speaker 1: talking about some deep stuff to you know what I'm saying, 103 00:06:35,279 --> 00:06:37,039 Speaker 1: And if you ain't got time, I don't have time 104 00:06:37,080 --> 00:06:39,800 Speaker 1: for that. I don't have time for the book, you know. 105 00:06:40,080 --> 00:06:41,920 Speaker 1: But my family always like you didn't see when we 106 00:06:41,920 --> 00:06:43,560 Speaker 1: posted this on the book, I don't. I don't have 107 00:06:43,640 --> 00:06:45,280 Speaker 1: time for the book. That's a whole bunch of energy. 108 00:06:45,560 --> 00:06:47,240 Speaker 1: But I don't. Well, I'll tell you this much. I 109 00:06:47,320 --> 00:06:50,480 Speaker 1: at least have enough enough respect for my peace of 110 00:06:50,560 --> 00:06:53,320 Speaker 1: mind to not engage on the book. I'll be on 111 00:06:53,480 --> 00:06:56,680 Speaker 1: the book, but I don't engage in nary conversation on 112 00:06:56,800 --> 00:06:59,920 Speaker 1: the book. Here. I'll put something up there. Y'all can 113 00:07:00,040 --> 00:07:02,840 Speaker 1: comment all you want to. My favorite tagline is argue 114 00:07:02,880 --> 00:07:07,360 Speaker 1: with yourself. Y'all know I ain't on the book. You 115 00:07:07,480 --> 00:07:09,640 Speaker 1: have to be exhausted from it. It's been a few years. 116 00:07:10,520 --> 00:07:15,920 Speaker 1: It's been the last Yeah, yeah, I said Michael Byes. 117 00:07:16,400 --> 00:07:21,040 Speaker 1: I had created what I thought was a safe Facebook 118 00:07:21,120 --> 00:07:25,480 Speaker 1: page with people that I actually knew, not strangers. Not 119 00:07:25,640 --> 00:07:28,440 Speaker 1: somebody was like, oh I like your content, let's be friends. 120 00:07:28,720 --> 00:07:31,280 Speaker 1: It wasn't like that. It was people that I actually 121 00:07:31,440 --> 00:07:34,880 Speaker 1: knew and had known for some time, and all of 122 00:07:34,920 --> 00:07:38,880 Speaker 1: a sudden one day, my stuff is showing up somewhere else. 123 00:07:38,960 --> 00:07:41,920 Speaker 1: I can't go through all my people and say, did 124 00:07:42,000 --> 00:07:45,280 Speaker 1: you say, did you did you paste, did you copy 125 00:07:45,400 --> 00:07:48,760 Speaker 1: and paste? Did you share this with? I can't do that. 126 00:07:48,960 --> 00:07:55,240 Speaker 1: So I just dumped everybody, everybody because if you have 127 00:07:55,440 --> 00:07:58,200 Speaker 1: my number, you got it. That poll about every year. 128 00:07:58,360 --> 00:08:00,680 Speaker 1: I don't do the clubhouses and even oh, I can't 129 00:08:00,720 --> 00:08:05,840 Speaker 1: do that. Energy can am waking up trying to fight 130 00:08:05,920 --> 00:08:08,520 Speaker 1: myself saying the words I'm don't say it. Allow, girl, 131 00:08:10,640 --> 00:08:13,520 Speaker 1: today sounds it sounds like we're a little bit crap. Well, 132 00:08:13,560 --> 00:08:15,320 Speaker 1: I'm a little bit crappy. I ain't gonna say what 133 00:08:15,400 --> 00:08:18,360 Speaker 1: you are, agent says, she's a little sleepy. I'm I'm 134 00:08:18,440 --> 00:08:24,480 Speaker 1: just like I am. I am legitimately annoyed by everything today. 135 00:08:25,640 --> 00:08:28,840 Speaker 1: Are we on the same situation? We're not. We're not 136 00:08:28,920 --> 00:08:30,880 Speaker 1: there right because we're not physically in each other's presence, 137 00:08:30,920 --> 00:08:32,839 Speaker 1: so we're not We're not all in the same No, 138 00:08:34,000 --> 00:08:36,920 Speaker 1: I'm I still got a couple of days before that happened. 139 00:08:36,920 --> 00:08:38,520 Speaker 1: I'm a woman, so I can ask that question. Man, 140 00:08:38,559 --> 00:08:42,280 Speaker 1: you can't ask what you can right now. You cannot, 141 00:08:42,679 --> 00:08:45,800 Speaker 1: you know, especially in these in these feelings, in this 142 00:08:46,120 --> 00:08:49,520 Speaker 1: in this particular you know, emotions said, you might get 143 00:08:49,640 --> 00:08:54,280 Speaker 1: smacked good, but if you ain't going through or otherwise. 144 00:08:54,400 --> 00:08:59,520 Speaker 1: And I'm also quite tired. I've had quite enough. I've 145 00:08:59,559 --> 00:09:02,839 Speaker 1: had right enough. It's it's like, okay with the with 146 00:09:03,360 --> 00:09:06,520 Speaker 1: the grown up portion, you know, you gotta grow up 147 00:09:06,640 --> 00:09:12,520 Speaker 1: and handle things, and it's it's only the kids knew. 148 00:09:13,240 --> 00:09:16,760 Speaker 1: It's really not that fun that all the stuff that 149 00:09:17,640 --> 00:09:20,680 Speaker 1: also pressed to do. It's a hot to ask mess 150 00:09:20,760 --> 00:09:23,240 Speaker 1: and nobody feels like having to do it. What do 151 00:09:23,320 --> 00:09:25,280 Speaker 1: you get to do? You get to well, at sixteen, 152 00:09:25,360 --> 00:09:27,440 Speaker 1: you get to drive, so you get to have your 153 00:09:27,480 --> 00:09:31,720 Speaker 1: own space. That's awesome, but you have to also pay 154 00:09:31,800 --> 00:09:35,720 Speaker 1: for it. You gotta pay for your own space. Um, 155 00:09:35,840 --> 00:09:38,480 Speaker 1: what else I'm tired of wearing? I'm tired of wearing makeup? 156 00:09:38,640 --> 00:09:41,640 Speaker 1: Can I say that I'm tired of that too. I'll 157 00:09:41,679 --> 00:09:47,160 Speaker 1: be happy if I never have to plug uh, contour, lined, 158 00:09:48,480 --> 00:09:54,920 Speaker 1: highlight or bronze ever again in life. I did have 159 00:09:55,040 --> 00:09:57,640 Speaker 1: my makeup done earlier this week by my friend Kietrick, 160 00:09:57,720 --> 00:09:59,800 Speaker 1: and it was super cute. Now it's happy about that. 161 00:10:00,240 --> 00:10:02,480 Speaker 1: I was like, yeah, but it wasn't something that I 162 00:10:02,600 --> 00:10:07,439 Speaker 1: had to do myself. Today I'm talking about just I 163 00:10:07,840 --> 00:10:13,040 Speaker 1: know we are advocates for the nap, you know, but 164 00:10:13,160 --> 00:10:17,160 Speaker 1: it's beyond a nap. It's beyond me just taking a nap. 165 00:10:17,320 --> 00:10:20,160 Speaker 1: It's it's like I want to run away from home. 166 00:10:21,240 --> 00:10:24,680 Speaker 1: I don't want my phone to ring. I don't feel 167 00:10:24,880 --> 00:10:28,920 Speaker 1: like it, and and oddly enough, I don't feel some 168 00:10:29,080 --> 00:10:31,640 Speaker 1: kind of ways. Isn't night if nobody said anything to 169 00:10:31,760 --> 00:10:36,160 Speaker 1: me at all? Why can't we embrace this part of 170 00:10:36,240 --> 00:10:39,520 Speaker 1: ourselves too? Why we have to be agreeable all of that? Damn, 171 00:10:39,559 --> 00:10:42,600 Speaker 1: I'm not agreeable, like, I just can't. I don't think 172 00:10:42,600 --> 00:10:45,199 Speaker 1: it's about I don't know what you're saying. Girls like 173 00:10:45,280 --> 00:10:49,959 Speaker 1: the expectations and then agreeables everybody that's in like the 174 00:10:50,080 --> 00:10:52,320 Speaker 1: service industry. I mean, y'all are in the service industry, 175 00:10:52,400 --> 00:10:57,599 Speaker 1: is in the industry. But damn, when you got to 176 00:10:57,800 --> 00:10:59,559 Speaker 1: have to deal with folks every day. I have a 177 00:10:59,600 --> 00:11:03,800 Speaker 1: displine about yourself. And that's the smile and somebody to say, oh, 178 00:11:03,840 --> 00:11:05,640 Speaker 1: I love the way you brighten my day. One of 179 00:11:05,679 --> 00:11:08,880 Speaker 1: them people, and you ain't got time for it. Listen. 180 00:11:08,960 --> 00:11:12,160 Speaker 1: I was in a in a post office yesterday and 181 00:11:12,440 --> 00:11:15,280 Speaker 1: I wanted to cuss the person out for the postal 182 00:11:15,360 --> 00:11:19,520 Speaker 1: worker like I. I shoot, the customer was making me 183 00:11:19,720 --> 00:11:23,720 Speaker 1: so mad at the way that that that she was acting. 184 00:11:24,240 --> 00:11:26,720 Speaker 1: I wanted to get out the line and cuss her 185 00:11:27,240 --> 00:11:29,920 Speaker 1: for the person that was working for the postal service, 186 00:11:30,400 --> 00:11:33,320 Speaker 1: because I was like, listen, says, don't talk to her 187 00:11:33,480 --> 00:11:36,800 Speaker 1: like that. Okay, don't talk to her like that, and 188 00:11:36,920 --> 00:11:39,000 Speaker 1: I and I'm with you. Shout out to people who 189 00:11:39,080 --> 00:11:41,040 Speaker 1: have to work in service, because I'll be don't clust 190 00:11:41,200 --> 00:11:45,280 Speaker 1: everybody else. If you get through the full day without 191 00:11:45,320 --> 00:11:49,360 Speaker 1: a cuss, I promise you you're a special individual. Hold on, 192 00:11:49,520 --> 00:11:51,160 Speaker 1: I want to talk you every day. I want to 193 00:11:51,200 --> 00:11:54,839 Speaker 1: take a moment for a special UH industry. Uh that 194 00:11:55,000 --> 00:11:57,280 Speaker 1: my mother was a part of the flight attendant industry, 195 00:11:57,960 --> 00:12:01,000 Speaker 1: because these poor people talk about you ain't got time 196 00:12:01,040 --> 00:12:05,600 Speaker 1: for it and it don't matter, or they said, in history, 197 00:12:05,679 --> 00:12:09,560 Speaker 1: there has never been this this many fines, UH duct 198 00:12:09,600 --> 00:12:15,079 Speaker 1: tape confinements, UH attempts to open up doors just m 199 00:12:15,640 --> 00:12:18,679 Speaker 1: I'm just saying, shout out to them, and shout out 200 00:12:18,720 --> 00:12:20,920 Speaker 1: to the people that work in the medical field as well. 201 00:12:21,360 --> 00:12:24,959 Speaker 1: Especially now you guys are patience of somebody's saying I 202 00:12:25,240 --> 00:12:28,320 Speaker 1: don't know, I argue with you about COVID they're gonna 203 00:12:28,360 --> 00:12:29,920 Speaker 1: argue with you when you're working in you're in the 204 00:12:29,960 --> 00:12:32,360 Speaker 1: hospital every day. I mean, you're gonna you're gonna give 205 00:12:32,360 --> 00:12:34,439 Speaker 1: me your conspiracy theories. I ain't got time for it, 206 00:12:34,760 --> 00:12:38,320 Speaker 1: oh girl. The therapists are overrun with work. I remember, 207 00:12:39,040 --> 00:12:41,880 Speaker 1: not even six months into the pandemic, my sister in law, 208 00:12:41,920 --> 00:12:44,520 Speaker 1: who's the therapist, was like, they're getting calls out the wazoo. 209 00:12:44,960 --> 00:12:47,880 Speaker 1: They gotta turn down people. But mind you, some of 210 00:12:47,920 --> 00:12:54,079 Speaker 1: the people who need to be calling amen don't and 211 00:12:54,160 --> 00:12:58,320 Speaker 1: they need to get on the goddamn Faulla airplane. Stop 212 00:12:58,400 --> 00:13:01,720 Speaker 1: calling me, stop talking to me, stopped going to other 213 00:13:01,800 --> 00:13:05,200 Speaker 1: places and taking your wildness. And with all due respect 214 00:13:05,240 --> 00:13:08,800 Speaker 1: to those who have real, you know, challenges, you know 215 00:13:10,120 --> 00:13:15,800 Speaker 1: people that lost they got damn mind. We're gonna take 216 00:13:15,800 --> 00:13:28,079 Speaker 1: a quick break and then we'll be right back. I 217 00:13:28,200 --> 00:13:31,559 Speaker 1: think it started with this morning. I got hit with 218 00:13:31,679 --> 00:13:36,040 Speaker 1: the wammy. There was there's someone that I know who 219 00:13:36,520 --> 00:13:40,160 Speaker 1: had a very very serious loss to two of them 220 00:13:40,400 --> 00:13:44,480 Speaker 1: back to back, very serious. Um. I know them, but 221 00:13:44,520 --> 00:13:46,400 Speaker 1: I don't know them like that, but I know them. 222 00:13:46,440 --> 00:13:48,839 Speaker 1: But nonetheless, I got the phone called this morning that 223 00:13:49,200 --> 00:13:51,920 Speaker 1: that there's some part of that that's a whole fraud. 224 00:13:53,640 --> 00:14:03,960 Speaker 1: I was like, dan Z, there's a lot of that. Now, 225 00:14:05,200 --> 00:14:11,360 Speaker 1: there's a lot of fraud. Ass says. Somebody called me 226 00:14:11,679 --> 00:14:14,559 Speaker 1: the other day, just the cell phone business. You know. 227 00:14:14,720 --> 00:14:17,559 Speaker 1: They called me and told me that, um, somebody is 228 00:14:17,559 --> 00:14:21,120 Speaker 1: trying to use my my credit card in Texas at 229 00:14:21,360 --> 00:14:24,800 Speaker 1: Walmart six hundred sevent What do I want to do? 230 00:14:25,120 --> 00:14:27,320 Speaker 1: I was like, well, clearly, don't let the you know, 231 00:14:27,520 --> 00:14:30,400 Speaker 1: the charger go through. They're like, we can't stop them 232 00:14:30,440 --> 00:14:37,280 Speaker 1: unless you give us your social Security brother. Oh girl, 233 00:14:38,080 --> 00:14:40,320 Speaker 1: how about how about the people who want to call 234 00:14:40,400 --> 00:14:46,600 Speaker 1: you fifteen times about your car? Your car? Yes, yes, 235 00:14:47,080 --> 00:14:48,960 Speaker 1: I don't know what that ship is about. I don't 236 00:14:48,960 --> 00:14:51,560 Speaker 1: know what that. I feel like, you know, everybody talk 237 00:14:51,640 --> 00:14:54,840 Speaker 1: about COVID conspiracy. We need to figure out that conspiracy. 238 00:14:54,880 --> 00:14:57,520 Speaker 1: Can y'all pull that up? Can you dock them? Can 239 00:14:57,560 --> 00:14:59,840 Speaker 1: we find out way they at and shut that ship down? 240 00:15:00,000 --> 00:15:01,960 Speaker 1: And they're just they're just trying to make a living. 241 00:15:03,040 --> 00:15:07,240 Speaker 1: I was a telemarketer once, but I sold magazines, and 242 00:15:07,320 --> 00:15:09,880 Speaker 1: I'm telling you right now, I felt like garbage. I 243 00:15:10,040 --> 00:15:14,320 Speaker 1: lasted one week. I'm trying to sell this lady these magazines. 244 00:15:14,400 --> 00:15:17,320 Speaker 1: She don't need and the baby crying in the background. 245 00:15:17,400 --> 00:15:19,280 Speaker 1: She's like, can you hold on? And I was like, 246 00:15:20,000 --> 00:15:23,440 Speaker 1: she's there, there, there there, oh honey, oh honey. And 247 00:15:23,560 --> 00:15:25,880 Speaker 1: I get back to the script, you know, because we 248 00:15:26,000 --> 00:15:28,640 Speaker 1: got this wildlife magazine that is out of sight. It's 249 00:15:28,640 --> 00:15:31,440 Speaker 1: great for children. Yeah, they're gonna love it to that 250 00:15:31,520 --> 00:15:33,360 Speaker 1: and the other I felt like crap. I was like, 251 00:15:33,440 --> 00:15:37,600 Speaker 1: I'm selling this. This woman don't need this magazine. She 252 00:15:37,800 --> 00:15:40,560 Speaker 1: needs a nanny, she need help, she need a nap, 253 00:15:41,000 --> 00:15:45,320 Speaker 1: she need a footmas side, she needs four people ain't 254 00:15:45,320 --> 00:15:47,080 Speaker 1: got time for it because they're working from home with 255 00:15:47,120 --> 00:15:49,520 Speaker 1: all that stuff, right, Dore. I'm just like, you just 256 00:15:49,600 --> 00:15:52,160 Speaker 1: made me think about that, like people working from home 257 00:15:52,240 --> 00:15:54,080 Speaker 1: making phone call you everybody you talked to you on 258 00:15:54,160 --> 00:15:57,480 Speaker 1: customer services at home talk about that. You know, y'all 259 00:15:57,520 --> 00:16:01,360 Speaker 1: know what else I'm over, But I'm over keys every 260 00:16:01,440 --> 00:16:07,680 Speaker 1: time I go on the damn website, just about them. 261 00:16:07,760 --> 00:16:12,160 Speaker 1: Damn cookie What the fuck? I mean? What the word word? 262 00:16:12,320 --> 00:16:16,760 Speaker 1: All day? Can y'all just stop with the goddamn cookies? 263 00:16:18,680 --> 00:16:21,520 Speaker 1: Accept the cookies. No, I'm not accepting ship. I'm not 264 00:16:21,600 --> 00:16:28,240 Speaker 1: letting you sell my ship. What is wrong with you people? 265 00:16:28,560 --> 00:16:36,320 Speaker 1: This is why? Yeah, why this is literally a podcast 266 00:16:36,400 --> 00:16:42,360 Speaker 1: about nothing. I wish we could get together. I wish 267 00:16:42,440 --> 00:16:45,840 Speaker 1: we could get together and just have a cocktail and 268 00:16:46,080 --> 00:16:49,680 Speaker 1: and maybe you know Elia and I will blaze and 269 00:16:49,960 --> 00:16:57,000 Speaker 1: and Adrian can I think I wasn't. You think I wasn't. 270 00:16:57,280 --> 00:17:01,400 Speaker 1: But I'm just that's what I definitely don't do his drugs. 271 00:17:02,680 --> 00:17:09,000 Speaker 1: That's that's a girl I don't like. Listen. Hey, I 272 00:17:09,160 --> 00:17:12,760 Speaker 1: have to listen. I have to make all my disclaimers. No, 273 00:17:12,840 --> 00:17:15,159 Speaker 1: we don't have an episode. We're not talking about drugs. 274 00:17:15,440 --> 00:17:19,280 Speaker 1: I'm joking, y'all. I'm just saying there's difference. I'm not 275 00:17:19,400 --> 00:17:26,160 Speaker 1: talking about drugs. I yeah, I don't know why that's 276 00:17:26,240 --> 00:17:31,919 Speaker 1: my go to voice when I'm like talking about drugs. 277 00:17:33,240 --> 00:17:38,480 Speaker 1: Don't do drugs either. But I believe in water. And 278 00:17:38,600 --> 00:17:40,840 Speaker 1: that's probably what I need to get involved with right 279 00:17:40,880 --> 00:17:46,680 Speaker 1: now because I don't feel like it. I'm gonna tell 280 00:17:46,680 --> 00:17:49,040 Speaker 1: you right now that is the perfect partner. And I 281 00:17:49,080 --> 00:17:51,040 Speaker 1: don't feel like an attitude, which is probably why I'm 282 00:17:51,080 --> 00:17:53,240 Speaker 1: not where y'all are today because I didn't feel like 283 00:17:53,320 --> 00:17:56,119 Speaker 1: it yesterday. So the boy and some part of the 284 00:17:56,200 --> 00:17:59,320 Speaker 1: day my body went, I don't feel like so we 285 00:17:59,480 --> 00:18:03,359 Speaker 1: just So what happened because for a long time we 286 00:18:03,440 --> 00:18:06,280 Speaker 1: were stuck in the house, in the house board, you know, 287 00:18:07,119 --> 00:18:09,720 Speaker 1: for a long time, and we were like, I can't 288 00:18:09,760 --> 00:18:12,080 Speaker 1: wait to get out, I can't wait to get back 289 00:18:12,119 --> 00:18:16,160 Speaker 1: to work. I can't wait to this, that and the other. 290 00:18:16,720 --> 00:18:20,440 Speaker 1: And now so many people are not working. It's gonna 291 00:18:20,480 --> 00:18:23,879 Speaker 1: sound like some old uh, some rich people problems. I 292 00:18:24,000 --> 00:18:32,240 Speaker 1: can't get shipped, reupholstered, get nothing mares hu supposed to 293 00:18:32,280 --> 00:18:34,000 Speaker 1: be learning how to do that at home. First of all, 294 00:18:34,200 --> 00:18:37,280 Speaker 1: that's what you that's the things you do. And you're 295 00:18:37,320 --> 00:18:41,480 Speaker 1: a I can't stay poll a thing. I don't wanted 296 00:18:41,560 --> 00:18:45,640 Speaker 1: to look bad when I when I put the fabric 297 00:18:46,200 --> 00:18:49,119 Speaker 1: like I wanted to look nice. You want to talk, 298 00:18:49,920 --> 00:18:52,840 Speaker 1: I want to talk. I talk. I know that is 299 00:18:52,920 --> 00:18:55,280 Speaker 1: the YouTube. Maybe that would make me feel better if 300 00:18:55,320 --> 00:18:58,399 Speaker 1: I go and I buy some go I'm find some upholstery, 301 00:18:58,920 --> 00:19:01,840 Speaker 1: upholstery stuff. You can't get your poster. Do you know 302 00:19:02,000 --> 00:19:10,000 Speaker 1: the price I gas and groceries is high? Yesterday's price. 303 00:19:10,359 --> 00:19:16,040 Speaker 1: Yesterday's price is not today's. Take everybody taking advantage of it, everybody, 304 00:19:16,160 --> 00:19:18,480 Speaker 1: even the coffee people. It's a coffee issue right now. 305 00:19:18,480 --> 00:19:27,400 Speaker 1: I don't even know m drinking kind of coffee. Yeah, 306 00:19:28,200 --> 00:19:29,760 Speaker 1: and it's the same price. And then I get it 307 00:19:29,800 --> 00:19:31,239 Speaker 1: on one of them sites. You don't want to want 308 00:19:31,280 --> 00:19:33,760 Speaker 1: a place that delivers it. I get it from a 309 00:19:33,920 --> 00:19:37,440 Speaker 1: place it's a website that delivers it, and then um, 310 00:19:37,680 --> 00:19:41,560 Speaker 1: it's cheaper on that website as well. You know, I 311 00:19:41,720 --> 00:19:43,639 Speaker 1: love to save money. Did I tell you it's a 312 00:19:43,760 --> 00:19:46,920 Speaker 1: thing to make me happy? I wish I could just 313 00:19:47,440 --> 00:19:50,800 Speaker 1: save some money today. Are you talking about going outside? 314 00:19:50,920 --> 00:19:54,320 Speaker 1: I'm over the people who are outside who didn't learn 315 00:19:54,480 --> 00:19:58,280 Speaker 1: from the pandemic that you actually not supposed to stand 316 00:19:58,400 --> 00:20:03,520 Speaker 1: so close to other people. Somehow they have decided that 317 00:20:03,800 --> 00:20:06,639 Speaker 1: that rule is over and that now they're gonna be 318 00:20:06,760 --> 00:20:09,560 Speaker 1: on my back. And I need even when you get 319 00:20:09,680 --> 00:20:11,639 Speaker 1: back in touch, I need them to get back in 320 00:20:11,760 --> 00:20:17,480 Speaker 1: touch with the concept the six feet all around rule. 321 00:20:18,040 --> 00:20:21,960 Speaker 1: But they don't believe that it actually exists. I don't care. 322 00:20:22,520 --> 00:20:27,600 Speaker 1: I'm in the airport that people are sporadic dying to 323 00:20:27,720 --> 00:20:29,280 Speaker 1: tell you where to stay in the diet is right, 324 00:20:32,320 --> 00:20:34,800 Speaker 1: Look at the damn floor. I'm seriously, I didn't almost 325 00:20:34,800 --> 00:20:35,879 Speaker 1: have to get in the fight with people over this 326 00:20:35,920 --> 00:20:37,400 Speaker 1: ship in the last couple of weeks in the airports 327 00:20:37,400 --> 00:20:39,480 Speaker 1: and stuff like do you see do you see me 328 00:20:39,520 --> 00:20:42,840 Speaker 1: doing how many? I think I think it's time to 329 00:20:42,920 --> 00:20:45,000 Speaker 1: go back to see my therapist. Is really what it is. 330 00:20:46,400 --> 00:20:48,920 Speaker 1: I think that's it. I am something that's going on. 331 00:20:49,200 --> 00:20:56,159 Speaker 1: I am oh lethargic. Can't you just have a day? What? 332 00:20:56,359 --> 00:20:58,960 Speaker 1: Why do can't you just have a day? I don't 333 00:20:58,960 --> 00:21:00,640 Speaker 1: think it's a day. I think I gotta get something 334 00:21:00,680 --> 00:21:02,639 Speaker 1: off my chest. I think I need to go and 335 00:21:02,840 --> 00:21:06,479 Speaker 1: punch something a lot. You know, they have those places 336 00:21:06,520 --> 00:21:08,360 Speaker 1: that you can go in and you can just tear 337 00:21:08,800 --> 00:21:13,280 Speaker 1: up the little destroy rooms which I have. I'm still 338 00:21:14,040 --> 00:21:15,840 Speaker 1: I'm scared of that stuff because I'm like, if you're 339 00:21:15,840 --> 00:21:17,840 Speaker 1: looking like too much stuff is broken and jagged up 340 00:21:17,840 --> 00:21:23,200 Speaker 1: in there. But I will say that, yeah, you know, 341 00:21:23,359 --> 00:21:28,760 Speaker 1: my old lady like that looks dangerous. But still they 342 00:21:28,840 --> 00:21:31,800 Speaker 1: have it in the meantime, you could go in there 343 00:21:31,880 --> 00:21:34,280 Speaker 1: and just bust it up. I mean, I gotta punching 344 00:21:34,359 --> 00:21:37,920 Speaker 1: bag downstairs and I'm gonna go punch something. I'm gonna 345 00:21:37,960 --> 00:21:42,760 Speaker 1: go punch it. I gotta do something. Maybe that too, 346 00:21:43,359 --> 00:21:45,240 Speaker 1: I don't want to see. I gotta warm my family. 347 00:21:45,720 --> 00:21:49,400 Speaker 1: My nephew will do it with me. He's He's always 348 00:21:49,480 --> 00:21:54,600 Speaker 1: frustrated by the world. At ten years old, he like, 349 00:21:54,720 --> 00:21:57,359 Speaker 1: I don't know somebody I want to meet? You do 350 00:21:57,840 --> 00:22:01,359 Speaker 1: you really do? You've seen him be for the little 351 00:22:01,400 --> 00:22:05,040 Speaker 1: thing with the glasses. You've seen, You've seen him around. 352 00:22:05,119 --> 00:22:09,560 Speaker 1: But he is the darkest person I've ever met. I 353 00:22:09,680 --> 00:22:12,639 Speaker 1: need to hang with him today. I feel dark and 354 00:22:13,440 --> 00:22:19,600 Speaker 1: agent hated, like I'm actually hot, an old dog with 355 00:22:19,760 --> 00:22:24,960 Speaker 1: a new rash. That's how I feel before. I don't 356 00:22:25,000 --> 00:22:31,640 Speaker 1: even know, baby, Yes, that's how I feel. Well. I'm 357 00:22:31,680 --> 00:22:33,919 Speaker 1: a I'm a I'm an old dog with a lot 358 00:22:34,000 --> 00:22:38,000 Speaker 1: of sweat glands. Because yesterday I was doing laundry and 359 00:22:38,240 --> 00:22:41,840 Speaker 1: I said to myself, I had plans after doing laundry, 360 00:22:42,240 --> 00:22:44,480 Speaker 1: so I put on, you know, just it was just 361 00:22:44,480 --> 00:22:47,320 Speaker 1: a little cotton summer dress because I'm thinking, after I 362 00:22:47,400 --> 00:22:49,000 Speaker 1: finished doing what I'm gonna doing, I just want to 363 00:22:49,040 --> 00:22:52,879 Speaker 1: already be dressed. Okay, got clean from a dress on. 364 00:22:53,080 --> 00:22:54,840 Speaker 1: It wasn't super cute, but you know, it's ready to 365 00:22:54,880 --> 00:22:58,480 Speaker 1: go to the next destination. Girl. I went in there 366 00:22:58,560 --> 00:23:05,240 Speaker 1: to do the laundry and suddenly sweat was pouring off 367 00:23:05,359 --> 00:23:10,520 Speaker 1: my body and I was like, Lord, Lord, really, and 368 00:23:10,680 --> 00:23:13,720 Speaker 1: just where I'm at in life stud that I'm this 369 00:23:13,960 --> 00:23:17,960 Speaker 1: age to where I'm just doing some light laundry and 370 00:23:18,200 --> 00:23:20,360 Speaker 1: and now my body is acting like I didn't ran 371 00:23:20,440 --> 00:23:24,720 Speaker 1: a marathon. Is that what's happening? Now? I'm annoyed with 372 00:23:24,960 --> 00:23:29,359 Speaker 1: the general state of my body attacking me, and I 373 00:23:29,840 --> 00:23:32,440 Speaker 1: was annoyed. I looked crazy. I had to go get 374 00:23:32,680 --> 00:23:34,920 Speaker 1: by a rag to wipe myself because I was like, 375 00:23:35,000 --> 00:23:37,359 Speaker 1: I look insane right now. Let me say this. I 376 00:23:37,480 --> 00:23:41,040 Speaker 1: need an assistant. Okay, I need I need an assistant 377 00:23:41,080 --> 00:23:45,520 Speaker 1: in Nashville. Okay, girl, don't sup, girl, But look look 378 00:23:45,600 --> 00:23:48,600 Speaker 1: what I'm saying is there you will be vetted. It's 379 00:23:48,640 --> 00:23:51,040 Speaker 1: not like you're just gonna come straight to me. You 380 00:23:51,400 --> 00:23:56,000 Speaker 1: there's there's interviews, the interview process. Okay, you need some references, 381 00:23:56,640 --> 00:24:00,760 Speaker 1: you know, video, video references. I don't need to. I 382 00:24:00,760 --> 00:24:05,320 Speaker 1: don't need you. It's not a yeah, COVID test the 383 00:24:05,359 --> 00:24:10,359 Speaker 1: whole gamut, like all of the all of the ships, 384 00:24:11,000 --> 00:24:14,280 Speaker 1: all of the ships. I'm but I do need somebody. 385 00:24:14,400 --> 00:24:16,680 Speaker 1: I'm just gonna tell me, what about Asian story made 386 00:24:16,680 --> 00:24:18,440 Speaker 1: you think about you need an assistant? Because in my mind, 387 00:24:18,600 --> 00:24:21,359 Speaker 1: like she like because she said laundry and I have 388 00:24:21,520 --> 00:24:26,280 Speaker 1: to do laundry, and I have to unpack my luggage 389 00:24:26,400 --> 00:24:29,800 Speaker 1: to repack my luggage, and I just thought about that, 390 00:24:29,960 --> 00:24:32,520 Speaker 1: like that is something else. Sometimes I just leave the 391 00:24:32,560 --> 00:24:36,600 Speaker 1: clothes from the Sometimes just leave clothes from the last trip. 392 00:24:38,400 --> 00:24:40,960 Speaker 1: Right now. It's not like I don't have other luggage. 393 00:24:41,160 --> 00:24:45,159 Speaker 1: But for whatever reason, my kid wants that luggage. He 394 00:24:45,359 --> 00:24:49,080 Speaker 1: thinks that luggage belongs to him, which doesn't doesn't, but 395 00:24:49,359 --> 00:24:52,760 Speaker 1: he wants it, and he's asked me for it for 396 00:24:52,880 --> 00:24:56,440 Speaker 1: like a week, and now I have to give it 397 00:24:56,520 --> 00:25:00,359 Speaker 1: to him. God, just because I said I would. But 398 00:25:00,480 --> 00:25:03,600 Speaker 1: I don't feel like it. Look at that right back 399 00:25:03,640 --> 00:25:07,760 Speaker 1: to where we started, I don't. I just want to 400 00:25:07,800 --> 00:25:09,960 Speaker 1: take a minute for the sweaters, because Asia, as you 401 00:25:10,040 --> 00:25:12,159 Speaker 1: are just being welcome into this club, some of us 402 00:25:12,560 --> 00:25:15,760 Speaker 1: have been having these sweating issues for a minute. And um, 403 00:25:15,920 --> 00:25:18,199 Speaker 1: some of us not only swept when they get out 404 00:25:18,280 --> 00:25:21,840 Speaker 1: the shower, um, and not at night. Sometimes you sweat 405 00:25:22,119 --> 00:25:25,239 Speaker 1: just when you're nervous. So then motherfucker's always know what's 406 00:25:25,280 --> 00:25:28,520 Speaker 1: something wrong? Ain't nothing. Ain't nothing like meeting somebody that 407 00:25:28,560 --> 00:25:30,359 Speaker 1: you really are nervous about meeting, and you start to 408 00:25:30,359 --> 00:25:33,720 Speaker 1: break it into sweat, and so now you must carry 409 00:25:33,720 --> 00:25:35,520 Speaker 1: a fan around with you and you collect fans and 410 00:25:35,560 --> 00:25:37,520 Speaker 1: people think it's cute, but it's really fun. Now. I didn't. 411 00:25:37,560 --> 00:25:43,080 Speaker 1: I didn't believe like until until until I saw it firsthand, 412 00:25:43,119 --> 00:25:49,120 Speaker 1: and I was like, Yo, you're all right, and I'm 413 00:25:49,280 --> 00:25:52,240 Speaker 1: so sorry. And I hadn't seen you for us. I 414 00:25:52,240 --> 00:25:53,760 Speaker 1: don't say yeah. I started to say, I was so 415 00:25:53,880 --> 00:25:56,560 Speaker 1: happy to see you too, but she just she just 416 00:25:57,320 --> 00:26:02,600 Speaker 1: she was wet. What's happen your name? And just so 417 00:26:02,760 --> 00:26:06,160 Speaker 1: you know, when something going on with you, she's gonna 418 00:26:06,200 --> 00:26:08,160 Speaker 1: make it known and she's gonna take her own web 419 00:26:08,320 --> 00:26:14,000 Speaker 1: MD diagnosis of you. Um and that I'm so sorry, daughter. 420 00:26:14,040 --> 00:26:17,200 Speaker 1: It's literally like are you are you sick? Are you 421 00:26:17,320 --> 00:26:20,200 Speaker 1: feeling well? Like that again, I'll bring it up again, 422 00:26:20,400 --> 00:26:22,280 Speaker 1: like when my with my ankles that are a little 423 00:26:22,400 --> 00:26:25,080 Speaker 1: large and she thinks I have a demon. I'm just saying, 424 00:26:25,400 --> 00:26:27,800 Speaker 1: this is just the ship that she just our friendship. Girl. 425 00:26:27,880 --> 00:26:29,280 Speaker 1: Don't no, don't let me tell you about this. One 426 00:26:29,320 --> 00:26:31,440 Speaker 1: time I was on vacation. This was a few years ago. 427 00:26:32,040 --> 00:26:33,679 Speaker 1: It was a few years ago. I was on vacation 428 00:26:33,720 --> 00:26:38,119 Speaker 1: because Joe, this ain't even you didn't do it. I 429 00:26:38,200 --> 00:26:40,600 Speaker 1: was on vacation a few years ago, y'all. And I 430 00:26:40,720 --> 00:26:44,359 Speaker 1: posted a picture of myself by the pool, girl's feet 431 00:26:44,400 --> 00:26:48,080 Speaker 1: crossed infinity pool child. I was feeling good about my life. Girl, 432 00:26:48,600 --> 00:26:50,800 Speaker 1: post a little picture. Girl, why's the world couple? Like? 433 00:26:50,840 --> 00:26:57,640 Speaker 1: I'm a nurse. I think you have a demon like bitch. 434 00:26:57,720 --> 00:27:00,639 Speaker 1: Who the fuck? Who asked? Did you? This is what 435 00:27:00,760 --> 00:27:06,399 Speaker 1: I need to know? And while I'm on vacation. You 436 00:27:06,560 --> 00:27:09,840 Speaker 1: you diagnosing me on the internet. While I'm on vacac 437 00:27:10,080 --> 00:27:11,359 Speaker 1: just got off the plane. You know your peaks well 438 00:27:11,359 --> 00:27:13,359 Speaker 1: off the plane. You know that that's the thing. Or 439 00:27:13,440 --> 00:27:18,720 Speaker 1: she couldn't just minded her goddamn business. Oh god, I 440 00:27:18,840 --> 00:27:22,280 Speaker 1: apologize to everybody. Well I didn't. I didn't read my 441 00:27:22,520 --> 00:27:25,600 Speaker 1: my goddamn business and g O T d A m man, 442 00:27:26,200 --> 00:27:30,560 Speaker 1: I'm so sorry. My mama was like, no, she just 443 00:27:30,640 --> 00:27:34,920 Speaker 1: got her daddy ankles. Leave. Hello, that's what your mother said. 444 00:27:36,480 --> 00:27:39,480 Speaker 1: Because I was because I was concerned, and I was, 445 00:27:39,840 --> 00:27:41,920 Speaker 1: you know, I was ready to rub it on and 446 00:27:42,040 --> 00:27:44,240 Speaker 1: she might not have said it twice. I was gonna 447 00:27:44,359 --> 00:27:46,600 Speaker 1: rob him. I was like, let's sit down. I got you, 448 00:27:46,840 --> 00:27:49,399 Speaker 1: and she was like, that's just my ankles, jail, And 449 00:27:49,480 --> 00:27:51,880 Speaker 1: I was like, no, I've problem now, that's a beginning 450 00:27:51,880 --> 00:27:55,359 Speaker 1: to get better. She's like, no, it's just my ankles. Jail. 451 00:27:56,440 --> 00:28:03,800 Speaker 1: I was like, I'm sorry and didn't believe. Was like, 452 00:28:05,560 --> 00:28:07,520 Speaker 1: maybe you just call your doctor. I think you said that. 453 00:28:07,600 --> 00:28:09,800 Speaker 1: Maybe you'll just call your doctor. What's wrong with me? 454 00:28:09,920 --> 00:28:15,040 Speaker 1: Roving your ankles? Help? I hope helps people. Oh, y'all 455 00:28:15,160 --> 00:28:17,480 Speaker 1: is crazy. Jerry can do a whole show about it. 456 00:28:17,560 --> 00:28:21,159 Speaker 1: We can do an episode. Nothing. I still got to 457 00:28:21,200 --> 00:28:25,159 Speaker 1: go to my mother's house at some point today. I 458 00:28:25,240 --> 00:28:27,280 Speaker 1: still have to go. Yeah, you should go to your 459 00:28:27,320 --> 00:28:31,879 Speaker 1: mother house. That's what you got. I worked myself up 460 00:28:31,960 --> 00:28:37,800 Speaker 1: for that. Responsibilities. Yeah, I know. If I don't handle this, 461 00:28:37,880 --> 00:28:40,560 Speaker 1: it ain't gonna get handled. You just gotta do a 462 00:28:40,600 --> 00:28:43,880 Speaker 1: little affirmation when you're over it. You gotta talk yourself 463 00:28:44,680 --> 00:28:48,480 Speaker 1: into what let's get Let's get to the other side 464 00:28:48,520 --> 00:28:50,480 Speaker 1: of this thing. How do how do we get to 465 00:28:50,560 --> 00:28:53,760 Speaker 1: the other size? Affirm? I have a monthful, I have 466 00:28:53,800 --> 00:28:57,200 Speaker 1: a mindful. In this app on my phone, I got 467 00:28:57,320 --> 00:28:59,720 Speaker 1: one of how I had a little sent me one 468 00:29:00,160 --> 00:29:02,120 Speaker 1: the other day that she is teaching meditations and this 469 00:29:02,280 --> 00:29:05,160 Speaker 1: joint is dope. She said she said this during every day, 470 00:29:06,080 --> 00:29:09,480 Speaker 1: say it okay, being grateful keeps the door open for 471 00:29:09,560 --> 00:29:12,760 Speaker 1: more blessings. I have the power to create wealth and 472 00:29:12,920 --> 00:29:16,680 Speaker 1: freedom with ease. My life is full of amazing opportunities 473 00:29:16,720 --> 00:29:21,760 Speaker 1: that are already for me to step into. Yes, okay, 474 00:29:23,000 --> 00:29:26,240 Speaker 1: all right, then we have like you have. There's so 475 00:29:26,480 --> 00:29:29,560 Speaker 1: many where you know, they will tell you, like all 476 00:29:29,640 --> 00:29:33,200 Speaker 1: the different kinds that you can do because you have 477 00:29:33,440 --> 00:29:37,520 Speaker 1: like you can do a gratitude um meditation when you 478 00:29:37,640 --> 00:29:40,200 Speaker 1: really over stuff because you just it's hard to see 479 00:29:40,280 --> 00:29:43,280 Speaker 1: the things that you could be happy about. So I 480 00:29:43,920 --> 00:29:45,920 Speaker 1: on my app it will have the ten minute one 481 00:29:46,000 --> 00:29:52,960 Speaker 1: for gratitude for simple things, gratitude through negative experiences, gratitude 482 00:29:53,000 --> 00:29:59,680 Speaker 1: for nature, gratitude, affirmation, gratitude and negative situations. So I 483 00:30:00,040 --> 00:30:02,880 Speaker 1: I just tap one the things sometimes and be like, okay, 484 00:30:02,960 --> 00:30:08,480 Speaker 1: what's going on with me today? That it's some meditation, 485 00:30:08,560 --> 00:30:14,960 Speaker 1: it's not actually affirmation, it's and listen and listen to it. Yeah. Yeah. 486 00:30:15,080 --> 00:30:17,160 Speaker 1: And then I got this thing too here check up. 487 00:30:17,880 --> 00:30:21,080 Speaker 1: I called this this is my time out when people 488 00:30:21,120 --> 00:30:24,120 Speaker 1: don't piss me off. Real good. I got this little 489 00:30:24,160 --> 00:30:27,240 Speaker 1: time on that my home girl sent me and I 490 00:30:27,360 --> 00:30:30,040 Speaker 1: just flipped that girl. Each side is ten minutes. Yeah, 491 00:30:30,280 --> 00:30:32,000 Speaker 1: that's for your peace of mind, not for them to 492 00:30:32,000 --> 00:30:33,720 Speaker 1: shut the funk up, but more for your peace of mind. 493 00:30:34,120 --> 00:30:36,560 Speaker 1: This is my time out that I give myself, so 494 00:30:36,680 --> 00:30:40,239 Speaker 1: I put myself from time off. I'll put myself from 495 00:30:40,280 --> 00:30:42,880 Speaker 1: time off. My system puts it do not disturb on 496 00:30:42,960 --> 00:30:47,440 Speaker 1: her door. And I like that. I don't take one 497 00:30:47,440 --> 00:30:51,160 Speaker 1: of those Ye that makes sense though, Like, yeah, what 498 00:30:51,280 --> 00:30:53,920 Speaker 1: they charge you for that? And it has a it's 499 00:30:54,000 --> 00:30:56,800 Speaker 1: like a little um white board and it has a 500 00:30:56,880 --> 00:30:58,880 Speaker 1: light inside. If she got an off of one of 501 00:30:58,920 --> 00:31:03,920 Speaker 1: them sites and deliver things, deliver things and you know, 502 00:31:04,000 --> 00:31:08,440 Speaker 1: show right in the bath, in the shower, being quiet, 503 00:31:09,120 --> 00:31:14,120 Speaker 1: you know that kind of thing just to balance that 504 00:31:14,360 --> 00:31:16,800 Speaker 1: is great. I love that idea. Yeah, I just don't 505 00:31:16,880 --> 00:31:20,360 Speaker 1: feel like writing anything. I don't feel like it. You know, 506 00:31:20,600 --> 00:31:23,440 Speaker 1: for those of you writing, you know, they don't give 507 00:31:23,520 --> 00:31:26,640 Speaker 1: my life. Have you ever seen a little octopus where 508 00:31:26,680 --> 00:31:29,560 Speaker 1: it's like a little fluffy doll and on one side 509 00:31:29,600 --> 00:31:32,880 Speaker 1: the octopus is smiling, and then you flip it inside 510 00:31:32,960 --> 00:31:35,240 Speaker 1: out and it looks me So you can sit it 511 00:31:35,320 --> 00:31:37,880 Speaker 1: on your desk or you sit at someplace in front 512 00:31:37,880 --> 00:31:42,040 Speaker 1: of so that when people approach you, they know what 513 00:31:42,200 --> 00:31:44,880 Speaker 1: type of mood or what type of situation is popping off. 514 00:31:44,920 --> 00:31:49,280 Speaker 1: That's kind of that is thoughtful. That is very thoughtful musically. 515 00:31:49,320 --> 00:31:51,000 Speaker 1: You know who always bring me out of a good song? 516 00:31:51,120 --> 00:31:53,520 Speaker 1: I don't know, just because he finding he made me 517 00:31:53,560 --> 00:31:58,200 Speaker 1: feel good all the time, Anderson like Anderson made me 518 00:31:58,280 --> 00:32:00,760 Speaker 1: feel like it. That was just my own Look. I 519 00:32:00,840 --> 00:32:04,920 Speaker 1: actually have a playlist or my or my Spotify that's 520 00:32:05,000 --> 00:32:06,560 Speaker 1: my went out to get me out of a phone. 521 00:32:06,600 --> 00:32:10,120 Speaker 1: It's called what It's called w TF and I just 522 00:32:10,200 --> 00:32:12,640 Speaker 1: click on my w TF and it's a one of 523 00:32:12,680 --> 00:32:15,280 Speaker 1: my favorite leave me the hell alone, give Me some 524 00:32:15,440 --> 00:32:18,360 Speaker 1: Time song. Her name is I had to look it 525 00:32:18,440 --> 00:32:22,040 Speaker 1: up because it's one of these names, so SIS or 526 00:32:22,360 --> 00:32:24,080 Speaker 1: whether you know, I don't. I don't know if you 527 00:32:24,160 --> 00:32:28,240 Speaker 1: SIS or you you know, identify that. But your name 528 00:32:28,600 --> 00:32:32,959 Speaker 1: is cnabo say a song called I Owe You Nothing 529 00:32:33,480 --> 00:32:50,200 Speaker 1: nice more real talk after the break and I don't 530 00:32:50,200 --> 00:32:53,280 Speaker 1: even like fun. This is this is a bad place 531 00:32:53,360 --> 00:32:56,920 Speaker 1: to be. I'm questioning. Am I depressed because I don't 532 00:32:56,960 --> 00:33:00,800 Speaker 1: feel like having fun either. I don't feel like it. 533 00:33:02,480 --> 00:33:04,920 Speaker 1: I don't know. You didn't mention that you were having 534 00:33:05,040 --> 00:33:08,040 Speaker 1: some physical issues of not issues, but feeling some physical 535 00:33:08,440 --> 00:33:12,880 Speaker 1: changes after your preparation for your role. Yes, this might 536 00:33:13,120 --> 00:33:16,440 Speaker 1: also be part of that. It's also the anticipation of 537 00:33:16,520 --> 00:33:19,800 Speaker 1: going back to this crazy schedule. That's why you may 538 00:33:19,880 --> 00:33:24,720 Speaker 1: not feel like it either. Yeah, I got I've got September. 539 00:33:25,160 --> 00:33:29,480 Speaker 1: But somehow, in a somehow or another, um work is 540 00:33:29,880 --> 00:33:34,160 Speaker 1: is kind of whittling its way into my month, and 541 00:33:34,280 --> 00:33:38,560 Speaker 1: I want the month because October is gone. You know. 542 00:33:38,760 --> 00:33:42,000 Speaker 1: For me, I'm scheduled to work all of October. I'll 543 00:33:42,000 --> 00:33:45,120 Speaker 1: be away from home again for a month at least, 544 00:33:45,800 --> 00:33:51,120 Speaker 1: And you know, I guess I also I'm like anxiety 545 00:33:51,120 --> 00:33:55,960 Speaker 1: about about leaving again, Like I love home so much now, 546 00:33:57,440 --> 00:33:59,440 Speaker 1: I love so I love home so much now on 547 00:33:59,480 --> 00:34:02,240 Speaker 1: the people to live in it. You want to enjoyed 548 00:34:02,240 --> 00:34:04,440 Speaker 1: as much as you can while you got it. Yeah, 549 00:34:04,480 --> 00:34:06,560 Speaker 1: but I'm here with him, and I don't feel like it, 550 00:34:07,880 --> 00:34:12,080 Speaker 1: like like something, I'm I think, I'm I think I'm 551 00:34:12,120 --> 00:34:14,759 Speaker 1: a little a little depressed. I think I'm I'm gonna 552 00:34:14,760 --> 00:34:17,080 Speaker 1: have to deal with this here. If you could truly 553 00:34:17,120 --> 00:34:19,239 Speaker 1: control your day, what would you be doing if I 554 00:34:19,320 --> 00:34:23,440 Speaker 1: could go somewhere or do something. I would go fishing. 555 00:34:26,160 --> 00:34:28,799 Speaker 1: I would I would go I would go to Colorado, 556 00:34:30,080 --> 00:34:36,040 Speaker 1: and I would I would trout fish fly fish, you know, 557 00:34:37,560 --> 00:34:42,400 Speaker 1: just the moving water, the crispness of the water around 558 00:34:42,480 --> 00:34:46,359 Speaker 1: your boot, you know, just catching the fish. That's all. 559 00:34:46,560 --> 00:34:51,520 Speaker 1: It's all little excitements that I would like to do 560 00:34:51,719 --> 00:35:02,200 Speaker 1: that when I guess that one, oh, I'm a little 561 00:35:02,239 --> 00:35:04,279 Speaker 1: bit more of a basic bitch. I just need some 562 00:35:04,400 --> 00:35:09,839 Speaker 1: more beach in my life. I think I just need 563 00:35:09,920 --> 00:35:13,799 Speaker 1: some ocean water. But I got some clean ocean water. 564 00:35:14,480 --> 00:35:17,520 Speaker 1: And then like saying, yeah, you know, I know a 565 00:35:17,600 --> 00:35:20,640 Speaker 1: lot of people don't like saying and that's interesting because 566 00:35:20,680 --> 00:35:23,960 Speaker 1: I'm such a water baby and I just I love 567 00:35:24,040 --> 00:35:26,920 Speaker 1: the water, so actually, could I can respect the fishing 568 00:35:27,000 --> 00:35:29,040 Speaker 1: part too, because I think I would love that. I 569 00:35:29,120 --> 00:35:32,680 Speaker 1: love all kinds of water, all bodies of water. Whenever 570 00:35:32,760 --> 00:35:35,440 Speaker 1: I meditate and I get to choose the background, I 571 00:35:35,560 --> 00:35:38,920 Speaker 1: always choose water, whether it's rain or whether it's a 572 00:35:39,160 --> 00:35:43,880 Speaker 1: bumbling brook or a river or ocean. I love water 573 00:35:44,719 --> 00:35:47,000 Speaker 1: that sounds like a good time. If it was raining, 574 00:35:47,040 --> 00:35:50,040 Speaker 1: I would go lay in the backyard and just get wet. 575 00:35:50,680 --> 00:35:53,319 Speaker 1: I would like that it looks like it's gonna rain. 576 00:35:53,480 --> 00:35:56,560 Speaker 1: I'm doing it. I'm just you know, I buying being 577 00:35:56,640 --> 00:36:03,640 Speaker 1: electrocuted out there. I'm like out there like a little 578 00:36:03,760 --> 00:36:08,800 Speaker 1: cute lightning riding braids. I don't want these troubles. Mumm. 579 00:36:09,640 --> 00:36:12,640 Speaker 1: If this lasts for longer than today, then I'm gonna 580 00:36:13,480 --> 00:36:16,879 Speaker 1: have to pay attention to it, you know what I mean? Like, look, y'all, 581 00:36:17,480 --> 00:36:19,279 Speaker 1: we all do because you didn't put us on on, 582 00:36:19,920 --> 00:36:24,799 Speaker 1: you know. Yeah, now we're gonna have to check channel. Yeah, yeah, 583 00:36:28,560 --> 00:36:30,440 Speaker 1: I thank you for that. I thank you for that. 584 00:36:31,920 --> 00:36:34,239 Speaker 1: I feel like, I don't know if this is the 585 00:36:34,320 --> 00:36:36,680 Speaker 1: indication of that I have something larger going on. I 586 00:36:36,760 --> 00:36:39,200 Speaker 1: think this is more of an indication of the fact 587 00:36:39,280 --> 00:36:43,360 Speaker 1: that I'm starting to shift boundaries in my life, and 588 00:36:43,440 --> 00:36:46,040 Speaker 1: I'm starting to shift the ways that I deal with things, 589 00:36:46,880 --> 00:36:50,360 Speaker 1: And so my tolerance level for bullshit to which I 590 00:36:50,440 --> 00:36:51,880 Speaker 1: don't want to be a part of a deal with 591 00:36:52,640 --> 00:36:57,040 Speaker 1: is so much lower. Yeah, And so I just once 592 00:36:57,080 --> 00:37:00,319 Speaker 1: I get done. There was a time where I force 593 00:37:00,400 --> 00:37:02,400 Speaker 1: myself to push through. There was a time where I 594 00:37:02,440 --> 00:37:05,120 Speaker 1: would just say, Okay, don't worry about it, don't show 595 00:37:05,160 --> 00:37:07,880 Speaker 1: them when you're uncomfortable, don't be this, don't be that, 596 00:37:08,200 --> 00:37:12,120 Speaker 1: be as agreeable as you possibly can. And that's just 597 00:37:12,239 --> 00:37:14,520 Speaker 1: not a place I'm not in my life anymore, you 598 00:37:14,600 --> 00:37:18,200 Speaker 1: know what, I mean, and so when I feel at 599 00:37:18,280 --> 00:37:22,560 Speaker 1: this age, this is what I'm saying. When I feel discomfort, 600 00:37:24,560 --> 00:37:27,800 Speaker 1: you can see it, you can feel it. And and 601 00:37:27,960 --> 00:37:30,200 Speaker 1: I don't even shy away from that because I like 602 00:37:30,400 --> 00:37:34,600 Speaker 1: being able to name and claim my discomfort. Hey, because 603 00:37:34,680 --> 00:37:37,400 Speaker 1: then I can decide, much like what you were talking about, 604 00:37:37,680 --> 00:37:40,759 Speaker 1: is this something an indication of something else, or is 605 00:37:40,800 --> 00:37:44,360 Speaker 1: this just a situation. I can remity name and claiming 606 00:37:44,480 --> 00:37:47,480 Speaker 1: the discomfort. I love that because I don't know what 607 00:37:47,600 --> 00:37:51,640 Speaker 1: this is. I just don't feel like it. But but 608 00:37:51,800 --> 00:37:54,000 Speaker 1: to be able to name what this is, I think 609 00:37:54,040 --> 00:37:57,239 Speaker 1: a part of it. I'm gonna go dig into my 610 00:37:57,360 --> 00:37:59,719 Speaker 1: journal a little bit when we get out of here, 611 00:38:00,160 --> 00:38:03,959 Speaker 1: or um, I just the anxiety of going back to work, 612 00:38:04,840 --> 00:38:07,759 Speaker 1: the anxiety about when I come back from I'm going 613 00:38:07,800 --> 00:38:12,160 Speaker 1: on a little trip with my kids and my family friends. 614 00:38:12,640 --> 00:38:17,040 Speaker 1: We're all meeting in the police, and I'm excited about that, 615 00:38:17,320 --> 00:38:21,480 Speaker 1: very excited. But right after, like literally the day after 616 00:38:21,560 --> 00:38:24,279 Speaker 1: I get home, I got like a photo shoot and 617 00:38:24,400 --> 00:38:31,400 Speaker 1: I'm like, no, I wanted to eat all the things vacation. 618 00:38:33,280 --> 00:38:40,960 Speaker 1: But thank you right right right, thank you, lie, thank 619 00:38:41,000 --> 00:38:45,279 Speaker 1: you so much. Yeah, it's that gratitude, that thing, right 620 00:38:45,360 --> 00:38:47,279 Speaker 1: there to catch you, to get you all the way 621 00:38:47,640 --> 00:38:52,360 Speaker 1: right back together. Thank you so much. Gratitude. I know 622 00:38:52,520 --> 00:38:55,920 Speaker 1: we talked about it, and I love the list. I 623 00:38:56,040 --> 00:38:57,919 Speaker 1: just want to stay with it while because we talked 624 00:38:57,920 --> 00:38:59,960 Speaker 1: about it and we left, but let's go right back 625 00:39:00,160 --> 00:39:03,680 Speaker 1: to it. It was like gratitude for nature, gratitude for friendships, 626 00:39:03,760 --> 00:39:14,000 Speaker 1: gratitude for for quality family, gratitude, atitude for self awareness, 627 00:39:15,600 --> 00:39:19,200 Speaker 1: all of it. Gratitudes were frustrating, as it may be 628 00:39:19,360 --> 00:39:23,840 Speaker 1: sometimes to be self for good good lotion, you know, 629 00:39:24,640 --> 00:39:31,240 Speaker 1: good lotion, yes, but nice even melanated skin. But for fair, 630 00:39:32,239 --> 00:39:38,800 Speaker 1: fair edges, you know what I mean? Fair acceptable, able 631 00:39:38,840 --> 00:39:43,399 Speaker 1: to be manipulated to look better. Yet my acceptable edges, 632 00:39:43,440 --> 00:39:48,759 Speaker 1: they're not acceptable and not extraordinary. But are you ready 633 00:39:48,800 --> 00:39:51,560 Speaker 1: to do the pullback challenges yet? Though they're doing. Yeah, 634 00:39:51,560 --> 00:39:54,120 Speaker 1: they're they're hanging in there for the good fight. They're doing. 635 00:39:54,239 --> 00:39:56,879 Speaker 1: They're they're fighting the good fight. Wearing my hair down 636 00:39:57,000 --> 00:39:59,080 Speaker 1: right now, just to get the less stress on the side. 637 00:39:59,120 --> 00:40:01,840 Speaker 1: I pulled that. Shut up. Sorry, I guess I need 638 00:40:01,920 --> 00:40:04,360 Speaker 1: to get stopped wearing my scar. You do you be 639 00:40:04,480 --> 00:40:08,640 Speaker 1: pulling up a lot. But I also think I may 640 00:40:08,719 --> 00:40:12,279 Speaker 1: smell like a sandwich. But not a fish one. Now, 641 00:40:12,600 --> 00:40:18,920 Speaker 1: let me check no onions. Onions are are temporarily acceptable 642 00:40:19,040 --> 00:40:21,279 Speaker 1: fish is get up and get in the shower now, 643 00:40:21,840 --> 00:40:28,800 Speaker 1: because we take showers daily. We need yeah that soak 644 00:40:29,160 --> 00:40:31,840 Speaker 1: go saks get washed around here. That is what we 645 00:40:31,960 --> 00:40:35,640 Speaker 1: do because that that improves my mood also because like 646 00:40:35,719 --> 00:40:39,640 Speaker 1: when that's my lone time, I'm getting the hell out 647 00:40:39,719 --> 00:40:42,680 Speaker 1: of here and I'm gonna wash. And if after I 648 00:40:42,880 --> 00:40:46,759 Speaker 1: wash and dry, I want to deal with you, then 649 00:40:46,800 --> 00:40:50,480 Speaker 1: I shall. But if I don't and I'm time out 650 00:40:50,719 --> 00:40:53,760 Speaker 1: the time and I won't. You know that that shower 651 00:40:53,800 --> 00:40:55,239 Speaker 1: can wake you up and hit a reset for you 652 00:40:55,360 --> 00:40:57,680 Speaker 1: real easy. That's too for the stoners too. Y'all know 653 00:40:57,760 --> 00:41:01,200 Speaker 1: that I think I'm I might go ahead and try 654 00:41:01,239 --> 00:41:04,920 Speaker 1: to get my little feet done, you know, little little things. 655 00:41:05,320 --> 00:41:08,279 Speaker 1: I gotta fight my way out of this because it's 656 00:41:08,320 --> 00:41:13,640 Speaker 1: not I'm too blessed you hear me, hear me, I'm 657 00:41:13,719 --> 00:41:16,320 Speaker 1: too blessed. Like if it's truly what you think too sweet, 658 00:41:16,680 --> 00:41:18,839 Speaker 1: then yes, if it's something else that you just can't 659 00:41:18,840 --> 00:41:20,640 Speaker 1: put your finger on, then we still we were a 660 00:41:20,680 --> 00:41:23,040 Speaker 1: little worried. But if it's what you think it is, 661 00:41:23,120 --> 00:41:24,640 Speaker 1: then that may be the remedy, a little bit of 662 00:41:25,000 --> 00:41:28,080 Speaker 1: pampy yourself and ease into this thing you gotta go 663 00:41:28,200 --> 00:41:33,239 Speaker 1: do so chill, know, Hobbs as self doctor, You know, yeah, Well, 664 00:41:33,440 --> 00:41:37,120 Speaker 1: the acceptance sometimes it's the acceptance of the whole thing, 665 00:41:37,920 --> 00:41:40,640 Speaker 1: anticipation of Jackie up quick if you just if you're 666 00:41:40,640 --> 00:41:44,520 Speaker 1: anticipating what what a situation will be like. Because I 667 00:41:44,680 --> 00:41:47,640 Speaker 1: think sometimes if I have something coming up that I'm 668 00:41:47,719 --> 00:41:50,000 Speaker 1: quote unquote not looking forward to, or that I have 669 00:41:50,160 --> 00:41:53,480 Speaker 1: some anxiety about it, sometimes I have to remind myself 670 00:41:53,560 --> 00:41:55,239 Speaker 1: that I don't know how that day is going to 671 00:41:55,320 --> 00:41:59,520 Speaker 1: turn out. That that having to do that photo shoot 672 00:41:59,600 --> 00:42:01,960 Speaker 1: or do X one zie on that day that I 673 00:42:02,000 --> 00:42:03,880 Speaker 1: may not want to do it, that might be the 674 00:42:04,320 --> 00:42:06,799 Speaker 1: it might be the best shoot ever. I might meet 675 00:42:06,840 --> 00:42:10,160 Speaker 1: somebody amazing, something really great might happen that day, And 676 00:42:10,280 --> 00:42:12,960 Speaker 1: I think, I think sometimes I have to remind myself 677 00:42:13,080 --> 00:42:17,719 Speaker 1: not to pre decide what my day is gonna be like. 678 00:42:17,880 --> 00:42:20,000 Speaker 1: And as easily as I can decide that it's going 679 00:42:20,040 --> 00:42:22,239 Speaker 1: to be stressful, I can also decide that it's not 680 00:42:22,440 --> 00:42:26,359 Speaker 1: that it's not because the whole reason that you're going 681 00:42:26,360 --> 00:42:27,680 Speaker 1: through what you're going through in the first place is 682 00:42:27,680 --> 00:42:29,920 Speaker 1: because you manifested it, and you wanted it right like 683 00:42:30,040 --> 00:42:33,359 Speaker 1: you wanted You just didn't realize that all this other 684 00:42:33,400 --> 00:42:37,360 Speaker 1: stuff came with it, because that's what it gets to 685 00:42:37,480 --> 00:42:40,040 Speaker 1: a point where you don't want it no more, then 686 00:42:40,080 --> 00:42:43,360 Speaker 1: you need to start asking for different things. And to 687 00:42:43,680 --> 00:42:46,000 Speaker 1: to Asia's point about the language, that's why the best 688 00:42:46,040 --> 00:42:48,360 Speaker 1: part about that mantra that I gave y'all, that Helen 689 00:42:48,440 --> 00:42:51,000 Speaker 1: gave me to me, that's the best sentence was I 690 00:42:51,239 --> 00:42:53,359 Speaker 1: have the power to create, and not the wealth part 691 00:42:53,400 --> 00:42:56,520 Speaker 1: of school. But I have the power to create freedom 692 00:42:56,600 --> 00:42:59,680 Speaker 1: with ease. I have the power to create freedom with 693 00:43:01,040 --> 00:43:03,440 Speaker 1: You have the power to create freedom with ease. So 694 00:43:04,320 --> 00:43:07,040 Speaker 1: know that, say what you want and then go you're 695 00:43:07,040 --> 00:43:09,080 Speaker 1: gonna get it. You know what I'm saying. I have 696 00:43:09,200 --> 00:43:19,080 Speaker 1: the power to create. When tabernacle, who has who has 697 00:43:19,200 --> 00:43:23,440 Speaker 1: a tambourine? Who has a tamphone? I just got to 698 00:43:23,560 --> 00:43:30,400 Speaker 1: break data very nice. Yeah, we all rock and we 699 00:43:30,520 --> 00:43:32,239 Speaker 1: need we need them them. Because I don't have the 700 00:43:32,320 --> 00:43:34,600 Speaker 1: language for that. I was like, what is the mother 701 00:43:35,760 --> 00:43:41,440 Speaker 1: please somewhere a grandmother is please? Yes, yes, yes, So 702 00:43:41,520 --> 00:43:43,879 Speaker 1: start thinking about what that looks like, Jill, and play 703 00:43:43,960 --> 00:43:46,000 Speaker 1: with that. Get out your head for like, what's about 704 00:43:46,000 --> 00:43:47,600 Speaker 1: to happen in the next two months, Get in your 705 00:43:47,600 --> 00:43:49,799 Speaker 1: head about what's gonna happen next year, what you wanted 706 00:43:49,800 --> 00:43:54,120 Speaker 1: to look like. Yeah, yeah, look, I just need you 707 00:43:54,200 --> 00:43:58,480 Speaker 1: all to listen. Do not think for one moment that 708 00:43:58,880 --> 00:44:05,480 Speaker 1: the journey is it's easier for anybody else. You know, 709 00:44:06,239 --> 00:44:09,359 Speaker 1: if it's your human being, you know, you you got 710 00:44:09,440 --> 00:44:12,840 Speaker 1: your highs and your low ups in your downs. That's everybody. Okay, 711 00:44:13,760 --> 00:44:16,320 Speaker 1: don't don't forget that. So I won't forget, you know, 712 00:44:16,480 --> 00:44:20,719 Speaker 1: as I'm experiencing this and trying to um and not 713 00:44:20,840 --> 00:44:24,320 Speaker 1: even trying, but I'm looking at it finding solutions for it. 714 00:44:24,760 --> 00:44:26,800 Speaker 1: That if you're in the same place right now you 715 00:44:26,960 --> 00:44:31,800 Speaker 1: just don't feel like anything, like doing anything or trying anything, 716 00:44:32,040 --> 00:44:35,440 Speaker 1: or or going anywhere. If you don't feel like anything, 717 00:44:35,719 --> 00:44:39,080 Speaker 1: you're not alone, and here are some options, you know, 718 00:44:39,200 --> 00:44:41,640 Speaker 1: to try to get yourself out of that. That mood. 719 00:44:42,920 --> 00:44:46,560 Speaker 1: It's it's just the mood. It's okay. It doesn't own you, 720 00:44:48,880 --> 00:44:52,120 Speaker 1: It doesn't own you. You're all right, baby, I'm talking 721 00:44:52,160 --> 00:44:56,480 Speaker 1: to myself. You all right, you all right? You all 722 00:44:56,680 --> 00:45:01,760 Speaker 1: right baby? Right, yeah, all right? You got your hands 723 00:45:01,800 --> 00:45:05,399 Speaker 1: in your feet, honey, mm hmmm, it's a good life. 724 00:45:05,480 --> 00:45:12,319 Speaker 1: You gotta love, okay. Somebody loves somebody love your as 725 00:45:12,880 --> 00:45:17,080 Speaker 1: somebody loves your ass and you still and with all 726 00:45:17,200 --> 00:45:20,160 Speaker 1: of that, you still have a right to not feel 727 00:45:20,280 --> 00:45:27,279 Speaker 1: like it sometimes. Thank you so much for listening to 728 00:45:27,480 --> 00:45:32,799 Speaker 1: Jay dot Il the Podcast. This episode was about nothing much. 729 00:45:37,480 --> 00:45:40,760 Speaker 1: Thank you so much for spending your time talking about 730 00:45:40,760 --> 00:45:43,480 Speaker 1: a little bit of this life with us. Catch you 731 00:45:43,600 --> 00:46:04,160 Speaker 1: next time, peace y'all. Hi, if you have comments on 732 00:46:04,320 --> 00:46:07,600 Speaker 1: something he said in this episode called eight six six, 733 00:46:08,080 --> 00:46:11,080 Speaker 1: Hey Jill, if you want to add to this conversation, 734 00:46:11,400 --> 00:46:15,080 Speaker 1: that's eight six six three nine, five, four five five. 735 00:46:15,520 --> 00:46:17,880 Speaker 1: Don't forget to tell us your name and the episode 736 00:46:17,920 --> 00:46:21,360 Speaker 1: you're referring to. You might just hear your message on 737 00:46:21,440 --> 00:46:25,280 Speaker 1: a future episode. Thank you for listening to Jill Scott 738 00:46:25,360 --> 00:46:29,600 Speaker 1: Presents j dot Ill the Podcast. This podcast is hosted 739 00:46:29,640 --> 00:46:33,400 Speaker 1: by Jill Scott, Layah st Clair and agent Graden Danceler. 740 00:46:33,880 --> 00:46:37,760 Speaker 1: It's executive producers are Jill Scott, Shawn g and Brian Calhoun. 741 00:46:38,200 --> 00:46:41,959 Speaker 1: It's produced by La st Clair and me Eve Jeff Cope. 742 00:46:42,200 --> 00:46:44,719 Speaker 1: The editing and sound design for this episode we're done 743 00:46:44,880 --> 00:46:53,160 Speaker 1: by Christina Loranger. J dot Ill is a production of 744 00:46:53,360 --> 00:46:57,360 Speaker 1: I heart Radio. For more podcast from I heart Radio, 745 00:46:57,840 --> 00:47:02,200 Speaker 1: visit the i heart Radio app, Apple podcast, or wherever 746 00:47:02,320 --> 00:47:04,040 Speaker 1: you listen to your favorite shows.