1 00:00:00,080 --> 00:00:03,440 Speaker 1: I continually go back to this idea that all of 2 00:00:03,520 --> 00:00:12,240 Speaker 1: this is happening because we are strong enough to handle it. 3 00:00:21,160 --> 00:00:25,320 Speaker 1: Heyhurdler's Emily about it here with another installment of Hurdle 4 00:00:25,360 --> 00:00:28,200 Speaker 1: Moment from Hurdle, I'm going to be honest with you 5 00:00:28,400 --> 00:00:32,080 Speaker 1: this week for Hurdle Moment, I really struggled. And I'm 6 00:00:32,400 --> 00:00:35,280 Speaker 1: always of the mindset that I don't want to put 7 00:00:35,320 --> 00:00:39,680 Speaker 1: out content that doesn't make me excited, that doesn't light 8 00:00:39,840 --> 00:00:43,120 Speaker 1: my soul on fire, which feels like a bold claim 9 00:00:43,159 --> 00:00:47,920 Speaker 1: when you're constantly putting out content. But I over the 10 00:00:47,920 --> 00:00:51,240 Speaker 1: weekend made an attempt to get ahead. It didn't happen 11 00:00:51,960 --> 00:00:54,160 Speaker 1: on Monday. I thought, Okay, it's going to be today. 12 00:00:54,440 --> 00:00:57,720 Speaker 1: It didn't happen on Tuesday. I'm sitting at my desk, 13 00:00:57,800 --> 00:00:59,760 Speaker 1: it's early in the day. I'm like, I'm going to 14 00:00:59,800 --> 00:01:01,760 Speaker 1: work on this early. I'm not going to be doing 15 00:01:01,800 --> 00:01:04,600 Speaker 1: this on Tuesday night. And after hitting a little bit 16 00:01:04,680 --> 00:01:08,680 Speaker 1: of writer's block, so to speak for podcasters block, I 17 00:01:08,720 --> 00:01:11,440 Speaker 1: decided that I would go for a walk, and on 18 00:01:11,440 --> 00:01:14,000 Speaker 1: this walk, all of the good ideas would come to 19 00:01:14,040 --> 00:01:16,920 Speaker 1: me and I would know exactly what I wanted to 20 00:01:17,000 --> 00:01:21,040 Speaker 1: talk to you about. This week, Well, that didn't happen. 21 00:01:21,120 --> 00:01:24,160 Speaker 1: What did happen is I ended up buying some paper towels, 22 00:01:24,160 --> 00:01:26,399 Speaker 1: which I needed desperately, as well as a small nail 23 00:01:26,400 --> 00:01:29,400 Speaker 1: polish and listened to an episode of How I Built 24 00:01:29,400 --> 00:01:33,560 Speaker 1: This featuring the founder of Impossible Foods. And now I'm 25 00:01:33,560 --> 00:01:37,800 Speaker 1: back here. And so I was reflecting on this experience 26 00:01:37,959 --> 00:01:41,480 Speaker 1: with a friend of mine. Some of you may know her, 27 00:01:41,760 --> 00:01:45,200 Speaker 1: Ali Feller, hosts of the Ali on the Run show. 28 00:01:45,240 --> 00:01:48,600 Speaker 1: I have had her on the show before as well, 29 00:01:48,960 --> 00:01:50,880 Speaker 1: and I'll linker her episode in the show notes. But 30 00:01:50,920 --> 00:01:53,760 Speaker 1: she said to me, isn't that the episode? Don't you 31 00:01:53,800 --> 00:01:56,400 Speaker 1: think that maybe it's time for a little bit of 32 00:01:56,480 --> 00:02:01,280 Speaker 1: a check in? And you know what, Ali, you are correct. 33 00:02:01,840 --> 00:02:05,040 Speaker 1: So here I am. I'm giving you the rundown of 34 00:02:05,080 --> 00:02:08,000 Speaker 1: where I'm at, how I've been occupying my time, how 35 00:02:08,080 --> 00:02:11,480 Speaker 1: my days look different than maybe they used to, how 36 00:02:11,520 --> 00:02:14,320 Speaker 1: I feel about all of this stuff that's going on, 37 00:02:14,639 --> 00:02:17,079 Speaker 1: how I feel about doing this alone, what my workouts 38 00:02:17,080 --> 00:02:20,680 Speaker 1: look like, kind of answering what I think might be 39 00:02:20,800 --> 00:02:22,840 Speaker 1: a lot of the questions that have been coming through 40 00:02:23,320 --> 00:02:28,200 Speaker 1: in my direct messages on Instagram, and also just being upfront. 41 00:02:27,760 --> 00:02:31,160 Speaker 2: With you because I think that is exactly how at 42 00:02:31,240 --> 00:02:35,040 Speaker 2: least I hope to be as often as possible, just 43 00:02:35,600 --> 00:02:38,040 Speaker 2: honest and open and upfront with you. 44 00:02:38,480 --> 00:02:41,560 Speaker 1: So this week, for a Hurdle moment, I'm giving you 45 00:02:41,600 --> 00:02:44,639 Speaker 1: an update. As always, I want to hear from you. 46 00:02:44,760 --> 00:02:47,960 Speaker 1: I want your update as well, so if it's easier 47 00:02:48,040 --> 00:02:50,760 Speaker 1: to fill me in over email, I am all ears. 48 00:02:50,840 --> 00:02:53,320 Speaker 1: It's Emily at Hurdle dot us. And of course, as 49 00:02:53,360 --> 00:02:57,120 Speaker 1: always you can connect with me over on social media 50 00:02:57,200 --> 00:03:02,760 Speaker 1: It's at Hurdle Podcasts and ATY. With that, let's get 51 00:03:02,840 --> 00:03:14,079 Speaker 1: to heart line. Well here I am. I think this 52 00:03:14,120 --> 00:03:17,160 Speaker 1: is day what sixty five, sixty six. To be honest, 53 00:03:17,160 --> 00:03:20,760 Speaker 1: by this point I've lost count. For those of you 54 00:03:21,160 --> 00:03:25,560 Speaker 1: following along with my quarantine journey on the other side 55 00:03:26,160 --> 00:03:28,840 Speaker 1: of this microphone or in your headphones or whatever the 56 00:03:28,919 --> 00:03:33,280 Speaker 1: proper term might be. I have been on lockdown, so 57 00:03:33,360 --> 00:03:36,520 Speaker 1: to speak, in my upper east Side apartment. I have 58 00:03:36,680 --> 00:03:41,920 Speaker 1: had no physical human contact in the past sixty some 59 00:03:42,040 --> 00:03:46,880 Speaker 1: odd days, although I have seen a few individuals from 60 00:03:47,400 --> 00:03:51,840 Speaker 1: a distance. I was so, so so grateful, that is 61 00:03:51,880 --> 00:03:56,640 Speaker 1: the biggest understatement. For a surprise from my oldest friend Tom, 62 00:03:56,680 --> 00:04:00,760 Speaker 1: who lives in DC, he was driving through New York 63 00:04:01,200 --> 00:04:03,640 Speaker 1: on his way to Connecticut to see his mom for 64 00:04:03,800 --> 00:04:08,520 Speaker 1: Mother's Day, facetimed me and was outside my door, and 65 00:04:08,920 --> 00:04:13,160 Speaker 1: I have never felt so overwhelmed and thankful to see 66 00:04:13,160 --> 00:04:15,960 Speaker 1: his shining face, even though it was from a safe 67 00:04:16,240 --> 00:04:19,599 Speaker 1: social distance. Years and years ago. Now I've lost count. 68 00:04:19,600 --> 00:04:23,400 Speaker 1: I introduced two of my dearest friends who are now 69 00:04:23,560 --> 00:04:26,520 Speaker 1: married and live three blocks from me, and we kind 70 00:04:26,520 --> 00:04:29,760 Speaker 1: of joke that we are a family unit. At least 71 00:04:29,800 --> 00:04:32,839 Speaker 1: they've adopted me during this time, despite the three of 72 00:04:32,920 --> 00:04:37,640 Speaker 1: us always also keeping a safe social distance. This weekend, 73 00:04:37,640 --> 00:04:41,080 Speaker 1: for the first time, we decided to sit down quote 74 00:04:41,160 --> 00:04:46,280 Speaker 1: unquote together, having a picnic on two different blankets on 75 00:04:46,360 --> 00:04:49,800 Speaker 1: my rooftop, and it was so nice just to not 76 00:04:50,040 --> 00:04:53,040 Speaker 1: feel so paranoid about walking around and that I'm doing 77 00:04:53,080 --> 00:04:56,520 Speaker 1: something wrong, and just to be able to relax. Another 78 00:04:56,560 --> 00:04:59,120 Speaker 1: friend of mine drove down from Boston to see his 79 00:04:59,279 --> 00:05:02,640 Speaker 1: family and swung by to see me from a distance, 80 00:05:02,680 --> 00:05:06,200 Speaker 1: and that made me so happy. I've seen while running 81 00:05:06,400 --> 00:05:09,560 Speaker 1: through the Upper West Side and other parts of Manhattan, 82 00:05:09,800 --> 00:05:14,440 Speaker 1: I've seen friends from far beyond arm's reach, And so yeah, 83 00:05:14,680 --> 00:05:17,680 Speaker 1: here I am in New York City. I miss my 84 00:05:17,839 --> 00:05:21,960 Speaker 1: family more than anything. My parents are both at home 85 00:05:22,400 --> 00:05:26,080 Speaker 1: in Connecticut, and on that note, I feel really grateful 86 00:05:26,240 --> 00:05:30,880 Speaker 1: for this time with them, even though we're not physically together, 87 00:05:30,960 --> 00:05:33,839 Speaker 1: because I have spoken to my parents more during this 88 00:05:33,960 --> 00:05:39,240 Speaker 1: time than ever before in my life. Despite being here 89 00:05:39,400 --> 00:05:43,000 Speaker 1: all by myself, I really do feel connected to the 90 00:05:43,040 --> 00:05:46,000 Speaker 1: people in my life that make me feel whole, to 91 00:05:46,040 --> 00:05:48,400 Speaker 1: the people that I care about. I'm constantly checking in 92 00:05:48,720 --> 00:05:52,560 Speaker 1: on my friends and family near and far, and a 93 00:05:52,600 --> 00:05:55,280 Speaker 1: lot of these habits, a lot of these practices, these 94 00:05:55,360 --> 00:05:57,599 Speaker 1: zoom calls. It is something that I do want to 95 00:05:57,600 --> 00:06:00,600 Speaker 1: bring with me as time goes forward, as we start 96 00:06:00,680 --> 00:06:04,000 Speaker 1: to make the shift into incorporating some of those old habits, 97 00:06:04,000 --> 00:06:06,719 Speaker 1: although I don't personally think it's ever gonna be like 98 00:06:06,800 --> 00:06:10,000 Speaker 1: it was before, And you know what, we just got 99 00:06:10,000 --> 00:06:11,279 Speaker 1: to do the best with what we have when it 100 00:06:11,320 --> 00:06:14,080 Speaker 1: comes to that. And it's so interesting, you know, because 101 00:06:14,120 --> 00:06:16,640 Speaker 1: whenever I tell someone if I'm on a work call, 102 00:06:16,960 --> 00:06:19,000 Speaker 1: they're asking me where, so where are you? Where are 103 00:06:19,040 --> 00:06:21,400 Speaker 1: you writing this out? And I say in New York City? 104 00:06:21,760 --> 00:06:27,080 Speaker 1: And the reaction, without fail, is always the same. It's like, oh, 105 00:06:27,160 --> 00:06:30,640 Speaker 1: are you okay? And I get it. When you turn 106 00:06:30,680 --> 00:06:33,880 Speaker 1: on the news and you hear the numbers, it sounds 107 00:06:33,880 --> 00:06:37,599 Speaker 1: as though New York is a bit of a war zone, 108 00:06:37,640 --> 00:06:41,000 Speaker 1: for lack of a better designation. And I'm not saying 109 00:06:41,040 --> 00:06:43,840 Speaker 1: it isn't quote unquote bad here, But what I am 110 00:06:43,960 --> 00:06:47,599 Speaker 1: saying is that for me, it feels entirely the same 111 00:06:47,720 --> 00:06:50,839 Speaker 1: and entirely different at the same time. I look out 112 00:06:50,839 --> 00:06:54,440 Speaker 1: my window and I see that so many of my neighbors, 113 00:06:54,640 --> 00:06:57,080 Speaker 1: the people that live across the street, I see them 114 00:06:57,120 --> 00:06:59,920 Speaker 1: sitting on their balconies. I see them cheering at such 115 00:07:00,200 --> 00:07:03,159 Speaker 1: o'clock for the people on the front lines, the essential workers, 116 00:07:03,200 --> 00:07:06,440 Speaker 1: And it's like the soul of New York. It's still here, 117 00:07:06,680 --> 00:07:10,200 Speaker 1: and I know you can't really mess with that. And 118 00:07:10,240 --> 00:07:12,880 Speaker 1: we're going through this hard time, but we're in it together. 119 00:07:13,040 --> 00:07:16,240 Speaker 1: You walk down the street and sure everyone is wearing 120 00:07:16,280 --> 00:07:18,760 Speaker 1: a mask, and no one is out there without their 121 00:07:18,800 --> 00:07:22,520 Speaker 1: own personal bottle of hand sanitizer, and for the most part, 122 00:07:22,520 --> 00:07:26,280 Speaker 1: people are keeping that safe distance. So yes, it is different, 123 00:07:26,360 --> 00:07:29,000 Speaker 1: but it just it feels at its heart, at its core, 124 00:07:29,040 --> 00:07:31,840 Speaker 1: it feels the same, and there's just something really special 125 00:07:31,880 --> 00:07:35,960 Speaker 1: about that. The question arises, how have I been occupying 126 00:07:35,960 --> 00:07:38,520 Speaker 1: my time? And I feel like time goes super fast 127 00:07:38,640 --> 00:07:43,000 Speaker 1: and super slow simultaneously. I've always been the kind of 128 00:07:43,040 --> 00:07:47,280 Speaker 1: person that starts my workday around say, ten am, and 129 00:07:47,280 --> 00:07:51,120 Speaker 1: that's because I'm always working on the weekend for at 130 00:07:51,200 --> 00:07:53,960 Speaker 1: least four or five hours, so getting a little bit 131 00:07:54,040 --> 00:07:56,840 Speaker 1: later of a start on that work day it works 132 00:07:56,880 --> 00:07:59,480 Speaker 1: for me, and it's been something that I've maintained in 133 00:07:59,800 --> 00:08:03,360 Speaker 1: the period. In the mornings, I wake up without an alarm, 134 00:08:03,400 --> 00:08:06,400 Speaker 1: and usually that's by six point thirty at the latest, 135 00:08:06,640 --> 00:08:09,880 Speaker 1: right when that sun starts to get in, I am moving. 136 00:08:10,000 --> 00:08:14,400 Speaker 1: And now more than ever, I have a really beautiful 137 00:08:14,680 --> 00:08:19,200 Speaker 1: morning routine that I really enjoy, which is interesting, right 138 00:08:19,240 --> 00:08:22,240 Speaker 1: because I've always considered myself to be a morning person, 139 00:08:22,280 --> 00:08:24,400 Speaker 1: but now more than ever, I look forward to the 140 00:08:24,520 --> 00:08:28,560 Speaker 1: aspects of my morning. I wake up my phone. Now, 141 00:08:28,600 --> 00:08:31,240 Speaker 1: for the first time in my life, I can confidently 142 00:08:31,280 --> 00:08:33,640 Speaker 1: say that I do not keep it right next to 143 00:08:33,640 --> 00:08:36,000 Speaker 1: my bed. Instead, I keep it charging on my desk. 144 00:08:36,080 --> 00:08:38,319 Speaker 1: And so I'll wake up in the morning, I'll use 145 00:08:38,360 --> 00:08:41,800 Speaker 1: the bathroom, I'll come back into my bedroom. I will 146 00:08:41,920 --> 00:08:45,920 Speaker 1: journal for about five to ten minutes before I even 147 00:08:46,120 --> 00:08:48,480 Speaker 1: look at my phone for the first time. And I know, 148 00:08:48,720 --> 00:08:52,320 Speaker 1: of course, there could be a longer morning ritual where 149 00:08:52,440 --> 00:08:55,000 Speaker 1: the technology is not involved. But for me, this is 150 00:08:55,040 --> 00:08:59,920 Speaker 1: a really great first step in that direction. So I journal, 151 00:09:00,280 --> 00:09:02,720 Speaker 1: I finally check in on my phone, and then I 152 00:09:02,800 --> 00:09:06,439 Speaker 1: walk straight to the kitchen, where I drink a full 153 00:09:06,640 --> 00:09:09,720 Speaker 1: glass of water, and then back into the bedroom, where 154 00:09:09,760 --> 00:09:12,679 Speaker 1: I get dressed and ready for whatever way I decide 155 00:09:12,679 --> 00:09:15,720 Speaker 1: that I want to move my body. For me lately, 156 00:09:15,800 --> 00:09:19,319 Speaker 1: that's been a big mix of walking and running as 157 00:09:19,320 --> 00:09:21,960 Speaker 1: I'm nursing whatever is going on in my hip, and 158 00:09:22,000 --> 00:09:24,520 Speaker 1: I've talked a little bit about that on the show before, 159 00:09:24,760 --> 00:09:28,320 Speaker 1: whether it's a bursitis, whether it's some tendinosis. I am 160 00:09:28,520 --> 00:09:33,640 Speaker 1: finally finally investing in strength work, and God, that feels 161 00:09:33,640 --> 00:09:39,920 Speaker 1: good doing things like banded clamshells, a banded walks, stability exercises, 162 00:09:40,160 --> 00:09:45,040 Speaker 1: foam rolling for my preformists, and my gluten meed spinal rotations, 163 00:09:45,280 --> 00:09:48,880 Speaker 1: quad poles, me hugs. I mean, God, the list of 164 00:09:48,920 --> 00:09:52,160 Speaker 1: my exercises feels endless, but it really feels for the 165 00:09:52,280 --> 00:09:55,240 Speaker 1: first time in a long time, I feel like I'm 166 00:09:55,240 --> 00:09:58,280 Speaker 1: getting stronger, and I know that it might be slow, 167 00:09:58,440 --> 00:10:04,640 Speaker 1: but I am making progress. After I work out, I shower, 168 00:10:04,880 --> 00:10:08,680 Speaker 1: I clean up, I have breakfast, I get ready for 169 00:10:08,800 --> 00:10:12,840 Speaker 1: the day, and then after about an hour of the workday, 170 00:10:12,960 --> 00:10:14,760 Speaker 1: kind of making that to do list for the day, 171 00:10:15,200 --> 00:10:18,760 Speaker 1: writing out a quasi schedule on my whiteboard at my desk, 172 00:10:18,920 --> 00:10:21,280 Speaker 1: getting a few emails under my belt. That's when I 173 00:10:21,320 --> 00:10:24,600 Speaker 1: go back into the kitchen, shake up my athletic greens, 174 00:10:24,720 --> 00:10:28,520 Speaker 1: and then that is my like hit head down, dive 175 00:10:28,559 --> 00:10:32,200 Speaker 1: into the workday, get on the phone with experts, write articles, 176 00:10:32,320 --> 00:10:37,800 Speaker 1: work on the show, do interviews, do other people's podcasts, brainstorm, 177 00:10:38,000 --> 00:10:41,000 Speaker 1: send pitches. I mean, every day is different for me, 178 00:10:41,080 --> 00:10:45,120 Speaker 1: and again that is why I do so much appreciate 179 00:10:45,200 --> 00:10:47,960 Speaker 1: what I am able to do for work. On a 180 00:10:48,000 --> 00:10:51,800 Speaker 1: good day aka a day usually where the podcast is 181 00:10:51,840 --> 00:10:55,000 Speaker 1: not launching the next morning, I'm working till around five 182 00:10:55,000 --> 00:10:57,920 Speaker 1: point thirty. And on a day where Hurdle is launching 183 00:10:57,960 --> 00:11:00,400 Speaker 1: the next morning, usually I'm working to a little bit 184 00:11:00,480 --> 00:11:03,920 Speaker 1: later than that. Then I look forward to a glass 185 00:11:03,960 --> 00:11:07,320 Speaker 1: of wine or a cocktail. I feel as though I 186 00:11:07,360 --> 00:11:09,280 Speaker 1: have to be upfront with you that I can count 187 00:11:09,320 --> 00:11:12,400 Speaker 1: the amount of times on both hands in total that 188 00:11:12,480 --> 00:11:15,640 Speaker 1: I have not consumed some sort of drink at the 189 00:11:15,720 --> 00:11:18,120 Speaker 1: end of the day during this time period and At first, 190 00:11:18,160 --> 00:11:21,360 Speaker 1: I actually felt a little self conscious about that, but 191 00:11:21,720 --> 00:11:25,280 Speaker 1: I feel in control. I never feel like it gets 192 00:11:25,320 --> 00:11:28,440 Speaker 1: out of hand, and it's just something that makes me 193 00:11:28,720 --> 00:11:32,360 Speaker 1: feel like another day done. You've got this in the 194 00:11:32,440 --> 00:11:35,480 Speaker 1: bag and it's my treat to myself at the end 195 00:11:35,480 --> 00:11:37,880 Speaker 1: of the day. From less of a regimented look of 196 00:11:37,920 --> 00:11:40,360 Speaker 1: how I'm spending my time, I'm taking a lot more 197 00:11:40,400 --> 00:11:44,760 Speaker 1: time to personally reflect. I'm writing a lot again. I'm journaling, 198 00:11:44,800 --> 00:11:47,840 Speaker 1: like I said, every morning, I'm reading. I read Maybe 199 00:11:47,840 --> 00:11:50,200 Speaker 1: You Should Talk to Someone last month. I'm currently reading 200 00:11:50,360 --> 00:11:53,640 Speaker 1: Let Your Mind Run by Dina Castor. I have Untamed 201 00:11:53,679 --> 00:11:56,079 Speaker 1: by Glennon Doyle on the to do list as well 202 00:11:56,120 --> 00:11:59,319 Speaker 1: as so you want to talk about Race? On deck. 203 00:11:59,440 --> 00:12:02,079 Speaker 1: I started a puzzle about three weeks ago. That's a 204 00:12:02,120 --> 00:12:05,720 Speaker 1: third done because this Gray Mallon photo is the hardest 205 00:12:06,160 --> 00:12:09,160 Speaker 1: two sided puzzle thing I've ever decided to do in 206 00:12:09,200 --> 00:12:11,920 Speaker 1: my life. I finally took the Plunge on Disney Plus, 207 00:12:12,000 --> 00:12:14,880 Speaker 1: not even realizing that it was free with my Verizon 208 00:12:14,960 --> 00:12:18,200 Speaker 1: phone plan. I'm having movie nights, I'm having zooms, I'm 209 00:12:18,200 --> 00:12:21,160 Speaker 1: having facetimes and house parties, and again, I feel like 210 00:12:21,280 --> 00:12:24,280 Speaker 1: time is just going by so fast and so slow 211 00:12:24,480 --> 00:12:28,400 Speaker 1: all at the same time. So the question comes up, 212 00:12:28,440 --> 00:12:33,320 Speaker 1: how do you feel doing this alone? You know, I 213 00:12:33,360 --> 00:12:37,400 Speaker 1: feel okay, and I feel so appreciative of so many 214 00:12:37,559 --> 00:12:39,560 Speaker 1: of my friends and family that check in on me 215 00:12:39,679 --> 00:12:42,800 Speaker 1: to make sure that I am doing okay. The truth 216 00:12:42,960 --> 00:12:47,080 Speaker 1: is that I really do feel constantly supported, not just 217 00:12:47,160 --> 00:12:50,000 Speaker 1: by my real friends and family, but also by this 218 00:12:50,080 --> 00:12:52,920 Speaker 1: hurdle community. And I think that's a really beautiful thing, 219 00:12:53,000 --> 00:12:55,400 Speaker 1: right that we've been able to show up for each 220 00:12:55,400 --> 00:12:58,680 Speaker 1: other during this time. I've also been really honest with 221 00:12:58,720 --> 00:13:01,400 Speaker 1: myself with where I'm at as the days and weeks 222 00:13:01,400 --> 00:13:04,200 Speaker 1: have gone on. When I feel myself getting frustrated or 223 00:13:04,240 --> 00:13:06,680 Speaker 1: feeling overwhelmed and I need to take a step back, 224 00:13:06,720 --> 00:13:09,360 Speaker 1: whether that's from social media or not committing to so 225 00:13:09,400 --> 00:13:12,920 Speaker 1: many zoom calls, I do it and I listen, and 226 00:13:12,920 --> 00:13:15,520 Speaker 1: that is something that's sure. I definitely made an effort 227 00:13:15,559 --> 00:13:18,280 Speaker 1: to be conscious of before when it came to not 228 00:13:18,440 --> 00:13:20,959 Speaker 1: saying yes all the time and over extending myself to 229 00:13:20,960 --> 00:13:24,960 Speaker 1: too many events or meetings or get togethers. But this time, 230 00:13:25,040 --> 00:13:29,120 Speaker 1: it just feels so special to really hold ownership in 231 00:13:29,640 --> 00:13:32,280 Speaker 1: what is good for me, what is right for me 232 00:13:32,640 --> 00:13:36,280 Speaker 1: at any given minute. As far as my tips for 233 00:13:36,360 --> 00:13:39,160 Speaker 1: anyone listening to this continuing this time solo, well, the 234 00:13:39,160 --> 00:13:42,480 Speaker 1: good news is that although we don't know exactly what 235 00:13:42,679 --> 00:13:45,960 Speaker 1: is necessarily going to change over the next few weeks, 236 00:13:46,000 --> 00:13:49,120 Speaker 1: over the next few months, and what you know, us 237 00:13:49,240 --> 00:13:51,480 Speaker 1: kind of being allowed, so to speak, to get back 238 00:13:51,480 --> 00:13:54,280 Speaker 1: together might look like, the good news is that there 239 00:13:54,440 --> 00:13:59,199 Speaker 1: is a shift coming. If you feel anxious or unsure 240 00:13:59,720 --> 00:14:02,720 Speaker 1: and and you know, lonely, I just want you to 241 00:14:02,800 --> 00:14:05,720 Speaker 1: know that you're not alone in feeling that way. And 242 00:14:05,760 --> 00:14:08,960 Speaker 1: something that's been really helpful for me is that right 243 00:14:09,240 --> 00:14:11,800 Speaker 1: when this started, I made a list of the things 244 00:14:11,840 --> 00:14:15,560 Speaker 1: that I genuinely wanted to do at some point during 245 00:14:15,600 --> 00:14:18,760 Speaker 1: this time. And I'm not talking about things like clean 246 00:14:18,760 --> 00:14:22,400 Speaker 1: out the kitchen closet, which is totally okay if that 247 00:14:22,560 --> 00:14:25,000 Speaker 1: is something you want to do at some point during 248 00:14:25,000 --> 00:14:26,920 Speaker 1: this time, even though it might not be like the 249 00:14:26,960 --> 00:14:29,680 Speaker 1: biggest joy of your life. But I'm talking about the 250 00:14:29,720 --> 00:14:32,280 Speaker 1: things that I put on my list. For example, start 251 00:14:32,280 --> 00:14:37,400 Speaker 1: an Italian course, rewatch The Little Mermaid, read that maybe 252 00:14:37,400 --> 00:14:41,440 Speaker 1: you should talk to someone, book, invest time in strength training, 253 00:14:41,640 --> 00:14:46,360 Speaker 1: buy and start using a coloring book. Brainstorm book ideas 254 00:14:46,720 --> 00:14:50,120 Speaker 1: I can't believe I just said that out loud. Start 255 00:14:50,160 --> 00:14:52,880 Speaker 1: to get rid of the clutter in my apartment. Like, 256 00:14:52,960 --> 00:14:54,760 Speaker 1: there are so many things that I put down on 257 00:14:54,800 --> 00:14:57,920 Speaker 1: this list, and so on the days where they feel long, 258 00:14:58,200 --> 00:15:01,640 Speaker 1: or I feel stagnant, or maybe I'm feeling extra lonely, 259 00:15:02,040 --> 00:15:04,560 Speaker 1: I keep going back to that list of the things 260 00:15:04,560 --> 00:15:07,200 Speaker 1: that I want to do during this time, and I'll 261 00:15:07,240 --> 00:15:09,880 Speaker 1: pick something and I'll do it. And just like with 262 00:15:09,960 --> 00:15:13,240 Speaker 1: any task, sometimes it's hard to get started, right. But 263 00:15:13,760 --> 00:15:18,760 Speaker 1: commit yourself for twenty thirty minutes to anything on your 264 00:15:18,880 --> 00:15:20,760 Speaker 1: this is what I want to do list, and you 265 00:15:20,840 --> 00:15:24,080 Speaker 1: might be surprised on how just dedicating your energy to 266 00:15:24,160 --> 00:15:28,000 Speaker 1: something other than maybe this feeling of ambient anxiety can 267 00:15:28,040 --> 00:15:32,200 Speaker 1: do you a world of good emotionally. I think the 268 00:15:32,320 --> 00:15:34,720 Speaker 1: lack of physical touch thing. I wrote an essay on 269 00:15:34,800 --> 00:15:38,600 Speaker 1: this for self dot com. That's definitely tough, right, I'd 270 00:15:38,640 --> 00:15:41,880 Speaker 1: say that's probably the hardest part of all of this 271 00:15:42,080 --> 00:15:45,400 Speaker 1: for me, aside from digesting just the everyday news and 272 00:15:45,480 --> 00:15:48,080 Speaker 1: hearing about the magnitude that this is impacting not just 273 00:15:48,160 --> 00:15:50,480 Speaker 1: you know, my local community, but of course also our 274 00:15:50,520 --> 00:15:54,320 Speaker 1: country and the world. But I miss holding the people 275 00:15:54,480 --> 00:15:57,520 Speaker 1: that I care about I miss getting a manicure. I 276 00:15:57,560 --> 00:16:01,520 Speaker 1: miss exchanging money if I was to ever carry around 277 00:16:01,800 --> 00:16:05,600 Speaker 1: money with someone at a coffee shop. I miss handshakes 278 00:16:05,640 --> 00:16:08,680 Speaker 1: and fist bumps and high fives after a good workout. 279 00:16:08,760 --> 00:16:12,480 Speaker 1: And if you feel the same way, well, you are 280 00:16:12,560 --> 00:16:17,200 Speaker 1: not alone. Granted, though, I will say, I wander a lot. 281 00:16:17,640 --> 00:16:21,960 Speaker 1: I wonder what life will be like after this. I 282 00:16:22,000 --> 00:16:26,240 Speaker 1: think about being single in my thirties and what dating 283 00:16:26,320 --> 00:16:29,840 Speaker 1: will look like after this. I wonder how long my 284 00:16:30,000 --> 00:16:32,920 Speaker 1: hip will feel off. I wonder what I'll do for 285 00:16:33,000 --> 00:16:36,400 Speaker 1: my thirty second birthday on June second, when I can't 286 00:16:36,440 --> 00:16:38,680 Speaker 1: really get together with a lot of the people that 287 00:16:38,760 --> 00:16:42,160 Speaker 1: I love and drive by caravans aren't exactly New York 288 00:16:42,240 --> 00:16:45,120 Speaker 1: City friendly. I think about the future of my career 289 00:16:45,480 --> 00:16:47,480 Speaker 1: and the well being of the people I care about. 290 00:16:47,680 --> 00:16:50,320 Speaker 1: I think about the person that I'm becoming and the 291 00:16:50,360 --> 00:16:53,760 Speaker 1: person that I want to be, and I continually go 292 00:16:53,920 --> 00:16:57,240 Speaker 1: back to this idea that all of this is happening 293 00:16:57,360 --> 00:17:01,000 Speaker 1: because we are strong enough to handle it. I know 294 00:17:01,280 --> 00:17:03,560 Speaker 1: in my gut, though, that even on the days that 295 00:17:03,640 --> 00:17:05,840 Speaker 1: feel a little bit frustrating, on the days where I 296 00:17:05,880 --> 00:17:09,280 Speaker 1: feel creatively stagnant, on the days where I'm looking to 297 00:17:09,359 --> 00:17:12,600 Speaker 1: my friends for advice on how to just move forward, 298 00:17:12,720 --> 00:17:16,560 Speaker 1: that we are going to get through this. And so 299 00:17:16,680 --> 00:17:20,840 Speaker 1: when you ask me, Emily, how are you, you know what. 300 00:17:21,960 --> 00:17:28,119 Speaker 1: I'm good. We're good, We're gonna be oh okay. I 301 00:17:28,160 --> 00:17:30,320 Speaker 1: think I've covered all my bases. I think I've given 302 00:17:30,359 --> 00:17:32,360 Speaker 1: you enough of an update. And if there's anything else 303 00:17:32,400 --> 00:17:34,760 Speaker 1: you want to know about how I'm navigating this time, 304 00:17:34,880 --> 00:17:38,160 Speaker 1: advice that you are looking for, questions you might have 305 00:17:38,440 --> 00:17:41,880 Speaker 1: to make it easier for you. You know I always 306 00:17:42,000 --> 00:17:45,240 Speaker 1: want to help. All that I ask you from the 307 00:17:45,280 --> 00:17:48,439 Speaker 1: bottom of my heart is that you approach me with 308 00:17:48,560 --> 00:17:52,719 Speaker 1: the same level of compassion and kindness that I offer 309 00:17:52,880 --> 00:17:57,919 Speaker 1: you day in and day out. This podcast, this community, 310 00:17:58,119 --> 00:18:02,679 Speaker 1: you guys are literally you are my why and I 311 00:18:02,720 --> 00:18:06,360 Speaker 1: can't stress that enough. So I'm so happy to show 312 00:18:06,440 --> 00:18:08,959 Speaker 1: up for you, to be honest with you. And again, 313 00:18:09,560 --> 00:18:14,160 Speaker 1: We're gonna be okay. It's gonna be okay, ad Emily 314 00:18:14,320 --> 00:18:19,280 Speaker 1: Body at Hurdle Podcast. I'm smiling finishing this, which makes 315 00:18:19,320 --> 00:18:20,760 Speaker 1: me know that this was the right way to go 316 00:18:20,880 --> 00:18:25,560 Speaker 1: This week, Another hurdle conquered. Catch you guys next time.