WEBVTT - Feat Chico Bean & Big Loon- Pt -4 "Vunarable but Valuable" 0:00:01.120 --> 0:00:03.560 I say I became that way from It was really 0:00:03.640 --> 0:00:06.640 a conversation that I had with my mama. I had 0:00:06.680 --> 0:00:10.320 a conversation with my mother man, and I don't even 0:00:10.360 --> 0:00:13.240 think I ever talked about this before, but I had 0:00:13.240 --> 0:00:17.479 a conversation with my mother about my father. And she 0:00:17.960 --> 0:00:21.200 never talked to me about who my father was. She 0:00:21.280 --> 0:00:23.560 talked to me about how my father was like you 0:00:23.600 --> 0:00:25.400 act like your daddy, you look like your daddy, you 0:00:25.440 --> 0:00:27.000 lie like your daddy, but she never. 0:00:26.880 --> 0:00:29.760 Told me who he was as a man. 0:00:29.960 --> 0:00:33.080 And having this conversation where it was just spurred the moment, 0:00:33.120 --> 0:00:35.360 like I said, I'm, you know, staying in North Carolina. 0:00:35.400 --> 0:00:37.839 I went home to visit and I had just went 0:00:37.880 --> 0:00:43.360 through some shit and stopped dealing with a female based on. 0:00:42.800 --> 0:00:44.160 Some bullshit that I did. 0:00:44.360 --> 0:00:47.160 You know what I'm saying, And I'm having a conversation 0:00:47.240 --> 0:00:48.839 and I just I asked my mama. I was like, 0:00:49.200 --> 0:00:52.080 my daddy ever cheat on you? And she was like, 0:00:52.280 --> 0:00:54.400 cheat on me? She said, cheat on me? She was like, 0:00:54.440 --> 0:00:55.960 what made you ask me that? I'm like, I'm just 0:00:56.000 --> 0:00:58.200 wondering if you ever went through that with my father. 0:00:58.280 --> 0:00:59.920 She was like, oh, with you out here, nigga, got 0:00:59.920 --> 0:01:00.840 you dig in the streets. 0:01:00.920 --> 0:01:01.440 This my mom. 0:01:01.520 --> 0:01:03.080 That's how she talked to me, like, what you got 0:01:03.120 --> 0:01:06.120 your digging in the streets. I'm like, yeah to an extent, 0:01:06.200 --> 0:01:07.960 but I just was wondering, if you know, because I 0:01:08.200 --> 0:01:09.959 don't know who my daddy. I don't know if I 0:01:10.000 --> 0:01:11.679 got something. I don't know if this nigga was a 0:01:12.040 --> 0:01:14.000 you know, if he had that black snake moaning. I'm like, 0:01:14.160 --> 0:01:16.360 was this nigga the hound dog or who was he 0:01:16.440 --> 0:01:19.080 in that regard? Because I'm at this point, I'm feeling 0:01:19.120 --> 0:01:21.240 like a sucker because I had got caught doing some 0:01:21.280 --> 0:01:24.080 shit that was some sucking shit I missed and caught 0:01:24.160 --> 0:01:26.319 me up lying about some sucker shit, and I just 0:01:26.360 --> 0:01:28.920 felt like, man, and that's the only person I can 0:01:28.959 --> 0:01:31.440 come to about it. So she was like, your daddy 0:01:31.480 --> 0:01:33.360 ain't never had the cheat on me. She's like, your 0:01:33.440 --> 0:01:36.800 daddy ain't never told me nothing but what it was. 0:01:37.319 --> 0:01:39.520 She was like, so that's the only And that's why 0:01:40.080 --> 0:01:42.160 I feel like I ain't had nobody to ever meet 0:01:42.200 --> 0:01:45.880 that standard since then, because everybody that came in contact 0:01:45.959 --> 0:01:48.360 with me then been full of shit. And I ain't 0:01:48.360 --> 0:01:51.200 a bitch that you can play with like that, and 0:01:51.240 --> 0:01:54.800 I'm like, you know what, that changed my perspective, and 0:01:54.840 --> 0:01:57.320 they gave me a little glimpse into Okay, my daddy 0:01:57.440 --> 0:01:59.520 was a he was telling the truth. What does that 0:01:59.560 --> 0:02:01.520 even look like? What does it feel like to look 0:02:01.560 --> 0:02:04.120 a woman in the face and be able to tell 0:02:04.120 --> 0:02:06.160 her some shit that did make her turn around and 0:02:06.200 --> 0:02:09.640 walk away from you and be all right with it. 0:02:10.000 --> 0:02:12.520 I had no idea what that was to say some 0:02:12.760 --> 0:02:17.200 to a woman. But is your saying I'm good taking 0:02:17.240 --> 0:02:19.560 the l of you not getting whatever it is you 0:02:20.360 --> 0:02:22.600 I had no idea what that felt like. I didn't 0:02:22.600 --> 0:02:25.320 even know that that was something that could be done 0:02:25.400 --> 0:02:28.520 outside of the type of relationships that I saw my 0:02:28.680 --> 0:02:32.240 uncles have. That was, you know, pimps. That's a different 0:02:32.280 --> 0:02:35.160 type of look the level of love and relationship. I'm 0:02:35.200 --> 0:02:38.480 not that nigga, I know that, but as far as 0:02:38.880 --> 0:02:42.560 I've never seen what it looks like to freely have 0:02:42.800 --> 0:02:46.600 that conversation and be okay with the result of having 0:02:46.600 --> 0:02:49.680 it turned out. And from that moment I remember, I 0:02:49.680 --> 0:02:52.280 went back down to North Carolina and I just cut 0:02:52.280 --> 0:02:55.079 everything off. I ain't do no fucking I just went 0:02:55.160 --> 0:02:58.040 to work, did my shows, went home, and did the 0:02:58.080 --> 0:03:02.120 same thing I read I'm talking about poured into myself. 0:03:02.160 --> 0:03:05.520 I rode around, I talked to my poured into me, 0:03:05.919 --> 0:03:07.680 And when I came out of it, I remember the 0:03:07.720 --> 0:03:10.080 first conversation that I had why I told a woman, 0:03:10.840 --> 0:03:13.720 I don't think I want to ever be married or 0:03:13.760 --> 0:03:16.760 be in a relationship because I did the research on 0:03:16.840 --> 0:03:19.200 where all this shit came from, Like where does this 0:03:19.240 --> 0:03:19.959 even come from? 0:03:20.040 --> 0:03:22.760 Why do we believe in it? Yeah? 0:03:23.360 --> 0:03:25.040 Like why do we believe? Why do people want to 0:03:25.080 --> 0:03:27.720 why do you have to have a wedding ring? Where 0:03:27.720 --> 0:03:30.280 did that come from? And where did this idea of 0:03:30.320 --> 0:03:33.440 love come from? That we because we questioned everything else. 0:03:33.480 --> 0:03:37.920 We are questioned religion, We are question the every all 0:03:37.960 --> 0:03:40.720 of the systems that's in place, the government. But when 0:03:40.760 --> 0:03:43.560 it come to the dick pussy game, that's the only 0:03:43.600 --> 0:03:45.120 one that's truth. 0:03:46.040 --> 0:03:47.200 You gotta do it this way. 0:03:47.840 --> 0:03:51.480 So and just learning and opening my mind up to 0:03:51.560 --> 0:03:54.520 all of this different information, I realized that, man, you 0:03:54.560 --> 0:03:57.160 got to establish who you are and the way that 0:03:57.200 --> 0:03:59.880 I've always been. I've never had to even ask a 0:04:00.040 --> 0:04:02.160 woman to go with me. I wrote two yes no 0:04:02.320 --> 0:04:04.280 maybe soul letters in my life. 0:04:04.520 --> 0:04:06.640 Them the only two times I've never had to ask. 0:04:06.800 --> 0:04:09.040 Every other time it's women coming up on me like 0:04:09.080 --> 0:04:11.760 hey man, what's up with you? So that's just made 0:04:11.800 --> 0:04:14.960 me understand the type of energy that I have naturally. 0:04:15.520 --> 0:04:19.120 So do I curate that and learn how to work 0:04:19.160 --> 0:04:21.320 within that or do I strip myself for that to 0:04:21.360 --> 0:04:24.400 try to conform to what people say count in regards 0:04:24.400 --> 0:04:27.200 to my interaction with women. And I chose the latter, 0:04:27.600 --> 0:04:29.200 the previous, you know what I mean. I chose to 0:04:29.279 --> 0:04:32.320 embrace who I am and how things have always worked 0:04:32.400 --> 0:04:34.039 naturally for me and build on that. 0:04:34.720 --> 0:04:36.520 And that isn't that how long it's been? 0:04:36.600 --> 0:04:39.520 Shit, it's been I'm thirty six now twenty three, so 0:04:39.839 --> 0:04:42.040 you know what I mean that it's been a long time, 0:04:42.440 --> 0:04:43.520 and I've been living. 0:04:43.279 --> 0:04:46.040 Like yeah, to click into. 0:04:45.760 --> 0:04:48.880 That, yeah, I mean very young, And like I said, 0:04:48.960 --> 0:04:52.359 I've grown more over time regards to being able to 0:04:52.440 --> 0:04:57.040 explain it, Like my explanation of it now has grown 0:04:57.200 --> 0:05:00.520 exponentially versus when I was that young, because I've lived 0:05:00.560 --> 0:05:03.400 it and I've been through all of the different ls 0:05:03.440 --> 0:05:07.200 that you take in being this way, because emotions are 0:05:07.320 --> 0:05:10.240 very unusual and can get tricky when you're dealing with 0:05:10.279 --> 0:05:11.560 a woman because. 0:05:11.560 --> 0:05:14.159 They hear what you say, but your. 0:05:14.120 --> 0:05:16.640 Actions are gonna make them feel a certain way, Like 0:05:16.760 --> 0:05:19.800 I only know how to love give love the way 0:05:19.800 --> 0:05:21.400 I know how to give it. So if you're telling 0:05:21.480 --> 0:05:23.680 me you accept me as who I am, and I 0:05:23.760 --> 0:05:26.960 choose to give you the love that I give, you 0:05:27.000 --> 0:05:30.440 can in turn trick yourself into believing I want something 0:05:30.480 --> 0:05:32.720 else without involving me in that decision. 0:05:33.240 --> 0:05:35.320 And if you do that, that's on you. 0:05:35.680 --> 0:05:38.000 And I've given myself the ability to be able to 0:05:38.040 --> 0:05:40.719 separate myself from it, but it doesn't change the fact 0:05:40.760 --> 0:05:43.400 that I still have to have that conversation. And then 0:05:43.440 --> 0:05:46.880 having those conversations, I've been able to learn the things 0:05:46.880 --> 0:05:49.440 that I need to lead with more and more as 0:05:49.480 --> 0:05:51.960 I have them over the years, the things that I 0:05:52.000 --> 0:05:54.240 need to explain when I meet a woman. If you're 0:05:54.279 --> 0:05:56.599 showing any interest, because I'm not coming over there fucking 0:05:56.640 --> 0:05:59.159 with you. I'm good, you know what I mean. It's 0:05:59.160 --> 0:06:01.240 good to look at you. You look lovely. I give 0:06:01.279 --> 0:06:03.400 you a compliment. You look lovely in your dress to day, 0:06:03.400 --> 0:06:06.440 you beautiful, lovely, have a good dayat But I'm not 0:06:06.480 --> 0:06:09.400 doing nothing else because whatever you got going on, that's 0:06:09.440 --> 0:06:11.280 on you. I don't want nothing from you. I didn't 0:06:11.279 --> 0:06:13.640 turn down more pussy than most niggas they've been offered, 0:06:13.680 --> 0:06:16.320 So I'm not end of that day. And it's not 0:06:16.520 --> 0:06:19.479 something that I'm not. That's the least valuable thing on you. 0:06:19.560 --> 0:06:21.240 That's something that a nigga gave me. That's something my 0:06:21.320 --> 0:06:23.400 uncle gave me. The pussy is the least valuable thing 0:06:23.400 --> 0:06:25.039 on a woman unless you a pimp. So if you 0:06:25.040 --> 0:06:29.640 ain't a pimp, ain't pussy, ain't valuable up here? The 0:06:29.760 --> 0:06:31.359 mind's what a mind like. 0:06:31.920 --> 0:06:34.120 So because you'll come give me that pussy and ruin 0:06:34.200 --> 0:06:35.080 everything else. 0:06:34.920 --> 0:06:37.080 I guess exactly. And if that's all you got to 0:06:37.080 --> 0:06:38.680 give me, that's all you ever gonna be worth. And 0:06:38.720 --> 0:06:40.200 if I can't get you to sell it, then we're 0:06:40.279 --> 0:06:45.120 never had nothing. So it's like being able to navigate 0:06:45.240 --> 0:06:47.839 through these conversations that I've had over the years have 0:06:47.920 --> 0:06:49.839 gotten me to a point now where I sit and 0:06:49.880 --> 0:06:52.560 it's so many people around that just black ball, Nah, nigga, 0:06:52.600 --> 0:06:54.760 your perspective gonna change. Wait till you get this age, 0:06:54.760 --> 0:06:56.960 Wait till you get that age. And I understand it 0:06:57.080 --> 0:07:00.200 because you're not doing anything in thee but projecting with 0:07:00.760 --> 0:07:04.839 your capacity to interact with a woman or the opposite 0:07:04.920 --> 0:07:06.600 sexy is on to me, and I'm not mad at 0:07:06.600 --> 0:07:10.240 you about that, but people don't understand, like, no, you 0:07:10.280 --> 0:07:13.920 don't have to love in the way that you say 0:07:14.000 --> 0:07:17.080 love that you're being told that you've been told that 0:07:17.240 --> 0:07:19.880 doesn't work that way. And I watch my mama play 0:07:19.920 --> 0:07:21.600 that game with niggas my whole life. 0:07:21.680 --> 0:07:24.400 Love is no different than pain, right, So you can't 0:07:24.440 --> 0:07:26.920 tell me if you pinch me when it starts to hurt. 0:07:27.320 --> 0:07:28.080 You see what I'm saying. 0:07:28.160 --> 0:07:30.760 I'm telling you what pain is to me, right, and 0:07:30.840 --> 0:07:33.080 I'm telling you what love is to me. And people 0:07:33.160 --> 0:07:35.080 gotta be able to accept that. Man, I think you 0:07:35.160 --> 0:07:36.880 put some real good game down. 0:07:36.680 --> 0:07:40.480 With I mean people, are you know? It's like you know. 0:07:40.520 --> 0:07:42.240 One of the reasons why I think it's so much 0:07:42.280 --> 0:07:46.920 divorce in America, Loan, and I truly believe this. I 0:07:46.960 --> 0:07:49.440 think people get divorced at the rate they get divorced. 0:07:49.440 --> 0:07:50.920 That and this is the thing. 0:07:50.960 --> 0:07:53.720 You got a fifty something percent divorce rate in America, 0:07:54.160 --> 0:07:56.880 not to mention the other twenty percent who stay together 0:07:56.920 --> 0:07:59.120 and can't stand each other just because they don't want 0:07:59.120 --> 0:08:02.280 to go seventy right. 0:08:03.120 --> 0:08:04.640 The reason why people. 0:08:05.960 --> 0:08:08.640 Get divorced so much or get married so quickly, is 0:08:08.680 --> 0:08:10.760 because you don't have to get divorced in the same 0:08:10.760 --> 0:08:14.560 capacity that you get married. See, when you get married, 0:08:15.080 --> 0:08:17.400 you go down and get your paperwork from the. 0:08:17.400 --> 0:08:20.559 Judge, you know, the justice of the peace. 0:08:20.840 --> 0:08:23.880 But then you had that big ceremony and you wear 0:08:23.880 --> 0:08:26.640 a white dress, and you listen to Brian make night songs, 0:08:26.640 --> 0:08:29.200 and you eat sam and or steak, and you had 0:08:29.200 --> 0:08:31.320 the first dance, and you do all of this shit, 0:08:31.360 --> 0:08:34.600 and everybody get to come cry and have this beautiful 0:08:34.640 --> 0:08:37.400 ceremony and watch you tell this person how you gonna 0:08:37.440 --> 0:08:39.880 be with him for the rest of your life until death. 0:08:39.920 --> 0:08:41.440 Do you pardon all of that? 0:08:42.040 --> 0:08:44.679 Then you get to go get divorced in private, only 0:08:44.760 --> 0:08:46.720 you and your lawyer. You get to hear that shit 0:08:46.840 --> 0:08:48.880 y'all say to each other when y'all hate each other. 0:08:49.640 --> 0:08:51.960 But if in America you had to get divorced like 0:08:52.040 --> 0:08:54.839 you get married, if you get divorced, you gotta now 0:08:54.920 --> 0:08:57.480 have the same ceremony where we get to come watch 0:08:57.559 --> 0:09:00.240 y'all tell each other why y'all can't stand each other other, 0:09:00.640 --> 0:09:02.480 the same way we had to watch y'all tell each 0:09:02.480 --> 0:09:04.320 other how y'all was gonna be together for the rest 0:09:04.320 --> 0:09:04.840 of your life. 0:09:05.040 --> 0:09:06.319 And why y'all wasted. 0:09:06.679 --> 0:09:09.400 And wasted all our time and go and going and 0:09:09.840 --> 0:09:12.000 doing all of this and coming sitting in here and 0:09:12.280 --> 0:09:13.960 if you want, you know, because people want you to 0:09:14.000 --> 0:09:16.080 be a part of the success story. But the failure 0:09:16.120 --> 0:09:18.439 they want to keep private. And the thing about it 0:09:18.480 --> 0:09:22.120 is in regards to the relationships. To me, people are 0:09:22.559 --> 0:09:25.800 bullshitting out here. That's what I see most of the time. Nigga, 0:09:25.960 --> 0:09:30.679 you faking. You the realist nigga in the world. But 0:09:30.760 --> 0:09:32.959 you got all these women in the cut that you 0:09:33.120 --> 0:09:35.440 scared to tell us because she gonna what because she's 0:09:35.480 --> 0:09:36.800 gonna leave you for Yeah, she. 0:09:36.880 --> 0:09:40.120 Deserve to leave you, sucker ass, be a real man. 0:09:40.280 --> 0:09:42.920 Yeah, I don't play like it. Every woman just watching 0:09:42.960 --> 0:09:44.880 this didn't know me that fuck with me. No, he 0:09:44.960 --> 0:09:46.520 don't play I don't go for that. 0:09:46.840 --> 0:09:47.360 Me neither. 0:09:47.520 --> 0:09:49.600 And that's the reason why you can say it publicly 0:09:49.679 --> 0:09:53.760 because you I've been saying this shit publicly for years. 0:09:54.320 --> 0:09:57.840 If it was any faking I was doing, you know 0:09:57.880 --> 0:10:00.040 how many how quick a motherfucker would be like that, 0:10:00.040 --> 0:10:02.880 that nigga lie, he'd have been my boyfriend for the past. 0:10:03.200 --> 0:10:06.240 Because that's the thing to embarrass me. You embarrassing yourself 0:10:06.280 --> 0:10:08.800 because all you gonna do is tell exactly what I 0:10:08.880 --> 0:10:11.120 told you, And have all these women who pretend like 0:10:11.160 --> 0:10:14.760 they don't understand. They call you dumbest, fucking the comments, 0:10:14.920 --> 0:10:17.319 a bitch better than me, ain't nowhere in the world. 0:10:17.360 --> 0:10:19.960 I ain't sharing and all of that. Okay, cool, that's 0:10:20.040 --> 0:10:23.760 cool for you, But I don't subscribe to that. And 0:10:23.800 --> 0:10:26.480 it's not just about sex. Fucking take the pussy out 0:10:26.480 --> 0:10:30.720 of it. Like there's certain women that bring certain shit 0:10:30.840 --> 0:10:33.560 to the presence. When I'm in their presence, I don't 0:10:33.600 --> 0:10:35.880 even fuck it my manager, like I was telling you, 0:10:36.000 --> 0:10:37.880 But man, I wouldn't hit her if she was a 0:10:37.880 --> 0:10:38.520 punching bag. 0:10:38.520 --> 0:10:39.800 We that's my family. 0:10:40.600 --> 0:10:43.320 But I'm gonna talk to her on the phone for 0:10:43.400 --> 0:10:47.480 three hours sometimes. Energy, I'm gonna have conversations with her. 0:10:47.600 --> 0:10:50.520 I'm telling you to feel that position to be next 0:10:50.559 --> 0:10:50.760 to me. 0:10:50.800 --> 0:10:53.240 It gotta be that, yeah, I mean, but not even 0:10:53.320 --> 0:10:56.840 sexual ya mentally like energy. 0:10:56.559 --> 0:10:57.160 This somebody. 0:10:57.200 --> 0:10:59.400 If I got a problem, I'll hit her and ask 0:10:59.440 --> 0:11:02.199 her her a it. What do you think about this? 0:11:02.600 --> 0:11:05.200 What do you think about that? That's somebody that serves 0:11:05.200 --> 0:11:08.559 a purpose in my life. That's beyond anything. And I 0:11:09.080 --> 0:11:13.040 fuck sex, but what she serves as a purpose in 0:11:13.080 --> 0:11:15.760 my life, I'm not gonna be explaining to you because 0:11:15.800 --> 0:11:18.320 you feel like you don't understand why we took a 0:11:18.320 --> 0:11:19.680 picture with my arm around her. 0:11:20.040 --> 0:11:22.360 I'm not playing that game with nobody. 0:11:22.520 --> 0:11:25.840 Stop playing with me. 0:11:23.800 --> 0:11:28.559 Just what somebody told you. Yeah, like you know all 0:11:28.640 --> 0:11:29.120 the band. 0:11:29.160 --> 0:11:31.320 If it takes me to run my business, and you 0:11:31.400 --> 0:11:32.760 think I got time to deal. 0:11:32.600 --> 0:11:35.280 With this low level boards, shit, yeah they do. I 0:11:35.320 --> 0:11:36.559 don't even got time. 0:11:36.679 --> 0:11:40.560 But you if you don't establish that, they'll play them games. 0:11:40.600 --> 0:11:43.000 And then the thing is, that's just a test. It's 0:11:43.080 --> 0:11:45.800 like every man is the way I explain it, Loan 0:11:45.960 --> 0:11:49.800 is every man is the professor of his own court. 0:11:49.840 --> 0:11:52.840 This is I'm Chico being one oh one, and as 0:11:52.840 --> 0:11:55.199 a professor when you come, if you come in and 0:11:55.240 --> 0:11:57.160 take my class, the first thing I'm gonna give you 0:11:57.240 --> 0:12:00.720 is my syllabus. And this is who and what and 0:12:00.920 --> 0:12:03.920 everything that you're gonna get out of this course. This 0:12:04.000 --> 0:12:08.040 is what I'm offering from the door. You got a 0:12:08.160 --> 0:12:09.920 choice as to whether or not you want to drop 0:12:09.960 --> 0:12:13.600 this bitch or take it from the door. If you 0:12:13.679 --> 0:12:16.120 choose to take it, after a certain time, you can't 0:12:16.120 --> 0:12:18.480 do nothing but get an ale fail this bit a pass, 0:12:18.520 --> 0:12:21.160 a failed class. If you fail, you failed out, and 0:12:21.200 --> 0:12:22.720 you can't take this bitch no more. 0:12:23.080 --> 0:12:26.400 That's how I operated as a man. Ain't no coming back. 0:12:26.440 --> 0:12:29.360 You fail out, you fail out, And that's cool because 0:12:29.679 --> 0:12:33.360 at least you'll respect me, and I respect you because 0:12:33.400 --> 0:12:35.680 I ain't told you no bullshit. You just couldn't adheit 0:12:35.720 --> 0:12:37.640 to it once you thought you looked at it, and 0:12:37.800 --> 0:12:40.320 you thought maybe you was tricking yourself to think you 0:12:40.320 --> 0:12:42.559 can change me or me, or you think you can 0:12:42.600 --> 0:12:43.840 trick me into thinking that. 0:12:43.760 --> 0:12:45.120 You did what. 0:12:45.240 --> 0:12:47.199 You ain't fuck with me yet, that's what women tell 0:12:47.280 --> 0:12:48.959 me that all the time, or you just ain't met 0:12:48.960 --> 0:12:52.720 her yet met who? You know how many raw ass 0:12:52.840 --> 0:12:55.800 women that I have in my life that loved me 0:12:55.920 --> 0:12:58.120 to death that I ain't never got to put no 0:12:58.240 --> 0:13:01.400 dick nowhere near? You telling me that I ain't found 0:13:01.440 --> 0:13:03.640 somebody that's worth me loving in the way that you 0:13:03.760 --> 0:13:06.120 think love is supposed to go because I ain't did 0:13:06.160 --> 0:13:08.840 it the way you respect it. That's disrespectful to me 0:13:08.920 --> 0:13:12.920 as a man and how I curate relationships. But I've 0:13:12.960 --> 0:13:14.840 gotten to a point over the years that I know, 0:13:15.480 --> 0:13:17.760 it's no point of trying to fight that fight, because 0:13:18.080 --> 0:13:20.080 why would I want to try to change your perspective. 0:13:20.160 --> 0:13:22.839 You entitled to that, and that's the reason why you 0:13:23.080 --> 0:13:25.760 not gonna be over here with me. But anybody that's 0:13:25.800 --> 0:13:28.880 over here knows I'm gonna show up the same person 0:13:29.000 --> 0:13:31.800 I've always been, just a better and better version of it. 0:13:32.080 --> 0:13:34.240 And if you get the benefit from that, then that 0:13:34.320 --> 0:13:37.200 means that you understand what comes with me. So don't 0:13:37.240 --> 0:13:40.040 come at me with nothing that I've already explained to 0:13:40.080 --> 0:13:43.800 you in this syllabus. If you understand what I'm telling you, 0:13:43.840 --> 0:13:45.920 whatever you tell yourself to be okay with it. 0:13:45.960 --> 0:13:47.560 I'm not trying to take that away from you. 0:13:48.120 --> 0:13:50.720 I could, and in certain moments I feel like I 0:13:50.760 --> 0:13:53.240 should have when I've had to have those conversations with 0:13:53.280 --> 0:13:56.040 what well I thought and I thought and how you 0:13:56.120 --> 0:13:58.640 think that? I mean, because you be over here and 0:13:58.640 --> 0:14:02.640 i'd be everywhere. Yeah, the same way I'm over here, 0:14:02.720 --> 0:14:04.840 laid up with you, kissing and loving on you and 0:14:04.880 --> 0:14:06.920 making you laugh and we having a good time. It's 0:14:06.920 --> 0:14:09.440 somebody somewhere else that I had the same experience with 0:14:09.760 --> 0:14:11.959 in the way that we do. But that ain't stop 0:14:12.040 --> 0:14:14.440 me from having it with you, right, But if you 0:14:14.600 --> 0:14:17.440 want me to do this exclusively with you, then I'm 0:14:17.480 --> 0:14:20.280 not the nigga for you. And you've been wasting your 0:14:20.320 --> 0:14:22.000 time trying to imagine that I am. 0:14:22.160 --> 0:14:24.920 Yeah, and you're not gonna trick me. You know, I 0:14:24.920 --> 0:14:27.240 ain't gonna do nothing that ain't been done. You ain't 0:14:27.240 --> 0:14:30.240 gonna do it a different way. I'm the one doing this. 0:14:30.200 --> 0:14:32.560 Shit, right, But I owe it to you to give 0:14:32.600 --> 0:14:35.080 you the respect of letting you know that before you 0:14:35.160 --> 0:14:38.080 invest your time and energy as a woman, Because it's 0:14:38.080 --> 0:14:40.480 a nigga out here that's gonna play whatever game you 0:14:40.520 --> 0:14:41.120 want to play. 0:14:41.840 --> 0:14:42.680 There's plenty of them. 0:14:42.720 --> 0:14:45.440 It's just not me. I'm just not the one that's 0:14:45.480 --> 0:14:49.400 playing that game. So don't try to force me to be. 0:14:49.560 --> 0:14:52.240 This the terror dome over here. In regards to public 0:14:52.280 --> 0:14:55.840 perception and what people think and accept its socially normal, 0:14:55.880 --> 0:14:59.440 and regards to interaction, it's totally different. And I ain't 0:14:59.480 --> 0:15:02.720 talking like on no polygamy and all that that ship. 0:15:02.800 --> 0:15:05.480 I ain't doing none of that. I run my own program. 0:15:05.520 --> 0:15:09.640 I ain't subscribing and nobody's doctrine, but my own God 0:15:09.840 --> 0:15:12.760 has given me the ability to develop my own doctrine 0:15:12.760 --> 0:15:16.880 in regards to my interaction with anybody of the opposite sex, 0:15:17.320 --> 0:15:18.000 and this is me. 0:15:18.200 --> 0:15:19.240 This is my doctrine. 0:15:19.280 --> 0:15:22.280 So if you overhear, we ain't subscribing to nothing but 0:15:22.400 --> 0:15:24.520 the Book of Chico Bean. So you can be a 0:15:24.520 --> 0:15:27.280 part of that or not. Either way, I'm cool. 0:15:27.080 --> 0:15:28.120 Right, and it don't hurt me. 0:15:28.560 --> 0:15:32.920 And it's important that people know I'm not emotionally attached to. 0:15:33.000 --> 0:15:33.920 Whatever this is. 0:15:34.000 --> 0:15:40.200 And they may yeah, yeah, listen, I bless you, Yeah, blessings, 0:15:40.400 --> 0:15:41.720 blessing on every level. 0:15:42.200 --> 0:15:45.200 I mean me too, but I'm mad about that. I 0:15:45.400 --> 0:15:45.920 mean that. 0:15:46.040 --> 0:15:48.840 I hope you wish you the best out all the 0:15:48.840 --> 0:15:51.640 way macause I'm keen. I'm keen Kong. I know what's 0:15:51.680 --> 0:15:54.920 going on. You know when you over here, we gonna win. Man, 0:15:55.040 --> 0:15:56.360 whoever around me, were. 0:15:56.200 --> 0:16:02.440 Gonna every day and I'm talking about hell every day. 0:16:02.800 --> 0:16:04.920 And you know what I'm saying. You not getting nothing mediocre. 0:16:04.920 --> 0:16:05.120 I'm not. 0:16:05.120 --> 0:16:07.160 I don't care what you get from nobody else. It's 0:16:07.160 --> 0:16:09.360 only one of me. You can never get what you 0:16:09.440 --> 0:16:12.200 get from me from not another motherfucker on the planet 0:16:12.200 --> 0:16:14.600 because I'm the only one. So if you loving what 0:16:14.720 --> 0:16:16.800 I'm doing and what I'm laying down. And that's what 0:16:16.880 --> 0:16:19.280 I try to tell women when I had these conversations, 0:16:19.600 --> 0:16:22.600 like you expect a man to be something that you 0:16:22.720 --> 0:16:26.320 haven't given him the ability to be safe or feel 0:16:26.360 --> 0:16:30.920 safe enough to be in front of you. Yes, and 0:16:31.000 --> 0:16:33.120 as a man, if you come in like we come 0:16:33.160 --> 0:16:35.280 in like, I ain't talking about these niggas out here 0:16:35.320 --> 0:16:39.680 selling dreams. Hey, look hey, but if you one of them, 0:16:39.760 --> 0:16:41.960 niggas like Pimpcy and the words of the pimp got 0:16:42.160 --> 0:16:44.200 long live the pimp. It's never too late to stop 0:16:44.240 --> 0:16:47.640 being a bitch, shake back, get out that shit, my niggas. 0:16:47.680 --> 0:16:48.840 But I'm not this not for you. 0:16:48.880 --> 0:16:50.720 I'm talking to the niggas that got the standard and 0:16:50.800 --> 0:16:54.240 the honor to be able to lead into who they 0:16:54.280 --> 0:16:55.880 really are with a woman from jump. 0:16:56.480 --> 0:16:58.240 If you do that, even. 0:16:58.040 --> 0:17:00.160 If you are with the relationships and you want to 0:17:00.200 --> 0:17:02.040 be in a relationship, and you because there are men 0:17:02.080 --> 0:17:05.359 out here who you know really conform to that and 0:17:05.400 --> 0:17:07.879 do their best, and then you expect this man to 0:17:07.960 --> 0:17:10.800 be something that you've never even shown him the grace 0:17:10.880 --> 0:17:12.960 or the space that he's safe enough to be able 0:17:13.000 --> 0:17:15.760 to trust that he's not gonna get chance. 0:17:15.760 --> 0:17:18.280 Starves for being around you and then you judge him 0:17:18.320 --> 0:17:21.520 for it, and you that's you demonize him for you 0:17:21.560 --> 0:17:22.040 know what I mean. 0:17:22.119 --> 0:17:24.840 And it's like I tell women, you got to create 0:17:24.840 --> 0:17:27.040 a If you've created a space for a man and 0:17:27.080 --> 0:17:31.040 you tell them that this is who I'll be yourself 0:17:31.160 --> 0:17:31.720 and I'm. 0:17:31.560 --> 0:17:34.119 Showing you and then he still don't do that, then. 0:17:34.000 --> 0:17:35.600 That's a sucker and you need to get this far 0:17:35.640 --> 0:17:38.040 away from that nigga as possible. But if you find 0:17:38.040 --> 0:17:40.960 a man and you say, look, this is who I'm 0:17:41.000 --> 0:17:43.960