WEBVTT - Blood Is Thicker Than Water 0:00:00.160 --> 0:00:03.120 Welcome to Carefully Reckless, the production of Our Heart Radio 0:00:03.240 --> 0:00:07.840 and the Black Effect. I still a nice still aspect, 0:00:08.320 --> 0:00:21.320 I still aspect, nice still ask still still, and I'm 0:00:21.360 --> 0:00:23.880 back with another Carefully Reckless episode. It is your girl, 0:00:23.960 --> 0:00:26.160 just hilarry, guess and listen. I got my sister back. 0:00:26.160 --> 0:00:28.880 I told her she was coming back. Say I'm here again, y'all, 0:00:29.360 --> 0:00:31.120 all right, so listen. She didn't know that I was 0:00:31.120 --> 0:00:33.440 gonna do this, but I usually do story time. And 0:00:33.440 --> 0:00:35.559 then I asked you all questions, and you know, I 0:00:35.640 --> 0:00:37.559 get you all feedback and all that ship, but we're 0:00:37.560 --> 0:00:39.919 gonna jump straight into this right here. I ain't even 0:00:40.000 --> 0:00:46.400 letting her know what the topic is. One day, like 0:00:46.760 --> 0:00:50.640 my sister was dating this guy, right, everything was cool. 0:00:50.760 --> 0:00:53.800 You know. He got close with my niece, my nephew, 0:00:54.160 --> 0:00:56.200 my and the reason why I say I have two nieces, 0:00:56.200 --> 0:00:58.440 but nobody ever gets close to the middle baby. Like 0:00:58.480 --> 0:01:00.520 my middle baby is Zoe. She's two. We ourselves. You 0:01:00.560 --> 0:01:03.680 don't funk with nobody but herself, and that's what it is. Um. 0:01:03.760 --> 0:01:06.800 He got close to my younger, my youngest niece. You know, 0:01:06.840 --> 0:01:10.200 she's very impressionable. She reminds me of myself and Rudy Huxable. 0:01:10.480 --> 0:01:14.440 So like baby Nugget is very just just oh my god, 0:01:14.520 --> 0:01:18.039 that's a kid that you want to be around, like yes, 0:01:18.280 --> 0:01:21.440 like lovy and clingy. Yes. So she actually was really 0:01:21.440 --> 0:01:24.680 really like close with him, like she was cool, and 0:01:24.959 --> 0:01:27.120 he was coming around a lot doing everything, right, I'm 0:01:27.120 --> 0:01:29.920 talking about this nigga was like doing house chores. He 0:01:29.959 --> 0:01:31.520 still had a job and everything, but he would like 0:01:31.560 --> 0:01:35.520 come over to my sister's house and like take care 0:01:35.560 --> 0:01:37.280 of the house and put the kids, help and put 0:01:37.319 --> 0:01:42.560 the kids down and everything right. And we talk about, yeah, 0:01:42.600 --> 0:01:47.080 I'm straight out because yeah, since we we know for 0:01:47.200 --> 0:01:52.360 putting each other out there like that. Um. Yeah. So 0:01:52.360 --> 0:01:55.920 so one particular day and then they were dealing with 0:01:55.920 --> 0:01:58.640 each other for like like months, you know, like this 0:01:58.760 --> 0:02:01.680 was like four like for or five months or five 0:02:01.680 --> 0:02:04.880 months maybe, Yeah, And one particular day, like I got 0:02:04.920 --> 0:02:06.920 close to him, to you, like, I started calling him brother. 0:02:06.960 --> 0:02:08.600 You know how it is when your sister dates or 0:02:08.639 --> 0:02:11.640 your brother dates you, you you adopt the person that 0:02:11.680 --> 0:02:13.480 they're working with, you know what I mean. So I 0:02:13.520 --> 0:02:15.480 was calling them bro. He had called me one day 0:02:15.480 --> 0:02:18.160 and he was like, yo, I have um something serious 0:02:18.160 --> 0:02:21.399 to tell you, and I'm like, yo, what's up? You good? 0:02:21.600 --> 0:02:24.480 You know? And he was like yeah, like it's it's 0:02:24.520 --> 0:02:26.320 not regular, So you need to call me when you 0:02:26.400 --> 0:02:28.120 and I was out somewhere and so I was like, 0:02:28.200 --> 0:02:30.400 he was like, you call me when you're you're away. 0:02:30.440 --> 0:02:32.480 I'm like, yo, and you know what that is. But 0:02:32.560 --> 0:02:34.200 when I feel like somebody got some tea like that, 0:02:34.240 --> 0:02:36.280 like you can't tell me wherever I'm at. I need 0:02:36.280 --> 0:02:38.280 to be sitting down and all that ship. I'm gonna 0:02:38.400 --> 0:02:40.080 leave wherever man, I don't give an Well. I was 0:02:40.120 --> 0:02:41.560 with like a nigger too and something. He had some 0:02:41.600 --> 0:02:44.399 money child, but I said, okay, somethee. So I went 0:02:44.440 --> 0:02:48.480 in the house and um, I called him and he 0:02:49.080 --> 0:02:51.440 before that he texts you remember he had texted you 0:02:51.520 --> 0:02:53.760 because you told him you was busy. He was like 0:02:53.840 --> 0:02:55.640 just text me or something. Yeah, but he was like 0:02:55.760 --> 0:02:57.600 I couln't. I can't text you like this. And I 0:02:57.639 --> 0:02:59.400 told him to call me and I was out, so 0:02:59.600 --> 0:03:01.360 he was like, no, this ain't nothing that I can 0:03:01.480 --> 0:03:02.600 you know what I mean? So I went home and 0:03:02.680 --> 0:03:04.960 I called him and I was like, yo, what's up. 0:03:05.400 --> 0:03:06.760 He was like, I'm gonna call you. Want to get off. 0:03:06.800 --> 0:03:08.320 I'm like, damn, I could have stayed with the nigga. 0:03:08.400 --> 0:03:11.440 So he he ended up calling me later and ship 0:03:11.520 --> 0:03:16.160 and he was like, yo, so I don't know why 0:03:16.200 --> 0:03:18.360 I feel this way. I don't know why I'm even 0:03:18.400 --> 0:03:24.720 this way, but like I have like feelings for niggas, 0:03:24.800 --> 0:03:26.920 like and I'm like saying, you know, he said he 0:03:26.960 --> 0:03:33.600 has a urge urge for yes every once in a while, 0:03:33.639 --> 0:03:37.520 That's what he said. Yeah, so but he texts that. Remember, no, 0:03:37.720 --> 0:03:40.120 he didn't text it right now, Yes he did because 0:03:40.160 --> 0:03:42.880 he had just made the screenshots. Oh, Ship, all right 0:03:42.920 --> 0:03:44.920 with it? Maybe now now, I'm sorry, y'all, this is 0:03:44.960 --> 0:03:46.760 like a good screen how many years ago? This was 0:03:46.800 --> 0:03:50.120 like years and years ago? Okay, all right, so this 0:03:50.200 --> 0:03:52.600 is five years ago, y'all. I'm sorry. You definitely had 0:03:52.600 --> 0:03:55.040 the screenshots. Remember, he was like, oh, she made him up. 0:03:55.120 --> 0:03:58.800 He was like, I don't even feel like like, I 0:03:58.840 --> 0:04:00.800 don't make up screens shots. Now. I might make a 0:04:00.800 --> 0:04:02.920 fake page and and harass your motherer, but I ain't 0:04:02.960 --> 0:04:04.920 gonna make up some screenshots now. I didn't even know 0:04:04.920 --> 0:04:07.080 how to do that back non or whatever. So his 0:04:07.200 --> 0:04:12.280 ass had admitted to me that he was bisexual. You know, 0:04:12.400 --> 0:04:14.720 he said, I just have these feelings for men, but 0:04:14.760 --> 0:04:17.760 not just any men. I have a thing like a 0:04:17.800 --> 0:04:22.160 fetish for trannies. And I'm like what he said, Yeah, 0:04:22.240 --> 0:04:26.120 like I'm attracted the trans and then get dumbass, was like, 0:04:26.680 --> 0:04:30.039 so like you like the ones that had the surgery 0:04:30.160 --> 0:04:33.640 or the ones that still got the dicks? Y? Yeah 0:04:33.720 --> 0:04:37.000 you are you are you attracted the transsexuals or transgender? 0:04:37.200 --> 0:04:39.800 My my mother? You know what I'm saying that he 0:04:39.920 --> 0:04:44.159 was like, he said, he said, um, this nigga gonna 0:04:44.160 --> 0:04:47.280 say if they had the surgery, I might as well 0:04:47.320 --> 0:04:49.520 just be with a woman. He was like, if they 0:04:49.520 --> 0:04:51.880 are transgender, Yeah, like if they had the surgery to 0:04:51.920 --> 0:04:54.120 have a pussy, then that might as well just be 0:04:54.400 --> 0:04:57.039 you know, straight, always straight, and just with a girl. 0:04:57.200 --> 0:04:59.200 And I'm saying with this dumb girl, she's gonna say 0:04:59.200 --> 0:05:01.320 so like what you do with to dick? Like yeah, 0:05:01.440 --> 0:05:03.760 like what do you do? You know? So I'm trying 0:05:03.800 --> 0:05:06.839 to get you know, and this is five years ago. 0:05:07.000 --> 0:05:10.080 I was not as mature as I am now, and 0:05:10.160 --> 0:05:12.920 ship and I you know, and I'm just like yo, 0:05:13.200 --> 0:05:15.560 I mean I just couldn't believe what I was hearing him, Like, Yo, 0:05:15.640 --> 0:05:19.680 my sister's boyfriend is telling that he is attracted to 0:05:19.760 --> 0:05:23.040 men as well as my sister, and I'm just like, yo, okay. 0:05:23.080 --> 0:05:26.960 So after we got past all that, you know, the 0:05:26.960 --> 0:05:29.600 hooplah of it all, I was like, okay, are you 0:05:29.680 --> 0:05:32.320 going to tell her? And he was like, hell yeah yo, 0:05:32.360 --> 0:05:34.440 but I just had to tell you first. I'm like, okay, well, 0:05:34.440 --> 0:05:38.080 what the funk made you tell me and not your 0:05:38.120 --> 0:05:40.440 girlfriend first? You know, he was just like, what the 0:05:40.440 --> 0:05:43.320 funk you mean? That bit should killed me? And listen, 0:05:44.520 --> 0:05:47.440 this ain't only five years later of maturity for me. 0:05:47.560 --> 0:05:50.760 This is five years of whosa for her too, Because 0:05:51.200 --> 0:05:53.760 my sister, of our shade is she used to be 0:05:53.880 --> 0:05:56.800 very temperamental. She was like, you know what I mean, 0:05:57.080 --> 0:05:59.920 it is what it is, Dr Jacko and Mr had Honey, 0:06:00.080 --> 0:06:04.839 that's who she Yes, yes, she definitely I calmed down. 0:06:05.080 --> 0:06:11.719 Was a diagnosed schizophrenic. All right. Only two people lived 0:06:11.720 --> 0:06:13.520 in my band. I thought it was a bunch, but 0:06:13.720 --> 0:06:15.839 you know, because I know more than anybody, and I 0:06:15.920 --> 0:06:19.560 swear as more than two. But you know, she was 0:06:19.600 --> 0:06:24.520 a diagnosed bipolar patient and she would show these you know, 0:06:24.680 --> 0:06:29.279 certain triggers would get her going, and he was afraid 0:06:29.360 --> 0:06:32.360 to tell her, and of course rightfully, so I do understand. 0:06:32.400 --> 0:06:34.760 So I was like, yo, I'm gonna give you some 0:06:34.839 --> 0:06:36.520 time to tell her, because he was just like, Yo, 0:06:37.080 --> 0:06:38.360 I want to tell her, but I'm not gonna tell 0:06:38.360 --> 0:06:40.480 he like tonight, I'm like when you need to tell 0:06:40.520 --> 0:06:42.719 her because you just told her little sister and my 0:06:42.839 --> 0:06:46.320 loyalty is to her. And also, this ain't just ain't 0:06:46.360 --> 0:06:49.200 this ain't no regular ship. You feel me like, are 0:06:49.240 --> 0:06:54.119 you having sex with these you know men? And he's like, yeah, 0:06:53.680 --> 0:06:58.440 I am too. I'm like, yo, because you are having 0:06:58.440 --> 0:07:00.479 sex with my sister. You're in an act of a 0:07:00.520 --> 0:07:04.479 sexually active relationship with my sister, Nigga. This ain't no 0:07:04.560 --> 0:07:06.760 stranger nothing like I don't know her through you, ni, 0:07:06.960 --> 0:07:10.440 I know you through her. So she's the most important 0:07:10.440 --> 0:07:14.880 to me, you know. And so he was honest about everything. 0:07:14.920 --> 0:07:18.240 He was like, yes, I do have sex with men, 0:07:18.360 --> 0:07:21.120 and I'm like, okay, when's the last time? And he 0:07:21.200 --> 0:07:24.120 was like like he started a little bit, like I 0:07:24.120 --> 0:07:26.080 mean like he stopped a little bit, he paused, and 0:07:26.120 --> 0:07:28.560 he didn't want to tell me, but he it was 0:07:28.960 --> 0:07:31.840 more recent than the fund it should have been, you know, 0:07:32.200 --> 0:07:35.360 and it was in the earlier stages of him dating 0:07:35.400 --> 0:07:38.480 my sister, and um, he was telling me like he's 0:07:38.520 --> 0:07:41.360 basically like since he like really really got a fishal 0:07:41.360 --> 0:07:42.800 and realized that he fell in love with my sister, 0:07:42.880 --> 0:07:46.920 that he's tried to fight these urges off. It doesn't work. 0:07:47.000 --> 0:07:49.440 Their research and it's like men all around the world 0:07:49.480 --> 0:07:53.400 that deal with the same thing. Yeah, yeah, and I'm 0:07:53.440 --> 0:07:57.480 just like listening, Yeah, we know that, but I'm responsible 0:07:57.520 --> 0:07:59.520 for my sister. That's it, you know what I'm saying. 0:07:59.760 --> 0:08:02.120 You're not all the men around the world. You're one 0:08:02.160 --> 0:08:05.520 man that's dealing with you know, this problem or you know. 0:08:05.720 --> 0:08:08.120 And it was a problem for him because that's that's why. 0:08:08.600 --> 0:08:10.080 And then the reason why it was a problem for 0:08:10.120 --> 0:08:12.760 me is because you're not giving her a choice. You know, 0:08:12.840 --> 0:08:14.960 you knew you had these feelings from men you knew. 0:08:15.280 --> 0:08:18.320 And although coming out is not an easy process, you're 0:08:18.440 --> 0:08:21.840 still being selfish. Like you're still being selfish, you know, 0:08:22.000 --> 0:08:24.680 and and and always I don't give a funk you're 0:08:24.720 --> 0:08:27.000 being selfish. Um, because she has the right to know 0:08:27.040 --> 0:08:31.080 that she's fucking a guy who Fox guys. So he 0:08:31.200 --> 0:08:33.200 was like, yo, just give me like a day. I said, 0:08:33.200 --> 0:08:35.000 all right, that means You're gonna tell her tomorrow, right, 0:08:35.520 --> 0:08:37.200 And he was like yeah, yeah, yah, yeah, I'm gonna 0:08:37.200 --> 0:08:39.600 telling when I get off tomorrow or whatever. Can you 0:08:39.720 --> 0:08:41.960 be there. I'm like how yeah? He was like yeah, 0:08:41.960 --> 0:08:43.800 because I know she's gonna start swinging, she's gonna go 0:08:43.840 --> 0:08:48.400 to fuck off, she's gonna go crazy. Please. So next 0:08:48.480 --> 0:08:52.840 day came and now imagine me as a little sister, 0:08:53.440 --> 0:08:56.240 like I talked to this girl every fucking day. I'm 0:08:56.280 --> 0:08:59.560 with her all day every day, and it's like, um so, 0:08:59.600 --> 0:09:02.200 now I feel bad because I'm hiding something like but 0:09:02.280 --> 0:09:04.920 I'm not really hiding. I'm waiting for this nigga to 0:09:05.000 --> 0:09:06.400 do what the fun he said he was gonna do 0:09:07.280 --> 0:09:10.040 this nigga gets off work, I'm calling him to see 0:09:10.040 --> 0:09:15.360 what the funk going on? Hain't answering. I called my sister, Hey, Yo, 0:09:15.880 --> 0:09:19.440 is Yo there? She like, no, he ain't come over. Yeah, 0:09:19.760 --> 0:09:23.440 I ain't really talked to him today. Oh why so 0:09:23.520 --> 0:09:28.160 you're chickening out now pretty much? And so I kept 0:09:28.160 --> 0:09:30.880 blowing his sucking phone up, I said yo, And I 0:09:30.920 --> 0:09:33.280 finally text him. I said, Yo, I'm ready to tell him. 0:09:33.360 --> 0:09:34.960 That's when he called me back. He was like, Yo, 0:09:35.400 --> 0:09:36.839 this ship is not easy. I need for you to 0:09:36.920 --> 0:09:38.640 understand you. This ship is not easy. Can I tell 0:09:38.640 --> 0:09:43.320 her tomorrow? What did I let him stow it again? 0:09:44.640 --> 0:09:51.280 Like he was like, no, nigga, like no, like said yeah, yeah, yeah, 0:09:51.320 --> 0:09:52.679 I was gonna say. I don't remember if I gave 0:09:52.760 --> 0:09:54.800 him another day, but I definitely gave him that one 0:09:54.880 --> 0:09:57.600 day when he asked me the first time. But it's like, nah, y'all, 0:09:57.760 --> 0:10:00.040 I don't know what the fun going on. So I 0:10:00.880 --> 0:10:03.880 told her, first of all, you begged me not to 0:10:04.000 --> 0:10:05.920 go off, like yo, please do not go off on 0:10:05.960 --> 0:10:08.720 this nigga because he is scared. He is scared of you, like, 0:10:08.760 --> 0:10:10.920 do not go off on him. I'm like, like, I 0:10:10.960 --> 0:10:12.640 ain't gonna go off. I ain't gonna go off. So 0:10:13.040 --> 0:10:15.280 he finally and you thought it was another bit the 0:10:15.280 --> 0:10:16.920 whole time you thought I already telling you something about 0:10:17.679 --> 0:10:20.600 Then you're sitting there saying that. So the maturity and 0:10:20.679 --> 0:10:22.520 meat had to kick in and I had to be like, 0:10:22.559 --> 0:10:24.800 all right, you know what, I can't go off on 0:10:24.840 --> 0:10:28.480 this nigga because I need to. I need to make 0:10:28.520 --> 0:10:31.280 sure his health is good. Yeah that right there, and 0:10:31.320 --> 0:10:34.760 then him saying that he wasn't you know fully protecting himself. 0:10:34.880 --> 0:10:37.120 Did admit. He did admit because I did ask him, 0:10:37.120 --> 0:10:40.280 my bay, y' all. So I asked him, I said, yo, um, now, 0:10:40.880 --> 0:10:44.840 if you just had sex with a guy two or 0:10:44.880 --> 0:10:49.959 three months ago, did you use protection? And he was like, 0:10:52.040 --> 0:10:53.959 that's when I knew. I was like, all right, well no, 0:10:55.040 --> 0:10:57.160 he said, sometimes you do. Sometimes. Yeah, he did tell 0:10:57.200 --> 0:10:59.840 me sometimes you use it, sometimes you know, sometimes you don't. 0:10:59.840 --> 0:11:02.000 But he did admit that he did not use protection 0:11:02.040 --> 0:11:05.960 with that last dude. And so I'm like, yo, what 0:11:06.000 --> 0:11:08.440 the funk? That's what had me upset. So that's why 0:11:08.480 --> 0:11:10.160 he was like, Yo, I'm gonna I promise, I'm gonna 0:11:10.200 --> 0:11:11.600 tell her. I just need you to be there. So 0:11:11.640 --> 0:11:15.040 now back fast forward. I told my sister what the 0:11:15.080 --> 0:11:20.640 fun was happening. She had to collect herself. She really did, 0:11:21.040 --> 0:11:23.920 um like it was that that day. I would never 0:11:23.920 --> 0:11:27.320 forget that day. That day was so heart wrenching for 0:11:27.360 --> 0:11:29.680 her because all the things that are going through her 0:11:29.720 --> 0:11:34.920 mind are just tearing her apart because it's like, yo, 0:11:35.120 --> 0:11:37.400 like she couldn't breathe when I told her, like it 0:11:37.480 --> 0:11:40.120 was just like yo. And then imagine having to tell 0:11:40.240 --> 0:11:43.160 your loved one some ship like that. You know, So 0:11:43.920 --> 0:11:46.559 of course she started blowing up his phone sending the 0:11:46.640 --> 0:11:49.480 messages and ship and he already knew that I told 0:11:49.520 --> 0:11:52.600 her by then. So of course this nigga calls me 0:11:52.640 --> 0:11:55.800 from another phone like, YO, you fucking told her? Remember 0:11:55.840 --> 0:11:57.920 he asked me some type of way. He was like, YO, 0:11:58.080 --> 0:12:00.840 you told her already or something like that, and I 0:12:00.880 --> 0:12:03.839 was like, yeah, yeah, yeah, you didn't, and you were 0:12:03.880 --> 0:12:06.200 fucking ignoring me, Like what the funk you mean? I 0:12:06.280 --> 0:12:08.240 told you I would have to tell her. You could 0:12:08.280 --> 0:12:11.280 have told your little sister. Motherfucker, you told her little sister, 0:12:11.720 --> 0:12:17.280 her girlfriend's little sister. So just imagine the pressure I 0:12:17.360 --> 0:12:21.640 was failing, the position I was put in. And yeah, 0:12:21.679 --> 0:12:24.640 that's how the fun that ship with. I had to 0:12:24.679 --> 0:12:27.760 collect myself before I actually got to like really reach 0:12:27.840 --> 0:12:29.920 out reach out to him. And when I reached out 0:12:29.920 --> 0:12:32.679 to him, I was just like, hey, my sister told me. 0:12:33.080 --> 0:12:35.480 You know what you talked to her about. I ain't 0:12:35.520 --> 0:12:38.720 trying to argue, I ain't trying to fuss. I want 0:12:38.720 --> 0:12:40.559 to come pick you up from working when you get 0:12:40.559 --> 0:12:42.280 all work in the morning. I want us to go 0:12:42.320 --> 0:12:44.880 to the clinic. When is the last time you've been tested? 0:12:44.960 --> 0:12:46.839 I want to see some results. I want to get 0:12:46.840 --> 0:12:49.719 tested together. Even if something is going on with me, 0:12:50.280 --> 0:12:53.320 I won't know, but at least I can see what 0:12:53.440 --> 0:12:55.800 your results is. And I'm going to continue to get 0:12:56.080 --> 0:13:01.240 myself tested, you know you periodically, because that's how it works, exactly. 0:13:01.280 --> 0:13:03.400 It just doesn't show up. It don't show it that 0:13:03.400 --> 0:13:07.720 that ship just won't show up sometime. Yeah, he agreed. 0:13:08.160 --> 0:13:10.920 He agreed to go and get tested with me the 0:13:11.200 --> 0:13:13.640 next morning because he worked overnight. He worked overnight shift, 0:13:14.240 --> 0:13:16.440 and he agreed to go with me. So I go 0:13:16.520 --> 0:13:18.240 to his job because I knew what time he got 0:13:18.280 --> 0:13:19.720 off work, because I've been dealing with him for a 0:13:19.720 --> 0:13:22.080 few months. Um. I went to his job. I'm sitting 0:13:22.080 --> 0:13:24.400 out there in the parking lot. I see people walking 0:13:24.440 --> 0:13:25.920 out and I'm like, well, maybe he ain't. You know, 0:13:26.960 --> 0:13:29.840 he ain't come out yet. So I saw a familiar 0:13:29.840 --> 0:13:31.920 face one of his co workers that I've I've given 0:13:31.960 --> 0:13:35.360 a ride to before, and I'm like, hey, um, such 0:13:35.400 --> 0:13:37.640 and such is he still like that? Oh? He left 0:13:37.679 --> 0:13:42.400 last night? He said he had an emergency. I'm like, oh, worry, okay, 0:13:42.800 --> 0:13:47.760 So I called his phone, go straight to voicemail. I'm blocked. 0:13:48.360 --> 0:13:53.760 I go on Facebook, I'm blocked. I go on Instagram, 0:13:53.800 --> 0:13:57.160 I'm blocked. I'm like, oh sorry. So I made a 0:13:57.240 --> 0:14:00.200 page and it's the first time I ever made just 0:14:00.240 --> 0:14:03.280 a page. I mean, I was famous for doing like 0:14:03.520 --> 0:14:05.360 I mean, and granted I wouldn't say it was a 0:14:05.360 --> 0:14:07.080 fake page. I just made a page real quick, just 0:14:07.120 --> 0:14:09.800 so I could reach out to him, and I told 0:14:09.880 --> 0:14:13.160 him like, hey, like, what's what's uping? Like where you at? 0:14:13.240 --> 0:14:14.959 Like you, I feel like you're trying to duck me out. 0:14:15.360 --> 0:14:17.720 He just like, just just leave me alone. I'm like, 0:14:17.800 --> 0:14:21.360 leave you alone, nigga. We we got obligations, like we 0:14:21.440 --> 0:14:24.200 got to go to to the clinics so we can 0:14:24.240 --> 0:14:27.320 see what's going on. Like now, now you're scaring me 0:14:27.800 --> 0:14:30.120 because I feel like you're trying to hide something, Like 0:14:30.120 --> 0:14:31.640 what then is going on with you? Is this something 0:14:31.680 --> 0:14:33.280 that you know about you that you don't want me 0:14:33.320 --> 0:14:35.680 to know about you? Like what is going on? So 0:14:35.720 --> 0:14:38.720 I'm like, look, he like, leave me alone, Leave me alone. 0:14:38.720 --> 0:14:41.800 I like looking you don't say something like I'm gonna 0:14:41.800 --> 0:14:43.680 put you out there like you Yeah, now you're playing 0:14:43.680 --> 0:14:46.320 with me like a game. I came at you calm, 0:14:46.440 --> 0:14:50.360 I came at you very civilized, I came at you 0:14:50.400 --> 0:14:52.800 like an adult when I really wanted to go off. 0:14:52.920 --> 0:14:57.320 I was so shocked and how you handled it, because like, 0:14:57.760 --> 0:14:59.560 even even though I told him that I wanted to 0:14:59.560 --> 0:15:03.000 be there when he told you, I really didn't because like, honestly, 0:15:03.440 --> 0:15:05.520 she would have sucked both of us up. You understand 0:15:05.520 --> 0:15:08.720 what I'm saying. So like I really wanted was like 0:15:08.720 --> 0:15:13.240 what So that's why I say, yo, like I know 0:15:14.160 --> 0:15:17.000 I would have got nigga. So I was like really 0:15:17.000 --> 0:15:19.000 scared to fucking be there as well. That's why I 0:15:19.000 --> 0:15:21.080 was like, I'm glad I got to tell it, because like, no, 0:15:21.280 --> 0:15:24.200 she would have never forgave me for knowing and just 0:15:24.280 --> 0:15:30.120 not saying anything. Hold up, hold up, I know the 0:15:30.160 --> 0:15:32.320 ship getting good, but listen to just a couple of 0:15:32.320 --> 0:15:42.440 seconds of a commercial. If you love me, you'll listen. Yeah, 0:15:42.480 --> 0:15:46.360 go ahead. Yeah, so you said, um, he was like, 0:15:46.960 --> 0:15:50.760 leave leave me alone, basically like he obviously did not 0:15:50.920 --> 0:15:53.040 want to see what the was going on with him 0:15:53.040 --> 0:15:56.000 if he already didn't know what. Yeah, So I started 0:15:56.000 --> 0:15:57.480 reaching out of the bitches that I knew that he 0:15:57.520 --> 0:16:00.520 didn't sucked in the past. I'm like, hey, you know 0:16:00.600 --> 0:16:05.240 this nigga. Niggas and they're like what. I'm like, look, 0:16:05.280 --> 0:16:06.920 I don't know what you know, but I'm telling you 0:16:06.960 --> 0:16:09.320 this because you know, I want you to get checked 0:16:09.320 --> 0:16:11.560 because I'm gonna go get checked. And y'all was dealing 0:16:11.600 --> 0:16:13.240 with him before I was dealing with him, So like, 0:16:13.880 --> 0:16:16.239 when y'all get checked, let me know what y'all papers say. 0:16:16.280 --> 0:16:19.520 Because I'm new to this. Y'all the been there, like 0:16:20.000 --> 0:16:22.440 I need to know. Like he playing, it became a 0:16:22.480 --> 0:16:26.480 whole situation where he was like, oh, they're lying, they're lying, 0:16:26.480 --> 0:16:29.760 they're lying, and him, Yeah, I got him in a 0:16:29.800 --> 0:16:33.040 Facebook group. Remember the guy that ran the Facebook group? 0:16:33.520 --> 0:16:34.920 Um well, A couple of the guys that ran the 0:16:34.920 --> 0:16:38.560 Facebook was like, um well, she shortly says she got 0:16:38.600 --> 0:16:42.560 receipts talking about you. Shortly says she got receipts. They're 0:16:42.560 --> 0:16:45.760 gonna go live going through her phone. We went live 0:16:46.320 --> 0:16:50.720 going through just and see this is his number right here, 0:16:51.480 --> 0:16:55.400 by bye, this is his number, he's saying right here. 0:16:56.320 --> 0:17:01.440 Sometimes I get the urge to blah blah blah. And 0:17:01.480 --> 0:17:04.960 then you touched on the fact that the transgender that 0:17:05.160 --> 0:17:09.520 used to do your head front she wrew awesome head 0:17:09.560 --> 0:17:12.479 solace and everything like that and he was in her 0:17:12.560 --> 0:17:17.600 damn DNA and she's very popular people, very And it's 0:17:17.640 --> 0:17:21.119 crazy because I actually, and I just I had a 0:17:21.160 --> 0:17:23.480 whole flashback of while him and I would lay in 0:17:23.520 --> 0:17:26.639 my bed one day and I'm like, yo, look at 0:17:26.640 --> 0:17:30.200 this person right here. I showed him um Lucy papers, 0:17:31.480 --> 0:17:33.200 and I was like, I was look at this person, 0:17:33.720 --> 0:17:35.399 and he was like, damn, she looked good. I was 0:17:35.440 --> 0:17:39.000 just like, um, you know, um, you know she she 0:17:39.160 --> 0:17:41.560 was born a boy. He was like what, I can't 0:17:41.560 --> 0:17:43.000 even tell. I was like, I know, she looked good 0:17:43.000 --> 0:17:46.679 at ship. The whole time, he already been following Lucy, 0:17:47.240 --> 0:17:52.879 been following Mercy, and Lucy is a bad you know 0:17:53.000 --> 0:17:55.000 for y'all to know, you know, who bought them? Are 0:17:55.040 --> 0:17:58.960 his own? Like definitely, he already knew who she was. 0:17:59.320 --> 0:18:01.640 He knew who she us and come to find out 0:18:01.680 --> 0:18:06.840 he was following he had a vest selection of trans 0:18:07.840 --> 0:18:11.119 What does it trans? Transgender means that they had this, 0:18:12.480 --> 0:18:14.840 I mean, so, so is it considered? I mean, because 0:18:14.840 --> 0:18:18.440 you know it's it's real specific trans woman and trans man. 0:18:18.560 --> 0:18:21.200 So which would it be trans woman because you're trying 0:18:21.240 --> 0:18:23.200 trying to transition into a woman, would be a trans 0:18:23.200 --> 0:18:26.119 woman okay, And so that's when you first called onto it. 0:18:26.400 --> 0:18:28.840 So after he told you what he told you, then 0:18:28.880 --> 0:18:33.920 I realized that he was following a lot of trans 0:18:33.400 --> 0:18:36.760 woman So that so that, oh so that made you 0:18:36.840 --> 0:18:39.399 think back. You started get back to a lot of ships. 0:18:39.600 --> 0:18:42.080 Remember that time you had told me. He was like, 0:18:42.160 --> 0:18:45.880 oh my god, that explains why he be moaning. He'd 0:18:45.880 --> 0:18:54.400 be like, shame, he shame moaning her name, Like ya 0:18:54.440 --> 0:18:56.840 wanted this dick suck from the bag, Like I ain't 0:18:56.840 --> 0:18:59.040 saying that's gay, but he wanted me to suck his 0:18:59.119 --> 0:19:00.840 dick from the bag, and his but was a little 0:19:00.880 --> 0:19:03.159 hurt and like took my nose almost sneezed at his 0:19:03.200 --> 0:19:05.040 ass like it was my god, and that right would 0:19:05.040 --> 0:19:08.000 it felt real good to him sneezing the ness like 0:19:08.119 --> 0:19:15.479 you know that gust of winding Let you know what 0:19:15.480 --> 0:19:20.119 I mean that probably feeling don't don't go sneeze in 0:19:20.119 --> 0:19:23.720 the n assholes. We were going through the phone and 0:19:23.760 --> 0:19:28.440 then we were fucking quote unquote monsters to everyone. They 0:19:28.440 --> 0:19:30.879 felt like we were being Internet bullies, like we were 0:19:30.920 --> 0:19:33.440 being Internet bullies. Like I'm not being an Internet bully. 0:19:34.080 --> 0:19:38.439 We are not being Internet bullies. I tried to reconcile 0:19:38.840 --> 0:19:41.199 with this man. I tried to get him too. I 0:19:41.240 --> 0:19:44.680 came to him calmly, calm, cool and collected. I came 0:19:44.760 --> 0:19:48.119 to him calm, cool and collect, and I just wanted 0:19:48.240 --> 0:19:51.600 to just get checked out. He did not want to 0:19:51.600 --> 0:19:54.320 get checked out, Like are you scared? Like at this point, 0:19:54.359 --> 0:19:56.040 like now, nigger, I have to put you out there. 0:19:56.920 --> 0:20:00.520 And and he kept telling people I was mine, So 0:20:00.600 --> 0:20:03.359 that made me and I'm like, oh, no, funk, no, 0:20:03.520 --> 0:20:05.080 you know, And like I said, y'all, keep in mind, 0:20:05.160 --> 0:20:07.479 this is five years ago. I was way less mature. 0:20:07.960 --> 0:20:10.280 I was like hitting for the belt, nigger, I mean 0:20:10.560 --> 0:20:13.000 hitting below the belt because this nigga was like really 0:20:13.040 --> 0:20:15.520 acting like he hadn't just told me that. And I'm like, Yo, 0:20:15.840 --> 0:20:18.240 this ship don't even gonna be like this, you motherfucker, 0:20:18.240 --> 0:20:21.439 Why would you do that? Like he had my sister 0:20:21.600 --> 0:20:25.480 fighting behind this ship and everything. He literally I'm sitting 0:20:25.480 --> 0:20:28.840 at this little little restaurant bar lounge that you know, 0:20:28.880 --> 0:20:31.600 it was like like a neighborhood cheers or whatever. I'm 0:20:31.600 --> 0:20:33.800 sitting there. I had these two girls walk up on 0:20:33.960 --> 0:20:37.119 me like hey, you ain't v and I'm like, I 0:20:37.240 --> 0:20:39.159 got a chicken wing in my fing between my fingers, 0:20:39.240 --> 0:20:41.399 like you're sucking it up. I ain't need get a 0:20:41.440 --> 0:20:44.080