1 00:00:00,160 --> 00:00:03,120 Speaker 1: Welcome to Carefully Reckless, the production of Our Heart Radio 2 00:00:03,240 --> 00:00:07,840 Speaker 1: and the Black Effect. I still a nice still aspect, 3 00:00:08,320 --> 00:00:21,320 Speaker 1: I still aspect, nice still ask still still, and I'm 4 00:00:21,360 --> 00:00:23,880 Speaker 1: back with another Carefully Reckless episode. It is your girl, 5 00:00:23,960 --> 00:00:26,160 Speaker 1: just hilarry, guess and listen. I got my sister back. 6 00:00:26,160 --> 00:00:28,880 Speaker 1: I told her she was coming back. Say I'm here again, y'all, 7 00:00:29,360 --> 00:00:31,120 Speaker 1: all right, so listen. She didn't know that I was 8 00:00:31,120 --> 00:00:33,440 Speaker 1: gonna do this, but I usually do story time. And 9 00:00:33,440 --> 00:00:35,559 Speaker 1: then I asked you all questions, and you know, I 10 00:00:35,640 --> 00:00:37,559 Speaker 1: get you all feedback and all that ship, but we're 11 00:00:37,560 --> 00:00:39,919 Speaker 1: gonna jump straight into this right here. I ain't even 12 00:00:40,000 --> 00:00:46,400 Speaker 1: letting her know what the topic is. One day, like 13 00:00:46,760 --> 00:00:50,640 Speaker 1: my sister was dating this guy, right, everything was cool. 14 00:00:50,760 --> 00:00:53,800 Speaker 1: You know. He got close with my niece, my nephew, 15 00:00:54,160 --> 00:00:56,200 Speaker 1: my and the reason why I say I have two nieces, 16 00:00:56,200 --> 00:00:58,440 Speaker 1: but nobody ever gets close to the middle baby. Like 17 00:00:58,480 --> 00:01:00,520 Speaker 1: my middle baby is Zoe. She's two. We ourselves. You 18 00:01:00,560 --> 00:01:03,680 Speaker 1: don't funk with nobody but herself, and that's what it is. Um. 19 00:01:03,760 --> 00:01:06,800 Speaker 1: He got close to my younger, my youngest niece. You know, 20 00:01:06,840 --> 00:01:10,200 Speaker 1: she's very impressionable. She reminds me of myself and Rudy Huxable. 21 00:01:10,480 --> 00:01:14,440 Speaker 1: So like baby Nugget is very just just oh my god, 22 00:01:14,520 --> 00:01:18,039 Speaker 1: that's a kid that you want to be around, like yes, 23 00:01:18,280 --> 00:01:21,440 Speaker 1: like lovy and clingy. Yes. So she actually was really 24 00:01:21,440 --> 00:01:24,680 Speaker 1: really like close with him, like she was cool, and 25 00:01:24,959 --> 00:01:27,120 Speaker 1: he was coming around a lot doing everything, right, I'm 26 00:01:27,120 --> 00:01:29,920 Speaker 1: talking about this nigga was like doing house chores. He 27 00:01:29,959 --> 00:01:31,520 Speaker 1: still had a job and everything, but he would like 28 00:01:31,560 --> 00:01:35,520 Speaker 1: come over to my sister's house and like take care 29 00:01:35,560 --> 00:01:37,280 Speaker 1: of the house and put the kids, help and put 30 00:01:37,319 --> 00:01:42,560 Speaker 1: the kids down and everything right. And we talk about, yeah, 31 00:01:42,600 --> 00:01:47,080 Speaker 1: I'm straight out because yeah, since we we know for 32 00:01:47,200 --> 00:01:52,360 Speaker 1: putting each other out there like that. Um. Yeah. So 33 00:01:52,360 --> 00:01:55,920 Speaker 1: so one particular day and then they were dealing with 34 00:01:55,920 --> 00:01:58,640 Speaker 1: each other for like like months, you know, like this 35 00:01:58,760 --> 00:02:01,680 Speaker 1: was like four like for or five months or five 36 00:02:01,680 --> 00:02:04,880 Speaker 1: months maybe, Yeah, And one particular day, like I got 37 00:02:04,920 --> 00:02:06,920 Speaker 1: close to him, to you, like, I started calling him brother. 38 00:02:06,960 --> 00:02:08,600 Speaker 1: You know how it is when your sister dates or 39 00:02:08,639 --> 00:02:11,640 Speaker 1: your brother dates you, you you adopt the person that 40 00:02:11,680 --> 00:02:13,480 Speaker 1: they're working with, you know what I mean. So I 41 00:02:13,520 --> 00:02:15,480 Speaker 1: was calling them bro. He had called me one day 42 00:02:15,480 --> 00:02:18,160 Speaker 1: and he was like, yo, I have um something serious 43 00:02:18,160 --> 00:02:21,399 Speaker 1: to tell you, and I'm like, yo, what's up? You good? 44 00:02:21,600 --> 00:02:24,480 Speaker 1: You know? And he was like yeah, like it's it's 45 00:02:24,520 --> 00:02:26,320 Speaker 1: not regular, So you need to call me when you 46 00:02:26,400 --> 00:02:28,120 Speaker 1: and I was out somewhere and so I was like, 47 00:02:28,200 --> 00:02:30,400 Speaker 1: he was like, you call me when you're you're away. 48 00:02:30,440 --> 00:02:32,480 Speaker 1: I'm like, yo, and you know what that is. But 49 00:02:32,560 --> 00:02:34,200 Speaker 1: when I feel like somebody got some tea like that, 50 00:02:34,240 --> 00:02:36,280 Speaker 1: like you can't tell me wherever I'm at. I need 51 00:02:36,280 --> 00:02:38,280 Speaker 1: to be sitting down and all that ship. I'm gonna 52 00:02:38,400 --> 00:02:40,080 Speaker 1: leave wherever man, I don't give an Well. I was 53 00:02:40,120 --> 00:02:41,560 Speaker 1: with like a nigger too and something. He had some 54 00:02:41,600 --> 00:02:44,399 Speaker 1: money child, but I said, okay, somethee. So I went 55 00:02:44,440 --> 00:02:48,480 Speaker 1: in the house and um, I called him and he 56 00:02:49,080 --> 00:02:51,440 Speaker 1: before that he texts you remember he had texted you 57 00:02:51,520 --> 00:02:53,760 Speaker 1: because you told him you was busy. He was like 58 00:02:53,840 --> 00:02:55,640 Speaker 1: just text me or something. Yeah, but he was like 59 00:02:55,760 --> 00:02:57,600 Speaker 1: I couln't. I can't text you like this. And I 60 00:02:57,639 --> 00:02:59,400 Speaker 1: told him to call me and I was out, so 61 00:02:59,600 --> 00:03:01,360 Speaker 1: he was like, no, this ain't nothing that I can 62 00:03:01,480 --> 00:03:02,600 Speaker 1: you know what I mean? So I went home and 63 00:03:02,680 --> 00:03:04,960 Speaker 1: I called him and I was like, yo, what's up. 64 00:03:05,400 --> 00:03:06,760 Speaker 1: He was like, I'm gonna call you. Want to get off. 65 00:03:06,800 --> 00:03:08,320 Speaker 1: I'm like, damn, I could have stayed with the nigga. 66 00:03:08,400 --> 00:03:11,440 Speaker 1: So he he ended up calling me later and ship 67 00:03:11,520 --> 00:03:16,160 Speaker 1: and he was like, yo, so I don't know why 68 00:03:16,200 --> 00:03:18,360 Speaker 1: I feel this way. I don't know why I'm even 69 00:03:18,400 --> 00:03:24,720 Speaker 1: this way, but like I have like feelings for niggas, 70 00:03:24,800 --> 00:03:26,920 Speaker 1: like and I'm like saying, you know, he said he 71 00:03:26,960 --> 00:03:33,600 Speaker 1: has a urge urge for yes every once in a while, 72 00:03:33,639 --> 00:03:37,520 Speaker 1: That's what he said. Yeah, so but he texts that. Remember, no, 73 00:03:37,720 --> 00:03:40,120 Speaker 1: he didn't text it right now, Yes he did because 74 00:03:40,160 --> 00:03:42,880 Speaker 1: he had just made the screenshots. Oh, Ship, all right 75 00:03:42,920 --> 00:03:44,920 Speaker 1: with it? Maybe now now, I'm sorry, y'all, this is 76 00:03:44,960 --> 00:03:46,760 Speaker 1: like a good screen how many years ago? This was 77 00:03:46,800 --> 00:03:50,120 Speaker 1: like years and years ago? Okay, all right, so this 78 00:03:50,200 --> 00:03:52,600 Speaker 1: is five years ago, y'all. I'm sorry. You definitely had 79 00:03:52,600 --> 00:03:55,040 Speaker 1: the screenshots. Remember, he was like, oh, she made him up. 80 00:03:55,120 --> 00:03:58,800 Speaker 1: He was like, I don't even feel like like, I 81 00:03:58,840 --> 00:04:00,800 Speaker 1: don't make up screens shots. Now. I might make a 82 00:04:00,800 --> 00:04:02,920 Speaker 1: fake page and and harass your motherer, but I ain't 83 00:04:02,960 --> 00:04:04,920 Speaker 1: gonna make up some screenshots now. I didn't even know 84 00:04:04,920 --> 00:04:07,080 Speaker 1: how to do that back non or whatever. So his 85 00:04:07,200 --> 00:04:12,280 Speaker 1: ass had admitted to me that he was bisexual. You know, 86 00:04:12,400 --> 00:04:14,720 Speaker 1: he said, I just have these feelings for men, but 87 00:04:14,760 --> 00:04:17,760 Speaker 1: not just any men. I have a thing like a 88 00:04:17,800 --> 00:04:22,160 Speaker 1: fetish for trannies. And I'm like what he said, Yeah, 89 00:04:22,240 --> 00:04:26,120 Speaker 1: like I'm attracted the trans and then get dumbass, was like, 90 00:04:26,680 --> 00:04:30,039 Speaker 1: so like you like the ones that had the surgery 91 00:04:30,160 --> 00:04:33,640 Speaker 1: or the ones that still got the dicks? Y? Yeah 92 00:04:33,720 --> 00:04:37,000 Speaker 1: you are you are you attracted the transsexuals or transgender? 93 00:04:37,200 --> 00:04:39,800 Speaker 1: My my mother? You know what I'm saying that he 94 00:04:39,920 --> 00:04:44,159 Speaker 1: was like, he said, he said, um, this nigga gonna 95 00:04:44,160 --> 00:04:47,280 Speaker 1: say if they had the surgery, I might as well 96 00:04:47,320 --> 00:04:49,520 Speaker 1: just be with a woman. He was like, if they 97 00:04:49,520 --> 00:04:51,880 Speaker 1: are transgender, Yeah, like if they had the surgery to 98 00:04:51,920 --> 00:04:54,120 Speaker 1: have a pussy, then that might as well just be 99 00:04:54,400 --> 00:04:57,039 Speaker 1: you know, straight, always straight, and just with a girl. 100 00:04:57,200 --> 00:04:59,200 Speaker 1: And I'm saying with this dumb girl, she's gonna say 101 00:04:59,200 --> 00:05:01,320 Speaker 1: so like what you do with to dick? Like yeah, 102 00:05:01,440 --> 00:05:03,760 Speaker 1: like what do you do? You know? So I'm trying 103 00:05:03,800 --> 00:05:06,839 Speaker 1: to get you know, and this is five years ago. 104 00:05:07,000 --> 00:05:10,080 Speaker 1: I was not as mature as I am now, and 105 00:05:10,160 --> 00:05:12,920 Speaker 1: ship and I you know, and I'm just like yo, 106 00:05:13,200 --> 00:05:15,560 Speaker 1: I mean I just couldn't believe what I was hearing him, Like, Yo, 107 00:05:15,640 --> 00:05:19,680 Speaker 1: my sister's boyfriend is telling that he is attracted to 108 00:05:19,760 --> 00:05:23,040 Speaker 1: men as well as my sister, and I'm just like, yo, okay. 109 00:05:23,080 --> 00:05:26,960 Speaker 1: So after we got past all that, you know, the 110 00:05:26,960 --> 00:05:29,600 Speaker 1: hooplah of it all, I was like, okay, are you 111 00:05:29,680 --> 00:05:32,320 Speaker 1: going to tell her? And he was like, hell yeah yo, 112 00:05:32,360 --> 00:05:34,440 Speaker 1: but I just had to tell you first. I'm like, okay, well, 113 00:05:34,440 --> 00:05:38,080 Speaker 1: what the funk made you tell me and not your 114 00:05:38,120 --> 00:05:40,440 Speaker 1: girlfriend first? You know, he was just like, what the 115 00:05:40,440 --> 00:05:43,320 Speaker 1: funk you mean? That bit should killed me? And listen, 116 00:05:44,520 --> 00:05:47,440 Speaker 1: this ain't only five years later of maturity for me. 117 00:05:47,560 --> 00:05:50,760 Speaker 1: This is five years of whosa for her too, Because 118 00:05:51,200 --> 00:05:53,760 Speaker 1: my sister, of our shade is she used to be 119 00:05:53,880 --> 00:05:56,800 Speaker 1: very temperamental. She was like, you know what I mean, 120 00:05:57,080 --> 00:05:59,920 Speaker 1: it is what it is, Dr Jacko and Mr had Honey, 121 00:06:00,080 --> 00:06:04,839 Speaker 1: that's who she Yes, yes, she definitely I calmed down. 122 00:06:05,080 --> 00:06:11,719 Speaker 1: Was a diagnosed schizophrenic. All right. Only two people lived 123 00:06:11,720 --> 00:06:13,520 Speaker 1: in my band. I thought it was a bunch, but 124 00:06:13,720 --> 00:06:15,839 Speaker 1: you know, because I know more than anybody, and I 125 00:06:15,920 --> 00:06:19,560 Speaker 1: swear as more than two. But you know, she was 126 00:06:19,600 --> 00:06:24,520 Speaker 1: a diagnosed bipolar patient and she would show these you know, 127 00:06:24,680 --> 00:06:29,279 Speaker 1: certain triggers would get her going, and he was afraid 128 00:06:29,360 --> 00:06:32,360 Speaker 1: to tell her, and of course rightfully, so I do understand. 129 00:06:32,400 --> 00:06:34,760 Speaker 1: So I was like, yo, I'm gonna give you some 130 00:06:34,839 --> 00:06:36,520 Speaker 1: time to tell her, because he was just like, Yo, 131 00:06:37,080 --> 00:06:38,360 Speaker 1: I want to tell her, but I'm not gonna tell 132 00:06:38,360 --> 00:06:40,480 Speaker 1: he like tonight, I'm like when you need to tell 133 00:06:40,520 --> 00:06:42,719 Speaker 1: her because you just told her little sister and my 134 00:06:42,839 --> 00:06:46,320 Speaker 1: loyalty is to her. And also, this ain't just ain't 135 00:06:46,360 --> 00:06:49,200 Speaker 1: this ain't no regular ship. You feel me like, are 136 00:06:49,240 --> 00:06:54,119 Speaker 1: you having sex with these you know men? And he's like, yeah, 137 00:06:53,680 --> 00:06:58,440 Speaker 1: I am too. I'm like, yo, because you are having 138 00:06:58,440 --> 00:07:00,479 Speaker 1: sex with my sister. You're in an act of a 139 00:07:00,520 --> 00:07:04,479 Speaker 1: sexually active relationship with my sister, Nigga. This ain't no 140 00:07:04,560 --> 00:07:06,760 Speaker 1: stranger nothing like I don't know her through you, ni, 141 00:07:06,960 --> 00:07:10,440 Speaker 1: I know you through her. So she's the most important 142 00:07:10,440 --> 00:07:14,880 Speaker 1: to me, you know. And so he was honest about everything. 143 00:07:14,920 --> 00:07:18,240 Speaker 1: He was like, yes, I do have sex with men, 144 00:07:18,360 --> 00:07:21,120 Speaker 1: and I'm like, okay, when's the last time? And he 145 00:07:21,200 --> 00:07:24,120 Speaker 1: was like like he started a little bit, like I 146 00:07:24,120 --> 00:07:26,080 Speaker 1: mean like he stopped a little bit, he paused, and 147 00:07:26,120 --> 00:07:28,560 Speaker 1: he didn't want to tell me, but he it was 148 00:07:28,960 --> 00:07:31,840 Speaker 1: more recent than the fund it should have been, you know, 149 00:07:32,200 --> 00:07:35,360 Speaker 1: and it was in the earlier stages of him dating 150 00:07:35,400 --> 00:07:38,480 Speaker 1: my sister, and um, he was telling me like he's 151 00:07:38,520 --> 00:07:41,360 Speaker 1: basically like since he like really really got a fishal 152 00:07:41,360 --> 00:07:42,800 Speaker 1: and realized that he fell in love with my sister, 153 00:07:42,880 --> 00:07:46,920 Speaker 1: that he's tried to fight these urges off. It doesn't work. 154 00:07:47,000 --> 00:07:49,440 Speaker 1: Their research and it's like men all around the world 155 00:07:49,480 --> 00:07:53,400 Speaker 1: that deal with the same thing. Yeah, yeah, and I'm 156 00:07:53,440 --> 00:07:57,480 Speaker 1: just like listening, Yeah, we know that, but I'm responsible 157 00:07:57,520 --> 00:07:59,520 Speaker 1: for my sister. That's it, you know what I'm saying. 158 00:07:59,760 --> 00:08:02,120 Speaker 1: You're not all the men around the world. You're one 159 00:08:02,160 --> 00:08:05,520 Speaker 1: man that's dealing with you know, this problem or you know. 160 00:08:05,720 --> 00:08:08,120 Speaker 1: And it was a problem for him because that's that's why. 161 00:08:08,600 --> 00:08:10,080 Speaker 1: And then the reason why it was a problem for 162 00:08:10,120 --> 00:08:12,760 Speaker 1: me is because you're not giving her a choice. You know, 163 00:08:12,840 --> 00:08:14,960 Speaker 1: you knew you had these feelings from men you knew. 164 00:08:15,280 --> 00:08:18,320 Speaker 1: And although coming out is not an easy process, you're 165 00:08:18,440 --> 00:08:21,840 Speaker 1: still being selfish. Like you're still being selfish, you know, 166 00:08:22,000 --> 00:08:24,680 Speaker 1: and and and always I don't give a funk you're 167 00:08:24,720 --> 00:08:27,000 Speaker 1: being selfish. Um, because she has the right to know 168 00:08:27,040 --> 00:08:31,080 Speaker 1: that she's fucking a guy who Fox guys. So he 169 00:08:31,200 --> 00:08:33,200 Speaker 1: was like, yo, just give me like a day. I said, 170 00:08:33,200 --> 00:08:35,000 Speaker 1: all right, that means You're gonna tell her tomorrow, right, 171 00:08:35,520 --> 00:08:37,200 Speaker 1: And he was like yeah, yeah, yah, yeah, I'm gonna 172 00:08:37,200 --> 00:08:39,600 Speaker 1: telling when I get off tomorrow or whatever. Can you 173 00:08:39,720 --> 00:08:41,960 Speaker 1: be there. I'm like how yeah? He was like yeah, 174 00:08:41,960 --> 00:08:43,800 Speaker 1: because I know she's gonna start swinging, she's gonna go 175 00:08:43,840 --> 00:08:48,400 Speaker 1: to fuck off, she's gonna go crazy. Please. So next 176 00:08:48,480 --> 00:08:52,840 Speaker 1: day came and now imagine me as a little sister, 177 00:08:53,440 --> 00:08:56,240 Speaker 1: like I talked to this girl every fucking day. I'm 178 00:08:56,280 --> 00:08:59,560 Speaker 1: with her all day every day, and it's like, um so, 179 00:08:59,600 --> 00:09:02,200 Speaker 1: now I feel bad because I'm hiding something like but 180 00:09:02,280 --> 00:09:04,920 Speaker 1: I'm not really hiding. I'm waiting for this nigga to 181 00:09:05,000 --> 00:09:06,400 Speaker 1: do what the fun he said he was gonna do 182 00:09:07,280 --> 00:09:10,040 Speaker 1: this nigga gets off work, I'm calling him to see 183 00:09:10,040 --> 00:09:15,360 Speaker 1: what the funk going on? Hain't answering. I called my sister, Hey, Yo, 184 00:09:15,880 --> 00:09:19,440 Speaker 1: is Yo there? She like, no, he ain't come over. Yeah, 185 00:09:19,760 --> 00:09:23,440 Speaker 1: I ain't really talked to him today. Oh why so 186 00:09:23,520 --> 00:09:28,160 Speaker 1: you're chickening out now pretty much? And so I kept 187 00:09:28,160 --> 00:09:30,880 Speaker 1: blowing his sucking phone up, I said yo, And I 188 00:09:30,920 --> 00:09:33,280 Speaker 1: finally text him. I said, Yo, I'm ready to tell him. 189 00:09:33,360 --> 00:09:34,960 Speaker 1: That's when he called me back. He was like, Yo, 190 00:09:35,400 --> 00:09:36,839 Speaker 1: this ship is not easy. I need for you to 191 00:09:36,920 --> 00:09:38,640 Speaker 1: understand you. This ship is not easy. Can I tell 192 00:09:38,640 --> 00:09:43,320 Speaker 1: her tomorrow? What did I let him stow it again? 193 00:09:44,640 --> 00:09:51,280 Speaker 1: Like he was like, no, nigga, like no, like said yeah, yeah, yeah, 194 00:09:51,320 --> 00:09:52,679 Speaker 1: I was gonna say. I don't remember if I gave 195 00:09:52,760 --> 00:09:54,800 Speaker 1: him another day, but I definitely gave him that one 196 00:09:54,880 --> 00:09:57,600 Speaker 1: day when he asked me the first time. But it's like, nah, y'all, 197 00:09:57,760 --> 00:10:00,040 Speaker 1: I don't know what the fun going on. So I 198 00:10:00,880 --> 00:10:03,880 Speaker 1: told her, first of all, you begged me not to 199 00:10:04,000 --> 00:10:05,920 Speaker 1: go off, like yo, please do not go off on 200 00:10:05,960 --> 00:10:08,720 Speaker 1: this nigga because he is scared. He is scared of you, like, 201 00:10:08,760 --> 00:10:10,920 Speaker 1: do not go off on him. I'm like, like, I 202 00:10:10,960 --> 00:10:12,640 Speaker 1: ain't gonna go off. I ain't gonna go off. So 203 00:10:13,040 --> 00:10:15,280 Speaker 1: he finally and you thought it was another bit the 204 00:10:15,280 --> 00:10:16,920 Speaker 1: whole time you thought I already telling you something about 205 00:10:17,679 --> 00:10:20,600 Speaker 1: Then you're sitting there saying that. So the maturity and 206 00:10:20,679 --> 00:10:22,520 Speaker 1: meat had to kick in and I had to be like, 207 00:10:22,559 --> 00:10:24,800 Speaker 1: all right, you know what, I can't go off on 208 00:10:24,840 --> 00:10:28,480 Speaker 1: this nigga because I need to. I need to make 209 00:10:28,520 --> 00:10:31,280 Speaker 1: sure his health is good. Yeah that right there, and 210 00:10:31,320 --> 00:10:34,760 Speaker 1: then him saying that he wasn't you know fully protecting himself. 211 00:10:34,880 --> 00:10:37,120 Speaker 1: Did admit. He did admit because I did ask him, 212 00:10:37,120 --> 00:10:40,280 Speaker 1: my bay, y' all. So I asked him, I said, yo, um, now, 213 00:10:40,880 --> 00:10:44,840 Speaker 1: if you just had sex with a guy two or 214 00:10:44,880 --> 00:10:49,959 Speaker 1: three months ago, did you use protection? And he was like, 215 00:10:52,040 --> 00:10:53,959 Speaker 1: that's when I knew. I was like, all right, well no, 216 00:10:55,040 --> 00:10:57,160 Speaker 1: he said, sometimes you do. Sometimes. Yeah, he did tell 217 00:10:57,200 --> 00:10:59,840 Speaker 1: me sometimes you use it, sometimes you know, sometimes you don't. 218 00:10:59,840 --> 00:11:02,000 Speaker 1: But he did admit that he did not use protection 219 00:11:02,040 --> 00:11:05,960 Speaker 1: with that last dude. And so I'm like, yo, what 220 00:11:06,000 --> 00:11:08,440 Speaker 1: the funk? That's what had me upset. So that's why 221 00:11:08,480 --> 00:11:10,160 Speaker 1: he was like, Yo, I'm gonna I promise, I'm gonna 222 00:11:10,200 --> 00:11:11,600 Speaker 1: tell her. I just need you to be there. So 223 00:11:11,640 --> 00:11:15,040 Speaker 1: now back fast forward. I told my sister what the 224 00:11:15,080 --> 00:11:20,640 Speaker 1: fun was happening. She had to collect herself. She really did, 225 00:11:21,040 --> 00:11:23,920 Speaker 1: um like it was that that day. I would never 226 00:11:23,920 --> 00:11:27,320 Speaker 1: forget that day. That day was so heart wrenching for 227 00:11:27,360 --> 00:11:29,680 Speaker 1: her because all the things that are going through her 228 00:11:29,720 --> 00:11:34,920 Speaker 1: mind are just tearing her apart because it's like, yo, 229 00:11:35,120 --> 00:11:37,400 Speaker 1: like she couldn't breathe when I told her, like it 230 00:11:37,480 --> 00:11:40,120 Speaker 1: was just like yo. And then imagine having to tell 231 00:11:40,240 --> 00:11:43,160 Speaker 1: your loved one some ship like that. You know, So 232 00:11:43,920 --> 00:11:46,559 Speaker 1: of course she started blowing up his phone sending the 233 00:11:46,640 --> 00:11:49,480 Speaker 1: messages and ship and he already knew that I told 234 00:11:49,520 --> 00:11:52,600 Speaker 1: her by then. So of course this nigga calls me 235 00:11:52,640 --> 00:11:55,800 Speaker 1: from another phone like, YO, you fucking told her? Remember 236 00:11:55,840 --> 00:11:57,920 Speaker 1: he asked me some type of way. He was like, YO, 237 00:11:58,080 --> 00:12:00,840 Speaker 1: you told her already or something like that, and I 238 00:12:00,880 --> 00:12:03,839 Speaker 1: was like, yeah, yeah, yeah, you didn't, and you were 239 00:12:03,880 --> 00:12:06,200 Speaker 1: fucking ignoring me, Like what the funk you mean? I 240 00:12:06,280 --> 00:12:08,240 Speaker 1: told you I would have to tell her. You could 241 00:12:08,280 --> 00:12:11,280 Speaker 1: have told your little sister. Motherfucker, you told her little sister, 242 00:12:11,720 --> 00:12:17,280 Speaker 1: her girlfriend's little sister. So just imagine the pressure I 243 00:12:17,360 --> 00:12:21,640 Speaker 1: was failing, the position I was put in. And yeah, 244 00:12:21,679 --> 00:12:24,640 Speaker 1: that's how the fun that ship with. I had to 245 00:12:24,679 --> 00:12:27,760 Speaker 1: collect myself before I actually got to like really reach 246 00:12:27,840 --> 00:12:29,920 Speaker 1: out reach out to him. And when I reached out 247 00:12:29,920 --> 00:12:32,679 Speaker 1: to him, I was just like, hey, my sister told me. 248 00:12:33,080 --> 00:12:35,480 Speaker 1: You know what you talked to her about. I ain't 249 00:12:35,520 --> 00:12:38,720 Speaker 1: trying to argue, I ain't trying to fuss. I want 250 00:12:38,720 --> 00:12:40,559 Speaker 1: to come pick you up from working when you get 251 00:12:40,559 --> 00:12:42,280 Speaker 1: all work in the morning. I want us to go 252 00:12:42,320 --> 00:12:44,880 Speaker 1: to the clinic. When is the last time you've been tested? 253 00:12:44,960 --> 00:12:46,839 Speaker 1: I want to see some results. I want to get 254 00:12:46,840 --> 00:12:49,719 Speaker 1: tested together. Even if something is going on with me, 255 00:12:50,280 --> 00:12:53,320 Speaker 1: I won't know, but at least I can see what 256 00:12:53,440 --> 00:12:55,800 Speaker 1: your results is. And I'm going to continue to get 257 00:12:56,080 --> 00:13:01,240 Speaker 1: myself tested, you know you periodically, because that's how it works, exactly. 258 00:13:01,280 --> 00:13:03,400 Speaker 1: It just doesn't show up. It don't show it that 259 00:13:03,400 --> 00:13:07,720 Speaker 1: that ship just won't show up sometime. Yeah, he agreed. 260 00:13:08,160 --> 00:13:10,920 Speaker 1: He agreed to go and get tested with me the 261 00:13:11,200 --> 00:13:13,640 Speaker 1: next morning because he worked overnight. He worked overnight shift, 262 00:13:14,240 --> 00:13:16,440 Speaker 1: and he agreed to go with me. So I go 263 00:13:16,520 --> 00:13:18,240 Speaker 1: to his job because I knew what time he got 264 00:13:18,280 --> 00:13:19,720 Speaker 1: off work, because I've been dealing with him for a 265 00:13:19,720 --> 00:13:22,080 Speaker 1: few months. Um. I went to his job. I'm sitting 266 00:13:22,080 --> 00:13:24,400 Speaker 1: out there in the parking lot. I see people walking 267 00:13:24,440 --> 00:13:25,920 Speaker 1: out and I'm like, well, maybe he ain't. You know, 268 00:13:26,960 --> 00:13:29,840 Speaker 1: he ain't come out yet. So I saw a familiar 269 00:13:29,840 --> 00:13:31,920 Speaker 1: face one of his co workers that I've I've given 270 00:13:31,960 --> 00:13:35,360 Speaker 1: a ride to before, and I'm like, hey, um, such 271 00:13:35,400 --> 00:13:37,640 Speaker 1: and such is he still like that? Oh? He left 272 00:13:37,679 --> 00:13:42,400 Speaker 1: last night? He said he had an emergency. I'm like, oh, worry, okay, 273 00:13:42,800 --> 00:13:47,760 Speaker 1: So I called his phone, go straight to voicemail. I'm blocked. 274 00:13:48,360 --> 00:13:53,760 Speaker 1: I go on Facebook, I'm blocked. I go on Instagram, 275 00:13:53,800 --> 00:13:57,160 Speaker 1: I'm blocked. I'm like, oh sorry. So I made a 276 00:13:57,240 --> 00:14:00,200 Speaker 1: page and it's the first time I ever made just 277 00:14:00,240 --> 00:14:03,280 Speaker 1: a page. I mean, I was famous for doing like 278 00:14:03,520 --> 00:14:05,360 Speaker 1: I mean, and granted I wouldn't say it was a 279 00:14:05,360 --> 00:14:07,080 Speaker 1: fake page. I just made a page real quick, just 280 00:14:07,120 --> 00:14:09,800 Speaker 1: so I could reach out to him, and I told 281 00:14:09,880 --> 00:14:13,160 Speaker 1: him like, hey, like, what's what's uping? Like where you at? 282 00:14:13,240 --> 00:14:14,959 Speaker 1: Like you, I feel like you're trying to duck me out. 283 00:14:15,360 --> 00:14:17,720 Speaker 1: He just like, just just leave me alone. I'm like, 284 00:14:17,800 --> 00:14:21,360 Speaker 1: leave you alone, nigga. We we got obligations, like we 285 00:14:21,440 --> 00:14:24,200 Speaker 1: got to go to to the clinics so we can 286 00:14:24,240 --> 00:14:27,320 Speaker 1: see what's going on. Like now, now you're scaring me 287 00:14:27,800 --> 00:14:30,120 Speaker 1: because I feel like you're trying to hide something, Like 288 00:14:30,120 --> 00:14:31,640 Speaker 1: what then is going on with you? Is this something 289 00:14:31,680 --> 00:14:33,280 Speaker 1: that you know about you that you don't want me 290 00:14:33,320 --> 00:14:35,680 Speaker 1: to know about you? Like what is going on? So 291 00:14:35,720 --> 00:14:38,720 Speaker 1: I'm like, look, he like, leave me alone, Leave me alone. 292 00:14:38,720 --> 00:14:41,800 Speaker 1: I like looking you don't say something like I'm gonna 293 00:14:41,800 --> 00:14:43,680 Speaker 1: put you out there like you Yeah, now you're playing 294 00:14:43,680 --> 00:14:46,320 Speaker 1: with me like a game. I came at you calm, 295 00:14:46,440 --> 00:14:50,360 Speaker 1: I came at you very civilized, I came at you 296 00:14:50,400 --> 00:14:52,800 Speaker 1: like an adult when I really wanted to go off. 297 00:14:52,920 --> 00:14:57,320 Speaker 1: I was so shocked and how you handled it, because like, 298 00:14:57,760 --> 00:14:59,560 Speaker 1: even even though I told him that I wanted to 299 00:14:59,560 --> 00:15:03,000 Speaker 1: be there when he told you, I really didn't because like, honestly, 300 00:15:03,440 --> 00:15:05,520 Speaker 1: she would have sucked both of us up. You understand 301 00:15:05,520 --> 00:15:08,720 Speaker 1: what I'm saying. So like I really wanted was like 302 00:15:08,720 --> 00:15:13,240 Speaker 1: what So that's why I say, yo, like I know 303 00:15:14,160 --> 00:15:17,000 Speaker 1: I would have got nigga. So I was like really 304 00:15:17,000 --> 00:15:19,000 Speaker 1: scared to fucking be there as well. That's why I 305 00:15:19,000 --> 00:15:21,080 Speaker 1: was like, I'm glad I got to tell it, because like, no, 306 00:15:21,280 --> 00:15:24,200 Speaker 1: she would have never forgave me for knowing and just 307 00:15:24,280 --> 00:15:30,120 Speaker 1: not saying anything. Hold up, hold up, I know the 308 00:15:30,160 --> 00:15:32,320 Speaker 1: ship getting good, but listen to just a couple of 309 00:15:32,320 --> 00:15:42,440 Speaker 1: seconds of a commercial. If you love me, you'll listen. Yeah, 310 00:15:42,480 --> 00:15:46,360 Speaker 1: go ahead. Yeah, so you said, um, he was like, 311 00:15:46,960 --> 00:15:50,760 Speaker 1: leave leave me alone, basically like he obviously did not 312 00:15:50,920 --> 00:15:53,040 Speaker 1: want to see what the was going on with him 313 00:15:53,040 --> 00:15:56,000 Speaker 1: if he already didn't know what. Yeah, So I started 314 00:15:56,000 --> 00:15:57,480 Speaker 1: reaching out of the bitches that I knew that he 315 00:15:57,520 --> 00:16:00,520 Speaker 1: didn't sucked in the past. I'm like, hey, you know 316 00:16:00,600 --> 00:16:05,240 Speaker 1: this nigga. Niggas and they're like what. I'm like, look, 317 00:16:05,280 --> 00:16:06,920 Speaker 1: I don't know what you know, but I'm telling you 318 00:16:06,960 --> 00:16:09,320 Speaker 1: this because you know, I want you to get checked 319 00:16:09,320 --> 00:16:11,560 Speaker 1: because I'm gonna go get checked. And y'all was dealing 320 00:16:11,600 --> 00:16:13,240 Speaker 1: with him before I was dealing with him, So like, 321 00:16:13,880 --> 00:16:16,239 Speaker 1: when y'all get checked, let me know what y'all papers say. 322 00:16:16,280 --> 00:16:19,520 Speaker 1: Because I'm new to this. Y'all the been there, like 323 00:16:20,000 --> 00:16:22,440 Speaker 1: I need to know. Like he playing, it became a 324 00:16:22,480 --> 00:16:26,480 Speaker 1: whole situation where he was like, oh, they're lying, they're lying, 325 00:16:26,480 --> 00:16:29,760 Speaker 1: they're lying, and him, Yeah, I got him in a 326 00:16:29,800 --> 00:16:33,040 Speaker 1: Facebook group. Remember the guy that ran the Facebook group? 327 00:16:33,520 --> 00:16:34,920 Speaker 1: Um well, A couple of the guys that ran the 328 00:16:34,920 --> 00:16:38,560 Speaker 1: Facebook was like, um well, she shortly says she got 329 00:16:38,600 --> 00:16:42,560 Speaker 1: receipts talking about you. Shortly says she got receipts. They're 330 00:16:42,560 --> 00:16:45,760 Speaker 1: gonna go live going through her phone. We went live 331 00:16:46,320 --> 00:16:50,720 Speaker 1: going through just and see this is his number right here, 332 00:16:51,480 --> 00:16:55,400 Speaker 1: by bye, this is his number, he's saying right here. 333 00:16:56,320 --> 00:17:01,440 Speaker 1: Sometimes I get the urge to blah blah blah. And 334 00:17:01,480 --> 00:17:04,960 Speaker 1: then you touched on the fact that the transgender that 335 00:17:05,160 --> 00:17:09,520 Speaker 1: used to do your head front she wrew awesome head 336 00:17:09,560 --> 00:17:12,479 Speaker 1: solace and everything like that and he was in her 337 00:17:12,560 --> 00:17:17,600 Speaker 1: damn DNA and she's very popular people, very And it's 338 00:17:17,640 --> 00:17:21,119 Speaker 1: crazy because I actually, and I just I had a 339 00:17:21,160 --> 00:17:23,480 Speaker 1: whole flashback of while him and I would lay in 340 00:17:23,520 --> 00:17:26,639 Speaker 1: my bed one day and I'm like, yo, look at 341 00:17:26,640 --> 00:17:30,200 Speaker 1: this person right here. I showed him um Lucy papers, 342 00:17:31,480 --> 00:17:33,200 Speaker 1: and I was like, I was look at this person, 343 00:17:33,720 --> 00:17:35,399 Speaker 1: and he was like, damn, she looked good. I was 344 00:17:35,440 --> 00:17:39,000 Speaker 1: just like, um, you know, um, you know she she 345 00:17:39,160 --> 00:17:41,560 Speaker 1: was born a boy. He was like what, I can't 346 00:17:41,560 --> 00:17:43,000 Speaker 1: even tell. I was like, I know, she looked good 347 00:17:43,000 --> 00:17:46,679 Speaker 1: at ship. The whole time, he already been following Lucy, 348 00:17:47,240 --> 00:17:52,879 Speaker 1: been following Mercy, and Lucy is a bad you know 349 00:17:53,000 --> 00:17:55,000 Speaker 1: for y'all to know, you know, who bought them? Are 350 00:17:55,040 --> 00:17:58,960 Speaker 1: his own? Like definitely, he already knew who she was. 351 00:17:59,320 --> 00:18:01,640 Speaker 1: He knew who she us and come to find out 352 00:18:01,680 --> 00:18:06,840 Speaker 1: he was following he had a vest selection of trans 353 00:18:07,840 --> 00:18:11,119 Speaker 1: What does it trans? Transgender means that they had this, 354 00:18:12,480 --> 00:18:14,840 Speaker 1: I mean, so, so is it considered? I mean, because 355 00:18:14,840 --> 00:18:18,440 Speaker 1: you know it's it's real specific trans woman and trans man. 356 00:18:18,560 --> 00:18:21,200 Speaker 1: So which would it be trans woman because you're trying 357 00:18:21,240 --> 00:18:23,200 Speaker 1: trying to transition into a woman, would be a trans 358 00:18:23,200 --> 00:18:26,119 Speaker 1: woman okay, And so that's when you first called onto it. 359 00:18:26,400 --> 00:18:28,840 Speaker 1: So after he told you what he told you, then 360 00:18:28,880 --> 00:18:33,920 Speaker 1: I realized that he was following a lot of trans 361 00:18:33,400 --> 00:18:36,760 Speaker 1: woman So that so that, oh so that made you 362 00:18:36,840 --> 00:18:39,399 Speaker 1: think back. You started get back to a lot of ships. 363 00:18:39,600 --> 00:18:42,080 Speaker 1: Remember that time you had told me. He was like, 364 00:18:42,160 --> 00:18:45,880 Speaker 1: oh my god, that explains why he be moaning. He'd 365 00:18:45,880 --> 00:18:54,400 Speaker 1: be like, shame, he shame moaning her name, Like ya 366 00:18:54,440 --> 00:18:56,840 Speaker 1: wanted this dick suck from the bag, Like I ain't 367 00:18:56,840 --> 00:18:59,040 Speaker 1: saying that's gay, but he wanted me to suck his 368 00:18:59,119 --> 00:19:00,840 Speaker 1: dick from the bag, and his but was a little 369 00:19:00,880 --> 00:19:03,159 Speaker 1: hurt and like took my nose almost sneezed at his 370 00:19:03,200 --> 00:19:05,040 Speaker 1: ass like it was my god, and that right would 371 00:19:05,040 --> 00:19:08,000 Speaker 1: it felt real good to him sneezing the ness like 372 00:19:08,119 --> 00:19:15,479 Speaker 1: you know that gust of winding Let you know what 373 00:19:15,480 --> 00:19:20,119 Speaker 1: I mean that probably feeling don't don't go sneeze in 374 00:19:20,119 --> 00:19:23,720 Speaker 1: the n assholes. We were going through the phone and 375 00:19:23,760 --> 00:19:28,440 Speaker 1: then we were fucking quote unquote monsters to everyone. They 376 00:19:28,440 --> 00:19:30,879 Speaker 1: felt like we were being Internet bullies, like we were 377 00:19:30,920 --> 00:19:33,440 Speaker 1: being Internet bullies. Like I'm not being an Internet bully. 378 00:19:34,080 --> 00:19:38,439 Speaker 1: We are not being Internet bullies. I tried to reconcile 379 00:19:38,840 --> 00:19:41,199 Speaker 1: with this man. I tried to get him too. I 380 00:19:41,240 --> 00:19:44,680 Speaker 1: came to him calmly, calm, cool and collected. I came 381 00:19:44,760 --> 00:19:48,119 Speaker 1: to him calm, cool and collect, and I just wanted 382 00:19:48,240 --> 00:19:51,600 Speaker 1: to just get checked out. He did not want to 383 00:19:51,600 --> 00:19:54,320 Speaker 1: get checked out, Like are you scared? Like at this point, 384 00:19:54,359 --> 00:19:56,040 Speaker 1: like now, nigger, I have to put you out there. 385 00:19:56,920 --> 00:20:00,520 Speaker 1: And and he kept telling people I was mine, So 386 00:20:00,600 --> 00:20:03,359 Speaker 1: that made me and I'm like, oh, no, funk, no, 387 00:20:03,520 --> 00:20:05,080 Speaker 1: you know, And like I said, y'all, keep in mind, 388 00:20:05,160 --> 00:20:07,479 Speaker 1: this is five years ago. I was way less mature. 389 00:20:07,960 --> 00:20:10,280 Speaker 1: I was like hitting for the belt, nigger, I mean 390 00:20:10,560 --> 00:20:13,000 Speaker 1: hitting below the belt because this nigga was like really 391 00:20:13,040 --> 00:20:15,520 Speaker 1: acting like he hadn't just told me that. And I'm like, Yo, 392 00:20:15,840 --> 00:20:18,240 Speaker 1: this ship don't even gonna be like this, you motherfucker, 393 00:20:18,240 --> 00:20:21,439 Speaker 1: Why would you do that? Like he had my sister 394 00:20:21,600 --> 00:20:25,480 Speaker 1: fighting behind this ship and everything. He literally I'm sitting 395 00:20:25,480 --> 00:20:28,840 Speaker 1: at this little little restaurant bar lounge that you know, 396 00:20:28,880 --> 00:20:31,600 Speaker 1: it was like like a neighborhood cheers or whatever. I'm 397 00:20:31,600 --> 00:20:33,800 Speaker 1: sitting there. I had these two girls walk up on 398 00:20:33,960 --> 00:20:37,119 Speaker 1: me like hey, you ain't v and I'm like, I 399 00:20:37,240 --> 00:20:39,159 Speaker 1: got a chicken wing in my fing between my fingers, 400 00:20:39,240 --> 00:20:41,399 Speaker 1: like you're sucking it up. I ain't need get a 401 00:20:41,440 --> 00:20:44,080 Speaker 1: chance to suck it up. That was the first wing, 402 00:20:44,240 --> 00:20:45,840 Speaker 1: and they up on me. When I had the first 403 00:20:46,119 --> 00:20:48,879 Speaker 1: wing in my hand, I'm like between my finger you know, 404 00:20:48,880 --> 00:20:50,720 Speaker 1: I love the drumsticks, so I had a little drumstick 405 00:20:50,720 --> 00:20:53,040 Speaker 1: in my hand, like you know, and I'm like, yeah, 406 00:20:53,119 --> 00:20:56,800 Speaker 1: you know, that's that's my name. Like I'm looking at them, 407 00:20:56,800 --> 00:20:58,760 Speaker 1: not sizing them up, but just looking at him, like 408 00:20:58,960 --> 00:21:00,879 Speaker 1: do I know, y'all? Do know? This girl was like 409 00:21:01,160 --> 00:21:04,640 Speaker 1: these these faces were totally unfamiliar. Like the one girl 410 00:21:04,680 --> 00:21:06,720 Speaker 1: was like, yeah, I would drag you, but I like 411 00:21:06,800 --> 00:21:08,320 Speaker 1: coming head. I was like, well, I like coming here too. 412 00:21:08,320 --> 00:21:10,639 Speaker 1: We can go on the park a lot. She was 413 00:21:10,680 --> 00:21:13,480 Speaker 1: a big bitch. I wasn't you woke up to maybe 414 00:21:13,480 --> 00:21:16,200 Speaker 1: like I would like dragging you, but I like coming ahead, bitch, 415 00:21:16,200 --> 00:21:18,439 Speaker 1: So why the fund is you even overhere? Like I 416 00:21:18,440 --> 00:21:20,920 Speaker 1: guess she was trying to be intimidating. I don't want 417 00:21:21,000 --> 00:21:23,480 Speaker 1: to let you know. She did, and like I guess 418 00:21:23,520 --> 00:21:25,560 Speaker 1: trying to trying to scare me. But I'm just like, look, 419 00:21:25,600 --> 00:21:28,119 Speaker 1: we can go. I was like a little bad baby, 420 00:21:28,240 --> 00:21:31,240 Speaker 1: catch me outside there. You girl. And so we went 421 00:21:31,280 --> 00:21:34,480 Speaker 1: outside and like I said, she was big and I 422 00:21:34,600 --> 00:21:36,840 Speaker 1: wasn't that small, and that ship was like a fucking 423 00:21:36,880 --> 00:21:39,160 Speaker 1: I swear it looked like a fucking SMO wrestling match 424 00:21:39,200 --> 00:21:41,760 Speaker 1: or something because it really wasn't even a fight. It 425 00:21:41,840 --> 00:21:45,160 Speaker 1: was like like I hit a few times and I 426 00:21:45,200 --> 00:21:46,679 Speaker 1: guess she was trying to hit me. I don't know 427 00:21:46,760 --> 00:21:49,919 Speaker 1: it was she was drunk. I wasn't. It was. It 428 00:21:50,000 --> 00:21:52,640 Speaker 1: was just a mess. And then I'm sitting there trying 429 00:21:52,640 --> 00:21:54,520 Speaker 1: to figure out, like, why is all of this happening? 430 00:21:54,560 --> 00:21:56,320 Speaker 1: Like at the same time I'm doing all it's like, wait, 431 00:21:56,359 --> 00:21:57,920 Speaker 1: why the fund is this even going on? Why is 432 00:21:57,960 --> 00:22:00,520 Speaker 1: this going on? Come to find out it was him 433 00:22:00,560 --> 00:22:04,280 Speaker 1: that's sent her because he was hiding out at her house. Yeah, 434 00:22:04,400 --> 00:22:06,680 Speaker 1: but remember he had said that ship. Oh I didn't 435 00:22:06,680 --> 00:22:08,639 Speaker 1: know that he was hiding out to her. But remember 436 00:22:08,640 --> 00:22:11,600 Speaker 1: he was like, um, them bitches lying, they're fucking lying. 437 00:22:11,640 --> 00:22:13,640 Speaker 1: There don't know. People get killed for that type of ship. 438 00:22:13,640 --> 00:22:15,480 Speaker 1: That's why I'm gonna have my cousin slapped the shut 439 00:22:15,480 --> 00:22:18,240 Speaker 1: out of Oh. Yeah. He was saying, gonna put money 440 00:22:18,240 --> 00:22:19,760 Speaker 1: on your head, and he was like, nigga, what money? 441 00:22:19,840 --> 00:22:21,560 Speaker 1: You don't even have no fucking money. This is the 442 00:22:21,560 --> 00:22:27,119 Speaker 1: thing all kids and Ship. There's no no more child 443 00:22:27,359 --> 00:22:29,639 Speaker 1: I'm talking about. He was man. We he said, we 444 00:22:29,640 --> 00:22:31,359 Speaker 1: got him put out of his house. He was living 445 00:22:31,400 --> 00:22:34,760 Speaker 1: with one of his homeboys, and Ship. We kept coming 446 00:22:34,800 --> 00:22:36,439 Speaker 1: over there like no, Yo, you need to go to 447 00:22:36,480 --> 00:22:40,440 Speaker 1: the doctor's like you And the bucking cousin was like, Yo, 448 00:22:40,600 --> 00:22:44,000 Speaker 1: look you gotta get the funk out on rom and Yo, 449 00:22:44,160 --> 00:22:45,640 Speaker 1: you you gotta go. I don't know what you got 450 00:22:45,640 --> 00:22:48,159 Speaker 1: going on, nigga saying you're gay and ship, Like I 451 00:22:48,160 --> 00:22:50,080 Speaker 1: don't really even kid if you're gat not you just 452 00:22:50,119 --> 00:22:53,080 Speaker 1: got a lot of drama. I want you out. So 453 00:22:53,960 --> 00:22:56,439 Speaker 1: people go on line and say little shit or you know, 454 00:22:56,600 --> 00:22:58,879 Speaker 1: he would have other people saying ship for him, and 455 00:22:58,920 --> 00:23:01,679 Speaker 1: I'm telling you, I'm like, oh, like where you cannot 456 00:23:01,720 --> 00:23:05,560 Speaker 1: win the internet battle, not with me, not five years ago, 457 00:23:05,680 --> 00:23:08,800 Speaker 1: not now. You can't. You just it's such a class back. 458 00:23:09,520 --> 00:23:13,520 Speaker 1: Just can't do that ship, especially if you line like 459 00:23:13,880 --> 00:23:18,360 Speaker 1: and I got receipts, like, cannot do that, Like Yo, 460 00:23:18,440 --> 00:23:20,159 Speaker 1: it don't even got I kept saying that, like you 461 00:23:20,280 --> 00:23:22,240 Speaker 1: don't even gotta be like they didn't even have to 462 00:23:22,280 --> 00:23:24,840 Speaker 1: be like this, like you fucking lied. You just didn't, 463 00:23:25,160 --> 00:23:27,840 Speaker 1: you know. So all of that ship happened, and then 464 00:23:27,880 --> 00:23:30,960 Speaker 1: this nigga ends up married to that he is married. 465 00:23:32,119 --> 00:23:34,600 Speaker 1: He married this girl I went to school high school with. 466 00:23:35,880 --> 00:23:37,960 Speaker 1: And I asked one of my friends, I'm like, yo, 467 00:23:38,880 --> 00:23:42,600 Speaker 1: he married such and such, Like you think I should 468 00:23:42,600 --> 00:23:44,280 Speaker 1: say something? He was like, I think you just need 469 00:23:44,280 --> 00:23:47,359 Speaker 1: to mind your business because you know, already went through 470 00:23:47,480 --> 00:23:49,680 Speaker 1: enough ship with that situation. And I was just like, 471 00:23:50,320 --> 00:23:52,160 Speaker 1: I'm glad you told me that. I feel like that's 472 00:23:52,160 --> 00:23:53,920 Speaker 1: the best advice you ever gave me, because I felt 473 00:23:53,960 --> 00:23:56,240 Speaker 1: like me and her aren't close or nothing like that, 474 00:23:56,280 --> 00:23:58,320 Speaker 1: but we spoke. We weren't in the same class. She 475 00:23:58,440 --> 00:24:00,399 Speaker 1: was in a class under me, and we and we 476 00:24:00,480 --> 00:24:02,160 Speaker 1: used to be you know, social media friends and stuff 477 00:24:02,200 --> 00:24:07,000 Speaker 1: like that, and I felt like we were, you know, 478 00:24:08,840 --> 00:24:11,560 Speaker 1: cool enough where I could tell her something like that. 479 00:24:12,200 --> 00:24:15,639 Speaker 1: But you know, like my friend that I asked if 480 00:24:15,680 --> 00:24:17,199 Speaker 1: I should tell her. They were just like, you know, 481 00:24:17,280 --> 00:24:19,000 Speaker 1: she may think you hate no, may thank you lying, 482 00:24:19,119 --> 00:24:22,080 Speaker 1: or they think you'll be messy or whatever. So I 483 00:24:22,119 --> 00:24:23,879 Speaker 1: was just like, yeah, I'm glad you said to leave it. 484 00:24:24,000 --> 00:24:26,320 Speaker 1: You don't know, you know, you're not Right're not close 485 00:24:26,400 --> 00:24:28,040 Speaker 1: so she could just think that, you know, because the 486 00:24:28,040 --> 00:24:29,840 Speaker 1: first thing she's gonna do is show him, right, and 487 00:24:29,880 --> 00:24:31,879 Speaker 1: he's gonna tell her what he wants, you know what 488 00:24:31,880 --> 00:24:33,720 Speaker 1: I mean. So and then no times i'd have send 489 00:24:33,720 --> 00:24:35,840 Speaker 1: somebody already told him. And that was a big that 490 00:24:35,920 --> 00:24:38,479 Speaker 1: was big. It was a real big. But then I 491 00:24:38,480 --> 00:24:41,320 Speaker 1: felt like, ohso, like if you weren't in that, even 492 00:24:41,320 --> 00:24:43,359 Speaker 1: though it was big, it was big, and the certain 493 00:24:44,960 --> 00:24:47,720 Speaker 1: it wasn't big like all, it didn't go yeah, it 494 00:24:47,760 --> 00:24:50,959 Speaker 1: wasn't viral or now if you was as big as 495 00:24:51,000 --> 00:24:57,280 Speaker 1: you were, yeah back then now have been yeah, oh yeah, 496 00:24:57,359 --> 00:24:59,240 Speaker 1: if you're saying that, if I was as big as 497 00:24:59,280 --> 00:25:02,760 Speaker 1: I him now back then, then oh yeah, because I 498 00:25:02,800 --> 00:25:05,520 Speaker 1: don't even think I don't even think Tara had recognized 499 00:25:05,560 --> 00:25:08,560 Speaker 1: you yet, because that's when really stuff really started taking 500 00:25:08,560 --> 00:25:10,640 Speaker 1: off of you, when Tara Tara from Love and Hip Hop, 501 00:25:10,720 --> 00:25:16,639 Speaker 1: Yeah yeah, yeah, that's when it was just like, was 502 00:25:16,680 --> 00:25:19,639 Speaker 1: like this girl first started doing just with the mess. 503 00:25:19,760 --> 00:25:22,119 Speaker 1: Yeah I was, and I was only doing it on 504 00:25:22,160 --> 00:25:24,080 Speaker 1: the reality show. I was doing just the Mess on 505 00:25:24,119 --> 00:25:29,400 Speaker 1: reality TV, not all start everything, yeah, not on everything, 506 00:25:29,440 --> 00:25:31,320 Speaker 1: Like it was mainly just literally off the love of 507 00:25:31,359 --> 00:25:33,240 Speaker 1: hip hop. Yeah, yeah, I was, I was, I started 508 00:25:33,280 --> 00:25:36,880 Speaker 1: doing just with the mess, just on love and hip hop. Okay, yeah, 509 00:25:37,200 --> 00:25:42,200 Speaker 1: so yeah damn. So if you can give anybody any 510 00:25:42,280 --> 00:25:47,359 Speaker 1: type of advice or you know, give drop a gym 511 00:25:47,680 --> 00:25:51,600 Speaker 1: to women based off that experience you had, was this 512 00:25:51,680 --> 00:26:00,280 Speaker 1: the nis everywhere? Yo? Yo, I hate you just d 513 00:26:03,080 --> 00:26:05,960 Speaker 1: It's like, no, but now I don't even have any 514 00:26:06,119 --> 00:26:09,000 Speaker 1: advice for the women. I have advice for the men. 515 00:26:10,480 --> 00:26:15,040 Speaker 1: Do not take it upon yourself. Guys, I'm not knocking you. 516 00:26:15,160 --> 00:26:17,960 Speaker 1: If you feel this way. If this is something that 517 00:26:18,000 --> 00:26:23,000 Speaker 1: you like to do, so be it. Let your partner, 518 00:26:23,359 --> 00:26:26,720 Speaker 1: let the woman you're dating, let whoever you're fucking with, 519 00:26:27,240 --> 00:26:30,480 Speaker 1: male or female, let them know. Let it be their 520 00:26:30,640 --> 00:26:35,960 Speaker 1: decision if they want to deal with you. And you 521 00:26:36,280 --> 00:26:39,919 Speaker 1: like to do those things. For motherfucker loves to have 522 00:26:40,040 --> 00:26:42,879 Speaker 1: threesomes and they don't tell me this going into a 523 00:26:42,920 --> 00:26:46,560 Speaker 1: relationship that they love to have threesomes like I don't. 524 00:26:46,560 --> 00:26:49,120 Speaker 1: I don't like to do. So I feel like that's 525 00:26:49,119 --> 00:26:53,280 Speaker 1: something like you need to be upfront with with certain things, 526 00:26:53,400 --> 00:26:55,720 Speaker 1: and that is one thing that you most definitely need 527 00:26:55,760 --> 00:27:00,800 Speaker 1: to be upfront with your sexuality. Sexuality is a big 528 00:27:01,760 --> 00:27:05,159 Speaker 1: piece that you need to be upfront with when dealing 529 00:27:05,240 --> 00:27:08,760 Speaker 1: with someone, when getting to know someone, dating whatever. It 530 00:27:08,880 --> 00:27:13,760 Speaker 1: is a very big piece, a very valuable fact piece 531 00:27:14,880 --> 00:27:18,639 Speaker 1: that needs to be discussed now. If it would have 532 00:27:18,680 --> 00:27:20,679 Speaker 1: been a thing where, you know, with him and I 533 00:27:20,720 --> 00:27:23,600 Speaker 1: started talking, he's just like, oh, you know, Shay. You know, 534 00:27:23,680 --> 00:27:25,719 Speaker 1: every once in a while, I like the I like 535 00:27:25,840 --> 00:27:28,960 Speaker 1: the funk with trains out have been like, Okay, I 536 00:27:28,960 --> 00:27:31,040 Speaker 1: ain't knocking you, but I don't want to deal with 537 00:27:31,040 --> 00:27:33,280 Speaker 1: you because I'm not into that kind of thing. I 538 00:27:33,280 --> 00:27:35,359 Speaker 1: wouldn't have knocked nothing. We could have been cool because 539 00:27:35,440 --> 00:27:39,359 Speaker 1: he was a cool mother. He was a cool dude. 540 00:27:39,440 --> 00:27:41,800 Speaker 1: He really was. He did he had great things about him. 541 00:27:41,840 --> 00:27:45,800 Speaker 1: He was really good with kids. Should have been great. 542 00:27:46,240 --> 00:27:48,440 Speaker 1: And I am just remembering to this day that he 543 00:27:48,520 --> 00:27:53,399 Speaker 1: had a bunch of kids. Yeah, but he was always 544 00:27:53,400 --> 00:27:55,959 Speaker 1: real yours. I know, we never seen his Yeah I've 545 00:27:56,000 --> 00:27:59,480 Speaker 1: seen here a couple of times, but it was I've 546 00:27:59,520 --> 00:28:01,919 Speaker 1: never seen Yeah, it wasn't. I don't think, um, I 547 00:28:02,000 --> 00:28:04,720 Speaker 1: was really around his kids like that because when he 548 00:28:04,760 --> 00:28:07,200 Speaker 1: was around his kids, you know, you know, some people, UM, 549 00:28:07,240 --> 00:28:09,240 Speaker 1: like other baby mothers don't really want the kids around 550 00:28:09,280 --> 00:28:11,720 Speaker 1: other And I get it. I get I'm like, so 551 00:28:11,760 --> 00:28:14,280 Speaker 1: it was just like yeah, I get it, but um, yeah, 552 00:28:14,320 --> 00:28:18,679 Speaker 1: he definitely had um a few I actually um I 553 00:28:18,720 --> 00:28:25,800 Speaker 1: saw him probably like back in because he was um 554 00:28:25,800 --> 00:28:27,840 Speaker 1: when I was. But he still lives next door to 555 00:28:28,880 --> 00:28:32,520 Speaker 1: this guy that um him and his wife lived next 556 00:28:32,560 --> 00:28:36,520 Speaker 1: door to this guy that I was dating, what the fund. 557 00:28:38,320 --> 00:28:41,680 Speaker 1: So he was taking the trash out one day and 558 00:28:41,760 --> 00:28:43,600 Speaker 1: I'm walking up the steps and I look up and 559 00:28:43,600 --> 00:28:46,360 Speaker 1: he looked down and saw me, and he froze up 560 00:28:46,400 --> 00:28:49,120 Speaker 1: like he saw a damn go listen, listen. I've seen 561 00:28:49,200 --> 00:28:51,040 Speaker 1: him at the fucking mall one day. I seen him 562 00:28:51,040 --> 00:28:53,400 Speaker 1: at mom Dumb And this was like like two years 563 00:28:53,400 --> 00:28:55,400 Speaker 1: ago maybe or something like that, like maybe like two 564 00:28:55,440 --> 00:28:58,440 Speaker 1: or three years ago. Minus is like it's abou to 565 00:28:58,480 --> 00:29:01,520 Speaker 1: be yet only too so like yeah, I've seen him 566 00:29:01,920 --> 00:29:03,440 Speaker 1: nineteen or something like that. And he was in a 567 00:29:03,480 --> 00:29:05,360 Speaker 1: moment he like stopped like oh ship, you know how 568 00:29:05,400 --> 00:29:08,280 Speaker 1: like the whole body get hot, and yeah, he froze like, 569 00:29:08,320 --> 00:29:10,240 Speaker 1: oh ship, I know I ain't about to see this bitch. 570 00:29:10,360 --> 00:29:14,120 Speaker 1: I just waved at him like yeah, I was like, hey, 571 00:29:14,200 --> 00:29:18,400 Speaker 1: I dona gave a little white people smile when they 572 00:29:18,440 --> 00:29:21,000 Speaker 1: are talking. Yeah, like and I'm like, all right, move 573 00:29:21,040 --> 00:29:24,840 Speaker 1: on the way. So I walk up the steps tight 574 00:29:24,920 --> 00:29:27,520 Speaker 1: and Ship real sorry, but all right, So did you 575 00:29:27,560 --> 00:29:30,000 Speaker 1: tell the nigga he knew about it? Okay, so he 576 00:29:30,000 --> 00:29:31,960 Speaker 1: didn't know about this, Yeah, he knew about it because 577 00:29:32,000 --> 00:29:33,880 Speaker 1: he happened to see it in that circle. So that 578 00:29:33,920 --> 00:29:37,120 Speaker 1: guy already knew about it. And I was like, yo, 579 00:29:37,280 --> 00:29:40,000 Speaker 1: you ain't telling me. He was like, yeah, I mean 580 00:29:41,120 --> 00:29:43,560 Speaker 1: what you want me to say, right right? Ain't nothing 581 00:29:43,600 --> 00:29:45,400 Speaker 1: that you know he could do with Ship. And I'm 582 00:29:45,400 --> 00:29:48,720 Speaker 1: pretty sure that he's not the only man um that 583 00:29:49,040 --> 00:29:53,320 Speaker 1: is battling you know, his you know, sexuality and you 584 00:29:53,360 --> 00:29:56,080 Speaker 1: know demons that come with and the demons are not 585 00:29:56,200 --> 00:30:00,360 Speaker 1: being able to you know, living your truth, and you 586 00:30:00,360 --> 00:30:02,480 Speaker 1: you are and you're trying to fight it, and it's like, yo, 587 00:30:02,640 --> 00:30:04,680 Speaker 1: like no, that's when it becomes a demon. But if 588 00:30:04,720 --> 00:30:08,400 Speaker 1: you basically, what she's saying is so I clear to something, y'all, 589 00:30:08,480 --> 00:30:10,880 Speaker 1: y'all try to cancel her again. She's not saying that 590 00:30:11,000 --> 00:30:13,680 Speaker 1: homosexuality is a demon. She's just saying when you're trying 591 00:30:13,680 --> 00:30:16,680 Speaker 1: to hide it is when it's it seems like it's 592 00:30:16,680 --> 00:30:19,920 Speaker 1: a demon. Ya, you're fighting it like you're you're you're 593 00:30:20,000 --> 00:30:23,480 Speaker 1: fighting yourself, you know, and that and that's what spiritual 594 00:30:23,520 --> 00:30:26,840 Speaker 1: warfare is like. When you fight with yourself, you fight 595 00:30:26,880 --> 00:30:29,680 Speaker 1: with like you know who you are. You know when 596 00:30:30,120 --> 00:30:32,880 Speaker 1: it's much easier to just walk in your truth and 597 00:30:32,920 --> 00:30:34,520 Speaker 1: be who you are. You know what I'm saying, And 598 00:30:34,600 --> 00:30:37,160 Speaker 1: then it don't matter who the funk accepts you. You 599 00:30:37,200 --> 00:30:39,320 Speaker 1: know what you don't like. You're not supposed to be 600 00:30:39,360 --> 00:30:42,960 Speaker 1: looking for acceptance by people anyway, looking for validation from 601 00:30:43,040 --> 00:30:45,120 Speaker 1: other people anyway. I know that it may seem like 602 00:30:45,160 --> 00:30:47,960 Speaker 1: it'll make your life easier to be accepted, but honestly, 603 00:30:48,160 --> 00:30:49,960 Speaker 1: who the funk wants to fit in this funk up 604 00:30:49,960 --> 00:30:52,360 Speaker 1: as world? So we're gonna end it on that note, 605 00:30:52,400 --> 00:30:55,880 Speaker 1: say bias, peace out, and don't be judging my sense. 606 00:30:56,000 --> 00:30:58,400 Speaker 1: But her name is Lady of Rage. What I or Instagram? 607 00:30:58,480 --> 00:31:00,400 Speaker 1: Just kid? You want access to more questions about Good Guy, 608 00:31:00,640 --> 00:31:05,920 Speaker 1: I Love You book and Every Wednesday hump Day and 609 00:31:06,040 --> 00:31:16,320 Speaker 1: my best deep pad boys piece. 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