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Speaker 1: Bamford Productions. Look what I can do? Mommy? Where did

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Speaker 1: I put that? After it is? Look at me, mommy,

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Speaker 1: I see your sweetie. Mommy is a little bit busy

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Speaker 1: Look at me. Mom No, no, what are you doing?

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Speaker 1: Are you going out? No? Why do you ask that

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Speaker 1: you're putting on your nice clothes? No, honey, mommy just

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Speaker 1: has an important video call in a few minutes. So

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Speaker 1: I want to look my best. What are you calling someone?

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Speaker 1: I want to be my boss? Look at what I

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Speaker 1: can do? Okay, talking points experience. Look at what I

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Speaker 1: can do, mommy? When please look at Caitlin. Mom stop

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Speaker 1: This call is very important for mommy. Okay, can you just,

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Speaker 1: then I'll get it later, got it, Caitlin, got it? Okay?

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Speaker 1: Good now run along, okay, okay, said, you can do this.

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Speaker 1: that you're the best person for this. Okay, here we go. Breathe. Hi. Hi, Yes,

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Speaker 1: that's me and I'm Captain Kevin Prescott. It's a pleasure

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Speaker 1: to meet you. It's a pleasure to meet you too,

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Speaker 1: Captain Owens. Really it's an honor to even be considered

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Speaker 1: for this. So thank you for the opportunity, and please

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Speaker 1: when this opportunity arose. But the specifics I've been in

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Speaker 1: SE Are you familiar with I am actually Helix nebula,

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Speaker 1: I've already run over your resume and your history and

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Speaker 1: did she get here? That? That's definitely a loaded question. Um. Well,

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Speaker 1: Mr Owens, yes, we're divorced, so he gets Caitlin every

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Speaker 1: of course, of course, pick your time. Thank you, Caitlin, Caitlin, Kate, Kate?

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Speaker 1: Mag Mill Episode eight? The past is the past? What

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Speaker 1: Magma crew. Today is March. You are currently one hundred

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Speaker 1: fifty four days, today is the day your mission finally

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Speaker 1: comes to fruition. Good morning, Tea is Jenna wat She

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Speaker 1: that's super weird, Sydney Funk. I didn't know you had

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Speaker 1: Jenna Janna, do you read me, Janna? Today is March.

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Speaker 1: This is Sydney Session number five for three. Hello Sydney.

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Speaker 1: How are you today? I'm stressed, to be honest with you,

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Speaker 1: understandably so given the circumstances. Don't you think the entire

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Speaker 1: day has been a massive ship show, that's for sure.

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Speaker 1: Do you want to talk about what happened? What else

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Speaker 1: is there to talk about? I'm still feeling off about everything.

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Speaker 1: Let's start with that feeling deja vu? You called it.

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Speaker 1: Like I felt like I know what Janna is going

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Speaker 1: being mislabeled. Yeah, but how does that explain how I

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Speaker 1: Even if you could go back, if you could change thing,

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Speaker 1: Are you all right? Yes? But functionally speaking, Janet is

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Speaker 1: are you there, Jenna? Help me? Mommy Caitlin. Caitlyn is

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Speaker 1: that you? Oh? No, I can't be here. Get yourself together, Sidney,

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Speaker 1: Caitlin is dead. Help me, please, money, I'm so cold.

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Speaker 1: God can't be heard. But it's just like her. Whatever, Caitlyn,

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Speaker 1: it's mommy, I'm here, sweetie, had it's mommy. It hurts,

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Speaker 1: And Jenna she needs me, She needs me, Jenna, Jenna, Jenna,

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Speaker 1: I hear you. I'm coming. Oh Jenna, look what you've done?

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Speaker 1: Help man? Stop fighting at Jenna. Ok here we go.

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Speaker 1: What are you doing to me? It's too late, Mommy.

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Speaker 1: You can't save her. You can stay with me. I can't.

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Speaker 1: I have to do this, but you don't. Don't glad

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Speaker 1: no die here alone like you let me guy. No,

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Speaker 1: you you're not my daughter. Do you hear me? You're

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Speaker 1: not my Caitlynch? She is gone and you're not her.

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Speaker 1: Weren't you there for me? Mommy? I can hear her? Still, Sydney?

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Speaker 1: This isn't the time? Is there? Caitlin? Caitlin warning, impact imminent?

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Speaker 1: Can be there for me? Man? How how can I be?

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Speaker 1: You just need to do? What? What do I need

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Speaker 1: to do? What do I remember? I remember? I remember everything?

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Speaker 1: What would you do if you have the chance to

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Speaker 1: do things over again? What would you do? Do? Thing?

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Speaker 1: Good morning, Magmal crew. Today is March. You are currently

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Speaker 1: one hundred kilometers from the helix Nebula. Congratulations ladies. After

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Speaker 1: seven hundred fifty four days, today is the day your

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Speaker 1: mission finally comes to fruition. Mag Mel starring Ali Trasher,

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Speaker 1: Julia Henning and b j Gribb. Additional voices in this

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Speaker 1: episode provided by cat Ton Chanko and Mac Manson. Written

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Speaker 1: by Jeff Heimbuck and Lindsay Skaggin, Directed and edited by

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Speaker 1: Jeff Heimbuck. Produced by Jeff Heimbuck and Ali Trasher. Executive

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Speaker 1: produced by Holly Fry. Audio engineered by Corey Celeste and

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Speaker 1: Alex Gona. Original musical score by Corey Celeste. Additional songs

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Speaker 1: by The Ramikins as played by Roscoe Soul Train. Magmal

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Speaker 1: is a production of I Heart Radio and Bamfer Productions.

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Speaker 1: Questions comments email us at Project Magmal at gmail dot com.

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Speaker 1: Until next time, We'll see you when we see you.