WEBVTT - 1 | The Pinky Swear

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<v Speaker 1>The Red Weather is a work of fiction. Any resemblance

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<v Speaker 1>to actual persons or events reflects the adaptation of real,

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<v Speaker 1>iHeartMedia or its affiliates. A few days before she died,

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<v Speaker 1>I got a letter from Willow. Willow was my neighbor

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<v Speaker 1>and one of my best friends as a kid. We

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<v Speaker 1>grew up in the Redwoods outside of Sebastopol, California. It's

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<v Speaker 1>about sixty miles north of San Francisco, and even though

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<v Speaker 1>we were just through the woods from one another, we

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<v Speaker 1>had very different childhoods. Willow was part of a commune,

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<v Speaker 1>or what they called it a collective. It was a

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<v Speaker 1>group of maybe thirty people and it was called tender Hearts.

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<v Speaker 2>It was one guy, really, the leader, Elric, and then women,

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<v Speaker 2>then kids.

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<v Speaker 1>That's Sheriff Maldonado. He was the sheriff back in the

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<v Speaker 1>eighties and the nineties, so he ended up dealing with

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<v Speaker 1>the tender Hearts when birds would complain or if kids

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<v Speaker 1>got into trouble. It was hard to wrap your head

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<v Speaker 1>around it. Was nature and trees and praying. I guess

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<v Speaker 1>it would be called meditating today, and drugs those pot

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<v Speaker 1>mushrooms Mescoon. Willow's mom was a founding member of Tender Hearts,

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<v Speaker 1>so she lived there with Willow and her sister Anna.

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<v Speaker 1>When we were young, Willow and I were close, really close.

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<v Speaker 1>We used to meet in the woods between our houses

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<v Speaker 1>and spend all afternoon together, sometimes camping out, but things

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<v Speaker 1>got complicated in our teens. By the time I got

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<v Speaker 1>her letter, I hadn't talked to her in years. I

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<v Speaker 1>didn't even know she had my address. She was in Panama,

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<v Speaker 1>in Pocas del Toro. It's a series of islands close

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<v Speaker 1>to Costa Rica. Apparently she'd gone with an organization to

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<v Speaker 1>help sea turtles protect their habitat or something, but really

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<v Speaker 1>it sounds like she went to get away and to

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<v Speaker 1>get sober. The letter was mostly about what she was

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<v Speaker 1>up to in Panama, working in a vegan pizza place

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<v Speaker 1>down there. Before I could at her back, I found

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<v Speaker 1>out she took her own life. My mom saw it

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<v Speaker 1>on Facebook. So you're still in touch with her mom.

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<v Speaker 3>Well, only through Facebook. I mean, it's not like I

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<v Speaker 3>see her or talk to her, have private phone calls,

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<v Speaker 3>but you know, she posts things, and this was one

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<v Speaker 3>of the things she posted. I was surprised. It's really sad.

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<v Speaker 3>It's really sad.

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<v Speaker 4>She was begging me to come visit her.

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<v Speaker 1>This is Noah. He grew up with Willow too.

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<v Speaker 5>She begged me. She was like, hey, please please come visit.

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<v Speaker 5>I'm really lonely. I need a friend, I need some help.

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<v Speaker 6>You know.

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<v Speaker 4>She wrote me this.

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<v Speaker 5>Poem that was very you know, in that context, was

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<v Speaker 5>quite deep and dark and basically just talking about loneliness

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<v Speaker 5>and isolation and kind of meaninglessness of everything.

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<v Speaker 1>He's now a psychiatrist up in Seattle.

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<v Speaker 5>And it's really challenging. It's really I mean, I've had

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<v Speaker 5>a number of patient suicide and even with that, it's

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<v Speaker 5>really hard to reconcile that of like, could I have

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<v Speaker 5>done something more?

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<v Speaker 1>If I was honest, I might not have even written

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<v Speaker 1>her back. I mean, we were in very different places.

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<v Speaker 1>She was single, childless, hopping around different countries. I'm married,

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<v Speaker 1>I had a kid. I live in LA I work

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<v Speaker 1>as a writer director, and as you might know, I

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<v Speaker 1>host a podcast about the TV show I was on

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<v Speaker 1>as a kid, Welcome to Vodney's World.

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<v Speaker 4>I'm Dannie official.

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<v Speaker 1>I'm rather strong than I'm will Fordell. Willow was still

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<v Speaker 1>chasing new experiences, new people, and new places in a

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<v Speaker 1>way that when we were young was exciting and admirable,

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<v Speaker 1>but now that we're in our forties, it felt a

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<v Speaker 1>little desperate, erratic.

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<v Speaker 5>I remember for the first few years of our friendship,

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<v Speaker 5>you know, like it was kind of like being a

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<v Speaker 5>being on a drug near her. She had so much

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<v Speaker 5>energy and excitement and spotanity and like. But then I

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<v Speaker 5>remember as she started to decompensate in our teen years,

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<v Speaker 5>it was like it was it was really challenging to

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<v Speaker 5>be around her. I should say all this with a

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<v Speaker 5>caveat that it's impossible for me not to use my

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<v Speaker 5>psychiatric nosology on her now now looking back, I mean,

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<v Speaker 5>she was just the archetype of someone who had had

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<v Speaker 5>clearly had a lot of childhood trauma.

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<v Speaker 1>There's a few traumas Noah could be referring to here.

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<v Speaker 1>There was the fact that she grew up on a

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<v Speaker 1>collective in the woods. She definitely had some awful boyfriends,

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<v Speaker 1>there were drugs, But the central trauma of Willow's life

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<v Speaker 1>had to do with her sister Anna. Anna was two

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<v Speaker 1>years older than us, which isn't much except when you're fifteen.

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<v Speaker 1>Back then, she was in a whole other category of existence,

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<v Speaker 1>and I probably would have gotten to nowhere better. Except

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<v Speaker 1>on Halloween night nineteen ninety five, Anna disappeared. It was

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<v Speaker 1>a horrible time for a couple of there. It seemed

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<v Speaker 1>like everyone we knew was a suspect or had a secret.

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<v Speaker 1>We all got interviewed by the cops. People blamed Willow's mom,

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<v Speaker 1>people blamed the Tender Hearts and his boyfriend. People blamed

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<v Speaker 1>the town. But no one knew what actually happened. Nobody

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<v Speaker 1>was ever found, no charges ever filed. Most everyone assumed

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<v Speaker 1>that Anna ran away, that she just wanted out of

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<v Speaker 1>Tender Hearts or small town took off. But Willow never

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<v Speaker 1>thought that she knew her sister would never leave without her,

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<v Speaker 1>or at least without saying goodbye. This is from Willow's letter.

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<v Speaker 1>I know I made you promise something about the night

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<v Speaker 1>Anna disappeared. You and Christo Vecchio and Oriyan and Connor

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<v Speaker 1>were there too. Do you remember we pinky swore. So

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<v Speaker 1>here's the deal. I want you to know I don't

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<v Speaker 1>fucking care anymore. I released your pinky, Sir, I am no.

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<v Speaker 1>I can't read this, but I think she wrote authority.

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<v Speaker 1>But I want to know the truth. If Anna is

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<v Speaker 1>still out there, or the person who killed her is

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<v Speaker 1>out there, then keeping my secret is stupid. It always

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<v Speaker 1>has been. I kept going back over the letter, going

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<v Speaker 1>back over my memories and my relationship with Willow. I

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<v Speaker 1>kept wondering, why did she send this to me? Why

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<v Speaker 1>didn't she decide to tell the truth herself. In nineteen

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<v Speaker 1>ninety five, my neighbor and a trainer disappeared. She was seventeen.

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<v Speaker 1>Her body was never found, no one was ever arrested,

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<v Speaker 1>no explanation given. And back then, I lied to my parents,

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<v Speaker 1>I lied to police, I lied to everybody because Anna's sister,

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<v Speaker 1>Willow asked me to. I've decided to go back to

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<v Speaker 1>my hometown, interview my friends and family, and talk to

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<v Speaker 1>police and journalists whoever I can to try to find

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<v Speaker 1>out what actually happened. I am actor and filmmaker writer

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<v Speaker 1>Strong This is the Red Weather. Before I left for Sebastopol,

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<v Speaker 1>I called up my friend Chris because he's one of

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<v Speaker 1>the few people who knew what Willow was talking about.

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<v Speaker 4>Yeah, what's up right? Recorded?

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<v Speaker 1>What that you no it's the thing Elly, that it's recording.

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<v Speaker 7>That is Sean Hayes with you telling me that this

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<v Speaker 7>all being recorded.

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<v Speaker 1>Chris is a comedy writer now who also lives in

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<v Speaker 1>La So I don't I don't know if you've heard,

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<v Speaker 1>but Willow Trainer died.

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<v Speaker 6>Yeah.

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<v Speaker 5>My cousin Tarn texted me.

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<v Speaker 7>You've never torn, right, No, Sacramento torn. Uh, there was

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<v Speaker 7>a Thanksgiving you came with I'm pretty sure you came

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<v Speaker 7>with me anyways. Crazy. I don't know if she killed

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<v Speaker 7>herself in Puerto Rico or Panama, Panama. Well, she was

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<v Speaker 7>always a fucking train rack, dude, I mean, even before

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<v Speaker 7>the kid fucking grew up in a cult.

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<v Speaker 1>Well, I don't know if I would even call it that.

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<v Speaker 7>I think that's because you're a sweetheart, sweetheart. Okay, I'm

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<v Speaker 7>gonna call it a call, because there's a creepy fucking

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<v Speaker 7>tree calls. They were out, They were basically like rural homeless.

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<v Speaker 1>Before she killed herself, she sent me a letter she's

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<v Speaker 1>I know and saying that we can uh tell the truth.

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<v Speaker 1>Chris had also made a promise because he was with

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<v Speaker 1>me and Willow the night that Anna disappeared.

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<v Speaker 7>Who cares if we could tell the truth now, like

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<v Speaker 7>I know, I know, but I mean there's there's so

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<v Speaker 7>much that I don't even know about the case. The case,

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<v Speaker 7>you know, oh, yes, oh the case. Like these detective

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<v Speaker 7>riders on the case.

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<v Speaker 8>Now there was a first party and they didn't they

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<v Speaker 8>like find a bullet in a tree.

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<v Speaker 7>Or bullets in yes, three bullets country, multiple bullets.

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<v Speaker 4>That's what I mean.

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<v Speaker 1>I don't even know the basics. It's like and then

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<v Speaker 1>let alone the fact of.

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<v Speaker 7>Like what we did, but what Willow did? Right, So

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<v Speaker 7>that is why you're recording this phone call. Yeah, I mean,

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<v Speaker 7>I don't know.

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<v Speaker 4>I'm just I you know, I feel like I've got

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<v Speaker 4>this this this platform.

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<v Speaker 7>You know, dat's a public figure. I did a podcast

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<v Speaker 7>and all right, Colombo, well you're not going to go

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<v Speaker 7>solo on this. Brother will be the Hardy Boys or

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<v Speaker 7>the Scooby Gang. And I'm not gonna be Shaggy. It's

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<v Speaker 7>too on the nose. I want to be Scooby or Velma.

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<v Speaker 1>I'm definitely Velma and testing testing one about sound gear

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<v Speaker 1>so I could doc a man everything I could. I

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<v Speaker 1>said goodbye to my wife Alex and her son. Indeed

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<v Speaker 1>recording right now, Yeah, I'm never gonna stop rowing.

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<v Speaker 8>That's the whole point, okay.

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<v Speaker 9>And you have the draft.

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<v Speaker 1>Too, Yeah, but it's I've got time, so I think

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<v Speaker 1>while I'm up there, I'll be able to get writing

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<v Speaker 1>done with this loud guy. Hey dude, I'm saying goodbye.

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<v Speaker 1>I had three months to write a script, a horror

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<v Speaker 1>movie for a small studio. It wasn't my original idea.

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<v Speaker 1>They had brought me in after they sold the pitch,

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<v Speaker 1>but they were pain This sort of thing has become

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<v Speaker 1>my life, writing movies that never get made.

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<v Speaker 10>All right, I love you having fun having special, dude,

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<v Speaker 10>time special, all right, I love you guys.

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<v Speaker 9>A week or two week or two? What? Yes, we're two?

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<v Speaker 4>Hell hello it is.

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<v Speaker 1>I drove across town and I picked up Chris. I

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<v Speaker 1>was glad he was coming with me.

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<v Speaker 8>I knew there'd be gaps in memory, conflicting versions and

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<v Speaker 8>things people maybe didn't want to think about it or

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<v Speaker 8>talk about, so I thought it'd be good to have

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<v Speaker 8>his help.

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<v Speaker 1>I am not driving at all.

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<v Speaker 11>Not at all.

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<v Speaker 1>You do not need to see my road rage. Bro

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<v Speaker 1>Ooh another fun rule.

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<v Speaker 12>You get one moody whiny white guys song per hour.

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<v Speaker 1>That's okay, that's all I have.

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<v Speaker 5>I know that.

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<v Speaker 1>So we're gonna put on your phone. Yeah, dude, you're

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<v Speaker 1>getting beach Boys and Jimmy Buffett. He'd also, I know,

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<v Speaker 1>keep things lighthearted. I did some research before we left

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<v Speaker 1>l A. And when I looked into Anna's case, there

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<v Speaker 1>was one name that kept coming up. Monica Tremblaine.

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<v Speaker 4>All right, Hi, I are you doing.

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<v Speaker 1>Hey? She was the journalist who covered the story for

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<v Speaker 1>the Press Democrat or local paper.

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<v Speaker 4>Hey.

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<v Speaker 8>You know we've met before, right, Well, yeah, I mean

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<v Speaker 8>we talked back in the day.

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<v Speaker 4>I mean I feel like my mom was there. No, no, no, no, no,

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<v Speaker 4>this was way after then. It was in the two

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<v Speaker 4>thousand and three. Yeah. I came to the Graduate play

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<v Speaker 4>when you did it with Jerry Hall.

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<v Speaker 13>We talked for a second at uh huh at the

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<v Speaker 13>opening night party. Okay, yeah, I was for sure. I

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<v Speaker 13>was like, oh, he doesn't remember me, or either you

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<v Speaker 13>were avoiding me.

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<v Speaker 4>No, oh god, sorry, do me a favor, though. Don't

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<v Speaker 4>look up the review of that play.

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<v Speaker 1>Manica graduated from Berkeley and then moved to Santa Rosa

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<v Speaker 1>to work for the Press Democrat only a month before

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<v Speaker 1>Anna disappeared. It was a small paper doing all the

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<v Speaker 1>things paper did in the nineties, classified its town hall meetings,

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<v Speaker 1>the kind of things today you just find online if

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<v Speaker 1>at all.

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<v Speaker 4>You know, it was like my first real story. I

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<v Speaker 4>mean I was only twenty three then. I was so young.

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<v Speaker 13>Yeah, But what was interesting was that, like everybody, everybody

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<v Speaker 13>at the paper assumed that Anna was a runaway.

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<v Speaker 4>But I did not believe that. Why hmmm, you know, there.

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<v Speaker 13>Was something off and everything about this, I mean everything

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<v Speaker 13>just felt like there was something there, felt like there

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<v Speaker 13>was something more, like more going on.

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<v Speaker 4>I felt a vibe vibe.

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<v Speaker 13>I was younger than everybody at the paper, you know,

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<v Speaker 13>and so when I talked to the kids, you kids,

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<v Speaker 13>I felt closer to you than everybody else. But then again,

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<v Speaker 13>you guys were a bunch of white kids in this

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<v Speaker 13>very white hippie town.

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<v Speaker 4>I mean y'all had money.

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<v Speaker 13>I mean you you were already on TV, you were famous,

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<v Speaker 13>so right right, it was a lot, you know, the commune,

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<v Speaker 13>the drugs fire, that's.

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<v Speaker 8>Like I want to get into all of that stuff,

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<v Speaker 8>but let's just start with this. What can we just do?

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<v Speaker 8>Like the uh, what where Hannah was that night? What

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<v Speaker 8>happened to her? Just like the pure only the facts

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<v Speaker 8>version of what we know.

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<v Speaker 13>Anna Trainer was at a party in downtown Sebasketball that.

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<v Speaker 1>Would be Heather Colburn's house, a Halloween party.

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<v Speaker 13>There are a lot of witnesses that said Anna was

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<v Speaker 13>there and she was drinking, and that she had a

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<v Speaker 13>fight with her.

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<v Speaker 1>Boyfriend or ex boyfriend, depending on your point of view.

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<v Speaker 1>His name is Mick Bowden. My brother Shilah was actually

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<v Speaker 1>there at the party. I remember sitting there. I just

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<v Speaker 1>remember he punched the window.

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<v Speaker 12>There was a lot of screaming and arguing going on,

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<v Speaker 12>and then, you know, I don't remember exactly what it

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<v Speaker 12>was about, but it definitely stopped the situation. Lateryone was

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<v Speaker 12>like whoa, okay, and then you know, but it's kind

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<v Speaker 12>of in a party scene, so like everybody's you know,

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<v Speaker 12>and I think they might have been out smoking.

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<v Speaker 13>Well yeah, Mick, he left the party an hour or

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<v Speaker 13>so before Anna.

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<v Speaker 1>More on that later.

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<v Speaker 4>So she gets a ride.

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<v Speaker 13>So she gets its ride from these three girls, Lindsay Green,

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<v Speaker 13>Gianna Parata, and Audrey Wick.

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<v Speaker 1>So I don't know if I should tell you this,

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<v Speaker 1>but I call them the mean girls.

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<v Speaker 4>Were they pretending to help her or I mean they

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<v Speaker 4>were you know, honestly, there was a lot of back

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<v Speaker 4>and forth with that.

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<v Speaker 1>Lindsay, Jenna and Audrey gave her a ride and when

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<v Speaker 1>they were asked by the police, they said they drove

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<v Speaker 1>her home.

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<v Speaker 13>On Lindsay told the police that they were actually messing

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<v Speaker 13>with Anna and that they dropped her off a few

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<v Speaker 13>miles from her house.

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<v Speaker 1>Actually, like I said, mean girls.

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<v Speaker 13>But we can assume at least that she didn't go

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<v Speaker 13>home because then Nick got that page from Anna ten

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<v Speaker 13>oh three.

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<v Speaker 1>This was the era of pagers. We all had them,

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<v Speaker 1>and we all had our own code that we used

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<v Speaker 1>to let someone know if we wanted them to call

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<v Speaker 1>us back or meet us somewhere.

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<v Speaker 13>Well, first she paged him to a phone number, which

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<v Speaker 13>we let her found out was the Juniver Street pay phone,

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<v Speaker 13>and he told police that he paid her back with

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<v Speaker 13>his cold that he was going to meet her there.

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<v Speaker 6>But then the fire a devastating night in western Sonoma

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<v Speaker 6>County as fire rage over one hundred acres and burned

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<v Speaker 6>four homes in its path.

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<v Speaker 13>Sources te well, we have that the first witness caught

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<v Speaker 13>in the fires at ten twenty pm. It started out

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<v Speaker 13>on the Tenderheart property and then you know, as we know,

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<v Speaker 13>it's bread.

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<v Speaker 1>No one was hurt, but a lot of loss.

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<v Speaker 4>It was a big deal to firefighters I don't know

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<v Speaker 4>their names.

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<v Speaker 13>In front of me on the way towards the fire,

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<v Speaker 13>they saw a young woman, blonde walking alone on Juniper.

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<v Speaker 1>That was the last time anyone saw an a trainer. Well,

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<v Speaker 1>I have some info, some new info, maybe answers for

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<v Speaker 1>some of this.

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<v Speaker 13>Well, damn rider, it's only been thirty years.

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<v Speaker 1>It's an eight hour drive from La to Sebasterful. So

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<v Speaker 1>along the way, Chris and I talked about our hometown. Yes,

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<v Speaker 1>I mean when we were kids, it was like this tiny,

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<v Speaker 1>crusty and now it's like now it's like nice, nice

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<v Speaker 1>restaurants and cute little shops. Yeah, and like even the

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<v Speaker 1>Foster Freeze is now a place that you know, you

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<v Speaker 1>get like milkshakes and fifteen dollars Hamburgers are so good.

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<v Speaker 1>So Basketball isn't all that different from a lot of

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<v Speaker 1>small towns in California. But back in the seventies it

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<v Speaker 1>had a very particular culture. Here's how my brother Shiloh

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<v Speaker 1>put it.

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<v Speaker 12>A lot of hippies that moved from San Francisco, like

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<v Speaker 12>our parents. But then there were also the pot growers

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<v Speaker 12>and like that sort of edgyness to it.

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<v Speaker 1>Kind of where the hate Ashbury Summer of Love crowd

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<v Speaker 1>went to grow up, grow some vegetables, grow some pot

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<v Speaker 1>and raise kids with names like Rioter and Willow. In

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<v Speaker 1>the actual town where Chris grew up, you could still

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<v Speaker 1>have a pretty typical suburban childhood. But outside of town

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<v Speaker 1>it was the wild West of alternative parenting. There were

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<v Speaker 1>all kinds of situations. Take my buddy Ryan. He grew

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<v Speaker 1>up on a commune.

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<v Speaker 4>It was fifty four acres of land.

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<v Speaker 8>There was a ranch house where all of this stuff happened,

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<v Speaker 8>like a central ranch house that was owned and common

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<v Speaker 8>by everybody.

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<v Speaker 4>So this was the common land.

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<v Speaker 8>You know, people would take turns with, like running the daycare.

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<v Speaker 1>It wasn't religious or spiritual, but it was certainly a

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<v Speaker 1>counter cultural.

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<v Speaker 8>Scene, kind of like you know, hippie dancy thrill your

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<v Speaker 8>hands and spacey, you know.

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<v Speaker 4>Kind of just like you know tied I. That was

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<v Speaker 4>so much Tied Die.

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<v Speaker 6>Yeah, yeah, a.

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<v Speaker 4>Love as it really was that it really was.

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<v Speaker 1>Yeah, my own home life wasn't that extreme. Chris and

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<v Speaker 1>I pulled into my parents place that evening, I.

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<v Speaker 8>All right Island.

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<v Speaker 1>They moved into the woods, put in a well built

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<v Speaker 1>our house. As a kid, we had electricity, but we

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<v Speaker 1>didn't have TV. I was homeschooled on and off. We

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<v Speaker 1>were vegetarians. And while my parents' property has a name,

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<v Speaker 1>we call it redwood Shire, unlike Tender Hearts. That started

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<v Speaker 1>as kind of a joke.

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<v Speaker 11>As soon as we bought it, you know, we just

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<v Speaker 11>the redwoods were just so beautiful, and so Dad, coming

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<v Speaker 11>from an accounting background, he wanted to make something that

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<v Speaker 11>was productible. So we made it an experimental farm, and

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<v Speaker 11>we had to give it a name, so I said, well,

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<v Speaker 11>it has to be redwood Yeah, and then.

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<v Speaker 1>It also relates to my dad's name, which is for real,

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<v Speaker 1>King Arthur Strong.

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<v Speaker 11>Well yeah, but a lot of it came from King

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<v Speaker 11>Arthur like Shire.

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<v Speaker 4>Yeah, so redwood Shire.

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<v Speaker 13>It's just stuck.

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<v Speaker 1>Our day to day life was positively mainstream, compared to

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<v Speaker 1>Willow and Anna, who were literally a few hundred yards

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<v Speaker 1>away living in tents and barns with some kind of

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<v Speaker 1>guiding spirituality or philosophy, which I was realizing I knew

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<v Speaker 1>nothing about, and neither did Oryan.

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<v Speaker 8>I think I understood what was going on more even later,

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<v Speaker 8>when I was in my twenties or something like that.

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<v Speaker 4>But girth family.

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<v Speaker 8>So this guy was called was he called like the

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<v Speaker 8>father or something creepy like that? You know, very much polyamory,

0:20:21.400 --> 0:20:25.720
<v Speaker 8>but like not modern you know, consensual, et cetera, much

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<v Speaker 8>more of kind of like dude has a bunch of

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<v Speaker 8>wives kind of thing.

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<v Speaker 1>Our lives couldn't be more different. But we were within

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<v Speaker 1>walking distance, which is how I ended up physically smack

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<v Speaker 1>dab in the middle of this case. And that was

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<v Speaker 1>news to Monica.

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<v Speaker 4>So I was. I was with Anna's sister Willow that night, and.

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<v Speaker 13>Yeah, you and your friends are at kind of Drake's

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<v Speaker 13>house watching horror movies.

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<v Speaker 4>Well that's that's what we said. Yeah, that's what she said.

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<v Speaker 4>But we were actually in the woods. We were on

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<v Speaker 4>the Tender Hearts property.

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<v Speaker 13>Wait, if you're on the Tender Hearts property, you can

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<v Speaker 13>confirm none of the adults were there.

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<v Speaker 1>Yeah, I mean we didn't. As far as we knew,

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<v Speaker 1>no one was there. They were all on the sunrise

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<v Speaker 1>seance hike the night that Anna vanished. The adults of

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<v Speaker 1>Tender Hearts said they were holding something called a sunrise seance,

0:21:15.960 --> 0:21:18.280
<v Speaker 1>which was an annual tradition for them. El Rick and

0:21:18.320 --> 0:21:20.600
<v Speaker 1>the women would hike up Mount Saint Helena for a

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<v Speaker 1>ceremony and apparently it involves psychedelics. Shiloh and I actually

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<v Speaker 1>went on one of these with Oryan and Willow when

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<v Speaker 1>we were younger, like maybe twelve or thirteen, and the

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<v Speaker 1>whole idea is to go up there and watch the sunrise. Yeah.

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<v Speaker 1>I just remember being so tired and exhausted.

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<v Speaker 4>Yeah. I did it a couple of times, but only

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<v Speaker 4>got lost the ones. Oh ma.

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<v Speaker 1>To us, it was just a hike, but who knows.

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<v Speaker 1>We were clueless kids. At the time of Anna's disappearance.

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<v Speaker 1>None of the Tender Hearts were charged with a crime,

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<v Speaker 1>but it was shut down within a year. I never

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<v Speaker 1>knew why, and WILLI never talked about them. Part of

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<v Speaker 1>doing this podcast is about finally getting some answers about

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<v Speaker 1>what was going on next door.

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<v Speaker 4>So does that does that change anything? I don't think so.

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<v Speaker 4>I mean it confirms what they said at the time.

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<v Speaker 8>Yeah, so, I think what we were doing, me and

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<v Speaker 8>Willow and our friends.

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<v Speaker 1>I think the person that it affects the most is Mick.

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<v Speaker 1>Mick Bowden was the ex boyfriend and argued with that

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<v Speaker 1>night because he.

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<v Speaker 4>Was also with us.

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<v Speaker 13>He hold on, I need to grab a pin. Hey, right,

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<v Speaker 13>are you talking to me? And that's fine? But are

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<v Speaker 13>you voting on record? Are you hoping to officially reopen

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<v Speaker 13>this case?

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<v Speaker 1>I actually wasn't sure if what I had to say

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<v Speaker 1>would warrant that, but I was willing to find out.

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<v Speaker 1>Our first morning in Sebastopol, Chris and I went to

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<v Speaker 1>the police station. I thought it'd be good to do

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<v Speaker 1>this in person and get an honest reaction in real time,

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<v Speaker 1>but I had a lot to learn. Hello, Hi, So

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<v Speaker 1>we're here to talk to someone about an old case

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<v Speaker 1>from nineteen ninety five. I tried to explain what we

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<v Speaker 1>were there for, which took way longer than I expected.

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<v Speaker 4>Peterburg teenager on Juniperle.

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<v Speaker 1>I think that's county, but let me ask, hey, Ken,

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<v Speaker 1>turns out I wasn't even in the right jurisdiction.

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<v Speaker 6>Really, that would be the Sheriff's office, Western County. Yeah,

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<v Speaker 6>if you're asking about a missing girl outside the town limits,

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<v Speaker 6>we wouldn't have anything to do with that.

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<v Speaker 4>That was a huge dead ends.

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<v Speaker 1>That was awful. It was so embarrassing for you. I

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<v Speaker 1>gotta say to a question, God, Sherlock Homeschool to crack

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<v Speaker 1>the case wide over.

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<v Speaker 5>Oh she called nine years ago.

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<v Speaker 1>Did you take that call personally?

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<v Speaker 8>Idiot?

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<v Speaker 1>Dude, you gotta leave this in no, no, no. Of course,

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<v Speaker 1>if I had just asked Monica and stead of running

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<v Speaker 1>off and trying to play gotcha, she could have told

0:24:04.000 --> 0:24:07.480
<v Speaker 1>me that the Sheriff's department ran the investigation. But when

0:24:07.480 --> 0:24:09.840
<v Speaker 1>she and I talked, we were deep in the weeds

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<v Speaker 1>of my whereabouts that night.

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<v Speaker 4>Mick Bolden was with you when after the.

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<v Speaker 8>Party and then before Anna paged him. I think, I really,

0:24:18.600 --> 0:24:21.040
<v Speaker 8>I'm not exactly sure what the timing is.

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<v Speaker 4>Well, what were you doing out there? Uh, it's kind

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<v Speaker 4>of a long story.

0:24:25.960 --> 0:24:28.520
<v Speaker 1>A lot of this goes back to, well, let me

0:24:28.680 --> 0:24:33.200
<v Speaker 1>ask you this, what do you know about Anna's social life?

0:24:34.840 --> 0:24:36.760
<v Speaker 4>I know she was in a tough spot.

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<v Speaker 13>It was sexual, some rumors in any window, harsh stuff

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<v Speaker 13>with you guys.

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<v Speaker 1>I'm actually surprised Monica even knows that Anna was going

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<v Speaker 1>through a lot that fall. There's a reason the mean

0:24:48.680 --> 0:24:50.679
<v Speaker 1>girls were picking on her, and there was a reason

0:24:50.720 --> 0:24:52.399
<v Speaker 1>that I was running around the woods that night with

0:24:52.480 --> 0:24:55.919
<v Speaker 1>my friends. And this is the most uncomfortable part of

0:24:55.960 --> 0:24:59.160
<v Speaker 1>doing this podcast, because in order to really get into

0:24:59.200 --> 0:25:01.640
<v Speaker 1>the story, I'm going to have to get into what

0:25:01.840 --> 0:25:04.639
<v Speaker 1>was going on among us kids in ways that will

0:25:05.080 --> 0:25:09.000
<v Speaker 1>probably be hard to confront. But as it turns out,

0:25:09.359 --> 0:25:13.680
<v Speaker 1>even Sheriff Maldonado, who was indeed the correct official investigator,

0:25:14.080 --> 0:25:16.760
<v Speaker 1>he knew some of this. Well, I know she had

0:25:17.000 --> 0:25:18.479
<v Speaker 1>a REP. I do know that.

0:25:18.560 --> 0:25:19.240
<v Speaker 4>I remember that.

0:25:19.880 --> 0:25:23.359
<v Speaker 1>I tracked down Maldonado easily just to google away. It

0:25:23.359 --> 0:25:27.040
<v Speaker 1>turns out he's retired now, but he remembered the case immediately.

0:25:27.320 --> 0:25:28.080
<v Speaker 4>Well, yes, and no.

0:25:28.119 --> 0:25:31.000
<v Speaker 2>I mean we tend to assume run away with a

0:25:31.040 --> 0:25:34.000
<v Speaker 2>team like that, you know, But then there were also

0:25:34.040 --> 0:25:36.879
<v Speaker 2>other things there. You had that home situation that she

0:25:37.040 --> 0:25:39.680
<v Speaker 2>was in, and you know, that's not something that we're

0:25:39.760 --> 0:25:43.320
<v Speaker 2>used to dealing with. Then there was the fire, the

0:25:43.359 --> 0:25:46.960
<v Speaker 2>fire that there was for a loop, and then I

0:25:47.000 --> 0:25:50.680
<v Speaker 2>do remember we found her car down south of here.

0:25:51.080 --> 0:25:54.280
<v Speaker 1>Anna's car technically it was her mom's car was found

0:25:54.320 --> 0:25:56.280
<v Speaker 1>almost a month later in a parking lot near the

0:25:56.320 --> 0:25:57.400
<v Speaker 1>San Francisco Airport.

0:25:57.840 --> 0:25:59.800
<v Speaker 2>Well, finding the car like that that pushed us in

0:25:59.840 --> 0:26:03.640
<v Speaker 2>the in the runaway direction, you know. Uh, But at

0:26:03.640 --> 0:26:07.880
<v Speaker 2>the same time we had the bullets and then uh yeah,

0:26:07.920 --> 0:26:08.760
<v Speaker 2>there was there was just.

0:26:08.720 --> 0:26:10.199
<v Speaker 1>A lot of a lot of loose ends with that.

0:26:11.280 --> 0:26:12.880
<v Speaker 4>Mm hmmmmm.

0:26:13.920 --> 0:26:19.040
<v Speaker 2>Man, uh, you just calling me, that's that's uh bringing

0:26:19.080 --> 0:26:20.040
<v Speaker 2>it back, that's for sure.

0:26:20.720 --> 0:26:22.240
<v Speaker 1>He agreed to talk with me, so we made a

0:26:22.240 --> 0:26:23.960
<v Speaker 1>plan to meet at his house and sit down for

0:26:24.000 --> 0:26:32.359
<v Speaker 1>an interview. After my utter fail at the police station,

0:26:32.880 --> 0:26:34.880
<v Speaker 1>Chris and I went to the Pine Cone Diner, which

0:26:34.920 --> 0:26:37.760
<v Speaker 1>is one of our favorite old downtown spots. This is

0:26:37.800 --> 0:26:40.600
<v Speaker 1>the real stuff, the stuff that everybody cuts out of

0:26:40.600 --> 0:26:43.720
<v Speaker 1>their podcast. That that's gonna say. That's I just want

0:26:43.800 --> 0:26:45.520
<v Speaker 1>I just want to make sure that you know the

0:26:45.600 --> 0:26:47.679
<v Speaker 1>sharer or whoever it is like that. I want them

0:26:47.680 --> 0:26:51.000
<v Speaker 1>to take me seriously. If they don't arrest you, Oh

0:26:51.000 --> 0:26:52.840
<v Speaker 1>come on, then why would they arrest because you lied

0:26:52.880 --> 0:26:54.200
<v Speaker 1>to the Okay.

0:26:54.600 --> 0:26:55.679
<v Speaker 4>Yeah, we're gonna thank you.

0:26:56.680 --> 0:26:59.480
<v Speaker 9>Oh my god, I love her.

0:26:59.680 --> 0:27:03.399
<v Speaker 1>Look I'm saying, is teke to be to exhale, like

0:27:03.960 --> 0:27:07.080
<v Speaker 1>cover your bases. Like have you talked to a lawyer?

0:27:07.640 --> 0:27:09.359
<v Speaker 1>You should talk to my brother in law. I like,

0:27:09.440 --> 0:27:12.440
<v Speaker 1>find out where you stand legally. Well, I mean I

0:27:12.480 --> 0:27:14.840
<v Speaker 1>already talked to Monica the reporter. You did, Yeah, I

0:27:14.960 --> 0:27:15.920
<v Speaker 1>just with her before I left.

0:27:16.160 --> 0:27:20.320
<v Speaker 4>What did she say? Okay? Okay? Well that was always

0:27:20.320 --> 0:27:21.280
<v Speaker 4>one of the big questions.

0:27:21.600 --> 0:27:24.160
<v Speaker 1>For the first time I had broken the pinky swear.

0:27:24.400 --> 0:27:27.560
<v Speaker 13>I guess I'm honestly, I'm not sure. Does that answer

0:27:27.880 --> 0:27:30.440
<v Speaker 13>things or does that just create more questions?

0:27:30.640 --> 0:27:30.800
<v Speaker 4>Right?

0:27:31.240 --> 0:27:34.240
<v Speaker 1>I mean, that's kind of my whole with this podcast,

0:27:34.760 --> 0:27:47.919
<v Speaker 1>That's what I want to find out. I told Monica

0:27:47.960 --> 0:27:50.800
<v Speaker 1>the truth that the night er sister disappeared, Willow started

0:27:50.800 --> 0:27:54.000
<v Speaker 1>the fire. She's gonna didn't immediately say lawyer.

0:27:53.840 --> 0:27:54.800
<v Speaker 4>Up, No, no.

0:27:55.600 --> 0:27:58.800
<v Speaker 1>And I know some of you might be thinking, why

0:27:58.920 --> 0:28:02.480
<v Speaker 1>keep this a secret? We knew Willow had accidentally started

0:28:02.480 --> 0:28:04.720
<v Speaker 1>the fire, and we thought that if it came back

0:28:04.760 --> 0:28:08.040
<v Speaker 1>to her, she might get arrested for arson on top

0:28:08.119 --> 0:28:12.800
<v Speaker 1>of losing her sister. But I'll be honest, I didn't

0:28:13.160 --> 0:28:17.000
<v Speaker 1>really think through all that. I was fifteen, Willa was

0:28:17.040 --> 0:28:20.439
<v Speaker 1>my friend. I didn't tell anyone because she asked me

0:28:20.480 --> 0:28:22.520
<v Speaker 1>not to. Yeah, That's what I'm saying.

0:28:22.600 --> 0:28:24.919
<v Speaker 4>So it made not It just might not change anything.

0:28:25.119 --> 0:28:27.200
<v Speaker 1>Maybe not. But while we had lunch, I got out

0:28:27.200 --> 0:28:29.280
<v Speaker 1>my notes. Fine, let's just go over the theory. Yes,

0:28:29.400 --> 0:28:32.440
<v Speaker 1>let's talk about what we do know what we need

0:28:32.440 --> 0:28:36.760
<v Speaker 1>to know. Theory number one, Anna ran away the most

0:28:36.880 --> 0:28:40.960
<v Speaker 1>likely situation by leeps and guts Okay, I mean that's

0:28:40.960 --> 0:28:44.040
<v Speaker 1>what everyone I think, that's what everyone assumes. But I

0:28:44.080 --> 0:28:46.440
<v Speaker 1>have a hard time imagining that she changed her name

0:28:46.520 --> 0:28:50.440
<v Speaker 1>and ran off to I Don't wear and has never

0:28:50.480 --> 0:28:53.960
<v Speaker 1>called anybody, and now she's just what Sippy Martini is

0:28:54.000 --> 0:28:56.720
<v Speaker 1>on a rooftop somewhere. That sounds lovely. Theory Number two,

0:28:57.240 --> 0:29:02.000
<v Speaker 1>someone killed Anna that night, right, But well there's l Rick,

0:29:02.560 --> 0:29:06.920
<v Speaker 1>the leader of tender Hearts, because he's a very shady guy. Yes,

0:29:07.080 --> 0:29:10.880
<v Speaker 1>maybe people except shady people. From all that I know.

0:29:10.920 --> 0:29:13.680
<v Speaker 1>The cops did look into him, and he was exonerated.

0:29:13.160 --> 0:29:13.520
<v Speaker 5>At the time.

0:29:13.680 --> 0:29:17.720
<v Speaker 1>Oh exonerate. It's just stup, look at you. I think

0:29:17.720 --> 0:29:19.200
<v Speaker 1>in order to get more information about that, I need

0:29:19.240 --> 0:29:22.160
<v Speaker 1>to talk to Laney, because Laney is Willow and Anna's mom.

0:29:22.600 --> 0:29:24.880
<v Speaker 1>But she hadn't responded to any of my calls or

0:29:24.880 --> 0:29:28.440
<v Speaker 1>Facebook messages. There's gonna be her worst killer, says I know,

0:29:28.960 --> 0:29:32.840
<v Speaker 1>so I'm not looking forward to There's also always the

0:29:32.960 --> 0:29:37.480
<v Speaker 1>chance that it was a random Yeah, sure, some psycho

0:29:37.560 --> 0:29:40.360
<v Speaker 1>killer just driving. That happens all the time. And have

0:29:40.440 --> 0:29:43.680
<v Speaker 1>you not seen the dateline? On dateline, it's always the husband.

0:29:43.840 --> 0:29:45.960
<v Speaker 1>She was too young to have a husband, yes, but

0:29:46.000 --> 0:29:47.920
<v Speaker 1>the husband in this game. No, the husband in this

0:29:48.000 --> 0:29:51.560
<v Speaker 1>case is Mick, right, that is the theory. But they

0:29:51.600 --> 0:29:55.240
<v Speaker 1>never brought charges. But maybe once I tell the cops

0:29:55.480 --> 0:29:56.160
<v Speaker 1>what we were.

0:29:56.000 --> 0:29:57.840
<v Speaker 9>Doing that night or coffee?

0:29:58.120 --> 0:30:00.240
<v Speaker 1>Yes, was the coffee here?

0:30:00.280 --> 0:30:03.480
<v Speaker 4>Always this terrible Jesus Gars terrible.

0:30:03.600 --> 0:30:05.560
<v Speaker 1>Well, my friend is doing a podcast and we are

0:30:05.600 --> 0:30:07.600
<v Speaker 1>trying to be very honest, so I'm just gonna lay

0:30:07.600 --> 0:30:08.160
<v Speaker 1>it on the table.

0:30:08.360 --> 0:30:09.600
<v Speaker 4>This coffee is terrible.

0:30:09.720 --> 0:30:12.800
<v Speaker 1>But you, my dear, are it light. You're wonderful.

0:30:14.280 --> 0:30:18.080
<v Speaker 4>Thank you, thank you, thank you, And if you.

0:30:18.160 --> 0:30:20.280
<v Speaker 9>Need anything else, wave mede down.

0:30:20.440 --> 0:30:24.280
<v Speaker 1>I might think of something. Are you kitty the waitress?

0:30:24.800 --> 0:30:26.720
<v Speaker 1>I mean, what you want me to call fee on?

0:30:27.000 --> 0:30:31.080
<v Speaker 1>She's just calm down, some random waitress with the pine

0:30:31.120 --> 0:30:35.800
<v Speaker 1>co Oh my god? What lighting up?

0:30:35.960 --> 0:30:39.880
<v Speaker 4>Okay, but excuse me. My friend here thinks that I

0:30:40.040 --> 0:30:43.479
<v Speaker 4>was hitting on you. Now look I'm clearly married, and okay,

0:30:43.640 --> 0:30:47.880
<v Speaker 4>I got it. I was joking. Yes I know. Oh

0:30:48.000 --> 0:30:48.960
<v Speaker 4>I know she knows.

0:30:49.200 --> 0:30:49.640
<v Speaker 1>Do you know?

0:30:49.800 --> 0:30:49.960
<v Speaker 9>Yes?

0:30:50.040 --> 0:30:51.080
<v Speaker 1>Now I know? Now you know?

0:30:51.320 --> 0:30:51.480
<v Speaker 6>Yes?

0:30:51.560 --> 0:30:51.680
<v Speaker 9>Oh?

0:30:51.720 --> 0:30:54.000
<v Speaker 1>Now I'm sorry. Sorry, I'm sorry.

0:30:55.000 --> 0:30:55.600
<v Speaker 4>What are you sorry for it?

0:30:55.680 --> 0:30:58.480
<v Speaker 1>For being too sensitive? For thinking that you were making

0:30:58.480 --> 0:31:02.040
<v Speaker 1>her uncomfortable? You're it's fine, Yes, we're good.

0:31:02.040 --> 0:31:02.400
<v Speaker 4>Thank you.

0:31:02.440 --> 0:31:06.239
<v Speaker 1>I'm sorry you are such a debute downer. Can you

0:31:06.280 --> 0:31:10.680
<v Speaker 1>please just lighten up. Let's have fun. There'll be the brooding, sad,

0:31:10.800 --> 0:31:16.040
<v Speaker 1>sack reformed child actor. Okay, you're not going to crack

0:31:16.080 --> 0:31:19.760
<v Speaker 1>this case, buddy, Okay, I know, but I gotta try it.

0:31:20.640 --> 0:31:23.360
<v Speaker 1>I knew I wasn't going to solve anything, but I

0:31:23.400 --> 0:31:25.800
<v Speaker 1>hoped that looking back at this time in my life,

0:31:26.240 --> 0:31:28.560
<v Speaker 1>I might be able to understand some things that never

0:31:28.600 --> 0:31:33.200
<v Speaker 1>made sense and in some way and maybe this wasn't healthy.

0:31:34.240 --> 0:31:37.800
<v Speaker 1>I felt like I owed that to Willow and my parents.

0:31:37.840 --> 0:31:41.160
<v Speaker 1>That night round a campfire, Chris and I got into it.

0:31:42.920 --> 0:31:46.400
<v Speaker 1>Guess when I just think about Willow, you know how

0:31:46.440 --> 0:31:49.760
<v Speaker 1>she was when we were teenagers, complete mess, right, But

0:31:49.920 --> 0:31:53.320
<v Speaker 1>you know I wrote her off? Yeah, I guess because

0:31:53.320 --> 0:31:54.160
<v Speaker 1>I was out of town all.

0:31:54.080 --> 0:31:56.640
<v Speaker 12>The time, and the drugs that she did, and her

0:31:56.720 --> 0:31:58.920
<v Speaker 12>bad attitude and the way she slept.

0:31:58.680 --> 0:32:02.040
<v Speaker 1>Around right right there that you know, we were still

0:32:02.760 --> 0:32:07.360
<v Speaker 1>in the era of slugshaming and not like you and

0:32:07.400 --> 0:32:11.040
<v Speaker 1>I did that. But I definitely I felt like she

0:32:11.120 --> 0:32:14.720
<v Speaker 1>was going down this path and I didn't. I don't

0:32:14.720 --> 0:32:16.280
<v Speaker 1>know how to deal with it. I don't want to

0:32:16.320 --> 0:32:19.560
<v Speaker 1>deal with it. Willow isn't an easy figure to describe

0:32:19.600 --> 0:32:22.680
<v Speaker 1>in my life. I might have met her earlier, but

0:32:23.400 --> 0:32:25.680
<v Speaker 1>I didn't really connect with Willow until I was seven

0:32:25.800 --> 0:32:27.720
<v Speaker 1>or so, when I ran into her in the woods,

0:32:27.960 --> 0:32:31.520
<v Speaker 1>this barefoot girl with hand me down clothes. We used

0:32:31.560 --> 0:32:35.520
<v Speaker 1>to meet between our properties. We'd climb trees, find salamanders,

0:32:35.720 --> 0:32:40.000
<v Speaker 1>banana slugs, play house, play war. She sort of felt

0:32:40.000 --> 0:32:46.560
<v Speaker 1>like an imaginary friend for a while. She was funny, fearless.

0:32:47.440 --> 0:32:49.680
<v Speaker 1>I mean, I went back to my house every night.

0:32:49.760 --> 0:32:52.960
<v Speaker 1>But her house back then was a teepee and later

0:32:52.960 --> 0:32:55.400
<v Speaker 1>they had a building a shack, but I think she

0:32:55.520 --> 0:32:57.360
<v Speaker 1>still slept out in the woods a lot of nights.

0:32:58.560 --> 0:33:01.120
<v Speaker 1>My brother thought she was crazy. She threw rocks at

0:33:01.200 --> 0:33:03.800
<v Speaker 1>him once and he never got over that. My mom

0:33:03.920 --> 0:33:07.880
<v Speaker 1>said she has spunk, and my dad said watch out

0:33:07.920 --> 0:33:11.600
<v Speaker 1>for that one. But you know that was a compliment.

0:33:12.800 --> 0:33:15.120
<v Speaker 1>She was there when I broke my arm. I was

0:33:15.120 --> 0:33:18.600
<v Speaker 1>there when she stepped on a yellowjacket hive. She taught

0:33:18.640 --> 0:33:19.720
<v Speaker 1>me how to make.

0:33:19.560 --> 0:33:22.560
<v Speaker 8>A spear and how to skin a squirrel. She was

0:33:22.800 --> 0:33:26.480
<v Speaker 8>my best friend. She was my first kiss. For a

0:33:26.520 --> 0:33:28.840
<v Speaker 8>lot of reasons, we drifted apart in high.

0:33:28.680 --> 0:33:31.720
<v Speaker 1>School, not the least of which I ended up on

0:33:31.760 --> 0:33:32.800
<v Speaker 1>a TV show for seven years.

0:33:33.960 --> 0:33:35.080
<v Speaker 4>Oh what the heck with that? Marry me?

0:33:35.160 --> 0:33:36.760
<v Speaker 1>I live in a trailer park and I have no education,

0:33:36.800 --> 0:33:41.200
<v Speaker 1>but my hair does this? Shut up? Man, I'm going

0:33:41.200 --> 0:33:43.080
<v Speaker 1>for it. I had been acting since I was little,

0:33:43.280 --> 0:33:45.640
<v Speaker 1>doing plays in Santa Rosa, which is the biggest town

0:33:45.680 --> 0:33:50.160
<v Speaker 1>about thirty minutes away. And then I got lucky. I

0:33:50.360 --> 0:33:53.880
<v Speaker 1>was discovered. Boy Meet's World took over my life, took

0:33:53.880 --> 0:33:56.840
<v Speaker 1>me away from Sebastamal to go work in La put

0:33:56.880 --> 0:34:00.760
<v Speaker 1>me in magazines and on TV every Friday night. And

0:34:00.800 --> 0:34:03.000
<v Speaker 1>even though I still went to school back home and

0:34:03.200 --> 0:34:09.719
<v Speaker 1>I flew home every weekend, it wasn't the same. I

0:34:09.800 --> 0:34:14.160
<v Speaker 1>never really fit in in my hometown. And Willow and

0:34:14.160 --> 0:34:20.680
<v Speaker 1>I got older, we got different. There was a moment

0:34:20.719 --> 0:34:24.440
<v Speaker 1>when it seemed like we should date, so we did,

0:34:27.080 --> 0:34:29.920
<v Speaker 1>but then we went back to just being friends. I

0:34:29.960 --> 0:34:32.440
<v Speaker 1>woke up one day and realized I hadn't talked to

0:34:32.440 --> 0:34:36.879
<v Speaker 1>her for years. I was twenty years old when boy

0:34:36.920 --> 0:34:39.440
<v Speaker 1>Met's World ended. I moved to New York and Willow

0:34:39.440 --> 0:34:44.040
<v Speaker 1>and I lost touch. And then the letter. So you

0:34:44.080 --> 0:34:48.160
<v Speaker 1>feel like you bailed on her? Kind of yeah, didn't you.

0:34:48.719 --> 0:34:51.360
<v Speaker 1>I mean, I guess yes, because all of us guys

0:34:51.440 --> 0:34:54.360
<v Speaker 1>managed to stay in touch, right, we managed to stay friends,

0:34:54.840 --> 0:34:59.640
<v Speaker 1>You and me, Connor and Oriyan, not Willow, And that's fucked.

0:35:01.520 --> 0:35:04.799
<v Speaker 1>She lost her sister and her whole family situation. Just

0:35:05.200 --> 0:35:08.240
<v Speaker 1>I feel like maybe if we had told the truth

0:35:08.280 --> 0:35:11.080
<v Speaker 1>back then she asked us not to, she bret. But

0:35:11.120 --> 0:35:14.560
<v Speaker 1>you can see that was obviously the wrong call. You're

0:35:14.600 --> 0:35:16.239
<v Speaker 1>in full martyr mode right now.

0:35:16.320 --> 0:35:16.560
<v Speaker 4>Dude.

0:35:16.560 --> 0:35:20.720
<v Speaker 1>You're in for a world of pain. I don't understand

0:35:20.719 --> 0:35:22.239
<v Speaker 1>because you're the ones telling me that I should be

0:35:22.239 --> 0:35:25.719
<v Speaker 1>honest and leave in everything, like going to the wrong.

0:35:25.520 --> 0:35:28.640
<v Speaker 12>Cops because that's funny, because that's entertaining, and that's not

0:35:28.719 --> 0:35:30.400
<v Speaker 12>potentially going to get you arrested.

0:35:30.480 --> 0:35:33.040
<v Speaker 1>You keep saying that why would we be arrested because

0:35:33.080 --> 0:35:36.640
<v Speaker 1>Willow accidentally started the fire, accidentally started a fire. That

0:35:36.640 --> 0:35:40.759
<v Speaker 1>that is not at all what happened. What are you

0:35:40.760 --> 0:35:43.200
<v Speaker 1>talking about? What are you talking I'm with the pinkies

0:35:43.239 --> 0:35:46.000
<v Speaker 1>where the barn. Yeah, she lit the barn on right

0:35:46.040 --> 0:35:47.919
<v Speaker 1>with the sixties that we had because she was trying

0:35:47.920 --> 0:35:49.759
<v Speaker 1>to scare them. It was not an accident. She didn't

0:35:49.760 --> 0:35:54.000
<v Speaker 1>accidentally drop m sixties. She saw that weed, and she

0:35:54.120 --> 0:35:56.759
<v Speaker 1>lit it all on fire. What this was the first

0:35:56.800 --> 0:36:00.839
<v Speaker 1>I'd heard this. Apparently the barn that Willow burn was

0:36:00.880 --> 0:36:02.439
<v Speaker 1>full of marijuana.

0:36:02.160 --> 0:36:04.879
<v Speaker 12>From Florida ceiling wald wall was most weed I've ever

0:36:04.920 --> 0:36:07.560
<v Speaker 12>seen in my life, and Willow burned it down to

0:36:07.640 --> 0:36:09.040
<v Speaker 12>the ground intentionally.

0:36:11.640 --> 0:36:13.000
<v Speaker 4>Did you really not know that?

0:36:22.080 --> 0:36:24.560
<v Speaker 1>Aren't you calling this thing the red weather because of

0:36:24.600 --> 0:36:27.880
<v Speaker 1>the fire? No? No, from a walla Stephens poem.

0:36:27.960 --> 0:36:32.920
<v Speaker 12>Oh, of course an obscure poets even more obscure poem.

0:36:33.160 --> 0:36:37.120
<v Speaker 1>Holy Christ writer, No one cares. Willow started that fire.

0:36:37.400 --> 0:36:40.000
<v Speaker 1>She took out four houses, burned to the ground because

0:36:40.040 --> 0:36:43.399
<v Speaker 1>she found a craft ton of drugs in that barn.

0:36:43.680 --> 0:36:47.160
<v Speaker 1>Where'd the pod come from? You should probably find out,

0:36:47.239 --> 0:36:51.640
<v Speaker 1>shouldn't we. I was only two days into recording, and

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<v Speaker 1>already I felt like I had no idea what I

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<v Speaker 1>was getting into. For what it's worth, the title from

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<v Speaker 1>a poem called Disillusionment of ten o'clock. Here it is.

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<v Speaker 1>It's short. The houses are haunted by white nightcounts. A

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<v Speaker 1>nun are green or purple with green rings, or green

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<v Speaker 1>with yellow rings, or yellow with blue rings. None of

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<v Speaker 1>them are strange with socks of lace and peedded censures

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<v Speaker 1>people are not going to dream of baboons and periwinkles.

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<v Speaker 1>Only here and there. An old sailor, drunk and asleep

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<v Speaker 1>in his boots, catches tigers in red Weather. It's tough

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<v Speaker 1>to not conform. Maybe impossible. We wear the same nightcowns,

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<v Speaker 1>we have the same dreams. And if I think about

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<v Speaker 1>how my parents, how Willow and Anna's mom, just the

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<v Speaker 1>baby boomers in general, they had such high hopes. It

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<v Speaker 1>really thought that they could change the world and remake

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<v Speaker 1>it for us kids. And they tried protests, the sex,

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<v Speaker 1>drugs and rock and roll, running off into the woods

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<v Speaker 1>to build houses, to join communes. I want to believe

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<v Speaker 1>that it meant something, but it did some good. But

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<v Speaker 1>maybe not. Maybe they were just catching tigers and red Weather.

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<v Speaker 1>The Red Weather is an iHeart podcast hosted by writer Strong,

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<v Speaker 1>sound engineering, editing and mixing by Bo milkis produced by

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<v Speaker 1>Tess Bartholomey, executive producers at iHeartRadio, Trevor Young and Matt Frederick,

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<v Speaker 1>Associate producer Bo milkis original score by Kyle Morgan. If

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<v Speaker 1>you're enjoying the show, please remember to leave a review

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<v Speaker 1>in rating. Thanks for listening.