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Speaker 1: What's up West Up. It's Angela Yee. I'm g G MacGuire.

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Speaker 1: I'm stepping in Santiago and we have a really special

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Speaker 1: guest with us on lip service, and I mean really special,

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Speaker 1: really special. This is very exciting for all of us. Yes,

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Speaker 1: your girls are making me feel really good. And I

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Speaker 1: know you know that voice, that's my big girl voice.

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Speaker 1: By the way, Fantage is here with us. Yes, exciting, Yes,

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Speaker 1: and we're all excited. I was like, Fantage is gonna

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Speaker 1: come and was watching y'all. Y'all be cutting up, y'all

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Speaker 1: be cutting up. I was like, please let me go

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Speaker 1: because y'all know had me laughing the whole time already

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Speaker 1: in a week, and you're so sophisticated and whatnot. So

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Speaker 1: I was like, it's Fantage, You're gonna you know, you

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Speaker 1: know what. You know my background, don't you? I do?

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Speaker 1: But you know what I feel like, there's been like

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Speaker 1: this evolution of Fantasier, you know, as all of us

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Speaker 1: should be evolving. Right when Fantasia first came out, it

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Speaker 1: was like, okay, and we love like every single version

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Speaker 1: of you, you know what I mean. We've had a

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Speaker 1: lot of versions, yes, No, and American Idol was amazing.

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Speaker 1: I watched that. That's how far back I go for

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Speaker 1: career with that girl there amazing years. She remember that

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Speaker 1: you were killing it there. I was. I was the

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Speaker 1: let's see, the underdog. I was the one. I caught

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Speaker 1: a lot of hell on American Idol because I was honest.

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Speaker 1: I was honest. Like when they passed me to Mike,

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Speaker 1: I just started talking. Nobody told me like, you know, hey,

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Speaker 1: you might want to And if they told me that anyway,

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Speaker 1: I probably wouldn't have done it because then then I'm

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Speaker 1: being faith So I caught a lot of flat. It

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Speaker 1: wasn't until I did summertime that people kind of change

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Speaker 1: their mind and was like, yo, okay, so let's just

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Speaker 1: overlook all of the bad stuff, which for me, I

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Speaker 1: don't feel like it's bad stuff. And it's yeah because

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Speaker 1: Barno polished no. But that's why. But you know, that's

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Speaker 1: what the world has become where you have to be

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Speaker 1: pretending to be all ye really perfectly you know how

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Speaker 1: you know that was a long time ago. You're a

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Speaker 1: daughter graduated. Yes, my girl is eighteen. That's crazy, I know,

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Speaker 1: and she's driving. I don't like, why did she be

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Speaker 1: picking you up from the airport and stuff. Because Mama

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Speaker 1: lit nervous. I tired. I got out there and taught

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Speaker 1: her how to drive. I got out there and I

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Speaker 1: worked with her. But I don't know. I guess anyway,

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Speaker 1: mother's anybody. She'll be twenty three next month. So are

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Speaker 1: you nervous When she got ready to hit the street. No,

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Speaker 1: I was ready because I was happy to get up

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Speaker 1: to take her to school. At the time, I was

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Speaker 1: still stripping, and I would just be coming in the

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Speaker 1: house at four or five o'clock in the morning, and

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Speaker 1: she waking me up at seven, talking about I need

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Speaker 1: to go go, bitch, take the car. She had a

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Speaker 1: couple of accidents. She did well. No, she had all that,

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Speaker 1: but not bad ones. Just like she she she hit

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Speaker 1: a park car. She did what she r How did

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Speaker 1: she hit a park car? I drive a Jaguar, And

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Speaker 1: when she drives my car, when I minute, she drip.

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Speaker 1: I was like driving this daisy. But when she drives

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Speaker 1: my car when I'm not in it, she drives like

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Speaker 1: fast and furious. So she came out of the garage

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Speaker 1: scart and it was a little too close to the

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Speaker 1: car that was parked a little too close to the

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Speaker 1: driveway and it wasn't a good situation. Yeah, that's not

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Speaker 1: part of the experience of learning. You don't have any accidents.

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Speaker 1: I had when I first stepped my license. But no,

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Speaker 1: this was recent. This was you didn't They used to

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Speaker 1: call me and my best friend Thumber and Louise. We

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Speaker 1: had so many accents and like bad ones I remember,

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Speaker 1: and always in some place we wasn't supposed to be.

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Speaker 1: That's why he had asked. I know, like I remember,

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Speaker 1: we just got my friend just got her license, and

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Speaker 1: she was like, okay. She told her mom we was

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Speaker 1: going to the movies and that's all we was. We

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Speaker 1: wasn't going to no movie. We were going to see

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Speaker 1: some boys up. And she was turning left in front

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Speaker 1: of a car that was coming straight and the car

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Speaker 1: hit us, and that was that. She Lord, please set here,

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Speaker 1: though I know, I'll just I don't know. I ain't

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Speaker 1: gotten used to. I know she's gonna be driving and

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Speaker 1: I'm gonna have to just keep her. But good job.

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Speaker 1: But that's a good feeling. I have an eighteen year old,

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Speaker 1: you know, and she's driving and things are good. It

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Speaker 1: makes you feel like I did it. Yeah, I'm proud

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Speaker 1: of the fact that she graduated. She's breaking generational curses. Yeah,

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Speaker 1: I mean everything that they said, you know, I went back,

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Speaker 1: was like I was when they called her name. I

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Speaker 1: so she's very quiet and she don't like all that.

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Speaker 1: But I was like, sweetheart, you don't understand. I had

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Speaker 1: the same I can relate. I had the same experience.

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Speaker 1: I didn't graduate high school. My daughter graduated and you know,

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Speaker 1: did very well in school, went on the college that

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Speaker 1: I didn't do, and I was at her graduation the

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Speaker 1: same way, screaming that, yeah, I had to do it.

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Speaker 1: I had to do something very proud of she did.

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Speaker 1: She grow up like people being like your Min's Fantasia. No, actually,

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Speaker 1: Zigning was very laid back and she still is to

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Speaker 1: this day. But people knew around her though I'm sure,

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Speaker 1: um not really, and I would be like, how did

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Speaker 1: you you know, how did you do it? She just

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Speaker 1: don't say much, or she would ask me, and he

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Speaker 1: used to hurt my feelings. She would ask me like

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Speaker 1: not to come right, and I'll be like, girl, why

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Speaker 1: she didn't like all the attention and such a leo.

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Speaker 1: She's just like yo. She also didn't want to live

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Speaker 1: under my shadows. Still to this day, she's like, I

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Speaker 1: don't want you get me nothing. I'm gonna go do

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Speaker 1: it myself. Momy, I don't need you know. Yeah, she

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Speaker 1: said people in her car she'd be like, no things.

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Speaker 1: Now she took that. I know she said she was good.

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Speaker 1: Do it on your own. She took that car. But yeah,

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Speaker 1: she don't like all the hype. So now the new

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Speaker 1: single PTSD yea post traumatic sexist or explain that's okay.

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Speaker 1: So you know, my thing is, don't if you're gonna

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Speaker 1: come through, come through. Don't say you can do something

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Speaker 1: you can't do it. I just felt like a lot

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Speaker 1: of people go through it. I'm good right now, but

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Speaker 1: all my friends are like, girl, I'm mad. And I

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Speaker 1: gave him a chance he wouldn't need know. All that

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Speaker 1: You know, guys, when they bragged, that's when you know

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Speaker 1: they're not good in that. When they still brag like that,

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Speaker 1: I mean, do they still do that? It's a flag.

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Speaker 1: That's how you because a guy would you know he's

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Speaker 1: good you don't got to say ship right, like that's

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Speaker 1: the one that like the ones that here, he's like,

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Speaker 1: I don't brag on my dick. You know, they don't

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Speaker 1: have to know. But when when a guy's quiet, that's

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Speaker 1: when you gotta be careful. He's gonna break your pussy.

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Speaker 1: You don't careful, Yeah, when careful, make it like, oh

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Speaker 1: my god, this guy is a monster. The baby to

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Speaker 1: come out of it. That ain't good though, That ain't

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Speaker 1: even got Some guys think that making you not be

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Speaker 1: able to walk after sex is good. No, that's you

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Speaker 1: know how they like that, like you got it, I

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Speaker 1: can't even walk. That's because you know, we'd be lying

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Speaker 1: too sometimes what we why why you would you say that?

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Speaker 1: What you mean? You know, like sometimes that guy does

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Speaker 1: a good job, but we make it like really extra.

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Speaker 1: Yeah when that was the best ever? Tell y'all now

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Speaker 1: that going to know that you do? You know we exaggerate,

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Speaker 1: you know at the time is always the best I

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Speaker 1: ever had, every single sign. It's just God that does that.

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Speaker 1: I can't even say much on this. They all got

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Speaker 1: the biggest dick I have. The last one is always

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Speaker 1: the best. They all taste the best. You got to

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Speaker 1: do it. I can't say much. You know I'm married

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Speaker 1: and you don't. I'm sure you tell your husband right

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Speaker 1: there you go. That's why, girl, that's why you think

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Speaker 1: you could have married him if it wasn't good. You

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Speaker 1: think you could have married him if it wasn't good. Huh,

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Speaker 1: I'm gonna be honest. No, No, i'mna be. I'm a cancer.

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Speaker 1: What I'm to love and a certain kind of way. Yeah,

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Speaker 1: attention affection. Yeah, what's your sign? Jim and Jim Jim, Jim,

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Speaker 1: they're crazy right behind you, June thirty. And my mother's

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Speaker 1: a gym. My brother, my little brother is a gym,

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Speaker 1: so I know you know about it. Oh God, you

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Speaker 1: didn't get nothing out of a said. They're quiet, y'all

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Speaker 1: say nothing? Still, I mean we didn't. We could keep

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Speaker 1: I could keep a secret bus sometimes I talk and

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Speaker 1: talk and talking, never stop talking, talk over people, no relationships. No,

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Speaker 1: we could eat everything. We eat everything up. We won't

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Speaker 1: say nothing until Yeah it's a sad and he don't ever.

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Speaker 1: I don't ever see him explode. I explode. Yeah, definitely

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Speaker 1: a type of person you could be. And she about

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Speaker 1: to explode. She's standing outside while you were here, and

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Speaker 1: be like, girl, come back and hear the food getting cold,

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Speaker 1: But I can never control myself. Like I found myself

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Speaker 1: on dam. She would be like, I gotta get this uber,

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Speaker 1: I gotta go capricorn. Cap Okay, what does that mean?

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Speaker 1: I don't really get much on just very practical people,

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Speaker 1: loyal and loving, make a friend anywhere you go. But

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Speaker 1: if you cross, if you cross that you ever get

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Speaker 1: over right. Yeah, I'll be cordial though, but I ain't

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Speaker 1: go back with you, y'all. Cordials like it's dry, it's

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Speaker 1: it's so evil. Cordial how you doing okay, I see

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Speaker 1: you doing good? Not I love me. I like you

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Speaker 1: you thank you? You got little feet? No, actually these sneaks,

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Speaker 1: they just your feet, little little beside faces and five three,

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Speaker 1: So for my hate your HEIGHTE that I got big feet.

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Speaker 1: But you know when you gotta wear shoes a little

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Speaker 1: like that because they look like they ask clunky shoes,

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Speaker 1: like you hands. You're not five three, You're shorter than

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Speaker 1: five three. I was stamat, now you're not let's see. No,

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Speaker 1: I promise you, my baby. So I'm just we're gorge

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Speaker 1: by something. No, I like five three is kind of

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Speaker 1: average height. Not canna tell you you know what I

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Speaker 1: was using, though. We're gonna move on from that. Do

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Speaker 1: you have a singing bed? No? I have an extually

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Speaker 1: thing to him? Yeah, and I don't do it. My

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Speaker 1: husband getting mad at me all the time, like, yo,

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Speaker 1: why you don't have a sing to me? Even know

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Speaker 1: his birthday? On his birthday is since and then my anniversary,

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Speaker 1: I did like an anniversary song. But that is how

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Speaker 1: corny is that? That's when I asked him. I was like,

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Speaker 1: was like, let's run with it. But most of the

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00:22:31,560 --> 00:22:34,280
Speaker 1: album I watched my husband while he was while he

421
00:22:34,400 --> 00:22:37,520
Speaker 1: was making beats, I was watched the man because I

422
00:22:37,600 --> 00:22:40,040
Speaker 1: feel like I've catered to the women. Now I want

423
00:22:40,040 --> 00:22:42,200
Speaker 1: to do something for them. For the men, you bet

424
00:22:42,280 --> 00:22:46,720
Speaker 1: see something else, but I was now I want to

425
00:22:46,760 --> 00:22:49,800
Speaker 1: do something for the dudes. Like I remember when um

426
00:22:50,240 --> 00:22:52,399
Speaker 1: was his name walked up to me from New Orleans

427
00:22:52,520 --> 00:22:56,240
Speaker 1: that had independent what was his name, webbing, Yeah, he

428
00:22:56,359 --> 00:22:59,160
Speaker 1: walked up to me and was like, yay, my baby, mama,

429
00:22:59,520 --> 00:23:01,879
Speaker 1: get on my can know she plays so much. Man,

430
00:23:01,920 --> 00:23:06,679
Speaker 1: you don'na make no music for him niggingin't like sorry.

431
00:23:07,840 --> 00:23:09,280
Speaker 1: So now I'm just like I want to make a

432
00:23:09,359 --> 00:23:10,920
Speaker 1: bout for the dudes. I want them to be able

433
00:23:10,920 --> 00:23:13,159
Speaker 1: to say, yo, I love Fantasia and I can I

434
00:23:13,240 --> 00:23:14,840
Speaker 1: can play this in my car. I'm about to this.

435
00:23:15,119 --> 00:23:18,920
Speaker 1: So when you hear PTSD drop, it's almost like, who know.

436
00:23:18,960 --> 00:23:21,400
Speaker 1: I mean, I don't want no more stats go That's

437
00:23:21,400 --> 00:23:23,240
Speaker 1: what I'm saying. Then you say that because it is

438
00:23:23,240 --> 00:23:25,040
Speaker 1: too because a lot of songs that we love, these

439
00:23:25,080 --> 00:23:27,960
Speaker 1: songs like about how guys ain't ship, you know, how

440
00:23:28,080 --> 00:23:30,920
Speaker 1: he did this and they hate that he played around

441
00:23:30,920 --> 00:23:34,159
Speaker 1: the house and played in the car and they know

442
00:23:34,280 --> 00:23:37,359
Speaker 1: you know you put it on. I don't want that

443
00:23:37,520 --> 00:23:44,119
Speaker 1: no more. I don't. Somebody asked me one, but do

444
00:23:44,280 --> 00:23:47,160
Speaker 1: you still like that song? Because it has a bob

445
00:23:48,359 --> 00:23:51,280
Speaker 1: video and she's smashing your window. She can't get away

446
00:23:51,320 --> 00:23:54,240
Speaker 1: with it. Be can do it. But dude, still rock

447
00:23:54,320 --> 00:23:56,280
Speaker 1: with you. I mean, if your girl playing be in

448
00:23:56,359 --> 00:23:58,320
Speaker 1: the car, you still know like you can rock to

449
00:23:58,400 --> 00:24:01,760
Speaker 1: the b It's still something, dude. So that's why I wanted.

450
00:24:02,000 --> 00:24:04,000
Speaker 1: What's the craziest thing you ever did in a relationship?

451
00:24:04,960 --> 00:24:07,400
Speaker 1: He just talking about breaking windows. I had never done

452
00:24:07,440 --> 00:24:09,720
Speaker 1: nothing crazy. I'll just bounce on him and I shined

453
00:24:09,760 --> 00:24:14,600
Speaker 1: stupid hard. I ain't gonna breaking I won't break nothing.

454
00:24:14,920 --> 00:24:16,960
Speaker 1: Because now I'm showing you that I care. I'm gonna cancel.

455
00:24:17,040 --> 00:24:18,280
Speaker 1: We share a loop. I don't want to show you

456
00:24:18,320 --> 00:24:20,560
Speaker 1: that I care. I want you to feel like she

457
00:24:20,760 --> 00:24:23,879
Speaker 1: just she killed me. I post a picture with somebody

458
00:24:23,920 --> 00:24:27,919
Speaker 1: I don't even know I'm for. Really, you know it's patty.

459
00:24:28,280 --> 00:24:31,080
Speaker 1: At least I didn't break anything. I want to break it.

460
00:24:31,160 --> 00:24:33,480
Speaker 1: I can spit on before I can literally spit on.

461
00:24:36,040 --> 00:24:39,040
Speaker 1: Oh yeah, but all when he did it. Oh, when

462
00:24:39,080 --> 00:24:41,399
Speaker 1: he did it, I took over his whole entire city.

463
00:24:41,480 --> 00:24:43,520
Speaker 1: He called me and begged me, please go home. It's

464
00:24:43,560 --> 00:24:46,959
Speaker 1: my city, showed. I said, not anymore. I know who

465
00:24:47,000 --> 00:24:53,959
Speaker 1: it is. Just say nothing. She said, you said, shalt

466
00:24:54,160 --> 00:24:58,280
Speaker 1: like that. What you thinking is m he's been on

467
00:24:58,359 --> 00:25:03,160
Speaker 1: lip service before? Has he long time ago? What's his name? Oh?

468
00:25:03,240 --> 00:25:07,000
Speaker 1: My god, I don't know, but yeah, I can just

469
00:25:07,040 --> 00:25:13,680
Speaker 1: tell by that accent the thing you did. Anyway, So

470
00:25:14,080 --> 00:25:19,120
Speaker 1: are you thinking about are you thinking about doing something

471
00:25:19,200 --> 00:25:22,280
Speaker 1: like telling the fantasious story though that's far like movie

472
00:25:22,359 --> 00:25:26,160
Speaker 1: wise or even like a documentary a movie. Oh yeah, yeah, yeah,

473
00:25:26,280 --> 00:25:28,119
Speaker 1: I think as I go, I got away as the coast.

474
00:25:28,640 --> 00:25:31,439
Speaker 1: I don't want to do no more Like movies are reality,

475
00:25:31,480 --> 00:25:33,440
Speaker 1: you know what I mean. I'll tell it through the music,

476
00:25:33,600 --> 00:25:38,280
Speaker 1: I'll tell it through you know, other stuff. But one day, yeah,

477
00:25:38,520 --> 00:25:40,720
Speaker 1: maybe another movie where when I get older. But we'll

478
00:25:40,760 --> 00:25:42,720
Speaker 1: do a lot of things where people can follow and

479
00:25:42,800 --> 00:25:46,359
Speaker 1: see the journey because I like to inspire people. I like,

480
00:25:46,560 --> 00:25:49,439
Speaker 1: not just women, just people period who have dreams. Envision

481
00:25:49,520 --> 00:25:52,040
Speaker 1: my people to show them that you can bounce back

482
00:25:52,080 --> 00:25:54,320
Speaker 1: and do whatever the hell you want. But do you

483
00:25:54,359 --> 00:25:58,440
Speaker 1: think it's been your greatest moment, my greatest moment um

484
00:25:59,280 --> 00:26:02,000
Speaker 1: m hm that she was like, damn, I can't believe

485
00:26:02,040 --> 00:26:04,200
Speaker 1: this happened. Girl, When I want to grant me and

486
00:26:04,240 --> 00:26:07,680
Speaker 1: I wasn't even there. They don't give you advanced notice.

487
00:26:07,680 --> 00:26:09,399
Speaker 1: I always wondered if they tell people they're gonna win.

488
00:26:09,840 --> 00:26:12,240
Speaker 1: I was doing. I was being bad, I was being

489
00:26:12,280 --> 00:26:16,159
Speaker 1: a rebel. You chose not to go, okay, because I

490
00:26:16,240 --> 00:26:17,800
Speaker 1: was like, I'm not gonna be your seat feeling no more.

491
00:26:17,960 --> 00:26:23,159
Speaker 1: I've been the nominated with eleven twelve times, and and

492
00:26:23,240 --> 00:26:27,000
Speaker 1: I felt so stupid the one time I didn't go,

493
00:26:27,080 --> 00:26:29,840
Speaker 1: I didn't even give my acceptance speech. Was gonna be

494
00:26:29,920 --> 00:26:32,760
Speaker 1: so fire, and I didn't get them get so I

495
00:26:32,840 --> 00:26:35,760
Speaker 1: felt dumb. But that was the dopeest moment that I

496
00:26:35,840 --> 00:26:39,720
Speaker 1: couldn't even receive. Damn, he still got the girl. It's

497
00:26:39,720 --> 00:26:44,040
Speaker 1: at the house she made in real estate. That's my

498
00:26:44,200 --> 00:26:47,680
Speaker 1: light on. I know that's what I get. Though. That

499
00:26:47,800 --> 00:26:49,639
Speaker 1: was a lesson for me, like yeats stopped trying to

500
00:26:49,720 --> 00:26:52,879
Speaker 1: prove points because in this game that don't work now.

501
00:26:52,960 --> 00:26:54,760
Speaker 1: But I give you keep to keep showing up to

502
00:26:54,920 --> 00:26:57,280
Speaker 1: the worst show and not women. But I would be

503
00:26:57,720 --> 00:27:00,320
Speaker 1: like you why you put into the dress? Right, that's

504
00:27:00,320 --> 00:27:03,080
Speaker 1: whole looking and you go even though it's a nice

505
00:27:03,160 --> 00:27:05,320
Speaker 1: thing to be nominated and you want to be classic

506
00:27:05,520 --> 00:27:08,879
Speaker 1: and you want to celebrate everybody else, Yes, exactly, but

507
00:27:12,640 --> 00:27:16,240
Speaker 1: that's it's New York. I bet you cussing somebody out

508
00:27:16,320 --> 00:27:20,080
Speaker 1: would just be so dope, you know me, it's it's

509
00:27:20,080 --> 00:27:22,440
Speaker 1: still I hate cursing, And no it's not. When I

510
00:27:22,480 --> 00:27:24,680
Speaker 1: cursed somebody out, it sounds like I'm on the street

511
00:27:24,720 --> 00:27:30,880
Speaker 1: corner a sign so bad, like like all my boyfriends

512
00:27:31,080 --> 00:27:33,720
Speaker 1: like all my boyfriend, no, just how you do it?

513
00:27:34,520 --> 00:27:36,879
Speaker 1: Fuck you for what the funk you did to me.

514
00:27:37,200 --> 00:27:47,480
Speaker 1: That's what I need to do for me. That that

515
00:27:47,600 --> 00:27:51,600
Speaker 1: was definitely talking right, That was that was That was when.

516
00:27:51,800 --> 00:27:54,000
Speaker 1: That's the slick one. But when I get upset, like

517
00:27:54,600 --> 00:27:56,560
Speaker 1: all my boyfriends be like, yo, you think you're a

518
00:27:56,720 --> 00:27:59,520
Speaker 1: boy like you think you're man. Yeah, I guess that

519
00:27:59,640 --> 00:28:05,920
Speaker 1: all that's time from every single one right right? Yeah, boys,

520
00:28:06,240 --> 00:28:08,080
Speaker 1: I got an older system. But she was like a

521
00:28:08,200 --> 00:28:12,320
Speaker 1: boy to climbing fences and doing crazy. Way I hear

522
00:28:12,400 --> 00:28:14,359
Speaker 1: that to. My husband tells me that now you'd be

523
00:28:14,440 --> 00:28:16,760
Speaker 1: like you think you you know, and I'm like I don't.

524
00:28:16,880 --> 00:28:21,280
Speaker 1: I just uh yeah, I've got brothers and you ain't

525
00:28:21,280 --> 00:28:24,359
Speaker 1: gonna let you play me exactly my mouth like say bro,

526
00:28:27,400 --> 00:28:30,920
Speaker 1: and I thought I was I don't know, I get

527
00:28:31,040 --> 00:28:33,360
Speaker 1: that all that. Every single one guy, every guy I've

528
00:28:33,359 --> 00:28:35,880
Speaker 1: been serious with, has told me that, every single one.

529
00:28:36,160 --> 00:28:37,760
Speaker 1: And when they tell me, it's like it blows me

530
00:28:37,800 --> 00:28:39,600
Speaker 1: away because I think about the other rest of the

531
00:28:39,720 --> 00:28:42,840
Speaker 1: line that said it. But I think, now I'm gonna

532
00:28:42,880 --> 00:28:45,360
Speaker 1: steal your tune. I'm gonna go home and try it.

533
00:28:45,800 --> 00:28:47,640
Speaker 1: I'm gonna try it too. She always did it right

534
00:28:47,680 --> 00:28:50,640
Speaker 1: there too. I'm gonna go home and try it because

535
00:28:50,680 --> 00:28:53,880
Speaker 1: I'm studying her at home with next little you know, spat.

536
00:28:53,920 --> 00:29:00,760
Speaker 1: I'm gonna be like so exactly my father, who like, babe,

537
00:29:01,760 --> 00:29:06,480
Speaker 1: check this out. Just how we're going through this. Don't

538
00:29:06,800 --> 00:29:11,960
Speaker 1: say ship to me all day and I won't say ship.

539
00:29:14,400 --> 00:29:25,280
Speaker 1: It sounds whole power. That's like like like, girlfriend, I

540
00:29:25,360 --> 00:29:27,760
Speaker 1: want to ask you all something right about things that

541
00:29:27,800 --> 00:29:30,520
Speaker 1: are overrated. So I was watching this movie and you

542
00:29:30,600 --> 00:29:32,160
Speaker 1: know when you watch movies and they have the sex

543
00:29:32,200 --> 00:29:34,280
Speaker 1: scenes and you're like, do people really do that? You

544
00:29:34,360 --> 00:29:36,160
Speaker 1: know how they walk in the door and they push

545
00:29:36,160 --> 00:29:37,880
Speaker 1: you up against the wall and y'all start having sex

546
00:29:37,960 --> 00:29:42,680
Speaker 1: right away standing up right, But that that ever has like, yeah,

547
00:29:44,000 --> 00:29:47,600
Speaker 1: I've I've done that before, like sex on the media,

548
00:29:47,640 --> 00:29:49,520
Speaker 1: contact like as soon as I was going down. But

549
00:29:49,680 --> 00:29:53,480
Speaker 1: that's not normal. I've done it before time. Yeah, not

550
00:29:53,600 --> 00:29:56,760
Speaker 1: all the time, but I mean sometimes that happens. Yeah,

551
00:29:57,160 --> 00:30:00,480
Speaker 1: or y'all making you drinking, come in and know no

552
00:30:01,240 --> 00:30:03,600
Speaker 1: when you miss somebody, do you I mean, are you

553
00:30:03,760 --> 00:30:06,280
Speaker 1: standing waiting on him in the ninety or something to

554
00:30:06,360 --> 00:30:07,960
Speaker 1: make him feel like I'd be like, fresh, you guys,

555
00:30:08,000 --> 00:30:16,840
Speaker 1: take your shoes off. No, it's not that you gotta

556
00:30:16,840 --> 00:30:18,480
Speaker 1: take your shoes off first. That we're not doing that.

557
00:30:19,080 --> 00:30:21,080
Speaker 1: You're killing the move when you do, know, I do

558
00:30:21,240 --> 00:30:24,520
Speaker 1: kill the movie. Wait wait we're you're making out at

559
00:30:24,560 --> 00:30:25,760
Speaker 1: the door and then you're like, wait, we have to

560
00:30:25,760 --> 00:30:30,760
Speaker 1: tick put on the take it. He's keeping with the

561
00:30:30,840 --> 00:30:33,840
Speaker 1: worst thing when you have kids that always kills the

562
00:30:33,880 --> 00:30:36,600
Speaker 1: move with a man like he'd be like, you know

563
00:30:36,680 --> 00:30:38,600
Speaker 1: what there and I don't even want to I feel

564
00:30:38,600 --> 00:30:39,960
Speaker 1: like that would be sexy. And he got to be

565
00:30:40,040 --> 00:30:45,680
Speaker 1: quiet when some people don't. Some people when some people

566
00:30:45,960 --> 00:30:49,280
Speaker 1: when father worked together, you know, we we did seven

567
00:30:49,360 --> 00:30:52,960
Speaker 1: and a half years with the baby, and it's like

568
00:30:53,040 --> 00:30:54,640
Speaker 1: sex was we just have a lot of sex. But

569
00:30:54,720 --> 00:30:57,320
Speaker 1: we were planning like, all right, baby's gonna be in

570
00:30:57,400 --> 00:31:08,520
Speaker 1: the bathtub. We're gonna like all the I don't hear this,

571
00:31:09,040 --> 00:31:11,200
Speaker 1: like four years old of them. So they take a

572
00:31:11,240 --> 00:31:13,520
Speaker 1: bath together. We got like they in there for a while.

573
00:31:13,560 --> 00:31:17,280
Speaker 1: They're like playing holds and ships. We're like, we got

574
00:31:17,320 --> 00:31:21,720
Speaker 1: a good hour. And then they're gonna be all you

575
00:31:21,800 --> 00:31:24,440
Speaker 1: gotta plan, like, all right, he's gonna go to sleep

576
00:31:24,440 --> 00:31:26,960
Speaker 1: in a half an hour and it's gonna last like

577
00:31:27,040 --> 00:31:29,640
Speaker 1: about forty five minutes. So have you ever got into it?

578
00:31:29,720 --> 00:31:31,600
Speaker 1: And then all of a sudden you're here, yes, my man,

579
00:31:34,920 --> 00:31:40,680
Speaker 1: and she's like you and that's when the guy will

580
00:31:40,720 --> 00:31:45,480
Speaker 1: harry if it comes. No, we gotta stop coming with

581
00:31:45,600 --> 00:31:51,000
Speaker 1: the baby screaming come on TV. And he come right

582
00:31:51,040 --> 00:31:54,320
Speaker 1: when the show starting, and you're like, okay, I see

583
00:31:54,360 --> 00:31:57,880
Speaker 1: what you did. Have you ever did it? Yeah? Oh?

584
00:31:58,200 --> 00:32:01,720
Speaker 1: He's like yes, oh that's talking about me. Fantasties, I

585
00:32:01,800 --> 00:32:07,360
Speaker 1: am the person. Yes that is. Everything's going good. The

586
00:32:07,440 --> 00:32:09,520
Speaker 1: TV's on and then you see he looking kind of

587
00:32:09,600 --> 00:32:11,800
Speaker 1: at the TV and you're having sex, and then he

588
00:32:12,120 --> 00:32:13,840
Speaker 1: right when the show starting, he comes and you'd be like,

589
00:32:13,960 --> 00:32:23,640
Speaker 1: where you got turn that out? TV? Oh right here,

590
00:32:25,040 --> 00:32:32,840
Speaker 1: I'm so late? How are you wait? We weren't really started.

591
00:32:34,160 --> 00:32:37,760
Speaker 1: We've been talking about everything to know they don't play

592
00:32:37,800 --> 00:32:39,959
Speaker 1: on this and listen, I'm trying to help you out

593
00:32:40,000 --> 00:32:43,280
Speaker 1: and find did you get a man? Okay? Still don't

594
00:32:44,040 --> 00:32:46,640
Speaker 1: wait wait wait wait wait what happened? Tell me the story.

595
00:32:46,720 --> 00:32:49,560
Speaker 1: So Angela came on my show Black Coffee. What was

596
00:32:49,640 --> 00:32:51,680
Speaker 1: this like two months ago? Yeah? She has a show

597
00:32:51,720 --> 00:32:54,720
Speaker 1: with Markling my hell on BT. Yeah, and so I

598
00:32:54,920 --> 00:32:58,240
Speaker 1: was like, you know alder Man's and I need a men.

599
00:32:58,440 --> 00:33:00,040
Speaker 1: And she was like, I'm gonna help you, but we

600
00:33:00,080 --> 00:33:02,479
Speaker 1: got books and busy this summer, so we haven't followed up.

601
00:33:02,720 --> 00:33:04,720
Speaker 1: I wanted how to finish your hot girls summer too first.

602
00:33:06,000 --> 00:33:10,560
Speaker 1: So you're really really ready? You're ready for a relationship? Yes, okay,

603
00:33:11,240 --> 00:33:15,480
Speaker 1: but you have a lot of a list? Yes? So

604
00:33:16,080 --> 00:33:18,520
Speaker 1: what kind of list? I mean? It's not crazy? God

605
00:33:18,600 --> 00:33:25,000
Speaker 1: fearing um makes me laugh. Honest, a family person, smart,

606
00:33:25,560 --> 00:33:30,280
Speaker 1: like intelligent enough to hold a conversation. This guys matter? Yeah? Yes,

607
00:33:30,720 --> 00:33:35,880
Speaker 1: he was like, yeah, yes, this looks matter. See I

608
00:33:36,120 --> 00:33:38,640
Speaker 1: don't have a type because I've dated like the spectrum.

609
00:33:38,720 --> 00:33:41,680
Speaker 1: I usually go for a black man, but I'm open

610
00:33:41,840 --> 00:33:44,520
Speaker 1: to them. They're talking man, I'm a nice Asian man.

611
00:33:44,880 --> 00:33:46,720
Speaker 1: I'm scared too, though I'm not gonna hold you. I

612
00:33:46,760 --> 00:33:49,000
Speaker 1: don't want to be fetishized. That's pretty much. I mean,

613
00:33:49,040 --> 00:33:51,479
Speaker 1: those are the basis of things that I would love

614
00:33:51,520 --> 00:33:53,640
Speaker 1: a man who likes the NBA, because I really love

615
00:33:53,680 --> 00:33:55,560
Speaker 1: the NBA, and I feel like that's easy enough to find.

616
00:33:55,640 --> 00:33:59,320
Speaker 1: That's very easy. Most guys would you don't be surprised.

617
00:33:59,520 --> 00:34:01,400
Speaker 1: I don't know when they're like, yeah, it wouldn't be

618
00:34:01,440 --> 00:34:05,480
Speaker 1: a deal breaker. He's a football guy. But we're talking

619
00:34:05,480 --> 00:34:10,000
Speaker 1: about you know, preference. I prefer him not Fantasia. Isn't

620
00:34:10,040 --> 00:34:13,239
Speaker 1: hard to be like pantagious husband, because you know, you're

621
00:34:13,239 --> 00:34:16,200
Speaker 1: a celebrity, and sometimes for guys that's hard, like, oh,

622
00:34:16,320 --> 00:34:20,000
Speaker 1: that's fantageous man. I don't think so, because he doesn't um.

623
00:34:20,400 --> 00:34:23,160
Speaker 1: The way he carries himself, um, and the things that

624
00:34:23,239 --> 00:34:25,800
Speaker 1: he has going on when it comes to men leading

625
00:34:25,920 --> 00:34:30,400
Speaker 1: men um. He's got his own stage, I mean, and

626
00:34:30,440 --> 00:34:34,040
Speaker 1: then he doesn't really care. Like when I met my husband,

627
00:34:34,080 --> 00:34:36,680
Speaker 1: he was not here for the hype, and it's hard

628
00:34:36,719 --> 00:34:38,560
Speaker 1: to me somebody that because you never know at first.

629
00:34:38,719 --> 00:34:40,600
Speaker 1: I'm gonna tell you though, she had a list, right,

630
00:34:41,040 --> 00:34:43,640
Speaker 1: so did I? Where was your list? Um? The about

631
00:34:43,760 --> 00:34:45,560
Speaker 1: same as hus but not as far as like football,

632
00:34:45,640 --> 00:34:48,000
Speaker 1: You know, I don't know. I was just thinking about

633
00:34:49,920 --> 00:34:52,200
Speaker 1: I just I knew I wanted a guy, fairy man.

634
00:34:52,719 --> 00:34:55,120
Speaker 1: I knew I wanted someone very intelligent, someone to come

635
00:34:55,160 --> 00:34:57,000
Speaker 1: in and love my children as if they were his,

636
00:34:57,760 --> 00:35:01,759
Speaker 1: someone to love me and see me and not Fantasia.

637
00:35:02,560 --> 00:35:04,759
Speaker 1: And that's tricky because how do you know when a

638
00:35:04,840 --> 00:35:08,480
Speaker 1: person sees you and not that? Right? That seven months though,

639
00:35:08,520 --> 00:35:12,000
Speaker 1: I was I fasted because I was telling the girls

640
00:35:12,040 --> 00:35:14,560
Speaker 1: before you came, I was like, sometimes we know what

641
00:35:14,760 --> 00:35:18,400
Speaker 1: we want, but we really don't know what we want. Right.

642
00:35:18,960 --> 00:35:20,960
Speaker 1: God knows what we want. He knows what he wants

643
00:35:20,960 --> 00:35:22,560
Speaker 1: for us, but he sometimes he puts us through this

644
00:35:22,640 --> 00:35:25,080
Speaker 1: thing of like, do you know what's good for you? Right?

645
00:35:25,520 --> 00:35:27,480
Speaker 1: So sometimes we have to take that time to fix

646
00:35:27,520 --> 00:35:29,840
Speaker 1: ourselves because we are broken women, or we're carrying in

647
00:35:29,880 --> 00:35:32,480
Speaker 1: the past. And if you met him tomorrow and you're

648
00:35:32,480 --> 00:35:35,640
Speaker 1: still broken, you still gonna have a relationship. So I

649
00:35:35,719 --> 00:35:37,720
Speaker 1: had to give myself together. I had to heal myself

650
00:35:37,760 --> 00:35:40,359
Speaker 1: and not look for a man to heal me. Right.

651
00:35:41,000 --> 00:35:43,200
Speaker 1: So all the things that I asked for when I

652
00:35:43,320 --> 00:35:45,880
Speaker 1: first met my husband, this was the This was the keeper.

653
00:35:46,880 --> 00:35:49,719
Speaker 1: We became friends first, and we got married very very fast.

654
00:35:49,800 --> 00:35:51,279
Speaker 1: You want to ask me any questions about that? We

655
00:35:51,360 --> 00:35:55,839
Speaker 1: could talk about We got married in three weeks. Three weeks. Yes,

656
00:35:56,000 --> 00:35:57,560
Speaker 1: that's how I'll be trying to live my life. I'm

657
00:35:57,719 --> 00:36:03,080
Speaker 1: a guy I want to get married, wouldn't because we've

658
00:36:03,080 --> 00:36:09,279
Speaker 1: been doing a lot with you romantic. I knew he

659
00:36:09,480 --> 00:36:10,880
Speaker 1: was the one when I was getting ready to go

660
00:36:11,000 --> 00:36:12,360
Speaker 1: on the road and he kneeled down, I was like,

661
00:36:12,400 --> 00:36:13,920
Speaker 1: can I cover you? And I ain't think I was

662
00:36:14,360 --> 00:36:17,840
Speaker 1: cover me. He kneeled down and started praying. I couldn't

663
00:36:17,840 --> 00:36:19,400
Speaker 1: even get caught up in the prayer because I was like,

664
00:36:24,160 --> 00:36:25,759
Speaker 1: what you're doing is you know what I mean? And

665
00:36:25,800 --> 00:36:28,440
Speaker 1: then I kept watching his how he flowed. He never

666
00:36:28,520 --> 00:36:30,960
Speaker 1: gave me no ooze eyes. You bad this He never

667
00:36:31,040 --> 00:36:33,439
Speaker 1: tried to sleep with me were married, before we made love.

668
00:36:34,000 --> 00:36:35,440
Speaker 1: That was one of the things that I wanted to

669
00:36:36,640 --> 00:36:37,839
Speaker 1: you know what I mean? Like it was just certain

670
00:36:37,840 --> 00:36:40,040
Speaker 1: things that I asked God for that he brought to

671
00:36:40,160 --> 00:36:42,440
Speaker 1: me through my husband. So I just gotta be careful

672
00:36:42,440 --> 00:36:43,840
Speaker 1: and make sure you got your eyes open because the

673
00:36:43,960 --> 00:36:45,840
Speaker 1: enemy hear your prayers too. And he was saying occurred

674
00:36:45,840 --> 00:36:49,000
Speaker 1: about right your way right. I've had many of them. Yes,

675
00:36:49,320 --> 00:36:51,080
Speaker 1: when you heard fasting with your fast, like, I just

676
00:36:51,120 --> 00:36:54,080
Speaker 1: want to get the details, Um, well been with leus.

677
00:36:54,160 --> 00:36:57,920
Speaker 1: Be honest. I didn't know drinking. I didn't date anybody,

678
00:36:58,040 --> 00:37:00,680
Speaker 1: talk to nobody on the phone. No, you know anything,

679
00:37:00,760 --> 00:37:03,120
Speaker 1: sexual pouring, all that crap, you know, let's just be honest,

680
00:37:03,200 --> 00:37:04,800
Speaker 1: none of that. I didn't watch it. I didn't. I

681
00:37:04,840 --> 00:37:06,480
Speaker 1: just was like, yo, I'm just gonna stay focused. I

682
00:37:06,520 --> 00:37:09,800
Speaker 1: stayed in my word. Everybody knows I'm a big believerable.

683
00:37:09,840 --> 00:37:12,640
Speaker 1: I stayed in my word, and I just constantly started

684
00:37:12,680 --> 00:37:14,640
Speaker 1: writing all things that I need to speak into myself

685
00:37:14,680 --> 00:37:16,719
Speaker 1: and start waiting for people to speaking to me. And

686
00:37:16,800 --> 00:37:19,640
Speaker 1: those are my affirmations every day. Seven months I did that,

687
00:37:19,960 --> 00:37:22,640
Speaker 1: and I had Yo. I had guys and girls in

688
00:37:22,719 --> 00:37:25,919
Speaker 1: that seven months trying to holler holler back. I'm like, WHOA,

689
00:37:26,840 --> 00:37:29,000
Speaker 1: that's a test though, because it's like I want to

690
00:37:29,040 --> 00:37:31,120
Speaker 1: throw you off your track. That what you see, what

691
00:37:31,239 --> 00:37:32,879
Speaker 1: you plan to do. I want to throw you off

692
00:37:32,960 --> 00:37:35,040
Speaker 1: of it, but I stayed the whole seven months. Yep.

693
00:37:35,640 --> 00:37:39,680
Speaker 1: And how when I got back from New York, I

694
00:37:39,760 --> 00:37:42,480
Speaker 1: went back home and we went to a little spot downtown,

695
00:37:42,600 --> 00:37:44,120
Speaker 1: which I want you girls to come to Charlotte and

696
00:37:44,160 --> 00:37:46,319
Speaker 1: hang with me, because y'all are probably said this same

697
00:37:49,640 --> 00:37:55,359
Speaker 1: Yeah when when because real talk, I want to hang.

698
00:37:55,480 --> 00:38:00,200
Speaker 1: We'll eat, well, I'll cook and then well we'll and

699
00:38:00,200 --> 00:38:02,600
Speaker 1: then we'll go downtown. Let me hang and just be around.

700
00:38:02,760 --> 00:38:05,000
Speaker 1: I was in Charlotte for a start to Oh yeah,

701
00:38:05,040 --> 00:38:07,839
Speaker 1: did you enjoy? It was as good I love. We'll

702
00:38:07,920 --> 00:38:11,800
Speaker 1: never get it back again. I'm coming to Okay, Okay,

703
00:38:12,840 --> 00:38:18,400
Speaker 1: but huh October, you're not going to be I'll be

704
00:38:18,480 --> 00:38:22,200
Speaker 1: on tour, right, I think, Okay, we gotta do it again.

705
00:38:22,640 --> 00:38:25,640
Speaker 1: Tar we'll figure you don't like it out that I'm

706
00:38:25,640 --> 00:38:27,239
Speaker 1: not to know. We go to Charlotte. I go to

707
00:38:27,360 --> 00:38:29,840
Speaker 1: Charlotte a lot. Okay, So then have you heard of

708
00:38:30,040 --> 00:38:35,120
Speaker 1: um the hyatt up top roof rooftop type. I think

709
00:38:35,160 --> 00:38:37,480
Speaker 1: I've been there before. I feel like we've been there

710
00:38:37,560 --> 00:38:39,600
Speaker 1: with because you know, Charlotte made from South Carolina, So

711
00:38:39,920 --> 00:38:43,640
Speaker 1: Charlottage's from South Carolina. From Monks Corner, South Carolina, when

712
00:38:43,680 --> 00:38:45,879
Speaker 1: we first started the breakfast club, he had as coming

713
00:38:45,920 --> 00:38:47,759
Speaker 1: out to do a lot of stuff out there, like

714
00:38:47,840 --> 00:38:50,239
Speaker 1: c I double a weekend. We do something there every

715
00:38:50,280 --> 00:38:53,000
Speaker 1: single year. And then I had around the corner phone.

716
00:38:53,040 --> 00:38:56,279
Speaker 1: I always say the Balantine Balentine. Yeah, I like it there. Man,

717
00:38:56,360 --> 00:38:58,880
Speaker 1: we gotta hang Okay. So I met him at the

718
00:38:58,920 --> 00:39:03,120
Speaker 1: Fahrenheit at night and we just talked all night from

719
00:39:03,160 --> 00:39:06,120
Speaker 1: then the next day, talk talk talk, and he's very intelligent.

720
00:39:06,719 --> 00:39:09,160
Speaker 1: Husband is self talk and he's a man that all

721
00:39:09,200 --> 00:39:13,520
Speaker 1: he does is rerereredread. He's a felon. He's a felon,

722
00:39:14,000 --> 00:39:17,480
Speaker 1: but he uh, he switched up his feet, just started

723
00:39:17,560 --> 00:39:20,520
Speaker 1: running his own business. And I was I was like, yo,

724
00:39:20,600 --> 00:39:23,160
Speaker 1: I see the king in you. I always say girls

725
00:39:23,280 --> 00:39:25,400
Speaker 1: overlooked guys because we meet him and we're like, what

726
00:39:25,520 --> 00:39:28,000
Speaker 1: you got, what you're doing, But you don't understand that.

727
00:39:28,040 --> 00:39:30,759
Speaker 1: You gotta see the king in him and you are

728
00:39:30,800 --> 00:39:33,600
Speaker 1: the person to help bring that king out. We always

729
00:39:33,640 --> 00:39:36,480
Speaker 1: overlook it when a guy don't have certain credentials, when

730
00:39:36,480 --> 00:39:38,279
Speaker 1: you don't have certain things, like my husband was not

731
00:39:38,440 --> 00:39:41,160
Speaker 1: a celebrity, he didn't have all the money in the world.

732
00:39:41,400 --> 00:39:43,880
Speaker 1: But now we linked up and we're getting it because

733
00:39:43,880 --> 00:39:46,840
Speaker 1: I've seen the king in that's the best guys, w

734
00:39:47,080 --> 00:39:52,680
Speaker 1: E nerds with edge reforms. Yeah, but and they've been

735
00:39:52,719 --> 00:39:55,360
Speaker 1: there and done that. You know they got that there smart.

736
00:39:55,600 --> 00:40:01,480
Speaker 1: But he can go there. Yeah, say so you. I

737
00:40:01,600 --> 00:40:03,960
Speaker 1: believe that you will have what you're looking for when

738
00:40:04,120 --> 00:40:07,440
Speaker 1: time is right. Because he's a nice, sweet person. She

739
00:40:07,600 --> 00:40:15,759
Speaker 1: might be too nice sometimes six you leave. Yeah, it

740
00:40:15,880 --> 00:40:19,759
Speaker 1: was last Friday, you do. I had two parties because

741
00:40:19,760 --> 00:40:22,680
Speaker 1: I'm from d C. So I went home to d C. Yeah,

742
00:40:22,920 --> 00:40:25,920
Speaker 1: and I partied well, John Wall, the basketball player. We

743
00:40:25,960 --> 00:40:27,320
Speaker 1: also had the same birthday, so I went to his

744
00:40:27,360 --> 00:40:30,040
Speaker 1: birthday dinner with his mom and his friends. And those

745
00:40:30,040 --> 00:40:31,239
Speaker 1: are my people because I used to work with the

746
00:40:31,239 --> 00:40:33,719
Speaker 1: Wizards and had a party with my family friends. And

747
00:40:33,760 --> 00:40:35,120
Speaker 1: then I came up here and had a little election

748
00:40:35,200 --> 00:40:36,960
Speaker 1: day in Brooklyn. Don't don't. That's why I ain't got

749
00:40:37,040 --> 00:40:40,840
Speaker 1: no boys. I was okay. I turned twenty nine. I

750
00:40:40,880 --> 00:40:42,480
Speaker 1: was like, I think I got one more two more

751
00:40:42,600 --> 00:40:45,040
Speaker 1: years before I can be like I remember that. I

752
00:40:45,160 --> 00:40:50,279
Speaker 1: remember between I had a Yeah, it's a ball when

753
00:40:50,320 --> 00:40:52,080
Speaker 1: you look back. But it's good that, you know what.

754
00:40:52,200 --> 00:40:54,120
Speaker 1: I think. It's good to have lived your life and

755
00:40:54,160 --> 00:40:56,680
Speaker 1: had a great time so that when you get older

756
00:40:56,960 --> 00:40:58,560
Speaker 1: you're ready to settle down. You're like, all right, I

757
00:40:58,760 --> 00:41:05,080
Speaker 1: did all that ship I died and then because you know,

758
00:41:05,200 --> 00:41:08,640
Speaker 1: there's people that get married and settled down but never

759
00:41:08,760 --> 00:41:11,400
Speaker 1: have really done like lived their life before that, and

760
00:41:11,440 --> 00:41:13,759
Speaker 1: they always wondered what would it have been, Like I

761
00:41:13,880 --> 00:41:16,200
Speaker 1: never had this experience. I never did that, so it's

762
00:41:16,200 --> 00:41:18,000
Speaker 1: good to have been like, damn, I had a ball.

763
00:41:18,400 --> 00:41:24,440
Speaker 1: I had a ball, Claire, I did. Do you have

764
00:41:24,600 --> 00:41:27,440
Speaker 1: to um come clean about a lot of things that happened,

765
00:41:27,440 --> 00:41:29,359
Speaker 1: like do you did? You tell him? Like all right,

766
00:41:29,440 --> 00:41:32,719
Speaker 1: so just so you know and share those things I did.

767
00:41:32,800 --> 00:41:34,320
Speaker 1: I'm gonna tell you because I wanted to do it

768
00:41:34,360 --> 00:41:36,520
Speaker 1: because I'm in the industry. So I never wanted him

769
00:41:36,560 --> 00:41:39,759
Speaker 1: to be around anyone and not know if if I

770
00:41:39,880 --> 00:41:42,960
Speaker 1: dated that person. So I was very open and he

771
00:41:43,160 --> 00:41:45,360
Speaker 1: was too when we first like linked up, because I

772
00:41:45,480 --> 00:41:46,960
Speaker 1: just felt like, out of respect, I don't want him

773
00:41:46,960 --> 00:41:48,879
Speaker 1: to ever be looking around like, well, he just spoke

774
00:41:48,960 --> 00:41:50,920
Speaker 1: would you with him? Or would you with him? I

775
00:41:51,000 --> 00:41:52,960
Speaker 1: just kind of told him like, yo, that was before

776
00:41:53,000 --> 00:41:54,920
Speaker 1: you so it shouldn't matter. And he gave me the

777
00:41:55,000 --> 00:41:56,960
Speaker 1: saying and no, None of y'all never threw it back

778
00:41:56,960 --> 00:41:58,879
Speaker 1: in each other's face because you know that's a risk

779
00:41:58,960 --> 00:42:02,279
Speaker 1: and time. Right now, I want to tell him because

780
00:42:02,320 --> 00:42:05,080
Speaker 1: and he no, And I think that's what makes me

781
00:42:05,239 --> 00:42:07,040
Speaker 1: so I'll be like you find is I don't know

782
00:42:07,120 --> 00:42:10,080
Speaker 1: what because he's been around something, he'd be he don't

783
00:42:10,120 --> 00:42:13,160
Speaker 1: care when we leave. You know, I got that that's mine.

784
00:42:13,560 --> 00:42:15,560
Speaker 1: You don't have no checks in your d M like us,

785
00:42:15,600 --> 00:42:19,120
Speaker 1: And now you didn't mind him. Yeah, you know what.

786
00:42:19,200 --> 00:42:22,320
Speaker 1: I'm glad you brought that up because I feel like

787
00:42:22,880 --> 00:42:27,600
Speaker 1: girls can be very disrespectful. I feel like when you

788
00:42:27,680 --> 00:42:30,440
Speaker 1: start telling somebody how good your guy is and what

789
00:42:30,600 --> 00:42:34,160
Speaker 1: you got, then they start being like I want something too,

790
00:42:35,960 --> 00:42:38,560
Speaker 1: so then they started being disrespectful and rude. Like I

791
00:42:38,680 --> 00:42:41,200
Speaker 1: never I don't get guys to come into my thing

792
00:42:41,239 --> 00:42:44,080
Speaker 1: because how I carry myself, and when guys do do

793
00:42:44,160 --> 00:42:47,680
Speaker 1: a little cute stuff, it's never disrespectful, but girls do

794
00:42:47,880 --> 00:42:50,720
Speaker 1: do that. I feel like the girls are more forward,

795
00:42:51,239 --> 00:42:53,840
Speaker 1: they're they're nastier than the guys in the DM. Like

796
00:42:54,160 --> 00:42:57,280
Speaker 1: you don't even know the things I've seen in certain

797
00:42:57,320 --> 00:43:01,120
Speaker 1: people's homes. It's wow, right, Yeah, Like I can't believe

798
00:43:01,120 --> 00:43:02,920
Speaker 1: a woman would really put herself out there like that.

799
00:43:03,120 --> 00:43:05,560
Speaker 1: We say that they know that he this man is

800
00:43:05,640 --> 00:43:10,000
Speaker 1: not available. They don't care. No, maybe because it's you

801
00:43:10,080 --> 00:43:12,239
Speaker 1: would just say it's a shortage you men. So they

802
00:43:12,320 --> 00:43:19,080
Speaker 1: feel like, hey, I can't find I there. Men that

803
00:43:19,160 --> 00:43:21,680
Speaker 1: I want is a good man, good man man the

804
00:43:22,280 --> 00:43:24,600
Speaker 1: good man, not men in general, what I mean. And

805
00:43:24,680 --> 00:43:26,960
Speaker 1: if we get right and if we get deep, deep

806
00:43:27,000 --> 00:43:30,320
Speaker 1: deep having the men that we could date are imprisoned,

807
00:43:30,640 --> 00:43:33,600
Speaker 1: like literally imprisoned right now, Like that was my first one.

808
00:43:33,719 --> 00:43:35,279
Speaker 1: Like a lot of them just aren't a lot of

809
00:43:35,320 --> 00:43:38,920
Speaker 1: available for us. So then they're like, I'm gonna go

810
00:43:39,000 --> 00:43:40,680
Speaker 1: for it. I'm gonna go for your guy, but I

811
00:43:40,800 --> 00:43:44,680
Speaker 1: want to leave this one message. You could never ever,

812
00:43:45,000 --> 00:43:49,800
Speaker 1: ever ever come take mine because I leave no room. Okay,

813
00:43:51,640 --> 00:43:55,800
Speaker 1: and that's not listen. I hope Debbie don't kill me

814
00:43:55,840 --> 00:43:57,720
Speaker 1: for this. So I was shooting my lifetime movie, Debbie

815
00:43:57,760 --> 00:44:00,960
Speaker 1: Island in my lifetime movie Love Debbie. She don't killing this.

816
00:44:01,400 --> 00:44:03,120
Speaker 1: She gave me a story one day She's like, so,

817
00:44:04,120 --> 00:44:06,480
Speaker 1: me and Norm, you know, we've been through a lot

818
00:44:06,520 --> 00:44:08,759
Speaker 1: of things, and you know one day I heard you,

819
00:44:08,880 --> 00:44:10,239
Speaker 1: you know, I was out doing this thing. He was

820
00:44:10,280 --> 00:44:13,080
Speaker 1: a basketball player, and you know she was. He was

821
00:44:13,120 --> 00:44:15,160
Speaker 1: with a white kitch. I decided to go and die

822
00:44:15,160 --> 00:44:23,400
Speaker 1: everything blind. I told me. I thought that. She was like, man,

823
00:44:23,960 --> 00:44:27,520
Speaker 1: is that what you want? He probably was like what

824
00:44:28,239 --> 00:44:32,600
Speaker 1: he probably thought, but she was so serious. It's the truth.

825
00:44:32,680 --> 00:44:34,440
Speaker 1: It's like, I'm not giving you no room to come

826
00:44:34,520 --> 00:44:36,719
Speaker 1: in and take us mine like it's good to me

827
00:44:36,840 --> 00:44:39,120
Speaker 1: and you can't have it. It's cheating grounds to leave

828
00:44:39,160 --> 00:44:43,799
Speaker 1: somebody for me. Yeah, you cheat, I'm out because I'm

829
00:44:43,840 --> 00:44:46,120
Speaker 1: a cancer. I thought, don't trust me. We ain't got

830
00:44:46,200 --> 00:44:51,480
Speaker 1: nothing new. Yeah, have you ever cheated? No? I never cheated,

831
00:44:51,640 --> 00:44:54,279
Speaker 1: but once they did, then I went out told you

832
00:44:54,400 --> 00:44:57,520
Speaker 1: I shut the CD down, but not I don't want

833
00:44:57,560 --> 00:45:00,680
Speaker 1: you to thing. I was like, you know, let's clear that. Okay,

834
00:45:02,280 --> 00:45:07,040
Speaker 1: don't laugh. It ain't funny. Damn I'm not. I never

835
00:45:07,160 --> 00:45:10,240
Speaker 1: cheating because I'm loyal. Cheating me, I'll chet your whole city,

836
00:45:10,320 --> 00:45:17,960
Speaker 1: dawn much you can get snatched. I just went showed

837
00:45:18,040 --> 00:45:21,480
Speaker 1: him what was it? Were so respectful? I love it.

838
00:45:21,560 --> 00:45:24,800
Speaker 1: I just wouldn't show him even be forgot. Have you

839
00:45:24,880 --> 00:45:27,520
Speaker 1: ever cheated? You know, never cheated. I did have a

840
00:45:27,600 --> 00:45:29,279
Speaker 1: time where I broke up with somebody for a someone

841
00:45:29,320 --> 00:45:31,360
Speaker 1: else because I was still in love in high school.

842
00:45:31,960 --> 00:45:34,200
Speaker 1: But my god, that doesn't need. High school don't count.

843
00:45:34,680 --> 00:45:39,960
Speaker 1: She chanted that long ago. Yeah, but high school years ago,

844
00:45:40,160 --> 00:45:49,120
Speaker 1: high school don't count. That doesn't count. Yeah, Exa, why

845
00:45:49,120 --> 00:45:51,799
Speaker 1: don't you cheat though with me? I cheat? I cheat back.

846
00:45:52,520 --> 00:45:56,680
Speaker 1: I get caught too, Like I cheated back. What I'm saying, Yeah,

847
00:45:57,239 --> 00:45:59,400
Speaker 1: but if I cheat that, I know it's over already.

848
00:45:59,520 --> 00:46:01,160
Speaker 1: Like you might cheat because you know, sometimes we don't

849
00:46:01,200 --> 00:46:04,560
Speaker 1: break up right away like that we extended. We'll be like, Okay,

850
00:46:04,640 --> 00:46:07,280
Speaker 1: let me send my next ship up before I before

851
00:46:07,360 --> 00:46:09,080
Speaker 1: you or is it that you're trying to get back

852
00:46:09,120 --> 00:46:10,759
Speaker 1: at him? If he hurt you, then I'm gonna drag

853
00:46:10,840 --> 00:46:12,319
Speaker 1: you on out and make you feel what you made

854
00:46:12,360 --> 00:46:14,400
Speaker 1: me feel. You. No, I don't think I'm a very avengeful,

855
00:46:14,520 --> 00:46:19,400
Speaker 1: vindictive person. I'm more of a Okay, well, I got options,

856
00:46:19,680 --> 00:46:23,200
Speaker 1: so I might as well. Like I act like I'm

857
00:46:23,200 --> 00:46:25,000
Speaker 1: not in a relationship anymore when I'm know about to

858
00:46:25,080 --> 00:46:28,360
Speaker 1: end it, but I like to, Like I just sometimes

859
00:46:28,520 --> 00:46:30,600
Speaker 1: you just don't end things right away when you're supposed to.

860
00:46:31,280 --> 00:46:33,520
Speaker 1: Sometimes you just do it like after you you in

861
00:46:33,640 --> 00:46:37,000
Speaker 1: your head are still single, like my ex boyfriend, he

862
00:46:37,120 --> 00:46:38,960
Speaker 1: don't even know I cheated on him like I did,

863
00:46:39,360 --> 00:46:43,680
Speaker 1: and it's funny because yeah, but you know it's funny.

864
00:46:44,040 --> 00:46:45,800
Speaker 1: I'm writing a book, right, so what I did in

865
00:46:45,840 --> 00:46:48,919
Speaker 1: my book was one of my chapters is about him,

866
00:46:49,200 --> 00:46:52,360
Speaker 1: and like he used to cheat, like disgustingly, like girls

867
00:46:52,440 --> 00:46:55,600
Speaker 1: come up to me in the club and crying while

868
00:46:55,640 --> 00:46:57,640
Speaker 1: I'm with him, and they'll be like, I live with

869
00:46:57,680 --> 00:46:59,399
Speaker 1: you last weekend and now you act like you don't

870
00:46:59,440 --> 00:47:02,520
Speaker 1: know me, and it was like bad. So naturally I

871
00:47:02,719 --> 00:47:05,000
Speaker 1: was like, okay, but I think I wasn't ready to

872
00:47:05,080 --> 00:47:08,319
Speaker 1: break up right away, so I definitely had like whole

873
00:47:08,400 --> 00:47:11,759
Speaker 1: other situations. I think sometimes it gives you more confidence

874
00:47:11,800 --> 00:47:14,080
Speaker 1: and courage to be able to be like, Okay, I

875
00:47:14,160 --> 00:47:15,759
Speaker 1: gotta end this, but at least I have a whole

876
00:47:15,760 --> 00:47:19,239
Speaker 1: other life already established, so that when you break up,

877
00:47:19,800 --> 00:47:22,920
Speaker 1: he'd be so shocked, but you are already over it.

878
00:47:23,520 --> 00:47:27,160
Speaker 1: Women do things a different way. Absolutely, we're smootherer than God.

879
00:47:27,480 --> 00:47:30,080
Speaker 1: They think they're smooth, but they're really not. You don't

880
00:47:30,120 --> 00:47:33,560
Speaker 1: get married, had a kid and then break up with

881
00:47:39,120 --> 00:47:42,360
Speaker 1: But why is that so true? I can see that.

882
00:47:42,520 --> 00:47:43,719
Speaker 1: I can see that, I see him a few of

883
00:47:43,760 --> 00:47:46,880
Speaker 1: my friends doing that because it's just like I feel like,

884
00:47:46,920 --> 00:47:49,040
Speaker 1: once you get hurt or once you realize you're done,

885
00:47:49,520 --> 00:47:51,759
Speaker 1: there's just so much that you can do to kind

886
00:47:51,760 --> 00:47:54,600
Speaker 1: of just pull yourself back out of that headspace because

887
00:47:54,800 --> 00:47:56,160
Speaker 1: you get into a place where you're like, I can't

888
00:47:56,160 --> 00:47:58,560
Speaker 1: even stand you, Like you're chewing bothers me, why do

889
00:47:58,600 --> 00:48:00,799
Speaker 1: you look like that? Like you get is so many things.

890
00:48:01,160 --> 00:48:04,279
Speaker 1: But I'm more of a like, Okay, we need to

891
00:48:04,320 --> 00:48:06,800
Speaker 1: talk because I can't. I feel bad. If I'm cheating,

892
00:48:06,920 --> 00:48:09,080
Speaker 1: I just would feel really bad. I would feel more

893
00:48:09,080 --> 00:48:13,280
Speaker 1: guilty me too. But if he cheated you like ship less,

894
00:48:13,840 --> 00:48:17,600
Speaker 1: he cheated first, and I'm not cheating, right, it's over.

895
00:48:18,440 --> 00:48:20,279
Speaker 1: But have you ever stayed in a relationship way longer

896
00:48:20,320 --> 00:48:24,560
Speaker 1: than you should have? All that we all had? Yeah,

897
00:48:24,840 --> 00:48:27,279
Speaker 1: for sure, because when you love, it's hard to let

898
00:48:27,360 --> 00:48:30,080
Speaker 1: go right, and then you keep thinking things that are

899
00:48:30,080 --> 00:48:32,120
Speaker 1: gonna and then you also believe because you want to

900
00:48:32,160 --> 00:48:34,479
Speaker 1: believe it, like you know what it is. You didn't

901
00:48:34,480 --> 00:48:37,200
Speaker 1: seeing him, you don't see the messages, you didn't remember

902
00:48:37,239 --> 00:48:39,000
Speaker 1: he called me by accident one time while he was

903
00:48:39,080 --> 00:48:42,879
Speaker 1: with another check. Oh and I'm listening to like their

904
00:48:43,000 --> 00:48:45,840
Speaker 1: conversation and I'm hearing it right, So I hang up

905
00:48:45,880 --> 00:48:47,800
Speaker 1: and I'll call him right back, and I'm like, what

906
00:48:47,880 --> 00:48:49,719
Speaker 1: are you doing? And he's like, I'm in my boy's house.

907
00:48:50,080 --> 00:48:51,759
Speaker 1: I was like, let me talk to him. He's like,

908
00:48:51,840 --> 00:48:53,920
Speaker 1: he went to the store. I was like, I just

909
00:48:54,000 --> 00:48:55,440
Speaker 1: heard you talking to a girl when you call me

910
00:48:55,480 --> 00:49:00,560
Speaker 1: by accident, he said, that's his sister is a life

911
00:49:00,640 --> 00:49:05,240
Speaker 1: I ever met, my life and it was so crazy.

912
00:49:05,560 --> 00:49:08,520
Speaker 1: That's crazy. Yeah, there's this narrative too. I feel like

913
00:49:08,880 --> 00:49:10,800
Speaker 1: we all want to stay because it's like, if you

914
00:49:10,840 --> 00:49:12,680
Speaker 1: don't fight for your man, you don't make your work

915
00:49:12,760 --> 00:49:15,839
Speaker 1: Like that sound right, like you're not a good woman

916
00:49:16,000 --> 00:49:17,600
Speaker 1: is supposed to try to make it work no matter

917
00:49:17,640 --> 00:49:20,080
Speaker 1: what's told that during my breakup, then I didn't fight

918
00:49:20,120 --> 00:49:23,480
Speaker 1: for my relationship. Who told you he did? He said, like,

919
00:49:23,719 --> 00:49:25,759
Speaker 1: you're you know clearly you don't want to be in

920
00:49:25,840 --> 00:49:27,680
Speaker 1: this relationship if you're not willing to fight for it.

921
00:49:27,760 --> 00:49:30,960
Speaker 1: And I'm like, I'm exhausted. How many times so we've

922
00:49:31,000 --> 00:49:32,799
Speaker 1: broken up and got meck together over the past ten years,

923
00:49:32,800 --> 00:49:34,839
Speaker 1: So it's like, how many times am I going to fight?

924
00:49:35,880 --> 00:49:38,759
Speaker 1: Love and fighting shouldn't been synonymous. Wait, how long y'all

925
00:49:38,760 --> 00:49:45,839
Speaker 1: are the dang that's y'all literally married? So you just well, yeah,

926
00:49:46,120 --> 00:49:48,759
Speaker 1: but you know, like I've heard some situations where people

927
00:49:48,800 --> 00:49:51,719
Speaker 1: who haven't been married that are entertain us and they

928
00:49:51,760 --> 00:49:54,680
Speaker 1: have a child by someone, they go to court. They

929
00:49:54,800 --> 00:49:57,960
Speaker 1: literally say, because you've been married that long, we're gonna

930
00:49:58,040 --> 00:50:01,960
Speaker 1: treat it like a marriage you've been to it's like

931
00:50:02,000 --> 00:50:09,640
Speaker 1: a common law. Yeah, we are. Um. We've broken up

932
00:50:09,680 --> 00:50:13,480
Speaker 1: three times that were substantial, like really like real breakups. UM.

933
00:50:13,719 --> 00:50:16,600
Speaker 1: The last one with a seventeen months and we went back,

934
00:50:16,640 --> 00:50:18,239
Speaker 1: we got back together. I moved back in with him

935
00:50:18,320 --> 00:50:20,719
Speaker 1: for this past year, and it's been about six weeks

936
00:50:20,840 --> 00:50:23,200
Speaker 1: that we've been broken up now and I'm just I'm

937
00:50:23,280 --> 00:50:27,120
Speaker 1: over it. It's just been too much of the same thing.

938
00:50:28,200 --> 00:50:30,680
Speaker 1: It's not going anywhere, so I'm ready to just move on,

939
00:50:31,719 --> 00:50:34,120
Speaker 1: move back down south. We gave it the good college try,

940
00:50:34,719 --> 00:50:36,400
Speaker 1: I listen. I gave it a lot of good tries.

941
00:50:36,760 --> 00:50:40,600
Speaker 1: I gave it a lot of me, and we've been

942
00:50:41,040 --> 00:50:42,839
Speaker 1: on and off so many times that at this point

943
00:50:42,840 --> 00:50:44,480
Speaker 1: a lot of people that are around me and a

944
00:50:44,520 --> 00:50:46,800
Speaker 1: lot of our listeners said they tied hearing it. You know,

945
00:50:47,000 --> 00:50:49,239
Speaker 1: a lot of you know, everybody around me. It's just

946
00:50:49,360 --> 00:50:51,759
Speaker 1: like whatever, you'll be back, and I'm just not going back.

947
00:50:51,880 --> 00:50:54,080
Speaker 1: Should you have to fight in a relationship, like fight

948
00:50:54,200 --> 00:50:57,520
Speaker 1: for your relationship? I say, when you're married, you have

949
00:50:57,719 --> 00:51:00,680
Speaker 1: to fight. It's different when you get mardad it is different.

950
00:51:00,880 --> 00:51:02,640
Speaker 1: You have to fight because when you take those vows

951
00:51:03,160 --> 00:51:05,840
Speaker 1: you can't just easily. I totally agree. I feel like

952
00:51:05,920 --> 00:51:15,919
Speaker 1: when there's not a commitment there, like you could go yeah.

953
00:51:16,040 --> 00:51:18,879
Speaker 1: I mean but if okay, if since was married, then

954
00:51:18,920 --> 00:51:22,520
Speaker 1: I would be saying, okay, since try to try to

955
00:51:22,560 --> 00:51:24,320
Speaker 1: try to you know, try a little, you know what

956
00:51:24,360 --> 00:51:27,320
Speaker 1: I mean? But because not but you have been together

957
00:51:27,400 --> 00:51:30,160
Speaker 1: for so long. But if you don't see a change

958
00:51:30,360 --> 00:51:33,279
Speaker 1: and you're not getting what you want, what are you

959
00:51:33,440 --> 00:51:36,880
Speaker 1: not getting? Let's just can we go there? There's trust

960
00:51:36,960 --> 00:51:41,000
Speaker 1: issues that have been for years and not resolved. There's

961
00:51:41,040 --> 00:51:47,840
Speaker 1: insecurity issues. Um well I'm not the insecure one, but

962
00:51:47,920 --> 00:51:49,920
Speaker 1: we I definitely have a trust issue with him. But

963
00:51:50,200 --> 00:51:52,759
Speaker 1: the problem, my main problem, um, and this is something

964
00:51:52,840 --> 00:51:54,640
Speaker 1: that I put it in the caption, Um because I

965
00:51:54,719 --> 00:51:56,080
Speaker 1: was being petty the other day he just because I

966
00:51:56,160 --> 00:51:58,920
Speaker 1: felt like it. But he fell in love with g

967
00:51:59,040 --> 00:52:03,080
Speaker 1: G McGuire and g McGuire was a stripper. G McGuire

968
00:52:03,280 --> 00:52:05,520
Speaker 1: was kind of out there. Mcguarre was about her coin

969
00:52:06,280 --> 00:52:08,239
Speaker 1: and g McGuire was known to be a certain way.

970
00:52:09,120 --> 00:52:11,200
Speaker 1: Through the ten years that we've been together, he never

971
00:52:11,280 --> 00:52:14,120
Speaker 1: took the chance to get to no coffee. So everything

972
00:52:14,200 --> 00:52:16,320
Speaker 1: that he sees of me, he sees in that like

973
00:52:16,440 --> 00:52:19,800
Speaker 1: of g McGuire, where coffee is some some somebody totally

974
00:52:19,880 --> 00:52:21,920
Speaker 1: different that you never even got to took the time

975
00:52:21,960 --> 00:52:24,520
Speaker 1: because you're so focused on g McGuire and the negative

976
00:52:24,560 --> 00:52:26,040
Speaker 1: things that came along with that that you won't let

977
00:52:26,080 --> 00:52:28,640
Speaker 1: go of from ten years ago. So that's like really

978
00:52:28,680 --> 00:52:30,560
Speaker 1: our problem. Honestly. He don't even know how to say

979
00:52:30,600 --> 00:52:32,640
Speaker 1: my name. He say it wrong every time he say it,

980
00:52:32,680 --> 00:52:36,920
Speaker 1: which is why he doesn't say it cafe, coffee, cafe.

981
00:52:37,560 --> 00:52:41,959
Speaker 1: He says it's coffee when you say like white people,

982
00:52:42,280 --> 00:52:45,359
Speaker 1: white people say it with no rhythm. They say coffee, right,

983
00:52:45,440 --> 00:52:49,120
Speaker 1: and I answered to that it's toffee, coffee, Yeah, he

984
00:52:49,239 --> 00:52:52,480
Speaker 1: says like cafe coffee. He never says my name right.

985
00:52:52,760 --> 00:52:55,839
Speaker 1: Nobody in his family calls me that. Nobody around him

986
00:52:55,920 --> 00:52:59,040
Speaker 1: calls me that. Nobody in that circle or in nobody

987
00:52:59,120 --> 00:53:01,200
Speaker 1: calls me by my real name because he doesn't acknowledge

988
00:53:01,200 --> 00:53:03,120
Speaker 1: me with my real name. He took his day acknowledges

989
00:53:04,440 --> 00:53:06,920
Speaker 1: his mother, and everybody all called me Gig, and it's

990
00:53:06,960 --> 00:53:09,000
Speaker 1: just like you don't really know me, we don't love me.

991
00:53:09,160 --> 00:53:12,279
Speaker 1: The reason that y'all broke up because I want to

992
00:53:12,320 --> 00:53:14,320
Speaker 1: do what I want to do when I want to

993
00:53:14,360 --> 00:53:19,680
Speaker 1: do it. M hm. Why wouldn't I be allowed to

994
00:53:19,719 --> 00:53:20,719
Speaker 1: do what I want to do when I want to

995
00:53:20,760 --> 00:53:22,640
Speaker 1: do it? There this goes back to in the previous

996
00:53:22,719 --> 00:53:25,880
Speaker 1: episode when I spoke about the bird cage, like I

997
00:53:25,920 --> 00:53:27,480
Speaker 1: feel like he had me in the bird cage and

998
00:53:27,520 --> 00:53:29,000
Speaker 1: then he would let me out my birdcage to be

999
00:53:29,040 --> 00:53:31,680
Speaker 1: pretty and spread my spread my peacock feathers for everybody

1000
00:53:31,719 --> 00:53:33,400
Speaker 1: in his presence, But then when he would take me

1001
00:53:33,440 --> 00:53:34,960
Speaker 1: back and put me in my bird cage, and I'm

1002
00:53:35,000 --> 00:53:38,080
Speaker 1: not allowed to spread my peacocks feathers and be pretty

1003
00:53:38,080 --> 00:53:40,120
Speaker 1: for everybody else because he only wants that for him,

1004
00:53:40,640 --> 00:53:43,360
Speaker 1: Like that was a problem, Like I'm not allowed to

1005
00:53:43,440 --> 00:53:45,360
Speaker 1: go out and do things on my own. I travel.

1006
00:53:45,440 --> 00:53:47,160
Speaker 1: He gets upset and things that I'm out doing some

1007
00:53:47,239 --> 00:53:50,000
Speaker 1: whole ship because that's what he thinks. G McGuire is

1008
00:53:50,040 --> 00:53:51,799
Speaker 1: going to do, but that's not what cafee is doing.

1009
00:53:51,880 --> 00:53:54,200
Speaker 1: I'm smarter than that. I'm capable of doing more than

1010
00:53:54,440 --> 00:53:56,960
Speaker 1: doing whole ship. I'm capable of doing a whole lot

1011
00:53:57,000 --> 00:53:59,120
Speaker 1: of things because I'm book smart and street smart. But

1012
00:53:59,160 --> 00:54:02,840
Speaker 1: he doesn't see that. Stop you one second, don't have it.

1013
00:54:02,960 --> 00:54:05,920
Speaker 1: You never you was never doing whole ship, not like that.

1014
00:54:06,320 --> 00:54:09,160
Speaker 1: But I'm just saying, because i'm talking now, I'm talking

1015
00:54:09,200 --> 00:54:12,760
Speaker 1: to how you said coffee coffee, I'm talking. I'm speaking

1016
00:54:12,800 --> 00:54:16,680
Speaker 1: to that woman. He is never doing whole ship. But

1017
00:54:16,800 --> 00:54:19,000
Speaker 1: you know the contentation that people put on the strip

1018
00:54:19,080 --> 00:54:21,560
Speaker 1: club life. And because I was a dancer, I was

1019
00:54:21,600 --> 00:54:23,320
Speaker 1: a bartender in the strip club. I was a manager

1020
00:54:23,360 --> 00:54:27,319
Speaker 1: in the strip club. So like, that's yours because if

1021
00:54:27,400 --> 00:54:29,400
Speaker 1: you've lived this life, then this is what you are.

1022
00:54:29,560 --> 00:54:31,440
Speaker 1: And he never took the time out to really get

1023
00:54:31,480 --> 00:54:33,399
Speaker 1: to know the real me, and that was our biggest problem.

1024
00:54:33,440 --> 00:54:36,960
Speaker 1: I get it, but that's never what you are, queen,

1025
00:54:37,360 --> 00:54:40,120
Speaker 1: That's never what you are, right. I want to say

1026
00:54:40,239 --> 00:54:47,040
Speaker 1: that now. Secondly, I want to say, okay, yeah, if

1027
00:54:47,080 --> 00:54:50,160
Speaker 1: he does not accept the growth and you're the woman

1028
00:54:50,200 --> 00:54:53,000
Speaker 1: that you're becoming, then you have to leave. And that's

1029
00:54:53,000 --> 00:54:55,960
Speaker 1: another problem. Like I said, he stuck on ten years

1030
00:54:56,000 --> 00:54:58,719
Speaker 1: ago and who I was or things that I've done.

1031
00:54:59,040 --> 00:55:01,759
Speaker 1: And there's been evolution. Angela has been around for the

1032
00:55:01,800 --> 00:55:04,600
Speaker 1: whole entire time. Angelas seen and everybody around me has

1033
00:55:04,640 --> 00:55:07,759
Speaker 1: seen me come from this dancer to a businesswoman to

1034
00:55:08,200 --> 00:55:11,200
Speaker 1: who I am today, continue until eve off. But he's

1035
00:55:11,239 --> 00:55:14,280
Speaker 1: so stuck on the past that he can't even accept

1036
00:55:14,360 --> 00:55:16,920
Speaker 1: that that's insecurity exactly. And he's so stuck on the

1037
00:55:16,960 --> 00:55:19,480
Speaker 1: past that he can't even sept his role and be changing,

1038
00:55:19,960 --> 00:55:22,160
Speaker 1: let alone acknowledge it. So why do I want to

1039
00:55:22,200 --> 00:55:26,120
Speaker 1: fight for that? She's like, you're not married, so right,

1040
00:55:26,239 --> 00:55:34,440
Speaker 1: Dr Brino Doctor, just be like I just like you have.

1041
00:55:34,840 --> 00:55:39,480
Speaker 1: Is your name hyphenated? No, it's really no? Yeah, okay yeah,

1042
00:55:40,680 --> 00:55:43,080
Speaker 1: and the kids you change their last names. Zion wants

1043
00:55:43,120 --> 00:55:46,560
Speaker 1: to change hers to me, that was dope to me.

1044
00:55:46,719 --> 00:55:48,160
Speaker 1: For her to come and say I want to be

1045
00:55:48,239 --> 00:55:51,160
Speaker 1: a tailor, that was dope. And her father is still

1046
00:55:51,200 --> 00:55:53,839
Speaker 1: in her life. I'll not promote that like she talks

1047
00:55:53,880 --> 00:55:58,160
Speaker 1: to her father. I'm never with my kids play that game. Um,

1048
00:55:58,880 --> 00:56:03,200
Speaker 1: but handle has has been the role of a father.

1049
00:56:03,640 --> 00:56:06,239
Speaker 1: He's been there. Yeah, I mean and that show she

1050
00:56:06,360 --> 00:56:08,960
Speaker 1: wants Taylor, is she gonna hyphenate it or are you

1051
00:56:09,040 --> 00:56:12,560
Speaker 1: thinking about doing it now? So I'm like, yo, what

1052
00:56:12,880 --> 00:56:22,120
Speaker 1: do you want? Yeah? She really eighteen? Yes, yes, yeah,

1053
00:56:23,560 --> 00:56:26,480
Speaker 1: I remember when she was carrying around on stage and

1054
00:56:26,600 --> 00:56:34,320
Speaker 1: now that's scary now almost the same age. Because I

1055
00:56:34,400 --> 00:56:36,080
Speaker 1: know they're waving and stuffing. We probably have to get

1056
00:56:36,120 --> 00:56:37,640
Speaker 1: ready to go, but I want to say one thing

1057
00:56:37,719 --> 00:56:42,520
Speaker 1: to you minutes. I'm proud of you. Thank you, straight up,

1058
00:56:43,280 --> 00:56:45,360
Speaker 1: I'm proud of you. And every door you're about to

1059
00:56:45,400 --> 00:56:48,400
Speaker 1: walk through and whomever you meet, they're gonna see the

1060
00:56:48,480 --> 00:56:50,720
Speaker 1: queen that you are. You even got to talk about

1061
00:56:50,760 --> 00:56:52,799
Speaker 1: the past, because when you talk about the past, you're

1062
00:56:52,800 --> 00:56:54,440
Speaker 1: stay in the past. We can headed to the future.

1063
00:56:55,080 --> 00:56:57,920
Speaker 1: So I'm proud of you. Don't How do you crazy?

1064
00:56:57,960 --> 00:57:04,239
Speaker 1: How are you telling all the people? I'm like, I'll

1065
00:57:04,280 --> 00:57:13,160
Speaker 1: be telling you that all the time, you Fantasia, because

1066
00:57:13,719 --> 00:57:16,280
Speaker 1: that for everybody who is listening and watching to see

1067
00:57:16,720 --> 00:57:19,040
Speaker 1: all that you've been through, and you've been so public

1068
00:57:19,080 --> 00:57:21,040
Speaker 1: about it, which is not an easy thing to do,

1069
00:57:21,440 --> 00:57:23,520
Speaker 1: but it helps a lot of people, right and to

1070
00:57:23,640 --> 00:57:26,160
Speaker 1: see all of the storms that you've been through and

1071
00:57:26,200 --> 00:57:30,280
Speaker 1: to see where you are right now, independent, married, hathy.

1072
00:57:30,720 --> 00:57:33,000
Speaker 1: I think that gives people hope, like for all of

1073
00:57:33,160 --> 00:57:35,760
Speaker 1: us in the room to say, okay, you know, we

1074
00:57:35,840 --> 00:57:39,480
Speaker 1: gotta just keep it grinding because when it happens for us,

1075
00:57:39,880 --> 00:57:42,880
Speaker 1: yeah it'll that's when it's right. And I'm gonna be

1076
00:57:42,920 --> 00:57:48,920
Speaker 1: at anybody with And like I told you, I'm not

1077
00:57:49,040 --> 00:57:53,920
Speaker 1: singing though, but yeah I'm thinking the bedroom. Now, you

1078
00:57:53,960 --> 00:58:00,120
Speaker 1: said you would get your God you got homework, so

1079
00:58:01,160 --> 00:58:05,720
Speaker 1: I'm answer, I'm trying. We warned it saying like verythings

1080
00:58:05,720 --> 00:58:10,800
Speaker 1: gonna do it room. So I gotta ask you would

1081
00:58:10,800 --> 00:58:12,720
Speaker 1: you date somebody? If you dated somebody, that's saying if

1082
00:58:12,760 --> 00:58:14,880
Speaker 1: you want him to sing all the song? We didn't

1083
00:58:14,880 --> 00:58:17,600
Speaker 1: say all the time while you over most of the time,

1084
00:58:17,720 --> 00:58:20,120
Speaker 1: but now we didn't say that we stand the enjoy

1085
00:58:20,200 --> 00:58:22,720
Speaker 1: it like in the car, like in the me in

1086
00:58:22,800 --> 00:58:27,280
Speaker 1: the bedroom during during no, that's weird, that might be dope,

1087
00:58:28,240 --> 00:58:32,720
Speaker 1: sound like a part of four how pussy you know what?

1088
00:58:33,000 --> 00:58:38,040
Speaker 1: Not remind me of church? It would remind me of church.

1089
00:58:38,160 --> 00:58:43,520
Speaker 1: There was a running are we talking about? So I

1090
00:58:43,560 --> 00:58:46,520
Speaker 1: didn't like it was whispering your air, singing in your air.

1091
00:58:49,480 --> 00:58:52,240
Speaker 1: I don't know what singing in my hair four play.

1092
00:58:52,360 --> 00:58:54,560
Speaker 1: Maybe you're gonna sing me a song? Okay, I got

1093
00:58:54,600 --> 00:58:59,320
Speaker 1: a question the street that could like, I'm not in it.

1094
00:58:59,480 --> 00:59:02,200
Speaker 1: But if it was one one guy girl whoever in

1095
00:59:02,280 --> 00:59:04,760
Speaker 1: the industry that could sing to you and Ben, who

1096
00:59:04,760 --> 00:59:07,720
Speaker 1: would it be? Does he have to be alive? No, Prince?

1097
00:59:08,040 --> 00:59:15,120
Speaker 1: Oh yeah, that's saw that. Um did you just say Luther?

1098
00:59:15,600 --> 00:59:18,919
Speaker 1: She said you said, come on with the problem. Yeah,

1099
00:59:19,400 --> 00:59:22,160
Speaker 1: straight up, I'm not saying I'm not talking about anything.

1100
00:59:22,200 --> 00:59:28,040
Speaker 1: Oh you said singing very white? It would be Miguel Miguel,

1101
00:59:28,120 --> 00:59:30,720
Speaker 1: but he's married. I would never put Miguel. But Miguel

1102
00:59:30,760 --> 00:59:39,800
Speaker 1: does have that sex boys mil yes, because and I

1103
00:59:39,840 --> 00:59:43,000
Speaker 1: don't know. I just in December Lake because he's just

1104
00:59:43,080 --> 00:59:45,320
Speaker 1: been my boyfriend since I was like ten years old

1105
00:59:45,720 --> 00:59:48,120
Speaker 1: and sings and I never got to get him. So

1106
00:59:49,160 --> 00:59:52,520
Speaker 1: we're talking about fantasy. As long as I got my

1107
00:59:52,680 --> 00:59:56,360
Speaker 1: suit and time, I'll be like, Yeah, don't be more

1108
00:59:57,680 --> 00:59:59,840
Speaker 1: self fantasty at your homework. You gotta go that mike.

1109
01:00:00,040 --> 01:00:04,560
Speaker 1: You never difference in the favor. We gotta grab that mic.

1110
01:00:05,600 --> 01:00:14,440
Speaker 1: Oh Jesus, why my practice and what do I start? Like,

1111
01:00:16,560 --> 01:00:19,520
Speaker 1: grab the mic and rack the mic, Grab the mic

1112
01:00:19,600 --> 01:00:21,600
Speaker 1: and rocket. Plus I heard it's good for your throat,

1113
01:00:21,760 --> 01:00:32,280
Speaker 1: so oh god, al Okay, she said it is. I

1114
01:00:32,320 --> 01:00:39,000
Speaker 1: didn't say that. Let me start driving, but fantation, We

1115
01:00:39,120 --> 01:00:41,200
Speaker 1: really do appreciate you so much. Thank you. We had

1116
01:00:41,240 --> 01:00:43,320
Speaker 1: a great time with you. This is everything I had

1117
01:00:43,360 --> 01:00:45,160
Speaker 1: you and we were so excited when you trying out.

1118
01:00:45,160 --> 01:00:48,040
Speaker 1: You were coming so excited. Yeah. Man, I love to

1119
01:00:48,080 --> 01:00:52,360
Speaker 1: see black women come together and uh and do that thing.

1120
01:00:52,480 --> 01:00:55,400
Speaker 1: So Matt, Matt, big ups to all y'all and God

1121
01:00:55,440 --> 01:00:57,040
Speaker 1: bless you and everything you do. And let me know

1122
01:00:57,080 --> 01:00:58,720
Speaker 1: when the wedding comes so I can come be so

1123
01:00:59,200 --> 01:01:03,640
Speaker 1: ratchy Okay and I but we are going to check

1124
01:01:03,680 --> 01:01:07,280
Speaker 1: in with you about your homework. Huh, don't have? If

1125
01:01:07,280 --> 01:01:12,000
Speaker 1: you have, you could hear you say. If you could

1126
01:01:12,040 --> 01:01:16,920
Speaker 1: hear a girl, I love her? Okay, love that. It's pantagious,

1127
01:01:17,000 --> 01:01:20,200
Speaker 1: sketch bug. When is it out October? Then October eleven?

1128
01:01:20,960 --> 01:01:24,640
Speaker 1: So you got to complete your homework back then she's

1129
01:01:24,680 --> 01:01:29,800
Speaker 1: good luck. Try to help him. Okay, looks to service