WEBVTT - Vibin' With Big Boss Vette 0:00:00.120 --> 0:00:02.360 I'm then to do vaugh and this is Conversations with 0:00:02.680 --> 0:00:07.760 the podcast. Today's guest is a rapper from Saint Louis, Missouri. 0:00:08.039 --> 0:00:11.319 Let's welcome Diamond Smith, better known as Big Boss VET. 0:00:12.160 --> 0:00:15.120 Finally got me in here. I'm in here now. 0:00:15.840 --> 0:00:18.000 I can't believe I'm doing it, but I'm doing it 0:00:18.160 --> 0:00:20.880 on the strength of my people's Dolly and Clay. 0:00:21.800 --> 0:00:22.840 They got me in here. 0:00:23.200 --> 0:00:25.800 You need people like that, though, people like that in 0:00:25.840 --> 0:00:28.200 your corner to make you do stuff, because those be 0:00:28.280 --> 0:00:30.320 the main things that take you to the next level. 0:00:31.240 --> 0:00:33.280 And guess who's my first guess. I got a first 0:00:33.320 --> 0:00:36.639 guess in here. You know, I don't know too much 0:00:36.640 --> 0:00:39.400 about it, but I know it through family. And if 0:00:39.400 --> 0:00:43.680 this family fucks with him, I fuck with him. So 0:00:43.760 --> 0:00:49.120 let me introduce y'all, Big Boss Vetat. 0:00:47.880 --> 0:00:49.120 Big Boss VET, a. 0:00:53.360 --> 0:00:55.840 Lot of people come to meet for advice and shit 0:00:56.000 --> 0:00:58.840 and therapy, you know, in my regular life. So I 0:00:58.880 --> 0:01:01.160 figured I figured in the industry, a lot of people 0:01:01.200 --> 0:01:05.119 need advice in therapy with regular lifestyle, not so much 0:01:05.160 --> 0:01:08.399 with business, but with life in general, because getting the 0:01:08.400 --> 0:01:11.399 money be the easy part in the industry, but what 0:01:11.520 --> 0:01:13.360 to do with and how to enjoy it is the 0:01:13.400 --> 0:01:13.959 hard part. 0:01:14.240 --> 0:01:15.000 So they come to me. 0:01:15.720 --> 0:01:18.560 So I figured, Shit, why don't I ask somebody that's 0:01:18.640 --> 0:01:21.280 new in the industry, that's doing her thing and maybe 0:01:21.319 --> 0:01:23.520 she needs some help, So you could talk to me 0:01:23.520 --> 0:01:25.560 about everything. But first let me tell them about you though, 0:01:25.600 --> 0:01:27.240 you know, because I got some of the stuff here. 0:01:27.240 --> 0:01:27.600 All right. 0:01:28.120 --> 0:01:30.479 This is what I know her from from this song 0:01:30.560 --> 0:01:34.080 pretty girl walk like this this this, that's what I 0:01:34.160 --> 0:01:36.000 know her from, you know. But she also got the 0:01:36.040 --> 0:01:41.120 song Snatch problem Karma and I don't need you know. 0:01:41.520 --> 0:01:45.400 She performed at the BET Awards pre show in La. 0:01:46.080 --> 0:01:50.680 She was featured in the Cipher You know her snatched 0:01:50.720 --> 0:01:54.320 stream for over fifteen million times, one of the top 0:01:54.440 --> 0:01:58.960 sounds used on TikTok Snatch remix with Sausa Santana Flo 0:01:59.120 --> 0:02:00.960 Millie was released this past fall. 0:02:01.560 --> 0:02:04.920 Oh you're from Saint Louis. You're from the Lou the 0:02:05.040 --> 0:02:08.200 lou Okay you giving what? Tell me? 0:02:08.240 --> 0:02:09.880 Tell me about the lou Tell me where you're from, temp, 0:02:09.960 --> 0:02:11.679 tell me a little about yourself, Like tell me what 0:02:12.080 --> 0:02:14.960 got you in the game, Like like give me like 0:02:15.360 --> 0:02:18.400 I wanted, like your your upbringing, like your family bringing, 0:02:18.480 --> 0:02:20.800 and what transition into the industry. 0:02:20.919 --> 0:02:24.400 Okay, all right, So I want to say it all 0:02:24.400 --> 0:02:28.600 started in twenty fourteen. I was a broke high school student. 0:02:30.480 --> 0:02:32.240 I don't even think that my phone was on, Honestly, 0:02:32.320 --> 0:02:34.519 I think I just was. I just had a phone, 0:02:34.639 --> 0:02:35.480 like using it. 0:02:35.440 --> 0:02:39.480 On Wi Fi and money. 0:02:42.320 --> 0:02:47.760 Damn. I've seen people going viral for like doing like cover, 0:02:47.919 --> 0:02:48.520 so I'm like. 0:02:48.639 --> 0:02:52.680 Let me hop on the cover and off what covers covers? 0:02:52.800 --> 0:02:53.360 Yeah? 0:02:53.480 --> 0:02:55.640 So my first cover was the Day's Love Tried Me 0:02:55.760 --> 0:02:57.399 and I did not know how to wrap on beat 0:02:57.440 --> 0:02:58.720 back in the day. So I'm like, I'm gonna just 0:02:58.760 --> 0:03:02.000 do it. We gotta be And when I did it, 0:03:02.720 --> 0:03:05.160 I think I posted the video like seven summer night. 0:03:05.440 --> 0:03:05.560 Uh. 0:03:05.960 --> 0:03:09.519 The next morning went to school totally for gud that 0:03:09.560 --> 0:03:12.240 I even posted the video. I posted a picture and 0:03:12.240 --> 0:03:14.200 the mother god like a thousand likes in like thirty minutes. 0:03:14.240 --> 0:03:17.120 I'm like, space, was. 0:03:17.120 --> 0:03:18.600 You let me ask you something? Not to cut you off? 0:03:18.639 --> 0:03:22.800 But I did? Was it? Was you already kind of popular? 0:03:23.200 --> 0:03:23.560 Nah? 0:03:23.840 --> 0:03:24.040 Nah? 0:03:24.080 --> 0:03:26.520 I was. I was a regular school student. I was. 0:03:27.160 --> 0:03:28.919 I don't know, did you have a lot of friends? 0:03:29.040 --> 0:03:30.880 Was you like in the cool crew? 0:03:31.880 --> 0:03:32.320 You know what? 0:03:32.520 --> 0:03:34.920 I was just cool to sell so I would say yeah, 0:03:34.960 --> 0:03:36.560 but then again, I'm gonna say, was you. 0:03:36.480 --> 0:03:37.960 Popular in your school? Yeah? 0:03:37.960 --> 0:03:38.560 I actually was. 0:03:38.760 --> 0:03:41.520 Okay, I'm just trying to see how to what might 0:03:41.520 --> 0:03:45.160 have caused the thousand. What'd you say you had interview. 0:03:45.920 --> 0:03:47.400 A thousand or something like yeah? 0:03:47.480 --> 0:03:48.800 Yeah, like yeah yeah. 0:03:48.920 --> 0:03:49.760 I was like, I don't know. 0:03:49.680 --> 0:03:51.440 What they're going on, Like I have never got the 0:03:51.520 --> 0:03:54.400 men likes, so I'm like, like, what's going on? And 0:03:54.960 --> 0:03:56.480 I posted a second picture because I'm like, let me 0:03:56.520 --> 0:03:58.120 see if it's gonna do the same thing, and they 0:03:58.120 --> 0:04:00.880 had like two thousands. I'm like like, yo, what's going on. 0:04:00.960 --> 0:04:04.240 So I'm going through my notifications on Facebook and I 0:04:04.280 --> 0:04:06.520 realized that the video that I supposed to do on 0:04:06.560 --> 0:04:08.360 the cover to the Days like Trying Me went viral, 0:04:08.880 --> 0:04:11.080 so that's where all them likes were coming in from. 0:04:11.120 --> 0:04:13.200 And I'm like, oh shit. So I'm reading the comments 0:04:13.200 --> 0:04:16.280 and they're like, so you saw pretty I'm like and 0:04:16.320 --> 0:04:18.800 I'm just like, I'm not a rapper like this this 0:04:18.880 --> 0:04:20.160 is just fun, Like I don't, like, I don't know 0:04:20.200 --> 0:04:23.440 what's going on. So fast forwarded like I just started 0:04:23.720 --> 0:04:26.160 like kept on doing covers, like, kept on doing covers, 0:04:26.279 --> 0:04:28.640 and I kept going viral of them I got in 0:04:28.680 --> 0:04:32.760 the studio and I did a I had laid the 0:04:32.839 --> 0:04:36.000 cover down to the Ludacris that moved to get out 0:04:36.480 --> 0:04:41.720 to that beat. And that's when I started getting booked 0:04:41.800 --> 0:04:42.920 to like sing my songs. 0:04:42.920 --> 0:04:46.919 And I'm like, yo, like you. 0:04:46.920 --> 0:04:48.560 Got off the ground running, yo. 0:04:48.760 --> 0:04:51.760 And I was so nervous because I'm like, what am 0:04:51.800 --> 0:04:54.000 I supposed to do with all this new found family? 0:04:54.000 --> 0:04:54.599 Like I don't know. 0:04:54.760 --> 0:04:55.760 You had to learn as you go. 0:04:56.120 --> 0:04:56.680 Absolutely. 0:04:57.600 --> 0:05:00.239 So I had one manager, which was my cousin, and 0:05:01.200 --> 0:05:03.359 we was working together for a while, and I was 0:05:03.400 --> 0:05:05.720 just like, yeah, it's not working off for me no more. 0:05:05.839 --> 0:05:06.000 You know. 0:05:06.839 --> 0:05:08.760 For my first show ever, I think they paid me 0:05:08.800 --> 0:05:11.840 like seven hundred dollars like drive fourteen hours. And I 0:05:11.880 --> 0:05:14.719 was so excited about this year, Like I'm like, yeah, 0:05:13.920 --> 0:05:17.320 I was excited. I'm like, damn, like you want to 0:05:17.320 --> 0:05:18.919 pay to hear me wrap us all on that, you know, 0:05:19.080 --> 0:05:21.400 Like like I ain't even know rapper, like you say 0:05:21.440 --> 0:05:21.840 my beat. 0:05:22.080 --> 0:05:24.560 Let me ask you this. Do you got siblings siblings 0:05:24.640 --> 0:05:25.640 like brothers and sisters. 0:05:25.760 --> 0:05:27.680 Yeah, but I wasn't really close to none of my siblings. 0:05:27.760 --> 0:05:28.960 I was only close to my cousin. 0:05:29.200 --> 0:05:31.400 And I'm in the brothers and sisters you got. 0:05:31.440 --> 0:05:33.599 I got two brothers and I got one sister on 0:05:33.600 --> 0:05:35.599 my mom's side. I got a brother on my daily 0:05:35.600 --> 0:05:37.479 side and the sister I never met, and also have 0:05:37.520 --> 0:05:40.920 step siblings and siblings that I've met in this industry. 0:05:41.000 --> 0:05:44.479 So okay, so you got family outside like like me 0:05:44.520 --> 0:05:46.720 and my people's dollar, we family outside of the. 0:05:46.600 --> 0:05:49.279 Family at me and there because now we y'all feel me. 0:05:49.160 --> 0:05:53.440 Come on, yeah, so let me see all right, So 0:05:53.560 --> 0:05:56.120 you said, I'm trying to get more into like the 0:05:56.160 --> 0:05:59.479 family part of it too, Like like, so you went 0:05:59.560 --> 0:06:01.960 from Saint Louis, he was in the music he was 0:06:02.000 --> 0:06:02.599 in high school. 0:06:02.600 --> 0:06:04.960 When when this's when you went to high school. He 0:06:05.000 --> 0:06:05.680 was in high school. 0:06:05.720 --> 0:06:08.240 So from there, what was you doing before you was 0:06:08.279 --> 0:06:10.800 doing that just just in school? Regular? Did you have 0:06:10.880 --> 0:06:14.880 a job? Like how was the family structure like everything? 0:06:15.080 --> 0:06:17.400 I wasn't really close to my family, to be honest, 0:06:17.400 --> 0:06:18.320 like I had them blocked on. 0:06:18.640 --> 0:06:19.000 Why not? 0:06:19.600 --> 0:06:21.320 That's kind of because I heard you say when I 0:06:21.320 --> 0:06:24.040 asked you about your your siblings, like I don't really 0:06:24.080 --> 0:06:24.840 fuck with them like that. 0:06:24.839 --> 0:06:28.040 That's what I did it, but now I do. But 0:06:28.120 --> 0:06:29.520 back in the day, I did not like let's get 0:06:29.560 --> 0:06:32.080 into that. I was like the black sheep of the family. 0:06:32.120 --> 0:06:33.919 Like I like, why did they think you was the 0:06:33.920 --> 0:06:34.440 black sheep? 0:06:34.520 --> 0:06:37.680 Because I was not no yes man, Like I had 0:06:37.680 --> 0:06:40.160 grew up with the family that thought like, no matter 0:06:40.160 --> 0:06:42.160 what they said to you, you're not supposed to say 0:06:42.200 --> 0:06:44.520 them back. But I've always been that person that they 0:06:44.560 --> 0:06:46.200 would like be like, damn, what the fuck you're talking 0:06:46.200 --> 0:06:47.640 to me right that, you know, like you ain't even 0:06:47.680 --> 0:06:50.080 gotta say it like that, or I just was it 0:06:50.120 --> 0:06:50.680 a little bit. 0:06:50.600 --> 0:06:51.320 Of both of y'all. 0:06:51.600 --> 0:06:53.880 It was a little bit of like because like sometimes 0:06:53.960 --> 0:06:57.160 cause it's happened to me sometimes, like sometimes you you 0:06:57.200 --> 0:06:59.920 want to you want to buck on people, but it's 0:07:00.040 --> 0:07:01.760 same time they just trying to help you in the 0:07:01.760 --> 0:07:03.480 way that they think they can help you, but then 0:07:03.480 --> 0:07:05.840 they be wrong in the motherfucker and then sometimes you 0:07:06.000 --> 0:07:08.520 be wrong in the motherfucking So like you said, y'all, 0:07:08.600 --> 0:07:10.520 y'all cool now, But did y'all have to come to 0:07:10.600 --> 0:07:13.920 that understanding to take a while or how did y'all 0:07:13.920 --> 0:07:14.600 get to that point? 0:07:15.080 --> 0:07:19.400 So me and my siblings talk to me, we was 0:07:19.560 --> 0:07:22.240 we was literally only closed when it was like time 0:07:22.320 --> 0:07:26.040 to fight, Like like I don't care what I said 0:07:26.040 --> 0:07:28.120 to my siblings. Can't Nobody else had that ship to them, 0:07:28.160 --> 0:07:29.560 like like I didn't like, I didn't care. 0:07:29.680 --> 0:07:30.520 But supposed to be. 0:07:30.680 --> 0:07:34.360 But we would, but we would just be like it 0:07:34.400 --> 0:07:37.040 would it would be a fucking jungle in our damn house. 0:07:37.120 --> 0:07:39.360 Like, yeah, we didn't. We didn't grow up close. We 0:07:39.440 --> 0:07:39.880 just didn't. 0:07:39.960 --> 0:07:41.760 Did they grow? Did they do? They? Are? They in 0:07:41.800 --> 0:07:43.280 the industry too? Music and all? 0:07:43.800 --> 0:07:47.960 They have regularized or regular nine to fives? Like I 0:07:48.040 --> 0:07:50.640 went from being a black sheet to the first million 0:07:50.760 --> 0:07:53.560 or in my family, I ain't cast that check, but 0:07:53.600 --> 0:07:54.480 I'm the first millionaire. 0:07:54.560 --> 0:07:57.560 And will you like the youngest oldest. 0:07:57.200 --> 0:08:01.720 I'm the I'm the youngest baby. I'm the baby. 0:08:01.800 --> 0:08:02.760 And what's the oldest? 0:08:03.080 --> 0:08:03.320 Uh? 0:08:03.320 --> 0:08:06.680 He liked thirty So okay, he thirty something some I 0:08:06.720 --> 0:08:11.560 don't know, but thirty something. And she had like I 0:08:11.600 --> 0:08:14.640 think twenty fifteen was like when I went down like 0:08:14.680 --> 0:08:17.560 a really really dark ass path. Like also, so I 0:08:17.600 --> 0:08:20.280 had like a lot of nine and fives then I 0:08:20.360 --> 0:08:22.560 was doing her and you know it was like things 0:08:22.600 --> 0:08:22.840 like that. 0:08:22.960 --> 0:08:26.040 So I got you at that dark spot? What you 0:08:26.080 --> 0:08:28.280 think I got shot? I said, what got you out 0:08:28.320 --> 0:08:28.520 of it? 0:08:28.600 --> 0:08:29.120 I got shot. 0:08:29.680 --> 0:08:32.160 Oh you was in the dark spot before you got shot. Yeah, 0:08:32.360 --> 0:08:33.120 I thought the dogs. 0:08:33.240 --> 0:08:37.560 I thought shit, oh wait wait wait wait you got 0:08:37.600 --> 0:08:38.199 a life foldo? 0:08:38.280 --> 0:08:38.559 I don't. 0:08:38.640 --> 0:08:41.520 Yeah alright, so so so talk to me. All right, 0:08:41.600 --> 0:08:42.240 so what happened? 0:08:42.840 --> 0:08:44.800 So boom mind you. I told you that I was 0:08:44.840 --> 0:08:47.360 only close to my cousin. Her name was Taja. 0:08:48.240 --> 0:08:49.760 We was like around the same age. 0:08:49.840 --> 0:08:55.600 Yeah, okay, and twenty fifteen the beginning of our senior year. 0:08:56.800 --> 0:08:59.120 Yeah you know, not senior because I graduated twenty sixteen. 0:08:59.679 --> 0:09:03.520 She dad before she started school. And they like send 0:09:03.520 --> 0:09:05.160 me down a really dark path because I felt like 0:09:05.160 --> 0:09:09.360 that I had nobody died. Oh it was we gotta 0:09:09.360 --> 0:09:13.480 talk off okay but yeah, so yeah, and they send 0:09:13.559 --> 0:09:15.400 me down dark path to where I was literally meeting 0:09:15.440 --> 0:09:18.319 people trying to make everybody tas you. And that was 0:09:18.440 --> 0:09:21.400 like putting me in bad situations. Like I was always fighting. 0:09:21.720 --> 0:09:22.480 I was always in. 0:09:23.200 --> 0:09:25.400 Trying to trying to make them all like you like 0:09:25.440 --> 0:09:27.760 your cousin, yeah, like like trying to make him feel 0:09:27.760 --> 0:09:28.199 that void. 0:09:28.440 --> 0:09:29.520 Yeah yeah, I get you. 0:09:29.600 --> 0:09:31.880 Yeah, and I didn't have to feel me. 0:09:32.000 --> 0:09:33.560 That was like, let me go get you help, you know, 0:09:33.640 --> 0:09:35.840 like maybe need to talk to somebody like, which is like, 0:09:35.960 --> 0:09:37.720 now I won't go to therapy. 0:09:37.760 --> 0:09:40.600 I mean I might need to, everybody need to, but 0:09:40.679 --> 0:09:42.319 I won't go Why. I don't know. 0:09:42.880 --> 0:09:44.560 It's just therapy. 0:09:44.559 --> 0:09:46.319 You don't have to be like a therapist. It could 0:09:46.360 --> 0:09:48.280 be just somebody that you're comfortable with talking with. 0:09:48.960 --> 0:09:51.120 And that's why I got you on this side. I'm 0:09:51.120 --> 0:09:53.320 going I'm gonna lay it all down real soon. 0:09:53.360 --> 0:09:53.959 But yeah, so. 0:09:56.200 --> 0:09:58.680 I was like going crazy, like I was losing my mind. 0:09:58.679 --> 0:10:01.240 I didn't carry about my life. Ain't nobody else like 0:10:01.280 --> 0:10:08.439 I didn't care and I didn't care. And on her 0:10:08.520 --> 0:10:11.560 one year death in the anniversary was like two in 0:10:11.559 --> 0:10:14.600 the morning, we was leaving a party and went to 0:10:14.640 --> 0:10:17.599 go fight some ship I ain't even some ship that 0:10:17.640 --> 0:10:20.360 I shouldn't have even drove to, you know, pulled up 0:10:20.640 --> 0:10:24.240 and they weren't trying to fight. It was like gun 0:10:24.280 --> 0:10:24.560 just sid. 0:10:24.600 --> 0:10:25.280 I'm like, damn. 0:10:25.320 --> 0:10:29.960 You know, when them billet started going, I froze because 0:10:29.960 --> 0:10:33.400 I'm like damn, like like. 0:10:35.200 --> 0:10:37.000 But I've been bamboo. This is not you know, this 0:10:37.080 --> 0:10:39.840 is going on you know and ship. 0:10:42.440 --> 0:10:46.000 Yeah, like we was, we was fighting everybody, so we 0:10:46.040 --> 0:10:46.800 thought it was cool. 0:10:46.840 --> 0:10:47.400 It's just fight. 0:10:47.480 --> 0:10:48.880 It was like you know girls. 0:10:50.720 --> 0:10:57.000 Na, it wasn't no, it was no so no, it 0:10:57.040 --> 0:10:59.600 was it was girls in the background that we were 0:10:59.640 --> 0:11:02.880 supposed to go to, and when we got there, we 0:11:02.880 --> 0:11:08.000 didn't like the girls was really nonexistent because nobody's saying nothing. 0:11:08.280 --> 0:11:10.120 They would say it on the phone, were like going 0:11:10.200 --> 0:11:14.360 on and then men started speaking up and it's like 0:11:15.360 --> 0:11:17.760 er like we weren't even walking with y'all. And then 0:11:18.080 --> 0:11:20.160 luckily my cousin was there. 0:11:20.280 --> 0:11:21.000 We got shot with. 0:11:20.960 --> 0:11:22.199 Them, and. 0:11:23.760 --> 0:11:28.280 Shit, that ship went left like like immediately, and when 0:11:28.280 --> 0:11:31.520 I froze, something just like snapped me out of it 0:11:31.640 --> 0:11:33.080 and was like did you get down? 0:11:33.240 --> 0:11:35.120 Like what are you doing? Like you can't fight no bullet? 0:11:35.679 --> 0:11:38.400 So it was it was it was literally me, my 0:11:38.600 --> 0:11:41.720 cousin and my group was like back hurt. 0:11:41.720 --> 0:11:44.199 But he was the front of cinemas and. 0:11:45.720 --> 0:11:48.120 I had knew one of the people, so I'm like, y'all, 0:11:48.200 --> 0:11:50.320 let's just not do this because I know you and 0:11:50.360 --> 0:11:51.960 I know what, so let's just yea. 0:11:52.920 --> 0:11:55.240 Now, this was before and we. 0:11:55.080 --> 0:11:57.080 Were supposed to just walk away and just be like 0:11:57.080 --> 0:11:59.160 all right, y'all, just let it go on our way 0:11:59.200 --> 0:12:01.440 walking away. One of my cousins have to get the 0:12:01.480 --> 0:12:04.280 last word, and the dude was like, what you saying, nigga, 0:12:04.600 --> 0:12:08.880 and my cousin repeating itself. And then one dude started 0:12:08.920 --> 0:12:11.440 shooting earth, and I guess the other one thought he 0:12:11.480 --> 0:12:13.120 was shot he was shooting at us because he didn't 0:12:13.120 --> 0:12:15.040 even look over before he started to shooting. 0:12:15.559 --> 0:12:17.720 He literally just started aiming at business. And and you 0:12:17.760 --> 0:12:19.880 can tell that the that the gun was too much 0:12:19.920 --> 0:12:22.080 for him to handle because his hand was just just 0:12:22.120 --> 0:12:23.640 going really fucking nearly. 0:12:23.720 --> 0:12:27.360 Yes. So I got down and then then I got up, 0:12:27.400 --> 0:12:29.160 and then I see my cousin, so I'm so I'm 0:12:29.160 --> 0:12:30.960 trying to go, you know, lift him up, like come on, 0:12:31.040 --> 0:12:32.959 let's go, Let's go. Because I didn't even realize I 0:12:33.000 --> 0:12:35.520 was shot yet, and I'm seeing blood fall and I'm like, 0:12:35.520 --> 0:12:37.720 what the fuck? And I'm and I'm and I'm checking myself. 0:12:37.720 --> 0:12:41.360 I'm like, yo, I'm like these I'm I'm shot, like 0:12:41.480 --> 0:12:43.720 and then that is that is when I started feeling 0:12:43.760 --> 0:12:48.160 this burning sensation that was like say, you say you 0:12:48.240 --> 0:12:51.080 like touch a stove and you like, but you but 0:12:51.120 --> 0:12:53.320 you cannot pull away, so which is constant burning. 0:12:53.440 --> 0:12:54.640 So that ship I. 0:12:54.600 --> 0:12:56.640 Started digging them off. I'm trying to like stop the 0:12:56.679 --> 0:13:00.000 burning it was. It was it was crazy and so. 0:13:00.080 --> 0:13:03.680 That there made you made you come to your senses. 0:13:05.160 --> 0:13:08.880 Yeah, yeah, like because like afterwards, like it was, it 0:13:08.960 --> 0:13:10.640 was a lot of ship that I went through with 0:13:10.679 --> 0:13:12.319 that situation, and. 0:13:13.640 --> 0:13:16.679 It was like I was process. 0:13:16.520 --> 0:13:17.480 Oh this ship was once on. 0:13:17.640 --> 0:13:25.000 Then my my bull room actually got infected and well 0:13:25.120 --> 0:13:27.240 they won't take the bullet out. So I'm like, all right, 0:13:27.280 --> 0:13:29.640 because I cause I was hearing stories of people push 0:13:29.679 --> 0:13:30.760 their bullets out. 0:13:31.000 --> 0:13:31.480 I don't know. 0:13:31.920 --> 0:13:34.040 Actually they wouldn't give me the bullet or tell me 0:13:34.040 --> 0:13:35.640 what I was here with. They they actually took it 0:13:35.679 --> 0:13:40.240 into evidence. They wouln't give it to me. So after 0:13:41.000 --> 0:13:42.200 like it didn't hurt no more. 0:13:42.280 --> 0:13:44.000 I was trying to push the bullet out myself because 0:13:44.000 --> 0:13:45.280 I was tarning people do it, and they was like 0:13:45.720 --> 0:13:47.719 it didn't and didn't kill them. So I'm like, oh fuck, 0:13:47.760 --> 0:13:48.400 I'm gonna do it too. 0:13:48.800 --> 0:13:51.760 I tried to do it, and like this, this yellowish 0:13:51.800 --> 0:13:54.679 greenish substance started like oozing out of my arm and 0:13:55.000 --> 0:13:55.839 I couldn't stop it. 0:13:55.920 --> 0:13:57.319 I'm like, something is wrong. 0:13:58.000 --> 0:14:02.360 Went to the doctor and realized that it was an 0:14:02.400 --> 0:14:07.240 infection coming out, and they wound up taking the bullet 0:14:07.240 --> 0:14:09.079 out you know, they took it from me. They was like, 0:14:09.160 --> 0:14:12.640 we can't tell you about it, right, And I'm like 0:14:12.920 --> 0:14:15.400 all right, you know. And then a year later, I 0:14:15.520 --> 0:14:17.120 started getting this pain in my arm and I'm like, 0:14:17.120 --> 0:14:20.040 what the fucking on I like, and I'm like, maybe 0:14:20.080 --> 0:14:23.800 it's like a nerve damage, right, and I and like 0:14:24.160 --> 0:14:25.560 one day I was in so much pain, I'm like, 0:14:25.600 --> 0:14:28.080 something is wrong. I went back to the doctor and 0:14:28.200 --> 0:14:30.720 realized that it was a fragmenting on the nerve that 0:14:30.840 --> 0:14:34.200 was fucking me up and it traveled like up my arm. 0:14:34.840 --> 0:14:35.800 It was like right here. 0:14:36.000 --> 0:14:38.760 So like after yeah, I got your hair, and it 0:14:38.960 --> 0:14:41.440 like traveled her within a year and they was like 0:14:41.480 --> 0:14:43.280 it was going to keep traveling till they really smart 0:14:43.320 --> 0:14:44.440 and it could have killed me. So I needed to 0:14:44.440 --> 0:14:46.800 get surgery to get out. I'm like, damn, bitch almost 0:14:46.840 --> 0:14:47.440 died three times. 0:14:47.480 --> 0:14:49.240 God damn, Like shit, why you. 0:14:49.240 --> 0:14:50.120 Was going through it? Did it? 0:14:50.640 --> 0:14:53.160 Did you realize? What was you like in survival mode? 0:14:54.280 --> 0:14:56.280 Like I probably could die fucking around. 0:14:56.080 --> 0:14:56.960 And what you just like. 0:14:58.880 --> 0:15:00.720 I was like, yo, litt to get the shit out, 0:15:00.880 --> 0:15:02.840 like like I'm like I'm tired of dealing with this shit, 0:15:02.960 --> 0:15:04.600 Like damn, Like like I don't even live that, like 0:15:04.600 --> 0:15:06.560 no more, like this ship is over with like stop, 0:15:06.680 --> 0:15:06.920 you know? 0:15:07.400 --> 0:15:09.720 Is that what made you transfer to like all right, 0:15:09.760 --> 0:15:11.600 I'm gonna put more into this music thing to get 0:15:11.640 --> 0:15:13.560 up out of here than get to Atlanta? 0:15:13.880 --> 0:15:14.280 Nah? 0:15:14.440 --> 0:15:16.640 Nah? So what made me go into music is like 0:15:16.880 --> 0:15:20.960 the day yeah, like two days after I got shot, 0:15:21.480 --> 0:15:23.720 So my call looked like a fucking murders and it 0:15:23.720 --> 0:15:27.160 was blood eirwhere and nobody would have me cleaned out? 0:15:27.280 --> 0:15:29.480 And it was this man that I met, and he 0:15:29.560 --> 0:15:32.600 was like cool as hell and he literally was a 0:15:32.600 --> 0:15:36.760 fucking wolf and sheep clothing, so he helped me clean 0:15:36.800 --> 0:15:38.680 my car out. He was like so nice to me, 0:15:39.880 --> 0:15:42.080 wolf and sheep clothes, and I promise he was. He 0:15:42.280 --> 0:15:45.240 was everything that I could have wanted at first until 0:15:45.280 --> 0:15:47.120 he finally got me. And then the bitch went into 0:15:47.200 --> 0:15:49.720 demon time like demon mold like he was different, you know, 0:15:50.360 --> 0:15:55.480 and two months but being as though that I created 0:15:55.520 --> 0:15:59.280 a trauma bomb him and it was a coldependency. It 0:15:59.400 --> 0:16:02.200 was like I was I was up with how. 0:16:02.080 --> 0:16:02.800 Did it change you? 0:16:03.240 --> 0:16:05.920 How you feel like the accident changed you? Because he 0:16:06.000 --> 0:16:07.920 was there too, He was there through the healing part. 0:16:08.000 --> 0:16:09.960 Yeah supposed yeah, so he really didn't. 0:16:09.760 --> 0:16:11.960 Heal, like okay, so he was. 0:16:12.120 --> 0:16:14.840 He was there through the hell and like because I 0:16:14.880 --> 0:16:19.240 had to like separate myself from everybody who I was 0:16:19.280 --> 0:16:21.480 with because I didn't want to be outside fighting no more. 0:16:21.520 --> 0:16:22.680 I didn't want to do all this no more. 0:16:22.720 --> 0:16:25.120 I'm like, yo, like I'm wasting my life right now, 0:16:25.240 --> 0:16:26.480 like I could be doing something better. 0:16:27.080 --> 0:16:29.480 And that's when I started focusing on music. 0:16:29.760 --> 0:16:32.160 And then once I used to like rap up my verses, 0:16:32.240 --> 0:16:34.200 he would be like, I don't I don't want you 0:16:34.280 --> 0:16:38.560 talking like that any songs people don't like, Like niggas 0:16:38.560 --> 0:16:39.920 just going to fuck you if they hear you talking 0:16:39.920 --> 0:16:41.880 like that, they ain't even gonna like your music. Like 0:16:41.880 --> 0:16:44.160 like he was instilling that shit in my mind, and 0:16:44.280 --> 0:16:46.120 I thought that this nigga knew what he was talking 0:16:46.120 --> 0:16:48.600 about at one point in time, until he would get 0:16:48.600 --> 0:16:50.320 caught cheating and then I'll drop a song and then 0:16:50.360 --> 0:16:52.480 I go viral, and then he would start acting back 0:16:52.560 --> 0:16:55.160 right and then I and then I would not drop 0:16:55.240 --> 0:16:56.920 no more music, and then he and then he would 0:16:56.920 --> 0:16:57.720 get caught cheating again. 0:16:57.760 --> 0:16:58.680 Then I drop these songs. 0:16:58.760 --> 0:17:01.840 So I started to come to realization, like, yo, God 0:17:01.920 --> 0:17:04.000 is teaching me to get the fuck away from you. 0:17:04.080 --> 0:17:06.840 Literally once I got away from that man, when I 0:17:06.880 --> 0:17:09.639 say my life elevated times team, like I was like 0:17:09.680 --> 0:17:13.480 getting bookings like every fucking weekend. I had a new manager, 0:17:13.640 --> 0:17:16.359 like like I was like living life and then shit. 0:17:16.880 --> 0:17:18.639 So what advice you would give somebody that's in the 0:17:18.680 --> 0:17:20.800 situation that went through what you went through is fucking 0:17:20.840 --> 0:17:23.119 shot and getting with this man that he was supposed 0:17:23.160 --> 0:17:27.080 to be helping you but he ended up being like me, Yeah. 0:17:26.920 --> 0:17:28.199 Go to a therapist. 0:17:28.560 --> 0:17:32.360 I do not cut everybody off for one person, because 0:17:33.040 --> 0:17:38.120 you would create a very hard codependency that is very 0:17:38.119 --> 0:17:40.240 hard to even break that shit like this shit is horrible. 0:17:40.280 --> 0:17:41.120 You know this is hard. 0:17:41.480 --> 0:17:42.920 So you need to take your own advice. 0:17:45.280 --> 0:17:45.959 Yes, I do. 0:17:46.320 --> 0:17:49.359 I do, Like, how did you stay so positive when 0:17:49.680 --> 0:17:52.919 everything is falling the party around you? 0:17:52.640 --> 0:17:55.440 You control the things you can and the things you can't. 0:17:55.480 --> 0:17:57.760 Fuck it, it's really. 0:17:57.520 --> 0:17:59.800 Since say fucking with a smile on your face or 0:18:00.080 --> 0:18:02.439 you say fuck it with tours eyes both. 0:18:02.760 --> 0:18:05.520 Sometimes I usually only cry for tears of joy or 0:18:05.520 --> 0:18:08.280 something like personal. I don't cry for problems that the 0:18:08.480 --> 0:18:12.160 world problems like really problems, a career problems? 0:18:12.200 --> 0:18:14.600 Do you cry about them? Have you ever crowd about it. 0:18:14.640 --> 0:18:18.320 No, No, But see I'm I've been in this game 0:18:18.400 --> 0:18:22.480 so long that my career is just like it is 0:18:22.480 --> 0:18:24.760 what it is at this point. It's like it's I've 0:18:24.840 --> 0:18:29.040 programmed my my career so much to where you know, 0:18:29.080 --> 0:18:31.600 you plant seeds, not even grow nows, and all I 0:18:31.640 --> 0:18:33.240 gotta do is keep keep watering. 0:18:33.520 --> 0:18:34.800 So that's really where I'm at now. 0:18:34.840 --> 0:18:39.560 But even at even at your level when just getting 0:18:39.600 --> 0:18:44.080 in the game, as far as the industry, you can't 0:18:44.119 --> 0:18:47.960 really you can't really like put dwell on something that 0:18:47.960 --> 0:18:50.000 that's that's not that you can't control, you see what 0:18:50.000 --> 0:18:52.199 I'm saying. So, like it's like the lottery. This's how 0:18:52.240 --> 0:18:55.679 I treat the industry. Like the lottery. It's like you 0:18:55.720 --> 0:18:57.920 won't you can't play, you can't win unless you play. 0:18:58.400 --> 0:19:01.680 At the same time, you don't quit your job or 0:19:01.720 --> 0:19:04.600 you don't quit living your life and depend on just 0:19:04.680 --> 0:19:06.520 the job. You get what I'm saying. So that's how 0:19:06.560 --> 0:19:09.600 I treat the industry. It's like I do this shit 0:19:09.720 --> 0:19:11.760 at the same time, I don't put all my love 0:19:11.800 --> 0:19:14.600 into the industry. I got life outside of the industry. 0:19:14.800 --> 0:19:17.520 So if the industry gone or something happened, like say, 0:19:17.560 --> 0:19:19.560 feeling like twenty twenty when it wasn't nothing to do, 0:19:19.760 --> 0:19:21.640 I still had a life, so I never really seen 0:19:21.680 --> 0:19:24.439 the difference in the transition of what happened. 0:19:24.480 --> 0:19:25.800 So that's how I treat it. 0:19:27.560 --> 0:19:28.960 Do you for being canceled? 0:19:29.600 --> 0:19:29.639 No? 0:19:30.160 --> 0:19:33.720 How to get canceled every week? Shit, dude, That's why 0:19:33.720 --> 0:19:34.040 I didn't. 0:19:34.200 --> 0:19:35.720 That's the main reason what took me so long to 0:19:35.720 --> 0:19:38.439 do a podcast, because I don't like to talk so 0:19:38.600 --> 0:19:41.440 much because the more you talk, the more they got 0:19:41.480 --> 0:19:44.280 to the more they got to take from you and 0:19:44.400 --> 0:19:46.800 to take the wrong way. So when I try to talk, 0:19:46.840 --> 0:19:49.359 I try to talk when it's purposeful, you know what 0:19:49.400 --> 0:19:50.880 I'm saying, stall just randomly talking. 0:19:50.920 --> 0:19:54.440 That's what podcasts do a lot. So do you. 0:19:54.400 --> 0:19:58.080 Feel like kind of sensor on yourself make you unhappy 0:19:58.480 --> 0:19:59.200 within your job? 0:19:59.400 --> 0:20:01.680 Yeah? No, because I've been I've been able to say 0:20:01.680 --> 0:20:03.800 and do what I want for so long, and so 0:20:03.960 --> 0:20:06.440 now it's to the point life has changed to where 0:20:06.480 --> 0:20:09.320 how people see things like safe things like being sarcastic. 0:20:09.600 --> 0:20:12.159 Being sarcastic used to work great, that's really what my 0:20:12.200 --> 0:20:16.640 comedy is, being sarcastic, but they don't read well online. Yeah, 0:20:16.760 --> 0:20:20.480 so yeah, so It's been like a task for me 0:20:20.600 --> 0:20:23.199 to go with the times because now the youngest generation, 0:20:23.320 --> 0:20:26.080 they don't read sarcasm, like how we did it? You 0:20:26.160 --> 0:20:28.439 know what I'm saying, So I have to understand it, 0:20:28.480 --> 0:20:30.600 so I don't really get upset with it. I don't 0:20:30.760 --> 0:20:33.840 get trip off of I just understand what the game is. 0:20:34.080 --> 0:20:36.520 But the good thing is being who I am. I 0:20:36.520 --> 0:20:38.200 can get away with a lot more than the average 0:20:38.200 --> 0:20:40.040 person because y'all know me for who I am, so 0:20:40.080 --> 0:20:42.040 I can the people that know me know me. It's 0:20:42.040 --> 0:20:44.560 just the new people that don't know me, they might 0:20:44.560 --> 0:20:47.119 take it the wrong way. It's like your uncle, you know, 0:20:47.160 --> 0:20:50.439 your granddaddy, he say crazy shit. Even if you know 0:20:50.520 --> 0:20:52.320 it's your granddaddy. You was like, all right, he's just 0:20:52.520 --> 0:20:54.199 that's just grand dad. That's how they look at me. Now, 0:20:54.240 --> 0:20:56.440 let's just do vall. He's just saying shit. You got 0:20:56.440 --> 0:20:58.200 to get to that point, and it takes a long time. 0:20:58.200 --> 0:21:00.200 It takes a lot of getting canceled, you know what 0:21:00.240 --> 0:21:02.720 I'm saying. I don't recommend it to people, you know, 0:21:03.320 --> 0:21:06.080 but it's what I signed up for, you know. But 0:21:06.240 --> 0:21:09.439 for somebody like you, I wouldn't. Don't always go against 0:21:09.480 --> 0:21:13.160 the grain, because sometimes going against the grain can can 0:21:13.200 --> 0:21:15.200 mess up something for your future. Shit, you know what 0:21:15.240 --> 0:21:18.480 I'm saying. So just just put that in because sometimes 0:21:18.520 --> 0:21:19.719 you be like, fuck it, I want to do what 0:21:19.760 --> 0:21:22.480 I want to do, and sometimes just that's why you 0:21:22.520 --> 0:21:24.800 want to have somebody good in your coner that you trust. 0:21:25.160 --> 0:21:26.960 Now you don't have to listen to everybody, but somebody 0:21:26.960 --> 0:21:28.360 that's just like that. 0:21:28.359 --> 0:21:30.639 You trust that that is Snake for me. 0:21:30.920 --> 0:21:36.159 Yeah, yeah, Snake a good one. How do you feel 0:21:36.160 --> 0:21:41.040 about because this is this is like this should be 0:21:41.119 --> 0:21:47.119 a nationally asked question. Okay, So when a female rapper, 0:21:47.359 --> 0:21:53.399 right when when when people ask her like, oh, are 0:21:53.440 --> 0:21:56.000 you in a relationship or are you single? Do you 0:21:56.080 --> 0:21:58.280 feel like that if she's in a relationship, she is 0:21:58.280 --> 0:21:59.320 handling her career. 0:22:01.200 --> 0:22:02.159 Now why not? 0:22:03.520 --> 0:22:05.840 How could it? I don't get how why do people 0:22:05.840 --> 0:22:07.639 think of the hinder your career? If your career is 0:22:07.640 --> 0:22:11.080 your career. It's like it's like saying at a regular job, 0:22:11.359 --> 0:22:14.760 if you work in a corporate business, like it's the 0:22:14.920 --> 0:22:16.879 wife hindering his career. 0:22:17.080 --> 0:22:19.320 No. But like, but as a female rapper, like you 0:22:19.560 --> 0:22:22.120 have to be a fantasy, like people cannot know your 0:22:22.119 --> 0:22:24.040 personal life because now they quick to judge you not. 0:22:24.040 --> 0:22:25.960 It's like saying that if people don't know I got 0:22:25.960 --> 0:22:28.840 old lady, the women ain't gonna like me. No. 0:22:29.320 --> 0:22:33.040 See it's different for men. Men could be married and 0:22:33.040 --> 0:22:35.600 and bitches do not give a fuck. But if a 0:22:35.920 --> 0:22:39.040 girl is in a relationship, they hate her. 0:22:40.320 --> 0:22:42.919 You think so, I don't know the hat her? So 0:22:43.000 --> 0:22:46.000 do you think so? You think the same thing about 0:22:46.080 --> 0:22:48.640 Cardi b Her and her dude and all set. 0:22:49.240 --> 0:22:51.320 No, no, no no, because I feel like they were 0:22:51.359 --> 0:22:54.919 already rich. It's like, once you're rich, I don't I 0:22:54.920 --> 0:22:56.840 don't have personal life from you. 0:22:57.320 --> 0:22:57.520 Yeah. 0:22:57.560 --> 0:23:01.639 What about Queen Naja her whole relationship she started with 0:23:02.119 --> 0:23:05.720 a dude, a dude right there, they watched the whole thing. 0:23:05.920 --> 0:23:09.800 Nah see okay, but no, no, the story was different though, 0:23:09.960 --> 0:23:13.760 like like like if like the world do not like 0:23:14.040 --> 0:23:16.760 watching women being treated like nothing? You know, like if 0:23:16.840 --> 0:23:20.600 if we see somebody hurting you, we want you to 0:23:20.600 --> 0:23:23.080 get about the situation and we're gonna be here to 0:23:23.280 --> 0:23:26.920 support you until you do. But if you're happy and 0:23:27.000 --> 0:23:29.720 that relationship is different, I don't believe that. 0:23:30.200 --> 0:23:32.320 I think it's all how you can make it, like 0:23:32.320 --> 0:23:35.000 like that's the Queen Nage She's a perfect example. 0:23:35.080 --> 0:23:38.040 She showed her whole. Not only is it what she showed. 0:23:38.080 --> 0:23:40.920 She started off on YouTube showing her relationship and showing 0:23:40.960 --> 0:23:45.400 how they grew together and through that, her music reflected that, 0:23:45.600 --> 0:23:49.080 and that's why it worked. Like people buy into the Yeah, 0:23:49.560 --> 0:23:52.000 so if they bind to you as a person, whatever, 0:23:52.160 --> 0:23:54.359 come with you, it's gonna work. You get, you know 0:23:54.359 --> 0:23:56.399 what I'm saying. It's just like with me, they buying 0:23:56.440 --> 0:23:57.639 to me as a person. So if they know I 0:23:57.680 --> 0:23:59.919 got an old lady, they know I like women that 0:24:00.119 --> 0:24:03.159 like women. Everybody knows that, so they go with it. 0:24:03.280 --> 0:24:04.760 You know what I'm saying. Now, if I came off 0:24:04.880 --> 0:24:06.879 like I'm just this guy in a relationship and they 0:24:06.880 --> 0:24:09.119 find out I'm over here fucking bitches, this, that, and whatever, 0:24:09.880 --> 0:24:10.919 they not gonna go with it. 0:24:10.920 --> 0:24:13.359 It's just like finding out a rapper, ain't he a snitch? 0:24:13.440 --> 0:24:14.120 You get? You know what I'm saying. 0:24:14.119 --> 0:24:15.800 It's like he ain't the person I thought he would. 0:24:15.920 --> 0:24:17.440 It's the same thing in that. But if you fit 0:24:17.520 --> 0:24:19.000 the person that they think you is, you could be 0:24:19.000 --> 0:24:19.879 what the fuck you want to be. 0:24:20.720 --> 0:24:21.560 You get. You know what I'm saying. 0:24:21.680 --> 0:24:25.399 I do that was explained fucking well I like that, 0:24:26.080 --> 0:24:32.480 you know, you know, sh that was explained fucking perfectly, 0:24:32.520 --> 0:24:34.159 Like nobody has ever explained it like that to me. 0:24:34.240 --> 0:24:36.479 I mean, it's it's it's it's just simple. 0:24:36.520 --> 0:24:36.720 You know. 0:24:36.800 --> 0:24:38.280 You just got to put it in perspective. 0:24:38.320 --> 0:24:40.560 That's why you want to have somebody around you, like 0:24:40.560 --> 0:24:43.240 like snake around you, to give you a different perspective 0:24:43.240 --> 0:24:45.320 of things. You know, and sometimes, like you say, you'd 0:24:45.320 --> 0:24:46.760 be like dam I ain't look at it that way. 0:24:47.040 --> 0:24:48.240 And it's just really. 0:24:48.040 --> 0:24:50.840 Simple right now, in this industry, what do you think 0:24:50.920 --> 0:24:51.919 is selling the most. 0:24:52.000 --> 0:24:57.240 Worldly music musically that people like afrobeats and things like that, 0:24:57.400 --> 0:25:00.479 things that people can feel. I mean, if you go 0:25:00.760 --> 0:25:02.520 if you go by the internet, you ain't gonna never 0:25:02.560 --> 0:25:04.960 get it because the Internet looked like it's just like that, 0:25:05.119 --> 0:25:06.879 you know what I'm saying, that's like micro waves stuff. 0:25:07.040 --> 0:25:10.159 But if you really pay attention to people, pay attention 0:25:10.200 --> 0:25:13.720 to what's going on out around you, you know, you'll 0:25:13.720 --> 0:25:16.920 see what's going on and it's worldly. And that's never stopped. 0:25:16.960 --> 0:25:19.600 It's always been music that everybody can feel, you know. 0:25:20.160 --> 0:25:22.960 But you still need the regular music too, You still 0:25:23.000 --> 0:25:24.920 need to street me, you still need to talk shit 0:25:25.080 --> 0:25:28.080 music all of that shit works and it works in itself. 0:25:28.119 --> 0:25:32.479 But for what's selling and really it's gonna stick forever, 0:25:32.640 --> 0:25:35.720 it's stuff that people could feel and stuff that people 0:25:35.760 --> 0:25:40.680 can uplifting and vibe to. That's why Pretty Girl Walk 0:25:40.720 --> 0:25:43.600 work because it uplifted women and. 0:25:43.760 --> 0:25:46.600 Crazy part is that was my first crossover record and 0:25:46.840 --> 0:25:49.399 I did not know what to expect of the record. 0:25:49.760 --> 0:25:52.720 Usually it always works as usually what I told you 0:25:52.760 --> 0:25:54.520 at the beginning, it's like the thing that you don't 0:25:54.680 --> 0:25:56.920 it be people around you. Like like like I said, 0:25:56.960 --> 0:25:59.440 people people around me, they push me to do certain 0:25:59.440 --> 0:26:02.280 ship thould be the ships that that works the most. 0:26:02.440 --> 0:26:06.720 If you can give me any type of advice, so 0:26:06.720 --> 0:26:08.479 so I don't go through anything, what would it be. 0:26:09.000 --> 0:26:10.440 I don't like giving advice to it. 0:26:10.840 --> 0:26:12.960 I have to understand you to give you advice, So 0:26:13.000 --> 0:26:15.040 I have to know you a little more because like 0:26:15.119 --> 0:26:18.560 I'll be giving you just blad advice. But the most 0:26:18.560 --> 0:26:21.199 advice I give everybody don't listen to nobody, pay attention 0:26:21.240 --> 0:26:23.800 to everything. That's what I That's the advice I give 0:26:23.920 --> 0:26:27.760 everybody because if I listen to the people, I wouldn't 0:26:27.760 --> 0:26:28.320 be where I will. 0:26:28.400 --> 0:26:28.680 I am. 0:26:28.800 --> 0:26:31.960 I am now, But I paid attention. You know what 0:26:31.960 --> 0:26:35.320 I'm saying, I pay attention to everything because you can 0:26:35.400 --> 0:26:37.920 learn from from other people. You just got to pay 0:26:37.960 --> 0:26:42.600 attention and understand pay attention. You know you have good 0:26:42.640 --> 0:26:43.280 people around. 0:26:43.840 --> 0:26:47.960 One more thing, if you could tell your younger self 0:26:48.040 --> 0:26:51.560 some that that really fucked you up in life, what 0:26:51.600 --> 0:26:54.280 would it be? So you so so your younger self, 0:26:54.320 --> 0:26:55.680 do not go through it right now. 0:26:56.960 --> 0:26:59.600 It's gonna sound cocky, but I say, you know what, 0:26:59.640 --> 0:27:01.480 you talk to my youngest self. 0:27:02.880 --> 0:27:04.120 Because I everything. 0:27:04.520 --> 0:27:07.119 Like people think you get older, you get wiser, but 0:27:07.160 --> 0:27:10.399 you kind of got to have it early only because 0:27:10.640 --> 0:27:12.119 there's like a lot of stuff that I know now 0:27:12.160 --> 0:27:14.600 to be like, oh yeah, because you og but what 0:27:14.680 --> 0:27:17.480 I am now? I programmed myself like this twenty years ago. 0:27:17.560 --> 0:27:20.560 You got to program yourself, like everything you're doing. If 0:27:20.560 --> 0:27:23.560 you you got to make yourself intentionally, make yourself be 0:27:23.640 --> 0:27:26.879 a good person, or make yourself do certain shit in 0:27:27.040 --> 0:27:30.719 order to get there, because otherwise you never gonna get 0:27:30.760 --> 0:27:32.640 there if you don't intentionally and like if say things, 0:27:32.720 --> 0:27:34.600 I want to do this, I want. 0:27:34.359 --> 0:27:35.439 To be this type of person. 0:27:35.680 --> 0:27:37.879 You got to intentionally keep doing it every day every day, 0:27:37.880 --> 0:27:40.879 and the next thing, you know, you that person. So 0:27:41.000 --> 0:27:43.679 that's that's why I would tell a younger person. But me, 0:27:43.840 --> 0:27:46.840 I was already doing it. So but I was instilled 0:27:46.840 --> 0:27:50.199 by older people. I always had older, older people taught me. 0:27:50.680 --> 0:27:53.040 I was my first friends was old people. 0:27:55.240 --> 0:27:58.520 Will my my friends now is older people. Everybody older 0:27:58.520 --> 0:28:00.320 than me as. 0:28:01.280 --> 0:28:02.159 That's a good age. 0:28:02.160 --> 0:28:05.000 Man, But you don't even know man, twenty five, that's 0:28:05.040 --> 0:28:06.160 a long time. 0:28:05.960 --> 0:28:06.960 Ago for me. 0:28:07.040 --> 0:28:10.480 How old are you for the six I'm cool with that. 0:28:12.320 --> 0:28:15.159 I take it like when I say, oh, I say 0:28:15.280 --> 0:28:18.000 there's a cool thing. I like being old because I 0:28:18.000 --> 0:28:20.760 don't want to be that young. To me, being young 0:28:20.960 --> 0:28:24.960 sound lame as fucked. I'm talking about being a young nigga. 0:28:24.960 --> 0:28:27.000 I don't want to be like them niggas. You know 0:28:27.040 --> 0:28:28.680 what I'm saying, Like, I don't want to be like 0:28:29.200 --> 0:28:32.000 I like being bro. I let nigga know I'm old. 0:28:32.040 --> 0:28:34.560 I ain't none like y'all niggas. I want you to 0:28:34.600 --> 0:28:36.960 separate me from all you young niggas. 0:28:37.160 --> 0:28:40.200 What is what is something that these young niggas is 0:28:40.200 --> 0:28:43.120 doing now that you have never life fucking done? 0:28:44.840 --> 0:28:46.400 Get my booty hole lick what. 0:28:48.240 --> 0:28:50.200 Type you don't like? Bitches in your ass? 0:28:50.440 --> 0:28:50.880 No? 0:28:50.880 --> 0:28:53.600 No, I don't even like getting my nipples licked. I'm 0:28:53.600 --> 0:28:55.360 not that nigga. 0:28:56.160 --> 0:28:56.880 From nipples. 0:28:56.880 --> 0:28:59.440 Wait, because girl, I know girls be cool with licking 0:28:59.520 --> 0:29:01.880 nipples and ship. I ain't into that. If I get 0:29:01.920 --> 0:29:04.280 my liquor, nigga not letting them bitch lick my boodhole. 0:29:04.480 --> 0:29:06.040 I don't want white, do you. I got to hear 0:29:06.160 --> 0:29:07.760 my bully. You got to be a nasty bitch to 0:29:07.800 --> 0:29:10.160 lick my boodhole like I got to hear booty, so 0:29:10.200 --> 0:29:12.080 I wouldn't. 0:29:12.120 --> 0:29:14.000 I wouldn't kiss a bitch after she looked bad. 0:29:18.520 --> 0:29:23.840 Dollar, Yo, I mean we just vibe talking, Yo. How 0:29:23.880 --> 0:29:25.280 the hell do you functional? Weed? 0:29:26.040 --> 0:29:26.560 That's you know. 0:29:26.640 --> 0:29:29.920 I just started smoking weed like about five years ago, forties. 0:29:30.480 --> 0:29:32.240 She she knew me before I smoked weed. 0:29:32.320 --> 0:29:34.280 I just thought I can't. 0:29:34.520 --> 0:29:37.480 I can't function only like back in the day, I 0:29:37.520 --> 0:29:39.680 did smoke, like like way way back when. 0:29:39.800 --> 0:29:41.240 Like what's your choice? What's your vice? 0:29:42.560 --> 0:29:42.720 Uh? 0:29:42.840 --> 0:29:43.160 Donald? 0:29:43.240 --> 0:29:43.320 Yo? 0:29:43.880 --> 0:29:44.840 And a rebel. 0:29:45.640 --> 0:29:49.240 You can drink like a mother, drink a. 0:29:49.320 --> 0:29:50.960 Bitch down like I can't. 0:29:51.040 --> 0:29:54.480 But you know you can't out drink women absolutely cannot. 0:29:54.600 --> 0:29:56.800 Wait a minute, hold on, but if we drinking some 0:29:56.880 --> 0:29:58.280 foot a lot of their liquor. 0:29:58.440 --> 0:29:59.920 Because what's for a lot of their liquor. 0:30:00.000 --> 0:30:03.480 I don't know whatever they had in them Patron bottles 0:30:03.520 --> 0:30:06.440 that they gave me when I say, heard me out, Matron. 0:30:09.800 --> 0:30:13.440 Any day I can't drink what y'all like, y'all, I'll 0:30:13.480 --> 0:30:16.240 be up. But I don't know what they had in 0:30:16.280 --> 0:30:18.320 their idemn or die when I lived there. 0:30:18.440 --> 0:30:21.520 Be careful, somebody run. That's checking that the liquor sneak 0:30:21.800 --> 0:30:22.640 checking their liquor. 0:30:23.760 --> 0:30:25.640 Yeah, Matron is real. 0:30:25.920 --> 0:30:28.000 But it was a fun time though it was. It 0:30:28.080 --> 0:30:30.480 was a fun. But I'm gonna let you know this now, 0:30:30.480 --> 0:30:31.880 I'm bringing my own liking. 0:30:31.640 --> 0:30:39.240 Next sound they ditch everywhere. I want to share my story, 0:30:40.240 --> 0:30:40.840 my truth. 0:30:42.240 --> 0:30:44.360 Hey when I say, I'm just bring my own liking 0:30:44.360 --> 0:30:44.720 next time. 0:30:45.320 --> 0:30:47.160 So let me ask you this, what's your end game? 0:30:48.680 --> 0:30:52.320 My end game in life, not in the just in life. 0:30:53.200 --> 0:30:54.960 My end game is. 0:30:57.240 --> 0:31:00.200 To be so rich that I create generation in the 0:31:00.280 --> 0:31:04.400 wealth to where my keys, my keys beyond money, beyond 0:31:04.600 --> 0:31:05.200 beyond money. 0:31:05.200 --> 0:31:07.200 Because that's this is what this is what Remember I 0:31:07.200 --> 0:31:08.800 told you at the beginning. People come to me because 0:31:09.120 --> 0:31:11.000 after they get the money, because like I said, money, 0:31:11.120 --> 0:31:12.240 it sounds like it's hard to get. 0:31:12.240 --> 0:31:13.240 But this After you get. 0:31:13.080 --> 0:31:15.480 The money, that's when it's hard to be happy because 0:31:15.560 --> 0:31:17.760 now you got to think your whole life. Like you said, 0:31:17.800 --> 0:31:19.680 I want money. I want money. I gotta get this 0:31:19.720 --> 0:31:21.840 money so I can take care of all that. Once 0:31:21.840 --> 0:31:24.880 you do all that, it's like, all right, now what 0:31:25.600 --> 0:31:28.240 so what's after that? What you what? What can you 0:31:28.320 --> 0:31:31.520 do to be happy with? Making vet happy? I don't 0:31:31.560 --> 0:31:34.600 know your real name, but making that person happy. I'm Diamond, 0:31:34.960 --> 0:31:36.720 Make Diamond happy. 0:31:37.440 --> 0:31:41.800 I think I would like to have a great relationship 0:31:41.840 --> 0:31:45.480 with my therapies. Whoever it is, all right because because. 0:31:45.280 --> 0:31:46.720 I don't know if I want to be up there, 0:31:46.720 --> 0:31:47.720 because it's not you'll come. 0:31:47.640 --> 0:31:50.760 To me every day it is you already listen. 0:31:51.200 --> 0:31:51.880 What's your sign? 0:31:52.520 --> 0:31:54.360 Libra? Welcome to death, bro. 0:31:54.680 --> 0:31:56.000 I don't know labors too much. 0:31:56.040 --> 0:32:00.080 Come on, come on, icked o. 0:32:00.680 --> 0:32:04.480 Fun fact leavers are to have the most billionaires. 0:32:05.440 --> 0:32:06.840 She looks so see. 0:32:06.880 --> 0:32:09.520 But that's why I told you don't worry about the money, 0:32:09.520 --> 0:32:12.680 because you're gonna get money. So now what you gotta 0:32:12.760 --> 0:32:13.720 program yourself for? 0:32:14.360 --> 0:32:14.600 Now? 0:32:14.760 --> 0:32:16.960 What after the money, how I'm gonna make I'm gonna 0:32:16.960 --> 0:32:17.840 make Diamond happy. 0:32:18.920 --> 0:32:22.080 Diamond is Doamon is going? So wake up every day 0:32:22.320 --> 0:32:23.200 you want kids. 0:32:23.040 --> 0:32:25.240 So you don't, and it's no problem if you don't. 0:32:25.280 --> 0:32:29.400 I want Actually, so Diamond's gonna wake up every day 0:32:29.760 --> 0:32:34.400 with her ten kids, start with her four dogs, playing 0:32:34.440 --> 0:32:39.240 on starting. Oh yeah, four dogs. She's gonna have a form. 0:32:39.560 --> 0:32:42.160 She's gonna grow her own fruit vegetables. 0:32:42.160 --> 0:32:43.080 Are you doing that now? 0:32:43.680 --> 0:32:43.880 No? 0:32:44.120 --> 0:32:46.720 Okay, see what I told you about programming. You gotta 0:32:46.720 --> 0:32:48.640 start programming away. 0:32:48.640 --> 0:32:50.200 I just signed the thirteen month least. I don't know 0:32:50.320 --> 0:32:52.360 after that then I want to start programming because they 0:32:52.440 --> 0:32:52.800 hold on. 0:32:52.880 --> 0:32:55.400 Now, just playing a tree at the house in the 0:32:55.480 --> 0:32:57.760 in your in your in your place, playing it like 0:32:57.760 --> 0:32:59.720 a little just it don't have to be a fruit. 0:32:59.800 --> 0:33:02.320 Just play on a simple tree and watch that girl, 0:33:02.320 --> 0:33:03.479 and that might get you into it. 0:33:03.480 --> 0:33:06.280 You know what I'm saying. You gotta program yourself to do. 0:33:07.040 --> 0:33:09.560 I'm telling you that's what's gonna bring you peace, because 0:33:09.600 --> 0:33:11.600 when you go, if you plan on getting peace when 0:33:11.640 --> 0:33:15.520 the industry, you're gonna always be frustrated. I'm telling And 0:33:15.680 --> 0:33:18.160 we think about twenty twenty when everybody was going crazy 0:33:18.200 --> 0:33:20.200 because they ain't had nothing to do. Because you know 0:33:21.320 --> 0:33:24.080 I again, yeah, that's when you had shit to do. 0:33:24.440 --> 0:33:26.320 They didn't had nothing to do because they was I 0:33:26.360 --> 0:33:28.400 ain't talking. I'm talking about as far as working shit is, 0:33:28.520 --> 0:33:32.320 the industing, the music industry, the act the movie industry. 0:33:32.360 --> 0:33:35.000 It wasn't nothing to do because they they love us 0:33:35.040 --> 0:33:37.800 all in what they do. I was chilling. 0:33:37.840 --> 0:33:40.680 I had the time because I already programmed myself to 0:33:40.840 --> 0:33:45.480 know how to live without the cheers. Damn yeah, you 0:33:45.480 --> 0:33:47.400 gotta learn how to live without the chair or just think. 0:33:47.560 --> 0:33:50.480 You know how, sometimes on social media you post something 0:33:50.520 --> 0:33:52.280 you're gonna get a lot of likes and donna get nothing. 0:33:52.960 --> 0:33:54.600 You know how, that feeling, just madine, that's gonna be 0:33:54.600 --> 0:33:56.000 your feeling for the rest of your life. You gotta 0:33:56.040 --> 0:33:59.040 know how to stomach that and be happy that you 0:33:59.080 --> 0:34:03.480 don't get that in real life. So that's why I'm 0:34:03.520 --> 0:34:06.240 just saying, program yourself now to say it don't have 0:34:06.280 --> 0:34:07.280 to be nothing big, it. 0:34:07.200 --> 0:34:08.040 Makes you happy. 0:34:08.480 --> 0:34:11.200 Simple ship like what I can do legos right now 0:34:11.239 --> 0:34:13.480 and be happier than the motherfucker. 0:34:13.480 --> 0:34:14.480 I do that right now. 0:34:15.360 --> 0:34:17.000 I could do simple ship like I live on the 0:34:17.080 --> 0:34:19.359 I live in a place where if I don't need 0:34:19.400 --> 0:34:21.520 it there, I don't need it, like I could find 0:34:21.560 --> 0:34:24.920 happiness with I live in the Islands, and the Bahamas, 0:34:25.239 --> 0:34:28.560 and I could just chill right there and be at 0:34:28.600 --> 0:34:30.600 peace and be happy with doing nothing. 0:34:31.640 --> 0:34:37.440 You're not scared to live on island like a hurricane comes, Yeah, hell, get. 0:34:38.120 --> 0:34:38.560 The hell on. 0:34:38.960 --> 0:34:40.359 We were just talking about that, Me and my friend 0:34:40.360 --> 0:34:43.879 were just talking about that. But ain't this hurricane season? Like, yeah, 0:34:43.960 --> 0:34:45.759 but I got a plane so I can get the 0:34:45.760 --> 0:34:47.120 hell on always. 0:34:47.120 --> 0:34:49.120 So you got a plan that it's just ready to 0:34:49.120 --> 0:34:50.040 go when you Yeah. 0:34:49.960 --> 0:34:52.560 Yeah, yeah, I got my own. 0:34:52.840 --> 0:34:55.040 And see that goes back to I programmed and I 0:34:55.239 --> 0:34:58.279 plant seeds a while ago, to where when it gets 0:34:58.280 --> 0:35:00.440 to the point I can just say, why did. 0:35:00.320 --> 0:35:02.600 You learn how to how to program yourself? 0:35:02.640 --> 0:35:07.080 Paying attention to whirl and life and like the next step, 0:35:07.120 --> 0:35:09.720 always standing ahead of the curve, like what's next. 0:35:09.760 --> 0:35:13.160 I don't. I'm not into the now. I'm into what's next. 0:35:15.080 --> 0:35:17.319 You gotta think everything we see now, somebody plant that 0:35:17.360 --> 0:35:21.080 shit twenty years ago. Somebody that was thinking about twenty 0:35:21.120 --> 0:35:25.840 years ago. So yeah, whatever, eat like the Simpsons, But 0:35:25.960 --> 0:35:27.640 it's look around at your neighbor That's why I say 0:35:27.680 --> 0:35:29.960 don't paytients that even in your neighborhood, you see them 0:35:30.000 --> 0:35:32.479 buildings going up, all them building like you see somebody 0:35:32.560 --> 0:35:34.000 might be building something that I don't know where you 0:35:34.040 --> 0:35:35.960 live at, but you see a building they plant that 0:35:36.000 --> 0:35:38.920 shit twenty years ago? Are they planned ten years ago? 0:35:39.560 --> 0:35:42.400 And there's up? So why you just why while the 0:35:42.440 --> 0:35:46.200 average person sitting there worried about current events and shit, 0:35:46.760 --> 0:35:50.120 they just what twenty twenty happened? Them? Motherfuckers building? Like 0:35:50.239 --> 0:35:53.080 mother they knew something because they plant that shit. I 0:35:53.120 --> 0:35:55.400 don't know if they planned that, but they plant building 0:35:55.400 --> 0:35:58.480 shit around whatever was going on because they knew. So 0:35:58.560 --> 0:36:00.440 you got to be ahead of the curve on anything 0:36:00.480 --> 0:36:00.680 you do. 0:36:01.760 --> 0:36:04.520 That's a word. Now I'm thinking, but you. 0:36:04.560 --> 0:36:07.080 See you you're thinking there's a billionaire because you're a 0:36:07.080 --> 0:36:10.000 liber Yes, that billionaire thinking. I want you to go 0:36:10.120 --> 0:36:12.759 past that. I want you to be at peace and happiness. 0:36:13.239 --> 0:36:15.160 That's what you asked me. How I find pieces because 0:36:15.200 --> 0:36:19.120 I don't look for peace into worldly things or into 0:36:19.320 --> 0:36:19.920 my career. 0:36:20.000 --> 0:36:21.640 You know, I find peace into. 0:36:21.560 --> 0:36:25.160 But how did you separate that though? Because it's so hard. 0:36:24.920 --> 0:36:29.200 To I just told you every day planning seas and 0:36:28.920 --> 0:36:31.800 it's a simple process. But it's just like you gotta 0:36:31.920 --> 0:36:34.800 get in the programming of doing this. It's like, all right, today, 0:36:34.800 --> 0:36:36.920 what I'm gonna do today, what can bring me happiness 0:36:36.960 --> 0:36:39.640 outside of this or outside of that? And that's what 0:36:39.680 --> 0:36:45.960 I do. I am a therapist. What's your sign? 0:36:47.480 --> 0:36:51.400 I need to know you have enough people inside you? 0:36:53.920 --> 0:36:57.600 You got enough people inside of you. That's all I 0:36:57.600 --> 0:37:00.640 needed to know, Like you ain't on you right. 0:37:00.719 --> 0:37:06.719 Hey, And I have people around me that balanced me 0:37:06.760 --> 0:37:08.799 out too, though, Like I can call people, I can 0:37:08.840 --> 0:37:11.680 call friends and be like, hey, boom boom, boom bom. 0:37:11.719 --> 0:37:13.880 We just iron shop be iron you know, So you 0:37:14.040 --> 0:37:16.000 just talked to them. They taught me back, or they 0:37:16.040 --> 0:37:18.440 healed me back with with some words, they get me 0:37:18.480 --> 0:37:20.560 right There're like boom, that's all what I need. 0:37:22.160 --> 0:37:26.560 Have you ever got into a relationship that that made 0:37:26.600 --> 0:37:29.520 you look at the world differently, Like, look at your 0:37:29.560 --> 0:37:32.640 career differently, look at doing things differently, Like I've. 0:37:32.440 --> 0:37:34.880 Always been a relationship type person. So I don't know, 0:37:34.920 --> 0:37:37.640 I've always I never put thought in relationship, but I've 0:37:37.640 --> 0:37:41.279 always I've always been a relationship guy. So I don't 0:37:41.320 --> 0:37:44.279 know how to answer that question because it's always been 0:37:44.320 --> 0:37:47.400 in me to do relationship ship, but it's never stopped 0:37:47.440 --> 0:37:51.200 my my my career. But people that's been in my 0:37:51.640 --> 0:37:53.680 in my life. They always knew this was me because 0:37:53.680 --> 0:37:56.600 I've done this since I've been a jit. I've been 0:37:56.960 --> 0:37:59.919 entertaining them in popular since I was about a kid, 0:38:01.120 --> 0:38:01.399 you know. 0:38:01.440 --> 0:38:03.359 So it's always grew more and more and more. 0:38:03.560 --> 0:38:05.800 I might've been just the nigga in the neighborhood that's popular, 0:38:05.840 --> 0:38:07.840 and I went to nigga and all the school's popular, 0:38:08.160 --> 0:38:11.200 when the nigga in Jacksonville popular, when the niggas in 0:38:11.239 --> 0:38:14.720 the South and TV at all. So it's always grown. 0:38:14.840 --> 0:38:17.200 So if you was around me, you kind of knew 0:38:17.239 --> 0:38:18.800 what it was. And that's what's gonna happen to you 0:38:18.880 --> 0:38:21.520 over time. It's just just new. Over time, they gonna know, 0:38:21.600 --> 0:38:23.919 all right, she you ain't gotta tell a person you're 0:38:23.920 --> 0:38:25.759 a rapper because they know you know what I'm saying. 0:38:25.800 --> 0:38:27.839 So if they come in your life, they they kind 0:38:27.840 --> 0:38:30.600 of gonna know what the situation is. It's like, well, 0:38:30.600 --> 0:38:32.640 I said, when the motherfucker if a girl giving me 0:38:32.680 --> 0:38:34.400 a know that I don't like girls that like pussies. 0:38:34.440 --> 0:38:36.480 So if you don't, if a girl don't eat pussy, 0:38:36.560 --> 0:38:38.760 she can't get with me. So they know this already. 0:38:38.800 --> 0:38:40.160 So if you get with me, like I've had a 0:38:40.239 --> 0:38:42.520 relationship where it got with me for that and then 0:38:42.560 --> 0:38:44.920 when they get with you, they find out it's just 0:38:44.960 --> 0:38:46.879 doing it just to be with me. She ain't really 0:38:46.920 --> 0:38:49.160 gay for real, you know, And that's when it don't work. 0:38:49.480 --> 0:38:51.800 Would you ever change yourself to make the next person 0:38:51.800 --> 0:38:52.560 happy that. 0:38:52.480 --> 0:38:54.400 You're with I can't cause I'm an old nigga, and 0:38:54.520 --> 0:38:56.799 old nigga not just me, but me me, and once 0:38:56.840 --> 0:39:00.120 we get older, we kind of programming stuck in our ways, 0:39:00.320 --> 0:39:02.200 and I'm stuck and I'm a Gemini. 0:39:02.239 --> 0:39:03.600 So that makes all you got to say. 0:39:04.719 --> 0:39:08.200 You know, I'm not. 0:39:08.440 --> 0:39:10.680 I got to learn the hard way, especially when I'm 0:39:11.000 --> 0:39:13.920 I'm everything I've been doing and working. So if it's 0:39:13.920 --> 0:39:16.000 been working, ain't too much you can tell me, and 0:39:16.120 --> 0:39:18.480 everything I've been doing in my career and life been working. 0:39:18.880 --> 0:39:22.399 So you can't tell me unless it's somebody like her, 0:39:23.000 --> 0:39:25.000 you know what I'm saying. Other than that, you can't 0:39:25.040 --> 0:39:25.759 really tell me. 0:39:25.960 --> 0:39:27.839 And that's why we locked in now because you over 0:39:27.880 --> 0:39:30.040 here study saying that she is a good person is 0:39:31.200 --> 0:39:32.400 going to be a great. 0:39:32.000 --> 0:39:34.400 Producing the show like she she's the person that's been 0:39:34.960 --> 0:39:37.680 She's the person that's my balance, especially when I'm going 0:39:37.680 --> 0:39:40.240 through my healing ship for the accident. 0:39:40.680 --> 0:39:43.640 She was right there, so and I don't be needing much, 0:39:43.680 --> 0:39:46.879 but the little ship go a long way. 0:39:47.239 --> 0:39:50.799 Have you ever operator out of here? 0:39:52.480 --> 0:39:56.719 I'm arrogant, programmed arrogant because I've always been who I am. 0:39:56.840 --> 0:40:01.359 So I've always even before, I was more cocky as 0:40:01.400 --> 0:40:04.439 a kid because I didn't know, because I always thought 0:40:04.440 --> 0:40:08.359 this shit work whatever I'm doing. So I never had 0:40:08.360 --> 0:40:11.600 no I never had no insecurities or nothing because it's 0:40:11.640 --> 0:40:14.080 always worked to me. And even I didn't know how 0:40:14.160 --> 0:40:16.960 little I was until I got older. So in my mind, 0:40:16.960 --> 0:40:20.640 I was just the ship, you know. But when I 0:40:20.640 --> 0:40:22.279 look older, I'm like I was a kid. They was 0:40:22.320 --> 0:40:24.719 looking at me as a kid while you asked that 0:40:25.840 --> 0:40:26.719 uh shit. 0:40:26.800 --> 0:40:31.799 Because sometimes I feel like for what could control you? 0:40:31.800 --> 0:40:35.000 You know, like yeah, like you would like think like. 0:40:36.280 --> 0:40:38.080 What's on the other side of it, what's gonna happen. 0:40:39.080 --> 0:40:41.560 You might get canceled, you might lose. 0:40:41.360 --> 0:40:43.040 All right, I take it back. 0:40:43.080 --> 0:40:48.480 The only time I the only time I feel butterflies 0:40:48.520 --> 0:40:50.759 are nervous is on the state when I right before 0:40:50.760 --> 0:40:51.640 I go on stage. 0:40:52.160 --> 0:40:56.759 That's the only time because I want to work. 0:40:56.800 --> 0:40:58.760 I mean I wanted to work it's like, I really 0:40:58.800 --> 0:41:02.239 don't like letting my fan and I know they like live. 0:41:02.520 --> 0:41:06.360 That's now, that's that might be when it comes to entertainment, 0:41:06.480 --> 0:41:08.560 and the only reason I like entertainment, the only reason 0:41:08.600 --> 0:41:11.560 I use entertainments like, I love the people, so I 0:41:11.560 --> 0:41:13.640 don't like to let them down. And I've been You 0:41:13.640 --> 0:41:16.400 got to think I've grown with people so long, like 0:41:16.719 --> 0:41:19.520 before you. I've had fans since before you was born, 0:41:19.719 --> 0:41:22.040 you know what I'm saying. So it's like I don't 0:41:22.080 --> 0:41:24.440 like to live up. I like to I like to 0:41:24.440 --> 0:41:26.719 live up to their expectations. So every time I get 0:41:26.760 --> 0:41:29.160 on stage, I don't want them to go home, even 0:41:29.200 --> 0:41:31.000 if it's one person. You know that one person in 0:41:31.000 --> 0:41:33.080 your comment say, I don't like that shit. 0:41:34.320 --> 0:41:35.880 You know what I'm saying. They really don't matter. 0:41:35.920 --> 0:41:39.640 But to me, I want everybody, do you know what 0:41:39.680 --> 0:41:40.000 I'm saying. 0:41:40.000 --> 0:41:41.000 So I still get butterfly. 0:41:41.120 --> 0:41:42.840 But that makes me even better though, you know what 0:41:42.880 --> 0:41:46.920 I'm saying, So I understand that shit. I just realized 0:41:46.960 --> 0:41:50.400 that was anxiety, you know, I just realized what do 0:41:50.400 --> 0:41:53.520 you call it? The butterflies? I didn't know that was 0:41:53.560 --> 0:41:56.960 anxiety because I never programmed myself to understand why anxiety. 0:41:56.960 --> 0:41:59.239 I'm glad I didn't, because then you start leaning on 0:41:59.280 --> 0:42:00.480 that or that saying anxiety. 0:42:00.760 --> 0:42:04.480 Something about labors is we overthink everything and and we 0:42:04.560 --> 0:42:06.640 gotta go read, we gotta go learn. 0:42:06.680 --> 0:42:08.160 So that's dictating your career. 0:42:08.400 --> 0:42:11.480 As because once I learned something, then I'll be scared 0:42:11.480 --> 0:42:13.040 to do it because it's like, damn, what if this 0:42:13.160 --> 0:42:15.880 happened Like I would, I would think of everything. 0:42:16.840 --> 0:42:18.960 You got to have somebody that you really can trust 0:42:18.960 --> 0:42:22.120 and talk to and ask them to bounce off. You 0:42:22.120 --> 0:42:24.200 don't have to listen to them just to get their 0:42:24.200 --> 0:42:26.400 reaction from it, because like I had, like even like 0:42:26.440 --> 0:42:28.919 my friend Clay, a lot of times the ship he's 0:42:29.440 --> 0:42:30.840 advice he told me was wrong. 0:42:33.160 --> 0:42:37.319 I had to listen to him. I had to call 0:42:37.400 --> 0:42:38.080 him because like. 0:42:38.080 --> 0:42:40.680 Ye talk so much. 0:42:41.000 --> 0:42:42.719 Yeah, yeah, oh you know Clay. 0:42:42.440 --> 0:42:43.160 So you know my man. 0:42:43.440 --> 0:42:46.920 Yeah, recipes my man. But this is my niggas. You 0:42:46.920 --> 0:42:48.600 know what I'm saying, a lot of stuff. I had 0:42:48.680 --> 0:42:51.360 to understand. He's just og, but he always had his 0:42:51.440 --> 0:42:55.359 best interest for me. But sometimes when you when it's 0:42:55.400 --> 0:42:56.960 just like me, like I said, sometimes you don't want 0:42:57.520 --> 0:42:59.040 like I'm an o G, but you don't want to 0:42:59.080 --> 0:43:01.000 listen sometime because something I don't know you know what 0:43:01.000 --> 0:43:02.879 I'm sayingcause you're right there, Like, nah, I ain't gonna 0:43:02.920 --> 0:43:05.520 do this ship if I post that one time, this 0:43:05.600 --> 0:43:08.840 one story sick if I would have posted that ship, 0:43:10.040 --> 0:43:12.000 I tell you, I tell y'all after this ship. But 0:43:12.400 --> 0:43:15.239 it was the dumbest ship that they could say, post this. 0:43:15.760 --> 0:43:18.479 I ain't give a fuck. I ain't give a fun I. 0:43:18.400 --> 0:43:20.560 Want to tell this story, don't tell it. 0:43:20.600 --> 0:43:21.960 Don't well, I ain't. 0:43:21.760 --> 0:43:22.560 Gonna hold you up. 0:43:22.600 --> 0:43:24.879 You know, I appreciate you come hollering at you own 0:43:25.160 --> 0:43:27.200 you know is that? But but before you go, I'm 0:43:27.239 --> 0:43:29.200 gonna give you one more chance to ask me one 0:43:29.239 --> 0:43:29.920 last question. 0:43:30.880 --> 0:43:32.360 Is the one thing you want to ask on? 0:43:32.800 --> 0:43:35.960 Let you boy know hm hmm being a start that men, 0:43:36.040 --> 0:43:38.640 you lost somebody close to us, like I lost age 0:43:38.680 --> 0:43:41.359 and you lost Like if you can tell one thing, 0:43:41.840 --> 0:43:42.440 what would it be? 0:43:43.719 --> 0:43:47.800 I told him everything. I tell everybody. Don't take people 0:43:47.800 --> 0:43:51.360 you love for granted, because they gonna go? Are you 0:43:51.480 --> 0:43:55.080 gonna go? So that's why when they go, Because like 0:43:55.120 --> 0:43:58.080 that shit happened like boom, like the day I got 0:43:58.080 --> 0:44:01.160 off my cane, the day after I got off my cane, 0:44:01.160 --> 0:44:03.480 the day, the day after the child. 0:44:03.320 --> 0:44:07.040 Support case was over, he died. Well, he went to 0:44:08.520 --> 0:44:09.120 had the stroke. 0:44:10.360 --> 0:44:13.040 So it but before that we were saying that love 0:44:13.080 --> 0:44:15.040 he talking ship to each other. The day before that, 0:44:15.800 --> 0:44:17.839 he was at my house, you know what I'm saying. 0:44:17.920 --> 0:44:19.719 So he was at my house and he wouldn't leave, 0:44:21.000 --> 0:44:24.879 and he kept saying he wanted some money and ship 0:44:25.040 --> 0:44:27.240 because I owe him some money for the other girl. 0:44:27.480 --> 0:44:29.840 He came to get his money and he was like, 0:44:29.880 --> 0:44:31.239 I didn't even know what if I died him up. 0:44:31.320 --> 0:44:33.600 I was like, well, it won't matter. And the nigga died, 0:44:33.640 --> 0:44:33.880 you know. 0:44:34.160 --> 0:44:36.439 But that's how we talked shipped each other all the time. 0:44:36.520 --> 0:44:39.560 So that's what it was. So like that's why I say, 0:44:39.600 --> 0:44:41.600 don't take him for granted and do everything so when 0:44:41.640 --> 0:44:44.640 it happens, you won't be like damn in your head. 0:44:45.239 --> 0:44:47.319 And another thing too, that happened to me. When it 0:44:47.400 --> 0:44:49.840 did happen, God did give me a chance enough to 0:44:49.880 --> 0:44:52.680 go to the hospital and talk to him, to talk 0:44:52.719 --> 0:44:54.399 to him and say what I wanted to say. So 0:44:54.920 --> 0:44:58.799 I'm kind of shit cool with it, you know. So 0:44:58.800 --> 0:44:59.960 what would you say to your people? 0:45:00.600 --> 0:45:03.960 M hm? Well, if you could say one more thing, totain. 0:45:03.640 --> 0:45:03.920 You, y'a. 0:45:03.880 --> 0:45:07.360 I'd be like, uh, me and her actually used to 0:45:07.360 --> 0:45:09.600 talk to each other crazy to like crazy and Ship, 0:45:09.719 --> 0:45:12.439 I'd be like, damn, like what fuck? Like you ain't 0:45:12.440 --> 0:45:13.880 even tell me that you was gonna check out the 0:45:14.040 --> 0:45:18.680 visit you know. Uh, I tell like damn, like, I'm 0:45:18.719 --> 0:45:21.040 straight living his life to be playing out because we 0:45:21.040 --> 0:45:23.160 we we knew that we was gonna be rich. We 0:45:23.160 --> 0:45:27.480 didn't know how, but we knew, like you know, And 0:45:27.520 --> 0:45:31.200 I also say, like Ship one day, somebody gonnahoo buy 0:45:31.239 --> 0:45:32.480 ass because we did. 0:45:32.560 --> 0:45:35.320 Y'all did y'all have that relationship with So? Was you 0:45:35.360 --> 0:45:37.479 fulfilled with your relationship at the time? 0:45:37.760 --> 0:45:38.000 Yeah? 0:45:38.160 --> 0:45:40.920 And but but I was also mad because I'm like, damn, like, 0:45:41.000 --> 0:45:42.719 this was the only person I had and she gone 0:45:42.760 --> 0:45:44.600 with the fuck. So I was mad at it, but 0:45:45.080 --> 0:45:47.279 it was it was still like we. 0:45:47.239 --> 0:45:49.399 Gotta learn that you gotta learn in life. You can't 0:45:49.480 --> 0:45:52.840 have attachments to nothing in life, even if it's your kids. 0:45:53.080 --> 0:45:55.080 You know what I'm saying, Like you got to understand 0:45:55.080 --> 0:45:56.680 how to live with it because it's people that died 0:45:57.160 --> 0:46:00.720 kids died before them and they feel happy. 0:46:00.920 --> 0:46:01.399 You know what I'm saying. 0:46:01.440 --> 0:46:04.080 You got people that's ninety years old still able to happy. 0:46:04.160 --> 0:46:07.040 So if they can be happy in life, why can't I. 0:46:07.080 --> 0:46:09.080 They've been seeing way more people die more than me, 0:46:09.320 --> 0:46:10.640 you know what I'm saying. So that's how I look 0:46:10.640 --> 0:46:13.640 at shit, I look at older, older people. I'm like, 0:46:13.719 --> 0:46:16.440 damn are older people that's even like in the industry, 0:46:16.680 --> 0:46:19.239 it's people been rich longer than me, double the time 0:46:19.280 --> 0:46:21.640 I've been rich, and they still able to be happy 0:46:21.680 --> 0:46:23.960 at eighty years old, you know what I'm saying. So 0:46:24.000 --> 0:46:25.959 if they can do it, I can do It's people 0:46:25.960 --> 0:46:28.839 that had like I remember when, like when Clay died first, 0:46:29.040 --> 0:46:30.239 I'm not one of the first people. One of the 0:46:30.280 --> 0:46:33.719 people that called me was Bumbe from UGK. He had 0:46:33.920 --> 0:46:37.080 pimpsy died. He got through it, and I knew he 0:46:37.160 --> 0:46:39.799 understood where I was coming from, so he understood. So 0:46:39.880 --> 0:46:41.719 it's like, if you see other people do it, that's 0:46:41.719 --> 0:46:43.759 why I say, you can learn from other people. So 0:46:44.280 --> 0:46:46.640 when you see them do it, shit, it's just your turn, 0:46:47.320 --> 0:46:48.839 you know. And it ain't gonna be the first person, 0:46:48.920 --> 0:46:51.440 especially at twenty five. They're definitely going to be the 0:46:51.480 --> 0:46:53.440 first person that's gonna die to you. 0:46:53.440 --> 0:46:54.000 You know what I'm saying. 0:46:54.040 --> 0:46:56.719 Wait, till the's and sometimes it be death that you 0:46:56.719 --> 0:46:58.880 don't even think gonna hit you hit you, you know 0:46:58.920 --> 0:46:59.439 what I'm saying. 0:46:59.520 --> 0:47:02.399 So it's just life. You can't It's just we don't 0:47:02.760 --> 0:47:03.480 as humans. 0:47:04.560 --> 0:47:08.880 We cocky, but death reminds us that we're just human, absolutely, 0:47:08.920 --> 0:47:11.680 you know what I'm saying. 0:47:11.760 --> 0:47:13.120 Yeah, So you just gotta live. 0:47:13.200 --> 0:47:16.200 You gotta live shit, live your best life and live 0:47:16.880 --> 0:47:19.680 live life and don't take nobody you love for granted 0:47:19.680 --> 0:47:21.839 and treat them like like you know they gonna die 0:47:21.840 --> 0:47:23.279 because they are type shit. 0:47:23.840 --> 0:47:25.680 They always call them if you need some advice. Not 0:47:26.000 --> 0:47:27.080 all the time because you sound like you. 0:47:27.120 --> 0:47:29.680 A call all the time, but you and Dalli and 0:47:29.719 --> 0:47:31.279 Snag is gonna get tired of me at this point. 0:47:31.280 --> 0:47:34.840 All Right, I'm it's all right because you're gonna be millionaires. 0:47:34.840 --> 0:47:38.640 I'll be like, look, talk on our boat a trip, right. 0:47:39.080 --> 0:47:40.600 You gotta go on the trip now, because I know 0:47:40.640 --> 0:47:43.200 that I put this weight on you. I'm sorry, but 0:47:43.400 --> 0:47:45.560 I'm but I'm happy again. You know the balance is 0:47:45.600 --> 0:47:46.480 back balance, you know. 0:47:47.280 --> 0:47:47.560 Thank you. 0:47:47.640 --> 0:47:50.920 Listen to another episode of Conversation with Me, Little Duval. 0:47:51.200 --> 0:47:52.080 We got this bitch. 0:47:53.239 --> 0:47:56.719 Don't miss an episode of Conversations with listen and subscribe 0:47:56.800 --> 0:48:00.120 on the Black Effect Podcast Network, iHeart Radio, app or 0:48:00.120 --> 0:48:03.360 wherever you get your podcasts. Conversation with N Podcasts is 0:48:03.400 --> 0:48:06.279 a production of the Black Effect Podcast Network and our 0:48:06.320 --> 0:48:09.400 executive producer is Dolly Bishop and produced by Aaron A 0:48:09.640 --> 0:48:10.400 Keen Howard