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Speaker 1: Hey, this is Annie and Samantha, and welcome to stuff

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Speaker 1: I never told you a production of iHeartRadio. And welcome

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Speaker 1: to another Happy Hour, if I am not mistaken the

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Speaker 1: last Happy Hour of twenty twenty three. As always with these,

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Speaker 1: if we discuss any products specifically, unless we say it specifically,

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Speaker 1: it is not a sponsor. They could be a sponsor later,

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Speaker 1: but they are not currently now. Also, drink responsibly if

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Speaker 1: you choose to do so. Take care of yourself, Samantha.

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Speaker 1: We did discuss this because we're doing a big recording

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Speaker 1: session and so perhaps we're drinking the same thing we

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Speaker 1: were in the last Happy Hour, but uh, what are

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Speaker 1: you sitping on?

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Speaker 2: So we've had a few episodes since we started with

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Speaker 2: the drink and now I'm out of that drunk so

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Speaker 2: I'm sticking with water. Oh nice, Yeah, so I have

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Speaker 2: switched over.

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Speaker 1: Okay, cool, Well I haven't. I'm still drinking the sack

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Speaker 1: that is snow themed. It is one of my favorites

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Speaker 1: because it is very cold today where we are in Atlanta,

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Speaker 1: and so I guess I'm a masochist and I was like,

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Speaker 1: I'll drink cold sack that is based on snow. But

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Speaker 1: it is delicious. Uh So for this episode, I don't

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Speaker 1: think it's an unhappy hour. I'm trying to think about.

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Speaker 3: How I'm trying to convince yourself.

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Speaker 1: I'm trying to convince myself. I guess it would depend

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Speaker 1: on the person, but I guess before we get into it. Samantha,

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Speaker 1: you are someone I associate a lot with New Year's now,

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Speaker 1: even though we don't necessarily hang out on New Year's

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Speaker 1: I feel like you were the precursor to my new

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Speaker 1: New Year's thing, which is leave me alone.

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Speaker 2: It's true because we uh started talking about what we

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Speaker 2: were doing for New Years with the Roaring twenties, which

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Speaker 2: took me forever to figure out why it was.

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Speaker 3: Called that, and I was like, oh, okay, I get it.

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Speaker 2: And that was the year that I believe I had

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Speaker 2: stayed at home by myself.

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Speaker 3: I think that was the first.

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Speaker 2: I think I'd done that before, but like that was

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Speaker 2: the first, Like, no, I'm definitely not going anywhere. You

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Speaker 2: have fun, and you're debating about going or not, And

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Speaker 2: you went to Athens.

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Speaker 1: Right, I went to Athens, Yes, I did.

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Speaker 3: Yeah.

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Speaker 2: And then from then on we were in a pandemic level.

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Speaker 2: So either we were together or we facetimed each other, right, yeah,

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Speaker 2: or we.

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Speaker 1: Would send each other like pictures or videos.

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Speaker 2: Or because I can't remember when the Spider Man slash

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Speaker 2: my onesie yes was yeah, which we had, which was

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Speaker 2: the delight. But then yeah, then the pandemic and then

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Speaker 2: like we were kind of garantineing with each other, so

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Speaker 2: we're like, yeah, let's let's do Sunday Sunday Sunday with

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Speaker 1: Yeah, So essentially, I believe the year before the pandemic,

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Speaker 1: and that was when I got my taste for macaroni

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Speaker 1: you and I were I was saying, like I always

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Speaker 1: I don't really have a good time going out on

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Speaker 1: That's a tradition for me. And you were very like,

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Speaker 1: why don't you just stay in and we'll get in

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Speaker 1: these onesies and we'll like celebrate it from afar. Yes,

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Speaker 1: and we sense it's still on my Instagram? Should I

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Speaker 1: delete it? Probably yours isn't that bad? Mine is kind

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Speaker 1: of like an out an hour a minute of me

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Speaker 1: as Spider Man with the Sparkler and it. It was nice.

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Speaker 1: It was really nice. It was like we were kind

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Speaker 3: Yep, you guys like several helpings.

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Speaker 1: I got cheese, several helpings of mac and cheese.

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Speaker 2: I've also when you gave me the practical joke gift

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Speaker 2: because you and you thought you were so funny.

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Speaker 3: I was so confused.

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Speaker 1: I was hilarious. I was laughing my and Samantha was like,

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Speaker 3: I had to ask, so, what is this?

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Speaker 1: Soa since starting on a podcast, had desperately wanted a

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Speaker 3: Yees when I started.

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Speaker 2: By the time I came on, you and Caroline and

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Speaker 2: Kristen all got like sixteen different mattresses from different companies.

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Speaker 2: I was like, I need a new mattress. Where my mattress?

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Speaker 2: And every time we would get an offer, it would

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Speaker 2: Adamant That's what I wanted because I did ask us,

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Speaker 3: Where is it? Give me my mattress?

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Speaker 2: And poor Ben, poor Ben, I gave him hell so

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Speaker 2: this entire time. Annie also like she was just so perfect,

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Speaker 2: like I will be like obsessive with something and I'm like,

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Speaker 2: or something with our show, and then Annie's like, I

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Speaker 2: got I got it as a Christmas gift, but I

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Speaker 1: Yeah I do. I gave that to you, yep.

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Speaker 3: As a Christmas present as a reminder that.

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Speaker 1: Was basically making fun of an AD deal that went

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Speaker 3: Got it together.

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Speaker 2: But yeah, no, like that was and because I wasn't

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Speaker 2: like you had so many gifts for me at this

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Speaker 3: But then I was pulling it out.

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Speaker 2: I was like, what is this? Is this from my dog?

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Speaker 2: And does it look like a comforter for a doll. Yeah,

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Speaker 2: but I was like, what is what's happening?

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Speaker 1: It was a doll mattress.

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Speaker 2: It was a doll mattress. Which way is it now?

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Speaker 2: Because it also came with pillows?

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Speaker 1: It did, and I thought I was the funniest person.

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Speaker 3: She still loves today.

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Speaker 1: That was a good one.

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Speaker 2: So that was the beginning of our holiday traditions, yes,

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Speaker 1: Like after that, I started to be like, you know what,

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Speaker 1: I don't necessarily like this New Year's thing. I did

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Speaker 1: But ever since then, I've become very I stay in

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Speaker 1: I guess I'm I see her, and I I'm jealous

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Speaker 2: I think when you told me the topic of this conversation,

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Speaker 3: I feel like kind of how you this sounds right?

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Speaker 2: And then but then that like, as my parents have

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Speaker 3: So cheers, cheers, Happy New Years.

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