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Speaker 1: I've always felt very confident.

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Speaker 2: In what I do for a living.

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Speaker 3: But the battle.

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Speaker 1: For me, or the challenge, has been opening myself up

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Speaker 1: to other things that I don't know about and being

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Speaker 1: okay with doing it badly.

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Speaker 2: After doing something one.

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Speaker 1: Thing for so long since I was a kid, and

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Speaker 1: you know, when you're a kid, if you're like even

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Speaker 1: just halfway decent, everyone's like, oh my god, she's the

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Speaker 1: greatest thing I've ever seen, because you don't.

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Speaker 4: Get many kids do anyway. I do well, but like

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Speaker 4: I think then when I was older, it meant that

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Speaker 4: whenever I would try other things and I wouldn't do

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Speaker 4: it well straight away, I found that like crippling.

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Speaker 5: I think of you as a learner, as a person

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Speaker 5: who likes to learn things. Yeah, I think of you.

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Speaker 2: As a person.

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Speaker 5: If someone's like I'm going to teach you how to

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Speaker 5: do this, you're like, okay, yeah, Like you'll remember when

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Speaker 5: everybody and how to knit, and then you guys were

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Speaker 5: all knitting like mad, and I.

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Speaker 4: Was like, I'm going to do that too, because she

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Speaker 4: said Merril did it as well.

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Speaker 2: So I wanted to be in the club.

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Speaker 5: But it was but I have to actively if somebody

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Speaker 5: is going to teach me a new skill, I have

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Speaker 5: to be like, just let your mind learn the thing,

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Speaker 5: stop fighting it. And I feel like you're so eager.

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Speaker 6: It depends, though, because I think in general you see

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Speaker 6: me in an environment where I'm like so open to

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Speaker 6: everything being new, But actually in my normal life, I'm

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Speaker 6: a lot like you. And I think I've really struggled

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Speaker 6: with appearing to not know how to do something that's

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Speaker 6: taken me a really long time to feel comfortable with.

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Speaker 3: I can't go the dentist. That's a skill i'd like,

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Speaker 3: but my fear is going to you know, I really

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Speaker 3: wanted to learn how to speak properly in public, or

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Speaker 3: get up and make a toast, or go into a

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Speaker 3: room of two hundred people you don't know.

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Speaker 5: I've actually felt like my two superpowers have been like

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Speaker 5: my ability to say I don't know, and my own

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Speaker 5: sense of like, and I mean this genuinely, like mediocrity,

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Speaker 5: meaning not mediocrity like I'm terrible, Like it's middling and

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Speaker 5: you can work harder to get it better. But like

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Speaker 5: I don't feel like I have like a Bobby fish

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Speaker 5: er chest thing or you know, I don't feel like

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Speaker 5: there's like some area of like total mastery for me.

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Speaker 5: But I don't I say that I'm proud of the

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Speaker 5: work I've done. Yeah, but I don't feel like it

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Speaker 5: was like she just came out seeing shots like I

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Speaker 5: feel like I've taught myself.

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Speaker 6: Oh wait, hold on, you mean in terms of what

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Speaker 6: you do?

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Speaker 1: Yeah, yeah, well I taught you mean to general.

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Speaker 5: No, but I do. No, no, no, I don't.

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Speaker 2: But I get it with older I get it with

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Speaker 2: other things. And I think there's a real power to

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Speaker 2: that to be in like, actually, maybe I'm never going

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Speaker 2: to be great.

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Speaker 1: At this, but that is well, not true.

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Speaker 4: That's what you do.

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Speaker 5: I was gonna say though about recipes. One of the

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Speaker 5: things are cooking, and I'm like out of the habit

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Speaker 5: right now because I'm just in the habit of going

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Speaker 5: to this restaurant.

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Speaker 6: But but if you in the way you ordered that,

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Speaker 6: you're like.

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Speaker 5: It just gives me some vegetables that I like. But

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Speaker 5: but I do feel like one of the things that

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Speaker 5: when I'm in the habit of cooking a lot, one

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Speaker 5: of the things that's really satisfying about using recipes is

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Speaker 5: if you make something two or three times, it's like

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Speaker 5: something you have inside you like it belongs to you then,

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Speaker 5: and that feels as satisfying to me as you've you've

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Speaker 5: been in plays, and that feeling of like when you

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Speaker 5: have a whole play inside you and you're like, I

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Speaker 5: have two hours of material inside, like to feel like

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Speaker 5: you have like the ability to make something and it's

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Speaker 5: just you can, it's just there, and like that feels

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Speaker 5: like and when you're cooking a lot that you feel

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Speaker 5: like there's like you have kind of a broader range

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Speaker 5: of like what's inside you. That feels effortless and it's

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Speaker 5: very satisfying.

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Speaker 2: And the good thing about studying recipes for a certain

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Speaker 2: amount of time when you begin cooking is that it

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Speaker 2: does give you an understanding of ingredients and what naturally compliments.

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Speaker 3: Another thing, you know, it's the confidence that I always love.

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Speaker 3: You do follow a recipe, you know, it's good. You

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Speaker 3: don't have failure, you know, And I think failure is

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Speaker 3: the cruel, the really crulst when you're because it's a performance,

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Speaker 3: you know, and the recipe takes you through step by step.

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Speaker 3: A good recipe will take you here you are, and

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Speaker 3: you know it goes from one extreme where they tell

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Speaker 3: you the size of the tin by inches or by

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Speaker 3: you know, centimeters and a quarter of a third of

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Speaker 3: a teaspoon and all that, or I like that too,

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Speaker 3: Or a recipe can be just to inspire you to

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Speaker 3: do something, which I like the structure of a really

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Speaker 3: good recipe and then you can take it take it away.

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Speaker 1: Yeah. I think that I subconsciously knew that if I

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Speaker 1: stick to this discipline for a few years, I'll gain

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Speaker 1: my confidence enough to be able to then kind of

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Speaker 1: like explore what I want to do with cooking. But

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Speaker 1: it's taken me a really long time. And I would

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Speaker 1: say that I'm the same with acting as well that

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Speaker 1: I was. I am very very specific and very precise,

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Speaker 1: but it's been I would say since Little Women that

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Speaker 1: I felt confident enough to then go, Okay, I'm going

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Speaker 1: to like mess this up a little bit, and I'm

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Speaker 1: going to break it open and see what's there and

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Speaker 1: not be afraid of it being a little messier than

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Speaker 1: I would usually allow myself to let it be