1 00:00:01,600 --> 00:00:04,960 Speaker 1: Every day a week ago, clicks up the Breakfast Club. 2 00:00:05,200 --> 00:00:07,320 Speaker 2: You don't finished for y'all done morning. 3 00:00:07,320 --> 00:00:10,240 Speaker 3: Everybody's d J n V. Just hilarious. 4 00:00:10,280 --> 00:00:12,559 Speaker 4: Charlamagne the guy we are the breakfast Club law the 5 00:00:12,600 --> 00:00:13,520 Speaker 4: Roses here as well. 6 00:00:13,520 --> 00:00:15,080 Speaker 3: We got a special guest in the building. 7 00:00:15,400 --> 00:00:17,520 Speaker 2: Indeed, what. 8 00:00:19,320 --> 00:00:21,680 Speaker 1: Are y'all doing? Good morning? You and the family came 9 00:00:21,760 --> 00:00:25,520 Speaker 1: ready to be cold. Listen, you was just waiting on 10 00:00:25,560 --> 00:00:26,200 Speaker 1: your little. 11 00:00:27,720 --> 00:00:30,240 Speaker 5: Because I watched the other interview. You can't get one 12 00:00:30,280 --> 00:00:32,280 Speaker 5: in right. He was so serious the whole time. So 13 00:00:32,360 --> 00:00:38,120 Speaker 5: you know, I rock with your police. I mean, yeah, 14 00:00:38,159 --> 00:00:41,120 Speaker 5: we we were. We just left in a you circuit 15 00:00:41,159 --> 00:00:43,440 Speaker 5: with my son and we was in Cincinnati and they 16 00:00:43,440 --> 00:00:45,479 Speaker 5: said it was gonna be cold there, but it wasn't freezing. 17 00:00:45,840 --> 00:00:47,320 Speaker 1: But when we came to New York it was cold. 18 00:00:47,520 --> 00:00:49,360 Speaker 4: That is the only day too, because the rest of 19 00:00:49,400 --> 00:00:51,000 Speaker 4: the week we're getting like sixty to seventy degrees. 20 00:00:51,000 --> 00:00:53,000 Speaker 3: Today is the only day you can wear that. 21 00:00:53,240 --> 00:00:56,920 Speaker 5: Bliss you because it's cold. It's my room, it's coold 22 00:00:57,640 --> 00:00:58,080 Speaker 5: new book. 23 00:00:58,080 --> 00:00:59,480 Speaker 6: The voice in my head is God. I want to 24 00:00:59,480 --> 00:01:01,920 Speaker 6: ask what was the intention behind the outfit this morning? 25 00:01:01,960 --> 00:01:04,240 Speaker 6: Because then the bury me inside the Louis store chapter. 26 00:01:04,319 --> 00:01:06,959 Speaker 6: You say, every outfit has an intention, So what's what's 27 00:01:07,000 --> 00:01:08,280 Speaker 6: the energy other than it was cold? 28 00:01:09,240 --> 00:01:12,880 Speaker 5: That's the energy that And it's like where else can 29 00:01:12,920 --> 00:01:14,679 Speaker 5: you wear like the hat in it? And you know, 30 00:01:14,720 --> 00:01:17,000 Speaker 5: I can't get this off in Atlanta, so this will 31 00:01:17,040 --> 00:01:18,880 Speaker 5: be the place. And I don't live in Canada, so 32 00:01:18,920 --> 00:01:26,120 Speaker 5: this will be the place. Tell you, man, what's happening. 33 00:01:26,319 --> 00:01:28,400 Speaker 4: The voice in my head is God new book that's 34 00:01:28,440 --> 00:01:30,200 Speaker 4: out today. Make sure you go get it if you 35 00:01:30,240 --> 00:01:32,800 Speaker 4: haven't got it yet. Why was it the time to 36 00:01:32,880 --> 00:01:33,560 Speaker 4: write this book? 37 00:01:35,040 --> 00:01:40,600 Speaker 5: I just think that success without reflection is just noise. 38 00:01:40,800 --> 00:01:43,279 Speaker 5: You know what I'm saying, success without giving back is noise. 39 00:01:43,360 --> 00:01:49,160 Speaker 5: So I'm feeling successful. I think when you live long 40 00:01:49,320 --> 00:01:54,880 Speaker 5: enough to experience scars, when you want enough to have 41 00:01:55,040 --> 00:01:58,960 Speaker 5: the wisdom, you know, then it's time to write a 42 00:01:58,960 --> 00:02:00,640 Speaker 5: book in my personal opinions, so. 43 00:02:02,880 --> 00:02:05,040 Speaker 1: You know, growth, maturation me. 44 00:02:07,200 --> 00:02:09,440 Speaker 5: You know talking about are you talking about God in 45 00:02:09,440 --> 00:02:11,919 Speaker 5: this book through my personal experiences? 46 00:02:12,680 --> 00:02:12,920 Speaker 1: You know? 47 00:02:13,520 --> 00:02:17,040 Speaker 5: So I just felt like, after you do for me, 48 00:02:17,200 --> 00:02:21,600 Speaker 5: I've done the albums, I've shot my short feelm and 49 00:02:21,639 --> 00:02:24,400 Speaker 5: I'm just ready to take more creative risks. And so 50 00:02:25,440 --> 00:02:27,640 Speaker 5: this doesn't feel like a risk because I feel like 51 00:02:28,960 --> 00:02:32,360 Speaker 5: this could this could motivate someone, this could help someone. 52 00:02:33,040 --> 00:02:37,959 Speaker 5: It's not generic, it's not cliche. I hadn't seen any 53 00:02:38,000 --> 00:02:43,640 Speaker 5: other artists talk about, you know, intuition in the book space, 54 00:02:43,720 --> 00:02:44,880 Speaker 5: so just. 55 00:02:45,600 --> 00:02:48,600 Speaker 4: You know, I wanted to on to one thing, the 56 00:02:48,639 --> 00:02:51,160 Speaker 4: biggest thing. Everybody takes a different part of what they 57 00:02:51,200 --> 00:02:52,520 Speaker 4: feel that they get out of the book. 58 00:02:52,600 --> 00:02:52,799 Speaker 2: Right. 59 00:02:53,440 --> 00:02:57,160 Speaker 4: For myself is your relationship with your dad. And the 60 00:02:57,200 --> 00:03:00,600 Speaker 4: reason I say that is I have said and I'm 61 00:03:00,639 --> 00:03:03,639 Speaker 4: always very intentional of what I say to my kids, right, 62 00:03:03,840 --> 00:03:06,920 Speaker 4: because there's a line between being a dad and it's 63 00:03:06,960 --> 00:03:09,000 Speaker 4: a line with being a human being. 64 00:03:09,080 --> 00:03:09,200 Speaker 1: Right. 65 00:03:09,200 --> 00:03:09,959 Speaker 3: And I'll explain. 66 00:03:10,080 --> 00:03:14,440 Speaker 4: So with that relationship with your dad, was there I 67 00:03:14,480 --> 00:03:16,480 Speaker 4: know your dad moved in with you. Was those tough 68 00:03:16,480 --> 00:03:20,680 Speaker 4: conversations to have from to start him being incarcerated to 69 00:03:20,800 --> 00:03:23,720 Speaker 4: even at one time when when you know, when you 70 00:03:23,760 --> 00:03:25,840 Speaker 4: got into that incident in Alabama and your dad said, 71 00:03:25,840 --> 00:03:28,280 Speaker 4: well go get a gun and go handle yourself. You know, 72 00:03:28,440 --> 00:03:30,800 Speaker 4: how would those conversations had because I'm sure you wouldn't 73 00:03:30,800 --> 00:03:33,960 Speaker 4: tell your kids that same thing, or would you. 74 00:03:35,560 --> 00:03:40,440 Speaker 5: That's a good question, you know, Well, I think everybody 75 00:03:40,440 --> 00:03:44,320 Speaker 5: in here have lived through different eras, and you know 76 00:03:44,400 --> 00:03:47,600 Speaker 5: I'm from the boys don't cry era You. 77 00:03:47,520 --> 00:03:51,000 Speaker 1: Know what I'm saying. I'm from the that's weak, that's soft. 78 00:03:51,400 --> 00:03:54,000 Speaker 5: My dad would say numerous amount of times that he 79 00:03:54,040 --> 00:03:57,160 Speaker 5: don't think a woman could raise a man, but he 80 00:03:57,280 --> 00:04:00,520 Speaker 5: wouldn't be there, you know what I'm saying out to be. 81 00:04:01,680 --> 00:04:07,720 Speaker 5: I mean, I can't change oil, change tires and stuff 82 00:04:07,760 --> 00:04:09,400 Speaker 5: like that. You know what I'm saying, Like somebody might 83 00:04:09,440 --> 00:04:11,760 Speaker 5: consider some man stuff, but I've cut the grass and 84 00:04:11,920 --> 00:04:15,400 Speaker 5: done stuff like that, as y'all know recently. So I mean, 85 00:04:15,480 --> 00:04:17,200 Speaker 5: when I think about it's like he wasn't there to 86 00:04:17,200 --> 00:04:20,039 Speaker 5: teach me certain things that a man should know. And 87 00:04:20,080 --> 00:04:22,920 Speaker 5: I learned a lot of things on my own. And 88 00:04:23,600 --> 00:04:25,960 Speaker 5: you know, he was my first hero. He's my first 89 00:04:25,960 --> 00:04:28,040 Speaker 5: somebody you look up to, whether he was in constantraate 90 00:04:28,200 --> 00:04:31,160 Speaker 5: or just me hearing stories about him and me just 91 00:04:31,200 --> 00:04:34,200 Speaker 5: realizing that that DNA is inside of me. So what 92 00:04:34,360 --> 00:04:36,719 Speaker 5: I passed that on? I think I broke that that 93 00:04:36,880 --> 00:04:39,760 Speaker 5: way of thinking. I think it stopped with me. You know, 94 00:04:41,640 --> 00:04:46,800 Speaker 5: I'm very you know, I'm not lenient to why I'm like, man, 95 00:04:46,800 --> 00:04:50,000 Speaker 5: you can cry anytime, you won't, But if my son 96 00:04:50,720 --> 00:04:52,920 Speaker 5: needs to cry about something that's bothered him or hurt 97 00:04:52,920 --> 00:04:55,800 Speaker 5: and I'm not like getting all over him about it. 98 00:04:55,880 --> 00:04:58,960 Speaker 5: So I think it's just timing and where we are 99 00:04:59,000 --> 00:05:00,920 Speaker 5: in life right now. I don't know how you are 100 00:05:00,960 --> 00:05:02,960 Speaker 5: with your kids. But I'm a little bit more sensitive 101 00:05:03,000 --> 00:05:05,839 Speaker 5: to my kids, of course than my father was to me, 102 00:05:06,080 --> 00:05:08,279 Speaker 5: because he wanted me to be tough. He didn't I 103 00:05:08,320 --> 00:05:11,200 Speaker 5: hear stories my eyes tell me like if I would cry, 104 00:05:11,360 --> 00:05:12,800 Speaker 5: he didn't want nobody to pick me up. 105 00:05:13,960 --> 00:05:14,880 Speaker 1: I don't have Like. 106 00:05:16,480 --> 00:05:18,640 Speaker 5: It's some baby pictures, but like all my baby pictures, 107 00:05:18,680 --> 00:05:20,880 Speaker 5: I'm sitting somewhere my mom beside me. She's not like 108 00:05:20,920 --> 00:05:23,080 Speaker 5: holding me, like you know what I'm saying. Like one 109 00:05:23,080 --> 00:05:24,560 Speaker 5: of the pictures I remember is like at the beach, 110 00:05:24,560 --> 00:05:26,440 Speaker 5: I'm sitting on the hood of a car. I'm like 111 00:05:26,680 --> 00:05:29,080 Speaker 5: not even one, and my mom got on a baby suit. 112 00:05:29,120 --> 00:05:29,919 Speaker 1: She right beside me. 113 00:05:29,960 --> 00:05:32,640 Speaker 5: But it's not really like a picture someone colling me 114 00:05:32,720 --> 00:05:33,160 Speaker 5: or anything. 115 00:05:33,520 --> 00:05:34,839 Speaker 1: But I mean, I'm okay with that. 116 00:05:35,040 --> 00:05:37,919 Speaker 7: What did you learn about your own feelings throughout the 117 00:05:37,960 --> 00:05:40,000 Speaker 7: whole experience with your dad, so being able to spend 118 00:05:40,000 --> 00:05:42,360 Speaker 7: time with him and him moving in with you to 119 00:05:42,800 --> 00:05:45,760 Speaker 7: his passing, because you talk about it very stoically at first, 120 00:05:45,800 --> 00:05:48,159 Speaker 7: and then you talk up and then you we actually 121 00:05:48,160 --> 00:05:49,960 Speaker 7: get to hear you talk about finally being able to 122 00:05:50,000 --> 00:05:51,960 Speaker 7: cry and being able to like kind of get in 123 00:05:52,000 --> 00:05:53,520 Speaker 7: tune with yourself a bit. 124 00:05:54,480 --> 00:05:59,760 Speaker 5: Yeah, well, his last his last few years, I said, 125 00:06:00,040 --> 00:06:02,200 Speaker 5: I talk about talk talk about it in the book. 126 00:06:03,240 --> 00:06:03,800 Speaker 1: Excuse me. 127 00:06:04,640 --> 00:06:07,839 Speaker 5: He's getting out of prison, and you know, he's in 128 00:06:07,880 --> 00:06:09,920 Speaker 5: his late sixties, you know what I'm saying, Like, I 129 00:06:09,920 --> 00:06:11,360 Speaker 5: don't know, they might have been seventy something. 130 00:06:11,400 --> 00:06:12,479 Speaker 1: So when I go get. 131 00:06:12,320 --> 00:06:16,080 Speaker 5: Him, you know, that's when I had a conversation about, man, 132 00:06:16,080 --> 00:06:17,560 Speaker 5: you ought to move with me, Like this is just 133 00:06:17,640 --> 00:06:19,200 Speaker 5: crazy at this point, you know what I'm saying. And 134 00:06:19,240 --> 00:06:21,320 Speaker 5: the last time he did time he was probably two 135 00:06:21,400 --> 00:06:23,560 Speaker 5: or three years. But I just felt like it was time. 136 00:06:23,600 --> 00:06:24,040 Speaker 1: I had my. 137 00:06:24,000 --> 00:06:28,560 Speaker 5: First child and I had a house, and so, you know, 138 00:06:28,640 --> 00:06:30,760 Speaker 5: I remember stopping and getting him. He wanted to suit, 139 00:06:31,920 --> 00:06:33,760 Speaker 5: and then I remember stopping at a rise and he 140 00:06:33,800 --> 00:06:39,360 Speaker 5: wanted the phone, and he had some money, he had 141 00:06:39,360 --> 00:06:41,400 Speaker 5: a little money put up, you know somewhere, and we 142 00:06:41,600 --> 00:06:45,000 Speaker 5: just talked and he he said that he would, you know, 143 00:06:45,120 --> 00:06:47,280 Speaker 5: he would, you know, think about it, and he ended 144 00:06:47,320 --> 00:06:49,320 Speaker 5: up eventually just you know, staying with me, which was 145 00:06:49,360 --> 00:06:52,360 Speaker 5: really cool. It was like we started building that relationship. 146 00:06:52,400 --> 00:06:54,680 Speaker 5: You know, I was so fond of him from a 147 00:06:54,720 --> 00:06:57,560 Speaker 5: distance because you know, when I was young, we got separated. 148 00:06:57,640 --> 00:07:00,120 Speaker 5: So just being in the same house, me learning his 149 00:07:00,160 --> 00:07:04,279 Speaker 5: little crazy ways and his sarcasm and everything, and so 150 00:07:05,040 --> 00:07:08,039 Speaker 5: you know, after he started getting sick, I was going 151 00:07:08,080 --> 00:07:10,440 Speaker 5: I was starting at like this was like twenty twelve. 152 00:07:10,520 --> 00:07:12,160 Speaker 1: My dad died in twenty twelve. My first album came 153 00:07:12,200 --> 00:07:12,920 Speaker 1: out of twenty twelve. 154 00:07:12,960 --> 00:07:15,280 Speaker 5: I was just so hot at the time, and so 155 00:07:16,120 --> 00:07:19,320 Speaker 5: Keisha would tell me, like, man, you know your dad didn't. 156 00:07:19,080 --> 00:07:21,360 Speaker 1: Eat the day or he needn't do something. She just 157 00:07:21,440 --> 00:07:22,240 Speaker 1: tell me, you know what I mean. 158 00:07:22,480 --> 00:07:24,720 Speaker 5: And he was somebody that didn't want nobody to know 159 00:07:24,800 --> 00:07:27,000 Speaker 5: he was sick. He like such a man, he don't 160 00:07:27,040 --> 00:07:30,160 Speaker 5: want you to know he going through nothing, which is ridiculous. 161 00:07:30,200 --> 00:07:32,640 Speaker 5: And he went to the hospital one night, you know 162 00:07:32,640 --> 00:07:34,280 Speaker 5: what I'm saying. I end up going up there with him. 163 00:07:34,320 --> 00:07:35,800 Speaker 5: I ended up staying with him. I got it like 164 00:07:35,840 --> 00:07:37,360 Speaker 5: I just stayed with him for like a week or two, 165 00:07:37,480 --> 00:07:39,280 Speaker 5: you know what I mean. And I have shows that 166 00:07:39,360 --> 00:07:41,600 Speaker 5: I end up counseling. But I had this one particular 167 00:07:41,600 --> 00:07:43,880 Speaker 5: show in Savannah, which is like, I don't know, a 168 00:07:43,920 --> 00:07:47,960 Speaker 5: couple hours from Atlanta. And I'm talking to him and 169 00:07:48,000 --> 00:07:49,560 Speaker 5: I'm like, I got this show in Atlanta. You're gonna 170 00:07:49,560 --> 00:07:51,360 Speaker 5: be cool tonight. You're like, yeah, yeah, I'm gonna be cool. 171 00:07:51,360 --> 00:07:54,000 Speaker 5: And then he says, you know, dope man, my role model. 172 00:07:54,040 --> 00:07:56,120 Speaker 5: I had a song called dope Man, my role Model 173 00:07:56,200 --> 00:07:58,960 Speaker 5: my mixtape. So he's so sarcast I'm like, bro, you straight, 174 00:07:59,000 --> 00:08:00,920 Speaker 5: you know what I'm saying. He gives me a fist 175 00:08:00,960 --> 00:08:04,960 Speaker 5: bump and says, do it big Apps, that's. 176 00:08:04,800 --> 00:08:08,280 Speaker 1: Our last name. I said, Okay, cool. I go to Savannah. 177 00:08:08,280 --> 00:08:10,040 Speaker 5: I don't even get the room I come back when 178 00:08:10,080 --> 00:08:11,840 Speaker 5: I when I come back here on his breathing thing, 179 00:08:12,520 --> 00:08:14,200 Speaker 5: I see it like boom, but I see him he 180 00:08:14,360 --> 00:08:15,040 Speaker 5: like looking at me. 181 00:08:15,560 --> 00:08:16,800 Speaker 1: I feel like he looking at me, you know what 182 00:08:16,840 --> 00:08:17,120 Speaker 1: I mean. 183 00:08:17,400 --> 00:08:20,800 Speaker 5: While he's on his breathing thing, and he keep trying 184 00:08:20,840 --> 00:08:22,600 Speaker 5: to take the two by the throat and they keep 185 00:08:22,600 --> 00:08:25,200 Speaker 5: saying like if you if he takes that out, he 186 00:08:25,200 --> 00:08:26,040 Speaker 5: could he could die. 187 00:08:27,160 --> 00:08:27,760 Speaker 1: You know what I'm saying. 188 00:08:27,760 --> 00:08:29,160 Speaker 5: So if he take that out, he can die. Now 189 00:08:29,240 --> 00:08:31,320 Speaker 5: now rewind this. I just got my part from prison. 190 00:08:31,360 --> 00:08:33,199 Speaker 5: So they saying the only way that he cannot take 191 00:08:33,200 --> 00:08:35,680 Speaker 5: it out is if they handcuff him to the bed. 192 00:08:36,240 --> 00:08:36,959 Speaker 1: You know what I'm saying. 193 00:08:37,240 --> 00:08:40,720 Speaker 5: So I say, okay, handcuff, and then I get to 194 00:08:40,840 --> 00:08:44,800 Speaker 5: thinking like something is telling me, like he don't want 195 00:08:44,800 --> 00:08:46,600 Speaker 5: to be handcuffed no more, you know what I'm saying. 196 00:08:46,720 --> 00:08:50,200 Speaker 5: So he handcuffed the bed. He looking at me and 197 00:08:50,360 --> 00:08:53,040 Speaker 5: his shit, you know, he's breathing. And I said, all right, man, 198 00:08:53,240 --> 00:08:54,760 Speaker 5: you know, take the handcuff. I'll take that and take 199 00:08:54,760 --> 00:08:56,440 Speaker 5: it off. Man, he don't want to be handcuffed. But 200 00:08:56,559 --> 00:08:58,480 Speaker 5: soon as the handcuff come off, he come to try 201 00:08:58,520 --> 00:09:00,679 Speaker 5: to take that and they tell me if he take 202 00:09:00,720 --> 00:09:05,120 Speaker 5: it out it could scratch his and so and so 203 00:09:06,080 --> 00:09:08,680 Speaker 5: I swear to you I do that four times. Okay, 204 00:09:09,160 --> 00:09:12,520 Speaker 5: put the handcuffs back on, take the handcuffs back off. 205 00:09:13,800 --> 00:09:16,600 Speaker 5: Put the handcuffs back on them. And it's like he 206 00:09:16,760 --> 00:09:19,080 Speaker 5: just he's not looking straight home, looking to the side 207 00:09:19,160 --> 00:09:21,560 Speaker 5: like this, you know what I mean. So I try 208 00:09:21,600 --> 00:09:24,880 Speaker 5: to hold his hands myself personally, like you know what 209 00:09:24,880 --> 00:09:25,360 Speaker 5: I'm saying. 210 00:09:25,240 --> 00:09:27,880 Speaker 1: Not chill, you know what I'm saying, Just chill keep 211 00:09:29,400 --> 00:09:29,640 Speaker 1: you know. 212 00:09:29,760 --> 00:09:31,480 Speaker 5: And then you know a couple of days after that 213 00:09:32,240 --> 00:09:33,480 Speaker 5: or not even a day after that. You know what 214 00:09:33,520 --> 00:09:35,599 Speaker 5: I'm saying that the beets start going off. You know 215 00:09:35,640 --> 00:09:37,720 Speaker 5: what I'm saying. By me staying with him and the nurses, 216 00:09:37,720 --> 00:09:39,079 Speaker 5: I'm able to run, go, get the nurse. You know 217 00:09:39,120 --> 00:09:42,880 Speaker 5: what I'm saying, check it out. And they same thing 218 00:09:42,960 --> 00:09:46,280 Speaker 5: four times. Boom bom boom they hit them, bring them back. 219 00:09:47,080 --> 00:09:47,680 Speaker 2: Thank y'all, nurse. 220 00:09:47,720 --> 00:09:48,720 Speaker 1: They walk out the room. 221 00:09:49,880 --> 00:09:53,600 Speaker 5: Man, man, look, man, don't you be doing Run out again? 222 00:09:53,640 --> 00:09:57,160 Speaker 5: Boomom do that the fourth time. Now they put me 223 00:09:57,160 --> 00:09:59,560 Speaker 5: out the room. So I'm looking through the the little window. 224 00:10:00,240 --> 00:10:02,080 Speaker 5: And so the fourth time, the lady come out and 225 00:10:02,160 --> 00:10:06,400 Speaker 5: she says, you know, I lost my father to if 226 00:10:06,400 --> 00:10:08,280 Speaker 5: he come back now, he'll be brain dead. We already 227 00:10:08,280 --> 00:10:10,120 Speaker 5: broke two ribs. You just gotta let it go. And 228 00:10:10,160 --> 00:10:12,240 Speaker 5: I was like, that's easier say it than done, because 229 00:10:12,760 --> 00:10:15,160 Speaker 5: he just told me. Not only did he tell me 230 00:10:15,240 --> 00:10:17,680 Speaker 5: do it big, he told me before I went to Savannah, 231 00:10:17,760 --> 00:10:19,600 Speaker 5: I'm not gonna die no time soon. It came out 232 00:10:19,600 --> 00:10:21,440 Speaker 5: of his mouth and a he never told him no lot. 233 00:10:21,600 --> 00:10:23,720 Speaker 5: So I'm like, what happened from the time I went 234 00:10:23,760 --> 00:10:26,319 Speaker 5: to Savanna came back? But anyway, That's something that I 235 00:10:26,360 --> 00:10:30,120 Speaker 5: wouldn't say haunted or traumatized me. I know you're big 236 00:10:30,160 --> 00:10:32,840 Speaker 5: on therapy or whatever, and like this book is my therapy, 237 00:10:32,920 --> 00:10:34,840 Speaker 5: like certain things I do is my therapy. I hadn't 238 00:10:34,840 --> 00:10:37,319 Speaker 5: actually sat down with someone, and I'm not against people 239 00:10:37,320 --> 00:10:42,880 Speaker 5: who who do or who have. But is it traumatic 240 00:10:42,880 --> 00:10:49,640 Speaker 5: seeing your father passed? It could be, yeah, But then 241 00:10:49,760 --> 00:10:53,000 Speaker 5: like a few years later, I had a son who 242 00:10:53,080 --> 00:10:56,679 Speaker 5: reminds me so much of like how he moves and 243 00:10:56,800 --> 00:10:58,080 Speaker 5: his sarcasm as well. 244 00:10:58,240 --> 00:11:01,640 Speaker 6: So questions based on what you just said, did reliving 245 00:11:01,720 --> 00:11:03,400 Speaker 6: that for the book make you cry again? Because you 246 00:11:03,400 --> 00:11:05,760 Speaker 6: said that was the first time you remember crying when man, 247 00:11:05,840 --> 00:11:08,240 Speaker 6: I cried so hard when that happened. I was listening, 248 00:11:08,280 --> 00:11:11,040 Speaker 6: I think, I even I'm trying to think about so 249 00:11:11,240 --> 00:11:14,880 Speaker 6: I might listen to it was a song, but not 250 00:11:15,000 --> 00:11:16,920 Speaker 6: when I was doing it in the book, because I'm 251 00:11:16,960 --> 00:11:17,600 Speaker 6: just I didn't. 252 00:11:17,640 --> 00:11:21,200 Speaker 5: I didn't. I didn't cry while writing the book. I 253 00:11:21,240 --> 00:11:24,840 Speaker 5: think because I've relived that so many times. It wasn't 254 00:11:24,840 --> 00:11:26,520 Speaker 5: like I buried it and then just brought it back 255 00:11:26,600 --> 00:11:29,760 Speaker 5: up like I relived my pots passing in front of me. 256 00:11:30,760 --> 00:11:32,840 Speaker 5: You know I've done that a few times. 257 00:11:32,880 --> 00:11:33,480 Speaker 1: So I think. 258 00:11:33,720 --> 00:11:35,920 Speaker 5: And then also I see now me talking about it, it 259 00:11:36,040 --> 00:11:37,719 Speaker 5: just becomes easier to talk about. 260 00:11:37,640 --> 00:11:40,839 Speaker 1: You know, when you keep stuff bottle again or whatever. 261 00:11:40,920 --> 00:11:44,840 Speaker 6: And when you said when Halo was born in the book, 262 00:11:44,880 --> 00:11:46,640 Speaker 6: you I got to see the picture. That's I just 263 00:11:46,640 --> 00:11:49,040 Speaker 6: got to see the picture. You said you got the picture. 264 00:11:49,360 --> 00:11:50,720 Speaker 1: Yeah, but I'm just trying to show you. 265 00:11:50,840 --> 00:11:52,280 Speaker 6: I want to see the picture. You said it was 266 00:11:52,320 --> 00:11:55,319 Speaker 6: a picture of your father. The alarm went off in that, 267 00:11:55,360 --> 00:11:57,079 Speaker 6: all right, So don't even tell the story. I just 268 00:11:57,120 --> 00:11:57,439 Speaker 6: show you that. 269 00:11:59,440 --> 00:12:01,280 Speaker 4: It's hard to discussed this book because it's so much 270 00:12:01,360 --> 00:12:03,680 Speaker 4: that you want people to read and see for themselves. 271 00:12:03,679 --> 00:12:06,880 Speaker 6: He just gave away, but it was worth it. 272 00:12:07,760 --> 00:12:11,800 Speaker 1: So this this picture, all right, we'll explain. All right, 273 00:12:11,840 --> 00:12:16,320 Speaker 1: So this is all right, so let's talk about it. 274 00:12:16,360 --> 00:12:22,200 Speaker 5: So, my son, Halo was born ten fourteen fifteen, Right, 275 00:12:24,400 --> 00:12:27,080 Speaker 5: me and Keisha was in the hospital, and my mom 276 00:12:27,200 --> 00:12:30,000 Speaker 5: and my two daughters was at home and they were 277 00:12:30,040 --> 00:12:33,600 Speaker 5: in our room in the master bedroom. Right, the alarm 278 00:12:33,679 --> 00:12:38,400 Speaker 5: went off at home while Halo was coming. The alarm 279 00:12:38,440 --> 00:12:41,839 Speaker 5: went off same time. So why Keisha having Halo the 280 00:12:41,880 --> 00:12:44,560 Speaker 5: alarm going off and my mom is asking me, what's 281 00:12:44,600 --> 00:12:47,319 Speaker 5: the past? Word to tell the alarm people because it's 282 00:12:47,320 --> 00:12:49,080 Speaker 5: saying motion in the house or whatever. Now my mom 283 00:12:49,160 --> 00:12:52,800 Speaker 5: is on the phone saying, I swear, and I'm looking 284 00:12:52,840 --> 00:12:55,960 Speaker 5: at the cameras and I don't see anything coming into 285 00:12:56,000 --> 00:12:56,200 Speaker 5: the house. 286 00:12:56,240 --> 00:12:58,520 Speaker 1: I don't see the doors. I'm looking at all the doors. 287 00:12:59,000 --> 00:13:01,439 Speaker 5: My mom said, I hadn't left the room, so I 288 00:13:01,480 --> 00:13:03,480 Speaker 5: don't know why the motion going off. I tell of 289 00:13:03,520 --> 00:13:07,000 Speaker 5: the code it goes off. We have halo, we come home, 290 00:13:07,840 --> 00:13:11,720 Speaker 5: all right, We're getting our alarm updated. And then Keisha 291 00:13:11,760 --> 00:13:16,880 Speaker 5: looks at her email. And when you have motion, it 292 00:13:16,920 --> 00:13:19,680 Speaker 5: takes pictures. It takes snapshots of what the motion is. 293 00:13:20,200 --> 00:13:22,240 Speaker 1: Okay, when we. 294 00:13:22,160 --> 00:13:27,160 Speaker 5: Looked at the motion, you can see you can see somebody, 295 00:13:27,400 --> 00:13:28,640 Speaker 5: you know what I'm saying, And it was my It 296 00:13:28,720 --> 00:13:31,000 Speaker 5: was my father. Now my father left in twenty twelve. 297 00:13:31,320 --> 00:13:35,040 Speaker 5: This was twenty fifteen. You can see an image. So wow, 298 00:13:36,000 --> 00:13:37,760 Speaker 5: people that I'm close to a couple of friends, I'm close. 299 00:13:37,800 --> 00:13:39,839 Speaker 5: So I showing a picture. I'm like, who is it? Like, 300 00:13:40,120 --> 00:13:41,880 Speaker 5: that's part right there. I'm like, look at the date 301 00:13:42,559 --> 00:13:45,360 Speaker 5: and like my friends begetting big old chill goosebumps or whatever. 302 00:13:45,360 --> 00:13:45,920 Speaker 1: You know what I'm saying. 303 00:13:45,920 --> 00:13:47,440 Speaker 5: My father used to walk around the house like with 304 00:13:47,480 --> 00:13:50,200 Speaker 5: his shirt off. He was in good shape to be seventy. 305 00:13:50,320 --> 00:13:51,960 Speaker 1: Like. He wasn't like fast and slop. He was in 306 00:13:52,000 --> 00:13:53,720 Speaker 1: the arm and so he had something. 307 00:13:53,720 --> 00:13:55,720 Speaker 5: But I'm gonna find and so another thing about this, 308 00:13:56,559 --> 00:13:59,400 Speaker 5: and this is my personal opinion. He's so sarcastic that 309 00:14:00,600 --> 00:14:02,800 Speaker 5: when I used to try to show people, I could 310 00:14:02,800 --> 00:14:03,760 Speaker 5: not find a picture. 311 00:14:04,200 --> 00:14:04,560 Speaker 8: M hm. 312 00:14:04,920 --> 00:14:08,640 Speaker 5: So I gave a picture to Keisha. I said, Keisha, 313 00:14:08,760 --> 00:14:10,120 Speaker 5: when I try to show people, that makes it sound 314 00:14:10,120 --> 00:14:12,960 Speaker 5: like I'm crazy. I don't have a picture. So we 315 00:14:13,000 --> 00:14:15,360 Speaker 5: go to Florida one time. I'm not even looking back there. 316 00:14:15,400 --> 00:14:16,680 Speaker 5: I know she knows I talking about I go to 317 00:14:16,720 --> 00:14:19,280 Speaker 5: Florida one time. I don't got the picture them. I 318 00:14:19,320 --> 00:14:22,760 Speaker 5: can't find what happened in Florida. You remember. 319 00:14:26,840 --> 00:14:27,200 Speaker 7: Whatever. 320 00:14:31,040 --> 00:14:34,840 Speaker 5: Anyway, anyway, my phone fell in was She probably don't 321 00:14:34,840 --> 00:14:36,480 Speaker 5: remember this, but she does remember this when I said this. 322 00:14:36,520 --> 00:14:37,680 Speaker 5: But we was on a boat. We got off a 323 00:14:37,720 --> 00:14:41,240 Speaker 5: boat and then her phone down there fell in the water. 324 00:14:42,000 --> 00:14:44,320 Speaker 5: And when my phone fell in the water, I said, damn, 325 00:14:44,920 --> 00:14:46,920 Speaker 5: that's all. I don't think about the context. I'm like, 326 00:14:47,840 --> 00:14:51,640 Speaker 5: this is my proof, this is my proof that golds 327 00:14:51,680 --> 00:14:51,920 Speaker 5: are real. 328 00:14:52,040 --> 00:14:53,120 Speaker 1: Or whatever. You know what I mean. Boom. 329 00:14:53,200 --> 00:14:56,280 Speaker 5: Okay, So I get to looking because I know exactly 330 00:14:56,280 --> 00:14:58,040 Speaker 5: when the date was, because I know when Halo was born. 331 00:14:58,200 --> 00:15:01,400 Speaker 5: I pull up the picture again. So now I got it. 332 00:15:01,440 --> 00:15:03,080 Speaker 5: So I give it to my cousin I'm always with 333 00:15:03,560 --> 00:15:05,440 Speaker 5: outside cat. I gave it the cat like cat, you 334 00:15:05,520 --> 00:15:06,120 Speaker 5: keep this picture? 335 00:15:06,120 --> 00:15:09,400 Speaker 1: Boom. So this is crazy. 336 00:15:09,440 --> 00:15:12,520 Speaker 5: So this is I go over the back in the day, 337 00:15:12,560 --> 00:15:14,640 Speaker 5: I go over to the Yate house, right, and I'm telling 338 00:15:14,680 --> 00:15:17,160 Speaker 5: him the same story. I'm like, bro, this has happened 339 00:15:17,200 --> 00:15:19,800 Speaker 5: to me. I'm trying to tell him what happened. And 340 00:15:19,880 --> 00:15:21,480 Speaker 5: this is man, you know, I'm the coolest player in 341 00:15:21,480 --> 00:15:26,120 Speaker 5: the world. Man, it's like food around It's like lemonade, 342 00:15:26,120 --> 00:15:28,520 Speaker 5: you know what I'm saying. So I can't find a picture, 343 00:15:28,600 --> 00:15:30,880 Speaker 5: so I say, cat, cat with my tother come in, man, 344 00:15:30,920 --> 00:15:32,520 Speaker 5: give me the picture of popus mess. I can show 345 00:15:32,840 --> 00:15:34,720 Speaker 5: while he giving me the picture, Bro, I'll knock over 346 00:15:34,760 --> 00:15:38,280 Speaker 5: a big thing of lemonade everywhere on everybody. Like you 347 00:15:38,280 --> 00:15:39,640 Speaker 5: know what I'm saying. I'm such a player. I ain't 348 00:15:39,680 --> 00:15:41,040 Speaker 5: never done nothing like that, you know what I'm saying. 349 00:15:41,080 --> 00:15:43,000 Speaker 5: So in my mind, I'm like, bro, this is how 350 00:15:43,040 --> 00:15:45,240 Speaker 5: my dad is he like be on some joking. So 351 00:15:45,320 --> 00:15:48,360 Speaker 5: you got me looking crazy here. I don't waste lemonade 352 00:15:48,360 --> 00:15:50,160 Speaker 5: on everybody the table. This ain't even nothing I do, 353 00:15:50,240 --> 00:15:52,560 Speaker 5: you know what I mean? But anyway, that's another story. 354 00:15:52,640 --> 00:15:56,160 Speaker 5: Let me find a picture all right right here? Let 355 00:15:56,200 --> 00:16:01,680 Speaker 5: me see I email myself so at one loute. Okay, 356 00:16:01,720 --> 00:16:04,000 Speaker 5: this is not why he's looking. 357 00:16:04,840 --> 00:16:08,000 Speaker 4: Why he's looking at the picture the book on to 358 00:16:08,240 --> 00:16:09,320 Speaker 4: change dot com. 359 00:16:09,640 --> 00:16:10,760 Speaker 3: You have a chance to win. 360 00:16:10,680 --> 00:16:13,200 Speaker 5: Courts to change book to change book dot com. To 361 00:16:13,360 --> 00:16:15,760 Speaker 5: change book, go to changebook dot com. I do gotta 362 00:16:15,760 --> 00:16:17,880 Speaker 5: sweepstakes for people. They can sit next to me at 363 00:16:17,920 --> 00:16:21,840 Speaker 5: a Hawks game. Yeah you know, uh, of course that 364 00:16:21,880 --> 00:16:23,880 Speaker 5: I'm very close. I come in through the owner's lounge. 365 00:16:23,920 --> 00:16:27,720 Speaker 5: It's a whole experience. I do have this little uh 366 00:16:28,360 --> 00:16:33,120 Speaker 5: side note this disclaimer. Women, I'm gonna be smelling good. 367 00:16:33,160 --> 00:16:35,120 Speaker 5: I'm gonna be looking good. If you have a crazy 368 00:16:35,160 --> 00:16:41,960 Speaker 5: man at home, articulate that to him. Men, I'm not 369 00:16:42,000 --> 00:16:46,960 Speaker 5: gonna be talking through the whole game. Right, we can talk, 370 00:16:47,000 --> 00:16:48,560 Speaker 5: but I'm gonna really be watching the game. 371 00:16:48,880 --> 00:16:50,720 Speaker 2: A rapper win. I hope somebody trying to make. 372 00:16:50,640 --> 00:16:56,480 Speaker 9: It trying to like you. You sing all your songs 373 00:16:56,520 --> 00:16:57,080 Speaker 9: the whole time. 374 00:16:57,440 --> 00:16:59,000 Speaker 1: Can you get that picture because you know I'm trying 375 00:16:59,040 --> 00:17:00,360 Speaker 1: to show them and you know what's going on. Up 376 00:17:02,640 --> 00:17:13,359 Speaker 1: hop up if you see anything, Oh. 377 00:17:13,280 --> 00:17:14,399 Speaker 2: Yeah, I see something in the picure? 378 00:17:14,480 --> 00:17:19,879 Speaker 1: Can wait only he h m hm. 379 00:17:20,640 --> 00:17:23,280 Speaker 3: So question for you, right, Charlamagne. Believe you by the way, 380 00:17:23,359 --> 00:17:25,120 Speaker 3: but you can see Charlemagne face. 381 00:17:25,160 --> 00:17:25,560 Speaker 1: You know I ain't. 382 00:17:26,000 --> 00:17:27,520 Speaker 3: But the reason that because that happened to him in 383 00:17:27,560 --> 00:17:29,040 Speaker 3: Prince he took. 384 00:17:30,440 --> 00:17:31,159 Speaker 2: This is a spirit. 385 00:17:33,400 --> 00:17:35,320 Speaker 3: He took a picture and the picture I want to are. 386 00:17:35,280 --> 00:17:39,480 Speaker 7: You okay what I've seen it? Okay? Oh wow, that's 387 00:17:39,480 --> 00:17:42,399 Speaker 7: a whole person. Yes, I thought it was going to 388 00:17:42,440 --> 00:17:44,000 Speaker 7: be like not that. 389 00:17:44,080 --> 00:17:46,280 Speaker 5: How you used to walk around the shirt walking that's 390 00:17:46,560 --> 00:17:47,600 Speaker 5: him walking through the kitchen. 391 00:17:47,720 --> 00:17:48,000 Speaker 1: Wow. 392 00:17:48,640 --> 00:17:50,359 Speaker 7: I know you're saying the book too that you feel like, 393 00:17:50,520 --> 00:17:53,040 Speaker 7: until you had your son, your dad hadn't like crossed 394 00:17:53,080 --> 00:17:54,000 Speaker 7: over to the other side. 395 00:17:54,080 --> 00:17:55,639 Speaker 1: That's my assumption, right, this is my mom. 396 00:17:55,760 --> 00:17:58,600 Speaker 5: My mom is super, super spiritual, right, so she was 397 00:17:58,600 --> 00:18:01,600 Speaker 5: probably like, you know, he probably come to fuck with 398 00:18:01,600 --> 00:18:03,320 Speaker 5: me before you know what I mean, probably come over 399 00:18:03,359 --> 00:18:05,000 Speaker 5: to the fuck with me, just you know what I mean. 400 00:18:05,000 --> 00:18:06,960 Speaker 1: That's how she kicked the light before he left. But 401 00:18:07,720 --> 00:18:08,080 Speaker 1: so the. 402 00:18:08,080 --> 00:18:09,600 Speaker 7: Voices that you were hearing there, because I know you 403 00:18:09,760 --> 00:18:11,320 Speaker 7: have been hearing voices in your head and hearing God 404 00:18:11,359 --> 00:18:13,560 Speaker 7: for a long time. Do you know which ones might 405 00:18:13,600 --> 00:18:15,520 Speaker 7: have been your Dad because he was there with you, 406 00:18:15,720 --> 00:18:18,080 Speaker 7: or it was the God connection that you haven't you 407 00:18:18,119 --> 00:18:19,040 Speaker 7: hear in God during that word? 408 00:18:19,119 --> 00:18:24,000 Speaker 5: So this experience right here, when this happened, this would 409 00:18:24,040 --> 00:18:27,639 Speaker 5: have been twenty fifteen. I'm not even sure if I 410 00:18:27,760 --> 00:18:34,399 Speaker 5: was fully committed to just given the voice. It's credit 411 00:18:35,160 --> 00:18:38,080 Speaker 5: for my success. Now, That's why I said when he 412 00:18:38,119 --> 00:18:39,520 Speaker 5: asked me when it's timeing to write a book, It's 413 00:18:39,560 --> 00:18:42,359 Speaker 5: like I've lived and had enough experience in trial and 414 00:18:42,520 --> 00:18:46,880 Speaker 5: error with listening not listening, moving through fear, moving through 415 00:18:46,920 --> 00:18:50,760 Speaker 5: ego to let you know, like this voice, it got 416 00:18:50,920 --> 00:18:53,320 Speaker 5: to be God. The reason I call it the voice 417 00:18:53,320 --> 00:18:55,359 Speaker 5: of God because the voice would be like my intuition, 418 00:18:55,480 --> 00:18:59,399 Speaker 5: it would be my my my alignment. You know what 419 00:18:59,440 --> 00:19:01,159 Speaker 5: I'm saying that that's what the voice. But when I 420 00:19:01,200 --> 00:19:04,280 Speaker 5: say God, I know everybody's not into God. But I 421 00:19:04,359 --> 00:19:07,880 Speaker 5: had to give the credit to somebody higher than myself. 422 00:19:08,040 --> 00:19:10,920 Speaker 5: You know what I'm saying, for this superpower, whatever the 423 00:19:10,960 --> 00:19:13,080 Speaker 5: hell like for me, I got a real picture of 424 00:19:13,080 --> 00:19:15,600 Speaker 5: my dad three years after he passed. Like, this is 425 00:19:15,640 --> 00:19:18,200 Speaker 5: not something and I don't. It's my first time ever 426 00:19:18,520 --> 00:19:22,440 Speaker 5: ever talking about it, feeling comfortable talking about it, showing 427 00:19:22,520 --> 00:19:27,399 Speaker 5: somebody that I feel like is understands like a deeper 428 00:19:27,480 --> 00:19:30,000 Speaker 5: mean of like spirits and everything, like because I don't 429 00:19:30,000 --> 00:19:31,320 Speaker 5: fully understand. 430 00:19:32,480 --> 00:19:33,280 Speaker 1: My father. 431 00:19:34,920 --> 00:19:36,679 Speaker 5: You know, you see they be like people come to 432 00:19:36,720 --> 00:19:39,439 Speaker 5: you in dreams, people you know, do stuff like that. 433 00:19:39,480 --> 00:19:42,000 Speaker 5: I can't say that he did that, you know what 434 00:19:42,040 --> 00:19:44,440 Speaker 5: I'm saying, But I can tell you that I do 435 00:19:44,520 --> 00:19:49,560 Speaker 5: have a divine guidance in me that helps me make decisions, 436 00:19:50,000 --> 00:19:55,119 Speaker 5: whether it's business decisions, relationship decisions, whatever it is. And 437 00:19:55,160 --> 00:19:58,439 Speaker 5: it's a voice that could probably be too noisy to 438 00:19:58,480 --> 00:20:02,920 Speaker 5: certain people, but I welcome that voice. So this book 439 00:20:04,040 --> 00:20:08,240 Speaker 5: is I put this book together to help somebody and 440 00:20:08,280 --> 00:20:11,720 Speaker 5: to motivate somebody to shut down the outside noise. And 441 00:20:11,720 --> 00:20:14,119 Speaker 5: this is also for anybody who's ever said, like something 442 00:20:14,160 --> 00:20:16,440 Speaker 5: told me, like something told me to get this job, 443 00:20:16,800 --> 00:20:19,480 Speaker 5: wear this hat, or whatever it is. It's like it's 444 00:20:19,520 --> 00:20:21,640 Speaker 5: that something told me thing. You know what I'm saying 445 00:20:21,760 --> 00:20:23,919 Speaker 5: is that or something told me don't go to this 446 00:20:24,000 --> 00:20:27,000 Speaker 5: place and this happened, something told me don't whatever it is, 447 00:20:27,040 --> 00:20:28,520 Speaker 5: you know, and we've all said that when we missed 448 00:20:28,520 --> 00:20:31,640 Speaker 5: the flight, Well that's God trying to Maybe I wasn't 449 00:20:31,640 --> 00:20:32,920 Speaker 5: supposed to get on it, you know what I mean. 450 00:20:33,160 --> 00:20:37,040 Speaker 5: So why can't that inner dialogue be that? Why if 451 00:20:37,040 --> 00:20:39,560 Speaker 5: they say God is inside of you, and why can't 452 00:20:39,560 --> 00:20:42,760 Speaker 5: your blessings come from within on how you are on 453 00:20:42,800 --> 00:20:45,720 Speaker 5: the surface. You're a positive person on the surface, then 454 00:20:45,760 --> 00:20:48,040 Speaker 5: your blessings coming with it. This is my experience, this 455 00:20:48,119 --> 00:20:48,679 Speaker 5: is my opinion. 456 00:20:48,760 --> 00:20:50,280 Speaker 4: So what do you trust that voice though? Because you 457 00:20:50,480 --> 00:20:52,359 Speaker 4: talk about in the book many times when you didn't 458 00:20:52,359 --> 00:20:54,960 Speaker 4: trust that voice. You heard it and you were like, nah. 459 00:20:55,040 --> 00:20:57,439 Speaker 5: You got to be you got to go through the 460 00:20:57,480 --> 00:21:00,440 Speaker 5: experience right to see, like what was that for. 461 00:21:00,400 --> 00:21:02,800 Speaker 3: You that said I need to start trusting this voice. 462 00:21:05,320 --> 00:21:09,000 Speaker 5: I don't want to use like a tragic experience experience, 463 00:21:12,880 --> 00:21:16,879 Speaker 5: but like the voice comes before something happens, right, So 464 00:21:16,960 --> 00:21:20,120 Speaker 5: it's hard to like pay at attention because you don't 465 00:21:20,119 --> 00:21:21,159 Speaker 5: know what's about to happen. 466 00:21:21,280 --> 00:21:22,800 Speaker 1: Alabama, you know what I'm saying. 467 00:21:22,880 --> 00:21:26,640 Speaker 5: Alabama, my Cali experience, these different experiences that I had, 468 00:21:26,760 --> 00:21:28,800 Speaker 5: I felt something I did, I put this on everything 469 00:21:28,840 --> 00:21:32,159 Speaker 5: I felt something, something told me, you know what I'm saying, 470 00:21:32,560 --> 00:21:33,480 Speaker 5: but you don't have. 471 00:21:33,440 --> 00:21:34,879 Speaker 1: A crystal ball in order to see it. 472 00:21:35,280 --> 00:21:39,119 Speaker 5: So that's why I'm using all these experiences in the 473 00:21:39,200 --> 00:21:42,879 Speaker 5: book to tell you, like how I listen and maybe 474 00:21:42,920 --> 00:21:45,439 Speaker 5: then fully you know what I mean, not just what 475 00:21:45,600 --> 00:21:48,160 Speaker 5: was going on or when I did, and that positive 476 00:21:48,160 --> 00:21:51,199 Speaker 5: outcomes that came from them. You know, I woke up 477 00:21:51,200 --> 00:21:53,080 Speaker 5: sometimes to be like something told I need to do 478 00:21:53,119 --> 00:21:53,720 Speaker 5: this today. 479 00:21:53,720 --> 00:21:54,840 Speaker 1: You know what I mean. I do that a lot. 480 00:21:54,920 --> 00:21:58,000 Speaker 5: Actually, you know what I mean, And it's just a 481 00:21:58,000 --> 00:21:59,679 Speaker 5: message I'm just trying to bring the people. 482 00:22:00,040 --> 00:22:02,199 Speaker 6: The book is about God and you first recognized in 483 00:22:02,240 --> 00:22:04,160 Speaker 6: that voice, But to me, it's also a love letter 484 00:22:04,200 --> 00:22:06,080 Speaker 6: to your mom and your pop. So so when did 485 00:22:06,119 --> 00:22:10,680 Speaker 6: you first recognize God in them? 486 00:22:10,760 --> 00:22:12,040 Speaker 1: Mom? 487 00:22:12,200 --> 00:22:15,560 Speaker 5: Church going, still go, just went yesterday? Mom went yesterday. 488 00:22:16,240 --> 00:22:19,159 Speaker 5: I checked on her, uh my part. When he was 489 00:22:19,200 --> 00:22:21,760 Speaker 5: in prison, he wrote which is which helped me come up. 490 00:22:21,720 --> 00:22:22,439 Speaker 1: With the title too. 491 00:22:22,480 --> 00:22:24,080 Speaker 5: He used to write God is Love on the back 492 00:22:24,119 --> 00:22:26,520 Speaker 5: of his prison letters, and one day I took the 493 00:22:26,880 --> 00:22:29,080 Speaker 5: got the ears out and I put an equal sign 494 00:22:29,200 --> 00:22:33,320 Speaker 5: like God he is Love. So I was like, it 495 00:22:33,440 --> 00:22:35,320 Speaker 5: just made so much sense to me because if it's 496 00:22:35,400 --> 00:22:37,400 Speaker 5: love there, then it's God there. That's what I think. 497 00:22:37,440 --> 00:22:39,240 Speaker 5: You know what I'm saying, And it was hey, there, 498 00:22:39,280 --> 00:22:41,400 Speaker 5: then I can't be God. And that's how I decipher 499 00:22:41,480 --> 00:22:44,159 Speaker 5: what that voice was. So yeah, I've had that that 500 00:22:44,280 --> 00:22:47,639 Speaker 5: kind of spiritual upbringing, like i'm'a. I'm'a. I'm from a 501 00:22:47,680 --> 00:22:49,760 Speaker 5: praying family. You know what I'm saying. I encourage my 502 00:22:49,880 --> 00:22:53,320 Speaker 5: kids to pray, So it's something I believe in and 503 00:22:53,359 --> 00:22:55,520 Speaker 5: I talk. I pray before my show, I pray before 504 00:22:55,600 --> 00:22:56,440 Speaker 5: I rap at night. 505 00:22:56,520 --> 00:22:56,760 Speaker 1: Bruh. 506 00:22:56,880 --> 00:22:58,840 Speaker 5: I just you know what I'm saying. I just be 507 00:22:58,880 --> 00:23:01,080 Speaker 5: praying sometime. I be praying on stage when I'm killing it. 508 00:23:01,160 --> 00:23:04,679 Speaker 5: I look up, man, think you know, think, man, you 509 00:23:04,840 --> 00:23:06,520 Speaker 5: ain't nobody you know what I mean, because it's just 510 00:23:07,000 --> 00:23:09,240 Speaker 5: a certain order you get when you when you tapped in, 511 00:23:09,400 --> 00:23:09,880 Speaker 5: you know what I mean. 512 00:23:10,200 --> 00:23:12,240 Speaker 9: Real And you said you always wanted to write a book. 513 00:23:12,280 --> 00:23:13,840 Speaker 9: Did you think that it would be this? 514 00:23:14,320 --> 00:23:15,640 Speaker 1: No? No? 515 00:23:15,840 --> 00:23:19,000 Speaker 5: But you know most artists they do an autobiography and 516 00:23:19,000 --> 00:23:21,480 Speaker 5: then they talk about how they have nothing to eat. 517 00:23:21,680 --> 00:23:28,159 Speaker 1: You know what I'm saying. Artists are the poorest. You 518 00:23:28,200 --> 00:23:28,680 Speaker 1: know what I'm saying. 519 00:23:29,240 --> 00:23:34,840 Speaker 5: Nothing, no education, no nothing, no I finished high school, 520 00:23:34,840 --> 00:23:36,560 Speaker 5: I have a college degree. I don't be on none 521 00:23:36,560 --> 00:23:37,840 Speaker 5: of that, you know what I'm saying. And I still 522 00:23:37,840 --> 00:23:40,840 Speaker 5: have my struggles that I deal with, and so when 523 00:23:40,880 --> 00:23:43,159 Speaker 5: it was time for me to do the book, I 524 00:23:43,240 --> 00:23:45,280 Speaker 5: wanted to be in my own lane like I do 525 00:23:45,320 --> 00:23:48,399 Speaker 5: with anything else. If you all noticed, I don't following 526 00:23:48,400 --> 00:23:50,520 Speaker 5: over really no trends. I'm so comfortable in my skin, 527 00:23:50,560 --> 00:23:55,560 Speaker 5: it's it's scary sometimes. 528 00:23:54,600 --> 00:23:58,639 Speaker 6: M I know you said you don't need therapy, but 529 00:23:58,720 --> 00:24:01,159 Speaker 6: you've been in some real life ramatic situations like you 530 00:24:01,280 --> 00:24:03,199 Speaker 6: just named two of them, Alabama. 531 00:24:03,000 --> 00:24:03,639 Speaker 2: The Cali one. 532 00:24:03,680 --> 00:24:06,560 Speaker 6: I didn't even know it went to that where he 533 00:24:06,680 --> 00:24:08,200 Speaker 6: was standing over you and all of that. I don't 534 00:24:08,200 --> 00:24:09,840 Speaker 6: know why I never've heard that part of the story. 535 00:24:09,840 --> 00:24:11,880 Speaker 6: But it's any out of that impact the way you move. 536 00:24:12,560 --> 00:24:14,680 Speaker 2: Like now, well. 537 00:24:15,080 --> 00:24:18,119 Speaker 5: You know now I'm gonna say something cliche. I mean, 538 00:24:18,119 --> 00:24:19,680 Speaker 5: it's some here for a Reese. You know what I'm saying. 539 00:24:19,720 --> 00:24:21,920 Speaker 1: That's something, But it really does though. 540 00:24:23,440 --> 00:24:27,720 Speaker 5: Like I'm in my forties, just got my physical a 541 00:24:27,840 --> 00:24:32,560 Speaker 5: couple of weeks ago, no cholesterol, diabetes, hot blood pressure, 542 00:24:34,160 --> 00:24:37,439 Speaker 5: work out three times a week at he you gangs 543 00:24:37,440 --> 00:24:40,639 Speaker 5: a rapid night. I eat healthy, drink a lot of water, 544 00:24:40,880 --> 00:24:43,280 Speaker 5: don't get enough sleep. But that's like something I can 545 00:24:43,320 --> 00:24:51,960 Speaker 5: work on. But you know, I'm just you know, I'm 546 00:24:51,960 --> 00:24:55,560 Speaker 5: in a I'm in a good I'm in a good place. 547 00:24:56,520 --> 00:24:57,000 Speaker 1: I'm happy. 548 00:24:57,080 --> 00:25:00,080 Speaker 2: Man. No PTSD, no stress, no, no. 549 00:25:00,240 --> 00:25:01,880 Speaker 5: Not that I know of, Like I don't have any 550 00:25:02,000 --> 00:25:06,640 Speaker 5: Like I did take psychology in college, so and I 551 00:25:06,680 --> 00:25:09,720 Speaker 5: loved it. Like when I got in psychology, it wasn't 552 00:25:09,720 --> 00:25:12,000 Speaker 5: even my major. I remember changing to the major life 553 00:25:12,840 --> 00:25:16,120 Speaker 5: maybe like I remember finding out something about myself studying 554 00:25:16,119 --> 00:25:17,800 Speaker 5: the actual course, you know what I'm saying. 555 00:25:18,640 --> 00:25:19,800 Speaker 1: And so with me. 556 00:25:22,600 --> 00:25:27,960 Speaker 5: The therapy aspect, you know, I do have like some 557 00:25:28,000 --> 00:25:31,320 Speaker 5: little triggers. I do have triggers, but I want to 558 00:25:31,320 --> 00:25:33,399 Speaker 5: say I'm kind of conscious of them, and I'll probably be. 559 00:25:33,600 --> 00:25:37,080 Speaker 5: I'm probably doing some self evaluation, you know what I mean. 560 00:25:37,119 --> 00:25:39,600 Speaker 5: I hadn't sat down and really liked kicked it off. 561 00:25:39,920 --> 00:25:40,240 Speaker 1: I don't know. 562 00:25:40,280 --> 00:25:42,439 Speaker 5: I'm not against therapy though, I'm not against therapy. But 563 00:25:42,480 --> 00:25:44,480 Speaker 5: I have went through things and I've gotten over them 564 00:25:44,520 --> 00:25:47,600 Speaker 5: and I've moved on. And I went through some dramatic 565 00:25:47,600 --> 00:25:50,000 Speaker 5: stuff too. But I just feel like God, when you 566 00:25:50,119 --> 00:25:52,080 Speaker 5: I feel I believe so much in God that I 567 00:25:52,160 --> 00:25:54,680 Speaker 5: just didn't didn't let that hold me back. I didn't 568 00:25:54,720 --> 00:25:56,679 Speaker 5: let it bring me PTSD. I ain't like, man, you 569 00:25:56,680 --> 00:25:59,360 Speaker 5: know what happened to me. I'm crazy, Like I ain't. 570 00:26:01,960 --> 00:26:05,120 Speaker 5: People need excuses to be you know, man, you don't 571 00:26:05,160 --> 00:26:07,720 Speaker 5: even know. Man, I was, you know, and I ain't 572 00:26:07,800 --> 00:26:08,120 Speaker 5: on that. 573 00:26:08,200 --> 00:26:10,919 Speaker 9: You know, I know that you see that you're deeply 574 00:26:10,960 --> 00:26:13,520 Speaker 9: grounded in family. Came here with your family. How did 575 00:26:13,560 --> 00:26:16,919 Speaker 9: you know that your wife, Keisha was the person that 576 00:26:16,960 --> 00:26:17,760 Speaker 9: got intended for you? 577 00:26:17,880 --> 00:26:21,000 Speaker 1: Something told me, something told me she was the one key. 578 00:26:21,040 --> 00:26:21,640 Speaker 1: She used to write. 579 00:26:22,240 --> 00:26:24,040 Speaker 5: She still does, but she you know, I said this, 580 00:26:24,480 --> 00:26:25,480 Speaker 5: she used to go to church and she used to 581 00:26:25,520 --> 00:26:28,960 Speaker 5: write notes, and I was like, okay, and like real 582 00:26:29,000 --> 00:26:33,000 Speaker 5: life then the powerpoints type of stuff of like what 583 00:26:33,280 --> 00:26:35,520 Speaker 5: they was talking about the church. So I liked that 584 00:26:35,560 --> 00:26:37,119 Speaker 5: she was God fear and I liked that she was 585 00:26:37,160 --> 00:26:42,080 Speaker 5: just a natural beautiful woman inside and out. And you know, 586 00:26:42,640 --> 00:26:46,120 Speaker 5: having somebody like that in the industry, it's like being 587 00:26:46,160 --> 00:26:48,080 Speaker 5: in the industry and having you know, somebody that you 588 00:26:48,119 --> 00:26:50,360 Speaker 5: care about it is like not the easiest thing to navigate. 589 00:26:50,440 --> 00:26:53,159 Speaker 5: So you got to just you know, for me, just 590 00:26:53,240 --> 00:26:56,040 Speaker 5: keep on the pedestal. Let let her know that she 591 00:26:56,040 --> 00:26:57,440 Speaker 5: she is mine. She's the one point. 592 00:26:58,440 --> 00:27:00,960 Speaker 6: How do you separate the vine and guidance from just 593 00:27:01,000 --> 00:27:02,160 Speaker 6: wanting something really bad? 594 00:27:03,720 --> 00:27:04,480 Speaker 2: That's a good one. 595 00:27:08,680 --> 00:27:09,919 Speaker 9: My question is easier than that. 596 00:27:11,359 --> 00:27:13,840 Speaker 5: You ain't what the heck you're working though you're getting 597 00:27:13,880 --> 00:27:17,680 Speaker 5: what I'm saying, But but it's sty good the divine God. 598 00:27:19,440 --> 00:27:25,080 Speaker 1: Keep going, keep working, you know when people do look 599 00:27:25,080 --> 00:27:29,480 Speaker 1: at your paper, Just keep going. You almost finished the 600 00:27:29,560 --> 00:27:31,119 Speaker 1: divine guidance aspect. 601 00:27:32,119 --> 00:27:34,760 Speaker 5: Or if you just want something, So, if you just 602 00:27:34,800 --> 00:27:36,680 Speaker 5: want something really bad, is that are you saying? 603 00:27:36,680 --> 00:27:38,159 Speaker 1: Like manifesting something? 604 00:27:38,200 --> 00:27:39,639 Speaker 6: You know you have a you have something in your 605 00:27:39,640 --> 00:27:42,119 Speaker 6: mind that you want, like I want this goal, I 606 00:27:42,160 --> 00:27:44,439 Speaker 6: want to accomplishment, accomplish it. But that don't mean that's what 607 00:27:44,480 --> 00:27:45,480 Speaker 6: God wants you to be doing. 608 00:27:50,520 --> 00:27:50,920 Speaker 1: Mm hmm. 609 00:27:53,160 --> 00:27:56,640 Speaker 5: I believe in speaking things into AI do I believe 610 00:27:56,680 --> 00:27:59,520 Speaker 5: in manifestation. Now, if you want to do something that 611 00:27:59,520 --> 00:28:01,639 Speaker 5: don't got love and I believe like he don't got 612 00:28:01,720 --> 00:28:03,960 Speaker 5: nothing to do with I say, God is love. 613 00:28:04,040 --> 00:28:04,920 Speaker 1: God equals love. 614 00:28:05,040 --> 00:28:07,240 Speaker 5: So you might want to be on some that ain't 615 00:28:07,280 --> 00:28:08,800 Speaker 5: got nothing to do with love, and he not going 616 00:28:08,840 --> 00:28:11,600 Speaker 5: to answer the phone for that. But if you want 617 00:28:11,680 --> 00:28:14,560 Speaker 5: something and they got love attached to it too. I 618 00:28:14,600 --> 00:28:17,159 Speaker 5: think he'll answer and listen. I mean, you already know 619 00:28:17,200 --> 00:28:19,639 Speaker 5: what's going on. So that's my personal because I have 620 00:28:19,760 --> 00:28:21,520 Speaker 5: one of some of them. Another thing is we have 621 00:28:21,560 --> 00:28:24,520 Speaker 5: to teach some of the youth the difference between needs 622 00:28:24,560 --> 00:28:26,399 Speaker 5: and wants. I think they got it, like some of 623 00:28:26,400 --> 00:28:28,720 Speaker 5: it confused, you know what I'm saying. And it's a difference. 624 00:28:28,800 --> 00:28:31,399 Speaker 7: So how have you always Because every interview I watched 625 00:28:31,440 --> 00:28:33,480 Speaker 7: you and I know we talked that culture kind before too. 626 00:28:33,680 --> 00:28:35,840 Speaker 1: I feel that was good. Thank you, no, thank you. 627 00:28:36,200 --> 00:28:38,240 Speaker 7: I feel like every time I listen to you speak, 628 00:28:38,280 --> 00:28:40,640 Speaker 7: even when you were younger, it seems like you always 629 00:28:40,720 --> 00:28:43,480 Speaker 7: understood the difference between your needs and your wants and 630 00:28:43,800 --> 00:28:46,760 Speaker 7: separated the two. How did you have that so young? 631 00:28:47,000 --> 00:28:50,120 Speaker 7: Like doing so many different things from college to being 632 00:28:50,160 --> 00:28:51,800 Speaker 7: in streets. 633 00:28:51,120 --> 00:28:53,240 Speaker 5: Like So I'm going to tell you another pop story. 634 00:28:53,320 --> 00:28:56,520 Speaker 5: So Pop, my pop used to go in the store. 635 00:28:56,560 --> 00:28:59,600 Speaker 5: He used to steal, and then he used to get 636 00:28:59,600 --> 00:29:02,160 Speaker 5: mad at me because he would just stop abruptly, and 637 00:29:02,160 --> 00:29:03,960 Speaker 5: then I would hit him in the back of the 638 00:29:03,960 --> 00:29:06,800 Speaker 5: achilles with like the buggy. When I him in the 639 00:29:06,840 --> 00:29:08,200 Speaker 5: back of the leg with the buget heud get mad 640 00:29:08,200 --> 00:29:10,520 Speaker 5: as hell, and so then I'll get like thirty feet 641 00:29:10,520 --> 00:29:13,240 Speaker 5: away from him, and then we're getting the car and 642 00:29:13,280 --> 00:29:16,560 Speaker 5: he'll start taking stuff like out his sock. He would, 643 00:29:16,600 --> 00:29:18,600 Speaker 5: you know, the long socking. He puts stuff on his jean. 644 00:29:19,480 --> 00:29:27,560 Speaker 5: And then he told me, he said, he told me, kids, 645 00:29:27,560 --> 00:29:29,840 Speaker 5: don't listen to me or my pops on this, because 646 00:29:29,880 --> 00:29:32,440 Speaker 5: now I listen to it don't make sense, But he said, steal, 647 00:29:33,800 --> 00:29:36,760 Speaker 5: steal what you need, not what you want. And so 648 00:29:37,760 --> 00:29:41,280 Speaker 5: he was going to the store and steal like things 649 00:29:41,280 --> 00:29:42,760 Speaker 5: that he felt like we need for the house, whether 650 00:29:42,800 --> 00:29:43,200 Speaker 5: it was. 651 00:29:44,680 --> 00:29:46,080 Speaker 1: Taller trees or whatever it was. 652 00:29:46,120 --> 00:29:47,719 Speaker 5: You know what I'm saying, It'll be that it wouldn't 653 00:29:47,760 --> 00:29:51,520 Speaker 5: be like snacks or or gum or nothing like that. 654 00:29:51,640 --> 00:29:53,960 Speaker 2: And that makes perfect sense to me. 655 00:29:54,320 --> 00:29:56,080 Speaker 5: Yeah, but you don't want people to think, man, I 656 00:29:56,120 --> 00:29:57,840 Speaker 5: need this watch, you know what I'm saying, Because that's 657 00:29:57,840 --> 00:29:59,360 Speaker 5: why I say, they don't know what needs. 658 00:29:59,200 --> 00:29:59,760 Speaker 1: And wants are. 659 00:30:00,160 --> 00:30:03,680 Speaker 5: But my pop, so for a long time, I used 660 00:30:03,760 --> 00:30:06,280 Speaker 5: to steal stuff, you know, but I would stand in 661 00:30:06,320 --> 00:30:08,360 Speaker 5: line with a pack of gum on everything I love. 662 00:30:08,400 --> 00:30:10,120 Speaker 5: I'll just be like, I'll just be waiting to pay 663 00:30:10,160 --> 00:30:11,080 Speaker 5: for the gum. 664 00:30:11,120 --> 00:30:12,400 Speaker 1: You know what I'm saying. But if it was something I. 665 00:30:12,320 --> 00:30:14,280 Speaker 5: Needed, I already had it home, Like I really need this, 666 00:30:14,360 --> 00:30:16,240 Speaker 5: I take that and couldn't afford it, I would take it. 667 00:30:17,720 --> 00:30:21,480 Speaker 4: You think reading the book, right, do you think God 668 00:30:21,800 --> 00:30:22,720 Speaker 4: gave you the plugs? 669 00:30:25,040 --> 00:30:25,280 Speaker 1: Yeah? 670 00:30:28,440 --> 00:30:33,239 Speaker 4: You TraFi, you think God gave you read it. He 671 00:30:33,280 --> 00:30:34,560 Speaker 4: was like, it was a blessing that got the plug. 672 00:30:34,560 --> 00:30:35,520 Speaker 4: God gave me this plug. 673 00:30:35,560 --> 00:30:38,360 Speaker 3: I'm like, because your plug. 674 00:30:38,080 --> 00:30:40,600 Speaker 1: Could be how have you got this job? Whatever? You 675 00:30:40,640 --> 00:30:44,840 Speaker 1: know got opening up so many doors for me? But yes, 676 00:30:44,880 --> 00:30:45,520 Speaker 1: how I got it? 677 00:30:45,640 --> 00:30:47,520 Speaker 5: And so many people that do what I do never 678 00:30:47,600 --> 00:30:50,360 Speaker 5: had a plug, and they'll tell you how miserable their 679 00:30:50,440 --> 00:30:53,720 Speaker 5: hustling experience was. Once you get somebody that you can call. 680 00:30:54,480 --> 00:30:57,240 Speaker 5: And this is just once again, this is my These 681 00:30:57,240 --> 00:30:59,400 Speaker 5: are my theories, right, you know what I'm saying. But 682 00:30:59,560 --> 00:31:01,720 Speaker 5: I I'm not looking for a plug. 683 00:31:01,800 --> 00:31:05,400 Speaker 1: I find this guy that essentially helped change the way 684 00:31:05,600 --> 00:31:07,720 Speaker 1: I was moving and living up to now. 685 00:31:08,120 --> 00:31:09,880 Speaker 2: It was a little finesse in one of your plugs. 686 00:31:09,880 --> 00:31:14,360 Speaker 5: Now, yeah it was a little little Yeah that was finesse. Yes, 687 00:31:14,520 --> 00:31:16,960 Speaker 5: that was finesse, but it was it was It was 688 00:31:17,000 --> 00:31:18,320 Speaker 5: a sign of intelligence too. 689 00:31:21,640 --> 00:31:24,840 Speaker 1: It was the signs of intelligence, right because. 690 00:31:24,760 --> 00:31:28,320 Speaker 5: I'm able to I'm hearing what's going on, and I 691 00:31:28,360 --> 00:31:30,240 Speaker 5: know how important it is to have one because I don't. 692 00:31:30,280 --> 00:31:31,960 Speaker 5: At this point, I already had a plug. So I'm 693 00:31:32,000 --> 00:31:35,480 Speaker 5: hearing like so, I'm like, so I didn't even take 694 00:31:35,560 --> 00:31:38,680 Speaker 5: buddy plug. That's just kind of like would come in 695 00:31:38,680 --> 00:31:43,920 Speaker 5: the street. I never was like a person that robbed anybody. 696 00:31:42,760 --> 00:31:45,040 Speaker 2: I won't say this. 697 00:31:45,080 --> 00:31:47,080 Speaker 6: The reason I do agree with him when he said 698 00:31:47,680 --> 00:31:50,320 Speaker 6: for him, for him because he was the weed man. 699 00:31:51,160 --> 00:31:53,520 Speaker 2: We man different than like the other guy that's telling 700 00:31:53,560 --> 00:31:54,040 Speaker 2: the hardship. 701 00:31:54,160 --> 00:31:58,760 Speaker 1: We man. Weed brings you love, you know, weed man man, 702 00:31:58,800 --> 00:31:59,880 Speaker 1: and you know how it is you. 703 00:32:01,240 --> 00:32:05,040 Speaker 5: I mean, you get a feature. I was smoking. We 704 00:32:05,040 --> 00:32:06,920 Speaker 5: were then artist. When you're coming up when you smoke 705 00:32:07,280 --> 00:32:08,040 Speaker 5: like man, it's pretty good. 706 00:32:08,120 --> 00:32:08,600 Speaker 1: Let's wrap. 707 00:32:08,680 --> 00:32:11,360 Speaker 5: You know, things can happen man, you know. So it 708 00:32:11,440 --> 00:32:14,520 Speaker 5: helped me out tremendously. I got some of my stuff 709 00:32:14,520 --> 00:32:19,320 Speaker 5: may sound really really off, but if you just if 710 00:32:19,320 --> 00:32:21,160 Speaker 5: I have Charlemagne with me, he'll help you. 711 00:32:23,560 --> 00:32:23,840 Speaker 2: I read. 712 00:32:23,840 --> 00:32:25,440 Speaker 3: I'm like, God gave me the plug, like. 713 00:32:25,600 --> 00:32:28,000 Speaker 2: Well, he was the weed man. That's the difference. 714 00:32:28,560 --> 00:32:30,200 Speaker 1: A man different when you got that. 715 00:32:31,800 --> 00:32:34,160 Speaker 7: Everybody has those experiences though, where you're like, yo, if 716 00:32:34,200 --> 00:32:36,040 Speaker 7: I had to talk about this again, nobody would be 717 00:32:36,160 --> 00:32:38,400 Speaker 7: But I think that's favor too. Like I was watching 718 00:32:38,400 --> 00:32:42,000 Speaker 7: a sermon yesterday and Pastor Mike, like Junior, he was saying, 719 00:32:42,360 --> 00:32:44,560 Speaker 7: you're yes to God breaks cycles and then that comes 720 00:32:44,560 --> 00:32:46,800 Speaker 7: with a whole level of divine favor that like you 721 00:32:46,840 --> 00:32:48,800 Speaker 7: couldn't even explain it to people and the feeling of 722 00:32:48,840 --> 00:32:50,800 Speaker 7: it if you try to. And a lot of your 723 00:32:50,800 --> 00:32:53,080 Speaker 7: story is that it's like you have this personal one 724 00:32:53,080 --> 00:32:54,880 Speaker 7: on one that like we would never really get. It's 725 00:32:54,920 --> 00:32:55,440 Speaker 7: funny to hear. 726 00:32:55,560 --> 00:33:00,640 Speaker 5: But the story about my dad cross snow, it's something 727 00:33:00,640 --> 00:33:03,760 Speaker 5: I never knew how to even tell nobody. You had 728 00:33:03,800 --> 00:33:07,280 Speaker 5: to be like I probably told eight people my whole life, 729 00:33:07,320 --> 00:33:09,720 Speaker 5: and this happened in twenty fifteen. I just showed my 730 00:33:09,800 --> 00:33:12,240 Speaker 5: kids recently because I thought that they would be you 731 00:33:12,240 --> 00:33:12,760 Speaker 5: know ready. 732 00:33:12,800 --> 00:33:17,280 Speaker 1: So yeah, yeah. 733 00:33:16,840 --> 00:33:19,040 Speaker 2: But you even named all your kids something spiritual. 734 00:33:19,760 --> 00:33:22,040 Speaker 5: Well, Keisha started off, she named our first baby Heaven. 735 00:33:22,440 --> 00:33:25,720 Speaker 5: She named the first two Heaven Harmony, and then I 736 00:33:25,760 --> 00:33:26,560 Speaker 5: came with the halo. 737 00:33:27,520 --> 00:33:31,400 Speaker 1: I sprinkled that south Side. That's fine. 738 00:33:32,000 --> 00:33:35,520 Speaker 6: How has emotional maturity changed the way you hear that 739 00:33:35,560 --> 00:33:36,840 Speaker 6: inner voice, that. 740 00:33:36,840 --> 00:33:38,160 Speaker 1: Emotional maturity change. 741 00:33:38,160 --> 00:33:41,960 Speaker 5: How I hear the inner voice, my emotional maturity change, how. 742 00:33:41,880 --> 00:33:43,480 Speaker 9: I hear MYO. 743 00:33:44,680 --> 00:33:50,160 Speaker 5: Uh oh, yeah, I can answer that. So my emotional 744 00:33:50,240 --> 00:33:54,720 Speaker 5: maturity changed how I heard the inner voice because I'm 745 00:33:54,760 --> 00:33:59,320 Speaker 5: able to want one decipher if it's love or hate, 746 00:33:59,760 --> 00:34:01,960 Speaker 5: because cause we all got a fucking voice too. We 747 00:34:02,000 --> 00:34:04,480 Speaker 5: all got a voice that we've all said fucking and 748 00:34:04,560 --> 00:34:07,720 Speaker 5: done and done some things, and some it sometimes came 749 00:34:07,760 --> 00:34:09,600 Speaker 5: back to bite us in the button sometimes it happened. 750 00:34:09,719 --> 00:34:12,640 Speaker 5: But right now, I think with the emotional intelligence, it 751 00:34:12,680 --> 00:34:14,959 Speaker 5: comes with it comes with growth, it comes with age, 752 00:34:15,000 --> 00:34:17,000 Speaker 5: and it comes with experience, right and it just comes 753 00:34:17,000 --> 00:34:19,120 Speaker 5: with life. It comes with life situations, it comes with 754 00:34:19,160 --> 00:34:21,759 Speaker 5: life choices. And so for some of the things that 755 00:34:21,800 --> 00:34:24,040 Speaker 5: I touched on in this book, you literally have to 756 00:34:24,120 --> 00:34:27,040 Speaker 5: live long enough. Like this book can't be written by 757 00:34:27,200 --> 00:34:29,560 Speaker 5: a teenager or somebody in their twenties. This is my 758 00:34:29,600 --> 00:34:33,200 Speaker 5: personal opinion. This book is like experience based. At the 759 00:34:33,239 --> 00:34:35,960 Speaker 5: same time, I'm just not running off some ideas and 760 00:34:36,000 --> 00:34:39,840 Speaker 5: stuff like this. This is this is stuff that you 761 00:34:39,880 --> 00:34:43,080 Speaker 5: know I've been through, or someone that's been through, or 762 00:34:43,719 --> 00:34:46,560 Speaker 5: you know something and there was a voice there. It 763 00:34:46,680 --> 00:34:50,360 Speaker 5: was a voice there during all of these situations. 764 00:34:51,520 --> 00:34:53,160 Speaker 6: Has there ever been a time where that voice led 765 00:34:53,200 --> 00:34:54,760 Speaker 6: you somewhere painful? 766 00:34:54,800 --> 00:34:56,600 Speaker 2: But you but you realized it was necessary. 767 00:34:56,760 --> 00:34:58,719 Speaker 6: And I don't mean by not listening to it, like 768 00:34:58,800 --> 00:35:00,560 Speaker 6: you actually listen to it in this still let you 769 00:35:00,600 --> 00:35:03,239 Speaker 6: somewhere where you was like, it's not what I thought 770 00:35:03,320 --> 00:35:03,799 Speaker 6: was gonna happen. 771 00:35:04,760 --> 00:35:08,040 Speaker 1: Mm hmm. When I listened to my voice, I have listen, bro, 772 00:35:08,120 --> 00:35:09,759 Speaker 1: this is This is how insane it is. 773 00:35:10,000 --> 00:35:13,279 Speaker 5: I listened to it. It'll tell me what time to 774 00:35:13,320 --> 00:35:14,839 Speaker 5: go to the gym, tell me what time to lead 775 00:35:14,920 --> 00:35:16,719 Speaker 5: to go get my son. They'll tell me what right, 776 00:35:16,920 --> 00:35:22,879 Speaker 5: what route to take him. It'll tell me what tell 777 00:35:22,920 --> 00:35:25,799 Speaker 5: me what we need to eat, what he needs to eat. 778 00:35:25,880 --> 00:35:28,920 Speaker 5: It'll tell me what route to go home. I can 779 00:35:28,920 --> 00:35:30,960 Speaker 5: go home three or four different ways. They tell me 780 00:35:31,000 --> 00:35:32,640 Speaker 5: that man, don't go that way, Man go this way. 781 00:35:32,680 --> 00:35:32,879 Speaker 1: Man. 782 00:35:32,920 --> 00:35:36,279 Speaker 5: And and this has been happening for a long time, 783 00:35:36,280 --> 00:35:37,680 Speaker 5: but I ain' used to pay no attention. Util I 784 00:35:37,760 --> 00:35:39,480 Speaker 5: ran into a road block and you'd be like, oh, man, 785 00:35:39,520 --> 00:35:39,799 Speaker 5: I know. 786 00:35:39,760 --> 00:35:41,200 Speaker 1: I shouldn't have came this way. You know what I'm saying. 787 00:35:41,239 --> 00:35:42,800 Speaker 1: But this was early on, when I was maneuvern. 788 00:35:42,880 --> 00:35:51,719 Speaker 5: But the voice is something that I that I hear 789 00:35:51,760 --> 00:35:55,359 Speaker 5: a lot that it was hard for me to really 790 00:35:55,480 --> 00:36:00,279 Speaker 5: articulate without saying I had an imaginary friend of something 791 00:36:00,320 --> 00:36:01,719 Speaker 5: like that when I'm sitting in the corner and I'm 792 00:36:01,719 --> 00:36:03,759 Speaker 5: going back and forth and I'm ide eight between me 793 00:36:03,840 --> 00:36:07,040 Speaker 5: and my voice. But I think it was very important 794 00:36:07,160 --> 00:36:10,120 Speaker 5: at this time for me to write this literature because 795 00:36:10,160 --> 00:36:13,120 Speaker 5: I feel like it's gonna help if it helps one person, 796 00:36:13,120 --> 00:36:16,600 Speaker 5: which I've already received multiple text messages from people who 797 00:36:16,640 --> 00:36:21,320 Speaker 5: got advanced copies on the voice in their head and 798 00:36:21,400 --> 00:36:24,400 Speaker 5: the something told me and them listening more closely. 799 00:36:24,480 --> 00:36:27,840 Speaker 1: So that's what this is for. That's why the timing 800 00:36:27,960 --> 00:36:28,319 Speaker 1: is for. 801 00:36:29,360 --> 00:36:31,560 Speaker 5: You know, I've been in front of you guys many 802 00:36:31,560 --> 00:36:34,719 Speaker 5: a times talking about many of different projects, but I 803 00:36:34,840 --> 00:36:36,960 Speaker 5: just keep going into my creative bag coming up with 804 00:36:37,000 --> 00:36:39,840 Speaker 5: something that I think can help my community. This is 805 00:36:39,880 --> 00:36:42,440 Speaker 5: like a community outreach project. This is for my community. Bro, 806 00:36:42,880 --> 00:36:45,480 Speaker 5: It's like this for my community. People give away turkeys, 807 00:36:45,560 --> 00:36:48,400 Speaker 5: people do all kinds of stuff. This book is for 808 00:36:48,480 --> 00:36:51,040 Speaker 5: my community. I feel like I've been just holding on 809 00:36:51,080 --> 00:36:55,560 Speaker 5: hoarding like this secret, sauce, this secret like man Tony, 810 00:36:55,600 --> 00:36:57,839 Speaker 5: how you keep I got partner, man, How you keep man, 811 00:36:57,840 --> 00:37:01,799 Speaker 5: what I'm telling you, man, try and try and try 812 00:37:01,840 --> 00:37:04,719 Speaker 5: and try, just try, just try try two weeks, like, 813 00:37:05,320 --> 00:37:05,680 Speaker 5: just try. 814 00:37:06,280 --> 00:37:08,080 Speaker 3: Did you really think you were Michael Jackson. 815 00:37:09,040 --> 00:37:11,960 Speaker 1: Mm hmm. I was just messing with my mama. My mama, 816 00:37:12,040 --> 00:37:12,719 Speaker 1: My mama. 817 00:37:12,480 --> 00:37:14,719 Speaker 5: Got she she she been with my daddy this whole time, 818 00:37:14,760 --> 00:37:19,600 Speaker 5: so she knows sarcasm, right. So I had, you know, 819 00:37:19,640 --> 00:37:22,320 Speaker 5: I broke my broke my elbow and my knee. But 820 00:37:22,400 --> 00:37:24,120 Speaker 5: they put my they'll just put me to sleep, apop 821 00:37:24,200 --> 00:37:25,200 Speaker 5: my elbow back in place. 822 00:37:25,239 --> 00:37:25,520 Speaker 1: Boom. 823 00:37:25,560 --> 00:37:27,320 Speaker 5: And it's on her birthday. She done left her birthday 824 00:37:27,320 --> 00:37:29,879 Speaker 5: party being in the hospital with me. So I'm coming 825 00:37:29,960 --> 00:37:31,480 Speaker 5: up out of the anesthesia and they're. 826 00:37:31,280 --> 00:37:34,520 Speaker 1: Like, miss you okay, missed up, You're okay. I'm like, yeah, yeah, 827 00:37:35,200 --> 00:37:35,719 Speaker 1: mister up. 828 00:37:36,280 --> 00:37:38,160 Speaker 5: And I kind of look over I look over there, 829 00:37:38,200 --> 00:37:40,080 Speaker 5: I see you my mom. I see my mom, Like 830 00:37:40,239 --> 00:37:43,680 Speaker 5: you're okay, and like yeah, like, what's your name? Say 831 00:37:43,719 --> 00:37:50,120 Speaker 5: your whole name? I said, Michael Jackson. She said, I'm 832 00:37:50,120 --> 00:37:54,840 Speaker 5: getting an up. She got up and left. Man, I 833 00:37:54,840 --> 00:37:58,040 Speaker 5: don't know, I don't know, man. I'm an optimistic person. Man, 834 00:37:58,040 --> 00:38:00,640 Speaker 5: I'm just optimistic if something bad happened me. I just 835 00:38:01,480 --> 00:38:03,319 Speaker 5: I turn it over. I just try to find the good. 836 00:38:03,320 --> 00:38:05,080 Speaker 5: And it's some good in here somewhere. It got to be, 837 00:38:05,440 --> 00:38:06,040 Speaker 5: you know what I mean. 838 00:38:06,600 --> 00:38:09,319 Speaker 6: You talk about rebranding and reinvention a lot in the book, like, 839 00:38:09,560 --> 00:38:12,160 Speaker 6: do you ever worry that when you are constantly evolving 840 00:38:12,239 --> 00:38:14,359 Speaker 6: can disconnect you from your from your core? 841 00:38:15,120 --> 00:38:16,840 Speaker 1: No, you have to do that, You have to. I 842 00:38:16,880 --> 00:38:17,120 Speaker 1: have to. 843 00:38:17,480 --> 00:38:19,759 Speaker 5: I'm showing people, but I'm not like being preachy when 844 00:38:19,760 --> 00:38:21,759 Speaker 5: I'm showing people how to move and how businesses move. 845 00:38:21,800 --> 00:38:25,160 Speaker 5: If you look up McDonald's sprites, everybody rebrands. They don't 846 00:38:25,320 --> 00:38:27,879 Speaker 5: exactly change their name, but they rebrand, they change the arts, 847 00:38:27,880 --> 00:38:29,640 Speaker 5: they do something they you know what I mean. And 848 00:38:29,680 --> 00:38:31,360 Speaker 5: so for me, I'm a business. Two change is a 849 00:38:31,360 --> 00:38:33,759 Speaker 5: brand and I have a new logo. I got a 850 00:38:33,760 --> 00:38:36,040 Speaker 5: new logo. I'm about to launch, you know, this week 851 00:38:36,080 --> 00:38:38,000 Speaker 5: or next week. So for me, you know, I've been 852 00:38:38,040 --> 00:38:41,120 Speaker 5: too changed. Titty Boy, met Tony and Janie's son, I'm hell, 853 00:38:41,160 --> 00:38:44,440 Speaker 5: we've killer. But I mean I'm looking at other successful 854 00:38:44,440 --> 00:38:47,560 Speaker 5: people that pull this stuff before. I mean, I know 855 00:38:47,680 --> 00:38:50,920 Speaker 5: Jay has a couple of names. A couple people I 856 00:38:50,960 --> 00:38:52,960 Speaker 5: know have a couple of names, and it's just like 857 00:38:53,000 --> 00:38:56,279 Speaker 5: a part of me. I'm also giving that knowledge. I 858 00:38:56,320 --> 00:38:58,239 Speaker 5: was like, man, I got some game, and sometimes this 859 00:38:58,280 --> 00:38:59,880 Speaker 5: book is a way to spread it to the masses 860 00:38:59,880 --> 00:39:02,080 Speaker 5: and instead of just talking to one individual. So I 861 00:39:02,080 --> 00:39:04,120 Speaker 5: think it's important that you know a lot of people 862 00:39:04,120 --> 00:39:06,160 Speaker 5: be like man. You know, I've had artists asked me 863 00:39:06,160 --> 00:39:07,879 Speaker 5: should they changed their name? You know what I'm saying, 864 00:39:07,880 --> 00:39:09,719 Speaker 5: Should I change my name? Like I know you did it, bro, 865 00:39:09,840 --> 00:39:11,239 Speaker 5: you know what I mean? And stuff like that. So 866 00:39:11,640 --> 00:39:13,600 Speaker 5: it's whatever works for you. But I think it's important 867 00:39:13,600 --> 00:39:18,560 Speaker 5: that you you revisit your brand every three to five years. 868 00:39:19,760 --> 00:39:20,440 Speaker 1: Three to five. 869 00:39:20,360 --> 00:39:22,399 Speaker 5: Years, that's mine. I go in there and I see 870 00:39:22,440 --> 00:39:24,080 Speaker 5: what I can tweet, turn do whatever. 871 00:39:24,719 --> 00:39:27,480 Speaker 6: I love the book man, because you make you make ambition. 872 00:39:28,040 --> 00:39:30,960 Speaker 6: You look at it as something spiritual, like I think 873 00:39:31,000 --> 00:39:34,600 Speaker 6: sometimes people have this this hunger and they dress it 874 00:39:34,680 --> 00:39:38,320 Speaker 6: up as faith. But like to me, you actually approach 875 00:39:38,600 --> 00:39:40,719 Speaker 6: ambition as something spiritual. 876 00:39:41,040 --> 00:39:46,520 Speaker 1: Can we can't You can't buy ambition. You can't go 877 00:39:46,640 --> 00:39:48,440 Speaker 1: to Amazon. You lazy. 878 00:39:48,480 --> 00:39:52,120 Speaker 5: You need some take something to give you. You taking 879 00:39:52,120 --> 00:39:54,080 Speaker 5: something to get you injured. But that ain't the ambition. 880 00:39:54,880 --> 00:39:55,560 Speaker 5: You know what I'm saying. 881 00:39:55,920 --> 00:39:58,279 Speaker 1: I got that. I got the self motivation. You know 882 00:39:58,320 --> 00:39:58,759 Speaker 1: what I'm saying. 883 00:39:58,800 --> 00:40:02,759 Speaker 5: I the boys starts there, anybody to get your ass up. 884 00:40:02,840 --> 00:40:04,560 Speaker 5: You ain't got no big home, You ain't got nobody's 885 00:40:04,560 --> 00:40:05,920 Speaker 5: gonna do this for you, ain't got no friend you 886 00:40:05,920 --> 00:40:08,319 Speaker 5: can call on. You ain't got nobody. So like it 887 00:40:08,360 --> 00:40:12,400 Speaker 5: all falls on me. So yeah, I'm operating and definitely 888 00:40:12,440 --> 00:40:13,000 Speaker 5: in that space. 889 00:40:14,400 --> 00:40:15,719 Speaker 6: The one thing I wanted you to talk about in 890 00:40:15,719 --> 00:40:18,680 Speaker 6: the book is why you chose Alabama because over South 891 00:40:18,719 --> 00:40:19,319 Speaker 6: Carolina State. 892 00:40:20,400 --> 00:40:21,480 Speaker 3: Did you talk about it in the book. 893 00:40:21,560 --> 00:40:25,160 Speaker 5: No, So I got recruited by South Carolina South Carolina State. 894 00:40:25,320 --> 00:40:27,000 Speaker 5: I was going to Memphis. When I got I was 895 00:40:27,040 --> 00:40:28,799 Speaker 5: going to Memphis. That's what I was gonna commit to. 896 00:40:28,880 --> 00:40:31,920 Speaker 5: I like Memphis because Penny Hardaway had went there. I 897 00:40:31,960 --> 00:40:35,200 Speaker 5: was like this little skinny, scrowny point guard two guard, 898 00:40:35,320 --> 00:40:38,680 Speaker 5: and I just wanted to just following those steps. So 899 00:40:39,640 --> 00:40:43,040 Speaker 5: when I got locked up in high school, Alabama State 900 00:40:43,160 --> 00:40:44,520 Speaker 5: was the first school they called me. 901 00:40:44,640 --> 00:40:46,239 Speaker 1: They got in touch with me. They called me. 902 00:40:46,280 --> 00:40:51,279 Speaker 5: They were very like, you know, compassionate about what I 903 00:40:51,320 --> 00:40:53,640 Speaker 5: went through, and they offered me a full ride scholarship. 904 00:40:53,719 --> 00:40:56,120 Speaker 5: I already had the grades they offered me a full 905 00:40:56,200 --> 00:40:59,920 Speaker 5: ride scholarship. And they also I had peers that went 906 00:41:00,040 --> 00:41:01,920 Speaker 5: down there from my school life, so I knew some 907 00:41:02,120 --> 00:41:04,839 Speaker 5: knew some kids down there. It was two hours from 908 00:41:04,840 --> 00:41:09,040 Speaker 5: the house. And you know in the book, first chapter two, 909 00:41:09,120 --> 00:41:10,759 Speaker 5: I went down there playing. I went down to the 910 00:41:10,840 --> 00:41:12,320 Speaker 5: plane when I first went down there, at them you 911 00:41:12,400 --> 00:41:14,279 Speaker 5: know the Alabama boy they show they see it being 912 00:41:15,040 --> 00:41:18,160 Speaker 5: and I ended up going down there, and then I 913 00:41:18,200 --> 00:41:21,160 Speaker 5: lost my love for basketball the same year I went 914 00:41:21,200 --> 00:41:24,040 Speaker 5: down there because the coaches that called me and they 915 00:41:24,080 --> 00:41:26,560 Speaker 5: were so excited about having the opportunity to work with me, 916 00:41:26,600 --> 00:41:30,080 Speaker 5: they got fired. New coaches came in, New coaches came in, 917 00:41:30,160 --> 00:41:33,120 Speaker 5: they brought players in, and then I just remember my 918 00:41:34,239 --> 00:41:37,520 Speaker 5: passion for hooping starting to diminish, because at this point 919 00:41:37,560 --> 00:41:38,920 Speaker 5: I still wasn't like rapping or anything. 920 00:41:38,960 --> 00:41:40,560 Speaker 1: I was just like trapping and hooping. 921 00:41:41,280 --> 00:41:42,920 Speaker 4: Yeah, because in the book, I thought you said that 922 00:41:42,920 --> 00:41:44,839 Speaker 4: in the book because you said it was somebody knew 923 00:41:44,840 --> 00:41:45,920 Speaker 4: down there and it was close to. 924 00:41:45,840 --> 00:41:48,319 Speaker 3: The close to the crib, and you said you. 925 00:41:48,280 --> 00:41:51,120 Speaker 4: Started playing ball, and then what really turned you on 926 00:41:51,200 --> 00:41:52,840 Speaker 4: You said it was when the flood happened. 927 00:41:53,280 --> 00:41:54,800 Speaker 1: Yeah, yeah, yeah, yeah, yeah yeah. 928 00:41:54,640 --> 00:41:57,839 Speaker 5: My dorm well my dorm flooded, But that just made 929 00:41:57,920 --> 00:42:00,479 Speaker 5: me get a spot off campus. You know, I still 930 00:42:00,600 --> 00:42:04,160 Speaker 5: was dealing in the parameters of a student athlete. I 931 00:42:04,200 --> 00:42:06,239 Speaker 5: still was I was I was going to class, you know, 932 00:42:06,600 --> 00:42:08,360 Speaker 5: I was going to class. I was doing everything. I 933 00:42:08,480 --> 00:42:12,399 Speaker 5: just I'm already living a certain lifestyle. I'm already got 934 00:42:12,440 --> 00:42:14,000 Speaker 5: a little hustle going I go down there. I got 935 00:42:14,000 --> 00:42:16,960 Speaker 5: three cars already. I'm literally driving a different car Monday, Wednesday, 936 00:42:17,000 --> 00:42:19,160 Speaker 5: and Friday, just because I can. I'm on that type 937 00:42:19,160 --> 00:42:22,840 Speaker 5: of time and so but I'm I'm a I'm a 938 00:42:23,000 --> 00:42:25,000 Speaker 5: learning junkie too. I love to learn even now I 939 00:42:25,040 --> 00:42:28,160 Speaker 5: love I mean, learning is so fast right now, is insane, 940 00:42:28,200 --> 00:42:29,680 Speaker 5: you know what I'm saying, like trying to learn what's 941 00:42:29,719 --> 00:42:32,879 Speaker 5: going on in the words. But you know, originally meant 942 00:42:32,920 --> 00:42:35,080 Speaker 5: I enjoyed learning new information. I just you know what 943 00:42:35,120 --> 00:42:36,360 Speaker 5: I mean, I love it. So it was never a 944 00:42:36,440 --> 00:42:39,200 Speaker 5: situation where I if I wasn't on campus, I wasn't 945 00:42:39,239 --> 00:42:40,880 Speaker 5: gonna go to school. I still was going to handle 946 00:42:40,880 --> 00:42:43,319 Speaker 5: my responsibility. So I just talk about that in the 947 00:42:43,320 --> 00:42:46,359 Speaker 5: books as wonder, and that's that's one of the things 948 00:42:46,400 --> 00:42:48,440 Speaker 5: that push me into being independent too. You go to 949 00:42:48,520 --> 00:42:51,480 Speaker 5: college you know, you stay on campus. Then when you 950 00:42:51,480 --> 00:42:53,600 Speaker 5: get your crib off, this is your first home. This 951 00:42:53,640 --> 00:42:54,280 Speaker 5: is your crib. 952 00:42:54,400 --> 00:42:56,839 Speaker 1: You know, you start becoming, like, you know, a grown up. 953 00:42:57,640 --> 00:42:59,319 Speaker 2: You wouldn't met your queen either if you didn't go down. 954 00:42:59,760 --> 00:43:00,959 Speaker 1: Yeah, yeah, yeah true. 955 00:43:01,560 --> 00:43:03,600 Speaker 6: My last question, if that voice in your head told 956 00:43:03,640 --> 00:43:06,840 Speaker 6: you to walk away from rap tomorrow, would you listen. 957 00:43:07,560 --> 00:43:10,200 Speaker 5: That's a great question because I love rap music so 958 00:43:10,320 --> 00:43:12,719 Speaker 5: much and I feel like, you know, I love it. 959 00:43:12,760 --> 00:43:14,880 Speaker 5: He wouldn't do He wouldn't do that, you know what 960 00:43:14,920 --> 00:43:16,719 Speaker 5: I'm saying. I love it, and one of the things 961 00:43:16,800 --> 00:43:21,320 Speaker 5: I love about it is that I still have good ideas, 962 00:43:22,040 --> 00:43:25,600 Speaker 5: whether for me or anybody else. When I say ideas, 963 00:43:25,600 --> 00:43:28,880 Speaker 5: not just in rap, but after the wrap, the market 964 00:43:28,920 --> 00:43:33,000 Speaker 5: and the title, the fonts, shades like I'm into all 965 00:43:33,080 --> 00:43:34,799 Speaker 5: like even this right here. This is a black artist 966 00:43:34,920 --> 00:43:38,760 Speaker 5: named the Reese He's dope, man. He's just like he's 967 00:43:38,840 --> 00:43:41,200 Speaker 5: not with a gallery or anything. The Reese Walker. I 968 00:43:41,239 --> 00:43:44,319 Speaker 5: found him online. He does this little like pastel dope. 969 00:43:44,360 --> 00:43:46,279 Speaker 5: This is art like he drew. 970 00:43:46,360 --> 00:43:48,200 Speaker 1: He drew this of me. This is not a picture. 971 00:43:48,200 --> 00:43:49,239 Speaker 1: He drew this whole thing. 972 00:43:50,000 --> 00:43:54,560 Speaker 5: And I just like, I just like, I don't know, 973 00:43:54,640 --> 00:43:55,720 Speaker 5: curating dope stuff. 974 00:43:55,760 --> 00:43:57,719 Speaker 2: So and you still do that without rap. 975 00:43:57,800 --> 00:43:59,640 Speaker 5: If God said to jan and I want you to 976 00:43:59,640 --> 00:44:00,960 Speaker 5: put that, if I heard him as clear as you 977 00:44:01,040 --> 00:44:02,800 Speaker 5: saying that, yeah, I probably would because I feel like 978 00:44:02,840 --> 00:44:04,359 Speaker 5: he got something bigger for me. And so he wants 979 00:44:04,400 --> 00:44:06,200 Speaker 5: me to probably start going to sleep at night, getting 980 00:44:06,280 --> 00:44:07,960 Speaker 5: up early or something like that, which I haven't done. 981 00:44:07,960 --> 00:44:11,120 Speaker 5: And since my father passed, I sleep in the daytime. 982 00:44:11,200 --> 00:44:12,160 Speaker 5: Only was sleep at night. 983 00:44:12,280 --> 00:44:14,440 Speaker 2: So you're writing books now, you got the podcast? 984 00:44:14,480 --> 00:44:18,960 Speaker 1: You know, me and Halo Me and Halo podcast. Check 985 00:44:19,000 --> 00:44:19,319 Speaker 1: that out? 986 00:44:19,680 --> 00:44:20,200 Speaker 2: What do you do? 987 00:44:21,080 --> 00:44:21,960 Speaker 1: What do you do at night? 988 00:44:22,000 --> 00:44:23,759 Speaker 2: Then if you like what are you doing? 989 00:44:23,800 --> 00:44:25,439 Speaker 1: You just like, what are you doing? 990 00:44:26,680 --> 00:44:28,319 Speaker 3: Are you not sleeping? You do? 991 00:44:28,400 --> 00:44:29,040 Speaker 1: I sleep at night? 992 00:44:29,120 --> 00:44:30,440 Speaker 8: Y'all know. 993 00:44:31,960 --> 00:44:33,000 Speaker 1: What time I go to sleep? 994 00:44:35,320 --> 00:44:47,759 Speaker 8: Six seven? 995 00:44:38,120 --> 00:44:50,600 Speaker 3: I got kids, yell it out. 996 00:44:50,719 --> 00:44:51,360 Speaker 2: It is what it is. 997 00:44:51,680 --> 00:44:53,680 Speaker 5: Halo told me we was retiring this year. I think 998 00:44:53,719 --> 00:44:55,480 Speaker 5: he said on the podcast, like we had to let 999 00:44:55,480 --> 00:44:56,480 Speaker 5: it go or something for something. 1000 00:44:57,760 --> 00:44:57,960 Speaker 1: Man. 1001 00:44:59,680 --> 00:45:01,719 Speaker 5: Yeah, yeah, but I go to sleep around six six 1002 00:45:01,840 --> 00:45:04,000 Speaker 5: or seven, and then I get up around what time 1003 00:45:04,040 --> 00:45:04,520 Speaker 5: I get up. 1004 00:45:06,040 --> 00:45:06,640 Speaker 1: Twelve one? 1005 00:45:06,920 --> 00:45:09,040 Speaker 7: Is that because of your music? Artists like, because a 1006 00:45:09,080 --> 00:45:10,799 Speaker 7: lot of artists are like that too, Where they're up 1007 00:45:10,840 --> 00:45:10,960 Speaker 7: on it. 1008 00:45:11,040 --> 00:45:14,760 Speaker 5: I've been doing that ever since the kids knowing me. Okay, 1009 00:45:15,160 --> 00:45:18,239 Speaker 5: Harmony thirteen, But what. 1010 00:45:18,120 --> 00:45:18,520 Speaker 2: Are you doing? 1011 00:45:18,640 --> 00:45:19,320 Speaker 3: Are you thinking? 1012 00:45:19,400 --> 00:45:19,480 Speaker 2: Like? 1013 00:45:19,520 --> 00:45:20,240 Speaker 3: Are you writing? 1014 00:45:20,360 --> 00:45:23,359 Speaker 5: Are you I'm in I'm in a studio space when 1015 00:45:23,360 --> 00:45:27,600 Speaker 5: I'm doing something ambitious to help my career go further. 1016 00:45:28,719 --> 00:45:30,920 Speaker 5: And that is the time when all the noise is 1017 00:45:30,920 --> 00:45:33,080 Speaker 5: shut off for me. All the people that I love 1018 00:45:33,120 --> 00:45:36,000 Speaker 5: should be in the bed sleep. I don't receive phone 1019 00:45:36,040 --> 00:45:39,120 Speaker 5: calls that lay nobody calling me saying they needed I 1020 00:45:39,120 --> 00:45:42,640 Speaker 5: can actually concentrate on the task at hand, whatever that is. 1021 00:45:42,680 --> 00:45:44,960 Speaker 5: And those are my hours that I can just lock 1022 00:45:45,040 --> 00:45:47,160 Speaker 5: in from probably twelve to six or something like that. 1023 00:45:47,200 --> 00:45:49,719 Speaker 5: I started working at night round eleven to twelve. From 1024 00:45:49,760 --> 00:45:52,640 Speaker 5: twelve to six is really just really really my time, 1025 00:45:52,680 --> 00:45:55,000 Speaker 5: really need time. I don't have to worry about you 1026 00:45:55,040 --> 00:45:56,399 Speaker 5: know what I'm saying. I mean, of course I worry 1027 00:45:56,400 --> 00:45:58,680 Speaker 5: about people, but it's just really my time. I don't 1028 00:45:58,680 --> 00:46:01,880 Speaker 5: have anything else my mind with me and the task 1029 00:46:01,960 --> 00:46:02,239 Speaker 5: at hand. 1030 00:46:02,320 --> 00:46:03,480 Speaker 3: And that's therapeutic for you. 1031 00:46:03,560 --> 00:46:04,640 Speaker 1: That's so therapeutic for me. 1032 00:46:04,640 --> 00:46:07,800 Speaker 5: I wouldn't know what to do, Like like Keisha hates 1033 00:46:07,840 --> 00:46:12,880 Speaker 5: when I'm at home that in those times because she 1034 00:46:13,040 --> 00:46:13,960 Speaker 5: trying to sleep. 1035 00:46:14,239 --> 00:46:16,879 Speaker 1: And I'm moving around up and Man. 1036 00:46:16,960 --> 00:46:18,560 Speaker 5: Just the other day, I was just doing the most 1037 00:46:18,600 --> 00:46:20,680 Speaker 5: craziest stuff, man, because I had to be up at seven. 1038 00:46:20,760 --> 00:46:23,200 Speaker 5: So I'm like, Man, do I go to sleep or 1039 00:46:23,239 --> 00:46:25,439 Speaker 5: do I just stay up to seven? So I'm trying 1040 00:46:25,440 --> 00:46:27,640 Speaker 5: to figure it out. She's like, what you're doing home? 1041 00:46:27,719 --> 00:46:28,080 Speaker 1: This thing? 1042 00:46:28,160 --> 00:46:31,080 Speaker 5: No? She look at me. I'm standing out the window 1043 00:46:31,120 --> 00:46:34,040 Speaker 5: like Malcolm X. I'm just looking out the one, you 1044 00:46:34,080 --> 00:46:37,000 Speaker 5: know what. I'm saying stuff like this, I really need 1045 00:46:37,040 --> 00:46:39,720 Speaker 5: some asphalts so I can. I'm just looking at stuff 1046 00:46:39,719 --> 00:46:42,360 Speaker 5: at the house. I'm just looking at the driveway. I 1047 00:46:42,400 --> 00:46:45,000 Speaker 5: need to do this round about over. I'm looking at 1048 00:46:45,040 --> 00:46:47,480 Speaker 5: the tennis court and got the light out there on 1049 00:46:47,520 --> 00:46:47,839 Speaker 5: the court. 1050 00:46:47,880 --> 00:46:51,320 Speaker 1: I'm looking. I'm like, man, we should use this more often. 1051 00:46:51,360 --> 00:46:51,799 Speaker 1: We just. 1052 00:46:53,800 --> 00:46:56,600 Speaker 5: With my mind and my like, I'm not sleepy, I'm 1053 00:46:56,640 --> 00:46:59,160 Speaker 5: not tired, I'm not ying at because my body trying. 1054 00:46:59,160 --> 00:47:01,720 Speaker 5: I'm almost like a new boring. I'm trying to sleep 1055 00:47:02,520 --> 00:47:06,080 Speaker 5: from like seven to five. I mean, I'm sorry, five hours, 1056 00:47:06,080 --> 00:47:09,040 Speaker 5: seven to twelve. I'm trying to sleep like that long, 1057 00:47:09,360 --> 00:47:12,840 Speaker 5: but the longest, like literally since twenty twice of my 1058 00:47:12,840 --> 00:47:15,160 Speaker 5: pop died. I hadn't really slept in night time. 1059 00:47:15,600 --> 00:47:19,960 Speaker 4: Yeah, m hm, well the book is out today. 1060 00:47:20,320 --> 00:47:23,359 Speaker 5: This is the book is god? Are you looking at this? 1061 00:47:23,360 --> 00:47:25,480 Speaker 5: This is dope. There's a ham some picture on the 1062 00:47:25,520 --> 00:47:27,600 Speaker 5: back as well. Man, look if you open this up, 1063 00:47:27,640 --> 00:47:31,319 Speaker 5: this is something something told me. So I'm gonna challenge 1064 00:47:31,360 --> 00:47:34,800 Speaker 5: you'll go to two chainsbook dot com, enter the Sweet 1065 00:47:34,840 --> 00:47:36,560 Speaker 5: States to sit next to me at the hoss game. 1066 00:47:36,680 --> 00:47:39,200 Speaker 5: You have to March eleventh to do that. But this 1067 00:47:39,360 --> 00:47:42,239 Speaker 5: right here, tell me what does something tell you? 1068 00:47:42,360 --> 00:47:43,560 Speaker 1: Bo? I guess something told. 1069 00:47:43,440 --> 00:47:45,759 Speaker 5: You give me some give me an example, something told 1070 00:47:45,840 --> 00:47:47,840 Speaker 5: you give me. 1071 00:47:47,800 --> 00:47:48,640 Speaker 1: An exam where. 1072 00:47:51,400 --> 00:47:53,520 Speaker 5: So what I'm saying, what so you was pulling stuff? 1073 00:47:53,520 --> 00:47:55,000 Speaker 5: Tell me how to tell me how that went? 1074 00:47:55,440 --> 00:47:56,640 Speaker 2: So I woke up under this. 1075 00:47:56,680 --> 00:47:59,279 Speaker 1: It's crazy though. So that yeah, because I was. 1076 00:47:59,200 --> 00:48:00,880 Speaker 9: Gonna wake up early and do my little you know, 1077 00:48:00,920 --> 00:48:03,440 Speaker 9: my little curling joint. But I ain't have enough time 1078 00:48:03,800 --> 00:48:06,200 Speaker 9: because I was I was going to questions for my book, 1079 00:48:06,360 --> 00:48:07,600 Speaker 9: you know what I'm saying, because I start. 1080 00:48:07,360 --> 00:48:07,879 Speaker 2: Person this week. 1081 00:48:07,920 --> 00:48:08,440 Speaker 1: So I got up. 1082 00:48:08,440 --> 00:48:10,319 Speaker 9: I ain't have enough time for that. So I was like, 1083 00:48:10,360 --> 00:48:12,680 Speaker 9: you know what I'm gonna I'm gonna wear my hat. 1084 00:48:13,560 --> 00:48:15,480 Speaker 5: Something told you to put I mean you got other 1085 00:48:15,560 --> 00:48:18,880 Speaker 5: hats though, what made you get put that one on? 1086 00:48:19,040 --> 00:48:19,360 Speaker 1: I don't know. 1087 00:48:19,480 --> 00:48:21,040 Speaker 9: Like the funny is I want to go with the 1088 00:48:21,080 --> 00:48:23,480 Speaker 9: little suit and go with the you know, the bodysuit. 1089 00:48:23,880 --> 00:48:25,040 Speaker 9: I just got these new nikes. 1090 00:48:25,080 --> 00:48:32,280 Speaker 5: I know they courting. Okay, give me an example. Something 1091 00:48:32,320 --> 00:48:32,680 Speaker 5: told you. 1092 00:48:32,760 --> 00:48:35,680 Speaker 3: I told them that today I'm learn how to ski today. 1093 00:48:36,120 --> 00:48:37,640 Speaker 4: Something told you, like you just sitting there like, man, 1094 00:48:38,200 --> 00:48:40,520 Speaker 4: you know it is my son's snowboards and I took 1095 00:48:40,560 --> 00:48:43,000 Speaker 4: them on the mountain the other day and I felt 1096 00:48:43,040 --> 00:48:44,879 Speaker 4: bad because I couldn't go with him on the mounta 1097 00:48:44,880 --> 00:48:46,319 Speaker 4: because I don't know how to score snowboard to ski. 1098 00:48:46,400 --> 00:48:47,879 Speaker 4: So I was like, you know what, I'm gonna learn 1099 00:48:47,880 --> 00:48:49,520 Speaker 4: how to ski, so next time we go, I can 1100 00:48:49,520 --> 00:48:49,880 Speaker 4: get on that. 1101 00:48:50,080 --> 00:48:50,680 Speaker 1: I'm good father. 1102 00:48:51,000 --> 00:48:52,279 Speaker 2: So absolutely. 1103 00:48:53,360 --> 00:48:54,960 Speaker 7: Something told me I need to go back home this 1104 00:48:55,000 --> 00:48:56,440 Speaker 7: weekend spender time with my family. 1105 00:48:57,320 --> 00:48:58,600 Speaker 1: I love it. 1106 00:48:59,160 --> 00:49:01,920 Speaker 6: Something told me that two Chains had an amazing book 1107 00:49:01,960 --> 00:49:05,040 Speaker 6: that he needed to get published, and that's why you're 1108 00:49:05,040 --> 00:49:05,319 Speaker 6: in them. 1109 00:49:05,480 --> 00:49:05,919 Speaker 2: That's right. 1110 00:49:08,560 --> 00:49:10,719 Speaker 7: Hold on, you knew you wanted to write a book, 1111 00:49:10,719 --> 00:49:11,879 Speaker 7: But did you go to him and say, hey, it's 1112 00:49:11,880 --> 00:49:12,960 Speaker 7: time or did how did that? 1113 00:49:13,239 --> 00:49:15,160 Speaker 5: No, he just knew I'm a successful black dude, so 1114 00:49:15,200 --> 00:49:16,920 Speaker 5: he tried to cap in on my success because he 1115 00:49:16,960 --> 00:49:17,600 Speaker 5: know I'm a winner. 1116 00:49:18,280 --> 00:49:24,120 Speaker 2: Else he changes the plug. I wouldn't have Crystal franchises 1117 00:49:24,160 --> 00:49:24,480 Speaker 2: if it. 1118 00:49:24,440 --> 00:49:29,200 Speaker 7: Wasn't and people don't talk enough about you and your 1119 00:49:29,200 --> 00:49:30,480 Speaker 7: involvement in the Crystal franchise. 1120 00:49:31,560 --> 00:49:33,600 Speaker 5: My environment in the culture is crazy, you know what 1121 00:49:33,640 --> 00:49:35,719 Speaker 5: I'm saying. I am the pictures, I am the mood 1122 00:49:35,719 --> 00:49:38,160 Speaker 5: boy for a lot of stuff going on. I'm humble 1123 00:49:38,200 --> 00:49:41,040 Speaker 5: and quiet sometimes a lot of the times. But I 1124 00:49:41,080 --> 00:49:44,080 Speaker 5: could see how what my influence has done for even 1125 00:49:44,120 --> 00:49:44,920 Speaker 5: my whole city. 1126 00:49:45,160 --> 00:49:46,440 Speaker 1: Like man, listen. 1127 00:49:47,760 --> 00:49:51,239 Speaker 5: Esco and the Esco franchise ten years. I owned the 1128 00:49:51,280 --> 00:49:53,839 Speaker 5: Dirt five years before I started running the business, own 1129 00:49:53,840 --> 00:49:58,480 Speaker 5: the vertically candy Land. There's no other person my age, 1130 00:49:58,520 --> 00:50:01,200 Speaker 5: my democratic that owns a my demographic, that owns an 1131 00:50:01,360 --> 00:50:04,680 Speaker 5: adult entertainment. You to get a permit to be nude 1132 00:50:04,719 --> 00:50:08,680 Speaker 5: and have alcoholis they stop issuing those in nineteen ninety three? 1133 00:50:09,000 --> 00:50:12,319 Speaker 5: You have to biytos for an extremely high price from 1134 00:50:12,360 --> 00:50:17,120 Speaker 5: somebody who sets it. A lot of the even the 1135 00:50:17,200 --> 00:50:20,320 Speaker 5: G League team being connected to the Linta Hawks, you 1136 00:50:20,320 --> 00:50:20,960 Speaker 5: know what I'm saying. 1137 00:50:21,160 --> 00:50:24,520 Speaker 1: Even having an association with that. 1138 00:50:25,040 --> 00:50:27,480 Speaker 5: It's just a lot of things that I see that 1139 00:50:28,520 --> 00:50:30,480 Speaker 5: I try to open up like in this book and 1140 00:50:30,680 --> 00:50:33,200 Speaker 5: let my peers know, like this is what's going on, 1141 00:50:33,440 --> 00:50:36,839 Speaker 5: and this is how I'm even making these business decisions 1142 00:50:36,840 --> 00:50:39,080 Speaker 5: based off Like of course I have a lawyer, I 1143 00:50:39,080 --> 00:50:41,279 Speaker 5: have management, but I got this voice going on with 1144 00:50:41,320 --> 00:50:43,400 Speaker 5: me too, and but I do have you know, the 1145 00:50:43,440 --> 00:50:46,200 Speaker 5: crystal situation shot the Jernamthan just shot that everybody that 1146 00:50:46,239 --> 00:50:50,680 Speaker 5: I became partners with. I think collaborating. Collaborating is a 1147 00:50:50,680 --> 00:50:52,839 Speaker 5: good thing, not only a music but in business too. 1148 00:50:53,440 --> 00:50:56,880 Speaker 5: And my secret to that is finding someone that's passionate 1149 00:50:56,960 --> 00:51:00,200 Speaker 5: in whatever you're trying to do and collaborate with and 1150 00:51:00,239 --> 00:51:02,960 Speaker 5: then you can have success in the field. So I 1151 00:51:03,000 --> 00:51:05,520 Speaker 5: said to say that the person I'm collaborating with the 1152 00:51:05,719 --> 00:51:09,200 Speaker 5: ESCO there, they're passionate about the hospitality space. 1153 00:51:09,239 --> 00:51:11,960 Speaker 1: They don't have a special seasoning or sauce. It's bigger 1154 00:51:11,960 --> 00:51:13,960 Speaker 1: than that. You got to know this space. 1155 00:51:14,360 --> 00:51:17,400 Speaker 5: The person that I'm in the strip club visits is 1156 00:51:17,440 --> 00:51:21,600 Speaker 5: passionate about that business. So it's just and Jonathan is 1157 00:51:21,600 --> 00:51:25,520 Speaker 5: passionate about crystals, and this man is passionate about giving back. 1158 00:51:25,440 --> 00:51:27,760 Speaker 1: To our community. So that's how a lot of things 1159 00:51:27,800 --> 00:51:28,279 Speaker 1: line up. 1160 00:51:28,680 --> 00:51:29,239 Speaker 2: There you have it. 1161 00:51:29,239 --> 00:51:30,600 Speaker 3: It's two changed ladies and gentlemen. 1162 00:51:30,920 --> 00:51:32,480 Speaker 1: Get the book today, thank y'all. 1163 00:51:32,520 --> 00:51:34,080 Speaker 3: And it's the Breakfast Club, Good morning. 1164 00:51:35,960 --> 00:51:39,680 Speaker 1: Every day. Click yours up, the Breakfast Club. 1165 00:51:39,560 --> 00:51:40,560 Speaker 2: You don't finish for y'all. 1166 00:51:40,560 --> 00:51:40,799 Speaker 1: Done,