WEBVTT - 9021-What Really Happened to Mark Reese?

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<v Speaker 1>His own.

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<v Speaker 2>James played Mark Reese in season seven, and fans know

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<v Speaker 2>the controversy around his character and the actor. Many know

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<v Speaker 2>that the intention was for Dalton to be a regular

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<v Speaker 2>throughout season seven and Kelly Taylor's love interest, but that

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<v Speaker 2>didn't happen. His time on the show was cut short.

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<v Speaker 2>He was let go from nine O two one zero

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<v Speaker 2>and there have been rumors for years as to why. Well,

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<v Speaker 2>today he's here and we aren't going to shy away

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<v Speaker 2>from going there and asking him the uncomfortable questions and

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<v Speaker 2>finding out the real story.

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<v Speaker 3>It's nine O one e Legen with Jenny Garth and

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<v Speaker 3>Tory Spelling.

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<v Speaker 4>Hey, guys, how are you hi?

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<v Speaker 1>Dalton?

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<v Speaker 4>How's it going?

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<v Speaker 3>Hi? Where are you?

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<v Speaker 4>I'm sitting in my kitchen. What city though, oh, Burbank.

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<v Speaker 2>So we wanted to do this interview, and we were

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<v Speaker 2>thinking about going back and doing a boot of Kelly

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<v Speaker 2>and Mark and just doing a whole show another nine

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<v Speaker 2>or Tana, What do you think that's been off?

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<v Speaker 4>Yeah, I'd be down. You're asking me.

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<v Speaker 1>It's been how many years? Twenty five years though?

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<v Speaker 4>Oh my, twenty seven seven years?

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<v Speaker 3>Oh my gosh, it's.

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<v Speaker 4>Been a long time. I went and watched. I went

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<v Speaker 4>back and watched that episode this morning that you guys

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<v Speaker 4>sent me, and I was like, oh my gosh, I'll

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<v Speaker 4>look at how long ago that was. It was. I

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<v Speaker 4>just can't believe it at this point.

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<v Speaker 3>No, well, it feels like yesterday because you look exactly

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<v Speaker 3>the same.

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<v Speaker 1>I know.

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<v Speaker 4>Well, thank you, so you guys. I've I've had my

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<v Speaker 4>ups and downs. You know. I put on some weight

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<v Speaker 4>for a while and then I was like, this isn't me.

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<v Speaker 4>I don't like it. So I took that off and

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<v Speaker 4>I quit drinking. Was the thing. Drink packed on some

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<v Speaker 4>weight and I was like, in my life, so I

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<v Speaker 4>cut it out completely.

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<v Speaker 3>So you're much healthier now than Yeah.

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<v Speaker 4>Good, I Yeah I am.

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<v Speaker 2>Because People Magazine you were you were one of the sexiest,

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<v Speaker 2>sexiest people two thousand correct.

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<v Speaker 1>Wow, I.

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<v Speaker 4>Heard that, but I don't know.

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<v Speaker 1>It's not true.

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<v Speaker 4>I don't know. I honestly have no idea. Nobody ever

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<v Speaker 4>told me, and no one ever told you.

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<v Speaker 3>I think you were one of the sexiest people. And

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<v Speaker 3>People Magazine you probably know, like, that's a that's.

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<v Speaker 1>A good that's what you told me. It must be real. Yeah.

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<v Speaker 4>Well, I saw that online at some point and I

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<v Speaker 4>was like, I never heard that, So I think I

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<v Speaker 4>think that somebody messed up and made a mistake, and

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<v Speaker 4>that's not.

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<v Speaker 1>Just take it and run.

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<v Speaker 3>Yeah, we just started watching back the episodes. I think

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<v Speaker 3>last week was the first episode that you aired on,

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<v Speaker 3>and you just appeared out of nowhere, as if we

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<v Speaker 3>had known you for a long time, like your character

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<v Speaker 3>just came in like he'd been there forever, which was

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<v Speaker 3>such a weird way to introduce a character.

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<v Speaker 4>I thought, Yeah, I mean, do you remember that. I

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<v Speaker 4>do remember that, and but it's happened to me before.

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<v Speaker 4>But yeah, it was you know, you just kind of

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<v Speaker 4>go with it, right, I mean, you get thrown into

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<v Speaker 4>situations and acting where they do that all the time.

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<v Speaker 4>So but it did seem that way, kind of like

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<v Speaker 4>I'm hanging out with Jason and the TV station and

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<v Speaker 4>it's like we're old buddies and but I just ran

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<v Speaker 4>with it, did my job. So it was a lot

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<v Speaker 4>of fun.

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<v Speaker 1>Were you offered this part or you auditioned?

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<v Speaker 4>I was offered by your father. I had done a

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<v Speaker 4>couple of pilots for him previously that didn't get picked up.

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<v Speaker 4>One of them he really really wanted to get picked up.

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<v Speaker 4>It was called which one. It's called Crossdown Traffic, where

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<v Speaker 4>I played a it's like a twenty one jumps jump

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<v Speaker 4>okay file type show. But he tried and tried, and

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<v Speaker 4>that we went past the pickup date and he kept

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<v Speaker 4>me on hold, gave me a little money, which was

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<v Speaker 4>cool to hold me, but it didn't end up getting

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<v Speaker 4>picked up. And then I did another one for him

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<v Speaker 4>called The wolf Pack right after that one the next year,

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<v Speaker 4>and that was another family detective tile style show with

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<v Speaker 4>like Piper Lori and Dennis Weaver and Greg Evigan some

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<v Speaker 4>other people, and that didn't get picked up. And then

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<v Speaker 4>Aaron came to me and he said, would you like

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<v Speaker 4>to do nine O two one oh? And I said, sure,

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<v Speaker 4>why not? You know that was a little scary though.

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<v Speaker 4>I have to be honest with you guys, because there

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<v Speaker 4>was a little bit of an intimidation factor going into

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<v Speaker 4>that show, because you guys were an iconic show for one,

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<v Speaker 4>and you guys were like a family already, and I

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<v Speaker 4>was used to starting from ground up. You know, you

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<v Speaker 4>get your book the pilot, then you get picked up,

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<v Speaker 4>everybody does the show, then you become like a family.

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<v Speaker 4>So I was my first day of shooting to be honest,

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<v Speaker 4>that first scene that I did in the TV station

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<v Speaker 4>with Jason, I was a little bit nervous. And I

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<v Speaker 4>never got nervous when I was shooting, but that one

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<v Speaker 4>particular time I did, and as soon as the scene

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<v Speaker 4>was over, I was fine after that.

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<v Speaker 2>So I just remember when you were in My Father

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<v Speaker 2>the Hero and I was so smitten with you.

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<v Speaker 1>I was like, oh my gosh, that is the cutest boy.

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<v Speaker 2>I remember telling my dad. I was like, oh my god,

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<v Speaker 2>he's amazing. Was that your first film?

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<v Speaker 4>That was my second film? I was in Encino man.

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<v Speaker 2>I had a oh great, you were so dreamy and

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<v Speaker 2>My Father the Hero. Okay, sorry, I digress. Let's go

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<v Speaker 2>back to Mark reeson niners who want I'm sorry, Yeah.

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<v Speaker 3>Yes, Well, I feel like what I'd love to just

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<v Speaker 3>address something that for me is like the elephant in

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<v Speaker 3>the room, because let's just have a really open, honest conversation,

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<v Speaker 3>because there are things out there that talk about why

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<v Speaker 3>your character didn't continue forward on the show. We've heard

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<v Speaker 3>a couple of different takes on how that went down.

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<v Speaker 3>One of them was the chemistry factor between our characters, right,

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<v Speaker 3>how did I'm just curious, like, for you, what that

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<v Speaker 3>was like that whole experience where did you think you

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<v Speaker 3>were going to be on for more episodes and then

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<v Speaker 3>it ended sooner than you thought.

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<v Speaker 4>Yeah, I did, and I was I remember when I

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<v Speaker 4>forget the producer's name now, but I remember when he

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<v Speaker 4>brought me in and was to have a meeting with

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<v Speaker 4>him and told me that they were letting me go.

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<v Speaker 4>I was pretty bummed about it, to be honest, But

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<v Speaker 4>you know, hey, life is hard for all of us.

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<v Speaker 4>We we were all young. You know. For one, I'm

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<v Speaker 4>I don't have any ill feelings at all. And you know,

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<v Speaker 4>it was a great job. It was a great opportunity

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<v Speaker 4>and I made some great money. But yeah, I was

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<v Speaker 4>bummed when the when the show got canceled. And you know,

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<v Speaker 4>I know you and I we I thought we worked

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<v Speaker 4>together well. But you know, like I said, we were young.

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<v Speaker 4>I was going through a hard time. I was, you know,

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<v Speaker 4>had I was a new father at the time. I

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<v Speaker 4>don't know if you guys remember that.

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<v Speaker 3>How old were you when you had a child.

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<v Speaker 4>I was young. I was twenty five when my son

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<v Speaker 4>was born, So I don't know why I started so young.

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<v Speaker 4>I don't regret it. I love my kid. He's a

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<v Speaker 4>great kid. I have four by the way.

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<v Speaker 3>Wow.

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<v Speaker 4>But back to what you were saying, I don't have

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<v Speaker 4>any ill feelings, so it's you know, we I thought

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<v Speaker 4>we did a good job together. I thought we did

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<v Speaker 4>some good work.

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<v Speaker 3>I'm really glad to hear you say that, because I've

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<v Speaker 3>been seeing the character and then remembering and then hearing

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<v Speaker 3>from different people how that all happened.

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<v Speaker 5>I feel like.

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<v Speaker 3>I was young too, and I feel like maybe when

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<v Speaker 3>you're young like that, you don't really look at things

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<v Speaker 3>objectively from different perspectives, and perhaps me thinking well this,

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<v Speaker 3>I don't feel like the chemistry between these characters is

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<v Speaker 3>working out. I didn't really look at how that impacted

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<v Speaker 3>you or your future, and I just I'm glad to

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<v Speaker 3>hear you say that you don't harbor feelings about it,

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<v Speaker 3>because I would hate that.

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<v Speaker 4>I don't. You know, the journey that I took in

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<v Speaker 4>my career was there was a lot of learning. You know,

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<v Speaker 4>it's a big learning experience for me. You know, you're

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<v Speaker 4>thrown into a situation is at twenty one that let's

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<v Speaker 4>putting this way, When I was twenty, I'm living in Sacramento,

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<v Speaker 4>I'm working at a tractor yard. Before I moved to

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<v Speaker 4>Los Angeles and I had a manager that wanted me,

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<v Speaker 4>and I was making one hundred and seventy five bucks

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<v Speaker 4>a week. But I loved the job. It was so

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<v Speaker 4>much fun. I got to drive all these big tractors

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<v Speaker 4>and stuff. And then the next year, I'm on a

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<v Speaker 4>TV series with Robert Urick. He's playing my father, I'm

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<v Speaker 4>his son. We're the two stars of the show, and

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<v Speaker 4>I'm making eighteen thousand dollars a week. And I was like,

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<v Speaker 4>how the heck did this happen? And I remember I

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<v Speaker 4>was depressed for the first two months of shooting, and

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<v Speaker 4>I was like, why are you depressed? You got the

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<v Speaker 4>world at your feet, You're I mean, you've succeeded at something.

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<v Speaker 4>And then and I'm depressed, and it kind of set

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<v Speaker 4>me on. You know, there's no class that you can

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<v Speaker 4>go take in college that prepares you for being thrown

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<v Speaker 4>onto a TV show and everybody all of a sudden,

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<v Speaker 4>you know, you go places and they know who you are.

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<v Speaker 4>There's nothing that prepares you for that. Coupled with the

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<v Speaker 4>fact that I grew up with a family that didn't

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<v Speaker 4>have any money, so nobody talked about how to save

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<v Speaker 4>it or invest it or you know, to set yourself

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<v Speaker 4>up for the future. So I kind of squandered, you know,

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<v Speaker 4>the money that I made for eleven years. I was

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<v Speaker 4>just kind of an idiot in a certain way. But

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<v Speaker 4>you know, but you know, you live in your learn

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<v Speaker 4>and I look at it. I look at my life

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<v Speaker 4>as a series of lessons and the even you know,

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<v Speaker 4>being on the show, the interaction that I mostly had

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<v Speaker 4>with you, Jinny. You know, I learned from it, and

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<v Speaker 4>you know, you become a better person, you know, you

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<v Speaker 4>learn things about yourself, and you know, I was in

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<v Speaker 4>a place where I was trying to find myself still.

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<v Speaker 4>You know, it's it's hard being you know, I'm sure

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<v Speaker 4>you guys relate one hundred percent more than I do.

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<v Speaker 4>You guys reached a level of SSS, that of success

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<v Speaker 4>that I didn't, and I kind of sabotaged my career

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<v Speaker 4>in a way, you know, because I wasn't. I had

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<v Speaker 4>a lot of issue and I put myself through therapy

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<v Speaker 4>and I went to group therapies with my wife at

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<v Speaker 4>the time were since divorced and with somebody else now.

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<v Speaker 4>But you know, it's just a you know, we learned,

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<v Speaker 4>we move on and we become better but I I

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<v Speaker 4>so appreciate you bringing that up. I really do. I

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<v Speaker 4>think that's really cool. I'm impressed.

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<v Speaker 1>Well, I mean.

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<v Speaker 3>It's I don't think I ever Yeah, like I said before,

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<v Speaker 3>you don't really think at that young age the impact

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<v Speaker 3>and us being in that kind of bubble that we

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<v Speaker 3>were growing up in with, you know, this weird power

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<v Speaker 3>that was appointed to us as the stars of the show,

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<v Speaker 3>and then you look back all these thirty some years

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<v Speaker 3>later and you're like, wow, what happened? Like how did

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<v Speaker 3>that happen? And why would you know? Why would it be? Yeah,

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<v Speaker 3>it just why would have happened? But I'm interested to like,

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<v Speaker 3>do do you know exactly what did you learn? You

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<v Speaker 3>said you learned things from that experience, Like what is

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<v Speaker 3>it that you learned? Do you know?

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<v Speaker 4>Well? I, like I said, I had a lot of

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<v Speaker 4>issues and I was I remember when I that first

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<v Speaker 4>two months of shooting and I was, you know, depressed.

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<v Speaker 4>I was like, I got to do some work on myself.

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<v Speaker 4>I want I had this cloud over me, you know,

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<v Speaker 4>and I was like, I don't want this cloud. I

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<v Speaker 4>should be happy, you know, And there was just a

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<v Speaker 4>lot of fear. You know, you grow up and you

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<v Speaker 4>know where these little computers and we get programmed and

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<v Speaker 4>then you you know, you think everything's fine, and then

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<v Speaker 4>you get out in the real world and you realize

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<v Speaker 4>that you, you know, aren't quite what you thought you were.

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<v Speaker 4>And sorry, I'm trying not to get emotional, geez. And

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<v Speaker 4>I I scrutinized myself. I put myself under a microscope,

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<v Speaker 4>and I wanted to be better. I wanted to clean

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<v Speaker 4>out my mind. I actually wrote a book about it

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<v Speaker 4>that I'm actually i'm editing it. I'm finished. I wrote

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<v Speaker 4>the book, but I'm editing. I'm trying to get that done.

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<v Speaker 4>It's like a spirituality slash psychology self help style book.

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<v Speaker 4>So basically what I learned on my journey and working

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<v Speaker 4>on myself and trying to become, you know, a better

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<v Speaker 4>version of myself. I one day thought, you know what,

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<v Speaker 4>I'm going to write a book and maybe this can

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<v Speaker 4>help somebody. You know. It's just kind of a little

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<v Speaker 4>systematic way of working on cleaning out your mind, because

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<v Speaker 4>if your mind's unclean, you're going to do dumb things

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<v Speaker 4>like I did. I said dumb things and did dumb things.

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<v Speaker 4>And you know, I don't really have regrets because of

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<v Speaker 4>what I've learned about myself and I just feel better

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<v Speaker 4>as a person and I feel happier and as a whole.

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<v Speaker 3>Well, that's great to hear. Also what you said too

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<v Speaker 3>about like you just gotten this big show, this big break,

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<v Speaker 3>and you are making money for the first time, and

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<v Speaker 3>you've still felt you felt depressed. Was that the first

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<v Speaker 3>time that you had felt that kind of feeling, like

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<v Speaker 3>the depression?

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<v Speaker 4>Oh, I remember when I was fourteen, maybe I was fifteen,

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<v Speaker 4>Oh yeah, I was fifteen. Actually, my sophomore first part

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<v Speaker 4>of my sophomore year in high school, I went through

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<v Speaker 4>a major depression. And it's as weird as it sounds

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<v Speaker 4>that the depression was that I could see. Sounds really weird,

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<v Speaker 4>but I I one day realized that I could see

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<v Speaker 4>like this world in front of me, and it really

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<v Speaker 4>spun me into this weird thing. And it was for

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<v Speaker 4>four months. I was really depressed and just felt like

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<v Speaker 4>an observer of life, so to speak. But then I

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<v Speaker 4>met this girl and we had a you know, a

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<v Speaker 4>relationship for a while, and she kind of snapped me

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<v Speaker 4>out of it. But you know, I always had like

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<v Speaker 4>some deep rooted emotional things going on. I don't know,

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<v Speaker 4>you know what they where they came from. I mean

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<v Speaker 4>why I came from a kind of a My parents

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<v Speaker 4>had kind of a tumultuous relationship. I guess you could

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<v Speaker 4>say my mom and my dad when I was young.

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<v Speaker 4>My father was a major alcoholic and they divorced when

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<v Speaker 4>I was for Thank god, you know, God blessed my

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<v Speaker 4>dad's soul. He passed away, but he just never could

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<v Speaker 4>get it together. It's probably it's probably better that he

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<v Speaker 4>wasn't there, But you know, I think some of those

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<v Speaker 4>deep rooted issues brought up this stuff later in life.

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<v Speaker 4>And you know, I know that he was kind of

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<v Speaker 4>a lunatic, and but you know, so be it. That's

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<v Speaker 4>the way it went. But you know, we all have

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<v Speaker 4>our lessons to learn in life. We got to have

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<v Speaker 4>drama to learn, right.

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<v Speaker 2>So grateful now that there's so much communication about mental

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<v Speaker 2>health and our children. It's a different generation. They can

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<v Speaker 2>talk about it and we speak freely. I feel like

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<v Speaker 2>our generation we didn't really know if people are suffering

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<v Speaker 2>from depression and are talking to their parents, and it

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<v Speaker 2>wasn't a conversation as much as it is now, and

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<v Speaker 2>people went undiagnosed and they could get help. They can

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<v Speaker 2>get help now, and did you feel like it during

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<v Speaker 2>that time you couldn't talk about it or you said

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<v Speaker 2>a girl you were in a relationship, right, and I

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<v Speaker 2>snapped you out of it.

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<v Speaker 1>But no like therapy or medication.

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<v Speaker 4>No, nothing like that. I mean that we didn't have

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<v Speaker 4>I mean we wet therapy then, but they didn't have medication.

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<v Speaker 1>But right, it was different. Yeah.

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<v Speaker 4>I was the type of person though that I'm not

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<v Speaker 4>afraid to feel. So I decided that I can deal

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<v Speaker 4>with this. I need to process it and go through it.

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<v Speaker 4>I had to tell my mom about it, but she

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<v Speaker 4>just she couldn't understand, I guess, and she had a

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<v Speaker 4>lot going on in her life. So it was kind

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<v Speaker 4>of kind of was on my own. But I figured

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<v Speaker 4>it out. And you know, that one was really deep.

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<v Speaker 4>The cloud that I had hanging over my head in

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<v Speaker 4>my career was It wasn't nearly as bad, but you know,

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<v Speaker 4>I used to I would get depressed a lot, and

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<v Speaker 4>I went through some When I went through therapy, my

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<v Speaker 4>therapist did what's called couch work. It's a breathing exercise

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<v Speaker 4>that you do that brings up supposedly brings up repressed

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<v Speaker 4>childhood memories. And after I did couch work for a year.

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<v Speaker 4>I don't get depressed anymore. Ever, I have bad days,

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<v Speaker 4>you know, I wake up in a bad mood. You know,

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<v Speaker 4>I have a weird dream sometimes and you wake up.

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<v Speaker 4>But the cool thing is I can spot it now,

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<v Speaker 4>Like I'm like, all right, you're you're kind of feeling

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<v Speaker 4>a little spie today, so you know, just watch yourself. So,

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<v Speaker 4>but now that's say, I just went through it on

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<v Speaker 4>my own. But the girl stamped me out of it.

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<v Speaker 4>She gave me something to look forward to. But it

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<v Speaker 4>was a weird time.

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<v Speaker 1>How old are your kids?

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<v Speaker 4>My son is twenty nine, he's getting married next month

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<v Speaker 4>on April fifth, going out to Milwauk for Yeah, thank you.

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<v Speaker 4>And then my daughter's twenty seven, she's already married. And

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<v Speaker 4>then I have two step daughters that are twenty five

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<v Speaker 4>and twenty three. So everybody was two years apart. Yeah,

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<v Speaker 4>they're all good kids.

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<v Speaker 3>Okay, So you left our show unexpectedly and then went

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<v Speaker 3>on to be on with Passions.

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<v Speaker 4>Your next project, Passions was my next probably yes, And

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<v Speaker 4>then for whatever really reason, I got released from that

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<v Speaker 4>and I was just like gosh, and I think that's

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<v Speaker 4>kind of when I self sabotaged myself. I was kind

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<v Speaker 4>of like, you know what, I'm going to step out

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<v Speaker 4>for a while and focus on my family and my kids,

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<v Speaker 4>and that didn't go as planned. Then my ex wife

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<v Speaker 4>we decided to get a divorce in two thousand and five,

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<v Speaker 4>which was best for both of us, I think because

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<v Speaker 4>we got together so young that you know, when you're young,

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<v Speaker 4>you don't think is this really the right person for me?

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<v Speaker 4>At least I didn't. You know, it's just like my

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<v Speaker 4>lover and I'm going to marry her. Yeah, you know,

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<v Speaker 4>you learn, you learn more, so I came out of them.

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<v Speaker 4>That was a difficult time for me going through the

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<v Speaker 4>divorce because you know, even though you know that it's over,

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<v Speaker 4>you know, you spend fifteen years of your life with somebody,

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<v Speaker 4>you know that's it's you're going to miss. You're going

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<v Speaker 4>to miss them to some degree, you know when you're

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<v Speaker 4>going through that grieving process, and that was difficult.

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<v Speaker 3>All three of us had been through that, so we

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<v Speaker 3>can all definite but definitely relate.

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<v Speaker 4>It's better the second time for me, for sure.

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<v Speaker 1>It was better for the third time for Jen and

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<v Speaker 1>I need a third time soon.

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<v Speaker 3>Chance.

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<v Speaker 4>Yeah, that's funny.

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<v Speaker 3>Do you ever get a chance to talk to it

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<v Speaker 3>to Aaron Spelling about your contract being cut short?

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<v Speaker 4>No, I didn't.

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<v Speaker 3>How did you find out? I'm so curious. Was it

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<v Speaker 3>your agent's calling you or the producers or no.

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<v Speaker 4>It was the producer, the guy that worked in the

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<v Speaker 4>studio that we shot. I think it was Paul. Yeah,

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<v Speaker 4>And he brought me in and sat me down and

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<v Speaker 4>told me. And I was like, I was like, what

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<v Speaker 4>did I do wrong? That's the thing I asked him,

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<v Speaker 4>and he said, well, we just decided to go a

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<v Speaker 4>different way, So you know, I was like, all right,

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<v Speaker 4>that's that's fine. You know, what are you going to do?

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<v Speaker 2>Yeah?

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<v Speaker 3>It sucks. We've all been there. I've been fired from

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<v Speaker 3>a job before, but not funny story. I was hired

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<v Speaker 3>to do a pilot for a sitcom. Was really big

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<v Speaker 3>deal and I was so excited. My dad died like

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<v Speaker 3>two weeks before. Oh no, I was already contracted to

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<v Speaker 3>do this job and it was a comedy and I

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<v Speaker 3>tried to shoot the pilot the best I could. I

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<v Speaker 3>tried to be funny and light, but it just my

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<v Speaker 3>body wasn't having it. You know. There was that cloud

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<v Speaker 3>over me at that time, and that I got fired

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<v Speaker 3>from that job, and it's never fun.

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<v Speaker 5>I'll take rejection.

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<v Speaker 3>As actors, I think we're kind of used to it,

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<v Speaker 3>like not getting the job, getting the audition right, but

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<v Speaker 3>have a job and then you lose it. You're like,

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<v Speaker 3>it's you do kind of take it really personally when

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<v Speaker 3>matter of fact is it's probably not a personal issue.

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<v Speaker 3>It's not about you at all. It's about the character

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<v Speaker 3>or the storyline, or the chemistry or all the things

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<v Speaker 3>that go into it. But it's hard to not like

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<v Speaker 3>take that as a personal blow.

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<v Speaker 4>Yeah, it's just it can be disappointing for sure. You know,

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<v Speaker 4>it's like you're constantly you know, until you get on

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<v Speaker 4>a show like you guys, it goes for you know,

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<v Speaker 4>as long as it would you guys do ten years. Yeah, yeah,

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<v Speaker 4>a long time until you get on something like that.

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<v Speaker 4>You know, like I'm basically looking for a job every

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<v Speaker 4>six months, you know, so that gets tough. And then

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<v Speaker 4>you know, one year you kick butt and you make

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<v Speaker 4>hundreds of thousands of dollars and then the next year

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<v Speaker 4>you make sixty. You know, it's like that that that.

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<v Speaker 2>Part was hard, right, and no one quite understands that world.

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<v Speaker 2>They don't that it's so up and down.

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<v Speaker 4>Yeah, they don't know. It's it's hard for people to

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<v Speaker 4>understand that. They just think that, oh, you're on a

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<v Speaker 4>TV show, you're rich. It's like, well, you know, not always.

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<v Speaker 3>Yeah, And they also probably assume that you don't struggle

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<v Speaker 3>with depression, like why would you be depressed? Like why

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<v Speaker 3>would you not feel like on top of the world.

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<v Speaker 4>Yeah, but we're all.

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<v Speaker 3>You know, going through things no matter what our jobs are.

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<v Speaker 4>Yeah, I think absolutely. And that's a really good point.

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<v Speaker 4>I was thinking about that the other day, you know,

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<v Speaker 4>when I when I heard when I decided to do

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<v Speaker 4>this with you guys, it was kind of going over

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<v Speaker 4>my head, like just thinking, well, what am I going

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<v Speaker 4>to talk about? And you know, what could some of

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<v Speaker 4>the questions be? And it's I was actually thinking about

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<v Speaker 4>that that people, you know, actors are just people. You know,

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<v Speaker 4>we're not perfect people. We have issues, you know, we

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<v Speaker 4>all have things we're wrestling with. And life is the

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<v Speaker 4>same for us other than the fact that we're you know,

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<v Speaker 4>a successful person on a television show or in movies

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<v Speaker 4>or whatever. You know, So we are just people and

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<v Speaker 4>it's what it all boils down to. And we all

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<v Speaker 4>have our we have our own little personal problems too.

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<v Speaker 4>You know, I think that people think that we're just

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<v Speaker 4>perfect people and and our lives are so grand all

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<v Speaker 4>the time. You know, we go through the same things

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<v Speaker 4>that everybody else does.

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<v Speaker 3>I'm curious when you were thinking this through, Like what

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<v Speaker 3>what were you what what would make you decided not

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<v Speaker 3>to talk to us today.

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<v Speaker 4>I'm kind of in my own little world in a way,

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<v Speaker 4>Like I have things that I like to do, and

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<v Speaker 4>I've never been one that needed to be like famous,

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<v Speaker 4>you know, like, oh, you know, check me out. That's

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<v Speaker 4>not me, I don't. I heard a someone make a

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<v Speaker 4>remark once. They were like, this is back in the

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<v Speaker 4>day when I was working a lot. They were somebody

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<v Speaker 4>had mentioned I read in an article. They said, this

0:24:57.160 --> 0:25:00.440
<v Speaker 4>guy is hard to get information on because we don't

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<v Speaker 4>see him anywhere. Like I didn't hang out in Hollywood.

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<v Speaker 4>I was like, cool, I got more money, I can

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<v Speaker 4>go fishing in Utah. You know. I would get in

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<v Speaker 4>my Bronco and drive to Utah and fish for a

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<v Speaker 4>week or two, or you know, like I'd go up

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<v Speaker 4>to Sacramento to see my family and hang out and

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<v Speaker 4>play golf. I've got an obsession with golf. I've played

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<v Speaker 4>a lot of golf, and I play at a scratch level.

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<v Speaker 4>I'm pretty good, but good as I want to be.

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<v Speaker 4>But yeah, it's it's something that I just love and

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<v Speaker 4>I put a lot of time and effort into that.

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<v Speaker 4>So but yeah, they I don't need that kind of attention,

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<v Speaker 4>you know what I mean. But I think it's cool

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<v Speaker 4>when somebody You know what I got to tell you, guys.

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<v Speaker 4>A funny story. My neighbor across the street is we

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<v Speaker 4>just see each other in passing a lot. Like I've

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<v Speaker 4>lived in this house that I'm in for about fifteen years.

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<v Speaker 4>I used to see him out in front when we

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<v Speaker 4>park our cars. Hey, how you doing. What's up Sean?

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<v Speaker 4>What's up Dalton? Blah blah blah. Well, about eight months ago,

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<v Speaker 4>I get out of my car and he comes running

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<v Speaker 4>up and he goes, Dalton. He goes, I didn't know

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<v Speaker 4>you were Mark Reese on nine oh two one zero

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<v Speaker 4>and I go yeah. He goes, I love that show.

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<v Speaker 4>He goes, I've every single episode. I'm rewatching him now.

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<v Speaker 4>He goes, I I'm watching it and I go, oh

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<v Speaker 4>my god, that's Dalton. And he's like the most unassuming

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<v Speaker 4>like fan, like he's this big manly guy. I just

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<v Speaker 4>I thought it was pretty funny study.

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<v Speaker 3>That it took him fifteen years to realize totally.

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<v Speaker 4>Well, you know, I'm a lot older now.

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<v Speaker 5>I mean, he looks the same exactly.

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<v Speaker 4>Yeah. You know, I've got a vision in my mind

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<v Speaker 4>of what I look like, you know what I tell

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<v Speaker 4>and it's like already maybe you know, twenty seven somewhere

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<v Speaker 4>in there, and then yeah, yeah, and then my wife

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<v Speaker 4>will go, hey, let's do a selfie and she'll take

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<v Speaker 4>it and I'm like, let me see, and I'm like,

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<v Speaker 4>that's what I look like.

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<v Speaker 5>Yeah, he wrote a book.

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<v Speaker 3>That's that's a huge accomplishment.

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<v Speaker 4>You know what I It is a huge accomplishment. I

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<v Speaker 4>just went through and reread the whole thing the other day,

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<v Speaker 4>and I'm getting set up to finish. I edited it,

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<v Speaker 4>edited about half of it, and I'm sitting down getting

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<v Speaker 4>ready to sit down and edit the other half. I

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<v Speaker 4>have a bunch of notes and stuff, and I read

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<v Speaker 4>the whole book through. It's about one hundred it's a

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<v Speaker 4>small book. I call it the Little Book of Consciousness.

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<v Speaker 4>It's about one hundred and fifty three pages. And I

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<v Speaker 4>sat down and read it and I was like, wow,

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<v Speaker 4>I can't believe that I wrote this, Like it's it's

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<v Speaker 4>pretty cool. Like I never I never considered myself a writer,

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<v Speaker 4>you know, I think we.

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<v Speaker 3>All have that in us. But it sounds like you've

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<v Speaker 3>been through, you know, a lot in your life of

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<v Speaker 3>like just dealing with emotions and circumstances and where you

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<v Speaker 3>are versus where you want to be, and where you

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<v Speaker 3>want to be versus where you are. You know, this

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<v Speaker 3>all stuff that everybody can relate to. So kudos to

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<v Speaker 3>you for putting it down on paper.

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<v Speaker 4>Well, thank you. Yeah, it was. It's a pretty cool accomplishment.

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<v Speaker 4>I just I want to get it done. I haven't

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<v Speaker 4>decided if I'm going to try and go the traditional

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<v Speaker 4>route of publishing or if I want to self publish it.

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<v Speaker 4>The only thing that bothers me is I've heard that

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<v Speaker 4>sometimes if they take your book and they do a

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<v Speaker 4>certain run, if that doesn't do as well as they thought,

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<v Speaker 4>then they stop and it's not really yours. Or I

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<v Speaker 4>don't know all the particulars, but I kind of might

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<v Speaker 4>just self publish it. And if I mean, even if

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<v Speaker 4>I gave it away for free, you know, it's if

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<v Speaker 4>it can help somebody, you know, one one person I

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<v Speaker 4>mean that's kind of cool. That's uh. I mean, ultimately

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<v Speaker 4>that's what matters, you know, and that's the reason I

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<v Speaker 4>wrote it.

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<v Speaker 3>Yeah, one person that resonates with one person and makes

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<v Speaker 3>them feel less.

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<v Speaker 4>Alone or yeah, absolutely, yeah, Well send.

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<v Speaker 3>Us a copy when you get it ready.

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<v Speaker 4>I will, I will do that.

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<v Speaker 3>Well, we're so happy to be able to connect in

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<v Speaker 3>I'm really happy we were able to talk.

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<v Speaker 4>About that, and I was you too.

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<v Speaker 5>I wanted to talk to you.

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<v Speaker 3>But I was also slash nervous about it and just wondering,

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<v Speaker 3>like where you had landed with all of that after

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<v Speaker 3>all these years, and if it brought you know, talking

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<v Speaker 3>about it brought back stuff. But I'm sorry for you know,

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<v Speaker 3>my part in whatever happened. You know, if that had

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<v Speaker 3>a negative effect on you in any.

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<v Speaker 4>Way, that's awesome, Thank you, and I I'm sorry as

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<v Speaker 4>well for my part. That's uh, I'm pretty shocked about

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<v Speaker 4>that you're talking to me about that. I think that's

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<v Speaker 4>really cool of you. God is smiling at you.

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<v Speaker 3>Oh good.

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<v Speaker 4>I think that's cool.

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<v Speaker 3>It's really really nice to connect with you again.

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<v Speaker 2>You're always so nice back then, So thank you for

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<v Speaker 2>doing this interview.

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<v Speaker 4>You got it and you were always so nice to Tori.

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<v Speaker 1>Thank you all right.

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<v Speaker 3>Good luck with your book.

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<v Speaker 4>All right, thank you. I'll get you guys a copy

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<v Speaker 4>when it's done. Please, thank you, you're welcome. Thank you. Okay,