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Speaker 1: Scrubbing In with Beca Tilly and Tanya rad and iHeartRadio

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Speaker 1: and two time People's Choice Award winning podcast.

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Speaker 2: Hello everybody, we are scrubbing.

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Speaker 3: In, scrubbing In, Scrubbing.

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Speaker 2: We have a very special guest joining us in studio,

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Speaker 2: Kaitlin Bristow. Okay, we normally say it like, we normally

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Speaker 2: have our regular episodes on Monday, and then we have

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Speaker 2: our guest episodes on Thursday. But you're special a Monday guest?

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Speaker 3: Is it because I've really got nothing going on? And

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Speaker 3: you're like, we'll just have her as a filler. No, no,

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Speaker 3: because things are sacred.

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Speaker 1: And like our scribbers prefer our Monday episodes because it's

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Speaker 1: just us. They don't really, I mean, they like guests,

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Speaker 1: but I feel like that they prefer the ones that

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Speaker 1: are just us. But we feel like you're a good

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Speaker 1: enough guest that you belong, like in the mix.

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Speaker 3: Yeah yeah, because you're there.

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Speaker 2: Yeah yeah, yeah, you're like a third host.

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Speaker 3: Yeah yeah, I feel that welcome.

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Speaker 2: I was just saying, last time you were on the

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Speaker 2: podcast was twenty twenty two over Zoom.

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Speaker 3: Wild Time, Wild Time. But why were we still in

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Speaker 3: Zoom in twenty twenty two?

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Speaker 2: I don't think we were still into I think it

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Speaker 2: was just CHITLN was gone. Yeah okay, And I don't

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Speaker 2: remember what if you were promoting something or if I

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Speaker 2: was just like, has.

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Speaker 3: This thing got to be in the way of our eyesight?

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Speaker 2: I know, okay, I know, I'll get over.

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Speaker 3: Yeah, twenty twenty two feels like it was yesterday. Yeah, yeah,

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Speaker 3: I'm scared.

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Speaker 2: I know.

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Speaker 3: Isn't that crazy? The passage of time really freaks me out.

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Speaker 2: Okay, wait, I just listened to your podcast when you

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Speaker 2: were talking about the passage of time, and it got

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Speaker 2: me feeling anxious about the passage of time because I

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Speaker 2: don't think about that in those terms. I have a

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Speaker 2: like a societal fear of aging in terms of like

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Speaker 2: how my body and face and all that stuff, but

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Speaker 2: in terms But then I'm like, oh, it's such a

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Speaker 2: privilege to age, so I go there. But you started

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Speaker 2: talking about the passage of time that comes along with aging,

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Speaker 2: and then I was like, I got kind of dark.

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Speaker 3: So I'm sorry. I probably did that for a lot

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Speaker 3: of people. It is dark, though, Like I feel like

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Speaker 3: moving faster than normal.

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Speaker 1: I think it's getting older because I feel like because

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Speaker 1: my parents always said that, yeah, because I feel like

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Speaker 1: we were little and we're like, oh, like the school

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Speaker 3: My gosh, it's Christmas tomorrow, you know what I mean. Yeah,

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Speaker 3: everything happens so fast. I think you're right because my

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Speaker 3: dad was like, well, wait until you turn fifty, because

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Speaker 3: I think about how fast my thirties just went. And

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Speaker 3: I'm turning forty in like two months, which is wild

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Speaker 3: barely birthday, thank you. And then I'm like, well, then

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Speaker 3: I'm going to be fifty before you're not, because my

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Speaker 3: scares me so much. But like you said, it's so

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Speaker 3: confusing because you're it. I've always focused on like aging's bad,

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Speaker 3: and then I did this whole like inner child work

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Speaker 2: I also, you were saying it was like something that

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Speaker 2: I do think that, Yeah, not so much like my

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Speaker 2: But there is something I wonder with our generation that

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Speaker 2: I wonder. I wonder if the next generation is either

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Speaker 1: They'll be more like I think it's because we're seeing

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Speaker 1: all like on our like social media pages, we're seeing

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Speaker 1: these twenty year olds with like no pores and like

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Speaker 2: I know, literally I had Doctor Bubber chapstick as my lipstick.

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Speaker 1: Like we like literally sat in the sun all day.

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Speaker 3: Yeah, you know what is that stuff that? It was

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Speaker 3: Is my favorite feeling in the world. And I just

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Speaker 3: just love nostylegia so much. Wait, you brought up your birthday.

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Speaker 3: Do you have plans? I means to freak you out?

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Speaker 3: Plan And I feel like forty is so chic.

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Speaker 2: I really it's Jennifer Aniston.

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Speaker 3: Yeah, it's like the new twenty and I've read so much,

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Speaker 3: like it just sounds so much older, Like my age

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Speaker 3: there's also everyone says like, ah, you do you feel

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Speaker 3: somebody to just do it for me. There's this girl

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Speaker 3: who is a company. Her name's Anna. How genius is

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Speaker 3: plan something. Forty is a big deal. Yeah, you have

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Speaker 3: to plan. I have nothing planned, Hannah, Hannah, help me.

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Speaker 3: That's a genius, right. Yeah. I would like to do

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Speaker 1: Yeah, with the wedding stuff, that's all. I just felt

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Speaker 3: Yeah, and you shouldn't. I'm like, I, yeah, you know,

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Speaker 3: I hear you say that, and I'm like, no, that's silly. Yeah, yeah,

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Speaker 2: But it's funny because if someone's putting in the effort

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Speaker 2: to Europe. Yeah, to celebrate you.

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Speaker 3: I hope they just don't feel like they have to.

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Speaker 2: I don't think it's one thing to go to dinner.

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Speaker 2: It's one thing to feel like you have to go

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Speaker 3: Yeah. I don't want anyone feel like they have to come,

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Speaker 2: If they don't.

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Speaker 3: Yeah. Yeah, like I'm not twelve anymore, but I'm I

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Speaker 3: just want like my favorite people there.

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Speaker 2: Yeah, if you were to do a birthday trip, how

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Speaker 2: many people does your favorite people entail? Because sometimes if

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Speaker 3: I want like my childhood friends. Did you say that's

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Speaker 2: Yeah? Oh no, I was not thinking a lot?

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Speaker 3: Oh wow, Well and then I'm like do they bring

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Speaker 3: Yeah I do like their significant others. Okay, yeah, like

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Speaker 2: Should do like a house in my Orca or something.

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Speaker 3: Okay, I was thinking about that too, or like the

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Speaker 3: Bahamas is get some villas. Yeah, like a private chef

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Speaker 3: or something. Maybe you could do like a happy medium

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Speaker 3: like how My girlfriend Penny asked me such a good question.

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Speaker 3: She goes, well, what what do you want this to

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Speaker 3: Is it about how you're gonna feel? Is it about

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Speaker 3: like no, I actually just want to feel like safe

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Speaker 3: Crazy and get in the cold plunge. Yeah, and then

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Speaker 3: you can have more people.

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Speaker 2: Really. It is interesting though, because I every time I've

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Speaker 2: I think I think I remember Jennifer Annison turning forty,

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Speaker 2: Anison turning forty. Yeah, But when I think about myself

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Speaker 3: It's a trip? Yeah, it's an actual trip. Kisses me off.

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Speaker 2: I't is that we do have these like.

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Speaker 1: Even though it's not societal pressures, it's like actual biological pressures.

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Speaker 3: That what pisses me off, do you know what I mean?

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Speaker 1: I get that, Like that's where I get like annoyed

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Speaker 3: Too long because you're geriatric now.

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Speaker 3: I know, age is really just that did you freeze

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Speaker 3: I did when I was thirty two, and I'm really

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Speaker 3: happy I did it. But also like like for my

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Speaker 2: Like?

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Speaker 3: I have fibroids all over my uterus?

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Speaker 2: Tho, oh, do you have horrible periods?

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Speaker 3: Horrible?

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Speaker 2: Yeah?

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Speaker 3: Like like what's a fibroid?

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Speaker 2: Do you have an ometriosis?

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Speaker 3: I don't, I might, but how do they test for that?

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Speaker 1: So it's hard to test for, like you basically have to,

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Speaker 3: I do it every time.

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Speaker 3: just like I'm like fully like in I feel like

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00:18:38,280 --> 00:18:40,640
Speaker 3: I'm so like, yeah, I'm always in fight or flight,

438
00:18:40,680 --> 00:18:43,639
Speaker 3: which I'm like, I'm so healed and I'm whole, but

439
00:18:43,760 --> 00:18:47,440
Speaker 3: I'm also the human and totally feel like I'm protecting

440
00:18:47,480 --> 00:18:50,000
Speaker 3: my piece so much to a like fault now at

441
00:18:50,040 --> 00:18:50,800
Speaker 3: this point in my life.

442
00:18:51,160 --> 00:18:54,720
Speaker 2: Yeah, yeah, I think that's so normal. And also, like

443
00:18:54,800 --> 00:18:56,760
Speaker 2: you said, you're a human and like we're flawed and

444
00:18:57,359 --> 00:19:00,680
Speaker 2: and if the pattern is persistent. How would do not think?

445
00:19:00,800 --> 00:19:03,560
Speaker 2: Like how why wanted this next person do?

446
00:19:03,720 --> 00:19:04,800
Speaker 3: What the poor next person?

447
00:19:05,960 --> 00:19:09,320
Speaker 2: Oh? Is there a next person right now? I mean

448
00:19:09,480 --> 00:19:09,679
Speaker 2: I am.

449
00:19:09,960 --> 00:19:13,280
Speaker 3: I have made it so clear on like social media

450
00:19:13,359 --> 00:19:16,920
Speaker 3: and podcasts. I'm like, I just want my dating life

451
00:19:17,000 --> 00:19:19,720
Speaker 3: to be a little sacred right now, and like keep

452
00:19:19,760 --> 00:19:23,560
Speaker 3: it close because I I just think the minute you

453
00:19:23,760 --> 00:19:28,400
Speaker 3: expose a relationship, it invites everybody into obviously have opinions

454
00:19:28,520 --> 00:19:31,480
Speaker 3: and you know how it goes. And so I'm like,

455
00:19:31,600 --> 00:19:34,320
Speaker 3: I will share when I'm married and like pregnant, be like, hey,

456
00:19:34,720 --> 00:19:37,160
Speaker 3: now now you can know. Like I'm just so I'm

457
00:19:37,280 --> 00:19:38,760
Speaker 3: keeping it so close.

458
00:19:39,119 --> 00:19:41,600
Speaker 2: Oh my wow, I get it. I mean Haley and

459
00:19:41,640 --> 00:19:43,960
Speaker 2: I were private for four years because I was like,

460
00:19:44,119 --> 00:19:46,960
Speaker 2: I don't feel I just didn't feel like I could

461
00:19:47,040 --> 00:19:50,800
Speaker 2: handle any criticism or opinions on it until I was

462
00:19:50,880 --> 00:19:53,720
Speaker 2: ready to, and like it felt it was so nice

463
00:19:53,760 --> 00:19:55,359
Speaker 2: having it. And then at the same time, it's like

464
00:19:55,480 --> 00:19:58,119
Speaker 2: we we share what we want to share, right, we

465
00:19:58,160 --> 00:20:01,680
Speaker 2: don't share what we don't want to share, hiding like no, no,

466
00:20:01,800 --> 00:20:02,240
Speaker 2: we just didn't.

467
00:20:04,040 --> 00:20:05,680
Speaker 1: That's what I also feel like, I want to go

468
00:20:05,760 --> 00:20:07,720
Speaker 1: back to what you said about what I can't remember

469
00:20:07,720 --> 00:20:08,280
Speaker 1: exactly what you said.

470
00:20:08,320 --> 00:20:10,879
Speaker 3: You said, poor next guy or whatever like that. But no,

471
00:20:11,080 --> 00:20:11,440
Speaker 3: we do that.

472
00:20:12,240 --> 00:20:12,920
Speaker 2: Let's take a break.

473
00:20:13,320 --> 00:20:15,120
Speaker 3: I was about to Tony Robbins your ass.

474
00:20:34,280 --> 00:20:36,920
Speaker 2: All right, we're back. Go ahead, Tony Robbins, Away, Tanya,

475
00:20:37,400 --> 00:20:38,040
Speaker 2: Tony Robins.

476
00:20:38,160 --> 00:20:42,760
Speaker 1: Yea, Tony Robins, you are not not poor next guy.

477
00:20:42,840 --> 00:20:45,879
Speaker 1: You are so accomplished. You have so much going for you.

478
00:20:46,280 --> 00:20:48,400
Speaker 1: You should be so proud of the person, the woman

479
00:20:48,440 --> 00:20:50,720
Speaker 1: that you are and what you've built for yourself and

480
00:20:50,880 --> 00:20:53,320
Speaker 1: the next person, the next guy, the next whatever comes

481
00:20:53,359 --> 00:20:56,399
Speaker 1: into your life. Is so lucky to be able to

482
00:20:56,560 --> 00:20:59,440
Speaker 1: have that and to be able to experience that, and

483
00:21:00,160 --> 00:21:02,560
Speaker 1: you should have that perspective because I really believe that

484
00:21:02,680 --> 00:21:04,439
Speaker 1: about you, and you should believe it about yourself.

485
00:21:06,320 --> 00:21:07,240
Speaker 2: She's a woman of words.

486
00:21:07,440 --> 00:21:12,119
Speaker 1: Really, I'm like, okay, Tony, Yeah, But it's so easy

487
00:21:12,200 --> 00:21:14,200
Speaker 1: to like because I've been there. I've been there, like

488
00:21:14,320 --> 00:21:16,000
Speaker 1: I always like, I feel like there was so many

489
00:21:16,240 --> 00:21:18,120
Speaker 1: and I'm like so mad that for so many years

490
00:21:18,200 --> 00:21:21,680
Speaker 1: I was like what's wrong with me? Because I love

491
00:21:21,800 --> 00:21:24,520
Speaker 1: so fiercely, or like I'm so embarrassing or like whatever,

492
00:21:24,560 --> 00:21:26,399
Speaker 1: and I used to internalize it and I'm like, no,

493
00:21:26,720 --> 00:21:28,880
Speaker 1: like the right guy came into my life and he's

494
00:21:28,920 --> 00:21:29,920
Speaker 1: like obsessed.

495
00:21:29,520 --> 00:21:32,280
Speaker 3: With all that about me totally, and the internet likes

496
00:21:32,320 --> 00:21:34,520
Speaker 3: to guess light me into thinking I'm like the worst,

497
00:21:35,600 --> 00:21:38,320
Speaker 3: So I'm like, is it me? Oh, but no, I

498
00:21:38,440 --> 00:21:40,080
Speaker 3: agree with you, and I do feel proud and I

499
00:21:40,119 --> 00:21:42,440
Speaker 3: do feel like whoever I'm with will be lucky because

500
00:21:42,480 --> 00:21:44,960
Speaker 3: I really do believe I am a catch but for

501
00:21:45,080 --> 00:21:47,560
Speaker 3: so many reasons. But I also do come with like

502
00:21:48,440 --> 00:21:49,480
Speaker 3: such a guarded heart.

503
00:21:49,960 --> 00:21:52,760
Speaker 1: But so does everybody, by the way, Like I honestly,

504
00:21:52,840 --> 00:21:55,359
Speaker 1: like I really. What I've also realized is like every

505
00:21:55,440 --> 00:21:58,320
Speaker 1: single person has some sort of issues that they are

506
00:21:58,359 --> 00:22:00,520
Speaker 1: dealing with from like their childhood. Even if you grew

507
00:22:00,560 --> 00:22:02,639
Speaker 1: up in like a perfect loving home, like you have

508
00:22:02,760 --> 00:22:05,919
Speaker 1: issues from like the school, playground.

509
00:22:05,440 --> 00:22:05,920
Speaker 2: Or like whatever.

510
00:22:06,119 --> 00:22:11,200
Speaker 3: Everybody's carrying something. Yeah, I'm just laughing because I just

511
00:22:11,240 --> 00:22:13,600
Speaker 3: thought of like these mean girls in the fifth grade

512
00:22:13,880 --> 00:22:15,720
Speaker 3: I got in this fight with like all the girls

513
00:22:15,760 --> 00:22:18,119
Speaker 3: turned against me. I can't even remember why. But whatever

514
00:22:18,160 --> 00:22:20,119
Speaker 3: age you are in the fifth grade, like ten, I

515
00:22:20,119 --> 00:22:22,680
Speaker 3: don't know, yeah, eleven, and they all turned on me

516
00:22:22,800 --> 00:22:25,640
Speaker 3: and they all chanted your butt's as big as a garbage.

517
00:22:26,720 --> 00:22:29,359
Speaker 3: I'm like, and I'm like, I laugh. But I remember

518
00:22:29,440 --> 00:22:32,520
Speaker 3: going home and sobbing, yeah, because of what I'm like.

519
00:22:32,720 --> 00:22:34,879
Speaker 3: I was literally like thirty pounds soaking web. But they

520
00:22:34,920 --> 00:22:37,960
Speaker 3: were telling me my butts said, I feel like I'm

521
00:22:38,000 --> 00:22:38,479
Speaker 3: high right now.

522
00:22:38,880 --> 00:22:42,280
Speaker 2: You should make that like put a little jingle behind

523
00:22:42,359 --> 00:22:44,280
Speaker 2: it and make it a little chant on off the vine.

524
00:22:44,440 --> 00:22:47,119
Speaker 3: Yeah, just like. And I heard those girls listen and

525
00:22:47,160 --> 00:22:47,960
Speaker 3: they're like, oh, it's me.

526
00:22:48,400 --> 00:22:51,480
Speaker 2: I bet they listen to everything you do and watch everything.

527
00:22:51,480 --> 00:22:54,119
Speaker 3: Really scary is I posted a TikTok and somebody on

528
00:22:54,200 --> 00:22:57,840
Speaker 3: a like it was like a no picture, Yeah, yeah,

529
00:22:57,840 --> 00:23:00,959
Speaker 3: of course apple, use are nine eight whatever? And they

530
00:23:01,000 --> 00:23:03,840
Speaker 3: were like, I can't I can't believe they've made this

531
00:23:03,960 --> 00:23:06,359
Speaker 3: girl famous. I used to work with her at Cactus Club,

532
00:23:06,600 --> 00:23:08,800
Speaker 3: and I'm like, oh, you're the scary ones because you

533
00:23:08,920 --> 00:23:10,920
Speaker 3: like know me and I've probably been nice to you

534
00:23:11,160 --> 00:23:14,040
Speaker 3: and we work together. And I always think about that.

535
00:23:14,160 --> 00:23:16,640
Speaker 3: With really nasty people, sometimes I get like the worse

536
00:23:16,720 --> 00:23:19,320
Speaker 3: kind of messages and I'm like, like, do I know

537
00:23:19,400 --> 00:23:21,320
Speaker 3: you from school or something? I don't know what's scarce.

538
00:23:21,840 --> 00:23:26,560
Speaker 2: I'm curious why it is. It is like profoundly strange

539
00:23:26,600 --> 00:23:32,280
Speaker 2: to me. Why you get such like mean comments and

540
00:23:32,400 --> 00:23:35,080
Speaker 2: messages because I think what it I think where I

541
00:23:35,200 --> 00:23:38,560
Speaker 2: get confused is that there's been so many people since

542
00:23:38,680 --> 00:23:41,120
Speaker 2: you were on the show who have been very confident

543
00:23:41,200 --> 00:23:46,119
Speaker 2: and like about their sexuality and been bold and like,

544
00:23:46,880 --> 00:23:48,480
Speaker 2: you know, you kind of changed the game in the

545
00:23:48,520 --> 00:23:51,520
Speaker 2: Bachelorette world yea, in bachelor world in general, but like

546
00:23:51,680 --> 00:23:54,560
Speaker 2: without you, those girls would not be able to like

547
00:23:54,720 --> 00:23:57,480
Speaker 2: freely say, but you're the one who gets like so much,

548
00:23:58,040 --> 00:23:59,840
Speaker 2: I can't you can't do anything.

549
00:24:00,080 --> 00:24:03,320
Speaker 3: It's really crazy. It's I mean, the misogyny in this

550
00:24:03,440 --> 00:24:05,920
Speaker 3: world is so real first of all, and so I

551
00:24:05,960 --> 00:24:09,280
Speaker 3: can't do anything right. But it's yeah, it feels like

552
00:24:09,960 --> 00:24:11,760
Speaker 3: but I'm like sad for those people that are so mean,

553
00:24:11,960 --> 00:24:14,280
Speaker 3: Like well, yeah, I mean, it's it's actually sad. But

554
00:24:14,359 --> 00:24:17,119
Speaker 3: I was thinking about that because I'll never forget just

555
00:24:17,240 --> 00:24:20,520
Speaker 3: getting like absolutely slutshamed from my season and just like

556
00:24:20,680 --> 00:24:23,239
Speaker 3: people like i'got about it that I can't wait till

557
00:24:23,240 --> 00:24:25,880
Speaker 3: I get to the mentel All episode when Chris Harrison

558
00:24:26,000 --> 00:24:28,760
Speaker 3: reads the mean tweets that I get, like from people

559
00:24:28,760 --> 00:24:30,360
Speaker 3: on the internet and they were like, shut your whore

560
00:24:30,520 --> 00:24:33,080
Speaker 3: legs and die in a dumpster, like I got it bad.

561
00:24:33,560 --> 00:24:35,760
Speaker 3: And then Hannah Brown was like I had sex four

562
00:24:35,800 --> 00:24:37,879
Speaker 3: times in a windmill and like doing this and the

563
00:24:38,320 --> 00:24:41,280
Speaker 3: crowd goes wild, and I was like part of me

564
00:24:41,520 --> 00:24:43,159
Speaker 3: was like oh, and then part of me was like, no,

565
00:24:43,280 --> 00:24:46,760
Speaker 3: that's awesome because I like that that changed the game. Yeah,

566
00:24:46,760 --> 00:24:49,480
Speaker 3: I like that. People will celebrate her now for that. Who,

567
00:24:49,600 --> 00:24:51,840
Speaker 3: by the way, is guest bartending on this season?

568
00:24:52,040 --> 00:24:57,520
Speaker 2: I just saw that she last night. Yeah she is. Yeah.

569
00:24:58,240 --> 00:25:01,840
Speaker 2: I was like, what happened to wo Wells too? He's

570
00:25:01,840 --> 00:25:04,920
Speaker 2: the main PARTI chage Bubbly.

571
00:25:05,760 --> 00:25:07,960
Speaker 3: I guess yeah, oh wow.

572
00:25:08,240 --> 00:25:08,399
Speaker 2: I know.

573
00:25:08,560 --> 00:25:09,919
Speaker 3: I was like, what crazy?

574
00:25:10,119 --> 00:25:13,320
Speaker 2: But I so my question for you is that you

575
00:25:13,520 --> 00:25:18,119
Speaker 2: are so vulnerable you share things that because I was

576
00:25:18,160 --> 00:25:21,920
Speaker 2: listening to your podcast about the dog name stuff and

577
00:25:23,520 --> 00:25:25,760
Speaker 2: it's like you you preface it, which I know I'm

578
00:25:25,760 --> 00:25:27,720
Speaker 2: gonna get a lot of hate for this, Yeah, but

579
00:25:27,840 --> 00:25:30,080
Speaker 2: you still do it knowing you're gonna get hate. But

580
00:25:30,400 --> 00:25:33,320
Speaker 2: you also struggle with anxiety and like the stress of it.

581
00:25:33,440 --> 00:25:35,720
Speaker 2: So how do you? I guess my thing is like

582
00:25:35,800 --> 00:25:37,480
Speaker 2: I would just have to get off social media.

583
00:25:37,520 --> 00:25:40,360
Speaker 3: I think yeah, I did a little bit actually after

584
00:25:40,480 --> 00:25:43,840
Speaker 3: that because I knew, yeah, You're like, I'm gonna drop

585
00:25:43,960 --> 00:25:48,840
Speaker 3: this and then I'm yeah, exactly in Tutulu for a week. Yeah,

586
00:25:49,160 --> 00:25:52,000
Speaker 3: I knew, I just knew. I mean, it's it's all

587
00:25:52,119 --> 00:25:55,080
Speaker 3: the I feel like it's a lot of like mothers

588
00:25:55,080 --> 00:25:58,120
Speaker 3: who think he's the perfect son, and they like think

589
00:25:58,160 --> 00:26:03,920
Speaker 3: I'm this degenerate like yeah, being crazy and but people

590
00:26:03,960 --> 00:26:05,960
Speaker 3: are looking for something to like be mad at me

591
00:26:06,040 --> 00:26:08,440
Speaker 3: for all the time. So it's like an easy If

592
00:26:08,480 --> 00:26:10,160
Speaker 3: I do something and I know I'm gonna get hate

593
00:26:10,200 --> 00:26:11,959
Speaker 3: for it, it's like they're like, oh, yes, we get

594
00:26:12,000 --> 00:26:14,960
Speaker 3: to hater for it. So I mean the love that

595
00:26:15,080 --> 00:26:18,639
Speaker 3: I get and the DMS is so nice and like

596
00:26:19,000 --> 00:26:21,720
Speaker 3: because for some reason, the hate the haters and the

597
00:26:22,280 --> 00:26:25,919
Speaker 3: crazy trolls are so loud, and then the people who

598
00:26:26,000 --> 00:26:29,359
Speaker 3: are normal and loving aren't going to comment on these things.

599
00:26:29,480 --> 00:26:31,200
Speaker 3: They're gonna maybe just send me a DM and be

600
00:26:31,280 --> 00:26:33,600
Speaker 3: like hey, that's pretty fed up and like here for

601
00:26:33,720 --> 00:26:34,600
Speaker 3: you and like we love you.

602
00:26:34,680 --> 00:26:35,200
Speaker 2: B Yeah.

603
00:26:35,280 --> 00:26:38,600
Speaker 3: It's always so I'm like I want to avoid the dms,

604
00:26:38,640 --> 00:26:41,200
Speaker 3: but at the same time, it's nice to feel validated

605
00:26:41,320 --> 00:26:46,040
Speaker 3: by some people Warner, which is sick, but yeah, I

606
00:26:46,200 --> 00:26:50,520
Speaker 3: just not silly. It's like they it's weird because it is.

607
00:26:50,640 --> 00:26:52,520
Speaker 1: It's like there there are these people that you don't know,

608
00:26:52,960 --> 00:26:54,800
Speaker 1: so it's like you should we shouldn't care what they

609
00:26:54,840 --> 00:26:56,520
Speaker 1: think about us, whether it's good or bad.

610
00:26:57,080 --> 00:26:59,920
Speaker 3: But the the I don't want to say the prey,

611
00:27:00,280 --> 00:27:03,680
Speaker 3: but like the thumbs up and like the encouragement is nice.

612
00:27:03,920 --> 00:27:05,920
Speaker 2: Well, it's like, if you're gonna care about the bad ones,

613
00:27:05,960 --> 00:27:08,280
Speaker 2: then why not care about the good ones? Yeah, Like,

614
00:27:08,359 --> 00:27:10,440
Speaker 2: if anything, I wish I could focus more on the

615
00:27:10,480 --> 00:27:11,879
Speaker 2: good ones unless, like I.

616
00:27:12,000 --> 00:27:14,520
Speaker 3: Try, I've got I've actually gotten better at that. Yeah,

617
00:27:14,720 --> 00:27:17,080
Speaker 3: I feel like I'm like, instead of I used to

618
00:27:17,119 --> 00:27:19,040
Speaker 3: always call it shopping for pain, instead of like going

619
00:27:19,160 --> 00:27:21,679
Speaker 3: looking for these mean comments and like harping on them,

620
00:27:21,720 --> 00:27:24,560
Speaker 3: I actually now go looking for like love and support

621
00:27:24,960 --> 00:27:28,680
Speaker 3: and try and have conversation with those people instead. Yeah,

622
00:27:28,720 --> 00:27:30,080
Speaker 3: And it's so much more fulfilling.

623
00:27:30,240 --> 00:27:32,800
Speaker 2: If if I open my DMS and I see like

624
00:27:32,880 --> 00:27:35,040
Speaker 2: one negative thing, I'm like, okay, I'm off. I'm just

625
00:27:35,119 --> 00:27:37,760
Speaker 2: really logging off for the day, or not looking at

626
00:27:37,800 --> 00:27:38,240
Speaker 2: my DMS.

627
00:27:38,320 --> 00:27:41,719
Speaker 3: You know, somebody DM me last night and they were like, uh,

628
00:27:42,480 --> 00:27:45,479
Speaker 3: you have such a lazy eye. Maybe I do too,

629
00:27:45,560 --> 00:27:48,080
Speaker 3: Could you help me with that? And I'm like, bro,

630
00:27:49,200 --> 00:27:51,280
Speaker 3: I just like google the picture of a lazy eye

631
00:27:51,359 --> 00:27:53,720
Speaker 3: and I sent it back and I went, that's a

632
00:27:53,840 --> 00:27:55,840
Speaker 3: lazy eye. I have one eye that's smaller than the other.

633
00:27:55,880 --> 00:27:59,000
Speaker 3: Would you like to talk about that instead? Like people

634
00:27:59,040 --> 00:28:01,399
Speaker 3: are just so I find it so funny, though, what.

635
00:28:01,560 --> 00:28:03,679
Speaker 2: Are they just looking for connections? So they're like, let

636
00:28:03,760 --> 00:28:04,199
Speaker 2: me be mean.

637
00:28:04,359 --> 00:28:06,160
Speaker 3: So I think they've heard me talk about it before

638
00:28:06,200 --> 00:28:07,879
Speaker 3: where I used to like not hand out my school

639
00:28:07,880 --> 00:28:10,080
Speaker 3: picture in the fifth grade because I thought my eyes

640
00:28:10,160 --> 00:28:14,920
Speaker 3: were so like wonky and so can we You used

641
00:28:14,920 --> 00:28:16,520
Speaker 3: to hand out your photos? No, I used to not

642
00:28:16,680 --> 00:28:18,960
Speaker 3: have Oh yeah, what you never wrote on the back

643
00:28:19,040 --> 00:28:21,320
Speaker 3: like stay cool? No, why did you do?

644
00:28:21,560 --> 00:28:25,000
Speaker 2: What had your book? Yeah? You didn't like my family.

645
00:28:25,119 --> 00:28:27,879
Speaker 2: I guess my family got the thing for me.

646
00:28:27,920 --> 00:28:29,800
Speaker 3: I'd never had it, like.

647
00:28:29,920 --> 00:28:31,440
Speaker 2: You kept them in your wallet or something.

648
00:28:31,600 --> 00:28:33,520
Speaker 3: Yeah, like I would have so my all my friends

649
00:28:33,520 --> 00:28:35,199
Speaker 3: would like give me their school photos and I'd give

650
00:28:35,240 --> 00:28:37,359
Speaker 3: them mine and we'd sign the back saying like stay

651
00:28:37,440 --> 00:28:40,120
Speaker 3: cool but spell it like kati w Yeah. Yeah, I'd

652
00:28:40,160 --> 00:28:42,320
Speaker 3: had them on book on the wall in my room

653
00:28:42,360 --> 00:28:44,000
Speaker 3: and I had all my friends Oh yeah, yes your

654
00:28:44,040 --> 00:28:46,680
Speaker 3: book to Oh maybe that's like the bulletin board. So

655
00:28:46,800 --> 00:28:49,200
Speaker 3: funny heard that I had a bulletin board.

656
00:28:49,400 --> 00:28:51,600
Speaker 2: Yeah, I had one too, It just had I don't

657
00:28:51,640 --> 00:28:59,920
Speaker 2: even like picture of Leonardo DiCaprio from Titanic on it. Yeah, primetime, literal, primetime. Yeah.

658
00:29:00,160 --> 00:29:02,360
Speaker 2: I just I find it. I find it strange that

659
00:29:02,680 --> 00:29:05,880
Speaker 2: you and it's it's it seems to be centered around

660
00:29:06,080 --> 00:29:07,760
Speaker 2: this is what bugs me. It seems to be centered

661
00:29:07,800 --> 00:29:11,160
Speaker 2: around men and your relationship and breakups. But then if

662
00:29:11,200 --> 00:29:13,640
Speaker 2: I talk about it, I'm whatever, if I'm taking attention.

663
00:29:14,160 --> 00:29:16,880
Speaker 2: I was also I was gonna say, it's so crazy

664
00:29:17,000 --> 00:29:18,960
Speaker 2: because you go on podcasts and of course people are

665
00:29:19,000 --> 00:29:20,520
Speaker 2: going to ask you about it. So the options or

666
00:29:20,600 --> 00:29:22,160
Speaker 2: you either go, I don't want to talk about it,

667
00:29:22,440 --> 00:29:25,360
Speaker 2: which is not fun for a podcast hosts, or you

668
00:29:25,480 --> 00:29:28,600
Speaker 2: go you talk about it in in the most gracious

669
00:29:28,600 --> 00:29:30,760
Speaker 2: way that you can while being honest, and then people

670
00:29:30,800 --> 00:29:32,760
Speaker 2: are like, why is she still talking about this? I

671
00:29:32,880 --> 00:29:33,840
Speaker 2: know it's like you can't win.

672
00:29:34,000 --> 00:29:35,200
Speaker 3: Damned if you do, damned if you don't.

673
00:29:35,280 --> 00:29:36,400
Speaker 2: Totally world that.

674
00:29:36,440 --> 00:29:38,600
Speaker 3: I live in that I've just accept I've accepted that.

675
00:29:39,000 --> 00:29:42,080
Speaker 3: I'm like, like, even somebody asking me at the event

676
00:29:42,160 --> 00:29:44,560
Speaker 3: last night, like they're like, I'm with people. Magazine can

677
00:29:44,600 --> 00:29:47,600
Speaker 3: ask you a few questions. I was like, we're going

678
00:29:48,000 --> 00:29:50,200
Speaker 3: because I knew what it was gonna be. Yeah, it

679
00:29:50,760 --> 00:29:53,800
Speaker 3: was just you know, the breakups are hard, and your

680
00:29:53,880 --> 00:29:56,040
Speaker 3: last podcast you talked about this this, and I was like,

681
00:29:56,240 --> 00:29:57,920
Speaker 3: but I also said in the podcast that I never

682
00:29:57,960 --> 00:30:01,440
Speaker 3: wanted to talk about again. Yes, done, I'm it's in

683
00:30:01,520 --> 00:30:05,720
Speaker 3: the past and the only X I want is extra money.

684
00:30:05,800 --> 00:30:06,120
Speaker 2: Members.

685
00:30:06,280 --> 00:30:10,240
Speaker 3: Do you know that TikTok trend? Like that? It's like

686
00:30:11,120 --> 00:30:13,440
Speaker 3: if you'd done with your ex, move on to the next,

687
00:30:13,560 --> 00:30:15,800
Speaker 3: and it's like, oh my god, now you'll hear it

688
00:30:15,840 --> 00:30:18,040
Speaker 3: all the time. I'm I can't stop listening to it,

689
00:30:18,120 --> 00:30:19,280
Speaker 3: and now that's just my theme.

690
00:30:20,480 --> 00:30:23,280
Speaker 2: I had never seen her say that on the podcast,

691
00:30:23,360 --> 00:30:25,480
Speaker 2: and I thought, hmmm, how do we bring this up?

692
00:30:25,520 --> 00:30:28,720
Speaker 2: Because when we talked about it on the podcast about

693
00:30:28,760 --> 00:30:29,480
Speaker 2: the name thing.

694
00:30:29,480 --> 00:30:34,480
Speaker 1: Yeah, I'm sorry that story. I think I sent that

695
00:30:34,720 --> 00:30:37,400
Speaker 1: to like every person in my contacts.

696
00:30:39,160 --> 00:30:41,760
Speaker 3: I was so validated by all the right people, but

697
00:30:41,880 --> 00:30:43,800
Speaker 3: it was again just the people that hate me that

698
00:30:43,880 --> 00:30:46,720
Speaker 3: are gonna be like, it's a dog name. I'm like, yes,

699
00:30:46,960 --> 00:30:50,120
Speaker 3: And we had talked about it so many times, Yeah,

700
00:30:50,240 --> 00:30:53,600
Speaker 3: like it was my it's it's messed up. But I

701
00:30:53,720 --> 00:30:57,880
Speaker 3: also like, yes, you're right too, both can be true.

702
00:30:58,120 --> 00:31:02,120
Speaker 3: That is a common dog name, right, and it was

703
00:31:02,160 --> 00:31:05,080
Speaker 3: the number one. We went on getting Ash's podcast saying

704
00:31:05,120 --> 00:31:07,840
Speaker 3: that that was like, you know, it's just it's just

705
00:31:07,920 --> 00:31:10,000
Speaker 3: messed up. Yeah, no, it really is.

706
00:31:10,120 --> 00:31:12,880
Speaker 1: Like I remember when I saw that story, I literally

707
00:31:12,960 --> 00:31:14,760
Speaker 1: sent it to like every single person that I know

708
00:31:14,880 --> 00:31:17,120
Speaker 1: on the planet, like this is the craziest thing.

709
00:31:17,360 --> 00:31:20,160
Speaker 2: Yeah, did it feel like it was like a job

710
00:31:20,240 --> 00:31:20,680
Speaker 2: to hurt you?

711
00:31:20,880 --> 00:31:24,240
Speaker 3: Or like, because I'm so confused, because my thing is like, did.

712
00:31:24,160 --> 00:31:25,600
Speaker 2: He if it's something?

713
00:31:25,960 --> 00:31:27,000
Speaker 3: But if it's somebody mean?

714
00:31:27,480 --> 00:31:30,000
Speaker 2: But I'm saying if it's something, but I'm saying, if

715
00:31:30,040 --> 00:31:32,280
Speaker 2: it's something that y'all talked about, did he think that

716
00:31:32,440 --> 00:31:35,960
Speaker 2: you want it bring like I guess that you wouldn't

717
00:31:36,000 --> 00:31:37,200
Speaker 2: bring it up at some point?

718
00:31:37,960 --> 00:31:43,200
Speaker 3: Yeah, I think maybe I think it's hard because I

719
00:31:43,280 --> 00:31:45,600
Speaker 3: think I think he knew I would bring it up,

720
00:31:46,040 --> 00:31:49,520
Speaker 3: and I think that would get more traction to his page,

721
00:31:49,560 --> 00:31:52,640
Speaker 3: and that's essentially what he's been going for lately. So

722
00:31:52,720 --> 00:31:55,280
Speaker 3: I'm thinking maybe that was the reason. There's no way

723
00:31:55,320 --> 00:31:58,320
Speaker 3: he forgot, Like, there's no way. No, it was like

724
00:31:58,480 --> 00:32:02,320
Speaker 3: a very it was like five year conversation. Yeah, So yeah,

725
00:32:02,360 --> 00:32:03,160
Speaker 3: I'm not sure I would.

726
00:32:03,200 --> 00:32:05,400
Speaker 1: But you know what, I also think too. I think that,

727
00:32:06,520 --> 00:32:10,600
Speaker 1: and this is no slight against anybody. I do think

728
00:32:10,720 --> 00:32:14,640
Speaker 1: sometimes in breakups, like you can be petty. People can

729
00:32:14,720 --> 00:32:16,800
Speaker 1: be petty. Sometimes breakups bring out.

730
00:32:16,680 --> 00:32:20,600
Speaker 2: The worst, the worst version of yourself. Yea.

731
00:32:20,720 --> 00:32:22,800
Speaker 1: So maybe that was done in like a moment of

732
00:32:23,000 --> 00:32:26,440
Speaker 1: just like pure like anger, pettiness or whatever.

733
00:32:26,720 --> 00:32:28,480
Speaker 3: But it's just it was wild.

734
00:32:28,600 --> 00:32:29,640
Speaker 2: That was like wild for me.

735
00:32:30,160 --> 00:32:31,520
Speaker 3: Yeah it was really.

736
00:32:32,440 --> 00:32:34,440
Speaker 1: But now I supposed to show you cannot share your

737
00:32:34,480 --> 00:32:41,080
Speaker 1: baby names you like a lot, especially not with your fan.

738
00:32:42,440 --> 00:32:45,160
Speaker 3: I literally was coming out of a weekend therapy retreat

739
00:32:45,200 --> 00:32:47,320
Speaker 3: in Nashville, this place called on Site. Oh my god,

740
00:32:47,360 --> 00:32:49,440
Speaker 3: I got to do equine therapy with horses, and I

741
00:32:49,600 --> 00:32:51,640
Speaker 3: literally like saw that as I came out and got

742
00:32:51,680 --> 00:32:56,120
Speaker 3: my phone back, and I was like, wow, the timing

743
00:32:57,080 --> 00:33:00,760
Speaker 3: is so crazy to practice everything you had just learned.

744
00:33:01,200 --> 00:33:03,320
Speaker 3: I was literally like, but part of me was like

745
00:33:04,040 --> 00:33:06,080
Speaker 3: it made me feel sorry for him because I'm like,

746
00:33:06,880 --> 00:33:09,480
Speaker 3: there is a reason for that. A lot of things

747
00:33:09,520 --> 00:33:11,720
Speaker 3: he does, in my opinion, is calculated. I'm like, this

748
00:33:11,880 --> 00:33:13,120
Speaker 3: is sad. That's sad.

749
00:33:13,920 --> 00:33:16,800
Speaker 2: So you know, they say sorry, go ahead. The opposite

750
00:33:16,840 --> 00:33:19,680
Speaker 2: of love is indifference. Yeah, you know it's not. It's

751
00:33:19,720 --> 00:33:23,680
Speaker 2: not hate because there's passion like that. It's it's all

752
00:33:24,080 --> 00:33:26,920
Speaker 2: rooted in love and hurt and pain. And as soon

753
00:33:27,000 --> 00:33:29,880
Speaker 2: as you just don't care, that's how you know when

754
00:33:29,920 --> 00:33:31,840
Speaker 2: you've moved on. You know what I'm saying.

755
00:33:31,920 --> 00:33:33,680
Speaker 3: I'm yeah, I definitely am through the hate phase.

756
00:33:33,800 --> 00:33:38,560
Speaker 2: Yeah, you just seem shot by the by the well

757
00:33:38,960 --> 00:33:42,440
Speaker 2: yeah yeah yeah.

758
00:33:45,240 --> 00:33:49,040
Speaker 1: Moving forward, do you feel like you want to not

759
00:33:49,320 --> 00:33:51,520
Speaker 1: date someone in the public eye or do you still

760
00:33:51,640 --> 00:33:52,960
Speaker 1: like not care It doesn't matter.

761
00:33:53,080 --> 00:33:56,040
Speaker 3: No, it doesn't bother me. Okay, it's I mean if

762
00:33:56,080 --> 00:33:58,920
Speaker 3: that's like their number one priority and they're like, here's

763
00:33:58,960 --> 00:34:00,760
Speaker 3: what I don't want. Like, is a a man that

764
00:34:00,960 --> 00:34:04,520
Speaker 3: like sneezes into a transition into like a different outfit

765
00:34:04,640 --> 00:34:07,600
Speaker 3: and like has a like I'm like picked out by

766
00:34:08,800 --> 00:34:12,680
Speaker 3: I'm picked out by like a lot. Yeah, yeah, it happens,

767
00:34:12,840 --> 00:34:16,160
Speaker 3: but by like certain people on social media. And I'm

768
00:34:16,200 --> 00:34:18,920
Speaker 3: sure I ick people out so hard on social media too,

769
00:34:19,160 --> 00:34:20,759
Speaker 3: but like that's just a preference for me. I find

770
00:34:20,800 --> 00:34:25,680
Speaker 3: it a turn off when guys like do transitions not

771
00:34:25,880 --> 00:34:30,080
Speaker 3: just specific, but I get it, I get I get

772
00:34:30,200 --> 00:34:33,960
Speaker 3: the picture you're painting like I can like see it. Yeah. Yeah,

773
00:34:34,520 --> 00:34:39,120
Speaker 3: but there's like Andrew from Bachelor World, Spencer and Greg.

774
00:34:39,000 --> 00:34:40,680
Speaker 2: Do it so well. Oh they're so funny.

775
00:34:40,800 --> 00:34:43,879
Speaker 3: Make me laugh so hard. That's funny to me. It's

776
00:34:44,000 --> 00:34:46,319
Speaker 3: just the like, I don't know. I think, as long

777
00:34:46,360 --> 00:34:50,160
Speaker 3: as you're like an authentic person, I don't care if

778
00:34:50,160 --> 00:34:52,040
Speaker 3: you're in the Publicuy, I don't care what you're doing. Like,

779
00:34:52,239 --> 00:34:54,279
Speaker 3: here's the thing, some people like that, you know what

780
00:34:54,280 --> 00:34:54,520
Speaker 3: I mean.

781
00:34:56,200 --> 00:34:58,600
Speaker 1: Yeah, Like I'm like if Robbie posted a photo at

782
00:34:58,640 --> 00:35:01,959
Speaker 1: the gym, like even like I would like I would,

783
00:35:02,200 --> 00:35:02,520
Speaker 1: I would.

784
00:35:03,280 --> 00:35:04,080
Speaker 3: I don't know what I would do.

785
00:35:04,200 --> 00:35:07,080
Speaker 2: I don't know. I don't think you from him at all.

786
00:35:07,160 --> 00:35:08,680
Speaker 2: You know, I never pretty locked in.

787
00:35:08,760 --> 00:35:12,000
Speaker 1: I'm very locked I think in the beginning, like in

788
00:35:12,040 --> 00:35:13,759
Speaker 1: the beginning of when we were dating, if he had

789
00:35:13,800 --> 00:35:16,400
Speaker 1: any sort of social media presence, I feel like it

790
00:35:16,440 --> 00:35:18,560
Speaker 1: would like have thrown me off a little bit.

791
00:35:18,640 --> 00:35:20,759
Speaker 3: It's funny because I'm so contradicting though too, because then

792
00:35:20,800 --> 00:35:23,880
Speaker 3: I'm like posting a bikini photo like I'm like, but

793
00:35:24,000 --> 00:35:26,160
Speaker 3: that I do it too, Yeah, Like I'd be picked

794
00:35:26,200 --> 00:35:27,560
Speaker 3: out of myself.

795
00:35:27,680 --> 00:35:30,680
Speaker 2: Right, here's the thing. It's not fair. It's not fair,

796
00:35:31,600 --> 00:35:33,759
Speaker 2: but some things are for the girls. Yeah something, and

797
00:35:33,840 --> 00:35:34,719
Speaker 2: that's just what it is.

798
00:35:34,880 --> 00:35:37,080
Speaker 3: And I know people have opinion.

799
00:35:36,800 --> 00:35:39,399
Speaker 2: About that, but it's just the facts. Like Becca Moore,

800
00:35:39,520 --> 00:35:41,480
Speaker 2: you know, all her stuff for the girls, where she's

801
00:35:41,560 --> 00:35:43,719
Speaker 2: like blankets are for the girls, Like why do you

802
00:35:43,760 --> 00:35:45,960
Speaker 2: need a blanket? Like that's the same thing with the

803
00:35:46,040 --> 00:35:48,160
Speaker 2: true social media transition. It's true.

804
00:35:48,360 --> 00:35:51,200
Speaker 3: It's true. It's so true with that. I also am

805
00:35:51,320 --> 00:35:52,960
Speaker 3: like one of those people that I'm like, I get it,

806
00:35:53,040 --> 00:35:54,359
Speaker 3: that's not fair, but it's true.

807
00:35:54,440 --> 00:35:54,960
Speaker 2: It's not fair.

808
00:35:55,400 --> 00:35:57,279
Speaker 1: So what Okay, Well, this is really exciting because you

809
00:35:57,320 --> 00:35:59,200
Speaker 1: are turning forty, so you have like a whole new decade.

810
00:35:59,600 --> 00:36:02,640
Speaker 1: What is next decade? Or you look like like are

811
00:36:02,680 --> 00:36:04,759
Speaker 1: you living in Nashville? Are you doing what you're doing?

812
00:36:04,920 --> 00:36:06,160
Speaker 1: Like what are your ambitions?

813
00:36:06,200 --> 00:36:06,720
Speaker 3: Your goals?

814
00:36:07,760 --> 00:36:10,080
Speaker 2: I can't wait to hear about that after this break.

815
00:36:30,200 --> 00:36:33,080
Speaker 2: All right, we're back. So Tanya said, you're going into

816
00:36:33,080 --> 00:36:35,040
Speaker 2: a new decade. Yes, I have a question before you

817
00:36:35,080 --> 00:36:36,879
Speaker 2: start talking about that, because I want to talk about

818
00:36:36,880 --> 00:36:41,520
Speaker 2: Spade and Spars because you started your company. How long

819
00:36:41,560 --> 00:36:42,040
Speaker 2: ago was that?

820
00:36:43,200 --> 00:36:45,440
Speaker 3: That was in twenty like seventeen?

821
00:36:47,080 --> 00:36:49,640
Speaker 2: So crazy are you at a point now? And I

822
00:36:49,719 --> 00:36:51,239
Speaker 2: don't know if you want to share this, but like,

823
00:36:51,320 --> 00:36:53,840
Speaker 2: are you making because I know, starting a company like that,

824
00:36:53,960 --> 00:36:56,360
Speaker 2: and like you just put as much effort money and

825
00:36:56,400 --> 00:36:58,239
Speaker 2: then you don't see anything for like a minute. Are

826
00:36:58,280 --> 00:37:00,560
Speaker 2: you at the point where you're making im?

827
00:37:01,280 --> 00:37:04,759
Speaker 3: And then now I'm like the alcohol business is so

828
00:37:05,280 --> 00:37:10,920
Speaker 3: hard and it's so like I wish I there's obviously

829
00:37:10,960 --> 00:37:12,959
Speaker 3: the benefit of hindsight, like I wish I did certain

830
00:37:13,000 --> 00:37:18,400
Speaker 3: things differently, but like Target, for example, I was starting

831
00:37:18,400 --> 00:37:20,160
Speaker 3: to get into all these targets and it was really

832
00:37:20,400 --> 00:37:24,319
Speaker 3: starting to go. The problem is with wine. Wine sales

833
00:37:24,320 --> 00:37:26,640
Speaker 3: are down like I don't know, I want to say,

834
00:37:26,680 --> 00:37:29,680
Speaker 3: like fifty two percent or something like it's insane alcohol

835
00:37:29,800 --> 00:37:33,279
Speaker 3: in general, but wine and beer specifically, because everyone is

836
00:37:33,320 --> 00:37:36,040
Speaker 3: being told on the internet like this is going to

837
00:37:36,160 --> 00:37:40,720
Speaker 3: kill you, like sugar, yeah, although like refine you anyways.

838
00:37:40,960 --> 00:37:43,120
Speaker 3: And so I feel like alcohol sales are down and

839
00:37:43,600 --> 00:37:45,440
Speaker 3: Snoop Dogg right now is selling his wine for like

840
00:37:45,520 --> 00:37:48,600
Speaker 3: two dollars everywhere because everywhere is just sitting on so

841
00:37:48,760 --> 00:37:52,280
Speaker 3: much inventory for wine, and so I'm feeling so defeated

842
00:37:52,480 --> 00:37:55,080
Speaker 3: in that way because I'm like, yeah, I'm like you

843
00:37:55,160 --> 00:37:57,680
Speaker 3: know what things go through their ups and downs, and

844
00:37:58,480 --> 00:38:01,439
Speaker 3: I'm I'm no matter what happens, I'm like so proud

845
00:38:01,480 --> 00:38:03,920
Speaker 3: of Spade and Sparrows and that whole brand because so

846
00:38:04,040 --> 00:38:06,239
Speaker 3: many people work with other alcohol companies and they can

847
00:38:06,280 --> 00:38:09,239
Speaker 3: have the best distributors from working with this and they

848
00:38:09,320 --> 00:38:11,440
Speaker 3: get to like throw these big events. But everything I've

849
00:38:11,480 --> 00:38:14,040
Speaker 3: done is like from my own money had to Like

850
00:38:14,480 --> 00:38:17,120
Speaker 3: I was a cold calling people to get to people

851
00:38:17,200 --> 00:38:20,400
Speaker 3: in touch with people at Target, Like yeah, I and

852
00:38:20,480 --> 00:38:22,920
Speaker 3: I don't have good I can say this because I'm

853
00:38:22,920 --> 00:38:24,440
Speaker 3: not with them anymore partners Like I did not have

854
00:38:24,800 --> 00:38:27,960
Speaker 3: not my business partners. I mean the like production facilities

855
00:38:28,000 --> 00:38:31,879
Speaker 3: and stuff. They just like stopped caring because sales were down. Yeah,

856
00:38:31,960 --> 00:38:33,840
Speaker 3: And so now I'm trying to just like pivot and

857
00:38:33,920 --> 00:38:36,520
Speaker 3: find ways because I mean, it's so good. The wine

858
00:38:36,600 --> 00:38:39,759
Speaker 3: is so good. It is low sugar and people still

859
00:38:39,800 --> 00:38:41,759
Speaker 3: but I still have my wine club, Like it's not

860
00:38:41,960 --> 00:38:44,759
Speaker 3: we're not drowning over here. It's fine. It's just yeah,

861
00:38:44,920 --> 00:38:46,000
Speaker 3: wine sales are tough right now.

862
00:38:46,080 --> 00:38:47,759
Speaker 2: It's true though, It's like the stock so you go,

863
00:38:48,280 --> 00:38:50,480
Speaker 2: there's ups and downs, and it's like right now it's

864
00:38:50,520 --> 00:38:51,680
Speaker 2: a try, like I'll not.

865
00:38:51,840 --> 00:38:54,080
Speaker 3: Leave what they're told. Yeah, people are being told, hey,

866
00:38:54,120 --> 00:38:57,080
Speaker 3: alcohol is going to kill you. It's then it goes viral,

867
00:38:57,400 --> 00:38:59,319
Speaker 3: so they never wants to go viral. So everyone's talking

868
00:38:59,320 --> 00:39:01,719
Speaker 3: about how bad talks and alcohol and it's going to

869
00:39:01,800 --> 00:39:03,799
Speaker 3: kill you because it's going viral right now, and people

870
00:39:03,920 --> 00:39:05,239
Speaker 3: just believe what they're told. I know.

871
00:39:05,440 --> 00:39:07,279
Speaker 1: I'm actually trying to get better about that because like

872
00:39:07,400 --> 00:39:09,040
Speaker 1: I'm like one of those people. I'll see something on

873
00:39:09,120 --> 00:39:10,960
Speaker 1: Instagram and like I'll just like, I'll believe it.

874
00:39:11,680 --> 00:39:13,600
Speaker 3: Vegetables anymore. Yeah, it's like they're gonna kill.

875
00:39:13,520 --> 00:39:16,279
Speaker 2: Me, dumb, like I can so are gonna kill us?

876
00:39:16,320 --> 00:39:20,120
Speaker 3: Apparently they're not organic. Yeah, my kidding, I'm kidding. Oh

877
00:39:20,160 --> 00:39:26,200
Speaker 3: it's crazy, Okay, forty decades. Yeah, yeah, I've always been

878
00:39:26,280 --> 00:39:28,719
Speaker 3: like this manifesto, I make vision boards, I always have

879
00:39:28,800 --> 00:39:30,319
Speaker 3: a plan. I'm always like this is what I want

880
00:39:30,320 --> 00:39:33,520
Speaker 3: to accomplish. I don't have anything in forties. Like, I'm

881
00:39:33,600 --> 00:39:36,520
Speaker 3: just like I want to just feel happy anytime I

882
00:39:36,600 --> 00:39:39,160
Speaker 3: see eleven eleven. I used to be like I will

883
00:39:39,280 --> 00:39:42,080
Speaker 3: win Dancing with the Stars, like I'm but I did

884
00:39:42,520 --> 00:39:44,680
Speaker 3: and then I did, so you'd think I would have

885
00:39:44,800 --> 00:39:48,800
Speaker 3: some more goals, but I'm like just thinking about I

886
00:39:48,960 --> 00:39:50,759
Speaker 3: always think about how I want to feel. I'm like,

887
00:39:51,160 --> 00:39:53,480
Speaker 3: I want to enjoy how hard I've worked and that

888
00:39:53,560 --> 00:39:56,919
Speaker 3: I'm like where I'm at. I want to enjoy where

889
00:39:56,920 --> 00:39:59,759
Speaker 3: I'm at and not push myself. Like I have this

890
00:40:00,080 --> 00:40:01,719
Speaker 3: big thing coming up that I can't even talk about

891
00:40:01,760 --> 00:40:04,480
Speaker 3: because it's a whole thing. I was at the Hulu

892
00:40:04,520 --> 00:40:06,359
Speaker 3: event last night because we were supposed to announce something,

893
00:40:06,400 --> 00:40:10,640
Speaker 3: but it's getting pushed and so I can't talk. I

894
00:40:10,719 --> 00:40:13,480
Speaker 3: can't talk about it, and it's so tough because I'm like,

895
00:40:15,120 --> 00:40:16,920
Speaker 3: because that could be a really big thing that happens.

896
00:40:17,719 --> 00:40:21,440
Speaker 3: But really, I my podcast means everything to me. I've

897
00:40:21,480 --> 00:40:25,680
Speaker 3: been doing it for eight years, and yesterday was the

898
00:40:25,760 --> 00:40:28,000
Speaker 3: first time in eight years I didn't release an episode

899
00:40:28,719 --> 00:40:31,120
Speaker 3: because I'm rewatching and I'm just having to go through

900
00:40:31,160 --> 00:40:34,320
Speaker 3: some hoops with ABC and Disney and Warner Brothers to

901
00:40:34,680 --> 00:40:38,959
Speaker 3: get the footage. And I'm like, oh God, everyone's gonna

902
00:40:39,000 --> 00:40:41,440
Speaker 3: turn on me. My O TV family is everything to me.

903
00:40:41,520 --> 00:40:43,160
Speaker 3: They're going to be like, well, I'm done, because you

904
00:40:43,239 --> 00:40:47,279
Speaker 3: have to be so consistent with podcasts. Yeah, and like

905
00:40:47,440 --> 00:40:49,360
Speaker 3: for my forties, like, I'm just I just want to

906
00:40:49,400 --> 00:40:51,479
Speaker 3: like elevate the conversations. I want to have these guests

907
00:40:51,520 --> 00:40:53,040
Speaker 3: on that are going to make me like, like fill

908
00:40:53,080 --> 00:40:56,560
Speaker 3: everybody's cup. I'm I like to I like to have

909
00:40:56,680 --> 00:40:58,840
Speaker 3: deep conversations, and like I like to have the reality

910
00:40:58,920 --> 00:41:01,040
Speaker 3: TV people on once in a while, and you know,

911
00:41:01,080 --> 00:41:03,320
Speaker 3: I love having musicians on. But I'm like, I just

912
00:41:03,400 --> 00:41:05,759
Speaker 3: want I just want to keep going with that so

913
00:41:05,960 --> 00:41:08,240
Speaker 3: much because I love it. I've never been so passionate

914
00:41:08,239 --> 00:41:10,920
Speaker 3: about something in my life as my podcast. So I

915
00:41:11,000 --> 00:41:14,600
Speaker 3: feel like that maybe a few more dogs. I would

916
00:41:14,600 --> 00:41:17,719
Speaker 3: love to have a baby one day. Healthy marriage. I

917
00:41:17,760 --> 00:41:20,839
Speaker 3: feel like forties, maybe maybe the time for that next

918
00:41:20,880 --> 00:41:21,520
Speaker 3: phase in life.

919
00:41:21,640 --> 00:41:25,520
Speaker 2: Yeah, does does? Because you were saying how you've gotten

920
00:41:25,640 --> 00:41:28,840
Speaker 2: so hyper independent? Yeah, what does it look like for

921
00:41:29,000 --> 00:41:33,200
Speaker 2: you to because obviously going from hyper the hyper independent

922
00:41:33,239 --> 00:41:36,800
Speaker 2: mentality to marriage is like there's a bunch of space

923
00:41:36,840 --> 00:41:37,480
Speaker 2: in between there.

924
00:41:37,840 --> 00:41:40,080
Speaker 3: Yeah is that men?

925
00:41:40,280 --> 00:41:42,960
Speaker 2: I told you that earlier. Yeah, I just to date

926
00:41:42,960 --> 00:41:43,760
Speaker 2: a girl for a second.

927
00:41:43,880 --> 00:41:46,399
Speaker 3: I wanted to so badly, I really did. I thought

928
00:41:46,440 --> 00:41:51,680
Speaker 3: it was my time, and I mean maybe I still could.

929
00:41:53,400 --> 00:41:56,600
Speaker 3: I think I just like want somebody who also who

930
00:41:56,719 --> 00:41:59,840
Speaker 3: like loves the independence that I have and like I

931
00:42:00,440 --> 00:42:03,200
Speaker 3: I know that like codependency and relationship can also be cute,

932
00:42:03,640 --> 00:42:08,319
Speaker 3: like to a certain degree, and I want like, I'm

933
00:42:08,320 --> 00:42:10,600
Speaker 3: sorry that is so it's the Kanye West.

934
00:42:10,760 --> 00:42:13,880
Speaker 2: Oh yeah, then get really.

935
00:42:15,880 --> 00:42:19,919
Speaker 3: Where am I Codependency could be cute? Oh yeah, it's cute,

936
00:42:19,960 --> 00:42:22,120
Speaker 3: Like I want. I just want somebody who is also

937
00:42:22,360 --> 00:42:25,239
Speaker 3: independent and like we just do our own thing and

938
00:42:25,280 --> 00:42:27,480
Speaker 3: then we come back together and we just I don't know,

939
00:42:27,520 --> 00:42:29,560
Speaker 3: I just have this vision, and maybe I should not

940
00:42:29,840 --> 00:42:32,600
Speaker 3: be so specific on my vision, but I do think,

941
00:42:33,239 --> 00:42:36,160
Speaker 3: you know, I'm just I'm happy in this dating world

942
00:42:36,200 --> 00:42:37,960
Speaker 3: that I'm in right now, and I'm happy doing it privately,

943
00:42:38,280 --> 00:42:39,839
Speaker 3: and I have like a lot of hope.

944
00:42:40,000 --> 00:42:40,200
Speaker 2: I do.

945
00:42:42,880 --> 00:42:45,480
Speaker 3: Best thing, a little bit of hope. I'm gonna leave

946
00:42:45,520 --> 00:42:48,840
Speaker 3: you with something. Okay. Oh god, she's crossing her hands.

947
00:42:50,440 --> 00:42:56,879
Speaker 3: Thank you? Why I was doing it? Have you read

948
00:42:56,920 --> 00:42:58,120
Speaker 3: this book called Calling in the One?

949
00:42:59,480 --> 00:42:59,760
Speaker 2: Okay?

950
00:43:00,440 --> 00:43:03,920
Speaker 1: It's first of all, it's more than just about It's

951
00:43:04,000 --> 00:43:05,839
Speaker 1: more than like a dating book. To me, it felt

952
00:43:05,920 --> 00:43:07,880
Speaker 1: like therapy in a book. Like it's like, do you

953
00:43:08,000 --> 00:43:10,400
Speaker 1: like homework and stuff? Yeah, I think you're gonna love it.

954
00:43:10,480 --> 00:43:13,080
Speaker 3: Okay, it's seven weeks. Every day there's like I'll get

955
00:43:13,120 --> 00:43:13,360
Speaker 3: it for you.

956
00:43:13,440 --> 00:43:13,799
Speaker 2: I'm happy.

957
00:43:13,800 --> 00:43:15,880
Speaker 1: I would love nothing more than to send it to you, okay,

958
00:43:16,960 --> 00:43:19,560
Speaker 1: And I like it was like I had major breakthrough

959
00:43:19,600 --> 00:43:22,080
Speaker 1: moments doing this book.

960
00:43:22,120 --> 00:43:22,920
Speaker 2: Do you still do it if?

961
00:43:23,120 --> 00:43:25,960
Speaker 3: Like what if hypothetically speaking, you already called in? What

962
00:43:26,040 --> 00:43:28,120
Speaker 3: if I've already called one in and I just wouildll

963
00:43:28,160 --> 00:43:31,479
Speaker 3: it reaffirm or like validated. It's not even that because

964
00:43:31,520 --> 00:43:31,960
Speaker 3: I did it.

965
00:43:32,200 --> 00:43:34,759
Speaker 1: I met my now husband before I finished it, and

966
00:43:34,880 --> 00:43:37,160
Speaker 1: I finished it while we were in our early stages

967
00:43:37,160 --> 00:43:40,920
Speaker 1: of dating. But it was just like it helped me

968
00:43:41,120 --> 00:43:43,680
Speaker 1: like get rid of so much stuff that I've just

969
00:43:43,800 --> 00:43:47,000
Speaker 1: toxic stuff that I was just doing in general patterns.

970
00:43:47,040 --> 00:43:48,839
Speaker 1: It made me see patterns and stuff in my life.

971
00:43:48,880 --> 00:43:52,359
Speaker 1: But I just yeah, anyways, it really was like game changing.

972
00:43:52,400 --> 00:43:54,880
Speaker 2: It's stuff like cleaning out space in your closet for

973
00:43:54,960 --> 00:43:58,520
Speaker 2: a person, cleaning getting rid of like old packs.

974
00:43:58,320 --> 00:44:01,239
Speaker 1: That you maybe had with liketners from your past or whatever.

975
00:44:01,480 --> 00:44:04,759
Speaker 3: Yeah. Yeah, oh yeah I could. Yeah, I have a

976
00:44:04,920 --> 00:44:07,759
Speaker 3: you know what, my like DNA makeup, and I found

977
00:44:07,760 --> 00:44:09,719
Speaker 3: out I'm a generator and all the stuff come all

978
00:44:09,800 --> 00:44:12,759
Speaker 3: into that. There. She said, my life purpose is to

979
00:44:12,880 --> 00:44:17,720
Speaker 3: learn how to let go. And I was like, because

980
00:44:17,719 --> 00:44:19,919
Speaker 3: I was like, wow, that is that feels true. Yah,

981
00:44:19,960 --> 00:44:22,680
Speaker 3: it's very true. Yeah, I will take that book also,

982
00:44:22,880 --> 00:44:24,359
Speaker 3: just I don't know why I talk about X when

983
00:44:24,360 --> 00:44:26,279
Speaker 3: I'm with you Becca, But it's faked out.

984
00:44:26,440 --> 00:44:28,640
Speaker 2: My danglely feet right now, like that they don't touch the.

985
00:44:29,200 --> 00:44:32,400
Speaker 3: I hate that too, and I got upset.

986
00:44:32,480 --> 00:44:34,120
Speaker 2: I'm like immediately uncross them.

987
00:44:34,320 --> 00:44:37,320
Speaker 1: But we have I have trash can underneath mind that

988
00:44:37,360 --> 00:44:38,840
Speaker 1: I usually have my feet up on because I like,

989
00:44:38,960 --> 00:44:39,279
Speaker 1: I can't.

990
00:44:39,360 --> 00:44:41,680
Speaker 3: I can't seat at the bar at my hotel and

991
00:44:41,760 --> 00:44:44,879
Speaker 3: his feet were dangling and I was like, ew, yeah,

992
00:44:45,040 --> 00:44:46,120
Speaker 3: it's gross. I can't.

993
00:44:46,360 --> 00:44:49,760
Speaker 2: It's weird what like triggers that for for some people,

994
00:44:50,040 --> 00:44:52,160
Speaker 2: and some people that don't have that don't understand and

995
00:44:52,200 --> 00:44:54,359
Speaker 2: they're like that's so mean. I'm like, it's not mean.

996
00:44:54,480 --> 00:44:57,520
Speaker 2: It's just like it's what happens to my brain when.

997
00:44:57,360 --> 00:44:58,920
Speaker 3: You do like a lot of like press or like

998
00:44:59,000 --> 00:45:01,719
Speaker 3: TV press and they have like on those stools. None

999
00:45:01,719 --> 00:45:02,799
Speaker 3: of those stools have.

1000
00:45:03,080 --> 00:45:05,080
Speaker 1: A place for you to like put your ankles or

1001
00:45:05,200 --> 00:45:07,000
Speaker 1: like hey put your feet on. So yeah, you have

1002
00:45:07,080 --> 00:45:08,040
Speaker 1: like dangly feet and on.

1003
00:45:08,480 --> 00:45:11,680
Speaker 3: Okay, yeah, the dangly feet. I don't know. Yeah, even

1004
00:45:12,360 --> 00:45:15,120
Speaker 3: iack myself out a lot actually, like I I do

1005
00:45:15,160 --> 00:45:18,640
Speaker 3: you know the app Marco Polo. So it's this app

1006
00:45:18,640 --> 00:45:20,759
Speaker 3: where you can like talk to your friends. It's like

1007
00:45:20,800 --> 00:45:23,400
Speaker 3: a video chat and you can watch it live. Like

1008
00:45:23,440 --> 00:45:25,120
Speaker 3: if I hit record right now on the Marco Polo,

1009
00:45:25,200 --> 00:45:26,880
Speaker 3: my girl can be like, Okay, let's talking to me

1010
00:45:26,920 --> 00:45:28,400
Speaker 3: and then watch it live, or you can watch it

1011
00:45:28,480 --> 00:45:30,960
Speaker 3: later and like respond back. And I talked to two

1012
00:45:31,000 --> 00:45:33,239
Speaker 3: of my best friends on it every single day. And

1013
00:45:33,840 --> 00:45:36,200
Speaker 3: last night I'd had a few glasses of wine and

1014
00:45:36,680 --> 00:45:39,480
Speaker 3: I decided to send her a Marco Polo about the

1015
00:45:39,520 --> 00:45:41,080
Speaker 3: Hulu event last night and all the things that went

1016
00:45:41,120 --> 00:45:44,960
Speaker 3: down and people that were there. And I was eating

1017
00:45:45,600 --> 00:45:50,520
Speaker 3: chicken tendis and fries and while talking and she was like, oh,

1018
00:45:50,560 --> 00:45:52,399
Speaker 3: your polo last night it was gold, like you told

1019
00:45:52,440 --> 00:45:54,480
Speaker 3: me so much inside info. And I went back to

1020
00:45:54,520 --> 00:45:56,719
Speaker 3: watch it and I was like, ah, I couldn't even watch.

1021
00:45:56,719 --> 00:46:00,399
Speaker 2: I was so grossed out by myself chewing it, don't

1022
00:46:00,440 --> 00:46:01,000
Speaker 2: you yes?

1023
00:46:01,320 --> 00:46:04,080
Speaker 3: And I couldn't. I honestly hate the sound of myself

1024
00:46:04,160 --> 00:46:07,160
Speaker 3: drinking water. I hate the sound of myself chewing like

1025
00:46:07,320 --> 00:46:10,200
Speaker 3: I annoy myself. It's not so I'm like I feel

1026
00:46:10,239 --> 00:46:13,200
Speaker 3: better about it that I'm not just the figure. So

1027
00:46:13,320 --> 00:46:15,879
Speaker 3: like you, I know I have to get this app.

1028
00:46:16,000 --> 00:46:18,360
Speaker 2: By the way, I knew I could see your wheel.

1029
00:46:18,360 --> 00:46:20,680
Speaker 2: I was like, put to Caitlin, please stop telling her

1030
00:46:20,719 --> 00:46:21,279
Speaker 2: what this is.

1031
00:46:22,040 --> 00:46:24,400
Speaker 3: It's the best I want my best friend since I

1032
00:46:24,520 --> 00:46:26,480
Speaker 3: was like, you see you when they've watched it. Yeah,

1033
00:46:26,560 --> 00:46:29,040
Speaker 3: oh my gosh. You can see when they watched it.

1034
00:46:29,160 --> 00:46:31,359
Speaker 3: You can see if they're there live watching, you can

1035
00:46:31,440 --> 00:46:34,080
Speaker 3: like live react to it. I should get paid by

1036
00:46:34,160 --> 00:46:36,719
Speaker 3: Marco Polo because I talk about this app all the time.

1037
00:46:36,800 --> 00:46:38,120
Speaker 3: It's I feel about that book.

1038
00:46:38,160 --> 00:46:40,160
Speaker 1: I'm like, I have probably sold so many of these

1039
00:46:40,360 --> 00:46:42,880
Speaker 1: and myself I bought Amazon.

1040
00:46:43,800 --> 00:46:43,840
Speaker 2: No.

1041
00:46:45,040 --> 00:46:48,800
Speaker 3: Oh yeah, I'm just happy to give them, happy to

1042
00:46:48,880 --> 00:46:52,520
Speaker 3: give the yes, paying it forward, Yeah, paying for exactly totally.

1043
00:46:52,520 --> 00:46:54,040
Speaker 2: Okay, I have a question that I want both of

1044
00:46:54,120 --> 00:46:57,239
Speaker 2: you to answer. It's a critical thinking question. So I'm

1045
00:46:57,280 --> 00:47:01,280
Speaker 2: going to give you four things and you can choose

1046
00:47:01,360 --> 00:47:03,440
Speaker 2: one of them that you're the best at, and then

1047
00:47:03,440 --> 00:47:04,960
Speaker 2: the other three you're the worst at.

1048
00:47:05,120 --> 00:47:06,560
Speaker 3: Okay, Okay, So.

1049
00:47:06,640 --> 00:47:11,840
Speaker 2: The things are beauty, brains, talent, and charisma.

1050
00:47:12,760 --> 00:47:19,719
Speaker 3: Oh, charisma for me, brains interesting joking kiss Like not

1051
00:47:19,880 --> 00:47:23,200
Speaker 3: what I expected. I was going between brains and charisma.

1052
00:47:23,640 --> 00:47:27,520
Speaker 2: What is that the fourth one? Talent, beauty, brains, and charisma.

1053
00:47:29,680 --> 00:47:33,520
Speaker 2: I said, what a great question. So I started following

1054
00:47:33,680 --> 00:47:35,839
Speaker 2: this girl who she was talking about how she loves

1055
00:47:35,880 --> 00:47:39,560
Speaker 2: critical thinking questions because she gets so like she hates

1056
00:47:39,560 --> 00:47:42,000
Speaker 2: small talk and she loves like when people can talk.

1057
00:47:42,200 --> 00:47:43,960
Speaker 2: That she just met and they asked her something that's

1058
00:47:44,000 --> 00:47:46,400
Speaker 2: like profound. So I just started going to her videos

1059
00:47:46,440 --> 00:47:48,200
Speaker 2: and I was like, that's such a good question to

1060
00:47:48,320 --> 00:47:50,680
Speaker 2: ask one because I thought about it for a long

1061
00:47:50,760 --> 00:47:53,719
Speaker 2: time because I was like, brains, Like, you're smart, so

1062
00:47:53,840 --> 00:47:58,640
Speaker 2: you can outsmart things. But I think charisma every time.

1063
00:47:58,880 --> 00:48:01,719
Speaker 3: I think talent. If you ask me, I'm joking. I

1064
00:48:01,760 --> 00:48:04,000
Speaker 3: actually don't think I have any of those. You charisma,

1065
00:48:04,160 --> 00:48:06,279
Speaker 3: yes you do. I don't think I have charisma. I

1066
00:48:06,400 --> 00:48:07,480
Speaker 3: definitely have charisma.

1067
00:48:07,640 --> 00:48:09,360
Speaker 2: You have all of those, but the whole thing is

1068
00:48:09,440 --> 00:48:11,520
Speaker 2: like hype. You can only choose one and then you're

1069
00:48:11,560 --> 00:48:12,560
Speaker 2: the worst at the others.

1070
00:48:13,200 --> 00:48:20,920
Speaker 3: I'm definitely going with charisma. I'm I'm pretty talented, though, what.

1071
00:48:21,040 --> 00:48:23,120
Speaker 2: Do you ever have? Have you ever? I know that

1072
00:48:23,239 --> 00:48:25,719
Speaker 2: we talked a lot about you, like you've talked a

1073
00:48:25,760 --> 00:48:27,880
Speaker 2: lot about wanting to host like Dancing with the Stars,

1074
00:48:27,960 --> 00:48:30,600
Speaker 2: and is there ever, I know that's probably still on

1075
00:48:30,640 --> 00:48:31,400
Speaker 2: the list. I was.

1076
00:48:31,600 --> 00:48:34,160
Speaker 3: I was with Alfonso last night and I was like, oh,

1077
00:48:34,320 --> 00:48:37,080
Speaker 3: you have my dream job. We literally spent one hour

1078
00:48:37,160 --> 00:48:39,360
Speaker 3: on my golf swing at this Hulu event, just like

1079
00:48:39,440 --> 00:48:41,279
Speaker 3: him and I just practicing like the golf swing. I

1080
00:48:41,360 --> 00:48:44,200
Speaker 3: was like, what are we doing? Okay, but he has

1081
00:48:44,239 --> 00:48:46,840
Speaker 3: my dream job. But they are so good that that

1082
00:48:47,280 --> 00:48:51,200
Speaker 3: that is kind of like a pipe dream maybe down

1083
00:48:51,280 --> 00:48:53,920
Speaker 3: the road. I don't see it happening anytime soon because

1084
00:48:54,160 --> 00:48:57,680
Speaker 3: they are so good. Julianna and Alfonso are so good.

1085
00:48:58,960 --> 00:49:01,560
Speaker 3: But like I do love hosting. My dream job is

1086
00:49:01,640 --> 00:49:02,839
Speaker 3: to host a TV show for sure.

1087
00:49:03,000 --> 00:49:05,920
Speaker 2: Yeah yeah, but you loved you loved Dancing with the Stars.

1088
00:49:05,960 --> 00:49:07,640
Speaker 3: I was like, well, I if I could just live

1089
00:49:07,719 --> 00:49:09,799
Speaker 3: there and just hang out with them all the time.

1090
00:49:10,520 --> 00:49:13,600
Speaker 3: I loved it so much. It was hands down the

1091
00:49:13,600 --> 00:49:15,520
Speaker 3: hardest thing I ever did, and then also hands down

1092
00:49:15,520 --> 00:49:18,040
Speaker 3: the most memorable thing I ever did. And like, I

1093
00:49:18,080 --> 00:49:20,000
Speaker 3: feel like everybody speaks so highly of that show.

1094
00:49:20,120 --> 00:49:21,160
Speaker 2: Oh it loves me.

1095
00:49:21,360 --> 00:49:23,640
Speaker 3: Yeah, it's so hard, like the work you put in.

1096
00:49:23,760 --> 00:49:24,040
Speaker 2: Nobody.

1097
00:49:24,400 --> 00:49:26,560
Speaker 3: I was with Danny how do you say his last name? Amadella?

1098
00:49:26,760 --> 00:49:30,160
Speaker 3: Andla what Emmondola he's gonna be like, thanks a lot, Kaylen.

1099
00:49:31,600 --> 00:49:33,640
Speaker 3: We were with him in Miami for one night. We

1100
00:49:33,680 --> 00:49:36,120
Speaker 3: had a drink with him and he was talking about

1101
00:49:36,120 --> 00:49:37,640
Speaker 3: how hard it is. He's like, you do not know

1102
00:49:37,719 --> 00:49:39,759
Speaker 3: what you're signing up for, but once you get in it,

1103
00:49:39,800 --> 00:49:43,040
Speaker 3: if you're a competitive person, you're like, I'm going out

1104
00:49:43,040 --> 00:49:45,640
Speaker 3: there with like cracked ribs and like just still doing it.

1105
00:49:45,760 --> 00:49:47,480
Speaker 3: And I should have been out of the competition for

1106
00:49:47,760 --> 00:49:49,560
Speaker 3: because they're like the doctor told me at one point,

1107
00:49:49,600 --> 00:49:51,800
Speaker 3: They're like, I don't think you should continue dancing, like

1108
00:49:51,840 --> 00:49:53,480
Speaker 3: you're really doing damage to your body. And I was

1109
00:49:53,520 --> 00:49:54,279
Speaker 3: like I don't care.

1110
00:49:54,680 --> 00:49:55,200
Speaker 2: I don't care.

1111
00:49:55,280 --> 00:49:58,759
Speaker 3: I want to win. And you just you really it's

1112
00:49:58,800 --> 00:50:00,640
Speaker 3: like eight hours a day and you get one day

1113
00:50:00,680 --> 00:50:03,439
Speaker 3: off and it's a long show. You get so into

1114
00:50:03,520 --> 00:50:07,080
Speaker 3: it and the crew and the producers and the whole

1115
00:50:07,120 --> 00:50:09,879
Speaker 3: all the stars are just so amazing. I just love

1116
00:50:09,920 --> 00:50:11,480
Speaker 3: it so much. The last night and I was like,

1117
00:50:12,520 --> 00:50:13,239
Speaker 3: have you met me?

1118
00:50:13,440 --> 00:50:16,360
Speaker 2: Have you met Riley Arnold? Yes? Okay? Speaking of no

1119
00:50:16,520 --> 00:50:19,080
Speaker 2: poor like when she came. She came as a guest

1120
00:50:19,239 --> 00:50:20,719
Speaker 2: and we were staring at her and we were like,

1121
00:50:21,160 --> 00:50:22,840
Speaker 2: shouldn't have pores on her face?

1122
00:50:23,120 --> 00:50:26,000
Speaker 3: I will after. This is Emma's makeup from last night.

1123
00:50:26,200 --> 00:50:30,279
Speaker 2: Oh, I've always admire this is a skill that you have.

1124
00:50:30,600 --> 00:50:31,760
Speaker 2: It is, this is talent.

1125
00:50:32,200 --> 00:50:35,600
Speaker 3: I woke up like Lipline are still on, I don't know,

1126
00:50:35,920 --> 00:50:39,040
Speaker 3: I won't happen. I was like, and I went, that'll work.

1127
00:50:39,239 --> 00:50:41,520
Speaker 3: I literally was staring at your eye makeup like, yeah,

1128
00:50:41,719 --> 00:50:44,440
Speaker 3: she was amazing. She was like, Wow, she has a

1129
00:50:44,480 --> 00:50:46,640
Speaker 3: really good job and like doing it herself. No, this

1130
00:50:46,800 --> 00:50:49,160
Speaker 3: is all Emma. I just sleep like a vampire. It's great.

1131
00:50:49,320 --> 00:50:49,920
Speaker 2: That's amazing.

1132
00:50:50,040 --> 00:50:51,840
Speaker 3: I just put a little powder under my eyes and

1133
00:50:52,360 --> 00:50:54,680
Speaker 3: a little more lip gloss on cold. It probably looks kind.

1134
00:50:54,560 --> 00:50:56,560
Speaker 2: Of dirty, but you don't really have any pores either.

1135
00:50:56,719 --> 00:50:57,799
Speaker 3: Well they're covered up.

1136
00:50:57,920 --> 00:50:59,439
Speaker 2: But back to Riley.

1137
00:50:59,520 --> 00:51:01,480
Speaker 3: I saw her also on Your Guys podcast and I

1138
00:51:01,560 --> 00:51:05,959
Speaker 3: was like, she is the cutest, sweetest, most innocent little

1139
00:51:06,040 --> 00:51:07,799
Speaker 3: thing I ever met in my life.

1140
00:51:07,960 --> 00:51:08,120
Speaker 2: Yeah.

1141
00:51:08,160 --> 00:51:11,200
Speaker 3: Precious, Oh precious is the perfect word for her. She's

1142
00:51:11,280 --> 00:51:12,200
Speaker 3: Polly Pocket. Yeah.

1143
00:51:12,200 --> 00:51:16,239
Speaker 2: I have two questions and we're done. Who's been your

1144
00:51:16,480 --> 00:51:19,600
Speaker 2: most impactful guest that you've had on off the Mine?

1145
00:51:19,719 --> 00:51:23,360
Speaker 3: Oh? Mel Robins had really Oh my gosh, she changed

1146
00:51:23,400 --> 00:51:26,359
Speaker 3: my life. Oh yeah, she was amazing. Also, I had

1147
00:51:26,440 --> 00:51:28,640
Speaker 3: Jay Shaddy on, but it was during zoom times and

1148
00:51:28,680 --> 00:51:30,360
Speaker 3: I'm so mad I didn't get to just like breathe

1149
00:51:30,400 --> 00:51:34,400
Speaker 3: in his presence and like smell him. Yeah, but his

1150
00:51:34,680 --> 00:51:37,360
Speaker 3: conversation with me and mel Robbins, because I feel like

1151
00:51:38,040 --> 00:51:40,120
Speaker 3: I didn't even need to like say anything, Like she

1152
00:51:40,360 --> 00:51:42,719
Speaker 3: just sat there and like it's like I went to church,

1153
00:51:42,840 --> 00:51:46,759
Speaker 3: Like I just sat there being like yeah, wow, yes,

1154
00:51:46,960 --> 00:51:48,719
Speaker 3: and she calls you out on certain things.

1155
00:51:49,000 --> 00:51:50,600
Speaker 2: What was the video she called you out when you

1156
00:51:50,680 --> 00:51:53,080
Speaker 2: said something and she was like, no, I can't.

1157
00:51:53,320 --> 00:51:54,520
Speaker 3: She was like, I think you need to talk to

1158
00:51:54,520 --> 00:51:56,800
Speaker 3: your therapist about that. I was like, oh, but I

1159
00:51:57,080 --> 00:52:01,000
Speaker 3: like that, Like she's just so real and it was yeah,

1160
00:52:01,120 --> 00:52:01,960
Speaker 3: definitely Meil Robins.

1161
00:52:02,080 --> 00:52:04,840
Speaker 2: Yeah, okay, who's your pipe dream guest to have on the.

1162
00:52:04,840 --> 00:52:08,920
Speaker 3: Pop Bradney Spears? Oh wowow do you imagine? I mean

1163
00:52:08,920 --> 00:52:12,000
Speaker 3: she could still for that long. But yeah, that's like

1164
00:52:12,080 --> 00:52:14,239
Speaker 3: my unrealistic one. Maybe a realistic one.

1165
00:52:14,280 --> 00:52:14,640
Speaker 2: I don't know.

1166
00:52:16,600 --> 00:52:18,600
Speaker 3: Oh gosh, Chelsea Handler was up there for me and

1167
00:52:18,640 --> 00:52:20,239
Speaker 3: I got to talk to her and that was amazing. Yeah,

1168
00:52:21,080 --> 00:52:23,960
Speaker 3: I don't I don't know. I talk about this all

1169
00:52:23,960 --> 00:52:25,759
Speaker 3: the time, and now I forget all the people I

1170
00:52:26,160 --> 00:52:27,040
Speaker 3: buckle under pressure.

1171
00:52:28,160 --> 00:52:29,719
Speaker 2: There's zero pressure here.

1172
00:52:29,880 --> 00:52:34,000
Speaker 3: Yeah, literally pressure, the opposite of pressure. Yeah, maybe like

1173
00:52:34,080 --> 00:52:36,240
Speaker 3: one of the Kardashians because I just want.

1174
00:52:36,840 --> 00:52:39,200
Speaker 2: To like know, yeah, how they do?

1175
00:52:39,239 --> 00:52:41,040
Speaker 3: You know they do? I'd love to have one of

1176
00:52:41,080 --> 00:52:41,480
Speaker 3: them on too.

1177
00:52:41,560 --> 00:52:42,680
Speaker 2: I would love to have one of them if we

1178
00:52:42,719 --> 00:52:44,680
Speaker 2: could be if it could be just like real and

1179
00:52:44,880 --> 00:52:45,400
Speaker 2: raw and not.

1180
00:52:45,640 --> 00:52:47,320
Speaker 3: Like yeah, like if they can come in in sweats

1181
00:52:47,360 --> 00:52:49,680
Speaker 3: with no makeup and just talk about like the real

1182
00:52:49,840 --> 00:52:53,759
Speaker 3: like like if they have diarrhea or like like yeah yeah,

1183
00:52:54,600 --> 00:52:56,520
Speaker 3: like yeah, the stuff that you would never know because

1184
00:52:56,520 --> 00:52:58,880
Speaker 3: they're always so put together. I bet they have diarrhea,

1185
00:52:59,239 --> 00:52:59,600
Speaker 3: do you think?

1186
00:52:59,640 --> 00:53:00,719
Speaker 2: I don't sure.

1187
00:53:02,520 --> 00:53:06,160
Speaker 3: Chloe does, yeah, and Courtney and Courtney.

1188
00:53:05,960 --> 00:53:07,759
Speaker 2: Yeah let me poo. I don't know about him.

1189
00:53:08,360 --> 00:53:13,480
Speaker 3: Yeah, Kim's a robot. I would like to know how

1190
00:53:13,520 --> 00:53:14,920
Speaker 3: to be a billionaire. That's what I would ask her.

1191
00:53:15,320 --> 00:53:17,359
Speaker 3: How do you get to be a billionaire? I don't

1192
00:53:17,360 --> 00:53:19,399
Speaker 3: know if I want to be a billionaire. I don't

1193
00:53:19,440 --> 00:53:21,400
Speaker 3: think I want to be a billionaire, Like why do you?

1194
00:53:21,480 --> 00:53:23,440
Speaker 2: And then you have and then everything you have to

1195
00:53:23,600 --> 00:53:27,279
Speaker 2: question every relationship. Are they just my friend? Because I

1196
00:53:27,360 --> 00:53:29,160
Speaker 2: have billions of dollars and.

1197
00:53:29,239 --> 00:53:31,759
Speaker 3: You don't need it. You don't need to do with

1198
00:53:31,840 --> 00:53:32,800
Speaker 3: a billion dollars.

1199
00:53:33,000 --> 00:53:34,919
Speaker 2: I would just get you have to give it away

1200
00:53:35,000 --> 00:53:38,040
Speaker 2: for it to be even like ethical. Yeah, you know,

1201
00:53:38,920 --> 00:53:44,040
Speaker 2: but they don't be doing that, Caitlin. We love you,

1202
00:53:44,160 --> 00:53:47,520
Speaker 2: thank you for coming in the studio a TikTok or something,

1203
00:53:47,680 --> 00:53:52,920
Speaker 2: so yeah, can you do that? You can teach us,

1204
00:53:53,080 --> 00:53:54,879
Speaker 2: but it's hard.

1205
00:53:54,960 --> 00:53:58,200
Speaker 3: It Actually I finally got it yesterday and I was sweating,

1206
00:53:58,560 --> 00:54:00,279
Speaker 3: like I was sweating learning to do that.

1207
00:54:00,320 --> 00:54:02,440
Speaker 2: What if you're doing we're just staying hype you up and.

1208
00:54:02,480 --> 00:54:05,160
Speaker 3: The Yeah that works. I'm horrible with TikTok or we

1209
00:54:05,200 --> 00:54:06,000
Speaker 3: can find one that we're all.

1210
00:54:05,960 --> 00:54:07,880
Speaker 2: Good Yeah, yeah, yeah, I think there's something we can do.

1211
00:54:08,360 --> 00:54:08,600
Speaker 3: Yeah.

1212
00:54:09,200 --> 00:54:11,000
Speaker 2: We love you so much. We're so happy for you.

1213
00:54:11,160 --> 00:54:13,040
Speaker 2: I'm so happy for the place that you're in and

1214
00:54:13,880 --> 00:54:17,839
Speaker 2: love the person that you are and can't wait, can't

1215
00:54:17,880 --> 00:54:20,759
Speaker 2: wait to see what forty the forties bringing. Yeah, because

1216
00:54:20,760 --> 00:54:23,759
Speaker 2: I feel up until then you has brought you a lot,

1217
00:54:23,960 --> 00:54:25,440
Speaker 2: Like I feel like the thirties brought you a.

1218
00:54:25,480 --> 00:54:27,480
Speaker 3: Little really good to a lot of ups and a

1219
00:54:27,560 --> 00:54:28,120
Speaker 3: lot of downs.

1220
00:54:28,400 --> 00:54:30,879
Speaker 2: That's like, yeah, yeah, you lived a lot of life

1221
00:54:30,920 --> 00:54:31,520
Speaker 2: in your thirties.

1222
00:54:31,640 --> 00:54:33,040
Speaker 3: I lived a lot of I think I've lived like

1223
00:54:33,080 --> 00:54:35,279
Speaker 3: a hundred different lives in my life. Every time I

1224
00:54:35,320 --> 00:54:37,360
Speaker 3: tell my girl, my girlfriend cat a story, she's like,

1225
00:54:38,239 --> 00:54:40,359
Speaker 3: of course, that happened to you, Like I just so weird.

1226
00:54:40,440 --> 00:54:42,239
Speaker 3: Things happened to me all the time. Yeah, but yeah,

1227
00:54:42,320 --> 00:54:43,600
Speaker 3: thanks for having I don't want to leave.

1228
00:54:45,040 --> 00:54:47,880
Speaker 2: Next man.

1229
00:54:49,320 --> 00:54:50,320
Speaker 3: Now I'm really done.

1230
00:54:50,200 --> 00:54:54,440
Speaker 2: Talking to it. We put a cap on the finale

1231
00:54:55,200 --> 00:54:56,360
Speaker 2: of all things in the past.

1232
00:54:56,560 --> 00:54:57,239
Speaker 3: Yeah bye.

1233
00:54:57,840 --> 00:54:59,880
Speaker 2: It's being left in the thirties forever.

1234
00:55:00,640 --> 00:55:03,320
Speaker 3: Yeah bye bye.