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Speaker 2: I was talking about her all last week on the

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Speaker 2: of that, But last week I was talking about energy, right,

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Speaker 2: We were having this discussion about energy, and I was

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Speaker 2: you come with it every time, including this time, which

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Speaker 2: I feel like you must be working your fucking ass off.

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Speaker 2: And you have no fear concerned about any of that time, energy, nothing,

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Speaker 1: I'm grown and you're happy and I'm happy, like I'm not.

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Speaker 1: I was like, all right, I'm completely single. I gave

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Speaker 1: I was like learning myself, but there was days that

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Speaker 2: So when you find it?

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Speaker 1: So when you find it, it's like you find it,

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Speaker 1: I'll take it. I'll take it, I take it.

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Speaker 2: Yeah, what do you feel? Because it feels like you're fearless,

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Speaker 2: Like I feel like you've really managed your career in

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Speaker 1: I fear losing everything. I feel losing every day after Yeah,

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Speaker 2: But what does it look like? What is it? Are you?

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Speaker 2: What are you doing? Do me a future? Do me

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Speaker 1: Ten years from now? I have to make sure that

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Speaker 2: When are you You're most happy?

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Speaker 1: When I'm most happy, it depends on the diferent types

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Speaker 1: I'm with my partner. I'm happy when I'm with my

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Speaker 1: kids and they funny as fuck. They funny. They gotta

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Speaker 1: I like y'all. Like I'm happy when I'm chilling, when

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Speaker 1: I'm happy when there's no drama. I'm happy when there's

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Speaker 1: Like it's like no drama on the phone today, it's

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Speaker 1: a good day. It's a good day. Work is good,

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Speaker 1: When everything is like in.

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Speaker 2: Rotation, like yeah, and everybody's leaving you, leaving you alone.

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Speaker 1: Yeah yeah, and there's no bullshit and there's no drama.

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Speaker 2: But then maybe you are the drama is the album.

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Speaker 1: Maybe maybe. But I feel like as born ups, we

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Speaker 1: But so that's why one is not nothing. It's like,

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Speaker 1: What is the habit you're proud of? What is the

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Speaker 1: Though, Like I'm waking up well, every day, I wake

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Speaker 1: hey hei. But then I be up at ten. I'll

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Speaker 1: usually go to sleep black at six am, and I'll

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Speaker 2: Early because man, because you wait for that test and

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Speaker 1: But it's like sometimes you wake up and you're just

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Speaker 1: oh shit, I've been in TikTok for thirty minutes. But

433
00:22:13,840 --> 00:22:21,600
Speaker 1: I answered to calls, so something was accomplished, getting the

434
00:22:21,640 --> 00:22:25,000
Speaker 1: work done. Not procrastinating. Was that I'm trying to break

435
00:22:25,000 --> 00:22:27,640
Speaker 1: I'm trying to stop eating this ice, honey.

436
00:22:27,680 --> 00:22:30,680
Speaker 2: Why it's not bad. It's water, yeah, but I don't

437
00:22:30,720 --> 00:22:32,720
Speaker 2: like the feeling when I don't have it and you're

438
00:22:32,760 --> 00:22:33,800
Speaker 2: like addicted to ice.

439
00:22:34,359 --> 00:22:37,240
Speaker 1: Yes, it's been like that for like a minute. Then

440
00:22:37,280 --> 00:22:39,280
Speaker 1: I stopped it. Then it came back. I don't know.

441
00:22:39,280 --> 00:22:42,639
Speaker 1: Maybe because I stopped, why don't you stop? I stopped

442
00:22:42,640 --> 00:22:45,800
Speaker 1: smoking cigarettes and stuff. I haven't been looking drinking and stuff.

443
00:22:45,800 --> 00:22:51,520
Speaker 1: So maybe I'm just like it's not. I had it

444
00:22:51,560 --> 00:22:55,960
Speaker 1: like in twenty nineteen, twenty twenty, then I stopped. Then

445
00:22:56,000 --> 00:22:59,160
Speaker 1: I picked it up again with blossom. Then it just

446
00:22:59,200 --> 00:23:02,200
Speaker 1: never left the way and now it's just becoming worse.

447
00:23:02,359 --> 00:23:04,840
Speaker 2: You should ask somebody about that. It's gotta be a reason,

448
00:23:04,920 --> 00:23:06,840
Speaker 2: Like it's just a habit. I don't think it's an

449
00:23:06,840 --> 00:23:09,040
Speaker 2: addiction because it's not. It's just water.

450
00:23:09,240 --> 00:23:10,920
Speaker 1: It's just I get cranky when I don't have.

451
00:23:11,000 --> 00:23:14,440
Speaker 2: It's like what, okay, a couple of things. Yeah, because

452
00:23:14,440 --> 00:23:17,520
Speaker 2: we're talking in real life, right, what what has being

453
00:23:17,560 --> 00:23:19,600
Speaker 2: a mom changed about you? Or what did you learn

454
00:23:19,680 --> 00:23:20,880
Speaker 2: or what was a big surprise?

455
00:23:21,359 --> 00:23:27,120
Speaker 1: Well, like, of course I'm on my forfeit.

456
00:23:27,640 --> 00:23:29,240
Speaker 2: I'm saying I didn't now.

457
00:23:29,480 --> 00:23:32,360
Speaker 1: Yeah, but when you have your first kid, even when

458
00:23:32,440 --> 00:23:34,840
Speaker 1: like you know the people like when the kids, when

459
00:23:34,880 --> 00:23:37,320
Speaker 1: the baby sleep, you go to sleep too, And it's

460
00:23:37,359 --> 00:23:40,240
Speaker 1: like no, because you're even afraid to go to sleep

461
00:23:40,280 --> 00:23:42,600
Speaker 1: because what happened if something happened to them when they're sleeping,

462
00:23:42,640 --> 00:23:44,480
Speaker 1: Like my baby used to throw up, used to throw

463
00:23:44,520 --> 00:23:47,560
Speaker 1: up while she sleep. So those were the type of

464
00:23:47,600 --> 00:23:50,080
Speaker 1: things like becoming a new mom, it's a little bit

465
00:23:50,160 --> 00:23:53,560
Speaker 1: difficult that people think. I've been telling people like as

466
00:23:53,600 --> 00:23:57,879
Speaker 1: I just remember, it's the six months that are tough,

467
00:23:58,040 --> 00:24:01,199
Speaker 1: the first six yes, And it's just little things that

468
00:24:01,240 --> 00:24:04,240
Speaker 1: you just worry about, like like it's like what type

469
00:24:04,240 --> 00:24:06,480
Speaker 1: of man you're gonna be? What type of woman are

470
00:24:06,480 --> 00:24:09,680
Speaker 1: you gonna be? It just be the the little fears,

471
00:24:09,680 --> 00:24:13,880
Speaker 1: Like it's like I have to protect these these these

472
00:24:13,920 --> 00:24:16,520
Speaker 1: are I have to protect them. They're so innocent. But

473
00:24:16,800 --> 00:24:18,720
Speaker 1: then it's like I can't even protect you that much

474
00:24:18,760 --> 00:24:20,639
Speaker 1: because you one day you gotta be a man. One

475
00:24:20,720 --> 00:24:23,880
Speaker 1: day you one day you're gonna have a social media,

476
00:24:23,960 --> 00:24:25,480
Speaker 1: like for my daughter, Like one day you're gonna have

477
00:24:25,520 --> 00:24:28,359
Speaker 1: a social media. One thing, you're gonna read things about you,

478
00:24:28,440 --> 00:24:31,040
Speaker 1: and I hope that will affect you in no way.

479
00:24:31,160 --> 00:24:33,360
Speaker 1: So it's like I've been trying to protect but it's just.

480
00:24:34,720 --> 00:24:35,880
Speaker 2: You can do so much.

481
00:24:36,000 --> 00:24:38,560
Speaker 1: You can only do with so much, and they're always

482
00:24:38,600 --> 00:24:42,040
Speaker 1: on your Your kids never leave your mind. You don't

483
00:24:42,119 --> 00:24:44,640
Speaker 1: notice that no matter where you at, what you're doing,

484
00:24:44,760 --> 00:24:48,160
Speaker 1: they just don't leave your mind ever, not for a second.

485
00:24:48,160 --> 00:24:50,920
Speaker 1: They don't leave your mind, Like you just think about

486
00:24:50,920 --> 00:24:53,640
Speaker 1: them all day, probably in the club or your drug

487
00:24:53,640 --> 00:25:01,879
Speaker 1: as a cultures. So and it's are being a mother's

488
00:25:01,920 --> 00:25:03,960
Speaker 1: hard that you have money or you don't.

489
00:25:04,240 --> 00:25:06,640
Speaker 2: People think because you have money, that's probably easier.

490
00:25:07,000 --> 00:25:09,480
Speaker 1: It is easier, but it's kind of like not, it's

491
00:25:09,480 --> 00:25:13,200
Speaker 1: still hard. Just having that responsibility is hard.

492
00:25:13,359 --> 00:25:15,600
Speaker 2: Yeah, And it's a NonStop job.

493
00:25:15,760 --> 00:25:19,480
Speaker 1: And it's a non stop jobs, NonStop, and you're about

494
00:25:19,480 --> 00:25:22,359
Speaker 1: to have another one. Yep, it's okay. Is that it's okay.

495
00:25:22,440 --> 00:25:25,119
Speaker 2: You're about to do party training again? Oh my god,

496
00:25:25,359 --> 00:25:29,119
Speaker 2: breast for your breastfeeder, no breastfeed What else is at

497
00:25:29,119 --> 00:25:31,679
Speaker 2: the at the beginning, just all of it? Sleeping not

498
00:25:31,720 --> 00:25:32,600
Speaker 2: sleeping through the night.

499
00:25:33,520 --> 00:25:38,760
Speaker 1: The night, I'm telling you, it's really the worst thing

500
00:25:39,040 --> 00:25:42,600
Speaker 1: is like going outside with them, Oh my gosh, danks

501
00:25:42,640 --> 00:25:44,960
Speaker 1: giving Christmas? Oh, going to your grandma's house. I don't

502
00:25:45,000 --> 00:25:48,960
Speaker 1: want to go. I don't want to go because it's

503
00:25:49,040 --> 00:25:56,120
Speaker 1: just it's just getting three ready to outside. Oh that's tough,

504
00:25:57,160 --> 00:26:00,800
Speaker 1: like because it's like, Okay, you're bathing one, cleaning one,

505
00:26:00,960 --> 00:26:04,240
Speaker 1: but then you gotta stop because you gotta feed the baby.

506
00:26:04,520 --> 00:26:06,600
Speaker 1: Then after you feed the baby, you gotta take it

507
00:26:06,640 --> 00:26:08,520
Speaker 1: back to the other one. Not the other one is

508
00:26:08,560 --> 00:26:09,960
Speaker 1: talking about mommy I'm hungry.

509
00:26:10,119 --> 00:26:12,439
Speaker 2: They assume you have help with this type of stuff.

510
00:26:12,560 --> 00:26:14,520
Speaker 1: I do have help, But there's days that it's like

511
00:26:14,560 --> 00:26:18,000
Speaker 1: people need days off, you know what I'm saying. People

512
00:26:18,119 --> 00:26:20,240
Speaker 1: need They all like they have life too. They want

513
00:26:20,240 --> 00:26:21,919
Speaker 1: to enjoy them so and it's like, bitch, this is

514
00:26:21,960 --> 00:26:24,240
Speaker 1: your this is your ship. One thing about kids, they're

515
00:26:24,280 --> 00:26:28,399
Speaker 1: your kids. Yeah, they're yours, especially like in the holidays

516
00:26:28,440 --> 00:26:33,040
Speaker 1: and everybody's going home, they're yours. You gotta wash and clean,

517
00:26:33,119 --> 00:26:35,639
Speaker 1: they butt and all that, all three of them. Certain

518
00:26:35,680 --> 00:26:40,400
Speaker 1: things that is like your kids want you there. They

519
00:26:40,440 --> 00:26:42,520
Speaker 1: want you. They don't want no grandma. They don't want

520
00:26:42,520 --> 00:26:44,919
Speaker 1: no grandpa. Theyn't want no nanny, they don't want know nothing.

521
00:26:45,200 --> 00:26:46,000
Speaker 1: They want you.

522
00:26:47,040 --> 00:26:49,920
Speaker 2: And it's it's a good feeling.

523
00:26:50,359 --> 00:26:52,399
Speaker 1: It's a good feeling. It's a good feeling.

524
00:26:52,480 --> 00:26:54,959
Speaker 2: It's a good feeling. That's a good feeling when they

525
00:26:54,960 --> 00:26:56,600
Speaker 2: want you. I can't believe you about that afford. Okay,

526
00:26:56,640 --> 00:26:58,560
Speaker 2: So what about love? Where are you with love? Like,

527
00:26:58,560 --> 00:27:01,679
Speaker 2: what are your belief systems about love? Has it changed you?

528
00:27:01,720 --> 00:27:03,320
Speaker 2: Are you still? Like I feel like you're a little

529
00:27:03,359 --> 00:27:05,359
Speaker 2: mushi because you're talking about your little morning calls and

530
00:27:05,359 --> 00:27:08,960
Speaker 2: stuff like that. But do you I don't know. Do

531
00:27:09,000 --> 00:27:10,960
Speaker 2: you have any thoughts about it? Do you believe in it?

532
00:27:11,000 --> 00:27:13,040
Speaker 2: Do you need it still so much in your life?

533
00:27:13,160 --> 00:27:15,640
Speaker 2: Some women say like, you know, I'll be good either way,

534
00:27:15,840 --> 00:27:17,440
Speaker 2: someone like I need a partner.

535
00:27:17,760 --> 00:27:23,439
Speaker 1: I believe in it. But I do understand why you

536
00:27:23,480 --> 00:27:27,720
Speaker 1: got that, aren't that. It's like you're like, you're like

537
00:27:27,760 --> 00:27:31,240
Speaker 1: in your fifties and you're like and smart and dog

538
00:27:31,640 --> 00:27:35,720
Speaker 1: and you're pretty and you're you're sixty and you're good,

539
00:27:35,760 --> 00:27:37,320
Speaker 1: Like why don't you why don't you have a man?

540
00:27:37,359 --> 00:27:39,000
Speaker 1: Why I've never seen you with a man. And it's

541
00:27:39,000 --> 00:27:43,720
Speaker 1: like now I know why. Now I know why that

542
00:27:43,800 --> 00:27:50,280
Speaker 1: would It would drive you crazy. The beginning stages, the

543
00:27:50,880 --> 00:27:57,320
Speaker 1: mind game, the checks because everybody got different checks. You

544
00:27:57,400 --> 00:28:02,960
Speaker 1: know what I'm saying, Like some women be like, Okay,

545
00:28:02,960 --> 00:28:04,879
Speaker 1: I need a man to do this. I need a

546
00:28:04,880 --> 00:28:06,560
Speaker 1: man just that I need a man to have a job,

547
00:28:06,600 --> 00:28:08,600
Speaker 1: and I need a man to be at home at

548
00:28:08,600 --> 00:28:11,280
Speaker 1: a certain time, and I need a man that calls

549
00:28:11,400 --> 00:28:16,840
Speaker 1: me this amount of time, and like everybody have different checklists, checklists,

550
00:28:17,400 --> 00:28:21,760
Speaker 1: So I really understand, like that mind game, it's really

551
00:28:21,840 --> 00:28:25,399
Speaker 1: a mind game. Thing. That mind game is like some

552
00:28:25,440 --> 00:28:27,200
Speaker 1: women I can see why they were like, I can't

553
00:28:27,200 --> 00:28:30,760
Speaker 1: deal with this mind game shit. I cannot deal with it.

554
00:28:30,920 --> 00:28:33,639
Speaker 1: Or some men will traumatize a woman so much that

555
00:28:33,640 --> 00:28:35,159
Speaker 1: they'll be like, I just don't ever want to do

556
00:28:35,200 --> 00:28:38,560
Speaker 1: it again. And I'm fine with that. And if you

557
00:28:38,600 --> 00:28:40,480
Speaker 1: ever see a woman that she don't got a man,

558
00:28:41,280 --> 00:28:43,880
Speaker 1: don't ever don't be judging her, Like it's like, why

559
00:28:43,960 --> 00:28:45,400
Speaker 1: you don't have a man? Is it because you can

560
00:28:45,520 --> 00:28:47,400
Speaker 1: keep a man? Is it because this isn't that? No,

561
00:28:47,480 --> 00:28:49,520
Speaker 1: some women just don't really want to deal with these niggas.

562
00:28:49,880 --> 00:28:52,960
Speaker 1: I don't understand. She just want to protect her peace.

563
00:28:53,560 --> 00:28:56,080
Speaker 1: Like I love love, and I believe in love, and

564
00:28:56,120 --> 00:28:58,480
Speaker 1: I believe in marriage, and I believe in family, and

565
00:28:58,600 --> 00:29:02,520
Speaker 1: I believe in union. But I also do understand why

566
00:29:02,600 --> 00:29:05,280
Speaker 1: other women like it's just like I'm not doing this

567
00:29:05,320 --> 00:29:08,080
Speaker 1: shit again. I understand it, and that's why I will

568
00:29:08,080 --> 00:29:11,720
Speaker 1: not even judge them, Like, don't judge me neither, though,

569
00:29:12,440 --> 00:29:15,239
Speaker 1: but I won't judge you neither, because I really I

570
00:29:15,520 --> 00:29:18,240
Speaker 1: understand why when you want to do it, I feel

571
00:29:18,280 --> 00:29:20,480
Speaker 1: like some women just be like, you know what, I'd

572
00:29:20,520 --> 00:29:22,800
Speaker 1: rather be alone. I don't get a fuck about it.

573
00:29:23,080 --> 00:29:24,040
Speaker 1: I don't I could.

574
00:29:24,040 --> 00:29:26,720
Speaker 2: Because the knockdown for a lot of women is really hard. Yes,

575
00:29:26,760 --> 00:29:30,120
Speaker 2: when you're get knocked down that ship, some people don't

576
00:29:30,120 --> 00:29:30,920
Speaker 2: want to get back up.

577
00:29:31,280 --> 00:29:33,160
Speaker 1: Yeah, they don't want to get back up again. And

578
00:29:33,200 --> 00:29:37,320
Speaker 1: it's like if you ever see your aunt and were like,

579
00:29:37,320 --> 00:29:39,760
Speaker 1: why my aunt don't have a nigga, or like it's

580
00:29:39,840 --> 00:29:45,840
Speaker 1: my grandma grandmother, Well my grandma passed, but I always

581
00:29:46,120 --> 00:29:48,120
Speaker 1: be like, I want my grandma to have a boyfriend.

582
00:29:48,600 --> 00:29:50,240
Speaker 1: I used to do I used to brush your hair,

583
00:29:50,240 --> 00:29:52,120
Speaker 1: and it feel like, so you could have a boyfriend.

584
00:29:52,560 --> 00:29:55,520
Speaker 1: And it's like, no, no, my grandma never had a man.

585
00:29:58,400 --> 00:30:00,640
Speaker 1: Like they don't want to deal with that. Nobody want

586
00:30:00,680 --> 00:30:01,200
Speaker 1: to deal with that.

587
00:30:01,320 --> 00:30:04,640
Speaker 2: What will you teach your sons about that, about how

588
00:30:04,680 --> 00:30:06,760
Speaker 2: to treat a woman, or what will you teach your

589
00:30:06,760 --> 00:30:10,320
Speaker 2: sons about relationships? Because it's one thing your daughter. You

590
00:30:10,360 --> 00:30:12,120
Speaker 2: tell your daughter to watch out for this, to watch out. Yes,

591
00:30:12,240 --> 00:30:15,120
Speaker 2: but raising boys is different, Like what do you what

592
00:30:15,200 --> 00:30:17,240
Speaker 2: will you teach your boys about being a good man

593
00:30:17,280 --> 00:30:20,800
Speaker 2: in that way? Do you know what you're having yet?

594
00:30:20,800 --> 00:30:23,200
Speaker 2: By the way, you don't know? Oh you do? No, okay,

595
00:30:23,760 --> 00:30:26,920
Speaker 2: I did know, but exaving that for another day, Well,

596
00:30:27,240 --> 00:30:28,160
Speaker 2: I won't I know.

597
00:30:28,160 --> 00:30:30,520
Speaker 1: The hard things that I want to tell him that.

598
00:30:30,720 --> 00:30:33,080
Speaker 1: One thing is like, let me tell you some boy,

599
00:30:35,800 --> 00:30:41,400
Speaker 1: if a bitch slightly say no, is no, you ain't

600
00:30:41,400 --> 00:30:43,600
Speaker 1: gonna bring no problems in my house. You're gonna bring

601
00:30:43,640 --> 00:30:46,400
Speaker 1: no little bitch said that, they're no funny ship. Second,

602
00:30:47,480 --> 00:30:49,720
Speaker 1: you don't own a bitch body.

603
00:30:50,360 --> 00:30:50,479
Speaker 2: Hm.

604
00:30:51,200 --> 00:30:53,520
Speaker 1: So if you get a bitch knocked up and she

605
00:30:53,640 --> 00:30:55,720
Speaker 1: say no, it's no. And it's like, don't think that

606
00:30:55,800 --> 00:30:58,960
Speaker 1: I'm gonna be helping you because I ain't. You better

607
00:30:59,000 --> 00:31:09,040
Speaker 1: get a job. You weren't bringing overage to live in

608
00:31:09,040 --> 00:31:09,520
Speaker 1: my house?

609
00:31:10,600 --> 00:31:13,640
Speaker 2: Are you having these not having these conversations anytime soon? Right?

610
00:31:14,640 --> 00:31:15,600
Speaker 1: You got to prepare yourself.

611
00:31:16,160 --> 00:31:18,760
Speaker 2: Okay, just clarity, just for clarity, guys, got it, a libra,

612
00:31:19,000 --> 00:31:22,120
Speaker 2: I got it. You're thinking of the future of the future.

613
00:31:22,120 --> 00:31:24,280
Speaker 2: I understand. I just wanted to clarify that that that

614
00:31:24,400 --> 00:31:25,120
Speaker 2: case anybody.

615
00:31:25,320 --> 00:31:27,720
Speaker 1: So those are but like those are the things that

616
00:31:27,880 --> 00:31:30,200
Speaker 1: is like all right first and foremost.

617
00:31:29,800 --> 00:31:35,160
Speaker 2: Yes, but also like you know, hav integrity for me.

618
00:31:35,200 --> 00:31:37,400
Speaker 2: And when I'm thinking about the things, it's like say

619
00:31:37,400 --> 00:31:40,080
Speaker 2: what you mean what you say? You know you don't

620
00:31:40,320 --> 00:31:42,080
Speaker 2: if you ain't ready, that's okay. You ain't ready.

621
00:31:42,280 --> 00:31:44,720
Speaker 1: If you ain't ready, you gotta let a girl a

622
00:31:44,800 --> 00:31:48,000
Speaker 1: girl know, like baby, this ain that because if you

623
00:31:48,080 --> 00:31:52,080
Speaker 1: play with a girl's heart. To some guys, playing with

624
00:31:52,160 --> 00:31:54,640
Speaker 1: a girl's heart is like so it's not a big deal,

625
00:31:55,080 --> 00:31:57,280
Speaker 1: but it's it's the karma that comes to you. So

626
00:31:57,360 --> 00:31:59,880
Speaker 1: if you're having a bad day at your job and

627
00:32:00,160 --> 00:32:02,280
Speaker 1: having a bad day, like it's like, damn, my luck

628
00:32:02,320 --> 00:32:06,080
Speaker 1: has been bad, it's because you probably put a girl

629
00:32:06,120 --> 00:32:09,720
Speaker 1: through some tears. So don't play mind games because karma.

630
00:32:11,320 --> 00:32:13,600
Speaker 1: Some men that they don't think that, they don't think

631
00:32:13,600 --> 00:32:15,680
Speaker 1: they get bad karma. When you hurt somebody's heart.

632
00:32:16,520 --> 00:32:19,000
Speaker 2: Oh that's good. People should hear that. You may just

633
00:32:19,040 --> 00:32:22,520
Speaker 2: say it again, yes, like you know. Charlottagne says that

634
00:32:22,560 --> 00:32:24,760
Speaker 2: he says because he cheated on his wife and he

635
00:32:24,800 --> 00:32:26,040
Speaker 2: was a cheater for a long time.

636
00:32:25,920 --> 00:32:26,640
Speaker 1: That he stopped.

637
00:32:27,080 --> 00:32:28,840
Speaker 2: He knows the date that the last time, and he

638
00:32:28,960 --> 00:32:31,280
Speaker 2: changed his life, and he said his life has changed

639
00:32:31,680 --> 00:32:33,960
Speaker 2: so much more positive. He's has so many more blessings

640
00:32:34,000 --> 00:32:36,719
Speaker 2: since he became a good husband. Yes, the second that

641
00:32:36,760 --> 00:32:41,120
Speaker 2: you become a good person to your wife, your life flourishes.

642
00:32:41,440 --> 00:32:44,880
Speaker 1: Yes, because it's like you're hurting somebody, And I don't

643
00:32:44,880 --> 00:32:49,400
Speaker 1: think people understand how bad is that pain when you

644
00:32:49,480 --> 00:32:52,880
Speaker 1: hurt somebody that loves you, And it might not be

645
00:32:53,000 --> 00:32:55,280
Speaker 1: your wife. It just might be a girl that you

646
00:32:55,320 --> 00:32:58,239
Speaker 1: probably was playing mind games with and you made them

647
00:32:58,280 --> 00:33:00,680
Speaker 1: feel like you love them, and it's like you rip

648
00:33:00,760 --> 00:33:03,520
Speaker 1: that love from them, and it's like God would make

649
00:33:03,560 --> 00:33:06,160
Speaker 1: you pay for that. So don't bring that back karma

650
00:33:06,200 --> 00:33:10,760
Speaker 1: into you. Boy. And I'm gonna mind my business. But

651
00:33:11,040 --> 00:33:12,720
Speaker 1: if you bring a girl to my house and that's

652
00:33:12,760 --> 00:33:15,160
Speaker 1: your girlfriend, and you bring another bridge, I'm a grill

653
00:33:15,200 --> 00:33:20,000
Speaker 1: her and be like I ain't gonna be messy because

654
00:33:20,000 --> 00:33:21,960
Speaker 1: they're in my place. But I'm a girl her, Like

655
00:33:22,480 --> 00:33:35,160
Speaker 1: wein my son girlfriend. I don't know what's gonnap. Oh

656
00:33:35,200 --> 00:33:38,560
Speaker 1: my god, I was. I wasn't even raised with boys.

657
00:33:38,880 --> 00:33:39,560
Speaker 1: It's kind of weird.

658
00:33:39,640 --> 00:33:41,800
Speaker 2: And you're trying to figure it out and you're like,

659
00:33:42,120 --> 00:33:43,800
Speaker 2: I mean, you're not really a single mom because you

660
00:33:43,880 --> 00:33:46,040
Speaker 2: have a family and even help and yeah whatever, but

661
00:33:46,120 --> 00:33:47,960
Speaker 2: like it's still your kids.

662
00:33:48,240 --> 00:33:52,160
Speaker 1: It's your kids, your kids, no matter what, even if

663
00:33:52,200 --> 00:33:55,959
Speaker 1: the dad was around, it's like it's still your It's fine.

664
00:33:58,800 --> 00:33:59,680
Speaker 1: I think I.

665
00:33:59,680 --> 00:34:03,600
Speaker 2: Think those mothers, whether they married, divorce whatever. Most mothers

666
00:34:03,600 --> 00:34:05,960
Speaker 2: feel like those are actually my kids.

667
00:34:06,040 --> 00:34:10,839
Speaker 1: Yes, it's like, okay, I'm glad you're here, but these

668
00:34:10,880 --> 00:34:11,640
Speaker 1: are my kids.

669
00:34:11,719 --> 00:34:14,920
Speaker 2: Yeah for sure. What about your girls.

670
00:34:15,160 --> 00:34:19,040
Speaker 1: I'm really scared of the girls. Why because we're so sensitive.

671
00:34:19,160 --> 00:34:23,239
Speaker 1: Everything hurts our feelings. Especially my oldest daughter. She's very

672
00:34:24,320 --> 00:34:26,759
Speaker 1: she's seven, and she she has such a good heart.

673
00:34:27,840 --> 00:34:34,560
Speaker 1: So it's like, oh, I'm scared to go through that.

674
00:34:34,920 --> 00:34:38,360
Speaker 2: Do what will you teach her about? I don't know.

675
00:34:38,520 --> 00:34:41,480
Speaker 2: Making the right choices and partners and friendships. That was

676
00:34:41,520 --> 00:34:43,239
Speaker 2: that was always the thing for me. It's like make

677
00:34:43,320 --> 00:34:46,239
Speaker 2: sure you the wrong friends can ruin your life. Yep,

678
00:34:46,640 --> 00:34:47,560
Speaker 2: the wrong partner.

679
00:34:47,880 --> 00:34:50,520
Speaker 1: You got to scare them there it is.

680
00:34:50,880 --> 00:34:52,320
Speaker 2: You're gonna do really good at that. I don't know

681
00:34:52,360 --> 00:34:53,640
Speaker 2: why I think you're gonna do a good job.

682
00:34:54,280 --> 00:34:56,479
Speaker 1: You got to scare them. I mean, my my mom

683
00:34:56,800 --> 00:34:58,440
Speaker 1: used to scare the ship out of me. Did she

684
00:34:58,480 --> 00:35:03,719
Speaker 1: tell you she to like say like she used to

685
00:35:03,719 --> 00:35:06,319
Speaker 1: tell me, Like it's like if you, if if you

686
00:35:06,440 --> 00:35:09,399
Speaker 1: or Hannessy get pregnant, you will have to get out

687
00:35:09,440 --> 00:35:12,120
Speaker 1: of my house. It's not like, oh I'll help you

688
00:35:12,200 --> 00:35:14,319
Speaker 1: this and that. You have to get out of my house.

689
00:35:14,400 --> 00:35:17,520
Speaker 1: There cannot be two women in this house. And that

690
00:35:17,680 --> 00:35:19,839
Speaker 1: used to be like that. That used to be like

691
00:35:19,880 --> 00:35:21,759
Speaker 1: in my head, like when I was fourteen fifteen, like

692
00:35:21,800 --> 00:35:24,640
Speaker 1: it's like, oh my gosh, imagine having to live so

693
00:35:24,840 --> 00:35:27,000
Speaker 1: young with a guy with no job and I got

694
00:35:27,000 --> 00:35:29,319
Speaker 1: no job and I got it. She will scare me.

695
00:35:29,320 --> 00:35:32,440
Speaker 1: They kept you straight, It kept me straight, like and

696
00:35:32,520 --> 00:35:35,440
Speaker 1: she used to be like, if you go out and

697
00:35:35,480 --> 00:35:38,239
Speaker 1: you don't come home, there's a night that you don't

698
00:35:38,239 --> 00:35:40,000
Speaker 1: come home, you will have to get the fuck out

699
00:35:40,040 --> 00:35:42,640
Speaker 1: of my house. So I will never even like, oh,

700
00:35:42,880 --> 00:35:45,840
Speaker 1: come home. And it's a certain she will scare the

701
00:35:45,840 --> 00:35:47,799
Speaker 1: shit out of me. She didn't even have to beat me.

702
00:35:48,520 --> 00:35:51,799
Speaker 1: I just the certain things that it's like, I don't

703
00:35:51,800 --> 00:35:54,920
Speaker 1: want that life. I don't want that life problem. I

704
00:35:55,000 --> 00:35:56,840
Speaker 1: don't want those problems. I don't want to be a

705
00:35:56,920 --> 00:36:00,439
Speaker 1: teenage viobe. I don't want to do that. No, I don't.

706
00:36:00,520 --> 00:36:01,520
Speaker 2: So you're gonna do the same thing.

707
00:36:01,800 --> 00:36:05,520
Speaker 1: Yeah, I'm scared her, Like it's like scale the ship

708
00:36:05,560 --> 00:36:07,880
Speaker 1: out of them. Don't don't try to relate.

709
00:36:08,160 --> 00:36:11,200
Speaker 2: Are you Are you the soft or you're a disciplinarian?

710
00:36:11,239 --> 00:36:12,960
Speaker 2: Do you think I'm both?

711
00:36:13,200 --> 00:36:15,319
Speaker 1: I'm both because certain things my kids are not scared

712
00:36:15,320 --> 00:36:15,480
Speaker 1: of me.

713
00:36:16,400 --> 00:36:17,000
Speaker 2: It's a joke.

714
00:36:18,920 --> 00:36:22,719
Speaker 1: Whatever they think it's so funny, it's not funny. But okay,

715
00:36:22,960 --> 00:36:26,960
Speaker 1: But I certain things I feel like my mom is

716
00:36:27,000 --> 00:36:29,680
Speaker 1: more strict than me, and certain things like my like

717
00:36:29,719 --> 00:36:33,600
Speaker 1: my mom put a timer on my kid's iPad, so

718
00:36:33,680 --> 00:36:38,040
Speaker 1: I eight o'clock. My daughter be crying to me, like please, mommy, please,

719
00:36:38,440 --> 00:36:40,160
Speaker 1: she cried to me, and I'd be like, okay, you

720
00:36:40,160 --> 00:36:43,319
Speaker 1: can use my phone. But certain things that my mom

721
00:36:43,320 --> 00:36:47,040
Speaker 1: would do that I'd be like, stop. Like every day

722
00:36:47,280 --> 00:36:49,080
Speaker 1: my kids have to go to tutoring. They gotta take

723
00:36:49,080 --> 00:36:51,080
Speaker 1: the piano classes. They gotta take the classes. And my

724
00:36:51,120 --> 00:36:54,800
Speaker 1: mom be like, you're you're crazy. They're gonna get tired. Stop,

725
00:36:56,600 --> 00:36:59,920
Speaker 1: it's for the best of them. Go to your class

726
00:37:00,080 --> 00:37:02,920
Speaker 1: before you piss me off. It's only one hour.

727
00:37:03,560 --> 00:37:04,080
Speaker 2: That's good.

728
00:37:04,239 --> 00:37:08,120
Speaker 1: But they're sleepy. They've been up since six Stop. Stop.

729
00:37:09,160 --> 00:37:13,640
Speaker 2: That's good. So you got the best of both worlds.

730
00:37:13,680 --> 00:37:15,520
Speaker 2: You get the best of both worlds with that, all right?

731
00:37:15,520 --> 00:37:17,120
Speaker 2: I got in real life questions. I know, Brittany, we

732
00:37:17,120 --> 00:37:17,680
Speaker 2: gotta wrap so.

733
00:37:19,520 --> 00:37:20,960
Speaker 1: Just I can't shut.

734
00:37:22,719 --> 00:37:33,319
Speaker 2: Oh okay, okay, how about for a little bit case

735
00:37:33,400 --> 00:37:34,279
Speaker 2: me and Nikko, we out.

736
00:37:34,360 --> 00:37:37,279
Speaker 1: Everybody going places except for me.

737
00:37:37,520 --> 00:37:40,760
Speaker 2: I know, well, I haven't even fucking three in the world,

738
00:37:40,800 --> 00:37:42,480
Speaker 2: so you haven't been fucking three weeks. Why now?

739
00:37:42,960 --> 00:37:45,960
Speaker 1: Because motherfuckers is in Boston, I'm here wagon.

740
00:37:45,840 --> 00:37:49,040
Speaker 2: And also pregnancy makes you probably want to.

741
00:37:48,880 --> 00:37:50,759
Speaker 1: More, right, Yeah, but this is this is this is

742
00:37:50,840 --> 00:37:53,680
Speaker 1: crunch sign. Let's crunched down from me and him.

743
00:37:54,000 --> 00:37:58,080
Speaker 2: Yeah, wait what is he doing? He said he's in Boston. Yeah,

744
00:37:58,160 --> 00:37:58,600
Speaker 2: in Boston.

745
00:37:58,600 --> 00:38:02,760
Speaker 1: You're a patriottt he's playing yo, yeah, and I'm not playing.

746
00:38:03,600 --> 00:38:04,360
Speaker 1: We're not playing.

747
00:38:06,080 --> 00:38:08,960
Speaker 2: Does this change the relationship now that you're like pregnant?

748
00:38:09,200 --> 00:38:11,600
Speaker 1: The only thing that's like change now is our is

749
00:38:11,640 --> 00:38:14,200
Speaker 1: our work schedule now? Because now he's really locked in,

750
00:38:14,320 --> 00:38:16,440
Speaker 1: like he's in he's in his season right now, and

751
00:38:16,480 --> 00:38:18,239
Speaker 1: now I'm putting out an album right now. So it's

752
00:38:18,280 --> 00:38:20,400
Speaker 1: like we can't see each other even if we wanted to.

753
00:38:21,000 --> 00:38:22,560
Speaker 1: He'll fly over here to see me, and I'll fly

754
00:38:22,680 --> 00:38:25,480
Speaker 1: to see us. Now it's like, you've this is what

755
00:38:25,560 --> 00:38:28,840
Speaker 1: we talked about all year? Huh is our season? We

756
00:38:29,239 --> 00:38:31,879
Speaker 1: always talked about September. Now we're here and it's like.

757
00:38:32,400 --> 00:38:34,880
Speaker 2: How you doing? How you doing? How are you dealing

758
00:38:34,920 --> 00:38:35,239
Speaker 2: with it?

759
00:38:35,560 --> 00:38:37,239
Speaker 1: We we just talked to each other every day, and

760
00:38:37,280 --> 00:38:40,480
Speaker 1: it's like we got to keep it up. This is

761
00:38:40,480 --> 00:38:42,360
Speaker 1: what we was asking for. He just came out of

762
00:38:42,360 --> 00:38:47,759
Speaker 1: a a cl injury and it's like he want to

763
00:38:48,160 --> 00:38:50,200
Speaker 1: He got signed to approved and I got signed approved too.

764
00:38:50,320 --> 00:38:52,680
Speaker 2: Are you about to be like like an athlete's white,

765
00:38:52,680 --> 00:38:55,200
Speaker 2: Like you're gonna be at the games and like the kids,

766
00:38:55,239 --> 00:38:59,920
Speaker 2: like are you gonna be on the sidelines and football?

767
00:39:00,080 --> 00:39:02,480
Speaker 1: Harold, I'm gonna go to a couple of games. But

768
00:39:02,560 --> 00:39:05,560
Speaker 1: like I get too anxious. I feel too anxious. Really

769
00:39:05,880 --> 00:39:13,680
Speaker 1: I might be like I might get I might, I

770
00:39:13,800 --> 00:39:17,960
Speaker 1: might I might get bad, Like they're gonna ban me

771
00:39:17,960 --> 00:39:18,760
Speaker 1: from the stadium.

772
00:39:18,840 --> 00:39:21,600
Speaker 2: Oh my god. In real life, let's do our in

773
00:39:21,640 --> 00:39:23,880
Speaker 2: real life questions. In real life? What are you most

774
00:39:23,920 --> 00:39:25,239
Speaker 2: proud about of yourself?

775
00:39:26,560 --> 00:39:32,000
Speaker 1: Everything? Really, every I'm really proud of myself. These past

776
00:39:32,040 --> 00:39:34,120
Speaker 1: two months, I've been working my ass.

777
00:39:34,440 --> 00:39:35,319
Speaker 2: We all can see it.

778
00:39:35,520 --> 00:39:37,759
Speaker 1: Yes, Like even even the other day, I almost I

779
00:39:37,800 --> 00:39:41,320
Speaker 1: almost cried because it's like, yo, I'm I'm really in it.

780
00:39:41,560 --> 00:39:44,680
Speaker 1: There's no stone that has been left unturned. I have

781
00:39:44,800 --> 00:39:49,800
Speaker 1: done everything I have put in my fucking all tire,

782
00:39:49,920 --> 00:39:55,760
Speaker 1: sleepy feed, hurt, the train, station and everything, video, everything

783
00:39:55,880 --> 00:39:58,279
Speaker 1: and that that that'd be little. Those are like the

784
00:39:58,320 --> 00:40:03,239
Speaker 1: little things I have, like thirteen hour photo shoots day

785
00:40:04,080 --> 00:40:07,440
Speaker 1: in a few days everything, And it's like, wow, I'm

786
00:40:07,480 --> 00:40:09,920
Speaker 1: proud of myself. I told myself that I got to

787
00:40:09,960 --> 00:40:12,839
Speaker 1: push myself. My my. I don't keep saying my guy

788
00:40:13,040 --> 00:40:17,480
Speaker 1: got my man, my man, but it's like exact, he do.

789
00:40:17,719 --> 00:40:20,560
Speaker 1: He's very he really motivates me, and he's just be like,

790
00:40:21,000 --> 00:40:24,360
Speaker 1: you gotta do antil you uncomfortable. You if you're comfortable,

791
00:40:24,440 --> 00:40:28,160
Speaker 1: you're not doing enough. And it's like I'm uncomfortable.

792
00:40:28,200 --> 00:40:31,080
Speaker 2: There's something about athletes though, it's like an athlete mentality,

793
00:40:31,160 --> 00:40:33,640
Speaker 2: Like yeah, it's like a certain discipline they have and

794
00:40:33,680 --> 00:40:37,200
Speaker 2: a certain type of drive. Yes, that probably works good

795
00:40:37,200 --> 00:40:38,680
Speaker 2: for you. It's working for me.

796
00:40:38,880 --> 00:40:42,160
Speaker 1: Yeah, it's working for me because I'll probably be like,

797
00:40:42,239 --> 00:40:44,439
Speaker 1: oh my gosh, I can't do any one day break.

798
00:40:44,480 --> 00:40:48,040
Speaker 1: I have not taken out no breaks, no breaks. This

799
00:40:48,160 --> 00:40:50,919
Speaker 1: nigga ain't took no fucking break. Yeah. I ain't gonna

800
00:40:50,920 --> 00:40:52,120
Speaker 1: take what I'm strong.

801
00:40:51,840 --> 00:40:55,799
Speaker 2: To your competitives too. Yeah, I'm not gonna be the one.

802
00:40:56,080 --> 00:40:58,319
Speaker 2: You do need breaks though, come on, you can't. I

803
00:40:58,320 --> 00:40:59,040
Speaker 2: mean at some.

804
00:40:58,920 --> 00:41:00,240
Speaker 1: Point after this week.

805
00:41:00,120 --> 00:41:04,000
Speaker 2: Okay, after after this week in real life? What do

806
00:41:04,040 --> 00:41:05,440
Speaker 2: you pray for most?

807
00:41:05,719 --> 00:41:08,399
Speaker 1: I pray every day. I pray every second. I pray

808
00:41:08,400 --> 00:41:10,359
Speaker 1: ever eleven eleven two to two, three two three four

809
00:41:10,440 --> 00:41:13,160
Speaker 1: for four, I pray. I will even close my eyes

810
00:41:13,200 --> 00:41:15,879
Speaker 1: about prayer. I pray for everything for everybody, like all day,

811
00:41:15,880 --> 00:41:17,239
Speaker 1: every day, all day every day.

812
00:41:17,400 --> 00:41:20,040
Speaker 2: What are your conversations like with him? Casual, like like

813
00:41:20,080 --> 00:41:21,120
Speaker 2: a friend, Like.

814
00:41:23,160 --> 00:41:25,280
Speaker 1: I don't even feel like a prayer. It just feels

815
00:41:25,320 --> 00:41:27,719
Speaker 1: like I'm just talking. I don't know who I'm talking to,

816
00:41:27,880 --> 00:41:30,359
Speaker 1: but I'm talking like I'm talking. And I curse too

817
00:41:30,400 --> 00:41:32,480
Speaker 1: when I pray. He knows, Yeah, because he knows me.

818
00:41:32,800 --> 00:41:37,200
Speaker 1: Yea God, you know, God knows me. God maybe he mad,

819
00:41:37,520 --> 00:41:37,799
Speaker 1: he knows.

820
00:41:37,840 --> 00:41:39,240
Speaker 2: I always say he knows my heart.

821
00:41:39,160 --> 00:41:41,400
Speaker 1: He knows my heart. But God knows me. But I

822
00:41:41,880 --> 00:41:42,759
Speaker 1: talk every day.

823
00:41:43,400 --> 00:41:45,600
Speaker 2: Yeah, I've been in a bag lately, like I don't know.

824
00:41:45,800 --> 00:41:47,920
Speaker 2: They have been saying some prayers and then it really.

825
00:41:47,800 --> 00:41:49,120
Speaker 1: Happened like it happened.

826
00:41:49,160 --> 00:41:52,279
Speaker 2: No, it's prayers like really crazy, like you ask for

827
00:41:52,320 --> 00:41:55,600
Speaker 2: something real specific like regularly and you get an answer quick.

828
00:41:56,600 --> 00:42:01,920
Speaker 1: I'm telling you this is so weird. When the whole

829
00:42:01,960 --> 00:42:06,680
Speaker 1: Imaginary Players thing happened. So many people was having different discords,

830
00:42:06,719 --> 00:42:10,839
Speaker 1: so many people were saying, like, if her career, if

831
00:42:10,880 --> 00:42:14,200
Speaker 1: she don't do this, her career is over. She doesn't

832
00:42:14,239 --> 00:42:17,280
Speaker 1: have nothing together. It really broke me down. It broke

833
00:42:17,320 --> 00:42:20,279
Speaker 1: me down, and I got on the phone with my

834
00:42:20,360 --> 00:42:22,600
Speaker 1: team and I was like, we have to push harder,

835
00:42:23,480 --> 00:42:25,359
Speaker 1: fill up the schedule. I want to do this, this

836
00:42:25,400 --> 00:42:28,360
Speaker 1: and that. And it's so funny because like the court

837
00:42:28,400 --> 00:42:31,319
Speaker 1: case thing, that shit was not planned. I actually kept

838
00:42:31,360 --> 00:42:34,560
Speaker 1: trying to cancel, it kept canceling canceling, and it turned

839
00:42:34,560 --> 00:42:37,360
Speaker 1: in my favor and it got me so many national

840
00:42:37,480 --> 00:42:40,959
Speaker 1: news things. And I was just going to court and

841
00:42:41,360 --> 00:42:44,360
Speaker 1: that was something that was unplanned that came out of nowhere.

842
00:42:44,400 --> 00:42:48,080
Speaker 1: And that's only God. That's only God that could do that.

843
00:42:48,080 --> 00:42:50,439
Speaker 1: That's only God that could change a tie like that.

844
00:42:51,200 --> 00:42:53,200
Speaker 1: And he's just so real because I was like, God

845
00:42:53,280 --> 00:42:57,479
Speaker 1: helped me, Like I'm losing it again. I haven't felt

846
00:42:57,520 --> 00:43:00,920
Speaker 1: like this in a long time. I haven't felt insecure

847
00:43:00,920 --> 00:43:04,279
Speaker 1: about music in a long time. And he changed that

848
00:43:04,520 --> 00:43:07,000
Speaker 1: again and again, and it was only him. It was

849
00:43:07,040 --> 00:43:09,279
Speaker 1: only him. That was nothing that I could have came

850
00:43:09,360 --> 00:43:11,239
Speaker 1: up with that was nothing that my team could have

851
00:43:11,280 --> 00:43:13,680
Speaker 1: came up with. That was just literally God a blessing.

852
00:43:13,760 --> 00:43:16,360
Speaker 1: And I was getting dragged because I was arguing with somebody,

853
00:43:16,880 --> 00:43:19,239
Speaker 1: so everybody made me a bad person there. Everybodys saying

854
00:43:19,280 --> 00:43:21,360
Speaker 1: that was fat foot because she's like fat pho. But

855
00:43:21,400 --> 00:43:25,400
Speaker 1: I'm gonna fucking you fucking fat shit the fuck. It

856
00:43:25,520 --> 00:43:27,640
Speaker 1: was just a lot going on and I just felt

857
00:43:27,680 --> 00:43:30,799
Speaker 1: so bad. I feel like, I feel like, damn, I

858
00:43:30,800 --> 00:43:32,480
Speaker 1: remember when everybody s would hate me like this, and

859
00:43:32,520 --> 00:43:36,000
Speaker 1: I'm getting back that hatred again. And God turned that around.

860
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Speaker 1: He's so real, yo, He's so real right, and he

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Speaker 1: have such a so I be saying like, ooh, I

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Speaker 1: love that.

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Speaker 2: Man. When you get those signs like that, when you

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00:43:47,920 --> 00:43:50,000
Speaker 2: get a moment where the tides change where you're like

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00:43:50,160 --> 00:43:52,440
Speaker 2: feeling beat up and down, and then something happens and

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00:43:52,480 --> 00:43:54,759
Speaker 2: you feel like renewed again, Like does it make you

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Speaker 2: feel like you're in your purpose? Like this is what

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Speaker 2: you're supposed to be doing.

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Speaker 1: It makes me feel like I'm in my purpose and

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Speaker 1: it makes me feel like brag about him, But don't

871
00:44:07,680 --> 00:44:12,000
Speaker 1: be on some ad high, you see, I always get

872
00:44:12,000 --> 00:44:14,080
Speaker 1: it because every soon time that you do that got

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Speaker 1: snatch it. I'm telling you things tie changes all the time.

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Speaker 1: You got to see when it's your purpose. You got

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Speaker 1: to see when he's giving you another chance. So God

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Speaker 1: wants to see. Sometimes it's like, how are you gonna

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Speaker 1: act when I give you this chance? Because I'll take

878
00:44:28,960 --> 00:44:31,160
Speaker 1: it from you if you keep fucking playing, or if

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00:44:31,200 --> 00:44:33,319
Speaker 1: you're thinking that you're above it, or you're thinking that

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00:44:33,400 --> 00:44:36,840
Speaker 1: you could pick on somebody or bully somebody, because you

881
00:44:36,840 --> 00:44:40,040
Speaker 1: you are at a certain level. So it's like, you'll

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Speaker 1: check you, you'll check you, and you know when he's checking.

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Speaker 1: You know when God is checking you, because God be

884
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Speaker 1: like I.

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Speaker 2: Because you know when you when you're doing something that

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Speaker 2: ain't supposed to be doing. Yep, you know already. Yep,

887
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Speaker 2: it's so true. I know we have to wrap my

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Speaker 2: last question. I always ask everybody if God were to

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Speaker 2: text you right now, he's going to send you a text,

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Speaker 2: what would it say right now?

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Speaker 1: Better? Shut up? You're doing good right now, don't fuck up,

892
00:45:06,360 --> 00:45:09,040
Speaker 1: don't fuck up, you're doing good right now. Don't curse

893
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Speaker 1: nobody out. You got no reason to curse nobody out.

894
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Speaker 1: And when this whole run is over and I'm not

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Speaker 1: pregnant no more, you got you gotta give something to

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Speaker 1: your team. I've been giving my team hell.

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Speaker 2: Oh no, that's what God would text you take kill

898
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Speaker 2: your team, yeah, because I've been giving them hell.

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Speaker 1: But it's not my phone. I'm pregnant. I know I'm

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Speaker 1: being insufferable right now.

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Speaker 2: It's all right. You're working hard too, so they got

902
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Speaker 2: to give you a break, give you a little grace. Congratulations, baby.

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Speaker 2: What do you hope people take away from this whole

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Speaker 2: run of yours and this whole moment in your life?

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Speaker 1: Did y'all wreaking my fucking yeah? Yah. Let me tell

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Speaker 1: you something. I'm working hard, but I want this shit.

907
00:45:57,120 --> 00:45:59,880
Speaker 1: I want this shit and the only way to fucking

908
00:46:00,080 --> 00:46:02,960
Speaker 1: get it is by working for it. Shit is not

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Speaker 1: gonna fool your motherfucking laugh. It's just not. It's not

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Speaker 1: gonna fall while you in bed, work and it's happening.

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Speaker 1: I'm putting into work and it's happening. Guardian be everybody in. Hey, y'all,

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Speaker 1: this is Cardi b in real life with Angie Martinez.

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Speaker 2: Hey guys, thanks for watching. Make sure you subscribe, like comments,

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