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Speaker 1: First things first, before we get into it. We are

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Speaker 1: really excited to announce a live show, Lift Service Live

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Speaker 1: Marksy that goes down at Carolines on Broadway. Make sure

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Speaker 1: like what's up? What's up? Is Lift Service out? Magel

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Speaker 1: la Ye, I'm McGuire, I'm Lauria, Shawna Brooks, chanel A

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Speaker 1: Yana Shanna. Yanna is her first time here, but you know,

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Speaker 1: Shanna is a part of the Lift Service family. And

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Speaker 1: you just in New York Passion Week. Yes, I see

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Speaker 1: you in the Vogue and everything. Listen, I get too girl.

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Speaker 1: I was like, wow, long way she having waves, like

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Speaker 1: dead serious, especially the one. I mean, I'm the Cardi

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Speaker 1: to knock everything out of my hands. But now I

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Speaker 1: just have to be be in silence. Now I just make

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Speaker 1: my move was a little bit silent. See the Cardi

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Speaker 1: much support also at the same time, and then I

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Speaker 1: think like sometimes she'd be letting the hate get to

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Speaker 1: her too much. How could you not? How could you not?

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Speaker 1: We live this social media area is just it. It's

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Speaker 1: beyond social media now, like everything every everywhere you go,

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Speaker 1: it's what's your Instagram? What's your you know, like who

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Speaker 1: And I know in the in the professional career world,

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Speaker 1: I don't want people to judge my Instagram to be

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Speaker 1: me because it's not Instagram. It's funny as fun Sometimes

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Speaker 1: I'll be like, yo, Shana is crazy. I guess that

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Speaker 1: speaks for my personality. But yeah, I definitely post a

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Speaker 1: lot of crazy stuff that people wouldn't ordinally see. Yours

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Speaker 1: My Instagram is like really, I guess she could say

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Speaker 1: over sexual. But in real life I'm kind of totally

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Speaker 1: like a tomboy, hippie universal like weirdo, and people don't

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Speaker 1: know that at all really, So why they're a big

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Speaker 1: Instagram Because I am sexy. Yeah, I am sexy, and

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Speaker 1: I do love you know what I mean, my look

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Speaker 1: and I like being a girl, and I like all

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Speaker 1: the girly stuff and having you know, boobs and button

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Speaker 1: all the things. But I really am just hella chill,

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Speaker 1: like on my every day like I hate wearing makeup,

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Speaker 1: nugs and stuff. I'm really like chill, you know. But

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Speaker 1: that's what kind of content I've been giving. So of course,

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Speaker 1: you know, I gotta keep up with my numbers and

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Speaker 1: all of you know, the things that I do. So

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Speaker 1: I have to, you know, keep staying in the momentum.

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Speaker 1: So let's talk about paying the bill. So what pays

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Speaker 1: the bills? Listen, social media pays my bills. Now. Actually, okay,

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Speaker 1: let me scratch that. Y'all. My fans, my supporters, my

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Speaker 1: shelter for women. My fan got the best of me

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Speaker 1: So you know, that was like a stab and like

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Speaker 1: And when I posted that, it wasn't like I was

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Speaker 1: bad that Shawna Brooks, the individual personality, the actress, all

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Speaker 1: I think everybody has this case by case scenario, and

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Speaker 1: But these checks comes, you know, erratically, So you have

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Speaker 1: You've had some crazy experiences. Tell me about it. How

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Speaker 1: trying to think because I feel like I've known you

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Speaker 1: I like it that way, Like this is the thing

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Speaker 1: my Instagram. You're just pictures of me. You don't know

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Speaker 1: bud cheeks, smile, Gemini, smart girl, crazy, there's a twist.

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Speaker 1: That's my perfect everybody. Oh, you meet so many people

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Speaker 1: But you want to be with you. And I still

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Speaker 1: that motherfucking flicker and light ship that I'm not even like. Yeah,

424
00:23:55,080 --> 00:23:57,800
Speaker 1: but it's different, like much more expensive it is for

425
00:23:57,920 --> 00:24:03,600
Speaker 1: men to date multiple women too. I love yeah, because

426
00:24:03,640 --> 00:24:07,760
Speaker 1: it is more expensive when men have to like but

427
00:24:07,800 --> 00:24:10,320
Speaker 1: if they got to right, the certain kind of girl,

428
00:24:10,440 --> 00:24:12,479
Speaker 1: like you said, like certain kind of girls don't need

429
00:24:12,560 --> 00:24:15,760
Speaker 1: as much of keep as other women see and I

430
00:24:15,760 --> 00:24:18,919
Speaker 1: don't want that type of guy because it's the ideal

431
00:24:18,960 --> 00:24:24,719
Speaker 1: guy rich, somebody that is financially and mentally stable. Period.

432
00:24:25,160 --> 00:24:27,679
Speaker 1: If you got if your mind is right and the

433
00:24:27,720 --> 00:24:31,040
Speaker 1: money is right, that means I don't have to stress

434
00:24:31,080 --> 00:24:33,560
Speaker 1: at night. Do you think everybody you think there's anybody

435
00:24:33,560 --> 00:24:36,560
Speaker 1: that has both of those? Though mine right and money right.

436
00:24:36,680 --> 00:24:39,560
Speaker 1: I think the newer generation I think we're living in

437
00:24:40,000 --> 00:24:43,680
Speaker 1: in this new era where social media has corrupted. It's

438
00:24:43,760 --> 00:24:49,520
Speaker 1: the mindsets of chivalry. They're back in the day. Honestly,

439
00:24:49,600 --> 00:24:54,160
Speaker 1: with women, men had to fight for the attention. Men

440
00:24:54,560 --> 00:24:57,880
Speaker 1: no longer have to fight because with one swipe they

441
00:24:57,920 --> 00:25:01,560
Speaker 1: can have access to any in whoever, so who whatever

442
00:25:01,640 --> 00:25:05,879
Speaker 1: girl that denies you or that that slides you past,

443
00:25:06,320 --> 00:25:08,800
Speaker 1: there's a new girl that's in the right space in

444
00:25:08,840 --> 00:25:12,960
Speaker 1: place to accept your offer and take that. So at

445
00:25:12,960 --> 00:25:15,400
Speaker 1: the end of the day, there is no longer a

446
00:25:15,440 --> 00:25:18,959
Speaker 1: fight for you know, the women of your dreams that

447
00:25:19,080 --> 00:25:22,240
Speaker 1: is this cover girl, this model. But at the same time,

448
00:25:22,400 --> 00:25:26,240
Speaker 1: then you level up. So now you're dealing with ballers.

449
00:25:26,240 --> 00:25:28,359
Speaker 1: Now you're dealing with niggas who got the money, who

450
00:25:28,720 --> 00:25:30,919
Speaker 1: can date you? You? You? You? So how are you

451
00:25:30,960 --> 00:25:34,080
Speaker 1: going to different differentiate yourself from them the rest? When

452
00:25:34,119 --> 00:25:37,560
Speaker 1: when it comes down to that, the reason is the

453
00:25:37,600 --> 00:25:40,800
Speaker 1: advancement of technology, because we know what the picture looks

454
00:25:40,840 --> 00:25:43,040
Speaker 1: like or the video of the roses and a nice

455
00:25:43,040 --> 00:25:45,399
Speaker 1: car with a big bowl, but they don't know the

456
00:25:45,440 --> 00:25:48,760
Speaker 1: foundation that it took to build up to that. And

457
00:25:48,840 --> 00:25:51,600
Speaker 1: that's what men are missing with dating women. I see

458
00:25:51,600 --> 00:25:53,760
Speaker 1: it all the time, even with the approach when men dating,

459
00:25:53,760 --> 00:25:57,280
Speaker 1: when men online, dating with social media, with different apps,

460
00:25:57,359 --> 00:26:00,520
Speaker 1: dating apps, whatever. Men come at me so in titled

461
00:26:01,000 --> 00:26:03,640
Speaker 1: they are their their minds are so corrupt, like they

462
00:26:03,640 --> 00:26:06,480
Speaker 1: feel like, how you hit me up? But you expect

463
00:26:06,760 --> 00:26:10,720
Speaker 1: me to know to act a certain way, like even

464
00:26:10,720 --> 00:26:13,560
Speaker 1: in a dialogue conversation, you know, people don't know what

465
00:26:13,600 --> 00:26:16,240
Speaker 1: E T A is. I said that to y'all today,

466
00:26:16,280 --> 00:26:20,359
Speaker 1: what it was if people do not know what e

467
00:26:20,520 --> 00:26:23,119
Speaker 1: t A is and then they asked you with a

468
00:26:23,160 --> 00:26:27,359
Speaker 1: whole computer in their hands, he could google it? What's

469
00:26:27,400 --> 00:26:31,680
Speaker 1: E T A? I know? You do you think that

470
00:26:31,760 --> 00:26:35,359
Speaker 1: now this uh, this quote stigma against dating a trans

471
00:26:35,400 --> 00:26:39,199
Speaker 1: women is getting better, Like it's not as what was

472
00:26:39,200 --> 00:26:43,280
Speaker 1: the last one to white? Oh? Yeah, but I kind

473
00:26:43,280 --> 00:26:46,480
Speaker 1: of feel like that went away quick. The real stories

474
00:26:46,520 --> 00:26:49,440
Speaker 1: always do go away quick, right, Yeah, because he didn't

475
00:26:49,440 --> 00:26:52,199
Speaker 1: say anything about it, He didn't protest it. It just

476
00:26:52,240 --> 00:26:54,679
Speaker 1: kindn't offer myself. I was outside of the club and

477
00:26:54,720 --> 00:26:59,320
Speaker 1: I met the individual that was whatever going you know,

478
00:26:59,359 --> 00:27:01,760
Speaker 1: that was involved with them, And I mean I saw

479
00:27:01,800 --> 00:27:08,119
Speaker 1: it from my own eyes, flip the phone, Instagram, Boom, Live, Story,

480
00:27:08,160 --> 00:27:12,560
Speaker 1: fees whatever. He was there, So whether he was there

481
00:27:13,040 --> 00:27:15,159
Speaker 1: to figure out what was going on, whatever, I don't know.

482
00:27:15,280 --> 00:27:19,280
Speaker 1: I don't care. But I feel like the community of

483
00:27:19,359 --> 00:27:27,200
Speaker 1: minorities and lower income ignorance is so big. The lack

484
00:27:27,240 --> 00:27:31,560
Speaker 1: of education and knowledge and tolerance and acceptance and respect

485
00:27:32,400 --> 00:27:37,200
Speaker 1: is so needed to be worked on. In those those

486
00:27:37,680 --> 00:27:39,760
Speaker 1: what do you I don't want to say it, like

487
00:27:39,840 --> 00:27:44,600
Speaker 1: you know, hoods or whatever, but you know, as you

488
00:27:45,240 --> 00:27:47,520
Speaker 1: gear up to go to like middle class and you know,

489
00:27:47,600 --> 00:27:50,400
Speaker 1: upper echelon people are educated, people learn about stuff, they're

490
00:27:50,440 --> 00:27:54,679
Speaker 1: they're more open and you know, accepted to learning and experiencing,

491
00:27:54,760 --> 00:28:00,359
Speaker 1: understanding and understanding. But stole that like poverty, and because

492
00:28:00,560 --> 00:28:03,320
Speaker 1: in general, I don't think that it's changing at all.

493
00:28:03,320 --> 00:28:06,600
Speaker 1: I think it's actually getting worse. I mean, you have

494
00:28:06,680 --> 00:28:10,639
Speaker 1: to take the statistics, like even with myself, being becoming

495
00:28:10,680 --> 00:28:14,000
Speaker 1: famous did nothing for me positive outside of my acculation

496
00:28:14,000 --> 00:28:17,880
Speaker 1: that I had already had done. So being famous honestly

497
00:28:18,119 --> 00:28:20,119
Speaker 1: caused me nothing but to be a target even to

498
00:28:20,200 --> 00:28:23,280
Speaker 1: this day. Now I'm now I have a civil suit

499
00:28:23,600 --> 00:28:27,600
Speaker 1: that I had to go to jail Angela in order

500
00:28:27,680 --> 00:28:32,119
Speaker 1: for the Transgender Law Center of America, the LGBT people

501
00:28:32,160 --> 00:28:34,919
Speaker 1: to come and help me. Why when I was talking

502
00:28:34,960 --> 00:28:37,360
Speaker 1: about this before, when I was going through it, y'all

503
00:28:37,400 --> 00:28:40,200
Speaker 1: could have intervened, y'all could have did something. But now

504
00:28:40,240 --> 00:28:42,200
Speaker 1: that you know there's a check on the line, now

505
00:28:42,240 --> 00:28:45,440
Speaker 1: you want to show up and stand in solidarity with me.

506
00:28:45,680 --> 00:28:48,600
Speaker 1: When I was telling you, bitch, I need help. These

507
00:28:48,680 --> 00:28:51,120
Speaker 1: niggas is trying to They're trying to bury me. So

508
00:28:51,160 --> 00:28:53,080
Speaker 1: now I had to go to a go through a

509
00:28:53,120 --> 00:28:57,720
Speaker 1: traumatic issue of going to an all men's prison at

510
00:28:58,080 --> 00:29:00,880
Speaker 1: at thirty years old. How are you? How was a

511
00:29:00,960 --> 00:29:04,080
Speaker 1: judge gonna tell me what I'm doing in my life?

512
00:29:04,560 --> 00:29:08,560
Speaker 1: I hope you learn your lesson. Listen, if I was

513
00:29:08,640 --> 00:29:11,160
Speaker 1: robbing banks for thirty years, you think halfway into my life,

514
00:29:11,200 --> 00:29:14,720
Speaker 1: I'm gonna stop. No, that's traumatic to go to an

515
00:29:14,720 --> 00:29:17,360
Speaker 1: all men's prison. Yes, and I was there, and you know,

516
00:29:17,440 --> 00:29:21,120
Speaker 1: and I never talked about it like and that that

517
00:29:21,200 --> 00:29:25,120
Speaker 1: was like that was real, That's dangerous. That's what he wanted.

518
00:29:25,600 --> 00:29:28,560
Speaker 1: That's what he wanted. He did everything in his power.

519
00:29:28,640 --> 00:29:30,920
Speaker 1: He called me a he she he called me a mr.

520
00:29:31,240 --> 00:29:33,680
Speaker 1: He called like it was ridiculous. My lawyers the same

521
00:29:33,760 --> 00:29:36,840
Speaker 1: lawyer as Clode at Black's um brother was like we

522
00:29:36,840 --> 00:29:39,680
Speaker 1: were in the same fucking um pod so, which I

523
00:29:39,720 --> 00:29:42,800
Speaker 1: didn't know, but it's just like that was that was

524
00:29:42,920 --> 00:29:44,880
Speaker 1: that was too much for me. Like and I don't

525
00:29:44,880 --> 00:29:47,160
Speaker 1: even if I have to go to jail again, I'll

526
00:29:47,200 --> 00:29:49,120
Speaker 1: be on the run. I don't give a funk about

527
00:29:49,120 --> 00:29:51,360
Speaker 1: a TV show. And if my warrant comes back FU

528
00:29:51,560 --> 00:29:54,200
Speaker 1: that I'm not going to jail. I don't belong there.

529
00:29:54,960 --> 00:29:57,040
Speaker 1: So that's what the law still is to this day,

530
00:29:57,160 --> 00:29:59,600
Speaker 1: that you would have to go to all men's prison. Ye.

531
00:30:00,040 --> 00:30:02,560
Speaker 1: And then what it was even more sadder. What was

532
00:30:02,600 --> 00:30:05,840
Speaker 1: even more sadder was the fact that in July of

533
00:30:05,920 --> 00:30:11,160
Speaker 1: two thousand and eighteen, Virginia had just passed the Non

534
00:30:11,160 --> 00:30:17,240
Speaker 1: Discriminatory Act for LGBT in the workplace, healthcare, and housing.

535
00:30:17,600 --> 00:30:21,000
Speaker 1: So that means that there must be a set protocol

536
00:30:21,840 --> 00:30:25,520
Speaker 1: in the court of law that all professionals must adhere

537
00:30:25,560 --> 00:30:30,320
Speaker 1: to and adapt to how to deal with LGBT people.

538
00:30:31,320 --> 00:30:33,160
Speaker 1: And I guess this judge just knew that he was

539
00:30:33,160 --> 00:30:36,000
Speaker 1: about to get fired and retired, so he didn't have

540
00:30:36,080 --> 00:30:40,320
Speaker 1: no fox And I mean he like you, I just

541
00:30:40,360 --> 00:30:42,360
Speaker 1: didn't understand that, you know what I mean. I went

542
00:30:42,400 --> 00:30:45,080
Speaker 1: in there. So you know, my followers sent me this

543
00:30:45,240 --> 00:30:47,520
Speaker 1: right here, like this is a just a four thousand

544
00:30:47,520 --> 00:30:51,240
Speaker 1: dollar Dosha and Gabanna's pants suit jacket. Like they like

545
00:30:51,320 --> 00:30:53,920
Speaker 1: they really take if I say I need them niggas,

546
00:30:54,040 --> 00:30:57,360
Speaker 1: They're gonna come through. Like, but going to jail and

547
00:30:57,440 --> 00:31:02,800
Speaker 1: dealing with with with niggas up, I'm a boss, and

548
00:31:02,840 --> 00:31:05,520
Speaker 1: I'm good with men, but jail is not for a

549
00:31:05,560 --> 00:31:09,480
Speaker 1: trans not with men in general population. And I was there,

550
00:31:09,840 --> 00:31:14,200
Speaker 1: and I I have more respect as a transgender celebrity

551
00:31:14,320 --> 00:31:17,320
Speaker 1: in jail than I do out here in these streets. Listen,

552
00:31:17,600 --> 00:31:20,120
Speaker 1: my wig was still on, my jewelry is still on,

553
00:31:20,400 --> 00:31:25,080
Speaker 1: like they treated me like like listen, they already knew

554
00:31:25,080 --> 00:31:27,800
Speaker 1: who I was when I came in there, so it

555
00:31:27,920 --> 00:31:30,120
Speaker 1: was kind of like, oh, y'all, don't see me, y'all,

556
00:31:30,120 --> 00:31:33,120
Speaker 1: don't follow me on on the reel on the regular side.

557
00:31:33,160 --> 00:31:37,640
Speaker 1: But when I made here, now you know. Now you

558
00:31:37,680 --> 00:31:40,480
Speaker 1: know what I mean. How do you react when somebody

559
00:31:40,520 --> 00:31:42,800
Speaker 1: each says sliding your d m s but they want

560
00:31:42,800 --> 00:31:46,000
Speaker 1: to keep it on a low? Honestly, I don't even

561
00:31:46,000 --> 00:31:48,040
Speaker 1: want to deal with those type of people. My life

562
00:31:48,120 --> 00:31:50,520
Speaker 1: is too open and too wild and too out there

563
00:31:50,960 --> 00:31:54,600
Speaker 1: that to subject any man that is not mentally ready

564
00:31:54,640 --> 00:31:57,520
Speaker 1: to deal with the with the screw what comes along

565
00:31:57,520 --> 00:32:01,360
Speaker 1: with dealing with someone like me. And I'm so unapologetic

566
00:32:01,400 --> 00:32:04,840
Speaker 1: that even look, I can be discreet because I'm with

567
00:32:04,960 --> 00:32:08,600
Speaker 1: that was several people, and I never show who I'm

568
00:32:08,640 --> 00:32:12,280
Speaker 1: really really like dealing with on my social media. I

569
00:32:12,360 --> 00:32:16,080
Speaker 1: play with people all damn day, but I'm more so.

570
00:32:16,600 --> 00:32:18,920
Speaker 1: Back in the day before I got famous, I was like,

571
00:32:19,160 --> 00:32:23,800
Speaker 1: you know, Chanelle, like my private life and my private life,

572
00:32:23,840 --> 00:32:25,760
Speaker 1: you know what I mean? Like, that's just that's I

573
00:32:25,800 --> 00:32:28,240
Speaker 1: separate the two. I don't want to get it confused.

574
00:32:28,600 --> 00:32:32,120
Speaker 1: When guys who want to date me, I am, I'm

575
00:32:32,200 --> 00:32:35,880
Speaker 1: thirty years old at this point. If you're not showing

576
00:32:36,000 --> 00:32:40,680
Speaker 1: me with actions, then we cannot even have a conversation

577
00:32:40,800 --> 00:32:45,400
Speaker 1: because so many men want action from me, but there's

578
00:32:45,480 --> 00:32:50,040
Speaker 1: nothing offered in return. So I mean, and think about it.

579
00:32:50,080 --> 00:32:52,200
Speaker 1: If I want to stop being a you know, a thought,

580
00:32:52,280 --> 00:32:55,160
Speaker 1: if I want to stop doing that lifestyle, and I

581
00:32:55,200 --> 00:32:58,240
Speaker 1: do want to settle down, a man has to step

582
00:32:58,320 --> 00:33:01,920
Speaker 1: up and not too many of those who are comfortable

583
00:33:01,960 --> 00:33:04,960
Speaker 1: with themselves and then to saints like I got an issue.

584
00:33:04,960 --> 00:33:07,680
Speaker 1: Now I'm dating this guy who was an actor, and

585
00:33:07,720 --> 00:33:11,840
Speaker 1: it's just like he famous, I'm famous. He's telling me

586
00:33:11,880 --> 00:33:14,040
Speaker 1: to hold on wait till he get this bag. You

587
00:33:14,080 --> 00:33:17,120
Speaker 1: made a million dollars this year? How long do I wait?

588
00:33:18,000 --> 00:33:19,560
Speaker 1: You got it? So you don't want to stand it.

589
00:33:19,680 --> 00:33:21,760
Speaker 1: You don't want to stand in this bullshit with me,

590
00:33:22,120 --> 00:33:24,920
Speaker 1: but you want me to stand by you while you

591
00:33:25,200 --> 00:33:28,680
Speaker 1: while you're cured this. But yet you're not showing me anything,

592
00:33:28,800 --> 00:33:30,959
Speaker 1: no initiative. You're not paying my bills. You're not, you're not.

593
00:33:31,040 --> 00:33:32,959
Speaker 1: You didn't put me in, No in a wagon? Like

594
00:33:33,120 --> 00:33:35,680
Speaker 1: what am I doing here? You want your cake and

595
00:33:35,680 --> 00:33:37,440
Speaker 1: eat it too. It's time for men to step up

596
00:33:37,480 --> 00:33:40,400
Speaker 1: to the plate and say and do what you mean?

597
00:33:40,560 --> 00:33:43,240
Speaker 1: What makes you stay with him? Oh? No, we were

598
00:33:43,360 --> 00:33:48,800
Speaker 1: dating anymore? No? No, no, not not after the fact.

599
00:33:49,840 --> 00:33:52,680
Speaker 1: You always learned how niggas are after the fact. What about?

600
00:33:52,680 --> 00:33:55,120
Speaker 1: I want to post you up. And sometimes you feel

601
00:33:55,120 --> 00:33:58,680
Speaker 1: like I'm going away. I run away. I run away.

602
00:33:58,720 --> 00:34:01,959
Speaker 1: I'm so scared. Like guy, even like regular guys, like

603
00:34:02,000 --> 00:34:04,440
Speaker 1: on the street, like in general, like they'd be so

604
00:34:04,480 --> 00:34:06,560
Speaker 1: happy just to be in my present. Like everybody that

605
00:34:06,560 --> 00:34:09,279
Speaker 1: sees me knows I go live. They're like, oh, does

606
00:34:09,320 --> 00:34:11,560
Speaker 1: he know you? Does he not see the camera? I

607
00:34:11,600 --> 00:34:13,719
Speaker 1: mean it will be a camera in the in the

608
00:34:13,800 --> 00:34:15,439
Speaker 1: nickel will pick it up and be like, yo, what's

609
00:34:15,480 --> 00:34:19,440
Speaker 1: up this Shaun is? You know Frank And they'd be like, oh,

610
00:34:19,520 --> 00:34:22,600
Speaker 1: he know he was on camera? He put yeah, come on,

611
00:34:22,719 --> 00:34:25,960
Speaker 1: now you know what I'm saying. But guys really want

612
00:34:25,960 --> 00:34:28,279
Speaker 1: to show off, you know who they're with, and they

613
00:34:28,280 --> 00:34:30,840
Speaker 1: don't care her. Guys really don't really have an issue

614
00:34:30,920 --> 00:34:35,400
Speaker 1: with the trans aspect. It's only when it gets back

615
00:34:35,520 --> 00:34:39,239
Speaker 1: to how famous, how famous that trans is. And I

616
00:34:39,400 --> 00:34:42,719
Speaker 1: every every single time, every nigger that I post, it

617
00:34:42,760 --> 00:34:44,919
Speaker 1: could be somebody that ain't they even got a social

618
00:34:44,960 --> 00:34:49,800
Speaker 1: media somebody knows them that somebody, brothers, cousins, uncle's somebody.

619
00:34:50,120 --> 00:34:52,040
Speaker 1: And it gets right back to me. But what kind

620
00:34:52,040 --> 00:34:54,719
Speaker 1: of guys do you like? I like guys who are

621
00:34:54,920 --> 00:34:56,920
Speaker 1: like honestly like, I don't. I don't know if it's

622
00:34:56,960 --> 00:35:02,520
Speaker 1: like a look I like. It's hard to describe. You know.

623
00:35:02,600 --> 00:35:04,560
Speaker 1: I was in a relationship with my ex and um,

624
00:35:04,680 --> 00:35:06,200
Speaker 1: you know I throw him out there all the time

625
00:35:06,200 --> 00:35:08,200
Speaker 1: because that was that was my you know, that was

626
00:35:08,239 --> 00:35:12,680
Speaker 1: my one true love. And a guy that respects me

627
00:35:12,719 --> 00:35:17,240
Speaker 1: and loves me from me, unapologetically, fuck everybody else's opinion.

628
00:35:17,840 --> 00:35:20,440
Speaker 1: He's there solely from me. If I asked for something,

629
00:35:20,480 --> 00:35:23,560
Speaker 1: you provide right then and there, there's no question asked.

630
00:35:24,080 --> 00:35:26,359
Speaker 1: That's the guy who I want to deal with. I don't.

631
00:35:26,600 --> 00:35:29,239
Speaker 1: If I say, babe, I need a condo and I

632
00:35:29,320 --> 00:35:33,239
Speaker 1: need it in downtown Miami, can you help me. If

633
00:35:33,280 --> 00:35:36,760
Speaker 1: you cannot do that, I can't have a conversation Shane.

634
00:35:37,600 --> 00:35:42,560
Speaker 1: But it's just old, like that serious, like I mean,

635
00:35:42,560 --> 00:35:44,120
Speaker 1: and think about it. I live in Atlanta now, I

636
00:35:44,160 --> 00:35:46,920
Speaker 1: live in downtown and my rents not even that expensive.

637
00:35:47,640 --> 00:35:50,160
Speaker 1: But that was through my followers and my fans as well.

638
00:35:50,640 --> 00:35:53,919
Speaker 1: So it's like, if I can do this, help me out.

639
00:35:54,280 --> 00:35:55,719
Speaker 1: And I'm not gonna deal with a guy who is

640
00:35:55,760 --> 00:35:58,480
Speaker 1: not making a hundred fifty thousand allars a more year period. Listen,

641
00:35:58,480 --> 00:36:04,480
Speaker 1: know what about you? What kind a man do you like? Um?

642
00:36:04,560 --> 00:36:06,960
Speaker 1: This is just like for me, it's kind of a

643
00:36:06,960 --> 00:36:10,320
Speaker 1: hard question to answer because I was engaged for about

644
00:36:10,360 --> 00:36:17,440
Speaker 1: two years to um, I don't even know where to start.

645
00:36:17,520 --> 00:36:21,480
Speaker 1: It's not I don't have anything POLITI I don't have it.

646
00:36:21,560 --> 00:36:23,360
Speaker 1: It's like one of those stories that you hear or

647
00:36:23,480 --> 00:36:26,359
Speaker 1: read of like it's like some movie ship, but it's

648
00:36:26,480 --> 00:36:30,320
Speaker 1: really I know that we have time, but the type

649
00:36:30,320 --> 00:36:33,839
Speaker 1: of person that I'm referring to is like, you know,

650
00:36:34,400 --> 00:36:38,839
Speaker 1: I'm gonna be respectful to a certain extent, right, But

651
00:36:39,040 --> 00:36:42,640
Speaker 1: I don't really have anything positive to say because after

652
00:36:42,760 --> 00:36:47,759
Speaker 1: so long, I'm like, Okay, yeah, he had money, great

653
00:36:47,800 --> 00:36:51,160
Speaker 1: deal of money. I don't believe in that no more, Like,

654
00:36:51,239 --> 00:36:53,160
Speaker 1: of course I make the type of money that I make,

655
00:36:53,239 --> 00:36:56,200
Speaker 1: so I would like to have my significant other be,

656
00:36:56,400 --> 00:36:59,719
Speaker 1: you know, financially stable so that we can do things together. Right,

657
00:37:00,280 --> 00:37:03,560
Speaker 1: But just because somebody has money does not mean that

658
00:37:03,600 --> 00:37:06,640
Speaker 1: they're that they're a good person for you to be with.

659
00:37:07,120 --> 00:37:11,160
Speaker 1: Because he was crazy and I feel like I wasted

660
00:37:11,400 --> 00:37:14,640
Speaker 1: two years of my life. Well it was crazy, just

661
00:37:15,000 --> 00:37:20,520
Speaker 1: very mentally psychotic, like Lifetime movie, my games. Do you

662
00:37:20,560 --> 00:37:23,680
Speaker 1: hear me? Like crazy? Like this is didn't This doesn't

663
00:37:23,680 --> 00:37:25,319
Speaker 1: happen in real life. This is something on a movie

664
00:37:25,440 --> 00:37:29,000
Speaker 1: or a book, you know what I mean. Like, after

665
00:37:29,760 --> 00:37:32,160
Speaker 1: I kind of like got out of the situation and

666
00:37:32,400 --> 00:37:35,239
Speaker 1: was completely done with it, I'm like, this person is

667
00:37:36,239 --> 00:37:42,759
Speaker 1: a very intellectual mastermind, but that can be dangerous if

668
00:37:42,960 --> 00:37:47,040
Speaker 1: used in a certain aspect. And that's pretty much what

669
00:37:47,200 --> 00:37:49,919
Speaker 1: kind of person he was. How do you finally leave?

670
00:37:51,239 --> 00:37:54,040
Speaker 1: I just was over it, and it was some time coming.

671
00:37:54,280 --> 00:37:57,680
Speaker 1: I started noticing certain things about him. I started paying

672
00:37:57,719 --> 00:37:59,880
Speaker 1: attention to little behaviors and the way that he was

673
00:38:00,000 --> 00:38:02,600
Speaker 1: trying to mind fuck me and treat me and just

674
00:38:02,680 --> 00:38:05,520
Speaker 1: little things, you know. And I had some outside people

675
00:38:05,560 --> 00:38:08,000
Speaker 1: that were very close to him, that were kind of

676
00:38:08,040 --> 00:38:10,880
Speaker 1: low key giving me little signs and little you know,

677
00:38:11,000 --> 00:38:14,120
Speaker 1: notes and things like that secretly, and I just kind

678
00:38:14,120 --> 00:38:17,879
Speaker 1: of like faded away to fade out, to fade my

679
00:38:18,800 --> 00:38:21,520
Speaker 1: getting rid of someone. I just kind of fade, you

680
00:38:21,520 --> 00:38:24,800
Speaker 1: know what I mean. I just faded like slowly but surely.

681
00:38:25,640 --> 00:38:27,520
Speaker 1: And it was crazy. You were in the middle, was

682
00:38:27,520 --> 00:38:29,920
Speaker 1: in the middle of everything when you came to us,

683
00:38:29,960 --> 00:38:31,360
Speaker 1: and you were trying to explain it to me but

684
00:38:31,400 --> 00:38:33,000
Speaker 1: didn't know how to and I didn't know how to

685
00:38:33,000 --> 00:38:35,919
Speaker 1: explain it. But it was just like, I gotta get

686
00:38:35,920 --> 00:38:38,160
Speaker 1: out of this situation. Pulled up on the g wagon.

687
00:38:38,200 --> 00:38:40,520
Speaker 1: I was like, wait a minute, girl, since we're going

688
00:38:40,560 --> 00:38:43,200
Speaker 1: to the spa and I'm like cracking and afford to

689
00:38:43,239 --> 00:38:46,239
Speaker 1: put my leg and I'm homeless, Like what is going on?

690
00:38:46,280 --> 00:38:49,880
Speaker 1: She's like, it's not It's not what it seems. Not

691
00:38:49,960 --> 00:38:52,919
Speaker 1: gold baby, So that time that that glitter is dirt

692
00:38:53,000 --> 00:38:55,280
Speaker 1: on the bottom of somebody's shoes. So there that Moody's

693
00:38:55,320 --> 00:39:00,000
Speaker 1: not as I'm plaranting you now, No, no, no, I'm

694
00:39:00,200 --> 00:39:02,640
Speaker 1: enough money. I'm good. I make enough money to deal

695
00:39:02,680 --> 00:39:05,000
Speaker 1: with a guy that doesn't make enough money as me

696
00:39:05,120 --> 00:39:08,879
Speaker 1: and we can steal ball out. I'm fine because this

697
00:39:08,920 --> 00:39:14,080
Speaker 1: motherfucker was crazy and now it's like I don't even

698
00:39:14,239 --> 00:39:16,640
Speaker 1: know what kind of person I like because people are

699
00:39:16,680 --> 00:39:20,600
Speaker 1: so deceiving. So it's like you could be the perfect man.

700
00:39:20,680 --> 00:39:23,200
Speaker 1: You guys have to understand, this person is really, really,

701
00:39:23,239 --> 00:39:27,600
Speaker 1: really intellectual. He proposed to me within six months of

702
00:39:27,680 --> 00:39:30,000
Speaker 1: us dating. There was a reason why I said yes.

703
00:39:30,480 --> 00:39:33,879
Speaker 1: He was very charming, he was financially staple. Things were

704
00:39:33,920 --> 00:39:35,640
Speaker 1: really good, you know what I mean. At a point

705
00:39:35,680 --> 00:39:37,680
Speaker 1: in time, Yeah, he was the love of my life, right,

706
00:39:38,400 --> 00:39:42,480
Speaker 1: But it's like Jacqueline Hyde on and off, like I'm

707
00:39:42,480 --> 00:39:44,880
Speaker 1: gonna be this kind of person down to a t

708
00:39:45,160 --> 00:39:46,960
Speaker 1: for you to think this is the man I am,

709
00:39:47,320 --> 00:39:49,760
Speaker 1: and then one day I'm gonna switch it on your ass.

710
00:39:50,160 --> 00:39:53,200
Speaker 1: And so I'm a hustler. I've always been a hustler,

711
00:39:53,239 --> 00:39:54,960
Speaker 1: like my whole life, since I was sixteen years old,

712
00:39:55,000 --> 00:39:58,040
Speaker 1: really like grinding for real, putting in the footwork. And

713
00:39:58,160 --> 00:39:59,759
Speaker 1: he didn't want me to work. He didn't want me

714
00:39:59,760 --> 00:40:03,400
Speaker 1: to dan aunts. He's trailing very He started hating on

715
00:40:03,440 --> 00:40:06,040
Speaker 1: my Instagram, and I'm like, I've had this Instagram before

716
00:40:06,040 --> 00:40:09,520
Speaker 1: I knew you. I was stripping before I do. The

717
00:40:09,640 --> 00:40:12,640
Speaker 1: mutual friend I introduced this was a customer at my club,

718
00:40:12,719 --> 00:40:14,440
Speaker 1: not my customer, but you know, he was like the

719
00:40:14,480 --> 00:40:16,160
Speaker 1: home the homie that would come to the club, you know,

720
00:40:16,239 --> 00:40:18,480
Speaker 1: buy it's chicken wings and shape like when I take it,

721
00:40:18,920 --> 00:40:21,279
Speaker 1: I'm like, why are you expecting me to leave this

722
00:40:21,400 --> 00:40:24,400
Speaker 1: life just because I'm with you? Oh, I'm your fiance

723
00:40:24,600 --> 00:40:26,040
Speaker 1: and I'm gonna put a ring on your finger. Not

724
00:40:26,080 --> 00:40:28,479
Speaker 1: doing that anymore, Okay, So then you're gonna take care

725
00:40:28,520 --> 00:40:30,560
Speaker 1: of your gonna pick up the slack, right, You're gonna

726
00:40:30,600 --> 00:40:33,000
Speaker 1: take care of the lost wages for me. Not doing

727
00:40:33,000 --> 00:40:36,120
Speaker 1: that anymore. Oh yeah, no problem. And at a point

728
00:40:36,200 --> 00:40:40,560
Speaker 1: he was. But I never felt comfortable. I always felt

729
00:40:40,600 --> 00:40:43,960
Speaker 1: like very uncomfortable. Even when we got, you know, a

730
00:40:44,040 --> 00:40:46,319
Speaker 1: place together. I never felt like that was my home.

731
00:40:47,120 --> 00:40:49,200
Speaker 1: I never unpacked my stuff. And you feel like at

732
00:40:49,200 --> 00:40:51,600
Speaker 1: any moment he could be like I just didn't. It

733
00:40:51,719 --> 00:40:53,759
Speaker 1: was just something that was just not right for me.

734
00:40:54,320 --> 00:40:58,680
Speaker 1: And I felt that was your expertise note like in life,

735
00:40:58,719 --> 00:41:01,080
Speaker 1: like you know what I mean, Because some women would

736
00:41:01,160 --> 00:41:05,040
Speaker 1: not have picked up where she left out, You get

737
00:41:05,040 --> 00:41:07,480
Speaker 1: what I'm saying. They would have gotten married and then

738
00:41:07,520 --> 00:41:09,759
Speaker 1: once that last name would have came, it would have

739
00:41:09,800 --> 00:41:13,520
Speaker 1: been a rap. You're done, checkmate. I wasn't going through that,

740
00:41:13,920 --> 00:41:16,799
Speaker 1: and I just left with nothing, you know what I mean.

741
00:41:16,840 --> 00:41:20,480
Speaker 1: I mean, I left with my clothes. But I was

742
00:41:20,520 --> 00:41:22,720
Speaker 1: with this person for two years. I lost so much money,

743
00:41:23,640 --> 00:41:26,520
Speaker 1: you know what I mean? Like, I lost so much money,

744
00:41:26,640 --> 00:41:30,520
Speaker 1: so many different opportunities. He started hitting on Instagram. Okay,

745
00:41:30,560 --> 00:41:32,360
Speaker 1: even when I tried to switch and do like, you know,

746
00:41:32,400 --> 00:41:35,080
Speaker 1: the funny little comedy stuff on Instagram. I started doing

747
00:41:35,080 --> 00:41:36,560
Speaker 1: those because I live in l A. And I know

748
00:41:36,600 --> 00:41:39,200
Speaker 1: a lot of the comedians on Instagram that have high

749
00:41:39,239 --> 00:41:41,239
Speaker 1: following and whatnot. So I'm like, let me get into

750
00:41:41,239 --> 00:41:43,120
Speaker 1: this community. These are my friends. Anyway, let's link up,

751
00:41:43,160 --> 00:41:46,000
Speaker 1: do some funny ship whatever. Um, that was a problem.

752
00:41:46,320 --> 00:41:50,960
Speaker 1: You're pretending like this guy's girlfriend. This is a comedy.

753
00:41:52,320 --> 00:41:55,120
Speaker 1: You hear me. It's like sixty seconds long, dude, Like really,

754
00:41:55,760 --> 00:41:58,880
Speaker 1: So it just was everything was a problem, and I

755
00:41:58,960 --> 00:42:01,040
Speaker 1: was just like, this person is not allowing me to

756
00:42:01,080 --> 00:42:03,920
Speaker 1: be myself and my growth and my development is wanting

757
00:42:04,040 --> 00:42:07,120
Speaker 1: something that is very important to me. So I'm like, no,

758
00:42:07,239 --> 00:42:10,839
Speaker 1: it's just not gonna work. And then it's like I'm

759
00:42:10,880 --> 00:42:14,040
Speaker 1: watching you nigging people. You You're not doing financial stuff

760
00:42:14,040 --> 00:42:16,600
Speaker 1: for me to be okay. You're doing financial stuff for

761
00:42:16,640 --> 00:42:18,120
Speaker 1: you to be okay and for me to just be

762
00:42:18,200 --> 00:42:21,080
Speaker 1: your wife and in your pocket. I'm not relying on

763
00:42:21,160 --> 00:42:23,040
Speaker 1: no man. It's not gonna happen. I don't care what

764
00:42:23,080 --> 00:42:24,520
Speaker 1: I gotta get out on these streets and do. I'm

765
00:42:24,560 --> 00:42:27,160
Speaker 1: not going to rely on no man. And so once

766
00:42:27,160 --> 00:42:29,319
Speaker 1: he started taking little things for him, my freedom and

767
00:42:29,360 --> 00:42:31,279
Speaker 1: making me feel like he was something my growth and

768
00:42:31,680 --> 00:42:37,120
Speaker 1: just being crazy manipulative and very narcissistic behavior like I

769
00:42:37,160 --> 00:42:40,719
Speaker 1: will watch him leach onto my family and act like

770
00:42:40,800 --> 00:42:44,080
Speaker 1: the perfect guy. Like it was really like a nightmare.

771
00:42:44,120 --> 00:42:48,960
Speaker 1: You can't let it man, meet your family. There was

772
00:42:49,000 --> 00:42:51,680
Speaker 1: a nightmare. And it was like different things were happening

773
00:42:52,320 --> 00:42:55,160
Speaker 1: just period, like art least ending, and different things were

774
00:42:55,200 --> 00:42:58,360
Speaker 1: happening right on time, and I felt like God was

775
00:42:58,400 --> 00:43:03,560
Speaker 1: like I'm gonna happen this not it and then wiggle,

776
00:43:03,800 --> 00:43:05,200
Speaker 1: you know what I mean. And so it's like the

777
00:43:05,280 --> 00:43:06,920
Speaker 1: least is ending. And then I'm like, well, okay, I'm

778
00:43:06,960 --> 00:43:09,280
Speaker 1: just gonna stay with my with my family in Atlanta

779
00:43:09,320 --> 00:43:11,680
Speaker 1: because I have a place in Atlanta as well, and

780
00:43:11,719 --> 00:43:13,839
Speaker 1: it was just little things were happening where I could

781
00:43:13,880 --> 00:43:16,640
Speaker 1: just kind of get away. But like Shanna said, when

782
00:43:16,640 --> 00:43:20,600
Speaker 1: she came to l A, I was like, Shanna, this

783
00:43:20,640 --> 00:43:23,240
Speaker 1: is this is not what it seems this it looks good,

784
00:43:23,800 --> 00:43:25,400
Speaker 1: you know what I'm saying. I'm in a g wagon

785
00:43:25,480 --> 00:43:27,839
Speaker 1: and I'm looking good and I'm switching bags out every

786
00:43:27,920 --> 00:43:30,040
Speaker 1: day and everything is looking good. But this is the

787
00:43:30,080 --> 00:43:34,320
Speaker 1: worst time of my whole life. Been there, done that shirt,

788
00:43:37,880 --> 00:43:42,080
Speaker 1: the picture girl, it was an imposter. It was an imposter.

789
00:43:42,760 --> 00:43:45,000
Speaker 1: That's crazy. So now you feel like it's hard to trust.

790
00:43:45,080 --> 00:43:47,560
Speaker 1: So now I just don't even know what I just

791
00:43:47,719 --> 00:43:51,360
Speaker 1: be feeling like niggas just are not nothing, and I

792
00:43:51,360 --> 00:43:53,200
Speaker 1: don't know who to trust. I don't know. But you

793
00:43:53,239 --> 00:43:56,040
Speaker 1: also can't lest somebody. I can't let you know what

794
00:43:56,120 --> 00:43:58,960
Speaker 1: I mean, right, So I do like allow myself to

795
00:43:59,480 --> 00:44:02,000
Speaker 1: I'm still good person. So I allowed myself to meet

796
00:44:02,040 --> 00:44:04,360
Speaker 1: people and be fluid and with the relationship and the

797
00:44:04,400 --> 00:44:06,399
Speaker 1: way that the relationship is going. But in the back

798
00:44:06,440 --> 00:44:09,880
Speaker 1: of my mind, I still be like, you just never know, right,

799
00:44:09,960 --> 00:44:12,439
Speaker 1: you don't. You just never know. And it's not because

800
00:44:12,480 --> 00:44:16,480
Speaker 1: they have money that makes them better or anything, because

801
00:44:17,120 --> 00:44:21,279
Speaker 1: you could Google, that's you. If it's not, if it

802
00:44:21,320 --> 00:44:24,680
Speaker 1: ain't a time check these people, Like I told you

803
00:44:24,719 --> 00:44:27,840
Speaker 1: he's a mastermind, you need like references to let me

804
00:44:27,880 --> 00:44:31,360
Speaker 1: see your girlfriends. I think I have somebody's friends and

805
00:44:31,400 --> 00:44:33,719
Speaker 1: family treat them too. It gives you an indication of

806
00:44:33,760 --> 00:44:35,759
Speaker 1: what type of person they are, Like do they have

807
00:44:35,840 --> 00:44:38,200
Speaker 1: really good friends and family? Do their friends and family

808
00:44:38,320 --> 00:44:41,120
Speaker 1: get excited and love when they're around, And do they

809
00:44:41,160 --> 00:44:43,040
Speaker 1: have really positive things to say about them? Do they

810
00:44:43,040 --> 00:44:47,960
Speaker 1: have it strong circle around them? Because I think like

811
00:44:48,920 --> 00:44:52,279
Speaker 1: people are different, right, and I know that some people

812
00:44:52,320 --> 00:44:54,719
Speaker 1: are really friendly, some people are more quiet, some people

813
00:44:54,719 --> 00:44:56,560
Speaker 1: are more we don't know you like that, so we're

814
00:44:56,560 --> 00:44:58,440
Speaker 1: not only chewing. So I could never just figure out

815
00:44:58,520 --> 00:45:01,160
Speaker 1: the vibe could you tap with somebody whole family and friends,

816
00:45:01,160 --> 00:45:02,360
Speaker 1: Like they don't have a lot of friends and their

817
00:45:02,400 --> 00:45:05,320
Speaker 1: family don't work with them. It's probably a reason. But

818
00:45:05,440 --> 00:45:07,600
Speaker 1: see it wasn't even not a very good family and

819
00:45:07,680 --> 00:45:09,960
Speaker 1: people around him were like good, you know what I mean.

820
00:45:10,120 --> 00:45:12,080
Speaker 1: But because that's always been a gaine for me, like

821
00:45:12,120 --> 00:45:14,359
Speaker 1: how does he tweet his mom? How does you know?

822
00:45:14,560 --> 00:45:16,920
Speaker 1: Like things like that, I always look at that because

823
00:45:17,080 --> 00:45:18,880
Speaker 1: and how do they treat people that can't do anything

824
00:45:18,920 --> 00:45:22,880
Speaker 1: for them, like if I got somewhere. And that's not

825
00:45:22,960 --> 00:45:24,920
Speaker 1: saying that's not the only thing, but like I pay

826
00:45:24,960 --> 00:45:27,239
Speaker 1: attention to stuff like that, like I look at how

827
00:45:27,320 --> 00:45:32,560
Speaker 1: people treat other people that carrn artists can can anybody

828
00:45:34,160 --> 00:45:38,319
Speaker 1: calling artists? Can? I Look, I got calmed this year

829
00:45:38,440 --> 00:45:40,840
Speaker 1: too by my by my ex manager and stole my

830
00:45:40,920 --> 00:45:44,120
Speaker 1: whole company. Like I've had everything happened to me in

831
00:45:44,160 --> 00:45:46,520
Speaker 1: this last year that Joanna, where is your book coming up?

832
00:45:48,400 --> 00:45:50,920
Speaker 1: And let me tell you, like it's oh my gosh.

833
00:45:51,160 --> 00:45:53,520
Speaker 1: Even that too, that is an issue in itself with

834
00:45:53,600 --> 00:45:56,600
Speaker 1: my with my book, like the publishing deal now I'm

835
00:45:56,600 --> 00:45:58,759
Speaker 1: dealing with going back and forth with the Okay, so

836
00:45:58,840 --> 00:46:01,560
Speaker 1: the company who the narrative of my book. So it's

837
00:46:01,600 --> 00:46:04,360
Speaker 1: like Dr Martin Luther King's people and the publishing company.

838
00:46:04,440 --> 00:46:06,759
Speaker 1: So certain things that I can't talk about in the book,

839
00:46:07,000 --> 00:46:09,160
Speaker 1: Like I'm getting sent back like you can't talk about it.

840
00:46:09,160 --> 00:46:11,280
Speaker 1: So I'm like, Okay, well this is part of my history.

841
00:46:11,360 --> 00:46:14,160
Speaker 1: But you know, like what, I got a sugarcoat it.

842
00:46:14,640 --> 00:46:17,160
Speaker 1: I'm not a sugarcoating type of girl, not at all.

843
00:46:17,520 --> 00:46:19,960
Speaker 1: So if I say that I had to go and

844
00:46:20,120 --> 00:46:24,320
Speaker 1: suck John Peter Joe's penis at fourteen years old walking

845
00:46:24,320 --> 00:46:26,600
Speaker 1: home from school. That's what happened. How do you sugarcoat it?

846
00:46:28,080 --> 00:46:29,879
Speaker 1: You know what I mean? That was my first time.

847
00:46:30,000 --> 00:46:33,120
Speaker 1: So it's just it's a it's a lot going on,

848
00:46:33,360 --> 00:46:38,320
Speaker 1: especially with like people thrive on people's hopes, dreams and aspirations,

849
00:46:38,360 --> 00:46:40,840
Speaker 1: and they use that as cat nip for people to

850
00:46:40,920 --> 00:46:43,520
Speaker 1: jump up and grab. And that is the problem because

851
00:46:43,560 --> 00:46:45,640
Speaker 1: you don't know who to trust, and sometimes when you

852
00:46:45,680 --> 00:46:48,600
Speaker 1: do jump up and get you get caught along with

853
00:46:48,640 --> 00:46:51,759
Speaker 1: that hook. That's true, that's pretty much one of the week.

854
00:46:51,840 --> 00:46:54,040
Speaker 1: But we also can't be an islands by ourselves. At

855
00:46:54,080 --> 00:46:56,799
Speaker 1: least you'll have each other to listen. The best thing

856
00:46:56,840 --> 00:46:59,120
Speaker 1: that has happened to me a smile on my face

857
00:46:59,280 --> 00:47:02,120
Speaker 1: and like literally like a genuine friendship. But I will

858
00:47:02,160 --> 00:47:05,319
Speaker 1: say like initially I was more, you know, like, hey,

859
00:47:05,400 --> 00:47:07,160
Speaker 1: let's hang out, let's hang out, and she was just like,

860
00:47:09,239 --> 00:47:12,680
Speaker 1: we can link up here, girl. But remember I told

861
00:47:12,680 --> 00:47:15,799
Speaker 1: you why. I told you he's crazy. It was one

862
00:47:15,840 --> 00:47:19,040
Speaker 1: of those I hate gay people kind of people. He's

863
00:47:19,160 --> 00:47:21,080
Speaker 1: never even nobody like that. That was the one thing

864
00:47:21,160 --> 00:47:23,719
Speaker 1: I remember when I first met him. I promised you guys.

865
00:47:23,719 --> 00:47:26,000
Speaker 1: Just when I first met him. It was fourth of

866
00:47:26,080 --> 00:47:29,239
Speaker 1: July weekend two years ago, and that was when we

867
00:47:29,280 --> 00:47:31,239
Speaker 1: first met. We were just talking and getting to know

868
00:47:31,320 --> 00:47:34,400
Speaker 1: each other, and he asked me, how do you go

869
00:47:34,480 --> 00:47:37,600
Speaker 1: about gay people? And I'm like, what, I'm a proud

870
00:47:38,480 --> 00:47:45,120
Speaker 1: remember period, I'm a member of the gay, trans, lesbian,

871
00:47:45,320 --> 00:47:48,279
Speaker 1: whatever community. So what do you mean you remember? I'm like,

872
00:47:48,440 --> 00:47:51,480
Speaker 1: I'm a woman and i'm straight, but I'm involved. I'm

873
00:47:51,480 --> 00:47:57,880
Speaker 1: a whole member, period. That's how I feel my family.

874
00:47:58,239 --> 00:48:00,319
Speaker 1: And you know what he said to me, I don't

875
00:48:00,320 --> 00:48:02,919
Speaker 1: ever want to hear you say that again. I said

876
00:48:02,960 --> 00:48:07,600
Speaker 1: it again because I said I'm gonna say it again,

877
00:48:07,760 --> 00:48:11,520
Speaker 1: so I said it again, and he got infuriated and said,

878
00:48:12,640 --> 00:48:15,359
Speaker 1: that's not a part of my culture. That is something

879
00:48:15,360 --> 00:48:17,680
Speaker 1: we're strongly against. And if you're gonna be with me,

880
00:48:17,760 --> 00:48:19,440
Speaker 1: you have to stand by your man. That was one

881
00:48:19,480 --> 00:48:21,799
Speaker 1: of his quotes. You have to stand by your man,

882
00:48:22,520 --> 00:48:26,279
Speaker 1: And um, I don't support that. That's what it was.

883
00:48:26,680 --> 00:48:30,080
Speaker 1: Abomination was the word that he used. That's an abomination.

884
00:48:30,239 --> 00:48:34,080
Speaker 1: And he tried to give me all these Bible facts

885
00:48:34,120 --> 00:48:36,680
Speaker 1: about how it's just so bad and all the things

886
00:48:36,719 --> 00:48:39,440
Speaker 1: and I'm just like, I don't have nothing. He probably

887
00:48:39,440 --> 00:48:43,480
Speaker 1: see I don't have nothing to do with that. Like

888
00:48:43,920 --> 00:48:46,160
Speaker 1: I don't really care, Like I fought with people for

889
00:48:46,200 --> 00:48:48,360
Speaker 1: who they are. I don't care if they're gay, straight,

890
00:48:48,440 --> 00:48:54,120
Speaker 1: if they're trans, lesbian, whatever. The alien with the dick, John,

891
00:48:54,400 --> 00:49:03,680
Speaker 1: do you hear me? You think I've never had before?

892
00:49:03,760 --> 00:49:06,960
Speaker 1: But it doesn't matter what you have going on. If

893
00:49:07,000 --> 00:49:09,960
Speaker 1: you're my friend, you're my friend. If you're nice to me,

894
00:49:10,120 --> 00:49:12,279
Speaker 1: you respect me, and you know what I mean, you

895
00:49:12,320 --> 00:49:14,640
Speaker 1: have my best interests at your heart. You're my friend.

896
00:49:14,719 --> 00:49:17,200
Speaker 1: Did you think he's gonna change his beliefs. I'm not

897
00:49:17,280 --> 00:49:19,480
Speaker 1: here to make people change their beliefs. I'm gonna believe

898
00:49:19,480 --> 00:49:21,960
Speaker 1: what I want to believe. But I just would notice,

899
00:49:22,040 --> 00:49:24,520
Speaker 1: like the shade and the hay, and I just like

900
00:49:24,520 --> 00:49:26,680
Speaker 1: it used to make my blood boiled. Like even when

901
00:49:26,719 --> 00:49:29,239
Speaker 1: I was planning my wedding and I was going over

902
00:49:29,280 --> 00:49:31,360
Speaker 1: the guest list, there were a lot of gay people

903
00:49:31,400 --> 00:49:33,000
Speaker 1: on there. There were a lot of lesbian girls, were

904
00:49:33,040 --> 00:49:35,919
Speaker 1: all transgender people on there, Like, come on, you were

905
00:49:35,960 --> 00:49:37,440
Speaker 1: on there, you know what I mean? There were people

906
00:49:37,480 --> 00:49:41,800
Speaker 1: on there that were gay, and um, He's like, oh no, what,

907
00:49:42,160 --> 00:49:46,319
Speaker 1: Oh no, your gay friend from Pittsburgh the least can't come.

908
00:49:46,640 --> 00:49:49,319
Speaker 1: Oh wait, this girl that showed me her Instagram, she

909
00:49:49,360 --> 00:49:52,520
Speaker 1: can't come with that. What do you mean? You're my friends?

910
00:49:52,880 --> 00:49:56,120
Speaker 1: Are my people? They're gonna come tobody, nobod. You're marrying,

911
00:49:56,600 --> 00:49:59,000
Speaker 1: who's gonna be gonna come to my wedding? He's like, Oh,

912
00:49:59,080 --> 00:50:03,920
Speaker 1: my family would completely be disgusted with that. To be

913
00:50:04,080 --> 00:50:06,880
Speaker 1: at our wedding and to see all these fucking gay

914
00:50:07,000 --> 00:50:13,360
Speaker 1: people running around, Yeah, that's crazy. And it was just

915
00:50:13,440 --> 00:50:15,320
Speaker 1: like little things like that that I was just putting

916
00:50:15,360 --> 00:50:18,320
Speaker 1: on the notes. Y'all know how much it irritates me

917
00:50:18,360 --> 00:50:21,120
Speaker 1: when people have negative things to say about anybody from

918
00:50:21,440 --> 00:50:24,880
Speaker 1: the LGBTQ community. I'll be like, all right, relaxed. She

919
00:50:25,640 --> 00:50:28,600
Speaker 1: had a big problem with someone one of our friends

920
00:50:28,640 --> 00:50:30,839
Speaker 1: because they had something negative to say about trans women.

921
00:50:30,840 --> 00:50:32,640
Speaker 1: And I was like, you, what did they say about me?

922
00:50:32,880 --> 00:50:37,279
Speaker 1: Not you? A long time ago. But you know, she

923
00:50:37,400 --> 00:50:38,839
Speaker 1: was just saying, I think it's wrong. I think it's

924
00:50:38,840 --> 00:50:41,239
Speaker 1: a mental illness, it's none of you know, and things

925
00:50:41,280 --> 00:50:43,360
Speaker 1: like that, and I'm like, do you know any trans

926
00:50:43,360 --> 00:50:46,440
Speaker 1: women to even make h some statement like that? To

927
00:50:46,600 --> 00:50:48,960
Speaker 1: even know who you know? Because I think people get

928
00:50:48,960 --> 00:50:52,120
Speaker 1: confused about like the this is the gender that I

929
00:50:52,120 --> 00:50:55,960
Speaker 1: identify with and all of that and just yeah, exactly,

930
00:50:56,040 --> 00:50:58,279
Speaker 1: but there's two separate things and people can't get their

931
00:50:58,280 --> 00:51:00,520
Speaker 1: minds around that, you know what I mean, like and

932
00:51:00,600 --> 00:51:04,960
Speaker 1: that that's the biggest issue as is. But no, I

933
00:51:04,960 --> 00:51:07,040
Speaker 1: don't go hard for it because I'd be like, you

934
00:51:07,040 --> 00:51:09,520
Speaker 1: don't even like I have friends that are trans women,

935
00:51:09,800 --> 00:51:12,480
Speaker 1: you know, and so to me and my whole life,

936
00:51:12,520 --> 00:51:15,080
Speaker 1: I've always known people, So I think I do think

937
00:51:15,120 --> 00:51:18,720
Speaker 1: sometimes it's exposure to certain groups of people, like because

938
00:51:18,719 --> 00:51:21,160
Speaker 1: some people just don't know people change after they meet me,

939
00:51:21,400 --> 00:51:25,200
Speaker 1: right exactly. People change How I gained my success as

940
00:51:25,239 --> 00:51:28,840
Speaker 1: how my networking and rubbing elbows with people, and I

941
00:51:28,880 --> 00:51:31,080
Speaker 1: tell people like me and Steve had a conversation one

942
00:51:31,160 --> 00:51:34,480
Speaker 1: night girl for like three hours and I just literally

943
00:51:34,480 --> 00:51:37,759
Speaker 1: had to lay it on the line her and Tammy, like,

944
00:51:39,239 --> 00:51:42,640
Speaker 1: you know, like I had to. Look, y'all are talking

945
00:51:42,800 --> 00:51:46,520
Speaker 1: so much ship about my name and my brand and

946
00:51:46,560 --> 00:51:49,879
Speaker 1: who I and what I am. But if you really

947
00:51:49,920 --> 00:51:53,160
Speaker 1: sat and thought about it logically, if I was mean,

948
00:51:53,200 --> 00:51:55,400
Speaker 1: if I was rude, if I was disrespectful, if I

949
00:51:55,440 --> 00:51:59,439
Speaker 1: was oblivion to anybody around me. How would I gain

950
00:52:00,080 --> 00:52:03,759
Speaker 1: so much and so far in my career with networking

951
00:52:03,760 --> 00:52:07,360
Speaker 1: with people if I was such a bad, disrespectful individual.

952
00:52:08,280 --> 00:52:11,880
Speaker 1: That doesn't make sense. I have never My network is

953
00:52:11,920 --> 00:52:16,080
Speaker 1: so so large and so diverse that I can't be

954
00:52:16,120 --> 00:52:20,080
Speaker 1: a root and disrespectful type of individual. It's impossible. So

955
00:52:20,160 --> 00:52:22,200
Speaker 1: when people do meet me, they're like, oh my god,

956
00:52:22,800 --> 00:52:27,240
Speaker 1: you're so different from your social media. I was like, wow, okay,

957
00:52:27,239 --> 00:52:29,400
Speaker 1: well that's how I got the role. That's how I

958
00:52:29,480 --> 00:52:34,600
Speaker 1: like literally got any advantage or any leverage in, you know,

959
00:52:34,640 --> 00:52:40,400
Speaker 1: in this industry since Stevie J. Now we look for

960
00:52:40,440 --> 00:52:43,040
Speaker 1: you and we see this whole Stevie J. Story. And

961
00:52:43,160 --> 00:52:46,160
Speaker 1: Johnny Blade said, you and Stevie J have some type

962
00:52:46,160 --> 00:52:50,680
Speaker 1: of relationship. So let's clear that up. I'm off the contract.

963
00:52:51,239 --> 00:52:56,239
Speaker 1: I'm no longer on season seven, which my contract that

964
00:52:56,440 --> 00:53:00,439
Speaker 1: I interview with them for three hours. Damn dere said

965
00:53:00,480 --> 00:53:02,160
Speaker 1: that I was a cast member. The next day, it

966
00:53:02,160 --> 00:53:04,040
Speaker 1: actually didn't come to me. It came to my agent,

967
00:53:04,239 --> 00:53:09,120
Speaker 1: which was my acting agent, and Johnny basically said I

968
00:53:09,120 --> 00:53:12,640
Speaker 1: had sex with Stevie J. I was texting Mona, I

969
00:53:12,680 --> 00:53:17,200
Speaker 1: was texting staff, like, what's going on? My phone's going crazy.

970
00:53:17,600 --> 00:53:20,680
Speaker 1: I don't know what happened. Somebody sends me the video,

971
00:53:20,960 --> 00:53:23,400
Speaker 1: and when I watched the video the video, I was horrified.

972
00:53:23,680 --> 00:53:25,920
Speaker 1: I was I was I was humiliated, I was like

973
00:53:26,239 --> 00:53:29,880
Speaker 1: every emotion because this was my friend, you know what

974
00:53:29,880 --> 00:53:32,000
Speaker 1: I mean. Like, and I take a lot of women

975
00:53:32,239 --> 00:53:36,800
Speaker 1: into like into my personal space because I'm very accepting

976
00:53:36,880 --> 00:53:42,160
Speaker 1: and very very loving unconditionally that people just open up

977
00:53:42,200 --> 00:53:44,800
Speaker 1: to me because I'm open myself and I want you

978
00:53:44,840 --> 00:53:49,960
Speaker 1: to accept me from me. So I accepted Johnny for Johnny,

979
00:53:50,200 --> 00:53:53,840
Speaker 1: and I think that as a friend, I was so

980
00:53:54,080 --> 00:53:57,440
Speaker 1: betrayed because it's like, now, only did you say something

981
00:53:57,520 --> 00:54:01,840
Speaker 1: about me? You knew it was stick, you knew what

982
00:54:01,880 --> 00:54:06,840
Speaker 1: it was going to stay a topic that at the time,

983
00:54:06,920 --> 00:54:08,960
Speaker 1: if I'm signed with love and hip hop, I can't

984
00:54:09,000 --> 00:54:13,120
Speaker 1: talk and defend myself. There's no way possible that I could.

985
00:54:13,400 --> 00:54:16,080
Speaker 1: So I'm texting stuff. I'm like, I don't know this man,

986
00:54:16,760 --> 00:54:21,080
Speaker 1: never met him. She was like really, and I was like, yeah,

987
00:54:21,160 --> 00:54:23,879
Speaker 1: but you can send him my number so we can

988
00:54:23,920 --> 00:54:26,960
Speaker 1: talk about this. I don't want any parts of this

989
00:54:27,120 --> 00:54:31,520
Speaker 1: at all. So, um, I couldn't defend myself. I couldn't

990
00:54:31,560 --> 00:54:34,000
Speaker 1: do anything. And then it just the internet just took

991
00:54:34,600 --> 00:54:39,920
Speaker 1: and because I've always throughout receipts building my career and

992
00:54:40,000 --> 00:54:44,600
Speaker 1: following if Shauna says it happened, it happened. So everybody

993
00:54:44,680 --> 00:54:48,000
Speaker 1: was waiting for me to talk about it. But filming

994
00:54:48,080 --> 00:54:52,399
Speaker 1: was like in September, so I'm not talking ship bitch,

995
00:54:52,480 --> 00:54:55,239
Speaker 1: Like no, I'm not gonna say anything. And then when

996
00:54:56,040 --> 00:54:59,759
Speaker 1: when as time went on, the cars played out and

997
00:55:00,120 --> 00:55:04,040
Speaker 1: I got invited to like two filming episodes, and I

998
00:55:04,120 --> 00:55:07,640
Speaker 1: was distraught because it was like that was my I

999
00:55:08,000 --> 00:55:10,799
Speaker 1: needed that two thousand dollars per episode. I needed to

1000
00:55:10,960 --> 00:55:15,200
Speaker 1: film for thirteen episodes. Everybody on that cast had my

1001
00:55:15,280 --> 00:55:17,480
Speaker 1: name in their mouth, from young Jock on the radio

1002
00:55:17,600 --> 00:55:21,160
Speaker 1: talking about me about what happened to like Tammy, like

1003
00:55:21,280 --> 00:55:23,760
Speaker 1: that was that's my network. Like that was my segue

1004
00:55:23,880 --> 00:55:27,399
Speaker 1: into being who I wanted the world to perceive me as.

1005
00:55:27,920 --> 00:55:32,279
Speaker 1: And I think she crushed. She crushed an opportunity that

1006
00:55:32,400 --> 00:55:36,040
Speaker 1: was more in my in in my eyes, more financial.

1007
00:55:36,719 --> 00:55:39,080
Speaker 1: And I can't respect anybody who stops my money. I

1008
00:55:39,120 --> 00:55:41,800
Speaker 1: can't respect a cop who pulls me over and wants

1009
00:55:41,800 --> 00:55:44,279
Speaker 1: to smile at you at the court date and at

1010
00:55:44,320 --> 00:55:47,360
Speaker 1: like everything's okay. No, it's not okay. You you you

1011
00:55:47,400 --> 00:55:48,960
Speaker 1: stop in my bag, you might as well spit in

1012
00:55:49,040 --> 00:55:52,399
Speaker 1: my food. And I saw her, you know, one time

1013
00:55:52,480 --> 00:55:55,960
Speaker 1: after that on a red carpet, and the video depicted

1014
00:55:56,040 --> 00:55:58,279
Speaker 1: exactly how I felt about her, and it was like,

1015
00:55:59,480 --> 00:56:01,640
Speaker 1: why did you do that to me when no one

1016
00:56:01,760 --> 00:56:03,759
Speaker 1: was there? When Ms dev when you got out of

1017
00:56:03,840 --> 00:56:06,800
Speaker 1: jail and your boyfriend knocked your teeth out your mouth

1018
00:56:07,719 --> 00:56:11,040
Speaker 1: and you came you called my phone. I opened my

1019
00:56:11,320 --> 00:56:14,360
Speaker 1: arms and my home to you, free of rent, no charge,

1020
00:56:14,400 --> 00:56:17,719
Speaker 1: no nothing. But yet Ms Devin offered you that either

1021
00:56:18,280 --> 00:56:20,120
Speaker 1: you get what I'm saying. So it's like I was

1022
00:56:20,160 --> 00:56:22,239
Speaker 1: a true friend to you when no one was there.

1023
00:56:22,400 --> 00:56:25,319
Speaker 1: Whether you wanted to like the way you have done that,

1024
00:56:25,680 --> 00:56:27,799
Speaker 1: I don't know. And I think, like, I think that

1025
00:56:27,880 --> 00:56:30,480
Speaker 1: was the only thing that she could say in retaliation

1026
00:56:30,560 --> 00:56:33,640
Speaker 1: to come back at Stevie that would actually seem like

1027
00:56:33,680 --> 00:56:38,319
Speaker 1: maybe it's way and it would be possible or believable, right,

1028
00:56:38,640 --> 00:56:42,759
Speaker 1: And then from that, honestly, I got nothing from that,

1029
00:56:42,840 --> 00:56:47,600
Speaker 1: So then I was like insiderly blackballed from any type

1030
00:56:47,640 --> 00:56:51,160
Speaker 1: of uh exposure from it, you know what I mean.

1031
00:56:51,360 --> 00:56:54,120
Speaker 1: She said that it stopped Stevie from wanting you to

1032
00:56:54,160 --> 00:56:58,480
Speaker 1: be on the show or something because why your guests

1033
00:56:58,680 --> 00:57:02,080
Speaker 1: is good today basically got you off one I got.

1034
00:57:02,360 --> 00:57:04,560
Speaker 1: I got the screenshots. You know, I'll show and like,

1035
00:57:05,600 --> 00:57:08,480
Speaker 1: look I have the receipts. No, it was verbatim. Johnny

1036
00:57:08,800 --> 00:57:12,680
Speaker 1: messed up what I had planned for you. She said,

1037
00:57:13,360 --> 00:57:15,439
Speaker 1: whatever I mean, even if they did want to, maybe

1038
00:57:15,440 --> 00:57:18,800
Speaker 1: if that was a reason they would have put us together. However,

1039
00:57:19,120 --> 00:57:21,800
Speaker 1: I don't know because I wasn't brought up on a

1040
00:57:21,880 --> 00:57:25,240
Speaker 1: storyboard of what my sick weight you know, into the

1041
00:57:25,760 --> 00:57:29,320
Speaker 1: you know cast would be. But I know that I

1042
00:57:29,360 --> 00:57:32,360
Speaker 1: was signed and I was getting paid my coins, and

1043
00:57:32,480 --> 00:57:37,320
Speaker 1: I interviewed with with Mona especially and I poured my

1044
00:57:37,440 --> 00:57:40,840
Speaker 1: life out to those people. Was thirty some people in

1045
00:57:40,880 --> 00:57:46,640
Speaker 1: their viacom Mona Me Entertainment Productions and um um uh

1046
00:57:46,760 --> 00:57:50,520
Speaker 1: Eastern So and I didn't know that I was going

1047
00:57:50,560 --> 00:57:53,000
Speaker 1: in there for an interview for Love and Hip Hop.

1048
00:57:53,520 --> 00:57:55,960
Speaker 1: Steph was my girlfriend. I was under an impression. She said,

1049
00:57:55,960 --> 00:57:58,440
Speaker 1: I want you to meet Mona. I had met Lee

1050
00:57:58,520 --> 00:58:01,200
Speaker 1: Daniels earlier, who cried on me in the audition when

1051
00:58:01,200 --> 00:58:04,000
Speaker 1: he realized who I was. And then from that I

1052
00:58:04,040 --> 00:58:06,720
Speaker 1: went to go deal with Mona. When I met Mona,

1053
00:58:07,000 --> 00:58:10,760
Speaker 1: it was like it was easy, breezy, like everything was cool.

1054
00:58:10,840 --> 00:58:13,439
Speaker 1: I told him how I got here, from the very

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Speaker 1: beginning of my career to what got me to sit

1056
00:58:16,560 --> 00:58:18,360
Speaker 1: in his chair, And I said, every one of those

1057
00:58:18,400 --> 00:58:21,000
Speaker 1: people know who I am, and we're all in some

1058
00:58:21,120 --> 00:58:24,120
Speaker 1: way intertwined in the entertainment industry. But I need you

1059
00:58:24,160 --> 00:58:27,760
Speaker 1: to help me find my voice. That's what I want,

1060
00:58:27,920 --> 00:58:32,000
Speaker 1: SHAWNA love life and literally finding my my my que

1061
00:58:32,120 --> 00:58:35,760
Speaker 1: and music because everybody around me is talented. So am

1062
00:58:35,800 --> 00:58:39,640
Speaker 1: I what's the problem? Help a bit out? And she

1063
00:58:39,800 --> 00:58:41,720
Speaker 1: knocked that bag away from me and I can't. I

1064
00:58:41,720 --> 00:58:46,760
Speaker 1: don't think that's forgivable. Well damn well, listen before we

1065
00:58:46,800 --> 00:58:49,120
Speaker 1: get out of here, one more question for y'all, and

1066
00:58:49,160 --> 00:58:52,320
Speaker 1: everybody's gonna answer this one. Okay, Let's say you started

1067
00:58:52,360 --> 00:58:54,840
Speaker 1: dating somebody knew you, go to the house for the

1068
00:58:54,840 --> 00:58:57,240
Speaker 1: first time and there are seamen stains on the sheets

1069
00:58:57,240 --> 00:59:00,600
Speaker 1: when you pull it back. Do you stay and keep

1070
00:59:00,640 --> 00:59:04,480
Speaker 1: it going? Or are you like O C D. That's

1071
00:59:05,080 --> 00:59:12,760
Speaker 1: first of all, listen, by I'm going out of here now,

1072
00:59:12,800 --> 00:59:15,760
Speaker 1: I'm gonna say something I don't know. We're getting them

1073
00:59:15,960 --> 00:59:20,280
Speaker 1: little like no I question. I asked questions. Definitely, I

1074
00:59:20,280 --> 00:59:22,280
Speaker 1: asked questions because I don't know, you know, could be

1075
00:59:22,320 --> 00:59:25,480
Speaker 1: looking at loan deal or whatever. I asked questions. Excuse me,

1076
00:59:25,800 --> 00:59:30,760
Speaker 1: what is that? You know what I mean? Any back? Yeah?

1077
00:59:32,520 --> 00:59:36,360
Speaker 1: Oh do you have a girlfriend? You know? But if

1078
00:59:36,400 --> 00:59:39,360
Speaker 1: you day it's masturvated, why you didn't clean it up?

1079
00:59:39,920 --> 00:59:41,800
Speaker 1: Why did you clean it up? Why didn't you change

1080
00:59:41,800 --> 00:59:43,680
Speaker 1: it cheeks? You know? I was coming So now that said,

1081
00:59:43,760 --> 00:59:45,880
Speaker 1: that speaks values about you use a dirty ask and again,

1082
00:59:46,040 --> 00:59:48,040
Speaker 1: and you was cool with a guest, a new girl

1083
00:59:48,080 --> 00:59:50,040
Speaker 1: that you're dating, and she should be trying to impress

1084
00:59:50,320 --> 00:59:52,520
Speaker 1: getting you're coming back, telling you she'd be on it,

1085
00:59:52,840 --> 00:59:55,880
Speaker 1: getting in your comming back like you should. I'm a

1086
00:59:55,960 --> 00:59:57,720
Speaker 1: down ask bitch. You could have just not had no

1087
00:59:57,800 --> 00:59:59,280
Speaker 1: she could have just been a Maxis and you could

1088
00:59:59,320 --> 01:00:01,120
Speaker 1: have just said to me, oh man, I just throw

1089
01:00:01,120 --> 01:00:02,520
Speaker 1: on my bedding in the washing. I hope you said

1090
01:00:02,520 --> 01:00:04,080
Speaker 1: the problem. Why don't think I'm would it? Let's do

1091
01:00:04,240 --> 01:00:12,880
Speaker 1: I'm cool, like, just be on problem. Did anybody ever

1092
01:00:12,920 --> 01:00:16,200
Speaker 1: accuse you? And it really wasn't like something when I'm

1093
01:00:16,240 --> 01:00:18,840
Speaker 1: not gonna I have something on my pants one time

1094
01:00:18,920 --> 01:00:21,600
Speaker 1: and yeah, come on you. I think I would. Actually,

1095
01:00:21,640 --> 01:00:23,200
Speaker 1: I think I was at the juice line and I

1096
01:00:23,400 --> 01:00:25,720
Speaker 1: sell something on me. They're not coming to juice, No,

1097
01:00:25,840 --> 01:00:28,200
Speaker 1: it's not. But there's definitely things that could be on

1098
01:00:28,240 --> 01:00:31,680
Speaker 1: your clothes. So somebody said something to me and they

1099
01:00:31,720 --> 01:00:34,160
Speaker 1: was like, where are you coming from? So I'm like,

1100
01:00:34,760 --> 01:00:37,880
Speaker 1: I didn't even remember, and they just like, uh, you

1101
01:00:37,960 --> 01:00:40,760
Speaker 1: look like you gotta come on your pants. I'm like, yeah,

1102
01:00:40,840 --> 01:00:43,080
Speaker 1: that's exactly what I did. I told them, please come

1103
01:00:43,120 --> 01:00:51,000
Speaker 1: on my pants, just please you taste. Yeah, I know

1104
01:00:51,040 --> 01:00:54,400
Speaker 1: about if somebody do that, even, that's why I think,

1105
01:00:54,480 --> 01:00:56,840
Speaker 1: like when you say that, but I know what you're

1106
01:00:56,840 --> 01:01:00,320
Speaker 1: talking about. Obviously, there's people that are dirty and won't

1107
01:01:00,320 --> 01:01:03,200
Speaker 1: sucking clean their sheets and then trying to a dirty

1108
01:01:03,240 --> 01:01:06,520
Speaker 1: as Yeah, and then it's like, Okay, maybe he didn't

1109
01:01:06,560 --> 01:01:08,640
Speaker 1: see it or he didn't know, No, but you knew

1110
01:01:08,680 --> 01:01:10,720
Speaker 1: you just slept with somebody. You knew that is the

1111
01:01:10,760 --> 01:01:13,560
Speaker 1: last time you have sex that you didn't wash your bedy. Really,

1112
01:01:13,720 --> 01:01:17,960
Speaker 1: excuse I don't like that kind of honest right, you

1113
01:01:17,960 --> 01:01:19,840
Speaker 1: think I see here she's every time they have sex

1114
01:01:19,920 --> 01:01:22,600
Speaker 1: they need to they should. But I don't think, no,

1115
01:01:22,760 --> 01:01:24,560
Speaker 1: I don't think that they do. But this is the thing.

1116
01:01:24,840 --> 01:01:28,480
Speaker 1: If you know that you're inviting me over here, and

1117
01:01:28,560 --> 01:01:32,720
Speaker 1: you say to yourself, Hm, seven days ago, I slipped

1118
01:01:32,720 --> 01:01:36,200
Speaker 1: with Tanya in this bead. Now Chanelle is coming over here.

1119
01:01:36,280 --> 01:01:39,920
Speaker 1: Let me tidy up the place from you are not

1120
01:01:40,000 --> 01:01:42,760
Speaker 1: think that what if that comings from you? She just

1121
01:01:42,800 --> 01:01:45,440
Speaker 1: got there before. What if you were there like two nights,

1122
01:01:45,480 --> 01:01:48,880
Speaker 1: what you would know if it was doing? Yeah, yeah,

1123
01:01:49,720 --> 01:01:51,880
Speaker 1: the hands come because he should have a kind of one.

1124
01:01:52,160 --> 01:01:59,120
Speaker 1: I don't know. Maybe come is at home and it's

1125
01:01:59,160 --> 01:02:02,120
Speaker 1: filled out at this point. It's a lot going on

1126
01:02:02,600 --> 01:02:08,880
Speaker 1: that should have changed. Maybe that kind of just you

1127
01:02:08,920 --> 01:02:13,280
Speaker 1: shouldn't change chick over a period. Let's say that's New York.

1128
01:02:13,360 --> 01:02:15,920
Speaker 1: Y'all cannot go and just wash the sheets every damn day.

1129
01:02:15,920 --> 01:02:21,880
Speaker 1: It's active lifestyle, right, I gotta wash machine. Look like

1130
01:02:21,920 --> 01:02:25,040
Speaker 1: I said, it would have been bare mattress. It should

1131
01:02:25,040 --> 01:02:27,040
Speaker 1: have been. It would have to be barren mattress. Like

1132
01:02:27,280 --> 01:02:29,000
Speaker 1: I just washed my beddy. You don't gotta tell me

1133
01:02:29,040 --> 01:02:31,440
Speaker 1: that you just got sex with whoever yesterday, you know

1134
01:02:31,440 --> 01:02:33,480
Speaker 1: what I mean. But you could just say, man, I

1135
01:02:33,520 --> 01:02:36,280
Speaker 1: just threw my my bedding and wash you know what

1136
01:02:36,320 --> 01:02:37,880
Speaker 1: I mean? Excuse me? I don't got no covers of

1137
01:02:38,480 --> 01:02:40,880
Speaker 1: you know what I mean about the count? You said,

1138
01:02:40,920 --> 01:02:43,080
Speaker 1: what My freaky answer that was, so why are you

1139
01:02:43,120 --> 01:02:45,400
Speaker 1: washing the sheets? You had some company, That's what I

1140
01:02:45,400 --> 01:02:47,840
Speaker 1: would saying. You know, I wouldn't even thought that. I

1141
01:02:47,880 --> 01:02:51,000
Speaker 1: would have just thought you were just doing like this thing.

1142
01:02:51,080 --> 01:02:53,560
Speaker 1: It was yesterday because I clean my bedding a lot,

1143
01:02:53,760 --> 01:02:55,960
Speaker 1: like I'll just wake up one name, but like I'm

1144
01:02:55,960 --> 01:02:58,040
Speaker 1: just gonna wash these sheets, like you know what I mean.

1145
01:02:58,440 --> 01:03:00,600
Speaker 1: What if he's then he's got shampoo, win the shower.

1146
01:03:01,720 --> 01:03:04,600
Speaker 1: He would say it said his beard like nigga itself

1147
01:03:04,720 --> 01:03:13,600
Speaker 1: slip like, no, that's my beard, it's your lying here.

1148
01:03:13,720 --> 01:03:16,400
Speaker 1: That's saying like I'm definitely like in the past. Yeah,

1149
01:03:16,400 --> 01:03:18,960
Speaker 1: I definitely was like talking to this guy and went

1150
01:03:19,040 --> 01:03:21,560
Speaker 1: over for the first time and he had all of

1151
01:03:21,600 --> 01:03:26,400
Speaker 1: the CBS women's products in his bathroom. Okay, I'm talking

1152
01:03:26,440 --> 01:03:32,640
Speaker 1: about like from tampons to but I'm the same way too,

1153
01:03:32,640 --> 01:03:36,479
Speaker 1: because I'm very comic like and I'm I'm asked, I said,

1154
01:03:36,560 --> 01:03:38,800
Speaker 1: what is all of this? You have tampons? You have

1155
01:03:39,120 --> 01:03:45,920
Speaker 1: nare you have shampoo? Likely you are like my girlfriend

1156
01:03:46,040 --> 01:03:49,640
Speaker 1: left here that he had to ner just say, oh

1157
01:03:49,800 --> 01:03:53,880
Speaker 1: my family wasn't in town, and so my sister. You know,

1158
01:03:53,920 --> 01:03:58,400
Speaker 1: they were using what's like eight bottles of lube? Different

1159
01:03:59,360 --> 01:04:04,920
Speaker 1: there you used? His mom was, yeah, my mom likes lube.

1160
01:04:05,880 --> 01:04:10,400
Speaker 1: Nikas use the same excuses though that family and ya sister,

1161
01:04:11,240 --> 01:04:15,000
Speaker 1: she'd be staying over here. Sometimes they lie, That's why

1162
01:04:15,000 --> 01:04:23,480
Speaker 1: do they lie? Lie for every day? That's very irritating.

1163
01:04:24,240 --> 01:04:26,240
Speaker 1: Why you tell me it's eleven inches? I got hear

1164
01:04:26,280 --> 01:04:33,040
Speaker 1: it's seven. Girl. If you don't do that, tells you

1165
01:04:33,080 --> 01:04:35,640
Speaker 1: how big his dick is. I'd never believe it. I

1166
01:04:35,680 --> 01:04:38,400
Speaker 1: don't even like those kind of conversations. Yeah, I didn't

1167
01:04:38,440 --> 01:04:42,280
Speaker 1: do it. I don't like that. Don't when men like

1168
01:04:42,400 --> 01:04:45,240
Speaker 1: I don't. I just don't like that. Like I honestly

1169
01:04:45,400 --> 01:04:50,320
Speaker 1: hate women like text me like sexual stuff if we're

1170
01:04:50,320 --> 01:04:55,959
Speaker 1: not on that, like don't feel the baby. I wish

1171
01:04:55,960 --> 01:04:58,040
Speaker 1: you were in the bed with me right now, Like no,

1172
01:04:58,400 --> 01:05:01,520
Speaker 1: you what are you talking about? Why saying that we're

1173
01:05:01,560 --> 01:05:03,960
Speaker 1: just dating like we're just like, it's just it makes

1174
01:05:03,960 --> 01:05:06,240
Speaker 1: me feel so uncomfortable. I don't know why or when

1175
01:05:06,240 --> 01:05:08,800
Speaker 1: they seen a picture of because that takes me off it.

1176
01:05:09,440 --> 01:05:12,480
Speaker 1: I don't like that. I'm not I just don't like it.

1177
01:05:12,920 --> 01:05:19,320
Speaker 1: I don't like it. I got you well you know what,

1178
01:05:19,400 --> 01:05:21,840
Speaker 1: actually I can't. I'm wait a minute pause, you don't

1179
01:05:21,840 --> 01:05:25,000
Speaker 1: like that? How I evaluate I have had in the past.

1180
01:05:25,400 --> 01:05:28,200
Speaker 1: You know a couple of dick picks that Paul was like, okay,

1181
01:05:28,240 --> 01:05:30,000
Speaker 1: cool because I like the guy and we were kind

1182
01:05:30,000 --> 01:05:32,280
Speaker 1: of on that vibe, so it was okay. What I

1183
01:05:32,280 --> 01:05:36,240
Speaker 1: mean like new guys, Like new guys shouldn't say like

1184
01:05:36,400 --> 01:05:38,840
Speaker 1: unless I asked for it, because then I think you

1185
01:05:39,000 --> 01:05:42,080
Speaker 1: have it on your phone already, Like did you just

1186
01:05:42,120 --> 01:05:47,320
Speaker 1: really just say hold on real quick? Like no, what

1187
01:05:47,360 --> 01:05:48,680
Speaker 1: if I had that guy? I ever tried to talk

1188
01:05:48,680 --> 01:05:50,360
Speaker 1: to you and then try to talk to Chanelle also,

1189
01:05:50,440 --> 01:05:53,440
Speaker 1: and then y'all talked about it. That's happened between me

1190
01:05:53,480 --> 01:05:56,960
Speaker 1: and But that does happen between me and my friends

1191
01:05:56,960 --> 01:05:58,760
Speaker 1: all the time. There's a guy that is cool with

1192
01:05:58,800 --> 01:06:01,680
Speaker 1: our whole crew. He's the point where we all homeboyd

1193
01:06:01,760 --> 01:06:04,560
Speaker 1: him right, like he's all of our friends at this point,

1194
01:06:04,640 --> 01:06:06,760
Speaker 1: you know what I mean. But that definitely happens with

1195
01:06:06,800 --> 01:06:11,000
Speaker 1: my friends him at this point. You try to talk

1196
01:06:11,000 --> 01:06:12,840
Speaker 1: to me and this girl, this girl and this girl.

1197
01:06:12,880 --> 01:06:15,280
Speaker 1: You know that we're all friends because when you met

1198
01:06:15,320 --> 01:06:17,320
Speaker 1: me I was with this one when you met her.

1199
01:06:17,520 --> 01:06:19,320
Speaker 1: She was with the other friend in our circle. Like,

1200
01:06:19,400 --> 01:06:22,360
Speaker 1: you know, he got money, he doesn't have money, so

1201
01:06:22,400 --> 01:06:27,440
Speaker 1: that's probably all homeboyd him hung out looking for love

1202
01:06:27,600 --> 01:06:30,120
Speaker 1: and you know he was the nub is where he

1203
01:06:30,160 --> 01:06:33,440
Speaker 1: was doing. Not that I think my friend is better

1204
01:06:33,520 --> 01:06:37,040
Speaker 1: for you than me. No, Niggas don't think like that.

1205
01:06:37,120 --> 01:06:39,800
Speaker 1: Niggas no off jump and look take it from me.

1206
01:06:40,960 --> 01:06:43,040
Speaker 1: They know what they want when they see you up front.

1207
01:06:43,120 --> 01:06:45,920
Speaker 1: Like that's just what it is, alright. So to end

1208
01:06:45,960 --> 01:06:50,480
Speaker 1: the shape which lift service member gave this story, all right,

1209
01:06:50,640 --> 01:06:54,360
Speaker 1: she said, one of my neighbors came across the street

1210
01:06:54,360 --> 01:06:57,360
Speaker 1: when I was young and had her son with her

1211
01:06:57,360 --> 01:07:00,600
Speaker 1: and said that my son says that you guys had

1212
01:07:00,640 --> 01:07:02,800
Speaker 1: sex with each other, and I need to talk to

1213
01:07:02,840 --> 01:07:05,120
Speaker 1: your mother right now to verify whether or not this

1214
01:07:05,200 --> 01:07:08,000
Speaker 1: is true. Now, I had never had sex with him.

1215
01:07:08,000 --> 01:07:10,760
Speaker 1: I was actually still a virgin. But I couldn't believe

1216
01:07:10,800 --> 01:07:13,160
Speaker 1: that he was going around lying on his dick. Wow,

1217
01:07:13,480 --> 01:07:18,680
Speaker 1: did I just said that he had sex with the

1218
01:07:18,680 --> 01:07:23,080
Speaker 1: neighbors with one of us. Oh, and his mom came

1219
01:07:23,120 --> 01:07:28,360
Speaker 1: over and let me talk. Just yeah, he was lying

1220
01:07:28,440 --> 01:07:34,000
Speaker 1: on his underaged little people. That's gross. Eleven year old,

1221
01:07:34,000 --> 01:07:38,120
Speaker 1: they really start that young. I think it was you.

1222
01:07:38,720 --> 01:07:42,880
Speaker 1: I think it was men Sean know who you think

1223
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Speaker 1: it was? Everything? All right? Well you guys will find

1224
01:07:50,680 --> 01:07:54,960
Speaker 1: out next week. Oh yeah, okay, okay, Now before we

1225
01:07:54,960 --> 01:07:56,640
Speaker 1: get out of here, Shanna, let people know where they

1226
01:07:56,640 --> 01:07:59,360
Speaker 1: can find you and what you have coming up. Um

1227
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Speaker 1: well look, um, you can find me on social media

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Speaker 1: all avenues D T h E SHAWNA Brooks s h

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Speaker 1: A U na um and what I have coming up? Look,

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01:08:10,840 --> 01:08:15,040
Speaker 1: I'm quiet. I learned my lesson last year, so um

1231
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Speaker 1: you see me there, I'm there and high I see

1232
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Speaker 1: you when I see hi? All right now, My Instagram

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Speaker 1: n A one channel a Yana one all right list Service. Yes,

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Speaker 1: we are so excited here at lip service to announce

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Speaker 1: that we do have a live show happening in New

1237
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Speaker 1: York City. It goes down March at Carolines, So make

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Speaker 1: sure you go and get your tickets. You can go

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Speaker 1: to carolines dot com to get all that information. It's

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Speaker 1: also penned on my Twitter page, so if you want

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Speaker 1: to find that link, I know g D and LORI

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Speaker 1: yall we've all been posting about it. We're gonna have

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Speaker 1: some very special surprises for y'all, so make sure you

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Speaker 1: get your tickets before or they sell out. We're gonna

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Speaker 1: have a great time and we haven't even announced who's

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Speaker 1: going to be there yet. M