WEBVTT - Kat’s Creating Joy & Amy’s Revisiting Old Wounds 0:00:02.440 --> 0:00:02.640 Good. 0:00:03.160 --> 0:00:04.680 All right, break it down. 0:00:05.320 --> 0:00:08.719 If you ever have feelings that you just won't Amy 0:00:08.840 --> 0:00:12.480 and Cat got your cove and locking m brother, ladies 0:00:12.480 --> 0:00:15.239 and felons, do you just follow an the spirit where 0:00:15.240 --> 0:00:18.400 it's all the front over real stuff to the chill 0:00:18.480 --> 0:00:22.599 stuff and the m But Twayne, sometimes the best thing 0:00:22.720 --> 0:00:27.120 you can do it just stop you feel things. This 0:00:27.280 --> 0:00:28.240 is feeling. 0:00:27.920 --> 0:00:30.920 Things with Amy and Cat. Happy Tuesday. Welcome to feeling things. 0:00:30.960 --> 0:00:31.760 I'm Amy and. 0:00:31.800 --> 0:00:34.320 I'm Cat, and I'm coming in hot with my feeling 0:00:34.320 --> 0:00:37.360 of the day because I'm feeling it at a level. 0:00:38.600 --> 0:00:42.560 Eight oh eight out of ten. Mm, okay, I'm at nine. 0:00:43.080 --> 0:00:45.320 I'm not you're just trying to I'm not trying to 0:00:45.320 --> 0:00:47.880 one of you, I promise. I just really I'm feeling 0:00:48.000 --> 0:00:48.800 I'm feeling. 0:00:48.520 --> 0:00:53.080 It, okay, in it Okay, Well I'm feeling merry and joyful. 0:00:53.200 --> 0:00:56.440 Same me too, the same feelings, the same It's like 0:00:56.560 --> 0:00:58.360 I gave you these feelings. 0:00:58.440 --> 0:01:01.760 I also have a little bit of anxiety, but not 0:01:01.960 --> 0:01:04.880 about this topic at all. It's totally totally separate. But 0:01:04.920 --> 0:01:06.640 it was like old feelings that came up. But we 0:01:06.680 --> 0:01:08.080 can get to that later because I don't want to 0:01:08.120 --> 0:01:10.560 kill the Mary and joyful vibe because I'm with you. 0:01:10.840 --> 0:01:12.679 I watched my first Christmas movie of the season. 0:01:12.760 --> 0:01:13.520 What was it? 0:01:13.520 --> 0:01:15.119 It was on Netflix. It was the old one. It's 0:01:15.160 --> 0:01:17.679 not even new. So it was called The Count the 0:01:17.760 --> 0:01:18.679 Christmas Contract? 0:01:19.160 --> 0:01:20.440 Wait, what was that one about? 0:01:20.800 --> 0:01:23.880 A contract with She took a boy to her hometown 0:01:23.880 --> 0:01:25.600 because her ex boyfriend was bringing a girl and she 0:01:25.600 --> 0:01:27.080 didn't want to show up alone, so she took her 0:01:27.080 --> 0:01:30.080 best friend's brother and they had a contract to do it. 0:01:31.160 --> 0:01:32.040 Did they fall in love? 0:01:32.280 --> 0:01:33.320 You have to watch to find out. 0:01:34.560 --> 0:01:36.000 I think I've seen that, but you know, they all 0:01:36.080 --> 0:01:38.040 run together. It would be really funny if you were 0:01:38.080 --> 0:01:41.880 like I watched Shoot, what's the one? You were? 0:01:42.120 --> 0:01:43.160 Old? Holiday? 0:01:43.280 --> 0:01:46.080 I watched Holiday Harmony. I was like, oh, you watch. 0:01:45.920 --> 0:01:50.640 Your Christmas No, but I did wonder should my boyfriend 0:01:51.160 --> 0:01:53.600 see that scene? I don't know. I want him to 0:01:53.600 --> 0:01:55.200 watch the whole movie because I think the whole movie 0:01:55.240 --> 0:01:57.040 is cute and adorable and awesome. And he does love 0:01:57.240 --> 0:02:00.720 Christmas movies because he started watching him with his daughter. 0:02:00.760 --> 0:02:02.680 I think she really enjoyed them. She liked watching with 0:02:02.720 --> 0:02:04.480 their mom, and then when their mom died, it's like 0:02:04.760 --> 0:02:06.600 he's like, well, I guess I have to step in 0:02:06.720 --> 0:02:10.359 now as the Hallmark Christmas movie Lover and now it's 0:02:10.360 --> 0:02:13.040 something they love to do, which we all watched it 0:02:13.120 --> 0:02:17.120 last night, the Christmas Contract. We watched it her the 0:02:17.240 --> 0:02:20.280 brothers watched the Daughter yea, so it was a it 0:02:20.360 --> 0:02:22.240 was a family affair and it was feeling good and 0:02:22.280 --> 0:02:25.079 like in my kitchen right now, I have my stovetop 0:02:25.680 --> 0:02:26.799 smelly Christmas stuff. 0:02:27.160 --> 0:02:30.880 We need a better name, stovetop smelly Christmas stuff. So 0:02:31.160 --> 0:02:33.200 I want to get to that. But can I answer 0:02:33.240 --> 0:02:36.720 your question that? What was the question should your boyfriend watch? 0:02:36.919 --> 0:02:37.079 Oh? 0:02:37.160 --> 0:02:40.160 Yeah, I already forgot a hundred percent. I feel like 0:02:40.200 --> 0:02:43.560 the whole family should watch. If Patrick's seen it, then 0:02:43.560 --> 0:02:46.520 your boyfriend should definitely have seen the movie that you're in. Okay, 0:02:46.560 --> 0:02:50.639 acting debut, that's the thing to be like, hey guys, so. 0:02:52.120 --> 0:02:54.640 Now this is crazy. It's like the first Christmas we've 0:02:54.680 --> 0:02:56.720 celebrated together. We're really close. I mean I was with 0:02:56.800 --> 0:03:00.440 them last Christmas but we were still new. So now 0:03:00.480 --> 0:03:03.720 that we're like all a lot closer, what do I say, 0:03:03.800 --> 0:03:05.799 Like if we're all gathered around the TV and they're like, 0:03:05.800 --> 0:03:07.919 what are we gonna watch tonight? And I'm like, how 0:03:07.960 --> 0:03:09.640 about the movie I'm in. 0:03:10.120 --> 0:03:12.440 You should just say what about Holliday Harmony? And you say, 0:03:12.440 --> 0:03:14.760 like what it's about, and then you play it and 0:03:14.760 --> 0:03:15.679 then it's a surprise. 0:03:15.800 --> 0:03:17.760 Oh, like they don't they don't know that I'm in it, 0:03:17.840 --> 0:03:20.680 and then my bathroom scene ends up. Okay, well, maybe 0:03:20.720 --> 0:03:23.280 we'll do that and I'll report back. Cow please please 0:03:23.320 --> 0:03:23.640 do that. 0:03:23.760 --> 0:03:27.440 If they don't know already, or if they wouldn't, maybe 0:03:27.480 --> 0:03:28.919 they know if you've been in a Christmas movie. They don't, 0:03:29.000 --> 0:03:31.080 but they don't know what it's called. Right, that would 0:03:31.120 --> 0:03:34.400 be so good. And then you should like film his 0:03:34.600 --> 0:03:36.640 reaction when he sees you on the big screen. 0:03:36.720 --> 0:03:39.560 Mm hmm, okay, I'll report back if I do that. 0:03:40.160 --> 0:03:44.440 But the the merriness and the joyfulness is alive, and well, 0:03:44.480 --> 0:03:46.480 because I think we're tis the season? 0:03:47.080 --> 0:03:49.400 Tis the season? Why didn't even. 0:03:49.200 --> 0:03:52.280 Though there's other feelings happening, I just those are dominating. 0:03:52.320 --> 0:03:54.600 So that's why I'm a nine. It's not just because 0:03:54.640 --> 0:03:55.119 you're in eight. 0:03:55.880 --> 0:04:00.000 It feels like it. So what's the stovetop smelly stuff? 0:04:00.080 --> 0:04:03.760 Well you know about it because we put it in 0:04:03.760 --> 0:04:09.760 our newsletter, But thank you for asking, just for podcast listeners. 0:04:09.920 --> 0:04:11.520 It is something that was in our newsletter that went 0:04:11.520 --> 0:04:13.120 out last Friday with our merch stuff. 0:04:15.120 --> 0:04:16.800 I wonder who puts the newsletter together. 0:04:17.000 --> 0:04:20.520 You do, which is cute for you to act like 0:04:20.560 --> 0:04:23.719 you didn't know what it was. But it smells so good. 0:04:23.839 --> 0:04:27.240 It's like Christmas in a pot. 0:04:27.560 --> 0:04:31.360 I actually made it last year, the year before. I 0:04:31.360 --> 0:04:32.640 remember I went to the store and got all the 0:04:32.640 --> 0:04:34.800 stuff and Patrick was like, why don't you just light 0:04:34.880 --> 0:04:39.120 a candle because it's different the same thing, and it's 0:04:39.240 --> 0:04:40.720 you're creating a vibe. 0:04:40.880 --> 0:04:44.400 Yeah, it's cranberries, it's cinnamon sticks, it's cloves, it's a 0:04:44.480 --> 0:04:50.320 sliced up orange, it's rosemary, it's water in a pot stove, 0:04:50.600 --> 0:04:53.839 and you you you light it. We had we had 0:04:53.880 --> 0:04:55.800 all of this in our newsletter. So this is why 0:04:55.800 --> 0:04:57.720 you need to sign up for the newsletter. Not only 0:04:57.800 --> 0:04:59.919 do we have little nuggets like this, which is the 0:05:00.000 --> 0:05:03.200 week before you send out your potato souper recipe, so 0:05:03.240 --> 0:05:05.560 you just like, never know what you're gonna get. We 0:05:05.640 --> 0:05:07.800 have things that Cat and I are reading the Sure 0:05:08.080 --> 0:05:10.919 Things were loving before you put your Q tips. 0:05:11.320 --> 0:05:13.279 Yes, you never know what you're gonna get. 0:05:13.480 --> 0:05:16.200 Well, those Q tips to be fair or clutch or 0:05:16.240 --> 0:05:18.960 a game changer. Before I found those Q tips, I 0:05:19.040 --> 0:05:22.680 only bought Q tips where it was round on both sides. Yeah, 0:05:22.760 --> 0:05:25.799 I did not know people made a Q tip round 0:05:25.800 --> 0:05:28.640 on one side, pointy on the other. It's good for 0:05:28.680 --> 0:05:30.400 if you're trying to clean up your nails. It's good 0:05:30.400 --> 0:05:32.479 if you're trying to clean up makeup around your nose, 0:05:32.640 --> 0:05:37.440 in your nose, in your eyes, your eyebrows, on your legs. 0:05:37.480 --> 0:05:38.760 Don't in your ear. 0:05:38.839 --> 0:05:40.680 Yeah, the pointy part in your ear is a little rough. 0:05:40.720 --> 0:05:44.400 But don't sleep on those special Q tips. So I 0:05:44.440 --> 0:05:46.919 stand by that addition to the newsletter, and I'm saying 0:05:47.960 --> 0:05:49.400 so you never know what you're gonna get. And then 0:05:49.440 --> 0:05:52.760 on Friday, in our newsletter, we also had our merch 0:05:53.240 --> 0:05:56.559 which is so exciting. We'll link everything in the bio. 0:05:56.680 --> 0:05:58.760 If you are not on our newsletter yet, you can 0:05:58.800 --> 0:06:01.320 go sign up in the not the bio. 0:06:01.839 --> 0:06:06.400 The it's also in our Instagram bio. 0:06:06.480 --> 0:06:09.560 Yeah, which is Feeling Things podcast. But sign up for 0:06:09.600 --> 0:06:11.680 our newsletter. But we'll also link to our merch in 0:06:11.720 --> 0:06:15.040 the show notes and I'll link to or I'll copy 0:06:15.080 --> 0:06:20.279 and paste the Christmas on the Stove Smelly Stuff recipe 0:06:20.760 --> 0:06:27.200 stovetop Christmas stovetop simmers, stovetop pop pourri. I just don't 0:06:27.240 --> 0:06:28.880 like the word. I don't. I don't really like the 0:06:28.880 --> 0:06:32.800 word potpourri. And ever happens poop, I don't know pop 0:06:33.440 --> 0:06:37.080 potpourri speak enough? 0:06:37.279 --> 0:06:38.479 Can I tell that story? 0:06:38.560 --> 0:06:39.599 What story for you? 0:06:39.680 --> 0:06:40.200 On the phone? 0:06:40.279 --> 0:06:40.640 Sure? 0:06:42.440 --> 0:06:45.719 Amy, just add a phone call on speakerphone so I 0:06:45.720 --> 0:06:48.479 could hear the person she was talking to. And she 0:06:48.640 --> 0:06:51.559 answered the phone normal. She said hello, and the lady 0:06:51.600 --> 0:06:53.960 was like, is the samey? That wasn't her accent, but 0:06:54.000 --> 0:06:56.880 she had an accent and she said something and then 0:06:56.960 --> 0:06:58.840 Amy changed her accent. 0:06:59.520 --> 0:07:02.240 Yeah, lady, But I didn't even know I was doing that. 0:07:02.320 --> 0:07:07.159 All of a sudden, we heard you go hello. I 0:07:07.200 --> 0:07:08.279 don't know why I did that. 0:07:08.640 --> 0:07:10.880 I really don't. I didn't even know why. Y'all were 0:07:10.960 --> 0:07:13.160 laughing at me. And then I thought, okay, well that 0:07:13.280 --> 0:07:18.320 tracks like sometimes I just you know, conformed my environment 0:07:18.680 --> 0:07:20.600 because I don't know. 0:07:20.960 --> 0:07:23.480 It's just like switch all of a sudden. I was like, 0:07:23.680 --> 0:07:24.720 that was funny. 0:07:24.920 --> 0:07:26.240 I mean, I know it drug out a little bit. 0:07:26.280 --> 0:07:32.640 I was like, hello, hello, but I mean I didn't 0:07:32.680 --> 0:07:34.040 do it with other words, right. 0:07:34.040 --> 0:07:35.480 No, Then you went back to normal. 0:07:35.560 --> 0:07:38.360 When I was saying this, that would be awkward. Yeah, 0:07:38.480 --> 0:07:40.800 I think just right away. I don't know. Is my 0:07:40.840 --> 0:07:43.000 first time talking about person. I was a little nervous, 0:07:43.240 --> 0:07:44.120 So I think I'm just just. 0:07:44.120 --> 0:07:49.000 Like, oh, hello, that's how you did it. 0:07:49.720 --> 0:07:51.960 Yeah, it's the right, missus doubtfire. 0:07:52.320 --> 0:07:55.040 Hello, can I shock you? 0:07:55.560 --> 0:07:56.840 Have you never watched that movie? 0:07:57.080 --> 0:07:58.920 Never seen it? Yeah? You? 0:07:58.960 --> 0:08:03.280 Oh, so many movies you've never seen. It blows my mind, 0:08:04.000 --> 0:08:06.760 Like have you seen elf y? Oh, don't act like 0:08:06.800 --> 0:08:11.160 that's a crazy question, because that's like more recent, quintessential 0:08:11.200 --> 0:08:13.720 Christmas movie, like you have to watch it. And then 0:08:13.760 --> 0:08:16.520 there's more like low key type Christmas movies like While 0:08:16.520 --> 0:08:20.800 you were Sleeping That sounds scary. No, it was Sandra Bullock. Oh, 0:08:20.880 --> 0:08:23.080 never seen and he gets hit by the train and 0:08:23.120 --> 0:08:25.840 then oh, you need to watch that. You would love 0:08:25.880 --> 0:08:28.160 it. It was my mom's favorite Christmas movie. 0:08:27.960 --> 0:08:30.360 So okay on our list this year. 0:08:30.600 --> 0:08:32.280 Added to the list with all the other movies were 0:08:32.280 --> 0:08:34.040 supposed to be watching. I think there was something else 0:08:34.080 --> 0:08:35.440 we were supposed to watch, and I had two weeks 0:08:35.440 --> 0:08:37.360 to watch it, and I think the past. Yeah, I'm 0:08:37.360 --> 0:08:39.760 not watching it. I'm just sorry. I don't want to. 0:08:40.080 --> 0:08:42.760 I mean, I get it. I don't think you I 0:08:42.800 --> 0:08:44.400 get you know. I don't want to watch it again 0:08:44.520 --> 0:08:47.360 right now currently where I am in my life. Yes, 0:08:47.880 --> 0:08:50.720 there is a there's a cat crowd. Cat's asking if 0:08:50.760 --> 0:08:54.920 there's a live action there was. I love Mulan, probably 0:08:54.920 --> 0:08:56.320 one of my favorite Disney movies. I don't want to 0:08:56.320 --> 0:08:57.160 go see the live action. 0:08:57.600 --> 0:08:59.480 Live action doesn't make me want to watch it anymore 0:08:59.559 --> 0:09:04.920 or less. No, I just thought it not my things. 0:09:04.960 --> 0:09:07.400 So okay, you're feeling the. 0:09:07.440 --> 0:09:11.040 Joy and the Okay, okay, so the marry, the marry 0:09:11.080 --> 0:09:15.200 and joyful, the merry joyful. So I feel like I'm 0:09:15.280 --> 0:09:17.280 telling myself this. So I'll check it out with my 0:09:17.320 --> 0:09:19.959 actual therapist soon. But I feel like I've still I've 0:09:19.960 --> 0:09:21.560 been in this stage for a while, which I've talked 0:09:21.559 --> 0:09:24.040 about where I'm just like there's a lot of things 0:09:24.080 --> 0:09:25.959 that are not in my control and I'm there's nothing 0:09:26.000 --> 0:09:27.440 I can do at all. I'm just in like a 0:09:27.480 --> 0:09:32.440 waiting stage. And it is not just waiting for the thing, 0:09:32.520 --> 0:09:35.200 but it's also like I can't do a lot of 0:09:35.240 --> 0:09:37.080 things that I normally would be doing right now. 0:09:38.160 --> 0:09:38.520 I e. 0:09:39.240 --> 0:09:43.240 Go on trips, plan things, fun things like that, And 0:09:43.840 --> 0:09:47.320 because I can't do that, I can't distract myself. My 0:09:47.360 --> 0:09:51.080 favorite way to distract myself is planning a trip, even 0:09:51.080 --> 0:09:52.320 if I'm not going on a trip, even if it's 0:09:52.360 --> 0:09:54.679 in the future. I can't do that right now. So 0:09:55.240 --> 0:09:58.079 I have been trying to find little ways to create 0:09:58.480 --> 0:10:01.199 joy and excitement in my life while this other thing 0:10:01.280 --> 0:10:05.599 is happening in the background. And so I won what 0:10:05.720 --> 0:10:07.040 on my stay cation. 0:10:07.679 --> 0:10:09.679 I'm on stay cation. 0:10:09.400 --> 0:10:12.640 A couple of weeks ago, and it was amazing, And 0:10:13.559 --> 0:10:18.040 I highly recommend doing that, especially if you have lived 0:10:18.080 --> 0:10:20.480 somewhere for a while and there are so many things 0:10:20.520 --> 0:10:23.720 that feel normal to you because you live there, but 0:10:23.840 --> 0:10:25.800 you've just never done them because you live there, you 0:10:25.840 --> 0:10:28.520 know what I mean. Yeah, And then so I went 0:10:28.559 --> 0:10:32.000 on a Sacasian and then I decorated for Christmas full 0:10:32.040 --> 0:10:36.440 decorated for Christmas the day after Halloween, two days after Halloween, 0:10:36.880 --> 0:10:40.360 November second, and I'm on it man, Yes, and so 0:10:40.880 --> 0:10:45.120 I feel a lot of marrying from my Christmas, but 0:10:45.280 --> 0:10:48.800 joyful from like these things. We went to places in 0:10:48.840 --> 0:10:51.560 this city that I grew up in that I never 0:10:51.600 --> 0:10:52.679 have done before. 0:10:53.880 --> 0:10:56.360 And I will say some advice like, if people are able, 0:10:56.480 --> 0:10:58.040 you may just have to do it on a weekend, 0:10:58.200 --> 0:10:59.599 you may have to work the full work week and 0:10:59.679 --> 0:11:02.400 then you can do a staycation on the weekend. But 0:11:02.840 --> 0:11:05.880 you and Patrick, oh, you took time off, like we 0:11:05.880 --> 0:11:08.480 we even altered our podcast schedule because you're like, hey, 0:11:08.520 --> 0:11:10.480 I'm really trying to have off as if I was 0:11:10.640 --> 0:11:13.439 actually on vacation and in another town. It was almost 0:11:13.520 --> 0:11:17.120 like you were leaving, but you weren't. And then y'all 0:11:17.200 --> 0:11:19.120 even had your mom like drive you around. 0:11:20.160 --> 0:11:21.760 Okay, so we went to. 0:11:22.400 --> 0:11:25.640 But so but I'm I'm I'm giving people pro tips 0:11:25.679 --> 0:11:28.120 of like how can you make it feel like save 0:11:28.240 --> 0:11:34.080 money you're saving but doing more And and you took 0:11:34.080 --> 0:11:37.200 off work and like you you still got your work 0:11:37.240 --> 0:11:37.760 done of. 0:11:37.800 --> 0:11:38.840 Work and you called your mom. 0:11:39.240 --> 0:11:41.960 Yeah, so I know not everybody has that option, but 0:11:42.000 --> 0:11:44.120 I'm just make I'm painting a picture that it wasn't 0:11:44.160 --> 0:11:47.480 like just you know, a Saturday or Sunday, Like y'all 0:11:47.480 --> 0:11:50.400 really were intentional about it and made it a whole thing, 0:11:50.400 --> 0:11:53.000 And I think that helped make the experience. Like you 0:11:53.120 --> 0:11:55.920 got your work done because Patrick also has responsibilities. But 0:11:55.960 --> 0:11:58.679 since you planned ahead, you're like, oh, let's look at 0:11:58.679 --> 0:12:00.600 the calendar and let's figure out how can make this work, 0:12:00.640 --> 0:12:03.000 just in case anybody else has the flexibility to do that. 0:12:03.800 --> 0:12:06.680 I feel like that helped make the experience. 0:12:06.320 --> 0:12:09.040 One hundred percent because much more. Yeah, we were at home, 0:12:09.080 --> 0:12:11.240 but we also weren't doing a lot of things with 0:12:11.360 --> 0:12:14.120 other people, so we were just spending a lot of 0:12:14.120 --> 0:12:18.160 time together as if we were on vacation. And my 0:12:18.240 --> 0:12:22.720 mom didn't just drive us, she used like your uber. 0:12:22.920 --> 0:12:26.480 So we went to Errington Vineyards, which is a vineyard 0:12:27.800 --> 0:12:31.360 maybe twenty five minutes from our house. I'd only been 0:12:31.360 --> 0:12:33.840 once ten years ago, and Patrick had never been, and 0:12:33.880 --> 0:12:36.440 it's close by. Why wouldn't we do that? So on Friday, 0:12:36.840 --> 0:12:38.800 that's what we did all days. We packed a picnic 0:12:38.920 --> 0:12:41.480 and then he went on a run with me outside. 0:12:41.480 --> 0:12:44.720 He has never done that before. And then we packed 0:12:44.720 --> 0:12:48.760 a picnic and went We ubered there and it was 0:12:48.800 --> 0:12:53.360 like twenty dollars, maybe fifteen twenty dollars. We looked for 0:12:53.440 --> 0:12:57.400 ubers and we were getting ready to leave. Just guess 0:12:57.400 --> 0:12:59.400 how much an uber was at that time. 0:12:59.440 --> 0:13:01.959 It was like four sixty bucks. 0:13:02.280 --> 0:13:03.240 Eighty dollars. 0:13:03.280 --> 0:13:05.680 Oh, oh my god, I mean I was guessing high 0:13:05.760 --> 0:13:07.960 on the sixty just because you eighty dollars acted like 0:13:08.000 --> 0:13:08.760 it was gonna be a lot. 0:13:08.800 --> 0:13:10.839 So I texted my mom when I was like, hey, Mom, 0:13:10.920 --> 0:13:16.679 what are you doing? So she was yeah, she was 0:13:16.880 --> 0:13:18.839 well she lives right there too. I guess you live 0:13:18.880 --> 0:13:23.880 over there too, and she picked us up. It was 0:13:24.360 --> 0:13:28.160 five stars best Uber ride. She showed up with. She 0:13:28.240 --> 0:13:32.800 had made mummy dogs, which are hot dogs wrapped in 0:13:33.040 --> 0:13:35.680 soured dough bread. She made them for my nephew and 0:13:35.720 --> 0:13:38.480 she was bringing them to him, so she brought us 0:13:38.520 --> 0:13:41.200 to It was literally like we were in on vacation. 0:13:41.520 --> 0:13:44.000 We get into her car our Uber and she's like, 0:13:44.040 --> 0:13:46.680 I brought you guys, waters and I have two mummy 0:13:46.720 --> 0:13:50.040 dogs for you. She even packaged up individual mustard and 0:13:50.120 --> 0:13:53.920 ketchup packets rush, so we had a snack on the 0:13:53.960 --> 0:13:57.280 way home. So free Uber with snacks from my mother. 0:13:57.360 --> 0:13:58.520 Thank you, Jody. 0:13:58.800 --> 0:14:00.480 I mean that would make me marry and joyful. 0:14:00.600 --> 0:14:00.760 Yeah. 0:14:00.760 --> 0:14:03.240 And then also I will say, ever since we've gotten 0:14:03.800 --> 0:14:05.840 the Mercha gear a vibe, I know you have this 0:14:05.880 --> 0:14:08.400 whole experience, so you're like, you know, got this energy 0:14:08.440 --> 0:14:11.120 about you. But even living in our sweat set for 0:14:11.200 --> 0:14:15.079 four days, so it's a hoodie and sweatpants and cats 0:14:15.440 --> 0:14:18.040 living in it, and I feel like your energy around 0:14:18.040 --> 0:14:19.560 it is so good. 0:14:19.720 --> 0:14:22.280 Upset. As soon as I picked it up, I texted you, 0:14:22.720 --> 0:14:24.800 I will say, if you're looking for something, I love 0:14:24.840 --> 0:14:27.800 a comfy anything, and I've been looking for a lot 0:14:27.840 --> 0:14:30.640 more comfy sets and I've been ordering them from different places. 0:14:30.640 --> 0:14:33.080 Half of them I have sent back. I've not taken 0:14:33.080 --> 0:14:35.040 this off for I took it off to wash, I 0:14:35.080 --> 0:14:39.000 will say that. And it still fits perfecto after I 0:14:39.120 --> 0:14:39.360 washed it. 0:14:39.480 --> 0:14:41.680 And it's a matching hoodie with sweatpants, and it has 0:14:41.720 --> 0:14:44.520 like a feeling things like circle on the hoodie and 0:14:44.560 --> 0:14:46.760 then it also has it on the pants too, which 0:14:46.800 --> 0:14:49.840 people can go look. They might be if you're watching 0:14:49.880 --> 0:14:51.480 on YouTube, you can see it, but if you're listening 0:14:51.560 --> 0:14:53.680 on the podcast, then go check it out. But I 0:14:53.720 --> 0:14:57.120 feel like a sweat set has made you happy. Your 0:14:57.160 --> 0:15:00.040 staycation has made you happy. And then I think, I 0:15:00.040 --> 0:15:02.600 think the excitement of what you have that you're talking 0:15:02.720 --> 0:15:06.360 you have going on in the background, Like Kat and 0:15:06.360 --> 0:15:08.480 I both have things happening in our life that we're 0:15:08.480 --> 0:15:13.480 not talking about really publicly. But I think your situation 0:15:13.600 --> 0:15:15.560 is rounding a corner where it's kind of getting exciting. 0:15:15.880 --> 0:15:19.040 We're getting good news and we're getting closer versus we're 0:15:19.080 --> 0:15:21.000 just like we don't know what's going to happen kind 0:15:21.000 --> 0:15:21.400 of thing. 0:15:21.520 --> 0:15:26.280 Whereas my situation is bringing up like good it's a 0:15:26.280 --> 0:15:27.960 good reminder of how two things can be true at 0:15:27.960 --> 0:15:30.320 the same time, because I do feel this excitement and 0:15:30.440 --> 0:15:33.800 marry and joy towards this season. I love this time 0:15:33.840 --> 0:15:38.240 of year and I want to go all in on that, 0:15:38.360 --> 0:15:41.200 especially since I have my kids and then I have 0:15:41.280 --> 0:15:43.960 now this other family that I get to celebrate with. 0:15:44.640 --> 0:15:48.920 But side by side with that, I have this other 0:15:49.000 --> 0:15:52.920 thing going on that is a lot, but it's not 0:15:53.120 --> 0:15:55.400 as overwhelming, I think, as it would be if I 0:15:55.440 --> 0:15:58.400 hadn't experienced something similar before. So it's sort of great 0:15:58.480 --> 0:16:02.720 because it's not my first rodeo. You know. However, today 0:16:03.000 --> 0:16:06.400 literally I had to do something with regarding like finances 0:16:06.440 --> 0:16:10.280 and logging into stuff and I didn't want to do it, 0:16:10.840 --> 0:16:14.080 and I felt this like uneasiness in my stomach. And 0:16:14.120 --> 0:16:15.800 I used to get this thing in my throat with 0:16:15.840 --> 0:16:18.400 my finances, like anytime I had to address it or 0:16:18.400 --> 0:16:23.440 look at a spreadsheet or numbers or anything, and I 0:16:23.480 --> 0:16:25.920 felt some of that stuff come up again, and I 0:16:25.960 --> 0:16:28.480 was like, oh, I thought I dealt with this, like 0:16:28.520 --> 0:16:31.280 we had graduated and I now know how to log 0:16:31.320 --> 0:16:35.200 into stuff and I don't get queasy about it. And 0:16:35.280 --> 0:16:38.080 I had to go log in, and it really was 0:16:38.120 --> 0:16:41.800 to check something. Normally I maybe would be excited about it, 0:16:42.400 --> 0:16:45.520 but all those old feelings came back. But I just 0:16:45.560 --> 0:16:48.920 had to power through and I didn't let it overwhelm 0:16:48.960 --> 0:16:51.640 me or stop me. Well, I didn't really have a choice, 0:16:52.000 --> 0:16:53.320 but I think back in the day, I would have 0:16:53.360 --> 0:16:55.920 found a way to escape it or delegate it or 0:16:55.960 --> 0:16:58.360 figure out. But I was like, nope, just log in, 0:16:58.640 --> 0:17:02.760 get the information, figure it out, and move on. And 0:17:02.840 --> 0:17:06.320 so to anybody else, if like something comes up that 0:17:06.400 --> 0:17:11.080 you haven't felt in a couple of years and you think, well, shoot, 0:17:11.240 --> 0:17:13.440 I've done all this work and I was feeling empowered 0:17:13.480 --> 0:17:16.480 and I've even talked about how much more confident I 0:17:16.520 --> 0:17:18.040 feel about it and how I don't get that lump 0:17:18.080 --> 0:17:19.879 in my throat anymore. And then it comes back. So 0:17:19.960 --> 0:17:22.840 then you feel like, oh, does this mean I'm going backwards? 0:17:23.320 --> 0:17:26.400 And I guess maybe it could depending on your situation. 0:17:26.560 --> 0:17:29.280 Like it makes me think of eating disorders and even 0:17:30.080 --> 0:17:33.320 you know, alcoholics and if they're in recovery or whatnot. 0:17:33.680 --> 0:17:36.720 And you said something about recovery when we were talking 0:17:36.720 --> 0:17:38.959 about eating disorders, and you were like, that's why they 0:17:39.000 --> 0:17:54.439 call it recovery. You said something about recovery when we 0:17:54.440 --> 0:17:56.640 were talking about eating disorders, and you were like, that's 0:17:56.680 --> 0:17:58.520 why they call it recovery. 0:17:59.000 --> 0:17:59.920 That about recovered. 0:18:00.160 --> 0:18:04.720 You're never recovered. It's always there. And so looking at 0:18:04.720 --> 0:18:07.080 my financial situation kind of like how I look at 0:18:07.240 --> 0:18:10.359 eating disorder recovery, I was like, oh, that makes sense, 0:18:10.480 --> 0:18:12.720 Like there is some sort of thing that's in me 0:18:12.920 --> 0:18:16.000 and it may pop up next year, it may pop 0:18:16.160 --> 0:18:18.040 up next month, it might go away and pop up 0:18:18.040 --> 0:18:20.479 in five years, like it may be something that is 0:18:20.520 --> 0:18:23.880 always within me. But it was also cool to see 0:18:23.920 --> 0:18:27.760 that I just take the next move into the do 0:18:27.880 --> 0:18:30.160 the next thing and the next thing, and then while 0:18:30.359 --> 0:18:34.520 it was done and the pain was minimal, whereas I 0:18:34.520 --> 0:18:37.160 if I had I don't know, the word that's coming 0:18:37.200 --> 0:18:39.000 to mind is to come like if I had given 0:18:39.080 --> 0:18:42.400 it to the all the anxiety that was coming up, 0:18:43.240 --> 0:18:46.359 then I could have prolonged that whole process and it 0:18:46.400 --> 0:18:47.720 would have made it more dreadful. 0:18:48.280 --> 0:18:49.959 Yeah, well I think that that's growth. 0:18:50.080 --> 0:18:53.960 Yeah, even though it felt like backwards it's like right, 0:18:54.160 --> 0:18:55.639 it was like backwards, but growth. 0:18:56.480 --> 0:18:58.199 This is good that you're saying this because a lot 0:18:58.240 --> 0:19:01.600 of people this happens all the time. Where I thought 0:19:01.600 --> 0:19:04.880 I got over this, I thought I worked through this, 0:19:05.000 --> 0:19:07.480 I thought this was an issue for me anymore, and 0:19:07.640 --> 0:19:09.840