1 00:00:00,520 --> 00:00:02,880 Speaker 1: Calm Down with Aaron and Chrissa is a production of 2 00:00:02,960 --> 00:00:12,560 Speaker 1: I Heart Radio Season Change, People Change. There's a song 3 00:00:12,960 --> 00:00:14,440 Speaker 1: I need you to sing, end of the Road by 4 00:00:14,480 --> 00:00:16,479 Speaker 1: Boys to Men. That's the song that comes to mind 5 00:00:16,520 --> 00:00:19,279 Speaker 1: this week. Welcome everybody to the Calm Down Podcast. We 6 00:00:19,400 --> 00:00:21,680 Speaker 1: only have thirty minutes, and my voice is going out 7 00:00:21,720 --> 00:00:24,959 Speaker 1: because I have been talking a lot about all the 8 00:00:25,120 --> 00:00:29,560 Speaker 1: ship that's happening this week in the NFL in the broadcast, 9 00:00:29,920 --> 00:00:33,360 Speaker 1: Oh my god, Lions and Tigers and bears, Oh my, 10 00:00:33,560 --> 00:00:36,040 Speaker 1: the Seahawks are gone forever. Aaron Rodgers is back in 11 00:00:36,080 --> 00:00:38,680 Speaker 1: Green Bay, Tom Brady is back on the field, and Aaron, 12 00:00:38,760 --> 00:00:41,720 Speaker 1: we have got to get you some men in the booth. Sister, 13 00:00:41,920 --> 00:00:45,840 Speaker 1: where do you want to begin? I mean man ABC 14 00:00:46,600 --> 00:00:49,320 Speaker 1: uh yeah, I need all the men in the booth, 15 00:00:49,400 --> 00:00:51,800 Speaker 1: women in the booth, all the booth. How are we doing? 16 00:00:52,120 --> 00:00:54,240 Speaker 1: First of all, you're are you under the weather? What 17 00:00:54,320 --> 00:00:59,240 Speaker 1: do you got? You've got the hot delight love someone tonight. 18 00:00:59,720 --> 00:01:02,960 Speaker 1: This voice normally would be from one from parting, but 19 00:01:03,000 --> 00:01:04,960 Speaker 1: it wasn't from parting the other one. It would be 20 00:01:05,000 --> 00:01:06,720 Speaker 1: as if I was getting sick, but I'm not sick. 21 00:01:06,760 --> 00:01:09,280 Speaker 1: COVID free you took a test yesterday. I've just had 22 00:01:09,319 --> 00:01:12,320 Speaker 1: this nagging cough that's now making me horse. But here 23 00:01:12,360 --> 00:01:16,640 Speaker 1: we are speaking of horses or Broncos Russell Wilson. It's 24 00:01:16,640 --> 00:01:19,360 Speaker 1: gonna be married to see him in the Uni, great Uni, 25 00:01:19,440 --> 00:01:21,640 Speaker 1: by the way, but gonna be weird to see him. 26 00:01:21,720 --> 00:01:24,560 Speaker 1: And you know, Go Broncos doesn't quite roll off the 27 00:01:24,640 --> 00:01:27,560 Speaker 1: tongue like go Hawks does. But yeah, this has been 28 00:01:27,600 --> 00:01:30,520 Speaker 1: and what's he's gonna be? What's gonna be his thing 29 00:01:30,640 --> 00:01:34,240 Speaker 1: after instead of the Go Hawks? What is it? Go Broncos? 30 00:01:34,240 --> 00:01:36,920 Speaker 1: What is it? Broncos is two syllables? Hawks is one. 31 00:01:36,959 --> 00:01:38,720 Speaker 1: You've got to make it one syllable unless he says 32 00:01:38,720 --> 00:01:40,960 Speaker 1: getting out. But again, maybe it'll be let me see 33 00:01:40,959 --> 00:01:45,080 Speaker 1: you one two steps. I don't know. The possibilities are endless. 34 00:01:45,400 --> 00:01:49,000 Speaker 1: It has been a crazy week, as everybody knows. The headlines. 35 00:01:49,000 --> 00:01:51,480 Speaker 1: Now Tom Brady is back in Tampa and we spoke 36 00:01:51,520 --> 00:01:53,760 Speaker 1: about it. If you guys haven't heard the pregame, it's 37 00:01:53,760 --> 00:01:56,760 Speaker 1: a little precursory conversation Aaron and I have prior to 38 00:01:56,800 --> 00:02:00,520 Speaker 1: doing the full podcast, but we was sort of dabbled 39 00:02:00,560 --> 00:02:04,280 Speaker 1: in the conversation over there on Tom Brady Aaron sent 40 00:02:04,400 --> 00:02:08,280 Speaker 1: me in all caps texts saying thank god after a 41 00:02:08,320 --> 00:02:10,639 Speaker 1: week where she was involved in a lot of headlines. 42 00:02:10,680 --> 00:02:12,840 Speaker 1: As far as her teammates leaving the booth, we will 43 00:02:12,840 --> 00:02:15,359 Speaker 1: get to that in a second. But Tom Brady, let's 44 00:02:15,400 --> 00:02:19,840 Speaker 1: start with the positive here is coming back your one 45 00:02:19,960 --> 00:02:24,160 Speaker 1: word to sum up how you feel about this? Yeah, 46 00:02:24,400 --> 00:02:26,960 Speaker 1: that works. It's just good for football, it is. It's 47 00:02:26,960 --> 00:02:29,160 Speaker 1: good that he's back. I was gonna ask you this. 48 00:02:29,440 --> 00:02:33,000 Speaker 1: We saw Jalen Ramsey's reaction and what he posted on 49 00:02:33,080 --> 00:02:37,080 Speaker 1: Instagram about you know, playing Tom and everything, and what 50 00:02:37,120 --> 00:02:39,000 Speaker 1: do you think other players thought? What do you think 51 00:02:39,040 --> 00:02:42,160 Speaker 1: They're one word reaction was when the news broke yesterday 52 00:02:42,160 --> 00:02:44,440 Speaker 1: that he was coming back. Well, well, I wish that 53 00:02:44,480 --> 00:02:45,960 Speaker 1: the news so I saw. I told you I saw 54 00:02:46,040 --> 00:02:49,239 Speaker 1: Julian Edelman the night before restaurant at a restaurant, and 55 00:02:49,280 --> 00:02:50,959 Speaker 1: then the next day the news came out that Brady 56 00:02:51,000 --> 00:02:52,560 Speaker 1: was coming back. Well, we gotta get Jewels on the 57 00:02:52,560 --> 00:02:55,800 Speaker 1: show because Julian will have all kinds of comments about this. 58 00:02:55,880 --> 00:02:58,520 Speaker 1: But I would imagine players think one of two things. 59 00:02:58,560 --> 00:03:01,799 Speaker 1: His own teammates are like, let's fucking go, and then 60 00:03:01,880 --> 00:03:03,720 Speaker 1: any other guy that has to face him as like, 61 00:03:03,840 --> 00:03:07,720 Speaker 1: of course he's coming back, and I never thought he 62 00:03:07,800 --> 00:03:10,160 Speaker 1: was actually going to leave, and that you know, didn't 63 00:03:10,960 --> 00:03:13,120 Speaker 1: in that thing that he wrote on Instagram, he never 64 00:03:13,160 --> 00:03:15,880 Speaker 1: said the word retire, which you know, you know him 65 00:03:15,919 --> 00:03:19,120 Speaker 1: way better than I do. And I just can't imagine 66 00:03:19,160 --> 00:03:22,760 Speaker 1: a guy like that going out when a he wasn't hurt, 67 00:03:22,840 --> 00:03:25,400 Speaker 1: he still had a team with a bunch of studs 68 00:03:25,440 --> 00:03:28,240 Speaker 1: offensively and defensively that he could build around. And now 69 00:03:28,320 --> 00:03:32,720 Speaker 1: this NFC is a little bit easier to get through, 70 00:03:32,840 --> 00:03:35,000 Speaker 1: and now get nothing's easy to get through in the NFL, 71 00:03:35,040 --> 00:03:37,240 Speaker 1: of course, but that a f C and NFC is 72 00:03:37,240 --> 00:03:39,280 Speaker 1: a little bit more balanced now in terms of talent. 73 00:03:39,400 --> 00:03:42,360 Speaker 1: So I just can't imagine him leaving. But he's back, 74 00:03:42,360 --> 00:03:44,920 Speaker 1: and that's great for you who's on the field and 75 00:03:44,920 --> 00:03:52,280 Speaker 1: and covers him regularly and fabulous season. Yes please and 76 00:03:52,880 --> 00:03:58,920 Speaker 1: for three years go just go, let's go again. I am. 77 00:03:58,960 --> 00:04:00,960 Speaker 1: I love it so much. You know, I'm still investing 78 00:04:01,000 --> 00:04:03,440 Speaker 1: because when you're forty three years old and you still 79 00:04:03,480 --> 00:04:06,160 Speaker 1: feel like you can do things, I mean, selfishly talking 80 00:04:06,200 --> 00:04:09,080 Speaker 1: about myself, it's fun to cover somebody that's older and 81 00:04:09,160 --> 00:04:13,520 Speaker 1: pushing the limits and surprising people and I'm just excited 82 00:04:13,560 --> 00:04:15,640 Speaker 1: for all the things you know that's going to happen. 83 00:04:15,760 --> 00:04:18,760 Speaker 1: I can't wait for another Rams Bucks matchup. Are we 84 00:04:18,800 --> 00:04:22,279 Speaker 1: gonna get Packers Bucks again? Like it's just good. It's 85 00:04:22,320 --> 00:04:25,160 Speaker 1: good for football, good, good for the NFC. It was 86 00:04:25,200 --> 00:04:27,359 Speaker 1: when Tiger came back, and even like winning the Masters 87 00:04:27,400 --> 00:04:31,520 Speaker 1: in two thousand nine, wearing seeing that red polo on 88 00:04:31,560 --> 00:04:36,039 Speaker 1: a Sunday is good for golf and it's just number 89 00:04:36,120 --> 00:04:38,080 Speaker 1: twelve out on the field on Sunday is good for 90 00:04:38,120 --> 00:04:40,560 Speaker 1: the game of football. And this brings up the point 91 00:04:40,640 --> 00:04:42,640 Speaker 1: with everything that was happening in baseball be my dad 92 00:04:42,640 --> 00:04:44,640 Speaker 1: and I were watching it a lot, with the you know, 93 00:04:44,760 --> 00:04:47,919 Speaker 1: holding out and the different you know negotiations and the 94 00:04:47,960 --> 00:04:50,200 Speaker 1: season being delayed and all that kind of stuff, And 95 00:04:50,240 --> 00:04:52,440 Speaker 1: then we turn over to NFL Network and that thing 96 00:04:52,680 --> 00:04:58,080 Speaker 1: is a mother machine. It doesn't stop. It doesn't stop. 97 00:04:58,400 --> 00:05:01,440 Speaker 1: The com middle thing over there, protect the shield. I mean, 98 00:05:01,480 --> 00:05:04,520 Speaker 1: my god, Roger Goodell to your earlier point in the pregame, 99 00:05:04,600 --> 00:05:07,680 Speaker 1: like this is a machine. And every other sport needs 100 00:05:07,720 --> 00:05:10,400 Speaker 1: to take note of how this thing is always the headline, 101 00:05:10,680 --> 00:05:13,640 Speaker 1: even when it's their off season. Everything is a headline 102 00:05:13,640 --> 00:05:17,040 Speaker 1: in the way combine free agency. Then you know O 103 00:05:17,200 --> 00:05:21,600 Speaker 1: t A. Broadcasters leave broadcasters into it. You know what 104 00:05:21,640 --> 00:05:23,440 Speaker 1: I left me just not wait until the B block. 105 00:05:23,839 --> 00:05:28,440 Speaker 1: So big news. Okay, you want to know what I 106 00:05:28,480 --> 00:05:31,120 Speaker 1: wanted to come on air with today, with the news 107 00:05:31,200 --> 00:05:34,240 Speaker 1: that my two broadcasters are like gone. There were two things. 108 00:05:34,240 --> 00:05:36,480 Speaker 1: There were two memes that was gonna send to you 109 00:05:36,520 --> 00:05:44,520 Speaker 1: this weekend. Oh or I was going to do that. Hello, 110 00:05:45,680 --> 00:05:51,239 Speaker 1: it's me. I'm glad. I'm glad that you're bringing levity 111 00:05:51,520 --> 00:05:55,800 Speaker 1: levity to this situation for the last two weeks. I 112 00:05:55,839 --> 00:05:57,640 Speaker 1: know this has not been easy for you. For those 113 00:05:57,680 --> 00:06:00,520 Speaker 1: of you guys that are not familiar to Aikman and 114 00:06:00,600 --> 00:06:02,800 Speaker 1: Joe Buck have announced that they are moving over to 115 00:06:02,839 --> 00:06:06,880 Speaker 1: another network and leaving the booth. But what twenty years 116 00:06:06,920 --> 00:06:10,400 Speaker 1: for them in the booth together? Twenty years together. I 117 00:06:10,480 --> 00:06:14,960 Speaker 1: did ten seasons with them, a decade and we're talking about, 118 00:06:14,960 --> 00:06:17,080 Speaker 1: you know, Russell leaving in Seattle. But this is the thing, 119 00:06:17,520 --> 00:06:20,160 Speaker 1: when you spend that much time with them, it's not 120 00:06:20,240 --> 00:06:22,479 Speaker 1: just about Sunday. It's not just about the games you 121 00:06:22,480 --> 00:06:25,480 Speaker 1: guys did on Thursday. It's you know, the pre production meetings, 122 00:06:25,480 --> 00:06:28,040 Speaker 1: it's the dinners, it's the plane rides, it's everything, and 123 00:06:28,080 --> 00:06:36,120 Speaker 1: they become your family. So how are you feeling? Be honest, um, 124 00:06:36,160 --> 00:06:38,479 Speaker 1: so I was sad all week. You had to deal 125 00:06:38,520 --> 00:06:41,840 Speaker 1: with me the last two weeks. Um, this all happened fast, 126 00:06:41,960 --> 00:06:47,040 Speaker 1: This all happened. I wasn't expecting it. I'll be completely honest. Um, 127 00:06:47,160 --> 00:06:50,120 Speaker 1: I don't think a lot of people were. And you know, 128 00:06:50,279 --> 00:06:53,080 Speaker 1: I am known for being one tough cookie. I can 129 00:06:53,120 --> 00:06:55,000 Speaker 1: deal with a lot of things. I have dealt with 130 00:06:55,040 --> 00:06:57,320 Speaker 1: a lot of things. But when I had to speak 131 00:06:57,320 --> 00:07:00,279 Speaker 1: to both of those guys separately, when they both you know, 132 00:07:00,400 --> 00:07:03,800 Speaker 1: had officially left, oh god, I cried. And I don't 133 00:07:03,839 --> 00:07:07,039 Speaker 1: think they I don't think they both expected that for me. 134 00:07:07,120 --> 00:07:10,200 Speaker 1: I'll cry right now. You said it perfectly. It's not 135 00:07:10,280 --> 00:07:13,880 Speaker 1: even about like, yes, it's about working the games with them, 136 00:07:13,880 --> 00:07:16,120 Speaker 1: But there are so many moments, like I told both 137 00:07:16,160 --> 00:07:19,360 Speaker 1: of them, I came to Fox to work with them. Um, 138 00:07:19,400 --> 00:07:21,360 Speaker 1: I just thought it would be so cool to do 139 00:07:21,440 --> 00:07:24,440 Speaker 1: games with them. And you said it perfectly, like you, 140 00:07:24,840 --> 00:07:28,600 Speaker 1: I know these people sometimes better than I know my husband. 141 00:07:29,400 --> 00:07:32,880 Speaker 1: You are every Thanksgiving, I am with them past two 142 00:07:32,920 --> 00:07:36,000 Speaker 1: Christmas is. I've been with them. You know you are 143 00:07:36,040 --> 00:07:38,240 Speaker 1: on their planes you are at their house, you're you know, 144 00:07:38,320 --> 00:07:41,120 Speaker 1: they've listened to my fertility issues, they knew about my 145 00:07:41,200 --> 00:07:44,320 Speaker 1: cancer issues. They we I've listened to them with their 146 00:07:44,400 --> 00:07:47,360 Speaker 1: daughters or you know, having their babies and things like that, 147 00:07:47,440 --> 00:07:51,480 Speaker 1: and it's just crazy. They literally become your family and 148 00:07:51,520 --> 00:07:54,880 Speaker 1: they at times are closer to you than your actual 149 00:07:54,920 --> 00:07:57,640 Speaker 1: blood family or your husband and anything like that. So 150 00:07:58,280 --> 00:08:01,680 Speaker 1: I have been sad. I am tired of being sad 151 00:08:01,720 --> 00:08:04,640 Speaker 1: because I need to be a big girl and move on. 152 00:08:04,800 --> 00:08:07,080 Speaker 1: But I think this brings up another issue with me. 153 00:08:07,280 --> 00:08:11,440 Speaker 1: I look like, oh, yeah, I'm just not good with change. 154 00:08:11,560 --> 00:08:14,320 Speaker 1: I'm not and I understand, you know, I don't hold 155 00:08:14,320 --> 00:08:17,480 Speaker 1: it against anybody for leaving. Look, I left ESPN after 156 00:08:17,520 --> 00:08:19,600 Speaker 1: being there for eight years and came to Fox. But 157 00:08:20,080 --> 00:08:22,600 Speaker 1: like I said at the Pat Summer All Award, that 158 00:08:22,680 --> 00:08:25,640 Speaker 1: was one of the best career moves I ever made. 159 00:08:26,040 --> 00:08:28,040 Speaker 1: And a lot of that had to do with, yes, 160 00:08:28,120 --> 00:08:32,040 Speaker 1: my crew, but my relationship with those two. They became 161 00:08:32,040 --> 00:08:35,720 Speaker 1: my brothers and they became my really best friends. So funny, 162 00:08:36,280 --> 00:08:41,839 Speaker 1: I'm sad, but I'm so happy for them. And yeah, whatever, guys, 163 00:08:41,880 --> 00:08:44,040 Speaker 1: seeing you cry makes me want to cry. Well, you know, 164 00:08:44,160 --> 00:08:46,480 Speaker 1: there they mean a lot to Fox, and there are 165 00:08:46,520 --> 00:08:48,600 Speaker 1: a lot of the history and like you know, I 166 00:08:48,679 --> 00:08:51,360 Speaker 1: have a story for like every game, I mean everything, 167 00:08:51,400 --> 00:08:55,559 Speaker 1: and even we were talking about the NFC Championship two 168 00:08:55,640 --> 00:08:59,240 Speaker 1: years ago in Green Bay and you just know when 169 00:08:59,320 --> 00:09:02,760 Speaker 1: ship is clicking and it's going well, and you know, 170 00:09:02,800 --> 00:09:05,400 Speaker 1: we had this awesome matchup with Aaron and Tom and 171 00:09:05,400 --> 00:09:08,560 Speaker 1: it was we were so freaking excited. The boys nailed 172 00:09:08,559 --> 00:09:11,319 Speaker 1: their head of course they always do, and then Ronaldi 173 00:09:11,400 --> 00:09:13,520 Speaker 1: dead his hit and then I go to do mine 174 00:09:13,559 --> 00:09:15,840 Speaker 1: and the sun came out and I referenced it was 175 00:09:15,880 --> 00:09:18,160 Speaker 1: talking about the cold temps. And then we went to 176 00:09:18,240 --> 00:09:20,600 Speaker 1: break and I just remember Choice saying, hey, can Tom 177 00:09:20,640 --> 00:09:22,880 Speaker 1: and Aaron hear me? And we said, yeah, we can 178 00:09:22,920 --> 00:09:25,440 Speaker 1: hear you, and he just said, you guys just nailed that. 179 00:09:25,440 --> 00:09:27,600 Speaker 1: That was awesome. It was just things like that, you know, 180 00:09:27,760 --> 00:09:30,600 Speaker 1: and we've had a lot of good times. And yeah, 181 00:09:30,679 --> 00:09:34,040 Speaker 1: I'm shitty with change, Aaron. It's chemistry. And then the 182 00:09:34,080 --> 00:09:36,120 Speaker 1: thing you know you talked about, you know, closer to 183 00:09:35,720 --> 00:09:38,520 Speaker 1: them sometimes in your husband obviously that's not true, but 184 00:09:38,679 --> 00:09:42,960 Speaker 1: the idea of you spent sometimes, but this idea that 185 00:09:43,280 --> 00:09:45,080 Speaker 1: you know, it is family. And we've talked about it 186 00:09:45,120 --> 00:09:47,600 Speaker 1: at length. You know, you and I both gone through 187 00:09:48,480 --> 00:09:51,319 Speaker 1: really shitty things in a lot of different ways, um 188 00:09:51,480 --> 00:09:55,640 Speaker 1: sometimes the same ways. But Fox is family and we 189 00:09:55,720 --> 00:09:57,760 Speaker 1: always talked about that. You even said that in your 190 00:09:57,800 --> 00:10:00,959 Speaker 1: speech at the past for except the past summer allward, 191 00:10:01,600 --> 00:10:06,560 Speaker 1: and you got emotional about it, And it's because it's 192 00:10:06,600 --> 00:10:08,960 Speaker 1: really hard. We've worked for other people, both you and I, 193 00:10:09,120 --> 00:10:11,960 Speaker 1: and it's not the same. It's not the same anywhere else. 194 00:10:12,400 --> 00:10:14,880 Speaker 1: And you know, when those bad things have happened to us, 195 00:10:14,960 --> 00:10:18,160 Speaker 1: they that company has been there for us. And so 196 00:10:18,679 --> 00:10:22,000 Speaker 1: I am sorry that you're losing you know, your teammates 197 00:10:22,040 --> 00:10:33,720 Speaker 1: in the booth and also just your your friends. You 198 00:10:33,760 --> 00:10:36,320 Speaker 1: and I both gone through really shitty things in a 199 00:10:36,320 --> 00:10:40,560 Speaker 1: lot of different ways. But Fox is family, and you 200 00:10:40,600 --> 00:10:43,199 Speaker 1: know when those bad things have happened to us, they 201 00:10:43,320 --> 00:10:46,240 Speaker 1: that company has been there for us. And so I 202 00:10:46,240 --> 00:10:49,480 Speaker 1: am sorry that you're losing you know, your teammates in 203 00:10:49,520 --> 00:10:53,240 Speaker 1: the booth and also just your your friends. But brings 204 00:10:53,320 --> 00:10:54,960 Speaker 1: up a larger issue. And you and I were talking 205 00:10:54,960 --> 00:10:57,160 Speaker 1: about it before we even got on here, about change, 206 00:10:57,240 --> 00:10:59,640 Speaker 1: and I welcome change. I like change. I think that 207 00:11:00,200 --> 00:11:04,040 Speaker 1: to a detriment, I probably like it too much. I think, Um, 208 00:11:04,080 --> 00:11:07,240 Speaker 1: I get complaced. How is that? That's just how you're wired. 209 00:11:07,400 --> 00:11:09,880 Speaker 1: It's how I'm wired. It's why I've moved so many 210 00:11:09,880 --> 00:11:12,240 Speaker 1: different times. It's why I changed my hair color, I 211 00:11:12,280 --> 00:11:15,120 Speaker 1: cut my hair, I get extensions. I you know, I 212 00:11:16,040 --> 00:11:18,120 Speaker 1: can't stay. I have an itchy foot, as they say, 213 00:11:18,120 --> 00:11:20,480 Speaker 1: it's actually it's right now as a rash. But um, 214 00:11:20,920 --> 00:11:23,679 Speaker 1: I'm not kidding, um, but I'm putting on that. What 215 00:11:23,720 --> 00:11:27,559 Speaker 1: do you the steroid cream? I would pass the p 216 00:11:27,840 --> 00:11:30,880 Speaker 1: d S, but yeah, it's a weird rush. Supposed it's 217 00:11:30,880 --> 00:11:33,319 Speaker 1: from stress, A lot of stress. Anyways, I like change, 218 00:11:33,360 --> 00:11:36,559 Speaker 1: all the stress. So my question to you is why 219 00:11:36,679 --> 00:11:38,720 Speaker 1: is changed hard for you? Because to me, I'm like, 220 00:11:38,720 --> 00:11:40,880 Speaker 1: oh yeah, okay, we'll change and moving on or whatever. 221 00:11:40,960 --> 00:11:43,120 Speaker 1: But it's harder for you. Why Why do you Why 222 00:11:43,120 --> 00:11:46,360 Speaker 1: do you like consistency versus the opposite. I don't know. 223 00:11:46,679 --> 00:11:49,320 Speaker 1: It's probably the thought of being safe. You know. You 224 00:11:49,320 --> 00:11:52,160 Speaker 1: mentioned ESPN, and I was there for eight years of 225 00:11:52,200 --> 00:11:54,840 Speaker 1: my career, and and much like how I'm having a 226 00:11:54,880 --> 00:11:57,480 Speaker 1: hard time with this with the guys leaving, I was 227 00:11:57,520 --> 00:12:00,120 Speaker 1: the same. I took a huge leap of faith and 228 00:12:00,200 --> 00:12:03,720 Speaker 1: left ESPN to go to Fox and I was leaving. Gosh, 229 00:12:03,800 --> 00:12:06,760 Speaker 1: three guys that I bawled over. I mean I remember 230 00:12:06,800 --> 00:12:08,960 Speaker 1: calling at the time, Chip Kelly was at Oregon. I 231 00:12:09,000 --> 00:12:12,040 Speaker 1: called Coach k and I called Dan Patrick. I called 232 00:12:12,040 --> 00:12:14,080 Speaker 1: a couple of people because I would sit on my 233 00:12:14,120 --> 00:12:16,640 Speaker 1: couch in New York and just ball because I had 234 00:12:16,679 --> 00:12:18,680 Speaker 1: this opportunity. I knew I wanted to go to the 235 00:12:19,320 --> 00:12:21,560 Speaker 1: tip box to work in the NFL. I wasn't going 236 00:12:21,600 --> 00:12:23,440 Speaker 1: to be able to do that with the ESPN. And 237 00:12:23,840 --> 00:12:27,320 Speaker 1: there were three guys Mike Triko, Kirk, Herb Street and 238 00:12:27,400 --> 00:12:30,160 Speaker 1: Chris Bowler, who were my people. They were my brothers. 239 00:12:30,200 --> 00:12:32,960 Speaker 1: They were my Joe and Troy. And those were the 240 00:12:32,960 --> 00:12:36,640 Speaker 1: things that were HI exactly. I mean, those are the 241 00:12:36,720 --> 00:12:39,640 Speaker 1: things that were like, oh would she need she's a 242 00:12:39,640 --> 00:12:42,960 Speaker 1: big fan of Toriko to oh just a great job? 243 00:12:43,320 --> 00:12:46,720 Speaker 1: Really does um? Yeah? Those were what was holding me 244 00:12:46,760 --> 00:12:48,640 Speaker 1: back at ESPN. I was like, no, but I have 245 00:12:48,840 --> 00:12:51,160 Speaker 1: my family there. And the day it was announced, I 246 00:12:51,160 --> 00:12:53,320 Speaker 1: couldn't even call those guys. I was actually trying to 247 00:12:53,360 --> 00:12:56,920 Speaker 1: remember if I called them because I was so upset 248 00:12:57,000 --> 00:12:59,480 Speaker 1: to leave them. So I was able to deal with that, 249 00:12:59,600 --> 00:13:01,240 Speaker 1: and then I was able to come to Fox and 250 00:13:01,280 --> 00:13:04,079 Speaker 1: make you know two new best friends and Joe and Troy. 251 00:13:04,240 --> 00:13:07,520 Speaker 1: So look, life goes on. I need to remember those things, 252 00:13:07,640 --> 00:13:10,000 Speaker 1: but it does. It just brings up a really big 253 00:13:10,040 --> 00:13:12,840 Speaker 1: thing with me. How I just don't accept change. I 254 00:13:12,880 --> 00:13:15,520 Speaker 1: will say this, I feel like the tears, and I 255 00:13:15,559 --> 00:13:18,079 Speaker 1: think the boys have been very surprised. I think our 256 00:13:18,120 --> 00:13:21,280 Speaker 1: management has been surprised about my reaction because I don't 257 00:13:21,320 --> 00:13:23,280 Speaker 1: cry a lot in front of other people, but I 258 00:13:23,520 --> 00:13:28,520 Speaker 1: reserve very vulnerable and open about my thoughts about them leaving. 259 00:13:28,840 --> 00:13:31,560 Speaker 1: That has everything to do with us suffering our loss 260 00:13:31,559 --> 00:13:34,240 Speaker 1: in you know, the baby world last summer. So I'm 261 00:13:34,240 --> 00:13:37,120 Speaker 1: trying to be better about getting that stuff out because 262 00:13:37,160 --> 00:13:40,320 Speaker 1: you keep it in and just bad ship happens to 263 00:13:40,360 --> 00:13:44,479 Speaker 1: your body. So I apologize to Joe, Troy, our management, 264 00:13:44,640 --> 00:13:50,080 Speaker 1: and stop my director for being like no, stop, do 265 00:13:50,200 --> 00:13:53,240 Speaker 1: not apologize for emotion? And here's the here's this. See 266 00:13:53,320 --> 00:13:56,880 Speaker 1: this gives go back into that whole female versus male conversation. 267 00:13:57,440 --> 00:13:59,640 Speaker 1: Do you think men apologize for their emotions? Maybe their 268 00:13:59,600 --> 00:14:01,640 Speaker 1: emotions are different and it's not tears whatever, do not 269 00:14:01,679 --> 00:14:04,360 Speaker 1: apologize for giving a ship? Do you think that our 270 00:14:04,400 --> 00:14:06,960 Speaker 1: management like, oh, Aaron's crying like she's no, it's like 271 00:14:07,200 --> 00:14:10,480 Speaker 1: you care, and that's not like I mean hair, yeah 272 00:14:10,520 --> 00:14:12,439 Speaker 1: you care. Can you imagine if you're like the opposite, 273 00:14:12,440 --> 00:14:14,600 Speaker 1: you're like okay, cool, like okay, it was nice working 274 00:14:14,600 --> 00:14:17,200 Speaker 1: with you guys by they'd be like, look like no, 275 00:14:17,400 --> 00:14:20,880 Speaker 1: I think that my One of the many therapists I've had, 276 00:14:21,680 --> 00:14:24,160 Speaker 1: you told me that vulnerability is a good thing. It's 277 00:14:24,160 --> 00:14:27,440 Speaker 1: actually a sign of strength. So you being even vulnerable here, 278 00:14:27,480 --> 00:14:29,680 Speaker 1: and like any time I see you get emotional, I 279 00:14:29,680 --> 00:14:31,640 Speaker 1: get emotional because as a girlfriend, you just want to 280 00:14:32,040 --> 00:14:34,480 Speaker 1: hug you and say it's okay, here's the good news. 281 00:14:34,800 --> 00:14:37,120 Speaker 1: Joe and Troy aren't going anywhere in your lives. They're 282 00:14:37,160 --> 00:14:41,200 Speaker 1: just it looks different professionally, and like you joy go 283 00:14:41,360 --> 00:14:44,600 Speaker 1: herb Street and Fowler exactly right, and so you still 284 00:14:44,680 --> 00:14:47,080 Speaker 1: lean on those guys constantly, and Joe and Troy will 285 00:14:47,080 --> 00:14:49,760 Speaker 1: be the same for you. So it's just I always 286 00:14:49,800 --> 00:14:53,600 Speaker 1: look at life as different chapters, and in reading the books, 287 00:14:53,680 --> 00:14:55,280 Speaker 1: you don't want to stay on the same chapter for 288 00:14:55,320 --> 00:14:57,200 Speaker 1: too long because like, we know what that story looks like. 289 00:14:57,400 --> 00:15:00,760 Speaker 1: So to me, change, I welcome change because it's kind 290 00:15:00,760 --> 00:15:03,520 Speaker 1: of albeit scary, it's exciting, like, oh, what is on 291 00:15:03,560 --> 00:15:06,680 Speaker 1: the other side, So you're not replacing them with whoever 292 00:15:06,720 --> 00:15:08,600 Speaker 1: takes over in the booth. It's just a different chapter 293 00:15:08,680 --> 00:15:11,400 Speaker 1: in your story. And sometimes change is good because then 294 00:15:11,440 --> 00:15:14,600 Speaker 1: it even rejuvenates you know, everyone around you kind of 295 00:15:14,600 --> 00:15:17,440 Speaker 1: has like forces your hand. I know, for me, sometimes 296 00:15:17,440 --> 00:15:19,960 Speaker 1: I get complacent in my job or personally or whatever, 297 00:15:20,360 --> 00:15:22,560 Speaker 1: and I need like a little ignitement, Like I was 298 00:15:22,600 --> 00:15:26,840 Speaker 1: really sad when Tony Gonzalez left our or Randy Moss 299 00:15:26,920 --> 00:15:29,800 Speaker 1: left that one year, and um, Champ Bailey, I mean, 300 00:15:29,840 --> 00:15:32,720 Speaker 1: we've had a turnover on our show, but it means 301 00:15:32,800 --> 00:15:35,640 Speaker 1: that we were lucky enough to get the first relationship 302 00:15:35,720 --> 00:15:39,000 Speaker 1: with them and then keep those relationships with relationships if 303 00:15:39,000 --> 00:15:41,960 Speaker 1: they're that important moving forward. So I don't know. What 304 00:15:42,040 --> 00:15:45,720 Speaker 1: about Colin leaving, that's a really good point, Brian Colin, 305 00:15:46,080 --> 00:15:50,320 Speaker 1: did you cry as much as I cried? I mean, um, 306 00:15:50,320 --> 00:15:55,160 Speaker 1: Colin Colin leaving? Colin is very much a presence in 307 00:15:55,240 --> 00:15:59,040 Speaker 1: my life still, so he didn't go anywhere. But so, yeah, 308 00:15:59,080 --> 00:16:01,640 Speaker 1: what a week it is. I guess I wanted to 309 00:16:01,680 --> 00:16:04,360 Speaker 1: ask the listeners because they've been great, and they all 310 00:16:04,400 --> 00:16:06,600 Speaker 1: have been like d m NG and asking and stuff 311 00:16:06,640 --> 00:16:09,280 Speaker 1: about how I'm doing and and and you know what's 312 00:16:09,280 --> 00:16:11,680 Speaker 1: going to happen and everything. How do you guys deal 313 00:16:12,000 --> 00:16:15,520 Speaker 1: with change? Any recommendations. I'm trying a book right now. 314 00:16:15,560 --> 00:16:17,160 Speaker 1: I'm gonna give it to you when I'm done. It's 315 00:16:17,200 --> 00:16:22,160 Speaker 1: called Do Breathe. Um I okay, like just learning like 316 00:16:22,280 --> 00:16:24,720 Speaker 1: do and then there's different books. So there's do and 317 00:16:24,760 --> 00:16:28,640 Speaker 1: this one's about breathing. So how can read? So? Um? Yeah, 318 00:16:28,720 --> 00:16:32,080 Speaker 1: I'm trying that. I need to just read past page five. Okay, good, 319 00:16:32,080 --> 00:16:34,080 Speaker 1: Well we're going to spop books then, because this is 320 00:16:34,120 --> 00:16:37,000 Speaker 1: the book I'm currently reading that let that Ship Go. 321 00:16:37,800 --> 00:16:42,240 Speaker 1: You're going to love this And I'm only where am 322 00:16:42,280 --> 00:16:47,040 Speaker 1: I on page fifty six? But the whole idea is 323 00:16:47,080 --> 00:16:48,720 Speaker 1: being president And I don't know. I always say his 324 00:16:48,800 --> 00:16:51,320 Speaker 1: name wrong, so fuck me, um, Eckart told the Power 325 00:16:51,360 --> 00:16:55,200 Speaker 1: of Now. So being listened to him on an operh podcast, 326 00:16:55,200 --> 00:16:58,960 Speaker 1: he was amazing. So and again I'm Eckart told, I 327 00:16:58,960 --> 00:17:01,680 Speaker 1: don't think I'm pronouncing his na right. But the message 328 00:17:01,760 --> 00:17:04,760 Speaker 1: that book, very similar to this one in its infancy, 329 00:17:04,920 --> 00:17:07,600 Speaker 1: has resonated with me because I am someone I know 330 00:17:07,800 --> 00:17:10,600 Speaker 1: very much like you. We would be an acupuncture, we'd 331 00:17:10,600 --> 00:17:13,040 Speaker 1: be in yoga, thinking about all the other things we're 332 00:17:13,040 --> 00:17:16,200 Speaker 1: supposed to be doing and not being present in the moment. 333 00:17:16,320 --> 00:17:18,600 Speaker 1: So this book is a lot about when you're driving 334 00:17:18,600 --> 00:17:21,120 Speaker 1: in your car, don't think about all the other things 335 00:17:21,119 --> 00:17:22,840 Speaker 1: you have to do. Just think about I'm driving in 336 00:17:22,880 --> 00:17:25,400 Speaker 1: the car and I'm happy that it's a sunny day, 337 00:17:25,560 --> 00:17:29,040 Speaker 1: and I'm focused on like the joy that it's bringing 338 00:17:29,080 --> 00:17:30,959 Speaker 1: you to, not being a rush or whatever those things are, 339 00:17:31,000 --> 00:17:34,119 Speaker 1: instead of always thinking, oh, another thing that I'm doing. 340 00:17:34,320 --> 00:17:36,040 Speaker 1: And I think you should do this too, because I know, 341 00:17:36,160 --> 00:17:38,280 Speaker 1: and Jarrett would back me up on this, you and 342 00:17:38,320 --> 00:17:41,719 Speaker 1: your phone are attached a lot. Oh yeah, you're not 343 00:17:41,760 --> 00:17:44,120 Speaker 1: allowed to look at your phone until after your first 344 00:17:44,119 --> 00:17:48,160 Speaker 1: cup of coffee. And why that's important is because for me, 345 00:17:48,400 --> 00:17:51,160 Speaker 1: I was waking up in the morning and I would 346 00:17:51,160 --> 00:17:53,600 Speaker 1: open my email and already have all of these things 347 00:17:53,640 --> 00:17:56,000 Speaker 1: like with house at home or whatever that were problems. 348 00:17:56,160 --> 00:17:58,080 Speaker 1: This wasn't delivered, this wasn't done right, and I'm like, 349 00:17:58,320 --> 00:17:59,760 Speaker 1: now I'm in a bad mood and i haven't even 350 00:17:59,800 --> 00:18:03,000 Speaker 1: got yes, I have even gotten out of bed, and 351 00:18:03,040 --> 00:18:06,159 Speaker 1: I'm already like funk, I hate this day. So have 352 00:18:06,320 --> 00:18:09,359 Speaker 1: our cup of coffee or tea or athletic greens or 353 00:18:09,359 --> 00:18:11,840 Speaker 1: whatever it is that you're going to have and then 354 00:18:12,560 --> 00:18:15,239 Speaker 1: then open your email. So I don't know. I just 355 00:18:15,280 --> 00:18:17,400 Speaker 1: think that I'm trying to do little things because there's 356 00:18:17,400 --> 00:18:19,280 Speaker 1: a lot of change going on in my personal life 357 00:18:19,280 --> 00:18:22,600 Speaker 1: and professionally like figuring out sort of how to balance 358 00:18:22,640 --> 00:18:27,480 Speaker 1: those things and not be overwhelmed by change. Um yeah, 359 00:18:27,480 --> 00:18:30,200 Speaker 1: I think you know. I'll try anything once. So any 360 00:18:30,200 --> 00:18:34,600 Speaker 1: suggestion that people have for us managing that would be amazing. Absolutely. 361 00:18:34,760 --> 00:18:36,640 Speaker 1: I love the phone thing. I need to be better 362 00:18:36,680 --> 00:18:39,879 Speaker 1: with that. I usually get up before Jarrett and I 363 00:18:40,240 --> 00:18:42,240 Speaker 1: or if like he gets up and goes to the bathroom, 364 00:18:42,240 --> 00:18:44,280 Speaker 1: I'm like already on my phone and he's always saying 365 00:18:44,320 --> 00:18:46,840 Speaker 1: what's going on in the world. So you're right, it 366 00:18:46,920 --> 00:18:49,560 Speaker 1: totally sets your mood. There's no need for that. And 367 00:18:49,600 --> 00:18:51,359 Speaker 1: I do want to say this just to tie a 368 00:18:51,359 --> 00:18:54,159 Speaker 1: bow on everything. With the change that's happening at Fox, 369 00:18:54,280 --> 00:18:56,560 Speaker 1: I do have faith in our network. That's just the 370 00:18:56,600 --> 00:18:59,159 Speaker 1: one thing I I know, Like, look, they you know, 371 00:18:59,240 --> 00:19:02,440 Speaker 1: have obviously been an amazing network for so long. It's 372 00:19:02,480 --> 00:19:06,280 Speaker 1: just my issue. I'm the one that needs to let 373 00:19:06,400 --> 00:19:09,440 Speaker 1: ship go. And that's another thing I'm really trying hard 374 00:19:09,480 --> 00:19:12,720 Speaker 1: and wow, I'll just like therapy, pour it all out there. 375 00:19:13,160 --> 00:19:15,520 Speaker 1: It's been a tough month in terms of, you know, 376 00:19:15,640 --> 00:19:19,440 Speaker 1: my best friends slash brothers are leaving me. It's been 377 00:19:19,560 --> 00:19:23,080 Speaker 1: an interesting month in terms of UM learning with about 378 00:19:23,119 --> 00:19:26,239 Speaker 1: where um some things I'm dealing with and not at 379 00:19:26,280 --> 00:19:28,400 Speaker 1: all that we're having a tough go. But look, we're expanding, 380 00:19:28,400 --> 00:19:32,040 Speaker 1: We're getting bigger. I'm trying to deal with other growth. 381 00:19:35,119 --> 00:19:37,320 Speaker 1: I said to one of my good girlfriends, Megan Mitchell. 382 00:19:37,400 --> 00:19:39,640 Speaker 1: I didn't go to school for this. She literally said, 383 00:19:39,680 --> 00:19:42,560 Speaker 1: you're you're getting your m b A right now. And 384 00:19:42,600 --> 00:19:46,160 Speaker 1: then you know, personally, we are having a really, really 385 00:19:46,280 --> 00:19:50,760 Speaker 1: rough probably two months on the baby fertility side. So 386 00:19:50,920 --> 00:19:54,760 Speaker 1: it's crazy because you know a lot of things that 387 00:19:54,920 --> 00:19:57,840 Speaker 1: have to do with my body and trying to stay 388 00:19:57,920 --> 00:20:01,600 Speaker 1: calm and breathing. I've had a hard time with that 389 00:20:01,680 --> 00:20:03,920 Speaker 1: because I've just had to shake up at work. I'm 390 00:20:03,960 --> 00:20:05,800 Speaker 1: you know, a lot of ships going on with where 391 00:20:06,680 --> 00:20:09,040 Speaker 1: I know I'm trying to I'm supposed to stay in 392 00:20:09,040 --> 00:20:12,439 Speaker 1: sane and levelheaded because your body stress is affecting me 393 00:20:12,600 --> 00:20:15,600 Speaker 1: fertility wise, and like I said to Jared a couple 394 00:20:15,600 --> 00:20:18,200 Speaker 1: of weeks ago, I just freaking need to learn how 395 00:20:18,240 --> 00:20:21,440 Speaker 1: to stay even keel and I fucking don't know how 396 00:20:21,480 --> 00:20:23,120 Speaker 1: to do that. And any of you guys, and you've 397 00:20:23,119 --> 00:20:25,760 Speaker 1: been amazing with this that are dealing with your fertility 398 00:20:25,840 --> 00:20:28,480 Speaker 1: journey as well, that alone is such a roller coaster. 399 00:20:28,600 --> 00:20:31,000 Speaker 1: We get so high with the highs and then we 400 00:20:31,040 --> 00:20:33,719 Speaker 1: get so low with the lows, and it's just like, 401 00:20:33,800 --> 00:20:37,040 Speaker 1: holy shit, And even with work, I gotta learn how 402 00:20:37,080 --> 00:20:40,480 Speaker 1: to be like this, and I don't know how well. Okay, 403 00:20:40,520 --> 00:20:44,040 Speaker 1: so as fertility stuff goes, let's lean on those that 404 00:20:44,080 --> 00:20:45,719 Speaker 1: are going through the exact same thing that you are, 405 00:20:45,760 --> 00:20:47,960 Speaker 1: because I don't. I can't as as your girlfriend. I 406 00:20:47,960 --> 00:20:50,800 Speaker 1: can speak to you having frozen my eggs and whatever, 407 00:20:50,840 --> 00:20:52,880 Speaker 1: but I don't know if I'm ever You know how 408 00:20:52,920 --> 00:20:55,600 Speaker 1: hard that was, Like you know how terrible it was. 409 00:20:55,760 --> 00:20:57,719 Speaker 1: But like I'm getting to the point in my life 410 00:20:57,920 --> 00:20:59,879 Speaker 1: where I don't know if kids is going to happen 411 00:21:00,040 --> 00:21:02,760 Speaker 1: for me for a number of different reasons, and so 412 00:21:03,080 --> 00:21:05,800 Speaker 1: there's stress that comes with that. But I have learned this, 413 00:21:05,840 --> 00:21:07,440 Speaker 1: and this is where my dad's really good. He's like, 414 00:21:07,880 --> 00:21:11,159 Speaker 1: control what you can control, you Worrying about things that 415 00:21:11,240 --> 00:21:14,920 Speaker 1: you can't control is a waste of your time right, 416 00:21:15,040 --> 00:21:18,000 Speaker 1: and for any Christians out there, there's like a biblical 417 00:21:18,040 --> 00:21:20,320 Speaker 1: scripture that supports that's like Matthew six before a friend 418 00:21:20,320 --> 00:21:21,960 Speaker 1: of mine told me about this one time whatever. Without 419 00:21:22,000 --> 00:21:23,960 Speaker 1: getting too deep into it, there's just this idea that 420 00:21:24,000 --> 00:21:27,560 Speaker 1: worrying about something does not add any it doesn't help. 421 00:21:27,880 --> 00:21:30,480 Speaker 1: Like what is worried now? It's just at toxin. And 422 00:21:30,520 --> 00:21:32,119 Speaker 1: as someone who's went through a lot of health stuff 423 00:21:32,119 --> 00:21:35,840 Speaker 1: this past year with the appendix, with the spatial spasm, 424 00:21:35,840 --> 00:21:38,880 Speaker 1: now a weird rash, like my body is saying, by 425 00:21:38,920 --> 00:21:40,720 Speaker 1: the way, the rash is on your knee, let's be 426 00:21:40,760 --> 00:21:43,080 Speaker 1: honest about it. We don't want people getting concerned or 427 00:21:43,160 --> 00:21:45,320 Speaker 1: like making ship up where this rash is. You know, 428 00:21:45,680 --> 00:21:48,560 Speaker 1: my girl is good. There is a rash. I'm very honest. 429 00:21:48,600 --> 00:21:51,160 Speaker 1: I've never had a rash about else. Okay, I've never 430 00:21:51,240 --> 00:21:53,840 Speaker 1: had anything else. And we're not judging people that happen 431 00:21:53,920 --> 00:21:56,280 Speaker 1: so you oh my god. No, in fact, we'd like 432 00:21:56,320 --> 00:22:08,040 Speaker 1: to hear your story. Yeah, I just your your body 433 00:22:08,119 --> 00:22:09,359 Speaker 1: is going to tell you and I'd say this to 434 00:22:09,400 --> 00:22:11,040 Speaker 1: you all the time. And you're really good about taking 435 00:22:11,040 --> 00:22:13,680 Speaker 1: care of your body. You're really good about active all 436 00:22:13,720 --> 00:22:16,480 Speaker 1: the green juice is the bone. That's kind of stuff. Sister. 437 00:22:16,640 --> 00:22:19,440 Speaker 1: You can control what you can control, and you get 438 00:22:19,480 --> 00:22:22,320 Speaker 1: an A plus plus plus plus plus plus for everything 439 00:22:22,320 --> 00:22:24,119 Speaker 1: that you've done to put you and Jarrett in a 440 00:22:24,160 --> 00:22:27,159 Speaker 1: position to have a family, and anything outside of that 441 00:22:27,160 --> 00:22:29,840 Speaker 1: that you can't control, you worrying about it. And look, 442 00:22:29,880 --> 00:22:31,320 Speaker 1: it's easy for me to sit there and say that, 443 00:22:31,359 --> 00:22:34,080 Speaker 1: but you've counseled me on some stuff, personal stuff like 444 00:22:34,320 --> 00:22:37,719 Speaker 1: if I can't control it, how is it helping me? 445 00:22:37,760 --> 00:22:41,040 Speaker 1: It's only hurting me, right, So I think that for 446 00:22:41,080 --> 00:22:43,040 Speaker 1: anyone else that's out there that's gone through stuff. And 447 00:22:43,080 --> 00:22:45,959 Speaker 1: here's the other thing too, not to be so you know, 448 00:22:46,760 --> 00:22:49,920 Speaker 1: broad stroke about this, But perspective is a big thing 449 00:22:50,160 --> 00:22:52,439 Speaker 1: the world. There is a lot of ship going on 450 00:22:52,480 --> 00:22:55,159 Speaker 1: in the world, and so that's where I you know, 451 00:22:55,280 --> 00:22:57,400 Speaker 1: and I hate when it's like, oh, things could be worse. 452 00:22:57,400 --> 00:22:59,560 Speaker 1: It's like, yeah, but this is like what's happening in 453 00:22:59,600 --> 00:23:02,160 Speaker 1: my life. So it is shitty. But then I take 454 00:23:02,160 --> 00:23:05,479 Speaker 1: a step back and I go, hey, it could be worse, 455 00:23:05,640 --> 00:23:07,360 Speaker 1: and it could be this, or it could be this, 456 00:23:07,400 --> 00:23:09,359 Speaker 1: And so I try to then have moments of like 457 00:23:09,480 --> 00:23:11,600 Speaker 1: I feel sorry for myself for a little bit, and 458 00:23:11,600 --> 00:23:14,520 Speaker 1: then I move on to much bigger things and say 459 00:23:14,720 --> 00:23:16,960 Speaker 1: I'm so grateful for this, this, this and this, And 460 00:23:17,000 --> 00:23:19,280 Speaker 1: my brother and I do a gratitude list every single night. 461 00:23:19,280 --> 00:23:22,280 Speaker 1: We've done it for God. When was I like I 462 00:23:22,440 --> 00:23:25,240 Speaker 1: hacking and talking things like five years ago, so I 463 00:23:25,280 --> 00:23:27,400 Speaker 1: was feeling sorry for myself. So my brother said to me, 464 00:23:27,600 --> 00:23:29,480 Speaker 1: we need to focus on the good things in your life. 465 00:23:29,520 --> 00:23:33,000 Speaker 1: So every night we write three things were grateful for 466 00:23:33,240 --> 00:23:37,320 Speaker 1: and she exercise that helps me put things into perspective. 467 00:23:37,440 --> 00:23:40,439 Speaker 1: So um, yeah, again, I would love for other you know, 468 00:23:40,520 --> 00:23:42,320 Speaker 1: things that people do that help them. But I just 469 00:23:42,359 --> 00:23:46,720 Speaker 1: want to remind you you are so fucking strong you. 470 00:23:46,840 --> 00:23:49,760 Speaker 1: I'm inspired by you all the time as a girlfriend, No, 471 00:23:49,960 --> 00:23:52,240 Speaker 1: because you are, and people that don't know this side 472 00:23:52,240 --> 00:23:54,680 Speaker 1: of you as like a girlfriend, like Aaron's always asking 473 00:23:54,760 --> 00:23:57,440 Speaker 1: how her girlfriends are before she talks about her ship. 474 00:23:57,720 --> 00:24:00,080 Speaker 1: So because I just know it takes so long with 475 00:24:00,160 --> 00:24:02,240 Speaker 1: my own ship, and let me just hear yours because 476 00:24:02,280 --> 00:24:05,840 Speaker 1: mine for minutes long. Okay, how we are problem having 477 00:24:05,840 --> 00:24:09,400 Speaker 1: a baby. I've got to figure out stop it. And 478 00:24:09,440 --> 00:24:12,240 Speaker 1: Aaron uses humor to to get through it, which is important, 479 00:24:12,240 --> 00:24:15,879 Speaker 1: but it's okay, to have a good cry. Well yeah, 480 00:24:16,040 --> 00:24:19,720 Speaker 1: but you know, anyways, you're doing great, sweetie. You're doing great. 481 00:24:20,840 --> 00:24:23,240 Speaker 1: Is a really good thing for us. We like that. Yeah, 482 00:24:23,280 --> 00:24:26,199 Speaker 1: it does help a time. Are you gonna give yourself? Like? 483 00:24:26,240 --> 00:24:29,560 Speaker 1: What are we looking forward to this offseason? Let's focus 484 00:24:29,640 --> 00:24:32,199 Speaker 1: on the positive? Yeah, I mean I am this is 485 00:24:32,240 --> 00:24:34,840 Speaker 1: my problem. And again not to bring it back to charity, 486 00:24:34,960 --> 00:24:36,840 Speaker 1: but this is how I have to kind of like 487 00:24:36,960 --> 00:24:39,360 Speaker 1: view things, and I need to figure it out. I mean, look, 488 00:24:39,440 --> 00:24:42,000 Speaker 1: I've been doing this ideaf thing for eight years. It's 489 00:24:42,119 --> 00:24:44,600 Speaker 1: really a lot. You've really been doing it that long? 490 00:24:44,840 --> 00:24:50,280 Speaker 1: Yeah that was yeah, but and obviously, like you know it, 491 00:24:50,840 --> 00:24:53,000 Speaker 1: I wouldn't be doing it if I was having success. 492 00:24:53,080 --> 00:24:56,200 Speaker 1: So the problem is your body is so month to 493 00:24:56,359 --> 00:25:00,440 Speaker 1: month because of stress or traveling. Well now I'm not traveling, 494 00:25:00,480 --> 00:25:02,760 Speaker 1: so they think I'm going to be okay. But them 495 00:25:02,760 --> 00:25:05,440 Speaker 1: as I've been having stress and the other thing. Women 496 00:25:05,520 --> 00:25:08,160 Speaker 1: out there that are dealing with fertility stuff, you guys 497 00:25:08,200 --> 00:25:12,720 Speaker 1: get this. They're always like, just relax. How the can 498 00:25:12,760 --> 00:25:15,800 Speaker 1: you relax? When you're forty three, you know the window 499 00:25:15,920 --> 00:25:19,640 Speaker 1: is closing and you're trying to have a baby. It's 500 00:25:19,680 --> 00:25:23,119 Speaker 1: so hard. So um, yeah, we are definitely excited to 501 00:25:23,160 --> 00:25:25,600 Speaker 1: go out to Montana. I'd like to take a vacation 502 00:25:25,680 --> 00:25:29,960 Speaker 1: with you. It's just everyone unfortunately right now, Yeah, revolves 503 00:25:30,000 --> 00:25:32,560 Speaker 1: around my body. Can I do I v F It's 504 00:25:32,560 --> 00:25:34,879 Speaker 1: like crazy. And I was saying that to Jared. I'm 505 00:25:34,920 --> 00:25:36,920 Speaker 1: when I do get down, I just say to him, 506 00:25:36,960 --> 00:25:40,280 Speaker 1: I'm so tired of this being my narrative for eight years, 507 00:25:40,280 --> 00:25:44,280 Speaker 1: Like it really really has controlled my schedule. So I'm 508 00:25:44,320 --> 00:25:46,879 Speaker 1: excited to put my phone away and read my girl. 509 00:25:47,160 --> 00:25:50,959 Speaker 1: I'm excited for a change at work. I'm looking forward 510 00:25:51,000 --> 00:25:55,480 Speaker 1: to allowing that what are you excited for? Because you 511 00:25:55,520 --> 00:25:59,160 Speaker 1: did mention you are you have gone through stuff as well. Yeah, 512 00:25:59,240 --> 00:26:03,240 Speaker 1: and I'll talk up you deserve to enjoy things too. Yeah, 513 00:26:03,280 --> 00:26:06,400 Speaker 1: I will definitely. I mean, I'm an open book, letting 514 00:26:06,400 --> 00:26:09,240 Speaker 1: ship go um and yeah there's there's you know, I'll 515 00:26:09,240 --> 00:26:12,719 Speaker 1: definitely talk about in in length and when it's appropriate 516 00:26:12,840 --> 00:26:15,800 Speaker 1: sort of different things. But yeah, I just think that 517 00:26:15,960 --> 00:26:19,800 Speaker 1: for me, I don't know, it's just I go, I 518 00:26:19,800 --> 00:26:22,560 Speaker 1: I feel bad for myself some days and then I go, fucking, 519 00:26:22,680 --> 00:26:24,959 Speaker 1: my life's great. I've got you know what I do 520 00:26:25,040 --> 00:26:28,520 Speaker 1: have my health is I have my health. I've got 521 00:26:28,560 --> 00:26:31,479 Speaker 1: incredible friends. I've got a great family. I've got so 522 00:26:31,520 --> 00:26:33,359 Speaker 1: many things like look at these look at these dogs. 523 00:26:33,400 --> 00:26:36,680 Speaker 1: I mean, so there's far get to do what we love, 524 00:26:36,960 --> 00:26:39,480 Speaker 1: do what we love. I mean we talked about that earlier, 525 00:26:39,560 --> 00:26:42,080 Speaker 1: like how fucking lucky. I mean, I operate my life 526 00:26:42,119 --> 00:26:44,720 Speaker 1: with my contracts like I've got one year left, and 527 00:26:44,720 --> 00:26:46,080 Speaker 1: then I always think like I don't have a job 528 00:26:46,119 --> 00:26:47,480 Speaker 1: after that, and I was like, oh, you gonna fine. 529 00:26:47,640 --> 00:26:49,760 Speaker 1: You don't know if you're going to be fine. We 530 00:26:49,760 --> 00:26:52,520 Speaker 1: we work in an industry that we've seen people not 531 00:26:52,720 --> 00:26:56,679 Speaker 1: get renewed, so I always try to and again, um, 532 00:26:56,920 --> 00:27:00,280 Speaker 1: just the constant betterment of self and that to why 533 00:27:00,359 --> 00:27:03,840 Speaker 1: even you know, this podcast has been super cathartic for 534 00:27:03,840 --> 00:27:06,040 Speaker 1: for me to be able to talk and to hear 535 00:27:06,119 --> 00:27:08,800 Speaker 1: other people's advice on things and stuff like that. But 536 00:27:08,800 --> 00:27:11,600 Speaker 1: I'm gonna give myself a little runway to take a vacation. 537 00:27:11,640 --> 00:27:13,399 Speaker 1: I know, we talked about we'll take one together. So 538 00:27:13,400 --> 00:27:15,800 Speaker 1: many suggestions for they would be great. I'm dying to 539 00:27:15,840 --> 00:27:18,200 Speaker 1: go on a safari. I went to South Africa in 540 00:27:18,280 --> 00:27:20,399 Speaker 1: in time to cover the World Cup, but we couldn't 541 00:27:20,400 --> 00:27:23,520 Speaker 1: really do anything because there was such tight security, and 542 00:27:23,600 --> 00:27:25,399 Speaker 1: so I want to go to Africa. I want to 543 00:27:25,440 --> 00:27:28,000 Speaker 1: see an elephant up close. I want to see a giraffe, 544 00:27:28,080 --> 00:27:30,560 Speaker 1: like come into the you know, the land crew or 545 00:27:30,600 --> 00:27:32,920 Speaker 1: whatever rover I want to I want to do that. 546 00:27:32,920 --> 00:27:34,919 Speaker 1: That's like on my bucket list of things to do. 547 00:27:35,240 --> 00:27:36,840 Speaker 1: I would like to do it as well. We have 548 00:27:36,920 --> 00:27:38,800 Speaker 1: a couple of friends that have done it. I know 549 00:27:38,880 --> 00:27:40,960 Speaker 1: Troy Aikman has done it. He was telling me about 550 00:27:41,000 --> 00:27:49,600 Speaker 1: it a little bit. I love seeing animals in there. Yeah, um, 551 00:27:49,640 --> 00:27:53,439 Speaker 1: I've I love seeing animals in their natural habitat, in 552 00:27:53,480 --> 00:27:56,840 Speaker 1: their environment. Um, and not in captivity. I'm very big 553 00:27:56,880 --> 00:27:59,960 Speaker 1: on that, but um yeah, I it would scare the 554 00:28:00,040 --> 00:28:02,359 Speaker 1: ship out of me. It's amazing. I know I'd be 555 00:28:02,359 --> 00:28:04,480 Speaker 1: crying left and right just seeing That's how I am. 556 00:28:04,520 --> 00:28:06,800 Speaker 1: When I would you would be singing the Lion King 557 00:28:06,880 --> 00:28:10,800 Speaker 1: soundtrack like every five minutes. I know, it's so good. 558 00:28:10,840 --> 00:28:12,800 Speaker 1: It would be great. I just would be. You see 559 00:28:12,840 --> 00:28:16,239 Speaker 1: these crazy as pictures if elephants charging these jeeps and 560 00:28:16,280 --> 00:28:18,879 Speaker 1: ship and I'm like, I have zero interest in getting 561 00:28:18,920 --> 00:28:21,119 Speaker 1: that close, No thank you. I'll be out there in 562 00:28:21,160 --> 00:28:23,440 Speaker 1: the fields doing snow angels and You'll be like, get 563 00:28:23,480 --> 00:28:26,240 Speaker 1: in the car. I love it. I love it all. 564 00:28:26,520 --> 00:28:29,120 Speaker 1: But yeah, I think in you know, in summary of 565 00:28:29,280 --> 00:28:33,040 Speaker 1: all this and conversation, that even though you're reluctant to 566 00:28:33,119 --> 00:28:36,280 Speaker 1: change because it's a little bit uncomfortable and you like consistency, 567 00:28:36,720 --> 00:28:40,520 Speaker 1: change also allows for something maybe not better, but just 568 00:28:40,680 --> 00:28:43,720 Speaker 1: different on the other side. And so even you know, 569 00:28:43,800 --> 00:28:46,120 Speaker 1: you being afraid to leave ESPN, look at what that 570 00:28:46,240 --> 00:28:49,160 Speaker 1: change led to. So exactly who knows what the next 571 00:28:49,280 --> 00:28:51,880 Speaker 1: chapter in your journey looks like. And I want to 572 00:28:51,880 --> 00:28:54,160 Speaker 1: give you a big hug for all the other things 573 00:28:54,160 --> 00:28:55,800 Speaker 1: that you're going through. And I'm just inspired by you. 574 00:28:55,840 --> 00:28:57,200 Speaker 1: And I know that a lot of people are thank 575 00:28:57,200 --> 00:28:59,280 Speaker 1: you for being honest about your fertility journey because I 576 00:28:59,280 --> 00:29:01,440 Speaker 1: know it's not also easy to always be like fucking a, 577 00:29:01,640 --> 00:29:04,320 Speaker 1: this is always my narrative. I'm tired of being sad. 578 00:29:04,400 --> 00:29:07,920 Speaker 1: I'm tired of being that. But everything happens in due time, 579 00:29:07,960 --> 00:29:12,720 Speaker 1: And do not worry, because worrying does not at any 580 00:29:12,760 --> 00:29:16,400 Speaker 1: time to your life. I know, I know it's gonna happen. 581 00:29:16,560 --> 00:29:18,800 Speaker 1: It's all gonna happen. And I do believe like what 582 00:29:18,920 --> 00:29:22,840 Speaker 1: I'm going through fertility wise is probably affecting my emotions 583 00:29:22,840 --> 00:29:25,000 Speaker 1: in terms of the boys leaving and things like that 584 00:29:25,120 --> 00:29:29,240 Speaker 1: and super emotional and things like that. But um, yeah, 585 00:29:29,320 --> 00:29:31,280 Speaker 1: I do know good things are going to happen. It 586 00:29:31,320 --> 00:29:34,880 Speaker 1: was funny my fertility doctor, who I absolutely adore. He 587 00:29:35,240 --> 00:29:37,280 Speaker 1: we were joking the other day if you can joke 588 00:29:37,320 --> 00:29:39,800 Speaker 1: about things, and he goes, Man, when we finally get 589 00:29:39,840 --> 00:29:43,960 Speaker 1: this done for you, I think I'm retiring because you 590 00:29:44,760 --> 00:29:46,640 Speaker 1: know what I put him through. How you know who 591 00:29:46,760 --> 00:29:50,760 Speaker 1: used the word retire, Your fertility doctor, Tom Brady didn't back. 592 00:29:50,960 --> 00:29:54,360 Speaker 1: So let's celebrate the victories. Let's fucking go. I love you, 593 00:29:54,400 --> 00:29:56,440 Speaker 1: I'm here for you, always into the listeners, and you 594 00:29:57,160 --> 00:29:59,240 Speaker 1: send us your d ms. Like Aaron mentioned, we look 595 00:29:59,280 --> 00:30:00,640 Speaker 1: at them, We see the them all and would love 596 00:30:00,680 --> 00:30:03,120 Speaker 1: to know what books you guys read to help you 597 00:30:03,160 --> 00:30:05,880 Speaker 1: guys get through things, or even if it's a meditation 598 00:30:05,880 --> 00:30:07,680 Speaker 1: app or anything like that. Aaron and I are always 599 00:30:07,680 --> 00:30:09,760 Speaker 1: down to try new things. And remember we have a 600 00:30:09,760 --> 00:30:11,240 Speaker 1: lot to be grateful for and we hope you guys 601 00:30:11,280 --> 00:30:13,120 Speaker 1: do too, And thank you for listening. We're grateful for 602 00:30:13,200 --> 00:30:18,280 Speaker 1: all of you. Calm Down with Aaron and Carissa is 603 00:30:18,320 --> 00:30:21,160 Speaker 1: a production of I Heart Radio. For more podcasts from 604 00:30:21,200 --> 00:30:24,360 Speaker 1: My Heart radio, Visit the I heart Radio app, Apple podcast, 605 00:30:24,520 --> 00:30:26,240 Speaker 1: or wherever you get your podcasts.