WEBVTT - EXCLUSIVE: Married to Medicine's Quad Webb PT. 2 0:00:00.800 --> 0:00:05.360 Hey, rain Drops. Yes, so I finally got merch. That's right. 0:00:05.880 --> 0:00:11.520 You can buy your Allegedly and my Boys mugs, T shirts, 0:00:11.800 --> 0:00:16.720 rain Drops, hoodies and T shirts all on Carlos Kingshop 0:00:17.239 --> 0:00:17.919 dot com. 0:00:18.239 --> 0:00:18.840 That's right. 0:00:19.160 --> 0:00:23.040 Get your hoodies, your T shirts, and your mugs all 0:00:23.200 --> 0:00:26.520 on Carlos Kingshop dot com. 0:00:28.840 --> 0:00:30.560 Welcome to Reality with the King. 0:00:30.960 --> 0:00:34.720 It's me Carlos King, the King of Reality TV and 0:00:34.720 --> 0:00:38.480 one of the most sought after executive producers in reality 0:00:38.560 --> 0:00:42.839 television with over ten years of production experience. Once a 0:00:42.840 --> 0:00:45.559 week on Reality with the King, we'll sit down with 0:00:45.600 --> 0:00:50.519 my friends across the entertainment industry, recap our favorite reality shows, 0:00:50.560 --> 0:00:54.480 and revisit unforgettable moments that we are still talking and 0:00:54.600 --> 0:01:08.399 tweeting about. I have never seen you appear so hurt. 0:01:08.880 --> 0:01:14.560 I mean when Saimon gave you the blow. I literally 0:01:16.080 --> 0:01:17.880 even the episode before that, I think I said this 0:01:17.880 --> 0:01:19.679 to you. I was like, I couldn't sleep that night 0:01:19.720 --> 0:01:23.240 because it felt mean, girlish, and that's ever bring y'all show. 0:01:24.040 --> 0:01:25.920 Y'all show has never been about like we're gonna ice 0:01:26.000 --> 0:01:29.480 one out. It's just never been that. So when I 0:01:29.520 --> 0:01:32.280 saw it, I was like, this seems weird and it wasn't. 0:01:33.080 --> 0:01:36.880 I felt bad for you, of course, also felt bad 0:01:36.880 --> 0:01:39.440 for the collective, like what are we doing here? And 0:01:39.440 --> 0:01:42.480 then when I saw Simon deliver the blow to you, 0:01:43.360 --> 0:01:44.680 like we don't want you here and we want you 0:01:44.720 --> 0:01:45.280 to go home? 0:01:48.000 --> 0:01:49.920 What I was. 0:01:50.000 --> 0:01:53.400 Shaking and I saw you look said, then we saw 0:01:53.440 --> 0:01:58.000 you cry when you got back to your hotel room. 0:01:58.400 --> 0:01:59.880 In that moment, though, Quade, did you. 0:02:02.720 --> 0:02:08.240 Did you feel embarrassed, hurt, disappointed? 0:02:09.480 --> 0:02:12.200 For all of the above, I hate to even go 0:02:12.280 --> 0:02:16.320 back there. It was so painful for me. I hate 0:02:16.360 --> 0:02:21.799 to even have to emotionally be in that place. But 0:02:21.960 --> 0:02:24.920 this is one of those times where it's just really, 0:02:24.960 --> 0:02:27.720 really hard. This is the part of reality TV where 0:02:27.760 --> 0:02:29.919 it's like three. 0:02:29.720 --> 0:02:34.280 Times the blow, you feel it, you watch it and 0:02:34.320 --> 0:02:35.639 again we will revisit it. 0:02:35.680 --> 0:02:40.760 Of course, at the reunion and that moment, I felt humiliated. 0:02:41.680 --> 0:02:54.680 I felt devalued, actually not valued at all. I felt hurt, disappointment, sadness. 0:02:56.520 --> 0:02:59.280 I was confused. I kept on when I went back 0:02:59.280 --> 0:03:01.360 to my room, trying to wrap my mind around, like, 0:03:01.560 --> 0:03:04.760 why did you really do something to them this bad 0:03:05.240 --> 0:03:06.760 to deserve this? 0:03:07.760 --> 0:03:13.680 Did you really do something to deserve this? Squad? 0:03:15.440 --> 0:03:18.200 And I thought back, and I replayed and I replayed 0:03:18.200 --> 0:03:22.560 things I went through all the years, and I felt like. 0:03:26.440 --> 0:03:28.519 It wasn't about an even exchange. 0:03:30.680 --> 0:03:33.840 The decision had been made way before I even went 0:03:33.880 --> 0:03:41.360 to NAPA. The decision was made way before I got 0:03:41.520 --> 0:03:48.920 on the plane. This is what you guys are gonna do, 0:03:49.040 --> 0:03:55.119 or this is what we're gonna do, and NAPA and. 0:03:56.640 --> 0:03:57.080 That's it. 0:04:00.640 --> 0:04:08.000 And it was devastated because I truly did not feel 0:04:08.200 --> 0:04:17.800 that I had earned that, that I deserved it. 0:04:19.160 --> 0:04:19.599 I didn't. 0:04:21.600 --> 0:04:25.600 I didn't, and I felt like it was just a 0:04:25.600 --> 0:04:30.560 pile up, let's all get together and let's do this 0:04:30.600 --> 0:04:35.400 to her. There was not even one voice of reason 0:04:35.800 --> 0:04:40.279 at the table, not even one, not even someone saying, 0:04:40.680 --> 0:04:41.840 hold on, wait a. 0:04:41.800 --> 0:04:46.280 Minute, let Quad respond, hold on, wait a minute. 0:04:47.480 --> 0:04:50.800 Can you hear what she's saying, Quad, and allow me 0:04:50.920 --> 0:04:56.800 to respond, and then allow me to say, this is 0:04:56.839 --> 0:05:00.680 how I feel. I feel like there's been some courtesies 0:05:00.720 --> 0:05:03.719 that's been extended to some people here that you all 0:05:03.760 --> 0:05:07.520 don't give me. There's a level of respect that some 0:05:07.600 --> 0:05:10.120 of you have that I just will never have and 0:05:10.200 --> 0:05:14.039 have not had, because if anything could be said or 0:05:14.120 --> 0:05:17.000 done to me on this show, it has been said 0:05:17.000 --> 0:05:17.680 and done. 0:05:18.120 --> 0:05:19.400 Now we all get it. 0:05:19.440 --> 0:05:21.520 And I don't want people to feel like, oh, here 0:05:21.560 --> 0:05:23.160 she has planned a victim and all of that. 0:05:23.680 --> 0:05:25.440 You know what's funny about that word is. 0:05:25.360 --> 0:05:30.840 When it's strong people, strong people are not extended the 0:05:31.600 --> 0:05:34.120 compassion and the empathy. 0:05:35.279 --> 0:05:35.720 At all. 0:05:36.160 --> 0:05:39.560 And then when we speak up and have to tell 0:05:39.600 --> 0:05:42.440 our side of the stories, Oh, now they're planning a victim. 0:05:42.960 --> 0:05:46.000 I'm not a victim. I'm just here to tell my story. 0:05:46.680 --> 0:05:49.880 I'm just trying to help you to understand. And can 0:05:49.920 --> 0:05:52.800 we meet somewhere in the middle. Well, I can take 0:05:52.839 --> 0:05:56.799 the responsibility of what I've done to you, but please 0:05:58.080 --> 0:06:00.080 take the responsibility. 0:05:59.279 --> 0:06:00.320 Of what you've done to me. 0:06:03.680 --> 0:06:05.960 And that's all that I was actually trying to say 0:06:06.320 --> 0:06:09.520 at the resurrection. I didn't even want to get into 0:06:11.000 --> 0:06:14.360 the things that have been said about me. Hell I 0:06:14.400 --> 0:06:17.720 think maybe Toya said did an interview or something with 0:06:17.760 --> 0:06:19.880 you and was like. 0:06:19.760 --> 0:06:22.680 Oh, quite as ugly and quiet is this? And quiet is. 0:06:22.720 --> 0:06:25.159 Bad without her hair and without her makeup, and you know, 0:06:25.320 --> 0:06:27.120 just carrying and carrying and carrying on. 0:06:27.200 --> 0:06:29.400 I'm like, what is all of that? What is that for? 0:06:30.040 --> 0:06:32.120 What is that about? You know? 0:06:32.160 --> 0:06:36.120 Do you do you hate me, that's fine, and I 0:06:36.160 --> 0:06:39.280 can leave you where you are if that's where you 0:06:39.320 --> 0:06:42.480 want to If you want to stood there, then you 0:06:42.520 --> 0:06:44.599 hold on it at anger, Toya. I'm not here to 0:06:44.600 --> 0:06:48.599 hold on to that anger. And I was not there 0:06:48.640 --> 0:06:53.760 in Napa. I didn't come with malice. I didn't come 0:06:53.839 --> 0:07:01.040 with cruel intent. I didn't come being mad or negative. 0:07:01.839 --> 0:07:10.440 I came with good heart posture, humble and supportive, and 0:07:10.480 --> 0:07:13.360 it was completely looked past and stepped on. 0:07:14.120 --> 0:07:22.320 So going back to the actual moment, the girl said, 0:07:22.840 --> 0:07:27.520 we're not feeling a connection with you anymore, right, and 0:07:27.960 --> 0:07:32.960 that was sad to see. But then to add insult 0:07:33.000 --> 0:07:39.480 to injury. 0:07:36.440 --> 0:07:38.040 This is it's difficult. 0:07:38.280 --> 0:07:40.400 Yeah, no, I know, I know, and I appreciate you 0:07:41.680 --> 0:07:45.320 being candid about your feelings because you know it was 0:07:45.320 --> 0:07:48.400 hard to watch. So I can imagine being the person 0:07:48.560 --> 0:07:52.000 on the receiving end of this phone call that took 0:07:52.080 --> 0:07:54.960 place where they called you back. 0:07:54.760 --> 0:07:56.960 Down to the room, and. 0:07:58.280 --> 0:08:01.800 I want to get your feelings about that, because obviously 0:08:02.760 --> 0:08:03.400 you were there. 0:08:04.360 --> 0:08:08.120 The dinner scene was a lot, but then. 0:08:08.080 --> 0:08:11.880 To get called down again, it's like in the middle 0:08:12.200 --> 0:08:15.520 of the night, and it felt like, well, bitch, you 0:08:15.600 --> 0:08:16.240 survived that. 0:08:16.200 --> 0:08:17.680 One we want to get you, we want to get 0:08:17.720 --> 0:08:19.200 you some out, you know. 0:08:20.840 --> 0:08:25.000 And they pretty much emphatically said you need to leave, 0:08:25.240 --> 0:08:27.200 like we want you gone. If you didn't, if you 0:08:27.240 --> 0:08:30.160 didn't get that at the dinner, bitch, we're telling you 0:08:30.840 --> 0:08:34.240 before you lay down, honey, and you wrapped these inches 0:08:34.800 --> 0:08:40.079 up in a bonnet and cash the first flight out 0:08:40.160 --> 0:08:44.360 that Phaedra will be not on. So when you got 0:08:44.360 --> 0:08:46.480 that phone call and you were there and you heard 0:08:46.520 --> 0:08:50.040 them say you should leave, what was that like for you? 0:08:50.320 --> 0:08:50.400 Like? 0:08:52.920 --> 0:08:58.800 It was awful. I would have never thought that I 0:08:58.840 --> 0:08:59.839 would have been treated that. 0:09:03.200 --> 0:09:04.520 I know, you know, like. 0:09:07.760 --> 0:09:12.760 We have our challenges, we have, you know, some issues 0:09:12.800 --> 0:09:16.360 that we need to address, But I never would have 0:09:16.440 --> 0:09:24.000 thought that it would have resulted into that. It felt 0:09:24.000 --> 0:09:25.920 like to me that it was almost like. 0:09:26.600 --> 0:09:33.600 We've been waiting to get your ass. It felt like. 0:09:36.320 --> 0:09:44.800 They've been waiting, just waiting for the moment, and it 0:09:44.880 --> 0:09:49.560 was very hurtful. I was really just trying to think, 0:09:49.679 --> 0:10:01.120 like no, quiet, really, go back, go back, girl, and think, 0:10:02.080 --> 0:10:04.400 have you done anything. 0:10:04.440 --> 0:10:05.400 This bad. 0:10:07.640 --> 0:10:11.840 To be treated this way? Because honestly, in our reality, 0:10:11.920 --> 0:10:16.520 we all talk about each other. It's it's just women, 0:10:16.720 --> 0:10:21.120 It's part of it. But have you done something this 0:10:21.840 --> 0:10:34.080 terrible that is unrefutable that you will be told we 0:10:34.160 --> 0:10:38.520 don't want you, we do not want you. 0:10:40.840 --> 0:10:43.679 That was her. I felt like. 0:10:45.040 --> 0:10:49.480 A piece of paper that was balled up and thrown 0:10:49.559 --> 0:10:58.640 in the trash. So if they were trying to humiliate me, bravo. 0:11:04.040 --> 0:11:04.559 You done it. 0:11:06.160 --> 0:11:11.400 I felt like it was planned. I felt like it 0:11:11.440 --> 0:11:16.040 was already premeditated. It was a plot. It was a plan, 0:11:16.120 --> 0:11:19.800 it was a scheme. It was already laid out. All 0:11:19.840 --> 0:11:23.319 they needed was for me to be there. That's how 0:11:23.360 --> 0:11:28.680 I felt. I felt like, as I said in a 0:11:28.720 --> 0:11:31.040 green screen, I was like my head was in a 0:11:31.080 --> 0:11:35.040 blender and it and it, and honestly, it really didn't 0:11:35.160 --> 0:11:39.240 stop there, Like it didn't stop when I packed my suitcase, 0:11:39.760 --> 0:11:42.800 you know, Like it was like when I got to 0:11:42.840 --> 0:11:43.680 the table. 0:11:44.040 --> 0:11:47.040 I was open, I was greeting everyone. 0:11:47.120 --> 0:11:47.360 Hey. 0:11:47.520 --> 0:11:50.320 You know, I was high energy the whole time. I 0:11:50.360 --> 0:11:54.560 had great energy. I I even coming out to the trip. 0:11:54.960 --> 0:11:57.560 I had great energy I had. 0:11:58.280 --> 0:11:59.120 I was positive. 0:12:00.280 --> 0:12:04.880 I was in a place of happiness, but knowing there 0:12:04.920 --> 0:12:08.680 were some things that needed to be worked through, and 0:12:08.720 --> 0:12:13.760 I was hoping that we could work through them. I 0:12:13.840 --> 0:12:19.319 was very optimistic going into that dinner and going out 0:12:19.360 --> 0:12:24.559 to Napa Valla to support Toya. Was extremely optimistic because 0:12:24.559 --> 0:12:32.160 if I felt like it's a no go quad, then 0:12:32.200 --> 0:12:35.680 I probably said I would have tried to speak with 0:12:35.760 --> 0:12:38.240 the higher ups and say, right now, it's probably not 0:12:38.280 --> 0:12:42.560 a good idea for me to be there. Is there 0:12:42.720 --> 0:12:48.440 anything that I can do to wait until we work 0:12:48.520 --> 0:12:54.959 some things out before I do something like support someone 0:12:54.960 --> 0:12:56.480 who I know hates me? 0:12:58.080 --> 0:13:00.280 And just some clar does she hate you because because 0:13:00.320 --> 0:13:02.440 you made accusation that she was a thief or her 0:13:02.520 --> 0:13:03.719 Eugene were thieves? 0:13:04.320 --> 0:13:05.200 What's that? 0:13:06.520 --> 0:13:08.559 I'm really happy you brought that up. I'm very happy 0:13:08.559 --> 0:13:12.360 you brought that up first and foremost. Do I think 0:13:13.040 --> 0:13:22.000 Eugene and Toya are thieves? Absolutely not. That is utterly ridiculous. 0:13:22.600 --> 0:13:24.840 I will not cut his career down like that. The 0:13:24.920 --> 0:13:26.760 man has worked hard to be where he is. He 0:13:26.920 --> 0:13:27.600 is a doctor. 0:13:28.040 --> 0:13:30.760 Absolutely not. I do not think that there are thieves. 0:13:32.440 --> 0:13:37.880 This is how that played out. Carrie Wells, who was 0:13:38.400 --> 0:13:40.280 Toya's close friend at the time. 0:13:40.320 --> 0:13:41.440 You do remember Carry. 0:13:41.240 --> 0:13:47.120 Wells because Carrie Wells and Toya in season one brought 0:13:47.200 --> 0:13:50.959 up my mugshot when Doctor G and I had the 0:13:51.040 --> 0:13:55.560 first physical situation when doctor g has a mugshot as well, 0:13:56.000 --> 0:13:57.719 may I had, I don't know. 0:13:57.760 --> 0:13:59.560 They didn't bring his up, but they was very happy 0:13:59.600 --> 0:13:59.920 to show me. 0:14:01.760 --> 0:14:07.679 However, Carrie and Toya had stayed in contact with each 0:14:07.720 --> 0:14:08.800 other throughout the years. 0:14:08.960 --> 0:14:10.400 Although Carrie was. 0:14:10.320 --> 0:14:13.800 Not on the show, her and Toya had become very, 0:14:13.880 --> 0:14:19.720 very very good friends. And Carrie came to us and 0:14:19.920 --> 0:14:25.320 said that Toya told her word for word that there 0:14:25.440 --> 0:14:31.360 was a hit out on Aneila in the neighborhood, that 0:14:31.400 --> 0:14:34.760 there was a hit out on Anila in the neighborhood, 0:14:35.720 --> 0:14:38.760 and heavily. And I like, wait a minute, you know 0:14:38.800 --> 0:14:39.400 what you're saying. 0:14:39.720 --> 0:14:40.880 And she's like, listen to me. 0:14:42.280 --> 0:14:44.640 I don't operate like that. I don't know what's going 0:14:44.680 --> 0:14:49.680 on with Toya. I'm telling you, this is when I 0:14:49.760 --> 0:14:52.040 need I had to break from Toya. 0:14:52.080 --> 0:14:53.000 This is Carrie speaking. 0:14:53.400 --> 0:14:55.480 Said that she had to break away from Toya because 0:14:55.520 --> 0:14:58.400 she did not want to be a part of it. 0:14:59.000 --> 0:15:01.720 She didn't want to know, have any affiliation with it. 0:15:02.120 --> 0:15:06.160 But she made mention to us that Toya told her 0:15:06.720 --> 0:15:09.160 that there was a hit out on Anila in a neighborhood. 0:15:10.800 --> 0:15:15.400 There was a whole situation here. Two days later, Aniela's 0:15:15.440 --> 0:15:16.840 home was robbed. 0:15:17.200 --> 0:15:18.000 Now here's the thing. 0:15:18.600 --> 0:15:23.520 Do I think for one moment that Toya and Eugene 0:15:24.360 --> 0:15:28.240 had anything to do with that. Absolutely not. I don't 0:15:28.280 --> 0:15:35.240 think it. I don't believe it. I cannot even fathom it. 0:15:35.560 --> 0:15:39.320 I'm not thinking that. You know, Toya is somewhere Jimmy 0:15:39.360 --> 0:15:43.080 and locks and Eugene is scaling walls. 0:15:46.200 --> 0:15:49.280 No, I honestly, Carlos, you're laughing. 0:15:49.840 --> 0:15:53.840 Because that's not the asking the question because we're confused, 0:15:53.880 --> 0:15:55.880 why is this big thing with you and Toya is 0:15:55.920 --> 0:15:58.760 almost like, well, is it the thief thing? Because listen, 0:15:58.800 --> 0:16:01.400 a lot of people can say it's a sassinate someone's character. 0:16:01.640 --> 0:16:05.560 But I'm laughing because it's the visual of, like, I 0:16:05.600 --> 0:16:08.840 don't see this prestigious doctor Eugene. 0:16:08.600 --> 0:16:13.320 Exactly right scaling the walls with his mask on, his 0:16:13.480 --> 0:16:16.680 black comeback boots and his black pants and his black shirt, 0:16:16.960 --> 0:16:19.640 and he got all of the double Old seven equipment 0:16:19.680 --> 0:16:22.400 and he's scaling the walls so they can break into 0:16:22.840 --> 0:16:28.320 Aniela's house. Absolutely not. I don't think that at all. 0:16:28.960 --> 0:16:31.640 When I said I'm going to stand on it, what 0:16:31.680 --> 0:16:35.440 I meant was, Toya, you need to tell us where 0:16:35.480 --> 0:16:37.080 did you hear that from. 0:16:41.360 --> 0:16:42.200 Give us more. 0:16:42.880 --> 0:16:46.800 Give this girl something where her investigators can go on, 0:16:47.280 --> 0:16:51.240 because right now they're saying, your good friend Carrie Wells 0:16:51.840 --> 0:16:56.440 is saying she heard it from you, Toya, Where did 0:16:56.600 --> 0:17:00.920 you hear it from? 0:17:00.960 --> 0:17:02.400 That's what I meant. 0:17:02.840 --> 0:17:03.080 Hmm. 0:17:04.440 --> 0:17:06.840 I don't think Toy is gonna break in anyone's house. 0:17:06.920 --> 0:17:09.480 I don't think Toy is gonna steal anything from anyone. 0:17:09.800 --> 0:17:12.399 I don't think Eugene is gonna steal or take anything 0:17:12.440 --> 0:17:13.000 from anyone. 0:17:13.200 --> 0:17:16.160 Eugene may do some other things in reference to. 0:17:17.880 --> 0:17:22.760 Like DM and Anila and saying watch heavily and quad 0:17:22.960 --> 0:17:25.040 you know this and that other, But Eugene is not 0:17:25.200 --> 0:17:28.280 scaling walls. 0:17:30.920 --> 0:17:33.040 He is not scaling walls. 0:17:33.200 --> 0:17:35.960 No, he has a scaffold try to fix people's body 0:17:36.080 --> 0:17:36.679 organ style. 0:17:39.160 --> 0:17:43.919 Eugene is an er doctor who works each extremely hard 0:17:44.800 --> 0:17:51.320 right to be a very good example for his sons. Yes, 0:17:51.600 --> 0:17:55.679 he is not scaling walls and breaking into people's homes. 0:17:56.160 --> 0:17:56.840 Well, I'm glad we. 0:17:56.800 --> 0:17:58.879 Coult that of because the whole fad with you what 0:17:58.960 --> 0:18:03.639 Toy was weird because there seemed to be this urgency 0:18:04.080 --> 0:18:05.600 removing you from the trip. 0:18:06.400 --> 0:18:08.760 And one of the things that. 0:18:08.680 --> 0:18:12.720 I was thinking about was were you punished because you 0:18:12.960 --> 0:18:18.159 missed five weeks of work on the front end? So 0:18:18.400 --> 0:18:20.359 was it like, well, bitch, you missed five weeks of 0:18:20.440 --> 0:18:22.280 work on the front end, so bitch you about to 0:18:22.280 --> 0:18:24.960 miss five weeks of work on the back end? It 0:18:25.000 --> 0:18:29.680 seemed too urgent that I'm gonna tell you where things 0:18:29.800 --> 0:18:34.600 got a little fishy when the dinner table scene didn't 0:18:34.600 --> 0:18:38.359 work and they called you down to the room, it 0:18:38.440 --> 0:18:42.480 was like, why is this urgent? And that's when my 0:18:42.560 --> 0:18:46.360 producing brain came and said, wait, is it a retaliation? 0:18:46.720 --> 0:18:47.560 Is it punishment? 0:18:47.880 --> 0:18:50.080 You missed five weeks of work on the front end, bitch, 0:18:50.080 --> 0:18:51.320 we're gonna punish you in the back end. 0:18:51.359 --> 0:18:52.200 That's what it seemed like. 0:18:52.119 --> 0:18:53.800 To me, And that's what it felt like to me. 0:18:56.560 --> 0:18:57.720 That's what it felt like to me. 0:18:59.240 --> 0:19:02.280 And I never, like I said, I have never been 0:19:02.320 --> 0:19:07.680 in a situation where it was wrong to negotiate, where 0:19:07.880 --> 0:19:14.480 one would be punished for negotiating. I am never concerned 0:19:14.520 --> 0:19:18.639 about what anyone else is making, the house that anyone 0:19:18.640 --> 0:19:22.200 else has, the cars that they drive, that's not my business. 0:19:24.000 --> 0:19:27.520 I don't tap into my friends or the girls that 0:19:27.800 --> 0:19:30.720 the group. Girls in the group, and they're my friends. 0:19:31.440 --> 0:19:33.879 People could say I could just still call them friends. 0:19:33.920 --> 0:19:40.639 You know, it's tough. It's tough, but we have had 0:19:40.800 --> 0:19:46.320 ten years together and for me, I want to be 0:19:46.720 --> 0:19:49.760 the person who's going to focus on the good times 0:19:50.240 --> 0:19:51.240 of those ten years. 0:19:52.520 --> 0:19:57.080 I'm not perfect myself. I'm really not I'm really flawed, 0:19:58.359 --> 0:20:01.280 really calling me a quad the flawed, not the fraud, 0:20:02.280 --> 0:20:03.199 but the flood, the. 0:20:05.000 --> 0:20:06.520 Exactly do you? 0:20:06.520 --> 0:20:06.919 But do you? 0:20:07.240 --> 0:20:09.600 A lot of people think you don't hold or have 0:20:09.760 --> 0:20:12.680 any accountability when it comes to think, can you say, 0:20:12.760 --> 0:20:15.040 like there's things you could have done differently? 0:20:15.200 --> 0:20:20.119 Of course I said that, Carlos, even at the table. 0:20:20.160 --> 0:20:24.240 It just fell on death for years there. Of course, every. 0:20:24.000 --> 0:20:27.359 Single day I'm striving to be a better version of 0:20:27.400 --> 0:20:30.000 who I was yesterday and the day before and the 0:20:30.080 --> 0:20:30.639 day before that. 0:20:30.920 --> 0:20:33.840 I am not perfect. I am not perfect. 0:20:33.960 --> 0:20:36.960 I have made some mistakes in this group, and I'm 0:20:37.040 --> 0:20:39.560 here to hold myself accountable. 0:20:40.280 --> 0:20:40.960 You're not perfect. 0:20:41.040 --> 0:20:44.800 You could have done a better, Quad, and I want 0:20:44.960 --> 0:20:49.400 everyone to know that. You know, there have been times 0:20:49.440 --> 0:20:53.160 where maybe I should have said some things differently right, 0:20:53.640 --> 0:21:01.240 Maybe my delivery wasn't right for that moment. And so 0:21:01.560 --> 0:21:05.480 in this time, what I've learned is to truly take 0:21:05.520 --> 0:21:12.000 a moment and put yourself in someone else's shoes. And 0:21:12.040 --> 0:21:14.000 I would hope that they would put themselves in my 0:21:14.080 --> 0:21:18.639 shoes because I can tell you what I've gone through. 0:21:18.800 --> 0:21:22.840 Maybe a lot of them couldn't. The average person probably 0:21:22.840 --> 0:21:23.320 wouldn't be. 0:21:23.320 --> 0:21:27.560 Able to sit here with you right now and have 0:21:27.720 --> 0:21:28.879 this type of conversation. 0:21:30.200 --> 0:21:30.800 What I've. 0:21:32.680 --> 0:21:40.520 Honestly wanted to hurt themselves because that's how I felt. 0:21:40.560 --> 0:21:44.119 And I'm not that type of person, you know, but 0:21:44.200 --> 0:21:50.320 I felt I felt like at the table when that 0:21:50.560 --> 0:21:52.760 wasn't enough, I felt like the girls felt like, oh, 0:21:52.760 --> 0:21:56.800 that wasn't enough. Oh she survived that we were waiting 0:21:56.840 --> 0:21:58.800 for some form of an erratic. 0:22:00.760 --> 0:22:01.240 Reaction. 0:22:02.200 --> 0:22:05.120 We wanted more of an argument or. 0:22:05.000 --> 0:22:08.879 Whatever, because if they wanted me, I felt like, if 0:22:08.880 --> 0:22:14.240 they really wanted me to hear my apology, then it 0:22:14.280 --> 0:22:17.359 would have been an open dialogue. It was never an 0:22:17.359 --> 0:22:21.400 open dialogue. It was them talking at me. And if 0:22:21.480 --> 0:22:23.639 I did not say yes to what they wanted me 0:22:23.720 --> 0:22:26.199 to say yes to, then anything else that I was 0:22:26.200 --> 0:22:32.040 saying did not matter, did not have any validity at all, 0:22:33.560 --> 0:22:35.679 And that was deflating to me. 0:22:40.600 --> 0:22:42.200 What hurt more, was it. 0:22:43.560 --> 0:22:47.119 You feeling like you were ambushed, or when it was 0:22:47.200 --> 0:22:51.520 revealed that allegedly there were conversations that the cats were 0:22:51.560 --> 0:22:57.240 privy to your contract negotiations and allegedly you said things 0:22:57.400 --> 0:23:01.600 like me and Jackie should not make the same amount 0:23:01.600 --> 0:23:05.480 of money, things like that that they were privy to 0:23:05.680 --> 0:23:07.760 some of your contract negotiations. 0:23:09.640 --> 0:23:13.800 First of all, I don't negotiate my contract. Let's start there. 0:23:14.400 --> 0:23:18.560 So for them to say I said whatever about Jackie, 0:23:20.240 --> 0:23:24.439 that's not a true statement. I am not concerned with 0:23:24.480 --> 0:23:28.119 what someone else makes from where I'm from. What you 0:23:28.200 --> 0:23:35.720 eat don't make me, you know. So that's a little 0:23:35.760 --> 0:23:38.280 bit disturbed. I feel like I don't know if someone 0:23:38.359 --> 0:23:40.560 threw that out there to get her upset with me, 0:23:41.720 --> 0:23:46.440 to make her feel like I'm thinking I'm better than her. 0:23:47.200 --> 0:23:48.560 It was said for a reason. 0:23:49.760 --> 0:23:52.680 Jackie's energy at the table was completely different from who 0:23:52.720 --> 0:23:57.200 she's been, so I don't know why that was thrown 0:23:57.240 --> 0:23:57.640 out there. 0:23:57.680 --> 0:24:00.560 But I don't negotiate my own contract. 0:24:05.280 --> 0:24:07.440 All of it is wrong and it hurts, and it's 0:24:07.480 --> 0:24:09.560 disappointing for. 0:24:09.640 --> 0:24:10.520 Someone to. 0:24:12.119 --> 0:24:16.320 From one of my castmates, to be able to openly 0:24:16.440 --> 0:24:25.399 blurt out to whomever's watching your Instagram, live or YouTube 0:24:25.560 --> 0:24:26.160 or whatever. 0:24:29.960 --> 0:24:31.879 What happened to the confidentiality? 0:24:33.119 --> 0:24:37.720 Like, I don't know, maybe I'm wrong, but you know, Carlos, 0:24:37.800 --> 0:24:40.959 you've been in this business for a number of years. 0:24:41.400 --> 0:24:44.679 You have been quite successful in this business. You have 0:24:44.760 --> 0:24:47.520 a number of shows, you deal with a number of people. 0:24:47.800 --> 0:24:49.879 You deal with networks, and you deal with your cast, 0:24:50.160 --> 0:24:53.440 you deal with your showrunners, and you deal with your crew. 0:24:55.040 --> 0:24:59.640 Do you openly discuss someone else's contract with other cast members? 0:25:02.880 --> 0:25:03.920 Because I don't know. 0:25:04.600 --> 0:25:10.240 It's it's it's it's it's a violation. And no, it's 0:25:10.280 --> 0:25:12.720 it's I mean, the reason why I'm stuttering. I can't 0:25:12.720 --> 0:25:16.639 even fathom saying, hey, so and so, it's making this. 0:25:19.200 --> 0:25:19.960 I don't I don't have. 0:25:19.880 --> 0:25:24.520 The words to express how crazy that sounds. I could 0:25:24.680 --> 0:25:28.280 never do anything like that. I don't care if it's 0:25:28.320 --> 0:25:31.080 a above the line, below the line show around his 0:25:31.160 --> 0:25:35.000 PA's cast members and I when it comes to the 0:25:35.160 --> 0:25:41.080 confidentiality of contracts, that's the only person privy to cast 0:25:41.160 --> 0:25:43.600 contracts are networks. 0:25:43.119 --> 0:25:44.600 And production companies. That's it. 0:25:44.880 --> 0:25:47.200 That's it, and it's and a lot of times it's 0:25:47.240 --> 0:25:48.080 really networks. 0:25:48.440 --> 0:25:51.920 You know, so well heavily was able to you know, 0:25:52.000 --> 0:25:54.840 and you know heavily and I have people don't it's 0:25:54.840 --> 0:25:57.439 a weird dynamic and we can talk about that or whatever, 0:25:57.520 --> 0:26:00.720 but you know it. Heavily was called me one day 0:26:00.720 --> 0:26:03.119