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Speaker 1: Hi everyone, I'm Katie Curic and welcome to next question.

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Speaker 1: Who Am I? That's considered life's most fundamental question, and

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Speaker 1: it's quickly followed by where do I come from? Sure

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Speaker 1: both are somewhat philosophical, but in the age of rampant

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Speaker 1: home DNA test kids, those questions have become something more

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Speaker 1: big business. More than twenty six million people around the

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Speaker 1: world have turned to home ancestry or DNA tests hoping

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Speaker 1: to find out who they really are. The simple test

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Speaker 1: connected her with the mom she had never met, a

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Speaker 1: reunion for a mom and her son after nearly three

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Speaker 1: decades apart. Her sisters, born fifteen months apart and adopted

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Speaker 1: at birth, never knew each other existed until these DNA

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Speaker 1: tests incredibly popular. But what happens when the news is

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Speaker 1: more than we bargained for? Disturbing results, emotional fallout, and

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Speaker 1: even privacy issues. So today my next question, what really

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Speaker 1: makes us who we are? I think our sense of

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Speaker 1: identity in the very beginning comes from the stories that

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Speaker 1: were told about ourselves from the time that we can

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Speaker 1: understand anything that's Danny Shapiro, host of Family Secrets, an

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Speaker 1: intimate podcast that explores the power of untold Stories. Danny's

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Speaker 1: also a prolific author, and the podcast was actually inspired

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Speaker 1: by her latest book, Inheritance, a memoir of genealogy, paternity,

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Speaker 1: and love. And the story that I was told was

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Speaker 1: that I was the youngest grandchild of this illustrious grandfather

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Speaker 1: and grandmother. Central to Danny's identity was her Judaism. She

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Speaker 1: spoke Hebrew and also her bond with her father, the

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Speaker 1: head of a distinguished Orthodox family, And there was this

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Speaker 1: And yet there was this sense that I had as

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Speaker 1: and I don't know why UM. And when you're a

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Speaker 1: to connect it to the instinct, I think our impulse

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Speaker 1: is to turn that against yourself. You know, there must

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Speaker 1: she looked other two. I looked like you know, Heidi

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Speaker 1: You know, it was like, really, when you looked at

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Speaker 1: was like, who doesn't belong in this picture? And it

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Speaker 1: myself that this was some sort of just strange genetic

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Speaker 1: quirk of faith that I just came out looking so

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Speaker 1: completely different. There's a moment that I write about in

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Speaker 1: an elderly or you know, a Holocaust survivor, was over

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Speaker 1: Kushner's grandmother. Um. She patted me on the head, Mrs Kushner,

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Speaker 1: and she said, we could have used you in the camp.

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Speaker 1: We could have used you in the ghetto, a little blondie.

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Speaker 1: when Danny was fifty four, she randomly decided to take

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Speaker 1: taking his own DNA test recreationally, you know, really his

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