Speaker 1: What's up, guys. This is Matt from Lost Culture Stas
Speaker 1: And as you know, we had a little bit of
Speaker 1: a special episode yesterday with me Bow and Cat and
Speaker 1: Pat called Seek Culture. That was part one and part
Speaker 1: two was about hit you right now, right across your
Speaker 1: dumb little face. So if you haven't listened to part
Speaker 1: one of Seek Culture, please listen to that episode on
Speaker 1: Seek Treatment and uh, here we go. We're about to
Speaker 1: do part two of Seek Culture right here on Lost
Speaker 1: Culture Stas. Look man, oh I see you? Why Bow
Speaker 1: and look over there? How is that culture? Yes? Goodness,
Speaker 1: We're gonna move on. So this comes from Canada. This
Speaker 1: comes from Canada. This person provided their own um. This
Speaker 1: person provided their own pseudonym. It's Canada. So this is
Speaker 1: um what they say, Hello darlings. As a forty year
Speaker 1: old woman, I'm coming to you tiny young things for
Speaker 1: advice because I'm absused. I have been working in the
Speaker 1: creative arts as a theater director for more than fifteen years,
Speaker 1: working with youth. There is a woman in the same
Speaker 1: community that used to work with me and now actively
Speaker 1: disparages me to others in our small theater. I love drama.
Speaker 1: I hear this from people that I work with, as
Speaker 1: well as thinly veiled social media post that she makes
Speaker 1: about our productions or as a person. I believe that
Speaker 1: this behavior comes from jealousy, as our shows are well
Speaker 1: attendant and quickly acclaimed. Her negative attitude towards me makes
Speaker 1: me feel nervous and I'm welcome in the theater community
Speaker 1: in our town. Despite having a lot of friends in
Speaker 1: the community and having worked with many people, I worry
Speaker 1: about her gossip spreading and it discourages me from getting
Speaker 1: involved with other projects as an actor or even continue
Speaker 1: with my own. I rise above it and continue as
Speaker 1: a creative contributor to our community. Signed I'm not good.
Speaker 1: I'm not bad. I'm just right Canada. I'm like acted
Speaker 1: to her. We love you, love you. I'm so sorry
Speaker 1: that's happening. That's so shitty. It's like this person clearly
Speaker 1: has needs so much treatment. I feel like the only
Speaker 1: thing you can do is just continue to be kind
Speaker 1: to everyone you come across, and yes, just they'll they'll
Speaker 1: see that it's not true and truly this sounds so
Speaker 1: this might sound simplistic, but it is one of those
Speaker 1: things where you just stay in your lane. My mom,
Speaker 1: for some reason always tells me, reminds me just like God,
Speaker 1: work is really stressful. I have these enemies at work,
Speaker 1: but you know what, I just stay in, Like I
Speaker 1: keep my eyes on my own paper, and I smile
Speaker 1: at them. I'm nice to them. I do everything I
Speaker 1: can to just also stand my own ground, stake my
Speaker 1: own claim on things. But like, all you can do
Speaker 1: is just ignore those fucking shitty people and also always
Speaker 1: remember that people can see that behavior, like you're not
Speaker 1: the only one who's not Like people can see that
Speaker 1: like passive aggressive and even sometimes flat out aggressive behavior
Speaker 1: on social media, and they talk about it amongst themselves,
Speaker 1: like hello whenever, like anyone's acting crazing in our community?
Speaker 1: Do we not all talk about it? Yes, takes all
Speaker 1: the fact that this person is getting ship talked on
Speaker 1: her for sure. Yeah, it's just she sounds like this
Speaker 1: person sounds like a mess. It's definitely coming from jealousy.
Speaker 1: It sounds like your shows are great, sounds sound untalented.
Speaker 1: Can I ask you guys, do you guys have haters?
Speaker 1: I have one specific hater. Really, when I said screen
Speaker 1: grabs and sent to you don't remember remember like shape
Speaker 1: treat the screen grab and You're like, no, that's intense.
Speaker 1: Oh that random person. Yeah, oh yeah, of course, I
Speaker 1: think sometimes will you talk about this sometimes, Like it's
Speaker 1: just like, it's not a hater thing. It's just like
Speaker 1: obviously an insecurity thing that we hear that we then
Speaker 1: hear about and it's funny think we won't hear about it. Yeah,
Speaker 1: or it's the people. It's yeah, it's not hate. It's
Speaker 1: just people putting certain things on us that aren't necessary,
Speaker 1: blowing off steam and maybe the maybe to the wrong person.
Speaker 1: And I get I don't forgrudge them of that. I'm
Speaker 1: only just like, wow, that's just not true. And like
Speaker 1: at a certain point, and Study says that said this
Speaker 1: to us when we when you and I were complaining
Speaker 1: about this stuff, Study was just like, at a certain point,
Speaker 1: you just have to realize that the other person is
Speaker 1: just wrong and like there's that's you just leave it
Speaker 1: at that. And that's the thing too, is with this situation,
Speaker 1: it's like all you can do is stay you're right
Speaker 1: in your lane, stay creating good stuff, and keep a
Speaker 1: positive attitude, and then you can go to sleep every
Speaker 1: night knowing that same thing. Yes, and the classic keep
Speaker 1: your side at the street clean situation. Don't let her
Speaker 1: discourage you from doing other projects. That that that really
Speaker 1: breaks my heart if that's if that's true, and you
Speaker 1: know if it is, like try to just I mean
Speaker 1: your shows are well attended, like you are a successful
Speaker 1: theater director, like just really really past on that. If anything,
Speaker 1: let it fuel your fire. Yes, that that whole person? Okay,
Speaker 1: truly yeah, C I'm telling you please email back in.
Speaker 1: Some of my closest friendships start with drama and I'll
Speaker 1: talk about you, see, yes, I mean hello, alright, So
Speaker 1: this one's from j D. I want fun name. I
Speaker 1: I loved Nana one two Simone. This this was from Simone.
Speaker 1: Simon is such a she's in a ninety Simone right one.
Speaker 1: I'm a newly graduated young professional l m F a O.
Speaker 1: So I have my first real time full job. I
Speaker 1: got dump by my college boyfriend and in my crazy
Speaker 1: post break up stage, I started sleeping with my coworker.
Speaker 1: It was supposed to be a one time thing, but
Speaker 1: it has turned into more than that. I stop too.
Speaker 1: I just got a bad haircut. It's way too short
Speaker 1: for me. I continue living now. I love all of you.
Speaker 1: Thank you. I would say there's no reason to stop
Speaker 1: sleeping with him unless it's making you feel bad. If
Speaker 1: it's fun, yeah, I don't. I don't know about co worker.
Speaker 1: I don't care about like is this right. It's like,
Speaker 1: just do whatever you want. If no, if you're not
Speaker 1: hurting anyone, that's mine. But that's how I'm very selfish
Speaker 1: and I live for whatever feels good in the moment.
Speaker 1: But it doesn't sound like it's turning in haircut, you
Speaker 1: can just kind of get on the side of the
Speaker 1: all bad haircut and just be like, you can always
Speaker 1: do something fine, then you can spin it. And looking
Speaker 1: back at my life now that it's over thirty and
Speaker 1: and with thirty, looking back at my life with thirty,
Speaker 1: I think that some of the happiest, most productive times
Speaker 1: of my life where when I had a bad haircut
Speaker 1: and then just funny how things work out. And also
Speaker 1: I think with the cowork, I think, just yeah, just
Speaker 1: keep doing it. See what happens if you, I mean,
Speaker 1: if you realize you don't want to do it, then
Speaker 1: don't do Both of you guys are like, no, I don't.
Speaker 1: I think there is like real truth to people saying
Speaker 1: like don't where you eat. I think I think because
Speaker 1: I think I think someone who's done it, I can't
Speaker 1: stop doing in an office environment. I mean like like
Speaker 1: we we we get to now like have these loose
Speaker 1: definitions of like what work is and like what work
Speaker 1: coworking space cissar okay, um, padstope and very he's going
Speaker 1: to set this one up. So but I just think
Speaker 1: every workplace is different. It depends on what your workplace is. Like.
Speaker 1: If you're if there is potential for this to end
Speaker 1: poorly and for this too, for this to like repercussing
Speaker 1: some bad way at your job, then that's a little risk.
Speaker 1: And I'm so sorry about your your college ex boyfriend. Um,
Speaker 1: but it's for the best. It's for the Yeah, it's
Speaker 1: for the best that you guys maybe aren't together. But
Speaker 1: I I just I don't know. I I think it
Speaker 1: really depends on the circumstances with the coworker. Well, it's
Speaker 1: like this, it's it was supposed to be a one
Speaker 1: time thing, but it has turned into more than that.
Speaker 1: So it's not that she's saying it's become okay, fucking more.
Speaker 1: It could even be feelings. So if it's feelings, then
Speaker 1: then negotiated like and also like you can't deny what
Speaker 1: you're feeling. And also just check in. I think it's
Speaker 1: a good check in moment because there's a reason to
Speaker 1: check in, because you work together. And it's also never
Speaker 1: beat to check in. Yeah, I've never stopped doing something,
Speaker 1: literally my whole early twenties and my actually it was
Speaker 1: all sucking my bosses and literally the last boss I
Speaker 1: had at this restaurant I worked at, I wanted to
Speaker 1: fox so bad, like, and I was like, this is
Speaker 1: a bad instinct, I think, and I think it would
Speaker 1: have been bad head I had sex with him. Ah,
Speaker 1: can we close the door? Sorry, it's insane. No, you're
Speaker 1: making hot produced good. I'm sorry, hot produced. I'm sorry. Like,
Speaker 1: the instinct to keep it open is so crazy than me.
Speaker 1: It's like the stepping over her bag. It's like the opposite.
Speaker 1: Do we have anything else for this? No? I feel
Speaker 1: like you're in a great place. It's exciting that are
Speaker 1: single and working and young and hot. I think I think,
Speaker 1: especially when you got to college, you you have to
Speaker 1: have those ship where you eat moments from them. Will
Speaker 1: it turned out? Will it be easy? Well? Will it
Speaker 1: create problems? Maybe? But isn't that what your twenties is
Speaker 1: for ye problems? Problems? Can I read one? Yeah? Okay,
Speaker 1: what's this person? Everybody? I'm going to call this person CUTI? Cutie?
Speaker 1: Matt saw his photo and truly it's just because he's
Speaker 1: blond and I don't and white. Stop it? You always
Speaker 1: do that to me. I have d colonized. I don't
Speaker 1: like what's that? What's his name? Bonds? Really? Either? Okay?
Speaker 1: Stop now this is and you cannot and if you
Speaker 1: like blonde? If every okay, guys, what's their name? Cuttest?
Speaker 1: All right? The cutie fest? How do I move to NYC?
Speaker 1: As a CUTI fest? Ask you, guys us? How do
Speaker 1: I move to NYC? As a dumb person without money? No,
Speaker 1: you're not dumb. I'm twenty two And people used to
Speaker 1: always say I have potential, but now they don't say
Speaker 1: it anymore. Weird what kind of potential? Let let's see
Speaker 1: if and then cutiefest continues? So how can I get
Speaker 1: discovered or at least make friends discovered? Also? Like, where
Speaker 1: do I live? Literally? How does New York work? I
Speaker 1: feel like New York City is at least three states
Speaker 1: big xo x new York works? Like this? Wait? I
Speaker 1: want to hear weights up. I want all of us
Speaker 1: to go around and one send to say how New
Speaker 1: York works? And so New York is, um really just
Speaker 1: like a vertical, like it's just stacks of people, and um,
Speaker 1: that is horrifying if you think about it. It's just
Speaker 1: people living on top, literally living on top of each other,
Speaker 1: and that really informs the whole sort of politics of
Speaker 1: the city and how that's people really to each other.
Speaker 1: How the infrastructure is crumbling literally as we sit here,
Speaker 1: um in an old building. So that's that's how New
Speaker 1: York works, Catherine, How does New York work? New York
Speaker 1: is emails, coffee is crugslist, New York is walking through
Speaker 1: the garbage and saying, let its know, you can't find
Speaker 1: that anywhere else New York. New York is Oh my god,
Speaker 1: it's fabric. It's now as it's music, but it's also rhythm.
Speaker 1: And you know what it isn't no no, no, no, okay.
Speaker 1: Is that helpful? I would say helpful? Street easy dot
Speaker 1: com where you find But that being said, I'm looking
Speaker 1: for the partment right now and I found So here's
Speaker 1: let me ask you what we're all going on and saying, ok,
Speaker 1: you started that one thing you're bothering, bathering my ass.
Speaker 1: I found a great place and they send me the application.
Speaker 1: I'm like, I don't know what any of this means.
Speaker 1: What's a letter of employment? I'm serious. For me, well
Speaker 1: that's your freelancer. So what I would do for you
Speaker 1: is that this is my advice to you. Your see
Speaker 1: culture is I would have Joe's Pubs. Yeah, I wasna
Speaker 1: say the exact same thing, maybe even email. Take a
Speaker 1: big whatever your biggest check is. Showed them that paste ub.
Speaker 1: You know what I mean? Like you you're your most
Speaker 1: recent largest checks, showed them those paste ubs. It's different
Speaker 1: for you because when Henry and I were looking for
Speaker 1: an apartment, he had to go to the end of
Speaker 1: the earth to prove his income and it is annoying.
Speaker 1: But you can do it, and I think it would
Speaker 1: be rather easy for you. But my voiceover stuff is
Speaker 1: what I would say. Yeah, you have the voiceover stuff,
Speaker 1: Just where do you make the most consistent money live
Speaker 1: performance voice over? You should do the voice over and
Speaker 1: you should you should literally ask just sense. Yeah, I
Speaker 1: would do that. You should do the voice over, and
Speaker 1: you should do the voice You should do the voice
Speaker 1: that's okay, well was more after thank you guys, What
Speaker 1: is New York? Now? She's addicted to me again? It's
Speaker 1: so so they make it so. Why do I need
Speaker 1: to know everything about my life to give me an apartment?
Speaker 1: It's especially the government owned building that Henry, the one
Speaker 1: that used to come to when we lived together. It
Speaker 1: was psycho to lockdown that apartment. It was a three
Speaker 1: month process. Then they took a month to even decide
Speaker 1: and they needed they needed my, Um, they needed my
Speaker 1: like w nitance. It was fucking crazy crazy at York. Um,
Speaker 1: New York is a ton of contradictions. Everyone's gay and
Speaker 1: no one's gay. There's always a place to charge your phone.
Speaker 1: There's never a place to charge your phone. It's good,
Speaker 1: it's bad. Everyone's hot, no one's hot. Everyone's obsessed with you,
Speaker 1: no one months to fuck you. Um, everyone's a comedian,
Speaker 1: nobody was funny everyone. Um, yeah, that's New York. That's
Speaker 1: so good. I love that now. New York is an
Speaker 1: epic song and the verses are all um, the versus
Speaker 1: all detailed people acting like they know exactly where they're going.
Speaker 1: And in the verses of the song that is New York,
Speaker 1: you have people who are welcoing confidently upstairs, downstairs to subways,
Speaker 1: standing in subways, sometimes even using both their hands or
Speaker 1: leaning on the subway poles, taking up space. New York
Speaker 1: is a lot of people taking up a lot of space.
Speaker 1: But guess what In the chorus of the song, it's
Speaker 1: a lot of indecision, honey, it's all a lot of
Speaker 1: just ordinary people. It just outdinary people. And guess what,
Speaker 1: So are you, baby, And listen to what I would
Speaker 1: say to you, cutfest, just do it, because the way
Speaker 1: that you moved to New York, there's no one who
Speaker 1: can ever fucking tell you. Here's how you do it,
Speaker 1: here's what to do. Get a relatively cheap apartment. You're
Speaker 1: twenty two, like, be resourceful. You're gonna have to get
Speaker 1: a job that you don't really like in the beginning,
Speaker 1: and you're probably gonna have to have that job for
Speaker 1: a little bit. That is part of the grind. What
Speaker 1: I would say to anyone that wants to move to
Speaker 1: New York City is prepared to not fucking love your
Speaker 1: life for the first three or four years. No twenties
Speaker 1: hated my life. I worked five days out of the
Speaker 1: week at a restaurant. You worked at nine to five word,
Speaker 1: I tempt at the shittiest places, and I worked at
Speaker 1: nine to five where I hated my life. I currently nanny. Yeah,
Speaker 1: and what did you do before? Like you were making
Speaker 1: money like and and wait at table day baby, I was.
Speaker 1: I was a career waiter, like we were all we
Speaker 1: all fucking hit like you know, mopped the floors and
Speaker 1: ship you know, you gotta be prepared to come here
Speaker 1: and like just do the work to build a base.
Speaker 1: And it takes longer in New York, but the rewards
Speaker 1: are really great. And I would say this town anything anything,
Speaker 1: it really can I'm serious. I get really emotional, I think,
Speaker 1: and also want more contradiction as yours. Your wildly delusive
Speaker 1: of everyone, but everyone also it is very sad to
Speaker 1: you keep your head down. It's like I'm even saying
Speaker 1: everyone else and just keep your head down and work.
Speaker 1: And then I feel like, you know, people used to
Speaker 1: tell you always have potential, but now they don't say
Speaker 1: it anymore. That's not true, I thought, I thought, I thought,
Speaker 1: sorry years old. Thought. Pat's contradiction was to me, you're
Speaker 1: wildly jealous of people, but you're also very happy for everyone,
Speaker 1: but then and everyone's very I had to say that
Speaker 1: I will say, go listen to the company's soundtrack, play
Speaker 1: another Hunter, people, and book your ticket. Bitch God, yes,
Speaker 1: come to New York. Show up places. Yeah, just just
Speaker 1: show God. Force yourself to go out, even if you
Speaker 1: feel awkward, even if you're alone. But also know that
Speaker 1: it might not Like I don't know, I did. I
Speaker 1: did those things and then it didn't work out for
Speaker 1: a long time and then I had to complain and
Speaker 1: figure out again. But it's like, um no, but I
Speaker 1: mean I like fully crashed and burned and had to
Speaker 1: be out of New York. And it's like I think
Speaker 1: that it is. I will just come to about for
Speaker 1: the fact that, like, um, sometimes it's easy to make
Speaker 1: just make the leap, then net will appear, and sometimes
Speaker 1: it doesn't and you kind of fall on your but
Speaker 1: how are you here now? Hey, that's if you will
Speaker 1: kind of allow me. Got to it. But then you
Speaker 1: come back and rework and we figure But but I'm
Speaker 1: saying even now, like I that's part of my ethos
Speaker 1: is like um is whenever I'm thinking about a big
Speaker 1: decision like this will work out, like I'll just have
Speaker 1: the hustle. It's like that that doesn't always work out.
Speaker 1: That is not um a functional place to be to
Speaker 1: think it will work out. Yeah, that's my point. Necessarily,
Speaker 1: I disagree. I always think I always manifest. I don't know.
Speaker 1: I'm always like it's gonna be Okay. I'll add, like
Speaker 1: you have to. One time, one time Brian treated and
Speaker 1: this isn't a comment on anything. One time Kate Briland treated.
Speaker 1: Did you manifest that or was it white privilege? That's
Speaker 1: also true privilege, but um, cutie face has white privilege.
Speaker 1: Ute face stop. I mean, I'm looking at it, perfecting
Speaker 1: cut And I also want that when he gets to
Speaker 1: a New York he can contact but also we can
Speaker 1: also be just be friends. Have let's have pat red
Speaker 1: their one Okay, okay, okay, let me find it. Okay,
Speaker 1: here we go, here we go, and then now create
Speaker 1: a nickname for him. Okay, no, so ok. One to
Speaker 1: three asks what subject line? The subject line is, um
Speaker 1: lal s O S do you guys say l O
Speaker 1: L or lalol? Ever since met and set the set
Speaker 1: after we did a comedy show the two days after
Speaker 1: the election, and then she just kept saying in her
Speaker 1: set L o l at these people wearing pins safety okay,
Speaker 1: and also met Whitmer Thomas fucking Love addicted. They're going
Speaker 1: to do game show New York Fun. I really want
Speaker 1: to go. You know what I was thinking when he said,
Speaker 1: like I just had this like flash, I was like, wow,
Speaker 1: Like we've been doing this a long time. There was
Speaker 1: a lot you guys. RABA needs our help, hey, folks,
Speaker 1: bigs ups, big ups for this idea. Love any therapy
Speaker 1: that doesn't dig into my crippling student debt. Okay, yes, queen,
Speaker 1: go off and say, how do y'all, How do y'all
Speaker 1: as creatives reconcile your desire for fulfillment, success, and even
Speaker 1: a certain degree of fame. We don't know what you're
Speaker 1: talking about, the fact that artistic ability is not much
Speaker 1: of a rarity these days. In other words, with so
Speaker 1: many other talented, paranthetical, and beautiful people out there with
Speaker 1: brilliant ideas, how do you find the value in your
Speaker 1: own art? Slash voice at positively you drag us rara um?
Speaker 1: Does this read as a cry for help? Question? Question
Speaker 1: mark live lave law of excamation point, keep doing what
Speaker 1: you're doing. I'm not sure I think I'm offended. I
Speaker 1: think is asking art. Art isn't easy. These look at
Speaker 1: the premise of the question is that we were not
Speaker 1: for unique unique talents. No we are. No, no, no,
Speaker 1: He's saying, how do you just keep on? I think
Speaker 1: really the root of this question is when you know
Speaker 1: that so many people around you are so talented, and like,
Speaker 1: when there is a lot of ship going on out
Speaker 1: there that is good, and now there's so many channels
Speaker 1: to put it on, how do you say the course
Speaker 1: and not get unfolding. Robert's asking this for themselves, you
Speaker 1: know what I mean. They're like, I think what I'm
Speaker 1: getting is Roberts saying, I know so many talented people.
Speaker 1: It's so easy to be seen by people nowadays with
Speaker 1: social media. But like, how do I how do you
Speaker 1: still make whatever I want to make space? So I
Speaker 1: think that's tough, I mean, but I mean that's another
Speaker 1: thing where you just do it. You can't let it.
Speaker 1: You can't let the scale of things keep you from
Speaker 1: from from putting stuff out right. Also, I read it
Speaker 1: more is with with all the with all this stuff happening,
Speaker 1: sometimes just feels like more opportunity. Sometimes it feels a competition.
Speaker 1: Sometimes it feels an opportunity. And they also think that
Speaker 1: I caught Shades and Ra's message towards us that it
Speaker 1: was like, um, like I get in these conversations with
Speaker 1: people who aren't in the field the industry that they're like,
Speaker 1: it's like people people that don't know I'm not to
Speaker 1: be like, I just have like so much respect for
Speaker 1: you kind of like pursuing pursuing your dreams, really going
Speaker 1: for it. And I'm like, I feel like I never
Speaker 1: made the decision. It's like, I feel like everyone does
Speaker 1: have an artistic ability, and so to me, part of
Speaker 1: the question is how do you want, Like why are
Speaker 1: you choosing to pursue his career if everyone has that
Speaker 1: some people are other jobs, and it's like and you
Speaker 1: trying to look at it like, well, they can do
Speaker 1: whatever they want. They could do this too, Like I don't.
Speaker 1: I never made the choice. I truly never, at any
Speaker 1: point made a choice to try and do comedy and
Speaker 1: have actively tried to quit comedy many times, and and
Speaker 1: so it's just like, um, I don't know why I'm
Speaker 1: doing it and they're not, but it's their choice to
Speaker 1: do it or not. Like I didn't make you do marketing,
Speaker 1: you know what I mean? Like whatever addicted you? I think,
Speaker 1: I think you're like, Um, I don't know, because I
Speaker 1: I just try and I just try and not think
Speaker 1: about I just try so hard down to compare myself
Speaker 1: to the people and just have a psychotic amount of confidence. Um,
Speaker 1: even when the world tells me you shouldn't be that confident,
Speaker 1: which happens all the time. Can I say something that
Speaker 1: really helps me? Because I sometimes do fall victims to
Speaker 1: the thing of compare just and then you despair when
Speaker 1: you see someone else like that's really shining, Like embrace that.
Speaker 1: Like if you see like that, there's like a video
Speaker 1: that someone wants to share, maybe share it, maybe like
Speaker 1: give it a like, maybe tell someone you liked it. Honestly,
Speaker 1: that thing that you're afraid of, which is someone else's success,
Speaker 1: you'd be surprised how much you can actually be a
Speaker 1: part of that, you know what I mean. And that's contagious.
Speaker 1: I think that when you go out of your way
Speaker 1: and you do you celebrate someone else, it only pays
Speaker 1: off good dividends for you. So this thing that you're
Speaker 1: afraid of or that maybe isn't iimidating to you, which
Speaker 1: is like other people starting to pop or like you
Speaker 1: know this thing, it's really it doesn't exist and it's
Speaker 1: not taking anything from you. And in fact, like you
Speaker 1: can choose and opt into being positive. And I think
Speaker 1: that that reverberates in a really good way. Good energy
Speaker 1: is a real thing, you know what helps me And
Speaker 1: it sounds like it's unrelated. I have found that it
Speaker 1: helps to have like some internal physical anchor in you.
Speaker 1: And this sounds crazy, Okay, So I've been meditating and
Speaker 1: then one of the guided things for like compare like
Speaker 1: for like something to listen to, like before you go
Speaker 1: into like a creative setting or something, is like they
Speaker 1: tell you to like find like a point of focus
Speaker 1: in your body and you just rest your focus on that.
Speaker 1: But for me, literally it's from my groin. I feel
Speaker 1: like I just like anchor. I do a kegle basically,
Speaker 1: but it's a mental cagle where I just like as
Speaker 1: soon as I happened to that, like everything else falls
Speaker 1: into place, and like I'm on and like I might
Speaker 1: make me horny. I think I'd have to drugle. No no, no, no, no,
Speaker 1: it like it really like as soon as I like,
Speaker 1: like I anchor myself into my own body. It's something
Speaker 1: that like no one else can take away from you.
Speaker 1: It's like it's something that's only about you. It's like
Speaker 1: not about your extenuating circumstances, like find that in yourself,
Speaker 1: whether it's from whether you're going to perform from from
Speaker 1: your groin or from your shoulder or whatever the funck
Speaker 1: find add to that, I also think that you just
Speaker 1: has to keep going back to like I'm doing this
Speaker 1: because at the end of the day, I want to
Speaker 1: do this and I want to create something meaningful to
Speaker 1: me and like um, and yeah, I think that the
Speaker 1: question about motives and like fame and career and stuff
Speaker 1: like I've recent like Trulli in the last month, gotten
Speaker 1: to this place where it's not um, I don't feel
Speaker 1: a need to chase that anymore. I think it's like
Speaker 1: even just doing the pod, like having a small, little,
Speaker 1: a small broaden of my scope, like um of people
Speaker 1: I'm reaching, Like, um, it's a huge it's a huge deal.
Speaker 1: It's it's it was a jump from where I was
Speaker 1: before the POD, and I was like, oh, this is
Speaker 1: like what I wanted, like having people know who I
Speaker 1: am more. And then even that small thing, I was like, oh,
Speaker 1: I actually like, I don't necessarily like or want this.
Speaker 1: I just thought I didn't. Yeah, and then I'm like, well,
Speaker 1: I'm not doing it for that. While I'm doing I'm like, oh,
Speaker 1: because I like to try to make people laugh. That's
Speaker 1: really what it is. And I've had the same realization
Speaker 1: it's never been Actually I thought it was about like
Speaker 1: fame and attention, and that's been like annoying to deal with.
Speaker 1: But really, like, even as like our audience has grown,
Speaker 1: I've still had this thing, which is like, how am
Speaker 1: I going to creatively like fulfill myself? And that's how
Speaker 1: you're That's when you know you're a true creative is
Speaker 1: it's like you're still craving something. So this thing of
Speaker 1: other people, it's not necessarily about them. Just celebrate them
Speaker 1: and find what's gonna like make you better. And I
Speaker 1: was just gonna say one of the like most interesting
Speaker 1: things I've felt the past few years meeting people in
Speaker 1: the biz, I feel like the most successful people I've
Speaker 1: met are the most complimentary to other people. They're the nicest.
Speaker 1: It's like crazy when someone who I think it's so
Speaker 1: successful and talented like says something nice to me, I'm like,
Speaker 1: you did not have to do that. I think that's
Speaker 1: why people, some people like that get to work so much,
Speaker 1: because there's such a delight and they bring this good
Speaker 1: vibe and they're they're really happy for other people. And I, yeah,
Speaker 1: I've been trying a lot more lately to really, like,
Speaker 1: especially younger comedians, to like, you know, give them opportunities
Speaker 1: and be like, yeah, totally, I can't wait. I really
Speaker 1: want to because I can help other people. That's been
Speaker 1: so different thing about like I don't think so honey,
Speaker 1: is knowing that, like, yes, that's fun to be a
Speaker 1: part of. It's like, you know, we give a lot
Speaker 1: of people like not even opportunity. You know, I don't
Speaker 1: giving them that, but it's like, you know, it's cool
Speaker 1: to know that it's a place where so many people
Speaker 1: can get it there and say they're feelings. It's really
Speaker 1: we have a good question right here. Okay, who's it from?
Speaker 1: This is from? Okay, Johnny, Johnny pass the left of
Speaker 1: it makes me? Here we go, hey, Cat, Pat, Matt
Speaker 1: and Bowen? Is it weird to listen to both of
Speaker 1: your pods religiously? If I'm straight? Okay, I'm horny? Oh
Speaker 1: my god, never mind. Also, if I'm in high school,
Speaker 1: I'm no longer horny. Even when Catherine is coming to Chicago,
Speaker 1: I can't go because I'm not over love both pods. Mike,
Speaker 1: I think you are, Oh ship, that's his name, Johnny.
Speaker 1: I think we all when we do you wish? Do
Speaker 1: you think we all knew whose name was? Mike? Okay?
Speaker 1: John I want to say, I think you're evolved, your
Speaker 1: ahead of your time or an ally, you're doing important work.
Speaker 1: You'll be twenty one soon, you can come hang out
Speaker 1: all the fun shows. Um, I think you are. Yeah,
Speaker 1: you're ahead of your time, and I thank you. You
Speaker 1: get it and then you get to know that you
Speaker 1: get it and not everyone else. And I love people
Speaker 1: like Johnny because it's like when you find when you
Speaker 1: find a straight who just like he gets it, it's
Speaker 1: you know, like I had a long chat last night
Speaker 1: with and you will shout him out Martin Nirvana, a
Speaker 1: rare straight who just like completely gets it, and it's
Speaker 1: so fucking funny. I die every time I see him,
Speaker 1: and like the stage friends are good and then just
Speaker 1: chatting with it, I was like, you're you're a diamond
Speaker 1: in that you're a straight man that you can actually
Speaker 1: talk to and he's so he and Kelsey are so sweet. Yeah,
Speaker 1: they're great, And I just think like, yeah, I think
Speaker 1: it's faking great that that you're straight and you're like
Speaker 1: these pods, and also that's cool that you're in high school.
Speaker 1: I think you're obviously developing into an extremely cool person
Speaker 1: and get a fake idea and see Catherine, And I
Speaker 1: think depending on where my clothes that could be important
Speaker 1: to people in high school for there to be straight
Speaker 1: people that I think it's so important that there's I
Speaker 1: mean sorry, I think it's so important for them to
Speaker 1: be straight people in high schools all around America that
Speaker 1: listening to our podcast. Although here's my thing with the
Speaker 1: straits that let that get it. I'm often so attractive,
Speaker 1: so horny for them, and then I get angry, Wait,
Speaker 1: who is your straight? Who is the Who are other
Speaker 1: straights who got it? In the commune? Tim Platt, Matt Grossman,
Speaker 1: Bryan Heaney, Oh in our community? Yeah, Tim Platt, he
Speaker 1: gets it. And everyone that's been on Game Show gets it.
Speaker 1: Brian and Nick big at it. That was so fun.
Speaker 1: I know we were on their night. It was truly, truly, truly,
Speaker 1: and I gotta do another one, and then I got
Speaker 1: to judge Straits pageant and it was Brian and Nick
Speaker 1: were there, and Brian made it to the finals, and
Speaker 1: I wanted so and I wanted I was like, I
Speaker 1: felt like a judge at the end, being like being like,
Speaker 1: I watched your whole straight pageant journey and I'm so
Speaker 1: pleased the next pageant. Literally, Catherine, I made like a
Speaker 1: list of like my guest the judges that I wanted
Speaker 1: the next straight pageant. It's on a Wednesday. What did
Speaker 1: janus so sad sa when I couldn't come to the
Speaker 1: last one. I know, I just got triggered. I just
Speaker 1: got because you know when you go skiing and there
Speaker 1: is they give you a lift ticket and has the
Speaker 1: date on it one how it's on February and for
Speaker 1: an entire and I just left it on my jacket
Speaker 1: and for like an entire winter. This this kind of
Speaker 1: like bully hid would it come up to me and
Speaker 1: flip it and like February are yeah? Crazy? And I
Speaker 1: know that was January. Put me back in that place. Okay,
Speaker 1: I'm sorry. We can hit that out if you want.
Speaker 1: Do you know in high school of my guy friends,
Speaker 1: this thing where you would they would flip our boobs
Speaker 1: and go flip the burger and we thought it was
Speaker 1: funny and we left. Isn't that we have a question
Speaker 1: that's sort of seek Treatment centric? But I also think
Speaker 1: because Boonen and I have been on a Seek Treatment pod,
Speaker 1: we can it's it's forever one for everyone everyone, So well,
Speaker 1: go ahead, Okay, what's this person's name? Jo Joo definitely
Speaker 1: doing that kind of J exclamation J very much. Jo
Speaker 1: Jocko Joco asks what qualities are you looking for in
Speaker 1: your crush of the Week selection? They my dick move. Um.
Speaker 1: I think it's a it's like it's like a thing
Speaker 1: of Um, what depends because sometimes we do kind of
Speaker 1: kind of you a little cop out one, or it's
Speaker 1: like someone we just want to celebrate, and sometimes we
Speaker 1: do like someone I'm watching TV and like something really
Speaker 1: turned like I was my most recent crush of the
Speaker 1: week as Aita as Ambross from Sabrina the Teenage where
Speaker 1: it either you watch it, the New New Adventures, The
Speaker 1: New Adventures, you know, the t g I f ABC
Speaker 1: Melissa Joan Harten vehicle. My crush of the Week was
Speaker 1: from that project, and ultimate crush of the Week is
Speaker 1: Harvey though from the originality I know, yeah, no, I know.
Speaker 1: He never was someone who who ignited my loins. I
Speaker 1: was much more of like um, Steve from Full House.
Speaker 1: It's my kind of but I get, I get what
Speaker 1: you're qualities. But so it's like so it's like Ambrose's
Speaker 1: Sabrina's cousin, and like he's British and like, um, he's
Speaker 1: chopped in the house and he is gay and is
Speaker 1: like hooking and he's like cooking up with this guy
Speaker 1: and like you don't and he's like just sitting in
Speaker 1: his room. They had this like flirtation and then and
Speaker 1: the guys in the far areas you can tell. And
Speaker 1: then like he's kind of like the other guy. And
Speaker 1: then like Ambross is sitting in his room and this
Speaker 1: like silk robe and the guy just shows up in
Speaker 1: his room and they just like start hooking up and
Speaker 1: it's like exciting, exciting. I'm looking for excitement and a crushes.
Speaker 1: You're looking for excite, something excites me. Speaking of British, Katherine,
Speaker 1: did you hook up with any British? Oh my god, really,
Speaker 1: it's so jealous. Oh my god, I've never hooked up
Speaker 1: with the British. She held up her She held up
Speaker 1: at number with how many again wow in British. Really no,
Speaker 1: just just for the just for the moment, but no
Speaker 1: Els l baby L was fleeting. I was beautiful, l lns, blonde,
Speaker 1: Catherine inequalities that you look for. So we've got dick
Speaker 1: move excitement. For me, it's about it's an eminous surprise.
Speaker 1: I like and if I like, if I see a
Speaker 1: picture of you and I don't feel anything, and then
Speaker 1: I meet you and I'm like, oh shit, like that
Speaker 1: that confidence that we have, that chemistry with someone. Like
Speaker 1: I remember meeting someone at a show once and I
Speaker 1: didn't I was like not, I was like not thinking
Speaker 1: about crushes. I was like thinking. I turned and we
Speaker 1: made eye contact and I was just like oh some things. Yeah.
Speaker 1: And then when like you're sort of like drawn to someone,
Speaker 1: you have to keep talking to them. Oh my god,
Speaker 1: I'm the horniest one in America right now. Yeah, I
Speaker 1: have to say. I it's an intangible thing for me,
Speaker 1: like and I'm kind of missing it right now, Like
Speaker 1: I don't have like I mean, I have that one
Speaker 1: person that I like think about a lot, which is toxic,
Speaker 1: but I'm missing like a crush like I'm I really
Speaker 1: like I don't know, I just missed that feeling of
Speaker 1: like liking someone in that way. I'm coming out of
Speaker 1: a very deep, obsessive crush that, um, I'm coming at
Speaker 1: a catel. It's ending and I'm excited. It's I'll have
Speaker 1: some Do you feel like you're getting over it or
Speaker 1: you're like you're letting it go. I think I'm letting
Speaker 1: it go. I think that I was just I just
Speaker 1: I texted to Cathy the other day. I've reached the
Speaker 1: point of I've reached the point of the obsession where
Speaker 1: I don't even I can't even keep check up if
Speaker 1: I like the person or not. It's not about that,
Speaker 1: And um, it's been pretty intense. Yeah, it's been really intense.
Speaker 1: It's it's been one of my most intense ones. And
Speaker 1: it's I think that I think that I'm just letting
Speaker 1: it play out however it will, and I'm like a
Speaker 1: piece with it. I have one loose end of where
Speaker 1: I discussed it too much on a podcast and I'm
Speaker 1: hoping they can edit things out, but we need the
Speaker 1: producers working all hands on. I texted the team and
Speaker 1: I said, this is an all hands on duck situation,
Speaker 1: can't clear your week, cancel your obligations? Speaking to do
Speaker 1: that with thirty still is homosexuality. We have another question.
Speaker 1: I feel like we answered that, but what was your crush?
Speaker 1: What do you look for? Oh? Next? Also it's would
Speaker 1: I think we should just point for transparency's sake. Often
Speaker 1: won't say your actual crushes as right? I mean, come on,
Speaker 1: let's do two more? Um hi, big fan? Oh this
Speaker 1: person is um asks Hi, big fan? Also, could you
Speaker 1: please tell Patty Harrison and Loria La Ramirez to release
Speaker 1: more a woman's smile? Please? Thanks, We'll tell them, We'll
Speaker 1: tell them. Question. I'm mad at that one, but my
Speaker 1: friends my question why from question? I am a gay
Speaker 1: that hates anal sex topping the whole thing. What do
Speaker 1: I do? It doesn't necessarily turn me off. I can
Speaker 1: do either fine, I just don't really get anything from it.
Speaker 1: Everything else is great. Sometimes I feel like a fake
Speaker 1: gay because of it. Tell me what to do? Let
Speaker 1: me have to You are not allowed we have to
Speaker 1: talk about this, but I have gone through. I've taken
Speaker 1: a turn in my journey. Um, because you both kind
Speaker 1: of expressed to me that you didn't love a grew.
Speaker 1: I used to be so secretly closet anti anal um,
Speaker 1: and I was like, it's so messy, it's gross, like
Speaker 1: just and blah blah blah blah blah. And then at
Speaker 1: a certain point, I don't know if this is like
Speaker 1: politically to like controversial to say there's some there's some
Speaker 1: level of like there's some level of like internalized homophobia there,
Speaker 1: and there's some thin level of it where you're like,
Speaker 1: what I do with my sex is disgusting for me.
Speaker 1: It just hurts, and it hurts. But here's my talking
Speaker 1: exclusively and here's my turn. Um gotten. Some guys they
Speaker 1: there's such a thing as a trainer dildo. I bought
Speaker 1: and it's changed everything. Trainer Dilda, I got a trainer Delda.
Speaker 1: I got a good lube. Just go to your look,
Speaker 1: go to a local sex shop. Trainer dildo, good lube,
Speaker 1: and poppers And like I said, I just clock clock
Speaker 1: on my computer, stick it up my ass, do poppers.
Speaker 1: And then I get and then I'm like, oh wait,
Speaker 1: this is I'm meant to this. And now I'm like
Speaker 1: kind of ramping up to like being intangled, but but
Speaker 1: nothing I want more than to enjoy getting fucked. I look,
Speaker 1: it looks so funny. And the guys that like it,
Speaker 1: they say it's like being on a wild ride. Yeah.
Speaker 1: But what I will also say, though, is I think
Speaker 1: I think we're just This question doesn't read to me
Speaker 1: as h no, no, not that it doesn't read to
Speaker 1: me as um, bottoming being painful. It reads to me
Speaker 1: as a conceptual kind of oh yeah, disconnectedness to anal
Speaker 1: sex as a practice. But but what I will say is, um,
Speaker 1: I think that's fine. I think that I'm in a
Speaker 1: place right now with thirty where where like, um, I
Speaker 1: think that's fine. You don't have to like anything. And
Speaker 1: I think that maybe you'll have to find someone who
Speaker 1: likes the ship that you like. But everyone, you know,
Speaker 1: I'm in this place where I'm talking to someone and
Speaker 1: they were like a total bottom and I generally would
Speaker 1: probably be that too, but like but they were like, yeah,
Speaker 1: I were like this guy, but he's ver us. I
Speaker 1: need a total top, you know what it's like. And
Speaker 1: I'm like, well, if you find someone you really like,
Speaker 1: you'll figure out how to get each other off. And
Speaker 1: if they like you back, and they really it's like,
Speaker 1: don't worry about to cooking up I think it can
Speaker 1: become warped your brains how important it is and how
Speaker 1: important these roles are and like, um, how important, like
Speaker 1: what the kind of brass tacks of what we do
Speaker 1: is and like ultimately, like if you find someone that
Speaker 1: you really like, and even if you like different things,
Speaker 1: but you really like each other, you will figure out
Speaker 1: a way to make each other come. And like don't
Speaker 1: overthink it. You know, your sex is your sex, And
Speaker 1: I think, like, don't ever think that you have to
Speaker 1: do like what's important that ship is crazy, Like I
Speaker 1: could never you can't physically do what they do because
Speaker 1: they're also like nothing, they're professionals. They do that they live.
Speaker 1: They have to be able to perform that way. And
Speaker 1: that's sort of like fantasy sex world. And also I
Speaker 1: think sometimes it's like something they have enhancements that they're
Speaker 1: able to do the things that they do. But also
Speaker 1: this trainer Dould, I'm going to have to highly recommend it,
Speaker 1: but you don't have to have You also don't have
Speaker 1: to have anal sex. You don't have to partake in it. Um.
Speaker 1: For me, it's just if you if you are in
Speaker 1: a place um grew, if you that you want to
Speaker 1: arrive at that and enjoying it, then I would recommend
Speaker 1: if you're if you're open to bottoming more, just doing that,
Speaker 1: then the trainer DELDO has leveled me up to the
Speaker 1: actual deld that for the longest time. Yeah, it sounds
Speaker 1: like he doesn't even just like it. It sounds like
Speaker 1: glue Um has come, has top has bottomed, and it's like,
Speaker 1: I don't really care. It's not my thing. Yes, no,
Speaker 1: And I know I get that, and I get that.
Speaker 1: I get that about glue Um. My thing is sometimes
Speaker 1: with the anal sex thing is like, because I don't
Speaker 1: like the way that we have literal intracourse, I sometimes
Speaker 1: get sad that I will never be able to experience
Speaker 1: true sexual connection. And I'm just like that makes me
Speaker 1: very wait because because you don't think because I don't want,
Speaker 1: because I don't, I don't know, Like it's it's it's
Speaker 1: like a weird thing where I'm like, am I missing
Speaker 1: out on I've had sex with a woman and it
Speaker 1: was not connected. Yeah, I think there's been there's been
Speaker 1: things that aren't full penetration that are so much more
Speaker 1: intimate pleasurable than like, so I mean it doesn't matter.
Speaker 1: I mean I'm just thinking of the people I sucked,
Speaker 1: know how deeply disconnected? Okay, so one more and this one.
Speaker 1: This was a simple fun one. So um, what's this
Speaker 1: person's name? Oh, Barbara Gina Barbara's as Gina Barbara's has
Speaker 1: asked well says, my favorite thing to do in the
Speaker 1: world is to go to the movies by myself and
Speaker 1: Nari sushi and then have a little cry over the
Speaker 1: end credits. I even did this during TAG. Not my
Speaker 1: finest hour, but I guess a more functional adult human
Speaker 1: would seek out other people and try to convince them
Speaker 1: beyond my person nod into my body. How do I
Speaker 1: switch modes from socially anxious and fond of snacks too
Speaker 1: slightly less likely to never need a plus one invite
Speaker 1: to a formal social events like she's putting crush on herself.
Speaker 1: Solitary Gene Barbara's as Gene Barbara's evolved, We're all working
Speaker 1: towards being okay with our solitary. What I will say
Speaker 1: JBZ is that I'm someone who swings back and forth
Speaker 1: Gina Barbara's as. I'm someone who swings back and forth
Speaker 1: in a pendulum between someone who who isolates very much
Speaker 1: and like, well, well, we'll not we will not respond
Speaker 1: to emails about hanging out and will not make any
Speaker 1: plans to be alone for an extended poo of time.
Speaker 1: And then sometimes I'm central place where I get done
Speaker 1: what I have to do for the day, and it
Speaker 1: would be nice to sleep, but I can't just go
Speaker 1: home and be myself. I have to be around people.
Speaker 1: And then and then there's that compulsion and I kind
Speaker 1: of go back and with me those two things, and
Speaker 1: I think neither one of them is better than the other.
Speaker 1: But like a balance is healthy and like if but
Speaker 1: this sounds like a uh self care thing that you
Speaker 1: do once in a while and it's fine, it's fine.
Speaker 1: I just think it's like you don't want to always
Speaker 1: be alone, maybe, but you don't have to always be
Speaker 1: with people. Being invited to events is one so overrated.
Speaker 1: I don't get invited to ship. Also, whenever I do
Speaker 1: get invited to ship, oftentimes you go to events and
Speaker 1: speaking people is like, it's not enjoyable. I've been going
Speaker 1: the last three movies I've seen Anyone alone to Alam
Speaker 1: the Drafthouse. I think movies should be seen alone. I'm
Speaker 1: gonna don't want to see happy that they do alone
Speaker 1: with me? Is it not yet? I just had a preview.
Speaker 1: I think happy that they was so good. I want
Speaker 1: to watch. It's really like movie, Catherine. It's not the
Speaker 1: idea I do, but I don't. It's honestly not that
Speaker 1: they came me up at night, but I like them.
Speaker 1: It honestly is not that scary. It really is more
Speaker 1: of it. It's really more of a think piece. And um,
Speaker 1: it's a vibe for you because it's at AIG it's
Speaker 1: a college college, which is even more fun because it's
Speaker 1: rarer and it's it's rarer and June, um. But for that,
Speaker 1: they was so good and I think that they too
Speaker 1: will be so good. Well, um, j June. Barbara's is
Speaker 1: as I think you. It's can Katherine's completely right, your revolved.
Speaker 1: Let me just finish this, um And I was going
Speaker 1: to okay, no, you literally cut it in. Stop you.
Speaker 1: Cavin's right, you were so evolved for being for finding
Speaker 1: this comfort like sushi and a cry at the end
Speaker 1: credits sounds so perfect. You are really getting to the
Speaker 1: emotional honest of who you are on a regular basis,
Speaker 1: and you know what what triggers it and I think
Speaker 1: you have nothing to do. You don't need to do anything.
Speaker 1: You have nothing to change June. Jabba isn't June a thing?
Speaker 1: J June means like um, like really like basic, basically simplistic,
Speaker 1: like so you were using you brought that word into
Speaker 1: my life at the annoyance June about your old boss
Speaker 1: annoyance pot WERENAE never told me about June. Well we don't.
Speaker 1: We weren't close friends about He kept that from it.
Speaker 1: He wasn't ready to share that part of his life
Speaker 1: with me. And I hope one day you're ready. Okay,
Speaker 1: were you gonna say? I can connect Gina Barbara's as
Speaker 1: our last question back to one of our first questions,
Speaker 1: my on to get off again kind of sister, I
Speaker 1: kind of fight with e C. What was the name?
Speaker 1: You see? But I think that was the start of
Speaker 1: the episode. I think thematically you can connect to two
Speaker 1: questions because Gina Barbara's as feels so much guilt doing
Speaker 1: things she wants to do alone. That's why we get
Speaker 1: to this place where we need our partners to like
Speaker 1: the same things as USO, because we can't just do
Speaker 1: the things ourselves. We need to have our person that
Speaker 1: we're dating. We can go as two people, but on
Speaker 1: some level you do want to share those things on
Speaker 1: some level, on some level it is it adds meaning
Speaker 1: to the relationship, and I understand that. But there's no requirement,
Speaker 1: like what the compulsion as long as the compulsion doesn't
Speaker 1: consume all of it. Thank you? Can I just say
Speaker 1: I saw one more question that's really good, and then
Speaker 1: we can we can, right, this person asks, and this
Speaker 1: person is named this person this person. Is it bad
Speaker 1: that I want someone who's done me wrong to suffer? Oh? No,
Speaker 1: not at all. No, But I think think it's wrong.
Speaker 1: I think it's I think it will ultimately make you sadders.
Speaker 1: I just don't want everyone to suffer. I want every
Speaker 1: single person. Besides, I just think that everything it's so hard,
Speaker 1: Everything is so hard, and everyone's everyone's inst level. Everyone.
Speaker 1: You can't live in a place where negativity. You just can't.
Speaker 1: You're right, You're right to quote the series finale of
Speaker 1: Hbos Girls, everyone's an emotional pain. Yeah, go ahead, You're
Speaker 1: going to sit in the seeling and it's going to
Speaker 1: hurt you. Girl drinking boys and helping other person dies.
Speaker 1: But also I get I'm saying this intellectually, but I
Speaker 1: fully do this every yaday. We all trap ourselves in
Speaker 1: that thought. But you're right, you guys, you guys, are
Speaker 1: you guys are teaching me compassion? And thank you because
Speaker 1: I came in hot, like yes, it's fine to do it.
Speaker 1: And actually, none of these mikes have been on this
Speaker 1: whole time. This has all been a forest to teach bo. Yes,
Speaker 1: thank you, Um, this has been seek I don't know.
Speaker 1: I think it has to be an event. It must
Speaker 1: do you want to It's like a wrap up where
Speaker 1: I like, like a garden are you mad at me?
Speaker 1: Or like are you mad? And then and then we'll
Speaker 1: all do one. I don't think it's any at the
Speaker 1: same time, alright, okay, if you're holding my hands like
Speaker 1: which by what I said, if you're holding me, what
Speaker 1: I meant was, can you guys who wants to go?
Speaker 1: I want to say when we all yes, it's I'm
Speaker 1: happening here. I honestly, I think this is like a
Speaker 1: very vulnerable and nice episode. And I think it's good
Speaker 1: that we can all talk about our diseases with each other.
Speaker 1: And I'm open to um. I'm always open to all
Speaker 1: of your critiques that I trust your opinions. I feel
Speaker 1: the exact same way. Are we doing? Are you? Are
Speaker 1: you mad at me? I don't know? That wasn't really one?
Speaker 1: Can I see that? Can I know something I was?
Speaker 1: I was reporting Bowen's hand is so warm, Pat's hands.
Speaker 1: Are you feeling this at all? Are you feeling this? Yes?
Speaker 1: For I'm like a pizza. I'm got pizza cooking for me.
Speaker 1: Cathain's hands room tamp and Matt's hand is a little warm.
Speaker 1: Matt's hand is warm. So the hottest person name is Bonn.
Speaker 1: Then that that made them? That's it bad? And that tap?
Speaker 1: Who are you? Okay? So Pat, I'm not mad at you.
Speaker 1: I feel like we still haven't hung out, I know,
Speaker 1: even though we spent truly most of making got back
Speaker 1: from Britiship love all. There's so much to talk about.
Speaker 1: We've also been in the company of others I know,
Speaker 1: which is good, which is fine, but we keep having
Speaker 1: one on ones where there's another person there, so definitely
Speaker 1: sex the one on one, Okay, I'm not. I was like, actually,
Speaker 1: there's like, where's Matt been? Like, I haven't seen you
Speaker 1: in a while. I'm and you seem really good. I'm
Speaker 1: the last time I saw you, you were and now
Speaker 1: you're great and bo like everything. It's such a such
Speaker 1: a treat to see you, such a treat. You seem
Speaker 1: so good. And the last time I saw you was
Speaker 1: the car ride. And I'm glad things are are good.
Speaker 1: Since I'm glad things are with you. I'm not mad
Speaker 1: at you, and I'm I'm so in awe of all
Speaker 1: you do and I'm sorry that you were distressed. No,
Speaker 1: you came in. Thank you, UM, I love thank you
Speaker 1: for saying that. UM, I love you very much for
Speaker 1: saying it's an old catch phrase, thank you, thank you
Speaker 1: for saying about that. I do remember, Cat. I love
Speaker 1: you so much. I'm so happy to see you. I'm
Speaker 1: so happy that British was such a good trip, um.
Speaker 1: And all the success that you've you've been experiencing lately
Speaker 1: so deserved, and I'm so thrilled. UM. Not mad at you, Cat.
Speaker 1: I'm sorry if there was a little bit of aggression today,
Speaker 1: But that's that is our that is your that is
Speaker 1: your tenor with all three of us, and then that
Speaker 1: it is beautiful because you know what, at the end
Speaker 1: of the day, all three of us love you. And
Speaker 1: I'm not mad at you, but I'm always willing to
Speaker 1: exchange candor with you, even if it means that some
Speaker 1: barbs are are barbed. Um, Matt, I feel like this
Speaker 1: is the same thing where that Katherine was saying about Pat.
Speaker 1: I feel like I haven't seen you in so long
Speaker 1: we will we literally have not. I I miss you
Speaker 1: every day. I love you so much, and I broke
Speaker 1: my heart that I wasn't able to come down and
Speaker 1: think so Honey in New York last week stepped in,
Speaker 1: thank you so much, and you have so much. I
Speaker 1: love you so much. I'm not mad at you, but
Speaker 1: are you at me? You couldn't you go? Now it's
Speaker 1: my turn to go, not mad at you at all,
Speaker 1: only overjoyed to see you. I'm happy that you had
Speaker 1: um a good, nice piece in the show last year.
Speaker 1: And um, I have a lot to tell you about
Speaker 1: l about l Well. I was gonna say, also, yes, sorry.
Speaker 1: My last thing is you look great. You. I feel
Speaker 1: a difference. I feel a change. There's definitely a change.
Speaker 1: And it's almost like there's such a change where I
Speaker 1: couldn't possibly be mad. And even if I was, and
Speaker 1: I'll say this like my spirits were truly lifted. This morning,
Speaker 1: and I am only on two hours of sleep I
Speaker 1: can believe. So it's crazy. Catherine literally not mad at
Speaker 1: you at all, only overjoyed to see you and gotta
Speaker 1: say like, like we will have to carve out some
Speaker 1: time maybe for one on one time for us, because
Speaker 1: I sometimes feel that that has the monopoly. What about
Speaker 1: odd Fox? I would love I would love Odd Fox,
Speaker 1: but we just need to go at one time because
Speaker 1: often no, because often times I'll see like it'll be
Speaker 1: crazy because and this is not jealousy, this is just
Speaker 1: a foam a moment where literally it feels like Cat
Speaker 1: and Pat always are together and Bow and Young do
Speaker 1: to the nature of his schedule, cannot always be available
Speaker 1: to me. And sometimes I'm like, I feel I look
Speaker 1: at you guys whatever this well, the thing is you
Speaker 1: also have friends at your Yeah, I just got okay,
Speaker 1: so and then just to go around the room. So Catherine,
Speaker 1: absolutely not mad, Pat not mad, not mad at all,
Speaker 1: Always a joy to see you. Always make me laugh,
Speaker 1: and I love this, this moment of all four of
Speaker 1: us being together. I think that if I was mad,
Speaker 1: it would be like that you had to go to
Speaker 1: the bathroom that other time. But it's only because I
Speaker 1: wanted you in the room the whole time. Okay, I'm
Speaker 1: a little bit mad that while I'm talking to you,
Speaker 1: you decided to do a duck face while Hopper I
Speaker 1: takes a picture. I wonder, I wonder if you heard
Speaker 1: the last So I guess now it's Pat's turns' going
Speaker 1: to my toolbag and take out duct face every time
Speaker 1: there's a camera. And that's okay. If we haven't we
Speaker 1: invented that. We all you have to use the same
Speaker 1: old wheel. Okay, find your groin. I feel something You're special.
Speaker 1: Find it works. I'm finding my grain. And then do
Speaker 1: you feel something emanated out? You feel something like energy
Speaker 1: emanating out from your groin. My daughter's name will be
Speaker 1: my groin. I don't feel my son. My son named
Speaker 1: Chris and Mike and Chris and Mike. I want to
Speaker 1: be gay. I want to be straight. Famously, it's a
Speaker 1: real culture number sixteen. All Chris is our gay straight Pat.
Speaker 1: I'm going okay, Catherine, Yeah, I'm not mad at you
Speaker 1: at all, but no, it's no. But I miss I know,
Speaker 1: I don't know why we were in this place. We
Speaker 1: keep hanging up, but we keep missing. I would like
Speaker 1: when we were at club coming I was, I was
Speaker 1: with you and no, um no, I just I think
Speaker 1: it's like we're getting Um not mad at you. I
Speaker 1: think this whole thing has been so special. I know.
Speaker 1: I think we have this extra level of safety from
Speaker 1: our special and it's going to become an from Lady
Speaker 1: Mom's restaurant. Who I just saw it did the show
Speaker 1: in l A. She went last. She was a closing number. Okay,
Speaker 1: here's the thing. Every single I don't think so, honey,
Speaker 1: I forget because you know this, we have to present
Speaker 1: for every single one and then it's like a total
Speaker 1: until I have to like put so much energy into
Speaker 1: listening to every single one so that I forget them.
Speaker 1: But um, she she I remember hers, she literally did.
Speaker 1: I don't think so, honey. The fact that I'm the
Speaker 1: closer of this event. Um and Uncle b s J
Speaker 1: was there too, anyway, Okay, now go back, and I'm
Speaker 1: not mad at you, and I have to say this
Speaker 1: is the both of you. I have a new foundress
Speaker 1: fact for what you guys do. I don't think the
Speaker 1: only live because when I was sitting I was like
Speaker 1: there were so many points where I was like, oh
Speaker 1: my God, like I can't believe I'm still on stage.
Speaker 1: I'm so hard. I'm so tired. Sometimes Matt would say
Speaker 1: things and I would just look at him and not respond,
Speaker 1: like I can't do this one. I'm sorry, like and
Speaker 1: I would just like say another thing, and I was like,
Speaker 1: but it's so hard, that's sorry. I'm on all the time.
Speaker 1: It was I got and then I got off and
Speaker 1: I was so tired, and I was like, I can't
Speaker 1: believe they do this regularly. It's so difficult. Um, but
Speaker 1: I'm not mad, not at all. I do enjoy your
Speaker 1: kind of tip for tatt mouse spander, Tom and Jerry Beach.
Speaker 1: I don't know who's the cat and who's the mouse,
Speaker 1: but um, but yes, definitely there was a little bar
Speaker 1: when you just let me finish, because I definitely feel
Speaker 1: like there's a narrative that gets constructed that I talked
Speaker 1: too much. And I was like, okay, you're definitely kind
Speaker 1: of adding a brick to that house. But it's a
Speaker 1: note that I need and I know what I thought today,
Speaker 1: but so connected to you, and I felt like scorpio sisters,
Speaker 1: we have similar diseases, were bonded through that our struggles.
Speaker 1: I started different, but similar are different strains of disease.
Speaker 1: I can have my kids to hear this up. None Chris,
Speaker 1: who is going to live on for two hours and
Speaker 1: four doors, just jerking themselves off on a table. Addicted
Speaker 1: Matt Roger could never be mad in the mill. I
Speaker 1: was so thankful when you asked me to do I
Speaker 1: don't think so. Did we have such a fun time,
Speaker 1: such a fun time. It was so fun special and
Speaker 1: talk about giving an opportunity because I got new fans
Speaker 1: at night, Yes, absolutely, and their friends. What's the different?
Speaker 1: It opened the door to kind of smoking a cigarette,
Speaker 1: no hands, It's one of our talents. I think it
Speaker 1: opened the door and we decided that we are going
Speaker 1: to do a show together. Yes, the incredible chat pat
Speaker 1: the incredible that I know, also saying that one bone
Speaker 1: my Matt and Cat have their one on one. Yeah,
Speaker 1: and I gonna have one on but then ends. I
Speaker 1: want to say that when Patent have their show catam Bow,
Speaker 1: catam Bow and the great show, and that we sometimes
Speaker 1: collaborate because of the Cabernet chops. Whenever you need me, yes,
Speaker 1: and He'll be opening for me my little show and
Speaker 1: I will. I'm always there. I'm sad that you're going
Speaker 1: to be gone gone in fab and March. Well, aren't
Speaker 1: you also going to be We're gonna be an We're
Speaker 1: gonna But then who's going to do the show? Now,
Speaker 1: I'm mean, sorry, who's going to do the show? And
Speaker 1: you'll find someone they'll be but your number one? Okay,
Speaker 1: so the final bit, let's le raise hands. Here's what
Speaker 1: I think we should do. I think we should each
Speaker 1: do a fifteen second I don't think so, and that'll
Speaker 1: be one minute, all right, okay, okay, so okay, so,
Speaker 1: um god, I have one one. I don't have one.
Speaker 1: I don't have one. But here we go. Um, I'll start,
Speaker 1: and then Pat goes, and then Katherine will go and
Speaker 1: then close. Okay, this is Matt's I don't think so, honey,
Speaker 1: times It's okay, I don't think so, honey. Welcome to Marrowin.
Speaker 1: What the fun is it? Seriously? Trailer is so unclear,
Speaker 1: Steve Carrell, It's maybe not always just a good idea
Speaker 1: to do a drama just because you get a scrimp
Speaker 1: that is a drama, is it? Barbies? I have no
Speaker 1: fucking idea. What's happening? Literally, Janemo, n I'm so happy
Speaker 1: for your Grammy nomination. I don't think I wanted to
Speaker 1: live in seconds. I don't think so honey, hybrow culture,
Speaker 1: it's pretentious. I'm so sick of people trying to make
Speaker 1: themselves better than other people by like assigning more value
Speaker 1: to but they like them when other people like. I
Speaker 1: think that everything is a construct, especially taste, and I
Speaker 1: think that there's no value in any taste. I don't
Speaker 1: think so honey. Meeting a stupid bitch ordering food and
Speaker 1: I have to keep myself awake to receive my food.
Speaker 1: You drunk, horror? Why do you need Indian food at
Speaker 1: two am? You dumb? A salute? I don't think, so, honey.
Speaker 1: Mean buying a pack of cigarettes last week, finally smoking,
Speaker 1: finishing it. But also I've bumped it to a lot
Speaker 1: of people, and this is the last one I will
Speaker 1: ever smoke. I will never buy another package. Segrets ever
Speaker 1: again and point in my body and truly I have
Speaker 1: one body and it is the one body I have
Speaker 1: to live in this life. Wow, you guys, we maybe
Speaker 1: we'll do more if you want to. Fine. This has
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